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Injury
(this letter, along with the rest i have posted so far would never have happened if it wasn't for the swift action of the corpsmen and medics who treated me. thank god for them.) Today, after a long stalk, we found out target. He was taking a rest on the otherside of the berm, and under a tree about a klik out. I put the SRAS .50 down, and chambered a round. My spotter, Scott, started making adjustments on the wind value, humidity, curvature of the Earth, everything that effects a shot. Just as i start dialing in the adjustments, I hear a loud pop, and feel the most horrible pain I've ever felt in my life pierce through my back. A second pop, and another shot of the horrific pain through my back. I know I've just been shot twice. The pain was so intense, that I think for a moment, I passed out. When I could think again, I told Scott to return fire. After he eliminated the target, he got on the radio and called up a corpsman and called in for a cas-evac for me, which was declined due t

Supernova
Brilliant ... Radiant ... I am not just a sun sign I am the Sun. Brilliant ... Radiant ... Violent ... I burn for you and yet despite the fact that you are fortunate enough to find me in the center of your universe, you allow yourself to be distracted by a multitude of lesser lights around you ... lamps, candles, heaven forbid - even flashlights. Like a moth to a flame you turn away from the sun ... towards some fleeting shimmer of light and find not illumination but a light that flickers in even the gentlest of breezes - one gust and its flame dies. Perhaps you expect the sun will always be at your back .. that you will always feel the warmth of my rays. Some wobbling on your axis is to be expected, but you continue to test the limits of your orbit and that tells me that you would prefer to float free. So be it. I am no longer a star burning brightly in your sky. Think of me now as a supernova ...a bright burst of light that you will experience only once ... though y

College Letter About Saggin'
This is a forward e-mail I recieved. Take it how you want, everyone has thier own opinion. Saggin Pants Pass this on to Our Youth, Our Parents, Our Black Men and Women Letter from a college student The other day a friend of mine visited me in the lobby of my dorm just to chat while her laundry was drying. As we were chatting two young freshmen came by. One of the 2 boys wanted to 'talk' to my friend (as in date). She asked him how old they were, and both of the boys replied 18. My fr

Broken
Her screams break the silence around her, But they are never heard by others. She lies in bed... her pillows collecting her tears. Her heart has been shattered..... Shattered by the one meant to protect it, To love it, to provide for it. The baby lays next to her sleeping peacefully.... Unaware that one of its' lifegivers has left it, And in that leaving has left wreckage and a void... She wonders what she did to deserve getting beaten, and cheated on.. As she thinks, the heart that was once whole, Becomes a briar patch of thorns which grows into a wall... Only one small hole remains for access to her heart... That hole is for her child. She grits her teeth hard and vows "Never again!" With that vow made, she moves on with her life, but...... Behind those thorns lives a woman beautiful, Filled with love screaming to get out. She ignores the screams coming from the woman on the other side, Dismissing her as weak, and foolish for wanting and believing in love. She tu

Update
OK lets see where do I even begin with this??? I am still all pathetic and single, but I think I have come to terms with the fact that I should just live my life to the fullest and not worry about being with a man who more then likely would treat me like shit. That is all I have ever found. I think I am attracted to the assholes who do nothing but treat me like shit and beat me. So I have put my foot down and I am not going to settle for anything but the best. With saying that I am sure I will be one of those old ladies home alone with all my cats and wearing my mumu's around the house. Ok I am going to just shut up now because I know no one wants to read this stupid shit anyways. Once I lose all the weight I am trying to then maybe Mr. Right will come into my life. Thats one thing about living in SC. Guys dont look twice at girls with meat on our bones. If you arent a Barbie then you might as well just start collecting the cats and the mumu's. Im totally annoyed right now.

Best Friends
I find myself sitting here in my chu, not even eight in the morning yet. I have not went to sleep from my nights work. Tired, exhaustion, and heat surrounds me, but that is not what plagues my mind. My thoughts are wrapped around one person, vivid images will not leave my mind. I picture her as a child when I first met her, us swinging and playing tag. I still believe the day she moved in next door was one of the happiest days of my life. I see her blonde hair blowing in the breeze as we walked many times hand in hand on the beach when we were older. How her eyes sparkled when the moonlight hit them. The taste of her lips the first time we kissed. The softness she brought into my life. We spent many years together, at first as young kids and then the years that followed. She will always remain my best friend, and I will always love her unconditionally. I look back and think of the many times I could have been better, done things differently. Perhaps though you are not meant to spen

A Terrorism Is Arrested By Threaten To Blow Up Plane
A WoW player living in Indianapolis was arrested after he used in-game chat to threaten to blow up a plane while he is wow power leveling. The eighteen year old later told Johnson County sheriffs that he "was going to board a plane at 7:30 to Chicago and that (he) was going to try and kill as many Americans as possible".His boasts were spotted by a Blizzard employee who called the police after seeing that the WoW player had made serious threats. When arrested, the man claimed his computer had been hacked into and then explained he had meant the statements as a joke. He had apparently made them because he didn't believe that, contrary to popular belief, that doing so wouldn't alert the police.A Blizzard representative is quoted as saying that the chat logs were "very serious" and didn't seem to be just jokes however she declined to show the logs to indystar.com. The man's PC was seized as evidence and the cased turned over to the FBI.The most direct meaning form the accident is that don

New Game Comrade
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Wicked Little Things
you hear them laugh you hear where they lay, at night and everywhere, wicked little things come to prey. they feel your fears, taste your scares, flowers how they wither, you can feel their evil stares. wicked little things can see you fall and hear your cries. funny.. how these wicked little things can be viewed in your eyes..

Sarah
Sarah sarah comes home. nobody is there.daddy pulls into the drive and then comes her scare.mommy is home from the bar, hurt and anger is in her eyes.can't you hear sarah's cries?she gets knocked to the floor by daddy's hard fist.all she wanted to do was show him her christmas list.she is laying there, unable to move.mommy starts to yell, she wishes she would soothe.daddy takes the gun, now its too late. by the terror in sarah 's eyes, she now sees her fate.someone heard, but too afraid to call.i wonder if they had, if little sarah would've had to fall

Here's Your Laugh Of The Day !!!
Password... A woman was helping her husband set up his computer, and at theappropriate point in the process, told him that he would nowNeed to enter a password..Something he will use to log on.The husband was in a rather amorous mood and figured he would tryFor the shock effect to bring this to his wife's attention. So,When the computer asked him to enter his password, he made itPlainly obvious to his wife that he was keying in...P...E...N..I...S...His wife fell off her chair laughing when the computer replied: **PASSWORD REJECTED. NOT LONG ENOUGH**GIGGLES… LOL, HAVE A GREAT DAY...ANNA

Tips For Handling Telemarketers...
Tips for Handling Telemarketers Three Little Words That Work!! (1)The three little words are: 'Hold On, Please...' Saying this, while putting down your phone and walking off (instead of hanging-up immediately) would make each telemarketing call so much more time-consuming that boiler room sales would grind to a halt. Then when you eventually hear the phone company's 'beep-beep-beep' tone, you know it's time to go back and hang up your handset, which has efficiently completed its task.

A Woman Hidden
I am ...A womanWith a full heart, hiddenSomewhere in an empty room ...I wonder ...If love is a tale made for children --A granting of sweet dreams in their innocence --A honey-coating to help their throatsChoke down the bitter draught ... I hear ...A voice that whispers warnings, half-formed,Bodiless as hope, until I swear I cannot drawAnother breath unless this spectre be unmasked,His lies mangled ‘neath my righteous and faithful tread. I see ...A woman, proud, uncompromising,Diaphanous as air -- less, even, than the tearsThat fall in desolation about her weary feet,Salt poison pooled upon the withered ground ... I want ...A measure of quietude, a certain silence,The echo of alone which heals me of dreaming,The nothing that stills the wanting,The numb, the cold that laughs at pain. I amA woman,hidden ...I pretend ...That I can live forever -- that TimeHas no puissance but that which I afford Him --And so, I can wait, I can be happy tomorrow,Sleep is for the dead, but its gho

When I Say
I love your kindness I love your friendship I love the way you make me feel When I talk with you I love your sarcasm I love your wit I love the way you tease me Even just the thought of it I love the way you trust me I love that I can trust you I love the sound of your voice When you say my name

Silence In The Dark
Silence In The Dark As I sit alone in my unlit room The shadows creep upon me My overstuffed chair caresses my drunken body Shivering in my diluted-ness Sounds are many; not to be heard Forms of strange creatures outside my window Footsteps in the hall Concerned friends wanting to help Shut all the bad Feeling for a moment of time Childhood dreams only a part from the past Raggedy Ann, my old comforter

Flowers
Blossom .... I am unfolding gently beneathyour loving touch Becoming.......I let wholeness breath mypetals free Awareness.......Sweet fragrant Spirit touchingsenses into life Wisdom.......Giving beauty back to the universe Knowing.........Each petal, sweet miracle of life. Oneness.......We are hues of color, yet onein Spirit. Poem By Tammy C.

A Special Soul
A SPECIAL SOUL When I look inside of you, I see a beautiful lover, A beautiful soul. From the first time I read the words you spoke, I wanted to know who you were. My heart listened and paid attention, Only for me to discover that you make my eyes smile with glee, You make my wondrous heart sing. I have found you to be very good company. You are becoming a special thing for me. I thank God for sending me a beautiful lover, A beautiful soul. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved

I'm Back In Buisness I Think
Yes I am back, hoping I am here for awhile, been a lot of things going on with me while I was away, most good things so I wont complain. Stop in and say hello and let me know all of you are ok, Friends family and fans .

I Got My First Fucktard
Well looks like I got my first fucktard. Just like everything else online you get fucktards that want to ruin a good time. If they are in a bar I kick the shit out of them, and send them on their way. But online they can hide their cowardly ass behind the computer. To bad I am not able to find his IP address yet, so I can become his worst nightmare. Not sure why he decided to target me but he did. You may be wondering what it is he did. Well he went through and started to buy every person I owned. I am not sure if he was targeted recent purchases, or my friends list because he did not show as seeing my page. I did manage to down rate a few pictures on him before I got the pimp slap. I would sure like to know how he got all the fu-bucks to be a PITA? Anyway here he is: ☣MisterJueseppi™☣ EnGaged 2 Spectacular Amber™ Feel free to down rate this ass. And I would love to slap that wanna be Marine hat he was wearing because he is no marine. Marine

Of Migratory Birds
Well i leared a lot in a short period of time, looking up as geese pass overhead still gets you in the eye... To Bella who told me to drop things i apologize for not taking your advice and leaving things rest. To Kloverlynn i apologize for impugning your character. I forgot a lesson i learned long ago, assumption is the mother of all fuck ups. I am an unabashed drunk, i'll admit that, and when i first learned of everthing i reacted as a drunk then as someone with a bad hangover, not an excuse, just the TRUTH, since that was a huge part of the topic. I watch birds, i'm not an ornithologist or anything, but; i live on a high hill and there are wetlands all around me, and i notice birds follow patterns. To the untrained eye, what passes for random in the bird world is actually quite predictable... When i arrived on fubar i had for the longest time 2 friends/family members... one was BBG, she guided me and taught me the ropes... she told me to avoid drama... and until yesterday/tod

Chris Ayala's P.o.v. On Women And Their Issues Part2: The Platinum Pussy
INTRODUCTION:Hello friends, this is the first time i have ever spoken my mind on this site, but have to address an issue that has been annoying me for some time. In various jobs I have had weather corporate, bartending, personal training, or others I have had to hear the mouth of women and their issues. The issues tend to vary based on situations such as weight, appearance, relationships, personal self worth, etc . I am taking this opportunity to express my opinion and feelings about these situations. I am in NO WAY degregating or criticizing ANY WOMAN that this may apply to, so please do not be offended. It is not my intent to insult anyone, but just to give my point of view, and anyone who reads this can respond to it and give me there feedback. I welcome everyone to read and respond to this and give their opinion as well. Once again I am basing this solely on my life experiences, and IS JUST MY POINT OF VIEW. This week I am going to address the issue with women who believe that thei

Your Gone
i said hello,i think i'm broken and the world was was only jokin',It took me by suprise when you went away.I was trying to be clever,for the life of me i never would have guessed how far this simple truth would lead,You knew all my life,and all my tricks,and how to heal all my pain,that no medicine could ever fix.I blessed for the day i meet you,and i i'm thankfull that he let you,lay beside me for a moment that lives on.the good news is im beter now because i can look back at all the time we spent together.Looking back it's still suprising, i was sinkin' and you were ricing.with this look that caught my attention every day.Now i know god has his reasons,but some times it's hard to see them,I lay awake at night,and find that your not there.You made me find hope in hoplessnes,you made crazy,sain,you became the missin' link,that helped me break my chain,and i'm so blessed for that.But the bad news is your gone,you only got a one way ticket over their,and i will miss you so much....

Love Bites
Ya know what? i`m starting to wonder if this "love" thing is really worth it? Every time i fall in love with someone, it always seems to blow up in my face for some reason or another, idk, maybe its me, i do everything i can fot whoever im with and apparently it seems like its never enough. Maybe i should just start being an asshole and i will get farther in a relationship, because i`m always too damn nice and giving and willing to go outta my way for people. its been like that since i was a teenager and it seems that old habits are hard to break. Dont get me wrong, i`m by no means an asshole at all, i love going out and doing things and sometimes just hanging out with who-ever, but like i said, sometimes whatever i do doesnt seem good enough for anyone. I`d give the shirt off my back for anyone but alls i get in return is either used or dum ped or cheated on, wtf is wrong with me? H E L P ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

My Fetish
Almost everyone has this one thing that they are attracted to physically about a person. For some it's boobs, arse, legs, eyes and smile or even feet. For me I have a nose fetish. Don't know how I got it or even if there is anyone else on the planet that thinks like i do but there it is. I guy could be absolutely brad pitt gorgeous but if i don't like his nose i'm not attracted to him at all. A guy could be completely funny looking to most women but if i like his nose he's the most gorgeous thing in the world. Don't know why i was thinking of these things but I thought for those of you who were trying to get to know me this is one of the oddities of my personality and I felt like sharing. Guess it balances things out too because what i find attractive isn't the typical or the average. Thanx to all who read this Comments welcome

I Am My Own Entity...check Out My New Blog
Hey Hey, What's up? I now have a new blog running, I will be making at least one new entry per week, all you have to do is Google bennyblazed.com and it will take you right there, it should be pretty interesting, allow me some time to get some more entries in there, but it'll be a scream! Ciao Benny blazed

Alternative Therapies For Stroke Treatment
Alternative Stroke Treatment: What Works? Alternative stroke treatment may not work for everyone, but typically, it's not going to hurt — as long as your doctor has given you the go-ahead to try these approaches in addition to following your prescribed medications and therapy. Here are some alternative stroke treatment ideas you can consider, and how they can help: Acupuncture.Acupuncture is an ancient practice in which tiny needles are inserted painlessly in the skin at designated points to stimulate your body's nerves and muscles. Acupuncture can help to relieve pain and get your blood flowing more — and balance your energy, Asian cultures believe. Acupuncture can be used to help treat difficulties with language and swallowing, as well as paralysis. Acupuncture is a common part of stroke treatment in Japan and China. Massage. A study in Hong Kong found that regular massage lowered blood pressure and heart rate in stroke patients, and also eased anxiety. Massage is k

Her And Her Life....
She was petite, barely 5'5", fair skinned, short platinum out of control hair, eyes that take your breath away but not your obvious beauty... She was not your obvious anything, she rides a Harley like she has no fear, curses like a sailor, hates anything to fussy because she has no patience... He wondered what he was doing with a woman who so obviously would not allow herself to be called wife... Watch me, she said as she walked across the room to an attractive couple sitting at the bar... He sat on a bar stool, wondering what she'd do... She walked to the floor with the couple and they danced... He watched her seduce them with every glance from her deep green eyes, every sway of her hips, every accidental touch of thier skin... She knew the couple had never done anything like she was implicating, it was okay niether had she... But they would have never known that... She played with them like a cat with a toy, all for him, to show him what he had in front him... He watched as

Arguing With Myself
Just so much! So much pain! So much hate, anger, lust, love. Passion hidden. Life lost. Love not found. Everything wanted and it's at your fingertips that retract. Always wanted, but fear holds us back. Even me. I am scared. I am petrified of losing. I am petrified of winning. Letting go. Life still spins. The search stops yet still goes on. So CLOSE!!! So far away. Is this to be it? So many ages passed. It's all gone, but infront of my nose. Chasing shadows in the dark. Where are they? Looking for the contrast of white on white. I see it, but where is it? Time still slipping. Gotta catch it. Have to catch time. Have to find the shadow. Can't see the white........... You can't see the white because you're not supposed to. You're not supposed to find the shadow. The answer is in the rant, let go. There is no spoon. There is no secret, there is no secret ingredient. There is nothing but everything. You're not supposed to get it. Life is chasing shadows in the dark. The only real que

Epic...
My brothers, at long last we stand reunited. The Infernal Gate has been prepaired. The time for our final victory is at hand. Let the way to Hell, be opened. And the evil that was one vanquished shall rise anew. Wrapped in the guise of man, shall we walk amongst the innocet, and Terror, shall consume they that dwell upon the Earth. The skies shall rain fire! The seas shall become as blood! The righteous shall fall before the wicked, and all creation shall tremble, before the burning standards of Hell! -Mephisto, Lord of Hatred.

Life
What life is about It's those momentswhen you feel entirely carefree, like nothing can touch you.It's those moments that make the hard parts worth it.Those moments when I'm with you. There's nothing like the deep breathsafter a laugh that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons-The perks of being a wallflowerfight for the things you love &love the things worth fighting for.In my opinion, the best thing you cando is find a person who loves you for exactlywhat you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty,handsome, what have you; the right person will still think that the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person worth sticking with.[JUNO] We all hope for a boy who, as we smooth our hair, & tug at our clothes, will grab our hands, smile, & ask us "now, what the heck are you trying to fix, beautiful

Sunday Equals Loneliness
minutes fade into hours...words are coming to mind faster than you can type...and then it stops...and when it begins again...it's as if you are talking to someone you haven't heard from in ages the same questions...the small talk...like nothing was shared before that moment...leaving you wondering who you were talking to just a few minutes or hours before you've laughed...cried...shared secrets...bared your soul...and you wonder how many people were also having that same conversation...wonder if what you said was just part of some automatic rambling and if the other person was even reading what you wrote wondering if you have once again made a mistake and trusted someone who has no true feelings of honor...respect...or if it's just another game...and you are the pawn...a willing one no doubt...but still just a gamepiece that will be sacrificed in the end to get to the more important player in the game called internet friendship

Auto 11
I am in an auto 11 contest i need 400 rates and 15,000 comments... the comment portion is about completed if each of my friends and fans helped i could be done this week please come by and give me one rate that is all i am asking thanx

Evils Of Marijuana Exposed By American Medical Association - 1937
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hM73cz6ZZOA 1936 - 1938: William Randolph Hearst's newspaper empire fuels a tabloid journalism propaganda campaign against marijuana. Articles with headlines such as Marihuana Makes Fiends of Boys in 30 Days; Hasheesh Goads Users to Blood-Lust create terror of the killer weed from Mexico. Through his relentless misinformation campaign, Hearst is credited with bringing the word marijuana into the English language. In addition to fueling racist attitudes toward Hispanics, Hearst papers run articles about marijuana-crazed negroes raping white women and playing voodoo-satanic jazz music. Driven insane by marijuana, these blacks -- according to accounts in Hearst-owned newspapers -- dared to step on white men's shadows, look white people directly in the eye for more than three seconds, and even laugh out loud at white people. For shame! 1936: DuPont obtains a patent license to manufacture synthetic plastic fibers from German industrial giant I.G. F

Singlez In The City Launch Party!
Hey Everyone! I'm just starting out as an event planner and I'm doing singles events! so every one that lives in colorado should come check out my event! It should be so awesome! rsvp and get more info at www.zclubco.com/launch

Huskers
Huskers It has been three months since he first laid eyes on her. It seemed like ages ago since Chris had noticed that beautiful woman walk into his bar. She has such style, where as Chris had charm. She has such confidence, where as Chris had arrogance. For the last twelve Thursday’s Marcy had graced his bar like clock work. Every Thursday at 6pm sharp she rolled into Huskers. “She must come straight from work.” He thought to himself. He had watched her as she slowly sucked down her delicate drinks one by one. Never going over board and always out the door by 8pm. He always wished she would stay longer. Chris was usually behind the bar and never got the chance to say more than a hello to her. Although they rarely spoke he always felt a sense of protectiveness towards her. Maybe it was the many eye catching moments or maybe it was the smirks from across the room. Maybe, just maybe it was the classy suits and heels she would wear. What ever

Tattoos
Hello there I am Malory and I am a tattoo lover and a artist. I have been learning and growing my business as fast as possible and doing very well so far. I hope to make some connections along the way that help me to become a a better artist. I would like to help others too.

In A Nut Shell
I think of you often Do you think of me? So sweet, so kind, Do I even cross your mind? I know your face in my mind, I know your voice in my ears, I think I know you, Even through these years. Are you my friend? Are you my love? That couldn't be, You don't even see me. I cry myself to sleep, Every night my mind wanders, If you're not the first thing, You're the second thing on mind. My eyes see you, My heart aches, For a love I assume, Will someday bloom. Who said friends could be lovers? What were they thinking? My love life, sinking or swimming? It's sinking. I am scared I am afraid My life right now Is one big show. Episode after episode, Re- run after re- run Why do I love you? Let me show you. When you are around me So is the thought of her I wish deeply You weren't with she. I have respect for a couple What they share is beautiful But what about the little people? Whom you don't even see? When you are my friend I am yours Your company completes me Whenever you take the t

I Will Love You Anyways
You walked into my Life, when my world was dark and cold, you held out your arms, and my heart and soul you did hold. You promised you would never leave, that you would always be there, I never knew that I meant so much, that my heart was worth enough to care. You showed me so many things, I started to dream of you every night, you melted the coldness in my heart, with the warmth of your light. I ended up falling for you, how could I not - you're an Angel in disguise, and every touch from you makes my soul hot. But then you told me it's not the same. for you only think of me as a friend, I cannot understand this, the wrong messages you did send. I never knew you bought your friend flowers, and touched them like a lover, I never knew you held your friends' hand and caressed them under the covers. I am so far, I cannot turn back now, you are My Best friend, so what do I do now. I don't know much, except here I am again in Love with another man who only wants to be my friend. I'm not

Close Your Eyes
I can't be with you today but if you close your eyes and think; I'll be beside you in the kitchen wearing your shirt - standing by the sink. I'll be with you in the bedroom waiting quietly on your bed; Just close your eyes and think of me, relive those memories in your head. I'll stand by you in the bathroom, an unlikely place to meet; I'll smile at you so playfully as I let you brush my teeth. I'll be your light in the darkness, shining steady through and through; You only have to watch it glow to know I think of you. I'll be the music that you listen to, I'll be there in every song: I'll laugh with you and sing with you, and comfort you when your day's gone wrong. I'll be the wind that ruffles your hair, I'll be that warm embrace; I'll be the hand on your shoulder, I'll be the tender touch on your face. I'll be the clock gently ticking, reminding you of the times; We've shut the rest of the world outside we're in our own world - yours and mine. I'll be the moon as it dances on

How Dare You
How dare you walk into my life at the eleventh hour, Causing confusion in my world and seizing the power That I possess over the feelings I choose to have for a man, You weakened my wall by holding my hand; By being the man that I miss And showing you care in just one kiss. How dare you walk into my life through the back door and unannounced; Leaving me dreaming of every moment we've spent together and thinking of every ounce Of desire I feel to have our souls connect in such passion that it's surreal; To feel your heart pounding against my chest, To be entangled in each other's arms, My lips kissing your neck as your tongue explores my breasts; Back and forth, up and down, On the floor, in the shower, 'Til my head rests on your chest at the morning glory hour. How dare you walk into my life and expose these thoughts that I have buried for so long, That I have been able to suppress So that I may go on; You've put me in a spot from which I cannot move, You've made me vulnerable agai

A Little Gem From Ellie
I'm in a strange frame of mind today. I was re-rating my good friend Ellie(she's in my fam...check her out :) ) and I came across her about me and had to steal it. heehee I am not QUITE at this point yet but it's a goal I'd like to attain.:D the truth of the matter is...no one really knows us but ourselves.our deepest, darkest, innermost dwellings.our capabilities, our limitations, our intentions.even those we let inside only know what we allow them to see.afraid?possibly...of what the judging eyes would do when faced with the realities of who we truly are.maybe even more terrified of the possibilities of vulnerability.naked in a room full of prying eyes, tearing apart of flaws and those insulting insecurities.when we are faced with people who can see through us, the facade that is the mirage we portraythe role we play, exposed as a farce led behind the smoke and mirrorscontradictory compositions of what we say and what we doin our everyday tricks and games...we are stunned. shocked.

You're The Only One
Your eyes,they were the first thingI noticed about you.They captured my soul.In the first second you looked atMe as a woman I was yours.Your smile,It lights up my life,Brings me more peace than the rain.I could melt in that smile.I fall in love with you all over againEvery time I see it.Your fingertips,The way they linger on my skin,So gently I can barely feel themSometimes.Other times smoothing overMy body like a sheath.Your hands,That show me your loveIn a way that wordsNever could.They bring me safety and steadiness.Thank you for that.Your body,The way it holds my attention,The way your every nuanceMakes me want you even more thanThe last time I saw you.Your feet,How could I not love them?They are the part of youThat allows me to show you how muchI love you.I can spoil you to deathAnd there's nothing you can do about it.I love all these things about you,But what I love the most,Is the You I fell in love with.The You that makes me feel likeI can do and be anything I want to.The You t

My Kindred Spirit
My kindred spirit,Do you doubt we ll share,A love transcendent,And truly rare?Our souls dominion;Will give us no choice.Time will stand still,When I hear your voice.If fate has its wayYour eyes will meet mine,Lost in foreverWe ll travel past time.Then, long awaitedOur hands will touch;Mine, fragile, soft,Yours warm and rough.No thoughts will break,Or suspend our dance.When our souls meet,We ll be left to chance.A force of nature,Destiny shall ordain.Our will cast aside,Released from the pain.To each other's center,We will be led,Seduction upon us,Our hungers fed.My heart, for you only,My flesh will surrender,Respond to your warmth,To your touch, so tender.A coveted encounter,Fulfilled at long last,We ll know from then on,If this will just pass.The danger for us,Will be revealed then -What might be our future,Are we lovers or friends?

Compared To You
When you stood in the doorway engulfed in summer shadow and waved goodbye to me, I made a silent promise to the setting sun and hoped you would hear me. I'll never love another like I love you, Darlin' I never make a promise I don't intend to keep. It doesn't really matter if you don't feel like that; Compared to you, they're only second best to me. They followed me around, offerin' me kisses, gold, and diamond rings. But to each of them I said, "Hey, Honey, I'm sorry, but I know my heart's desire. " I'll never love another like I love you, Darlin' I never make a promise I don't intend to keep. It doesn't really matter if you don't feel like that; Compared to you, they're only second best to me. The years passed by, college came and went and now, I'm comin' home. I dialed your number, said a quick hello, then sang into the phone: I'll never love another like I love you, Darlin' I never make a promise I don't intend to keep. It doesn't really matter if you don't feel like that; Com

My First Love
I never thought I'd ever learn to Love, the way simple lovers do. I always believed it was impossible. Yet I found myself so in love with you. Now I know exactly what love truly is and you are my reason why; You convinced me to let you in my soul . . . And you promised you would never lie. I have learned to cherish and trust you, In a way I never had before. And if anything were ever to happen, My Love, I think I would only love you more. I fought my feelings along the way, but in the end it remains still true - I have finally found My love in life. (Just like you always knew. ) If you told me once, you told me twice, Just how beautiful love could be. Yet I never realized until now, that you were speaking of you and me. You have brought me such happiness, it takes all my sadness away. And with my endless loyalty I will so lovingly repay. You are my love in life. This I will never forget. You are the Love of my Life, This I knew from the moment we met.

Meet Me In The Stars
As I am saying good night at the end of the day, And you are not here, but many miles away, My heart is so empty and so lonely inside, As I wipe away a tear I am trying to hide. I close my eyes and try to go to sleep, But with the sadness inside I begin to weep. Suddenly I remember what you once said to me, Just meet me in the stars, waiting for you I will be. When distance tends to keep us apart, Remember I still hold you near in my heart. When the night together, can't be ours, Just close your eyes and meet me in the stars. Meet me in the stars, I'll be waiting there for you. With a bottle of wine and glasses for two. Just close your eyes and there you will see, Waiting in the stars, just for you I will be. Remembering those words, I begin to smile, And gently close my eyes, lessening the miles. I can see the stars, oh how beautifully arranged, But you are not there, no hug to exchange. I sit alone waiting, with hope in my heart, No longer wanting to be kept apart. Suddenly in

Forever
Forever is love,annexed with time,existing now,the memories they define.Forever is being,coupled in reverie,undivided I exist,with my time's beauty.Now is gone,then is here,time is anon,love is inertly clear.Forever is love,with inertia it rides,through the vast space,of our soul, and of our mind.Tommy, you are forever,like a prism for seeing,you complete my view of forever,and you make forever worth being...I love you baby =)-To Tommy-From Trisha, my love, forever

From My Heart
empty... That's how I feel without you. Every day that we're apart Feels like an eternity. You move me... Make me feel things I thought I would never feel again. When I am with you, I feel a warmth wash over me. A warmth unlike any I have felt before. It picks me up and carries me to a far off place, A beautiful place... A place where nothing is known but love and caring. My worries fade to a distant memory, And all but you is forgotten, If only for the moment... My heart is overflowing with joy and love, The joy that you bring to me, And the love that I feel for you. Never have I come across anyone like you... Sweet, warm, tender, caring... I become overwhelmed in your presence, lost... Lost to my imagination, to the thought of you. I'm lost in a wonderful dream, and I never want to wake up. You... You are too good to be true... My knight in shining armor. The man I've been searching for... The man of my dreams. And now I have you, Yet I cannot have you. To see you would be heaven

We Were There
It was such a dream - We were there I felt you breathing I danced in your eyes I stroked your lips I stole a kiss It was such a feeling - We were there Oh so warm inside and out I laughed with you I talked with you I touched you I hugged you Our souls were together We were there Angels danced Stars twinkled a little brighter The moon smiled at us The world stopped No one can understand - We were there We became one for a moment in time We are now a part of each other for a lifetime It was the sweetest of sweet - We were there I took a part of you to keep I gave you a part of me to keep We gave each other a dream We were there

Just You, Only You
You are the sun that shines bright in the morning,the stars that twinkle in the night sky,and the beautiful sunset in the horizon.However, you are not the empty box of cookies,the smudged name on the cake,or the melted ice cream.And you are certainly not the cookies I cannot get right,there is no way you are my ruined cookies.You are the holiday cheereveryone feels in December,and the sparkling Christmas lightsdecorated in front of our house.Turn around and you will seethat you are the leader of the pack,the one who holds the group together.You are the American flag,the flag we all pay respect to.You could never be the fallen autumn leaves,the children's melted snowman,the allergies to the pollen,or the sunburn from the beach.But you are the happiness seasons bring.You are the superstar kids idolize,the band on the cover of Rolling Stones,the poet in The New Yorker.But mostly you the one I idolize,the one who brings happiness to me.You are the one who brightens my appearance,the one I

Scrolling
Was it the words that made me think about him all night or was it the smile that he brought to my face when I saw the E- Mail message that seem to shine so bright. Yes I feel so confused, How could it be? He stole my Heart away with the stroke of his computer keys. We chat, we talk its just not the same, there should be no reason I get so excited when I see his chat name. We are in a private room, designed for two, sometimes I think they designed one especially for me and you. We are chatting for hours when I realize, oops, I'm on the computer, I was lost there for a while, but His words they really make me smile. Communications is the key to unlock my heart, It's funny the computer has enable to get thus far. Cyber space is strange and that is true, But guess what - It Scrolled My Heart a Road Directly to you

The Hard Part.
Today, I woke up, and I got my rifle, then went to a bush, and did my business. I came back, grabbed an MRE, and had some breakfast. Since the teams are on 25% watch, my driver, PVT Patterson, and myself slept last night. Nothing happened. It was just quiet last night. I could hear to crickets chirrping. There was a little scare with one of those huge spiders that lives here. Those things can kill a camel. I spent the next hour inspecting my humvee, making sure my team had water, food, sufficient ammunition, M203 rounds, properly secured body armor, weapons were brass checked, things like that. Then, we got a call. Because we are so far ahead of the next friendly unit, we are to remain static for the next 24 hours, or until advised further. So the boredom begins. There are 2 things in this world that are more dangerour that anything else. 1. A horny soldier. 2. A bored soldier. Since we have no women in this platoon, the horny soldier is a given, but a bored, horny soldier That's a dis

To U From Me
When I think of the love I have for you I get this crazy feeling inside A feeling that will never go away From the very beginning I knew that I needed you You were everything that I wanted Everything that I had been looking for, for so long That first kiss was indescribable Your touch set me on fire You filled the empty space in my heart With sweet warm love When I am alone without you I go crazy with thoughts of our love Being with you makes my heart sing Your pain your hurt your cries Your struggles and fears I will be there threw all of that Through thick and thin I will be here for you Finding your love has complete me I could never ask for anything more You are all I want and all I need Forever and always I will be in your heart. Writin By Trisha Nichole ( MEMesis Wifey)

I Knew You Well
I knew your dreams Because we used to talk For hours at a time. I knew your friendship Because you were always there When I needed your comfort. I knew your pain Because you trusted me enough To share your past with me. I knew your fears Because you helped me To see that mine were the same. I knew what was important to you Because you were always So honest with me. I knew your goals Because I felt the enthusiasm In your words when you talked of them. I knew your guidance Because you patiently explained The things I didn't understand. I knew your heart Because I saw right into it And felt it a part of my own. I knew your honor Because you let me go When I fell in love with you. And I knew your love Because you wouldn't let me dream of us together.

Rooster's Hell Pit
as you know ive opened my own lounge called rooster's hell pit,the lounge is all set up with good tunes and an awesome background.now i just need staff to get it going.so if your interested plz sb me.i need enforcers,greeters and promoters and a shitload of members lol so plz come join and party in a drama-free environement:D

The Depths Of My Love
Rivers of my love run deep, Into the valleys of your heart, Neither height, nor depth, Nor mountains too wide, Could show you, The depths of my Love, Way beyond the seas, Throughout all eternity, Could never show you, The depths of my love, Into the sun, Far beyond the sky, A thousand tears, That I have cried, Could never show you, The depths of my love, Forgiveness beyond measure, Memories to treasure, Love written as a lullaby, Enchanted dreams of you and I, Could never show you, The depths of my love, Miles and time, Song and rhyme, Money or gain, life or pain, Could never show you, The depths of my love, Loving me, embracing me, Eternally, Will show you the depths of my love.

A New Beginning...
Have you ever sat there, and pondered a new life. A completely different you. Or have you started to make a change and ultimately realize that in such a short amount of time, you are almost the person that you should be. I'm at that point. Everything I could possibly change, I have changed. My diet, my health, my emotions, my mentality, and just my overall physical being has all changed. I'm probably 10x more stronger, smarter, and resiliant then I could ever have been. I'm not quite yet where I need to be, but I'm almost there. There is only one thing that is preventing me from fully emerging into the man I should be, and unfortunately...I have to be patient and just allow it to come to me. For those of you who know me, I'm not by any means a patient person. I'm always looking to complete whatever it is that is in front of me so I can move on. I guess it comes with the territory of being associated with the military for over half my life. But I think this is good. This fo

I Can't Stop
I can't stop thinking about you Wondering if you think of me, too I can't stop thinking of your lips Oh! How soft they are between mine I can't stop imagining your hands As they caress my every hair and limb I can't stop thinking of your face How I love it and it thanks me in return. I can't stop thinking of your voice, As sexy as the body it possesses. I can't stop feeling your touch inside me. My temperature rises and emotions explode. I can't stop thinking of how much I want you, how I need you No matter what you do, I can't stop thinking about you.

The Reasons I Love You
I love you because you make me happy I love you because you make me feel safe and secure I love your smile I love the way you say my name I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me And how you laugh at me when I do something stupid, when others would put me down. I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. No matter what my faults may be. I love being able to wake up with you by my side... It makes my days better At night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, and feeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that you are not a dream YOU ARE MINE. I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, like there is no tomorrow And I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, the love and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable. I love your laugh I love hearing your voice I love

And You Still Wonder
our eyes meet,magnetic poetic,your lips touch mine,erotic electric,arms encircle me,euphoric idyllic,together we,synchronic rhythmic.and you still wonder -do I love you?a query you shouldnever have to voice,those words remaining within,answered by tenderness of touch,by sweet emotion,by thoughts mirroredin chestnut irises,that brush softly across you,painting images deepwithin memory,while this soul speaks to yours,saying all the wordsever needing to be said.

Mfkn Mouse!
So we went to the pet store to get a feeder rat and a white mouse for AJ to have as a pet. I have a little plastic cage that I use for the rats and the mouse was in a little cardboard carrying box. We had to stop at the grocery store for a few things, but I left the windows down and I figured the little guys would be fine. No, they didn't die. The mouse chewed a hole in the box and got loose in my car. We spent a good 20 minutes playing keystone cops trying to catch the mouse as he ran back and forth under the seats of my car. Now that we've caught the little fucker I swear he has elephantitis of the balls - really - it's quite disturbing. Maybe it's just massive hemroids from having the shit scared out of him - I dunno... freaky. Let me see if I can get a pic of that mouse's balls.

The Last Letter To Be
I exist now dreaming in reality, shades of deep reds and grays, Evolving at the speed of light As my third eye sees all, I bring my fingers to my lips and time stops I taste you. I ponder you and wallow in the memory of your scent and way. How you called me baby The way you made me laugh The way you touched my heart and made me believe Unable to stop, it seems too wonderful, but in the end there is not much but pain. I allow this for some time, then I awake and know that I am alive and the possibilities are endless. Wanting you to taste my soul and undeniably know that I am the one and we are one to conquer happiness together, unimaginably, the way you knew that we could and will if you say one word, Yes! Your fear. Your ego. Your pride. They protect and also hurt you, keeping you from what is rightfully yours, Love. If I had your heart again? Oh, the way I would touch it, nurture it and protect it My most sacred gift God wants what I want, he trusts me and knows my light is

Silver
How quickly time moves in this wi-fi world.How long has it been? More than months, you feel like a childhood memory full of freeze tag and lazy summer days. You speak to me from a time when a simple flash of electronic light could fill me with passion and inspire words to flow from my fingertips.The rush of those moments … now like a distant dream but no less pleasurable Only serve to keep alive a sort of glowing ember - a knowing smile that we two share for what was, what could have been, and what we’ll never know.Certainly we have not been lonely. The neon OPEN sign may flicker but never really fades in this surreal establishment. But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that somewhere I did indeed feel a bit sad for the death of us … a slow and unknowing death … one you don’t feel coming and one you only realize is happening long after the time for resuscitation has passed. But no worries…Ours was never a connection built on expectation

I've Been Caught
I've been caught swimming in his eyes again. Holding my heart so it doesn't break in his presence. I've been known to have to steady my breathing at his smile, as my own returns with red cheeks. As the subject of my never ending sentences, he calls upon pauses that should not be there. As my friend, he shares. His heart cannot mention my name. While my heart can only scream his. I've been seen caressing his skin with my gaze. Memorizing his shape. I've dreamt of how his lips round his words. As I replace friendship with love. My heart hangs heavy when I hear his voice. My pulse races with his scent. As he walks past, her on his arm. Unlike any of the others, he kills me and keeps me alive.

Were Not In Love
So often people say they found their lover in their friend.I just have to wonder if they ve found a means to fit their end.I thought I knew you for so long, but now I ve come to seeThat this man is a stranger, and you don t remember me.For the first time in my life I wanted someone I could keep-To treasure me both heart and soul, to hold me in my sleep.When I saw you I was overjoyed, my search at last concluded,Who knew that I would come to find that I was just deluded?Because as we grew together something still kept us apart,I have your body and your mind, but I ll never have your heart.And I still wish that we could have that true love and forever,But reality stole my happy ending, leaving me with never.And if you asked, what would I say?Would I dare to throw it all away?Would yes be right? Or is it no?But we never ask, so on we go.And still I know that in the end,You re not my lover but my friend.This is the truth that I despiseWhen I suddenly realize:We re not in love.

My Heart Believes In You
I kept my head up high, and then you came my way. I have been hurt so many times. My heart filled with so much pain. but now that pain has gone away. For I have found a place I want to be. This place I see is with thee. For in your arms I have felt and seen, a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe. A safe haven in your arms just for me. Now I give my heart to thee. For my heart believes in you.

Carefull What You Say: Just A Bit Sane.
Wonderful..the sounds of the living..the screams..of "i love you"..funny the acts they will perform..within there life time..a grim fate..for those who truely cant handle..the side effects..oh what may happen..stalkers..suicides..murder..careful what you say..how you say it..for some do take it to mean the truth..and will show and prove their commited to what you say..such sweet words..a simple kiss on the corner of your mouth..slowly working the kiss to the center of your lips..oh the things they can whisper..in your ear..makes you feel..weak..but oh be careful what you say..for they just might hold the sayer..to whatever he/she says..weather its lust..money..support..whatever..its a using act..that holds no love..and in the end..picking up and going..leaving your heart in pieces..funny it is huh..and now you sitting on the edge of your bed..all the times..flashing back and forwards in your mind..cant bear the thought..that they played you..pulling the wool over your eyes..such lies t

To Watch You Leaving
To Watch You Leaving . . . is to know such pain, it's jagged edges tearing into my soul. As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth. To Watch You Leaving . . . knowing all the while that never again will I fit myself, warm with sleep, against your solid back. Nor hear your steady breathing. Or feel the beating of your heart. To Watch You Leaving . . . aware in every moment of every day that my dreams, my future; once tied with silken ribbons to yours, will never come to be. And the mornings once so silent and hopeful, us gazing at the mountains and so gently awaiting forever - are now but small pieces of my past. To Watch You Leaving . . . your heart a tight fist of anger and your dry eyes betraying nothing of you. I cry for both of us, my love, because you will not. To Watch You Leaving . . . is to know that I've lost my place on this earth. My station. My heart's home. That I will wander, forever a nomad. Alone and afraid. And in my troubled dreams watch yo

Why Do I?
Why do I smile at the sound of your voice? Why do I let you take over me as if I had no choice? Why do I let you touch me in places never touched? Why do I like to have you around so much? Why do I melt at the tenderness of your kiss? Why do I feel like I could live forever like this? Why do I put my heart in your hands? Why do I answer to your every demand? Why do I tell you leaving me is not your wrong? Why do I let you know with out you I'm not quite as strong? Why do I take you back even though I know it's not right? Why do I feel like I should please you by not putting up a fight? Why do I care about you even though you hurt me? Why do I turn my head from what's plain reality? Why do I try to hide from what is true? Why do I still have these feelings for you?

Shattered Pieces
nside my sleeve, I pull out my heart, handing it to you, "careful it's fragile, and easily falls apart." Extending your arms, you take the heart in your tender warm hands. It falls into a million shattered pieces - on the floor it lands. You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and sadness in your eyes. Apologies are not enough. Looking at you with tears in my eyes, I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart that has fallen apart. I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece. I need to put it together again, some how. some way. Each piece of my heart has a memory so true. Each piece of my heart has part of you. You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life. I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife. All my tears won't keep you near All my tears won't mend what's not here. Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice, The only way my

Tasting The Raindrops
Looking in your eyes I feel myself falling in love with you You said I love you And I said it too We went to our very own special spot For no real reason at all We sat and talked and looked at one another And then the rain began to fall We could have left just as quick as we came But no, you wanted to stay in the rain You asked me a question I�ll never forget Have you ever tasted the raindrops? I looked at you funny and you gave me a sigh The cutest look, as I wondered, why? Why, did you ask me to taste the rain? Well, what did have to loose or gain? I watched you with a careful eye And did the same as you You were looking up at the cloudy sky But my eyes were stuck on you like glue I lifted my head to look at the sky And closed my eyes really tight Just as I thought I�d caught a raindrop You suddenly held me tight I opened my eyes with slight alarm As you kissed me soft and sweet I remember that kiss like it was yesterday I still feel those raindrops on my cheek I

I Learn To Be Strong
Words of wisdom come to my ears, Telling me what I know in my heart, But never wanted to hear. With the truth finally said and out in the open for me to plainly see, I wonder why I can love so deeply but never had that love returned back to me. I confessed the feelings that I held inside for so long, But with his soft- hearted rejection, I realize I have to be strong. With tears that want to flow from my eyes, I feel that my heart, along with my composure, slowly dies. While this dramatic side is showing through with my ability to question and reason, I think I may have found something in me that I can believe in. Love hurts . . . That's what they all say, But I will love again when all this pain and sorrow goes away. So I sit and think of all the things this situation has cost, And I realize that nothing very important has been lost. Instead, a learning experience has come from all this. I've learned that hardly anything is more important than my happiness.

Confessions Of A Broken Heart
Pain... Tension... Fatigue... Depression... Anger, Aggression, Frustration. All these unwanted sensations - Burning, hurting, tearing. My heart alone, cold and fearing. Why won't you let me sleep, let me rest, Let me forget To eradicate, eliminate, destroy all my regrets? These memories inside, swirling, twirling, unwilling to reside in the corner of my mind. Repeating, resisting, insisting - Refusing to be denied its recognition Of its position in my Frustration, Confusion, Delusion. Ah, to close my eyes and let time fly by, Because there's so much to gain By forgetting these dreams driving me insane. Unfocused, unclear, out of control, My world spinning, spinning, spinning, My sanity flying through the door. My reason, my logic, oh, it's tragic, Like fine sands running through my hands, I'm losing my mind.

Steel In My Heart: Numb.
Showing you the workings of my heart..is never so easy..when all i see..is the decay of love..breaking into dust and sand..nothing but a memory..i can not be at peace..in this tragic ending of romance..todays love..like that of cancer..eatting at your soul..the bitterness of it all..the liers..the cheats..the fakes..all have left me..with a cold heart..a steel heart..cold to the touch..but so heavy to bear..i grow numb..from all the death around me..love being killed everytime..you say..i love you..without feeling..eyes cast a gaze upon me..for making this claim..but its not them i have to answer to..upon the gates of heaven..or hell..do i have my judgement..i walk the cold corners of your heart..the battlefield that is endless..i ease through your life..and shead a tear..for the love today..is a evil unlike any other..with head held low..a tear will flow..the winds would blow..and the storms would roll in overhead..painting a dramatic love scene..cue rain..i leave love..to the pages o

What Good Is Love
I waited for your love in hope, That ours would come again, And make me feel the things I felt, When we were one, back then. But time and distance have erased, The things I wished anew, And now I find myself alone, Though I am here with you. What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain. I traveled to another world, Out far beyond the one we knew, I thought that I could live again, And now I find I'm back with you. But what of hearts that beat as one, And what of passion and embrace, Is it too much to ask of you, To make these tears of mine erase. What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain. Too painful this - to journey back, To times of love and laughter free, The times we lay together with A sense of you , a sense of me. So now, I journey on alone, Forever wande

Report Reveals Cia Conducted Mock Executions
http://www.newsweek.com/id/213188 A long-suppressed report by the Central Intelligence Agency's inspector general to be released next week reveals that CIA interrogators staged mock executions as part of the agency's post-9/11 program to detain and question terror suspects, NEWSWEEK has learned. According to two sources—one who has read a draft of the paper and one who was briefed on it—the report describes how one detainee, suspected USS Cole bomber Abd al-Rahim al-Nashiri, was threatened with a gun and a power drill during the course of CIA interrogation. According to the sources, who like others quoted in this article asked not to be named while discussing sensitive information, Nashiri's interrogators brandished the gun in an effort to convince him that he was going to be shot. Interrogators also turned on a power drill and held it near him. "The purpose was to scare him into giving [information] up," said one of the sources. A federal law banning the use of tortur

Smoke
No, not a political smoke screen but the actual smoking the cigarettes. Here in the Great State of NJ it's $7.00 plus a pack and $70.00 plus a carton. In the Wonderful State of Delaware it is $50.00 a carton. I think the bridge fare is justiifed but others don't. I do get a coupon for each of the carton but the bottom line is $50.00 is an awful lot of money and my health aside for the sake of the bottom line it would be very wise for me to give up the smoking. Looking at 2 packs a day and on a bad days more, it is a $600.00 plus here compared to $400.00 plus there, it would be very wise. What am I going to do with my new found wealth? Who knows treat myself to something nice and perhaps someone else? Norio

Dance Of Terror
Window panes come crashing down Amidst the tears and pain Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away Up above through twilight Shadows cast across the floor Reflections of the past Trembling thoughts of one Dwelling deep within the soul A mystical sense of reality Captured by the craze All in bewilderment Of the shock in the wave Creatures of the dimness Chattering amongst the green Everything slows in stillness What is this we see?

Letting Go
How do you walk away from someone you love And take the road of friend; Can you reroute the course you have taken And start over once again? I don't really want to let you go But inside me I know I must; The times we've loved . . . the times you've left My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust. We have shared so much together Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears; Yet sometimes we can't turn back time We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal. I know one day you will be happy And your soulmate you will find; I know we each have one out there Even if for now . . . only in our minds. May life be gentle with you May God's best come your way; And on some quiet tomorrow You will realize things were better this way.

Everything
Every new beginning, comes from some beginnings end. Every time you kill me, I am born again. Every time you close that door, Another door is opened. And every time you say goodbye, a different word is spoken. Every time you look at me my back is facing you, And every time you ask to see me I'll have something else to do. Every time I join your game, You're not playing fair, And every time I really love you, I pretend that I don't care.

Waiting
Wanting, lusting, to be held, to be loved, to feel warmth, to feel your beating heart. Wanting to be sheltered from the cold, heartless winds. Falling into invisible arms; into an abyss of love. Wishing, hoping, that my desires will be filled; my desires of loving warmth. Wanting to be held, comforted, loved. Dreaming of passionate embraces, of tender kisses, loving words, romantic nights. Waiting for undying love.

Obama’s Trust Problem
Published on Friday, August 21, 2009 by The New York Times Obama’s Trust Problem by Paul Krugman According to news reports, the Obama administration — which seemed, over the weekend, to be backing away from the “public option” for health insurance — is shocked and surprised at the furious reaction from progressives. Well, I’m shocked and surprised at their shock and surprise. A backlash in the progressive base — which pushed President Obama over the top in the Democratic primary and played a major role in his general election victory — has been building for months. The fight over the public option involves real policy substance, but it’s also a proxy for broader questions about the president’s priorities and overall approach. The idea of letting individuals buy insurance from a government-run plan was introduced in 2007 by Jacob Hacker of Yale, was picked up by John Edwards during the Democratic primary, and became

You Are Like The Diamond
You are like the diamond You glimmer and glow And shine so brightly Some, like me, draw close To feel your warmth, your heat Only to find none You are like the diamond You are bright and strong But you have no warmth, or love It's a terrible game To play with people's hearts Like mine You are like the diamond You will last longer than most But you will have no love No warmth to back up that bright light So what kind of life will it be? Besides long? Will you regret it someday? Regret being so much like the diamond Regret being so cold And look for me And find me gone? Can I ever leave? No, I can never leave you I am drawn to this cold light This false sense of warmth you give I keep wishing and hoping That someday, you will give warmth But, this will never be Diamonds last forever

Love
You said the words I love you, But it is obvious things have changed. I said the words I love you, And my feelings are still the same. You said I'll love you forever, But forever wasn't long enough. I said I'll love you always, And I'll mean it forever. But I can not imply to you What that means, 'Cause your version of Forever Isn't what it seems, And my version of Always Seems like an unrealistic dream

Promises Made
Yesterday's goals, dim memories. Dark saddened eyes, blurring with tears. Painful scars borne; Love's history. Futures crumble when doubt appears. No brightly lit hope envisioned, When following after harsh words. Hurt soul splits in twain, partitioned. Swooned by appeal - when numbness lured. Apologies made, never bought. Price paid turned out far too costly. Though never known what would be wrought - Must walk into the night softly. One wish, only to be released. Granted - now receive this token. Words written in rhyme, love's deceased. When promises made . . . were broken.

Thinking
Thinking. Can't stop thinking. Think of you. This. That. That Life. That day. That dream was mine. A utopian dream. Your aura; struck me like lightning to a tree. Pointy, like a star, you shone. So bright, yet not shining as a star would, But as apparent as white chalk on a blackboard. You would not show off like a star. Yet you did burn so hot, so fiercely, so explosively - you were a star in my eyes. But like all stars, you died. That gas was gone. No pull between us. The atmosphere was dry and I began to choke. I was taken from my star - like a child being taken from its poor, drunken mother - I did not know what was happening. Dazed. Confused. Without true reality, I there sat. Wondering. The end of my world had only just begun, with yours beginning.

What Did You Expect.
You came into my life As quickly as you left. You grabbed a cutting knife And sliced right through my breast. You didn't mean to hurt But what did you expect? My heart now cut in two It feels beyond repair. Injury done by you God, life just isn't fair. You didn't mean to hurt But what did you expect? So here we are, just friends, But I long to be more. Desire with no end Throbbing from my core. You didn't mean to hurt But what did you expect?

August 23 Meditation
Keep in mind the goal you are striving for, the good life you are trying to attain. Do not let little things divert you from the path. Do not be overcome by the small trials and vexations of each day. Try to see the purpose and plan to which all is leading. If, when climbing a mountain, you keep your eyes on each stony or difficult place, how weary is your climb. But if you think of each step as leading to the summit of achievement from which a glorious landscape will open out before you, then your climb will be endurable and you will achieve your goal.

Life Changes So Quickly
So much has changed in just one year. I moved to colorado where i got a job and my own place.. Joshua moved out here from cali and after 4 years of talking on this site we are finally together. Soon after he moved here I got pregnant with our little girl keyla. she is the love of my life. For those of you who know me things are so much more different then when i was homeless and heartbroken...I thank all my friends and family for the advice and help. My life is great and i look forward to spending the rest of it with my daughter,friends and family.

Survey 2
Body: What is one movie you will never get sick of?Titanic stillIf you had to get a facial piercing what would it be?Lip, I like how I look with it, I've pierced it before in highschool sitting in classA random number texts you at 4AM and says "come outside." what do you do?grab something sharp and go to sleep What's your favorite gum?the extra blueberry stuff Whats your favorite thing to do in summer time?Sit on the beach at night and think, or in a park Do you get jealous of your friends when they're taken and you're single?NoWhat are you looking foward to?Meeting Mike What kind of phone do you have?stupid motorollaDo you miss the 90's cartoons?yep I still watch them on youtube and plan on getting the dvdsWhat bug creeps you out the most?mosquitoesWhat is your favorite form of exercise?eliptical machineYou just won 100 mil. What do you buy first?A car, educationIf you could go anywhere right this moment, where would it be?See my grandmother since she has been sickDo you get

Heartstrings Are Played Upon
It's becoming more evident Much more obvious to me I thought much more of you Than you ever thought of me Was this my biggest mistake Letting myself think you cared Was I just your marionette With heartstrings open and bared With me left here still thinking What was false, what was true So puzzling and so complex I�m left to await another clue On my heartstings you played Each left with a loving memory Yet I still have those questions Do you ever think about me I�m wondering why all the intrigue Now why all of this mystery Why am I left here hanging Your the one that holds the key.

Nobody
It's gone What's gone? My mind? Soul? No, I'm fine Not really Deep inside, something is missing The love and tender kissing She walked out herself Now all I do is talk to myself in the mirror, with my reflection My heart is dead Soon it will make a resurrection Once the wounds heal And I'm loved for real A type of love I can feel But nobody loves me Nobody cares Nobody loves me That nobody is me I can't love myself because no one does I'm all alone and no longer what I once was But the only thing that keeps me alive Is knowing that the next day, it might all change For the best And that "nobody" becomes somebody

Loss Of Innocence
When we first met I made you promiseyou would never leave,then I told you of the demons,and how they made me bleed.I made you promise crazy things,but your words were not enough.I couldn't believe you loved meI thought to love me was too tough.When I cry about my pastand say that I'm ashamedI know I am the only onewho is to be blamed.Then you crawl in bed beside meand say that it's ok-so I cry for my loss of innocenceand the things I gave away.When I can't sleep through the night,when I toss and turn in bed,you wrap your arms around meand chase the demons from my head.You say don't talk about the pastyou tell me that it's gone,you say since we're together nowit's time that I move on,you say that I'm your angelbut if you only knewthe kind of thoughts I thinkand what I used to do.You tell me it doesn't matterand that you love me anyway-so I cry for my loss of innocenceand the things I gave away.They said that's how they liked itwhen I dragged my nails across their backs,but now you hold

Falling In And Out Of Love
When I say I love you I do But this with you will not do I need someone I can lean on Someone I can count on too Yes you are there sometimes For that I am grateful to you But I need someone there full time And that you can not do You told me once you loved me That I could believe in you I was there when you needed someone Where were you when I needed someone, too? The time has come for me to let go Never to expect you to care again People may come and people may go But my love will never end

Wyoming
The search I'm In the middle of Wyoming's Red Desert. The sun is beating down on my shoulders as I hike over another sandy filled hill covered with cactus and wildflowers. I'm listening to the sound of peaceful quietness as all the worries leave my mind. As I pass a group of cedars a jack rabbit jumps out on the run. I don't know who's more startled, the rabbit or myself ! I continue my walk... Off in the distance I can see a herd of Antolope grazing on the tall sage like they have not a worry in the world. I pass over another hill and see my first hint of why I came on this trip. There on the desert floor I see chips scattered about in all directions. Flakes of chert and jasper left behind from an earlier day. My gaze grows stronger. My pace slows to a crawl. I move my way across a dried up creek bed still following the trail of multicolored chips. As I walk, the trail of chips get smaller and smaller until there are no more. As my disappointment weighs I look up and to my surpr

Corrupted Love
A warm sensation fills my body My heart races with every touch The softness of your voice soothes My soul As I lay there hoping the moment Will never end Calling out for you Praying that you'll never let me go The sensation so strong I can no longer feel my body Slowly I fade in and out of reality In an instant the warm sensation Fades away My heart empty My soul torn apart Lying there; wondering where I went Wrong Calling out for you, only to find there is no answer My mind invaded with thoughts So cruel and unrefined The sensation of fear of what's to come Slowly the reality over powering The lust and fantasy Leaving me empty Confused on how to think or feel The loneliness I feel So wretched and compelled Betrayal to myself Revealing the terrors of my love

Have You?
Have You ever loved someone But knew they didn't care? Have You ever felt like crying But Knew you'd get no where? Have you ever looked into their eyes And said a little prayer? Have you ever looked into their hearts And wished that you were there? Have you ever felt their heartbeat, When the lights were turned down low? Have you ever whispered "God, I love You" But you'll never let me show? Love is grand, yet it hurts so much. The price you pay is high. If I could choose between Love and Death, I'd rather choose to die. So do not fall in love, my friend, It doesn't pay a dime. It only causes broken hearts, Yet it happens all the time. So do not fall in love, my friend, You'll hurt before it's through. I ought to know, my friend - I fell in love with you.

She Inspires Me
You are the light in the dark room. You are the train that arrives soon. You are the handshake between friends. You are the song that everyone likes. You are the spice that senses entice. You are the sanctuary of strength not used. You are the vibration to which I attune. Richard LeBlanc (c) 2009

The Last Message
A shot rings outblood sprays the wallit makes a dull thudas his body fallsthe phone hits the groundthe line goes deadhe left her a messageheres what he said" hey baby whats up?how have you been?I was okay ...then i saw you with himyou were reading a poemi saw you lip the word lovemy heaven became homewith hell up abovei thought we had somethingtoo special to telllike a bird with broken wingsi saw you and fellbut i guess i was wrongin trusting youthough i did for so longyou broke it in twoso this is the endof all that we hadthis bulett will mendthese feelings of sad "She walks to his graveas the sun setsshe has a short lettersigned with her regretsit says " sweetie i love youhow couldn't you seethat poem was yourswere having a babyI didn't know what to sayso i got help from a friendyou came that wayand saw me reading it to himif only you knewthat smile was yoursthere was a girl with me there..and that guy was hers..honey i'm scaredi don't know what to dothis is something i wasn't prepar

My Love My Mary
I remove all remnants of seed and stem I fill my bowl up to the brim. These intoxicating fumes cause me never to be grim Jubilation is what I feel from limb to limb. I'm floating, soaring across this plane Accompanied by my love, my mary, my jane .. :P

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As a therapist I see a lot of clients in customer service who admit it isn't always easy to be present and in a good mood. Patience is difficult for everyone and when you get irate customers or people who blame , it is easy to close down, get angry yourself or just spend time waiting for the day to end. If you add to this, problems from family life and finances , stress at work can really build. Of course, co-worker tension doesn't help either! Meditation and yoga tools are useful for staying center. I'm hoping some managers will consider stress reduction booklets for customer service week as a way to train employees for reducing their own daily tension.

I Promise Baby
I promise baby I'll love you with you forever I'll stay I'll do anything and everything To keep harm to you away I promise baby I can give you hugs That only I can give I'll honor and protect you As long as I shall live I promise baby I'll give you kisses So sweet forever you'll taste I'll kiss you until tomorrows here No kisses for you to waste I promise baby I'll be here with you Like I know you'll be there for me I'll bring happiness to your eyes Love deeper than the sea I promise baby I'll never hurt you forever have no fears I'll give up everything To see you cry no tears I promise baby you can trust me I'll give you the world and more I'll be your fairytale suitor You shall be my Cinderella girl I promise baby I'll treat you As every women shall be My beautiful royal princess Show you off for everyone to see I promise baby this to you Promises so deep than he said, " But I'm truly sorry, there isn't one that I did keep."

"all Them Negative Waves"
last night around 8 or so, I had to call the sherriff on my next door neighbor, because he, in a drunken frenzy, threw a bag of feces into my back yard..lemme tell ya, I wasnt too thrilled with the man and I confronted him..at which point he wanted to start a fight ..to make it short, the deputies informed me that I would probably have to go to court and settle the issue through a mediator..which I have no qualms with. But, it begs me to ask the question "Where the fuck do all those negative waves come from?" and I have a movie that I love to watch called "Kelly's Heroes"-- a 1970 world war 2 film starring Clint Eastwood and Donald Sutherland...Donald plays the hippie like tank commander nicknamed "Oddball"..who always manages to look at the bright side of things, and always snaps at people when they "bring those negative waves, baby".,.. why cant we all be like that? no negative waves whatsoever...I mean, I live on the west coast for fucks sake..mellow and serene and sublime...

Broken Hearts
Where do they gowhen they haveno place to call homeLive and be brokenor hope they'llmend on their ownTime heals woundsand enables us to forgetWait! Time has no valueto aching broken heartsI long for your smiletender touch, and strong armsArms I run to, throw myselfbetween your charmYou weren't therewhen desperationand emptiness accompanied meNo more tears to wipeyou are not aroundand you'll never beYou ran awayand left me aloneI looked, no one was thereI was alone in this worldlooking aroundfor your careWhy did you leaveme on my ownI was sad notfor missing youI realized I've beenalways aloneI cried not because its overbut for the missingpart in my heartNo! I wont sayI am in loveglass doesn't mendonce shattered a partI'll keep paininside from now onwith my brokenheart I,ll roamloneliness taughtmy heart to singyet aches for a placeto call home

The Lowest Point
There comes a time when the suffering comes to end--There is a time when the prayer is heard,And the prayer is finally answered.When the pleas go deeper than words from the mouth,And thoughts from the mind, and feelings from the heart--When the pleas come from the crying of the soul,Then they are in their purest and most sincere form:Only then had one reached the lowest point.And when at this lowest point, When there is no further one can go--when one is at their most humble, and most vulnerable, Then God will take notice.It is not an act of cruelty, But rather a test of one's resolve and conviction, And to see how badly one longs for their desires, And to see what one will do and how far one will go...And when the suffering is so great that God notices, With a tear in HIS eye, that mercy is shown, and the burden lifted--And when this happens, it is a time for praise, a time for rejoycing,As the lowest point becomes the turning point...A time for the soul to cry in thanks and gratitude

Cry Of The Soul
Oh, God! Can you hear my cry?Can you hear my soul screaming, Begging for mercy from the Agony of the broken heart!Time after time after time,Knowing no happiness, knowing no love,Knowing only misery, loneliness,And an endless river of tears...Crying turns to waling, and walingTurns to silence as the voice gives wayTo where only the soul can be heard screaming....The screams of agony inside the mindCan be deafening...No relief, an endless cycle of games,Cowardice, and excuses-- What did I do to deserve this?Please! I beg for mercy! I fall down to my knees In my river of silent tears! I beg forgiveness for all sins, But especially those sins that has brought me this pain--I beg for release! I beg for your mercy! I beg for your pity!I beg your forgiveness!I long for the day when you put your hand on my head and say "You are forgiven, my child! You will be granted not only mercy, but Happiness and peace. Your pain, loneliness and suffering are over-- Go now with the love I have sent to you

Promises
He tells me he loves me,And says all these beautifulWords to me-- promises of aBright future and a life ILong to have.But these things have been said Over time and time continuesTo pass, and makes me wonder"Are we really meant to be?"I ask him so much and he tellsMe nothing... the only thingSaid is "Wait and have faithIn me"...But with no sign, and noAnswer, ignored at every turn,How am I supposed to feel?If only he would answer myQuestions, if only he wouldCommunicate, if only he hadAs much interest in keepingIn touch with me as I do with him...All the effort is being made byMe, nothing comes from him except aBunch of promises...Promises that are empty untilI have some sort of sign...Empty words are nothing, and I have Told him I am not getting youngerAnd can't wait forever...And it makes me wonder,"Is it time for me to move on?"

The Top Of The World
The Top of the WorldYou were the answer to my prayers--You were that which I wanted, watched for, and waited...You seemed like you were sent from heaven itself.You offered everything for which I yearned--Love, affection, and all that goes with...To have a warm pair of arms to hold me every night.And I fell asleep in those arms--Those same arms that promised to take me to the top of the world,And those arms did take me...In my sleep I felt the gentle rocking motion--The feeling of climbing the heights of ecstacy...Your climb to the top of the world...You climbed to the summit of Mount Everest--With me riding blindly on your back...And you gently wake me and say "We're here, darling".We had reached the top of the world,Just as you had promised, and then the unexpected--You push me from the summit...You took me to the top, and you shoved me off the mountain--And all my hopes and dreams shattered as they plungeWith me to the bottom...But alas, I know this climb as it has happened to meSo m

Out On A Limb
Alone at night, in my bed he comes to my mind-- I reach out my heart to him and wonder what I'll find... Fear reaches in at the mistake I have made, telling him how I feel too soon, but I could hold it in no longer...He is new in my life, but love knows no time-- it can happen over years, or in the blink of an eye. But to him who is so quiet, who shows me love but says not a word... how am I to know that what he feels is not the same?So here I am, out on a limb-- one whose heart has been broken so many times that I almost expect it, but for some reason still fear it, as if some part of me still holds on to some hope that he won't be like the others...Afraid of love, or afraid of me and what I feel... So many run away at the first sign of this dreaded emotion which is like elixir to a woman but poison to a man...He has shown himself to be different, so open and accepting, but part of me still knows and fears that in his heart he may be the same...That he would run away and the thought o

Virgo Fun Facts
Saw this on MSN today. What with my being a Virgo and all (My birthday's coming up in a month, 9/22!) I thought it would be fun to post! Apparantly y'all should be sending me Tequila! LOL! Virgo Fun Facts With an acute attention to detail, Virgo is the sign in the Zodiac most dedicated to serving. Their deep sense of the humane leads them to caregiving like no other, and their methodical approach to life ensures that nothing is missed. The Virgo is often gentle and delicate, preferring to step back and analyze before moving ahead. Friends and Family A Virgo is a helpful friend to have indeed. They are excellent at giving advice, and they really know how to problem-solve. You'll find that a Virgo will remind you to take good care of yourself as health is a focal point for them. And when the meal is done, they'll be the first to jump up and start the dishes. Loving and dedicated to family, the Virgo is also first on the scene when care is needed. When someone reaches old

Hide My Pain
Hide My PainIn your arms I lie at night,As the time counts down beforeIt is time for you to leave me.I have known for months thatThat day would come and insideMy mind I prepared myself, butMy heart kept pushing it away...Avoiding the inevitable...So with almost no time left,The pain wells up inside ofMe so bad that it goes beyondMere heartbreak...Holding back the tears, as I lie inYour arms at night, turning away,Hoping you wont catch me crying...You can never know what it is I feel-It would do no good to tell you becauseIt would not change how things are orHow things will be...And yet it is I find myself saying"I love you" under my breath, Almost constantly...And to slip and allow these tearsTo be freed would only deny me theRemaining time I have left, as youWould feel uneasy, and slip awayBefore it is time...It will get worse before it will getBetter, but with what I know and whatI have known, I cannot see beyond the Pain that lingers in my heart, and I am left wondering, will I ever

What Can Hurt You About Nsfw Pics
Hello fu-friends, I am writing this blog after being pressured by friends to do so. I have a good friend who was a School teacher (I use the term "was" ) as she was recently terminated from her position after almost 10 years of dedicated service. Apparently several years ago when she was getting her graduates degree in Education she ran across tough times and decided to try to make a little extra money by selling some nude pics of herself. Well recently she was heading up a PTA meeting when one of the parents who just happend to work for a publisher recognized her. That following Monday she got a call from the School Board Superintendent and was called into a private meeting. She said when she went into the office there was a manila folder on the desk and across the table was the head of the PTA. They pushed the folder across the table to her and asked her to look at the picture and verify wether the person in the photos was her. To her horror when she opend the folder it was her nud

Have You Ever Been In Love?
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Icon And The Black Roses : Black Rose
Some black roses on the floor And gliding petals on the river Your tears are so cold They 're twisting streams on your pale skin But once you had a red rose on your hands And spread its seeds away while hoping they blossom red Sound and safe from that tainted soul of yours Because your soul is black you fear the sun, wind and rain And would never let them to shine, blow or fall on your grave So the red roses are black for you, today Some black roses on the floor And drips of blood on your fingers With every torn you hurt so deep While harvesting on your death field But once you had a red rose on your hands And spread its seeds away while hoping they blossom red Sound and safe from the tainted soul of yours Because your soul is black you fear the sun, wind and rain And would never let them to shine, blow or fall on your grave So the red roses are black for you, today Roses are black roses for you today Roses are black roses for you today Roses are black roses for you today Fo

Being Nice...
I've been making an effort to be nice to people(even in the mumms). I've done a lot of thinking about myself. I used to be a really nice person. Somewhere along the way I began to hate people and started to treat them like shit. I'm trying to change my ways. I'm tired of being pissed off all of the time. Can anyone tell?

The Amazing Inspirational Powers Of Hotdog Buns
Desolate Madness slowly seeps in,She says, " I have stories to tell, don't know where to begin"You walk your fine line with its zigzag turnsEvery mis step leads to your getting burnedCross yourself pretending that your god hearsIgnoring that your prayers fall on insensitive earsAnd when dawn breaks and you find you're still aloneRemember the light you could've been shownWe offered no false hope or faith to breakBut our hands to hold and our hearts to take.When you could've had brotherhood and unityYou chose contradictions and trickeryWe offered all our trust and loveYou chose instead fabrications from aboveYou're now far out of our reachAs long as you believe the lies they teachHopefully sometime soon you'll be able to seeThey teach values riddled with hypocrisy.---------------------------------------------------------This right here is what happens when I get bored at work and I'm extremely sleep deprived... go figure. I found my muse...

What A Group Of Losers These People Are
Recent actions by a few have finally pissed off the quietest, most easy-going peron on this site, and I've taken action on it. My action may only affect me, and maybe some of you will think I'm over-reacting, and to those I say tough shit.I have gone through my friends and fans of lists and deleted ALL MFKN members and ALL red members. They are nothing but self-serving, lying, step on whoever they want when they feel threatened, parasites and I'll have nothing to do with any of them. I won't list here the final straw, but I will say that an innocent, 4 year member of this site, quiet, shy, and totally non-threatening, was banned on a lie, and by a Fubar Family member, who will remain nameless. That person has also been removed. It's pretty f#cking sad when slug losers have to resort to lies all for a top 50 position. Grow up asswipes, it's not real. You get nothing for being 'red', especially when you don't earn it, you steal it.So I publically am announcing here that if any M

Think Bout It
THINK ABOUT THIS FOR A MINUTE:1. Cows 2. The Constitution 3. The Ten Commandments ------------------------------------------------------------------------COWS Is it just me, or does anyone else find it amazing that during the madcow epidemic our government could track a single cow, born in Canada almostthree years ago, right to the stall where she slept in the state of Washington?And, they tracked her calves to their stalls. But they are unable to locate 11 million illegal aliens wandering around our country. Maybe weshould give each of them a cow.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------THE CONSTITUTION They keep talking about drafting a Constitution for Iraq .... Whydon't we just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys,it has worked for over 200 years, and we're not using it anymore. ------------------------------------------------------------------------THE 10 COMMANDMENTS The real reason that we can't have the

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You will profile rate each Llama that was on the last roll call list once done leave a comment below that you have done so. Those failing to do this roll call by Wednesday midnight will be removed see the last warning blog. They are all listed as family members on the home page so it should make it easier Thanks, Dave Founder

Long Drive Home
well we came down to San Jose CA for the third and final time for this summer. We only came down for my mother in-laws 80th birthday the day after my 48th birthday to have dinner with her . We all had a great time and went out to dinner. All of her sons, grandchildren and great grandchildren. Now to drive up to Seattle and arrive LATE tonight. Now I wish we flew ... lol

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The Night It All Went Wrong
Just told my pal Monica "I need to write a blog, so you must ignore me" "Easy done" she sniggered. She will suffer for that remark, when I start vomiting again and she has to hold a pot for me to puke in. that's what friends are for. My illness started on Friday night, I did my show, it was great fun, Monica clapped loudly, Dean Friedman (my lovely friend and musical hero) laughed loudly and we headed out of the venue. Monica and I walked up to the Gilded Balloon loft, I had some tea, Monica had a gin and immediately I got horrendous cramps in my lower abdomen. "Ok, maybe I need a poo" I said to Monica and headed for the toilet, the cramps continued, I broke out in a hot sweat and I decided it was time to go home. Poor Monica was on holiday and I just cut the night short by organising diarrhoea and stomach cramps. When we got back to the flat at around 9pm as we are total rock and roll, I stripped half naked and headed for the loo. I sat there for ages expulsing everything

Obamacare For Combat Wounded Vets
OK gang I came across this today. People wounder why I despiese OBAMA here is one of the many reasons, HE HATES AMERCAS TROOPS AND HER VETERANS Sen. Arlen Specter on Sunday called for hearings to scrutinize a guide for veterans' end-of-life care which one former Bush official says sends a "hurry-up-and-die" message to injured troops. The guide, called "Your Life, Your Choices," was suspended under the Bush administration but has been revived under the current Department of Veterans Affairs. Jim Towey, former director of the White House Office of Faith-Based Initiatives, told "FOX News Sunday" that the pamphlet makes injured veterans feel like a burden, encourages the severely injured to die and should be tossed out. Asked about the document, Specter, a member of the Veterans' Affairs Committee, said it raises "a lot of questions" and that he would call for hearings immediately. "I think consideration ought to be given right now to suspending it pending hearings," Specte

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Waiting
Waiting You wait your entire life for something you know is yours to only find out you cant even reach out and touch itEveryday you feel whole but yet incompleteYou know that there is someone out there that loves youBut you yurn for their touch thier whisper their loving glancesYou crave they way they feel but yet you have never touchedTHe empty feeling gets worse day by dayThe lonely feeling gets worse day by dayThe Day needs to come when you can reach outReach out and touch the thing that makes you feel realHow a simple touch can be so missedHow a simple look can be so neededWhen I reach out all I get is this hard smooth cold screenThe thing I hate the most because it makes me want you moreBut the only thing I have right now that gives us the chance to be closeHow writen words, how a voice in my ear, how a box with you in itCan never compare....I sit here and wait, maybe for the rest of my life, to have the thing I know is so rightMaybe someday I will get to touch what I have waited

Tiny Moments In Time
The Clock is what I watch. Tick Tock Tick Tock. Time seems to move so slowly when your not thereTick Tock Tick Tock. Counting down the days until I can see youTick Tock Tick TockLike a shot out of the night a text or Im Pops upMy face lights up, my heart beats faster as I race to tell you hiThe clock speeds upTick tock tick tock tick tockWhen I do get to see you my heart feelslike its going to explode. WHen you smileMy night or day gets brighter"The Man behind the words"I can feel myself falling fster and faster, as the wind rushes by my face. Grasping for something to slow me downBut everythign I touch is smooth and speeds me up even fasterWaiting for the right time to tell you that I cantlive without you. Waiting to see you, hear you and feel you, TO make sure its right, butI know that it is right and I am strugglin with not leting it outFor fear of scaring you awayMy pen pater and the dreams I dream knowJust for nowThe smile is hard to hide but not hard to readI know you know just w

My Daily Struggle
The StrugleI strugle everday To Find the Words to sayTo make sure that the way I feel doesnt get outTo wait until i can show you what I am all aboutI try everdayTo make sure I tell you in little waysHow I feel is plan as dayBut I will have to tell you in person somedayThe feelings I have I am sure are clearThat everyone can see how I feel far or nearNothing ever have I felt quite like thisThe feelings I have felt could never compare to thisThe words I love you are always on my lips and at the touch of my finger tipsTho the feeling that the time isnt right to tell you wieghs heavy on my heartI shake with everything held up inside of meThe pit inside my soul I just wanna fill up full of your loveI know that I am going to explode if I never get this outI feel like I am going to go nuts if I dont know how you feelThose words so simple but yet so trueCan cause so much healing in one single breathTO hear them from you just even onceWould send me over the edge in pure blissThe Strugle inside

The End
The hate and the rage I feelI feel like my life is being torn away from meTHe air I breath the gravity that makes my world spinRiped from me I am free falling and struggling to breatheTHe lives I made that became my lifeThe identiy of who I am the thought of someone else being that personBurns through my soul and kills meHow am I suppose to live without all of these thingsSomedays I feel as if the the little lives I have made are better off without meI feel like I am worthlessI feel like I am nothingI am nobody without themI look at him and I want to screamHe could never know how it feels to have that taken awayThe one thing that was consistant in my lifeThe one thing that I know appreciated meThe one thing that I knew needed me The one thing I that I knew would always love me THe one thing my arms cant be withoutHe sits there thinking that he knows whats bestHe sits there and tells me how its for the bestHe sits there and tells me its a change for himHe sits there and says its going t

Stamped Damanged
What you have doneThings in done and saidThings you cant take backYou just can't erase You just can't sweepYou StabbedYou Wrote with permint inkYou left a pile under the rugDreams that once were dreamedPromiess that were once madeComfort that was thereShatteredBrokenEmptyEmotions put inWords that were spokenLaughter that was sharedNever againAll LiesEmpty SpaceThings that were givinSarfice that was made

Fear
My heart is filled with painMy mind is filled with doubtMy emotions are spinningI can not stop cryingI can not see straightI do not want to liveI want to just go to sleep and never wake upI am thinking about us and my pastThe past few nights all I have had is nightmaresI do not want to remember them but I amYou tell me how you don't know meI tell you who I amI do not think you are going to like itI just don't want to lose youNeverless, you say you need to knowWhy can't you be happy with who I am nowI am going to scream and go numb, when I tell youI am going to change just a little moreEverytime I tell this life storyI want to run and hide, but there is no where to goFor I know that I am going to scare you awayJust promise I will not lose youI have lost to many by nowJust hold me while I tell youI know I am not going to be quit sane afterwardCan you live with me?Now knowing my painKnowing my FearsKnowing my deepest secertsKnowing my whole life storyEnding the pain is all I wantNeverless

You Rock
Very few people on this planet will ever be lucky enough to come across a person in their life that can truly be their "rock". Ive been lucky enough to collect a handful of people i consider to be my friend. Ive been lucky enough to have the chance to experience a lot in a little time, and have even been able to meet an enormous amount of people in my short lifetime who have taught me things, shown support, and shown me how to love and be loved... But ive rarely met those who I consider my rock. Being a "rock" to someone is exactly that. An actual rock doesnt go anywhere, even when times get rough... A rock stays strong regardless of how much its been rained on or whether beaten...A rock doesn't really change - aside from its surface evolving - its core always remains what its always been...Much like all things derived from nature, rocks don't criticize or judge you..A rock is what it is - what you see is what you get!!In fear of coming off like some wierd-o hippy-dippy, I'll get t

Morning Flowers
As I awaken I feel a sense of joy. I feel as if a peace has come to me at last. As I lay there between the dreamland and the awakened world I float and glide like a bird riding the wind. I can feel you next to me. I fear opening my eyes even just the slightest crack can bring me down off of this cloud that I have floated on, if you are not really there. I can feel the sun beating down on my face. Then I feel a kiss on my forhead, ever so lightly. My Heart warms a little more, then it was a moment before. I slowly open my eyes and there you are, laying next to me is it possable my dreams have come true. Your smiling at me our forheads are touching. I feel at home and not wanting this moment to end. As if you are reading my mind you throw the covers over our heads and pull me closer. The feeling of your hands on me sends me over the cloud I am floating on, to ones much higher. I feel this uncontrolable, love and my heart sores with joy. I fall into your arms, the feel of your skin and th

Jealousy.
*sigh* I know I shouldn't be talking about my problems here. But... *sigh* While trying to reply to a text my friend sent me the other night, I discovered a plethora of messages to a girl from my boyfriend. Supposedly to his married friend (who, i'd like to point out, is SMOKING FUCKING HOT) talking about how attracted they were to each other, caling her sexy and shit like that. things he doesn't say to me. he claims he even says that to her husband, it's like their thing. But she's SMOKING FUCKING HOT. older than I am. Can drink. Everythign about her is an UPGRADE from me. and she's not pregnant. I know, i know, he's ALWAYS with me except on karaoke night, when he goes to hang with a bunch of his friends (all old enough to legally be there, unlike me), and I know that he woulda booted me a LOOOONG while ago for the jealousy if he didn't want to be with me. But all I ask for is a little romance from him, i mean, if he can talk to HER like that, why not me? *sigh* I

Stormy Weather.
Torrent of steam and the smell of sweat faintly in a porcelain tub for two.Making mohawks, over-wet kisses on slippery parts.Trade-offs, parking tolls, use the buddy system.Going by yourself can be dangerous.And I take those big clumsy thick hips in my hand and pull her close.Her sex is magnetic, and I'm a cloud of electricity striking in seemingly random points.her body with a permanent jigsaw fit to mine.It doesn't matter nowwhat I know later.How two people will sever as vehemently and loudly as the cosmos will allow.One man erased, two memories blasphemed, and an unwashable sin that blotted out the sun.I played the fool, while you played the same card twice.Entwined, and plummeting toward disaster.I will never feel another passion like itfor fear or for sense?Maybe fear is sense. You might find fire beautifuldancing as it does in the darkflitting and wafting its sultry curves, enticing- demanding you to touch.

Fart From Hell
Holy shit I just farted and almost killed myself...Everyone's suppose to love their own Brand...but fuck!the was pure Evil what came out of me...it's up there with the gas they used for genocide in WWII...When it came out, I swear I heard children cry in the far, faint distance......today is a sad day for America...and my ass.

Helpful Stuff To Get Started With
ive been working on computers 20 plus years since i was very young ,other people contrube things they are talented at so this is my contrubution .now i cant give the links in here ive tried and fu says they block links in blogs so im going to give you some site names to google antionline this is a great site it is a online community where alot of white hats and other computer experts come together to share and exchange knowlesge its not limited to secuirty feild althouth that is the main focus of the site , freecreed this is a good yahoo related site with such things as links to other useful sites on everything remotley related to yahoo also included are arcives of old messy builds various other programs some not related to yahoo at all theeldergeek this is a great site i know such a wide ranging amount of stuff its impossible to remember stuff so i go to this site alot when repairing windows computers i use it on a regular basis its the most comprehensive windows related site ive

Chocolate-flavoured Milk Speeds Up Recovery As Well As Expensive Sports Drinks
Chocolate milkshake, which is low-fat milk flavoured with cocoa and sugar, has the advantage of additional nutrients not found in most traditional sports drinks Photo: GETTY Researchers found that chocolate milkshake's "natural" muscle recovery benefits match or may even surpass a specially designed carbohydrate sports drink. They discovered that muscle damage was actually lower in those players that drank the milk after training than those that drank the commercial energy drinks. The team at James Madison University in Virginia, USA, tested the level of muscle damage in 13 football players after intensive training. They found that the half of the players that were given chocolate milkshake showed lower levels than those given sports drinks. The actual performance of the two groups was, however, similar. There were also no differences between the two beverages in effects on perceived muscle soreness, mental and physical fatigue and other measures of muscle strength. This new

So Yeah, This Place Is Great
Last night, two whack-job fundamentalist Islamist militants got whacked by another group of whack-job fundamentalist Islamist militants, because of their slightly different interpretation of whack-job fundamentalism. In the process, they blew up the hospital down the street from me, and 5 other innocent people who were just going for medical treatment and to visit family. Ladies and gentlemen...The Religion of Peace!!! Happy fucking Ramadan...pulled pork and beers for everyone!

Kids Say And Do Wonderful Things
The Wooden Bowl I guarantee you will remember the tale of the Wooden Bowl tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now. A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year - old grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered. The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess"We must do something about father," said the son. "I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor." So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Gra

Common Sense 2009
Larry Flynt The Huffington Post August 20, 2009 The American government — which we once called our government — has been taken over by Wall Street, the mega-corporations and the super-rich. They are the ones who decide our fate. It is this group of powerful elites, the people President Franklin D. Roosevelt called “economic royalists,” who choose our elected officials — indeed, our very form of government. Both Democrats and Republicans dance to the tune of their corporate masters. In America, corporations do not control the government. In America, corporations are the government. This was never more obvious than with the Wall Street bailout, whereby the very corporations that caused the collapse of our economy were rewarded with taxpayer dollars. So arrogant, so smug were they that, without a moment’s hesitation, they took our money — yours and mine — to pay their executives multimillion-dollar bonuses, something they continue doing t

One Bad Choice Deserves Another
Just pile em right up. Yesterday I went to a pig roast - not necessarily a bad thing, but I had food poisoning Thursday (I'm pretty sure that's what it was). So Friday at dinner was the first I had real food - toast doesn't count. I head up there a lil late on Saturday, I didn't have dinner cause I figured there would still be pig, and I had a cherry bomb in a big ass cup to go. By the time the cherry bomb is gone I decide it's a good time for some food, but I dont see any in sight. So, I had some moonshine instead, and a refill on the cherry bomb, and a cherry soaked in moonshine. And at some point someone popped a percocet into my hot little hand - you know that went right down. I'm not sure what time I wandered out to my car to lie down and vomit, my friends found me in the car, brought me my stuff and appointed me a 6'9" babysitter - who apparently checked on me several times an hour for however long I was passed out and randomly heaving. I woke up around 3 am feeling

Fallen Angel
I am neither alive nor dead My soul breeds darkness My heart breeds light To follow the path into darkness The light fades away... My body longs for life within this death My mind longs for knowledge within this life The journey into darkness begins Thus the light begins to fade away... No longer do I have my wings No longer do I wish to battle I choose what I choose I am neither good nor bad I am neither darkness nor light... Destined to be an immortal being Destined to protect or destroy The bringer of life The bringer of death The Fallen Angel I am...

The Vampire
Go forth into slumber to awaken anew Awaken to new senses The bloodlust arisen, The energy to take So much to gather so much to quench. Alas tis a wonder what am I? Strange this new light in my life hmm light? It's not light rather dark but the dark is rather light to me calling to me ''Awaken all your senses child, feel the darkness calling you''. Pale as I am beautiful My Lips bloodred to bring the fullness out of my paleblue skin hmmmm really What am I? The ''hunter'' within cries out Where shall I go to hunt? To the weary alleys or perhaps the park or hot steaming nightclubs? Alas whatever beckons to me I shall respond to. To embrace my prey in my arms The need to quench my thirst is the grandest thing for me to feel Your death brings me life The darkness brings me life. Sleep all day within the protections of shade Awaken with the fullness of night What am I? I AM VAMPIRE...

People Over 35 Should Be Dead
People over 35 should be dead.Here's why ....According to today's regulators and bureaucrats,those of us who were kids in the 40's, 50's, 60's,or even maybe the early 70's, probablyshouldn't have survived.Our baby cribs were covered with brightcolored lead-based paint.We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles,doors or cabinets, and when we rode our bikes,we had no helmets.(Not to mention the risks we took hitchhiking.)As children, we would ride in cars withno seatbelts or air bags.Riding in the back of a pickup truck on a warm daywas always a special treat.We drank water from the garden hoseand not from a bottle.Horrors!We ate cupcakes, bread and butter,and drank soda pop with sugar in it,but we were never overweight becausewe were always outside playing.We shared one soft drink with four friends,from one bottle, and no oneactually died from this.We would spend hours building our go-cartsout of scraps, and then rode down the hill,only to find out we forgot the brakes.After running

A Moment In Time
A moment caught in time with you,One of just a precious few.Across the sea, the setting sun -Slipping into oblivion. Coming to us in gold array,Atop the waves reflection rolled away.Across the horizon in grand display,We watched it softly sink to yesterday. Still in your arms you held me tight,As the fire-filled sky gave way to night.I gently kissed your lips, sweet and tender,Caught up in the night's magic and splendor. You were an angel in my eyes,Fallen to me from the skies.Looking in your eyes, lost in the gleam,I felt like a woman touching a dream. You fulfilled every desire and need,With a touch that made my soul bleed.Oh, how I loved holding you close to me,But to hold your love I had to set you free. Still each day the sun sets 'fore my eyes,In brilliant colors, painting the skies.But it never quite holds the same flare -Only an old photograph could share. A memory I hold close to my heart,Where you'll always hold the biggest part.Even as the same sun rolls in tomorrow,And I fi

Southern Girls Know It Best...
Southern women know their summer weather report: HumidityHumidityHumiditySouthern women know their vacation spots: The beachThe rivuhThe crickSouthern women know everybody's first name:HoneyDarlin'ShugahSouthern women know the movies that speak to their hearts:Fried Green TomatoesDriving Miss DaisySteel MagnoliasGone With The WindSouthern women know their religions: BaptistMethodistFootballSouthern women know their cities dripping with Southern charm:Chawl'stn S'vanahFoat WuthN'awlinsAddlannaSouthern women know their elegant gentlemen: Men in uniformMen in tuxedosRhett ButlerSouthern girls know their prime real estate:The MallThe Country ClubThe Beauty SalonSouthern girls know the 3 deadly sins:Having bad hair and nailsHaving bad mannersCooking bad foodMore Suthen-ism's: Only a Southerner knows the difference between a hissie fit and a conniption fit, and t hat you don't "HAVE" them, you "PITCH" them.Only a Southerner knows how many fish, collard greens, turnip greens, peas, beans

Your Life, Your Decisions
Thought of the Day:"The best day of your life is the one which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours-it is an amazing journey-and you alon are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life rally begins."

Beliefs That Make Sense..at Least To Me...
MY ADOTPED MANTRA..."To be completely woman ,you need a Master and in him, a compass for your life.You need a man you can look up to and respect.If you dethrone him, it is no wonder that you are discontented,and discontented women are not loved for long." ~Marlene DietrichLike many of us I am looking for a deeper meaning of life, somethingthat clearly identifies, defines and celebrates the differences between men and women.Something that truly embraces…Something I firmly believe in . ~~~ The Natural Order of life ~~~ I will always believe that men are men, dominant and head of the householdand that women are feminine, submissive and sensual creatures. Yet in the real world so many women take on the role of the head of households and families...thus making my beliefs more of a self illuminating concept...not for the everyday, everybody order of things...BUT FOR US IT IS THE RIGHT WAY TO BE ...ONE... The shortest and surest way to live with

Come For Me
As I lay down tonight I will close my eyes and await the cold touch of the only one that can truely take me away from all my pain and mistakes in my life for this one person is DEATH and yet this cold embrace I welcome to myself with ever so open arms that are outstreached to him... In my darkest hours I will wait for the touch of him to guide me along my path for nothing I say or do makes sense anymore and nothing I feel makes sense anymore... I have fought my battles with my demons and thought I had won the war only now to find out that I had never won a battle at all but only was made to believe that I had won these battles.... So into my dark world I will drift off and pray that I will never awaken again but be taken to a better place among other useless souls that had failed in their lifes journeys also.... With final words spoken now and my shadows closing in upon me with a final breath I shall be nothing more but a faded memory...... As I lay in wait for you to come for

Poster Printing
poster printing art had widespread usage in other parts of Europe, advertising everything from bicycles to bullfights. By the end of the 19th century, during an era known as the Belle Époque, the standing of the poster as a serious artform was raised even further.

The Biker...
tHE BIKER I saw you; hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $100.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you; pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you; change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But, you didn't see me, riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, y

Have You Ever ?
Have you ever been so deep in love with someone that they are all you can think about ? Have you ever been in love with someone so much that you can't eat till you hear from them ? Have you ever gave your whole heart to someone with only love being in mind ? Have you ever told someone they would be your only one till the end of time ? Have you ever fallen in love with someone and couldn't stop thinking about them ? Have you ever been on the edge of tears everytime you talk to that person ? Have you ever been so in love with somebody that you can't love ? Have you ever loved the one your with and yet not love them the way you once did ? Have you ever wanted to die for feeling this way ? Have you ever felt like you failed because you hold back feelings and emotions from the one you love ? Have you ever been in love and yet not in love at the same time ? Have you ever ?????

Free Movies Online
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The Holders Of Chaos: Sand And Chaos
Oh the joy..that enters me..like that of bliss..such joy..that i hold near and dear..call me a child..a child of sand..for i am many..yet one..like the sand grains at your feet..and call her..the chaos that is me..for she is change..i live in her hour glass..and flows freely through her..i live in her presences..i show the time..we share..all with great care..oh what a lovely hour glass she is..with the whisper of the winds..she is heard..she shifts through me..and i ride on her breeze..she carrys me to and from..showing me the way..her ways are a mystery to me..but i a joy to explore..for i am but an watch..the chaos..with that of a childs eyes..and i long for her grace..to open the way..we..the holders of chaos..binded in nature..we are complete..and the world is but our playground..to do with as we please..the possiblities are endless..and with that said..i rest my head..on the shoulders of chaos..feeling at peace..in a time of dark despair.

The "real" Me!
Ok {Out of character} look as some people know DEADPOOL IS a WISE ASS, DEADLY MUTHERFUCKING BAD ASS MERC WITH A MOUTH! SARCASM & WITTY BANTER IS HIS GREATEST WEAPON NEXT TO HIS MARTIAL ARTS SKILL AND MASTERY OF MANY EDGED AND ARTILLARY WEAPONS! NOW HE'S ALSO A LITTLE OFFENDING AND A PERV! NOW AS FOR ME NO!... I'M NOT!... OK I'M A WISE ASS AND SARCASTIC, AND HAVE A LITTLE MARTIAL ARTS BACKGROUND BUT THAT'S IT! WE HAVE NOTHING ELSE IN COMMON! SO WHY CREATE THIS PAGE? WELL TO BE COMPLETELY HONEST I WAS BORED AND DECIDED TO START A DEADPOOL PAGE BUT STAY IN CHARACTER! I MEAN WHY NOT?... HE'S HILARIOUS! BUT I'M WRITTING THIS CAUSE SOME PEOPLE MAY THINK I'M LIKE THIS FOR REAL AND IS USING THIS TO ANNOY PEOPLE AND HIDE BEHIND A FAKE PAGE SOME PEOPLE MAY NOT THINK I'M FUNNY. SO I DIDN'T WANT TO CONFUSE ANYONE. THERFORE I'M WRITTING THIS! IF YOU GET IT, THANX FOR THE SUPPORT IF YOU DON'T, SORRY I OFFENDED YOU! AND IF YOU REPLY WITH SOMETHING NASTY WELL BE PREPARED TO GET IGNORED DEAD

Just Some Thoughts And Feelings That I Need To Get Down
well my mom is trying to get social security and they keep turning her down stating she can work. well my mom cant work, even her doctor says she is to fragile to work, and when she does do even a little work it wears out for days. no insurance will cover her because of her disease and her doctor will not want to see her full time if she cant get social security so it been a pain in my ass. well on thursday i received the letter of denial and tried to call her all day and received no answer but i wasnt to worried but bout four oclock friday when i still couldnt reach her i was freaking out. i was at work but i was worried to death, but thank god at 8 oclock she called me. she had helped a friend out and left her phone there so she couldnt call me. after chewing her out for scaring me i was relieved it was then and there i realized that i am terrified that one day i am gonna wake up and my mom will have died and be alone. she lives with my cousin so technically she wouldnt be but sti

Like Flipping A Switch
A while ago, I went on a rant about someone with a sticker about how Starbucks sucks. I'm going to have to retract my previous statements. It's been nearly 3 years since I started working for this corporate beast, and it has continually gotten worse. Here is how to effectively create, and subsequently destroy a giant: 1) Spend several decades creating and perfecting your product and it's environment. 2) Go public and hire a string of people at the corporate head office that have obviously NEVER worked in one of the your stores in any capacity. 3)Listen to said people. Stop listening to the customers and employees in the stores. 4) Slowly take away all of the perks you used to offer and were widely praised for. (I.E. no paid vacation time for employees who have worked less than 1 full year, no more paid personal days, no more flexible scheduling [essential for students/mothers]) 5) Cut labor while implementing new, more complicated procedures for your stores. 6)Make significa

Family
family the part of u that keeps u going the focus that keeps u in the rigt mind family is the essence of u that keeps u alive focused and ready to breathe the power of family is strong and intense family is waht we believe in what makes us do right even after we have done wrong in our lives because family lets us set down and head to the point of understanding family is free powerful strong and family is what we all need.

Stay Just A Little
I heard it in your voice when your love died On a day that looked just like this one You said it was over and then cried You were gone before I could say goodbye I don't want to think that it is true, That distance came between us like a knife and cut our hearts apart Where did we go wrong and let it all come unglued? The only one I ever loved was you. Would you stay my love? Would you sway a bit my only? Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up And if you stay just a little, that's enough. It hurts me as I lay awake at night Remembering our last kiss that we shared doesn't feel right. Is it impossible for me to win this struggle in my soul? Keep you a little longer in my life? Would you stay please my love? Would you sway a bit for me? Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up And if you stay just a little, that's enough.

Work
I'm waiting for my super berries to go on farmsville on facebook to grow so I can go to bed..yea yeah...stupid kari got me addicted to that game now. She kept bugging me to go on face book, so I did..and now I'm on that farming game. My boss came around with a card asking to sign it for one of our co workers who is a type of manager...he's leaving to work a different shift and I asked him jokenly "So do I get to take his place?" He said sometime soon that I'll be able to train more and being able to manage more of work...yay!!! I haven't done that in a long time. I like learning more stuff at work and being able to do more stuff....slowly moving up still....in Oct I'll find out if I get my raise or not..I hope I do. I'm work a extra day this coming week...debating if I would want to work on Thursday as well...that would be 60+ hours of working that week....I hate working extra days but I need the money....

Real?
For personal reasons i haven't been on much lately... don't ask, no one's business. When i signed on last night I find my owner/friend/family memebr is gone. I was told she was embarassed off because she lied about having cancer and messed with too many men and 'hurt' too many of us. I was directed to a Blog which outed her. Had a convo with that wome who said she was tired of the lies... So i ask you how much of your profile ad what you spew forth on a daily basis is 100% true? Really? How much hurt can a little on line flirting cause? It seems to me that this friend of mine was outed by someone who, util a short time ago was 'single' and visited her boyfriend across country, now that person's profile reads "married". But who the F cares? Are we all little fu-cops now? It's the internet, it's FUBAR, folks. Only a percentage of what you read and write is real!!!! Take it for what it's worth... why darken another's day...? It will come back to haunt you! DP

Some Info On Me
Not sure if this is where I put this but here goes. My name is Dan and I am the lead guitarist for Algorithm, an extreme-tech-metal band from Florida. My g/f told me about this site so I thought I would check it out. Drop me a line and I will do my best to reply in a timely manner though my band keeps me very busy. Especially right now as we are writing like mad-men finishing up some more songs for our full length debut CD "Calculating Mankinds Extinction" Recording starts in 2 weeks!!! I can't wait! You can check out the band at www.algorithmmetal.com or find out more about me and drop me a line here.

About Fu
Well I ran my 11's and I leveled. Yay me. And a serious thank you to everyone who helped. And a thank you to all of you who wanted to delete me because of my point whoring ways, but didn't. You know I don't think it's so much the leveling because that will take me forever anyway, I think it's the game aspect as a whole that I like. I am not really a competitive person when it comes to other people but I can be pretty competitive with myself. Which is hard enough as it is. I know a lot of people are annoyed with the changes on FU. I think a lot of those people would complain about anything if someone is willing to listen and I think this site is just something else to complain about. Then again, maybe I'm just weird. I like people watching. I like it a lot and this site fulfills that hobby better than the fucking mall. I don't know what I would do without stupid mumms. Or out of control mummers. Or creative bloggers. Or horny yet no-game-having raters. Or old women in their underwe

Aussie President Kevin Rudd
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Yet Another Failed Relationship
I guess it's time for an update blog. I remember when I first started dating Billy. We had so much fun. He always made me laugh. It felt so good to not have to be responsible. To just act like a couple kids...and we did. The problem with that is sooner or later if you are going to live together and maintain a household, a family, and a job ( well one of us at least), you have to eventually grow up. Yes I knew about the weed habit beforehand but honestly I didnt think it was such a HUGE part of who he was. I let myself believe that it didn't matter. That as long as he didnt do it in front of my kids, it wasn't a big issue. He did work a few different jobs actually.A couple restaurants, drywall, painting, deli work.He had so many dreams and ambitions but did nothing to see them through. Bottom line, he jus wasn't REALLY ready to settle down. He let himself think he was and he tried hard but just seemed out of his element. I felt like I was tying him down.In fairness the kids didn't ma

For All My Dear Friends
VERSE 1:Sometimes late at nightI lie awake and watch her sleepingShe's lost in peaceful dreamsSo I turned out the lightAs I lay there in the darkAnd a thought crosses my mindIf I never wake in the morningWill she ever doubtThe way I feel about her, in my heartCHORUS:If tomorrow never comesWill she know how much I loved herDid I try in every wayTo show her every dayShe's my only one.If my time on earth were throughShe must face this world without meSo the love I gave her in the pastWould it be enough to lastIf tomorrow never comes.VERSE 2:Cause I've lost loved ones in my lifeWho never knew how much I loved themNow I live with the regret, that my true feelings for themnever were revealed,So I made a promise to myselfTo say each day how much she means to meAnd avoid that circumstanceWhere's no second chanceto tell her how I feelCHORUS:If tomorrow never comeswill she know how much I loved her,(how much I loved her)Did I try in every wayTo show her every dayShes my only one.If my time on ea

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Choices... There is Good....and there is Evil, Right and Wrong, Heros....and Villians... And if We are blessed with Wisdom, then there are Glimpses between the cracks of each... where Light Streams Thru..... We wait in Silence for these times...when sense can be made, When meaningless Existence comes into Focus... and our Purpose presents itself...... And if we have the Strength to be Honest, then what we find there...staring back at us, is our own Reflection... Bearing witness to the 'Duality' of Life, And EACH ONE of US....is capable of both The Dark... And The Light, of Good...and Evil, Of Either.........Of All..... And Destiny...while marching ever in our direction.... CAN be Re-Routed by the Choices We Make, By the LOVE we Hold onto... and the PROMISES WE KEEP. .....PEACE.

General
why do people take life so serious , that they forget how to enjoy life and that we forget that enven though that we are human ,there are some people are so smart that they become so stupid ,that common sense is no where to be found in dealing with life in general period.

Hhmmm...wondering...
I had a naughty thought today. If anyone ever says-"threesome" to me, I think 2 girls, 1 guy. Normally I consider 2 guys, 1 girl to have too many sausages in the room. Today I had a dirty fantasy about 2 guys. They are guys from Fubar too. I am not gonna tell which two I was thinking about. Maybe it was you...

I Need Your Votes Plz....
http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1004228&albumid=1816166&i=2431058147&idx=0 can i get your rate on that ONE pic plz?? tysvm in advance :) I started late so i am really needing your help on this one thank you!!

Now What? Well, I'll Tell You...
Ahhh... The internet... The modern day melting pot for all of us who are too shy to join the real world and get rejected. HA! Fubar has taken it a step further in this online meat market, and WOW! Have my eyes been opened! Here's the scoop: I used to drink and party and rock the night at bars. Then I got pregnant... It happens. So, I suddenly became "normal" and a perfect example of pregnancy. Then I had my daughter, and I am working so so hard on being the world's best mom! Now, I herniated my back during pregnancy... I'm feeling a bit shy because I'm still pretty fat...It happens, and I can't really change that as I'm still healing... SO... Now what? A friend brought me in here... He figured that, with how sexual I am, and all the dirty texts we send, that I'd fit in just fine here! How right he was! hahaha! Fubar is, now, my favorite place to be! I have so much fun and am always entertained by someone anytime I get online! I get the always welcomed ego boost of compliments, and

What Happen To True Friends
YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN ON FU FOR AWHILE AND I HAVE NOTICE THAT MOST PEOPLE ARE OUT FOR POINTS OR TO SEE WHAT THEY CAN GET WHAT HAPPEN TO FRIENDS AND HELPING EACH OTHER THIS IS CRAZY IF YOUR MY TRUE FRIEND THEN LET ME KNOW IF NOT LET ME KNOW

Lisa
Lisa, you like this fubar so go read the myspace Blogs. Also you been displaced by another because your so slow. Another Lisa gave me 90 seconds. How can she demand only 90 seconds? Impossible for slow mo po mo like me. She said minute and a half because she's done in about that time so your done or I'm done. Well can't you? No was the answer. I always liked her. Still do. I'm in love? No. I hope not because I'm told she moved far away from me. So I got caught missing with the stupid clocks. I didn't think she would realize but unfortunately I was caught missing with time and apparently space as well. Shame. Far as any organisim invading my body it is impossible. Most likely the military. I can't remeber because it was erased and replaced or I refuse to remeber it because of how horrific it was, possibly I didn't want to remember at that time. Now it is time to remeber it all. Regarding the Title Insurance, they are screwed if they issue it or if they don't. The same with the Deed. Min

Life Flys
I watch surfing the channels yesterday and clicked on Sesame Street, i hadn't seen it in decades so i thought I wud take a look to see how much it has changed. it really hasn't I saw characters that were on it when i watched the first episode in elementary school. it was reqired back then. I had tears in my eyes remembering the good old days watchin sesame street and the Electric Company (the new one sux) I got upset cause so much time has gone by and i am finally starting to feel old. knowing I'll be 60 in Eleven years is really scary. I remember mister Hooper who origionally owned the lil store (do you) and all the other characters who hav now left us and I wonder....will anyone remember me?

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This Now Time
so I have been gone, and for very good reasons I choose not to discuss as for they make me sad. So much has happend to me that i feel like im a diffrent person now. Shit is and will always be the same but i will break out and keep going. but shit really the only thing on my mind is my friends.. I miss them all

Fubar
Good evening everybody, I'd just like to post a little blurb about what I'm doin' here. So basically I've grown tired of other social sites in the past, especially dating sites. Luckily another unnamed site had a link to this site here. I had nothing to do so I thought I'd check it out. So far so good. Everybody seems really nice and open here, not like the stuckups on other sites... Being my first time here I'm open for any suggestions, comments, concerns while I learn the ropes. Oh and basically, I'm here to meet someone to date... and possibly more -Dan

Thinking About Leaving It All
I Am Really Getting Tired Of It All. Tired Of Running Into Fakes, Tired Of Feeling Lonely, Tired Of Being Hurt, Tired Of Feeling Empty Whole Inside Of Me, Tired Of Feeling Angry, Tired Of Not Being Able To Be Happy In My Life. I Am For Real, I Am A Honest Guy, I Am A Nice Guy To Get To Know, I Am A Sweet Caring And Loving Guy, I Am A Guy That Will Listening When Someones Wants To Be Listen To With Out Being Judged, I Am The Type Of Guy Cares Alot About My Real Friends... IF YOU'RE JUST GOING VIEW MY BLOG AND NOT SHOW THAT YOU CARE OR SHOW THAT YOU ARE A REAL FRIEND THEN YOU ARE NOTHING BUT ANOTHER FAKE IN THE THIS FUCKED UP WORLD

Msg From Private Message
Received from one of my best friend...... love you hun :) 23 Aug.'09 TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKINGTHROUGH THE DESERT.DURING SOME POINT OF THEJOURNEY, THEY HAD ANARGUMENT; A ND ONE FRIENDSLAPPED THE OTHER ONEIN THE FACE.THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPEDWAS HURT, BUT WITHOUTSAYING ANYTHING,WROTE IN THE SAND:TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.THEY KEPT ON WALKING,UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,WHERE THEY DECIDEDTO TAKE A BATHTHE ONE WHO HAD BEENSLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THEMIRE ! AND STARTED DROWNING,BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.AFTER HE RECOVERED FROMTHE NEAR DROWNING,HE WROTE ON A STONE:'TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSAVED MY LIFE '.THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPEDAND SAVED HIS BEST FRIENDASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'THE FRIEND REPLIED'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS USWE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWNIN SAND, WHERE WINDS OFFORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOESSOMETHING GOOD FOR US,WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONEWHERE NO WINDCAN EVER ERASE IT.'LEARN TO WRITEYOUR HURTS INT HE

Summer Really Sucked So Far.
Hey there Fu-Barians, The Metalhead Lover here with an update for the summer. Yeah, I worked all summer, hung out a bit, saw a few concerts. Those were the high points. I lost a few friends, got led on by a couple of nutball chicks, and just a few days ago, got the message that the one I really liked, doesn't want to communicate with me anymore (she didn't say it directly, I have gotten the message). To top it off I had a few nice ones down here, they were in town for a few weeks or months, and they were pretty much just liars. I really have gotten to the point where I just don't care anymore. I am pretty much just so used up and abused, that I don't care. I am so sick of gold diggers, clingy psychos, arrogant cheaters, and these friggin straight up fakes, pretending like they have a fucking soul & and a decent intellect just to get my damn attention and consideration. They never want to do anything fun, they never have the time to do anything, and they are always like so damn far away

Julie Simone Is Back In La And Ready To Play
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True Friends Poem
True friends invite you over, fake friends screw you over. True friends always got your back, fake friends are haterz who want to walk in your tracks. True friends will do what it takes to see you happy, fake friends always want to see you sad. True friends has two shoulders for you to cry on, fake friends will see you crying and have the nerve to ask you for a loan. True friends will be there for you in life as you succeed, fake friends only come around when their broke ass is in need. To all my true friends i will love you for all eternity, To all my fake friends, get the f**k out of my life, your broke ass face I dont want to see!

Broken
Wish I hadn't broken my ankle on June 18th. I had to have surgery and now have a plate in my ankle. It has been 2 months and I am still not walking on it...and I am so bored. I have gone out twice to the bar since this has happened but cannot get drunk because I only have one leg to walk with. If I get to drunk and fall...who will catch me??? Again I am looking forward to the day I can walk and go back to normal. I miss going out and I miss dancing!!!!! Someone make it so I am not bored anymore. Later.....

How I Feel
When I fall in love, I will miss herthe very moment I say 'goodbye'and my heart will yearn forthe very moment I say â€˜hello'.When I fall in love, all my old hurtsand pains will seemlost and faded away and I will be strong andbrave once again.When I fall in love, I want youto be happy always, everand feel like the happiestperson of them all . . .Because that's what I will feel,when I fall in love, with you. tell me wat u think

Yay Imma Good Friend Apparently.
So my friend calls me up to go to the shops with her. We had to walk there because she had kinda crashed her car. So where we live there's a shorter path towards the shops...but it's kinda massively scary with tall trees everywhere and it's always deserted. So I had to kinda walk for 5 minutes in that on my own first to where I meet her. And the whole time I hear rustling in the tree's behind me. *Shudder* So I meet up with her and we both brave the scary woods and chit-chat on the way. We get to the shops and she goes to buy cigarettes and then we leave and then she asks me 'Oh didn't you need anything'. So I tell her no, I just went to go with her...I obviously wasn't going to let her walk through the scary woods on her own! And she was all like 'Awwwh' and surprised. Wow this is a boring story. But hey loookey here I made it back through the woods in one piece!

Geek Armyand The Rock Erie Music Awards
I would like to call all MY FUFRIENDS to help me help my very good friends THE GEEK ARMY.. They are an exceptionally good cover band from right here in Erie,Pa. Lasyt year at the awards they took home 4 wards.. and this year are nominated for 5 awards... Please come and help me help my friends achieve this.. Follow the link below.. once you have gone and voted. please come back and leave a comment on this blog so I can thank you personally Thank you on and all for your help. THE GEEK ARMY NEEDS YOU TO GO AND VOTEGo to the link below and VOTE VOTE VOTE FOR THEMreminder:http://www.rockeriemusicawards.comwe sure would appreciate your vote in these categories... cover band, male vocalist, guitarist, bassist, drummer. or after you register, search for "geek army" under the show all category and they'll all show up! Thank you once again..

Youre So Close...
I can hear the clue, I can smell the words, I can climb the scale I can write the curves, I can hear the note, I can beat the beat.. I can dance the drum, I can tap my feet.... Getting Closer..stop me dreamin... Wanna feel you... YOUR SO CLOSE.. I cant play it very well, but IT IS what i want, and what i want is what it takes, it could be real..it could be fake. It could be anything at all, give it strong, give it all. Nothing held back, just get it written on the wall... Cant hear you..Your so close.. Want to feel you.. YOUR SO CLOSE &nb

Fire Fight
My unit got engaged in a fire fight today. I lost a brother in it. I made the decision to flank the enemy, knowing one of my soldiers might be wounded, or killed. By the book, I did the right thing. We destroyed our opposition, and protected the RCT, and the civilians in the city. I don't have a lot to say today. I'm struggeling with the death of my soldier. He did his job. His family shold be proud. I better get to writting the letter to his mother. I love you. - Captain Jason Vine

Emotions (or The Lack Of Them) And How They Can Get You Into Trouble
most people would say that men arent ones that readily show emotions-- or that they show only two: Anger and Depression. I'ld like to think that I'm the exception. I try not to get overly carried away when expressing how I feel to those that I love and care for, but sometimes I get so over anxious it all comes out wrong and things get misunderstood. I believe that its a great thing to have emotions, because it allows people around you, in cluding those you care about and love, to see that you truly care and are paying attention to their needs and wants. Lack of emotionsof any kind can make a person seem callous, cold, and uncaring..I've experienced that first hand. and I've seen that in my own family as well. but to those I love and care for, I promise that I wont ever ocme across as a cold asshole, or an overly obssessed ass...you have my word. Glenn

Inevitability
Better not to hold anything beautiful. When I found you I held you so tightly I could feel you break yourself apart just for a bit of sky.Better not to cherish anything perfect.When I found you I placed you so high on a pedestalYou were safe from my crushing love but too far away to feel my touch. In my heart it’s all so simpleJust love, just happiness, just us.But my head is never far behindShe brings doubt and dark remembrance In the end she always seems to win.The pain of inevitability is too strong.So I leave the beautiful and perfect things to the care of others.To find arms that hold them tightly but yieldTo find passion free from fearBetter not to stand in the way of possibilities.

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Kitte
if god hadnt created the universe, i wonder wat else he would have done. course we wouldnt be alive but i dont think we would care because we woudnt even exist to care in the first place. hmm....i wonder how other religions came to be and why. i wonder why god made us to choose one or the other. im not looking for answers cuz in this world in these times who really knows.

Need Advice From Some More Women.
Well those of you who already know my predicament have given me advice, I am looking for more. I have been with the woman of my dreams the love of my life for a year and a half. I did everything I could to make her happy, I would cook her dinner every night, clean the house so she could come home and relax, make her a bath and just sit there and enjoy her company. Then if she needed it, I would give her a no strings attached back rub. I have spoiled her to no end, then one day she just starts acting like she doesn't care anymore. Mind you we are both very busy, on top of doing everything for her I was working 48 hours a week at one job, and working 40 hours at another never having time for for myself, but the sacrafice was worth it because she was always happy. She to was working 40 hours a week at a job I got her set up with. I love this woman with all my heart and soul, yet i was hurt by her sudden lack of affection. I would do anything to get us back to where we used to be, she is t

Missing You
Juan Christopher Carter Pack also known as ''Saheem'' and DJ Wizz was born on Oct 5 1978 in Philadelphia, PA He suffered a heart attack and departed this life on Sunday, August 16 2009. Juan was very special Music artwork electronics and a talent for creativity was displayed in the clothing he designed, and the parties he worked He was an excellent dancerand possessed a great sense of humor His style was his own You never knew what he was going to look like until you saw him Juan was a big man with a kind soul who was a good friend great listener and sincere help to all who needed him Please show some respect Thank you

Been Here
Well, I've been back over here for about 7 months now. Just returning from my first R&R and have discovered that I no longer belong anywhere. I have no one and all the things that I've bought mean absolutely nothing to me. I know that it's my own damned fault and that just makes it suck even more. The thing is, I thought that the old way of life would be what would sustain me. Come to find out, it doesn't nor will it. One night stands and just traveling around the country/world are not, it seems, what I really want or need. I miss not haveing someone to come home to. Someone to be able to share in my "adventures" with. And yeah, someone to hold at night when it's time to call it a day. Who knows if that's really what it'll take, but right now that's what I feel like I really need to make me feel whole again. Of course, there's always religion, lol.

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I Need Help From The Ladies
There's a woman on here,goes by the Fu screen name of *MyTeddies2000*,who doesn't know me from a hole in the wall,but takes it upon herself to send me a shout that quite rude. Now if the tables were reversed,and I did that to her,we ALL know how this stupid old bitch would get! The help I need from all my wonderful ladies is this....She said"Im a woman,and I dont want your cock"..which I just didn't feel there's any call saying,especially since she DOESN'T know me!! So can I ask ALL my beautiful ladies to go and tell her how silly she is to say this to the one and only SER!The women who I associate with all know how awesomely cool I am...so can you all tell her this?I'd do it myself,but SHE blocked me. You know I love all my women,and I'd appreciate this sooooo much.If you can help me out,simply send me a message with "I'll help you,SER"...I would soooo appreciate it. AND,ONE more item of business...I'm making pictures for women who actually want one from me.If you want one,come b

Stfu
Yesterday among all the bullshit..I log in to find a message delevered to me from Fallen Mystery in my SB from that skank fake bitch that stole Cerri and I's pics a week or so ago saying I am a cunt stalker..ironically I had not been logged on most of the day I asked fallen Mystery wtf got no response so does anyone know who this cunt is? PS fake snakns screen name is Mistress of Dragons

The One
I want to be the one Who shows you the sun The one who promises your dreams to you And makes sure they all come true The one who gets to know who you really are And who hands you every star The one who captures your very soul And makes you feel whole The one with who you talk the whole night through And truly sees your point of view The one who gets lost in your eyes And never tells you lies The one who watches as you sleep And into your dreams I want to creep The one who shows you the possibilty Of what could be for all eternity I want to be the one when you fall in love That gives you a love to be proud of

Take What You Will
You are my only want and desire How you set my body on fire Lost in ecstacy with you Knowing it's all taboo I hate myself for being so weak But the pleasure I must seek Love I don't deserve Just taking what you serve Mmmm this feeling of lust Do to me what you must Do as you wish, take what you will Partake until you have your fill

Take Me Away
Sitting listening to this song Thinking about all that's gone wrong The words, they carry me Carry me to a place of peace and finality That place I would love to explore I certainly don't want to be here anymore Take me away from all the pain Oh God, for once let me feel sane Give me the peace and tranquility I seek Life has taken its' toll and left me weak Don't want to go on, ready to give up the fight Envelop me like the darkness of night Death take me into your sweet embrace With the darkness pain is erased

Somewhere
Tears course down my face Wanting to run away from this place Somewhere no one can find me Somewhere I can find who I'm meant to be Somewhere without the pain and sorrow Somewhere to look forward to tomorrow Somewhere away from the chaos and strife Somewhere to find a better life Somewhere beyond the deciet and lies Somewhere to erase the sadness from my eyes Somewhere I'm free to make my own choice Somewhere that they actually hear my voice Somewhere to live the rest of my years Somewhere I won't cry any more tears Somewhere....

Not Today
"You are my heart" you said "Without you I'd be dead" What kind of fool are you? Do you have any idea, any clue? Who would rip out their own heart Then take it and tear it apart That's exactly what you've done The damage can't be undone There is a permanent scar It will never fully heal, not by far The mark you have left won't go away It will be there day after day Somehow it may be mended But our love can no more be splendid Things will never be how they once were Memories of that time just a blur My trust you abused A promise you misused Someday we may be OK But not today

Men!
Oh these men in my life, They give me nothing but strife! Married twice I have been, Not making that mistake again. Me?! Walking down that aisle? I find the thought quite vile As a matter of fact, And I say this without much tact... I think I may just begin, A new life as a lesbian!

Lost
Lost in confusion In love with an illusion A fantasy that can never be A time I will never see Lost in dreams Nothing what it seems Wanting to live out my desires Not having the strength it requires Lost in grief Depression steals in like a thief Emotions running high Strength in short supply Lost in fantasy Wanting to live in reality The world beckons to me I can't hear its plea Lost am I Only wanting to cry Life has become surreal Can't deal with how I feel

Bound To You
Let me be in your arms just once more Take the pain like you have before Hold me in your sweet embrace Take me away from this horrid place Away from all in the world that's wrong Once more softly sing me our song Be with me one more time Adding your rythm to my rhyme Work your magic on my soul Once again make me feel whole You will always be a part of me Bound together we are and will be I still need you in my life Although no longer as your wife A bond of friendship is what we have now One that won't be broken, this I vow An inexplicable bond we share Even if our love we can't repair

Pissed
You are such a prick Worthless piece of shit Nothing but a dumbass hick Love to feed you to my pit Nah that's animal abuse Just pull out my trusty bat Swing free and let loose Knock your stupid ass flat You say you love me Want to make me happy You are my one and only devotee Think I'm that fucking sappy? You don't want me to be glad All you're good at is making me mad Get over it, we're through Why should I listen to lie after lie I have one thing to say to you.... FUCK OFF AND DIE

My Goodbye
As I sit here and cry I just want to die The world has turned its back Desire to live I totally lack Would anyone care or know I was gone? Why do I bother to carry on The pain could cease so easily Done with it all 1, 2, 3 So many options from which to choose Just have to pick which one to use Any of them would take away the pain Finally peace I could attain Be done with this wretched life So full of turmoil and strife To be away from this horrid world To have the wonder of serenity unfurled The thought brings such peace of mind I will leave all cares behind So tell me good-bye, let me go Because soon with the wind I shall blow

Innocence
I sit and watch you play Enjoying the sunchine of the day Your laughter carries on the breeze As you dance with a child's ease Too soon these days will be done You will grow up, into the world be drawn No more will I hear "Mommy watch me!" "Look Mommmy!" "Mommy did you see?!" These are the times I will miss Your sweet child's laughter, even your "puppy kiss" So innocent and carefee My wish is that's how you'll always be My prayer for you is a happy life One void of any despair or strife May you have joy your whole life through An existence worthy of someone as special as you

What Is Love
What is love Is it resurrecting all your past fears Is it crying til there are no more tears Is it pain that lives deep in your heart Is it feeling as if your soul has been ripped apart Is it wanting and needing more than you're given Is it making a mistake and never being forgiven What is love It's supposed to be a beautiful, sacred thing It's supposed to give you all the joy life can bring You're supposed to feel safe in your lover's embrace In their arms, all worries erased Expecting to be happy your whole life through Perhaps that's what it means to a lucky few As for me, cursed for all my days to wonder Always with the question on my mind, I ponder What is love

Welcome
Knowing how to get over broken heart is not as easy as it sounds. After the break up, you may be feeling very emotional and insecure. As you may know that time heals wounds, this saying also applies when getting over a broken heart.Unfortunately, there is no short-cut - it takes time and energy to realize and acknowledge what went wrong in the relationship. But here are some tips to help you figure out how to get over a broken heart and little quicker. How To Get Over A Broken Heart The Magic Of Making Up How To Heal A Broken Heart

I Hate Stupid Cunts
So there is a female switch in amongst us whom many people have recently begun to admire enough to book her as a presentor at local and s few national level events. Now I have known this whore for about five years and once even had her family considered for the Serpentarium...BEFORE SHE PROVED HERSELF TO BE A COMPLETE AND UTTER PSYCHOPATH!! How are the rest of you so easily bewitched by this cunt?? Since her husband was killed, people have actually asked me to go to her and check on her wellbeing. A member of my own house gave her assistance during that hard time and I saw no need to open myself to any remaining bitterness this bitch may have. I discontinued attending one of my favorite monthly parties and refused invitations to a different club's events knowing it would mean our paths would cross, AFTER trying to avoid her getting in face at the affore mentioned party with little to no avail. Well at last night's birthday party that BITCH was there. My family had a scene going with

And No I Did Not Make This Up
Tomorrow is NATIONAL GOTOPLESS PROTEST DAY. Women everywhere should show their support for the Decriminalization of Women been Topless in Public. Women should have the right to Bare their chest in Public just as Men do. I have attached a link to the site please visit and sign the petition http://gotopless.org/

What I Am, What I Do!
Heya peeps, I am a graduate student and part time model comes from a family of dentists. I once worked as a hygienist in my father's dental practice, now I am now in my third year at NUS on my way to becoming a Dentist myself :) Cosmetic Dentistry Veneers

U Can't Break Me..
i'v been to hell and back,i spill shit,trip and embarras myself.I can't just flutter my eyes and get the man of my dreams,my life is so messed up,i'v been through more shit than you've seen on t.v. Nobodys perfect,i'v been lied to,cheated on,and had my heart stollen.I'v fucked up,fucked people up,and been fucked up,but every hit was worth it because it's real.Life is real and i'm livin' it every day,but do i regret one thing?NEVER because at one point it was exactly what i wanted and i got my fuckin' satisfaction.My life is mine and no stupid bitch,or immature boys can fuck it up for me any more.I'm the real deal,and i'd love to see you try and break me!

Just Feel Like Crying
I feel so down, I went away for two weeks, and I managed to get things done before leaving. I made sure the bills were paid, the grocery list was done and I even put supper in the crock pot for them. I havent been back long as I said. And spent two days trying to feel better. On this one day I hurled like twice and all my hubby could say was, are you gonna do the wash today.? I looked at him and shook my head. It was like fuck you if your sick, I want t hings done. Nothing has changed in this house and its point less for me to even try and make them understand things like. If you keep eatting like pigs, we will not have enough food to last us till next pay day. Or I will do the dishes and when I get up in the morning the sink is full again. All I get from them is ..I only dirted a cup or a plate . So I guess I am lead to believe the dished jumped out of the cubboards dirtied them selfs and plopped in the sink. I feel like im their house keeper not wife and mom. I ju

Warts
I just found out that I got Herpes from Sophie... chick i meet online here... met up with her... from Greeneville tn and her number is 423-329-3590. Now she denies it and won't even talk to me so now im stuck with my warts think this will bring my score of a 10 down?

Too All My Haters!lol
I keep it real and that's a promise.I may be a bitch but atleast i'm honest.When i walk by you stop and stare,well keep lookin' cause i dont care.I have my own life and style,not trying to please you or make you smile.When it comes to compotition you are out,so shut your hattin' ass and keep me out of your mouth....... Fuck the fake***

Marijuana Is Safer: Not A Good Book. A Great Book. August 22nd, 2009 By Dpacheco
http://bit.ly/3GY1Mm I just recently started watching the HBO show The Wire (I know, I know). One sentiment expressed by one of the police officer characters (sorry, I don’t have their names memorized yet) stuck with me. He said, the phrase “War on Drugs” is a misnomer. Why? Well… wars end. Wars end. When will the federal government end the “War on Drugs”? When will they admit it’s unwinnable and try adopting a new strategy—namely, decriminalization? When will they give adults the choice: a dangerous, potentially lethal substance (alcohol), or a relatively benign one (marijuana)? StoptheDrugWar.org delves into these question in their recent review of Marijuana Is Safer: So Why Are We Driving People to Drink? by Steve Fox, Paul Armentano, and Mason Tvert. More at link…

Debt
Yesterday, I get a phone call telling me some pretty great news. Since I am unemployed for a few weeks, I'm going to be in debt unless I can get help from somewhere or if the bills can wait for me to be able to catch up. Yes, I have filed unemployment and for some reason the amount they told me I will receive is slightly over half of my paychecks. This will not help me enough.Anyway, the phone call was my aunt telling me she went to a charity place that will pay rent for 4 months. She had asked me to go with her, but I couldn't find my lease and knowing she would have to go back we agreed that I would go with her then. Seeing as how I did not go there or talk to the people myself, I do not know the truth of what they offer. If they are willing to assist with rent for several months, I would be able to catch up on bills and it would help me so much. Getting a roommate would be hard having only a one bedroom apartment and two children.Help me decide what I should do with the cash that I

Just
Just because I'm a woman don't think that I am weak Just because I am weak don't think I'm not strong Just because I cry don't think I'm sad I may not be perfect but just because I stumble don't think you'll see me fall Just because I say I love you, Don't always think I will Just because I trust you, Don't think you can lie If I forgive you once don't think I'm going to do it again Just because I forgive don't think i'll forget Just because I'm not always there don't think I don't want to be Just because I haven't called don't think I don't think of you, maybe I need you to be the one to call me from time to time. I can't promise I'll always be near but I can always try to help, with a hug, or a word, I can't fix it all but I can be with you thru the rough times. Just because your my friend don't think I trust you Just because I trust you dont think I'm blind I do see things, I do notice things and at some point lies are discovered, truths are told and friendships ended

Why Do
men leave comment pictures of half naked, slightly effeminite men as comments? Are you supposed to be confused into thinking that is a picture of the guy that left the pic? Or is the picture someone that he finds attractive? What? Really, I'm confused. Halp! Also, that's like 3 blogs today, I think I've spent too much time around Witchie and Peacey - I may have contracted blogwhoreitis - is there a cure?

What Inspires You?
“It is never about how good your voice is; it is only about feeling the urge to sing, and then having the courage to do it with the voice you are given.” -- Katie in ‘True to Form’ by Elizabeth Berg How often have you allowed fear and your inner critic to stop you from doing something you were inspired to do? Helen Keller said, "Life is either a grand adventure or nothing.” When we allow fear and criticism to stop us in our tracks, we give up that grand adventure. What a waste! “Be an all-out, not a hold-out.” -- Norman Vincent Peale

Love Stinks
So it has been 23 days since I found out about my wife cheaing on me and going through the heart break from it all. All you fuckers out there that say suck it up you fucking pussy and all that shit...Fuck Off! Go through something like this then come talk to me. I have been through some rough shit in my life but I don't think nothing hurts as worse as getting stabbed in the heart by someone that is supposed to love you, or at least think that they love you. I just hope that karma gets back at her and what is done is done...Cause so far i am waiting for karma to hit me back up for the good deeds I have done in my life. All in all I will keep my head up and go through life.

Anything Interesting?
No, not really. Well there was the trip to DisneyWorld, that was pretty cool, I mean it's DisneyWorld and I'm a Mickey nut but it was very big, very far and super hot and humid...Oh and we got drenched in rain which was warm so it was just uncomfortable in that "I just showered with my clothes on" way but then you get on the bus to go back to the hotel and they didn't adjust the air conditioning so for 30 minutes you were wet and freezing...Thanks Walt! :P I also decided that since it didn't look like I'd be moving out anytime soon I needed to make the place more bearable, so I demo'ed the deck and put in a flower garden and took down the kids way too small for them now fort/swingset. I'm going to use the wood to make outdoor furniture like a daybed and table, maybe even some benches or planters. It's mostly labor, only spent $28 on plants, mulch, vitamins and fertilizer. I figure I'll never get out of here if I go crazy with money renovating. Also, because someo

Things I Like And Don't Like.
Hi this is a list of things I like and don't. First off things I don't like, people who don't pay attention to someone's status on here this is not twitter so why do people try to talk to you when your not on here???. Rude people that goes for men and women both I have had both crappy comments from men and women on here in the 4 yrs now I have been on here. Men who treat women nasty because of the looks there size or the fact that they have kids and are single or they wana see there cam's and get there numbers or e-mails. I don't like smoky kisses like kids there days people think its soo cool to smoke get high and drink and all but sooo gross to kiss someone who taste's and smells like a dang ash tray YUCK!!!. I don't like the fact that I am picked on because of the fact that I have pet snakes id rather have a pet I can take to bmx tracks and car shows and the kids won't get bit for holding the snake, how many people can say that about the soo loved pitbull. why do stupid men hav

Owner Of Exicto Diabolus
Saturday, 2009 August 22 (09:51:16) [09:51] retributions_darkness: If I get banned for this oh well.[09:52] retributions_darkness: But dude in a way i'm glad you took my mods, cause all you seem to care about is replacing what numbers you lost man, now don't get me wrong I like the lounge and I don't want to leave, but look at it from my point of view, you know i'm right.[11:48] deadonarrival_666: you resigned as greeter and told me to take you rname out of the slideshow[11:48] deadonarrival_666: and then you started running off my friends[11:48] deadonarrival_666: i've had nonstop complaints about you and i've defended you since day one[11:48] deadonarrival_666: now why WOULDNT i take your mods[11:48] retributions_darkness: I said put my name in the slideshow[11:49] retributions_darkness: you misunderstood me [11:49] retributions_darkness: lulz.[11:49] deadonarrival_666: and i took your mods AS SOON as you ran off cuddle slut[11:49] deadonarrival_666: because i had 10 yahoo windows

Stuck ( I Write Songs Too..)
I’m through with this and putting all the time in that she never gave to you. I feel so isolated, I’ve tried it all and I just don’t know what to do. So good-bye Garden State Parkway, maybe it’s just better off this way, cause I just can’t hold onto the pain. So what do I do? I just plaster on a fake smile for you, and everyone else, so they don’t think I need help, and it’s not sane!! Is it even worth it, when I try to make you smile? Just looking to bring back the joy, and show you that I am worthwhile. But you don’t see my face, you just see the pain from your past, and I’m not sure if my heart can last this one through. But what can I do? For some odd reason, I’m fucking stuck on you. Just try to see it through my eyes, the ones that cry every single night cause’ I just can’t figure out what’s wrong with me. I look in the mirror but I just can’t see what it might be, all I could do is

10 Things About Me
Im best in a crisis situation. Im great for keeping secrets. I always read the directions and build things right the first time. although i have had 6 as pets, i dislike scorpians. I do not belive in sex on the first date, the goodies are too good to just give away. I will only have first time sex in a bed where i can be most comfortable. my mothers family was old money until i was about 6, other then proper ettiquite i do not follow my familys values, i will never marry someone i do not turely love for the financial benifits. I can adapt to anything or anyone, i just have to stay interested. I can see past imperfections and find the real you. I am sensitive, i realized this when i was 14 but was afriad of it, i have built a few connections with certin people and can sense their needs. Other then avoiding trouble by trusting my instincts i can use my talents for myself. I would not mind building on my abilitys now but i really do not know where to start.

Wanna See The Best On Fu?
All Broke Dicks keep your negativity to your damn self! Wanna see my goodies? Uh huh...I was told too many times I was crazy to leave them open so now~well...I now own my own domain adult site so you will pay regardless.... $20. Bling Pack = 3 day family add $65. Bling Pack = 2 week family add Auto 11 or Cherry Bomb = 1 week family add 3 mo. VIP renewal = 1 mo. 6 mo. VIP renewal = 3 mo. 12 mo. VIP renewal = 6 mo. 7 day blast = 1 day 30 day blast = 2 weeks Happy Hour 1 month

Win A Ticker!
WIN A TICKER! HOW? GUESS MY ALL TIME FAVORITE PIC! LEAVE A COMMENT ON IT SO THERE WILL BE A RECORD OF WHO WAS 1ST TO COMMENT. SOME HINTS: IT IS SFW IT IS NOT OF ME I DID NOT MAKE IT OR RIP IT GOOD LUCK! YOU MUST HAVE AN ACCEPTABLE SALUTE TO WIN.

Men If You Want To Get Laid
Dear Gentlemen,Ahhh women. Enchanting and mysterious. No? Yes.. and we like it that way, don't we? Yes I think so. Still. You could use a heads up in certain areas. And your girlfriend isn’t going to tell you. She’s going to tell everyone BUT you. So just in case you share anything in common with my girlfriends’ boyfriends you might want to have a little look-see at the below advice.Truly Not Yours,DewContributors (in no particular order):Sister Scotchy McDrunkersonMoody PantsBuddha MamaOrigami Momi(A)Dew(Z)ChaibabysunmoonstarsBanana PantsLoree Harrell Writes and PaintsSalacious Bee“Let me direct your attention to an easily forgotten fact: The vaginal canal is NOT the Mecca of sensation in the female genitalia. That's right, it isn't packed with nerves that would make child birth even more of an unbearable hell. Nature is a mother, but she ain't THAT cruel. If you're planning on planting your face in her crotch, may I draw your attention to the little man in the

Is There
a reason that 50 gazillion people got fu-married over the summer? Did they make it free or did all my bitches think I was dead? and fuck you people for not fu inviting me to the fu weddings - I was looking forward to getting fu trashed and ruining your fuceptions!

Muscle Building
Build Muscle Fast For a lot of people, being able to look good seems to be the primary item on their list. Especially when it comes to people who thrive in the world of professional sports, modelling, muscle building seems to be a very important goal to accomplish. However, being able to do this and see results is not really that easy. Being able to get a nice set of muscle packs and that lean body is not something that comes in a quick period of time. It also involves a lot of motivation and set of exercise routines done in a period of time on the part of anyone who would want to achieve this. A lot of people seem to have preconceived notions and make mistakes along the way, with them searching for that ultimate guide in the end.

As We Grow Up...
As we grow up we learn that everything hapens for a reason,that even the one person that wasen't suppose to let you down probally will. You will have your heart broken more than once,and it's harder every time.You'll break hearts to,so rember how it felt when yours was broken.You'll fight with your best friend,and blame a new love for things an old one did.You too will cry besause time is passin' by too fast,and you'll eventually loose someone you love,so take too many pictures,laugh too much,and love like you'v never bent hurt before,because every 60 seconds you spend sad is a minute of happiness you'll never get back....

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Just Trying To Help
To my friends who enjoy a glass of wine... And those who don't. As Ben Franklin said: In wine there is wisdom, In beer there is freedom, In water there is bacteria. In a number of carefully controlled trials, Scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. Coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when Drinking wine & beer (or tequila, rum, whisky or other liquor), because alcohol has to go through a purificationProcess of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health .

My New Lounge Idea: "clown Love && Sugar Cubes", Inspiring All Art And Music. Please Read About It :
I have to save up for it... but I wanted some input beforehand. :)Title: Clown Love & Sugar Cubes--------------------------Description: This lounge is for Juggalo's, Juggalettes, Ninja's, Clowns, and anybody down with the wicked shit. Even if you are just a newb when it comes to psychopathic records or horrorcore music and other alike artists and record labels, come here to learn more, celebrate art, snag fun images and sites from eachother, and help eachother out. This is where clown love extends to the love of all art and music. Shangri-la for all!--------------------------So... my inspiration behind this is as follows:I want to create a loung for juggalo's, juggalettes, and anybody who respects any psychopathic or wicked music at all. not just a place for that though, its for talking about all kinds of art and music and helping eachother out. like if somebody needs a buzz, everybody pitches in.. Its not a place that steals members from other lounges, because lounges can be suggested

Love
I am no Preacher, but I am gonna get my preach on for a minute here. See it's ot our words that are gonna stop the world in its tracks. Our words will not changed the world, they've heard it all. It's npt normally our music. Normally we make our music for us, for the body, to sharpen each other, edify the body, to Glorify our God. Once in awhile a song crosses over, but it's not typically the music that's gonna stop the world in it's tracks. Our music is not gonna change the world more than likely. It's not our buildings as grand and beautiful as some of our church buildings are. It's the architecture that's gonna change the world. I believe what will change the world, is when we begin to love each other and when we beging to love the world. And when we begin to reach out to the orphans and the widows and the lower income families in out communties. When the world sees that kinda of love, I mean undeniable love. I believe they will stop in their and tracks and say "Yo, what ever you pe

Tammy
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"get Pimped Every Day For A Month!"
Does the thought of this intrigue you any???… Then this should be fun. I don’t usually do things like this so I’m quite curious how this will pan out. Anyways, up for auction here is one month’s worth of daily Pimp Outs !! That’s right, every day starting on August 31, 2009 and for the entire month of September for the lucky winning bidder will get a pimp out from me.. Thirty One days worth !! No more begging for a month, no more looking to buy pimpouts from people for up to TWO MILLION FUBUCKS EACH! ..yup, that‘s what some people are paying and charging these days… Rules are dirt simpl

What Will People Think
"What Will people think?" That phrase crystallizes our fear of being different. Everyone has this need to be a part of something, to be included. The very nature of being a Jesus Freak is to thrust away from mob mentality, awy from the things that society tells us to care about. And that can be scary. "What people think if I'm different? What will they think of my opion is weird? Who will like me if I stand out?" But every time I stand back and look at the big picture, I see little of what God sees. I see the potential to make a difference. And I get the courage to break awya from the crowd. When take a look into history, it is filled with some the biggest Jesus Freaks of all time: those who stood out from the crowd enough to be called martyrs. If Jesus was willing to give his life for me, and if these people, these martyrs, were willing to give up their lives for Him, how much does it take for me to truly dedicate my days on earth to him? Our mission may not involve hanging o

Jesus Freaks 2
The words "Jesus Freak" were first coined in the late sixties, when hippies became part of the new revival, the Jesus Movement. It was a time when music, poetry, and an open expression for Jesus Christ turned a new generation on to God. It merged rock and roll with the Gospel message, a wave we're still riding today know as contemporary Christian Music. It infused the Church with arts. It shook up conventional worship. And, due to its "in your face" approach, it had a backlash. The rest of the world called these over'zealous young people "Jesus Freaks" as a derogatory term. But decades later a new generation is embracing that same passion for expression. Being a Jesus Freak is having a pssionate heart for Jesus, a willingness to extend that passion into all areas of life, be it peotry, music, art, or the hard choices made at life's crossroads. The linage of Jesus Freaks actually extends much further back into history than the sixties. Many devoted followers through the c

Jesus Freaks
"Galileo, DaVinci, William Shakespeare, Martin Luther, John the Baptist. These are the strange ones who challenged society with a different way of thinking. They were the rebels and heretics of their day. But if history is told correctly, no man has caused the worldwide stir that Jesus Christ did 2000 years ago. So many people today portray Jesus as weak, the out-of-date aritfact hanging on a church wall or in a stainedglass window hoping for a brighter day. But Jesus was the non-conformist of all time. He took the conventions of religion, tradition, and love and turned them upside down. He face political and religious leaders of His day and spoke thruths they had never before. He walked in our as the human voice of God. When I think of the boldest leaders and thinkers of our world, I believe that Jesus stood above them all. He changed everything, and, by sacrificing His life, He changed they way I look at my fellowman. He is the one true reason I have a relationship wit

Lord, Show Me The Truth
By 1967 it was as if a whole new generation had detached itself from the conventional values of their society and converged on the Haight-Ashbury district of San Francisco looking for answers. Yet what was touted as a haven for free thinking and countercultural renewal had instead become a viper's pit of hard drugs, rape, abuse of innicence, organized crime, and the recuiting ground for religious persuasion imaginable. Into this walk a young man named Kent Philport, who felt compelled of God to go there with the Gospel. In April of 1967, he met another young man, David Hoyt, who had devoted himself o Hinduism and preached the word of Krishna Conscciousness. They began months of debating back and forth the nature of truth and spirtuality that brought in many friends and supporters on both sides. Kent's open-minded dialogue and David's sincere search for truth soon had David reeling in doubt about what he had previously held as true. Then one night in desperation, he called out t

Why Search For Truth?
The personal revolution of becoming a Christian has always been the only basis of true freedom and real change. Though the truths of God's Word and His kingdom are eternal and unchanginf, they are continually made new to every person who encounters them. Throughout history great change has only been made by the beliefs of others, but who instead demand the genuine revelation of coming to know God personally. Those who will accept no less that are the ones who become world changers. "But what about you?" he asked, "Who do you say I am?" Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the Living God." Jesus replied, "Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by man, but by my Father in heaven. And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hell will not overcome it." Jesus and Peter (Matthew 16:15-18) The rock Jesus spoke of here was the revelation of Jesus as the Christ that Peter expressed: Je

What Is Truth?
"You are a king, then!" said Pilate. Jesus answered, "You are right in saying I am a king. In fact, for this reason I was born, and for this I came into the world, to testify the truth. Everyone on the side of truth listens to me." "What is truth?" Pilate asked. With this he went again to the Jews and said, "I find no basis for a charge against him." Jesus and Pilate (John 18:37-38) In this exchange is the summary of preaching the Gosple to the blind world. "Here is the Truth, right in front of you!" "What truth?" Those who would be blind don't see it. Yet those who hunger for the truth will. many don't know they are hungry for it. Others have searched their whole lives for it and never find until someone exposes them to it. But that is always the exchange: Those who know the truth must share it with others; those who don't know it have to decide whether or not they will receive it, then God will reveal it to their hearts if they will hunger and thrist for it. W

I Cant Deal!
All my life! All my life! I have waited for something or someone to think I was worth it! But ya know what????? I am worth it to myself, to believe in myself and who I am as a women. I am strong, beautiful and smart. I deseve happiness. I deserve a future. I deserve to be loved without condition. I am so worth it. I finally get it! I finally get it! FUCK!!!!!!!

Crones
I live in a condo mostly occupied by old people. Very often when I go home, there are some old crones asking me where I'm going and iif I live here. Its REALLY gettin on my nerves, and its still a coupla years til they all die off. Soo... wtf should I tell them next time?

Knight Of Darkness
'What time was it he thought', as he looked around the bar. Everywhere there was movement; so much movement by the mob. Leather and lace flowed with the hypnotic rythem of the beat. Women glistened, their hair slicked to their brows. Each heave causing their breasts to swell. This was such a mortal time; such heat and blood. He sipped lethargically at his martini; the bite of the gin causing a momentary lapse of thought. Had it been Berlin or London when he had first sampled this very concoction. No matter. The sights of the eternal night surrounded him and yet he saw not a soul. Spinning slowly and raising his hand to the barkeep he signaled for the bill. It was then that he noticed her. Not young but certainly not as old as he. She sat motionless, a ghost he believed at first but then she lifted what looked to be a Lambrusco. He stood transfixed, his eyes darted as her ruby lips closed and teased the liquid. How many times had he drunk ever so slightly from his own vintage. H

Walk Threw The Fire
I touch the fire, and it freezes me I look into it, and it's black Why can't I feel? My skin should crack and peel I want the fire back Now, through the smoke, she calls to me To make my way across the flame To save the day Or maybe melt away I guess it's all the same So I will Walk through the fire 'Cause where else can I turn? I will Walk through the fire And let it... The torch I bear is scorching me I've no doubt I hope she fries, I'm free if that bitch dies I better help her out 'Cause she is Drawn to the fire Some people... She will never learn Both: And she will Walk through the fire and let it... Will this do a thing to change her? Am I leaving dawn in danger? Is my slayer too far gone to care? What if Buffy can't defeat it? Beady eyes is right, we're needed Or we could just sit around and glare We'll See it through It's what we're Always here to do so we will Walk through the fire So one by one, they turn from me I guess my friends can't fa

Sweet Dreams And Happy Thoughts Forever
So...I came up with this phrase about 16 years ago. It was a school assignment to come up with a new way to say goodbye without the sadness of a goodbye. I couldn't think of anything better than cya later and then my GF at the time told me sweet dreams at the end of a steamy chat on the phone. Thats when I thought about all of the forever, and goodbye's out there and coined the phrase "Sweet Dreams and Happy Thoughts Forever." Its a wonderful saying that lets you know that no matter what happens, no matter where we end up, I will always be thinking of you and wishing you the best. There has been a lot of happiness and sadness in life, as each day there are good things and bad things happening to all of us. In the end, as rude as someone may be, there is always a feeling of hope. Hope being something we all share in common. Whether it is selfless thoughts or greed, we all desire something in life at any given time. This is what we have been blessed or cursed with; endless thoug

Interesting Meetings
I had such a wonderful conversation with this girl, I couldn't help but copy, paste, and save it. BUT! Since Im lazy... Go bottom to top (but I replaced her name) Mystery Girl: night *kiss ->Mystery Girl: kk night night hun Mystery Girl: you too. i will be on tomorrow probably so hopefully i will catch you again ->Mystery Girl: Hope to talk to you soon? and that you have Sweet dreams and happy thoughts forever Mystery Girl: good night ->Mystery Girl: I will hun xoxo Mystery Girl: i know im going to Mystery Girl: hmmm then you should sleep real good tonight ->Mystery Girl: same hun... gettin a bit sleepy that and u have me so turned on... lots and lots in common Mystery Girl: dalin as much as i dont want to i think im going to have to head to bed Mystery Girl: lol ->Mystery Girl: I should shouldnt I hehe, it looks like aa powder kit though, and like you i want to stomp grapes Mystery Girl: omg you should totally try it! ->Mystery Girl: hehe id love to make my own wine, i have a ki

This Week 8/15/9 - 8/22/9
This week has been interesting: I returned from MD with hives from forgetting my allergies and eating crab dip. I came back here on Fubar, my friends helped pimp me out and get back into this. I got talking to one of my oldest and best friends on here. I made a new friend and had some 6 hours chats. I got one of the worst sunburns ever leading me to an itch fest followed by a boiling bath to relieve the itch, followed by a pukefest from taking to much tylonol. In the end...I got hired by a celebrity group to begin work on personalized webpages. I give this week a 6/10 on the good week scale.

The Moment
An amazing thing in this cyber age meeting online seems so all the rage A picture, some words, in a blur just gone by that one could stick, in your mind, heart and eye Their paragraphs, shoutbox, somehow ring true past experiences (like yours) that made us both blue A rhythem, some empathy, it sets a deep tone before you know it, you're there on the phone A voice softly heard, behind their past prose sounds somehow so right, no wonder you chose To enrichen and deepen mundane dialogue that started and grew from such silly blog And before you know it, you soon start to see This friend's been down roads, parallel to me It's gone now as far as can possibly go With pictures and words, it's time to show A meeting is set, time, place and date Face to face boldly confronting new fate Conjured ideas, rich fantasies drawn Like fluffy pink clouds, right before dawn Checking your clothes, or hair in the glass in the next few hours, who knows what will pass Will I make a new friend th

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Schools
why is the white race so screwd when it comes to our schools we shouldent have to take any other language in our own country if u speak english thats all u need to speak in the us.. y r our white kids never alowed to open a club in our schools with out it be called a racist group ... any other race ask to have a lil shin dig group oh go right ahead whats the deal... please if anyone wants to add please do i want to see answears please thx u and good bye.....

Just A Daisy
I take another step awayclose yet another doorthe coldness of your shoulderjust keeps becoming more.There are no longer kind wordsthere is no open addressingthe art of love that we once knewno longer needs confessingWe used to face each otheron the bridge inside the wallnow it's desolate and emptyit's begun to crack and fallThere is a constant drippingand the tears still go unshed,a puddle gathers at my feeta pool of deep dark redYou forgot your average flowerpicked yourself a beautiful rosefor I am just a daisy nothing special I suppose. Poem By Tammy C.

Change Is Going To Come
Over the next few weeks the group will be going through some major changes. The group will have a new name, new look and some new rules that some peolpe will like and a dislike. I will keep you updated on all the changes that will be taking place. thank you Feeze

You Can`t Break My Break
You can`t break my heart it`s been broken before broken by someone just like you.. her eyes used to shine when they looked into mine but divided when she found someone new now lets play a game of love and broken heart but let me warn you from the start that you cant break my heart its been broken before broken by someone just like you...

Empty
I sit here and cry, Until there is no more tears, There is nothing left. I am nothing but a walking corpse, You took everything from me, My love, my trust, my body, my heart, my soul, It was all yours and you crusted and ripped it all apart. Now I am left in the dark, To bear this sorrow, To know I didn’t mean anything to you.

One Special Lady To Level
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August 21st #2
Mmmm everything is blurred. My brain dosen't want to focus on what I must write. I sat cuddled up by my master's chair, my head resting on his knee. Rough hands grabbed me and threw me to the bed, pulling my shirt and bra from me. "What do you want?" the question came repeated, again and again. I can't speak. I want to say "Take my holes. Use me, fuck me, take me. Give it to me until I have cum so many times that I beg you to stop" But I can't. I can only whimper. Again and again the same question "What do you want?" The slap falls across my breasts and I manage a faint "Use me" But this answer is wrong. Wonderful slaps fall across my breasts as he straddles me. They become harsher and I am pulled further from myself. Extacy begins its slow flow through my veins. My small breasts bounce heavily. Then comes the kiss of the whip. Made by my own hands, it is now used to slash across my already sensitive breasts, my theighs, and knees. Again and again it falls irregular in its frequency

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A Poem Written By Myself And Solpavilion (ok So I Only Wrote The Title And One Verse Lol)
The Bar Beneath the stars That shine so brightI went to the barsLate into the nightInto them I went smoke filled the scent of the crowded air, and a scene of despair. low and behold! a figure of lightshe filled up my visionand made my heart so tightfor her i spentevery dime and centfrom my pocket they camethe register they wentnot to seem unseen, from fellows i weened, their loose change afloatin, an their pockets i cleaned!

My Grandma.
My grandma means everything to me. I have memories of my grandma always on the go and active and always doing something. Now when i see my grandma im like what the hell. It kills me to see her not health and in the bad shape she is in. My 11 year old cousin has it easy because she really doesnt have the memories that i have or the rest of my family has. its not easy for my family to see my grandma like this. it kills us because of the memories. I am ready to throw up my hands be like i dont care anymore and im done.

Listen My Heart
Listen to my heart when I say "I love you." Only my heart can tell you the truth now. You should know my heart is pure of lust and true. Listen to my heart, when I turn and walk out of a room, here you will see how I am feeling. Listening and learning how my heart can be, you will soon understand the way that I am. Listen to heart to see if it is pure, and only can tell you what you are wishing to find, in that darkened room. Listen and you will learn the ways of what your heart is saying, following what your heart says will lead you to great mysteries...

Facts About Guys...let Me Know If This Is True
1. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-- how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch-- Goodbye.9. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it tryin

Better Version By Shinedown
Excuse the mess, I didn't see you from behind I caught a glimps, but the reflections only mine Its almost like I am paralyzed and locked outside myself What I don't need is to concede because I wont be someone else I'm not perfect, and I don't claim to be and if thats what you wanted, then I'm so sorry How about a better version of the way that I am? How about a better version that makes me understand? How about a better version of the way that I am The way I look, the way I speak How about a better version of me Excuse the wall, I put it up from time to time A silver shade, and the design is all mine Its just a maze that everyday I seem to be stuck in It never seems to fade away, but I pray for the day it ends I'm not perfect, and I don't claim to be and if thats what you wanted, then I'm so sorry How about a better version of the way that I am? How about a better version that makes me understand? How about a better version of the way that I am The way I look, the

August 21st
Why. . . I find serenity/balance in the pain, in the pleasing, in the helplessness, and the surrender. There is a place inside myself that I come to when you use me. The helplessness I feel while you tease me, choke me, fuck me, even when you pull on my collar opens me up. It makes me feel whole. I feel peace and pleasure. I’ve never felt more loved than I did last night and this morning. Or more open to that love. The fear and the anger and the distrust was gone. Melted as if it had never been. I was finally me. Alone in a space that was of my choosing and not forced on me by some outside influence of what I should or should not be. I simply existed. The guidance, discipline, and the punishment curbs my penchant for self sabotage. It keeps me grounded and mentally fed. Alone I have a nature that is self-destructive and easily overwhelmed. I crave a strong hand to take the lead. On

Regret's
I started my journey to becoming a rounded individual. I knew one day i would need all of the experience I could get for life, after moving out. I am still learning and still willing to learn more. But one thing i did not expect was lack of support. I recently tested my friends, shameful and conceited it may have been, to see if they were my friends. Although, I understand everyone has their own lives, and does not particularly think about their friends on a regular basis, it is still painful the amount of people I know who do not think of me to even try to contact me. This past week I really really tried hard not to initiate a text to my friends. It was a real pain in the ass, each time i looked at the phone I wanted to send a "Hello how are you" text. But I refused to on the basis that i am the one who start's the conversation's. And to my disappointment, I did not receive one text from anyone asking me how i was. I used to send out a text every morning to everyone I know. I would st

I Hazth A Speech Impedament
I say some words "funny" some of them are "cute" Ive been told when I mispronounce them. I say buttons as buddons church as turch skirt as skurt, but I have no problem saying shirt four as foor i cant even say purse, so I dont bother :P does anyone else have words they say funny?

Awwwww....
Love in a MomentIt is your face that I see in the darknesswith each blink of my eyes.A thousand upon thousand times a day.It is your name that I hear in the silencebetween each beat of my heart.A thousand upon thousand times a day.It is your perfume that I smell as I inhalewith each and every breath.A thousand upon thousand times a day.It is your love that I wait forbetween the ticks of a clock.Forever and a day.

Tagged
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. 1. i sometimes stare at my carbonated drinks while the bubbles drift to the top, they remind me of a one way lava lamp. 2. when im nervous or stressed i bite my nails. 3. if im bored or sleepy i twirl my hair with my fingers. 4. i burst into song about what im doing when alone... sometimes even when im not alone. 5. im uncontrolably addicted to livejournal, and im totally not ashamed to admit it. 6. no matter how many times i watch it or how old i am, the movie all dogs go to heaven will make me cry. 7. i sometimes without realizing it, hold my boobs up. 8. as driving in my car, i like to smile at other drivers in opposite cars, because they are always grumpy looking, and it usualyl freaks them out. 9. i never go a day with out singing10. i love art11. i laugh in my sleep. I mean

*being Single*
WTF is it with you guys (not all of you, but some) that just assume that all women are liars??? I swear it's fuckin' assholes like you and sluts out there that are fuckin' it up for the good girls like me... and that shit ain't cool. If you have a problem trusting people... THEN STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM THEM geez!!!!!!!! If you're just going to stereotype us all then just keep your fuckin' mouth shut. You probably will be liked better with it closed anyway! Ugggggghhhhh! Anyway... I just had to post this because a select few of you are really getting me annoyed... so yeah...

Survey
1. What do you think of the term "best friend"? It has never really ment to much to me . I mean in high school and middle school it use to be such a big deal to call someone your best friend. Most of my best friends and I don't even talk anymore , people just grow apart. 2. If you could go anywhere in the world and just spend un controlled time and money where would you go? I would maybe end up in Australia, they speak engish so not alot of issues there, and I like the ocean. I want to see the reef. 3.What do you want to be when you grow up? A Marine biologist , but realisticly I want to go to school to become a Dental Hygenist now. To make sure I'll always have a job, I can turn the other thing into a passion. 4. Show you love to hate but you still watch? I would not watch a show if I hated it. 5. Who do you look up to? I don't really look up to anyone, I've been pretty independent my whole life, I admire the work of others but I tend to go my own way. 6. Where do you see yo

Feeling Sexy And Sensual
Today was an interesting day for me. I went to the city to look for school supplies for my kids, but instead I found some tantilizing tidbits for my Daddy and myself. It is because of him that I purchased these things. When you get new panties and bras that make you feel sexy and sensual it blows your mind away. When I see the look on my Daddy's face it gives me pleasure beyond my wildest dreams. To see the excitment and knowing what is waiting for me when I did a job well done it is worth every penny. Daddy I cant wait for you to reward me. I also purchased a pair of black high heeled shoes that make me look and feel sexy. My legs seem to go on forever. My bras and panties are a matching set. I got a white lacy bra with shear white g string. You can see everything. It makes me feel so excited when I wear them, not leaving much for the imagination for my Daddy to see. Another one I bought was a grey set, they too make me feel like I never have before. And finally a blue set. they mak

California Spends $216,000 Annually On Each Juvenile Justice System And $8,000 On Each Child In Oakland Public School System
I’m definitely not for the expansion of the public indoctrination and lobotomy system, but this is Batshit insanity of the highest order. Via: New York Times: It’s time for a fundamental re-evaluation of the criminal justice system, as legislation sponsored by Senator Jim Webb has called for, so that we’re no longer squandering money that would be far better spent on education or health. Consider a few facts: The United States incarcerates people at nearly five times the world average. Of those sentenced to state prisons, 82 percent were convicted of nonviolent crimes, according to one study. California spends $216,000 annually on each inmate in the juvenile justice system. In contrast, it spends only $8,000 on each child attending the troubled Oakland public school system, according to the Urban Strategies Council. For most of American history, we had incarceration rates similar to those in other countries. Then with the “war on drugs” and the focus

Adrift Into Nothing
Here I sit another night alone... Staring into nothingness... Thoughts racing through my mind but none seem to stick... Dreams flash in my mind's eye... There are moments of darkness... All is black... Nothing but dreams and desires as my lonely companions...

Thinking Happy Thoughts....
So, I left for work this am thinking happy thoughts. My "goofy/funny" side has been lacking as of late and I was attempting to find ways to cure that. Any who, I found out around lunch time that I had landed another floral account, four arrangements per week! WOOT WOOT! *dances* My finance got his bonus.... WOOT WOOT WOOT!!! *dances more* and one of my besties got a raise WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!! *spins in circles* Great huh? yup, just marvy...and then WHAM! my other bestie calls and says his dogs were stolen...what a phreakin pisser...I really hope he finds them...poor guy *sigh* Life is full of ups and downs isn't it? ♥ Postal

Wow! Two Years!
WoW!!! It's been two years since I was pointed to this site and found the love of my life. Hiya babe! *waves* I came to this site having no idea what I was looking for, no clue what I was doing here, just a need to move on with my life. I found that special someone who took my journey with me. It's not because of what we've done together that I thank you for, it's that through you and because of you, I was even able to be here for them. Thanks love.

How Pharma Giants Are Getting Rich By Calling Our Life Problems 'medical Disorders' Part 2
When the DSM Began The first editions of the DSM would have been unrecognizable to modern practitioners of psychiatry. The DSM-I, published in 1952, conceptualized mental disorders as dysfunctions of personality rather than of neurobiology, following a former president of the American Psychiatric Association’s advocacy of “mental hygiene,” and the DSM-II, published in 1968, consisted of 180 categories of illness framed in a flowery psychoanalytic cant that drew scorn from the medical community, which viewed it as something of an unscientific embarrassment. In their 1997 exposé, Making Us Crazy, Herb Kutchins and Stuart Kirk point out that the DSM-II was, in fact, a slim guidebook of dubious analytic value that clinicians could purchase for $3.50, designed to describe, rather than to prescribe, current psychiatric practices. Things began to change in the next decade. Following the public outcry over thalidomide, a tranquilizer that was linked to thousands of birth de

How Pharma Giants Are Getting Rich By Calling Our Life Problems 'medical Disorders' Part 1
Source: Alternet Some years ago, a friend told me that he had been diagnosed with a major depressive disorder and that his psychiatrist had given him a prescription for Forest Laboratories’ popular SSRI antidepressant Celexa (chemical name, citalopram hydrobromide; $1.5 billion in sales in 2003). Knowing him to be a vociferous critic of the pharmaceutical companies, I asked whether he agreed that the origins of his unhappiness were biological in nature. He replied that he unequivocally did not. “But,” he confided, “now I might be able to get my grades back up.” This guy was, at the time, a full-time undergraduate student who managed rent, groceries and tuition only by working two part-time jobs. He awoke before dawn each morning in order to transcribe interviews for a local graduate student, then embarked upon an hour-long commute to campus, attended classes until late afternoon, and then finally headed over to a nearby café to wash dishes until nine o&r

Jeans
Why is it that every time I wear these certain type of jeans, the ones im wearing now, my co-workers would comment to me saying that I've lost weight. When I wear any other bottoms, I don't get that comment. They're just normal jeans..nothing spiffy... a little baggy, thats it. I haven't weighed myself in a while...afraid to since of what I all ate on my days offs...

The Science Of Thc Medicine
http://www.sacramentopress.com/headline/12... Regardless of the smoldering controversy cannabis stirs up in Sacramento City Hall, the state Capitol and Washington D.C., the global scientific community has examined the drug with increasing interest recently. Local patients and doctors can't say enough about the groundbreaking potential of THC as a pharmaceutical.

No Speak English
A Russian woman married a Canadian gentleman and they lived happily ever after in Toronto . The poor lady was not very proficient in English, but did manage to communicate with her husband. The real problem arose whenever she had to shop for groceries. One day, she went to the butcher and wanted to buy chicken legs. She didn't know how to put forward her request, so, in desperation, clucked like a chicken and lifted up her skirt to show her thighs. Her butcher got the message and gave her the chicken legs. Next day she needed to get chicken breasts, again she didn't know how to say it, so she clucked like a chicken and unbuttoned her blouse to show the butcher her breasts. The butcher understood again and gave her some chicken breasts. On the 3rd day, the poor lady needed to buy sausages. Unable to find a way to communicate this, she brought her husband to the store...

Rates Of Illegal Drug Use Among People Aged 50 To 59 Doubled In 2007
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/32474104/ns/he... WASHINGTON - Baby boomers, now well into middle age, are still turning on to illegal drugs, doubling the rates of illicit drug use for the older generation, according to U.S. government statistics released on Wednesday. The rates of people aged 50 to 59 who admit to using illicit drugs in the past year nearly doubled from 5.1 percent in 2002 to 9.4 percent in 2007 while rates among all other age groups are the same or decreasing, the U.S. Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration reported. "These findings show that many in the Woodstock generation continue to use illicit drugs as they age," SAMHSA Acting Administrator Eric Broderick said in a statement. This continued use poses medical risks to these individuals and is likely to put further strains on the nation's health care system — highlighting the value of preventing drug use from ever starting." Baby boomers are the post World War II generation bo

Remeber Me
REMEMBER me when I am gone away, Gone far away into the silent land; When you can no more hold me by the hand, Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay. Remember me when no more day by day You tell me of our future that you plann'd: Only remember me; you understand It will be late to counsel then or pray. Yet if you should forget me for a while And afterwards remember, do not grieve: For if the darkness and corruption leave A vestige of the thoughts that once I had, Better by far you should forget and smile Than that you should remember and be sad.

Why Is It That Men Think There Kids Will Remember Them
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK IN YOUR LOW LIFE HEAD THAT YOUNG KIDSWILL REMEMBER THERE FATHER'S WHEN THERE NOT EVEN ATTEMPTINGTO BE A PART OF THERE LIVES THERE LITTLE MINDS DONT WORKTHAT WAY IF YOUR NOT A PART OF THERE LIVES WHEN THERE GROWNING UPTHEN THEY WILL NOT KNOW YOU PERIOD AND YOU SURE CANT BUY YOUR WAY INTO THERE HEARTS IT DONT WORK THAT WAY EATHER YOUR EATHER A PART OF THERE LIFES OR YOUT NOT IF YOU SAY YOU DONT CARE AND DIDNT WANT TO BE THERE IN THE 1ST PLACE THEN YEA BETTER MAKE THE EFFORT TO KNOW THEM WHILE THERE YOUNG CAUSE THEY WILL CLING TO SOMEONE WHO IS A PART OF THERE LIFES I KNOW THIS FROM YM OWN SON WHICH IS WHY MY SON DONT WANT TO KNOW HIS FATHER AND OR DONT WANT TO THATS HIS CHOOSE TO IF HE DOES OR DOES NOT.

Obama's Drug Czar Blames Hot Weather For Medical Marijuana Lie
http://rawstory.com/blog/2009/08/obamas-dr... This could not have happened even a year ago. Gil Kerlikowske, the United States Drug Czar, has backpedaled on his pronouncement that marijuana "is dangerous and has no medicinal benefit." His original statement was made to The Fresno Bee on July 22. But in a little-noticed interview with Komo 4 News in Washington earlier this month, Kerlikowske was given a second chance to address the question. As pointed out by Jacob Sullum at Reason, the nation's top official on drugs excused his statement by blaming the weather: "We had been hiking in 107 degree weather in the Sierra Nevadas and when we came down ... The question was in reference to smoked marijuana and as you know, smoked marijuana has not been shown by the FDA to have that, to show medicinal value. And that ... This is a medical question and that's where we're gonna leave it." So, specifically, he believes marijuana burned then inhaled has no medicinal value, but ot

Why Do People Lie?
WHY IS IT PEOPLE WOULD RATHER LIE THEN BE HONEST WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS iI MEAN COME ONE PEOPLE WHAT HAPPEN TO BEING HONEST WITH YOUR WIFE OR YOUR SPOUSE OR YOUR BEST FRIEND THAT YOU WENT TO SCHOOL WITH OR BEING TAUGHT NOT TO LIE TO YOUR PARENTES AND OR TRYING TO KEEP YOUR REALTIOSHIPS HONEST WHAT EVER HAPPEN TO THAT COME ON PEOPLE WHAT HAPPEN TO THE PAST WHEN YOU HAVE NOT CHOOSE BUT TO BE HONEST YOU KNOW ANYONE HAVE ANYTHING TO ADD AND OR SAY PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SAY SO AND OR COMMENT THANKS!

2gether We Will Ride
Feelin nothin but misery, my enemies missin meCant trust a friend but at least they pretend to be Somebody you can call when yo times is hardWe went from drug dealin to catchin multiple scarsIt took a little bit of time for my eyez to seeHow many real mother fuckerz down to die wit meKeep me guessin with no questions askedAnd when the heat is on will he be the first to blastGet me high cause I dont really wanna be the gameSo I can smoke and reminisce and miss the evil pain I wanna change but the streetz keep on callin me backI keep an open mind thats the reason im strappedIm still jumpin this west holdin my chestThinkin theres where the bullet restsI must confess with every breath they had me breakin my neckI could understand the reason niggaz plottin my deathI cant believe Im still paranoid and all unrestYou can count on meAnd I can count on youTogether we will rideSo you can count on meAnd I can count on youTogether we will ride