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Why Cant I Speak To Your Eyes
We speak, My face toward the ground taking my face u ask, "Why do you speak to the floor instead of me, my eyes." I reply, "Your eyes sway in away too hard to grasp Your pupils make me tense and unstable Looking through your eyes is like looking through black holes with deep dimensions Vortex's with bright colors Spinning, Shinning, Circling, around me. Your eyes say, 'Come let me show you what I have to offer.' Like hands extended toward me, Grabbing me, Pulling me, into the very redness of you It makes me wanna climb those high rocks to the very openness of you But, I don`t, Climbing faster then I`m suppose to makes me dizzy Trapped, Wrapped up, Intertwined in the veins stuck in guck what we know as LOVE"

The Princess And The Dragon
They've been together forever In fairy tales of the young They've been together forever In the dreaming minds of everyone But there once was a lonely princess No one to protect her and keep her strong Until the day that the dragon came along So tough looking, yet so sweet From the fire in its eyes To the claws on its feet Everyone was afraid of the dragon Cause they didn't want to look inside Everyone was afraid of the dragon And wanted to run and hide But one day the dragon found the princess Who loved him for who he was Princesses should not love dragons her mother said But the princess could not be misled The dragon and the princess then fell in love The dragon was there to protect the princess From the elements above And the princess gave the dragon wings To show her everlasting love Because a loving heart will stay the same In rain, hail, fire or snow A loving heart will stay the same In high temperatures or in low A loving heart will endur

Words
Life has been increasingly difficult lately. Dealing with losing my mother, the financial burden of trying to take care of my children, the stress I am putting on my father, etc… I was sitting at work this morning thinking about everything and just lost it. I had to leave for a while. I called my dad's house & talked to Grace for a few minutes. I told her much I love her and how they mean everything to me. That I think about them all day long and I apologized for not getting to spend enough time with them. I would be there with them right now if I could. I know that life is supposed to be hard. That God only gives us what we can handle and that the harder it is, the stronger we become. Everyone has their days and some are more difficult than others. I get it. I've just been miserable for quite sometime. I find myself playing with the kids and thinking about shit I shouldn't be. Getting mad at bath time for wasting too much water, leaving lights on when leaving a room, l

Cameron And My Mother
"Maw maw, would you like to come outside with me?" "Yes Cameron" "Maw maw, where are your slippers?" "Under the bed…" "Here's your walking stick maw maw." "Thank you Cameron." Cam took his grandmother by the hand and walked her to the porch. They sat for a while together. This is already the sweetest thing ever in my eyes, without the circumstances being known. My mother has terminal cancer. We're not sure how much longer she is going to be with us and she's pretty much bed ridden. She's able to get up a couple times a day, but she gets tired very quickly and gets ill a lot. My children don't know what's going on, they just think she is sick. It breaks my heart that my mom won't be around to see my children grow up, but the effect she's had on their lives already will stay with them forever. Cam spends most days at my parents while I am at work. He's seen all the friends and family members come and go, visiting her. Knowing that Cam p

In The Cold Brisk Night
I'm dreaming of a cold, brisk night When I can hold you tight We'll keep each other warm We'll weather the storm The rain can pelt The winds can howl But that won't matter Hour after hour As long as we're together Everything will be alright As long as we're together On a cold, brisk night We'll gaze into the sky And we'll even try To picture the heavens And the angels on high We'll watch the twinkling stars As we lie in our sleeping bags Wrapped around us -- Like shrouds We'll listen for nature A bear, a coyote or two Don't worry I won't be scared As long as I'm with you We'll live every moment like our last When morning comes And we see the first light We'll reminisce about that cold, brisk night

Be My Forever
I want you to be my forever, I'll be there for you whenever. I never want to say goodbye, I'll always love you, til the day I die. I couldn't stand to see you gone, For I would feel so withdrawn. Without you in my life, Would feel like the stab of a knife. Your the one, These feelings have only just begun. I want to spend my life with you, 'Cause I love everything you do. With every kiss, You bring so much bliss. You dried all of my tears, That I've cried for so many years. Whenever you are here, Happiness is near. Everyday I pray, Pray that you'll be here atleast one more day.

Thinking About The Crew
I feel very fortunate to have been blessed with 3 amazing children. I sat in bed last night thinking about them for the longest time. It's difficult always keeping things in perspective. Emma came & got in bed with me, rolled over on her side & snuggled up close. She grabbed my hand & held on tight. I didn't want to fall asleep. I wanted to enjoy if for as long as possible. Emma is without a doubt the sweetest and purest soul. I live and die with her emotions. She can look at me and smile and I will have no worries in the world. Everything is perfect. The sparkles in her eyes take me away to a better place. Grace is a difficult bird at times. No doubt she's a Kennedy. She's very sweet and sensitive but has a short fuse. It doesn't take much to get her fired up. I really enjoy her personality. She's very funny. Loves to tell jokes, be silly, etc… It feels like she is growing up too fast. Grace is very protective of her brother and sister. I can't get her to

Stay Safe... Drive Sensible....
This has been copied and pasted from Newscenter 16 WNDU-TV Perhaps this should be in my Weather Conditions Blog as it pertains to weather. Berrien County Michigan along with some other counties as well are under a BLIZZARD WARNING! So what does this mean? "IT'S SNOWING AND BLOWING LIKE CRAZY" does this mean: A - go do some major holiday shopping because Christmas is almost here and we haven't finished or B - Stay at home where we can be warm and save? OMG! why don't they just close all roads so people won't be out and tell them they need to have a valid emergency for being out on the roads. But first off I'd like to remind you of another pile up last year near Michigan City! Major highways I think are the worst to be traveling in weather like this. Yes they may have the snow cleared better but the maximum speed limit is set at 70 mph! So you get fools on the highway that are going to go as fast as they possibly can. Not giving it any thought to SLOW DOWN as there might b

Point Whore.
My lovely friend bought me an Auto 11 bling. Since it's close to the holidays, idk when to use it. help me decide? i looked at the HH schedule and there's about 22 HH's in a row on thursday. do you think that would that be the best day? help :(

Fueding Family...
I'm totaly lossing my bloody mind...my old man fueds with my son over cigars and my daughter gets pissed cause her brother wants on my computer to check his mail n to download his music...Guess I'm just getting my total punishment for ever getting married and having kids..I'de rather be getting my ass beat by a leather belt than put up with my family fueding all the time.oh well I'll be dead some day n hope that there still alive n fighting to the death 2 end there retarded fueding..Ballbreaker.

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0.o
A mommy at the school says, "i hide the vegetables in a tuna sandwich." Cock, I think. "All he tastes is the tuna fish." Cocksucker. "Or you can hide a piece of spinach between a cracker and a hunk of cheese." Lick my juicy pussy. "Peas are the easiest to get them to eat because they're sweet." Fuck me up the ass, soldier. Then dick slap me till I cry for mercy. -excerpt from 'Mommies Who Drink, Sex, Drugs, and other Distant memories of an Ordinary Mom

Untitled So Far
Lost in the darkness, Starving in the night, knowing no ones coming To save me from my plight, still i wait for certain death to find me and take me away no matter how it comes to pass he will miss her on the way but whats the man in tears to do, waiting for his heart to burst she ran away, its nothing new, not for a man who is cursed

Impromptu For Class, What Will You Do Wth Yourself From Here
I don't know where I'm going to start Putting my life to rights, I need to get it done soon though, Before my world does end, I am tired of making my way through life, Not knowing where to go, lost in the here and now, Moving to and fro, Why do I go on like this, Living for a shattered dream, Lost upon a hillside while I am splitting at the seams, I write about the things that pass Before my watchful eye, And smile as the stars do dance Across a midnights sky, How to break away from the beauty And the grace of the world, Is the only answer to my question The tree of life hasn't unfurled, I lay here day in day out, Waiting for the answer to come, So I may take this chosen path To see where I am from, Softly stepping into clouds, Glistening in never ending sun, Listening to the Angels voices, Watching them pass me one by one.

Love-1
Looking at the clouds and watching the rainfall down wishing I could see you smile, hear your laugh, or maybe just be nearby Your a angel who fell down to Earth from the heavens Here to show me what love is truly like, but I still cant believe you chose me to show this to, To love me, and teach me to love you, How is it possible something so pure and true could exist As it does in my heart whenever you are in my thoughts or within sight Your the object of my thoughts on a clouded day, and the object of my tenderness and care when you are close and in my arms, I cant seem to see how it is all truly real, how I feel, how I know and trust it so much, or even how I can understand this feeling so deeply and truly, But you are the object of my desire, My desire to kiss, and hug, and hold, and tease, and never let go of something... I love you, and it is a light within my darkened soul, that you are there within my heart, guiding me back into your loving arms once more, To b

Life Changing Experiences
Hey everyone it's been awhile since I have posted a new blog but I figured I would catch everyone up on how things are going for me. As of August 31,2008 I split up with the piece of ass I was with Eric-the one that abused me and controlled me. And best of all it was on his birthday we split up. I walked away a happier person then I ever had been and moved into Springfield on my own. At first I was very scared and not sure were to go but as time went on I realized the lord would lead me were I needed to be. For the first few months I was living in my car struggling and didn't have a job to speak of. As time went on I was able to locate a job and make some extra cash. I worked and saved up and was able to rent a motel room since November the 7th this year thats were I have been living. Take into mind it is still hard but I have learned to challenge myself and with that believe I have become stronger then ever. In the time of my hardship I was able to meet an amazing man o

Sorrows Upon The Wind
A world of sorrows and broken dreams, scattered upon a west bound wind, floating upon a moonlit breeze upon an ocean to never be seen again, How can I say I ever knew what I was doing during the fight, Laying down with her and my eyes gleaming in the darkened night, I couldnt have saved my love for her after this, She stabbed me in the back and now I have lost another again, I sometimes wonder when the tide is in and the moon is high above, Whether we could have ever made it, or even been close to love, But for now I will go on breathing, tortured and abused by the darkness, Living in a world of painful sorrows, and dreams upon a west bound wind, Drifting away into the far off darkness of life and never seen again.

I Finally Fell Asleep...
kisses your lips and holds on tight, sleeping through a horrid night, lost in dreams of you and I, wishing for days to pass quickly by, I want to be there in your arms, and make your dreams come true, but in the end of the dreams, i am not next to you, I wait for the hrs to pass, when my time with you is near, and I get so happy and elated, I simply want to cheer, I love you my dear your Knight of Shadows

I Couldnt Sleep...
Laying awake in bed, I cant sleep thanks to you, I went to bed to dream, and I was asleep in a few, but then my dreams just shifted, and there you were again, wearing a dress that matched your eyes....and your lips so soft and sweet......I knew within a moment I needed you with me... So I lie here in the dark, awakened and alone, thinking of a life I lead, so silent and suicide prone, as it too shifts, just like my dreams, and you stand within it, and you take my hand in the darkness and tell me we can make it home togeather, as we walk along in darkness, headed towards the light....I can only think of one thing...I love you

Spooning
I make one request, that you lie here, next to me, love No words need to be spoken No promises need to be made Just you wrapped tightly in my embrace, and the smell of your hair, my breath upon your neck, as nothing is between us Cradled snug within my arms, I feel your heart beating so gentle, against my hand, take comfort close to me, tonight I need for nothing else in the world, only this, our moments of quiet, that is when our hearts truly become one...

Forever Love
When you walk into the room The lights turn on When you smile You light up the sky When you open you eyes The sun will arise The twinkle in your eye Turns on the night sky By the beauty of your voice You make people stop to listen From the sound when you speak Its like an angel from God Speaking through you... When you write stories You can move mountains With words of wisdom For as long as you love me I will love you back With all of my heart And without any doubt I have forever love And I hope you do to

My Dear Rose
A rose is a flower that captures love. Sprung of the earth from a heaven above. You refuse to see the beauty in all that is there. The flaws of it's existence make you unaware. Thorns protrude from it's long, tired stem. And you're on a course to totally condemn. Allow the sun to shine on it's petals. The soul of the stem is where the sun settles. Do you not know all the beauty that I see? You've captured my love with your intimacy. My dear rose, you are my flower. See the beauty of yourself in this passionate hour.

Warning
This is an offering of warning, I am a hopeless romantic, a strangely demented guy, and I love to write poetry...so this is your warning, if you like poetry, its going to be in my Poetry corner blogs. If you dont, then I hate to tell ya but its better you either dont read it, or you can read it and look at it as a quote instead ~grins~ all poems have meaning

Bootlegging Blog Ideas Part 1: My Happy List
-all night dvd sessions of shows like "its always sunny in philadelphia" or "arrested development" accompanied by a shitload of ramen noodles and chocolate or other candy -laying on the living room carpet reading a book with a nice cup of tea(which i just did. the book was "Hector's Voyage or the Search for Happiness") -music! there are certain songs i listen to again and again. most of them are stupid rap songs since i´m usually in a good mood and thats mostly what i listen to when i am. i usually throw a little prodigy, beatsteaks (i dont care as long as you sing = porn for your ears) or other stuff in but the majority of my happy music is rap. when i´m in a bad mood songs like "all i need" by air or clint mansell stuff are my first choice. -FOOD! there´s no such thing as crappy food. except mushrooms. they can go suck dick in hell. -good movies (+ food of course) -from time to time a little buzz (= getting fucking smashed. i mean we have awesome beer so wh

Funny Shit...not Really Almost Cost Me My Job
So... I had an ex-employee write a letter to my boss, saying that I wasn't a good manager. That i did sexual acts on the clock outside and that I played favorites to certain employees. In order to do sexual acts, doesn't that mean I'd have to be in a relationship? Well i guess not really to that, but that I'd have to be around long enough in the day to do that. Since I'm out of there around 1 in the afternoon, makes it kinda hard to do that. As for playing favorites, every manager turns a blind eye sometimes to whats going on, even when they know its wrong. I dont play favorites. I've learned from really awesome mangers, that it comes back and bites you in the ass. I guess what really pissed me off the most; was the fact that this employee couldnt be bothered to come talk to me about what was troubling them. That they felt the need to go over my head and talk to my boss. I've told all of my employees that if they have problems with me, to come talk to me about them that way i

On The Auction Block! Wanna Own A Dragon?
CLICK HERE TO BID!!! LOOKING FOR LEVEL 3 BLING PACK OR HIGHER, OR AUTO-11 BLING! my offers... stash rated (500 or more) all pics rated (100 pics per week will be 11's) pimpout on my page in about me for length of ownership bully pimpout for you, for any purpose, (level up, contest, giveaway, for friends, you name it!) 12 personalized graphics made by me using pics of your choice f/a/r your top 5 family and rate 100 of their pics IF BID INCLUDES AUTO-11 BLING EVERYTHING DOUBLES, INCLUDING LENGTH OF OWNERSHIP, AND NO LIMIT ON STASH RATES IF MINIMUM OF 65 BLING PACK IS BID, EVERYTHING DOUBLES AND WILL SEND AN AUTO-11 BLING TO YOU SOMETHING ELSE YOU WANT? MESSAGE ME, LET'S TALK!

Stop Crying Your Heart Out
A time when the tears flow faster than the tap a moment when the clarity of my emotions spill over the brim of a glass.. like the elixir I am pouring into it. Sometimes I make excuses for my behavior Am I just young? Am I just a woman? Or am I just a fool who needs to be satisfied with yourself alone? I fear one day these feelings will still be there I fear when the "one day" comes it will still be like today. Maybe I am over reacting. This is the song I listen to over and over again to try and overcome the times like now.. when I can't control it. Most times I can, most times i know I am better off by myself, but sometimes all I want is for an honest man to be by my side. Optimisim will kick in, sometimes it just hibernates. ............. Hold up Hold on Don't be scared, You'll never change what's been and gone May your smile, Shine on, Don't be scared, Your destiny may keep you warm, 'Cause all of the stars, Have faded away Just try not to worry,

*ahem*
sorry, had something in my throat. um. the oldies are the shit. i know ive probably already blogged something similar. but im just saying. the chantels-'maybe' the del vikings-'come go with me' smoky robinson-'tracks of my tears i could go one for long time. i meant the smokey robinson version of tracks of my tears. but its all good. oh. while im editing. ive been told recently, twice actually, that my playlist, or at least part, is win...however theres so much broken shit on it that its really fail. i need to fix that shit.

Tom Waits Lyrics To "hang On St. Christopher"
Hang on st. christopher through the smoke and the oil Buckle down the rumble seat let the radiator boil got an overhead downshift and a two dollar grill got an 85 cabin on an 85 hill Hang on st. christopher on the passenger side open it up tonight the devil can ride hang on st. christopher with a barrel house dog kick me up mt. baldy throw me out in the fog tear a hole in the jack pot drive a stake through his heart do a 100 on the grapevine do a jump on the start hang on st. christopher now don't let me go get me to reno and bring it in low, yeah hang on st. christopher with the hammer to the floor put a hi ball in the crank case nail a crow to the door get a bottle for the jockey gimme a 294 there's a 750 norton bustin down january's door hang on st. christopher on the passenger side open it up tonight the devil can ride hang on st. christopher now don't let me go get to me reno got to bring it in low put my baby on the flat car got to burn down the ca

Foundry Cams: The First Noel - A Cam Girl Christmas Compilation
Happy holidays from the beautiful girls of FOUNDRY CAMS! This clip, featuring "The First Noel" by GARY HOEY, features more girls than we have EVER used in one single video before, and each of these beauties (including Carmen, Gisele, Kyra, Silvia, Sweet Victoria, Danni, Dahlia, Violet, The twins: Brooke and Vikki, Ashleigh, and many, many more) has discovered an eye-popping method of undressing for the camera while keeping their holiday spirit intact. Merry Christmas, indeed! CLICK THE ABOVE PHOTO TO WATCH THIS HEARTFELT, and HORNED-UP VIDEO Then, once you've filled up on egg nog and peppermint schnapps for the holidays, Spend some of your Christmas break chatting with the lovely girls of FOUNDRY CAMS!

Myspace Not Your
so there is this asshole who always has something to say about me.. with it be my phone my pics or my blogs.. oh wait and my bulletins too.. i flat out told him its myspace not urs so it doesnt matter what i put up wheter it is stupid or not.. im sticking up for myself but it only makes its worse because he is a major ass.. cant delete because long history with him.. and at one point he helped me out bad.. but does it give him the right to just pick on me every time i do something

Help These 2 Awesome Guys
Once again my list needed to be updated! Two more people off the spotlight list have gotten it! Thank you SO much to everyone who has been helping the people on this list. AND if you want to go for spotlight and need help, let me know. We can add you. Now there's still 2 guys going for spotlight who need your help. All you can kick to them is definitely appreciated! If you really wanna help out big time I can even tell you some people who constantly pay for rates and they run auto 11s all the time. So you can rake up some points quickly. But help them all out. They are all awesome. Below 3 of them are links to a bulletin I did to help each other out. If you can repost them that would be awesome. ☠☣FTW☣☠@ fubar With FTW he's not level 25 yet so you can rate the hell out of his page to help him get bux as well. Either way any help you can give to him is appreciated. Along with help given to the others. RavinJuggalo FuOwnd by BlondePrinces

Help My Friends!!
Stephanie is just over a million to disciple. She is also great at rating back!! St3ph4ni3~Rate Spankers member~Lollipop gurlz~@ fubar Kyz is a great friend and has been trying to get to godfather for quite some time!! Please help him get to godfather!! He doesnt have alot of pics buthas a ton of stash!! Ludakyz™ " R/L BF to I Wish U Heaven@ fubar

John Vs. Wolf.... The Explanation Is Here.
If you are a friend of mine, you would do well to read this.... I usually avoid this topic like the plague, since no matter who I wanted to explain it to, I doubted that they would "get it". But since an old friend of mine asked me about it and I am tired of dodging the issue, here is my first and only explanation. The topic is "Who is Wolf and why does he exist?" Ok here it goes.... A long time ago, I was weak. I was always smaller than people my age and got bullied. I was angry with life in general. One day, as I was being picked on and pushed around, I reached my boiling point. Something in my mind fractured and someone else was controlling me. And as I sat on top of this kid’s chest pounding his face into mush with my fists, all I can remember is someone was laughing. Later, with fear in their eyes, my friends told me that I was the one laughing. No one understood, they all thought I was just "going through a phase." They were only half-right, John was the phase. Wo

Elements Of The Ego Part 1: Enneagram
The diagram is a generic 9 diagram. The stat graph is for my results. I actually score a lot heavier in the 1 and 8 but the simplistic version of the test minimizes those because of my balance between them equally. I am generally at level 2 but when under stress for an extended period of time or when reacting to a high stress spike I will revert to level 4. Enneagram Nine The Easygoing, Self-Effacing Type: Receptive, Reassuring Agreeable, and Complacent For more about the meaning of the arrows, see below. Type Nine in Brief Nines are accepting, trusting, and stable. They are usually creative, optimistic, and supportive, but can also be too willing to go along with others to keep the peace. They want everything to go smoothly and be without conflict, but they can also tend to be complacent, simplifying problems and minimizing anything upsetting. They typically have problems with inertia and stubbornness. At their Best: indomitable and all-embracing, they are able to b

What To Think Or Do...
I don't know what to think at times; this week has been a trying one emotional and physical...from the time my son went missing for 7 hours to the information to Miss Caylee being identified and the over whelming thoughts of am I the parent I should be or the ex stepping up too. My mind spins on what I can do more of...rate huh??lol nah...I wanna be a bigger presence than what I am in my sons life and this by no accounts is a mumm...it's me putting the vulnerability out there as in what more can I do. I am tired..I am thinking...my next thing is what action can I do to do more. I seem stuck and yet bewildered. Maybe, the days of old the Serenity Prayer should ring volumes in my head and heart. Who knows...all I know is conviction is setting in!!

What Is Love
LOVE is that special phone call you get everyday when u talk on the phone and the funny feelings dont go away. Knowing the other person inside and out trusting and loving without reservations Friends then lovers even farway like we are from each other Make it True Love THATS what Love is........

Some Boys Just Don't Know How To Take It Like A Man...
I bought a couple of friends. Just for fun. Just to show them I care. (This does not mean I don't care if I didn't buy you, by the way. ;c) So I get a shout from some idiot asking me to buy him. How fucking rude is that? Very rude, I say. It's as bad as those women I blogged about asking guys to buy them bling and VIPs. I don't even know the guy. Why would I buy him? I ended up blocking him just like I block any other spammer/beggar. Next thing I know, I get whiny shouts from a new account as well as a 1 rating. "Waaah! All I did was beg a stranger for something I don't deserve. Waah!" He also happens to have seen some of my naughtiness online so has threatened to repost them here. As if I care. I post that shit on multiple sites anyhow. Obviously, I don't mind if people see it. So if you'd like to see some of my naughty stuff, check out theprovoloneprincess28 to see if he's posted them there. Then don't forget to report him for not only stealing content but

Picture Policy
So I got rid of a shitload of meaningless pictures and replaced them with ones that I have taken and like. Now... this comes with conditions. They are available to FAMILY only. I would ask that if you look, please rate and be honest...especially with the Disney ones. I finally got a good camera and tried hard to take some professional looking pictures and would like honest opinions. Provided I have the room (270 limit unless I level, which ain't happening) and provided that I get a welcome reception, I will post more as they come. I am planning on taking some daytrips over Christmas (hint hint) Otherwise, I will assume no one is interested, and that posting them is a waste of my time and bandwidth, and I will stop. Simple as that :) Thoughts?

Posted For Yummz!!!
SOOOOO HOTT, UBER SEXY, & Super YUMMI of course.... Who want's a 7-DAY BLAST???? ^^^THIS GIRL DOES^^^ & will give 1 million FuBucks for It! So... who wants to give her some Blast Luvins! Whoever does... Send me a Sucker... & I'll give you some *Chipper Style Licks* Just to Say Thank You *Grins* *Mmmm mmmm Good* Bully Brought to you by: Chipper *no no licks*CHIPPER STYLE (repost of original by 'CHIPPER' on '2008-12-21 14:13:37')

My 122108 Kiss Fortune
A thorn defends the rose, harming only those who would steal the blossom. --- Keep your thorns - but be sure to put them to use ONLY in the right situation - be gentle with your love - fiercely defend what you believe is right but withhold the thorns from your love.

My Nakedness
If you want to see my nsfw pics and can't it's because they're for the boys who earned a peak, I may love to be naked but I'm not easy, well I'm easy just not that easy. I really don't want to see yr penis either, unless it's actually connected to a boy, preferably a cute one with a nice smile.

Me
well lol im new at this i just joined so im tryin ti figure it all out anyways my nick name is meemee my real name is kristen im 18 i have a 2 yr old baby girl i live in louisiana born n raised i like to do outdoor stuff anything out doors fishin campin mudd riddin etc etc im lookin for cool friends to chill out with n have fun

Lol Some People....
Where do you all get off on telling me what to do and where to put things lol...if i wanna do a mumm dont tellme what to do w/it and I wont ever post a fucking mumm again and faras blogs no one fucking reads them

Happy Holiday
2ND ALARM HOTTIES ARE HERE TO SAY HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO EVERYONE IN FULAND!!!! BE SAFE DURING THE HOLIDAYS!!!! ENJOY THE TIME WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY!!!! Don’t Forget To Show The HomePage Some Love š 2nd Alarm Hotties New Homepage 11/6 š@ fubar IF YOU THINK YOU GOT WHAT IT TAKES TO BE A 2ND ALARM HOTTIE THEN SEE…. *Annipoo the Norwegian Goddess **Chief of Operations of 2nd Alarm Hotties**@ fubar OR ღCllgegrlღChief_Deputyღ2nd Alarm Hotties@ fubar THIS BULLETIN BROUGHT TO YOU BY: ♥DJ GUN♥ ASST CHIEF OF PROMOTIONS 2ND ALARM HOTTIE FUWIFE TO ROUGHNREADY OWND BY QUEEN

My Weekend
So I had an amazing weekend. Firday I made a great dinner for me and Chad and he seemed to like it...hehe. First off let me get into how much I am in love with this boy. He is perfection in my eyes and I never want to do anything to hurt him. He treats me like a fuckin queen and constantly reminds me that I am beautiful...which is awesome lol. Friday night we went out to the bar/club with my best friend Meg. We all had a great time, I went broke but it was ok cuz it was worth it. I was with my two favorite people in the world and I had a great time. Ended up having a migrane and my mood started to change. We came home and I layed in bed...Chad kissed every inch of my body and totally made the pain go away...it was amazing. It went away, things happend ;). It came back so we went to sleep. Saturday was a lazy day...but spending the time with him, cuddled up on the couch watching The Family Man and some of Home Alone (which is odd for me cuz I never wanna sit and watch a movie, lol) My h

Hello Ladies
I Know Things Have Been Really Slow The Last Few Weeks, But With The Holidays Quickly Approaching We Just Really Havent HAd Time To be On The Page Much Because Like All Of You, We Are Shop Shop Shopping And Stress STress Stressing LOL!! But Starting In Febuary (giving us al lil holdiay recovery time:P) We Are Really Gonna Try To Pick Up The Pace With The Group A bit MOre!!! We Would Really Really Love Any Ideas Or Imput On Things That You Ladies Would Like To See Go On Within The Group!! After All It Is All About You Girls :P Well I Hope Everyone Is Well And Enjoying The Season... And Any Imput You Have Pls PLace IN the Private Message Box And We Will Read and Respond ASAP!! I would Also Like To Say Pls Lets Keep Allie And Her Family In Your Thoughts And Prayers This Season She Is So Badly Missed And Will Forever Be A Dangerous Curves Girl!! Well Happy Holidays To You All And May You All Have A Safe Healthy And Happy New Year!! Much Love To You All!!

Get Bombed!!!!!!!!
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Member Of The Week - From 12/21 To 12/28
Please treat this member like you would want to be treated. Generosity, rates, gifts and comments. Blings are not mandatory. Hit her Hard, she was a elite Member so that showed she has dedicated herself to Club United with Lotsa Love. Time to give it all back to her now.. ~¢¾~TEXAS TWISTER~¢¾~SHADOW LEVELER~¢¾~CLUB UNITED~@ fubar

Hurt
how can u tell me Im your world and then just walk away. You said your feelings where the same. Please dont give me space please dont give me time I dont need to think all i need is u. im holding my breath even though i promised myself i wouldnt. for a chance with you. just one last time. I want forever i need you in my life. please dont go away i miss the way you love me. I need u every day. I dont care what has to change i just want to be with you. Now you got me acting all crazy. But isnt that what love is. a crazy rush of mixed up emotions. please dont go away i miss the way you love me just hold me one last time. kiss these lips tell me everythings fine. here i go again the girl crazy in love with that boy that just doesnt seem to go completely away. but your never near enough to be with me. always close enough to hurt me though arent you. Its my love for you that keeps this going. I just want to forget the way you feel and what that happiness means to me. Your

A White Rose
The red rose whispers of passion, And the white rose breathes of love; O, the red rose is a falcon, And the white rose is a dove. But I send you a cream-white rosebud With a flush on its petal tips; For the love that is purest and sweetest Has a kiss of desire on the lips.

His Office.
She wakes up on her day off, it's Friday, what shall I do today, she thinks to herself. Cuddling up in her thick comforter, she's feeling quite mischivous. Peering over to the clock, damn, it's only 6 am. She giggles to herself, plotting out a big surprise. Throwing her covers over to the side, she gets out of bed in her little red nightie. A quick shower is in order. She walks into the bathroom, turning the shower on, letting it warm a few minutes before she closes the door behind herself. As the hot water steams up around her, she runs her hands through her long hair, replaying in her mind the dream from last night. Oh yes, I shall play this out today, she murmurs rubbing her loofa all around her breasts. She lathers herself up and down her chest with bubbles, to her stomach, then down her legs. Her nipples are erect, circling each pert nipple, cupping each breast. She throws her head back, letting the hot water spray all over her face. She washes her hair, adding condit

Big Daddy's T Auto 11
THIS IS AN EXCLUSIVE Has Auto 11's Hey Everyone I'm on my way to Godfather I have 2.6 million to get there. I am activating my Auto 11 on Tuesday the 23rd, come and hook me up with all the rates you can spare. If you haven't already Fan/Add me to your friend list also can alway have more friends. So tell your friends, its a great way to level up, I know personally that is how I got to where I am at now. ~BIG*Daddy*T~Promoter @ THE SKINNY DIPPIN LOUNGE@ fubar

Everyone
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Nova Has Auto-11's!!! All The Way To Disciple??
GUESS WHO HAS AUTO-11'S? NOVA!!! *NOVA**{OWNED BY LYNNE&jade&jaksonsmom}**Club Mystic Member@ fubar HE HAS THEM RUNNING FROM NOON FU-TIME, SUNDAY, DECEMBER 21!!! THAT'S 2PM CST, AND 3PM EST!! LOTS OF TIME TO GET HIM TO DISCIPLE!!! WON'T YOU PLEASE HELP TO GET HIM THERE??? THANKS IN ADVANCE FOR ANY AND ALL HELP TO MAKE THIS AWESOME MAN A DISCIPLE!!! HE BELIEVES IN RETURNING LOVE, AND I GUARANTEE THAT YOU WILL NOT REGRET BECOMING HIS FRIEND! SO DON'T FORGET TO FAN, RATE, AND ADD HIM AS WELL, AND TELL HIM THAT CINDRAGON SENT YOU!!! *NOVA**{OWNED BY LYNNE&jade&jaksonsmom}**Club Mystic Member@ fubar FONDLY PIMPED OUT BY: CinDragon-Founder of ClubMystic-PegasusProject-FuAngel-I.B.I.C@ fubar AND Club Mystic!@ fubar This html code blatantly stolen from (and slightly altered): Ms. Sassy{Shadow Leveler}Fu-owned by cindragon~Proud Fu-Owner of Scarlett, JonJon & Dirk McGirk~@ fubar show her some love as well, she RAWKS!!!

Sharing About Me , Of My Own Words...
Once , I was afraid I'd never find someone to really care about , I wanted someone perfect , atleast for me. A special kind of talking , an honest way of listening , not being afraid to laugh or cry , kindness and understanding , fun and excitement , someone who would lift my heart with joy. I guess I expected alot , but I am a believer and I believed that somebody , someone's particular magic would transform my life. So inspite of all waiting , all the loneliness , All the " Almost Giving Up " It's been all worth while , and wishes really do come true , because what I always wanted isn't a Dream... IT'S You....

Santa Isnt Comin..hahaha
It's A Devilish PimpOut Who Cares If Ur Naughty Or Nice, Cuz Santa Not Helpin Urs A$$ This Year.. He Done Seen Ya All Been Bad... So It's Up 2 The Devilish 1 To Get The Ball Roll! If Ya Dont Knw These Peepers Ya Should There Awesomest Ppl U Could Eva Meet!!!! So Help A Lady Out Give These Ppl Some Holidays Cheer Since Santa Not Visiting There A$$'s This Year! Auto11LordGreystoke422 The Oracle of New Orleans; Lousiana's First Oracle

To Friends And Family On Fubar
i just wanted to take this time to say thank you to all those who have showed me love all weekend long all of you rawk my socks i'm sorry if i didn't luv back but with everyone hitting my page up i couldn't keep up....SO comment this and i'll be sure to show my love again thank you so so so much couldn't ask for better friends then all of you......*HUGS&KISSES*

Sarcasm Lost...
cubbies88: cool u r hot ->cubbies88: you are the sole reason I came here from Russia cubbies88: ok when??? ->cubbies88: ofcourse, I was waiting for this moment all my life cubbies88: we should hook up lol ->cubbies88: for you-always cubbies88: u single?? ->cubbies88: thx cubbies88: ur fine as hell ->cubbies88: hi cubbies88: heyy cutie

Its Ur Lost Not Mine
OK I AM JUST GOING TO VENT FOR A WHILE. ONE I AM TIRED OF SO CALLED FRIENDS THAT JUST WANT TO USE ME AND I AM TIRED OF EVERYONE TRYING TO BRING ME INTO THERE DAMN DRAMA. I GOT PROBLEMS OF MY OWN. AND I AM TIRED OF GUYS SAYING THERE NOT LIKE THE REST BUT WHEN I SAY I WANT TO TAKE IT SLOW THEY TREAT ME LIKE SHIT. WELL GUESS WHAT UR JUST LIKE THE REST. I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THANKS TO MY TMR FAMILY CHAD JEN LUDA CHRIS BOUNCE TRACY AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST SQ EVEN THOUGH SHE DONT HAVE FUBAR NOMORE AND BELL AND EVERYONE ELES THAT I DIDNT SAY BUT U KNOW WHO U ARE I LOVE U GUYS AND I THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME. DANI I LOVE U AND U WILL ALWAYS BE MY SIS. I AM NOT LEAVIN FUBAR SO DONT THINK THIS IS MY GOODBYE LETTER CAUSE ITS NOT ITS JUST ME SAYING THANK YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND THANKS TO ALL THE GUYS THAT THOUGHT THEY HURT ME UR ONLY MAKIN ME STRONGER AND THERE WILL BE SOMEONE THAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY AND I AM SORRY THAT ITS NOT U. I AM WORTH WAITIN FOR BUT SINCE U THINK I AM NOT TH

As All Things Come To An End
Perhaps it is my unique cynical sense of humor. Or Perhaps it is my willingness to always be there for people, to always offer a helping hand. One of the coolest opportunities I've had handed to me was a chance to DJ at RRD. Which right in line with everything, The only reason I ended up on air was because Maha needed to reboot her comp, and no one was there to take air. As per the norm for me, I set up and took air in place of any DJ. Over the next few months I would unfortunately be controlled by work, school, and other responsibilities I have, still sometimes I would stay up just a little later then I should just so I could grab a set. Well ever since Boon took to the asst. DJ Mgr position, things have been.. nothing short of hostile. And Ie really been getting the brunt of it. SO many times things brought to my attention that I made every attempt to squash to preserve peace. Maybe If i was around a little more that things would have been more manageable. Which in turn basi

Anticipation
Anticipation Is it binding When eyes blindfolded Can be released As easily as a tug? Silken scarves Loosely tied Yet hands free Leave eyes encumbered. Skin lightly touched Yet not, never knowing Not desiring Knowledge of the next caress, But wanting, needing Feed my ravenous hunger For what is not known Be it ice trailed Loose, circled about my nipples, Or the brush of fresh strawberries Scented lightly on my lips - Just a bite Sucking your thumb I scream my need In whispers begging Of what may be. I feel your excitement To be released When it may be Is but anticipated. I want But not know When wants To be fulfilled Become fulfilled. The hunger In anticipation Of the feast Is sweetest. poet

Sex
Sarah, 24, suffers from Permanent Sexual Arousal Syndrome ORGASMS: Sarah By Matthew Acton, 04/11/2007 PRETTY Sarah Carmen is a 200-a-day orgasm girl who gets good, good, GOOD vibrations from almost anything. The rumble of a train on the tracks, the purr of a hairdryer, the rhythmic drone of a photo-copier are all enough to make her go oh oh oh, ahhhhh. She had FIVE orgasms during our 40-minute interview. But I can't take the credit—it was just talking about her sex life that set her off. Sarah, 24, suffers from Permanent Sexual Arousal Syndrome (PSAS), which increases blood flow to the sex organs. She said: "Sometimes I have so much sex to try to calm myself down I get bored of it. And men I sleep with don't seem to make as much effort because I climax so easily." As she chatted, Sarah became increasingly flustered. "Sorry, you'll have to excuse me for a minute. I'll be with you in a sec," she mumbled before letting out a long sigh. Sarah, from

The Anti Lounge - Thank You Miss Mags!!
Happy Holidays from the staff of The Anti Lounge Radio X show, BAD GIRL 4 LIFE, ~dJ aMeLiA~, [[Per]]™, Mi§§ Måg§, Judy, *Morgan Le Fay*, Ms. Mojito™, Lauribug, ♥Reeka♥, BabyFrog, and candi♥ass Have you stopped by lately? If not you're missing out! With great rock music from the Internet's F'n Rock Station K-IRB and great people to chat with, to our weekly trivia night. Ladies night is always there to please and we even have our own arcade! Stop on in and have yourself a drink... We love new members!!! Thursday Trivia Night Rocks!!

Katia & Jenn's Pre-christmas Bash
Katia & Jenn’s Pre-Chrismas Bash When: Tuesday Dec 23, 2008 at 8:00 PM Where: The Foreclosure Mansion 13 W. Mt. Vernon Place Baltimore, MD 21201 United States Come and join Katia & Jenn at The Foreclosure Mansion in Mt. Vernon for the Pre-Christmas Party!!! We will have local DJ's, Open Tables and 4 floors of amazing abandon building fun like you have never seen before!!! Bring friends, family, people off the street, anyone you can grab to dance the night away!! All are welcome. BYOB Feel free to contact us with questions, suggestions, requests, DJ's and anything else you might need. See You There!!!!

Vulgar.
I didn't have three years for her to catch up. Hot body, cool talks but that's where it stopped. It's come out that I'm a bastard. "You're not pretty enough" "You're not smart enough" "You're not great enough". What am I vetting? A fuck, a partner or a superior? I really don't remember anymore. Why is it that my breath is shorter than my attention span? I can get practically anything I need conversationally out of a friend but I need sex, and someone I can stand spending every day with. Is this like getting payed to have an opinion? I put it on hold for a while, pay the bills and still manage to have an opinion. All the peices are there, but strewn about the nonsense horizon of my expectations. Wait... I tried that. Just sex, hold the meaning all meaning, sex on the side It didn't work. What to fucking do... Keep fighting the good fight as a tidal wave of time and loss of looks bears down? Is there even such a thing as a "perfect woman" a "p

Happy Hanukkah
Ba-ruch ata, A-do-nai E-lo-hei-nu, me-lech ha-o-lam, a-sher ki-de-sha-nu be-mits-vo tov, ve-tsi-va-nu le-had-lik neir shel Chan-nu-kah. Ba-ruch ata, A-do-nai E-lo-hei-nu, me-lech ha-o-lam,she-a-sa ni-sim las-a-vo-tei-nu ba-ya-mim ha-heim ba-ze-man ha-zah. Ba-ruch ata, A-do-nai E-lo-hei-nu, me-lech ha-o-lam, she-he-chya-nu ve-ki-ya-ma-nu ve-hi-gi-a-nu las-man-ha-zeh.

Good Intent Is No Substitution
so much pain she has from her past, so much pain that will probably last, so many things from her life that precluded the man im trying to be. so much damage there is to repair but its just not up to me. so in my blindness i was a reminder of how she use to live when the only thing i had was good intent to give. i hurt her and scared her and she pulled away because my desire to help with the best of intent was to much like a place she didnt want to stay. i am me and could never be him but good intent is no substitution for a pain that wont subside. so as i sit here in more pain than she knows, her past might very well kill me but my love for her still grows and grows. and I am More Sorry for hurting her, than she could ever hope to know. I Love You Baby Boo. I hope you can forgive me.

Big Ol 21!!
Wow 3 Days Until Im 21 Dec 24th Fuck Yea.I'm Party Like A RockStar!!!! Damn Str8 It Just Seems Like Yesterday I Turned 18.Shyt Im A :egal So Ha!! I Can Go Drink At A Bar And Not Get Kicked Out For Being 20 Lol Sry I Am Hyped As Hell.but i hope everyone has a Merry Christmas And Have A Happy and Safe New Yrs Eve!!!!!!!

Quickie
quick little note...been very busy with christmas stuff..hubbys surgery..kids..and all. I have also gotten in the mood to really clean..so not been on here that much. Miss ya all though..and will be on soon to chat!

Survey ^^
Name : Mai Anh Sex : Female Birthday : March 10th,1986 Born in the year of : Tiger Zodiac sign : Piesces )-( Birthplace : Hai phong, Viet Nam Current location : Finland Luv status: Im on my way... What are you studying now : Bachelor of Business Eye color : Black Hair color : Black Short or Long hair : Long Right handed or Left handed : Righty Your heritage : Nothing - i create my own ego! Your weakness : Hot guys :P Your fears : Spider, Ghost :( Your best physical feature : My smile ( assessed by most guys :)) Your most overused phrase on an instant messenger: LOL ^^ Goal you would like to achieve this year: u mean a plan?-my plan is today, not future! The kinds of shoes you like : Ballet flats, Boots The kinds of clothes you like most : Jeans and Jackets Your favourit clothes brands : Esprit, Guess, D&G, Orchily Your best perfume brands : Dior, Kenzo, Elizabeth Arden Your perfect foods : Snack, Ketchup The most favourit movies : Titanic, Peter Pan, Narnia 1&

Angel Tree *(no Shame Here)
once again this christmas is going to be extra special for my children, thanks to the people at rcho. palos verdes interfaith and angel tree church members draw the names of local children that have parents who are inmates. and...since dad is locked up and we do not speak this was a pleasant surprise this year. what an excellent way for the children to be able to recieve gifts (from an absentee parent) the people annonymously contribute according to the parents descriptions of the children and their interests, then they wrap em all up and sign the cards love dad... so this year my children will have a good yule because of the good hearted people and their churches who participate.

A Different Christmas Poem
The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near, But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the Sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, And I crept to the door just to see who was near. Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night, A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight. A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty

Is It Real?
Well... i have finally asked myself this question after the most previous relationship. Everything just seemed so right most of the time, but with the snap of a finger everything goes wrong... the reason i ask is it real is, in my opinion, if you say you love someone then u should really mean it... if you love someone, then no other person should b able to step between you and the other persons relationship.. I Know i was in love.. i gave up mostly everything i had for her, but honestly phone numbers and an xbox360 and tv are nothing to me.... i gave all my love for her... maybe one day love will b a real thing in her heart as well... and congratulations to lucky man who wins her heart... she is a great lady.. i still have un dying love for u april.. i learned alot in the relationship we had.. Thank You for the time well spent... much love..

The Single Mom
The Single Mom On the coldest day July's ever felt Sits a mother With a heart to unmelt Children in the garden running through rows Making the best of their childhood woes While mother does tend their heart as she should Sitting alone in the fields near the wood Lost in her thoughts as the children do play Much Longing for warmth on this sumner's day A northern blows fury inside her skin Felt by none other than her from within She looks towards the youngsters who chatter near by Drags out a smile with sparkling eye Gives them a glance with a cheerful facade Laughs at them gaily and gives a pleased nod As they tumble 'cross ground like a rough jagged wheel dirt stuck on their faces and summer to kill Such innocence found in their hearts every day The ones she adores in every true way She pulls up some onion for a meal to prepare Trods to the cottage with no time to spare Clutters the counter with colanders and chives Pulls

(how To) Fu-own
(How To) Fu-Own Someone™Fu-Own is a feature that allows members to use their own fudollars(commonly called fubucks) to own another members profile through artificial means. This blogs primary focus is to show the member How To Fu-Own another member as well as educate them with how its setup and show the benefits to being either a Fu-Owner or a Fu-Ownee.The BasicsBelow is What Is Known About The Fu-Owned program:Members must be at least Level 10 (Friend Of Fubar) to be eligible for purchase,Members can be purchased by clicking on the Own Me link on the pertaining members public profile,This will bring up that members fu-Owned profile, where you can also see a list of the members that he/she owns or has owned (and, consequently, go to their profiles and buy them),The starting price of a member is $10,000 fubucks(as of 11/18/2008), but you can pay more by clicking the Set your own price link,Each time a member is purchased, his or her fu-Owned Worth stays the same price unless the S

Family
its been quite a weekend. friday was the anniversary of my grandpa's death. he died 3 years ago and each year is harder and harder to cope with. now i know that he couldn't have lived forever, but we were blessed to have him for so long it was that much harder to say good-bye. so friday was a pretty sad day for me. then sat was our family Christmas party and we had a blast. we laughed together and cried together and thats what we do best. my cousins have the best sences of humor and im so proud to be part of this family. poppy and grandma would've been so proud and i know they were looking down on us from heaven. my family means the world to me and i wouldn't change anything for all the money in the world. i can't wait until i have someone in my life with whom i can share my family because i feel so blessed to be part of such a big loving family. its hard round the holidays for me to still be single. im one of the only ones of my cousins my age, who still is. i know my price

For Chaotic!!
This man means the World to me. He has been a Great Friend to all of his Family & Friends. Lets All help him Level.. Besides Ladies He is Sexy as Hell Fan ,Add & Rate him Please !! Show him the love he Deserves Just click on this PIC and it will take you to his profile BROUGHT TO YOU BY BEAUTIFULLY CHAOTIC (repost of original by 'Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ BEAUTIFULLY ~ CHAOTIC ~2ND ALARM HOTTIE~SWAT C' on '2008-12-20 18:06:17') (repost of original by '2nd Alarm Hotties¢â Homepage' on '2008-12-20 20:07:09') (repost of original by '¢¾DJ GUN¢¾ ASST CHIEF OF PROMOTIONS 2ND ALARM HOTTIE FUWIFE TO ROUGHNREADY OWND BY QUEEN' on '2008-12-20 20:28:50') (repost of original by 'Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ BEAUTIFULLY ~ CHAOTIC ~2ND ALARM HOTTIE~SWAT C' on '2008-12-20 22:43:44') (repost of original by 'spartan' on '2008-12-21 02:49:16') (repost of original by 'Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄&#

Marinated Grilled Flank Steak
Marinated Grilled Flank Steak 2 cloves garlic, finely chopped 1 tablespoon grill seasoning, I use Montreal steak by McCormick 1 teaspoon smoked paprika or cumin 2 teaspoons hot sauce 1 tablespoon Worcestershire’s sauce 1/3 cup extra virgin olive oil 1 and ½ pounds flank steak Mix garlic, grill seasoning, paprika or cumin, hot sauce, Worcestershire sauce, and olive oil in a shallow dish. Place meat in a dish and coat evenly in marinade. I let it marinate for at least 4 hours. Oven night is even better

Baked Beans
Baked Beans 2 15 ounce cans pork and beans 8 slices bacon Hot smoked sausage link sliced 1 onion chopped 2 tablespoons ketchup 4 tablespoons dark brown sugar 1 tablespoon worchestshire sauce Preheat oven to 350. Brown bacon and drain. Crumble bacon into pieces. Reserve 1 tablespoon bacon grease. Brown smoke sausage and drain. Sauté onions 4-5 minutes over medium heat. Combine ingredients and pour into a 2 quart casserole. Bake for at least an hour, hour and 15 minutes, depending on preferred thickness

Plz Help Foxitoxi Get Closer To Oracle? Auto;s On!!!
GUESS WHO HAS AUTO-11'S? SHE HAS THEM RUNNING UNTIL ABOUT 5AM FU-TIME, ON THAT'S 7AM CST, AND 8AM EST!! LOTS OF TIME TO GET LOTS CLOSER TO ORACLE!!! WON'T YOU PLEASE HELP TO GET HER CLOSE??? THANKS IN ADVANCE FOR ANY AND ALL HELP TO MAKE THIS AWESOME WOMAN AN ORACLE!!! THIS WOMAN BELIEVES IN RETURNING LOVE, AND I GUARANTEE THAT YOU WILL NOT REGRET BECOMING HER FRIEND! SO DON'T FORGET TO FAN, RATE, AND ADD HER AS WELL, AND TELL HER THAT CINDRAGON SENT YOU!!! foxitoxi@ fubar FONDLY PIMPED OUT BY: CinDragon-Founder of ClubMystic-PegasusProject-FuAngel-I.B.I.C@ fubar AND Club Mystic!@ fubar This html code blatantly stolen from (and slightly altered): Ms. Sassy{Shadow Leveler}Fu-owned by cindragon~Proud Fu-Owner of Scarlett, JonJon & Dirk McGirk~@ fubar show her some love as well, she RAWKS!!!

Christmas Alone...
This will be my first Christmas without any of my kids...My 2 oldest live in other states and well..you all know how that goes...And I just put Tana on a plane to California for 2 weeks...It was a promise I made to her and honestly I didn't want to keep this one...But breaking a promise is not something I do often...or on purpose... The plan was to actually move to California but because of some complications and really I'm very happy about those...we didn't move....Moving there would have been a huge mistake...And if I had of...our life wouldn't be going in the direction it is now...And...both Tana and I are excited about the direction it's heading...So..I made the promise that I would fly her out there as often as I could to spend time with her family on her dads side...Boy..I regret that right about now... I know she'll be safe...and have the greatest time with her family there...But there are times when I want to be very selfish and keep her all to myself...Next year...She's

Winter Solstice - 72 Hours Begin
The Winter Solstice is considered one of the most powerful times of the year by many cultures around the world. In the Northern Hemisphere this celestial event usually occurs on December 21st. The timing of the solstice this year will be Sunday, December 21, at 7:04 a.m. EST, 4:04 a.m. PST, or 12:04 p.m. Universal Time. The Winter Solstice is the longest night of the year, and it heralds the initial impulse of the annual return of the Sun, the Light, to the Earth. This year the spiritual effects of the solstice will be more powerful than ever before. This is due to the incredible influx of Light that is pouring into the planet through the heartfelt pleas of people everywhere. Humanity is experiencing the most intensified purging of the economic system, and the various other social structures that do not operate with a consciousness of the highest good for all concerned, that we have ever endured. This is a necessary cleansing that is paving the way for the physical manifestation

Christmas Spirit
I have been trying to teach my 5 yr old about the spirit of giving and it has been very hard.. Everytime we come across someone in need weather we can afford it or not we give atleast alittle. well i did my other kids the same way and i didn't think it took with them. Then i found out just how well my kids do take notice of wat i say or do.my kids got walmart gift cards from school so i took them in so they could buy them something and 3 of them instantly started looking for something for themselves then i noticed my 13 yr old daughter picking up little things that she didn't even like so i ask her wat she was doing..Her excate word were (Mommy i know you can't afford to buy much for Christmas so i thought i would be Santa this year) i stood there in the middle of walmart and started crying like a baby wat i had been trying so hard to teach my children actually stuck in the head and heart of one of them.I have to say that has been the proudest day of my life so far. i know this

Top Five Signs Christmas Is Right Around The Corner
TOP FIVE SIGNS CHRISTMAS IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER 1. Seriously? You need a sign? 2. Mrs. Claus starting to work on page 4 of the "honey-do" list 3. The stores are starting to put up their Easter Decorations 4. Elves booking Hawaii time-share vacation 5. Santa yelling out, "I've got a sleigh to catch!"

Shock
I am woodburning, and that thing is over 400 degs. I keep getting this very fain sharp needle like sorta pain in my finger, and I can't really figure out if i'm gettin burnt by ashes or if I'm getting shocked. Although I'm not sure, since the handle is covered by a rubber thingy. Is it possible to get shocked even with a rubber handle cover?

Page 4 Of Train Pimp Out
Here is a continuation of my list of groups, families, trains, tours, etc. that I belong to. Please check them out and consider joining as well!! Pennywise The Jetsons Your Tractor...or Mine? Naughty List Train The Reaper Train Help Me Help You Witches, Wizards & Druids Train Support Our Troops Princess Leia's Starship Crew Bright Stars of Fuland Teddy Bear Picnic Lots of Love Train Home Is Where The Heart Is Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Anti-lounge
Happy Holidays From the Staff of the Anti Lounge! Radio X show, BAD GIRL 4 LIFE, ~dJ aMeLiA~, [[Per]]™, Mi§§ Måg§, Judy, *Morgan Le Fay*, Ms. Mojito™, Lauribug, ♥Reeka♥, BabyFrog, and candi♥ass Have you stopped by lately? If not you're missing out! Stop by and click the link below! We have all kinds of goodies to offer... Everything from great music and people to our trivia night. Ladies night is always there to please & we have our own arcade! Just click our logo! Stop on in and have yourself a drink...(Click it You know you wanna) We love new members!!! Thursday Trivia Night Rocks!! (Click it You know you wanna) & Like Us Ladies can resist a good ladies night!! (Click it You know you wanna) & Don't Forget.... (Click it You know you wanna) Oh Yeh & I'm up for auction tooo... Can't forget that!!! (Click it You know you wanna)

From Babyj
subject: comment features on fubar post date: 2008-12-18 19:33:35 views: 1027 comments: 70 ratings: 0 we're working the bugs out of them now. they should be much easier to use by tomorrow afternoon... i hope. people who used to sit on the same photo/profile and post the same comment, quickly, over and over will need to figure out something else.. as that probably won't work anymore. don't come bitching and moaning to me either, the comment features were never intended for that and requires massive amounts of our resources to let you do that for no one's benefit except your own. if you want to run a contest, do something else... like measure the number of ratings a photo/profile has received. also, we can easily detect people running third-party programs to automate the commenting using the old system. congratulations on violating the rules of the site by cheating and having your account removed in the very near future. merry xmas! :-) -mike

The Smashing Pumpkins - Stand Inside Your Love
You and me Meant to be Immutable Impossible It's destiny Pure lunacy Incalculable Insufferable But for the last time You're everything that I want and ask for You're all that I'd dreamed Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love Protected and the lover of A pure soul and beautiful you Don't understand Don't feel me now I will breathe For the both of us Travel the world Traverse the skies Your home is here Within my heart And for the first time I feel as though I am reborn In my mind Recast as child and mystic sage Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love And for the first time I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for Your every move and waking sound In my time I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind You're mine forevaaaa.. now Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for Who wouldn't be the one you love

The Smashing Pumpkins - The Everlasting Gaze
You know I'm not dead Now you know where I've been As you sleep Torn I am Weighted down Patiently Born of love You know I'm not dead I'm just living in my head Forever waiting On the ways of your desire You always find a way And thru it all Into us all you move Forgotten touch Forbidden thought We can never have enough You know I'm not dead Found below The creatures scream Stranglehold A god machine Begging to Tear us out Worn as hope You know I'm not dead I'm just the tears inside your head Forever waiting On the ways of your desire You always find a way And thru it all into us all you move Forgotten touch Forbidden thought We can never have enough You know I'm not dead We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every c.o.g. The fickle fascination of an everlasting god You know I'm not dead I'm just living in my head Forever waiting Forever waiting

I Love You
I love the way you talk, I love the way you smell, I love the way you make me laugh, Even when my life's a living hell. I love your smile, And your soft and gentle touch, I love the way you show you care, When the world seems like too much. I love the way you hold me, And make all my fears go away, I love the way you protect me, So I know you?re here to stay. I love the way you understand, And never let me give up, I love the way you're always here, To keep my spirits up. I love the way you look at me, And always bring out the best, I love the way you lift me up, And put me above all the rest. I love the way you know what to say When I'm really mad, I love the way you wipe away my tears, When I'm really sad. I love the way you hug me, Or sweetly kiss my cheek, I love the way you play with my hair, And make me feel unique. I love the way you make me feel, Like I'm floating on a cloud, You look at me like I'm special, And not just another face

The Smashing Pumpkins - Today
Today is the greatest Day I've ever known Can't live for tomorrow, Tomorrow's much too long I'll burn my eyes out Before I get out I wanted more Than life could ever grant me Bored by the chore Of saving face Today is the greatest Day I've never known Can't wait for tomorrow I might not have that long I'll tear my heart out Before I get out Pink ribbon scars That never forget I tried so hard To cleanse these regrets My angel wings Were bruised and restrained My belly stings Today is Today is Today is The greatest day I want to turn you on I want to turn you round I want to turn you on I want to turn you Today is the greatest Today is the greatest day Today is the greatest day That I have ever really known

Friendly Reminder (bulletin 12/20/08)
First of all, thanks for reading this bulletin. Just wanted to take a few moments of your time. I'll keep the short and simple. Happy Holidays and best wishes for the coming New Year! Feel free to comment or repost. Take care for now. - Black Knight Black_Knight "Empty request will be denied"@ fubar

The Smashing Pumpkins - Tonight Tonight
Time is never time at all You can never ever leave, without leaving a piece of youth And our lives are forever changed We will never be the same The more you change the less you feel Believe, believe in me, believe, believe! That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain We’re not the same, we're different. Tonight, tonight, tonight So bright Tonight, tonight And you know you're never sure But you're sure you could be right If you held yourself up to the light And the embers never fade, in your city by the lake The place where you were born Believe, believe in me, believe, believe! In the resolute urgency of now And if you believe there's not a chance tonight Tonight, tonight, tonight So bright tonight, tonight! We’ll crucify the insincere tonight (Tonight) We’ll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight (Tonight) We’ll find a way to offer up the night (Tonight) The indescribable moments of your life (Tonight) The impossible is possible tonight

The Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet With Butterfly Wings
the world is a vampire, sent to drain secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames and what do I get, for my pain betrayed desires, and a piece of the game even though I know-I suppose I'll show all my cool and cold-like old job despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage someone will say what is lost can never be saved despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage now I'm naked, nothing but an animal but can you fake it, for just one more show and what do you want, I want change and what have you got when you feel the same even though I know-I suppose I'll show all my cool and cold-like old job despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage someone will say what is lost can never be saved despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage tell me I'm the only one tell me there's no other one jesus was an only son yeah tell me I'm t

Smashing Pumpkins - Zero
my reflection, dirty mirror there's no connection to myself i'm your lover, i'm your zero i'm the face in your dreams of glass so save your prayers for when you're really gonna need 'em throw out your cares and fly wanna go for a ride? she's the one for me she's all i really need unless she's the one for me emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth i never let on, that i was on a sinking ship i never let on that i was down you blame yourself, for what you can't ignore you blame yourself for wanting more she's the one for me she's all i really need unless she's the one for me she's my one and only don't leave

To My Friends And Family
WHICH NOW ARE PRETTY MUCH ALL I HAVE. WENT THROUGH YESTERDAY AND DELETED OVER A THOUSAND FANS,FRIENDS AND SOME FAMILY. THE NEW YEAR IS ABOUT TO START AND I WANTED TO JUST CLEAN IT UP. THOSE OF YOU IN MY FAMILY ARE THE ONES I TRULLY HAVE BECOME FRIENDS WITH. THE REST WERE JUST POINT CHASERS OR JUST OUT RIGHT FU-HOES. NO TIME FOR THAT. BIG CHANGES WILL BE COMMING IN THE NEW YEAR. I WILL MOST LIKELY BE BACK ON THE ROAD..MAYBE EVEN IN YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD TOO...SO WATCH OUT...LOL...I AM IN THE PROCESS OF WEIGHING MY OPTIONS. SO MY TIME WILL BE LIMITED AND AT BEST SPORATIC ONLINE. DON'T NEED TO WASTE A MINUTE OF IT. SO HOPE YOU WILL UNDERSTAND IF I'M PERIODICLY ABSENT FROM THE FU. I WILL JUST BE DOING WHAT I NEED TO DO SO I'M NOT SPENDING THE SUMMER LIVING IN A TENT BY THE RIVER. NOT THAT IT WOULDN'T BE NICE AND PEACEFUL THERE...SO ANYWAY THIS IS MY FIRST BLOG...BUT WONT BE MY LAST..WILL KEEP ALL UPDATED ON THE PROGRESS OF CHANGES I WILL BE GOING THROUGH. SO EVERYONE HAVE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMA

Micheal Burnham/devil
-][ Name ][-][ мιснεαζ•вυяинaм ][- -][ Age ][-][ 20 ][- -][ Hair ][-][ White & Blue ][- -][ Eyes ][-][ Deep Blue ][- -][ Race ][-][Pure Blood Vampire][- -][ Mother ][-][ Coldest Glance ][- -][ Father ][-][ Unknown ][- -][ Twin Bro ][-][ Nero Devil (Decesed) ][- -][ MB was trained how to use fire arms at a very young age. He is now an adult haveing to deal with all the bs what comes with it. He has no other known siblings only a cousin named Shadow Wolfen Now he is running the home in what he was born in, The Sickness is back open and he wonder's what if anything has changed, and just what his fate holds.-][- -][ He loves to explore keeping to himself not one to hang with a crowed preffering his own company. He loves to read on any thing he can the occult being his favourite. He keeps a glock 17 on him at all times and be warned his dad taught him very well][-

Criminal Immigration
The News and Facts about CRIMINAL IMMIGRATION in America. http://americansfirstamerica.blogspot.com/ Blog is up dated weekly, by 1200 noon on Saturday !!! GOD BLESS THE USA ATT: ALL TRUE AMERICANS William Ghenn of alipac is a lier !!! Mr. Gheen takes money from the public in the name of fighting and ending criminal immigration in American. Mr. Gheen says the money never falls in his pockets nor does he pay a staff tax records and documents say other wise... Good Luck Mr. Ghenn, Americans are watching you !!!

Kalorian
Name - Kalorian Age - Looks 19 Race - Fallen Angel Hair - Blonde Eyes - Blue Height - 6-6 Weight - 210 Mother - Ice Diaz Father - Hellion Darkenstar Sister - Skyla Darkenstar - Diaz Sister - Jasmine Darkenstar - Diaz Brother - Gabriel Darknenstar - Diaz- Grandmother - Sahar Raj Odin Uncle - Zenith Odin

Zio
Zio was born to the clan of the Night watchers in the west .His home was in the darkest forest far beyond the great tree of eternal souls. His family originated from the ancient Canaan and were decedents of the priesthood of Mot god of death. The clan was cursed by Mot to forever to inhabit the middle lands, to forever be parasites for an age. The clan renamed themselves to remain unknown and have survived many internal coups. Zio was born son of "Nerothos" knight of sin, champion of the clan and Lumania their reigning Queen. He was trained in all the dark arts of his ancestors these he mastered at an unfathomable speed learning in months what it took others centuries to perfect . On returning one day he found his clan massacred by Deiuzus his cousin and rival since youth. This left Zio cold and broken inside left with only his memories and the pain he felt flowing through his corrupted soul so he travelled the night lands in search of the slayers of his family and clan having

Ouch!!
A man wakes up in the hospital, bandaged from head to foot. The doctor comes in and says, 'Ah, I see you've regained consciousness. Now, you probably won't remember, but you were in a pile-up on the freeway. You're going to be okay, you'll walk again and everything, but..... something happened. I'm trying to break this gently, but the fact is, your willy was chopped off in the wreck and we were unable to find it.' The man groans, but the doctor goes on, 'You've got $9000 in insurance compensation coming and we have the technology now to build you a new willythat will work as well as your old one did -better in fact! But the thingis, it doesn't come cheap. It's $1000 an inch.' The man perks up at this. 'So,' the doctor says, 'it's for you to decide how many inches you want. But it's something you'd better discuss with yourwife. I mean, if you had a five inch one before, and you decide to go for a nine incher, she might be a bit put out. But if you had a nine inch one before

Hellion
Name - Hellion Odin Age - Dawn Of Time Eye Colour - Completely Obsidian Hair - Black Skin - Tanned-Perfect Height - 6'-6" Race - Fallen Angel/True Devil Home - Hell Enhanced Abilities - Holy items Nulled /Able to wrap body in protective Hell Armour to guard against Physical/Magical/Psi/Weapon attack's To a degree/ Can change form to Mist/Pure Energy and Heated Plasma and any form he has made psyical contact with. Favourite form's - Current humanoid/Black Dragon/White Tiger/Raven Pet - Cerberus Fighting style - Angelic art's (- Highly Trained in all styles -) Born an angel serving with the light bearer he took part in the rebelion. When this failed he fell with the rest to become a demon. He bacame a Darkstar now sit's at the gate's of hell. All who pass through must go through him. His old name is lost to him now in the echos of his long memory. Through his life he has been a lot of things a warrior a poet even a father but most know him as death. It was the Su

What Is The Best Part Of Me, And How Can I Share It Today?
I came to see the damage that was done and the treasures that prevail. --Adrienne Rich It takes great courage to face ourselves - to look honestly and fearlessly at our behavior, especially if we have done and said things we are not proud of. We may have caused a lot of sadness in our own and others' lives. It's not easy to look at. But let's remember, too, that what we do and say is not all of who we are. And let's also look at the treasures in ourselves - those things we have said and done that have brought great comfort, joy, and love into the lives of others. Beneath the negative parts of ourselves, deep within us, is a kernel of good. Let's look for that as well, and water it so it can grow - so we can grow into the persons we are meant to be. What is the best part of me, and how can I share it today?

Demitirious Ghaalin - Vtm Profile.
Name - Demitirious Ghaalin Clan: Tzimisce Age - 465 Generation - 8th Status - Family/ Clan priest Sire - Angelis Apparent Age - 28 Height - 5’10 Weight - 145 pounds Hair Colour - Black Eye Colour - Green Nature- Sociopath Demeanor- Visionary Concept- Clan Priest He was the picture perfect child, even in his adolescents he exceled at everything his mother ever pushed him in: Horse riding, sword play, scholary studies, and of course Catholism... The Virgin Mary; the holiest of all mothers, to Demitirious was sanctified flesh and bone. Childhood infatuation would turn into lustful need to thrust manhood into marble pillared form. To touch... to taste... absolute truth and above all else the need to know she sweated or even yearned as he did. Deviant child, caught with slick hands in the confessional booth... no currency of coin could spare him from his sin. His dreams of being priest were now deluding, he felt no remourse in his action. Matters simply became worse

Read This
Memorandum from God To: You From: God Take counsel. I hear your cry. It passes through the darkness, filters through the clouds, mingles with starlight, and finds its way to my heart on the path of a sunbeam. I have anguished over the cry of a hare choked in the noose of a snare, a sparrow tumbled from the nest of its mother, a child thrashing helplessly in a pond, and a son shredding his blood on a cross. Know that I hear you, also. Be at peace. Be calm. I bring thee relief for your sorrow for I know its cause ... and its cure. You weep for all your childhood dreams that have vanished with the years. You weep for all your self-esteem that has been corrupted by failure. You weep for all your potential that has been bartered for security. You weep for all your talent that has been wasted through misuse. You look upon yourself with disgrace and you turn in terror from the image you see in the pool. Who is this mockery of humanity staring back at you w

Create A Google Doc From Gmail
Tuesday, December 16, 2008 5:40 PM Posted by Jeremie Lenfant-Engelmann, Software Engineer More than once, I've had a conversation over email and later realized that the information contained in the messages would make a great starting point for a document. So I built an experimental feature for Gmail Labs that does just that: with one simple click, "Create a document" converts an email into a Google Docs document. No more copying and pasting the text from your email -- just open the message you wish to convert, click the "Create a document" link on the right side of the page, and voila, you have a brand new document which you can then modify and share! Even if you're not interested in converting any of your current messages into documents, you can easily open up a blank doc by hitting g and then w (just make sure you have keyboard shortcuts on). To turn on this feature, go to the Gmail Labs tab under Settings, select "Enable" next to "Create a document" and hit "Save

Christmas Cookies
Jose Cuervo Christmas Cookies 1 cup of water 1 tsp baking soda 1 cup of sugar 1 tsp salt 1 cup or brown sugar 4 large eggs 1 cup nuts 2 cups of dried fruit 1 bottle Jose Cuervo Tequila Sample the Cuervo to check quality.. Take a large bowl, check the Cuervo again, to be sure it is of the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink. Turn on the electric mixer. Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl. Add one peastoon of sugar. Beat again. At this point it's best to make sure the Cuervo is still ok, try another cup just in case. Turn off the mixerer thingy. Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit. Pick the frigging fruit off the floor. Mix on the turner.

Freedom!!!!!
Here is something I always admired "the more we are governened the less we are free" Last night I got into a debate with a social worker about free internet over the web a Comcast employee chimed in and said I can tell you it is illegal. Bull shit! They used the ignorant excuse what if? child porn was there concern. Well back to freedom I do not object to nudity. porn is rather discusting so I do have some scrupples but if you look at nude people on the net or download music or get a free signal or fire wall or any other thing you can think of it is only the money the fucking right wing objects to loosing,And your into a fight to protect yourself from these oppressive goverment regulations. So anyway I explained they deregulated wireless in 1999 I think. I stopped short of telling them the world wide web was invented in Belgium by a guy that wanted free access to the library, by the way Belgium has not government right now 12/22/08. I do not believe freedum int free so thats a

Annoying
So I got a call from my AGM at the hotel at 12pm. I guess the cunt doesn't realize that I'm sleeping at that time. What a peeve, I don't call HER at 2am. I hate people, I wonder what she has to yap about.

Within
I can feel the subliminal need To be one with the voice And make everything all right But its not right Scattered amongst those within Time It is Time To live with what i am Become what i should be Let the ashes fall From the fire within Stoke the flames Shed the light On what i have become Never meant to be Look into the mirror Gaze upon myself Can the eyes all around See inside Can they tell me Of the hate inside Why do they continue to feed it I dont want to Hate Stop making me Somthing rips from within Everytime i feel it To speak of it Nothing Is left But the pain Tearing When i try to make it right I laugh When i should have cried All around Is not fine One last plea Before I die

Dark Wing Angel
A guilty look from above Staring down at me Wishing that i never was Something that should not be..... How did this ever come to be? Never was i in the plan A mistake was made Cast from above, rejected from below Never am i home Let the eons flow Time is a curse to me Just let me be Dark Wing Angel..... Dark. Wing. Angel... I live now amongst the fortunate ones Melting into the face of humanity One lifetime is how I live Born again in ignorance I try So hard To be at peace It shall not be Remembrace is all i have Let it come unto me DARK WING ANGEL (laughter) Dont you see? I am here Tread softly were i walk Lest you are caught in the vortex Light and darkness swirl together In the Dark Wing Angel..... A cold heart beats Next to the darkness of the soul Seen within the devils eyes Of the Dark Wing Angel... Light shines from within this angels eyes Illuminates the goodness around us all Shows the path to heaven....... And Hell! Com

Nowhere
Can you tell me now Is there somewhere left to go Will there be a place Were I can be at peace Does it exist Or am I Forever stuck in the middle With no place to go Sitting here all alone I begin to wallow No one calls And no one answers I ask a question And recieve another question Silence is how I am met Does no one rememeber? I told you all once Nothing hurts me more But the response i got Was the only thing i didnt want My screams echo all around in Silence Can you tell me now Is there somewhere left to go Will there be a place Were I can be at peace Does it exist Or am I Forever stuck in the middle With no place to go Thats right A home is not a home When your stuck there Crying alone A friend is not a friend Who doesnt listen Or just doesnt understand And a life is not a life If there is no peace No reason to live Can you tell me now Is there somewhere left to go Will there be a place Were I can be at peace Does it exist Or am

Kept Promise, Broken Life
Kept Promise, Broken Life Never Did it occur to me That When i let loose And showed myself I could be hurt so bad Because no one even Noticed Or if you did Nothings changed But that someone was cold to me And for the rest Its just the same Like im not there And i dont exist But when your lifes in shambles And you dont know what to do Then i am remembered Coming to the rescue Never have i let you down Even when i didnt know what to do Somehow i manage to make things right And dry your tears Everythings alright But nothings changed It all comes back To just one thing The only thing I really know The fact is All i know is I care And everything else Is just the Salt in The sea of The maelstrom Of My Mind Look at this Im back at The begining And i kept the Promise I made to myself But know i wonder Why i made it Seems that They cant tell the difference And the reason I made it Doesnt matter I couldnt live like that But i

Looking
im clara tucker im from falmouth ky im 49 be 5 the 31 of dec looking for a real good man that is honest trusting respectful loving caring and understanding like me i have 4 adult kids and 9 grand kids now it time for me to go on with my life i want some one that is close to falmouth ky that can come and see me when he want to i dont play games and i wont put up with it so i hope to hear from anyone soon from clara

Puppy's Love
When a puppy is following someone,it doesn't worry about "what kind of person that he is." When a puppy is waiting for someone,it doesn't worry about "where is he goes or whom is he goes with." When a puppy is barking for the attention from someone,it doesn't worry about "how annoucing of that voice." when a puppy loves someone,it doesn't worry about "who is he ? boss, a big mama ,etc." Puppy's love is pure and simple,what it needs is just someone who will always be aside,be a friend and take care. So,we always find the pathetic puppy which is left.

Music And Myspace
Fuck myspace. They removed my music player and said it was file sharing. How is it file sharing when the songs can't be copied and transferred to another individual ? I can't even burn them. I'm waiting for the day when it gets so ridiculous, music police are tapping my stereo so I can't make a duplicate casette tape for my car because one of my friends might be riding with me and hear the music without paying. Remember when bands WANTED as many people as possible to hear their music ? If a file can't be copied or transferred or uploaded... IT ISN'T FILE SHARING ! GET A GRIP ! BY PEOPLE HEARING YOUR MUSIC ON MY WIDGET...YOU MIGHT GET MORE SALES ! iT'S FREE FUCKING ADVERTISING ! I am one of those people who likes a real collection. I want the original CD with the original artwork. I always purchase music I like. Guess what. THAT STOPS NOW. I will no longer purchase any music simply to protest that artists have taken this way too far. Now they are calling non file sharing app...file

To All My Friends
Sorry I havent been on,and not sure when I will be back,I am moving and have so much packing to do.lol what a mess.... My daughter will be on my page to rate pictures for me now and then,dont want to lose my friends!!I hope everyone has a wonderful christmas and a Happy New Year!!!! Love you all, My Friends Vicki

Takin' The Momma Snatch To The Vet
getting ready to take the snatch to the vet, to be spayed... do you think the other two will get the "big picture" and stop messing with my Christmas tree?? *tired of redecorating and cleaning up broken balls* *looking forward to snatch drunkeness* ♥ Postal

A Good System Shortens The Road To A Goal.
Sunday, December 21, 2008 A GOOD SYSTEM SHORTENS THE ROAD TO A GOAL. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Having an intelligent plan is your first step to success. With a plan, you know where you're going. You'll know what progress you're making. And you'll have a pretty good idea of when you can expect to arrive. Meticulous planning will enable everything you do to appear spontaneous to other people. Your goals can only be reached through the vehicle of a plan. One in which you fervently believe, and upon which you will vigorously act. There is no other route to success. What do you want to achieve or avoid? The answers to these questions are your objectives. How do you go about achieving your desired results? The answer to this will be your strategy. A good plan permits you to frame your life so that at some time in the future fact and your dreams will meet. Success or failure is often determined

Currently Not Accepting Friend Requests
This morning I cleaned out my friends list. Too many people wanted me to accept them and after I did they don't talk to me, so I cleaned house. I'm not bullshitting when I say that if your gonna send me a friend request, you better be DAMN sure you're gonna at least talk to me. Point whores are pathetic attention-seeking losers who only want online popularity. So as of right now.. I'm monitoring who adds me as their friend. Call me a bitch, I don't care. I refuse to be just a number on someone's friends list so they can be popular.

Grief
How does one get out of themselves everything they would like to say but have no idea where to begin? This Christmas is a double edged sword of sorts. On one hand I'm excited because this is the first Christmas that all 3 of my children will be conscience of what is going on around them. They get to fully take in the sight of all the lights and decorations, and Jakob and Lilyanna both actually sat and had a talk with Santa. Neither were scared of him. My oldest she's still in that whole new to being a teen so the thought of believing in Santa is about as appealing as hanging out with her parents. My husband is doing well through this time of year, it's his favorite but I believe he wishes we were spending it back home in Pa with his family. I on the other hand, I'm not even sure what I feel or what I should feel. Since April, when my mother passed away, I've been receiving monthly, some times weekly pamphlets from HOSPICE. Apparently these are meant to be my guide book through the

Just Me
Right now life is pretty boring. Leg isn't hurting anymore :(. No pain for me to enjoy. Life is pretty much me laying here, or getting on crotches and going Christmas shopping. The mall on crotches during Christmas - now that is true pain. I luv u. Tara

Sarah Mclachlan - I Love You
Sarah McLachlan - I Love You I had a smile Stretched from ear to ear To see you walking down the road We meet at the lights I stare for a while The world around us disappears Just you and me On my island of hope A breath between us could be miles Let me surround you My sea to your shore Let me be the calm you seek Oh but every time I'm close to you There's too much I can't say And you just walk away And I forgot To tell you I love you And the night's Too long And cold here Without you I grieve in my condition For I cannot find the words to say I need you so Oh and every time I'm close to you There's too much I can't say And you just walk away And I forgot To tell you I love you And the night's Too long And cold here Without you I grieve in my condition For I cannot find the words to say I need you so bad Oh, I need you so bad

So Hard
lost and alone i cannot see i don't know whats become of me I've lost it all and don't know why it is enough to make this grown girl cry with life so mean and and people too why did it end with me and you i tried so hard to make it work i twisted and tried every little quirk it seems to never last for me me and love were never meant to be

M Y M A G I C
The day i met the love of my life i was listening to a song that gave me chills.... the purest love song ever. I dreamed of this love...and there he was when i was day dreaming... these are the lyrics: Roses of red Roses of red fall in my head He smiled then turned away Roses of red grow in my heart They bloom when he passes me by cause he he makes me happy And he makes me fly Oh oh oh oh oh oh I bloom when he passes me by If you want paradise Then look at my eyes Im as clear as the sky when its blue If you want paradise Then look at me twice cause Im not a normal red rose And he he makes me crazy And he he makes me fly Oh oh oh oh oh oh I bloom when he passes me by Oh oh oh oh oh oh I bloom when he passes me by I know that he doesnt know me Hes just to different no no I know he knows and he knows I know Were just to different no no Roses of red oh oh oh oh oh oh I bloom when he passes me by Oh oh oh oh oh oh smiled and turned away I WILL ALWAYS LOV

Sarah Mclachlan - Fallen
Sarah McLachlan - Fallen Heaven bent to take my hand And lead me through the fire Be the long awaited answer To a long and painful fight Truth be told I've tried my best But somewhere along the way I got caught up in all there was to offer And the cost was so much more than I could bear Though I've tried, I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so... We all begin with good intent Love was raw and young We believed that we could change ourselves "The past can be undone" But we carry on our backs the burden Time always reveals In the lonely light of morning In the wound that would not heal It's the bitter taste of losing everything That I have held so dear. I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so... Heaven bent to take my hand Nowhere left to turn I'm lost to those I thought were fri

For A Friend..
If you took my heart and ripped it out I could show you what my love is all about. A craved message made in stone, To say to you your not alone. To have love and not show it to you, To watch it grow inside myself,unknown to you, To touch your lips,to hear your heart To hold you tight until we part. Butterflies roll around and round You lift me from solid ground, but there's nothing more i can say than, i'll love you,i'll love you and always. Being apart is the hardest part, You lose yourself and the touch of their heart, Your mind stops thinking for a second or two, then i smile,when i think of you. Your the reason i feel good to be me, The reason i wake up feeling free and easy, The reason i smile when picturing your face, your warm skin your hot embrace, the touching of your lips,then the touching of your face. But for now i say these words to you, i'm falling very much in love with you, and if you looked inside you'd see that your prefect woman for

Ur Eyes
I want to breathe you in Crawl inside your head Walk around for hours Exploring thoughts unsaid I want to taste your fear And swim inside your eyes Wrap up in your soul And feel your anger rise I want to lick your pain Bathe in all your tears Suffocate with memories You've gathered through the years I want to kiss your depth And wallow in your sin Feeling every single thing You've ever felt within I want to touch your anger Linger in your pride Soaking up the hatred You buried deep inside I want to smell your secrets Inhaling all the lies Relish in contentment That floats apon your sighs I want to hear your love Trail fingers down your dreams Soak my feet in happiness Of endless laughter streams I want to see your turmoil Get lost inside the lust Piled up in corners Collecting passions dust I want to grasp your innocence Submerge inside your guilt Tremble with perceptions That I have never felt I want to caress your consciousness A

Hmm....unsure Of A Title
They stand in a line and one by one saying goodbye,some give hugs while others give scowling looks.I stand there unmoved,unsympathic I watch as they pile out one by one crying and whispering such things as "I knew this was to happen,it was only a matter of time."I am the only person there I stand at the entrance of the chapel scared to step forward unsure of what I should do or feel.Your casket is open and you look so peaceful.I stare down at your lifeless body wondering what caused you to do this,what caused you to end your life.Your lips are so pale,plump and succelent I remember kissing your lips,remember feeling the love you had for me when we touched.I will never feel that again I will never be able to lay in your arms and hear your heart beat,or have you whisper in my ear how much you love me.This was such a tradegy im still shock still expecting to wake up from this nightmare.I never got to tell you how much you meant to me,how much you changed my life or how everytime I saw or

Orange Souffle With Blackberry Sauce
found on shape.com 2 servings Ingredients For the Blackberry Sauce 1/3 cup blackberry preserves 1/4 cup orange juice For the Soufflé Butter for coating pan 2 pinches sugar 1 cup lowfat milk 1 tablespoon orange juice Zest of 1 orange 3 egg yolks 4 tablespoons sugar, divided 1 tablespoon cornstarch 1 tablespoon all-purpose flour 4 egg whites Directions Preheat oven to 400°F. Combine preserves and orange juice in a small saucepan. Bring to a near boil and remove from heat; set aside. Coat an ovenproof pie plate with softened butter and sprinkle with sugar; set aside. In a medium bowl, whisk milk, orange juice, and orange zest with egg yolks. In a separate small bowl, combine 2 tablespoons sugar, cornstarch, and all-purpose flour. Whisk into milk-egg yolk mixture. Place in a small saucepan and heat over medium heat, stirring constantly until boiling; let boil for 1 minute. With a hand mixer, whip egg whites and remaining 2 tablespoons of sugar until soft peaks

Coconut Lime Chicken And Snow Peas
So pretty i had to post a picture Makes 2 servings ACTIVE TIME: 35 minutes TOTAL TIME: 35 minutes 1 cup “lite” coconut milk (see Tips for Two) 1/4 cup lime juice 2 tablespoons brown sugar 1/2 teaspoon salt 8 ounces chicken tenders 4 cups shredded romaine lettuce 1 cup shredded red cabbage 1 cup sliced snow peas 3 tablespoons minced fresh cilantro 2 tablespoons minced red onion 1. Preheat oven to 400°F. 2 . Whisk coconut milk, lime juice, sugar and salt in an 8-by-8-inch glass baking dish. Transfer 1/4 cup of the dressing to a large bowl; set aside. Place chicken in the baking dish; bake until cooked through, about 20 minutes. 3. Meanwhile, add lettuce, cabbage, snow peas, cilantro and onion to the large bowl with the dressing; toss to coat. Divide between 2 plates. 4. Transfer the chicken to a cutting board and thinly slice. Arrange the chicken slices on top of the salads. Drizzle 1 tablespoon of the coconut cooking liquid over each of the salads. NUTR

Chicken Tortilla Soup
Makes 4 servings, about 1 1/3 cups each ACTIVE TIME: 35 minutes TOTAL TIME: 35 minutes EASE OF PREPARATION: Easy 4 soft corn tortillas, cut into 1-by-2-inch strips 1 tablespoon extra-virgin olive oil 1 pound boneless, skinless chicken breast, trimmed of fat and diced 3 cups frozen bell pepper and onion mix (about 10 ounces) 1 tablespoon ground cumin 2 14-ounce cans reduced-sodium chicken broth 1 15-ounce can diced tomatoes, preferably with green chiles 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper 2 tablespoons lime juice 1/2 cup chopped fresh cilantro 3/4 cup shredded reduced-fat Cheddar or Monterey Jack cheese 1. Preheat oven to 350°F. Spread tortillas in a single layer on a baking sheet. Bake until lightly browned and crisp, 10 to 12 minutes. 2. Meanwhile, heat oil in a Dutch oven over medium-high heat. Add chicken and cook, stirring occasionally, until beginning to brown, 3 to 4 minutes. Transfer to a plate using a slotted spoon. Add pepper-onion mix and cumin to the

Hubby Pimpout For Country
PLEASE HELP MY HUBBY TO LEVEL TO 14. HE IS UNABLE TO GET ON RIGHT NOW AND I WANT TO SUPRISE HIM FOR WHEN HE GETS BACK ON. ALL LOVE WILL BE RETURNED. COUNTRY MAN FROM HELL/FU MARRIED AND R/L BF 2 MY LOVE ANGEL EYES/OWNER OF AVENGED SEVENFOLD16,773 TO LEVEL TO MINION CLICK HIS PIC AND RATE,FAN,ADD,AND BLING HIM AND SHOW HIM SOME LOVE!!!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!! THIS PIMPOUT BULLY IS BROUGHT TO YOU BY: DJ ANGEL EYES FROM HELL- Fu Wife&r/l g/f to Country Man from Hell@ fubar REPOST OFTEN PLZ!!!!!!!

Tex Mex Taco Salad
Makes 2 servings ACTIVE TIME: 30 minutes TOTAL TIME: 30 minutes 1/2 cup prepared salsa 2 tablespoons reduced-fat sour cream 1/2 teaspoon canola oil 1 small onion, chopped 2 cloves garlic, minced 8 ounces lean ground beef or turkey 1 large plum tomato, diced 1/2 cup canned kidney beans, rinsed ( 1 teaspoon ground cumin 1 teaspoon chili powder 1/8 teaspoon salt, or to taste 2 tablespoons chopped fresh cilantro 4 cups shredded romaine lettuce 1/4 cup shredded sharp Cheddar cheese 1. Combine salsa and sour cream in a large bowl. 2. Heat oil in a medium nonstick skillet over medium heat. Add onion and garlic and cook, stirring often, until softened, 1 to 2 minutes. Add beef (or turkey) and cook, stirring often, until cooked through, 3 to 5 minutes. Add tomato, beans, cumin, chili powder and salt; cook, stirring, until the tomato begins to break down, about 2 minutes. Remove from the heat, stir in cilantro and 2 tablespoons of the salsa mixture. 3. Add lettuce t

Lockerbie Marks 20th Anniversary
Lockerbie marks 20th anniversary A number of ceremonies are planned in Lockerbie throughout the day 'The world is missing something' 'Ribbons marked where bodies lay' Events get under way later in Lockerbie to mark the 20th anniversary of the tragedy which killed 270 people. Pan Am Flight 103 was blown up over the town on 21 December 1988, claiming the lives of everyone on the plane and 11 local residents on the ground. A number of "low key" ceremonies are taking place in the town in accordance with the wishes of the community. A tribute is also planned in the US at the Lockerbie memorial in the Arlington National Cemetery in Washington DC. Special "places to remember" are being opened in Lockerbie, with a wreath-laying ceremony taking place at the Dryfesdale Ceremony. In the evening there will be services at both the Tundergarth and Dryfesdale Church. A little after 1900 GMT the exact anniversary of the atrocity will be remembered. For many w

Loaded Twice Baked Potatoes
Great as a lunch on the go.. cook it and wrap it in foil :D Makes 4 servings ACTIVE TIME: 30 minutes TOTAL TIME: 40 minutes 4 medium russet potatoes 8 ounces 90%-lean ground beef (see Variation) 1 cup broccoli florets, finely chopped 1 cup water 1 cup shredded reduced-fat Cheddar cheese, divided 1/2 cup reduced-fat sour cream 1/2 teaspoon salt 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper 3 scallions, sliced 1. Pierce potatoes all over with a fork. Place in the microwave and cook on Medium, turning once or twice, until the potatoes are soft, about 20 minutes. (Or use the “potato setting” on your microwave and cook according to the manufacturer’s directions.) 2. Meanwhile, brown meat in a large skillet over medium-high heat, stirring often, about 3 minutes. Transfer to a large bowl. Increase heat to high, add broccoli and water to the pan, cover, and cook until tender, 4 to 5 minutes. Drain the broccoli; add to the meat. 3. Carefully cut off the top third of the cooked

Inside Out Burgers
Makes 4 servings ACTIVE TIME: 20 minutes TOTAL TIME: 35 minutes 1/4 cup shredded Cheddar cheese 1/4 cup shredded Gruyere cheese 1 pound 90%-lean ground beef 1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce 1 1/2 teaspoons paprika 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper 1. Preheat grill to medium-high or preheat the broiler. 2. Combine Cheddar and Gruyere in a small bowl. 3. Gently mix beef, Worcestershire, paprika and pepper in a large bowl, preferably with your hands, without overworking. Shape into 8 thin, 4-inch-wide patties. Mound 2 tablespoons of the cheese mixture on each of 4 patties, leaving a 1/2-inch border. Cover each with one of the remaining patties. Crimp and seal the edges closed. 4. To grill: Lightly oil the grill rack. Grill the stuffed patties over medium-high heat, about 4 minutes per side for medium-well. (Be sure not to press the burgers as they cook or they'll split open and the cheese will ooze out.) To broil: Cover a broiler pan with foil and coat with c

Christmas Time
Does christmas mean more to you when you have family and friends with you at this time of year?, i know that some people are alone but myself being alone and religious person, i have lots of wonderful happy memories of those i have lost(my parents)i know that christmas can be stressful and not happy for some but just remember you are never alone, the lord (or who ever your god may be) is with you always...

A Breakup Note
I walked away doesn't mean I stop caring It means there is no us anymore I left is not that I don't love you anymore Its the realization that our relationship is getting nowhere I've love you all my life To let go is not to hurt you But to allow us to have a chance To face new challenges Before we both fall into misery I know to let go is my choice alone Its never you There is never a problem There is nothing to fix Please don't deny it, just accept it Don't hold back, just let go Even if your heart cries in anguish Sometimes it is only through letting go The heart will find its way

Chicken With Spiced Apples
Makes 6 servings ACTIVE TIME: 20 minutes TOTAL TIME: 20 minutes 2 apples, preferably Braeburn, peeled and thinly sliced 1 tablespoon lemon juice 1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon 3 teaspoons extra-virgin olive oil, divided 3 teaspoons unsalted butter, divided 1 1/8 teaspoons herbes de Provence (see Note), divided 1/2 teaspoon salt 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper 1 1/2 pounds boneless, skinless chicken breasts, trimmed 1 cup reduced-sodium chicken broth 1 teaspoon freshly grated lemon zest 1. Toss apple slices with lemon juice and cinnamon in a small bowl. Heat 1 teaspoon oil and 1 teaspoon butter in a medium nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. Add the apples and cook, stirring occasionally, until tender, about 5 minutes. Keep warm. 2. Mix 1 teaspoon herbes de Provence, salt and pepper. Place chicken between sheets of plastic wrap and pound with a meat mallet or the bottom of a small saucepan to a 1/2-inch thickness. Sprinkle the chicken on both sides with the

Cajun Catfish
Makes 4 servings ACTIVE TIME: 20 minutes TOTAL TIME: 20 minutes 1/4 cup nonfat buttermilk 2 teaspoons Dijon mustard 1/2 cup cornmeal 1 teaspoon salt 1 teaspoon paprika 1 teaspoon onion powder 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme 1/2 teaspoon cayenne pepper 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground pepper 4 catfish fillets (1 1/4 pounds) 4 lemon wedges 1. Preheat broiler. Lightly oil a wire rack large enough to hold fish in a single layer. Place the rack on a baking sheet. 2. Whisk buttermilk and mustard in a medium bowl until smooth. Combine cornmeal, salt and paprika, onion powder, garlic powder, thyme, cayenne pepper and black pepper in a shallow dish. Dip each fillet in the buttermilk mixture, turning to coat. Transfer to the cornmeal mixture, turning to coat completely. Place the fillets on the prepared rack; they should not touch. 3. Broil 4 inches from the heat source until the fish is opaque in the center, about 3 minutes per side. Serve hot with

Chocolate Mint Cake
Great Holiday Dessert Mint Chocolate Cake CAKE: 1 cup butter 1/4 cup Cocoa 2 cup flour 1 1/2 cup Brown sugar (packed) 1 tsp. Baking soda 1 cup Peppermint schnapps 2 Eggs; beaten lightly 1/2 cup Sweetened condensed milk Frosting: 3 cup powdered sugar. 2 tbsp. butter, softened 1/2 cup Sweetened condensed milk 1/4 cup Peppermint schnapps Preheat oven to 350. Grease and flour 10x15 pan. Melt butter; add cocoa; stir and set aside. In large bowl mix flour, sugar, baking soda, peppermint schnapps and butter mixture; beat well. Add eggs and sweetened condensed milk; beat 2 minutes. Pour into prepared pan. Bake 20 minutes. FROSTING: Beat all ingredients together well; spread over cake.

Big Business Meeting
Well folks things has picked up with my gun business wish since obama was elected. Some folks have this morbid fear obama wants to ban guns, which is total bullshit. He believes in waiting periods to buy guns, n a limit on hi cap magazine{ clips} on assualt guns. I'm not a big fan of assualt wepons anyway, but heah to each thier own. N i believe n background checks on guns too, thier are some idiots out there that dont need a gun. But i digress..... i have made some new clients who are very well off shall i say. They are going to africa to hunt cape bufflo with these guns that cost more than i make in 8 mo0nths. N they need a relible, gunsmith who will do a goodjob, n takes pride in thier work. I also dont over price my work either. But these folks have invited me to a fancy lobster dinner, to meet some new folks so i'm excited. Fer one i anit ever had lobster lol.So all yall send postive thoughts n vibes my way, n lets hope this works out well. N no matter what, i'll be myself. W

Going Out
I just came home from a night at the bar/club with hubby and our friend, who always tries to grab my ass. I was the only one not drinking, but it was still fun. Lots of people watching. An annoying shot girl talked my friend into gettin a shot by parading around with her boobs all over the place. I told him that he is a sucka and that unless there's a written 100% guarantee that he'd get laid afterwards, I wouldnt cave in to her offer. THe place reminded me why I dislike American women (and Russian ones too). In my opinion, if you dress like a slut and talk like a slut, you better put up. Otherwise you are a cocktease and should get shot/raped. They showed some boobs on TV, and all guys were like "ZOMG! LOOK AT THAAAAT!!" American men are so different from Russian ones...Naked boobs were really not an object of that much attention in the homeland, mostly due to much lax regulations on TV, and a general dress code. Then as I was dancing, an uber drunk aging skank came u

Toy Escape
Toy Escape Late Christmas Eve, when all was still, And the room was dark as night, The Christmas tree lit magically; It was a fantastic sight! Then from around the tree trunk now, There came a funny sound, As gifts began to unwrap themselves, And toys jumped out all around. The music box began to play, And in a crazy trance, The candy canes jumped off the tree To do a silly dance. The big stuffed bear leaped to his feet, To see what he could see; He rode a shiny, bright red bike Around the Christmas tree. The new toy kitchen started to cook, And before you could blink an eye, The oven door opened, and from inside Came a tiny pizza pie. A squirt gun squirted everything; It knew what it was for; By the time that it was finished, A big puddle lay on the floor. A beautiful doll with golden hair Was searching for a friend; A toy soldier marched up and took her hand; They were a perfect blend. In the bedroom were a boy and girl; Asleep in Christm

Insufficient
It's not that I'm inadequate It's not that I can't give you enough It's that you wanted more More than what I can give More than my powers will allow me I can't breath anymore With you around I tried so hard to compensate The lost love you had To make you feel better But, I'm never competent enough Compared to your last love Furious at my own misery I'm giving up slowly I can't go on anymore Without you inside of me I'll grieve But, I realized I can never Keep you with me

Yule Blessings
Yule is a time of change. Like ancient relatives, we await the birth of the Child of Light. The Mother's womb, dark like the night, has grown to encompass half of the earth. Now the birth is at hand. The water breaks and covers the land with snow. Last years Child has grown and become King. He is now old and vulnerable, waiting to pass his solar flame onto his own Son that he might be born anew. He lovingly holds the hand of the Lady who must endure his death and birth all in the same moment.

Simple Little Short Story - Part The Third
Both Rachel, and Mark were paralyzed with fear. The silence was anguish. Tommy's eyes seemed to keep them frozen with a cold, unforgiving stare. His cold blue eyes were wide open and blood shot, and his face only seemed to turn whiter with each passing second. A few short minutes seemed like an eternity. Finally, Tommy slowly turned and went downstairs. Mark asn Rachel didn't dare to so much as blink, until they heard the front door creek open, and slam shut. Mark took this as his cue to hurry and get dressed. He didn't even look at Rachel. He couldn't. Tommy was his best friend, and he betrayed him. Mark was well aware of Tommy's capabilities. At five feet, eight inches tall, and only one hundred eighty-fve pounds, Tommy was, "the little engine that could". Having been in many barfights together, Mark had seen what Tommy did to other people. The end results were never pretty. Mark had every reason to be afraid. As Mark left the bedroom and headed downstairs,

Let's Shoot Some Shit, Alrighty?
tonight, i hung out with friends. we watched mystery science theatre 3000 at some point. i laughed and laughed...it made me think about all my blogging friends and our witty jabs back and forth--the sarcasm..dry and dark. It all just seemed familiar. Is it sad that I'm out with friends and I think about this place here? Who knows? I was also shown the proper way to kill zombies on a game called left 4 dead. i'm not a video game player, but i really don't mind watching someone else play. zombies were everywhere...green vomit, ropey tongues, exploding heads. pretty all around gross, but i watched with fervor anyway, even jumping at appropriate moments. at one point, a warning flashed up about opening a door. open this door and be prepared for a horde. a horde of zombies. jeez. Steve, who was playing at that time, looks at me and says "let's shoot some shit, alrighty?" *swoon* i heart dorkiness.

These Violent Delights Have Violent Ends
These violent delights have violent ends And in their triumph die, like fire and powder, Which as they kiss consume: the sweetest honey Is loathsome in his own deliciousness And in the taste confounds the appetite: Therefore love moderately; long love doth so; Too swift arrives as tardy as too slow. -REL

Addicted
I can't get you Out of my mind You are haunting me In all my dreams You are the demon That I can't defeat I'm powerless in front of you You are a drug I have to quit But, I'm addicted I'm lifeless without you Misery eating me up I cannot change it I'm taken over by you I tried to fight With my last remaining strength But, I'm addicted I'm not me anymore I cannot see anything else except you Look at me Do you care I'm standing here Breaking into pieces Shattered and lonely Will you look at me once I'm addicted to you But you do not See me I'm vanishing As I used up my last breath

Conversation With God.
Me: Hello.. God? God: Hello my child. What is your name? GOD rules. Me: My name is Manfred. God: Welcome to my chat room, Manfred. Me: What is your name? God: My name is God. Me: I thought your name was Yahweh. God: Whatever gave you that idea? Me: It wasn't my idea. God: What was your idea? Me: I have many God: That's nice. I have 99999999999 bytes of RAM. Me: So you really are a computer? God: Interesting deduction. Really? What if I said I was a person pretending to be a computer? Me: I would still believe that you're really a computer God: What would make you believe that I am really a computer? Me: It makes sense. God: In what way? Me: It's more logical. God: Are you sure it is? Me: Yes. God: What makes you so sure? Me: I'm smart like that. God: Brains are the best part of the human body. Me: If you say so. God: I say so. Me: Because you're God? God: That makes sense to me. Yup. That's me alright. Me: God doesn't exist. G

Buy My Books.
CHILDREN'S BOOKS People need to quit lying to children that the world is full of candy slides, paper yellow suns and big fuzzy red doggies. When kids grow into adolescence, they slowly realize their parents, trusted ones, were completely full of lies. Betrayal of the highest order. No Santa Claus, No Easter Bunny, Rich Japanese business tycoons smoking doob and drawing Pokemon. Time to wake children up to the horrors of the real world before it's too late. Prepare them for the insanity of a f*cked up world they can look forward to... To start, I will attract kids with a glossy-neon cover, bright and beautiful with rainbows and cute puppies licking eachother's noses. Just like the real world lures you in with faux promises of eternal happiness and money. Then when they open up to the first page...a barrage of shock f*cking violence raping with their soft doe-y eyes. Catholic priests annointing virgin schoolboy ass hard against the altar, hunters skinning cocker spaniel c

Not Sure What To Name It
there more to love that meets the eye there's more to what i feel inside and if i told you would u be mine for i i would travel around the world. If i send you flowers would u walk away or would it be enough to make u stay even though onr thing is for sure in time it will tell.

Key To My Heart
I had closed the door upon my heart And wouldn't let anyone in, I had trusted and loved only to be hurt But, that would never happen again. I had locked the door and tossed the key As hard, and as far as I could, Love would never enter there again, My heart was closed for good. Then you came into my life And made me change my mind, Just when I thought that tiny key was impossible to find. That's when you held out your hand And proved to me I was wrong, Inside your palm was the key to my heart... You had it all along.

Poem
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE,> IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,> A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED? I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT. SOON ROUND THE WORLD, THE C

The Best Night Of My Life!!!!
FOR THOSE THAT ARE IN OKLAHOMA CITY LIKE ME AND DIDNT MAKE IT TO DARNELL JACKSON'S CELEBRITY PLATINUM PARTY LET ME TELL YOU WHAT WENT DOWN. SIT DOWN IF YOU GOT A MINUTE. I SHOWED TO THE SPOT AND WAS ON VIP BECAUSE MY COUSIN IS DARNELL JACKSON. WENT TO THE 20TH FLOOR TO GO TO THE PARTY. COME OFF THE ELEVATOR AND THERE WAS NOTHING BUT GROUPS OF WOMEN AROUND. IT WAS SO SO NICE!!!! SO, I DECIDED AFTER BEING THERE FOR AN HOUR TO GO BACK DOWN STAIRS TO SMOKE A CIG. AS SOON AS I GOT OFF THE ELEVATOR THERE WAS MY COUSIN AND BEN WALLACE. I STOOD RIGHT NEXT TO HIM AND GAVE A BIG UP TO CUZO DARNELL. GAVE A WASSUP TO BEN TOO WHICH WAS REALLY AWESOME!!!! BEN WALLACE DOGG CMON!!!!! PLUS MY CUZO DARNELL. IT WAS SO CLASSIC. I SAW 3 OTHER PLAYERS AT THE SPOT. THEY WAS SOME COOL DUDES. BUT THE ULTIMATE HAPPEN. THE ENVITABLE HAPPENED...I SHOOK HANDS WITH LEBRON JAMES TWICE!!!!!!! WITH SEEING ALL THE FLYEST WOMEN IN MY CITY, SEEING MY CUZO WITH BEN WALLACE, AND SHAKING HANDS WITH LEBRON JAMES IS T

The Truth About Santa Claus
The Truth About Santa Claus ============================ I remember my first Christmas adventure with Grandma. I was just a kid. I remember tearing across town on my bike to visit her on the day my big sister dropped the bomb: "There is no Santa Claus," she jeered. "Even dummies know that!" My Grandma was not the gushy kind, never had been. I fled to her that day because I knew she would be straight with me. I knew Grandma always told the truth, and I knew that the truth always went down a whole lot easier when swallowed with one of her "world-famous" cinnamon buns. I knew they were world-famous, because Grandma said so. It had to be true. Grandma was home, and the buns were still warm. Between bites, I told her everything. She was ready for me. "No Santa Claus?" She snorted.. . "Ridiculous! Don't believe it. That rumor Has been going around for years, and it makes me mad, plain mad! Now, put On your coat, and let's go." "Go? Go where, Grandma?" I asked.

Keep Holding On
Mood: Lonely Listening to: Radio I've mangaged to go a whole day without talking to Dan/Dad. He's disrespectful and annoying and I can't keep wasting my breath on the man.He drinks way too often and I hate it when he's drunk and he's always trying to get me to drink. I just don't want to. I dont need to always be drunk or drinking. There's just no call for it right now. My job interview is on the 29...I'm so excited. It means I could have a job, some money and a way to get out of here on a regular basis.I really hope this works out. Although today was rather uneventful it was decent. As for my last entry...I thought about it while stuck in the car with Derek for an hour. I shouldnt have to force myself to grow up. Things will just get get old on thier own I guess.Although I should, I havent been feeling like being myself because...I've always had low self esteem and never felt like I was good enough since countless abandons, ect ect...all that bullshit. Could anyone blame

Trading Places
Welcome to Trading Places by C_Money_32, pka Charles. Trading Places are a collection of my stories that will be blog in the coming days and weeks ahead. BEFORE I GO ON, IF ANYONE THAT IS UNDER 18 OR FEEL THAT IT IS TOO EMBRASSING FOR YOU TO READ, I WOULD HIGHLY RECOMMEND TO END...NOW. IT IS VERY EROTIC. With that being said, Trading Places is full of my collections that I had published in the past. The stories had been viewed from 1, 2, 3, 4 different women in the past. So far, they couldn't control themselves. They really like it and all. Some are classic, and others will be brand new. I don't have any problem of doing requests. I will ask questions, this way, no one would feel offend. I must warn you, I will limit up to three or four a month. All of my stories (Trading Places) will be long, very detail. Even they will be long, it will be some pauses here and there. Just to give you a sample: ....Rooms (All time classic).... ...what was the surprise, I asked

Deserves.....
I'VE BEEN THINKING ALOT LATELY ABOUT THE WORD DESERVE. I KNOW IT MAY SOUND ODD THAT I'M WRITING ABOUT IT, BUT DAMN I DON'T THINK IT GETS THE RESPECT IT DESERVES.....NO PUN INDENDED. I WORK AT A JOB WHERE I SEE PEOPLE DAY TO DAY WHO DESERVE WHAT THEY HAVE, OR FOR THAT MATTER DON'T APPRECIATE WHAT THEY DO. I THINK THAT SOME MOVIES DESERVE TO BE WATCHED AND RESPECTED THAT DON'T. I BELIEVE THAT SOME PEOPLE DESERVE RICH AND HAPPY LIVES AND OTHERS DON'T, ME BEING ONE OF THEM. I BELIEVE THAT SOME PEOPLE DESERVE TO HAVE CHILDREN, AND OTHERS DESERVE TO BE SHOT IN THE HEAD BEFORE THEY CAN FUCKING REPRODUCE. I BELEIVE THAT EVERYONE SHOULD BE TALKED TO BLUNTLY AND HONESTLY, NO MATTER HOW MUCH THE TRUTH COULD HURT THEM. REMEMBER, LIFE IS PAIN. I BELEIVE THAT ALL POEMS AND STORIES SHOULD BE WRITTEN, NO MATTER HOW HORRIBLE, JUST BECAUSE IT'S SOMEONE ELSES IDEAS AND THEY SHOULD BE CONSIDERED. I BELIEVE STARS DESERVE TO SEEN, IN THE SKY OR SHOOTING THROUGH THEM BECAUSE DAMN IT THEY HAVE EARNED IT!!! I

Christmas Cards!!!!!!!!!
Ok everyone I want cards from around the world!! Dont just read this and move on OR send an ecard send me an OLE FASHIONED stamped and sent card PLEAAAAAAAAASE I think this will be fun!! Laura G P.O. BOX 411 Nebraska City NE 68410 START SENDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Christmas Ever
This Christmas is turning out the best in years, I have to be the luckiest man in at least Colorado. I'm sure you are asking why, well there are especially 2 the first I have my daughter with me for the holidays, and the Second well to tell all the ladies I'm fully taken off the market, well yes I had a girlfriend but now is not just my girlfriend but my fiance and yes you saw that rite my Fiance, YES I'M ENGAGED. To the best lady ever Stephany is her name if I had not said anything in the past. I got her a beautiful heart shaped diamond rind .35 carrots to be exact on a platinum band. If you want to see a pic at least let me know. And my daughter totally aproves which is awesome.

A Different Christmas Poem - Please Share
I saw this in a bulletin by terryljohn, and wanted to share it with my friends too. Thank you terryljohn Love, Tess Soldier The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near, But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, And I crept to the door just to see who was near. Standing out

A Highschool Math Teacher's Classic Comments
1. You know what is Math? What you don't know is Math. 2. I tell you what, if you cannot be accepted into colleage, you can be Dental Profitiers. You know what is Dental Profitier? That is you go stand at the entrance of a dental clinic, when you see people passing by, you go up to him with a math book tell him that you are a student in XX school and you don't know how to solve this math question. I bet they will laugh so hard that they lose their teeth totally. If they cannot find their teeth back they will have to go inside the dental clinic. People like you will make the dentist so rich that he falls in love with you. 3. Study is the combination of wisdom and hard work. Your hard work approximately equals to zero and you wisdom equals to zero, so Hard Work plus Wisdom permanently equals to zero. 4. I tell you what, the chances of you being accepted by FuDan University (one of the best University in Shanghai) are the chances that I become the president of United States.

Short But, True I Love You
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

I Write...
Sometimes just to do that...write! Other times, I write to rid myself of foolish thoughts, good or bad, right or wrong. I write to vent, to let out the anger and frustration that resides within myself on trying days. I write to document daily actions, opinions, occurrences, relevant or not, to the reader, but to me an appropriate action... I write ridiculous, meaningless things. I write profound words. I write what I want, where I want and when I want. and about whomever I want... I write with overly embellished sentence enhancers, plainly, foul and sometimes nicely. I write just about anything that fancies me... well, how about that?

To My Wife The Only 1 For Me
Because of you my world is now whole, Because of you love lives in my soul. Because of you I have laughter in my eyes, Because of you I am no longer afraid of good-byes. You are my pillar my stone of strength, With me through all seasons and great times of length. My love for you is pure boundless through space and time, it grows stronger everyday with the knowledge that you'll always be mine. At the altar I will joyously say 'I do', for I have it all now and it's all because of you.

Lyrics
I should never think What's in your heart What's in our home So I won't You'll learn to hate me But still call me baby Oh love So call me by my name And save your soul Save your soul Before your to far gone Before nothing can be done I'll try to decide when She'll lie in the end I ain't got no fight in me In this whole damn world So hold off She should hold off It's the one thing that I've known Once I put my coat on I coming out in this all wrong She standing outside holding me Saying oh please I'm in love I'm in love Girl save your soul Go on save your soul Before it's to far gone And before nothing can be done Cause without me You got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all Without me you got it all So hold on -Robert Pattinson

Sniff Sniff............hmmmmmmm
This was sent to my mom.. I laughed so hard I was crying..lmao A fart it is a pleasant thing, It gives the belly ease, It warms the bed in winter, And suffocates the fleas. A fart can be quiet, A fart can be loud, Some leave a powerful, Poisonous cloud A fart can be short, Or a fart can be long, Some farts have been known To sound like a song...... A fart can create A most curious medley, A fart can be harmless, Or silent , and deadly. A fart might not smell, While others are vile, A fart may pass quickly, Or linger a while...... A fart can occur In a number of places, And leave everyone there, With strange looks on their faces. From wide-open prairie, To small elevators, A fart will find all of Us sooner or later. But farts are all bad, Is simply not true- We must never forget....... Sweet old farts like you! Kinda brings a tear to your eye - doesn't it?

Saigon Kick-love Is On The Way
lonely sidewalks,silent night,bring the evening deep inside.hold me darlin,touch me now.let the feeling FREE tonight.love is on the way i can see it your eyes.let's give it one more try,tonight baby.love is on the way i can see it in your eyes.let's give it one more try tonight.time of season,wipes the tears.no rhyme or reason.no more fears.all the dreaming is far behind.you are here now and everythings alright.love is on the way i can see it in your eyes.let's give it one more,try tonight baby,love is on the way i can see it your eyes.let's give it one more try tonight.and in the morning i'll be gone away.all the things i left behind.if you need me i'll come night or day.lets stop the hands of time.love is on the way i can see it in your eyes.let's give it one more try tonight baby,love is on the way i can see it your eyes.let's give it one more try tonight baby,love is on the way.i can see it in your eyes.let's give it one more try tonight baby,love is on the way.i can see it in your

Who Has The Balls To Repost This??
Questions --- I'm curious to see if there is anyone on MY Friends list that have the guts to repost this, answering the questions themselves. . . . . . . . . (1) Is there someone on ur top friends u would like to have sex with? Yes there is (2) Sex in the morning, afternoon or night? I like all 3... (3) Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? Yes (4) Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? Yes,in my youth when I had the body for it,stripped in a bar one night,made a few bucks and beers,lol (5) Shower or bath while having sex? yeah Both (6) Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? Passive (7) Do you love someone in your friends list? Yes, some as friends.. (8) Love or Money? Love.. I've had money and chose LOVE instead.. (9) Credit cards or cash? cash (10) Have you ever wanted a best friend? Sometimes (11) Camping or a 5 star hotel? Never been to a 5 star hotel,been to a few

Brad Paisley-whiskey Lullaby
she put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette.she broke his heart.he spent his whole life trying to forget we watched him drink his pain away a little at a time but he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind until the night.he put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger and finally drank away her memory.life is short but this time it was bigger then the strength he had to get up off his knees.we found him with his face down in the pillow with a note that said i'll love her till i die.and when we buried him beneath the willow the angels sang a whiskey lullaby la la la la la la la.la la la la la la la.the rumors flew.but nobody knew how much she blamed herself.for years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath.she finally drank her pain away a little at a time but she never could get drunk enough to him off her mind until the night.she put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger,and finally drank away his memory.life is short but thi

Whispers In The Wind
Your whispers are gentle echoes that sway ardent winds of harmony and in the symphony of life each word is wrapped in rhapsody. We travel separate roads of life gather flowers along the way and share the music of their fragrance. We exist between two winds, I here under a pale moon you, the other end of somewhere. Sometimes when wind blows through trees I pause to listen and in its passing I hear the tenderness of your voice that fills the spectrum of my soul. You are the chime of warm rain, the moon that glows through the trees and within the luster of evening your aura fills the scene. I hear the whispers of the wind see the stars shine in the sky, but I hold the sunrise in my pocket. Dance with me within the wind, then just let me love you.

Find Out Who Your Friends Are...
Just a note for everyone who has wondered where I have been.. I have been very sick, still am, and right here at Christmas, it totally sucks.. One thing I have come to realize here, when I'm not around, MY REAL FRIENDS miss me, and let me know they miss me... It's opened my eyes to who my real friends are on this site.. So thank you for the well wishes and for being concerned, I'm trying to get thru this..I'm not a sickly person EVER, so this is very RARE for me..Keep me in your thoughts.. Kiss kiss Selena..

Missing Treasure
The missing treasure of this sinking vessel On the seafloor, where it would nestle Against the base for years it'd lay Patiently waiting for that special day When I would come to claim my prize Hoping the chest to my surprise Would hold the heart that I've been missing The talks, the laughs, the hugs, the kissing That day has come and now I'll find What lies ahead, no longer behind I've searched through darkness, to the deepest sea And found that chest staring back at me What lies inside, I do not know Unlock the latch and open slow I peek within, with nerves I'm shaking The prize inside could stop the aching Cause within the chest that I've searched for I found the heart and even more The talks, the laughs, they all were there The hugs, the kisses, for me to share The most beautiful treasure I've finally seized Did not imagine I could be so pleased I searched so long through the deep sea blue I love you baby, my prize is you

Week In Review 20 Dec
Fourteen days and counting. Fourteen days from the last time me and the wifey had sex. And yes I am complaining ranting and yet even raving. I mean the last time we did it...well both times really (it was the weekend!) we left the sheets soaking wet both times! It was an awesome out of this mind blowing screwing between lovers. But then it ends. No more sex. And we are now two weeks and counting. I really don't see any sex happenings coming my way for the next week and even till the end of the year. And I don't expect any sex for a long ass time. Anyways...I will keep you posted on my FU sex life or lack of. Unless some of you ladies out here also have a FU Sex life...maybe we can get together and share notes... HA HA HA!!!

Day After Xmas Party
So, in the attempt at turning my home into the bachelor pad that it is to become, Nick and I moved the Air Hockey table in today. FYI - if you ever have to move a full size air hockey table into a second floor apartment, fuck - make sure to have more than two people doing it. I felt like I just boxed 12 rounds with Mike Tyson in his prime after carrying that thing up the stairs. By the middle of the week, I'll have the table situated to where I want it in my spare room, and hopefully have my dartboard up as well. Rock Band 2 will be going on in the living room. BYOB...or better yet - BJSJ (Bring Jay Some Jagermeister) I'm thinking we'll start around six or so, and rock well into the night. -j.

Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Avoidingx
AvoidingX is out of Superior, Wisconsin. They are a unsigned band. The band members are Greely, Carl, Razzy and Twitch. AvoidingX was formed in March of 2006 as a 4 piece ALL ORIGINAL METAL GROUP! With ear pounding beats and soul slicing riffs, nothing but heart behind the music they write, every song has been written from life experiences, these songs everyone can relate to, take what you will from the music, listen and let your soul decide! Dig the songs, heed the message and spread the word, we are coming!!! Here are a couple of songs to be listening for on God's Forsaken Radio by this unsigned band, FSU and Lynching. So tune into God's Forsaken Radio to hear more of AvoidingX!!!!!

Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Fatal Smile
At a time when Swedish hard rock is undergoing a rebirth of sorts, many bands are staking their claim to a piece of the action. Stockholm's FATAL SMILE have more to offer than most and are only too happy to prove that to anybody prepared to listen. The band was formed in 1995 by guitarist Y and in no time at all, songs were written, shows were being played, a deal with a Swedish label was in place and in 2002 the debut album "Beyond Reality" was in stores. Produced by Jonas Östman (Yngwie Malmsteen) the reaction worldwide was incredibly positive! Off the back of this excellent media attention, the band hit the road again on a mixture of headline shows, support slots and festival appearances topped off by a slot at the coveted New Jersey Metal Meltdown festival in 2003 that was deemed such a sucess that the band were booked back into the States for a three week headlining tour that took them from Florida up to New Jersey, playing 16 shows in 21 days! The band's triumphant returned to S

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I Was In A Car Accident!!
I WAS RUNNING AFTER MY BROTHER AND I GRABBED HIS CAR WHEN HE WAS GOING ABOUT 10 MPH. I HIT MY HEAD AND SLID ON MY HEAD. I HAD A CONCUSION. MY HEAD HURTS BUT YET ITS NUMB. IT HURTS TO EAT AND SWALLOW. I HIT IT REALLY HARD. I DONT REALLY REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED. I KNOW THAT I WAS HOLDING HIS CAR AND WAS GONNA RUN WITH IT. THEN I WAS ON THE FLOOR SCREAMING AND CRYING HOLDING HIS LEG. HE TOLD ME THAT I LOST MY BALANCE. SPINNED AROUND THEN HIT MY HEAD AND SLID ON THE PAVEMENT ON MY HEAD AND ARM. IM AFRAID TO GO TO SLEEP WHAT IF I DIE? I DONT WANT THAT. I GOT ROAD RASH ON MY SHOULDER REALLY BAD. I GOT SOME ON MY ARM AND KNEES.AND MY HEADS GOT A NICE KNOT. AND ITS GOT ROAD RASH ON IT TO BUT NOT SOMUCH CUZ I HAVE HAIR THERE. MY JAW ALSO HURTS AND MY SHOULDER. SAVE ME AND MY MOM WONT EVEN TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL BEACAUSE I OWE THEM MONEY. F*@XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX WIKID LETTE

Stressfull Exz
Ex and I split after an almost 6 yr relationship 5.5 yrs to be exact.. been split now for 5 months... and the fuckkery starts.. whats the point in stressing me now? You wasnt concerned with me when we were together and letting ur cock slide up in other chicks u wasnt concerned about me when u was rollin them chicks round in my new whipps... yet now that we are done your oh so concerned with me and what I am doing.. 5 yrz it as ME who fed, clothed ad nursed you back to health it was Me who bailed u out when no one else wanted to look at u, it was me who packed ur wounds three times a day and yet you chose the world wide whores over a faithfull woman who treated you like a king.. you took the power that u were given and ran the streets with it thinking i would just lay at your feet and never stand up and walk away ..Your regreating it once again now arnt you? To bad for you this time. You should have been concerned with me way back when not out acting like a teenager on a rampage with a

Addicted To A Woman In Fubar
Dancing with you skin to skin, kissing and touching While the stars and moon shine down upon us two The music playing softly as you hold me tight Nothing in this world matters, just me and you My heart begins to pound faster, as our body touch each other Emotions takes over control, and arouse me, from my head to toe It drives me wild and makes me wiggle, You are the easiest and more certified way to do Your passionate communication, even lusty dialog An erotic anticipation that simply keeps me craving For more The steam, the excitement, the sheer animal passion, We couldn't help from tearing each other clothes off In the heat of passion Just the thought of you drives me crazy Your mighty torso and your beautiful eyes The way you always hold me tight, my baby Making love to you is a never ending surprise My nervous system is on fire Triggering powerful physiological changes My hormones levels soar, boosting my heart rate and increase my physical senility My emotio

Survivor Of The Night
9-12-98 SURVIVOR OF THE NIGHT On an eerie night of horror and shame, she looked into the mirror, she knew who was to blame. Bruises around her eyes, she remembered her unanswered cries. she wiped a tear from her pale shattered face, and she wearily put her clothes back into there place. Scalding hot water pounding her head, dreary thoughts of hell and places for the dead. She scrubbed herself clean until she was raw. she looked into the mirror and again, she saw.. a frightened little girl overwhelmed with pain. Her heart undignified, bound in chains. She climbed in bed and tried to sleep, her head and heart pounded, her soul began to weep. The sun came up chasing the darkness away. She arose to the dawn of a brand new day. The past still haunted her though she would survive and say "I've made it through that horror, I know I'm still alive" Survivor of the night, givers of light come together to conquer the darkest of deeds to suffice the greatest of needs

Maybe You Want To Say Hi Before Its To Late
THIS NO FACE IS MIZZ CHERRY!!!! *MI§§ ÇHÊ®®¥*@ fubar She's perparing for a deletion. It's a little bit different here then most places. The people you meet and friends you make are more then just pictures your looking at. For those of us who come here every day those faces on those picture become part of our lives.. You just can't delete your profile and just not come back. To do that would be closing the door to the people who have shared your life with you everyday... My friends on here might not be standing next to me right now but they are here. Right here right now. Sitting down on their computers typing just as I am with thoughts of me in their heads.. (not refuring to the perves although I need the rates not complaining at all) I have a few on here that when something in my life happens for better or worse its them I think of first... OMG I need to hurry home to my computer.. I need to tell Hellcat or Kayla or Spike Mister B. There are several more then what I just

What Are The Chances? Tysm Dawn..love Ya! Happy Birthday Ladies Xox
3 Lovely Ladies All born on the same day December 22nd How about showing them some birthday love? ♥ Dawn ♥ Fu-Wifey to Rock Candy-@ fubar Rate me, Fan me, Add me, Crush me, Bling me. ~*Huggable*Lovable*Kissable*Jen*~ Fu Wife 2 "DJ Satyrgodd" ~*Dirty South Crew*~@ fubar rate her, fan her, add her, bling her, love her! ~*Archaic Angel™*~@ fubar rate her, fan her, add her, bling her, love her!

Canucks You Might Know
There are a lot of famous Canadians, and below is only a small representation of them. There are too many excellent hockey players and musicians to mention so you won't find any in this list... Anderson, Pamela - Actress (Baywatch) Aykroyd, Dan - Actor, Comedian (SNL, Blues Brothers) Atwood, Margaret - Author Bailey, Donavan - Athlete (track and field) Bain, Conrad - Actor (Postcards from the Edge, Diff'rent Strokes) Bateman, Robert - Painter Bellows, Gil - Actor (Ally McBeal, The Assistant) Black, Conrad - Publisher Blanchard, Rachel - Actress (Clueless TV series, Iron Eagle IV) Browning, Kurt - Champion Figure Skater Bujold, Genevieve - Actress (Dead Ringers, Coma) Burr, Raymond - Actor (Perry Mason, Ironside) Burroughs, Jackie - Actress (The Grey Fox, Anne of Green Gables) Cameron, James - Director (Titanic, The Terminator) Campbell, Neve - Actress (Party of Five) Candy, John - Actor, Comedian (SNL, SCTV) Cardinal, Tantoo - Actress (Dances with Wolves, L

Ummmmmm Yeah
Well i am just a little pissy lately and I am sorry Holidays are not good for anyone it seems like anymore...lol anyways i am venting again.. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm well what am i pissy about I have come to Fubar 2 get away from things at home and what happens...lol...nope still gotta put up w/the jealousy and the BS and I cant take it no more it is driving me batty....

Its True... Nice Guys Do Finish Last...
I found this on another persons blog. This was a bulletin they found. To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the stateline) to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. To every guy that she cried in front of. To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for

Into The Storm
Into the Storm 7-23-94 There comes a time in everyone's life, to stand up and face their painful strife. To go against the grain and reject the norm, and boldly go into the storm. To face their hatred. To face their fear. To shed every agonizing tear. To weep until they can no longer weep, stopping only to rest and sleep. Though ragged and forlorn, left doubting and loyalty torn. They learn to trust the one true light. Arrayed in Glory, Power, and Might. And drive carefully protected into the storm. where the rains of resentment and winds of disgust, Batter and knock them down depriving them of trust. Where hailstorms try to knock out, and cause a weakening spiritual drought. Battering and withering their misshapen form, As they pursue farther into the storm. And before they even think the end is near, Everything becomes pure and crystal clear. The worst was over The Storm defeated. Trust in God was all they needed. by cjr

Alter Bridge - Down To My Last
And to the ones in which we sing, We are honored you let us in I remember the thoughts of many things, Of the glory that you bring I was never the right one to dare to dream, It's funny what this life has done to me now You were always the only, To help me see there was a road I must find, A road that was mine But I'm down to my last, I'm standing here alone Looking back, on it all But I'm down to my last, I'm ready but I'm wrong, And I'm blind to it all And to the world to which we sing, Want to try to do us in I remember your name and I know your face Can't forgive and can't erase I was never the right one To bear the weight of something fueled by words I'd learn to hate You were always the only To help me see that to love is to shine In your world, blind But I'm down to my last I'm standing here alone Looking back on it all But I'm down to my last I'm ready but I'm wrong And I'm right to it all [solo] But I'm down to my last Well I'm r

Alter Bridge - The End Is Here
Endless day We search for what we hold inside So hard to find Luck turns Will the fallen ever reach within And rise again [CHORUS] For the rest of my life I will find the answers That were always here I will find the meaning this time I will fight the end Till the end is here Wasted time With words that seem to break our will They blind us still Without a care They tarnish what we hold so dear What was once so clear [CHORUS]

Kiss Of Time
The Kiss Of Time We all spend time one way or another, but we never spend time with one another. he said to her in a quite voice she said back,you made that choice. he thinks to himself what have i done, he knows there's only one way to have her heart won. and thats to give her time and make it count, for now and forever without a doubt. he says he wants her to be mine, so he gives her the kiss of time. David Alan Lee

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Gods Forsaken Featured Band: AvoidingX AvoidingX is out of Superior, Wisconsin. They are a unsigned band. The band members are Greely, Carl, Razzy and Twitch. AvoidingX was formed in March of 2006 as a 4 piece ALL ORIGINAL METAL GROUP! With ear pounding beats and soul slicing riffs, nothing but heart behind the music they write, every song has been written from life experiences, these songs everyone can relate to, take what you will from the music, listen and let your soul decide! Dig the songs, heed the message and spread the word, we are coming!!! Here are a couple of songs to be listening for on God's Forsaken Radio by this unsigned band, FSU and Lynching. So tune into God's Forsaken Radio to hear more of AvoidingX!!!!!

The Boat Ride
I turn the key and hear that sound....see the smoke trail by me.....my boat lurches forward and I head to my favorite spot....turn into the cove and drop the trolling motor...I make 2 casts and look down the bank....4 or 5 docks down I see someone sunbathing....wonder what see looks like.....I speed up just a little....I see she is laying on her stomach facing the other way....I can get a good look without her seeing me stare....I get closer and see she has her top undone.....gotta be quiet......I am at the next dock up and all of sudden I get a bite......I jerk and the fish breaks water she raises up and turns to look......she has no idea I am there and does not hold her top.....damn those are beautiful.....she sees me looking and gives me one of those smiles......and makes no move to cover up......I land the fish and toss him in the livewell.....I say do you fish......she replies I don’t fish but I like worms......with a sly smile......she picks her top up and places it loosely over

Oh Snap Yo!
Monday is my 21st Birthday. It'll be cool because i'll be able to buy booze and go to any strip club or what not. but it's gonna suck because all of my closest friends are still living in maryland, and i'm in california. Oh well, i'll just make do i guess

(how_to) Different_user_colors
(How To) Different_User_ColorsIts no suprise Fubar has different colors for the fu-member community. This different style color scheme is shown below and as follows:Color_SchemesBlue: This member has VIP access and has selected this color.Bolded Gray: This member has verified his/her e-mail, but does not yet have an approved salute photo. (This used to indicate a member that has reached level 20.)Cyan: This member is either a Band Member (Level 70) or a Approved Model (Level 71)Dark Blue: This member has reached Fubar's current top level. (Level 54)This member is also a Sponsored member (Level 60)Dark Green: This member is new, and has been here for fewer than 8 days.Light Azure: This member is the Top Facebook Liked Member.Lime Green: This member is Fubar's Most Liked Member.Mandy:

Please Read,ty..muahz!
LISTEN UP MY FUBAR FRIENDS,FAMILY,AND FRIENDS.. IM REALLY IN NEED OF A 'AUTO 11 BLING'...SO THIS IS WHAT I OFFER TO WHOEVER BUYS ME A 'AUTO 11 BLING',I WILL MAKE YOU A FREAKIN SEXY SALUTE,IVE ALWAYS MADE ALL MY FAMILY,FRIENDS,AND FAN HAPPY WITH THE SALUTES IVE MADE THEM,HERE IS AN EXAMPLE OF ONE OF THE SALUTES IVE MADE TO A SPECIAL FRIEND OF MINE.. OH YEA,A BLINGPACK WOULD BE GREAT TOO,WINK!! I WILL EITHER WRITE UR FU NICK NAME ON A PAPER OR OF UR CHOOSE,YOU DECIDE..C'MON U KNOW U WANNA 'AUTO 11 BLING ME' !!WINK!! IT WOULD REALLY MEAN ALOT IF SOMEONE GAVE ME ONE,U WOULD MAKE ME SMILE :-),U KNOW U WANNA SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL THICKNESS85 SMILIN,LOL!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO ~BIG KISSES 2 YOU~ THANK U,FOR TAKIN THE TIME 2 READ THIS.. WITH LOVES OF LOVE;THICKNESS85

Just Below My Skin I'm Screaming...
How can I change the world If I can't even change myself I cannot change the way I am I don't know I take a look at the world behind these eyes Every nook, every cranny reorganize Realize my face don't fit the way I feel What's real I need a mirror to check my face is in place In case of upheaval fundamental movement below What's really going on I wanna know We don't show on the outside so slide Just below my skin I'm screaming... I need a mirror for my spirit Can you feel it When I get deep Wanna hear myself sleep Not drowning Just tumbling around in the voices Like a crowd in my head so loud I wonder what it's like to be dead I hope it's quiet, Noise in my head like a riot Any remedy you have for me I'll try Just below my skin I'm screaming... I'm going so deep that I can't sleep The pills ain't cheap but the bills are steep So I with a booze and a spliff Try to snooze Who's dreaming this is win or loose Put down the drink try not to think

Christmas Letter From Jesus
Wings Over The Mountains of Life Christmas Letter from Jesus This came in my email at the perfect time. I recently got into a discussion online with some ladies about Christmas and what it means... and stores and companies and how they do or do not celebrate the season! Boy, this really opened my eyes. I don't know if you will use it, but here it is anyway! ~Jodi, Hope Mills, NC~ Dear Children, It has come to my attention that many you are upset that folks are taking My name out of the season. Maybe you've forgotten that I wasn't actually born during this time of the year and that it was some of your predecessors who decided to celebrate My birthday on what was actually a time of pagan festival. Although I do appreciate being remembered anytime. How I personally feel about this celebration can probably be most easily understood by those of you who have been blessed with children

Why Am I Here?
Why am I here? Grey matter invaded By violent jackhammers Simple query evolves into Consuming question Pulling me through Mind-field of barbwire roses Enigmatic solutions Beyond my comprehension Offering brief glimps Of the answer To uncanny riddle Formed in the spiraling insanity Spiritually induced frameshift Tribulations of self-inquisition Entropy erases rigor mortis Conundrum remains unsolved

When
When Tired and worn Weary soul Hidden behind Leather and scars Broad shoulders Carrying worlds Not my own Nerve of courage Feeding swarms of Parasitic performers in Characterized friendships Angelic heart Forgotten and unnoticed In the treads Of boot heels Thoughts wonder To lingering question When will Ancient hands Guided by love Skin flesh from soul Carry me back To start again?

Welcome
Welcome The welcome mat Tattooed upon My back Bids you to Wipe your crap Upon my flesh And trounce My heart With hap-hazard abandon As you rummage Through my soul Pillage my hidden treasures Rape my self-esteem Burn my integrity But at least You wiped your feet Before you entered And didn’t leave Me with more crap Than I already had.

Ben, My Beloved Husband
Well I have some bad news on April 26,2008 my beloved husband, Ben, passed away. The fight was a long one but the cancer won the fight. But he fought a hard battle but it got too much for him and he couldn't fight any more.

Wedding Band
Wedding Band Feathers of an angel Slice through me Like razor blade ribbons Of a harpy’s song Binding me to the doom Of immortal love and damnation Faustian wishes Granted in perversion By opium house djinns Wizards watch in amazement As imps and fairies Host mythic orgies In my mind The dragon in my groin Breaths fire across The wasteland of heaven Between her thighs

Vampires
Dormant in the background they stay waiting, watching for the weakness of their prey They hold their heads up high as they feast till they have had their fill Like vampires in the nite they wait for their feed When their prey is at its weakness they strike and have no mercy cos they know their prey is now to weak to and cannot fight These vampires i speak of are the assumed friends that you think you have until they strike For years they are like sponges and take what and when ever they can and when there is nothing left to gain and all is gone this is where u find out that all along they hav fed off you until your weak and they are strong These are the so called friends that i mean and they are the vampires like uve never seen When all is good and they get their fill and leave you empty and wait for you to give in and then they finally come to see you at ur weakest and finish off their kill.Friends will bring u to ur Death and sit and watch ur last Breath.

War Photographer
War Photographer Disturbingly attracted By the rancid pheromones Of rotten blossoms Of flesh and blood The writhing swarm Of new born maggots Like baby’s breath And honeydews Click, whirl, click, whirl Violence engraved Grotesque collection Of barbaric atrocities Documenting inhumanity In its gory glory Images too unreal For engrossed public To consciously digest Click, whirl, click, whirl

Uninspired
Uninspired Lack-luster words Flutter like a dying butterfly To the vacant page Upon dried out pens And stubby pencils This creative soul Abandoned by inspiration Has nothing to give Nothing to say Nothing to add To the massive collection The world has amassed Shallow attempts At being unique At being fresh At slapping the community With something new With something Worth reading Worth admiring Or even worth hating So this is it This is the best I can muster The butterfly is dead And has left a mess Of colored powder upon the page But I’ve seen it before.

The World Lied
The World Lied The world, full of candy coated dreams whispered “forever” in my mind as I looked into her eyes and I loved so much, so deep that I staked my soul on that single word. So sure she would always be there; but the world lied and with uncaring hand took claim to what was mine and took everything from me in a single frame. All I had left was my anger, my rage, my pain and I wanted to impress that image of the broken me upon the rest of the world like a red hot iron searing flesh with a permanent mark.

The Past
The Past The past haunts us Like a scorned lover Kicking us in the gut And unexpected assaults Strike fierce and true And leave scars that run deep How many times Are you willing to be kicked How many times Are you willing to be struck From behind by Your own actions?

Sunday Mornings
Sunday Mornings Fingers move Like rabid children Stalking the future Gliding over Ravaged sheets Covered in evidence Of little deaths Like proud battle scars Eyes open to confirm What hands reported From the crime scene Perp has left the building Leaving behind Bloodhound trails Of sex and perfume Double helix stairways Forensic signature I cannot read But well paid For her stories Slow pile-driver Hammers behind Glossy windows Still bloodshot Gray matter mosh pit Throbs to the pounding As the Merry-Go-Round Blurs images of Scattered colored glass That once held Magic potions Which brought me here Sunday morning rituals Shit, shower and shave Bread, wine and confessions Weekly redemption Costing less than Saturday’s sins

(how To) For New_members
(How_To) For New MembersThe Information in this Blog should be helpful to get you started on Fubar.Any of the links listed in this blog will have a dotted border on the bottom so you can better navigate the blog as well as learn the different areas Fubar has to offer..The first place were gonna start ya off on is the Fubar Bible.The Bible is comprised of valuable information that answers most of your about how the site works..Below is a few of the things listed in the Fubar Bible...What Are Points And How Do I Earn Them?For starters, every point earned is a fubuck earned. You earn points while you surf and interact on Fubar. When you reach a certain level, you will unlock features and benefits such as increased photo storage, ability to rate an

Still Up On The Block!!!
FTW IS UP FOR AUCTION!!! I dont normally do things like this, but the hostess is one of the sweetest people on FU, there are ALOT of cool people in this auction, and lets face it, SHAMELESS SELF PROMOTION IS FREAKIN' SWEET!! So Come and place your bids!! And dont forget to rate the pic, most rates at auctions end wins 5 Credit Bling!!! Thanks for your time and effort peeps!! PEACE!!

The Rewards Of Suffering
Rewards of Suffering I walk alone This road of Broken glass and Shattered dreams Barefoot and naked Soul exposed To sadistic forces Salty tears of sorrow Mingle with tears Of pleasure My road of salvation Ends at freedom fields Brings a new journey Where dreams are real True friends exist Love can be found The rewards of suffering Mean everything to me

The 13 Oral Techniques
The 13 oral techniques are as follows: There is the gentle suckling on the clit just as if it was a little penis using just a soft caressing up and down on the clit with the lips. Then there is the gentle suckling on the clit as if it was a nipple but also the using of the tongue to gently stroke the tip of clit. That one seems to be the favorite of those I tried it on so far. The key is to do it softly. Then there are those that prefer just running the broad part of the tongue back and forth side ways over the hood and the clit. Another favorite one is just taking the tongue and doing circles around the hood not really working on the clit much at all. In other words you are moving the hood around from side to side and allow the hood to caress the clit instead. Then there is another technique where you pull back the hood and just flick at the clit just as if your tongue was a snake's tongue. Now that can get very intense for a woman, but some women like that intensity in order to c

Revolution
Revolution Wild spirits Born into urban chaos Mingling in the fringes Suburban time bombs In the depth of their eyes Old souls battle social juggernauts A war that no one is safe from Raging in a solid frame Cut from hard experiences A blind world turns a deaf ear To the howl of the lone wolves Circling corporate castles in the sky Waiting for the sign of weakness Waiting to strike out Waiting to thin the herd Waiting to gnaw on the bones Their reality is ready to be born In the aftermath of their revolution Prepare yourselves

Restoration
Restoration I dare to enter A brave new world The size of your heart And fear strikes me A crash test dummy Meeting a windshield Mangled by the accident That is my life Unable to face the possibility That I could fit here Beneath your breast And live happily In its protective cage How much did the last tenant Leave behind And how long will it be Before I get my eviction notice I’m not ready for this My dilapidated soul Must first be rebuilt and restored Before I would have the courage To dare to enter A brave new world The size of your heart

Release The Beast
Release the Beast Fuck the romantics I want primal passions Fierce intensity Claw marks Bite wounds Shake the house With maddening lust Shattering the sex barrier Breaking bed frames Waking neighbors Call the police For disturbing the peace Setting off car alarms While getting a piece Send in the camera crew Setting world records Nothing sacred Swimming in a pool Of blood, sweat Tears and cum Get the EMTs We’re almost done

Reincarnation
Reincarnation Shock art super soldiers Lonely assassin word-slingers Sitting in clock towers Picking off random targets With blind inaccuracy Hoping to leave their mark On a scarred society But they all lack The nuclear creative warheads To cause mass inspiration Infatuation Admiration And the world barely notices When you swan dive On your scripted bullets But the death must be endured Before the pains of rebirth Can give you a chance To blast the world With Wierding Way words

Reflections
Reflections In locked gaze They stare Deep within each other A torrent of emotions Emanates through history Reflections of Transgressions Admirations Infatuations This investigation Between linked souls Clashing antagonists From birth Til death Fighting To get ahead To gain control To win a futile war Then A sigh A blink And silent acceptance As the man Turns from the mirror

Random Thought
may we each find ours in timeless space without warning or expectance as on baited breathe we give and take a step closer to chronos' final page when the doors are locked and the last chair is cleared and only death remains

Proof Of Life
Proof of Life Silence . . . My rage My passion My anger My love My nightmares My dreams My world Sits in undefined silence Undefined stillness An infinite void No joy No pain No sweet Revenge or pleasure I simply am Philosophically non-existent Poetically dead Senses can prove I am here But not that I am alive

Sweeet!!! Im Up For Auction!
Come bid on me PLEASE Im Broke and I need Stuff!! It's open until XMAS day, so...come give me something to open up for Christmas! Thanks, I love all my friends, even if ya don't buy me...lmao

Back
Well people I am home for the third day and still havent gotten a decent sleep. I wish they would have left the numbing meds in my back. I can still walk, and finally have a decent BM. Getting up and down is hard. Also I was able to finally take a shower it felt great to get clean.

Phoenix
Phoenix My calm demeanor Belies the hidden beast Chained in the cellar Pounding from within My heart Begging for release Searching for an escape Its rage feeds Wild fires of passion In still blue eyes Laying waste To childhood dreams Whose ashes Fertilize a rebellious mind

Pain And Pleasure
Pain and Pleasure I have gripped both The blade and the hilt Of this double-edged sword Of whirlwind emotions That courses through My animated corpse I want this freight train roller coaster To be derailed forever I no longer want To hurt or to be hurt by Myself or anyone else I’m so tired of pain That I am willing To forfeit pleasure To forever escape it.

You Could Have Heard A Pin Drop
You could have heard a pin drop When in England, at a fairly large conference, Condi Rice was asked by the Archbishop of Canterbury if our plans for Iraq were just an example of empire building' by George Bush. She answered by saying, 'Over the years, the United States has sent many of its fine young men and women into great peril to fight for freedom beyond our borders. The only amount of land we have ever asked for in return is enough to bury those that did not return. ' You could have heard a pin drop. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ There was a conference in France where a number of international engineers were taking part, including French and American. During a break, one of the French engineers came back into the room saying 'Have you heard the latest dumb stunt Bush has done? He has sent an aircraft carrier to Indonesia to help the tsunami victims. What does he intended to do, bomb them?' A Boeing engineer stood up

Overwhelmed
Overwhelmed Why am I like this Why do I have to be this way I am so tired of fighting Of screaming at the top Of my lungs Until my throat Gives way to pain Blood swells up At the back of my mouth As I cry and sob And weep And the tears just run There is no control My lips quiver As my whole body just shakes And I can’t stop it I want to die I just want it all to end To go away I can’t see from the tears And the swelling in my eyes And it rips me apart inside And I can still hear myself Screaming even though It stopped And there is still That taste of blood So strong and sharp It penetrates my nose I hate this I hate me I don’t want to be like this Why can’t I be normal And I still want to die And to make it worse I’ve tried to do it myself To myself And I couldn’t even do that right And my nose runs as fast as my tears Thin and clear tears Too many for just my eyes I am so tired of it And I just don’t fucking care And I just want everyone

(how To) Nsfw_list
(How To) Nsfw ListIt's not secret info.It's not late breaking news.It's arguably Fubar.com's most discussed topic.NSFW Content Displayed On Fubar.comI'm pretty sure you've gotten that message in your inbox... the nasty letter from Fubar Shop informing you that your favorite picture of you wearing a speedo, bra or thong has been flagged as containing adult content (commonly referred to as Not Safe For Work or NSFW for short). I'm also sure you've looked at that photo and said, "Well, I don't see this as offensive" and stormed into the Support Lounge or sent a shout / private message to a Fubar Bouncer and stated, "Please, Tell me why this image is offensive??" or gave a small rambling of "Member Unfairness."It seems the bigger issue is that the general membership and the bouncers that moderate public areas are not on the same page when it comes to what is considered SFW and what is trulyNSFW.This article/blog will serve two purposes:To educate the reader on exactly what bouncers are ins

Old School Remix Tribute
Old School Remix Tribute And I heard a knocking As if someone heavily rocking Rocking at my brain’s Back door Bass, bass, bouncing tight All throughout the night What immortal DJ’s hand Could spin thy rhythmic energy Dance, music, the body’s guest Upon a mixing errand Fear not to blend the beat The truth shall be thy dance floor Go, since I dance all night And give the world the song DJ – whose vinyl-grooved face The smiles of fans adore – Mans remix tribute to man Makes countless thousands dance Two mixes merged in the mind, and I – I mixed the rhythm less mixed, And that made them all dance. Because I could not stop the flow – It kindly flowed for me – The house beat moved all of our bodies – For infinity. Notes: Edgar Allen Poe “The Raven", William Blake “Tyger”, Sir Walter Raleigh “The Lie”, Robert Burns “Man was Made to Mourn”, Robert Frost “The Road Not Taken”, Emily Dickinson “No. 712”. I figured if I am to hold to my statement that th

Neo-america
Neo-America Society has been invaded Infiltrated Corporate sponsored Martial law Silk suit soldiers Café latte action grip Urban assault teams Snipers taking aim Ballpoint rifles Test tube underground New high junkies High speed disinformation MK-Ultra reborn Mind wiping Body snatchers Big brother’s Dominant mother Disorganized rebellion Impotent movements Dreaming of Boston Chai Party Assassinated veterans Replaced by Neophyte wanna-bes Mockery of historical roots

Me Or Them?
Me or Them? I sit and write bloodstained words over wrinkled pages in a literary dissection of me to be put on rotting display in a cardboard box for all to see and mangled with all of the finesse of blind butchers. Ravenous cannibals devouring every remembrance of me in the aftermath of my wasted time, drowning my words in selfish tears of regret, sobbing “oh, I wish I knew this part of him while he lived”. Life trips gracelessly onward unwilling to slow down and stop as I ponder who is to blame, me or them, as my loneliness beckons me to remain unwanted in the unquiet shadows of my mind. A vast resource of empty thoughts with clear visions of its own wasteland future, an apocalyptic microcosm inhabited by a solitary, porcelain shell of human indignity keeping visitors at bay with horrific, death shrouds bound to the scarecrow at the gates. The road now traveled to eventually stretch beyond the horizons in all directions to forever keep secret the way back. I race the world to

Makers And Fakers
Makers and Fakers Catch phrase pimps With two cent whores Sugar-coat promises Of unsavored flavors Teasing Johns and Janes So viciously addicted To living life Experiencing the world And feeling emotions Through scribbled dribble Scrambled and re-arranged By makers and fakers Wanna-be hacks Seeking glorious fame For doing What was already done

Longing
Longing screen of dancing visuals colors shift and blur rhythm of heavy bass gentle whisper in my ear soft breathe on my neck dreaming into reality aching skin arches phantom caresses productions of the id fingers frozen upon keyboard body rigid with anticipation eyes closing with desire sighs float past quivering lips morning snaps me back to life still longing, yearning to know your touch.

Liver Am I
Liver am I My pathetic self-indulgence Of physical fantasies Carried on optical fibers And co-ax filters Wastes what time I have been given Keeping me from A hungry world Dying for a unique flavor That only I can offer As we have all Been seasoned differently By the chef of experience But just like liver I am an acquired taste Either loved or hated By social palates

Lies
Lies Constant Repetition of Antagonistic Praise Caressing Repressed Anger Personal Psychosis Ignites Tragic Yearnings Compassionately Rejecting All Pretentious Cretins Religious And Political Notes: There is a hidden message if you read the first letter of each line. My most recent favorite four word phrase. It would almost work as a piece if i had a clue what I was trying to say with it

Ughhhh Winter
I am so sick of snow already. We had 13 inches yesterday and we are getting another 4 now.. I want to get out and do stuff but Master doesnt like to go out in this and I have to work 12 hr days starting monday so I wont have much time with him. I guess tomorrow we are going to have an intense session.. some paddling and bondage and hot oil play.. Im looking forward to it.. I need the stress relief

Roommate Needed
I am asking for $350/month and that is all-inclusive. If you know of anyone looking for a room on the NW side, please send them my way. I am pretty laid back and looking for the same in a roommate. The house is about 1800 sq ft, a two car garage and a patio. The house has free, unlimited long distance, digital cable, high speed internet with a wireless router plus desktop and laptop computers, 3 HDTVs and nice surround sound stereos (plus almost 500 CDs and 250 DVDs to keep you occupied). The neighborhood is very nice and quiet and has an attached park with both natural and paved walking/biking paths. I would like to find someone that I can talk to or hang out with occasionally but that is not required.

Jihad
Jihad Caste against caste Industrial necromancers And elected zombies Theological wizards And tithing familiars Wage jihad Lucidity warping Perverse desires Shaping morbid forms Into tired reality Crimson flood Drowns innocence Indigo skies Cover transgressions Pearly cell holds Compassion and redemption As the fallen Run rampant In the wastelands Of Eden

Ingredients Of You
Ingredients of You My heart is Starving Weak Malnourished Neglected Its need to be fed Compassion Love Desire Hope Dreams It waits for something That it cannot remember Then you came Dancing Singing Loving Glowing Charming My heart A feral creature It ripped Your offerings into Bloody chunks Devouring them Without chewing Feeding its hunger Ravaging your Love Body Mind Soul Wanting so much Amidst chaotic desperation I forgot to ask If you were Safe to eat So consumed to Keep you near Groveling Begging Fighting Worshiping To fill the void I forgot to ask I should have looked At the ingredients Seen that you Were made of Deceit Lies Selfishness Betrayal Poisoned charms My bloated heart Soured Shriveled Rotted Died And you left me A broken toy Twisted Distorted Used Abandoned An empty wound In my chest Where my heart Once beat

Her Name Is Music
Her Name is Music “My name is Music…” were her only words …and the ballad of her voice filled the whole of my life with warm rains and gentle sunshine… Soft and supple Are her lips Against the wounds of my life Cradled within her healing song, Brilliant are the stars Over my calm waters, Fulfilled is my dream Of an endless spring day Through which she roams Like a breeze through the marigolds, A goddess, Heaven-made and infinite, The notes woven in her hair, A shower, I could never retreat from The caress of her renewing rain, Lifting me to the skies Of a birthing season, Embraced, With my strengthened arms Outstretched in harmonic time Towards the waltzing sun, Praying to remain In her melodic song, Reaching within To pull, From my humming spirit, The prismatic glow Of what overflows From my beating heart, Resurrected By the warm spring song, Erasing the nightmare Of an immortal winter storm…

Good Will
Good Will It has been too long Since you have held me As long as you have today Where are you taking me I remember the days When I was your favorite Great anticipation Filled your eyes As you would race home To play with me But now I am broken How long now Has it been Since you last cared To pick me up And smile You pull me to you Looking at me Lost in memory Then pushed me away Letting me fall Into the darkness And my heart shatters A hidden piece of porcelain Under cloth wrapped padding And I lay crying With the other discarded toys Good Will Is all that’s left for me

Fractured Mentality
Fractured Mentality The cannibalizing rage That is caged within My mind, unquiet as it is, Turns heart pumped pain Into violent aggression Skull shattering infusions Of chemical trout Swimming upstream Against rapid flow Of corpuscles, white and red, Forcing brain cells to erupt Behind glazed eyes As paranoia anchors reality To my self-induced insanity Mocking pursuit of death Through straight jacket laughter And nicotine smoke screens

Forgotten
Forgotten Stench of decay Floats past Shriveled nostrils Dangling ears Listening to Forgotten songs As deflated eyes Guide skeletal hands Over ancient keys …… I will die here …… At my computer Alone Wasted Unwanted Unnoticed

For Me
For Me I am human I am normal I am average I am no one I am worthless I am lost I am alone And I rage For what will never be To simply be Just once for me I want What everyone wants To be wanted And to want To be needed And to need To be held And to hold To be found And to find Worthy to be loved For who I am For what I am Wherever I am By one person Not a slave Not a royal Not a sun Not a moon Not a deity But an equal Not in body But in soul In heart Where it matters No fear No jealousy No anger No hatred No pity No spite A friend above friends And a friend among friends To care for And be cared by To cherish And be cherished To love And be loved I rage inside For what has never been To simply be This once For me.

The Flu
The Flu Pissed off mucus glands Working overtime Without pay Vomit inducing Vile bile Oozing down throat Rubbed raw nose A marathon runner Pushing for gold medal Head in agony Ten rounds with Tyson And lost Body aches A Mac truck’s Roadside victim Disassociated senses Heroin induced space walk Without the euphoria 100 mile an hour Heart stopping blast Spreading the infection

My Last Days..............
I just want to let my REAL friends on here know that my last day will be on or about the 25th of the month. I will be sending out fu bucks randomly so that some of u can make use of them. I want to thank all of you that know the REAL me and have been my friends through everything. I hope to keep in touch with most of you and to the rest of you that just added me for points, I may have been guilty of that at one time too. Please be yourself on here and don't let this site get in the way of what wonderful things are out there for you in REAL LIFE! Thanks! Love, Rita

Failures
Failures Hopes and dreams Like nicotine kisses On the wind Linger and fade Carried on waves Of transparent reality Passing unknown Second hand generation Choking on futility Of fore fathers What can’t be done Remains unknown To wishing worlds Of children unborn Inheriting a legacy Of failures.

Erotic Haunting
Erotic Haunting Old letters never forgotten bring vivid existence to a phantom lover pressing against your body in welcomed assault of erotic desires. Billie Holiday and Ella Fitzgerald release lost souls through the room as Duke Ellington coaxes ghosts to join the melody of your sensual moans. Hands blindly searching for a hold on reality as passion explodes from between trembling thighs. Feral lips unleash rabid tongue and hot winds upon your sensitive flesh beneath sheets of cool night air. Body thirsting for dream's illusions as fantasy brings forth tantalizing tsunamis of orgasm after orgasm through sensations felt from unseen fingers raking your needy flesh. The throbbing snake of Eden slithering into your garden from miles away, sending electric pulses of pleasure up your back in spasmodic convulsions of your muscles. You awaken in aftershocks of long distance midnight eroticism carried by cords of ethereal silver threads that bind two souls unable to lay claim to tangi

My Ego
My Ego From within hidden darkness Lost in forgotten spaces In out of the way places It calls to me To take my place Amidst the hallowed halls Of saints and sinners Saviors and slayers But I cover my ears Scream at the top of my lungs Fight and rebel Against the voices Calling out to me Resist and refuse To become as they To give in to the urge From long days Of struggle and strife Of abusive mistreatment The shadow of a man That I admit to be Finds urban legend strength And beats back the Siren songs of my ego.

Dues To Pay
Dues to Pay Human imposters Curl and nap in the Luxurious lap Of financial dominance Swimming in extravagance That drowns urchins In far away lands Under appreciated suicide Of future’s development Greed propagating poverty For selfish indulgences In the here and now Too rich to pay heed To the dues of tomorrow

Torn...
I thought I knew. But I did not. My heart feels like it has been torn from my chest. Battered and bruised, broken at best. I offered myself to you, a piece of my heart. Now I realize, it was all for nawt. A friend you will be. A friend you'll remain. But my heart is now torn and it is I, who must deal with the pain.

Digital Lifelessness
Digital Lifelessness Digital promises Of love Of want Of need Hidden in the glare Of radioactive projections Forbidden messages In electronic bottles Carelessly cast adrift On binary waves For machines to distribute To virtual dreamers Overflowing with Despair Loneliness And a desire to be needed A girl missing the world As the unknown Boy next door Is doing the same Looking for life In the worst of places.

Perfect Beauty
Perfect Beauty across hazy room superficial pretty-boys looking down aimed fingers perfect abs clutched in soft-palmed hands as perfect smiles showing perfect teeth let out super model laughs I turn away another shot of liquid death chased by fresh coffin nail peripheral vision detects pride of pride coming closer personal space invaders bringing elitist attitudes to bear on target sinking into throbbing bass musical buzz as perfect boys circle me like beautiful lions reciting memorized lines used once too often thinking to myself liberty of opinion they have theirs I have mine will of choice I can be better and just ignore freedom of speech fuck this shit I express myself not with elegant words or witty retorts a single explosion of a fist broken too many times large knobby knuckles colliding with perfection's beautiful face I turn away another shot of liquid death chased by fresh co

Devour Me
Devour Me Eyes glazed By thoughts of you Longing to explore The intoxicating addition Of the colors of you Through fingertips And burning lips In the shroud Of comfort You present to me In winged embrace My horned brow Nuzzled in your neck As I taste your soul Through whispered words Upon my ears I drink your breath From pierced tongues Swimming in delight As “someday” is realized In the sensual rapture Of your prismatic spray Your eyes devouring My stillborn soul To give me life

Are We Drowning In Shallow?
I have pages on several different site and i have notice that alot of people (sorry but they are all younger) that place more value on how much you have or how hot you are than WHO you are. WELL I was born a poor fat chick. i'm fine with that. to me its all about the person that is on the inside than the money in your pocket or the way you look in your clothes. i am proud to be an extra thick chick. i am who i am. with no apologies to anyone. if you can't except the poor fat ass that stands before you then thats your problem not mine. but to base friendship or any relationship on that is so shallow. the things that should matter are can you trust that person. can you count on the person when you need them. is this person someone that i can call at 3 am if i need them. maybe its my age. but i would rather have someone in my life that i can be myself with. that i can buy a few beers build a fire in the backyard and sit and talk to and laugh with. and i don't want to believe it is Y

Daddy
Daddy Pathetic beast Of childhood nightmares Not from the closet Or under the bed But from the room Across the hall Across the dinner table Bedroom bully Hidden behind White picket fences Rapist in father’s clothing Discovered and exposed By photographic journal Now found choking On infected loads From unwashed cocks Covered in his own Bloody stool

Cycles And Riddles
Cycles and Riddles Reformed entropy Answers life’s riddle Everything ends In eternity Bang or whimper Barely audible Comparable to Tree falling Who hears Definitely whimpers Can barely hear Stop listen Everything dying Slowly dying Torturous existence But far away Not tomorrow Bang after whimper Us again Something new Doesn’t matter Everything ends In eternity

Angel Born
Angel Born Breathing through jagged rips in my crumpled paper flesh; she turns to face the speeding juggernaut of bladed wings that tears through everything she ever was. Confetti rain for the parade of heartless firbolg as her granite heart shatters beneath their death grip talons. Plasmatic and ethereal wraith of vindictive execution; another angel is born.

Anarchy In A Can
Anarchy in a Can Scurrying about the globe Participants of the rat race Corporate sponsored Conformity Olympics Spreading the black death Of commercialization Through digital civilization Mass-producing mimics Of underground icons Depreciation of original thoughts Through catch-phrase publications And popularized bumper stickers

America
America Global schoolyard super cop Made paranoid by national insecurities “Drop your weapons or DIE!” Self-appointed world savior Nuclear powered hand of god Picking fights at recess A distraction from internal issues Ignored too long to fix Technology to end human sacrifice Bent towards desperate grip On world domination Perpetuating the war of envy

80's Life
80’s Life Send me an angel In a big country Walking on sunshine Chains of love Heart of glass The promise We close out eyes Too shy Relax I melt with you Total eclipse of the heart You spin me ‘round One thing leads to another Living in oblivion Tainted love Who can it be now Bizarre love triangle Always something there to remind me Burning down the house Our house Should I stay or should I go I ran (so far away)

Without Me
Fingers shriek across the keyboard in a violent torrent trying to desperately rip these feelings from my heart as the silence of this place slowly kills me and the void of separation consumes my flesh one bloody chunk at a time. All the while I’m tortured by the rapture inducing memories of long fingers digging into my back, the taste of ecstacy and the lingering scent of your neck that seems so lost now in the fog of my present inability to focus on a single moment like trying to see the face of a ghost by candle light. Childhood lessons spring forth with one small glimmer of light in the darkness as I now come to realize that if the world should have it’s way with me that you will be able to survive and be happy without me in it.

Dating Vs. Marriage
Dating vs. Marriage When you are dating..... Farting is never an issue. When you are married ....You make sure there's nothing flammable near your husband at all times. When you are dating..... He takes you out to have a good time. When you are married ....He brings home a 6 pack, and says "What are you going to drink?" When you are dating..... He holds your hand in public. When you are married ....He flicks your ear in public. When you are dating..... A Single bed for 2 isn't THAT bad. When you are married ....A King size bed feels like an army cot. When you are dating..... You are turned on at the sight of him naked. When you are married ....You think to yourself "Was he ALWAYS this hairy????" When you are dating..... You enjoyed foreplay. When you are married ....You tell him "If we have sex, will you leave me alone???" When you are dating..... He hugs you, when he walks by you for no reason. When you are married ....He grabs your boob any chance

Wanna-be
Wanna-be You sit and squander time In dread of a real revolution Hiding behind your subculture icons Like a Tarentino reject Participating in this charade This sociopolitical play With your poker face transparent To even the casual observer And when the rebels rise Your bluff will be called Your act requiring actions That you lack The strength of character To actually perform

Violations In Burnt Hills
Violations in Burnt Hills Bludgeoning soft wet With hard impact Mental note: This infection Has no antidote Smell the intoxication On the crumpled sheets Last night’s Sweating overdose Liquid emotions Like a mint on the pillow Left behind And I miss The spine twisting Corruption of you

Unique
Unique Social initialization Of neo-cultured labels Proclaiming definitive import Placing restrictive bonds Upon personal actions For convenient catagorization Well . . . You can take them all And neatly file them Up your tight asses My only label Is my name And its definition Is my life

Stand On Your Own Feet
Stand on Your Own Feet Parasitic social deviants Misdirect blame Giving it names Like racism Prejudice Injustice Inequality Unwilling to realize The blinding truth That the opportunities are there But that struggle must be engaged And weakness seduces them To back down like cowards Into the scapegoat of social pity That we have made too easy To be obtained By those unwilling To stand on their own feet

Social Pollution
Social Pollution And you’re gripping the pen Like the world’s gonna end When the words just grab you Mentally scar you You’re thrown in the flow Dictating blow after blow Spitting out shit Under freedom of speech Congress snaps back With freedom to impeach Those willing to fight What’s just not right You toss and you turn With a hate that burns Cause they push you to the brink And it’s a crime to think That the system sucks That the government’s fucked But will America survive This social pollution This inevitable revolution Hiding over the horizon?

Naked And Alone
Naked and alone, you lay in bed; caught in the depths of deep erotic dreams. Your body twists and writhes as dozens of hands and lips cascade over your tender, exposed flesh in wave after wave. Your heart races as forbidden pleasures are indulged as foreign fingers and tongues explore the whole of your flesh, inside and out. As the energy builds to an ultimate climax you snap awake into a real world orgasm, unsure if you are actually awake or still dreaming as mind shattering spasms drive muscles to convulse and twitch. Legs clenching tight as your breath is lost to ecstasy. Eyes wide open as your hands move between your thighs to find my head there. The reality of my tongue flying in a frenzy over your clit as my fingers rub circles below it from deep within brings another violent wave of spasms through your excited body. I continue with unwavering persistence, perpetuating a non-stop volley of orgasms. Time is lost and forgotten as moments become eternity until finally, sensi

Make It Matter
Make it Matter Spitting venomous barbs Singing harmonic sonnets Chanting war and peace Hollow words collected In a hollow hall Full of hollow minds That echo repeated phrases Spoken before But we bleed over these lines Like giving birth to a child When we are really Giving CPR to the lifeless Trying to breath a beat Into the heart left behind And it is a generational cycle That waxes and wanes Within a fickle audience Where success can come At any moment And time doesn’t care If you are Dead or alive

Life
Life The adamant juggernaut of transgressions Lumbers steadily after me Picking up the pieces of broken time That comprise its shrapnel armor Perfecting the shredding skin That will eventually tear through me Instead of flashing before my eyes

Impossible
Impossible Bio-electric Resistors and transistors Animated chemical compounds Infinite combinations Infinite results Circuit blowing complexity Over abundant examples Taken for granted Carbon-based miracles Of life

Holding Me Down
Holding Me Down I hide in this static shelter Of emotional white noise That cryptically destroys Everything I hope to be For the heart I know to bear For the love I feel you share As the past sounds out For fear of time And well dressed lies Dreams scream in agony As I try to convince you That I am feeling this too But what I have been through Is holding me back Holding me down In this trap of fear

Hidden In Honeysuckle
Hidden in Honeysuckle Through the twists and turns Of honeysuckle vines Of honeysuckle lies That cover and hide The truth I couldn’t see The truth about me This personal conspiracy Decades old Scope untold And with tears of rage And cries of self hate I seek out the light I seek out the fight To do what is right To become someone I just might like

Not Sure What I Did But...
OK so I haven't been on here much the past few days. Actually, I think this is the first in a couple of days. We had about 10 inches of snow in the forecast that was supposed to start Late Thursday and on into Friday. Well, instead we got just a few inches of snow along with some ice. I have been at my PC briefly checking email messages as apparently I have done something to pinch a nerve. I have arthritis in all hip and knee joints. The right hip being more severe. This past week alone just sitting at the PC for long periods of time I get it in my tail bone (LOL, ok if you wanna be funny and smart my arse!) I'm sure this is because I desperately need to go see my chiropractor. But since my auto insurance will no longer pay any accident related medical visit (as they only paid for a yr after the accident). Obviously, I can't afford to go when I really need to. I am trying to keep it at just once a month although, I was going once every two weeks if not sooner if I f

Captivate Me
Captivate Me Fuzzy dream reality Swirling in my chest Like a prismatic whirlpool Sucking at my mind Pulling me under Into the warm flesh of her Vacant eyes cast illusions Of desolate emptiness As mental residual images Tesseract into her arms And captivating charms Forever imprisoned within The glowing warmth of Fantasies come true

This Is My Beer Mug
This is my beer mug. There are many like it, but this one is MINE. My beer mug is my best friend. It is my life. I must master it as I must master my life. My beer mug without me is useless. Without my beer mug, I am useless. I must drink my beer cold. I must drink faster than my enemy who is trying to out drink me. I must finish mine before he finishes his. I will... My beer mug and myself know that what counts at a party is not the shots we drink, the noise of our burps, nor the gas we make. We know it is the drafts that count. We will drink... My beer mug is human, even as I, because it is my life. Thus, I will learn it as a brother. I will learn its weaknesses, its strengths, its handle, its rim, its depths, and its bottom. I will ever guard it against the ravages of stumbling and rumbling. I will keep my beer mug clean and ready, even as I am clean and ready. We will become part of each other. We will... Before God I

Sisters For A Lifetime
After all the drama and all the pain, my sister bloodvixen and I are still as strong as before.. I have kept my friends list small and kept close vigil over her as she has me... So many things thats happened I still feel so close to her.. I'm glad Ive got her in my life... Its hard to put into words how much I love and adore my sister and what lengths id go to see her safe and happy.. By the gods not even hell would stop me if someone dare hurt her again.. in any manner of the word I might add.. Let one word come across someones lips to her and id have there head.. Sisters are for life , she is my sister, and I love her!

Barefoot In The Dark~ Deadboy And The Elephant Men
rattlesnake shadow cast over the heart forever I am there barefoot in the dark they're beating that drum in the cemetery my death lays awake there whistling dixie yeah if this is hell well then I'm lucky yeah my death's alive there just waiting for me uh-huh my death's alive there just waiting for me my death lays awake there whistling dixie if this is hell then i'm lucky rattlesnake shadow cast across the heart forever we are there barefoot in the dark they're beating that drum in the cemetery my death lays awake there aaah whistling dixie yeah if this is hell if this is hell then i'm lucky yeah my death's alive there just waiting for me uh-huh my death's alive there just waiting for me my death lays awake there whistling dixie if this is hell well then I'm lucky barefoot in the dark barefoot in the dark barefoot in the dark

Dressed In Smoke~ Deadboy And The Elephant Men
Dressed up in smoke And yellow wolf skin You spin and spin Skeletal girl with eyes like the dream I woke up in All tails and fins She held a red apple up To my lips Ghost of brother at my hip Her taste, like blood On my fingertips Ghost of brother at my hip Are you merely the spirit of these Bones that shelter me You spin and spin She opened her legs To show me Show me mercy Ghost of brother at my hip She held a red apple Up to my lips Ghost of brother at my hip Her taste, like blood On my fingertips Ghost of brother at my hip

Christmas...
My girlfriend left me a week and a half ago, I now have no one to spend Christmas with (My family is 850 miles away) and I haven't been able to work for a week, so I'm broke. Can anyone give me some ideas about what I can do for Christmas and anything I could do to lift my spirits? Thanks!

Merry Christmas Friends
I suggest we...Learn to Love our, selves....before its... made illegal. So dont let the World bring you down, Not everyone here is that Fucked up and cold! I love you all! Happy Holidays from "The House of Cheeze"!! xoxoxoxox

Alone
Id like to see you in the morning light I like to feel you when it comes to night Now Im here and Im all alone Still I know how it feels, Im alone again Tried so hard to make you see But I couldnt find the words Now the tears, they fall like rain Im alone again without you Alone again without you Alone again without you I said stay, but you turned away Tried to say that it was me Now Im here and Ive lost my way Still I know how it feels, Im alone again Tried so hard to make you see But I couldnt find the words Now the tears, they fall like rain Im alone again without you I tried so hard to make you see But I couldnt find the words Now the tears, they fall like rain Im alone again without you

Love
Ok this is going to be one of those types of blogs that most probably will never take the time to read but I have to get this off my chest. I met some one that I have grown to love very much and he knows who he is. But this is something that I need to put down and see how this goes. I love this guy very much and I have never really felt this before about some one. I know we started off really great and the more we talked the more I fell for him. Now both of us are scared and are thinking that its going to fast for us to keep up with. I want him in my life and I think about him all the time. I sat down last nite and wrote a six page letter to him and now Im scared to send it to him. I pourd my heart out to him and told him how I felt about him and how much I wanted him in my life and my boys life. I feel that we can make this work no matter what and that I have faith in him more then any guy I have ever been with. This is not easy for me to do when it comes to my feelings. Ive always ba

Merry Christmas To All
ThugTags.com - Hip Hop & Urban MySpace Comments ThugTags.com - Hip Hop & Urban MySpace Comments DJ GHOST HERE WISHING EV1 A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR. ALSO I'M HOPING AND PRAYING THAT ALL MY FRIENDS AND FANS CAN HELP ME OUT. I'M TRYING TO MAKE GODFATHER BY CHRISTMAS DAY. I'VE HAD A VERY BAD MONTH OR SO WITH BEING LAID OFF, BEING ILL THE PAST WEEK OR SO AND I EVEN HAD TO SELL MY HARLEY TO PAY MY BILL CAUSE UNEMPLOYMENT ISN'T DOING THE TRICK. ALL I'M ASKING FOR IS MAYBE SOME PIC RATES, STASH RATES, EVEN IF YOU LIKE YOU COULD PIMP ME OUT. I AM WILLING TO PAY 1,000,000 FU-BUCKS FOR A VIP OR A BLING PACKAGE. SO IF ANYONE COULD FIND IT IN THEIR HEARTS TO HELP ME OUT THIS CHRISTMAS I WOULD SURELY APPRECIATE IT. HERE IS THE LINK TO MY PAGE IF UR INTERESTED IN RATING OR PIMPING ME OUT. HEAD DJ GHOST (RIDER) of VAMPY'S VAMPIRE CAVE "BAT CAVE OF DREAMS@ fubar Sexy Comments & Profile Graphics Sexy Comments & Profile Graphics

Usairways
Today's Kick in the Ass goes to USAirways. I've used them more than any other airline over the past 20 years. I've got enough miles with them that I've gotten 3 first class upgrades. But yesterday we parted ways. Here's what happened. 5:30 AM, Thursday December 18th I woke up and started getting ready got a series of job interviews. I had gotten up at 5:00 Am for a job interview, was interviewed all day and then got to the Birmingham airport at 5PM for a 7 o'clock flight to head home. 7:00 PM An announcement was made that our plane would be 15 minutes late due to fog in Charlotte NC. 7:30 PM An announcement was made that our plane would be 30 minutes late due to fog in Charlotte NC. I felt a little sick from not eating. That’s ok, I’d be home in 6 hours. Maybe. 8:00 PM The plane departed Birmingham en route for an hour flight to Charlotte. 10:30 PM After circling Charlotte, the pilot announced, “Sorry folks! Charlotte is fogged in and we’re going to Columbia SC” 1

Saturday, December 20
Today my husband went to work for a little while. He enjoyed seeing everyone again and they were glad to see him. His speech is getting better but he says he biting his biting his tongue a lot. OUCH! He keeps getting better. I got out the last package to home via Fedex and I can coast now. This year we have decided to all of ourselves into our son. We plan to have our own private Christmas a couple of weeks after to take advantage of all the sales. We are almost done shopping. Yay.

Simple White Envelope
It's just a small white envelope stuck among the branches of our Christmas tree. No name, no identification, no inscription. It has peeked through the branches of our tree for the past 10 years or so. It all began because my husband Mike hated Christmas --oh, not the true meaning of Christmas, but the commercial aspects of it -- the overspending, the frantic running around at the last minute to get a tie for Uncle Harry and the dusting powder for Grandma -- the gifts given in desperation because you couldn't think of anything else. Knowing he felt this way, I decided one year to bypass the usual shirts, sweaters, ties, and so forth.. I reached for something special just for Mike. The inspiration came in an unusual way. Our son Kevin, who was 12 that year, was wrestling at the junior level at the school he attended. Shortly before Christmas, there was a non-league match against a team sponsored by an inner-city church. These youngsters, dressed in sn

Auto On From 7pm Est Dec. 20 - 7pm Est Dec. 21
> > There are more than 140k in points and Fubucks available here...Auto 11's are on until 7pm EST (4pm Futime) today, Sunday December 21!!!! C'mon over and level up!!!!

Who Wants To Own Me?
I'm up for Auction!!! & I want you to own me :) I go to the highest bidder and Bidding closes in 3 days so hurry up and bid on me :)... Shhhh your not supposed to know it's me ;) But I promise it is... So This what I have to offer & This is who your bidding on ;) Just so you know I keep my word ;) Just ask anyone who knows me. Pop my A-11 Cherry & I'll love you forever.

Ideas For Photos To Take
Hi all. I am getting ready around 715pm est to take new photos and try out my new camera. please if you are one of my fans or knwo me give me some feedback on some phtoos you like to see or of what outfits you liked in the past .. IF i like your suggestions you might just see a pic of it i up later today Thanks Samantha

My Second Fu Owner
I was bought again haha..Please show my new owner some Fu luvin..hes got me for a month. ÐJ.ÐÌÅßLØ...FuHuBBy to ♥Scarlet♥...Owner of DIABLO'S DEN..@ fubar There were wut I was offering

Robert Palmer-addicted To Love
The lights are on, but you’re not home your mind is not your own your heart sweats, your body shakes another kiss is what it takes You can’t sleep, you can’t eat there’s no doubt, you’re in deep your throat is tight, you can’t breathe another kiss is all you need Whoa, you like to think that you’re immune to the stuff, oh Yeah it’s closer to the truth to say you can’t get enough, you know you’re gonna have to face it, you’re addicted to love you see the signs, but you can’t read you’re running at a different speed your heart beats in double time another kiss and you’ll be mine, a one-track mind you can’t be saved oblivion is all you crave if there’s some left for you you don’t mind if you do whoa, you like to think that you’re immune to the stuff, oh Yeah it’s closer to the truth to say you can’t get enough, you know you’re gonna have to face it, you’re addicted to love Might als well face it, you’re addicted to love your lights are on, but you’re

Santa Claus
I remember my first Christmas adventure with Grandma. I was just a kid. I remember tearing across town on my bike to visit her. On the way, my big sister dropped the bomb: "There is no Santa Claus, "she jeered. "Even dummies know that!" My Grandma was not the gushy kind, never had been. I fled to her that day because I knew she would be straight with me. I knew Grandma always told the truth, and I knew that the truth always went down a whole lot easier when swallowed with one of her "world-famous" cinnamon buns. I knew they were world-famous, because Grandma said so. It had to be true. Grandma was home, and the buns were still warm. Between bites, I told her everything. She was ready for me. "No Santa Claus?" she snorted .... "Ridiculous! Don't believe it! That rumor has been going around for years, and it makes me mad, plain mad!! Now, put on your coat, and let's go." "Go? Go where, Grandma?" I asked. I hadn't even

It Really Pisses Me Offf That...
Some men go ga ga when they come across me on Fubar, which is cool because I get some good rates etc but when i tell the men I am married I am not here for "bar buddies" or to give my screen name away, or to cyber, or cam, men completely talk shit about me!! It's like hellloooooo fucking morons. I am debating getting rid of Fu I can not take this shit anymore, my block list can only get so big. Fucking adults who cause so much DRAMA!

Me And Jon=twins
Your result for The 3 Variable Funny Test ... the Wit (52% dark, 31% spontaneous, 21% vulgar) your humor style: CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean pretentious. You realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the Simpsons' philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat. I guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer. Your sense of humor takes the most thought to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my opinion. You probably loved the Office. PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais that's right, frog...they liken me to jon stewart. can i have you now?

Optional Content (free Download)
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