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at this point in time i do not know what to think.. tonight i jus break down and cry..listening to that darn armageddon song "animal crackers".. makes me think back to the past who i was with and what was going on at that time.. its funny almost 10 years and i can still remember wht i was wearing.. another thought... being a airforce wife isnt always easy.. 75% of the time i do not feel like one.. i feel trapped in my own house.. feeling like the outcast of a typical military wife.. i dont want to be alone right now it sucks jus want someone to cuddle up too..
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As My Lonely Days,Turn Into Night, I Wonder What You Are Doing, Are You Thinking Of Me With Longing, Are You Wishing You Were Holding Me Tight. My Thoughts Of You Are In My Soul, I Think Of You With Every Breath I Take, My Sleepless Nights Are Thoughts Of You, Without You,My Life Will Never Be Whole. As I Lay In Bed Thinking Of You, So Many Thoughts Of What It Could Be, To Smell That Colonge That Only You Have, And I Wonder,Are You Dreaming Of Me Too. I Lie Here In This Lonesome Bed, Dreaming Of The Day We Will Be Together, Our Bodies Became As One In Our Love, I Know Our Love Can Be Fed. Soon My Love We Shall Be Together, Not Even The Distace Can Seperate Us, With A Love As Strong As Our Love, We Will Be Lovers,In,The Sweet Forever. When Our Bodies Join As One And Soars Above, Our Fragrances Mingling In The Air, Nothing Can Ever Come Between Us, For Something As Ours Is TRUE LOVE.
Not In Love
We're Not In Love So often people say they found their lover in their friend. I just have to wonder if they’ve found a means to fit their end. I thought I knew you for so long, but now I’ve come to see That this man is a stranger, and you don’t remember me. For the first time in my life I wanted someone I could keep- To treasure me both heart and soul, to hold me in my sleep. When I saw you I was overjoyed, my search at last concluded, Who knew that I would come to find that I was just deluded? Because as we grew together something still kept us apart, I have your body and your mind, but I’ll never have your heart. And I still wish that we could have that true love and forever, But reality stole my happy ending, leaving me with never. And if you asked, what would I say? Would I dare to throw it all away? Would yes be right? Or is it no? But we never ask, so on we go. And still I know that in the end, You’re not my lover but my friend. This is the truth th
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Tears falling slowly down my face remembering your smile everyday wanting so hard to hold onto a memory that seems to of never been real. Why all the sudden is this how i feel has life really succomed to this an empty feeling a soulless fate all the fantasy realities i would create. So many lies, sad part is so many were mine. I want so much to change to take away all the stupidity and pain. But is the saying let the past lye really the best thing to do. I can create whatever outcome i want it to be but truth of the matter is it will never change what happend it will never give the answers i am seaking how can i trust in somthing that gives me so much room to wonder. Just because i question things doesnt mean i never loved you or that i dont still love you i guess its just easier for me to not beleive then it is for me to wake up and face reality. When i have no way to ever learn the truth part of me wonders if its best to allow myself to believe your
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I want to run and not look back to say it's over and that's a fact too many times- we've been here before too many times have we kept the score laying with you makes me cry to say i don't love you is a lie too many times we've been down this road my feet run ragged- to the bone there have been so many times i've wanted to quit yet I take control and hold out for a bit it's always the little things that bring it home I break down and I'm still all alone I know it'll hurt more the longer we wait the little things build up and turn into hate I don't want to hate you, not now or ever But I can't see this happening forever We want different things from this world you & I You're amazing and I want you to be able to fly I want you to be all you can be But I don't think you can, not here, not with me Things are changing and I'm still growing up We can't sit around and pretend I'm your lil' pup I don't know what I want but nights liek this aren't it. How could we wait unt
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Pain shoots through the heart with each moment of silence Tears no longer fall from their eyes A mouth that used to form hello now is pressed tightly together People go about their daily lives never noticing what is wrong Staring in silence at each other through a wall of pain One always venturing to breach the wall with caring The other turning away from the effort rebuffing without care Like a tiger crouched for the kill one springs on the attack Eyes flash and another brick is laid into the wall between them One sits to wait on the day when realization will set in Waiting for the wall to crumble and lives to be joined again Without hatred or spite to contaminate leaving only love behind Created by SF - do not use or repost without permission
Hey Friends, Just wanted to let you know I uploaded some new pictures...Check them out and leave some luv. -Barbie
Notice Me!!!!!!
Notice me, take my hand Why are we strangers when Our love is strong Why carry on without me Everytime I try to fly, I fall Without my wings, I feel so small I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me I guess I need you, baby I make believe that you are here It's the only way I see clear What have I done You seem to move on easy And everytime I try to fly, I fall Without my wings, I feel so small I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you, baby I may have made it rain Please forgive me My weakness caused you pain And this song's my sorry At night I pray That soon your face will fade away And everytime I try to fly, I fall Without my wings, I feel so small I guess I need you, baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, you're haunting me I guess I need you, baby
Not In My Heart
It’s not in my heart that I love you It’s in the soft of my lips and the tip of my tongue Where I taste your sweet kiss And your sigh as you breathe into me It’s only you that makes me feel this way This clenching, burning heat that melts its way Through arms and chest and in between The soft cream of my thighs And only forever could be long enough To revel in the sweet smell of sweat That trickles down your back and onto sheets Tangled by their time between us.
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Notice The Love - Be Nice!!!
Sadly nobody has heart anymore. This world is pure and selfish. The morals have disappeared along with manners. People just can't say anything nice. Too many people are mean for no reason. Everyone worries too much about pointing the blame instead of fixing the situation. It's the common think before you act. It's the simple please and thank you. The little things that go unnoticed. The forgivable and the forgotten. A tragedy of demise. It's the suspense that keeps you weak in your knees. That look. The one. You know the look. You ask yourself should i be ashamed? Why is this world full of such hate? It's never about responsibility just the fortune and fame. The waste of passion. It's the ones that go unnoticed from day to day, the ones who know everything about you but you don't even know their name. Someday just maybe you will realize it's not about you. I would never wish bad things on someone but, karma will return the favor. If you break it you buy it. The world is too big to be f
Notice Of Absence.
effincreep aka Shalana will not be here through the days of September 1st through 9th because she will be getting sex and lots of it, but leave comments and send beer anyways. I know. I know everyone is going to miss me so. But too bad you'll just have to wait until my glorious return. See you on the burnt side of the toast. I hate you all! -Shalana
Not In A Good Mood
What is wrong with you ppl? I placed a rubber duck in my pics and some one had to report it NSFW, sheesh give me a break, this is supposed to be an adult site is it not? Meaning adult things go on and take place, nothing personal against my beautiful lady friends I love you all, but I;ve seen pics of a lot of cleavage hanging out on some of the display pics and those dont get reported but I post a duck on mine and wham someone goes bananas, Please someone help me figure out all the double standards going on , Thanks your friend Tequila Sunrise
Not In Her Storm
Not In Her Storm by Sauni I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain And it is always I fight for the welcome change When it rains it pours on this heart of mine So, I take the storms I feel to her each time. But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain Yet under her water her heart still doesn't change She can walk away from what hangs overhead And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid. Not in her storm have I ever felt alone Her storm ends, so I, may find my way home It's for me that she pushes away her own rain So, that I may find comfort in calling her name. She lives in this world for the sake of another's heart God, how she eases the miles when worlds apart And she never wanders when your world falls through Not ever in her storm would she do this to you. She has wings that I know not only I can see Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me It's the way that the eyes can surely view How her heart's written so clear
Not Incubus
I think you think it is inevitable - that every man must take from you; each of us an incubus busking for the moment when your flesh ripens ready for a little torrid dreaming. I want you wide awake and crying out in harmony with yes yes yes and there it is, now more. And out of breath in my arms, secure warm warmer now boiling with a need to want to have. Later you will sleep and I will watch and wait for the moment you awaken and say: yes yes yes reaching to me, drawing me to you. I want you wide awake and wanting me inside you and the rush of me to fill you and to bring to flesh your dreams. © All rights reserved
No Time Limit Contest
These Contest Have No End Date.No Race To The Finish Line.All Comments You Give Them Will Make It Closer For Them To Win.Show WSC Love!!! sweetbaby655 needs 50,000 comments ~♥~Nyne~♥~ Needs 50,000 Comments SweetBabyGirl™ Needs 50,000 Comments ArchAngel Needs 50,000 Comments Savannah Needs 50,000 Comments
Not In S.f
I don't live in San f. not sure how to change it to Savannah Ga.
Most of you know already I dont use this acct much at all anymore, if you would still like to keep in contact please add snugglekitty... that is my main acct. I miss all of You.... HUGS~N~KISSES to you all Add me so we can continue our friendship. FRIENDS MEAN THE WORLD TO ME ...ONCE A FRIEND ALWAYS A FRIEND
Not In Mine
The only place where dreams are impossible is in your own mind.
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Where do you put it? Where does it go? Why do you have it? No one knows. Do you really still need it? Have you not had it that long? Was it there in the first place? Or was it always gone? If something Goes awry? Does that mean that it should die? Is it some thing you didn't want again? Or some thing you never want to end? Cant decide what to do with it? Or are you thinking piece of shit? Is it something cherished to never be lost? Or is the trashed where it gets tossed?
Hello World Rock Radio family member! Because fubar has decided to create new lounges, World Rock Radio has moved HERE You will have to rejoin at the new lounge address. Don't worry tho! We're still the same great lounge, with the same awesome DJs playin' ROCKin' music, and the same fantastic friends you have grown to love! Can't wait to see you there!
Not Impressed
So I watched the first episode of Cavemen last night. It pretty much lived down to my expectations. I can't see this series going past one season if it even makes it that far. It was mildly amusing, like the commercials are, but its definitely not series material.
Notice There's No "a Good Day" Blog
that's because i pretty much don't have good days...there's always something that comes along and fucks it all up. Today's topic is my guilt. I'm so sick and tired of feeling guilty when i haven't done anything to feel guilty about. It's been this way for what seems like's one of those situations where if you are told you are stupid for long enough, you end up being stupid. I can't get past it...guilt rules my other emotions, clouds every happy thought, every potential good thing is overshadowed by guilt. I wish i could take it off like a coat. Shed it and leave it behind.
Not In Love
Artist: Enrique Iglesias Album: Seven Title: Not In Love Are you ready? You call me on the phone I act like nothing's going on We're driving in my car I pretend that you don't turn me on You sexy thing yeah you know it (yeah) You move around yeah you show it (Chorus) I'm not in love It's just the phase I'm going thru I'm always looking for something new But don't go running away It's almost 3am I'm hoping that you don't let go Your moving in so close I'm trying not to lose control You sexy thing yeah you know it You move around yeah you show it (Chorus) I'm not in love I try to tell myself all the time I just can't help how I feel tonight So don't go running away I'm not in love (yeah) I'm not in love I'm not in love (give it to me) I'm not in love (break it down) You sexy thing yeah you know it You move around yeah you show it (Chorus) I'm not in love I try to tell myself all the time I just can't help how I feel tonight So do
No Title You Know Who You Are And Who This Is For
thank you for being there when my tears flowed like a river thank you for letting me believe i better than i am thank you for making me feel stronger than i am thank you for making me feel like i have more self worth than i do thank you for letting me love you even though you may not feel the same way thank you most of all for being the person you are thank you for being enough of a person to tell me honestly how u feel im sorry for the over flow of emotion of late forgive me for needing you Title..
You made a choice, a sacrifice. You walked away, and took my life. Were you scared? Were you blind? Did you not want, our worlds entwined? I wish that you could see me now. But you don't remember how. You took away my life. In the midst of all your strife. Years have passed, since that day. Do you cry? Is there shame? With days that pass, I hope you see. Just what you've done, to hinder me. I wish that you could see me now. But you don't remember how. You took away my life. In the midst of all your strife.
Notin Like Embarassing My Kids Lol
Tonite, I am taking my boys trick or treating for what might be, the last year, as they are growing up so quickly..I have to go out with a bang! I am dressingup as a naughty school girl..I will have a short plaid skirt on, pig tails, saddle shoes, alot of makeup and fishnet stockings..I am sure my kids will be like "OMG OMG!" CAUSE I RARELY DRESS UP...I am gonna get a kick outta it tonite...they have alot of their friends who say "i wish my mom would dress up for halloween"..let's see how much CANDY I CAN GET..hehehehe!
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Drifting toward a sunset shore All of your love as grains of sand Burried alive deep in the depth The power it eminates Covers the Earth Breaking open the crust Revealing the Tenderness Devestating the flower
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praise to me give on things i possess odd as it seems it does not impress upon mind closed decision is reached I am not now those things you beseech ways uncommon seeming to beguile vision clouded to them all the while I am just a girl in pictures and life only one man has taken to wife left as i was unwanted at best finding myself tis a daunting quest tread e'er so gently upon this heart of mine broken and scarred it still works just fine pull these strings expect me to dance don't run now if given the chance prove to me you mean what you say or take the words given and just go away. A.Boudreaux 2007
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Feeling cheap and cheated neglected and used Torn away from the heart to which I've been fused The life source keeps pumping the clot tries to grow With nothing to hold to Blood starts to flow My pulse starts to weaken hope resigns to die Cold and shivering in a puddle I lie They step 'round the body Alternate routes some will choose Not wanting to get any blood on their shoes.
Not In Your Backyard Huh..i Dont Think So! We Are Going In Your Backyard! Border fence could cut through backyards By ALICIA A. CALDWELL, Associated Press Writer 1 hour, 34 minutes ago Founded 240 years ago, this sleepy Texas town along the Rio Grande has outlasted the Spanish, then the Mexicans and then the short-lived independent Republic of Texas. But it may not survive the U.S. government's effort to secure the Mexican border with a steel fence. A map obtained by The Associated Press shows that the double- or triple-layer fence may be built as much as two miles from the river on the U.S. side of the Rio Grande, leaving parts of Granjeno and other nearby communities in a potential no-man's-land between the barrier and the water's edge. Based on the map and what the residents have been told, the fence could run straight through houses and backyards. Some fear it could also cut farmers off from prime farmland close to the water. "I don't sleep right because I'm worried
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random thoughts to clear my brain: leaving behind and burning bridges...kind of the same thing I guess, but feels different. The TRUST is gone. Tried to forgive, cant forget. Its gone. PERSONAL things stay personal. No longer sharing. My wall is taller and thicker, wont be knocked down again. LETTING GO of the past, trying to move on into the future, taking one day at a time. WAITING. NO patience, waiting sucks. Need an OUTLET. Ready to go back to meditation and writing. JUMBLED up, not making sense THOUGHTS in my brain, need to clear it out. ALONE. FEAR of making the wrong decisions. NEED of a serious CHANGE in my life. Not sure who my REAL FRIENDS are anymore. Giving up on RELATIONSHIPS. They never work out for me anyway. MISSING the wrong people. LOVE for too many people who don't return the FEELING. Not sure how to PROCEED, just know I need to MOVE ON. Sorry if this doesn't make sense to the reader, but its the only way
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Sleepless nights, dreadful dreams, are haunting me. The mysterious sounds of the night, are very frightening me. Panic and rage Runs through my body The devil is trying to get in. Day after day I fight off the urges That would be so satisfying A battle rages Deep within my soul It's all I can do to hold on. Prayer is my weapon, faith gives me peace of mind, to stop the demons from taking over. Depression knocks me down, Grace picks me back up, As the battle still rages I pray and pray For the fight to end But I know the battle is still within.
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Chapter 1 I was now totally and completely His, to do with as He saw fit. This was not only a sexual gesture. This meant to both of U/us that He now owned and controlled every aspect of my being, physically, sexually, emotionally, financially, and mentally as well. I had given my Master what I'd prized most in my former life, my free will, it was now His, and I was totally His. I finished conveying to Him how deeply I wanted and needed to be His possession. My eyes filled with tears and as I started to turn them downward again as an obedient slave does, I thought I detected a bit of watering in His loving eyes. when W/we met at the airport, all sense of normalcy seeped from me and I felt I was just butter melting in His arms. He lifted me to my tiptoes as He hugged me so tight and O/our first kiss was more than I had dreamed of. "Hello My slave," He whispered with his smooth even tone that in and of itself wasn't frightening, but when heard up close, knowing what this Man did
Not Impressed
ok, so far this site isnt doing ne thing for me. Probably because I dont have all day to sit on here and figure out how things work and where to find things. oh well
No Title Fits But A Must See
in a bulletin i found a you tube video on the bulletin it said serious note everyone needs to see this i watch it though my tears it was "remember me", i am it bought tears to my eyes i need to support those for reminds me when my dad went on long cruises for months not for his enjoyment but the Navy now you know what i am talking about my dad would be gone months 'n months so long that i began to forget what he looked like even in his uniform i would be scare the day he returned i thought i had done something wrong that he would be away so long i held his picture in my hand so i could pick him out of the crowd so many are so happy to greet but i was scare of what punishing i received for him being gone less i be good he not return when i see him i would forget the punishing, the picture, my mom run i would to greet him hoping he remembers me he would scoop me up in his arms as we joined in one big grip of three i never see mom cry except t
Ok, again I have people who have asked to be on my friends list and then do not talk to me. From now on I will give everyone one week to see if they want to strike up a friendly relationship. If have your points, go in peace. Once again I do not collect friends for points, I only want people who actually like me as friends...Thank you, nuff said.
Before or on the 4th of December, my cable will be cut due to not being able to pay. And that includes tv and phone along with life line to searching for jobs. So if a miracle does not happen soon, I will see you when/if I can get the computer back on line. This is my horoscope here today...BullSh*t!! You're feeling increasingly confident about some aspect of your work or family life -- and with good reason! It may be that you're moving in a new direction that will only make life easier.
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What it is to look into the eyes. Of one beautiful woman's soul and see that she yearns to be held, by the hands of a man with a loving heart.
Notice Me....
Notice me… I stand in a mass of people trying to get your attention. Many others are taller than me, they block your view. However, I am here! Notice me… I raise my hand to the heavens, hoping you will spot it. You do not, even though it is a hand full of care. I scream your name. You do not hear me. You see a hand in front of me. It is a more handsome one. You take that instead Notice me… When that hand is not strong enough, you begin to look once more. Hands raise I stretch my hand upwards, using the full strength of my heart. Blood racing, muscles straining. Still not enough. You pass me once more. I weep. Notice me… You are searching the crowd once more. The hand you chose earlier must have let you down. Hands raise. Mine does not. I am too tired to try anymore. I am not perfect, just another human being. I lower my head so that you can pass. Notice me… I wait for the crowd to lower their hands. I look up. Surprised, I find you
Not In The Holiday Spirit
Well Everyone its that time of the year where everyone is supposed ot be gettign ready to Celebrate christmas, wherther its because you are doing it int eh memory of our lord jesus christ, or because of the holiday spirit and you want to give as good as you might get..its all teh same.... For everyone but me...I'll tell you y As most of you may already know, i've once again been assigned into iraq for a other tour in the "War agasint Terrorism and Iraqi Frredom". Well i was hoping to be home for the holidays and Just when i thought things were goingot start looking up that i might get to spend an actually christmas home for once, since being in the Army, ive been away from home on almoost every single major holiday that there has been and now it looks like this year will be no different. I have a Daughter, Her name Is Xi'an and those who have meet her know how vibrant and enthralling she can be..well ive been on this little monsters tail about what she wanted for christmas
Not In Love
Are you ready? You call me on the phone I act like nothings going on We're drivng in my car I pretend that you don't turn me on Ah ah ah you sexy thing Yeah you know it yeah Ah ah ah you move around now you show it I'm not in love It's just a phase that i'm going through I'm always looking for something new But don't go running away It's almost 3am I'm hoping that you don't let go You're moving in so close I'm trying not to lose control Ah ah ah you sexy thing Yeah you know it yeah Ah ah ah You move around now you show it (come on) I'm not in love It's just a phase that i'm going through I'm always looking for something new Don't go running away Oh i'm not in love I try to tell myself all the time I just can't help how i feel tonight So don't go running away yeah Im not in love (yeah yeah) I'm not in love I'm not in love (give it to me now) I'm not in love (break it down) Ah ah ah you sexy thing Yeah you know it ah ah ah You move around yeah
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They seem so far gone all those memories so out of reach are they really mine? can I be sure or did somebody trade with me? sometimes... it seems that way and maybe it would be better if someone had I might know what happiness feels like then but would I still be me? or someone completely new?
MySpace Codes & MySpace Layouts
Not In His Storm
I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain And it is always I fight for the welcome change When it rains it pours on this heart of mine So, I take the storms I feel to his each time. But I know he has lived under his own pouring rain Yet under his water his heart still doesn't change He can walk away from what hangs overhead And, not in his storm, are words left unsaid. Not in his storm have I ever felt alone His storm ends, so I, may find my way home It's for me that he pushes away his own rain So, that I may find comfort in calling his name. He lives in this world for the sake of another's heart God, how he eases the miles when worlds apart And he never wanders when your world falls through Not ever in his storm would he do this to you. He has wings that I know not only I can see Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me It's the way that the eyes can surely view How his heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do. Not in
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She lies on the bed ..pills by her head.. thinking of the days when he made her smile he left her alone ..never came home no one around to help her now this is her choice .. this is her how this life of pain is almost over now the darkness seeps into her view the world turns gray this is her choice ..this is her day M.A.S
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She reached into her little bag Pulled out a shiny coin Coiled it in her fingers Until they looked enjoined She glanced about As if to see If any were watching her Then quickly looked up to the stars Wishing with all her world That her mother would be watching From the heavens up above She wanted her to know She still needed to be loved She knew it wasn't her fault She just wanted now to share That this coin within her fingers Was one without compare It was one she found on her dresser The day her mother died So she looked upon the heavens Unbidden began to cry She cast another look around Then once more at her hand Then shoved it in her pocket Afraid she'd turn to sand Retracing every step she made She walked out of the door Invisible to everyone She was walked on like the floor Some say she went to heaven That day she tried to leave He wouldn't let her Her attempt just got him peeved Her child tried to get help A neighbor heard and called They foun
Noticed You Was Gone
I woke up to noticed you was gone! I can still smell you and feel you but your not here! A song plays and it's your voice singing it. I see your smile everywhere a memory around every turn. And it drives through me. It's almost like I've been dealt a losing hand at life's game. So take my hand and rearrange the cards so the odds aren't against me! Your the only one that can cause your the only one I truly love!
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The door was ajar. Putrid smells leading to the attic. Filling the senses with fear and loathing. The never ending dripping from the attic door, or the minute hand on a clock, so steady.. slow pattern beating on the eardrums. His hand reached up for the doorhandle, only to find himself stopping, a quick look around. No one around. Fear thumping in his chest. He stands there, hand extended, pulls on the knob. Slowly opens the door, creaking old house. The smell was getting worse, so rancid. It brought tears to his eyes. Afraid to illuminate the room, he uses his candle... sowly steps over the creaky boards towards where the smell is the strongest. Ages of smells hitting him at once. There in the darkest of corners, is a box, leaned, upright. about six feet tall. Ages old, maybe even centuries. "If i go over and open it, what will happen?" was the thought Sean was having. The smell was getting so unbearable, he just didn;t know what to do, so sean quickly reach
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A frantic girl screaming is heard from afar. "SEAN!" she run's to his side, he is so faint, drained of all his color. Pale. Sean tries to sit up, but only manages to slurr words. So gibberish, she waited for the rest of the group to show up. "In here" Karlie screams Petite young lady, wearing a bloodied easter dress, clinging to a bunny with no left eye, and the right ear is about to fall off. Footsteps followed her screams and they all came in to see Sean, barely being able to speak. A tall black gentlman with spectacles shoved his way in, and stood back in aww and amazement. He leaned in closer and saw two very large wounds on the mans neck, almost like a large spider. "SO DOc..." A heavier set man jumped on this demanding if it were one of them. The Doc looked up in puzzlement "no, if it were one of them, he would be in pieces and we would all be dead as well." "Hmmph" this not making the heavy man happy, went and grabbed his niece they backed away from sean and
get someone to notice ur alive??lol never gonna happen this life...too damn bad too..
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"Hey mom!" He yelled from the attic door, "What's these old heavy boots and hard hat for?" With a lump in her throat and a tear stained cheek His mother swallowed and started to speak. "Come here my son," his mother said, "There's things to tell when I clear my head." The past races madly through her mind. She searched her heart for the words to find. At last she sighed and rubbed his hair And the words that followed I'd like to share. "Those boots & hat," She said with pride, "Were worn by a man with grit inside. He wore them to help people in need. Though facing danger would never concede. Many a time in the dead of night He jumped in those boots and flashed out of sight To answer a call, not knowing for sure What danger or heartache he may have to endure. Your father, my son, was not like most dads, It was mainly because of the job he had. His life was devoted to all of mankind, Just why he chose it's not clear in my min
No Tittle Yet ( Still Thinking Of A Name And Plz Dont Be To Mean, Lol Jk)
So many problems So many fears When will the drama ever end here They say this and others say that So sick of all this he said she said crap All these questions about what should be done but the answers are never herd of They come to her and ask for help, forgetting that she needs help herself She is cutting her arms and her breathing is bad They say she needs no more stress in her hands But they keep coming back like bees to honey She should turn them away instead of greeting them openly Through all the heartaches and tears, she gives out her love and says, “ I am always here” Shoulders back and head held up high Shows the world a smile as she passes by If they only new she is not as strong as she appears Looking into her eyes you will find uncried tears Her heart screams for help but no one can hear Filled with so much sorrow praying for a better year They do not realize, inside she is falling apart No one to turn to, no ones arms are reaching out She will go th
Not In The Mood Lately
hello friends~ I am still here. I just haven't been in the mood lately to get on here and chat. I had another biopsy done yesterday and I am quite sore. I think my boobs need time to heal before any more procedures are done.....I am all bruised again. I think the place it's cut is the problem this time. The cut is on the under side of my right breast and it sags there and pulls more. I was hoping I would not bruise with this one as it was different from the other ones but I am already quite bruised. Today I am doing as little as possible. But I do need to clean the bathrooms and dust the cobwebs out of my room. I get more cobwebs in my room than any room I have ever seen. Maybe cause it is half under ground??? (we have a tri-level house) I have another appointment tomorrow with a cardiologist to see what this 'shadow' is on my upper left side of my heart. It could just be a shadow but it could be a clot. SO I have to have my heart checked out before any chemo is give
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my heart goes out to those who needs love and compassion my love goes out to those that showed me love and befriended me my thoughts goes out to those who has lost someone they love and cared about my spirit is with everyone i know for i am the guardian and i watch over those who needs me the most
Not Ignoring Anyone
I just wanted to let you all know that I"m truly not ignoring anyone. Last Monday Devon got sick and stayed home from school. By Wednesday I was horribly ill. Caughing, throwing up, chills the fever you name it I had it. Now my entire family, except for Abby who has voluntarily locked herself in her bedroom so as not to be sick has this horrible cold. I dunno when I'm gonna shake it. It's the worst at night. My husband almost had to go to the ER. I would have drivin him but I was too busy throwing up. :( So I wanted to let you all know whats going on. Thanks for understanding. Rosemary
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Sometimes a face can make you smile or melt your heart with a glimpse their touch can reach your soul and not give away an inch its been a long time since it had happened to me but i cannot breathe a word and i dare not let you see i wanna be all that you want and everything that you need the reason that you smile and the life that you breathe i want you there when i wake and in my arms when you sleep though your reign has barely came girl the water runs deep i keep thinkin this is wrong you got a life of your own but in my heart there's a place if you wanna make a home so just pick up the phone and/or leave me a messege because evey moment your close to me its so precious dont let this go away you might not know it but im here waiting for you to read my book because for you the pages are clear so please hear me when i tell you its been cold for sometime just open up your arms and let me in to sunshine
Not Ignoring You???
Hi, i been getting a lot of emails asking why i have you blocked in the shout box.. I have my shout box turned off today. This time is for my mom and myself, and i really don't feel up to talking much. It is nothing personal...Read my blog about "Dad", then i think you will understand.. For those in the contest just send me an email and i will get back to you as soon as i can.... Thank you for understanding... onesxybrat
Its empty.. for now, but I hope to collect somethings for it at some point.
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Well today I am hiding from my emotions..... sleep doesn't seem to really help but thats what I have been doing off and on all day. I hate this waiting game..... I sent him a text in some hopes for a response, but nope, none.... He has to know what he is doing to me, I lived with him for 6 months he has to know how I respond to situations like this.... My heart literally feels like it is being ripped from my chest.... can one make them self sick from stress? ====================================
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I sit here and all I can think about is you and I, We are apart and I ask you why? The pain in my heart just won’t go away, I want to ring you but I don’t know what to say, I really want to tell you I want to be with you, I can’t stand not being by your side, The hurt I’m feeling makes me want to run and hide, I want to run to you and hold you near, Losing you is my greatest fear, You’re my everything - I love you so, The love I have for you is more than you could ever know, I miss you more than words could ever say, This is another thing that grows with every passing day, I need you like the earth needs the rain, I want you to come and take away my pain, I never thought that being away from someone could make someone ache, Not being able to touch you - I feel my heart starting to break, I want to be able to tell you I love you as I look into your eyes, That way you will know that those words are not lies, We have something so perfect, great and true, We are meant
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I miss him more than I ever imagined I would. Sadness, confusion, hurt, and pain all set in.. I wonder if he thinks of me or has he really" completely moved on? Hes looking so happy and free, it was me who helped that along. We talked about our past we talked about bad times. I was there for him when he needed I was strong for him 'cuz he needed me to be I was his shoulder to cry on. I was the person he talked to when he wanted. I was there for him when he felt he wasnt going to make it through. So now I ask will she be there too? I know some secrets that can not be shared, I konw some hard times that I was there, there for him to make sure he made it through. When I said that "we would get through it" I didnt know I was going to be replaced. SO now I wonder why can't I replace you?
No Time For Nasty People
I blog so much on this other site i participate in, until i have delayed my first blog here. I don't see the point in posting the same thing on every site, therefore i just waited. Today is a great day to do my first blog and since my mumm on foreplay, I now know what to write it on NASTY PEOPLE. In my life I refuse to deal with NASTY PEOPLE, in person or on the net. I have discovered that some people just have no life at all and would do anything for some attention. My comments is sat to approval because of people like you. You wast your time commenting, because it will never make it to post. As for me not being able to handle it, you have no idea the strength i have. Opinions do not bother me, because that what they are, just opinions. But to be nasty only shows how much your enter person needs work, and how much you dislike yourself. Therefore take your drama to your mama she is the only one who cares peace out marti
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Life has a way of doing things to each of us to make us better people. It will test you relentlessly to see how you react, how you handle the situation and deal with all rewards and consequences. I live with those each day in my life. I try to live and learn, and sometimes, its hard to deal with. I have a lot of respect for those of you who can pass all tests that life has to offer. On many, I have failed and there will be more. I am dealing with a big test right now. Cross your fingers I pass this one. ;) I tend to react without thinking, and speak out before thinking. I have always done that. That will never change about me. There are so many things about me that I cannot change, and there are things about me that I have changed in the past years. Some of which changed after signing up on this site. A few people may have noticed some of changes. Most were for the good, some have been just to tighten up my heart to keep it from being hurt. (funny how things like that
No Time....
For anyone who has been a friend or anyone recently added I just want to say thanks. I dont always have a lot of time to attend this site. I work 12+ hours a day. I come home, do some extra workouts, eat dinner, shower and get ready for work the next day. I get to bed around 930 or 1000pm German time(thats 6 hours ahead of the east coast). I get up at 445 the next morning. So with that all in light I do ask you to be patient with me in rating your pics and such. If I to neglect you all together feel free to shoot me a message (be kind) and remind me that I should swing by your page. Hope you all are doing well and happy fubarring.
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Love doesn't look at black or white For those are only colors Love doesn't look at 25 or 30 For age is only a number Love doesn't look at rich or poor For money is only paper Love doesn't look at faults only perfections For in the eyes of loved one everything is good When you love someone you love them for what's inside Not because they're black or white, not because they're you age not because they're rich, but because of what's inside Love is blind to everything but what you love them for
Not Influenced By Her Beauty
Sadly, to build attraction in most women. Or rather women who are very attractive like models and such. You need to use "Neg theory" often known as backhanded compliments. It shows the woman that you are not influenced by her beauty like other men. Example "Hi! those are nice shoes! do they come in womans sizes?" Pretty simple and effective. Goes against everything men have been told. In other words, don't believe a womans magazine when it explains what a woman wants from a man. Being cocky and funny will work better then polite and nice. I DID NOT WRITE THAT.
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With you in my arms I lay in this bed, With nothing but your beauty to fill my head I don't wanna sleep, Cause dreams aren't enough To ease my mind, I need your touch How do I explain what your presence does to me I forget about the pain I forget about the bleed I forget about the things that make my life hell I block out everything I hate about myself It's comforting to know that your there If your ever in trouble I'll be right here As you lay motionless right by my side I slowly drift away holding you tight I love the way that you move on the floor I love how you wish every night on a star I admire the way that you think of me first I think it's cute that you don't like to curse When you kiss me It drives me insane With one look in your eyes I forget my name The curves of your body make me feel blessed You always give me a hug when I'm feeling stressed Your not what I wanted, your so much more How was I so blind not to see you before Now that your here
No Time For A Vampire
On my shatterd face lie two broken hands Time still passes by But there are no shifting sands I follow the one that is feard by most Feard by the masses but i follow so close They always say, time will heal all wounds But in this hell that i walk There will be only doom Time is stoped in this place of pain Im surounded by demons And storms of fiery rain My wounds wont heal They will just hurt less in time If i pull the steak from my heart ill bleed out and die So stake hearted this vampire walks Following the angel of death We trudge and talk Many things we speek of Many tales are told Of how a young couple met And where suposed to grow old But one of them wasent so true His hiden vampire form His lover never knew But time has now stoped This vampire sleeps While his love lies in a cage He burns under her feet Title........
Ok this is not a pity party on me i just want comments, I need to know how other people feel about getting used by there sisters or brothers you know the drill. Here is a little bit about my story. I have a sister who will be 18, in June. She is rebeling against her father. Which is understandable. She called me all crying and that, said she needed a place to go. So I gave her a roof over her head, food, and what ever else she needed. The next day she went to get her stuff from her dad's and now she ended up with her 18 year old boyfriend. I feel she used me to get out of her previous house. I guess my question is, if she comes crying back what should I do? Should I say you wanted to be and adult and move out of your dads, so act like one....Or just welcome her back because everyone makes mistakes...
No Time Limit ~ Needs Help
go here - add,fan,rate then go here - and comment bomb chpmnk. no time limit ~ help a girl out :)
Notice Anything....
AIGHT, SO LOOK AT THE AMOUNT OF POINTS AND DOLLARS AND ASK YOURSELF WHAT THE FUCK? THIS MORNING MY PROFILE JUMPED FROM A LEVEL 22 HENCHMEN, TO A LEVEL TEN FRIEND OF FUBAR, THEN BACK TO A LEVEL 22 HENCHMEN. ALL MY CASH WAS GONE. ALL MY POINTS, AND IT SAYS I HAVE TO EARN 2, 238,456 POINTS TO LEVEL AGAIN. THAT SHIT IS FUCKED UP!!! LOL. PEACE OUT AND SHIT.-BILL. P.S. NAKED AND DOWNLOADING. Member ID: 158309 Member Since: Aug, 08 2006 Birthday: January, 20th Age: 27 Gender: Male Location: Ireland My Public Profile: Referral Path: white rob -> COLOR BLIND CRIMES Core Interests: none -- add some! Points: 8 [?] fuBucks: 8 [?] Referrals: 28 sent, 0 joined Henchman --> Insider 2,249,992 Points to go! Level: Henchman (22) [?] Rating: 10.09 (876) [?] Profile Views: 7,068 Fans: 184
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She is beautiful. The eyes that I could lose myself in for hours, viewpoints into the most beautiful and fragile soul that God has ever created. Eyes that have shed too many tears, they show too much pain. But there is trust there, now...a trust I will never betray. If I get my way those beautiful eyes will never hold another tear. There is love in those eyes, a love that has been taken for granted, abused...misdirected. It will be cherished and protected, never taken for granted again. There is a past in those eyes, secrets held deep inside..I hope to unlock them, I hope to know everything those eyes have seen, everything they have encountered. The little strands of hair that fall into her face. Covering her face, hinting at the beauty beneath. Ever changing, just like the person. Wild and free, untamed. Some would say confusing, difficult, impossible to understand...but to me it's comforting, easily understood, I've known her since I was created. Fiery red, like a quick-temper.
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I have up and I have downs Why cannot I Find a happy In-between And Remain there Where joy Can wash Over me Like the Sun kissing Ones flesh I found this Special place With you A special wonderful Place Where I can finally Be myself Without any Consequences Have I been Asleep all this time Living in a blissful Dream Please if so do not wake Me Allow this Dream To continue On until The end Of time All me This happiness For once In my life Let my dreams Become The reality That I So desire Them to be by: samara 4-15-08
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This one I did about a year ago and it will tell you everything.... Black and blue Is the color of my frame Kicks and punches From my boyfriend is to blame Motionless on the floor My body lays Becasue he gave me Another beating today Pain consumes my body Blood conumes the floor I can feel I'm slowly dying Becasue I cant take it anymore I don't want to let go But why should I hold on I have no pride left All my self esteem is gone I tried to give him the world And all I wanted was to be his girl But I guess he wanted more from me So he took my life...
Not It Be Me?
Who is really hiding? For truly it be not me. For who is really decieving? truly truly not by me. Thinking I know of nothing. Naught a thought not by me. He know's not that I see? A sight not be it by me. One day he will realize. Yes, Yes sir that not be me. ============================= Copyright owned souly by myself. No unauthorized usage allowed without express written permission from me.
Not In Her Storm
I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain And it is always I fight for the welcome change When it rains it pours on this heart of mine So, I take the storms I feel to her each time. But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain Yet under her water her heart still doesn't change She can walk away from what hangs overhead And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid. Not in her storm have I ever felt alone Her storm ends, so I, may find my way home It's for me that she pushes away her own rain So, that I may find comfort in calling her name. She lives in this world for the sake of another's heart God, how she eases the miles when worlds apart And she never wanders when your world falls through Not ever in her storm would she do this to you. She has wings that I know not only I can see Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me It's the way that the eyes can surely view How her heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.
No Time Limit ,when Your Bored She Could Use Comments
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You look down deep to my soul You complete me and make me whole You are my dear, sweet friend I will love you until the end I love you with all my heart And I hope we never will apart You brighten up my darkest days In so many wonderful ways You make me laugh and smile And make every day worth while You've been there through good times and bad And you lift me up whenever I am sad Without you what I would do Life would be empty and blue The sun would never shine And I would never be fine So smile, my dear, sweetest friend I will be here for you until the end So look beside you and you will see A faithful and true friend in me - Me
Not Interested
I hope that this short blog does not offend any of my friends, however I do want to say that I am highly critical of the sentiment of paying for female attention. In fact I utterly refuse to do it. Please do not send me any offers like this, or anything that has me putting a credit card number in for a webcam shot. I'm not interested.
No Time No Time
The Poem I knelt to pray but not for long, I had too much to do. I had to hurry and get to work For bills would soon be due. So I knelt and said a hurried prayer, And jumped up off my knees. My Christian duty was now done, My soul could rest at ease..... All day long I had no time To spread a word of cheer No time to speak of Christ to friends, They'd laugh at me I'd fear. No time, no time, too much to do, That was my constant cry, No time to give to souls in need But at last the time, the time to die I went before the Lord, I came, I stood with downcast eyes. For in his hands God! held a book; It was the book of life. God looked into his book and said 'Your name I cannot find I once was going to write it down... But never found the time' !
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I walk with you into your apartment. You met me in a club tonight with your wife. For whatever reason, you two decided to pick me up and bring me home with the two of you. She explains that you have wanted to have sex with another girl and she will only let you if she watches. You guys tell me this after an hour or two of small talk. I ask her if she will join in, she says no, and I tell her that’s too bad. I have a feeling she is more jealous than anything and is watching to see if you’ll go through with it, your wife is pretty, but you are hot and I can see that we are both game no matter who watches. You lead me to the bedroom. It’s a big king size, there is a comfortable chair there and that is where she sits to watch. You kiss me standing up, and unbutton my blouse. I help you off with your shirt, once and awhile sneaking peeks at your wife. She watches with stone cold silence. You strip me down to my bra and panties. They are hot pink; the panties are tiny string bikinis. I ha
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The sun Makes her Skin glow With a Youthful radiance Her eyes Shine and sparkle Like polished Gem stones Her joyful Laughter Fills the air Yet inside She screams For at Lease one Person to See past Her pretences How she Craves For one Person To see Her for Herself Instead of The person She is On the Outside by: Kat 8-2-08
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As the day goes on And the sun begins to set I think about you And how we first met Driving the distance Time seemed to pass Despite stopping for red-bull And filling the tank with gas I arrived and sat musing Wondering why I was here Too late to turn back Nervously wanting a beer Slowly taking a breath Collecting my pride I stepped out of the car And walked inside You ran to me Your hug I will never forget And our first shot of Jager And your friends that I met Time continues to move And feelings continue to grow Everyday a new beginning As we go with the Flow In the land of Cheezycake All is as it should be Just thankful everyday That you’re here with me
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They say every scar is a story to tell. But what if I said mine were a gift straight from hell? Would you listen intently, as I pour out my heart? Or would you cast me away, and shut me out from the start? What if I said I was losing control? Would you give me your hand to take and to hold? What if I said I was fine and everything was alright? But at the same time, a tear falls down my cheek on the right. Would you leave me on the roadside, with my cuts covered in dirt? Or would you open the door and try to ease all the hurt? I want o be free from these chains of anger and hate. Make them, not me, for once suffer and break. I want to scream - at the top of my lungs! But its hard to scream when you're always biting your toungue. Life thus far has been far less than kind But the end, it is near, and the end I will find And when I find it, I will NOT beg for mercy. I will no longer cry, I will not start cursing. I will stand and face this demon, eye to eye. Feeling such
Not In The Least Admirable
The Democratic National Convention is August 25-28th. The schedule is as follows Monday • Michelle Obama • House Speaker Nancy Pelosi Tuesday • Sen. Hillary Clinton • Former Virginia Gov. Mark Warner Wednesday • Former President Bill Clinton • Vice presidential nominee Thursday • Sen. Barack Obama • Former Vice President Al Gore On August 26th the day Hillary is to speak at the Convention- she has done this, ___ A grassroots organization of Hillary Clinton supporters has announced plans to march in Denver on the same day the New York senator is set to address her party’s faithful during the Democratic convention there. The march will take place on August 26 and is being organized by 18 Million Voices Rise Hillary Rise. The march will be accompanied by a festival in downtown Denver and additional coordinated marches across the country on the same day.(CNN) ____ Know Hillary only suspended her campaign. ************ Just days after Sen. Barack Obama r Title......
You came into my life unexpectedly, and everything took a turn for the better. Your warm eyes, your laugh, the sincere way you speak, and the kindness you showed me, all became a part of my life. -- As you unfolded yourself to me, I discovered more and more beauty. I have never seen so much gentleness in one person. Without even knowing it, you were slowly making a place for yourself in my heart. -- It used to seem so hard at times to feel so close in a relationship. But it’s so easy to feel close to you. I can’t tell you how nice that feels. I realize now that I had never known what it meant to be loved until I was loved by you. --
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Another poem Shutting myself in my tomb once again Waiting for the pain of eternity to finally end Loneliness has crept into my dead heart once more I love forever as each tear stains the floor All I want is the light to go away To give me peace for one last day Bring back the world I knew with one last breath Give me peace before my hearts death I want one last day without having to doubt of lose or pain Bring me in from this cold rain One last day to end the pain Far too long I have endured these feelings Knowing my heart no longer has meaning Forever it seems these scars have been bleeding Loving forever unending pain never fleeting On this altar my blood shall spill Sacrificing myself to find release Praying as each drop of me stains the floor Bring me peace one last time Shut in darkness all alone I sit in silence praying to hear her voice I have no will I have no choice I can't feel there is no meaning I take
Not In Her Storm
I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain And it is always I fight for the welcome change When it rains it pours on this heart of mine So, I take the storms I feel to her each time. But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain Yet under her water her heart still doesn't change She can walk away from what hangs overhead And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid. Not in her storm have I ever felt alone Her storm ends, so I, may find my way home It's for me that she pushes away her own rain So, that I may find comfort in calling her name. She lives in this world for the sake of another's heart God, how she eases the miles when worlds apart And she never wanders when your world falls through Not ever in her storm would she do this to you. She has wings that I know not only I can see Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me It's the way that the eyes can surely view How her heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.
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By STEVEN A. HOLMES Published: September 30, 1999 In a move that could help increasehome ownership ratesamong minorities and low-income consumers, theFannie Mae Corporationis easing the credit requirements on loans that it will purchase from banks and other lenders. The action, which will begin as a pilot program involving 24 banks in 15 markets -- including theNew Yorkmetropolitan region --will encourage those banks to extendhome mortgages to individuals whose credit is generally not good enough to qualify for conventional loans. Fannie Mae officials say they hope to make it a nationwide program by next spring. Fannie Mae, the nation's biggest underwriter of home mortgages, has been under increasing pressure from the Clinton Administration to expand mortgage loans among low and moderate income people and felt pressure from stock holders to maintain its phenomenal growth in profits. ''Fannie Mae has expanded home ownership for millions of families in the 1990's by reducing down
Notice Me
------Lyrics-------- You seem to lost your way you seem to move on easy you seem to lock the door as if I don’t mean a thing and it hurts to know im all alone and you don’t mind you don’t mind and I am looking for you I have lost what i found I am waiting for you to turn around and notice me im right here wont you notice me standing here Im loosing site of you im loosing all ive ever known im loosing my mind trying to let you go and i know its been a rough road and it doesn’t have to end right here still its hard for me now cause i am looking for you i have lost what I found i am waiting for you to turn around and notice me im right here wont you notice me standing here notice me standing here waiting on you my dear cant you see that im here looking for you and baby wont you turn around a notice me standing right here im right here now baby im crying out baby. (LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK.)
No Time To Cry.(cradle Of Filth)
No Time to Cry It's just a feeling I get sometimes A feeling Sometimes And I get frightened Just like you I get frightened too but it's... [CHORUS] (no no no) No time for heartache (no no no) No time to run and hide (no no no) No time for breaking down (no no no) No time to cry Sometimes in the world as is you've Got to shake the hand that feeds you It's just like Adam says It's not so hard to understand It's just like always coming down on Just like Jesus never came and What did you expect to find It's just like always here again it's... [CHORUS] Everything will be alright Everything will turn out fine Some nights I still can't sleep And the voices pass with time And I keep [repeat] No time for tears No time to run and hide No time to be afraid of fear I keep no time to cry
Notice To All Friends & Fans: Moving
Hello my friends, Well today, Kate and I finally got good news, we got approved to move into another mobile home park that'll be a lot quieter than the one we are living in now, so as of tomorrow probably, we won't be online much so if you have our cell phone number, feel free to call us there or text message me otherwise, we'll be back online in at the most two days, so i'll miss you all for those two days and will be thinking of ya too.
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My heart is merely pieces left Nothing I do is ever good enough I am reminded of my mistakes and flaws My tears are my only companion at night They faithfully are by my side til I drift off Your tones so cold with me I can only dream of one day finding the warmth of kind words from someone We all make mistakes, noone is perfect Im sorry I messed up so much Im sinking in the quicksand beneath my feet There is no way out
Notice The things ‘round you. Take note of what they are And what it is that they are not, Or else… 7-14-00
Not In Jail
hey whats up not in jail things went good at court. glo and lil please call me 727-768-6652 leave a mesaage with name and number i will call you back. and anyone else that wants to call.
No Time Limit Auction
No Time For Fu...maybe After The Holidays
I finally found a full time job. I also have a part time job. I go to school. I have a bf. i still have not gotten the internet at my condo yet. waiting for comcast to be available because cox sucks! comcast said theyre moving to the valley of the sun in 09. so hopefully by early january i can get me some cable internet and a house phone since my celly gets like almost no reception inside my place! I'm doing well, just busy and don't have a lot of time to sit and relax anymore. i'm a lot happier tho now that i am busy and me and the bf have never been better :) I hope all you fu's are doing well and have Happy Holidays!
Not In A Ver Good Mood
I swear, after what I just found out, I will no longer be in any fricking contest again here, I was in a MUMM where this person was offering an auto 11 bling for free to be given away to someone that can come up with the reason or somebody nominated someone else to get that free auto-11 bling, in the MUMM it says they wasn't going to give it out till 8pm PST here and come to find out, that person that posted the MUMM which I voted on and gave her my reason for it, well, let's just say that the person already has given the auto 11 bling out and it's not even 8pm PST and I just read who got it, and that person, I'm not mad at here, it's the person who posted the MUMM and fed people a line of crap saying "well, this will be handed out at 8PM PST, that's a fricking joke! After I read the bulletin, that's when I started to post this blog! From here on out, I WILL NOT BE IN ANY CONTEST HERE BECAUSE I DON'T TRUST THOSE THAT ARE NOT GOING TO STICK TO THEIR WORD WHEN THEY POST THE MUMM, IT'S A
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Khatra pulled into a parking space at the vacant baseball park. She looked around at the improvements that the community had made to the once run down area. She put her car into park, then picked up her cell phone and reread the last message from her boyfriend Dean. ‘Sweetheart, please meet me at the baseball diamond, were we first meet, this evening about six-thirty. Love Dean’ After exiting her messages Khatra looked at the clock on her radio, “It’s a quarter after six now, Dean should be here within the next thirty minutes or so, depending on what time he got out of work. Why in the world would he want to meet here, neither of us have been here since we were in high school.” She switched off the car so she could get out and enjoy what was left of the unusually warm December evening. The sun felt good upon her face as she shut her car door and started walking over to the newly added playground. As she walked Khatra got the feeling of being watched.
Notice Me
Every night, before I close my eyes, The last thing I see is you face. Your beautiful smile,your cute laugh,No part of you could I ever replace. You make me smile, you make me happy, Even when I feel all alone. And even though I know you wont call, I spend every night by the phone.And when I drift, off to sleep, All of my dreams are of you. I dream of us hugging and you holding my hand, And all of the things we would do. If only you, would notice me, If only you would see that I Have always admired, although haven't showed it, That you could make joyful when I cry. But obviously, I'm just not good enough, And makes me want to scream. But I hold it inside but always ask why, Why wont you love me?
Not In A Good Mood
I’m so ready to just scream. If I knew it wouldn’t give me a headache and make me feel worse I would. I’m so tired of looking at MRI films & the CD of it laying on my dresser. I’m tired of hearing all the directions on how to get there. She ain’t dumb I’m sure she can get me there in one piece. I’m waiting for them to start telling me how to act tomorrow. Hello it’s my back I’m pretty dang sure after three years of dealing with it I know how to act. I’m not retarded even though some will dispute that , I know how to open my big mouth and let the sucker know he hurt me. I need a vacation I think because I feel like I’m about to blow. Makes no sense to me I didn’t ask for or make this appointment. Yet that stupid surgeon’s office can’t even pick up the phone call two places and get MRI results & films. Not no but heck no I had to gather up all that. It wasn’t my lawyer nor I who came up with this appointment, so why should I have to get anything together for it. Like the nice person that
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I think of you every nite n day i know it had to end this way. You were sick. Very sick. You were the strongest little girl ive ever known. Even tho, i was older than you I always wanted to grow up and be jus like you. My dear dear sister, I love you and i always will. I know we always fought But isnt that what sister were suppose to do? I miss you! You were my hero, now your my angel. Up in the heavens so far away One day i know ill see you again Until that day comes Know you will always be in heart! Forever!! RIP Amanda! MArch 1 1987- Oct 30 1996
Not In The Fuckin Mood
i would rather be raped by saint sinners flying monkeys than go to work today the thought of spending 6 hours weaving data and phone lines through angle irons and beams 40 feet in the air in an oily aerospace machine shop is not putting me in a good mood and no i`m not stoned cuz of working with heights dammit thats it quick vent
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That's right I am in two auctions! But! This is your last two chances to own me for awhile... I am relocating and going to be going offline at some point next week. So Come check out what I have added by simply clicking the image. This Auctions Ends January 31 @ 5pm Est time ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Or you can come get your grabs on in Unbreakables Pre Valentines Day Auction! Good Luck & Happy Bidding! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This Bulley Brought To You By Myself! Nothing Fancy! Please Repost DJ Bytch - Owner Of ~ CT Wife & RL Fiance To DJ Jay@ fubar
So have u ever noticed that there r some songs u listen to them and u just ball your eyes out its like u cant control it they bring u back to a time and place and u cant control it. I put my my comp on random and omg that just happened it just took me back to a moment I had almost forgoten its strange how those emotions havnt changed its been years but when i hear that song I cry i guess thats y i never listen to it lol
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Just wanted to let everyone know that I don't have enough time to do everything, fubar, facebook, drivers alike, etc etc. So I am writing to say, if you want to keep in touch, check me out at: Take care and God Bless.
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I thought intertwined we were so happy you helped me realize nothing perfection is silence no word out of place not a shatter in the nothing but who was wrong? I
"noticed Her"
Everyday I see her on her porch, sitting in the chair, and watching us. She watches all of us as we go by. The runners, us walkers, and even the kids passing by and she watches us all from her perch on her porch. Every day I walk and I’ll look up. I’ll look up and I’ll smile. Why I do that, I’m not sure, but I do. I was taught to be that way, taught to be a friendly person. That’s what my parents told me. Be friendly, wave to your neighbors, and say hi to them. Most the time I do. I wave to my neighbors, but sometimes I don’t. It all depends.She was different. Don’t know why, but she was. A pretty woman she seemed depressed or she looked it. Didn’t know anything about her either, but I’d see her every evening around 7:30 and she sat and rocked and watched me go by. Somehow I came to like this woman. Don’t ask me why, I just did. She was quiet and reserved. But she was sad also. I didn’t know why she was, but she acted li
Not I...
Dirty little secrets shrouded by dirty little lies You thought you were a good man Seems the poison inside has been set free Try to remember what you used to be Don't come to me seeking salvation I don't have it in me to be that man Don't come to me for answers I have none to give I care not for what makes you suffer I pray you find the Jesus you seek I must maintain my objectivity these days It is not my place nor pleasure to have an opionion Fly high or fall hard as you will  
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Once I was a beautiful shell Giving life to the creatures of the sea Tides and time pounded on me, breaking me bit by bit Then I was stuck nowhere to go... The barnacles found a place to dwell But Mother Ocean gave me a second chance The tides washed me upon the shore There I lay waiting in the sun, dull and chipped and ugly Then, you came along and found me The barnacles were picked, the sand washed off You polished me up and brought out my luster... I'm still chipped with imperfections But you laid me out for everyone to see... The beautiful colors inside me Now I'm shiny with colors and gold The tides have yet to see me grow old With the tenderness and care you gave me I am once again a beautiful shell
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It's perfect, and touches me deep First thing in the morning, when I hear you speak And last thing at night as you bid me sweet dreams The brush of your lips lets me know what you mean And all of the hours that pass through the day Those spent together and when you're away I think of you always, imagine your touch Think how to show you, I love you so much So when we're apart, and you long for me near Just try to remember, you're already here For deep in my heart, where no one can see You'll be forever, together we'll be
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Your essence, your being, Just takes me away... Back to a time way back. Back when charming princes In shining armor, on white horses, Flourished, their swords, Making the princesses swoon. You do that to me, Make me laugh, and fret, And swoon, on occasion. But without a sword, Or a great white horse, Or armor, You are still a prince. And my prince, Whom I'd swoon over, Any day.
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Completely consumed by emotions and a thought Mind and spirit together working a vision that comes to naught a shadow of happiness lurking somewhere in the room cannot stay long as its swept away with a nice straw broom thoughts come and go just as the seconds tick tock things change at every level just like the hands on the clock never the same time for more than the moment never the same person for more than the same moment.....
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Today in a breeze I sensed your perfume  But you were nowhere near. And in reverie, I felt you holding me. And even in my dreams I shake from the fear Of truth being swept away By the rhythm of the waves u whisper in my ears.
Notice Me
I need to bleed - to feel aliveWhat's wrong with me - am I alrightI feel alone - can no one seeThe winters snow - has frozen meI'm all alone on this frozen streetAll alone can no one notice meOne day I'll get back on my feetWon't be alone this world will notice meWalking down these icy streetsWatch where I'm going on this pavementWhen this crazy day it's snowing and the headphones are soakedBut the music stays flowing and my pockets dead brokeBut the hands staying openI can't take it anymore I'm ready to lose itSo that's why I'm so absorbed in writing this musicFeeling all alone clutch up on the rosariesAskin' a change for good and get these people to notice meI'm all alone on this frozen streetAll alone can no one notice meOne day I'll get back on my feetWon't be alone this world will notice meAll alone, no one homeThink this out all on my ownNeed a zone, overdoseSo why am I depression proneHeart so black, rotten factDon't even know how to actFrozen past, don't know where I'm atBut no
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I'm not really sure what to say in here. I'm just tried of letting people get to me. I'm a very emotional person and I let how other people feel get to me too much. I think I try too hard to keep things from going "bad", when they were already bad. I'd really like to be able to just stop caring so much about what people think, but I can't. I sit here and cry about some of the things that are said to me. I realize things, and I can't stop thinking about it. I'm not sure if that makes me  a weak person or not. Either way it's me. I can't help it.  
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Have you ever felt so hopeless that you don't know what to do or think? Lately that is how I have been feeling. I haven't been on here a lot, trying to get my real life situated. I feel like such a burden on everyone in my real life, like nobody believes in me nor do I have any moral support in real life. For instance, yesterday was my daughters graduation bbq, I went but none of my family even talks to me, they make me feel like I am totally invisible.  I feel like the hate drips from their veins when I am around. I am so close to getting into the transitional place, yet a few weeks out still seems like a long ways away when you are living like I am. I thought family was suppose to be moral support and love unconditionaly,but not mine. Depression has been hitting me hard, but yet I still try to do what I have to do every day. I am hoping that once I get into that place I will finally have the moral support and backing I need to get my life back on track. It's so hard to be positive wh
No Time
theres no time                 to argue about the stupid things that people do they all seem just a little to consumed with them selves to stop and think bout you a minuet i know it seems like ive got so much time on my hands but never enough to follow through with any of my plans but ill always try to make time for you but some times baby your just ganna have to make do   well the world can be so hard some times  i know that your not the type to get disheartend by it  and though we both know we've grown so far apart swing though your town babe you just jump in the car                    and then we're out   there's no time to complane i bolck'm out they all sound like wispers in the rain like looking out the window of a plane look at the world and hope that i make it back home to you some day
Notice M E
Notice Me... Here I stand Waiting patiently for you to come hold my hand Trying to make you understand No need to make a demand For I am here...your wish is my command Notice Me... My heart aching from all this pain Yet my Love for you will sustain With time I know our Love can attain With our trust and strength we can obtain I promise to keep our house, our children well maintain No matter what happens in our lives...I will do my best to have our family retain Just believe in me, in us...I have nothing to lose but gain.
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what have you done to me?a black cloud of blood as feelings creep.once we shared heaven,hand in hand and glad-hearted,but your heart soured.a painful vision of lies -tears follow hate, follow memory,love taken a storm of hatred,i reject you.
Not In Her Storm
I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rainAnd it is always I fight for the welcome changeWhen it rains it pours on this heart of mineSo, I take the storms I feel to her each time.But I know she has lived under her own pouring rainYet under her water her heart still doesn't changeShe can walk away from what hangs overheadAnd, not in her storm, are words left unsaid.Not in her storm have I ever felt aloneHer storm ends, so I, may find my way homeIt's for me that she pushes away her own rainSo, that I may find comfort in calling her name.She lives in this world for the sake of another's heartGod, how she eases the miles when worlds apartAnd she never wanders when your world falls throughNot ever in her storm would she do this to you.She has wings that I know not only I can seeCause only an angel could find strength to carry meIt's the way that the eyes can surely viewHow her heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.Not in her storm is her work ever doneAnd even in
No Tickets To His Funeral
You're a 19 year old kid.You're critically wounded and dying in the jungle in the Ia DrangValley, 11-14-1965, LZ X-ray ,  Vietnam .  Your infantry unit isoutnumbered 8 - 1 and the enemy fire is so intense, from 100 or 200yards away, that your own Infantry Commander has ordered the MediVac helicopters to stop coming in. You're lying there, listening to the enemy machine guns and you know you're not getting out.  Your family is 1/2 way around the world, 12,000 miles away and you'll never see them again.  As the world starts to fade in and out, you know this is the day.Then - over the machine gun noise - you faintly hear that sound of ahelicopter..!!You look up to see an un-armed Huey!!  But.... it doesn't seem realbecause no Medi-Vac markings are on it.Ed Freeman is coming for you..!!He's not Medi-Vac so it's not his job, but he's flying his Huey downinto the machine gun fire anyway.  Even after the Medi-Vacs were ordered not to come.He's coming anyway.And he drops it in and sits there i
So, Changes, they are a  part of life and I for one feel that any public display of oneslef should reflect those changes. With that said be aware that in about 48 hours Im going to clear my freinds& Fam list of ALOT of people. going to clear both fan list altogether (I will of course refan those who remain on my freinds list). My practice of just accepting add request is over, and Blank request will get ignored altogether. I will also be clearing out my Pics, getting rid of alot of them, and posting new ones in the comeing days. So, how does one surivive the cut? well, if your asking yourself that question the answer is me a beer and say "Hello". Thats it, that simple. those that want to stay will stay, those that dont, well, you will be gone.
Not In Titled To Be Sick
Okay ..ummmm,  I suffer from anxiety and depression, so  I am not ever at my best ,  health wise and it sucks. I hate when people ask me how are you, I tell them whats wrong. I then realized, just to lie and say I'm okay how are you.  Cause if every time they ask and you are always sick they are just gonna stop talking, I feel cause they assume your just looking for attention. And although that is partly right, its not totally right.  Explaination commin lol When I was say ermmmmmm around 12 years old , I had to take  care of myself mostly.  As my father was working and my cough mother was always out of her mind on drugs. As I grew up that part never changed,  meaning taking care of myself not depending on any one to help or support me. Even to this day being married over 33 years,  I still take care of me.  Why wish to gawd I knew.  But just seems my family feel I have no right being sick and if I am sick,  I should still be able to clean the house and tend to their needs. Th
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I walk my daily life Not being true to me. A promise I made to one Is one I must keep.   It isn't I do not love this soul. It is amazing and sincere. But I am not myself, I am not truly here.   I long to be what I am, And fear I will never be. Afraid to let it come out, Scared to search my loyalties.   Obviously it is not my contentment. That is not my main concern. So for now I will continue to dream For the life that I truly yearn.
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hiding in my thoughts wandering lost in your dreams can't help but feel like im hanging by a string holding my breath in the hopes nothing is real holding back pent up screams til my lungs feel like they will bust at the seams some days feel like they will never end others feel like they cant even begin dark and dreary seems like the only way i wish my mind would stop and stay in place feeling lost is a close hateful friend hoping ill be found in my wanderings time to stop thinking and go on instinct wishing it would all end I'm lost on my path hoping to find my way  
Noticing Already?
some of my employees noticed the physical change. one of my waitresses and a guy that used to cook for me that came in and was having a beer both said that i look bigger/better   nice to hear it. especially so soon. but i expected it. i grow like a weed. impossible not to when you eat like i do and lift the way i do. being blessed with good genetics helps. and im definitely blessed. (thanks Dad... even from Heaven, you still take good care of me. miss you big fella!)   cant wait for the weekend to be over so i can get back and hang and bang some more. 
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I read a comment about beauty and it's we see things and judge the whole based on the fragment. They weren't judging either way, but it made me think some random thoughts. They don't even apply, but:Beauty is a sensory perception.The world is fragmented. If you want to see any sort of beauty at all, you have to look at the fragments, and judge accordingly. Think of this: a life is merely a fragment in time. A whisper. Then it's gone.Thought: We cannot see color, anything around us, without light. But the fact that we cannot stare at the sun without burning those orbs which we use to view the beauty around us is a strange paradox. In a way, it takes something hot and ugly to reveal the glorious sights that surround.Glory. Hmm...wonder what people picture in reference to that word.And is there anything in the world that is perceived by all to be "beautiful"? I know of only one thing. And that's my little secret.I think some of the most beautiful things in the world exist
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Beneath the stars I look up and wonder is this it. Is this all I am here to do is sulk in the night waiting for a meal. They are a little hard to come by in this little town. I have to go to the city when I want to eat. The club scene is one of my favorite places to hunt. I can choose anyone and they think they overdosed or a bug bit them. The hard part is choosing the flavor so to speak. They’re sitting at the furthest table in my favorite hunting spot. She has long blonde hair, tall and alone.  I watch her a little while before I approach. I sit beside her without saying a word and watch the dance floor. “No there’s no one sitting there.” She says “Well that’s good otherwise I would be sitting on their lap,” I mutter “so what’s your name.” “I’m Eliza, what’s your name?” she asks. “Does it matter,” I whisper. I stand grab her hand and lead her to the dance floor. We dance for
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“Well boss lady I’m a lonely girl I need a mate,” I joke “Really Des I need someone to spend eternity with me.” “Well dear the only advise I can give you is it’s your life don’t screw it up, I just want you to introduce whomever it is you choose before you turn them.” She says. “Of course boss lady,” I chuckle “Why on earth do you call me boss lady?” she asked then stood “Because it annoys you so,” I reply. She smile kisses my forehead and walked to her headwaiter and says something to him and walks off. After she walks off the headwaiter comes rushing over. “I was ordered to get you anything you need,” he says not even looking at me. “The boss lady is out doing herself isn’t she, I don’t need anything now,” I tell him but he doesn’t move “Are you going to stand there the whole time?” “Orders,” he said “Well
Noting Changes
i have been thinking THATS VERY BAD lol
Not In Vain
Not In Vain ~~~~Emily Dickinson If I can stop one heart from breaking,I shall not live in vain:If I can ease one life the aching,Or cool one pain,Or help one fainting robinUnto his nest again,I shall not live in vain.
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So numb it didn't even make a difference Heart cold without a preference Layers of disappointment Don't really care what you meant Meaningless betrayals    ineffective and sterile Where are we now but in denial Washed up and spit out Condemned without a trial Withered by time Weak in the moment If I could take it back Pretend I didn't own it...
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My heart feels its been torn in two.....I don't know what to do.....I can't seem to get close to you....I know you have so much on your time ....patience is the key.......I just hope its not to late.......for you and me.......I will walk in the shadows.......waiting for you to see me.....some days are tougher than others......I just want you near......only time will tell......if all this is for real.....I don't want be a dream.....yet I know you aren't looking....for all that I can give.....I don't want to hold back....these feelings I will walk.....alone.....until the time.....when you arrive!
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Writing is the form of knowing who someone is or wants to be; in measures of self expressing to others' without expectations nor having to answer to anyone. I really can care less of any external acceptance. Nor will I tend to your fetishes of just having someone to talk to so you can get off knowing your fucking my head up with lies... I'll smack you in the mouth and lift you up on the nearest wall and FUCK YOU against it! I do pics for pics you want off I get off fair I won't marry again don't bother trying to think you gonna cage me ----been there done that. I have other things to think about; Like my business; and my two sons who and YES I am a single parent and full custody of them. She FUCKED UP BADLY for a long time and I learned to  not let things go for the sake of being with someone.   YOU want to know me you fucking earn it ~ I don't give CHARITY out.     PEACE I'm saying it like it is
Not In My Eye!
i wish i could take all the love in my heart and turn it to glitter. then i would throw it in the air and dance around...making sure to sprinkle it all over my family and friends.  i love to love.
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I take you for a date at the park, a sunset picnic at the park on top of the mountain, overlooking the forest below. We eat dinner, drink champagne, and watch the sun disappear below the horizon. As the last of the rays fall below the skyline, a nimbus-glow crescent slipping behind the trees, I lean over to kiss you. Deeply, passionately, our lips pressing together in what seems like an endless kiss. Your heart beats and your head explodes, spinning as we part. I grab your hand, pulling you up, dragging you away from our blanket. It's dusk, light is fading fast, causing shadows to leap as we dash through the grass. I lead you to the swings, setting you on one, playfully pushing you. You laugh as I push you higher, my hands on your hips with each swing. Suddenly I stop you, joking about pushing you over the top. You grab my shirt, pulling me over to kiss you again, your breath still short from laughter. I lift you up, grinning, and wrap the rope of the swing around your wri
Not Interested
I know that Royce and I have a messed up situation right now but here's the deal...     I'm not looking for any sugar-daddys. I don't want to date/go out/ fuck or meet up. I'm honestly not looking for anything other than some good friends on here. That's it...   So please stop trying to get me to do any of those things. I'm here for FRIENDS and you should respect the fact that I'm pregnant and dealing with a lot right now. They last thing I need is for some guy or girl to get attached/think there's more to our friendship than there is and someone getting hurt or pissed off along the way.   I'm not being rude and I'm not trying to hurt your feelings. I'm sure that a lot of you guys/gals are wonderful but I'm NOT looking for a relationship/fuck buddy. I know I'm a flirt and I love to joke about things or say rather innapropriate things at times but it's not to be taken too personally.     Thanks and with love,   VT :)
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***I finally see the ending...of this long,strange journey.The end is only as close as,the next decision I make.I see the end as clear as..I see the beginning;The beginning is now..The end is but one second ahead...And when I reach the end I findIt is only another beginning..Here and now, this minute..this a gift from the GodsI may not have another and so..I must be wise!The beginning must be about love....and if so then......the ending will also be about love....***
No Time For Words
To caress your body next to mine in ways I've only dreamed together in the moonlight My heart beats so I cannot speak To kiss your lips so soft and warm to taste of candy sweet exploring face forbidden till now my heart beats so I cannot speak The passion that we share tonight is greater than the sea the stars of above the love below my heart beats so I cannot speak Now years have come and years have gone since the first time you gave yourself to me and even now when we make love my heart beats so I cannot speak
Notice Me
Here's a story of a girl,Living in the lonely world,A hidden note,A secret crush,A little boy who talks too much.Well, I'm standing in the crowd,And when you smile I check you out,But you don't even know my name,Your too busy playing games,And I want you too know,If you lose your way,I won't let you go.If I cut my hair,If I change my clothes,Will you notice me?If I bite my lip,If i say hello,Will you notice me?What's it gonna take for you to seeI want you to notice me,I'll get you notice me.Got your head up in the clouds,Tell me when your comin down,I don't wanna sink your ship,It's not about the scolarship,And all the friends that follow you,Tell you things that just aren't true,I'm the girl you never see,I'm the one you really need,So don't you get me wrong,You better make your move,Before the moment's goneTell meI'm not like the rest,I don't care if you're the best,You see it, it's all the same to me ,You just be who you want to be,It's all the same to me,Ohhh don't get me wrong,You
[notions Of Circular Time (survey)]
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?Probably in front of my computer watching a show on the wholose.2. Who are you in love with?Hmm... odd question at this point in my life.I'm gonna go with "ass-meat girl".3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?Nope.4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?Yes. A box for a windup robot.5. When is the last time you went to the mall?... ... probably over 5 years?6. Are you wearing socks right now?I am, and I'm thinking about removing them since the Royals just lost 3 in a row.7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?No. My goodness. No.8. When was the last time you drove out of town?Probably some time this week... it is pretty easy to get there.9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?Nope.10. Are you hot?I'm a little warm, hence the lack of clothing.11. What was the last thing you had to drink?Water.12. What are you wearing right now?aaaaaw yeeeeeah~Novelty boxers. Jinxed socks.13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?I let the rain do it.14
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Notice This
Notice this I sit here thinking how sweet life really is How someone can whisper your name a thousand miles away and you hear it in your heart. I sit here thinking how crazy life really is  How someone can come into your life and fill you with so much love and fill your life up and open your heart. I sit here thinking how messed up life really is How someone can say a simple sintence  and make you wonder whats really in your heart. I sit here thinking how great life really is How someone can make you feel alive  and at same time make you want to cut out your heart. I sit here thinking how wonderful life really is How someone came into your life one day  and you cant think of them ever not being there cause they stole your heart. I sit here thinking how amazing life really is How someone can mean so much to you  and how they never know how much love for them is in your heart. I sit here thinking how blind life really is How someone can not see that they mean so much
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I wanna killwatch the blood spilltake another suicide pillGotta get my fillnot gonna chillthis is my thrillshould i write my willTrieng to go uphillBut I keep fallingFaceing life we're brawlingHow many times will I get knocked downI feel like staying downI'm out of water but still feel like i gonna drownMy heart has a permanent frownI'm hurtingMe and death are flirtingMy eyes can't stop squirtingWalking by mirrors my pain is avertingThese thoughts are alertingDaydreaming bout a murder spreeThe body count rises to 43My heart and mind can't agreeStabbin at your neck I scream 'YAHTZEE!"Does that make me crazyYou think i'm just lazyMy memory is hazyI spend too much time with painIt's like waiting for a trainWhen will this endStarting to become a trendThe anger wants to ascendWill it ever transcendWill it become a realityI'm faceing my own mortality
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Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one I still got the seed You said move on Where do I go I guess second best Is all I will know Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyes You're like an Indian summer In the middle of winter Like a hard candy With a surprise center How do I get better Once I've had the best You said there's Tons of fish in the water So the waters I will test He kissed my lips I taste your mouth He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into... You're the best And yes I do regret How I could let myself Let you go Now the lesson's learned I touched it I was burned Oh I think you should know Cau
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When the walls of your world crumble down   And the colors of your day start to fade away   And you feel more lost than you feel found   But none of that fucking mattered anyway   When the blood in your veins just flows with rage   You can feel it take over your every thought   And you try desperately to keep this animal caged   It drains the life out of you, and all you’ve got   You get so sick of feeling the same   You tear yourself apart looking for answers   That faceless coward without a name   I’m tired of this…   Fuck you, cancer.
Notice Me
Notice Me As the nights drag on the tears flood my eyes.  Am I but a ghost in everyones eyes? I dream of being a part of their world I long to be more than a speck in this world. The days drag by in hopes someone says hi The disappointment fills my eye for there is only goodbye Am I but invisible trapped within this life? Am I to go on as a nobody throughout life? How can I make them see how much this means to me? Can I forever live in a world where noone wants me? Can it be that I am not ment to be? Someday soon they will see Someday when I am gone they will Notice me.
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Her face burns and stings beneath his touch a raw, red palm print throbs agonizingly emblazoned across her ghostly cheek like a hideous strawberry birth mark, obscuring her fragile beauty   he grips her inkwell wrists, cruelly twisting until she gasps and sobs, fighting a losing battle to keep dipping her pen and pour blood and bone into the words that drip down alabaster thighs in tears intricately laced with ink   writing another horror story on her paper thin skin another calligraphy tragedy bruised tissue deep serving as both warning and reminder openly weeping wounds that never seem to heal keep her awake as she fingers them at night, picking at the scabs of her mistakes until they bleed   soon to pucker and form another pale scar eternal reminders of her shortcomings   awaiting the day maggots swarm and pick her corpse clean of only to erase every memory written on her flesh
Have you ever noticed...? Have you ever noticed that noone is as they seem? There is no Black and White but Billions of shades of grey. There are those who seem to be nice to get what they want, there are those who are to hide the pain inside. Have you ever noticed that noone notices? Noone sees the pain you feel when noone notices They do not care nor even share a moment of time,  they are too busy or too blind to see the hurt they cause. Have you ever noticed that people cry out for help in different ways. No two people express themselves in the same ways. Some yell, Some cry, some hurt themselves, Others do not notice the quiet ones until its too late. Have you ever noticed the ones hurting the most are the ones all alone? Locked away from the cruel world, the heartless millions, the endless pain. They hide in there homes with no family or friends, they wither away desperately seeking that one person who cares. Have you ever noticed how cruel people can be? Hatred
Not Just A Story
Descend down on this heart of mine I am open for discussion You will never see someone so open I will look into your eyes See what lies deeper than your mind I know what want He will come to you WIth passion burning he carries a torch for you He knows when you are calling He heres the cries of a child when you are wanting Look in my eyes you will see this passion You will see the torch that burns hot I have this special gift To show you the way Hold my hand and I will show you the man That was on a cross His body punctured Pain searing through his veins He gave everything So you could be human His mother watched as they beat her little boy They tried to crush him from existance He was a man to whom all want a relationship His name has stood the test of time His memory is clearly more than mine His rise to glory Was to show you he was more than a story
Not Just A Dream
I wake in a sweat, still realing from passion, and desire. The feel of your hand, still linger on my skin. The feel of your breath on my inner thigh, still burns and tingles. The sounds of your moans, and soft words of love still echo in my mind. My body still trembling, and my mind still racing. Afraid to look, afraid it was just a dream closing my eyes, feeling the space with my hands as tho blind. Trembling at the fear, that it was yet another dream. Remembering the caress starting with my inner thigh. Feeling the light touch of your fingers across my womanly center. The light touch of your lips around the nipples as you squeeze ever so lightly on my breasts The feeling of our bodies becoming as one, as your man hood fills me. Again the passion over whelms me with out a touch from your hand With just the thoughts of you, I am satisfied, and yearning. As my hand reaches out, to a empty space. My heart sinks, for it was just a dre
Not Just A Dream Anymore...
going through a divorce is hell... the hate, the fights, the depression... it all sucks. the worst feeling is the one in your heart that tells you you'll never love again. i had that feeling... until i met him. the day i met tommy is the day my entire life changed. i had a new look on life.... on love... on everything. i never thought a man like this existed on this earth until i met him. kind, caring, handsome, funny... you would think that there would be a dark side to him... nope. at least not that i've found. and even if there is... it doesn't matter... everyone has them. it's what makes us human. i love him more than anything in the world... and now.... in 6 days... i am going down to see him... and spend 2 glorious weeks with him. and when i come back... he's coming with me to stay. soon... very soon. i love you tommy... with all my heart and soul. it won't be long now... and we will be together.
Not Just Great Lips... I Gots Me A Brain Too
Not Just A Bunch Of Colored Lines
Note: This is one of my RoseyRants in article style with no edits or proofing, so if you find any errors or grammar issues,well maybe because its a RANT! Why do people decorate their bodies, and why is bod-mod so popular now? I've been asked many times why I have tattoos and the answer for me is simple, "I love body art; it reflects an aspect of who I am, represents my inner personality, my interests, life goals, life philosophy." Although, I don't have an extreme collection like some, I take a premeditated strategic approach on what I put on my body. I make sure each tattoo has purpose and a meaning. Some prefer to have a variety of drawings that mean something to them and that's their preference. Tattoo's aren't a bad thing, they have been around for centuries and in certain areas are used for identifying people of different cultures. I think tattoos are very personal. I know a lot of people who really like them and think that they are a piece of art or a symbol that has a
Not Just A Toy
I am not Just a toy, I have feelings, and emotions All they are to you is a toy You play with them as you would a chess piece Picking at them when you want With the moves you know how to use Knowing that I am easily broken But I can not give in Not to your will I won't, not again Fighting for the one thing that I have the say over I don't want to have to pick up anymore pieces There are already enough there Still not enough courage to repair You don't want me.... This I know But I am conveinence Just there for the takeing You know I am weak And I can't say No But I can not give in Not to your will I won't Toy with me if you must... But I am not going to give in I am set on this I am not going to be tossed to the side once again I have a heart..... A heart which is still woven upon By words that won't go away By memories that can't be errassed Feelings that are unexplainable Why must you look at me with those eyes The ones that make it ha
Not Just My Boyfriend
Not Just My Boyfriend You mean more to me now more thatn ever before, You're not just my boyfriend, You're my bestfriend and more. You're a person i rely on, When in need of a friend, You'll help me through troubles, Staying with me through the end. We've trusted in one another, With our secrets and our fears, We've shared kisses and quarrels, We've shared laughter and tears/ What i'm trying to tell you, I've told you before, You're not just my boyfriend, You're my bestfriend and more.
Not Just For Smilin...
Using your mouth Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mouth. You are incredibly sensual, a great kisser and a seductive lover. You drive all of your partners crazy with your mouth. Take this quiz at
Not Just Words
The words "I Love You' should not be said Just to lead someone to bed Nor should they be forthcoming Just because you yourself are cumming Do not shout these words I say Just to anyone who'll pass your way These words mean more then you may think Just don't spout then 'cause of drink Heed my warning, I do pray Just think what you give away You give your life to protect Just a reminder I project ©Dark
Not Just Fluff
Don’t bother me with this syrupy poetic stuff Or share with me all the times you’ve loved, just enough I see through all the whimsical carefree ploys To turn charismatic hardened men into “girly boys” I know you your purpose and I’m not amused at it You infiltrate my soul and erase the core of it So take your stanzas and verses, I’ve had enough I can’t stand it any longer, leave with all the fluff.
Not Just A Number
I know I have many people on my friends list I have never even said hi to. I'm sorry :( I don't ever want people to think they are just a number on my list. And I don't want to feel that way either. I wish I had the time to talk to everyone. But anyone who says hi I will talk to you. :) There are some of you I talk to every day :). I don't know what I would do without you. You make me feel special. You help me stay sane... or close to it. :). I wish I had the chance to know you away from the computer. Of course then I would be But I am so lucky to have the friends I talk to here on CT. I almost left a few times for good... but that would have been a mistake because I would have lost some of you. I am glad I am not just a number on your friends list :)
Not Just A Symbol
Not Just Words
There not just words you know Written down on a page They speak also of feelings That were felt through the age You can make what you want of it But you set the stage Take a look around you now Tell me what you see Can you beleive a man died for us Used love as his key And all he had asked then Was"Love just like me" We should hang our heads down Be drowned in our shame Cause a man died for nothing They've forgotten his name What do you say when your through And you try to explain Well he said so long ago There was peace to be found But they laughed in his face And they nailed him down Will someone forgive us When were laid in the ground? You were a fool to think That you could change them You should have saw it Way back then Now your cross is nothing more Then a symbol of a dream Do you sometimes wonder If you could of done a little better Performed another miricle or two Do you sometimes wonder That it might of just been vanity Or was it just becaus
Not Just Online
Ok,here i go again speaking my mind very frankly..Well,As much as I am fighting these online predators.I have a very good point to bring up as it has just been brought to my attentiuon in a very,very harsh real way. These sexual offenders are not only on our streets,but they sometimes live right in our own damn houses.They prey on those weak to them.Ones who respect them as adults when if they only knew that in reality they are no more then just a damn coward in disguise as a man.I wish that for once these men would pick on a woman,not just any woman but a woman who isnt afraid to say no.And one who isnt afraid to beat thier asses.but no,they pick on innocent lil children who deserve a happy life.These children also should be able to depend on thier moms for help,but some have to deal with moms who cant help them because they are only worried about themselves.I will promise all,i will definitely get even with this one particular man .He messed with the wrong girl this time.And he will
Not Just Fucking
lol ice cream and brownies for dinner memm mmm take the headache away lol how silly ... im still fucking tired as hell tho
Not Just For The Ladies
I work my ass off and the best thing for me to do is go to the spa and relax! I like to drink the water with the cucumbers and orange peels in it. I like to sit in the juccizzi and let my muscles melt down. Then its time for a seriuos theraputic massage and facial. I like to be pampered and get a pedicure too. My skin feels soo soft and smooth. I walk around in my bath robe and chill out by the pool. Take a quick dip and have everyone look at my body art! Then I like to go into the sauna and sweat all my toxins out. I think Im like the only guy at the spa but I ont mind I get the whole place to myself! In the sauna I like to stretch my muscles and drop a few pounds so I weigh myself afterward to see if Ive lost some water. By this time its Im ready for a snack. some delicious antioxidant mixed berries and a shot of wheat grass and grapefruit wedges. Then its of to meditation and deep breathing excercise. I like to imagine that Im high up in the sierras hiking in the mountains with th
Not Just A Picture
For those who are in or around So. Cal. I say it's time to kick up some dust and am always happy to meet new friends, Friday night Angels Sport Bar/Gentelmans Club in Corona, stop chasing virtual drinks and come party, check it out, drop my screen name at the door and you'll get half off your cover on the Gentelsmans side. Find me and intro yourself and see what HAPPY HOUR IS ALL ABOUT!!! WHO'S UP FOR PARTYING!!!
Not Just About Moms Really
I'm invisible. It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response,the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I'm on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I'm thinking, "Can't you see I'm on the phone?"Obviously not. No one can see if I'm on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. I'm invisible. Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more: Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this? Some days I'm not a pair of hands; I'm not even a human being. I'm a clock to ask, "What time is it?" I'm a satellite guide to answer, "What number is the Disney Channel?" I'm a car to order, "Right around 5:30, please." I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes that studied history and the mind that graduated summa cum laude -but now they had disappeared into the peanut butter, never
Not Just For The Dead.
LOL....I can't believe that I got downrated for making a comment about everyones greatest guitar god Dimebag Darrell. Its time to face facts people: The only reason he gets so much credit anymore is because he's fucking dead. The same rule applies to Randy Rhoads and Kurt Cobain as well. All three were marginally talented guitar players in popular bands at their time. Hell, Kurt Cobain couldnt even tune a guitar but I keep seeing people claiming he was the greatest songwriter ever. Randy Rhoads did nothing that Yngwie Malmsteen and Eddie Van Halen didnt do years before. Dimebag didnt do shit that Alex Skolnick and Kirk Hammett and Dave Mustaine did before Pantera decided they sucked as a glam band and started copying Metallica. So, if this is gonna be the case, then expect all you sheep to worship my scrawny pale ass when I die because I can play guitar just as good ,if not better than those 3. Go listen to some Clapton,Hendrix,Santana,Satriani,Eric Johnson and
Not Just Hearing....but Listening Well.
Learning to really listen to another human being - beyond just his or her words - is critical to good communication. Valuable exchanges between human beings can occur only when each listens carefully to the other and tries sincerely to understand the other person's meaning. Much anger and frustration with others could be avoided if we truly understood one another. Constant thoughts running through our minds is a form of talking, and we can't listen to another (including our Higher Power) if we are still talking. Do I really listen? By trying to understand another, let me learn something about myself.
Not Just A Dream
You make me melt Making my heart explode My eyes are stucked on you Enchanted by your moves Your hair frames you face Hiding your cat-like eyes Glancing quietly to the world Seeing everything as a dream Lips are talking to me Making soft, sweet words Forming music notes inside my ears That make my mind turn over The touch by your body Causing my skin to pimple Shivers cut through my anatomy Blood is stilled, paralyzing me Then you walk away My eyes follow your gliding Seeing you slowly fade away Disappearing in magic smog I follow you, try to find you But no matter where I go Youre gone, left me behind Waking me up in my bed It was a dream, but not just a dream You were here, I know for sure Everything was real, your touch, smell I will find you, I search for love
Not Just Comments Count!
One more thing the contest winner will be decided by a combination of comments received, the picture's rating and my own personal taste I will view the comments as they come in and see who thinks what picture is the best after all that is what this contest is about to me the sexiest and best salute, not who can bomb best!
Not "just A Mom"
Not "Just a Mom" A woman named Emily renewing her driver's license at the County Clerk's office was asked by the woman recorder to state her occupation. She hesitated, uncertain how to classify herself. "What I mean is," explained the recorder, "do you have a job, or are you just a... "Of course I have a job," snapped Emily. "I'm a mother." "We don't list 'mother' as an occupation... 'housewife' covers it," said the recorder emphatically. I forgot all about her story until one day I found myself in the same situation, this time at our own Town Hall. The Clerk was obviously a career woman, poised, efficient, and possessed of a high sounding title like, "Official Interrogator" or "Town Registrar." "What is your occupation?" she probed. What made me say it, I do not know... The words simply popped out. "I'm a Research Associate in the field of Child Development and Human Relations." The clerk paused, ballpoint pen frozen in midair, and looked up as though she
Not Just Yet....
Well I had my talk with the "bf".... Didn't go quite as I had planned but we didn't fight! Instead of leaving sunday I will be leaving next saturday. A 6 day delay but I can live with that since he's gonna drive me most of the way there to meet my aunt. I'm kinda sad because I was looking forward to spending Mothers day with my family but I will survive. He pulled the crying card so I didn't exactly break up with him but I think it was enough to deal with me leaving and I will break the ties later when he isn't so emotional. But it WILL be done. Hey but the bad news.... YOU ALL HAVE TO DEAL WITH ME FOR 6 MORE DAYS! *evil laff*
Not Just For Ladies With Parrots (hehehehehe)
Not just for Ladies with Parrots (hehehehehe) A guy is browsing in a pet shop and sees a parrot sitting on a little perch. It doesn't have any feet or legs. The guy says aloud, 'Jeesh, I wonder what happened to this parrot?' The parrot says, 'I was born this way. I'm a defective parrot. ' 'Holy crap,' the guy replies. 'You actually understood and answered me!' 'I got every word,' says the parrot. 'I happen to be a highly intelligent thoroughly educated bird. ' 'Oh yeah?' the guy asks, 'Then answer this -- how do you hang onto your perch without any feet?' 'Well,' the parrot says, 'this is very embarrassing but since you asked, I wrap my weenie around this wooden bar like a little hook. You can't see it because of my feathers. ' 'Wow,' says the guy. 'You really can understand and speak English can't you?' 'Actually, I speak both Spanish and English, and I can converse with reasonable competence on almost any topic: po
Not Just Hot
My breath fades as if taken away, then, deepens in response; heart pounding, begging relief, echos as drums beating in my ears. My eyes, unblinking, memorizing, ever detail a highlight. My mouth dry as desert sand, my voice uncontrollable, a stammer. Desire rules my thoughts, I imagine a scene, private, then suddenly, it is gone. It was the ring, the ring that untied my tongue, no longer a fear of stammering, I return to normal, going my way with only a lingering thought; She was not just hot, She was Stutter Hot!
Not Just A Football Fan :p
I have noticed since my Football pool on here has ended, and football season is almost over alot of you guys feel like we have nothing to talk about now.. heheh I'm more than just a football fan, and hey, only 6 weeks til Twins Spring Training. :p Luff you guys
Not Just A Keepsake
Title:Not Just A Keepsake Written 5/30/01 My love's inside a little box It won't come out at all The real me hides out like a fox No matter how you call I can sense you yearn for me You think me paradigm My heart the lock, your love the key In your world sublime I'm watching you and all your moves Learning all your flaws My excellence to you I will prove Escaping through your claws In the dark I'll lie awake Listening for your breath To shallow out so I can make Freedom's grandest theft When you awake and see me gone Your fury will take flight At the echoes of my song Drifting on twilight
Not Just Me
Not just meI was once just mesad and alone staring out the windowwishing to find someone like youthen one day you walked in and itsbeen bliss ever sinceHaving met you has ment so much You openedmy heart to the ways of loveYou showed me a side of you no one else eversees that is compassionate I can't wait to spend my life with youYou are my life my lovemy heart my soulits no longer you its no longer menow its us for eternity
Not Just Words: And Me.
Nothing you could do or say..will ever make me feel a hint of desire..oh the lovely words..and the gentle moans steady building louder..has no effect upon me..use that on a lesser man..for i am not tempted..cry..howl..and do as you may..i have been this way..for a very long mind is of a care less nature..what is skin to me..but dust..we all fade and die..vanity is a cruel thing..and i will not be held a vanity's mirror..allow your image to be cast in chains..and allow me freedom..i am a lover of art..not a slave to it..i see beauty in its physical..of mental..i care for few..the world is cold..and so am will get no mercy here..lean on anothers ear..for i see no lines..i see lips..wide hips..bedroom eyes..tan tights..not a me..this is my fact to could be like that of death in appearance..and truely..i would not mind..ive seen worst..and you can be as that of a living goddess..and still ive seen better..not
Not Just Another Love Song...
I want to SCREAM at the top of my lungs... how much I hate him for what he did and does...  until it's just a faint, raspy whisper that I have left... and cry ceaselessly.. until I have nothing in me to feel I want to pummel my fists into a pile of bricks.. until they come up bloody and the clay has crumbled at my feet I want to know all the things that I do not even come close to already knowing.. but I am afraid of the answers.. knowing it will crumble me like the clay... I want to tell you why I hate him for what he did and does... I want to tell you why you shouldn't just hurt a girl like me... I want to tell you.... but I won't! Because I don't want to hurt him... sick huh? Love, .... me
Not Just A Dream
Not Just a Dream   I am sitting here, my head in the clouds, I dream of you and my heart pounds so loud, Yes, I will see you again with no doubt.   My priorities used to be all jacked, But thanks to you, I’m getting back on track, I hope that one day I can help you back.   The future is not clear, certainly untold, Until we meet, my bed will remain cold, We’ll be as one again, I may be bold.   Love, hope, giving me strength and desire, Thoughts of you fuels my everlasting fire, I always want you, for that I aspire.   I always will love you like no other, Please, deny the rest one after another, My love is so true and it will smother.   I feel that I need to be this selfish, Everything about you, us, I cherish, And without you I would surely perish.   Love getting turned around with you in town, We’ll be making turns, going round and round, Always I smile even though sometimes you frown.   You begin to tap your nose as you think, Making s
Not Just A Pretty Face
So tired of all these people (guys and girls alike) who don't appreciate a truly good woman... They see a pretty face and smile and a body that makes them drool, and they never stop to think or realize that underneath that surface image there exists a person who has feelings and emotions... a person who is real and true and not hiding behind a facade like the rest of the world. I find my looks to be a gift... not to be exploited as though I were just another Whore or Slut or Tramp or whatver else yu feel the need to think of me. I am not here to be admired or wanted for my looks... If someone can't accept me for who I am and is only out there looking for their next lay, they are definitely looking in the wrong place!!! So if all yu see is a pretty face and it gets yur little dick hard or yur pussy wet... Get to stepp'n and kick rocks!!
Not Just Another Day
Yesterday was not one of my best days but I did make a couple, totallying in two, intros to my vlog. I'm not gonna blow sunshine where the sun don't shine for you. I am still worried, very much so, about my quality of giving a good show. I have seen myself too bad for words for more than a few years. In high school I didn't really give any care to how I was veiwed. I even peroxided my hair. Bad on the hair but it was me making a statement. I hung out around the boozers, druggies, and hard core metal fanatics. I liked soft heavy metal, the hair bands. I did drink ocassionally, not when ever I found some. I never got really soused and stripped for everyone. I did not do drugs. I have only smoked merry jo wanna three times in my life and after the last time I sworn it off. Never again. I think it was laced. I talked with someone the last two nights that is one of my other conquests. I am not hoping for undieing love. Just maybe acceptance. I have noticed that alot of people have mood swi
Not Knowing...
I don't expect you soon to love me, Nor are my own feelings clear. Passion is the ornate entrance To a world we crave and fear. We cannot know where this will take us, Nor whether we will ride for long, But pleasure is the overture That flows into the larger song. So come with me with open mind And heart, and we the time will prove With laughter and with joy unfettered, And, perhaps, someday with love.
Not Knowing
I hate not knowing what is to become of my life Not knowing if I will make it in this world alone Not knowing who to trust and who are my true friends I try and not worry about such things I try to keep joy, faith, peace and love in my heart I try to make people around me happy and show them that I truly do care I pray for my own peace and for the pain in my heart to leave I know it will in time, this is my faith that gets me through the day And the love and joy that my soul longs for
Not Knowing What Im Doing
i was told to check this site out...omg idont know how to do everything
Not Knowing What To Do Please Help
hey everyone i am really not sure what to do anymore would really like some advice on this please...i have been living with my ex and his family for the last month and a half and they tell me the other day i had 3 weeks to get out well then they changed and i have a week with no money no nothing...i am so scared and don't know what to do please write back on this much love kristy
Not Kisses For Me
Am i that ugly nobody will kiss me even under some mistletoe?
Not Knowing....confusion,,
Well here I am postin first blog for here lets see how I do for it been a while since I really had a chance to sit down and just write and let it out. Well the one thing that seems to plaque me now is just thinking about things with me, my life, and things involved with me or my life. I try and try so hard to let those around me know about me and my life, so they can understand and also so maybe they can be a part of whatever it is they may be apart of. But then I go ahead and get my head all in a fog and well things were left unsaid or undiscussed and now things are weird and the worst part is I believe that I made some one upset or confused about me and who I am. That not a good thing, even after I tried so hard. To make matters worse certain things go with this and well these things can make one feel like crap or like like something has been ruined. I know alot of this dont make sense but I am needing to get this out and be able to look at it later to try and make the sense I need o
Not Knowing What You Want
iam tire of people not knowing what they want it really pisses me off i really hate when people go back with there exs then bitch abount the way they treat them or that they been dump so easily by them or that they been hit lied or cheated on why you think we called them a ex useily means they did something bad to you to be called that and what makes me sick is when you are nice to them they pass you by like your just there to make them feel better people dont no what they want i lost a great friend last night the fucker was stupid i known him for about as long as high school was friends i try to help him the best i could get him away from his parents becuse they treated him like shit and his gf cheated on him so i thought we could go out to the bar or something witch was a bad thing to do and was not thinking clearly for i have been drinking already haha so ya anyways here she was at the bar that same night and everything was fine tell he seen her they started yelling and
Not Kat Von D
Jesse James' alleged mistress, Michelle "Bombshell" McGee, has lots of tattoos. Kat Von D is a famous Hollywood tattoo artist. Paps put two and two together and figured Kat must have done Bombshell's tattoos, right? Not exactly. In fact, the L.A. Ink star says she's never even met the woman who claims to have had an affair with Sandra Bullock's hubby. What's more, she's never even heard of this skank lady. "I have no idea who she is," said Kat outside West Hollywood's BOA Steakhouse Thursday night.  Which kind of makes the follow-up question by the paps—"Did you do any of her tats?"—a little unnecessary, but she politely responded nonetheless. "Hell no!" Kat answered with a smile before driving off. And so the search for the person behind Bombshell's body art continues. Or not.  
Not Knowing It Would Appear
Just reading my often angry Blogs here and not knowing, it would appear that this guy is crazy. The appearance maybe that, but you never knew me. All sorts of people and agencies at both state and federal levels are involved regarding me and my former wife. Does any of this ever end for me. Yes, upon my death it all comes to an end. I have been dead since January 14, 2009 and yet I am here to key this and do my daily things At the moment death is not a fear for me as it has not. My greatest fear is that I may make decision now or soon with far reaching consequences. The future is not given to me but at times I do see a little of it. Often it is not clear to me what I did look at but looking backward it makes all the sense. Also, I took it the right way. Often I am angry and sad. At other times I at peace with myself and the Universe. People not fully understanding where I have been and am at right now will never get their judgement right. It will always be off. Blessed are those who k
Not Kool, Alright Or Anything
this is for all the fuckers out there who think its kool or because your tough to hit a woman. if you cock suckers think you're so tough and kool because you hit women then ive got a challenge for you. why dont you step in the ring with an mma (mixed martial arts) fighter and get your ass handed to you by one of them. its not kool and its sure as hell shows weak you really are. to pick on a woman goes against every bone in my body and then some. to see pix of women who have been hit makes me sick to my stomach cause a boy trys to act like a tough man. you're not a man when you lay hands on a female. you're a man by not hitting them regardless of what they do to piss you off. ive been hit twice by my ex and i showed that i was the bigger person by not hitting her. my mother used to work for a prison so i know how to defend myself so dont go thinking that im weak. the third time my ex tried to hit me i put her in a restraining arm bar just like a cop would have done and i was going to ca
Not Long
I loved you for a little I loved you not for long Our love was only brief Like the opening to a song The time was not lasting For it only seemed a day Then it all disappeared Like the wind swept it away Our love was simply shattered I guess it was a wrenching twist of fate So now it seems that life has handed us another lesson to take By Me
Not 100% Like Most Of Ya Lol
table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'> You scored as Chains/Handcuffs. Your turn on is handcuffs and chains. You like being cuffed/chained to the bed, or cuffing/chaining your partner down. You love the pure ectasy of being in complete control... or letting someone else have complete control over you. Sex isn't sex without control.Chains/Handcuffs92%Bondage83%Biting83%Whips67%Blood33%Blind Folds33%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with
Not Long To Go
At 3.30pm UK Time I go and meet Donald Howill who is the Head of Animation at Edinburgh College of Art, I am really excited as I am going to ask him if it would be possible to get help from the college and the animation students in putting togther some short trailers for the immortal ego project, can you keep your fingers and toes crossed for me so he says yes. Edinburgh
Not Lost But Confused
jain said it wright she said she wish the world would blow up...i kinda know where she is coming from now thankgiving was a train one know how to act and i dont mean the kids and to defend my religion once again in a corner why the older ones told me i was going to hell it got ruff for a wile...and after thay started on me becouse im fater then them...i wish xmus would not com it will be the same thang again i pray fore my famly all the time that thay will love me for who i am my mom told me i was a mastake and im the reasion my dad left im thanking about leving so thay dont have to worry about me no more so i gess thay win im putting my tell between my legs and walking away if it keeps on thay call themself christions if thay are that i wont no part of itthy rilly need to grow up and thay say i cant get a girfriend then get merryed...and if i do thay wont no part of it thy might as well take me out back and shot me and get it over with..
Not Like Me To Flirt...
Was just telling this lassie I would do her in a second... then it hit me I should of said... an hour!! I love to love!!! Rock me baby!!!!
Not Long Ago
Not long ago and far away, Santa was getting ready for his annual trip...but there were problems everywhere. Four of his elves got sick, and the trainee elves did not produce the toys as fast as the regular ones so Santa was beginning to feel the pressure of being behind schedule. Then Mrs. Claus told Santa that her Mom was coming to visit. This stressed Santa even more. When he went to harness the reindeer, he found that three of them were about to give birth and two had jumped the fence and were out, heaven knows where to. More Stress! Then when he began to load the sleigh, one of the boards cracked and the toy bag fell to the ground and scattered the toys. Totally frustrated, Santa went into the house for a cup of coffee and a shot of whiskey. When he went to the cupboard, he found the elves had hit the liquor and there was nothing to drink. In his frustration, he dropped the coffee pot and it broke into hundreds of little pieces all over the kitchen floor. He w
Not Listening
Not Listening When you talk to me All i want to do is stick My fingers in my ears and yell, "NOT LISTENING!" I know all you do is tell me sugar coated lies - Can't you take a hint? This is me ignoring you, Not Listening. Why don't you just shut that big mouth of yours? I'm tired of hearing it. Just leave me alone 'Cause I'm not listening This is your last warning Because I will no longer waste my precious time to tell you, "Shut your mouth and back away." I'm not listening to your lousy excuses anymore!
Not Letting Go...
I met someone recently. He is a very nice guy, but he holds onto so many bad memories. I know it's difficult, but I know, too, that being negative can hurt ones friendship/relationships. No one wants to be around a person who is weak and cannot make a move to a positive level and strive to be on that path. I am there for him, I listen to him. But at one point in time, not long ago, I tried getting in touch with this friend to talk...but this time it was I who had something to say, and needed someone there for me....I could not reach him.. I felt so down... Then one day he calls me and said that I was harrassing him. That was it. Harrassing him because I wanted to talk to him about my problem. I had no idea where the harrassing came from. To top it off...he tells me, "do you think i would share my problem(s) with anyone? who would give a F**K??" I said, "i care. I was there and listening. He tells me about his problem on several occasion...the same one...and I am there.
Not Like Anyone Will Read This
But my fat ass is goin to get quiznos. I will be back not that anyone will notice I am gone. (Insert EEYORE complex here)
Not Leaving Myspace, But...
I have been blogging on MySpace for a while now, almost a year and I don't care for them too much.  I mean, it was okay until I moved to Kubuntu, but since the move the advanced editor hasn't been available.  On top of that, it's pretty darn hard to find previous posts I made.  It's definitely a basic service that's more or less a piece of crap.But it has everything from the start of my Satanic journey.  On top of that, I do have people who have subscribed to my inane drivel.I also thought about leaving WritingUp, where they say you can make money blogging.  First off, I haven't made squat.  Second off, they don't allow center commands, nor do they let you embed a video in the blog entry.But I have readers on that one too.Then we come to my other two copies, one on Blogger, the other on WordPress.  I don't believe I have any readers on either of those, since nobody seems to comment on my posts there.  In addition, the WordPress frequently messes up the formatting of my blog.So I am con
Not Leaving .. Just Taking A Nap From The Tap
Hello all my wonderful Friends .. I'm popping in to let you all know where I've been .. and where i'm going .. lets start with where I've been .. As most of you know I took a few days and went back home to see my family this past weekend and it was wonderful .. and it kinda kicked me into High gear in my mood and all that fun stuff .. Im finally feelling better .. well all around .. Thank goodness.. the winter blahs .. I hate to label myself as "Depressed" but . sometimes there are a lack of words and one must grasp at the word they can .. I guess.. So .. yes im working on my moods.. I'm still Seizure free .. still no growth in the tumors .. so all is well on the medical front .. Now... For the Here and Now .. I adore all of my friends that i've met from both Yahoo and found here .. and those I've made here .. You've become parts of my life .. You've brought smiles , laughter and many a nites have gone so much better thanks to you .. and for that Im thankful But .. For t
Not Long Now
Not Long Til Contest Starts!!!
Not Leaving
too all my friends, i finally got my account fixed, while i was trying to fix it my computer crashed and wiped my harddrive clean. now its all fixed and working better than ever so ive decided to stay on here.
Not Leaving Yet
Because of the feed back from my earlier blog I will stay. But that can change at anytime. Thank You All Cathy
Not Long To Go
nearly there!
Not Looking Forard To...
"Black Friday" aka day after Thanksgiving. JCPenney opens at 4AM this year. I hope I get 1st shift so I can i get the fuck out of there before noon. They use to open at 5 or 5:30 but this year its 4am. I know a few years down the road they will open at midnight & I hope that im not there to deal with it. Let me tell you if I wasnt working that morning I sure as hell wouldnt be with everyone else. I would still be in bed sleeping. I hate this time of year, I wish I could just skip it all & get into the new year.
Not Looking Good
Just figured I'd give ya'll and update. Got an e-mail from my Uncle Donald this morning concerning my Uncle Michel....."They stopped his special antibiotics over the weekend because his hemoglobin was 60 (in a normally healthy person they should be 12-15), his platelets 18 (normal healthy is 150 to 450 and below 20 is considered life threatening), and his White Blood Cell Count was 1,97. Got 2 days of Albumin and 4 units of blood last night. Should have results of cultures back today, but they have also found an infection in his blood. Pain is getting worse, he is taking Oxy every 3 hrs and this morning they gave him morphine. We have started discussing that this may be time to go home. Terry (a very old and dear friend of theirs) surprised us on Saturday and Michel told him it was the end and most likely he would not see him again."My Aunt is planning on going up there tomorrow morning and will keep my mom informed. I will let you know more as I do but please, at this point, just pray
Not Leaving The Site-
too addicted (apparently for real) to do that at the moment. But image and blog rating seem badly damaged, so heading over to do other things (work, Wikipedia, learning the new version of LilyPond, etc.) for awhile. (A brief while- probably not even a day.) (Erm, ok, blog rates are not down. Thank you :) )
Not Listening To Doctor = Bad Cristi! :)
I guess I should have listened to my doctor! I tried to lay in bed today but couldn't stand it any more. I have done some laundry. Then, the laundry was not folding itself so I had to hold it which then caused my neck to hurt again. I guess that was idiotic on my part? I just can't sit still for very long. So now my neck is in pain. We are having friends over for dinner. Peter is making a yummy dinner. Steak with melted blue cheese on top with twice baked potato's and green beans. Henry helped Peter out today with the cabinets in the garage so I wanted to have them over for dinner to thank him. I would love, love, love to have a glass of pinot nior with my dinner but it says no alcohol with my meds I am on. So I guess I need to be a good girl. Anthony started driving school today. He has it this weekend and next for the education part of it and then he has to do 4 driving lessons before getting his driver's permit. He is excited. I will not be excited about the
~not Looking Forward To This Even Though My Tells Me No~
~My ex called me the other night & asked if he could see our son on Halloween. We live a good hour apart. So he suggested that I bring our son down there so when he gets off work our son can go trick or treating with my step son as well. (fyi i still see my step kids on a reg basis they are both 13). I really didnt want to but I didnt want to deprive my son of seeing his dad or brother. i asked my son if he wanted to and he said yes. Then my step son asked if we (his brother and i) stay over at his daddys house. So now Im locked in and will be under the same roof as the man i was married to for 7 yrs for the first time in 4 yrs. my ex atleast lives with a common friend of ours brad and he is chill so im cool. But i dont know why it just feels off. but oh well i guess well just see how it goes.... i just cant stomach my ex at all. i hope everyone else has an awesome halloween! ttys ~me~
Not Listening
Have you ever wanted to scream out everything inside you felt? To take a pen and let your heart bleed into your ink, and upon the paper? It rips you apart inside, wanting, and needing to be said, needing to be let out... I have this feeling inside, I feel the need to scream and let everything out. Where do I begin though? Where does it end? Sadly I don't believe it will ever end. This feeling comes, and goes, each and everyday. Taking it's way inside and conjuring up past memories, or even things of tomorrow we worry about. It plays inside hour after hour eating at the mind, atleast once an hour something will jump about inside, and you want to let it out, but you know if you do more will come. Is it worth the stress? Is it worth crying over? Is it worth feeling anything over? Obviously there are feelings if it's making you feel this way to begin with, maybe not to others, but still it plays apart inside of you. It makes you tick with anxiety, pulsing truth reverbing in the ears, angst
Not Looking
i am done done with it all there's no love here that is great or small why didn't i see it why didn't i try why do i want to give up and let my heart die turn black as stone cold as ice why can't i do it the change would be nice i am hurting inside with so much anger and pain but there's no one to blame for it's all my shame i want it to end the hurting to stop but there's no way i can help it no way to make it stop i want it to stop it's hurting me so why can't i just let it all go? there's no love here for me so i say it's over it's done i can take no more i am done looking for the one thing my heart longed for
Not Leaving!
Because of a medical circumstance beyond my control, my family has decided to PREVENT me from going with them today. I will be home. &I%^$&(*%(*&%(*&%&*(%*&(
Not Like You
A new poem I like to call "Not Like You" I am not like you. The weight of my world is borne unto my shoulders alone. No more will I deny my nature. No more will I lie to my ideals. No more will I pretend to be all that which is not meant for me. I am not like you. The notion of “happiness” is a foreign thought to me. A state of mind I have been banished from, but I gladly reject such a selfish practice. I exist merely for the sake of existence. I am not like you, I have come to terms with that. It has freed me from the bonds that have restrained my spirit. I live to experience. As experience begets knowledge. And knowledge begets wisdom. Separating the dimensions of body and mind; Slowly dissolving my unneeded humanity. Outside the walls of normalcy. It is here where I am at peace. I am not like you. For my lips are parched of a thirst that cannot be quenched.
Not Likely To
Not likely to post a real pix as I am not what most would call even slightly worth lookin at. Boots will do as he is at least cute and I need something like that so that people will at least stop and look at what I have here. I am truely lost here but much more of an ABAOW at heart that will slow me down a whole lot. I am also not much of the type to comment as I make a very big fool of myself when I do that. Smiles and such will start to blog more as time goes on.
Not Listening
Not Likely
In my sociology class, we were instructed to write down answers to some questions the teacher was asking. "Next question," announced the instructor. "How would you like to be seen by the opposite sex?" I was thinking about my answer when the young woman next to me turned and asked, "How do you spell 'intellectual?'"
Not Leaving Fubar!
Okay well... The Grand Jury decided not to indite (sp?) the bastard who raped me.. because of the witness statements that were taken. It pisses me off and hurt me to NO end. I have been very emotional. I feel a tad bit better because even though my case isnt going to court.. his life is forever ruined based on the fact he was arrested on sexual assault charges. He was extradited here to texas, so if he had a job, he doesnt anymore. and it will be next to impossible for him to find another decent job ever again. So I'm Back.. reposting my pictures.. so help me out by rating me again and leaving comments!
Not Leaving
not leaving fubar now for while u want me leave me mess or im me on yahoo. neoserenity08 or wiccan_rain76 love u all.
Not Like This
POE: you are sexy how can a single brother get your number and call and get to know you more Not like this.
Not Leaving Yet
Not Looking For Pitty
I was born in 1966 in Dallas, Texas. From the start I was abuse by my father for about 7 years til I moved to Maine with my mother. In between grades 4-6 I was raped 3 times by guys. From 7-12 I was picked on for the most part of it. I really didnt have friends or even a close friend. After a year of messing around with a dead end job I joined the army. I did 7 1/2 years total. In 1990 I got married and have 2 wonderful boys. I was married for about 10 years she wasnt so I gave up after trying to make it workout. All me ex's cheated on me. With all the stuff I went through and my mother being sick I have been stressed and depressed for many years, I dare not say how many cause its too much. I have always been kicked down in life ALWAYS. That doesnt seen to change. If theres anything esle you like to know just ask me please. I'm very honest and open, I'm not affraid to answer any question weather big or small, unpersonal or personal. Thank You for taking the time to read this blog.
**not Lyrics** What Music Means To Me 4/30/2011
WHAT MUSIC MEANS TO ME I was reading a magazine (I totally forget which one) not to long ago and there was an article with the title of “What does music mean to you?” My thoughts raced. Music means a lot to me and I decided to blog about it.  What does music mean to me?For some people, music is just something they listen to, something that is just there or something that helps pass the time. For me music goes far beyond that.I blame this mostly on my stepfather as he was in bands and got me hooked on the sound of live music. My mom has told me countless stories about me as a baby. There were countless nights where I wouldn’t sleep and would instead “wiggle” or “jig” my arms and legs around... and sometimes even hum and bop my head against my crib. The only way I would go to sleep is if my mother came in and sang me to sleep.All through my childhood my stepdad would try to teach me how to play his guitar and my little hands couldn’t
Not Love
Its not love that hurts. What hurts is being hurt by someone you love.
Not Like Crazy....
"Not Like Crazy" When we first metI was surprised to getThat feeling, That feelingThe kind that don't wash away with soapSo sweet to me,OohhThe kind of feeling I needTo get me through the darkest daysFor you I prayed[Chorus]What you do is crazy babeNot like you belong in an asylumCrazy babe, Like the sun in the morningAnd the moon at nightLike the rain falling from the skyLike the trees growing from the groundI'm astounded babeBy your love for meAnd your touching meAnd your trust in meLike you do whoo whoo whoo whoo whoo whoo whoo whooEven now I still feel that feelingAlthough we've grownWe're still on the same side Of the proverbial roadHeading in the same directionI'm so glad to knowWith you I spend my time
Not Me
waz up peeps....well let me just say one thing for all those females out there who thinks im out here tryin to take your men....guess again im not im here to have fun and meet new people ..lately ive been gettin notes from females or females that thinks because i check out their mens profiles .....i check out all those who check me out and browse thru people page to see thier pics and profile im not here to take anyones just having internet fun time... so stop comin at me with crazy notes or hatin notes if your men comes and check me out doesnt mean he wants me hes just lookin.......have a nice day
Not Mine But....
Not mine.. But very well put! Irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time and having the wrong person when the time is RIGHT and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. Sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. We all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly lov
Not Much Going On
So, just a borring day. Nothing really eventfull going onI. So why write about it? Well it's noted that there's nothing notworthy. lol. I still need to find, out what I need to do to report to work and stuff. I stopped by the recruiter's office and the guy wasn't there that I needed to talk to. It's going to be a long borring weekend. I guess I will try to work on school stuff. So I need to burn my computer or something so I don't get distracted. lol. My computer actually overheated earlier today and shut off. I was kinda concerned it was broke, but I figured ohwell, it's good probably. So I read some fo my books. We keep having these quizes in psyche, and my mind goes blank. It's hard to explain stuff in the words they use even though I know what I'm talking about mostly. so that's my borring blog of my borring day. But hey, I put up more pictures though. And they are cool. So check them out if you haven't allready.
Not Much About A Lot
i am just sitting here on my lunch break just wonderin what people were thinking about whatever
Not Much
I'm off from work today which I'm glad about. After work on friday, I went out drinking with a friend. We went and got drinks and just went to a park to sit at and chill and talk. Tuesday is Halloween as everyone knows. I'm not sure what I will be doing on that day. I have off from work so I know durning the day, I have stuff to do but at night, I'm not sure what's going on. I'm suppose to be changing departments at work. I'm glad about that cause I'm tired of the department I'm in and want a change. It all depends on one person leaving and once that person leaves, I will be moving into my new department. I was told she's leaving end of this month and then I was told maybe not till the beginning of next year. I hope she leaves soon. I know thats kinda mean to say but she's a nice women so don't get me wrong there.
Not Meant To Be
You asked me the other day What do we have in common? And i'll tell yah babe Nothing is the answer It's not our fault We werent meant to be That's just the way life works Dosen't matter how much you love someone If you have nothing in common There will be fights, lots of them Sound firmiliar? That's because we fight All the time I love you very much But if we dont let this go now It's only going to get harder The fights will get louder And the pain will be stronger It's not our fault we werent meant to be Thats just life It's going to be hard at first But we will both move on The pain will go away Things arent going to be the same But my love for you will never fade
Not My Words
Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together. After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home. No, he responded. Heading out I asked? No. I'm escorting a soldier home. Going to pick him up? No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq, I'm taking him home to his family. The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days. I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, Thank you. Thank you for doing what you do so my family and I can do what we do. Upon landing in Chicago the pilot stopped short of the gate and
Not My Best
I sit here alone in the dark Wishing for her and the spark I wait for her and long to see If we share perfect chemistry To hold and look deep in her eyes To share the wonder and surprise At two who feel loves bond grow And deep in our hearts it does show For none can guess the mind of god To try is an effort to be found odd Destiny calls and we must be Together till end of eternity By R. Thomas Dinsmore
Not Much Better
She is still very ill. The after hours nurse thinks she has Strep and that the office somehow missed it. We will find out for sure tomorrow morning when the second test comes back. Right now I'm just trying to make her comfortable. Having a child that is so sick and miserable takes it all out of you. Especially when they are usually so energetic and chipper. She has been on the couch under a blanket for the most part of the past 72 hours. More good thoughts/vibes if you can spare em. :o) ***kisses*** Sam
Not My Gumdrop Buttons!
Not Much Time Left
There is only 45 hours left in the sexiest MILF over 30 contest, and I really need some votes, leave comments to vote and remember you can leave as many comments as u want.
Not Me
I see you standin there waiting on me but I dont care cuz baby what you do to me is keep me from goin on and keep me from playin a new song It seems to take four drinks to get you to talk to me once in awhile you sit and think but baby cant you see im done with that song and dance im headin out for some new romance you think you got what it takes but in the end you made the mistake not me broke the spell you had on me and what i see aint right im the man people want me to be dont even put up a fight cuz under the covers im the right kinda lover and you are missin out you left too soon cuz now im gone there aint no doubt you think you got what it takes but you made the mistake not me
Not Much To Read.
How to learn the last lesson. This lesson is the curelest of all. How to do nothing when nothing can be done. How to learn this lesson without losing myself. How to arm myself whitout chaining myself in hell. How to learn this lesson without killing my heart. How to go on when this lesson know as death is learn. How to learn this lesson,curelest of all,do nothing when nothing is left to do.
Not Me
you spit out lies like its the air you breath you read from the book of how to mislead your a player and you know it your breaking my heart but i dont show it blush red cheeks and a letter full of 'i love you's' this is just not me..
Not My Girl
~~~~~~~~~~~~Me~~~~~~~~~~~~~ What dose I love you Meen to me It Meens I would die for you It meens I would Kill for you It means I would Cry for you It Meens I would Bleed Over you I meens i would Take your pain away and give it to my self For you It meens I would do any thing to make you smile even if that ment runing naked throw the mall It meens I Would Be there for you take your tears and wipe them for you It meens You Would Be my World....EVEN NOW THAT YOUR NOT MY GIRL....I WOULD STILL DO ALL THEM THINGS
Not Me!
There's sumbody out there sayin shit about me say I waz talkin shit But it waznt me I dont get down like that there r more than 1 Bedroom Gangstas out thereso dont think its me get all tha FACTS!!! Tha Real Bedroom Gangsta.
Not Much
well what can i say, second day on this and im going crazy. this is cooler than i thought. i wish college was more like this. lol. but anyhow i just want to say thanks to all who viewed and rated my profile and pics and added me at tihs point. i will try to comment u all when i can but this school stuff is really bugging me right now. but feel free to holla. take care. ~ Stinger Nitro
Not My Key.
The universe shakes with the laughter of ignorant humanity the floors echo with their sentiment. They're the meat filled middle of every Armani suit. They're in every SUV. They're in every Mc Donald's. They're in every facet of the mechanism that is television. They own multi million dollar corporations. They own the smallest shacks in the woods. You tell yourself they won't live long enough to breed... at least, you pray they dont. You pray they wont make it. You seal that prayer with blood everyday. You seal it by burning to live, by waking up and breathing everyday so maybe they might not have a future... like you might not. Or like they have sealed yours already. Oh, these new Yuppies with thoes small jokes, that winded laughter hah. Just laugh with them. Pretend like you're harmless. Keep them at ease. You know the sayings... thoes old proverbs. All you can say (under your breath) is: Have a nice death. ...
Not My Day
My cereal was soggy. My eggs were cold. my juice was sour. the bread was old. I was late 4 homeroom, Rushing down the hall The hell of my shoe broke, And I took a fall. The rain feel hard On me and my clothes. I t ruined my hair And gave me a runny nose. I failed a test On the history of France. I got caught on a nail And ripped my pants. I went home early. I couldn't take it anymore. I was cold and wet, And my pants were torn. I went to bed and began to pray, Please make tomorrow a much better day.
Not Much To Say About Anything Lol
sending hellos out into cherryland.. still unsure of what to blog about, i guess being still new to this will do that to ppl lol... take the chance and say hi if ya see me around, add me up if ya want.. stay safe and take care....
Not Much ---- Policy But What's There Is Here
but there are quite a few people here whose profiles disallow all communication (except in stash comments and perhaps via gifts, and those are dodges that the admins may well close; and of course in the note with the friend request) if you are not already a CT-friend. I don't equate CT-friendship with friendship, but I keep some information behind lock and key that I don't want going out to people I haven't spoken with a bit and more than a bit (or maybe not much at all, but enough to feel I trust them... it varies of course!). I break this policy now and then and now and then I remember why I have it. If this is true I will interact with you in other ways as the site allows but they're few, not especially rewarding (unless I trust you with my e-mail or such and likewise, but in that case we have set up an alternate avenue of communication- changing nicknames to communicate is merely a more farcical way of doing the same :) ) - without personal communication I am less and les
Not Much Going On.
Ok. The day before valentines day. I just went to school, and dropped my ex off at the homeless shelter. ( she works there right now. ) I need to do my english and my math.
Not Myself
I've noticed something.... I'm reading this book called "I never promised you a rose garden" Wow. It's un fucking real. (there's a word for ya tiff lol) I mean this girl describes her insanity to such detail. I find myself understanding her pain, and her feelings. When life gets too tough, she escapes into this world of her own. It's a created world, called "Yr". I, do not have such a world, althogh it would be nice.But, i do find myself lying, and creating a world of my own. A world where everyone loves me, no fighting, no bullshit... just, happiness. I enjoy escape. And i wonder sometimes, if thats what the cutting is all about.... this girl describes cuting herself with a tin lid... "no pain, just feeling her flesh resisting" although not word for word... but we all feel that. by we all, i mean those of us who cut. I learned my BFF and i use the same technique. We use the side of the blade. The corner. Otherwise, you can't even feel the cut... too clean. Yet still, very little pain.
Not Many Words Are Needed
Words that soak into your ears are whispered ... not yelled
Not My Style....but I Have Had Enough
Not Mine
I reach out to you And you pull away. I make some distance, And then you close it. Don't you realize how much It's killing me? Staying away from you When I want nothing more Than to be in your arms But I can't be because She's there taking my place. Stop it please, tell me now, Do you love me or don't you? I can handle the rejection. Tell me please, yes, or no? Am I to laugh or to cry? Is this hello or good bye?
Not My Heart
Do not go searching my soul. There are things no one needs to know To believe in me Is a waste of time, you see I am full of pain and mental aches All I have is simply heartbreak To see what it is you see in me Is something I can never believe To show my true self. I would have to take my heart from the shelf. Dust it off and let it go Take the chance no one will say no Why can't I just curl up into a ball And around me build a wall. I don't think I will ever see What it is you see in me!
Not My Job
Not Meant To Be
There once was a time if I just closed my eyes, I could see us together as one. But after these years of growing apart, I can see that dream is done. You were the one who knew me inside and out, And always knew just what to say. Any problems I had would disappear, When you said it would all be okay. There was always a special connection with us, And these days it seems to be gone. Whatever we had died a long time ago, But it's just so hard to move on. Those times I'd drown in the blue of your eyes, You never noticed a thing. There were nights I laid awake and thought, Of the love our friendship brought. No matter how hard I've been trying, The truth is so hard to see. I guess it takes a while to let go, Of something not meant to be. © Andi 2007
Not Much....
just hanging out at's St. Patty's Day and we're gonna stay home, not risking going out with all those we're gonna stay home and drink and be comfy.
Not My Fault
I'm honestly tired of being your scapegoat. It's not my fault that you cannot handle your drugs and show up to work as a useless blob. You put me in a bad spot today and i shouldnt have to deal with it. Your my best friend in the world but there are only so many times that i can cover your ass. I love ya to death but you fucked me today and you deserved to get fired.
Not Mine.
There's something about the way he looks at me that makes me feel like I'm the only person he can see. Something about the way he touches me makes me feel like I'm the only one he can feel. And mmmm when he kisses me - he's hungry for me..ravenous he just can't get enough of me. When we're together I'm in heaven. When we're apart...its hell. I'd give anything to be with him always. But its wrong. So wrong. These thoughts that occupy my brain. This fire that burns in my soul. Its forbidden..for he is not mine. He belongs to another.
Not Moving
everything fell through. Mom may be staying in town but will be moving to her own place. Everthing is getting rearanged. My broter may not be able to have her living there. So thing will have to be figured out. Until then she is here... but i am still technically living alone...i think
Not Much To Say Tonight.....
I havent blogged in a few days,everything going well,except the fact im realizing Im married and in love with my best friend......enough said !!!!!
Not Much To Say
Well ... like its says .. not much to say .. i worked some over time today just because i felt like being nice lol seriously under staffed at work so i went in on my Saturday and missed half a day of sun ... o well i will make up for it all tomorrow .. headed off to the river for a fire and beer !!! yaaaay should be a good day trucks mud and hotdogs cooked on a open fire and lots of beer .. cant wait well .. i think i have babbled enough for now .. laterz
Not Much To Tell
from what i hear a blog is where you tell something about yerself. well, there's not much to tell here. i have 4 children, 6 grandchildren, work like hell, pay the bills and collect wolves. simple, short and sweet. rock on cherry tappers!!!!
Not My Best
Breezes gentle and ever so soft Carry the days problems aloft Dispersing them way up high in the thin air they wither and die What is left falls to the earth Is trampled under and finds it worth As fertile soil to help peace renew sweet roses come forth dripping with dew the world finds peace and balance again Letting this moment carry us free of pain Knowing that the divine for us has a plan Feeling it in the hearts of every woman and man ours is to live and do both no harm and what’s right And let the selfish side fade in this moments loving light By R. Thomas Dinsmore I wanted to write something peaceful ... I guess I should not try to force it LOL
Not Much Going On Today
hey guys and girls how you all doing today. I'm ok, nothing really happening much today. Still it's a bright sunny day here in the uk. So c'mon tell me what you all doin
Not Much Going On
  I went to school and did math today from about 1030 to 230. I did an old final for review for my final on monday. I didn't do much today other than that. I'll do the cumulitive review tomarrow, and then the tests that are in the back of the book over thenext couple days too. On monday morning I'll go and review in the morning, then take the test in the afternoon. That should work for review. Not a whole lot else going on. Other than my brother drank my last hard cider. lol. It's not a big deal though.    I scanned some more pictures in. Check my pictures page to see all of them.That's a picture of the goat I uste to have before I was in the army. My paretns were too lazy to take care of the animals they got and then had us take care of. So when we all moved out, they got rid of them. I think it's kinda jacked up, it was ok for us to take care of animals they got, but not for them to.  But whatever.  He wnt to a good home in idaho. They took pictures of him and sent them to me while I
Not Much Importance
       I took my math final today. I hope I did well. I'm pretty sure I did good enough to pass. It just depends mostly on the stupid arrithmatic errors. I know how to do most stuff, I just have this probelm adding and subtracting, and doing simple stuff sometimes.        It was a nice day today. It was rather sunny and warm. It seems like summer. I wore my bright yellow-orage newmexico shirt today. On the way home from school I stopped by my dad's ex-girlfriend's house. ( she's quite similar to a step-mom sort of person. ) She wasn't there though. Her dogs were outside the fence, so I put them back in, and figured out where they got out, and closed it off. Someone was there, but they were asleep on the couch, so I didn't want to wake them up.    I scanned some more pictures in. they are out of my sketchbook I drew in in highschoo. I might edit them later so they look better, or combine them with different things, or both later on. I'm going to upload some now as is.  My brother's fri
Not Much Going On
Hey.  I didn't do much today. I went to lunch at Red Robin with my parents. I went to raget and got soap, deoderant, and a hairdryer. The checkoutstand girl was pretty cute. I went to my parents house after that to help them do something with a dead tree that was chopped up and cut down and stuff. But their trailer was full, and so there was nothing relaly to do with it at the time. So I went home. I cleaned up the kitchen some more from the party, and ate the last of the sausage and potatos I made the other day. I still have a chicken I need to cook soon. I was going to do that today, but them my mom callled asking if I wanted to meet them for lunch. Free food, is better than me cooking food.   I may cut the chicken up tonight,and then cook it somehow tomarrow. It's a pain to cook with the kitchen a mess though. That is partly why I have waited so long before dealing with it. Maybe I'll just put it in the crockpot and let it cook all day or something.         Yesterday was the graduat
Not Mine But To All My Male Friends
The Penis Poem My nookie days are over My pilot light is out What used to be my sex appeal Is now my water spout. Time was when, on its own accord From my trousers it would spring But now I've got a full-time job To find the blasted thing. It used to be embarrassing The way it would behave For every single morning It would stand and watch me shave. Now as old age approaches It sure gives me the blues To see it hang its little head And watch me tie my shoes.
Not Missing A Damn Thing...
Not Much
to love is to cherish to cherish is to love so do i cherish?
Not Much
Its Tuesday and not much is new. Yesterday was kewl I talk to a good friend for alittle while yesterday. (Angelbaby) So I got to update her and have a bitch talk.Today didnt do anything special dishes cooked dinner. I played out side with the dogs for awhile. It was hot so I didnt stay out there long. I know I dont really have alot of fun in my life but thats they way it goes. Im kidless for afew days Tate went to his dads. Ok this you might think is funny or weird. My x Tates "my 6yr old" dad is married to my sister. So my X is my brother-n-law and that would make my sister my sons step-mom/aunt and is dad uncle/dad. Thats just F@!cked up. When we went to the wedding I sat on my sisters side but didnt know where Tate should sit I thought he should sit in middle lol. He sat with me. Anyway hope everyone gets a laugh out of that.
Not My Account Any More
i dont have michael account any more
Not Moving
Hey all recently decided to not move, and the good news is that I'm becoming manager at my work. Pretty cool. I need to get to level 3 to send gifts and to do things to better my score on the tap.
Not Me Personaly So Ont Get Any Ideas..
I'm Glad I'm A Woman I'm glad I'm a woman, yes I am, yes I am I don't live off of Budweiser, beer nuts and Spam I don't brag to my buddies about my erections I won't drive to Hell before I ask for directions I don't get wasted at parties and act like a clown and I know how to put the damned toilet seat down! I won't grab your hooters, I won't pinch your butt my belt buckle's not hidden beneath my beer gut and I don't go around "readjusting" my crotch or yell like Tarzan when my head-board gets a notch I don't belch in public, I don't scratch my behind I'm a woman you see -- I'm just not that kind! I'm glad I'm a woman, I'm so glad I could sing I don't have body hair like shag carpeting It doesn't grow from my ears or cover my back When I lean over you can't see 3 inches of crack And what's on my head doesn't leave with my comb I'll never buy a toupee to cover my dome Or have a few hairs pulled from over the side I'm a woman, you know -- I've got far t
Not Myself
Hey Im sorry I havent been able to get back at you and thank you for you comments and emails. Im having some issues going on nothing life threating just need another procedure. Plus dealing with the daily bullshit of this life just some things within myself that I have to lay to rest things I need to deal with but Ill be OK Im a survivor.
Not Meant For Me
Not Much Sleep And Here We Go
Well peeps on my way to Indianapolis for my wife to have her foot surgery this morning gonna be kinda hard for her to get around considering.....have fun peeps take care heading out.....:-)
Not Meant To Be
There once was a time if I just closed my eyes, I could see us together as one. But after these years of growing apart, I can see that dream is done. You were the one who knew me inside and out, And always knew just what to say. Any problems I had would disappear, When you said it would all be okay. There was always a special connection with us, And these days it seems to be gone. Whatever we had died a long time ago, But it's just so hard to move on. Those times I'd drown in the blue of your eyes, You never noticed a thing. There were nights I laid awake and thought, Of the love our friendship could bring. No matter how hard I've been trying, The truth is so hard to see. I guess it takes a while to let go, Of something not meant to be.
Not Much
ok . here it is i cant get any more pics up untill i get a new cam.. because mine is junk.. , but im working on it as i type this..
Not Meant To Hurt Anyones Feelings...but Its Funny!!!
Something To Offend Nearly Everyone > > Q. What's the Cuban National Anthem? >A. Row, Row, Row Your Boat > >Q. Where does an Irish family go on vacation? >A. A different bar > >Q. What did the Chinese couple name their retarded baby? >A. Sum Ting Wong > >Q. What do you call it when an Italian has one arm shorter than the other? >A. A speech impediment > >Q. What does it mean when the Post Office's flag is flying at half-mast? >A. They're hiring > >Q. Why aren't there any Puerto Ricans on Star Trek? >A. Because they're not going to work >in the future either. > >Q. What do you call a Mississippi >farmer with a sheep under each arm? >A. A pimp. > >Q. Why do Driver Education classes in redneck schools use the car only on >Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays? >A. Because on Tuesday and Thursday, >the Sex Ed class uses it. > >Q. What's the difference between a southern zoo and a northern zoo? >A. The southern zoo has a description >
Not My Day!
Now I try to be a glass is half full kind of girl, but this day seems to be testing my patience. Up until about 5 minutes ago, the glass was still half full. It's amazing how a simple incident can really transgress your happy space. Backing things up a bit to the previous day: My best friend has just returned home from a two week visit with her son in Okinawa, Japan. We are two peas in a pod and cannot go very long without seeing one another, so we have had a lot of catching up to do. We went out last night to chat and have a few drinks and eventually ended up at her place where we sat and talked to the early morning hours. At approximately five in the morning, I decided that it was time to go home and get some sleep, because I was pushing the limits of exhaustion. Since my best friend and I are neighbors the walk home was only a few steps to my door. As I drew near to my house, I noticed a large puddle of water in the street that I had seen earlier the night before, had n
Not Missin A Spot
Subject:Slowly, not missing a spot Slowly, not missing a spot let me lick down your back, all the way to your feet. Allow my teeth to bite into your meat, gently though, lLeaving very little marks, and as you arch your back, then I'm on the attack. I won't miss a spot cause I know your getting hot, and when I've tasted all of you got from behind, then its time to being in front, I'm feeling drunk from the taste of you, embrace of you and oh yes, I love How you go ooh and ahhhhh. I keep my face in you, every place of you; my tongue will probe not missing an inch, knee or elbow, your breast they heave to the touch I weave and my tongue won't miss a spot. As you lay there and I'm above you my thick strong dick wants to love you, but no i's not time, for I've Yet to lick the clit that hides between your thighs. "spread open your thighs" are the words you hear and as you do I see your pussy cheer, with a rush of juice that it held inside, it cries for my tongue and that first
Not My Normal Blog....
normaly i would be the first to get on here and wine about how something is going wrong in my life,but im done with that. ive come to several realizations about life in my life.some of the more well known ones you already know so i wont bother to say.point being im just saying life is a lesion that your never done learning. many dont even get a chance to learn the basics of life or how to live they draw the short end of the stick.but it seems to me that those with the child like minds are the best off.look at it this way, a little child no matter how down will do nothing more than ask why or thoughts of takeing themselfs outa this world or that it would be a better place without not saying all children are this way or even all those with child like minds, only that maybe sometimes as adults we think to much into things and that maybe we shouldnt be scared to ask why even if theres no answer. fear is nothing more than something that slows us down, not that all fear is bad
Not My Slave
-4Bryan By: Oingo Boingo With sadness in my heart and joy in my mind I thought about the ghost that we left behind. With everyone around telling us what to do with deafening sound whisper ";I love you."; The fire in your eyes-- may it never go out. The sweetness of your tears make it feel like night. I see no escape from the roles we always play What do we have to prove on this judgement day You're missing the whole point-- you're not my little pet Don't throw away your life-- The games not over yet I do not own your soul--don't want you in a cage I only want your heart to find a special place You're mine now But you're not my sister You're mine now But you're not my slave You're mine But you're not my child You're mine now But you're not my slave You're mine now But you're not my slave With sadness in my heart and clounds in my head I thought about us both and the lives we led. The pages on a book and pictures on a screen We shape
Not Me,not I
You mixed me up for someone Who'd fall apart without you Yeah you broke my heart for the first time But I'll get over that too It's hard to find the reasons Who can see the rhyme? I guess that we where seasons out of time I guess you didn't know me If you think love is blind That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines Surprised that I caught you out On every single time that you lied Did you think that every time I see you I would cry No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I The story goes on without you And there's got to be another ending But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time But I'll get over them too As a new door opens we close the ones behind And if you search your soul I know you'll find You never really knew me If you think love is blind That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines Surprised that I caught you out On every single time that you lied Did you think that every time I see you I would cry No not me, not I, not
Not Mis Right Now
i been wit alot of people my whole live but some times i feel as one special girl will do. but some time i feel as im too young to settle down. but maybe if that right person came in my live i wouldnt have to settle down but more injoy life knowin that theres no worriers cause i got tha person i love.
Not My Writing But It Touches My Heart
MY MUMMY IS A SURVIVOR My Mummy is a survivor, or so I've heard it said. But I hear her crying at night when all others are in bed. I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand. She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand. But like the sands on the beach that never wash away... I watch over my surviving mummy, who thinks of me each day. She wears a smile for others...a smile of disguise. But through Heaven's door I see tears flowing from her eyes. My mummy tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive. But anyone who knows her knows it is her way to survive. As I watch over my surviving mum...through Heaven's open door. I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more. But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears. So if you get a chance, go visit her...And show her that you care. For no matter what she matter what she feels. My surviving mom has a broken heart that time won't ever heal~! This poem w
Not Me But 2 .bike Hit But Not Me So Lol
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Not Much Longer =]
And I won't have to miss Ruby anymore. She'll be out of that convention thingie. yay! :D p.s. humor me, she's my shout buddy.
Not Mine
Your heart is pretty much destroyed right now, and it's hard for you to think of anything else. You are in deep despair, and sometimes it feels like you will never love again. Your hear may be at its lowest point right now. Things can only get better from here. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Being swept away by the wrong person Your current outlook on love: You find yourself wondering if love is ever worth it Your love life will improve if you: Take a lot of steps back. You're in no shape to fall in love right now. Watch out for: Anyone who may try to take advantage of your fragile state.
Not My Dad
Daddy Dearest, I'm so sad. Why did you do this? Why did you hurt me so bad? I called you daddy- But I lied. You didn't care- So now I wish you'd die. I can't call you daddy- So what will I do? You told me lies- That I hoped were true. I still can't fathom- What you've done. I know I'm not your favorite- I could never replace your sons. I hate this feeling that I get- It is something I've learned to live with. I don't have a family to love me anymore- So I'm here, left alone to drift. No more lies- You're not my dad. I'm sick of this shit- You make me so mad. Mad as I am- I was past you, out the door. Why do I have to take this? Why do I put up with this for? Daddies don't lie- They love their little girls. They play with their daughters- And lay down gentle morals. Daddies don't cheat- They love all their children the same. Then you told eveyone a lie- It was all a shame. **This is about my Stepfather. We haven't gotten along while
Not Myself
have you ever just had one of those weeks where you dont even know why your still here or what ur doing forgive me in advance if i seem off..... i may be offline for a while to gather my thoughts and figure out my life.... i'll stop in to check up on things periodically but wont be on long luv you all!!!!!
Not Me
Not Michigan
Not Mine But I Believe
I believe that the sun shines after the rain I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain I believe in not doing things the easy way I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay I believe in a second chance I believe in a life long romance I believe there is life after death And standing up to a life of mess I believe in love at first sight I believe that revenge isn’t right I believe that first impressions last And there is nothing better then a good laugh I believe that dreams do come true I believe there's destiny for me and you I believe that good things come to those who wait I believe love never arrives too late I believe something good comes from something bad I believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad I believe everyone has a guardian angel And the good you do will be rewarded well I believe sometimes there is no explanation I believe money can't buy people's affection I believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone I
Not Mine But Just Remember What We've Lost!!!!
Oh, the last ten years, it's been quite trip Over thirty-six-hundred spins around without a cosmic slip But within the realm of our atmosphere We're 'bout as out of whack as we've ever been in a million years We watched the Y2K scare in a panic An' we watched as time proved Nostrodamus wrong An' we watched as Mother Nature shook the planet An' cellular replaced the telephone We lost Charlie Brown, Ray Charles an' Johnny Cash We even lost Superman, mhm. Well, the last ten years, look at the hills we've climbed The best golfer's black, the best rapper's white an' it's about damn time But we best beware, there's a brand new fight, you see An' I hate to say we might be our own worst enemy We watched Oklahoma sifting through the damage An' we watched a US President get caught We watched shareholders watch their savings vanish We all cried when we watched those towers fall We lost Minnie Pearl, Ron Reagan and Sam I Am We even lost Superman, mhm. Ex
Not Me
Not Much...
Well if anyone has read my profile, you know that I've had a double mastectomy. Well I've been having chemotherapy treatments because it seems it wasn't caught before it spread. Now before anyone thinks this is a pity blog it's not. I've lived a lot in my life, I've loved and lost, raised hell and been sent to heaven a few times too, but through it all I have never regretted my life, true there are a few things that may embarrass me but not one thing I would change. The doctors have given me my time line and I can do what I want to do in it with out any regrets, sorrows, or even guilt. There is a nice lady on this site who has agreed to make a picture for me that I'm planning on leaving to the hospital...for their cancer wing. Her name is Roxy, but her screen name is Momma Rox and I wanna thank her for the bottom of my heart for agreeing to to this picture for me. Now for the important part...second half. I wish to thank all the friends I have made on this site and I pl
Not My Type
Pfft. Prom night. I leaned against the wall of the gym, one high-heel on the cinderblocks and my head resting against the corner of the wall. Give me a lunch table full of conversing students, and I could fit right in no problem, but dancing, seduction, and running out to the parking lot to sneak a smoke wasn't my scene. I looked cute, too. Strapless dark blue satin dress with paler blue lace over it, my waist-long light brown hair cascading down my back, and makeup that I managed to apply myself flawlessly for the first time ever. But I couldn't bring myself to smile. A few guys had asked me to dance, and I almost complied, but I was not in the mood for leading them on. Guys weren't exactly my scene either, but few people knew that. I must've zoned out watching the couples sway back and forth "dancing," because I didn't notice her come stand beside me. She was definitely not the type of girl I'd go for, not that I knew if she went for that sort of thing. She had shiny jet black
Not My Poem But I Like It
Feelings for you by Amanda Jackson I wish you knew Or had a clue About how I feel about you I just have so many feelings That I’m tired of dealing with I wish I had the guts to tell you What would you do? Would things be different? I’ve already been through this before And I had my heart tore I don’t think I can go through that anymore Look I like you more than I should If only I could tell you my feelings Everything would be good
Not My First...
Greaaaaaaat... another fucking blog to maintain. I cannot guarantee that I'll be any better at keeping this one up tan I am at any of the others I have had... the most successful of them being "The Diary of an Asshole" over on Myspace. I guess we will have to wait and see where I am when inspiration strikes me.
Not My President
Thought this was interesting and had to share. Everyone is free to have their own opinion and I am not in anyway forcing mine on you. >To all my friends:The feedback from the "Not My President" bulletin has been astounding. This is definately a hot topic. Thank you all who have reposted the bulletin.There have been negative replies to it also, some even called me names and said I was ignorant! Regardless, I refuse to sit back and do nothing. Never will I sit idle while many, especially the young, are led like sheep to vote for anyone promising "change" who, at the same time:- refuses to take an oath on The Holy Bible (VERY BIG ISSUE FOR ME)- was raised as a Muslim, and may still be- belongs to a church that is committed to Africa, not America- refuses to honor our American flag during the National Anthem- refuses to pledge his allegiance to The Flag of The United States of America (ANOTHER BIG ISSUE FOR ME)DOES THIS SOUND LIKE AN AMERICAN PRESIDENT TO YOU?This country was founded on
Not My President
Thought this was interesting and had to share. Everyone is free to have their own opinion and I am not in anyway forcing mine on you. >To all my friends: The feedback from the "Not My President" bulletin has been astounding. This is definately a hot topic. Thank you all who have reposted the bulletin. There have been negative replies to it also, some even called me names and said I was ignorant! Regardless, I refuse to sit back and do nothing. Never will I sit idle while many, especially the young, are led like sheep to vote for anyone promising "change" who, at the same time: - refuses to take an oath on The Holy Bible (VERY BIG ISSUE FOR ME) - was raised as a Muslim, and may still be - belongs to a church that is committed to Africa, not America - refuses to honor our American flag during the National Anthem - refuses to pledge his allegiance to The Flag of The United States of America (ANOTHER BIG ISSUE FOR ME) DOES THIS SOUND LIKE AN AMERICAN P
Not Mad At You
imikimi - Customize Your World
Not My President
Thought this was interesting and had to share. Everyone is free to have their own opinion and I am not in anyway forcing mine on you. >To all my friends:The feedback from the "Not My President" bulletin has been astounding. This is definately a hot topic. Thank you all who have reposted the bulletin.There have been negative replies to it also, some even called me names and said I was ignorant! Regardless, I refuse to sit back and do nothing. Never will I sit idle while many, especially the young, are led like sheep to vote for anyone promising "change" who, at the same time:- refuses to take an oath on The Holy Bible (VERY BIG ISSUE FOR ME)- was raised as a Muslim, and may still be- belongs to a church that is committed to Africa, not America- refuses to honor our American flag during the National Anthem- refuses to pledge his allegiance to The Flag of The United States of America (ANOTHER BIG ISSUE FOR ME)DOES THIS SOUND LIKE AN AMERICAN PRESIDENT TO YOU?This country was founded on
Not Much To Report..... here is some poetic entertainment...enjoy and leave me some love around this place i call my fubar page!! Your heart is a puzzle It's pieces scattered on the floor I watch you as you struggle Nothing seems to fit together anymore Give me your broken heart I'll earn it piece by piece And restore this work of art I just need you to believe I'll fit them back together Until your heart is complete And cherish it forever Your faith is all I need But if you choose to keep it When my work is done This one request I submit In gentlemanly fashion If it's given to another This choice I will respect Just don't give it to a miser For this I can attest You will end up where you started Your heart a shattered mess And once again be broken hearted Full of burden and distress
Not Making A Difference
I heard a cry of pain The shrill filled the air My body tensed in fear In the dark I now did stare What creature had done this Inflicted pain on another being Taking glee in their discomfort Their discomfort relish seeing Again I heard that scream Shattering the silence of the night I wondered who was in agony As to be free of it they fight I closed my eyes tightly Not wanting to think of this no more Knowing that another living soul Was battered bruised and sore I am suddenly awakened By sounds too familiar to me AN emergency is close by I know I look out and now I see A stretcher is being carried A child lay motionless inside No signs of life fill their body This was the night they died I heard a noise behind me A man so large and mean walked by Taken into custody for the killing I hang my head and tears I cry Could I have saved that precious soul The one that had cried out in pain If I had gone to them while they screamed Instead of my own world remain
Not Much Longer......
well everyone i go for the 32 week 3-D ultrasound tomorrow..and we are finding out the sex as long as the baby will find out if it kills you in advance to those who have been there and supported us throughout the whole pregnancy..and for all the well wishes and to all our well wishers...after that we dont have much longer to go until the delivery either..8 more weeks til the predicted delivery date...we will keep you all posted..
Not My Will But God's Will
How many times have we have we heard people say I t was my will that I do what I want to do "God"had no say only to turn around and admit that as Christians we first pray to God for guidence in all we do so let go and let god guide you Dennis George
Not Much To Update...
Good Evening... Ok. I am still on a no driving order until the Neurologist clears me. I have that appointment on Monday. I did go through the CT Scan this afternoon and posted the image results... "I do have a brain!! LOL!!!". Who would have thought that right? Anyway, I will know more this coming Monday hopefully, but they did manage to medicate me a little and it puts me to sleep a lot. I am really in and out of it... so bear with me. I wont be going to work until after the neurologist clears me either. Until the next time!! With All My Love... AngL
Not Mad
so many things are going through my head right now so many big factors in why i feel like this she wants to help i knows she does but she can't i have to just sit here and let my feeling out please stop worrying i am not mad at you this is just something that i have to deal with alone you are still my friend as it will always be but right now i need to write cant you see just please please let me be dont think i am mad i am not please see my feeling on everything just needs to be free just know please hun right now i am fine, well not really fine but as good as it will get but i am not mad at you i promise you this i will talk when i am ready but now i am not this has been coming for awhile these feelings and stuff you know all the things i am going through right now so you see why i need my time to write i hope just know i am not mad at thee
Not Much To Say
Learning the Ropes around this site. Kinda like it better than myspace ^_^
Not My Time!!
Well, things turn out badly few weeks after I had a broken heart and now glad it's over therefore I will be fine after that!! But again I hate to mention many things to say. But I will manage few things thru my life again whichever I had enough being on bumpy road and steady I go straight forward and looking for new life as hell I wouldn't know! Hope God help me guide the right direction!!! :-) Your truly Wolfie ^_^
Not Made Of Stone
Metal plates protect me, Rusty, worn and dented, Troubles, Memories, Pain, It all attacks me, Battering against my chest, Trying to get to my heart, I won’t let it, I won’t let it, Got to stay strong, Got to stay strong, But it’s slowly getting through, I thought I was strong, I thought I could ignore it, I thought I could stand it, But now it’s getting to me, Now it’s getting to me, It’s piercing through, It’s making its way in, Right into my heart, Right into my fears, It all rushes in, Attacking, attacking, attacking, It’s killing me, It’s drowning me, It’s got me…
Not Much More Time To Go Till It Ends, So ,get Those Bids In Ladies!!
I recently received a pair of funny undies and figured it would be fun to see how much it would take to see me in them. The undies are a red pair with google eyes and a mustache glued to it. Under the mustache is a hole for my "nose" to stick out. The bidding will take place in the comments area of the picture, Just click on the photo below to go to the bidding page. The winning bidder will get pics of me wearing these fine undergarmets. If the winner chooses to have me post the pics for all to see, I will send the winner a video. Happy bidding and good luck to all! CLICK PIC BELOW TO CAST YOUR BID!! AUCTION WILL START NOW! AND RUN FOR TWO WEEKS, WINNING BID ON CLOSING DAY, WINS THE PRIZE HEHE MAKE SURE TO GIVE THIS FINE HUNK O'MAN LOTS OF LUVIN TOO, JUST CLICK HIS PIC BELOW TO LEAVE HIM LOVE! Naked Florida Boy (Sweetwater's Male Dancer/Greeter)@ fubar
Not Many People Know
Not Many People Know..... Actually NO ONE knows, because this is something I do when I am totally alone, out of range of human ears not located on my own head. Guess what Andres does? You never will, well at least not until you reach 74,289th guess. Andy makes up country songs in his head and sings them alone in a really stereotypical Cletus the Slack Jawed Yokel voice. Yes its true. The only way I can describe it is, since I have no intimate knowledge of what a Slack Jawed Yokel sounds like, I sort of have conjured up my own dialect tone for it. And how I do this is, ALL words that begin with "TH" I end up transforming those words when I sing them to start with a "F" sound. Yea its weird, but hear me out. For instance, THought = Fought THink = Fink you get the idea. And in case you are wondering what types of things I sing, here is ONE example of a country song I made up on Friday and Saturday. Untitled Song So Far: And I thought you were gone, And I though
Not Much Going On.
well as the headline says not much going on today. I didn't get on to do this shit last night cuz I was just to wore down. I had to change my clutch in my car yesterday. and well it went really smooth but still it's a lot of work. I got it all done in under 6 hours. would have been done sooner but had to wait for a friend to bring my part from his work. so I had an hour or so to kill in the middle there. as far as the rest of things not really much going on. work was dead tonight. which was a good thing. not money wise but I really didn't feel like being busy today. well that's about all I got for now. I'm about to go to bed. YES me in bed b4 day light. LOL tell next time kiddy's. keep it real. peace out bitch.
Not Much Changes, I Am Still Scruffy And Hate Housework. Another Long Ago Tale Of Woe That Kept Me Sane.
From March 2001, no wonder I am unsettled it must be a seven year itch.++++++ I did try - but it was short-lived - to tidy up my act. Well, how frustrating to discover that these things take time. Three quarters of an hour to be precise. This all refers to becoming a butterfly or epicure by the way. Sows’ ears are hard work transforming into silk purses or persons - hence the time. Actually to get a perfect job would have taken the whole day and as that is all the hours there are in a day, well nothing else would ever been achieved. If I practice I will become a dab hand at is no doubt. So anyway, on went the smart clothes, jumper and skirt - then on when the overall to guarantee protection against low-flying water with bleach and other such substances well known for damaging even the toughest of frocks. The sun even tried to show its beautiful face but was soon smothered by the usual coating of grumpy grey cloud. That is by the by but at least it was a ray of hope in a
Not Me
i am not who i appear to be i am not but does it matter who i am on the inside does it matter that i cry at night missing him does it mater that i feel alone all the time does it matter that no matter how many people there are around me i still feel alone like i am sinking into a dark hole there seems to be no light that enters inside but why should that matter i am alone even if people say they care they don't they don't truly understand they don't know me and how could they cause i don't even know myself at times
Not Much To Ask For!
Thats right! This awesome fantastic wonderful woman is going for her first HH! She is always busting her arse to help all of us whenever we need her! Now its time to give back some of that luv! So click below and help her out!
Not Much Going On
not much excitment going on Ya all probably been thinking.................Man he hasnt been blogging,e-mailing or nothing he must be doing some exciting things and having fun and being busy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Naw not really just havent been having anything really interesting to say,LOL. Have been busy with work and the FD, went to a Lesbian wedding last sunday.......couple weeks before that worked fire and ems for a road race/climb, and spent july 4th 3 day weekend on the coast.....thats about it
Not My Style
I just need to say this ... I find it very disturbing that in a world that has enough HATE in it already that people are still claiming one race is better than another. If you havent noticed by my profile I am Native American.... And I am German I will NOT Associate with ANY organization that proclaims their race is better than another... We are HUMANS first we all bleed RED we cry the same color tears we smile the same bright WHITE smile and when you look at each other there are MANY colors within our physical make up whether it be the brown in our eyes or hair or even a freckle or two... our organs are the same and carry the same color regardless of our skin pigmentation.... and for those who feel white is a better race...I hope you don't TAN because then you will become RED or BROWN and then you will look like those of us who you look down upon with your dilusional superior concepts. Now that my rant is over..... If you have a problem with this ... Then don't com
Not My Wisdom..
On the first day, God created the dog and said: 'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.' The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?' So God agreed. On the second day, God created the monkey and said: 'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.' The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?' And God agreed. On the third day, God created the cow and said: 'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.' The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. How about tw
Not Much Time Left
My internet access is about to come to an end as I travel back to my FOB. It has been really enjoyable to be able to get online and actually socialize/see people. I can't wait to get back to the states!
Not Mine But I Love It
Any guy can mess around, it takes a real man to find a girl and stick with her. Any guy can call you sexy, hot, and all that.. it takes a real man to call you beautiful. Any guy can call you in tears begging you to take him back, it takes a real man to not have a reason to be in those tears. Any guy can say I love you, it takes a real man to say it and mean it even if all of his guy friends are standing around. Any guy can drive over to your house to hang out with you, it takes a real man to show up unexpected. Any guy can have sex with a girl, it takes a real man to wait. Any guy can be with you on the best days when everything is ok, it takes a real man to stay by your side for weeks if thats what it takes when it feels like your world is falling apart. Any guy can talk noise with his friends when a sexy girl walks by, it takes a real man to look the other way. Any guy can be sweet and true to your face, it takes a real man to stay sweet and true when you're g
Not Mine ( A Song) My Mood Right Now!
32 Flavors Squint your eyes and look closer I'm not between you and your ambition I'm a poster girl with no poster I am 32 Flavors and then some. I'm beyond your peripheral vision, so you might want to turn your head. 'Cause one day you're going to be hungry, and eat most of the words you just said. Both my parents have taught me about good will. And I have done well by their names just the kindness that I've lavished on strangers is more than I can explain. still there's many who've turned off the porch lights just so I would think they we're not home. And hid in the dark of their windows 'til I passed and left them alone. God you help you if you are an ugly girl, of course too pretty is also your doom 'cause everyone harbors a secret hatred for the prettiest girl in the room. And God help you if you are a pheonix, and you dare to rise up from the ash a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy, while you are just flying back. I'm not trying to give m
Not Much To Do
No Leftovers to eat...i had speghetti. No Decortations or Tree to take down...did not put up any. No returns...i did not get any gifts. No shopping to do...i have no money. yep, the after christmas reality is the same as the before christmas reality for me....just REALITY!
Not My Day, I Guess
SGT. MARCU...: nah... thank you ->SGT. MARCU...: I am not just sitting here watching who's rating me, yanno, I was doing other things--I WAS going to rate you back, but I guess you don't need it SGT. MARCU...: well I was doing a charity... but seriously... you wouldnt have gotten that shout if you werent so self fucking absorbed like everyone else on this site... ->SGT. MARCU...: if I look like Mr. Ed, why are you rating me in the first place? ->SGT. MARCU...: excuse me? SGT. MARCU...: I dont know I am kinda offended that someone who looks like a spawn of Mr. Ed couldnt even return some fucking rates. Seriously who the fuck do you think you are not ro rate someone back you self serving point whore..
Not Me...
Imagine you're the type of person all your friends can come to when they're in need of someone to talk to.... You're the type of friend that can listen to it all... You're the type of friend that can talk about it all... You're the type of friend that others look up to, the type of friend that just HAS NO WEAKNESSES... ... ...and then imagine being so damn lonely, because you can't trust anyone... honest or not, you've seen what the nature of humanity is..... Imagine having a world full of friends, yet can't open up to a single one of them.... Imagine having to be "strong" in front of everyone, when you're actually dying inside.... ... Hell, I'm tired of it all. Tired of being friends just for the sake of it.... I'm going to return to my old values of "friendship".....
Not Moving :o(
Daddy thought about it and well said it wasn't worth leaving everything behind, pretty much just up an leave shit go unpaid and what not so we're staying in this shit hole for another 5 or so months anyways, I maybe on a little more often.... Smiles well I'm off for now so till another time have fun and take care.
Not Mine But Beautiful Anyway
In a foreign place The saving grace, was the feeling that it was a heart that he was stealing. Oh, he was ready to impress and the fierce excitement. The eyes are bright he couldn't wait to get away. I bet the Juliet was just the icing on the cake. Make no mistake, no. And even if somehow we could have shown you the place you wanted Well I'm sure you could have made it that bit better on your own. And I bet she told a million people that she'd stay in touch. Well all the little promises they don't mean much when there's memories to be made. And I hope you're holding hands by new years eve. They made it far too easy to believe that true romance can't be achieved these days. And even if somebody could have shown you the place you wanted Well I sure you could have made it that bit better on your own. You are the only ones who know
Not Meant To Be
THEORY OF A DEADMAN Not Meant to be It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you Wanted from me, and knowing If I give that to you I might just disappear. Nobody wins when everyone's losing Oh, it's like One step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, Oh, it's like Trying to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe that's there's No way out for you and me And it seems to be, The story of our life Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, oh It's like trying to turn around on a One way street. I can't give You what you want and it's killin
Not Mad Anymore
So call it a symptom of Borderline Personality Disorder...but I'm not mad anymore...Kinda miss him...a lot...I just wish he missed me too...I can't think about his angel face and not fall in love all over again lol
some real close ups forsure!!!MushMushMush weeeeeeSh*t Rocks!!!
"not Meant To Be"
THEORY OF A DEADMAN "Not Meant To Be" It's never enough to say I'm sorryIt's never enough to say I careBut I'm caught between what you wanted from meAnd knowing that if I give that to youI might just disappearNobody wins when everyone's losing[Chorus:]It's like one step forward and two steps backNo matter what I do you're always madAnd I, I can't change your mindI know it's like trying to turn around on a one way streetI can't give you what you wantAnd it's killing meAnd I, I'm starting to seeMaybe we're not meant to beIt's never enough to say I love youNo, it's never enough to say I tryIt's hard to believeThat's theres no way out for you and meAnd it seems to be the story of our livesNobody wins when everyone's losing[Chorus]There's still time to turn this aroundYou could be building this up instead of tearing it downBut I keep thinkingMaybe it's too late[Chorus]It's like one step forward and two steps backNo matter what I do you're always madAnd I, baby I'm sorry to seeMaybe we're
Not Moving
so it turns out i wont be moving after all thank goodness for that the landlord was stupid enuff to come by and do the math in his head with out useing a calculator turns out he wanted more then the rent agreement well so he came by later on to say iam sorry so atlest he was able to admit that he fucked up god i wish everything was that easy in life
Not Myself. . .
feel like ive lost myself in someone im not!i feel like a worthless piece of shiti feel bad for messing with your head like it was a toyrevenge wasnt as sweet as i thought it wastwo wrongs doesnt make a rightand for what i did i feel like a shitty personeven tho it was nothing compaired to what you did to meand im sorry.i know that doesnt make it rightbut atleast i feel better for admitting i was wrongwhen will you ever admit you was wrong tho?
Not My Fault
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take itRULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!LAST PERSON YOU....[1] Who was the last person you texted?  Joe[2] You were in the car with?  My dad[3] Went to the mall with?  my parents[4] Person you talked on the phone with? my mom[5] You messaged/​commented on Fubar?  DevilGirlT/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends? TrueQ: Been searched By Cops?  TrueQ: Been suspended from school?  FalseQ: Sat on a roof top?  TrueQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?  TrueQ: Broken a bone?  TrueQ: Have shaved your head?  FalseQ: Played a prank on someone?  TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership?  TrueQ: Shot a gun?  TrueQ: Donated Blood?  FalseWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink?  Drink[2] Be serious or be funny?  be funny [3] Go to the beach or mountains?  beach[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot?  shotANSWER TRUTHFULLY:[1] Sun or moon?  moon[2] Winter or fall?  fall[3] Le
Not Meant To Be
It's never enough to say I'm sorryIt's never enough to say I careBut I'm caught between what youWanted from me, and knowingIf I give that to yaI might just disappear.Nobody wins when everyone's losingOh, it's likeOne step forward and two steps backNo matter what I do you're always madAnd I can't change your mind, Oh, it's likeTrying to turn around on a one way streetI can't give you what you wantAnd it's killing me and I, I'm starting to seeMaybe we're not meant to beIt's never enough to say I love youNo, it's never enough to say I tryIt's hard to believe that's there'sNo way out for you and meAnd it seems to be, The story of our lifeNobody wins when everyone's losingIt's like one step forward and two steps backNo matter what I do you're always madAnd I can't change your mind, ohIt's like trying to turn around on aOne way street. I can't giveYou what you want and it's killing meAnd I, I'm starting to seeThat maybe we're not meant to beThere's still time to turn this aroundShould we be
Not My Words...but Can Not Deny The Truth Within Them
Not My Words But My Thoughts Someone Else Is Saying
(i wanna torch it, burn it, scortch it, fuckin stomp it out. laugh as it blows away.)   (it aint that complicated, and you aint gotta believe, they'll put me down in a hole, before i let you succeed. i'll never be complasent, i cant afford to be, i know you think your special, but you aint nothing)   (i hope i'm on the list of people that you hate)   (don't wanna be your turnacate for minor lacarations, don't wanna be your romeo cause your no goddamn juliette,)   (its not enough, its not nough, it never was or will be, i never got the chance to say FUCK YOU. you got a gun i got a gun lets write a tragick ending)   (you pushed me one too many times, im sick of all of this shit, i'm here to settle it)   (i'm just so far gone and nothings gonna change, i'll never be the same)
Not Meant To Be
There once was a time if I just closed my eyes, I could see us together as one. But after these months of growing apart, I can see that dream is done. You were the one who knew me inside and out, And always knew just what to say. Any problems I had would disappear, When you said it would all be okay. There was always a special connection with us, And these days it seems to be gone. Whatever we had died a long time ago, But it's just so hard to move on. Those times I'd drown in the blue of your eyes, You never noticed a thing. There were nights I laid awake and thought, Of the love our friendship could bring. No matter how hard I've been trying, The truth is so hard to see. I guess it takes a while to let go, Of something not meant to be.
Not Much To Say
Not Matter What (poem I Wrote Just Now)
(Im writing out my emotions sorry if it isnt put together well) Im not fucking perfect But im fuckng  realpeople throw shit at me except me not to feelords dont hurt but yer they dobrings back memories that are horrabile for me good for you hate u for makng me feel this way i hate u for causeing me pain i hate the no matter what i do isnt righti hate that every little thing i do u wanna start a fight the sec im smile u rip me down sometimes i think ur only happiness would be to see me drownIm not  here for ur please  yet ur hear for my pain i try to be nice but u take evertything in vain all the hurt in life i been thru they say the next day comes and the sky is newthe star in the sky yet im always falling tears in my eyes yet im not lucky enough to be drown in them fucking stress fucking pain  it hurts so much u always compian i cant do it i cant to  i just cant i cant even speak any more or feel  i as i write this i have more then tears  i cant even finish this......... just throW i
Not My Thing, Or So I Thought
Not My Thing, or so I Thought –         It was three weeks before she called again.  I was in a meeting with my staff when my caller ID lit up with her name.  I didn’t even excuse myself.  I grabbed my bag and headed for the door, waiting until I cleared the room to speak.       “Hi, Madeline,” I whispered.       “Daryl, I’m sorry I called during work but…”       As her voice trailed off I thought about what I was doing.  I had pretended that I had put our scene of three weeks ago out of my mind but nothing could be farther from the truth.  I had been waiting for her to call.  I had been waiting to see that ass again, bent over something, pushed up and waiting for me to abuse it.  I hated myself and the guilt of doing this without telling my wife was creeping into my vision like a fog bank rolling in from the sea but god I wanted to spank her!       “Where are you?” I snapped.       “What?”       Perhaps I
Not My Thing, Or So I Thought – Prequel
Not My Thing, or so I Thought – Prequel   I looked at the clock when the phone rang.  It was four in the morning.  I hadn’t been asleep and I hadn’t a clue why not.  Caller ID said it was Madeline and I didn’t have an inkling why she might be calling at this hour either.  I grabbed the phone on the first ring and slithered off the bed toward the door in order to keep from waking my wife.       “Hello, Madeline,” I whispered.       “Oh, you knew it was me,” she said, plainly surprised.       “Yes, caller ID,” I laughed.       “Daryl, I need…” &nb
Not My Thing, Or So I Thought - Chapter 3
Not My Thing, or so I Thought - Chapter 3        Six weeks later I was standing on her front porch.  She hadn’t called me but I couldn’t stand it any longer.  My raging desire to lay my belt on that lovely rearend had overwhelmed my guilt.  I wanted her and I had conveniently buried the fact that it was a form of cheating so deep in my brain that it was merely a faint flicker.      Even so I had forced myself to wait six long weeks because I had been arrogantly positive that she would call.  I had made it this long because I had been secure in the belief that she would need me to punish her as badly as I needed to do it.  I had been wrong.  Now I was standing at her door prepared to tell her that this visit didn’t count because she hadn’t initiated contact, a convenient form of self deception.  When I let it cross my mind I realized that I was in a death spiral regarding my attraction to her and her punishment that I didn’t have a clue how to end
Not My Thing, Or So I Thought - Chapter 4
Not My Thing, or so I Thought – Chapter 4   I couldn’t really leave him there without supervision.  I wasn’t worried that he might die because I didn’t give a shit.  Well, I did care if he died before I found Madeline but otherwise he meant nothing to me.  My biggest fear was that one of his friends might find him and set him free so I had to do something quickly.   I went shopping for the essentials and got back to the house in less than two hours.  Nothing had changed.        I spent the next five hours installing the items I’d picked up.  I put new dead-bolts on the exterior doors, security lights on each of the approaches to the house and most importantly web based video cameras that allowed me to monitor the front and side entrances.  I also put a peephole camera through the master closet floor so that I could watch Dirk.  For the most part he was quiet except when I made too much noise and he tried to attract attention to himself by shouting. 
Not Mine But A Song I Really Like "the Highwayman" Lyrics, "loreena Mckennitt"
The wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty treesThe moon was a ghostly galleon tossed upon the cloudy seasThe road was a ribbon of moonlight over the purple moorAnd the highwayman came riding,Riding, riding,The highwayman came riding, up to the old inn-doorHe'd a french cocked hat on his forehead, a bunch of lace at his chinA coat of claret velvet, and breeches of brown doe-skinThey fitted with never a wrinkle; his boots were up to the thigh!And he rode with a jewelled twinkle,His pistol butts a-twinkle,His rapier hilt a-twinkle, under the jewelled skyOver the cobbles he clattered and clashed in the dark inn-yardAnd he tapped with his whip on the shutters, but all was locked andBarred;He whistled a tune to the window, and who should be waiting thereBut the landlord's blackeyed daughter,Bess, the landlord's daughterPlaiting a dark red love-knot into her long black hair"One kiss, my bonny sweetheart, I'm after a prize tonight,But I shall be back with the yellow gold before the mo
Not Meant To Be
It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you wanted from me And knowing that if I give that to you I might just disappear Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I, I can't change your mind I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe That's theres no way out for you and me And it seems to be the story of our lives Nobody wins when everyone's losing
Not My Fault
just saying
Not My Mom, Not My Problem
Dear Ninja,I have a funeral to attend this for my wife's mother-in-law who is not my mother. Her ex is making her do all the work. Should I be a prick and tell him off at the funeral ~spsaudit   Dear Spsaudit, Are you freaking kidding me? Her EX-husband's mother is NOT her responsibility AT ALL. Your wife needs to put her foot down and make him be a man. If they were still married, I could understand her letting her current husband ask her to do the arrangements, but EX??? What's REALLY going on between them that he feels comfortable enough to do that crap? If she won't put an end to the personal relationship with the ex husband, you may want to reconsider your role as her current.
Not My Friend
Help me breathe,Help me believe,You seem really glad that I am sad.You are not my friend,I cannot pretend that you are.You made it sting,Your voice is ringing,Just like the boyswho laughed at me in school.You are not my friend,I cannot pretend anymore.You found a place,No one should ever go.I'll be ok,'cause when I back away,I'm gonna keepthe handle of your gun in sight.                                                      ____By  Norah Jones
Not Much To Say...
  nuff said
Not Meant To Be
Not Meant 2 Be It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you wanted from me And knowing that if I give that to you I might just disappear Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I, I can't change your mind I know it's like trying to turn away one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe That's theres no way out for you and me And it seems to be the story of our lives Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I, I can't change your mind I know it's like trying to turn away one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're
Not Much Better, For Real....
OK, a lot of you have been wondering whatever happened to me. The truth is, this has been the worst year in a very long time. Many of you know I had a wonderful job here that was not only fulfilling, it paid quite well. Well, in April I was told that not only was the job changing and most of the fulfilling aspects were going away, most of the salary was, too.   As in a 65% salary cut and a 25% cut in commissions.  And they were remaking my service position into a mostly sales position. And they cut the commissions.   I ended up taking a new position that ended up with an $800 per month cut in pay, but still better than losing $1800 per month.... Needless to say, the changes have been depressing...and the other half has been less than supportive...
Not My Destiny
I dont know where I stand in life,I Dont know who I am;My haunting past is a part of me,That so Long ago took its stand;I want to know My destiny, I want to know the truth, But lately it has been Difficult, No light seems to shine through;The darkness set upon me,Is binding me like chains,Invisible to the Naked eye,But they get tighter by the day;They pull me closer to depression,The light keeps traveling further away,These chains are pulling me under,God, Save me!I silently pray;I'm pushed down to my knees,As my body becomes weak,I'm left here all alone,Drowning in my Misery;The tears fall from my eyes,as I silently cry,The pain is so emmense, Sometimes I just want to die;I wipe away my tears,As I struggle to break free,Break free from these Wretched chains,that are constantly binding me;I scream out to the silence,"This is not the life for me,God save me from this life of hell,This is not my destiny;But the Silence becomes stronger,As I once again begin to weep,Tears streaming down m
Not Much
So I went to the chiropractor today.  Nothing really big happening. The only thing he said is that he wants me to continue doing my exercises. He also told me he's ordering me a TENS unit. I can NOT wait for that. It feels amazing!!   Also, I didn't take my first pill for pain until it was about 7pm. I'm excited. I was walking really stupid though, lol.
Not Mine But Funny
FBI JOB OPENING... The FBI had an opening for an assassin. After all the background checks,interviews and testing were done, there were 3 finalists.Two men and a woman.For the final test, the FBI agents took one of the men to a large metaldoor and handed him a gun. "We must know that you will follow yourinstructions no matter what the circumstances. Inside the room you willfind your wife sitting in a chair.... Kill Her !!"   The man said, "You can't be serious. I could never shoot my wife."Then the agent said, "You are not the right man for this job. Take yourwife and go home."The second man was given the same instructions. He took the gun and wentinto the room. All was quiet for about 5 minutes. The man came out with tears in his eyes, "I tried, but I can't kill my wife."The agent said, "You don't have what it takes. Take your wife and gohome."Finally, it was the woman's turn. She was given the same instructions,to kill her husband. She to
Not Many
Not many things bother me at all about other people. I will accept almost anyone, even the handicap. Now that just isn't because I myself am handicap. I was helping everyone out, handicap or not, before I was handicap and I still am. I know there are alot of people that can't look past certain things, but this is how I look at it; they still have a heart and we all have basically the same color of blood. And that in itself is enough for me. It would be wonderful if more people thought like that. We all get a chill when we dont have a blanket covering us, when a blanket is needed. We all, each and everyone, need love of some kind. I know there are people that can't walk, I might not know the correct words to say, but I have been to where I have wished I could run. I feel bad even when I see someone I don't know walking perfectly past me. I know the pain, of seeing others run, playing football or a simple game of catch. I use to be able to do that and I would have taken more time to app
Not Naming Names, But You Know Who You Are
ok guys, here's a little rant. I know its easy to just go thru someone's pics and just rate them, yeah that's way too easy and less time consuming. so what's wrong with leaving a comment, a shoutout, or a greeting every once in a while. I do this for everyone that's on my buddy list. I take the time to rate, leave a comment or a pic comment, sometimes I wonder why I'm posting pics and no one checks them out. I got over 55 people on my buddy list and only get 4 or 6 commenting. I know some don't have the time to do it or its hard to get on a persons page because it freezes up on them. but come on, I do my best to leave comments on everyone and basically get nothing back. I started deleting people that never do anything but they post pics and I comment, never getting any love back. its a 2 way street here and its a courtesy to do the same and show some love. I know I'm still in a bad mood after my duck was murdered by my neighbors dog and I will avenge the deaths of all 4 of my do
Not No Game
Come vote on my page and add me as a friend.
Not Needed....
Guess ya have to live and learn...that some things are not needed...Well what was not needed in my life...Another asshole...well now am going back on the wagon..and not letting assholes get the better of me...Do it once shame on you it twice..shame on me...well that will never happen again...So For the Assholes...YOU suck and am MOVING ON...Have a NICE life
Not Nice
Its not nice to call other people crazy. . .*looks pointedly at a particular member of her family*
Not Named Yet...any Ideas
You don't know how I feel yet. You may not even know you feel it. One of the emotions that sneak up on you. Make you feel warm inside when you see the person. Gives you the sweaty palms when they take your hand. Become tonguetied when they want to talk to you. Draw a blank when they ask you a simple question. I have only felt this once before Praying that this one is the one true love I'm suppose to be blessed with.
Not Nice
Shes a level 3, bout 35 friends, and bout a dozen fans. She likes to rate a 1. heather_lee@ fubar
Not Necessarily A Joke
A few years ago, there was a show called Not Necessarily The News that I liked to watch.  On it, they would have some fake commercials, such as this one for a home drug test: The joke is, of course, that you can buy home drug tests now, such as this one from    Sad, isn't it...tag: humor, satire, parody, drug, drugs, drug test, commercial, video-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!Join me at Fubar.comExplode the money myth at:Get paid to surf the web with
Not Nsfw
sorry if my boobs offend u but this pic is not nsfw there is no full nudity and there is a full face shot...sorry about ur luck read the bible..and i will kindly give u pointers how to expand your chest naturally without getting fake ones if u need them that badly..HAPPY NEW YEAR
Not Notice
do you ever feel not notice feel like that every day in my life even when i have some one i just want some one to notice i am still a living human being when i was preg no one really care afraid to be with a guy really i wish i was ok love guys but i think my fear toke over how would i know that i wont get fuck over again i was afraid to talk to my hubby about shit cuz i wanted to not tell him shit i wanted him to know shit but i wont tell him but it my fault i drove him and every one i know away cuz every one i love dies or fucks me over so i just wait when i am not happy i norm just stay in a room by myself all day wtf should i do oh ya have your heart broeken into two
Not New
Hello, just a little bit to start off. I am not new to the site.. I was a member for a while, but decided to start fresh since i hadnt logged in for so long.. Wow I'm so lost. If ya wanna get to know me just talk to me, I'm very laid back and talk to anyone. Feel free to request me as a friend/fan me or whatever it is you do, I do return favors, if i catch them, if I havent remind me please.
Not New - Just News (i'm Sure The Central American Natives Have Known This For Centuries)
Salvia is being targeted by lawmakers concerned that the inexpensive and easy-to-obtain plant could become the next marijuana. Eight states have already placed restrictions on salvia, and 16 others, including Florida, are considering a ban or have previously. "As soon as we make one drug illegal, kids start looking around for other drugs they can buy legally. This is just the next one," said Florida state Rep. Mary Brandenburg, who has introduced a bill to make possession of salvia a felony punishable by up to five years in prison. Salvia divinorum is a species of sage (the genus Salvia). There are approximately 1000 species of Salvia worldwide, but Salvia divinorum is the only vision-inducing species known. Salvia is a member of a very large family of plants known as the Labiatae. Because mint is a well-known member of this family, it is sometimes referred to as the mint family. Salvia divinorum makes a beautiful house plant, and it can be grown just for that reason, but most peopl
Not Not An Attention Whore
You Don't Need Extra Attention You're perfectly happy with who you are, and you don't need attention to feel good about yourself. You prefer to let your actions and accomplishments speak for themselves. Working hard to get people to like you is your idea of a nightmare. You've got a lot going on, and anyone with half a brain will notice that on their own! You come across as: Confident and serious People may wrongly think you're: Stuck up and shy Are You An Attention Whore?
Not Nice!!!!!!!!!!
Chris is making fun of my attempt to type with two hands. Its so on in the parking lot!!!!!!!!!!!
Not Nice...
Why do people have to be so mean? So what I spelled the word Decisions on my mumm...Try moving to another country and learning a whole new language...then tell me how good of a speller you would be? I work 24/7...Paying for my college all myself... But people dont care about how hard I try... It amazes me how many assholes the world has..
Not Nagging..."starvin For Progress"
I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO MY SON AND, maybe my daughter getting their relationships on. My son's first choice was not someone his own race but KOREAN! WOW... I was tickled pink (it doesn't go good with a sallow yallow complexion either) Iimagined the outcome in offspring.... thumbs up! Unfortunately, he lost the girl when my daughter smashed into him bitchin about "how come she ain't no black girl".... "GARCIA" ain't no black name...they ain't exactly black EITHER. That dummy could not sit on command. So nw I;m hoping he comes out of the doldrums about his first ideal for family and life was thrown and blown by his big sister. She... his "know it all" sister, has children by no on eshe really wanted. FINE TUNED LIFE PLAN right? She can dictate to her brother but could not get her own thing straight. That's it from a muthuh. I'm partial to that attitude about relationships myself. Other than a different ethnicity, she had a good to get along with personality... was pretty good people an
Not Nsfw Lol
I personally think the human race stinks! nothing but liars and thieves and back stabbers! there i said it
Not Named
Looked in her eyes today saw something great Lost what I was going to say now I'm in a shy state Simple moves now majestic strides all done with style Changes me like the tides from deep from to giant smile Sit and dream all through class wondering if she feels the same I really like that little lass but I fear my shame Maybe someday my words will peak we'll talk for sometime Then I won't feel like such a geek or act like a bad mime
Not New
Hello everybody. I am not new to fubar. Just wanted to start again, it will tak awhile before my level 26 fubar profile goes anywhere lmaoooo plus I can't uplaod anymore pics on that one because no VIP anymore.
Not 'nough Said
Ok I thought I was done..maybe I am. I should probably preface any statements I might make by saying that I am divorced and widowed...Does that make me a two time loser? Probably. But what the heck, noone listens to me anyhow so why not spew to you. I'm not an opinionated jerk, by the way.  I have one, you have one, That obnoxious guy druling in you drink probably has one. I think mine is right, you think yours is right, he probably thinks his is right. If you can live with that, so can I...Deal? I know the primary pic is a little goofy looking, but I'm looking to have fun's a bar...hello!!!! Take me as I am or leave me alone, I can get just as drunk without you...but I need you to get L@!D :-) Machinery aside that is..... I know, your thinking, when is he going to shut-up already...... Soon Don't get the wrong impression, I don't want to just fall into bed with the first woman I see...Well I'm a guy,,,,OF COURSE I DO,,,but I would prefer to share intimacy with a w
Not Necessarily Nsfw
Not Needed
Hello Fubar users, My name is Preciousredhead, and i am the nicest person that you will ever meet. if your looking for a down to earth kind of girl. you have come to the right place. i can be decent and sweet. I have very low tolerance for fakers on here. If your charming, and you like to flirt i don't have issues with that. You telling me about your problems is one thing, but when you lie to me about who you are, and think that all will be fine. You got me mistaken. I will not only block you, but i will be your worst nightmare. I got woken up by a person who i thought was kind and sweet till, one day he showed me his true colors and decided to fake me out and thinking his dad was dying. i actually believed him and thinking oh i feel sorry for you. well guess what the true color that he showed was the one where he wanted my account # to my bank and my address, and everything else that came along with it. If you are a hard worker and that, then why ask me to help you. Oh that's
Not On As Much
hello my friends, I am not on as much anymore. I work night shift and sleep during the day. But, that doesnt mean I have forgotten any of you. you are always on my mind and in my heart. So dont think I am ignoring you, because I am not.
No Touchy!
Please to be stopping from to touching my buttocks.
Not On Here Alot
?s crackin fellow cherrytap people?? Im not really on here 2 much. But if u have a myspace feel free 2 add me, Im on there more.. Look me up under my email... Well have a great weekend and I'll holla @ yall later, Audi 5000 =)p
Not On The Air, But I Have A Rant Anyway
No Tomorrow
NO TOMORROW there is no tomorrow without you today you tried to walk out i begged you to stay you took all your things and fled in the night i watched as you ran deep into the night i ran after you with anger, insane you shouted at me "what was there to gain?" i leapt on your back and so you did wrangle by clutching your throat and you i did strangle as i stood over you the words i did say "there is no tomorrow, without you today"
Not Original - But I Like It
The Rules for 2007 New Rule: Stop giving me that pop-up ad for classmates. com! There's a reason you don't talk to people for 25 years. Because you don't particularly like them! Besides, I already know what the captain of the football team is doing these days: mowing my lawn. New Rule: Don't eat anything that's served to you out a window unless you're a seagull. People are acting all shocked that a human finger was found in a bowl of Wendy's chili. Hey, it cost less than a dollar. What'd you expect it to contain? Trout? New Rule: If you need to shave and you still collect baseball cards, you're a dope. If you're a kid, the cards are keepsakes of your idols. If you're a grown man, they're pictures of other men. New Rule: Ladies, leave your eyebrows alone. Here's how much men care about your eyebrows: do you have two of them? Okay, we're done. New Rule: There's no such thing as flavored water. There's a whole aisle of this crap at the supermarket, water, but without that w
Not Only Lust
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from In loving someone, I cannot tell, The thought of lust, A continous bell, Kissing and touching, Is this really love? Could we live without it? Is it something we're above? Do we need the touch of another, The caress of his lips, Those warm arms around us, When the cold winter nips? Could we deny pleasure, Or is that all we are? And if we went slower, Would we really go far? Would we hold on forever, And never let go? Or aren't you here forever? These questions I must know. For if you're here for love, I'll love you till I die, But if your here for only lust, Im sorry, goodbye. What does lust know of crushed dreams and broken memories, of tears like rushing rivers and endless waves of pain? Lust - focused on satisfaction in the present not acknowledging the past not concerned with the future except as it relates to pleasure
No Tomorrow
We give We take Everyday it makes No difference why We live For life We die No tomorrow No lies, only sorrow I’m scared for tomorrow No chance to remember No chance to forget What’s the point We die For life We try Always horror I live in horror Always horror I don’t sleep No one to trust Take a life For survival No body stops No body care No time Still in horror no time For sorrow No time till tomorrow I remember the horrors Just no chance to forgive No time to forget One day to sleep Before the last night I get I’m supposed to remember All I do is forget The lives that I took Give my life for tomorrow No tomorrow Only sorrow My life is horror
Not On Much
Hello ALL.........I miss being online on CT.....been very busy lately....Thanks for all the LOVE...
Not On Till Next Tues.......
cause im goin to a comic con in la & plan on meetin paul from kiss & gene for the third time....they are debutin a new comic book....hope to see other celebrities too.....includin stone cold...sat is st paddys friend & his band are playin.....guinness.........mmmmmmmm.....have funnnnn to all & have a cool weekend.....cheers...
Not Only Men Find Me Sexy
I am a member of an Over seas chat room wich covers the other half of this blue planet. And I posted on my profile that i was heterosexual. OK well then I am not angrey or pissed in any way fact is i am totally laughing this one. It would seem Men are not the only ones falling at my feet. Subject hi Sent 20 Mar 07:15 Dear lovely mistress, It’s one of my dreams to see you…. I’m begging you to accept me your faithful slave… My pleasure my real pleasure become when I beginning to worship your foot, exceptionally the toes, when I feel that my life belong to those delicious foot. when I spend my life under your feet, when I feel that I’m your slave the only slave of this fascinating tempting tantalizing sexy violent lady, when you deal with me like a queen and her servant with all kind of humiliations…. I would like you to dominate me…. to use me to please and serve you and to make me satisfy you by licking all your body…. From your lips to you neck to your breasts and the nipp
Not Ordinary
 Not ordinary Rousing in a trance of artistry encircled in a morning kiss shrouded by a halo of bronze hair and arms of milky, ivory caresses me to the bone. She flutters her hips back and forth blanketed by shades of sun. I beg her to come to me and fuel me up with her warmth. She’s so bewitching and she knows it there’s a sexual blush to her face- that makes me hard and possessive to draft her skin. She is far from ordinary everything about her vocalizes- of intimacy but I long to absorb her. Bathe deep in her beauty and claim her as my own. She boosts her breasts with both hands and teases her nipples with her fingers. My body itches to reach out and remove her hands and coast my tongue along- the cleft of her breasts. She kneels on her hands and knees and she moves up my legs and sits on my chest. Her lips in a sly smile as she enfolds my hardness in her hand. I exploded in seconds collapsing to the s
Not One Of My Offical Contests
but this one is fun to me so I want you guys to go there and vote and be creative with what you say, LOL I just think that its fun..and you can vote as many times as you'dlike I think it's really fun..I'm having a blast with it! Cherrytap pinup girl

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