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Blade Steaks Marinated W/jalapeno Chiles&cilantro
2 pounds pork blade steak, 3/4 inch thick (about 6 chops)
Adobo seasoning with cumin (to taste)
Juice from 3 limes
2 jalapeño chiles, stemmed, seeded and minced
1/4 cup chopped cilantro
Sprinkle adobo seasoning onto both sides of pork.
Combine juice, chiles and cilantro in large resealable plastic bag Add seasoned pork and seal bag. Marinate in refrigerator 30 minutes.
Remove pork from bag; discard marinade. Grill pork over medium-hot coals 5 to 6 minutes on each side or until barely pink in center. DO NOT OVERCOOK.
Fat: 8 grams
Cholesterol: 60 milligrams
Protein: 17 grams
Sodium: 45 milligrams
Saturated Fat: 3 grams
Sharpening my knife, I look at the hostages around me. They sit almost as if they were indifferent to the dead guards among them.
It wasn't my plan to do anything but rob the bank. I was trained heavily on knives and had the teller plenty scared with my speed and precision as I flashed the knife to her throat. Things had been going well.
One security guard always has to be a cowboy.
This always spurs the other guards to join in. Bullets can't touch me. I am way too fast. In the hopeless attempt they made as I stabbed the first guard in the heart, two customers were shot by their bullets as they missed their mark.
That's their fault.
Slitting two throats and disemboweling the final guard, I find myself on the business end of a very sticky situation. There are cops outside and I have killed some of the "hostages". It's possible that they will see the guards as a risk they took by taking the job. If that's the case, they won't be breaking in here to take me out.
A blade so sharp
A blade so cold
A blade so sharp
Only you can control
It feels so good
when it cuts so deep
the scars they will heal
the wounds you will keep
You make this cut
deep into the skin
you try not to think
of what you will win
you try and you try
but you just can't stop
you try and you try
but you don't want to stop
You make this cut
you know it will scar
but you know it will heal
but the wound will go far
Blade To Paradise
She runs the blade,
Slowly down her veins.
Lightly tracing over,
Each and everyone.
Trying to decide,
Which one she should pierce first.
Looking for the one,
That most abundant.
The one that will,
Satisfy her taste for pain.
Finding the one,
That will suite her needs.
She applies pressure,
And watches in awe.
Slowly the blood,
Begins to trickle.
She scrutinize the path,
The blood chooces to take.
Asking herself why,
It had taken that route.
She dig the blade deeper,
Savoring each moment.
With the dominion of each motion.
She begans to laugh,
Unable to compose herself.
As the pain deep within her,
slowly dwindles away.
And the blood,
Begans to flow freely.
Blade Under Your Throat
Blade Under Your Throat
There are demons in my mind
They still whisper to me
"You must do it, You must do it"
"Do it now, You have kill"
Need is very unbreakable
Hand is touching knife
I know that I'm mad
But nature is unperfect
And I'm her defect
Look at you and feel your fear
I'm possessed, I'm insane
I'm possessed, I'm insane
Lust rising inside
Deep in my mind
Blade under your throat
Seducing me, obsessing me
Look at you and feel your fear
I'm possessed, I'm insane
I'm possessed, I'm insane
Blade! under! your throat!
God is in my cold blade!
His mercy six feet under!
Bloody proof fill on your throat!
There are demons in my mind
They still whisper to me
"You must do it, You must do it"
"Do it now, You have kill"
Need is very unbreakable
Hand is touching knife
Look at you and feel your fear
I'm possessed, I'm insane
I'm possessed, I'm insane
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WELL IM HOME SAFE AND SOUND.. IN MY OWN BED.. CUDDLE WITH MY FAVORITE PILLOW.. HEHE..
I STILL HURT LIKE A BITCH.. AND PEE LIKE A RACE HORSE LOL..
BUT THE SURGERY WAS GREAT THEY SAID.. SO.. WE WELL WAIT AND C... MUAH
Blag Blah Blah Another Survey
do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
do you ever steal the shampoos and soaps from hotel rooms?
have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room before?
have you ever stolen a street sign before?
do you ever pee in the shower?
do you like to use post-it notes?
do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
would u rather be attacked by a big bear or a big swarm of bees?
niether... but either way, Randy would protect me! lolz.. at least i hope so
dont you hate it when people have sex with their socks on?
do you always smile for pictures?
have you ever take pictures of yourself naked? be honest.
what is your biggest pet peeve?
when someone calls me "sweetie", "sweatheart", "hon" and other things leik that
do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
um... tucked in
do you ever count your steps when you walk?
have you ever peed in the woods?
have you e
I feel like ca-ca do-do. Which isn't good folks. My potassium was apparently low, so I couldn't keep anything down for 2-3 days. Not, saying I couldn't skip a few DOZEN meals. Puking the pounds away isn't my idea of a good time yo.
Feeling better now, have to have my INR checked tomorrow, if I feel like it. I hate going. Twice a week I get blood drawn. Yay!
Anyway... boys are dumb... throw knives at them!
Sharp ones at private parts!
Blag Blag Blag...too Much Wine
I realize these things are not well read, which is probably why i am whining here. You see, I have had too much to drink, and it has been raining for days straight now,which probably has much to do with why I am feeling so melancholy.
On to the point...Why is it, that we always want the things we cannot have? Is it merely because we cannot have them? Or do we have an actual need for them? The things that we already have, take a back seat in a sense and seem much less important than the things we want.
So...if we were to lose something we had, that seemed un-important while we were so busy wanting something else...would we in turn forget about what we had origially wanted, and turn our wants to our previous dis-regards?
Just a bit of mental vomit for all who read to ponder...I suppose it is human nature to always want for something, whether or not you can have it...and obviously the reason we want things so much sometimes, is simply because it is un-attainable.
Blagh This One Sux
Lost in my own soul
Never to be found
Held backinside these walls
Was loving the one thing
That means the world to me
In a snap of my fingers its gone
Is compared to
Losing your name
In your memory
All good and bad
Times are turned
Into distant memories
Toughness cant even
Over come this feeling
I sit upon my roof,
And stare up to the stars.
I glance toward the moon,
And I see an old man cry.
I sit upon my roof,
Watching the headlights of cars
That drive along the highway.
I sing a somber tune
Of the pain I felt today,
As I listen to an old man cry.
I sit upon my roof,
Rubbing on my arm these old scars.
And I stare up at the moon,
With this man who is my friend.
And will be with me til the end.
And tonight, with this man, I cry.
The sky is blue on good days of the week,
Days when sitting around, laughing at clouds.
Time withers slowly, as the day moves on.
Happy with friends, the pictures we take.
Time will live on, in the memories we make.
I see a dissonant look in your eyes.
I question the words you say.
Are tehy true or are they lies?
Do you still feel the same way,
I feel like shit today. I cant believe how tired I am. Well that is nothing new. I have to get my boy ready for school maybe the toddler will stay sleepin and I can go back to sleep. hehe!!! ya right. well nothing new in my world. Keep heads up and a smile on your face.. Much luv sandra
ok so how come nobody on my list as even remotely said congrats.... i mena my son is about 3 weeks old now and i posted that he was born the monday after he was.... and so far nothin... not on congrats.. a few pic comments on him but thats about it.... maybe a total of 10 ratings on his pics....... but oh well..... i had the same problem of a list of people on myspace.... that never really said crap to me...... now them people are missin form that list..... id hate to weed this lsit down as well.... myspace went form 3000 to about 60... this ones under 50.... and one would think that when people post about 10 bullitons a day they might take the time to say hey to ya... but i guess not
lalala my first blog and i have nothing to say :)
Im bored and I need some entertainment like now.......:)
So, my digi cam broke, but I borrowed my sisters while Amanda was visiting, this week. So, fun new pics right? WRONG, wtf is wrong with my computer? It won't let me upload any pictures :( Boo. You suck. (Not you. i love you!
i will probally never use this thing unless ppl actually read it
What do I feel like rambling about today? Lol. Lets see, crush is a jerk, check. I'm just frustrated right now, but I'm happy because it's cloudy today, yay. That's about all for my ramblings today, I'm sure that I will have more, I just don't know when. The stress is starting to build though, I have 5 days to come up with 800 bucks or I'll probably be kicked out of my apartment. We'll see.
You all probably think im insane because i write messages to my heart. But whatever im use to it :)
Im not gonna trust no one no more.
And its your job to make sure i listen this time.
Love me < /3
Blah is all I have to say, I have been doing school work since I got off at 12:15 and I am getting tired. I just hope that all this hard work pays off and I can finally get into nursing school. I try so hard but it always seems like there is someone better than me out there so I just have one thing to say to everyone who thinks they are better than me or someone of a lower class....BLAH
Hey ya'll..Im just sit'n here with nothing betta to do, so thought id write a lil suttin suttin.
Last night i decided to change myself.. well, not change.. but just be real, be myself.. dont try to please these nigga's & juss be what i wonna.. stop worryin bout *ish!! Yakno?? So i've obviously given up on ...we will call him 3... definitly have! Why sit around & wait for him to want me again when i can be out enjoyin life like he is.. He been thru so many girls since us ne ways.. so what the heck i care ne more for?! I DONT!!
Im also given up on these lame ass people who i dont needa be sweatin.. Ya'll kno who ya'll are.. not that none of um have a LC.. but they definitly kno who they is.
Thats bout it..
Well sence this is my first Blog on here I think I will write a little bit than mabye leave ya wiht a poem but yeah I got dumped reasently and its ok Im not mad at him he did what he thought was right for him its ok too cuz I still love him even though he wanted a little time we still talk everyday and all that but its kool so I decided to write this poem for him
this is my creation plz dont rip it off thank you
play the game
>>>take the chance
>>>>>spin the wheel
>>> roll the dice
>take a card
play the game
>>>pick ur piece
>>>>>find where you start
>>>whats the rules
play the game
>>>you can lie
>>>>you can cheat
>>win or lose
you played the game
>>>play it alone
>>>>or in a pair
>>>or with a group
>>jsut remember to play
play the game
>>>you cant quit
>>>>you cant go back
>>>>once you start
>>>your in it till the end
you played the game
>>> now look back
All my friends but like 2 are male.
And i dont mean just on here.
I mean in life pretty much.
Like ashleigh and tanya are seriously the only chicks i talk to. I dont even talk to my mother.
Odd i know.
But ive come to realize lately that like. Most of the males i talk to. Like "like" me or are in love with me and shit. And its hard cause it leaves me with pretty much no one =/.
Ive got val! Can't forget her. But shes busy with her move and stuff. So ugh. I guess the purpose of this blog is. Maybe i need to make more female friends.
But they dont seem to like me much. Cause they get jealous of me really fast and stuff so ugh.
blah, blah blah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah
emm rate and comment my pics instead of readin this jibberish
Woot. They put blogs on here. Nice. This is interesting. I never keep up with blogs, but what the hell. figured I'd post atleast one entry.
I feel like crap today.
Im not so much tired anymore but im just bleh.
And im bored out of my mind.
My brothers are driving me insane.
And its only 1:00!
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I feel like I am heavily broken right now and I dont know why. I was so happy yesterday. I slept all day today. I need to sleep more. I can't keep going on like an hour of sleep a day. It's killing me. Im just so tired. I just feel so sad. :((
I feel like I am heavily broken right now and I dont know why. I was so happy yesterday. I slept all day today. I need to sleep more. I can't keep going on like an hour of sleep a day. It's killing me. Im just so tired. I just feel so sad. :((
Blah!! My Feelings...
I often sit and think how is it that your 26 and do not have a man? hmm good question..but here is the ideal answer i have come up with..it is the simple fact that i am looking to hard and that i am very independent and i really dont need a man to love me, i love myself and i have all the love a girl could ask for. I liked this boy at work, went all out to impress him, but you might as well shot his ass in the head lol cuz he didnt have one damn clue that i was doing this..well i emailed him and pretty much said i liked him but in not so many words. well today he should have said bite me and get a life lol but he didnt he just sat there and asked me if i felt i was alone, i should try making friends.. i laughed and turned around and looked at him and said..I am not alone..i dont need love from a man to make me feel like im somebody..All my life i wanted to be wanted, to be needed and i got that when my two nieces were born..they are my world. yes it would be nice to have a boyfriend to
I might be a Little sparse this week...I bombed a chem test, andc I fear I bombed a few more, which is uncharacteristic of me (then again I did have a test EVERYDAY last week),
So I'm going to be putting in some HUGE study hours this week, but i will be on as often as I can during study breaks.
So leave me some love, pretty comments, funny pictures, all that jazz...
love you guys *muahs*
i hate rude people who make crude comments.
and i hate it when people request to be friends without even sending a message first.
that is totally rude.
i don't mind getting comments, but would like them from friends.
i think it's rude to try to become friends when you aren't.
don't just add me or become my fan.
talk to me.
if you are just trying to get friends, go to myspace. that place has become a friends competition.
Blah Part 2?
ugh i swear this week is going by sooooo sloooow i want to go back home so i can get crunked with my wifey Maym!! lmmfao wha was it Maym "Crunk-a-thon 2006"? ha so yea im ready to go home and get my drink on with my peeps and go to our bar and leave there with PJ and Patrick carryin us out!but until then i sit home here in ATL sober as hell and hating it!!!!! I thought i was getting fat again jus come to find out it was bloating from my period! like yallz wanted to hear dat! ha! but tell mii why mii and my sister were sittin in the room and i was puttin pantyhose on my head like jack black did in "Saving Silverman" talkin bout where? and the legs were flyin around....then i put these socks on that fit like gloves over ur tooties and my sister was crackin up i said im wearin one of my pajama pants pants with the frogs on em and those socks with my flip flops and walkin her up to the door tomorrow mornin when i drop them off @ school LoL I will take the pix of the socks so yallz kno wha
I hate being sick.
I bitch to much lmao.
And ash is making me stay up all night
stalker cough stalker
JODIE I LOVERS YOUUUUUUUU
kthnx. < 3
Today is just one of them days ya know. Not a good day not a bad day. I guess it could be a good day I went and spent some time with a friend today and watched a movie. No biggie just something to kill the time while the munchkins are at school. I really don't have a whole lot to say right now because I can't think of anything. Surprising as that may be. Considering. I guess I could ramble on for a bit...but then you guys might all think I am weird which those of you that know me already know I am a bit odd. lol Two words to prove that one ...Shampoo Bottle. Nuff said!
Hopefully the week gets better and hopefully anyone that reads this has a great week!
Blah Blah Blah *cries*
im just using this blog to post the lyrics to a damn good song. Keeshawn~ you know this song. we talked about it today and i've been listening to it all night.
it fully explains everything right now. GO DOWNLOAD IT!! Read the lyrics and listen to the song.
Artist: James Blunt
Album: Back To Bedlam
Title: Tears And Rain
How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between H
Another boring ass day in STL the Cards lost again(im a Mets fan so who cares) Have to work Saturday woohoo gonna be a long boring weekend.
So i get this call tonight. From a friend. That this guy they were hanging out with was drunk, but his sister got in the car with him anyway right. Well So He tells me that they got into an accident. And she died on the scene, so yeah im pretty upset.
Point of my story, dont let friends, sisters or WHATEVER, endangerthemselves with drunks. Jesus.
Ugh now i gotta see if i can go to Florida for the funeral.
Poor Fucking Me...
I've been 18 since the 4th of July, I haven't been to a single club,bar,or whatever since then and my first chance of going out to one, I don't get to go ,because I'm grounded. Who the fuck gets grounded when their 18? Anyway, my friend just turned 18 this week and she's going out, I get to hang out with her at her cook out but then my mom is going to come pick me up and bring me home to do nothing. I took off work today to just to go out.. IT SUCKS MAJOR FUCKING SUCK! just because I lied about where I was on one day. I could be doing drugs,I could be knocked up ,but no cause I lied about where I was I can't do something ,even though I'm 18 and I can legally do whatever I fucking want. Damn.. Can't wait to move in two years...
Im an idiot.
Plan and simple.
Someone kick me.
Blah, Blah, Blah.
Just For FunBasicsName/Nicname?:Brandy Age?:24 Male/Female?:Female Straight/Gay/Bi?:Mostly Straight Single/Taken?:Single Eye Color?:green-blue Hair Color?:Blondish Right now Nationality?:White Girl (German and Czech) 1st thoughts waking up?:I wanna go back to sleep Bedtime?:Sometime after midnight, depending if I have taken sleeping pills to deal with my insomnia Last time you......Had sex?:Months ago Masturbated (DONT lie!)?:hehe. Yesterday. Faked it?:A few times Gave Oral?:Months Ago Received Oral?:Months Ago Used a toy/toys?:Never Had sex w/more than 1 partner at a time?:When I was 18 Took naughty pics?:No Comment Had a one night stand?:A couple months ago Had sex in a public place?:LIke 3 years ago Have you ever...Cheated?:No. Been cheated on?:yes Fell in love?:absloutely Been dumped?:abslutely Slept w/ someone you met online?:haha. Yup. Been w/someone of the same sex?:Not sex, no. But other things Had a "fuck buddy"?:Yep.
if sick of workin all the fuckin time but neways im sick n that sux 2 grrr...
another fucking day in paradise lost...all good though, got my writing space set up, new desk, old comfy chair dug my papers outa storage...gotta get my stuff out there again and get some more published. my goal is to have X number if stories published and then do a collection and then a novel. Can i do it?? i think so. I've creeped people out including editors with my stuff...nothing blatent, its the subtle psychological stuff that gets ya...thats what I like. Unless I blow a gasket and go on a killing spree...if ya can't be famous then go for infamous...
sorry haven't talked to you guys inforever, been working alot, and my comp is all messed up so i am having issues getting on this site but miss ya all....
Life is okay this way though.
Blah is exactly how I feel...
I'm going home for the weekend...unfortunately it's been a particularly emotionally rough week.
Which is going to get worse tonight. I think I'm breaking up with my boyfriend...all we have done lately is argue argue argue, and I can't take it any more. I mean I love him, I do, but he nags everything I do while I'm at my university for the week, he always gets mad at things I say and he keeps making me choose between him and school, and any one who knows me well knows I am devoted to my love, but first most, to my school.
He and I have never been like this, and I refuse to let us go on... So I think it's time for a break, and once we can be good again we'll try again...until then...sex deprivation for me...grr
Oh wells, wish me the best,wish me luck, hope that he takes it well...and that I cry only a little.
I love you guys
guess what... i'm so bored... lol
Well he finally went to court in Gashouse and well his mom lawyer worked for him as well.. and guess what
He only got 10 month min 12 month max and he was one more month on his violating probation so i figure if hes good He'll be here by oct or nov of next year.. and we just might run up to mi just to get away from all the bad stuff and bad fucked up people here.
I really do want to run as far and as fast as we possibly can.Even if its not to mi i just dont want to be here where Drug's are so easy to find.. and easy to get if you know the right people... You can get it for free..
And besides that... I want to have a life together and i know life here wont be easy seeing as its gunna be hard finding a place here and him finding a job will be hard too.
Well today is our 11 month anniversary... When he getting out it'll be our 2 year anniversary.. And we still will be talking and dating.,
Hopefully they move him closer to here.. I mean yeah hes in Gashouse right now bu
Just got home.
Im beyond tired.
Like im ready to just collapse.
I feel like shit.
I look like deathe.
But today was pretty awesome.
Kims my lovah < 3
Have you Ever...?
Played Spin the Bottle?: yeah fun fun
Toilet Paper someone's house: No
Played Poker with money: Yes
Gone swimming in a white T-shirt: Yeah
been tickled so hard you couldn't talk: Yes
like someone but never told them: Yes
went camping: yeah
had a crush on your broher's friend: Yeah
walk in the rain without an umbrella: sure
told a joke that NObody thought was funny: Yes
been in a talent show: yes
started laughing at someone's bedtime: Yeah
worn somthing your mom didn't appove of: Yeah
been to a nude beach: Ew No
drank jack daniels: Hell Yeah
cursed in a church: I've Never been in a church
been called a slut for kissing someone: Yupppp
burnt yourslef with a curling iron/straightner: All the time
wanted to be a police officer: No but i'd do one
dumped someone: yes
been hit on by someone too old: yes
wanted to be a model: Hell no , i like to eat
bought lottery tickets: once
made out in a car: yeah
cried during a movie: ya
I seem to have gotten a case of the blahs. Nothing seems to be able to cheer me up or lighten my mood. I'm irritable but really don't have enough energy to care. I feel really bad about myself and I can't give anyone a reason why. I just don't want to be me anymore.
I have days were my self esteem is so low I just don't want to get up. I don't want to look in a mirror and see me. No this has nothing to do with anyone at all. I just can't shake it.
Well I'm going to head out.
Tooth is gone. Dentist was an ass. Lets hope this starts getting better now.
Tired, lonely, and trapped...what more is there to say?
Blahh Blahh Blahh
Ok so here goes...
Here has been my day so far...
was supposed to meet a friend for coffee this morning before I went job hunting .... well that didn't happen. (btw I wish you the best if you are reading this, it is hard but will get better!Call me anytime day or night I gave you the number for that reason! )
But I stopped in at the truckstop for some gas and.. I ran into a girl that works there and she asked what I was up to ... told her job hunting - and low and behold the manager is behind her and says come on back I will interview ya now.. lol
So I spent from about 8:30 this morn til about 11:30 talking to this guy..taking tests.. and listening to the whole spill about the company.
He hands me a stack of papers and tells me where to go for the drug test..I will tell ya all about that experience in a minute. so if he doesn't change his mind between now and then I have a job!!
At a truckstop!!! What a hoot... for all those that know me.. you know why that is so f
Blah Blah Bah
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In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: yeah
02. Bought something: yep
04. Sang: Yeah
05. Eaten: Yes
06. Been kissed: nope.
07. Felt stupid: Yeah.
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: Nope
09. Met someone new: yeah sort of
10. Moved on: kind of
11. Talk to an ex: no
12. Missed an ex: Not even close.
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes
14. Had a serious talk: Yeah.
15. Missed someone: YES!
16. Hugged someone: nope
17. Fought with your parents: yeah
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: umm kind of
01. Best girl friend: Lorin
02. Best guy friend: is there such a thing
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nope
04. If no, current dating partner: N/A
05. Hobbies: Parties, hanging out with people, having fun in general
06. Pager: no
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: sometimes both
08. What type automobile do you drive: toyota rav 4
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: a sweet car
10. Would you
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So far in 06....
1.Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships?
2. Have you had your birthday?
3. Been to church?
nope, but then again I am wiccan....
4. Cried recently?
I cry all the time, I have this disease called bi polar....
6. Pulled an all nighter?
not this year
7. Drank Starbucks?
mmmm. yup. I love white chocolate frapachino
8. Went shopping?
with what money?
9. Been camping?
fuck no, I'm not too big on sleeping with the nasty beasties and wild animals
10. Been to the beach?
I live in Arizona.....>.>
11. Bought something for over $200?
hmm, Rent. Oooh, and my lappy, and the 360, parts for the other computer, I spend a lot of money
12. Met someone?
13. Been out of state?
No, I'm a big loser.
14. Gone Snowboarding?
nope sucka. They probably don't have enough snow in flagstaff anyway...
15. What are you thinking?
About alot of things, I'm
How do you say goodbye to someone you never truly said hello to. They're in your heart, and mind but you're not truly sure you're in theres =/.
I know that makes no sense, and no one will understand it but kim. Blah.
I hate this. =[
Its making me all blehy.
Fucking rawr dude.
And my sinus are making my body ache!
It's 6 AM and I'm bored.
I HATE BEING SICK!!
Stupid cold. :(
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.. THATS THE THOUGHTS THAT ARE RUNNIN IN MY HEAD... WONDERING WHAT TO DO.. I NO LONGER HAVE MY JOB... UGGHHH THIS SUCKS ASS..
MY KIDS ARE GOING BANANAS... IM AT WITS END. I HAVE NO NERVES LEFT.
LOT GOING ON RIGHT NOW... SUCKS ASS.. I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT BUT I NEEDED TO COME HERE ONCE AGAIN TO VENT AND SAY I FUCKING SUCK!!!!!
Well so I just got really depressed. A friend told me he got a gf and they are talking about getting married. Don't get me wrong I'm happy they are thinking about it and all. What made me depressed is everyone I know is getting married. And I don't even have a bf. Sure I'm seeing someone but he isn't my bf. Then this is what one of my exs said to me...who is suppose to be a friend "You stop showing you care. You arn't romantic, you arn't lovable after a while. You're great, and people love you, and you're very pretty, but you just seem like you get bored." He told me that was my problem. The truth is I only stop showing it when I have reason to. I mean everyone tells me Im nice and caring. And Im attractive..but then...why can't I get a bf? Or keep a bf? I just hate being the only single person I know and getting married...well I dont want to be really old when I get married! Sorry its just how I'm feeling today.
Blah Blah Blah.............
LOVE starts with a SMILE, grows with a KISS,
and ends with a TEAR.
DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push. ACTIONS speak louder than words.
The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
DON'T let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE.
Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it.
BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it HURTS to look back, and you're SCARED to look ahead,
you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there.
TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS. Friends are FOREVER.
Good friends are like STARS You don't always see them, but you know they are ALWAYS THERE.
You never k
So we went camping over the weekend in the mountains of WV. It was freezing outside for the overnight hours and we froze our asses off. Now I think I'm sick from all of it and I feel like shit even though I had some fun at the time. We bought a new tent for our trip and my hubby wouldn't help put it up so my friends did, and it was funny, they called it the hotel because it was so damn big!
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I can't sleep. I start a new semester at school tomorrow and I really don't feel like going. Luckily I only have 3 classes and am there from 9-12, which isn't bad. However, I am lacking serious motivation. I get my degree in April, I can't wait. I just want to be done. However, I am not looking forward to the job searching. I know it's not gonna be easy, so when I graduate I will work a lot more at the job I am at now until I finally land a good one. Then hopefully I can move out of mom and dad's house lol.
I also need to stop spending so much of my free time on here and concentrate on what I need to get done with school. I'm addicted though, what can I say?
Oh well, I'm gonna try to pass out. Goodnight all.
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well we are working hard to get our new house ready to move into. my neice desided to call me at 2 am today to bitch at me about it. she wanted to jump my shit for telling her that dave will also own the house not just me. how in the hell could she think only me would own it? she said i only said it to hurt her. wtf. ppl have so much nerve. she tells me from the starte that she wont help me in any way then she tells me that i cant change anything i have to redo it all the same way my grandparents had it and when i say ummm no shes says ok she understnad and that she prolly will never come over then she wants to jump my shit for what i said. its so stupid its sad.she tells me how happy she is that i got the house but it was a lie. shes not happy about it or she wouldnt be jumping my shit like she is. i dunno maybe im wrong but thats how i see it.
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so dont really have anything to say ever so thats the reason for the title but yeah ok well gonna go now bells about to ring so bye
I feel like shit, being sick sucks major ass!!!!!
So, scotty was supposed to get home on saturday...he's been in afghanistan for about 3 weeks...and then it was changed to monday...and now it's been changed to tuesday. sucks. but whatever i guess it's only a few days right??? also...my car got broken into...which is TOTALLY NOT COOL!! but they didn't smash the window or anything...nor did they take anything...they just dumped everything out and freaked me out...idiots. the lock is cracked now...and it gaps open when i turn the key...but the doors still lock...so i guess i turned out lucky!!
i'm gonna be getting some halloween decorations tonight...and keep myself pretty busy...and hopefully i'll get to sleep in tomorrow. i'm going to a halloween social...so i hafta find a costume also...but it's ok...i love finding costumes!!
i hope everyone has a great weekend!!
Ya know, I don't normally do this but its eatting me away inside. This damn nightmare won't stop and the worst part about it, IT feels like I'm living it when I'm awake. I don't want to be that exiled person standing on a pill of corspes. I want to be with the others.
Why, Why can't I find someone whom makes me feel like living. Why is it whenever I like someone it seems to turn into hatred. It's like everyone knows, if I start to like you, push me away. I know its not that but damn its getting old.
Shit like right now, I'm so messed up and torn and only two people have truely been inside my head during it all. ONE I admitted to likeing tonight but PFFT like that really means any damn thing. I mean it's me we're talking about. The other just wouldn't work out, I'm sure of it. We're just nothing in common and I don't like her like that.
I'm fighting a battle I feel has been over for years. Yet I still wait for the day. Will someone ever give a shit about me? Will somewhere eve
I am feeling cold and disconected. I went to the mall. The cute red headed girl at Sam Goody wasn't working. There was a fag though. That makes me sad. It's a total fucking bummer. I need to move. Its one less reason to stay here. It was the one high light of the mall. I don't even remember her name. I don't even rememeber the last time I actually saw her there. The one black dude that always helped me wasn't working either.
I'll probably never go back ever again
i am soooo confused and dont know what to do and well i might just leave LC because of it so if ur a friend of mine and we talk often then i will give u my yahoo screen name and we can talk on there if i decide to leave
hmm being bored sucks i just took a shower and it felt good. i feel very clean now. So i am going to be writing a book just for ha has u know see how it goes i started a book when i was 16 and i havent finished it yet i think i may just finish it off i have alot to go. It is basically about me but i use different names plots u know. Some of my friends already read some of it a while back and said it was going good i am not giong to like try to put it out oranything it is sort of a thing for me not like i really want to remember my past but it is a good thing to have something i can be proud of in my own way i guess.We will see how it goes.
Showers make u tired and really relaxed crazy how that works u know.i dont know well if anyone wants to talk to me i am here or u can messaged me on my sn aim-Ska8erbabe1416 or email@example.com
have a nice night.
i know i think im just going to be his best friend cause thats what he needs more than anything right now hes really depressed an i hate seeing him like this but me an him are bipolar so i know where hes commin from with stuff we spend so much time talking about everything an nothing thats why i like him hes cool an he listens an i listen to him as i do with every1 when they need someone to listen oh well
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ok so this is my first blog on LC. so i dont really know what to talk about but i was talkin to my friend jim aka sublime and he said blog the shit out of it. not really sure what that means but i decided to give it a try. so im just sittin here bein really bored and that is about it. well gotta go for now. oh yeah almost forgot. sublime u rock and ur photo is super hot.
no one ever saids "I want to work 7 days a week in a mall when I grow up" it just happends, I'm so sick of these high school aged kids giving me a hard time after they think they can help themselfs to things behind my counter at work, then confront me about with thier manenger while I'm on my other job. that bitch doesn't know how close she came from getting a one week ban from the mall. if I had of had one of the 2-way phones I would have called sercutry and she would have been givin a tresspass notice right there on the spot. I will be talking with my bosses tomarow and both of them can go to the proper people in charge to see that the bitch can keep her hands to herself from now on or stay the fuck out of the mall.
I'm sick of the bullsiht!!!
Blah Blah Blah...
So, this is my first blog. I'm new to this whole lost cherry thing. It's pretty cool though I guess.
I'm bored outta my mind right now. My boyfriend's at work. =O( 3rd shift sucks!! This is his first week on 3rd shift, and I already hate it. Because I'm use to seeing him every day. And now I've only seen him a few days this week. So, hopefully things will look up. =O)
Tonight was trick-or-treating over in Kentucky, and Danny took his little boy. I was really looking forward to going with them, but Danny never called me back last night or today. So, I was really upset about that. Because I had been looking forward to taking Daniel trick-or-treating for almost a month now. So, trick-or-treat night is on Tuesday here where I live. So, maybe Danny can get some rest, and we can go out then. I'm keepin my fingers crossed about that.
But I guess I'm gonna end this now. Happy Halloween to everyone!!
Well, it seems I caught the flu or something, nice deep coughs that make me either dry heave or become light headed... so I guess I did good.
Just trying to see what's up with this site, but soon I'll figure it out.
Blah On Ex's
Ex's aren't good for much except heartache, and lieing. I had to learn that the hard way. I tell ya gals check out your partner before you decide to procreate. DO a background check, check there DNA out for anything that looks like they are suseptable to violence anger or even stupidity. Because once you have kids with someone ya can never get rid of them unless you dont mind going to prison.
I have a restraining order on my ex and he still thinks that he can contact me and come around. He was definately born with a few screws loose, and a lot of marbles short.
So I say Blah on ex's and to hell with there dumb asses.
split up with my girl today. fun fun, guess its for the better, shges still fucked int he head over her ex husband. yay for me. looks like imsingle again
It's cold and raining here today. I have awaken to a terrible migraine and a whole shitload of stuff that has to be done. Have I done a single thing on my list of shit that has to get today? NOPE! I wish I had my Imitrex to take, atleast it would get rid of the monster migraine and I'd be able to get something done.
In other news..I've started writing a book, that will never be published, but it's going to be submitted to the Board of the Stone Coast Writers Seminar, in hopes that I will get in for the July 07 seminar. My former college english professor feels that I have enough talent to compete with the others and he calls me all the time asking when I'm going to get started on my piece for admissions. So finally I started.
Nothing new beyond that.. Have a good day, and I hope the sun is shining where ever you are.
Blah, Blah, Blah Of Life
Alright my friends and fellow cherries. I'm not leaving the site, though I might not be on for a long, long, long time. I've currently been evicted from my home due to circumstances beyond my control. Lucky me. Anyway, if I'm not on or you can't get ahold of me this is why. I've met a lot of awesome people here, and I love you all. I will be back as soon as humanly possible. Until then, may the god and goddess bless you and have happy holidays if I am not on before then.
I dun wanna go to work, kinda feels pointless since i'm only staying til they find someone else then i'll just get shafted...
I reckon im going to either quit trying so hard. or quit trying all together. both seems acceptable in my eyes.
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well what do i say here tonight,not sure really ,
my day was very long today my oldest has been up since 445 so need least to say my butt is tired tonight. im so happy the love of my life will home on thursdayCourtesy of MsTags.com
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ya know i have never posted a blog before so hey why not lol.....I just want to say i have rnjoyed talking to all my friends and made some real great lasting friendships....what gets me is everyone that complains about this that and the other for no reason....what gets me is out of over 200 friends i only have 152 profile ratings...when i go to someones profile i always rate them a 10 and all there pics, it seems some of them dont...BUT what can i say to change it lol.....I always help people who need it and i always try to repay the ones who help me but when some dont even talk to you or even rate profiles or pics i tend to wonder if they are jjust in it to see how many "friends" they can get and chit......I try talkin to all my friends when i can.....On that note i am going to end this with a Thank You to all my friends that have helped me and have continued to talk to me....AND if ya havent rated my profile then maybe ya should....if ya dont oh well.....you can lead a horse to water
I've got a case of the blahs tonight. I've got a toothache and a migraine. I'm going to call it a night.(Maybe)
Cherry Goal for the weekend: Get under 10,000 before Friday.
i wonder why life is cruel
why am i the laughing stock
what did i do
did i pray right
did i sin
did i make u sad
i try to make u happy
so u just laugh
u dont understand
u never will
i have feelings and you cant see them
but they are there
i hope you feel the same way some day
but till then i pray its you who feels the hurt
Ive done nothing but study for 3 days.
Im taking a break.
I think ima change my hair color.
I know i like the black too.
But i unno i just wanta change it.
If i dont like it ill put it back to black.
I woke up with a tummy ache.
That wont go away.
I gotta do some laundry.
Go get a new charger for my phone.
Make my bed.
And clean the house so my momma doesnt have to.
I dont want her doing anything unless she needs to.
Shes got children capable of doing it all.
Ive got cramps, like pms cramps, but its not pms. Fuckers. I swear thats the only thing about being female that bites.
And then like they charge you all this money for midol when all it is is a LOWER dosage of Advil.
Yeah i know im ranting about anything, well its cause i can.
I got accused of cheating today which is rather funny cause i dont know how you can cheat on a website. So that was amusing. =]
People are ASSHOLES i swear it.
Ima drink a glass of milk, maybe itll help.
Cause im takin the lil girl to the movies at like 4 or something to see the Santa Clause 3. Cause she wants to and andrews being a dick fucker and wont. So thats what Alliebears for.
Is all i really have to say to anyone.
Cause i really dont want to talk.
So ill reply to ur messages whenever.
And ill reply to your comments when i get a chance.
I think ima take gabby and just lay in bed or on the couch and watch a movie.
Cause atleast then, i cant get used or hurt.
Cause the one thing in this world, that i know wont hurt me is a 3 year old.
I thought there was 2.
But i thought wrong.
< 3 Kimmie cup.
-In the shaddows of the night i runaway-
~I did for him~
I gave him my heart.
He gave me his love.
I gave him all my lofe.
He gave me a new found hope.
I gave him a chance.
He gave me a world of chances.
I filled what he couldn't find.
He filled my lonely days.
I fell for him,
He fell for me.
I charish him.
He stared at me.
I wanted him.
He wanted to be there for me.
I wanted him close to me.
He wanted me there.
I hoped he';d be okay.
He hoped I'd wait.
I wished him luck
He wished for me/
I have him my soul.
He gave me his hope.
I want to hold him high.
He wants to hold me close.
I completely love him.
He completely loves me
Blah...i Hate Being Sick
I have a sore throat (so sore i havent had anything to eat or drink today) my nose is runny and i have an on/off fever. it just royally sucks!
anyway, I've been trying to get as many referrals as possible (61 total so far) so it keeps me occupied. other than that, I've been sleeping and when i wake up im just bored as hell.
I HOPE ALL YOU CHERRIES ENJOY THE REST OF YOUR WEEKEND!!! MWUAH!
I still feel like shit.
But im awake.
My fever didnt really break any.
Which kinda bites.
I can only keep down yogurt.
And I miss [[ you ]] ♥
Kay im done i think haha.
Temporary insanity by alex johnson. Is my new favorite love song ♥
Well, update planning for the wedding goes slow and it looks now that kathy and we will have pay for the whole wedding ourselves.
Her father isn't gaving us the apartment in Flushing. So, we looking for apartment in Sunnyside, NY now because its close enough to our jobs and far enough but not to far from our parents.
I'm just mad upset that it took this long to go no where. I told kathy when this started he was going to do it.
Now we have to plan a wedding, I have focus on work and school, and we have to find an apartment.
Blah Blah Blah.........
Okay so this is just a summary of my weekend.
Friday me and my fiance was aguring bc of a wedding on saturday. He dont like my dad and my dad was gonna be there. So he lost and he went
Saturday the wedding was okay. it was small. me and my fiance aggred that ours wasnt gonna be small. Then the reception. we went to a german resturant in prosperity. it was amazing. It was awesome(the food) i havent had food like that since my great grandmother cooked. lol. It was like a slow meal. so you def wouldnt like it if you wanted to eat in a hurry. Then we left there at like 9:30 and headed home. so of course right when we hit the road i had to pee. So i held it til we got home. so when we got home i ran into the house changed clothes and we went to the skyline club and my fiances parents were there and they were hammered. So about 1:00 am i had to drive all of us home.
Sunday at 9:00 am somebody was knocking on my house door wanting my fiance they were wanting him to come into work.
♥ So lets see i woke up with a tummy ache.
Went to class.
Took my calc exam.
And i PASSED! I got an 93. Which is An A. Haha.
Im so proud of myself. ♥
♥ Icon of the day ♥
My momma doesnt understand whats going on.
She wishes i would talk to her.
Theres nothing to talk about im fine.
Im gonna get a different job, im tired of being a waitress.
And for the record i really do [[miss]] you.
Even though you don't even read these anymore ♥
Doesn't it hurt...Trick and control you...Decieve and destroy you...Doesn't it hurt?
Forget and move on...I'm here and I'm strong...I've got you to blame when it's finally done...
I'm not afraid...Of these feelings here inside...And I'm sure some day...I'll let go of all this hate for you...
Doesn't it hurt you?
Doesn't it feel safe?
My laptop broke.
So i wont be on much.
Cause kailey droped a bottle of water on it ♥
So i gotta get it fixed and its gonna be about 600 dollars.
And i dont have that :)
So ill get on my moms pc to check messages every fucking once and awhile kay.
I love you ♥
Ok so I hate being bipolar. Sometimes little things are enough to cause a meltdown. I was driving and totally lost where I was. I just drew a blank. I called Jamie on the cell phone and he helped me through it but I was crying and it wasn't good. So I guess today when I go see my PA I'll tell her about it. Damn this thing it really sucks sometimes. I'm afraid for Hailey when she get into her 20's when this thing supposively gets bad. Oh well, all we can do is take our meds and hope for the best. Jamie kind of likes his new job and kind of not. He never knows what time he'll be getting home at night. So he's keeping his eys open. Oh so my birthday is sunday, Jamie has something nice for me but he won't tell me and I can't get it out of him. so I'll have to wait. i dunno, thats all for now. Thanks for listening to me whine.
hello all. in class again.. well on a break any way. i thought i would get online and check things out. all seems to be working well on here as usual. not to say i have anything to do with it. anyway, here i am. bored by microeconomics. i just got my new class schedule that starts after thanksgiving. i am not too thrilled about taking accounting II. groan... i also have a class called professional presentation and another called composition II. i've heard that accounting II is hard and easy. different opinions, i guess. i hope the easy people are right. i don't know anything about the presentation class, but i do like the instructor. the third class shouldn't be too hard, but i heard tonight the instructor is mean. i am hoping that isn't the case. hopefully that is just heresay. in any case, i will do my best and hope to pass.
:( fuckin shitty mood, hatin life and everyone in it (no offense) and just wanna cry. It sucks...But as always, I'll get over it. Jagers looking really good about now ;) anyone wanna join me for some shots??
I swear people are so crazy. There is so much drama in my sisters life and she tends to bring it to everyone elses. She made her bed she needs to lay in it. People everyday have problems but they are yours for a reason do not put them on other people. You should make the next person happy only to get it in return. Oh, and all this shit where women are fighting over men OMG drop the dead beat and WTF are you fighting for. Women should stick by women men do. There are plenty of women and men out there so for the people out there sitting on the couch crying get up and go out. I gues this is my blah for the day but remember life is what you make of it.
I'm just not feeling great tonight. I'm tired but I laid down and couldnt sleep. I have a headache. Plus to top it all off I'm allergic to this belt that came w/ a new pair of jeans I bought and have an awful rash on my middle now. Blah, I just feel like bitching to people who cant do anything about it :P
♥ I havent slept yet ♥
I know it bites.
But ive decided im just going to ignore the drama.
Its gay and retarded.
I know i did nothing wrong.
No reason for me to even worry.
My tummys killing me.
I gotta go to tanyas and pick up my one text book cause she borrowed it and i forgot i had some homework i have to do mhmm. ♥
Im getting a tad bit annoyed with "fake" friends on here, and people who just use you.
In all honesty most of em are just drama queens anyway.
So my mom and i are done fighting now.
Which is good cause that was getting on my last nerve.
I had to much to drink the last 2 nights.
And i had a hang over yesterday.
I know i know. Serves me right. Ive been told.
Its cold. Rawr ♥
I have a lot on my mind and its bugging me but i dont know how to tell the people im annoyed with exactly what i want to tell them without hurting there feelings cause i hate hurting peoples feeling
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blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah ppl suck ya im talking about u cant even leave comments anymore blah blah blah blah thats all i hear fuck thattttttttttttttttttttttt u all suck
sorry im a little pissed of about ppl today but hey u all suck
Tuesday 14th November - 12:44pm!
Today.. i have a giant headache.. megga megga and i am missing my man.. work is PISSING ME OFF !! Ahhhhh i need to run away some place hot.. no cell phones... no internet.. just hide.. and get a great tan!!!!!
well this past friday i got some more bad news. our family had another person pass away. so much shit is going on right now that adding that just sucks so bad. this man was like another grandfather to my family memebers. but what sucks the most is my lil cousin (matt) go so close to him once his dad passed away earlier this year and for him to lose more is just not fair. well just wanted to write this down cause it is killing me knowing all this pain my family is going through. :(
1. How old will you be in five years?
right now? 30, give it a few weeks, then i'd have to say 31
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with yesterday?
in person...my girls
3. How tall are you?
4. what do you look forward to in the next 6 weeks?
birthday...yay, though i was promised that i can buy new boots....
5. What's the last movie you saw?
umm..oh finally saw napoleon dynamite
6. Who is the last person you called?
i left a message for someone cuz he never answers his phone
7. Who was the last person to call you?
.8. What was the last text message you received?
i don't know
9. Do you prefer to call or text?
call..i like to hear voices
10. Do you have any pets?
a pussy and a ferret
11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
i was feeling sick
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
it's been a few months
14. What color are your eyes?
I just got home from Grocery Shopping And We Ordered A Vegetarian Pizza...It Was SOOO Yummy But Now I Feel Sick!!!...BLAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Orange Soda Is Yummy :D
Haha, so I had kind of a crappy morning and I just thought I'd share it all with you. It seems like it should have come out of some horrible comedy movie.
So first of all, I got less that 4 hours of sleep because I had to get up at 5 to drive Ryan to work. Well, I slept through my alarm and ended up waking up at 5:30. So I was already pressed for time and was hurrying to get ready.
Well, I got ready around 6:30 which was perfect because that's when I needed to leave the house. Well, I realized that I couldn't find my cell phone. So I was freaking out and searching everywhere for it but I could not find it. So I just decided to forget about it and find it later. So I ran (literally) full speed down the stairs, tripped on the rug and face planted into the wall. I yelled both out of pain and frustration because at this point I was about 15 minutes late. My dad heard me, came running over and picked me up and basically kicked me out the door. And then, I found my cell pho
I'm aweful, instead of writing my 5 page paper, I went and talked on the phone all night long...again
so who had to write it right now...me
I just finished, finished that and a powerpoint. IT SUCKED hahaha.
I dyed my hair last night as in my new photos, know the rents wont' like it, but they don't have to see it until tuesday night, and maybe I'll just wear a hat the entire time...hehe
oh well david will be with me, dad won't yell if he's around...hopefully.
I feel like going out tonight but dont want to by myself, lol. Been sick for two weeks and now I am starting to feel better and want to go out!!
Well just weighed myself and I am down 191 lbs. Woo hoo, I am still lossing!!
Well got to go for now. Take care and may the Goddess watch over, protect, and bless you all!!
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The art of communication is a difficult one, at best, to develop, apply, and coerce into action. The fact that language is arbitrary, and words are subject to a myriad of interpretations based on personal experience leaves a huge chasm to cross when writing, talking and interacting with others. A simple example of this would be the word pizza. For most, it evokes a comforting dining experience of warm crust, melted cheeses, and assorted toppings that leave the diner wanting more. For others, it is a disaster for the diet, and yet others, might conjure up a bad beer night that ended with several hours over the toilet. For several years, I couldn't even stomach the smell of pizza, because I associated it with a bout of food poisoning that left me wanting to die for a week. So, when we attempt to "understand" what others are communicating to us, it will always be bound up in associations that we attach to the words that they are offering to us. That in itself might make it tough to purcha
so I'v come to the realization
that guys are starting to make me sick
and i'm talking like sick to my stumach
puke off the belcony sick
most are full of yourselves
most are beyond perverted
and the rest of you
just frustrate me beyond belief
not only that
but i talk before i think a lot of times
and you take things just as serious as i do
i'm not into the chase
i have no reason to
:/end rant. lol
Morning ♥ Blah i havent been to sleep yet. Once again i couldnt sleep spent to much time seeing my insides in the bathroom, yeah i know TMI ♥ Sorry haha.
Anyway i got work in an hour. Im gonna be one miserable little bitch let me tell you. I fell bad for my supervisor, shes already annoyed with my moodiness. She can bite me, cause i do HER job anyway. Shes suppose to be the one taking care if the patients, my jobs is actually just to check them in. But whatever stupid people always think its other peoples responsibilty to take care of their work mhmm. ♥
So im in severe pain. And yes im still sick. Horribley, but i cant take anymore time off from work. Reguardless. I took a week off for my mom. I need the money i have to pay next semesters tuition. Help my mom out with a lot of shit. And i just gave my brother 6000 dollars to NOT go to jail. So yeah ive gotta work alot right now. Ugh. Whatever.
Kailey didnt sleep last night so shes awake and laying on the c
I am having such a blah day. Ever just feel blah? Yea well thats me today. I love the holidays but I hate them! I am just sad.I miss DJ. And this is the first thanksgiving w.o my gramma. She always cooked so its just hard.
I am also saddened by the drama on here. Don't ask me to repost drama. You can all tear eachother to shreds but Im staying the hell outta it.
I try to be friends to everyone as I have said before. When a friend does ask you a question I hope you do not ignore them and answer them honestly. No answer at all pretty much answers it. Anyhow I will comment back I just need to get over this Blahness. I hope at least one of u, enjoyed my other blogs today!
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well fuck u all what no one wants to talk fine peace out bitches
Blah Or Purhaps Bleh??
Today is boring doing what I did last year spending it alone once again.. well not exactly alone Its kadens first Thanksgiving we have been playing all day. His first tooth finally popped out its exciting he wasnt really rotten either just drooling alot. He now weighs 14 lbs now and hes not yet 4 months till dec 12 my baby is growing up.. someone tell me how to make them stay small and sweet longer.. HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A WONDERFUL FANTASTIC THANKSGIVING.!
So... I've been in quite the rotten mood lately...
Anyone I've taken it out on I'm sorry.
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ok its t minus 13 hours and 25 minutes til my bday and usually im happii and cant wait fer my bday to come but this yr im hopin it will go soooo slow to get here these next 13 hours better last a long time cuz dayumit i dnt wanna get old!!! I remember when i was jus 13 a freshman in high school jus like it was yesterday =/ and now im 28 single mother of 2 goin to school, and trainin to be a bad ass corrections officer...where did all da fun go? im mean seriously wha everyone else can have fun but gengen? shyt yea i had my moments but dayumit not enough!!!! i have alot of favorite moments but da one dat sticks in my mind da most is when mii, X, Sarah, Joey, Chris, and Rob went bar hoppin down main street in Racine and got sooo obliviated cuz we were celebratin and Joey passed out on da hood of his car and mii and X were arguin of wha end to take of Joeys...now mind u this is when Joey was 225 LBs SOLID muscle! and of course who gets stuck wif da half dats da heaviest?? Mii! I mean hell
Blah For Being Sick
Okay everyone, i'm sick as a dog today, so love me, i need it. Hope everyone has a good day, but I have to go and lay down now. Feeling dizzy, maybe I'll take a shower, i don't know, i just don't wanna be sick anymore. Bah...
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whiners and shit they are great they make me go pee pee lmaooooooooooo
Don't you agree that Virginia sucks?!?! I hate this place. I wish I could move! I dunno this is the first blog that I have done. I didn't know what to write so I am writing nonsence....HAHA!
yep.. so here i am.. sitting at my house.. its been quite all damn day.. still in fucking pain from getting my tonsels taken out.. really fucking bored god.. so i have just been sitting here thinking about a shit load of thinks.. idk.. ya well im wasting my time and yours so imma go.. peace..
I know this is sad to say, but i really understand why children hate there parents, or leave them and never contact them again. I love my mother but im on the verge of leaving and never speaking to her or my brothers again. Im sick of the name calling, everyday she has a new name for me, if its not Bitch, or Cunt, its you stupid slut. She has no reason to say this shit she just does. Out of anger for someone else. Today she said to me, im a retarded bitch just like my father, i love when she throws him in my face, cause yeah i can really chose who my fucking parents are. Nice huh. Like i dont have ENOUGH shit to deal with right now.
This is why i left in the first place, cause of the hitting and name calling, well shes starting again. I understand shes sick and the medicines do mean things to her, but if she doesnt stop im gone. Even if that means leaving jersey. Ill go. I love my brothers, and my nieces but im not taking anymore abuse for no one. I cant do it anymore. I work my as
ok since i wrote the last one...i havent fallen asleep yet...what is wrong with me...i cant sleep lately...i try laying down...nothing...i try laying down and listenin to mellow music...nope doesnt work....i try reading...nope doesnt work...i tried boring myself to sleep by playing solitaire first...nope...now i am awake and bored....
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1- Your Initials -MRS
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
freddy prince jr. lol...
3. Last thing you ate:
4. For or against same sex marriage?
5. I say Shotgun! You say?
6. Last person you hugged?
my mom hugged me last, but the last person I hugged was charles, I think?
7. Is your phone on ring or vibrate?
8. How many U.S states have you been to?
8, not including CA
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in:
10. Ever lived outside of the US:
11. Name something you like physically about yourself
12. What are you wearing?
big green colorado sweater! and shorts.
13. Who is/are your best friend(s)?
14. Why are you still up?
um.. because it's the middle of the day?
15. Who made you angry today?
nobody... I rarely get angry anyway
16. Favorite type of food?:
17. Favorite holiday:
18. Do you download music:
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I am bored out of my damn mind. I want something to do, somewhere to go, something to read....I really should think about going to bed. I've got an early day...and tomorrow is supposed to get COLD. Its already getting colder...its been raining since about 2:30ish.
Ya know...When I first joined LC/CT, Only one person on my friends list was a rockstar...now everyone and their momma is a rockstar, except for me. *pouts* Its hard working and then coming home, doing dinner, laundry, dishes etc..AND catch up to everyone on the cherry.
I dont think I can figure this site out!
Blah... I so do not feel that great right now. I'm having chest pains and i dont know why. They started coming on when i was on my way home tonight. Its odd, really... i was fine all night long and then the pains hit bout 10-20 minutes ago... ugh. I guess i need to start thinking about quitting smoking... a support group would help for that, but all my friends that smoke seem to have no desire to want to quit... so thats not really much support there... so idk.
What else? Oh... so I was gonna do this tarot reading online a few minutes ago... i had the cards drawn and all and when i clicked "contuine" it asked what my prefered method of payment was... wtf. Its soo nice of them to do shit like that huh? make it seem like its free and then end up havin to pay for it and shit... blah... so i said fuck it to that.
i dont have much else to say.. so im just gonna say fuck it... lol
i'll post more soon
I'm very tired. NUFF SAID!
So much for sleep. Gonna stay here for a half hour or so...hopefully I'll be able to sleep then.
As useful as...
...a parapelgic lifeguard on a beach.
...hairspray for a bald man.
...George W. Bush.
...glow in the dark sunglasses.
...nipples on a man.
...tits on a boar.
...a chastity belt for an ugly nun.
...a cripple in an uphill race.
Makes about as much sense as...
...scratching your balls with a running chainsaw.
...the president's speeches. I understand ebonics more than I can understand what this fucktard is trying to convey.
...Modern day christianity. All 247 different branches OF THE SAME DAMN THING. Don't you know you've done just what your lord said not to do by forming your own versions of his word?
...the war in Iraq. Nuke these motherfuckers and get it over with already.
Things I don't fucking understand...
People always tell me I look like someone they would avoid, if they didn't already know me. WOW. Thanks for that confidence booster, ya fucking jerk.
People tell me that I'm weird sometimes.
Have you ever felt as though life takes a turn for the worst when you least expect it to..I am usually always the one that is very optimistic about things and hopeful of a change. I often sit and wonder here recently how i can change or make my life better, but in the end its never changed. Im on this spirling rollercoaster of fate and for some god aweful reason im scared to death that im going to fall off of it at any given moment, and if i do where would i land? I am 26 yrs old and im not able to get out and enjoy life, yeah i go to work and stuff but hell thats hard on me to do now. I fear every night when i go to bed if i am going to wake up to see the next morning. My fears have overcome me so much in the last month..I just wanted to write this and get it off my chest..Thanks for reading if you did and commenting if you did also.later
Well I haven't been having the best week. I haven't really been around much, hopefully when things calm down and get back to semi-normal status I'll be around more. hope all is well with everbody.
Blah Being Single!
Pretty sure being single SUX ASS!! lol I hate it!! anyways!! lol that was my little rant! God I'm so nervous about a gig commin up! my voice has been really fucked lately.. so I dunno how I'm guna perform.. feels like I'm getting sick:(:( which sux! anyways not sure what else to write! Peace everyone!
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blah blah, blah blah hlah blah, blah, blah blah blah blah blah, blah blah blah. Blah blah, blah blah blah blah, blah blah blah.
I dont know I am just feeling a little depressed =( oh well.
I'm bored and lazy ...anyone wanna come set up my Christmas tree for me?
Ugh, what a crappy friggin weekend. Worked my ass off. People are such assholes this time of year. It's always been my policy to kill people with kindness because being crabby at work makes the day go slower. But today, I just couldn't do it. Thank god I'm home alone though. It's nice to sit here in a quiet house not listening to anything but the tap, tap, tap of the keyboard. How was everyone elses weekend?
Don't you hate it when you like someone, and they don't like you back?
That's one of the ways where I think life isn't quite fair. I mean, there should be something that makes it so that if you like someone, it's meant to happen, and it just...DOES.
Cuz I know that at least for me, it's really frustrating to like someone and they like someone else, and maybe that someone likes someone else and...it's a neverending circle!!!
The next obvious step is to stop liking the person, cuz obviously they just aren't into you. Sounds easy, huh? HAH! I wish. It's so hard to get over a crush, and even harder still when you think it's meant to be. I mean, cuz if the crush doesn't make sense, then fine. Give it a month or maybe a little less. But when you look at the guy (or girl, as the case may be), and you see everything in them that you need,want, and adore, it's a bitch to get over it.
I think I'm done venting now. Man, did that feel good!!!
Time ticks away I can see the last drop of hope fall and hit the floor I am but a molecule of dust in this churning world of darkness and despair
The sun disappeared behind a thick and hazy red cloud
The earth has opened up and from within its depths
I can hear the cries
Cries from the Souls who have lost their bodies along the way,
Lost their path,
Lost their light.
I turn but to see the creature itself
Hinged within the perfect balance of life
Picking and choosing
Placing and throwing
No fate for him
OK could this day be any worse...not only am I dealing with the normal jackasses on this site that only wanna bring people down...my uncle who's been in the hospital in IUC since Thursday, with nine broken ribs and a punctured lung after he fell....has stopped breathing AGAIN and is on life support...they shocked him 3 times and have given him medicine to bring his heart rate down, he also has a fever of 103 and they have him wrapped in cold blankets to help bring that down....and none of the doctors are saying anything...why the fuck are they getting paid if they don't know a goddamn thing....so it's looking like Christmas & my birthday are kinda going to suck.....anyway I love you all and hope your having a great weekend....
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Well, I am not missing tonight for the world. I will go to
Dr. Suzy's, be on the
show and hopefully last long enough for the party. This is the first time for
M. and her
father (he is supposedly one of my biggest fans). I love leading people down a
road of hedonism and debauchery.
The thing I would really like to do is cuddle up with the cat, if I could sever the
imaginary umbilicus tying Me to the world outside. In the world of reality that
umbilicus is My computer. Or so it was dubbed by My last fiancé.
I will go on the show as planned. This time hopefully I won't fall a sleep on the
set. I hope to last through till at least an hour into the after party. I am
just cold and tired, and this curse of womanhood is 2 days late which only means
when it gets here it will be murderous. I have been having severe cramps for
the last 2 days but nothing else. I want to take a map now, but when I sleep it
is like winter hibernation.
Due to this comatose-lik
Im on my way to work.
Oh the joy.
I couldnt sleep last night.
I finally fell asleep at like 5 and just kept waking up every 20 mins.
Then i had pretty horrible dreams which i dont even want to think about.
Now ive got work for a while yay me.
I need to call danielle and talk to her before i get all sad again.
Its alright we have a plan. ♥
I jammed my finger and it all hurts and stuff.
Im effin cold and i dont know why, i have clothes on, the heats on, it might have something to do with the fever i have.
Have a good day.
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We won the cutest couples contest.. Was there any doubt?? hehehe! Thanks to all who voted esp Jelly who kicked ass ...I owe her big time...
Goin out Xmas shoppin tonite with my mother. This should be exciting..I am being totally sarcastic hehe!
Have a great day Folks oh and Play is in a Grinch Contest...so go show his pic some love ok?
Im home for a little while. Im laying on my bed just kinda staring of into space i guess you would say. I got way to much on my mind. I cut myself 4 times at work and made my nose bleed a lot cause i couldnt focus or pay attention to shit. =/ I don't know whats wrong with me -sigh- i do but i dont. I do know whats bothering me, and its eating at me. Badly. Really badly.
♥ ♥ ♥
His whole cd is seriously amazing, but that song is how i feel right now. =/
Have a good night.
My nose is runny :(
And my wrist hurts.
And im still blehy.
I need to stop whining.
Have a good day.
Today I feel so blah... like nothing is making me happy... I don't know if its cause i have been in the house for a few days cause its been snowing... I just feel lost and confused and sad... I dont really know how do describe it... But most the time this is the time of year I am the happiest I just dont get what my deal is... I just feel like my whole world is going to fall apart...
Blah.just Wrighting Bout Things
OK, so its like middle of dec right an christmas is right around the corner,,, im soo not ready for it lol it dont even feel like christmas...
God, I am so fucking bored. Ya'd think when you're bored maybe you should do something productive or there's like nothing to do. However, when I am the most bored is actually when I have a ton of things to get done. But, I don't wanna do ANYTHING that I have to do. So, yah...that's all I have to say about that.
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Current mood: bored
I once knew this guy, we kinda grew up together. His whole life, starting with his first girlfriend, he has been looking for "true" love. Never did he fall into a "players"category, never hunting women as prey, as notches in a bedpost, but always with the purpose of bonding and binding. Understandably enough, as a teen, that proves to be a difficult task. Women are not looking for that kind of thing anymore. He has always been one of the "good" men, the one TV women say they can't find.
Once he found this girl, she was a pretty girl, but wreckless none-the-less but he too, at this time was going through a wreckless stage of existence so therefore it seemed to fit. It seemed that happiness had found him finally. She treated him like he longed for.....till Cptn. Morgan stepped in and started taking over her. See..turns out this girl was bi-polar, bi-sexual and a nympho. She had managed to subside all these things on her own long enough to get
I'm not quite sure what to write here. I'm never really on CT at the moment, although i'm sure i'll become addicted again at some point when the novelty of CS wears off haha!
Anyways, YEY got my new 19" LCD TFT monitor! It's orgasmic!!
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Ok so i'm gettin this site figured out. I've been uploading pics, sending comments, adding, rating and fanning people and i even have a blast. Now i jusy need to know how to make a private photo album...you know maybe upload some adult content pics that i dont want just anyone to see....are we even allowed to do that on this site?....If anyone knows please fill me in. Thanks....;))
If fucking sucks being sick!! That is all lol
I have found i have a new found fetish for tripping special needs children as they walk off the bus....
that is all
I saw the video of Saddam being hung. It made me sick to my stomach for I am completely against the death penalty. I do know how horrible a man Saddam was, perhaps he deserved death, but does the death penalty not contradict the law? For in my mind it is murder. But possibly due to the many lives that he has destroyed and many people he has made suffer, he deserved to die. To have his life taken from him, and to keep him from ever harming any other human being.
ANYWAYS enough about that....new years eve is tomorrow night, and I wish everyone a safe and fun time!! I myself will probably end up staying home with a couple friends, nothing extravagent possibily a few drinks and of course some weed will have to be included in the evening.
Enough typing for now, some good movies are gonna come on tv soon so i think i'm going to go watch one!! Happy holidays
i understand i realized last nite that im better off everyones friend cause they always push me aside when something better comes along..
so for n e one reading this dont take pitty on me cause u feel bad for me...just remain my friend and ill live....
go out be happy.....ill live.....lol
Blah (the Garbage In My Mind Right Now)
I close my eyes and All I fuckin see is lies!
People dieing,suffering The air becoming shit and nothing but pure control!
I fear being alone but I'll never be with any.... one person again!
I wonder what kinda world were in but then I relize quickly that the problem is the inhabitants.Not the planet itself!
People lie,People use,There out for themselves n nobody else!
If only we could have an equal standing!
Honesty could go so far but I dont see any!
People act like they want a relationship n they use u (It's not hard to say baby I just wanna fuck u)Put my dick in your mouth!
But u dont u date and fuck good people over!
Sad situation spreadin fake!
Making alot of mistakes is ok but not if your with people for many years and its over in 2 seconds!
What if u never even speak again?
If 2 people love each other it should never be bad terms!
But when its only one in love..then the other person is selfish!
Accusin people of fuckin then gettin em charged for bullshit n doing it
You know how sometimes you have a few choices and all the outcomes will make you completely miserable no matter what?
I dunno. Just blah. Not bad blah. Tired and can't really sleep blah.
Jason and I were talking about bunches of stuff tonight...getting an apartment by Christmas, pimping out my drawing tutoring, him asking for a pay raise next semester.
Nothing horribly interesting.
Health is weird. Amy (the professor) is cool. I wrote about me and Jay wrestling in my first paper. :)
Maybe I'll try to go to sleep soon.
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oh my lord why cant cherry tap make voice blogs.. hmm think i should see a man about making that so i can make some money off that. i have yet to see one of those. the reason why i say this bc if they did you would hear some crazy stuff out of me. im mean when im in a blah mood i start being a huge goof ball and making funny noises and so forth. ugh. its not like im totally bored.. although im getting close to it. i went to play poker tonight.. god only knows why cause i hate the person who owns it and also the one that runs it. but its just something to do ya know. there's loud ppl, rude ppl, and omg the flordia vs ohio game is on tonight and that just made it that much louder. ugh whats wrong with me ppl. i need my attention held by something. im thinking about getting a tennis ball and bouncing it on the wall but then id hear my next door person bitching at me and frankly i just dont want to hear the shit. anyways there seriously needs to be a voice blog on here. i think it would be
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im writing this cuz im soooooooooooooooooooo freakin bored its insane lol im waitin for time to go to preschool w/ kira yippie hangin out w/ a bunch of lil kids and the cleanin up after em all. not my idea of a blast. dont get me wrong i love my lil girl but kids ask stupid questions and im not quick enough to have a witty retort for them to change the subject lol kids are great in small doses and small numbers lol i guess im a bit overwhelmed to say the least.and to top it off all i wana do is take a nap lol im so gona b draggin ass 2day.
hopefully things go smoothly and my daughter doesnt get rebelious w/ me being there. i guess ill have to WAIT and see lol blah blah blah blah blah
Hey everybody! I am new to cherry tap, have no idea how it works, but I'm here for friends only, and I'm bored so somebody chat with me? Send me comments LOL something.
i wrote this about 3 months ago just fyi, not much has changed however
Ok, lately I have felt torn. I'm starting my third year of college and I feel like I am going no where. I am on my second major and I still feel that maybe its not right for me which really pisses me off. I am used to knowing what I want and right now I really don't know what I want. I'm tempted to take a break nad figure this out but at the same time I don't want to. I want the money that has been put into my education get results in the form of a degree but I feel if I take time off it might seem like the money spent in the last three years was for nothing. I was told by someone a few weeks back that I seemed wound tight and too worried about somethings and I' wondering if it really is true. Are my current indecisions about myself due to this? Have I been too worried about making people proud of me, supporting my family and friends when they have needed me, and trying to make people think highly of me so much s
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"You know what? I actually liked you for who you were. And you can't find many girls out there who are like that. But in time she'll screw you over and you'll wish I stay'd around, but this butterfly was made to fly, not to crawl upon the ground."
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So its Monday. Its Raining. There is no school! I have one week til classes start. I put up a few pics of my computer. Its going to be retired soon. I am having a new one built. Can't believe January is almost over. So how is everyone today?
I may take some new pics if it ever stops raining out. Its been awhile.
Heres a funny one
Trying to crush my sprit with each hateful word
Beating me down till I feel small and lifeless
Seeing me cry in pain and utter frustration
Waiting for my soul to whither away
Sniffing for the blood that pours
From the open wounds
That you your self created
Like the savage beast that you are
Watching listening for all life to breath out of me
Waiting for the right time to finish me off
Knowing that there is nothing left
But a hollow shell of what once was
With friends like you who the fuck needs enemies
Dont ya wish life was just a bit easier?Maybe you wish the sun would always shine and the breeze was always cool, but lets face it thats never gonna happen so,I guess life is what ya make it right(damn I'm glad I have a great life!)Anyways have a good year and I hope every1 is safe!!!
once again im sick grrr, i have a temp of 102.5 and my stomach is doing cartwheels... my head is pounding and it sucks. my ears are starting to hurt so yeah thats not a good sign... i just hope it doesnt take so long to feel better
i love all my friends so much!!!
~*~Little Miss Pixie~*~
I want to kill myself
But for some reason I can't
I hate feeling this way
'Cause all I do is rant
It's stupid; it's dumb
Why must I always feel this way?
I can't feel now, numb
And its starts over every day
Whenever it's gone
It comes back to bite me in the ass
Whenever I feel happy
It comes back really fast
It's stupid; it's dumb
Why must I feel this way?
I can't feel now, numb
And its starts over every day
It's like a phase,
I'm happy, then I am sad.
I t keeps on going in a circle,
But it always ends up bad.
It's amazing. I'm almost done with paper number one. Now I'm working on paper number two.
After that I have some other stupid assignment to complete also.
Blah This Week Sucked...
OK this has really been the longest week ever *sigh* hopefully I can get some of these people out of this house for good tomorrow just way too many people and I can't tolerate it. I can't be in any room alone for just 5 minutes. Oh and the drama my family has lol I could write a book on that....my uncle has a 14 year old grad daughter drawing pictures of killing her uncle/his son, his girlfriend and her little boy who happen to be taking care of her at the moment, and pictures of them killing her, and writing about how much she hates herself and yet no one wants to deal with her the girl needs help not to be brushed off thats not how it works....and my uncle also has a daughter who's a crack whore "living" in his other house, with no water or electricity so she's been staying with friends, so really the house is empty but she won't let him rent it to any one else (because when she get sentenced at the end of this month she wants to do her in home detention there in town not out in the
Well I just got home and feel....well just HERE,thats all, ever had that feeling? not really bad, but just a feeling of nothing. Maybe its just stress and all finally starting to catch up, Hell I dunno.
you know what...
FUCK YOU! and your drama
i can already tell today is gonna be a shitty day. and trust me at the rate things are goin today it aint gonna get much better. blah!
FUCK YOU! damn two faced bitchezzz!
alrighty boys and girls this is a quick update I know Ive been missing for a bit I have a pinched nerve in my back so I cant get around very well I will respond to messages ,ect when I can sit for awhile but thanks for all the luv...play hard and stay safe
Never posted a blog on here before, but what the fuck.....Life has been fucked up lately...for those who actually know me, you know that that is no suprise. Been fighting with my soon to be ex-husband and his bitch ass pregnant girlfriend. This bitch has e-mailed me talking trash on my disabled son and how her unborn child is so much better than my boy because her baby is and will be normal and healthy (when mine isn't) And my stupid ex didn't even stand up for our son. Wow...I get to explain to my son that his father is a loser who doesn't care about his child. But its all good. I don't need Jeremy in my life or in Chris's life either. Personally, I sat down and thought about it all and I had a revelation. I do not plan on being with anyone for a long time...if ever even. I don't want to share my son, and my son has made it clear that he doesn't want to share me as well. I've realized that I am enjoying being a single mother very much as opposed to being in a relationship.
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1.What is in the back seat of your car right now?
Scraper for my windshield
2. When was the last time you threw up?
I think it's been a couple years
3. What's your favourite curse word?
4. What’s in your DVD player?
Last Movie I watched was Belly
5. What's your favourite episode of Friends?
ummm...don't really watch it
6. Does anyone have any blackmail on you?
not really nope
7. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be?
9. Is there anything orange within 10 feet of you?
The warning tag on my keyboard haha
10. Are you wearing socks right now?
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
12. What are you wearing right now?
Wouldn't you like to know...pervs
13. Last food you ate?
14. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
15. When is the last time you ran?
16. What's the last sporting event you watched?
hmmm probably football...the boyfriend would be proud
i cant belive that in 7 months ill be married wow it seems like him and i just met. he is tiny on cherry tap ,he is the love of my life the most wonderful man i have even met. i cant beilive all of the stuff there is to do to plan our wedding and it doesnt help that he isnt home all that often, so lil ole me is doing on my own, which is fine than i know its done the way that i want it done. i still have a few things left to do but its all tiny stuff.
i have just lost my train of thought oh well ill finish this when it comes back lmao
Ok, so new here... hard for a dumbass *me* to use, haha. But Zigs is showing me how :) so I'm getting there :) anywho... boring or what? :P
Well.I hear google is going to start paying people
that are creative and advertise them via youtube
Within the next few months!(Has to not be copyright)
So artists artists I seek lol!
You create art? I make vids!
You create music? (I can add music to vids lol)
Maybe we can work some shit out n advertise each other!
Money money it makes the world go round!
So why not get paid for just fucking around?
Its cold, damnit!!! I am tired of this winter weather, siure do wish it would warm up a bit!! Have a great day!!
im sitting in my office with absolutely nothing to do and im bored out of my fucking mind. i wish that i knew where there was a party. maybe if i could get trashed then i wouldn't be so bored. anyway. blah.
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Don't you think the name Barry is the stupidest name a guy can have? No.
What do you think of popcorn? Good, unless people chomp on it and annoy me.
If you had to spend five straight hours listening to Eve, or Eve 6 which would you pick? Eve 6 for sure.
Ever huff house hold chemicals? no
Do you like soup? yes
How about soap? sure
Ever watch porno just to laugh at it? Pretty much
Ever watch porno for other reasons? I guess you could say that too
Who do you like better -- Jerry or Andy Garcia? Jerry
Have you ever drawn on yourself with a marker? yes
If yes, what was it? If no, why not? random things
Do you like Christmas? it's my favorite holiday!
Do you like your birthday? yeah, who doesn't?
Do you trust your horoscope? a little
Do you trust your friends? yes
Who ARE your friends? people.
Which of your friends are your top 2 favorites? No fair.
Do you hate beer? no
Have you ever lied to your best friend? Yes
Have you ever dated a
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What to write what to write
How about that I wish
I was kissing you tonight
Rolling around beneath the sheets
Our tongues and bodies intertwined
Come on over here baby
And get tangled in me tonight
Not sure where your body ends
And where mine begins
Blended together creating
Just one skin
Tickles and taunts
Laughs and wiggles
A million and one kisses
Whispers that make us giggle
Come on baby
We can chase each other
Around the room
And roll across the bed
Tumbling to the floor
U can pin me
Then I’ll pin you
Breathless and sweaty
Heat in our eyes
Fire from my fingertips
Fire from your thighs
Come on baby ravage me
And I’ll ravage you tonight
Until we’re both exhausted
Falling asleep intertwined
Come on over here baby
And let me leave u speechless
I promise I can show you
That real love exists
The face of disappointment reflects back from a blank screen,
Faded memories of a love that I had once before seen,
Foolish yes, foolish no, never really sure where this person wants to go.
I've given my best, I've given my all, and yet in return my heart's left
A whim and on grace, it's torn from this place that I've hidden before.
I can't touch it, can't see it, but please still believe it?
What trusts must I be burdened to hold, while my heart grows so cold?
No hint of desire, no thoughts to conspire my reverence is forced to
Not captive, not free, what place would this be? Not heaven, not earth,
joy and not mirth,
Sheer terror, and dread whirl 'round in my head.
No warm comforting kisses, no "I love you", no "I miss's"
Just bleed me, and lead me around on this string,
No consequences, no regrets, no thoughts of effects,
Nothing, but fading into shadowy absences.
What life is this? What place is this? What feeling is THIS that you
I GIVE UP
FUCK IT WHATEVER...
Just feeling blah today. nobody seems to be online, I've watched all the movies there are to watch. Can't seem to motivate myself to get around.
Well, it all started over 2 weeks ago. I have a bad cough off and on,am congested,sniffles,bad allergies,glands and lymph nodes in my neck making it hard so swallow or talk,sinuses are bothering me,feel naucous, vomiting,and on top of that, I have my period since yesterday. Oh, I also had a fever blister for a week and a half too,its been healing and reopening again. I feel as if I have a fever off and on too. So if ya want, you can leave me comments,if not, I won't mind.
So yeah, I just joined cherry tap and it is kind of confusing, but I think I am getting the hang of it. So far I have met some really nice people on here. This is kind of like myspace, but a lot better... If that makes any sense at all.
Well until next time!
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So today has been one trying day. I feel like it's only been one rotten event after another and it didn't end until I got home. Really it's only been a few events but they all occured within a few hours...
I was hanging out at home this morning minding my own business when my mom called and told me about her idea to attempt to find a child to do day care for and that she had called Kristin to talk and that her voice mail message had changed. In fact it had changed to, "Hi you've reached the former extension of Kristin *****." This seemed rather odd to me so I called Westwood College and asked for her, where I was promptly told that she was no longer with the school.
This wouldn't really bother me except for one thing. In our divorce agreement Kristin agreed to cover my health insurance for a year. Unless she got fired first. Which you know, stuff happens you can't help it. However it seems to me that if she did get fired, and most especially if she quit, that she owes me a phone
Blah ......new Blog
hmm so whats new..
Not much Iv been bored..
Drinking smoking weed..
Tryin to fix this shit hole we live in
keeping myself busy and being kept in the dark
as to my legal situation!
Oh well tis life n it goes on till the powers to be choose otherwise!
How a coke head is in charge I will never know
Its like Im cursed From em
Got crazy bush out to kill us all n my stalker just out to do w/e to me lol
Anyways Im usually on myspace once a day so..
add me on myspace but dont use microsoft use firefox
or bill gates will fuck your shit up lol jk
B L A H
Our email is down at work and I tried getting into one our online programs for over an hour this morning only to see there was tons of work waiting for me.
Lovely day here at work, I can feel it coming. =(
This is my first blog on here...I don't really have anything in particular to say, I just feel like writing.
I'm watching the Grudge on TV....and I can't for the life of me remember why that damn creepy kid makes the cat noises.
This is the beginning of the first weekend since August that I haven't had to work. I tried to make plans but the guy I was going to see is a douche bag. Now I'm not sure what to do with myself for the next two days.
When I drink alone, I prefer to be by myself.
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I hate this cold weather. It sucks. Wish it were warm. blah.
Anyways, you should check out the one site I'm on, its a great community and has tons of hot models.
Just click the banner to sign up and show me your support!
I am gonna call it a nite. Go watch Grease, Your the one that I want and Surreal life fame games.
ok so its about 7am my hubby as been gone for less than 5 mins and all ready i feel blue i hate that he works off soar its like being an army wife all oer again atleast in boot he could call home once a day out there he barly gets a signal and god forbid some thing happens getting a message to him takes an act of congress eww if i had the money i'd never let him go even when he's in ass hole mode full steam i still find some comnedy in whats going on just the faces he makes the way he gets sso worked up about the smallest thing and then forgets about it in an hour and starts cutting up again the smell of his axe sprayed cloths the feel of his arm draped over me in my sleep the way his heart beats when he holds me befor bed are things i cant stand to be with out i admit i ran from hi 3 times now god the way peapole get in middle of some ones life with out asking if they could matters of a love spat should be left to the lovers to slove pray i wont be fooled again by any one my heart we
God Damnit its weather puke everywhere (thank you Sarah for this term)
SOMEONE QUICK, come entertain me.. I am sick of watching TV and watching Demi Moore's biography...
Quick shoot me and put me out of my misery
WELL WENT TO THE CIRCUS LAST NIGHT LIKE I WAS SUPPOSE TO.......IT WAS TRAGIC THEY HAVE CHANGED SO MUCH AND THERE WERE HARDLY NO CLOWNS YAY FOR ME ......SO IT WAS REALLY EXPENSIVE AND COLD LOL....THE WITE HORSES WHERE PRETTY AND OMG THE ELEPHANT WAS HUGE BUT SOOOOOOO COOL SHE HAD LIL PINK SPOTS ON HER SO ANYWAY I GOTTA GET SO LOVE YOU ALL!! XOXOXOX
Moving sucks. Too much to move, too much to throw out. More of a task than anything. Ready for it to just be over with.
well we just got hit with another snow storm, damn i wish it would be just stay warm, kind of tired seening the snow, but then again i am not that fond of summer either
I went to the docter today for my skin rash. It's nothing more than my excema flaring up badly. Darn skin, so that was 80 bucks. Then I got to fill my perscription. one of them was special for my eyelid...46ish bucks. The other was a refill for my lips. My lips are allergic to my saliva, unfortunately, and it causes my excema to breakout on my lips very easyily. So I can't lick my lips or anything. So I have meds for that. But! They gave me cream...cream for my lips! Wrong! It's ointment...stupid pharacy...that was 56 bucks..grrr. But they are going to fix it and I'm never going to go there again...stupid place...keep screwing up that script. That was basically my day...lol. But I got some of those baby legs for Kat! And they fit my arms! So I'm probably going to get some for Eams and more for Kat...hehe. I got to try it on Eams first. But if they fit than dang! They will last Kat forever! anywho....ya I'm done and I'm bored....
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I am irritated. Annoyed. Aggravated. Thought you should all be warned...
Im just about to go to work. Ive been on this site for awhile now and only have 3 friends :( Usually everytime I come to this site it goes to not responding. I dont know why but I guess my pc doesnt like it..lol Anyway just wanted to write a little something bout this site not wanting to work while it was working...lol
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ok so this is the first blog ive done and i dont really know what to say. i like this site its cool n shit and alot of people i know are on here so thats all good too! i would like to find more peeps on here that i know and stuff so i can have more friend! ok well thats all for now ill talk to everyone laters!
Blah, Just Blah!
I feel so alone tonight.. guess its because I had Michael for the weekend and now he's gone.. He's my cuddlebug hehe.. now it's back to Frogger..
It sucks being a part time parent, and only getting to see him 4 days out of the month. Luckily I was able to have him for my birthday as well so it turned out to be 6 days this month, not even close to enough though. Going from having him all the time from birth to 9yrs old, then to this part time crap, SUCKS! And it sucks BAD! Ah well, Im going to cry myself to sleep.. lol pitiful eh *shrugs* ah well, guess that's what I am tonight. Didn't help that we had a great weekend together, even went and saw a movie.. then to have it ruined by his Dad being the asshole he truely is! Grrrrrr, alright.. enuf im going to bed.. and before 3am.. can you believe it? lol
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this is my first blog and i really have no idea what to put in it so i'm just gonna ramble on and on. ha, but who dosent? well i'll just tell a little about myself i guess....i am 5' tall, natural brown hair but i dye it dark red sometimes...like i just did the other night....lol. i have hazel eyes, and i like all types of music. yeah can you tell i'm really bored here??? oh well...hit me up sometime...love to chat.
ok soo I am down in comments in the contest I am in and I sent out bulletins and only a few came to help me in it .. does that mean that ppl on my list are just there for porn or something cause well it sooo isnt there lmao .. anyway if anyone even reads this . I am asking one last time cause I am over 2000 behind PLEASE comment bomb me in my contest .. click the pic below to get to the place :)
Hugs Bratty lil Kitten
Hey everyone, im new here but im slowly figuring shit out. woot woot! if you could give me any pointers thatd be great, leve me a msg :P ciao for now :D:D
Hey everyone, im new here but im slowly figuring shit out. woot woot! if you could give me any pointers thatd be great, leve me a msg :P ciao for now :D:D
So I'm in some sort of funk...I dont know whats goin on with me. I almost got into a car accident today because some stupid fuckin cuntrag wasn't paying attention and pulled out infront of me. So I slammed my brakes on thank god we didnt hit but we were about an inch away from eachother..I'm tellin ya People out here are fucking DUMB. Never in my life have I seen so many stupid people in one area. Gotta love Florissant. Anyway, I took Dillon to his doctor's appointment today and then came home and started cleaning and as soon as I started cleaning I just felt shitty. I don't know maybe I should hire a maid or something hahaha wouldn't that be great. Maybe I need to go and smoke a big fatty and just chill out and zone off into my own space who knows...Anyway that's it I'm just blabbering anyway lol. Later all
I have a headache and i'm really frustrated today..Might i add cranky.
too much coffee.
too many people.
too much banter.
anxiety attacks suck.
made it home beforehand tho.
You see, i'm sort of a shutin, i rarely leave my house and when i do it's to go to another house not into public. I just dont like people, crowds specifically. Humorously enough i 'm always working customer service. It's a mask I put on thaqt makes me bright, bubbly and enthusiastic, however now that i'm home and i think i'll shiver for a bit...
I have a headache... the end
so i am not sure if my last blog is going to post and i am a little pissed off about how it is working right now. i am going to do some bitching again.
there is this guy that i am sort of drawn to. my friends say he likes me and i can kind of see it, but i am not sure. he has a girlfriend and its obvious that he is not happy. i don't understand why people stay in relationships where they are not happy. in pictures i have seen of him and his girlfriend he is not smileing. he doesn't smile in too many pictures, but the one picture that i have of the 2 of us he has a big ole smile on his face.
i am not sure if i like him or not, but i can tell you that nothing is going to happen as long as he is with his girlfriend. ia m sure he will probably read this and know exactly who i am talking about but i dont care.
now back to the liking him. i am drawn to him and i am not sure if there are real feelings there. he reminds me so much of this guy i used to be in love with. per
Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
A little high, little low
Anyway the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me, to me
Mama, just killed a man
Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye everybody - I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooo - (anyway the wind blows)
I don't want to die
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all
I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouch, scaramouch will you do the fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning - very very frightening m
I hate when I find myself in a situation where I'm supposed to be totally cool and pretend like nothing bothers me. Meanwhile, inside, I'm screaming for answers. The thing is, though, that I'm too scared to ask the questions. I know it's better to know than to constantly be wondering and I've always been one to tell someone what I was thinking. Why is it so hard this time?
I'm ready for bed...
Time to get angry again so I can wake up...
I was on helium a few weeks ago, and I was reading thru the philosophy articles, and there was one that was titled "Why We Exist" I thought HA! I gotta read this... I love nothing more than a good debate on taboo shit man. So here I am reading these peoples articles... "We are here cuz its Gods will" blah blah blah... I want to believe in god as much as I can, but the reality of it is, If I dont believe in Gandolf, I am damn sure not going to believe in god. Anyway, here was my response to them...
What is the reason for our existence? Everyone has asked themselves that question at one time or another. No matter what anyone else says, you as a human will stick to your guns about your beliefs. However, every once in a while, someone will open up and see someone else's point of view.
Back to the question on hand, what is the reason of our existence? There is no reason. There does not need to be a reason. We are her
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I never know what to say on a first blog. Ok so I suppose I will start off by talking about me!
Most of you know that I am married to a wonderful man who is in the Army. Until recently I was also in the Army...now in the National Guard. That is a different story for another blog...LOL
I am a surgical tech and I love my job. I am going back to school for my nursing degree...which isn't all fun and games...
I have kids that I love dearly but sometimes they drive me crazy.
But other than that...if you want to know something you can ask me.
I don't talk about politics, religion, abortion, gay marriage or any other subject that gets people in heated discussions...I have my own opinions on things and I am happy with the fact that they may not be the same as yours. I will say that I am 100% behind stem cell research! Enough said!
I have friends from all over with all different backgrounds. I love my friends...friends and family are very important to me!
Well...that is abou
JUst blogging for no apparent reason... good night everybody! MUAHZ!
i spent all day yesterday sleeping cause i felt like poo. i feel a little better today just really really sore.
i'd like to thank Nati though for the incessant phone calls wondering where the hell I was. LOL.
Ah my friends/family are the best.
Thanks to everyone else who wished me well. you guys are awesome. =)
I feel soo blahh right now..Im about to get my drunk on..so stay tuned.
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I just want to know why I'm so sexually frusterated recently. Like I never think about sex that much but recently I have been quite often. HMMM... Oh well, guess it is a phase that will pass...LOL
Blah (again) Meh
Yanno, it never seems to fail.
Somehow, no matter what I do.... I get like almost morbidly depressed...
This is not good, and I'm not really wanting to slip back into the snap at everyone about every little thing that happens kinda moods... Its not fair to them...
It's not fair to me.
What have I ever done to feel like this? It's just not right. I don't even understand it...
I mean, this is a rarity in and of itself.
Yanno, me actually taking the time to sit here and try to put into words how I feel and what I'm thinking, simply because I generally don't try to confide in people, or in blogs, or journals... But I felt like I might explode or go do something I would ultimately regret if I didn't.
But right now I want to thank DJ Milf for playing Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol in the DZ Lounge, kinda made my morning better...
That song is supposed to be a happy kinda sappy song, I think... But if I'm in a good mood it makes me utterly depressed, and when depressed it k
So i drank like half a bottle of whiskey tonight and i felt like shit!...
So i drank like 3 litres of water..I dont think i've drank that much water in my ENTIRE life..lol
Just thought i would mention this.
Ohhhh and..WOOHOO for 70 new fans tonight...BBGs Train ROCKS!!
Im going to bed..my boyfriend finally stopped snoring! =]
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just bored wanted to say hi to everyone.. my hubby is in iraq right now and will be home for 2 weeks mid april god like hell... i have my 2 kids which are growin too fast for me to keep up lol well thats it for now i will add mroe later but since this is my first time on this i'll make it short
im so bored. someone entertain me. im in oak creek,wi
wow last night was one hell of a night got fucked up and got in to a big ass fight with my ex and god i am hung the fuck over
I am drunk and pissed off. Great combo of things. My night at the bar was going good until a few things happened. Since there is no one I know on here from my area, I can rant and rave all I want when drunk. And this is what happened:
1) This dude's gf walks in on the middle of my conversationg and totally flips out and got all pissed because I thought it was weird she was 34 and dating a 26 year old. Yea..good game on getting pissed on hearing half the convo. So I appologized and said she misunderstood that I couldnt believe she was 34 when she honest to God looked 26-28 and just thought it weird she was lying about her age. Again, she missed like half the convo. So yea, that got me pissed.
2) My brother's x-gf thought she would be kind enough to grace all of us that were gather with her presence. Uh yea...we dont like her...none of us do. Why cant she be home raising her child?! Fucking hell, learn to be a mother stupid bitch. >.<
3)Got some rude ass messege from a friend o
I some times do not know what to do..I try so hard and i get no where... all i want to do is cry myself to sleep but i can't becaise of the baby..it is not fair to her...
I need help.. *sigh*
sorry for venting
here I am again trying to make sense of things arghhh I just don't understand people and I am all confused. How can people say they care about you and that they are your friend and at the same time avoid you and don't wanna have anything to do with you!
I don't know I am the type of person who would do anything for friends and love spending time with them...even if it is doing nothing! I guess here is when my naivety kicks in and tells me 'believe them they are your friends'. However, there is so much a person can take before they doubt their intentions..them trying to spare your feeling by saying nah i don't really care and take a hint! Is it hard to tell it to my face rathen than everything being a game? Oh well i am just ranting on as always...blah!
Blah And Icky
So today is my birthday. I am turning 32 and I am hating it sooo much. Between counting greys and wondering where my perky boobies went it kinda has me feeling blah. And I am not doing a thing for my birthday either so that has me saying blah too.
i hate to be treated like shit and done wrong. everyone knows i am a nice person and i dont do what i dont want to do so who ever it is trying to knock me down go for it cause whever you are and you are supposedly a friend of mine your wrong cause you are missing with someones feelings.
dudes im bored.. how about some messages or some like umm comments... i have so many friends i dont even know where to begin... so comment me and i will soo give you one back :D pleaseeeeeeeeeeee i need a pick me up im kinda bummed tonight thank you guys :)
Blah To The Nights....
...that bring me no sleep.
i swear...this always happens to me when i want sleep the most. i try to go to bed...but all i end up with is a messed up bed from all my tossing & turning.
i guess you could say im restless. anxious works too.
i lost another "friend" this week. ugh. im sick of all these people who have their head so far up their ass that all they can talk is shit. i dont need you people to understand why i find happiness in the fact that ive only seen sean for 11 days this whole year...its not how long i got to see him but the fact that i was with him. you dont have to understand...just give me the respect i deserve.
great. now my eyes are all teary. oh no...dont think that because my eyes teared up im gonna start crying. ha! far from it. i can handle anything that comes my way...why because people depend & believe in me....thats why.
sean is supposed to come home in april...i just dont know what day. although he did say he would call this sunday & let me kno
Well Spanx to all that have added me, seriously tho.. how the fooker do you work this stuff out?? okies i been here for a few weeks, and ive only just learnt how to make a blog. *roflmao* sad i know!! anywayz sum humour for ya'all *winx*
Whats your answer??
Strike while the .........fookers down!!.
Never underestimate the power of............ants.
Don't bite the hand that....................looks dirty.
Better to be safe than........... Given a Wedgie
If you lie down with dogs, you'll.......stink in the morning.
It's always darkest before............DaylightSaving Time.
You can lead a horse to water but...........how?
No news is..................................impossible.
A miss is as good as a......................Mr.
You can't teach an old dog new......... Pooping places
Love all, trust.............................me.
The pen is mightier than the.............. pencil.
An idle mind is.....................the best way to rela
Mmmm to the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch (don't touch)
And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it's my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if shes home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you think
I was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car tha
One of my close friends has been going through a lot of shit recently that seems so similar to what i have gone through... mainly in feeilng than literal sense.... but when all that bullshti was going on with lindon... i would just cry sometimes because i didn't know what else to do... i loved him so much, and wanted more than anything to not love him... to not feel anything for him... to pretend like he wasn't real, like he never existed in my life.... It sucked... a lot... and she's going through the same basic crap...
I hadn't thought a lot about lindon very much recently, until i was reading her journal... and i remembered how tough it was wanting so badly to not love him... i wished i could just remove him from my life, and be ok with it... and not cry, not hurt, not be mad, and just be, ok with him moving on... and do so myself... And, honestly, i don't actually remember when i happened... i just, stopped caring... stopped crying, stopped thinking about him... and just, moved
I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I'm really only worried about the sexiest couple contest.
I KNOW I have the best tattoo in that other contest, but it's just a popularity contest, lol...
Go vote for Heath and I in the sexiest couple contest!!!!
And then go vote for me in a best tattoo contest!!!
And tomorrow, while Heath is sleeping off his surgery...I'll have another contest link, lol...
Been a boring night. I had to work at 4 and we were short a cook, so all the food was running really long and it made the night go longer than it really did. Ick
Well only two more weeks before Justin comes home but this wait totally sucks, I hate it, I am making it but this JRTC crap is for the birds, deployment again is going to suck, but it's all a part of the job and I'm proud of my baby so that is all that matters I guess. Hope everyone is well!!
must go to bed so i can get up for work in the morning
dont wanna go
can't afford to call in again
damn i dont wanna go
and heck this in random
I want to write this blog to say thank you...to everyone who reads them...to my friends, and anyone else...I joined CT because it seemed like it was a place where I could fit in, and be myself...so far it has not disappointed....Everyone I have met has been supportive and even encouraging...that is something that a lot of other sites are lacking...Everyone on my friends list has been really cool even though I don't get to speak to them as much as I like....But in general...Thank you all.....STAY SIC
Blah, Blah, Dance Lessons?
I have two tests today, a government and a math test. I didn't study as much as I wanted/needed for the govt test. I decided last night to stop studying to get about three hours of sleep. I figure I have an hour during lunch to study, then a couple hours after work... but the thing that bugs me is that I spent a shit load of time studying for my math test, when I may not even need the damn class!
I found out that A&M doesn't have an equivalent class number to it, so the credits won't transfer over. I emailed the dean of the education college to find out if I would be able to substitute it, but if not, it's just a wasted credit, wasted time. sigh.
If I did drop it, I'd have a lot more free time. I still haven't started on my research paper for my govt class, and that's due in 4 weeks. fun times for sure.
If I do drop calculus, I figure I can do something I've been needing to do for a long time.. take dance lessons. Lesa loooooves to dance, and I don't know how. I need
You never know when you meet someone if she’ll be the one
Am I your one that you will find my beauty on the inside
Is what I have to offer enough for your smiles for your lifetime
Did you look at me and wonder if I am the one
Am I just the here and now
The disposable one that you can kiss and walk away from
You never know when you kiss someone if she’ll be the one
Did you ask yourself if our kiss made the difference
The difference between the before and the now
Do you see my truths in my eyes when I tell you I love you
Do you feel my body shake when you touch me
My anticipation of our us my want for our we
On the inside I am wound up
Lost in the dreams of tomorrow
Wondering if my today is enough to get me there
well after sleeping like 14 hrous i dont feel as upset about things as i did, but i still feel like shit. I dont know why i just get like this sometimes, its like when things come to a good point i do my best to fuck it up, but you know thats just dez. oh well. gonna go lay back down, maybe just sleep the rest of today away.
Blah Money Problems
When i get a check, the money is already spent. I got my check on Wed, and by saturday i am flat broke. I can not blame it all on gas prices either, as much as i want too. This is all my fault. I hate money sometimes. I feel as though it controls me, makes me spend what i do not have. I feel worthless without it, and a slave too it. I spent most of my money on things that i do not need. What the hell, i tell myself. Do i want to be in debt forever? Do i want to miss money so much, that i almost feel willing to do anything for some more of it? Its the worst drug.
Just Blah...nuff said
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Morning all! Happy Birfday to Johnnydevil! ILU! muah
Im sick..not sure with what just feel blah. I have a swollen lymphnode under my chin that hurts like a biznitch! Gotta take kids to the dr. I'll bbs.
today I will drink nothing but water. I really need to get back to the whole eating healthy, being healthy thing. Just the past few months I have really felt more like "give me a smokey and pour me another!" lol. no... I am not smoking, and I really have no plans to start anytime. I just feel like I need to shed the winter, we are a month into springtime and I feel as though I should still be in hibernation.
I think the worst part of it is I am bored with food. I feel like I am always cooking the same things or some variation of. BBQ season is coming up. where are my light flavorful salads and refreshing vitamin filled juices? where's the flavor of life? I had cereal for breakfast.....cereal people, I am not a cereal person. especially not apple jacks. (disappointed in self)
on different note, today is pretty much filled with the same old routine it has been for the past few days, a little music, packing, cleaning, and today we add in ballet.
the kids have minimum day and they wil
Today is one of those days where I am so bored I can barely stand to breathe.Everything I have touched has turned to shit. ~waits~ I just to see what else will go haywire. Hopes the rest of you are having a better day then myself.
Evanescense - Wher...
I am still stuck
And I dont know what people are capable of..
So I seeked out someone I used to talk to and I will be teaching them all that I know.
They are wise to so I continue to learn as I show.
But the purpose is this
If anything happens to me or I cant complete this on my own
We will ensure they dont succeed in what there doing
Its my last ditch effort
To ensure that a kind of peace will survive
No matter how bad shit gets.
For the problem is this
In places like the middle east we have people like osama with sex slaves
do to the koran being read in a differint light...
So the guy has kids popping out like rabbits.
Teachin em about jihad
The saddest part is osama was created by the cia basicly was used as a tool to fight the russians
back in the 80s due to daddy bush wanted to help stabilze the middle east from the creation of Isreal his dad helped cause.
Plus it was a dam good reason to create the united nations and star
I'm sooooooo bored. I don't feel like going to sleep. I'm sick and tired of playing poker. I don't have anyone to talk to. Woah is me.
anyone have any specific requests for pics?
well today is just a great day ...sitting here with my 5 yr old daughter alyssa...she has been home from school....and she hates being...she loves school and is really upset cause she cant go to her 5 little monkies play (and she was gonna be the 5th monkey the pink monkey ) she was excited about and could not wait to do it..but yesterday she didnt have a good day the school nurse called me and they brought her home..cause she has one of her breathing attacks...at school and they gave her..her breathing treatments and then brought her home... i hate when she has her breathing attacks..seems like with each one she has they worse...i really wish she didnt have them at all..cause sometimes its real scarey..especailly at night when she is sleeping and has one and sometimes when she is sleeping and has one she stops breathing sometimes...and thats really scarey as hell.......wish there was something i could do to make it go away and her not have that problem anymore...cause most of the time
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soooo yeeh... i started playing my guitar again and my fingers are killing me!!! lol i know how lame to put this in a blog.. okay im leaving now haha! byeee love you all!
I made this and it wont uplaod right. Shows broken. I wanted it as my new display. Imma cry now
This is my first Blog. Yeah. Interesting site.
love = pain.
simple as that.
unless you're in the beginning of something new.
then it's all giggles, butterflies and little heart drawn on pieces of paper.
then you get use to each other
then you know each other
then, and then there's nothing left to learn
nothing new for you to see
nothing but the same old same old everyday.
you make decision in the favor of your relationship
they go un-noticed.
you make sacrifices.
they don't matter.
you go to speak to each other
and nothing comes out
you stop writing letters
you stop drawing hearts.
you stop feeling butterflies.
you have to ask for kisses
for hugs, for affection.
you cry but to whom?
you cry alone.
you sit up at night just because
just to get fallen asleep on
you clean up
it goes un noticed
you feel unappreciated.
you go to speak how you feel
attitudes flare and words fly
you cry some more
you take yourself away from everything you've ever known
ever had, ever earned, ever worke
dont ya just hate when it seems like everything around u is falling a part well thats me right now and it sucks im married but not sure if i wanna be anymore there is no trust he has cheated and he still is talking to other gurls and he trys to hide it lets say he not so good at doing that he cant be honest im not happy havent been in a long time im not happy living back home at my moms it sucks we have a house trying to sell it who knows how long thats going to take i hate when people lie why lie why cant people be honest is it that hard geez i tell pepole how it is they dont like it o well life goes on so tired of guys wanna to talk just so they can meet me and hope they get lucky fuck that thats not me im not that type of gurl well anyways im just venting
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So it's been raining since ohhh 8 pm YESTERDAY and I'm sick of it. I was planning on bringing my spoiled rotten mutt to the Dog Run and letting him run...yeah if I want to track mud thur my apartment all over the brandnew carpet... Oh well
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Eyes that are crystal clear,
one thinks he could see forever.
But within you lies uncertainty and confusion,
like boulders in a raging river.
The swift current, the choppy waters,
this makes for a rough and tumble ride.
Be brave, be true to yourself,
with me there is nothing to hide.
Conquer the rapids, guide this craft,
don't sail this adventure short.
At journey's end, where the water calms,
could lie a safe and wondrous port.
So, it's through great canyons, on to the ocean,
let us greet the unknown.
Paddle fast, my love, get to my heart,
for it is there you might find your own
today just turned out to me a awefull day....i realized i think im being used for somethingi never hoped id ever be used for and by someone i thought "loved" me.....and that i never thought would do this to me....it sucks
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I was talking to my sister on the phone yesterday and she told me that one of the Air Force pilots that do the air shows with all the neat trick and stuff crashed like 3 or 4 days ago in Beaufort SC. That REALLY sucks. She also told me about several weird things that have happened in my homoe town of Charleston (her Mother in law cleans the ER so she gets to find out the dirt). There was an incident where a woman left her 5 or 6 month old daughter at home with her boyfriend while she went to work... this guy Sexually assulted the infant and in the end after they tried to remove him (he got stuck) they had to castrate him. In my honest opinion that is not all he deserves!
Another fun day in my life. Torie woke up this monring bleeding from her ear. Took her to the pediatrician and he sent us right to the ENT. She has a granuloma in her left ear now and her ear was full of junk.He suctioned it. Put her on Cipro. This is not good. She had these tube place about a year ago and the last time she develpoed a granuloma in the opposite ear. This is not normal. Not once but twice. And she had MRSE as well. Anyhow thats my day so far. We go back in 10 days to discuss YET another surgery.
Heres a song cuz i was thinking of it as I was driving home.
Blah.. I'm so tired of the So and So wants you to see this Profile/Picture/Mumm thing. It's getting ridiculously annoying. It's gotten to a point where if I get more than one a day from a certain member I'm deleting them. If I want to look at certain things I'll find them on my own. I don't need your help. One every once in a while is fine but one hourly? or even daily? That's crazy. BLAH!
Im just in one of those moods. So leave me the fuck alone. I dont want to talk to anyone. That means YOU too! All I want is to fly away and not come back. Or to play in traffic and see what happens. Dont write me asking whats wrong. Dont tell me how things are going to get better. I dont want to hear you. I got enough going on in my mind. Im trying to be nice today but its hard. So if you dont want me offending you dont write me. I just find it funny how everyone can find a way to.....
But yea. Only I know whats in my head, so dont try to pretend like you know. You dont.
No one does.
Theres not a single person who really knows whats happenin in my head. Or my heart.
And its going to stay that way as long as it can. Just leave me alone this week.
I feel like I want to crawl in a dark corner and never come out. I want to leave and not come back. I wish I could run away and make them all happy. I hate to feel the cause of
I got my medicine today! I just hope I dont have any reaction to it or anything.. I cleaned my house.. yeah its freakishly clean.. im tired of being the only one who does anything.. but, at least I have the satisfaction knowing its mine I cleaned it and its all thanks to me..
I am tired WAY TIRED of people lying to me.. wtf? why cant people be honest and just be them..
I have thought about moving out of state.. back to iowa.. and living with my parents.. there isnt much keeping me here anymore.. but I do this.. I get uneasy and run from shit.. instead of facing it.. I guess its my way of dealing with it..
I wish people cared about me and how I feel.. but what friends I do have I am thankful for.. I just thought people were different.. but I guess I was wrong...
I am such a good person.. And have changed things drastically in my life.. for me and not anyone else.. but still im miserable...
I am goin to be alone for the rest of my life.. so fuck.. why wait anylonger... ma
Im tired..I work too much i needed to work tonite and they wouldnt let me...too many hours they say...they dont want to pay me overtime...ok..now i dont understand this...im a server i only make 3.65 an hour...i make my money in tips...how is it paying me overtime is gonna break them???...they pay their cooks ot...why not us?...i think im gonna just start slinging blow jobs on the side LMMFAO
So....yeah I went to the icp show lastnight(for free)I'v seen em a few times,but it was effing nuts!After my shower I still could smell grape faygo all over me....and a got a black eye.Good show...My next show will be tool.Well thats all I have to say....have a goodday!!!
Soo...i figured I write a blog on here...since theres nothing else to do!!!...
If there are any people on here from Muncie or close by def. hit me sometime! I wanna find some new people to go out with on the weekends...and if you dont drink or party..then dont bother..k?
Well its about 6pm...and im waiting on my daughter to wake up so we can go on a walk before it gets too dark...then later tonight me and my man are gonna just chill and drink to ourselves since we never get a chance to do that anymore!...oughtta be NICE...
Anyways...im sure i'll be writing more blogs since its my favorite thing in the world to do...even if what I write is extremely pointless and stupid...just dont hate on me...well you can if you want...i could care less! haha
I'm slowly starting to delete everything off my account... I'm leaving ct... its not fun anymore, its actually rather boring and lame lately...Anyone wants to keep in touch, my yahoo is : mystical_gemini_1981 or my msn is firstname.lastname@example.org..
I will be deleting my account monday morning b4 I leave to go out of town with my daughter for her surgery, was good knowing the rest of you, much love, and enjoy life =)
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TODAY I HAD A VERY INTERESTING CONVERSATION.... OK, SO HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW HOW SOMEONE FEELS, WHEN THEY DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT IT?!?!?!? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON, WHEN THEY DON'T SHARE THE INSIDE INFO??? AM I SUPPOSE TO JUST ASSUME HOW YOU FEEL??? YOU NEVER TOLD ME, YOU NEVER REALLY TALKED TO ME AND ALL OF A SUDDEN, I'M SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND???? I'M SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY WITH IT ALL? NO, I DON'T FUCKING THINK SO!!!! THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS!! YOU DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT ALL THIS SHIT NOW! NOW THAT I HAVE FOUND SOMEONE WHO CAN BE HONEST WITH ME. SOMEONE WHO CAN TELL ME HOW HE FEELS ABOUT ME! SOMEONE WHO KNOWS HOW TO TREAT A WOMAN!! THAT'S IT... NO MORE DRAGGING ME DOWN... YOU KNOW WHO THE HELL YOU ARE, YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEEN SAID AND DONE... AND I'M NOT LETTING YOU TAKE CONTROL OF THIS GIRL!!! I'M IN CONTROL, NOT YOU!! NOT ANYMORE... NO MORE WAITING FOR YOU, NO MORE WONDERING IF YOUR OKAY... NO MORE!!! PERIOD! I'M USUALLY A PRETTY NICE PERSON, A CARING PERSON, A
ok sorry i havent been keepin up with this page imm gonna try too keep it updated from now on
Why is it anyone that a find truly aesthetically hot never looks at me the same way? Am I just looking out of my league or what? Ugh. Makes me feel like a dog.
so ya i dont really know what to put on here. lifes been more then hard these days but im hopeing soon that things will start lookin up! i finally got all my shit into my new place so ya! still at the same shit job and still in the same shitty car but i guess those are two things i can start workin on now. anyone wanna buy me a new car?! lol!!! ok im done now laters!
OK...SO TODAY'S BEEN AN EXCEPTIONAL BEAUTIFUL DAY! I'VE SPENT SO MUCH TIME ENJOYING THE SUNSHINE... ONLY REALLY HERE TO ADD PICTURES...OR LEAVE COMMENTS. I REALLY NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS TANNING BUSINESS... YES.. I AM AN INDIAN... LOL OK...SO I NEED SOME IDEAS OF WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE NOW. I GUESS WHAT I NEED TO DO WITH MY LIFE. AND I'VE BEEN GETTING MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK AGAIN. I'LL BE GOING TO WORK SOON... OR TAKING A COUPLE OF COURSES... WHICH WILL LEAD INTO A COUPLE MORE COURSES...PRETTY MUCH... BUSINESS MANAGEMENT. AND A COUPLE OTHER'S ON TOP OF THAT ONE. ANYWAY... WHAT I'M SAYING.. IS IF YOUR READING THIS... THEN GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AND ENJOY THE SUNSHINE!! HAHA LIKE ME... HAVE A GREAT REST OF THE DAY...
~NEEDS A TAN BAD~
So I've been in a rather blah kind of mood as of late. The reasone being I want to move to be with my gf but I can't afford the move right now like I want to. On top of that my phone has been pissing me off lately. So yeah just be kinda blah and not really been in the mood to deal with shit. So yeah I'm hopeing things get better sooner than later.
So what's the deal? I'm attractive, overweight, but I still think I look pretty damn good. Well wtf can't I find a guy who is attractive as well?!? Any guy who shows any serious interest in me is not attractive to me. Grr...
ok so i'm sitting here bored with nothing to do all my friends are hungover from last night and don't want to do anything.. they f'n suck. anyone wanna hang??
i have over 1000 friends and only 3 people have helped me in this contest i am so ashamed i thought i was loved more than this...
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makes me real sad please someone out there help me it will make me so happy
Sorry it has been a while. Being as I live in the country, there is no such thing as the internet. Well unless it is dial-up and then it is a long distance call. This is so so frustrating. I HATE it here. I have to literally go into town with my laptop and go to the coffee shop where they have wireless internet access in order to do anything online. I cannot wait until I get the hell out of there. But enough of my bashing country living.
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Hello all, sorry it's been awhile since I Have actually posted a real blog, I have been in and out of here, havent been feeling all that great today. But I managed to get a few things done any ways, shew I tell ya life is a bitch then I come along lol. Ok well I have a few things to work on so I may grace you with my presence later, if not P34C3.
after I GET MY SHIT DONE I AM ABOUT TO BE SITTING HERE CHILLAXING
Name 7 things in your bag (or if you’re male…wallet/ pocket):
Name 6 things you do when you’re really stressed:
1. call lis and scream on the phone
2. call nati and scream on the phone
3. text my frustrations to tierre
4. go for a drive
5. go to the liquor store
6. smoke like a chimney
Name 5 favorite fruits:
Name 4 names you go by:
2. And something my father says with ferocity.
Name 3 things you are wearing right now
1. grey hoodie
3. greenish tank
Name 2 people you are thinking about right now.
What are you thinking about right now? Having a cigarette
Where is your phone? To the left… to the left
Where do you sleep? …what the hell kind of question is this?!
Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? Wal-Mart
What was the last thing you ate? Chips.
This morning sissy came out and went swimming with me. I feel a little better. Lately I feel so blah, more so than being sad about Daddy. I need more vitamins or something. Maybe I will get that detox thing again, it was gross tasting but in the end I did feel slightly better. I just can't seem to drag myself out of bed lately, or get motivated about anything.
later this afternoon I will have to go run about and do some grocery shopping for this saturday. I better make sure I eat before I leave or I will buy a pie, crawl back in bed, and get fat. lol
thats it for now I suppose, I am sure I will blog later
Hey there....hope everyone is faring well. Me? Im aight . Never heard anything back from the doctor, so Im assuming that he felt I dont need a mammogram. My follow up appointment is on the 7th, at which time Im gonna ask her to up the dosage of my Amitriptylin. Its kinda sorta doing what its supposd to, but kinda sorta aint gonna cut it.
Sorry I havent been around much. Havent really had anything to say. Havent written anything new. Nothing new has happened, just work , home and the pc. While I havent been loyal on my visits to 360verse, I HAVE been around. Im always on messenger when Im online, just invisible sometimes.
Ive been poking my nose around for better job oppertunities. Nothing serious...yet....just looking around. Im tired of workin in food service. It blows, big time. That, and it seems that Subway, and all of us who work there, are being held to blame for everything that happens in that place. Take for example, the kids who work inside the store, often come into Sub
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So, I'm house sitting for my sister and her husband and I've been here all weekend by myself and now I'm sitting here drinking. And when I drink, I start thinking pretty deep. Don't really know why, but I do. So, anyway here goes.
I'm so tired of the way my life is going, and I hate feeling like all I do is bitch about my crappy life. So, I'm gonna work on fixing all of that. Right now I'm working part time for one of the school districts in the valley and I love it. Trying to get on full time for the next school year. I just love working with kids. As much as they can drive me bonkers I really do love them. So, I've decided that in the fall I'm going to go to school to be a teacher. But I'll probably do high school. I just don't want to feel like I have to "hold their hands" all the time. But I would love to do that. Would be a job I loved and I would get the pleasure of knowing I was doing something good and helping shape who the kids were becoming.
I've also been doing a lot o
Well the holiday was a regular day. Not much happened and it slowed down my job hunt being as everyone was off. I am going to give this place two weeks and decide if I am staying or not. I know it has been a while but when yo live inthe middle of BFE and you have no internet access it is hard to keep up. It is so friggen silly. It is like, "pack up the car ma! we're going to town!" This is the 21st century. Do people still pack up the car to go to town? Why would they do that? Why the hell am I doing that?
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Just wanted to write this down, been thinking about it recently. Basically, i've noticed a change in me since I started using this site. Before I was on here I was like this un-noticed kid, kinda moped around, always looked at the floor when I was out and about, really shy and so on and so forth. Well since i've been on here, i've had that whole love thing happen to me twice, which was very new to me, very very new in fact, basically cause the only time i'd talked to girls, nevermind women was when I had to at school, other than that they basically didn't know I existed, so yeah, thats one thing. What I'm trying to get at is that somehow, using a website and chatting to mostly people half way accross the world, I acctually feel better of myself, not a lot, i'm still shy and such, but because of that gap i suppose its easier, but I now walk around with my head up (singing most of the time which is just odd, not out loud though) and I can talk to people a little easier (still not women t
how do u know when its ok to trust sumbody after u been hurt? how long should u wait till u date if ur saprated from ur hubby/wife. if u do do u trust them do u open up to them what do u do cause i just dont knwo what to do any more im so confused got mixs feeling sum peeps say date sum say no wait till the divoce but i need sum fun u know so i just got mix feeling so what do yall think
When you can forgive, you can move on. When you're able to move on, you can change. And when you're ready to change, you're ready to welcome the new and improved into your life. So what are you waiting for?
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So today was a pretty good day. Went to wal-mart -Gags- I hate that store. But it was pretty fun. I went with my Best friend, and we had fun, till she made me push the buggy cause I'm like four inches taller than she is, and she couldn't see over the tubs she put in it for her son's toies. I was walking on my tip toes because I couldn't even see over the things. Then we went to Chick-Fil-A, which is like my all time favorite resturant, cause of the chicken, and came home. It was all in all a good day, and I had fun.
I'm really enjoying playing around here on CherryTap, and getting to know some really fun people. I just hope that all of this helps me with the issues that I"m going through.
Well good night for now!
i am sitting at home. being bored. i just figured out how to use this whole thing, so i just wanted to write a little. i can't wait for tonight. it was my friend's birthday yesterday and a bunch of us took him to the hookah bar to chill. ...and tonight we are all going to his place to party..and drink...and such. it will be fun. the people i am around are always fun.
anyways..like i said..bored. figured i would write something. not that its interesting or anything...
Yeah, dammit, it's that fuckin time again...It's been one of those days, and I'm pissed.
First off, to the females who constantly look down their nose at me because they think they look better, or they're skinny and I'm not, or they THINK they can take my man...I got news for you honey. I...DON'T...GIVE...A...F-U-C-K. You are MORE than welcome to try to take him, but I can mothafuckin guarantee you that he don't want your slutty ass, so don't waste your time. For those of you who ARE smaller than me, again: I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. I LIKE MY BODY JUST THE WAY IT IS. FUCK YOU SKINNY, ANOREXIC, NO-EATIN, RIB-STICKIN-OUT HOES. I'D RATHER WEIGH FIVE HUNDRED POUNDS THAN HAVE A BONY ASS. And another thing, you may be pretty on the outside, but you've probably got the worst attitude on the fucking planet, so get your head out of your ass and look around. This world doesn't revolve around you and your hip bones...SO THERE.
Second...Guys..NOOOOO, I DO NOT CARE TO SEE YOUR COCK PICS...I get al
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Hello to all
It's me again. Not alot going on, got a new cam today and posted a salute and it was rejected, I was like wtf , I mean I did it just as everyone else has and theres was accepted, can someone please help me out, go look at my pics and look for my salute pic and tell me what I need to change please
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Hope everything is going well for everyone..i've had my ups and down but i'll be alright i suppose.
My camera with my new hair color is FINALLY used up! lol (i know i know bout damn time! lol) but hopefully it will be developed on thursday or friday. so i'll be getting those up soon.
I've already cleared out space for em lol (yah i'm excited to get em up too lol)
Anyhow...catch you guys later
*much love, hugs and bites*
Today was a wicked pain in the ass (yes, I am using the Massachusetts vernacular).
Started out as a good day. I was happy this morning. But then all Hell broke lose.
They were migrating several people last night to MS Outlook and of course it didn't go well. So I and a couple other people got suck cleaning up the mess.
Put a crimp in my whole day. Now I just have a couple hours to try to get to the work I planned to do this morning.
That just sucks! *insert pouty face here!*
to make the fading light
brighten back to its full capacity
It takes two to brighten the flame
of love and nurturing for eachother
Cannot light a fire without a spark
With one and not the other
Times fade out of your memory
never to be relinquished again
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Body: Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?
'Have you ever kissed someone?'
'Told someone you loved them?'
Here are 50 questions for the people who are a little more "mature"...
1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
my car payment
2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
oh... breakfast at steves... i guess hehe lol
3. Last time you puked from drinking?
:: oh probably back in may
4. When was the last time you got drunk and danced on the bar?
5. Name of your first grade teacher?
:: mrs. hunter
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
cuddling with steve
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
not sure yet
8. How many colleges did you attend?
9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
i didnt' choose it, its my fuckin work shirt
10. GAS PRICES?
:: Suck ass
11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with
this made me laugh my ass off this morning. too bad the day didn't stay on such a funny note.
lately I have been called moody. today sissy rescued me from my madness and we went out and about. only issue was we has to drag along all the kiddies with us, so by the end of the afternoon, I was worse off than when I started I think. so now I am frazzled and frustrated.
put up a few new pics today, check them out if you like. I know I seem to put a lot up lately, but I guess I am just trying to leave some proof for myself that I was here in life or something...lol
wow, someone showed up at the door, and I took a "small break" from typing this, it has been 2 hours, lol. ...and I have had 5 beers since then.. so I will just leave this at where it is I guess
I'm not quite sure what to do here...one minute I'm happy and the next I wanna die. I'm really tired of this...I just don't know...
I think I'm just sick and tired of wanting something so bad...and knowing I'll never have it. It's like being stranded in the middle of the desert...so thirsty but nothing to drink
Fighting urges and feelings
For anyone who wants me
Rejecting everyone but you
If I had known we were gonna end
especially like this
I would have let some in
To just be firends or lovers
Memories only make regret
When I let you in
I thought we had something
Something pure and constant
like the flow of a waterfall
get it? "blah-g"...blog?? it's a joke dammit. lol
today is moving really slow. I mean really slow, I could swear it has been 12:24 for an hour now. it's hot, but I am a cheap bastard and refuse to turn on my A/C for a mere 10 or 15 degrees cooler. I would rather suffer, lol
the excitement of the day was a bit of Jerry-style drama outside my window, I only caught the end of it, but it was funny. I don't see why people always have to be so angry. maybe it's just the heat, but people lately seem rude. and then when you are polite back, they feel you are patronizing them. I just feel people should be nice. The golden rule and all that stuff.
so yesterday we dyed lil sis' hair blue. sort of, we tried but it just wouldn't take to her hair. but we have a theory and she is determined to have the blue, so we will help her in her endeavor as we can.
I guess that's it for now, I am sure my boredom of today will inspire more rambling later as always.
How boring. I am so bored that I want to type on someone’s face with an old-fashioned typewriter. The ones that chop through the paper and ding when you reach the margin or whatever. I just want to roll someone’s face down in there and type away.
I could type words like endometriosis or rugged scoliosis. Maybe I might want to type words like culminated crisis or desecrated vices. Either way they would be words typed into someone’s FACE!!!!!!!!!
They could walk around wearing polyester pajamas and the words I chose to type in their FACE!!!!!!!!
Maybe people would stare, maybe they'd point, maybe they'd laugh, maybe they'd disappoint, still there would be words typed in someone’s FACE!!!!!!!
If I typed hard enough the ink may wash off only to find that it left permanent scars so the words would become one with their face and they could live with it for the rest of their lives screaming out to castrated concubines with cucumber nipple covers and copulating mineral salt o
Ya know life is strange... We don't always end up where we seen ourselves 15 years ago... I am happy with my life don't get me wrong... But I still tend to think about what might have been..
Blah... Sic Of The Bullshit
Why is it people on the net gotta be so damn fake? Is it seriously that damn hard to keep it real? A lot of these females on the net wll sit and play all these silly lil games, well I am not the one! If you are on some bullshit and can't come correct, don't even waste ya time commin at me!! I am too old to play petty ass lil games and quite frankly I refuse to play games. Time is somethin very valuable... you can never get it back. So please don't waste my time and I won't waste yours.
I really wish something would bother me lately. I don't really seem to care about anything at this point. I'm totally alone, and perfectly content. Shit goes on around me, without me, and I prefer to remain in this little bubble...
I just knew that after so many years, I wanted to make no one happy but myself, but in doing so, I have become completely numb. I'm not happy, not sad, nothing, just blank. And I'm not really sure what writing this was going to accomplish, but I just felt the need to get it off my chest I guess...
thanks for wasting your time reading it...
hey everyone i just wanted to thank all of my friends that have helped me out on here i appreciate it thank you very much.
So, I'm a little angry. I probably have no right to be angry. but a person i no longer talk to, now is talking to one of my best friends. She knows him only through me, but yet she is talking to him. And how she came about to talking to him is through AIM. I apparently was on her name a year ago or something and added his SN to her name so that i could see if he was on, i must have had to tell him something. (She knows his sn, she knew who he was. . . however is playing now that she didnt know who he was, she she asked who he was on her AIM. )Now they are talking on AIM and than she mentions to me last night, AFTER we haven't talked fo rmonths that she is now talking to him on AIM and that hes super funny. Maybe I'm being petty. . . but I dont feel that she needs to talk to him. I dont feel that she has anything to talk to him about. I don't see any good coming from this. And really, I don't think that anything will come of it. But the pure fact she is talking to him is making me reall
I really dont like when my friends are upset in anyway. I always want to help out and feel bad when I cant. For those of you that read this, I just want you to know that I am here if anyone needs to talk about something or what not. I know it is sometimes easier to talk to someone who has no real life connection other then the internet. But I am here. No matter what.
"Tossing and turning,
dreaming about you.
Wishing you were next to me,
but knowing it wont come true.
If only you knew just what you did,
and how you make me feel.
Never knowing what to say,
so I just have to deal."
I am scared and yet expected to be strong.
I am sick, yet expected to pretend that I feel okay.
I am sad or upset, yet I am to present myself as happy and enthusiastic.
I am yelled or fussed at, yet I am not supposed to feel hurt or cry.
I am put down or judged, but I am not allowed to feel sad, low, worthless, or hurt.
I am falsely assumed guilty of things that I am no part of and I am supposed to admit to guilt to satisfy the assumptions of my accusers. Their need to be right over-rides actuality and I am not compliant or obedient, therefore I am unworthy of anything.
I found that if I am nervous about not being able to meet someones expectations, then I am just annoying them with my imperfections.
If I am found unhappy at any moment then I will deserve to be abandoned of any form of love and support.
If I am not in the same mood as others then I am violating the same mood rule.
I am trying so hard to learn to read minds and learn the ever changing rules of
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Okay so I've realized a lot of things this past week.
1.)I can do anything i put my mind to. i just have to push myself to fulfill my dreams and goals
2.) I can be with anyone i want too. i have a great personality, I'm funny, witty and i'm there for everyone when they need someone, and i stand by people through thick and thin
3.)I can have great relationships, i know in the past i haven't been open about my past and not open to my partners,but i need to, i realize thats why they fail. the fact of the matter is that I'm afraid. yes i said it. i just don't wanna get hurt and i know everyone is but when i let someone in it takes a lot for me to do so, so when i get hurt it hurts more.
I just realize somewhere in this mangaled rib cage consist a heart. I realized I care about people a lot even if I cant stand them. Like someone I went to school with, he had written a blog about how fat he was and how he hated it wand wanted some damn surgery....i told him he was being stupid...he's a great person. people used him for his money! and it always pissed me off. that shit is wrong! Or my friend she's overweight and she cries no guy want her...right now she has a bf who loves her to death. And as these two whine how not great they are (even though they are great people) I sit here boyfriend less, Friendless in a town I hate, with a baby who's father took off fishing a week before I had his son...which no I'm not mad he left I'm glad because of how things happened, but thats not the point. I don't sit here and complain about it..i admit i do once in awhile when things become too hard to bare but I read their blogs all the time and they're about how people hate them and how
ok i was told that there is a rugby team in my area of west virginia but i can't find them, this sucks i was hoping to get back into rugby this coming year
Blah Blah Blah... Talking Like A Girl.. Really
I don't know how I actually manage to keep upwith things the way that I do. i'm always busy and hey thats ok it's keeping me out of the house but sometimes I just want to strangle an ass hole or two bitching at me like I live for them. Man it just pisses me off, I'm not coming to your whim or every childish need. Grr arg... I enjoy my freedom being single but I miss the intimacy that your friends can't give you. I have had a very great week all and all actually. It shocked me. The baby turned three on tuesday. I went to breaking Benjamin and Three Days Grace on thursday, which was the best show I have ever been to. Drunk on Friday and tonight i have the baby's party at chuck'e'cheeses. I have no days off so add in that I have worked at least one job everyday. Damn i guess i should get to bed and dream of being debt free... oh life its always a double edged sword..
Well, I've been living in OKC for a while now. I love it... Of course... been pretty hectic though... Drama as always... plus I feel like shit... i've got bronchitis...
I've started my enw job.. i love it... it's fun!! I only work 40 hours a week, so I'll have time for my babies!! I'm so tired though... I've not been feeling well, and feel like i can't get enough sleep... I hate being sick...
And on top of that i still have man drama i have to deal with... it's pretty freaking unreal... men... can't live with them, can't kill them... uuggghhh... anyhow... love you all miss you!!! mail me lemme know whats going on!!!
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being bored out of my skull absolutely sucks! so i'm killing about 30 seconds typing away about absolutely nothing.
my b/f works days i work night
we never have the same day off to really party together,this weekend on sunday CANADA DAY WOOOOHOOOOO,i don't work till 3 pm usually i work at 11am on sundays,well finally we can kick back and party,yup so he plans 4 different things for one night and fucks up everything blah.....
now he's all fucked up and passed out and again i'm up all alone.............
hot girls arn't always having fun
Don't ya just hate it when you can't shake feelings for someone that ya know doesn't return them the same way? Frigging driving me nuts. Been trying for over a year now to shake caring too much for someone and still no blasted sucess.
Even worse.....have said feelings for 2 people at same time.
It sucks being polyamourus at times. Ironically, when I'm not in a relationship, I can love or overly care for up to 4 men at the same time (so far thats the max, thank Goddess!). Yet as soon as I hook up with someone, I'm pure monogomous. The others I cared for simply drop into friendship only. Its rather bizarre I know but thats how strict I am with myself on staying loyal to who I am with in serious relationships.
I struggle to understand why the Goddess wants my life so weirded out. And of course don't it figure that writting isn't giving me my usual relief from thinking.
BLAH (lmao at least I know what to title this one now)
Have a good 4th USA'ers :)
God I hope today goes by fast.
It's boring the hell out of me already.
I think I have too many people on my family members list. Must rectify this!!!!
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yeah as usual i am fucking bored out of my mind... im only blogging to take a few seconds of mind numbing boredum away. it aint doing so well.
i want tony stewart.........well not really only if i were single i would fuck his brains out but now that i am married he is just nice eye candy and a good wet dream. nice eh? lol i can get worse... i also think that way bout elliot sadler and dale juinor of nascar. whats with this carl edwards? he is soo hideious! he has an asshole chin and fugly as can be! man how can someone have such a ugly child to have it grow up to be that hideous? ffs man geezus! yeah and wht with fucking jeff gordon?????? he is a fucking retard he expects peepz to like him after the fact he cheated on his wife, is uglier than sin and has no personality. i have to say jeffy likes apples is better lookin than carlie boy but ffs how can you be sucha asshole? damn! i think mark martin is cute for his age......not sexy, not hott, cute....
is everyone jelous of everyone or is it just certain people that are predisposed to be that way.......how can you be jelous of someone talking to other people if your not in a relationship? that makes absolutly no kind of sense to me!
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Alright so I broke down and smoked a cigarette today while i was drinking a little bit, and now my chest hurts and blah it tasted horrible, so is that a good sign or not
I have totally givin up! I lose all my friends to other bitches and I am just thrown away like trash. My husband doesnt give a shit about me and I am LONELY! It seems like everytime I make a step in the right direction I get knocked 10 steps back and I am SICK OF IT! I share shit with very few and then it's like we never talked or were even friends. I need to be a loner seems to be the best for me. I have spent alot of time with my boyz that has been nice. I hope it helps them as much as it's helped me. They'll pick up my broken pieces again. For them I will make it.
Blah From Concert
im definitely feeling the blah from the concert right now. when i was walking around the house everyone was in a bad mood. I don't know why concerts always make people i know fowl. I guess people in general are not ones who do parties. Myself I liked the concert.. Daughtry was good, Staind and Nickleback. I mean its hard to go somewhere with a bunch of people who are drinking and being dicks and come back okay. I"ve had to deal with 10x worse people.
Anywho I'm at work and I feel like a zombie. Hope people feel a lil more lively than moi. Talk to yall whenever yall call
alright didn't go to bed till 4am it's 10:30am now, i'm tired and i have my last physical therapy session at 1:40pm, i got up cause i thought it was later then it really is
Blah Blah Blah You're A Whore
You are very random, changing moods everyday. You are very genuine, and you like to do a lot sexually. When you find something that you like, you like it a lot and want your lover to like it too.
Ideally you like to find a partner who is as into sex as you are. You want a lover who is just as independent as you are and you like an equal amount of give and take in the sack.
Sex matches: Aries, Gemini, Libra
Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com
haha yea maybe the sex match is right but i dunno this thing isn't to right. I think the only think that is on is I am very random, changing moods everyday. As well as when I find something that i like, I like it alot.
So a few of you know how tough it's been for me at home lately. Well here's an update, my sister is refusing to get treatment for her drug abuse, abusive personality and eating disorder. She's putting major strain on our family and making everyone stress out.
This week has been nothing better, she's broke and wants money. I'm not giving it to her though because she's now dead to me. After stealing from me, my parents and my grandmother, she's dead. Never again will I buy her something or give her money.
She's telling us she might move with her boyfriend and his family to Florida... god help the Flordians but thank god for us! If she doesn't leave soon, all hell will break loose. My All-American family is going to fall apart.
Everyone keep your fingers crossed!
Blah @ My Mum
it pisses me off when she blames my son for stealing from her! She was going through her purse and thought she had lost $50 so started blaming Dylan for it. I called the school up to ask them to see if they could have a look in his bag to have her say I found it! It pisses me off because I was this close to accusing him of taking it when he hadn't! :s
I am so tired this morning. I really do not want to go to work today. I have no idea how I manage to make it through 9 hours every day....
well here it is..Tuesday..and it's a very boring day. no work for me today, so i get to sit at home and rate photos. not much fun though. here's something that's confusing me....why do people get mad when you rate them? I mean, it's just a website, and if you don't want your photo rated..why put it up..right??
have you ever wanted something so bad, but you know you couldn't have it.
Have you ever loved someone so much, but they were afraid to date you cause they are afraid to lose you as a friend.
Then you find out they are moving to california, so you want to try to spend time with him before he leaves, but in reality, you wish he wasn't going?
Then it makes you afraid, and hurt, because even though I am glad that I have online friends, that are there for me online, but it hurts me because he is one of the only friends I have offline, and now he'll be like each and everyone of you, hundreds of miles away, and I will only be able to speak to him occasionally. I wont' be able to see him, the one i love. My best friend.
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Are you tan? well sorta!!
Do you use Proactiv? no
Do you wear make-up daily? if I'm working then ya.
Do you own chanel perfume? nope
Do you shower daily? Well no shit!!! Don't you!!
Do you go to the tanning bed? once in awhile.
Do you use MAC make-up? nope, but my daughter has some
Do you use other make-up products? yes
Do you straighten your hair everyday? nope!
Is a best friend a promise or a label? It's a promise, cause I don't say it otherwise.
Do you have more than one best friend? kind of but not really
Do you have too many friends to name? not good ones
Do you hang out with with friends everyday? I wish I had the time to!!
Do you have pictures of your friends on your walls? some I have on my entertainment center
Do you call more than one of your friends regularly? yes
Is your best friend a girl? nope
Are your friends in a lot of your classes? uhm....*stare* WTF???
Category- Fashion & Style
Do you have style and originality? sure
Blah Heather Again
so shoot me for being emo, but hey she's been my best friend since high school and now seems to want to have nothing to do with me, yes i understand she has two horses a job and a boyfriend but at the same time she tells me she wants to spend some more time with and she does this to me every time i come home, i swear she gets on my case for not calling her or texting her but when i do i just get blown off, i mean shit yes i'm 21 but still come on now at least give me a simple just fuck off or something don't just stop talking to me, fuck
Well it has been a LONG ass time since I wrote an actual blog.
There has been alot of shit going on in my life, and those of you that care to read this will know what it is....
Well this blog is going to release some kind of depressed energy cuz rite now I am depressed.
Lets just say there are some friends out there that I tried soooooooooo hard to help them out and I feel like I failed them b/c they didn't succeed in what they were trying to do. I just ran outta money and resources :( Now I have someone else that is dear to me I love her to death she is like a sister to me that needs help. I CAN'T HELP HER! outta all the ppl in the world I wish I could help her soooooooo badly!
BUT alas, I have no money, no resources. If I had the money her ass would be fine but I don't have it. SO for that I feel horrible.
THEN, my job is going good other then the fact that school will be starting soon and MOST of you know I have 2 boys(both go to school). SOOO when that happens I
i didnt write this, my friend Sir Eleven did. I do so enjoy his writing.
Love me without fear..Trust me without questioning.. Need me without demanding... Want me without restrictions..Accept me without change..Desire me without inhibitions."
Just the way I am.. don't try to change me
You know I'm fragile
In your deepest feeling
The way I hate myself
The way I lost my way with you
As if I never existed
With all your words
In my dark with sweet illusions
Forget me ...
Erase me ...
You can't hear me...hear me screaming
Cause you're not listening..
You can't catch me...catch me when I fall
Cause you're never behind me..
You can't follow me...follow me through dark
Cause you lost the sight of me..
Trying to be pretty
uploading new pics if ya'll care ;)
ok so Im hungry and absolutely NOTHING in the house sounds appealing.......... Im bored with TV .......... dont feel like playin a video game......... fubar is pretty much dead........... and Im bored outta my fucking mind............ right now I dont even know what the hell to do with myself.
so for those of you that ever wondered what BLAH means......... thats about it right there in a nutshell.
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So, I am sitting here at 3AM, wondering why the hell I am still awake...And it dawns on me that I am awake because my mind refuses to shut the hell up.
Thinking is becoming my downfall.And it's not just one thing, Oh no that would be too easy. It's a little bit of everything all jumbled together and trying to get out in new ways.. Although sometimes I do have some pretty strange thoughts come out of it.. But thats not the point.. I want to go to bed, but I just lay there, going over the day in my mind, thinking what I should have done that I didn't do, and why did I do what I did do? Confused? Try being me..LOL I did manage to make sense of some of the rambling with my dragon poem/story that I posted earlier. That took me a while to write which isn't normal for me. But wait, define normal..LoL...No such thing if you are talking about me. Ok enough rambling and randomness.. Time for some music, singing out loud and off key, and dancing with the mop...Catch y'all laterz!!!
I've been thinking here lately that maybe I'm meant for something bigger...I want out of Mississippi...Out of a trailor...Out of this life. And no, I don't mean I don't want my fiance', or my animals, or my family...I LOVE THEM ALL...I just know there's something more out there. Wherever I go, my fiance' and my animals will go too. I don't want to struggle to survive...Don't want to worry about what I'm gonna cook, or if I HAVE anything to cook, don't want to have to dream about that outfit I see in the store, or the car I want..I want to be able to just buy it and enjoy it. The problem is...I don't even know where to get started...lol I'm working on BODacious magazine...curvosity...and looking into a couple of other things...Any ideas? They'd be greatly appreciated...I love y'all!
So I'm barely surviving on 4 1/2 hours of sleep..am about to pass out on my keyboard at work. And I'm pissed because I have the munchies but cant eat my cheezits because I broke the water cooler up here (yeah, im a putz!) and can't fill up my water bottle to wash the suckers down...and oh boy, i get to run home and do laundry before i go out tonight so i can go on another only 4-5 hours of sleep tomorrow...can't ya tell i just feel like bitching? maybe i should stop before i start bitching about traffic and other things...this could get long lol.
I'm so bored. I really wish that the friends that lived nearby were better friends... like if my best friend would call me for a change to make plans instead of me always having to call her to make plans. I've just stopped calling.. she apparantely doesn't care.
Do you ever feel like you are being ignored even though you are standing right in front of the person and they are responding to you??? Even though they are responding to you, it's just natural human nature to respond quick or if you are really paying attention you think about your answer first, right? I don't know and maybe I don't really truly care. This kind of helps out to just write to the whole world just about...
BLAH BLAH BLAH I AM SO BORED YEAH BORED, LA LA LA LA NA NA AND BLAH
I used up all of my rating points *pouts* lol seriously I was rating to many perhaps. I just like to show ppl the love and respect I would like to get. Why is there a limit I do wonder, I guess perhaps rating to many at a time floods the servers. I enjoy looking at the art work you all have, wow it's amazing some of it. I am envious I say envious lmao, honestly you all got it going on with the pics, keep up the great work, I need to stop taking so many of me and take more of the pretty view, the one I see when I look out my window. The gorgeous view I see is when I gaze into Cyntronics eyes, Wow he is truly an amazing man, I am honored to have him in my lire, I wouldnt trade this for anything.
Babes I know you are sleeping now for you are hours ahead of me, but just so you know in the event you read this, I love you darling. I will talk to you a bit later on . Your loving fubar wife, Tequila Sunrise mwuahhhhhh xxxxxxxxxx
well today was a bad day. everything seemed to go wrong. from stuff gettin in my eyes, getting burned/cut all day, to a 4'x8' sign frame almost falling on me. eh at least its over.
Anyone else get sick of all the ass kissers on this site? They are more than willing to repost/rate/whatever for the so called popular people, but anyone posts something worthwhile forget about it...And no, I'm not being bitter. I just think its funny that we are all involved on such a cliqueish(yeah not a word) site...A "popular" person could post a bulletin that says "Joe Sixpack smells funny" and Joe Sixpack would repost it just because said "popular" person posted it....
well Im bored, its HH and mumms suck as usual, so I thought Id post a blog. Ive been in a bad mood the past couple of days, I guess its because Im not gettin any lol,its been 2 months BTW,and not because I cant get any, but Im tired of FWB and all that crap,so that is out of the question. Im gonna be 28 next month and I dont know, Im just ready to have someone to love, and someone to love me back, Ive been single almost 2 years, the last guy I was with was an asshole, we were together like 8 months, but I never had feelings for him, why we were together is a long story and I dont feel like getting into all that........anyways back to my point, Im just lonely I guess, maybe I will find Mr.Right one day, I hope so. Well thanx for takin the time to read my crap
A;right I just woke up with the worst dream ever. I just had flash backs of all the times i've been hurt by someone I loved.
Well.. got the new weed wacker today . and holy hell is HUGE.. .. went like wild and did most of the yard .. and now my arms feel like they are jelly HAHAHA .. so if i type anything to you all and it kinda looks fulbed up . you know why LOL
i just haven't been in the mood for shows these past couple days but don't worry, they are coming... if you haven't figured it out yet, my personal homepage is sinamynlee.com so feel free to check it out ;)
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So here it goes, I am going to give my good friend the best wishs.. I hope that he gets everything that he wants in life and that he has joy and happiness.. There will always be a place in my heart for you. If you need to talk. I have so much that i wanna say to you and i dont wanna do it on this or the phone... So if our paths should ever cross.. I hope that it does.. I will be happy..
My prayers are with you every day as you fight for my freedom.. Thank you... Hugs and Kisses.. Love always
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So I was supposed to go out to Sophia today, that fell through because my step dad is trying to do other things. Hopefully I can get at least my small shopping done for the last of my supplies for class and my toiletry items, such as; shampoo, conditioner, and razor blades. Oh I was supposed to go car shopping so I can have a stable car.
Ideas needed, looking for a New Car, something not that expensive but good on gas, and good for a college student, any ideas on cars.
just tired of everything.....i feel like im a worthless piece of shit that isn't even good enough. i dont know what to think anymore. maybe i should stop trying and just give up period. im tired of this life...i dont even care anymore. im dying on the inside anyway and im just not wanting to care or live anymore. if you hate me for my words...oh well, you just dont understand nor will anyone ever understand or even care. i just can't live with this sadness anymore. it's killing me slowly each and every day! and i dont even know wny im bothering with this blog.
I'm going back to bed.. I don't feel good today.. anyone got any chicken soup?
im getting sick. i dont like it.
one of those blah fucking blah days when you know as soon as you wake up you should just go your ass back to bed!!! ..... ohhhh well maybe its not to late to go back now or drown in the tub might be an option....blah blah blah
So yeah today is day 1 of 2 days off, much needed Im tired as heck and tired of dealing with people..
We are gonna look at some apartments while im off get that ball rolling. I am going to apply for school see what kinda damage I can do.. So yeah thats whats going on pretty much.. Go me
Alright so the shit hit the fan yesterday, and well ever since then my mom keeps bringing up issues for dealing with money, that i don't have. I am sitting on the line as is and everytime she brings shit up like that I get closer and closer. Well I raised my voice and she goes into her anxiety attack and all sad sounding I don't like you snapping at me like that. Fuck I'm dealing with a lot of stress and want to get away for a while and be by myself, and you keep coming in asking about this and that and it costs this much and i have no money for it. What would you do if someone did that shit to you i mean come on. Fuck.
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WOOT I GOT HIT BY A DOWN RATER AND HATER WELL YOU KNOW WHAT BLAH TO THEM THEY CAN GO STICK THEIR HEADS UP THEIR OWN ASS FOR ALL I CARE JUST GOES TO SHOW THAT THERE ARE SOME REAL SAD PATHETIC PEOPLE ON THIS SITE I COME ON THIS SITE FOR MY FRIENDS AND IVE MET SOME AWSOME PEOPLE ON HERE AND IVE ALSO MET SOME REAL NASTY PEOPLE ON HERE AND FOR THOSE WHO IVE MET AND ARE THE AWSOME ONES DONT EVER CHANGE THOSE OF YOU WHO GET HIT BY HATERS THEY JUST JEALOUS CAUSE THEY CANT HAVE WHAT YOU HAVE, CANT BE WHO YOU ARE AND ARE JUST PLAIN SHALLOW AND DONT HAVE ANYTHING ETTER TO DO WITH THEIR TIME THAN TO BAG ON OTHER PEOPLE ITS SAD REALLY BUT ANYWHO FOR ALL MY FRIENDS MWAHS N LOVES N NEVER CHANGE WHO YOU ARE CAUSE ITS WHAT MADE YOU THE PERSON YOU ARE TODAY
LOVE YOU ALL
MWAHS N HUGS!!!!!!!!!!
Blah Tuesday !
I am so tired today !! Its a blah Tuesday for sure ! perhaps I need a shot of something lol to keep me going all day ! send me some shout-outs or comments friends that would make me have a better day xoxo *winks* ~Babydoll~
Well I have not been feeling all that great lately. I think that I ran myself down with the stress and working...My son is sick too with the runny nose and he is constantly rubbing his nasty ass nose on his hands then trying to touch me with them...Yuck.......... I finally got sick myself but with a nasty sore throat. I went to see a doctor hoping it was not strep and she confirmed it not to be. I have been working long hours at night with the soreness and it is not fun. I have to do it though...I am only one working right now.
I have been trying to sleep more lately now that the older kids have started school...
Well hope to hear comments soon.
what can I say about this day??? blah fucking blah!!!!!!!!! (play the song for full effect)
i have class in a couple hours. im supposed to get up in 1 hour. i have insomnia. i miss Star. im fuckin exhausted. those of you who talk to me and love me and shit rock. those of you who dont... eh, i dont know where im goin with this. you something or other, k? k. i should have Kristina do a magic trick and make you all vanish. just poof. i miss Kristina. shes fuckin awesome. i keep havin martyr dreams about her. when i can sleep. weird huh? im still addicted to prinny's boobs too. fuck theyre big. you know, i think my fav. cereal is raisin nut bran. its good stuff. especially the nut covered raisins. oh, and apparently, by my bio. sisters standars, im white trash. oh well. i like what i like and i dont give a fuck what any one thinks. i wonder how punky is. she almost never responds when i im her. always too busy i guess. for those of you who think about her, annie is doin ok. sometimes. i do my best for her, but often it seems like its not enough. i SHOULD be getting my drivers lic
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sometimes i wonder who really cares about anyone else but themselves. so many people say that they're listening, but i wonder if they're actually just waiting for their turn to speak. maybe im just rambling, idunno. i just have a lot of random thoughts right now. lately i've been feeling really alone. even with a group of people, i fell like there's no one else around me. almost like im invisible. when i was little, that was the one super power i really wished that i had. i just wanted everything to go away. but now that i feel like i have it, i don't want it. im actually pretty tired of feeling that way. even with all the friends that i have, i feel so isolated. lately, nothing really matters anymore. i've been so upset that i've just gone numb, and i hate that. i just cant cry anymore. and as much as i hate crying, i kinda wish i could. just to know that i can still feel something. im tired of love though. it gets you nowhere. absolutely fucking nowhere. which sucks, cause when you'r
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The following 15 Police Comments were taken off of actual police car videos around the country.
15. "Relax, the handcuffs are tight because they're new. They'll stretch out after you wear them awhile."
14. "Take your hands off the car, and I'll make your birth certificate a worthless document." (My personal favorite.)
13. "If you run, you'll only go to jail tired."
12. "Can you run faster than 1200 feet per second? In case you didn't know, that is the average speed of a 9 mm bullet fired from my gun."
11. "So you don't know how fast you were going. I guess that means I can write anything I want on the ticket, huh?"
10. "Yes, sir, you can talk to the shift supervisor, but I don't think it will help. Oh, did I mention that I am the shift supervisor?"
9. "Warning? You want a warning? O.K., I'm warning you not to do that again or I'll give you another ticket."
8. "The answer to this last question will determine whether you are drunk or not: Was Mickey Mouse a cat or
just writing this just to say hey to all my friends and i will hopefully try to get some new pics of zack and i on here sometime soon...
now if you watch ECW you know that CM Punk is the new ECW world champion and that i like!
i also just found out that Brian kendrick and Paul London are the new World Tag Team Champions (come on WWE cryme time deserves the titles more)
The whole Rey "I quit" match is stupid, but thats just me (found this out on WWE.com)
Cena still champion which is good
i dont even know who the world heavyweight champion is, last i checked it was the great retard i mean great khali
um..zacky is going to start preschool here soon so that will be fun
i might have a job at GameStop so hope i get it
still single ladies lol :P
um....thats all i can think of to say at this time lol but hope you all have a good week/weekend and stay safe