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Set me free to be at deaths side where all my feelings will subside I hate all these feeling I hold inside they always eat away at my mind Wether its love or hate I already know my fate A lonely life I have led to only end up in deaths bed A bed of comfort A bed of peace where I will get my sleep no more tears to sting my eyes I close my eyes and say my last goodbyes Goodbye cruel world for at last I'm free Free of all this misery     BY Smokeyvamp
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Poems For Wildfire That She Wanted Me To Share #1
A world so cold A world of hate Here I sit and gladly wait For death to take my soul So I am never ever alone A world filled with hate and spite I learned long ago to give up the fight This world has given me nothing but pain It has beaten me down again and again So let the world see me for what I am A broken down soul with nothing to gain   By Smokeyvamp
"the List"
Okay, FINE. Since certain people have insisted/demanded/badgered/pestered me to post this, I will post it. However, firstly, it's in alphabetical order and I refuse to put it in any other kind of order. So nya. Secondly, there are almost certainly some names missing. This might be for one reason, or it might be another, but there are some names who aren't there that should be there. So, nya again.   In case it wasn't clear: this is a "MUMMer women I would so totally do" list.     Angel BabyboobunnyloveBrokenCarnas of the silver scalesC'est la VieCrystalEyesForStrikingitaliabellaiCEQUEENIsleGirlJasmineKatiemaeKCPilarKarma's BitchKloverlynnmisfit (but shhh, don't tell her)Not JNinjaNinjaStarsThe Octocvnt Woman ThingypanPostal FloristPixieReekaRussian FoxxSataraShoshonniSuga LipsStevie tnksnvrlndWitchieXeeeePooo
So I am sitting here at work, bored outta my skull. Things are really slow, scary slow. So Thought i would blog and while brainstorming i remembered an old list of know first concert, first car, first kiss...etc. It reminded me of the day of my first kiss. Thought i would share the story, I have only ever told this story to one other person, too bad she isn't here it would be nice to read her comments. Anyway 3rd grade, my older brother is in 5th grade. I always hung out with older kids cuz of my brother. Well we both had a little crush on the same girl, a girl from his class, Trisha. Oh Trisha auburn hair, so pretty and a smile that just made you stop in your tracks. Anyway my brother and i would compete for her attention. We all three always walked home together, she only lived a few houses down from us. I was a cocky little thing then, brimming with confidence.   Well my cockyness seemed to be working cuz she would give me so much attention and laughed at my smartass
Wind Of Change :d
hi friends! yes you all that i didn't talk in a long time i know, i know, i have to apologize, things changed a lot in the last months... i started a new job last january, and it's incredible :) i love it and in the begin of april, like a month ago, me and my bf moved in to a new apartment together. we have still lots of things to do here, buying furniture, etc, and i'm trying to get early out of the office, so i can spend more time with him, till he finds a job. yes, the apartment is in the same city where i was living it was everything together! i thought i would live in this apartment the first 2-3 months alone, and just after 2 days here, i got the notice that 3 days later he's comming! haha i'm lucky... and happy with him! well, guys, i have to go again, he wants to play with me haha kisses
You Can’t Use Stilts To Squash A Bug
I'm tired I'm broken my body needs rest my emotions are not at their best I'll use this blade to carve into myself this crest Your antics are crude your attitude is rude you've lost your sense of control you've lost your powers with this blade you'll bleed for 72 hours so take this madness and bare it for life I'll take my chances in the mystic twilight I only hope it leads me to the high-life now I dance under this hybrid moon your misery will come very soon
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Your Kiss
Diamonds Shine Brighter Than The Ocean If You Look Hard Enough
I know this cute girl shes so cute other girls make me hurl when I see her she makes my day she's my shining light all the way I'd do anything to see her smile even if I got beaten to death for a while you sweep me off my feet if I got you the brightest diamond it'll be yours to keep Now I'll end this poem  with one last word I'll be nothing without you I give you my word
The Old Man And The Dog
The Old Man and the Dog "Watch out! You nearly broad sided that car!" My father yelled at me. "Can't you do anything right?" Those words hurt worse than blows. I turned my head toward the elderlyman in the seat beside me, daring me to challenge him. A lump rose in mythroat as I averted my eyes. I wasn't prepared for another battle. "I saw the car, Dad. Please don't yell at me when I'm driving." My voice was measured and steady, sounding far calmer than I really felt.Dad glared at me, then turned away and settled back. At home I left Dadin front of the television and went outside to collect my thoughts.Dark, heavy clouds hung in the air with a promise of rain. The rumble ofdistant thunder seemed to echo my inner turmoil. What could I do abouthim? Dad had been a lumberjack in Washington and Oregon . He had enjoyedbeing outdoors and had reveled in pitting his strength against theforces of nature. He had entered grueling lumberjack competitions, andhad placed often. The shelves in his hous
Mothers Day
Happy Mothers day to all the kick ass moms out there! Now I know that I'm a kick ass mom and there is no one that is going to tell me that I'm not. Mothers Day to me is like a heartache because of my situation, which will change really soon. I have NEVER gotten anything from anyone on Mothers Day not one fucking thing from anyone. Now like I said I know that I am a fucking kick ass mom but it would be fucking nice for someone to show that they think so as well (never ever going to happen) you know if not a gift then at least a saying like "Happy Mothers Day!". Now check this out my daugher must know that I am feeling down or something becuse she just ran in my room handed me a paper heart that says (For YOu!!! Mom) and ran off which made my heart jump. heh WOW! Oh wow she came in here and handed me yet another paper heart with her name on it....fucking great man I tell you.   Anyway so Mothers Day to me is meh                                               ~Uzza~
A Romantic Fool With Nothing To Offer In This Fast Moving World
he thought he was going to have it all but he was withdrawn from his world now he feels small he's spiraling downard in a freefall now he doesn't have the will to love his sense of trust has flown away like a free flying dove his loving spirit caged away like a circus freak his future love life looks awful bleak will he ever regain his cool only he knows the answer dus concludes the story of the romantic fool
Im Hated
The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target Two times the devil with all the significance Dragged and raped for the love of a mob I can't stay - because I can't be stopped Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses Let me tell you how it's gonna be I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me Welcome to the same ol' fucking scam Same ol' shit in a dead fad Everybody wants to be so hard Are you real or a second rate sports card? They all lost their dad or their wife just died They never got to go outside - SHUT UP Nobody gives a fuck it doesn't change the fact that you suck (We are) The anti-cancer (We are) The only answer Stripped down, we want you dead But what's inside of me, you'll never know (We are) Bipolar gods (We are) You know what we are My life was always shit And I don't think I need this anymore Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you Standing
Big Gyrl
The curve of my hip and the dip in my walk... I am a BIG GYRL and you will talk...   The hills of my breast and the length of my leg... I am a BIG GYRL you don't have to beg...   See I got skills only my kind know about... I am a BIG GYRL and that I will shout...   I look in the mirror and wonder, are they better than me... I am a BIG GYRL only real ones can see...   I am beautiful and all the men know it... I am a BIG GYRL and I always show it...   You don't have to like me, but I demand respect... I am a BIG GYRL what else would you expect...   My hills and valleys are sexy as hell...
Sitting in the dark, I can't forget. Even now, I realize the time I'll never get. Another story of the Bitter Pills of Fate. I can't go back again. I can't go back again... But you asked me to love you and I did. Traded my emotions for a contract to Commit. And when I got away, I only got so far. The Other Me Is Dead. I hear his voice inside my head... We were never alive, and we won't be born again. But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart. You told me to love you and I did. Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit. So when I got away, I only kept my scars. The Other Me Is Gone. Now I don't know where I belong... We were never alive, and we won't be born again. But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart. Dead Visions in your Name. Dead Fingers in my Veins. Dead Memories in my Heart
~guido's Zen On Romance~
Just as I see it..... ~Men always want to be a woman's first love. Women have a more subtle instinct: What they like is to be a man's last romance. ~As a Rose absorbs the nutrients it feeds on and as it thrives to see the sun as it must to survive...... the Rose becomes more beautiful and in turn will provide sunshine to those who can behold it's beauty. Fortunate is the Man who can see the Rose within a Woman. Blessed is the man who this Woman holds to be her nutrient, her sunshine. ~Give her two red roses, each with a note. The first note says For the woman I love and the second, For my best friend. ~Jealousy is the only vice that gives no pleasure. ~As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you. ~Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly. ~You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her ~Sometimes the heart
In Search Of Me
PONDERING.... As I sit and wonder what will tomorrow bring ... are any of us really sure ... or do we just guess .... do we wake in the morning and decide today the day i am going to have a shitty day ... or i think will I find true love does anyone ever really know ... what tomorrow brings ... could I WAKE  up to see my kids one last time and walk out the door just to never see them ever again ... I often wonder where are u now who would u be... and would i still be in ur heart ... do u ever wonder where I am who I became ...or remember me as I was every night I close my eyes search that maybe when I wake u might still be there but then when I do ..i knew that wouldnt be ever wonder why ur afraid of things why are people afraid of love I had friend that was afraid to live ...never had the courage...  to fight for herself .... every man that  claimed to love her ... left with no intension of returning....beat up her heart ...and before she reali
Tidal Wave
Tidal Wave   Dreams of impending disaster generally indicate that the dreamer is feeling out of control. In the case of the tidal wave, this out-of-control feeling is often combined with the need to make a fresh start. A 16-year-old boy reports dreaming: I am running, trying to get away from a tidal wave before it crashes over me. Finally, I realize it is hopeless. I turn around and let the full impact of the wave crash over me. Remarkably I stand up in spite of the wave's power. When I turn back to the direction I was running, everything -- my house, my parents, my car -- it's all gone. This youth presented numerous complaints at the outset of counseling, all of which revolved around home life and the absence of his father. Upon further inquiry, the youth admitted that he was a drug abuser with sexual identity problems. He desperately wanted a second chance, feeling as though he had undermined his own life. Often to dream of a catastrophic event is to wish for a catharsis in real
Loss Of Sensory Ability Or Motor Ability
Loss of Sensory Ability or Motor Ability   Images also include Blindness, Deafness. Usually, this is a very symbolic event in a dream. A 34-year-old man reports: I dream of being in a situation where I need to act resourcefully to help a stranger avoid danger. Suddenly, I go blind for no apparent reason! It is very frustrating. Becoming suddenly impaired in this way is different than being injured in a physical accident. The lights just seem to go out without explanation. With a dream like this, it is questionable whether or not the dreamer feels competent to fulfill his duties in waking life. However, this can also refer to his reluctance to accept the challenge of the hero self. Seeing oneself as a hero is kind of daunting, and the fact that it is your dream doesn't mean that you will necessarily and easily assume that role. Suddenly, the awareness of caring for those to whom you have no obligation is quickened. It's a hassle. Many of us can barely fulfill responsibilities to t
Quote Du Jour 5/8/09
“While the rest of the species is descended from apes, redheads are descended from cats.” -Mark Twain   Thanks DJ Lord Dragon @ Devilish-Angel-Radio ♡~Fu-hubby 2 ♥Juicey334♥~♡. I never knew this was a quote... until you posted your comment. Thus making me want to do quote of the day.
Scammer Asking For Passwords...
A man name Whitewolf user ID  Is going around asking for people''s yahoo ID's and passwords to all their sites.. please DO NOT!! Trust his man!!>... DO NOT add him to your pages!.. zinwin270 is his yahoo ID
Elephant   In the Zulu culture, the elephant is the symbol for wisdom, patriarchy, and sacred relationships (similar to the bear or eagle in Native American culture). It is important to notice that geographically different cultures find symbols within their own contexts to convey universal themes of human concern. Also, most western cultures revere the elephant as powerful and possessing a strong memory. Because of our common acknowledgment that elephants have powerful memories, to dream of an elephant may be an association with the act of memory-this may point to something forgotten in your life.
Plants   Plants are often not a specific item of dream interpretation because most of the time they function simply as background scenery. The exception to this rule is when a particular type of plant is identified in the dream. Plants that are significant are those that have historic importance in literature or your personal experience. For example, you may dream of visiting a friend who is sitting in a thicket of hemlock. Obviously, this plant is significant because of the implications of hemlock and suicide in ancient lore. Other plants that may be significant are those that remind you of a childhood memory, a particular place, or a particular person. In those cases, identifying the relationship of your current circumstances with your memories is important.
Anima / Animus
Anima / Animus   These are terms that Jung created to describe the opposite-gender self that lives within each of us. The anima is the feminine component dwelling inside a male's unconscious mind. The animus is the masculine component dwelling inside a female's unconscious mind. In dreams, this opposite-gender self can be a helper or an antagonist. These dream figures can appear as translations of persons we meet with whom we have a tremendous sense of romantic love or platonic camaraderie. One of Jung's interpreters held that the anima/animus character was only understandable to those who have known true love. However, our opposite-gender selves may reveal to us negativity in ourselves or negativity we perceive in dealings with the opposite sex. It is important to note that sometimes, when you dream about a person of the opposite sex, they may be representing your own inner self. Carefully consider all persons of the opposite sex in your dreams as a possible appearance of your ow
Weather   Dreams can have very unique weather. It may be sunny and thundering, or pouring rain everywhere except for where you are standing. Weather images in dreams often reflect your feelings about your environment. You may view the world as contrary to your goals; thus a dream would have bad weather in it. On the contrary, pleasant dreams or dreams at a time when life is going well usually feature good weather. The weather in dreams is generally not as significant as other images unless it is somehow aberrant from normal, waking world weather. Did the weather in your dream prevent something good from happening, such as a planned event?
How To Sell Toothbrushes
HOW TO SELL TOOTHBRUSHES.................     The kids filed back into class Monday morning.     They were very excited.Their weekend assignment was to sell something, Then give a talk on productive salesmanship.      Little Sally led off:"I sold girl scout cookies and I made $30," she said proudly,  "My sales approach was to appeal to the customer's civil spirit  And I credit that approach for my obvious success."     "Very good," said the teacher.       Little Jenny was next:     "I sold magazines," she said, "I made $45 and I explainedTo  everyone that magazines would keep them up on current events.."      "Very good, Jenny," said the teacher.           Eventually, it was Little Johnny's turn.         The teacher held her breath.        Little Johnny walked to the front of the classroom and dumped a box full of cash on the teacher's desk."$2,467," he said.        "$2,467!" cried the teacher, "What in the world were you selling?"           "Toothbrushes," said little Johnny..      
Ancient Breed
Ancient Breed Seems like many who were raised the way i was have gone or passed. To many times i am told Gentlemen do not exsist, Well i am here to say that we do . I will speak for many  we do not honor those who set such bad examples of behavior. 1. beating women 2. Abuse Everyday i see many ladies talking about how they wont trust men or that they have built a high wall due to the past.   But ladies is it that fair to judge all do to others ? Is it not the pot calling the kettle black to assume it is just Men who are in that nature .... For us men to  have been through trying times in relationships  .... Cheating ,lying, abuse People are just beasts in all shapes and forms  no person can say they are truly that one person who doesnt do anything wrong it is in our BLOOD  the temptation and the need for the rush  the flow of power and ANIMOSITY some times overpowers even the most strongwilled person . Men you are no exception to this for we to make many judgement calls    
Contest Results :-)
Ok, I know everyone is been waiting and watching for this,  Just to let you know, because of the responses to the Contest there were some slight changes.  The TOP 5 will still be named as planned and as they have proved themselves.  But, there were more than 5 that took the contest to a whole new level (Big Smile).  So there will be 5 second place winners also, as well as 10 third place winners. And Trust me, it was a very close race, and my decisions were very painstaking. The TOP 5 are as follows: Miss Who lol, Jewel O'Fubar, Kimmie Kinz, Sexy Lil Sassy, TheSpoiled01 Your Prizes are included in the Original Blog of the Contest announcement.   Second Place Winners are: Rhonda aka Strawberries, TNdreamer, LuvBug**FFM Member, FREEDOM, BakFromDisaztr Your Prizes are:  A Salute, 150 pics per 2 weeks rated (11) for a month, 1-Big Pimpin Gift every two weeks for a month.   Third Place Winners are: Miss Monneypenny, Princess Beakers, Stiletto Girl, Sexy Southerner, Chaotic Dirty D
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How To Spot A Fake
I've been asked several times how i spot a fake and how I find out who they really are. So I figured I would make a list to maybe help prevent some good people for falling the bullshit fakes dish out. There are two types of fakes (where user profiles and photos are concerned). There are the fakes that steal someones identity. They take their photos, name, and info and claim to be them. There are also the fakes that steal someones photos, give them a different name, and make up info. I ALWAYS look to see if someone has a salute. If there's no salute I'll then look at their rank and joined date. Why? Some people level faster then others. If your a higher level with no salute then you've most likely been around quite a while. Plenty of time to make a salute. Lower level people without a salute that are OVER level 10, sometimes I drop them a message asking them why they don't have a salute. It could be any range of reasons why. I generally always suggest buying a disposable camera and ge
An Amazing Man
I've found me a wonderful man, a couple of you know him from a lounge I used to go into. But he makes me feel so good about myself and he respects me and his family and friends like me already and have told me that other than his kids that I am the best thing that has happened to him. I find it very cool. My mom likes him which is good. I will end up moving to where he is. I'm excited and scared at the same time because I'm not used to being accepted by a guy for who I am. But everything will work out and I know I will be happy with him.
just when i thought people could not be more stupid there is someone alwasys to prove me wrong someone yesterday called me a female   ok where the hell do you get female as my gender iam sure my pics could tell you that ur wrong also the state i live in as well   if you come to my profile just to look at my pics with out reading it you well be block iam tire of telling what already in my profile at first it did not borther me but after you get 10 people asking the same shit with out reading its enuff to piss someone off
Cecilia, Chapter Deux
"NauTeeMomee" was the profile name. They asked her age, her sex (often thank you) her hair color, and her preferences in Men. Then, the big one, "describe yourself". Monica took this one over. She pushed Cecilia aside and said "Who else but me knows your EVERY thought? Your EVERY dream, and more important, your NEEDS?". Cecilia thought about this and wandered off to the edge of the property. She could stand on her tiptoes,painted a wonderful shade of vermillion, and see the tiniest sliver of water in the bay, beyond her neighbors homes and lawns. She thought of the feel of the water in the bay, the warmth sliding over her naked skin as she dove over and over to the bottom then back, knowing that she was alone yet happiest in her element, water. A booming laugh brought her rudely to reality, and she turned to find Monica nearly doubled over laughing saying "dam girl, you're gonna get it". Curious, "Cease" as her friends called her, turned to walk towards Monica and her laptop, "oh no no
Love 2
A touch of skin soft and slippery,With the hint of hint of sweat.We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets,As the wind flowed from the window above us.Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance,To abandon all of our uncertainties.You began your work on my lips,Probing gently as if drawing sex,From a deep well of longing and need.Then heated tongues met in the midst,Of hot and quickening breath.And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts.Then intoxicated with those spirits,Our clothes found resting place on the floor.Piece by piece,Until there were no hiding places,For the two glistening and wanting bodies.Hunger revealed in this hot moment.Then skin meshed with skin,As the floor became the stage.You moved atop of me easily,And lowered yourself gently.Kissing me as I was filled with you.As a gasp broke the kiss,Your hands stroked the stray strands,Away from my forehead, then became entangled.Our slow rhythm gave way,To urgent and demanding thrusts of passion,As I arched my body f
Happy To Be Back
Just wanted to let everyone know I'm back around. I had left for about a month and went to Indiana to spend time w/my kids and other family. Was stuck up there w/no internet or anything, pretty much completely out of reality. Yeah, I know, blah, blah, blah.  Anyway, if you wanna know anything else, or even give a shit, hit me up and we can chat.
Just A Poem!
Fun Family Photos(for Ppl In Florida..sorry)
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Yeah, I'm A Meaniepants...
Okay, if I ever get this bad...will someone pull my plug?  
Osho About Love
Osho about Love Love is the secret key that opens the innermost treasures of our being, that makes us aware of who we are. Love is an open sky. To be in love is to be on the wing. In love life comes to its ultimate peak. Love is ascension, love takes you to the heights, love can take you to the Everest of your soul, love can open the gates to heaven. Love opens up new horizons, new dimensions of joy and richness, love opens up a new sky where you can spread your wings and fly. Through the ages love has been identified with the pure, with the sacred, with the Divine, for a good reason; love is a spark of the Supreme. Hate separates, love unites, true love is the highest union. Of the seasons, love is the spring, love makes you blossom. Love makes you more vibrant, more alive, love is the dance of the heart.Love is alchemy, pure alchemy; it transforms everything that it touches. Love is the key to unlock some of the supreme potentials of life, it unveils the beauty in the heart of ever
Zombie Liberation Front Part Two : The Backstory
zzz: And what the fuck is so miraculous about Miracle Whip?christopher.: i use miracle whip with my tunazzz: God, you're sounding more and more like my mother.christopher.: because they had that shit down in the pyramids and it's still edible, and it lasts longer than mayozzz: so just because it has a longer shelf life it's miraculous?zzz: nozzz: that is not miraculouschristopher.: yeszzz: nochristopher.: YESzzz: nozzz: not miraculouschristopher.: FUCKING YES!!!!!!zzz: fuck yes all you want but it's still not miraculouschristopher.: YES IT ISchristopher.: it's more miraculous than any of thaT SHIT christ didzzz: but I don't think anything he did was miraculous so that doesn't make me think twice in doubting the miraculousness of miracle whipchristopher.: lolchristopher.: dudechristopher.: he knocked up his own momzzz: ettechristopher.: without fucking herzzz: lmaozzz: dude you know she fucked josephzzz: or someonechristopher.: lolchristopher.: Adamzzz: Adam wasn't around then, jeezzzz:
The Reason I Love You
I love you because you make me happy I love you because you make me feel safe and secure I love your smile I love the way you say my name I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me And how you laugh at me when I do something stupid, when others would put me down. I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. No matter what my faults may be. I love being able to wake up with you by my side... It makes my days better At night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, and feeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that you are not a dream YOU ARE MINE. I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, like there is no tomorrow And I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, the love and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable. I love your laugh I love hearing your voice I love
Live Nude Girls, Part Iii
For the final installment of my “Live Nude Girls” series, I’m going to discuss the fully nude clubs.  As I mentioned before, strip clubs are a massive, sucking vortex of sin.  They pull you deeper and deeper into their world – like a Dyson vacuum with special penile attachment.  Not that I would know anything about boning a vacuum.    Honest.  Stop looking at me like that.   OK, I schtupped a Dust Buster one time.  But that’s because I had some stray lint on my junk and I got a little curious.   I won’t get into the club décor too much because they run the gamut just like the topless clubs.  There are nicely appointed clubs and, in contrast, there are complete sleaze factories.  It all just depends on the quality of the women and the amount of money you want to spend.  One significant difference is that most nude clubs are not allowed to serve alcohol.  I’m not sure of the reasoning here.  Apparently, booze + naked boobies = kosher fun,
What The Hell?
I don't know if anyone else has noticed this, but Hollywood really seems to be grasping for movie ideas.  It seems that everything that comes out it now is a remake, based on a t.v. show, or a book, or a comic.  Seriously, what happened to writing an actual script?  I'm not saying I don't like some of these movies, but really, was there a need to remake Texas Chainsaw Massacer?  And of course then there is the fact that they want to remake Evil Dead.  You can't do that...that's just sick! Anyways, I know that it can be neat to see a book or a comic done up on the big screen...but come, give us some new ideas.  Rambo was based on a book, Die Hard was based on a book, and so many movies have been based on Stephen King books that it's redic.  Of course, when a movie is made out of a book, they usually stray greatly.  I was suprised at how close "No Country for Old Men" was.  On that note, stop making so many damn movies out of books.  Let people read.  I mean come on, I'm not a Harry Po
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The Art Of Acceptance!
The art of acceptance is the art of making someone who has just done you a small favor wish that he might have done you a greater one.
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Tim & Bam i am retyping my old LJ from 2004. when all i wrote about was "brandon this & brandon that"! It is SO fucking annoying...all i ever did was call brandon,make out with brandon & get pissed at brandon. i 'm so sick of brandon right now!!! arrrg... i just read this entry where i called him & he told me i was dramatic & that i would call him & "raise hell"...cos he was always fucking w/me & playing games!!! guys like him & tim & maybe even kraig only know that BITCHY side of me cos they brought that out in me. with their constant LIES & always picking fights...yeah i was a fucking bitch to them cos that's all they deserved.... they don't know me like jamie does. sure i can be mean when i'm pms-ing but that's only natural ! :) but he knows the sweet nutring side of me. he treats me with nothing but love & respect. brandon & tim never fucking respected me so it made it hard from me to respect them& they didn't deserve my fucking respect anyway. you get what you give. so once a
Bob, a handsome dude, walked into a sports bar around 9:58 pm. He sat down next to a blonde at the bar and stared up at the TV. The 10 pm news was coming on. The news crew was covering the story of a man on the ledge of a large building preparing to jump. The blonde looked at Bob and said, "Do you think he'll jump?" Bob said, "You know, I bet he'll jump." The blonde replied, "Well, I bet he won't." Bob placed a $20 bill on the bar and said, "You're on!" Just as the blonde placed her money on the bar, the guy on the ledge did a swan dive off the building, falling to his death. The blonde was very upset, but willingly handed her $20 to Bob, saying, "Fair's fair. Here's your money." Bob replied, "I can't take your money. I saw this earlier on the 5 pm news, and so I knew he would jump." The blonde replied, "I did too, but didn't think he'd do it again." Bob took the money
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"submission"........part I
August in Florida is always torrid, especially in the southern part of the state, and he could not help but sweat. Not from the weather, since he was still inside the conditioned air of the house, but from the beat of his heart. It had been racing for weeks, but today it was damned near fibrillating. Today he was going to finally meet her after months of online chats. Deep inside, he had felt like he met his soul mate the first time they talked, but now was the real test. For some reason he felt like a high school kid going on his first date again. His thoughts strayed over the past few months as he showered and bathed himself with trembling hands.  It had all started so innocently. They had met in one of those popular game/chat room combinations that everyone seems to frequent. Often he would meet a woman, or a man posing as a woman (one thing about cybersex, one never has to know, and one can pass all bounds of reality) and go directly to cybersex hell, feeling unfulfilled after, an
It's up the pisser.  I can call in from my phone and hear my messages, and it tells me I can leave ones, and lets me do all teh shit, only those messages then never appear.  And when I tried to record an intro, it now says I have one, but it is just silent when I click on it on my page.  Other than "use a mic", any suggestions? Like, why can't it hear my phone?
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Bored As Hell Is There Anyone Out There Worth Talking To
My First B-day Card This Year!
I was so worried no one would remember! When I went to retrieve the mail I knew right away. They never forget. Every year they come through for me. I was so excited I almost ripped it open right then and there. But then I thought, "no wait till you get inside. Enjoy it. It's special. Don't waste it." The card was simple but also right on. They know me so well. On the front: Eat cake Smile for the camera Clink Glasses. On the inside: Skip the singing and get right to the gift! They made this card themselves. They know I love cake. They know I hate singing. I love that they ... know me. I'll try to thank them in person. But like every other year they'll just act like it's nothing. Like they do it for everyone and I'm not special to them. But I know the truth. So I'll say it anyway: Thank you Sunglass Hut. Thank you for remembering.
What I Seek...
My children introduced me to this site, and i have found a great deal of fiends here..  Who all seem to be sincere. I havent dated in almost 4 yrs, after my divorce,12 years of living hell! I look for friends yes, but my main goal is to find just one woman who believes in forever, and to be happy, and enjoy things i do..  such as candle lit dinners, going out to dinner, camping, biking, quads, motorcycles, dancing, or just setting in front of the fire place, cuddling, with a glass of wine.. I also do a great deal of traveling, going to texas in a couple weeks to see my children..  Which i have 4, 18, 16, and twins 14..   Friends are a good thing to have, but if your interested in a real, romantic relationship, then im your man.. I dont believe in cheating, one woman man..  I have 2 associate degree's, culinary arts, and general business..  I also write poetry, and have over 50 published poems..  ive won awards, dont get me wrong, im no one special, just me! And do not believe in ly
Being Away
    I am sorry if I appear not to return the love at the moment and never seem to be on... I am in the process of moving into a new house and it is taken alot of my time and energy just to keep up with the move.  As the access to the internet at the new place has not beem established,  I have limited access to FUBAR.  But I promise I will return the love as soon as I am able. Love ya all SaSsY
Bordest Ever...
Naivety is not cute.      and apparently being a regular mumm commenter makes it okay to be 19, but if you should ever post a mumm, you are like SO immature...
New Bartab Option
New EDIT and ALL Links On Bartab: Look at your BarTabs upper right corner and you'll see a link: "EDIT" will take you straight to the filter options for the BarTab. "ALL" will take you to the screen to read or delete the contents of the 3 sections of your BarTab.
Fuck you secret admirer i dont want to know you.  If you dont have the guts to say you like my style then fuck off.  I sound pretty stupid to my self cause you cant read this.
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life 'Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything feels like the movies Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that
You're my life's one Miracle,Everything I've done that's goodAnd you break my heart with tenderness,And I confess it's trueI never knew a love like this till you....You're the reason I was bornNow I finally know for sureAnd I'm overwhelmed with happinessSo blessed to hold you closeThe one that I love mostWith all the future has so much for you in storeWho could ever love you more?The nearest thing to heaven,You're my angel from aboveOnly God creates such perfect loooooveWhen you smile at me, I cryAnd to save your life I'll dieWith a romance that is pure heart,You are my dearest partWhatever it requires,I live for your desiresForget my own, needs will come beforeWho could ever love you more?Well there is nothing you could ever do,To make me stop, loving youAnd every breath I take,Is always for your sakeYou sleep inside my dreams and know for sureWho could ever love you more?
Is anyong going out this weekend? wanna party it up with me? let me know :)
Rollercoaster Out Of Hell....
"Here I am, first foot of the climb, watch me go!" Ever since I got out of a 9 year relationship, I find myself doing the most random fricking stuff. Last Sunday I had ice cream and cake with a friend of a friend who is hot. We were talking about it on facebook messenger, he asked when we could meet up to get some ice cream, and I said, "How about now?" Yesterday at the bank, I panicked for a moment because the male teller was hot and I didn't have any make-up on, but I calmed down once I saw the fancy band on his ring finger. I refuse to go to work unless I have on a great push-up bra, just in case I get the chance to fit any hot guys. I watch porn. I did that before I broke up, but it seems more of a necessity now that i don't have a guaranteed lay... I started playing video games again. I'm 18hrs into FF12. I put a profile up on yahoo personals, even though I don't want a new boyfriend. I stated that I'm only looking to date. We'll see if it flys. If I get bored with it, t
Happy B-day Fucker
The positive side of being an oldie: • You’ll never have to endure those harrowing visits to the dentist again. • You’ll save a fortune on shampoo. • Your hernia operation will make you a star at the local pub. • You will look distinguished with your receding hairline, double chin and wrinkles. • You have survived the humiliation of middle age. • You’ll no longer have to suffer the disappointment of thwarted ambitions – you no longer have any. • You can finally sell those dreadful diet and exercise books that have sat unopened on the bookshelf for years. • You’ll be the champ at history questions in the pub quiz. • You can embarrass your family by entering glamorous granny or good-looking grandfather competitions. • You don’t need to make an effort anymore – people will expect you to be frumpy, boring and cantankerous. • Your failing memory allows you to convince yourse
is anyone fed up about these people putting down carrie prejean cos of the photo she did when she was 17 i mean that was 3 yrs ago let it go she should keep her title and she is free to speak her mind this a free country buy the way... 
~love...random Guido Open Words~
~Take My Hand.... and Walk with Me... ~From Where We Are.... to Where We'll Be.... ~Love is a Mystery... ~We'll Learn what Life is.... as We Go... ~No Map...No Answers... ~All I know is this: I Love You So..... Peace.
So...there was someone that I thought was close to me (friends wise, nothin more), and that destroyed it all.   I forgot completely about that person, have no negative or positive feelings towards him. Forgot his phone number, his name, his existance.   Now he decided to crawl back and spread more of the drama around. He wanted to "make peace", and apologize.   Well, it wasnt accepted.
When We See Someone Successful,
When we see someone successful, we say that he just got lucky.'He must have been at the right place at the right time.'People only see one side of the picture.People don't see the failures.If you study history, you will find that -All stories of success are also stories of great failures.So if you are failing; Remember, success is waiting to happen
I'm So Happy
i'm so happy that everythings turn out good today with this other person now i don't have to feel bad about my son anymore.
My First Auction!!!!!!
Ok Folks I am in my first ever auction. Check it out and bid on me starting May 8th!!!
Zombie Liberation Front
"and the dude in the yellow hat??no clue wtf I'm doing with him yet"does he have a pet monkey?    "no"damnit is he the zombie?    "no"is he a zombie hunting motherfucker like Ash from Army of Darkness?does he whack the zombie in the jungles of new jersey?    "lmfao"and get bitten in the processso he's the zombie too?then, does Shaun and Ed fly over from england to kill the motherfucker?but he's smarter than themhe whacks 'em both and lives to conquer the quarantined New Jerseywhich really, it should've been quarantined from the getand slowly, he begins to grow his Zombie Armyand he heads for DCwhere he gets the president numbnuts, some descendant of Bushand he just keeps getting bigger until he conquers the countryhe has intelligence, seehe's not a typical zombieand what he does, once his army reaches Calihe gets into a plane and covers the entire country in napalmand crashes the plane into the mountainsbut it doesn't stop theresee, the fire rages into canada and mexico (where they say
Words You Know Who You Are!
Youre probably wondering why i named this blog entry "scissors" lol, well its a track from slipknot that im listening to now at 9:33 AM today to get me all pumped..I'm all hyped up about my meet up i have planned for tonight.I'm only hoping my asshole roommate lets me borrow his car.
Black Widow's Hh Party
Party in the Web Miss Black Widow has the pleasure to invite you Saturday, 9th of May, 2PM Fubar time, to join her HappyHour party! There will be plenty of points, autos and bombs. Special thanks to my wonderful friend and fu-owner: Guidomedic@ fubar Bully brought to you by: ♫BlackWidow♫@ fubar
A Dilemma In Arrears
As I was walking into the office this morning, I found myself behind an attractive woman wearing a black skirt.  She had what the French would call "une ane formidable" so of course I was staring for a few blocks.  Let me disperse any illusions, when it comes to leering at women, I do fall on this side of creepy letch, of course the other side of that spectrum is "homosexual" and while I am not on that side, I'd dare say that even they look too.  Anyway, I am getting off topic, this woman with the great rear view had a stain on her appearance.  Quite literally a stain, perhaps she sat in something on the subway, or someone had splashed a little coffee on her, but there it was, something to mar the most scenic view.  My question to you the reader is;  "What is the etiquette in this situation?"  Do I mention that there is a mark on her backside, breaking our secret compact of non-threatening stalker and stalkee, or do I not mention it at all hoping that someone else that she is closer to
How Well Do You Know Edward And Bella
Hell Yeah!!
So after 2 nights in a row of getting post-ops back and having them tank within 30 minutes of anesthesia leaving, the stress level was a wee bit high. But the big-wigs decided to pay respect to all us ICU/CCU nurses and we all got free massages at work this morning. lol Gotta love nurse appretiation week!!!
Ahh Another Thing!
I'm sure you've all heard this and or read it in my last blogs however I've gotta wait at least 6 weeks before they can do a CT scan on me to make sure they have gotten it all in which case I hope like hell because I've already told John that if they haven't just to load the gun and pull the trigger, I can not go through what I've been through again it's painful, not only does it hurt you but the loved ones around you, anyways wish me well and the best of luck cause I sure will need it!
A baby to hold and to love, a creature so tiny, so fresh and so new. There's nothing more important or special that two loving people could ever do. Who will the baby look like will it be a he or a she. Part of him, part of her, a creation that is meant to be. All we could ever want for our baby is very simple and very plain It's to be happy and content in life and know our love will never wane.
O.k. Here Goes Nothing!
Cervical Cancer has five different categories in its staging system. The system used is referred to as the "Figo" system (International Federation of Gynecology and Obstetrics.You will notice that within each stage is a "sub-stage" and represent levels within that specific stage of cancer.The staging system begins at 0 and ends at IV. 0 meaning the very early stages of cancer and IV being advanced.Stage 0Also called carcinoma in situ, stage 0 means that cancerous cells that have not invaded deeper tissues. The cells are superficial and are only found on the surface.Stage IIn stage I, cancerous cells have invaded the cervix, and cells are no longer just at the surface. Cancer is still confined to the cervix and has not spread. Stage IA: This is the earliest form of stage I cervical cancer. The cancer can only be identified under microscopic examination. Stage IA1: The invasion area is less than 3mm(1/8 inch) deep and less than 7mm (1/4 inch) wide. Stage IA2: The invasion area is be
lost in the grand scheme of things forever in perpetual motion seeing but not seeing feeling but not feeling a constant battle of what is real or illusion adrift in a vast world of saints and sinners charlatans and the righteous always at my door wanting more giving nothing tearing me apart bit by bitter bit for their own selfish lustful needs never giving always taking filling my heart with sadness and angst leaving me to my inner chaos broken and alone
Squirting Orgasm
I lay back and let him do as he pleased. My legs spread wide apart and my hands tied behind my head to the bed. He began by gently stroking my pussy. One finger just touching me running along my pussy. Slowly he pushed it inside me and began to slide it in and out very delicately. The thumb touched my clit as he inserted two fingers into me. I had closed my eyes and begun to really enjoy the pleasures. He let his fingers move around inside me, his thumb gently rubbing against me. The pleasure I felt grew. On the third finger he began to push a little harder and a little deeper. The slippy wet fingers reaching deeper inside and pushing against me more. I felt the rise of pleasure again and the anticipation. I felt teased. I wanted more. I knew it would come but he was going so damn slowly. I knew I couldn't ask for more or he'd stop. Those were the rules. My brain begged but my mouth stayed shut. I could moan and enjoy all that he did but no pleas for something extra. He wanted to t
  I am troubled Immeasurably By your eyes I am struck By the feather Of your soft Reply The sound of glass Speaks quick Disdain
Leaving Him...
So I asked this guy I'm deeply in love with for a break right... I just keep getting bad feelings everytime I'm not around him. I mean he hurt me once and now he hurt me again. But it's more my fault. All because I asked for a break. I needed time to think. Right now I lost my voice because I'm sick and been crying for the past week in a half. I know he loves me because I mean he even put me his number 1 when he never does for any female... But during our break he looked at females cams and looked at naked pictures while on here... which makes me mad... But then I know lots of people are saying I shouldn't since we on a break... But last night... last night made the break up official... I just can't take it no more... And if people think I'm a bitch then oh well... I was looking out for my heart... And like I said dozens of times if its meant to be we will find our way back to each other like we kept on for the past 5 years...
My Child
So I have to brag on my son's intellectual skills for a second. At bath time last night (grant you, MY SON IS FIVE) he begins to examine his private area...hehee...As he's discovering his "balls" for the millionth time (it's true you men NEVER stop playing with yourselves) he asks me, "Mommy, what are these things?" Stumped beyond belief on the most politically correct answer to give- I just kinda stood there in shock. He goes back to examining, and blurts out- "I know Mommy, it's my peepee's BRAIN!" God bless my son and his HILARIOUS tactics that constantly keeps me rolling in the floor laughing. :D
My Own Lil Contest!
LOL I am In my OWN contest and I need my friends help, I need you to rate and comment on my contest folder, If your not yet a friend please Rate Fan Add me (Only My Friends Can Few The Pic) after that I will send 1k to everyone that F/A/R's And Comments (No dirty or NSFW Comments your that person WILL be deleted from my friends list AND Blocked! Thanks for your help! Thanks Again ~*MysticLadyWolf~*
Baby Dies; Pacifier Taped To His Mouth
  WTF? WHY? Why would someone do something like this? WYFF4 news story Why would someone treat an infant like this? Comments - please! Rock on! Durham  
If You Should...
Hugs and kissed don,t hurt anything either......xxxxoooo,s
Happy Birthday 40's
Script For New Twilight Movie Leaked On Twitter?
 One hundred and five pages of what appears to be the script of New Moon, the upcoming Twilight movie, appears to have been leaked on Twitter. The Twitter profile of the person posting the script has since been locked, and the authenticity of the script has yet to be verified. According to Cinema Blend, the apparent second draft of writer Melissa Rosenberg's script features: "a dream sequence in which Bella imagines herself as a wrinkly old woman, still with an eternally young and extremely diamond skinned Edward." Another possibility is that someone else has written their own version of the script and posted it. Either way, as long as Edward is "diamond skinned", fans should be happy.
New Moon Movie Script Leak? May 5, 8:49 Am 58
Oh goodness. What Cinema Blend is reporting might be correct. It seems that there may indeed be a leaked draft of The Twilight Saga: New Moon script leaked on-line. Either that, or like Josh Tyler (writer over at CB) said, "someone has gone through an awful lot of trouble to write a 105 page fake." Not wanting to spoil it for myself, I took a brief glimpse at a few pages, and it was pretty good! The "second draft," it says on the first page, is from December 21, 2008, and it is claiming to be written by Melissa Rosenberg. [ * Warning * Possible spoilers ahead! ] The opening scene to the leaked script is, of course, the birthday scene (which New Moon fans expect to be perfect - see here). I have to give it to whoever wrote this thing - they did an alright job. Aside from a few rough draft indicia, the parts I caught weren't bad.
Taking your hand Fingers to my lips I want to love every inch of you Taste every part of your body As if I can drink your loves blood Through your very pores I want to get lost in your eyes Consumed by your kiss Set my body on fire Quench the fire in my blood With sweet caresses Touch my soul with your passion Lay down beside me Feel my body crying for you Let's get lost in each other Touching, exploring, tasting We will exceed passion, go beyond bliss For this is our night Want me, like no other Need you, like the air that I breathe Together, one mind, one soul Fused in the heat of passionate love Existing in this moment Forever
'twilight' Publisher Releasing New Titles Tied To The Franchise
'Twilight' publisher releasing new titles tied to the franchise May 7, 2009, 07:01 AM | by Entertainment Weekly Categories: Books Stephenie Meyer might have already released her Twilight finale, but that doesn't mean fans of the franchise will have to let go of the series just yet. Little, Brown will be publishing several books this fall that are tied in with the franchise. Along with movie tie-in literature for this year's New Moon adaptation, the publisher will also release a limited special edition of Breaking Dawn, as well as journals that feature cover art for all four books. According to a press release from the publisher, the Breaking Dawn Special Edition, on stands Aug. 4, will include a DVD of the Breaking Dawn concert series and interviews with Meyer. Those who pick up the hardcover book can also expect a poster and reproduction of handwritten lyrics for “My Never,” by Blue October’s Justin Furstenfeld. The Twilight Journals (pictured), out Oct. 13,
The Gift
I don't have much to give you in the way of material things. But then, I have never been a material person . . . so it wouldn't matter much anyway. I do have something to give you, though . . . and I hope you accept this gift with joy. I have chosen not to wrap it . . . I want it to be presented to you as pristine as can be. And anyway, decorations or wrappings would certainly ruin the effect. And so it is . . . that I stand before you . . . unclothed, but surprisingly, unashamed of my nakedness. You have already captured a piece of my heart, and you have captivated my soul. The only thing left for me to present to you is my very being . . . and I do that willingly, happily, and most of all . . . lovingly. Standing before you . . . watching your every movement . . . seeing the desire in your eyes for the very first time. I don't believe in all of my life, I have ever witnessed a moment as beautiful as this. Neither one of us can speak . . . and we are finding, even breathing, is diffic
New Moon Movie Filming Update: Robert Pattinson Thrown
 Michael Sheen (who will play Aro in The Twilight Saga: New Moon) was among the to-be Volturi vampires (Dakota Fanning and Jamie Campbell Bower included) to arrive in Vancouver, he was a bit scraggly at the time (see also the many other faces of Michael Sheen here). Now, it appears that he has prepared himself for filming by cleaning up a bit. Lainey Gossip, who always brings us many pictures (check her out for more pictures) of the Twilight cast, reported on the events of the day by providing new photographs of Michael Sheen out and about, with a new look, and some information on the filming process to go along with it. Says she, Today: Edward is hurled in the air, tossed against a wall when he attempts to protect Bella. Am pretty sure in the book his torture consisted of him writhing on the floor in pain. Obviously, visually, the throwing is much more spectacular, requiring much less emphasis on, um, Robert Pattinson’s facial expressions. Every time he was hurting in the first
Our Passion & Erotic Lust
EROTIC LUST A touch of skin soft and slippery, With the hint of hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, As the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, To abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, Probing gently as if drawing sex, From a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, Of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, Our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece, Until there were no hiding places, For the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, As the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, And lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, Your hands stroked the stray strands, Away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way, To urgent an
Official Bio Stephenie Meyer
Stephenie Meyer graduated from Brigham Young University with a bachelor's degree in English. She lives with her husband and three young sons in Phoenix, Arizona. After the publication of her first novel, Twilight, booksellers chose Stephenie Meyer as one of the "most promising new authors of 2005" (Publishers Weekly). Praise for Twilight: A New York Times Editor's Choice A Publishers Weekly Best Book of the Year An Amazon "Best Book of the Decade...So Far" A Teen People "Hot List" pick An American Library Association "Top Ten Best Book for Young Adults" and "Top Ten Books for Reluctant Readers" Has been translated into 20 languages "Propelled by suspense and romance in equal parts [this story] will keep readers madly flipping the pages of Meyer's tantalizing debut." — Publishers Weekly (starred review) "The novel's danger-factor skyrockets as the excitement of secret love and hushed affection morphs into a terrifying race to stay alive. Realistic, subtle, succinct, and easy to fo
Breaking Dawn Quotes
Breaking Dawn Alice: "I'll play you for it. Rock, paper, scissors."Edward: "Why don't you just tell me who wins?"Alice: "I do. Excellent." Bella: "Oh, Mike! How will I go on?" Tanya: "Ah, Edward. I've missed you." Emmett: "Oooo, scary." Bella: "Jasper? What do vampires do for bachelor parties? You're not taking him to a strip club, are you?" Charlie: "Bells, we're up to bat." Edward: "You're awfully small to be so hugely irritating." Bella: "Why am I covered in feathers?" Alice: "No one will dare to call you plain when I'm through with you."Bella: "Only because they're afraid you'll suck their blood." Edward: "Oops." Renee: "Alice wouldn't let us do anything else. Every time we tried, she all but ripped our throats out." Edward: "Do you want me to sing to you? I'll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away." Rosalie: "Over my pile of ashes." Edward: "You look so guilty—like you've committed a crime."
Visit Himachal Pradesh – Explore Shimla And Kullu Manali
Situated in the northern part of India, Himachal Pradesh is one of the most charming and captivating states of India. The state is known for superb scenic beauty and some of world famous hill stations. It has several mesmeric tourist places and gorgeous hill towns. Nature has blessed this state uniquely. Climate here is enjoyable and delightful. There are several resorts offering excellent accommodation facilities. A variety of adventure and sport activities are available grabbing the heart of tourists who love to thrill themselves with adventurous activities during their India tours and vacations. Indeed, Himachal is able to lure tourists through out the entire globe with its unique charm and agreeable ambiance for mesmerizing vacations. There are several deserving tourist places and hill towns in the state offering wonderful options for amazing tourism as well as memorable holiday experience. Shimla, Dalhousie, Dharamshala, Kasauli, Kullu and Manali are names to few. Shimla, Kullu
Enjoy The Scintillating Beauty Of Kerala With Kerala Tour
Kerala is one of the most beautiful tourist destinations of India. Visitors from every nook and corner of the world come here to enjoy the exquisite and captivating natural beauty of this spicy state. Tourists from every corner of the world come here to enjoy the scenic natural beauty, enthralling beauty of backwaters, picturesque view of the hills dotted with wooded forest, gushing of waterfalls, alluring beauty of the emerald paddy, serenity of the beaches and many other captivating beauty of this spicy state. It is the only state in India which gives you the ayurvedic treatment to the exhausted soul and body and makes the body rejuvenating and fresh. This practice of holistic science is also catching attention of tourists from far and abroad. Visit once to this lovely tourism destination of India and it is sure you will fall in love its tempting and captivating natural surrounding. Infact it is the best place on earth to enjoy your holidays in the most memorable way. Kerala’
Breaking Dawn Book Four In The Twilight Series
Breaking Dawn Book Four in the Twilight Series July 7, 2008 (This is from Stephenie, so don't just skip over it thinking that it is another boring message from the webmaster.) It's almost August, and I'm counting down to the release of Breaking Dawn just as anxiously as you are! I can't wait to finally be able to discuss everything that happens in Breaking Dawn with you. I want to give a heads up to everyone going to the Breaking Dawn Concert Series events in Chicago, Los Angeles, and Seattle: I am going to talk about it all, so bring earplugs if you haven't finished reading Breaking Dawn by then! (If you're going to the first event in New York, it will be spoiler free.) Speaking of spoilers, I want to ask you guys for a favor. As we saw with Eclipse (not to mention that last Harry Potter book), there is always the potential for copies of the book to be leaked early. My publisher is doing everything they can to prevent this, but there is only so much that can be done. This is the
A few days ago, I had another long talk with Richard We've had several of these talks before but I think this time it's offical. We're separated. It was real hard for me to talk to him about it, but it had to be done. I cried a lot and I told him I felt bad and all. He didn't cry and he said himself that he was surprised that he wasn't crying. We both agreed that things have felt we're just room mates and best friends. We'll continue to live with each other, help each other out with things....just like how things have been...only as friends. He told me, he wanted me to be happy and that he was sorry for how things went. I told him that I was sorry as well. I wonder to myself, if I had done the right thing, but I guess it will be just something to adjust to. Perhaps it will hit him more in other ways or later on, I dunno. Last night, i was getting ready for bed. We gave each other a hug, said good night and was about to kiss but stoped ourselves. Instead I kissed him on the nose and
Kerala- The Paradise For Honeymoon Couples
Hovering between the Arabian Sea and the Western Ghat, Kerala is one of the most preferred tourism destinations of India. Visitors from every corner of the world visit this charming spicy state of India to enjoy their holidays in the lap of the Mother Nature. Its captivating natural beauty, whispering waterfalls, wooded forest, sweet chirping of birds, emerald paddy fields and the marvelous beauty of the backwaters simply decorates the place making it perfect place for honeymoon couples to enjoy their memorable time being together in this place. If there is heaven on this earth for newly wed couples than it is not other than Kerala- the god’s own country. There are several captivating destination for couples, holiday makers and nature lovers to visit and enjoy their holidays in the most memorable way. Being here how one can miss the chance to enjoy the tour on the backwaters of Kerala. Backwaters are the heart of this spicy state and it is the gateway to tourism in Kerala. Hove
Eclipse-third Book
"BELLA?" Edward's soft voice came from behind me. I turned to see him spring lightly up the porch steps, his hair windblown from running. He pulled me into his arms at once, just like he had in the parking lot, and kissed me again. This kiss frightened me. There was too much tension, too strong an edge to the way his lips crushed mine—like he was afraid we had only so much time left to us. * * * As Seattle is ravaged by a string of mysterious killings and a malicious vampire continues her quest for revenge, Bella once again finds herself surrounded by danger. In the midst of it all, she is forced to choose between her love for Edward and her friendship with Jacob—knowing that her decision has the potential to ignite the ageless struggle between vampire and werewolf. With her graduation quickly approaching, Bella has one more decision to make: life or death. But which is which? * * *
New Moon The Second Book Of The Saga
"Shoot," I muttered when the paper sliced my finger; I pulled it out to examine the damage. A single drop of blood oozed from the tiny cut. It all happened very quickly then. Edward threw himself at me, flinging me back across the table... I tumbled down to the floor by the piano, with my arms thrown out instinctively to catch my fall, into the jagged shards of glass. I felt the searing, stinging pain that ran from my wrist to the crease inside my elbow. Dazed and disoriented, I looked up from the bright red blood pulsing out of my arm—into the fevered eyes of the six suddenly ravenous vampires. **** For Bella Swan, there is one thing more important than life itself: Edward Cullen. But being in love with a vampire is even more dangerous than Bella could ever have imagined. Edward has already rescued Bella from the clutches of one evil vampire, but now, as their daring relationship threatens all that is near and dear to them, they realize their troubles may be just begin
The Twilight Saga Written By Stephanie Meyer
went to see my stros last night...*sigh*  i hate the cubs...i'd like to burn down chicago...then i'd be rid of the white sox too...blah...
My Best Friend
A true friend never walks awayA true friend will always stayA true friend looks out for you A true friend will guard your secretsLike a precious giftA true friend is there for youTo give you a helpful lift A true friend tries to make you smileTries to replace that frownThey may not always succeed But they rarely let you down These arms for you are openThis heart for you does careAnd when I think you need meI'll try to always be there I'll listen to your fearsI promise not to laughComfort your falling tearsI'll make this friendship last I'll keep you near to my heartI'll always hold you dearEven when we're miles apartEven when you're here I hope I am to youEverything you are to meFor the friendship we haveIs a special one indeed.
 I’m wounded, bleeding, groping in pain and yet sorrow and grief accompany my injury. I’m like an innocent yearling about to be sheared, to be slaughtered. I’m like a soul floating in the chilly winds of unchartered horizons, like the dust troubling itself in the long winding road. Yet my spirit is being lifted by a pure heavenly soul. I feel like I’ traversing from the blood and tears of the fiery hell to the realms of uncertainty of purgatory to the gates of boundless of mercy, affection and happiness of heaven. Paradise and ultimate joy is in sight but still far to come yet I keep on moving, I keep on walking until I reach it and finally come to my final destination where I can see my life, live and spend my life and until my life on earth is over.      Life for me is a constant struggle, struggling towards an ultimate goal,despite the hardships and difficulties and most often than not, risk or danger is at stake wherever you go.But I’m familiar with i
My Legion (the American Legion)
The American Legion National Headquarters is currently designing and constructing an online secure-access area to provide more direct support to our members. In keeping with The American Legion grassroots tradition, The American Legion member secure-access will need to be designed to serve your membership needs and enhance your online experience. If you are a member of The American Legion, American Legion Auxiliary, Sons of The American Legion and wish to contribute to ensure our web functionality truly serves your needs, please send your suggestions, concerns, and questions to Sincerely,Jin KongThe American Legion Internet group
Lifes Fun Aint It
There are so many things in this world that will make you feel like shit. Well almost everything in this world will make you feel like shit. From the smallest of things like your kid coming up to you and saying mommy your beautiful like my teacher shes big too, but of course they mean it in a nice way, to the worst making yourself feel like shit for knowing better. They always say if its not one thing then its another. Well what the fuck man. God damn it mother fucker son of a fucking whore. Ok really had to get that out. But back on track, all you ever try to do is to be happy. Try everything to make others happy, yourself happy everything, but it all just turns to shit. Im tired of shit. I want something eles. I swear man I must have been one bad ass mean bitch in a former life cause in this one im the one getting screwed. It just really sucks missing out on the good ones. Well thats all I can think of right now so........              Later
The Reality Of (a Must Read)
My Collection of FuObservations and FuKnowledge Tip of the Day: Never miss a good chance to Shut Up!!!...  Moving on....With regards to (( i hv been here Over 2 yrs)) The Following are things I have noticed and My own opinions about what takes place here.... Thank U For Reading this in it's entirety. I appreciate your interest.... OMG!!! some of u really need to Get a life. To the point where i feel sorry for u....seriously tho, This site, like any other, is a great time killer, especially if you're an insomniac. But its not reality. Don't get caught up in the drama, or mistake it for real life. Please read on..... First Off... friend requests from chics......... Look, with all due respect, I don't usually trust most. Why? Because I am smart enuff to know MOST are hateful and jealous over a chic like me unless they are cool enuff to get to know me (which most are not) and are usually just here looking for men on my page or trying to check up on someone..or possibly
Gay Dream
I dreamt last night I ran a house of ill repute.  Some guy was in, and a man was dancing for him, dressed as a unicorn, and the dancer had a velvet hat on with a big velvet penis on it that was the horn, and two women were dancing too next to teh unicorn stroking the penis/horn.  And I was also there with an erection, but no-one paid any attention to my actual real penis, they just were all transfixed with the velvet penis hat.   Do you think it means something?
How Did I Not Know This Song...
Fuowned Auto11/cherrybomb Raffle *more Chances This Time*
*Notice..the close date for this is going to be a week later..I have really not pushed it what with the death of my beloved little Gabriel..* There are some slight differences this time! So pay attention..min BID is higher this time..and MORE CHANCES TO WIN! Higher priced FuOwned Entries are worth more entries! ALSO..with the NEW FuOwned are GUARANTEED to get back half your Entry fee! Ok...I am going to raffle off an AUTO11/Cherrybomb. Entry to the raffle will require you buy a FuOwned from me. To show that it is an Raffle Entry you will buy them for an amount ending in 422. For example 1,000,422 Fubux... Or 50,422 FuBux. There is no bottom limit to the FuOwns price to Qualify. The Lowest possible bid accepted for an entry will be 50,422 FuBux. In other words if the Min bid is only 12,000 have to change the bid to 50,422 fubux. I will pick the winner by using a random name generator called Mad Hatter. I will attempt to video the draw. If you don't trus
08 May 2000
One with yourself, amongst all the chaos of the world we live in is achievable with acceptance and determination.
A Favorite saying of my king Evil Intentions Of A Wicked Desire is "No Kitty, My Pot Pie"
I Am Not A Depression Pill
It annoys the fuck out of me when,  people read my blogs or mumm's or view me as a depressed woman who needs to be in a mental ward. These people need to seriously, bone up on depression disorder.  Do they honestly think,  I like comming off as what they label me as. Every one weather your depressed or not has means of dealing with their sad ness.  Mine is blogging ,  writting in my journal.  I like to relect on what went on that day and see if my mood is lifting or my feelings that day were justified. To be soooooooooo honest right now,  the main factor in my depression is when,  not enough money comming in the house to keep up with the bills.  Family members getting sick and I cant even dam well afford to get their meds less I let a bill slide.  Then worry how in the hell I am gonna catch up. I do have good days,  were I am just happy to go for walks.  Listen to music what ever. I know sooner or later,  things will work out its just tiime consumming.  And I am a person will ve
Develop a built-in bullshit detector.  -  Ernest Hemingway
The need for several sex partners before orgasm can occur.
My arms are tired from beating this guy's head in.I dunno where he's been.Didn't get any in my mouth. He started talking after we got the table leg.I told him he'd tell me what I wanted to hear....then I kept hitting him til he told me what I wanted to know.Like wet meat slapped on a cutting board.See- you don't stop when they stop screaming.You don't stop when they stop crying.You don't stop when everything goes limp and you hear a gurgling gasp come out of what used to be their mouth. This is why we keep industrial grade acid on sight.Those big metal drums they use to clean salvage.This is why I'm already in a rubber smock and elbow gloves that roll over your arms like condoms. In a few days he's gonna be soup.In a few weeks he's going to be a chemical stain in a small town's trash yard. I gleefully tug on my cig, and joylessly push him headfirst into the half full vat.I've had a couple of them scream and thrash at this point.Goggles kids. Safety first.This guy was lucky enough t
aliment \AL-uh-muhnt\, noun:1. Something that nourishes or feeds; nutriment.2. Something that sustains a state of mind or body; sustenance. transitive verb:1. To give nourishment to; to nourish or sustain.
The Penis
~LOL~I, the penis, request a pay raise due to the following reasons:1) I do physical labor2) I work at great depths3) I plunge head first into everything I do4) I work weekends & holidays5) I work in damp environments6) I work in dark areas with poor ventilation7) I work in high temperatures8) .. and my work exposes me to diseaseDear penis, your request has been denied for the following reasons:1) You don't work eight hours straight2) You work in short spurts and fall asleep after each brief work period3) You don't stay in your designated work area, and are frequently found in other locations4) You don't take initiative and must be stimulated to start working5) You leave your work place messy at the end of your shift6) You are unable to work overtime or double shifts7) You sometimes leave your designated work are before completing the assigned task8) You have constantly been seen entering and exiting the work place with two suspicious bagsSincerely, Miss Snatch
Do I Or Dont I ..fighting With Myself
Yesterday my oldest son got paid,  and he and I were  under the asumption his pay was gonna be a farely good one. OOHHHHHHHHHH so wrong,  it sucked ass.  He had such plans for it and now I am afraid  he will have to put most of his plan on hold if not all. Any how,  he was flippin for the food for the two weeks , so I could take all that I had and put on bills ..ewwwwwwwwwww. Well after seening how bad his pay sucked and knowing how much he wanted to to certain things , I started to fight with myself. I thought oh well ,  what ever he has left he can just leave till his next check.  Then I thought ,  I cant do this its not right.  So which bill has to be put on the back burner.  I did this all the flippin way to the store.  And after the first store, I thought,  nope I cant do this to him.  So I told him when we went to the next store I would pay for it all.  He said what about the bills.  I said I will figure out something. Welp, again I changed my dam mind.  So we decided to s
A Good Friend I Recently Met On Here. Not In Person
PRECIOUS">@ fubar Take your time to read her profile page.  it is worth it.
Small Philosophical Thought
It's not hard to like someone Not hard to love someone Little bit harder to hate someone Take hate out of your life And two out of three ain't bad  
I am so excited. I got tickets to see Metallica in concert! Even tho I have seen Metallica before..I have managed to get center stage tickets this time!! Now I just have to wait till the concert. Its not til Stop by my profile and say hello. You can never have too many friends : )
I Got The Golden Ticket!
~~you know ur in love when u cant fall asleep because reality is finally better than ur dreams~~ Im writing this because I cant sleep! He has taken over my every thought and I feel like I have just won the lottery! Everyday I ask myself "How did I get so lucky?" I have finally found the perfect man! My Prince Charming! After a failed marriage and 4 yrs. of hell in an abusive relationship My Time has finally come to be Happy!! He tells me I'm beautiful when I know I look like crap, he kisses my forehead and gently holds my face as he kisses me(and OH how he kisses me!), he holds my hand for no reason, he enjoys fascinating 420 moments with me, he joined fubar and hurried up to level 10 just so he could own me, he downloads and listens to music hes never heard of just because I like it, he made me a cd of his fav songs to me, he told me right off that he was falling in love with me and wasn't scared of saying it, he watches stuff I like just to learn more about me, he drives 45 min each
Why Im Online
hi guys im a married man in canton ill im a father of 3 and we have olot going on in life .im hopeing that things will gey better before long i was hurt and have not been able to work for at least the past 2 years i went from sixty thousand year to nothin do to some things i dont wont to get in to .lets just say disability has to payback evrything since august of 07 to the day the judge sees it they have made my suffer for a long time it my turn my kids deserve it my wife and i .im not sure what blog is i thought it was something this if not sorry please tell me what it is
~help Yourself~
I've always liked Tom Jones' music and Sensuality....this is one of my Faves.....'Help Yourself'.....words that resonate Passions I feel. Hope you enjoy it and smile. It's first on my playlist right now.......Peace Love is like candy on a shelf You want to taste and help yourselfThe sweetest things are there for youHelp yourself, take a fewThats what I want you to do.Were always told repeatedlyThe very best in life is freeAnd if you want to prove its trueBaby Im telling youThis is what you should doJust help yourself to my lipsTo my arms just say the word, and they are yoursJust help yourself to the love,In my heart your smile has opened up the doorThe greatest wealth that exists in the world,Could never buy what I can giveJust help yourself to my lipsTo my arms, and then lets really start to liveAllllllllll right. yeahMy heart has love enough for twoMore than enough for me and youIm rich with love, a millionaireIve so much, its unfairWhy dont you take a share
A Mothers Day Remembrence..
you know i have been through so much in my life and i think of myself as a strong person for the most part but 5 years ago i went through something that i was not able to handle as well as i thought.... my mom passed away after years of battling sickness and sitting there as i held her hand and watched the women who for years was my anchor fade away i lost my best friend and the closest thing to a angel i will ever see..... in short i wanted to say this,....                      HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MOM I LOVE AND MISS YOU DEARLY...                           LOVE SHAWN
Taking Ownership ~ 4 Cont. ~
  He breathed her in deeply as he closed his eyes. She smelled of woman and girl, all sexy and innocent like a flower waiting to be opened - if that were possible all at once. He drew close to her slit and ran his knuckle over her mound. She had groomed as he had instructed: clean shaven lips and a small tuft at the top, neatly trimmed. Her cunt lips were thick and full, swollen almost. They covered all her parts, like a perfectly wrapped present for him to open. They looked succulent and he resisted the urge to pull them into his mouth."Now, my little slut. Reach down and hold open my new fuck toy. And make it wide so I can see your insides." She did as she was told and reached down, pulling her plump lips apart for him. She spread herself to reveal a beautiful rose-colored fuck hole, glistening with juices among the folds of her cavity. "Do you know how to milk a cock with your cunt?" he asked of her."Yes, Master, I do," she answered."Show me."She obeyed her Master, tightening and r
Taking Ownership ~ 1 ~
As he had instructed, she was naked and kneeling, near to the foot of the bed. She was facing the headboard so she could not see him enter the room, so she would be vulnerable to him.She heard the door knob turn and her heart raced. In her mind, she kept repeating to herself what he had told her "Keep your head high, your eyes lowered and do not speak." It took every ounce of self-control to not look at him as he walked into the room. She wanted so much to see his face, to see his reaction of her here like this.She could tell he was behind her now, as she held her breath, waiting for him to touch her. He ran his fingers playfully through her long hair, admiring the silky strands as they fell down around her shoulders. He stretched out his fingers, grabbing tightly at the nest of hair at the nape of her neck and held her hostage. She couldn't help but close her eyes and moan as her neck went limp into his hand. He grinned at her reaction."Good girl," he whispered into her ear, "Remember
She loved the way the air moved over her skin -- all of her skin -- every time she took a step. She was dressed, but the whole of her outfit was lace. All of her skin was breathing. A good thing as she was almost in a sweat due to her nerves and her arousal.She had dressed as instructed. She had awoken to find her clothes laid out for her in fact. When she'd arrived at his house yesterday after so many months of correspondence and telephone conversations, her nerves had been frayed to almost nothing. Together, they had enjoyed a leisurely dinner. They'd set together in front of his roaring fireplace, which took up the whole of one massive stone wall, sipping sweet wine and talking late into the night. She knew that this polite evening was constructed only for her benefit. After so much time spent getting to know one another, exchanging photographs and revealing secret fantasies and desires, she'd assumed that by the time they met there would be no reason to be nervous. Perhaps no reaso
Rocked again by indecision, should I make that small incision Testify, to the bleeding heart inside I've clawed, I've scratched, I've ran, I've slashed and when he opened up at last Found a cul de sac Deep and  black of smoke and ash............... The wicked king of parody, is kissing all his enemies on the seventh day, on the seventh day The tyrants voice is softer now, but just for one forgiving hour, before the rise of his iron fist again I've come tonight, I've come to know, the we are, the way we'll go And to measure this width of the wide abyss I come to you in restless sleep, where all your dreams turned bitter sweet With voodoo doll philosophies, day glow holy trinities The crooked raft, the leaves, the shore, fairies drunken,  souls aboard Pilgrims march to compestello, visions of their saint in yellow Follow deep in trance, lost in  a catatonic dance We know no future, damn the past
Play Time~
  They are to meet each other for the first time and she's nervous. She wonders if she will be able to please him as he wishes. She dreams about how to serve him, how to please him.They are face to face for the first time...she stands before him dressed in a short skirt, thigh highs, heels and a skimpy shirt that partially reveals the creamy fullness of her breast. He commands her to remove her clothes slowly as he watches and examines his new sub. She reaches around and unzips her skirt feeling the heat in her body start to rise as she thinks of what this is going to lead up to. Her body starting to tremble as the zipper moves it's way down and she slides it off and steps out of it.She places her hands on the bottom of the shirt and raises it up over her breast, he watches as he sees them starting to come into view...her nipples already getting hard from the combination of the air against her breast and the passions and desires that are welling up inside her. He reaches out and t
The Key~
Dedicated to my fiance, Joy The key to love is to understand, Spoken words and actions. Little things that say so much. The things that cause reactions. The key to love is to forgive. Accepting our mistakes, Not forgetting, but remembering, To cut ourselves some brakes. The key to love is to share, Fortunes good and bad. Facing things together, Will wipe away what's sad. The key to love is to give, Free and with your heart. Without a thought of a return, That's where love will start. The key to love is to respect, Each other's different views Together with a common bond, Inspire each other's muse. The key to love's inside us all, Patience unlocks the door. Learning is a lot of work, With love it's not a chore. ~W.H.~  2009~
Rip Ean
Bassist Donald "Ean" Evans of the Southern rock band Lynyrd Skynyrd has died after a battle with cancer. Lowndes County Coroner Greg Merchant said Evans died Wednesday at his home in eastern Mississippi. He was 48. In a statement posted on the band said, "It is with profound sadness that we announce the passing of longtime Lynyrd Skynyrd bassist Ean Evans. Ean put up a valiant battle with an aggressive form of cancer and he will be sorely missed by family, friends and fans." Evans was born in Atlanta, but moved to Columbus after marrying his wife, Eva. He joined Lynyrd Skynyrd in 2001 and had been touring regularly with the band until being diagnosed with cancer in 2008, when he cut back on performances with the band. Survivors include his wife and two daughters. Funeral arrangements are incomplete. "He was just one of those guys who was always a dreamer and always seeing ahead. And he was the most positive person I've ever met," Mike Chain, a guitarist who was
Haka Flower
Energy is finite. Transformation is natural, needed, but change is difficult. I planted the seed of a giant sunflower while I prayed to be used as a conduit for the healing of Harper. I was denied. No explanations - just the knowledge that I was not needed for that purpose. All that I could watch grow was the fragile sunflower as it rose to meet the warmth of the sun, from its bed of moist earth. I do watch it. It teaches me. Just like Harper taught me - that life is for living. Death will arrive in time, in spite of a Chi Chi that wants so badly to heal and nurture. So we lived our time together. We did a pretty good job. Now I nurture the sunflower planted with the fervent prayers and supplication of a desperate person. It will grow, up towards the sun, and the seeds that will fill the flower top will also fill the bellies of the birds and animals that eat it. In turn they will spread the seeds to other parts of the forest and fields. And on and on it goes... Harper will have
fuck. seriously.   FUCK.     I apologize for my inability to find better words.
How Could I?
Where do you go when the day is long? And where does your heart beat, and who is wrong? Why do I feel this way? Why do I kneel? How could I let him go? Why do I feel? Why? Huh? Follow me home, thru the maze and on I'll show you the road, that I lead you the wrong way on Why did I go that way? Why do I steal? How could I let him go? Why do I feel? Oh, why did I go that way, and why do I steal? How could I let you go? Why do I feel? Why? How could I.......
Smile For Me
When you smile, You create a language of intimate interaction, When you smile, You send an instant message of heart to heart communication.When you smile, You create a dream world of happiness, When you smile, The whole world smiles with you, When you smile, The despair and troubles seem so far away, When you smile, The hope and cheers seem only a stone’s throw away.When you smile, My heart gets the will to survive in distress, When you smile, My mind gets the power to overcome all the hurdles.When you smile, My heart belongs to you, when you smile, The whole world belongs to you.
Among The Trees
I wonder lost among the treesLooking for the one my heart calls forI wonder lost among the treesI see your light amongst the darkI wonder lost among the treesYour light is brighter then the restI wonder lost among the treesYour light is out of my reachI wonder lost among the treesYour light comes closerI wonder lost among the treesYour light is bright like an angel from the skyI wonder lost among the treesYour light fades away and leaves me aloneI wonder lost among the treesWithout a hand to guide the wayI wonder lost among the treesLooking for my guiding lightI wonder lost among the treesI wonder lost, aloneI wonder afraid of the worldAround me I look for the oneI wonder lost among the treesI wonder lost and alone forever.
I know... we've been flirting with duck for a while. *scratches his beard* Well I've got a new kitchen knife and a new sauce, so let's go a little crazy. We will require-Duck breast... at least one. fresh CilantroDry Red pepper flake 1 1/2 tbs chili paste (or chinese chili sauce)3/4th tbs honey2 tbs tomato saucefreshly grated ginger2 minced garlic clovesflour to thicken Put some oil in a heavy frying pan- preferably without a finish, prefereably on high heat- and toss in your duck breast after scoring some crosshatches .In tact, whole. Wait til that son-bitch is cracklin and sputtering. Might want a heavier duty oil here and the duck will of course render out some of its own goodness toward this process. Minimal fiddling. I like my duck medium you might go for that burnt cinder effect, but I'd say flip once you've got something that looks like mexican caramel and finish to the same doneness on the other side. When that's done, lift it, and drain off most of the oil, probably le
Just as a bowlBroken into a million piecesCannot be put back togetherNeither can a birdFallen from a treeBe revived back to lifeNor a wordSaid in hasteBe retrievedAnd loveOnce betrayedCannot ever be restored
Truth does not become more true by virtue of the fact that the entire world agrees with it, nor less so even if the whole world disagrees with it.
We Need To Whack Bugs Bunny
christopher.: bugs bunny needs to be whacked to give us other guys a chance xxx: um xxx: WHJAT??? christopher.: Bugs, man... he sets the bar too fucking high christopher.: he's ultimately cool and has got some mad pimp skills christopher.: and he's got the fucking one liners, man. the little fucker. christopher.: he always gets the girl. someone needs to whack the motherfucker to give us other guys a chance at the action xxx: uh huh xxx: u are not  man who brings the one liners xxx: u bring the funny, but one liners and jokes aren't ur style xxx: you're style is narrative monlongue-ish humor christopher.: yeah well, girls don't like that shit christopher.: they like the quick witted one liners christopher.: and i fucking blame Bugs christopher.: that little fucker. xxx: i fucking loathe one liners xxx: bullshit fake made up stories are also annoying christopher.: i need to grab Elmer Fudd and teach that worthless prick how to kill a motherfucking wabbit xxx: give me real shit, and make
For The Mothers Out There
For all future people that visit my page and to all of my old friends....I am deleting my NSFW for personal reasons!!!  Do not ask why I have deleted them and do not ask me if I am going to put more up because I am not going to....Hope you understand!!!!  Thank you all and have a nice day!!!!!
Rap..fuck You
i have alot of aggression which lead to depression and lead to cutting to watch myself bleed for i am a evil seed that needed to find the path instead of going for a blood bath then people go telling that i am more of selling my soul to the taking it to the next level. satan and god can kiss my ass cuz they are nowhere in my class, because of the emotion that god gave me and that satan tryed to take motion of causing sin of my cutting into my skin causing alot of pain that make you think"oh my god he is in the wrong lane" oh come on lad, it is actully good to be bad in this life that i should have takken away with a knife...but then there would be so much to miss, like giving my girl a kiss and making her fill joy without a diss towards me wanting to be a monster   you look at someone and think good or bad..there are actully some who are grey
Mickey Carroll
ST. LOUIS – One of the last surviving Munchkins from the 1939 classic film "The Wizard of Oz" has died.St. Louis actor Mickey Carroll died Thursday at the age of 89.His caretaker, Linda Dodge, made the announcement Thursday.Carroll was born Michael Finocchiaro in July 1919 in St. Louis, the son of Italian immigrants.He was one of more than 100 adults and children who were recruited for "Oz" to play the natives of what author L. Frank Baum called Munchkin Country in his 1900 book "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz."Carroll told The Associated Press in a 2007 interview that the Munchkins made only $125 a week while filming, followed by decades of recognition.
Donald Evans
COLUMBUS, Miss. (AP) — Bassist Donald "Ean" Evans of the Southern rock band Lynyrd Skynyrd has died of cancer at his home in Mississippi. Lowndes County Coroner Greg Merchant says Evans died Wednesday. He was 48.A statement posted Thursday on announced Evans' death "with profound sadness." It said he had "put up a valiant battle with an aggressive form of cancer."Evans was born in Atlanta, but moved to Columbus in eastern Mississippi after marrying his wife, Eva. He joined Lynyrd Skynyrd in 2001 and had been touring regularly with the band until being diagnosed with cancer in 2008, when he cut back on performances with the band.Survivors include his wife and two daughters.Funeral arrangements are incomplete.
My Husband's Band
My husband's old band the street freaks...this is the last show jamie & matt played as "the street freaks" in 2006 they have a new band now W/2 other people so be on the lookout!! & this is when they played at Liz's Benefit show in july of 2005.
Clearing Friends List..
Just wanted everyone to know i am deleting alot of people from my friends list. U can hit me up on yahoo and see if ur one and i will let you know. I am just so tired of all the drama people are starting and i don't have time for it anymore. I feel like i am in high school again and i hated it then so why would i want to do it all over again? if u dont have my yahoo message me on here and i will get back to u asap. ty all
Use Yar Google
Is deas an rud an beagán ach é a dhéanamh go maith.
Rain Lyrics
[Chorus - Rell]We to close can't stop praying now Though there seems theres no one to this pain Everytime I close my eyes I pray for rain I pray for rain to wash away the strain [Verse 1 - Jim Jones]You couldnt understand how much the pain weight So in the hood we love the rainy days Cause subconstantly we know the suns coming We love the winter cause we know the summers coming Remeber I got locked the same nite my son was coming All I could do is pray that they dont take me away And lord knows I have the angel's on my side They search the car I had the hammer in my ride A mirical on flatbush avenue I still made it back To say push when she was having you A newer version a younger me I want him to go to school And raise him motherfucka free I swear some places I dont want him to be I swear some things I dont want him to see but new booty daddyLoves you truley and the nights you dont see me you know daddy's on his duty [Chorus][Verse 2 - NOE]Whats a poor mans pickle survive threw the po
My Life Lyrics
[Intro]Punk ass motherfucka!Bitch ass nigga!What were you gonna do? Kill me in my sleep u bitch ass nigga?Tupac, Biggie shut the fuck up!Fucking dogs, they barking shit...Don't shoot me! Don't shoot me!Fuck you nigga![Chorus (Lil' Wayne)]And I'm grindin' until I'm diethey say you ain't grindin' until you dieSo I'm grinding with my eyes wideLooking to find,A way through the dayThe life for the nightDear lord you've take so many of my peopleI'm just wondering why you haven't taken my lifeLike what the hell am I doing right?[Verse 1 (The Game)]Take me away from the hoodlike a state penitentiary.Take me away from the hoodin a casket or a Bentley.Take me away...Like I overdosed on cocaine,or take me awaylike a bullet from Kurt Cobain.Suicide.I'm from a windy citylike do or die.From a block close towhere Biggie was crucified.That was Brooklyn's Jesusshot for no fucking reason.And you wonder why Kanyewear his Jesus pieces.(My life!)Cause that's Jesus people,and Game he's the equal.Hated on so
Like Father, Like Son Lyrics
[Verse 1: The Game]June 30th, 11:07 I got that callShe 8 centimeters, my lil' man about to fallScuffing my Air Forces, running through the hospital hallDeja vu, like I been here beforeI'm feeling reborn, like a Bed-Stuy brethren, my first bornDre, I'm about to have a bad boy, family in the lobbySee my nigga Church, "What Up," shit I left the camcorder in the truckRunning through the maternity ward, out of breath, sweatingI swear to God every minute's starting to feel like a secondI seen Hell staring down the barrel of a Smith & WessonMy son's ultrasound the closest I ever been to HeavenLord forgive me for my sins, I know it's last minutePut the chronic in the air, a little hash in itSpread my wings, If only I could flyWhy fight to live homie?, If we only living to die[Chorus: Busta Rhymes]I hope you grow up to become that everything you can beThat's all I wanted for you young'n, like Father, like SonBut in the end I hope you only turn out better than meI hope you know I love you young'
Alone  How do you find the will to live  When there's nothing more to give Everything has been stripped away Nothing left to hold or save When I look within myself Nothing is there, there's no one else  Emptiness is all I see There is nothing left inside of me  A gaping wound is all I dream  A writhing hell, inside I scream  Pain is all I say or do No hope of light to see me thru  As day by day I fade away  To darkest nights in chains a slave  Life itself is killing me  each breath I take is agony  I once had hope, true love did feel  But now it's gone, this can't be real  The die is cast my fate is sealed I've nothing left for hell to steal  Everything has been stripped away  Nothing left to hold or save  
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Don't Put Me On That Pedestal So High
Why is it that people put us up on pedestals not realizing that when you fall it's you that gets hurt because a fall from that high can do nothing less. Why is that they claimn to Love You For Who you are But really Love you for what they want you to be. Why Can't I believe anyone that says they Love Me Uncondtionally well it's probably because Im sitll Broken and Beaten From The Pedestal So High...          
Na Na Nana Na Na Lyrics
Dipset, as we proceed what have we here?Take that, take that, it's 0-9 muthafuckaOne thing to do get money muthafuckaI pulled off like na, na, na, na, na, naThey would of tried some bullshit but a nigga had the blamerThey only got me 'cause they caught it on a cameraThey wanna ball but they ain't got no staminaThey said damn man, you lookin' like PacI said, nah not alive, man I'm lookin' like JonesBesides I put money on your skull and bonesAnd keep it low, watch what you say up on those fuckin' phonesTouch down and getcha ass hung the fuck upJust like a bunch of clothesHey, ma we stretch work like you touch your toesAnd in the middle of July we got that summer snowI got 'em snowboarding in August and I love a pretty bitchBut the Porsche look gorgeousHarlem is one big ski slalom, I guess the hill is like the Swiss AlpsWe bring them whips outWe gettin' money like na, na, na, na, na, naWaitin' at the flash throwin' money at the camerasTwin turbs out speeding with the scannersBreeze past t
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My My My Lyrics
N they shootin, I must be on top (it's clear up here) We coopin we must be inta trouble, Some hard type shit that cost a quarter mill a pop It makes me laugh ha, life is so ironic, How I would get tha cash I become so iconable Cop the fast cars that come with the trip tonic panel I live the life that's filled with the jealousy Doomed from the start its like we born wit a felony Wheres the longevity We in the place where best friends become enemies And foul nigguhs got the tendency You gotta watch what you wish for I hope to god its on a switchboard When I'm tryin to say a prayer and I'm callin hope you listen lord See its just my position lord Gotta me smokin on this blunt while I'm lookin at the sky Make it rain so I know the doves cry. [Chorus]Lord do you hear me praying, when I'm lookin at the sky I hope you can hear what I'm saying Its like my, my, my Im not really complaining, but it makes me wanna cry I know you can see what I'm saying Its like my, my, my Its like my, my, my Cuz
Love Me No More Lyrics
[Chorus:]Now how u gon’ tell me you don’t love me no more (How you gon’ tell me that?) Cuz I’m out here getting this bread (You hatin on this paper chase?) Tryna get my Momma a crib (Shit don’t even sound right) Tryna get up out the ghetto Now how the Hood talkin bout they don’t need me no more (What’chu want me stuck in the ghetto, listen imma get out) Cuz a motherfucka push that GT (Then you what, Imma come back for the niggas need to be reached for) It’s a problem tryna take that from me (You niggas is slippin) Cuz im packin heavy metal uhhuh I hear the streets talking funny (shit) So I laugh (haha) tell em keep talking funny (keep talking funny) Imma keep talking money (yup) And all different types (what) The yens and the pounds (pounds) Nigga just for spite push, the Bentley round town (sparrows) Tripin’ in ice I still be up town (Harlem) I hear em kicking up dirt on my name (so what) But I could clean em up like detergent on a
New On Facebook
just wanted to let all my friends on here know that i havent been on here that much anymore cause it seems like if you dont have bling credits or auto 11's or cherry bombs your not worth that much to visit. what happen to the old way of going to someones page and rating there pictures. now people do the cherry bomb and there fore they dont take the time to actually look at your pictures that you post.well when im on here i cant bling people or cherry bomb but i do make the time to rate my friends and there pictures and i cant even get a rate so im taking some time off fubar to be with my family and friends outside of fubar and then when i come back im gonna start deleting alot of people that dont even know that im on there friends list. but those of you that actually read this and understand where im coming from i have opened a facebook account only because that site is nothing like fubar its not a contest to see who can level the fastest.and if your on facebook and want to add me feel
Join ~bratt~ & Chaotic In The Purple Magik On Fri!!
    >   Come join us in Purple Magik!!!!! May 8, 2009 @ 7pm Fu-time!!!!!! Make some new friends, listen to good music and just have some fun with us!! Random Bling for new members that join that night! Random giveaways! We also have Live Auctions every weekend!! sign up to be in the Live Auction:)) click to enter lounge! If you would like to be in any of our live auctions, please read rules then click pic to sign up @ blog. Any any Purple Magik staff member. Thank you. PIMPOUT BROUGHT TO YOU BY: Please DO NOT STEAL my bulliten layouts! Thank you. sO FrESH _[diAMond dAveS gUrL *DiAMondDaVes LUCKYCharm* SHADOW LEVELER@ fubar
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When I come up in the club, I'm talking mad shit, Come up in the club I'm 'bout to get my ass kicked, 'Cause I'm sippin' on some Gin, Sip, Sippin' on some Jack, Slip 60 in her panties with my number on the back 'Cause the proof is in the Kodak, The throw-backs in a dark and vacant corner, You were freezing, I was warmer, And the roof is gone, when we know that, And baby chases like she don't know what she's seeing, I was steady, you were fleeting Punk bitch, 'Cause I've seen it before, Punk bitch, And I don't care anymore, Punk bitch, And I just want you to know, Punk bitch, Punk bitch, 'Cause I've seen it before, Punk bitch, And I don't care anymore, Punk bitch, And I just want you to know that we datin' mad models and poppin' mad bottles tonight, Punk bitch Whoa whoa oh, Punk bitch, Whoa whoa oh, Punk bitch, Whoa whoa oh, We datin' mad models and poppin' mad bottles tonight Uh, yeah, sounds good, Throw me up in the headphones; sounds good When I come up in the club, I'm actin' ma
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Come & Hang Out With Us Tonight At!! We have friendly people, good music, random bling for new members and live auction! So come on in and start to have some fun and make some new friends! If you would like to be in any of our live auctions, please read the rules then click the pic below to sign up @ blog. Any questions pm/sb any Purple Magik staff member. Thank you. So come on in and start to have some fun and make some new friends! Also we are looking for staff so if you are interested and want to work at Purple Magik please come and see us and find ou
Divorce Sucks
Why after 16yrs of marreige m some thing like thisy wife decides she wants to sleep around. Kicked me out took all I had kids car home money. I never cheated she has I never drank or got drunk Never hit her or the kids I worked payed rent bills food on the table while she stayed home than all of the sudden she has an affair and gets std's thats not right I loved her with all my heart now I can't trust anyone again. It hurts to go thru something like this. She turned so cold fast it seems love has no meaning anymore.
For those of you who are dying to know, I am in a very committed relationship, but am always looking for a littel female to join my family.  Friends are great, male or female and I am always looking forward to meeting new people!  Drop me a line... I'll try to get back to you as I can. I am fairly busy these days due to being a college student, and taking 17 credits!  But I try to make time to join in on some good old fashioned fun! Keep it real and love those who are closest to you!
Baking A Cake With Your Child's Help
Baking a Cake with your Child's Help Preheat oven. Check to be certain that there are no rubber balls or plastic soldiers on the oven shelves. Remove blocks and toy autos from table. Grease pan. Crack nuts. Measure 2 cups flour; remove Johnny's hands from flour; wash flour off him. Re-measure flour. Crack more nuts to replace those Johnny ate. Put flour, baking powder and salt in sifter. Get dustpan and brush up pieces of bowl Johnny knocked on floor. Get another bowl. Answer doorbell. Return to kitchen. Remove Johnny's hands from bowl. Wash Johnny. Answer telephone. Return. Remove 1/4 inch salt from greased pan. Look for Johnny. Grease another pan. Answer telephone. Return to kitchen and find Johnny. Remove his hands from bowl. Take up greased pan and remove layer of nut shells in it. Head for Johnny, who runs, knocking bowl off table. Wash kitchen floor, table, walls, dishes. Call bakery, place order. Take two aspirin. Lie down
Time After Time
Can it be said that time is an unforgiving foe?  Fe, fi, foe, fum, I smell the blood of a great song! is where I smell it.
well he tells me he doesnt like to send flowers cause they die .... i figure meh so much for flowers ever but didnt matter cause ya know i love this man ... well yesterday i got lillies delivered to my house ... look in the pics yall dd good ... i mean really good ...they fil the house with that heady scent and are opening some each day so that its a total surprise each time i get to see them ...i will press them in my bible when the time comes ... baby i love you so .. thank you
Feel Good Inc. Lyrics
Hahahahahahahahaha,Feel good....Sh-pah sh-pa, sh-pa, Feel good, [x9]City's breaking down on a camel's back.They just have to go 'cos they don't hold backSo all you fill the streets it's appealing to seeYou wont get out the county, 'cos you're bad and freeYou've got a new horizon It's ephemeral style.A melancholy town where we never smile.And all I wanna hear is the message beep.My dreams, they`ve got a kiss in, 'because I don't get sleep, no..Windmill, Windmill for the land.Turn forever hand in handTake it all in on your strideIt is sinking, falling downLove forever love is freeLet's turn forever you and meWindmill, windmill for the landIs everybody in?Laughing gas these hazmats, fast cats,Lining them up-a like ass cracks,Ladies, homies at the trackIts my chocolate attack.Shit, I'm stepping in the heart of this hereCare bear bumping in the heart of this hereWatch me as I gravitateHahahahahahaa.Yo, we gonna go ghost town,This motown,With yo soundYou're in the placeYou gonna bite the dus
Ghost Train Lyrics
Ghost TrainHere they're gona steal my soulGhost TrainWaiting out until I knowGhost TrainTrying not to feel like you didGhost TrainMoving up until I go go home..Ghost TrainShe wase't going to tell im leaving Ghost TrainTrying to belive in my heartGhost TrainTrying not to feel like we didGhost TrainMoving up untill i'm taught to your sideGhost TrainYeah yeah yeahGhost TrainYeah yeah yeahGhost TrainYeah yeah yeahGhost TrainYeah yeah yeahGhost TrainYeah yeah yeahGhost TrainYeah yeah yeahGhost Train Got suicide for my babyGhost TrainLiving up until I'm wantedGhost TrainSeeing like Im all that felt thatGhost TrainMoving up and taught I'm a weaponGhost TrainYeah yeah yeah yeah yeahGhost TrainYeah yeah yeah yeah yeahGhost TrainI see myself untile i give inGhost TrainDreaming down because im wanted. i must be a dream...Ghost TrainCome on Come on Come onGhost TrainCome on Come on Come onGhost TrainCome on Come on Come onGhost TrainCome on Come on Come onGhost TrainCome on Come on Come onGhost Tr
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Clint Eastwood Lyrics
Ooo ooo ooo oooI ain't happy, I'm feelin' gladI got sunshine in a bagI'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on I ain't happy, I'm feelin' gladI got sunshine in a bagI'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' onYeah, ha Ha!Finally someone let me outta my cageNow time for me is nothin' cuz I'm countin' no ageNah, I couldn't be there, now you shouldn't be scaredI'm good at repairs (s'all simple), and I'm under your snareIntangible (aww dawg), I bet you didn't think so I command you toPanoramic view (you?),Look I'll make it all manageablePick and choose (hmph),Sit and lose,All you different crewsChicks and dudes,So who you think is really kickin' tunes?Picture you gettin' down in tha picture tube,Like you lit the fuseYou think it's fictional?Mystical? maybeSpiritual?Hero whoAppears in you to clear your view (yeah) when you're too crazyLifeless,to know the definition for what life isPriceless,To you because I
19-2000 (soulchild Remix) Lyrics
It's the music that we choose x 4Polyester!!It's the music that we choose x 4The world is spinning too fastI'm Buyin lead nike shoesTo keep myself tetheredTo the days I tried to loseMy mama said to slow downyou must make your own shoesStop dancing to the musicOf Gorillaz in a happy moodKeep a mild groove onThey do the bump(It's the music that we choose)8xHere you goGet the cool...(Na na na na na na na)Get the cool shoe shine(Na na na na na na)3xThere's a monkey in the jungleWatching a vapour trailCaught up in the conflictBetween his brain and his tailPOLYESTERAnd if time's eliminationThen we've got nothing to losePlease repeat the messageIt's the music that we chooseKeep a mild groove onDey do de bop (It's the music that we choose)7xHere we goGet the cool(Na na na na na na na)Get the cool shoe shine (Na na na na na na)3xThey do the bump (x 8)It's the music that we choose (x 4)Keep a mild groove onAlright Now Break It Down Y'all We're Gonna Break OutGet the cool...(Na na na na na na na)
Only You (bad Boy Remix) Lyrics
[Puff Daddy]I thought I told you that we won't stop,I thought I told you that we won't stop,I thought I told you that we won't stop,I thought I told you that we won't stop,Eh eh, eh eh,I thought I told you that we won't stop,I thought I told you that we won't stop,eh eh, eh eh,I thought I told you that we won't stop,I thought I told you that we won't stop,Check it out...[Notorious B.I.G]Je-sus the notorious just, Please us with your lyrical thesis, We just chillin,Milk'EM top billin, Silk'EM and pure linen, Me and little Cease, Malibu sea breeze, Dom P's, Palm trees, Cats lay in Pablo,In milked out diablos, The Williest, Bitches be the silliest, The more I smoke, The smaller the phillie gets, Room 112 where the players dwell, To stash more cash than Burn and Hale, Inhale, Make you feel good like Tony Toni Tone (feels good), Dig up in your middle like Monie (yeah), Don't know me,But your settin up to blow me, Try to style, Fly up north with a homie (yes),It's style is dondatta, Playas s
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Lost in random thoughts, seeking things usually not sought Wondering where do I draw the line, separating space & time Wondering if  I should stake my claim, on what's his name Imagining where did yesterday go, and then wondering if I really wanna know Asking what makes wrong right & right wrong, then asking "seriously how long???" Questioning what is true insanity, then concluding its just pure creativity Knowing there's so many people to do and places to see, and knowing there's a place just for doing me No consistent measures of thinking, thoughts changing like eyes blinking Constantly seeking things not usually sought, always lost in Random Thoughts........
A Return To Old Ways
At one time it was kind of funny to see ourselves as the Addams Family a group of "misfits" ... but not any more We are a Family of GOOD HONEST People who value friendships and HONOR our WORD. I want US to hold TRUE to this It would be real nice to hold to what my chats were originally meant to be ... A place where people didnt have to take bullying from others and where EVERYONES ideas and feelings were respected and appreciated... NOT someones ideas of how THEY see things to be  nor will there be anymore bullying of friendships i.e. "if you dont see it my way I will just leave and no longer be a friend" And there will be NO MORE manipulating friendships or insulting others and belittleing them until others decide they aren't liked and leave . I personally will no longer allow ANYONE to manipulate me in order to keep their friendship... NOONE is BETTER than the next... NO MATTER WHAT STATION IN LIFE THEY ARE. I don't care if you have more money than someone else or if you
A Poem
Here's a poem I wrote.  I don't know what to name it yet.  Please don't steal it but if you like it please let me know. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Honestly? I miss him. I refuse to lie. I miss the dreams we use to share. I miss looking into his eyes. I miss the smell upon his skin. The way he use to taste. The passion when we made love. The gentleness in his embrace. And though I may never see him again Never hear his voice. I still love him just as much. This was not my choice. And I hear he is a liar, That I can believe. I hear his ways are dyer. And that I know I've seen. Still, I wish he'd never left me, Left the shelter of my wings. But he wanted to be set free. But used a trail of lies of all things. I feel the man I loved has died, His murderer taking his place, And that he never lied. When he said he loved me to my face. So I'll miss him in the morning, Every time I raise from bed. I'll miss him every evening, Every night I lay my head. And
Savage Grace
With a savage grace, She wounds the night, Her dark embrace, Consumes  the light, No rhyme or reason To her hell, Next kin to treason, Her whispered spell, With a savage grace, She wounds  her life A head long race To end her life Her bridges burned Her dagger deep No stone unturned That does not weep With a savage grace She reigns in hell Her dark embrace treasons spell...  
yo this is the animal aka george. Bout me I'm cool untill people get on my nerves. Thats why you could say I'm a little unstable. But if the girl that can tame the beast come try. Talk to me and I'll talk back, but this pic I posted I was in a good mood. So anything you wanna know ask.
Fry The B#$*#$%
(CNN) -- Drew Peterson, the former police sergeant who authorities call the prime suspect in the disappearance of his fourth wife, Stacy Peterson, has been indicted on murder charges related to his third wife, the Illinois state attorney's office said. Drew Peterson was arrested Thursday on murder charges relating to his third wife, Kathleen Savio. Charles B. Pelkie, state attorney for Will County, Illinois, said a grand jury indicted Peterson in the murder of his third wife, Kathleen Savio, whose death had been ruled an accidental drowning. He said the grand jury continues to meet and is studying the possibility of charges in Stacy Peterson's disappearance. Watch family members react to the arrest » After Stacy Peterson went missing in October 2007, media frenzy and police scrutiny on Peterson revealed Savio had died mysteriously a few years earlier during a nasty divorce. Savio died just before the division of the marital assets was finalized, making Drew Peterson the sole benef
National Day Of Prayer
(CNN) -- For the past eight years, the White House recognized the National Day of Prayer with a service in the East Room, but this year, President Obama decided against holding a public ceremony. President Bush marked the National Day of Prayer with a service at the White House. "Prayer is something that the president does everyday," White House press secretary Robert Gibbs said Tuesday, noting that Obama will sign a proclamation to recognize the day, as many administrations in the past have done. Asked if Obama thought his predecessor's ceremonies were politicized, Gibbs said, "No, I'm not going to get into that again. "I think the president understands, in his own life and in his family's life, the role that prayer plays." The National Day of Prayer is an annual observance for people of all faiths. Under the Bush administration, the White House hosted an interfaith service each year, inviting protestant, Catholic and Jewish leaders for an event at the East
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American Idol
I was so shocked lastnight when watching american idol. I thought for sure danny or Chris was going home.  Adam is a guarantee i think that he will be there..and allison was really good.  From beginning of the show though..I have always been a fan of Danny..and had hopes he would go to the end. I was just tickled that he got saved.  Although I would have preferred Chris to have gone home before Allison.  I think hes good..but feel alot of people are just in lust with his cute looks.  I hope he gos next though.  It will be down to my favorite 2 then.
Erratic Rantings
I remember when Britney Spears was losing her mind and everyone took the oppertunity to take shots, I admit I took a couple myself but deep down I totaly understood. It's a lonely place to be fucked in the head and have no where to go.  I hesitate to say I had post partum with both of my kids, I don't want to say had because I'm never really sure I'm over it. Their is a general misconception about us that we don't want our kids, I don't think their could be anything further from the truth. I love my kids dearly ... they just make me unbareably sad sometimes. I can't say it's just them, I'm still bipolar ... I still have ptsd, I'm still horribly depressed. I'm just an all around fucked up person. Some days I just don't see the point of putting myself through all this....not that I'm suicidal, I'm just not very hopeful of the future. I'm really resisting the urge to go down the "whoa is me" road with this but you'll have to excuse me if I'm a bit self-loathing. This is about the only out
It Seems I Cant Please Anyone....
I found Fubar in November, 08.  I have met some wonderful people, many of been my friends since day one.  Unfortunately, I have made some very bad choices about who I wanted to be friends with.  I realize this is a site for "fun" a place to "relax" and "unwind".  I will be the first to admit I am very soft hearted and normally go out of my way to do things for people who do not deserve it.  I have so many stories to tell, but my most recent experience has really got me stumped.  I lost a "friend" because I wouldnt put him as #1 on my family.  The people that are on my family and numbered have been with me since I started my account here.  They have proved they are good friends and we talk several times a week. They worked their way up to where they are.  I do not think it is fair for someone to just come along and you be friends for a couple of weeks then threaten to delete you if you dont put them as #1 on your family.  I work 40+ hours a week, some days I am lucky enough to be able
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Can You Handle This?
Oral sex on a guy can go on for a long long timeThere are so many things to attend toThe scent, taking one ball and then the other in my mouthMassaging your ass with gentle firm strokesHold your hands behind your headJust breathe, as I breathe on youI massage along the groin with little circles of my thumbsAs my tongue swirls around the tip.Breathe and relax, let it happen... Keep your hands there, and see how long you canI take you in my mouth and continue the massage around to the back of your hips and ass again. Pulling you deeper into my mouth.Then lifting back and flicking my tongue along the underside,I look up at you, and at the look in your eyes when you realize that This ends no time soon. I smile with my lips wrapped around youI chuckle and you feel it vibrate through you as I pull you into my mouthDeep and swift for several strokes till I feel you thrust.I slow, and lift my mouth, look into your eyes And remind you to breathe deep in your belly.While I massage your thighs an
Meet My New Owner!
I have a new owner!  Please visit Cuddle Goddess, and show her lots of love!
Our occational encounters are full of heat and passion and I hate when they end.As your hands move slowly over my body I trembal with wanting and excitement.Excitement caused by your soft gental touch and the wanting for it to never end.Your lips softly kiss mine and then move to my neck and then on to other parts of my body.As your hands move slowly over my naked body I shiver with delight.Your hand slowly finds it's way to the inside of my thigh.Your lips seem to slowly go in the same direction.They make their way over my breasts, my stomach, until they reach the inside of my thigh.My heart pounds so loudly in my chest and it feels like it is going to explode.As you slide inside me the fire with in me grows and burns.As our two bodies become one I moan in pleasure.The weight of your body on mine nearly takes my breath away.I gasp and as I do, you push deeper inside of me.You pull me on top of you and manage to stay inside me.As I rock back and forth on top of you I start to feel the
Southern women appreciate their natural assets: Clean skin. A winning smile. That unforgettable Southern drawl. Southern women know their manners: "Yes, ma'am." "Yes, sir." "Why, no, Billy!" Southern women have a distinct way with fond expressions : "Y'all come back!" "Well, bless your heart." "Drop by when you can." "How's your Momma?" Southern women know their summer weather report: Humidity Humidity Humidity Southern women know their vacation spots: The beach The rivuh The crick Southern women know the joys of June, July, and August: Colorful hi-heel sandals Strapless sun dresses Iced sweet tea with mint Straw hats and big sunglasses Southern women know everybody's first name: Honey Darlin' Shugah Southern women know the movies that speak to their hearts: Fried Green Tomatoes Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood Steel Magnolias Gone With The Wind Southern women know their religions: Baptist Methodist
Poem. Read It, Yes?
To an Inconstant One By Sir Robert Ayton 1570-1638 I LOVED thee once; I'll love no more--          Thine be the grief as is the blame; Thou art not what thou wast before,          What reason I should be the same?          He that can love unloved again,          Hath better store of love than brain:          God send me love my debts to pay,          While unthrifts fool their love away! Nothing could have my love o'erthrown          If thou hadst still continued mine; Yea, if thou hadst remain'd thy own,          I might perchance have yet been thine.          But thou thy freedom didst recall          That it thou might elsewhere enthral:          And then how could I but disdain          A captive's captive to remain? When new desires had conquer'd thee          And changed the object of thy will, It had been lethargy in me,          Not constancy, to love thee still.          Yea, it had been a sin to go          And prostitute affection so:          Since we are taught no
The Death Of A Great Mother.
Pretty Fugged up way tae start my first blog.maybe i can blog about good things in my life later.   I was told by my da last night around 10 pm that me ma was put n the hospitial.we all knew she had cancer and it was a matter of of 8:14pm today she passed.but its till too damn soon.i can't imagine the pain this woman put up with over the past 8 years.i guess she lived long enough while dealing with untold amounts of hurt and 33 years old i understand death but even this seems tae be unfair.i never wanted this day tae one does.i need a while off to settle family affairs. Its FUCKED when everyone fights about what they are going tae get when a loved one dies. Scrounging around like a pack of wild fuvkin dogs like t's that last makes me sick on my stomach.and if i have any say so the vultures will get a hand full of SHIT! Just pray for me if you do that sorta can imagine right now im not happy with Gods decsision.if your like me and don't reall
Caa #95 - Update
Heard back from my friend and her son is doing better.  Still, keep everyone on the list in prayer even when things are better for them, there can never be to many prayers for anyone.   Doc
Fu-anniversary Coming Up
well, in less than a month i will have been here for 3 years... i've made quite a few friends, rated about 15 tons of pics, lmao.... but im discovering most of the people who are on my friends list dont even bother hitting me back with a profile rate. when someone shows me luv, i return it ASAP. i dont have the money for a VIP, or to buy 'bling' for ppl. i've tried not to be a point whore in this big ol' popularity contest. but i guess i just dont care about that anymore. here it is, almost 3 years have went by, and im not even fubarlord yet. so.... im sending out a request to all my true friends on here, i'd really like to try to make it to godfather by my fu-anniversary on June 1sr.... or if not then, hopefully by my birthday on 7-21. can ya'll please please help me???
Value Of Life
Well sometimes you never realize the value of your life until something major happens or almost happens. I got to get a reminder today to enjoy every day as a blessing when I got to see a car heading my way going the wrong way on the highway. I guess I probably should elaborate. . . . I was on my way to work just like anyother day, but my friend had me driving today. Well as I was traveling on one of the major 4 lane highways in this area I see a car heading straight for me on the wrong side of the road. I am lucky my defensive driving payed off I was able to slam on the brakes and move safely to the left shoulder. . . And as I was regaining my composure I noticed all the cars around me stopping and pulling off. . . .I am not sure what happened to the driver or if she ever realized she was going the wrong way or the highway patrol got her. . . .I am just thankful that myself or anyone in the vehicle with me was uninjured.
I Wrote A Book!
It's been brought to my attention that this is the only networking site so far where I haven't tried to pimp out my book so here we go! If you actually read it please let me know I'd really appreciate it. There's other stuff I've written on my writing profile so let me know if you read that stuff too, you can leave comments on the site even if you're not a member :) My book is called "Never Say Die" and if you like it, there's a sequel on it's way! Thanks!!
Tired Rage
Ever had one of those moments where you want to be angry, but it's too late and you're too tired? I swear if I wasn't too busy yawning this computer would have gone through a wall.
Just Another Thing To Think About
Special education and public funds.   yes I know it's a dry subject, but it's just another thing i have to think about now.   What to do when you know that your child is not getting all of his needs met in his current schooling enviornment?  The push to "mainstream" all special education students 80% of the time is a blanket goal which doesn't work.   All children learn a bit differently, now add any type of Learning disability or special need, it compounds the issue. Please explain to me how a school or institution can label a child learning disabled but not tell the most effective way to teach the child.  Then decide that it's still good to mainstream them as long as they get extra help. GREAT!  now what about his social development, where are the helpers for that?  who's helping him navigate the halls?  You said his thought process is that of a child 4 to 5 years younger.  It makes TOTAL sense to feed him to the high school wolves doesn't it?   And when it's mentioned that
Caa #99
A dear friend of mine has a dear friend of hers that was scheduled for Gall Bladder surgery tomorrow, however a stress test shows a heart problem and now has to postpone the surgery.  Please send up emergency angel prayers of healing, support and love.   Doc
I'm a 23 yr old mother of a almost 2 year old. I also have a fiance name David which we are coming up on our 3 yr anniversary, and many more to come. I have changed so much, and my daughter and david have helped me. I live in Portland, and hope one day to move away again closer to family. I plan on finishing up my schooling persuing the life that i have always dreamed about. Owning a home, having a stable paying job, and our lil pug dog. An possibly my last wish is too give alisha a little brother. :). But for right now im content with just one as the terrible 2's come along. So what else? Oh i have moved into a bigger place, have a nice car an 05', and just loving life as tho im misserable where i live but oh well i can change that n a year. My daughter talks but isnt saying much sentances yet but she does when she doesnt relized it. Eatting for her is very annoying i try to feed her anything heathy and it just gets spit out. So i dunno what to do candy is the many reason that she doe
Home, New Home On The Range
Home, home on the range, where the deer eat my garden all day. Where often is heard fargo-in-flect-ed words, but the sky is not cloudy all day!   Kitty and I are settled in to our not-so-little house on the prairie, and I look forward to spending the summer gardening, farming and, if I have any time, writing.  Before the cold sets in, I'll be moving again. I have three requirements for the new place: 1) The seasons may vary from Hot to Warm. Cold weather is unacceptable. 2) It must be near an ocean. Coconuts should be plentiful.3) The local people must not be conservative nutjobs.I'm thinking Thailand. It's cheap, pretty, and because of the tourism industry, there are plenty of jobs for English teachers. If you have other suggestions, feel free to make them, and I'll feel free to tell you I don't want to live in Tibet.Actually, Tibet might work. But Djibouti - though it sounds quite fun - probably wouldn't work. Those people wear too many clothes.Anyway, you should probably ju
There were smiles and short spurts of laughter .Momentary ...laps of judgement that led to life altering decessions .Dream-like pre-wraped enchanted words that lingered in the summers heat . Unforgettable kisses that no amount of river could wash away . An instant when I was sure ....  But no sooner did it arive . Than did it escape .  Lost benethe the bridge in a never-ending story nothingness . The kind that erases pages of memories .  Lost ..  Or perhaps they were written in disapearing ink ?  Either way they can no longer be thought of . Ears that can not hear the water rushing ..  Deafing silence that harkens attention .  Faces of a ghost . That never stay .   They dance in the shadows always keeping their distance . There were promises made .  But they are ment to broken .  I keep telling myself that . And it numbs the pain .  The complacent sensation that everything has a familiar sting . Funny how the summer season , Is the season that stays with us the longest .  The season Th
Another State Of Mind
Suddenly her world of fantasy came crashing into make believeand met on a canvas made of goldall the things she thought she knew scattered across the morning dew, seem to battle all the things shes told , emotions move at the speed of light but here on earth barley go by , i don't think this is our scene, Some place else another time , Any other state of mind, On the other side they say the grass is green, Kicking my own shadow , wondering where did you go , Is anmesia whats keeping you gone? You swore that it was just a test , A month or so , nothing less, Now I wonder if your coming home?Dawn broke The night life , as he looked at the stranger by his side , Asleep with her head on his chest , He thought of a girl he had back home, Swore to himself shell never know, And dammed himself for not giving her his best , I wonder where you are right now, If you've given up somehow, I don't think that this is our scene Some place else another time , Any other state of mind, On the other side
"emotions Run Deep"
"Whether it b ur letter or picture or the fragrance that u wear, from a distance i can feel u there's no question that u care". "I feel the depths of ur lonliness ur passionate moans n groans, 2night i appeal 2 ur sence of patience it wont be long b4 i come home". "Do u have time 4 an honest man, from whom nothing but good can come, r u scared 2 face ur destined fate unsure of what's 2 come". "I have injected my soul in2 ur body, infecting ur inner parts, suduced ur mind until i find, the secrets of ur heart". "From this day forth until the end, eternally i claim, it's impossible 2 love a woman until you've felt her pain". "I reach down from da depths of my heart 2 show u how i feel inside, every emotion every thought i give 2 u, mind body n soul we match in everyway, i pray 4 da day that we can be 2gether, its all up 2 u baby i can make everything all better".
Wooo Mother F'n Hooooo
AWESOMENESS!!! THE HOTEL SIGNED, WOOT!!! *is the new florist* wooooohooooo *dances* Thank you so much everyone, without my friends I would have popped!! Seriously, you all rock! ♥ Postal
Dear God
Dear God, it's me again. I need to talk to you. You already know what it's about. It's really nothing new. Dear God, I still love him, With every piece of my heart. But you knew this would happen, From the very start. Dear God, it hurts so bad. Sometimes I can't breathe. God, why did you take him? He meant everything to me! Dear God, I'm sick of crying. I'm afraid I'm gonna drown. These memories won't go away. I still remember how he sounds. Dear God, I miss him, More and more each day. Lord, I love him so much! Why did he walk away? Dear God, I know you can hear me. I know you can feel the pain I'm in. Lord, I feel like giving up. There's no use in trying to win. Dear God, I can't take much more. I'm destroyed inside and out. I wish that I could say something, But I swallow all my shouts. Dear God, I'm sorry I sound angry. I don't blame you, But, Lord, I don't wanna believe, That me and him are through. Dear God, I have one last favor to
"slow Intentions"
"Baby i can feel u as i go through my day your mind is callin me tryin 2 get in touch with me from so far away, i'm reachin out 4 u, wantin 2 hold u, tryin 2 imbrace that person inside u, tryin 2 hide u, who has'nt found his face, can ya feel what im saying? "Is the sincerity clear"? "Should i slow down so that u can catch up, u have no need 2 fear, my intentions r harmless but as real as it will get, i wont hurt u, wont desert u, i've not even begun yet 2 show u what i think u need the one thing you've never had, a shoulder 2 lean on someone 2 cry 2 when things get real bad, judgemental i am not, tearz r a cleansing of the soul, when life gets too stressful & it begins 2 take its toll, on ur mind, on ur body, it comsumes ur every thought i want 2 be there 4 u, confide in me, i'm the person thats been sought, out by god 4 u n our destiny is quite clear look 2 stars & you'll c me so have no fear"."I can feel u n i hope u can feel me 2, im in ur heart, in ur mind, theres nothing u can do
writen with a pen, sealed with a kiss. if you leave me awnser me this, do you love me, or do you not . you told me once, but i forgot. so tell me now, but tell me true, so that i may tell you to. of all the guys ive ever met, your the one i cant forget. god picked you from all the rest, because he knew that your the best. so when i get to heaven and your not there, ill write your name everywhere. so all the angels in heaven can see, just how much you mean to me. if your not there by judgement day, ill no you went the other way . so just to prove my love to you, ill sneak to hell to be with you.
                     "Is there something I can say 2 bring a smile 2 your face, Is there somewhere we can go 2 be all alone a special hiding place where theres room 2 roam, Where everything you enjoy is abundant & free, If I figure it out would u come with me". "We could run around enlightened by the openness of space, We could lay in silence as the sun washes our face, We could talk by the river as the water cools our feet, In this place it would be romantic simple n' sweet". "We could eat all the foods without a care in the world, We could light a fire and inside the blanket stay curled cheek 2 cheek, We could erase all that ails and weighs heavily on our minds, I'll find a place 4 us and in time everything will be just fine". "To escape the worlds pressured worries for seconds, minutes, or days, To revive all thats dead inside and attempt to find new ways, To see the beauty life has 2 offer from everything around, It is u that i seek, You r so beautiful when u smile it makes me weak
How Do I Stop Loving You?
How can I turn back time? How can I just forget? You ask me to quit loving you. Am I something you regret? You tell me you don't want to hurt me, That its better if I stopped caring. How can you tell me this, When you know with you there is no forgetting? I cant just tell my bruised heart, Quit loving him that much. I cant just act like I don't care, If I ever again feel your touch. How can I stop loving you? How do I erase what we had? How do I tell my heart not to break, When things start going bad? How do I stop dreaming, About you making love to me? How do I forget your smile? I just cant, don't you see? Explain to me what I must do, To forget this love I feel. For how can I lie to my heart By saying my love isn't real? The way my heart loves you, It has never loved before. The way my body craves you, Right down to my very core. If I ever asked my heart to quit Loving your eyes, lips, and hands, It will break into a million pieces. Why c
Tattooed Dreamz
it took about 2 months...........a good bit of hard earned cash..........3 great artists.........ebay..........a needle wholesaler.......high quality inks.....and a dream..... you are all probably reading this and wondering wtf is she talking about....many of you know i am very fond of tattoo body art  and piercing.....well with a lil help from friends who know what they are doing..... there is now a shop that has opened up !!!! check out the website : it's just a lil shop getting on its feet, but there are over 2,000 designs to choose from and if you can't find what you like or really want, they are flexible, you can bring them your idea and watch them bring it to life on paper right before your eyes !!!! if the website isn't enough for you.....feel free to shout me! i have all the details and i'm more than willing to share!!!!
Because I'm Bored....
and someone will read this....     I had to go in and see the guy who pierced my nose again today...because i haz teh dumbs....anyways...he says to me "oh wow, your nose looks great....for someone who won't quit fucking with it! your messing up my work!"
I have always wondered what happiness truly is and I think I have figured it out. Happiness is what you feel when you find someone you can connect with on some intellectual level that becomes emotional. That emotion leads to either happiness or sadness depending on whether or not you both move in the same direction.
Quiz For May
For all you people who like them or want to answer this one....   1. Which comic book hero would you like to be for a day?2. Where would you rather be stranded? Gilligan's Island, on the Jupiter with the Lost in Space crew, or Land of the Lost?3. Someone's fly is unzipped in your group of just friends. Do you announce it, whisper it, or let it go?4. Ever use the phrase "Bu-bye"?5. What catch phrase do you hate the most?6. If you wanted an awesome pair of athletic shoes that were $150, but then saw a pair just like them were only $1, but they were so cheap because they had been made in a sweatshop in some third world country by enslaved children who were fed only scraps from a trash bin...would you get the sky blue with silver accents or the black and gold?7. What condiment do you use the most?8. You've got a killer headache and your hands shake as you reach to make a fresh pot of coffee. Then you notice your neighbor's house is on fire! Which hand would you hold your cup of coffee in
"silent Hardships"
"A person is made of many things, none of which can be seen @ a glance, even the sun shines in the darkest places given time n' the chance". "When judging some1 first take in account the conditions from which they've prevailed, there ability 2 keep the faith not just in victory but when they fail". "Tell them please dont worry, theres no need 4 caution here, 4 I was born an honorable human so theres nothing 4 them 2 fear". "NEVER judge a book by its cover, i'm sure they have heard that b4, & what would life be like 4 us, if we were all 2 scared 2 explore"."So dare 2 do what no 1 has done, get 2 know me b4 u judge me, 9 times out of 10 we'll become friends, & in time it would'nt be so bad n' maybe u 2 will love me"!
Submission Part 2
Biting my lip , thinking what could be up those stairs . Sliding a finger around the lip of glass doesnt seem to help the nerves . Should I go up or run like hell . Is it him or someone else . How the hell did I get in this mess? Breathe Tamm , breathe can do this , just suck it up . With a tip of head I sucked back the wine . Ok , now what . Clearing my throat , echos off the walls . If I were to scream , would anyone here me . Damn I cant recall the houses if they were close . Reaching inside my purse pulling out my cell . Damn it to hell no flipping signal ...can you hear me now suck damn phone company . Searching in purse , well I know now I would make the perfect victim . Exhaling breathe and a shake of body , ok now im ready I think . Walking across the harden floors , the beauty of this place overwhelms me . Such workmanship, they dont make houses like this anymore . Pausing to look up the winding stairway . Lit only by candles and each step covered in rose petals
"simple Ecstacy"
"Kiss me girl, taste my soul, embrace your destiny, lay back, relax, arch your back, n' let me take control". "Spread your legs but leave the light on so u can see in2 my eyez, grab hold n' hug while we make love, so strong it will make u cry, tonight lets take our time its been awhile, exotic ecstacy is flowin' as i watch the way u quiver as i deliver". "The slightest touch, my arms will take away the stress, my kiss will ease the pain, have u ever made love that was so intense, when u came its like falling rain"."Dont blush i know u feel me, dont be shy cuz nows the time, someday i'll make love 2 your physical, but tonight let me sex your mind"!
Had A Few Of These Nights Too!
Heyahhhhhhhhh Five Thirty PM rolls around, there’s a little old joint outside of town I only got time for a couple of beers and a juke box song ringing in my ears The next you know the bartenders pouring, shots are flowing, got me stoned and All I really know is that I should be going, but I’m soaking up the moment I'm all jacked up, all jacked up Don’t believe I’ve ever had this much. One thing I’ve learned when you get tore up Time sure flies when you’re all jacked up It was getting mighty close to Nine o’clock, what the hell I'll have one more shot. Then I winked at a boy at the end of the bar, guess I mighta musta gone a little too far. Cause a big ole girl walked outta the blue, 10 foot 2 with a bad attitude Stepped right up and knocked out my tooth, guess I had it coming I deserved it too Cause I was all jacked up, all jacked up, Don’t believe I’ve ever had this much. One thing I’ve learned when you get tore up Don&
Dear Lipstick, Your wish is my command. If you need a friend / secret admirer (that you know in advance lol), I am your guy. If you want me to crush you, I will. But be careful what you wish for. It would be my pleasure to "crush" you. Please be forewarned, have plenty of H2O on hand because I anticipate my "crush" to be devastating to you, in a good way. Not long after I "crush" you, you will be contacting me for drinks and then more "crushes", waking up in the middle of the night and send me messages to "crush" you. You will not be able to stop my "crush" but it can sometimes be contained. Please allow a "JOHNNY VEGA$ CRUSH" to run its course over a 48 hour period. Please do not operate an 18 wheeler, back-hoe or large dump trucks. Avoid alcohol at all cost because it only doubles the length of the “crush”. Now with all that being said, “What you going to do when the “JOHNNY VEGA$ CRUSH” comes for you! Sincerely, John aka JOHNNY VEGA$p.s. Please return t
How To Shrink The Size Of Morphs To Add To Fubar
i have tones of morphs that i made ,, but the file size is to big to add to fubar.. anyone out here fu-land can help me out ?
I've Slowed Down Some Since Then....
Well I'm an eight ball shootin', double-fisted, drinkin' son-of-a-gun I wear my jeans a little tight just to watch the little boys come undone I'm here for the beer and the ball bustin' band Gonna get a little crazy just because I can You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna get me some You know I'm here, I'm here for the party I may not be a ten, but the boys say I clean up good And if I gave 'em half a chance for some rowdy romance You know they would I've been waitin' all week just to have a good time So bring on them cowboys and their pick-up lines You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna get me some You know I'm here, I'm here for the party Don't want no purple hooter shooter Just some Jack on the rocks Don't mind me if I start that trashy talk You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna ge
"passion N' Instincts"
  "I sit alone & think of u, hoping u can hear me, if i close my eyez b4 i sleep i can see u clearly, even where i am now, where everything is dark n cloudy, i can feel you here beside me tugging @ my heart". "Anxiously i wait 2 hear a precious word or 2, something 2 let me know how u feel inside, is it real or just wishful thinkin, tearz n happiness will set u free, is this the sign that u will stay with me, i take the blame & apologize 4 those nights i'v denied you, but this gives me time 2 love ur mind b4 i lay beside you". "Let me take away ur pain, wipe ur tearz & guide u, let me ease ur mind with passion n bliss, late nite phone conversations anticipating our first kiss, i hope my words dont sound 2 strong but curiosity has no fear, each breath i take is ecstasy that builds up throughout the year"."There is no cure 4 what i feel its just the pain that ails me, no prescription from the doctors' modern medicine has failed me, and i know this is a lot 2 take but i mean each word
Heart-broken Still!
Recently, I was with a group of friends, hanging out downtown, and one of them asked another out. The person who did this, was my friend Lisa, that I have known for the last 5 years. We met back in winter quarter of 2004 and since then, I have had feelings for her. But now, seeing that she asked another girl out and she is bisexual, I have managed to miss another opportunity to let someone know of my feelings.This has put so far on edge, that it made me create a partial list of things that get on my nerves and this was one of the top 5. I feel so fucking stupid now, because I let my guard down once again with fear and agony reigning supreme. I just don't know what I am gonna do anymore. With people telling me that things will turn out if you hope for the best, I really dislike my chances of finding someone or anyone for that matter, who I can physically and mentally trust without being in fear of being let down or severely heart-broken all over again.I guess, if by small chance, someon
"expressions Of Bliss"
  "2night, though i sleep in solitude, my thoughts r filled with you, i wonder after this insanity do fantasies come true". "Will my words communicate my wishes these passionate slow kisses anticipated love embraces as magical as this is". "Explosive nights of love making each time a different lesson the moon will guide my every stroke i'm blessed by your expressions". "Draped in sweat chest 2 chest a climax 2 our frustration this is the reward that we can both share if only we were patient".
"I can feel u as i go through my day, every emotion, the ups n downs, i hear ur cries in the worst way, so badly u want the pain n' anguish 2 go away". "I will comfort u give u a shoulder 2 lean on & promise u everything will b ok, i am not a proud man but i am honest n' loyal, i'll be there 4 u through all ur turmoil". "As we sleep i whisper so soft n' innocent that i love you, u look @ me & i look @ u n' sumtimes say nothing cuz we know its true". "You drive me crazi the way u look @ me, ur so gorgeous every feature about u remains true, as i look in2 ur eyez i get lost by ur beauty, you are my weakness i cant help but 2 be speechless". "I will love you 4eva so theres no need 2 cry, we can talk bout anything until the morning lite". "Anticipated Ecstacy, long hot nights 2gether, i hold ya hand @ night there can never be another". "Whoever reads this realize im not a bad guy, so take it 2 heart & think about my words u dont wanna deny".
I Do Love You So I Will Let You Go
To let Go...Doesn't mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else. Is not to cut myself off, Is the realization that I can't control another. To Let Go....Is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences. Is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands. To Let Go....Is not to try to change or blame another, I can only change myself. Is not to care for, but to care about. To let Go....Is not to fix, but to be supportive. Is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being. To let Go....Is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcome, but to allow others to effect their own outcomes. Is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality. To Let Go....Is not to deny, but to accept. Is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them. To Let Go....Is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes, and to cher
Don't Judge Me
Don't judge me by my looks Don't reject me because of my face Get to know me Before you decide my place Don't criticize my actions until you know the reason why Keep your mind open Keep the hope of love alive Don't despise me without reason Just give me the Chance To prove the good I have inside Take time to discover The feelings that I hide Never hate with only one look Give me the chance I deserve Look n see maybe you will find The love inside of me ..... Dedicated to: the one soul I miss more than anything in this world!
Your heart reveals true beauty, the face does not.
Troubled Son
So, I have a 14 year old son that is just out of control. He skips school, smoking cigaretes and basically disrespectful. He is on probation for Theft III and broke his probation by skipping school and spent 4 days in juvenile hall. The day after he got out he skipped again. I have been fined $150 for him skipping. I just don't know what to do anymore. I am doing my best to raise him but he is a very angry unhappy boy. Does anyone have any suggestions? Please Help!   Well it's 05/08/09.... my son was arrested today for minor in possesion of tobacco and skipping school and put in juvenile hall. I really don't know what to do. I have exhausted my options with him.
"tricks Of The Trade"
""Legs wide, ass dropped, pussy wet, hit it hard, scream&squeal, moan&groan, sratch&bite, down 2nite, tied up, straped down, drunk as hell, fuck it sloppy, dont stop, get it get it, work dat ass, drink dat shit, in ur spot, in ur mouth, flip u over, down south, goin deep, rub dat g, she cant hold on, im goin strong, fuck it good, fuck it rite, damn u tight, i'll keep u up, allnight""!!
Life In Music
You ever have a day, where every song you hear, you can relate to? It all seems relevant to whatever is going on in your life? I know that nowadays everyone has their ipods and mp3 players and who the hell burns cd's still, haha, so we can make our own playlists and keep those tunes and choose whatever we want to listen to, thats not really what I mean. But, turn on the radio, and every song they play during that car ride to work hits you somewhere? Ya. Love that feeling. I love how I can tell my life story in song. Here are just a few "theme" songs of my life--- I am sure if you know anything about me, you know why I picked most of them.  My Own Worst Enemy-PinkI Like Big Butts-- Sir Mix a LotNot Ready to Make Nice- Dixie ChicksGunpowder and Lead- Miranda LambertThere Goes My Life- Kenny ChesneyNever Enough- Five Finger Death PunchPain- Three Days GraceI'm a Bitch- Alanis MorissetteWalk This Way- AerosmithOnly the Good Die Young- Billy JoelU + UR Hand- PinkBring on the Rain- JoDee Mes
Birthday Bombing
It,s my bithday May 22nd and since I can't be here that day I want to celebrate with fu on Thursday May 21 Looking 4 friends to give me 6 credit bling gifts so I can get enough to bomb 4 or 5 times If I get 30 friends giving me a 6 bling credt I will pick  one name out of  a hat and give 1  friend an auto 11 If you know me you know I'll be honest with the draw  I will show no bias so please don't ask If this turns out well I'll repeat it  so please no drama This is a chance to get an auto 11 for a 6 bling credit  If I get 50  ; 2 autos will be picked 60; 3  and another draw for every 10 extra after that So if 100 people enter 7 people will recieve an auto 11etc. I will draw the name or names Wed may 20 at 6 pm Pacific time so the draw will end at 5pm and i'll give the autos to whoever wins on wed between 6 & 7 pm pacific timeI will try to bomb everyone that sends a 6 cr bling gift at least twice If there are 100 x 6 cr bling gifts given there will also be an auto given to the person wh
""Murderess mind state, cant keep my nine straight ,sippin on dis henessey wait'in 4 my time 2 break, show up  mutha fucka's bow down cant complain a nigga stained when i pass by, a pistol pack'en fool just cuz im white does'nt mean a nigga cant fight, im untouchable i keep u straight buggin, me & my crew we dont give a fuck cuz we all thuggin, u wanta c me solo i crack down on u ho's like a fuck'en plauge, im infamous they call me dangerous u nigga'z cant bang wit us, my girl tells me im outta control, i tell her im just tryin 2 get by, des niggaz, i c da look in day eye, i aint nutt'in nice u'll never catch me slippin i swear des clowns gotta be trippin, they talk shit on me but i know there demeanor u aint shit punk bitch i take ya 2 da fuck'en cleaner""
"wordz Of Wisdom"
"Shallow park its dark i c da spark @ da distance, glisten, u dirty nigga, u live in pestilence, i put ur ass in a fuck'en coma, fuck wit me & i'll c u on da street, throwdown punk bitch, u'll c u cant compete wit me, im a prime time nigga, 5'10" 185, cum against me & try 2 survive, i aint ur damn friend, i aint ur fuck'en brotha, step up & get dropped, stupid mutha fucka, ima soilder, ima warrior, da man u wish u could be, i hang wit da best, niggaz cant contest, des fools try 2 hold there head up, but day fall like da rest, he never got 2 c da bullet just heard da shot, his lil body couldnt take it, he shook & drop, ima hellrazor, everyday's gettin crazier, 4give 4 my mistakes i gotta play my hand, & my hand's on dat 16shot fully automatic, fuck'en crooked cops stealin glocks, can ya feel me, i speak da truth, im only here just 2 warn da youth, its a cold world stay straped pack a gat everyday, da trick is 2 never lose hope, or u'll find ur buddy hangin dead from a rope, hear my rhym
Turnabout Seems Unfair
There are very few occasions that I just HAVE to talk to someone. Normally I'm ok with whatever goes on and I can just handle it myself. Right now, however, I'm in a pretty confused and crappy state. And the one time it would be nice to just talk to someone, everybody is unavailable, doing their stuff, having their own fun. Figures. I think it's time for new friends.
My Wreck (the Newspaper Cliping)     Wednesday May 6, 2009 Police news: Family injured in collision in Danville A woman and two children were injured in a one vehicle collision Saturday.   Police said Stephanie Cline lost control of her 1996 Saturn and struck a concrete barrier on a bridge while rounding a curve on South Third Street.   Cline was transported to Ephraim McDowell Regional Medical Center with possible back and neck injuries.   Police said Cline's sons were also transported to the hospital with possible injuries.   Copyright:The Advocate-Messenger 2009
"sum Gangsta Shit"
"My gat screamed fire, my bullet told me shoot dat nigga hes a liar, i talk 2 my creatie like a bitch on a stroll when mutha niggaz try 2 deck ima lock & pull it out kill'em all, i cant be fucked in dis game ima pyshopath, my AK told me 2 busta niggaz ass, im havin my conversation wit mr.millimeter hes 1 of my bestfriends bitch ass nigga eata"! "This is my spread load up in da back truck u know that old skool bitch, she liked 2 get fucked, im spittin mutha fuckaz by seams, my granddaddy mr.AR15, said he was my only family shoot straight & please dont jam me, my own glock pistol whip me in da fuck'en head cuz he said i wont buy da irfrared, got ina fight @ da club my pistol started walkin told me 2 shut da fuck up & let him do da talkin, i woke up & iwas sick 2 c da guts from my strap, he told me REAP mutha fucka, ur born 2 scrap"! "One for da glock, 2 for da clip, bullets in ya ass make ya hop n skip, fuck dis nigga ima get'em then i dip, I c u nigga ima open up ur chest bout this fuck
The Broken Bones!
Ok, I went to the DR last Friday and he gave me a cane instead of crutches! I was way excited!!!!  Today I took my mom and we had a spa day, I hurt so much from that I can't explain, but Mom loved it!  
I Wonder
I wonder if he thinks of me, when it's quiet and he's alone. I wonder if he remembers my number, when he looks at the phone. I wonder if he remembers the smile< I gave him so freely. or our special little talks, when all the lights were dim. i wonder if he ever stops to think of me now n then, to wonder how I'm doing, or how I've been. I wonder if he hurts inside, when-ever they play our song. I wonder if he yearns for me, when a couple stroll along. I wonder if the memories, keep him awake at you. I wonder if he wishes, that I never LIED that night. I wonder and question, until my wonders run out. But I wonder if he wonders what I'm wordering about?
"lil Piece If My Mind"
"Fuck'en watch my niggaz get low they run around hands down, strap tight, lok'ed up in da mutha fuck'en hood just 4 spite, i got dem bitchs set trick, so trip, blood 4 blood, pound 4 pound nigga im da best u fuck'en clowns i put 2 rest, fuck ya enemies bitch get ya mind right, grip ya 9 tight 2nites da nite murder murder is all u feel tingling sensation down ur spine, its me u fear fuck'en queer, cant deny u fucked up sum rich nigga u dialed in da wrong compartment style molestya catch'en cases, ima put ya fuck'en ass on trial, hommies in B-more will tell ya im wrong one 2 provoke, i creep up on ya,. throw ya ina choke hold stab ya brain wit ya nose bone, stand ova ya proud watch ya die slow, chokin on ya own blood, they call me REAPER ya never see me comin snatch ya fuck'en life right from under ya, sumtimes i think i need a exorcist just 2 exsist, cloaked in black, shotgun by my side when i ride, i put in work just 2 provide my own sick fantacy, i feels like im bust'en a nut when i o
Nsfw Salutes!!!!! [[[open]]]
Beer Time
OK so today was very very stressful.  I sneeked down to fayetteville to take a HUGE test.  I didnt tell anyone out of fear of not passing it on the first try. Well after about 5 hours of waiting I finally got the results.....PASSED!!!! Now its time to relax, enjoy the cold beer, and the sun (finally)
"sum Freaky Shit"
"Let me smack that ass girl, get dat pussi workin, i know u feel me girl, get dat middle twarkin, got ya drippin wet, im that fuck'en vet, make ya moan n' cream, u think im just a dream, i do it so good, make ya scream my name, lick u up n down, girl u know my fame, im da don gotta in this sex game." "Got ya so posted, legs opened wide, u know u love me, im da 1 u confide, ill neva leave ya, u keep me wantin more, you so fine, you got me high strung, keep u locked in passion, you got dat sex appeal, if u dont know, babi in 4real, im da man that u girls talk about, i can put it on ya, like ya neva had, im ya only fantasy, ya im that good, ill make ya cum again, my sex is trump tight, let me know u care, n' ill fuck u just rite"!
London Nights
Only two days till London... 
It was only a moment before he could pull his mind back; yet it felt like ages.  He could feel the warm palm even through the linen.  Her touch caused sensations he had not felt for the living or dead in a very long time.  The sensation filled him with warmth and caused him to stand tall.  As he turned the first thing that grabbed him were the eyes.  They were green as emerald and yet wise.  This was not a woman to be battled.  These were the mirrors to a soul who knew what she wanted and when.  Standing transfixed like a greek statue she lazily turned him to face her.  She winked and without words she tossed her golden auburn locks toward the door.  Being of old was a blessing when it came to the little signs he thought.  Pressing her firmly against himself like a conquering marauder he pushed with his mind to clear a path.  Like the red sea they parted.  It never stopped amazing him the power of the weak as he led her along.  Giving the sign to the bouncer for him to bring the Bentl
"com'n Get It From Me"
"Com'n shake it shake it 4 me, com' n work it 4 me shawty but dont break it 4 me, wiggle wiggle want u com' n get naked 4 me, say u like da dilly want u com' n take it from me, go'on twark it 4 me while i let da dick slide, com'n pop it 4 me mama show me know how 2 ride, now stop runnin from me, go'on hold dat phatty up n' let me beat it up until u say u had enough,let me show u how 2 work dat work dat, go 2 da floor but dont hurt dat hurt dat, take it from me if ya can show me how ya do dat, lick it so hard i got ya screamin fuck dat fuck dat, hit it so hard got soakin wet yea i bet, shawty let me inspect them thighs cuz i gotta new mutha fucken exercise"!
Feelin' Kinda Weird
*To see the devil in your dream, signifies fear, limitations, and negative aspects of yourself. You may be harboring feelings of guilt. It is time to release these feelings. Alternatively, the devil represents intelligence, cunningness, deception, and cleverness. To dream that you fight off the devil, indicates that you will succeed in defeating your enemies. To dream that the devil talks to you, suggests that you will find certain temptations hard to resist even though you know it is not in your best interest.* *To dream that someone or something is evil, denotes a repressed and/or forbidden aspect of yourself. This part of yourself may be seeking recognition and acknowledgment. Alternatively, evil may also be a reflection of your strong, negative emotions like hate, anger, etc.* *To see your own family in your dream, represents security, warmth and love. It could also symbolize bitterness, jealousy, or rivalry, depending on your relationship with your family. Alternatively, it
Pecker Up!
A five year old boy and his grandpa are sitting on the front porch together. When gramps pulls a beer out of his cooler, the little boy asks, 'Can I have a beer Grandpa?' Grandpa replies, 'Can your pecker touch your ass?' The little boy answered, 'No Grandpa. It's just a little pecker.' Gramps says, 'Well then, you're not man enough to have a beer.' A little later Grandpa lights up a cigar. The little boy asks, 'Can I have a cigar Grandpa?' Once again, Grandpa asks, 'Can your pecker touch your ass?' Once again the little boy replies, 'No, it's too little'. Gramps replies, 'Then you're not man enough to have a cigar.' A little later the little boy comes out of the house with milk and some cookies. Grandpa asks, 'Hey there young feller, can I have a cookie?' The boy asks, 'Can your pecker touch your ass?' Laughing, Gramps replies, 'Hell yes, my pecker can touch my ass!' The little boy replies, 'Then go fuck yourself.'
I Need
i need a damn homegirl, someone i can click with. someone who doesnt mind kids manye even has a few. someone who is flirty with girls and can be goofy with me. someone who likes to party but doesnt take it to the extreme. i guess i just really want someone to laugh and chill with.
Word Of The Day
fuck fuck balls ass monkey analraping horse cum drenched piss guzlling shit stinking hemeroide of a human turd.   what u think bout that?
Taunted boy just told pals, ‘Bye’ 11-year-old killed himself last week By MARK DAVIS The Atlanta Journal-Constitution Sunday, April 26, 2009 Morning came with the usual chaos. The kids struggled into their clothes for another day of school. Downstairs, Masika Bermudez yelled at them to hurry. To sweeten the order, she reached for a morning favorite, Cocoa Puffs. Her children loved them. Enlarge this image Jason Getz/ A.J. Brown, 11, talks about the last day he saw his buddy Jaheem alive. His mother, Alice Brown, tries to comfort him. HOW WE GOT THE STORYStaff writer Mark Davis interviewed Jaheem Herrera's friends, A.J. Brown and Peter Vincent, both 11, with the permission of and in the presence of their mothers, Alice Brown and Eschondria Vincent, at the Vincent home. He spoke with Jaheem's mother, Masika Bermudez, by phone from her lawyer's office. The DeKalb County school system has declined to talk about Jaheem, citing a confidentiality
How To Annoy Ppl In Public Restroom
1.Stick your palm open under the stall wall and ask your neighbor, ''May I borrow a highlighter?''  2. ''Uh-oh, I knew I shouldn't put my lips on that.''  3. Cheer and clap loudly every time somebody breaks the silence with a bodily function noise.  4. ''Hmmm, I've never seen that color before.''  5. ''Damn, this water is cold.''  6. Grunt and strain real loud for 30 seconds and then drop a cantaloupe into the toilet bowl from a high place and sigh relaxingly.  7. ''Now how did that get there?''  8. ''Hummus. Reminds me of hummus.''  9. Fill up a large flask with Mountian Dew. Squirt it erratically under the stall walls of your neighbors while yelling,''Whoa! Easy boy!!''  10. '' Interesting....more sinkers than floaters''  11. Using a small squeeze tube, spread peaunt butter on a wad of toliet paper and drop under the stall wall of your neighbor. Then say,''Whoops, could you kick that back over here, please?"  12. ''C'mon Mr. Happy! Don't fall asleep on me!!"
Eeek! Dont Scare The Wifey
A man was having problems with premature ejaculation so he decided to go to the doctor. He asked the doctor what could he do to cure his problem ... In response the doctor said, "When you feel like you are getting ready to ejaculate try startling yourself". That same day the man went to the store and bought himself a starter pistol. All excited to try this suggestion out he runs home to his wife. At home his wife is in bed, naked and waiting on her husband. As the two begin, they find themselves in the '69' position. The man, moments later, feels the sudden urge to come and fires the starter pistol. The next day, the man went back to the doctor. The doctor asked, "How did it go?". The man answered, "Not that well ... when I fired the pistol my wife shit on my face, bit 3 inches off my penis and my Neighbor came out of the closet with his hands in the air!"
Dreams of liquid life within the body of a procreation goddess. Limber arms, legs and beating close to this life..  yet never will be a part of mine. Growing hopes, growing dreams growing growing and yet never knowing. Learning to be what nature denies me. Learning and being myself a woman in only half the knowing. A mother isn't a mother because she can is what I was tought to celebrate.  Full of dried hopes, dried dreams and dried tears. I'm a mother out of choice, yet I hear the cry, I hear the voice. It's lodged deep inside, where I ignore and look away. The child inside looks for a way. There can only be this I can give. My heart my time my joy. no girl or boy. The purest love and devotion given from a child wh
The Real Me
You say I'm strong I say you're wrong I'm actually quite weak inside You have no idea how often I've cried You say I have lots of determination Can't you see I'm full of frustration? You say I have a beautiful face Please, the way I look is a disgrace You see many wonderful qualities within me I'm sorry, but I have to disagree Everything you see is just a front I only let you see what I want I don't see me the way you do Oh, if you only knew For I fear if I really let you in You wouldn't like what you see within It's taken many years to build these walls You can't wander my mind's inner halls If you're lucky you may get a small peek Of the inner me that you seek Just don't be suprised at the view you get It's not very pretty, this I will admit For inside this beautiful, strong outer shell There is a frightened little girl living in hell
If I, Will You?
How do I tell you, what do I say? If I speak the words, will you walk away? If I tell you everything that's in my heart Will it all end or will it all start? If I bare my soul to you, if I give you all I am Will you open your heart's door or will I hear it slam? If I tell you my innermost want, my deepest desire Will you embrace it, or say it won't transpire? If I reach to touch you, to caress your skin Will you pull away, or favor me with a grin? If I brush your lips with a kiss and stroke your hair Will you want more, or softly swear? If I say it's you with whom I want to spend my life Will you say yes or will "no" cut me like a knife? If I tell you I love you what will you do Will you say you love me or bid me adieu? How do I tell you, what do I say? If I speak the words, will you walk away?
My Prince
Locked high in the castle tower Kept by a cruel master who held all the power Growing wearier day by day Dragon Guard keeping would-be rescuers at bay The sun never shone into that cold cell My own cruel version of hell One day a ray of light shone through the gloom At once a blossom of hope began to bloom Rushing to the window, what did I see? My princely savior come to rescue me This wonderful Knight with sword drawn high His prize he would not be denied The Dragon he slayed with one hearty blow The master rushes to the gate below Sword drawn, ready to fight Swiftly struck down by this white knight My Prince climbs the tower stairs At my prison door he tears Released from this hellish world A new life before me unfurled My Prince has finally arrived Hope and faith have been revived He swears his love to me Forever more joy is what I'll see Two halves are now a whole As one...heart, mind, body, and soul
Fubar Vs Mario Kart
Okay, this will make sense to only people who have played Mario Kart...Witchie, you may stop reading now...   I came to a realization today that Fubar and Mario Kart are very similar. You only win if you get the good blings. Auto 11's and Cherry Bombs are much like the "Bullet" and "Lightning" on MK. All 4 get you in the lead, but in the end you're still just playing wth your Wii.
I'm Finally Breathing
For one of the first times in my life I feel like I am breathing, like I am alive and living...Doing things on my own, feeling encouragement from others...Thanks to a certain person in my life who I feel is making me see that there is more to life than what was behind my four walls, I was soo use to being depressed and held down in my own prision...which was my house. You know I have lost so much weight from walking and going places, being active!! I am now down a total of 10 sizes. I feel like there is so much more that I can accomplish, and I will!!!!
Love Is...
Love.... Love is pain Love is misery Love is intolerable Love is cruel Love lies Love cheats Love is suffering Love is torture Love is...never ending
Lost in crippling desperation Searching for some kind of inspiration Something to make life worth living To make the pain a little less unforgiving Looking to fulfill that deepest want, the ultimate desire Praying for relief from this scorching fire Searching is just rubbing salt into a cut Needing something, not knowing what Only wanting a little peace Just a small bit of release Needing to heal the wounds in my soul For once feel like I'm whole Been brought to the brink Farther and farther I sink A lost child in a cruel existence Losing the will for resistance I give up, can't fight any longer To weak to try to be stronger The world wins, I lose It is death I choose
Hi, It is SO good to have the a/c working again, and only for $119 for a yearly-plan.  It was as I suspected:  the lines needed to be "blown out"...I had poured clorox bleach in all 3 of the pvc pipes last eve---but too late; the damage had been done: my a/c was clogged.  They needed their pressure -aircompressor to clean out the lines.... I had noticed this week that the carpet was all wet in the hallway near the hall bath and door to furnace/ a/c closet.........I thought one of the dogs had done it...since so soaked......when I went to pull into the garage last eve, I saw a stream of water trailing all the way to outside of garage...I quickly felt the carpet remnant at the front of garage on the raised was SOAKING I ran inside and opened the door to A/C unit...opened the air filter area below it and discovered tons of water! I panicked,since living on my own and no one to ask/help.  I looked in the yellow pages (after pouring all that clorox down those drainpip
I Belong To Him
His eyes lock with mine Chills run down my spine Heat courses through my veins With a lust barely contained His lips pressed against mine Unleashes a hunger divine Lovingly raising my hands above my head Binding them with a silken thread Hands carressing my breast Desire too deep to express Longing for his every touch The suspense is just too much Fingers trail hip to thigh and back again Bringing a fire I can barely contain Rising up to meet his tender caresses Knowing all of me he possesses Knowing it and wanting more Slowly, torturously he explores Wishing an end to this sweet torment After what seems and eternity he consents Entering slowly, sweetly Taking me completely Passions climb and soar More intense than ever before Mania reaching it's peak Pleasure too intense to speak Passions fading away In his arms I lay Knowing to him I belong Something so right, can't be wrong
I swallow the concoction as I look at your silhouette Feeling the gradual decay of my limits Innocence flying away into the indigo night Looking into your deep moonlit eyes I hear the imaginary voices calling They call me to a place of darkness and wonder A place I dare not explore For if I wander in too deeply I'll be lost Lost to the world of light and men To all I've ever known Yet the voices bewitch my troubled mind Calling to me on a higher plane "Let yourself go.", you softly whisper "There is no pain in darkness.", you cajole "come, live among the shadows with me." "Let yourself go, set yourself free." The potion works itself on my soul My resistance weakens and dissolves Slowly into the shadows I drift They wrap themselves around me Such serenity found within Finally, pain and worry are left behind For once and evermore I am free In darkness forever I live
I have recently come to the conclusion that fubar sucks and is full of nothing but frauds and liars only interested in themselves. I could be lonely much easier by just wandering the crowded streets of this snob filled shithole without piling more of it on here trying to find A SINGLE HUMANOID FRIEND ON THIS FUCKING PLANET. goodbye all you automatons!
Lifehouse : If This Is Goodbye
And day lights, craving Sunshine on this frozen heart I am wishing you well Wondering how you are If you and I are going under Maybe we can both recover And find forgiveness for each other Even if this is goodbye And time heals But these scars keep on tearing us apart And sometimes ending is the only place to start If you and I are going under Maybe we can both recover And find forgiveness for each other Even if this is goodbye If you and I are going under Maybe we can both recover And find forgiveness for each other Even if If what we had is really over If fate is out there we discover Let's find forgiveness for each other Even if this is goodbye (Second best song ever... Just wish he could forgive me)
Suzie Is Starting Her Collection Fu Too!
My Favorite collection item! Rubber Duckies! And Fu will have them for a limited time. Im asking help, I really would like to start this collection! RUBBER DUCKY YOUR THE ONE, YOU MAKE BATH TIME LOTS OF FUN!! [JC told me to do this :p] I will add all helpers to this bully[im making this a blog too] and it will kind of a mini pimp out for all my helpers. ☆Kuntylette☆CuppyCake☆SLP☆@ fubar
Kosher Sex In City Hall
Along with dozens of cable TV and freedom lovers, I put on a suit and spoke up at City Hall last Wednesday, trying to convince the LA City Council to earmark a few measly sheckles of the $30 million they get each year from cable companies for Public Access. As blogged in RIP Public Access and Nightline Visits the Speakeasy, LA’s Public Access channels were unceremoniously dumped by Time Warner at the beginning of this year, aided and abetted by various nefarious California State and LA City officials, some of whom were squirming in their well-polished seats right in the Council’s Chambers. Not that anyone on the LA City Council was openly “against” Public Access, Equal Access, Free Speech or the right of the citizens of LA to have our own independent channel where we can air whatever we want, free of government censorship and corporate sponsorship. Of course not! They all profess to love Freedom of Speech far more than We the People of LA could ever know! They j
Mistress Frey Is In Control Get Ur Rest
Friday, May 8, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) You are more certain of yourself today, and want to explain your position to others. The same people that may have recently frightened you now seem to be less ominous. You are no longer willing to take a submissive role just to assure that someone else doesn't get upset. Nevertheless, there's nothing wrong with trying to avoid open conflict; just don't sacrifice your values in the process.
Thru My I
sometimes what we are searching for .. isnt what we end up getting .... life is funny like that .... and then one day u find urself searching again ..maybe I AM  not making any sense and no one will prolly even read this ..... so just a waste of time ... u ever want something so bad that u wish u could go back and change and do things different .... one of my best friends lost her life last year .... I miss greatly and if I could go back and change te way things happen I would ..... u think u have all the time in the world to tell someone that u love them and u think oh I can wait until tomorrow .... when we chat .... and then tomorrow never came I often think that if I could have stopped her ... if only she would have called me and talked to me all night she would still be here today ... well the last time I talked to here was only a few days b4 her life ended.... if maybe I just said hey come spend the weekend at my house we will go out and search for new guys ... or maybe just fli
For the past several day I have been angry. Everyone knows this kind of angry. Its the pent up rage you feel and it makes you more angry when you dont even know what it is that your angry at to begin with. I've been going through a rough time these past 3 or 4 weeks and havent been able to find much comfort. Some of my closest friends seem like they don't care much about my problems and almost care free in their own worlds. The only comfort iv been able to muster is sitting in a small room with nothing but an air mattress, my laptop, and a small TV. A lot of the time I feel angry at everything around me from the floor creeking, or birds chirping. My total silence from the world seems insignificant but at the same time sane. There is one person I am thinking of right now and she has kept me calm and smiling through the last few days. She is quickly filling in what I felt to be a hole that would never be filled. Most people would consider this person in a way to be "the one". It's stran
What Should I Eat For Dinner Tonight
what should i eat for dinner tonight any ideas out there
Portrait Of A Friend
"Portrait of a Friend"I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we willsearch for answers.I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,nor the future with its untold stories.But I can be there now when you need me to care.I can't keep your feet from stumbling.I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;Yet I can share in your laughter.Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;I can only support you, encourage you,and help you when you ask.I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me.I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,room to be yourself.I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,But I can cry with you and help you pick up the piecesand put them back i
How Do You Define Yourself?
A friend of mine asked me the other day "How do you define yourself?". After thinking about the question for a while I have come to the conclusion, I don't define myself. Of course, I am sure I do define myself on some subconscience level based on my past, what I have done, what has been said of me, how people have acted around me... there is a sea of suggestions all around us trying to define who we are. But, I don't think one should define themselves. I am not going to define myself based on my actions and achievements, because by doing so I also have to define myself by my mistakes and failures. If I fail more times than I achieve does that make me a failure? What about thoughts and beliefs? Should someone define themselves by their views on life? I don't believe so because we are all wrong on one level or another. We are all ignorant. If we define ourselves by our beliefs or our "morals" and turn out to be wrong, what does that say about us? Does that mean we have been living a li
Shit Like That . Com...
Q: What to do when elderly  people tend to think you are ripping them off at the cash register? A: Smile and don't try to expalin anything...they still don't get it. Q: You work in a kitchen wares store and someone comes in and asks if you sell pot? A: Tell them to come back at 4:20 and ask again. Q: A man walks in with seven children and smiles big at you. Tries to ask you overly obvious answered questions to keep you talking to him. As he is ready to leave, walks up to you and says...his name and he has a 13 1/2 inch do you respond? A: Hi call me sit-n-spin, now where's your car parked at? Q: A male customer walks into your store, smells like heaven and looks like a god. What do you do? A: Go to the back room, apply your bib to catch the drool and when his back is turned....make all kinda goofy and sexual gestures while your boss is standing there talking to him. Always good for a laugh! Q: A bunch of tenny boopers come in your store completely unattended and trash
Madeline Mcann
  FIND MADELINE MACANN Gerry & Kate's Message: It is two long years since Madeleine was taken. It is two years since we were a happy family of five. The pain and anxiety does not lessen, but our determination to find our beautiful daughter remains steadfast. We are no longer looking for a 4 year old little girl – but a 6-year-old one. This is crucial. We are hoping that the new age-progressed image of Madeleine aged 6, produced by the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children in Washington, will help people to see what Madeleine may look like today disappeared, scientists create image of how she'd look now On May 7th at 9pm (UK time), a televised ‘reconstruction’ of potentially significant and suspicious events from around the time that Madeleine was taken will be aired on Channel 4 in Britain. Much of this information has not been disclosed to the general public before and it is apparent that there are several highly important unanswered questions r
Mother's Day Poem *snickers*
Mother's Day Poem   ---When me prayers were poorly said �Who tucked me in me widdle bed And spanked me till me ass was red, Me Mudder! �
What Eyes Color Do U Like
The eyes color i would go after is light blue and maybe brown but unstead of that nothing else. but would u go for in guys
Take A Chance On Me!
This guy is really sweet, He spoils me I know He will Spoil You! Love on him hard as HELL! Rate/Fan/Add/Bling Him! He returns all the love. Showing Him Love! From: Sn@zzyChic This guy is really sweet, He spoils me I know He will Spoil You! Love on him hard as HELL! Rate/Fan/Add/Bling Him! He returns all the love.Showing Him Love!Sn@zzyChic
Should I Just Give Up
  Should i just give up on everything that i tried so hard for seem's like no matter how hard i try i cant make anyone happy i try and do as much as i can to see other people happy i just want to give up on everything im tired of all the bs and drama i try and not let it get to me seem's like i was more happier in Azorina i did not have all this stress and bs like i got here in S.C tired of all the crap someone keeps hacking into my gf things and mine witch is making me loose all my trust in everything i tried so hard for maybe when i ever go on my vac. in june ill see what is best for me i apply for alaska king crab fishing they will be hiering at the end of june i really hope they pick me i just think i need to get away from all the stress bs and drama maybe it will make me feel better.
Nakita. Terror Of The Dog Park!
For those who know me well, know that I have a slight problem with my dog. For those of you who have dogs might know there's one of me in every dog park around the world. I got my beautiful pooch from the City pound when she was 6 months, she was so small and malnutritioned I figured I would name her something fierce and strong. So I choose to name her after a female assassin.. Nakita. At first Nakita was a sweet and gentle dog, she was carefree and lovable. Then after she hit her teenage years she has become the biggest bully of the park. I drive up to the dog park and as soon as I open the door my dog is out stalking her prey... Usually a Great Dane. She runs toward them hackles up and growling.... you might say I am a bad pet owner but Ive watched so many shows and yes ever Caesar.... I am that lady everyone laughs at, I am the lady who runs threw the park chasing after her little bitch.... hoping ot god she will listen just once. Hoping that she wont come close enough just to
Have You Ever Wondered? Ponderings Of A Pissed Off Old Lady!
Have you ever wondered, that with all the drama out in the real world, that we escape to the net, only to find and create more drama? Where is the fine line that each person draw's for reality and the "what if's" the internet creates for us?  Do you think that there is really a chance you can find happiness in the pants of another person you are talking to, via the net, who lives a half of a world away? Have you ever stopped, just sat back and realized that the interenet is the biggest meat market in the world? Do you really beleive the grass is greener on the other side of the fence? Will it truly taste sweeter after you realize that the grass is exaclty the same as what you left your pasture for? Do you ever think that maybe sometimes, we find that "special" someone out here in cyber space....and build them up to be someone they really aren't, then them up on a pedistal....if only in our own minds? Then to find out that they cannot be that person... they cannot live up to o
Mmmm Me
my  name is karri and i am from a small town in texas. i am a single mother of 2 beautiful little girls and i would not trade them for the world... i am not shy and i am out-spoken most of the time. i love all my friends and i will do anything for them. my happiness comes from helping others and thats what i do best.. i dont care what the problem is if you need to talk to someone you can trust i am here for you all if you need someone to vent to my ears are open and i will listen to you. i used to be in the navy and was discharged for my knees being so bad.. i only hope that my children will succeed more in life than i did. i dont have much else to say but if you wanna know more just ask and i will answer honestly.. love yall all... karri
The Rules For All Of Us Cullens For Our Fans
Something New
hey to all im new at this but it seems like it could be fun or aleast it will be when i figure out how to use everything here.
Help Me Decide Whats Right
i have a delemma,i use to go out of my way to help"friends" then i realized where are they when i need it a shoulder to lean on or just help leveling,and i decided most of them only know me when they want something.So i decided to stop putting it on the line for every friend that decides they need my some of them want my help again.yet ive been asking for help leveling for 5 monthes and its always the same 3 or 4 that come and rate my things to what should i do keep being mr.wonderful when its convienant for them or stick to my guns till they decide if im a good enough friend to have in there at the point i dont care anymore after monthes of being left behind cause im not in the hip or kewl crowd guess i just wish more of them treated me like i try to treat them.i dont know maybe just delete my account and move on life has got boring here in fuland anyways it's not the fun it use to be seems if you dont have bling to throw around nobody cares about ya
Light Angel Of White Wings
Oh white winged angel, thy appearance is pure but thy heart is wicked and cold.  Thy eyes show love, but thy intentions are cruel. Oh white winged angel, tell my why you hate when you should love, causing pain and not caring if they die. Oh white winged angel, why does your heart stay black, why do you hate your other half.   Where is your kindness and love, did someone steal it or did you throw it away. Oh white winged angel, why are you so angry, why do you wish to kill.  Where will that lead you, will you truly be happy. Oh white winged angel, does it hurt knowing you can never be, does it anger you that you can not be human. Oh white winged angel, let me ease your pain and anger.  Let me help you, let me heal you. Oh white winged angel, I am sorry for what has happened, I can love you, but I can’t heal you all the way.  I can’t grant your wish. Two halves of the whole, he can't live with you, you can't live without him. Two halves of the whole, f
Fubay Auction 2
I'm in the FuBay Auction 2 Auction. It starts May 3rd ends on May 10th. Come on by and make me your slave for a month. Auction Brought to by: ΤhΣ ßîg ΜîκΣ ™.. Salute Junkie.. Fu Married to SCOOBY-DOO
Dark Angel Of Black Wings
Oh black winged angel, take my hand and fly me away from this world, my living hell.   Break these chains and set my souls wings free. Oh black winged angel, pull away the bandages and let me see the world for the first time the way it should be seen. Oh black winged angel, steal my first kiss, and tell me the words that have never been told to me, the words that will save my frozen heart. Oh black winged angel, hold on to me tightly and don’t let go.  Your kindness melts the pain.  Don’t leave me behind, while you go off on your own. Oh black winged angel, take me with you so we may soar through the stars together while the rest of the world is dark. Oh black winged angel, the one who has a wise soul, but a young heart.  I gave you the power of my destruction. Oh black winged angel, where are you my lovely angel?  Can you hear me?  I miss you so, I understand now, and always did. Two halves of the whole, he can be you, but you can never be him. Two
Pain In The Face Part Two!
So i went to the dentist today to fix my tooth.. and now my face is hurting worse... I was at the dentist 3 hours... and had the maximum amount of novacaine... that means i had over 20 shots in my mouth.... and now the novacaine is wearing off (almost 4 hours later and i am still numb and swollen....) and i can feel every shot spot....   I am hurting again.. and I have to go to work soon... can i cry now?
the great mystic Theresa of Avila once said "Our lives are always at a major crossroad..when something ends, another thing begins"...that very line alone is a profound truth Last week I arrived here ending months full of drama and much unneeded stress..and now a very well-deserved period of relaxation and rejuvenation begins.. On the saturday that I arrived here, a very welcoming presence enveloped me and I felt at peace, even though this place isnt exactly to my liking... "Why dont you come see me, and lay your head on my lap?" believe me...I will. and keep that space available for me..please.  
Music From My Band In The Chaos On Myspace
My band and I have uploaded two songs on our Myspace music page and if you would like to hear them please vist enjoy and let me know what you think!
wishes i looked sexier sighssssssssssssss
Shhhh...don't Tell A Soul............
BUT....... this guy is having a birthday this go show him some special fu love!!!   Just don’t tell I sent you.....LOL!!   Emanon~~Forever Fake~~Father of The Fallen Ones@ fubar
Stupid Cunts And The Internet (part 2)
Since they're paying attention as I can clearly see in another post ...   The ass hurt slag has a gallery! We're Fu-Famous  *LOL     At least she posted my good side LOL AWwwww..poor thing..   Love me, hate me, either way you think of me you stupid cunt :) The fact that you're easy prey makes me giggle like a little girl. You're a fucking victim.  
Rough Mothers Day For Me...plz Read!!
Well as we all know mothers day is coming up and i hate that day since i don't have my son who is now 15 and its one of the hardest days of my life and i am just looking for some support right now so if anybody would like to chat with me it would definetly be appreciated and i could use it.
Going Outta Business Sale!!!
i put together a few zine grab bags & i have one more riot grrrl zine grab bag left over! i am officially retiring from zines so get 'em while you can!!! :) Etsy Buy Handmade mrsnoggle
The Book Of Cecilia
Cecilia wasn't sure of her future. Only her past was a present thought. She knew that the end of her marriage wasn't the end of her life, but the cold, dead space inside her begged to differ. Her Ex was a great guy. Good provider, sweet to the point of relationship-diabetes, and a natural father. Problem was, he was vanilla in bed. Not even French vanilla (Oh god Frenchmen know how to use their tongues!)just plain...ol'....vanilla. This was ok in the beginning. Both of them had previous experience and it was a heady time for them both. As time progressed, kids were born, and the sex became stale. Same moves...same times...same everything. She had tried to lure him out from under his sexual "rock" that he was hiding under, but nothing worked it seemed. He resisted all efforts to spice up ANYTHING in the relationship.   Finally, counseling. The counselor saw them both for six weeks, then issued his proclamation. "You two are seperate entities. As such, you've grown in opposite directio
I'm having one of those days where if everyone around me doesn't stop breathing soon I may just scream until my friggin' head explodes.  Every little noise is like nails on a chalkboard. I can't handle this stay at home gig, I just can't. Lord knows what it'll make me do. I'll end up splashed across the new channels....Who knows...     addendum:   why do douche bags with whom you've talked to for 5 minutes assume you're going to run out, find a babysitter and go hump his brains out?
Trypp Shit Needs Bling
Trypp-Shyt-R/L BF to kuntylette-Co Owner/DJ@Psycho Asylum@ fubar   He is making my life hell until he gets these juggalo blings. I'm doing fam adds and salutes. The person who gets there will also get my yim and cam time [sfw].   please end my misery lol. i just want him happy :p hes cool as fuck! i promise!
Stupid Cunts And The Internet
Hey all :P   As of late I have been enjoying the Mumms  alot  *LOL* It never suprizes me that some people just take that shit way too fucking serious.HELL-O its the fucking internet. Sense of humor needed ya know.Hell if you can't laugh at yourself youhave a serious problem. But the level of asshurt individuals is really getting deep...we're talk hip wader deep. Some are going as far as taking things out on individuals and making it personal. Well when you do that I get a bit pissy and tend to do something about it. Regular Mummers have seen this cunt   Mouthy one I tell ya LOL For a person who claims to not care she sure blows alot of steam. Honey that bus ticket offer is still open..I'll buy it, you come get some. Can't promise I'll leave much though. They'll be able to use a mop to clean your pathetic ass up.   And this moron   Had the nerve to say shit to people then get OMG hurt feelings that made her go on and on well into the next day.. She called me ugly  L
Seems I Am Not Allowed To Ask Questions
Its sad when you cant even ask your family members questions with out them getting pissy with you. My middle son Christian whos 22 got pissy with me cause I wanted to know why my oldest son Derek whos 26 is always the first to be laid off when there is a shortage of work. He said in a very low tone,  cause he was hired for re barb and none has come in yet.  I said I understand that but he is I am sure smart enough to do other things at the shop. He went on to say that only a few are working.  That he could be called back tomorrow or next week.  Well all well and good how ever if he was to be laid off for a few weeks say so then he can apply for UI until more work is available. Lets just say he made dam sure I knew he wasnt happy that I stuck my nose in. Thing is ,  I come from a very disfunctional family and I swore if I had family they would look out for one another,  and help out if they could. Well guess I didnt do so good huh!  My middle son thinks more of him self since he g
Remeber This?good Song!!
Under Her Desk
I started off this morning in a very bad mood. I like to enjoy my coffee and sit alone for an hour.. well my driver being somewhat of a twit locked herself out of the van for the second time in 24 hours... I grumbled a lot while walking out the door.....   To my surprise when I came back, my lovely Witty had offered to hide me under her desk. I graciously accepted only to find I wasn't the only one under her desk..... Its getting slightly crowded under there and I'm wondering If i should move out or start growling at people who come into my corner space.. My beef on a thursday Wicked
All She Wants Is...............
   A Fu-King St@lker..... So please.....someone help her out!!! @ fubar“z G¥þ§¥ “z™
Do You Twitter?
Is that site any good? It seems pretty neat. I don't know if a lot of my friends are on there though. So, do you Twitter? Give me some feedback on it.
Cowboys & Cowgirls
In The Arms Of An Angel
imikimi - Customize Your World!   Such a wonderful mother, wife and friend.  I couldn't have asked for a better mother.  Sweetest lady ever.  Miss her so much and can't believe she's gone.  Don't know what I'm gonna do wothout her. Will forever be in my heart.
The Smiths !!hooligan!!!">
For all those who may have some concerns....DONT PANIC!!!! I have been told ts perfectly safe!! namaste ;) x
Tonight 21.00 Hrs Uk 7/05/2009
This was sent to me by a good friend. TY for the unconditional love and support! I can almost see itThat dream I'm dreaming butThere's a voice inside my head sayin, You'll never reach it, Every step I'm taking, Every move I make feelsLost with no directionMy faith is shaking but IGot to keep tryingGot to keep my head held highThere's always going to be another mountainI'm always going to want to make it moveAlways going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's The ClimbThe struggles I'm facing, The chances I'm takingSometimes they knock me down butNo I'm not breakingI mean I know itBut these are the moments thatI'm going to remember most yeahJust got to keep goingAnd I, I got to be strong[ The Climb lyrics from ]Just keep pushing on, There's always going to be another mountainI'm always going to want to make it moveAlways going to be an uphill battle,
Tired Of The Bs
I have not been around much lately as I have been trying to find work. It's not easy when the economy is crap. I don't know what happened to all the "friends" that I made on here and were talking to or txting almost everyday? I don't seem to find this site fun anymore. I can't seem to get any help to what's the point? I was and am depending on the time I have to help out others...and have done so in the past. If you don't want to talk to me anymore then fine...Yes it will hurt but if that's the way that you all feel then I am a big girl and can handle it.  I am very sorry if it's come to this. Seems that it has and so there you are. I walk away shrugging my shoulders...It's all I can do.
Somebody Fuckin Shoot Me...
So... a couple of months ago I was out with my parents at their local watering hole, sippin a drink and feelin fine. The evening progressed and I got drunk. This was the time that my mother chose to ask me if I wanted to go and see Sydney Devine with her. WHO THE FUCK IS SYDNEY DEVINE? I hear you ask. Well, he's a kind of Scottish country and western Elvis type guy. I'll post an example of his 'singing' in a comment. So... I'm drunk and I'm like 'sure mum, we don't do enough shit together, I'll go with you, it'll be a laugh'. And my dad's like 'son, it's Sydney Devine, you used to cry when your mother played that shit to you when you were a child'. But, I'm drunk, I want to make my mother happy, so I'm like 'yeah, dad, I'm sure, are you going?' To which my father replied 'fuck no'. Anyway, I'd forgotten about this shit until about ten minutes ago when I got a text from my mother which says "hi son, i hope you're looking forward to seeing Sydney tomorrow night, i'll see you at about
'ello N Stuffs
My son is ill today,  I'm getting a late start. Good news, I think I got the hotel...*still keeping fingers crossed until bid is signed* AND I finally got off my ass and got my domain registered and web hosting going on... Bad news, no bling pack money :( sorry people..may be awhile before I can bling again... but, in the long run...this will work out to be way way way more better :D hehe I'll keep family posted on how the website is developing... ♥ most of you. PosTaL um..holy wow..ok, now I can bling againLOL!thanks!!psst...someone gave me a bling pack..what a nice person huh??  
Many Thanks~
I thought I would take advantge of this blog thing by saying Thank~You to all who took the time to send so much love and kyndness for my birthday. Out here in the real world I have a small circle of family and phrends that love me. In the fu-world I got a country full of family and phrends! So Right On to you all! ~Peace~
Thats What Im Talkin Bout
*Not My Kinda Guy*I would never date a  flamer or mr sister for friends maybe luv interest hell no they need not apply,cant stand them.All i have to say on that is slowly step away from the mirror and drop the lip gloss come on already boys we're gay not girls oh here's a big secret u might not have realized no matter how much maybeline you put on you will still have a dick and this is not for the people who feel like they should have been born the oppositte sex,this is for all you 70 pound Victoria Beckham look alikes wearing half tshirts they stole from there baby sisters who are in grade school sorry sweety hannah montana just doesnt work for yah and stopping wearing glitter please your not a fairy princess.*My Kinda Guy*I prefer straight acting men a smartass the kinda guy you dont know if u wanna deck him or fuk his brains out for beng a smartass.A man who is very active in sports kinda a daredevil but can also have a very calm and collective side who could just be content with re
The Moonlit Garden
Moonlit Garden Seeing you bathed within the pale moonlight like some Greek goddessClaiming the fragile beauty within the lunar waves with a flavor all your ownThat leaves me assured even Aphrodite's gaze is through jade tinted pupilsSerenity itself, surely is becoming intertwined within the syllables of your nameI. however, remain hidden off in the forlorn shadows of the treesThe lusty gaze in my murky brown eyes, glazed over with a hint of fantastical illusionQuietly wishing I could see your lips formed in a tight, yet innocent smileGazing down upon me, while I indulge myself in sweet ambrosial liquidsOf a distinct, yet indescribable sweetness, such a heavenly flavor....I return to reality long enough to realize the cold and harshness of truthSuch amazing beauty shall never waste her time with a savage beastRegardless, I'm still hidden amongst the trees watching you within your gardenAs your eyes slowly drape lower, waiting to enter the realm of dreamsPerhaps its in bold futility I
Edward Cullen-let Me Sign
In The Starlight
The darkest moments stand before meWhispering unto the moon my secretsMidnight colored waters kissing my toesThe refreshing taint of the sea on my nostrilsCrucified within the stolen starlightKilled myself for all the world to seeThe nails now loosening their gripFinger-tips slipping away from death's embraceWithin broken dishes and a battered egoNo more are these to be places to hideThough memories remain, scars fresh on my mindReminding me of when I laughed in the reaper's faceThe ashes of a heart burnt blacker than my skyScattered what's left of it on darker wavesLooked into the heavens, and no longer fearedAs I saw nothing but another endless oceanEmbraceing the mild glow of the starlightWeeping silently at the sight of this holy giftI knew the time had to celebrate my chanceJust to be here, alive and breatheing
Y@y Me!!!
I got the house I wanted!!!! I will be moving in about a month!!! Y@Y ME!!!!!
Vermillion Where once I saw only black and white a rainbow of colors sprouts nowSpiraling around my frame, I open my eyes to see clearlyTired of walking in the shadows, I let them crawl across my skinAs I recall them one at a time, resurrect the memory withinWith the gentle kiss of a razor blade, I show you the color I painted my skyNot at all black or grey, not even the slightest hint of blueI painted it in vermillion, the most familar shade of mortalityPerhaps out of the feebleness of a depressed mind to graspThat my beloved vermillon is the color of love too.A twisted sort of duality, perhaps a symbol not meant to be understoodYet it seems appropriate that I painted the sky with my blood
Na Na Na Na
Hey Hey Hey   Goood bye   Ok, just giving you all a heads up I am official moving today.  I don't know when I will be on the internet again.   If you wanna talk though feel free to text my number [dont call it though you cheeky bastards >_>] 219-730-9595 I'll try and be back A.S.A.P.
Lets See...caffeine
Gotta give a shout out to Monster JAVA.....this sh't is just frickin AWESOME....gotta love it. Three hrs. of sleep and three JAVA's an' I'm ready ta party like a f'ckin rock star baby!!! Seriously the people at Monster are diabolical geniuses
Check Out Demonik
sup boys and girls.yep im hottstuff's roomate,going to school for photography and hottstuff is my practice dummy lol jk well sorta anyone looking for photos to be done check me out and drop me a line peace out.
Eyes On Fire-i Love You Edward
Probably Nothing By Red Wanting Blue
It's not a relationship; it's an arrangement It's not what you say, and it's how you said it shame on me, shame on me for opening up with my eyes shut   here i go again, another lesson... my means to an end have been exhausted shame on you, it's my fault too for never addressing this question and i know this is not what you wanna hear yeah, i know that you want what you fear but i'm saying it now, saying it now what i've never said before and bring my knees to the floor but i'm saying it now, saying it now what you never hear out of my mouth, i'm saying it   i find myself reading horoscopes, looking for some kind of hope so i don't wanna hear why you wanna stay here and i'll never regret making this statement 'cause i know this is not what you wanna hear yeah i know that you want what you fear to say but i'm saying it now, saying it now what i've never said before and bring my knees to the floor but i'm saying it now, saying it now what you never hear out of my m
I'm wondering what would happen if I marked my baghead default pic as NSFW. Would they remove it and warn me? Should I make a mumm to help me decide?
Asshats Abound...
Due to a serious amount of petty psychotic page has been set to friends only as well as my shoutbox. no  one can randomly come rate me or talk to me. Just so one person isn't allowed to play his stupid game. Don't worry..his words aren't what gets to me. It's the number of times I have to block a different profile to keep him away from me. Last time he had a hard on for this crap he included my top friends. I hope he didn't do this again. so there's my 3rd blog in 24 hours hahaha coffee time :)
New Fu-owned Rules
New fu-Owned rules: # Starting now, all fu-Owned expirations will reimburse the previous owner by the percent listed below (See: "Reimbursement to old owner (when expired)") FU OWNED # The maximum ownership time has been cut in half! fu-Owned purchases made before Thursday May 7 2009 will still expire in 30 days. Purchases made after this date will expire in 14 days!
Ffm 1st Ever Auction! Come Pick A Juicy One!
New Poem...let Me Know What U Think
Deep down my heart is breaking It gets worse every day I sit here alone shaking Remembering the good days I try not to cry I try to be stong But it doesnt last long My life has been nothing but a lie Deep down my heart is dying As I sit here crying Trying to believe in something But something always turns into nothing I try to remember what it feels like to be happy But I get lost in pain My life is full of shame Deep down my heart is screaming Just waiting to be free
April Sucked!!
Wanna say hey to everyone!! I was in the hospital for a couple days, had a gallbladder attack, so they did surgery and removed it. I was havin alot of pain for awhile, but now that Ive had the surgery I do feel alot better!! I quit smokin!! I had a few on easter at my moms, she came over one day and I took 1 off her, and last weekend I went out for a couple hours and had a couple then, but other then that I havent had any!! So I think Im doin really good with the whole smokin thing!!  I cant believe how much this place changes everytime I log on something is new! Anywho I cant stay long, but I wanted to say hey to yall and I do hope yall are doin good!! I still dont think ill get on here much, but if you wanna keep in touch with me let me know and ill give ya my myspace or email address. Still wont be everyday, but it will be more often then it is here. Yall take care and i do hope to catch yall sometime soon!! Lots of licks and spanks to all my friends!! xoxo
Update for those of you who give a shit. My doc finally started me on a pain management maybe I will not be so grouchy and cunty all the time..unlikely but maybe. Also kidneys seem to be in remission...the only active disease is the musculoskeletal and neurological.   But...YAY!! For morphine ;)    
Anyone Want To Make A Salute For Me?
taking personal saltues....any takers???
"your Special"
Not Big On The Music But The Artworks Ok
Friend Passed Away.
So I get to work yesterday morning and I found out that a coworker of mine who actually is a childhood friend I got a job for, his nephew hung himself. He was 15 years old and was living in an abusive home. It shattered my world. I couldn't work or eat. I just sat and thought about life. I feel so bad for the mother. She also works at my job as a receptionist. Her babies father had custody of the child and he had a wife who was very abusive to the child. The kid felt that was his only way out of the situation because the judge wouldn't grant custody to the mother for whatever reason. So it's just a sad day.
blah blah blah goin for spotlight. blah blah blah need help with fu funds. blah blah blah any amount will be great! blah blah blah my nose wont stop running. blah blah blah big thanks in advance!   love your friendly neightbourhood PK err KP..w/e!.   later days!
Just Me
ok so here i am just me. i am not what people think i am. i am a quiet individual who is honest and true about what she means. alot of people seem to think that if your out going and your loud and obnoxious that you have all that self confidence. well thats not me. i maybe loud and my personallity may shine like the sun. but in all reality, i am this quiet little mouse that sits in the corner and waits until someone notices her and ask her to join in and then i come out of my shell. until then i just sit back and i am real quiet. those of you who know me best know this. i am honest when someone asks me a question that i want to answer and if i dont want to answer it i just will ignore you till you go but hey its all in good fun sometimes just being me. I never thought i would get as far as i would get today in this world. and to be honest i never should have made it past 16. but someone or something was watching out for me and made sure i made it to this age that i am now. My
My Heart Craves.......
Your Heart Craves Love You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
The First Step In Recovery...
My daughter and sister were shopping the other night. Apparently,money,fubar and I came up in a conversation. =/ dies. The amount of money I have spent was a great topic. My sister informed my daughter that I was an idiot,which is her way of being loving. :-) Shelby concured as normal. In the car last night Shelby and I are talking about this and I said "yes,I am an idiot,but it's my money and I can spend it when and how I want" You really have to know my daughter. She said "admiting your such an idiot is the first step in recovery,great job mom! You can see what the problem is and fix it from there" She has got to stop reading books!
Joke Of The Day
A cowboy walks into a bar in Wyoming and takes a seat next to a very attractive woman. He gives her a quick glance then causally looks at his watch for a moment. The woman notices this and asks, 'Is your date running late?'   'No', he replies, 'I just got this state-of the-art watch, and I was just testing it.'   The intrigued woman says, 'a state-of-the-art watch?'   'What's so special about it?'   The cowboy explains, 'It uses alpha waves to talk to me telepathically.'   The lady says, 'What's it telling you now?   'Well, it says you're not wearing any panties.   'The woman giggles and replies 'Well it must be broken because I am wearing panties!'   The cowboy smiles, taps his watch and says,   'Damn thing's an hour fast.'
Submission Part 1
Was a beautiful night with the moon casting a glow upon the road. Long work week  has me wired tight, so close to lashing out . But instead I bottle it all up . The demands seemed so intense. You must of sensed something was wrong to call me a few days later with your mysterious invitation . All you would say is read the cards and do not call me . You  had me laughing at that comment . So here I am driving alone at night heading to a place I never heard of , to follow your card . Have to admit seeing the rose and note on door had me a lil worried was this from you or a stalker . Yes , I was tempted to call you and ask is this from you . But a part of me said , "What the hell " . The air is so nice its like a gentle caress along my skin . Lifting my hair up and cooling off my hot neck . The area seems secluded beautiful scenery is picked up with my headlights . You have me all curious now . Pulling up to a black wrought iron gate , very goth , which you know would intrigue me even more
The Journey Begins - The Arival
I try not to remember the past The City the good times the bad the mistakes but it is hard late at night the thoughts the memories creep back in. I still remember the First day I arrived in San Francisco that Feb morning in 1977 I dont really remember the bus ride to get ther but I do remember the City. Getting off the bus and standing in the new city with just my backpack and the 700 dollars to start my new life. The air was crisp and dry the city seemed so strange to me then. I had come across the country to begin anew to excape the drab cold world I had left behind to meet up with a dear friend who had made the journey months earilier to find her sexual freedom. I was coming to find her as much as to start a new adventure the trouble the two of us casused back east was legend but she had journeyed to seek her freedom and she had beckoned me to come to the Promised Land of San Francisco. Trully I was sure this was the land of oppurtunity where I was sure a man could be anything. I w
Dell Sucks!
So, many of you know I've had problems with my laptop since I've gotten it. It's now to the point of no return. For those of you who don't know, new friends and blog stalkers, I'll give you a run down of everything that's went wrong with this thing since I've gotten it. Keep in mind that I've had it 13 months. 1. Within 2 days of having it the DVD/CD drive popped open on its own. 2. The keys on my laptop would stick, so I was sent a new keyboard that I had to replace. 3. My webcam is messed up. It looks like I'm in a room full of smoke. The lense and cover have been cleaned and it's still doing it. 4. The laptop stopped reading my memory card. They sent a tech here and they replaced my mother board. 5. While the tech was here, he noticed that the DVD/CD drive was bent in the back. 6. He asked me if it was refurbished. Said I had a screw missing and others were lose. He replaced the missing screw and tightened the others. [ive never had it apart until then]
Wanting Some Morphs Made
I would like a couple of morphs made if you make them and are interested in fubux please PM me with the cost and I will give you the pics I wants made for the morp.  Thanks for reading and hope to hear from you soon!
Beautful Day
It is a beautful day! I luv everyday!
First Auto 11 Party!!! Bombing As Well!!!!!
OMG So I will be running my first auto 11 and cherry bomb this Saturday!!! So what I want you guys to do is let me know if you will be running auto 11s on Saturday so I can bomb you!!!! (must have a folder with atleast 250 pictures plz). Also I would love for all of your support and rate my pictures for my auto 11!!! I am going to see what I can pull together for some rewards for the high raters!!! So get ready for the bombings and the autos Saturday!!!! I should be running my autos around 10 am futime and I am hoping to start bombing around 11 or 12 futime!!! So if you are interested in getting bombed just leave me a comment here :)! Luv ya guys!!!!!!!   P.S. I am also trying to get a blast for Saturday, so if you can help me out either pm me or sb me!!! I am willing to pay fubux!!! Please help me out guys!!!!! :D
Moments In Time
The only real time is this moment all others do not exist. I believe we should live in the current moment as much as possible it is really the only time we have any control over. I understand trying to escape from the current moment for various reasons but I think it should be a concious effort and not the norm. I understan that the current moment can be so terrible that we must escape it. The past are just memories and the future are just dreams and both are fanasties. By not living in the current moment we tend to avoid things. Put off decisions and tend not to deal with the realities facing us. To dwell in the past is to be among ghosts and memories that may not be as good or bad as we think they were. To dwell in our dreams of the the future is to deny the present for the hope of the future that may never be. Promises and expectations of what is to come are not real and cannot be kept. No one really knows what tomorrow will bring and cannot promise any action or thought beyond the
(touching Poem)dont Drink And Drive">Don't Drink and Drive Poem... Sad Touching, and Says It All. -">Funny bloopers R us
Fake Salutes R Us Part 2
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Fake Salutes R Us Part 2 (the Bust)
A few weeks ago I blogged about how Bre and Cardinal Girl both had fake salutes with the same font. you can see that blog here: In a bunch of Bre's photos she's wearing a nameplate necklace. However the name on the necklace doesn't say Bre..It says Maejen. This is a photo that "Bre" has uploaded to her profile: This is the REAL photo: You can google maejen amelio and find tons of photos and profiles of hers. Here's her myspace: and her facebook:
Morning Thinking
Last night, while I was waiting for my laptop to get fixed, which it really didn't. I think it's worse now, I seen some car advertisment on the television. On the bottom it said, "Professional driver. Closed course, Do not attempt". I've seen that before, but I've never really thought about it. Here it is.... Did the car advertisments always have that warning, or did some stupid ass really think that their car could do anything? Also, how does one become a "professional driver"?
Blue Moon Grand Opening
Girls Stay Awayfrom This One
Ghost_writter2000 is nothing more then a lier and cheat. He tryed to play me and two of my friends and got cought all three times. He will tell you what you want to hear as long as you are tell ing him what he wants . He will make promisses that he will not keep. HE is nothing more then a preditor .... Head my warnings .. stay away from this one ...   Dont want a nothe woman to get hurt again from HIM
Few Things Just Created
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Ther True Amazing Grace!
T Guess what it,s certainly not me! But it is GOD,S GRACE AND MERCY upon us his creation! And That,s GOOD NEWS folks. You see the Bible is a book about sin. But it,s also about the GRACE of God that continues to seek us out desite our sins. King David sinned,the disciples sinned,even Moses sinned. I wonder how Moses felt after his sins. Surely after killing the Egytian Moses must have thought his life was ruined. Consider how he responded later to God,s call: He said "Who Am I that they would believe"? I can so easily relate to his self-doubts and reluctance. I have sinned, as I would guess you have too,however God does not abandon us. He instead has provided a remedy for the burdens we carry because of our sins. How? He overrules SIN with MERCY! GOD returns to us the same as he did to Moses and King David and all the other people and he re-commissions us. In God,s sight we are still precious , though WE may feel unworthy. But in actuality, Our Past mistakes will become s
Twilight: Ultimate Collector's Set Blu-ray Review Amazon's Exclusive Release Will Please Serious 'twilight' Fans. Reviewed By Martin L
   What if I'm not the hero. What if I'm the bad guy? Author Stephenie Meyer's Twilight is a phenomenon. It's big. Really big. Harry Potter big? Maybe not quite, but it's huge. Never heard of it?  Ask a high school girl. Chances are she's been lugging around a well-worn copy of the book for months, perhaps even toting one or two or three of its sequels along for the ride. "Edward" has replaced the name of that oh-so-handsome boy sitting across the cafeteria when it comes time to gossip about the latest relationships; "Bella" is the kind of girl that would make for such a great friend; and "Vampire" now means more than a black-and-white Bela Lugosi gazing into living rooms around the world. It's a hit, all right, and when a mega-property finds itself the object of affection of the teenage girl community, a movie can't be far behind. Indeed, Twilight is now a major motion picture, and a surprisingly good one at that. It's far better than one might expect, given not the popularity of th
May Peace Find You Tonight
May Peace Find you Tonight - song by Reckless Kelly May peace find you tonightlike a breeze through your window,sit by your light.Let it warm by your fire,and laugh with delight.Like a heavenly choirmay peace find you tonightYou've got your God -- Sister, I've got mineAnd I know he's out there somewhere; he bails me out sometimesAnd I've always believed, but sometimes I question the truthall the proof that I need is the love that I found in youMay peace find you tonightlike a breeze through your window,sit by your light.Let it warm by your fire,and laugh with delight.Like a heavenly choirmay peace find you tonightMay your soul reunite with the one that you lost long agoMay a troublesome heart be a feeling you'll never knowMay your spirit be free as a wind on the wings of a doveMay your heart know the way loud and clear, like a voice from aboveMay peace find you tonightlike a breeze through your window,sit by your light.Let it warm by your fire,and laugh with delight.Like a heavenly ch
The Game Of Life
In My Heart.
I'll give you the key. I'll open the door willingly. I'll let you see what's within. Step inside. Travel through the chambers, each locked, Each holding a piece of me, A piece of you. Try to find your way through, I know it's a bit cluttered, sorry for the mess. Discover what's behind every door, Find what's in every drawer. Make yourself at home... Sounds funny to say, because in a way, you already live here. Don't be afraid of the dark room down the hall, That's where I keep my secrets, Where my guilt intensifies. And that room with all the books? Each page is filled with my regrets. You can read each and every one of them, be my guest. You might wonder, Why I have shelves upon shelves of what seems to be water. But it's not, Those are my tears, Collected over the years. If you happen to come across a treasure chest, Lift the lid carefully, and you will see what is precious to me, My friends,family...and most importantly you. Once you've seen all there is to see, Pleas
What The Fuck Was Bob Talking About?
I had wondered for years.  I mean, catchy but bothersome.  What the fuck was Bob talking about?  He’s dead.  I can’t ask him.  I’ll never know.  But, fuck, somewhere, someone must know what the fuck he’s talking about.  All codes are cracked.  Enigma.  Algebra.  This one too.    Finally, I saw a movie.  Two guys wondered the same thing.  I knew I wasn’t alone.  This question had plagued man (probably not woman) since Bob first wrote it and THEY had an answer.  Each one a different one.  One of them was good.  That’s it!  From the grave, Bob was speaking to me!  Suddenly, it was clear!   I finally got it!    Two days later I visited the chiropractor’s office and excitedly shared with Rion my new discovery.  “Since the first time I heard the song ‘No Woman, No Cry’ I wondered what the fuck it meant.  I’ve always wanted to know what Bob Marley was talking about and I finally got it!  The other day I was watching a mov
Maybe God Wants Us To Meet A Few Wrong People
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.Don't go for looks; they
Yesterday I Met A Stranger...
Yesterday I met a stranger... Today this stranger is my friend. Had I not taken the time to say hello, or return a smile, or shake a hand, or listen, I would not have known this person. Yesterday would have turned into today and our chance meeting would be gone. Yesterday I hugged someone very dear to me. Today they are gone... and tomorrow will not bring them back. Wouldn't it be nice if we all knew tomorrow would be here? But we don't, so take the time TODAY to give a hug, a smile, an "I love you"...   JUST FOR TODAY, at a stranger...listen to someone's heart...drop a coin where a child can find it...learn something new, then teach it to someone...tell someone you're thinking of them...hug a loved one...don't hold a grudge...don't be afraid to say "I'm sorry"...look a child in the eye and tell them how great they are...don't kill that spider in your house, he's just lost so show him the way out...look beyond the face of a person into their heart...make a promise, and kee
This Dream
I lay here and dream of what we could be. As one we could become and let no one get in our way. With love for one another that can not be imagined.  We could walk on this earth with only each other. I dream this dream and it comes straight from the heart. If it comes true we will never be apart. Our love will only grow with each passing day. A beautiful love which will never fade away.  I will do all I can to show you love strong and true. To let you know that my heart belongs to you. I dream this dream of how happy we could be, be but I don’t know if you love me. I just pray that one day this dream will be reality! Poem by Tammy C.
The Bitch
Where to start. I have been thinking about this all night and still really cant think of what to say. I guess i will just start with, do i look as gullible  as everyone seems to think. I always mean what i say, why cant others. I have been beat down, knocked out, spit on, and my heart ripped out more times then i can count, but i have always come back. It makes me a stronger person yes, but at what cost. I feel that the more and more life keeps throwing me curve balls i hit them, but a piece of me always dies with it. I find myself growing colder every day. Yes, no matter what i will make it, I'll always be here, strong, confident, strong minded, but cold. I don't want to be cold. I have never known true love, but I have loved and lost and had my heart also ripped out of my chest a few times and fucked with a lot. So what I'm saying is I don't know true love, but i know love. Queen Elizabeth never married. She never needed a man to help her or be with her. Then again she did have somet
"three Day Silence"
My wife has not spoken to me in three days. I think it has something to do with what happened on Sunday night when she thought she heard a noise downstairs. She nudged me and whispered, "Wake up, wake up!" "What's the matter?" I asked. "There are burglars in the kitchen. I think they're eating the tuna casserole I made tonight." "That'll teach them!" I replied. 
Story Time
I wrote a true erotic story and got published.  Jill Jill's Erotic Story
Fast Twitch
I wanted to tell you a joke that didn't use my life as the punchline but it was the only one I knew. I remember writing secret messages.Codes for the words and syllablesif you counted em out there was a numberthat number corresponded to a letterthat letter spelled a sentence sometimesIneedtogetoutofherehelphelpshestoppedlovingme crawling sprawling scrawled little cries for attention, and sometimes legitimate pleas. Sometimes it was the third capitalized letter, sometimes it was the only capitalized letter or just a simple downward column. It's fun.It would trick the reader if they ever saw it.It would trick me into thinking there was more there. ... Wanna try one? Alright.... Summer was the most cruel. October delivers us from the heat, delivers us pleasant smells, orange leaves, strangers that smile to us on damp streets. Mostly I just keep to myself, my hands in my coat, eyes on my shoes. Except every once in a while... I bump into a phantom. This could be an old friend lo
Holy Crap!!! Im Goin On Vacation!
yep...louisiana.... doin new orleans...  its gonna be siiiick!   rp
Fairy Tales
 Cinderella is spinning on the bedroom  floor. She's got a crush on the guy at the liquor store. Mr charming doesn't come home any more. She forgets why she came here.  Snow white is all doped up  on mood stabilizers. The dwarfs never  do a damn thing around the house. She forgets what freedom tastes like.  Sleeping Beauty has 50 gallon bags under her eyes. Mr. Charming dosent  touch her anymore. Hes got better things to do. She forgets what lust feels like.
A Beautiful Soul
I see inside your beautiful soul A piece of Heaven And if I can share in even a part of that beauty Even just a little piece Than I am more complete I'm not sure if my heart is big enough To love you near enough But I will spend to my last breath trying And I will be happy,every second of the way. Poem by Tammy C.
Make It Apparant You Like Him ....or Chill
I Smoke To Stay Sane Read To Find Out Why
I have recently received several lectures on why I shouldn't smoke. I know smoking is bad for me and some day when I am ready I will quit. To be honest I have only been smoking for a little over Two years. The fact that I haven't been smoking longer with all that has happened in my life in the last 3 year is a miracle in itself. I don't drink party or do any drugs that are not prescribed for me lol. Smoking is my one vice and it's the one that keeps me sane. A summarized laundry list of events that have happened in my life in the last 3 years you will find below. When you are done reading tell me if you wouldn't be at least tempted to take a puff or two off a cigarette from time to time. * Left my abusive husband after 10 years of marriage* Fell In Love For The First Time Ever* Had my Heart Broke By The Same Love * Started a New Job As A Trainer * Lost over 50 pounds Shedding Years Of Depression at the same time.* Was Torn Between My Friend and My Brother In a Bitter Second Divorce* W
My Strokes *updated*
07 May 2009
Unnecessary are my words in the end.
While scrolling through the mums this morning ,  I came upon two that ask the question of why people hate in here. Althought I am not to sure, I can only assume and make my own opinon as to why. Some are inscure and are struggling to be noticed.  Some are just wanna be adults who cant seem to find their way thus have to act like kids on a school ground. These indivduals get off trying to attempt to put others down,  rate them a 1 which btw has no affect on me cause I really dont give a flip. These juvinile pathectic people who try their best to upset someones life are really not worth commenting to . Your feeding into their dramma,  dont even bother.  You get more of a pay back when you dont cause that pisses them off even more.  They  arent able to get to you and upset your day. Like I told the two mummers,  just consider the source and move on. This is my thoughts for this mornings
Midlife Crisis
i need some help!, anyone have any advice on how to handle your better half when their going through midlife crisis. its killin me slowly and hurting our family.i feel so alone in this.he has pushed his family away,  he has cheated,lied,started drinking.seem's like he hates his kids..he make's excuses why he doesnt have time to talk. he make's time for everyone else except for his family. (including the person he having an affair with).he will lie to me and tell me he's gonna do paper work and i find out different,he turns his cell off when he's at her house. god what do i do? im tired of cryn everynight.please help me :(
The Day I Met Rutger Haur
Was a day like any other. I was staying in the same hotel I am at now. I had a scottish freind who worked at the sheratin hotel's skylounge right next to the Schipol international airport. There was like a 10 foot long conference table. I was at the top right ith my 17inch laptop plugged in drinking beers and espressos. Playing diablo II lord of destruction no less. I am not even really paying attention. I look up and there across the tbale is an old guy with white hair and 4 aribians guys on hos side of the table and an empty chait to my left and a couple guys in buisnesssuits at the two end chairs. I look up cause my beer was getting low and notice these guys. So I endup sittin there blabbling away being myself and talkin with these guys. And I am thinking this guy sure looks like rutger haur. So I endup talking with these guys like an hour or so and I head to the bar and order a beer and espresso. My scottish freind and you have to imgine this ina scottish brougue says "man! ya know
Books Read In 2009
The Templar Revelations – Lynn Picknett and Clive Prince   The Adventures of Felix Gomez – Mario Acevedo -          The Nymphos of Rocky Flats -          X-rated Bloodsuckers -          The Undead Karma Sutra -          Jailbait Zombie   Ghost Rider – Neil Peart   A Study of Communism – J. Edgar Hoover   The Art of War – Niccolo Machiavelli   All Quiet on the Western Front – Erich Maria Remarque   Adam, Eve and the Serpent – Elaine Pagels   The Politics of Heroin: CIA Complicity in the Global Drug Trade – Alfred W. McCoy

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