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Bike Rally
River City Bikers Rally 2011 Date/Time Tuesday July 26 2011 Sunday July 31 2011 Independents & MC Clubs Event Description Bikers Event held in Memphis Tn., Where you get to meet old & new friends.. Places to go & see.. Cold beer & hot food of different kinds..Campout in tents, RV's welcome an has RV Hook-up..Music 24/7..No PetsLocation Memphis Tn.Midsouth Fairgrounds 940 E. Parkway South 901-502-4710

Helped My Friends Out With A Video.. *hides*
Neo Adventerers is produced by the Burbank Adventures Guild. It's a project done by some good friends of mine and I decided to help them out a bit. This is my first video of them and fyi, I've had absoluelty no acting experience so forgive me if I suck lol. It's mostly voice over, but there is some script. Anyway, here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7J18gtdl2o8 If you have any quests for us to go on, please say so in comments on youtube!

I Will Be There
I cant make you see what I offer is real how my heart races at the sight of you long after you leave I still feel your arms your cologne seems to linger on my pillows I cant seem to make you see what your leaving does to me each time you walk out that door I feel a part of me go with you you carry me with you each time do you even notice it how sometimes you feel a caress and think of me for no reason its me darlin I am trying to let you know you have me I never leave you even when you feel the world is too much that you just cant take it anymore when you feel that urge to ssssssssssscream you feel me there when you need me the most holding you close telling you baby im here feel me let me in I will be the rock you need the shelter from the storms I offer you so much its not a dream its real its all for you open your eyes see me for the first time really see me copyright@tamithalynn

If Your A Juggalo Please Copy And Paste This To Your Page! The Whole World Of Juggalos Needs To See This Message From Violent Jay.
"this shit is soo true we need to love this family more. -JUGGALOZ- Sorry to be all deep and serious but i got lots of shit on my mind. I'm tired of everything and everybody. The only thing i give a shit about in this hell we call a world is my Juggalo Family. The Carnival saved my life and my soul. My Juggalo Pride is the best thing that ever happened to me. It's starting to scare me for the fact when I sit back and actually observe the juggalo world, It seems like its going down hill. It seems to me that a lot of ninjas are out for self and trying to prove whos a bigger juggalo that who. There is no big or small juggalo. We are all the same. It doesn't take $4,000 is psychopathic merchandise to be a juggalo. Just because I got an old school mostastless jersey doesn't make me any better than a ninja with only one t-shirt. Being a juggalo is whats in your heart not whats on you clothes. I've seen juggalos callin each other juggahoes over spots in line at shows. That's BULLSHIT! Does an

I See You In My Dreams
I see you in my dreams, recurring like the wind. My unknown love, my unknown best friend. We passionately kiss, hold each other close and cuddle. Walk in the summer rain, splashing in the puddle. Enjoying each other for who we are inside, Opening up freely, proving we have nothing to hide. Together we laugh, sharing feelings that make us cry. Immense emotion, hoping it’ll never fade, nor die. Creating happiness, solely with the thought of one another. Do you really exist? Maybe one day I’ll meet this unknown lover…

Ebay Rant Again
Just another rant about ebay. I am sadly having to get very irked with the seller I am attempting to purchase this keyboard replacement from. I was told that I could send a money order to the seller so I did so and mailed it certified mail. I was polite and even messaged the seller to inform them it was on the way. Being certified mail and going to a PO Box it will leave a notification that the seller needs to come and sign for it. This notification was left in the PO Box Monday and yet the seller denies it is there. I have spoken with the post there and am still being told the same thing by the seller despite what the tracking information says.So is the seller just being lazy, or do they just not want my money? I'm sure they would be bitching and complaining if a buyer had not sent payment so why are they giving me so many problems to simply accept payment? I did not know ordering things online had became this complex./end rants

Joke
Mother-In-LawA Man,His Wife And His Mother-In-Law Went On Vacation To The Holy Land. While They Were There, The Mother-In-Law Passed Away. The Undertaker Told Them."You Can Have Her Shipped Home For $5,000, Or You Can Bury Her Here In The Holyland For $150.00'! The Man Thought About It And Told Him He Would Just Have Her Shipped Home.The Undertaker Ask,Why Would You Spend $5,000 To Ship Your Mother-In-Law Home When It Would Be Wonderful To Have Her Burred Here And Spend Only $150.00? The Man Replied, A Man Died Here 2,000 Years Ago,Was Burred Here, And Three Days Later He Rose From The Dead. I Just Can't Take That Chance.

My Opinion Of People On Fubar Pt2
FU-OWNERS I like the idea of fu-owning people but what i don't understand is why do people find it a compotision. it';s like oh someone has been baught off of me i'm gonna buy them back. why? it's a game all fubar is, is a chat room mixed with a game to stop you from being bored the person who you own sometimes don't care who they're owned by they see it s well atleast i'm being owned by someone. the thing that annoys me though is if your gonna own me aatleast talk to me it would be nice you've taken the time to buy me why not tke the time to talk to me i'll have a normal convosation with you i wont ignore you the way i see it if you've been nice enough to buy me i'll be nice enough to talk to you so plese if you won me or hope to won me talk to me afterwords i mean come on. to own me you have to be my friend so it would be nice to be talked to aswell BLING whaats to fasination with having loads of bling, yeah it brightens up your profile thats great but think about us who arn't

If There's No Tomorrow
Teardrops fall from the greenest leaves; Tempers flare - Emotions bleed. But every rose still grows - in the light of sorrow. Think what you will there's just one chance - one life to live; with one last stand - and no one's sure. Don't save it for tomorrow

The Prices I Pay For Letting Fear Run My Life
THE PRICES I PAY FOR LETTING FEAR RUN MY LIFE What happens when we live our lives making decisions that are run by our fears? What happens when we “survive” life instead of living it, and experiencing it to the maximum? I started asking myself these questions one day recently in connection with an examination of my own life. My coach had me reflecting on ways that I “protect myself,” as well as the prices and payoffs that I pay and receive for living a relatively solitary life, which is how I had been living. These tasks were among the things I had declared I would accomplish during the week between our coaching calls. And of course the two sets of questions were completely intertwined. Because for me, the solitary, disconnected life I chose much of the time, was a way to protect myself. Protect myself from the judgments of others. Protect myself from the feelings of rejection that I might experience if I was authentic with them, or the feelings of &ldqu

Worry
WORRY Why would I worry? Does worry produce a valuable, tangible result? I don't think so. For example, I might worry about some event I foresee in the future, say 3 or 4 months down the road. But then I might not even be ALIVE then!! The future is COMPLETELY uncertain!!! So why pay the price now by worrying, over an event that may not occur, or one which I might not even be around to SEE??? Seems a little crazy to me. I think worrying is like paying for something when I may never actually buy it. Its like saying maybe I will want a new car in two years from now, so I'm going to go ahead and pay for it right now. Not SAVE for it. PAY for it. Give the dealer my money now when I might never even buy the car. No thanks. Worry if you want. But when I catch myself worrying I simply stop.

A New Day And A New Way To Find Out What I Find Disturbs Me
Well to day is a new day, but I find that for someone as sexual driven as me . ' NO Dick make something ... something ' come to mind. So I found that being friends with an ex is a good thing but I still have to fight off the thoughts that his dick as been in some other pussy. Yet .. when I am horny damnit... I am horny and I go for what I want. So this morning I went creeping and got me a little something, Luckily I caught him when he didn't go out to play and I will... used my head * smirks* Still even if I got him to thrown hs hand back and shout that he was still with me.... I found that getting almost shot in the face... not COOL. SO NOT COOL. But I left mildly happy and he sat in his room with a content smile on his face.... .yet at the same time.. I am still horny. * sighs* Oh well. I got what I wanted to here... not what I needed.

So What
Pay attention to those who don't care, why..I don't know, they don't either..people matter as much as you let them. The greedy come in different forms, pay attention to whose been there, who was there and why the lost came back. The show offs normally have small egos. Anything to make them look better than you, but who cares..Some people but that makes them just as shallow. Breast mean nothing to those who have seen too many but man boobs will never be the same.. Everyone wants to get laid, but why....hell I don't even know the answer to that but the most I can come up with is.....no, still cant think of an answer. Your uncle is only your father and your mother is only your sister if your family is small... Stop reading this already, I'm bored and cant think of anything witty to say. lol

Eggshells
Sep. 25th, 2006 | 12:01 pm I think its unfair. To have to walk on eggshells your entire life,Just because no one around you understands. To have to hold your tounge and lie through your teeth.Nod and smile, say what they want you to, say what they expect.When you can't tell anyone the whole truth, you feel like a lie to everyone.Could you imagine what its like? Anytime you got a cut, a cat scratch, a wound... getting that same look, that questioning glance, that penetrating stare into your soul, looking for guilt or admission, from everyone your supposed to love and trust? Its quite the mental fuck, feeling the same guilt from almost 7 years ago, reminding you again, how you disapointed everyone.We watched Intervention last night. It was an episode about self mutilation. It was hard. And i dont think it was hard for me to watch the program, but more difficult to watch with my friends there. I couldn't even look them in the eyes. I felt so guilty for being jealous of the girl

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She felt it rush past herHours past by like minutesMonths seemed nothing more then days appartBefore she knew it the season would be overWhy can't it ever stay steadySo many times has it just crawled byDay after day in bored repititionOnly to turn and hit her like a ton of bricksSuddenly theres not enough of itWhere there was a surplus beforeLay now a dry wellShe needs it like a drugCant survive without moreIts a futile battleEven if she got moreEven with all the time in the worldShe coudl never acomplish all that had to be doneThere was so muchToo much for one lifetime.

Always Suriving, But Never Unscathed
The hallow took over once moreThe gaping wounds exposedShe iced her healing heartFrozen cold and hardProtected from all the elementsIce so thick it would take eons to meltShe felt stupidLeaving herself exposed like thatThe glue hadn't dried from the last time it brokeAnd now there were sitches trying to hold it togetherShe had been blindedShe should have seen it clearlyHer shirt spotted with bloodAs it seeped through the shell of iceWhy was she always woundedSo weak and strongAlways suriving, but never unscathed

Shards Of Glass
Jul. 5th, 2006 | 01:39 am The blood trickled down her chestEach breath inflicting more painShe looked down at the wound and cried out in agonyNothing she had ever felt before could compareSlowly she lifted a dirty, tear stained handShe worked on freeing the first peice of glassIts sharp edges bit her fingers Each jagged chunk slippery with bloodShe sat for hours, maybe daysIn and out of conciousnessPicking out the needle like sliversIn a pool of her own warm, thick bloodWhen she ripped out the last shatterd peiceThe overwhelming hurt finally subsidedIn its place formed a new sensationLoss, emptiness.Without the glass shardsWithout the horrible painThere were now holes in her heartSome even still trickled blood

Lemon Drops
Feb. 3rd, 2006 | 06:30 am Seconds pass like an hours timeSleepless days bringing sandfilled nightsBroken and bruised like alwaysDizzied from the cascading pathTruths paralyzed herLemon drops for her eyesNeedles in her earsSuch darkness, such silenceHer mind was a terrible place to be aloneNo matter how loud she screamedNo one ever heard her, or maybe nobody was listeningIt didnt matter either way, no one was there

Your Insides Out
Jan. 15th, 2006 | 12:16 pm I want to know everything about youI want to pick you apartGood and badInside and outI want to know everything...To feel every part of youI want you to lay your cards on the tableSo that Im sure to stay in the gameI want to know of your pastsAnd to be in your futuresYour mischevious natureStiring and arousing Your force pulling me closerHypnotic dreams of a backwards placeDysfunctional happiness of a broken girlI want you to touch me like you do everytimeI want you to look at me and get lostI want to make you forget everything in that momentI want it all...The pleasure and the painI want to bring you to your kneesAnd beg for your mercyI want to be your slaveWhile mastering youYour drug like qualitiesCraving your extacyYour coursing through my veinsTantalizing hallucinations of a clouded visionDysfunctional functioning of a broken girl

Cold Days Bring Cold Hearts
It fell quickly nowClusters of flakes larger then lifeThe wind whipping them through the airThey hit like rocksStinging her skin with frostPelting her body with bruisesThe air was ferociously frigidIt froze the tears in successionHer lips formed the color of blueAs her blood crystalized and slowly thickenedThe tingling sensation in her legs told her it wouldnt be longIt would all be rightedThe pain would be overThe suffering would endAfter her legs would come her chestNeedles shooting through itAs her lungs would start to shatterWould it be this time?The dark murky waters that were to drown her dryed upThe dense fog that tryed to stray her path dispersedWould this snow cese?Would the ice begin to melt before it consumed her being?

The Cycle Of My Life
Dec. 21st, 2005 | 09:00 am And once again, there she stood. In the dark of night. Cold winds bitting her skin. Alone, with herself. The voices, the hate. The cold reality, or lack of. Every winter she died, and every spring she awoke once more. Those winter months ate away at her body. Slowly loosing her soul. It was like the cycle of the year. This past week she felt the last of her breath, before she gave way to numbness.

Loathing Them
Nov. 25th, 2005 | 04:22 am Doomed before birthThoughts ablaze with hatePumping through her veinsSuch malice for the oppositeGrowing like a seedFueled more and moreEvery year, month, dayEvery second it grows largerEach of them needing punishmentVile miscreantsShe wanted to see them cry out in painThe fear in their voiceShame in their eyesTo hold them in the palm of her hand And crush them, lash out with rageCause unrepairable damageIn every way possibleIt makes no difference reallyHer scars will bleed either wayAnd the hate will never die.

The Ill Will.
The ill will Aug. 3rd, 2005 | 10:04 am The wave of warm flowed through herWorking its way up her spineFilling her with angerMaking her blood boilIt started as a distant rumble in the windGetting closer and howling louder in her ears all the timeDeafening her to everything but the screams of anger and hateHer vision was altered, blurring first from the painThe world seemed to be turning red, the stain of blood on everythingThe salty taste of an open wound, a bit lipMalice, Callousness, Venom in eternityAnd then it all was black again

What Could Be Hope?
what could be hope? Jul. 22nd, 2005 | 02:23 pm You hear the distant call of what should beYet the chains of what is are holding you in placeThe weight of what once was is a heavy holdBut the thought of what could be is equaly weightedWhat if fills your dreams and nightmaresThe harsh winds of was constantly try to knock you overBut you brace yourself up on what could beWhat could be carries you on through it allAnd eventually, what could be is

Time
TimeSo little and so muchToday is all the time in the worldTommarow is wondering where time wentSecond, minutes, hours, daysLost to what?Lost at all?Spent poorly or wisely?Distant whisper of the pastLoud roar of the futureThe present moment forever tickingTimeMake something

What Is Love?
Love meant something different to her. She didnt see love the same way everyone else seemed to see it. She didnt believe in the story book romance love. That kind of love dies, that kind of love seemed like nothing more then lust. Love to her was something different. The kind of love she wanted started as nothing and grew over time. The kind of love that you dont even know exsits, untill one day it hits you how much the other person means to you. Love thats found when your not looking for it. Its created after the people know everything about each other, when you complete each others sentences, and can have whole conversations without saying a word. Its something that is so rarely found. She had it once a long time ago. It was more like youve found one of your soul mates, rather then a new love. It makes you feel complete. Like together, your unstopable.

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She wasnt ready. She had been thinking about it for sometime now, so unsure. It seemed ok, but it just didnt feel right for this moment. Confusion constantly filled her head. Guilt, sorrow, anger. She had a way of fucking things up and she hated it. She needed to spread her wings and fly, she needed to feel that freedom. Why did everything have to hurt? If it wasnt hurting her, it would be hurting someone else.She felt like ripping her hair out. This is why she wasnt ready. The mental stress it gave her was too much to deal with right now. It was just too much and she didnt know what to do.

The Path Ends
She suddenly found herself in a clearing. She looked around and noticed everything was visable. The fog had broken up and she was left standing on a large patch of grass inthe middle of the woods. She let out a small gasp as she realised something was very wrong. All of her sences were hightened. A old wise tree sat in the middle of the clearing, its bark and size told her it was old. She watched for a moment the bugs living their daily lives, at home in the tree. She could see all of that going on. She could feel the warmth of the tree now as well. It radiated energy at her. Focusing on something else she closed her eyes. She could hear the forest, like a massive symphony. Each bug cherping, each tree groaning. She could feel mother earth below her feet. The grass like warm soft carpeting on her toes. Her nose was filled with the smell of flowers. Everywhere she looked there were patches of them. Different sweet aromas floating past her in the cool refreshing breeze. This place was so

The Path 2
As she edged her way through the woods the fog slightly cleared. She thought she was seeing the path more clearly. For every step she took tho, she wondered if she took too big a step. She could so easily get turned around, lost. She doubted her own steps, wondered if she was even prepared to take the path. She didnt want to slip and fall. She was tired of not knowing what to do. The path seemed right, it seemed safe and easy enough to fallow. She wanted to be able to just take it, instead of inching her way down it. but she was too scared. There were so many chances that she was just too weak to take. Sometimes she just wanted to rip out her own hair. "Why do i have to be so broken?".

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The thought of itSuch a impossible thingTo let someone inThe chances were so manyThe past held so much painToo much to handleBut such a sweet thoughtSomething long abandondedSuch a tempting visionTo pick up the peicesAnticipated in slumberThe fear of changeFighting hopeThe peices were already so fragileto break again would be the endSuch internal conflict

The Path
"Why does this always happen" she said to no one inparticular. As she once again walked, deeper into the forest the fog just got worse. She could never seem to find the right path. She stop beleving the path even existed. So many times before she had chosen a bad path. They all led to so much hurt, such unbelieveable pain. One day long ago she just stoped searching. It was easy enough to just stay put. The fog would clear then and there would be no more pain. Or nothing hardly as bad. She didnt even know how she ended up back in the fog, searching once again. If she slowed down maybe the fog wouldnt be so dense, Maybe she could see more clearly the path which she found herself on. She wanted to believe it existed.

The Oracle Fae
"Your 'Awakening your true self'"a small voice said. She looked around, wondering where the noise came from. Looking to a small clearing in the grass she found 4 faeries sitting on a mushroom. "You gave up who you were to please another person, trust that the parts of your life that are falling away are inauthentic and false" the first faerie said to her. The faerie then streached her wings and flew closer. She felt the faerie land softly on her shoulder. Whispering into her ear, the faerie said "Know that your building a solid foundation of truth, and that everything is working out perfectly right now".And then the faerie was gone.Before she could say a word the second faerie spoke. "Your 'Beauty' is most apparent when you're happy and satisfied". The faerie seemed so smile gentley. "Part of selfesteem is appreciating how wonderful you truly are. Never, ever put yourself down in any way! Always think self loving thoughts about your body, hair, face, weight, and every inch of your phys

Still Bleeding
She sat clutching her head in her hands for sometime, feeling the cool breeze blow her hair around. Why couldnt she just think clearly? Why couldnt she just be normal. She hated feeling broken. She hated the self sabatage. She hated what she had become. What it had made her. She hated that she let it have any effect on her. She hated that it effected such important things. Hated the anger and shame. Hated the feelings of mistrust it left her with. Looking up at the sparkling black sky she let out a long heavy sigh fallowed by tears of hate as the memories flowed through her mind. They poured from her eyes uncontrolably, running down her cheeks forming a pool on the ground where she sat. The once green grass withered away and died. She was so toxic that she cried poision. She couldnt let anyone close enough to try to cure her. They always ended up infected. She just couldnt be open, couldnt pull down those defences. No matter how hard she tryed, or how badly she didnt want to let the po

Days Forever Gone
Days gone forever Apr. 23rd, 2005 | 09:01 pm It seemed like forever agoa million miles awayIn another lifeThose memories brought back such warmthto these cold lonely daysjust the touch of another soft suductionless caressa warm body next to youhot breath on your skinso closethe sound of a heartbeating right beside yoursso beautifullaying a head on your shoulderthe smell of her hair intoxicatingsuch innocent lovesuch purity of twobeing like oneThe days of pastmake today seem so much colderand so much harder

Beautifully Bound And Broken Maiden
The Maiden barely blossomedso naivewalked straight into the traplove, so beautifulopen all of herselfthe waking reasoneverything and moreThe Deceiverlove...was nothinglust, painful violation stripped and beatendefiled flowerleft to witherforever split in twoThe blossom stuck in limboperpetual woundskeeps her locked upafraid of everyone, everythingself sabotaging cycle of hurtdestroying the beautifuly bound and broken maidenits not fair.

The Cure
Apr. 11th, 2005 | 04:08 pm She was hungry. She had been wandering around for what seemed like forever, scared and alone. Wandering down the path she had come across many fruits that made her stomach growl. She had to be careful tho, nothing could be trusted, ever. Its nature to remember that the stove burned you when you touched it. It hurt. Pain. She had many scars from the bad choices she had made. She told herself it was better to be hungry then to risk another wound. Some of the fruits were simple enough to stay away from. Warning signs. Sharp spikes or razor blades. But others seemed very harmless onthe outside. That was her mistake. Harmless couldnt even describe it. Wounds from razor blades will close up and heal. But the damage that the "harmless" fruits did was damage done forever. The poision. Its juices turned from sweet to sour so quickly. Coursing through her viens. It took all she had not to pull the veins from her arm. She wanted nothing more then to

The Aftermath
Apr. 10th, 2005 | 01:40 pm She layed there still for a long time, curled into the fetal position, listening... waiting. After giving it a safe amount of time she slowly opened her eyes. She carefuly looked around surveying the destruction. There was some damage done, but she was surprised at how well her defences had held up. She slowly unfolded her body and streached. She wasnt too badly injured either. From the looks of things she hadnt lost this time. She had taken alot of damage, but not nearly as much as last time. Things hadnt gone exactly as planed, but atleast this time she had a plan. She wandered around for a short while, looking at all the broken peices. Then she knew it was time to leave. She coudlnt stay any longer. The things broken here can never be fixed, she told herself. She knew she had to walk away this time, the peices woudl always be there, if she ever figured out how to fix them. But she had spent far too much time on the unfixable. Each step

The Fight.
Mar. 31st, 2005 | 01:33 pm Words couldnt explain how she felt. She was more then scared. she didnt want to sink deeper into the quicksand, to get stuck in those murky waters again. She coudlnt let it go back to that, she woudlnt survive. She didnt have enough time to prepare, it seemed like just yesterday that she had pulled herself free. But she wasnt really free, it still controled her, it still had her whimpering and crying like a child. Its almost insaine. To think how your own thoughts could fuck you like that. That one thought, one unintentional memory at the wrong time could shatter everything you had worked so hard to regain. This year she was stronger. Last year she gave into it. This year she would atleast go out with a fight. She had been working her way up to tommarow for months. Prepareing herself unknowingly. This past month she has been more scared then she has been in years. This past month she has been more happy then she has been in years. Is she

Broked.
Mar. 22nd, 2005 | 03:37 am She was brokenA porcilan dollcarelessly tossed aroundShattered into a million peicesmany had gotten cut by her sharp edgesno one could get close enough to mend her back togetherit mattered notfor even if the peices did fit together againshe would always be crackedshe would never be what she was.

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"That was a close one" she thought to herself as she looked down at the small red blister. She was startled at what had happened. Normaly her reaction was so quick, it was rare she acctually got burned. But this time was differnt. This time she didnt notice the red hot ash falling onto her arm. By the time she realised it was on her it was already burning...but it didnt hurt. She stop and stared, enjoying the rush of life that the pain gave her. Then realising what she was giving into she franticly brushed the burning ash off of her. Shame washed over her when she thought about how much joy she had felt."I was a cutter not a burner" she cried to herself. She knew then that she had to be much more careful.

In Bed.
Another one on the Disk Mar. 18th, 2005 | 03:42 am Running from the painLashing outwith angerScreamingat frustrationWhy play these games?Why do this to my head?why fuck with my mind?I shoulda stayed in bed....Fed up with your shitTired of your crapWhy cant I adapt?Why do this to my head?When will this be over?I shoulda stayed in bedYou and all your bullshitIts fucking up my lifeThe gamesThe painThe tearsand FearsIm tired of the strifeAre you going to stop this?Why do this to my head?Your mindless on going games...I shoulda just stayed in bed

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Old work i found on a disk Mar. 18th, 2005 | 03:37 am She knew what he'd sayHe knew what she'd dohopeing for a liebut wanting the truthSaying one thingbut meaning it notloving each other but always they foughtI love you nowI'll love you foreverI'll love you alwaysI'll love you....neverJust be yourselfThe truth was saidWanting out thoughts in her headrunning from the worldrunning away from the painCrying out as never beforeStanding in the rainyellingscreaminghauntingNeeding....to be free...

2 Years Ago Today They Called And Told Me He Was Dieing...
Mar. 18th, 2005 | 02:03 am You left me so soon... so angry You left me so young... so sad You left me so alone... so confused Why didnt you tell me you were leaving? Why didnt you think i could handle it? WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME WITH NOTHING TO DO BUT WATCH AS YOU DIE? Hands bound Flowing tears of pain Growing Numbness in life A devistated pool of crushed nothingness... Why didnt you tell me it was your time? Why didnt you trust in me? WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME NUMB AND BOUND TO WATCH YOU WITHER AWAY? ...and why am i so selfish

Scars
Scars Mar. 17th, 2005 | 04:00 am Slowly she traced her finger over her imperfect flesh. Each scar bringing a flood of memories. Each one having so much feeling behind it. It was so tempting sometimes. The thought of the blood rushing to the broken skin. Just thinking about it made her heart race. The sight of dozens of swollen scratches on her skin would be extasy. To feel their sweet sting, to know she was still alive...It will never be again, and she knew that. It could never be again. She needed to cry, to let out some emotion. But she had no tears to cry because the numbness had begin to set in.

Nothing Left
Mar. 16th, 2005 01:51 am Pain suddenly shot through her chest. Sharp, horrible pain that pierced her soul. It crippled her emotionaly and physicaly. She could feel the warm salty tears dripping down her face. And then that was all she felt. She was numb. She felt no wound from a knife. No drug could intoxicate her. The tears were all she had, And so she cried for there was nothing else she could do.

Stagnaite
Stagnaite Mar. 8th, 2005 | 06:39 pm The smell was unbareable. She felt digusting. She was stuck in this ever stagnaite water. The stillness slowly driving her mad. She wanted the fresh clear tide to come in. She wanted to feel the fish swiming beneath her and the sun on her face again. She was tired of withering away like a flower time and time again, Season after Season. she felt so helpless. She had be bound for so long. Struggling to keep her head above the green murky waters, she spent her days treading water and praying for survival. Soon would be her time, she wouldnt screw up another chance to get out. She just needed to wait a little longer. And so she sits. Hands bound, treading water, waiting for her chance to escape, hopeing she can hold on just one more day.

Flight?
Jan. 6th, 2005 | 07:39 am Streaching her wings out for the first time in years, she slowly stood up. The mists swirled around her in antisipation of her actions. It felt good to move again, tho she was still very stiff. She was hungry, unsure of what the hunger was for, but it was there. She wanted to move on, she had been standing in this very spot for far too long, but would her wings carry her? Had she neglected them for too long and forgotten how to fly?

So This Is Hell.
Haveing lost all your sences, you know not where you are nor whom your with. After staring into the darkness for what seems like forever, you begin to see a light. The light suddenly grows bright and you are temporarily blinded once more. You then hear a man clearing his throat. He speaks in a loud booming voice "...I dont see your name, why do you believe you belong here?" You think for a second, realizing your at heavens gates, in a timid voice you reply "because oh lord, i have tryed to fallow in your ways, i have tryed to live a good christian life". The voice booms once again "a good christian life?!" "y..ye..yes sir" you respond, rather intimidated by god, "have i not asked forgivness, have i not gone to church every sunday?" God looks at you with a grin on his face..."yes child" he says in a kinder tone "you have asked for forgivness for SOME of your sins, but do you acctually think i would let you in? With all the people ive been getting these days there is no room for inperfec

And The World Would Cry
Looking around she see's nothing, no one, only darkness.She is alone, no one understands, no one sees what she see's.she see's not the happiness in love, she see's the broken hearts, the pain, the sadness.She see's not the joy of a new born, she see's the beatings, the molestaion and the deaths.She see's nothing like others do.she can see the blanket that has been put over their eyes, to sheild them from the cruel reality.The reality of the world they have yet to see. As darkness consumes her she sheads a single teara tear large enough to quench all thirsts,a tear larger enough to flood the world,a tear shead for the pain, the sorrow and the hurt.She closes her eyes and slowly lays back.Its her turn. she can feel it hovering over her.she takes one last breath as it passes over her. Now, looking down she realises it was for the best.She realises that she was meant to see it, to see it all.She was the blanket. Without her the world would see what she see's, the world would feel what she

Haters And Fans
Internal conflict Jan. 5th, 2005 | 07:03 am "stop it, please just leave me alone" she said. She knew it wouldnt leave her alone. it never had before. It was always waiting for her, waiting to bring her down. "i dont know why you even bother, no ones going to care" it spat back at her. " your alone just like always. you know what happens when you trust people. Its always the same, you end up at someone elses mercy""you know tho that not everyone is like that. People are proud of you, they appreciate you. You can do good in the world if you put your mind to it. You used to love yourself... what happened?" said the voice with the calming nature. "dont bother, youll just fail like you always have""Every life has its ups and downs, you just have to be patient through the downs""Face it your alone, youve been alone, and youll always be alone""a journey must begin with a single step"She fell to her knees on the floor. Her head was pounding uncontrolably. She grasp

Dreaming Of What Could Have Been
Dreaming Jan. 5th, 2005 | 05:54 am She greeted the warmth of the day with a smile. She climbed out of her soft bed and walked to the window. She enjoyed it all. The sight of the flowers blooming, and the noise the birds made, even the smell of the trees was beautiful. Walking to the stream she marveled at mother earth. "how do you create such beauty" she asked to the world. The moving water and the wind blowing the grass made for such wonderful music. She lay in the grass for hours listening to nature and meditating......She woke up sweating, feeling hot and sticky. Slowly and painfuly the dream melted away. It left her with little warmth after realizing she was back in the terror of reality. The world here had yet to find peace like her dreams did. Instead of embracing mother nature, they were at war with her. She walked to her window and looked at what her kind had done. Where the feilds of grass would have been there were streets with busy cars. Where the flow

Sunrise
Jan. 5th, 2005 | 04:53 am The morning dew was like a refreshing shower. She hadnt felt it in so long. She was tired of the darkness, she missed the sunrises. Her blood had run cold for too long. She wanted that sweetness. After searching for so long she was ready to find it. Ready accept it. The feeling of it all just washing over her. That would be happiness. Her determination will only grow stonger untill she finds it. Never again will she let it slip away

Addiction
Apr.27th,2004 03:02 am Sometimes the thought of the blood dripping slowly is so comforting. So warm and fuzzy. I can taste it on my lips. Licking my wounds. the salty taste it leaves.The pumping adreniline. The sight of life. the ever so familiar rush it leaves behind. Its almost erotic in a sick way. In the way you want it, need it. You desire it. its your best frined and your lover. Its so close its like family. You turn to it in your times of need, when it feels like no one else in the world could possibly understand. A warm blanket surrounding you. The gentle yet passionate kiss from the blade. lips as red as blood. The craving never goes away. it haunts you forver. It goes from your lover to a stalker. you cant get awayfrom it. it fallows you everhwere, you see it in everything.Its not worth it.no matter how sweet a kiss it leaves. It will go bitterI wont go back.

Hold On
Apr.11th,2004 | 10:56pm Walking through the darkness she came across a small patch of light. Glowing, radiating warmth. It was like a breath of fresh air. She had to find some way to hold on to it, help it grow, feed off of the warmth to produce more. It had happened many times before. She was so close, it was within her reach, and she just didnt hold on tight enuf. This time could be different. but would it be?

Running Out Of Air
Apr.10th,2004 | 11:10 pm Everything that was, is now gone. She stared sadly at the past, wishing and wanting. Everytime she touched it she felt the warmth leave, she felt the softness turn hard.It would never be the same. and she had to accept that. The sweetness was gone and it left a bitter lonely taste. She craved it, if not needed it back. She knew the future would hold better days. She knew it was all for the best. That didnt make it any better tho. The presant was just too hard. It held too many tears. It pulled her down and tired to drown her. If she could only hold her breath a little longer....

Where Are The Words?
Where are the words? Apr. 5th, 2004 | 09:38 pm Where did they go?There were so many,They flowed so freely.Poured quickly from my mind.Quenching the thirst of my soul. Forgotten in time,Lost for now.The hunt is on.

"go Away Fda " - Walnuts Are A Drug? (repost)
The Food and Drug Administration is telling California-based Diamond Foods that they need to remove wording from their walnut packages that advertises the health benefits of the tasty nut. Unless, that is, they want to apply for an application that would consider their product a drug. The FDA is cracking down hard on Diamond and says that the distributors can’t advertise the health benefits of the nut’s omega-3 fatty acids, even if they are verified by doctors. Three dozen published medical papers currently attest that eating walnuts improves vascular health and can combat heart attack risk. Even if doctors stand by those statements, the FDA does not and says that Diamond needs to nix the nut note that goes on their packages. According to the FDA, Diamond is “misbranding” their nuts because they “are offered for conditions that are not amenable to self-diagnosis and treatment by individuals who are not medical practitioners.” “Therefo

Moving On
To move on from such a toxic relationship is hard, especially when the other wishes you ill. But I will not, and as much as this person thinks he has, let them destroy me! I am far too good of a woman and person to be let on by a false prophet! I knew the game the second time around and I played along while they played me. A fool I know, but I needed to be sure. And unfortuantely I was correct! I will no longer be bound to a single sheep again! or any sheep for that matter. The fact is this: a cold heartless slab of meat isn't one to love or to even hate! They are just that...meat! They forgot one thing though. My wrath! Thine is greater than Satan his self and I don't have to do a thing! not even lift one lil finger. However, it is that great, more so than ever spoken of by that toxic one! Never underestimate me! I am a wonderful person, but to be fucked with isnt a good idea! I have moved on. I have great and "real" friends, and a few takers in line

Fubar Owned Game Economic Logistics Survey
Just an observastion. several other users agree with me. So hey I was just wondering what kinda math and economics some of these games are based on. Doese it make sense that you buy someone for $100 K And you get charged 10% if someone else buys them.And that person can buy them for exactly what you payed. $100 kSo they spend not 1 Fubuck more than you to steal the person you bought.Costing you $10 k and earning the person being bought and sold 10%(10k) Now you could buy the person back for that same price and pass this person back and forth and do the same thing to this otehr person,both of you basically dropping 10k a whack into the buy(ie's) pocket and losing that 10k each time. this perpetuates as a cycle untill the price goes up. Now on the off hand you keep them for 14 days you get a whopping 1% proffit, in this case 10% of 10k is 1000 It's stupid that you can buy someone for the same value they already have, and just keep costing the buyer cash while the person being bought make

The Final Stroke Of My Damnation
There are those who hate people who do them wrong. They wish undescribable torments and horrors visited upon their enemies. There are those who pray for the death of those they loath. I am NOT among them.... ...My curse is far worse than that. "May thy every day be as the last. May thee experience no new things. See no new sights. Love no new loves. May every waking moment in the remaining time of thy existence become tedious and dull. May the light of life be driven from thy heart and thy soul wither in mediocrity. May no songs be sung, nor stories told of thy exploits. May thy life be without meaning or cause. And when thee have gone, may no one remember thy name or thy life. Thy curse is not death. Death is a blessing. Thy curse is to never have lived at all. With every ounce of my wrath I do curse thee with non-existence."

The End
The End In a journal of scribbled words I keep thoughts I want unheard, thoughts of hope, thoughts of doubt, wondering what lifes all about. Searching through memories, of feelings I tried to hide, remembering all the times you laughed, and the times when I made you cry. You said you had enough and couldn't take it anymore I didnt know how bad I hurt you til you packed your things and walked out the door. I never thought it would feel so bad the day that I hurt you, but you said you had enough and did what you had to do. Now I'm all alone trapped in my own deep thoughts, I finally figured out your trust is something that is earned and can never be bought. Another chapter in my life unfolds, each time I take a

My Recovery
For those's who have been keeping up with my Status the last few months or on Facebookk or talking to me.. I went back to the Dr. today. I like the news he had given me today. My right shoulder is doing alot better now. He says it will be at least 2 months before i can do some things with that shoulder. I can live that. The other thing is I am done with PT for good. They just need to give me a excrise program to do at home. I know my daughter Terri will be cheering me on and helping me with the excireses that I need to do. Terri is 14 years old and has been my greastest support of getting through all of this and besides from friends who has been there too. I still have some pain here and there I can live with that, I like this pain compare to the pain i had before the surgery. I will be watching what i do with that shoulder as long as I dont hurt it again. I dont want to go through that again. Thanks to the great friends who have been there for me. I couldnt had done this with out you.

My Poem!
~*BROKEN HEART*~ THE LOVE I SEEK IS SO HARD TO FIND,IT MAKES YOU SMILE AND EASES YOUR MIND. IT TWO HANDS HOLDING OR EVEN A SMILE,OR A WALK THROUGH THE PARK AND TALKING A WHILE. I THOUGHT I FOUND IT 3 YRS AGO, BUT ALL IM FEELING IS MISERY AND WOA.I CANT KEEP GOING ON LIVING A LIE,I HAVE TO SPEAK UP OR LET MYSELF DIE. I WANT THE ROMANCE LIKE WHEN WE WERE YOUNG,I HAVE THE FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS BUT NOTHING IS DONE.EACH DAY I WAKE WONDERING IF IT WILL CHANGE,AND AS THE DAY GOES ON IT ALL REMAINS THE SAME. IM NOT THE BEST LOOKING BUT I HAVE A HEART,ITS TORN AND BROKEN AND FALLING APART.IF I CANT FIND LOVE THEN I AM AFRAID, I WILL TAKE ALL THIS PAIN WITH ME TO THE GRAVE. IT'S NOT A GOOD THING TO FEEL ALL ALONE,

Husband Of My Ddreams
Husband of my DDreamsSparkle like a diamond divineHeavenlee man you must B mineSparkle like a flame brilliant RRedDesiring to give you Great HeadHusband of my Deepest DreamsNever shall you hear my SScreamsStanding at the foot of my BBedImparting such Awe and DDreadHusband of my DDreamsGenuis of Generous Light and LifeGenerator of Chaos and Endless StrifeExpecting me to B yourr #%!WifeHusband of my Darkest DreamsPutting the Screws to the ReemsNothing is ever what it SEemsIn hell with youRR TeamsHusband of my DDreamsInjustice can be righteousness.Darkness can be light's bliss.Dangling out the word MISS!Husband of my DDreams I still adore Missionary.I want to make Stationary.My heart has the word Cautionary.

Lame
Im getting bored with this site once again. It is no longer fun anymore, its all about rates and making other people feel special for liking them, not to mention its promoting prostitution for bling, boomerangs, god modes etc.... Would be nice to have good fun chats with people but unless you wanna pay for it, it aint happening!!!! Peace out Dicks

What I Like To Read
Well I have liked to read and wriite most of my life. Recently, I found a series by one of my current fav authors called Jaid Black. It called the Empress new clothes. Its the first in a long series of books and its all erotica ... I said it erotica... good old verbal porn. I love it and this author and several others are great. I wish to break into this genre as well... but I don't think I am that good. But I do have some of my work on a site called Booksie.com. If you like what I have to say here and what to know more about my current reads or my work. Messaage me and I will send you the links or tell you more about my fav erotcia writers. Much love all

Sick Of Fubar's Favoritism
IS IT JUST ME OR DO YOU SEE THE SAME PEOPLE DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY GET GOD MODES OR AUTO 11'S? HAVE THE QUALIFICATIONS OF LEVELING GOTTEN RIDICULOUS?YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT IT HGAS!!! I MEAN DID BABY JESUS EVER CONSIDER THE FACT THAT NOT ALL OF US HAVE THE MONEY TO SPEND ON THIS SITE I MEAN SURE I PAY FOR MY VIP BUT I MEAN ALL OF THESE RIDICULOUS QUALIFICATIONS YOU HAVE TO MEET,MAKE A GLOBAL MUMM AND GET THIS AMOUNT OF VOTES OR SPEND 3 DAYS IN A ROW ON HERE RATING PIX OR PROFILES? SERIOUSLY THIS IS BEYOND STUPIDITY!!! I MEAN MAKE IT SO US WHO HAVE NO TO LITTLE MONEY TO SPEND ON HERE CAN HAVE A FAIR CHANCE OR DID BABY JESUS NOT CONSIDER THAT TINY LITTLE FACT? IM SICK OF IT, IM SICK OF BEING ONE OF THE MANY JUST BEING TOLD THAT I HAVE TO SPEND A SHIT TON OF MONEY JUST TO GET AHEAD ON THIS SITE!!! SO I WANNA BE THE VOICE THAT SAYS ENOUGH!!!! IF YOU AGREE OR HAVE ANY COMMENTS PLZ FEEL FREE TO DO SO. KING NOTHING

Coffin
(Coffin is still a work in progress. It was first written in 2009, and is changing ever so slightly.) "I'm going to lie in my coffin one last night.I'm no longer looking for a fight to see what I truly am,and who I may beJust make me this promise and stop looking for me."She stopped writing and put the book down on the nightstand.There.She sat next to the bed. She wasn't sure what to think. She has just been in the same bed as one of them, yet she didn't feel different. Her mind was fuzzy, her body was numb, but she couldn't help it.She loved this feeling. She felt like she was free. Free to do what she wants.This wasn't the first time it's happened. She's done it before, but this time there was love.The figure lying next to her was beautiful. His pale skin, dark brown hair, he was the reason she was still living. When she first saw his eyes, those stunning eyes she couldn't look away from. Dark as the night, but calming. Those eyes showed her what she was missing.He saved

What Should You Consider When Choosing Modest Wedding Dresses
This post is created to support LDS brides, or other non LDS Brides, desiring a genuinely modest wedding dresses. a amount of brides locate that modest wedding ceremony garments are difficult to find. the two LDS brides and non LDS brides can alter their bridal gowns to turn them in to a exquisite modest wedding ceremony dress. Modest Cheap Wedding Party Dresses are couple of and much between, particularly should you reside in an spot in which there aren't a amount of modest Cheap wedding dresses suppliers that cater to Latter-day Saints. a single option, typically chosen by LDS brides without any other choice, would be to purchase a gown that arrives near to becoming modest and getting it altered with a seamstress. undertaking that is trickier than it sounds, so make certain that you simply stick to some standard wedding ceremony gown alteration guidelines. Not All wedding ceremony garments Can turn out to be a Modest wedding ceremony Gown or Temple worthy LDS wedding ceremony Gowns

With You By My Side
With you by my side...I can conquer my fears.With you by my side...I can let go of my past.With you by my side...I can reach for the stars,With you by my side...My poetry flows.With you by my side...Forever looks like an obtainable goal.With you by my side...Love seems easy.With you by my side...I can do anything I put my mind to.With you by my side...I am not afraid of my tears.With you by my side...I know I will have a good life.With you by my side...Anything is possible.With you by my side.

Just A Few Reasons
Just a few reasons...Your quiet strength makes me feel safe.The willingness you have to work when no one else wants the job makes me feel secure.Watching you with our beautiful daughters makes me glad they have a role model in you.And with our boys you are showing them the man they can grow up to be.You quiet my tendencies to be scatterbrained,keeping me organized and grounded when I need to be.Your faith and love of God helps me remember where I lost mine, and with your help I am finding it again.Your values and beliefsare helping us raise strong leadersnot the followers that most of society tends to be.The interest you have in knowledgehas helped me gain an understanding of our boysand the task we have ahead of us.For someone that grew up in a gypsy lifestyle having the same roof over our family's headshas been a real benefit to our family's well being. You make me feel wanted and this was something I had never really felt before.So for all of these things I thank you.

You Have Become My Husband
you have become my husbandthe only one i truly wanted in my heartthe only one i will ever trust in lifeyou have become my husbandi respect your skills as a leaderi admire your intelligence as a manyou have become my husbandi adore your imaginative souli am grateful for all the good you doyou have become my husbandone with me in mind,body,and soulone with me in ways i could never knowyou have become my husbandi trust your judgments my Belovedi will follow where you lead my Lordyou have become my husbandi will remain faithfulli will remain bi youRR sideyou have become my husbandfor more than just this earthy lifeforever and just one more dday

My Love
When I look into your eyes,I can feel eternity.It Shows, no surprise,That we were meant to be.With every single kiss,There's a flutter in my heart.Feeling's I can't dismiss.God's work of fine art.Every warm embrace,Gives me an emotional high.A love as delicate as lace,But strong enough to never die.Whenever I see your smile,My heart melts inside.More beautiful than The Emerald Isle.Together our souls are tiedEach time I hear you voice,The words "I Love You" sound so sweet.My soul begins to rejoice.Without you, I would be incomplete.

Anti-bull
Just Be by Willow on Sunday, July 10, 2011 at 11:29pm We try to hide these problems we all have with fake smiles held together by a web of lies. Forced laughter that splits our very soul.. but why? why not be real? Is the realness of this life too much to feel? Just think of how it would be if our problems were resolved openly and dealt with in trust. Hell, is that even possible for us? us, these creatures of filth and lust. Lazy and insane while dead-set on thinking otherwise I mean, when will we open our eyes? when can we see?

Lol Awesome Story
While conducting some business at the Court House, I overheard alady, who had been arrested for assaulting a Mammogram Technician,say, "Your Honor, I'm guilty but.....there were extenuating circumstances."The female Judge said, sarcastically, "I'd certainly like tohear those extenuating circumstances." I did too so, I listened as thelady told her story."Your Honor, I had a mammogram appointment, which I actuallykept. I was met by this perky little clipboard carrier smiling fromear to ear and she tilted her head to one side and crooned, "Hi! I'mBelinda! All I need you to do is step into this room right here, stripto the waist, then slip on this gown. Everything clear?"I'm thinking, "Belinda, try decaf. This ain't rocket science."Belinda then skipped away to prepare the chamber of horrors.With the right side finished, Belinda flipped me (literally) tothe left and said, "Hmmmm. Can you stand on your tippy toes and leanin a tad so we can get everything?" Fine, I answered.I was freezing, br

Am I Alone?
Is there something I missed? I do believe there has been dishonest, detrimental policies that have been employed over the past 2 years that EVERYONE seems to be completely overlooking. This president and his party had a "super majority". During that time they managed to derail our court system. (taking over Chrysler, Gm) There were many policies that I despised that our former president implimented, but at least he allowed the court system to handle the bankrupsy of companies that were as big as Chrysler and GM. The lable of " too big to fail" did not get applied to Enron, Worldcom, or Tyco toys. All leaders in their respective industries. We have seen bailouts to the Automakers, Banks, Mortgage Companies, Creditcard Companies. Were all of these "too big to fail"? If this is the case, then these companies must, by President Oboma's definition, be considered monopolies. Or is simply a tactic used by certain political entities? (Never waste a crisis.) I have seen more doomsday crisies

The Newest Thing That Pisses Me Off
so im sitting on fu, minding my own business, watching some people scroll on by... and i see one. try to ignore it. try to ignore it. remember what the doctor said about turning green when you get angry........ so im on my home page and catching up on drinks i need to repay, and i see another one... light some incense, chant, look at pictures of puppies... do something before you start your murderous rampage hey! cool... new fan. let me go show this chick some love to thank her for finding me so interesting that she considers herself a "fan"... and on her page, one of her admirers... is ANOTHER one. deep breath..... fuck it............. lets go listen fuckheads if you have the motherfucking balls to put any form of any representation of MY beloved Marine Corps as your motherfucking default picture, you BETTER keep your motherfucking statuses and your stupid fucking fu names appropriate for what youre representing yourself as. YA DIG?? if i see one more eagle, globe and

My Naughty Challenge
Are you up for the challenge? Fill out the questions below honestly, let's see how daring you are. 1. On a scale of 1 to 10, rate how naughty you think you are: 2. Do you masturbate? 3. Own any sex toys? If so, which one is your favorite? 4. Are you multi-orgasmic? 5. What is your bra size? 6. Anal sex, yes or no? 7. Blow jobs, yes or no? 8. Where is the kinkest place you have performed a sexual act? 9. Ever fooled around with the opposite sex? 10. Ever hooked up with a complete stranger? 11. Would you consider yourself submission, dominating, or a lil of both? 12. Favorite type of panties to wear?

Greetings
“I will greet this day with love in my heart. For this is the greatest secret of success in all ventures. Muscles can split a shield and even destroy life itself but only the unseen power of love can open the hearts of man. And until I master this act I will remain no more than a peddler in the marketplace. I will make love my greatest weapon and none on who I call can defend upon its force... my love will melt all hearts liken to the sun whose rays soften the coldest day.”

Wade Brower
Downward Spiral Of A Cheater by: Wade Brower stop before you do it think a while your wife or some one you love when did, because of you, they last smile, bet its been a while dont it is not worth it fifteen minuets then you squirt it now the satisfaction is gone but thier pain still lingers on please dont go that route you big baby go ahead pout let all your frustration out now she is now leaving you why how wow how did this all come about and happen proboably all the name calling and slappn cant get her back now she left cause it all was too much her heart could take no more one to many times she heard ,W***E! so her and the kids are gone life with her was somthing to adore but, youll have that chance NO MORE! Copyright ©2008 Wade Brower

Love
Edit i love you by Wade Lee Brower on Wednesday, June 8, 2011 at 9:01am I loved you the moment I saw your precious face. You took hold of my heart; Made it your own special place. No one comes before you And no one loves you more. When you came into my life, You made my spirit soar. I can only love you Until the day I die. I pray you will be there When it's time to say goodbye. Take my hand and hold me; Help my spirit fly. Let your face be the last I see before I die.

To Jcoffeecat My Wife In Real Life
Time Time is what you need. Time to overcome all my pride and greed. Time Ive stolen from you and the kids. Time i wish now i could turn back and never did. Time will heal your heart and your soul. Time to melt the ice and cold. Time i give to you from this moment on. Time has past me it now is too late you are gone. P.S. I am so sorry. I will ALWAYS love You ! Love Always - n - Forever Your Husband , Wade L. Brower, Jr.

Sorrow
Sorrow you know it well. the mistakes you made. i know i should burn in hell. If the the story of me were you to tell. Some exagaerated but most to be true. Everyone would say im not fit for you. Also the same said for you. you have your side i have mine. but. truth is only found in the divine. Sorrow is not what we had our marrige. you thier mom. me thier dad. That was not the mistake. that was not the lie. The misake was we said good bye. the waywe treated eachother the lie. We love eachother till we die. my sorrow. of how i was to you. is why i cant move. i have a sorrow in my heart i carry every day of i let our love fade away. i am sorry for how ive been. and made you feel. you got me back i feel your pain. burns like a fire rain. my God. my God. forgive what ive done. i am the onewhom caused this blessing you gave this kind of pain. Forgive me Lord and end her pain. Heal her heartand keep her life from falling apart.show this world the beauty in her heart.and bess h

Support Lounge
You know, when it comes to the ways of Fubar and how shit works here, I am not stupid or ignorant. I just happen to be, it seems, one of very few people that realize this website is supposed to be for fun and games, not the begging bullshit all the time, and shitty ways people try to get what they want. I may not be highly ranked here when compared to time spent, but that's by my own choosing. Occasionally I will peek at the broadcasts, because some of my friends do them at times, and I enjoy talking with them that way. I can always pop in to see Manda Murderface kicking someone out for a comment, I'll put the same one and she laughs at me. She's my friend, that's what this shit is supposed to be about. Last night, I look real quick and see one broadcast with 184 viewers within about 2 minutes. I go in to see what it is, and it's a rather haggard looking couple, basically beginning their ascent into porn for the night. As usual, you see the typical comments from guys asking or tellin

You Can Do This
Like the sun rises and falls The love in our lives comes and goes Some days are beautiful and pleasent Those are the days you dont want to end Some days are grey and stormy Those are the days that dont end when u want them to You yern for the days of sun Try your hardest to fill them with laughter and happiness But they rarely last, the day always ends Yet, knowing at the end of the day you will be sad that its over you long for the next to begin One day we will find our never ending day untill then, enjoy the ones that pass and do it to the fullest!

Two Years On Fubar!
Wow.. Can you believe it? I've been a member on here a little over two years already! Time really goes by quickly! In that time I've commented on lots of pages, uploaded a bunch of pictures, shared some recipies as well as some HTML tips and tricks (they're in my Stash - check it out!) and have made some really great friends along the way! This week, I'm hoping someone will give me a "Big Pimpin" gift from the Gift Shop! Don't worry.. No money required - it's all Fubar points. You can get to the Gift Shop here http://fubar.com/giftshop.php#gtab9 and then just click the "Big Pimpin Gifts" tab. I'd love any of them but here are some of my personal favorites: Make It Rain Deluxe Hot Tub Tropical Vacation Golden Angel Butterfly Pin Diamond Dust Infused Perfume Platinum Cherry Hope one of you can make it happen.. As soon as you do, I'll be eligible for Level 21! I'd love to see that happen this week!! Thanks so much to everyone for all the help in getting me to Level 20 over th

Quotes
*You gave me power, u gave me hope. and u gave me someone to hold* *When u look at me, it feels like im in heaven, because eyes are so beutiful * *I wanna take u higher I wanna reach for the sky I wanna show you fire I`ll never tell u goodbye* *You got me drippin, caus i want u so bad, and you dont know. Now baby tell me what i got to do* *I belive when u dont belive, I m gonna hold u, til ur hurt is gone, Il be the shoulder u lean on, and il be here for the next 100 years* *I dont know what made u cry, but il be here to make u smile* *Once we where lovers, lovers we where, or u and I , but now i know u where someone who was wasting my time* *Its the way u make me feel, thats why i love u* *We where friends like sister and brother, what did i say? what did i do? so how did i fall in love with u?* *u can call me selfish, but all i want is ur love. U can call me hopeless , caus im hopelesly in love. U can call me perfect, but whos perfect,

Time For Coffee?
Having arrived at the Gates of Heaven, Barack Obama meets a man with a beard. 'Are you Mohammed?' he asks. 'No my son, I am St. Peter; Mohammed is higher up.' Peter then points to a ladder that rises into the clouds. Delighted that Mohammed should be higher than St. Peter, Obama climbs the ladder in great strides, climbs up through the clouds and comes into a room where he meets other bearded man. He asks again, 'Are you Mohammed?' 'Why no he answers, I am Moses; Mohammed is higher still .' Exhausted, but with a heart full of joy he climbs the ladder yet again, he discovers a larger room where he meets an angelic looking man with a beard. Full of hope, he asks again, 'Are you Mohammed?' 'No, I am Jesus, the Christ...you will find Mohammed higher up. ' Mohammed higher than Jesus! Man, oh man! Obama can hardly contain his delight and climbs and climbs ever higher. Once again, he reaches an even larger room where he meets this truly magnificent looking man with a silver white bea

Paradise
well some of you already know of my plans but for those of you who dont here goes..... after i finish school i plan on working about a year and saving close to $10,000 (which includes rent and plenty of spending cash) and moving to either st thomas or st croix in the virgin islands..i plan on doing so that way i can start life over really and finally be at peace and relax it appears that it really isnt as expensive to live there as most people think..hell i could get a 2br house almost on the beach for $1,000/month and its fully furnished with a big yard now if i cant find a medic job right away i can always cook in a hotel since they have cruise ships coming in all year long and even that pays good money so right now even though its not set in stone that is my 1 yr plan for now ps. if yall wanna come visit please do

Broke! 10 Facts About The Financial Condition Of American Families That Will Blow Your Mind July 26, 2011 (repost)
By Michael Snyder - BLN Contributing WriterThe crumbling U.S. economy is putting an extraordinary amount of financial stress on American families. For many Americans, "flat broke" has become a permanent condition. Today, over half of all American families live paycheck to paycheck. Unemployment is rampant and those that do actually have jobs are finding that their wages are rising much more slowly than prices are. The financial condition of average American families continues to decline and this is showing up in all of the recent surveys. For example, according to a new Gallup poll, "lack of money/low wages" is the number one financial concern for American families. To make ends meet, many American families are going into even more debt and more American families than ever are turning to government assistance. Right now, more Americans than at any other point since World War II are flat broke and have lost hope. Until this changes, the frustration level in this co

Lost In Time
She does'nt like me the way she used to. I brought it on myself. I Loved her to quickly, I fell for her to hard. I did not realize it was just a game. Now I don't know how to ask her to forgive me. I don't know how to repair what I thought was meant to be. I suppose it never was. I think of her all the the time but I fear it has all been lost. I'll accept the pain of a Love that was'nt there. I will thank God however for the time we shared. If it is to be that this is the way it must be. I would'nt change a thing because I will always Love her. The memory of her words and the beauty of her face. The simple treasure and her hidden grace. That will fill my thoughts in a special place. Somewhere lost in time.

Finding My Way.....
-im finding my way through all the mean things people say. ya i might make some mistakes. but they will pay. and it will be okay. im finding my way.. -I will never regret or say that I wish I'd never met you… because “Once upon a time” you were exactly what I needed -Too often we don’t realize what we have until it’s gone. too often we’re too stubborn to say, “sorry, i was wrong.” too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts, and we let the most foolish things tear us apart ? -They say 'follow your heart' but if your hearts in a million pieces which piece do you follow:)) ? -Learn from the mistakes others make, you won't live long enough to make them all yourself! -no matter how ugly you think you are, there's someone out there who thinks you're the most beautiful person in the world ? -You laugh at me because i'm different, I laugh at you, because you all the same ? -We're not perfect . Any of us . We make mistakes

Bawdy Storytelling @ The Speakeasy: Naughty Tales & Naked Tails
Bawdy Storytelling fills the Womb Room at my Speakeasy with naughty tales (and naked tails) in this narrative, comic-erotic show. With my beloved snake Eve writhing around me like the Serpent around forbidden fruit, I commence the festivities with an overview of the art of bawdy storytelling, from prehistoric campfires to Bible tales to Chaucer’s Wife of Bath to the Speakeasy itself. Then, the Bawdy Storytellers spin their yarns of sex, love, libertines, fisting, assholes, strap-ons, foot fetish massage, spanking, testicle play, swinging, group sex, incest fantasies, man-eating pussies, and summer camp magic shows that turn into marriage proposals (congrats again Katie and Mona!). Funny how some bawdy stories have a way of turning into timeless romance (like the story of my crazy marriage)… Listen Free to Bawdy Storytelling on RadioSUZY1 FREE “Bawdy Storytelling” PG PHOTO GALLERY Video and XXX pix coming soon to the Private Galleries of DrSusanB

Never Gets Easy
Well I would have to say that I like the site, here alot, because I am sharing what is on my mind. Ususally that is a good sign, I like the place. If I stop talking ... well then we all know that I am else where or doing something else. But for right now I am here getting this off my mind and on the web because I think I just broke up with my bf through his mom. Althogh, I am hoping that he would tell me himself since we are still in the same house. DIFFERENT ROOMS PEOPLE!!!!! Still I love my demon and there is no one else like him, but I have to face facts I tried to make a guy that could get 15 girls( including me ... to fuck him with in 2 weeks) to be mine. I will say that it was a fun year... but I knew from the begining that he wasn't mine. Once again playing the place holder for someone else... while they go out and do what ever.. until they want their man. *Sighs* Oh well... If he ever gets tired of running around with his dick in his hands( thats right... i said han

Volcano Evidence Found On Rear Side Of Moon
Scientists have found evidence of volcanoes on the far side of the Moon. scientists report that a rare example of volcanism on the lunar surface not caused by an asteroid, meteor or comet impact.Before finding this new evidence we only had evidence of volcanoes on the rear side known as Procellarum KREEP terrane.That is some name huh? They focused on an area containing numerous domes, some more than six kilometres high. The domes featured steeply sloping sides which Jolliff and colleagues interpret as, "volcanic in origin and formed from viscous lava". "We also observe circular depressions, which we suggest result from caldera collapse or volcanic vents," the researchers wrote. The LRO data indicates the rocks are rich in thorium, silica and alkali-feldspar minerals, making them different from the black basalts that make up the lunar mare on the near side. Dr Sarah Maddison, an associate professor of Astrophysics in Melbourne says such a

The Government-my Take On Politics
I wish people would start realizing that the republicans and democrats are all best buddies laughing all the way to the bank at our expense. While they have the American people arguing "red vs. blue" like it's a damn football game, we are being distracted from the REAL problem which is ALL of government and ALL of the political systems!

My Last Repent
Poetry/Prose Copy-written under my Pen name and birth name and is to be published and sold in 2012 Thank you for your support MY LAST REPENT Silver waters let me lie afloat you, as I allow your saturation to clothe my naked flesh. Pull my hair back from my face, so that I may see the stars above me. Calm your motion around me and allow me to meditate in still of night. Sustain me for just one moment as I reflect on my blessings and curses. Hold me up with your sea of strength, as I look to the heavens above and offer up my plea of repentance for what I've done then allow the bitter of my tears to add to your dazzling power. Before washing away my sorrows, so that I will not be found with tear-stained eyes, I ask that you permit one last repent for what I am about to do. My battles of good and evil have weakened my flesh, forced me to lie upon you and be taken deep

How To Love....
How To Love Lyrics[Lil' Wayne]You had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heartNever really had luck, couldn’t never figure outHow to loveHow to loveYou had a lot of moments that didn’t last foreverNow you in the corner tryna put it togetherHow to loveHow to loveFor a second you were hereWhy you over there?Its hard not to stare, the way you moving your bodyLike you never had a loveNever had a loveWhen you was just a young’un you’re looks but so preciousBut now your grown upSo fly its like a blessing but you can’t have a man look at you for 5 secondsWithout you being insecureYou never credit yourself so when you got olderIt’s seems like you came back 10 times overNow you’re sitting here in this damn cornerLooking through all your thoughts and looking over your shoulderSee you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heartNever really had luck, couldn’t never figure outHow to l

[i Forgot To Mention]
I had a WONDERFUL nightmare last night. You ever chewed glass and really just... roll it around in your mouth? Yeah, I did that for a few hours last night, and had to keep digging it out of my gums, tongue, lips, and pile it up in a nice, neat pile to build a tower... I got the corner of the foundation done by the time I finally woke up, and this was a nightmare that lasted about 30 minutes, but in dreamtime was around 6 hours. I even had to walk back to this... well of broken glass, and... munch it around while I carried it and... step on the glass that I spilled and had to dig it out of my foot and then my hand... and then my mouth again. God... and it just kept STICKING in my mouth, like it dug itself in. I had to think why I had such a vivid recollection of how glass kinda bounced around in my mouth and how bad all of this hurt and how it came out in such compact lil pebbles... and then I remembered car crash... man that was a lot of blood. And yes- glass go

Passion's Fire Lost....
Passion's Fire has lost its flame....burnt out long before it was started....thoughts of what could have been.....never to come true...might not have been lies....just to good to be reality....I say goodbye...with a heavy heart...I hope you find...what you are looking for....I know it wasn't me....The fire of passion that once held us close.....is now smoldering into God's green earth.

Dipshit Part Deaux
Buzz: sh*t faced! Level: Rock Star (20) Gender: Male, 27 Location: Woodridge, IL Status: Ya thats right im a firefighter And a paramedic...ill save your life twice! 11:03pm juggalofir...: do little dicks make you laugh? 11:03pm Kloverlynn: yes i like to light them on fire nd watch them burn 11:04pm juggalofir...: mines 4inches is that big? 11:05pm Kloverlynn: for a 7 year old yes 11:05pm juggalofir...: im 27 11:05pm Kloverlynn: 20 years late 11:06pm Kloverlynn: its the lead in the paint you fuckheads use

What Happened Those Days
I disappeared about 2 weeks. Lots of things happend. Now I am gonna tell you what they are. I moved to another city to work. In fact, i am not in a city, i am in the middle of nowhere! When the first day i went off from the bus, i saw a large paddy field. No cars, no people, no nothing! When i pulled my suitcase to find my work place, four guys rode motorcycles passed by and whistled to me! I felt i had left the civilized world. Thank God, finally i found the right place. But then i was f**ked up by the work. I began to sheet bed, take out the trash, serve as a hotel attendant! My master degree is a piece of sh*t! All i know is that there is no student 4 me to teach. Instead, I have to handle tons of trivial stuff. And now i am in the office of this secondary technical school wasting my time on chatting and killing my hopes! F U C K!

Update Number 1
July 25, 2011 Well, got back to my apartment yesterday after having been gone for a little over a week. For those of you that know me you know I had a doctor appointment. I went and found out that I have a pre-op appointment on September 2, 2011. I am not quite sure when my surgery is going to be but to be honest I am a little scared. Yes I have had numerous surgeries in the past but I am afraid because this is a major surgery I just wish the pain would go away. I hate the fact that I have to wait over a month just for my pre-op appointment and the fact that they don't even know when surgery will be yet. The day before my actual surgery I will be admitted into the hospital. They will place a catheder through my back into my kidney. The day of surgery they will put me to sleep, put a larger tube in my back, go in with a scope. break up all the kidney stones and scoop them out. and test them to see why i am producing mass quantities of stones. WISH ME LUCK

"re-post This If You Agree. I Did!" Rubbish! Think And Remember!
There has been a post going around Facebook: “So, Obama says Social Security may not be paid after 8-2-11 if they don't reach an agreement. I have a better idea. Rather than not paying the people who need that small check every month, let's not pay any politician for the next year, see if that helps them to work a little harder for the US, the little people.. Re-post this if you agree. I DID!” I personally laugh at whoever wrote it and all those followers out there that re-post it. For me it means a lot of different things: People don't remember their history, and Americans are such sheep that they don't think before they post. I remember September 11, 2001, well, people from a known terrorist group called Al-Qaeda, from the country of Afghanistan, took over the flight of four commercial airline planes, crashing one into each World Trade Center builds, one into the Pentagon, and had control over a fourth plane heading for the White House. Soon after President Georg

Cumming Into The Forest
You reach over and put your hand under my skirt and begin to play with my clit. I moan as we drive deeper into the mountains down the dirt road. I slide down into my seat, my knees on the dashboard, my thighs spread as far apart as I can, to give you better access. You glance over as you slide your finger into my dripping wet pussy. As your finger slides in and out, my breathing becomes faster with pleasure. Just as I’m about to cum all over you, you pull your finger out, pull the car over, and stop. We get out of the car and walk up a path, hand in hand, further into the forest. Up ahead we see a clearing. “That should do,” I say, pointing under a tree at the edge of the clearing. You lay out the blanket that you brought along. The soft grass and dried leaves cushion us as we sit on the blanket and take off our shoes. A cool breeze blows down from the top of the mountains and down the canyon. It evaporates the sweat already pooled on our bodies. A babbling brook c

Home Cumming
It is unbelievably hot as I sit on the porch waiting for you. Sweat pours down my tight tank top reveling every curve and every bump and making my tank top almost see through. The taxi drives up and lets you out. I run up to meet you and look into your beautiful eyes. For a moment, time stops. I can’t believe it. You really are home. I pull you in through the front door, into the house. We walk together into my bedroom. The cold air from the air-conditioner hits my wet tank top instantly sending cold air across my chest. Chills run down my spin and goose bumps appear all over my body. You turn me around to face you and lift my chin. Looking into my eyes, you kiss me. You grab the back of my head, my whole body and pull me harder in to you. I feel you pressing against me. Gently kissing me, you lift the back of my skirt and feel that I'm not wearing any underwear. You rub where my underwear should be, feeling every soft curve. You let go of me, continuing to stare into my eyes. G

Times Have Changed…
Times Have Changed… A computer was something on TV from a science fiction show of note A window was something you hated to clean and ram was the cousin of a goat. Meg was the name of my girlfriend and gig was a job for the nights, Now they all mean different things and that really mega bytes. An application was for employment a program was a TV show A cursor used profanity a keyboard was a piano Memory was something that you lost with age a cd was a bank account And if you had a 3 1/2" floppy you hoped nobody found out. Compress was something you did to the garbage not something you did to a file, And if you unzipped anything in public you'd be in jail for awhile. Log was adding wood to the fire hard drive was a long trip on

Lessons And Loss
Bleh. I'm irked right now and I do not know if I have the right to be or not. Actually I know I have the right to be and obviouslly this is some lesson the universe is putting me through right now. I may or may not have just lost Shayne again. However I have lost him before and survived. I have lost things much more valuable to me since then as well. I will get over it.I am just tired of being hidden by people. I am perfect for private little intruiges, or drunken phone calls at midnight but it seems so many guys just do not want anyone else to know that they talk to me. I'm just freaking tired of it so I said something to him. He said he wants me to be honest so there it goes. I may also get ten kinds of shit over it but if he cannot be my friend then he is no loss.Blogging is a release for me so I just had to get that out. I am seriouslly hoping for my friends to blind date me though at that point cause I needs some dating helps people. :-PAnyways, How the hell are you folks?

Seven Tips For Buying Pre-owed Wedding Dresses Online
Once upon a time, various decades ago, I invested additional for my wedding dresses than I'd actually compensated for any solitary write-up of clothes in my whole life. such as tax, it arrived to some whopping $200.34! back again then, it seemed extravagant for any apparel I knew I would only put on for a quantity of hours. Today, according towards the Conde Nast Bridal Group, the typical value for any Cheap wedding dresses is $887.00, with artist wedding party gowns reaching into various a huge number of dollars. No wonder the price of obtaining married goes on to spiral upwards. And no wonder a great deal of intelligent brides are opting to purchase a pre-owned wedding party dress. in the occasion you believe about it for any minute, it genuinely creates fine sense. Why do ladies really feel the must personal their wedding party apparel when it's not merely acceptable, but downright anticipated that guys will only lease their wedding party evening garments?Others believe that Cheap

25 Reasons To Absolutely Despise Bankers And Their Minions (repost)
25 Reasons To Absolutely Despise Bankers And Their Minions Posted on July 24, 2011 by horse237 1) Bankers, according to the London Times, launder about 400 billion dollars a year or more in illegal weapons sales. The next time you hear of an African war lord killing families so he can kidnap young boys to become child soldiers and young girls to become child sex slaves, please remember that this could not have happened without the active assistance and cooperation of the bankers and the politicians they own. 2) Bankers told American businessmen that entering World War I would make the Great War last longer which would be good for the United States because it would bankrupt England, France and Germany. Calvin Coolidge on Veterans Day in 1928 said America had lost only 30,000 soldiers during the war but another 100,000 since the war ended. Those men had died of their wounds after the Armistice was signed. Everyone who died after 1915 in WW I died for bankers and Israel

Random Thoughts ...............
1. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realizeyou're wrong. ____________________ 2. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I wasyounger. ____________________ 3. There is a great need for a sarcasm font. ___________________ 4. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger andsuddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first sawit. ___________________ 5. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand thantake 2 trips to bring my groceries in. ___________________ 6. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die. __________________ 7. Was learning to write in cursive really necessary? _________________ 8. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger._______________ 9. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod andsmile because you still didn't hear what they said? _____________

Hot Dogs Cause Cancer? Wtf
what does'nt cause cancer now days? Don't know..but I do know what the American cancer society is saying that does? not by any surprise hotdogs!! man what did a hotdog ever do to someone? Also not by any surprise, July also happens to be national hotdog mouth..go figure!...health freaks have been trying to get rid of hotdogs forever in a day now. I can see how some people would want to change how americans view hotdogs they are our trade mark and not to be mean we arent exactly the most healthy or skinny nation around people. Peters et al studied the relationship between the intake of certain foods and the risk of leukemia in children from birth to age 10 in Los Angeles County between 1980 and 1987 "The study found that children eating more than 12 hot dogs per month have nine times the normal risk of developing childhood leukemia"

Retire In 24 Months !
Hey , If you would like to be able to retire in 24 months or less . Check out this website www.retireby2014.com Watch the videos there . The videos will explain how this Great Home business works . You can make 100,000 amonth . And it cost zero to sign up or to work the business . So go watch the videos and get on the waiting list . I will call you as soon as we can get you in . You can call me or e-mail if you have any questions . 813-802-4055 or Fernandezbusiness@live.com

Update 7/25/2011
First, let me say once again how utterly amazed I am by all the love and concern my family and friends have shown me throughout this ordeal. I am completely overwhelmed and wish to express my heartfelt and sincere gratitude to each and every one of you. You have all played a role in my recovery process and from the bottom of my heart I thank you. Now, I have been home for 5 days, so I thought maybe it would be a good time for a little update on my progress. It is mind-boggling that so many other "ailments" can be fixed by getting your back, back, so to speak. Things that would mean very little to you in your normal day-to-day life have literally astounded me over these past few days. For instance, I can now cross my legs. I haven't been able to do that for years. I could always reach down and grab my ankle and pull it up over my knee, but now I can just cross my legs... sure makes changing socks easier. I can pick a dime up off the floor now, without having to squat or bend my

Hmmmmm
How do you expect kids to listen to their parents..when Tarzan lives half naked, Cinderella comes home at midnight,Pinocchio lies all the time, Aladdin is the king of thieves,Batman drives at 200 mph, Sleeping Beauty is lazy,and Snow White lives with 7 guys......We shouldn't be surprised when kids misbehave...they get it from their story books. :)

A Reason, A Season, Or A Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime…. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person… When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, To aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, becaus

Fake Of The Day 7/25/2011.
Today's fake of the day thanks to Shattered... http://fubar.com/2399295 Bad Salutes: Real pic here amoung other places: http://srv100.com/singerpictures/im/g/george/89951_th.jpg This stupid never gets old. Lol. Peace.

Drama
DRAMA I have some friends who say they hate having Drama in their lives, yet they always have Drama in their lives. So quite obviously they want it in their lives, even though they complain. We create our own realities. And this applies to everything. Not just drama. If I am always sad, it is because that’s what I want. Even if I deny that truth. Because I can always create a new way of looking at anything, to create my life experiences.

Forgiveness
FORGIVENESS I have learned two things about Forgiveness. First, forgiving someone is a gift I give myself, not a gift I give them. If I hold onto a resentment, I only punish myself. As someone once told me, holding on to a resentment is like drinking poison, expecting the other person to die. So no more resentments for me. Second, I have learned that I never have to forgive, if I never blame. After all, they were doing what THEY thought was best, given what they knew at the time. Even if they deliberately tried to hurt me, I only satisfy their ambitions if I allow myself to be hurt. Why would I give someone that power over me? So there is simply no need to blame. But if I find myself slipping into blame, I can end my agony by remembering these two lessons. PS This goes for myself to. No good comes from blaming myself for things, I can learn from the past and move on to better things without blaming myself for what I did not know.

Unexpected Curveballs
I have always known that life could hand a person anything at anytime... I was not prepared however, for what I was given last week... After almost a year of memory that had continually gotten worse, strange behaiour, comments etc. my mother was diagnosed last week with a brain tumor. Initially it seemed as though she was in the early stages of alzheimers, after hearing what she told the drs and test results a very different story. She had been passing out, having seizures etc. but not telling anyone, in her state of mind, she didnt hink these things were all that important. My momma doesnt believe in going to drs, taking meds, thinks its a waste of time, even when she is in good form..LOL My momma has always been a very independant persson, is a business woman never depended on anyone for anything much and now that she is in fact having to depend on others is not sitting well. She didnt even tell anyone in the family after she was put in the hospital because she didnt want anyone t

Fuelites: This Is How You Deal With Them.
This is my thought of the day.... Why is it that there are people on here that have profiles right... And of course everyone needs help doing something at some point.... Whether its' points, leveling, etc.... Then you see some people helping them in statuses, etc.. So then like you go to their profile or link... And realize you've been cut, or they won't add you and then you see they have persay like 50-200 friends, a a fan of less than like 10 and have been here for years.....running god modes, etc... My thought is this - why the hell would anyone in their right mind make an effort to "help" someone that clearly doesn't care about anyone other than themselves and clearly thinks they are better than everyone else?.... People get 200 friends in like a day on here ok. If you're semi active and have been here since like 2008 then there's a problem. Solution? If you see this crap just don't even bother to "help" those people because you won't see squat in return from them (not ev

Original Poetry V
The Man You Are I want you to know the man you are inside The man I feel when you lay with me at night The man in which I want my faith to abide And love me with all his heart and might You are loving and giving beyond compare When you say “I will be by your side” I know you will be there Not ebbing and flowing like the tide You have the sweetest disposition Always caring and true You’re supportive of everyone In everything they do I love when funny things With your friends you share Be they pictures or videos From I don’t know where You are one of the few Admirable people I know Surviving your battles Your hard work does show You are a survivor of life ‘tis true Valiantly waging the wars you face Though there are days the loses you rue You can rest assured of victories to taste The man you are has a zest for life You prove it with every day that passes Even though some days cut like a knife You’re an

Today I Miss...
You Mom. More than You Know. Wish you were here.. because in that way .. I am SELFISH! You were strong and needed to be You always had good advice that was sometimes Difficult To embrace... But In the end... Was the Right Choice. How i wish I could Hear your voice again. Spend Hours and hours over the cups of Coffee Both laughing and Crying..til it Hurt! I miss the Woman.. WHO MADE ME WHO I AM YOUR 5 BABIES ARE STILL HERE I Lay For Each The Roses which Honor You. In Much Love and tears. RIP MOM Your Lil Ragdoll

Original Poetry Iv
I Want You To Notice I want you to notice if I’m not around I want you to miss me when I cannot be found. I want you to love me as I love you What I want doesn’t matter not even to a few. When you’re not around the sun doesn’t shine When I’m not around I don’t think you mind. I wonder if it’s always been that the way And I just didn’t realize ‘til today. When you’re not around my mind tries to pursue The reasons why you do as you do. Is it from me that you’re trying to run Or my imagination having cruel fun? When you’re not around I feel so depressed Abandoned, forsaken, desolate, and oppressed. When I’m not around I don’t know how you feel You keep things inside never expressing what’s real. Yes I want you to love me, I really do I want you to love me as I do you. I want you to miss me when I cannot be found I want you to notice if I’m not around.

Original Poetry Iii
There Are Days There are days when I don’t want out of bed All I can feel is heartbreak and dread The world around me is hardened, depraved Someone please help me to get through unscathed. People don’t care about much anymore They break tender hearts and then keep the score But when you think back on the ways things were You realize it’s like living in a world with a curse. I wish I could go to a place no one would find I think I could live there without missing my kind My only little corner of the world as they say A place where I’m happy each and every day. Come Come to me and lay a while Just being with you makes me smile Wrap your arms around me dear And close your eyes; let’s disappear Disappear to a world where only we live A place full of the love and happiness we give A place we can become one for just a moment Shutting out all the pain and torment Just hold me close and don’t let me go To feel you h

Oral Sex
One of my favorite blow job experiences was getting sucked off driving over a bridge. My girl kept hitting her head on the steering wheel while giving me head. I was already all over the road, her head hitting the wheel just made my driving even more erratic! ;D

Wow Youre Really Gonna Read Me!!!
I didnt plan this so i guess as the ideas come to my head ill type it. First off id like to say i think its cool that we even have internet in afghanistan cuz this place sucks ass. I love being able to connect with everybody back home and when i feel like it, seeing them lol. Theres alot of things i am going to discuss over my blog sessions. Dont judge me lol, most of the time im just venting. I treat this like i treat the songs i write. The idea these days is that most people are fake, they dont keep it "Real". I talk about my personal life alot, good and bad, if thats not "Real" then i dont know wat is. Im currently trying to write a book as well, even though i will admit, its far more difficult than i thought it would be. Most of my previous blogs on other sites were just my opinion on certain situations and people. i doubt much will change. So there you have it, and one more thing, really quick. If you dont like wat i say, keep it to yourself lol, im so past the caps lock wars and

Awesome
Okay, so I think I'm pretty awesome. Most people I know think so too. I've been referred to as "The King of Men" because I do manly things. However, I don't care for sports. And if I get depressed I eat ice cream. So, yeah, just wanted to let everyone know.

A Tribute To Amy Winehouse By Russell Brand
The tragic death of Amy Winehouse has made a huge impact on her family, her many fans and her celebrity friends - the outpouring of grief and the emotional tributes paid to the 27-year-old star show just how loved and respected she was for her talent. However, one friend of Amy’s has gone further than just posting a 140 character message on Twitter. Clearly deeply affected by Amy’s passing, Russell Brand has used his website to speak about Amy’s untimely death, and his words are of course funny, moving and deeply saddening. Bearing in mind that Russ could have so easily followed the same fate as Amy, it’s no surprise that Russ has been moved to write at length about his friend… For AmyWhen you love someone who suffers from the disease of addiction you await the phone call. There will be a phone call. The sincere hope is that the call will be from the addict themselves, telling you they’ve had enough, that they’re ready to

Still On The Grind!
Hi my fubar friends! Well this week has been a serious grind week! Still advertising and leaving flyers in stores. One thing I can say is that, every time I leave a flyer at a clothing store, music store, shows, and etc. I really get this great feeling of Independence when I come home. You know the feeling like your the Boss and know one can take that from you! I'm saying this because it feel really good trying to make an earning running your own business! There's no one to tell you what to do or make your day upsetting! I advise any one to at least to try to build there own legacy it truly does makes you feel wonderful and happy! Once again to my Fubar friends thanks for checking out my blog it still growing by the week, so stay tune. Sincerely, Jay Nunn Ceo, Owner, For "What's Up Boy Records"

100 Truths
1. Full name: Heather (the rest is none of your damn business)2. Nickname: Headah, Mommy, Mom, Fuzzy Lumpkins, George, Hatton, Stiffler, White Rabbit, Wabbit, The Madd Hatton, Potato ..... and so on and so on.3. Zodiac Sign: Aquarius4. Male or female: Female5. Elementary School: Atlantic Ementary6. High School: Cheboygan Area High, Rogers City High, Penn Foster, Yulee High. 7. College: None Yet8. Hair color: Auburn9. Tall or short: Short11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.12. Phone or Camera: Phone has a camera.13. Health freak: Nope14. Orange or Apple: Orange15. Do you have a crush on someone: Yup16. Eat or Drink: Drink17. Piercings: Ears18. Pepsi or Coke: Neither. HAVE YOU EVER? 19. Been in an airplane: yes20. Been in a relationship: Uhhhh.... ya.21. Been in a car accident(s): yes22. Been in a fist fight: yup23. First piercing: Ears.25. First award: No fucking clue.27. First word: Daddy29. Last person you talked to in person: Mom30. Last person you texted: Ashley31. Last person you watched

Eminem Feat Royce Da 5'9 - Take From Me
[Chorus: Claret Jai] Is everything not enough?What more can I give up?Is there anyone that I can trust?I give you my all and you still take from me.[Verse 1: Royce Da 5'9"]Always been the type of dude that’ll feed my click, I know that without the fans I ain’t sh-t but'ch y’all better read my lips,I don’t spit raps this ill for you to just hack and steal and leak my sh-t, so peep my drift,I hope y’all don’t think you’re helping me out, with that sh-t, that sh-ts stressin’ me out,Nickel nine is blowing upChristmas time you should hang my album on top of your fireplace cus around that time, my stockin’ is going up,Feels like a victory bittersweet, cuz the bigger I get,The bigger the wedge, between the relationship of me and my bigger bro,Hear what I said?Feels like the sh-t was wished on me,Everything I do for the n-gga and the n-gga know,I would do anything for him but the n-gga refuseTo just quit straight sh-ttin’ on meKeepin

The Truth...hurts.
(oh if my ex happens to read this..this is the obligatory EMO blog you were always needling me about..you know how you said i was so mopey and all. I'm glad I was able to fufill your one of your expectations). Hi. I'm Annelid. I have literally no life whatsoever. I live vicariously through the computer. I'm self centered,depressed,full of self loathing (and cookies) and am going nowhere slowly. I fall for people who acknowledge me. I see things that aren't there. Meaning I take you being nice to me as a sign of perhaps she LIKES me.Sure it's lame..but it's me. I'm tired of everything...i mean....really tired. Not just physically, mentally. I'm ground down to a nub. I want out. I can't sleep or have a coherent though in my head. I dream about what could have been or rather what should be. It's all i have is my dreams. Nothing else. The baubles.....the nice tv's , the video game systems,etc mean nothing. It's a distraction really. I love my cats like they were my babies. And my

Death Is Never Permanent
Bury yourself cut the ropeBecause this ship is going downWasting so much time on thingsThat don't matter until nowAnd I will cry and I will bleedAnd I will make sure that you've seenYou can leave this all behind(And I want to take back what is mine)Save yourself nowThis ship is going downAs you're drowning in the water(As you're drowning in the water)This ship is going downShe's my treasure to be foundWhile our heavy hearts pull us apart(I'll watch you)Can you feel this extra tension in the airDying's never felt so good beforeYour flesh begins to tearIt gets so dark this wounded heartThat burns as the sky turns blackSo cut these chains to break my legs(And stab me in the back)Save yourself nowThis ship is going downAs you're drowning in the water(As you're drowning in the water)This ship is going downShe's my treasure to be foundWhile our heavy hearts pull us apart(I'll watch you)Save yourself nowThis ship is going downDrowning in the waterNo one will save you nowSave yourself nowThis

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Guys Like "cool" Chicks
So we've discussed emotional intelligence and how to spot players and ego-driven daters.....The question now is...what do guys want in a woman? why does it seem they flock to "bitches"? BECAUSE "BITCHES" HAVE THE SINGLE THING THAT ATTRACTS MEN FOR THE LONG-TERM!!! They are women who are in total control of her own self....which means she is aware and observantofher own emotions, communications, and behavior....IN ANY SITUATION!!! The success or failure of a relationship depends on: 1. EMOTIONAL STATE: This includes your attitude, how you talk, self-image, confidence level, personality, and emotional maturity 2. EXTERNAL BEHAVIOR & COMMUNICATIONS: This means what you say and do with a man................ A. Set positive emotional tone. B. Start important interactions by first expressing the feelings you want reciprocated. C. Seek to understand.....then be understood D. Be flexible!!!!! E. Talk "tough" but practice understanding......be assertive without being too pushy.

String Theory For Dummies
Okay everyone so I wanted to talk about string theroy some more.Yes, I know more strings, but hey! strings just might be there very thing that the whole universe is made of ,not something to just talk about in one blog entry.I really just posted that blog entry to see what kind of feed back I would get on this theory.String theory is not a very easy thing to imagine.To imagine that the world is made up of tiny strings not just one string but several different strings.Not only that but string theory posses a very controversial issue.It suggests that the universe as we have known it is Completely different from what we ever could have imagined.Instead of the universe having 3 dementions, it now has 11.Trying to get your head around a universe with 11 dimensions is almost impossible for a human being.The way we know the world to be now is that we have 3 dimensions, left/right, up/down, and front/back. It just simply sends your brain into an over load of information that it can't understa

Sucker
Sucker (made for me by my buddy BLAHME) It started off nice, it was all so grand We were enjoying our time, but I had to take a stand Was all too good to be true, something seemed wrong You had another one, that's why I'm writing this song How could you be so dumb, trying to hide it all Did you think I wouldn't guess, wouldn't notice her call How could you be so blind, living a life full of lies You hid your other bitch, now try this one on for size Never again will you see this smile, you aren't worth the ink on a stamp You're a selfish motherfucker, go enjoy your tramp I'm better than that, you're not even on my level Raised by myself, not your ass all disheveled So I end this rhyme with one last bit, everything must come to an end I'm like Charlie Sheen with tiger blood, all I do is win

The Way Of Choosing Perfect Wedding Dress Styles To Flatter Your Figure
Trumpet / Mermaid Curvaceous and really type fitting, this wedding dresses design is usually with the really self-confident bride. Mermaid gowns hug the entire body instead tightly all of the way right down for your knees, in which the attire flares out. This is in fact a truly attractive design that exhibits away ALL of your curves. It screams sophistication and elegance, however may be selected for any barefoot beachfront Wedding Dresses or formal ball space affair. An stylish selection for anybody with broad shoulders, and for people who possess a slender or athletic build, this design can also be especially striking. If you're petite it will elongate your figure, and if you're keen to flaunt your curves, However, if there are particular places you'd instead not accentuate, its clingy style may not be the design for you. Column / Shealth Cheap Simple Wedding Dresses, sleek and elegant, a Column design wedding party gown can fall almost directly right down through the neckline tow

The Woman I Most Admire
Is J.K. Rowling, an average woman with an extraordinary gift to inspire children and adults to read in this technology driven world. Her writing has stimulated the imagination of all. Interesting Fact: Every 30 seconds someone in the world starts to read a Harry Potter book.

Cloistered By Apathy
I may once have sometimes regarded the rigid rules of this life to be all too binding. Play nice with others, finish your vegetables, don't pick your nose in public places. I actually belief that there is a great deal of merit to being civil, although it is almost a battle within not to want to gorge myself on life's bounties of the flesh, because I know with all too much certainty that this is it, pure and simple. I have no interest in meeting an guaranteed end all too quickly, mind you I am a happy person on my meds, but I struggle with capturing the impulsivity that once defined me and this is making me very sad.

Emotional Intelligence---side Note
So I decided since I'm on a roll I might as well tell you a lil about emotional intelligence and how to spot "emotionally immature" men. Ego Driven Daters: INDULGERS: These men are self-infatuated and get an indulgence in the ability to meet women. They are the social butterflies of dating, collecting hearts to build their pedestal with. ROMANTICS: These men have intense sexual fantasies and appetites. They are constantly in need of validation and approval......equivalent to the "does this make me look fat" kind of stuff. Many of you have the "HE-OWES-ME-MY-IDEAL-RELATIONSHIP" syndrome. Characteristics of this syndrome include but not limited to: -Assuming what you want is what he wants -Hide unspoken expectations -Think about committment TOO soon -Banking on his potential. The above kind of thinking will get you nowhere!!! First, as I said before, men have different timelines. Second, just because there's a close connection doesn't mean he wa

I Am A Cynical Asshole
i'll admit that... but as always there is usally a reason for everything... mine being life.... ain't it just a bitch sometimes.... okay so daily ranting... i drove over to see my mother to hand her the title to my old car.... so she could scrap it... yeah i don't know why i'm willing to let her get anything else out of me but she's only getting about 260 for it and a tow.... it cost 2400 when i bought it... meh the car my brother has been driving on a now revoked liscense and had 3 accidents in... i say 3 but one of which was his whore of an ex girlfriend who he is sleeping with again... even though she is still fucking the other guy she just had a kid with behind his back and the poor dumb fuck is just too fucking stupid to realize it now don't go feeling any sympathy for the dumb little bitch... i won't have it :) see my brother made his own choices people warned him and tried to help him... myself included... and he does nothing but fuck up constantly and screw everyone else

Now That I Have Your Attention, Ladies :)
Alright, so now you know a lil bit of what you're doing wrong. Let's get down to how to correct this bahavior. "seek first to understand and you will be understood" The first thing that needs to be done is the GOUNDING stage: This is your present mind. RELEASE ALL YOUR OPINIONS, JUDGEMENTS, EXPECTATIONS ABOUT THE MAN/SITUATION FROM YOUR MIND. Nothing hurts a relationship more than what you THINK happened. Next is the UNDERSTANDING stage: Think of his opinions, judgements, and expectations......What's important to him? What do they like and dislike? WHAT DO THEY WANT FROM YOU? Once you've answered those questions the last step is the FEELING stage: Put yourself into their experience. Assume you are him and take on ALL of his judgements, opinions, feelings, and expectations. Then ask yourself: How does this make me feel and react? What do you care about most? What do you disagree with or dislike about the situation? There's THREE main approaches you can use for your thinking...

Quit Whining!!!!!
Too often I run across women on various sites complaining about their love life. For example, right now there is a female on my Facebook that is constantly whining..."what did I do wrong? How can I prove to you I love you? I'm sorry Im jealous. Please can we get back together, I want you and need you and love you" WHATEVER!!!! If you're having that hard of a time with a man....move on!!!! I'VE DECIDED TO WRITE THIS BLOG IN AN ATTEMPT TO HELP WOMEN WHO CANT GET OUT OF THIS THINKING THEY HAVE AND BELIEVE IT TO BE HARD-WIRED...THESE ARE THINGS YOU WORRY AND FEAR ABOUT. ALSO, TO SNAP SOME OF YOU OUT OF THE INTENSE DESIRE TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WORK OUT HOW YOU WANT. A relationship is a compromise STOP TRYING TO BE A PERFECTIONIST AND CONTROL EVERY LITTLE DETAIL. If you're upset that your man wants a 3some and you don't...DON'T agree to it and then COMPLAIN!!! If you and your man are so on again off again to the point of every week....WHY are you with him? Dont give me that BS that you

Another Hot Day In Paradise
I woke up this morning and it was already close to 100 degrees. I sit and wonder when will the heat wave brak and what will August hav in store weather wise. I love the summer time but damn not when you walk out the door and the humidity takes your breath aweay. I have a nice gazebo on my deck and cannot enjoy that for just sitting there you break intoa sweat. I am almost tempted to take a fan outside but then I think what good is that cause all yuou are doing is blowing hot stale air. Days like this I reflect back when my parents had the river house and we would go for the weekend. I know on days like this the water temp is hot but damn at least its wet and will cool you off. Well maybe make you think its cooling you off. I think about those who have breathing problems and feel bad for them for they may have to go out and I feel bad. Summer is almost over and the heat seems to be winning but i am not looking forward to winter. I will take the heat anytime over a snow storm. I guess

Vampire Chick
I decided to go out on Halloween for the first time ever. I'll go to a Meetup group's Halloween Party. This is going to be my outfit - http://www.spirithalloween.com/product/ic-vampira-med-8-10/ Wig - http://www.costumecraze.com/WIG49.html I'll be wearing my shiny flats, since I can't wear high heels. I'll also have goth makeup on. I'm really looking forward to Halloween!

Separation Of Church And Stat (no "e" Was Intentional)
It's easier to call certain things "good" or bad" when you measure them in bulk. Statistics are great in terms of perspective, but judgments made on such information neglect the humanity of each individual case. All I'm saying is, if you're making tough decisions in your personal life, the last thing you want thrown in your face is a "you're in the same boat as all the other hell-bounders we shake our fingers at now and then" slight of stat. For example: divorce. Sure, it's sad that divorce is a norm and a statistical majority, but no one who married with decent intentions and is undergoing a divorce wants to be condemned via being reminded of their "home-wrecking majority" status. Nothing is more obviously aimed at the reason Christians get a bad rep more than those pious little trinkets of condemnation they put in your stocking at every convenience.

Naughty Qoutes
Sex is evil, evil's a sinsins are forgiven, so let's begin. Kids in back seats cause accidents, accidents in back seats cause kids. If youve been naughty go to your room if you wanna be go to mine. you have been very naughty now go to my room!

Racism
his comedy act.He makes some very interesting points. He said :I'm proud To Be WhiteSomeone finally said it.How many are actuall y paying attention to this ?There are African Americans, Mexican Americans,Asian Americans, Arab Americans, etc.And then there are just Americans.You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction.You Call me 'White boy,' 'Cracker,' 'Honkey,''Whitey,' 'Caveman' ... and that's OK. But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head,Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner , Gook, or Chink ...You call me a racist.You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you,so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live ? You have the United Negro College Fund.You have Martin Luther King Day.You have Black History Month.You have Cesar Chavez Day.You have Yom Hashoah.You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi.You have the NAACP.You have BET.If we had WET (White Entertainment Television) we'd be racists.If we had a White Pride Day, you would call us racists.If we had White History Mont

Why Bling Packs??
Something I've noticed about blings is, when someone polishes it... you get points, the polisher gets points, and the person it was given to gets points... when you buy a bling pack... you get NOTHING!!! Zip, zilch, natha, zero, goose egg... Now, I've been on fubar a number of times, and spend a fair amount of money here... why?? for the fun... on REAL friends to help them out... and for my own fubar gains... you know what they say, "the dollar decides how far you can go..." right?? But when someone blatantly comes out and says "I'd rather have the credits..." how can I call that person a friend?? That's a slap in the face, and plain insulting and offensive... To those of you who have done this to me, you are now on my "no more bling for you" list. Nothing personal, no, yes, it was personal and that's how I feel... if you're gonna look a gift horse in the mouth then you really need to re-evaluate your sense of humanity, and your upbringing... Thanks... more later...

Iam Lost
Iam lost..out of hope..lost with no life left..iam so cold no cares any more..my secret is no more a litle lie..all hope is gone iam broken.....my wings are craked like glass...you cant fix..a broken heart..you can mend it but the scare allways stays..broken is the last word that was on my mind when u left..BROKEN...as my heart try to get strength..i fall deeper in to the life less black whole... ~ to the one i lost. the one i loved the most allways, i will love him forever but now that hes gone,i feel nothing but..un mended wounds..broken.

Alone In The Dark
I see you sitting there alone in the dark...you have suffered another loss...a shock to your heart.Wringing your hands and wondering why...go ahead my friend..its OK to cry.Reminiscing alone inside of your mind...wishing right now you could go back in time.We all make mistakes ...we all have regrets...the only thing we can do now is try not to forget.Hold onto the memories beautiful and true... you will find in time ,these memories will soothe you...no one can take them locked deep inside your mind...the only problem is they sometimes fade with time.I wish I could take away all of your pain...just wash it away like a soft gentle rain...bringing that smile back to your face and sending you now to a happier place.I wish that I could wrap you up tight in my arms...protecting your kind heart from the anguish and sorrow...making your forget this regret that you feel.So as you sit there alone in the dark...know that I'm with you...watching over your heart.

My Life
My life is no longer a purches u can never bye my love..now that your gone,there is no hope left for my non-secsess future..the cure your trying to give me is broken like my heart...the cure is poison..that falls from cracked glass..while i drink it slices my trought as you did my heart..iam calm so i can barely feel the pain.. as i sleep i fall into a trance of darkness..iam kissed in the awakening darkness as i sit up your face is gone like a ghost in the fog..

To Like Or Not To Like
TODAY I HAVE BEEN CALLED A B*TCH.AND A WHORE ..........BEEN TOLD IM TO OLD FOR THIS SITE...........WELL MAYBE I AM BUT THE SO CALLED MEN THAT ARE SAYING THIS IS WAY TOO YOUNG TO BE ON HERE THEN..THEY HAVE NO RESPECT FOR WOMEN OR THEMSELVES ..........AT LEAST I DONT CALL THEM NAMES WHEN IM LIKED IT MAKES A PERSON NOT WANT TO LIKE ANYBODY........ONE OF MY FAMILY WAS ALSO CALLED A B*TCH..........THE PHRASE FOR ME WAS F*CK YYOU WHORE......IT IS A LITTLE UNNERVING WHEN THESE MEN AGES 19---------29 FEEL THEY NEED TO DO CRAP LIKE THIS JUST NEEDED A SOUNDING BOARD TY

Giving
GIVING If I give you a gift, but have some expectation of you in return, it’s not really a gift, it’s Commerce. And I rob myself of the joy of completely unfettered giving. When I give without expectations, I can experience the joy of knowing I made a difference in your life, no matter how small, and I will never be disappointed about what you do or don't do as a result, because I gave with no expectations. This did not come naturally to me, but once I learned it, I began a whole new chapter in my life.

Guilt
GUILT I have come to believe that guilt is a useless feeling, for a thinking and self-aware adult. It seems to me that Guilt is a button installed by our families and others, in order to regulate our behavior. And while MAYBE it had value to those who cared about me for civilizing me as a child, or keeping me safe, it seems useless to me to carry it around as an adult. Surely whatever payoff I get from feeling guilt, I can obtain in some other way. And aren't the prices I pay for feeling guilty rather high?

Merrrr
bored and banned from mums still ¬¬ so i'm bloggingg. so this new fucker cat from downstairs bit my hand, the fleshy bit under my thumb. cant even fap properly cause of it. but anyway, i was trying to stop this psycho cat from getting my cat so i stupidly put my hand in its face and it bites me. two teeth went in and its sore as fuck and swollen n red. havent been to the hospital yet, duno if i should call up and see what they see or just go down. or wait till tomorrow and just call the docs. hmmmmmm if i had a ride it would all be good but i have to take bus and i dont wana do that... thinking it might be infected though so tomorrow i'll definately be going somewhere

One Day
I dedicate this to my true love. One day in a time that seamed like a distant memory I was sitting in class and there was this one girl that had totally mesmerized me. I fell in love with her on the spot but never whispered a word of it because I felt that she would never give me a second look. She was beautiful and well I was me, a not so good looking stoner who thought high school meant being high everyday. One day I dreamt of being her man and when I looked in the mirror I didn't know who it was looking back and I knew at that point if I was ever going to have that young lady I was going to have to change my life, so I set out on a hard task of cleaning my life up I quit doing the drugs cold turkey and have been clean since. Well time had passed and I set out on a another task and that was to find her but everyone still seen the stoner I once had been and wouldn't tell me even if they had seen her or where I might go to find her. So I settled with being clean

Come Back To Anti
Hi, We hope you had a great summer. Since the Radio X show went on hiatus in March, and since most of the staff from the Anti Lounge also took the summer off, a lot of things happened. While we can't guarantee that the Anti Lounge has a large staff, we can tell you that the Lounge is open for business, and we'll need all the help we can get. Anti is looking for anyone that can help us grow again, including cam girls, promoters, and security. Anti is a clean slate - so if you're looking for a place to call your own, then we're the place to be. Just shoot a PM to John [RadioXshow] and let him know you're interested in joining the staff. It's a new day in Anti, be a part of it today.

What I Like...in No Particular Order Of Preference
I'm bored so I thought hey, think of all the things in life you like and make a list...lol Let's see how this turns out. These are in no particular order...just how they came to me. penguins sleeping late on weekends the smell of fresh cut grass rainbows after a rainshower kissing in the rain Rain thunder and lightening roses music boxes picnics tall men my family purple driving fast strolls on the beach the beach sunsets and sunrises scary movies music a good joke a good story Larissa Ione novels...hot hot hot being seduced wind in my hair being on the water snuggling by the fire breakfast in bed massages chocolate sex with the right person diamonds amethyst jewelry high heels thigh high hose fall halloween vampires werewolves spirits feeling my partner's fingers gently stroking my spine feeling like I'm the only woman in the world my partner loves a surprise Hii from a certain someone kissing good night "wake up" sex beautiful picture

What Is Wrong With This
We live our lives by choice, some entertainers, some military, some politicians. Politician makes thousands for naff all bullshits expenses gets caught then its all over the media for weeks. Entertainer famous from their trade and life style makes millions from it then dies from that last drug they took. Soldier gets peanuts, gets shit from their instructors, controlers and government then dies doing what they can and they get 2 mins in the news with THEIR FAMILY HAS BEEN TOLD summit wrong there.

Gen X Superstar?
Last night I dreamed someone put together Gen X Superstar. The cast: Chris Cornell- JC, Billy Corgan-Judas, Tori Amos-Mary Magdalene, Trent Reznor-Annas, Peter Steele- Caiaphas, James Hetfield- Herod, Thom Yorke- Peter, Layne Staley- Simon Zealot, Maynard James Keenon- Pilate

Without Falling
i fell in that moment without falling. the seas caught my body but not gently did i sink. a form of liquid existed within before which i knew nothing of. was it a new awareness - or an old hand? leagues of the abyssal mass crushed my astral intellectualness with molecular precision, rending the seams some being stitched to my mind. : not intelligence, neither enlightenment fathom madness only. for my eyes came out of my head and my scream sounded not of terror or repentance. it begged only of vengeance. i fell in that moment without falling. Copyright 2006 Robert T. Hudson

My Bill Rocks...
The bill, 42.40, the tip, 9.10, the total, 51.50. VH!!!! Yeah, and I totally wrote a Van Halen logo under it too.... Let me explain for those confused, when I say bill, I mean my bill for dinner, also called a check, or whatever...

Why America Landed On The Moon
BECAUSE RUSSIA DID NOT SAY WE DIDN'T Don't you think a bunch of communists watching us would have been the frist ones to call us out? the russians would have been like "na aaaaaaaa" so you see people there you have it ,forgetting about all with scientific proof that nasa did infact land on the moon? come its not rocket science? lol we have spent the last 30 years arguing about the moon landing when we could have been to mars by now... thanks Americans you see its not other countries that deny it its our own people, sheesh go move to russia!! I wanna see hot alien chicks already..

Mp3 Files
Yeah Yeah Yeah - Maps : http://hulkshare.com/ap-0w8jmbvnja04.mp3 Mos Def - History : http://hulkshare.com/ap-8trseho0j2yv.mp3 Mellow Hype - 64 : http://hulkshare.com/ap-axu0au2hd9vs.mp3 Tyler the Creator - Analog : http://hulkshare.com/ap-6m00anhpn70g.mp3 Marilyn Manson - Coma Black : http://dc171.4shared.com/img/725357681/c869e648/dlink__2Fdownload_2F5QpHrGK5_3Ftsid_3D00000000-000000-00000000/preview.mp3 The roots - Otherside:

This Is A Nsfw Exotic Story Read At Your Own Risk.
This Is 1 of my new exotic stories for all to read.If you loved exotic read this and let me know what you thin ok.It's graphic and nsfw too. I can feel her passion streaming from her body.Her lustful desires makes my hunger more stronger.Her smile so Inviting to me,and her eyes tells me her whole life story.Her short life span have seen many horrors and she has lost everyone she has ever loved.But yet her zestfulness and lusty sexual drive has fueled her through It.And It's her lusty side that I so badly needed tonight.For It has been well over 10 yrs since I have fed my sexual vampire side and It was screaming at me to do so.I could feel It pulling me to her.Her curves aroused me In more ways then one.And the thought of being inside of her have driven me to a almost frenzy state of being. My condition didn't go unnoticed neither,It have caught her eyes and spark a fire In her.But she had to keep dancing till her shift was over.But as soon as her song stopped playing she came to m

Ive Never Asked For Too Much
most of the time i dont ask for enough keep me humble keep me safe let me live let me laugh let me love let it be real Let me know today what i need to know......the rest isnt important anymore. 24 hrs isnt asking for too much. ~Ragdoll~

Agoraphobia
Agoraphobia 9: 09pmSomething isn't right...I look around, as if you're right next to mewith a frown I silently say 'I feel you tonight.'anxiously, I arise from my chair and begin cleaning...Dishes Vacuumed floorsWashed windows As I wipe the beads of perspiration, I inhale deeply.In noticing the time, I exhale...9: 28pmPause - breathe - contemplate'WHAT THE HELL! ' I scream.I glare at the reflection in my screen door windowdirectly in the eyes...realization sets in... that's my reflection.Back to my chair, I sit...In solitude, I feel so saddened and confusedrestlessly, I grind my fingernail into my kneepiercing through, I come to a halt.Mouth and eyes wide open...I feel like someone's here... or are they coming?

Bored
Hello all!! y'all must think am crazy on here!! I know that i am not perfect by all means, but i have to get this out... For a whole day now I sit and wonder if I go into a lounge and just park and fall back asleep is that a reason to be ban from a lounge... I know my answer is no, but i think the person that ban me knows i might have horn in on a relationship they had with a member of fubar, and now is out for blood.. So i think if my taughts turn out to be right, i will post this cause i have a name for myself it appears!! Ladies of Fubar you got to know how to keep a man happy and please in every sort of way... If he out looking for someone else then you as a Lady not doing the job right!! see i am to a point i just dont care no more, the drama queen in me is in full swing, so bring it... But I know that my true friends will understand this... The special person in my life does not exist on fubar, just because y'all think he does.. Fubar is the place we got to be friends, but he exi

Another Set Of Tragedies
Today I read where 6 people were shot and killed and 4 others wounded at a Texas Roller Rink. Then the shooter shot himself what a cowards way out. Yesterday I read in Norway where a man dressed asa police officer told youths at a camp to come closer. When they did he pulled weapons and shot and killed I think 80 - 90 people. Once he shot them he made sure they were dead by shooting them again in the head with a shotgun. The world has gone crazy. What makes someone take a gun and just shoot people at random for no reason. Lives gone families devasted to have to bury loved ones. Its sad what has happened in the last couple days. Then tonight I read Amy Winehouse at 27 was found dead in her london home. Death unknown but I am sure it will come out a drug overdose. I am hoping in the next few days there is good newsand no more devastation.

In A World Filled With...
In a world filled with glass houses Who will cast the first stone Be careful where you aim You could hit your own window In a world filled with glass houses Shattered glass lies on the floor Careful where you cast judgment It could be thrown at your door In a world filled with mirrors Just who is it you truly see Do you see a painted face Or do you see natural beauty In a world filled with mirrors How deep are you willing to go Can you see past the surface Do you dare look at your soul In a world filled with voices What is it that you hear Do the words of others Fall upon a deaf ear In a world filled with voices Is yours one that is heard Do you speak what matters Or are they just empty words In a world filled with meaning What matters the most to you Are people reduced to things Through your daily pursuits In a world filled with meaning How do you spend your time Because what means the most Is where your heart resides

What Gets You Up In The Morning?
Hello, Simple question, what gets you up in the morning? What gets me up in the morning? Opportunity. That's waht gets me up in the morning. tThe opportunity to advance my career, the opportunity to show my "upper management" realize I'm much more valuable than they realize. The opportunity to possibly run into that special person that may complete my life. The opportunity to learn something new, see something I've never seen before and do something I've never done before. Opportunity is unique for everyone and that is what gets me up in the morning. What gets you up in the morning?

[today In Food]
Today I did a few things that I've done before that I have improved upon in the past. wut? I dunno. Lunch was french toast, and I tend to play by ear on this, but I wanted to bake it for a change, and to see if it was more consistent.... and well rounded twas. Anyway, I preheated my oven to 350 and grabbed some old french bread (the soft fluffy sweet stuff from the store) and cut them into big hunks like the size of good bruschetta, or slices that were approximately the size of both of my fists I combined 2 tbs of heavy whipping cream 2 tbs of honey and 3 eggs then I soaked each side of the bread in the batter for about a minute on each side retrieved drained any goopy excess back into the bowl grabbed a baking sheet and some wax paper and placed the battered bread on the paper on the tray then I placed a slice of bacon on the top of every piece of bread, and patted it gently into the damp bread, and covered that with the excess batter and popped it in th

You R The Reason Of My Life Always
you r the dream that i dream always you r the sky that i see always you r the word that i say always you r the love that i imagine always you r the air i breath always you r the heart that i feel always you r the song i sing always you r the nature i see always you r the universe i am in always you r the sorry i will never regret always you r the gentle i feel always you r the wave i swim with always you r the thought i think always you r the snow i touch always you r the smile i see always you r the way i walk always you r the eyes i dream about always you r the mind i talk always you r the certain that will never close always you r the hand which write my poems always you r the feeling that in my heart always you r the heart which beat always you r the soul and warm within always you r the flavor i taste always you r the rock n roll i listen always you r the reason of my life always you r the all i have always you r the light i touch always you r the no

Why?
Why, when I see your picture does It cause such great JOY and at the same time a hurt in the heart? The joy is so profound that It has made men wage war just gain a smile. The pain and hurt, at the same time, has made man so meloncoly that the thought of life is of no concequence and great deeds have been wroght for that same smile. I am no great writer nor a poet. But I can almost feel what the great warrior poets might have felt. The joy of battle in a great cause, to protect your home, your family, your love... Or to sit in the quiet of night, surrounded by hundreds but totally alone with thoughts of the love you'd die for, but only wanting to live for. I don't believe I was born in the wrong age, a thousand years too late... Maybe a thousand too soon. I may be one of those souls who yearn for adventure, to seek out new things, to boldly go forth into the unknown, to capture knowledge, to conquer fear. All of this for one who could care less for the feats, who just would ta

Forever Walking
Forever walking with no place to goWish you had some stuff and somebody to showYou find yourself sitting on a bridge aloneTrying to remember how to get back home…. 15 years agoModern day Jesus was the man I speak aboutThe only thing he needed never ran outNo bills to pay no worries except for the rainYou can’t lose something if you never had it In his life there was nothing to gainThis man had nothing but love to giveA little wine some fruit of the vine……. a little beerNo worries because he had nowhere to steerThe only way he knew how to liveEveryday he celebrated the Cana of Galilee Wedding Making wine on nothing but a dimeAt night he would lay down and dream on his cardboard beddingIf people saw Jesus they would walk right past himJust like most people who looked at this manThey would not dare to shake his handDirty clothes and dirty feetSpent his time with bums on the streetThe man I speak about still walks aroundBut now he is walking far from the groun

Dying To Live
I need a place where i can just breathe where I can just get away from you and the day. I need a time where i can end this all and save myself from you and your all. I'm dying to live, living then dying and I'm almost dead. They teach me what they tell you, I cut myself to feed the fake. Now please dont you mistake my mind.Leave it here with you behind the wall of the great divine. And you say I have these demons and i say no i dont. And you say I have these addictions let go of them no i wont. you say i have these problems and you care. You say im running but im two steps behind you You say I have nothing left but where does that leave you. You say you are so pure inside but there is a tiny piece of you that your always trying to hide I can see through your heart of glass Why am I always having to feel this wish i could put it in the past. Now my true feelings have started to show now I just have one more question my last rude remark why do you pretned to be so rea

I Need To Know
I wanted to be something more than you I wanted to feel alive..i need to feel alive but this is all i know and i'm so affraid to show not ready to let this go is this all i owe to you? its been so long since I felt real and I'm so afrraid to let you feel and now my heart needs to heal I'm letting you see this is the in perfect me there is no changing around a new life Ive been bound. I'm wondering did you take it to heart? I never knew this would reach this far now I'm sinking fast into an ocean full of you I never felt so dirty before and now my heart is lying alone beating on the floor all i can see is how im dying without it dying inside are love is lost because you lied and now I'm not so sure I want to spend the rest of my god damn life living so unpure you have posioned me and left me here to die now I must be alone affraid to love I wonder why I need to know

Green Stains
I want to be clean from you I must shed my skin do not leave me here alone my veins are running thin thick and blue a milion times you have spit on me I have failed and let you win you have consumed my lungs I sleep because i cannot catch my breath everything around me seems to be running my body is floating away my eyes are all thats left of me I can see what you love has done to me you are polluting my blood as i let you swim through me as I look in the mirror I see my eyes they look like dead I feel like I'm far away looking into a fire blaze everything is a blurry grey my fingers are moving my skin feels weak my addictions they wont go away you tease my mind life me and my problems and take them away your gone now I have inhaled the last of you are realtionship has ened now its through i have used you for all your worth now i must sleep again rise and use you another day

Wanting
you me we seem to never agree love with you my mind runs free life so much easier with you near that you want to hurt me is something that is hard for me to hear you turned into this broken heart your words you speak you sing I think of you when we are so far sometimes I give the wrong expressions which makes you wonder and gives you the wrong impression

Tonight
oh tonight I want to shed one tear of regret I didnt when you were near I get so nervous i can feel my pores sweat When i sleep through my dreams Ill see you dont know me please dont speak my name so freely speak my name dont kiss my soft skin it wont feel quite the same I need to get out of this strain the pure mark of the pain burned into my holy chest the wind just whipsers prayers into my head as i lay curled up on my bed trying, dieing for the rest pieces of us often die everyday as if the good parts turn dark then fall as we did from heaven where did my angels go? things arent the same everythign moves so slow peoples tongues are polluting the clean world when i was young just a little girl I wanted to sing happy things I wanted all the things love could bring now ive seen the colors of the world and I have many sad things to sing many sad tihings to bring

The Mirror
broken are the words you throw at me heartless and cold my hands start to go numb I'm all alone here existing in the world the air that surronds me I take a deep breath and i inhale in all the sickness you spread who am I what do I do here are my choices they are all laid out for me I feel so old stress has aged me Is this me? no its an infected reflection of me I'm torn I'm scared and I'm all alone just me and my mirror

Everyday Angels
I dont think ill be in a fairy tale love isint this little girl I dont want it in my world my heart still comes out sometimes when things start to unwind I come back inside Ill come to play again another day around here it gets cold around here death spreads around here is that what you have been sold? I wonder why you cant tell im sensitive I guess ill get tougher tougher on myself sensitive is what i want to stay it sucks you cant be gentle and kindly go away maybe if we are surrounded by beauty one day we will become beautiful become what we see id rather see the world from another angle we all are everyday angles

Locked Up
your filth these stains my breasts sin remains taken under lost control the truth must be retold and i know..i know something about you something about you and when you do those things you do you did your father did it to you I felt like a pet like a rat in a cage can you feel it? can you fake it? i wont change do you still feel the same? tell them your the only one " the days are slow and full of sorrow ill stay under my fix untill tomorrow"

I'm Over And Through
I have 2 things my body and my mind please dont look at my breasts if you would be so kind. What did you think you would get from me when i stepped into your world Ive grown up I'm not daddys little girl. To share with you my heart would be a sacrifice I'm not willing to take. Ive done all these things for you now its my smiles that i fake. It seems like yesterday..I walked away just to spite you. When i said I loved you I lied now I know thats not true. I hate you..you hate me now please just let me be. When you never hear my voice again thats when you might finally see Im strong enough to live without you I thought id die without you but now im here breathing without you. living without you near. I'm not giving in. I'm healed from my addictions you take me under you like to watch me fall my skin breaks off. I'm as gentle as a porcelain doll. Tragic it seems to be alone again but this time im determided to not let you in.

Him
His loves smokes my heart like an unfiltered cigarette I asked him for directions in my life. my cuts are a road side map design. i asked to help me find my way in life only to find out he was blind. I thought he was special then i took another glance I thought God was finally giving me another chance He should have hid the knife from me one more drag just one more hit my mouth and not ass are busy playing tag. im sickly apparent less im couching and sctraching where i used to exist I'm allergic to happy people your laughs make me itch. I used to play guitar but now my fucking life is off pitch. my stomach aches the coke used to take away the pain but now the yellow residue has left a stain and im left here feeling wrinkled naked and plain life really stinks when your trying to get high off the precription drug supply these pills have my brain malfunctions on a permanent fix and now i'm lying ten feet under are love creates a double susicide the two stabs

To Danny
Every Time You Go 3 Doors Down I savor every minute that you're hereThat you're here with meClose my eyes and remember every breath, every memoryThrough all these sleepless nights alone, I still feel youAcross these miles away from home that I'll never get used toEvery time you goYou take a part of meA part of me with youEvery time you goI feel it in my soulEvery, everyEvery time you goBefore it used to beWhen you were in my armsEvery time you go You take a part of meA part of me with youEvery time you goI count the days until you're back again, back here by my sideWhen you're apart it feels like, something in me, something in me diesI hear your voice over the phone and God I miss youStill all these miles away from home that I'll never get used toEvery time you goYou take a part of me A part of me with youI feel it in my soulEvery, everyEvery time you goBefore it used to beWhen you were in my armsEvery time you go You take a part of me A part of me with youOh, I'm there with you i

My Paint Brush
when I look at myself each morning I suffer to accept what I see I'm covering myself with paint, each layer hides the image of me. I'm to scared to let you in,afrraid you might laugh and walk away. so I keep myself covered hiding myself from the world each day. The paints are different colors of the rainbow. A self portrait of what im affraid to let you see.The world has kept me under hidden me from love now I stand before you. I'm striping off my coats For you to finally see. close you eyes I need you to be patient with me Ive been covred up for quite some time now. Ive been hiding my dark colors from the world to witness me without my coats,only hindness will allow. Now im clean,see my angel white skin.Open your eyes to catch a glance of the light. You might run away, you might feel a fright but i still keep my paint brush near me in case i need to cover up. A place where you cant reach is where it will be now I'm ready to let you get to know me what you see is what y

Right Through
everyday seems so tragic I hoped you woulnt let me down why cant you seem to understand do you mean to say the wrong things? or is it me, or just the way they sound? your damn jokes arent funny cant you tell im not laughing im flowing breaking down. can't you be a little more careful in your hand you hold my heart. I see it.they see it to. Why cant you. you speak these words but i cant feel it.they sink right through. that will teach me to fall in love again that will teach me to love a boy and not a man. This will teach you to say those things they should reach you and show you what a broken heart brings.

Downtown Dedicated " In Memory Of Kate Johnson A Friend Who Got Shot On The Mall Where I Grew Up..
when the fun begins downtown sitting on the losers bench life i was living 10 times i died I'm not the same but I feel the same nothing is importnant oh my and now my mother looks as if she knows why i lied I was dying little by little each day killing myself snorting the pain all away falling asleep in the damp leaves hiding from all the killers and theifs downtown life was quite a thrill untill ant had to kill alife is taken away she will never get to see another burnt out day i sit around in a daze from inhaling to much purple haze watching the people throw there hacky sacks and the old men walking smoking cigars in slacks the punks blowing bubbles into the air I reach into my pocket an empty cigerette packmy nerves lack control now the downtown teen destrction is starting to unfold The omni is the perfect smoking spot in a corner behind the parking lot now i see my devils eyes bastard son of this wild child Im holding back. half okay to pretend my feelings

Downword Spiral (song/peom) Written By Brandy And Me When I Was 15 In A Play I Starred In The Lead Part! I Also Co Wrote The Play!
downword spiral (song/peom) written by brandy and me sometimes you go down deeper than you ever have before lose yourser lose your way the spiral the wicked spiral it slams you down waiting for you to hit the ground and you go down and you go down so deep and you dont think you will find your way and the downwrod spiral spins you away and what you want you dont get and when your life turns to regret and what you will remeber you will forget

Naive
I am so naive This life this screwed up place now im bleeding drugged up filled with disgrace how do I breath, what more can you take I gave you my heart it lys in your hands I can feel you slowly tear it apart its so narcistic what you do Ill shut you out what they say how do I tell you I hate you these words I speak them as I decay I wanna tear your heart out this hate is for you I'm giving it away I feel it does it stain? my blood rushing through my veins I'm alone in this world all the love runs away.

What Happened
The love The feeling your touch what happened those words those eyes those times what happened the promises that kiss please let me know what happened did you plan it was it me who said it damnit what happened those fights are dreams nothing you say you mean what happened I'm living me and him are happy me and you what happened

The Last Thing I Want To Do Is Hurt You, But Still It's On The List.
If you're here to apologize, I dont want to hear it . you had your chance, too many in fact. unlike you I am not a good pretender. it's kind of fucked up isnt it? How all of the sudden someone wakes up and decides to never talk to you again, like you never meant shit to them and what hurts the most is how you made it look so easy. You're sorry? that's cool. go write a book about it and let someone who actually cares read it. I listened to all of your lies, bull shit and sweet talking. I trusted you and you let me down. I'm not an option, you either choose me or you fucking lose me. Are you seriously going to sit here and ask me if I'm ok? it's like now that I'm getting over you, you don't want me to. now I'm right back to where I started , you know exactly what to say and do to make me come back to you and I hate you every day for it yet I still cant stop loving you.

Virginia Divorce Laws........such Bullshit!
DIVORCE: Fault and No-Fault Divorce is the ending of a marriage ordered by a court. In Virginia. No-Fault grounds for divorce: No-Fault: (1) living separate and apart without cohabitation for 1 year; or (2) living separate and apart without cohabitation for 6 months if there are no minor children and the spouses have entered into a separation agreement. [Code of Virginia; Title 20, Section 20-91]. Back to Top Grounds: Fault Divorce There are three principal players involved in your marriage that will also be involved in your divorce: you, your spouse, and the Commonwealth. You cannot simply break up, saddle your charger, and ride off into the sunset. Among other legal considerations, you have to give the Commonwealth an acceptable reason why you should be allowed to break up. The reason is known as the ground for your divorce. Over the years each state has enacted legislation that governs acceptable grounds. Grounds for Divorce in Virginia are: (1) Adultery; or for sodomy

Surprise
As I was getting my stiuff ready for work the next day I felt fingers in my hair. I freeze thinking that the person was going to pull my hair but instead they started to scratch my head with there nails and then slowly pull my head back and kiss me hard. He then tugged me slowly back to the bed, as he did he tugged at my shirt and stopped kissing me to take my shirt off making him lose his grip on my hair. When my shirt came off I tugged his shirt off as well purring when I see his sexy chest. He turned me to get at my bra strap and when he unhucked it I let it slide down. When I turned around and looked at him he was staring at my chest. “I hate who made those damn things. It hides natures treshers from everyone. I just wish younever had to wear them or I could just kill the person who made them.” He then pulled me to the bed and laid me down on the bed andstarted to kiss down my neck to my chest to nipples finally. He slow

What's Wrong With Reading Fubar Profiles?
Hello! Let's set this straight: most fubarians are here to score. And you know what I mean, if you *REALLY* don't then you either are too young to be here or you probably just do not pertain here. Don't get me wrong: not all of us are here for that reason, but still, many are. Ok so now to the point: either you are thaat kind of person or you're not, you should be reading profiles. Reasons to do this if you are: Profiles can give you nice hook points Profiles can address your effort in ways that will get you a response back Profiles can help you see the "bigger picture" of the person These reasons alone should be compellng. Reasons to do this if you are not: Same reasons as above Profiles will also usually give you an idea of the person and how you will get along with him/her.This might look like a shallow point but is indeed crucial: if the person is,for instance, supportive of thearmy and you're not, well, there are good chances that your differences will cr

Blushes
Voglio che tu mi porti duro e veloce da riempire completamente con me il tuo cazzo, mi fa chiedere pietà, come ho urla di piacere al vostro possesso. i tuoi baci allover il mio corpo, la tua bocca sul mio petto. Sento la tua lingua, come si lavora il vostro senso giù il mio corpo. ponendo poco lecca, stuzzichini e baci tutto come ci si sposta verso la mia figa, voglio

Hmmmm
Mi siedo qui pensando di tuo tocco, e quanto voglio che tu alll baciare il mio corpo, a sentire i denti littlely raschiare contro la mia pelle come sgranocchiare il mio collo, per conoscere la sensazione di voi che consumano il mio corpo con la tua, di possedere me, proprio me con il vostro amore, di portarmi a nuove altezze con la vostra passione. hai rubato il cuore con un bacio,

Anger
ANGER!! I think that anger is not a real emotion, but rather a symptom of an underlying emotion. Those emotions are pain, fear, or frustration. In my experience, people often express pain, fear, or frustration, through a display of anger. Not a FEELING of anger, but a DISPLAY of anger. And I have noticed that I do not respond the same way to displays of anger, as I do to expressions of fear, frustration, or pain. That is to say that when people display anger toward me, or in my presence, I tend to put up walls, and distance myself, and protect myself. When people express fear, frustration or pain, however, I tend to empathize, and draw closer to that person, rather than defend or protect. I suppose it would be good for me to work on realizing that when people display anger they really have some other underlying emotion, and I can still empathize, even though they are expressing anger. But that won't come naturally to me. I will need to work on that, if I want to make it so.

Home Business
Hello , I was looking to find a way to make extra money from home and in my spare time . I looked at alot of MLM business opportunities . But most wanted a small fortune to signup and wanted monthly fees . And no gurantee of making any money . Till I found this new company called One24 which cost zero to sign up and no monthly fees . No contract ! No selling ! It is Great ! There is no other company that does this . Someone had e-mailed me with this website www.retireby2014.com and I went there and watched the four small videos that explains everything on and how to do the Business . It is so easy! Just buy this product once a month and tell others about the business and others do the same and you get paid . the company even gives you a website just like it. To promote your new business . within minutes it is up and running . And it's all free and no monthly hosting fees . It is so easy ! You even get a check each and every month . They also get bigger each month. And between 18 to

Lil Wayne – How To Love Lyrics
You had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart Never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out How to love How to love You had a lot of moments that didn’t last forever Now you in the corner tryna put it together How to love How to love For a second you were here Why you over there? Its hard not to stare, the way you moving your body Like you never had a love Never had a love When you was just a young’un your looks was so precious But now your grown up So fly its like a blessing but you can’t have a man look at you for 5 seconds Without you being insecure You never credit yourself so when you got older It’s seems like you came back 10 times over Now you’re sitting here in this damn corner Looking through all your thoughts and looking over your shoulder See you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart Never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out How to love How to love See you had a lot of moments that didn’t las

Bling & Me Auction
BLING~AUCTION ANY 1 CREDIT BLING STARTING BID 1 MILL ENDS WHEN IM HAPPY WITH THE BID ANY 3 CREDIT BLING STARTING BID 3 MILL ENDS WHEN IM HAPPY WITH THE BID ANY 5 CREDIT BLING STARTING BID 5 MILL ENDS WHEN IM HAPPY WITH THE BID

Want A Free Ipad 2 Or Other Products??
Everything is Free! Just takes a little of your time! Please read! Anything and everything you want, you can get for FREE! Just take a few minutes to read! A lot of websites these days offer you free gift for completing 4, 5 sometimes 6 and more offers, not to mention the fine print and all the commitments. How about just completing 1 with a website that you would sign up to anyway, with no fine print, and no commitments or contracts? These days every other person is signed up to Netflix, Gamefly, Creditreport and many, many more. Well if you have been thinking about doing something of that sort why not do it and at the same time get a absolutely FREE iPad 2, or an HDTV, or just cash wired to your bank or paypal account? Still sounds to good to be true? How about an NBC News Headline of this site? So here is a step by step of what you need to do: Sign up by going here http://gadgets.freebiejeebies.co.uk/368442. 2. You will create a user name and password as you would on any other

You
bara tänker på dig får mitt hjärta att sväva, på din beröring jag smälta, du stjäla mina andetag genom att älska mig, gör mig er helt, jag längtar efter dig när vi är ifrån varandra, men ingen annan någonsin kommer att hålla mitt hjärta. ditt namn på mina läppar tills jag tar mitt sista andetag, den enda man jag vars armar jag låg i, aldrig någon annan ska

My Vibrator
My vibrator, which brings me heaven, Rabbit be thy name. You make me cum, you bring such fun, on earth - or is it heaven? Give me this day my daily thrill, and forgive me my screams as I forgive those who sold me dud batteries. Lead me straight into temptation. Deliver me from frustration. For thine is the vibration, the power and rotation. For ever and ever. No Men!

Sickos/psychos Of Fubar
SirAlex- hello, i have to admit that you have a very submissive appearance to me. it seems as if you are waiting for someone who takes control. you have a sort of body language as if you are that sort of female i prefer to see with a collar around her neck instead of a necklace. and i am sure i am correct about your personality, in that case you see it as pleasure and privilege to show the needed respect by addressing me as sir when you thank me for this little gift..

Another Treagedy In Hutchinson
I read yesterday on Fcebook through another Chapter og G.O.C that there was another 2 yr old girl beaten and in the hospital in intensive care. I see where a 24 yr old male did this to the little girl and hope he is put away for a long time. I hope not another case of Caswy Anthony. No one should beat a defenseless child the way she was. She suffed a skull fracture and is paralazed on one side of her body. I really hope she recovers but what kind of life wil she have if not 100% recovered. It sickens me that I read about this all the time another reason I started a G.O.C Chapter to help prevent this from happening. But I guess its just really hopefull thinking that myself or any other G.O.C or B.A.C.A Chapter can and will make a difference. There is always going to be someone who will prey on young children to do them harm. It is sad that not enough people will get involved but if we did maybe we could make a difference.I have said many times if you do not get involved when you know it

Taking Another Step..
The heart inside begins to truly beat... slowly at first then a little faster... the scars seemed to have healed... I turn the bolt.. I put the key in the lock and turn it... the heart begins to be faster.. wanting to be let out.. fear and joy at struggle inside me... feelings.. true emotions flood me for the first time since the devastation... I stand before the door.. my hand on the handle of the newly unlocked door... both wanting to open it and wanting to relock it.. the heart beats strong and fast... begging to be let out... do I dare?

Poetry
whisper heart this bright field flushed red and flagship burned lightly dark I fight and fear no feeling. dance the meson matter penned Oval over hands and scatteredskywards, I retreat kneeling and hoping for feelinga mind burst apart into leaves, not flowers, swept in a bag along with my heart. It whispered to me in the dark: Find Me. Fire Me. Feel Me.Copyright 2009 Robert T. Hudson

Friends
man i just joined fubar and do not know what the heck i am doing lol well basicly what i am trying to get at is i would like to have some friends on here that way i am not talking to my self lol so if you would like to be my friend please fell free to hit me up lol

Just Some Wisdom
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We Learn
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Dear friends, To all who vote (and especially those who haven’t), it’s time to send a message to our Congress and White House. Senators, Congress men and women, Mr. President, you on longer have to concern yourselves with keeping your jobs. We all are NOT going to vote for ANY incumbent for any office on Washington DC until all of you are out of politics. The job you were hired to do is to work things out, lead with solutions, and actually solve this great country’s problems. You have failed (extended tax cuts = no jobs, huge spending = no growth in the economy, regulations = more bureaucracy, special interests = special treatment) Now it’s time for the adults to take control. I urge everyone to repost this, call or email their Senator and Congress person and the President with this message. Maybe without the pressure to get re-elected, they will actually get down to some pragmatic solutions and stop whining about each other.

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Obama & His Lies.
I found this on one of the many sites I've visited lately, about the social security bull crap that could be in our future according to our wonderful President. Obama is using scare tactics again. Here’s info from a newsletter today: The Treasury is expected to bring in $172 billion in tax receipts next month. We will not default on our debt because we will service our debt first and those payments amount to about $35 billion. This leaves $137 billion for Social Security, Medicare, Medicaid and Military checks. Social Security checks will cost $20 billion. Medicare and Medicaid come in under $68 billion; Military paychecks cost about $7 billion. All together that equals $95 billion. After these essential checks are sent out, the government will still have $42 billion to fund other programs (like the wars.) When Obama claims seniors might not get their social security checks, it is a threat. Treasury Secretary Tim Geithner has the authority and responsibility to prioritiz

Lame-o!
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Janey Godley’s Podcast Episode 54
(Please be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language) In episode 54 of Janey Godley’s podcast the jetlagged duo discuss Rupert Murdoch’s wife and the cream pie incident at the select committee, they give an opinion on the latest comedy TV shows. Ashley gives a rundown of the return journey from Vancouver and the horrific turbulence that scared them both. Janey and Ashley rant about aero dynamic cyclists and their need for suction tight Lycra. They both round the podcast off by chatting about Janey turning into an angry freak as she slowly shakes off the hippy vibe of Salt Spring Island. Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hear it on Janey Godley’s podcasts, expect some bawdy language and home truths, as Janey Godley and Ashley Storrie lead you down the roads less taken in their fantastic weekly podcast. Listen as mother and daughter banter, bait and burst with laughter. Please do listen and comment on the J

Day 2
Well it is my second day on here. I have met come cool people. I would like to broaden the amount of people i meet on here so i will be trying to find more new friends. Just so anyone that actually reads this knows i do like to get to know my new friends. I have a basic understanding of how the site works now. I am still learning a few things but for the most part i think i got it. If anyone feels like talking stop on by i have a webcam or i will chat normally i am not picky. talk to you all later.

Lemons
Well,I've been fighting to save my home for over a year now.Due to the lack of work here,looks like I've lost my fight.Guess I've been handed a basket full of lemons.I'm going to move soon and have no idea when I'll be back on-line.Got to do my best to make lemonade.I won't delete my profile because I have a great deal of hope that I'll be back soon.Lost my wife to cancer,now I'm losing my home.Things can only get better from here on out.I want to thank my friends here for helping me cope with my losses.It means more to me than you realize.I'll miss you all and hope to be back soon.Farewell for now. Been going to interviews every day now.My hand is cramping from filling out applications.Everyone wants to hire me,they're just waiting for work to start.Damn near all the companies I've interviewed with have about five jobs waiting to start.Problem is,the banks aren't releasing funds.Thanks Obama,you really screwed up with those new banking laws you got passed.I hope you're proud of putti

Fake. And A New Friend....
Well fuck me sideways. Look another fake. This was busted by the user blow by utilizing fakerbusted.com... Check his blog out: http://fubar.com/fake/b342448 You don't know how refreshing it is to see someone take this into their own hands when they got fed up with this bs. Go make a new friend...here's the dude that took action... DevilDog JYFN FNDR@ fubar Win. Peace.

Someone Out There
someone out there♥ was meant to be the love of your life the one you can tell your dre ams to and he'll smile at you when you tell him but h e'll never laugh he'll brush the hair out of your face, and he'll stare at you during a movie even though he paid $11 to see it. he'll call you to tell you how he couldn't stop thinking about you. and most importantly, he'll look right into your eyes and tell you that you are the most beautiful girl he's ever seen and for the first time in your life.. you'll believe it. that is what they mean by true love

No Felony Charges For Flier Accused Of Groping Phoenix Screener (repost)
A 61-year-old Colorado woman accused of grabbing a breast of an airport security screener in Phoenix will not face felony charges of sexual abuse, the Maricopa County Attorney said today. Yukari Miyamae, 61, of Longmont, Colo., was arrested Thursday and accused of grabbing the left breast of a Transportation Security Administration agent at Phoenix Sky Harbor International Airport. CAPTION Maricopa County Sheriff's Office via The Arizona Republic The case of Yukari Miyamae has been referred to the Phoenix City Prosecutor "for review and possible charging as a misdemeanor," according to a news release from the office of County Attorney Bill Montgomery. Miyamae was arrested Thursday after she allegedly grabbed the left breast of a Transportation Security Administration agent who said she refused to go through passenger screening at Sky Harbor Airport. Miyamae of Longmont, Colo., was released on her own recognizance. She told the judge she is a trans

Madness: 39 Things That Are Driving Ordinary Americans Absolutely Crazy July 21, 2011 (repost)
Print Version Source: Micheal Snyder - BLN Contributing Writer Have you noticed that almost everyone seems really angry these days? Frustration with the government and with most of the other major institutions in our society seems to grow by the day. According to a brand new ABC News/Washington Post poll, 80 percent of Americans say that they are either dissatisfied or angry with the government. Americans are deeply divided about what the solutions to our problems are, but what almost everyone can agree on is that our problems are getting worse. Watching all of the madness that is going on in Washington D.C. and in our state capitals is almost enough to drive anyone absolutely crazy. Our nation is drowning in an ocean of debt, jobs are being shipped overseas at an alarming rate, thousands of stores are closing, poverty is exploding, greed has become a national pastime and corruption is seemingly everywhere. The American people are incredibly frustrated because t

Lost People, Sleep, Happiness..
SOOOO, after a night of hard partying with the guys from Top Shot (ok, a marathon ONDEMAND party, and I was the only one partying, but..You get the idea) and thought I'd go to sleep. I layed down, started to doze off and heard the unmistakable sound of a car wreck. Not a fender-bender, but a full on nasty one. So, being Me, I grabbed My corpman's vest and headed out the door, as it sounded to be at the end of my street. I get down there and there are two cars, a SUV and a Toyota, MANGLED. Front clips on both cars destroyed, and I can see glass on the lawns/sidewalks and foilage on the side of the road, one hell of a impact. I hear crying in the SUV and find a gal in her 20's trapped by the dashboard, few lacerations/bumps but ok. We slide her out and I start working on the driver, a Male in his late 20's or so. He's full code, So She/I get Him out and I start CPR w/a one-way breather. Someone stops and starts working the other vehicle, a Male in his 50's, also full code w/a pierce to t

Over 2 Trillion Dollar Tax Increase??!?
I don't know how many of you are aware of this, but there is a current budget proposal that will raise all of our taxes over 2 Trillion Dollars!!... Check this out for more info... http://blogs.reuters.com/james-pethokoukis/2011/07/21/resisting-the-gang-of-six-budget-temptation/ Change you can believe in huh? Is it 2012 yet? And where is Rick Perry?. Peace.

Fucking Bastards..
Dansville, N.Y. — Contrary to a recent news media report, Stony Brook State Park is not one of the 55 state parks that is closing, Park Manager Tom Barrile told The Tribune Monday. “I have checked with my headquarters and Stony Brook State Park is going to remain open. The only thing that is going to be closed is the swimming area,” said Barrile. Barrile said the park’s pool area — a long time favorite for tourists and locals — usually opens the last week of June and closes on Labor Day. “As of right now, because the Legislature hasn’t passed a budget we have been told to close the swim area. That’s the orders we have been given from Gov. (David) Paterson and that’s the way it’s going to be until we are told different,” he said. The state announced in February that it would close operations at 55 parks and historic sites and reduce services at 24 more in order to offset a budget deficit that has grown to mor

Fududes: From A Girl's Point Of View..
Every now and then I find a good blog worth sharing. This might just be one of them... For the longest time now I hear horror stories of the insecurity of people on here. Male, female or something in between. Alot of it goes unspoken. I did research some of this myself actually, and it's true...but that's for a later blog... Here's the quote that stuck out to me... "Reason 3: You guys on fubar... wow. A majority of you have put me off men. Especially the "nice" guy type. I can't believe the kind of bullshit you will partake in just for some attention from a female. You'll let yourself be used, manipulated, treated like shit and then continue to pander and lick their feet. It's nauseating to watch. You'll do it for the hot ones, just as quick as for the ugly ones. Everyone shit talks the alpha male but you know what? At least he isn't some vagina's lap dog and has more respect and pride in himself to let some bitch dominate him, or use him for her own ends. I have no respect fo

Are You Kidding Me!
I normally dont blog about things like this but this really bothered me this morning. Ok so I left the person who hurt me very badly 4years ago. And the reason I left, the abuse and the cheating. How I found out he was cheating from my son who was 7 at the time. When we left everything was left behind so we started new. We moved 200 miles from that rotten little town. So the woman he was cheating on me with.. Low and behold I look in my "Who's checking me out" box.. and there she is. And on top of my screen I see a message "ha ha I have your house". This dirty little home wrecker. So I blocked her and then had to swamp my settings so I dont have her allow her friends to message me. I just dont get how some people can be gold diggers and ruin other's lives. I dont care about the house or the physical items. I have a better life. What I care about was how my 7 year old seen things. Including her fat hairy dairyer because she has that hairy disease. So that kinda torked my as

Update I Hope
I can't remember if I told you that David was having an endoscopy done on june 8. It came back normal, but the past week he has been sick and we have been in the ER 3 times. Tonight they did a cat scan on his stomach and found that he has swollen lymph nodes in his stomach. He goes back to his GI dr on august 8. Also next week july 27 he goes to his lung dr. I will update that one soon as i can. lots of love to you all, rebelrsoe32

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I leave the gas on Walk the allies in the dark Sleep with candles burning I leave the door unlocked I'm weaving a rope and Running all the red lights Did I get your attention Cause I'm sending all the signs and The clock is ticking And I'll be giving my 2 weeks Pick your favorite shade of black You'd best prepare a speech Say something funny

Instinct Vs. Heartache...
We all can love and care about another as much as our heart* will allow; but when the people we love or care about does not feel the same... it leaves us all alone with the feelings we have for those people. At a dead end, with no answer or directions on which way to turn. It's always been an ugly truth that our heart's* wanted to hide from. Our heart* already knows the pain that it's about to endure... everyone was born with that. Our heart's* know instinctively to sense the emotional feelings from the other person or persons involved... whether we know it yet or not... rejection is soon to come... Most people blow off the feeling of their heart* being swallowed by their stomach when something is gonna hurt their emotional state & somehow that percentage of people make it transparent to their every sense for the rest of their lives; Just so they can have control over the way they feel... still ignoring t

Ohhh Hahaha..i Might Miss This..
romanticguy22: ey whats up how are you doing would you like to have a clean non-perverted decent normal conversation with me and not having to worry about getting perved on? by the way your gorgeous if you do hit me up with a reply hereey whats up how are you doing would you like to have a clean non-perverted decent normal conversation with me and not having to worry about getting perved on? by the way your gorgeous if you do hit me up with a reply here 11:15pm romanticguy22: ey whats up how are you doing would you like to have a clean non-perverted decent normal conversation with me and not having to worry about getting perved on? by the way your gorgeous if you do hit me up with a reply here 11:15pm romanticguy22: ey whats up how are you doing would you like to have a clean non-perverted decent normal conversation with me and not having to worry about getting perved on? by the way your gorgeous if you do hit me up with a reply here 11:17pm Sug

Health Issue
I’ve been having a slight health issue for the past few months I’ve had an unusually high heart rate and was finally able to get in to see my doctor. Since without test there is no way to know what is causing it so a lot of blood was drawn to test my thyroid, to test if I have anemia, and just a regular blood work up. I will find out by Friday how those went. But there is another test I have to have done because my doctor saw a good amount of signs that I may have a pheochromocytoma, which just means a tumor on one of the adrenal glands that sit right about my kidneys. It’s pretty rare so it’s unlikely that, that is whats wrong with me but still it’s hard not to worry. Anyway the easiest way to test to see if I have a pheochromocytoma is for me to pee in a plastic medical jug for 24 hours starting tomorrow. Friday I have to bring it back to the lab and wait a week or so to see my results. Oh an the worse part is when the pee jug isn&rs

Backlog
Well, I am finally home... and as such I figure the best way to disseminate the 411 on the situation is a blog, mainly bCoz I won't be here much for the next few days and with the some 800 messages I have waiting here, all this love waiting from the best friends and family on the site I wanted everyone to get their answers as quickly and easily as possible.... so here goes... The surgery was at around noon on 7/14... I say around noon bCoz I was passed out at the time.... due to my severe apnea, they had to insert the breathing tube while I was awake, a most unpleasant experience to say the least, but fortunately the last I remember before being knocked out... when they got in there they found more damage than had been revealed on the MRI and I wound up having 3 laminectomies and 1 disc replacement... Then, the nightmare begins... I awoke in recovery around 4:30 pm, this time around 4:30 bCoz at that point I was TOTALLY fupped duck... but not so drugged as to not feel the pain... I w

Missing Someone
When you miss someone, you're in pain. That person is all you can think about. And not knowing if they're thinking about you, kills you even more. It gets you thinking if they really care about you just as much as you care about them. Because if they did, they'd still speak to you. Then there' would be nothing to miss at all. Right..? ♥

Written For My Mother, By Another Army Wife ;)
SUPPORT OUR TROOPS!!! From my Mom's Friend ;) The night they got Bin Laden (sounds like a country song) I, together with many of my milspouse Facebook Friends, was sitting in front of my netbook trying to keep up with the news; the TV was on, and there were pictures of the crowds in front of the White House. One young milspouse, who has come to our area to support a mutual friend whose husband is at Walter Reed after losing part of his leg in Afghanistan, was messaging – "pick me up, let's go to the White House"… After a few of us told her how difficult it would be, how insane things like traffic and parking would be, I watched the coverage of Lafayette Park again. The screams of WE did it, the USA USA chants – the ones who were yelling the loudest were in Georgetown sweatshirts, their hair wasn't a 3 on the top/2 on the side, they were too young to be veterans. Then the pictures changed to Ground Zero – same thing. Signs – WE did it. WE got him… W

As I Lay Dying
As I walk thru the rain Everyone stares And its all in vain Cuz the rain Doesn't wash away my pain My heart hurts My body aches Never understanding What is my fate But the rain Never washes away my pain Tears roll down my face My heart loses it's pace But still I find no relief From all this god damn pain In the end I see her Waiting for me At the edge As she smiles I feel relief From all my pain And she whispers Let's get out Of this god damn rain RR

In Dreams
I'm scared.....Afraid I can no longer contain my imagination My dreams and My nightmares from spilling into the world Everything seems shaded There's areas without color and places where people fall but never land I can't bare it no longer There's no escape from this prison I've created This vision This landscape In my world rainbows are creatures that feed off of hues till there is nothing left just empty darkness thats full of dread Flowers entice you with their smell only to envelope you and drag you deeper into my hell RR...

The Human God
As we drip into oblivion We eat our resources And spit out venom We create To obliterate We infest With disease We destroy To appease A Human God That wants us on our knees That wants to control our needs Be it as it may I will destroy the machine I will kill the oppresser The Human God will fall And we will regin supreme

Choosing The Perfect Wedding Dresses To Suit Bridal Gown
Your wedding ceremony underwear could be dictated through the design of your wedding dresses, but you nonetheless must be relaxing - and you also wish to appear beneficial too! You want your wedding ceremony morning for being actually memorable. So make certain you really feel like a queen from your within out. Don't skimp in your wedding ceremony lingerie. deciding on the appropriate wedding ceremony underwear is as very important since the assortment of your Wedding Dresses, not merely will it boost your wedding ceremony gown it could be judged by later on by probably the most very important guy in you life: your new husband. With some types which include Ballgown or perhaps a collection you could possibly get aside with extra ruffles and ribbons as they won't influence the silhouette of your wedding ceremony dress; but should you pick a slim fitting wedding ceremony gown be added cautious with garters and lacy underwear as this sort of underwear exhibits line

Many Factors To Think About Carefully For Your Budget For Preparing A Wedding
The word budget does not constantly carry happy associations. as well frequently when many of us desire to do anything actually adventurous, or purchase anything exquisitely exotic, there's the budget to confront us with "No!" however it is the simple fact that exact budget that becomes us via school, a summer holiday (like the one when Caroline met Mark), a fur coat, and pays the butcher, Cheap Special Occasion Dresses,baker and plastic maker. It is really necessary to perform out wedding budgets (since Mark along with Caroline has one), which consist of all costs from your time in the engagement towards the finish in the honeymoon. even though Caroline's investing is distribute more than the whole time period via the wedding reception, Mark will discover that all of his big expenditures, except the buy in the engagement ring (and the wedding ring if it is purchased at exactly the same time), arrive at once. whether he is obtaining married on the shoe string possibly prior to he is fi

Being New
Well this is my first time on fubar. I am new to this place and dont know how to fully run things yet but i am a fast learner. If you have any suggestions let me know. I know i am not a perfect person so dont tell me that lol. There are lots of fake people out there but i promise you i am a real person and have real feelings but i can be a real jerk if you make me mad. Well talk to you all later enjoy fubar.

Me
-----------♥----------- I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything. I'm stupid because sometimes I'm wrong. I'm ugly because my face isn't perfect. I'm pushover because I like too make people happy. I'm wierd because I'm not friends with your group. I'm fake because I'm to nice. I'm fat because I eat when I'm hungry. I'm clingy because I don't like to be alone. I'm sorry for being myself. Actually I'm not sorry.. at all. ---

He's Not Perfect.
He’s not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give. Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guy who is perfect for you. &n

Liars & Fakes!
http://fubar.com/3085958 Be VERY CAUTIOUS of this FU~TARD! He WILL MAKE UP LIES AND "FANTASIES" about YOU & YOUR FRIENDS! HE"S A FAKE & A LIAR! *Part of the sb that could be saved! :40pm reply dhcc98: let me pull those big breasts out of that low cut top 3:40pm more To dhcc98: sorry i was so drunk the other night< can you refresh my memory on what we did together 3:40pm reply dhcc98: while D watches 3:40pm reply dhcc98: sure. 3:41pm more To dhcc98: n she is out of the room watching my baby 3:41pm reply dhcc98: we "tried" to drive back to my hotel at doulbetree on tam trail, but u were so horny we stopped in kmart lot on tam trail and got in back seat 3:41pm reply dhcc98: good, glad she is out of room 3:42pm reply dhcc98: omg 3:43pm more To dhcc98: omg what

Lost Love
there was this absolutly beautiful girl i have been best friends with since the day i met her.a few years ago we dated for a week and i made the wrong choice and left her.the past year we have been talking all the time pretty much everyday .i had plans to move to where she was and it was a great feeling .as of late i been screwing up and lost her as a future girlfriend but i still have her as my best friend.im sooo mentally screwed up right now because i love her with all i have to offer but like i said eariler i lost her that way

Inspiration
I hardly know you and already you have me entranced. You make me question if I am even worthy of your time. The thought of holding you leaves me breathless. I want to discover the feeling of our fingers intertwined as we walk hand-in-hand alongside the beach. Sharing every moment together. I just want to live in the state of grace you shine out to the world like a beacon. The life I have lived and the decisions I have made, have all made me feel like I was on a downward spiral. But from just one look at your smile, and I feel like I am being given a second chance. I want to rediscover romance with you. Travel down roads that don't have names, and get lost only to enjoy the ride. All I ask is that you are true to yourself in where you want this to go. If you give me the chance, I will do everything I can to make that smile of yours shine out even on your darkest of days.

My Type Of Guy ( Tagged From A Friend )
Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Once tagged, Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers, if you a guy- post this as my kind of girl.. if your a girl- post it as my kind of guy.. 1. Do you need him/her to be good looking? not really, im more of a personality person. But i love a cute guy haha 2. Smart? of course 3. Preferred age? age is just a number 4. Preferred height? Tall. c: 5. How about sense of humor? YES 6. How about piercings? yummy. 7. Accepts you for who you are? Lmao, duhh. 8. Pink hair? sure why nott. 9. Mushy or no? Oh yes. >;D 10. Thin or fat? dont care 11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)? Doesn't matter. xD 12. Long hair or short hair? Whichever looks best on em. ;p 13. Plastic or metal? plastic. 14. Smells good? Mmmm yes c; 15. Smoker? Doesn't matter. 16. Drinker? not really... 17. Girl/Boy-next-door ty

Original Poetry I
Your Eyes They say the eyes are the windows to the soul The truth can always be seen I’ve been told. But no one has eyes so expressive and bold As he whom the strings of my heart does hold. Your eyes are so beautiful; your eyes are so filled With all the emotions and love that you give Your eyes tell your story, they tell it quite well Of a boy who is so perceptive, unassuming, and stealth. They tell of the hurt, they show us the pain That life has bestowed upon you, such a shame For your life should be perfect and right Not filled with the anguish you valiantly fight. Your eyes tell of loneliness Your eyes tell of grief Your eyes so expressive Of the pain that runs deep. My hope is that one day your eyes will be full Of excitement and wonder only true love can fuel. For I wish you passion and happiness despite All the things in your world not flawlessly right. For if anyone deserves happiness Darling it’s you The w

Original Poetry Ii
How Do You Know How do you know when you are in love Is it the way you feel when he kisses you His lips soft; the kiss urgent yet gentle like a dove Or the way each day with him is new And stolen moments with him seem too few Is it the comfort he conveys in his words Making you feel shielded and loved The way they wrap around and protect you like swords Keeping you warm and fitting like a glove You can feel the promise of love Is it the look in your eyes as you adoringly stare The gentle way you stroke his cheek The way you brush from his eyes stray hair Or the way with a glance he makes your legs grow weak And your voice grow shaky when you try to speak Is it the way your mind is always on him How to thoughts him subconsciously you always seem to roam How he’s never out of your thoughts, making your head swim The way you daydream of maybe sharing a home Or writing your feelings in a poem When My Life Comes to Its End I’ve loved y

Updates And Other Fun Facts
Well, I finally did leave that small town and all my skeletons and ghosts that haunted me no longer do. I got the fresh start that I wanted a needed. And I finally did find that person, the one that I so desperately searched for, but he came along, when I wasn't searching. He came along on an idle Tuesday in the middle of Janurary. No, it wasn't love at first sight, and yes we have our problems, but I love him. He makes me feel like a better person, he makes me happy and for the first time in my life, I dont give a shit what the rest of the world thinks about him or me for that matter. They can all kiss my big white ass for all I care. I'm trying out this new approach on life called "Fukitol". If you don't like me, Fukit. If you don't like my fiance, Fukit. If you don't like the way I do things, the choices I make, the way I live my life, or any variation of the proceeding, Fukit. Fukitol. This is my life, if you have any questions, comments, or concerns, you can kin

Cure
malfunctional encephalon useless grey sludge damaged receptors cranium crud neurotransmitters misfire at will muddled, befuddled riddled to hell dopamine slow travelling sick synaptic transmission brief moments euphoric sharp sudden remission serotonin standby norepinephrine away inane glial matter take it away lobotomize me

Important Tips For Bands To Promote Their Profile On Fubar! If You Want To Win, I Would Read This Closely!
Important Tips for Bands to Promote their Profile on fubar!***Note if the links take you back to your home page, please copy and paste them into your browser.**** 1. The first step is to set up your profile. Don’t do a half ass job. This site operates on real people who love to view and rate photos. Also, make sure to fill out information on your band. If you do not spend a little time pimping out your profile and customizing it, you will get less attention. -Add photos! The more the better http://www.fubar.com/photoupload.php?albumid=0 -Add a skin that makes your profile look cool. http://www.fubar.com/myskins.php -Add your Bands information. fubar operates on real people. The less info you have, the less attention you get. http://www.fubar.com/settings.php -Update your privacy settings http://www.fubar.com/settings.php?tab=privacy I suggest linking to your facebook and twitter so it auto shares. - Fill out your about me, interests, etc http://www.fubar.com/setti

Nearly 10 Years Ago Today, The U.s. Began Borrowing Billions To Pay For The Bush Tax Cuts (repost)
By Zaid Jilani on Jul 20, 2011 at 10:10 am As debates about deficit reduction continued to be heavily tilted toward cutting spending, which threatens to undermine a fragile recovery, rather than raising revenue from those who can afford it, it’s important to remember the budgetary impact of the Bush tax cuts. Nearly 10 years ago today, on August 1, 2001, the Associated Press reported that the Treasury Department was tapping $51 billion of credit in order to pay for the budgetary cost of the first round of Bush tax cuts’ rebate checks. The AP reported at the time that Democratic Party opponents of the tax cuts worried that they’d return government budgets to “red ink“: The opponents of the tax cut turned out to be right. The 2001 and 2003 tax cuts combined have blown a $2.5 trillion hole in America’s budget and created deficits stretching on for years.

Crazy Conservative Contradictions July 20, 2011 (repost)
Tax Cuts Increase Revenue. There’s a reason liberals look at conservatives like they might be insane. Often, a conservative will say one thing and then, almost immediately, contradict it. Pointing out the contradiction often angers the conservative who then accuses you of either being “stupid” or “twisting their words.” But, because it’s funny to look at crazy people, let’s take a look at conservative contradictions: 1. There is no need to regulate corporations! The free market dictates that all corporations will act in the best interest of the consumer or be put out of business by the “Invisible Hand.” The Contradiction: Corporations only exist to make money. You cannot expect them to do anything that will interfere with the bottom line. They cannot concern themselves with environmental issues or customer safety if it is more profitable to ignore them. You, as the consumer, need to be more careful! —

My Amazon Wishlists!
I decided that I would create an Amazon account and create myself a few wishlists...lol...well, more than a few...but thats only because I tried to organize them...lol...I know alot of models who have done this as a way for their photographers to get things that the models will enjoy shooting in and so forth...so maybe it will pay off that way for me woo..but either way here it is...:) ***Now most of these lists have things that I would like to have to modeling. http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/2NAME5QEAGS57/ref=cm_sw_em_r_ws_xvEjob11HZ08N_wb "Clothes" Amazon Wishlist http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/1EK23WV47UU3/ref=cm_sw_em_r_ws_0AEjob0PMTWD9_wb "Lingerie" Amazon Wishlist http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/LM28PUEIGZGN/ref=cm_sw_em_r_ws_DAEjob0D3CZA8_wb "Lets Play Dress Up" Amazon Wishlist http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/2GO8QYIYLJU4Y/ref=cm_sw_em_r_ws_kCEjob055RHY2_wb "Shoes & More" Amazon Wishlist http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/1XL7KGSNSJAX3/ref=

You Did What?
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