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Fashion Tv Blacked Out For Obscenity
The Information and Broadcasting ministry in India suspended Fashion TV broadcasts for airing obscene fashions. Apparently some of the runway models were bare-breasted while strutting their, um, stuff. The ministry sighted upper nudity as being “…against good-taste and decency.” The lesson, I guess, is if you don’t have good-tasting breasts then you are obscene. For more http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/03/12/fashion-tv-pulled-air-india-obscenity/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%253A+foxnews%252Fentertainment+%2528Text+-+Entertainment%2529 BlastFM keeps its nudity behind the microphone so you don’t need to worry about seeing something offensive. Just listen Baby! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Fulminate
fulminate\FUL-muh-nayt\intransitive verb; 1.To issue or utter verbal attacks or censures authoritatively or menacingly. 2.To explode; to detonate.transitive verb: 1.To utter or send out with denunciations or censures. 2.To cause to explode.

Caa #134
Urgent angel prayers of healing, love and comfort needed for my Aunt Toni who suffered a heart attack and stroke yesterday. They say so far she is doing well, but the road to recovery will be long. Love, Doc

[round 5]
Tonight was dinner at my place.She brought the wine.We watched two of our favorite movies. mine:Ikiru the saddest and yet simultaneously most uplifting movie of all time hers:the music man... Shepoopi shepoopi the girl that doesn't quit. But I did get a good line from that movie "Good night my someone" and I will be using it on her later. We talked about sex... of all thingsand pushy guys and my big crazy stupid dog Discussed a great many things.I noted we had a good rapport, and that was pretty good for now.We discussed love, and how it doesn't have to be a story book. It was unhealthy in fact for it to be so. I built up to the idea of coffee and pie with her.We have plans Tuesday, but its kinda... goofy, I might get into that laterkind of her ex's idea, and as I've already saidkind of a wingbat. So dinner My first course was burnt popcorn and sweet tea...my second course was properly heated popcorn. My main course was tuna steaks cooked medium-well (still moist, don't freak

Anyone...
Since Tink is in no way of help with this ( Thanks, Tink (y) ) does anyone know what (sa) means? Im at a loss And yes, its uberimportant I know this. I dont like being kept in the dark about these things...

Remembering Lyrics
I am listening to Eternal E, by Eazy E, and most of these songs i havent listened to in at least 15 years, and im amazed i still know all the words... and i cant remember what i had for lunch yesterday... Im bored

When Rough Is Too Rough
Recently I had a conversation with a friend about rough sex, mainly cause she was limping and I said "what? too tough?" and she replied that indeed it had been too rough. I don't know about the rest of you, but I do like to spice it up a notch by going a bit on the rougher side of life. But in the heat of the moment sometimes you don't realize that you are actually hurting the other person and since they are having a blast too, they don't really feel the pain. Not long ago I started biting a girl during sex, first like playful nibbles but as the sex got hotter she started asking for more and lo and behold, the next day she had bruises all over her breasts, arms, neck, thighs and buttcheeks. Which made me think "I guess I shouldn't have actually bitten but more like nibbled a wee bit" So have you had this happen to you and did you learn from experience or it keeps happening?

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I just posted new clips to My clips4sale store #4083.The 1st of 7 new clips posted today. This 6 minute clip contains:latex, thigh high boots, rope bondage, nipple torture, cbt, cfnm, domination, long red fingernails, scratching, pinching, clamping, femdom, Visit www.clips4sale.com/4083 to download see the nearly 100 other clips I have available to download.MISTRESS GENEVIEVE Click to join mistressgenevievesslaves

Take Cover
So the shit hit the fan last week. This teacher I mentioned a couple of blogs ago (in this thread), is up to her tricks again, twice in one week. First she may have lost 5 thermometers and tries to blame us when she didn't do her job properly as laid out by our science classroom guidelines. Second, instead of asking for something she needed, she goes in to a room, helps herself to what she thought she wanted, but even though it wasn't the right stuff, used it all regardless. When the bottle of this stuff is realised missing, my mum (senior technician at the school) asks the teacher if she took it, who says no, but lo and behold, there it is in her classroom that no one else uses. That has not gone down well at all....

Offended. [not Really, But Kind Of]
Most people on mine and Witchie's friends list know that we have nicknames for each other. I call her Goober and she calls me something else. Some time today I was visited by a user with the name "Goober".....it wasn't her. Why in the world is that bothering me? lol. The first person that can tell me what she calls me, wins a bling. [no Witchie, you can't say it]

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I love the memories that I have made in my life but I wish that some of them weren't as powerful as they are... It would be nice to have like an off switch when it comes to memories. So many things always in my head never really going away, just biding their time, waiting to come back on you and take their toll all over again. I don't want them anymore why can't I just finally find a place and leave them.... You can come to terms with things and accept that's how it is and you can think you're actually to a degree getting past it all... And then it all falls down and the monster takes up the whole fucking house again and there is no escape, there is no forgetting... I am so tired of going to bed only to dream about screaming and it won't leave my head ever... It's always the same it's always still so real like it was yesterday...

2 Month Mark...
I can't talk about it...getting back to where I can't think about it...if I try or do I break and cry.... I can talk to his family and friends like the reason we are in eachothers lives now, not because of his death but just by chance. I'm a bit upset that I still feel so strongly about the accident, I feel connected to him, though he was just a stranger. I also feel that a part of me died with him on that horribly cold night.

Broken Wings
Some called me your Angel for trying to save you that night But my wings were broken and I could not take flight Looking at your body I felt your soul touch mine And heard the message you wanted to give to the family you left behind Thru my tears you guided me to a lifelong friend And showed your family that thru this new one Your story will never end We cannot forget 2 other Angels were with us that night But you chose to speak with me

Kisses Kept Are Wasted
....one day I will bless you all with my OWN poem, until then... Kisses Kept are Wasted Kisses Kept are wasted; Love is to be tasted. There are some you love, I know; Be not loathe to tell them so. Lips go dry and eyes go wet; Waiting to be warmly met. Keep them not in wanting yet; Kisses kept are wasted. ~~~Edmond Vance Cooke~~~

Time
I spend a lot of time on Fubar, probably more than I ever should, time that should be spent being a mom and fiance. I've met a lot of great people and made some lasting friendships. So, I have no regrets about anything. I'm a sucker, I've sent people millions of fu bucks for auto 11's and blasts that never panned out, I was ripped off. Still, I'm happy to be here. I make salutes for salutes that I never get back. I see obviously fake profiles getting showered with bling, blast and happy hours..I laugh them off and know in my heart that I'm real and am happy with who I am and don't need to be fake to be appreciated. Up until today, The best thing about Fubar, was my opportunity to meet up with a couple of old friends that I haven't seen in years. I renewed old friendships and have a great time. One of my friends is quite popular on here and is constantly seen floating across our screens. I had lunch with the her this week and found out about what her life is really like. Sh

Wretch.
Piteous moans inside my head, considerably afraid I'll wake up dead... and dreaming. Critics all around me, screaming my name. I know I'm the only one to blame. For this fucking mess I've so neatly arranged... Freeing muck from my vision, and crawling obscenities from my lungs. One of these days I'll breathe again. Today? Tomorrow. The day after...next. Circle, circle, circle round, I'm not the only one still falling down. Remind me why I still face back, when my future sorely lacks any sort of balance or sunlight. I am frightened, but you can't tell. And the stairway to hell looks more and more inviting. I can't be saved. But it's okay. I'll find my own way.

Like A Spring Day
Just like this beautiful spring day,This one also a joy to welcome in.From the beauty from her eyes to her smile,To start I'm not sure where to begin. A smile that glows brightly,Just like that of the sun.Her eyes that sparkle so wonderous,Like the stars when the day is done. So beautiful let your smile warm my day,And you eyes dance in my night.And as each day comes to me.Always I will look forward to your light.

I'm In Pain
My life is going pritty good for nowMy girl friend thinks i'am weird butI dont give a fucking dam if i'am.I wish i can change my self dramaticlyBut i cant my last gf carrie betrayed me.,She hurt me more than ever more than amanda will ever will.Every fucking time i get pissedI feel death & when i'am not i feel darkness in my vains.I like to have people read my shitthat i have on myspace so they to can feel my pain inway.I end up with a broken heartevery time i look in to her eyes thinkinwhat i shoulda have done with my life.My life aperntly sucks ass bc i wish my life would go better my life is hard at timei really hate it so much. my gf dos not understand howmuch pain i've gone threw.Theres so much sorrow in my lifeI wish it would go away & leave me aloneBut I'am happy for Jenise & Dale i hope theystay together for a long time to come.with love comes pain,but I would rather love,then die with no pain. I would rather die in your armsinsted of some 1 else's. I will keep you for everif

Recipes
my friend witchcraft has been putting on her blogs some very good recipes,so i thought i would find some original type recipes and do the same.where i can i will put where i found them to give owners credit where it belongs. first one is called elephant stew found in a old remington recipe collection,enjoy. 1elephant(medium size) 2 rabbits(optional). salt & pepper to taste brown gravy (lots). cut elephant intosmall bite-sizepieces. this will take about two months. keep the trunk!you will need something to store the pieces in.add enough brown gravy to cover. cook over kerosene fire for about 4 weeks at 465 f. this will serve about 3800 people. if more are

Rage: Out Of Control
From the shadows such beauty he appears, the angel from above, I have lost all doubt and fears. Never shall it falter or fail, my one true love is pure you know this well. How do you angel have power over me? Is it for real all that you say? his words so soft such a levely sound, so pure and true this love I have found. You are forever my angel that holds my soul, its a love that rages out of control.

No Feelings
Thought you might want to know. Thought you might want to hear it all from me. I ahve no feelings for you no more. I cant tell you how much it hurts to move on. Trying to escape from you with out any luck. My minds madness runs a muck. Just one touch sends such chaos into a bliss. The love I felt just wasnt strong enough, from my binds of madness I am set free. The love I had did not hold, am I so strong and bold to move on. You had my heart from hello. Now its time to say goodbye, now its time to go.

Blackout
The darkness screams around me, my mynd slowly forces itself back into consciousness. As if it climbs upward towards, not a light but a faint glowing fog. Holding my head in a vain attempt to cease the vertigo that threatens nausea, I feel the icy coldness of the unseen surface beneath me. I shake as I push myself up to try to stand. Weakened Limbs tremble as I will my body upward, shoulders slumped in pain and longing anguish, I bring myself to my feet. Muscles once solid and strong, feel frail and unable to hold the weight. I sway from the act of it. It comes to me that the last thing I remember before the blackness was facing the wall of reality. I must have hit it hard. Stumbling, blindly, pain making it almost impossible for me to want to exist, groping madly for something solid in this immeasurable abyss. My body screams from within as the pain grows with each step. I go forward, unsure if this is the path I take or have already taken. I guess it matters not. Either leads to mor

[everything Got Quiet.]
All the rage got out.Now I'm just a limp empty balloon.Kinda feels nice. Maybe its the tea. Maybe its the dull gray sunday morning.Or the long sit on the edge of the bed. The fact that date 5 is on the way? I dunno...My mom called last night mid-breakdown.And I only answered because I knew she'd calland calland calland calland call And it all came out. Every single aspect of my life is pissing me off. My brother didn't get the job in this region.My friends are twats.I'm artistically dehydrated.I've had this same upper head cold for 2 1/2 weeks.My dog is cunty and in heat.My family is supportive but ceaselessly irritating and poking into my life.What so many people are willing to erroneously call a relationship is constantly riding the brakes.I'm getting a financial foothold, I'm even going to write the check to pay off my folks next week and not bat an eye-but what that also means is I need to take another step, I'm secure but I need to be earning at least twice this. I need to m

Money
Anyone wanting some extra cash? www.freelancer.com is a great site to get some pocket money. People are willing to pay you just to type articles or make other things for their websites. Some pay up to a few hundred dollars, while some are smaller and don't pay as much, it adds up fairly quickly. I know the economy is a shit festival from hell right now and I am currently unemployed, with no prospects of being hired any time soon. This site is helping a lot though. So please don't ignore me, you have nothing to lose. The site is free, with the option of paying to get accest to mo re projects at a time. But you get 25 for free and there are many various vocations that you can get paid for. Side-hobbies and what not. Please don't ignore me, if you are in need of any help, here's your chance. What have you got to lose? 15 minutes to make 40$ seems pretty good to me.

Http://fubar.com/user/3562462
I'm not one to ask people for rates, bombs, bling, etc. It's just not my thing. But if you are one of those people, MAKE AN EFFORT! This person I don't know asked me to give them some points, however, didn't rate me or my photos or anything. Um, hello? Why should I when you didn't even make the effort yourself?

The Gay Debaters... Lmao
Okay Raven [user/353944] after seeing Freedom is Conservative and I debate that we have been having in his mumms over days decided to do this photo.. damn how do I also end up in this position [shut the fuck up spinoza.. I know you would say something about positions]So she did this photo of Me and F.I.C… damn it Yes she has issues....Okay I am bored …so here goes…I am watching V for Vendetta ...for the second time today.The squirrel outside My window seems to have had babies since I see em poking head out nest.Boast nearly crashed into side of walkway earlierI seen this hot chick in a gas mask dancing at a place I walked by yesterday…was quite tempted to go in… Haven’t a clue what else to say haha [random things may be added to this blog as I see fit-anything UNDER this has been added] What Raven just said on her pic she uploaded.. Wicked Raven said:I am sure they do. They call and say:Freedom "no hard feels sweet cheeks. it's your stubbor

I'm Not Perfect, And That's Okay
I'm not perfect and that's okay Because the Goddess didn't make me that way People will judge me but that's all right It won't disturb my sleep at night Some people may not like my voice They don't have to listen, they have a choice Some people may not like my clothes But I like my style and that's the way it goes Some people may not like what I have to say It's my opinion, but I'm sorry they feel that way Some might have a problem with the way I am But the truth is I don't give a damn Some people may think that insults will hurt me Their words are based on ignorance, they don't know me My personality may rub some the wrong way But that's all right, I won't see them another day Words may sting, judgment may be cruel But they can't change my point of view For my beliefs people may try to knock me down But I'm a survivor and I'll stick around People may taunt, tease, jest and mock me But they'll get theirs eventually I may not be as attractive as a movie star But it's perseverance that

The Real Me
You've come to me based on an ideal Believing your own fantasy real But I am flawed, merely human I am the common creature known as woman I never lied about my being, my choice And I've spoken with no other than my own voice I wear little makeup as I've no obsession With that unattainable thing called perfection I do not care to chase men as sport And with womanizers I have no rapport You say that I am without a clue But that's not the case - so here's a tip for you If I interest you, then accept me for who I am For your unrealistic vision I don't give a damn I am stubborn, my laughter is rich I am intelligent and a sarcastic bitch I have no patience for pettiness or fools And I refuse to play by your rules I am more gentle and kind than angry, you see And love is a many-splendoured thing for me When I give my heart, it's for eternity I lock inside the one I love and throw away the key But it's not through words that I demonstrate passion I do so only through my actions I feel more de

Look Here
some where out here is a woman lost she does not know where she belongs/// she knows not her true place is here and we cant help her right her wrongs/// this girl likes girls and would soo love mine and care equally for me/// yet shes never been here so she doesn't know yet that here is the place to be/// if and when she finds her way this house will be home again/// full of new hopes and dreams that only rise up and will not can not descend /// full of love trust a place to return after the longest of days /// and she will know this love and respect its power and know WE are not just a phase///

Death X3
Three men approached the gate to heaven and as there was only one opening left, the gatekeeper said that whoever had the most remarkable and worthy death could enter. He asked the first man how he died, and the man replied, 'Imagine this -- I suspected my wife was having an affair behind my back and I wanted to find out the truth. I came home from work one day to surprise her and catch her in the act. When I searched the house I found her in the bathroom. The mirror was fogged and she had a towel on but her hair wasn't wet, so I knew she wasn't taking a shower. I looked all around the house to find the guy. I found ten fingers hanging onto the window sill outside. I pounded them until he finally let go. When he fell he landed in some bushes and God must have loved him because he lived, so I threw the refrigerator out the window to finish him off. After all the excitement I fell dead of a heart attack.' Then the gatekeeper asked the second man how he died. He replied, 'Imagine this -

Thoughts Of A Soldier
Thoughts of a Soldier I struggle to see my objective for the sand blowing in my eyes,I hear the sound of explosions like thunder from the sky,My mouth is dry and my body aches,I must push on no matter what it takes,the lives of so many innocent keeps running through my mind,I know this is why my country has put my life on the line,So don't lose hope America we do this for you,For all your soldiers bleed red, white and blue....... BY DevilDog612

A Soldier Remembers
"A Soldier Remembers" I look around me, all I can see is sand. My mouth is dry, my mind is numb; I hear a scream--- "OH, GOD!!"as I turn my head I see; my brother, my friend, we have been side by side since bootcamp.I try to move, but the pain tries to keep me down. As I reach him, he says; "don't leave, I'm s c a r e d." Then,in my mind I think of:others who have come to pass, those who protest what we do, and say "Why? WHY? Should he die for YOU?" He is young and full of pride. He volunteered to fight; and now is scared and cries. You watch T.V. and curse us. You make remarks about what we do.Yet, how the HELL do you know what we go through. His Mom and Dad I'll soon face; to give them a necklace he wore til he died.Can I look into their face? He is gone, but you are still here. The pride he had, you'll never have near. You may look down on me, but love for some; I have no more. Yet, I still fight for. Remember this: The Few -- that fight for YOUR freedom,The Proud -- prou

Windy Days...
The years rolled slowly past And I found myself alone Surrounded by strangers I thought were my friends I found myself further and further from my home And I guess I lost my way There were oh so many roads I was living to run and running to live Never worryied about paying or even how much I owed Moving eight miles a minute for months at a time Breaking all of the rules that would bend I began to find myself searching Searching for shelter again and again

My Status
Just some of my status lines that people have gotten a kick out of.... Some say the glass is half full. Some say half empty. I say who cares, i need a refill!!! Life is like a peanut butter and jelly sammich. I don't know why, it just is ok! I'm not naughty, i'm angelically challenged! Pet my beaver I'M HERE. COMMENCE WITH THE ADORING. lol Slim fast shake and vodka. How's that for a liquid lunch! lol looks at YOU with my men who stare at goats sparkly eyes technique Your place or mine? Tell you what? Head at my place, tail at yours!

Family Ties??
I am not close with any of my family. My mother do not speak to each other, I have tried but she uses me for what I can give her and when things don't work out her way she stops talking to me. My sister tries to RULE me when I speak to her. " Do this and do that" and If I don't I am a traitor and she doesn't let up. My brother is a follower of "GOD" thats fine, I have no issues with that, I do have an issue with his preachings to me. I grew up the good girl, never into drinking, not once did I do any drugs, stayed out of trouble, wasn't having sex ~ and STILL NOT( he was out doing all those things)Thinks he has the right to preach his word to me. I don't follow his religion. I have always been a kind, compassionate, loving soul. I give until I can't give anymore. I don't feel he has the right to preach to me when I am already following my own spiritual beliefs. My older brother has sad issues like my mother( alcoholic and mean spirited individual) I just cant associate with these peop

Have U Ever
have u every been in love wit some that u can have but u thought u could walk away from. But u couldnt at all. The more u Push urself away the more u want them. Some peoples lives aint the greatest but knowin that someone out there loves u for who u r and all ur issues that u may have. Do wat u can to make it work. Do all u can to live for the moment and wat thrown in front of u at the time. But just dont let love pass u bye. Before you're stuck wit someone that dont or want u to change to fit wat they want u to be. All i can say is do u and be u. Love that person wit ur whole heart and soul.

Just A Thought On The Morning After The Death Of My Dad.
Wishing there was someone in my life I could hold, love and look into the eyes of, who see's the real me, is unafraid and wont run away from all of who and what I am. Or was the only one who ever did the only one that will, and will her death last year be the last I know of true companionship

Just Thoughts I Guess!
I sit and wonder how someone can hurt someone else and feel ok about it! I wonder why so many people on here are so cruel and mean!? I wonder if the crap they pulled on people happened to them what they would feel!? I wonder how people can talk so vulgar to people they never met. I wonder if people wonder why all of the sudden they lose their jobs being on social networks. I wonder if people know that part of background checks now are searching websites like this to see how you act and what is said. I wonder if people know that if you act a certain way on a website bosses can fire you for disorderly conduct to strangers. I wonder if people really feel good about themselves doing it? I wonder how many people really have the utmost repect for those who bare all and talk all. You know there is a million things I wonder. I also wonder how many people are really truthful on this site?! I know that when I say I care about someone you better bet that those words are gold. My heart

Lust
Like turns to lust~ Lust turns to love~ Love soon turns to lies~ Revealing the truth when I look in your eyes. Emptiness swings to and fro~ Black then sees the light~ Insanely cruel thoughts overflow~ Into my head all through the night. The unknown stairs you in the face~ While reality rips away at your throat~ Deja-vu reveals this place~ Forever gone with one last note. Coppyright Rhiannon T. Howard

Kingdom
You sit among your gold and selfish ways,Slowly goes by your lonliest days, You made promises you knew you couldn't keep,Sadly you lost countless nights of sleep, You kew not to try her patience, her anger- when you did you recieved and deserved her anguishing terror, And even you in your infinite wisdom, tried but couldn't save your precious kingdom. coppyright Rhiannon Howard

Fed Up With Life
ok... so here i am... sittin at a freinds house... talkin to a friend on yahoo.. and I am told that you shouldn't worry... but your man just went to see his ex cause he had to... I tried to ride with him... but he wouldn't let me... but you don't need to worry... i dont think anything will happen... What the HELL kinda bullshit is that? Why wasn't i informed? I tell him everything... Yet the kindness can't be returned? I don't know what to do anymore people.. I really don't.... I am so confused... I trust him... but I am still scared that he might leave me... I don't know... I just don't know... Leave your comments.. lemme know what you think... All I know is... I need to go to bed... cause this shyt is rediculas

Teenagers By My Chemical Romance
They're gonna clean up your looks With all the lies in the books To make a citizen out of you Because they sleep with a gun And keep an eye on you, son So they can watch all the things you do Because the drugs never work They're gonna give you a smirk 'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean They're gonna rip up your heads, Your aspirations to shreds Another cog in the murder machine They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me They could care less as long as someone'll bleed So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me The boys and girls in the clique The awful names that they stick You're never gonna fit in much, kid But if you're troubled and hurt What you got under your shirt Will make them pay for the things that they did They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me They could care less as long as someone'll bleed So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me Ohh

Please Help If You Can. This Is Not Spam Or A Hoax!!
This family is very good friends with my family and they are in serious need of help. This is not a hoax or spam. This is very true. Something that is not mentioned in the article is that the son worked from home building websites on his computers to support them. They lost everything in the fire, except the family Bible. Including the son's ability to work and provide for his family. The computers were a total loss. After the fire, the doctor's gave them even more bad news concerning the son's fiance. Any help that anyone can give would be very appreciated. The donation information is below the photo in the article. Thank you so much!! http://news.cincinnati.com/article/20100302/NEWS01/3030326/Northside-fire-victim-needs-helping-hand

Mr.vancouver Washington(long Distance Relationship)
Although we didnt see each other for 3years and half....... You will always be miss.. You will always be here in my heart no matter what.. You will always stay special... Although baby your gone in my life.. All i can say is your the best gift that happen to my life Wish that you already found the woman for you to marry.. I dont need to be sad... All i can say is thank you for the best thing that youve done for me.. Your the best man here on cherrytap.....now its FUBAR..

The Times In Today's Fubar...
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

The Times In Today's Fubar...
Once again, my friends it’s been awhile since I ranted and raved about much of anything so…with that in mind, well, ya know… The last post regarding how Fubar and the people and they way they interact have changed over the past four years did receive a lot of positive responses, which was a good thing and funny thing is, is that it was mostly the old timers that spoke of the days gone by. Either the newer people just don’t get it, or cannot relate to it, for as I stated before, all they know is bling… ..not much really has changed in that respect I see. It’s funny when I look at the Top Dudes of the Week all the time now and just see the same five faces there all the time, how they get there, was explained in this blog post some time ago

About Me
MY NAME IS ANTHONY AKA SOBERDAILY35, I AM 35 YEARS OF AGE AND STAND 5 FEET 10 INCHES TALL WITH BLUE EYES AND SHORT DARK BROWN HAIR AND A NATURAL TAN. I AM CLEAN CUT AND HAVE NO TATS OR BODY/FACE PIERCINGS NOR WILL I EVER GET THEM, I WILL NOT JUDGE YOU FOR HAVING THEM THO. I AM A SWEET KIND GOOD HEARTED MAN AND I DO HAVE WHAT SEEMS LIKE 2 SIDES TO ME. I HAVE THE GOOD SIDE OF ME THAT HAS MORALS AND TRIES TO DO THE RIGHT THING BUT THEN I HAVE THE BAD SIDE OF ME THAT LEAD ME TO LUST AND FANTASY, BUT AT LEAST IM HONEST ABOUT IT. I AM NOT ON HERE LOOKING FOR ONE NIGHT STANDS OR WHAM BAM THANK YOU MAAMS BUT AM HERE FOR FRIENDS AND OCCASIONAL PHONE FUN WITH THE RIGHT OPEN MINDED WOMEN THAT DONT JUST WANT PHONE PLAY BUT ALSO WANT A REAL FRIENDSHIP ALSO. IF YOU WANT TO KNOW ANYTHING ELSE ABOUT ME FEEL FREE TO ASK OR CHECK MY PROFILE FROM TIME TO TIME. ONE LAST THING, AS FOR MUSIC I HAVE A PREFERENCE FOR CHRISTIAN ROCK/METAL ETC SO DONT FREAK IF YOU SEE POSITIVE MUSIC IN MY PROFILE. THE OTH

As Is.
Gently wedging styrofoam against metalhoisting and hauling... and cramming it into the box.That squeak of protesting cutout and cardboardalways makes my skin crawlMust be how most people react to nails on chalkboardback when chalkboard was culturally relevant.All hail dry-erase.And the fine inky powder it leaves on your fingers.Professor's in their fashionable spectaclesand square jawsleaning coyly against the boardand putting their $300 jacket over a full length smudge up their back. For a moment I missed Matt.A moment interupted by placing this duct tape against the parcel and slapping a big red "return to sender" and for some reason summoning a memory of that blackhole that used to insist she wasn't like everyone elsethe girl that smoked naked in the garage when it rainedor always borrowed my favorite shirts because they smelled like me.The one that smiled after saying something cruel.And turned away like a petulant child if you didn't love her enough, that very second.That girl I

From Lace To Shadows
This is a story written from one perspective of two. Feel free to add on, or just wait for me to. =P If it doesn't make sense it's because it's not supposed to. Just visualize the setting however you wish and plug in these details. Should prove to be fun. ^_~ Watching the fanciful display with his head tilted leaning back on a desk he dropped his bag slowly and crossed his arms at the chest. He seemed to talk back and forth between his shoulders, mumbling and shrugging. Eventually he shrugged once more and said, “Well indeed.. in of chaos are we all.” He walked forward slowly and nudged the bag away from her and placed a hand on each hip. Spinning her quickly to face him, he paced one step closer to her. Leaning in very close as if to kiss her, and just as his lips almost pressed hers he stopped. His face grew somewhat blank, and it was obvious he was thinking something. “Tell me a joke.” He narrowed his eyes as he picked her small frame up by the hips and walked toward a

Loosing A Friend
no body really reads these and i really have to write something down and here is just as good as anywhere else i lost a friend an within minutes i found an even older one and im still vary bumbed depresed really dont get me wrong i have tons of friends but only a hand hull i can really say i love to death and would do anything for if only asked. only this hand full holds a peice of my soul and any loss of those few hits me hard and deepest and i lost one of this few today no they are not dead or dieing but a path was choosen that i couldnt go down and good by's where made i promised that i would not follow and as a man of my word i shall not i understand why this had to be done and respect there wishes so with a smile on my face and a hearty farewell i died just aliitle inside a small peace of my heart witherd never to be filled with life give by there smile or there sweet plain ol' hi's by them ..........................i have nothing more to say if you have read this well thanks fo

Gay And White...
Damn it, since I am an Atheist that means I am a gay white guy with horns... I have heard the term "white devil" before but usually from some pro-black militant guy...damn it I am a gay white devil LMAO...yes I am bored

Will You?
So, the addiction is getting stronger but I can't let it win.The addiction I replaced it with has removed itself.I want to grab you by the collar and shake you!Don't you know what you do to me?!Stop feeding me your beautiful lies!I can't stomach them anymore.I want to pound my fists into your face.Only then can I kiss your wonderful lips.Maybe then you'll notice!No, probably not.So I hide behind my make-up.So I cover my head.So I stab her in the chest and watch her bleed.Then I rejoice as that part of me dies.Will you notice that I am gone?Will you notice that I no longer give a fuck?My walls have been carefully constructed.Let's see you penetrate them now.My blue eyes flash a challenge.I can no longer obey one who does not take notice.You're no better than the rest.In the end I'm not worthy of remembering.I'll never find another because love is not worth my time.So here is my heart. You can have it.I no longer want it.The pieces no longer fit together. Do what you will.Here is the gun

Part 1
My thoughts I promised would stay hidden,But there is nothing that I can no longer do.They are no longer just in my head,The thought of you now runs in my body to. The idea of your lips running gently over mine,Warms my core and eases into my veins.I see your hands sliding down my body to thier goal,As waves of you pound through my brain. As I lay you down and your mouth slowly parts,One last kiss before the rest of my dream begins.My hands now are moving,as they now thier task.They slide your silk awayTo reveal what you have hidden. I slowly ease down my lips touch you all on my journey,The sweet taste of your skin reminds,a dream you no longer are.My hands move and begin to part your legs,I lick my lips because from me heaven is no longer far. My hand reaches you first slowly caressing the lips,As my lips inch across your belly,my fingers sense your aroused.My mouth closes near,longing and wanting to taste you.I kiss and lick your thighs,your time has come now. My mo

What Happen On March 9,2010
..I and my mom left the trailer right after 5:30 pm headed to McDonald's well everything was going good I was smiling and having good time just been out.Well we arrived at McDonald's I got out of car with my cane in hand we both head to door.I and my mom put are orders standing looking around and I noticed how people just stared at me cause of my cane I'm having to.Well I told my mom I was found a table for us and I sat down well I forget my straw well be fussed who get the straw I won so I walked over and get me a straw.That when it all started going down hill I start to gasp just for seconds for air and I told my mom I need medicine I'm glad I told her bring it well I waited and took the first pill I don't have no problem taking it then I went take the second and I had trouble swallowing the pill.After I took my medicine my whole right side started to jerk a little I told my give me 10 minutes for medicine to work and the jerking will stop.It didn't the jerki

Bb ... Rest In Piece!!!
Rest in Peace BB you will always be the wind beneathe my wings. " BB " A year ago today I lost my best friend. I miss her more than you could ever know. She's in heaven through the gates of gold, A beauty for all to behold. I sang our song tonight, and I dedicated it to you. To show the world just how much I miss you. I sang so loud and so clear. Once I seen you I sang it , without fear. NObody's calling so answer your phone. Then look toward the heavens , and see, she'd never leave you alone. In loving memory of my best friend Beverly King 3/13/09 Written at 3:56 am

Matt Damon Is A Hater Too
It always amazes me when people born here in this great country try to tear it down. A country where Matt Damon has made millions of dollars acting in movies then turns around and blames America for the ills of the world. I would love to see him go to any other country with nothing and achieve the wealth and fame he did here. It would never happen. Be thankful you were born here Mr. Damon. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/03/11/new-matt-damon-movie-green-zone-called-appallingly-anti-american/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%253A+foxnews%252Fentertainment+%2528Text+-+Entertainment%2529 BlastFM broadcasts 24/7 without censorship because of American freedom. Listen for yourself. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

~aries~
Aries Strength Keywords:> *~* Independent--very *~* Generous---was in the past but got used one 2 many times *~* Optimistic *~*Enthusiastic---sometimes lol *~* Courageous--- oh yea;) Aries Weakness Keywords:> *~* Moody---I plead the 5th *~* Short tempered----Im hotheaded, not gonna lie *~* Self-involved----ITS ALL ABOUT ME, ME, ME!!! *~* Impulsive----gets me in trouble every time:( *~* Impatient--- after a few minutes, I start pacing and thats never good... Aries and Independence:> "Aries personalities are independent. Being the first of the zodiac signs, they venture out and are go-getters, often leading the way. Their upbeat and magnetic personality often entices others to follow their lead because Aries personalities bring excitement into others lives" ME: Im a very independent woman who owns her house..(paid-in-full by me, the one of a few things that Im really proud of). I try to bring excitement but Im really rea

Have I Ever
Have I Ever Have I ever told you that if I sit really silent,sometimes I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine?Have I ever told youthat when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords,and bites and ram,I imagine your voice whispering in my ear?Have I ever told youthat I wait out each day in anticipation,wanting only an hour or two,just a second in space and time to feel close to you?Have I ever told youthat there has been times,when I ached for you,so badly that emotions overwhelmed me and so I sat and cried?Have I ever told you that sometimes I will reach out,touching your name on this cold screen before me,wishing I could reach in and pull you to me?Have I ever told you that after the first tme I heard your the sound of your voice.thousand miles away,I sat up all night,turning the conversation over and over in my mind examining it,like some newly discovered species of flower?Have I ever told youthat I would give up everything,just for one night to b

Mom's Battle Is Almost At An End....
THERE'S ONLY A SELECTED FEW WHO HAVE GAINED THE INSIGHT ON MY WORLD...THOSE FEW HAVE BEEN BY MY SIDE SENCE DAY ONE OF THIS LONG AN TIREDSOME 2YR BATTLE...AN NOW I SHARE THIS WITH ALL OF YOU FU...IT WAS JUS TWO YRS AGO WE RECIEVED MOM'S DIAGNOSIS OF CANCER....SENCE THEN SHE'S HAD ONE MAJOR SURGERY TO REMOVE HALF A LUNG AN FOUR RIBS MAKEN HER NEEDING RECONSTRUCTIVE SURGERY AFTER....SHE'S HAD TUMORS REMOVED WITH THE CYBER KNIFE AN ENLESS AMOUNTS OF CHEMO AN RADIATION TREATMENTS..AS A RESULT SHE'S NEED A FEW BLOOD TRANSFUSIONS....AS DR'S HAVE BEEN WATCHING HER OVER THE YEARS THEY NOTICED ANOTHER TUMOR GROWING NEAR HER ESPHOGIS(SPELLED WRONG SUE ME) IN JUS A FEW MONTHS TIME ITS GROWN TO REACH THREE CENTAMETERS IN LENGHT NOW....BECAUSE THE TURMOR IS TOUCHING BOTH HER HEART AN ESPHOGIS DR'S ARE UNABLE TO USE THE CYBER KNIFE ON HER...BY USEING THE CYBER KNIFE THEY COULD ACTUALY BURN A WHOLE IN HER ESPHOGIS LEAVEN HER PREMENTLY TUBE FEED FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE....IF THEY WHERE TO DO RAIATION

What Is The World Coming Too?(do You Think This Is Right? Comments Are Welcome)
So,there was a story that just broke on the news. if you live anywhere in northwestern or maybe even any northern part of mississippi then you probably know the story im talking about. a school in Itwamba,Ms a few days ago known as Itwamba Agricultural Highschool denied a Senior her right to go to prom with her girlfriend stating that it was against the code of conduct. now,granted i've always known that this country was kind of intolerant but i had no idea it was that bad until i heard this story on the news. what kind of world do we live in where a girl can't simply take her girlfriend to prom and they lay down such a rule in their code of conduct such as this? if that is the case then why are there not rules in the code of conduct about taking your cousin or uncle or brother or sister to prom? & no one can say its because its less likely they have relations because i've heard quite a bit about cousins & even brothers and sisters having relations. but they dont stop them. they even w

Poem
Mere words can't do justice, to the feelings in her heart. The way she feels, needs and aches for him. The way that she carries his smile and her soul, and takes it out from time to time. Just to make everyday seem more bearable. The way a thousand voices ring in her ears, yet she only hears his unspoken words. The way every thought every sight and sound. Reminds her of something else and someone else of him. The way she loves unlike she's ever loved, without all the pretense and confines that she thought to be love. They way she knows this even though this love will remain untouched it has touched her. Though she will never feel his hands in the small of her back. He has guilded her back into life and love and she will love him always.

More And More, For Her
"The Secret" Her eyes shine, deeper than the deepest pool far more lovely, than mere stars shining I could float through those orbs, forever happy as a little boy, with a new toy She is, the only thing I desire from this world, or any other for Her, I would do..........anything and gladly count the cost as well spent And what, you may ask is this secret well, my friend, it is simply this I love Her, far more than I love myself

My Ansewers To The Worlds Hardest Questions
E - Are we alone in the whole Universe ?no is dumb and selfish to think we are the building blocksfor life (amino acids) or the first single-celled organisms arrived on Earth from space via an asteroid. If this is true (and it most likely is - they had to come from somewhere!), then there must have been life somewhere else in the universe2-who and how build the pyramids of Egypt ?they cut limestone with copper and dragged them and used ramps3- when you shall die ?when our bodys can no long function correctly thats why good health is the key 4 -definition of human concioseyou mean Consciousness? or conscience?ethier way we only use a small part of our brain as humans some one side or then others depending on if ur creative or not ,being aware of ones self u can awaking and learn how to use more of ur brain ....as for feeling bad that is cause we know what is right and wrong as humans we make mistake no one should ever feel bad from making a mistake just learn from it 5-your pict

Return Of The Fart Poem
People turn thier heads,As they pass by,He always wanted to ask,Because he never knew why. He would look in the mirror,To find any little defect.It all appeared good to him,There was nothing he could detect. Still noone would come near,Till one day it all came to an end.And with the sadness gone,A new way of life could begin. What was his problem?What was it that set him apart?Ever since this man was born,He has let out one long continous fart.

A Must Read!
Countries follow a lengthy, predictable course.1. From bondage to spiritual faith;2. From spiritual faith to great courage;3. From courage to liberty;4. From liberty to abundance;5. From abundance to complacency;6. From complacency to apathy;7. From apathy to dependence;8. From dependence back into bondage.Countries peak fairly early. Citizens flourish, trumpets blare, and God sheds his light on thee. In a few generations, everyone puts their Faith in the national Hype. Everything will always get better because the Society is so unique and glorious and brilliant. A skip or two later, everyone is so comfortable they can be manipulated with promises of greater comfort at no expense. The meanings of the words found in the Eight Stages of History become muddled through misuse, ignorance, and poltical-minded education. The comfortable, ignorant society begins to implode under its own weight. Everyone wants the reward but no one wants the responsibility. Dependence becomes the norm.The thoug

Milf
Hey Ladies we are looking for some new milfs to add to our page! So if you want to be added to the milf page all you have to do is add rate and fan the top three milfs :) and we will let you know if you are accepted....

The Coupling Of Passion And Erotic Lusts
A touch of skin soft and slippery, With the hint of hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, As the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, To abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, Probing gently as if drawing sex, From a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, Of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, Our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece, Until there were no hiding places, For the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, As the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, And lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, Your hands stroked the stray strands, Away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way, To urgent and demanding thrusts of pa

Her Ghost In The Fog
She was divinity's creatureThat kissed in cold mirrorsA Queen of SnowFar beyond compareLips attuned to symmetrySought Her everywhereDark liqoured eyesAn Arabian nightmare...She shone on watercoloursOf my pondlife as pearlUntil those who couldn't have HerCut Her free of this WorldThat fateful Eve when...The trees stank of sunset and camphorTheir lanterns chased phantoms and threwAn inquisitive glance, like the shadows they castOn my love picking rue by the light of the moonPutting reason to flightOr to death as their wayThey crept through woods mesmerizedBy the taffeta LeyOf Her hips that held swayOver all they surveyedSave a mist on the rise(A deadly blessing to hide)Her ghost in the fogThey raped and left...(Five men of God)...Her ghost in the fogDawn discovered Her thereBeneath the Cedar's stareSilk dress torn, Her raven hairFlown to gown Her beauty baredWas starred with frost, I knew Her lostI wept 'til tears crept back to prayerShe'd sworn Me vows in fragrant blood"Never to partLes

I Left Out The Gory Parts Ie:pinned Between 2 Cars, Brain Tumor
A STORY ABOUT ME I was named Daniel, after my mothers favorite book of the bible 1. Born 1963, 3:29 p.m., 6.2 inches, 9.?Lbs. on a Wednesday, at Providence Hospital, in El Paso, TX. 2. My brother, Porfirio 2nd brother, didn’t like me because he wanted a monkey. He cried X George, he was down to earth, Kind of guy, GOD REST IS SOUL. The LORD took him in September, of 2005’. It was just the 3 of us. 3. I can remember as far back to the crib 4. Diapers ewe, felt uncomfortable and soft at the same time. 5. Remember getting big laughs, when I would fall down on my little butt, diapers were like butt absorbers. 6. Didn’t like it when my privates were washed, but it felt much fresher after. Later in life little did I know that I would like it, hmm. 7. I was breast fed for 3 months, got rid of the bottle, ‘baby bottle’, at 9 months. 8. I remember that my mom and grandmother; (quita), the true word in Spanish is, (abuelita), but I couldn’t say that, so tha

[indefinitely Pissed]
Airbrush is BRICKED....And no I don't fucking know what's wrong, my ... 4 page user manual and all these online guides are of little to no help.I've deep cleaned, stripped, scrubbed, solved, scraped and cleansed for 2:30 hours. Not a fucking DROP of paint is coming out.Checked the feedchecked the needleschecked the seals FuckINGB R O K E. I have another one available but no fucking hose or adaptors. So... I cut the hose and fed it into an adaptor nozzle and finished my first layer of primer. That shit is RIGGED though and this is not a full-time solution. I'm really pissed.I'm not in the market for another hobbymaybe another airbrush.

Worst Things You Could Shout Out During Sex Is?
Worst things you could shout out during sex is...Hunny have you started yet? Worst thing you could shout out during sex is..someone elses name Worst thing you could shout out during sex is..Hey dummy thats not the right hole. Worst thing you could shout out during sex is...asking if your out of toilet paper as you make a grocery list. Worst thing you could shout out during sex is...wonder what its like making love to a girl/man Worst thing you could shout out during sex is....gawd hun stop I have to pee. I was just in a silly mood when I thought of this laffin

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When every candle has burned outAnd all the dreams have endedWhere are you?I'm searching through long past daysAnd all the memories that remainfrom what it wasEvery day it was me and youAll night, so empty nowGive me the answer tell me howI am still longingAs the storm drives a seaAs the sun goes downAnd never waked up moreBut we will love each otherAs the waves caressing a beachAnd whisper your nameMinutes turns to long yearsAnd if your time is heavy and difficultThen I will be hereI'd sacrifice everything I haveIf you could stay hereAnd believe in meWithin me the fire still burnsAnd it will burn for a long timeSo look at meI want to be with youI can wait an eternityIf I know that you come to meI swearI will always be here

How To Make A Beautiful Life
Love yourself. MAKE PEACE with who you are and where you are at this moment in time. Listen to your heart. if you can't hear what it's saying in this noisy world. MAKE TIME for yourself. Enjoy your own company. Let your mind wander among the stars. Try. Take chances. MAKE MISTAKES. Life can be messy and confusing at times, but it's also full of surprises. The next rock in your path might be a stepping-stone. Be happy. When you don't have what you want, want what you have. MAKE DO. That's a well-kept secret of contentment. There aren't any shortcuts to tomorrow. You have to MAKE YOUR OWN WAY. To know where your're going is only part of it. You need to know where you've been, too. and if you ever get lost, don't worry. The people who love you will find you. Count on it. Life isn't days and years. it's what you do with time and with all the goodness and grace that's inside you. MAKE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE........ The kind of life you deserve.

Forever Yours
My world stands stillMy mind so sublimeI've lost all conceptOf my reality and time. Where once things were in focusNow all grayish bluesNo longer distinguishing between day or nightNot knowing if my heart was sure. Once you were my beaconMy light from inside the darkFrom out of my ashesYou were always my spark. You gave me reasonWhen I thought I had noneYou made everything brand newLike my life had just begun. Now my meaning is lostI've been without you as days turn to weeksNow lost in total confusionNot knowing what I seek. So if your faith you have in meRuns with your love deep in your soulThen tell me true and tell me nowI will give you back more than you'll ever know. My heart forever yoursMy love for you will never changeThe beat of my heartFor you, forever will it remain.

Caa #132 Update 5
Been a busy week and want to thank you all personally for your prayers. Addysan was allowed to go home, though she may need some surgery, she is well enough now to do it as outpatient. Mom and dad are relieved, the trips to see her have been long and putting a strain on the finances. God Bless you all and thank you from me, mare and the family. We pray good health to you and your loved ones and friends. Love always, Doc

Words Of Wisdom From Brother Ali - Good Lord-
Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem[Chorus - Brother Ali]I said the good Lord made me what I am and I play this game for keepsGot to use what I have to get what I want, all the dreamer got is his dreamAnd the good Lord made me what I am and I play the hand I'm dealtSaid sometimes the hardest thing to be in this world is just yourself[Verse 1 - Brother Ali]Best believe the Qur'an influenced all of my songsMy fans run and tattoo 'em all on they armsWanna travel, be there every time I performNow look me in my eye and tell me, how am I wrong?And who would of thoughtJust givin 'em the truth from my heart, both the ugly and the beautiful partWould give 'em food from thought, let 'em chew it apartAnd they'd all crowd around me and my movement would startAnd how you gonna hate me for being what God made me?It's not a game, I ain't sayin it playfullyThey relate to the joy and the pain in meAnd seein me make it be watchin a slave get freeHoller like Bilal in the towerHiya ala al fallah, Allah is the p

Another Poem
i call this one end this is the end for me this is the end for us this is the end of my life i cant take the heartache this is the end of everything my life is nothing but hurt and sarrow to the one that left me in this dark cold place i will love u for ever till the worlds end i cant take this pain i cant take this sarrow so this is the end....... good bye.........

[what I Got I Gotta Get To Put It...]
So... I'm a scooch hard up.Why does my tooth hurt when I cough?God that's weird-between dating this suuuuuper cute girl and now having sex dreams (not specifically about her) I'm a littlebottled?We'll go with that. I can't pass it off, I can't share the love.I'm stuck here daydreaming and getting progressively more frustratedMo~!Gotta have it :| So the dream I had last night was pretty good, I was on my recliner with ... I think four women in my house, and we ran out of chairs (somehow) so one was sitting on my lap, this cute petite girl and so she's grinding against me and starting to breathe heavyand she unzips me, puts down a blanket and pulls me out for a handy.Then she takes off her panties (wearing a skirt, and pulls her shirt up to expose these itty bitty cupcake titsand I run my hand up her sleek lithe body and she starts jerking faster and starts sliding my tip in(note, my friend chris called me JUST now, and I'm really not in the mood to be on the phone for four fucking ho

Using Herbs Simply And Safely
Are herbs “dilute forms of drugs” – and therefore dangerous? Or are they “natural” – and therefore safe? If you sell herbs, you probably hear these questions often. What is the “right” answer? It depends on the herb! These thoughts on herbs will help you explain to your customers (and yourself) how safe – or dangerous – any herb might be. To prevent problems when selling or using herbs: 1. Be certain you have the correct plant. 2. Use simples. 3. Understand that different preparations of the same herb can work differently. 4. Use nourishing, tonifying, stimulating, and potentially poisonous herbs wisely. Be Certain You Have The Correct Plant One of the easiest ways to get into trouble with an herb is to use the “wrong” one. How could that happen? Common names for herbs overlap, causing confusion as to the proper identity. Herbs that are labeled correctly may contain extraneous material from another, mo

The Six Steps Of Healing
What are the Six Steps of Healing? These are remedies you can use for your problem in order from safest to most dangerous: Step 0 is the safest; Step 6 the most dangerous. Use Steps 0, 1, 2 and 3 as preventive medicine. Prevention is an important, though often invisible, way of healing/wholing in the Wise Woman tradition. Deep relaxation, information exchange, energetic engagement, optimum nourishment (including touch) and exercise promote health with little or no side effects. Examples are in parenthesis: (with a few of the modalities available at each step)Step 0: Do Nothing (sleep, meditate, unplug the clock or the telephone) A vital, invisible step. Step 1: Collect Information (low-tech diagnosis, books, support groups, divination) Step 2: Engage the Energy (prayer, homeopathy, ceremony, affirmations, color, laughter) Step 3: Nourish and Tonify (herbal infusions and vinegars, hugs, exercise, food choices, gentle massage, yoga stretches) Note: Healing with St

Baba Yaga Stories
Who is Baba Yaga? She is the Goddess, she is the Witch, she is the Wise Woman, she is the Crone, she is aged artemis. Baba is Grandmother. In Tibet, fierce demons are Yagas. So she is the Grandmother Demon, Grandmother Dragon, the fearsome, the fierce. Baba Yaga is the subject of many Russian folk tales or fairy tales. She is very very old. How do we know? We are told her nose curves down and her chin curves up and they nearly meet. Since the cartilage in our noses, chins and ears continues to grow throughout our lives, only someone a hundred or more would have such a remarkable face. Her fingernails, it is said, are as thick and ridged as roof tiles. My, what a mineral-rich diet she must have! And they are stained brown. Any herbalists here who have noticed such a staining on their hands after a summer of harvesting? I have. Baba Yaga lives in a house that nearly defies description, yet any herbalist would feel right at home there, overlooking perhap

The Wise Woman Tradition Empowers Women
The Wise Woman Tradition is the oldest known healing tradition on our planet. It offers a unique view of health that is woman-centered and deeply empowering to women. This is in stark contrast to orthodox – and most alternative – healing traditions, which are based on male viewpoints which disempower women. The medicine I learned in school was based on a linear, scientific, male worldview whose truth I did not question. When this medicine failed me, as a woman and a mother, I sought alternatives. Herbs helped me take care of myself and my family, simply and safely, but I questioned the assumptions behind what I was taught. It was clear to me that alternative health care disempowers women as much, or more than, orthodox medicine does. They both actively assume that the norm on which assessment of health is to be based is masculine in gender. Assuming that a healthy male is the definition of health may not seem like much of a problem, unless

Meh...and Stuff
THIS IS A VENT BLOG...IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT LEAVE ♥ Last week was from hell...totally, literally.... blazing flames of sucking bloody hairy monkey balls......HELL! "They" say that starting a new biz is rough and it will get easier and yadda yadda yadda...I say...I'M FREAKING OVER IT ALREADY! (not that I'm going to give up, mind you) lol....my bank rep even stated that they NEVER have this many problems, heh...it's gotta be me....my "issues" weren't just with them...bumps and brick walls every where I turned....I just got laugh...LMFAO. Some good things happened...gotta keep that out there.."God" knows I'm grasping on to them. But, ugh...seriously?? I need a walk in floral cooler or a back acre at a nursery to scream in... I'd scream in my backyard but, I have new nieghbors...my luck, they'd call the cops. *sigh* I guess I'll go get these pretty dead things in H20, visit mr showerhead and continue to get my lappy back to where it was... ya, my laptop crashed yesterda

Air Force Academy Creates Worship Space For Pagan Cadets
In what is being hailed as a major advance in military religious liberty, officials at the U.S. Air Force Academy in Colorado Springs have agreed to provide worship space for a group of Pagans. The circle of stones was created after adherents of Paganism and other nature-based faiths asked Academy officials for worship space. The Academy already contains a chapel, and officials agreed to honor the request. Observers say the move is significant. Four years ago, the situation regarding religious freedom at the Academy was grim. An air of evangelical Christianity permeated the facility, and cadets were encouraged to see films like “The Passion of the Christ.” During a training session for cadets, an Academy chaplain urged evangelicals to convert their classmates to their brand of Christianity. He told cadets that those not “born again will burn in the fires of hell.” Non-Christian cadets complained of harassment and intolerance. Calls and e-mails po

Top 3 Conservative Accomplishments
As I watch the news, or see the latest craziness from the far right wing conservatives I often wonder what merits of conservatism draws people to support it. So I decided to start asking my friends and it turned into a long running debate on whether or not conservatism had ever actually accomplished anything. My stand was that by definition conservatism could never accomplish anything, as its purpose was to withhold progress and maintain the status quo. We really couldn’t think of any great accomplishments that could be clearly attributed to conservatives. Instead in nearly every great social advancement through American history, it was conservatives fighting on the wrong side against the progressives. Slavery, Womens rights, Segregation, Gay rights, and so forth were all fights where progressive ideals overcame strong conservative opposition. Sadly we are still fighting all of these battles against conservatives who still think we’re living in the dark

Across The Miles
Across the miles (by me) Sitting alone in a darkened roomfeeling lonley feeling bluethoughts of you dancing threw my headkeeping me from feelings of dread Your love is felt across the mileswarms my heart and makes me smilemy love for you grows expedentialfills the emptiness that envolopes me You are my heart you are my soulyou are my muse my insperationI love your eyes I love your smileI love the way you look into me I think of you I can not help ityour in my head were you belongyour thoughts of loveyour thoughts of hopebring me happiness and help me cope You are the one that’s ment for meyou bring me life you bring me loveyou are the one I will always cherishuntil the day I ultimatly will perish

One Thing By Finger Eleven
Restless tonight Cause I wasted the light Between both these times I drew a really thin line It's nothing I planned And not that I can But you should be mine Across that line [Chorus:] If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn't that be something I promise I might Not walk on by Maybe next time But not this time Even though I know I don't want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds [Chorus x2] Even though I know I don't want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds Even though I know I don't want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds [Chorus x3]

History Of The Income Tax In The United States
Source: Tax Foundation. The nation had few taxes in its early history. From 1791 to 1802, the United States government was supported by internal taxes on distilled spirits, carriages, refined sugar, tobacco and snuff, property sold at auction, corporate bonds, and slaves. The high cost of the War of 1812 brought about the nation's first sales taxes on gold, silverware, jewelry, and watches. In 1817, however, Congress did away with all internal taxes, relying on tariffs on imported goods to provide sufficient funds for running the government. In 1862, in order to support the Civil War effort, Congress enacted the nation's first income tax law. It was a forerunner of our modern income tax in that it was based on the principles of graduated, or progressive, taxation and of withholding income at the source. During the Civil War, a person earning from $600 to $10,000 per year paid tax at the rate of 3%. Those with incomes of more than $10,000 paid taxes at a higher rate. A

Birthday Thoughts.
Well now another year older and yet I see that only real friends bothered with remembering.... ok not true.... I had some people I don’t even know wish me happy birthday ^_^ now one thing you all must know is that I don’t celebrate my day of birth.... BUT I do like to be remembered... As I strive to remember all those I care about... this is the thing that is bothering me... people say they care so very deeply for you but I am just realising that they only say this cos you can give them something.... when its something you want or desire... they forget so very quickly as though you where just a bad dream. So then what to do? Delete them from your life? Yell at them for forgetting you? So many things you could do to them but really nothing to actually satisfy my hurt. Just the thought that people don’t really care about you unless you have something they desire... I give a part of myself to a lot of people... yet I do not get one thing back at all... AH I can’

Chrome On Fubar
And once again, Fubar, Chrome, and Vista cant play nicely... WTF? when i go to face book, or myspace, or youtube, another tube ;) or just to any google search result no problem. I come to fubar and javascript fails. no status updated, no comments load of any kind, sb doesnt work and bartab links wont function like they are supposed to. NOW i cleaned my cashe twice...not that the second time did anything, but it was worth a shot, I rebooted my laptop and even checked to see if there were any new jave updates. Nothing seems to work.'' Anybody? any suggestions? I dont know what the problem is because the last few times i had this issue, i cleaned my cache and then Fubar worked fine... but obviously there is another issue that needs to be dealt with. It wearing my patience thin so I know there is a simple solution

Based On The Shamrock I Chose, I Am...
Your Shamrock Says You Are Loving You are balanced, nurturing, and sympathetic. You understand people and love to help them. At times, you get too involved with what's going on in other people's lives. It's hard to remove yourself. You consider yourself a lucky person. Luck always seems to be on your side. You are stylish, in a classic sort of way. You are particular about how you like things. The Shamrock Personality Test The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings Well, this one is a big, fat lie!!! :P

It's Nekkid Time!!!
Join me for my Saturday morning show at 7am est. Get connected & happy listening and stay Nekkid! http://st1.webradioworld.net:8258/Did you know you could connect from our website? Go to www.nekkidradio.net and listen to us any time you'd like!!!!

What Do You See?
A question I have for everyone; friends, family, and aquaintences..... One good friend said:When I look into your eyes I see; a friend forever; someone I could see being close to for the rest of my life; someone who doesn't just see what she WANTS to see, but sees what many others are not capable of seeing in people and situations, happiness that is shared/ but sometimes hidden. I see a person that has way more to her than the naked eye can see. I see someone who can easily be a player, but despises it and is true. Caring, gentle, and funny..... Yet likes to hit and rough house at times. I see someone who is ready for honest, deep, unconditional and understanding love. I see a person who deserves way more than she has. I see a woman who wonders if anyone else really sees her...... I see a place I can get lost in forever if I wasn't so scared and selfish. I see someone who has been hurt badly, yet continues to keep her head up and never falter. And I see a person that possibly hasn't

I'm Me
I think I've finally come to the point in my life where I'm happy with myself and know that I don't have to change or be a certain way for people to like me anymore. I'm just fine and if someone doesn't think I am, then fuck them!!! I dont need them!!! Recognize I'm real and nothing other than that. And you can love me or hate me because either way.... It won't make me or break me!

Please Read
Please, if you know a veteran that is a friend, a loved one, sibling, colleague or just someone you legitimately care about. Please get the following video from the following web sight:' WWW.BEYONDTREASON.COM Once you get the video and watch it, I promise you - your life will never be the same and you will never again view your country the same, once you see what our government has done to the men and women who serve this country honorably!!

I Don't Want To Fall In Love By She Wants Revenge
I would like to tell you, I would like to say That I knew that this would happen That things would go this way But I cannot deceive you, this was never planned I know that you're the right girl but do you think that I am the right man? 1...2...3...4,5,6,7, Right face wrong time, she's sweet (But I don't wanna fall in love) Too late, so deep, better run cause (but I don't wanna fall in love) Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight (I don't wanna) You say it's not a problem, You say it's meant to be But love is not an option, our love is never free And things are not so easy, so cold and we've been burned I know that I'll have regrets but that's the price of one more lesson learned 1..2..3...4,5,6,7, Right face wrong time, she's sweet (But I don't wanna fall in love) Too late, so deep, better run cause (but I don't wanna fall in love) Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight (I don't wanna) Right face wrong time, she's sweet (But I don't wanna fall

Marines
Tempered by the fire of battle,Tested by fear and doubt,Held up by my God and my brothers. I have suffered,I have hurt,I have bled,I have lived, And I have died. I have wept for fallen brothers,I have prayed for my family at home,I have hoped,And I have loved. Though I've died, I yet live,I am reborn in each new generation of my brothers,I live in them,They carry my memory in their hearts,They honor me, And they will never forget me. This land I love,I have given it all I had to give,And I would do it again. I am one of The Few and the Proud.I am a United States Marine.

We Fight
We fight for what many won't Our bodies battle like many don't We save lives in the field Knowing that we may be killed Freedom is saved by what we do You don't understand that it's all for you We take the punishment to help the others Our mission is to save our brothers Mothers at home worry about us every day Just so you can have everything your way Some people at home put us down and call us names While miles away we fight for freedom so that our nation can reign We see the blood of our brothers But we keep on fighting for all the others We never give up and we always try When banded together we will never die Know this peace lovers, war haters, sad mothers, and mob creators We fight the war for you as well We take the bullets in our chests and go through all the hell We are the Marines We battle day to day No Matter how much pain we take Our freedom is what we save We take our guns, and we take our lives and put them on the line We knew the suffering we would

Usmc!!!!
Semper Fi is our motto. It¢s one many have bled for, on land and sea. It¢s the motto of Americas finest, fighting men. The few, the proud, the Marines. It¢s a title that¢s earned not given. And it¢s a lot harder than it may seem. You see anyone can join the Army, Navy or Air force. But only the best can become a MARINE

You Have My Heart
Through the thick and thin, and the lonly nights. I will remain by your side as I sleep and dream of you tonight. My love grows everyday and has no hidden side. It rises constantly as the oceans tides. My feelings run deep inside. To explain my love for you, one cant begin to try. To dreams of this love, can only be sought out from high above. A love that is felt from only my soul, hands grasping to feel it more. just being away from my one true love will only take its toll. A bond that nothing on this earth can tear us apart. Thats when you know you truly have my heart.

Eyes Closed
As I close my eyes, I can feel you there by my side. Wanting you more than anything in this world, begging to feel your head upon mine. Knowing that you care, and dream of me. Its a feeling I do not want to lose. Your candy kisses trace down my body to forbidden places. I will give it all just for you, so I can feel your soft touches, and see the passion in your eyes. To see you smile, hand in hand our smiles and heart beats will always be there.

Warriors Creed
The warrior within. The warrior that will alays be. The warrior that fights to stay alive. The warror that cant break away. The warrior that wants to be free. The warrior that will fight for eternity. The warrior that fights for peace, honor, and dignity. The warrior that is within me cant escape, but pleads and begs for help. The warriors creed that will never die.

Warmth Of Your Heart
You came in my life so fast, to turn my head in happiness. From the sound of your voice, to the warmth in your heart. You put a smile on my face and laughter in my heart. It was the feeling in your touch, that tore my heart apart. I miss the look in your eyes, every moment you said hi. When I said my last goodbye, I didnt want to go it hurt so bad deep down inside. I would give it all to feel that way again, to feel your heart with mine each stepping beat of life. Yet the chance I had is like tryig to catch the wind on your body. So from now on each step and breath I take upon my face and in my heart a smile for you there will always be.

Taste Of Honey
your lips are sweet as sugar, and your kiss sweet as honey. your skin smells of a scent from a rose that leaves me wanting to kiss you more. Your eyes are like two bright stars in the evening sky that leaves me gazing into them in a daze. Your hair reminds me of the morning sunshine that brings me back for more. The love in your eyes that aroused me to the heighten levels of ecstacy. The warm kisses that traced down my body to forbidden places. The feel of your fingers that traced down my neck to my breasts kept me in a daze begging to stay in that day so sweet as honey.

Dont Turn Me Away
As I travel through this life Wondering what lies ahead I try to find that special one Who will help me rest my head. Then i see you standing there shining like a diamond in the sky, come to me restless warrior, victory tonight. So dont turn me away oh baby dont turn me away I need your love and guiding light to get me through this night. Being without you fuels the lonliness that keeps growing in my heart. Your guiding light that keeps me fighting on but this restless and werry warrior continues to fight but dont know how much longer I can hold the lonliness before it consumes me. Please come and sace me before its to late. So dont turn me away oh baby dont turn me away I need your love and guiding light to get me through this night.

What Is A Veteran
Some veterans bear visible signs of their service: a missing limb, a jagged scar, a certain look in the eye. Others may carry the evidence inside them: a pin holding a bone together, a piece of shrapnel in the leg - or perhaps another sort of inner steel: the soul's ally forged in the refinery of adversity. Except in parades, however, the men and women who have kept America safe wear no badge or emblem. You can't tell a vet just by looking. He is the cop on the beat who spent six months in Saudi Arabia sweating two gallons a day making sure the armored personnel carriers didn't run out of fuel. He is the barroom loudmouth, dumber than five wooden planks, whose overgrown frat-boy behavior is outweighed a hundred times in the cosmic scales by four hours of exquisite bravery near the 38th parallel. She - or he - is the nurse who fought against futility and went to sleep sobbing every night for two solid years in Da Nang. He is the POW who went away one person and came back another

Better Bond
the marine that was and will always be in my heart, has gone to a place no other can go. The father, the friend, the love of my life, I cry for your touch, kisses and hugs, but I know you left for a better place. Please pain and hurt go away and let me move on to a bigger and better bond. Opened my heart up to a good man just to have him torn away from me so fast. I know it was because he fought for this country, but I will always miss him and always my heart will be there by his side.

I Am A Soldier
I am not allowed to show my feelingsI am not allowed to cryI walk tall I hate the look in othersAs they look at me Like they are better than meIt is so easy for them to make a judgment What gives them the right to judge meWho has the right to judge my rights or wrongs? I recognize my ways and know I am not perfectI stand here knowing that I hurt manyI killed manyI fixed many I saved many Do all my good deeds make up for the murders?I stand here ready to hear the final judgmentI got a feeling that I will never make it to heavenI made my decision to live I know it was wrong to take the livesI listened to the gasps and heard the screams The bullets going inNothing compared to the bladeAs it slid in I watched the eyes turn blank Heard the gasps as I closed my own eyesI am to fix them yet I need to live too Am I right to want to live another day?I never agreed to murder othersI agreed to caring for the sick and injuredAs I sit here I think about the nights I haveI never sleep because I s

Pain No More
To everyone that knows me, my bond has been broken, and my heart torn apart once again. I loved my marine soldier, or was it just the thought of being with him that made me happiest. I love him now and I love him always even though hes not walking this earth no more. Life never knows its twists and turns but my heart knows what it feels.

Pain
The shadows of darkess over takes my soul, as the goodness tries to over power the evil. The shadows are closing in on everything I know. The hatred and killing are all I will ever know. My childhood still rings in my ears as I try to get away from the pain. I stand in the way of all evil and will let no good pass through. The angels tell me to obey, but its hard to believe what they say. Everyday I listen to the good and bad, I try to choose what path I take. Standing outside my body looking in at myself, and wondering why Iam the way I am.

My Angel
You came in my life so fast to turn my head in happiness. You left so fast I couldnt fall fast enough to catch you. Your angel face, and the eyes so big and beautiful, you brought love and happiness, but you left so fast. To think you was always and angel, and never my little girl. You put a smile on my face and laughter in my heart, but then you was torn away from me just as fast as you came to me. The joy you brought to my life, I will always remember that lifes lessons comes from small things. I will always love you. I will always remember the 9 months it took me to get you. It took God to bring you in my life but seconds for God to make you the perfect angel.

Lost Forever
Do you need me when I want you? Why is it so hard to move on? I want you back, but I get no answer. I lay in the dark and cry myself to sleep, just to dream of your touch. I hate being away from you. i thought I could move on to a bigger bond, but that bond is forever gone. I still ask God why it happened that way. I will always miss you and love you. My life may never be complete again. Then again maybe I'm destined to be alone forever. I cry when I cant be there where you are. But then again I'm no angel. Please stay safe and look in on me from time to time. Maybe one day our spirits will meet up again.

Candy Kisses
your candy kisses that trace down my body. Your soft touches to forbidden places. The heat, the passion that arouses out of you. The swet, the thrust the feel of your skin on mine. Wanting ou more than anything in the world. making you moan and scream out for more till you cant handle it no more. The feel of your skin as you make love to me. The whispers of I love you, and them soft candy kisses that trace all down my body. It makes me want to go back and stay in that day. Under the stars, outside in the dark so romantic, took me out of this world.

Begging
Begging you to stay. Begging you for your love. begging you for what I want the most. The days and the nights dont seem to seperate when I'm begging and longing for your love. Your touch, your soft gentle kisses, your passion that you have when we are together. Search deep, search hard cause I'm begging for your love and your touches again. I want and I need you more than anything in this world, but what do you want? Stay or go, but please dont break my heart anymore. I tell you I love you, but it falls on deaf ears when you say I dont. Can you even love anymore? Can you get over her and move on? How do you really feel? I'm begging for you to stay.

Do You Need Me?
Do you need me, when you want me? Do you want me, when you need me? Do you love me or are you going through the motions? Please make the pain stop and tell me the truth. Make it stop I'm begging you. My love for you grows everytime I touch, kiss, and hold you. Why cant you see that? Your kisses are soft, but firm and sweet to the touch and the taste, your touch of the hand on my body in forbidden places makes me quiver and want you more. can you give me more? Can you love me, or are you just going through the motions? Please make the pain stop. Make it stop and go away. make me feel your love again.

Sean Penn Is A Hater
It’s no secret that Hollywood is a haven for liberal extremists. That fact was displayed by that paragon on civility Sean Penn. At a dinner acknowledging his “humanitarian” work in Haiti, he lashed out a journalist who asked him a question he didn’t want to hear. There is no question that Mr. Penn, now that he’s an old man, is filled with hate and cynicism. How the Hebrew Congregation can embrace a person like Penn is puzzling. Read more if you dare: http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/03/12/columnist-says-humiliated-scared-sean-penn/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%253A+foxnews%252Fentertainment+%2528Text+-+Entertainment%2529 BlastFM invites all who love great music. We don’t hate, we only love. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Ensign: Earthquake!
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 12 March 2010 I’m told that the only way to know what an earthquake is like is to live through one. This I have not done and I’m not really seeking to experience what many people throughout the world have just this year to date! The four I can count off that come to mind – January in Haiti, February in Chile, March in Taiwan and at the start of this week in Turkey – amaze me not so much because they happened and my heart and prayers go out to those recovering from them, but that so many are occurring in so short a time. It’s at this point some devotionals go into calling the increased amount of earthquakes signs of what the world has to endure before Jesus returns, according to what He said on the Mount of Olives as excerpted in Matthew 24, Mark 13, and Luk

I Start My Biweekly Residency 2morrow Night At The Quarry!!
Join us as we chill and spin with Lotus Root Events and Aspect Radio every Saturday (except the first of each month) @ The Quarry located downstairs from The Pub on 382 Dwight Street Springfield Massachusetts. This event is for the Chill Cats, Ole RaveCats, Club Heads, Ravers, House Heads, Trance Addicts, Breakers, and whoever wants to show us some love. Walk in and go down the stairs in front of you, upstairs is a different party. DJ Marco Andre appears Bi-Weekly starting March 13th, 2010 bumpin the Trance,Reggaeton, and Dance Music from the 90s up.

Blockdumpster.
I hit Blockbuster tonite to pick up T2 and Monty Python and the Holy Grail, and find out at checkout, now all movies are $5 for 5 nights. I'm completely baffled. #1) I dont need either of these movies for 5 night. #2) That's only a few bucks less than the full cinema experience for first release movies. #3) Both these movies made their monies last century. #4) I forget what 4 was for. (or was that 8?) #5) They still don't have pr0n. #6) Have they never heard of Netflix and OnDemand?#6 addendum: or stealing on the internet.

Poems
i call this one life life as i know it is no longer life as i want it is long gone my life is turned upside down my life as i knew it was so grand my life as i want it cant be found i sit and i cry as days go by longing for my love to return i cant take this pain that i feel anymore its taring me down my life as i need it is no more what shale i do i cant take this heart ache i cant take this hurt if love is so powerful then why do i feel sarrow life is cruel love is just pain

Rules For Survival!
1 Cardio 2 The Double Tap 3 Beware of Bathrooms 4 Wear Seat belts 5 No Attachments 6 The “skillet” 7 Travel Light 8 Get a Kick Ass Partner 9 With your bare hands 10 Don’t Swing Low 11 Use your foot 12 Bounty paper Towels 13 Shake it off 14 Always carry a change of underwear 15 Bowling Ball 16 Opportunity Knocks 17 Don’t be a hero (later crossed out to be a hero) 18 Limber Up 19 Break it up 20 Its a marathon, not a sprint, unless its a sprint, then sprint 21 Avoid Strip clubs 22 When in doubt Know your way out 23 Zipplock 24 use your thumbs 25 Shoot First 26 A little sun screen never hurt anybody 27 Incoming! 28 Double-Knot your shoes 29 The Buddy System 30 pack your stain stick 31 check the back seat 32 Enjoy the little things 33 Swiss army Knife

Free
As I sit in my corner and think about your lies,I have nothing else to do but break down and cry.You knew it would end,You knew it would die,You knew one day we’d have to say goodbye.You told me you loved me,You told me you caredBut the rage inside had slowly flared.The moments we shared replay in my headAlong with all the sweet lies you said.You thought it was a gameYou thought you’d winBut in the end you felt nothing within.Deep down inside there was a big empty spaceThat I now realize you couldn’t replace.Something about you helped me seeThat without love I’m finally free.Free from pain,Free from lies,Free from having tear filled eyes.Without your love I finally seeAll the horrid things you’ve come to be.

Jags Are Rad!
This momma jaguar, named Lolo, is playing with her new cub at the Jordan Zoo. The mother is a melanistic, which is why her coat is black and different from her spotted baby. You can tell by her face that she’s still adjusting to being bitten… constantly… "How long must I endure this?" "These spots won't come out!" "ATTACK!!!" I will scratch your freakin eyeballs out kid..." "Help...." "OMG dude... you'll been biting and clawing me for e 6 hours.... stop it." "Kill me... "

Pleased To Meet You
i like meeting people online. then sometimes i just might have a chance to meet them in person. regardless of distance and financial hold ups. shaking hands with a guy ive met online from somewhere else is cool as hell. maybe even doing something productive is even cooler haha. shows that we're not all talk and text. but meeting a girl is a whole different story...indeed. the friendship thing will be there although theres that attraction factor too. how far will it go?...was it the right decision?...then if all the pieces do fit together nicely...what to do then? haha...my worries are always there but maybe i just think ahead too much. shoulda been a cop but i cant stand authority or being one to tell others theyre wrong. ok so yeah... i will always have an open mind and as far as to say a foolish heart at times to let someone in...regardless of it being from an online site or in public. not in a fcukin snap of course but who feels it knows it. some let their hearts die a

A Toke A Day Keeps The Doctor Away
Alone in her Birmingham, England home, a woman stirs a half teaspoon of cannabis into her hot tea. By seeking relief from pain and spasms caused by multiple sclerosis in this way she is, in the eyes of the law, a criminal.She doesn’t take this action lightly and is not out for a recreational high. She simply wants a reprieve from the relentless pain that plagues her and, after sipping her tea, generally experiences about three hours of relief. Only those who live in chronic pain can fully understand her anguish.Speaking of her predicament she says, “I want politicians to be nice to me… I’m sick.” One cannot put it more simply than that. (You can read the rest of her story and view the heartbreaking video on BBC News.)Medical marijuana enjoys legal status in many parts of the world, where it is recognized as an effective treatment for chronic pain or nausea caused by conditions like multiple sclerosis, glaucoma, HIV/AIDS, arthritis, and cancer. Canada, Chi

A Natural, More Potent Antibiotic
If you could pick one item for your natural medicine cabinet that could ward off cold and flu viruses, eliminate warts, cold sores, athlete’s foot, dandruff, respiratory tract and sinus infections, what would you choose? If oregano oil doesn’t come to mind, it’s time you gave this overlooked and potent remedy its rightful place in your natural first aid kit. The Research is in: In a study reported by Science Daily Magazine, oil of oregano at relatively low doses was found to be effective against staphylococcus bacteria and was comparable to antibiotics like penicillin in its germ-killing properties.Researcher Paul Belaiche reported his exhaustive studies of aromatherapy oils in his three-volume work, entitled, Traite de Phytotherapie et d’Aromatherapie (Treatise on Phytotherapy and Aromatherapy). He used a testing method that allowed him to examine the effectiveness of essential oils against specific bacteria, called an aromatogram. His findings on the effective

Chaos Reigns
Beautifully broken Soundly, spoken. Darkness falls Light shines through Chaos reigns. Eerily quiet Yet to loud to think To loud to speak Screaming loud But there is no sound Chaos reigns. Too much Too little There was something There was nothing Chaos reigns. Floating, soaring. Downwardly falling Nothing makes sense Yet everything is crystal clear Chaos reigns.

When My Mind Is Still
When my mind is still and alone with the beating of my heart, I remember things too easily forgotten: The purity of early love, The maturity of unselfish love that asks -- desires -- nothing but another's good, The idealism that has persisted through all the tempest of life. When my mind is still and alone with the beating of my heart, I can find a quiet assurance, an inner peace, in the core of my being. It can face the doubt, the loneliness, the anxiety, Can accept these harsh realities and can even grow Because of these challenges to my essential being. When my mind is still and alone with the beating of my heart, I can sense my basic humanity, And then I know that all men and women are my brothers and sisters. Nothing but my own fear and distrust can separate me from the love of friends. If I can trust others, accept them, enjoy them, Then my life shall surely be richer and more full. If I can accept others, this will help them to be more truly themselves, And they will be more

Americans Accused Of Being Communists: 1940-1965
Americans accused of being Communists: 1940-1965Joseph McCarthy--President Truman said McCarthy was "the Kremlin's greatest asset."Presidents Roosevelt and TrumanNew Deal LiberalsDemocratsState Department and government officialsThe Army and some American generalsCritics of McCarthy and McCarthyismAmerican Civil Liberties Union and Civil LibertariansRock and Roll musiciansGay activists and gays and lesbiansMartin Luther King and the civil rights movementLibrarians and Library patronsUnion leadersFilm stars and Hollywood writersNancy ReaganUniversity Professors and public school teachersAtomic ScientistsAbstract Artists and PaintersFeminists and leaders of the women's movementAlfred Kinsey and 1950s sex researchersPeace Groups such as SANE--Committee for a sane nuclear policyThe Girl ScoutsDr. Spock--child rearing expertAmerican Indians and Indian activistsAmerican Workers and Union LeadersAmerican Writers and PlaywrightsTeenagers and Juvenile DelinquentsCollege students and social act

When I Was On Hold.....
For the school bus, they had the music, and what was playing was All that she wants Ace of Base, and I was dancing. Then I realized a lot of the music they have for hold music unless it's at a radio station, they play oldies. What the hell? when did Ace of Base become an oldie band? Same thing happened a year ago but it was Bel Biv Devo's Poison Anyone else find themselves dancing or rocking out while being on hold?

"my New Kittens"
DEAR MR. BLOG WE HAVE 2 BEAUTIFUL KITTENS.OUR FIRST KITTEN IS A PERSIAN MIX, SHE WAS LEFT IN A BOX ON A PET STORE STOOP. THEY FLEA DIPPED HER, AND GAVE HER SOME KITTEN SHOTS. WELL I HAD TOLD MY HUSBAND THAT I MISSED HAVING CATS. CATS ARE MY FAVORITE ANIMAL. WE PAID $25.00 TO ADOPT HER FROM THE PET STORE. WELL WHEN WE WERRE DRIVING HOME MY HUBBIE SEEN THE WAY SHE WAS ACTING AND HE SAID THAT SHE WAS ABUSED. I THINK IT'S KREWL WHEN SOMEBODY TAKES THIER ANGER OUT ON AN ANIMAL AND NOT ON THE PERSON WHO MAKES THEM MAD. WELL WE'VE HAD HER FOR ALMOST 2 A WEEK. SHE IS THE QUEEN B AROUND HERRE. AND LAST NIGHT WE HAD ANOTHER CAT DROPPED OFF. ONLY BECAUSE MY HUBBY THINKS THAT SNOWFLAKE DONT LLIKE HIM. SHE'S ALWAYS TAKING UP TIME WITH ME. SO HE HAS A CAT BY THE NAME OF BOOGIE...... BOOGIE IS A SWEETHEART. WHEN HE CAN GET THE CHANCE, HE'S LAYING WITH ME BEHIND SNOWFLAKES BACK. AND SINCE THIS IS SNOWFLAKES KINGDOM HE'S REALLY SUFFERING THE 3RD DEGREE. SHE HISSES

The Glasgow Comedy Festival 2010
Yes, it has begun and I love the festival in my wee home town. Comedy is very much a Glaswegian thing; we just seem to be a funny bunch of folk in Glasgow, which isn't to say people from Dumfries, Hawick or Prestonpans aren't inherently funny, but well...are they? We in Glasgow are the kind of people who can turn a queue at a bus stop into a comedy gig, and that my friend is something I have never seen in London or elsewhere! My one woman show is at The Tron Theatre on Thursday 25th March you can get tickets here http://www.tron.co.uk/event/janey_godley/ I would love to see you there! Last night I headed down to The Stand in Glasgow and watched the amazing Benjamin Crellin, he is a Kiwi comic mate of mine from New Zealand and Ben's stuff always makes me smile from the inside out- very clever and interesting comedy juice flows out of him. There are heaps of big TV names coming to Glasgow and that's nice but it's always good to go watch a comic who doesn't have a huge profil

Broken Promises And Shattered Dreams
I'm afraid to love again and I'll tell you why, everyone I ever fell for, soon would make me cry. With Broken Promises and Shattered Dreams, you left me down and out, Battered and Bruised the longer I stayed the more you abused. Blinded by love I was unable to see, you never really cared about what you were doing to me. With Broken Promises and Shattered Dreams, you left me down and out, batterd and bruised the longer I stayed the more you abused. Now that you're out of my life, I'm finally free, and I hope there's someone out there waiting for me. When that day comes , I'll know it's for real, but this time I'll be careful, 'cause my Heart needs time to Heal.

Sandwiches
one night, a guy decides to bring his girlfriend homefor a little fun They have bunk beds and the guy notices that his littlebrother is already asleep on the lower bunk, so he and his girlfriend climbup to the top bunk.As you might expect things start to heat up.The guy remembers that his little brother issleeping below so he tells hisgirlfriend to whisper lettuce if she wants itharder and tomato if shewants a new position.Lettuce!!!Tomato!!!Lettuce!!!Tomato!!!Lettuce!!!Tomato!!!She screamsLettuce!!!Tomato!!!Whoa!!!PULL IT OUT!!!PULL IT OUT NOW!!!I can't get pregnant! Then the little brother shouts, Hey,would you guys stop making sandwiches up there! You're getting mayonnaiseall over my face!!!!!

Empty
"She said I wonder when It`ll be my day Cause I`m not too far from breaking down And all I`ve got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I wondered if I`ll always feel this way, this way" I hate feeling so completely broken and empty. I'd give anything to feel put together and alive. I miss that feeling and I'm starting to forget how that ever felt. I know things will be fine eventually. I'm just impatient, and I want it to be now. I'm tired of curling up in a ball crying myself to sleep at night. I'm tired of being in so much pain constantly. I'm tired of nobody being able to help whatever is wrong with me. I'm tired of feeling so alone and so unimportant. Anybody who ever said being alone was better than being around shitty people was wrong. Just like whoever said it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all was wrong. I've never been more miserable in my entire life than I am now that I'm trying to "focus on myself" and "put my needs an

Hot July Sun
Her beauty rose so fast,So clearly in my eyes.Like a hot july sun,Erased darkness from the sky. How much of her will open,In the days coming ahead.Will I ever be in her thoughts,As she lays down her head. She has caught a place in mine,And I will for better things to come.Now that our friendship has begun,May the day never come to say it is done.

I Am Done
i am done being made to take the responsibility of others stupidity. not a day goes by i am stuck being left out of the loop of those around me and then when told something at that last minute its my fault for not keeping in touch or asking questions when i am not even included in others thoughts or ideas and what not. i am sick of dealing with the negativity of those around me, just wish everyone would just finally go fuck and off and leave me the hell alone i have no need to be put thru everyones childish negativity. i learned to have no need to include myself amongst people who show me no sign of interest of including me in their ideas and plan.

Only Intelligent Life Dare Enter
Riddle: I am young, I am old, I am cautious, I am bold, I give, yet am always taken, intuitive yet misunderstood...who am I ? www.moonstruckartist.com I am the Artist, Sculptor, Poet within everyone, I merely exert the effort to make it all known, unabashed!!!!! Make yourself known to me and I will make your dreams imortal in image form.

Referrals
Starting 3/15/10, Bad Habitz Radio will pay staffers 50k for every member they invite in that joins (to be paid out weekly on Mondays). There will be a link under get corrupted in the lounge for new members to visit and submit the person who invited them. We will also do a monthly (on the 15th) drawing out of the members who told us who corrupted them, we will draw one to win 250k fubucks.

Prayingfordog
A POEM FOR THE GRIEVING...Do not stand at my grave and weep.I am not there, I do not sleep.I am a thousand winds that blow,I am the diamond glints on snow.I am the sunlight on ripened grain,I am the gentle autumn's rain.When you awaken in the morning's hush,I am the swift uplifting rushof quiet birds in circled flight.I am the stars that shine at night.Do not stand at my grave and cry,I am not there, I did not die... -Anonymous

Are You Guilty??
Greetings Neighbors: Do you have any guilty pleasures? Are there things you find yourself gravitating to yet you might be mildly embarrassed if they were discovered? If the answer is no, then, good for you. You, have no shame in watching “Twilight” as if it was a Pulitzer prize winning novel adapted for film; You, who may actually consider Kim Kardasian and the former porn star who slept with Tiger Woods as true celebrities although what they really did was sleep with celebrities; You, who can't get enough watching 'The Wiggles' or “Spongebob Squarepants” because it provides great background sound for the grandkids while they play. Yes, you who have no shame in these things because you actually like them. Bravo!! Bravo! Now, come on people! Are you truly willing to admit that last episode of “Manswers” was truly informative or that last “Van Wilder” film relieved all your worries about sending your c

Along The Way...from The Scorpion King Soundtrack
im thirsty and weary from the heat, as the sands rinse the hands of time i will suck the venom from your wound, if you will do the same and suck from mine you and i were ruined by this desert between us, i walked thru the valley and stared into death this instance of a distance designed to defeat us, and still her face i cant seem to forget -the war you wage, forever the life that you paint, -something wrong in you, comes alive in your veins, -lose yourself in some kind of hell, a new version of where you are now.... -truths unveiled, you'll never ever get out at a glance, sudden avalanche suffocates me within...... gasping for air i can't breathe paralyzed ive been sterilized and cleansed of my sins....in a state of suspended belief -somewhere along the way...time changes everything....we all disintegrate, ITS RUNNING OUT!!!! taunted by time, imposing its certainty, absolute always, stopping for nothing.... this race cannot be won some days it crawls, while other days fly,

Wtf? Mumm Comment Approval After Comments Have Been Made...
I hate slack jawed, weak mofos who can't handle the truth. First of all don't post a serious mumm if you don't want a serious reply. Second, if you post a mumm and want a serious reply and get a smart assed one - don't be a douche and not post it and then change your mumm to "comment approval by owner of mumm". That really shows what a pussface you are. Third, if you post a mumm and want a serious reply and get one that is not to your agreement and you don't post the comment. You are a tool and shouldn't post it for everyone to comment, dildo. With a name like hatchetman - you'd think your sensitivities wouldnt be so tender. Here's some hugs and kisses for you dear - xoxox

Myspace For Juggalos
myspace for juggalos. It is a place for us to hang out. I love reading the blogs and getting inside the minds of fellow juggalos.... It's amazing how much genius we produce, people just dont even know. They look at our clothes, look at our skin and go-dumbass. If only they knew what really goes on inside. Woop Woop----mmfwcl. hope to see some of ya there. if you need a url hit me up

Abuse
Raven is threatening Me with acts of Abuse. The abuse includes constant hugs and kissing, and other sentimental acts which is considered abuse to someone who is devioid of emotion such as ISo should l I endure the abuse and hope she makes it up to Me with rough sex.Tie her up, gag her and have My way with her.Take the cam and shoot her for hours and days and watch as her sleepless mind succumbs to the pleasurable points of insanity… keep her up for days and days, abusing her then rewarding her with random acts of kindness till she exhibits signs of what is known as stockholm syndromeYes I am bored and could not think of a blog… oh well

Job Search And Resumes
I've been out of work since July 30th. I've sent out over 4000 emails in an effort to look for a job. I've recently gotten messages from several companies to stop sending them resumes because they've gotten it several times, without telling me that they had gotten it to begin with. These people need to hope that they are never in the position that I'm in, I hope they're not. Its so depressing.

Scream!!!!
I wake up, I'm fuckin' covered in bloodI feel as if my body's burning and my eyes won't stay shutI think I'm dreaming but this feels so realThe last thing that I remember is the four step ritualHow can that be my body's suppose to be deadI gave my soul unto the Devil I'm suppose to have no life leftThere is a pain in my stomach and I'm feelin' so sickI open up my mouth to vomit and I feel like shitI feel drugged and I can't really walkSo I go to the door but the door is lockedAnd I fall to the ground now I hear no soundI think I'm deaf I can't hear there's no one aroundI try to get back up but my legs are paralyzedThat's when I saw the Demon standing right before my eyesI try to get up again but now I can't feel anythingFull paralysis has set in and I can't even screamScream!I'm lost I'm in the darknessInside this shell I'm heartlessI can not breath, I can not moveI can not, I can notScream!I'm lost I'm in the darknessInside this shell I'm heartlessI can not breath, I can not moveI can

From Her :d
IVE FOUND MY HAPPINESS IN YOUR SMILE.IVE FOUND MY DELIGHT IN YOUR WORDS.IVE FOUND ME AGAIN...INSIDE YOU.YOU CRASHED INTO ME LIKE WAVES ON THE ROCKS.YOU'VE MADE ME SEE THAT WISHES DO COME TRUE.YOU'VE OPENED MY MIND, MY HEART, MY SOUL TO WHAT COULD BE.YOU HAVE MADE ME SEE ME INSIDE YOU.INSIDE YOU I FOUND ME.MY YING TO MY YANG YOU ARE.MY BETTER HALF THE ONE I CAN SEE SO MUCH MORE WITH.YOU OPENED ME BACK UP.TAKE ALL I CAN GIVE ALL I AM WILLING TO GIVE.KEEP THIS GIFT CLOSE TO YOU AND DONT EVER LET IT GO.DONT LET ME WALK AWAY, DONT LET ME RUN WHEN I WANT TO RUN.STAND NEXT TO ME ON THIS JOURNEY OF LIFE LOVE AND HAPPINESS.TOGETHER WE WILL DO AMAZING THINGS, ACCOMPLISH AMAZING TASKS.TOGETHER WE CAN AND WILL DO ANYTHING.THAT WORD ALONE "TOGETHER" SOUNDS SO NICE.TOGETHER, WE WILL FIND EACH OTHER ONCE AGAIN.BRING OUT THE CHILD BRING OUT THE ADULT LIVE LIFE IN SO MANY AMAZING WAYS.I FOUND ME INSIDE YOU. KEEP ME THERE...I FOUND MY HAPPINESS INSIDE YOU.~FROM ME TO YOU~

Moral Decisions
There seems to be some confusion with some people, or they just have a knack to over complicate things, with making moral decisions when it comes to certain offenses. DrunkWhores mumm this morning seemed very black and white, and one right decision to make period. but something as serious as child porn or rape, or any type of physical harm to another person, and/or mental effects to the vic, somehow in this country have been complicated in the minds of people. now this blog isnt about the subject of her mumm exactly.. but have we become so numbed by constant media attention of such disgusting things as child porn, rape, mass murder, and any number of thing that used to be unthinkable outside some hollywood production like friday the 13th, that our moral perception is thinning. people debating on if a person is guilty of, or knowingly had possesion of something like child pornography doesnt even seem to be an issue to me. The issue was that if it is in fact child pornography, os

The "sperm Bank" Story...
Ok, I've mentioned this story in lounge before, but figured it'd be funny as hell to mention in my Blog too, beings anyone I've ever told this story to had laughed their ass off...it deals with my experience going to a sperm bank. First, however, let me give you a little background as to how I ended up going there. It's been almost a year since I got laid off from my job, and a few weeks after it happened, my wife and I were scrambling around, trying to figure out how we were going to pay our bills. At the time, I was already donating plasma (yes, I was already whoring out one bodily fluid for cash...why not another? :p ), and apparently, my brother-in-law had mentioned to my wife something about a sperm bank in the city where I lived...an anonymous sperm donor program where if you got in, you'd go in and continually donate for 9 months regularly, could donate twice a week, and get $40 to $55 each donation. Figuring it out in her head that this would be about $320 to $440 a month, i

Doctrines Of The Damned
I can't member bein' born so I must be eternalI am the Lord Lucifer and these are my journalsNow did I say that I was Lucifer, did I lieOnly you can be tellin' me through reflections of your eyesMy concept is to bring you these doctrines of mineThe time I've been here the ones that fear to the end of timeYou're living your lives in the motherfuckin' darkLet me show you levels of consciousness to tear that ass apartI will tear at your motherfuckin' heart, I will make you understandNonetheless did you think I was a manCome and see me in my gallerys of genocideThe answers are in front of you why would I lieAm I a deceiver with a serpents tongueOr am I nothing but your Savior from a cross I was hungOr am I just a normal man that's just goin' insaneFrom my life full all the tribulations and painListen to my doctrines of the damnedLet me have your handLet me show you my world let me show you who I amCause I'm damned just like youTake a walk with me and I'll make sure that you make it through

The Magic Of Love
Love is like magicAnd it always will be.For love still remainsLife's sweet mystery!!Love works in waysThat are wondrous and strangeAnd there's nothing in lifeThat love cannot change!!Love can transformThe most commonplaceInto beauty and splendorAnd sweetness and grace.Love is unselfish,Understanding and kind,For it sees with its heartAnd not with its mind!!Love is the answerThat everyone seeks...Love is the language,That every heart speaks.Love can't be bought,It is priceless and free,Love, like pure magic,Is life's sweet mystery!!

Her Daily Dream
The cuffs that held her hands and feet,Slowly cutting into her skin.As she saw him approaching,Now her pleasure would begin. The blade he carried glistened,As it slowly slid past her knee.Its cold steel guided inside her legs,To the soft wet flesh waiting,Inside her soaked black lace panties. It slowly traced along a line,To the strand on her thigh.As it was cut,she gave a smile,For him she would never cry. Now a blindfold appears,Gently across her eyes.He lays the knife at her chin,She reacts with gentle moans and sighs. Its steel so cold to touch,Now lays on her bare flesh.Her toungue now licks her lips,As something hot touches her chest. Around her breast the drops run,Slowly hardening as they move.Her cheast rises with each drop,As the knife slides on skin so smooth. Now the knife moves as more drops fall,Back to flesh it has seen before.It cuts through her panties,They are now tossed to the floor. His hand gently touches her forehead,She smiles as drops still run.He frees h

On Love
Love feels no burden,thinks nothing of trouble,attempts what is above its strength,pleads no excuse of impossibility...It is therefore able to undertake all things,and it completes many things,and warrants them to take effect,where he who does not love would faint and lie down.Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.Though weary, it is not tired;though pressed, it is not straitened;though alarmed, it is not confounded

March 12, 2010
If anyone lives an ordinary life it really is me. I do keep a journal - why is beyond me, as my life is truely mundane! lol For starters lets see what I have managed to do today. Hmm I got up at six thirty this morning as I do every weekday morning. Got my girls up and ready for school. Did manage to get them to school without my youngest becoming the heathen that she normally is so that is a plus! Talked to my ex-husband to make arrangements for my eldest to stay with me tonight because him and his wife are going out tonight and Im keeping her so he can play. (As a mom it never occurs to most that I might enjoy going out myself lol) Texted with my husband a bit as that is how we mostly communicate as he works all the time. (No im not be negative) Manage to make it to the coffee shop without incident. That is saying something as I have a horrid habit of breaking things - including my expedition! Happily managed to make it home in one piece lol. Didnt fall out of my car thank goodn

Thanks Old Dude...ew
NorthJersey: lol ok....well thanks for talking ...cya sexy Suga Lips: get her collegen NorthJersey: i like your lips better than hers Suga Lips: well maybe you should stick with her NorthJersey: yes ..that is how I met my wife Suga Lips: dude...does this actually work on women? NorthJersey: i understand...can I at least kiss you for maybe 20 minutes? Suga Lips: I don't keep secrets and I don't cheat NorthJersey: perfect I am married too..it will be our secret Suga Lips: ok well I'm married for 1 and for 2 you're old enough to be my dad NorthJersey: if you ever visit nj or nyc ..please call me 1st ..thanks Sug

My Own Sin!
My Own Sin by Amanda Chafin The darkness lay like a blanket on a sultry summer night. Everything that is good and pure inside me trying to resist this fight. Longing for your touch needing to feel your kiss; My blood pulsing wildly like an addict in need of a fix. The battle that's raging in my soul I'm not sure I can win; resisting the temptation of your lust being my only sin. Not knowing why I cant fight you; afraid of letting these feelings win. Suddenly hearing the wolfs howling cry echoing in the wind! Like a siren "Whispering Come to Me" I realize I cant win. The call of the wild is pulling me; deeper than I have ever been! I see the fireflies dancing lighting my pathway to sin! Raw Hunger raging inside me; The feast will soon begin! For you are the forbidden fruit

Just Wait Till I Get Started
So I was thinking about how many minutes there are in a day (don't ask, I just think about weird things) and I did the math and figured out there was 1440 mintues in a day. That made me think hey 12 X 12 is 144 like 12 hours Anti Meridian and 12 hours Post Meridian, so then I thought 12 X 12 is like 3 X 4 X 4 X 3 which is like 9 X 16 and 9 + 16 is 25... So there you go, I just gave you an extra hour in your day you didn't know existed. You're welcome

Daggered Hearts
rainstorms with daggered hearts crumbling from the pain you've caused broken pieces plumit to the ground shattering like broken glass daggered hearts heed the painful call screaming with everlasting pain poisonous drops of blood that drip from within the veins of this barely beating heart black and painful until the end daggered hearts mangled within unforgiving barbwire thorns pentitrating each painful thorn into what little remains falling as fallen angels do daggered hearts eclipsed by the hurtful memory daggered hearts crumble and fall away never knowing if they'll heal daggered hearts forgeting all that exisited painfully dying alone loosing feeling destined to suffer like it does forced to relive each painful moment daggered hearts eclipse the moon left behind a broken soul.

He Held My Happiness!
IVE FOUND MY HAPPINESS IN YOUR SMILE. IVE FOUND MY DELIGHT IN YOUR WORDS. IVE FOUND ME AGAIN...INSIDE YOU. YOU CRASHED INTO ME LIKE WAVES ON THE ROCKS. YOU'VE MADE ME SEE THAT WISHES DO COME TRUE. YOU'VE OPENED MY MIND, MY HEART, MY SOUL TO WHAT COULD BE. YOU HAVE MADE ME SEE ME INSIDE YOU. INSIDE YOU I FOUND ME. MY YING TO MY YANG YOU ARE. MY BETTER HALF THE ONE I CAN SEE SO MUCH MORE WITH. YOU OPENED ME BACK UP. TAKE ALL I CAN GIVE ALL I AM WILLING TO GIVE. KEEP THIS GIFT CLOSE TO YOU AND DONT EVER LET IT GO. DONT LET ME WALK AWAY, DONT LET ME RUN WHEN I WANT TO RUN. STAND NEXT TO ME ON THIS JOURNEY OF LIFE LOVE AND HAPPINESS. TOGETHER WE WILL DO AMAZING THINGS, ACCOMPLISH AMAZING TASKS. TOGETHER WE CAN AND WILL DO ANYTHING. THAT WORD ALONE "TOGETHER" SOUNDS SO NICE. TOGETHER, WE WILL FIND EACH OTHER ONCE AGAIN. BRING OUT THE CHILD BRING OUT THE ADULT LIVE LIFE IN SO MANY AMAZING WAYS. I FOUND ME INSIDE YOU. KEEP ME THERE... I FOUND MY HAPPINESS INSIDE YOU.

Embracing Imperfections *** Stolen From Minxy [ Who Me? ] ***
When I was a little girl, my Mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular, when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my Mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage and extremely burned toast in front of my Dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my Dad did was reach for his toast, smile at my Mom, and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite! When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my Mom apologize to my Dad for burning the toast. And I'll never forget what he said: Baby, I love burned toast. Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his toast burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, Your Momma put in a hard day at work today, and she's real tired. And besides - a little burnt toa

Ashes Of The Wake
Ashes Of The Wake "We killed a lot of innocent civilians. To us every civilian in Baghdad was a terrorist. They said 'they are now in civilian clothes' that makes everybody free game, But if they came in our perimeter, we lit 'em up. And when we would pull the body out, and when we would search the car, we would find nothing. This took place time and time again. No harm, no foul, that's OK, don't worry about it, Because this is a new type of war, this is an eradication." "I honestly feel we're committing genocide over here, I don't believe in killing civilians, and I'm not going to kill civilians for the United States Marine Corp." [Quoted as a Marine in Song]

Folding Of The Flag
Folding The American Flag Did you know that at military funerals, the 21 gun salute stands for the sum of the numbers in the year 1776. Have you ever noticed how the honor guard pays meticulous attention to correctly folding the American flag 13 times? You probably thought it was to symbolize the original 13 colonies, but we learn something new every day! The 1st fold of our flag is a symbol of life. The 2nd fold is a symbol of our belief in eternal life. The 3rd fold is made in honor and remembrance of the veterans departing our ranks who gave a portion of their lives for the defense of our country to attain peace throughout the world. The 4th fold represents our weaker nature, for as American citizens trusting in God, it is to Him we turn in times of peace as well as in time of war for His divine guidance. The 5th fold is a tribute to our country, for in the words of Stephen Decaur, Our Country, in dealing with other countries, may she always be right; but it is still our country, ri

The Truth
ALL MY LIFE Author: Raven It was not so long ago when I thought I'd never meet someone like you. Wrong was I, thinking I'm in control Believing I'd never fall. All my life I thought no one would melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold, a heart hardened by the past, protected by shields so vast. Slowly I was falling without even knowing. Only to find out too late I have no choice but to accept my fate. I could dream, I suppose forever, I could hope there will never be any 'us', that's our destiny so I wake up to reality. I lied when I said I didn't love you, that my feelings for you are through. I lied not because I wanted to but because I love you and I still do. I wouldn't do a thing to hurt you but I just have to let go. I can't hold on much longer 'coz for us there's no forever.

Uh Huh
To the girl whose beauty is present in all seasons I tell you why you are beautiful, here are the reasons: Your beauty extends into the heavens, it goes on forever and never lessens. Even when the clouds heighten you are here and the world brightens. You are like a fruit that constantly ripens your beauty continues to grow no mater what happens. My fondness for you constantly deepens because every time I see you my heart starts to weaken. You make everything else appear hollow where ever you are loveliness is sure to follow. You shine so bright you cast your own shadow a beauty that others would love to borrow. But try as they might your beauty they will never catch because something like you they could never match. Your beauty seems to increase with every breathe it tests the limits my imagination can stretch. It makes me question if what I am seeing is real I only know it is true by the way that I feel. Your beauty is so vast it can't be concealed there is no hiding it your beauty

Lovers Night
Lovers Night by Jeff VerStraete A special dinner, That's what he set out to do. To show her how special she was, To show her his love was true. A candle light dinner, He made for them to eat. Looking deep into her eyes, Their souls did meet. After they ate dinner, To the couch they did retire. Curled up together with a movie, And the sweet glow of a fire. So relaxed and content, A feeling of heavenly bliss. On the back of her neck, He placed a sweet soft kiss. It sent a shiver down her spine, And she turned and held him tight. Whispering softly in his ear, Make love to me all night. He said I'll be right back, As he got up off the couch. Into his bedroom he went, Then pulled out a pouch. He pulled out rose pedals, And laid them all over the bed. Hundreds of rose pedals, White, yellow, pink and red.

Thinking, The Curse Of Humanity.
I know that there will never be anyone read these unless i ask to to make it worth while and to make myself feel special but such is life and no one reads it at least it is how ever many words this winds up being that are floating in cyber space instead of my head. Its amazing what thinking can do to someone. It can solve problems, make plans, make up jokes, but it can also remind you of the past, feed you negitive feelings in a whole range of things, making you believe things when the truth is standing right in front of you. That is one thing i have never understood about thinking, how is thinking truly good for you? Sure it can help you make decisions and solve problems and things like that but if you think about it ( oh the irony ) the only time most people ever think in great length is when its something bad and they want to remember things and most of the time when you think in great detail its normally bad. Now this leads me to a point. When you think of negative things and t

Somethin I Wrote For Her
"You Are"You are the breathI take when I first awake each dayYou are the thoughtI have each night when I fall asleepYou are the loveThat keeps me going when I'm downYou are the oneWho holds my heart in her handsYou are my allMy everythingYou are my love

Remembering Things
Right now, I'm not feeling like the greatest person in life. I've hurt the man I love more than once and I'm still kicking myself in the ass for it all. I hate hurting people. I'd rather be the one hurting. Even though I am not good with emotional pain. I'm really not a perfect person. In the eyes of some, I may be. I've done and said things I deeply regret doing and saying. I am having a hard time right now with things. People will ask me if I am okay. I will say I am, but I'm really not. I'm on a emotional rollercoaster right now. Lately it seems like everyone wants to bite my head off. I know they aren't, but that's just how I am feeling. My health is not the greatest at the moment either, so that doesn't help. I've been hurt and scared a lot through my life, but I do know that others have it worse off than I do. I'm remembering why I became a loner in the first place. I've gotten tired of being hurt physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally. I'm with an amazing man who accepts

Using Solar Energy At Home
Solar energy is adaptable and it can also be used on a large or small scale. It is especially useful in sunny countries and remote place. But not energy can be produced at night and very little on cloudy days. Click here to read more - Home Solar Power Systems and How to Generate Electricity It is the Sun’s energy that ultimately powers practically all like on Earth and keeps the planet warm enough for that life t6o exist. Until recently however, we have lacked the means to tap this energy and put it to practical use. Energy in abundance Only about one two-billionth part of the Sun’s energy output reaches the Earth. Yet even that tiny fraction would supply all the world’s energy needs if we could only find the means of capturing it. Every day, the Sun generates more energy than the Earth’s six billion people use in about 30 years. Magic fabric Some solar cells are flexible, like fabric. The US Army has used solar fabric for tents. The fabric provides power f

Sexy Kittens
Hope everyone is enjoying all the gurls, I am in the process of creating an actual website for all the sexy kittens. It will include the gurls of course, bios, pictures...any good ideas let me know.....if your know any ladies that would be good for the groups send them my way....muuuaazzzz xoxoxo shelly

My Heart
my heart an item that has been shattered,broke,abused,and crushed i found her when i tought all was lost like a angel of light to my darkness i was lifted like no other no one could ever do what she has done not another holding her in my arms there is no greater feeling no better grace crystal amanda ratulowski i do wed face to face with all that own from flesh to bone i belong no other place no other by my side even to the grave ice and snow with out you i have no mind no body i love you so!

3 Doors Down - "let Me Go"
One more kiss could be the best thing, But one more lie could be the worst. And all these thoughts are never resting, And you're not something I deserve. In my head, there's only you now... This world falls on me. In this world, there's real and make believe, And this seems real to me... You love me but you don't know who I am. I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand. And you love me but you don't know who I am, So let me go, Let me go... I dream ahead to what I hope for, And I turn my back on loving you. How can this love be a good thing When I know what I'm going through. In my head, there's only you now... This world falls on me. In this world, there's real and make believe, And this seems real to me... You love me but you don't know who I am. I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand. You love me but you don't know who I am, So let me go, Just Let me go. Let me go... And no matter how hard I try, I can't escape these things inside I know. I know... When

Demon Ranger Needs Family Adds!!!
Hey all you Demons!! Can you please help out Demon Ranger level up?? He needs to be added to some more Demon families as a requirement. Please check him out and add him... thank you sooo much!! This is Demon Ranger's user profile! (and he is my number 2 family) http://fubar.com/user/2799282 Thanks again :) *hugz to all AngL

Email I Just Got
me love you long time Hi there .. me friend gave Me Your email ansaid ya want too talk dirty To teenage girls.if ya have long time lets's speak soooo I Can chat sexyTo ya. i must to finger my self While you wack off,You can i am Me On YAHOOmy screenname i s.rileyhubert74 Chat with you later! "He was one ducked-up dude." commented Ace Backwords, popular comic knew. I was reduced to wandering around beaches by myself,gang's slave slut! Well, Wanda would see that she got all she could the proletariat because they are themselves looking to perform..

"to Every Guy"
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was b

What The Hell?
This is an email I got today. It sturck me as funny as hell considering I spoke with the person for all of 5 minutes. From the very first moment I saw you I knew that we were destined to be together. It has been so long since a woman has captured my attention so fully or made my heart beat the way it did that very first day i saw your pics on badoo. Your smile lights up my entire spirit. Your laughter fills me with joy, and your mere presence will warm any room. I have no doubt you are the woman Heaven has made especially for me.Thank you for the comfortable conversations and for asking me to be your friend maybe it might lead us somewhere from there. Most importantly, thank you for sharing your friendship and wanting to make me your good friend first. No matter how slowly or at what distance our courtship developes, I know standing before God and our future family, vowing to be your partner for life, was the easiest decision I could have ever made.Each day that passes makes our fr

The Invasion Of Ogyptu Has Been A Complete Failure
We got back into Minot from Bismarck this morning forty-five minutes before I had to go to work, and the roads were not as bad as meteorologists lead us to believe. Provided you remember to not drive the speed limit of 70 on Interstate 83 but under it – we saw several cars both ways that had swerved off the road as a result, and it’s still snowing in some parts – you’ll be okay. It’s Martha’s mom who was fearful for our safety and insisted we take Mary’s cell phone with us (like Candace’s mom on “Phineas and Ferb” last night, I lament the day those things were invented) in case the worst happened. It didn’t; in fact, we all had a lot of fun in our state capital though our adventures were largely confined to the northern part of town where Country Inn and Suites was. Olive Garden where we had the $50 gift card is right next to it! Sarah and Jeffrey both had kid-sized portions of spaghetti, Martha had their chicke

Open Marriage Yes Or No
“Swinging saves you from cheating – there’s no lies and deception. It’s letting people have the variety they crave, but their partners get to have power and choice in the matter.” Danielle, 31 I suspect most married men like that idea of sex with other couples. If you are considering “swinging” you have to read this article. http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,588983,00.html?test=faces BlastFM swings 24/7 and you can bring your partner to the party. Listen to BlastFM loud! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Fake Salute Of The Day...
And the winner is…. With stolen pictures from… That fake salute looks like an alien…lol And of course if any of you want to enjoy good tunes and great people, feel free to stop by The Original Danger Zone by just clickin the pic below…always hiring , greeters, DJ‘s and cam candy…:D…peace…

I Won't See You Tonight Part 1- Avenged Sevenfold
Cry alone, I've gone away No more nights, no more pain I've gone alone, took all my strength I've made the change, I won't see you tonight Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood All the ones around me I cared for and loved Building up inside of me A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free Don't mourn for me, You're not the one to place the blame As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight Sorrow sank deep inside my blood All the ones around me I cared for and most of all I loved But I can't see myself that way Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away Cry alone, I've gone away No more nights, no more pain I've gone alone, took all my strength But I've made the change, I won't see you tonight So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight And while I'm gone everything will be alright No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight

Lessons Learned On Fu..and Whats Going On With Me!
It has been quite awhile since I've blogged.It's been about 4 1/2 months.I've been pretty busy!I just hit my 90 days on my job on Monday march 8th.My job is frustrating at times but I make pretty good money and commission and found that my niche is sales.I love talking to people and getting them to buy something.It is a personal challenge and I love it.My first month there I outsold my sales manager who's been doing it three years and I had never done sales.So Im pretty proud of me!I work alot and I try to be here as much as possible and I've learned that people forget about you when your not here 24/7.Oh well what can you do?My real friends are always here for me.The two people who have stayed a consistent friend are Sexy Hot Colorado chick my #1 and Mj!They are great women!You should befriend then if you have not.Ok..on to some lessons learned here.I will be the first to admit when I started fu that I did very well here.I leveled to Oracle in no time and was very popular but I asked

Disenchanted
I must say this.....men who invite a woman into thier life knowing they have children involved should be shot if they don't like kids. Why not 1st get to know yourself (your likes & dislikes) learn how to properly provide for yourself then get involved if you still feel its right. I am so feeling burned right now its not funny. If i have 1 more pretender just out for a quick roll in the hey i'll go postal.

Love
Why is it that love is so hard to find, I mean true love! The kind of love that has no bounderies, the kind of love that knows no shame. I want to find a woman who can be as true as I am. I need a woman who can be my best friend and my soul mate! Is it so much to ask to want a woman who can love me unconditionally. I have been hurt so much my heart cannot take anymore breaking. .I have suffered long enough all I want is love. I know this does not sound like a typical guy but I see myself as a extrodinary guy one who knows how to love and is ready to be with a woman who can love like I do.

A Responce To Dark Prince!
~The Beast~ By Billy Cool I like what I see when you gaze out your window into the starlit night. Desperately searching the skies, longing for me. In your dreams you say... Come to me my sweet. I cost nothing. My love is free. You offer your neck, Forever live with me. I your lord You my lady. Together more fearsome than any horror in Hades. Come my lady, take my hand. Let me spin my spell, fill your eyes with sand. For it is in your dreams that I can fly. Where I come to you. Kiss you. Make you sigh. Do not fret when morning comes and you find that your Dark Prince has gone. I will return tomorrow night, but always be gone by dawn. So my lamb as the sun rises to the East, Kiss me now, Say farewell to your beast.

[home Delivery]
Eesh, what a low week thus far. Well, I've got a date with... have I actually used her name on this website? on sunday. My place.Tuna steaks. I'm nervous.I need to design that sauce. The gelgoog cannon did in fact come in the Jonny Ridden colors (sweet!) but with no handheld weapons (not so sweet). ... moderate annoyance. But the Ramba Ral custom kinda got my blood pumping in a way I haven't felt since I got a discount rate on a handy. Fuck! Do not let me forget to send back my tax rebate.Free money is good. House is 90% ready, just need to mop up the big spots from my dog, and I need to practice dinner. ... what else am I forgetting? *looks around his house*Fuck I dunno. Work tomorrow, kits... eventually.Didn't I just finish something?Oh, rightKampfer. I'm thinking more and more seriously about my custom colors for my Kampfer. Now, I've considered the difficulty of recasting and mounting a tower shield...but y'know... if I had access to some malleable holster for the shot

A Wishful Dream
I look up, in the mornings lightAs a silent tear rolls over my cheek, slowly.I think about better days.And I wonder if I'll feel again. As your eyes gaze upon me, in my direction.With those bright eyes, I know so well.Always smiling, laughing, so deep and thoughtful yet.As though I always was in control of my life.But not today, I look scared.For once I do not have an answer.I gaze and mesmerize about the past.Hoping to understand, why you've said those things you said. I wonder for a moment, if all of this was just a dream.Just a figment of my imagination.With a confusing look in my eyes, I've never seen.I wish if it was a dream, it would never have stopped. And you, whipping crystalline tears from my cheek.Telling me, everything will be alright.

Bullshit Bingo
Rules for Bullshit Bingo 1. Before Barrack Obama's next televised speech, prepare your "Bullshit Bingo" card by drawing a square. I find that 5" x 5" is a good size -- and dividing it into columns -- five across and five down. That will give you 25 1-inch blocks. 2. Write one of the following words/phrases in each block: . Restored our reputation . Strategic fit . Let me be clear . Make no mistake . Back from the brink . Signs of recovery . Out of the loop . Benchmark . Job creation . Fiscal restraint . Win-win . Affordable health care . Previous Administration . Greed on Wall Street . At the end of the day . Empower (or empowerment) . Touch base . Mindset . Corporate greed . Ballpark . Game plan . Leverage . Inherited as in "I inherited this mess" . Relief for working families (alternate - "unprecedented") 3. Check off the appropriate block when you hear one of those words/phrases. 4. When you get five blocks horizontally, vertically, or diagon

If We Had Sex
If We Had Sex....GAME. don't be scared. you never know who really wants to do you! (Reply so only I see it and Repost so others can fill it out).1. Would you be in control?2. Would you let me pull your hair?3. Would you whisper in my ear?4. Would you talk dirty to me?5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?6. Would you say my name?7. Would you go down on me?8. Would you let me give you a hickie?9. How many rounds would we go?10. What would you wanna do afterwards?11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?12. Would you lick and bite me all over?13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point?14. Would you want me to take my time?15. How freaky are you from 1 - 10?16. Would you want me to go fast or slow?17. Where would you want it?18. Would you be loud or quiet?19. Would you mind if i licked you?20. Would you Fuck me today?21. Would you Fuck me tomorrow?22. Would you call me in the morning?23. Are you going to re-post

Merlin Olsen
SALT LAKE CITY (AP) - Pro Football Hall of Famer and former television actor Merlin Olsen has died. He was 69. Utah State University assistant athletic media relations director Zach Fisher says Olsen died Wednesday night at a Los Angeles hospital. He was diagnosed with mesothelioma last year. Olsen was an All-American at Utah State and a first-round draft pick of the Los Angles Rams in 1962. The burley giant from northern Utah joined Deacon Jones, Lamar Lundy and Rosey Grier on the Rams' storied "Fearsome Foursome" defensive line known for either stopping or knocking backward whatever offenses it faced. The Rams set an NFL record for the fewest yards allowed during a 14-game season in 1968. Olsen was rookie of the year for the Rams in 1962 and is still the Rams' all-time leader in career tackles with 915. He was named to 14 consecutive Pro Bowls, a string that started his rookie year. Olsen was also an established televisio n actor with a role on "Little House on the Prairie," then sta

Things You Should Know
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Fub's Id Check's Are Screwed Up And They Won't Fix It !!
Has anyone else noticed that when there's an ID Check occurs at a friend request, that the friend request is not actually sent afterwards .. it appears to have been sent, but it hasn't been !!! I've verified this by going back to the same sites the next day, as well as creating a dummy account, and it does not work !!

So True
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective a

Crazy Beautiful (poem)
Quote:"The world would have no rainbowz had the eyez no tearz--john vance cheneyCrazy Beautiful she'z a rare beauty with chocolate soft skin& almond shape eye'z...Her hair is shoulder length black ocean tidez!& her smile'lightz up the midnite sky'zA star shinein bright..Thing'z aint alright & sometime'z life givez her lemon'z!Sparklin cyder form'z liquidfied dropz within her eye'z..They flow flat like soda left open all nite..Like lotion moisterizin each lash!You never know how long it'll last..No one noticed them unless they cared enough 2 look closely! & witness they excape layin on her face..she'z a rich snickerz candy bar!Like marbalez the nut'z are mizplaced & replaced with woundz..The woundz left behind should be a crime!but they're not.She refuse'z 2 rot in itz misery.. Her soul is standin strong like a iron martini glass..She'z slightly tainted by the forbidden bite'z of life;but it'll never steal her smilez away!the only sunlight she has left..One day thingz will become s

Siren
With your back turned i fall to my knees the cold hard pavement is welcoming to my needs You walk away and never look back as if i was only a dream.You smile with contentment and walk with pride towards your siren.She floats as if she were walking on water with such ease and grace it takes your breath away Her beauty is one that a picture cannot capture her Her eyes tell a story of deceit and lies but your love for her is not as disguised You croon over your new love as i burn slowly and dispossess this worldly body Forever shall you be gone in the hands of the devil as you burn slowly in the pit you have dug for yourself I lie in the arms of my one true love from now till forever

About Me:
About Me and updates:I learned this from a good frieng who posts her About Me on a blog in her page, and being mine has turned into a book, I thought it was a good idea. Thanks Angel of Anguish, for being who you are and all the support (if you have already read this and dont want to reread or skip, any updates will be at the botton, dated and in short form....)About me.... well I'm a average kinda guy I guess, not unlike other average 40 seven or eight year olds Id like to think. not in perfect shape, don't plan to be, but don't drink and smoke myself too death either. A little neurotic at times, even a little moronic at times, ask any Ex. I'm here in Fuland for no other reason then to meet interesting people make new friends and of course... the chuckles, yup Im one of those, everybody knows one, Ill admit it,I'm a chuckle whore.If it looks funny..Ill laugh, some times even if it isn't!I enjoy cruzin around rating pages and pics just for the chuckles. So if ya want a chuckle or two c

Poem I Wrote To My Passing Dad! I Love You And Miss You So Much!
Christmas is full of cheer, but Dad your not here. My feelings are of tears. We had great times thru the years. Your still in my heart , after all you help create me from the start. We will never be apart. You were a beloved father. I will get thru the sorrow. So DAD,Merry Christmas in heaven. You are my angel glowing on top the tree. Love you Forever.

Good Enough
Sometimes I wonder will i ever be pretty enough, will I ever me smart enough or sexy enough. My heart cries out to you, but you dont return my call. I pray everyday wondering where you are, are you really died or is this all a horriable nightmare to which ill never wake up from. The day we met was the day my life changed forever. Nothing has ever been the same since. Your in mind,your in my heart and you will always be there. I always dreamed of the day we would meet, and now because of someone elses selfish heart we will never become one! She took you away and destroyed something that was a love that would never die. But I know you wouldnt want me to hurt, or to cry for you. But I can't my life was suppose to be with you, my life was suppose to continue with you. So many new adventures were suppose to start. But no matter what my life must go on. Cause I know ill never be pretty enough, or smart enough or sexy enough for anyone else! Someone else will always be before me!

Neck And Back Pain
It seems as if lately my neck and back have been killing me more and more as the days linger on . I called the doctor last night and he mentioned there might be some sort of blockagee thet needs to be looked at. The only problems is I haven't found the time to go and have it checked. I know that if I don't it will eventually kill me . People may say I am stubborn but I have to many things going on right now to take the time . Then again maybe I should

The Fragile.
Today's selection is The Fragile by NIN. Anyways on to the point of this most wonderful blog. I had this awesome dream that you were the star of. It was so vivid as though it was really happening. So you showed up unexpected the day before Savannah was to go to her mothers. You knocked on the door and there you stood. I was completely stunned and amazed. After a hug the first thing you did was go and greet Savannah who absolutely loved you. She would randomly whisper nice things about you in my ear. Then my mother showed up, to which I introduced you two. You two hit it off really well to the point where my mother wanted to stay in contact with you. She eventually pulled me to the side and told me not to mess this up that you were a keeper. Next thing you know another knock at the door. This times it's your father. Seems that he rode up with you and has been in the truck waiting on you for a couple hours now. So I invite him in and he and I hit it off well. He tells stories o

Lifeless
Beauty so surrounds me,But blind now are my eyes.No longer throught salted tears,Can they even cry. Dry like a dessert,With them went my heart.Maybe with them away from me,I can make a brand new start. Put away all my wonders,Thoughts and silly dreams.And know now this is my reality,Lifeless as it seems. Now through this wasteland,That used to be my soul.Forever without my love,Forever I will go.

Chicago Knows How To Have Fun
OMG! I seriously need to check out this burger place on the North Side. I wanna get the Metallica Burger! Check out http://www.kumascorner.com/. Read the info on them for a big ass laugh! These people seriously RAWK!

Tough Road
there is still a tough road to ride. always wil be. taking words personally is just my thing sometimes i guess. but...good and bad. im a non-believer who believes in people for the most part. i chalk it up to experience. the racists who see me as a "wigger" because i play reggae and have more than just white friends...thats just ideas for new songs. when they talk about the music they love done by people not of their race...makes me realize they dont have much but propaganda to stand on. having this condition and how much others dont understand it is another thing. but i cant blame people for not knowing about it. although when its seen as a joke...i blame them. and i will attack them with every horrible word i can think of in fighting back. because if there are those who believe they are RIGHT about everything they believe. then they might not want to tell me how right they are about what i believe. thats just flat out facism, conformist, not punk rock one bit. thats an

Doctrine Of Unintended Consequences, A Case Study
I try not to blog about the inanity that is my work. Really, I do try. But occasionally they do something that's so mind-bogglingly idiotic that I have to write about it, just to check to be sure that I'm not the only one who thinks it's crazy. So. I'm a technical writer/editor, contracting for the FAA. You knew that, right? What I do is mostly editing and publishing (online) the documents that they write. There's an ISO-certified process that we have to follow in order to do this. If you don't know what that means, don't worry. Neither does most of the government, apparently. Part of this process involves coordinating documents with other divisions within the FAA, some located here in Washington, others located across the country. Basically, we send it to them, they get a month or so to read it and send back any comments. There's a form they have to sign and send back to us, which says that they've read it and have no comments, or else they have comments and they send those along to

Final Word
Say something do somethingvoices over coming memake something rightmake it all come downFeeling is believingactions means causefor you it means nothingaslong as we speakthis is your final wordThe ground is my holy playgroundyou sin once before but never conqueredyou look at me for answersbut no question can be answer by suchLife is like a crystal balllook in past and futurebut doing somethingmakes it real

Spare Some If Ya Can
Hey guys im into modeling and i need to take some classes for it. It's a total of $360 for the entry fee an I have no way to come up with all of it. I only need $100 dollars as of right now. If anyone can maybe donate a lil money that would help out A LOT. If you want to help plz message me n i'll tell u where to send the money to or money order whatever way you wish to do it. Really could use the help

Pelosi's Failure
Four years ago, Nancy Pelosi and her fellow Congressional Democrats took control of Washington with a promise to drain the so-called "swamp" of corruption and have, as she said, "The most honest, the most open and the most ethical Congress in history." The recent sexual harassment allegations against Democrat Congressman Eric Massa and the continuing ethics investigations into Congressman Charlie Rangel's illegal Caribbean junkets and failure to pay federal taxes on unreported income serves as a stark reminder that the Democrats have largely failed the American people. Pelosi and the Democrats' pledges to "change" Washington were nothing more than lofty populist campaign rhetoric -- and they must be held responsible for their double-talking, double-dealing ways. It's time for Nancy Pelosi to stop protecting her liberal allies in Congress and start protecting the American people from corrupt politicians like she promised. Nancy Pelosi and Congressional Democrats have failed the Ameri

It's Goin Down Friday Starting At 8am Fu Time
AUTO 11s On OK FU IT'S TIME FOR A SERIOUS FRIDAY PARTY. WHO BETTER TO HOST IT THEN THE ONE AND ONLY MZBOOTI2BIG AND DRUNK3N KNIGHTMAER!!AUTO 11s On SO BE THERE THIS FRIDAY STARTING AT 8AM FU-TIME TO 12PM. THERE WILL BE 4 HH YES U HEARD ME RIGHT 4 HH FOR U TO GET YOUR POINTS ON AND HELP DRUNK3N KNIGHTMAER LEVEL.AUTO 11s On SO BE SURE TO REPOST THIS AND SPREAD THE WORD. THIS IS SU

New Things You Should Know About
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Now That Marm Weather Is Here You Need The Rules For A Good Bbq
BBQ RULES It is important to refresh your memory on the etiquette of this sublime outdoor cooking activity. When a man volunteers to do the BBQ the following chain of events are put into motion: ROUTINE: 1. The woman buys the food. 2. The woman makes the salad, prepares the vegetables, and makes dessert. 3. The woman prepares the meat for cooking, places it on a tray along with the necessary cooking utensils and sauces, and takes it to the man who is lounging beside the grill - beer in hand. 4. The woman remains outside the compulsory three meter exclusion zone where the exuberance of testosterone and other manly bonding activities can take place without the interference of the woman. HERE COMES THE IMPORTANT PART: 5. THE MAN PLACES THE MEAT ON THE GRILL. MORE ROUTINE: 6. The woman goes inside to organise the plates and cutlery. 7. The woman comes out to tell the man that the meat is looking great. He thanks her and asks if she will bring another beer

Retarded Peoples Writing
ok this is the status of a friend on another website im on and shes 24 so i dunno how they pass school anymore but its really retarded "VERY pleased wid maself today, new job. now if a pass ma driving test nx week al be givin masel a pat on the back! lol..gud luck wish's plz." wtf is this shit?

Some Of My Favrite "letter To The Editor" I Have Found Online.
LETTERS TO THE ED Hats off to the witty burglars who stole my entire CD collection with the exception of "There is Nothing Left to Lose" by the Foo Fighters. I hope that when sentencing, the judge takes into account their splendid sense of humour. The record companies would have us believe that the money made by CD pirates goes to fund the drug industry. But the money rock stars make from legal record sales ends up in exactly the same place. When they stop breaking the law, so will I. What's all this nonsense about that 66-year-old Romanian woman being the world's oldest mum? My mum's 77. Beat that. How come rap artist Dr. Dre can use the 'n' word on his multi-million selling albums and win a MOBO award, yet when I used it at my son's football match I was asked to leave the park? Once again, it's one law for the rich and another for the poor. Peter Andre might look smug in all his wedding pictures, but I'd just like to remind him that, as a Playboy reade

Yan Tan Tethera
Here in the UK Shepherds tended to place more importance on sheep than pretty much everything else, such as shool and church (in fact, when a shepherd died, they would pin a bit of wool to thier burial suit so that God would know why they never went to church). As Such, many never learned numbers. But in shepherding, its pretty important to make you you haven't lost any sheep. So the ancient shepherds in Northern england and southern scotland used this rhyme called Yan Tan Tethera. There are quite a few variations based in local dialect, this one is from Cumbria where my Grandfather (who taught it to me) grew up. 1 Yan 2 Tahn 3 Tethera 4 Methera 5 Pimp 6 Sethera7 Lethera 8 Hovera 9 Dovera 10 Dick11 Yan-a-Dick 12 Tahn-a-Dick 13 Tethera-Dick14 Methera - Dick15 Bumfit 16 Yan-a-Bumfit17 Tahn-a-Bumfit 18 Tethera-Bumfit 19 Methera-Bumfit20 Jiggot I think its rather lovely, hance why I shared it here.

Http://abcnews.go.com/nightline/video/nightline-030910-10058253
I have several things to say about this report. First off how can the news go on and proclaim that music influcences people to commit murder. Where as theres more volience, rape, and hatrid shown on the news daily than all volient music combined. This is the world we live in. I understand that the news needs something to report. Yes it is the job of the news to bring forth this sort of acts of mankind to the masses to cause fear in their fellow man. However I recall other events where an musical artists was placed under such accusations. Judist Preist were sued due to a boy commiting suscide but the suit was dropped when there was no such hidden lryics. Metallica was sued due to two young men killing one another who were avid fans of the band. Maryln Manson was banned from Colorado due to the mass murder that was committed there by two of his fans. Metal guitar legend Dime Bag Darryl was murdered on stage by a fan of his old band Pantera. And so on so forth. I'm seeing a trend here. Ea

Do Over
Do over (By Me) Here I am starting overstarting a new chapter in this so called lifethe future is uncertain even more now then beforetoo many roads to choose from not sure which way to go We take many things for grantedhealth,love,friends,jobs, even familythings can change in the blink of an eyehave to think to do the simplest taskdon't realize what we do every daycan just easily be taken away thought I had the world in my handstarting this new chapter had the bull by the hornswell he got away and gored menow a wheel chair I call legstrying to learn to walk again Many friends have showed me the lovethey all say I deservewhat I long for and yern to feelis the loving touch of anotherI hurt I feel the constant painphysically and emotionaly it tears me apart so here I am with a do overbut it comes at what costcan I afford this toal roadit is a heavy price I am to paymy heart,my body,my mind, my soulIt is a tough long road to travel

As I Walk Through Life..
As I Walk Through Life.. As I Walk Through Life.... I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life I've learned that its taking me a long time to become the person i want to be I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words coz it might be the last time you ever see them I've learned that you can keep going long after you cant I've learned that we are responsible for what we do no matter how we feel I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place I've learned that heroes are people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done regardless of the consequences I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score I've learned that my best friend and i can do anything or nothing and have the best time I've learned that som

My Name Is Pedro, And I'm A Whore
I hear you out there, you're starving for great blogs. Well this is what you are going to get, and like it. My three year Fu-versary is quickly approaching (I know you all have it marked on your calendars, but so you dont have to look its saturday the 20th) Three being the magic number, two is not enough, four is too many, and five is way out, I will be celebrating my anniversary with large expenditures of whoriness. I am talking Autos, Bombs, a Blast, Tickers, and even a happy hour. So what am I asking of you? Nothing unreasonable I think. If you will be around that saturday and want to throw me some rates, that would be smashing, if not no biggie. If you haven't bought your bi-weekly ticker credit (https://fubar.com/msgticker_payment.php?recip=755732), I'd like to offer to buy it off you (I'm collecting as many as I can.) If you are willing to make me a fuversary salute I'd also welcome that as well. I am also taking suggestions for what to put in my blast & happy hour,

Happy Hour Bombing
I'm going to be using my bomb during my Happy Hour. Thing is, I really want to get as much out of it as I can. There are a few people that I will bomb, without autos, since they always bomb me when they have it, even though I never have autos. Other than that, I will only be bombing people with autos on. It's nothing personal, if I don't bomb you...really.

3-10-2010: It's 7 Am
And I can't sleep a wink. Part of that is due to the fact i can't sleep on my side- gravity pulls against my industrial staples, and it hurts. Like hell. another large portion of it is that my PPD has been kicking into overdrive- I cried tonight, mostly about Emilie but also over the fact I'm not old enough to even support my fiance's band at a good portion of their shows. I feel pathetic. I can't even be there to show how much I love them, as silly as they can be. they have such a great energy, and I have to admit I love being there when he gets offstage, drenched in sweat, exhausted, coming to me grinning because of how much fun he had. I miss it. But lately they've only been booking bars- I know the turnout's better, and they make more money (especially at the Melody), and they have more fun. I just feel lame, unworthy, because I can't even be the dutiful fiancee/fangirl/photographer I'm supposed to be. Especially after how much support he's given me the past 6-ish months. I mean,

Do This Beutiful Planet Needs Borders To Live..........
Hi Members Long time ago..................... When earth evolved, people use to live together irrespective of there colour, class and creed. There were no boundries, earth was not divided in to parts.......... But slowly every thing changed, and people got separated by borders, colour, status, symbols, wars.........list is to long............ FUBAR is the place where human race has reunited, there are no more borders, people love each other.................... My question is only that. Do we realy need borders to live??????????????? If this blog touches only persone out there in this world my perpose os over........ Love Param

Invisible Powers Around Us That We Live With
The invisible powers are the wind, gravity, electricity, electromagnetism and the microscopic electronic nature of the structure of atoms that compose our cells (not invisible but microscopic). Microscopic neurons carry energy used by the brain for thought and movement of the body. God is the source of the thoughtful power that enable cells to know where they are supposed to be in our bodies. There is an invisible force that propels the earth around the sun and and our solar system to move through our galaxy and our galaxy to move amongst the other galaxies in the universe. Think about it and hopefully give me your view on this. thanks for reading this blog and commenting on it.

Spirit Of Unforgiveness
A spirit of forgiveness goes beyond a temporary unwillingness to forgive, the period between the time a person gets hurt and the time he forgives the one who hurt him. A spirit of unforgiveness developes when the one hurt chooses to remain in that unforgiving state. People who develope this nasty spirit often say, "I just don't think i could ever forgive that." They make the statement when they feel they have been treated in such an unjust, unfair, harmful way that they simply can't let go of the pain. We are all going to be hurt. Everyone of us has been hurt, are hurting now, or are going to be hurt by somebody. The only way we can insulate ourselves against being hurt is to completely remove ourselves from the possibility of love. To risk love is to risk hurt. Hurt is unavoidable, but we can deal with hurt. No pain is too deep or too widespread to lie beyond the power of God's forgiveness, working in and through us.

March 11th
ok so the last couple days have been very emotional... March 11th 2010 is the 8th anniversary of the passing of my daughter. I apologize for any abnormal or inappropriate behavior on my part and I hope if I have said or done something out of like you can forgive me. It's just very hard on me.. if you care enough to want to know more get ahold of me. Thanks for reading.

Fyi For March 10
Just so friends know. I will not be on as much this month. I'm back in fire school at night and working alot of overtime at work. If I'm slow or miss returning love back to you this is the reason. I'm trying to get my state cert. for Fire Instructor. I'm still running calls and doing my duties as a Capt in my fire house. I been on in the am and sneaking on at work from time to time. Nights will be hard for to make it on. I not missing St. Patt's. still have to have be the Irishman I am lol. Be well my friend and thaks for understanding.

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
We'll do it allEverythingOn our ownWe don't needAnythingOr anyoneIf I lay hereIf I just lay hereWould you lie with meAnd just forget the world?I don't quite knowHow to sayHow I feelThose three wordsAre said too muchThey're not enoughIf I lay hereIf I just lay hereWould you lie with meAnd just forget the world?Forget what we're toldBefore we get too oldShow me a gardenThat's bursting into lifeLet's waste timeChasing carsAround our headsI need your graceTo remind meTo find my ownIf I lay hereIf I just lay hereWould you lie with meAnd just forget the world?Forget what we're toldBefore we get too oldShow me a gardenThat's bursting into lifeAll that I amAll that I ever wasIs here in your perfect eyesThey're all I can seeI don't know whereConfused about how as wellJust know that these thingsWill never change for us at allIf I lay hereIf I just lay hereWould you lie with meAnd just forget the world?

Words Cant Express It, But Perhaps This Is A Start
How Long Will I Love You? Until the end of time and beyond.... Until the music stops and there is no more song.. How Long Will I Love You? Until the seas and rivers all run dry.... Until the the Moon and stars fall from the sky.... How Long Will I Love You? Until the Sun is no longer able to shine... Until there is no more hope...that one day you'll be mine.... How Long Will I Love You? Forever....always.....until three minutes past eternity........ You are my forever love, the man my dreams are fashioned of… There isn't a guy in this world Who can make me feel the way you do, Who can get me smiling in just one word, Who can touch my soul, And make me whole. There isn't a guy in this world, Who would ever stand a chance, Because together is where we belong, You have got me in a trance, You mesmerize my soul, With just the sound of your voice, You touch my heart, and you make me whole. Even though we haven't got a choice, We have to wait until fate gives us a start,

Confused...
Pray for me everyone. I'm soo confused about my husband right now its not even funny. When I met him in march I already had a son from a previous relationship. I ended up getting pregnant in May, with a baby girl. He moved down here at the end of June. We got married November 18th of last year. Had my baby girl December 8th. Everything was going great with us until he lost his job about 2 months ago. We have been staying with my mom. And he just basically quit caring all together about having a job. Our income tax came right about that time. So he's been just gung ho about staying at home. For the past 2 months, I have felt like I'm single with a roommate that just happens to the father of my baby girl and husband. Since he has moved in with us, he has not had to do dishes once, take out the trash or anything. I do all of this. All he does is Snooze all day till about 3-5pm. Wakes up, then logs onto World of Warcraft. Plays it all freaking night, pausing maybe twice if I insist he help

Hit The Master Switch
One by one The lights in life go out. Acceptance, Excellence One by one grows farther away. Small glimmerings snuffed out and nobody Even seems to notice. Hit the master switch! Better to have lost? I thought I understood. I thought I understood. And then that last time, I thought I understood. No more waiting For the lights to come down. Hit the master switch. Hit the master switch. Because others can observe you And make your grief worse; But only you can Hit the master switch! Extinction . . .

Enjoy!
RECIPE FOR LOVE: (this really works..)2x Laughing eyes2x Well shaped legs2x Loving arms2x Firm milk containers2x Nuts1x Fur lined mixing bowl1x firm bananaDirections: 1. Look into laughing eyes2. Spread well shaped legs with loving arms3 Squeeze and massage milk containers very gently until fur lined mixing bowl is well greased, check regularly with finger. 4. Gently add firm banana to mixing bowl, working in and out until well creamed. (For best results, continue to knead milk containers). 5. As heat rises, plunge banana deep into mixing bowl and cover with nuts, leave to soak (preferably not over night). 6. The cake is done when banana is soft. If banana doesn't soften, repeat steps 3-5 or change mixing bowls. Notes: 1. If in unfamiliar kitchen, wash utensils carefully before and after use. 2. Do not lick mixing bowl after use.

Kids
i am a mother of 3 wonderful kids and they cant see there dad bc of some stuff that is going on, i feel like i am being not hard enough but yet ppl are telling me i am being to hard and that he will not go for it. i have it so he can see the kids every weekend till i start work then when i am at work and no weekends and we split the holidays but he has to write down if they got in trouble and if they got hurt or sick and stuff like that so my question to everyone is should i change it to everyother weekend or leave it?

[dreamscape]
Things certainly have changed in the last six months. So much so that I forgot who I am. I'm chained. Strapped. Orderly.Routine. I'm not sure how much longer I can live like this. Schedules and I never really got on so great. Meanwhile I'm running the same load of laundry for the fourth time in the dryer. It's not a particularly big or thick load My dryer's just a pile of turds.And in my infinite wisdom I started another load directly behind it thinking "surely if I start it at six it'll be done by midnight!" ................................................................................................................................................................................. That's the part where I open up this huge hateful compartment in my head and rage on every aspect of my life that I dislike. It starts with the dryerand ends on the high note of me. At what expense has my security come?I have a paycheck.I have friends.I have a dog.I have hobbies.I have a complet

Drugs Take Corey Haim
Another Hollywood actor succumbs to drugs. Corey Haim, who died in Los Angeles, was said to be drug free. That might have been true for illegal drugs but legal drugs were not accounted for. People in America have a thing for both illegal and legal drugs. Obama, according to his medical exam, is drinking and smoking to much. What happened to us? Why is there such a need for drugs of any type? As with any bad habit, we make excuses why we need to use stimulants to free us from daily living. Look what it got Corey. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/03/10/corey-haim-vicodin-prescription-drugs/?test=faces BlastFM is a drug free environment. Music is all you need to alter your mood for the better. Listen and see for yourself. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Another Poem
My love is for only one And he will forever be the only I admit to the wrong I've done It seems I will forever be lonely I will love no other For there is no other for me My emotions I will cover I will rebuild that wall, so none can see To hide again what I once showed And begin to feel numb The love that resided there, will be towed Until death kills me with a loaded gun Hoping to die a miserable death I'm not worthy to be loved or cared for Feeling deaths cringing breath Rotting to my body's aching core Written by Majesta Buirdick Copyright 2010

Love
Love is sharing an caring and brings a smirk upon your face, a smile so bright you light up like the northern lights, so beautiful and bright like a magic light, that all the cuddling and kissing put's you in a lovely sight, u could be anywhere without your love that you begin to miss all the touching and laughing, so that's why u hold on to all your memories so you can reminece, your smirk hits and you know that the feelings you share will and always will be there an in await for more memories to create "Love is here"

Pains
pain is n the heart that's where it start's then n ur chest it begins 2 burn n ake n other pain's accur emptyness hit's like a rock but don't stop, love can be joy n happyness if it's truest of love's nothings perfect we'll have are ups n down's, but working through it, we will, no arguing just talking just here 4 1another we stand as 1 helping with everything without hesitation no matter what it is, massage a shoulder just here n always n always here with n open ear an all of r deapest darkest secrets r like n open book nothing shut just opened up.... writtin by RICHARD O C

The Perfect Mobster
This is what your mobster should look like by lvl 150 WEAPONS 750 M2 Browning Machine Guns (Offense) 750 M134D Gatling Guns (Defense) ARMOR 750 Body Armor (Offense) 750 Reinforced Blast Shelters (Defense) VEHICLES 750 Armed Subs (Offense & Defense) or 750 Regular Subs (Offense) 750 Tanks (Defense) Do not get Apache Helicopters, upkeep is too high and just not worth the money! Until you get all your tanks, buy TUV's for your defense! Until you get all your Reinforced Blast Shelters, buy Full Body Tactical Aromor for defense! Make sure you buy properties then weapons and go back and forth between the two so your cashflow does not drop too low! Casanova

Poet
TONIADAILY EFFORTS EACH MOMENT TRY,LOST TO ETERNITY THEY SEEM TO BE.WITH EACH BREATH ON THAT WE RELY,MY THOUGHTS WILL REST WITH THEE.NO MATTER HOW IT FINISHES,YOUR SPIRIT ANCHORS ME.WHILE I KNOW MY IMAGE IS VIRTUAL,YOUR’S IN MY HEART WILL EVER BE.THE ANGELnCHAINS ENTRANCES THE MIND,OF POET THE AGING HARE.FRIENDSHIP FOR US SHALL BE,A CULMINATION OF THAT WE DO SHARE.LET YOUR HEART REST ASSURE,THAT THOUGH EACH DAY MAY END.THAT REGRET NOT LIVES AMONG MY THOUGHTS,I WOULD LOVINGLY EACH DAY CALL YOU…. FRIEND.THANK YOU FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIP….YOUR SERVANTPOET

A Rose Compared To A Woman
The red in a rose represents a women,s heart their not to far apart. The peddles represents how delicate and smooth they are which keeps them so close together. the stem represents the years that they lived The thorns represents their strengths and fights. When a leaf falls it represents their tears and pains, A closed rose is in wait of an open rose which will represents who they are inside, so open up your eyes an touch what's in front of u don't let it just pass u by.

Fuck All This Fucking Retarded Shit
OK I NEED A PLACE TO VENT I GUESS THIS IS IT ........ IM SOO FUCKING PISS OFF ABOUT ALL THE BULLSHIT GET TOLD ABOUT ME IN THE LIL ASS FUCKING TOWN I FUCKING LIVE IN SEEM LIKE EVERYONE WHAT TO TALK SHIT ABOUT ME 1ST OFF ME AND MY G/F OF A YR.AND AHALF BROKE UP I WAS DONE WITH ALL THE BULLSHIT WITH HER AND THAT DONE.. WELL IM COMING TO FIND OUT THAT SHE WAS CHEATING ON ME WITH SOME FUCKER FOR THE PAST 3 MONTHS WE WAS TOGETHER FUCKING GREAT .... THEN I REALLY LIKE THIS GIRL SHE WAS A FRIEND OF MY FRIEND WE CUZ ME AND THE FRIEND HAVE A PAST HISTORY SHE CAN'T SEE PAST THAT ABOUT US DATE OM FUCK IT HER LOST .. THEN I WAS HELPING OUT A FRIEND AND HER B/F IS A GODDAMN NUT JOB SO NOT WE'RE FUKING AND ALL KINDS OF BULLSHIT AND HE CALL MY MOM AND TOLD HER ALL THIS THEN HIS EXG/F ASKED HIM ABOUT IT AND HE TELLS HER MY MOM A LIEING OHHHHHH HELL FUCK NO ALOT OF SHIT IN A SHORT FUKING TIME IM ABOUT TO GO FUCKING NUTS CUZ I REALIZED I AIN'T TRUSTED A FUCKING PERSON ... ALL THIS BULLSHIT CUZ OF SMA

Sometimes
You know you'd think a guy of any type would get the hint you hate liars, you like honesty and truthfulness no matter what. But I swear some guys hear it and try to put it to a test. I mean how fucking small does your brain have to be to understand that? It's like telling a kid no several times before they get the hint. No lies. But apparently that is too hard for a guy to do. To be honest. God damn, you are a dumb mother fucker to not believe when a girl knows when a guy is lying when they have been lied to so many times. I mean shit, if a guy is dating a girl, they should stick with that girl instead of trying to cheat right? All cheating does is create problems. And then when you lie to another saying "Oh she's just my ex, I'm trying to get her off my back..." BULLSHIT!!!! Granted as friends and trying to go slow and shit you don't lie, lying in the beginning is a bad beginning. Always gotta get away from that right away. One lie just leads to many more. Fuck that shit you know.

Dj Draganheart32 Aka Billy
OK THIS GUY BILLY HAS BEEN PLAYING WOMEN FOR A FOOL HE LURES THEM IN AND THEN FUCK'S WITH THERE HEARTS SO IF ANY OF U WOMEN RUN INTO THIS GUY DON'T FALL FOR HIS GAMES HE IS A LIEING PLAYING HEART BREAKER SON OF A BITCH DON'T LET HIM FUCK WITH YOUR HEART'S LADIES BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THIS IT'S TRUE HE DID IT TO MY SISTER - IN LAW TOLD HER HE WANTED TO BE WITH HER AND THAT HE LOVED HER AND COME TO FIND OUT HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND FOR A YEAR NOW WHAT DO U ALL THINK ABOUT THIS PLAYER LET ME KNOW ALL THANKYOU

This Will Get Love Lol
You will NOT die if any ofthe following happens: 1) Someone does not buy you before your current owneeship expires. Studies have shown that people who are allowed to have their value return to 10,000 fubucks do indeed live to see the next day, and may even survive to see the next! 2) Someone doesn't get you that ohhhhhhhhhhhh so CUTE new bling that pops along. You do NOT need every one that shows up. Quit being so fucking shallow and greedy. The same studies show that a lot of bling is really just an older picture set to Blingee-level sparkly graphics. They even reuse the same old pictures they have previously used, just made it a different colour, called it something different, or added a word or whatever to make it SLIGHTLY different. Come on now, dipshits, remember all those fucking dragons that looked the same? Or the two kissing fish? they couldn't even wait a few weeks to rehash THAT one. Bling does not equal love. if you equate it as such, you are a particularly sha

Can I Get A "hooah", "hoo-rah", "hoo-ya" Or "oo-rah", From A Real Soldier?
alright people. we seen enough fake jobs on television-- fake boob jobs, fake lip jobs, fake hand jobs, EVEN fake blow-jobs, but HERE is what sickens me-- http://fubar.com/2392960-- this guy is passing himself off as a soldier, and he cant even make up his mind on what rank or even what fucking branch of the military he served in.. now that's fucking bullshit!

Soul Mate
He entered my life like lightening in the sky. Rocking my world like thunder reverberating through my very being. To have him so far away breaks the very being he has turned me into being. Loving the idea of just being in his arms when April comes to an end. He is the stars that are unnamed upon a galaxy yet to be discovered. He is the black hole that I wish to become lost in for ever. He is the one that I have waited a lifetime for and never will I let him go.

Herbalife Website
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An Angels Heart But A Demons Mind
THERE TO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT DON'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT ME I HAVE AN ANGHELLIC HEART ALONG WITH A DEMONS MIND. MY ANGHELLIC HEART IS A BRIGHT LIGHT AND IN THAT LIGHT IS A ANGEL SENT FROM HEAVEN. MY DEMONS MIND IS A DARK MAZE THE ONLY WAY THROUGH IS TO FOLLOW THE LIGHT FROM MY ANGHELLIC HEART BUT THE ANGEL INSIDE IS DIEING SO THAT LIGHT IS FADEING AWAY BECAUSE OF BEING SO LONELY ITIS GOING TO BE REAL HARD TO FIND YOUR WAY THROUGH AND MY WAY OUT. THIS MAZE IS GETTING DARKER AND DARKER AS TIME PROGRESSES ON. FOR SOME REASON MY DEMON'S MIND IS TAKEING OVER AGAIN AND I CAN'T STOP IT WILL SOMEONE HELP ME AND BRING THE ANGEL IN MY HEART BACK TO LIFE.

Trembling
Trembling you look into this tormenting tradgedy gazing into the simplistic mirror image of your eveything looks as if its perfect huh? from far away questioning if you'll have the pleasure of another day fantasising lies about your idolistic future chasing every taste of desire and intensity all for what so life can kick you in your ass just to get a laugh but what would you expect and love is so damn hard to have in your life so why fuck with it "why" i'll tell you why because life is lonely with out your lover by your side you walk this world with no heart beat and no soul your like a dieing breathless corpse without your lover by your side so you miss that love you keep wishing to have that love once again please please come back thats all you hear in you head. NUTTER-Z

My Demons
I've been fighting my demons for fourteen years, And I've run out of energy to fight. The sun may be shining outside of this room But in my soul it's night. At times I've imagined I'd come out on top Of the Demons inside of my head. And in a way I suppose I WAS winning the fight If I hadn't, by now I'd be dead. But now the dark clouds have regathered, And I've lost my last semblance of hope. Fear and despair have erased it, And without it there's no way to cope. My life has no purpose or meaning There's nothing inside me but fear. Fear over whether I'll continue To find life so dark and drear Because, I'm afraid if this goes on, There will be only one last path left And if, in my weakness I take it I doubt anyone will be worried…

??why??
There's a hole in my heart not a very big one... but enough When I am with someone who cares the emotion spreads to me and fills me with joy with love and with peace making me feel like a whole person again For awhile, my heart overflows with the passion for living that the encounter has created... but then gradually the emotion drains away trickling down slowly but steadily through the hole drip... drip... drip... leaving me empty once more...

Midnight
I look off in to the midnight sky. Wondering what my life will hold. All the changes that are happening. The empty side of the bed. The sadness of being alone With each passing day I build the wall around my heart. Making it taller and wider. Leaving a hole in hopes that "he" will find it and come in to be my missing piece. Untill then I will look off into the midnight sky and hope. There is always hope. I hope!

Alone Again
Being alone is one of the saddest conditions for a human being to experience. You may feel alone with your family, if you think that no one understands you. Often people are afraid to share who they are because they think that they will be rejected. However, if you are not sharing who are, you are not truly with the people you love. On the other hand when you share you true self, you risk being rejected. Often individuals seek people out of the family unit with whom they can share themselves without fear of rejection.

Wish It Was Me
I watched a bird die today. it was lying in our yard So small and helpess, Quivering gently. And there was absolutely nothing I could do. A cat must have got it Or some larger bird, Tearing at its head And then leaving it lying there On its little side, Dying. As I watched helplessly It quivered once more, Convulsively, And then stopped. And I knew that it was gone. Out of its pain For ever. I watched a bird die today And I knew exactly how it felt…

What To Do
What do you do when you don't want to live, But you're not yet ready to die? What do you do when the life that you lead Has turned out to be just a lie? What do you do when you're so much alone That it seems like there's no-one at all? What do you do when you're right on the edge, With no-one to catch you when you fall? What do you do when you can't even pray, Because there seems to be no point to prayer? What can you do? Who can you call? When it seems even God doesn't care…

A Beautiful Heart
The more hurt and pain you have gone thru in life, the stronger and more beautiful your heart will be..... One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces missing. The people stared. How can he say his heart is more beauti

Rip Buddy
i remember when i first got you you had no self e-steem had your head hanging down and was hiding under a table scared...i knew that we had a special bond... after i got you home and told you everything would be ok i could see the life comeing back in you. i remember the endless nights where i would just set up and talk to you even tho you couldn't talk back i knew u listen. i remember all the good times we had the walks at the park when i asked u if u wanted to go bye bye u would bark and carry on until we went. i remember the trips we took to tennessee and just to see u sit so pretty in the passenger seat was priceless. i miss the way we played i miss the way u made me feel i miss your comfort i knew even after a long day at been at school or at work i could come home and you would be waiting on me... no matter how late it was.. i remember everytime i was leaving the house u wanted to go with me no matter where i was going... i miss your bark your growl when we played i miss the

So Easy
It would be so easy just to give in to take my pills and drink my booze and let them ease all my fears... to sink into forgetfulness the absence of all emotion. thoughts, feelings, actions stilled. no fear, no pain, no sorrow just peaceful rest. to go to sleep and never wake up. It would be so very easy... But because it is so easy that is precisely the reason why I will not take it. I've never been a quitter and I'm not going to start now. not yet not without a fight. not when the stakes are so high Life... or Death.

A Tribute To Edgar Allen Poe
The Raven Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore, While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. "'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door- Only this, and nothing more." Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December, And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow;- vainly I had sought to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow- sorrow for the lost Lenore- For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore- Nameless here for evermore. And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me- filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating, "'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door

Spirits Of The Dead
Thy soul shall find itself alone 'Mid dark thoughts of the grey tomb-stone; Not one, of all the crowd, to pry Into thine hour of secrecy. Be silent in that solitude, Which is not loneliness- for then The spirits of the dead, who stood In life before thee, are again In death around thee, and their will Shall overshadow thee; be still. The night, though clear, shall frown, And the stars shall not look down From their high thrones in the Heaven With light like hope to mortals given, But their red orbs, without beam, To thy weariness shall seem As a burning and a fever Which would cling to thee for ever. Now are thoughts thou shalt not banish, Now are visions ne'er to vanish; From thy spirit shall they pass No more, like dew-drop from the grass. The breeze, the breath of God, is still, And the mist upon the hill Shadowy, shadowy, yet unbroken, Is a symbol and a t

Save Me
As I put the razor to my skin,I feel the adrenalin,the pain is a sudden rush to me,as the blood falls to the floor I see my pain and worries disappearing.I hide my scars in fear of what you may say,but without you these scares will not exist.My love, my life, my reason I sit here and bleed.My smiles, my tears,my heart tares more and more.You deny your love, I deny my pain.The pain I feel when your not by my side.Some call it love I call it suicide.The razor can only go to deep,a person can only bleed so much,but the pain never ends.My nights are cold, my arms are empty The cuts cover up the pain,My smile covers up the hurt As you walk along to blind to see my hurt the days get harder the nights never seem to end I fake a smile and wipe my tears away I forget the truth. For when I am with you it feels so right. Without you I find myself lost and confused. Broken and torn. Kiss my pain away, Wipe away my blood filled tears, I long for you to save me

Walking Suicide
I'm a walking suicide but you'd never know cause' I hide I got too much pride to show my depression I think about dying everyday but never say anything cause' people will stop me rob me from succeeding in my goal.I fold my letter up saying how sorry I am for being a disappointment to my family and you'll be better without me.You'd never think little baby boy would try something so bold didn't know that the mold you made him in turned it's grin and that hell really existed in his eyes and he cries for god to please just let me die and be free from the reality he's facing!! I'm a walking suicide

Walking Through The Graveyard
I walked through the local cemetery last night It was so quiet, everyone was at peace I felt so welcome, so at home there among the deceased I begun thinking, why do I continue on why do I inhale even one more breath when all I dream of is the eternal slumber that can only be brought about by death Grief and pain are the only inhabitants of a soul which would otherwise be an empty space Was it time for the end?This was the choice which I faced After all, everyday is merely a continuation of the one which preceded it There have ben times when I felt slightly hopeful but there was never any hope when I most needed it And there is little I wish to recall the years are wrought with sadness I've lost my mind, a million times but I always find it again within madness As my heart has drifted along I knew it could not stay afloat with each day that passed I felt it sink deeper in misery's boat So there, amongst the dead I came to the conclusion That it was time to bring an end to my life's ill

As You Watch Me Burn
You sit there watching me as I burn, Why don't you help me? You just sit there and watch me yearn.But these aren't flames of fire, These are flames of pain.You sit there watching me burn as the blood drips down like rain. The weight of my burdens it too much to bear. I cry out in agony But you 're still just sitting there.I'm slowly disappearing, And slowly fading away But still you sit there watching me burn You seem to have nothing to say. As the tears finally swell up in my eyes,I look at you and cry my last good byes, But still you sit there watching me burnNow with a smile upon your face. You are happy now Knowing that I'm about to disappear without a trace

The Days Of Pain
Black sun rays fall upon my soul casting dark shadows Causing it to become withered and grow cold my skin starts pealing away showing the real me in an ugly wayToday, just the same Tomorrow, just the same Yesterday is gone, but the pain will never go away The clock hands are ticking backwards it seems things that have happened in the past seem to be coming back Driving the razor blades into my unholy flesh leaving me here naked and bare striped away from all what makes me sane now drowning in the sorrow of the black sun rays

Lost Love
Life frozen or caught on fire, why does it matter? Cut deep or shallow scratch,in narrow alleys with a patch of darkness. Falling up or getting down, a cup of glass cutting our throats. Mass collections of suicide notes, and a small amount of hope. Falling into death in deep with darkness, seeking thought or maybe not. Going in circles with out a fight, not slavery and so far out of sight. Loss and false hopes binding us down,its our cost of not being found.Sounds of voices peek in our heads, fallen asleep deep in our beds.Graves of memories found in our dreams,deep dreams filling with passion and rising with action.Faith calling and showing our fates,knowing of death and full of hates.Sedating our minds and lost hopes of love,kind and gentle thoughts of warmness,Killed our fate of endless fought circles,lonelyness found here between worlds.The sound of calling,found and falling

Reflect
WHY MUST I FEEL THIS WAY WHY MUST I LIVE THIS DAY SO PLEASE LEAVE ME TO CRY WHILE I LAY DOWN AND DIE LIKE AN ABYSS OF BROKEN HEARTS LIKE A NEVERENDING STAIR OF COLD EYES LIKE A DOLL ATTACKED PEIRCING MY SKIN I'M ON THE OUTSIDE OF HELL LET ME IN REFLECT UPON THE TROUBLES IN YOUR LIFE SO REFLECT ALL I SEE IS MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR IT'S DIEING FASTER AND FASTER NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO I LOVE THIS EVIL BUT I WAS WRONG AND THATS WHY I MUST REFLECT ON THE DARKEST HOLE IN MY HEART YOU. LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER CHARLIE NUTTER

Did You Know?
If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it.) If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it ! ) The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. (O.M...G..!) A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.) A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.) (I'm still not over the pig.) Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories a hour (Don't try this at home, maybe at work) The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off. (Honey, I'm home. What the...?!) The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field. (30 minutes... Lucky pig! Can you imagine?)

Theres Always Tomorrow
I WANT TO DEDICATE TIS AS WELL TO SHARON FAY CHADWICK THE GIRL I WILL ALWAYS HURT AND LOVE OVER.TELL ME WHY MUST I FEEL THIS WAY, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY I TRY TO GET THROUGH EACH DAY BUT SOMETIMES I THINK THERE IS NO WAY BUT I DO JUST CAUSE I KNOW ONE DAY I WILL GET TO LOOK THROUGH THOSE BEAUTIFUL GREEN EYES OF YOURS YOUR EYES OPEN ALL KINDA DOORS IN MY HEART THERE'S ALWAYS TOMORROW WHEN WE CAN START OVER I NEVER MEANT TO MAKE YOU CRY AND WHEN I DID I CRY'D AND DIE'D INSIDE I'M SORRY I JUST WANT TO DIE PLEASE GOD HELP ME PLEASE I'M SORRY, MY HEART FELL APART IN FRONT OF YOU THAT DAY YOU LEFT ME MY HEART SHATTER'D INTO A THOUSAND LITTLE PEICES NOW THAT YOUR GONE I'M SORRY LETS MAKE THINGS RIGHT AND START OVER PLEASE.

The Days Pass Me By
WHEN I STAND HERE WONDERING WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE NOTHINGITS COLD, ITS SILENT, THE HALLS ARE EMPTY SO WHAT THE !FUCK! SHOULD I DO WHEN THERES NO ONE TO CARE WHEN MY LIFE IS JUST GOING NO WHERE THE DAYS PASS ME BY LEFT TO RIGHT , RIGHT TO LEFT THERES NOT MUCH I CAN DO WHEN THE DAYS PASS ME BY, THESE DAYS PASS ME BY SO WHAT TO DO IN THE MEAN TIME SMOKE SOME DOPE AND BEAT MY HEAD ON MY GRAVESTONE OR CAN I JUST CHILL AND LET THE DAYS PASS ME BY UNTIL THE DAY I DIE

Speak To Nutterz Never More
LIFE IS LIKE A GAME OF CHESS WEATHER YOUWIN OR LOSE WE ARE ALL PONS IN TIS FUCK'D UP LITTLE GAME WHY BOTHER WITH LOVE WHEN YOU KNOW THAT IT WILL ALL END IN HEARTBREAK WHEN YOU'VE HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN YOU'LL LEARN LOVE SUCKS AND YOU'LL TRAIN YOURSELF NEVER TO LOVE OR TRUST AGAIN LIKE I HAVE OVER THE YEARS NOW I SIT HERE WRITING THIS BECAUSE I HAVE BROKEN MY OWN RULE NEVER OPEN UP TO ANYONE AND I BROKE THAT RULE BECAUSE I LOVE A GIRL NAMED SHARON FAY CHADWICK AND WHEN I OPEN'D UP THINKING I CAN TRUST AND LOVE I WAS WRONG AND NOW I SIT HERE CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP CAUSE I HAVE NOTHING MORE TO GIVE TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY SPEAK TO NUTTERZ NEVER MORE

A Poem
Broken into small pieces My heart beats no longer And torn where there once was creases My mind now begins to ponder I will love no more For I've been hurt too many times One rich in happiness, I'm now poor Love lingers in horrible crimes Alone in life again My horrible destiny A new life will never begin I will never be set free of this agony It's only him I love No man could take his place I fly no longer like a dove I now, once again, have an empty space Written by Majesta Burdick Copyright 2010

Far From Perfection
I'm far from perfection.. i'm human...and I have human needs. But do you think I would risk all that we have for one night? So I had a case of word vomit, and told you everything I didnt want you to know. It's scary inside my head isnt it? Oh you dont have to tell me, I know..... If you could see the thoughts that brew day in and day out you'd sh* your pants.. Neither of us is perfect....we are far from perfection.. I know you love me.. But are you ...in....love......with....me? Are you willing to love me at my best, And at my worst..... Can you love me when you can't even find the strength to love yourself? I know I can love you that way... And I have.. And i'd do it again........and again........and again..... I have no regrets.. none whatsoever Do you? Honestly tell me if you do.. All I know is that I love you more than all the words in all the libraries in the whole world... I love you and you and know who you are you may never see this, we may never talk a

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I Love Marines!
Marines come in all shapes, shades, weights, sizes, and states ofsobriety, misery, and confusion. He is sly as a fox, has the nerveof a dope addict, the stories of an old sailor, the sincerity of apolitician, and the subtlty of Mt. Saint Helen. He is extremelyirresistible, totally irrational and completely indestructible.A Marine is a Marine all his life. He is a magical creature. Youcan kick him out of your house but not out of your heart. You can take him off your mailing list but not off your mind. Marines are found everywhere... in love...in battle... in lust... in trouble...indebt...in bars and ... behind them. No one can write so seldom and yet think so much of you. No one else can get so much enjoyment out of a letter or clean clothes or a six pack.A Marine is a genius with a deck of cards. A millionaire without acent and brave without a grain of sense. He is the PROTECTOR OFAMERICA, When he wants something it's usually 30 days leave, music that hurts the ears, a five dollar bil

Man Juice Vs Girly Juice
Man juice Vs Girly juice so which makes your mouth water mmm nom nom rofl this is kinda funny A. Females describe semen:"Ajax cleaner""maybe salty""smells like Ajax, I no longer buy Ajax because of it. Instead I buy Mr. Clean, it's perfumed.""thick Clorox""rancid Elmer's glue""tastes and smells like Brie cheese""It tastes like itself (it's kind of like asking what pepper tastes like).""Indescribable.""It tasted like a thick, globby beer.""I've discovered that although there is a general almond taste to all men -- different men taste a little differently AND depending on how much a man drinks, smokes, and what he's eating -- the semen ranges in bitterness. The less healthy he is the worst his semen tastes. Almost like Clorox at times.""It tasted quite salty.""I cannot compare the taste to anything else I have tasted because its flavor is unique. I can compare its taste to the smell of Clorox bleach. Semen tastes like bleach smells!""It has different tastes for different people ranging

What's New With Me
woo lsu colors anyway, im bored at the moment so i thought i'd tell you things i got a new job, FINALLY. as of today. I'll be back to being a hotel front desk clerk and cannot wait! and in this particular town, the rodeo boys stay at the one im working at so yayuh, eye candy! im just so excited that i'll have income flow again! my van is almost fixed but i have to get a... cooling line, i think it's called? i know nothing about cars except they usually get me to where im going and that they cost me money. but supposedly that line thing is cheap so yay. then all i have to do is get it inspected, oil change, tires rotated and voila! i can drive it! oh and i think i need a registration sticker. and a new id considering mine is about to break into 3 pieces and the address is from where i lived 4 years ago. haha.im a procrastinator. i lost 17 lbs. no seriously. the south beach diet is fun. i never thought i was fat, just chubby. and i def ate alotta junk. so yay for preventing heart dis

Interesting
Corey Haim's agent and good friend claims it took an ambulance 20 minutes to show up to Corey's mother's apartment this morning -- and by the time it arrived, it was "too late." Mark Heaslip tells TMZ Corey had a fever yesterday and was having trouble breathing. Mark says a doctor came over to Judy Haim's apartment yesterday afternoon to check up on Corey. Mark says Judy fell asleep -- then woke up at around midnight and found Corey standing over her ... and that's when he collapsed. Mark claims 20 minutes passed between the time Corey's mother called 911 and when the ambulance showed up ... and by that time it was "too late." Mark also said he doesn't believe Corey OD'd and says Corey was on his way to making a comeback.

" Im A Bitch Im A Lover "
"I'M A BITCH, I'M A LOVER." You're so good to meI know but I can't changetried to tell you but you look at me like maybeI'm an angel underneath innocent and sweet.Yesterday I cried, must have been relieved to see the softer side I can understand how you'd be so confusedI don't envy youI'm a little bit of everythingAll rolled into one[Chorus]I'm a bitch, I'm a loverI'm a child, I'm a motherI'm a sinner, I'm a saintI do not feel ashamedI'm your hell, I'm your dreamI'm nothing in betweenYou know you woldn't want it any other waySo take me as I amThis may meanYou'll have to be a stronger manRest assured that when I start to make you nervous and I'm going to extremesTomorrow I will changeAnd today won't mean a thing[Chorus]I'm a bitch, I'm a teaseI'm a goddess on my kneesWhen you hurt, when you sufferI'm an angel undercoverI've been numb, I'm revivedCan't say I'm not aliveYou know I wouldn't want it any other way

So I'll Be 25 In May
I've never do anything for my birthday that was amazing. all my birthdays consisted of, small parties, dinner parties, pool parites. If we had a pool here, I'd not post this blog and just have the regular pool party. We can't afford anything huge. my best friend is pregnant, I've lost touch with everyone else. Only 2 of my friends would be good with this question. But like I sad one's pregnant, the other my "Lil Big Sis" lives in Fresno and her life has been crazy so I would feel weird asking her. Though her birthday is in may so is Jamie's *Best friend* But lil big sis is into bar's and Jamie isn't. even before she got pregnant. it's not noticiable and won't be for about 3 months. There are a few things I could do. 1, go to a club. We Dean and I found this club called the Nile. We went there and even though there were 2 other couples. I visited the web site and some night's it's crazy as hell. 2, Disneyland! hehe 3. Holly Wood would be wonderful but I don't have the m

U May Lil Sister.. Yet Dead Horses.....
A ONE TRICK HORSE Start flogging the dead horse You know you wanna few Starting to ride the flogged dead horse You know you've got to Stare, smile, beat the tradition up Back to basics a time full of me Still, smile, return to the wombs A cowboy man to be Last time I see your sister She's got somebody new She's mean and she's a devil Like that old Boll Weevil Guess I'll try my luck with you I used to pull your ponytail And punch your turned-up nose But you been a growin' And baby, it's been showin' From your head down to your toes Little sister, don't you Little sister, don't you Little sister, don't you kiss me once or twice Then say it's very nice And then you run

Fitting Lil' Tribute To Corey Haim
Sooooo, very true. I'm not going to lie -- I haven't paid attention to Corey Haim for years. I was only vaguely aware of his drug troubles and related health problems, and I didn't watch 'The Two Coreys.' I was amused to see his Variety ad last year -- the one where he said he was ready to work again -- the way you feel when an ex you remember fondly does something stupid but sweet. And that's why his sudden death was such a punch to the gut; no matter how long Corey's been off my radar, he was my first love. It's not like I knew him personally. My first real love, a few years later, was a nice boy from the next high school over -- a boy with floppy hair who, if I'm being honest with myself, strongly resembled 'License to Drive'-era Corey. But every generation has the stars that little girls harbor secret fantasies of marrying, and while today's kids are planning weddings with Justin Bieber and Nick Jonas, I was walking down the aisle with Corey Haim. I had plenty of choices.

Losing Friends
Heart breaking, however it happens.. Yesterday I seen a good friend of mine just up an left FU an he has not told me why, now I've lost another one do to him not noticing me as if I did not exist. I' have always rated his photo's an helped him out but never got any love in return, what the hell is wrong with people an this site? I mean com'mon I'm not the worst person in the world as my page states I'll talk to just about anyone willing to befriend me, if you/yourself can not handle that then there's something wrong with ya. I do not play head games if your wanting to become friends thats kewl I can respect that in every way however fuck me over then you can kiss my ass thats all there is to it, I'm sure people el see this an say yeah she's a BITCH but ya know something you maybe right just getting sick of people disrespecting.

Things U Dnt Say To A Naked Man. Lmao
1. I've smoked fatter joints than that. 2. Ahh, it's cute. 3. Who circumcised you? 4. Why don't we just cuddle?5. You know they have surgery to fix that. 6. It's more fun to look at. 7. Make it dance. 8. You know, there's a tower in Italy like that. 9. Can I paint a smiley face on that? 10. It looks like a night crawler. 11. Wow, and your feet are so big.12. My last boyfriend was 4" bigger. 13. It's ok, we'll work around it. 14. Is this a mild or a spicy Slim Jim? 15. Eww, there's an inch worm on your thigh.16. Will it squeak if I squeeze it? 17. Oh no, a flash headache. 18. (giggle and point) 19. Can I be honest with you? 20. My 8-year-old brother has one like that. 21. Let me go get my tweezers. 22. How sweet, you brought incense. 23. This explains your car.24. You must be a growing boy. 25. Maybe if we water it, it'll grow. 26. Thanks, I needed a toothpick. 27. Are you one of those pygmies? 28. Have you ever thought of working in a sideshow? 29. Every heard of clearasil? 30. All rig

Things U Shouldnt Say During Sex
1. But everybody looks funny naked! 2. You woke me up for that? 3. Did I mention the video camera? 4. Do you smell something burning? 5. (In a janitor's closet) And they say romance is dead...6. Try breathing through your nose. 7. A little rug burn never hurt anyone! 8. Is that a Medic-Alert Pendant? 9. Sweetheart, did you lock the back door? 10. But whipped cream makes me break out. 11. Person 1: This is your first time... right? Person 2: Yeah... today. 12. Hurry up! This room rents by the hour! 13. Can you please pass me the remote control? 14. Do you accept Visa? 15. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz16. On second thought, let's turn off the lights. 17. And to think -- I was really trying to pick up your friend! 18. So much for mouth-to-mouth. 19. (Using body paint) Try not to leave any stains, okay? 20. Hope you're as good looking when I'm sober... 21. (Holding a banana) It's just a little trick I learned at the zoo! 22. Do you get any premium movie channels? 23. Try not to smear my make-up, will

No Matter How Hard I've Tried.
Yeah about a month ago I quit cold turkey from all the medcations they had me on in which case was a very bad idea, I started 2 have with-draws an itched like KRAZY my legs mostly an wound up drawing the blood to the surface of my skin although I talked with my doctor an he said that I've gotta be on these do to all the stress/depresstion an a few other things which I'm ashamed to say but anyways he called in those I needed and now I'm back on 11 a day (YAY ME), I hate this but if doc says I need em guess I've got no choice in the matter... :(

What Did You Expect
Personally I think I deserve the next best thing. I want some over the knee socks in a dark purple or black, a mini dress, giant hat, and some cute heels to be the next best thing but then everytime I look around me I see that all I'd really do is just break hearts and keep on looking. It's like I have the desire to be so great but not really the book on how to be amazing. I keep on looking and I keep on dancing but its never going to happen, at least not for a while. Exotic confidential smiles thrust upon my face while I bob my head to some ska with the right attitude. Its the biggest and brightest thing to do and even though I can move its still that next best thing to look for. Getting my kicks out of tune but staying with the beat thats all I need. Its what I expected!

Who Wants Fubucks?
I'm not sure how this works or if its a good deal or not but I'm willing to pay for bling. 1 credit blings = 200k 3 credit blings = 600k 5 credit blings = 900k 10 credit blings = 2 mil 15 credit blings = 3 mil SB if your interested

Insanity Forgotten
INSANITY FORGOTTENHis view is distorted, demented His mind no longer his Fear has taken him over, changed his course Its leading him down a different path Free of regret...free of remorse Adrenalin controls him it rushes through his veins Blood pumping faster!...faster! Same blood that later stains Taking hold of his subconcious no conscience left to guide His fears expressed through rage behind evil deeds it hides The predator comes from the shadows it surfaces from within No fighting off the demon's control Pointless to try, you cannot win The man that once was no longer exists his thoughts no longer his own They are lost in the minds manic mist He now feels naked, desperate, and alone His judgement replaced with confusion Madness and darkness replace any light Tunnel vision...he focuses on the task Like a stalker in the depth of the night Insanity takes over...engulfs him Smothers him, he cannot breath Till the deadly deed is accomplished Lucifer's grasp...he's held beneath Exhauste

Daddy
DADDYVoices in my headGet louder day by dayThey slowly pull me inI feel my sanity slipping awayMinute by minute they speak clearerThe faint whispers turned to screams"GO AWAY! LEAVE ME BE!"My plees are in vain it seemsIt makes them madder, makes them louderMakes them want me that much moreThey won't stop until they control meUntil Im not "me" anymoreThere are many that speak to meThat try to tell me what to doWhat evil deeds to carry outOh, if only others knewWhat in my mind was brewingWhat sadistic plans they are plottingAs they start to possess my beingAs my own heart and soul lay rottingThe rough low voice is the worstHe sounds to me like satanHis voice is filled with hatredI wonder how many souls he's takenHe seems to be the leader, the master of the dead"Come child, join my serpeants" is what he always saidIt was tempting, I couldn't fight himI was weak under his spellSo I surrendered my life to himAnd I joined him in a place he called hellNow I'm wicked, just like DaddyI

Awake
AWAKESleep doesn’t come so easilyFor those of us with fearThe mind wont rest from worryThe thoughts and pain don’t clear.I close my eyes, try not to listenBut the senses become strongEvery noise makes my heart jump*Sigh*, the nights seem so very long.I keep looking at the clock as the hours pass awayWanting dawn to comeSo that my fears can go astray.I’ll lie my head down once againAnd try to block it outThen finally give up, throw my blankets off and shout…“Ive had it, I can’t take it!!”God I wish that I could sleepLose myself in peaceful slumberInstead I sit awake and weep…And when light shines through my windowAnd I see I made it through the nightI feel the worry was for nothingNot fear, but paranoi was my fight…Perhaps tonight Ill restPerhaps Ill even dreamOf a life that is so contentA soul that’s happy, unlike meBut for now, my fear controls meAnd my fear, it has a nameIt is He who I give intoWhile he plays his selfish

The Noose
Written for me by an AWESOME writer and just a kick ass guy...love ya Brad. This shits just demented, I LOVE IT The Noose So glad to see you have overcome them. Completely silent now With heaven's help You cast your demons out And not to pull your halo down Around your neck and tug you off your cloud But I'm more than just a little curious How you're planning to go about Making your amends to the dead To the dead Recall the deeds as if They're all someone else's Atrocious stories Now you stand reborn before us all So glad to see you well And not to pull your halo down Around your neck and tug you to the ground But I'm more than just a little curious How you're planning to go about Making your amends to the dead To the dead With your halo slipping down Your halo slipping Your halo slipping down Your halo slipping down Your halo slipping down Your halo slipping down to choke you Bradley Michael Carmichael January 31/2007

Smile
...Come sit with me and talk a while...look into my eyes...see the joy your friendship gives...listen to my sighs...the smile on my face grows larger as I grow to know you more...like the message in the bottle that washes up on shore...Read the words contained inside, its from me...a twin soul...it says "causing you to smile was my only goal"...And it worked, you're smiling now and that's all I came to do...cause not everyday you find a special friend like you Java Written for someone with the sweetest smile I have ever seen, its contagious and warms me from the inside out. Hugs

Brave Kid
NORWALK, Calif. – A terrified 7-year-old boy begged emergency dispatchers to send police to his Southern California home where three armed robbers threatened his parents, according to a recording of the call released Tuesday. Gunmen broke into the boy's home Tuesday morning and announced that they would take whatever they wanted, Los Angeles County sheriff's Lt. Steve Kenny said. The boy and his 6-year-old sister hid unnoticed in the locked bathroom while the suspects threatened his mother and father at gunpoint. "There's some guy who's going to kill my mom and dad," he said breathlessly. "Bring cops. A lot of them! ... And soldiers, too." The suspects eventually broke into the bathroom and someone screamed. The 911 operator sounded shaken as she explained what happened to her colleagues. Kenny said the suspects grabbed the boy and asked who he called. He responded, "911." The gunmen fled without taking anything or injuring the family. "If not for the brave and educat

Conductor Problem
The symphony musicians had little confidence in the person brought in to be their new conductor. Their fears were realized at the very first rehearsal. The cymbalist, realizing that the conductor did not know what he was doing, angrily clashed his instruments together during a delicate, soft passage. The music stopped. The conductor, highly agitated, looked angrily around the orchestra, demanding, "Who did that? Who did that?"

Little Angel
Little AngelLet me tell you a storyAbout a sweet little childWith locks of hair colour of sunshineRed lips colour of wineWith the smile of an angelEyes as blue as the seaLet me tell you about this childThis child was once me...Children's minds are full of dreams, hopes and aspirationsTheir hearts are pure and full of loveTheir future's for the takingTheir paths seemed paved by gold...But this little girl was differentNever content being a childShe was in a hurry to grow upShe wanted to be wildNot rebellious, or disobedientBut wild meaning freeAnyone & Anywhere but who and where she wasWas where she wished to be...That poor angelShe was robbedOf the happiness she deservedThat poor angel Cried painful tearsCries that noone ever heard...In the playground while others playedShe preferred to hide and weepPraying God to watch over herPraying that her soul He would keep...Not wanting to return homeBut wanting to run awayRun away to a dream, a better placeRun away, ANGEL, run awayBut as the su

Fkn Awesome Writing
THIS WAS ON A WHIM...ME AND A BUDDY JUST STARTED WRITING BACK AND FORTH RESPONDING TO EACH OTHER AND THIS IS WHAT CAME OUT OF IT...I LOVE IT BECAUSE IT JUST FLOWED. LOVE TO DO THIS AGAIN WITH SOMEONE WHO HAS THE SAME WRITING STYLE AS MYSELF. HIT ME UP!!! Eric: am a man who lives in solitude, never knowing what pain I bring you. I raise my fists just to break on thru. All the voices in my head try to make it true. I am a man filled with attitude, I can feel your hate all the way thru. It would be so easy for me to kill you, mark my words, I will crush you. You'll always see me, you'll always need me. You'll never last one minute without me. Java: My madness is inverted, I am a woman who lives within...my sweet smile fools you, you dont recognize my evil grin. The thoughts of pain and torture run rampid behind these eyes...but the look of virgin sweetness is my mask,my disguise. Attempt what you must, my soul holds no fear...take your fists and break on thru, for you I she

The Eyes Dont Lie
THE EYES DON'T LIECan you really truly know someone when you can't look into their eyes?If you're like me, you think you can..but then left to wonder why...Can you believe what people say when they tell you about their life?Or when the sweet man that you think you know says he doesnt have a wife?Even when you're being cautious, when you think you're holding backYou're wide open for strangers to suck you in cause they know what things you lack.They know what you want to hear and they will tell you more and moreUntil finally your guard comes down and their foot is through the door.And no matter how many times you tell yourself that its crazyThings have moved so fast, he fell so hardJust when youve almost convinced yourself...he plays that final card.The thing you need the most, the words you want to hearAre spoken through the phone line, now nothing seems so clear"I love you"...what a joke! It seems that's all it takesTo let him into your heart...the heart he'll later break.No 3 words h

Perched
Lipstick lesbian sittin on a park bench Watchin all the ravens on the telephone wire Dim witted black man winkin at the lesbian Shes watchin all the ravens fly away Wind blows, hairs dance, tickles her long neck Where is a lover that can make her feel like that Hot sun, cool breeze, her skin has come alive Wishin she's a raven just to get away from here

Lalalala
so anyhoo last night woo boned me pretty hard with her meat and surprisingly i was quite aroused... then she held a gun to my head and said "NOW MARRY ME BITCH...OR I BONE YOU HARDER NEXT TIME!!!!" so i did what any sensible person would do...i married her..fuwise of course god knows id hate to see how bad id be boned with her here i (h) her and stuff so go love on her...i get points too :) Woo@ fubar

Poem Of The Day...031010
As I look into the mirror I often wonder where he went That stupid kid with the dreams Dreams of a life around the theater Over the years he drifted away The lines blurred into the life The life that happened along the way Instead of the world lived in a play.

What Type Of Bitch Are You?
According to a 3rd grader in washington, dc. There are 90 types of bitches... The list can be found here in its entirety http://andiamnotlying.com/2010/types-of-bitches/ I will take it upon myself to copy and paste just for you lazy fucks... But i must say...seeing it written out by a 3rd grader adds a bit of flair... Types of Bitches 1) Dirty dumb ass bitches 2) Aint got no ass bitches 3) Dusty trick bitches 4) Fishy bitches 5) Don’t know how to fight bitches 6) Got all that mouth but can’t step bitches 7) Ugly looking bitch that think they all that Can’t keep a man bitch 9) Track wearing bitches 10) Bitches that be trying to steal your man 11) Hoochie looking bitches 12) Ain’t got no damn sense bitches 13) Stupid bitches that act dumb 14) Bitches who can only get a dirty boy 15) Want to be jocking bitches 16) Bitches who think their man love them but get pregnant and be left alone 17) Bitches who think they better than me 18) Instigati

Et Vous Pensiez Que (so You Thought)
You told me I couldn't go on You drilled it in my ears You spoke that I wouldn't know how You shoved it down my throat You said that I would regret, I would hurt, I'd never forget Yet here I stand No tears in my eyes No hurt in my heart No concern on my mind Your secrets are your thoughts that's true, but your hurt is in your eyes Watch my smile See the light in my eyes Dispise how high I hold my head Because one of us should be content One of us should be happy Sorry it couldn't be you ~Just whipped this out in about 3 minutes while cleaning. Felt like writing but the mood was fleeting so this is what it is~

Our Moon
There are many eyes in the nights black sky, The day it has but one.With the dawn of day those eyes fade away,The moon being the largest one. The day's sun shines bright and brings us light,Giving the warmth that we need.But the darkness of night searches our soul,While the moon see's all that we dream. So as we hustle through the day we hope and we pray,That darkness returns again soon.Where our hearts and our minds rejoice as they find,True love......UNDER THE SAME MOON.

We Should Really Do This For Welfare
THE JOB - URINE TEST (Whoever wrote this one deserves a HUGE pat on the back!) Like most folks in this country, I have a job. I work, they pay me. I pay my taxes and the government distributes my taxes as it sees fit. In order to get that paycheck in my case, I am required to pass a random urine test (with which I have no problem). What I do have a problem with is the distribution of my taxes to people who don't have to pass a urine test. So, here is my Question: Shouldn't one have to pass a urine test to get a welfare check because I have to pass one to earn it for them? Please understand, I have no problem with helping people get back on their feet. I do, on the other hand, have a problem with helping someone sitting on their ass - doing drugs, while I work. . . Can you imagine how much money each state would save if people had to pass a urine test to get a public assistance check? I guess we could title that program, 'Urine or You're Out'. Pass this alo

Corey Haim - Dead At 38
Corey Haim, a 1980s teen heartthrob for his roles in "Lucas" and "The Lost Boys" whose career was blighted by drug abuse, has died. He was 38. Haim died at 2:15 a.m. Wednesday at Providence St. Joseph Medical Center in Burbank, Los Angeles County coroner's Lt. Cheryl MacWillie said. An autopsy will determine the cause of death and there were no other details, she said. Police Sgt. Michael Kammert said there's no evidence of foul play. Haim had flulike symptoms before he died and was getting over-the-counter and prescription medications, Police Sgt. William Mann said. The cause of death is unknown, Mann said. "He could have succumbed to whatever (illness) he had or it could have been drugs. Who knows?" Mann said. "He has had a drug problem in the past." Haim was taken by ambulance to the hospital from an apartment in Los Angeles near Burbank. The enormous complex is known as Oakwood and is popular with young actors, Kammert said. Haim acknowledged his struggle with drug abuse to T

Corey Haim
WASHINGTON (Reuters) – Corey Haim, a Hollywood teen star of the 1980s who became as famous for his struggles with substance abuse as his acting, died in Los Angeles of an apparent drug overdose, U.S. media reports said Wednesday. He was 38. In the 1980s, the Canadian-born Haim starred in "Lucas," alongside Charlie Sheen and Winona Ryder, and "The Lost Boys," with Kiefer Sutherland, Jason Patric and Corey Feldman, as well as "License to Drive," also with Feldman. He became known for his on-screen partnership and off-screen friendship with Feldman, another teen star, and they often were called "The Two Coreys." Both struggled with drug abuse. The pair starred in a reality TV series on American cable television in the 2000s. According to media reports from Los Angeles, Haim was found unresponsive in his apartment and was pronounced dead at a local hospital. Los Angeles police said the death was the result of an apparent drug overdose, the reports said. RIP

Liverpool Looks Good
Been ages since I have been to Liverpool and my GOD it has changed beyond some recognition- big flashy shops and a weird area just full of expansive expensive shops like an LA mall or something. But it is lovely and that’s cracking, though I don’t understand why building big concrete shopping museums as a way of regenerating a city is helpful- but am not educated in inner city regeneration, so what the hell do I know? I am staying in lovely flash serviced apartments; it really is so awesome-but the doors bother me. They are HUGE doors and all marbled flooring throughout. The doors on my flat don’t have a chain or lock, just a plastic card with numbers in indelible ink crudely scrawled over it, then scored out and rewritten. You just hold the plastic card against the door and it unlocks, so when I am in bed I worried I couldn’t lock my door, so I put a metal grill pan handle I found in the massive kitchen (which is beautiful) and balanced it on the handle

Fallen Star
One look from her,My darkness melted away.One smile from her lips,My blues could not stay. So much beauty to be seen,Deep in her eyes for allI would think her kissForever my heart would stall. This one truely a dream,Now set so deeply in my eyes.This one beauty I know,Fell from my nights sky.

Nothing Ever(re-write)
If I told you love was in my heart,Would it be in yours to.If I gave you my soul,Would you give me yours to. My heart is so close,To never leaving yours alone.It's the only place,The only place it feels at home. It only wants to be one with yours,Promise me never let me fall out of love,And in return for you a promise,In mine,Nothing else will ever be put above.

Our Cat Snowie Aka Snowball
Our poor cat I just want to cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( Well this has been going on for maybe about a week now......she has her right eye that she keeps closed, is inflammed, and is runny so I thought maybe pink eye. So set up a vet appointment, so we set it for saturday. Now I notice she's starting to sneeze and this ain't abnormal with cats except ours is sneezing more then normal. So I looked it up on the wonderful world wide web.....From schools of vet medicine and also just forums. CAT FLU OR FELINE HERPES!!!! Which ain't uncommon and they can't die but boy they can get miserable sometimes for 7-14 days! I want to cry and I'm worrying sooooooo much. I didn't know she was this sick, she was a poor little stray and she followed him home. So we took her in and took care of her. I can't even sleep. Vet is on saturday lol stupid me I had to reschedule last saturday because I was sick and I'm still sick. But I'm not gonna miss this one hell no............My poor little snowball *

A Chapter Ends, Reluctantly
I found myself unable to cope with the truth, to accept it. You were gone from my life, you were truly gone now. I fell to my knees and hot tears began to form in my eyes blurring my vision, not that I needed to see. In my mind's eye the events of three years played out clearly and I shook with a mixture of anger and grief. I kept questioning myself, questioning your motivation. How did this happen, how could it? A life I had invested myself into fully and selflessly. A little boy to care for now and to do it alone. My greatest challenge and oppurtunity to present itself so far. Fear in the pit of my stomach, how to balance a career and a son with no prospects and bills looming just around the corner. I look up from my writting and he's watching me with a smile. He doesn't look away, he laughs and touches my knee. Sensation washes over me and I muse silently to myself Perhaps, it wiill all be okay after-all.

Photogragh
Fear falls hard like rain again washing over meYou say nothing will ever change what do i BelieveYou fall deep inside again nothing left to seeWeakness fills your heart again you put it toRestForfeit everything because you were neverStrong enoughClose my eyes again and pray that life will notGive upI try to see your face again a photograph for meYour voice calling out again nothing left for meYou try to find your place again waiting just toBreatheWeakness takes your heart again you put it toRest....locked inside againDid you forget about the things i said Fight the lies inside your headDeny those who try to bring you downKill the pain and emptinessFind a love and lose yourselfWithout this life you're just a memory...lockedInside again artist:12stone album:Potter's Field this song means alot to me

I Hate Florida Now , Oranges Too
So I got to go to Florida. I left home Monday evening at about 4:30 pm. Now Weds the 9th I am home at 3 am. We drove down in a nice big uncomfortable Uhaul Type Truck. Along the way I was informed I would be driving back a Ford Mustang with "Bill" aka FAT ASS's Step Father. I say "Sure, just please let me get some sleep tonight then so I won't be dead tired on the way home tomorrow" " Yeah you can get some sleep" Sleep came last night in 10 minute spurts, for a total of 30 minutes, because Fat Ass requires constant attention. Everytime I drifted off the fucker would wake me. So 13 hours later we arrive at the destination. It's a strange little cottage on some Church's property. At the front door , right at the concrete pad in front of the door their is a giant piss spot, still wet and stinking. Fat Ass beats on the door. "Bill" finally answers and we step in to find the place a total wreck . It reeks of dog piss and there are as many dead leaves on the floor as there a

Fyi: People Who Have Their Settings To Only Befriend People With Salutes
If You View My Page You'll See I Don't Have A Salute. If You Want To Chat/Add etc... Please Turn Off The Setting Where You Have It As To Only Except People Who Have Salutes. Thank You, bu

What My Real Name Means
a fun, outgoing person. generally smart but can be a total blonde at times. someone who likes meeting new people, and smiles a lot. a person who never would just turn on people. a very good friend. someone you can trust. when she's mad, stand clear she might blow her top. but a person who doesn't get mad easily so you dont have to worry about that.

Add To The Story ....
Lets make up a story continue the story from the post before you .. make it as sweet,dark,scary,twisted etc whatever you want ... HAVE FUN WITH IT ok lets start....___________________________________________________________________________________________________A long long time ago there was a beautiful beloved princess she was perfect in every way kind and caring flawless she had the most amazing violet eyes which no one has ever seen before , there were stories around the village that she was a witch of some kind or not human and she was not what she led people to believe according to the old story She.............. DBloodJ said: lived in a house made of the finest wood; which from the outside looks normal but within was covered in blood, human skin and skulls ...The floors were dirt and not made of wood; cold,uneven and wet from blood that appeared grave like.. she wore no clothes and paced around her house with flesh hanging from her body which pulsed like a heartbeat as

Final Days
..Words of a soft soulBegin with lost fateWords of a lost feelingFor blood is the only cementLeaning on the ledge of LifeLeap to your final dayEmbrace the free spiritsWalking on a different plainSeeing your past and futureLooking into a lost soulIs it yours? or is it the one you lost?Leaning on the ledge of lifeLeap to your Final dayEmbrace the free spiritsTears of powerless streaming down ones facemake a cry to be helpbut a voice is soft heard

Made Up My Own Mind
I think there should be a section in everyone's blog, that is, whoever writes blogs, called made up my own mind. meaning if someone had a very important decision, though not terribly personal, telling how they made up their own minds.

Frozen
Inside this fantasy It seems so real to me Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open True Love behind a wall Where men and angels fall A fading memory, when my mind is frozen I can see a frozen point in time Where her figure still awaits Tongue of fire tracing lips outline Where frozen breath originates With one motion of her waiting eyes She strips everything away This one moment is intensified And colors all fade to grey I am in the only place that i want to be Though we know that it ends eventually But it's alright because right now we're frozen I want to forget mistakes they've helped me make It's better to be broken than to break Inside this fantasy It seems so real to me Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open True Love behind a wall Where men and angels fall A fading memory, when my mind is frozen I can see a frozen point in time That is easy to retrace Light and darkness are both intertwined The elements are in their place with One mot

There's Lightning Mcqueen ... And There's Sarah!
Last night we brought the kids to bed, and Sarah wanted to eat with Mommy as well as take in the salad she asked me to fix her when I brought them home from my in-laws’. Before making that stop, I got to Anytime Fitness for the rest of the prize package Martha and I won a few weeks ago … tomorrow we’re taking advantage of the free night at Country Suites in Bismarck. We also have a $50 gift card for Olive Garden … I’m REALLY looking forward to that, for I haven’t been to one of them since Florida! It was a lunch meeting that got catered by them in the mid-1990s, as I recall. Knowing how I write and record, I’m sure I can tell you the exact date if I look it up! The kids are also really excited about bringing their swimsuits because Country Suites has a pool; my boss said I could tell them in the car it was closed and surprise them when we get there! That’s not going to fly. Last night I had a salad too and shared a Roma bacon

[the Hell Is He Talking About?]
My Neue Ziel SDWell, not MINE specifically, but that's exactly what he looks like.Well.. except I pulled him apart and started painting him.I decided to try my primer coat and piano black out. Some set backs.Set backs set backs. But I think I'm finding some common correlations. Turns out you can't leave your reservoir out or not clean your airbrush even if you want to just wait an hour for the color to set. ... then the color didn't even set in an hour anyway. I think I broke down and cleaned that airbrush 4 times tonight for less than an hour of actual painting. Also, there seems to be a direct relationship to how well my paint flows and how deep I insert the needle. Go figure. I'm not priming parts again until I've plabeled all the sockets and probably finished the parts I've already set aside. Oh... and I should probably commit to a drying rig, yeah yeah, keep talking about it, not seeing results.From what I've seen its really just as simple as alligator clips on dowels, a

Poor Midgets.....
I was watching the Ricky Gervas Show when he mentioned this... I thought it was just a prop for the animated comedy show, until I googled it and came up with the story LMAO poor midgets Lion Mutilates 42 Midgets in Cambodian Ring-Fight Spectators cheered as entire Cambodian Midget Fighting League squared off against African Lion Tickets had been sold-out three weeks before the much anticipated fight, which took place in the city of Kâmpóng Chhnãng.The fight was slated when an angry fan contested Yang Sihamoni, President of the CMFL, claiming that one lion could defeat his entire league of 42 fighters.Sihamoni takes great pride in the league he helped create, as was conveyed in his recent advertising campaign for the CMFL that stated his midgets will "... take on anything; man, beast, or machine."This campaign is believed to be what sparked the undisclosed fan to challenge the entire league to fight a lion; a challenge that Sihamoni readily accepted.An African Lion (Pa

Sex Can Get Boring
Did you know that couples say that they are sexually satisfied less then 50 percent of the time? I always thought sex was good anytime at least it is for me. It seems that if you’ve been with your partner for awhile then sex can get boring. Here’s a suggestion. Barry and Emily McCarthy wrote a book called “Discovering Your Couple Sexual Style” which they give us some ideas about keeping it hot, wet and satisfying. For the hot details:http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,588424,00.html BlastFM keeps is rockin’ hot 24/7. No need for a book just open your ears. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Sachet
sachet\sa-SHEY\ noun; 1.A small bag, case, or pad containing perfuming powder or the like, placed among handkerchiefs, etc., to impart a pleasant scent. 2.Also, sachet powder, the powder contained in such a case.