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I used to have a Labrador retriever & I was buying a large bag of Purina at Wal-Mart and was in line to check out. A woman behind me asked if I had a dog(?).
On impulse, I told her that no, I was starting The Purina Diet again, although I probably shouldn't because I'd ended up in the hospital last time but that I'd lost 50 pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and IVs in both arms.
I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and that the way that it works is to load your pants pockets with Purina nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry & that the food is nutritionally complete so I was going to try it agai n.
I have to mention here that practically everyone in the line was by now enthralled with my story, particularly a tall, guy who was behind her.
Horrified, she asked if I'd been poisoned.
I told her no, I'd been sitting in the street licking my private parts and a car hit me.
49ers Vs Rams
I am going to the 49ers first home game versus the Rams on Sunday. This should be awesome!!!
Wanna See A Dirty Video--of Me??
well==ok--not a dirty video--but a rare performance snippet of my 8/8/2006 rock show doing my 2004 song "Dogpark".
here's the link---just push 'play video'
1. Slow Clo ...
2. Confuzed Clo ..
6. Chubba Bubba (Jay Come Up With That .. But Ain't Really Used)
9. Clo-Earth (Toms Because I Call Him Thomas)
10. Chicken Pie
Can You Think Of Anymore ?? :D
Wow they have blogs now! This is coooooooool. lol I am used to my blog on swydm.com and I was wondering when they were going to get them here. Now lets see the drama begin, because it will since blogs are around! lol Let the games begin haha....
Friends And Fans....
Hey there!!! Just thought there here would be just as good as posting it on the bulletin...some things have came up in my life.....and i won't be online for a few days....hopefully anyways....but will be back soooon...again...hopefully *lol** i'll miss you all and hope everyone has a FANTASTIC WEEKEND!!! hugs and kisses to all!!!
I'm up to level 4, yeah...
Politics And Political Parites
The problems of this country are not because of Republicans or Democrats, but both of them. They should all be voted out of office and be replaced by independent candidates.
The battle cry of the incumbents is that their opponents do not have the experience to do the job. Maybe they shouldn't. Those in office know all too well how to milk the fat cat system of government. We need leaders that don't know how to foster pork barrel politics and maintain the status quo.
The founding fathers of this country knew full well the threat of political parties, but found no just way to negate them. It is up to the electorate to curb their power by voting on issues and not party affiliations. It is also the responsibility of the electorate to monitor the actions of elected officials to ensure they adequately perform their duties of office.
We as Americans are all too ready to point fingers and place blame. It is the fault of the American people for the condition of our country. We continua
Bible Thumpers And Missionaries
One thing I really can't stand is people who try to shove their religious beliefs down the throats of other people. Most of these door to door bible thumpers don't even know their own religion. When one puts forth pointed and indepth questions, their argument start to fall apart. They will "have to get back to you on that" or "You should just have faith." Then there is the all time clincher "You will burn in hell if you don't heed the word of God." Regardles of how muddled, vauge and contradictory that word is.
Missionaries are more sinister, preying on people in their weak moments. They promise to help and heal, but this comes at a price. Their intentions are never wholly altruistic. One must bow to the god of the missionaries. Once they are introduced into a community the venom is already in the bloodstream. They will turn child against parent, sibling against sibling, neighbor against neighbor and friend against friend. This is why missionaries are not always welcome wherever the
Worker Owned Companies
My idealistic view is that everyone from the janitor to the CEO should own the company. The profits of the company should be devided into two parts; half should be the income of everyone in the company, the other half should be put back into the company for maintenane, R&D, marketing, upgrades, etc.
If the company does well everyone benefits, if it does poorly everyone looses. This creates incentives for better productivity and work ethics among the employees. If one hurts the company one hurts oneself.
I spent yesterday helping my sons headstart clean and get prepared for vistors...Most of the teachers, staff and a few kids have been sick...Jake has been fine..but lo and behold I go there to help prevent sickness..and I get sick...this is anything but fun....headache, upset stomach....eyes even hurt....
*pouts* someone come take care of me......
I'm ok, I'm watching my Sis in Laws grandbabies, and they are in dire need of my attention :)
There is no equity in our current tax system. If everyone paid 10% of their income, regardless of how much or little they earned, the deficit would be quickly eliminatied. Do away with the refunds, deductions and allowances. There will be no need to worry about making too much money that will put one into a higher tax bracket, because it will never go above or below 10%. Corporations won't have to maintain huge legal, accounting or Public Relations departments to justify their profits.
angels draped in gold stand around me with smiles upon their faces welcoming me home with open arms.itry to take a step but i cannot move. i look down to see my feet planted firmly on the ground. i dont know why i cant move. i call out to them as they move away but my voice falls on deff ears. is this my fate. is this gunna be my eternity? watching all the others walk through those golden gates while i stand here never moving.
crimson tears running down my cheeks.my hands clutching what's left of my broken heart.sweet love gone by with the passing of a bird. all the angels sing as you walk into those golden gates and leave me behind as if i was only a one night stand. guess you thought i wasnt enough. guess you thought i didnt do my best to dance. because here i am left to mend what little there is left of my heart that once loved you so much. i guess i wasnt smart to take that chance. well good-bye to what was once so good to you. good-bye to all i had felt for you. the devils coming to town and she isnt going out without you.
When I joined the military, I knew that there was some danger involved. Unless I went to war, then I didn't really expect to have anything happen to me. While there are the training accidents and such like that, I knew if I was careful, I wouldn't have to worry about that. So imagine my surprise when I was the victim of a violent attack in my living room. On October 15, 1999, which was a Friday, payday, and a much-anticipated day all around, a fellow class member and I made plans to go out and let off some steam. I was attending a Military Occupational Specialty school in 29 Palms, California and the classes I was taking were told to be one of the hardest schools in the military due to the material that was taught. It was going to be the perfect night, my wife (now ex-wife) who was also a Marine in my class; had a 24-hour duty that night and I had a sitter for my son. I met my friend at the bar and the evening started out great. We went bar-hopping, and he knew several of the local res
Wtf Was Supernova Thinking??
seriously i watched that show all summer and am so pissed how it turned out. there was so much talent on that show and they pick fucking luckas... he cant sing, he aint got looks, no stage presence, and a horrible personality!! i hope that supernova doesnt sell many records and the band just breaks up. i wont be buying any of their records. if they had picked any of the other final three i would have been interested but not now. ill be waiting to buy toby's cd when it comes out! what a disappointing end to a summer!
her dreams hang there in front of her taunting the movments she makes. her heart beats less and less each day.her love for you fading with every hour that you are not with her.you stole what little she had. left her behind with nothing.now every girl she sees batting her little lashes at your charming face adds more pain to her wounded chest.you told her you loved her but what is this now. she's nothing but your fading memory. a ghost in this bloody town.
Stressed Out To The Max.....
first of all went to work, my second day, they put me on a register and tell me when no customers unpack boxes...ok...no chance...then my co worker has to call the law on her husband there at the store...only us two by the way...then I get home...hubby kind of cold or just tired....then this morning go to school and no parking again...running to get to class hurt my ankle....then get home a few minutes ago and find out that my little sis was in a wreck and the other woman got out to threaten her and I was not there to protect her. she has a bad heart and don't need that shit....now going into work for more stress....
STRESSED OUT TO THE MAX...
Too All My Friends
Hey I just thought I'd say thankyou for the welcoming me and for becoming my friends.. And to a certain female glade I have gotten to know you as well as I have.
Just thought for my first blog it be a shout out saying thanks for making me feel welcome.
OMG I love Crys just thought i would let the world know hehe :P
My Guardian Angel
are wide open and seeing what i cannot
filled with unconditional love
there is a softness in his voice
when he talks to me
i know i push him away
but yet here he stands
right by my side
stopping the blade from biting my wrists
he speaks little of his purpose
leaving me alone to understand it all
but yet i am truly grateful for that
he is there for me
and although at times it may seem like i don't listen
i listen and at times choose not to heed his words
me being stubborn i guess reminds him of him
i really don't know
but two times so far i have been saved
by his words
such an unselfish man
seems to be heaven sent
he is an angel
my guardian angel without wings
So What's Up With Folks Anyway?
I have over 700 virtual friends on LC and only 172 have dropped by to rate my page. I've visited each and every one of yours and rated them all!
C'mon by sit a spell and rate away!!
a face with black curls and pale skin
stands there staring back at me
her big blue eyes are glazed and lifeless
neither of us need to utter a word
for there is an unspoken understanding
of unbearable pain
the blood streaming down her wrists
pain reflected from my face to hers
a flicker of remembrance
shows in her eyes
as his face appears beside her
suddenly there is only darkness
and the air rushing past our heads
arms catch hold of the two of us
bringing to a stop the gushing blood
with a gentle touch of a rag
we awake to see
him standing there
worry on his features
there are bandages on her wrists
identical to the ones on mine
as he approaches
she recedes back into me
leaving me alone
to live again
Hi All :-)
Looking for people in germany, who want to have fun.
If you got good ideas, or something like that, just tell me ;-)
My Immortal Lover
taking in every inch of me
wrapped around my waist
holding me close
teeth running over my skin
leaving behind an unwanted desire
a heart beating faster
with his every touch
the forest moaning in passion
as i am clutched in the arms
of a desired immortal
in touch with the forest
as we rock back and forth
the need for one another growing
with every drop of blood
suddenly it's over
and i am left alone
with but the memory
of the passion that was shared
between me and my immortal lover
the albino werewolf
large hands clutching my waist
nails digging deep into flesh
drawing forth droplets of crimson
teeth plunging into my veins
crushing my windpipe
stopping any scream from escaping
the dark abyss
drawing closer with every drop he takes
a peace settling over me
suddenly the pain dissolves
and bleeding flesh is pressed
against my lips
an unknown thirst in the pit of my stomach
a hint of pain in my jowl
and suckling on the bittersweet liquid
suddenly there is nothing
but that desire
and the hand that is feeding me
slowly the arm leaves my lips
"welcome to immortality my child"
slowly opening my eyes
to see nothing but the world
that i must wonder
for i am an immortal
the devils mistress
with such a sweet face
a blackened heart
filled with years of misery
pretty blue eyes
harboring sadness and agony
the dire need to hurt
is written upon your every feature
so without a tiny bit of warning
tricking young boys into your arms
and into your bed
leaving their girls
alone and crying
sparing no ounce
Because I Love You
A tear slides down my cheek
You wipe it away
A dream runs away
You catch it
The sky begins to fall
You hold it up
My world begins to collapse on me
You pull me away into your arms
You do everything you can
Just to make me happy
Just to make sure I’m safe
I’m crying inside
Afraid that someday I will lose you
Afraid I am not good enough
Afraid I am truly nothing
I know I shouldn’t worry and yet I do
Because I love you
What Did I Do Wrong?
traces of you
are strewn about the apartment
I can't seem to throw them away
your scent is soo strong
I feel as if you haven't gone
spread out upon the sofa
the memories bringing tears
to my eyes
what did I do wrong?
sometimes I can feel your touch
but I turn around
and there is no one there
I guess it is just
my heart playing tricks upon me
what did I do wrong?
alls I did was love you
I sit here alone
what did I do wrong?
A Friend In Need
He's sitting over in afghanistan and could use some lovin!
A Pledge To My Submissive
A Pledge To My Submissive
I stand in front of you, My eyes, full of compassion and care, looking down on your kneeling form.
you have offered yourself to Me, your mind, your body, your emotions, and your soul, and for those I pledge you this.
I shall cherish you not only as My submissive, but as the love you are, warm, intelligent, caring, and sensitive.
I shall never intentionally harm you, and although I know, I am not perfect, I shall try to act wisely in all things.
If I err, I shall rectify My error and I shall apologize to you.
I shall continually strive to guide you and teach you to help you and support you, as you make the difficult decisions, which precede growth.
I will be patient, as you grow, knowing that all things take time and change often does not come easily. But even in My patience, I shall continually push you forward and not allow you to fall backwards. If in anything you do fall, I shall be there t
the longing I have
makes me ache
it shakes me to my bones
I need to hold you
I need to feel you
but we're so far away
yet we are so attached
as if someone took my better half and ripped it away
I can't not think about you
I can't not love you
you are too much of me
inspiring me to be who I am
you are my alpha and omega
I'll always hold you near
from the depths of my heart
I love you always
never let me go
if you do I could die
don't play with my heart
its too fragile for that
just now picking up the pieces
don't leave the puzzle undone
I'll give you everything you could ever want
just promise to always love me
sometimes I may mess up
make some mistakes
forgive me I swear I'll be everything you want and need
so hear my plea and stay with me
Written by Joshua Sackett
Once Broken Girl
looking in the mirror to see
only a shrunken shell
of what used to be
barely any life left in her eyes
many a wounds have healed
but one shall never
slowly she takes hold of the blade
and traces her vein
with but a moments hesitation
she slits open her wrist
a mortal wound gushing blood
too late to go back
too late to right the wrongs
too late to tell the truth
slowly she collapses upon the bathroom floor
her eyes glazing over
her thin lips pressed into a smile
there upon the floor she lay
nothing left behind
but the corpse
of a once broken girl
Living my life sometimes I wonder
Why even strive?
I look back on all the things I have done
And wonder *Look What I have become*
How did I let things get this way
And what the hell ever made me think
*Yes This is The Way*
The Choices I have made
Whether it was for my kids
Whether it had been for myself
Most of them were the wrong choices
And now I know that I have done wrong
How can I make up for these choices
And fix all the things I have done
Wondering if there really is a way
Sometimes I just wish God would take me away
Then All those bad choices i made
Will slowly fade away
9 - 14 - 06
Just Another Rainy Day!
Okay....here we are with yet ANOTHER rainy day.And yet again I am bored and you know what happens when I get bored? My mind starts to wonder and the most random thoughts go through it.....this is the reason for this entry.I need a place to put them,and since I (like everyone else) am addicted to LC...I figure....why not put them here!
Am I the only one that finds guys to be the most stubborn and hard headed people.Why is it so hard for them to just come out and say what they want? INSTEAD of looking for other things to bitch about before they can get to the real issue of what's up their asses!Try talking to us about it when a things start bothering you!And why do you guys carry all your old baggage into your new relationships?So you've been hurt and had your heart broken....GET THE FUCK OVER IT...WE ALL HAVE AT SOME POINT!
And just because you have been hurt by one of us,doesn't give you the right to blame your current g/f for the past g/f mistakes!Truth is....SHE JUST WASN'T T
In Your Eyes
the stars shine
in your eyes
are written on every feature
of your face
your wishes hanging close by
nothing is ever lost
and everything is found
turns to light
everything is soo right
the truth is hidden no more
the future waits
just behind that door
so go fly free
Visions Of You
********Visions Of You********
in memory of Gertrude Carrie Graham (Mimmie)
Laying back onto the pillow
I stare out the window into the willows
Thinking of days when you were here
And wishing i still had you near
I never wanted our time to end
And now everything just seems to blend in
I remember when you used to sit and stare
While you brushed my long hair
You would tell me how things used to be
How your parents would so often see
The little ones running and playing
But now all you see in fear while they are running
Oh how i miss those days
When all we ever did was play
You told me you would never leave
And it never came to me that i shouldnt believe
You left me here all alone
Now i have noone but me
All I have left are my Visions of you
Thinking of all the things we went through
I miss you so much
And wonder if I will ever again feel your touch
I can still remember how you smell
And how soft your skin feels
I wish i could just go back
And have you ta
Taught Me How
it had no meaning
it had no worth
it had no warmth
until you came along
and took me into your loving embrace
you taught me how
to live again
now I don't feel as lost
with you by my side
you brought it meaning
you brought it worth
you brought it warmth
and you taught me how to love
you taught me how to live
It'll Never End
No matter how far we've come,
I can't wait to see my tomorrows with you,
but the sun sets,
and i feel the light betraying me.
my eye's are burning up,
the darkness is holding me tight.
My walls are closing in,
till the sun rises again.
The sounds of your voice painted on my memories,.
This lack of control i feel is never ending.
When i close my eyes,
something pulls beneath the surface of my chest,
it's the love i feel for you in my heart.
One thing I've begun to realize,
It doesn't matter how hard you've tried,
to get someone to love you when they don't,
can really make you lose all pride.
There's a place so dark in my heart,
and now I know it will never end.
A Simple Thought From A Simple Man
I am a HUGE fan of blogs. The way I see it? It is a "dear diary" setting where the whole world sneaks into your room and reads the entries...I like that idea. I am quite a secretive person myself, but I like sharing those secrets sometimes. So...to make a long story longer...I plan on using this blog space to release my inner thoughts...desires...dreams (yes, ISIS, maybe I will put THAT one in here too)...and above all else SECRETS! Enjoy the mental wanderings of a brilliant man trapped in a mediocre body. much love all!
the moon shining down
to land upon your shoulders
you touch soo soft
as you take my hand
and pull me close
crickets chirp as we take a step
the trees sway as we begin to waltz
even the water seems to move
as if we three are one
the stars come to wrap me in elegance
a silent tone of music
is whispered on the wind
you begin to twirl me around
suddenly we stop
our eyes meet
and everything else disappears
but you and I
and this perfect moment
I am your worst enemy
Hidden in your brain
Waiting for the right time to strike
I care not what sex you are
or what age
Dozens have fallen victim
when you give in
many choices appeal to me
I could make you hang yourself or slit your wrists with a blade
I control you
your thoughts, your actions
Soon your name will be forgotten
As you lay there in a bed of lace
Beneath the ground
My name will be remembered for years
I am your true nightmare
ok say u r married and ur spouse cums to u and tells u that they wanna b a porn star... how would u take that news? what would b ur answer?
(just doing sum research)
I Can't Forget
I can’t forget
I can’t forget that night
The rev of the engine
The look in his eyes
Starring devishly over at the other driver
Tries burn out on both sides
Flying down 502 as they sailed to the finish
Nothing can stop them now
It’s just too late
The headlights flash as a driver comes head on
Nothing could change what was happening now
Screeching tires haunt me in my head
The sounds of the crash are still fresh in my mind
The burst of flames
Screams from the car
Trapped inside they are now
All trying to help but nothing works
Burning alive inside that car
Frantically trying to save them
Nothing is helping
That night they died young
Written in memory of Leo Callahan and Toni Beckage forever together 4/26/05
A sweet burning desire hidden dormant
A painful ache
And the longing for his touch
Heart skipping beats and fluttering
Sweet sensation that’s comes with a kiss
Slight shivers at his touch
Sweet love words whispered
Desire growing with every kiss
Lust becoming harder to control
This is love
This is what I want but cannot have!
I have been sitting here in class all day and I dont know what to do! I dont want to be here, but I have to be. I hate it! Well this is muh first blog and I just wanted to get it out....
The Dying Angel
Surrounded by the undying darkness she hides alone
The wind nipping at her bare bloodied skin
Wings once white and beautiful
Now stained with age and withering slowly
He left her there to die alone
He broke his promise and took her love for granted
He was blind and could not see she loved him so
Thoughts racing trough my mind
Happy memories keeping me smiling
Thoughts of pleasing others ,seeing them happy
Making me eager to do anything
Time passing by quickly,as its not noticed
Knowing this is the way it should always be.
Worries, the slightest thing that bothers you.
Music and Television are on and not heard
Why did I do that? What did I do wrong?
Cannot turn the clock back, damn ,wish I could
Sleep is just not possible things needing sorted
Where are the happy days, make them come back
Having to get things into perspective
Getting control and not carried away
Calmness like the moment just before sleep
Knowing that things are all right
Sitting for ten minutes nothing to do
Deep breaths ,count to ten, and relax
Why R Men So Ungrateful
Why r men so ungrateful? I do his cooking, cleaning, laundry everything and he can never say thank you.
To My Baby..
hey baby i know it has been awhile since i sent you an email or anything, cause well i see you every day now and i just tell you most things. well, i wanted to send you one and then i thought it would be better if i just wrote a blog so the whole world could read it. not like they will, but they could :D i love you so much baby. you are truly amazing. you are the best thing that has ever happened to me (twice :D). our relationship is not like anything i have ever known or even seen before. you are so supportive and understanding. things that i get upset with myself about or that people in my past would have been upset about mean absolutely nothing to you. somehow you only see the good things in me and none of the bad. it continues to surprise me every day. i keep expecting you to come home in a bad mood one day and get mad at me over something, anything, but you never, ever do. i wonder how long it will take me to get used to that, or if i ever will. i got so used to not being able to
Hey you all. I have 9 new skins to share with everyone. They are all turned on to be randomly placed on my profile every time you select it.
If you rip a skin, all I ask is that you repost this to all your friends, have me as a friend, rate and comment my photos... You know... the usual love sharing. :)
How to rip skins:
Go to my profile.... if you dont like the skin that is showing... leave and come back...Once it is on a skin you like, scroll all the way down to the bottom where it says rip skins. Click it. Then go to your home. Click my sknins and turn the skins you want on, on. It is that easy.
P.S. I will make special order skins for extra love. Just know it may take awhile. (and it may not).
You And Me
Tears stain my muddy cheeks as I scramble along
The night swallows me whole taking away my vision
Slipping and sliding as thorns tear at my flesh
With all my strength long gone, I collapse to one knee
I call out your name into pounding rain
Out of nowhere you appear
And draw me to my feet, into your warm embrace
Weeping silently as you run your fingers through my hair
Everything seems to slowly slip away
But you and me
Tomorrow is my birthday. Woot Woot. Gonna get fucked up for sure.
GRRRR!! WHY TODAY????? Like I have enough on my mind, my plate, my life to keep me busy, and now this little wrench called JURY DUTY is slung in my direction...by excersising my right and registering to vote I signed my life away and at the same time volunteered for jury duty...UGH..I just hope they send me home, I've got a 19 month old that wouldn't do well being separated by me, not to mention a hubby that hasn't seen me for 6 weeks...ya'll just cross yer fingers I don't have to go! BLAH I'm so bummed...when I should be happy, hubby's coming home tomorrow :)
Angel Of The Night
Angel of the night come spread your blackened wings
Become one with that which you were born
Her green eyed savior
In the depths of the night she awaits thee
Reek your revenge on thou who spilt your woman's blood
She died for you
Don't let her death be for not and go unpunished
A Vampire's Kiss
He gently kisses her neck as she lay in a deep slumber
Golden locks spread out around her
Slowly her chest rises and falls
He sinks his teeth into her soft flesh
Gently sucking, drawing forth the sweet ecstasy of life
The woman's breathing becomes shallow
Her body begins to lose temperature
He reluctantly pulls away
Blood staining his lips and the better part of his shirt
Her flesh now pale as marble, her lips a bright crimson
Heart beats much faster now
Seems so frail against the bright bedspread
"Goodnight my angel, for soon you will be with me"
Into the shadows of the he disappears
What Is One To Feel?
May you feel serenity and tranquility
in this world you may not fully ever understand.
May the pain you have known and the conflicts you
give you the strength to work through life
facing each new situation with courage
Always know there are those whose love and
understanding will always be there,
even when you feel most alone.
May you discover enough goodness in others
to believe in a sense of peace.
A kind word, a reassuring touch,
a warm smile be yours everyday
of your life
And may you give these gifts as well
as receive them.
Remember the Sunshine
when the storm seems unending.
Teach love to those who hate and let that
love embrace as you continue on in the world.
May the teachings of those you admire
become a part of you, so that you may call
upon them when needed.
Remember those whose lives you have touched,
and whom have touched yours.
they will always be apart of you.
Even if the encounters were less than you
Never Dance With A Ninja
so... i see we have a new feature here at LC. now, i only read one of these. and it was acually pretty good (yes, seeqer, yours). well, i really dont have too much to say at the present, just bored. i guess maybe i should be nice and share some of my worldly knowledge and power, let you in on my secrets of how to gain vast wealth and riches, or maybe even give you my favorite recipe for monkey brains and elephant dong bisque. well, no, any of those would take entirely too long to explain. truth is, ladies and gentlemen, i own the worlds only monkey/zombie/human hybrid boy (not for sale)and he will one day rule the world. i think that might sum things up for now. i need to go lemur hunting later, so i must prepare. oh, and if you were wondering about the title of this little blathering, well, heed that advice.
Truth Of Thursday
Truth of Thursday
I've got the pipe and photo of a good friend,
Now isn't that the truth?
I've known deception, guilt and correction,
but I'm still looking for proof.
I've lived, I've cried, commit soul suicide,
I know I still lay awake at night.
My stories been told,
my heart says I'm old,
but I'm not more then a kid.
I've been searching more then i ever have,
I've been blamed for things I never even did.
So say good-bye to hopeless sorrow,
and keep your eyes on tomorrow.
Tell me a story,
Sing me a song,
Teach me the words and I will sing along.
Sing what you want as long as it's true,
I'd listen to anything as long as it's you.
To think freedom was a lock and key,
I'm not sure that's where i want to be.
Broken promises, broken dreams,
slip through cracks and fall through seams.
I have no idea what I did,
I'm just waiting for the day to change,
and the sun will rise again.
true and unfaltering are his affections towards me
in his eyes I’m all I see
with every romantic word he whispers to me
my importance grows
his gentle touch is soft and caring
the many kisses I receive
bring forth and uncontrollable passion
once hidden deep and dormant
I have long awaited he
and he has long awaited me
a perfect pair are we
a fallen angel and a wandering soul
Since I had to live without love I have been lost in blackness
Desperately looking for a kind caress
wishing for that special gift from up above
with the purity of a dove
Every night I wish upon a star
wishing I was where you are
living like this is pure hell
and I know it all to well
feeling sad and so very alone
It chills me to the bone
I will make amends for all I done
so we can be together as one
all I need is one more chance
to prove to you this ain't no song and dance
I want to give you all I can give
and cherish you for as long as I live
I finally realize love comes from the heart not the head
and It should not be taken for granted
I am a new man because of this
and I will do anything just to feel your loving kiss
Soft flesh the color of gold
Hides a heart where pain resides
An innocence completely ruined
A sweet caring young girl
Now bitter and hateful
A twang of rope and the crash of a stool
A broken neck and a blood pool
No more pain resides in her heart
But what resides in yours?
Knowing full well you were the one who took her life
You Will Always Stay
a heart so pure and gentle
a voice soft and sweet
so hard to believe you are here no more
to comfort those in need
in our minds you'll always stay
the way you were that first day
an angel you will forever be
so close and dear to me
A Bad Night
I ache, I weep,
I die inside.
I see the world,
And want to hide.
I ache, I hurt,
I want it gone.
How I hate,
To see the dawn.
Where have you been,
I am so blue,
Here I am,
I don’t have you.
I don’t want to think.
I don’t want to feel.
I don’t want to know,
That this is real.
Men want my body,
But not my heart.
My soul is lost,
It’s torn apart.
How many tears,
Must I yet shed.
To release this pounding,
In my head.
I want to scatter,
Into the breeze.
I beg and cry,
Upon my knees.
I fall apart,
Without a hope.
I can’t go on.
I cannot cope.
Into the night,
Let lose my soul.
So it may find,
What makes it whole.
Dancing monkeys are on the lose.
Dance monkey dance
for those of you who know, u know i have some problems. a few of you know that it was apperant yesterday when i got home from school. WARNING: i plan to use my blog as a journal so it's just a warning for those of you who think it has anything written of importance.
anyway, so yesterday was one of the worst days ever at school. on top of being sick (i have been sick since friday and have had a fever everyday this week), i had three tests in my calculus class, in my earth and space science class, and a retake of a calculus test that i got a 24 on. it was block day so the classes are double long but we only have 3 out of the 6 periods (wednesday is periods 1-3-5, and thursdays is periods 2-4-6).
well the people who gave me my schedule messed me up and put me in spanish 4 from 3 years of a spanish four levels higher and they made me take a placement test to get into a higher spanish which is during classes i dont wanna switch. i decided i was gonna drop but then they decided t
this is the first time that i have entered a site like this and would love to have a female help me out... i am so completely lost on here. if you would you can add me to yahoo. would love to chat more with ya. not sure if i can post my yahoo add here but it is the same as my screen name on here.
Spirit Of Love
it's two in the morning,
i'm staring at the ceiling,
trying to conjure your touch.
Maybe i don't understand it,
but some how something was lost,
that no ammount of any prayer could retrieve.
All that i remember is,
a book full of promises and dreams.
How you held out a handful of love,
but i flat out refused it,
'cause i was so afraid to lose it.
Maybe i just wanted it to much,
now its lost...so...
spirit of love rest on me tonight.
I'm wide awake at midnight,
praying in the moonlight,
just like a thousand times before.
I don't really know for sure,
but i think a door was shut somewhere,
and no amount of tears will ever open it.
I could die on a thousand crosses,
and count ten thousand dreams.
If i could only know for certain,
I could put away my fears,
and end this useless scene.
Spirit of love, fall on me tonight.
Lament Of A Dom
We lay glistening,
In the crystals.
Under a lava sky.
Our moist salt mingles.
As I brush sand from your eyes.
My mouth suckles,
Your hard nipple.
Teeth pressure with soft bites.
We hear music.
From the ocean.
Waves beat to your sighs.
My hand lingers,
In smooth moistness.
Like a finger picked guitar.
And you vibrate to my stroking.
As my song finds your heart.
My voice fills you.
With its melody.
As my words brush your ear.
Soft con calore leaves you wanting.
As my song brings you near.
Your wrists bound,
By my heartstrings.
Feels the bite of my song.
And I play you so deftly.
Till you cry from the dawn.
You can feel me.
Deep within you.
As my song drives you on.
And its strength is the phallus.
I have you impaled upon.
You feel it building.
Yet, the pleasure sings like notes.
Of this song to an ending.
You had never known before.
My song brings you.
To its plateau.
In Climatic burning fire.
As our bodies die still wa
Never Letting Go
eyes the color of the blue sea
a heart yearning for me
softest brush of fingertips
warmth of his breath upon my neck
a wonderful feeling deep inside
gentle hands pulling me close
holding me in the depths of the night
a love so pure and untainted
a sweet sensation
a tearful good-bye
never letting go of what is forbidden
never letting go of what is true
never let go of me
never letting go of you
We grieve for ourselves, not those who have passed, for they are in a far better place. Grieve for yourself and for those who will feel the loss. Then the joy of the life can fill you.
Now we're apart.
In my ears.
So many memories,
Over the years.
I light a candle
For you this night.
I love you so
With all my might.
With your parting
There is a space
My heart is torn
It's out of place
Your warm smile
Your loving ways
Well be with me
All my days.
I love you
an unknown desire for his touch
a yearning to hear his voice
without him there is nothing
I’m lost without him
lost without my prince
a soft fragrant scent
big pleading green eyes
full crimson lips
finely crafted body
a soothing voice
a hint of passion
open arms awaiting you
a gentle brush
of baby smooth skin
skin the color of honey
a moment of pain
darkness drawing closer
the last you see
is the temptress
from the corner of her perfect
a crimson rose
clutched tight at hand
the thorns biting deep
brining forth drops of life
a girl on bended knee
with hand upon the trigger
barrel pointed at her temple
the note she wrote
laid out in front
slowly she lets it all go
the gun falls upon the carpet
her body slumped against the closet door
the rose dripping it's color
the note that was written
splattered with blood
penned by a wavering hand
stained by tears
sealed with one last kiss
was her good-bye
Look forward to meeting people. Hope that everyone is having a good one. Feel free to message me anytime.
hidden deep inside the shadow
clinging tight to my sanity
day by endless day
step by endless step
till my feet are rubbed raw
and little memory of happiness
and your face
just a faint image
floating there in the distance
but I know it is not real
you are mine no more
and I am lost
just barely holding onto
Me And My Blog Lol
I normally will never post a blog..and this will more then likely be my one and only. Just wanted to use it to thank everyone that I have met on here...Some I have gotten really close with *hugs* and couldn't imagine my day passing without chatting with you. For those that I haven't gotten the opportunity to chat with I hope that one day one of us is bold and says whats up and start chit-chattin...
is whispered on the wind
shadowing my every step
how can you be gone
and yet so close?
spread out upon the carpet
your scent so strong
are you really gone?
your empty pillow space
shall never fill
your place in my heart
shall never be taken
how can you be gone?
sometimes I feel your touch
how it felt
with your arms around me
holding me close
nobody can make me feel the way that you did
unless you have not left for good
are you truly gone?
Welcome To My Mind!!!
In this blog i hope to have my many thoughts conveyed with feeling and that the return will be thought provoking comments..and that you like and will give feed back....
ATTENTION!!!!!!! MEN!!! YOU WILL NOT ,I ,REPEAT NOT GAIN ANY ENTRY TO MY PRIVATE PHOTOS IM SORRY ITS RESERVED FOR COUPLES AND BI FEMALES THAT ARE ATTRACTIVE TO US ( BUCKEYEBADASS AND AMAZONIANMIDGET) BECAUSE WE ARE INTRWESTED THE SWINGER LIFE STYLE.... YOU HAVE TO GET TO KNOW US AS A COUPLE FIRST....
A lil More about me .
I am a 23 year old cancer survivor (ovarian) , I am a Tech Geek, I am a Bi Female in Love with a Awesome ,handsome, Hot male...His Name is Toby.aka BuckeyeBadass.. he is the light of my life ...and my reason for life...We have this amazing connection i.e. we finish each others sentences and we have similar ideals in life. We Decided to do the Swinging Couple thing Because its a New experience for the both of us . WE are VERY VERY secure in our lifestyle
Better Than Anything Cake Mmmm
1 box german chocolate cake mix
14 ounces can sweetened condensed milk
9 ounces butterscotch caramel ice cream topping
Cool Whip - thawed
crushed Heath Bars
Bake 1 box German Chocolate cake mix. When done, poke holes in it with the end of a wooden spoon. Pour 1 can of Eagle Brand Sweetened Condensed milk over the cake. Pour 1/2 jar of butterscotch-caramel ice cream topping over it.
Let the cake set 1/2 day or overnight in the refrigerator. Just before serving, spread 1 medium sized container of cool whip over the cake - or you can frost it with real whipped cream. Sprinkle crushed Heath Bars on top of the cake.
This recipe for Better Than Anything Cake serves/makes 8
You are Bettie Page
Girl next door with a wild streak
You're a famous beauty - with unique look
And the people like you are cultish about it
What Famous Pinup Are You?
I Hate People Who Don't Want To Listen...
Especially those who I have to work with. All I need is ONE person to do ONE small job, then the rest is done. But noooooooooo... This woman's gotta butt in, telling me who I have to talk to and whatnot, after I've already told her five FUCKING times that I've done that before calling HER! I think I'll go slam my head into the nearest wall now.
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1 Box German Chocolate Cake Mix
7 ounces Sweetened Condensed Milk
6 ounces Caramel Sauce (Jar)
8 ounces Non-Dairy Whipped Topping -- thawed
8 Heath Candy Bars -- crushed
Bake cake in 9 by 13-inch cake pan, as directed on box. Let it cool slightly and poke little holes in the top of the cake with a pencil. Dribble sweetened condensed milk and caramel sauce over cake.
Let stand for over an hour until the cake has completely cooled. Frost with whipped topping and sprinkle crushed candy bars over that. Refrigerate.
This recipe for Better Than Sex Cake serves/makes 8
Gazing through a curled mass
Of rusty, blonde tangles.
Focused judgment of my soul.
Finding me lacking.
Deep within their verdant core
A tiny flare -- of Love.
And as I spy this forgiving flicker
I find within myself
To break that searing contact
And turn away...
...From the mirror.
© 2005 D. R. Hyden
Death Of A Soldier
A fine soldier passed today
As he lay here in the sand
While mortality was fading
I held his dying hand.
As the light in his eyes faded
I pulled him up to me
Hand-in-hand we walked away
Across the yellow sea.
In a steamy jungle years ago
I fought in Viet Nam
While fighting for my country
The Father took me home.
I came back to lend a hand
When brother's time had come
Mother's heart will surely break
Now both her sons are gone.
©2003 D. R. Hyden
Dreaming Of Middle Earth
Out of step, and out of place,
Somewhere in this Human Race
There's got to be a niche
That I can call my own.
Should have been born in a time
Of castles, wizards, and of rhymes.
That Hobbits and Elvenkind
And Dragons called their home.
Where folks go on magic quests,
Rings are cursed and heroes blessed,
Adventure is the rule
And I could find myself.
A heroine, I could be
Bound in chains, and yet break free.
To save the distressed Knight,
And win the heart of an Elf.
But here I sit, home instead,
Dreaming most, of books I've read,
Fantasy is better
Than Real Life any day.
So heavy heart, I lift my head,
Put book away, and go to bed.
Alas, my life of Dreams,
And dreams all fade away.
© 2005 D R Hyden
About My Poem's
i express my self through poetry it's the only way i know how to say what i am truly feeling at the time every one i have written myself so i am asking you please do not take them UNLESS you ask... every one says i have true art with my poems so i would like to share them with you.... i will be adding new ones as i write them thank you guys so much for veiwing them ents you guys are the greatest
ALWAYS: Queen of the night
Storm Of Grief
The air sags with the heaviness of grief,
Anger and rage are searching for a voice
Overwhelming, suddenly, all hope of reprieve
The heavens burst in a storm of wailing.
Their gasping pouring desolation finds its voice in thundering strobes.
The gales of their moaning whip the earth with their fury and despair.
Finally spent, a grieving silence settles deeply.
Joy begins to lift the darkness,
as the clouds of sorrow begin to part.
The trees weep with gratitude,
splashing their tears onto the foliage
as the sky finally finds the courage to smile once more.
© 2005 d. r. hyden
I want to hear your laughter
And wash away your pain
I want to heal your broken heart
And make it whole again.
I want to feel your hand in mine
And hold you when you cry
I want to shake your world apart
And wish your hurt good-bye.
When all is said, and finally done,
I will be here for you
I'm the friend who hangs around
My heart is always true.
Never leaving when you need me
Even when we're older
I'll be there to lend a hand
Or ear, or arms, or shoulder.
And when I'm feeling sad and down
I know you'll be there, too
Youre always there to lift me up
A friend always true blue.
So with this declaration
I end my sentiment:
Always know the best of friends
Are truly Heaven sent.
©d. r. hyden
Pale, white face
Until you look
Deep into her gaze.
See the tear-drenched wounds
Proof of knowledge
Scars of tragedy
Write tales of woe,
Burned into the depths
Of those salt-washed orbs of green.
Intelligence, bitterness and even
Sour hatred rest there,
And yet still, beneath it all,
The innocence shines
Like a beacon of hope
For the damned.
© 2006 D. R. Hyden
More On How To
The Female Prostate, Female Ejaculation, and
From the book A New View of a Woman's Body
Copyright 1981, The Federation of Feminist Women's Health Centers
Illustrated By: Suzann Gage, L Ac, RNC, NP
Female Body Fluids
Before discussing female ejaculation I will first address female body fluids in general. Our society, as well as most others, views all form of liquid that are produced by the female body with great disdain. Women are not permitted to engage in any activity that would expose others to their body fluids, and they are viewed as less than feminine and desirable if they do. Female body fluids are considered harmful by many and there are societies in which menstruating women are thought to cause crops to fail and livestock to die. This creates a significant barrier to sexual pleasure for women, as female body fluids are a normal and necessary part of sex.
Women are expected to maintain a dry pristine a
How is it that I work my ass off all day and have a second job but yet I still seem to have no money after bills. I'm exhausted from it. Right now I got 3 or more guys wanting to sleep with me but they don't want to be with me wtf? Its a rainy and dreary day not o cold but cold enough for me to wear a sweatshirt. 35 minutes and i get to go pick up one of the boys god help me. I had a procedure done friday which prevents me from any sexual activity which really sucks since its been since last saturday(shhhh.... wasn't supposed to do it) But luckily they only found one spot to take a biopsy of instead of three like the last time
well thats it for now
Screaming, sobbing, wailing
Tunes of a tortured soul.
Dischords and missed harmony
Striking madness into the mind's ear.
Crashing, percussive beat
Of a breaking, hurting heart.
Tuneless melody of sorrow
Off-key and wounded,
Mindless, seeking solace
Finding only shrieking chaos.
Slicing slashing pain
Escalating notes of misery,
copyright 2006 d r hyden
screeching winds plucking at your skin
tearing at your hair
as if it hates you.
driving through you with bloody vengeance
in its pouring intent
does it hate you?
bellowing its discontent through shattered ears
showing no mercy
it hates you.
burning its electric whip through your broken heart
searing your soul
why does it hate me?
©2006 d. r. hyden
bad day the day i wrote this...can u tell?? lol
Ok....i'm Over It Right Now!
WHY IS EVERYONE BITCHING AND MOANING ABOUT ALL THE LEWD COMMENTS BEING MADE TO ALL THESE WOMEN ON HERE? IS THERE SOME REASON WHY THESE WOMEN THINK THAT THERE'S A "SAFE" INTERNET SITE? A SITE WHERE THEY WON'T BE BOTHERED, HARRASSED OR EVEN STALKED BY SOME PERVERTED MAN THAT WASN'T BREASTFED ENOUGH AS A BABY? SOMETHING TELLS ME THAT THERE ARE TOO MANY WOMEN LIVING "OVER THE RAINBOW". IF YOU POST HALF NAKED (OR IN SOME CASES TOTALLY NAKED) PICS ON THE INTERNET, YOU SHOULD EXPECT A NASTY RESPONSE FROM SOME OF THE MEN. ACTUALLY, YOU SHOULD EXPECT A NASTY RESPONSE FROM SOME OF THE WOMEN TOO. AS A WOMAN WHO REFUSES TO POST ANYTHING ALONG THE LINES OF NUDITY, I CAN TELL YOU, IT CUTS DOWN ON THE MEAN AND DISGUSTING COMMENTS YOU GET FROM PEOPLE WHEN YOU KEEP IT CLEAN. MAYBE THERE'S SOME UNSPOKEN RULE SOMEWHERE THAT I DON'T KNOW ABOUT WHICH STATES THAT A WOMAN CAN TEASE THE LIVING HELL OUT OF A MAN AND EXPECT TO BE TREATED WITH RESPECT? IF SO, I WISH SOMEONE WOULD INFORM THE MEN ABOUT THIS RULE S
Poetry & Random Ass Thoughts
the smell of my clove cigarettes
and the dribble of some alt-emo band
wafting out my windows
in a spiralling silver fog
it melds with the sound of traffic
here, in my slice of the ghetto
where i find myself
in the darkness
Under Death's baleful glare
I waste my pen,
Writing meaningless drivel
As I sort through my days.
Wonder where tomorrow
Has disappeared into yesterday.
Today has no meaning
For I have spent my allottment.
My withered hands shake
As I lay pen aside
And gather my life in sheafs;
Drifts of paper mark time wasted
As I take up match and striker
And set flame
To my soul.
copyright 2006 d. r. hyden
this poem wrote itself and i have no idea what it means or represents... i mean, i could speculate, but i was in a good mood when i wrote it, and i wasn't thinking about anything in particular... so whatever it means...it's kinda creepy...lolol... any ideas on what it means? feel free to speculate with me...lolol
Let It Be....for Now
Right now, I just cannot take the whole serious-relationship thing. I'm alone? No, not really. I have a job and four kids. Love Life? Well, yeah, that will suck for a while, but right now, its just for the best.
I just need a breather for a bit.
I need time to sit and think, get over my bronchitis, and re-evaluate my life. Escaping the possibility of jailtime and the issues I'm having with my ex-husband are just completely emotionally draining.
I tell people all the time that I need a vacation! I don't think I need a physical vacation, though it would be nice. I need an emotional vacation!!
I need free from all the stress.
Before I hurt any feelings, this 'blog' is NOT directed towards anyone. I'm just writing down the thoughts in my head.
The Empty Chair
I talked to you yesterday
Although you weren't there.
I had an unfulfilling conversation
With your empty chair.
I told you that I miss you
How I'm sorry that you're gone,
How much it hurts inside
And how the nights are long.
I listened as you didn't say
The things I need to hear,
All the things you didn't say
Echoed loud and clear.
I felt it as you didn't take
My hand into your keep
I saw your non-existant tears
As you didn't start to weep.
I told you how your mama cried
And said Life wasn't fair.
I talk nightly, since you died,
To your empty chair.
© 2006 D. R. Hyden
i feel like an ass
i feel like a jerk
and everything eles rolled into one.....
i knew this was to good to be true
im broken and brused
but now im down for the count.....
down for the count but not dead yet
my heart is ripped open
it gushes for you.....
but still maddly in love
it just dosent make sense
im still broken brused and down for the count because of the one that i love as the times before....
time will heal all wounds as they say
Why Me And Pookie Have Been M.i.a
apparently some carzy, fat, stalker cunt thought it would be humorous to send me a nasty little virus via email. 415 of 'em! ERGH! i hope she gets raped by monkeys! so, long story short, i've spent the better part of this past week downloading all the programs i need again, etc. also, me and pookie are in the process of FINALLY moving off of the shitty street we've been living on for the last year and a 1/2. we'll still be in the ghetto, but out of crackville, USA.
in the meantime, please keep hitting us up with all the comments and messages. we're still checking LC whenever possible, and are trying to get back with ppl when we can.
talk to you all later
Do I need him in my life for days to come. To grow, to learn, to trust, to love. Obstacles, always obstacles get in the way.
Like a cloud in the sky who's shape over time changes with the wind, this changes as well.
Ever so slowly over time.
Does it change into a mass of nothingness, or another beautiful shape to continue on.
What is to become of these changes. A growing period for all.
I feel as though my mind is working alone. As though I am here with only myself.
My soul, it works alone. Are you not the one for me.
I need to feel more connected. That is what I yearn for in my life. At this time in my life.
A communicator, a teacher, a lover and a friend.
A cloud with a silver lining.
She was the blizzard that lies between the sacred eternal sleep, and the deafening silence of the heartless city streets.
Even the brightest, most colorful, neon reflection, on the perma-rain soaked streets fades next to the hypnotic fire of her eyes.
She was walking temptation, at the gates to a thousand years of blissful torment, troubled sleeps of imperfection, in the face of ultimate obsession.
She was a glimpse in the corner of my eye, that grew to become everything.
No one could feed her todays, so how could I ever hope to satisfy her thirst for tomorrow?
I touched the razorblade within my mind, and watched my soul turn to blood stained red.
Hard and fast images, of nightly news bulletins, and adult movies, with sub-stratospheric stars, that twinkled only in their secret despairs, foot on the gas, no hands on the wheel, eyes closed, as the cliff edge hurtles towards them, at warp speed infinity.
Permanent decline of a never ending empire.
For any of those who care to ask, I am just me. I am on this site to make friends and I have made many. I am not here to "hook' up via cam or anything like that. I wont be on here much because of school so dont think i am being rude.
Man what a fucked up two weeks its been.I got fucken stranded, betrayed by the family and one of my friends went crazy on me literally..Yup it sux being me right now..Ah fuck it i guess this shit too shall pass ey..I jus hope its sooner than later.Fuck enuff with this vulnerable crap I hate it..BLAH BLAH BLAH! MAKE ME NUMB..MMM happy pills..lol
So What To Say
I guess this is where i get to rant and rave about what ever is on my mind. Unfortunatly i have a cold so nothing is coming to mind right now. You all know how that is, everything is foggy. If anyone has any questions they would like to ask me i might have an anser(it may not be the one you want but it never hurts to ask). I think i'll take my sick ass to bed now, have a great evening everyone!
Over the last few weeks a lot of things have changed. And honestly only about 2 people will understand this entry.
Ive finally come to terms with things with Matt and Stephen. Ive finally realized im completely over Matt, and honestly im proud of myself.
I will admit, i dont really know what else to do or say when it comes to my best friend. = Or anything else.
But ive come to a few conclusions. Always let yourself be happy. Reguardless of what happens next, and never forget the steps you took to get to the road ahead, cause those steps are learning expirences.
Ive meet some awesome people in the last few days. Like steve, i love you hun
Today So Far
Ok,now I'm seriously pushing my ass to blog. Don't be lazy like me!
Today so far: ain't NOTHING happen that was "cool"
It's POURING rain outside!
I went to work..Tired as Hell! And oh,yes...I "battled" this one dude today,LOL the fool couldn't rap for nothin.
Wannbez these days man!
Everyone HOLLA AT ME!?
Lots of Love?
This poem was written by my daughter when I had pneumonia....love my baby
My hopes and dreams werent made for anyone to sigh...
Because you know I cant stand to see you cry...
Just smile...stand firm...and be glad...
And dont think of sorrow times you had...
Because it might make you sad...
COPYRIGHTED BY A.N. JOHNSON
i need friends
and more love
and whore me out
My Life As A Nobody
I went through life as a nobody
every since i was a little girl
i was always made fun of called stupid ugly u name it i was called it
and as i have grew older my self esteem has gotton lower
I tell myself iam fat ugly stupid retarded not worth any thing
and i tell myself i would never find a person who would want to spend a life time with me
It is hard for me to make friends and keep them cause i have been hurt so much in my life
It makes it hard for me to trust people i have had a rough life but i keep goin
I wont give up on life till God says its my time So when you see me around you will say theres that lady who is a nobody and when you think you meet a special friend who will stand by
your side and all of a sudden that friend hurts you with there lies so that is why iam a nobody
15 Things You Probably Never Knew Or Thought About
15 Things You Probably Never Knew or Thought About
1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
yay! we have blogs now. im happy!!
Your touch is always soothing when I've had a hard day
When I'm sad and depressed
Or when things dont go my way
Your touch is always warm on a cold winters night
When the world's dead and frozen
Your touch gives the world new meaning and makes everything alright
COPYRIGHTED BY KIMBERLEY RENEE NATASHA JOHNSON
10 Commandments For Responsible Pet Owners
10 COMMANDMENTS FOR RESPONSIBLE PET OWNERS (author unknown)
1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you will be very painful.
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
3. Place your trust in me - it is crucial for my well being.
4. Don't be angry with me for long, and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your friends, your entertainment. I HAVE ONLY YOU !
5. Talk to me. Even if I don't understand your words, I understand your voice when it's speaking to me.
6. Be aware that however you treat me, I'll NEVER forget it.
7. Before you hit me, remember that I have teeth that could easily crush the bones in your hand, but I choose not to bite you.
8. Before you scold me for being lazy or un-cooperative, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, I've been out in the sun too long, or my heart may be getting old and weak.
9. Take care of me when I get old. You too, will grow old.
Can you tell me you love me...
Can you tell me its true...
Can you tell me all the things...
I want to hear from you...
Can you tell me Im the only one...
that makes you scream out loud...
Can you tell me please...so I can be so proud...
Can you tell me you will stay until the end of time...
thru snow...sleet...and hail...rain or shine...
Can you tell me that I will always have your heart...
and never will be the day that we will part...
COPYRIGHTED BY KIMBERLEY RENEE NATASHA JOHNSON
Tonight is passion
Tonight is not tame
Look in my eyes you know my name
I caress your arms
Our eyes shoot at one another like fire
I want to be your desire
Can you feel my heartbeat next to yours
Can you feel the man trying to escape into your door
I kiss your forehead soft and smooth
I can feel you tremble as I move
Down onto your shoulder
Your heart beats like no other
Down your chest im in flight
You know this could never be more right
I hold your hips as the sway
I will definately take you to heaven some day
I lay you back on our bed
You know this is where we make love until the end
I look up at your eyes
You smile and say thanks for every lullaby
I pull myself up look deep in your eyes
I smile and say thanks for standing by my side
I MET SOMEONE TODAY
I met someone today...
in a world filled with unhappiness and pain...
I met someone today...
who took away all the storm clouds and rain...
I met someone today...
Just when I thought I would have noone by my side...
to help me up when I fall...
and journey with me thru life's difficult ride...
I met someone today...
who showed me I was wrong...
in thinking I would go thru life singing the loneliness song...
I met someone today...
and I want to tell them without a doubt...
that my love is unconditional...
and their love I cannot do without...
Perfect Things End....
Perfect Things End
Hoping for victory, wishing and dreaming
Then it comes true and you can’t believe what’s happening
So much joy, so much perfection
I guess I should have learnt my lesson
Too full of joy to understand reality
Because the truth is there was no victory
I don’t want to let go of this joy I feel
The wounds it’ll make would surely not heal
Why is the world so cruel to me?
Is this really reality?
If this real, I’d rather fall asleep
To never wake, to never weep
Why is happiness snatched away?
Why are there shadows in my bright day?
Why can’t the world let me smile?
Even just for a little while
My shattered dreams are thrown to my face
My shattered dreams nothing will replace
I don’t care for it, I’ll have to pretend
I should have known that perfect things end...
~girls Night Out~
OMG ...we had an awesome time. We went to the Funny Bone in Huntington ..the comedians were simply hilarious. The food was good and we just had fun. Then I got this big bright idea to go to the gay bar. Now that was fun! ha ha ha...I got completely shitfaced. I think I had like 6 beers and 4 shots of tequila ..woooo weeee ...I was the life of the party then. I got into a conversation about blow jobs with a gay guy - imagine that! He was telling me how to give one! Paaaaalease boy! I didn't argue though - I was a good girl and just noded and went on. I didn't figure I was going to win that one - at least in his mind. LOL
We had a great time. Although the 4 other girls I went with didn't really enjoy the gay bar too much ...ha ha ha! imagine that once again! They said I was the entertainment - hey everybody has to be something :)
I'm thinking we need to at least have a girls night out once a month
I ONLY HAD HIM FOR A DAY
NOW HE HAS GONE TO HEAVEN TO PLAY
I DIDN'T CARE THAT HE HAD PARVO
OH HOW I LOVED HIM SO
I ONLY CRIED THAT HARD ONE OTHER TIME
I COULD NEVER SALE MY MEMORIES FOR A DIME
I KNOW IT HAPPEND FOR A GOOD REASON
I JUST DONT KNOW WHY IT HAD TO BE THIS SEASON
HE WAS CHEERFUL AND FULL OF LOVE
IM JUST GLAD HE WENT UP ABOVE
HE WAS STRONG AND BLACK
HE WOULDN'T DARE ATTACK
HE WAS ONE OF A KIND
I JUST WISH I KNEW AHEAD IN TIME
feeling the wind
blowing by without a trace
searching for its place
darkness is falling
you must feel the rain
pouring down on this dreaded place
standing alone by the tomb
darkness is falling as the night goes on
thunder and lightning heard round
turning the skies violant
watching as it strikes with fury and hate
darkness is round us
can this be more sound
revenge is at its best
taking its toll on life
darkness has fallin into death
Sometimes we go through life not knowing who to trust or love..not knowing who`s going to help or hurt us..who`s going to be there or leave us..that`s why some of us choose to be alone..but being alone is not always good..We were created to have someone in our lives..be it family..friends..or lovers..So don`t live your life alone..it`s not worth it..Take a chance at being hurt..being left..being helped..having trust in someone..but most of all..take a chance at being loved
COPYRIGHTED 2004 BY Kimberley Renee Natasha Johnson...
finally a blog...yes good lord a blog...thanx mike
Reach Out To Jesus
REACH OUT TO JESUS
Is your burden heavy as you bear it all alone,
Does the road you travel harbor dangers yet unknown,
Are you growing weary in the struggle of it all,
Jesus will help you, when on his name you call.
He’s always there hearing every prayer,
Faithful and true, Walking by our side,
In his love we hide all the day through.
When you get discouraged just remember what to do,
Reach out to Jesus He’s reaching out to you.
Is the life your living filled with sorrow and despair,
Does the future push you with it’s weight and it’s care,
Are you tired and famished,
Have you almost lost your way,
Jesus will help you, just come to Him today.
He’s always there hearing every prayer,
Faithful and true, Walking by our side,
In his love we hide all the day through.
When you get discouraged just remember what to do,
Reach out to Jesus, Come on and reach out to Jesus
I said reach out to Jesus,
I'll be on vacation starting 9-15-06 at 12pm.
i return on 9-25-06. i dont plan on having a computer near me the whole time i'm gone. just a few cervesas, margaritas, and a bottle of tanning lotion.
xoxox wish you all could lay on the beach for a week with me.
i will miss you but not think of you! lol if that makes any sense
love you my beautiful smart cherries!
Here For A Reason
HERE FOR A REASON
I AM HERE FOR A REASON
I AM HEAR TO SPREAD THE LOVE OF GOD
HIS LOVE IS RIGHTOUS AND REAL
HIS LOVE IS STRONG AND POWERFUL
WHEN YOU ARE WEAK HE WILL BE STRONG
WHEN IN DOUBT TURN TO HIM
FEEL HIS PRESANCE AND WARMTH
FEEL HIS ENERGY AND STRENGTH
SEEK HIM AND HE WILL COME
SEEK HIS HELP AND GUIDENCE
Thoughts On Life #2
heres the deal life suck no matter what so just get on with the good stuff and forget the bad if this was true in real life there would be alot less drama and bull shit like that so just get on with your life and dont worry about any thing you only live once
Thoughts On Life #1
life is a bowl of cherrys as they say. but everything is not greener on the other side. stick to what you know and who you know and youll be just fine
“to My Daughter-from Her Mother”
August 10, 1998
“To My Daughter-From Her Mother”
There is no love stronger, than that of a Mother for her Daughter.
Every little girl’s wish is to be able to be a Mother,
And if you are real lucky, this child will be a Daughter.
One the 18th day of August in the year of 1981,
This dream came true, for a little girl made me a Mother.
Her eyes were bright and very wide open,
I knew then, that I was a Mother, to a beautiful Daughter.
The years to follow of this new little life,
Would be a journey to trust that strong love.
With the many years of your difficult and hard life,
We both must put our love on the wings of a great white dove.
There is a very special reason for your birth,
Since you were the only one out four to be born.
God knows what you are to do here on earth,
Ask him for guidance, when you feel your life is torn.
As the years continue to go by in your life,
Remember my love for you can al
Lips Of An Angel
Lyrics to 'Lips of an angel' by Hinder.
Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wan
What You Mean To Me
You are a mircle to me
Someone who entered into my life over 2 years ago
Some one who is always by my side when i need them the most
Someone who makes me laugh when iam sad and down in the dumps
Someone who has never turned there back on me or brushed me off
I know you cant always be around when i need you to be
but when you are around you make my day brighter
Its like my heart has a shade coverin it
But than when i talk to you the shade lifts and the sun takes over
you are like my best friend my soulmate
someone to share my ters with someone to share my laughter with
someone to share my deepest secerts with
someone who iam glad that entered into my life
and we have had rocky times but our friendship is so strong
we work the roughness out and you stuck by me through it all
you are my angel in heaven you are my best friend and soulmate
you will remain that way for eternity you hold a special place in my heart
you mean more to me than any my other friends
cause you are
Erotic Short Story Entitled Sexual Hunger And Secret Desires
Sunlight danced across the baby blue carpet in April's new condo. She had just finished moving in the day before. Finally after 10 years in a rotten marriage she was free to make her own decisions and do as she saw fit. It was a new beginning for her and she was excited.
As she lay there in bed, thoughts of her past life skipped through her mind. She thought about what a tyrant her husband, Dave, had been. She was forced to dress as he liked. She wasn't allowed to leave their home for more than 5 minutes without clearing it with him first. He chose all her personal hygiene items. Without a doubt this man was a control freak and she needed to get out before he became so physically abusive that she would never be able to leave.
She had sought permission to visit her mother in Colorado two weeks ago and by some miracle, he allowed her to go without him accompanying her. She hopped a plane with a suitcase full of her clothing and a few personal items and never looked back. She was f
looks like i'll be taking my car on my trip afterall. better gas mileage than my truck, my saturn gets 32mpg compared to my ford ranger 4x4 15-18 mpg. will be able to go 370 miles before fillin up. havin a good day so far, no troubles and kickin it online today so yes i am bored, lol
Blue Coat Yellow Coat...
SAY THE FIRST THING THAT POPS INTO YOUR HEAD!
DONT TRY TO PREDICT THE ANSWERS
BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF
DONT READ AHEAD
KEEP AN OPEN MIND
THIS IS CALLED:
BLUE COAT, YELLOW COAT
GATHERING IN THE TOWN SQUARE FOR THE LIGHTING OF THE CHRISTMAS TREE GIVES PEOPLE A CHANCE TO COME TOGETHER AS A COMUNITY AND CELEBRATE THE END OF ANOTHER YEAR. ITS A TIME OF NOSTALGIA AND A CHANCE FOR NEW MEMORIES TO BE BORN. PEOPLE ARE IN THE HOLIDAY SPIRIT, STRANGERS ACT LIKE FRIENDS AND A SENSE OF PEACE IS ALL AROUND. THE NIGHT IS COLD AND YOU HAVE COME WITH A GROUP OF FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES TO WATCH THE LIGHTING OF THE TREE. IN THE GROUP OF PEOPLE WITH YOU ONE PERSON IS WEARING A YELLOW COAT AND ANOTHER PERSON IS IN BLUE. WHO ARE THE PEOPLE WEARING THE BLUE AND YELLOW COATS? (GIVE THE NAMES OF PEOPLE YOU KNOW.)
>IN PSYCHOLOGY, BRIGHT COLORS SUCH AS YELLOW ARE ASSOCIATED WITH WARM AND POSITIVE FEELINGS, WHILE COOL COLORS LIKE BLUE ARE LINKED WITH COLD NEGATIVE
Hey people, I see all the drama going around about people giving unwanted advice and/or opinions...Come on folks, this isn't myspace...I'm basically writing this to introduce myself to everyone...
I am a 33 year old armed security sergeant, working for a security/private investigation organization in northeastern Ohio.
My hobbies are surfing the net, drag racing, target shooting, going to car shows, and anything else that captures my need for speed.
The love of my life, Erin is also on my page, first spot in my family when noone on the list is online...
The rest of my family list except 2 are people I know personally, all are awesome people. My friends list is primarily made up of pretty, classy, and curvy ladies that I think have class...I'm not big on the ones that take pics where You can see the ovaries...Come on folks...yuck...lol
Anything else You want to know about me, just ask...I love to chat...Oh and become my fan, I return the favor...spread the love and the po
Wooo Hooo A Blog!!
ok so with LC taking off like it is and all the adding of friends and fans etc I for one am praying that with the addition of the blog comes the demise of the same bulletins being posted OVER and OVER and over!!!
YAY LOST CHERRY!!!
by Jennifer S. Boney
When I think of my love for you
the wonder of its beauty takes my breath away.
I cannot recall the moment in time it began,
but only the overwhelming feeling of ecstasy it brought to me.
For at that moment I knew happiness.
A happiness I had never known before.
For just the thought of you gave me joy beyond belief.
The thought of being with you and being held by you was my one desire
I knew once we first met none other would ever do,
for I knew love.
I knew love as I had never thought possible in this life time.
It is a love of passion and desire.
It is a never-ending need to you,
for you, only you.
When I think of my love for you
I realize I now know the true meaning of love.
I will love you as long as this life endures and beyond,
for you are my dreams, my realities.
You are my heart
You are my meaning of true love.
I've Met The Coolest Person Ever...
So, I've met the most awesome person in the world. His name is Sean and even though I'm sure I'm pissing off a lot of girls, he is mine. Mine, mine, mine. And yes, I am his so sorry boys but I'm claimed. Hope everyone can be as lucky as me...
Now that I am all plugged in just thought I would do a bit of a blog about the ways I like to communicate and the free software available. I dont have AOL and I dont use yahoo due to me having a shite computer and the toolbar download for it just about wore the machine out trying to run anything, so I been mostly using gmail for IM chats, if you have a pc then gmail is cool, you never have to chuck stuff out and can find things easier, also providing you have a headset u can actually call other gmail users and have a voice chat, all u need to do is download google talk which is very cool, u dont need to be logged in to your gmail to use it, anyway u cannot sign up for gmail u have to be invited so if you would like an invite to try it, let me know.
About Skype I am quite amazed at all the thousands of people who havent heard of skype, its a free internet telephone service that lets you call anyones computer for free, yes that's right for free, so you can talk to people all over the
So here's my current "freebie list" -- celebrities I can sleep with without my partner getting upset (see the Friends episode The One With Frank Jr.).
Of course, in most cases, I'm basing my liking for the celebrity somewhat on the character to which I associate them. Personality always does play a part in hotness, for me.
James Marsters (Spike from Buffy the Vampire Slayer) -- He's been on here for years, and I imagine he'll stay for many more years to come. Millions of women across the world wanted to be Buffy so badly once Spike fell for her.
Jon Bon Jovi -- Old standby. Great singer, good songwriter, and oh, yeah, HOT!
Cillian Murphy (28 Days Later, Batman Begins) -- A relative newcomer to this list, he makes it in both because he stars in one of my favorite movies (28 Days Later... LOVE zombie movies!), and because of his incredible cheekbones in Batman Begins. You have great bone structure, you make it on my list. That's the rule.
Jason Dohring (Logan on V
Love Is A Wonderful Thing !!!
Love is something wonderful
Love is something beautiful
Love is something special
Love is something you need not take for granted
Love is something two people share together
So once you find that special love make sure you tell them how much you love them
And what they mean to you
Life is to short and you could be gone tomorrow
So dont waste that preasiouse time by lettin that love slip away .....
Where - 09/21/08
Where do you go... from the bottom?
Go from where to the top...?
Underneath all of it, so heavy, so straining.
Leave me be, alone at the bottom.
I live here,
At the bottom,
underneath all of it.
Leave me be here.
at the bottom.
Come Onnnnnnnnnnn Friday!!
Welcome to my first Blog here on Lost Cherry... Feel free to comment on anything I say on here... :) Tho I should warn you I tend to be very blunt and to the point, so I apologize if anything offends anyone... ... tho if it does, I guess you just won't read again so .. whatever ...LOL
Ok .. this has been one of those weeks where I am not sure whether I wanna scream, change my name and run away, or just get comepletley drunk and say "piss on it"... possibly all three options would be a good idea LOL
I have been going stir crazy the last few days, and have come to the conclusion that it is time to get the hell out and create as much noise as humanly possible. SO, tomorrow night I am going to head up to Niagara Falls and hit the Victoria Inn... have way too many drinks, let my hair down, sing up a storm and crawl my ass back into bed sometime around 4 am...
after all, a girl has to have some fun, right?
Then again, what often starts out being a good idea to have fun, can
How Much Fear - 09/24/01
How much fear
Why do I have to be so scared.
So much fear, of my life.
The way it goes.
The way it doesn't go, at all the way I want.
And put me in places I don't wanna be.
Sometimes I feel I want to run away.
From the life I lead and find another.
Drift listlessly off the pages of this book.
A little or a lot.
How much fear.
Please Leave Comments
please please commentI am pouring my heart and soul out here in my poetry and no one is saying nothing ... please leave some comments I would apreciate the feedback.
well my net has been down
so i havent been able to be online latley
miss u all
It's A Good Day Today
Sendin' out some love to all my LC friends, family and fans. If I haven't gotten to you today, not to worry will stop by and show some love. So please, let me know if you need any help from me and I will do my best. Muah, darlins.
Finally Im Twisted
Well I just made Twisted and sence this blog thing is here now thought I would start off by sayin thank you to all my friends and that to please keep saying the nice things you have sent me I welcome also any suggestions you may have.
Thank Y/you A/all
The Twisted Licker (stacy)
It's odd how memory works. How you will remember key moments in your life, like how on January 20th, 1990, I sat down between my friends Paul and Kurt at a greenscreen terminal to check my email ("you type 'mail!'" -Brett), and instead ended up addicted to a text adventure game... a decision that completely changed the direction of my life. I remember that moment with incredible clarity.
But other moments are small ones... just small insignificant memories that sometimes just hit you. Today I heard Bryan Adams's "Run to You" on the radio. I think it was his first 80's hit, and certainly was played on the radio a great deal when I was a teenager. And I had a flash to those days, when we were driving home from church with my dad. He'd let us have control of the radio (as he was more genial about that than Mom), and this song came on. After listening incredulously for a few minutes to the (let's face it) repetitive chorus, Dad said, deadpan, "You think he wants to, oh, RUN TO HER?" We
Wired For Sound
At last got new headset for me PC so can hear in both ears now and can use skype again, thank fuck for that, I think I ran over the wires for it one too many times, also I tried to set the blog settings to friends only, only one snag it wouldnt let me read it and it wont let me add me as a friend, so much for that bright idea hahahahahahaha
Untitled - 09/11/01 Written On 9/11 For The People Lost In Terrorist Attack
Insanity... in pain.
Crying for you.
All of you...
Feeling for you...
Wanting to be .... for you.
So far away... yet so close...
Helpless.... attached to the world in a box.
Waiting... watching and hoping.
Hoping for you... all of you...
Each of you...
Confusion sets in.... sense of reality lost in the fog.
The fog I see, can't touch but can feel.
The loss of something.
so deep inside.
Feeling the strength, and the sense of pride.
The touch of love in each broken heart.
The touch of each one doing each part.
Unity and love, hearts and strength.
The love of you to any length.
Praying inside the madness will end.
Each piece of the puzzles be put back again.
On Men And The Internet
Pondering men and how they approach women on the internet:
- Why does my exact bra size matter, anyway? Does it really impact your fantasies if I'm a 40C vs. a 42D or whatever?
- Along those same lines, why do I care how big it is? If I *really* have strict size requirements, then I'm the one who should bring them up, shouldn't I?
- Why do they always take photos of _only_ their *ahem* pride and joys? I know men can look at different pairs of breasts for hours and always think, "ohh... another pair," but to most women (and I've polled), it's pretty much you've seen one, you've seen them all. Hint to all the men out there -- if you really feel the need to share a photo of that (and I'm *not* encouraging that), include your chest and face, too.
- Does "God, you're hot. Wanna f*** me?" ever work as an opening line?
- If you don't know what the poem means, don't share it. You won't look cultured, you'll look idiotic, especially if you precede it with, "u wnt 2 c a pome?"
and a bit of history, if this browser doesn't crash first. (I should write this in a text editor and just cut and paste in, really.)
Around... 2000?... I was introduced to the comic "Sluggy Freelance": someone saw the photo of my sister's lop-ear Cleo, and thought she looked similar to Bun-Bun. (If you don't know what I'm talking about... have a look at the comic. And I'm so very glad the resemblance stops at looks.)
Still... from Sluggy Freelance (Gateway Web-comic, people! Ware!!...) I became a fan of Kevin & Kell, GPF, College Roomies from Hell!!!, Ozy and Millie, and others (and I'll insert the links if you like). I became involved in discussion forums (run by "UBB" software which was a bit unstable. Another issue there.) A few people I talked with on those forums had LiveJournals. I talked at some length during one of my less happy years with one artist/author I met there, who created a comic and had a journal, considered joining the site myself, and did on New Years' eve 200
On Love And Passion
Many of the (very few) single friends I have seem to have fallen in love lately. Love, the sort with little birds singing happy songs twirling about their heads. I listen patiently as they list the virtues of their chosen partner, and withstand more romantic goop than any one person should have to endure.
And I wonder why I have never spouted romantic goop about anyone. When guys say they want to "show me the meaning of love," I just roll my eyes and snicker. Have I never felt like this about anyone? Am I incapable of it? Have I simply not met the right person? Am I simply too practical to ever be that goopy?
I'm analytical, sure, but I'm also emotionally open, I hope. I'm fully capable of falling badly for someone. But even in the rush of new infatuation, I've never been goopy like my friends have been lately. Sometimes I feel like Charlotte talking to Elizabeth (in "Pride and Prejudice"):
"I'm not romantic, you know. I never was. I ask only a comfortable home. And, consideri
For What, You Ask? - 08/9/01
For what do I write these words all down.
For what do I poor my soul.
For what love could break a heart.
For what has caused me such turmoil.
For what reason do I dare speak the name.
For what did I feel for him.
For what you ask?
I don't know.
I Cry... - 08/7/01
For reasons, unknown I drop to my knees.
my head buried in my hands. I cry...
For reasons unknown.
I weep, my thoughts and sorrows.
I cry... for you, myself, and everything else.
Just to feel my heart collapse, my pain free.
and my tears stream.
What You Showed Me About Love
You are my life
You are my eternity
You are my all without you i would be nottin
when you entered into my life you made my life whole ... You made me see what love is truely about ... you showed me that i can be loved without gettin hurt and used by people ...
And you showed me its ok to love back You showed me its ok to take the wall downfrom my heart and let someone in You showed me there is people out there who can love mefor me and for what iam without tryin to change meThat life doesnt have to be all about abuse and hurt So for all that you have showed me in life you have made me believe in love again So for that i cherish you in my heart for eternity .....
written by pooh bear
Useless - 08/6/01
Feather light fury, I push you away. Beating you down, away from my heart.
With the strength of a thousand whispers.
I beat you away.
Feather light fury, for I am so strong.
I can stop you, from hurting me.
With feather light fury, I can't understand,
how you made it through.
For I had the strength, and feather like fury.
To keep you at bay.
It was useless.
Thanks To Everyone!
I want to thank everyone for leaving comments and rating pics. feel free to leave more anytime...I am working on trying to get up another level !!!! Thanks guys!!
Leave Me Not - 08/3/01
Leave me not this insanity.
This aching strain, pulling me.
Leave me not to the wolves, lions and hungry
things crawling through the darkness.
Leave me not alone, with out such things as light or love and caring.
Leave me not, in tears or pain.
Sadness and strife.
Leave me not in words or mind or heart.
Leave me not in soul, body or even death.
Leave me not like this.
Leave me not.....
Leave me not.....
When did LC get a blog? Did I miss something? I love writing blogs LOL.. So I guess yall will be seeing more from me now LOL.
u know i thought that myspace was a place for drama. and then i come here and think that people on here are so much nicer and that they like to have fun. but then i talk to some of them and they seem to be all decent and shit and then they come at me with the shit i leave on peoples pages. i leave a comment on someones page being flirtatious..having fun. i dont mean anything by it and i dont plan on meeting these people. so becuz i write something it makes me a slut or a whore. i have certain pics up then im a bad person for doing so. when i see so many other people on here that dont even have their shit in a private folder. but once again i am the bad one. im fed up with this shit. u want to know me then come at me real. understand that i flirt and until i have someone that wants to be with me i will continue to do so. u wanna wife me then lets go..but make sure that u know how to be a man and not take shit to the extremes. im so much better than that.
I Dont Know
I DONT KNOW WHAT GOES THROUGH THE MINDS OF OTHERS BUT WHAT GOES THROUGH MINE.
YOU THINK IM AN NIDIIOT I THINK IM A GENIUS.
YOU SAY THAT IM HOT I THINK THAT IM UGLY.
YOU SAY THAT WE WILL EVENTUALLY BREAK UP I SAY THAT WE WILL GROW OOLD AND DIE TOGETHER BUYRIED SIDE BY SIDE.
YYOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME I SAY I LOVE YOU MORE.
BUT MOST OF ALL I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU REALLY THINK ONLY YOU DO.
SO THERE I SAID IT ALL BYE NOW PEACE AND SEE YOU LATER.
Kids And Stay At Home Moms
Would you be happy raising the kids while your spouse worked?
I have no idea what to do with this question. Do I think I could be happy and content as a 100% stay-at-home mom? Not really. I think I would need some outside activities and intellectual stimulation, and I do not mean charity work or the PTA, however valuable those organizations are. I really enjoy my job, and the challenges it provides me, and I do not think I'd want to wholly give it up. I also understand that, while children do definitely need parental care, and I do not underestimate those needs, a good daycare provides educational and social opportunities that parents may not be prepared to provide.
At the same time, it seems like it's too easy for many parents to have children and then go back to prioritizing their careers and social lives over the happiness of those children. I do think that, if you make the decision to have children, they should be your absolute #1 priority. You should not shovel them into day
The sounds of the world around me Have been completely silenced By the memory of your voice… To hear your words bring peace Into an unpredictable life… Where you came from, I fear I do not know Has fate taken charge, And brought you to me? Have I found a purpose, In my very moments? Somehow you caught me… You took me by the hand And led me to a place That I have never visited before And somehow I’ve fallen… All I can do is hope, and pray Wish upon every star That when I have given you my entire heart You will be there Ready to give me yours in return… I love you with an unimaginable amount of truth… Never before have these emotions Flown through my body… Each day is a new beginning A new time to embrace you tightly And feel even more for you Though the miles keep us separated now In time we will be together… My love for you is more immense Than the tallest mountains, And deeper than the bluest sea Even the distance can only Keep our bodies apart For our hearts were joined together Way
Crowded elevator smell different to midget.
Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
Gay marriage -- should it be legal?
Yes. Duh. I mean, you can call it something else if you absolutely must define "marriage" as a girl-boy thing. But I don't understand why some people seem to object to this idea so much. Why do people feel so threatened by the idea of gay people getting married? Now, obviously I support gay rights, and I have lots of gay friends, including some in long-term committed relationships. I don't care if they get married. I don't care if my non-gay friends get married. In these days, when so many straight marriages end in divorce, you'd think social conservative would be happy to see committed couples of any type.
Geesh, some people wanna stick their noses in where they seriously do NOT belong! WHO CARES, PEOPLE?! Why, in an age where there are so many things to worry about in this world, does something that's really SO UNIMPORTANT become a major issue? Poverty, homelessness, abused kids, abused wives, natural disasters, the death of S
Rewind it back countless times in my mind,
Take a look and then you’ll see.
The treasure was lost, nothing left to be found,
No one even remembers me.
The light you saw, was nothing more than a blanket,
To shelter me from the truth.
A tool to build, this false life of regret,
I feel like I’m breaking loose.
Cant you see that my life was a lie?
Couldn’t you see all the pain in my eye’s?
Did you hear when my heart screamed so loud?
I beg for guidance as I look to the clouds.
Look in the mirror and see what I see,
What is it that I’ve become?
Lost in the dark never a chance to be,
Sight unseen of eternal love.
Do I deserve the gift that stands before me?
Or did I throw it all away?
I didn’t really realize my ego told me what to see
I fell even closer to it every day.
Cant you see that my life was a lie?
Couldn’t you see all the pain in my eye’s?
Did you hear when my heart screamed so loud?
I beg for guidance as I look to the clouds.
Pain is w
The Complete And Utter Idiot's Guide To Making A Baloney Sandwich.
The Complete and Utter Idiot's Guide to Making a Baloney sandwich.
by David Neilsen
Hello. Welcome to The Complete and Utter Idiot's Guide to Making a Baloney and
Cheese Sandwich. Ready for Lunch? Good! Let's begin!
We're going to start our journey by assuming that you already possess each of
the individual items you'll be needing to make this sandwich. It's a bit of a
I know, but Lord knows we don't have time to take you shopping. So, that said,
the first thing you're gonna need is a place to make your sandwich.
My suggestion would be a plate. So reach into your cupboard and grab a plate.
Any will do. No, that's a bowl. Plates are flat. Right, yes, that's flat, but
cutting board. Plates are going to be round. Yes the bowl is round, but it's not
flat, is it? Just.. Christ, forget it. Grab that cutting board you had in your
Perfect. Put it down.On the counter, not the floor.
Much better. Alright, you're ready to start. You need bread. P
War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
What Is A Mook And How May You Get One?
a mook is a furry little animal about the size of a kitten or puppy, they are very lovable and enjoy having thier bellies rubbed. they come in all colors some even in rainbow colors. they are breed and raised on a farm here in Fort Pitt, PA. They was discovered in an accidently typo when a friend posted on a blog group "I have my mook under my bed." instantly the book that was suppose to be there turned into a fuzzy mook and they now breed like rabits.
I just wanted you to know,
That you can have me again.
Just tell me me where to go,
And you can have me again.
Whisper my name into my ear,
And you can have me again.
Tell me what I want to hear,
And you can have me again.
I am wrapped around your finger,
So you can have me again.
All you need to do is linger,
And you can have me again.
Spank my ass and pull me close,
And you can have me again.
Hand to me a sweet, sweet rose,
And you can have me again.
I know you never loved me,
But you can have me again.
You always treat me ugly,
And you can have me again.
You call me your little whore,
And you can have me again.
You know I'll come back for more,
And you can have me again.
Slap my face and pull my nipples,
You know you'll have me again.
Give me that look that gives me chills,
And you can have me again.
Call me a whore and spit upon me,
And you can have me again.
Lie and cheat and beat up on me,
And you can have me again
Intelligence Is Sexy!
How much can intelligence turn you on?
- Intelligence can turn me on a lot!
- Intelligence can turn me on a bit.
- Intelligence does nothing for me either way.
- Intelligence turns me off.
Are you kidding? Intelligence is SEXYYYYY! Guys (at least in my experience) tend to be all appearance focused. And, sure, I like to see pics eventually. But to me, nothing's sexier than a guy who has an inquisitive mind, who asks questions, who has opinions, and who seeks in life.
To expand further -- of course I can aesthetically enjoy a good-looking guy. And there are certain guys that definitely make me take a second look. But in the end, I'm a lot more interested in his personality -- his mind -- than in his body.
I've never dated anyone that was my "ideal physical type." I have, however, dated men who are my ideal personality type, which is more important. They've come in all sizes and shapes, of different races and backgrounds.
Am I completely non-shallow? Of course no
The Wall Prt 2
The Wall pt 2
(This is a continuation of my story The Wall. Please read it first.)
I had promised Lady Naomi Id be at her place with the Wall at 10 am sharp. The drive was not especially long, though I did make a wrong turn a few times, But still in enough time to be a few minutes early. The area I which she lived was quite beautiful very ritzy neighborhood. Nothing like what I expected, but of course I should had known better, after all the people I seen coming in and out of my shop. I parked the van; none descript black in color with the local plates. After all my customers demanded discretion. After a moment I got out of the van and walked to the front door giving the door bell a ring. The sound was a short rhyme part of a song I heard in past decades. It made me smile.
The woman that answered the door surprised me though, not the lovely woman I meet the other day but a smaller Asian beauty with short green hair and beautiful green eyes. Sh
The Treasure Chest read the sign above the door to my shop. A shop for the adventurous adult looking for those special toys we sometimes need. Dressed in tight faded blue jeans and a black leather vest I looked rather harmless with my long brown hair tied into a pony tail and hazel eyes. The tattoo on my right shoulder of a bleeding pentacle was about the roughest thing on me at the moment.
The Treasure Chest featured the usual condoms, lube, vibrators and dildos one might find in an adult toy store. This shop though had in it whips, blindfolds, spiked collars, leashes. All the stuff those interested in Bondage and S&M would enjoy. I catered to everyone.
It had been a slow day so far when she walked in, a striking woman, all of 58 with an athletic build. She had short jet black hair and light green eyes. She wore high heels, a tight black leather mini skirt and a Metallica Ride the Lightning tank top that did little to hide the bottom of her 38DD tits.
Tired And Exhausted
Man who run in front of car get tired.
Man who run behind car get exhausted.
Virginity like bubble, one prick, all gone.
Do you typically speak and write in a clear, precise manner?
- Yes, almost always.
- Yes, but only for classes/work.
- It depends on my mood.
- Ha, my language is vague and messy.
OK, I admit it - I'm sort of a snob about this. I am simply used to people who can speak English well (most of them not even born in the U.S.!) and I don't understand why people can't write simple sentences in the language they've been speaking since they were born. Perhaps they don't read books, so they don't get a sense of proper English? (In that case, we're probably not compatible anyway.) I also loathe loathe loathe IM-speak ("u R 2 kool?" c'mon).
Pains Trains And Assholes In Cars
Man, stuck on 280 FWY for 2 hours this morning. "Why", you ask? Well, the obvious answer is because dumbass people keep hitting each other in front of me. But there is a better answer that goes back to the 1950s. GM, Firestone, and Standard Oil (herein known as the corporate assholes) banded together to form a pact that went city by city and bought up the key systems (metro rail systems). They hit Oakland (my town) in 1958. The lameass city governments let them buy the key systems, which they immediately destroyed. So, what does this have to do with my traffic this morning? Keep reading oh ye of short attention. What would make them destroy a perfectly good system? That is easy. They sold the city GM busses that used Firestone tires and Standard Oil products. So once again, the almighty dollar destroyed something good just to make a buck. The city governments made short term money and the pact made big bucks. And what about the Americans? We get to sit in traffic for 2 hours at a time
Ok, So I Lied ...
I was going thru my Myspace account and looking at all the old posts that people put on there for me and remembering the good times and shit like that, when I came across my exroomate's comment. So I clicked on her page just out of curiosity ... and I saw she had some really negative titles to her blog subjects.
So, I decided to click on the blog and read it ... AND IT WAS FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC !!!
This bitch ripped me off over $500.00 right before Christmas last year so I was not able to give my loved ones more. I was really poor around that time because of her. This was the Christmas money I had saved up so it would have been a nice Christmas for everyone and that fucking cunt ... oh well, I'm over it. (At least that's what I'll tell you.)
So anywho, back to her ... her blog is all "My uncle died, my mom was in the hospital, my brother has type 1 diabetes, I lost my job and no one is calling me back where I put my resumes, I'm fighting with my BF (or is it husband now ... who k
Friends And Ex's
When a relationship ends, what's the best thing to do?
- Try and be friends with your ex
- Go your separate ways
I'm friends with all of my ex's. I don't know how it's worked out so well -- I think we were all friends first, so we can be friends again even if the timing isn't right. Of course, my relationships have all ended for reasons that wouldn't cause me to outright break off the relationship -- no infidelity, no incredibly unforgiveable lies, etc.
And I can't imagine being with someone that wouldn't accept that I'm still friends with all of them. Because my relationships have all ended for "not the right person, not the right time" reasons, which means we're friends. Period. No hope of getting back together. In my mind, they're simply friends, and no more risk to any relationship I had than any other friends.
Cake Or Bed
A HUSBAND IS AT HOME WATCHING A FOOTBALL GAME WHEN HIS WIFE INTERRUPTS, HONEY, COULD YOU FIX THE LIGHT IN THE HALLWAY? IT'S BEEN FLICKERING FOR WEEKS NOW. HE LOOK AT HER AND SAYS ANGRILY, FIX THE LIGHTS NOW? DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE GE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? I DON'T THINK SO. FINE, THEN THE WIFE ASKS, WELL THEN, COULD YOU FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR? IT WON'T CLOSE RIGHT. TO WHICH HE REPLIED, FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR? DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE WESTINGHOUSE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? I DON'T THINK SO FINE, SHE SAYS THEN YOU COULD AT LEAST FIX THE STEPS TO THE FRONT DOOR? THEY ARE ABOUT TO BREAK. I'M NOT A DAMM CARPENTER AND I DON'T WANT TO FIX STEPS. HE SAYS, DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE ACE HARDWARE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD? I DON'T THINK SO. I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU. I'M GOING TO THE BAR!!!! SO HE GOES TO THE BAR AND DRINKS FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS... HE STARTS TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT HOW HE TREATED HIS WIFE, AND DECIDES TO GO HOME. AS HE WALKS INTO THE HOUSE HE NOTICES THAT THE STEPS ARE ALREADY FIXED. AS HE E
Canada Rocks On!!!
OMFG ..does anyone watch Rock star:Supernova?! My boy won last night [i never had a doubt] i stuck with Lukas as a loyal fan from day 1.. I cant wait till they come to T.O. *excited*
anyone that hasnt heard him yet where have you been!! go to limewire and DL "headspin" by Lukas Rossi (his origional) ..and there are also many other covers that he did there as well!!!
I heart Lukas!!
Me And Blogs
I've already got multiple other blogs, including one attached to my webpage and one on a site called OKCupid, where I've met a number of my friends, including most of the people who are on my family list.
So I will mainly be copying over blogs from those other sites that you can get a sense of me.
Some of the OKCupid entries will be in response to ethical, moral, or situational questions posed by OKCupid. They give a sense of where I stand on some issues, so I'm going to repost them, but I wanted to explain where they came from.
I hope you enjoy your reading!
Hmmmmmm Shift Changes
I've decided since .. I don't have anyone .. Like a gf and stuff..
I'm going to 3rd shift. I might get to run a machine. (big maybe.. i'll probably just pack on it) lol
But, I'll do it for more money!
5 days and I get my weekends off.
And I'd get the entire day to do stuff and then come to work.
Yeah baby.. I can go places and do things !
I'll miss ya guys when I start the new shift..
If Your On My List Please Read...
There my heart shall lay reunite on a watery bay.The boats wade holding sweet smells of herbs & teas.In the stomacks bloated smashing white hats cheers the passer bye's.Once the depression settles she can go back to work.Eating away everything that get's in her way.To reach her goal to cleans what is rightfully hers
By Curt Blasko
today would have been my dads 80 birthday he passed away in 99 even though he wasnt at home he was still my dad if any hing i ask that u say or phone or even hug your parents and say thanks and i love u my last words to my dad werent that i wish i could change the last two weeks of his life but i cant so im goning to go and hug my mom phone my bro and sister and say hi thanks and i love u have a good one
I feel trapped
I've put my dreams on hold
The fire is gone
My world grows cold
I think of you,
My fantasies take wing
Reality takes hold
And I stay firmly planted on this earth
This same cold existance
Greets me when I rise
Dreams of immortal life
Haunt my mind each night
Dreams of warmth and passion
Dreams of you
Dreams that will never be
Dreams gone cold
This song is silenced
No words are spoken
Time becomes eternity
I long to see you
Speak to you
Your eyes still burn into my soul
But once again
Reality takes hold
My dreams are stilled
And I grow cold
~Phoenixx (written 2004)
Damn my lack of focus. I was half way through this bag of Laffy Taffy before I realized that there is a joke on every wrapper.
Oh, the humor I've forever been denied because of my um... you know... that thing where you can't focus...
..oooooh shiny penny......
Okay Everyone Listen Up!!!
i agree with my long time friend on lc sue covers the whole area about what's going on please read below!!!
YOU PEOPLE NEED TO QUIT HOGGING UP THE BULLETIN BOARD SO IMPORTANT STUFF COULD BE PUT UP I FOR ONE AM TIRED OF SEEING ALL THIS SHIT ABOUT WHORING PEOPLE OUT TO GET TO HIGHER LEVELS AND NOT HELPING OTHERS.I FOR ONE HELP MYSELF CUZ I KNOW HOW PEOPLE ARE ON HERE THEY ARE SELFISH, AND SELF CENTERED,THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS ON HERE LIKE PREVERTS RIPPING YOUNG KIDS PIC,AMBER ALERTS,PEOPLE WHO ARE SICK AND ASKING FOR PRAYERS,PEOPLE WHO LOST LOVED ONES,PEOPLE HURT IN ACCIDENTS OR KILLED. BUT ALL YOU'S WORRY ABOUT IS GETTING TO A HIGHER LEVEL THIS IS A DOWN RIGHT SHAME COMING FROM GROWN PEOPLE CAN'T YOUS HELP YOURSELVES LIKE ME AND OTHER PEOPLE DO.(GROW UP )IF YOU GOT ANYTHING TO SAY THEN SAY IT CUZ I COULD CARE LESS WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY.
It is with a regretful eye that I watch you leave
I hope your lasting thoughts of me are thoughts of love and endearment
I hope that nothing I have said, nothing I have done has scarred you
And I'm sorry for all the times I may have been short, all the times I may have lashed out
None of this anger was your fault
You never did anyting that really upset me, and I'm sorry if I ever made you feel that way
The things I rand about, the reasons I've behaved this was are things that have simply followed me from past failures and heartbreak
And it pains me... to know that other have hurt you in the past
I never wanted to do that
And if I do, I'm sorry, I am human, and I'm imperfect
But I loveyou
More than you will ever know And because I am human, because I'm imperfect, I'm also quite scared
Scared that one day -- One day you will walk out this door and never come back
Because I'll have forgotten myself, and said something ultimately regrettable
Because you will
Karen Vs Indiana Bmv
I was an employee for the Indiana Bureau of Motor Vehicles. I was a very good worker, always eager to help others and generally a very good employee.
We got a new computer system in July. It sucked azz, I mean really. I sent a letter to the Governor of Indiana about my dissatisfaction with the new STARS computer program. Being an employee of the BMV, I felt I was offering an insiders view of the bad data and frustration about not being able do my job since June 30th. Driving records are wrong, suspensions are showing up on peoples records that shouldn't be there. Car registration information is all screwed up. It was a mess! I sent this letter to our Governor... utilizing his "open door policy" with Indiana citizens and state employees... on July 17th, 2006. I was FIRED July 18th.
What did I do? I contacted Channel 8 news. What did they do? Well they contacted me for an interview. See the link (you might have to copy and paste it in your browser)
You ask me what I want from you well I`ll tell you,
I want to be appreciated
I want you to acknowledge my specialness
I want my achievements to be lined up in your memory
I want you to be overwhelmed sometimes by my talents
I want you to feel in awe
I want you to applaud my successes & celebrate my triumphs
I want you there with champagne for my victories
I want you here with a shoulder for my tears
I want you to realize that the time I have put into myself is to make our relationship better
I want you to encourge my efforts even if it means I surpass you!
I want you to take my seriousness, seriously & respond accordingly
I want to be appreciated for all the special, little things that make me, me
I want to be appreciated.
Well I hoped everyone missed me....I'm back so dont send out the troops or anything I know I know....you totally weren't going to...thanks btw! So, all I've been doing is working and parenting and msn'ing it up thats my life could it get duller? no? YAY! something to look forward to. But I wanted to say hi and thank you for coming to see !!!! Much love *special shout out to a cute lil pot head i met on here* *pst "subherban" thats u
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Your in a relationship
You think WOW i have a great partner.
Then after awhile things start falling apart.
There is so many mixed feeling with in you.
As a lady you start feeling your wanted,loved,or needed
You feel empty inside
The one's you love
Just take you for granted
They treat you like your a nobody.
You are walked on & used.
You just keep thinking " What am i doing wrong"
You try alittle harder.
Then you realize that you have had enough
Your tired of the guilt
Your sad because other's are being used
To make to give up on the hope's & dream's you have.
Then one day you wake up & decided enough with all of this.
You have to do what make's you happy within your heart.
You decide that no more guilt trip's
No more using other's to get over one you.
You finally realize that your happiness is very important to yourself.
The 1st one who come's before anyone is God
The 2nd is the love
Well A Weeks Pasted
Its been a week since my friend came down and she dtill wont go away. I dont know what else to do. My sister told her this morning that her husband wants nothing to do with her and wants a divorce, but she still doesnt believe it. I swear some people. If you steal from your own husband and run his name into the ground. He wouldnt want you either. So i dont blame him at all for not wanting her. Hell he just came home from Iraq to this shit. So i have no clue.
Its a disaster and i give up. I quit trying to help people.
I wander alone in the world
Haunted by the past
Afraid of the future
Afraid to hope
Afraid to dream
I watched my dreams burn
In the flames of your hate
All I ever knew fell apart in your hands
You destroyed me
All I was
All I had ever been
Is now gone
All that remains is an empty shell
I am waiting for someone now
Someone who will bring me back to life
Who will fill this empty shell
Bring me back from this dark place in my life
Fill the void that was left
So I wander alone
Searching and waiting
Haunted by what was
And afraid of what will be
~Phoenixx (written Dec. 2004)
I cant understand these feelings of hopelessness. i cant understand why i reach out and get no ones hand.
It seem likethe only place i belong is the vast world of insobrity.
It seems as tho im lossing touch with my self and friends. No one calls and no one writes.
My biggest fear is that of never being truely loved.
It seems as tho my fear is becoming reality.
I need to take control and cut away these string holding me back. Like a puppet whos every move is dictaed by some one elts.
Im sapposed to take it one day at a time. Live life on lifes terms.
Thats easyer said than done.
If thoes who read this could give me some sagestions on how to mabey make things evan a little bit easyer. PLEASE do.
I have no idea what's going on.People are giving me 10's and like popping my cherry....I have no idea what I'm doing yet.
To everyone who's given me a 10...thank you.
Boys are confusing as all hell, so simple is the way for me to keep things. So for now I'm keeping things complication free. I'll prolly date a bit here and there, but I'm keeping myself single. Just got out of a year and three months relationship and I don't particularly feel like being complicated or serious anytime soon. This is NOT a reason for the male populous to flood my prescence, I know your all there, if I'm interested you'll know too.
Also, pick up lines are LAME. Please cut it the hell out. kthxbi.
on a side note: i need to take more pictures. hmm maybe i'll bring my cam for 2morrow night when sam and nicole and i go on the discovery cruise for the male review and dinner. we'll be all cute...
we talk everyday
i wake up i see you
i got to bed i see you
though we have never met
i feel like i have known you for years
you have stolen my heart
you are the spitten image of my soul mate
i think about you day and night
i dream of a life with you
and what that would be like
and its as perfect as the white snow on a perfect winter day
we met from amutual freind
and i thank him everyday...
I am now among the fallen
There is no escape
Not for me
You have a hold on me that I cannot break
I am defensless against you
You've clipped my wings so I cannot fly
I am spiraling ever downward
A dark paradise surrounds me
Waiting for the sun to rise
A silver moon lights my way
Among a thousand shining stars
I search for you in the darkness
I feel your presence surrounding me
Holding me here in this twilight
As the darkness receeds
So too does the icy cold
Paradise is slowly revealed to me
As I search for you
I walk a path of sparkling sand
Wondering where it leads
As I have fallen
I know there is no escape
You have become my salvation
You have taken the hurt and pain
And turned it into something else
Now among the fallen
I walk this path
Straight into your open arms
As we soar to the heavens with guilded wings
I am surrounded by your warmth
I breath your very essence and life
You have revived me
And together w
So, this place finally has a blog for me...yay...come back here often to hear what's going on in my life.
Overall I am tired of being tired. I have had a cold/allergy/upper respitory thing that has really brought my energy down. Energy drinks are truly one of my best friends right along with meds. Finally today I seem to be seeing an improvement. My roommate made me some ginger coke (coke and ginger boiled on the stove,weird I know but it helps) last night. I think that and the tiger balm and all the meds may finally be helping. I don't seem to be coughing as much and my chest seems to feel better. I can even breath sometimes. Thank goodness my wonderful fiance' has been taking my son to school so that I can get more rest. It really makes a difference.
Also I got a new boss at work so it's been a bit of change of pace and I'm not sure what it will mean for my schedule. Fortunatly I have worked with her in the past before she got her promotion and she is pretty down to earth.
I have to get ready for work soon. In the meantime I am fighting the urge to take a nap and am forcing some wa
Won't Be Long
when i look around
and see people holding hands
i know it wont be long
until i have a man
i have a crush on this guy
and he is as cute as can be
even better, he is sooo nice to me
these feelings i can never tell him
even though he already knows
it would be difficult
because i dont know him to well
and he would think i was nuts
if i said " i love you"
ok..im going to say this...just because you arent "hot" doesnt mean that you should be shy and meek....i know plenty of guys that are shy because they have a low self image...be happy with who you are and just relax and be yourself...thats the most attractive part of someone...when they are relaxed and show who they really are....you dont need a bunch of lewd comments to make you feel good about yourself....so what if you're a bit overweight...so what if one eye squints....i look at a person's personality before anything else....if im attracted to their personality then they in turn looks wise become attractive....
Shout It Out
This is a 'shout out' to:
nah - just teasing ... this is just a rant about the shout box ;)
So, I post my first blog here yesterday and I was surprised to see people actually read it. I will SHOUT:
For showing an interest and taking your valuable time to read my rant about not being able to play any reindeer games here on "Lost Cherry" (sorry - I just make this stuff up as I go)
It's nice to see responses some posted, other left on/in my "shout box" -- which brings me to my subject matter --
The Shout Box ...
So if any if you nod and agree with me on the -growl- that followed that subject,
(at least I hope someone did)
I oft wonderer if my shout box is the only one here on "Lost Cherry" that is temperamental or not? One day it will work -- the next message it don't! It's truly frustrating to be in the middle of a conversation, only to not be able to reply to anything. I think it may even be worse to 'shout' at someone -- they reply ..
id the worst day ever yesterday, i got up at my usual time of 630 but missed my bus so i was late going into work, then at about 1 the boss told me that the night man wasnt coming in so would i go home and come back in tonight, so i had to work 730 to 730. So in the end i worked like 17hrs and im exchusted now
Qoute Of The Day
"I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall to fast, because everytime i fall in love it never seems to last..."
The Bbw Contest!!! Staring Me!!... 3rd Entry For Sept. 14, 2006
Hey... all you lost cherries!!
Well I am, I am in this Contest!! right!! The BBW.. Contest!!! First Contest!!
Well its on!!
Please take a look over there!!!
under her pics!!!
BBW Contest for October I think!!!
Good luck to all!!
Friends and Family..
Please Vote for me!!!
Every vote matters!!!
There is only one... Comment to a Contestant!!!
Please only one...
You are all the best!!!
Please enjoy the day...
there you stand the object of my desire
i stand here just burning with desire
oh i wish i could tell you and just hold you tight
lie close to you each and every night
i want you so bad its hard to maintain
the suspense of your love is driving me insane
the look on your face is so pure and sweet
your kiss is all it would take to make my world complete.
is this a crush or perhaps it's meant to be?
i can feel your heart beat deep inside of me..
i wish i had the nerve to take a chance with you
but im so shy i dont know what to do...
i wonder if you know how i get weak when i see you...
and when i talk to you i just get so high
i dream of your love everytime i go to bed
i wish i could make real whatever is in my head
but, this crush for now will just have to do
cause i dont have the nerve to say this to you...
my secret crush
To ask us why we to turn from bad to worse
Is to ignore from which we came
You see you wouldn't ask why the rose that grew from the concrete had damaged petals
On the contrary
We would all celebrate its tenacity
We would all love its will to reach the sun
Well We are the roses
This is the concrete
And these are my damaged petals
Don't ask me why
Ask me how
How Sucky Was Your Day?
My day has been pretty sucky!
I had to take the Bus today cause my other mode was not working. I also got hit by some fool getting in to the parking lot. He just kept saying. How can I hit you. You were 20 feet away!.
No he was so much closer! He was such a Git!
Errr! Gerrrr! The Bus was late.. Man, I hate the city Bus! Out here in Arizona. It cost 1.25 to get on and then get a transfer that lasts 1 hour. So, by the end of the day. You pay up to 3 Bucks! So, You can br late and sticky hot!
So, Anyone else out there have a bad day?
Post: Put your gripe here->
A River Of Tears
My thoughts are running wild
my heart has grown cold
my sail has left me, gone away
this "me" is feeling so old
something has happened
its made me meaningless
to have no hopes or dreams
makes me turn to sadness
i live each day
hoping its my last
looking for a way to end it
and make it end fast
am i actually living
or am i slowly dyeing
my mind is confusing me
i cannot see anyhting clearly
Everything is one big blur...
Because of this river of tears
Your Stripper Song Is
Closer by Nine Inch Nails
"You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I?ve got no
Soul to tell"
When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy.
What Song Should You Strip To?
Start Your Engines....
POP! ok so I popped my own cherry... hmmm well this is only my second blog ever... I'm in a pretty good place in my life. I have a home I like, kids that I adore, and a bf that just takes my breath away. I have problems, issues, things that make me cry (and some of them are those very things that make my life great), but overall I have a life that is worth living. I know finally that maybe I can be happy more often than sad, that I can have love, that things will actually work out. I have life, health, and love. For once things will be good.
so until next time,
Mondo: Damn good gir, who needs to be badl
Lisa: who me
Mondo: Yes, if you are good to me? Lol!
Mondo: Hell, I have fantasised about you for the better part of 10 years.
Lisa: damn long time
Lisa: im not all thatspecial
Mondo: Your smile is
Mondo: Mondo: Hell, I have fantasised about you for the better part of 10 years.
Lisa: damn long time
Lisa: im not all thatspecial
Mondo: Your smile is
From the first time I saw you, that was the attraction. Hell, If I saw that ass first that could've been it! But you lucked out and drew the smile,,, the very first time you looked at me behind the counter explaining some dumb shit I didn't really need to know!
I Asked God
I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.
I asked him to make my hanicaped child whole
God said No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.
I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
it isn't granted, it is learned.
I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.
I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.
I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.You must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.
I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.
I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.
hey there you all know my name is cheryl,and I love's to party and go out to movies with my girls,looking to meet new peoples and friends.so get back to me
Temporary Pyrrhic Victory
The battle raged, the night screamed out
I'll win this time, without a doubt
I'll force you back, you will not shine
In darkness everything will be mine.
Flowers will learn to grow at night
Feeding on energies of the starlight
Trees will reach out to taste my moon
learning to thrive on a darkened noon.
People will love me, as they love you now
Bathing by moonlight caressing their brow.
Gentle as gossimer wings will I be
They will love me forever just wait and see.
I'll win in a landslide a pyrrhic victory
Don't even bother to be contradictory
Back, I say,back your light is unneeded
my plan for this earth has already proceeded.
I warn you, I see you peeking at me
Golden and warm, over the sea
What is this, I'm shrinking, I am at a loss
How dare you, go back, do not come across.
Your winning, I'm losing, I dont understand
How did you gain the upper hand
I see now that I can never be
The only part of earths vitality.
It takes us
Forever And A Day
Forever and a Day
What does that really mean
Is someone hinting that perhaps
Death's not all that it seems?
Imagine a day after forever
What would it bring to me?
A familiar ache, a smile, a tear,
How different could it be?
Forever and a Day my love
I've heard it all before.
It doesn't mean a thing to me.
You still walked out that door.
So if I have a choice in this
I'll just take plain old now.
Leave forever and a day behind,
Now's all that matter's anyhow.
© Copyright 2002 Amawitch-granny witch
Nothing interesting to post. I'm still getting used to this site. It takes forever for pages to load and it drives me nuts! Oh well, I've met some interesting people on here so its been worth the hassle.
Seeking An Anomoly
Here I am, on the road again.
Seeking life\'s solice
in the sights I see,
Lost in humanities woe\'s
I wander in and out
with heavy heart, in agony
My soul is pained, I dispair.
Just wish the trip was through.
Or seeking find an anomaly
a miracle of morality. Hosted by Sparkle Tags
Reasons For Life's Problems
Lies, Cheating, Betrayl
All the things that consume us
Hate. Fighting, Destruction
All the motives that drive us
Why? Why must we take these paths
Where does it get us
What good comes from it
Who does it help
Death, Love, Trust
All the things that gather us
Tragedy, Secrets, Denial
All the things that push us away
Why? Why must we go through this
Where does it all come from
What did anyone ever do for this
Who are we to turn to
For we are alone in life
No one close to comfort us
And in our dier time of need
God and the devil had made a wager
Neither of them are here to help us
We are alone to help only ourselves
Come entertain me!!!!!! I am losing my mind here!!!! :o)
A young gurl sits in the dark
Wondering if her one true love is still there
She sliently sits at her window
Peeriing into an unknown world
Anger and guilt feel her eyes
And she wants so badly to end this retched life
But she remembers that somewhere out there
Someone still loves her
So she continues to sit at her window sill
And hope for the day when her true love will sweep her away
Holding her in his arms
Stareing into her eyes reassuring her
That everything is not dead
That there is still hope and love between them
She wonders "Is it possible? Is it real?"
Yet she remembers never to question things
For questioning can only lead the heart to lies and deceit
So time passes and that young gurl is a woman now
And she still sits at that window stareing into the unknown
While the soul she was once in control of
Slowly faded away into a world of unfound love.
Nameles as we are to the world
forsaken to the light
still we stand on
even in our darkest times
we are there
IN the darkenss we take rest
and we take love
The fight is not yet won
we are few
and all alone
I am Your Friend when needed
And you are truly an angel
I pray you are well
and i hope to hear from you soon
may goddess bless you and keep you
torn between the
light promising so much
the darkness over taking me
holding me as if i was glove.
shacking i forsaken my light
not for pleasure but for pride
having been traped in the light,
like a wolf caged.
shacked scared i run in to the night
having missed the darkness
its sweet smell
its sweet never know feeling
a wolf isnt a beast you can cage,
its a night creatuer as im i
no more being torn
no more being caged
living in the darkness of night is who i am
only steping in to the light of day when it is ended
Sweet angel you have fallen from the sky
in the shades of darknes
Look deep in my eyes, what do you see
My secret, imperceptible insanity.
I dare you, come closer, I welcome you
My embrace is electric, decrepant and new.
I will take your soul, send it awry
reaching down deep, come, dont be shy
How free you will feel, I\'ll just keep a bit
to feed on and bleed on, within my pit.
And once that I have you, others you\'ll meet
the sinful, the ugly, souls I have beat.
It wont be painful, well not for me.
But you, you will suffer, and scream to be free.
I will devour your mind, luxuriating in
your agony broadcast once more and again.
Your inner soul screaming beautifully
Its music to my ears, played wonderfully.
My finger will gently take your heart to my lips
As I eat it,and relish your blood in small sips
You\'ll pray for release, I promise my friend
But once you\'ve come in, there can be no end.
I control your future, painful or not
You give me that choice when you enter my lot.
I did not seek you, y
Hello Evry One
My name is DJ and I am still new on lost cherry feel free to come to my page and please rate the pic if nothing else I would love to get comments on all I am a very nice guy easy to get along with and I would like to make more freinds on here so if u know anybody that would like to know me please tell them about it I will not turn any body down
Tag Your It
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun!
1. I like playing in paint shop pro
2. I like to help others
3. I like writing.
4. I am very shy.
5. I love to clean house.(it helps in letting me vent in a constructive way, when things are going ass backwards}
6. I hate to just watch TV, I have to have my hands busy with something, cross stitch, crochet, something !
Ok those are all my weird things & habits...
Cindy, Buster, Nyne, Shieldbreaker,luvbug510,Rainbowhoney1971 :o)
You're all tagged.....
an up date on my life i met a guy we dated not execlusivly in my eyes and he never sed anything to contridicte this so i was hammered doing things we all do sleep wit sum1 else told sed dating dude and he sed i had broke his heart as he was in love with me bare in mind we had only been on 6 dates at the most and hes 26 i think neway he knew nothing much about me really yet i have broken his heart que me apologising saying i didnt realise he felt that way which is true i didnt or i wudnt have done wot i did was made very clear at the start of the dating i dont have enuff trust to enter into a relationship past relationships have in built a hurt them before they hurt u mins sted never mind went out last nite and got very drunk was a top nite and me twin sis is pregnant shes on here as petal 20rite i need sleep nite nite all
Well the 2006 regular season is soon coming to an end. Needless to say the Yankees are going to the post season once again, like we didn't know that. This year was a trying year with two of our stars going down to injuries. What a blow losing two 100 RBI guys in the same month. With the loss of those stars for most of the season it was left to the others and call ups to do the job. Our rookies have lived up to the task, even better than some veterans. Our captain Derek Jeter is having an awesome year and is a candidate for MVP. The pitching staff has had some ups and down but they are pretty solid now. So who's out there that can compete with that, NO ONE. We are running on all cylinders and everyone else except for our cross town rivals has already come and gone. So it looks like a subway series is in the making this year and you know what happened the last time, The Yankees Won!
A Virgin's Story
I read one virgin burners story about heading to the playa and it brought a tear to my eye because a lot of what he said is true and makes me miss the playa...
I decided to post the story here to share with everyone. I guess you can't get the same emotions out of it that I did because of the fact almost all the readers of my blog haven't been there.
Here it is...
A First-Timer's Tale by Spun Lepton
(Submitted to the Tales from the Playa section of the Burning Man site. Feedback is appreciated.)
The sun has been up for only a few hours as you and yours drive your van out on to the playa. The vehicle kicks up dust that stings your nose. Somebody says to a fellow passenger, "Roll up your window." It's a shared sentiment.
This is your first time at Burning Man and you're giddy. The greeters at the entrance pull you out of your van and hug you. One of them slaps you on the ass. How's that for a welcome? They tell you to roll around on the ground and get playa dust
For the love of Christ.....
Look, for all of you out there who feel so alone or feel so "empty" because you aren't in a relationship, I am about to hurt your feelings. K? So, if you can't handle it, then don't read any further. Consider yourself warned....
If you think that someone is going to come along and make your life beautiful for you, you are retarded.
If you think someone is going to come along and magically make your life easier and make all your problems/ bad habits/ or faults disappear you are a dumbass.
If you expect that Prince Charming or Cinderella is going to come along and sweep you off of your feet when you don't even like yourself you have got to take a serious dose of reality and wake the fuck up.
See, relationships and soulmates and boyfriends/girlfriends are all wonderful and blah blah blah, but they DO NOT and I repeat DO NOT "complete" you. They do not mean you are Beautiful or Whole or Awesome or whatever. Relationships compliment who you are. If
Ok. Thought I would take some time to kinda explain about me and what I like in men. First off, I like young guys, younger than me anyway. I like guys that are thin and energetic, which has to do with the whole energy v's mass thing. I like guys that are not afraid to try different things and that are very self confident in themselves. Now about me. I am a 35 yr old secretary that works for a real estate agent. I have one child that is 14 years old. I own 5 acres of property out in the country and love every acre of it. Can not imagine myself living in the city. I like nature to much. I am a pretty simple person, that loves photograpy. So if you are interested in getting to know me just ask questions, I would be more than happy to answer any thing.
Okay i no this is the internet and blah blah blah, but why do people take so much time to photoshop pictures which are "supposeably" them? Why do people feel like they have to impress people on the internet who they most likley will never meet? I just don't see why someone would put energy into being someone who they are not! Fuck im to lazy to do that and i really dont give a fuck about what people think about me!
The only mother I've ever had in my life
If I would've lost you in that accident I
don't know what I would've done
I know in my soul I would've died but GOD
granted a miracle because your still alive
Everyday I'm thanking GOD beacause,you,my mother survived
Here's What The Family Should Do!! (just An Idea Which Makes Sense)
The family should make it that when people rate, comment, fan you, add u as a friend or family then everyone should return the favor should be the grounds to pimp or whore people out cause we use up our day to help others out and when we could use it to everyday and time not just when we are in the 90's. I think that would be fair for everyone on here!
this was my only gripe about the LC not having a place to have an online journal.........
YAY they do now........good move LC people!!!!
There are many locks
and with such are many keys
with most keys they are returned
but with one lock where one key
and only one key can unlock it
Once that key is given away
the key can never be returned
It becomes the sole possession of the recipient forever theirs
For this is no random key but is a special key
This key is not handed to one another lightly
but rather earned over time
For several years people work to earn this key
once given this key,
the one key that will forever more unlock
not a door to a house or a car but unlock
The person's heart forever
at that point in time when they give that key
they will then for the first time understand
Hey my friends ..
Sorry I havent been on of late..Just havent been interested in the computere lately ..Just have things on my mind ..And spending time with my b/f and kids..It gets pretty boring here during the day now the kids are in school..I enjoy my quiet time..I am glad to see that LC has put up a blog area..That is so cool bc I like to write in my blogs on my 360 page for yahoo..I dont do it every day ,but most of the time ..My sister will be most HAPPY ..
Well it will be 2 mths for my b/f and I ..we are goin to go have a special dinner ..Then who knows what else we will be doin ..heheheh Im sure u all can use ur imagination ..Well I will let everyone go now ..
Time to go back to crocheting my b/f blanket ..i would like to have it done by halloween ..
Fantasy Beneath The Howling Stars
The night was so cold it was making each step like the breaking of ice. Their breath became part of the surroundings as they exhaled from deep within their lungs. They headed their way around the edges of the city without a direction or turn to surely make or question. The clear sky became apparent to them when a bat overhead made a screech to pierce the night sky. Stopping in their tracks they followed the bat with their eyes. When the became invisible another awesome sight came into view....a cemetery with a large fence and gate in front.The cemetery was names "Beneath the Howling Stars." The high gates were rusted black with large pointed spikes in the top that resembled gothic inspired art. As they neared the gate, it also held a sign connected by rope that was strung rather messy but none the less very well with a knot. Tall boney skeletal looking trees made their presence known. Just past the trees' branches reached and leaned over the top and through the hand sized openings on t
this shit is so confusing i keep getting lost and dont know what to do grr......
New Pics!!! 2nd Sept 14, 2006
Dear Cherry Readers!!!
I just added some new pics!!!
Nothing nude just some funny pics I found!!
I ever got one I made up!!! (so proud of that!!)
N-e-ways take a look please!!!
Please Left a comment and I will soooo Return the favor and rate and look at yours!!!
If I havent already done so!!
Be safe out there in Cherry World!!
A Day To Remember
This day was like none other. A day of retchedness and utter deceit. She felt that things would get better yet little was she aware, Things were soon to become much darker. She lay in her room, a world her's alone. Feeling these dark walls closing in. Suffocated she felt with sheer dispare. "What am i to look forward to in life"? So many questions crept through her mind. Looking inside she saw herself dead and decaying. Her life was a vast barrin nothingness. She thought to herself, "for those who claim they love me, why must they hurt me"?. Laid beside her was a blade, and in her lap lay a gun. For which way she chose to go was a question among many. After some thinking, the way of both worlds was best. She gently grabs the knife and with a swift swipe she slits both wrists and watches the blood flow like a river. Soon after that she picks up the gun places the barrel to her temple, and whispers a small prayer. " God im sorry for the pain that has been done to me and i forgive those w
Moonlight dances across my face
Draws me back to a world of chaos
Shadows of my past drawn before me
Questions asked with no reflecting answer
Running away does no justice
For the horrors haunt me again
Cant deny whats true
As the traces of my sins rip at me from inside
Thats when the insanity sets in
No one's safe to trespass
Stratching and clawing to escape
But still those visions hold me back
In the end all i can do
Is let the insanity consume me
Shannon J. 2005
Ment To Be
Our meeting was more than fate.
God knew you were my soul mate.
Your timing is never wrong.
Now we share a bond so strong.
Our time together means so much.
Each moment intensifies the need to touch.
Your love has reached my deepest soul.
Longing for you to daily hold.
May our love and need continuously grow.
Forever, LOVE, NEED, PASSION to each show.
Melody Of Souls
Although we've never met,
I feel as if I know you well.
I knew from the start that there
was something special about you;
you've touched my heart
and wouldn't let go.
Our relationship has given me
a lot of dreams,
and now I feel hope.
You entered my thoughts
and magically erased all of my fears
with your sweet and caring ways.
Now I look forward to each day
and feel so much at ease with you.
I'm so grateful that we're able to share
our problems and aspirations with each other.
It truly seems as if you're a part of me,
as if our time together was a melody of souls.
The thought of you fills me with smiles,
and I can't wait to hug you each day
Shannon J. 2006
Come Dance With Me
I want to dance with you for a life time
Hold you close to my heart,
Stop the hands of time
Make the world give us a little more time
To feel our bodies close swaying together
To music that only we can hear,
Letting it sweep us into Heaven
Come, dance with me there
We'll dance forever; never let go
Hearts in tune hand to hand,
Building love between us
That we barely can stand
Candles low no bright lights
Our love will light the way,
Come hold me close; dance with me
Til the night breaks to day
Feel our bodies pressed close
As close as skin to skin,
Open your heart to me baby
Come on, let me in
Fill my senses with your rush
Let me taste your deep kiss,
Hold me tightly to your heart
Never have I felt like this
Never will I feel it again
For within your arms I've died,
I've gone to heaven in your love
These are happy tears I've cried
Never have I been so loved
Or felt so much love for anyone,
Dance with me honey
Until the night is done
Searching The Answers
Sometimes I wonder
What life would be like
If I never met you
Sometimes I wonder
If life would hold any meaning
If I didn't have you
I have my answer
Dead would be more alive
Without you the word 'wonder'
Would hold no meaning in my life
You - only you, my love
And the Gods above
Have given me a wonderful life
Full of meaning.
Shannon J. 2006
Regarding My Album
all done...nothing to see or read...ive got my family members and im content with that....
Damn I am finding it really tough to move to next level! I guess it is harder than furthur you go!
Softly whisper your passion
Come to me my loving heart
I'll cherish your gentle tenderness
From this day forward I'll impart
My emotion of contentment
That grew instantly as we met
From the depth of my souls embrace
Straight to you for whom it was meant
Refresh your souls thirsting need
Come bathe in passion's bright glowing fire
As we dance the dance of eternal love
Wrapped in our flowing desires
Our need for each other so great
A timeless burning flame
As at last we have found each other
And our place together we claim.
Restriction Of Love
How is it
That no matter
How hard i try
Or what i do
It's still never enough
When there are
All these people
They love me
That is still
Never kills the pain
How is it
That for someone
Who has everything
They ever wanted
Still never be happy
While they are
Surrounded with love
Hide their feelings
Instead of opening up
How is it
Anyone could love
So unloving of themselves
And still want them
What could it take
To get them
That they are
So special and needed
And that anything's possible
How is it
That he could
This fucked up
Head case of a girl
When he alone
Would give the world
See her smile
Then he'd know
He has done his job
Shannon J. 2006
Dreaming Of You
I wonder if I dreamed of you-
if you would appear?
To make my nights full of love,
and always hold me near.
I wonder if I thought of you-
if you would feel it in your soul?
Like two spirits in the universe,
who always seem to know.
Even if the stars went black
and the sun were to shine no more.
They could find their way to each other,
no matter how far the shore.
Safely in each other's arms,
to bid the rest of time.
Finding Eternal Love
so many seek to find.
Caring for each other
through the worst of storms.
Leaning on the arms of love
and never need anymore.
This is how I feel for you,
I've known it all along.
You are my one true love
My world.. My heart.. My soul!
Your results:You are Wonder Woman
You are a beautiful princesswith great strength of character.
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How should I know how you feel,
When you won't say a word?
Should I guess or just listen,
To things I've overheard?
But please don't just say the words,
You think I want to hear.
But rather say what's on your mind,
So I won't live in fear.
You see the fear of losing you,
(For what I do not know.)
Makes me want you all the more,
But I hope it does not show.
Because showing you would make you run,
And that,I do not want.
Shannon J. 2006
She was the cool air of a summers night, yet inside were strange confusions. She had confident exteriors but could she ever be the person that she really was?
Her dreams were folded neatly and placed in open view, a mask to cover up her anxieties, but I knew behind it all she was everything she ever said she was, but some how she'd stopped believing...
I knew inside of her were angels, singing a soft chorus of melodic hope, monochrome tears for a world she didn't know, and even as she passed from view, and faded out beyond the street light, I knew one day everything would work out, it has to, doesn't it?
lalala my first blog and i have nothing to say :)
Gazing At The Stars
Gazing at the stars in a dark cold night
Uttering sweet words beneath pale moonlight
I wish you can see I wish you can hear
I wish you can kiss and hold me tight
I close my eyes and shed those tears
Thinking how far you are from me
Then I look above and see the stars
How they light, they glitter and sparkle
Despite how far they are by sight
I find myself smiling as I realize
That though distance between us
Kept us apart but only in body
And never in heart
You gave me reason to smile
You gave me reason to hope
You gave me so much and
I can never ask for more
And if I have one thing to thank right now
That's when you came into my life!
Im Better Now
Is it always like this?
Wanting to be away from the ones you miss.
Knowing of ways to ease your pian.
If only you could drown yourself in the rain.
I havent any time for your silly games.
I'm better now,
But it isn't the same
For the one
Who could always make my day
I'm better now.
Thats all you'll hear me say.
As I look into eyes
Of one I still need.
I feel myself start to bleed.
Cold and alone
On the floor half Dead.
Im better now.
The words repeat in my head.
One day I would have let you see
How I really felt.
The blood flows from my torn hands.
All I can thnk is I didn't help.
My eyes close.
Yours tear fall to my face.
I'll love you always.
Dont let her take my place.
I Feel So Liberated
I am free i had something that shackled me.. but now.. mmmm bliss. no more ignorance no stupidity.. now im ready for a challenge.. not stagnation..People can be assholes.. but today im past that.. Its good to be the King!!!
Stars in the midnight sky
Sparking like diamond against the light
A dark sheet spread out with no ending
So many so little so many so bright
Only one does my eyes catch
I call it my guiding star
Leading me from the darkness
Down a tunnel toward a glare
You are the constolation
Which gives me the strength
To face my demons
And bestows upon me
True loves pure light
Suddenly the sky turns
A shade of blue and white
A tear falls from my eye
Yet i merely wipe it away
Knowing that it is only one day
But in the end
The sight of you i will see once again
Shannon J. 2006
Hay All My Sexy Lc Friends
for the ones that did not know my adopted sis baby was in the hosp for faluer to thrive and she could not hold any of her formula down. the dr's put her in chilrens in little rock ark. put ivs in her and put a tube down her throt so she could still eat and day defore yesterday they took the tube out untill they got the results of her uper gi back from the emergency room here then they got the results back and they could not find anything really wrong with her so they put her on a diffrent formula and set her home yesterday. i am soooo glad that she is ok and home now she is 3 mons old. i want to thank the two friends that were there for me when i needed them. thank you king and game love you both.
I Found You
You're the one I couldn't forget
Even at the last breath I take
You're the one my heart longs for
Because I found real joy in you
You're the one I'll love so true
For you gave me same love too
You're the one I needed most
For I am so in love with you
You light my life and turn it right
And put a music in my heart
How can I thank you for all the things
And for the love you've given me?
I can never ask for more because
My life has been complete since
I FOUND YOU!
An elderly carpenter was ready to retire. He told his employer-contractor of his plans to leave the house building business and live a more leisurely life with his wife, enjoying his extended family. He would miss the paycheck, but he needed to retire. They were not wealthy, but they could get by.
The contractor was sorry to see his good worker go and asked if he could build just one more house as a personal favor. The carpenter said yes, but in time it was easy to see that his heart was not in his work. He resorted to shoddy workmanship and used inferior materials. It was an unfortunate way to end his career.
When the carpenter finished his work and the builder came to inspect the house, the contractor handed the front-door keys to the carpenter. This is your house, he said, my gift to you for your many years as a faithful employee.
What a shock! What a shame! If he had only known he was building his own house, he would have done it all so differently. Now he
After much planning,the evening finally came! We invited about 25 cpls, but at the last minute had several concellations and no shows! We had 3 cpls in attendance! The environment was relaxing, candlelit in every room! Drinks were flowing, laughter was abounding! We all were sitting around getting acquainted, just enjoying each other in our home! About a hour into the event, One cpl decided to leave, they really weren't into more than one other cpl, so left! At the point we played a icebreaker game, kinda truth/dare! Clothes were coming off, kissing, etc. tami and I decided to change into some lingerie, which kicked up the party another notch! A few more rounds of truth/dare, and then tami and I grabbed each other started kissing and went into bedroom and the others followed. Tami and I started making love to each other on the bed, I was on top, kissing her, fondling her long beautiful hair. Slowly goin down on her enticing breasts, and kissing her body all over. slowly making it down
If There Were No Tomorrow
if there were no tomorrow
I would tell you today
That you are the one that fills my life
Whose smile I cannot wait to see
Whose arms I long to have wrapped around me
Whose lips I live to kiss
Softly, passionately, in every way.
I would want you to know
That you make my heart skip a beat
You fill my soul with contentment
You brighten my dark skies
You fill my days and nights
With stars, hopes, and cascading dreams.
I would want you to see
How beautiful the world looks with your eyes through mine
Your eyes light up the sky
Your touch paints the Heavens
Your kiss creates amazing rainbows
Of beauty, sunshine, and life.
I would want you to understand
That I have always loved you
Before I knew there was you
Before our eyes ever met
Before I found in you
Happiness, completeness, and passion.
If there were no tomorrow
I would tell you
That you are the greatest gift in my life
Whose love I cherish above all else
You sustain me wit
My life is quickly moving but slowly going no where emptiness an nothing all around.
I feel as though I'm dreaming but i know I'm not juss the darkness blinding me an the loneliness taken me in .I stop an scream but he don't hear my crys .
If i yell will he hear or see me trying to force my way threw to his eyes so he can see the light. Reach for me hear me say the things that he though ment nothing
wanting him to pull me in an make us whole again,Wanting an needing you to
feel me an hold me , love me , hear me thats all i ever asked nothing more an nothing less.
You Are The Better Part Of Me
You're the air I breath,
The scent I smell,
You're the touch I feel
You're everything that's real.
You're the better half,
The stronger willed,
You're the the beat of the heart,
The more compelled.
You're the sun that shines,
the lighter side,
You're the grass that grows,
The stream that flows.
You are the inner soul,
the eyes that shine,
the one I love,
my peace of mind.
You are and will always be
the better part of me.
Five (5) Lessons To Make You Think About The Way We Treat People.
Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.
1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one:
"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?
I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade.
"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello."
I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.
2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rai
How long has it been since you took a deep look within,
How long has it been since you sat down and really looked
deep inside yourself ,
to look at what has brought you here and why
to look at what has made you who you are
Have you sat back and pondered
on the feelings that are hidden deep inside
or cracked open that closet you locked
way way back then ?
Why is so easy to be critacal of others
and make judgements on others
without knowing the reasons that
brought about the means ....
Why is so easy to place blame elsewhere ...
before looking at the total scope of things ...
did you ever wonder ..... or take the time
to go inside yourself to see if maybe part
of the problem lies within
we use the excuses all to well
"thats how my parents did it "
"thats how society dictate it "
I Love You
I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know is what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!
i will be changing my page wen i done it will be so cool and nice i have nice things to pout in there so i need some nice pics to pout in my site please help me
I Love Everything About You
I love your soft kisses.
I love your soft touch.
I love the way you bite your lip.
I love you soooooo much.
I love the way you look at me.
I love the way you smile.
I love the way you're shy sometimes,
Every once and a while.
I love it when you look at me,
When I'm not looking at you.
You think I do not realize it,
But really...I do.
I love the way you cuddle.
I love the way you sleep.
I love the way you rub your neck,
when you are thinking so deep.
I love all of you,
Your nose, your lips, your eyes, your feet.
I will never stop loving you.
You are so amazingly sweet.
I love that I love you.
I have loved you from the very start.
I LOVE ALL OF YOU,
I now hand you the key to my heart.
~it's Not About Them~
People are often unreasonable, Illogical, self-centered: Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building someone may destroy overnight; Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they maybe jealous; Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, it may never be enough; Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.
~ Mother Teresa ~
When you find yourself on your own,
Remember that you are not alone,
And when your feeling down and blue,
Remember that I'll always love you.
When I am not here with you,
Remember that our love is pure and true,
I think about you every night and day,
When Im with you I want to stay.
I hope you will always remember me,
Coz' I will remember you for eternity
I never want to let you go,
Coz' I love you more than you could ever know.
If there was anything I could do,
I would do it just to please you,
You know its well and truly true,
I would do anything for you.
When your looking at the stars,
in the eternal blue
Remember that each star out there
Is a reason why I love you
And when you think your alone,
and when no one is there at all
I'll be right in front of you,
to catch you when you fall .
Deep within this aging body
I tend to drift to years gone by
Did I do all that I wanted
Or did I let life just slip me by
The waterfalls still await
For my nightly encounters
Always waiting for the night
To claim the spirit fountains
Remember, all those who dream
Of life and days gone by
That even if your days grow short
Your memories are still alive
Hang On ! I say Hang On!
And never give up hope
For tomorrow is not a promise
And yesterdays but a rope
Today is all we have
And all we are ever given
A life of love is opened
And needs never to be forgiven
Have you ever lost someone who meant more to you than your while soul? How does someone deal with losing their best friend?
Yesterday was the most tragic day of my life. Not only was it the remembrance of what happened 5 years ago with terrorism, but it was the day that I lost my best friend. Dana Asbury was only 18 years old when she was killed in a car accident. It hasn’t fully sank in yet and I don’t know that it will ever, I don’t want to believe that its true. I want it be a bad dream that I wake up from; I want to call her and know that everything is ok. To hear her voice one last time is all that I want right now, but I know that it will never happen. Dana and I were inseparable, we were always together, no matter where we were. We were sisters that everyone wanted to have. She was always there for me when I needed a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen whenever I had something going on. I remember I could always call Dae and she would always know the right words to say to c
Nice Guys A Die'n Breed :o))
a guys view:
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Push us down on the couch and make a move once in a while. We like that aggressiven
September 26, 1975
Written by Me on September 26, 1975
What is a Child
With no place to roam
A sad little child
With no place to call home
What is a bird
Who has worked at his best
Only to find that his young
Has fallen from the nest
What is a life
With sadness and sorrow
Everyone wants to change it;
But they all say maybe ~~maybe~~
To Love Again
September 26, 1975
To Love Again (09-26-75)
I remember someone
That I could love again
He says he could love me too
~~Now and Then~~
I saw someone
I could love again
He says he could love me too
I want someone
That I could love again
And maybe he could love me too
~~ In the End ~~
I Promise To........
I promise to be your warm spot to cuddle up to
when you feel cold
to be your soft place to land if you
I promise to be the first
one to say I am sorry
(even if I was right)
I promise to be there for
you in all of your times of
joy and sorrow
I promise to support you no
matter what your
decision (even if I don't agree )
I promise to make a
new memory with you each
and every day
I promise to love you without change
I promise to make you laugh
I promise to make you cry
I promise to give
you strength when you are weak
I promise to love you forever
to cherish you and your love
I promise to compromise with you
I promise to never take
your love for granted
I promise to never lose faith in you
I promise to
never give you a reason to distrust me
I promise to always trust you
I promise to work with you to resolve our conflicts
I promise to always be
proud of you
I promise to never let you feel
One Of My First Poems
Ocotber 6, 1975
Written by me on 10-06-75
What is life
What is love
What are you
Without me by your side
To handle with love
Till the day you die
What is a flower
With no petals on its stem
What is the sun
With its rays put on dim
Everyone wants to smell the flower
Everyone wants to see the sun
But no one wants to plant the seed
So nothing really gets done
If you want to see the sun
Or to smell the flower
You have to plant the seed
Then hope for a shower
The shower brings the rain
To start off the seed
Then the sun comes out
And soon up comes the leaves
Finally the buds appear
And little flowers bloom
But take care of the flowers
They wont last till our doom
Well LOVE is must the same
With all the care it takes
But you must first plant the seed
And Try not to make any mistakes...
All In The Heart
As each day goes by I sit & wonder, why does love have to be such a difficult thing? The way it makes you feel is sometimes very unpredictable. Love can make you happy, sad, mad & also crazy if you know what I mean. There are many ways to define crazy, crazy happy, crazy sad, crazy mad or just absolutely crazy in love way over your head, you take your pick.
Not a day goes by without that one person in your mind 24 hours a day 7 days a week. The thought of them is endless, the way they talk & the way they look at you when you’ve done something special for them. Their eyes have this sparkle that never goes away even after their eyes turn away from yours, you know that the sparkle is just a way of them showing you that you have a special place in their heart.
The sound of their voice is comforting, so you call just to hear them say hello & usually that’s not all that you end up saying. No matter what you have to do for love you do it & the consequences come after bu
Now I get to try to figure out how to use the blog. Should be fun. Thanks LC
The Silent Tear
THE SILENT TEAR
It comes at night when no one is watching.
It comes so soft, that it barely has a feeling.
When it comes, your heart is at ease.
And the only thing that is on your mind, is
Now the agony can finally.
As you gaze into the emptiness that fills the air.
A Droplet tends to fall.
While your memory races back to the time
When you thought you had it all.
You try to hold in what is deeply within your soul.
But the burning is so intense; that you just
Can't help but to let it go.
During the night a stain is made.
And at the same time all your pain is able to fade.
The only true feeling that you feel, is the wetness of
A drop that is left by a single tear!!!
~what Life Is About~
Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have
Or how accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend or if you're alone.
It isn't about who you have kissed,
It isn't about who your family is or
how much money they have
Or what kind of car you drive.
Or where you are sent to school.
It's not about how beautiful or ugly you are.
Or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on,
Or what kind of music you listen to.
It's not about if your hair is blonde, red, black, or brown,
Or if your skin is too light or too dark.
Not about what grades you get how smart you are, how smart
everybody else thinks you are, or how smart
standardized tests say you are.
Life just isn't.
Life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about who you make happy or unhappy purposely.
It's about keeping or betraying trust.
It's about friendship, used as a sanctity or as a w
R.i.p. Little Brother
RIP LITTLE BROTHER
As I pass away the hours
While laying on your grave
I whisper to the flowers
To the ground they are a slave
Shadows cover roses
Keeping them from bloom
Through the door that never closes
Death leads me to doom
I've waited on his mercy
To bring me back to you
For life left nothing for me
Once your life was through
( HIS POEM IS IN DEDICATION TO MY BROTHER WHO JUST RECENTLY PASSED I MISS YOU SO MUCH SKEETER AND I KNOW YOUR WATCHING OVER ME R.I.P. SKEETER
5-21-86 ~ 5-12-06
How Do I Tell You How I Feel About You
How do I tell you how I feel about you
everytime i think of you my body shakes
everytime i see you my knees grow weak and
everytime i'm with you i dont want the time to end.
everytime i look into your eyes, i wish i was there
everytime i see you smile my heart melts and
every night before i go to sleep i pray we dont end.
I've tried somehow to say:
you're the sun that lights up my sky
the wind that keeps me cool on a hot summer day
and sweet incense that keeps me on a natural high
I want so much to tell you:
that without you with me each day my day isn't complete
that since day one I've always wanted to be with you
that no matter what's going on in my life
you're the reason there's a smile on my face
and that loving you seems to be all I need to know.
But everytime I want to
the words just wont come out
to you it may sound mushy or too cute
you may not believe it so it's better I keep my mouth closed
Then to try to tell you exactly whats on
~the Art Of Letting Go~
Sooner or later, everyone you know will disappoint you in some way. They'll say something or fail to say something that will hurt you. And they'll do something or fail to do something that will anger you. It's inevitable.
Unfortunately, you make things worse when you stew over someone's words and deeds. When you dwell on a rude remark or an insensitive action madeby another person, you're headed for deeper problems.
In fact, the more you dwell on these things, the more bitter you'll get.
You'll find your joy, peace and happiness slipping away. And you'll find your productivity slowing down as you spend more and more time thinking about the slight or telling others about it. Eventually, if you don't stop doing it, you'll even get sick.
So what should you do the next time someone betrays you? TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR FEELINGS. Even though the other person may be at fault, even though the other person wronged you, you are still responsible for your own fee
It About Time
wow its about time now i can finaly erase my my space account ive been waiting for this day to come for a long while hooooooooraaaayyyyy for lost cherry and there new blog
What is this magical bond we share?
Amidst the constant circus like avalanche of words,
How did you know?
Once like you stable and secure,
He is older, yet betrothed to my dream,
Faithful to uncertainty,
A spirit yearning to be free.
His subtle words lodge in my thought.
Why did i pick this stranger
With a hunger that i can not see?
my hair kisses the breeze,
my dignity conceals the distance in my gaze.
Is it possible that a simple innocent radiant smile,
Or a crazy serendipitous verse,
Could bring two people so diverse
To where we find ourselves today?
Strangers once to our own lives,
At ease with the depth of our own emptiness,
How unlikely it is that we are here
It's quiet tonight, light raindrops filter through the leaves
Washing away the dust, releasing fragrances
On which the gentle breeze sweetens
The kind of night i wish i were with the one i love
Nestled close to the open fire
Watching the moon duck in and out of the white co
If you had me alone...locked up in your house for twenty-four hours and you could do whatever you wanted to me, what would you do with me?
Tell me by sending me a message to my inbox, because its a secret.
Then repost this on your blog...You might be surprised with the responses you get. They could make you laugh or even smile... lol.
If you don't repost this you are a coward
My Little Angel
OK HERE IS GOES,i BELIEVE EVRYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.i WAS INVOLED IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 12 YR YEARS,WE NEVER MARRRIED, HE SAYS MONEY REASON, WE ASLO NEVER HAD A CHILD, WE WENT TO DR.S THEY SAID HIS SPERM COUNT WAS BORDERLINE, THEN I FOUND OUT THAT I HAD A VERY LARGE CYCT ON MY RIGHT OVARY,WELL DR.S COMPLETY REMOVEDE RIGHT OVERY, PLUS RECONSTRUCT LEFT OVARY, THANK GOD IT WAS CANCER FREE THAT SURJURY WAS IN 1998......MY B/F AFTER 12 YR YEARS WENT OUR SEPERATE WAYS....
THEN I STARTED TO DATE MY BEST FREIND WELLL WE LIVE TOGETHER FOR YRS THEN ONE DAY IN OCTOBER 2002 ,i CAUGHT HIM WITH A GIRL 14 YR YOUNGER THEN ME OS I MOVED OUT,WAS VERY DEPRESSSED FOR LONG TIME, I HAD A BREAKDOWN,I GUESS U CALL IT, TOOK ALOT OF PILLS , DRANK AND DROVE MY CAR INTO A TREE IN JAN 2003. THERE WAS A ANGEL WATCHING OVER ME THAT NIGHT CAZ I W
I love that LC now has a blog feature. Writing, for me, has always been cathartic - a way for me to work things through. It's as if the process of creating something tangible out of what's swarming around in my head soothes and distracts me. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with this blog yet, it's like being given a sharp new pencil and an empty pad of paper.
The possibilities are endless.
Passion Of The Ocean
PASSION OF THE OCEAN
With the same force as my admiration towards the man I want to get to know
I want to know and feel his strength, and feel the power of his touch, crashing against
I want to feel his passions his desires and the dreams he has
Like the waters that go on
Forever and ever
I want to feel his tender touch caressing every inch of my body like the kiss of the sun over the ocean horizon,
Faithfully each morning
I want him to know that with each and ever word spoken is like a ripple that spreads throughout the deepest waters in My heart
For the day is coming closer and the nights are getting longer in the desire
To be near you
I dream of that moment when the waters of the ocean and the rocks of the cliffs finally meet
In a storm of passion,
His every touch will be like a soft caress to the rocks of the cliffs below
With each encounter will be like the waters stirring under the ocean so deep
With each kiss will be like a storm building fur
You told me that you loved me
why did you leave me to cry in the cold
you swore this time was different
why does that line seem so old
You told me I was the only one
who could make you feel that way
you told me that you cared about me
so why didnt you stay
All the nights you laid with me
alone in the dark in my bed
now I finally realize
you were just messing with my head
Love is such a powerful word
a word people often misuse
something they take for granted
something they beat and abuse
My wounds run deep inside me
there's blood all over the place
I think I've really lost it this time
Im ashamed to show my face
How many days did you say those words,
Thrown freely like so many un-caged birds;
You always knew how to say what you thought,
So that I would understand the situation not;
You lied, you took, and baited at leisure,
Your mesmerizing words nearly drove me to seizure;
I thought I knew you so,
Yet for no known reason you let me go;
That was one thing I never expected,
I was stupid enough to leave myself unprotected;
My heart, you stole from my very chest,
I wonder of how you will treat the rest;
You took, you stole, what never should have been yours,
You ravenously tore me apart, like a hoard of oh so many boars;
Yet still you allow yourself of our future to think,
While I stand on that uncomfortable brink;
The brink of holding on, and of letting go,
Looking into a set of headlights like a frightened doe;
Confused and stunned, I can not wander,
The words which you speak make me ponder;
How ominous, the words you speak,
So strong, among the many weak;
~the Best Day Of My Life~
~The Best Day of My Life~
Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever! There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today... but I did! And because I did, I'm going to celebrate!
Today, I'm going to celebrate what a great life I have had so far; the accomplishments, the many blessings, and even the hardships, because they have served to make me stronger. I will go through this day with my head held high, and a happy heart. I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.
Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile. I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know.
Today, I'll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down. I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love
These Are My Thoughts Today!!
Well wow!! Thanks for the welcome everyone!! Well I think I'll be here for awhile!! This place is cool!! Well I think I'll add a bit more about me!! I'm 28 as you all know. I'm into alot of things,I'll give you more on that later!! Feel free to ask anything of me,I'm open to anything so just ask. Thats all for today!!
Written During My Divorce
during that hour when the sun and moon are just trading places..
I forget to wonder when everything I had to give became not enough.
And I can sleep again like the amnesiac who has forgotten...
That he has lost his soul.
(some) People On Here Are Not Fair At All
this morning i rated about 450 pic on only 3 peoples pages and none of them returned the favor i have better things to do ! the family sits there and pimps some people out and these people take the rating and don't return the favor well i'm going to wait and see if they help me out back or i'm not going with the request from the family to help people out when the family pimped me out everyone that hit my page got rated back from me now that is fair i'm not pushing people up the level until those people help me out and u know who u are because u are online when i did it
thank u very much
Give In To Forbidden Desire (adult)
She could turn back time to erase their masked affair, but she had not expected the feelings to linger behind...
Give In To Forbidden Desires
Several thoughts raced through Zahara's head as she pulled back from Gabriel's sudden kiss. Her fingertips touched her lips in shock. The kiss may have ended, but the feel of his lips on hers still lingered. Her sense of right and wrong became blurred. She had turned back time to stop this very thing from happening. Yet here she was, alone with her brother-in-law, tasting his lips once again. Her heart screamed at her to flee at that moment. To run headlong into her own husband's arms. But her body refused to move. There was no fighting it no matter how hard she tried. She wanted more. Her defenses began to fall one by one and to her dismay, his named fell from her lips in a breathless whisper.
"What?" Gabriel responded in a voice that was oddly quiet, even for him. Her defenses shook as she
You And Me
We are all liars, because
the truth of yesterday becomes a lie tomorrow,
whereas letters are fixed,
and we live by the letter of truth.
The love I feel for my friend, this year,
is different from the love I felt last year.
If it were not so, it would be a lie.
Yet we reiterate love! love! love!
as if it were a coin with a fixed value
instead of a flower that dies, and opens a different bud.
All the organs of the body were having a meeting, trying to decide who was the one in charge. "I should be in charge," said the brain, "because I run all the body's systems, so without me nothing would happen". "I should be in charge," said the blood, "because I circulate oxygen all over so without me you'd all waste away." "I should be in charge," said the stomach," because I process food and give all of you energy." "I should be in charge," said the legs, "because I carry the body wherever it needs to go." "I should be in charge," said the eyes, "because I allow the body to see where it goes." "I should be in charge," said the rectum, "Because I'm responsible for waste removal." All the other body parts laughed at the rectum and insulted him, so in a huff, he shut down tight. Within a few days, the brain had a terrible headache, the stomach was bloated, the legs got wobbly, the eyes got watery, and the blood was toxic. They all decided that the rectum should be the bo
I'm Confused. It Doesn't Take Much.
I so don't know how to work this stupid thing.
I hate it already.
where the crap do you read comments??
Cos it says I have two somewheres.
but where do i find them???
i'm all confused.
and don't leave a comment in helping me cos I dunno where I find those just yet.
leave me a comment or a messsage or something. fuck.
You have a sexual IQ of 152
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Love Behind The Mask (adult)
So many things can go wrong when several people are dressed exactly alike. Like... a man can find himself in bed with someone who isn't his wife...
Love Behind the Mask
With the Masquerade party long underway, Gabriel and his dance partner secretly left the floor and made their way to his room within the penthouse suite. The night had been filled with mystery, but he was certain the woman with him was his wife. Too many things said between them made him believe that he could not possibly be wrong about her. Little did he know, he was far from correct.
The woman he had shared countless dances with and had taken back to his room was none other than his sister-in-law, Zahara. Masks and hair dye made it hard for her to realize that she was not with her own husband either. She was lost in the idea that she had managed to pick out her husband in the crowd. Since they were always doing new things to spice up their already sizzling and passionate marri
There was a blonde woman who was having financial troubles so she decided to kidnap a child and demand a ransom.
She went to a local par, grabbed a little boy, took him behind a tree and wrote this note:
I have kidnapped your child. Leave $10,000 in a plain brown bag behind the big oak tree in the park tomorrow at 7 am, signed The Blonde.
She pinned the note inside the little boy's jacket and told him to go straight home. The next morning, she returned to the park to find the $10,000 in a brown bag behind the big oak tree, just as she had instructed. Inside the bag was the following note....
Here is your money. I cannot believe that one blonde would do this to another!
The blonde reports for her university final examination that consists of yes/no type questions. She takes her seat in the examination hall, stares at the question paper for five minutes and then, in a fit of inspiration, takes out her purse, removes a coin and starts tossing the coin, marking the answer sheet: Yes, for Heads, and No, for Tails. Within half an hour she is all done, whereas the rest of the class is still sweating it out. During the last few minutes she is seen desperately throwing the coin, muttering and sweating. The moderator, alarmed, approaches her and asks what is going on. "I finished the exam in half and hour, but not I'm rechecking my answers."
In A Vacuum
A blonde was playing Trivial Pursuit one night. It was her turn. She rolled the dice and she landed on Science & Nature. Her question was, "If you are in a vacuum and someone calls your name, can you hear it?" She thought for a time and then asked, "Is it on or off?"
First To The Sun
A Russian, an American, and a Blonde were talking one day.
The Russian said, "We were the first in space!"
The American said, "We were the first on the moon!"
The Blonde said, "So what? We're going to be the first on the sun!"
The Russian and the American looked at each other and shook their heads.
"You can't land on the sun, you idiot! You'll burn up!" said the Russian.
To which the Blonde replied, "We're not stupid, you know. We're going at night!"
ouhhh lookey here.
not that i'll ever write in it.
if I do it'll be total crap.
sorta like this.
I can so make that happen.
if you read this then you're just silly.
and I apologize for wasting the last 15-20 seconds of your life.
A highway patrolman pulled alongside a speeding car on the freeway. Glancing at the car, he was astounded to see that the blonde behind the wheel was knitting! Realizing that she was oblivious to his flashing lights and siren, the trooper cranked down his winds, turned on this bullhorn and yelled, "PULL OVER!"
"NO!" the blonde yelled back, "IT"S A SCARF!"
There's this blonde out for a walk. She comes to a river and sees another blonde on the opposite bank. "Yoo-hoo!" she shouts, "How can I get to the other side?"
The second blonde looks up the river then down the river and shouts back, "You ARE on the other side."
if only people would read a little bit better they might get something that ive been asked about for a bit of time now...but oh well...i suppose i'll get rid of it and it just wont be an option....
A blonde is walking down the street with her blouse open and her right breast hanging out.
A policeman approaches her and says, "Ma'am, are you aware that I could cite you for indecent exposure?"
She says, "Why, officer?"
"Because your breast is hanging out" he says.
She looks down and says, "OH MY GOD, I left the baby on the bus again!"
OMFG! I'm at my sisters, right? And I'm playin around with my baby nephew (Caleb, 2 1/2) and niece (Elise, 1 1/2). So baby Caleb comes running and jumps into my lap and biffs me in the eye with his big ole noggin. As I'm holding and rubbing my eye, all of a sudden (and unbeknownst to me at first) he PUKES on me!!!!! Now anyone who knows me, knows that I DO NOT deal with baby fluids AT ALL! My first instinct was to get him away from me, which I did (GENTLY!). I slid him off my lap, freaked for a second about all the barf on me, then asked him if he was ok, he nodded yes, then I totally freaked about being ralphed on, LOL! I'm screaming at my sister to find me something to wear as I hobble to the bathroom without letting my legs touch, because, yes, there was even puke in my crotch. I get to the bathroom and I'm tryin to strip without gettin any on my skin, and all I can hear is my sister and my two oldest nephews (Damon, 10; Daylan, 6) laughin their asses off at me! I'm in there gaggin
hi there all injoying the site.. wishing to get the chance to talk to you all more. im looking to fine a close friend. in my area would be nice but i would be happy to find someone who like to talk one on one.not to sound like a want fool,lol but im looking for a playmate (sort of speaking) and close friend.. anyway hope to get some feed back .. your friend brent
In the hospital the relatives gathered in the waiting room, where their
family member lay gravely ill.
Finally, the doctor came in looking tired and somber.
"I'm afraid I'm the bearer of bad news," he said as he surveyed the worried
"The only hope left for your loved one at this time is a brain transplant.
It's an experimental procedure, very risky but it is the only hope.
Insurance will cover the procedure, but you will have to pay for the brain
The family members sat silent as they absorbed the news. After a great
length of time, someone asked, "Well, how much does a brain cost?"
The doctor quickly responded, "$5,000 for a male brain, and $200 for a
The moment turned awkward. Men in the room tried not to smile, avoiding eye
contact with the women, but some actually smirked.
A man unable to control his curiosity, blurted out the question everyone
wanted to ask,
"Why is the male brain so much mo
Answer Me You Know You Wanna
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would u kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why?
7. Describe me in 1 word!
8. What was ur first impression of me?
9. Do u still think the same?
10. What reminds u of me?
11. If you could give me anything wot would it be?
12. How well do u know me?
13. When's the last time u saw me if u ever saw me?
14. Ever wanted 2 tell me sumthing u couldn't?
15. To put it bluntly, wud u fuck me ?
16. Are you going to put this on ur blog and see what i say about you?
17. Would you ever meet up with me?
A blonde pushes her BMW into a gas station. She tells the mechanic it died.
After he works on it for a few minutes, it is idling smoothly.
She says, "What's the story?"
He replies, "Just crap in the carburetor."
She asks, "How often do I have to do that."
A group of kindergartners were trying very hard to become accustomed to the first grade. The biggest hurdle they faced was that the teacher Insisted on NO baby talk! "You need to use 'Big People' words," ... she was Aways reminding them.
She asked Chris what he had done over the weekend. "I went to visit my Nana." "No, you went to visit your GRANDMOTHER. Use big people words!
She then asked Mitchell what he had done, "I took a ride on a choo-choo." She said "No, you took a ride on a TRAIN. You must remember to use ' Big People' words."
She then asked little Alec what he had done. "I read a book," he replied "That's WONDERFUL!" the teacher said. "What book did you read?" [I love this] Alec thought real hard about it, then puffed out his chest with greatpride, and said Winnie the SHIT!"
A police officer stops a blonde for speeding and asks her very nicely if he could see her license. She replies in a huff, "I wish you guys would get your act together. Just yesterday you take away my license and then today you expect me to show it to you!"
Moonlight Magic (adult Content)
“So what are you drinking?” Malcolm Lewis looked up with mild curiosity as Sapphira Starr sat down on a barstool beside him.
“Captain’s my friend tonight,” he responded half-heartedly as he swirled the ice in his glass. She nodded and glanced up at the bartender.
“Captain for my friend here.”
“And for you, Miss.?”
“Sex on the Beach.” She tossed a sly smile back at Malcolm when she noticed his smirk. Even in his grief, his mind was still available to be messed with. He shook his head.
“Always heard you were the adventurous kind.”
“Well, never know what you like until you’ve tried it, right?” She returned with a shrug as their glasses were placed in front of them. Silence fell briefly between them before Sapphira drew up the nerve to speak to him again. “You really cared for her, huh?” He closed his eyes. Sapphira had been referring to his girlfriend Miranda. Earlier that evening, he had been unfortunate to come across her body. Sadly, there had been nothing he could do
Thinking Of You
You sit there
Flirting with my urges
Like I'm a game
To be played
But I don't play around
When it comes to you
see I've been loving you
for so long that just the thought
makes my mouth water
I learned that lesson early in life
So I take you in my hands
And begin slowly nipping
At your outer edges
Pealing off your
To get to the
Of the inner you
my eyes are closed cause
thats just how I do it!
I plunge my face
In between your layers
And get a face full of
Your soft wet core
Stimulating my salivary glands
Smooth, creamy, satisfaction
I live for your
Saturating my fingers and face
And long for your
On my lips
As I finish you
I sit back and
Wonder to myself
As I lick my fingers clean
Is it okay
To have this much love
For a peanut butter and jelly sandwich???
This Is Where It's Been!
I've been looking forever for this! I love to blog! But, don't be surprise if I don't blog often here... I have a blog at yahoo 360. My link is http://360.yahoo.com/poohbear14810 . Come and visit! :)
Blonde Joke Told By Blind Guy At A Lesbian Bar
Blonde joke told by blind man
A blind man enters a lesbian bar by mistake. He finds his way to a bar stool and orders a drink. After sitting there for a while, he yells to the bartender, "Hey, you wanna hear a blonde joke?" The bar immediately falls absolutely quiet. In a very deep, husky voice, the woman next to him says, "Before you tell that joke, sir, I think its fair - given that you are blind, that you know five things:
#1 - The bartender is a blonde girl.
#2 - The bouncer is a blonde girl.
#3 - I'm a 6 feet tall, 220 lb. blonde woman with a black belt in karate.
#4 - The woman sitting next to me is blonde and is a professional weight lifter.
#5 - The lady to your right is a blonde and is a professional wrestler.
Now think about it seriously, Mister. Do you still wanna tell that joke?
The blind man thinks for a second, shakes his head, and declares, "Nah, not if I'm gonna have to explain it five times.
Just Me Butch
I am single and looking and looking to move out of the state of Michigan.That way i can get my liscense back in a nother state too , cant get it back in Michigan, Long story.
what do u wanna know about me im an open book just ask and i might have an answer if ur lucky .
Better Health Plan
A woman noticed that a man was masturbating in a hospital room with the door wide open.
"Oh my God!" screamed the woman, "That's disgraceful! Why is he doing that?"
The doctor that was leading the tour explained, "I am very sorry...but this man has a serious condition where the testicles rapidly fill with semen. If he doesn't do that five times a day, they'll explode and he'll die within minutes."
"Oh, well in that case, I guess it's OK," commented the women.
In the very next room they could see that a female nurse was performing oral sex on a different male patient. Again the woman screamed "Oh my God! How can that be justified?"
The doctor replied ..."Same Illness, better health plan."
The 'l I T T L E' Things
The 'L I T T L E' things .
As you might know, the head of a company survived
9/11 because his son started kindergarten.
Another fellow was alive because it was
his turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her
alarm clock didn't go off in time.
One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
because of an auto accident.
One of them
missed his bus.
One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
time to change.
car wouldn't start.
One went back to
answer the telephone.
One had a
child that dawdled
and didn't get ready as soon as he should have.
get a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man
who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
took the various means to get to work
but before he got there, he developed
a blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is wh
I am officially cutting allanah off from watching "What Not to Wear" on the TLC channel. It looks like alot of fun. *cough**Cough*
On this show they pick someone and throw away alllll there clothes so they have to buy a new wardrobe.
Guess who decided to start going through my closet and tossing clothes....? That made for a fun night though...i got to try on a bunch of stuff that i havent worn in over a year and model it for her. Which is where i could tell by how hard she laughed wether or not i would keep it. :(....now one of these days im going to have to buy more clothes.
Even after I told her I like something...she would try to sneak it into the garbage pile.....gggrrrr. i wanted to hold onto the velcro shirt, but NOOOOO i had to throw it away. Lots of my pimp shirts.....GONE. When it came to the old worn out kakhi's i put my foot down.....i still have those.
oh well. So if she is ever at your house....watch your closets!
Tired Of Doing All The Work......
TIRED OF DOING ALL THE WORK!!!
The population of this country is 273 million.
140 million are retired.
That leaves 133 million to do the work.
There are 85 million in school.
Which leaves 48 million to do the work.
Of this there are 29 million employed by the federal government.
Leaving 19 million to do the work
2.8 million are in the armed forces preoccupied with killing Osama Bin-Laden.
Which leaves 16.2 million to do the work.
Take from that total the 14.8 million people who work for state and city governments.
And that leaves 1.4 million to do the work.
At any given time there are 188,000 people in hospitals.
Leaving 1,212,000 to do the work.
Now, there are 1,211,998 people in prisons.
That leaves just two people to do the work.
You and me.
And there you are sitting on your ass, at your computer, reading jokes.
Nice. Real nice.
*Hugs n Kissies*
I've tried silence
I've tried violence
To keep the love of my life with me,
But sometimes I wonder how it will be
If I just sit back and let it all go...
Darkness will conquer my aching soul
Is "I Love You" just a phrase?
conflicting emotions put me in a daze
Because I know I Love You...
I hope you still feel it, too
I must act now to prevent our calamity
Even if it means I plead insanity...
When love is real, when love is strong,
You've got to fight to right the wrongs
Don't make me die, dont let me suffer,
Please dont make this any tougher!
You mean too much to me to let this sleep...
I will win in the end for the one I must keep
Be Strong Honey
A man escapes from prison where he has been for 15 years.
He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and find a young couple in bed.
He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair. While tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom.
While he's in there, the husband tells his wife, "Listen, this guy is an escaped convict. Look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck." If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain. Do whatever he tells you.
Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, Honey I Love you.
To which the wife responds, "He wasn't kissing my neck. He was whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute and asked if we had any Vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom.
Be strong Honey, I love you to
It was a helter skelter ride into frantic oblivion, the cold biting rain pounding at my skull, and I know some people might hate the rain but...
storms are the greatest, the thunder drowning out your screams and the rain washing away your tears, hiding your emotions as you stand there t-shirt drenched in the aching night, reality biting at your heart, kissing you like the final kiss of a razorblade, and then, if you're lucky, they walk back round the corner, and you can kiss forever in that rain soaked moment of heaven...
Tonite though I knew she wasn't going to be walking back around that corner.
I turned my eyes to the rain soaked sidewalk, and started to talk to her, even though she couldn't hear me, even though she couldn't see me, even though I wasn't there
"If it rains on Wednesday I'll still be there, pretending that I'm waiting for my ride, when all the time, we both know I'm there, just because I love you.
I don't care about getting wet, I don't care about my dr
The Face Of Love
When we met you took my breath away,
I know you can hold my hand that way.
I have to let you go I couldn't stay,
the price is too much to pay.
For now your gone and now I stay,
leaving me alone for another day.
I miss your smile I want your touch,
I miss you so very much.
For the moments that will never come to pass,
for all eternity I wanted it to last.
My heart cries out for all the times we should of had.
Now all that's left is me feeling sad.
One day our paths will meet,
but for now I shall walk along this lonely street.
Goodbye for now my love I couldn't stay.
It fucking sucks it just has to be this way.
I want to hold you and feel your love,
My body is warm and ready but I can't.
I want to look into your eyes and see our love,
My eyes are open but I can't.
I want to kiss you and feel that love,
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Former Gov. Ann Richards dies
By By KELLEY SHANNONAssociated Press Writer
Thursday, September 14, 2006
By Kelley Shannon
AUSTIN — Former Texas Gov. Ann Richards, the witty and flamboyant Democrat who went from homemaker to national political celebrity, died Wednesday night at her home surrounded by her family after a battle with cancer, a family spokeswoman said. She was 73.
Richards was diagnosed with esophageal cancer in March and underwent chemotherapy treatments.
Her four adult children spent the day with her, said Cathy Bonner, a longtime family friend and family spokeswoman.
“They’re a strong group of people, but they’re broken-hearted, of course,” Bonner said.
The silver-haired, silver-tongued Richards had said she entered politics to help others — especially women and mino
Can You Help Her Out?
Hey my sister is stuck can you wonderful cherries help her out. Comment and rate her pics. Add as a friend or fan. She will return the favor to you.
Thank you so much
I got my new cell phone today, so anyone that has my number, it's still the same. So you can call/text me again. This is about the 20th cell phone I've had in four years, lmao. I have horrible luck with electronics. This time, my Mother dropped it into a sink of dirty dishwater. Gorgeous.
This is a warning. I am ranting.
You know what I've decided I'm sick and tired of? almost everything. In school you're taught you get the job. You get the money. You get the girl. Where's my girl? Maybe I'm too picky. Maybe I'm too stand offish. But somewhere there needs to be at least one person who fits my bill right?
I mean, I've always been told what a nice guy I am, outside of bedroom things anyway. I've always been told that I would probably be a good family man. Yet women seem to run right at the point of completion. Now I know this seems to be a whiney post. I realize this. here's a small piece of info. My shortest relationship was three years.
I'm tired of games. Yet all of my player friends seem to have no end of women interested in the kind of commitment I'm offering. Am I spiritually disfigured? Is my aura off? Do I not have the correct biorhythm? Or maybe just maybe I'm lucky enough to be one of those cliche nice guys. The ones that finish last. So I can si
Gotta A Dilemma
Several of you know a bunch of drama went down over here. One person who was a supposed friend started it all. She however is now having a really bad time. Her mothers lost her job, her grandfathers in the hospital, her husband is leaving her for her adulterous acts. My dilemma is do I be the sweet understanding person I normally am and console her if she still reads the messages I send her. Should I say nothing and just be like you did this to yourself b****. I want to be a good friend but there is no longer friendship between us of her own accord. Just dont know what I should do
Shy Guy Vs Psychology Graduate
A very shy guy goes into a bar and sees a beautiful woman sitting at the bar. After an hour of gathering up his courage he finally goes over to her and asks, tentatively, "Um, would you mind if I chatted with you for a while?"
She responds by yelling, at the top of her lungs, "No, I won't sleep with you tonight!" Everyone in the bar is now staring at them.
Naturally, the guy is hopelessly and completely embarrassed and he slinks back to his table.
After a few minutes, the woman walks over to him and apologizes. She smiles at him and says, "I'm sorry if I embarrassed you. You see, I'm a graduate student in psychology and I'm studying how people respond to embarrassing situations."
To which he responds, at the top of his lungs, "What do you mean $200?”
A Special World
****** A special World*****
A special world for You and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.
Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.
And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong
9 - 13 - 06
My love, I have tried with all my being
To grasp a form comparable to thine own,
But nothing seems worthy.....
I know now why Shakespeare could not
Compare his love to a summer's day.
It could be a crime to denounce the beauty
Of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.....
Each facet of your being
Whether it physical or spiritual
Is an ensnarement from which
there is no release.
But I do not wish to release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever,
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts.....Always as one.
Yes!! Entry Sept. 14, 2006
Dear Cherry Readers!!!
This is to back the the frist one...
I have truely met some really cool people!!
Lots of people are on here now..
You can make tons of friends....
I am just one person with a loud voice!!
Wow.. I dont know what else to write..
But this site is really cool!!
Take care out there in Cherry land!!
Blogeth Away Lol >:)
See now here you will actualy see who posts/comments for the for what you have posted, said , etc.. OR if they are all about getting points.
There no points awarded for the blogs eh . ! >;)
as you all have seen,i changed my name.it is due to me wanting to get back to my roots.my father was a full blooded white mountain apache.lately i have been leaning more that way,not just here,but adapting it to my everyday life.so,ty for your patience and understanding.i am still me.the funny thing is,there is no word in my native tongue for "phantom".not for devil,or such words.but i did keep phantom as my name.well,i guess yall was right,i will get the hang of this.hmmmmm,i wonder if it will let me put a pic in here?lets find out,lol.
Arab And Jewish Genie
An Arab had spent many days crossing the desert without finding a source of water. It got so bad that his camel died of thirst. He crawled through the sands, certain that he was breathing his last breath, when suddenly, he saw a shiny object sticking out of the sand several yards ahead of him.
He crawled to the object, pulled it out of the sand, and discovered that he had a Manischewitz wine bottle. It appeared that there may be a drop or two left in the bottle, so he unscrewed the top, and out popped a genie . . .
But this was no ordinary genie.
This genie appeared to be a Chasidic Rabbi, complete with black alpaca coat, black hat, side curls, and tzitzies.
"Vell kid," said the genie, "you know how it voiks. You got three vishes."
"I'm not going to trust you,' says the Arab. "I'm not going to trust a Jewish genie!"
"Vott'ya you got to lose? Looks ta me - you're a gonner anyvay!"
The Arab thought about this for a minute, and decided that the genie was right
Thinking On Leaving
Well is been fun on have meeting alot of new faces and friends know ur personalities u all have been great but lately ive been down for awhile but tried to hide it try to clear my head i know a few of u have been concern and thx for the support but i considering on comin off here or taking abreak ppl think that a man is strong by the way he carries himself u know me by my pics and most of them i hardly eva smile as such only becuze i hide my feelin not to get hurt most cuz im shy or insecure thinking no much of myself but of others i alway go out of my way to make my friends happy but in the end i think to myself who does go out of thier way to make me happy or see how im doing? im not the type of guy that brushes things off and move on but the type to keep feelins and emotions bottled up inside only to cry i nthe darkness so if u feel anyway for me tell me or write back letting me know how u feel by this and if i should stay on here alil while longer and what deference i made in ur l
Heaven Or Hell
Heaven, the feeling of your lips, lightly pressed against mine. The taste of your warm tongue sliding accross mine. The sound of your voice, creeping out so gently with a soft moan. My fingers parting through your hair and back. Your sweat, dripping from your chest and nipples into my mouth. Your Nails tearing into my sides. Your eyes, the gate way to your desire, your mixed emotion of lust, anger, joy, sadness, comfort and curiosity. Your loving words when you hold me so close, when you kiss me and hug me. Your life itself, that ive become such a great part of. You are me, as i am you, even if just for a slight moment, we are one in the same. Doesnt it feel great? To have had you, to have you, to need you, to want you, to love you, to hate you, to feel you...Its Heaven.
So why does such Hell come with such beauty? It makes me rethink my salvation. For just a bit of Heaven, waits a whole buttload of hell! Dont be mad, Its all the same Cruelty in Romance.
Damn Who Took My Cherry...
it's pretty bad that now I have to come to a place where I have to "FIND" my lost cherry. Hell I lost that damn thing about 12 years ago and I havn't even attempted to find it again. But SOMEONE said I had to come on here and how can I refuse a request from a friend...well it was easy but since they had to pull out the whimper card and the likes I said mkay I'll do it. But ooooooh joy!!! Now I have more blogs to write...I wonder if the Xenaites know about this place...oh well I hope so...cause, now, I can spread my evil villainy to new, fresh fields and torrment new victims. Huzzah!!!! I'm here and now, the carnage shall commence!
Thank You To All That Has Help Me Through It All!!!!!!!
YOU GUYS ROCK OUT I THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU FOR ALL YOUR TIME AND HELP TODAY I WISH ALL OF YOU A VERY WONDERFUL DAY TODAY AND I WILL BE BACK ON ALL YOUR PAGES I SOON AS I CAN BE. THANXS TO ALL. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.
I have posted 5 other blogs and even posted the links on the bullitens..I dont know how else to get you all to read some things I have wrote , that mean so much to me. I look forward to hearing from you all about my other blogs.
My So Called Life
Well, just when I think things are cool, I have a conversation with dear sweet mom!!!! We got on the subject of a friend of mine and I was sharing with my mom that she was pregnant and due in Jan. Which is really sweet!! This girl I had gone to high school with is a great person and a wonderful friend. Then BAM!!! I hear the same thing I heard when i was 18!! Wow EXACTLY 18 years later!!!!! My mom tells me that if they had had the technology back then and knew i was going to be born with a birth defect I wouldn't be here!!!! So, I cane back and said to her, "well, I am here, and I am glad I am!!!" Then she porceeded to tell me she had to go and that she loved me. What hurts me most is she made me feel like I wasn't even wanted!!! YOU DON'T SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO YOUR CHILD!!! I DON'T GIVE A DAMN HOW OLD THEY ARE!!!!! I actually cried myself to sleep last night because I was so hurt! Don't get me wrong, I know she does love me, and I understand why she said what she did, because I
The Way You Make Me Feel
*****The Way You Make Me Feel*****
You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.
You hold me close when i am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Everytime we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.
My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.
I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I wish I could be with you all night.
I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.
I just want to let you know,
That even though we may sometimes have a fight,
I will always love you!!
No matter what, day or night.
sorry im not on alot but i do try to comment ALL mt friends ans fans whaen i am on ive been busy with the kids and takeing the husband to the drs hes got smoething called gout. i will contunie to show love to all my friends and family and hope they will understand and show me the same love i have for them
Hey guys I know I haven't been on for a bit but all is good. I've been not feeling well and working alot.
Enought about the bad lets go straight into the good stuff. Last week Hank *doc* and I got engaged. I am going to put a pic or two of the ring in my photos for you all to see.
I just didn't want anybody to worry about me or anything all is good in my world now and I may be on more often now.
As I opened my eyes and gazed up at the sky,
I recalled my past and how the years just flew by.
Childhood games with the neighborhood kids,
Fond memories of my very first kiss.
Recess at school and bad cafeteria food,
Never breaking the rules at my Elementary School.
Middle School years brought me lots of tears,
Bullies and peers were my biggest fears.
High School begun and man was it fun,
With making kids laugh and cutting class.
School starts to such and I knew I was stuck,
In those classes of hell that I always failed.
Dropped out of school and started breaking the rules,
Brought my family to shame cause I was such a pain.
Parties, drugs, and beer for the next couple of years,
Being so ignorant and then I got pregnant.
Now I have kids and once again life begins!
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
I thought I had all the days of the week covered but ran across a new one.So I plan on having a tasty day and lic as many things as I can.Like a...welll us your imagination.I think I have a pic of me and a sucker somewhere.
HUGS AND KISSES...SUGAR
lately ive wonder if theres a point. i have alot going and i know that, i have a beautiful baby boy, i have my health and his, i have and maintain a nce apartment, i have a loving and caring family and circle of friends but.... thers gotta be more somewhere. life has not yet given me what every person looks for... true love... undying love... is it out there? does it exist for me? guess ill have to play the waiting game again on this one.
You Down Wit' Opp?
i'm bored outta my fuckin' mind. i can't tell you what i'm doin'...not because it's classified..but because i don't want to bore the shite out of you. and also, one of you out there just might be someone i "work" with. lmao they can't turn on a computer much less type. but every dog has its day.
my boobs hurt as pretty soon "my aunt FLOW will be visiting", as they say. yay me.
i'm tryin' to stay positive and have been doin' marvelous at my task. my favorite saying is "i hate people" because i do hate people. not ALL people but MOST. you'd know if i didn't like you. SOOOO...
usually while i'm driving, i repeat my favorite phrase over and over again *see above if you forgot the phrase*. i don't have what i call ORR (Obvious Road Rage). i have SRR (Secret Road Rage) meaning i just say in a calm manner that i hate people and wish death and major destruction on those who piss me off while driving. well NOW what i am trying to do in order to remain positive, is state "i k
not good at blogging... i'll probly just post some of my poems here or something. anyway, just playin with the blog thing, tryin to blindly feel my way around. hmmm..i might get the hang of this yet...
Solitary Feeling - 07/27/01
It's that single solitary feeling, that creeps up your throat makes you say things.
Makes you feel the hurt, when they are said back and not meant.
Not shown in what is done and felt, not felt in what is lived and loved.
Just nothing, solitary.
Feeling, wanting for that feeling.
Solitary momment, solitary bliss.
Solitary person, me, alone.
So, what are we supposed to blog about? I am not much for blogs, not even on myspace, so I dunno.. am I supposed to put more pictures of my cat? Another survey of all those vital stats no one cares about? A series of meaningless polls and what-is-your-goth-superhero name? I dunno..
Well in the meantime, I will just put random shit I suppose..lets see...I am a avid watcher of movies, almost borderline fanatic, but I have never seen The Godfather series, Fight Club, Seven or Titanic. Go figure. That is all for now. Stay tuned for my incessant daily ramblings.
Still checking things from the libray.
just thought i would post a quick hello to all my friends.