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The Notebook
I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever.
Not Every Woman's Pussy Is The Same
No Tengas Nada En Las Manos... (*)
NO TENGAS NADA EN LAS MANOS... (*) No tengas nada en las manos ni una memoria en el alma, que cuando un día en tus manos pongan el óbolo último, cuando las manos te abran nada se te caiga de ellas. ¿Qué trono te quieren dar que Atropos no te lo quite? ¿Qué laurel que no se mustie en lo arbitrios de Minos? ¿Qué horas que no te conviertan en la estatura de sombra que serás cuando de noche, estés al fin del camino? Coge las flores, mas déjalas caer, apenas miradas. Al sol siéntate. Y abdica para ser rey de ti mismo. (*) Ricardo Reis Versión de Ángel Crespo
Notes From The Underground
When I first got involved in online communities like CT, myspace, etc, it really was all about friendship. It still is. I really and genuinely care about the people on my "friends" lists. And it's also a very cathartic thing for me, because I can stash all my photos, the things that are important to me, voice audition files, monologues, without cluttering my hard drive. And it keeps me out of the tavern which is always a good thing. I hate waking up with people I don't know, and while I have not done that in a long time, it's something I really don't want to deal with. Don't look so shocked. I'm as stupid as the next person, on occasion. I like to think I've gotten over that sort of thing and that I'm "above" it. And before you start thinking, "Aww...she just wants to be held..." lemme just disabuse you of that notion straightaway. I don't even like being held. I can't stand it, in fact, and I hate it so much that I am probably the only person you've ever met who has n
Notes From The Underground / The Sequel!
My brain is on and I can't turn it off. So back to the blog and more catharsis. I am not answering the phone today. It's wild outside and I can hear the screaming of the ban sidhe (ban-shee: An Irish supernatural spook otherwise known as the Wind). The rain is falling sideways, it's so wild out there. I live my life in a constant state of moral outrage. My mother says I have a "Low Misery Index". She's right. Little things bother me. A lot. (Insert WhackJob Divorced Therapist who says, "Does that interfere with your relationships?") One of the things I mentioned in the last Notes From the Underground is that I have little patience for 12 step programs. I just want to clarify and as usual, offense is practically intentional. Although there is some argument for these programs, namely that they work insofar as getting people to quit using, they are essentially, highly selfish and self-centered pursuits. The essence of what makes an "addict" is the inherent selfishn
A Note To Readers
this is for me, not you. i don't care if you like it or think it sucks. I want honest opinions and support would be nice =).
Note For Everyone
I just post 2 chapter of my novel and It is long way to get it done. if you read it and please comment it and let me know what do you think of my 2 chapter also It may not prefect with english .. any feedback.. please comment or message me. thank you everyone!
Note To Self
Note to self: shoveling driveway in the morning while wearing dress/work clothes and heels is NOT a good idea.
Note: These Are From High School, A Loooong Time Ago!
I found all of these old poems I wrote in high school. Boy! Was I fucked up back then! Some of them were pretty good, albeit dark and somewhat deranged. It's much easier to write in such a state, which explains why I haven't written any since those days! Enjoy.
The Note
He pauses, and stops just briefly enough to check his pockets. If he'd done it before, it wouldn't have been as shocking but he took his time like easy rocking. He goes to her door for a third time it seems, puts it in the mail shoot and slowly leaves. He knows she'll get it, does he know if she'll return the favour and mean it? This is one of those times he knows he'll slowly savor. He'll wait a few days, and hopefully she'll leave him another note and agree.
Note To The "new" Girl...
Jen, When two people are gone at lunch that is not a good time to go take a smoke break or chat it up in the back. I hope you were able to hear the irritation in my voice when I paged you for a call. I think if you didn't hear it you must have been the only one. --Juliette (who has seniority over your bitchy-ass)
Here is a note just to say I'm Missing you more each and everyday.And no matter how far away you may be your love will always be a special part of me.So as you read these words Remember this I Love You and its you that I Miss
A Note To My Best Friend
I only meant to love you Not to cause you pain To be the one you’d cling to Your sunshine after the rain I know my words have stung you I feel I’ve scared your heart I’ve cried myself to sleep Because we’re still apart My greatest wish is to be with you For your love my soul does yearn We both have make mistakes We still have things to learn Forgive me when I’m not myself Is what I ask of you? I miss the happiness we shared T ell me do you miss it too? We’ve been through a lot together And weathered every storm The reasons we have done this Was we meant each other no harm To be with you was a blessing It made me believe in love To cause you hurt or pain Is not what I thought of? I want only to see you happy To live a life of bliss I ask you with all I believe in To please let me do this Sadness is what I live with Because of what’s been done For me there will be no other My heart say’s you’re the one Each day I sit a
Note To Self.
Two roads... split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions. Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be. I wanted to be that breath of fresh air, When everything smelled so insincere. But this taste still lingers in my mouth, Deceit has ways of sticking around. And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far, seems far from here. Note to self: I miss you terribly. This is what we call a tragedy. Come back to me, come back to me, to me. Note to self: I miss you terribly. This is what we call a tragedy. Come back to me, back to me, to me. I can feel my mind, wandering again. Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home? Time starts moving, faster than I can. And I'm sick of this scene, I need a break from routine. I can feel my mind, wandering again. Into where I don't know, and will I ever get home? Time starts moving, faster than I can. And I'm sick of this scene, I need a break from routine. Two roads...
How I do Bombing is I write The Bomb!!! and copy you can do that 7 times the just add more !!!! each time ofter 7.....Please help a gal out TY...Kisses
A Note On The Determination Of Moons
A NOTE ON THE DETERMINATION OF MOONS The Moons here a determined by the following list, beginning with the first full moon after Yule. Many different moon names exist, and I've tried to provide a few alternates as well. • Wolf Moon {chaste, cold, disting, little winter, quiet, wolf} • Horning Moon {big winter, hunger, ice, storm, wild} • Storm Moon {crow, plow, sap, seed, wind, worm} • Seed Moon {growing, hare, planter's} • Hare Moon {bright, dyad, flower, frog, merry} • Meade Moon {honey, horse, dyad, lovers', rose, strawberry, strong sun} • Fallow Moon {blessing, buck, hay, wort} • Barley Moon {corn, fertile, grain} • Wine Moon {harvest, singing} • Blood Moon {falling leaf, harvest, hunting, vintage} • Snow Moon {beaver, dark, fog, mad, shedding, storm} • Oak Moon {big winter, cold, long night, wolf} • Elder Moon {Blue Moon - the thirteenth moon in a solar year, despite the modern notion that even the ancients called it the second moon in a month for our matrifocal
A Note From An Angel
You came into my life unexpectedly, and everything took a turn for the better. Your warm eyes, your laugh, the sincere way you speak, and the kindness you showed me, all became a part of my life. As you unfolded yourself to me, I discovered more and more beauty. I have never seen so much gentleness in one person. Without even knowing it, you were slowly making a place for yourself in my heart. It used to seem so hard at times to feel so close in a relationship. But it’s so easy to feel close to you. I can’t tell you how nice that feels. I realize now that I had never known what it meant to be loved until I was loved by you.
A Not Emo Blog?
The six guns loaded and im about to take a drive through the past on the road to redempotion. I ate subs today. They tasted ubber good. Yes i said ubber. Gotta problem with it, put it in the complaint box, i think its close to the north pole. Im entered in this contest for the sexiest male musician, Yall are gonna vote for me right? Even though im the fugliest you should vote for me cause your my friend and goonies never say die, or goonies never dont vote for their friend. somthing like that. Im not sure when the contest starts, but i will be sure to let you all know. Speaking of knowing, did you know that long island is the largest island in the continetnal united states! its true, my snaple cap says so.
Not Everyone Loves Raymond
I remember the exact moment when I knew my marriage was over with. It wasn't a fight, it wasn't a shocking discovery. It was laugh, a hearty chuckle. Let me explain. I was happily married for about a year. My husband and I got along fairly well, we enjoyed each other's company, and the sex was outstanding. After the first year, the sex was still top-notch, but we really couldn't stand each other outside of bed. And so we turned to television. We could both (sort of) toleerate the company of people on the screen, so we preferred them to each other. Mind you, I've never liked television. It was simply that I liked television more than I liked him, so I found myself on the couch a lot, watching shows that I couldn't stand. One night, while at the office late, I was chatting with a co-worker, telling him that I was about to leave and that I dreaded going home to the television. My co-worker, who knew of my marital troubles, asked what my husband was doing, and then cr
Notes On Gardnerian Witchcraft In England
Notes on Gardnerian Witchcraft in England by Frederic Lamond Since time immemorial, family witchcraft traditions in England have been concerned with: • Ensuring the fertility of the land, and • Protecting sacred sites from destruction or interference. Not all family traditions did both. There is no known link between any of these family traditions and Gerald Gardner. From here there are two strands to our history: Gerald Brosseau Gardner (GBG), an Englishman, and one-time rubber planter. • 1920: Gerald became a customs official in the British administration of Malaya. • In the 1920s: Gerald encountered the Sea Dayaks, a head- hunter tribe, and learned their spell-casting techniques. • 1936: Gerald retired to England. Around 1930: The Fellowship of Crotona, a Co-Mason lodge was founded in Christchurch, New Hampshire. Highly experimental, it practised Theosophy and Rosicrucian rituals, and had an inner core that was trying to reconstruct country witchcraft rituals
A Note To All You Men
Gentlemen take heed in these words...because i come bearing some words of wisdom to you...not of things i have done but from watching other ppl...I'm here to warn you of the consequences of doing wrong to your woman....let her go....dont try to hold on to the pieces...just let her go because there is nothing that you can say or do thats going to fix her broken heart....allow her to leave if she chooses too....dont hold her back because she dont want to love you no more so hold your tongue and let her walk away...if you dont give her that time she needs to allow her broken heart to heal then she will never forgive you for your transgressions against her if you dont give her this time and space she needs....she doesnt want to be around you so trust me when i say let her go...dont make things worse by giving her your petty excuses nor lame begging of wanting her to stay because you love her and cant live without her...gentlemen i tell ya...learn to think before you speak in these situatio
Notes From The Smackdown
The Smackdown was down and dirty!! Current mood: accomplished We had a great show last night, although, I really shouldn't kill off a whole bottle of Merlot in the process. Lol. However, Eric and Todd got into it and Andre made some wonderful points and even Dave chimed in passionately about education and the War. Unfortunately, we lost Tom due to phone issues, but having John from THE DEAD AIR SHOW on as our "color commentator" was a great idea! John really took the guys to task on the issues and he made sure to remember every word, which in turn, he threw back at them at later times making them accountable for each and every opinion given. Todd Andrew Barnett caused alot of commotion both online and on air. His views really polarized my audience and evoked alot of comments and emotion from all sides!! If you missed the special two hour show, well, you can catch it at and listen to the archive! You will be glad you did. Of course,
Not Enough ~ Our Lady Peace
There's nothing you can say Nothing you can do There's nothing in between You know the truth Nothing left to face There's nothing left to lose Nothing takes your place When they say You're not that strong You're not that weak It's not your fault And when you climb Up to your hill Up to your place I hope you're well There's nothing left to prove There's nothing I won't do There's nothing like the pain I feel for you Nothing left to hide Nothing left to fear I am always here When they say You're not that strong You're not that weak It's not your fault And when you climb Up to your hill Up to your place I hope you're well What you want What you lost What you had What is gone is over What you got What you love What you need What you have is real It's not enough It's not enough It's not enough It's not enough I'm sorry It's not enough It's not enough It's not enough It's not enough When they say You're not that strong You'
Note To All Entered In My Contest...
The contest will begin at 7:00 PM EST. Meaning, it will start in aproximately 2 hours and 10. minutes. I will try to send out shouts or private messages to all of those entered. Best of luck to all!!!! Anyone that is still interested in joining, Please send your link to me BEFORE 6:55 PM est. Thank you! BrattyBytch AKA GigglePuss
Note To Heart;;your Amazing
So I was talking to my beebee & I was talking to him about how I felt about him & he said can I say something? & I said yeah thinking oh shit something bad? Then he sent me a poem that he made. Truly blew me away cus I was speechless & said your weird lol. Him: So? lol. Didnt mean for that to come out like that. But it did. Basicly the poem was an I love you,Diffrent but I loved it. Ive always told him he has talent @ writting. Hes wonderful
£20 Note
The Twenty Pound Note A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a twenty pound note. In the room of two hundred people, he asked, "Who would like this twenty pound note?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this twenty pound note to one of you but first, let me do this". He proceeded to crumple the bill up. He then asked, "Who still wants it? Still the hands were up in the air. "Well," he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air. "My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth twenty pounds. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as
Not Enough Time
There never seems to be enough time to get everythign do. I work, go to school, have 2 children, and I am married. NO TIME FOR MY SELF. I dont seem to nothing done
Notes On Today
Today was fairly productive, i made a list of things to finish. and i finished almost all of them. "Cut down trees" was meant to be all trees, but when i took an hour to hack the first one, i decided that pulling the dead one out of the pot it was in and throwing it on the ground constituted 2 trees on the ground... so trees became the 2 rather than the 6. I mailed out the water bill, mailed out some Democratic survey, which part of me feels was just another way to ask for money. i mailed out a book to a friend in iowa, after writing something in side the cover, which wasn't the easiest to write, as i was trying no to bend the book. walking back from the post office i stopped off at this little hole in the wall Crepe place, and had a Ham, Cheese, and mushroom Crepe, which was delicious. ( most of the time hole in the wall places in san diego are Mexican food, so it sounds weird calling it that- just a little). I also came to the realization that playing the "Air Tamourine
No Tears
Under the blue skies of her native land She languished and began to fade. . . Until surely there flew without a sound Above me, her young shade. But there stretches between us an uncrossable line; In vain my feelings I tried to awaken. The lips that brought the news were made of stone, And I listened like a stone, unshaken. So this is she for whom my soul once burned In the tense and heavy fire, Obsessed, exhausted, driven out of my mind By tenderness and desire! Where are the torments? Where is love? Alas! For the unreturning days' Sweet memory and for the poor credulous Shade, I find no lament, no tears.
Notes On Self Initiation
(Originally Posted on May 10, 2006)First off, I found an easier self-initiation at Joy of Satan (the initiation is here). While it is easier, though, I will do the original (maybe incorporating the prayer onto one of the pieces of paper; I kind of like it).Now, the next New Moon is at 12:26am on 5/27 (the night of the 26th - a Friday). That is the day (well, night) I can get the handful of graveyard dirt. I know of two different graveyards I might try. One is down the street, but off of a busy street. The other is quite far away, but basically in an isolated area.I do worry that the police might find me. Even though this isn't technically illegal, it would be pretty bad to get caught. I also figure if I am asked why I am there, I can say that there's a folk remedy to remove warts that needs the dirt.(Actually, thinking on it I can think of a large cemetary nearby that isn't off a main road. I might use it.)So I get paid on 6/1, so if I need any more supplies I can get them then
Not Easy Being Green
I wrote a blog yesterday on going green -- ways to help conserve our natural resources. Because of that, I wanted to say a bit about where I'm coming from and why I wrote it. I am not here to quote a bunch of facts and figures. I think that you can find facts and figures to support just about any position you want. I try to be commonsense about my opinions. And that's all they are -- opinions. I honestly believe that we need to continue working to conserve our natural resources. I make no claims about when, exactly, those resources will be exhausted. But I think it's only common sense that they will run out sooner or later. Oil, for example, is an exhaustible resource. While I personally do not agree with ruining natural preserves to dig for oil so that some asshole can drive a Hummer, even if you do, how can you dispute that that oil will eventually be exhausted? Just ask the guys down in Texas who were rollin' in it in the 70's and 80's. Trees grow, and we can make mo
A Note To Special People
The Special People In This World Are The Most Precious And The Most Appreciated People Of All No Matter What Happens, They Always Understand. They Go A Million Miles Out Of Their Way And Hold Your Hand. They Bring You Smiles, When A Smile Is What You Exactly Need. They Listen, And They Hear What Is Said In The Spaces Between The Words. They Care And They Let You Know You're There In Their Prayers............. Special People Always Know The Perfect Thing To Do They Can Make Your Whole Day Just By Saying Something That No One Else Could Have Said. The Special People In This World Are The Most Precious And The Most Appreciated People Of All
Note To My New Special Person...
Love is something that is shared between two people who care for each other. It is something that is unexplainable when you love someone you want to be with them all the time when you are not with them you feel lost and out of place. You long to be with them. But what happens when that love is ripped away from you? You feel like dying the pain is so unbearable that your whole body aches because your heart has been shattered into a million pieces. You cry yourself to sleep at night. You cry when u hear a song that reminds you of them. Sometimes you just cry because you miss them so much. You put a fake smile on your face and pretend everything is ok even when it is not. You don't want people to know how u feel because you don't want them to feel sorry for you. When you are having a bad day you long for the one you love to be there and after they break your heart they aren't there. Then you wonder how you are going to survive life without him by your side. When she finally moves on it
Note,, To The Last Blog I Posted
To Those Of You I've Removed From The Family List Please Do The Same In Re-Turn...
A Note To The Men On Ct
I do NOT have a webcam I am not going to get one I do not want to see you jerk off on your webcam Please stop pushing me to watch your desperate attempt to get off It's not attractive And I've probably seen bigger dicks than your's It's pathetic to ask over the internet "do you like it?" "Is it the biggest you've ever seen?" "are you wet?" No, I am not wet Its like winning the special olympics, only you think you are the best, in reality, you're still retarded.
Note From Jade
Master owns my body, heart and soul He alone has total control Master has all my trust To Master i give all my lust my body is for Masters use Never would His pet refuse To my Master i obey Never causing Him dismay my kneel is proper, body erect showing Master all my respect my body open for Master to view offering always what belongs to You Ownership my Masters jewelry always worn Body naked and vulnerable as the day I was born Master holds the leash in His hand Silently i wait for His command On hands and knees to Him i crawl my Master, my One, He is my All In the glow of candles flickering light Master claims me on this night To love my Master is a given To please Him i am driven Master breaths the life in me And my life i give to thee He takes for i belong to Him my heart He does not have to win It has been His since first Wwe met Upon His lap happy am i to be His pet *let me give You comfort *let me bring You joy *let me spoil You each d
The Note Book
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Not Even 20 Minutes Later....
Scrapper's the man. Yes he is. Everyone needs to go buy the man a beer... hell, a KEG (since I can't), I didn't even have my problem for 2 hours... and he fixed it. No other site..... NOT ONE..... has admins that care this much, help this much, and have more patience than the ones here in CT. Baby J is on that list, too.... he damn rocks. And he put some awesome new features on the site today, most importantly, the Amber Alerts. I'm a happy girl.
Note To Self
Turn the TV off while trying to get anything important done that actually has time constraints. Cause, ya know, if Colin Farrell happens to make a guest appearance on a show and you aren't expecting it, and hear that charmingly lilting Irish accent, you will be compelled to watch and aren't gonna get anything done until that show is over. Sigh.
A Note
sence your reading my blogs and enjoying them rate them please most of my blogs 40 views 6 ratings ????? whats the matter dont like rating a persons work after you read it.. thats like going a casino and winning the jackpot with out putting money in the slot machine and not entering the casino. to the friends that do thanks for atleast putting a 10 down after reading my antics
No Tears In Heaven
No Tears In Heaven "No Tears In Heaven" Rose, they say there are no tears in Heaven, But that must be wrong today. Because you took a part of my broken heart, When you went away. I know my tears must have followed you, How else can it be? My Spirit feels broken, 'Cause you are no longer here with me. Lord knows I cried to the Heavens, my tears fell like rain. So, I know my tears must be in Heaven, Things will never be the same. Rose, they say someday I will accept your passing, But, right now that can't be true, Because part of me is in Heaven, My tears ....they followed you.... R.I.P buddy we will miss ya 02/14/88 /04-20-07
A Note
A NOTE TO SELF, I don't know what else to do. I am filled with emotions that wants to break free. All raw and intense. I have not let go of everything that happened to me as a child and through the years past. I have tried my best to forgive those that had harmed me and little family. Most of all, the 1 person that really needs forgiving is ME. How can you forgive yourself of all the decision made and choices taken. How can you forgive yourself when you have a chance to help others and yet for some strange reason couldn't. I have given all that I have to my kids and relatives(that speaks to me). All that I ask in return is a thank you or help in return. I am constantly giving money out when I barely have any for my own little family. Is there a thing really called karma. I just kept wondering if there is one. If there is then I wonder what i have done to cause such heartache and trouble. Maybe what I should do is half of the opposite of who I am. Maybe I should not care as much
A Note To Joan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seeing as I know your still looking at my pages or having someone do it for you. I figured this would be the best way to reach you. Instead of wasting my time trying to guess which bogus profile is you or trying to write you directly. We need to talk. Please contact me as soon as possible.You know my pages and I know you have my number. Just call before 10 o'clock. I want the bulshit to stop. No more empty words and No more FIGHTING!
The Note He Left
The Note He Left A wilted bouquet on my dresser drawer, A tattered note torn on the floor, A girl with tears running down her cheek, A boy with another girl to seek. Don't give me flowers, they'll only die, why tell Me you care if it's only a lie, I don't need that kind of affection Or that kind of play, just leave me alone, as you've always done. You hurt me too much to be the one!
No Tears
Not Exactly 'good' Friday But Close Enough... Months
Again... a full day, I want to lay my head down and just sleep... catchup on all that good stuff.. but my mind refuses to let it go. Why... WHY> I WANT TO SCREAM IT OUT. okay. not really but hey.. had u thinkin.. whoa... calm down.. :P I'm over tired, thats bout all... So um.. ya... I was going to write a poem.. but I need inspiration.! WHERE THE HECK DID MY INSPIRATION go to.... I need to find it... Why do people come and go in my life?? I mean the past year is crazy. I latch onto a person, open up to them.. find things about them to love, or that i just naturally love about them.. and then...pooof.. theyre vanished.. something I said, or done... or didn't say or do... grrr..... men. Are complicated!! I think I should swear off men for a while... AND its not AS IF>> I'm out looking for a person. I never do. And right from the get-go even after meeting them I'm like, I don't like you... lol its just in my mind.. and then...all of a sudden one day, off guard, I'm all hook, Line and
The Note
In the bottom of her dresser drawer we found a little note. He wrote it to her years ago the words he'd never spoke. The paper it was yellowed and worn from all the years. But the words he'd written on it had helped to calm her fears. It talked about there life together and the things that they had done. Bout raising up there children, and he was proud of what they'd become. About the place that they had built and the life they had shared. And how sometimes he didn't show it, but his love was always there. How he thanked the Lord above for the life he'd been givin'. And for having her by his side, he knew what it was to be livin'. In the bottom of her dresser drawer, we found a little note. He closed it with " I Love You", and that's what meant the most.
Note To Self:
Note To Self: WEAR PAJAMAS TO BED . . . .
Not Even Friends
Now I don't know you, and you don't know me. But, when my eyes are closed, you're all I see. You're my sun shining through the rain. But, you're the knife causing all my pain. You say things about me you know aren't true. But, all I say is that I love you. You said I was ugly to my face. These last two weeks I wish I could erase. I'm better friends with Josh than I am with you. All I want now is to end it, just be through. You were my best friend months ago. I try to hide my tears, but I know they show. And all you show me is that you don't care. When I miss you so much, this pain I can't bear. You stabbed me in the back; you should've ripped out my heart, Because now it is broken and I'm left in the dark. Killing me won't prove anything to you, But you won't notice, and what else can I do? There are plenty of fish in the sea, but you're the only one I'd like to hook. I loved you and you rejected me, but you didn't know it was my life you took.
The Note By Okieangel
THE NOTE by OKIEANGEL In the bottom of her dresser drawer we found a little note. He wrote it to her years ago the words he'd never spoke. The paper it was yellowed and worn from all the years. But the words he'd written on it had helped to calm her fears. It talked about there life together and the things that they had done. Bout raising up there children, and he was proud of what they'd become. About the place that they had built and the life they had shared. And how sometimes he didn't show it, but his love was always there. How he thanked the Lord above for the life he'd been givin'. And for having her by his side, he knew what it was to be livin'. In the bottom of her dresser drawer, we found a little note. He closed it with " I Love You", and that's what meant the most.
A Note On My Photos
I have been asked if I mind if some people grab some of my shots for wallpaper and the like , Thats fine but most of the photos are much higher rez than what you see on here .. when I upload a photo the site reduces them to a lower rez smaller file than what I get from my cameras. So if anyone wants a High Rez version just drop me a note with an email address to send them to and I'll send the full size photo.. note that you must use a email service that will allow large files ( 5 meg or better) Yahoo and Hotmail only allow 1 megs files if you use their free service.. Have Fun.. Paul
A Note On The Beginnings Of The Bofh (from Simon Himself)
The Revised, King James Prehistory of B.O.F.H Where it came from, How and Why... Here's the revised version in the light of various revelations. Where it came from: I was an Operator at the University of Waikato, back in the heady days when "Helpdesk" meant nothing, diskquota meant everything, and lives could be bought and sold for a couple of pages of laser printout - And frequently were. We Operators had powers verging on the Technical-SuperHero. On one hand, we had the SYSTEM and root passwords, on the other hand we had the excuse "Really? I didn't know DEL *.*;* would do that - I'm just an operator..". All the power and none of the responsibility. Good Times. You could do ANYTHING to a user and no-one would know. Well, they'd know, but they couldn't prove anything. Still, I was bored, and frequently annoyed. In the late 80s, I even started to get bitter and twisted in the self righteous way that people tend to get when they've got a cushy job. However, I had in my
Not Enough ( Women Only )
With you It's not enough To burn our nude, spent bodies In the fist of summer's heat Passion, welding us together Fusing us in oneness With you It's not enough To tangle our ribs, merged bodies In the branches of fall's geneology Limbs, twisting together Tying us in knots With you It's not enough To rock our twin, conjoined bodies In the cradle of winter's womb Hearts, beating together Lulling us to sleep With you It's not enough To pland our future, mated bodies In the fertility of spring's mind Lives, blooming together Growing us in love
A Note To Downraters
Most of us online are very secure with who we are. We lead a balance life for the most part. there are those of you who are either afraid, mean, or just so insecure with your selves you have to downrate others. You never know what is on the mind of the person on the other end of that rate, or humiliating comment. I find that most people feel the need to downrate to compensate for soemthing they are lacking. It gives them a sense of power or control. Well I hope you realize that soemtimes that power or control that you are seeking have devastating affects on some people. I know of 3 cases of suicide where the words typed, spoken, sent be email or the rating issued has pushed a person(s) over the edge. To some the internet is all they have. So the next time before you type those humiliating words, click the low rating number think about this can I handle being the one who played the final role is the suicide of another? I have a friend I met here on the net that will be buried next w
The Notebook
Wow, I just finished watching the movie, "The Notebook". That has got to be one of the best love story type movies I have ever watched. That movie sums up what I want to find, better than any amount of typing I could ever do. They had it all, love, passion, trust, communication, and it was unbreakable and never ending. It might be cheesy to alot of people, but that is the type of love that I hope someday to find. Through good and bad, they always had each other, even when they were apart, their hearts were not. If you haven't seen it and you like a good tear jerker, watch it, you won't be sorry. To all of those who have it, Congratulations and don't ever take it for granted, because there are some of us that might just search our whole lives for it.
Notebook Musings...
Yesterday I was feeling ancy for no apparant reason and took my notebook out onto the porch to watch the kids behind the house going in and out of the Cremeland parking lot licking eachother's ice cream cones. I pondered how simple it was when I was little. You licked your female friends' ice creams, but not the boys, lest we get cooties. I wish it were so simple still. Now I worry about catching mono from sipping the same straw as someone else or squatting above the public toilet seat because someone forwarded me a chain letter about how crabs can jump 3 ft. off a public toilet seat.. And apparantly they don't care that you've shaved off all your pubes, they'll find a home. I don't know where I was going with this, or if it had a destination at all.. I'll just sit here in left field and wait for another fellow writer to join me...
Note To Self
So yeah I'm single NOTE TO SELF: I LIKE IT THAT WAY Its seems like everyone I'm with makes me bored....It makes me laugh everytime. NOTE TO SELF: BE BORED ALL I WANT A couple people I dated either cheated on me or flirted with other girls when we were together. NOTE TO SELF: ALL MEN ARE DOGS IN SOMEWAY OR ANOTHER The relationships I was in was a joke, all they did was play these head games with me telling me they love me, or some even talked about marriage one day. NOTE TO SELF: RELATIONSHIPS ARE JOKES WAITING TO HAPPEN So I have no idea what I should do anymore, I dont know what to believe anymore. NOTE TO SELF: FORGET PEOPLE I'LL PROBALLY LIVE BETTER WITHOUT SOMEONE I'm starting to have a cold heart. I got to the point where I'm not even sad or depressed anymore. NOTE TO SELF: NO ONE CAN BRING ME DOWN I'm mad at the lies and trust people have made me believe. NOTE TO SELF: I DONT NEED DRAMA IN MY LIFE You know what I'm soooo
No Tellin For Sure.....
The Notebook
I just finished watching the notebook today. What a great movie. Is it just wishful thinking that I could find someone to love me like that? Someone who is that crazy about me. Does that kind of love only happen in the movies? I need to be loved like that. Where is my fairytale ending? I love this movie.
Not Exactly A Father-daughter Dance...
I've been having odd dreams lately. Mostly involving my father. Bit of history: my father and I have scarcely spoken in almost 6 years. He's my stepdad, technically, but he's the only father I've ever had, as I've never met my birth father. The cease-talking occurred when I moved in with my grandparents, citing the fact that I was treated like a prisoner because I had gotten pregnant at 16 and gave my son up for adoption at 17. My grandparents did not want me to discuss my moving in with them until it happened. That's what I did, and my relationship with my parents has been incredibly screwed since. My mom and I are better now, but my dad and I will probably never be the same again. In any case...Dad has been in my dreams lately. It makes me want to call him up, only if just to say hi. I feel like an ass because I never called him on Father's Day, but we NEVER talk. He never called me on my birthday, a few days after that anyway. I'm torn up about it, because I want to b
A Note
To all who have accepted Stacey as a friend....I am Stacey's friend,Katt,I run Stacey's page for him since he is currently incarcerated....if you would like to write to him you will find his address below...he is a great guy and needs penpals.... Katt My direct address Thank you for taking the time out for me and I'm looking forward to getting to know you. write me Stacey Taylor - J75560 k.v.s.p. B7-203U P.O. box 5102 Delano,Ca 93216 I will get a direct letter quicker than an email
A Note To Women
This goes out to all the women that say theres no good men left or why can't they find a good man. Chances are the reason you can't is because you've probably already met him and broke his heart, you never gave him a chance, or he has been hurt by so many other girls he has turned in the asshole women seem to think everyguy already is. So the next time you have a choice between plain old Joe Schmo or Mister hottie with a body or money or a cool car, think about this. Will the good looks, or the money, or the cool cars treat you good and appreciate you and make you happy? So the next time your bitching to that guy thats "too good a friend" about all the guys that hurt you, the whole time he's being a friend and listening to your problems, chances are he is thinking to him self "I wouldn't do that to you, but you won't give me the chance to prove that".
Not Even Close
Ever get that feeling you aren't where you are supposed to be? Right now I feel about a million miles from where I should be. And I am such a nerd that I looked up how far away the moon is from the earth. Turns out its only 382,000 or so miles. So a Million Miles would put you out just past the moon. but I haven't felt at home in over a month. No one knows why, I kinda do But you don't care. Still need that job I was blogging about a minute ago. Also If any one knew a good job Company to apply for online. I speak English, and have a degree in General studies. I am a prety good typer. Blah Blah Blah I don't wanna wake up like I did today ever again. I want everything to be different. And I don't even mind having to work for it, if some one would just tell me where to go, and what to do when I get there.
Not Eating...
“Not eating meat is a decision, eating meat is an instinct.” Denis Leary
Note For When I Get Online Again
Right now Im upstairs at my friends house using her 'puter.. But when I get back online I will have some very NSFW pics that i will be posting. Sorry but they will be for family only since they are the type they are.... Do not ask to be added to my family or you will be deleted. Those of you that are on my family list are safe and will not be removed. But for anyone else to be added you MUST buy me a 3 day blast or more....... no exceptions made. You dont like it hey dont bitch to me I dont give a rats ass. Thats my policy like it or not... This will just keep millions of people from seeing them. But I promise they are HOT.... So Im off to get my ratings up a little... kisses. I will be back online this coming week. kisses up high and down low...
Not Everyone Who Shits
1. Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy 2. Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend 3. And when you’re in deep shit, it’s best to keep your mouth shut!
Not Enough
"Not Enough" Wake up your life You may never get the chance to make things right Rather than lie Take a moment to reflect on what's gone by It's a mistake There's no reason I should be so full of guilt Significant break So you severed all the ties that we have built All I know, even though Tried to give you what was left of me But it was not enough Didn't think about the rest of me That it was not enough Tried my hardest with the best of me But it was not enough Tried to give you what was left of me But it was not enough All mixed up inside And it's easy to forget what we should be It's useless to hide I can see to the heart of your insecurity All of this time Blaming others for the cause of what we've lost Nothing sublime I must overcome no matter what the cost [Chorus x1] Please give back what s not yours to have It's the only thing that I've got left Never was enough to satisfy And I'm left empty [Chorus x1] Tried to give you what was le
Note To Self....
Life is all about inventing, reinventing, learning, loving, and letting go. Some things are harder than others but knowing when to do them is the key. Learn something new every day, and know loving isn't always easy, letting go can be the hardest thing you will ever do, invention can be fun and reivention even more. But remember this, Be who YOU want to be. Dont let others define you and do what is necessary to keep yourself true. Just dont intentionally trample on others in the process. Also never burn bridges, you never know if you will need to retrace your steps.
A Note To You
so here we are not quite alone but together just the same heart in hand and fingertips to take our breathe away to laugh to love it is no crime to breathe to give to dream to dance give me this moment just take a chance an ounce of ambition a drop of courage one word one moment and the notion to own it
Not Easy At All! Everyone told me after Virgel shot himself that it would take a little time before I was over it. How does someone get over something like that? One minute he's here playin with my kids and hangin out and the next he's all over the news and the papers for killing himself. And ofcourse the papers and the news make him sound like a bad guy, if they had only had a chance to know him, they wouldn't say such cruel things. Virgel Gilseth was young and had his whole life ahead of him, and because of one stupid night, it's all gone. now all I have are my memories, and the fact that I can sit here and say I was ucky enough to have been a part of his life and vise-versa. R.I.P Virgel...I'll miss you forever!!!
Not Enough Me
Oh shit! I’ve done it again... Too little of me For all of these men Attention I like A skank I am not When I get overwhelmed I claim I forgot To call which one back? Hell I don’t know! Can you not read? Doesn’t it show? My crazy ass Can’t seem to keep track Of my many “friends” Who admire my back Ironically, though I don’t have to kiss Touch or have sex For them to want this Poisonous female They just don’t see coming I don’t ask for much So why give them loving? Admiration I crave Sex I do not I have one to turn to When I start to get hot Down in my pants You know what I mean Don’t try to act Like YOUR mind is clean!
Note To Self....
Ironing shirt before work = good. Ironing thumb in process = bad. Ouch.
Not Enough Hours In The Day
Have you ever realized there is not enough time in the day. I used to sit behind a desk and count the hours until five. I would swear that from 3 to 4 took like 7 hours in itself. Now that I am unemployed in Greenland (Princess Bride and if you didn't know that you suck) the day goes by so fast. I have tons of shit to do and not enough time to do it in. Its like how the weekend takes for fucking ever but saturday and sunday fly by like it was no time at all. Pisses me off. Guess I just need to buck up and stop sleeping till that was for you Annon.
Note About Some Photo Albums
I decided to move some photos and change some of my photo album settings which were once viewable to everyone, now they're only viewable to FAMILY ONLY. I'm very picky when I accept people to my family list. If I send you a family request, you're of course not obligated to add me back, but that just means I think highly of you. (If I haven't done this yet, it doesn't necessarily mean I DON'T think highly of you, it most LIKELY means I just haven't gotten to it yet LOL) You're welcome to try adding me to yours, I may surprise you and add you to mine in return :) Just wanted to give a heads up in case anyone wonders where some of the albums disappeared to. I didn't delete any of them.
A Note Of The Absurd
Some consider me 2 be rather a hard ass of sorts im sure and its even been revealed 2 me recently that i come off az "intimidating". This iz an odd notion 2 me...i dont mean harm toward anyone. But i do think this haz made me realize something about myself in relation 2 the world of people around me.... In wanting 2 help people 2 grow 2 see and reach their full potential, u can also eazily and accidentally remind them of what failurez they can be az well. Yes my wayz are mad...and my behavior even more maddening. Therez no doubt Im obsessive so much 2 the point i rarely sleep simply becuz my brain wont stop weaving thought after thought of one problem leading in 2 thought of a nother problem needing a solution. So why are other peoplez failurez a problem that i should nurture, and especially when i can barely hold the weight of my own worldz problemz? I can pull u out of the mud, but u have 2 grab the rope i threw u 2 help yourself out(or yes i will yank the rope back and throw
No Tears
The pain will eat away at me. But I cannot cry. I hurt so much that I can't be. But I cannot cry. I drown in a sorrowful sea. But I cannot cry. The pain won't leave on this page. I pray for the tears to come to break me free of this cage. I scream. I shout. I kick. I rage. But I cannot cry. Everything inside me has dried, So I cannot cry. I wish the darkness to subside. Yet I cannot cry. Somewhere, a part of me has died. But I cannot cry. Sweet tears that never came. That tells me I care, tells me there's an end to this nightmare. Tells me it won't always be there. Why can't I cry? Emptiness has made me hollow. But I cannot cry. The hate's grown too much to swallow. But I cannot cry. You and I may die tomorrow. But I cannot cry. The world has made me numb to pain. I cannot cry.
hey whats up first time on here so dont know what really to do on here so can someone help me if i need it ok thanks i am looking for friends
A Note For My Dad!
Dear Dad, I've been thinking about you alot lately. As if there was a time that I don' I miss you so much! It's almost 4 yrs. since I saw your smiling face or got one of your famous hugs.=( Life has been hard on me lately but somehow I'm getting through it all. I think it's because I have the best angel in Heaven watching over me!=) It's the same soul that lived in your body here on earth! I wished I would of told you alot more how much you meant to me and how greatful I was to have you as my dad. I know I did get to tell you these things but I just wished it was more. I wished I would of spend more time with you when you was feeling good, before we found out you had cancer. I know that I visited alot but it should of been more! I asked you one day b4 you was really sick if you knew how much I loved you and how much you meant to me and you said yes that you did. Remember I told you that I would never be able to really show you how much cuz it would take atleast 10 life times to sh
Not Easy
Its easyto losetrack sometimes, and I guess that I have. I just want to say thank you for those that are true...I wish I could be everything for everyone, but I can't. Its a hard thing to want to be everyhting to everyone, and if you ever have to deal with that, then you will know what I am talknig about. It s hard enough to be all that... for yourself alone. You can't...Love you...LOL
Not Every Night
every night, you come to me then leave me to sleep. every other night, you come with roses then leave me to sleep. every two nights, you come with candles then leave me to sleep. every three nights, you come with silk bed sheets then leave me to sleep. every night, you come to me, then leave, then come back for more.
Note Of Thanks
Just wanted to say thanks to all who sent me such wonderful birthday wishes and for all the great gifts. Really appreciate all the love. You guys are the best. Free Comment Codes Free Graphics & Comments Codes
Not Enough Time It Seems
going back to school after 25 years has been alot of work , I have so little free time its not funny . But I guess it beats getting a job :) so hope to get some more time soon maybe even get a little time to go on line for a little while . laters
Not Enough Time...
It always hits hardest that there's never enough time when you run out of it, and miss out on something important you should've done. I lost someone I cared about this morning. I don't think I ever told her that I loved her, that I appreciated that she accepted me completely, and all the other things she's done for me over the last 9 years. When I first met her, I was dating her son, she was an alcoholic and we didn't exactly hit it off. Then her husband had a stroke and my son was born shortly after. She decided to make some changes. She stopped drinking. Then, she opened her life to me and brought me into the family. Even though her son and I were no longer a couple, she never made me feel like an outsider. She wanted to have a better relationship with Isaiah, to be a better (grand)parent than she'd been when her kids were small. She took so much on herself, helping me when I needed it, even though she had an ill husband at home to take care of as well. The last 2 years, s
Not Enough Room For Family
I am feeling a little bad, because i dont have enough room for family members. Being a family member is the only way to access the lovers album, which means if i want to add someone new, i have to take someone off :-( This does not mean i dont want you as family anymore, I just dont have the room. luv ya's all
A Note To Say I Love You
I want to say I love you, but alas you are not here, Else I would take you in my arms and whisper in your ear I'd call to say I love you, send my greetings down the phone, But my call dont go that far I'd write to say I love you, but the method is too slow, It's the instantaneous feeling that I want you to know. So this is to say I love you, and it comes straight from the heart My thoughts forever with you, even though we are apart.
Not Enough Yet
At the moment I have either 14 or 16 depends on how you count. And yes I have plans for at least a few more, but never say never. That could bite you. peace, people
Note To All
I probably shouldn't be allowed Mountain Dew this hour of the day. It seems it promotes semi-insanity and delusions of grandeur in me. Oh and massive blog posting too. Well, there are no delusions. I'm pretty much cooler than Jesus right now.
Not Enough Hours In The Night Lyrics
Not Enough Hours in the Night Lyrics Sometimes I wish there were no windows in this room The sun comes pouring through those curtains Way too soon Reminding me it's time to rise and shine But you look so good lying there In that old T-shirt of mine Chorus: There's not enough hours in the night Not enough time to hold you tight How time flies when you are in love We lay down and the sun comes up I wish that I could set that clock To moonlight saving time When it comes to loving you Theres not enough hours in the night They say two people just can't live on love alone But girl, if we die trying, what a way to go I think I'll call in and say I'm running late Hang a blanket on the window And steal an hour from the day (Chorus) I wish that I could set that clock To moonlight saving time Cause when it comes down to loving you There's not enough hours in the night
No Tears
Remember him with a smile today He was not one for tears, Reflect instead on memories Of all our happy years Recall to mind the way we spoke Of all the things he said His strength, his jokes, the way he laughed, Remember these instead
A Note
Hi to all my friends that actually care about what is going. I will be going in for surgery on the 19th. Will be offline for a few days but when I am back I wil stop by here and let everyone know what is going on and how I am doing! I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving! I may or may not be out by then.
Notes Taken For War Video
Yep, there is a video I'm gonna be making for the song war. During a successful meeting to discuss this with my friend and camera fiend Mike I took some notes. I decided for those who are fans of the project I'd give a heads up as to what you have in store: I'd not had that many beers I guess.
Not Every Pain Hurts.
Not every Pain Hurts. When you have the wiil you learn to forgive and to forget you have to,collect the broken pieces and humble hearted stand up from the place you hide if i wouldn't know to miss anything it couldnt hurt me no more mistakes tough to build life from the ashes,that fell down to ground. with any pain it wouldn't be the same experiences made me strong. Not every pain hurts deep inside whwn you learn to devide don't fear the danger follow your heart to the light live your dream and live. when you listen to your self don't always expect to find understanding it takes time you may loose your faith but don't be afraid to find the solution that heavy wasn't my load that i wouldn't also try to carry yours my burning heart-umbearable! my optimistic mind -collapsed! without any pain it wouldn't be the same experiences made me strong. Not every pain hurts deep inside when you learn to devide dont't fear the danger follo you heart to
A Note From One Of Santa's Elves
Hi, I'm Grampy, Wise Old Elf, adopted Elf Buddy of Sassy. Known around the Village as "Mr. Brains." I am one of the Elf Elders and have traveled around the world with Santa on several occasions. I speak every language there is, and often advise Santa Claus on issues that are important to the many cultures around the world. I also help young elves to learn about and respect these many cultures. My hobbies are surfing the internet and woodcarving. I actually carved my big cane when I was a young elf nearly 450 years ago. Santa has given us the word, Christmas is right around the corner. Everytime you go to bed and then get up the next morning, Christmas is one day closer!!! We elves are very busy making all sorts of things for Santa to deliver on Christmas Eve.  We can't make any promises but we sure will try to make you what you want. This is the best time of year for us. We love making toys. The bigger Santa's list is, the faster we work and the faster we work...the more fun we have
Not Enough
There aren’t enough words To express how much I love you Not enough ways To show you how I care Not enough laughter And good times to wish you Not enough wonderful moments To share A million bright mornings Would not be too many Long evenings forever Would still be too few For I need you and I love you So much that it seems There aren’t enough days In a lifetime with you
Note To Self
this is where you stopped
A Note To My Friends
We all see the drama and the negative stuff but you know there is so much good stuff also that happens on fubar....Today I saw it not that I dotn see it everyday but today i saw alot of love I need so many to get to the next level and my dear sisters from THE SISTERHOOD came right up like a calvary and got me levelled well along my journeys I made a new friend and the sweet guy only need a little to level f.a.r him the whole bit and still needed help so i called on a couple of my family members that were on and you know they were right there to help me. You all are awesome and I dont knwo what I would do with out each and everyone of you. So all I am going to say is this WwW.SparkleTags.Com WwW.SparkleTags.Com
A Note To A Friend
I stand before you as a friend in pain, My once happy relationship no longer well, What used to be blissful and heavenly, Is now more sullen than hell. As you may remember, Just two months past, I had met a wonderful guy, And had wondered if it would last. You know how bad love has been to me, How every time it has wounded my heart, And yet I try again and again, And again love and I soon part. This time it felt different, As if it was somehow stronger, It seemed like this would last, Yet it did not last any longer. As I try and think of what went wrong, Of why it did not last, I come to find it was my fault, That I was such an ass. I could have done a lot different, I could have done it right, I could be sleeping soundly, Instead of staying up all night. I wonder if there's still hope, If I call him would he listen, I wonder if I told him sorry, How much of him I am missing. Would he stay on the phone, Long enough for me to say, That I long
The Notes In The Jar...enjoy The Romance
Here are SOME of the notes I put in the jar... Leo's and Libra's are both romantics at heart and have one of the highest love compatibility matches. The Libra will provide the emotional nourishment that the Leo needs and the Leo provides the Libra with the protection and leadership they desire. Together they understand one another well. The only problems that occur in this relationship is when one may try too hard to please the other. A relationship between these two is one that will last forever. The average engagement lasts 6 months. Two out of five marry their first love. One in 5 men proposes on one knee. The word honeymoon first appeared in the 16th century. 'Honey' is a reference to the sweetness of a new marriage and 'moon' is a bitter acknowledgment that this sweetness, like a full moon, would quickly fade. It was believed that birds chose their mates on February 14th and because doves mate for life, they have become a symbol of fidelity. In 1970, brides
Notes From Cousin Steve's Book Report - Fascinating
Greenspan, Alan, The Age of Turbulence: Adventures in a New World, Penguin, NY, 2007. 17 People have an inbred need to interact with other people. It is essential if we are to receive their approval, which we all seek. The true hermit is a rare aberration. What contributes to self-esteem depends on the broad range of learned or consciously chosen values that people believe, correctly or mistakenly, enhance their lives. We cannot function without some set of values to guide the multitude of choices we make every day. The need for values is inbred. Their content is not. That need is driven by an innate moral sense in all of us, the basis upon which a majority have sought the guidance of the numerous religions that humans have embraced over the millennia. Part of that innate moral code is a sense of what is just and proper. We all have different views of what is just, but none can avoid the built-in necessity of making such judgments. This built-in necessity is the basis
Note: To The Kids & Noobs On This Site.
Due to recent "fu-Event's" I've observed. I felt it neccesary to remind a few of you of some things.
Not Enough
Today is the day before christmas eve... maybe i could be better if i do somethings my man wants, maybe i should just get a cell. or just leave here and go with him. i know i make him happy but my thoughts are killing me. who cares.... i will figure it out.
Note: Hotline
REJECTION HOTLINE! 206-376-9798 This annoyance brought to you bye: No Shittin you folks! Oh & Get over it day, is my kids bday! Flo-Rida
Not Enough
Wake up your life You may never get the chance to make things right Rather than lie Take a moment to reflect on what's gone by It's a mistake There's no reason I should be so full of guilt Significant break So you severed all the ties that we have built All I know, even though Tried to give you what was left of me But it was not enough Didn't think about the rest of me That it was not enough Tried my hardest with the best of me But it was not enough Tried to give you what was left of me But it was not enough All mixed up inside And it's easy to forget what we should be It's useless to hide I can see to the heart of your insecurity All of this time Blaming others for the cause of what we've lost Nothing sublime I must overcome no matter what the cost Please give back what s not yours to have It's the only thing that I've got left Never was enough to satisfy And I'm left empty Tried to give you what was left of me But it was not enough Didn
Note To All Men
Let that hair on your chin and upper lip grow in. It makes the perfect frame For your smile and grin. XOxo~.
Note: *smile*
Note2self: My Logo.
Not Euphenisms
i have swallowed glass i have inhaled burning insulation i have walked a whole day on a broken foot my apendix exploded in my abdomen i have been beaten and left for dead in the snow ----- i've been wound tight my muscles convulse at the dimming light i want to fight (can you hear it? he closes in )
Not Easy
So it\'s not gonna be easy. It\'s gonna be really hard; we;\'re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that, because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everday. You and me... EVERYDAY.
No Tears To Shed
A trickle of blood drips off his cheek and he thinks "The tears are getting worse" as it falls to the sink. When it splashes and makes a ripple, He looks up to the mirror and see's a reflection that isn't His own. He see's a man Broken, Confused, and Alone. Not sure where or who to turn to for help to make things clear. His face was drenched with tears, His hair was a mess and pointing in all directions, and it looked like he hadn't slept in days. Cold and nerve shot his body qauked in agony, wanting but barely a moments rest from the pain. None that looked at this man would realize that the mirror reflected his inner self. But this man would shed no more tears for it felt like he was dieing, So he wore a suit of shadows and just blended away the pain, Just to wlak in society a normal man, not broken, confused or lost. But with a sense of where he was going and who he was gonna see....
Notes From The Grave
Hello people, as I said before there are a lot of you I miss and some I don't, and I am quite sure the begininning of me forgetting some of you guys is starting to kick in. Right now I am dead tired. I have been doing a lot of running around here at work today and yesterday and I am sore as hell. Yesterday I help unload 6 pallets of dog food, that weighed well over 10,000lbs combined, and to top that off I had to take a dog that was DOA to necropsy, he weighed 130lbs and I pulled a cramp putting the body bag on him. Today, I've been helping haul in some furniture for our Associate Dean, and this shit has been difficult and frustrating moving and getting in to her office. All has not been lost, I finished the paperwork for a potential promotion for Vet Assistant, where I will be helping out Techs, Clinicians, and te Medical Records people, as well as doing some office work. The chance of doing something different has me motivated around here, especially at the thought of changing
Please note drinkin vodka mojito's in the am works !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Notes From The Grave
As if you cared but... As I have said in the past, I work with a retard, the guy is fucking irritating and the sooner I am promoted the better, cuz good God I don't know how much more of his shit I can take. Funny story, yesterday me and a co-worker, we were chilling checking out 2 second year chicks, that had some out of this world ass', I mean goddamn, anyways a 3rd year, from Trinidad, she catches us and then stands besides me and sees what we are looking at and goes, "So guys what are you two doing???" My co-worker responds and says we're just chilling, she just nods and walks off, funny shit, so when I get back to work, I run in to her and she says to, "So you're done chilling???" Personally I like her, but man her friend, from Trinidad too, she has an ass on her that makes me wanna cry. Enough with that. I am a Dolphin fan, and actually I wanted to root for New England, but ended up rooting for the Giants after hearing some commentators talk shit about the 72 Dolphins.
The Notebook
Noah: That's what we do, we Fight! You tell me when i'm being an arrogant son of a bitch, and I tell you when you're being a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate and then you're back doing the next pain in the ass thing. I'm saying it's not gunna be easy....It's gunna be really hard! We're gunna have to work at it EVERYDAY! But I wanna do that cuz I want YOU! I want all of you, You and Me...TOGETHER everyday for the rest. of. my. life!
Note: Yeah & So Ummm,....
Just wanted to say hi! How are you? Have a great everything! Sorry,...*sigh* I got bored. *shrugs* Strip Tease - Danity Kane
Notes To Ponder
1. does god hate iraqis, if so is he ok with us killing so many? 2. if we leave iraq will we stop being free? 3. did saddam want to take our freedoms? 4. saddam was in the proces of taking only euros for his oil...and NOT the doller. 5. saddam was pumping to much oil, (makes it cheaper) so the oil companies wrote up the draft to invade iraq before 9/11 6. iraq had nothing to do with 9/11.. 7. only 4 of the 19 hijackers were from afghanistan, 15 were from saudi arabia 8. does god approve of killing? 9. hitler was protecting the germans from the comunists, same way bush protects us from terrorists. 10. our phones are tapped, our email is spy'd on, we are the suspects.. thats not freedom. 11. Did Jesus, as a human being, really walk upon the earth? 12. Why are there so many similarities between the ancient Egyptian religion and Christianity today? 13. Why does our government tell us that the twin towers were destroyed by airplanes hitting them, when the
A Note About This Blog
Much of the things I post on this blog will be not safe for work. So please make sure if you would like to view my blog you are 18 or older and you are not at work. Would not want to get anyone fired for reading about my life and some of my adventures in the fetish world.
A Note From Me 2 U
A Note from Me 2 You……. As I acknowledge my past, present and future journey…. I realize now that It was set strategically for me…. As quiet, reserved and shy as I was growing up….. I am now just the opposite and always ready to erupt!.... My learning curves in life have been nothing short of a roller coaster ride… …but it's a ride that I would get on again and again as long as I continue to rise……. So now I sit here humbled, compassionate and ever so grateful…. …I'm emotionally drained and disappointed but remain accountable…… I realize that I have made my own bed and now have to sleep in it.. …but it's the fact that I have ONE to sleep in is what gives me the strength to endure and fight my way out of all of this….. It's a good thing God is my advisor, my savior as well as my witness….. …..but I wouldn't be the MAN I am now without your assistance… …yes my on- line friends have been my back bone these past few years…. …and there
A Note To All My Family And Friends
due to the fact my son may have to have surgery on his shoulder i may be taking a little bit of a leave or just only on every so often ! i still not sure which but for all who will miss me leave messages i love you all.and those who won't oh well ? love to all my family and friends and fan's ann aka/ diamondz
The Note
Say goodbye to the girl you once knew. Say goodbye to what used to be you. Close your eyes, take one last breath. Feel the beating within your chest. Let your tears fall to the ground. Quiet now! Don't make a sound! Press the blade to your neck. Never guessed you were a wreck. All these years they never knew How deep the sadness inside you grew Until one day you could take no more Choking on blood as it hit the floor. Body lying limp upon the tile Someone would find you after awhile. In one hand you hold the letter "Please know that I've gone somewhere better in the arms of angels to be held tight. I promise to look in on you every night." Never be angry. Never be sad. Simply remember the times we had. How we laughed and how we cried My love for you will never die Endless as the ocean, unchanging as the sea So when you look to heaven, please remember me.
Note Copy
hun u have never said anything about the auction it's almost over and i have done as far as can tell i just owe u 1 nsfw my choice and 1 of my tee's i'm just waiting to hear from u. u still owe me a bling pac. it will not kill me if i don't get it but i have done all i said i would except what i named and that only becaues you have not said what . because its not fair to the guy u beat out.
Not Enough Hours In The Day
Over the last few years I've began to see a side of myself I didn't realize I had in me. A competitive streak that motivates me & drives me to the point of near exhaustion day in & day out. I'm sure you're all well aware that my bf is the singer of the band Alexis Machine...considering that I have Alexis Machine splattered all over every website I'm on & is always guaranteed to come up in conversation lol. Promoting a band these days is not easy & need I say very time consuming. I'm not complaining, I love what I do. Although I do feel bad that I can't keep in touch with friends as much as I'd like to. That part sucks & some don't understand so I do lose friends from time to time, which is a shame...but what can I do? Some years ago I started a business with an ex. It was a gift shop. We jumped into it blindly so needless to say it didn't last long. Live and learn, they say. I suppose it was meant to be. I use a lot of the skills I learned back then now in promoting, marketing, netw
The Note
To My Dearest Wife, During the past year, I have attempted to make love to you 365 times. I have succeeded 36 times, which is an average of only once every 10 days. The following is a list of why I didn't succeed more often: We will wake the kids - 54 times It's too late - 15 times I'm too tired - 42 times It's too early - 12 times It's too hot - 18 times Pretending to be asleep - 31 times The neighbors will hear - 9 times Headache or backache - 26 times Sunburn - 10 times Your mother will hear us - 9 times Not in the mood - 21 times Watching the late show - 17 times Too sore - 26 times New hairdo - 6 times Wrong time of the month - 14 times You had to go to the bathroom - 19 times Of the 36 times that I DID succeed, the result was not always satisfying because 6 times you just laid there, 8 times you reminded me that there was a crack in the
Note About The New South Park Episode
so ya just watched the new south park where everyone lost the internet...kinda sad really, im sure thats what would really happen or even worse if everyone did loose the internet even for a day. wow we are pathetic.
Not Extactly Snakes On The Plane But Close...
Everytime round here when there not much rain, we have problems with snakes getting close to the house, looking fer water. Well usually thier in the yard on on the back steps. Well tonite a friend of mine n his wife came by to visit with me n my family. Well we decided to come out here to my shop to show em some stuff on the pc n some guns i been workin on. I had left the back door open cause we was smoking, n had been sitting out here fer a hour or so. They go ready to leave turned toward the back door n she hollered like hell pointing at the floor. No shit there was a 4 ft rattler laying there. They jumped up on my recliner n i didnt know what to do cause my shotgun was hanging above the door, so stupid me just rared back n luckliy kicked the fucker out the door. Before it could curl up n move, i luckily got the shotgun down n unloaded all 6 rounds of birdshot into it, nuffin was left of the bastard thankfully.We was all scard shitless cause that caught us all off gaurd. N to be hon
Not Enough - Van Halen
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Not Even The Time Of Day - 4.26.06
I wrote this back in 2006. April 26th, 2006 to be correct! Not Even The Time Of Day Will The Tears Shed Not Even The Time Of Day Will My Wall Crumble Not Even The Time Of Day Will My Life Fall Not Even The Time Of Day Will I Give You My Will Not Even The Time Of Day Will He Have The Slight Power Not Even The Time Of Day you ass...
A Note From 'd' Deana----a Lil Fyi
Just to let you all know I'll be here all weekend but next week starting monday through the weekend I will be off line. I'm going to be working about 55 hours that week in a small second help is gone on vacation for one week so I am running the office on my own w/ no breaks. I will be going to work coming home to eat dinner than off to bed. I will be back on monday and tue giving more double rates to everyone....hope you all have a great week! THIS IS FROM 'D' DEANA IN THE FRIENDSHIP CIRCLE~!
No Te Prometo Nada
Ahora no preguntes ya cuando volveré, No insistas tú una vez más, Quizás te llamaré. No te prometo nada aunque sé que me gustas, Hoy no, no te prometo nada. Nos vemos poco, ya lo sé, Las reglas son así. No basta el tiempo pero sé que yo, Por el momento no, no te prometo nada. Sabes que una vez yo he probado Y que he mantenido todo, Con toda mi fuerza creí Y terminó así y terminó así. Si volveré a enamorarme un día Ahora no sé si será de ti. Si un lugar habrá dentro de mí Quizás llenarlo tú podrás, Pero tú ahora no me pidas nada más. Respuestas no te puedo dar, si un día cambiara. No te prometo nada, solo sé que estoy contigo Y mi próximo destino ya podrías ser tú quizás. No digo ya más. No digo más. Si volveré a enamorarme un día Ahora no sé si será de ti. Si un lugar habrá dentro de mí Me gustaría que fuese para ti. Si un lugar habrá dentro de mí Para una palabra que diría para ti solo sin pensar, Para ti solo sin pensar en ella más. Pensar
Not Exactly A Poem, But I Like It........
I miss u when I am bored ..I miss u when I am alone... I miss u when I am worried... I miss u when I am happy... I miss u when I am confused... I miss u when I am upset ...I miss u when I think about u.. I miss u when I am in tension.. I miss u 365 days.. I miss u 52 weeks ...I miss u 12 months... I miss u 8760 days... I miss u 8760 hours... I miss u 525600 minutes... I miss u 31536000 seconds... I miss u when I breathe..!! So do not ever forget me ...))pass this on__
Note About Flagging My Images Nsfw
Please let me know first and not just flag my image. I'd appreciate it so I'm not warned by SCRAPPER or the bouncers that I'm loading multiple NSFW images, and get punished one way or another. It's a common courtesy (and probably better manners) to approach an offender and threaten them that you are going to flag the picture if they don't flag it first. I know, I know. You can get away with flagging them anonymously...but I pay minimal attention to what I'm uploading, and don't flag any image from my friends. Flagging pics bugs a lot of people who have different opinions or lifestyles than you (or may be planning to rereview the uploaded images theirselves). Having my images flagged instantly bugs me, too, and borders on cowardice. I'd appreciate an initial heads up if an image offends you. I promise to be courteous enough to flag the picture myself if it bugs you. Thank you!! Comment here, please! Have a great happy hour!! Friday the 13th June 13, 2008 10:00pm EST Sincerestly,
Note: "person Of Interest
NOTE: "Person of Interest", described as a male American Indian, aproximately 35 years old , 6 foot tall, with a ponytail driving a Ford or Chevy single cab pickup truck. Please visit the link below where where is also a place on the page where you can visit other links related to this story as well as leave condolences for the family. Please, pass this along and help catch the SOB who killed these girls. Sken:non, Beki http://www. koco. com/news/16589907/detail. html OSBI spokeswoman Jessica Brown said agents want to talk to a man described as an American-Indian, possibly part white, who is about 35 years old and stands 6 feet tall. Brown said the man has a pony tail and drives a white Ford or Chevrolet single-cab pickup truck with chrome stripping and an Oklahoma license tag. He was seen standing near the truck near the time and place the youngsters were shot to death on Sunday afternoon. "We just want to ta
A Note From The "jinya" During "tech Week"
HI, Leaving notes. Im so new at this. See, I have a collection of cards from Kim when shes fought with me and wanted to make up, but I always know theyre bullshit. Since theyre the only comparison I have, I dont want to write anything like that cause, well, the whole bullshit factor.Im also stuck because Im distraught. Some of it my own, a lot of it yours. Thats not blame, thats the Jinya emotional sponge back in action. Look up Pisces. Were renowned for it. Its not your fault, it just happens.I know youre stressed and upset and pushing your limits. I also know theres very little I can do. Trying gets me nowhere but sadder. Its like punching a brick wall. Eventually you have to realize that the brick wall is going to stand there for a while.Then you go out to the shop, get an air hammer, and show it whose boss!Or you let the wall work through its problems. Im here.Do I have issues? Yes. Have I been hurt? Yes. Should we discuss? Probably. But right now I feel like opening my mouth
A Note About What Is Happening With Me
Well, its been so long since I have been on here I don't even know where to start. Some of you may have known that my elderly cat had health issues. Around the beginning of the year she developed diabetes. It required me to give her shots 12 hours apart and to feed her at least a half hour before. Her general health condition made her so sensitive that I had to give the shot between 7:00 & 7:30 every time or she would get spasms and even convulsions. In the mean time, work had gotten intense but, thankfully, not cut throat as it was last year. We had a complete team change over that caused us a lot of time settling back into the schedule. There have also been project after project that had me working my butt off but I constantly had to leave and take work with me so that I could keep Millie's schedule. Well, the last few weeks have been hell. The project hit us with a high profile task that needed to be done by the end of this month and at the same time Millie seemed to get
Not Even Close
they asked me to come home to start with a clean slate to be the golden girl the prodigal child returned to the fold returned to their lives how is it possible that i can live away from them from my roots from it all and i sighed i took a breath i took a moment because it was so hard to explain that i am never going backwards again they asked me to forgive them and to accept forgiveness to be brought, to be bought returned to my roots returned to all they find holy how is it possible that i can exist within another world far from my roots far from them all and i signed i took a breath i took a moment because i realized it wasn't hard at all to explain to myself that i am not even close being who i used to be not even close.
Note To Friends
To all my friends I just wanted to leave this note letting you all know i have not forgot you guys just on vacation and will be back to leaving you all comments when i get back much love to you all and blessed be DARK_ANGEL
'no Tear Onion' And Mortality
I often take an interest in reading about new developments in science and technology, and there are some websites I often take the time to read. When I hear scientists have made an onion that can be peeled without making you cry, I am more than happy to know scientists are spending time usefully and being paid good money for such helpful work. My whole life I have dreamed of the day I can cut onions without my eyes watering. This is a complete waste of time and useful in no way. I can solve the problem in seconds, the trick is to not form an emotional bond with the onion, then when it has to be peeled you will not feel so bad. If that was not ridiculous enough, prepare to be amazed, there has been another revelation in science as well. Immortality, its about time they started working on it because its clearly a logical thing to be thinking about. A shocking figure of 100% of the worlds population has or will fall victim
A Note From Ruby Cairo....
I'm on the phone with Rubeth and her lame company won't let her into Fubar!!!!! WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ALL DAY?!?!?! *ahem* sorry for that mental breakdown. Anyway, she says to leave her lovin so that she knows you guys um... love her. lol and does anyone know a backdoor to Fubar?! Ruby can be found on my family list. She's number 1. p.s. Ruby says OH HAI to everybody. :)
The Note.
You left that note in my room Where I would find it later ...........when I was alone "When you read this, know I'm thinking of you- This very moment." (tears) Of course I still have it and read it often. Making sure you never forget me.
A Note To Kitty
Dear Lord if you hear this Please read it to Wett Kitty Kitty you are a very missed and loved by all of us at Fantasia you brought tons of cheerfulness and made all of us happy when you came into the lounge you will never be forgotten by any of us today is your day hun we dearly miss and love you with all of our hearts hun
No Tease. Hehe
You're Direct! No need to tease... you still get what you want.You're honest, straightforward and aggressive.So what if you scare meek people away? You want a lover who can keep up with your spirit! 'Are you a Tease?' at
No Tears In Heaven
The four Soldiers sat around an olive drab painted footlocker playing cards. Actually, the group was comprised of three Soldiers and one Marine, all wearing desert camouflage uniforms, their blouses removed exposing brown t-shirts, not because they were hot, rather it was just more comfortable to have them off. “Let’s go for six Top,” the Marine Captain said to his partner. “Six it is then Sir,” First Sergeant McNeely agreed. Julian McNeely was from Newark, New Jersey and had served in this man’s army for just over 17 years. He took a lot of shit for his first name while coming up through the ranks, especially while at basic training, but only his brother got away with ribbing him about it in recent years. Julian McNeely’s partner in this game of spades was Captain Mike Williams from Sarasota, Florida. Private First Class Williams attended the United States Marine Corps Officer Candidate School at Quantico, Virginia and graduated as Second Lieutenant Williams on September 9,
The Note
I have written you many times Alone inside my mind Never knowing what to say Tired of the mental crimes I can't leave it behind This constant thought never going away I will know when the time has come For there will be no more tears It will be the last time I ever apologize This will be hard to understand for some I can no longer hide your fears Some will say it is not wise The hidden message lies in the rhymes Most will never be able to find No one will know the day I have written my byes It will be pure truth and no lies For some I will defy I can not trust It's so strong that I must Turning into ash and dust It will never go away It will be the ultimate price to pay after the note there will be nothing to say How I have written you many times All alone inside my mind For there you will have to stay
Not Easy
It is not easy to refuse a dream. Esp the dream that let yoy smile, that let you breathe & that made you feel so very good. However, there is a moment where you have to come down from up there & so you see that everyone around you is unhappy, even the one sharing your dream. So you simply sit in the shadows & think think think. And do the moves that you think are the best in the situation. Even if it hurts badly. The ones that love you, will eventually understand & forgive, you hope... (to be continued)
Note To Self:
1) Make more salutes. 2) Leave more SnapVines. 3) Finish making that one bobblehead.
Note To Self
"I think the medieval tradition of the sin eaters has just evolved into reality TV" ... a quote from me that I need to work up to a full thoughtfest. It just sounds like it has some basis in actuality. *ponders*
Not Everybody Pays
A little old lady was walking down the street dragging two large Plastic garbage bags behind her. One of the bags ripped, and every once in a while, a $20 bill fell out onto the sidewalk. Noticing this, a policeman stopped her, and said, 'Ma'am, there are $20 bills falling out of your bag.' 'Oh, really? Darn it!' said the little old lady. 'I'd better go back and see if I can find them. Thanks for telling me.' 'Well, now, not so fast,' said the cop. 'Where did you get all that money? You didn't steal it, did you?' 'Oh, no, no', said the old lady. 'You see, my back yard is right next to the football stadium parking lot. On game days, a lot of fans come and pee through a knot hole in the fence, right into my flower garden. It used to really tick me off. Kills the flowers, you know. Then I thought, 'why not make the best of it?' So, now, on game days, I stand behind the fence by the knot hole, real quiet, with my garden pruners. Every time some guy sticks his 'thingy' through
A Note Of Farewell
To all my friends and family on Fubar, I feel like its time I said farewell to you all on Fubar. There are many reasons as to why I am leaving this site and as a member; that point i will not raise, but every individual has their reasons in life to do what they want. I have met a lot of friends and made some really close friends on close to the fact that someday we will have the chance to meet up and may be become friends for life. I will know will be friends for life. True friends who will stick out for you no matter what and be there for you even through some of you are half way around the world...they know who they are, I can't thank you enough for being there for me through the rough and the good times. I'm sure without a doubt we will stay in touch elsewhere other than here :) Love you guys very mean the world to me. x As for the rest of the friends and family I have made on Fubar, I wish you all well, sorry I may have not had the chance to spea
Note To Alll
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Note I Wrote Dane Cook
You are about as funny as catching my nuts on fire and putting the flames out with my favorite 9 iron. I think you should reimburse me for seeing that Good Luck Chuck flick. You are about as funny as catching my nuts on fire and putting the flames out with my favorite 9 iron. I think you should reimburse me for seeing that Good Luck Chuck flick. You couldn't get near to women as hot as Jessica Alba, without violating restraining orders. You ever come to Detroit let me know. I want to practice my chip shot on them craters in your face. Jerkoff
A Note From Me
I"M written this blog today to fill in my family and friends that care.. I'm not sure how much i will be around. if i dont chat with you its nothing personal . MY real life family is going thru some very hard times right now.. we are one of the many American who are losing there home due to high payment and my H losing hour at work. we are with a company that will not work with us and would rather us walk away from the house then help us.. it a very scary time for me as i have 3 boys i have to protect. But with that said the scary part of all of this is we have no means of getting another home . so i have been working on trying to get a plan together for my family. I come here not for pity but for my family and friend to just understand that I'm very stressed out and trying to hold my chin up the best i can. sometimes this place his the only thing i have . anyhow pls keep us in your thoughts.and I'm so thankful for the friends and my very close family on here you are my b
Note To Friends
Picture rating sucks donkey balls. Stop turning on your auto 11's FF's Just saying. i feel guilty not rating anyone, but when you can only rate 60%, what is the use? Sorry for rant.
Not Even The X
So Ive got to get this off my husband, whom Im divorcing has decided to purchase a house with his new gf (highschool sweetheart), who is moving back from Florida in April. Mind you he and I are NOT divorced yet, still have almost a full year to go until its finalized and we have two small kids, ages 5 and 2. He wanted to move right in with her without the kids ever meeting her!!! How crappy is that!!! JERK! But I have somehow talked him out of that, atleast until July. I am also going to make a proposal for more child support since well, they will be a two income family and I'm over here struggling to make it work!!! Dont you think I have a right to be alittle pissed? I say yes!
The No 1 Tear Jerker (dedicated To A Late Bf!)
OK I will admit this is the number 1 in my list of tear jerkers - now im off to look at the smurfs to cheer myself up :D
Noteworthy Progress
Limited. Wasted. Lost. It’s only nothing, Unless… We make it Happen. A moment. An opportunity. A Period. Get caught up in it, However… We can always find, A few minutes. One’s Life. One’s Debt. One’s Destiny. Measure not by numbers, But… With our sensation, Of love and joy. An Hour. A Moment. A Lifetime. Say we don’t steal, Still… We foolishly take, Everyone’s Treasure . Appreciate. Understand. Admire. Make it meaningful, For… It is time, That is valuable. Now. Forever. -Dominic Zingale
Not Everything You Read Is True
THE GEOGRAPHY OF A WOMAN Between 18 and 22, a woman is like Africa, half discovered, half wild, fertile and naturally beautiful! Between 23 and 30, a woman is like Europe, well developed and open to trade. Between 31 and 35, a woman is like Spain, very hot, relaxed and convinced of her own beauty. Between 36 and 40, a woman is like Greece, gently aging but still a warm and desirable place to visit. Between 41 and 50, a woman is like Great Britain, with a glorious and all conquering past. Between 51 and 60, a woman is like Israel, has been through war and doesn't make the same mistakes twice, takes care of business. Between 61 and 70, a woman is like Canada, self-preserving but open to meeting new people. After 70, she becomes Tibet, wildly beautiful, with a mysterious past and the wisdom of the ages...only those with an adventurous spirit and a thirst for spiritual knowledge visit there. T
Not Enuff Time In The Day....
(If you are reading this, you should repost it. I'm curious what others will say! ....At the very least, leave me a comment letting me know you saw it!) ================================================================================================== What is it that you absolutely need sexually? aggression What is something you have always wanted to try? hmmmmm haha ima freak there isnt much i havent tried already What is something you have never done in bed before? hmmmmmm What time of day do you like to have sex? whenever I'm in the mood What do you absolutely need to see to turn you on? him...... How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?oh bout 30 If someone was in the next room while you had sex would it make you nervous or excited? excited...teehee Would it bother you if your bf/gf got naked at a beach or river? hmmm maybe Have you ever faked an orgasm? sadly, yes *look ashamed* What Part of
Not Enough
I could write about how much you mean to me. And how much I really care. Or how I feel in your arms. And even more about when you're not there. I could write about your smile. And how it brightens my day. And how holding your hand, Everything in the world fades away. I could write down our memories. Every single moment we've spent together. The times we were silent. And the times that were filled with laughter. I could write everything down. And explain it word for word. And it still wouldn't explain, How much you mean in my world
No Tears
when i write these words please shed no tears. im here to make you feel secure and let go of all your fears. time will go on but my love for you will go on when time stops. if loving you is wrong i wanna be arrested...where are the cops. neither one of us wanna be the first to say goodbye when im sad and lonely i pick up a picture of you and i look into your eyes. and like magic my day gets brighter . like the sun is focused only meyour love lights my fire. baby your my one and only and never will anyone take your place. i know i love you baby and now you know...this is a closed case. i love you
A Note From A Good Friend...ty Teresa
IF A MAN WANTS YOUIf a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.If he doesn`t want you, nothing can make him stay.Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that`s not meant to be.Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can`t "be friends."A friend wouldn`t mistreat a friend. Don`t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.Don`t stay because you think "it will get better." You`ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.The only person you can control in a relationship is you.Avoid men who`ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn`t marry them when he got them pregnant. Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends sepa
Not Exactly A Fantasy Or Erotic Story But It Is Part 1
A young man sits watching the day light fade smileing as he sees the moon he watches the full moon rise,he smiles.he then rises and walks to the spot he has set up for this night.he quickly walks through these woods knowing them all to well,he arrives at the very spot he was told to set he lights the candles set up around the symbol he created in the ground.he then goes to the center of his symbol,and starts the ritual as he was told.after finishing the words.he sees six figures appear all around him three male and three female.he turns to each of them in turn greeting of them speaks"we have heard your prayers and the request you have made.and your answer is yes we will grant it to you,so please kneel"the young man quickly gives thanks to the gods as he the gods fill him with the power he has asked for.he rises and pulls a mirror from his pocket and looks upon his reflection seeing the pale eyes and long silver hair he he starts to walk awa
A Note From The Dalai Lama
Now, there are many, many people in the world, but relatively few with whom we interact, and even fewer who cause us problems. So, when you come across such a chance for practicing patience and tolerance, you should treat it with gratitude. It is rare. Just as having unexpectedly found a treasure in your own house, you should be happy and grateful to your enemy for providing that precious opportunity.-His Holiness the Dalai Lama
Not Enough
Contentment is not enough for me, I want to be happy, entertained and free. To take happiness instead of waiting would be fair, for I search for it and its never there. I wait and sit and sit some more, but never does a smile knock on my door. Lonely, and never truly enthralled, I envy those who have that all. I want to kick and scream and slam the door, but only for the want of more. What it is, I think I know, but none of them shall ever though. It crouches and hides and waits for me, depression, tis thee, and only for me. And now these solemn words I write, are never to be read, but kept out of sight. For pleased eyes and light souls, it will never show, for only the lonely truly know...
Note 2 Self, Rouph Finish
  its been asked wat is true love, are there realy one heart and one soul for one other out there. i would like 2 think so. ive never know it 2 a fact. but i have ben in love twiced b4. ....actually 3 times. felt those butterflies in ur stomeck and felt all warm and good... kinda high. and u think thats as good as it gets but thats ONLY, the BEGINNING, of it all. was like i was loosing control of myself, never felt those fealings b4, and very hard 2 get those kinds of fealings, (very hard 2 get those relationships)the more ive tried 2 understand it, the fealings, the more control ive lost. was like walking in butter, like every hard thing ive know turned 2 marshmellows. my mined i guse wasnt capable 2 except it all so fast, (mayb thats whn they say i cant breath, ur smothering me, spend the day or week apart) but i never said that. but did hear this cool ass kick ass song by queens rice (or how u say the band name) was called sialent lucitity. that song, listin 2 it! WORD PER WORD! it
Note To Poee Priests
  World Council of Churches Boutique Note to POEE Priests: The Polyfather wishes to remind all Erisians the POEE was conceived not as a commercial enterprise, and that you are requested to keep your cool when seeking funds for POEE Cabals or when spreading the POEE Word via the market place. The Hidden stone ripens fast, then laid bare like a turnip can easily be cut out at last but even then the danger isn't past. That man lives best who's fain to live half mad, half sane. Flemish Poet Jan Van Stijevoort, 1524.   The Erisian Affirmation BEFORE THE GODDESS ERIS, I (name or holyname), do herewith declare myself a POEE BROTHER of THE LEGION OF DYNAMIC DISCORD. HAIL HAIL HAIL HAIL HAIL ERIS ERIS ERIS ERIS ERIS ALL HAIL DISCORDIA! the presiding POEE Official (if any) responds: ALL HAIL DISCORDIA! find the goddess Eris Within your Pineal Gland POEE To Diverse Gods Do Mortals bow; Holy Cow, and Wholly Chao Rev. Dr. Grindlebone Monroe Cabal
Note To Self 6-18-09
staying up til 5am and planning to function throughout my day is going to be impossible. fuck.
Note To Guys.....
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - BOB MARLEY
Note To Self!!
Note to self: NEVER QUIT!! There is this lady who thought she could take away my fu hubby and my fu lover. In the last few weeks this lady and I have been in a pissing contest. I believe im winning! Needless to say after one upping her on bling and blasts and threats off all sorts, she topped me by buying me a HH. She thought she had me I would bend to her will, she implored me to say Uncle.. I SAY NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO i bought her a HH as well, You will see us tomorrow together. Please so I can win just go hit her like mad.... I will not bend, nor break I will win SPARTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A Note To My Friends
Hi and good morning friend... it's in the middle of week already hope your day has be wonderful so far... .. Life is about change... Sometimes it's is a Painful Sometime it is Beautiful Most of the time it is both. .. Just open ur eyes & see that Life is Beautiful!!! .. Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they are meant to be there they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help you figure out who you are... .. have a Awesome & Happy Hump day and a Good & lovely week!! .. .. Hugs & Kisses
Not Enough
Spent the weekend in your armsMaking love under the starsBut its not enoughI'll never really know Get my hopes up with a kissWith a smile no one could missBut its not enoughWatch it fade awayLooking deep into your eyesTriggers something in my mindBut its not enoughCrumbles at the touch...
Note To My Teenage Self
  Dear Janey, you are probably sitting listening to a Donny Osmond LP on your big record player and dreaming of becoming a Mormon, flying off to Utah and marrying the toothy singer…it won’t happen, stop crying and dreaming of Salt lake City and swoony Osmond kisses, he marries his teenage sweetheart and she has all her teeth, you have nine missing.   Oh, by the way, buy a toothbrush, I know you have hardly any cash but seriously that stuff they say about decay is right, a toothbrush is important. By the time you are 40 years old you will have paid £2,000 in veneers and bridge work at a private dentist.   Yes, you will have private health care; I know it’s hard to believe right now.   So, get the record player turned off and start staring at school books. Try harder to understand maths and don’t give up on art or English, you will be good at both in future, just try to understand me when I say you will write, paint and you really need to understand per
I got a note on the door when I got home from work. Short note saying to go to Irene whenever I can. It's going to have to wait until Monday because I work all day the next two days. I'm hoping that it will be the paper work that I could do for the other apartment. I had seen that the people that were living in the one I'm suppose to move into are finally out. So, I'm looking foward until Monday. I thought she was going to call me, but maybe she lost my number. Just hoping it's good news. Was talking with a coworker a bit today. He was asking how I was doing and if I needed help moving, him and Judha could probably help me out. I don't really want them to know where I live, especially Judah, but since we have the same work schedules, they might be some help if I can't get Michael and Matt to help. Dad and his little "adopted" son said they could help. I just need some man muscles to help carry the furniture. I'll probably end up moving the boxes on my own first. Yesterday I met the e
Not Enough Ugly People In The World.
Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident tomcat. Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say, love. The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly. To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other should have been was a gaping hole. He was also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot has appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner. His tail has long been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch.   Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped-type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs. Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. "That's one UGLY cat!!"All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down,
[not Enough Nog]
I am a bomb of stress and hatred right now. But I did have a really good angry wank over it.... *checks to see if he marked this NSFW*... *wonders if he really needs to as his reader base has pretty much quit the internet forever* New furnace is in.New furnace is working... okay, I'm still wearing my coat and I can't feel my toes, but it IS above freezing right now. That's a step in the right direction. Tomorrow is another 12 hour shift, my buddy wants to come in "real early" to tinker. I told him if he got here before 10 that I'd just take part of the morning off, I'm kind of tired of dicking with all this. So... 8 hours within speaking distance of the biggest crush in modern history (and yeah... I'm really trying to think of her in those terms, its not so easy... even when she talks about how rich and muscley her boyfriend is)lunch1 hour for dinnerand we're back to work til 10:00. :/ on the upshot... ... on the upshot... uuuuuuuuuuuh I have no fucking idea. Okay: on the ups
Note 2 Last Blog
I was pushing over 200lbs and in a size 16 I'm now sitting at 130lbs an in a size 4, that scares the shit out of me sometimes cause looking back and seeing that person I once was (YEAH) it makes u think alot & let me just say that the way I lost it wasn't no fun....It's as if I had peeled off my skin and the person underneath came through, does that make sence??
A Note For The Mothers Out There...
I never really gave alot of thought to birthdays in general, until my son had his 1st one.  Naturally, to any parent this is a milestone and wonderful reason for celebration.  But on that day I was given a gift, a beautiful white gold and diamond pendant in the shape of a mother and child.  When I asked why, I was told that because even though it was our sons life we were celebrating, on that day one year earlier I was the one who went through the miracle (and pain!) of bringing him into the world.  So for my son it was a birthday, and for me, an anniversary.  Ever since, I have made sure to let my own mother know how much I love and appreciate her on my own birthday, and I just wanted to share this with all the other moms out there.  Love to you all, Bonnie xoxo  What my life is all about Hear the NewsAm filled with prideTo learn I have A life inside..... and I already love you. Aches and strainsAnd labor painsThen you arriveLook in my eyes.... and I love you even more. Yo
Note 2-6-10 History Channels Plot
I WATCHED ON TV THE DOWNPLAY OF DC BEING NUKED!! WTF DOES THIS SOUND NORMAL TO TO YOU?? (DAY AFTER DISASTER) 1100-1300 ctr time note- this plan of nuke attack was document in 2009 this is new improved hot zone plan note- ground nuke planted note- the start of marial law
Not Even At All
I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick. It even makes me rhyme. I hate it… I hate the way you’re always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh; Even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around. And the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you; Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
A Note From Peyton
Hello WORLD!!!   Peyton here & I have a few things I would like to say or discuss if need be. I hope I don't offend anyone when I do this.I just would like to clear the air.I hate to know I have hurt anyone. Its about my friends and family list. I have had some come to me and say wow I went down in ranks when I should be going up or that the one in first are usually the ones you love the most. I am writing to clear all this up now. Fujeff will always be my number one don't know how I put him 2nd in family unless one of the other girls got on here,point is this,he will always be number 1 in both areas. He is very dear to me and has been since I come here I think around a couple of weeks ago now.We are going bike riding next month and I think it will be awesome.He stole my heart with his charm and intellect in talking to me.Very smart man.He is very cool. As far as who is after that has nothing to do with how I rank our friendship. I wished I could put all of you first but I can
Not Enough Time...
NOT ENOUGH TIME... "And I was lost for words in your arms Attempting to make sense of my aching heart If I could just be everything and everyone to you This life would just be so easy Not enough time for all that I want for you Not enough time for every kiss And every touch and all the nights I wanna be inside you We will make time stop for the two of us Make time stop and listen for our sighs Not enough time for all that I want for you Not enough time for every kiss And every touch and all the nights I wanna be inside you In our fight against the end Making love, we are immortal We are the last two left on Earth And I was lost for words in your arms Attempting to make sense of my aching heart If I could just be everything and everyone to you Not enough time for all that I want for you Not enough time for every kiss And every touch and all the nights I wanna be inside you" INXS '92
A Note......
I am going to be gone a few days,not sure how long yet.I am not one to allow people in my private life & I dont plan on starting now.I go on Wednesday so that gives me one more day,Procedure will be done on Thursday. The only thing that will be said is that I have some health issues and I am taking the first step hopefully back to recovery.I say I will be gone a few days because I am not sure if I am able to have my laptop there or not or how long they will keep me afterwards,a day a week I just dont know anything about this. There are only maybe 3 maybe 4 people on here that know what is going on and I prefer to keep that way. So dont forget to love on me.MY RANKING is bad enough since I havent really been here,just been online without much to do with this page.Sorry about that..I know I havent been talking that much lately,but so much has been going on with all this and I am trying to get my ducks in a row Keep it real and God Bless you all.... P.S I get to see my lilman in the
Note To Self..
Stop making notes..
A Note......
I woke this morning feeling a bit disturbed and maybe a little vunerable. My about me section I felt just about summed it up for me but then maybe not.Then I started writing a blog here and there to show more pieces of who I am,just in case someone really wanted to know. I now wake up as I said above and realize that some of the ones I have gotten close to I may be hurting.I went through a spell of taking everyone out of my family because things were being said & even though nothing is being said at this momen, if I changed it around for my reasons it would be.I have never put in order who I like better or more than this one or that one I had my own system but from what I hear from others they take it as if you are number one then that is who you like the most..I dont do it like that,If I could I would put everyone first.So I am thinking of getting that gone again as well. I feel I need to say that I am only one person and even if one of the other girls get on I am still just that o
Notes Of Thanks
'Notes' of Thanks She moaned as my member slipped into her wet and slippery tunnel of love. I looked at her face, her eyes looking up at the ceiling and beyond. Beads of moisture exuded from her skin on her forehead, resembling the morning dew on a rose petal. A few moments of silence; then my ears adjusted to the sound of music on the stereo, the air-conditioner, and the fan. Then everything was still again. It looked like the silence before a storm. She moved her bottom, while her hand clasped my buttocks and pulled on me as she spread her legs wider to accommodate more of me in her love box. This was followed by the slow rhythmic movement of her hips, her vaginal muscles clutching my member every time she pulled away. We continued with this till she suddenly started to push and grind her bottom at a frantic speed, moaning and groaning as though possessed by the devil and peaked to a rapturous climax. I was caught by surprise and failed to respond to her ecstasy
A Note For My Friends
Just thought I'd let you all know that, starting tomorrow (Monday the 13th) and running for the next 11 weeks (through Nov 22) I'm going to be taking a class that will hopefully help position me to get a better job (so I can have a little bit more money to waste on Fubar! LOL!). I point this out because I honestly don't know how much this will cut into the free time I have for Fubar.  All I know at the moment is that, at the very least, I'll be out the 3 hours the class meets on Mondays and Thursdays, plus an hour driving time.  I don't know how much time I'll need to spend studying, but I will put studying over Fubar.  I will try my hardest to keep up with my daily rates for the PR group (for those of us who are still rating!), and to keep rating all my friends! :)
Notes :d ............ty
 Dear Ann,You are so freaking cool! I wish I was as pretty as you, because you are FREAKING GORGEOUS! One thing I think you should always remember is that you are so beautiful, and you should never think different. Don't let other people tell you different either, because they are just jealous of you. If anyone ever... told you that, it's because they aren't as cool as you. And if someone tells you that, send em MY way :)Another thing you should know: I FREAKING MISS YOU!!! I hope we are able to go watch that movie on Friday, because if we don't I'm going to be super duper uber depressed :( Also, you gotta let me know what you are doing on Saturday, because maybe we can hang out that night :) Let me know. MISS YOU Bes...                                                                                                                                                       hyejin.....                                                                                        
Notes .......yeah U Right !
What do you mean, you want a boyfriend? Are you trying to tell me you don't have one yet? You're shitting me.Look at you. You're so beautiful, my dear cousin. Any man would be lucky to have you. You're going to have one soon, I can feel it. And when you do, I hope he makes you the happiest girl in the world. I want to ...see your cute smile and your heart satisfied again....                                  Blasphemy. A lot of men want you; you are quite naive, darling!And not every guy lacks trust and loyalty; if he can prove to you that he's a gentleman, he will surely sweep you from your how I did! [; are ABSOLUTELY BEA...UTIFUL♥
Notes From A Broad
Things have been worrying me deeply. I have been looking up the internet and trying to figure out if I have either- eye, bowel, lung or brain cancer, turns out am old and have nothing like that. I have stopped smoking and so has my wonderful daughter Ashley, the feeling of her supporting me has been awesome. I really feel its time to get fit, lose weight and get off the fags.   I am not going to be one of those women who starve themselves, this about me trying to feel better about myself.   But I have been having strange pains and boils again.   I just get random pains then go search them on websites, years ago when you had random illness’s an old granny or a woman in your street who kept cats and made gooseberry jam would diagnose your illness in the absence of a doctor.   I recall we had a woman just like that in our street, called Maggie who made flowers out of twigs that she shaved at the end into chrysanthemum heads; it was amazing how she did it. Anyway we called h
A Note To My Daughters
Girls, I wanted to let you all know that Harley has bone cancer in his leg and the prognosis isn't good. The vet wants to amputate his leg today. She is afraid that the bone is so fragile, just walking could cause it to break. He's having X-Rays this morning to see if the cancer is in his lungs also. The problem is, even with the removal of the leg, the most Harley would be here is around 6 to 9 months, IF he survives the surgery / recuperation. Dad is a wreck. He just asked me what I thought we should do and I couldn't even talk. He realizes we have to take Harley in and put him to sleep but he doesn't want to make the decision for when that happens. He'd love to take him to the ranch for a weekend of fun but if his leg broke up there, we'd be in big trouble trying to get him to the vet. Regardless of what the vet says, we're not going to put him through surgery to remove his leg / chemo / radiation treatments. Can you imagine him trying to learn how to walk at his ag
10 Notes About My Mia-ness....
Hello and just a note for those who care to read such things. I know I have alot of messages and things in there, and love to return. Just stating some facts for the record.. 1. I'm not leaving, despite what some people wish. 2. I've also been made aware that people can't keep my name out of their mouths even though I've had extensive interaction with -one- person during this time I've been away. My advice there: Keep talking. 3. About #2. Have some balls. You ask me something I'll tell you. These fake account adds and messages I'm seeing are amusing. They are amusing because I can track your ips and I'm going to start posting who is doing it. 4. The offsite thing is coming along well. So with that in mind, please revisit #2. 5. Assemble that army. Make it big too. You're all going to need it, if you think I haven't logged your nonsense going back to spring, you must believe that colored name and god mode really make you a god. 6. Keep picking my family apart too. It will make it
Not Even Me
 2/6/2011 8:03PMI lay awake, In our room, there's nothing left just me and you. we seem so cold, distant and used. I'm all alone, even when I'm with you. I reach out for you, Though nothings there. Where'd we go? what's with this dispare?At night I cry, wondering why? Why is this love so bitter sweet? What happened to us? You tell me it's all in my head, Tonight I'll cry in our bed. I feel so numb, So left out in the cold.Where you went? I do not know.  I miss you though. You're out of reach, where does that leave me? Who'll hold me tight, As the nightmares creep in? Who'll tell me it's alright, when  I cant take it anymore? Baby it's cold, I whine and I plea, But no ones here, Not even me.
[notes And Random]
ZEON WANTS YOU!So it took me a month to get my sleep schedule back to where I was up 7:00a.m.-12:00 a.m.It took ONE sleepless night about 2 weeks ago to FUCK THAT UP!!!I woke up... an hour ago?More or less.Fuckingsleep.Well dear readers this is primarily a robot and ~ food blog in that I'm going meatless a couple weeks again due to necessity.I've got a ribeye primal (practically) in my fridge which is at least 6 BIG steaks for me. About 2 lbs of pork sausage, and a whole duck in my freezerand I'm due a couple whole beef livers.*calls the folks... probably not going to be up for a while*But as an act of penance (for not getting a fucking job) I'm eating another pound of rehydrated black beansthat means gallo pinto. WOO!Actually this stuff is a million times better with some pig or cow fat.Save your drippings kids.*stomach growls* so hard to be excited for rice and beans...On a happier noteI think I've made at least one breakthrough on my gouf.Since I want to make the rear thruster of th
A Note...
Well, many of you know I took a fucation - and I'm back! For a while at least... Today is Mother's Day, and I want to wish all you mothers (not "muthas" or "mother-effers" but women who birthed children) Happy Mommy's Day! Some cute things happened in conjunction therewith. My nephew Michael made my sister boo-hoo Friday. His English (I think) class teacher had him and the rest write "prams" (nods to Monty Python) to their moms. Yesterday, Shelley, my sister, went and got snacks for our mom and me - my nephew was out with friends. For the first time in almost 2 years, I actually had eough money to take us all out to dinner. We went to a place called Mimi's - a café specializing in southern and French New Orleans cuisine, with posters and art and such from New Orleans from the past many years. I would recommend, if there's one nearby, you try it! We had dinner, ate WAY too much, as usual, and I felt a small surge of pride taking the check and putting MY OWN card inside! :) I a
Note To My True Friends.
Note to my true and cherished friends.   My deepest apologies for not being as attentive as I should be. My personal life is filled with "horse shit" as I like to call it. I am going through so much...mentally, emotionally and physically. No, I am not ill...except for peri menopause. AKA pre mental pause and it is kicking my ass (my emotions anyway). That, along with family crisis upon crisis upon crisis has my mind in a constant state of WTF?!!!! I do withdraw from friends. It may be wrong but it is how I am and how I have always been. It isn't intentional it's just that sometimes I can not be social. It is certainly not by choice it is unfortunately a part of my personality, I guess. My truest friends accept that part of me and will be around when I am of sound mind and body. To those friends that love me no matter what....I offer you my undying love and devotion. I am truly grateful and honored to have precious friends that love me unconditionally. I love you all ve
Note To A Struggling Musician
Almost all of the painters I admire were ignored or ridiculed by the critics and "schools" of their own periods.  Some of them defeated those roadblocks, and went directly to the public.  Not always easy to do, when a religion or political structure presumes to decide what is and is not acceptable.  (These days, for instance, if you don't regurgitate the liberal pablum, you will be attacked and labeled with one or more convenient witch hunting terms.)   The internet makes it much easier to do your own marketing, these days.  In fact, the net makes those "go betweens" into the irrelevancies they should always have been.     However, you should decide if you want to spend your time creating or marketing your product.  Both take a lot of time, and the usual rule is, not many are good at doing both.  Maybe, find one capable person who believes in you, and let him or her do the selling -- if you must insist on selling.  (I don't particularly care.  I am creating for the people of two gene
Not Even Real
I see images, inside my head. There I am, lying there, dead. There is no burial plot, no final resting place. It is just me, wasted space. No headstone spelling out, what an impact I've made. Completely unknown, in an unmarked grave. That's me, it has always been. Alone with my pen. Writing away my pain, day after day. Always being seen, the same way. If I am here great, but not a big deal. To almost everyone, I'm not even real.
A Note To My Friends And Fam
hi..   i have not  been the greatest person i should be or the most amazing.. but i am me.. i truely thank  the people who i have met on this site.. you all are  great in ur own way..sum ppl i have met on here hav become some really close good friends of mine..they are the type of people that you can talk to  about anything..the type that are there to talk to u through the good times and bad..who make u smile when u are sad or down..if u get pissed off they are there to calm u down and lend an ear for when u blow off steam..those to me are true friends.. and they sho the utmost respect and  dont cross anyone and never turn  their backs.. for those people know who they are and  u know i thank you mayb saying it isnt enuff but i really do thank u..   yes sum of  u are sittin there readin this thinkin wow this girl has lost it or shes nuts or emo or drama..but u kno wht that means either  u know me and  know wht i mean when i say the above things i did or are judging me an
Notecards And Boxes For Sale!!
I made an album of the note cards and boxes I currently have for sale.  I'll be adding to this album as I increase my inventory. Note cards are 5x7 and are blank on the inside.  Please send me a private message or comment on this blog if you are interested in pricing and/or dimensions of boxes. ALL of my designs (located in "YOU inspire Me" and "some of my photos and graphics") are available for box designs, note cards and larger prints (canvas and poster) Ideas are welcome :) PoSTaL
A Note About Rating
1. I try to ONLY rate/earn points during Happy Hour & advise the same, for double points. Why not wait? 2. I don't post NSFW pics unless they're soooo funny & then get marked. I think I have them moved to another album so you can by-pass them. 3. I check my buzz meter. 100% means 10% bonus points for everything on fubar, is what my message says. 4. I return profile rates if possible to thank ppl who are kind enough to rate my profile.
Note Cards, Art, Purses, Bags, Jewelry And!
As I mentioned in my last blog...I've been listing my artwork and graphics for sale in my artfire studio.  It really does take forever,  but I hope that it will be worth all of my efforts.  I've made a section for blank note cards in the designs that are already printed.  You may now buy a single card or sets of ten of one design.  Custom orders are always welcome :)  I will be listing artwork throughout the weekend and a few new pieces of jewelry.   I decided a sale might prompt you peoples n things to buy.  So, I'm running one!!! 25% OFF! If you leave a comment on the artfire site  ( you recieve an additional 5% off at checkout. So, that's the scoop....I miss some of you
Note To The Northeast From Nola
Dear Northeast, Wow, is your week about to suck. Potentially it will continue to suck for many months. But ultimately you'll come out of it okay. People find a way. You will become very resourceful, you'll bond with your friends and neighbors in ways you never expected, and you'll have a lot of love and help from the rest of us from far away, too. All that said, I hope you're ready for a fight. There might be some who tell you that whatever happens was punishment from God, that you're an idiot for living where you live, that your home should be abandoned. There will be people who tell you that it's your own damn fault. They'll say that you should have known, that you deserved this misery, that the rest of us shouldn't be responsible for taking care of you, that you are not worth saving. So stop your whining already. Well, to hell with them. Be safe. And if you need to, call us when you get to the other side. You can stay with us as long as you need to. Because when the shit flies
Notes: Pacers Pg Darren Collison
INDIANAPOLIS -- Elton Brand scored 20 points and Lou Williams added 19 to help the Philadelphia 76ers beat the Pacers 109-106 in overtime Saturday night, stopping Indianas winning streak at seven games. Rob Ninkovich Womens Jersey . Jrue Holiday scored 17 points and Andre Iguodala added 16 for the 76ers, who inched closer to clinching a playoff berth. The 76ers left the game needing just a win or a loss by Milwaukee to clinch a spot. David West had a season-high 32 points and grabbed 12 rebounds for Indiana. Tyler Hansbrough scored 17 points and Paul George added 16 for the Pacers, who could have locked up the No. 3 seed in the Eastern Conference with a win. Danny Granger, Indianas top scorer this season, had four points on 2-for-12 shooting. Philadelphia led 107-106 late in overtime when Indianas George Hill shot a quick 3-pointer. Philadelphia came up with the ball in a scramble, and Holidays breakaway dunk gave the 76ers a 109-106 lead with 12.4 seconds left. Indiana was called for
Not Everyone
Not everyone will appreciate what you do for them, you have to figure out who's worth your kindness and who's just taking advantage.
A Note From Roddybear
I have got a little to say about this Site that I have been a member of for a year now. when i first found Fubar, I got swept up in the game of it all, there are two directions you can go in this site, either  (Level up) or (Fu-Mafia).  I never took to the mafia very much, so I concentrated on leveling.  This site can be infectious, and very appealing, in twelve months I have spent at least two thousand dollars I estimate, money that I could now use as I am again out of a Job.   There is an enviroment here that preys on addiction, with the Bling, and the leveling and the excitment that comes when you run the large ability bling, like the God Modes, or Rockstars, cherry Bombs, and so on, you have all kind of friends. And I was just as caught up in the GAME as anyone else here, but no more. I have made some real Friends on here, just a few.   I take Issue with Baby Jesus, and the managment of this site for the Psycological Addiction that results from the tatics you use on here. I liv
Not Everybody Pays
A little old lady was walking down the street dragging two large plastic garbage bags behind her. One of the bags ripped, and every once in a while, a $20 bill fell out onto the sidewalk. Noticing this, a policeman stopped her, and said, 'Ma'am, there are $20 bills falling out of your bag.''Oh, really? Darn it!' said the little old lady. 'I'd better go back and see if I can find them. Thanks for telling me.''Well, now, not so fast,' said the cop. 'Where did you get all that money? You didn't steal it, did you?''Oh, no, no,' said the old lady. 'You see, my back yard is right next to the football stadium parking lot. On game days, a lot of fans come and pee through a knot hole in the fence, right into my flower garden. It used to really tick me off. Kills the flowers, you know. Then I thought, Why not make the best o f it? So, now, on game days, I stand behind the fence by the knot hole, real quiet, with my garden pruners. Every time some guy sticks his pecker through my fence, I surpris
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Not Easy As A Parent Wife Husband Gf Bf
I Was 18 yrs old I became a Military Wife Husband Drafted For Vietnam Just Married Oct Of 1967 ... Scared To Death Cried ... Got Divorced  June 1 1987 . Had 3 Amazing Son's I was Sitting On The Hallway Floor Listening To Chicago March 1988 ... There was a knock i answered it was my oldest son and a girl he was dating . He Said Mom I Have Something To Tell You  thoughts Ran Through My Mind Then He Said I Joined The Navy Gene & I Joined As a Buddy System ... I Was Happy I Was Scared Remembering He was The Same Age As His Dad When He Left . I Hugged Him I Said I'm Proud Of You For What You Want To Do . I went in sat on the floor and cried My First Born Is Leaving To Serve Our Country . I Seen Him Graduate OMG He Yelled Mom I Turned Their Stood My Son a Man Dressed In His Dress Uniform I Cried Happy Tears That May Day of 1988 . He Went To IRAQ Desert Storm All That ... They Went To Somalia They Helped a Village , Traveled around The World . He Made Sgt 8 yrs Navy Wanted Seals His Wife Deni
Note To Fubar
Really disgusted that u all would promote a date rape drug as bling as if its some sort of trophy of some sort! And anyone that has been victim to a roofie because this is the real SICK world that we live in...isnt seeing at all the humor or reasoning that a site like this would give shitheads the mindset to think roofies are at all cool WTF r u all thinking!!!!Absolutely turned my stomach !!Completely a disrespectful and insensitive Bling why dont u just PROMOTE RAPE ALREADY!!! OHH U JUST DID!
Note From A Gentleman
 It's was very nice and wonderful to see your unique and uncommon profile on here..Your natural beauty really amazed me,and don't know woman like you still remain on this earth,Because i thought angel live in heaven? But why you on this earth? well i just guess maybe God had pardon you for a man like me to love..As a matter of fact,since i have been going through profiles on here,..Have never seen a profiles like your's..and its certainly give me a chance to introduce my deeply feelings for you...   Pretty sure, I am no angel. Still though, I put this in my blog just for something to remember. There have been a couple of men that I wished had thought this way, out of the many men I have known. I didn't post this as a joke or complaint, so please don't think I did. I have the right to withhold his name, to avoid anyone making fun of him.  I have only gotten a few notes any where near this one. I realise that other people could of just cleared this, but I didn't. I am different and pr
A Note To My Friends & Foes
I know I haven't written for a few days but this has been praying on my mind. I've been on this site for almost 7 years, I've seen people come an go , I've witnessed drama and sometimes have been the cause of it. It seems like we get caught-up in fu-world and forget whats really important. People is what really counts , their friendship , their respect and the need to relate to other human beings . I realize that I come off as a sex-crazed Lady of the Night , but if you ever met the real Gina (which is Eugenia ) you would laugh , I am conservative , a little bashful and have very deep views on life and the after-life. I would give a helping hand to any who requested help from me , no matter the race or creed. We all bleed red , we all have had joy , pain and love. And we all have felt insecure at times. That makes us human. And by God , we all need to feel loved by someone. Now I choose the Art of Love because I feel that sex and having intense orgasms is needed in all our lifes. We
A Note From A Young Doctor...believe Me I Know How He Feels.
I too applied for medical school and was accepted.  After the first few years of studying abroad, I came back to the states to study full time at a college. I was excited, I knew that one day that I would save lives, and in the end lose a few along the way.  I wanted to go into neurosurgery, my dream was to attach a spine that had been severed, and make it work like it did before giving hope to millions who have/are wheelchair bound.  Giving them hope that one day, there will be a surgery that will help them be able to function normal again.  Unlike this young doctor, it was discovered that I have a genetic disorder called Dystonia.  This causes shaking in my hands, this would be the end of the program for me.  Yeah I could've went into something else, but nothing would make me happy I left the program altogether.  If I couldn't do what I wanted, there wasn't anything else I would be happy doing.  Now that Obamacare has come up, it's robbing the nation of the most brightest minds, and
Not Even Noon, 8 Fucking Am
MREATZDAPUSS: soooo sexy 6:04am J E S S A: lmfaooooooooo 6:04am MREATZDAPUSS: lol why is that 6:05am J E S S A: ur name, dude fuck off i eat chumps like u for dinner 6:05am MREATZDAPUSS: cool well u eat me and ill eat you  6:07am J E S S A: id rather chop ur penis off and feed it to you slowly 6:08am MREATZDAPUSS: lol hope you got a big knife 6:08am J E S S A: id rather use a little one, bit more painful
Not For Everyone!
Before you read the following THIS IS NOT MY LIST! 1. Tea bag - As you are sitting on a girl's face, repeatedly dip your scrotum in and out of her mouth, similar to a tea bag in a cup of hot water. 2. Hot Lunch - While receiving head from a woman, you shit on her chest. (a.k.a. the Cleveland Steamer) 3. The Stranger - Sitting on your hand until it falls asleep and then jerking off, eliciting the feeling of a hand job from someone else. 4. Donkey Punch - Banging a girl doggy style and moments before you cum, sticking your dick in her ass, then punching her in the back of the head. This gives a tremendous sensation, but for it to work correctly, the girl must be knocked out so that her asshole tightens up. 5. Golden Shower - Any form of peeing on a girl. (aka: watersports) 6. Pearl Necklace - Well known. Whenever you cum on the neck/cleavage area of a girl, it takes on the look of beautiful jewelry. 7. Coyote - This occurs when you wake up in the room of a nasty skank and you
Not Fat
I am not fat — just Big Mac friendly!
Not Feeling So Good !!
Hey Guys, To all of those who know me know I am going through rounds of chemo right now and I have bad days, weeks, and so on.. Well it has been a bad few days and I have not been feeling so well at all.. I just want to say thanks to all my family, friends, and fans.. And to all my new adds I am trying to get you approved as soon as I can and I know my blast has helped draw you all in.. So I want to extend my thanks to all my new friends and fans but please understand I am a little under the weather right now so that is why I am slacking on the comments and ratings.. If I miss u please let me know and I will get to it as soon as I can stay awake for a little longer than 30 minutes at a time.. I feel a little better today and am hoping I can get to all of you but not so sure so just wanted to let all of you know.. In the mean time please check out the lounge that is posted in the "New Lounge" area of my blogs, I promise you will be entertained even though I haven't been there in a fe
Not Falling Mudvayne Lyric's
"Not Falling" Always, known in, all my time, A little left of center now Reflect as I realize, That all I need is to find the middle pillar path to sit like the sun by a star in the sky and just be. Sinners, casting stones at me I... I stand, not crawling, not falling down I... I bleed the demons that drag me down I... I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (the center), not falling down (of calms within the eye) I... I'll bleed, (for no one), The demons, (but myself), that pull me down (for me and no one else) Goodbye, sunshine, I've put it out again, sad I'm over, personalities, conflicting, I don't need you, or anyone, but me, I'll just be, living my own life I feel my glowing center grow, infecting I feel alive Shovel dirt over lime, plant it in myself to sit like a seed under covers of earth and just be Sinners, pointing fingers at me I... I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (by myself), not falling down I... I bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myse
Not Fair To Me...
why is it that when you're talking to someone and getting to know them... and everything seems fine and dandy to you... do people just all of a sudden not talk to you??? or block you??? or whatever? without saying a word or giving a reason why... making you feel like you did something completely wrong or said something to piss them off. if you are talking to me... or getting to know me... please do not just buzz off without telling why first... i'm one of those people that need a reason because i can't just say "well fine, fuck you then." if you don't want to talk to me anymore. i need to know whether or not i did anything wrong or did anything/said anything to piss you off or make you uncomfortable. i just ask that people just let me know... that's all. is that too much to ask? **cry**
Not Fair
I never EVER get sick except for for maybe a couple sinus infucktions a year one in the fall and one in the spring cause of the change of seasons...but now Iam feeling like hell and then some all I wanna do is SLEEP and how in the hell am I gonna be able to find a freaking job if all Iam gonna do is sleep....woke up this morning w/a KILLER migrane and I still somewhat have they say NO rest for the wicked and I guess Iam just the wicked one....I was sick back in may for 2 weeks and when I was sick then my god thot that I was absolutley gonna die....So please someone Iam on my hands and knees begging come and take my sickness and yucky cooties away from me so I can feel better and to make matters even worse...Iam CRAVING the hell out of cheetos damn I know Iam not feeling well and besides Iam even cringing at the thot of sex now I know Iam sick
Not For The Innocent
I'm mean and I'm dirty, like none you've ever seen Bad habits drip like honey, no tongue can lick me clean I'm not of royal blood, I've never been discreet Better lock up your daughters, we're comin' to your town We're here for the slaughter, kick you when you're down Kick you when you're down We're not for the innocent, we're not for the innocent We're not for the innocent, let the beast run wild I've been damned,I've been cursed,I've been guilty and abused I spit the hangman in his face and hung him on his noose Habitual threat, I got you in my claws Gonna tan your hide, rip the flesh off your bones Look me in the eye, and you're gonna turn to stone You're gonna turn to stone We're not for the innocent, we're not for the innocent We're not for the innocent, let the beast run wild Better lock up your daughters, we're comin' to your town Better pray we're not around Let the beast run wild We're not for the innocent, we're not for the innocent
Not Far
after ive been doing the rounds, like the cherry slag i am!!! nobody is returning the favour, of rateing pages or pics xx
Not Fair...... So Not Fair!
sometimes i wonder if i'm really meant to be happy. i've not been truly happy ever in my life. everything happy in my life was always just out of reach. and it still is. every time i think i'm actually going to be able to do something that makes me happy.... something ALWAYS happens to stop me from it. i'm so frustrated i want to just scream and cry... yet i know that it won't help. one step forward... ten steps back... its the way my life has always been. and from the looks of it... it's the way it's always going to be.
Not For The Faint Of Heart
Not For You
searing pain feeling faint how do you stop? downturned smile oblivious all the while as i hide farther and farther away. warmth leaving emotions seathing watch me turn away. wear the mask live with only one task take away the feeling. grow together now and forever life tears away. cuts deeper bleeds forever you are amazing.
Not Feelinn Well...
Hey Everyone...I am sorry if you try to talk to me and I dont talk back. I just started feelin sick like 10 minutes ago and I feel like I am gonna puke. So please dont take it ya all. Vamp
Not For Love
Explanations for the 'that' that Hall & Oates won't go for and that Meatloaf wouldn't do for love. -Dress as a 19th century railroad tycoon (Specifically Leland Stanford). -Put down incorrect U.S. Census information. -Sculpt in Velveeta cheese food product. -Tape over any of their collection of 'Blossom' on VHS. -Miss a chance to see Cats live. -Give foot massage. ...... (From my Livejournal)
Not Feeling Good Today
Well I woke up feeling like somebody banged me in my head. I was suppose to do the rest of my christmas shopping today. I have to wait another time. I made other plans as well can't go threw with them now. So how is everyone else day going so far?
Not Fair
You said I hurt you The pain I feel still burns You said I neglect you let things by with no concern You said that I don't care What the hell do you want from me You said I ruined you Don't you see what you've done to me You said I wasted These years gone down unjust You fucking tasted And left me in the dust You said you hate me You should have left me behind The fact is you've mistook me Now there's nothing left to find When I fill you up, I cheat myself When I start you up, I beat myself When I let you go, I kill myself Can you rip me from this hell It's only fair!
Not Fair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Because of these new Rules, It looks as though I will only be able to Progress up to two more Levels and that is me Done, I AM SO ANGRY WITH MY PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not For Sale Campaign
The campaign to end slavery in out lifetime, there are 27 million people enlsaved today Not for Sale Campaign
Not Feeling So Hot
Ok, This is my first Blog. What better to write is that I'm getting sick & it sucks! My throat is killing me I'm coughing my head off plus running a fever. I think I'm going to jump of line and go take some meds. & go back to bed. I feel like hell! I will be back on later on this after noon or this evening.
Not Falling
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Not Feeling It At All
I totally do not like the new set up for the cherrytap site. It looks weird. I miss the old one way better. I know they are tryin to make it lookin more bar like but its ugly *cries*.
Not For Me...
baby girl, beleive i see, the fascination you have for me hope its a passing thing, cause i dont feel the same and your making me feel bad i dont deserve that worse yet, you lye about it even worse yet, i survived hell just to land face first, in the bottom of the frying pan worse even still survivings a pain paychecks disguised as anything i cant see Its becoming quite annoying and i cant stop destroying everything i touch turns to pain im broke and your boring. dont mean to hurt your feelings, i know how it is. to love completely, but they dont give a shit. feeling queezy, and your bout to get sick. please beleive me, i love ya like a lil sis. and it aint easy to not grab your ass after a couple beers, but somehow i manage. seriously though, i cant tell a soul that im scared to death of dying alone but thats the direction, i seem to be headed in, cause i push away everyone, that gets to close. not just you but there was this one girl that go
Not Feelin The Love Lately!
Ok so I met all these people and I try to keep up by saying hi, sending comments, talking when on line. BUT.... No one returns the favor. I miss you guys. You know who you are and have not talked to me in a long time. Please let me know you are there and didn't forget about me!!
Not Feeling So Hot
Woke up around 642am and started throwing up and had some chest pains. But it will pass hopefully.
Not Feeling Well :(
home today ill feel like crap head is going to explode miss you guys xoxo Chrys
Not For The Faint Hearted
Not For The Faint Of Heart
Just recently in Amarillo, a man was arrested for killing a 6 month old baby girl. The doctors also found out that the "Father" sexually molested this little girl. When I heard this, I cried. How can a man do this to a child? Evidently the "Father" has absolutely NO morals to his life. It is heart wrenching to know that there are people out there who get joys off by doing this to children. I wish there were stiffer laws for this kind of activity. Maybe they should cut the purps balls off(and NOT leave a thing, I.E.: nut sack and all), then slowly pull his toenails out. Believe me there are far worse words to put there, than you might think. It is really sad to know that the baby did die(which is for the better) from all this. ok, I am done, crying to hard to finish
Not Fair..
how did i love you? when did i start? was it there all along? i think back to when i first seen you. and i loved you then. i believe in love at first sight. when i held my son in my arms i knew that it exhisted. that there was a god and there was a heaven. from that moment on there was a future. something i never had or looked forward to before. then i met you. i love you and i think, "Did god make you for me? did he say when he created you, "you will be for jessica. you will make her happy when she is sad. you will hold her hand when she is lonely and lay with her at night. you will have babies with her and love her more than you love anything in this world. she will be yours and you will belong to her forever." did he? did he create you for me? because he knew i was lonely and that you would complete me? that you would raise my chin and look in my eyes and wipe my tears away. that with you i belonged? i love you. so completely. so simple. so why is it SO hard. why is it all
Not Feeling Well
Nothing seems to be going my way. My relationship ended, the friend Ive been aching to see here has been MIA and Ill be damned but I drank too much tonight and feel like crap. Things just havent been going the way I want them too. Some days, its not worth getting out of bed for this crap. Yes Im rambling and feeling sorry for myself. Im entitled. I just want some happiness and a warm pair of arms around me at night to reassure me and soothe me.
Not Fair
When I was a kid the playgrounds that I played on were sand blacktop, or a combination of them...When you were playing on the monkey bars and fell you learned not to fall again really quick.....when you fell off anything you either had the wind knocked out of you...or you recieved some kinda injury that taught you to be tougher......I took my son to school and looked at there playground and it was a rubber material under everything...I watched a little kid fall off the monkey bars, take a bounce, and get up and proceed to do the exact same thing I am all for making kids safer...but I always thought that the blacktop and sand were an important and humiliating lesson...they toughened you....they gave you cool scars...good memories and lessons on how to administer first aid on your we are teaching our kids to be wusses and that it is ok to do the same stupid stunt over and over because you will just bounce
Not Finished
Not Feeling Well Today
think i may be coming down with cold or something ...... kinda been in bed all day tryin 2 sweat out a fever with a scratchy throat ...... good thing the fellowship meeting 4 2nite was postphoned so i wont have 2 miss that ...... bring brinking extra fluids to see if i can head it off b4 it gets worst
Not Feeling Good At All
Yeah so I had to go to the doctor today and I found out not only was I having a miss carriage but that I was two months pregnant and so yet another sad day here :( I dont know if it was for the best or not but I know in my heart of course it was not what I wanted.. Why does shit like this have to happen?? Oh and the daddy knows .. and I dont even wanna go there about that shit ... Anyways, so I suggest noone piss me off or put me in a bad mood please xoxo ~ Tina
Not Feeling Well
I'm sorry for not being around, but the truth is... I havent been feeling well... I know I really should go see a doctor.. I am still down in my back and it has been over three weeks now... I think my blood pressure to be extremely high due to the birthcontrol pills the doctor has me on... So I didnt take them last nite and I will admit I do feel somewhat better.. but I do still experience my dizzy spells... Peace & Love To All, Sin.
Not Feeloin Well
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Not Feeling Well
Well i have the worse headache in eyes, i cant see right so i'm off to lay down, or something i cant stand the pain anymore i will be back tomorrow. I was going to call a friend back but i will call you tomorrow hun!! LAter be good all !!
Not Forgotten
You must remember every smile, every word, from family, friends, and or others. I learned long time ago that even pictures are important because with out them we do maybe have a thing to remember there face. when my niece was murdered there was shortage of pictures and the few there were everyone faught over. I got pictures and right now I can tell you what each picture means or what each one tells a story. If you miss someone one because they have passed away or maybe moved to a different place. That is a good thing because you still remember them. Even, when are lives take different paths and we marry someone else be it they are the right person or wrong. We never forget the right one. Love is different to everyone it means different things. Friends are different to everyone each person means a different thing to different people. I can remember each one of my friends eyes be them male or female because I looked into them every time we talked. I can remember the smell of my
Not For Points
I'm very bummed out today...not even sure why I signed in.......I found out one of my best friends is dying. She is 43 yrs old. She has lung cancer....and its just breaking my heart. We had an argument a few years ago and we didn't speak.... she found my profile on myspace and told me she wanted to leave this world on good terms and put the past behind her. Of course I agreed and was so happy to have her back in my life again. She will never see her children grow up......Sorry...I guess it helps writing this down.......and no its not for points......just my feelings!
Not Feelin' It
Just not into this whole work thing this week. I'm glad I have Friday off. The sooner this week is over the better. I just wish I had something fun to do Friday. I'll probably just hibernate. Its supposed to be raining that day anyway.
Not For Dogs And Cats
To be posted VERY LOW on the refrigerator door - nose height. Dear Dogs and Cats, The dishes with the paw print are yours and contain your food. The other dishes are mine and contain my food. Please note, placing a paw print in the middle of my plate and food does not stake a claim for it becoming your food and dish, nor do I find that aesthetically pleasing in the slightest. The stairway was not designed by NASCAR and is not a racetrack Beating me to the bottom is not the object. Tripping me doesn't help because I fall faster than you can run. I cannot buy anything bigger than a king sized bed. I am very sorry about this. Do not think I will continue sleeping on the couch to ensure your comfort. Dogs and cats can actually curl up in a ball when they sleep. It is not necessary to sleep perpendicular to each other stretched out to the fullest extent possible. I also know that sticking tails straight out and having tongues hanging out the other end to maximize space
Not Forgotton
spoken by a small child) Hi bubby it's me sissy how are you me mommy and daddy are fine I really miss you bubby I don't have any body to play with since you went away I asked daddy why you had to go but all he does is cry and wont talk about you mommy said you went to heaven cause Jesus needed another angel bubbie are you an angel now I'm waiving at you can you see me your bed room is still the same way so are you comming back soon I'm in school now bubby and it's fun this summer I got to go to disney land I asked mommy if you would be there mommy said no cause your in heaven far far away I miss you so much can I be an angel to so I can be there with you well I have to go to bed bubby do you have a bed time there I have to go bubbie so I'll talk to you tomorrow love you sissy. copyrighted@2001 written by David Warren there will be a vacant place in some ones heart today give thanks to all who have not forgotton tell all you know how much you love them toda
Not Feeling Well
After two long years and a recent months stay in the hospital I have finally been diagnosed with the disease that is slowly killing me. The disease is called Amyloidosis here is a short description of the disease. Amyloidosis is a rare and potentially fatal disease that occurs when substances called amyloid proteins build up in your organs. Amyloid is an abnormal protein usually produced by cells in your bone marrow that can be deposited in any tissue or organ. Amyloidosis can affect different organs in different people, and there are many types of amyloid. Amyloidosis frequently affects the heart, kidneys, liver, spleen, nervous system and gastrointestinal tract. The exact cause of amyloidosis is unknown, and there's no cure for amyloidosis. However, therapies are available to help you manage your symptoms and limit the production of amyloid protein. I am currently undergoing a steroid treatment until I am strong enough to start stem cell treatment
Not For Nothing
Her heart still flutters, beating a weak feeling. She puts up the steel walls, guarding it with everything. Finding nothing but hurt, pain at every turn. Love is her life. It's what she craves,desires, needs. Knowing everytime she lets someone in, It breaks more and more, crushed by emotions. Feelings of betrayal, anger and desolation Are now the feelings her loving heart knows best. She still clings to the hope that love will be revived. That her pain, anguish and torments aren't for nothing. One day, love will be hers again. It will. It must. She sits on the edge of a mountain face, looking down. Her feet dangle off, wind threatening to yank them away. Closing her eyes, her hair flows about, stinging her cheeks As the tears are drawn slowly down, driven by the hurts. Drawing a sharp, painful breath, she feels His presence. The One who take her from this feeling of dread and loneliness. He walks up behind her, wrapping her in His arms around her. He lifts her gentl
Not Feeling Well
As you can see im back online..Ive had a rough 2 weeks. I wont go into details but lets just say im glad its over... My job sucks! well not really but the hours suck.. 12 hour days are really kicking my ass.. Ive worked 36 hours in the past 3 days.. Im so overly tired i cant sleep.. i walk around like a zombie these days.. Its sexy let me tell ya... Anyways. I had a root canal done this last Tuesday and now its infected.. Soo im still in horrible pain. Im on antibiotics which dont seam to be helping much.. The new house is coming along.. I hate cleaning other peoples filth!! I could go on and on about whats went wrong since i moved in but im sure yawl would rather not hear it...LOL My boring life.. We have been watching movies for the past 2 weeks. Mainly Disney! I have yet to get our cable company out to my house...Anyways.. I better get going. I have a sleeping 2 year old on my lap which is getting pretty heavy! ( He isn't feeling well) :( I guess ill stop here because i really dont
(not From Me From The Bulletin Board) Major Fubar F*ck Up !!!! Private Albums R Open !!!
PLEASE if you have PRIVATE FOLDERS with nudes or kids pictures DELETE them NOW fubar FUCKED UP anyone can see ALL your photo's DON'T BELIEVE me ask me to view a private folder and SEE for yourself REPOST PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Added by KinkStar Sin: Guys, if you mark your folders as NSFW, then change them to family and go back in and clear off the NSFW's you should be good. this is what i did this morning and according to those i've asked to check for me it has worked ~Sin
Not Funny, Only Afhg W/ Understand.
So I go to work early, before most. I go to the armoury to check out my rifles, praying they are clean and operational. I go to Trans and check out vans, praying they have cruise control. I drive 5 hours to a small town in TX, listening to the radio and laughing with friends. I get to my destination, and we all fight about where to eat lunch. Finally we eat, and leave. I drive to a church, wondering where I will change clothes, praying its not a restroom. I put on a uniform, celebrated by some, hated by others, but praying I havent forgotten anything back home. I carry a soul, fold a flag, shoot my rifle, play a song, salute and leave. I now look back at what I have just accomplished, what is it that i just did and I feel ashamed. How could I be so selfish. I just paid respect to a fallen HERO, a veteran. Yet all I remember is how long the drive was, where I ate, where I changed clothes, how hot it was, and how long it lasted. I could not tell you his name, or w
Not Feeling Well
Not Feeling So Hot!!!
Not felling so hot today. I wish I felt better. Getting sick sucks and even when it is a chronic thing. Nothing antibiotics won't cure.
Not For The Weak Of Stomache. roommate has friends over tonight to study for finals. First of all, she yelled at me for the internet going out. Second of all, she embarassed me in front of everyone talking about the lube on my dresser. I wanted to look at her and say, "Hey, at least I got some. When was teh last time YOU got any?" (Her and her 30 yr old boyfriend barely have sex. To make matters worse....her friends had my look up some websites: Check it out if you think you are strong enough to handle it. I almost puked and had to exit out of one of them almost right away. Goodluck!!
Not Feelin It
So I am in a super special mood. And by super I mean I want to curl in a ball and hibernate till I die. I don't want to talk about it, I don't want to vent, or bitch or any of the other things people tell you to do when you are contemplating detonating the Earth. So, to save myself from pissing off all my fu-friends and fu-family I am going to be pretty introverted till I feel better. I luv you all. Chris (you know which one) and Jay (my Aristocrat) I will be in touch. Big Hugs! Anyway, you may find me bitterly stalking through the mumms, but if I don't reply to messages or comments, please don't take it personal. I am just not social right now. Be Well W.R.
Not Feeling It
Ok so here goes lets just get this out in the open and off my chest.I Do Not Like Feeling Used.My feelings are really hurt right now.I am a real person with real emotions so please treat me like it.Do befriend me and then just push be away to the side like im not even here.If you need points and thats why you have contacted me fine rate my pictures,blogs,send me a comment what ever.Do not start talking to me unless you intend on continuing the conversation.If you do and decide that you do not like talking to me fine so be it let me know thats all good do not just keep me on your list as head count.Do not ask me to join something and then make me feel like im being used.For those of you that see me as just another pretty face well that just shows how shallow you are.I am a real person I smile I cry I laugh I love I hate.Ihave real emotions just like you do.I do not like being treated like just that pretty girl thats nice to look to me get to know me...You may learn to love me
Not Falling For It Anymore
I just love when guys play games... don't you ladies? I am tired of the guys who say that they love you and then two weeks later they don't even speak to you anymore. Or the ones who like to use and abuse us women. Now... I can't say that I am a saint, cause I am far from it, but I am not going to sit here and talk to someone and lie about things. I am not to pretend to be someone that I am not.. hell... you see my pics.. I am me.. if you actually take the time to read my profile you will learn about me! I take the time to get to know people, or the person I thought they were, only to wind up getting hurt or stabbed in the back. Nothing new... it happens I know! But don't lie to me and tell me you care when you don't even care enough to tell the truth about who you really are.. whether it is lying about your age (not like it matters to me, but be honest about it) or whatever else you may lie to me about. I am done with games! There will be no more Beth falling for bullshit lines! From
Not Fair
ugh i thought i was getting off at 9 but no now i gotta work til 10 so not fair i just wanna go home already pshhh -throws a fit- lol
Not For Everyone.
Why do men think their cock is the most wonderful thing in the world with sometimes smelly hairy balls and all and i would be silly to not want to get on me knees and suck it everynight ? But when I want alittle mouth to pussy action he finds excuses or "falls asleep" ? Its the one thing I asked for on my birthday thinking that he cant deny me it on my birthday. So i skipped going over to my parents house after the movie thinking I'll get some action cause he said he would before. And what is he doing now? Snoring away. And i know my pussy aint bad.I'm very clean.I always shave.So I know thats not stopping him. Do I complain when i go down on him pubic hair and all? No. I think not.Why? Because i love him. And to be honest I dont even like cock... It's probably been a month or two since hes gone down on me. He used to a lot.And I loved it. I dont know. I'm pissed off. I'm gonna have to sleep in the other room. Probably wont even get the hint then. Sleeping
Not Fake!
You Are 16% Fake Fake doesn't even come close to describing you. You're totally natural, and proud of who you really are! Are You A Fake Girl?
Not For Kids
[] Mary had a little pig, She kept it fat and plastered; And when the price of pork went up, She shot the little bastard. [] [] MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB Her father shot it dead. Now it goes to school with her, Between two hunks of bread. [] JACK AND JILL Went up the hill To have a little fun. Stupid Jill forgot the pill And now they have a son. [] SIMPLE SIMON met a Pie man going to the fair. Said Simple Simon to the Pie man, "What have you got there?" Said the Pie man unto Simon, "Pies, you dumb #$%!" [] HUMPTY DUMPTY sat on a wall, Humpty Dumpty had a great fall. All the kings' horses, And all the kings' men. Had scrambled eggs, For breakfast again. [] HEY DIDDLE, DIDDLE the cat took a piddle, All over the bedside clock. The little dog laughed to see such fun. Then died of electric shock. [] GEORGIE PORGY Pudding and Pie, Kissed the girls and made them cry. And when the boys came out to play,
Not For Themselves.... Arrested Patriots
Not For Themselves.... Arrested Patriots
Not Feeling Well...
I think I am getting sick. Its an ear infection thats for sure. Its draining from my left ear. Ugh! Hence why I feel so light headed today. Making me my tomato soup and grilled cheese was a challenge plus I have to work tonite midnite to 8am then go back in at 2pm till 10pm. I am gonna be a zombie thats for damn sure. I need some meds to calm my throat and my head is throbbing...but I dont have the money to. So I am just surviving...its all I can do. Just glad its not as bad as it could get...I am gonna see about getting some change together and see if I have enough to get me something for it. "Should you die and be free of pain...or live and fight your sorrows?" I wonder...the free of pain sounds good. LOL. Hey I can have a morbid sense of humor cant I? I always say I can sleep when I am dead. I just feel like my life is a joke at times. My life needs an enema...preferably around May of 1975...the area I was conceived. Yea I kno...Mom called left me a message cry
Not Finished!
Lost in a world so dark No light to eluminate my path Wandering Reaching out for a guiding hand No hope No one will save this man!
-4- Not For The Squeamish!
Not Fair...
So yeah its friday and i'm working yay for me.. its pose to be my day off how great is that just geat huh.. i hate babysitting late on friday too maybe if i'm lucky their mom will get off work early i'm hoping anyways.. MySpace Graphics & MySpace Layouts
Not Feeling Very Well
For the past month and a 1/2 i have not been my self health wise... i have been working way to many hours and my body is telling me it is time to slow down with everything.. so i am not on as much as i used to be.. so i hope everyone is not missing me to much, but when i am on every now and then i will try and rate at least 100 pics for everyone or catch up on stashes.. so please keep me in your prayers and thoughts and i will do the same as much as i can.. METAL RON you are one sweet friend i want to thank you for the rates i did the best i could today i am sorry it was not much.. i will try and rate your pics more in the next few days stay sweet and again thank you
Not Feeling The Best
To all my friends family etc please bare with me if i am not on from time to time but am not well my BP is up so just taking things as they come will pop on each day if i'm well enough. haven't been on in 2 days so will catch up with you all. I know this wont be read but just letting you know? Thanks for all the comments you send i really appreciate it. Don't see my Dr till the 15th March also need a blood test & CT scan for my disc. My love to you all. Lisa AKA...~Jovichick ~
Not Fair...
First off let me just say that I know that life isn't fair and that it isn't supposed to be however there is no way in this world that one person is supposed to endure so much pain. I am loosing/have lost another person that I have held near and dear to me to Heaven. Now whether or not this place actually exists is a topic for another day but for my purposes at this very moment it does. It doesn't necessarily have to have the name Heaven, no I think I am going to call it Utopia for now as it is the perfect place to be. Too many of my loved ones are there, granted they are now at peace and are away from this world, away from the pain, and the hardships we all must continue to face daily. Cancer needs to be stopped....NOW! No one should have to fight that hard to live only to loose in the end!!! And the most wonderful thing about doesn't just hurt and affect one affects each and every person in the patients life! Each person endures the pain and strife w
Not For The Faint Of Heart Or Easily Offended
what the hell is going on with dipshits... okay so i understand as do most women that men are disgusting little shits.... now just as my hope for mankind is growing and i'm starting to see some decency in the masculine of our race...dumb fucks left and right are emailing me blatantly for sex!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!! what part of my page makes you horny little snots think i'm gonna rush to your hotel, give you the best sex of your life (mind you i'd probably have to fuck the hell out of you just to feel alittle pressure).. and then what ?..go home and finish the job my damn self...oh yeah that sounds like my idea of a great night...warning to any cheap, lazy whores out there i might just show up to cut the fucker off and shove it up your ass.. see how you enjoy having your filthy dick rammed inside.. better luck doing it the old way and hit up a bar near close and pick out the drunkest girl there to rape.. o yeah that's right she's too fuckin drunk to say no.... low class sleazy, disea
Not Fitting In
Sometimes I just feel like I don't belong, no matter how I try. All I ever hear is well it is up to you. Actually it is up to others to accept you, and like you. If people don't accept you then your noting going to fit into a group, now matter how small or large! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is 9:30pm and I am home and BORED! This just sucks big donkey weeny!
Not Feeling It!!
I'm in a crappy mood. Don't even know why... grrrr.. oh well :(
Not Funny 2 Me...
Not From Today's Lunch But I Just Found It...
Figured I'd eat the cookie since I have the munchies. "The next few days are a lucky time for you. You can take a chance." Does this mean I'm gonna get lucky?!? 8-P
Not For Ladies, But If You Read, Leave A Comment
Every guy out there knows that there are different types of vagina or "choch" (pronounced Choach) as I like to call it. I mean we love it and yall already know we talk about it, so here it is just in case you didn't know ladies. 1. The Choch that smells good. 2. The Choch that feels good. 3. The Choch that feel and smells good. Now these are the main three I personally worry about, because like so much shit in life, you can't judge a book by it's cover, meaning there are sone Choches out there that don't look that good (hair everywhere, no kinda shape to it, kinda nappy, or even the shape if kinda off center) that feels and smells good. So the thing with us guys is that we kinda judge you on each. Oh, let me make this clear, just because it doesn't smell good, doesn't mean it smells bad, every dude know the "vagina" smell, in oposed to the good smelling Choch or even the dreaded stinky Choch. This is my own grading smell, so fellas if you will, leave a comment, let these lad
Not Fair
I was down rated a two. And when I went into his profile he had it blocked for friends only. Now how can some one rate you if you can't rate them?Because their profile is bocked for friends only
Not Fair. Not Fair. Not Fair.
One of my aunts and one of my uncles has cancer. I went to see my aunt today. One of the hardest things I've ever had to do was look at her and hear how hard things are for her. I was so strong the whole visit, but only because I was FIGHTING to keep those tears away. They were definitely about to break surface. I had prepared myself for her lack of hair...but it still suprised me. Cuz it just didn't look like her at all. And when I had called her before hand to see if she was up for company, she hadn't even recognized my voice. Today was really hard. And it's so hard hearing what she's going through and knowing I can't help. I try to be optimistic but it's never been a strong point of mine...frankly, I suck at it. I just wish I could fix everything for her and for my uncle that also has cancer. Unfortunately I'm not magic. *sigH*
Not Finished!!!! Thought I'd Throw It Up Here Anyway
PUNK ROCK: The History and Origin of Punk Punk Rock, what does it mean? Where did it originate from and how has it impacted today's musical society? These are just a few of the questions that I will attempt to answer with this thesis. Oxford states that punk is a rock style that emerged in the late 1970s. It was a "back to basics" rebellion against the perceived artifice and pretension of corporate rock music-a stripped-down and often purposefully "non-musical" version of rock music. states that punk rock is a genre of rock and roll and a movement that was based around the values of anti-establishment. The "punk rock movement" was established between 1974 and 1976. Now, ever since Punk has hit the mainstream, people have debated on whether Punk started in the United Kingdom or in the United States. In my honest opinion, punk didn't start on any specific continent; it started in the hearts and minds of rebellious men and women who didn't see the world the same as ever
Not Feelin Any Love :(
Ok so I wanna be pink and Im thinkin that someone on this site may love me enough to buy me a month V.I.P. If someone will the person that does will get: 50 of the 100 11's during H/H Owned By (there name) In My Name Profile Comments 3 a day for the month A V.I.P. Gift Once A Week 100 Pic Comments I'll Rate There Stash During Happy Hour Pimp Out There Profile And Up To 5 Personal SFW Salutes If Wanted If your interested let me know.... Please Repost For Me **This is thursday night I won't be back on until saturday.... maybe sunday!!!** ♥SexyMel♥ ♥SexyMel♥CaptainOfSexyMel'sSexyTrain♥GoRateX-Dealer♥@ fubar
Not Falling Apart
Not Falling Apart Danced all night, slept all day Careless with my heart again Fearless when it comes to playing games You don't cry, you don't care Afraid to have a love affair Is that your ghost or are you really there? Now I can't walk, I can't talk anymore Since you walked out the door And now I'm stuck living out that night again I'm not falling apart Weather on a sunny day Time slows down; I wish you'd stay In the darkened room she clutches her bear The one that he gave her from the summer fair She cried into the fur that was already wet The only light from her muted TV set With a sob, she reached for the ice cream tub Knowing full well he would be at the pub Drowning his sorrows? Too good to be true He's probably hitting on somebody new She closed her eyes and pictured his face His stupid smug grin always glued in place The way he always thought that he was God's gift That's what it was that made her quickly shift Two hours later she
Not Friday
Something wicked this way comes.
Not Fair
it was just a little picture lol and it gets taken off here lol its not that bad roflmao
Not Far To Go:)
This young lady is getting sooooo close to Godfather she can practically taste it! So go to her page, show her some love, rate, fan, rate stash, comments, bling, whatever it takes to get her there! 225,409 Points to go! Let's get this done!!! MacARoni™@ fubar
Not Feeling Much Love Here!
Ok, I hate to whine but I don't feel much love here, I put up a kissing booth and only my girlfriend kissed me which is great but c'mon ladies, I know there are more that want to do that or am I really that bad to look at here? Geez, same thing with the crush thing that I put on my profile, not the crush thing on Fubar either but the crush thing, I put on here, only one woman has said they had a crush on me and it's my girlfriend again, I had anoother one but she's no longer on Fubar here at all thanks to some stupid bull crap from someone who was stalking her! I think I know better than that there is more than just her with a crush on me here! lol I look at it this way, it's supposed to be fun and interesting or I would not put that crap on my profile as it is! Besides, I've done the crush thing when some ladies have had it on there profile or the kissing booth too here.
Not For Minrs 2
my fingers caress your hips you quietly lock the door my tongue flutters between your lips you moan for so much more you pull out the cuffs their's nothing i want more you know i like it rough my body is yours to explore oh the scented sensious lotion and the romantic massaging oils you know all the pleasureable motions my heart is yours to spoil your body i have longed to feel i have always wanted to scream oh god is this really real or just a really good dream
Not Feeling Like Myself Tonight
Tonight is one of those nights. I'm not sure what's going with me or why this is the timing. I just feel completely overwhelmed yet completely alone.Sometimes late at night I get to thinking or feeling this way and it's odd because im not a very mopey kind of girl and nothing brings it on. I guess all day I'e been hinking about the strangest things....old health....memories....past relationships that I will never quite understand the loose ends. I wish I could just put everything aside and smile at where I am....But no matter how happy I think I am, I know there's a lot missing. And I guess I'm just not sure how to fill that void. I guess pain is only skin deep, unless of course, it burns through every inch of your body....
Not For The Weak Minded
SIT BACK AND RELAX Its five o'clock and I’m so happy to be leaving work right now. It seemed like nothing went right today, patients getting on my nerves, charts getting mixed up and to make matters worse, someone ate my lunch out of the fridge in the nurse's lounge. I should have been home two hours ago but, the chick that was supposed to relieve me of shift called and said that she was going to be late. Of course I got stuck covering for her, knowing she wouldn't do it for me. I finally get out and as soon as I get to my car I just stand there and take in some fresh air. I pulled out my cell and dialed your number but I got no answer. I tried calling the house and again I got no answer. I just figured you were on a court somewhere playing ball with your boys. I started my car then fingered through my cd’s until I came across "Musiq Soulchild". I put the cd in the player then skipped through songs until "Love" flowed out of the speakers. My mood finally started to mellow out. I se
Not Freshmeat Anymore
well, looks like i don't have to be called freshmeat anymore. doing pretty good in here. have a long way to go. but maybe u like my profile and help more . I do see that its , easy to ask to be a friend in here, but than they never say anything to u. i did talk to one friend on here, but that didn't last long. so come on if u what to ask to be a friend, than i am not freshmeat no more , talk to me lol.
Not For Show "revision"
i like fubar, i really like some of the people i have met on here. but what is with the rest of them? i mean, people can't return rates and people can't be fans in return. well i'm done with the bs, i have friends in the real world, and when i see them, i buy them real drinks and try to let them know i appreciate them, so this i will also do on fubar, but please know, just like in the real world, i do not put up with disrespect, disrespect me and i will only believe that karma comes around.
Not Fair Sometimes
ok so i found out today that one of my best friends who is/was 7 1/2 months pregant is going to have to give birth to a still born. Shes torn about it as im sure any mother would be. I cant imagine what it would be like to have to go into labor and birth the child that even though you havent met yet but you love more than life wont every give that first beautiful cry that crashes threw you with such relief. She wont ever hold her baby and wait for him to open his eyes and smile at her..she will never get the joy of his first words or first steps......i was up with her earlier waiting..trying to help her along....and she asked me to be there when she gives labor and of course i waiting for the phone call to say shes close enough to actually have the baby....its just heartbreaking...then at the same time this teenage baby (no im not ragging on teenaged mothers..i was one myself..but some of those girls just shouldnt have babys they havent and refuse to grow up enough to have
Not Forgotten
I was married and my Wife passed away from colon cancer... I did everything i could to be the best husband possible and i wish that the children still had there mother here with me to raise them. She was a wonderful mother and just had this influenc upon people within the first few moments of meeting them. I was working for a restaurant corporation learning to be a corporate trainer and was gone for 2 weeks at a time and the first weekend that i got back home i took her out and sang the song that is in this video for her. It was the longest time till now that i had ever been away from my family. i hope you enjoy the video. I miss you baby
Not Forgotten
I have not forgotten you Or the things you would do The way you smiled at me Just how happy we'd be Friends forever is what we'd say But it didn't turn out that way Laughing, crying, and talking Happy by myself, just walking On the phone for hours on end On one another we learned to depend To brighten each others day In one very special way Joking around and making plans too Thinking of all the things we could do The fun we would have when we meet Because of complications, we admit defeat You're not there like you use to be However, your memory will remain with me You will not be forgotten so easily, You know I will never forget what we had to let go It was special and I'll treasure it forever If they ask if I regret if, I will say never What we had was special, it will remain that way And on that subject I have nothing more to say
Not Feeling Well ..
alright, so this may be just a bit extreme, but whatever thats just who i am.i want nothing more in my life then to find the perfect person to spend the rest of my life with, but these days i just dont think that person is out there anymore. and everyone seems to think they are that person. so here are some guidelines for what I want and dont want... pretty much if you have these things dont talk to me.. 1. kids or want kids- i dont want em and i dont want a man that thinks he can change my mind cause he wants em, sorry 2. if youve been married, sorry. im afraid of marriage and dont believe in divorce, so if youve been there, im sorry. 3. smoker, heavy drinker or drug abuser- dont get my wrong i drink from time to time, i just dont want an alcoholic or pot smoker, whatever. 4. if you live with your parent, dont have a vehicle and or drivers license, dont talk to me. the last thing i need is another free loader. 5. you must also have a freakin job! i get that times are though but
Not Fitting In The Social All Those Lying,2 Faced, Back Stabbing,stupid,unexperienced Lazy Pricks That I Used To Work For
i've been taught to work or u don't eat..... been taught to do the job the best it can be done..... been taught to have honor and honor those before me..... been taught to respect those that have earned it..... been taught to be truthful to myself and others..... been taught to be loyal to those who have earned it because it's truely priceless..... been taught the "golden rule"......... these things made me to the man i am yet still cannot seem to fit into the social structure of life........... has it gone that far that it's just a myth or now must it be one of many facades u must maintain in order to survive the work place because it seems that that's how companies run instead of doing it right and getting the job done...... yet then again i've been told to cow tow,eat it,bite my tongue and do some thing stupid which i know not to be right why why why whyWHY does being a  man change when i have to kids then how can i teach without been a role model am i to be come which is
Not Fair
Life often comes at us with TNT force, leaving us emotionally tentative and spriitually bewildered. Our circumstances often don't seem fair and certainly don't appear to me normal. But God plunges us into the water of the Great Sustainer.
Not For Prostitution!
I was recently incarcerated in the Las Colinas Detention Facility for failure to appear. Apperently I was supposed to show up for court ordered classes whether or not I was able to pay the 200 bucks they wanted. What  bothers me is the way the officer came knocking at my door stating matter-of-factly how I was wanted for prostitution! ha me a prostitute yeah right. I told him i dont get enough sex as it is being a 4yr olds mommy lol let alone get paid for it shit at this point if I ha money to spend trust me it would be th other way around and I would be paying for sex of course he would have to give me a free sample or demonstration (let me watch him with another woman) so that I know I am not getting ripped off). Anyways I got taken in and it turns out that my charge drunk in public is categorized under the same penal code as prostitution just a different section......go figure....officer was doing his job but not reading the info right! he was cute too =/
Not Funny, But Ironically Comical
My co-worker had to serve jury duty today. We've all been there. Generally boring but rather uneventful. Unfortunately, that was not the case for her. She went to go to lunch when they asked if anyone owned a blah, blah, blah, license plate number. She was like, yeah, that's my car. We need you to go to the security office. At first she was thinking this wasn't good but thought maybe she just parked in a spot she shouldn't have. Not so. They told her that her car had been vandalized. Naturally upset, she asked them WTF? Don't you people have cameras?! They told her they did and that she could file a police report if she wanted. Oh no! WHY would I want to do that?! They smashed her window, ripped off the glove compartment door. They tore off her panel to take the CD player/radio out (which they did get along with all of her CDs and her new iPass that she just bought). She said they used such force that even her stick shift is all fucked up. But the kicker of it all? They left her a pr
Not Facebook
This is not Facebook, I'll tell you what book! Slutbook? They need to call this Fuckbook. Picture lookin good, but in person. . . Yuckbook. Hellbook, Tellbook, bitches can't Spellbook. Hate behind your back, but in person wish you Wellbook. Glitchbook, Snitchbook, fake family Listbook. Posting on her page, this is trying to steal your Bitchbook. Rudebook, Feudbook, tell your every Movebook. Don't even need a t.v. this shit is Newsbook
Not Finished Yet. Not About Anyone Specfic
Please Master,  I want to be your slave, I want to take care of you. I want to behave, I want to do the best i can do. I want you to hold me, I want to stay in your arms. i want to make you see, I want to be taken by your charms.     this is a work in progress just had to save it
Not For All
i just found out the rules on fubar are not enforced equally. I didnt want to believe this was true but now i do. Has anyone else found this to be true?
Not Finished Yet, Preveiw ;p Warning: Masochism.
I roam the streets, night by night. Eagerly waiting with fearfilled eyes. The way you hurt me is a sinful delite, the torture I crave when you're away. When you don't want me I'm so ashamed. I'm back to my safe place, way out of sight. Deep in the graveyard and out of the light. Now I'll sway in the wind with my eyes closed tight, and patiently wait for my master tonight. Headlights? I hide behind a headstone. Then he steps out and my blood runs cold. He staggers twards me and I bow my head, I smile and cry with hopeful dread. What will he do with his blade this time? How many times will I cream on his knife? His hand on my chin I raise to my feet, his lips against mine and my body goes weak, he catches me. A stinging pain in my neck again, I moaned and tiredly grabbed his hand. I opened my eyes to a fires crackle, cuffed to the truck while my feet are shackled. whisky and cigarettes overwhelm the fires scent, shirtless and drunk, he walks out of the tent. Six foot something, with the
Not For One Goddamn Minute!!!
 Do you REALLY think,I can't let go?I've lost more in my lifetime,than most will ever know.I have fought every step,of the FUCKING way!!!And I am standing tall,VERY PROUD of who I am today!KNOWING that my parents,would rather WATCH ME FUCKING DIE.Than show me the love and affection,I yearned for inside.I was that SICK ASS families play toy,and each had a turn!Feeling the heat from the inside out,a fire that CONSTANTLY burned!Running for my life,thinking my cousin was dead.I ran for NOTHING!Choking on my very own bloodshed!! Hearing my own body,attacking itself!While starving to death,through all the pain that I felt!Having the only person I trusted,almost cost me my life!Staring back at my mother,through blood soaked eyes! Then watching as my grandmother,forgot a little at a time.Trying to hold on to what was left,of her mind.Not knowing the man I loved,most of all.Was sick,he was already gone when I got the call.Going to pay my respects,to the best man that ever lived!KNOWING he alw
Not For Me
My heart won't get tossed  to burn in hell I won't stand being bossed I'll do very well Less lines will be read up until I die dead This thing is not for me so free I will be free as a freebird and as I have heard once your tied and bound your wings can't be found I alone can hold my own heart I give it to another it can fall apart This thing is just not for me so I will remain totally free its much better this way I can breathe everyday no signed deal to get used no contract for being abused chained to another for life just for the joy of being a wife I think not no selling so it can't be bought I am free, so I am me don't want to be carried so I won't get married
Not For The Easily Depressed
People have been asking the question “Why are we here?” for centuries.  I think I have found the answer.   The question needs clarification first than the answer will be given.   When people ask “Why are we here?” they mean “What is our purpose to live?” or “Why do we exist?”  Ask a religious person and their answer might be to serve their god or something along those lines.  This answer is unacceptable.  I wouldn’t want to serve a god that created me just to serve him/her.  Would you?   The answer to the ultimate question is…. 42. I’m jesting, of course.  The real answer is that we have no purpose.  Before you blow my answer off, you should think about it.  Everything else has a purpose; either to feed other things, clean other things, or to protect other things.  Even excrement and urine have a purpose.  Excrement gets rid of unwanted things in the body, be it human or animal and urine is used in a variety of ways
Not Going To Be A Good Day.
Okay so I woke up at like to 2:30 today since I went to bed 6AM. Then the phone starts ringing off the hook for my mother inlaw. Everyone wants to know. Where is she? How the heck do I know?!?!? I was asleep! Then I hear the neighbors are being assholes. No big surprise there. Ever since I moved in with my bf, where ever we live the neighbors are asshiles. So then my son decides he wants to act a fool. Which isn't surprising really since he's been acting weird lately. Then my bf comes in yelling about shit I can't control! Plus he's demanding I walk him to the check cashing place. Pffft! Right, like I am going to jump because he said so. Now I am going to do laundry and do my paper for school. I already have a headache that is spreading from the front of my head, to the back and creeping down my neck. >_< So I retreated to my room and am hoping the Tyenol I took will be enough.
Not Good Enough
I want to hide I'm not good enough Not even for him He kept telling me to see other people And then he wanted me "It hurts me every day you're not here" So you hurt me more You're saying it's not even good enough that I've been here for you I've been here when you needed me "I think it would be best I know I sound cold And I'm sorry but this isn't working" I have been trying so hard I didn't tell him about anything wrong Told him only about good things to keep him feeling good He's out at sea... I told him I'm sorry I've been trying my heardest He says " no I'm not trying hard enough." "don't be sorry I should be sorry" "and I'm sorry I think we should just stay friends" What am I? A trade around doll??? I'm not good enough for anyone?! I guess that's true now I have another reason to go away...
Not Going To Be Online
Jen's surgery is today and we are leaving about 0530-0600. Her surgery is at 1000 but it takes two hours to get to the hospital. I will keep everyone updated through her recovery as well. As you can probablly guess I won't be on to much tomorrow.
Not Good Hehe
Not Gonna Be On Cherry Tonight....
my mom is heading to the hospital via ambulance...having heart probelms im gonna take a break from LC!!! but i will be back soon enough
Not Going To Be On Much.
I'm sorry to all of my friends, I am going to be moving to a different town soon. I will be spending a lot of my time packing my stuff, and then moving. I'm not too sure as to when I will get my DSL on and running again, it usually takes 2 weeks after I get my phone turned on. I thank you all for your understanding, and I will come on as often as I can.
Not Getting On For A While
After being hacked and nothing being done about it, I just dont want to get on anymore. Im taking a break and not sure how long it will be. If I decide to leave for good I will be sure to say goodbye to the friends I have left.... If you play WoW, you can find me on the Dreanor server as Mythickah Buried at Buried at Buried at
Not Getting Better
I know now that my dads not going to get better. we found out about the lung cancer , maybe 3 or so months ago. i guess its pretty advanced. they gave him very strong chemo maybe 4 times. no change in the cancer. 2 days ago the doc told him he could try once more with this different chemo. but wouldnt really advize it. since my dad is already so weak, from the other stuff. it could be bad. he told him he could try it. and that hes willing to fight (with him). or he could just forget it and go home and spend the holiday with his family.:( He chose to fight. i do not know how to handle this anymore. i am so....... scared. i feel like im falling apart. and if im feeling this way now. how do i handle what may come? my dad is just 60 yrs old. im his only daughter. 3 brothers younger than me. i wish this was all a bad dream.
Not Going To Be Having A Very Good Christmas.
It all started out tonight. I don't know whats going threw my mothers head. Tonight we was all having dinner. Ok I know I am hard to shop for for christmas so I thought I would tell her what I wanted for christmas. She looks at me and tells me I am not getting you anything for christmas. She said you don't need anything, I bought stuff for your brother and sister and thats enough. Now I can understand if what I was asking for was very high priced or something. But its not its only $30. Now I know some of you that read this will think that I am crazy and think that can be expensive which yeah it can be to some. But hell she bought my sister a new tv and a dvd player, which she already has both that works perfectly fine. God only knows what she got my brother I can just imigine. I don't get why she is so cold towards me. I know she wasn't joking when she said I am not getting you anything for christmas just by the tone of her voice and Facial expression. I don't even want to go over to h
Not Going To Be On Until Tomorrown Night
well had a death call today, picked up the body, tomorrow was going to be a day off tomorrow, but the family wants the funeral tomorrow. So we have to get the body and every thing ready tonight for tomorrows funeral. I am just on a break now, had to get something to eat. and going back over there. and when i get home going to bed and getting up early tomorrow to finish the finial prep. Oh, FYI, This will be the first funeral I have been in charge of. But the family really seems to like me, but I will have a lic funeral director from another funeral home watching over me the whole time, to make it legal and to critic me for the owner of the funeral home, so I best do it well. Well talk to you all something saturday afternoon or saturday night, take care.
Not Gonna Cry Anymore
Rising with the morning sun I turn to greet the dawn, Knowing I must face another day.... Sleepless night behind me, Just a memory of pain, My heart has always been a cross to bear.... Lord, I know the sunshine, But, I feel the tears of rain Falling down to wash my sins away.... I'll try hard to remember So I won't be fooled again, Hey, ain't gonna cry no more today.... All around me, shadows fall, Tho'day has just begun, I realise I'm on my own again.... Memories of broken dreams, As distant as the sun, Are drifting like an acho in the wind.... Lord, I know the sunshine, But, I feel the tears of rain Falling down to wash my sins away.... I'll try hard to remember So I won't be fooled again, Hey, ain't gonna cry no more today.... Babe, I thought about it, But, it just ain't done no good, You hold my heart and soul within your hand.... All the time, you're in my mind, I never thought you could be so blind, Maybe someday I will understand.... Lord, I know th
Not Good!
If ya guys dont see me for awhile, it is because the duct tape finally gave out holding this piece of shit computer together! I was already looking at getting a laptop...this may have to happen sooner! Not sure why I just blogged this, but hey...there it is.
Not Gonna Be On Again Until Friday!
Ok, I wont be on at all tomorrow..have a Military Ball to get ready for and go to..gonna miss ALL my cherrytap friends!! I am soo nervous!! lol this is my first!! So wish my luck everyone! You guys have a great night and day tomorrow!! I will see you all on Friday!! Lots of LOVE!! Lost
Not Gonna Be Around Much
Not that I was around much to begin with. ... if you want to keep in touch outside of CT my email is
Not Going To Be On As Much
I just wanted to let all my peeps know that I have some real life drama going on and a LOT of job stress, that coupled with ISP issues has slowed me down drastically. So im not able to be on as much and when I am, unable to do much more than just catch up with new add requests and messages. Just dont want anyone thinking my lack of user comments or chats in shoutbox means I am being a bitch. much to the contrary, I miss you all so much already! Much love and smooches, ~Temptress~
Not Gonna Give It Up
Not Guarenteed
Whatever traspired yesterday matters not today for tomorrow is not guarenteed to be.
Not Good Enough
Tears fall rapidly As I sit alone here sadly Your face in my head My heart feeling dead. I know that it's over Which makes my heart even lower God, I want there to be a you and me But it's plain that it's just not meant to be. Now it's time to accept the true scene Time to let go of the dream You wont kiss me in the moonlight rain or the snow And why I'm not good enough I guess I'll never know
Not Gonna Be Possessed Anymore
starting today..... I can be whole without being SOMEBODYS possession..... Music Video Codes By Music
Not Good Enough
Tears fall rapidly As I sit alone here sadly Your face in my head My heart feeling dead. I know that it's over Which makes my heart even lower God, I want there to be a you and me But it's plain that it's just not meant to be. Now it's time to accept the true scene Time to let go of the dream You wont kiss me in the moonlight rain or the snow And why I'm not good enough I guess I'll never know
Not Gonna Cry Mjb
Not Gettin Any At Home
is it wrong to look for random ass if ur not getting it at home?? cause i find it impossible to find but yet friends find it erryday.
Not Gettin Drunk
Ok ever had this happen? U go out...try to get drunk....drinks a whole shit load......drink for hours...and walk out totally sober??? I was like wtf??? LMFAO...Oh well!!!
Not Good Enough For Truth Or Cliche
Hurtful words, From my enemies of the last five years, What's it like to die alone? How does it feel when your tears freeze, When you cry, The blood in your veins is twenty below. Sitting in this room playing Russian Roulette, Finger on the trigger to my dear, Juliet Out from the window see your backdrop silhouette, There's blood on my hands and it's something I cannot forget So for now, Take this down a notch, Crash my car through your window, Make sure you're still alive, Just in time to kill you. Sitting in this room playing Russian Roulette Finger on the trigger to my dear, Juliet Out from the window see your backdrop silhouette There's blood on my hands and it's something I cannot forget I can't take this anymore. I cannot feel what you've done to me
Not Going To Matter To Anyone But Me...
But today is the birthday of a friend... The one I crush on... His 21st... YES I like them young (still trainable and usually not as deceitful)... I'm not going to do anything about the crush though... I don't make the first move... And I hardly ever see the guy to even attempt it... And the fact that his newest baby was just born yesterday morning (doing good from what I heard but didn't hear if it was a boy or girl)... And the fact that he has a new girl toy... Besides... I'm not looking to be anyone's girlfriend or whatnot... I'M DONE with relationships... All I want is a guy friend (or maybe more than one, and/or a chick) that is willing to have "relations" every once in a while... That can be honest with me and keep things casual and maintain a friendship... On another note... This tipped my "happy meter"... The stupid bitch that keeps parking her truck in the handicapped spots without a tag... Her truck alarm went off 10 times last night because the spot she was o
Not Going To Be On Much
Hey Everyone, Not going to be on this for a couple of weeks. Flying out tomorrow for some medical stuff and going to be gone till mid July. Just wanted to tell all of you so you don't think that I am ignoring you. Bye for now!! Hugs and Kisses, Sarah (Never Said I Was An Angel)
Not Good
I have not been around for a while because I have been very ill. I cannot keep down food or water and I now have an appointment tomorrow to have a port put in my arm for fluids. Not a pretty site. I hate being so weak I have to sit in the shower instead of stand. Please Goddess give me the strength to get through this summer with my sanity still intact. I have court on friday for an unpaid no insurance ticket. I know the judge and I know it will be dismissed it just finding the energy between now and then to be there.
Not Good
I was talking to this senior citizen at the supermarket today, she was telling me that her benefits were cut off because she made too much money and the government thought she could make it without the assistance the government offers. This appalled me! This woman was 75 and worked 15 hrs a week at the local library, how can she make it? While we spend billions and billions of dollars on a war that is both pathetic and shameful, this poor woman who worked all of her life and paid her taxes like she was supposed to is left to buy cans of vegetables and live on ramen noodles soup! What has this country become? It sickens me that we are one of the richest countries in the world yet minimum wage is lower now than it has been in 35 years. When is someone going to step up and make a REAL difference in how this country is run, when is someone NOT going to be selfish. I am not here to bash American because I love this country, the freedom we have, the opportunity it offers but it pains me that
Not Going To Give Up
I am going to prove every one wrong. I can do it. No matter what life trys to hit me with. No more am I going to live this life. I am done. Going to get better. One last chance. No more chances left so i cant fuck it up.
Not Gonna Be Around For A While
Hey everyone just wanted to let you know that I will not be around for a few days. I might be able to check in here and there but that will be it. For those of you who do not know my dads health has been failing he had a tumor back in April that was removed and thy type of cancer it was it traveled through the blood stream and went to his lungs. The cancer is now in his stomach liver and intestines. The nursing home has finally called in hospice for him so we are nearing the end. I am going to be spending the next few days with him. Please keep my family in your prayers this is a very hard time for us right now. Thank you all very much and I will try to keep everyone posted when i can. Missy
Not Good Enough
Too short Too big Not skinny enough Not needy enough For you to like But look past that all You just might see something you like Such as an independent woman Who wants to be yours To love you the way you should be Standing behind you Whenever you need me Even though Im not your type And you wont give me a chance I will always be here for you
Not Gonna Get Us!!!
Not Goin To Be On Fer A Few Dayys
eh which sucks i havent been home secens fridayy i been at the hospital with my great grandmal she might die cus she got Cancer not shur wat kind but its not cool for me she help me out alot when i was little n im gonna miss her alot. so im not gonna be on fubar fer a couple more dayys cus im been pritty besy with my grandmal n the fact tht my sister is home from the army n this maybe my last time to see her be4 she gets ship out over seas.. so leve sum love just not on my shout box cus i get alot of shit on tht n it dnt hold all you peoples message so send my a e-mail or commnt n ill get back to you when i have the time mmkay muchlove iloveyou Amanda
Not Good Enough
Not Going So Well.
Well I am sure you all already know that we've bought a fish tank, a few days has passed an I've got some fishies in there although two of them have dead which really sucks cause one was my little frog that cost me some $, anyways I will hopefully have those pictures up soon. Just need to get a few more an we're good ta go!
Not Giving Up
Despite Toyota's growing pains, Jarrett not giving up Veteran forced to rely on provisionals in all three races Last Friday, he took his third past champion's provisional in as many weekends just to make the race. On Saturday, his No. 44 car was slowest in both Nextel Cup practice sessions. On Sunday he finished a distant and anonymous 33rd place, four laps behind the winner at Las Vegas Motor Speedway. It wasn't the kind of weekend Dale Jarrett is accustomed to. But it's the kind he's having to adjust to in his new world driving a Toyota for Michael Waltrip Racing. The 32-time Nextel Cup race winner and 1999 series champion has been relegated to the role of also-ran as his new manufacturer and new team try to find their way in their first seasons on NASCAR's premier tour. It's a transition that's proven more difficult than even the driver expected. "It is probably a bigger hill to climb than what we thought at the beginning," Jarrett said. "But if you were realistic about i
Not Going Down But Going Up
Not Going Anywhere
Well I know the title sounds a little messed up up, but the last 2 years have just not been that awesome. Dont get me wrong I am still here in the USA (thanks to our soldiers!!!! Thank GOD for everyone of you) But I have just had a bit of bad luck. The woman I loved broke my heart and we got divorced (sucked) My neck started hurtin and found out I have 2 bulgin and 1 herneiated disc (have no clue how to spell that..) I broke both of my legs and not at the same time... the first one was the tragic one, broken in 5 pieces and compound (yep that stickin out of my friggin leg) and the sad part, a pallet of budweiser did it!!!! No SH*T I was workin for xtra cash at christmas and me and that pallet went off the tommy lift.... I thought I was big enough to stop it from going off (it was a pallet of Budweiser... I mentioned that right!!!) Um, I was wrong... I keep sayin if it was Bud Light it would have only broke in 3 peices..... I Wrecked my damn truck... Its not bad, and I built
Not Gonna Be On Much
Just found out today that house went into foreclosure 2 days ago. Need to try and find things to sell to raise money. Won't be on much all weekend getting things together and taking to antique malls to see if i can sell. Keep your fingers crossed that i can raise enough money since hubby has decided HE needs his money more than his family. A few prayers would help too. Love you guys
Not Gonna Happen!!!!
its ironic how you think just when you think you've gotten to know someone or figured them out when in that very instance you realize you dont know them at all... love is a toxic soon as it gets inside you it takes so much to leave your system.... if one really cared for the other they would not cause you pain or suffering... there would be no lies or manipulation... im very strong and i am past the emotional bs... i had a moment of past it... I AM ANGIE BABE AND I WILL NOT BE MANIPULATED!!!!!
Not Good
ummm i just want some of my freinds to know that i might have another open heart surgery , i just had one in feb , im not doin well they say so i will find out today wish me luck
Not Giving Up
I'm trying... not giving up.... I'm in 2 contests at the moment. If you'd like to help i'd appreciate it... Most comments wins...ends Nov 30th 95,000 gets a 30 day blast With all the changes for bombing this is really hard... help please.... Photo Image Hosting
Not Getting On Here As Much
alls it does i causes problems
Not Going Out Tonight? - Then Close The Door
Not Going Well
well got pissy with some one i care about last nite mostly because i was nt feeling well then i could not sleep from coughing took cough medicine and that upset my stomach i get up and have fever...still having stomach issues...and my laptop screen breaks so i have to actually hold up the damn screen or it falls flat...and im out sick from work....all is not going my way at all! im having dooubts about many things in my life and i dont have anyone to turn to that can help im feeling sick and alone. i dont like this feeling at all. it isnt someting im used to feeling. i usually try to be the cheerful upbeat person but sometimes even i feel down.. this is one of those times.. i think its the fever.
Not Giving Up
Every time I see your face I see the pain in your eyes Somehow it just pulls me right in I feel you in me I wanna be a part of you The question is just how do I begin? Seems we're so misguided conflicted, undecided I know these days seem black, but I can't do all the work for you Just hold your head up high and be a man I'm not turning back, but I'm not giving up on you I'll wait for you till you come take my hand I wanna take all your tears and cry them for you to maybe see you smile once again Fill me with your fears Replace this emptiness inside and let me be the one that you call 'friend' Don't wanna give up tryin' You broke it, are you buyin'? Maybe if I feel your pain for you I can just deny my own Is that what you want me to do? Am I not allowed to heal? To express just what I feel? Or do I have to be just like you? I know something's hurting you But I am not deserting you I know these days seem black, but I can't do all the work f
Not Going To Be Home
I am not going to be home a few days as my sis has started labor and we do not know when they will let her have the baby....they are trying to hold off as she is still early yet .....will keep posted as I can!!!!
Not Getting Payed
Not Giving Up
A friend asked me if I was a Single Parent. And I never really thought about it until now. I am. I have been since the children father and I divorce 12 years ago. I was stupid to think that my second husband would be a good father figure for my children. But all he ever did was show my son how to beat women. I knew after the fact that this man beat his wife, I'm wife number four. He is claim to have broken his step son arm by just grabbing him, don't know if its true, but I'm friends with his 3 ex wife the mother of the child. The second wife, who had they son died in a gun fight. Don't know the whole story, but I raise his son until I move away from him 11 years ago. Can't get a Divorce because he's not in this state. Alabama law. I told them I haven seen him in 11 years but they don't care, they want to send paper to a man I don't know where he at, and cost more that a down payment on a car. What about pro bono you may asks? this state has law, you have to prove what you have said. I
Not Good-bye But See Ya Later
Well the movers will be here in about 20 min and I gotta get my ass in gear. I'm off to Germany with a few stops in between. I'll be headed to TN on the 21st so I should be on here to say HI around the 22nd. I'll miss you guys while I'm out of touch! ♥ Mrs. Robinson
Not Good News
Well today my stepmom was taken to the hospital with a possible stroke. Shes been having problems for three weeks and on easter her mouth was slightly drawn. I guess she has proceeded to get worse since then. People had thought she had been drinking. Her speech was slurred and shes falling alot. Dad went home from work and took her to the E-room. They did a few test and found an inch long lesion on her brain stem. Tomorrow they are doing more tests on her. Im not sure if a neurosurgeon has been called yet or not but Im sure there will be one called soon. Right now they have her resting comfortably in a room and are giving her pain meds so she can get some rest. Ill update has I find out more. update: Most of you know that my stepmom was taken to the hospital yesterday. well today after more tests they found a hard spot and liquid above the lesion on her brain stem. They also found nodules on her lungs. They dont know at this point if its cancer or not or where it started. They al
Not Giving Up
Here I sit Wondering if Im crazy Holding onto us Even with the odds against us Im not ready to give up Want to keep trying Poving we can get through it Only to become stronger Making something good come of it Im not giving up babi!
Not Going To Party On Saturday
Tonight I received a phone call from my mother telling me that my eldest sister passed away. I am on my way back to Canada to be with my family. It has been very devastating and I don't believe it has happened...I'm so cold from shock and not quite understanding why and how as of yet. Tulsa and the rest of the girls I guess I will have to meet you all another time because it is important to me to get home to Ontario Canada asap. Thank you for your friendship love you all love Kris
Not Gonna Be On Much...
I Know I Have Not Really Been On Here Much L8ly Anyway, But I Have Got To Do Some Things And Will Not Even Be Logged In For A While... Hope All My Peeps Are Well, And I WILL Be Back On When I Get All The Bull$hit Sorted Out... Take Care All And ThanXXX For Any And All Love Or Anything Else That May Get Lost In The Mess.... C-Ya All L8r On... P.S. Am I The Only One That Has The Problem Of Missing Friend Request??? (They Show In The Alerts, But The Are Not There) :-(
Not Going To Be Around For A Month Or So.
To all my fans, friends, and people who care, I will not be on Fubar for the next month or so. I will taking care of a few things this month that will take up all my time. I have a job interview. I have to travel to radio station in Washington for a couple of weeks. And the next three comics will be the most complicated ones I have ever drawn. To put it bluntly, I don't have time for this site. Those whom have my contact information for chat and phone calls I expect you to contact me. Everybody else? Later suckers. -Rafael
Not Guilty
Let not your heart be troubled Perhaps one of the greatest challenges that faces the average person today is believing in their own self worth. From the time we were small children, our view of our highest light has been undermined. It's pretty easy to recall past experiences where we've been told that we were less than we thought we were or that we'd made a mistake. Our teachers, parents, peers, the TV, and all sorts of sources have, either consciously or unconsciously, talked us into limiting ourselves. Over a lifetime, our power was slowly but steadily stripped away from us. But now all of that is changing. These teachings emphasize that you've never made a mistake. When the incident occurred where you thought you'd made a mistake, it wasn't until after the incident was over that you gleaned the knowledge from it. While the incident was still in progress, you were only operating on the basis of the best information that you had at the time. In truth, you couldn't have known
Not Good Enough
I may not be good enough for some. I may not be worth the effort for a few. I may mot be worth keeping to one. But there is someone who does want me, one is good enough for me!
Not Good...
Have you ever had something happen to you thats so horrible that all you want to do is curl up in a little ball and stop breathing? I had one of those things happen last night, and as usual, no one was here to help me. I should be used to this crap now really... As per usual after the... I want to die stage... came the coping stage where I just go and try to laugh, blocking out what happened and how I feel... some things are SO bad I don't want to talk about them, I feel unclean, worthless, used and embarrased... I was doing REALLY well until a few hours ago... People don't want to hear, they can't do anything about it so whats the point of telling every horrible detail? Anyway... this was just a small insignificant little offload... I don't feel right... I feel really crap... don't really want to be here... so just be warned that I feel crap... not my usual self... I saw people today having a laugh about stalkers etc... I wish it WAS a funny thing... Someone shoot me be
Not Good Enough
Have you ever felt like you're not good enough for someone? Well every guy tells me that im so hot, pretty, gorgeous...etc.. But everytime I meet a guy who is absolutely drop dead gorgeous, I dont feel like im good enough or pretty enough...
Not Going To Be Around Much
I'm not going to be around much for a while. I need to go somewhere to see some people and the list is so long I don't know where to start. First, I want to see an eye doctor because I just don't see like other people do. I look in the mirror and see someone fat, or old, or ugly. Obviously most people do, so I'm not looking again, it's just adding to my delusions. And to that, I need to see a psychiatrist, because I am not fitting into society very well. It's not a popular thing to be polite, to care about hurting other people, to be nice to people who are having a rough go of it. I also want to see a contractor about this "Shell I live in". Someone told me that, but I don't see it! Where the fawk is this shell! It must be invisible because I get online all I can to interact with friends. My car is broke down right now or I would be going out and taking pics and stuff. So where's this shell people speak of? Long day ahead of me. Maybe several.
Not Going To Be Here Anymore
Well this site obvioulsy is far from a place where mature (and naughty) adults can hang out well atleast not me, my haters here have made it impossible for me to have fun so Im finally leaving anyone know any good sites where adults can actually be adults?? Also since ive been asked a million times im now doing cam shows add me at for more details ;) Take care all my sexy fu friends xoxoxoxo
Not Givin A Fuck:-))
Not Gonna Happen
I always let myself be taken advantage of. Its part of who I am mostly. My mistress has been teaching me to stand more on my own two feet and not to let life come to me but that you have to go to life. Its not a completly new concept but one that I haven't worked on for awhile. I am used to waiting silently and hoping that my obsession at the moment would pay attention to me. It would happen just enough so that they could say that my love for them was ever present. Well not anymore. I have been talking to more people and not acting like my heart is in a box on a shelf in the possesion of my current obsession. I am talking to the qb of the football team (had I known he was the qb I would have jumped on him long ago). I have been talking to a couple guys in my class and no longer act shy when they approach me. They might be pushtin boys and not chumuklee but hey a girl has to have practice right?
Not Gonna Win Any Brownie Points With The Ladies With This One
Before I start let me say that I do not mean to offend with what I am about to say. Just my observations and thoughts. To start since I left my home state of Colorado when I was 19 to join the Navy I have lived in 3 of the 4 corners of the US. Connecticut, Florida and California and add Colorado thats 4 of the 5 locations. Most of the last 19 years have been spent here in the NE area.15 years to be correct. And I have noticed that the majority of women here are all stuck up and rude. I was raised in the Midwest and brought up in a Southern household. We greet our neighbors, people we pass on the street even the person behind us in line at the Quicky Mart. Here noone looks each other in the eyes, they dont say hello or even return the favor by saying Hi back.If a Gentleman pays a Lady a compliment she should acknowledge that and thank him. People like to hear compliments I know I do. When someone gives me one I thank them. They didnt have too but they did. Here a man gives one to a w
Not Gonna Be A Happy Day.
I pretty much am still furious over something that happened yesterday. I tried to fix it today and kind of failed, but kind of didn't. On the plus side, my little munchkin was way excited to see me this morning. :) I've never seen someone that happy to see me. EVER lol. Anywho.....yeah I'm counting on Chris to make me laugh until my sides hurt later. If anyone can do it, her crazy ass can! Slow Burn - Atreyu
Not Good
I'm really really down. It's never been this bad before, I didn't think I could ever feel this shitty. I cried myself to sleep last night, woke up crying, and I'm on the brink of breaking down again. I am plain miserable. I'm having problems with Sam, and I feel that it's all my fault. It's my fault I'm not good enough, it's my fault we argue. It's my fault she makes me sad, it's my fault I make her angry. Everything I do is fucked up, I'm never right. Getting out of bed today was almost impossible. It took me 3 hours just to get up. I still want to sleep, I feel like a zombie. Nothing I do is right, I'm always wrong. I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry I have feelings that get hurt, it's my fault. I'm worthless, I don't know why she's even stuck around this long. Pretty sure she's done though, pretty sure I've finally proved how worthless I am. All I do is fuck up. I'm sorry. I can't take this anymore, it's difficult to even breathe. I talk to friends, and say too much. Sorry I have to get
Not Going To Be Here For Awhile
Not Good At All ...
A lady lips and falls goin to the post office.. waits lil over a year and half and desides to sue for pain and suffering. her husbands is tryin to sue as well stating he wants $50,000 because his wife could not preform her womanly duties... All i can think to myself is. if your wife's snapper is only worth 50 grand its time to trade that bitch in on a newer model!!!! this is why we pay insurance and the rates are so damn high!!!!!
"not Giving Up"
Whatever happen to the love we had, the days you would tell me i love you, Whatever happen to the goodnights and goodbye's Whatever happen to the lovemaking that we would have all night and to know that the next morning me and you were still in eachother's side, Side by side OH WHAT! You forgot? You must of cause the only love im getting here is none.
Not Gonna Last Real Long
After about two weeks...sounds right to me! lmao...hahahaha
Not Getting It Right
Every have one of those days where you just feel like you can't get it right. One of those days was today and I really hate these types of days. Every little thing on this day sets me off. I'm very sensitive on days like these and all I do is cry. What makes it worse is when everyone wants to know what's wrong but I can't tell you what's wrong because at this point I feel everything is wrong. Life, love, friends everything. You can't fix it trust me you can't you can try but it won't work I just let it run it's course and spend the day in my room hiding and crying. Hoping it all goes away and things will be fine. I have these days often and have learned to live with them. Some tell me it's not healthy to live this way but I'm fine just sometimes on the days that I feel I'm not getting it right I just need to think things through go to my little corner of the room and look at life. Look at life and remember that some people have it worse then I do. Even though sometimes I think it's the
Not Going To Work
If youve been trying to push me out of the site if youve been trying to make me delete my fubar account. Guess what, NOT GONNA HAPPEN! Try all you want. You dont have to talk to me, I dont have to be on your friends list, heck for all I care you could hate my guts. But, no matter what you will never force me to delete fubar. I am here to stay. Ive gotten rid of 3 fubar accounts. I WILL NOT let anyone add number 4 to that. I'm not sorry I loved you. I'm sorry i still do only because I know its not what you want. I will never regret meeting or loving you. But I also will not let you push me away from my friends and people who really do care about and love me. I'm sorry however that you did have to meet me. I am sorry that I wasted your time. I am sorry that I ever thought you really did love me. But I will never be sorry for knowing and loving you and my time with you will never be a waste of time in my eyes. So, try all you want. This is how I will always feel. That will never change. S
Not Going To Be On Much
Just want to let all my TRUE friends the ones who actually reads the blogs know that im not gonna be on fubar to much nomore for awhile because i start college on Monday but i will check the messeges and all that when im able to.
Not Gonna Be Around Much, Don't Ignore Me, Lol
Okay so just a heads up, I will be hit and miss for the next week and completely gone Wed-Sun.... My daughter has passed all qualifications for the Army BCT...and we are attending graduation in South Carolina, and then driving her to her AIT post in Alabama... I am one VERY proud Mama...and the few days I get to hold her and see her will make up for these past 10,,,but these next five days will be spent preparing for that trip and getting everything together...I joined Fubar to get me through the days she was gone, and found many GREAT friends here that mean the world to me...THANK YOU! So until Tuesday April 7th (Nik's B-day, happy birthday baby)...I will be hit n miss, but please don't forget me whie I'm gone, cause come April 13th I'm back with a whole new lease on life and a refreshed vengence!!!! I love you Phuckers, you really are a family I have come to cherish, love, and depend on! Tony, Rick, and Michael...the three best guy friends a girl could ask for.
Not Gona Post
ok enough if when i click on your profile n' am greeted with dis then you are history
Not Giving Up...
Foolish mistakesEndless tearsWishing and hopingyou could be hereI was a foolwho just didnt see I threw away the lovethat was right in front of meendless apologiesjust arent enoughI guess I deserve thisall because of trustyou were always therewhenever I was blueI cant believe I thought you weren't trueI'll always love youI'll always be hereI'll keep hoping and prayingthat there is still a chance hereI refuse to give upbecause I love you soI refuse to believethat you aren't the oneI hope you seeHow much I'm sorryand I hope you find your way back to me
Not Giving A Shit. Step One: 'fuck Da Po-lice!
So here is yet another goddamn profile site I have to fucking keep track of just so I can see how much the internet loves me? FUCK! Shadow, why did you do this to me? I can't stand this shit, myspace is annoying enough as it is. Yet now everyone has a goddamn zwitter, or a zanga, or a geocities, or a myspace page..... And now here is fucking Fubar! Fucked Up Beyond Affordable Repair! I couldn't care less now, I hope they delete this shit because I'm not throwing forth the effort to do it myself. "But Craig, here you can give gifts and gain..." WHAT THE FUCK ABOUT I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCKING RAT SEMAN BASTARD CHILD FROM THE SHIT RIDDLED BOWELS OF SATAN HIMSELF DIDN'T YOU GET?! I'm out, anyone who really gives a fuck about finding me just skower MySpace for an asshole named Blind Kenshi. Now go ahead and make your 'Jesus must have skull raped you as a toddler, didn't he?' comments or forever hold your beer.
Not Good Enough
Was I not good enough for you? Or was it all just a lie? Another clever deception That you gave me eye to eye? Such beautiful things that you say Such pretty words that you gave Oh, such an exquisite heartbreak That I will take to my grave
Not Giving A Fuck Is Aaawesomme!
absotively posilutely the way to go! haha
Not Good Enough
What is it with women that act like you're not good enough but claim there isn't a good man left? Think that may be why? Who knows... Just kinda wondering if ppl constantly search for the impossible, cause a great catch just doesn't seem to cut it. Now me personally, I think I 'm a great catch but not to the female species I guess. But it can go both ways (such as men lookin for a prettier woman or something) but I'm not into dudes, period. I just hate that you look for someone, tell you they're not looking or interested in anyone then a week later plastering every where they love this person they had no interest in all of a sudden. Coincedence? Not likely. Claiming to look for a good person but yet you throw us good people in the crowds of bad people and think we're the same cause we're the same gender. Not cool, and nothing gets solved that way. Couldn't hurt to get to know someone before you start slappin labels on people. I notice how some women say "I want someone that loves
Not Gonna Be On Much
not gonna be on much for the next week as i will be spending toime with my baby bro,sis and mom and dad
Not Good Enough
The pain courses thru my veins   as surly as my blood flows   if someone could only read my thoughts   yet i cant let anyone know   I once stepped out of the shadows   thought i could see the light   feeling that perhaps the sun would shine   yet i am cast back into the night   am i not good enough   please tell me what is wrong   why cant i find a place to be   somewhere that i belong   so i am searching for answers   perhaps i will one day see   why i am not good enough   what is wrong with me...................                     Outlaw Angel
Not Getting Better
I am still sick I am still sad How the fuck do I fix this shit? The sinus infection is still lingering. I talked to the dr I work for and he gave me some tricks, hopefully I will be better by monday :) The sad...well it comes in waves...I will think about Derek..then get sad...then start to think about all the things that are wrong and just cry...I DO NOT CRY Ugh.
Not Getting Better...take 2
I am still sick I am still sad How the fuck do I fix this shit? The sinus infection is still lingering. I talked to the dr I work for and he gave me some tricks, hopefully I will be better by monday :) The sad...well it comes in waves...I will think about Derek..then get sad...then start to think about all the things that are wrong and just cry...I DO NOT CRY Ugh.
Nothing Like You!!
So you think I act just like you? Do you take me for a fool. There is nothing more I rather do. Then to try to emulate you. Yea right!!! To say I am anything like you Is just a bunch of bull. Wait right there as I take you to school On what it takes to be you. Sometimes you act like a lady. Im sorry make that a baby. Crying when you cant get your way Now is that a really good way to play? For a simple answer you need You come to me and beg and pled. Lets not forget your relationships Lets just say that ship has sailed. You call yourself a punk? Now thats a load of junk. To me youre nothing but a poser. Nothing more then a 2bit loser. So you say I want to be like you? Now you know thats untrue. Why would I want to be a fool? When I can be just plain cool.
Nothing Feels Good
So.. This is my first blog.. Nothing is easy anymore.. Specail when you love someone who may not talk to you anymore.. True love.. One day I hope I will have him.. Way long time ago I was supose to have a baby together.. I Love you Charles Lee Goodling.. Mauh.... ~* Lots of Love*~
Nothing Special
Here I am sitting here on my day off, bored out of my head. Done with my cleaning but still doing laundry, ejoying the sounds my kids are making.
I dont really have anything intresting to write, but i am once again in a peaceful state of mind. i posted alot of pics on tonight so i hope you guys look at them, there will be more to come..... I will be getting a pig this weekend..... i guess there some more pics huh? Anyways peace and love, Stephanie
Nothin Much
well im new here but so far its been fun,trying to find all my friends where they hang getting my level up fixing my profile and etc.well not much to say i usually spend all my time in myspace but needed a break from the usual crap that goes on in there now its gd cause i actually miss being there and look forward to whats new and whos new .so im glad i was told bout lostcherry as it gives me somewhere else to hang these days there aint too many places for a single mum who is only lookin for friends to hang we ll thats enough for me at this time till my next blog bye

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