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Break Up With Amanda
I waited forever for someone like you, What is it that you do? One wave, I cave. But not this time It’s me you’ll never find. I gave u my heart I gave u my all From the day we met And through every fall Why are u doing this I don’t understand All I ever wanted was forever to be ur only man My heart is breaking seeing u with another guy Naked and together, Why do u still lie? I was born to cry, hide, and lose, But I was raised to think, love and choose. You loved the drug, never me, I trusted you, so just leave! Everyone warned me, But I couldn’t see. Your hands covered my eyes, And now im crying my eyes out. And now they’re dry from all the cries. So I’ll move on and just let go, No more wondering, now I know. You need help there is no friend No Vicky exists and no stories to pretend Why couldn’t I make u see We could have been forever Why couldn’t you have loved and kept us together So many chances to tell the truth But u continued to lie

B.b. King - All Over Again
I've got a good mind to give up living, and go shopping instead I say, I've got a good mind to give up living, and go shopping instead To pick up me a tombstone, and be pronounced dead When I read your letter this morning, that was in your place in bed I read your letter this morning, that was in your place in bed That's when I decided, that I would be better off dead It read, there is no use you looking, or ever hoping to get me back Oh, there's no use you looking, or ever hoping to get me back Yes, because it's all over now, and you can bet on that

This Is Awesome!
Week of April 28, 2008 Oregon's State Legislature passed a law that provides a full-tuition waiver for a bachelor's or master's degree at an Oregon University System institution for children or spouses of servicemembers who died on active duty, became 100 percent disabled in connection with military service, or died as a result of a disability sustained on active duty after Sept. 11, 2001. Information on the tuition waiver as well as the application form can be found Oregon University System website under "Featured Documents and Links."

James A. Baldwin
Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. Most of us are about as eager to be changed as we were to be born, and go through our changes in a similar state of shock.

I Found A New Road To Happiness
Ok so I have been in a world of caos for the last few months trying to figure out what it is in life I really want and why it seems that no matter how hard I try..I always seem to end up in this emotional darkness where nothing seems to go right and I become unappreciative. It's a sick little cycle that I've gone through my whole 20's and it's gotten me no where. Just when I feel things are normal and I have made all the right choices...something comes along and fucks it all up. It's pissing me off quite frankly. Really killing my natural southern charm. haha So last night..this vision (not sure what else to call it) comes to me and I get excited about the future..I figured out that the things I've been trying to avoid are the things that will help my soul. I know Im rambling so let me elaberate...I hate my job, I hate what I do and honestly no amount of money will make it better. Im almost 30 and for 10 years I have put off my true passion for what I thought would satisfy me. Don't ge

Effing Tourists!!!!
SOOOOOOO...... I work at the Arizona Memorial in Pearl Harbor, Hawaii. HUGE tourist destination. I get it, huge history site, awesome place to go get some history in your life while you are on vacation. It's an incredible place to go, IF YOU ARE GOING TO RESPECT WHAT IT IS!!!!! I swear to GOD, and everything else i consider holy, that some people are just FUCKING IGNORANT. If you are going to visit a cemetary, do you seriously trample over people's headstones--no, do you make out with people on a grave--No. Do you disrespect the dead in anyway--no... the answer to these questions should all be no... well the Arizona Memorial is not a monument, or some cool attraction to go see... its a fucking cemetary for over 950 of the 1170 marines and sailors who died on board the USS Arizona. THEY ARE STILL THERE, IN THE SHIP!!! Its there to represent not only them, but the rest of the 2390 total who perished that day. I just am appaled at how some people act when they are there... im r

Heartbroken
So I started talking to an ex again. We were getting along great and everything was going fine. Last night we spent the night together. I won't go into details, but it was very nice. Then today we were talking about hanging out again tonight. Well out of nowhere he said he wouldn't be able to hang out again, as in ever. He later told me that he got some life changing news today that he says keeps us from seeing each other. He refuses to tell me what it is. All he told me was that is wasn't disease related or life threatening. The only thing that comes to mind is that he has knocked someone up. I know it's been a long time since he's had sex, so I don't know if that's it, but maybe it is. I'm just so confused. I was letting myself fall for him all over again then I get slapped in the face like this. I really wish I knew what was wrong with me. I'm 22 years old and I've never had a real boyfriend. I guess I should say I've never been in a relationship. I don't know what I'm doing wron

I'm Thinking Of You!
as long as my dreams are always you as long as a couple means two as long as forever contains me and you Im thinking of you.... as long as the moon shines in your eyes as long as faith will never die as long as theres love between you and i im thinking of you as long as our eyes meet in burning flame as long as trust mens "no ones to blame" as long as the hurt ends in no shame im thinking of you.... as long as we survive as a pair as lonf as i know that you'll always care as long as love remains true and fair im thinking of you.... as long as the clam follows the storm as long as the need becomes the well-worn as long as im safe and left untorn im thinking of you.... as long as your love keeps me from harm as long as we're together i'll always be warm as long as o stay wrapped in your arms im thinking of you....

A Thing Of Beauty Auction Open
Hello everyone come check out my auction and feel free to bid !! You can find it here! Also if you can just one rate on this picture would be great even if your not bidding! Hopigalerin

Why Me....
Why do I like things from both ends of the scale. I want to be this totally sexual being and I want to be denied.I want to have friends and be social and I want be cut off. I want to be treated like a princess and I want to be treated like nothing.I want to dress sexy and I want to be veiled and covered. I want humiliation and I want tenderness and understanding. I want to receive soft kisses and a romantic night and I want to be raped, beaten and used. I want to be pampered,and loved, and I want to be tormented and tortured.....

Kushism Of The Day..funny&?
1.if you have shity out look on life stop puting youre face in asz. 2.sometimes too much of a good thing leave bad taste in mouth. 3.what you cant do today dont do it later it might already be done. 4.cats chase dog ,dog chase dog, who chase the donkey? 5.sticks and stone might break youre bones but a gun makes it a safer place. 6.a bird in a hand is a lonely bush. 7.eat enuff to you full dont keep eating until you get sick. 8.love never a lie it what people do for love they mybe lying to themself. (some funny and some are just for you to think) i made these up

With Out You
My red heart is blue, because I'm missing you. Every day, I think about you, and I imagine how great every hour, every minute, and every second would be if you were here with me. Every night, when I lie in bed, I dream that you're beside me, holding me close to you. If you were, I'd whisper in your ear, how much I love you. Since you came into my life nothing has been the same. I've experienced love to its fullest, and I've tasted a beauty that never ends, because you're where my happiness begins. I'm incomplete without you, and I'll never stop loving you. You're the world to me, in brilliant colors. You're my best friend, a favorite song that will never end. And together is where we should be. Someday soon, I pray, that you'll walk through the door and take this heartache away.

Love And Adore
I heard the music when true love called, a song sent from heaven on silver wings. The whole world was dreaming, wisps of light streaming, as the stars spilled their magic upon you and me. The tune was more lovely than the nightingale's song, more delicate than a rose weeping, yet as powerful as the sun leaping to shed golden ribbons in herald of dawn. And I bow down before you, the one my eyes have longed to behold, my lonely heart pining, love Light shining, I swear that I shall love and adore you.

A Child
A Child The smile, laughter and innocence in the eyes of a child is truly the most precious gift on earth. When looking at a child in slumber can you truly say that you have never seen serenity and peace. A child brings into the world hope. It makes the world a better place howbeit it for a short time. Their innocence and undying love for people is Godlike. So anytime you think God has died or no longer exists look into the eyes of a child and then tell me there is no God. Joanne Anderson © April 18, 2008

Another New Member
misfits we have another newmember so please go by her page and welcome her to our family add,fan and rate her so jamie welcome to our group hope you enjoy being a part of ourleveling crew.... -Jamiie - Fu-Daughter to Rhonda && Jimm¢¾@ fubar have a good weekend whats left of it anyway thank you all....

May Club Far Pimpout!
Ok Here we go again. Its that time to show our Club F.A.R. Family members the love and help them level. So all you Club F.A.R. members go out there and show your fellow members lots of love. Let's go help these members level, anyway possible. Go rate their pics, stash. Leave em comments, buy em drinks or gifts, anything that will give these member points and help them level. With over 300 members, we should be able to help level plenty if not all these members, before our next PIMPOUT. Thank You Very Much. This is a Revolving Bulletin, so links may be added, sum taken off and points to go changed Here Are Their Links neca717 Greeter of FU-Luv bomb squad member of club F.A.R.promoter for purrfect sin Rising STAR memb@ fubar 8,055 TO GO Jeanne~Club F.A.R~@ fubar 8,602 TO GO blackbeard fu husband to ~evil grin~~~~ Club F.A.R.@ fubar 9,642 TO GO Dj Littleone ~www.hipporadio.co.uk~ WISE UK~UK Levellers~Club F.A.R~Club AbFAB~The Sisters 4 Life~

I'm Up For Auction!
I am up for Auction.Wanna Find out how sweet I am? Then come bid on me! This is what I am offering: 1. Owned by my name for a month. 2. Add to family permanent 3. Add to top friends 4. 200 10's a week during HH... 11's if VIP is offered. 5. Rate stash during the month. 6. Random Profile Comments. 7. Link to your profile on mine. 8. Random drinks and gifts. 9. Random Bulletins and a blog posted about you. 10. 2 Name tags of your choice( more may be added depending on bid). _Sweet_Thing_

History-my Work
When I graduated from HS, to enrolled in the military. There I was trained in information gathering and some hacking. Became a Seal, got to play with cool toys and had fairly descent security clearence. Was a wonderful couple of year, until an accident which left me damaged. I did work hard and regain functionality in my right arm, now ya can't even tell. From there I took a job in the medical field, working for the State of Ohio and the Veteran's Administration (as well as a few others). Mostly dealing with fraud. Basically stalking people with medical conditions and compiling evidence against them, of course even this gave me more training with hacking. Got a great working knowledge of all the state's systems which has made alot of things easier on me. Yes I have some access to many of these systems still today. From here I landed a career as Criminal Investigator. A few more tools, a little more access to different systems. Mostly I do leg work and track people via in

A Question To Ponder
A Question to Ponder A friend asked me today, “What would you change about your life if you could go back in time and change things?” I sat there and started thinking over my life and as I thought about it, a thousand different things came to my mind. I thought of my childhood how my family treated me like I didn’t belong and how they would avoid me all the time. I thought about my teen years and how horrible they were due to being raped nearly every other day by my oldest brother. I thought about the death of my dad and how his death practically destroyed the family. I thought of my abusive marriage and the way it ended. I thought of the things I went through after the divorce and how I was the one that cared for my mother. I thought about my mother’s death and how devastating that was to the family. As I sat there thinking of all the bad things that had happened in my life, I started thinking, if my family hadn’t have treated me so badly when I was a child, I probably wo

Portugal Still Investigating Little Girl’s Disappearance.
By BARRY HATTON, Associated Press Writer Sat May 3, 8:04 AM ET PRAIA DA LUZ, Portugal - A year after Madeleine McCann vanished from a resort in southern Portugal, police are still gathering evidence into the British girl's disappearance, a top detective said Saturday. Madeleine disappeared during a family vacation in Praia da Luz on May 3 last year, a few days before her fourth birthday. Police have named her parents, Kate and Gerry McCann, and a local man, Robert Murat, as formal suspects in the case. All deny involvement in her disappearance, and police have not decided whether to file charges — or drop the case. "At this stage, nothing has been determined regarding possible charges or closing the case," Alipio Ribeiro, head of the Policia Judiciaria investigative department, told the Portuguese national news agency Lusa. Police are still gathering and analyzing evidence, he said. Church services were being held in Praia da Luz, in Portugal's Algarve region, and at

Another Angel
This was written when I heard a friend here on fubar lost her baby to murder. What is Winter? Winter is a bad word to many but to some it is the beauty of God’s tender love personified Winter is not just cruel and desolate but a thing of beauty It is a world of fantasy and delight to the young child and to some It is a world of play but to me it is when God has tucked in the world with a sparkling blanket of white While the world slumbers a magical thing is going on God in his infinite wisdom creates new life while the world sleeps While the earth dreams of sleds and skis the seeds of life are planted To erupt into life on the first day of spring with a beauty only God can create Yes winter may seem cold and cruel but to me it is God’s way of showing there is purity of love and the renewal of the old and withered with a new beauty each and every spring Joanne Anderson © February 23, 2008

Yea Im Doing It In Here!
IM GONNA DO IT!! THIS IS GONNA BE A SFW NIGHTIE CONTEST. IF YOU WANT TO JOIN IT SEND ME THE PIC YOU WANT TO USE. THE RULES ARE THIS.... 1) NO DRAMA 2) NO GREEN NAMES CAN BOMB 3) MUST BE LEVEL 5 OR HIGHER TO BOMB.. NOT WORRIED ABOUT NO SALUTE.. PRIZES ARE.............. 1ST PLACE WILL GET A BLING PAC EACH AND EVERY MONTH FOR 6 MONTHS. 2ND WILL GET A 1 MONTH VIP.. 3RD WILL GET A 3 DAY BLAST.. TO JOIN THIS AWSOME CONTEST SEND PIC TO ME... MY LINK BELOW.. START TIME IS FRIDAY THE 9TH AT 10:00 PM CST.. THE END DATE IS SUNDAY THE 11TH AT 10:00 PM CST... THE ORIG.PONYBOY~FNDR OF IND. FMLY~I LOVE YOU LAURA LEI~ YOU R MY LIFE~YOU MAKE ME WHO I AM~~~~@ fubar

What Is Winter?
What is Winter? Winter is a bad word to many but to some it is the beauty of God’s tender love personified Winter is not just cruel and desolate but a thing of beauty It is a world of fantasy and delight to the young child and to some It is a world of play but to me it is when God has tucked in the world with a sparkling blanket of white While the world slumbers a magical thing is going on God in his infinite wisdom creates new life while the world sleeps While the earth dreams of sleds and skis the seeds of life are planted To erupt into life on the first day of spring with a beauty only God can create Yes winter may seem cold and cruel but to me it is God’s way of showing there is purity of love and the renewal of the old and withered with a new beauty each and every spring Joanne Anderson © February 23, 2008

More Fakes, Excitement And Such....
...this is silly, stupid and funny. But it goes to show I guess. Check out what happens when a fake gets exposed and doesn't know what to do because it gets locked down for trying too many times to get fake salutes verified I guess... Got its' account locked down by admin and its' fake salute attempts deleted. So what does the stupid fake do when this happens, it makes a new account!! ♪♥ kãt¥¤luv ♪ ♥ Member:Fubar's Ultimate Bad Girls Club.XoXo♥♪@ fubar ..funny thing is is that this lame fake even links itself to its' old account in its' name.. ..so even though these claims by the owner of this retardation, as show below that they are all "100% REAL".... ...the truth goes more like this.... ..anyways, this fake takes their pictures from this porn site, linked below.... click to check out the real girl... ...why are people so dumb? Oh and on a side note about "cheaters and scripters,"...seen this on yo

Ms
I am going on the MS Walk tomorrow and, as any of my friends know, I don't usually ask for much of anything. I have had uncles die from MS and would like nothing better in this world than to get rid of this disease!!! Please, if you can, find it in your heart, donate, even if it is only $5. Jen http://main.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR/Walk/MNMWalkEvents?pg=personal&fr_id=8576&fr_id=8576&px=4747961

Redneck Word Of The Day And Pick Up Line
GOTTA LOVE THEM REDNECKS......... Redneck word of the day "sodas" My girlfriend gives good head but sodas her sister New redneck pickup line: "Baby do u own a chicken farm? Cause u sure know how to raise some cock."

Growth Amid Chaos
siting calming and quietly in morthes earths embrace, the wind calm and warm upon my skin, birds singing so sweetly, telling of their joy and acceptance of what has been learned today... sometimes it takes a touch of CHAOS to bring about clarity and understanding... my willingness to let go in more ways than one... to walk away from a destructive soul who was not willing to truly let me in and listen to the words i said to him to blindly accept the comfort of another whos path has seen fit to cross my own... my willingness to let go of what held me back for another chance to grow... to be blessed with a sight that understands unconditionally.. the pettiness of some who let jelousy rule their heart is not what i need and i see how their jelousy only enables me... to let my heart see and feel from within...shows me a world that has no end.. the life in mother earth stronger after a rain... feeds my own simple exsistance in my physical plite... to l

Found The One, No Need To Fubar
I will keep this account only for friends, I am not looking for action or being silly... it was all for play ~ I dont want to be bothered by the sex crazed maniacs!!! I just want to be with my Michael

Mybad!
2 MY FAM, FRNDZ, & FANZ....AZ U ALL KNOW I SAY GOOD MORNIN & GOOD NIGHT 2 U AZ MUCH AZ I CAN CUZ I HAVE LOVE 4 U ALL, BUT I HAVENT DONE IT N A FEW DAYZ & I WANTED TA TELL U ALL MYBAD, ITZ JUST BEEN A HARD FEW DAYZ 4 ME, I HAVE BEEN THINKIN ABOUT MY LIL GIRL ALOT MORE NOW THEN EVA & THOSE THAT REALLY KNOW ME ON HERE KNOW THA GET DOWN ON THAT! I WILL B BACK TA NORMAL N A FEW SO DNT THINK I DNT LOVE YA'LL OR HAVE 4GOTIN ABOUT YA'LL CUZ THATZ NOT THA CASE...SO I WOULD LIKE TA TELL U ALL MYBAD & WILL TALK TA U SOON :D

You Know You Want Too! Contact Dawn If U Wanna Join :) Ty
If you straddle the fence Bordering on Insanity We are just the Family for You We are Fubar's Newest Levelers The Mad Hatters ♥ DAWN ♥ Just a Lil MAD!! Co-Founder and Maddest of them all If you would like to join us Please visit our Family Page View the Mad Hatters Blog Add,Fan and Rate all members The send a mail requesting admittance The Mad Hatters - Family Profile@ fubar

This Must Be Love
Many,many years ago on a bus in Minnesota a pretty woman was on her way to Arizona, An army soldier seeing that the young woman was being harassed by three sailors, he proceeded to sit down next to her and sparked up a conversation as if they were best friends. They kept in touch for years though just letters a few hours on a bus started a relationship that would last a lifetime. The next time they met when he was on leave and they married. After seven children I was born. When my dad was 45 he died leaving my mom to raise us by her self. She never dated or remarried. Before she died at the age of 83 I asked her why she never dated or remarried. She said simply “ how could I am still in love with him and he is my husband no one else would do.” What a man to model my life by. In her eyes he was perfect. That the type love I am searching for, Undying and unlimited.

A Thing Of Beauty - Auction Now Open - Look Inside!
A THING OF BEAUTY In honor of Mother's Day, I am happy to share with you some of the lovliest women on Fubar! Bidding is now open, and will remain open until May 10th Two of the participants below will receive prizes of 100,000 fubucks. Those will be the woman with the highest rating average, and the woman with the highest number of rates. Should the same woman have both the highest average and highest number of rates, she will receive 200,000 fubucks. All participants reserve the right to refuse any bid or bidder at any time, and may also increase their offers via photo comment should the need arise. I believe that a woman of any age is a thing of beauty! Take a moment, and please consider bidding on one or more ladies of your choice. Serious bidders only, please!

Iron Man Street Kings
Today I got to see two pretty good action movies. The first one was street kings. Hey how can you not go see a movie with dirty cops in it. It was not like training day to me at all really. I thought it was very good and it was nice to see that there was a plot. At the same time as it had a plot it was still nice and violent. I thought Forrest Whitacer, Hugh Lourie, Jay Mohr (ok and funny man but great actor, or maybe I just like him) and Kenu Reves (stright acting no accent of where he is from) all did a great job. Also Common formaly known as Common Sense played a good small part also. For those who may not know there was some music group that had the rights to the name so sense got dropped. But see that worked out good because in credits and tittles Common sound and looks better and is clearer then Common Sense so do to him also acting I think he for his movies would have droped sense anyways. I tried this Pizza with the movie that was pretty good and made the movie that

*bf App* Serious Applicants Only Lol
Name: Age: Hair color: Eye color: Religious Beliefs: Occupation: Yearly Income: Do you own a car? If so what year/make? Do you own,rent,or share your place? If so where at? Do you have any criminal charges againist you? If so what are they, and when did they take place? Have you ever been committed or entered a mental health facility for treatment? If so, what was your diagnosis and what meds do you take? Do you like kids? Do you want kids of your own? Do you think you can love kids that are not yours like your own? Can you treat them with respect? Do you like a thick woman with a big ass? Can you respect my gangsta? LOL Do you think a 36B chest size is plenty or not enough? Do you like it shaved,trimmed or jungle? Do you like porn? If so, would you want me to watch it with you? Do you like cartoons? If so which ones? Can you handle the fact that I watch more cartoons than anything else? Do you play roleplaying g

Live At The Bada Bing... Its Saturday Night! Back By Popoular Demand - Check Out Our All Live Show Tonight!
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But, I Didn't Think I Was Mexican.....
So, I have the most amazing boyfriend. He deals with so much crap from me, and so much, BLONDE, and so many crazy moments... Well, Last night.... he, well, went down there right... well, awhile later he was complaining of heartburn (which was actually caused by dinner) however, in my little head... I was thinking... and said... WEll, I didn't think I was mexican... (in other words, spicy... cuz you know how eating spicy foods gives you heartburn) Yeah, I'm a riot, I know. Other than that... things are great. The girls went to a girl's birthday party today and had a blast... and I'm taking them to see 70,000 lady bugs released next thursday... and next sat we're going to the Zoo... Hmmm, what else can I say? My knee is killing me but I look adorable today!! And, I need to go on a diet... major. I'm beginning to MOO... lol ANywho.... drop me a line, or leave a comment... I've been so busy recently i'm way behind on what's happening in everyone's lives!!!

Want 40k Fubux??? For Your 11s?
Hi Everyone Got 11s dont know who to give em to??? Looking to get the spotlight Ill give you 40k if you would RATE FAN And ADD this wonderful fu! And give him 100 of your 11s ßów_____ ( ßúlldðg§ Ðëñ )___FU-Bomber___@ fubar Tell him Erin sent you and ill be sure to return the love with 40k and some rates! No 11s? Rate - Fan and Add him and ill send ya 5k ! Thanks :) HOPIGALERIN

Bad November - Track 6 - I'm With You
Bad November Disclaimer: This is a chapter in a story I wrote. None of the characters in this story are real and any relation to anyone dead or living is not intended. I apologize for any wrong use of United Kingdom English because I am not that familiar with United Kingdom slang. Any input would be welcome and any flaming will be ignored. This story is planned to be revised and maybe I can talk the writer to let me post them here if people like them. Please comment and let the writer and me know what you like or don't like. Also if 2 male characters being romantically involved sickens you please don't read. If you're still interested please keep reading. One last note, if anyone wishes to copy my story please get permission first (Not that I think that will happen but who knows). Lyrics from I’m With You Each word you say/ Makes my heart ache/ Even word you say/ Is a bitter lie/ Can’t forget you nor do I want to/ Because I’m with you Chapter 6 - I’m With You Yesterda

Yet Another Fff
Let me tell you a story w/o much background info: Started seeign this chick a few days ago, but I have started to catch her in lies. Granted I am catching her through decietful ways. Yet I believe I have a right to protect myself, saddly the best way to do that is to create situation for the female to express intent to decieve me. Here's the play: Create 3 accounts on various web sites, create 3 accounts on IM's. Meet female, give female a way to get ahold of me, use other towers/accounts to pretent to be someonelse. Get to a point where she claims we are in a relationship, then use other screen names to get her to break dates with me (so she can go out with them instead). Sure it's dirty and manipulative, but damnit I am tired of being the one who's played. Do everything you can for a chick, do everything you can to make her happy, do everything you can to let her know you are sincere. Then it never fails, you catch her with another man. I'm not saying all women a

Some Mother's Chosen By God - Erma Bombeck
Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures and a couple by habit. This year, nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children. Did you ever wonder how mothers of handicapped children are chosen? Somehow, I visualize God hovering over earth selecting His instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As He observes, He instructs His angels to make notes in a giant ledger. "Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron saint, Matthew. "Forrest, Marjorie, daughter. Patron saint, Cecelia. "Rudledge, Carrie, twins. Patron saint...give her Gerard, He's used to profanity." Finally, He passes a name to an angel and smiles, "Give her a handicapped child." The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy." "Exactly," smiles God. "Could I give a handicapped child a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel." "But has she patience?" asks the angel. "I don't want her to have too much patience or s

Sweet Comment
aw I got the sweetest comment from a guy on another site bigjd42 says: hey u r so gorgeous and i know i am not telling u nothing new or something that u already dont know...ha...cause u know..lol..well u got my 10...keep it up! SEXY SEXY!! Stay Beauitful!! omg ur eyes really weakens me!! your too sexy!! wow i dont understand why u not numbuh 1...i believe it is too much people hating on u...your WAY too hott for RMB...u should not b on here! wink..take care hun lol!!

This Was Passed On To Me
Twas the night before Christmas And all through the house All creatures were stirring Yes, even the mouse We tried the melatonin We gave a hot bath But the holiday jitters They always distract The children were finally All nestled in bed When a nightmare of terror Ran through my own head Did I get the right gift The right color and style Would there be a tantrum Or just maybe, a smile ? Our relatives we will see But they don't understand The pleasure he gets From flapping his hands. He needs discipline they'll say Just a much needed smack You must learn to parent On goes the attack We'll just smile and nod Because we know deep inside The argument is useless Our anger we will try to hide We know what it's like To live with the spectrum The struggles and triumphs Achievements, and regressions. But what they don't know And what they don't see Is the joy that we feel Over simplicity He said hello! He ate something green! He told his f

Anxiety
Anxiety What is this that I am feeling deep inside am I made of jello for that is the feeling I get one of jello that has been disturbed with its wiggling and jiggling or is it more like a child that has been cooped up in a house on a rainy day running around in circles playing cowboys and Indians with his war hoots until he tires but the child never tires. This feeling extends to my fingers and legs causing them to shake. The doctors call it a reaction to medication he calls the reaction anxiety I call it hell. It feels as if my mind wants out of my body to get away from the craziness that I feel. Until it gets out of my system this will continue and my inner child will be running a crazy marathon until exhaustion comes collapsing him in midstep. © March 17, 2008 Joanne Anderson

Welcome To The World Baby Girl
Early this morning one of my closest and bestest friends that I've had for 11 years became a mother for the first time. She and her boyfriend Jason became new parents to Elora Mae, 6lbs 14 ozs. Beautiful baby girl, head full of hair and looks like her mama. I couldn't be happier for them. It just made me misty eyed standing there at the head of the bed, looking upon my friend Liz feeding her newborn, a tender moment that couldn't be described in words.

Silentium _ Dead Silent
Dead Silent Your beauty is just a veil for the thrones Abide in your silence, to be alone All my hopes are burning Like a candle in the wind All my life lust draining I am weary and strained Embrancing, embrancing, like drowning Freezing and hurting Ghost of your smile still haunting me I would touch your heart again If I could feel you here by me In your eyes, once found ablazed Dark shadow dances free Yearning and praying like dying Freezing and hurting Ghost of your smile still haunting So it's dead silent now No sighing, sighing And it feels like I'm crushing While our love does the dying

Take Note...
THE RULES: 1) I am not your hunny, cutie, babydoll, or sweetie. 2) My name is AMO, please use it. 3) I don't want to watch you jerk off to me. If you want to do it, that's your business, but that doesn't mean I have to, or even want to watch. 4) What pictures are up, are the pictures you get. 5) Do not, I repeat, DO NOT lie to me. I'm smart and observant and more often then not, I WILL FIND OUT. 6) Respect goes a long way. Try it sometime. 7) Talk to me. I love new friends. I won't turn you away unless you give me a reason. 8) Of course mistakes and misunderstandings happen and that's just fine, but don't repeat the same ones over again. 9) I'm a Class A bitch, model, ego maniac, beauty, blah, blah, blah. 10) If you have a Myspace, you should ask before adding me, I accept most requests, if I feel you are worth pressing accept. At least say hi.

Nerves
Ever been so nervous and worked up that you nearly feel sick? Somebody help! Deep breaths aren't working. I think it's safe to say I need a hug and a change of scenery. If i had the money I would move to a different state though I don't know where that would be. Any suggestions should I ever get the money to move out of Illinois?

Silentium _ "unbroken"
Unbroken Was there a time when I was feeling The time for shade of hope or fear Sometimes I wonder, am I breathing When was it when we were dreaming When did the sun, stop from shining Remember when I felt the rain Sometimes I wonder, am I fading When we were hurting Did I need the pain just to feel alive Did I get this numb just to survive Did I need the rain just to feel alive Did I get this cold, just to survive Was there a child who was dreaming When did I loose the sense of me Sometimes I wonder, am I sleeping When stopped I desiring Did I need the pain just to feel alive Did I get this numb just to survive Did I need the rain just to feel alive Did I get this cold, just to survive Would you please, could someone please Could someone make me unbroken again Is there someone I could reach Could someone make me whole again Was there a time when I was feeling The time for shade of hope or fear Sometimes I wonder, am I breathing When was it whe

A Phrase You Shouldn't Think Of, Or Utter...
"It can't possibly get worse." Well, I'm living proof that it can. To top all the other ailments I've expressed emotion about in previous blogs, due to my waning health.... **Cover your ears, I'm gonna scream so hard that I'll probably develop laryngitis, and turn blurple from coughing.......** I HAVE A FUCKING EAR INFECTION AND SINUSITIS, ALONG WITH..... you won't believe it! I JUST DEVELOPED A LOVELY (BULLSHIT WORD-- IT'S HORRIBLE)CASE OF SHINGLES DOWN MY LEFT SIDE!!!!! As you can see, I feel just like Angelina here..pulling my hair out!! Damn it, I just can't cath a break...and Mayo Clinic has rejected me as a possible patient. They have a waiting list that is so long, they aren't adding anyone until probably 2 years from now. Seems like the [patients on the waiting list will be dead before they are treated. Once again, please feel free to just cover those ears, cause this is some seriously wicked cartoon style cursing: ***!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!!@#$%^&*(*&^%

A Song From The Heart
A song from the heart that I wrote months ago plays on in my head about the love I had once before letting go I know was the right thing to do Now I know how my life could change And how I could love someone new. A song from the heart a poem to keep for life a lie to save the wrong a wish to be with the right a lesson to be learned without causing any pain as I write on until it starts to rain. A song from the heart a bond not yet broken a young woman's wish to be heard but not yet has spoken a secret to be told without causing any sorrow life, love, and never lies can be borrowed. A song from the heart a poem I call my own a piece of the past that has to buried six feet under the ground someone once told me life could never change, a road to the future never causes this much pain A song from the soul that just has turned gold a song from the heart that no one knows

Another Jesus?
5/3/2008 Dear FREE Dragon and VIP's Newsletter Readers; Just a little note to let you know that "Cosmic Code 3 Booklet 2" has gone and as usual we've got a few returns. Thus if you are a VIP you should contact Mike ASAP from mailto:dr.turi@cox.net to find out why you did not get it. Remember our sophisticated software DID the job RIGHT and chances are your settings need attention so you can receive my latest and very long "Cosmic Code" newsletter. IMPORTANT: EMAIL US ONLY IF YOUR ARE A PAYING VIP Include your first and last name for verification. Here is a small sample of the "Cosmic Code 3 Booklet 2". Dear VIPs Reader; Thank you Britt (and so many others) for finding the DOB of another lost Neptunian "Jesus wanna be" named Michael Travesser this disoriented spirit was born May 18, 1941 in Riverside, California. http://strongcity.info/LOR/sc/page/about_michael_travesser/ ANOTHER SCHIZOPHRENIC JESUS WANNA BE! As always the uncanny perceptive power given to any

Questions Followed By Answers
I've been down and out for almost two weeks. Really in a funk. Back Child Support - I'm still being billed at an amount that was ordered to be paid when I made $7,000.00/month income. My income has been less than $2,000/month for over six months. The amount they tell me to pay is $2,600.00. My total monthly income is about $1,800.00. I've appealed and sent modification paperwork, but no one is listening. . . Ordered to carry life insurance, which was cancelled after I was unable to pay the premiums. Ordered to cover the kids with health insurance, even though I have no employer and no cocerage for myself. Almost all of my bills are past due several weeks, some months. No anti-anxiety meds, since I don't have health coverage. Can't afford to go see my kids because of my income and gas prices. Call all four of them every night and miss them badly. So I've spent weeks and weeks studying for my real estate license exam and I'm almost ready for the test. Yesterday I found out

Love Hurts
"...i learned that loving sum1 means sharing urself 2 him..but the saddest part of it, is knowing that you're not invited to his world... and i learned that the best thing to do is to..LET GO.. -i know im gonna shine..cuz I LOVE ME..

For People That Likes Wrestling
Ok i just wanted to pass this on because i went to it last night and it was really neat and really cool and for anyone that wants to go and see them again here is that web site and you can all check it out there, http://www.hvwlive.com/index.asp they came here to NC where i am and they are loads of fun i am going to to see them again soon my self on my birthday so have fun, and hope you will enjoy what i have sent to you all.

The Week That Was.
Well, let's see. Think it's time for an update. Life is still hectic. Next week is going to be another really hectic week. Got some VIPs coming in, and guess who gets to play chauffeur. Yeah, you are right, me. This week was kind of interesting weather wise. Monday and Tuesday, it was over 100 degrees Fahrenheit, but with sandstorms. Wednesday, we had personnel who were supposed to fly out, but couldn’t leave post due to a sandstorm. Thursday, the high was only about 85, but had a MAJOR sandstorm. At one point, I was getting ready to walk to a meeting, walked out of my section, and out the hallway, turned around and walked back in. My supervisor, the one who just took over being my supervisor, asked me why I was back. I told her, because I couldn’t see but about 15 feet. Well, someone in my section was brilliant, and opened the backdoor to look out, and the entire room filled with sand in about 2 seconds. The storm was the worst one I have seen yet. Then Friday m

Offers
Ok 2 days in a row i have replied to offers for rates n all that and both persons making the offers haven't come thru or they are just ignoring me. It's pissing me off. Usually I rate peoples pics just to do it cuz i am just a nice person but when a bulletin or offer is put out there for all fubarians like fubucks or bling for rates and it's not followed thru that bothers me. How many others are getting screwed out of what they earned?

Finding And Celebrating The Joy In Life!
Ya know each day is a new chance to find joy and to dance, play and joy life to its very fullest. If you let it pass or think its useless, the chance is gone and you'll never get it back. Let me ask you, when was the last time you played? Or just did something for the sheer fun of it? Joy is not found in the world around you, it's within yourself. You can make your own joy, especially during those dark times when you need to really feel alive again. Fun and play are healthy antidotes to taking life--and ourselves--too seriously. Or i guess you could simply "Dont do that!". Playing, dancing, singing and laughing are proven boosters of immune systems and mental health and honestly make life worth the trouble. So do the twist. Sing in the shower. Get your "Wiggle On". Watch a cartoon. Challenge some kids to a game. Wrestle etc.. Don't let a single day go to waste. Everyday can be a GREAT DAY! ToniO aka Dr. Feel..;) Grande Hugggz.

To Loved And Lost
To Loved and Lost Is it really better to have loved and lost Or would you rather have never loved at all It surely is a question most find hard to answer But to me I am so glad to have experienced love that I lost When I think back of past love I often have bittersweet memories I would never have learned that love is not just giving it is receiving It is not only having your way all the time but compromising for the best for all The bitter sweetness of lost love is a blessing for it taught me even when you lose you still gain more than you lose. You gain the knowledge of what real love is Love truly is the passion and fire you feel when you are in your loved one’s embrace and feel their lips on yours igniting a flame that reaches to your soul with their tender caresses Love is not only this but the respect you have for each other and knowing you would gather the stars in the heavens if you could if they asked it of you. Love gives you the wings to do all you can in life and

Lounge Drama
Yes, this is another stupid mass so listen up! If you or anyone else has any problem with me owning my own lounge, then Fxck You ! If youre one of the ones screen-shotting to start shyt, or creating conversation to start drama... Fxck You ! Now... if you want to hate on me for whatever reason and want to get caught up in "lounge drama" like you always do... Guess What, Fxck You! Point is... ALREADY, things are being said between lounges ALL because I have my own now. I have sat back and havent bashed Anyone or Anything purposely just to see what was going to happen. Once again, i was right! You drama whxres (both Male and Female ) have already started shyt! So, my final word is this... if you want to be all up in the hype instead of acting like an adult.... F.X.C.K. Y.O.U. !

Friendship
Friendship Friendship is a lot of things to a lot of people But to me it is a commitment to be there to support and show another there is someone who really cares for them. A real friend will give you their all and make you feel good about yourself not only in good times but also in bad they will help you see the positive when all you see is negative They will celebrate your victories and be there for you when you have been defeated. They are there to be a shoulder to cry on or to celebrate your happiness they build you up and don’t tear you down they are the ones in the background cheering Friends are what makes things bearable in a life filled with heartache and sorrow. A friend will tell you the truth even if you don’t want to hear it but they don’t desert you when you have done something stupid. They are forgiving and loyal to the end I have found that I have several friends like this. They are not only friends they have become a part of my family and are a true gift from God.

Death
to all my fubar friends, i would like to inform you that there has been a death in my family. therefore i wont be on fubar for a few days. so i will see you friends of mine in a few days... thanks to all my friends in advance

I Am Wolf
I Am Wolf I come into this world innocent and pure but I already am hated by many You see my kind have a reputation that has grown from lies, stories and misunderstandings I will grow up very timid and shy and I will be very family oriented my song will sound long and loud for all that hear and it will bring joy to some but bring others chills of fear they will hunt and murder my kind out of ignorance I am wolf and this will be my life © March 22, 2008 Joanne Anderson

The Lesson
The Lesson Walking along a dark and filthy street of the dismal town she reaches out to the first man she sees. He is curled into a cardboard box trying to stay warm in the desolation he calls his life. He sees her reaching out to him and somehow without saying a word accepts her hand. As he does he no longer feels the cold and desolation that was his life. He cannot explain it but he knows he must be near her or lose the wondrous feeling. As they walk she greets and touches others; each then begins to follow her, quite a crowd is forming. None knows why, as they whisper of her gentleness and the love they feel emanating from her. Who is she and why do they feel such a need to be with her no one knows but they follow. He knows nearly all that are in the crowd they are the people of the street but what is this wonder that she emits to them. He watches as they walk into a little better part of town and he notices that not all she touches now follow her. The lady speaks with he

Simple Things
Simple Things It is the simple things in life you will find that make the best memories A flower in bloom, a bird’s sweet melody, the wind on your face on a hot summer day Think of your child hood and the things that you did that made you happy it wasn’t anything elaborate but simple play be it playing ball with friends or skipping stones across a pond, making mud pies, or jumping in mud puddles these are nothing special but I bet when you think back on these things they bring a warm glow of happiness. So when you are feeling blue here is what you should do think of all the things in life that you did that brought you pleasure and joy and soon the blues will go away as you realize it is the simple things that bring the most happiness. Joanne Anderson Beaty © May 3, 2008

1,000,000 Fubuck Contest!
WIN A MILLION FUBUCK CONTEST!!! Well, read on to find out how!! Since the last one went so well, I've decided to host another! The EZ Rules: It's easy, this will be a rate and comment contest with rates counting for TEN points and comments ONE point each. Sticky bulletins and self-bombing are allowed. And based on the recent resets, if you are that dumb to use multiple accounts to try and win, they you'll only wind up doing yourself in. If you cheat or script you will be humiliated in a blog. Also, all pictures entered are SFW. The theme here is to try and help the oh-so-many people that are trying hard to get the FuBucks needed to make that spotlight happen. I've had my time in there a few times, so it's time to help give someone else a shot. Or even to buy that high priced VIP gift for someone or even give the Fubucks away to someone else or do whatever you want with. If you want me to send them to someone else when you win, then let me know after. Contest will run for 7 days

True Or False?
True or False? 1. In 1995, a major tobacco company decided to boost cigarette sales by targeting homeless people. They called their plan " Project SCUM: Sub Culture Urban Marketing." True / False 2. Tobacco companies went to court to fight for the right to keep tobacco advertising near high schools and they won. True / False 3. “Problems with self-esteem. Has menial, boring job. Emotionally insecure. Probably leads fairly dull existence. Grooming not a strong priority.” These are all terms taken from Big Tobacco’s files that have been used to describe different groups of potential customers. True / False 4. As of 2006, tobacco was still depicted in three-quarters of youth rated movies and 90% of R-rated movies. True / False 5. A tobacco company once gave $125,000 worth of food to a charity, according to an estimate by The Wall Street Journal. Then, they spent well over $21 million telling people about it. True / False 6. On their websites, tobacco co

Ghost Riders Big Summer Pimp Out
Welcome here are the rules.... 1) THIS WILL BE A PIMP OUT FOR ALL WHO WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THE RIDE OF YOUR FUBAR LIFE THERE WILL BE NO CHARGE ALL FREE NOW EACH CATORGORY ABOVE CAN PICK WHAT FRIENDS THEY WANT AND INVITE THEM TO JOIN THE PIMP-OUT. EACH CATORGORY CAN HAVE AS MANY FRIENDS THEY WANT TO JOIN BUT ALL WHO JOIN MUST BE WILLING TO SPREAD THE WORD OF THE PIMP-OUT AND RATE, FAN AND FRIEND ALL AS SOON AS THE PIMP OUT STARTS NO DRAMA WILL BE TOLERATED IF YOU START DRAMA YOUR PROFILE WILL BE DELETED FROM THE HELL RIDE THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE RULES AND MORE MAY COME OR CHANGE. IM TRYING TO HAVE THE HELL RIDE START ON MAY 12, 2008 SO GET UR ENTRIES IN. ON MAY 19TH. I HOPE ALL WILL JOIN IN ON THIS AND HOPEFULLY IF WE HAVE A GOOD TURN-OUT THERE WILL BE MORE HELL RIDES FROM THE GHOST RIDER. ALSO IF YOU HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS FEEL FREE TO PRIVATE MESSEGE ME AT ANY TIME I WILL ANSWER ALL BACK IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO BE PIMPED IN THIS SUMMER SPECT

Angry Side Of Me
If you really want to know me Then know this I am a woman who can have a heart of gold Push me more than once, and I will unfold I don't care where I am at or what I'm doing Be a smart ass and you'll see my anger over flowing I will let you walk and walk until the end But once your there, you're not my friend I will show you a side that's way tucked inside My frustrations for you I cannot hide I'll walk away and never look back Pack my bags confidence I don't lack My trust you broke, my heart will stray So with this I'll finish and finally say You're not my friend stay the Fuck Away!

Dj Reaper!
I'AM Death Eternal I am awash in blood and pain twisting shattering I am devilish and cruel think in your perpetual dead reason. i am lost and cast away from society the rush of the razor is the sweetest pain bleeding no god could save me now one day i too will take life a of endless unhappiness COME IN TO JOIN ME! Reaper~K.O.P.E.'S HELL HOUND! just click the pic below to join me ! in the only place hoter then hell it self ! G.O.H GAURDIANS OF HELL!

For All I Ever Needed - Original Poem
For All I Ever Needed - I sit sometimes and look at you But you dont know I see. I think about how lucky I am That you have chosen me And every time I touch your hand, and you clasp mine back so tight I know that 's all I needed to get me through the night As days will pass and months are born, And we venture through this life I know that you are there beside me love To strengthen through the strife And months they dies an they give way To the birth of mounting years And there we stand, In future sight Together through the years And so one day when I am old, and wrinkles crease my face And you smile at me as I prepare to see a better place Just hold my hand, my love for me And smile with eyes so blue And I will pass a happy man For All I ever needed was you. ~ Shawn Uptegraph

Pet Peeve #1: Your, You’re And Bastardizations Of Such
Using ur instead of your or you’re is unacceptable. It makes me cringe, which isn't a terribly attractive look. Ur is an ancient Mesopotamian city. It is neither a possessive pronoun nor a contraction. You’re really just being a lazy ass for using it. The only exception of this is Jack Kerouac’s use of yr. He’s a beat god, you are not. As such, he has the power to transcend the bonds of grammar rules. He’s just that cool. Finally, know when to use your and you’re. It’s “You’re welcome,” not “Your welcome.” Your is possessive. You’re is a contraction for you are. I think Americans owe it to the world to prove that they are not total idiots – we’ve just been inundated with a throng of grammatically lazy bastards.

Voice - Original Short Verse
She smiles, and the fire burns away The night doesn't seem so black She laughs and the world starts a day And the feelings come back She moves, and my eyes cant look away every step, every breath, all I see She speaks, and there is nothing left to say The voice of my angel speaks to me

A Moment To Treasure
by BlueWolf© A Moment to Treasure The lines of reality blur As I stare at the monitor, unseeing My heart slows as I close my eyes I am no longer here, occupying this space But miles away on a long-ago day * Still shots, moments out of time - Freeze frame, fast forward, too. - Taking me where I long to be. - Warm rays of Sunshine - Cool breezes of an Autumn day I feel them blowing softly, in my mind Tantalizing aromas, warm, welcoming Peels of laughter, children’s squeals Park rides going, spinning dizzily Popcorn making its merry music. - Children and parents, families - Couples holding hands, lovers together - Cast of colorful, Costumed characters - Cotton candy kisses, young and old - Carefre

More Info
Hi! Will you be my friend? :) Let's get as many people as possible in the fight against smoking! The number one leading cause of preventable death in the United States. Big tobacco is killing us! Over 430,000 deaths a year! Smokers/Non-smokers/ex-smokers/chewers/those thinking about quitting & those not sure, let's help each other in the tough process of quitting tobacco use! Did you know tobacco has been quoted as just as addictive, if not more so than cocaine & heroine? Did you know that it takes people on average 8 serious quit attempts before they quit for good? Don't give up! Everytime you work thru your craving is one less tobacco product working it's way toward killing you. Kill the craving before it kills you! Some chemicals found in tobacco smoke: bug spray / rat poison / formaldehyde (used to preserve dead bodies) / cleaning agents / poisonous gas / ant poison / jet fuel / car battery chemicals / the flammable agent in lighter fluid / industrial solvent / radioactive e

Weekend So Far
I did not expect to have David this weekend, but I do and it is wonderful. After the week that has passed, we needed this time. I have to take him back early in the morning tommorrow though for a church trip. So far he has not stopped talking, except for when he slept lol. He is bouncing off the walls because he is excited to be here. I think this coming week has a chance to be a really good one. :)

Ooo Look Who's My B*tch!!!
Guess who's birthday it is!!! That's right...It's ur fav Hustler...R.Jeezy's 27th Birthday!! Go spank his page with some birthday love!!! Dont 4get to drop some presents too!!! Jeezy ♠Muerte Bella™'s Bitch♠ NeaNeas Husband ♠@ fubar Much love hun!! Here's your cake! Make a wish!! ~*~...Muerte Bella™...ღBaka'sღ...~*~@ fubar

A Little Boy
A little boy got lost at the YMCA and found himself in the women's locker room. When he was spotted, the room burst into shrieks, with ladies grabbing towels and running for cover. The little boy watched in amazement and then asked, 'What's the matter, haven't you ever seen a little boy before?'

I Have Already Started Cleaning Out My Friends And Family Lists
So many of you I've added I've never heard from again once you've been added sooooooooo I'm gonna be brutal only ones that are safe are those I speak to, are on the vampyres and wiccan flyte or those who do return comments

Promise Me
I try to sneak my whispers in When I think you are listening And beg for the changes That you used to promise me All the silence still returns I don’t think your listening This seems so inevitable, that you will never have a voice I swallowed your silence, as if I ever even had this choice So I hand you my faith, yet you will mock me with nothing Fall Fall onto my knees Will you not look to me Fall Fall from the pain How long will this be Wasted on this with all my breath With all the tears to fill a sea Damaged is the way of the heart When all my sins will return to me This seems so inevitable, that you will never have a voice I swallowed your silence, as if I ever even had this choice So I hand you my faith, yet you will mock me with nothing Fall Fall onto my knees Will you not look to me Fall Fall from the pain How long will this be

Reopening Of Private Folder
We opened our private folder earlier for friends, no one took advantage of the opportunity. We are going to reopen them tonight at: 7:00p.m. - 8:00p.m. central time May 3,2008 This is for friends only... Please rate and comment on them. We are trying to level up to add more pictures. If we start getting our pictures rated NSFW we will close the pictures without notice. Thank you to all those that voted or commented on our mumm

This Is Good Use Of Tax Payers Money
Border Patrol lets some illegals go — over and over again By ALICIA A. CALDWELL, Associated Press Writer Fri May 2, 5:02 PM ET Josefa Gonzalez Loya has sneaked across the Mexican border at least 128 times in the past eight years. And each time, the Border Patrol has been nice enough to give her a lift home. Gonzalez and a group of other women and children — all Indians from the southern Mexican state of Oaxaca — have no interest in staying in the United States. All they want to do is panhandle outside El Paso businesses, using the children as lures. At the end of a productive day, they wait for the Border Patrol to come pick them up and drive them back to the border. Little dramas like this play out day after day, accounting for thousands of arrests but hardly any prosecutions in the past several years. The Oaxacan immigrants fall under a loophole that gives border agents discretion to keep some adults and children together and out of jail. "They do qualify

Sylvia Naked At Last From A Hidden State In The Secret Service As Opposed To The Silver One..
This was first written some time in 2005 or before however it disappeared and then I diddled about sometime last year and re-wrote it. Then I thought I would send it to a friend in America who had seen my book. However after about six attempts she had still not been able to view it. So He who knows all looked at it and scratched his head and then asked me to forward it to him which I did. His was just as blank as my friend's email. It was on Brassy but was not anywhere else. Even the Dongle gave up the ghost writing. Finally the man with the knowledge decided it was hidden and sent instructions to unhide it. Unfortunately they were as clear as the page I sent him. Totally blank. So Help was looked at and voilla here it is. I wonder if it was worth the effort but it is nice to know that not everything hidden is a secret. Rather annoyed by events Sylvia Silver-Slime surveyed the route stretching endlessly ahead as far as her feelers could see. It was irritating having t

God I Love These Things! I Love To Be Owned! :p
I think Spring has finally hit Butte!!!! and well Im doing some spring cleaning and thought...hmmmmmmmmm I think I should enter in an auction...The Beautiful Host ~~~ PebblesinAz was soooooooooo kind to let me participate and I sooooooooo love to be owned! so please come bid on me! I am offering some pretty cool stuff to the owner....and with the right bid some other things could be negotiated! *WINK* *WINK* So please come have a look see at the auction...even if ya dont bid on me...rate me and look all the other sexy ppl in the contest!!! you might someone you like! ClIcK ThIs PiC! Much Love to All!! MUUUUUUUAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Every Time
Every Time By: Jacob Aaron Cope Every time when I close my eyes, I think about you. Every time when I go to sleep, I have dreams about you and me. Every time that I see you, I love you everyday. Every time when I spend time with you, my day gets better than the rest of my days that I had without you. I really enjoy the days that I have spent time with you. Spend an eternity with me. I shall never tire of you, Remind me when day breaks, for, yet again, I will want to hold you… Every time I try to say that I hate you, I resent you but still the feeling just lingers, that love that I feel when I’m with you. Every time that I want to hear your sweet voice again, feel your touch, love without end. I pray every time maybe some day, when feelings come free, true, you’ll learn to love me again, as I still love you. I will always love you every time you make a mistake or even when you cheat on me, but I will still love you until the end. Every time you give me

Suffocating
I want to cry. I want to die. There is no future for me. Death is what I want. When I die, I don't want my friends to cry. When I die, I don't want my family to cry. Don't pray for me. God was never for me. God is not an issue. For I have not sinned. My soul will not leave. I'm stuck in my own hell. There is no God. There is no devil. There is no heaven. There is no hell. Its what we make of what comes next. So when I die don't bury me. I don't want to be cremated. Leave my body to rest in the desert. So when I go. I want to so slow. I hang myself. Suffocating to death.

True Friends Part 1
True friends are there for you when no one else gives a damn. True Friends there to put the pieces of your broken heart back together. True Friends will hold you when you cry and say nothing at all. True Friends will give you advice when you ask for ir and ONLY WHEN YOU ASK FOR IT!! A true friend WILL NEVER EVER TURN THEIR BACK ON YOU NO MATTER HOW LONG YOU ARE STUCKL ON STUPID!! A true friend will never ever go off on a perspective boyfriend/girlfriend with out you asking them to. A true friend will always have your best intrests at heart. A true friend will never ever choose sides between you and another one of there friends.

My Angel
From that first moment I already knew That woman I longed for Was going to be you The closer we grow together The more I want to be with you All that I hope for Is you want that too As the days pass by The more I begin to care You have opened my heart To all the feelings we share From this point forward I promise you this I will do my best To bring you happiness For this is my vow To you today Forever my angel I want you to stay

Broken
Blood streams down my wrists. Crying from the pain. My eyes shed bloody tears. My blood splattered everywhere. Laying on the bathroom floor. My fear of deaths near. Feeling my heart beat getting weak. My breath slows while I gasp for air. Pools of blood fills the floor. Screaming to live. No on to hear. I become so numb. My body so cold. My body so limp. Life no more.

Wireless Mouse Merlin And ♥guinevere&hearts Courting: Love Is In The Air
"A Kiss" "To my Dearest Merlin, It is such a wonderful thing to have someone like you in my life. I am truly blessed to have you lead the way & light my internet journey along its way. I look forward to our meeting & what may become!! Your sweet Guinevere"

All My Friends Plz Read
as of right now I can't get into fubar at all on my computer the only computer I can get in is my sisters computer.. So I may not be on that much if you see I will be on and off mostly trying to fix the problem on my computer.. My sister said she did not care for me to go on the computer and and get on and check my fubar account ok.. I am doing ok and I am hanging in there.. Yes it has been a year that my grandma died but I am still here and still living ok.. Any how I can't talk to much but I will be on here when I can.. I hope I can fix the problem on my computer ok.. I have to go I am watching my niece and nephew for my sister ok.. Alisha

Fucken Lame Psycho On Fubar
THIS GUY DOESNT EVEN KNOW ME...AND DOES NOT HAVE PICS OF HIMSELF....THOSE OF YOU THAT KNOW ME..KNOW THAT I DONT TALK TO ANYONE I CANT SEE...I TRIED TO TELL HIM THAT...HE DIDNT GET IT...THEN RATED ME A ONE AND THEN BLOCKED ME...SPREAD THE WORD ABOUT THIS PSYCHO.. THANKS ALL Da Sox: wtf are u on here for then u dumb cunt ->Da Sox: ADD MY HUSBAND AND CHAT WITH HIM...I DONT IM.. Da Sox: people steal my pix on here Da Sox: my pics are on my messenger Da Sox: yahoo or msn? ->Da Sox: I DONT TALK TO ANYONE I CANT SEE...SORRY Da Sox: to chat, i dont like this stupid shoutbox ->Da Sox: WHY?? Da Sox: do u have yahoo or msn messenger? ->Da Sox: WHATS THAT?? Da Sox: question for u ok? http://fubar.com/user/1552297.....THATS HIS LINK

Poor Richard
POOR Richard Richard works hard at the plant and spends two nights each week bowling and plays golf every Saturday. His wife thinks he's pushing himself too hard, so for his birthday she takes him to a local strip club. The doorman at the club greets them and says, 'Hey, Richard ! How ya doin?' His wife Judi is puzzled and asks if he's been to this club before. 'Oh no,' says Richard . 'He's on my bowling team.' When they are seated, a waitress asks Richard if he'd like his usual and brings over a Budweiser. His wife is becoming increasingly uncomfortable and says, 'How did she know that you drink Budweiser?' 'I recognize her, she's the waitress from the golf club. I always have a Bud at the end of the 1st nine, honey.' A stripper then comes over to their table, throws her arms around Richard , starts to rub herself all over him and says, 'Hi Richard baby . Want your usual table dance, big boy?' Richard's wife, now furious, grabs her purse and storms out of

Check It Out...more Writing
I don't only write about sex for my job...here is a book review that I did. The 'Skinny' on eating healthy Stop feeding your face with shit and you will get skinny. I am not so sure that it is quite that easy, but according to the authors of the trendy book "Skinny Bitch," that in combination with a few other lifestyle changes will help you become the skinny bitch you have always wanted to be. I started this book thinking it was going to be about another fad diet. A diet that helps you lose 50 pounds and then gain 75 as soon as you go off it. I also was skeptical because the book is actually written by two skinny bitches. What girl, or guy for that matter, wants to hear two skinny bitches tell them to give up fat ass bad habits - like smoking, drinking alcohol, guzzling diet soda like water and eating shit - I sure don't. But as I read the book, I actually understood and respected the points they were trying to make. And they weren't really preaching giving up bad

Fwb
When you are in this situation and it is clear one has more feelings than the other, what do you do? I would like to be his friend, but I find that it is hard and to me deceiving knowing that I don't have the feelings he does. Should the sex end, and try and just be friends? Does that even work? Is it even a good idea knowing that the other person has these feelings?

I Want
I WANT I want to possess you forever ‘till the end but I know you can never possess the blowing wind I want to hold you and always be your man but that would be like trying to hold the ever shifting sand I want to keep you always by my side but that would be like trying to hold on to the flowing tide I know these thing I want can never be so I will just stand by the open sea enjoy the wind as it blows feel the sand between my toes and I’ll be there for the ride just to see the flowing tide STANLEY HENDRIX

More And More Fakes!
I am SOOO tired of seeing a pic of a hot one go by on the scroll bar and pulling up a plug-ugly! I mean damn, people. If you can't even be honest about your pictures, what else are you gonna lie about! Damn...

My Sweetheart!
i met a great gal name ashley 3 months ago on another website. she's the love of my life. we might meet soon. she's talking about coming up to fond du lac, wi where i live to see me with her cousin. it would be great if she did. she's the best thing that's happened to me. i don't want to lose her. she's great. i love her so much.

I Feel Dead
Well….here I sit feeling empty and alone again. Thoughts of suicide running through my head. I’ve battled depression all my life. And finally found a medicine that seems to be working for me. But I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m just not allowed to be happy. Even when I’m medicated something happens to hold me back from that smile. I lost someone very close to me today. He was like family to me. I felt closer to him then I felt to my own family. I’ve been crying since around 9 this morning. I really feel lost and empty now. I really don’t know how I am going to go on without him in my life. He’s the one person I knew I could always go to(besides erin and sean) that wouldn’t judge me for anything I do. And I know I could always count on him for support whenever I needed it. Hell he was the only one that supported me getting back with matt. I just can’t believe that he’s really out of my life. I didn’t even feel this low when my dad died. I haven’t felt this low in a long time actu

Couples Of Passion And Erotic Lusts
A touch of skin soft and slippery, With the hint of hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, As the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, To abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, Probing gently as if drawing sex, From a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, Of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, Our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece, Until there were no hiding places, For the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, As the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, And lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, Your hands stroked the stray strands, Away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way, To urgent

His Beauty
The sheer beauty of his visage is so captivating it appalls me because I know his soul and I am its prisoner. His beauty to me, remains not pretty, nor aquiline darkly handsome he is lips so full and ripe for the tasting, I imagine the turn of his nose the olive of skin, lustrious and soft with masculine vitality. I would stare forever in those eyes, limitless, their superficial beauty is unmatched. Lashes long and thick, slanted shapely; cat's eyes they are. Irises like untapped oil the colour deep and dark, alight with wisdom, caustic wit and intelligence fierce. And this, coupled with compelling vulnerability few can fathom, but I can fathom and I am held captive. Soul-tied we are though I cannot touch him, but with his soul do often intertwine. I will always in my heart be his and he in my heart be mine and I fathom the depths, like no other, his beauty, because I know his soul.

Louisiana Born!
Subject: BITCH IM FROM LOUISIANA! HA HA HA TY AMY Body: somebody from California apparently wrote the top part, but somebody from Louisiana came back and put them on their asses at the bottom. CALIFORNIA: - I can wear sandals all year long - I go to the Beach - not "down to the shore" -Our chicks are WAYYYY hotter than yours. Well...Miami can hang. - I say "like" and "for sure" and "right on" and "dude" and "totally" and "peace out" and "chill" and "tight" and "bro" and I say them often - I know what real cheese & avocados taste like -Everyone smokes weed and its no big deal -We'll roll up 40 deep when something goes down. -I live next door to Mexicans, but we call them American's! -All the porn you watch is made here, cause we're better and thats how it is - I don't get snowdays off because theres only snow in Mammoth, Tahoe, Shasta, and Big Bear - I know 65 mph really means 100 - When someone cuts me off, they get

" A Guy With His Own Angel"
With him she will always be, She will cherish every moment for all Eternity.. Her love for him feels so right and so true... She will guide him through the darkest nights, She will be his light for the rest of his life. She will catch him in her wings and comfort him if he ever should fall.. She will softly wipe any tears that may fall from his eye's... She will wrap him in her soft white wings if he is ever sad.. She will her wings around him every day for the rest of his life, And whisper softly the powerful words... I LOVE YOU... Through good and ill she will be there, To say a prayer in mid air, She will take him in her wings, To a place where there love begin's... it is here where there hearts and souls will sing songs of love... It is here where the love will be like two little white Doves.. And there love for each other will be for all Eternity...

A Beating Heart
Shhhh, hold tight for I hear what I can't see, For there is no light only sand by which to guide me. Shhh, there it is again, like the beating heart of a snare, It sounds so familiar yet has it's own style and flare, I hear it so clearly like an old favorite song, I am yearning for it, this sounds I seen to long. Shhh, can't you hear it the sound is oh so clear, I seen to be drown to it, it's calling to me I fear, Shhh, listen with me, I need to know what it could be, I feel as though I'm floating to it, it's setting me free, It's unlike anything I have ever heard before, I wonder could I truly be who this sound is for? This sound is you're heart calling out to mine, Like two souls lost in the intricate sounds of time, Through distance may separate us, it's only miles you see, For nothing can ever really keep us apart those who are meant to be. Through wind, rain, sleet or snow this sound will keep going, longing to once again be with that person that's is all knowing. The one who know

Some Day
Oh, this person of such beauty, Eye's of love and heart that sings, love that's? honest pure and lasting, He lets you see how "Angels Dream." Sweetest words of his spoken, Above dark clouds his sun shines through, He makes me smile when life seems hopeless, By simply saying, " I Love You." Perhaps we'll meet near the ocean, Coming finally face to face, Talk of all our deepest feeling, Lie silent finding loves embrace. the night our love is consummated, While all the stars watch love at play, We'll fan the flowers of fire and passion, At last our hearts will have their way. My dreams and his together, With so much yet to be said, We want to make love to each other, Our hearts are linked, but not our beds. So now I wait, dream and wonder, When this day will come to be, When I shall smell and taste his fragrance, And bring love to reality.

The Battle Of Forever - An Original Poem
"What then is this?", he thought As the storm cleared from his mind A world so green, so fresh, so fair And old pain left behind. The blood ran when last he lay, And darkness took his mind Then light shone bright when living failed And passed the world unkind "WHO BROUGHT ME HERE?" He screamed at them Those he could not yet see "WHO ENDED LIFE AND SEVERED LOVE? SHOW YOUR FACE TO ME." "TIS YOUR REWARD", there came a voice Ancient as dust and sea "FOR LIVING TRUE AND FIGHTING WELL WE HAVE BESTOWED ON THEE." "ILL TAKE IT NOT", the warrior screamed "AND ILL HAVE NOT YOUR PEACE" And ran he there to hilltop high and then his blade released "YOU PROMISED ME NOTHING AND THAT IS WHAT YOU GAVE YOU SENT AN ANGEL TO MY SIDE AND BADE ME TO MY GRAVE" "THERE IS NO LOVE THAT PASSES THAT WHICH YOU HAD GIFTED ME THEN TOOK HER AND YOU STOLE MY LIFE BEFORE YOU LET HER SEE" "I RUN AT YOU THOUGH I KNOW WITHIN THAT VICTORY BE YOURS" With flashing blade and

Leaving On Wednesday
I want to Thank all my friends who have stood by me during this past week. As you know my Father passed away this past Monday. We finally got everything taken care of and now my dad can finally be put to rest. I will be leaving on this coming Wednesday to go to Washington State to attend his Military Funeral. Not sure how long I will be gone but I will have a friend let everyone know that I made it there ok. And again a big Thank You to you all. Kathy

Private Pictures
I am going to open our private pictures to all friends today (May 3,2008)at 1:20 till 1:30 p.m. Central time This will give you a chance to rate and comment on the pics you been wanting to see. All I ask is you please comment and rate on them. In order for us to add more pics we need to rate up or get a VIP. So we are trying the level up way. Pass this blog on to others and beat the clock...

Up For Auction....buy Me............
IM UP FOR AUCTION AGAIN!! CHECK IT OUT COME BID ON ME CLICK THAT PIC AND GET R DONE COME AND OWN THIS COUNTRY BOY! DONT FORGET TOO SHOW THE HOST OF THE AUCTION MAD LOVE!!!! FREYA ™ {SER}FU OWNED BY ☆lotus☆advent child☆@ fubar

Fucked Up!!!
ok where do I begin. Ok let's say this first I FUCKED up!!! blah blah blah... This is the part that no one really wants to read. Madly in love with a man I will never get the opportunity to love again. And yea it's all my fault. you know who you are too! I realize the mistake I've made, but what do I do about it now. Will things ever get back to what they were...knowing how he is probably not so I have to deal with the mistake!!!!

Help Needed From All My Friends... A Great Person Needs Our Help!!
I am in a "Comment Bombing" contest and I really want to win! It is for a 1 year VIP! Please help me win, I need 100K Comments! All help is GREATLY appreciated! Click the above pic to show your love!

Love In Its Truest Form
Love in its truest form has no language or words, it just has a thousand and one actions we all wish we could describe...Love IS everything its cracked up to be. Thats why people are so cynical about it. It really IS worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.Trouble is, if you dont risk everything, you risk even more trouble...............It doesn't matter if you've known the person a day, a week, or forever, you can't change the feelings you have for that person. If you love someone show it. If it's meant to be then it will be if not then let it go..(its hard).......:)

Story Unknown - Back In 2005
There's a story to tell here but if it could be so Please, would you would keep this "down low" There once was a boy who stole my heart promise not to break it or tear it apart I was gentle and kind to this boy I knew I gave him everything that I knew how to Which was only the love and affection that my heart could bring Only to you, my attention was driven Our lives together went as I hoped I thought nothing could ruin this Our relationship…was pretty "dope" Then it happened my worst nightmare had come true you thought I would cheat cheat on you! I wouldn't dare do such a thing I gave you my heart you told me yourself you wouldn't dare tear it apart My fears are coming true you have broken me down All I can do is cry You only frown Your negative energy has finally met my core there's nothing left for me anymore Once again in this tragic ending Fate is the only survivor with the broken hearts still mending This fairytale is no

Nobody Knows - Back In 2006
Nobody knows and nobody hears these tears that I cry and how they slowly fade into the night No one will understand on where I lack I put away my sorrow and began to act Nobody knows and nobody cares and these tears that I cry and how they drift away with the morning light all I have to do is fake my way through the rest of the day and once again when the night settles in those tears will be back everything starts over again...

Will I Live To Be 80 ?
Some times you just have to ask yourself ' Will I live to be 80?' I recently chose a new primary care physician. After two visits and exhaustive lab tests, he said I was doing 'fairly well' for my age. A little concerned about that comment, I couldn't resist asking him, 'Do you think I'll live to be 80?' He asked, 'Do you smoke tobacco or drink alcoholic beverages?' 'No,' I replied. 'I don't do drugs, either.’ Then he asked, 'Do you eat rib-eye steaks and barbecued ribs?' I said, 'No, my other doctor said that all red meat is unhealthy!' 'Do you spend a lot of time in the sun, like playing golf, boating, fishing or relaxing in the beach?' 'No, I don't,' I said. He asked, 'Do you gamble, drive fast cars, or have a lot of sex?' 'No,' I said. 'I don't do any of those things. Then he looked at me and asked, 'Then why do you give a shit?'

Let Me Know
I would like to know your interest on some things so if u have the time please take a moment to fill out this ll short survay for me copy and paste it in a message for me wit the answeres thank you in advance Name: ___________________ Age: ____________________ Phone: ___________ Occupation: ____________________ Height______ Weight______ Married(Y/N)__ Single(Y/N)___ Other_________ Sexual Orientation: __________ How often do u wanna have sex?(check appropriate answer) Daily__ Weekly__ Monthly__ As much as possible_ How long can u last? (check appropriate answer) 1min ___ 15min__ 30min__ 1hr__ all nite___ Do u like Giving oral sex? (Y/N)___ What could you do for me that no one else could?: Which do u prefer? (check appropriate box) One on one__ Doubles__ Group___ While having sex, what do u do? (place "X" in all appropriate boxes) Faint__ Cry__ Moan__ Wiggle__ Twist__ Jerk about__ Pant__ Sweat___ Scream__ Hum__ Whistle__ Just lie there__ List three positions u like: 1.

Reporting Pics
well some people feel it necessary to flag a pic that may have made them think something sexual, even tho it shows nothing. in my bar tab · fubar shop just sent you a message! · theBodywerx just walked into the bar! · Roger Clemens&t... just walked into the bar! · Magical_Angie just checked you out! · young and cute just checked you out! since i just uploaded said pic yesterday and it was flagged just now...one of these two flagged it. wtf? Whos the friggin hall moniter ffs? get a fucking life already and stay out of my pics if you are gonna be flagging pics alright!

I Just Don't Feel Like It
(Girls -- Have a sense of humor! Not meant to offend) One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says, "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said, "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?" Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep. The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take, so I told her

Gas Prices Vs........
The price of Gas versus Printer Ink All these examples do NOT imply that gasoline is cheap; it just illustrates how outrageous some prices are.... You will be really shocked by the last one! (At least, I was...) Compared with Gasoline...... Think a gallon of gas is expensive? This makes one think, and also puts things in perspective. Diet Snapple 16 oz $1.29 ... $10.32 per gallon Lipton Ice Tea 16 oz $1.19 ..........$9.52 per gallon Gatorade 20 oz $1.59 ...... $10.17 per gallon Ocean Spray 16 oz $1.25 ......... $10.00 per gallon Brake Fluid 12 oz $3.15 ...... . $33. 60 per gallo n Vick's Nyquil 6 oz $8.35 ... $178.13 per gallon Pepto Bismol 4 oz $3.85 .. $123.20 per gallon Whiteout 7 oz $1.39 ....... . $25.42 per gallon Scope 1.5 oz $0.99 .....$84.48 per gallon And this is the REAL KICKER... Evian water 9 oz $1.49..$21.19 per gallon! $21.19 for WATER and the buyers don't even know the

Pick A Topic!! Any Topic!!
Ok folks. I'm running out of blog ideas. So, I'm ganna leave it up to you. You pick a topic. Anything at all. Want to know what I think on a particular subject? Want to know something about me? Message me and tell me what you would like for me to blog about! Fisrt come, first serve!

Tax Credit Refunds
How to use Your IRS Rebate check... As you may have heard, each of us will be getting a tax rebate check to stimulate the economy. If we spend that money at Wal-Mart, all the money will go to China. If we spend it on gasoline it will go to the Arabs. If we purchase a computer it will go to India. If we purchase fruits and vegetables it will go to Mexico, Honduras, and Guatemala. ; ;If we purchase a good car it will go to Japan. If we purchase useless stuff it will go to Taiwan and none of it will help the American economy. We need to keep that money here in America. The only way to keep that money here at home is to spend it at YARD SALES, since those are the only businesses still in the United States

Iron Man
Went to see Iron Man. Its one of the better superhero movies of this genre. Probably the best I have seen since Batman Begins. Robert Downey, Gweneth Paltrow and Jeff Bridges are all great in their roles. Its obvious that Favreu is a fan similar to how Raimy is a fan of Spiderman. They stay true to the original storyline. What was neat about the Iron man one was how they updated it for modern day with terrorists in afganistan. It allowed them to show the original primitive suit and the new suit. Looking forward to see if a sequel is in the works. Its a great start to the summer movie season!

Eh...
Well I do have to say its been an interesting week....hospital stays, bad news, then broken bones...all of that with a five day stay with someone i have come to adore. If it wasnt for him i dont think i would of held up very well through all of this...Im hoping to be back at work by the beginning of this week.

Giving Texting A Bad Name
Giving texting a bad name Fri May 2, 2008 8:02AM EDT See Comments (30) Buzz up!on Yahoo!Two campaigns this week urged us to shut down our gadgets. One is Shutdown Day taking place this weekend, the other is Distracted Driver Awareness Day on April 30th, which was just observed in Virginia. So my question is, have we become so obsessed with being constantly connected that we now have days devoted to raising awareness about being too wired? Probably. The biggest problem right now seems to be texting etiquette. People just don't know when to stop texting, which sometimes lands them in really bad situations. Now I don't think we should blame modern technology for everything, after all we're the ones causing all the trouble, but we should take some responsibility and a hard look at why we need to disconnect once in a while. In the spirit of powering down this weekend, I want to highlight a few stories of people that just give texting a bad name, yet remind us why

My Spiritual Path In Poetry
My Enlightenment through you… When I was a child, sitting upon my mom’s lap. Feeling the wet grass underneath my hands. In a hot Summer night on the hill at “Reid Park” Full of wonder, looking up at the big screen above me. My curiosity crept in, as I wondered why there running. I look all around me, searching through the sea of faces. Some smiling, sad, terrified or mad. Being too young to understand the meaning of the film. But knowing the feeling of belonging is deeper inside of me. Seeing myself running, so happy to be alive. Learning we are yours, saying our prayers. 12 Years Later… I was stubborn in my youth, keeping my mom worried. Keeping her up all night, praying for my safety. The prowlers of the night, weren’t able to reach me. Having my Guardian Angels keep tabs of my whereabouts. Almost shot, stabbed, raped and kidnapped. But saved before any harm. You always kept your word, never let me down. I sometimes chose not to listen, so I learned the ha

Salutes
Ok anyone who knows me knows that I am one unique motha fucka. Also anyone who knows me also know if you call me a liar or a cheater you get ur ass beat down. I dont lie and I dont cheat nor steal. Now any of you who have had a salute denied maybe you'll feel my pain. I have a webcam built right into my laptop computer. I needed to salute fubar before I could level up. So I sat there for a good 2 hours last night only to get disappointed today by them telling me I photo shopped it. And honestly I didn't. With my webcam I can pick different backrounds and shit I can even have elf ears if I wanted to. But I figured Hell if I'm Saluting a fuckin internet club I'd atleast Salute our soldiers and the Statue Of Liberty. So I picked a forground which is the only one on my pic's like it. and they said I photo shopped it. Its a crock of shit that you can't be yourself on this site. I knew that it had to be too good to be true. and it is. FuBar and Their FUCKED UP Bible can kiss my ass. Dont fuc

Knife Attack Bloodies Woman
Knife attack bloodies woman By Crytal Carreon Bee Staff Writer (Published: Wednesday, November 10, 1999) A 20-year-old Modesto woman remained in serious condition late Tuesday after being stabbed several times during an argument with her estranged husband, Modesto police reported. The man later turned a knife on himself, cutting his wrists and throat, police said. He was in stable condition Tuesday night at a local hospital. Once he's released, the 25-year-old man will be booked on attempted murder and domestic battery charges, Lt. Kevin Finnerty said. Authorities did not release the name of the victim or her attacker. Officers were called to a single-story, four-unit complex in the 2200 block of Peppermint Drive off Oakdale Road in east Modesto at 2:15 p.m. They found the woman in a driveway, bleeding from her head, but conscious. Neighbors said the woman had staggered from the multiplex, with her hands clutching her bloated, bloody face. Just before that

Bad Girl
I lick my lips in fear and apprehension, knowing I'm in trouble. Not only did I disobey a command, but I also came without permission. This was unacceptable to you. Worse yet, I know you are disappointed in me. I sigh softly and lower my head, ashamed of disappointing you. Suddenly, you clamp a pair of nipple clamps on my nipples at the same time, and tighten them painfully causing me to cry out. Mercifully, you loosen them enough to make them barely tolerable. "You were a bad girl angel; now I have to punish you. I don't enjoy it, but how else will you learn? You do want to be my good girl, don't you angel?" You ask softly and I quickly nod, wanting that more than anything. "Good. Now bend over, try to relax, and just trust me." I do as you say and bend over, trying to relax for you. Closing my eyes, I breathe deeply and my body settles. You gently start kneading my ass, applying a gently pressure against my anus and I moan softly, thinking you mean to give me an enema. You chuc

Bomb Me Baby & F/a/r/ My Fam!! Xoxo
My girl, ANGELNDISCEYES is in another give-a-way1!She just needs 30k in comments to win!!☺ So we're looking for help from the Atomic Bombers Fam & any other friends, fans and fam of Angel's!! We wanna see her win, so let's do this! She always show love to her friends and now it's time for us to give back & help out a friend!! She's a sweetheart & a Betty Boop fanatic that you would'nt believe if you did'nt know her!☺ Even if you're not a friend, make a new one, just fan, add & rate her & she'll return the love!¢¾ This is when the true friends arise to the occassion!☺ "ANGELNDISCEYES" (JUST CLICK ON HER PIC & GET TA BOMBIN'!!☺)

Reality
it's rather sad sometimes when reality finally sets in. i know there are "stages" but haven't had to go through them in a very long time. acceptance is the final stage... i finally reached it. and with no dipute, it was made even easier to accept...well, face atleast. it's never easy to accept. it's sad all that time wasted on both sides for nothing. i know not totally for nothing, but for some things it was. i would've still helped as a friend even if things had been honest from the start. lesson learned. comes in different packaging, but the inside is still the same. so to any others who think they need to feed the crap....please don't bother. i know what's most important--and i've lost interest. so find some "child" who still thinks that's the most important thing in the world. or damn near. one day you'll wake up and realize it was lacking. and the one that could've or tried to give you the best of both is now just a friend.

Getting Back What You Deserve
What did I ever do To make you hurt me so I was just a kid Yet you like to be me like you did The pain was so great Will it ever go away Now its a new day Ill get over it Just remember what you dish out Will come back to you 10 fold So always watch your back I hope you get stuck with a tack I cant live like this Live in the past Its time to move on I hope it last I hate you for what you did I dont know if Ill ever stop I do know that I can get through this No matter what it takes Your no longer in my life I thank God for that You wont be able to hurt others I have to thank my mother She made me see What I could not Now Im able To move on

Regrets
I think we all have them...I know I do...There are things in my past that I regret...It's not like I can change them...My only choice is to move on...learn the lesson needed and remember the damage it has done to myself and others...So as never to do such things again... I regret my drug usage...My addiction was very strong...It had a hold on me for many years...I knew the damage it was causing to myself and to those that loved me...But...I opened my eyes to that...I stopped..but not without leaving an impression on the lives of my kids...I see them suffer still from my own actions at that time...My daughter went on to have her own addiction to the same...It was hard to say the least to see her struggle...But I think because of my own past...It helped me fight it along side of her...She is clean now... There are choices I've made when it came to men...Not always the right choices...But which one of us can say that we all haven't gone down that path a time or two...But..I've also

~ Just A Song Before I Go ~
~Just a Song before I Go~ There is a song that has a lyric that goes: "just a song before I go.....A lesson to be learned.....traveling twice the speed of sound...It's Easy to Get Burned". Is it not like that when we are feeling the Throes of Love? All at once there is the exhilration of love's first passions but also the fear of will this last? will I be hurt? is the person 'playing me'? I have seen how many here hope for, seek, pray for that One person that can make the difference between just another day and seeing the World beautiful again. And yet, sadly it seems....when some one comes into their lives offering the seeds of Love, Hope, Dreams anew....the person is put to task and made to pay for the Sins of the ones before them that scarred the heart of the other. It has happpened to me as well. It's the easiest and also the most difficult thing in the World to be transparent with some one so that there are no secrets, no stumbling blocks on the journey of discovery of each oth

Monster Jam
It is a family tradition to go to the monster jam truck races this time of the year to help celebrate our son's birthday. This year my sister flew into town to be here for his birthday and last night we went to the Monster Jam with her. It was my sister's first time at a Monster Jam and she had a blast. After the race the driver for Captain USA truck was really hitting on my sister while we were in the line to get the driver's autographs. She enjoys coming here. lol Today is our son's birthday party at the park with his friends and they are going to be playing football. You can see my sister and myself in the photo gallery ... you can sure tell I am not still feeling well after my hospitalization and have gained some weight from the medications I am taking. More pictures later today after the birthday party.

You :(
You left me in this world all alone No thought to how I would do No thought to how I would survive You thought of nobody but yourself Did you think about your unborn baby girl Did you think that I was so selfish I wouldn't understand Did you think about anyone other than you Did you think about the love we had The pain and hurt don't go away This anger you caused with your actions Is in my Heart to stay You left without a word to me Did you think that I wouldn't care Did you think that I wouldn't hurt Why did you do it How could you think your suicide wouldn't affect me You left me in this world all alone No thought to how I would do No thought to how I would survive You thought of nobody but yourself

Text Or Chat Shortforms
If you see your teenager typing "MOS" in a Windows Live chat when you're in the room and have no idea what it means -- "mom over shoulder," by the way -- then read on and/or print out this list to keep up with your kid's lingo... But a word of warning: you might not want to know your kids are talking about this stuff (mine are still too young, so I have some time before I pull my hair out). Some of these I've heard while others seem, odd, but kudos to NetLingo for compiling and publishing this. Also, if you use IM programs or send text messages (SMS) on your phone, what's your favourite shorthand phrases? OK, here we go: 8 - it refers to oral sex 143 - it means I love you 182 - it means I hate you 459 - it also means I love you 1174 - it means nude club 420 - it refers to marijuana ADR or addy - Address ASL - Age/Sex/Location banana - it means penis CD9 - it means Code 9 = parents are around DUM - Do You Masturbate? DUSL - Do You Scream Lo

Anniversary
It's been almost 6 years now The pain is still as great as it was then Now I have anger that I can't vent at you Why did you do it, how could you think it? 6 years since you killed yourself 6 years since I lost our daughter 6 years of blaming myself 6 years of sadness and anger I cant face the days as they come I just want to be able to feel free Why are you doing this to me Why wont the feelings go away The anniversary of your death looms nearer The pain starts to sear my chest again Not only do I contend with the anniversary of your suicide I contend with the anniversary of the day I lost our daughter The days were long and hard after your suicide I just wanted a way to make them easier They never got easier but time did help ease some But as your anniversay looms they get longer and harder again It's been almost 6 years now The pain is still as great as it was then Now I have anger that I can't vent at you Why did you do it, how could you think it?

Little Boy On The Bus
A little boy got on the bus, sat next to a man reading a book, and noticed he had his collar on backwards. The little boy asked why he wore his collar backwards. The man, who was a priest, said "I am a Father." The little boy replied "My Dad doesn't wear his collar like that." The priest looked up from his book and answered "I am the Father of many." The boy said "My Dad has 4 boys, 4 girls and two grandchildren and he doesn't wear his collar that way" The priest, getting impatient, said "I am the Father of hundreds" and went back to reading his book. The little boy sat quietly thinking for a while, then leaned over and said, "Maybe you should use a condom and wear your pants backwards instead of your collar."

Are You Normal?
ARE YOU NORMAL?? Here's something that you may enjoy: Have you ever wondered if your mind is normal or different?? Well, do this little mind exercise and find out at the end!! Free will or synaptic wiring? You be the judge. Check out the following exercise, guaranteed to raise an eyebrow. There's no trick or surprise. Just follow these instructions, and answer the questions one at a time and as quickly as you can. Again, as quickly as you can but don't advance until you've done each of them...really. Now, scroll down (but not too fast,you might miss something)........ What is: 1+5 2+4 3+3 4+2 5+1 Now repeat saying the number 6 to yourself as fast as you can for 15 seconds.

Heart, Mind, And Love
Heart beating a mile a minute Mind spinning out of control Love is strong and still here Why do I love you so Never forgetting you Always thinking of you Wondering where you went Missing you more every second You loved me like no other I loved you just the same You are my heart and soul Our love was never tame Heart beating a mile a minute Mind spinning out of control Love is strong and still here Why do I love you so

Can Somebody Tell Me Why...
If you get caught in a scam where you end up more than a year's wages in debt, why do the banks insist on punishing you with massive loan payments anyway? I've even tried getting a grant to try killing the debt at least a little, but if I'm not suffering from terminal cancer or if I haven't served in Iraq or something, they won't help either. How does a man who just wants to clear scam debt get any help from a charity?

How Do I
How do I Tell you what I feel How do I Love you so I remember the good times As well as the bad I think about how You loved me like no other How do I Make you see How do I Let you know You were the reason I could love again Then you walked away And left me with this pain How do I Get past the hurt How do I Move forward

I Gave You My Heart
I once had a dream I once had a wish The dream went away And the wish died a slow death Never again will I dream Never again will I wish It brought pain to me It broke my heart My heart is in pieces Broken around my feet In a million tiny pieces Not able to pick it back up Why would I want to Why should I care What does it mean To anyone but me I gave you my heart You gave it back Never again will I trust Someone with it again I gave you my heart And you broke it I hope you're happy now I hope you're content I gave you my heart You gave it back

Are You My Friend
Then take 5 min and do this for me.... All of you on my friends list: I want you to read this, and post a response. PLEASE. 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Have you ever had a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain it. 7. Describe me in 1 word. 8. What was your first impression? 9. Do you still think that way about me now? 10. What reminds you of me? 11. If you could give me anything what would it be? 12. How well do you know me? 13. When was the last time you saw me? 14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 15. Are you going to put this in your LC Blog (or other blog site) and see what I say about you?

Own Me! Auction Time!!!
Wanna own me? It's easy, just hop on over to this link and start placing your bids! Opens up Noon est time, and stays open for a week! 50K min Bid. http://www.fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=214866&albumid=1002626&i=1513936326&idx=13 I can't wait to see who gets to have me! ;)

~man Logic~
~Man Logic~ Q: How many men does it take to make popcorn? A: Four, one to hold the pot, and three to act macho and shake the stove. Q. How do you save a man from drowning? A. Take your foot off of his head. Q. How are men like parking spaces? A. The good ones are always taken and all that is left are handicapped -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Q. Why is it good that there are female astronauts? A. When the crew gets lost in space at least the women will ask for directions. Q. How do men get excersize at the beach? A. By sucking in their stomachs every time they see a bikini. Q. What's the difference between a man and E.T.? A. E.T. phoned home. Q. What did God say after he created man? A. I can do better than this. Q. What's a man's idea of helpin with the housework? A. Lifting his legs so you can vacuum. Q. How do women define a 50/50 relationship? A. We cook/they eat; We clean/they dirty; We ir

~ Zen Sarcasm ~
~ZEN SARCASM~ *Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for *I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me alone. *The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a leaky tire. *It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it. *Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted. *Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else. *Never test the depth of the water with both feet. *If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of your payments. *Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes. *If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you. *Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat

Tiffiany's Hairy Pussy Taking Cock!
Hi Everybody This weekend I am releasing "Good Girl" which stars Tiffany and her hairy pussy! This scene is the follow up to "Naughty girl need a spanking" where after leaving Tiffany stood in the naughty corner after I had tanned her ass red for watching porn, touching herself and letting a bloke film her I have now had a cup of tea, calmed down and am feeling guilty and horny so I am back in the living room telling Tiffany how sexy and beautiful she is and it is not long before I am licking her tits, fingering her hairy pussy, then Tiffany gets my cock out and gives me a blow job! We then move into the bedroom where we fuck like our life's depends on it! Over a hundred photos and 20 minutes of hardcore b/g video action For samples use this link http://www.jameswildfowler.com/tour%2013.html Or to see the video sample use this link http://tgps.freakdaddys.com/wildfowler/tiffanny%20week%201%20promo%20film.wmv Enjoy James Wildfowler http://www.jamesw

Yes Ima Fuwhore Both Auctions Closed
YES I AM THE JUGGALO FuWHORE! I love being Ownd so come bid on me in one of my auctions and then you can own your very own RAVINJUGGALO!!!! Would you like to bid? Click one of the picture below to be taken directly to one of my auction entries and place your bid now! Don't wait or someone else just might beat you to it! If Bid reaches a Bling Pack or More on either auction I will personally make you one Kandi Kuff and send it to your doorstep! If Bid goes over $50...we'll negotiate more benifits! Below are some examples! Rick RossThe BossMusic Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Make Some Fubucks! Xoxo
Happy Saturday! YAY for Happy Hours ALLLLL DAY! I know you want some more FUBUCKS! Well...what are Friends for? FRIENDS HELPING FRIENDS....that's what FU is all about. Click this picture and rate this folder... ...with 10's for $7,500 Fubucks! ...with 11's for $12,000 Fubucks! PRIVATE MESSAGE ME WHEN YOU ARE DONE! (No shouting!) There will be a $5000 FUBUCK BONUS for every 10th person to finish rating the folder! WOOHOO! The folder is set to Friends only! Others are welcome to Rate, just FAN ME, RATE MY PROFILE AND SEND ME A REQUEST! xoxo ~PebblesinAZ~Owned by DJ Kidd Rock~I Love My BF Tappinit!@ fubar

Blobs Inside Earth Like Peanut Butter
By Robert Roy Britt, LiveScience Managing Editor posted: 02 May 2008 ET Red and blue regions depict zones where seismic waves propagate slower or faster than average, respectively. Distant earthquakes (e.g., the red star) send seismic energy throughout the planet, which traverses anomalous structure and brings information about Earth’s internal structure to the planet’s surface. The large red region beneath the Pacific Ocean sits atop the hot molten iron core (orange ball), is best explained as chemically distinct from the rest of the mantle. Credit: AAAS/Science Full Size Previous Image Next Image 1 of 1 Red and blue regions depict zones where seismic waves propagate slower or faster than average, respectively. Distant earthquakes (e.g., the red star) send seismic energy throughout the planet, which traverses anomalous structure and brings information about Earth’s internal structure to the planet’s surface. The large red region beneath the Pacific Ocean sits atop the

Why Men Are Never Depressed
WHY MEN ARE NEVER DEPRESSED: Men Are Just Happier People-- What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time. Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for t

Happy Mother's Day To All The Mothers Across The Globe
i was thinking of this for all the moms of the world.....even those serving overseas fighting for our freedom. to all of you around the world and here in the united states, never forget where you came from this is for the hardworking moms who do so much for their children this is my tribute to them

Are Your Friends Here ?????
well auction is now open come bid on your favorites leave your bid in comment box please they are all offering some great stuff .... some hot looking men and men some great looking women so check it out and own one or two or maybe even three...

My Personal Thoughts
its been two weeks since my daughter moved out and so far its been a huge adjustment for us she comes by to see how im doin she's such a sweet little princess my little girl has grown into a woman of beauty she's learning to be a mom raising my son she may have moved out on her own but she will always be a part of me

Wanna Be The First Too Own Me???
FIRST AUCTION ON NEW ACCOUNT!!! COME BID ON ME CLICK THAT PIC AND GET R DONE I PROMISE IM WORTH IT DONT FORGET TOO SHOW THE HOST OF THE AUCTION MAD LOVE!!!! FREYA ™ {SER}FU OWNED BY ☆lotus☆advent child☆@ fubar

I Don't Get It, Maybe You Do
Wonderment As I gaze into your eyes, seeing something I ponder what it may be Your claim is one thing that To yourself may never be free Actions belie the truth Wondering why the deceit Exists at all, secretive Behind the walls, can’t see or peek No doubt of you love for one Or many, as I have the same Only one I can hold high Uncertain if I am held in similar esteem Can only toil on in wonderment Trying to allay the fear Shared, we can conquer it Forever we may hold each other dear.

Add/fan/rate This Lady
THIS WOMEN IS THE GREATEST PLEASE ADD HER AND TELL HER I SEND YOU PLZ, YOU WON'T REGRET IT TO ALL OF YOU TALKING ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK - I WANNA SAY THANK YOU! Now, keep it going OK? Because I can NEVER have too many friends… AND I’LL BUY YOU STUFF!! You get your friends to be MY friend RATE... FAN... ADD... And You Get Great Prizes!!! 5 Fan Rate Adds = 1 fuBling GIFT 15 Fan Rate Adds = 1 DAY BLAST!!!! 25 Fan Rate Adds = 3 DAY BLAST!!!! OR A BLING-PACK!!!! 50 Fan Rate Adds = 7 DAY BLAST!!!! 100 Fan Rate Adds = 30 DAY BLAST!!!! 150 Fan Rate Adds = A HAPPY HOUR!!!! 200 Fan Rate Adds = 1 YEAR VIP!!!! OR A HAPPY HOUR + 7-DAY BLAST!!!! PLEASE MAKE SURE THAT YOUR FRIENDS KNOW TO SAY THAT YOU SENT THEM IN THEIR FRIENDS REQUEST!!! FOR EXAMPLE... “Jane Doe 2112 sent me to Rate/Fan/Add you.” Now For The Rules!! And these are important! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ • Your friends M

~missing You~
I heard the music when true love called, a song sent from heaven on silver wings. The whole world was dreaming, wisps of light streaming, as the stars spilled their magic upon you and me. The tune was more lovely than the nightingale's song, more delicate than a rose weeping, yet as powerful as the sun leaping to shed golden ribbons in herald of dawn. And I bow down before you, the one my eyes have longed to behold, my lonely heart pining, love Light shining, I swear that I shall love and adore you. I Will Love And Adore You till the day I die... ~I Love and Miss You Much Robert~

Why Do I Bother
Im begining to wonder, why do I bother. You do good by people, show concern, and try and show that your not like other people and you still get burned because someone or something from their past burned them. why is it that when you do a good thing or try and do a good thing, you get burne in the end. This is what bugs me, is anything wrong with me? I do the right thing, and I still get burned.

Please Ware Red On Fridays
I read this on a bulletin posted by a friend and wanted to share it with you .. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together. After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home. No, he responded. Heading out I asked? No. I'm escorting a soldier home. Going to pick him up? No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq ; I'm taking him home to his family. The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days. I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, Thank you. Thank you for d

The Red Shirt Day!! Please Read!!
If the Red shirt thing is new to you, read below... Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together. After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home. No, he responded. Heading out I asked? No. I'm escorting a soldier home. Going to pick him up? No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq ; I'm taking him home to his family. The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days. I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, Thank you. Thank you for doing what you do so my family and I can do what we do. Upon landing in Chicag

My Animals
some of you have asked me why i have so many pets...and sit at home alone all the time. well here is your answer. MY PETS ARE LOYAL! MY PETS DON'T JUDGE. MY PETS HAVE NEVER LEFT ME. MY PETS FORGIVE MY MISTAKES. my pets would never ever let someone else come inbetween us. even when they get punished,,,,,the still greet me with open arms. i don't have to lay in bed all night crying wondering where my pets are. i don't have to clench the phone wondering if my pets are gonna call. no matter what my pets are always there. people suck! people aren't there for me. everyone i have ever cared about has turned their back on me. and if they haven't already i'm sure they will, cause that is just how it seems to go. people judge me for the life i live. it's not yours to live get the fuck over it! if you don't like how i live my life then go the fuck away! i don't need anyone's approval. people lie. people cheat. people break my fucking heart. no matter what mood i'm in my pets bring a smile to my f

I Love Him
Sometimes when I take a look at the hectic world around me, I feel confused, but all of the noise fades away and I forget my worries when I think about you. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by life, and sometimes I don't know what to do, but everything suddenly feels right when I hear your voice, and see the light shining in your eyes. Even if I gaze into a crystal ball, I'll never see and understand it all, but I know that I'd be lost if you went away. I'd forever seek brighter days. Thank God for you. ~I Love You Robert Always And Forever~

Metaphysically Speaking ...
I no longer exist When you leave the room So any tears that may have fallen Outside the presence of you never were... Perception Is probably the highest plateau I could hope to reach And since you did not witness My tears personally, They simply cannot be It is as the ancient philosophers Asked so perceptively If a tree falls And noone is around to hear it Does it make a sound? Does it exist Though no credible witness Is there as a testament to its presence? According to your sentiments The answer is No The tears never cascaded over my cheeks Paving zigzag roadways Down the outer lining of my face So Metaphysically speaking, There is no need For guilt Or apologies Because no wrong Was ever done to me And there lies my entity A chalk outlined Casualty of greek philosophy...

Bill Gates In Hell
Bill Gates dies and goes to hell. Satan greets him: "Welcome Mr. Gates, we've been waiting for you. This will be your home for all eternity. You've been selfish, greedy and a big liar all your life. Now, since you've got me in a good mood, I'll be generous and give you a choice of three places in which you'll be locked up forever." Satan takes Bill to a huge lake of fire in which millions of poor souls are tormented and tortured. He then takes him to a massive coliseum where thousands of people are chased about and devoured by starving lions. Finally, he takes Bill to a tiny room in which there is a Beautiful young blonde with an alluring look on her face, sitting at a table on which there is a bottle of the finest wine. To Bill's delight, he sees a PC in the corner. Without hesitation, Bill says, "I'll take this option." "Fine," says Satan, allowing Bill to enter the room. Satan locks the room after Bill. As he turns around, he bumps into Lucifer. "That was Bill Gates!" c

The Perfect Man
The perfect man is gentle Never cruel or mean He has a beautiful smile And keeps his face so clean. The perfect man likes children And will raise them by your side. He will be a good father As well as a good husband to his bride The perfect man loves cooking Cleaning and vacuuming too. He'll do anything in his power To show his love to you. The perfect man is sweet, Writing poetry from your name. He's a best friend to your mother And kisses away your pain. He has never made you cry Or hurt you in any way. Oh, "to hell with this stupid poem," "Cause the perfect man is gay!

Of Mind (peace)
We seek to find Some peace of mind A piece inclined to Seek divine Information aligned Inspiration cosigned Where dreams dare to be Both deep and wide Both wined and dined And love inclined Where Despair is resigned With sleepy eyes... And every mind is aware... Awake, alive Aware to break the souls of lies Caring to create spirits that rise Awakening worlds We live through lines Where alive words live And dead words die Where minds grow wings And our words fly That is where we will find So wonderfully... Some peace of mind

My Wish List
My Wish List... I wish I had more 11's to give to the people who always help me... I wish I could afford a blast or 2 so I didn't have to ask for help with leveling... I wish I could give more to my friends online, but I just can't right now... I wish I felt good enough about me to enter a few more contests, but it's just not me... Auctions I never do very well in... Carnie@ fubar so I'll sit and do my own thing and eventually I'll get up there, plugging slowly away at the numbers, but that's what I do best. Sit in my corner and silently help others to attain the things they want, Why because it's awesome to see people smile... I have no regrets about giving my happy hour to another, I just wish I could get another to do it right...yet that's so far out of range for me it's funny. After spending a month bombing my brains out and switching jobs at the same time... feeling like I was letting my online friends down, there just aren't enough hours in a day, nor

Let Go Of Fake And Get Real
Feeling fickle in faith and feeble yet? There will be no fanfare When fear becomes a factor And you parade through days, A bona fide actor Staged equals fake... And if you are fundamentally false You cling fiercely to "fake" Rehearsing life No give and all take Foregoing failure Choosing no stake Never fighting For what you believe in Floating through life Like specimens of semen ...But at least THEY know where to go No difference between you and a figurine, A fallacy of foiled plastic, I bet your life is fucking fantastic... Check that, maybe it should be A little more sarcastic... I bet your life is fanfuckingtastic ...

Updates For Saturday 5/3!
Good Morning Everyone! Profile of the Week: Fallen Angel ~ Demon Crew Co-Founder~ Member of the Stiletto Girls~FU OWNED by MASTER CAINShe needs 1,424,174 points to GodMother. We also have an unofficial giveaway going on at the moment. [ÐJ~WÎññÎë] Needs 10K in comments for a 1 Month VIP. Please drop by and leave comments when ever you can. In doing so you will be helping two members as Ç£ÃÿMØ®Ê is hosting the giveaway! If you have any questions feel free to ask myself, Lori, or Scooter for help!

All Love Returned
SURPRISE!! PLEASE SHOW THIS GREAT WOMAN SOME LOVE IN THIS CONTEST FOR A VIP SHE WILL RETURN ALL LOVE GIVEN TO HER!!LEAVE COMMENTS AND RATES CLICK ON THIS PICTURE PIMP OUT BROUGHT TO YOU BY *AngelDawn *Shadow Queen*Owned By Barrylicious*Owner of Kiwichi*Read Profile Before Asking Dumb S**T@ fubar PLEASE REPOST (repost of original by '*AngelDawn *Shadow Queen*Owned By Barrylicious*Owner of Kiwichi*Read Profile Before Asking Dumb S**T' on '2008-05-02 13:49:43') (repost of original by 'Diamonds Forever Owned By Sweet Thing ( MANAGER @ THE KITTY KAT LOUN' on '2008-05-02 16:04:28') (repost of original by '_Sweet_Thing_~ ~Owned by Rock-Fu~~Owner of Diamonds Forever~~Redneck Leveling Crew~~' on '2008-05-02 18:04:59') (repost of original by 'Diamonds Forever Owned By Sweet Thing ( MANAGER @ THE KITTY KAT LOUN' on '2008-05-03 02:59:17') (repost of original by 'Sweet Southern Angel Thank you for the Vip !!!' on '2008-05-03 05:18:57')

America!!
my friend cubs fan.. had this blogged...and I thought it was very awesome..and also think hes awesome for supporting us. I know a few Canadians who look down there noses at Americans. Not saying all do...but do know a few who have. Please watch!

New Bike So Far
Well getting used to a v4, when i have been riding a straight 4 is a little wierd because the power bands are different. I am still getting used to the low down torque from the engine but just love the sound. The suspension feels a bit on the soft side but as its a sports tourer then this is understandable. Certainly doesn't feel like it wants to dive seriously when i pull on the anchors. One thing I have noticed is that it needs a little more effort to get it to lean but once it does it feels well balanced. I think this is partly to do with the tyres as the tyres on the CBR had a sharper profile compared to the ones on the VFR. One thing i was worried about was when in the rain and this week I was able to test it LOL. Just felt stable and good. As I have next weekend off, well unless someone decides to book holiday, then its time for a longer trip out.

Help Them For Godmother
MY PERSONAL GODMOTHER LIST Help me to help them thanks HisSweetObsession need 977.318 to godmother ♥HisSweetObsession♥ ~~ *Rate Spankers* ~~ *Shadow Levelers*@ fubar cheen need 961.879 to godmother Cheen@ fubar gem need 1.435.247 to godmother ?aGEM4life? ~??HockingRadio™'s DJ Gemini??@ fubar hrtofgold need 2.155.410 to godmother ~ &hearts Hrtofgold ~ MAD FU BOMBER~ &hearts ~@ fubar cotton candy need 1.284.643 to godmother ~*~Cotton Candy Kisses~*~@ fubar

Help Level My Husband I Will Make You A Pic
Hey everyone I need your help. My husband is at drill until tomorrow evening and I wanted to try to level him up before he got back. He has just over 300K to level so I was hoping if we get some people to help that we can make this happen. If you rate all his stash send me a private message and I will make you a cool pic you can look thru the folder of things I have made and let me know if there is one you would like me to make. If you do his stash and his pics I will make you 3 cool pics! So hope you can help me!! Just click here to get started: ~Jesse~MEMBER OF GIT-R-DONE-REBELS BOMB SQUAD~@ fubar Brought to you by: ~Hillary~*Founder of BBW_Bombers Family* and a "Real Deal Babe" (Fu Owner of vvjuggalette86)@ fubar

Passions Of Fire - Chapter Three -fire Of Passion
OK, lets see you can handle the raw passions of fire! Fire Both of them could see the headlights coming closer and knew who it was. Doing the best she could to hold her blouse together with one hand and the other on the dash as he opened up the the throttle wide and opened up the cut outs. The sound of thunder rolled in the night. Even with the previous events of the evening, the shear power over took her as she had never been in a car so fast. Her heart raced fast as the engine. She glanced over to see the needle of the speedometer pass 150. All traces faded into the night of the car behind. He looked over her, keeping one eye ahead. He was concerned over the quickness of her breath, not knowing what was really going through her mind and body. After slowing down and coming back into town, they talked and found a connection between them. A spark was there, and the more they were together the hotter and brighter it become. He asked her if she wanted to stop by his house and

Hey, You Want To Help Me (and My Band) Out? :d
I have a favor for everyone here... It'd really mean a lot to me and the band if you would be willing to throw up our little music player widget thingy on your profile. What widget am I talking about? This one!You can get one for your very own by clicking the yellow SHARE button at the top right of the widget, and it includes a lot of different options for automatically posting the widget into a ton of different sites, so it's extremely easy! Thanks for the support, and be sure to make it out to our Boardwalk show, May 10th! :D

Drama And Losing.
This morning some shit went down and I lost my best friend and confidant. It was just something stupid that never should have happened in the first place. Needless to say, this is not helping me think otherwise about that fact that people would be better off without me. My heart hurts because I hurt my best friend and he is very upset. He wants nothing more to do with me. I don't know what to do. I told him how I felt and it wasn't enough. I am done having friends and I am done with everything else. I think I will give my son to his father and disappear. People will be better off without me. My best friend told me that he didn't want anything to so with me. He told me this today and it crushed me. "It doesnt matter anymore When i get back online i am removing you from my friends" I just don't know what else to do. All I do know is that this isn't worth it anymore. My best friend is gone. He made me so happy. I could tell him everything and anything. This is not trying to get my b

Who I Perceive Myself To Be
I’ve had this rolling around in my brizzle for a few days, and very much like another attribute of male physiology, I let things build up to a certain level, then I release it all at once upon the world. The following is an informal essay about me. I stress informal, please do not judge this on the basis of grammatical accuracy or continuity. This is more or less a random stream of semi-conscience thought about who I perceive myself to be, what I perceive myself to be, and why the aliens left me here to begin with. me on me: ok, so like most people that get to know me start to believe that I’m some super genius. like I’m moments away from figuring out free energy. it's flattering, but I’m not that smart. I have, however, mastered cold fusion, and I would have gone public with it, but the oil companies are paying me to keep quiet. lol. I think what it is, that I have a hyper-curiosity about the natural world, and how it works. if I see something, then wonder about it, I h

I'm Moving
I am leaving today to go back home to Texas. I will be off line for a couple weeks while I am waiting for my internet to be turned back on. I'm letting a friend of mine use my account to bomb and drop my 11's so they don't go to waste. When I get there I will try to find a computer somewhere to use but idk. Anyway I will miss fubar and my friends. Having no internet is seriously going to suck..hard. Leave me lots of love while I'm gone..xoxo..cya

Graduation
Graduation should by a time for joy and happiness, although sometimes being sad (high school days)being the end of an era and the starting of a new one. At least that's what most think and feel. In my opinion, last night's Graduation if that's what you call it was more of a floop. The new President, did a comedy act for the last half of the students, while we were lining up so the first half barely knew what to do. We went in one isle got through the ceremony which was ok. At the end of the ceremony instead of everyone going out and up one isle (as we did when I got my Certificate last year) they vacated the quickest route and went up both directions. I'm not sure what they thought of that in the long run but I only hope next year they give better instructions to everyone. This year they actually did Valedictorian and Salutatorian of each department. One would have thought, with my 3.98 (22 A's and 2 A-'s [where A=4.0 and A- = 3.70] = 3.975) instead of someone having 23

Zombie
ALONE I LAY IN MY COFFIN FOR MY BED THE COLD AIR CHILLS ME TO THE BONE FEELING THE WAVES CRASHING ME LIKE A THOUSAND FISTS THE MASTER’S CALL BECKONS IN THE MORNING PULLING ME FROM MY SLUMBER NOT WANTING TO LISTEN BUT OBEY LIKE A MINDLESS ZOMBIE SUITING UP, MARCHING TO WAR RATHER RETURN HOME BUT NO PLACE TO EVEN ROAM MY HANDS ON THE GRINDSTONE BLOOD, SWEAT, AND TEARS I GAVE NO ONE KNOWS THE TOLL I PAY

Sunset Cafe Playbill (updated 050308)
OWNER ~RescueDiva~Owner of ~Sunset Cafe ~Owner of DJ Meko~Friendship Circle~Lollipop Girlz~ Ghost Angel~Lu@ fubar CO-OWNER ~Dj Kera The Blue Eyed Goddess~Co Owner of ~Sunset Cafe~Ghost Angel~@ fubar STATION MANAGER Dj DREAM KING STATION MANAGER @ SUNSET CAFE@ fubar HEAD DJ DJ Devine ~HeadDJ@Sunset Cafe~DJ @ All Hits Radio~ All 4 Drama Free Zones! :D@ fubar Asst. Head DJ Dj_Meko/stutta~Asst. Head Dj@ Sunset Cafe'{FU_Hubby_2_Amitola}{OWNED by RescueDiva}@ fubar Asst. Head DJ (Days) ~DJ Yummy~Demon Crew member & Asst.DJ@SunSetCafe~FuWife to DJ Disturbed & Wettangel~Kights BabyGirl@ fubar DJS -- Each DJ has their unique styles and slightly differing playlist genres. If you happen in during any of the DJ shows, they should certainly play your requested songs to cater the show to the needs of the audience at the time. DJ DISTURBED ENFORCER @ (TOTAL CORRUPTION) & DJ at SUNSET CAFE & ~Fu-Husband to DJ Yummy @ fubar 3a-9a

What Are Friends For
You know i thought when you are friends with someone that you are suppose to be there for that person, especially in there time of need? I mean a freindship is suppose to be a give and take kinda thing, like a two way street not a one way dead end dirt road where you get nothing but a cloud of dust in your face when you turn around... right???

Unwelcomed
It's my blood It's my heart It's my way of breathing It's my soul It's my shelter I can't change who I am Persona non grata In the world above the ground Cause I'm breaking the boundaries We are what we are We do what we do We take it to far Then we go beyond We're living after midnight With darkness closing in We're dancing in the dim light We're no daylight reaches in We won't touch the ground We're breaking the boundaries Persona non grata...

Omg Look
Wanna Own Me? Click the link and hit me up~~Everyone needs a sexygranny in thier life!! This sexy beast is on auction too!! Be sure to show some mad fu-love to our generous host for all her time n effort in putting this together stormwoman~co owner of wolves of wiccan society~owned by lonewolf~cherokee~@ fubar THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH MUAH!!! (repost of original by 'SexyGranny1967>Shadow Leveler>Club FAR> Promoter of S*U*P & PPN>owner/owned of mishnumber1' on '2008-05-02 03:14:27')

Free Comic Book Day
Don't forget - first Saturday in My is Free Comic Book Day! Log onto www.freecomicbookday.com to find your nearest participating store! I just picked up a free all-new Hellboy comic, plus some Simpsons and Fantagraphics stuff!!

Love Sucks
To me, and im sure others will have different opinions, love is when you think about someone non stop, and its more than just sexual thoughts. You can envision the future, you can see places you live, imagine sunsets or walks in the woods, road trips and reunions, holidays and dinners with friends. Then again, this is comming from a hopeless romantic. Time has no bearing on how you feel about someone. In a past experiance, I knew I loved this person the moment I laid eyes on him, and it went beyond the physical. There was an instant recognition where I knew that at that moment I love him when it happened. For better or worse, I have to move on with my life with out my soul mate, however I know in my heart that it's going to take a LONG time for someone to consume me as fully. love itself is an over used word, I dont think a lot of people really know the meaning of love. I know personally I still don't. Love is just something that you know deep down, regardless of time. I'm so ti

Smile For Me...
Smile my love And I'll smile for you Always be happy And never be blue Be happy we're together Right here in our hearts And pray nothing will happen To tear us apart Let's praise each day As if love was new And pray our love Will always be true We were brought together With help from above And so we know This is a special love So smile my love And I shall grin As we both hope and pray This will never end

Fubucks Giveaway
http://fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=941363&albumid=994480&i=963852401&idx=31 hey yall check it out this is the link copy and paste it i'm giving away fubucks 15k for 100 comments 25k for 200 comments and the more you do the more you get i need this yall please sho lve o.k.

Don't Look Back...
When you finally make up your Mind, That you are going to do Something; 'Forge ahead,and don't look Back! Stick with whatever,you've Planned. Don"t give any thoughts,to Regrets, Or feelings of the Past; For time,does not go Backwards! Decide once and for All, That you are moving Ahead! Don't let anyone,make you feel Guilty, As they will surely Try; But,it's "Your Life", So,don't let it pass you By! Take that Chance, That you've wanted so Bad; Before you Reach, The end of the Line, Time stands still,for no One!

May 3rd Is My Son Paul's Birthday
Today is my Son Paul Birthday, so i would just like to wish him a very happy birthday & hope he has a great day. Please go wish him a happy birthday þÄÚL ÄKÄ ÐJ MÄÐ HÄ††ÈR enforcer of twizted mindz@ fubar Have a great day Paul, Love you & thank you for being such a wonderful son. Love Mum or as everyone else knows me Di aka PiNkLadY xxxx

Moment Of Clarity
Only meat in your eyes Nothing else matters To the degree of the minds meeting. The possibility of depth Was thrown right out the window. Now is too late All feelings cold and dead In your direction there is nothing. A new path has revealed Itself to me Suggesting a happier stride On the scenic route. You can and will not stop me My mind is made up. An empty zombie I no longer remain. The purge of life Reincarnated me to follow What I need And will no longer neglect or ignore. At last there is Indeed a reason to stay On this soil a while longer Caressing the sweet flesh Of another being. Though the chances be many To run across There are so few Of being truly understood and known.

Tears Liner
We stood side by side putting on makeup. She uses the brushes, but I always use the tips of my fingers to apply. Her mouth opens and circles when she lines her eyes...and I laugh. Her eyes catch mine in the mirror. And she does too. We are garbed in black. "How many funerals have we gotten ready for together now?" "Three...this last year and a half." she frowns I do too. We stare at each other in the mirror. She slowly starts to apply makeup again, and I unwind my hair from its high bun. I sigh and run a brush through my hair. Today was hard. Tears line every eye, strangers hug me. My cousin comes up to me. His smile lights his face...but it is weary. Tired. worn. Strained. It is his wife who's life we celebrate this day. Her death we mourn. She was 33. Too young. He hugs me tight and murmers against my neck. "It has been to long cuz." I sniffle and rub my hands along his back. "It has." I agree, and nod. He starts to walk past m

Promises Broken
Promises made never to be broken. Alas they are broken nonetheless. I promised I would never let anything hurt you. Yet I hurt you without trying. I promised to always be there for you. I thought I was but I guess I was not. I promised to always take care of you. Yet I became the one needing care. After all the promises were broken. I promise I will never break them again. There is no one there to listen. I now see the only promise we can keep in the end. Is the promise of love unconditionally no matter what happens.

Given Away Fubucks See Inside
Hey ppl i'm giving away fubkucks to ppl who will vote for me . i'm in a contest to win a vip for 1 year that is hosted my my best friend Lord Darktree 2ok for the first 100 comments so please help me out yall i will appreciate it all you do love yall one love http://fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=941363&albumid=994480&i=963852401&idx=31 copy and paste it in your browser o.k. please sho love

Three Kisses
One Kiss for yesterday that I may have forgotten. One Kiss for today for I'm Blessed. One Kiss for tomorrow to show I care beyond words for everyday I'm blessed to be with you. Written by M.Hesse AKA SavaDog All rights Reserved

Why I'm Single
I'm often asked why I'm single. Honestly I do not know the answer to this. I get all the time that I am sexy, gorgeous, attractive or whatnot, yet all the men I do get interested in, only see me as a friend. Is it cuz I'm not a "bad girl" in public? Is it cuz I'm not the average blond hair, blue eyed girl? Is it cuz I have children? I'm not necessarily sure. It hurts to know that someone I may be interested in doesn't see me as anything more, but I'm content with a friendship and being there for them, hopefully when they need me. Most people do not realize that the thing they may be looking for is right in front of them and they bypass it cuz they are afraid of change and trying something new. I'll still be here tho...

Mile Markers For River
Lower Miss 955 Cairo 893 Tiptonville 736 Memphis 700 Tunica 663.4 Helena 587 Rosedale 540 Greenville 437.2 Vicksburgh 364.2 Nachez 233.9 Baton Rouge 232 Tiger fleet ACL 228 Port Allen 95.7 New Orleans Upper Miss 52 Cape Gerardeau 90 St Louis 217 Illinois River mouth Ohio river lock mile markers 963 lock 53 939 lock 52 919 smithland lock 846 john T myers 776 Newburgh lock 721 Cannelton lock 607 Mcalpine lock louisville ky 532 Markland 341 Greenup lock 277 Gallipolis lock 238 Racine lock 204 bellview lock 167 Willow Island lock 123 Hannibal lock Hannibal OH 83 Pike Island Yorkville OH 54 New Cumberland lock New cumberland WV 65 montgomery lock 34 Dashields lock 21 Emsworth lock 0 Pittsburgh PA

Hello You
Hello you, have you seen me, lost in a maze of you. Hello you, where am I , caught between two worlds, yours and mine. Hello you, have you seen me, walking in shadows of love, never forgotten , never remembered. Hello you, what am I, a shell of flesh and bone, soul full empty in a pool of blood. Hello you, here I am, two hearts, one love,entangled in the sea of life. Hello you, here I am , wrapped around the love of you, forevermore. Written by M.Hesse AKA SavaDog All rights Reserved

Changing Pace..
it always seems like I'm stuck in a one sided situation. i find myself completely involved with someone that i don't think feels half of what i feel for them. Or maybe it's just their actions that don't reflect a two sided ordeal. I'm not sure what I'm doing here, but I'm hoping that it doesn't end like everything else. Mainly because i haven't felt like this for someone, in a long long while. No one's made me feel giddy like this in years. i love the feeling but at the same time i hate it because it means that I'm in quite a vulnerable position.

Moon Philosophy
At The Sight of the Full Moon, The Tables Will Turn, Like Time in the Sands of an Hour Glass, FOREVER CHANGING Written by M.Hesse AKA SavaDog All rights Reserved P.S.Wrote this many many years ago walking home at 3am.I looked up and seen a full moon and these words came to me.now every time I see a full moon I recite the peom.

She Just Wants Your Extra Time And Your....kiss!
She is quickly becoming one of my FAV's on the FU and she is MAD cool! PLEASE go show her some love! And send her Prince pics too, she loves him like I do hehehehe :D Love:Bizzare@ fubar PLEASE REPOST!! This has been another MILF production :-) The Baddest MILF® ~Chuckiiboo's MILFII POO@ fubar

I'm Chatting Aloud
Have you ever felt you want to disappear? I want to so bad. I have been married for 11 years and feel like I'm running and not getting anywhere. When I married my husband, I told him my games where done, Which I have never ever cheated or thought of cheating on my husband. But what do you do when he keeps telling you to find some one else? And telling me I am cheating? He says he wants to be my friend and I cann't anymore. He hurts my daughters feeling all the time anymore. I have lost all my old friends I have had for years. What else can I loose? My mind opps all ready done. I know none of what I wrote makes since oops...........sorry I know what I'm saying that is all that matters

Unconditionally
If once given from above,Then in hope once shall be given again, Within our hearts let us give, Unconditionally, As those who have given before us. In this I shall give the same to the best I can,With a smile in my eyes,Warmth in my heart,This I give to all those who will take of this, ~~~~~~~unconditionally~~~~~~~~ Written by M.Hesse AKA SavaDog All rights Reserved P.S. This one is published in one of the American poet society's books

Mirage
The night unfolds the mirage of my dreams In the stillness beneath silver moonbeams I lie vulnerable in subconscious state Oblivious to what adventures wait Hypnotizing holograms swirl through space Illusions of night spells trailing the chase Magical moments of enchanted trance Twirling in motion with fairytale dance Marching to music from Pied Piper’s spell Unfolding secrets in dreams that I dwell Walking through mirrors of starry-eyed haze Weaving through hallways of mystical maze Entering fantasy's realm of delight In shimmering dreams I'm a shining knight Then free falling down like hourglass sand And tumbling back to life’s silver strand Waking to find I am still lost in time Into the moment of dreams so sublime I find you waiting with passion so grand Holding my heart in the cup of your hand

So Far Away
SO FAR AWAY So far away, A heart yearns. So far away, A home thats missing. So far away ,Worlds apart. So far away , This dream could it be just a fantasy. So far away, I still believe, one love, my love. So far away!! Written by M.Hesse (AKA) Savadog All Words are originals. All rights Reserved

Damn Woot Wooot
HAHAH man I cant belive it Im going to be a happy man very soon here but as of right now im just like fuck im getting over a buzz and life rocks sometimes its little moments like this in life thats good

They Stood...
They Stand before all others They Walk miles farther then any others They face the heat They Face the cold They are stronger in spirit then i can write about. Remember us Honor Us Write about Us Kneel and pray for us They stand because no others will They stand so others do not have to They stand in the face of death With Determination on their faces Honor in their hearts and Loved ones on their minds History gave us them History almost forgot what they did But the 300 stood strong and by their example by their courage Our democracy was born. Now it is our time just as they did to stand strong to face all odds to honor their sacrifice by standing as they did. Honor is earned Sacrifice is given Courage is found And Hero's are those who stand as the 300 did for freedom for honor for country and before god. These days we multiple that 300 by 100 fold to insure less are lost and more return home. As the Spartans of old Our brothers an

Random Thoughts.
you know when you do something wrong, and you know it's wrong but you do it anyways?, than after like 30 sec you are like"what the fuck did i just do?" yeah.. bad thing.. i need to quit that. and cigarettes are bad. really bad.

Hold Me Close
Encompass me In Your loving embrace Caress my cheek With Your sweet kisses. Touch me softly Yet wantonly and with desire Let me feel The fire of Your love. Entwined bodies Hearts and minds Passion pouring forth Into the physical being of Love. Hold me as we Lay enraptured from our love Wrap your arms around me Hold me close to Your heart.

Come Bid On Me!!
OK PEEPS...THIS IS MY FIRST AUCTION, SO COME ON BY AND SHOW ME SOME LOVE!!CLICK THE LINK BELOW TO SEE WHAT I AM OFFERING AND PLACE YA BIDS.THERE WILL BE NO DRAMA, JUST LOADS OF FUN!!HAPPY BIDDING!!MS TAZCome on and Bid on Me!!

It Is Love
~This poem is dedicated to the woman that touches my body and soul and makes my heart race with love, lust and hope. I love you!~ It is Love I’m not sure how it started, But you came You came to me in the dark of the night Calling Pushing Fighting your way I longed for you to go To leave like all the rest But you stayed by my side And here we are Now there’s no looking back You called my name And I ran to you Your arms tightening their hold You called for me And reached out for me in the night Now I know what you have It’s called Love I held my breath and paused to wonder Where are you going And look where I’ve been You wanted me all the same You’ve loved me in night In morning In day And here you are still with me Always with me No looking back We have each other I long for your lips To reassure my doubt You ease my fear You show me the way I know what I feel It is Love I tried to push you out You went only a step back You held my ha

My Newest Video
I made another video. I plan in the upcoming days to make one similar except for Taiwan. That video will have photo and video with music. This video took a few hours to complete. Please provide me with feedback ok. :)

Halcyon
halcyon HAL-see-uhn, noun: 1. A kingfisher. 2. A mythical bird, identified with the kingfisher, that was fabled to nest at sea about the time of the winter solstice and to calm the waves during incubation. adjective: 1. Calm; quiet; peaceful; undisturbed; happy; as, \"deep, halcyon repose.\" 2. Marked by peace and prosperity; as, \"halcyon years.\"

New Song Work
These words of anger and hate swirl around my brain. The blood of the insane coursing through my veins. In this happy little world you live in. My kind never thrives but in the darkness you see that I am alive. Watch your world crumble at the sound of my voice. I see the wounds of my words bleed open and free. Now you see the evil inside of me. Never wanted it to be this way, but you woke the beast within me now he's on a rampage.

Info On Tulsa's July Party And Then Some
Send me a private message with your personal email NOW! Would love to share something with you. . . . whether or not you're able to attend! Thanks! Tulsa's Angel~ Club FAR Team Captain/Sarge's Bad Girl/RisingStar ~@ fubar

The Outlaw Torn - Metallica
And now I wait my whole lifetime For you And now I wait my whole lifetime For you I ride the dirt I ride the tide For you I search the outside search inside For you To take back what you left me YOU know I'll always burn to be The one who seeks so I may find And now I wait my whole lifetime I'm Outlaw of torn I'm Outlaw of torn I'm Outlaw of torn And I'm torn So long I wait my whole lifetime For you So long I wait my whole lifetime For you The more I search the more my need For you The more I bless the more I bleed For you You make me smash the clock and feel I'd rather die behind the wheel Time was never on my side So long I wait my whole lifetime Outlaw of torn Outlaw of torn Outlaw of torn And I'm torn Hear me And if I close my mind in fear Please pry it open See me And if my face becomes sincere Beware Hold me And when I start to come undone Stitch me together Save me And when you see me strut Remind me of what left this

Where Is She?
This song is for my baby i found the one im looking for already but this is just for her before i found her so i love my baby to death. here you go baby. NATALIE LYRICS "Where Are You" (feat. Justin Roman) [Justin] (I know you are out there baby...somewhere) There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there) I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name) This life-long search is gonna drive me insane How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes? Does she even realize I'm here? Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl? Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl? Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world? dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?) [Natalie] I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby) Praying that he will walk in my life Where

You Complete Me
I have never known Such openness between two people, Or shared as much As I have shared with you. It seems as though We are connected Two souls searching For an other to make complete. I can tell you anything You know me better Than I even Know myself. I want to give all I have To you as my offering My love, my heart, my body To complete who I am.

The Speed Of Pain - Marilyn Manson
They slit our throats Like we were flowers And our milk has been Devoured When you want it It goes away too fast Times you hate it It always seems to last Just remember when you think You're free The crack inside your fucking heart is me (thought, not spoken): I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day I wish I could sleep But I can't lay on my back Because there's a knife For everyday that I've known you When you want it It goes away too fast Times you hate it It always seems to last Just remember when you think You're free The crack inside your fucking heart is me (thought, not spoken): I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day Lie to me, cry to me, give to me I would Lie with me, die with me, give to me I would Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair always Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair always Lie to me, cry to me, give

Until It Sleeps - Metallica
Where do I take this pain of mine I run but it stays right by my side So tear me open and pour me out There's things inside that scream and shout And the pain still hates me So hold me until it sleeps Just like the curse, just like the stray You feed it once and now it stays Now it stays So tear me open but beware There's things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me until I'm clean It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you so hold me Until it sleeps So tell me why you've chosen me Don't want your grip Don't want your greed Don't want it I'll tear me open make you gone No more can you hurt anyone And the fear still shakes me So hold me, until it sleeps It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you, holds you, holds you until it sleeps (x4) I Don't want it want it want it want it want it No So tear me open but beware There's things

I Hold Your Love Dearly Lady Katherine
I stand here gazing at the fire place mantel A searing heat running through my veins Your hands glide over me strong yet gentle making me go insane you seem to be able to turn my feelings inside out creating a chaotic reaction , what are you about? this rush, this high how long will it last When it's over will you still be here or would you have run away fast Am I aloud to let my heart come to play? To let my emotions run free or will you leave with nothing to say disgusted or scared of me? I shiver in your arms unsure of whats to come about what new feeling will surface wondering if I should run for I know that after this act is complete my heart will be in your hands will you use it to wipe your feet? will you hurt me like so many have break my heart in two? will you leave me cold and alone? oh I wish I knew I could ask you but would you lie? should I trust you with my life? So now I ask myself Should I trust in you? long moments go by a

Fake Friends, Fake People, I'm Through With You
There seems to be truth behind it after all The things my friends and family tell me about you They have warned me about people like you Even told me it was you But I ignored them all Tried to see the good in everyone as I always do, until little by little the truth popped out of its hiding place. The dark corners of your reality came out into the open. I don’t know why I am so surprised, You being a liberal and all… Liberals don’t know any truth, don’t know whether to scratch their ass or wipe their elbow. It all started last year I would say, when you got a kick out of scaring me so much I had to leave work. Then here and there you broke promises. I caught you in lies. Then you call me your best friend when we have only met each other twice, both less than 5 minutes! Your reality is so warped! You are so fake! And what you did recently, topped it all off. I could care less what your reasoning was or is, regardless, you crossed the line. And now I see what everyone

Contest!!!
HEY!!! guess what? i'm in a sexiest ass contest... make sure you go check it out!!! click on the pic and it should take you right to it... if not let me know so i can fix it... NOW YOU BETTER SHOW MY 'ASS' SOME LUVIN!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Digital
I count the time with you in LCD readout numerical expressions of you You fade momentarily and I drift then awaken in alarm to your passions. Flashing, your anger disarms me, I am powerless forgive me. And in the darkness, in the faint glow of twilight we touch with a rhythm a motion and join in timeless ecstasy.

The Blessing And Curse
I used to think that something was seriously wrong with me. I have never, in my whole life, mixed well with people my age. I gravitate towards people younger than myself, or significantly older. Or those individuals my age that I DO get along with, are like me....kind of weird, generally loners or outcasts. And they're all intelligent, I mean, far too smart for their own good. I grew up an only child. This limited my interaction with peers my age. I never quite grasped that socialiization that most people take for granted. My siblings are significantly younger than I am. And the only people I was ever exposed to, from an early age, were my parents' friends. This fact used to bother me. I used to get self-conscious because I figured something was wrong with me, I didn't fit in, and I wanted desperately to be liked. And at that same time I loathed the idea of being a part of a clique. I both wanted the acceptance and shunned the company. And I sound like Bukowski.

Her Eyes
glitter-graphics.com written by:Late NIte Fantasy to Lady Katherine Its all in her eyes, everything she is, was, would, will, could... be - her wants, dreams, wishes; her pain, hurts, sadness; her heart, soul. I see her smile, though she isn't - even when she is. I feel her warmth yet she's so terribly cold... at least to herself but not for me. I know the 'love' within her - I know its there, I 'see' it with every look, everyday and everywhere. She can't hide from me - anything from me, just from herself. She wants to give - thinks that she doesn't, can't, and won't ever... give. Doesn't know how to, nor just what to - give or, for all that matter, be. But she 'gives' so much that she doesn't know... she gives herself to me... ever and always - with every look. I know her 'fear'... and the reasons - all the why's. The lil lies she tells herslf and tries so hard to believe. The tears held within, all her 'moments' afraid. W

Rain N Love
As i sit here staring at the rain falling from the sky.... I tell myself your such a lucky guy... If i were a raindrop falling to the ground... Life would be too short and end with so little sound... As i sit here listing to the rain... I know i should never ever complain... If i were a raindrop falling from above... Life would be too short and never be filled with love...

You Wwe Pieces Of Crap!!!!
I cannot believe that I actually put up with this BS!!!! I have been a loyal WWE WWF WCW FUCKING WRESTLING fan my entire life! I do not like that fact that not only all I can do is BITCH about WWE but I can't stop watching the fucking thing out of loyalty. WHEN YOU TREAT FANS LIKE YOU DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHY SHOULD WE GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR FUCKING CORPORATION!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU WWE FUCK THE MOTHER FUCKING FUCK OFFFFFF!!!!! In case you are wondering they stripped the Undertaker. Big deal huh.... well IT IS A BIG FUCKING DEAL! THE MAN HAS BEEN WITH WWE(F) SINCE 1990 OR 91 I can't quite remember (too much rum) anyway he deserves respect!!! IS IT A CHOKE HOLD REALLY????????? How is it that it slid through multiple PPVs since JANUARY but until Edge got his ass handed to him....whatever. It is just a fucking show. Who gives a damn. Never mind the fact that wrestling got me through my mother nearly dying of a brain tumor multiple times when I was in elementary school (it

Untitled
My heart is dark and weary,for I have lost all control of moral being.Unleashed are the feelings of sorrow,of suffering,like a vast shadow of emptiness bearing down upon my soul. For the fires of hate and pain burn within me.All hope is lost forever in the pit of nothingess. The dreams and wishes which were once a constant memory have now become shattered,forever tormented am I of the past,haunted for eternity,for I am bound to these visions,to these memories.

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Shit That Was Today
This started out being a mumm, asking a question, but was too long n drawn out to post so I am blogging. This is the deal...someone involved with my family was in a fight today, and ended up knifing someone else, and didn't really care, he was layin on the couch, like any other day. My grandchildren witnessed this fight, as did my step daughter. Well this person is around my grandchildren all the time and brought the knife into the house with blood on it, where my grandchildren live. So as I was leaving with my granddaughter I called 911 and let them know what happened, they already had cops on the scene, I stopped by and talked to them, gave them details that I knew. Well subsequently he was arrested and the police searched the house, found the knife, and drugs. My step daughter's mother took the baby, 3 months old mind you, to the ER because he was very irritable, and inconsolable. He is being kept for observation overnight. They ran a blood n urine test on him, and co

She Is Special
I wrote this last year...I know I'm not very great at writing, so yeah, here it is.. Her face is of an angel,so heavenly with elegant beauty.Her eyes are like the sun piercing through the sky,gazing down upon you,full of brightness as the stars.Her lips are soft,red like a rose,the softest of the soft. Looking upon her is like seeing heaven on earth right before you.Her words are full of joy and laughter,like the goodness of hope and love,encouraging,refreshing. Her beauty is so pure and natural,there are no words with which to describe it. She is and always will be, a dream come true. Ich Liebe dich fur immer mein Engel.I cherish you,I adore you,I love you

A Shadow Of A Smile
So... I have had alot of people make comments about the title "shadow of a smile" and I'm constantly asking why I'm so sad. Actually, I got the title from a poem I wrote and I thought I'd share it.... Fallen angel that fell so fast, Remember the life you thought would last? Broken beauty torn and tattered, The glass you gracefully danced upon has finally shattered, The silhouette of a happy soul, the shadow of a smile, Calloused hands and blistered feet, You've more than walked your mile, So blur into the background, sink into the surface, Let go of the ledge you held onto, it now serves no purpose, Fall into a dead sleep away from reality, And I'll meet you in the middle, on the edge of insanity. No I'm not depressed and yes I do actually like to smile. But I do like to think of myself as a shadow... I like to go unnoticed and sort of blend in. I'll probably never handle attention well, it's just not something I'm comfortable with. So there is the meaning behi

Apollo Says
"How the hell did will and grace run so long?" I say falling into an unfamiliar couch, my sport coat snagging on my elbows a bit with the sudden motion. Damnable garment. I untuck the maroon shirt that I wore on the offchance I splatted a wine that I refused to drink anyway. Stuff smelled like feet, but at least the company of elite youthful executive wannabes kept me entertained. "I say buffy, but have you ever seen so many peasants so upset over the price of gas" "I do say chip, whatever would we do if we were common? Starve ourselves by saving our pittances til we could afford an ounce of caviar and that greasey, stiffly creamy patte'?" "How could we fuel our enormous urban assault vehicles on such pitiable wages?" I wonder how many of them know how to make braunschweiger taste like foie gras. Or as I like to call it "faux gras" but I think some tempeh grower beat me to the punch. I forget just how many liverwerst and braunschweiger recipes I came up with. Liver couscous

Red T-shirt Thing
If the Red shirt thing is new to you, read below... Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together. After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home. No, he responded. Heading out I asked? No. I'm escorting a soldier home. Going to pick him up? No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq ; I'm taking him home to his family. The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days. I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, Thank you. Thank you for doing what you do so my family and I can do what we do. Upon landing in Chicag

If The Red Shirt Things Is New To You, Please Read This (supporting Our Troops)
when i read this bully it made me cry and im man enough to admit it because i have been in there escorting a fallen member of my unit home and everything went right until i got into the airport thats when i was yelled at and called a baby killer i even had a few people say that my falllen comrad got what he had coming to him as a marine myself i took this story hard to the heart but im glad that everything went right for him its hard enough brining home a fallen serves member but to get a hard time from americans realy bites and its kind of hard to go back and fight for there freedom when they call u baby killers when u come homewhen i got home for good i came home in realy bad shape im talking about being shot 3 times and losing both my wife and son all with in a week of being shot and when i got off the plane in a wheelchair in uniform i was expecting a worm welcome home but thats not what i got or the other 5 people i cme home with 2 fallen and 1 other wounded like myself and one co

Stolen From Jedi, Who Stole From Sam, Who Stole From Stacie
A is for age: 32... the little fucktards at work tonight were talking about how "old" their parents were and a couple of them were close to my age. B is for beer of choice: Ewww.. don't do beer. Like Smirnoff though. C is for career right now: LMAO... I'm a concession stand worker at a drive-in movie. D is for your dog's name? Emma E is for essential item you use everyday Toothpaste F is for favorite TV show at the moment? I haven't been watching much TV lately. G is for favorite game? The Movies... just rediscovered it last night. H is for Home town: Plymouth, IN I is for instruments you play: Flute J is for favorite juice: Not a big juice drinker... I like kool-aid though K is for whose butt you'd like to kick: This skanky chick who told me I needed to be committed. L is for last place you ate: Work M is for marriage: ooohh... that one's complicated... N is for your full name: Kara Michelle Peregrine O is for overnight hospital

Apology
What's up... looks like I messed up... sorry bout that... I was stupid... The Aaron Berry I put before was the wrong one he is not a child abuser... so sorry for any umm shit that you might have thought happen! Gnomesayinnnn??? Errybody makes mistakes! Hope the person I dun did this to forgives me... if not its pizza under the table... even Scorpios can be stupid sometimes!!!

Crap Crap Crap,not Good
well i just got a phone call from a friend,,who is listening to his scanner,,he just heard that les then a quarter mile from my house is a hostage situation,what i have heard is some guy went crazy shot his wife and then had some kid hostage in the house,to find out he escaped and they dont know where he is,,not good at all.i walk outside and see helicopters everywhere and cops and dogs(shivers),,so now we are sorta kinda bnervouse sitting here wondering wht is going on,only way i know is from my friend who is still lsitening.i am now ready to go somewhere tonight,,and not be here

Happy Birthday To Everyone Whos Has A Birthday In This Month
I would like to wish everybody a happy birthday if they have one this month.Here's something for all of you out there. MyHotComments ~♥SexyBitch♥~ aka Krystina

* Fantasy Flight *
Join the ** Fantasy Flight ** New Friends! Quick and easy points! Level up! It's easy to join, very simple rules. 1. You must fan, rate, and add all the flyers on the list. Include "I'm a Fantasy flyer" in your request so you are sure to be added. If you are already friends with that person, leave that comment on their profile page. (If a flyer has made their profile private, just send them a message that you are a new flyer and want to f/r/a them) 2. Send me a private message telling me that you have f/r/a everyone so I can add you to the list. 3. You must fan and rate all new flyers when you accept their request. 4. This one is very important! NO DRAMA! Adding Fantasy Flyer to your name is optional. The Crew The Pilot In my dreams...or yours? ~*~ Shadow Leveler ~*~@ fubar The Co-Pilot CinDragon~FounderClubMystic~IBIC~fuOwner of 1969,MissCrys,LisaMarie&many others!@ fubar The Flyers EmilyIMAX ☆ THE IMAX EXPERIE

Nature Of Christianity (the Truth)
WHEN I SAY, "I AM A CHRISTIAN" When I say, "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting, "I’ve been saved!" I'm whispering, "I get lost! That's why I chose this way" When I say, "I am a Christian" I don't speak with human pride I'm confessing that I stumble— Needing God to be my guide When I say, "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong I'm professing that I'm weak And pray for strength to carry on When I say, "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success I'm admitting that I've failed And cannot ever pay the debt When I say, "I am a Christian" I don't think I know it all I submit to my confusion Asking humbly to be taught When I say, "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect My flaws are all too visible But God believes I'm worth it When I say, "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain I have my share of heartache, Which is why I seek His name When I say, "I am a Christian" I do not wish to judge I have no authority... I on

When I Godmothered .. My Ty~
I Finally Made ... GodMother!!!!! Yayyyy and I want to thanks some super special people!!! First Mikey For The GodFather list~ Mikey@ fubar Then ThckNLuvIt!!! she is soo awesome!!! ~♥~Thcknluvit~♥~@ fubar My awesome friends Magicsfun~ love you two!! Magicsfun~fu spouses to Dream Goddess@ fubar Wonderful Mz.B~ Love you Baby~ ღ•Mz.ß•ღ - Member of Club F.A.R & D.S.C & Shadow Levelers@ fubar Fantastic TomK Love you loads!! tomk@ fubar Sweet SBMO8~ kisses and hugs~ (he is also trying for spotlight.. plz donate) SBM08 ~Sergeant-at-Arms Rate Spankers Leveling Club*~Fu-Owned by Carolena838~**{{Shadow Levelers}}**@ fubar Sassy Stephanie Lynn~ love you doll!! Stephanie Lynn@ fubar Stunning HisSweetObsession~ hugs and kisses~ ♥HisSweetObsession♥ ~~ *Rate Spankers* ~~ *Shadow Levelers*@ fubar Beautiful MAIASIDHE Hugs and kisses MAIASIDHE

What Do You All Say?
I have a question for all of you and I hope that you will all give me some feedback on this one. What is it that all of these women on Fubar and other sights that have to show as much as they can in order to get replies? I am not saying that I don't love a beautifull womans body because I do. But I also would like to see a womans eyes. The eyes are the porthole to the soul and there is where you see the true person inside. As for me, but I know that I can not speak for all of us men and some of you women, I would love to be able to see more of your eyes when I look at the photos. So please leave some comments on this one for me when you read it. Thank you from your favorate vamp.

Don't Stop The Music
Please don't stop the music It's gettin late I'm making my way over to my favorite place I gotta get my body moving shake the stress away I wasn't looking for nobody when you looked my way Possible candidate (yeah) Who knew That you'd be up in here lookin like you do You're makin' stayin' over here impossible Baby I must say your aura is incredible If you don't have to go don't Do you know what you started I just came here to party But now we're rockin on the dance floor Acting naughty Your hands around my waist Just let the music play We're hand in hand Chest to chest And now we're face to face I wanna take you away Lets escape into the music DJ let it play I just can't refuse it Like the way you do this Keep on rockin to it Please don't stop the Please don't stop the music I wanna take you away Lets escape into the music DJ let it play I just can't refuse it Like the way you do this Keep on rockin to it Please don't stop the Please don't sto

Sign Of A Dying Empire
Sign of a Dying Empire A sign of a dying empire: When conscripts are made of men who believed themselves to be free, the State is in decay. For when, in pursuit of glory and empire, the unwilling are made to die for ends acclaimed by Leaders who embellish with words on high, the Spirit has left the Nation and it's soul is barren and dry. Such Empire is doomed to failure for Adventure has it's course, leaving for future generations an archaeological corpse.

I Am Worried...
Lately I have been having heart attacks. I have had two heart attacks in a spanning two weeks from each other. Doctors say that it may be tremors before the actual quake. They said it might cause a massive heart attack later... I am scared... Am I dying?

Gone From Fubar For Awhile And Why....
True friends will read this...the others it doesnt matter lol...as some of Ron and my mutal friends already know from his blog...we will be off Fubar for awhile...those of you who know us know he had a colostomy bag put on 8mo ago and now it is time to remove it. Hes scheduled for the end of may for that...before that happens we will be on vacation and getting ready for it. we will probably be back after hes recovered....but who knows lol its been fun and i have made some really good friends...and i love them to death :) when i joined Fubar i was single and pretty much had no life outside of work...it was something to do...now a year later my life has changed completely...I have a man i love very much and thru him a larger family...i lost my dad a couple of weeks ago and my mother is in bad health...my life is full. Summer is almost here...and i have learned life is short...you need to get out and enjoy it and spend time with people you love instead of living on the computer. some o

Holy War
Holy War There is something wrong in Uganda Children are waging war for God While Kashmir looks to be the end Of a land as ancient as Time And in the sands of the Holy Lands Cousins continue yet to vie To lay claim to a cursed rock Over here, in America, A Serpent raises up it's head Hearing only the clink of coffered coin As deaf to the cry of starving babes As the Atheist Dragon of China Consuming tidbits of Tibet With an expression most humane

Lease Help
IM FINALLY BACK AND I COULD REALLY USE SOME HELP FROM MY FRIENDS I JUST GOT BACK ON AND NOW IM IN A CONTEST NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD BE ME BUT I WOULD REALLY APRECIATE ANY HELP I CAN GET RATES OR COMMENTS IT RUNS FOR 7 DAYS WHO EVER GETS THE MOST COMMENTS AND RATES AT THE END OF THE 7 DAYS WINS A HAPPY HOUR SO PLEASE AT LEAST CHECK IT OUT I WOULD REALLY APRECIATE IT AND WILL TRY TO HELP ANYONE WHO NEEDS IT AS WELL MUAH THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR READING CUTIE WITH A BOOTIE (repost of original by '★☆sTaRr☆★Co'Owner of the Diamond Vault★ Fu-Owned by DDiamond1975' on '2008-05-02 19:44:05')

~*~to His House~*~
He was sitting in the car with me. How could he have moved from inside the bar into my vehicle so fast? Thousands of questions ran into my head and I stared open mouthed at him. I didn't really think he would harm me which was stupid and I knew it. Of course he was going to hurt me and there I sat unmoving looking at him with my mouth ajar. How idiotic, I thought. "Start the engine and pull out to the main highways," he said and I sat there for a few more seconds before complying to his demand. I thought about that for a while as I made my way down the streets to the main highway. It was a demand, not a request. He didn't say please or anything or even tell me why or where we were going. I felt this odd sense of adrenaline as I drove swiftly down the roads and carefully made it to the highway. The highway stretched through the entire state, though it did not leave it. I just hoped where we were going wasn't too far. I didn't want to be in danger, but I didn't want to be too far

Strip Away
Strip Away Strip away the flesh of your face, That mask which you hide behind. Stare through the sockets of empty eyes And declare then aloud your name. Can you survive such introspection, Severe in it's own simple way? Have you enough sight to see Beyond the realms of preconception? Who do you hide deep inside that illusion you show to the world? Is there some underneath belief That cannot bear the light of day? Strip away the disguise of your eyes And see who you are deep beneath.

The Wonders Of God
The Wonders of God Let us work at the wonders of God in our endless quest for eternal life, free from the inspired madness of youth. Let us admire the wonders of Man as they have inspired the open mind, as they lead us in our quest for the truth. Can you believe the impossible wonders we have stripped from the webs of this dream? Have you any need for further proof? If we can see unimaginable things and realize them as if a fluid dream had restored to us the wonder of youth; If we can see what it is we shall be, then, as the Gods had before us, we shall!

Have To Say...
Thanx to all my friends and family who has been ratin my stuff and leavin me profile comments, I really do appericate it all!!! But to all the others who NEVER rate nothin, Or leave me profile comments I will be deletin you off my friend list...And won`t be addin you back!!!

Certain Sins
Certain Sins Wanna come see my collection of sins? I've saved up several sorts you know; From the pathetic and the banal To the stupendous and the grand... Every sort; and I keep them in a box Safely stashed beneath my bed Where none but I can reach them with ease. I treasure my sins, don't you know? Commonplace peccadilloes aside, Certain sins it is wise to hide Deep in a place within your head, To take to the grave when you are dead. These are the sins of vainglorious Pride, Spoken when all that you see is red.

50 Odd Facts About Me
what the hell......? 1) Do you like blue cheese? yessum 2) Have you ever smoked heroin? WTF!!!? is this a serious question...? 3) Do you own guns? No but i love weapons. hehe 4) What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? Diet raspberry lime aid WHERE IS #5??? fuck if i know and i really don't care. 6) What do you think of hot dogs? gross.... unless they are kosher or turkey 7) Favorite Christmas song? Ticha Noc (it is czech) 8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? boathouse farm vanilla chai protein drink hehe 9) Can you do push ups? i better be able to or i won't have a job anymore 10) Can you do a chin up? *putting hands on my hips proudly* yes... yes i can. 11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry? my silver bracele

Where Antiquity Sleeps
Where Antiquity Sleeps I lie here where Antiquity sleeps In a garden of desert sand, Sleeping with Kings, with Counselors too, And common, ordinary men like you. What will the world be when I wake? I sleep here with warriors, men like myself, For causes more noble than our lives were worth. Will they remember us with a cairn To mark the victory of my fall? What will the world be when I wake? I can only pray War's day is done When they find my mummified remains And they announce the cause of my death to be Just another case of a mad old man.

Timeless Space Of Mind
Timeless Space of Mind Integrate Real-Time into this segment Just to see what in the hell happens Cause Causality to crash to a halt And welcome thoughts of eventual demise For Fate has cast her eyes upon you You know full well that you cannot escape So then why even try to resist When the slip-stream steals you away To that temporal demise beyond the womb Shattering hopes that you exist at all Can you understand these notions you swim in Or doth the depth deceive your Psyche Mocking all that you deign to believe In that timeless space of mind

Rotate This World
Rotate This World Rotate this world inside itself for a while Feel the falling stars beneath your feet As they twinkle and burn like moths aflame Then chase Tomorrow back to where it began and start Yesterday all over again Far-gone those conclusions of reality Those shadow flickers on the walls of caves Mandalas instead and wheels within wheels A never-ending, continuing spiral Twisting amongst itself to rise and to fall Chase the White Rabbit wherever you may And listen close to what the flowers say Trust not to what is but to what could be Within that looking-glass world that you see

Drunk, Wha?
Okay, so my boyfriend at the time wanted to go to the bar with a few of our friends. He comes home... and this is what happens. Mind you, there's a wee bit a dick slapping, homo lovin' and flying pizza that we couldn't find. Enjoy fuckers. :p

Respectable Echoes
Respectable Echoes (a Pushkin sonnet) Respectable echoes of far forgotten things Intrude unrequested into my most private thoughts Influencing my dreams with the most bizarre themes And revealing to me more than it is I sought Faithless I stand sated and watch the morrow fade To the ordinary cadence of a soft parade Eternity is endless no matter what they say The Future is just the sum of every yesterday Static image impressions remain before my eye When the soft release of sleep is all that I seek Lingering like phantoms who were born to haunt the deep From which I cannot gain release no matter how I try Liken this to Sysiphus or a hanging albatross For either way, regretfully, I mourn the mornings loss

Not Even The Time Of Day - 4.26.06
I wrote this back in 2006. April 26th, 2006 to be correct! Not Even The Time Of Day Will The Tears Shed Not Even The Time Of Day Will My Wall Crumble Not Even The Time Of Day Will My Life Fall Not Even The Time Of Day Will I Give You My Will Not Even The Time Of Day Will He Have The Slight Power Not Even The Time Of Day you ass...

Muah
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Untitled - 5.15.06
This image keeps replaying and replaying in my head. Everytime I close my eyes, that moment is clear as rain. It makes me smile, but at the same time, makes my stomach turn and my head hurt. Somehow, I have to get over this. I just CAN'T...I made me happy. Now, as I go through the feelings of confusion, sad, mad, and happy make my feet swell and my bones ach. All those emotions, in the state I am now, making me act not like myself. Or, is this me? The new me? Who is "me"? Why must I think about your tender kiss that still rests apon my lips?

Invisible Coffins
Invisible Coffins Invisible coffins covered up by night, Draped in a flag and then hidden from sight As if they were shameful and best kept unseen. No cameras are allowed to witness the scene As they disembark from their final flight. So many stars and they all burned so bright, Lost to a limbo of terror and fright. Is this what's left of the American dream? ____________________Invisible coffins? Something is wrong here; there's something not right. How can we honor those who died in this fight When their bodies are brought back behind a screen? What is the lifespan of a lie so obscene That our dead can't be exposed to the light? ____________________Invisible coffins!

Untitled - 5.15.06
Thoughts like these shouldn't be although things, they were because of me AND I hinted along for your wonderful mind to jumble and for all those ragging thoughts was this action that took place a mishap? an act of passion? now. this image can't leave but no worries, I'm only freaking out every emotion possible rushing, gushing, and spewing

It Is Time
It Is Time It is time for us now to disband the law It is time that we declared freedom for all It is time to place the perversions of priests Into History's trash heap where they belong It is time to conquer fears of a far-gone age It is time to seek Truth beyond the written page It is time to celebrate the subtle differences Which have so subdivided this singular race Speak to me not of your clans and tribal creeds Speak to me not of any pride or bigotry Speak to me not of Gods of worn-out welcome Sated upon the sacrificial blood of Man Speak to me only of a future wherein It was time we saw ourselves in each other

Pay It Forward! Still Time....to Get It Done!
Do Unto Others...Pay It Forward...Whatever you want to call it! You know how it goes right? You FAN/ADD and RATE each of these FUs that have showed loved to others and I will pimp you in the next bulletin so the love comes back to you! These Fu's need some extra lovin' cause they waited a few days longer to get Pimped! I've got lots going on but... I'M Keepin' My Pimp Hand Strong! HAHAHAHAHAHAH! So, get it done, and get pimped yourself! freakylibra**queen-buckma$ter**greeeter@jensbbwfortress**@ fubar This Monster Lives ♥s One Sexy BBW (Spankers/Shadow Leveler)@ fubar Abby♥Normal@ fubar blackpanthersrevenge72@ fubar ~GreenEyez1103~ Fu-Owned by ♥cottonblossom♥~Please Read My Profile Before You Add Me!!@ fubar ~BABS~ ""GODMOTHER""@ fubar leannan owned

Birthday Cake Disaster
So this is when I was living with my boyfriend at the time. And honestly, I really don't remember where he was when this happened. I think he was at my neighbor's. But anyhow, it was a friend of mine's birthday so I figured I'd bake him a cake, get him drunk, cook him a nice meal (Not in that order, mind you). Well, the couple of people who were there, figured, we're going to stick the candles into the HOT cake and ... well... you'll see. By the way, my friend whose birthday it was, was completely shitfaced, in my bathroom pukin' up what was left in his stomach. So enjoy. Hah.

A Question From That Man In Back
A Question From That Man In Back Mr. President, I'd like to ask a question, One that concerns the current state of the nation; And I'd like if you answered with all honesty For this is a matter of your integrity And of your oath to protect the Constitution. For it appears, sir, that your Administration, In patriotic zeal and self-adulation, Has developed a contempt for democracy, ____________________Mr. President. At issue are the interests of corporations And just how much they influence your decisions In both our domestic and foreign policy. Sir, this is a question of credibility; Just how deep were you involved in this deception, ____________________Mr. President?

Live Life Like It's Your Last Day
Those who know me, know part of who I am and why I am the way I am. Those who don't...this will provide some insight. I live my life with purpose. I try to inspire others and guide them to realize that life is too short. I grew up a "delinquint" thanks to my childhood being shattered at an early age. I had a baby at age 16 after I was sexually assaulted. My son, Justin, was born at 30 wks premature and the docs gave him a year to live. Well my angel made it to almost 4 yrs old. I was out to sea in the Navy when I got the dreaded call that my baby boy had died in his sleep. I thought I had built a strong enough wall around my heart at that point, but that message from my parents and the Red Cross that day shattered those walls quicker than the Berlin Wall falling. I was put on suicide watch for a week until I could get home. I found out after the autoposy was done that tho he was almost 4 yrs old, his lungs were the size of a 1 yr old baby so he could not get enough air into his lung

Now, America
Now, America Now that we have unleashed the dogs And sacrificed in blood to God, Should we at all be concerned for home Now that we are in this world alone, Lest we fall victim to demagogues? We watched the war through media fog; Stunning scenes in tele-photog... Switch the channel on your cell phone _________________________Now! View the models for the new stalag, Custom built for the broken cog. There's steady employment breaking stones And a common plot to rest your bones; So come check out the new catalog _________________________Now!

The Have Names
They Have Names They have names, these dead, you see on TV, These corpses floating on a desert sea; Awash within the glory they had won, Bloating bodies 'neath the blistering sun, They have names just the same as you and me. We're told they died so that we can be free From the imminent threat of Iraqis. Is there any way to wish this undone? ____________________They have names... Can you imagine the sheer irony Of trying to force a democracy On a people from the end of a gun? Such is the scheme of the Privileged Son As he fosters a homeland tyranny. ____________________They have names...

Becoming?
> the me that you know he doesn't come around much that part of me isn't here anymore all pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry drowns out all i hear no escape from this my new consciousness the me that you know he used to have feelings but the blood has stopped pumping and he's left to decay the me that you know is now made up of wires and even when i'm right with you i'm so far away i can try to get away but i've strapped myself in i can try to scratch away the sound in my ears i can see it killing away all of my bad parts i don't want to listen but it's all to clear hiding backwards inside of me i feel so unafraid annie, hold a little tighter i might just slip away it wont give up it wants me dead goddamn this noise inside my head [8x]

Remembrance Day, 9-11
Remembrance Day, 9-11 Let us raise a cairn to the dead On this day of grief and sorrow; A monument for the Ages, Impressive in proportion To the grief we felt at their loss. Let us, a nation uniting, Lift up our voice in song and psalm To those we remember today; _______________Let us raise... Let us, this nation united, As we reflect upon this day, Choose wise how we honor their lives; We can seek the sins of vengeance Or we can choose to rise above. _______________Let us rise!

Army* Life
Im 20 yrs ol currently in kuwait serving n the US ARMY i reside in Washington state but stationed in Fort Polk louisiana i like rugby loves whiskey i love with all my heart, hockey love the beach love the outdoors

Raise Up Your Arms!
Raise Up Your Arms! Raise up your arms in disgust and frustration Over the current state of the nation For executive lies and duplicity Have smeared the President's integrity With the stain of corporate prostitution Once we've impeached this Administration For the reason of high crimes and treason Who then shall determine our destiny? ____________________Raise up your arms! It's time we demanded our politicians Respect and honor the Constitution For we shall never submit to tyranny And We the People will fight to stay free So all those in favor of revolution, ____________________Raise up your arms!

Propose A Lie
Propose A Lie Propose a lie published upon Page One Whisper a retraction two weeks later No one will recall the reasons why Just the lingering shock of realizing Terrorism's the State of the Union What tank thinks for the Commanding Chief Whilst he goes off a-hunting for snarks? Incredible how gullible we are... ____________________Propose a lie Is there any available outrage Left in these pre-fab suburban streets To decry the destructive designs Of predatory prep-school Princes And their wild whimsy of One World Rule? ____________________Propose a lie

The World Recoils
The World Recoils The world recoils in absolute horror At what hells we can now produce When we set our sights on suicide All in the name of patriot pride Hiding behind the colors of tribe Genocide disguised as pesticide And pestilence in a populous place To suns setting o'er millions of lives ____________________The world recoils Very few men in this world today Hold the power of puppet strings Fostering dreams with empirical themes They tighten the grips on our lives With convincing 'friends' on TV screens ____________________The world recoils

Burn Me
Burn Me Burn me a new window In this world I call my own So I may see once again The fields of another day However far away The Hangman overlooked me Because I am already a ghost The best that they could do is _______________Burn me Tracing grace upon her face I looked to the Heavens above And dreamt of the Hells below Then swore, if this be Love's brand, Thrust it into my heart and _______________Burn me

Dreaming I Saw Death At Cafe Zimbabwe
Dreaming I Saw Death At Cafe Zimbabwe I saw Death in Africa last night wielding a bloody scythe, Reaping through rows of children once conceived with hopeful seed In a harvest too horrid to be seen in my dreams; For a garden of stones to mark the bones of victims sprang forth From every drop of human blood to fall upon the earth. Bio-chemical warfare waged in the stomach of a waif; Her dark eyes tragic, beautiful in a drawn mask of despair. Into those eyes, as deep, as rich as pools of Iraqi tea, _________________________I saw Death. Despair poured out upon the ground the last decanter of Hope While Misery sipped her tea sweetened with a touch of Fear. Not far away, Tragedy and Lord Hunger sat to chat; Much was discussed, the Human Race, a little of this and that. And sitting around waiting as if with amusement on his mind, _________________________I saw Death.

Remember Zimbabwe
Remember Zimbabwe Remember Zimbabwe in your prayers tonight Remember the children who will die Remember before you lay down your head To say a prayer for the mornings dead When Lord Hunger claims the African night As the Eagle rises (oh what a sight!) To make mockery of a desperate plight A faint voice was heard to have said ____________________"Remember Zimbabwe..." As we prepare to express our might And do what it is we believe is right Let us remember that child in her bed For the oil in her veins bleeds all too red And there is desperation in her eyes ____________________Remember Zimbabwe

Lonely Tears In My Eyes
Where is my life taking me Some places I never wanna be The depression an hurt I endure everynite Just wish I was the one to see the light He takes good people even the bad Why must you hurt us an make us all sad They say theres a god we will all find out Take it away I gonna scream an shout Hes here to get him he dont want u to cry Just smile with those tears in your lonely eyes written by alec serr

Steer Me
Steer Me Steer me far across that river of forgotten sacred water to where memories go to die. Let me with the greatest sigh forget all that I remember. I feel Psyche start to quiver as Charon's hand grips the rudder beneath those Lethean skies... _______________Steer me... Pick for me the perfect flower, place it on my funeral bower and please, do not for me cry. Let me bid this world goodbye with my last words just a whisper, _______________"Steer me..."

Tax Rebate
Help America - spend your rebate wisely. The federal government is sending each and every one of us a $600 rebate. If we spend that money at Wal-Mart, the money will go to China. If we spend it on gasoline it will go to the Arabs or Venezuela. If we purchase a computer it will go to India. If we purchase fruit and vegetables it will go to Mexico, Honduras, and Guatemala. If we purchase a good car it will go to Japan. If we purchase useless crap it will go to Taiwan and none of it will help the American economy. The only way to keep that money here at home is to buy prostitutes and beer, since these are the only products still produced in the US. Thank you for your help.

Forgive Me
Forgive Me Forgive me these sins I plan to commit In the name of my own base desire They matter not in the least to me For I am the King of all I see The master of my own destiny This puzzle I am, the pieces don't fit To that which it is I aspire And I wonder oft how this could be ____________________Forgive me There are pages yet which are still unwrit And I plan to fill this book entire But I will not bow to hypocrisy Nor compromise my integrity And if this to you is blasphemy ____________________Forgive me

Rules
1. if you plan on entering a contest then please let me know so i can get it all squared away before it starts if you chose not to let me know before hand then you may not get the help that you would have if i knew about it prior. 2. there must be bombing activity coming from you. i will be watching and seeing if you are.. if i see no activity then i will send you a warning if i see it again then you are out.. i understand that sometimes things happen just let me know so im aware of it. we like dedicated bombers the kind that max out their comments not the leave a few comments here and there. 3. there is to be NO drama what so ever if there is you will be asked to leave immediatly.. i will not tolerate that. this is for fun not starting trouble. 4. you must check the homepage daily to see if there is any new blogs for up coming contests and contests that are going on and etc.. please leave a comment so that way i know that you were there and you read about it. if there is som

Life
iam a person that love life but has handed me a bad hansd some times. i have become a wido at the age 25 years and i trying to see what there is to live for but i rember that ther is somthing to live for i have a little girl that rimend why and he lives in her every day he will never leav us not relly.

Confusion, Subject Jumping, And Mindless Rambles.
Is it a bad thing to hold a grudge? Does that make me a horrible person if I cannot seem to forgive and forget? I wonder this all too often. Today has definitely ran the gamut of emotions. I laughed some. I cried some. I spent most of the day annoyed. Why can't i have my cake and eat it too? What good is cake if I can't fucking eat it? I wish I could make up my mind about a billion various important things. I want to walk away and leave this all behind, but at the same time. I want things I've always longed for. In the end, it's two completely different things. In case you didn't figure it out.. I am ridiculously indecisive. I've spent far too much time this last week in cognitive dissonance. I'm fed up with my emotions being everywhere. I'm trying to clean up my act, unfortunately I heavily enjoy the things that need to be cut out of my life for this to occur. I am running on burn-out. One of the IT guys that works for the college gave me concerts in Florida (now

Kathy Loves You.... Love Her Back!
She is in a contest... wanna help her win???!?!? Prizes are as follows: 1st Place: 1 Blingy Pack, 1 Three Day Blast and 100,000 FuBucks 2nd Place: 1 Three Day Blast and 50,000 FuBucks 3rd Place: 1 One day Blast and 5000 FuBucks

A Sad/happy Wknd 5-3-08
well this wknd i'm going to denver so that my daughter can fly back to live with my x wife.i'm starting to get sad that i'm losing my daughter again because she isnt happy living with my wife and i.we've tried everything to make this kid happy and have gotten her medical help for her depression and anger problems but again it hasnt worked so she is going back to pennsylvania to try again.i'm happy i'm getting rid of the problems she causes but she is still my daughter and i love her even with all her problems.

Self Destructing
i am the high you can't sustain. . . . . and i control you i am the pusher i'm a whore. . . . . . . and i control you i am the need in you for more. . . . . . and i control you i am the bullet in the gun. . . . . . . and i control you i am the truth from which you run . . . and i control you i am the silencing machine. . . . . . . and i control you i am the end of all your dreams . . . . and i control you i take you where you want to go i give you all you need to know i drag you down i use you up mr self destruct

Stolen From Sam, Via Stacie
A is for age: 29, will be 30 in Novemeber. B is for beer of choice: GUINESSr C is for career right now: I don't have one. D is for your dog's name? No DOg Of My OWn E is for essential item you use everyday Clothes F is for favorite TV show at the moment? Dexter G is for favorite game? Mind Games?...Ya'RLY! H is for Home town: Born in St Paul, MN I is for instruments you play: I wanna play the DIG! J is for favorite juice: Pear K is for whose butt you'd like to kick: Anyone who harms my circle L is for last place you ate: Ho(pizza hut) M is for marriage: Eventually, YES N is for your full name: James Robert Hill J.R. O is for overnight hospital stays: yes P is for people you were with today: My Love, and the family Q is for quote: "And when I vest my flashing sword And my hand takes hold in judgement I will take vengeance upon mine enemies And I will repay those who hase me O Lord, raise me to Thy right hand And count me a

A Few Favorites.
A few of my favorites. They just came off the top of my head. If I think really hard I could probably come up with about a million more. Here's 100 Cool ones. I was in a few bands as a singer so I can appreciate almost everything but I LOVE The dark, heavy shit. These ones are the easiest to sing. Even though I might not sound exactly like the singer, I can be pretty awesome and be called, "Close enough". 1. Metallica- Enter Sandman 2. Metallica- Creeping Death 3. Metallica- "Am I Evil" (Diamondhead cover) 4. Metallica- Seek and Destroy. 5. Metallica- The Unnamed Feeling 6. Metallica- Invisible Kid 7. Metallica- Of Wolf and Man 8. Iron Maiden- Run to the Hills 9. Iron Maiden- The Trooper 10. Iron Maiden- Number of the Beast 11. Iron Maiden- Reincarnation of Benjamin Breeg 12. Iron Maiden- Rainmaker 13. Iron Maiden- Flight of Icarus 14. Grand Funk Railroad- We're An American Band 15. Boston- Peace of Mind 16. Kansas- Wayward Son 17 Pantera-

After The Rain
glitter-graphics.com AFTER THE RAIN BY:LADY KATHERINE MY LADY SET AMONGST THE PAPER WALLS LOOKING THROUGH HER WINDOW PANE HER PAST HAS TRAVELLED MANY MILES AND THY HEART STUMBLES AS THE PIECES FALLS FROM THE SHATTERED DREAMS ALONG THE WAY. AMIDST THE CASTLE WALL MY LADY AWAKENS TO A DIFFERENT WORLD AND TIME,AND SHACKLES THAT BOUND HER.HER TEARS FELL FINDING THEIR WAY TO THE STONES AND MORTAL BENEATH HER FEET.HER HEART HEAVY.AND CARE NOT OF THE EVENTS OF SEASONS AFTER SEASONS.SHE GAVE NOTHING BACK NO MORE.KEPT WITIN THE CASTLE BOUNDARIES ,NOW STEELING HER BREATH.SHE SEES ONLY THE DARKNESS OF A MOONLIT NITE,AND SWALLOW HARD.HER FOOLISH CRIES.HEAR NOT-SEE NOT,AN ACHING NEED. HER PAIN SUBSIDE IN THE PITS OF HER OWN HELL,AND OFTEN JOURNEY TO THE UNKNOWN.HER VOICE SILENCE TO THE FEAR,AND HER DESIRES DARE NOT COMETH FORWARD.SHALL THERE WILL THERE COME A DAY,WHEN FATE WILL SLIDE THE KEY UNDER THE DUNGEON DOOR AND FREE HER THAT BINDS HER.SHE PRAYED IN THE STILLENSS OF THE N

A Guy With His Own Angel, By Ashley
With him she will always be, She will cherish every moment for all Eternity.. Her love for him feels so right and so true... She will guide him through the darkest nights, She will be his light for the rest of his life. She will catch him in her wings and comfort him if he ever should fall.. She will softly wipe any tears that may fall from his eye's... She will wrap him in her soft white wings if he is ever sad.. She will her wings around him every day for the rest of his life, And whisper softly the powerful words... I LOVE YOU... Through good and ill she will be there, To say a prayer in mid air, She will take him in her wings, To a place where there love begin's... it is here where there hearts and souls will sing songs of love... It is here where the love will be like two little white Doves.. And there love for each other will be for all Eternity...

My Response To Dark Side From An Ex Amanda Who Claims To Be "gothic"
Ummm what kind of spelll did you put me on God is with you God loves his children and you will repent and end up going to Hell if you don't want to come God your not a child of Christ our lord Jesus Christ!!!!!!! Satan i rebuke you out of everyones life i will save thee in Gods hands your not along Because God is watching your every move HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's funny as Hell!!! Oh yeah, and she tells me that I'm "Going to Hell" like it's a bad thing. LOL.

Everybody Is Doing It So, I Did It
haha, no not what ur thinking i did that a loooong time ago :p i see everyone making a amazon wish list and ive had plenty of time on my hands so i did too. i very seriously doubt ill get anything on it but hell y not right?

Monday
Have you ever had something that was coming up and the closer you get to the date, the more worried you became. Thats how I feel now. Lately Ive been having dreams and feelings that Monday will be the last day I have on this earth. It scares me to know that Ill leave my beautiful kids, and the people I love. I have even thought about cancelling it, but if its my time to leave, then its my time. My reaccuring dream begins with me being prepped for the surgery that I am undergoing on Monday. Nothing unusual about that, ive been thru enough surgeries to know what goes on. They do the usual, put me under and during the procedure my heart rate drops, and i lose blood. During the whole thing I have ppl that I love around me, and they are saying that they love me and they need me. I tell them they shouldve said that before I died, that they shouldve let me know. Then there is only white, and there stands my lil angel and my brave son. Thats when I wake up and cry. If youre reading this

From Ashley 4/27/2008
Lovers meet, Feel the heat Candlelight, Fire bright Shadows dance, Wicked glance Sip of wine, Limbs entwine Arms enfold, Hands grow bold Fingers seek, Knees grow weak Eyes implore, Ask for more Lips excite, Tease and bite Tongues glide, Slide, collide Hearts pound, Fevered sound Groins press, Rub, caress Passions rise, Throaty cries Clothes are shed, Beside the bed Bodies join, Groin to groin Stab and thrust, Lost in lust Sighs and moans, Gasps and groans Mounting force, Hot sweet source Heaving rush, Flooding gush Weakened bliss, Deep wet kiss Wrapped in pleasure, Nighttime treasure Lovers sleep, In hot damp heap

Stay Alive!!!
The sky turned from black to red, Missiles fly through the air. Millions of Demons run through your head, People around don't seem to care. The End of the World is lurking near, Start running for your guns. The Antichrist is coming soon, THERE'S NOWHERE YOU CAN RUN!!! Get inside, there's nowhere you can hide. Step into reality. Life can be a bitch, don't let it throw you into a ditch. It's time to survive, let's stay alive! Walking through the blood-red streets, Thinking about your family and friends. Now is no time to be depressed, WE'LL BE KICKIN' ASS IN THE END! A new sun is about to rise, Be ready for a quick surprise. Troops are marching everywhere, Too much violence than you can bear. The Apocolypse is here, everything is burning down Chaos running through the streets, draggin' everything to the ground. Burning Terror rises in your head, And you wish you were dead. Get inside, there's nowhere yo

Fromashley 5/2/2008
More From my baby Current mood: loved Oh sweet sweet love divine Your love is pure your love is sweet You gave your heart I gave you mine I long for the day when we both shall meet You light up my life every passing day I love to listen to what you have to say My eyes light up there's a grin on my face Every time I see you sign in to cyberspace Your warmth your tenderness every time you smile Makes my heart beat faster and with love I smile For my love, my heart I give to you And with each kiss my love is true The miles and oceans keep us apart. But you are forever with me in my heart One day together we will be In each others arms just you and me Not troubles, no worries, no regrets We will cuddle and watch endless sunsets With a love so strong and sweet and pure You are my love of that I am sure Two halves full of love and full of joy The love of a girl, the love of a boy They share everything they do or say Their love growing stronger day by