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Police Women
Policewoman A blonde was speeding in a 35 mile per hour zone when a local police cruiser pulled her over. The police officer who walked up to the car also happened to be a blonde. She asked for the blonde's driver's license. The driver searched frantically in her purse for a while and finally said to the blonde policewoman, "What does a driver's license look like?' Irritated, the blonde cop said, "You dummy, it's got your picture on it!" The blonde driver frantically searched her purse again and found a small, rectangular mirror down at the bottom. She held it up to her face and said, "Aha! This must be my driver's license", then handed it to the blonde policewoman. The blonde cop looked in the mirror, handed it back to the driver and said, "You're free to go. And, if I had known you were a police officer too, we could have avoided all of this."

Bra Sizes
Bra sizes Have you ever wondered why A, B, C, D, DD, E and F are the letters used to define bra sizes? If you have wondered why, but couldn't figure out what the letters stood for, it's about time you became informed! {A} - Almost Boobs... {B} - Barely there. {C} - Can't Complain! {D} - Damn! {DD} - Double damn! {E} - Enormous! {F} - Fake.

*an Anthem 4an 18month, Long-distance Relationship*
++3DOORS DOWN: HERE WITHOUT YOU++ A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And I dont think I can look at this the same And all the miles that separate its so clear now when I'm dreamin of ur face Im here without u baby But your still on my lonely mind I think about u baby and I dream about u all the time Im here without you baby but u're still with me in my dreams And tonite, its only u& me.. the miles just keep rolling as the people even wait to say hello I heard this life is over-rated but I hope that it gets betteras we go Im here without you baby But your still on my lonely mind I think about u baby & I dream about u all the time Im here you without baby but ur'e still with me in my dreams & tonite girl, its only u & me... Everything I know, and everywhere I go it gets harder when u've take away my love and when the last one falls and when its all said & done it gets harder when u take... away..

What's Weird About Me
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I don't sit in the tub unless I'm already clean. 2. I fold my laundry the same way every time. 3. I like peanut butter & syrup mixed. 4. I've had a raccoon & an alligator as pets. 5. I like to fish but won't touch bait crickets. 6. I actually did this game, lol. I pick-----ghostdance, frogmother, alex, gina74, diamonddave & cajuncherry.

You Could See It As Sad
Yea, it could be seen as sad that this site is my only outlet. But I see it as a good way to meet people and make a connection. You could be totally alone or reach out a touch someone(even if it is through the internet) at least you not really alone cause someone knows you. I think places like this is a good thing for people that have a hard time connecting with others. Maybe it's a safty thing. Your there but yet no one can touch or really hurt you or you just don't get out much. Think about it !

Stars Thump Kings
The Stars did waste any time letting the Kings know they were in town for business not pleasure. Miettinen scored just 19 seconds after the game started. Coach Tippet changed up the lines and the biggest one was putting Morrow, Modano, and Lindros together. Each time they were on the ice they dominated the puck. They had 2goals, one from Morrow and one from Modano, and five assist. Modano’s goal came after a huge blast from Lindros that rebounded out to the middle of the slot where Mo was waiting and pushed it past Cloutier. The team as a whole looked really good. Each man took care of their business and finished off hits and were just tenacious scrapping for the pucks in the corners. It was clear that the Kings were not ready for the new physical play the Stars are showing now. When the Stars made Morrow the team captain it was because of how he plays the game. He is fearless and will not give up on any play until the whistle has blown. He is never intimidated and backs down from no

Cowboys Drop To An All Time Low
This is the second most embarrassing thing to happen to the Dallas Cowboys. The first and forever to be the worst embarrassment was the way Jones treated Tom Landry. He fired Tom Landry with a simple phone call. No press conference no recognition of being the only coach of the Dallas Cowboys since they came into the league in 1960 much less having the 3rd most wins in the NFL. Jones is a man with no respect for this game or this team. It is not about giving the fans a winning team it’s about selling tickets. Since he bought the team in 1989 they are 109 wins to 133 loses a far cry from Landry’s 270 wins and 178 loses. Now he is embarrassing the team again with bringing Terrell Owens here knowing all of the problems he has had with his past teams. When a team cuts a player before the season is even over not asking anything for them or even trying to trade them you have to know that player is major trouble. Some how Jones didn’t understand that concept but how could he, after all he is n

It Has No Name Yet Lol
Some where there a torn heart that beats in pain and heartache for it never felt true love It cries out in pain and wanting to die for it may never know true love If it does ever feel love it just my broke and finish dying at lost.

*the Memories/emotions Stirred By This Song The 1st Time I Heard It, Were So Intense, I Had 2pull Off The Road While I Wept*
++EMINEM: CLEANIN OUT MY CLOSET++ Have you ever been hated or discriminated against, I have, i've been protested and demonstrated against, picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times, sick is the mind of the motherfuckin' kid that's behind, all this commotion, emotions run deep as ocean's explodin', tempers flaring from parents, just blow 'em off and keep goin', not takin' nothin' from no one, give 'em hell long as i'm breathin', keep kickin' ass in the mornin', an' takin' names in the evening, leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth, see they can trigger me but they'll never figure me out, look at me now, I bet ya' probably sick of me now, ain't you mama, i'ma make you look so ridiculous now... [CHORUS] I'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you, I never meant to make you cry, but tonight i'm cleanin' out my closet, {one more time}, I said i'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you, I never meant to make you cry, but tonight i'm cleanin' out my closet... I

A Small Introduction
So here's the skinny... I work for a large corporation, a publicly traded company on the NYSE. It's a chain restaurant, you may have heard of it...but it's no different than working for a pimp. You work long hours with no break, stand on your feet waiting for the next customer, and basically grin and bear it when you fuck up and get the smack laid down on you. I am a Food Industry Whore, and these are my stories...check back soon for updates on my attempt to move up to pimpstress status.

Pressure On Me
nowadays i feel so cross that i sometimes don't want to say anything to anybody.maybe it won't last for long or i will be crazy.the pressure in my opinion mostly comes from my study.of course you don't konw that there are a lot of exams coming.i am so worried about it.i want to pass them all.and can get a good mark.them i think i will be relaxed much,and can do what i want to do.if that i must feel more happy.

To The One I Hope Remembers And To Those Just Reading It
To compare How do I compare thee Maybe to a summers day Noway I hear myself say You are more a spring time girl your tears are the rain renewing the world when you cry your eyes a deep green forest I keep on getting lost trying to find the secret that's inside That hair flows from your head as waterfall free flowing Your face shines as the morning sun I welcome you in Your skin smooth as a tiger eye stone You are a sight to see together we make a symphony

Beauty Tips For A Better You
BEAUTY TIPS FOR A BETTER YOU For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For beautiful eyes, look for the good in other people. To lose weight, let go of stress, hatred, racism, anger, contention, and the need to control others. To improve your hearing, listen to the word of God. Rather than focus on the thorns of life, smell the roses and count your blessings, giving thanks for each one of them. For poise, walk with knowledge and self-esteem. To strengthen your arms, hug at least 3 people a day. Touch someone with your love. To strengthen your heart, forgive yourself and others. Don't worry and hurry so much. Rather than walk this earth lightly, walk firmly with determination and leave your mark. Doing these things on a daily basis will certainly make you a more beautiful person. author is unknow

*sigh*
somehow, you get to me get under my skin so deep i think you'll never come out. you invade my waking moments, my dreams... my soul. i may never know what will become of you but i am so proud knowing that i contributed to your existence. in a few weeks, you will turn 5. it seems like yesterday i held you, looked into the eyes of my creation and thought to myself that i would never possess my own heart again... because you will always carry it with you. i love you and always, always will.

Tag Yo
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I can make my eyes shake from side to side, gives people the hibbie gibbies 2. No idea why but I sleep in the fetal position, there must be a weird study about that...Luckky me it would be something bad 3. I lam very shy around people I just kinda close up unless im with friends and them watch out it gets inane. 4. When I was 5 my cousin and i stole my grand dad's cigarettes and smoked them in the garden at the summer house. We tried to make smoke rings until my aunt caught us and grand dad gave us a spankin, I think that traumatized me cause i never touched a cig since 5. I usually dream that I speak languages Italian one night Spani

Oh You Know, All Those Things You Shouldn't Do?
not too bad â€” Saturday, October 14, 2006 Uh, stuff. I cooked really good food today. It was maple turckey sausage stuff, and potatos and oniuns. I think it was that kind of the sausage that made it so excellent. I'm not a cheif or anything, but I cook good enough for me. I went and chilled with my friend. He was at his girlfriend's house. She was sick. We watched tv. I got to watch lots of invader zim. that was kinda cool. I drank a little bit, but not much, and then I waited for a while so I could go back home. It wasn't that great, but it was kinda than chilling my room alone all the time. It's good to go out and be around people every once in a while. So i look kinda depressed here. I promise it's not that. It's the other question people uste to ask me a lot. I guess I'm just way tired. I should sleep well tonight. After I drink some water.

Just Me ,so Don't Read!!
Just having one of those nights!! When my head is full and my heart is over flowing. Just that I've done alot of going here and there ,and not staying in one place to long!! Never leting anyone get to close or to far either. Anyways was playing catch up with a friend today. I got some bad news ,that I wasn't ready for!! She's going under theknife for the second time for cancer. The first time they didn't think she would make it and now she's a few years older!! I just don't know what to think or feel. I'm wondering how are we goin to tell her grand kids whats happening to grandma. I know she 56 but to me thats still to young to die from it,the doctor are being no help to our minds. I already lost three people I loved and cared about to cancer. One of them wasn't to long ago and here I am once again watching the whole thing happen all over again. The toughest part is she telling me to leave,I just don't know how to take that. I mean most my from the time I was 14 to know she has alwa

*they Took Da Words Right Outta My Mouth! (a Dedication To J.p.)*
++LINKIN PARK: HIT THE FLOOR++ There are just too many, Times that people, Have tried to look inside of me, Wondering what I think of you, When I protect you out of courtesy, To many times that I've, Held on when I needed to push away, Afraid to say what was on my mind, Afraid to say what I need to say, Too many, Things that you've said about me, When I'm not around, You think having the upperhand, Means you gotta keep putting me down, But I've had too many, Stand-offs with you, Its about as much as I can stand, So I'm waiting until the upperhand, Is mine, [Chorus:] One minute you're on top!!! The next you're not, Watch it drop, Making your heart stop!!! Just before you hit the floor, One minute you're on top!!! The next you're not, Missed your shot, Making you're heart stop!!! You think you've won, And then its all gone!! So many, People like me, Put so much trust in all your lies, So concerned on what you think, To just say what we feel inside, So many, People like

A Promise
Once you read this letter you must send it to 14 people that you really care about including the person that sent it to you. If you receive at least 7 back then u are loved." nobody knows what they have until they loose it You never leave the person whom you love by the one u like, because that person who u like will leave you by the person whom they love Tonight right at 12:00am at night your true love it is going to realize that they LOVE you! something is going to happen to you between 1:00 and 2:00 a.m. Tomorrow be ready for the greatest shock of ur life. If you break this chain, you are going to have bad luck in love by the next years. sends this to 15 people in 15 minutes. do it if you wanna know who ur real love is! I promise you my love I promise you my heart I promise you my life I promise we'll never be apart I promise not to hurt you I promise to never make you cry I promise to always trust you I promise not to lie I promise you forever I promise you tonight I pr

Sue-prise!!
A CHICK POSING IN HER UNDIES WON THE TOP CHERRY SHYTE AGAIN!!! SURPRISE, SURPRISE!! MAN, I'LL TEACH ALL OF YOU, GOING TO BREAK OUT MY THONG, POSE ON A TOILET, AND JUST WATCH ME WIN IT!! BE AFRAID, BE VERY AFRAID. P.S. NEKKID.

Jnblk
1.Beer is always wet. Vagina needs a little work. One point to BEER 2.Warm beer tastes awful. One point to VAGINA 3.A really cold beer is satisfying. One point to BEER 4.If after taking a swig of your favourite beer you find a hair between your teeth, you may vomit. One point to VAGINA 5. If you get home reeking of beer your wife may get mad, make a scene, kick you out, etc. If you get home reeking of vagina your wife may get mad, kick you out, even leave you. There's definitely a point to be had here, depending on your point of view and personal circumstances. I'll just call it a DRAW for the time being. 6. Ten beers in one night and you can't drive home. Ten vaginas in one night and you don't want to drive anywhere. One point to VAGINA 7. If you have a lot of beer in a public place, your reputation may suffer. If you eat any vagina in public, you become a legend. One point to VAGINA 8. If a cop stops you and you smell of beer you may get arrested. If you

Read This
Once you read this letter you must send it to 14 people that you really care about including the person that sent it to you. If you receive at least 7 back then u are loved." nobody knows what they have until they loose it You never leave the person whom you love by the one u like, because that person who u like will leave you by the person whom they love Tonight right at 12:00am at night your true love it is going to realize that they LOVE you! something is going to happen to you between 1:00 and 2:00 a.m. Tomorrow be ready for the greatest shock of ur life. If you break this chain, you are going to have bad luck in love by the next years. sends this to 15 people in 15 minutes. do it if you wanna know who ur real love is! I promise you my love I promise you my heart I promise you my life I promise we'll never be apart I promise not to hurt you I promise to never make you cry I promise to always trust you I promise not to lie I promise you forever I promise you tonight I pr

Uh Oh Drunk Blogging
moosey,sunshine,tazzy sweet potata, texcat,all the other girls in my family i fucking love you,you all are great it might not be cool to cuss here but i'm drunk...so i can say i fucking love you girls forever and a day!...love yall

Duck Tape And Staples
Without a name, unspoken, untold My lips will give no token My heart is broken Braced and framed In my deepest shame Love lost, to blame I cradle in my arms My only hope for sunshine These sands, this grain Filtering through my hands Broken shards Duck taped and stapled

Whisper
Listen closely if you care, listen closely if you dare I'm going to whisper a story that envelopes a thousand years A story that sheds a thousand tears Wake up and read my lips Every word spoken is a precious gift I know its silent, I know its faint But like my heart my words will fade Though I am not gagged, I cannot speak My lips are sewn shut, but still I weep I weep a few words, a few faint and unreal A few words that will last a thousand years

Friday The 13th!
I have never been superstition at all so I didn't think much of it when I had a black cat cross my path this morning, or yesterday when we had a rain storm and one of the kids was running around the house with an umbrella that I took from them to close. I called my doctor in the morning as I have been having stomach problems and intense pain which she believed to be my gall bladder. My aunt also had an ear infection and my sister a sore throat so she told us all to come in as soon as possible (it was 10:48) and she would see us before lunch. So we decided we would eat lunch after we left the doctors since we all skipped breakfast. We decided to take Kaitlyn, Michele's(my aunt) oldest and I took Jakob because I didn't want to leave him with my grandmother and felt a ride would do him good. Now, my car is currently in the garage getting fixed as my windows would no longer go up and down so we were going to use Michele's car. When we went to start Michele's van, it wouldn't sta

So Ive Decided.....
I think that its the weak minded individuals, the uneducated scum, the scared ones who are ultimatly going to be the downfall of this country. Its the stupid ones that dont care about whats going on that make dumb uneducated decisions about things that really matter. Or its the ones that decide that they dont like something just because its different and they dont understand it so they push it away and anihilate it so that way they dont have to deal with it. Why do people do that shit? Why cant they just face it and deal with it? Instead of pushing it away?

These Faces
I see all these faces Smiling and laughing But the words that they speak Are very lacking Not in skill Nor in vigor But happiness And content I see those same happy faces Turn upside down In unsatisfaction Their frowns keep falling When tears hit the ground Though I want to hold them And tell them its all right I know its better not to Because they are lost in the night All they need is a little love But they look in the wrong places Sex Drugs And Alcohol Are their only embraces

Parties
I have been in texas for a little more than a year now and i love it. but all my cool friends have deployed to iraq. So please pray for them and give them much love. I need to meet new people. If you are in texas around san antonio gimme a shout out. You are always welcome to party with me and my friends.

College
For the past couple of months, exactly about 3 months my parents and oldest brother has been telling me to apply for college. I am a senior highschool and I do want to go to college seriously. It's my next challenge out there after highschool. It's a complete resolution that I need to go there and get my degree and such. I tell my parents that I want to study out of state but then again they're telling me that I should either stay here or go home back in the Philippines(where I came from). So how am I supposed to face that resolution if they would limit as to where I am going for college. I also am aware of the fact that I need to go get my credentials fixed. Truth is even though I am performing mediocre I can rise above from it and get beyond or on par with my other friends that have more than 4.5GPA. As for SAT I got it under controlled as to where my oldest is assuming that I might Christmas Tree or even Crystal Ball it. I know that the word reviewing for SAT doesn't go

When I Am
If I was a cloud, I'd make baby raindrops And they'd feed the treetops If I was a cloud If I was the sun, I'd shine on the flowers And pass on the power If I was the sun If I was the moon, I'd caress every ocean In celestial motion If I was the moon If I was a star, charmed and enchanted All wishes would be granted If I was a star If I was your man, the kisses would linger I'd melt in your fingers If I was your man If I was your man, we'd share every shower And wash away the hours baby If I was your man If I was a song, I'd reach all the people From barrooms to steeples If I was a song If I was a dream, I'd be sweeter than honey I'd be bigger than money If I was a dream If I was your man, we'd dance through the daisies They'd say we were crazy girl If I was your man If I was your man, I'd pump you with this passion You'd get more than fashion baby If I-I-I-I-I was your man You would not have to hurry I'd rub away your worries girl If I was your man If I

Deadly Imaginings
The Boatman comes to ferry me across the blood river, its cold and dark, I can't see where I'm going and I have no sense of time. I'm bruised and beaten; my skin is tattered and bloody. My clothes are damp and sticky, rags at best. I have no recollection of where I have been and I have no memories of what lay before this moment. The soulless eyes of the ferryman peer back at me, the only illumination in the gloom, the lamp that hangs from his bony fleshless hand. "What is this nightmare, what is my name, where am I going?" my voice whispers in my head, an echo in an empty mind. The thing before me gestures politely, if such a gesture could be called that, towards the boat as if saying, come with me. I somewhat pull myself together and step into the boat, but my every move feels as if I'm walking through water. The boat lists gently, lightly under the ferryman's light weight as he climbs into the vessel behind me. The lamp now floats before the boat, as if held by an unseen hand, it mov

Freak Show
Democracy hypocrisy Social animosity Freak show You’re part of this Freak show I see you lying Cant you see me crying Starring Without caring Judging The stings of your labor Like a saber Cutting into my character ”I HATE THIS KID” Cause he looks like this ”I’LL BREAK THIS KID” Cause he walks like this YOU KILLED THIS KID Cause of words like this HE SLIT HIS WRISTS Cause of people like this Democracy hypocrisy Social animosity Freak show You’re part of this Freak show You hate because of this Freak show You’re scared because of this Freak show So compelling I’m dwelling Defined by your word I rape kids These fake kids Telling me I made this Freak show Telling me I’m apart of this Freak show But look into the mirror Weigh your sins to a feather I bet I am better You freak show

When You Say You Love Me
When You Say You Love Me Like the sound of silence calling I hear your voice and suddenly I’m falling Lost in a dream Like the echoes of our souls are meeting You say those words, my heart stops beating I wonder what it means What could it be that comes over me At times I can’t move At times I can hardly breathe When you say you love me The world goes still, so still inside and When you say you love me For a moment, there’s no one else alive You’re the one I’ve always thought of I don’t know how, but I feel sheltered in your love You’re where I belong And when you’re with me, if I close my eyes There are times I swear I feel like I can fly For a moment in time Somewhere between the heavens and earth Frozen in time Oh, when you say those words When you say you love me The world goes still, so still inside and When you say you love me For a moment, there’s no one else alive And this journey that we’re on How far we’ve come and I Celebrate every mome

Amy
Amy Lee's growing pains 10/12/2006 4:26 PM, AP Every girl goes through it — the messy task of emerging from her awkward teen years and navigating the complex waters of romance while figuring out what to be when she grows up. But very few do it as publicly as Amy Lee, lead singer of the goth-rock band Evanescence. Lee was just 19 when she signed her first record contract, and barely 21 when the band's major-label debut, "Fallen," flew up the charts in 2003. The album, co-written by Lee and (now ex-boyfriend) Ben Moody, connected with fans across the globe and netted the band two Grammy awards, including best new artist. Its hard-driving mix of brooding, spiritually-tinged darkness and dramatic classical orchestration offered fans a window into Lee's psyche. Or so many of them thought. "Everyone knows a lot about me without actually knowing me at all," says Lee, now 24. Her celebrity status as a singer of edgy songs left her surrounded by teenage fans in search of

Boot Straps
Looking for them... I know they are there... Everyone says they are there... I'll find them. I always do. It's been a crappy week, for a variety of reasons, but I always pull through. I know I don't know most of you very well yet. Those who know me well, know that I always manage to slap on the "Happy Mask" and make everyone ( including myself ) believe that life is a chair of bowlies! (I should be giving some copywrite credit here, but I can't remember her name right now! If you ever take "Dope-a-max", be warned! It makes you stoopider!) I've been without a car all week, so tomorrow, I'm going job hunting. Apparently SSDI doesn't think I'm nuts enough to warrant disability. So, for the time being, I'll muddle through another 2 or 3 jobs, while an atty sees if HE thinks I'm nuts enough. Be kind to the mentally ill, folks...better yet, give us a job and be patient!!!!!!!!! GOD, I'm babbling. 1:30 in the morning is NOT a good time to be writing in my blog, but I'll BET Eli

When I Am
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary When troubles come and my heart burdened be Then, I am still and wait here in the silence, Until you come and sit awhile with me. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas I am strong, when I am on your shoulders You raise me up... to more than I can be. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas I am strong, when I am on your shoulders You raise me up... to more than I can be. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas And I am strong, when I am on your shoulders You raise me up... to more than I can be. You raise me up... to more than I can be.

One Of My Songs "vision"(fly Away)
Verse 1 I had this vision the other day, when it came thru i didn't know what to say, your lips touched mine and I knew i was in love, god must have sent you from up above, Bridge Girl I need you badly, your love is only for me, so don't ya go away (don't you go away), and girl your love has changed me, and i know that you need me, so girl lets fly away (fly away), fly away to another place, Chorus*2 Lets fly away together, forget about the past baby and start anew, will make it thru the stormy weather , cuz i got you and you got me boo, Verse 2 Girl i don't kno wat to do to sho u, just how i feel i can't live without u, seems like yesterday we first met, but tonight you became me juliet Bridge Chorus*2

What The Hell?????
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY LC MEMBERS WITH THOSE STUPID GENERIC I WAS THERE PICS???WHAT HAPPENED TO ALL THESE PEOPLE??DID THEY JUST ALL DECIDE TO NOT BE MEMBERS OR DID THEY GET THE LC BOOT?????SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT HAPPENED TO SOME OF MY FRIENDS THAT ARE NO LONGER HERE????WEIRD SHIT......

Word
i hurt them But not wiht a punch With my words Why should i care They never cared? They never cared? My so called friends, PLas buddies, ass holes So cloes What a fool i was To think i could have friends To think a girl like me ...to all my so called friends YOU SUCK!

I Win!!!
I'M LAZY, BUT I WIN!! TAG UR IT! THIS IS A SEXYY TRAIN IF U RECEIVE THIS IT MEANS UR FREAKIN SEXY.... IF U GET THIS BACK UR EVEN SEXIERR...SEND THIS TO YOUR FRIENDS _______@@@@@@@@@@_____ ______@@@@@_______________ _____@@@@@________________ _____@@@@@________________ _______@@@@@_____________ ___________@@@@@______ ______________@@@@@_____ ________________@@@@@_____ _______________@@@@@______ ______@@@@@@@@@________ ______@@@@@@@@@@______ ______@@@@@@@@@________ ______@@@@_________________ ______@@@@@@@@_________ ______@@@@_________________ ______@@@@________________ ______@@@@_________________ ______@@@@@@@@@@_____ ______@@@@@______@@@___ ________@@@@______@@___ _________@@@_____@@____ ___________@@@__@@____ ____________@@@@@_____ _____________@@@@_______ _____________@@@@@________ ___________@@___@@@___ ________@@@____ @@@__ ______@@@@@___@@@@@__ ______@@@@@______@@@___ ________@@@@______@@___ _________@@@_____@@____ ___________@@@__@@

A Poem That I Wrote
The one that got away was the best person there was he made me happy he made me feel so alive but that one sad day came to soon i did it again i screwed it up, he didn't want me anymore so there i was stuck i didn't know what to do i didn't know what to say but all i knew is i wasn't ready for that day i wish that time would go back to all the happy times that were spent the time that i had fun and was glad but all i know now is that i am to sad i was so happy with him i thought that he was the one but all i could do is have no fun i stayed in my room for that past few days thinking what i could do to tear him away but i don't know what to do besides cry everyday i think of him often and wished it never happen all i know is that i will never be happy without him

Why Do You Hate America?
"Why do you hate America?" This is a remarkably easy question to provoke. One might, for instance, expose elements of this nation's brutal foreign policy. Ask a single probing question about, say, U.S. complicity in the overthrow of governments in Guatemala, Iran, or Chile and thin-skinned patriots (sic) will come out of the woodwork to defend their country's honor by accusing you of being "anti-American." Of course, this allegation might lead me to ponder how totalitarian a culture this must be to even entertain such a concept, but I'd rather employ the vaunted Arundhati defense. The incomparable Ms. Roy says: "What does the term 'anti-American' mean? Does it mean you are anti-jazz or that you're opposed to freedom of speech? That you don't delight in Toni Morrison or John Updike? That you have a quarrel with giant sequoias?" (I'm a tree hugger remember? I don't argue with sequoias.) When pressed, I sometimes reply: "I don't hate America. In fact, think it's one of the best countr

Why?
Why is it...the one you care most for...is the one who never seems to recipricate it as much? *sighs* Then the ones, that you just don't have the same feelings for, are the ones who seem to fall head over heels for you. It isn't fair, to either in the situation. I wish that I fell for the ones that were so damn sweet to me...but they are usually not my type...or too far from me. It just sucks, and I felt like complaining about it lol. On a better note...I got to see a good movie. The Departed. It was strange but great (in my opinion) I actually got to see it twice, so that means I enjoyed it...but both times were free hehe...so no complaints there! Well, everyone have a good night :)

Comment Please
is a male/female boring cause they stay home on a Friday Night and veg with nothing but this box? I am just wondering if it is cause all the smart one's got tired of bumping their heads on the same ol stuff? Or is it cause one just wants to feel security at home..? let me here your comments on it......

~the Grief That I Benefit From~
That morning I woke up late for school. As my mother helped dress me, channel five eyewitness news played in the background. I saw uneasiness within my mother than I had in a long time. When the reporter spoke of a late breaking story, my heart sank and my world began to spin. To comfort me she held me close, shedding tears on one another’s shoulders. Three days before, my hero got out of boot camp. I spent the day with him playing in the backyard. After sunset there was a phone call. I ran quickly to block his leave. Begging him to stay I could not with hold my tears. I remember that night, when he closed the door of our house for the last time. On March 11, 1997 a carjacking occurred that left a victim dead. One of the main suspects was none other than my hero, my brother Vincent Gutierrez. Since this incident he waits in the dark cells of prison, waiting for time to end his fate. I am hopeful that this accusation is false, but time seems to have had its way with him. Anger feste

Bored
WELL! this is like the 7th blog i have XD things are going well i'm posting in here instead of working as always. and i'm in alot of pain from circus work last week T-T but i was ontop of a human pyramid and taht was very cool! XD

News About My Uncle
Well, today, 10/13/06 has been a rough one for my uncle. He had seizures several times today. Things have not been good for him. If some of you don't mind going to his page and sending him some love, it would be much appreciated. He will see his messages daily as I sign into his lap top for him and read them to him. Thank you all. You can go to the first blog post in my Family Matters section and you will find the link to his profile. Thank you all again!

Leveling Formula
Okay heres the deal, Im starting the push to my next level. I need a little over 9600 pts. I have done some research and have found the following 1. Photo Comment is 5 pts. 2. Photo Ratings is 5 pts. 3. User Comment is 7 pts 4. If you become my fan is 10 Pts. I have 948 friends... and 78 photos, I will be adding more shortly. I know not every one of you has rated all of my photos. I not asking everyone to rate and comment every one of my pics that takes a long time and a lot of effort to do. Keep in mind that a rating and comment is worth 10 points together. 960 of those will put me over the top. so if each person on my friends list rated and commented on one photo, that would be enough... 450 people rate / comment 2 etc... each comment / rate you do brings down the number required. Also take into consideration 7 pts for a user comment. One photo rate / comment and user comment and becoming my fan is is 27 pts that brings it even faster. If 350 of my friends show up

Update On Me
Ok I went to the doctors Appointment yesterday and I have lost 4lbs.. I weigh from 217lbs and now 213lbs.. I am doing really good and i am really happy that I am doing what I can.. Yep.. she is making me one day for my meds and that is not going to bad at all.. She told me not to drink regalur milk to drink silm milk.. and eating really great too.. Not to big of plates to small amount of food on my plate.. Yep doing what I can and I am really doin alright.. I will see the doctor again in January 2007 so that is great, I can loose more weight lol.. Well give you all more update on me ok.. Alisha

Tra-la-la
I can't deside if I'm hyper or if I'm tired. And that is a weird state to be in. Too much caffeine and too much valarian root makes me all loco. It isn't helping that I put in something like 57 hours this week, let me add it up: Saturday 3.5 hours, Monday 9, Tuesday 11, Wednesday 11, Thursday 11, Friday 11. You do the math, but yeah, that's round about how much time I put in. I"m married to that place. Missing someone right now.... Tra-la-la. I want to sing, that's random, but I really want to go karoke. But I'll probably chicken out since I get shy rather quickly and freeze in front of large audiences. Actually, I just freeze when I get up to speak. I used to never be that way. My friend and I used to make an ass out of ourselves in public all the time, but I've slightly calmed down. But only slightly. I want to go hiking, I have this insane urge to climb something. And I"m scared of hights, so this might be interesting. As long as I don't freak out, I will be fine. I real

Political Science For Dummies
Political Science for Dummies DEMOCRATIC You have two cows. Your neighbor has none. You feel guilty for being successful. Barbara Streisand sings for you. REPUBLICANISM You have two cows. Your neighbor has none. So? SOCIALIST You have two cows. The government takes one and gives it to your neighbor. You form a cooperative to tell him how to manage his cow. COMMUNIST You have two cows. The government seizes both and provides you with milk. You wait in line for hours to get it. It is expensive and sour. CAPITALISM, AMERICAN STYLE You have two cows. You sell one, buy a bull, and build a herd of cows. BUREAUCRACY, AMERICAN STYLE You have two cows. Under the new farm program the government pays you to shoot one, milk the other, and then pours the milk down the drain. AMERICAN CORPORATION You have two cows. You sell one, lease it back to yourself and do an IPO on the 2nd one. You force the two cows to produce the milk of four cows. You are surprised when o

What I Am Feeling
I am all stressed out right now. There is alot going on in my life and trying to make the best of it. I am doing the best with my kids. I am currently looking for a job, my baby girl is almost 2 years old and its time for me to go to work. I live in North Texas and looking for a office job. I feel so alone and need a break from alot right now. I am not sure what else I can tell you on how I am feeling, just feeling all alone and confused.

Yea All You Cherries
Goin to the football game tomarrow... WSU vs Cal its gonna be a barn burner... hmmm not sure what that means... but w.e. Any Cal fans in the house... prepare to cry as we kick your ASSES! ... whatever lataz

Getting Older
Sitting here i started thinking back to the days when i was young and dumb and i thought hell im gonna live forever i have all the time in the world to do what i want so why worry well now here i am 33 years old and my body has started to give out on me.Between the dieabetis and all the shit that goes with it im not able to get around as well as i used to hell some days it's a fight just to get off the couch.When you cant walk without pain its hard to do alot i used to love walks in the woods and stuff like that till i this happened i took it for granted now i wish i hadnt In a way the words from an old school song fit "you ask if ill grow to be a wise man and i ask if ill grow old" For those of you too young too know the song its from bon jovis blaze of glory the moral to all this is dont take good heatlth for granted dont wait get out there and ride the wave life live to its fullest dont wait cause if ya do it may be too late sooner than you think

Weird Shit!
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I rub my earlob when I am cooking up a lie 2. If I drink a lot (alc - about the amount of 1.5 L smirnoff) my eyes turn yellow and glow 3. My DVDs are in MY kind of listing, anyone messes with it gets a beating... It's MY logic, don't question it! 4. Shoes off AT THE DOOR!... you get a slipper if you wish... socks more like it... 5. Only touch my blades if you want to die without asking me first and hearing for sure I said yes you can touch ..... 6. Don't ask me where I know things.. I KNOW! and thats that.... 1. Syd 2. Xaph 3. Ember 4. Nem 5.Skarlett 6.Bella

Playlist For 10/14/06
Here's Ya Button For Winamp...Tune In, Rock Out!! Here's Ya Button To The NEW Microsite...Tune In, Rock Out!! Drop Your Cocks And Grab Your Socks Because It's Time To ROCK!! PLUS You Make Your Requests, Tune In, Amp Up, Get Down, Rock Out And The GenoCam In Geno-Vision Goes LIVE On Yahoo Giving YOU A Behind-The-Scenes Look As Things Happen PLUS The Premier of Ayin Aleph, King Rat & Dark Avatar!!! The Genocydal Empyre v2.0 Playlist for 10/14/06 12:00am - 3:00am EST 1. The Genocydal Empyre v2.0 (Faith And The Muse - Cantus) (6:05) 2. WRR Genocyde Friends (0:38) 3. 6Bit - Crucifixion Experiment (4:18) 4. Inkubus Sukkubus - All Hallows Eve (Candia & Tony duet, different style) (4:23) 5. Dark Avatar - Devil (4:23) 6. King Rat - Lightning In The Mind (4:31) 7. Ayin Aleph - Alcove (4:08) 8. Lords Of Acid - Show Me Your Pussy (4:05) 9. WRR Genocyde Friends (0:38) 10. 6Bit - Crucifixion Experiment (4:18) 11. Cockfight Club - H.P. Lovecraft (3:13) 12. C

I Respect Those That Hold It Against Me
you have lit your fire under my feet englufed my side airless, breathless the smoke passes its burden to the air the air accepts i won't have another breath chemical steam she is now vapor

Everybody Sing!!!!
This is a song that will hopefully be a part of an album that will hopefully eventually get recorded one day when I get around to it and can hopefully get my other two associates and myself in the same room at the same time. The band is The Snot Rockets and the working (actually non-working...heh) title of the album is "37 Short Songs for Rotten Kids" "If you find some money that doesn't belong to you It must belong to someone so here's what you should do.... Stick it in your pocket and run like hell Stick it in your pocket and run like hell Stick it in your pocket and run like hell Run run run run run...... If you find a wallet laying on the ground Pick it up look left and right make sure no ones around...and... Stick it in your pocket and run like hell Stick it in your pocket and run like hell Stick it in your pocket and run like hell Run run run run run......" Like I said, they're short songs. lol

I've Been Tagged Lol
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. i love to listen to music in the dark 2. i'm afraid of dying from an asthma attack or being left alone in this world with on one to love. 3.i write my thoughts in a journal, then the following yr read them and rip them up 4. can't drink dark soda, hurts my stomache 5. can't sleep without my snuggles laying next to me (lol) 6.i love to use johnson and johnson products, cant use anything else... now i will tag babydragon, bowbe4me21, big j, dusty rose, nightowl, papiwow88

My New Member Of My Family
this is my first blog and i'll give you some insight into what is me..............so today i came home with a new family member , a kitten i haven't named yet and i didn't know what to feed it ,so i kept giving it weird things , in the end i just gave him some milk , i was tired dammit...

Aztec...
Tell me when, at any time in the history of the one world, has any one life ever been saved. Mexica Proverb ------------------------- Hopefully people will understand the jist of the quote... Mexica were the preeminent tribe in 1400-1500 Mexico during the conquest...later misnamed by history as the Aztec, and even though they had a brutal way to worship their gods I think they also had a higher understanding of the human condition than any modern society I've ever studied.

My Name Is Nobody
MY NAME IS NOBODY SHE HASN'T ANY FRIENDS; NO ONE TALKS TO HER. SHE SITS ALONE; NO ONE INVITES HER TO SIT WITH THEM. SHE GOES HOME TO AN EMPTY APARTMENT; NO ONE IS WAITING FOR HER THERE. SHE DOESN'T GO ANYWHERE; SHE'S ALWAYS AT HOME. AT NIGHT, SHE SLEEPS ALONE; THERE'S NO ONE TO HOLD HER TIGHT. SHE HASN'T ANY MORE DREAMS; THERE'S NO ONE TO SHARE THEM WITH. "WHO'S THAT GIRL?" SOMEONE ASKS. SHE LOOKS UP TO SEE THEM STARING AT HER AND SHE REPLIES, "MY NAME IS NOBODY. I'M THE ONE WHO HELPS YOU WHEN YOU NEED IT. I'M THE ONE WHO ALWAYS SAYS 'GOOD MORNING'. I'M THE ONE WHO'D LOVE TO BE YOUR FRIEND. I'M THE ONE YOU MAKE FUN OF AND CALL ME NAMES BUT TO YOU ALL, MY NAME IS NOBODY." WRITTEN BY: VICKI S. JOINER (ME) WRITTEN FRIDAY OCTOBER 13, 2006 11:12 PM TO 11:48 PM

Someone Please Help Me!!
so tonight is the first time since I found out that John died on 6 september that i have cried. i have so much running through my head right now that im lost. I always run to john with any type of problem. he would drop everything to help me. no matter how important the shit was that he was doing, he always had time for me. i remember the superbowl in 2004 when he was at ft riley. he called me up drunk off his ass from his office and we talked for hours. i blew off the superbowl for him. lol. i remember our LONG ass phone talks when he first got to germany. i remember looking forward to his emails every day. and now nthig! i keep hoping to see his ID pop up on yahoo, but i know its never going to happen. DAMNIT JOHN! you told me you would never make me cry and here i am! IM FUCKING CRYING! what are you going to do about it?! Brother Fox, please come take care of me!!! RIP BabyDoll. you will always be missed, but no way in hell can i ever forget you! 01 September 1

W.t.f.
well holy shit its only the second week into october and it snowed here, hard at times. there was one fatality in a single vehicle rollover close to where i live. from what i heard it happened around 4 am, the guy was driving in the passing lane, not sure how or what happened, but his van ended up on its roof in the middle of the north and south bound lanes, he was driving south, the van laid to rest facing north. he was 35 years old. i feel for his family and friends. the roads where slippery enuff to make the truckers slow right down, and blowing snow reduced visability and the truckers had there 4 way flashers on. not a sight you see everyday. but the snow is almost melted now, mother nature is just being cranky, shes saying im about to go for my beauty nap and old man winter is gonna take over. my job consists of driving a courior truck 5 days a week, some days in the winter, we wonder why the hell are we out on the rds when the school busses have been cancelled, freezing rain ha

Blinded By The Light!!!
I JUST NOTICED THAT PERSON IN THE CHERRY SPOTLIGHT DEAL IS A DUDE!!! NOT A CHICK FLASHING HER PANTIES, ASS, TITS, SPRAWLED HALF NEKKID ON A BED, COUCH, CHAIR, KITCHEN COUNTER, TOILET SEAT, OR IN FRONT OF A FULL LENGHT MIRROR. I AM AMAZED, BUT ALSO REALLY REALLY SAD, CAUSE I MISS ALL THAT OTHER STUFF. IT'S JUST STRANGE....PEACE OUT AND SHIT ALL.-BILL P.S. NEKKID.

Sickness
well lets see im sick it sucks i hate it . i am bored out of my midn as always. this is my first blog on here. wish i had something interesting to say but im kind of a boring person . so hmmm what to talk about . well i have 3 days off well 2 now. work sucks so much. i work with this guy who i cant stand and wish i could beat the hell out of . but i dont want to lose my job . soo i guess that all for now peace trevor

Started A New Job
I started a new job today. I havent been working for awhile but I thought it was about time that I go out and try something. I would have thought that doing something as menial as washing dishes and clearing tables would have been boring and depressing but it was a lot of fun and got me out of the house doing something. It also helps me keep my mind off the baby. I KNOW that we can also use the extra money around here. Well thanks for stopping by. Angie

Got It Again
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! ok here we go.... 1.I need to sleep with my feet uncoverd,,,lol 2.I am not afraid of much at all just a long painful death. 3.I drink like 4 gallons of water everyday,,,love my water 4.Me and my sister go to the candle isle and smell all the candles , but when we sniff one that smells bad we are done. 5.I need to put coca butter on every night. 6. I have a jar of pennies i found all over the place like the street and stores saved after my brother ,,,you know pennies from heaven now i will tag hmmmmmmm ,, Kim , sexman60,Timmy, Jen-Jen, Blaze is bored as hell and Bo

What Do You Think??
its been 11 minutiez..time passes so fast im praying for someone to her me before i collapse no one knows all that i been through. you think i want pity shows how much you know.. i dont want nuthin from you.. you mean nuthin.. cant wait till you get here.. so i can tell you everything ive benn thinkin you lied to me i hate you no one knows that it was you... you caused me to hate... you caused me to love.. you caued me to give birth.. i hate you.. know one knows... about the shit i take.. because i love you... ITS YOU I HATE>> someone pls help me....!!!???

Dirty Old Men.
just to let you know - i'm new to this. if you can't tell, then that's good on my part. i'm dead tired & it's the middle of the night. but once again i've been awoken by the screaming cries of an infant. finally got him fed & now he's refusing to go back to sleep, so i must sit here & keep myself awake by hanging out on lost cherry getting added to lists of dirty old men. didn't think i could still be so attractive after stating that i was engaged & had 2 children. :: sigh :: i guess that's what i get for hoping. & apparently realizing that some people are just that desperate. anyways - just really wanted to test this out. so for now, i'm done.

Aight.
MADE IT TO WASTED, AND THIS IS WHERE I WANT TO STOP. DON'T WANT TO LEVEL UP ANYMORE JUST WANNA BE WASTED. IT'S FUN, IT'S EXCITING, IT'S NO WHERE NEAR BETTER THEN HARDCORE SEX WITH A SMOKING HOT CHICK, BUT IT'S PRETTY DAMN KEWL. PEACE OUT AND SHIT PEOPLE.-P.S. NEKKID.

Last One
The days that have gone are nothing more than a blur, but with this bottle in my hand i think that i have found a cure. A cure for the problems before and for the problems to come. But there is a pain that no drink can cure, no pill can ease. For that pain is an empty heart, the kind when you begin to lose feelings for everything that is at hand and of anything that could be in the future. But to confuse the mind and with the thought of happiness there is always another bottle to help me through.Yet when all regrets from the bottle wear off there is still a pain that is causing you to question yourself about loneliness. Even with everyone around you are still lonely and yurning for someone to rescue you from the emptiness of your heart as it begins to eat away at your soul. so day after day you begin to look to the bottle as a friend that is there for advice, a friend that would be there to bring you happiness but yet you are still there alone. Once the bottle begins to take control yo

One More After This And I'm Done
With feelings so strong But miles apart To be thinking of each other And to be in each others heart For days to come and days to go To know that there is love starting to grow For years to come in each others arms I promise to be there and keep you safe from harm To be there just to see the smile on your face And to see your beauty covered in lace For the words to come so sacred and true I will say them all through and through For when the big day is finally here To have our friends and family near With the special time for us to share We will share our love and know we care What I wouldn't give to have it all And enjoy the sight as your clothes fall For the time is coming till we meet again To have you with me till the end With the good times that we had are in the past I want you to know that there are more to come and some to last

And Another
The sky has been gray, the sky has been dark While I've been thinking about our time apart The times of good, the times of bad Some made me happy, while others made me mad With the thought of the future that lies ahead Thats what helps get me out of bed For the day that I return is not to far For i miss my friends, my family, and my car With the time to come what will it bring Fame, Fortune, or maybe pain No way to tell untill it comes Under bright moons and many suns With the past that we had, it happened so fast Nothing more to wonder than how long will it last With the way that it came, all pleasure no pain Now all that I do is sit and think in the rain Of the times we had some pleasant and true And even of the one from when I made you blue So how can we judge the future from the times that we had When what we think is good could turn out to be bad Most things like this talk of the breaking heart And things of good that turn around and fall apart

Bedtime Release
My honeybaby's birthday has now come and gone. I still wish I could have spent it with him, but I do at least take comfort in the fact that I know he enjoyed himself. He has had a very good time with Nikki and Bill and I am so glad that he got to go meet them in person though I have truly missed him so much this week from all the hours he had to put in in such a short time. What would I ever do without him? I never ever want to know........... It has been a long stressing week here. I imagine they are only going to get more stressful as my time to leave creeps slowly closer. It just seems like the closer to November we come the harder it is for DJ and I to even be able to speak to each other without a confrontation of some kind. I had agreed to wait for 6 months before filing our divorce papers, but I truly don't feel there is a point. We both know it is over. I just wish he could accept it better than he seems to be. God knows I wasn't trying to hurt him I just have to get out.

Another Old One
The past is now gone, as the future grows near To have you in my life, I would have nothing to fear For the sounds of little feet running down the hall That is what I want, yes I want it all All the times that you smile, all the times that you cry I just want you to know that I am by your side For the times that are happy, and the ones that are sad To be a good man even when i am mad For the times that you wake up full of fear I wanna be the one that is there to wipe away your tear

An Old Writing, Just Lookin For Some Feedback
Once again alone i sit with nothing to comfort me but the beat of my own heart. Will we ever find our way back? Not just back to each other but back to the way that everything was before we parted. The freedom to just sit around and talk or just to drop everything and go for a walk.I would give anything just to feel her warm touch just one more time, yet i know that she is on the other end of the line. Knowing that she is wanting the same as I. So how could something seem so simple yet be so hard, or when you try so hard you are only turned down. To make the possible seem as the impossible, or the reachable the unreachable. But when the place to start is no further than in your heart. When you look deep inside and learn what is missing then you have found a guide. When a lesson to learn is yet to be taken then you have nothing more than to fight with yourself. Not with her but with yourself, since it is you that has a problem with you. No matter how much love you are trying to give to

Let It Snow
Crystal creations Soft and sweet. Not quite rain Falling on my feet. Up and down from side to side. So they can float so they can glide. Trying to fill the new day So new, so fresh Frozen revolutions So white and gay. Such a splendor But will never win Warming the heart But freezing the skin.

Poor Man's Stones 4/7/06
the game of lies is often played with cunning and wit polish the stones of a poor man's life with a cloth and spit ive seen many things both good and bad ive never had anyone care about anything ive had am i a beast or am i a devil or am i just me time heals old wounds that soon cannot be seen its now mid day and i smile as i walk toward the sun I turn my head and never look back and now i just move on

Writing
on this cold lonesome night by myself with my radio, I can't help but wonder what she's doin now. As the thoughts come in of days of our past, Showing all of the good memories and how we hoped they would last. since these days there has been nothing but pain, for when the time comes for me to travel home the pain will be gone and my thoughts can roam. The most pain comes not from thoughts but from forgetting, the pain from forgetting what it feels like to be lying by her side, forgetting the feel of her skin and the softness of her touch,and the sweetness in her kiss. From day to day you begin to forget more and more until it all feels as if it was just a dream. A dream that was ment to pass, but felt as real as another day. What would happen if we both forgot what it was like to be together,

New York's Alright, If You Like Saxophones - Part 1
So I fly out to NY for a buddy's wedding. I mean, he's way cool and all, but I hate weddings. Oh yeah, I hate NY, too. Of course I agree to come out and then he drops me the bomb, "dude, it would mean a lot to me if you would be in my wedding". Cool. No prob. I hate weddings. I hate NY. I hate the thought of being in a tux in the wedding party. But I really like my friend, so of course I'll do it. AA gets delayed in St. Louis (a dirty shithole of an airport), so now I get into NY at 11:15 and miss the last shuttle to BFE. The last $60 shuttle, that is. Town cars are $130. No time to wait, so I hop a taxi and start haggling. The driver wants to charge me $192 according to his book. I want to pay less according to my middle finger. We settle on $120. 45 miles total, should take an hour. 1 hour 45 minutes later we get to the hotel. Jackass taxi gimp keeps getting lost, despite me calling the place and giving him directions. Whatever. 2AM local time and I am heading to bed. 35 degrees and

Nevermind Never Land
Nevermind Neverland six years old sititng in front of the tv movie on the screen a few words and i was sold nver have to grow up never have to pay bills never need a job never have to clean never have to worry about the news lets go to neverland sprinkle the pixie dust happy thoughts lets fly away lets go to neverland here's my exteneded hand lets go and join peter pan on his flight to neverland its been a few years stillin front of the Tv pirates and mermaids on the screen just a few more added tears so much i've seen so much has been done so much has changed so much has been said so much can never go back nevermind neverland its time to grow up now the real world is calling its voice strong saying its time to put away dreams time to join the real world letting your imagination be dulled never mind neverland's lull Never mind neverland leave the pixie dust at home happy thoughts have faded no more pretending to fly nevermind nev

Motherless Weekend
friday night and thomas has SAT tomorrow. lol a bunch of kids were freakin out about it today and all i could do was just sit there and laugh at them (i'm not takin it again). i got a 1070 the first time i took the SAT (not the PSAT). i didnt even call brittany cuz i didnt feel like dealin wit deciding when to leave and havin to shower and stuff. PLUS my cell died at the beginning of the day. everyone is talkin about college. it's the only thing i'm ever asked about, or am talked to about. this one girl in my grade, hannah has gotten to be a real bitch about it. she's drivin everyone crazy; me, thomas, zack...as far as our group goes, that's all i know. she sees me and doesnt even say hi anymore but gives me some useless info that i dont care about. the past couple of weeks, she's walked by me and said something like "i got a 25 on my ACT!" and "wheaton is my fallback school." not to be mean, but honestly, i dont give a flyin shit about it and i shot her down a couple of t

What The Fuck?!
YOU ARE AN UGLY FAT FUCKER......SHOW SUM FUCKIN TITS OR PUSSY OR SOMETHING.....YOUR FACE IS FUCKIN FUGLY....UGLY MOTHER FUCKER.... Is what a male said to a woman... What ever happened to be a gentleman?! God... what an asshole...

For Those Who Care
Yeah well except for one or two of you, I'd thought I'd give you a heads up.. Dragon ain't doing so hot at this moment.. I have been dealing with the fall out as my parents head down the road for divorce.. And it looks like unlike mine this one is going to get ugly... So I just kind of ask that my friends keep me in thier prayers and thoughts, like I'd do for you if asked... Well to those I care about. Love you.. To those that are my friends, Big Hugs.. I am here, and I will servive.. But I thought there where some that deserved to know what was going on and why I maybe acting funny and where to afraid to ask.

"l"
Lets talk about the “L” word for a minute. Everyone has their own ideas on what “L” means. And to a degree Im sure it is more than adequate to suit their needs. But in reality “L” in itself is a lot more than a feeling. It is an action, a devotion. The caring for someone or something completely. If it is for someone, it means caring for that persons mental, physical and spiritual well being. It means acting “L” ing toward that person even when you aren’t in the mood for it, or feel like you are too busy. It means showing loyalty and respect, even adoration. Now when you have those “lala” feelings towards that person, its easy. But there comes a time (and trust me on this I was married once) when you look at them and think “Oh God, my life is over, WTF have I done?!?!?!” but those feelings pass and it gets better. I think a serious mistake I have always made was to “L” freely no matter what. Sure, as far as the text book definition I was doing it right. But in reality, it is way wron

The Pains Of Pleasure
I feel the morning coming on the walls closing in time for saints and sinners alike to sin numbing your mind with the vices of life center stage songs played another round for everyone last one for the night food is cold sit down to eat watch the show clothes unfold naked desire in heat showing your body for our pleasure no dignity left just the pains of pleasure

To The One I Hurt.. And The One I Love...
Most days as a joke to day was a day my life changed for the worse as i droped a comment and kill my man.... I wrote something as a joke .. NOT thinking.. not knowin.. IT wouldn't be a joke... I kill the one i love so much.. that has my heart up into my throat... Not able to breath not able to live.... I can't help but, feel like a stupid bitch.. when all i should have seen ... What i got. was to good to be true.. MOST GURLS would have died to just have a piece too... I'm lucky i guess i still get to chat.. but, i feel so bad.. SMACK SMACK**.. To everyone there don't loose your sight.. when you love someone dear and close to your heart.. MAKE sure you shut up and Keep on track.. Don't fuck you.. and NEVER look back... Keep your head high and remember to keep straight... FORGIVE me babe... I don't know what to do.. I turn to you to make me laugh, and wipe my tears, hold me close and say im forever yours.. I know i hurt you.. and i say to day.. FUCK EVERYTHING... I'm yours till the end..

Fucking Mania!
I cant stop spending money.. its on stuff that we *need* but I can tell its manic shopping....Im going to end up spending money we dont have to spend...feck... Im back to doing the ... dot thing too much...I bought blood red hair dye...and stuff to sell on ebay... and jeans for me...and jeans for felix...gah make the mania go away! I'll give you a cookie!

There Isnt One..
OK.. im Only going to Make this short!! Why Is it Everytime i meet someone,things go good for a week or so and then it gets all fucked up?!! guess when i mess things up with someone i do it good... Dont you agree?

The Reason That I Am Here..
is only one: To promote my bizzes. I know that most of you come here for other "purposes",but mine is solely to give you an Opportunity to see what is on the other side of the world. Now, some of you may be so young that the only thing you have on your mind is a good time. Well, let me tell you and some of you know this intuitively, it don't feed your face. No matter how "hot,sauve,sexy,fine,cute,sassy" or whatever else you want to call yourself, it does not negate the fact that you need a little more than that to make it in this world. That is why I am here. To give you an Opportunity to look at something else besides a Bod part or suggestive "whatever". If you don't like what I have to offer, my sincerest and deepest apology,but I am still here to Sell,sell, SELL! Want to take a look? http://chocolate.ZooLoot.com/how-it-works.php?ref_no=4121862205308 http://www.FreeCardMatrix.com/referal.aspx?refid=MrMillionaire http://www.CafePress.com/MrOHenry007 http://www.CoffeeT

Memories...
As everyone knows I have a horrible memory, so much so I do not remember most of my lifetime. However I ahve been doing alot of thinking lately and I realize that sometimes wether a memory is good or bad is irrelivant in that its still a reminder of the past. I don't want to be reminded of the past anymore, I'm just trying to rebuild myself again. Funny how every 5 years or so i have to do that...anyway so today as I was recanting some old memories both pleasurable and painful I decided that a good step in the right direction would be to clear all my in boxes. So as of today all my previous messages that I enjoyed (in any way shape or form cause sometimes pain can be a helpful reminder to us) have been erased. Deep thinking has sometimes been reffered to as one of my few strong points. Here's to hoping you don't need a new year to start over...may old acquaintance be forgotten and may my soul find some solice.

Just Asking
Hey peeps, I just want to ask a simple, well maybe not so simple, ?. I have a guy friend, that said he wouldn't date me because of the fact that I have my ass shining on this site. Now, would it bother any of you guys if say, I started dating one of you, and someone came up and said to me, Hey I've seen your ass!? I mean just because there is a pic on here doesn't really mean anything does it, or is it not a good thing if I'm looking for a long term relationship? any imput you have on this would be a big help to me. Cuz now I feel like maybe I'm not dating material. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Love to all!!

Ive Been Tagged Now They Have Too :p
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1: I Drink to much coffee 2: I hate wearing clothes of an evening when chillin 3: Ive gotta have my daily Mcdonalds treat lol sex is like McDonalds im lovin it isnt that what the say ;) 4: I hate FAKE people,MEMEME people and liars on the net. 5: I hate microwave meals cause ya know when ya put the right time in and ya take it out its still gonna be cold in middle and ya still taste to make sure lol 6: Im allways checking things twice like the oven plugs ect when im going out or just finished cooking tomake sure everythings ok my worst thing ido I tag Kel Kalin Sweetthing Miz Anna Narco

Bob
I fucking hate bob.. hes a moron hes crude rude and intolerable.. i hope he gets arrested agian.. and you know the next time the cops come here for his bail.. you know i will not give it to them... ill tell them to let him rot in there.. see last time i was 8 months preg and i got a call at 3:30 in the morn to go outside and wait for murray to show up to get bobs bail money.. i told officer murray to keep him.. he sai dhe couldnt without a warrant.. so i told him to call his probation officer and i bet he would get him one.. i think that bob needs a good ass kicking.. No one especially not me wants to hear about the girls matt fucked before me and where.. duh.. i dont tell them about who i fucked and where and how much fun it was.. cause if i did i think i would be single!! i hope bob chokes on his own over drinking vomit and choke and die.. i guess im a mean bitch but honestly i cant stand that piece of shit.. i really cant.. i guess that is enough ranting from a drunken me for now..

So Your Gonna Kill Me Huh?
Title says it all..well this person thinks they know more than I do, and that they can...I Know they can't..they have no idea what they are talking about..Also I AM NOT THE ONE WHO IS TALKING TO YOU I DON'T FUCKING WANT TO NOW STOP YOUR SHIT...I don't give a damn what you think about me leave my fucking friends alone..keep it up and something will happen..I have warned you..now heed it!!!!!!!!!!!

Dreamer
Who I'd like to meet: My someone!!!! I want a someone who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. Hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. A pretty boy.. But not so pretty that I feel awkward. Someone who would think I was beautiful if I dressed so trashy it was classy. Someone who would sing to me at random moments. Who would let me sleep on their chest. Someone who is more goofy then romantic. Someone who is the smile on my face the life in my heart and the light in my life. Someone who I can be my stupid self around and when I say something so dumb he would kiss me to make me shut up, but knows the right thing to say and do at the right times. A guy who would beat the crap out of someone if they called me fat. I want someone who would call me three times a day if he went away. He would apologize for calling to much, and no matter how many times I tell him it's okay, he still does it-and I don't get sick of it. We would bet kisses on who could

I Dream Of You . . .
I dream of you all day. To feel your tough touch. the fold of your lips grip my shoulders keep me here I don't want to run, but I might have to. The power inside you scares me Press me against you and the wall, keep me how you want me. Wrap me in your satin desire, bind me with the ropes of your will. grounded by you and the river of desire inside. My heart beats fast against you. I am scared but I am filled with want. Make me as bold as you, comfortable with our longing My body and mind begging please take me, have me. I am your slave, You are the mast of desire. I am your to alter. Hands play me like a childs toy. Inside I sing, held to you. the only place i want to be You've become my home. The place where I seek, Even when I am in a crowd.

The Music Fades
When the night falls the music flows like liquid silver into the children of the night, into the animal, into the gypsies. Each have the motivation Each flavors the night. A different feel for the same music. I am new to the night. The flow is intoxicating, and as a youth I over indulge. I dance till I could drop. But you are proud, Your little night time pet, has a new gift. I can dance in all the ways. I have the color of the gypsies, the grace and sleek of the animals the prowess and innocence of the children of the night. To the night I add. You little hybrid adds the demon or the monster. The dance is all the same but the power changes. And I dance in the night. flooded with borrowed music and then at dawn I am still then the music fades, and I sleep

The Storm
I am going to vomit! my throat hurts. I scream in the night. The sick feeling comes again. its the trigger of you I feel the panic, and close my eyes tight. Clutching at my security blanket. I hide in the closet of my mind. my own horror movie. I can hear you getting close. I hold my breath. The pounding of my heart drowns. close my eyes tight. I can feel my mind pray. When you near where I hide, I crawl further away. Prayer turn to mental pleads The Door opens. I shrink away. Why do I hide, you'll always find me. Then before I can scream. I am lost in the blinding light; the light of your anger. When I wake, broken and stiff, the cycle starts over again. The Calm, The Sick, The Storm.

Free Dome Of The Soul
Wrap me in silicon wet dreams. You want to fuck me, but you cannot do that behind a mask. I am your tantric dancer, bare and naked, all before the sight of you electric eye. Reach to touch the white, Shift and move before me, I am watching you, rings of fire to capture and burn your pressence. I dance before the sight of god and man alike. you dance internal. Sway with me, you are hidden. Where as I am bold and bare in my steps, you hide inside the movements, like waves upon the shore. Washing away any trace. One day you will try to wash me away. But I am stone. My bare face, green eyes keep me secure. You lust what you want in me. Freedom of the soul.

Vessel Of Hope
Rain washing down my skin, like gods tears to betray my sin. I have left anothe broken, breaking myself in the process. And here I am, naked in the death of my love. I have riden my grief to this spot. Where here I comune with the gods. Here where I seek solice for my life. I am who I am to save pain. But currenly I am my own death. Broken inside and bold in the rain. The water to wash away my grief, Delivers me to a peace unknown. No man or woman knows this power. To be with only the dead My jury and crying judge. he does not mourn the heart broken. He mourns my own. We do not weep for the false coin of his love. We mourn the inability in me. His one mistaken child. An Angel of innocence internal. Cry with me people, for I might leave them behind. I do so out of love. To keep me is to witness the plauge. I am riddled with my own guilt. Scars of my internal judgement. And again I turn my face skyward. I beseach you my god, take this from me, burn me with

Course Finished.
Maybe not Blog-worthy. However, I finally finished the 3 week security training course I was going through. I am now ready to relax. Enough of the defense tactics for now. No more pepper spray (thank god. that shit burns like hell). We did our final evaluation this morning. I think this was the first time I wished it was a written exam. We all passed though. Now that I am done with my nap, I am going to relax on the couch drinking White Russians and watch a movie. Anyone care to join? :)

Ten Minutes Too Late
I weep and scream. I claw my skin raw. I bleed and die. My hair is torn from my head. No I am not crazed, or at least i wasn't. the abilty of my words is fading. I do not meet with your approval. You mean shit to me. Fuck you and your judgement. I need to write for me. Without it I am driven to blood. To bleed the hurt out of me, to feel something besides the flow of ink and blood are linked. The two could kill me I choose the ink. Write damn you write. I cannot be stonic and still. I could die, prove you live. HEART BEAT. I am paniced and crying. PLEASE do not leave me skills. My hands grow weak. Cut arms cannot hold the pen. If you push down too hard, you slice the muscles. I read that somewhere. then it hits. Inspiration, hard between the chest. My reason to live Ten minutes too late.

Words Unsaid
I meet you eye for eye, strength for strength. green and fire, locked to your face. I have no desire for your romance. I know the squirming truth, I am, and have been better then you. The feeling of the internal music, drives me to move. You think I dance for you. The rock of my hips, the twist of my waist. Standing on your table, my own platform. I am calling out my own fire, Rocking, dancing, bold and beautiful. Eyes on your eyes. Strength growing. Sink to my knees before you. You smile, think you have won. Wrong. The sudden rush of the knife, words unsaid scream in silence. All around you, your world shatters likeso much glass. Mi amor, no me sale. Usted Es mi mundo. My hand twists the knife spins, you die of your own game. Must have been funny a tale. to tell in hell

Midnight Walks
I wrap myself in warm black velvet, the memory of your touch. Skin scented with you. All free thought is gone. Only the memory of you. Dressed in only the velvet I walk. Long dark streets, wet with fallen rain. Moon my guard. bare feet whisper over the pavement. No make up, no mask. Just me and the velvet of your remembered touch. A cloak borrowed and savored touch. I am beautiful like this. Bold and searching you. to be with you. Take this night and damn the day. turning learned streets. Some watch, others smile, they know this silent search, having done it themselves before. white skin, cool wind. And your door. Ring the bell and there you are. Arms drop the velvet wrapped around me. And I am covered by your arms. Only then I smile.

Hope Shattered
Another burn, my broken heart, lessones hardly learned. Pain. Angry at my reflection. tears swallowed turn my eyes red. Know your friends. They are the true enemy, becaue you never see it coming. faith is blind, hope is my blindfold. My innocence is my downfall. This reality has been a long time coming. Hands grip the vanity, green-gold eyes burn, blurr the image in the mirror. Young and restless. I could hate you, or hate myself, for not seeing the game. I can trace a tree, people taken the looks in these eyes. They saw what I hid. The pain, The searching, the want to be loved. I refuse your games. Sit upright, look into your eyes. The line starts with me. Fist pulls back meets the mirror and with a shatter. the image is gone. No more innocence. No more games. Hunting season is done. I am gunning down my innocence, My hope lay shattered, dripping with my own blood. the spider cracks, across my face. And at last there is peace.

Forever
Forever is perception shattered. Deep inside resides all the kingdoms, Of heaven, of hell, of earth. Not yet a god, but more then man. Untested and unwilling to rise. Convient and cute. I do not have drama, I have matching luggage. I was never as sure as you were. And I am often alone, staring into my own purple sky. Don't wake me, I am dreaming. Dreaming of forever, my forever. Deep inside in my castles, carved from the salt of my tears. Tears I weep for society. These arms wide open to hold it all. Make it all go away, and everything alright. I am dying, but I am still strong. Never under estimate me. next time it might be your downfall. You see a girl. Short hair, green gold eyes. But in those eyes, is forever. A link to yet a still unwilling innocent soul. Shattered and reglued. I am not humpty dumpty, I can be put back together.

God's Own Soul Meets Mother Nature
Stars crash in the sea of my imagination. Eyes gaze the skys for my god. Have I been forgotten. Another lost soul,. how cliched. I am not someone to assume I am forgotten. I am too great, No that is not ego, that is faith. He had a plan for me, that is why I am here. I know my lessons learned hard over years. I learned love, as well as hate. You have turned your back on me, called me "helpless" I am not. I just refuse to help those, who cannot help themselves. I cannot save you, you cannot save me. We have to save ourselves. Shooting stars, full moon. the ocean licking my toes. Keeps me grounded to the mother earth. My only mother. the only one I know in physical form. I worship her as a teen age daughter does. Boldly with unflinching adoration in my eyes. I am surrounded by her nature. Watching her show. Stars darting across the night sky. My peace before the storm of the soul. God Grant me the serenity I see here now. I carry it always in me. How I

How To Know I Love You.
My eyes scan your face. My hand touches your skin. I confide in you alone. I live for you. Awakened by your pressence. As if only you can keep me breathing. This is the way i say I need you. My soft unsaid things. I never thought I could hurt so much, just for lack of you. The breathing hurts. Crawling would be bliss. To fall into your soul and live there. THis is the way I say I love you. I secretly love you, silently in my heart. Nothing said, we both know. Ours hands touch as we walk. this is the way I say I am yours. A moment stolen from reality. And I know I cannot back up my love. I cannot give you the happy ending. And with that I push you away. I send you all the wiser out. And the sky thunders of my head. I change on purpose. This is how you know I love you for real.

Perfection
Eyes the same color of a turbulant ocean. Green blue, and hinted with gold. The ring of fire suggest the inner power. Strength to raise the dead, and comfort the living. these eyes see you. watch you as your hand touches my face. The hard shell washes away, and before you I am bared. naked in spirit. Yours to hold. I savior this touch, wanting it so much, feeling it with more then just my skin. I stand as I am. No mask, no games. Shown the sensative soul, The meeting of lips, sounds of fireworks in my head. I could love you forever if I was weak. And all I want Is what we are right now. Nothing hidden. cannot fight it. I desire you, With my name on your lips. My hands learn you at your comand. A goddess in public, I become your student. I want nothing more then to be here. Here with you, You with me. This moment is perfection

Your Honor
You promised to protect my heart, but you are whom now it needs protection from. I trusted the faith in your eyes, the confidence in your touch. So when it was you who laid me low. I find that i am not as low as I could be. When before this would have sent me to the floor. I find I am still standing. Cynicism has taken home. I guess I knew all along. You were the base that drives out the good. The weak gold to my platnum. I am not laid low by your betrayal. In fact I pitty you for it. Cause it is with it you loose. Not just me, and whatver I was to you, but you cost yourself the one thing you held dear. your honor.

The Silence Of Pain
Right now, my heart is in my bone hands. I am not asking you to move. But right now you could save my life. It was so simple. I left it wide open for you. And then it fell. Shattering at my feet. The devistating sound of my tears. All done with a sigh and an "I don't know" Green eyes look at you, and I am left as I was before, lied to , hurt, and only myself to blame. You could have saved my life tonight. Instead you listened to the radio, Left me alone with glass shard tears. Each one screamed your name. All to the silence of my pain.

The Internal Winter
I need the silence of my pain, I have written words upon words. Silly me, save them for here. Saying them only exposes you to their scorn. you were never worth the trouble. So I sit lost in the water, drifting on the wind. Breathing. It takes so much effort to hold the world up. No one knows how hard, it can really be, being strong. I need to be less. To blurr between the lines. To not be seen. Where I am at peace. then to lay back, wrapped in spiders silk, and await the approaching fall. Letting the leaves burry me. Hide me from the cold. Lay down and listen, I can hear winter calling me already. I need the quiet of winter right now. the internal winter is growing too bitter.

Emotional Super Highway
I lay on the highway of emotions. Between the lines of yellow. Small and insignificant. Trapped. The emotions roar past me. terrofing me. Was I weaker I would be in one of those. But I find more often then not. The emotions are faked answer. A shadow of what i am supposed to feel. Or is all that wishful thinking. Dressed in a black dress. Arms on either yellow slash of danger. One way or the other, I could be trampled under the rush. One emotion could crush me. While others hold the speeding things within. Mine are bigger then I like to admit. But are they shadows of what I feel, or are they true monsters. The questions keep me still. A small emotional suicide waiting to happen. Still, unsure, scared. Lost and unmoved. If I close my eyes I am back to center. But still the question remains. Do I feel because I feel or do I feel becasue I should feel.

Info About Me!
Lets see...I am 20 years old. I am engaged to Curtis Kelley. He is in the military and over seas..I cant wait till he is home. I am going to college at savannah tech. I love it! I never thougth i would say that, but its the best thing i have ever done. I have 4 tatts and 9 pericings: star tatts on my ankles, chines symbol on my right arm, and the gemini sign on my upper back.. viper bit on my lip, tonuge ring, two in left ear, both ears gaged to 12, and my nipples. Yea thats great! I am getting married on Aug 4th, 2007. I have been working hard at school and trying to get my wedding planed out. So far i have everything picked out and only my invitations bought. Sad....I know.....I have a brother that is 9 and a step sister that is 12. I am orignaly from Rockford, ILL. I am soooooooooooo glad i dont live there anymore. My step dad has been in the military since i was 13. So yes i am a military brat and i love every second of it! I have two best friends. Nicki and Tara...I love those gir

The Dance Of Order In Death
They burried him with honor. Flags and shinning trumpets. Silence is all I hear from where I stand. Another fallen hero. Another weeping widdow. All the color and honor due. But I cannot see the snappy uniform. The well done arrangements. Its the peace I see in the musical movements. Every step had to be well planned. For one mistake and the whole image would crack. Hidden wiping of eyes. White roses on a cherry coffin. The last kiss goodbye. Taps. The feeling of watching someone private life. The strange remorse I cannot place. I close my eyes. I know these images, The funeral dance, the beauty of consistancy. Ten feet away, and behind a building, another ceremony starts as this one ends. The same honor. Do those involved, the leaders of the dance, the musicians. Do they feel the extinguishing of the light. Do they know the end of a dance for someone? Or is it just another parlor trick turned. Another moment, like so many mundane ones we take, that get

Please
Touch me, deliver me from my flesh. Taste of me and feed me that desire. That you have been so coldly kept. Make me into your form, bend me and reshape. lay me before your hungry eyes, and all my lust is yours to take. I want only your mouth hot against my skin the feel of your touch, and this is how it begins. I bend to your will, and want only to please. so I kiss you slowly, as I fall to my knees. Let me taste you, and know you with blind eyes, to show you the want of my body, and love hidden deep inside. Bend me, lay me, Anything you want. Press me against the table, hold me against your front. Whatever you desire, I give it with open arms. and kiss away the nightmares. and seek solice from the charms. You are my magic, kept secret in this night, and till we both lay broken, given up of lovers fight. I want to be spent, and given totally to you. and in the morning to church, we'll be forgiven for what we do.

I Am Waiting
Your lingering spirit haunts me. So close to the mind, so far from the tactile touch. A stronger person would live, forever feasting on the mind. But i need more. I am selfish. It is said females are frustrating. I think it is girls. Women are more direct. They can say what they want. I was never much of a girl. I want you. Not this idea of you, A memory of a touch., the whisper of an accent. Oh god, when I close my eyes, I can still remember your accent. I cry when I rememeber it. For years I could barely remember the sound. Now when I close my eyes it's all there. And the wounds bleed fresh. I do not mourn your death, I weep for the loss of the world. I remember kissing you till I was dizzy. We spoke of life, of dreams. We never thought for a minute, that it was all borrowed time. I was a fool, but I am stronger knowing, I love you, You loved me. But I still want you here. I feel you sometimes, when I sit by the water, in winter. I know your ther

Bunnski Tagged Me
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. If I am people usually can't tell 2. I like to play with fire 3. I dont like people who are really annoying 4. I make my bed when i want to 5. I buy and sell Wheat Penni on ebay 6. I go to bed when IU want but I get enough sleep if I have to work the next day And i tag: K-K 87 bunnski Woosah Narcoleptic

Some Things We Just Don't Want To Do
Have you ever had to make a choice that you didn't want to do but felt like you had no choice in the matter and it made you angry? Well this year has been nothing but hard for me in many ways it started in April when I went to see the birth of my great niece. Which I do not regret doing but unfornately I left my kids with my ex. Well we got stuck in California for a month and while there my ex was pulling some shit and my dad was diagnosed with brain cancer. When I came back not only dealing with the fact that my dad was ill and was dying but my ex told me that he was keeping my boys and they were going to be living with him because I was wrong for being stuck in California. Well they stayed with me dispite what he said at that time. He then told me I had to make a decision within a certain time period and it was lose my boys to him or get back together with him he had it all planned out. Due to the fact I had been out of work since January and still no job, and being stuck in Califo

Friday The 13th
Today was fucked up. I felt like I was drunk all day... Yes, I did go out for drinks last night, but that isn't even why. I just felt out of it. I felt as if someone had slipped a drug into my system. It was such an off day. I've been randomly falling asleep, and it scares the hell out of me. I literally fell asleep on my books the other day. And I've fallen down because I was suddenly tired.... I think I need to see a doctor... I went to work tonight, and I really couldn't tell you what happened. I'm not sure how the food made it to the tables, and I don't remember having many tables... but when I was checking out, apparently I was busting my ass all night... but I can't remember it. I made pretty good money... averaged almost $17/hr. I feel like I'm falling apart. I REALLY need Russell to be here for me right now, and he just doesn't understand how important it is to me. All he knows is that he's mad at me, and it's my fault.... but I'm fucking hurting on s

Dont Watch If You Are Weak Hearted...this Is Some Scarey Shit...
This is a car advertisement from. When they finished filming the ad, the film editor noticed something moving along the side of the car, like a ghostly white mist. They found out that a person had been killed a year earlier in that exact same spot. The ad was never put on TV because of the unexplained ghostly phenomenon. Watch the front end of the car as it clears the trees in the middle of the screen and you'll see the white mist crossing in front of the car then following it along the road....Spooky! Is it a ghost, or is it simply mist? You decide. If you listen to the ad you'll even hear the cameraman whispering in the background about it near the end of the commercial.

I Love It.... Hee Hee
Current mood: cheerful OK .... ever notice how you can write something and not put a name in there and all of a sudden you have everyone asking you was it me? If you read my earlier blogs you saw i was mad and ranting about one erson that I thought was a friend turns out they weren't..Well in the blog I said I ripped him a new one and I cussed him out.. and the second blog said I got a formal apology.... hee hee this is funny all day people have been coming on saying was it me?? So let me set the record straight.. if I didn't cuss ya and you didn't apologize it wasn't you.. and to all those that have sent me the are you ok messages thank you!!!! ANd for that one that said if I wasn't disrespecting my husband and starting trouble... I wouldn't have any.. you don't know me.. I have never talked to you. Your comment was uncalled for.. I respect my husband very much.. why do you think it is I lose friends... if i was disrespectin my hubby I would still have all the f

Was Good For A Minute......
Fucking day..... Night time is worse. Can't stand to hear them. They don't know what they have. Don't want to be here. Just leave me alone for a minute. Stop knocking at the door. Don't call the phone. I won't answer for you. Rather be alone than feel like this. Thought that things were looking up again. One month doesn't mean shit. Can't stand this feeling. Don't want to see it. Already told you that. Stop asking me. Just leave me alone for now. Won't last long. Sick of the anger. Fuck, I sound like her again. No wonder this is happening. Why is it like this? Just want to leave. No where to go but........... You can't stop me now.

Shocker!
smoking.. â€” Friday, October 13, 2006 Ya, know those patches people can get to quit smoking?? Well, it might be more helpfull you could get a microchip instead. And then everytime you smoked, it would shock you. I think it would be more effective. I was going to say a patch that shocked you, but then peopole would just get pissed off and take it off eventually. They could use that chip to help you get rid of anything you wanted to quit. Although now that I think about it, it reminds me of the v-chip thing in southpark where carmen gets shocked for swearing. People might put them in their kids, and do awefull stuff to them. So maybe it's not such a good idea.

Bunniski Tagged Me
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1: I eat a block of chocolate every single day. 2: I hate wearing clothes. 3: I care to much about people...think its the teacher/mum in me. 4: I hate FAKE people,MEMEME people and liars. 5: Socks annoy the crap outta me. 6: Cant help kissing my kids when they asleep,even though it usually wakes them up. I tag British Bulldog Donkeypuncha Elaine Outlaw Laceylane Damage

Please Help Me Out!!
Hey! If you haven't already, you should check out www.myYearbook.com. myYearbook has a ton of features that other sites don't have, like flirting and bullying and lockers we can use to share files with each other and all our friends. Plus, if we each invite a few people, we get a free t-shirt or thong! Make sure you click my link (or copy and paste the url!!!) Please help out!!! Its to get a free shirt!! Please I need lots of help thanks (http://www.myyearbook.com/join.php?ref=179984178) so I get credit for you. :) Jeannie

A Poem
here is a poem that I wanted to share I have a lot more but do not have them at this time I will share them when I get them back from my cousin. Sorrow Copy write of Trina Jensen Tears of sorrow downward flowfrom deep with in my very soul. My heart aches with sorrow from the things my eyes behold. Sold your very soul for the devilish thing that bag holds. Oh the sorrow thats deep inside my very soul Tears of sorrow downward flow that bag you hold has withered your very soul. I see your children hungry for food. Every dime you have spent on that devilish bag you hold. Tell me what do you have to show from that devilish thing that has taken your very soul. Your children have no parent to guide them .Tears of sorrow down ward flow. The baby is crying though your ears hear nothing as you sleep away the high you are partaken in. The oldest caring for the babies only 6 years of agea baby taking care of babies. Tears of sorrow down ward flow They cry cuz they are hu

Play The Game...
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I'm a pack rat...lol. 2. I've been in love with Cal Ripken Jr. since May 1982...if anyone out there knows him, give him my number...lol. 3. I'm a Catholic School Girl...no, I don't still have my uniform, you perv. 4. I was 19 when I lost my virginity...bet you were dying to know that one. 5. I LOVE the Washington Redskins...HAIL!! 6. I'm still looking for the man of my dreams. Okay, you 6 are next: Tricia blwnstang306 Freak Tester (love that name!!) TOYMAN marco p friskymichael

Update On My Dad
Well today we went to St.V's in Toledo and they told us he has 95% blockage so he is going to have to have triple by heart surgery this week just not sure yet what day so I will keep you all informed on whats going on with that. Thank you to who ever is praying for my family and I because right now we need as much prayer as we can get because you all know that we have been through alot this year so thank you very much who has been there for us and who has been praying for us we greatly appreciate it alot. Well all I am going to get off here and do some stuff to try and get my mind off of all this so I will talk to you all later. love u guys.

Summer Time Poem
Those sweet summer days we could walk hand-in-hand swam together in the sunlight and laid across the sand now the sunshine has disappeared the skies are all gray I walk alone and watch waves simply wash our time away Although circumstances has taken us out of reach I will never forget the summer We will always have the beach ~we will always have the beach~

Ahhaha Too Much!!!
oh my... what a pussy he is! now he's aww worried, look the message i got "Sorry, Maria you know things have gone away... you don't need to sick your friends on me. I knwo what happend between us was bad you don't need ot bring any one else into the mix.... if you do there will be a lot of trouble brewing on lost cherry." he's the one comming to sneak on my page, who tryed to mess with me again telling lies, and who let their "friends" go and rate my friends with 1... since he kicked me, i never went to look for him, nor i went to his page, or tryed to contact him... i never mentioned his name here either!!!!! oh my... only few of my friends know who he is, and now he tells me i'm on drama? excellent, because he's with that other girl, and still wanted to mess up with me... lol this is too much...

Tonights Ink Work...
Doc added the wording & finished all the shading tonight. FUK! i thought we'd add colors tonight but he had to cut it short. we add colors next wed. ink fan's, let me know what u think. if u want all the dtail about what u see & what they all mean, just ask. PEACE, mikey

Poetry.....
Instinct..... On one side of the river, I can see my other self It is the same me but... It is not who I am suppose to be Everyone is happy Everyone is glad But when I look at her, She is very sad. On the other side of the river, I am who I am suppose to be I am happy and glad Just to be me... But if I had one chance to do it again To take back the pain And the guilt I once had, I don't think I would give up what I already have. Because no matter what you do no matter where you go, you have to watch out for you. On the other side of the river, All is in the past. You have to decide how the time will last! TRUE LOVE Everyday is a special day for me. My hopes and dreams may come and go. My truest love may have been. But in this life I will not miss the greatest thing of all.... watching my children grow strong and tall. They are the light that shines on my path. They are the butter on my bread. Without them I will not be who I am. But I am not pe

Now
AS SOME OF YOU KNOW I TAKE MEDS FOR DEPRESSION. YES IM A DEPRESSED PERSON. SO DONT TAKE OFFENSE IF I COME ON HERE AND DONT SAY NOTHING TO ANY OF YOU. ITS JUST ME HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS AGAIN AND I HAVE THEM ALL THE TIME...HERE IS MY Horoscope FOR TODAY...GO FIGURE Uneasy feelings may be plaguing you throughout the day, dear Leo. There may appear to be no valid reason for this. Everything seems to be going well for you, and no one close to you has anything heavy going on. It's probably nothing earthshaking; you may just be picking up intuitively on the troubles and anxieties of people you pass on the street. Your intuition is high today, so you could psychically sense just about anything. Hang in there!

Damn It I Got Tagged!!! Ahhhhhh!!! Now Its Your Turn...tag You're It!!!
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. My first words were flock of birds but it sounded like "focker birds" 2. Earlier this year I wrote my will, but I am going to be chaning it soon. Yeah now thats WIERD!! 3. I can stay up and watch the moon all night, its very hypnotic...i LOVE the moon!! probably too much! 4. Guitar solos...complete turn ON!!! HELL A YES!!! 5. I sing along to my ipod all the time when I am on my own...but if i'm doing my ironing then theres very bad dancing going on too!!! 6. I can walk around my house at night with out turning the lights on, putting my glasses on or even opening my eyes. I know where everything is in my mind...odd i know but thats

Narco Tagged Me
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. If I am cold, then i fall asleep 2. I eat m&m's from blue to brown. 3. I dont like yellow or orange skittles or in runts. 4. I make my bed before I sleep in it. 5. I only date guys who look bad ass, but are big sweethearts. 6. I stay up late, but wake up early. And i tag: Crazy bob kel mcbratty Mcmigget k-k 87 kraker

B O N N I E A N D C L Y D E
BONNIE AND CLYDEYou sayYou wantSomething for freeDarlingI have EverythingIve ever worked forLike MeThere is always a priceAnd time is just a memoryWaiting to happenAnd love is just a silly circumstanceWe make into a millionSerious occasionsDont you thinkThis could be another great adventure?We could be piratesOr cannibalsOr pygmies in a circusPartnersTeam matesBonnie and ClydeYou take the shotgun and Ill load the 45Yeah, lets be that,Instead of what their telling usRoommatesStrangersVictims of our own creationsIve given you my heartThe rest of me tooThe scars are much heavier thanAnything elseThey hold water and resentmentAnd the love from anything that comes my waySo give it when you canIll take itAs much as I canAnd fire that fuckin shotgunI taught you how to use it, womanYou point it at what ever you fearAnd you pull the fuckin triggerAdventure sounds goodSo does the circusAnd pirates find goldAnd bury their treasureIm inFor lifeAre you in for life too?Come on, Pygmie!Theres only on

The Gun
THE GUNI have lived my lifegathering wounds78' was the first near fatal blast-in dank lockeroom sweet smelling sweatand it came from what I thought was aboveand behindand foreverand for something I did to someone I trustedno one seemed to notice but methe hole that it made inside methe vaccumethe violencethe violet of youth had suddenly wilted"Hey man, was that you?"is all that I mutteredand everyone stood on their soapbox and smiledand I felt like a clown without a circusagain.The next shot came sooner than I had expectedHalf my heartAnd most of my liverMy bloodMy breathingMy bones will not bendThey break when theyre testedThey have no giveNo compromise They are stiff and unforgiving because of that day.So I began to look upThe rooftops The treesYou were the enemyAnd you hid in metalAnd paperAnd woodAnd promises.I havent slept in 40 years.Because you are there And still they keep comingThe wounds are still mountingThe blood keeps on flowingIve formed my own riverbedTo move the blood a

Push
PUSH And she said You could be happy Fucker You could be Restrained You could be the next one in line To fall through To Bring you to my knees And make you Work Your Way Back Up To where you belong Then She Said , is this my finger on your trigger? Fucker Pushing Pulling Plucking You will choke until you swallow For I Have Followed Far too long To be denied The next turn in line I will not back down I will not love in vain I just needed somebody to push To see My Way Through To You Nodding off Buddy boy? You’ve got your finger on the trigger Got your trigger on my gun Pull me to oblivion Send me home I want to be At peace Now . . . . . . I’m all muddy in Milan And I can’t get clean. michaelxavier(MICHAEL XXX)

Tag I'm It
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. Hating Dustin for making me play will be my very first new habit. 2. I play video games way too much. 3. I work out at the gym 3 times a week. This is a new habit. 4. I'm a chat-whore. 5. I like to surf all the LC profiles when there isn't anything else to do checking out all the smut people post of themselves. Interesting what you find sometimes. 6. Lastly, but not least... another new habit of mine has been to talk to Jen as much as possible.

Happy Friday The 13th...
Today at work was a total bitch at first. My manager decided to move me to another place and I was cool with that at first. When I got there, the wasn't any PMO Manager in the working area. We had just finished a work order and people kept asking me what to do next. I kept telling them that I didn't know yet. I'm still in PMO training so I was pretty clueless on what to do. I just knew that I had to get some paperwork done and the computer was being a bitch. I had to get ready for our next work number as well. Luckily, Jerry, a PMO Manager came in. I wasn't ready to work on my own yet and won't be for a while. Other than that bullshit in the morning, work went pretty smooth. I did some machine work and testings....fun fun... yay... I have a admirer at work, even though he workds a different shift than me...it's kind of flattering what he does but also feels kind of freaky in a way.... I guess it makes work a bit exciting...even though it's only at the begining and ending of m

Lol I Got Tagged Now It's Your Turn...tag Your It!!!
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I was in chorus in HS, and I was a Madrigal actor.. yeah.. I can sing.. kinda.. and floor acting is the shit! 2. I like reading.. I used to do it ALL the time, but there's just nothing new out there that I like anymore. 3. I have 2 non-working playstation 2's.. why i don't throw them away.. I don't know lmfao 4. On that note, I have 2 non-working tvs in my room.. one stacked ontop of the other one, with all kinds of stuff on top of THEM. 5. When I love someone, I love them with everything I am. 6. I am white...therefore I have no rythm on a dance floor lmfao. I twitch and such.. I can't dance. lol but it doesn't stop me from TRYING!

Hey To All
well I have had this account for awhile now and am just now getting time to play with it since I haven't had a computer for awhile. Mine blew up.. but it's all good though cuz now I'm back and ready to meet some new and interesting people both here and on my other accounts.. if interested in talking further or on my other accounts just give me a yell and I will be happy to talk to all. Until then.. See Ya

Lol I Got Tagged Now It's Your Turn...tag Your It!!!
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I have an obsession with handwriting, if I don't like how I write something I toss it and start all over again... think that is called obsessive compulsive ...lol 2. I collect NUN pictures...does this mean I want to be one? Hell NO!!! =P 3. I am June Cleaver with a twist...lol 4. I fantasize about sex on a backdrop fingerpainting...lol...ok too much info haha! 5. I want to be the next Dr. Phil female style...haha 6. I am considered a Hip for my age...lmao...least my son's friends thinks so! OK I AM TAGGING.... slim30 scottaco work fin yeah't sambo joefresh NarcoLeptic Haha this should be interesting!!!

Defining The Slang Word "drama"
I've seen lots of bulletins flying around, multiple blogs and profiles that say the word "Drama". I just looked in Wikipedia and found the definition for it's slang usage to be: 'Drama' is also used colloquially to refer to unnecessary emotional turmoil, such as that created through social events,gossip,or baby mamas.[1] So, with the official definition above, what did you think "drama" was in the context of a sentence prior to having read the definition? Was what you thought similar to the definition? When a person says, "I don't want drama", what are they saying? They don't want to be involved in emotional turmoil? They don't want to watch it or they don't want to hear about it? When someone calls someone a "Drama Queen" or a "Drama King" does that mean the person is creating unnecessary emotional turmoil, talking about emotional turmoil that happened to them or gossipping about someone else's emotional turmoil? Your assignment is to answer these questions to th

Hillbilly Love Poem
Susie Lee done fell in love. She planned to marry Joe. She was so happy 'bout it all She told her Pappy so. Pappy told her, Susie Gal, You'll have to find another. I'd just as soon yo' ma don't know. But Joe is yo' half brother. So Susie put aside her Joe And planned to marry Will But after telling Pappy this He said, there's troubel still. You can't marry Will, my gal, And please don't tell you' mother But Will and Joe, and several mo' I know is yo' half brother. But Mama knew and said, my child, Just do what makes yo' happy. Marry Will or marry Joe, You ain't no kin to Pappy.

Life And Death Can Both Be Lonely
It was raining the day I was born. The sky had been overcast for days. It was expected, during the transition from Winter to Spring. The coldness of winter had already gone, but the chill in the air remained stubbornly behind, lasting weeks after the final day of winter had passed. It left the nights cold and unfriendly, which was why there was no one on the streets. It always seems to get the coldest around 2 AM. The only people out were the ones too wasted on some thing or another to notice any weather. And they weren’t going to pay any attention to a little noise in an alleyway. My mother, propped up against the back wall of a corner pawn shop. The blood from the knife wound high on her chest flowing away into the gutters by the rain. Her breathing was quick, pained, and it was the only sound you could hear over the rainfall. The two men in front of her stood motionless, just watching. Their faces were dark, unconcerned. They had been hired to kill the daughter of a policema

Witches Reed
Witches Reed of Chivalry -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Insofar as the Craft of the Wise is the most ancient and most honorable creed of humankind, it behooves all who are Witches to act in ways that give respect to the Old Gods, to their sisters and brothers of the Craft, and to themselves. Therefore, be it noted that: Chivalry is a high code of honour which is of most ancient Celtic Pagan origin, and must be lived by all who follow the Old ways. It must be kenned that thoughts and intent put forth on this Middle-Earth will wax strong in other worlds beyond, and return... bringing into creation, on this world, that which had been sent forth. Thus one should exercise discipline, for "as ye sow, so shall ye reap." It is only by preparing our minds to be as Gods that we can ultimately attain godhead. "This above all...to thine own self be true...." A Witch's word must have the validity of a signed a

I Dreamed About You Again Last Night
I was sitting in a large empty warehouse on a plain dark wooden chair when I saw you walk in from the open bay door. Your blond wavy hair was pulled back in a tight ponytail to show reveal your version of the face of an angel. You were wearing a long sleeved faded pink sweater that hugged your large breasts, slightly covering your smooth neck and ending at the curve of your hips. I let my eyes trace your long legs concealed in tight denim jeans all the way down to your black boots. All I could do was stand up and face you after so long. You wrapped your arms around me pulling me in with tender force while you kissed me on the side of my neck with a tear running out of your eye. I did not feel love or tenderness. I was not feeling warmth or passion. I was filled with completeness. Absolution. The hole I have been forsaken with is now filled. I was whole again. A tear slipped out of my eye and ran down to kiss your cheek pressed against mine. The scent of you overpowered my

Bipolar
I am one of the millions of people who has this disorder.....and it's sucks ass!.... Bipolar Disorder Bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) is a treatable illness marked by extreme changes in mood, thought, energy and behavior. It is not a character flaw or a sign of personal weakness. Bipolar disorder is also known as manic depression because a persons mood can alternate between the "poles" mania (highs) and depression (lows). This change in mood or "mood swing" can last for hours, days weeks or months. Bipolar disorder affects more than two million adult Americans. It usually begins in late adolescence (often appearing as depression during teen years) although it can start in early childhood or later in life. An equal number of men and women develop this illness (men tend to begin with a manic episode, women with a depressive episode) and it is found among all ages, races, ethnic groups and social classes. The illness tends to run in families and appears to have

About The Girl
Layer one: Name: Twitch aka chantelle Birthplace:Vancouver Birthdate:10/10/87 Hair color:black naturally Height:5'6 or 5'7 Righty or Lefy: righty Zodiac Sign: libra Layer Two: Your Heritage: jamican,nor,brit,scot,irish SHoes you wore today : skater shoes unno i found them in the house when i moved 2 my dads Your weakness: Being to shy and never saying what i really want to. Your fears: bugs,and being weak Your perfect pizza: Taco! Goal: Never be stuck in the ordanry Layer three: Your most overused phrase on MSN : lol and :P Your thoughts first waking up : i hate that song! Your best physical features: lips Your bedtime: uhmmm when u pass out Your most missed memory : Hedgehog. I miss being with her

Random
A woman stands, a man behind her. She may know him, she may not. It doesn’t even matter. He steps close to her, and she can feel his body against hers. His hands move to touch her elbows. She doesn’t pull away, and he slides his hands up and down, feeling the length of her arms. He moves closer, settles, until the contours of his body align with hers. With one hand he brushes the hair away from her neck. Her sensual neck. She feels his hands around her waist, holding her to him. She feels his lips on her skin, below her ear, as his hands slide up, slowly, to her breasts. They are a fetish for him, and she can feel him growing behind her. He wants her. His hands massage her breasts as he continues to taste the sweetness of the flesh of her neck. His breathing slows, becoming deeper, stronger. More…primal. More…intent full. One hand slides down and under the bottom of her shirt, for the first touch against her skin. His tongue traces the outline of her neck, as his other hand holds

So Today...
Sup everyone? — Friday, October 13, 2006 Happy friday!. I didn't realize it was friday the 13 until I got to school. KInda weird. It was an ok day I guess. Nothing way odd, good, or bad happend. I figure I'll just get through the weekend on antidepressents. I should go do something tonight, but I'm not sure what to do. I could go to some random bar by myself I suppose, or call someone and see what they are doing. I didn't end up asking out that girl, she seems to give some nervous glances. Kinda like lots of people. Probably knows I like her, and I probably stare at her too much withouth actually talking to her. I don't know. There's lots of times when girls will look back nervously thinking i'm following them or something, when I just happen to be going the same way. Fear, it's what I'm good at I guess, even when I'm not trying to be. Sometimes it's good, sometimes not. I don't care much anymore though I guess. It's turning into something like the job thing. People uste t

A Strong Dominant King
From the seeds our ancestors planted to the roots and picked by hand YOU are my strong black man. From his big bones, his wide nose, and dark brown eyes to his nappy hair and his big rough hands YOU are my strong black man. From the bass in his voice, expressing the strength of his inner soul to the bottom of his rough feet in the hot sand leaving behind prints of his soles YOU are my strong black man. From the way he walks with every stride representing his pride to the way he stops to stand and let everyone know this is his land YOU are my strong black man. From the strength he possesses to move more land than ten men can YOU are my strong black man. From the knowledge he brings to the word more than some could ever understand YOU are my strong black man YOU are the key to our ancestor's plan YOU are my strong black man. From the striving and struggling yet making the way for him and his black woman YOU

One I Wrote The Other Night .... Posting It Because I Like It
Powerless trapped in the gaze Miss Kryptonite has me in a daze Honey eyes the ensnare the soul Pulling me in deeper lost in the whole Unable to hide, Unable to run She holds me captive, this could be fun Beware the blonde with eyes so deep Her beauty makes the angels weep And no one can resist her charms I will be lost when once in her arms Pray for me and what may be So in time we will see what we see By R. Thomas Dinsmore

:)
SO CONFUSED YOU HAVE ME SO CONFUSED I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY OR DO IM AFRAID ILL DO THE WRONG THING AND UPSET YOU IT SEEMS AS IF ALL WE EVER DO IS FIGHT YOU HAVE ME SO CONFUSED I DONT KNOW WRONG FROM RIGHT THE DECISIONS I MAKE REVOLVE AROUND YOU THINGS YOU WANT ME TO SAY AND THINGS YOU WANT ME TO DO IM NOT SURE WHERE I STAND WITH YOU OR HOW YOU FEEL IF YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS OR IF IM NO BIG DEAL EVERYONE TELLS ME IM JUST SOMEONE WHO IS THERE THAT YOU WILL NEVER LOVE ME AND YOULL PROBABLY NEVER CARE WELL TELL ME NOW BEFORE THINGS GET ANYMORE OUT OF HAND JUST LET ME KNOW WHERE THE HELL I STAND AM I FIGHTING A BATTLE I CAN NEVER WIN DO YOU JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS SO MANY UNANSWERED QUESTIONS JUST LET ME KNOW SHOULD I HOLD ON OR SHOULD I LET GO []

Pregnant 2
well I told my parents today about me being pregnant they didn't say a word about justin which made me happy and my father told me that they are there for me every step of the way which I just sat there and cried about because I was so happy. Now I just hope I can carry the baby full-term I am hoping. Right now the baby is healthy and the cervix is strong I just have to start eating healthier and more vegetables and fruit. So wish me luck everyone. I will keep on updating you.

Cover Me
commentshack.com Cover me in chocolate head to toe start at the top keep moving down go oh so slow... Begin with my lips spread it on lightly teasing me as you lick let it drip down..... My neck is the next spot make it hot by sucking slow let the chocolate guide you nothing drastic keep it simple... Revel in me as I grin with delight... Touch my nipples feel how hard they are touch them taste them... Make my skin ripple wiggle in pleasure watch as the chocolate trickles down my breast... See my chest? It's obsessed with your touch... The warm chocolate is just enough to almost send me into overdrive almost.. Trying to stay composed as you move down... I'm drowning in you... Your touch Your skill Your sensualness caress me from deep inside... You must decide if you want to continue moving down.. or if you want to stop and finish later... You answer by sp

Update! (on Cats)
Ok well to keep you all updated i am doing well and so are the kids and me and Roy are still doing fine... the poor lil Kittens on the other hand i have lost 5 since the FUCKING ASSHOLE SUCKING DONKEY BUTT across the street turned in my mama cat! i swear to the gods i hope he is having a horrablely terriable life!!!!!!!!!

Science Is Wonderful!
It has been scientifically proven that if we drink one litre of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than one kilo of Escherichia Coli Bacteria found in water that contains feces. In other words, we are consuming one kilo of shit. However, we do not run that risk when drinking rum, gin, whiskey, beer, wine or other liquors because alcohol has to go through a distillation process of boiling, filtering and fermentation. It is my duty to communicate to all of you people who are drinking water, to stop doing so. It has been scientifically proven that it is unhealthy and bad for you. THEREFORE - It is better to drink alcohol and talk shit than to drink water and be full of it !!!

What Is A Wiccan?
What Is Wicca Contrary to what those who choose to persecute or lie about us wish to believe, Wicca is a very peaceful, harmonious and balanced way of thinking and life which promotes oneness with the divine and all which exists. Wicca is a deep appreciation and awe in watching the sunrise or sunset, the forest in the light of a glowing moon, a meadow enchanted by the first light of day. It is the morning dew on the petals of a beautiful flower, the gentle caress of a warm summer breeze upon your skin, or the warmth of the summer sun on your face. Wicca is the fall of colorful autumn leaves, and the softness of winter snow. It is light, and shadow and all that lies in between. It is the song of the birds and other creatures of the wild. It is being in the presence of Mother Earths nature and being humbled in reverence. When we are in the temple of the Lord and Lady, we are not prone to the arrogance of human technology as they touch our souls. To be a Witch is to be a healer, a teacher

And The Point Would Be???
What is the point of me trying to promote this site left and right if you can't even credit me with the people I DO send you??? And you refuse to fix your own mistake? NeeNeeDaQueen did NOT refer my friends, my friends that SHE DOES NOT EVEN KNOW. And, she even WROTE to TELL you that she did not refer MY FRIENDS. And Lostcherry replied that they don't fix it. The more people I refer, the more people that will hound me on a daily basis asking why my name isn't on the referral path on their page! So WHAT IS THE DAMN POINT OF BOTHERING??? === 'babyjesus' spewed forth the following at '2006-10-13 11:59:42'.. > > The race is getting pretty tight! > > CURRENT STANDINGS > > -marketman > > > (repost of original by 'marketman' on '2006-10-13 10:58:10')

Love Part 2
Love is not always gonna be there to help you out. It's the theory of having someone there to hold you and comfort you and to be around with and to spend your life with. Alot of ppl have been through what I have and had their hearts ripped out by the ones that you thought that loved you. Then come to find out that they didn't love you they just wanted you for everything you have and mostly that is your heart. Then they rip it out and tell you that they don't love you anymore

Fun Game
player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I eat Ice cream with Salsa 2. I lost my verginity in a tube slid in a public park. 3. I speed way to much lol or not enough I can neva remember which. 4. I am in love with the greatest GUY! 5. I drink way to much fucking ROOT BEER and I love it they should just give it to me interveanusly, oh wait but you all probably knew that one. D_R_A_G_O_N DA~HOTNESS SHERRIE GHOST ROCKSTAR ANTI

Tag
player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1)I love Jack Daniel's 2)I own my own business selling sex toys & Lingerie 3)I race and show my car 4)Men treat me like shit 5)I need sex RIGHT NOW 6)Im spoiled by my rich parents DJ Scarface Dj Serenity Ria DJ Valo Inkd Cabriolet

My Favorite Artists
seether / fort minor / hinder / reba / garth brooks/ stonesour / ozzy / kiss def leppard / sublime/ poison / shania / carrie underwood trisha yearwood / pam tillis / limp bizkit / guns n roses house of pain / spice girls / hilary duff / colin raye / billy ray cyrus / george fox / bon jovi / jeff healy band enqurie { hero} / nickel back / reospeedway / chicago air supply / ill think of the rest, my brain has had way to much to think about today ...lol

Fuckin' Guys
FUCK YOU FUCK YOUR LIES FUCK YOUR FAKE LOVE FUCK YOUR CHARM I DONT HATE YOU... I DONT LOVE YOU... I NO LONGER CARE FOR YOU... MAY KARMA COME BACK AND KICK YOUR ASS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ YOU LIED WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD NEVER HURT ME

Killer Attack Baby
Killer Attack Baby For Kaydin-Whom I love very much All hail the killer attack baby It hunts on all fours Bow down to him all Lock up your doors It screams and wails Pulls the hair out your head And scratches your eyes out Before going to bed “Hi bugger! Hi!” I said, lifting him up. “How is Gampa’s little Bugger? Why, hello there, what’s up?” “Wa!” he cried, mournfully “Awww, there...” I said before tossing him in the air. “I know what you want...Weee!...Weee!...Weee!...There!” “Mwaaa!” he insisted, face so forlorn. It wasn’t going to work, I’m afraid to inform. “Maybe a cuddle? You think, little bugger?” I swaddled him close, as if I was his mother. “Mwaaaaaaa! Waaaaaaaaaaaa!” he flailed, kicking and screaming. From something so small, I must certainly be dreaming. “Ah- Blublublublub!” I shook my face for him. I thought it would help, if only a whim. With a wail that would curl wallpaper, he pulled on my hair...and yanked off my glasses, it was rea

Ur It
player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1)i drink alot 2)im a pot head 3)im very forgetful 4)i cant keep a girl 5)i smoke to much 6)i blow my money like it gos out of style blueyegoodie tonibella sexy medic cookiemonster dj erotica

Love
What is love all about is it a game is it just in your heart or is it all just a dream imagined in your mind to lure you into getting your heart broken into pieces or is it there to sooth you when your in desperate need of love

Grandma I Love U
gee grandma . im having a beer on the plane, so shoot me but im not going up in the air without a drink, if i have the money ...if im gona die,...im gona die half in the bag ahhahahhahah its my ritual .....so i love you but thats hot it is going to be and please dont look at me like im insane

101 Ways To Becoming A Better Asshole
1. Argue with everybody. 2. Touch the paintings at the museum. 3. Get hysterical. 4. Threaten law suits. 5. Insinuate, implicate and insist. 6. If you got it, flaunt it. 7. Eat produce at the grocery store and don't pay for it. 8. Gamble with the rent money. 9. Record over a borrowed vcr tape 10. Tell people that they are in your will, even if they aren't. 11. Don't get caught. 12. Stay directly in front or behine fire trucks and ambulances. 13. When giving out directions, leave out a turn or two. 14. Don't make up your mind. 15. Improve your posture by walking with your nose in the air. 16. Remind people who lose their job that they should work harder. 17. Talk with your mouth full. 18. Accuse, confuse and refuse. 19. Comment on the weight gain of others. 20. Adjust your nuts (boob) whenever you want. 21. Keep a pile of wisecracks for tense and serious situations. 22. Answer a question with a question. 23. See what it takes for the lifeguard to blow the whistle.

Makes Me Sad :((
I personally believe in true love, well I do! I have seen it, No really I have seen it, Twice. I know a Wyoming couple, the man is a chemical engineer and the woman was a med tech, she did a lot more then just collects samples throughout the years but mainly she was a med tech. Once their children were raised they decided that they wanted to tour the world while they were still young enough to enjoy it, so the man took a very good paying job in Saudi Arabia for Aramco. This job would allow them to travel all over the world and provide a very nice retirement for the couple. They left Casper in 1992 and had a ball, they saw the pyramids, they have been to London, Greece, Germany and a whole lot more places then I could name. They even took up diving in the Dead Sea!! About six years ago the woman was diagnosed with A.L.S. or Lou Garracks. As the disease progressed her husband slowly started buying things to help her do things she could no longer do like walking talking and breathing. The

One Day In Hell.
One day a guy dies and finds himself in hell. As he is wallowing in despair he has his first meeting with a demon... Demon: Why so glum chum? Guy: What do you think? I'm in hell. Demon: Hell's not so bad. We actually have a lot of fun down here...you a drinkin' man? Guy: Sure, I love to drink. Love the drinks. Demon: Well you're gonna love Mondays then. On Mondays that's all we do is drink. Whiskey, tequila, Guinness, wine coolers, diet tab, and fresca...we drink till we throw up and then we drink some more! Guy: Gee that sounds great. Demon: You a smoker? Guy: You better believe it! Love the smoking. Demon: Alright! You're gonna love Tuesdays. We get the finest cigars from all over the world and smoke our lungs out. If you get cancer - no biggie - you're already dead remember? Guy: Wow...that's...awesome! Demon: I bet you like to gamble. Guy: Why yes as a matter of fact I do. Love the gambling. Demon: Cause Wednesday you can gamble all you want. Craps, Blackjack, Ro

Tag Your It
*lol* now you gotta post 6 werid things about yourself in a blog and then tag 6 more people ha ha ha :D 1) I'm a gamer ... those who know, know ;) 2) I've traveled throughout the US with out the ability to drive :D 3) I have nothing to show for my achievments, but I have tales that life has given me 4) I have a passion for art rather I practice the media or not. 5) If everybody knows something and no body knows everything then I have no secrets to be burdened with 6) I have loves in my life but no lover to share my life Capt Chaos

Marla
The telephone rang. It continued to ring until the answering machine picked up. The message said that she was unavailable. Damn it, I thought. Just like that cunt to not be there when I needed her the most. Marla had always been there for me when I needed her, but her career frequently kept her to all hours of the night. No, she was not a hooker or a call girl. She helped others in the time of need. She took calls for the suicide prevention hotline, frequently assisting the police in talking a suicidal person through the worst part; actually attempting suicide. I met Marla in a support group for suicide prevention. She was there as an assistant to the moderator. I, on the other hand, was there because I had once called the hotline, tempting the thought. Ordered by the court and the mental institution, I attended my sessions monthly. Marla did not have the look that you would expect of a guardian angel. She was a street urchin looking girl. Shabby clothing, dirty looking, ha

To My Friends
YOU GUYS ROCK AND I LUV U ALL ! ! ! SORRY IM NOT KEEPING UP AS WELL AS I SHOULD BE WITH EVERYONE. ILL FILL YOU IN ON WHY, MY MOTHER CAME HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL WEDNESDAY AFTER 8 WEEKS AND A 91/2 HOUR SURGERY, WE ARE BLESSED BY WHATEVER GODS THAT ARE BY HER COMING THROUGH IT AT ALL. SO, NEEDLESS TO SAY SHE IS STILL A LONG WAY FROM WELL YET, HOWEVER SHES AT HOME AND THATS A HUGE STEP. ITS KEEPING ME BUSY SO DONT THINK I HAVE FORGOTTEN ANY OF YOU, I HAVENT AND I WILL CATCH UP, MY PERSONAL BELIEF IS THAT IF YOU HAVE SOMEONE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST THEN YOU SHOULD TREAT THEM AS ONE, SO PLEASE ACCEPT MY APOLOGIES FOR IT SEEMING THAT I AM IGNORING SOME OF YOU, IM NOT, YOU ARE APPRECIATED AND I WILL CATCH UP WITH ALL OF YOU SHORTLY.. MUCH LUV Kym LIVE LAUGH & LOVE !!!

Tag You're It
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1. I smoke when I drink but hate people smoking around me 2. I bought a new stove in July and have not used it yet 3. I love to be dominate in bed 4. Family Guy cracks me up everytime 5. I'm afraid of Monkeys 6. Ball caps and goatee's on a man are the biggest turn on for me Canadian Thunder Criminalistic WOW Spectre40 smokeinfire4u tllgt33

"betrayal"
trust is there such a thing? no only hatred and mistrust. loyalty hah there be no such thing only a foolish and misplaced belief in your so called "friends". love is there such a thing ? there be no greater falsehood than such. for to open ones heart to such invites those closest to you to view you as nothing more then a mark , someone to be manipulated , used, and abused for their own purposes. trust know one,love no one truely, not even those closest to you for if you do they betray you as soon as you turn your back or show the slightest sign of weakness no matter how small it be. hatred,mistrust,independence these virtues are to be treasured close to your cold,cold heart.hate everyone 'round you,trust only your self,and depend on only your self. allow each betrayal and let each failure of someone you once considered to be a friend, no matter how miniscule fester and harden your harden your heart, let it add

You & I
We are sitting at a table in the club talking, listing to music and people watching. It is getting late and I am getting bored, so when a slow song comes on I ask you to dance with me before I call it a night. You say yes, we get up and make our way to the dance floor where you take me gently into your arms. I moan softly under my breath, which brings a small smile to your lips. As we make our way around the floor, I take my hand off of your waist and place it in your front pocket; deeply enough that I can stroke your cock with the side of my thumb, and it's your turn to moan. I pull you closer to my body and my eyes meet yours. I drag my tongue across my lips, letting you know that I wouldn't be upset to not make it home that evening, and as the song ends we head for the door. The night is warm and quiet, and as we stand under the cover of darkness you run your hands across my breasts and down between my legs. I moan softly and lean back into your body for closer conta

Some Tea.....
3 vampires walk into a bar...the first one orders a glass of blood and the bar tender said "coming right up." Then the 2nd vampire orders a glass of blood...the bar tender replies the same as before...then the 3rd vampire goes up to the bar and orders a glass of water. The bartender asks "don't you want a glass of blood?" the vampire looked at him and then pulled out a used tampon and said "nope...tea time."

Music
music helps me thru everything. thats why i listen too all types because not just one type sets me straight and they help when im pissed off or just in a groovy happy free flowing kind of phase .... this sucks but nopt much i can do ....gtg

The 13th ~ We Can...
This is my second blog for today, this is because I've written a lot down lately, and i kindof need to get it out. by the way, happy friday the 13th!! NOW ONTO MY BLOG:: We can learn to listen We can learn to fall We should learn to be able to know we can be ourselves We can learn how to be nice We can learn to talk We can learn to walk We can learn a lot but in today's society no one wants to because the news puts things in our brains I feel like the medias are trying to brain wash us but we can't fight, like in Farenheit 451 (I know I probably spelled it wrong but hey I am tired) we have been placed in a sistuation where the government makes every decision for us what to do what to do We can speak We can hear We can touch we can fight We can help people when they are in need We can choose our futures our parents can't But then again they raised us and made us who we are today

Sex
You should make love during a hurricane Once you’ve boarded up your house, why not reduce your stress and make love. There is not much else you can do while waiting it out and your little sanctuary will become an erotic haven while the wind whips by… Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Whats Oral Sex?
A young fellow was about to be married and was asking his grandfather about sex. He asked how often you should have it. His grandfather told him that when you first get married, you want it all the time....and maybe do it several times a day. Later on, sex tapers off and you have it once a week or so. Then as you get older, you have sex maybe once a month. When you get really old, you are lucky to have it once a year....maybe on your anniversary. The young fellow then asked his grandfather, "Well how about you and grandma now?" His grandfather replied, "Oh, we just have oral sex now." "What's oral sex?" the young fellow asked. "Well," grandpa said, "She goes to bed in her bedroom, and I go to bed in my bedroom. And she yells, "Fuck You", and I holler back, "Fuck you too."

The 13th ~ Untitled (a Poem)
she'll never fall as hard as she did that first time around smile as big, laugh as loud as she did with him he was her merry go round, she still bats her eyes wears a meschivous smile teases the boys stings them along for a while but she and i both know her heart was sold a long time ago somedays even now she feels low her heart took its fatal blow her head told her she was right to go but even a year later her heart still says no maybe in the future she'll forget the past and give love another chance dance one more dance and go through the boys fast saying each time this one will last but we both know...they never last

Holidays
Holidays A time of the year Most people look forward to Spending time with friends and family For me it is a day sitting home alone Just another day of the year Nothing is open thou and there is nothing to do Every one saying how great it is All just wants me to get sick As I have no where to go Or nothing to do No one to spend this holly time of the year with It just makes me depressed and wishes it would all be over with By Scott Homan 10/11/2005

Sex 2
You should make love during a volcano eruption (Hopefully not too close though). The phallic imagery here needs no further explanation, and the heat generated will turn your ordinary sex into super hot sweaty sex. Damn. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Loneliness
Loneliness Being alone all the time Never knowing if any one will ever visit you Only seeing people at work and when you go to the store Most contact you have with people is over the net Does any one know what it is like to be so lonely? I sit here trying to remember the last time I had company Not remembering the last time Looking at caller id and there has only been One person to call me in over a week People say they get used to it But you never get used to being alone Some days go good and others you just want to end it all You can go from happy to depressed in seconds Only taken something small and trivial to set you off Wondering if there is a plaque about me Something I will probably never know All I want to do is end it all By Scott Homan 10/12/2005

Love Scoop
Current mood: determined LOVE SCOOP Up all night in agony wondering how to set pain free Wishing I could hold you tight, putting up a lonesome fight I'm determined to show you I love you and I care I wish on a star and pray that we'll perhaps be together I think about you all the time I love the way you smile and how you talk your way of life and how you walk I stress to see what others cannot In you I saw a battle we both fought A challange between what is not ordinary The same fear in you..... I carry I guess yu can't yet seem to see With each other our souls will be free To love each other whole heartedly!!

Hermeticism: A Magickal/occult Definition
Defining Hermeticism Defining Hermeticism is not easy. It is a little like trying to define religion, or art. One could say that Hermeticism is the Wisdom Tradition of the West, an esoteric tradition not necessarily limited to any one religion or mystical path, and that embraces both the theoretical and the practical. The following are two overlapping yet quite different approaches to and definitions of Hermeticism; the magickal/occult and the academic. Of course, Hermeticism is not necessarily limited to these definitions. The diagram above is modified from a diagram on a Hermetic Fellowship page - external linkThe Opening of the Ways to the Hermetic Temple. The various circles represent the variety of spiritual Paths in the Western Esoteric Tradition. Clockwise from the top you have Theurgy, Qabalah, Rosicrucianism, Gnosticism, Grail Quest, Alchemy, Wiccan and NeoPaganism (pentagram), and the Ancient Mystery Religions (ankh).

Sex
You should make love during an earthquake The gyrations will only add to your already stellar performance. Plus it saves you the money you would spend on those magic fingers in the motel. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Wow Look At That...i'm Hot Lmao
WOW look at that I am HOT LMAO Current mood: chipper Are You Hot? Your hotness score is: 220 Your quiz results make you a Wild and Crazy Your quiz results make you Wild and Crazy You have a lot of fun living a wild and crazy life. You live every second to the fullest. You don't look to keep up with fashion; you look for fashion to keep up with you. Your fun filled lifestyle never stops, so your engine is always running hot. Who knows what crazy new thing you'll try out next? Take this free personality test by Clicking Here>> or going to www.ruhotquiz.net/

Have You Ever?
Have I Ever Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice, thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some new

Glossary Of Cosmic Philosophy - Maxie Stye
The Cosmic Philosophy transl. by Oscar Laurens Schrover From the Tradition Cosmique: Attribute - The Attribute is a particular quality of being which manifest in a certain but undefined form; like the Cosmic Cause which has seven attributes of which the seventh is is the attribute of Justice (see page 6 and 7 of the Tradition Cosmique). Aura - the aura is an atmosphere which proceeds from a person which it envelops. It is a trace of the glorified body of which Kahi proceeded: cast off by Devo (translator's note:"cast off" in the sense of removing clothes Arcana - (see Sleep) Centralization - Expression which signifies the process of focusing on the most rarefied states or degrees of matter. Conditions of materiality or integral matter - Of the four principal integral categories there are four numbered and mentioned on page 3. Each of these categories is subdivided in parts; and it is these parties which are called States of matter, or conditions of materiality. O

The Hermetic Brotherhood Of Luxor
The Charter The charter of the Ancient and Noble Order of H. B. of L. which was signed: "M. Theon, Grand Master pro temp of the Exterior Circle," contains high principles and important data: "We recognize the eternal existence of the Great Cause of Light, the invisible center whose vibrating soul, gloriously radiant, is the living breath, the vital principle of all that exists and will ever exist. It is from this divine summit that goes forth the invisible Power which binds the vast universe in an harmonious whole." "We teach that from this incomprehensible center of Divinity emanate sparks of the eternal Spirit,which,after accomplishing their orbit, the great cycle of Necessity, constitute the sole immortal element of the human soul. Accepting thus the universal brotherhood of humanity, we reject, nevertheless,the doctrine of universal quality." "We have no personal preferences and no one makes progress in "the Order without having accomplished his assigned task thereby in

Picture Taking....
Well, the kids and I just got back from a little drive...I took my camera, which isn't much but for now it works and I took a bunch of different pictures of the lake, the foliage and goodies such as that. So, now it's time to hook the camera up and see what I came up with...I hope they turned out. We'll see!

Snow Patrol Chasing Cars.
We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I j

Gotta Get High By New Radicals
Gotta Stay High I saw your eyes I had to run away I fell to deep in love There were no words to say I just had to get high One look inside And I knew right away I felt too much I did not have the strength I just ran to get high But lover theres something about you pushing me Pulling me I saw your eyes Fell into yesterday An only child Untill you let me stay I ha no one on my side Too weak to stand Too scared to love again The damn has broke My soul is spilling all over your hands Take a look in my eyes Lover There's something about your pushing me Pulling me That's saying don't go away Ain't never gonna be another I see your eyes I'll never run away I fell too deep in love Only five words to say

Not Falling Mudvayne Lyric's
"Not Falling" Always, known in, all my time, A little left of center now Reflect as I realize, That all I need is to find the middle pillar path to sit like the sun by a star in the sky and just be. Sinners, casting stones at me I... I stand, not crawling, not falling down I... I bleed the demons that drag me down I... I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (the center), not falling down (of calms within the eye) I... I'll bleed, (for no one), The demons, (but myself), that pull me down (for me and no one else) Goodbye, sunshine, I've put it out again, sad I'm over, personalities, conflicting, I don't need you, or anyone, but me, I'll just be, living my own life I feel my glowing center grow, infecting I feel alive Shovel dirt over lime, plant it in myself to sit like a seed under covers of earth and just be Sinners, pointing fingers at me I... I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (by myself), not falling down I... I bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myse

Max Theon
Max Théon - the Unknown Occultist Théon was in many ways a latter-day Gnostic, an enigmatic occultist whose evolutionary and occult teachings were indirectly taken up by the Indian philosopher-sage Sri Aurobindo, and may have also had some influence on the metaphysics of both H.P. Blavatsky and, A Polish Jew, he travelled to London, France, Egypt, and finally Algeria, founding several esoteric groups along the way. He was known under several names, but we can refer to him as "Max Théon", the pseudonym he adopted while in Algeria. Théon and his knowledge is truely extraordinary. At the very least he was, and is, equal in importance in understanding the development of modern Western esotericism, to figures such as Blavatsky, Steiner, Crowley, Gurdjieff, and Alice Bailey. Yet this figure, who was active in Paris around the turn of the century (he apparently commuted between Algeria and Paris), has been until only very recently virtually unknown outside the Mother and Sri Aurobi

Mudvayne Dig
Im listenin to the live version but heres the lyric's to it MUDVAYNE LYRICS "Dig" Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was slowly changing I would love to beat the face, Of any mother fucker that's thinkin' they can change me, White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold, If you're wantin' a piece of me I broke the mother fuckin' mold, I'm drowning in your wake Shit rubbed in my face Teething on concrete Gums bleeding Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was slowly changing I struggle in violated space, Sell out motherfuckers in the biz that try to fuck me, Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight, I ain't sellin' my soul when there's nothing to buy I'm livid in my space Pissing in my face Fuck you while you try To fuck me Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was

Funny..
1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down. 2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice. 3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with That. 4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In." 5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone Has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch To Espresso. 6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write "For Sexual Favors" 7. Finish All Your sentences with "In Accordance With The Prophecy." 8. Don't use any punctuation 9. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk. 10. Ask People What Sex They Are. Laugh Hysterically After They Answer. 11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go." 12. Sing Along At The Opera. 13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme 14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play Tropical Sounds All Day. 1

Year Away From Home
One year ago today, I was in the sky somewhere between Newfoundland and Edmonton, on the beginning of a very uncertain journey. I had almost forgotten the date, except my mother reminded me yesterday. Since my three-month misadventure up North, I've found a solid footing here in Lloydminster and Vermilion. There's a lot of negative things I can say about the Wal*Mart Corporation, and have plans to do so in future editorials. Since I started working there however, I have met some good people and became stronger both physically and emotionally. Speech therapy is boosting my self-confidence, which was sadly lacking before. I'm feeling optimistic about life and the new challenges ahead. I have the weekend off! Time for some beer!

Week Ending 10/9/06
Games: College and AFC East --Stanford @ ND, 230pm (ND 31 Stanford 10) --LSU @ Florida, 330pm (FL 23 LSU 10) --Bowling Green @ Ohio State, 330pm (Ohio State 35 BG 10) --Washington @ USC, 330pm (USC 26 Wash 20) --Tennessee @ Georgia, 745pm (TN 51 GA 33) --VTech @ BC, Thursday, 730pm --Chicago @ Buffalo, 1pm (Chicago 40 Buffalo 7) --Miama @ NE, 1pm (NE 20 Miami 10) --Jets @ Jax, 405pm Other: --TB @ NO, 1pm (NO 24 TB 21) --Tennessee @ Indy, 1pm (Indy 14 Ten 13) --Washington @ NY, 1pm (NY 19 Washington 3 --KC @ Arizona, 405pm --Baltimore @ Denver, 830pm

The Sleeping Dragon......
his breath is soft and slow, caressing her cheek.. she reaches out with a tentative touch.. fingers feather soft upon the armor of his skin.. each texture a new experience, a new sensation.. her hands travel the length of his slumbering form.. as she marvels at the beauty and color that is him.. the magnificent iridescence of his majestic body.. ever changing, ever growing, a fire burning within.. he stirs slightly, stretching forth one great wing.. its transparent glow blinding her momentarily.. her eyes adjust to the brilliance of his aura.. and she wonders at this glorious sight before her.. in awe that she has been chosen to behold him.. to revel in his greatness, his tremendous abilities.. he could easily crush her with a single blow.. easily destroy her with one fiery outburst.. but he does not, for he holds her in highest regard.. he sleeps only because she is so near to him.. she is the comforting force that allows him peace.. her touch is a lullaby to his to

Tag Ur It
player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1) im addicted to coffee,,and i do me addicted! just ask mike... 2) i still like taking glue and lettig it dry and peeling it off........like we used to do to groos out the preppy girls in school!!!! 3) i love mike (dj lacushion) i know its not weird but i do and its my fuckin blog so neener!!!!! 4) im not fussy about much but what i am fussy about has to be just so or it drives me crazy........ 5) im addicted to being a DJ... 6) im addicted to lost cherry!!!! now for the unlucky mother fuckers i get to hit!!! DJ Lacushion DJ Spade Lo5t Soul nymedic881 DJ Scarface Ravin juggalo

Have I Ever........ Repost Because Ppl Loved It
Have I Ever Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice, thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some new

October 5th-13th
Some kids working at a Burger King in New Mexico were arrested when cops discovered they had placed marijuana on their burgers. This marks the first time in history that anything organic has ever been served at Burger King.....you thought the BK king was creepy....watch him stoned! Mel Gibson was interviewed by Diane Sawyer. Did you see that? He said that is was a blessing and that he needed humiliation on a global scale. Wouldn’t it have been easier to get a show on NBC? The Army is spending over $200 million to change their slogan to "Army Strong”. How about Army screwed?!......well it beats "Did Someone Say Jihad?" An 83-year-old was caught trying to cross the border with ten pounds of meth. Border Guards became suspicious when the man swam the river, leaped the fence and dug a tunnel all in less than ten minutes. Here’s an odd story. Yesterday a man that was so fat tried crossing the Mexican border and became trapped in a tunnel. This really isn’t fair. If he’s that fat

Ok So I Too Have Weird Habits
player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1 I HAVE A HABIT OF FALLIN IN LOVE EASY, I KNOW NOT SO BAD, SOME TIMES IT WORKS OUT, LMAO, OTHER TIMES. 2 I SLEEP LIKE AN INFANT, I CAN NOT HAVE SOCKS ON, MY FEET HAVE TO BE TUCKED IN, AND THE BLANKETS PULLED TO MY CHIN. 3 OH MORE SLEEPING WOOHS, I WILL WAKE UP 90 TIMES IN A NIGHT TO FLIP MY PILLOW IF IT GETS TO HOT. AND I HAVE TO SLEEP FACING THE WALL, CLOSEST TO THE WALL, IM STILL WORRIED ABOUT WHATS UNDER THE BED. AND IF YOU DATE ME, THE QUICKEST WAY TO KNOW IM INSECURE WITH YOU, IS IF YOU WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, AND I AM LAYING FACE FIRST PRESSED AGAINST THE WALL, IT DOESNT MEAN I DONT LOVE YOU, IT MEANS YOU DID SOMETHING FOR

The Fifth Principle
taken from the following link Man, God or Creature Manas is the fifth principle ... that portion of Manas which follows the two higher principles is the ancestral Soul, the bright, immortal thread of the higher Ego, to which clings the spiritual aroma of all the lives and births. For Sutratma is, literally "the thread of spirit," the Immortal Ego, the Individuality which incarnates in man one life after the other, and upon which are strung his countless personalities. Your spiritual "I" is immortal, but from your present self it can carry away into Eternity that only which has become worthy of immortality, namely, the aroma alone of the flower that has been mown by death. Your present "I" is not the body, nor yet is it Manas-Sutratma, but Sutratma Buddhi. Spirituality is on its ascending arc, and the animal or physical impedes it from steadily progressing on the path of its evolution only when the selfishness of the personality has so strongly infected the real inner man with i

Lc Is Kinda Gay
i dont get this lost cherry shit AT ALL!!! i only hve it because something on myspae is always going haywire.... if only myspace wasnt so gay. why does everything on here have to be so confusing its hard to read ant the pages are to busy with a crap load of stuff.... very u organized.

Myth And Truth... The American Stage And Politics
MYTH 1: The US was founded on Christian principles. TRUTH: This is incorrect. The Constitution never once mentions a deity, because the Founding Fathers wanted to keep their new country "religion-neutral." Our Founding Fathers were an eclectic collection of Atheists, Deists, Christians, Freemasons and Agnostics. George Washington, the Father of our country, and John Adams (Second President of the USA) CLEARLY stated in the 1796 Treaty of Tripoli: "The Government of the United States of America is not, in any sense, founded on the Christian Religion.” G.W. rarely attended church and instead followed a popular 18th century philosophy called Deism—a Star Wars-esque philosophy that believed in a cosmic energy or big-ass universal "Force." The dictionary says that Deism is "a system of thought advocating natural religion based on human reason rather than revelation," that had nothing to do with Christian principles. James Madison, original mastermind of our Constitutio

Classification Of Reality
Classification of Reality - the Four Worlds Substance, that can take form, has numerous degrees of rarefaction and density. All that is, lives, and wherever there is life, intelligence and love can awaken. These are the primary qualities. The Cosmic Forces emanating from the Formless give form to, and perfect, worlds. The more rarefied degrees act as forces in the denser degrees. from the Bases of the Cosmic Philosophy The Classification of Reality

Try This!!
>This is funny - type out the sentence you end up with in the subject >line and >forward it to your friends. > > > Pick the month you were born: > > > > January--I kicked > > February--I loved > > March--I smoked > > April--I skated with > > May--I choked on > > June--I murdered > > July--I did the Macarena with > > August--I had lunch with > > September--I danced with > > October--I sang to > > November--I yelled at > > December--I ran over > > > > Pick the day (number) you were born on: > > > > 1-------a birdbath > > 2-------a monster > > 3-------a phone > > 4-------a fork > > 5-------a Mexican > > 6-------a gangster > > 7-------my cell phone > > 8-------my dog > > 9-------my best friends' boyfriend > > 10-------my neighbor > > 11---

Horribly And Utterly Heartbroken
ok. there was a love in my life. he stayed for a while. i thought it was real. then i found out that the whole time he was with me, he was also with someone else. that tore me apart. at night sometimes, i would close my eyes and see all the good time we had. then i would cry. but the tears formed not in my eyes, where they belonged, but in my heart, forming a well that threatened to drown me. i always thought it was somehow my fault that i loved him so much, but he just wasnt happy with me so he needed someone else. i asked him once, and he said that i was being irrational about it. i just didnt know what to say about it.... now at night, i think of someone else, but im afraid to love again.... my worst fear had come true.... i lost someone near and dear to me.... i tried to forget him, and i did. now, i realize that i didnt need him. i still dont need him. i also noticed that its now him that wants me back. its too late now. i just wanna be friends.

Question?
how cum we get so arroused and turned on by someone on the other end of this screen? has anyone ever really asked that question? cum on i know u sit there grinning from ear to ear, blushing at the way u thought or took a comment? Y can we not do that in person? Gees if we all just were honest and open from the beginning relationships may not b falling apart, can't blame this here box ...lol... HONESTY!! REMEMBER????

The Seven Principles Of Man
The Seven Principles of Man In Blavatsky's account of the seven principles of man [see e.g. The Key to Theosophy, pp.90-93]. we have again a synthesis of Advaita Vedantic, Samkhyan, Platonic, Egyptian, and 19th century occult concepts into a seven-fold classification. This is presented as follows: The Seven Principles of Man

Not Worth It!
My other half is a truck driver and he's been on the road for 6 weeks now. Enough already! It's time to come home! If he doesn't show up soon I' m gonna have to find me a boyfriend cuz I can't stand it any longer. A woman can only take so much celibacy! You hear me Tex!? Get your butt back here and leave those Cajun girls alone!

Haterz
So I get this email right out of the blue from some no brain numpty with a fake profile (devoid of any info) passing along his sage advice... i bet u like fat girls that missy u added is a 300 pound bitch i got the pictures to back it up lol she sick looking body all u see is her face tell her to turn her cam on i bet she wont haha u want them tell me ill send them to u the fat whore Alright, there's a few issues I have with the above noted commentary beside the piss poor grammer and spelling mistakes. He writes to me like I give a rats bum as to whether or not one of my virtual LC friends is who they say they are. You're all on here for a reason. In a very short period of time, it becomes blatantly obvious who is real and who isn't and who will yak with you and who won't. My friends that do; know who they are! God bless each and every one of ya. Another thing. Dude (dudette) or whoever the hell you are; wake up and smell the cappuchino. You're mouthing off to a guy with a sec

Kottonmouth Kings.
KMK is fianlly bringin' thier asses over here to Cali for a Pre-show party..Halloweed Tour..lol...(Nice name guys)..anyways..Its being held in Rocklin California in the Albertsons Parkinglot...Fuckin starts at 10am though...EARLY for me..lol..I might just make it though...MMFCL!..Peace!...

=(
So..I didn't get the job I was going for...which got me pretty bummed but now im applying at starbucks...hopefully that works out better lol and my singing lessons are going great and my teacher says im really evolving in my singing style..so i think thats good =)and other then that...i guess thats all

It Could Sort Of Work!!! Lol
AS I WAS BROWSING LC I SAW THAT A GIRL HAD MADE HER OWN CHASITY BELT. GUESS SHE WANTED TO SHOW HER MAN SHE COULD BE TRUSTED. OR MAYBE SHE JUST COULDN'T STAY OFF DICK BUT AS U SEE, SCROLL DOWN! THE FUCKING THING HAS NO LOCK!!!! HER VOW OF STAYING OFF PENIS DOESNT CONVINCE ME BUT I GIVE AN A- FOR EFFORT, JUST FOR THE PAIN FACTOR. ROFL-LMAO----BUDDY C.

Stupid Sales Ppl.....
OMG!! THESE PPL KNOCKED ON MY DOOR AND THEY WERE SELLiNG MAGAZiNES AND THEY WERE SO FUNNY AND COOL SO ME AND MY ROOMiE LET THEM iN.....THEY WERE AWESOME AND SO LAiD BACK....WELL LONG STORY SHORT WE BOUGHT LiKE 300 DOLLARS WORTH OF MAGAZiNES...THEY WERE 4 YEAR SUBSCRiTiONS... YEAH WE'RE RETARDED....AND WE'RE CANCELLiNG THEM SO HA....

Brrrrrrrr
OK FALL IS FINALLY HERE.. its freaking COLD HERE lol... I miss the summer already haha.. anyways.. I got my Pc back today yeehawwwww... so not much going on here other then getting things set back up... anyways just wanted too say hello and let everyone know Im still alive and kicking.. and did i say IM COLD lol... have a good one.. Be Good Or be good at it ( whatever that may Be ) Bec

Electirc
I see you, in the sun && the moon, in the morning, in the night time, whenever, where ever, you are every where, in every thought I think, and every dream I have, you are... and the very moment that you vanish, will be the death of me, the end of being, of dreaming, of loving, of breathing, because without you I am... Close your eyes, and think of me, join with me, in this fantasy, where our worlds are united, and our dreams can come true, me and you, electric... Je suis un porn star, when I think of you... rawrrr!!!

Tag Your It
player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1 I HAVE A HABIT OF BRUSHING MY TEETH A LOT. AND I CARRY A TOOTHBRUSH AROUND WITH ME. 2 I CANT LEAVE MY CAR BY ITSELF. I ALWAYS HAVE TO HAVE SIGHT OF IT OR LEAVE IT WITH SOMEONE I TRUST. 3 IM ADDICTED TO STEAK. 4 I LIKE TO BREAK BEER BOTTLES OVER GIRLS HEADS :-O! 5 I HARDLY EVER SLEEP, BUT WHEN I NEED SLEEP. I BECOME A BITCH. 6 I LIKE TO WALK AROUND MY HOUSE IN BOOTY SHORTS. (IDK IF THATS SO WEIRD BUT SURE.) DJ ANIDEX DJ INFERNO DJ SCARFACE DJ KARMA WINNY BIG JOE

And...
...and a bead of sweat fell from my brow, to rest upon your chest, like a glistening jewel, a symbol of the moment, the passion, the love. A diamond might be forever, and this might have been, just for the blinking of an eye, but it's value was that of a million gemstones, of rubies, emeralds, and opals. And I closed my eyes again, taking in a deep breath, sucking in the thought of you, as the pleasure overcame me, and once more I found myself moving down upon you, your face looming up towards mine, your warm breath upon my neck, and your smooth, moist skin, pressed against mine. It was a thousand nights of paradise, rolled into one micro-second, a fleeting moment of animal passion, but it was our moment, and no one could ever take it away from us.

Halloween This Year.....
Is really going to suck for the kids. I'm not going to have any money to buy them costumes! We have so many past due bills that need caught up due to Troy having to take so much time off of work in order to stay with the kids and me during my surgery and afterward, the bills had to wait and we've only been able to pay a little bit, barely half, just to keep stuff turned on, so now that we're having to play catch up, this means no money for Halloween costumes. I know they will be sorely disappointed because all their friend are going to be going and plus they won't be able to participate in the festivities at school. It never fails...something always has to be cancelled, people end up being upset and I'm always made to look and feel like the bad guy. I'm so close to just throwing up my arms and saying fuck it!

Slavery And Such.
Slavery is cool. There. I said it. Not for the slaves, duh. But for the ones who own them. How many times have you gotten up in the morning to find your house completely buried under rotten pumpkins? Or discovered a dead family of badgers in your toilet? Those things suck. But not if you own a slave. Slaves will clean them up. And if they don't you can trade them for jelly beans. Yeah, now try and argue against slavery with me. you can't do it in the face of my blinding logic. We will use the French as slaves this time around. Like they're going to resist us.

From The Hindustan Times
The gift of love is divine. It blesses the lover and the loved. But few of us realise that our capacity to love others depends on our ability to love ourselves. For, what can one give that one does not have? In the Bible’s immortal message, ‘Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself,’ the latter part, usually neglected is, however, equally significant. It enjoins us to love ourselves first. For, the more we can do so, the more we are enabled to love others. But it is not easy. Others may overlook our faults and follies but we cannot. Moreover, we judge ourselves more severely than we do others. It makes us more susceptible to what others say about us. In their criticism, we see the confirmation of what we secretly suspect ourselves of. And in their praise, we be come unduly elated. This can make life miserable. A person who cannot love himself is like driftwood in the sea. He can be manipulated to do outrageous things. In extreme cases it can drive him to become a criminal or a

My Poem!
IN MEMORY OF Donette Zella Leslie Sept.27th, 1961 â€“ Sept. 11th, 2006 D is for her Determination. O is for her personality that is very Outgoing. N is for her love of NASCAR. E is for her Enthusiasm. T is for her heart so honest & True. T is for her great love of Tattooâ€™s. E is for all of her lifeâ€™s Enjoyments. Z is for, she was very Zesty. E is for her everlasting Energy. L is for her unconditional Love. L is for her amazing Laughter. A is for her friendly positive Attitude. L is for her great joy of Life. E is for her presence of Elegance. S is for her eyes filled with Stars. L is for her pure Loyalty. I is for her Intelligence. E is for, she is as bright as an Emerald. Written By: Chastity AE Smith ( Chaz ) Goddaughter 09 â€“ 13 â€“ 2006

The Tickle Me Elomo Factory
There is a factory in Northern Minnesota > which makes the Tickle Me Elmo toys. The toy > laughs when you tickle it under the arms. > > > >Well, Lena is hired at The Tickle Me > Elmo factory and she reports for her first day > promptly at 8:00 AM. The next day at 8:45 AM > there is a knock at the Personnel Manager's > door. The Foreman throws open the door and > begins to rant about the new employee. > > >He complains that she is incredibly slow > and the whole line is backing up, putting the > entire production line behind schedule. > > >The Personnel Manager decides he should > see this for himself, so the 2 men march down > to the factory floor. > > >When they get there the line is so > backed up that there are Tickle Me Elmo's all > over the factory floor and they're really > beginning to pile up. At the end of the line > stands Lena surrounded by mountains of Tickle > Me Elmo's. > > She has a roll of plush red fabric and a > huge bag of small marb

You Are It
player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! 1 i used to eat ciggarettes when i was younger and liked them too 2 i like playing with glue making it come off my hands like it is skin 3 i have a habit of putting garlic salt on almost everything i eat 4 i have to have coffe and a caggarette when i first wake up or i am hell pissy 5 i used to get fucked under carnival rides when i was a carnie 6 i always have to play with my tongue rings when i am near a girl DJ EROTICA DJ TONI MISS SHERRIE MURKY JOKER LIVING.DEAD.GIRL WHITE RIDER

It's A Bloggin Kinda Day...
so i've got shit on my mind that i wanna say....yeah like that never happens. i'm tryin this new approach at being a "normal" person adn crawlin outside of my lil hole i call life. My depression has been perty bad lately, i like to think of it as "wall re-enforcement" month. Those who know me...know i keep a thick thick wall up as to not get hurt. very few select people actually get to see what actually goes on in my fucked up lil mind. Sometimes i thnk it's better to be on the outside lookin in anyways. But this helps me get shit outta my head. makes it easier for me to analyze and figure out what i need to do. My bestest fried Sue, she's been there alot for me the past year. She watched me do some stupid ass shit, she don't always gimme her first thought on the shit i do only cuz she thnks imma be mad. but i'm not. sometimes i don't see past shit and blind to the dumb actions i take. sometimes i just need the questioned to be asked.."WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKIN!??!

My New Skin
Hey My family and friends Check out my new skin on my profile. Is It not the greatest. I want to take time to say a very special THANK YOU and MMFWCL to my juggalette Krystal. Send her some clown lovings. Thanks Krystal Krystal Says Fuck You ~~ Juggalette Homie ~~@ LostCherry

Wtf Never Again
never again am i going out on a friday 13th car broke down, shop i went to had no coke i mean ffs no coke not even diet :-@ ellie pooped her napi an then jumped on the floor an it went everywhere all up her bk, over the flor an everyting in the middle of the park, which is also where i lost £20 an then to top it all off i got home went tp make cheese toasties an found my sister had eaten all the fucjin cheese an left the butter out next to the oven so when she grilled her toasties the butter all melted what a fucking day, never again i swear to god pmfsl

My Grammy Died Last Night :( :(
Sorry everyone, I know this is a downer, and some of you are probly wondering, "why post a bulletin about it?" I don't know. I am SO sad. I love my Gramma so much! I haven't known her all my life b/c of growing up in Africa, but I did get to know her after we moved back to the states, and I've always enjoyed her in my life. I moved to Arizona a few years ago and lived with her at first. It was great. I really was glad to have the time to spend with her and would tell my mom (her daughter) and my siblings that they should spend some time getting to know her because we never know when we won't be able to anymore. And I would give them grief over the guilt they would feel if they never got to know her. And now she's gone :( I got to know her fairly well...my mom says she can't stand her, so they aren't too close...I haven't talked to my mom yet, going to see her in a bit. But I started balling when my sister told me. I just feel so bad and so guilty b/c of course there were

Interesting Home Remedies********
Latest HOME remedies !!! Reheat Pizza Heat up leftover pizza in a nonstick skillet on top of the stove, set heat to medium-low and heat till warm. This keeps the crust crispy. No soggy micro pizza. I saw this on the cooking channel and it really works. Mona, Orlando, FL Easy Deviled Eggs Put cooked egg yolks in a zip lock bag. Seal, mash till they are all broken up. Add remainder of ingredients, reseal, keep mashing it up mixing thoroughly, cut the tip of the baggy, squeeze mixture into egg. Just throw bag away when done easy clean up. Janet, Killeen, TX Expanding Frosting When you buy a container of cake frosting from the store, whip it with your mixer for a few minutes. You can double it in size. You get to frost more cake/cupcakes with the same amount. You also eat less sugar/calories per serving. Kathy, Mesick, MI Reheating refrigerated bread To warm biscuits, pancakes, or muffins that were refrigerated, place them in a microwave with a

Sexual Frustration
Has me engaging in mental masturbation Reminiscent of her tender touches The warm softness of her skin while in my clutches The way her lips feel when they meet mine The sheer animalistic thrill of taking her from behind Maybe on top of me slowly as we go before picking up the pace The whole time gazing in those alluring eyes passion inscribed on her face Barely holding on while she works those womanly hips with expertise Fiening for a sweet sample of nectar from her lips, begging please Giving her a servere tongue lashing lapping it all up as she drips I can't take anymore as deeper in my carnal trance I slip First time I saw that beatuiful face and curvaceous features Thinking damn how could god make more beautiful creature Body built for pleasure, voluptuous yet everythion porportioned and tight The first time it seemed as her love fit me just right Oral goddesses made me loose all my senses Depth of her throat measured same as I in inches Talented temptress she was

Tag!!!!
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! Here are my 6 weird habits/things: 1. I can't leave my closet doors open before I go to sleep! It bugs me enough to get back out of bed to shut them. 2. I smoke when under extreme stress, even though I hate the taste of a cigarettes enough that I ALWAYS need an ice breaker mint along with it. (Here you thought YOU were weird, Chris! rofl) Once my life is back to normal, I turn back into a non-smoker! 3. When I'm sad and feel the need to cry, I deal with matters best when I have a rainstorm to walk in. 4. When I sleep on my side, I have to have a pillow between my legs to be comfortable. 5.

Things You Should Know To Pass On
> >> >LIFE IN THE 1500'S >> > >> >Interesting! >> > >> >The next time you are taking a shower and complain because the water >> >temperature isn't just how you like it, think about how things used >> >to > be. Here are some facts about life in the 1500's: >> > >> >These are interesting... >> > >> >Most people got married in June because they took their yearly bath >> >in > May, and still smelled pretty good by June. However, they were > starting to smell, so brides carried a bouquet of flowers to hide the body odor. > Hence the custom today of carrying a bouquet when getting married. >> > >> >Baths consisted of a big tub filled with hot water. The man of the >> >house > had the privilege of the nice clean water, then all the other sons and > men, then the women and finally the children Last of all the babies. > By then the water was so dirty you could actually lose someone in it. > Hence the saying, "Don't throw the baby out with the bath water." >> > >

Women 30+ ...
This is for all you girls 30 years and over... And for those who are turning 30, and for those who are scared of moving into their 30's... AND for guys who are scared of girls over 30!!!!... This was a monologue by Andy Rooney from the CBS show, 60 Minutes Andy Rooney said: As I grow in age, I value women who are over 30 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why: A woman over 30 will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 30 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And, it's usually something more interesting. A woman over 30 knows herself well enough to be assured in whom she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 30 give a hoot what you might think about her or what she's doing. Women over 30 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera

Body Modification
I read this on www.BMEzine.com and I couldn't agree more with what was said. I think people should have freedom of choice when it comes to what they want to do to their bodies and who they want to do it to them, whether it is harmful to themselves or not. ~Ash ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ “Nothing is legal with body hacking — so what!?! Why should we respect laws made by people who still believe that man should be like god made him? Why should we respect laws made by people who want to take the control of our destiny?” - Lukas Zpira In a recent ModBlog entry I featured someone who’d had a skin removal scar done, which then keloided out of control, constricting his chest and negatively affecting mobility. Instead of going to a doctor or attempting non-surgical options, he chose to have two very experienced body modification practitioners cut off the keloids and stitch him back together (as seen in our scar repair g

"blow Job Revenge!"
Best Drink Ever A woman and her boyfriend are out having a few drinks. While they're sitting there having a good time together she starts talking about this really great new drink. The more she talks about it, the more excited she gets, and starts trying to talk her boyfriend into having one. After a while he gives in and lets her order the drink for him. The bartender brings the drink and puts the following on the bar -- A saltshaker, a shot of Baileys, and a shot of lime juice. The boyfriend looks at the items quizzically and the woman explains; "First you put a bit of the salt on ! your to ngue, next you drink the shot of Baileys and hold it in your mouth, and finally you drink the lime juice." So, the boyfriend, trying to go along and please her, goes for it. He puts the salt on his tongue -- salty but OK. He drinks the shot of Baileys - smooth, rich, cool, very pleasant. He thinks - this is OK Finally he picks up the lime juice and drinks it.... In one

Hiya
Hey all well I been here a few months and I guess its bout time I done somethin useful and say THANK YOU 2 the new frinds on LC that made me feel so welcome and also 2 my old friends 4 joining us on LC and I hope they have as great a time on here as I am havin so show some of the love that LC is famous 4 mmmmmmmwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Hot Lust
Lovingly kissing you. Taking my time To undress you with my eyes. Caressing your breasts. The blood coursing like a mighty river through my veins. My heart pumping faster and faster. My cock pulses with desire. Touch it! Feel it! Lick it softly. Take it all! As your hot wet pussy touchs My lips!

Blah.
How do you say goodbye to someone you never truly said hello to. They're in your heart, and mind but you're not truly sure you're in theres =/. I know that makes no sense, and no one will understand it but kim. Blah. I hate this. =[ Its making me all blehy. meow. Fucking rawr dude. And my sinus are making my body ache!

Foreplay Ideas You'll Want
Foreplay is to sex what stretching is to a workout: easy to skip but essential for great results.And it's a lot more fun than stretching. Good foreplay is the way we smooth out our differences - slowing the man down a little, speeding the woman up a little, and meeting (hopefully) in the middle. And it's not just humans who do it. Most mammals will bite, scratch, nuzzle, smell, mount, urinate upon and otherwise make intimate contact with their partners for minutes, hours or even days before intercourse. We, too, do better when we work up to sex slowly, which is why time spent flirting, touching, caressing and kissing is time well spent. Why is it so important? Because women take longer to achieve orgasm than men. "A man's sexual responses are like a lightbulb: you turn it on, and it goes from cold to hot almost instantly," says psychologist and sex therapist Jude Cotter. "When you turn it off, it cools right away. But a woman's responses are more like an iron: yo

Why Vampfire?
I am always true to myself and everyone else in my life. My nickname really defines me. Vampires are very charming and romantic! Every now and then you get a new breed one who is not only charming and beautiful on the inside but also has the fires of pasion to go along with it . to know me is to luve me and to luve me is to accept who i am...

Ocean Of Passion
Like the ocean so wide and powerful with its waves rolling in and crashing against The rocks With the same force as my admiration towards the man I want to get to know I want to know and feel his strength, and feel the power of his touch, crashing against My soul I want to feel his passions his desires and the dreams he has Like the waters that go on Forever and ever I want to feel his tender touch caressing every inch of my body like the kiss of the sun over the ocean horizon, Faithfully each morning I want him to know that with each and ever word spoken is like a ripple that spreads throughout the deepest waters in My heart For the day is coming closer and the nights are getting longer in the desire To be near you I dream of that moment when the waters of the ocean and the rocks of the cliffs finally meet In a storm of passion, His every touch will be like a soft caress to the rocks of the cliffs below With each encounter will be like the waters stirring under the oce

Hinder - Lips Of An Angel
Honey why are you calling me so late It's kinda hard to talk right now Honey why are you crying is everything okay I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud Well, my girls in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel It's funny that you're calling me tonight And yes I've dreamt of you too And does he know you're talking to me Will it start a fight No I don't think she has a clue Well my girls in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lip

Why Do We Long For Love
People always tend to long for a companion. If men and women would stick to their guns when it comes to being faithful the world would be a better place! For me being faithful is a real elemental part of a true relationship. I was always brought up to believe that if you love and cherish what you have it will grow into something beautiful and always be there for you. Unfortunately not alot of people think this way and the nice and faithful become the hurt and used! So we do what comes natural either we fight for what we want or wither away in disgrace. Experience is a wonderful thing cause its what has kept me strong all this time now I just take it day by day and wait for my turn to have another go at true love. So till then I'll just keep dreaming till that day comes and that special woman comes forth and is willing to create a special place for us to be in. For the two of us to live and bask in the true meaning and spirit of the word love....

In The Heart
If the eyes are the true doorway to the soul then look into mine. You'll find a good friend there till the end of time. If it blosoms into more then you will see, That a pure heart is what beats in me. As night falls on this city and finds you all alone. I want you to know that I'll always be there to guide you home

Mr & Mrs First Time
They made their way through the house, through the softly lit parlor with abundant pillows and the big screen television, sound muted. Most bodies were upright but some were already horizontal and squirming -- all were naked. He had a nice build, with well-groomed pubic hair a testament to his regard for genitalia. Pierced nipples, too. Very nice. She was much smaller, with a delicate pussy. Great succulent nipples. The man was the first to notice the steady stream of porn being played on the wide screen but the woman saw that the coffee table was strewn with glossy nudie magazines. Steps from the kitchen, where voices and laughter suggested friendly interaction, she had a small panic attack and clutched his arm. I couldn't hear what they said but I can only assume that the steady visual stream of tits, asses, cocks, pussies, moans, and slippery sloshing noises overwhelmed her. It scared the hell out of me the first time, too. And she was a tiny thing, which made her seem more vulnerab

When The Night Calls
As night falls on the city, I embrace it all alone. It makes me wonder will I always be on my own. If ever I am to be judged for who I am I wont allow it, But you can judge me for what I do and I will let you into my life and let you see what a pure heart would be like.. I see big city lights calling out my name. The echos of the night are eched in my mind. Though I long for someone to love the arms of Mother night embrace me. The darkness keeps me company and the light of day look after me. Though the elements stay with me I long for companionship from another! A female companion who sees me for who I am and loves me for the way I love her back and for what defines me. I am all the things you dream of and I stand for all the things you long for. I am the one who will always be there for you and never betray you. Though I am a creature who is always misunderstood and always betrayed by others. I am the night, I wonder in the darkness alone I am a man for I am

When The Darkness Embraces Me
I am one with the night and embrace life to the fullest. It is said that it is better to have loved and lost than ever to have loved at all, But when the lost is thru betrail and deception compromise is the best defense anyone can have. Some things are best left alone at the bottom of the sea of forgiveness.. What is one to do when there is nothing left in your soul and pain and emptyness are the only things to keep you company. Tis this time that darkness falls. Then one is left with only one choice! Run from it or fight it head on so you wont loose your sanity and get consumed by the hate that is caused by the same deception that has just tainted your soul. It is here where one finds your true self. If your weak then the saddness will consume you but if your strong the darkness will become a friend and a mentor and this is where you'll find your true strength! For one such as myself it is a place of solitude and a place to regroup. When darkness falls I am waiting for a friend an

Splinter In My Minds Eye
As i lay on the rooftop staring at the night sky and contemplating on my life so far, my mind wonders. I remove the splinter in my minds eye and have a moment of clarity! People in the world are very dificult to deal with you have over 10 million different personalities some ruthless some mercerless some caring others malicious. The only one that counts is mine for now. Without mine in the right place I can't excist nor function! But a voice from the elders of my elders calls out to me and says dicipline is the key! Then it says there is a woman out there with your name on her mind all you have to do is run into her while shes thinkin about it! Now which is more difficult keeping yourself in line or running into that woman? They say if you give up on your dreams you die so theres no choice now but to go on forth and liveout your wildest dreams and enjoy life. Now for the real question at what point of these events do you run into ms. right? If ever at all. So if we do we are for

To All My Friends................
JUST A NOTE TO SAY HI JUST A NOTE TO SAY HELLO BEFORE I START MY DAY COULDN'T HELP BUT DROP A LINE TO A FRIEND SO FAR AWAY AS I SIP MY FRSH BREWED COFFEE THOUGHT OF YOU HAVE CROSSED MY MIND I SENDING MORNING GREETING AND HOPE YOUR DAY IS FINE TODAY ID FILLED WITH SUNSHINE LIKE THE FRIEND WE TWO SHARE MY DAY WILL BE JUST DANDY I'LL PRETEND THAT I AM THERE I HAVE TO GO FOR MY FRIEND HAVE LOT TO DO TODAY JUST WANTED TO SAY GOOD MORNING IN THIS EMAIL SENT YOUR WAY

Tickle Me Elmo
Tickle- Me Elmo There is a factory in Northern Minnesota which makes the Tickle Me Elmo toys. The toy laughs when you tickle it under the arms. Well, Lena is hired at The Tickle Me Elmo factory and she reports for her first day promptly at 8:00 AM The next day at 8:45 AM there is a knock at the Personnel Manager's door. The Foreman throws open the door and begins to rant about the new employee. He complains that she is incredibly slow and the whole line is backing up, putting the entire production line behind schedule. The Personnel Manager decides he should see this for himself, so the 2 men march down to the factory floor. When they get there the line is so backed up that there are Tickle Me Elmo's all over the factory floor and they're really beginning to pile up. At the end of the line stands Lena surrounded by mountains of Tickle Me Elmo's. She has a roll of plush red fabric and a huge bag of small marbles. The 2 men watch in amazement as sh

Death Or Shades Of Grey
It is often said that when we die it's only the beginning of everlasting life! I feel life as we know it is some how connected to the other side! It's like 2 alternate worlds coexisting with one another! Only one runs a time frame a lil quicker than ours. For me that explains dejavue, we enter one alternate universe and it takes a while for this reality to catch up so we get that feelling like we've been through this before! To me when we die we experience shades of gray and lite fog all around with everything a lil dim. I think the movie Silent Hill explains that very well! Some people die and they don't realize it so they walk around in this alternate universe exactly like ours but with out the colors of life. And some people claim to see the dead, but thats only because from time to time they cross over to this universe lost for a min and there is always someone who will see them! Even for a brief minute! I just had to share that analogy with my peeps and readers to give you all a

New Cell Phone Law
Cell Phone Law According to the new law you will no longer be able to use a cell phone while driving unless you have a "hands free" adapter. I went to Circuit City and they wanted $50 for a headset with a microphone for my cell phone. Having a friend in the cell phone business, I talked with him and was able to come up with an alternative, working through Office Depot. These kits are compatible with any mobile phone and one size fits all. I paid him $0.08 each because he bought in quantity. Then we tried it with T-Mobile, Motorola, Sprint, Verizon and Nokia units and they worked perfectly. A photo is attached so scroll down and take a look and let me know if you want one. Also, forward this to anyone you know, who has a cell phone, and who may want one! IT ALSO COMES IN A STYLISH CO-WORKER MODEL, DEMONSTRATED BY MY FRIEND, NINA, AND CO-WORKER LISA

Revealing The Wild Thoughts
My Thoughts of You* How can you love someone you have never seen with a feeling so passionate that it makes your heart skip a beat at the sound of his voice? How can you feel his hands on you, when he has never touched you? How can you feel his lips kiss yours when he has never whispered your name in the night? A love with such passion that life could have never known it in your wildest dreams. Or if it could ever be possible would you turn it away in fear that it could not be real for you had never known such a love. For this love I would take the chance of heartbreak. For I have known a lifetime of heartbreak and heartbreak in itself is of a temporary nature if we allow it to be. But to know just one moment in my life with such passion such feeling such want such need. I would give myself entirely without regret without sorrow without remorse to you your wants your needs your love your life. To deny such a love would be the most fatal

Poem By "kenny"
Love is feeling another persons pain. Never an agreement and never in vain. Love is putting someone else's needs in front of your own. It's the most amazing concept mankind has ever known. Love is knowing when to walk away. It's also the only reason you need to stay. Love is why it hurts so badto be alone at night. It's why we hug,kiss,and even why we fight. Love is to blame for every broken heart. Also behind every tear we cry. That same sweet emotion can make you want to die

His Love Guides Me
His love guides me By Moriah L. Caldwell Today I decided to follow the footprint of time For many have traveled this path I have found a similar road and followed it Trying to find my own path in life. The travel was hard and cold But he lead me the way Through rocky trains...we traveled Through rain and snow Through love and hate For I was traveling their path New to this path That man had not face for many years The route has been charted And roads have been paved Their steps never faltered Nor courage grew dim, Because of the faith they had in him He lead each of us by the hand And when we tired, and felt we Could not go on He would carry us with his loving words For they trusted in God And allow him to lead them My faith and my trust Remain true to him copy written; Moriah L. Caldwell

Wonder
I sit and wonder why people say the things they do, and never seem to follow through. I sit and wonder why I am so empty inside, then I realize people never follow through. You ask me why I am so closed down, and the walls are so solidly built, you tell me why, do you have guilt? I never will blame you, for I am the one who put my faith in you, even though I knew you would never follow through. So forgive me if the wall is high and tough to break, it is in place for my own sake.....

A Different Night
Its our normal hanging out time: Sitting in my basement, talking and making out on the couch down there. But tonight is different. I want to make this more memorable then past times. "So what do you wanna do?" You ask, hinting at something dirty with a sly smile and lazy eyes. "Hmm, I don't know," I reply, smiling and moving in to kiss You. my kiss is deep, my tongue pressing against yours inside our mouths. i brush back your bangs from your eyes and let my hand linger down the side of your face, down your neck, and brushing against your chest. I slip My hand underneath your shirt and push away your bra, fondling you aggressively, but with gentle caressing. i stop when You start kissing my neck, my instant turn on. You stop once you feel a bulge starting in my jeans and make it so i lay down, you sitting on my lap. you bend down and continue to kiss my neck, feeling me grow bigger and bigger against the crotch of your jeans. We continue making out, im slowly thrusting my hips

Im Goin To Edmonton
IM FLYING BACK HOME ON MONDAY, EDMONTON ISNT READY FOR ME JUST YET ..BUT THE TIME HAS ARRIVED AND NOW I MUST GO !! KIDS COME BEFORE ANYTHING IN ANYONE'S LIFE...BUT I GUESS THATS NOT THE WAY IT IS FOR EVERYONE.... LOVE ALWAYS DEE OXO ..I FUCKING HATE FLYING THATS WHAT BITES !

Of A New Friend
Form and balance , a sense of style Blessed by the angels with a beautiful smile Head and shoulders above lost soul Sought for your heart and mind in control Standing your ground, facing the fire Despite the evil ones heated desire To step in and end my friendship with you That is just something I can not do For there are people lost in cyber-space You are the one who carries on with grace No drama of one who lost grip on reality I would rather seek you out and in time see If you and I have a lasting friendship true This is my clean slate to begin all anew By Ron for Grace

Survey
Welcome 2 the Nasty Survey. Are u daring enough 2 answer this 4 this person (person who posted it)? if so, message them your answers!!! rules: Answer this 4 the person who posted this and then repost it 4 your self! 1.Would u have sex with me? answer: 2.What position would u ........ me in? answer: 3.Would u eat it up? answer: 4.Would u sex me hard? answer: 5.Would u have sex with me the first night u met me? answer: 6.Give me a naked pic? answer: 7.Would u do me in the shower? answer: 8.Would u hancuff me or tie me up 2 the bed and then do me? answer: 9.Would u use desert? answer: 10.Would u have a 3-some with me? answer: 11.What makes u want 2 have sex with me? answer: 12.Would u talk dirty 2 me while we sexed? answer: 13.Where would u do me @? answer: 14.Would u do me in front of people? answer: 15.Would u do me again and again? answer: 16.Would u do me in the rain? answer: 17.Would u mind if we did it like ...

Whiskey Lullaby
Artist : Brad Paisley Title : Whiskey Lullaby Genre : Country She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind Until the night 1st Chorus He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger And finally drank away her memory Life is short but this time it was bigger Than the strength he had to get up off his knees We found him with his face down in the pillow With a note that said I'll love her till I die And when we buried him beneath the willow The angels sang a whiskey lullaby (Sing lullaby) The rumors flew but nobody know how much she blamed herself For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath She finally drank her pain away a little at a time But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind Until the night 2nd Chorus She put that b

Song That Fits My Life
Pain By Three Days Grace Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling down You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Paint, I can't get enough Pain, I like rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing Rather feel pa

Work
So I work for this great company. The bnefits are great the people are fun to work with but then there is this odd feeling I get when I pull into my parking space at work. My stomache drops, my head aches, my heart pounds, and the silent dread of working for 8 hours on the phone with people who believe they are better than me, trying to improve my conversion, and dealing with my prick DC who I swear hates my guts. But this is what we call life. We take the insignificant jobs that we don't like so that we can pay for our education, our car, or insurance, the luxury of a phone and food. So why is it that one place has to be so strict? Don't they understand that that is why they have such a high turn over rate? I guess they don't. Not ony that but they have me on graveyard. I don't get much of a social life anymore and my alarm has decided to stop waking me up. Joel. He's another aspect of my life. I don't know where we are headed but there is so much of him that annoys the hell out

To My Friend John Wolver
THOSE SPECIAL FOOTPRINTS THERE'S FOOTPRINTS LEFT UPON MY HEART FROM PEOPLE I HAVE MET THE ONE'S WHO'VE TOUCHED ME IN A WAY THAT WILL NOT FORGET. A GENTLE WORD, KINDNESS SHOWN SOME LAUGHTER WE HAVE SHARED.... SPECIAL PLACES WE HAVE BEEN; THESE FOOTPRINTS TAKE ME THERE. SO WHEN I'M FEELING LOST AND BLUE AS SOMETIME I MIGHT BE... THEN I'LL REACH SOFTLY TOWARD MY HEART, WHERE FOOTPRINTS COMFORT ME.

Dragon Slayer
Dragon slayer Current mood: contemplative Category: Writing and Poetry That they liked him was no wonder. How could they resist? He had spent a lifetime learning how to say these things. Ah, and even the most subtle reaction to his words was not lost on him. He remembered everything. His words could sing the ears and dance inside their heads, striking chords, creating symphonies of romantic thought. And not a single word was wasted. He despised those that wasted words. Words were precious to him. Each word was chosen with the utmost care. And they loved him. They loved his words. They loved the way his words made them feel. The way they made them feel about themselves. He knew the path to the heart well. He could pave a silver and gold road of glimmering adulations directly to the heart. And polish it with velvet rags of hope. Longing rays of hope. They loved him and they knew not why. They longed for more, more ear tickling from this master of sweet drivel. A

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Friday The 13th, Tales From The Juicy™
This story will seem a bit unbelievable...but its true the night started out odd last night. i was watchign ER (cus im a freakin addict) dealing with all my emotional baggage i had at my feet and in walks jeremy. as far as i know at that point we are split up and i dont want to be. at all...so we talk a while and decide to go to bed. That alone is weird because he NEVER spends the night on a work night since his house is so much closer to his work. So we are dead tired and fall right to sleep (noooo there was no funny business dirty minded boys and girls) and at 3 am i hear my brother screaming "who are you! how did you get in our house. Get out get out" i FREAK out...jump outta bed and yell to jerry that someones in my house and he bolts outta bed too! i run out into the living room and see some strange woman standing next to my dads hospital bed (he's confined to bed due to MS). I start to really freak out on her and i see she is drunk (and smell) and she's freaking out right b

Driving
Alright...so I'm a car fanatic and a fan of driving in all situation. A good driver to me isn't the one who gets there first, but accomplishes their driving goals. IE, in a neighborhood, goal #1 should be looking out for the kids! Interstate in heavy traffic, going with the flow of traffic. Open interstate and no one insight...hauling ass! So if the car can go 165...the law shouldn't be able to same a word about it if your not inside city limits and high traffic areas! Think autobahn! 10x's more Americans die per capita each year because of politically motivate speed limits than in Germany. If you've got a Z06 Vette or a Cayman S...let them do 140 cross country? It won't bother me any! So why does Germany have such lower death rates per capita? Easy...ALL traffic must stay right unless passing &&&&&& the big one many selfish Charlotte, NC driver ignore because the spineless DA's office refused to presecute...NO TAILGAITING. In Germany...it's time in prison for some.

Thanksgiving
A man in Phoenix calls his son in New York the day before Thanksgiving and says,"I hate to ruin your day, but I have to tell you that your mother and I are divorcing; forty-five years of misery is enough. "Pop, what are you talking about?" the son screams. We can't stand the sight of each other any longer," the father says. "We're sick of each other, and I'm sick of talking about this, so you call your sister in Chicago and tell her." Frantic, the son calls his sister, who explodes on the phone. "Like heck they're getting divorced," she shouts, "I'll take care of this," She calls Phoenix immediately, and screams at her father, "You are NOT getting divorced. Don't do a single thing until I get there. I'm calling my brother back, and we'll both be there tomorrow. Until then,don't do a thing, DO YOU HEAR ME?" and hangs up. The old man hangs up his phone and turns to his wife. "Okay," he says,"they're coming for Thanksgiving and paying their own way."

We Need To Make A Juggalo And Juggalette Chapter For Lc To Runn Shit
AIGHT YALL I HAVE JUS COME UP WITH THIS GREAT IDEA ALL OF US JUGGALOS SHOULD COME TOGETHER AS ONE ON HERE HAVE EVERYONE ADD ME AND THEN GET ALL OF OUR HEADS TOGETHER AND COME UP WITH THE GODFATHER AND ALL HAVE A CREW GOING ALL JUGGALOS WE NEED IT UP ON HERE AS OUR LIFES OUR FAMILY EVERYTHING WE BELIEVE IN IF ANYONE AND I NEAN ANYONE AGREES OR DISSAGREES WITH ME LET ME KNOW AND IF ANYONE IS UP FOR IT ADD YOUR YAHOO SN ANY SN YOU HAVE LEMME GET IT SO I CAN ADD YOU TO MINE UNDER FAMILY AND WE WILL TAKE THIS OVER BY STORM YALL THIS IS FOR THE JUGGALO NATION SO LET'S DO THIS FAMILY FAMILY FAMILY AND IM OUT

Shit
A little old lady answered a knock on the door one day, only to be confronted by a well-dressed young man carrying a vacuum cleaner. " Good morning," said the young man. "If I could take a couple of minutes of your time, I would like to demonstrate the very latest in high-powered vacuum cleaners." "Go away!" said the old lady. "I haven't got any money!" and she proceeded to close the door. Quick as a flash, the young man wedged his foot in the door and pushed it wide open. "Don't be too hasty!" he said. "Not until you have at least seen my demonstration." And with that, he emptied a bucket of horse manure onto her hallway carpet. "If this vacuum cleaner does not remove all traces of this horse manure from your carpet, Madam, I will personally eat the remainder." The old lady stepped back and said, "Well I hope you've got a darn good appetite, because they cut off my electricity this morning."