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Welcome A New Cherry!! Also A Soldier Serving This Country!
Please stop by and show some love to a soldier over in iraq, if anyone deserves some love its the men and women, keeping us all safe in this world. God bless them all and hope they all have a safe return home. Here's his link http://www.cherrytap.com/user/486451 Happy Holidays everyone!! Jen

What Is It With Vans?
Your sexual experience is like an 80's hook up van You have a great deal of sexual experience, because you are so charming. You are also inventive, and have lots of confidence in yourself. Besides, who can resist an 80’s hook up van? Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Daring, Confident, Animalistic
Daring, confident, animalistic You like to have a lot of sex and try a lot of things. You are very kinky and have a lot of confidence in yourself. You like to explore all aspects of sexuality because it is something that interests you a lot. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

The Christmas Star
The Christmas Star This was my grandmother's first Christmas without Grandfather, and we had promised him before he passed away that we would make this her best Christmas ever. When my mom, dad, three sisters and I arrived at her little house in the Blue Ridge Mountains of North Carolina, we found she had waited up all night for us to arrive from Texas. After we exchanged hugs, Donna, Karen, Kristi and I ran into the house. It did seem a little empty without Grandfather, and we knew it was up to us to make this Christmas special for her. Grandfather had always said that the Christmas tree was the most important decoration of all. So we immediately set to work assembling the beautiful artificial tree that was stored in Grandfather's closet. Although artificial, it was the most genuine-looking Douglas fir I had ever seen. Tucked away in the closet with the tree was a spectacular array of ornaments, many of which had bee

Passionate Sex
You prefer Passionate sex! You enjoy passionate sex. You're the kind of person that has tons of fun in the sack, and you can really get into it. Not necessarily rough and lusty, passionate sex is the kind that satisfies both your lovin' and horny needs. 'What is the best type of sex for you?' at QuizUniverse.com

Help!!!
Would anyone please stop by and rate & comment my pics so i can get to the next level??? I would like to add more pics but can't til I reach the next level :( I will gladly return the favor to anyone that stops by!!! Lots a luv, Angel Courtesy of MsTags.com

Its Just Me !
i am a married women with 2 wonderful girls and a sweet neice that lives with me .my husband works his ass off as an instalator for us ,he is awsome. we love to play poker babysitter permitted lol on sat. nights. other than that i am just a working mother and wife. that is just me!

X-mas Shopping, A Serial Killer And A Gay Couple
So tonight I go out with my 'rents to go eat dinner and while we're sitting there waiting on our food we get to talking about stuff to get for other members of our family and this is where things start to get a little interesting. You see, my grandma on my dad's side (his mom) is super religious and her and I just don't see eye on a lot of things, for example she thinks it's necessary to force a hug from me each time she sees me while I cringe with the blackest of hatred and grit my teeth because the way I think about it is "if I wanted to fucking hug you then I'd do it on my own." and also she is on like her 7th husband and I don't really like him either because he's the same way and I seriously think that he's a fucking serial killer. I mean the dude wears sweaters like all the time as if he raided Bill Cosby's wardrobe, he has like the perfect comb over, wears glasses, and has a monotone voice. And well... we start talking about what to get him and so my dad calls my grandma to ask

Forgotten...(the Best Poem So Far)
the words rise in an angry fever tearing at my mind at our silver tie... turn your back on me. am i... forgotten? harsher words follow a scream, a slap tears fall as i'm begging... grab your keys. am i... forgotten? thunder steps in the rain leaving me in the doorway gravel crunching and a car door slamming... back away from me and leave. have i been... forgotten...?

My Babies
smiling faces looking up to me with such admiration blue, green, hazel entering the soul like spectacular waves of loves embrace. sweet song singing such angelic words whispering threw the air like billowing clouds drifting in a summers sky. tiny hands grasping mine, letting me know the frailty that exist. My sweetness, my blessing, my soul. Heart explodes with waves of love as gaze returned nothing like the amazing connection shared between mother and son......... I have often times wondered if my heart could fill even more with the love I have in me for my children wondered that how could I have possibly existed with out these angelic souls that have been given to me for safe keeping. With all my faults I wonder how it is that these beautiful souls could possible want ME for there mother there protector. I thank the heavens for them all three. And pray every night that I can be all the mother that they deserve. I love them without them I am absolutely NOTHING.......

Maddness
darkness surrounds engulfing forces eating me from inside out blacking my soul my heart is heavy full of sorrow blowing away taking with it ME maddness clouding the mind damping the spirit heart broken Neverending sorrow creeping in leaving this shell eluding me eluding the soul ending ME catch me pull me close force this maddness to leave

Who Am I
the night surrounds like a gentle cloak the feeling of waitlessness moving across billowing clouds what is this who am i falling faster years passing i close my eyes nothing there darkness swallowing me whole wind,air filling my lungs nothing, no sound i scream out no one can hear what is this who am i suprisingly, no fear falling faster years passing thrashing about nothing to fear you pull me close whisper i am here all the answers felt right here in magnificiant arms falling faster no fear woken by morning sweet lights embrace to realize I love you even more with every moment.

Phenomenal Woman
Pretty women wonder where my secrets lie I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size But when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies I say It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips The stride of my steps The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please and to a man The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees Then they swarm around me A hive of honey bees I say It's in the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth The swing of my waist And the joy in my feet. Phenomenal woman That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me Then try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see I say It's in the arch of my back The sun of my smile The ride of my breasts The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me. Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed

A Moment
A moments thought ,nothing else taking them in, slipping down Nothing left, just wait,sleep will come Such emense pain, ripping apart sweet slumber, taking me away Let it go, drift away, muffled voices all around screaming in vain, go away, let me be My slumber awaits me, no pain, no fear, no nothing just peace finally at last peace........ I can hear the voices, panic in them, why, i am nothing Let me sleep Pulling, poking, proding, pain is still here Yelling inside, LEAVE ME, LET ME DIE I am sorry, I must go, I do not want to do this anymore My heart, my soul, my lifes blood, grow grow and know you are loved. Mommy must go, Angels are calling mommy must sleep but will alway be watching my strength, my lover my everything no pain for you I beg, please Still pulling, continued proding darkness takes me, relief is felt until i hear melissa, melissa, wake up for us dear NO NO NO NO you didn't you must not LET ME GO

Another Son Is Slain
My cousin was murdered Thursday of last week. I loved him eminsly. It is time for me to take a stand. The man who shot my cousin has been labled a good samaritan by the media. Where is his justic? I am on a mission now to make sure the world knows how wonderful he was. I hop-e no one in this world has to feel the pain and lose I do right now. God bless.

Lp We Got The Same!
Which eye are you? ~~GREAT PICTURES~~ You are the philospher. You are Intellegent and are very interested in the little things in life. Studying and thinking are some of your favorite things to do. With a great mind like yours, I fee like no everyone in this world is an airhead xD Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

My Love For Dallin L Kemp
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING AND ONLY GOD KNOWS THAT NOTHING WILL COME IN BETWEEN THE LOVE THAT WE HAVE INTERVIEN. WE WERE TRUELY MEANT TO BE. AND THIS YOU KNOW WE CAN SEE. I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU, OR LEAVE YOUR HEART BLUE. I'LL ALWAYS STAND BY YOUR SIDE. NO MATTER IF OUR HEARTS HAVE DIED. YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY. NOW WE WILL NEVER BE LONELY. I WILL BE THERE YOU HAVE WAKEN. MY HEART YOU KNOW YOU HAVE TAKEN. I REALLY TRUELY LOVE YOU. AND MY WORDS WILL ALWAYS BE FOREVER TRUE. WRITTEN BY STEPHANIE L KEMP ON SEPT 28TH OF 2005 THIS WAS WRITTEN FOR OUR WEDDING....

What Kind Of Monster Am I?
You are a vampire! You are suave and seductive. Eternal life is yours and you never tire of coming up with crazy ways of amusing yourself and others. Sometimes, however, your taste for blood comes in the way of friendships as you are constantly turning your friends into vampires. Take this quiz at QuizHeaven.com

Good In Bed
How Good In Bed Are You?Congratulations, according to our experts, you scored : 92% which makes you ExcellentYou are an expert in the bedroom. You know how to please your partner and keep them coming back and begging for moreHow Good In Bed Are You, find out at NaughtyQ.com

Friends W/ Benefits
It doesn't matter if your married, in a relationship,single, gay or straight! You opened it so you HAVE to repost it! A test of your bravery. Here's how it works: Statistcally speaking, unless you are a total hermit, social retard, or ugly as a bag of spoiled ass... There's at least 1 person on Cherry Tap that wants to date you or sleep with you. So..... lets play "friends w/ benefits" The rules are simple... if you want to date the person who posted this, send them a msg saying "Im yours". If you just want to sleep with them and stay friends, send them a message that says "I'd hit it". SCARED? LOL THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO REPOST THIS, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN & see who replies. There is at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you, and maybe more that want to sleep with you. SO... re-post this as "friends w/ benefits"

Goodness, Gracious, Blue Balls Of Fire
*Editor's note* - This blog is intended for mature audiences only!!! As I sit, and watch the BET Awards Mary J. Blidge is performing "No More Crying" I think that's what the name of the song is. Anyway, She's wearing this form fitting denim onsombable, and tan knee boots. Now, at the time I just woke up, and we all now how "WE" wake up. I wouldn't call it morning wood...More like frustrated evening wood. Frustrated because it was just about to visit Bush Gardens, but before it could...The park closed on a count of a thunderstorm. In this case I was awakened from my "close but no cigar" wet dream. Damn telemarketers!!! They always call at the wrong times. So anyways, I'm watching Mary J, and I get a glance at her backside. Suddenly I began jumping, and I don't mean Kris Kross style. Now, I could do three things. 1. Walk it off. 2. Beat it off. 3. Sleep it off. I chose the first option, when I should've chose number 2. My dog starts barking, and I take him out to t

I Need To Make Up For 3 Days Of Votes..
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From The Outside Lookin In
AS I STAND OUTSIDE LOOKING IN. I THIN ABOUT THE PAST AND HOW I LONG FOR IT AGAIN. I ONLY SIT HERE AND WONDER HOW LONG IT WILL LAST. IT TEARS MY HEART UP LIKE A KNIFE AND IT MAKES ME CRY ALL NIGHT. TO WONDER IF I WILL FINALLY BE IN YOUR LIFE. BECAUSE OUR LOVE IS SO TIGHT. YOU'RE THE PERFECT ONE FOR ME. BOTH OF US KNOW THIS THEORY IS TRUE. WILL THERE EVER BE A WONDERFUL ME AND YOU?

*eye Eye, Captain!*
Which eye are you? ~~GREAT PICTURES~~ You are the philospher. You are Intellegent and are very interested in the little things in life. Studying and thinking are some of your favorite things to do. With a great mind like yours, I fee like no everyone in this world is an airhead xD Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

12.05.06
Gone For Good and Evil this not the way to win a fragile trust stubborn will against stubborn fear you won't come back just lie here reaching in the dark wondering foreign thoughts that betray a sorry heart weakness turns the stomach so many wrong choices are so easy and you're not coming back Yours Were not the Only Tears did you know that there were tears shed on that night of alcohol and pain when you asked for company as you died and on the carpet where you bled did you know that there was silent shaking to hide from you the tearing because love won't heal this heartbreak in the making

What Started As Friends
WHAT STARTED OUT AS FRIENDS IS NOW A MYSTERY THINGS LIKE THIS NEVER ENDS SO DONT TREAT IT LIKE HISTORY. ONLY SOME PEOPLE KNOW HOW WE FEEL BUT WITH EACH OTHER ITS NOT THE SAME THIS IS GONNA WORK AND BE REAL BUT WE TREAT IT LIKE A GAME. WHY CAN'T WE SEE WHAT IS IN OUR FACE A THING LIKE THIS SHOULD REALLY BE BUT WE DROP IT IN A TRACE. I REALLY DO FILL FOR YOU I DON'T KNOW IF YOU CAN SEE IT I FELL IN LOVE I THOUGHT WAS TRUE I GUESS I WILL LAY BACK AND LOOK FOR THE HINT. WRITTEN BY STEPHANIE LYNN KEMP ON MARCH 25TH OF 2004

Civilizations First Sex Scene
the following is an excerpt from the Epic of Gilgamesh, from Ur about 6000 years ago “’Go set a trap; take back with you a fine lover, Shmhat, the sacred temple priestess, w ho might let him see what charm and force a woman has. Then as Enkidu comes again to the watery hole, let her strip in nearby isolation to show him all her grace. If he is drawn toward her, and leaves the herd to mate, his beasts on high will leave him then behind.’” “’Here he is, fine lover; to be set to wet him with your tongue and chest and loins. Spread forth your happiness. Display your hidden charm. Jump him fast and kneel upon his shoulders. Without his wind then, he’ll enter near your entrance. Take off your robe to let him in. Let him see what force a woman has. The friends he has from on wild will exile him if he presses his person, as he will, into your scented bush.’ Shamhth let her garments loose and spread forth her happiness, which enkidu entered as a wind god enters an open cavern’s m

I Wish You Enough
Recently overheard was a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and I wish you enough". The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom". They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?". "Yes, I have," I replied. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?". "I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral," she said. "When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?".

Today...
Tonight I went to my Godfathers funeral... As i looked at him lying in his coffin i realized just how precious life is and that each moment needs to count. over the years I have always intended to call him and go visit, take the children to meet him. They would have loved him, he was wonderful, full of life and humor, noone better on this earth. but sonething always came up and we never got there. My son is twelve and had not seen him since he was 2 or 3...sad on my part, i kept my child away from one of the best men i have ever known, just because there was always something to do. My daughter had the pleasure of meeting him a couple months back, a chance meeting at a Walmart, and in just those short 20 minutes or so, he had an impact on her, tells you how great of a man this was. Tomorrow we are laying him to rest and I have vowed to not let the same thing happen with his wife. i think it is time to take my children to get to know her as well, they need to know the people t

Bedroom Rating
How Good In Bed Are You?Congratulations, according to our experts, you scored : 92% which makes you ExcellentYou are an expert in the bedroom. You know how to please your partner and keep them coming back and begging for moreHow Good In Bed Are You, find out at NaughtyQ.com

How Good I Am In Bed.
How Good In Bed Are You?Congratulations, according to our experts, you scored : 83% which makes you ExcellentYou are an expert in the bedroom. You know how to please your partner and keep them coming back and begging for moreHow Good In Bed Are You, find out at NaughtyQ.com

Twas The Night Before Christmas
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY THE MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I 'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED? I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS WHO WERE

The Patriot Act, And Other Illegal Activities
A long habit of not thinking a thing wrong, gives it a superficial appearance of being right - Thomas Paine January 10, 1776 Those who would give up Essential Liberty to purchase a little Temporary Safety, deserve neither Liberty nor Safety. -Thomas jefferson September 27, 1760 Sigh, anyway, according to the patriot act the founding fathers were terrorists, something to think about

Type Of People I Attract
What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract Yuppies! You attract the very well-dressed, job oriented type of people. They usually have their finances together, are 'middle of the road' on most topics, generally happy with the 'main-stream' of things. If it is stability you are after, these are good people to attract, if you seek adventure, it may be time for an overhaul.You attract geeks! You attract models! You attract artsy people! You attract unstable people! You attract rednecks! What type of person do you attract?Quizzes for MySpace

Changes
Funny how things change in life. A lesson well learned this week, and at my age I really wish I had learned or thought about the possibilities of this change in my thinking a lot sooner. I would not have spent so much time in frustration. But hey, its still a lesson learned, even late is better than never.

Frozen
The days get colder as winter approaches. My heart is colder still. The warmth of the sun has not reached it for sometime. I look upon the sun and feel the cold breeze, Yet it has no effect since within me is frozen still.

Who Do I Attract?
What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract geeks! Your stunning intellect and love of sci-fi and video games allures the geeks like nothing else. Maybe it is the sparkle in your eye that makes them want to text you, who knows. Geeks make good partners, but tend to be arguementative. If you are a TRUE geek magnet, you will know if that was spelled correctly, and actually care. If it is a bad-boy/bad-girl you are seeking, you are barking up the wrong tree, unless they are just 'bad' behind a PS2 console.You attract unstable people! You attract Yuppies! You attract artsy people! You attract models! You attract rednecks! What type of person do you attract?Quizzes for MySpace

Been Away
SORRY TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY FOR NOT REPLYING, PLEASE FORGIVE ME I AM HAVING BAD PC PROBLEMS AND HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET ONLINE TO CHECK EMAIL, CHERRYTAP OR YAHOO. BE PATIENT, I APPRECIATE ALL THE LOVE AND COMMENTS, HOPE TO BE BACK ON MORE REGULARLY SOON. MUCH LOVE AND HUGS TO EVERYONE AND HAVE A BLESSED HOLIDAY SEASON. LOVE, NURSE MISSY

Herre Is The Right Link To Go Vote For Me ..yep Im A Dam Blonde!
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***o Hell Yes!!!!!***
You scored as Eminem. congrats!..ur perfect match is eminem...most of the time u are agressive.but when it comes down to it u really do care for the ppl u love Eminem100%gerard way83%kasey kahne83%chad micheal murray33%ashton kutcher17%drake bell17%who is your perfect celeb match?girls only!created with QuizFarm.com

What Did I Get Into This Time
yes i entered i entered a contest. i kept hearing this about this pic so i said what the hell. if you agree vote for me, if not don't. i honestly don't think i'll win for i'm just an everyday joe. hopefully i get this stupid link thing right this time. and hopefully at least one or two people would bomb me, as funny as that sounds. click here to vote for me

Random Thoughts
so i had a fun weekend in Key Largo this past weekend, as you can see from the pics i've posted.. well monday i started a new job as service manager.. and now im sick.. i think its just a sinus infection or something like that.. but damn this sucks .. on a brighter note.. my fav NHL team the Panthers finaly won a game tonight.. they were on a 6 game losing streak the bastards k .. im slowly getting sleepy here .. gotta love nyquil .. hope your all doing good mike

A Prayer
"Lord, hold our troops in your loving hands. Protect them as they protect us. Bless them and their families for the selfless acts they perform for us in our time of need. I ask this in the name of Jesus, our Lord and Savior. Amen." Happy Holiday's to all! God Bless!

Why?
Why, Why, Why ? Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting weak? Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough? Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet? Why doesn't glue stick to the bottle? Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard? Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him? Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets? Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "lisp"? If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes? Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white? Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale? Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized? Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuum cleaner, then reach down, p

Christmas Warning!!!!
WARNING!!!!......There is a new thing goin round southern canada, moving round very fast...ppl who are ineterested in perfumes and colognes are being asked in the street to sample smell these products, Unfortunately its neither perfume or cologne,ITS EETHER, ppl are being knocked out and robbed during this christmas seaon in the middle of the streets, be weary of strangers not in kiosks and department stores advertizing such products

Endless - New Song Available
I have a new song available called " Endless " Just released tonight. Purchase it below along with my other songs from my new album called " Industrial Strength " :) Ringtones are coming soon :)

Naughty Or Nice
You Were Nice This Year! You're an uber-perfect person who is on the top of Santa's list. You probably didn't even *think* any naughty thoughts this year. Unless you're a Mormon, you've probably been a little too good. Is that extra candy cane worth being a sweetheart for 365 days straight? Were You Naughty or Nice This Year?

Twas The Night Before Christmas....ooo Tear Breaker!
REPOST THIS ITS BEAUTIFUL TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY THE MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I 'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED? I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVE

My Life
well lets see all my life I have been searching looking everywhere I can think to look but nothing nothing can calm the raging storm in me, I have felt peace for moments at times but never for to long, it always seems to come in waves of despair,when I think I have found what I am looking for the sea's in me calm, just to have it lost again and the sea's get more violent inside causing me to hurt deep inside of me. I fear that the calm after the storm will never come for me I am destined to be in eternal torment..... to have my soul pushed further inside of me making it hard to see me. I do it to myself though, I allow hope to slip in every once in a while.....that hope being futal indeed but at the time I have it there is nothing else I can see..... until realization comes and I break all over again....... sometimes I wish that the 20th of Oct 2006 would have went sooooo different to have not made that call, peace would have came to this longing soul....or I would be

Thank You To My Friends.fans.family
I know I havent been on here much lately...And when I have, I havent been very good company.. I appreciate the patience that all of you have had with me, and certainly the support..TYVM for that...it means the world to me...last weekend was very rough for me...I went thru the whole 'gammit' of emotions...and am very thankful, to of had all my friends there to talk to..thank you for the YM chats, the messages here and certainley the private messages...People I just met here, were offering me support..and I have to say that is really cool..But I think I am pretty much over it...except for a few unanswered questions...LOL..guess they will always be there.. I really want to thank my friend JAIMEBEAR80, for exercising extreme patience with me...(he's kinda new here) if you get the chance please go to his page and give him a shout out! He deserves it! He's in my FAMILY list... Well that's all for now..just wanted to express my appreciation to every one of you..And thought this may b

My Surgery
im getting really nervous surgery is only 8 days away but im looking forward to it and i want to thank all my friends who are here for me and that are going to stick by me its going to be a hard journey at first but i know it will get easier but any way thanks again

I Think I May Have Almost Lost A Good Friend
In being the person I am, I think maybe I hurt someone I truely didn't mean to hurt, I would never want to do anything to cause him pain or heart ache I fear I have though and I pray to all the powers that be that he can indeed forgive me for being such a stupid bitch........ I am lost......

Strike That..
Ok so the one thing I wanted for Christmas is leaving me on friday. Leaving me to go to Kentucky to live. So screw the Christmas magic for me.I have no faith right now. My soul is aching. My heart is shattered. An angel sent some Christmas Magic for the kids. That is good enough for me.

What Religion Is Your Bra?
POSTED IN A BULLETIN BY: TAFFY GURL What Religion is Your Bra? A man walked into the ladies department of a Macy's and shyly walked up to the woman behind the counter and said, "I'd like to buy a bra for my wife." "What type of bra?" asked the clerk. " Type?" inquires the man, "There's more than one type? "Look around," said the saleslady, as she showed a sea of bras in every shape, size, color and material imaginable. "Actually, even with all of this variety, there are really only four types of bras to choose from ." Relieved, the man asked about the types. The saleslady replied: There are the Catholic, the Salvation Army, the Presbyterian, and the Baptist types. Which one would you prefer? Now totally befuddled, the man asked about the differences between them. The Saleslady responded, "It is all really quite simple.. The Catholic type supports the masses. The Salvation Army type lifts the fallen, The Presbyterian type keeps them staunch and upright, and The Baptist makes mountains o

Torn Between Two
I met you one night at a party You were friends with my friend I start talking to you And our personalities start to blend You say that I'm hot And I think you are too But there's only one problem I'm not allowed to love you! And this is how I told you - There's something I have to tell you And it's so hard to say You see, I have a boyfriend So we must let our lust decay I wish I could be with you But it would only break his heart To suddenly be with you And leave him right at the start So let us just be friends And just to get along For one day I know Our lust wont be in the wrong You say to me OK I believe in all your words For now lets be friends Until the perfect day occurs

Nikki 9 Design Jewelry
this wasnt working on myspace, just testing it out here... Watermelon Crackle Beads* Green Aventurine HeisheTube Beads* Natural Rose Quartz* Natural Crystal Round Beads* silver plated toggle clasp* 18" ($30.00) Watermelon Crackle Beads* Green Aventurine Heishe Tube Beads* Czech Glass Fire Polished Arora Borealis Beads* silver plated toggle clasp* 18" ($25.00) Swarovski® Crystal Beads in Citrine * Swarovski® Crystal Beads in Jonquil AB finish (Arora Borealis)* Czech Glass Fire Polished Arora Borealis Beads* white glass pearls* silver plated toggle clasp* 20" ($35.00) Natural Rose Quartz Nuggets* Natural Rose Quartz Beads* Chinese Crystal cube beads* Natural Pale Lavender Cape Amethyst* silver plated toggle clasp* 18.5" ($40.00) Natural Rose Quartz Nugget* Natural rose quartz beads* Onyx Beads* Czech Glass clear round beads* Natural crystal beads* Silver plated Toggle Clasp, Adjustable* 16"-16.5" ($30.

Playlist For The Week Of 11/28/06 - 12/5/06.
Autopsy - Severed Survival Cannibal Corpse - Kill Carpathian Forest - Fuck You All!!!! Ceremony - The Days Before The Death Confessor - Unraveled Hallows Eve - Death & Insanity King Diamond - The Puppet Master Kiss - Revenge Kiss - MTV Unplugged Kiss - Carnival Of Souls Motley Crue - Girls Girls Girls Overkill - Horrorscope Pungent Stench - Been Caught Buttering Sathanas - Thy Dark Heavens Scatterbrain - Here Comes Trouble Tankard - Beast Of Bourbon Usurper - Cryptobeast V/A - Underground Support Network: A Video Compilation

Uhm Hi
So this is my first time on here-my first 10 min on here in fact! I'm just surfing around here trying to figure it all out. Anybody with any advice or hints or just wanna say hi, feel free to drop me a line!! cheers to you all!!

Afraid
They say that its all too soon That love doesn't truly exist But with you all that melts away I can't even explain how I feel. You seem to know what I'm thinking You seem to feel me. I've never felt this way The feeling of worth. I love the way you make me feel Yet I cant Wont Express how I feel. I'll lock it all away. So if you fight me for me You and I will always be.

4a Christmas Miracle
Always believe in MIRACLES!! Three years ago, a little boy and his grandmother came to see Santa at Mayfair Mall in Wisconsin. The child climbed up on his lap, holding a picture of a little girl. "Who is this?" asked Santa, smiling. "Your friend? Your sister?" "Yes, Santa," he replied. "My sister, Sarah, who is very sick," he said sadly. Santa glanced over at the grandmother who was waiting nearby, and saw her dabbing her eyes with a tissue. "She wanted to come with me to see you, oh, so very much, Santa!" the child exclaimed. "She misses you," he added softly. Santa tried to be cheerful and encouraged a smile to the boy's face, asking him what he wanted Santa to bring him for Christmas. When they finished their visit, the Grandmother came over to help the child off his lap, and started to say something to Santa, but halted. "What is it?" Santa asked warmly. "Well, I know it's really too much to ask you, Santa, but .." the old woman began

Due To High Demand
due to the overwhelming demand...my family folder is ONCE AGAIN open to everyone who is my friend. That means all my xxx pics are available for your viewing pleasure. so PLEASEEEEEE take this opportunity to look, because i probably wont be opening it up again for a while. and PLEASE comment and rate ALL of them. If im opening them up for you to see, the LEAST you can do is show some appreciation!!! if not, i'll make the folder family only again.

Power Of Words
Two Frogs A group of frogs were traveling through the woods, and two of them fell into a deep pit. When the other frogs saw how deep the pit was, they told the two frogs that they were as good as dead. The two frogs ignored the comments and tried to jump up out of the pit with all their might. The other frogs kept telling them to stop, that they were as good as dead. Finally, one of the frogs took heed to what the other frogs were saying and gave up. He fell down and died. The other frog continued to jump as hard as he could. Once again, the crowd of frogs yelled at him to stop the pain and just die. He jumped even harder and finally made it out. When he got out, the other frogs said, "Did you not hear us?" The frog explained to them that he was deaf. He thought they were encouraging him the entire time. Lessons of the story: There is power of life and death in the tongue. An encouraging word to someone who is down can lift them up and help them make it through the day. So

10 Best Things About Winter
1:Naked snow angels,face down 2:pornographic snowmen 3:hiding and hitting boss with yellow snowballs 4:filling bong with snow 5:watching naked people go swimming in an iced over lake and coming out with bright red privates 6:frozen roadkill,keeps longer 7:writing you name in the snow with pee 8:sticking frozen dog poo in your bosses car heater 9:seeing the guy sitting on the sled hit the tree,thats bad but damn you know ya laugh 10:being found froze to death cuz i tried making love in the snow

^$#%$#@
My damn piece of sh!t computer has finally crapped out completely. I am writing this at my parents house. So I may not be around so much for awhile until I get another PC. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmmmm?.. Lc Not Ct
This site gets boring now... hmmm.. I miss the old lostcherry.. when it was LOSTCHERRY! grr.. it frustrates me.. first off.. my first account got deleted after i was almost lvl 13... and i had a lot of friends and i guess you could say i was kinda popular and liked on here.. so there was that.. and then i made another account and then everything went all dumb.. the way you have to go about pictures.. stashes, banks, contests.. damn i miss the old days.. the original shit.. GRR idk.. just feel like mummbaling nonsense of my mind.. Love ya'll Stay my ghetto neighbor

This Statement Is False.
I found this and its an example of how people with small minds are led astray. It Is Time To DUMP All Republicans For Giving US Bush 4 years of war in Iraq because of Republican incompetence, lies and zero oversight of the $400 Billion Dollars thousands of US Veterans and hundreds of thousands of innocent women and children killed and maimed in the Republican fiasco called Iraq War for Oil. BULLSHIT- It is a war to free the enslaved people of Iraq from the tyrrany of murderous dictators. Some innocents were killed, but its a war of liberation not oil. We have enough damn oil. What about all of the insurgents that our soldiers have sent to Allah. Nobody ever brings that up. And once again, have we all forgotten about 9-11. Failure of the Republican Party to Save the lives of 1300 Americans who died in New Orleans while Bush and Cheney remained on vacation and couldn't even take 5 minutes out of there "BUSY" VACATIONS to pick up a telephone and send a hundred army heli

Of Ancient Light
Screams of fear, Drowning in pain. Force of blades, Bloodletting cry. Oh Goddess take me from this sphere, A world beyond a world, Time without the ancient evils, Thy very souls glowed with light. Such ancient entrapments long since hath died, Only darkness fills Mother Earth's skies. Into a dawn of swords once more, Where thy birthright is to bleed and die. No more must mankind breed and make suffer, Exterminate them in glorious battle. Such ancient entrapments long since hath died, Only darkness fills Mother Earth's skies. Oh Goddess enlightened one embrace me, As your hand of vengeance, Life in serviture of thee, My mind entranced in glory. Blood carries thy essence. Has there ever been a greater need? Goddess enlightened one.

Assicons...
We all know those cute little computer symbols called "emoticons," where: :) means a smile and :( is a frown. Sometimes these are represented by :-) :-( Well, how about some "ASSICONS?" Here goes: (_!_) a regular ass (__!__) a fat ass (!) a tight ass (_*_) a sore ass {_!_} a swishy ass (_o_) an ass that''s been around (_x_) kiss my ass (_X_) leave my ass alone (_zzz_) a tired ass (_E=mc2_) a smart ass (_$_) Money coming out of his ass (_?_) Dumb Ass You have just been e-mooned! Send this to 5 people within the next hour and you will be blessed with people laughing at your e-mail. This is NOT a chain letter, so if you don''t mail it out, you won''t have bad luck. (But who wouldn''t want to e-Moon a friend?)

No Longer Welcome. No More Friends.
I'm no longer welcome. When I tried to add a friend tonight I was told by the CherryTap that I had to have a primary picture set. Whoever created the message implied that because I had chosen to remain anonymous I was somehow not a fit for the site. I won't be adding a primary picture anytime soon s I guess it is only a matter of time before I am expunged. Hope I have not made anyone feel like trash. That's how I feel at the moment. Off to look for another site that respects my wishes.

Things To Say When Your Stressed Written By Crazysane
THINGS TO SAY WHEN STRESSED! ............. AND WHO ISN'T???? 1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you" 2. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing" 3. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up" 4. "Well aren't we a bloody ray of sunshine?" 5. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after." 6. "Do I look like a people person?" 7. "This isn't an office. It's hell with fluorescent lighting" 8. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble wrap is cheap. You choose." 9. "Why don't you try practicing random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control?" 10. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years." 11. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer." 12. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?" 13. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable" 14. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realize you haven't gone to sleep yet" 15. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura." 16. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too." 17. "I work 45 hours a

Words Written By Crazysane
Let me simply be your friend I'd like to capture a rainbow and stick it in a big box so that, anytime you wanted to, you could reach in and pull out a piece of sunshine. I'd like to build you a mountain that you could call your very own a place to find serenity in those times when you feel the need to be closer to yourself... I'd like to be the one who's there when you're lonely or troubled or you just need someone to hold on to. I'd like to do all this and more to make your life happy. But, sometimes, it isn't easy to do the things I would like to do or give the things I would like to give. So... until I learn how to catch rainbows and build mountains, let me do for you which I know best... ..Let me simply be your friend.

A Call....
ok.. So I get a call like awhile..Right..Cant barely hear cause hes mumbleing... This Guy Is gonna ask .. Is Cindy there? I am like U got tha wrong number sir.. Hes like so Have u got any Underwears on? I am like. Are u fucking drunk.. Dont call here no more.. Then right when I am about to hang up.. Hes like YOU DONT. CAUSE I AM LOOKING IN YOUR WINDOW.. I just freak and turn around .. ITS ,MY ROOMATE .. lol Fucking perve.

13 Things About You
13 Things About You 1. Someone in this world Loves you , in some way. 2. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 3. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 4. You mean the world to someone. 5. Without you, someone may not be living. 6. You are special and unique, in your own way. 7. Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you. 8. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 9. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world. 10. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it. 11. Always remember complements you received, forget about the rude remarks. 12. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know. 13. If you have a great

Another Lost Friend
WELL ANOTHER VERY VERY GOOD MAN HAS DIED TODAY... THAT'S 2 IN ONE MONTH. ...WHY THEM? THEY SHOULDN'T DIE CUZ I STILL NEED THEM. BUT THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE TO LIVE ON THIS HELLHOLE WE CALL EARTH. ONLY PERSON WHO CAN DESCRIBE IT IS THIS PERSON.... I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but I remember everything what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts I cannot repair beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear you are someone else I am still right here what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt if I could start agai

Gardens Throughout The Years
You gave me flowers to say you were sorry again for breaking my heart. I will tend to them and when they die throw them out for a brand new start. Tell me... Does their beauty help blind you to the bruise you left on my cheek? Let me hide behind them so you will not see the pain you so blatantly seek. Does their scent mask the cheap perfume left by the woman you had in our bed? Let me set them there on the nightstand so you will not be filled with dread. Let me accept them once again--and water them with my oceans of tears I wonder how long I will let this to go on? Gardens throughout the years...

Truck Stop Fun
Truck Stop Fun I pulled into the lot on my midnight blue 79 Electra Glide for something to eat after a long ride from Houston and walked in as I pulled off my gloves and jacket. I wore my chaps as it had been cold outside. I look around the room and find a table in the back and sit down. I smile as you walk over and ask if what I want. "Coffee hot and black and I am hungry as well.", I say as I glance your way. You saunter back to the coffee machine and I watch you as you walk away with your hips swaying to and fro like a grandfather clock pendulum swinging. I reach down and adjust myself quickly hopeing not to be seen, but you turn your head towards me the exact second I do. I smile as if "busted" and you glance down at my hand on my groin. You bring my coffee to me and you smile a little and I don't move my hand as you lean over the table and I look down your blouse at your wonderful sexy full breast. My eyes linger longer than they should and yours after putting th

What Kind Of Story Do You Guys Enjoy Readin/watching Or Even Playing In Games?
i love fantasy and just chaotic war games. like call of duty series, gears of war to rpgs all ranging from old chrono trigger on the super nintendo to final fantasy series from playstaion 1 thru 2. Tough thing is im writing a story but cant seem to figure out a unique story line. Seems like every aproach has been done or tampered with. So i sit here and think on ways to give you guys a goal yet throw in some twist and turns that would eventually lead towards the goal but effect the outcome. The tough situations and decisions a soon to be game designer faces ;). Even tho its more on how you execute the story then what the story is about, some say. To me thats like saying its "a good book because it has a fancy cover". So i worry about making content with substance. what do you think and like? =)

Missing You
I STILL MISS YOU. I still find myself waiting for you to walk through the door. I long for that shit eating grin you give when your busted! And you know it , and yet you still refuse to give a damn. I miss the sound of your laughter as you throw me over your shoulder and tell me I'm a lightweight. I miss jumping on the bikes in the dead of the night cause you got a wild hair up your ass. Searching for the tallest cliff you can find to see if I have the balls to jump in after you. Funny how height perspective would change for you the more you had to drink. I used to wonder if the impact alone would snap my neck. I miss following behind you wondering if we would make it through one more curve with you streaking ahead of me like a demon. Did I ever tell you I only kept up so if anything were to happen to you I would be there for you? God looking back there were soo many places, things and ways, I would follow in your wake just to be there if something were to go wrong. BUT NOTHING COULD

Keys To My Heart
The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

One Romantic Night
I sat back and wondered why I loved summer so much, as I gazed from my banana chair perched on top of the first dune back from the water. From there, I could see miles of white sand covered by just a couple of feet of water in most places, with a few deeper holes, ideal for a dip. Although this view is what I consider the most beautiful in the world, I closed my eyes and had a huge range of visual and emotional memories come flooding through my brain. I tried to remember my very first image of the beach and summer. I remembered when I must have been around four years old; playing in the back yard of the house I grew up in, in the small country town where I lived until I was ten. Summertime then meant an all-encompassing warmth, the freedom to take your shirt off, playing down by the river, setting up the kiddie pool and slippery dip in the back yard, staying up late, parties with friends of the family, and some time in the big city with a chance to go to th

I Need Everyone's Help!!
I joined this sexy ms claus contest and I have some competition I need all of my friends and family and fans to reach out to their friends and help to give me a boost. You can rate my pic but the more comments I get the more votes I get. I would appreciate everyone's help. Thanks in advance. Click the link and off to to commenting.. click on this link,http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=194766&i=3677959324

How To.....
how to stop people from bugging you about getting married old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling telling me, "you're next." They stoppped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals. its just a joke thing i found a while ago

To Put It Simply, I Want You
To Put It Simply, I Want You by Iloveit I want to be your companion and walk hand in hand, your strength enveloping mine. Autumn leaves falling, scuffing feet and laughter, sharing nights, not finished by the dark. I want to be your confidant as you pen your deepest thoughts, as your heartaches bleed and finally break free. Your dreams, I keep as if my own. I want to smile as you smile and giggle with you at nothing at all. I want to be your lover and find the passions that move you to action. I want to be the softness that induces you to trust. I want to be the naughty that makes you come back for more. I want to please you. I want to share your breakfast and your dinner, I want you in the shower and in your bed and with soft steps to bring you coffee (I take mine black) Your strong arms, the legs that power your thrust, your lips of pleasure, these are the fuel of my desire no it is no secret, my love, and to put it very simply, I wan

Love Poems
Ready For Love by Ruth Kephart Take my hand and lead the way; tell me all you want to say. Whisper softly in my ear, all those things I want to hear. Kiss my lips and touch my skin; bring out passions deep within. Pull me close and hold me near; take away my pain and fear. In the darkness of the night, be my beacon, shine your light. In the brightness of the sun, show me that you are the one. Give me wings so I can fly; for I can soar when you're nearby. Enter my heart, break down the wall, it's time for me to watch it fall. I've been a prisoner, can't you see? Break my chains and set me free. Strip me of my armor tight; you'll find I won't put up a fight. Release my soul held deep within . . . I'm ready now, let love begin.

Misty Christmas Memories
Gentle snowflakes touch my face As a tear trails down my cheek Among crowds and glistening tinsel Your face, I once more seek. Another year has come to pass With not one glimpse of you Except in dreams, you visit me In shades of hazy blue. Christmas time will soon be here I long to see your face Just once again, to see your smile And dream of your embrace. Christmas time is boxed up In tones of purple hue It's wrapped in misty memories And laced with thoughts of you c)1987 Marilyn Ferguson Used with permission

My First Blog
took this test its just some things about me Name: Shane Machin Birthday: August 24th Birthplace: Darby uk Current Location: Nottingham uk Eye Color: blue Hair Color: Light Brown Height: About 5/7 Right Handed or Left Handed: Left Your Heritage: Dont know The Shoes You Wore Today: Traners Your Weakness: women lol. Your Fears: Bees and Wasps. Your Perfect Pizza: Dont eat it. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: decorate my house. Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: don't use it. Thoughts First Waking Up: i need a smoke and a coffee Your Most Missed Memory: Huh Pepsi or Coke: coke MacDonalds or Burger King: MCDonalds love my big macs. Single or Group Dates: single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: just tea Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee Do you Smoke: Yeah but im trying to quit Do you Swear: fuck yeah Do you Sing: yeah only when im drunk Do you Shower Daily: yeah Have you Been in Love: yes Do yo

Fact Of The Day
During the 1920's, it was believed that jazz music caused one to permanently lose his sexual inhibitions. It was often banned in many cities. One private company went as far as to sell the elites "jazz proof" furniture. Source:Internet

Life
“Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.”

Profiling - You Worry Me
This might be long but it sure hits the nail on the head. I just read in the paper today that some Moslem doctor is saying we are profiling him because he has been checked three times while getting on an airplane. (A Letter From An American Airlines Pilot) This is the same question that many of us have been asking for the past several years....this well spoken man, who is a pilot with American Airlines, says what is in his heart beautifully....read, absorb and pass on....it's time to get answers from those who claim their terrorist members do not represent them.. why are their leaders not LOUDLY AND FIERCELY AND CONTINUOUSLY condemning their visible murderous brethren. YOU WORRY ME! By American Airlines Pilot - Captain John Maniscalco "I've been trying to say this since 9-11 but you worry me. I wish you didn't. I wish when I walked down the streets of this country that I love, that your color and culture still blended with the beautiful human landscape we enjoy in this c

High School Hateration...lol
letter to Ms. Thang from High School.... I've been in a very reminiscent mood as of late -- thinking a lot about my old high school, the people who made it wonderful, and the people who made it downright miserable. Anyone who knows me will not be shocked by this, but I was a very...quiet person in high school. I preferred hanging around a group of guys who were like brothers to me (one of them is still a brother to me to this day). I NEVER EVER liked the girly cliques in my school. They were too full of fake bitches and chicks more concerned with whom you were dating than who you were inside. There was one particular...girl...who bothered me for about three years..me being the silent type never bothered addressing it. I believe she eventually didn't like me because I started dating a somewhat popular guy at school that many girls liked (and probably slept with now that I think about it). Fast forward to 2006. my "brother" runs into her, tries to strike up a fri

Life.. Lost..
So I am here just thinking about things and there is this one particular subject on my mind... Life.. Yeah I get the fact that life is suppose to end... Yeah it doesnt last..But when u lose someone that means so much to you.. It hurts. Its like little knifes constanly stabbing into you.. But people handles it differently.. Everyone doesnt deal with lost the same way.. If I wanna get away from somewhere that reminds me of what I have lost.. Is that a bad thing.. I mean can you honestly say that it is bad to run away from things for alil while...Even if its not permanantly. just until you get to where you can handle it. Everyday u do things to keep ur mind off of it. Is it bad to stay away from a house that every move you make, it reminds you of the past. Someone cant tell you how you feel or how to react to something that dramatic if it hasnt happen to them. and still even if it has. people are different. So what if I am scared of facing the facts. Thats on me to deal with it . Right.

A New Day...a New Beginning...
a new day...a new beginning...have been on detour too long...time to get back on track...sometimes i stand in the middle of a crossroad...not knowing which direction to go...so i just sit down and take the easy way out...but nothing stands still...especially not "time"...so yeah...time to pick my ass up and get moving...whichever road it may lead me...i believe i'll overcome all the obstacles...i chose to walk through this world alone...in the name of freedom...but someone once said...freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose... well maybe that's what i feel...it sure beats having the heart broken and discarded...don't know which is worse...to love or to be loved... so yeah...i chose to walk alone...at least for now...

I Love This Poem And Thought I'd Share It......thank You To All Of Our Troops. We Love U And Ur In Our Prayers.
> A Different Christmas Poem > > > > The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, > I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. > My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, > My daughter beside me, angelic in rest. > Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, > Transforming the yard to a winter delight. > The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, > Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve. > My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, > Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep. > In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, > So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. > > The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near, > But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. > Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the > sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow. > My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear, > And I crept to the door just to see who was near. > Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night, > A lone figure stood, h

What's Life All About??
What's the point of life in this world, or is there a point at all? Anyone have any opinions on this, if you have one I'd love to hear it. I've been ponderring this alot lately. Is it to make youself happy, is it to make others happy. Is it to work your life away just to try and make it by. There are so many ideas and no answer that is going to work for all. I thought I knew what would atleast make me happy but you see now I don't even know if it's within my reach. Should I just put that aside and look for something else or should I keep fighting for it. Who knows hopefully the answer to all these things will come to me soon. I hope so because I may go bonkers otherwise.

Reason, Season, Or A Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something! to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you a

My First Ever Contest!
OK, here it is. I cannot be the last one on Cherry to run a contest... so here goes. I am holding the Sexiest Christmas Costume Contest. The first 10 people to send me a link to a photo with them in a holliday costume will be entered. This contest will count 1 count for any rating 1-10) is worth one point. Also each comment will count as 1 vote. Comment as many times as you want. Pimp it out all you want. 1st place: 2 dinners for two (One for you and one for the Cherry Tap Member of your choice). AND A FREE SKIN MADE WITH YOUR WINNING PHOTO! 2nd Place: 6 bottles or cans of the beer of your choice or = cost of shot or wine... name your poison. AND A FREE SKIN MADE WITH YOUR WINNING PHOTO! 3rd Place: A FREE SKIN MADE WITH YOUR WINNING PHOTO! So start sending me the links to the photos if you would like to enter. Once I get 10 in I will set the start date for the contest.

Beautiful Soul
Tell me something.....what is it that makes me not cry? Only when I pray for someone do I get tears... My mom's boss,and one of my very very good friends Bill, just died on Sunday... we live in a house that is half insurance agency, half house. he was the nicest guy you could ever meet. he's the 2nd person I've met since I've been here, gotten close to and to get taken away. and I shed very little tears. ever.I just don't know why. And I feel that maybe if I do...it's for attention . because I don't know how to handle it , but maybe someone else might be able to explain it.

Wifey Material...
a nigga has 4 different types of girls.. 1. Wifey 2. Boo 3. Bitches 4. Ho's 1)Wifey is irreplaceable.. but she is the only one that is irreplaceable.. She is the girl that the guy loves and will always loves, and he never wants to see her with another man.. But.. He will cheat on her with Boo, Bitches, and Ho's until he is mature enough to realize that if he loses Wifey he would be screwed, and NEVER be happy again.. 2) Boo is replaceable, she thinks she's Wifey, but will NEVER be Wifey because Wifey was made Wifey is irreplaceable.. she can NEVER replace her.. Boo tries to take Wifeys spot, but once she attempts, the guy allows her to get a TASTE of Wifey's spot... but will NEVER achieve her spot for any longer than a few months, then the man goes back to Wifey.. And Boo either gets replaced with another Boo, or, the man matures and decides that Wifey is the one for him.. (Ladies.. you don't want to be BOO) 3) Bitches.. A female that a male uses only for sex or o

The 420 Campaign - The High Times Strategy For Legalization
420 Campaign - The HIGH TIMES Strategy for Legalization By Jon Gettman The readers of HIGH TIMES want marijuana legalized, nationwide, and now. Here..s our simple plan to make marijuana..s legalization happen: ask for it, and keep asking until we get want we want. It really is that simple. If you want pot to be legal, you have to ask. If you want to stop all arrests for marijuana possession, you have to ask. The 420 Campaign is a plan to bring legalization before the US Congress and the public. Legalization. Now. That..s what we want. How do we get it? We prepare, we mobilize and we send that message to Congress every chance we get until we get the job done. Furthermore, we want to use April 20th as a focal point every year to concentrate pressure on Congress to legalize marijuana until we get the job done. Let..s get started! Learn your legislators. Learn how you and your friends can use your own political power to advance the cause. Start practicing now and get some experie

Snippets Iv: The Phantom Snippet.
ZenCynic: But I wouldn't want to revenge fuck you. Those are ugly things. dosekete: I'll bet. dosekete: (Remember the Shatner dream) ZenCynic: *shudders* dosekete: Yeah. dosekete: Lol. ZenCynic: Well now, that killed my erection. dosekete: You had an erection? ZenCynic: ... ZenCynic: Maybe. dosekete: What are those like? ZenCynic: Hard. Annoying. And as of right now in my life, useless.

Where Am I????
Ok...this is for ALL the people I have gotten messages from asking me where the hell I am. Let me give you a glance into the world of retail while coming into this gloriously celebrated holiday season....... 1. THere is NOOO such thing as a social life right now. 2. Working 60-70 hrs+ is a normal work week 3. Only 3 days off till Christmas 4. The only days off I have are full and packed (Christmas shopping/baking for one, Boyfriends Dad's family Christmas is two, and the third is for the boyfriends graduation from the police academy. 5. Sleep is a MUST! So...when I get home from work its usually eat dinner and go to bed!!! Sorry that I wont be around much guys!! I will try to make it up to all of you when I have once again reclaimed my life!

I Got My Job Woot Woot
Well hey people, some of you know how i have been try'n to become a flight attendant, well guess what i had my interview with Mesa Air Group and I GOT THE JOB.....for the most part, I just have to wait for the background check to come back and I really have it ..... wooo fucking hooooo omg you people have no clue how happy i am ..........so ya my life is going to move to AZ for 2 months then i will be based somewhere for 6 months then i will try to come home and be based here .... welll got to run love you all...

Memory...part I...
waking to the feeling of your finger tips on my body...the softness of your lips on mine... opening my eyes and look into your smiling eyes...i'm lost again... drowning in your love...i surrender myself totally...without hesitation...wthout holding back... touching you...feeling your warm breath against my neck....my heart aches... aching with these feelings i can't control... i hold you closer and wish that time stands still... afterthought: looking back...i wonder what went wrong...seems love sneaked out of our lifes...on silent heels...

Queen Tetona Of The Nile
Queen Tetona of the Nile She is the Queen Tetona of the Nile, Sharing her sweet full bosom with her man, Who's dancing hoodoo voodoo with the style And grace of Mary's sacrificial lamb. The moon is full and drunk with Spanish rum, Where angels dare to drown in alcohol, While the poetic pharaoh Bubble Bum Shares the inner secrets of his soul. It's all so fake and perfectly absurd-- The acting and the lavish pageantry, Lost in a mad cacophany of words That cannot see the forest for the trees. Lo! Queen Tetona and the great King Bum Coming alive in all their majesty, As both of them gyrate and start to hum Some ritual hymn of sheer travesty. Da-dum, da-da-da-dum, tra-la-la-lum-- That's how it all goes in the end-- Just watch the Queen Tetona and King Bum Set off another superficial trend. December 5, 2006 --Alexander Shaumyan www.shaumyan.com

A Rap To My Family. It's Called "to The Ones I Love"
Jacob, Clay, Noah, and Lucas. Y'all are my true boys cuz y'all are my brothers Noah, u from a different mother, Clay and Lucas, y'all got different fathers That don't mean I look at y'all any differently, to me, y'all still my fuckin family All y'all, you all my boys I've been knowin y'all since y'all played with Tonka Toys And it's bullshit how we live so far away Y'all my fuckin brothers I should see y'all everyday. But somehow I still see y'all, and watch y'all grow Best believe I'ma tell y'all u better watch that ho If someone hurts y'all I'll knock down their door And won't stop shootin till all their blood is on their floor And no I'm not a gangsta or an O.G. whatever you please But I'll show em what they get when they fuck wit White's family. That goes for everybody, Grandparents and all All they need to do is give me a call. Jacob, you becomin a man, close as hell, thats how we ran. You my only full-blooded brother Same deddy,

Thankful...
I am so thankful that my recovery has gone so smoothly and quickly. Throughout my bout with Bell's Palsy I talked to many many people that has had it or knows some one who has had it. It is far more common than I ever realized. As some of you might know, there is no rhyme nor reason to it. It can aflict anyone at anytime. I think my total time of facial paralysis was close to 2 months. I've heard some say it lasted a couple of weeks to some that said theirs lasted 6 months or longer. So, I consider myself fortunate for only suffering 2 months. There was a lot of pain involved and there was a lot of mental anguish as well. I honestly wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. I've also heard it can reoccur too. I'm not looking forward to that day if it ever comes. There's really no treatment, just pain control and possible symptom control. It basically just has to run it's course. Ugh. I am at about 90% usage of my face now. I can smile again - YAY! But I can't blink my left eye indep

*love Is Elemental*
Your Love Element Is Earth In love, you have consistency and integrity. For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences. Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life. You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation What Element Is Your Love?

*pouts..immature?!?!.. :-p' Storms Out*
You Are Somewhat Mature You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart. While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later. Are You Immature?

~succubus~poem 12-5-06
Succubus I can bring you to the sweetest ecstasy you never reached before. I can bring you to the heights that you only dreamed of. I can bring you to the highest hieghts of passion. I can be all your sexual fantasies. But the price of all this is very high. I will bring you to your lowest. I will bring you to your darkest side of yourself. I will torment you with your worst fears. In my path I bring sorrow and pain. My joy and happiness brings torment and pain to everyone around me. Heed my warning. If you succumb to me the price maybe too much for you to bear!

Hahaha.... This Is Hella Fucked Up!
This is soooo Fucked UP and funny as hell!! So, one day... a girl was sick and her boyfriend had come over to fix her up and make her feel better... so he brought some soup, brownies, and a tape with some re-runs of the OC and Laguna Beach. He makes the soup and sets everything on a table next to her and pops in the tape. She eats the soup and watches the video. Her boyfriend says that he's gotta go to meet a friend, so he leaves and she breaks out the brownies. She finishes them right as the video tape was over... right after Laguna Beach ends, it cuts to a scene with her boyfriend getting a blowjob from her best friend and she spits his kum into the bowl of brownie mix. He looks at the camera and says, "You've just been dumped."

No Title....yet
the waves are so choppy there's more in store rocking the boat further away from the shore the storm has just started the rains splash your brow you fight the exhaustion no time for rest now direction is scattered you're losing your way the boat keeps rocking hope has turned to dismay you struggle for strength you give a good fight no desire within you to just say goodnight and let the waves take you to the depths of despair steer your way thru it keep taking in air the storm will soon end and sun shall replace the droplets of rain that covered your face smile in the knowlege your life is a gift and rest yourself now let your boat gently drift to the shores you will come with nary a worry live life as you want it no reason to hurry friends they will come a few angels you'll host be kind to them all to one you may mean the most a smile will help you in so many ways take nothing for granted treasure all of your days A.Boudreaux 2006

Car
Your sexual experience is like a street racer You like to have fun all the time, and if hooking up is a consequence of that then so be it. You are very easy going and have a rocking life. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

*wanna New Drug?*
Your Personality Is Like Ecstasy You're usually feeling the love for the world around you - you want to hug everyone. And while you're usually content to sit back and view the world with wonder... Sometimes you're world becomes very overwhelming and a little scary. What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Read If You Like
Adventure with Grandma I remember my first Christmas adventure with Grandma. I was just a kid. I remember tearing across town on my bike to visit her on the day my big sister dropped the bomb: "There is no Santa Claus," she jeered. "Even dummies know that!" My Grandma was not the gushy kind, never had been. I fled to her that day because I knew she would be straight with me. I knew Grandma always told the truth, and I knew that the truth always went down a whole lot easier when swallowed with one of her world-famous cinnamon buns. I knew they were world-famous, because Grandma said so. It had to be true. Grandma was home, and the buns were still warm. Between bites, I told her everything. She was ready for me. "No Santa Claus!" she snorted. "Ridiculous! Don't believe it. That rumor has been going around for years, and it makes me mad, plain mad. Now, put on your coat, and let's go." "Go? Go where, Grandma?" I asked. I hadn't even finishe

Transitioning
Well I have two weeks left in the Army, I just can't wait. Its time for me to move on and get a normal life I guess. Over the past eight years my life has been up and down, going form place to place. I believe its time to settle down and enjoy a regular job!

Santa Joke
T'was the night before Christmas--Old Santa was pissed. He cussed out the elves and threw down his list. Miserable little brats, ungrateful little jerks. I have a good mind to scrap the whole works! I've busted my ass for damn near a year, Instead of "Thanks Santa"--what do I hear? The old lady bitches cause I work late at night. The elves want more money--The reindeer all fight. Rudolph got drunk and goosed all the maids. Donner is pregnant and Vixen has AIDS. And just when I thought that things would get better Those assholes from the IRS sent me a letter, They say I owe taxes--if that ain't damn funny Who the hell ever sent Santa Claus any money? And the kids these days--they all are the pits They want the impossible--Those mean little shits I spent a whole year making wagons and sleds. Assembling dolls...Their arms, legs and heads I made a ton of yo yo's--No request for them, They want computers and robots...they think - I'm IBM! Flying through the air..

Just To Let You Know
its cobras friend just to let everyone know that cobra should be home by wed night thurs morning, he wanted me to keep his friends posted, so if you could think of him it would be appreciated, he is thinkin of all of you, thanks for the thoughts he knows who you are, thanks

What Does Friendship Mean To You?
The old man turned to me and asked "How many friends have you?" Why 10 or 20 friends have I, And named off just a few... He rose quite slow with effort And sadly shook his head "A lucky child you are To have so many friends," he said But think of what you're saying There is so much you do not know A friend is just not someone To whom you say "Hello" A friends a tender shoulder On which to softly cry A well to pour your troubles down And raise your spirits high A friend is a hand to pull you up From darkness and despair... When all your other "so called" friends Have helped to put you there A true friend is an ally Who can't be moved or bought A voice to keep your name alive When others have forgot But most of all a friend is a heart A strong and sturdy wall For from the hearts of friends There comes the greatest love of all!!! So think of what I've spoken For every word is true And answer once again my child Ho

Defeated
So I just got home from my 2nd real day at work. The first 15 minutes into my shift, I was yelled at by some angry man. Another customer asked me a quick question about a DVD he was thinking of renting...So I helped him real quick and the other man told me I was a horrible employee, that I need to work on my customer service skills and that he would report me to the manager. We were totally slammed up there.. There were alot of ppl waiting, plus there was someone else working with me who was dealing with people... Anyway, I work at the customer service desk at Safeway (major grocery store)... I can do transactions like these: -Money Orders -Western Union (both recieve and sending) -Cash checks (certain types) -Return/exhange purchases -Redeem or sale Lotto/Quinto etc there is way too many fucking lottery things these days, I don't understand it, I've bever even bought a lotto ticket in my life! -Sale of cigarettes -Movie/DVD rentals -General customer bitching/complaints/pr

Vote ....for Hottest Tattoo!!!!!!
Please come vote for me Voting is now open!!!! Vote as many times as you like. Comments also also count towards determing the winner. enjoy yourself http://cherrytap.com/images.php?u=307703&albumid=133535

Our Blessed Love
Every bit of our blessed love Brings warmth to my heart Because you, my special I knew it from the start You give me a reason The joy of each day Waking up each morning Without a delay I think of what you might be doing As early as it might be The sun shining through The branches of a tree Reaching my window The light seems so bright Bringing life to the flowers Breaking the night My thoughts start wandering As they often do But most of my thoughts Are centered on you I think about the future And what it will be Me holding you And you holding me Hand in hand No matter the weather Our love will shine As WE face life together This is the way Our life WILL be The roots are planted And growing like a tree The only way to go Is up and out I love you very much There is no doubt So I'll keep watering this tree A plant of love It will keep growing High and above I'll finish my thoughts And finish this poem Thinking each morni

True Power Of Belief And Prayer
Three years ago, a little boy and his grandmother came to see Santa at Mayfair Mall in Wisconsin . The child climbed up on his lap, holding a picture of a little girl. "Who is this?" asked Santa, smiling. "Your friend? Your sister?" "Yes, Santa," he replied. "My sister, Sarah, is very sick," he said sadly. Santa glanced over at the grandmother who was waiting nearby, and saw her dabbing her eyes with a tissue. "She wanted to come with me to see you, oh, so very much, Santa!" the child exclaimed. "She misses you," he added softly. Santa tried to be cheerful and encouraged a smile to the boy's face, asking him what he wanted Santa to bring him for Christmas. When they finished their visit, the Grandmother came over to help the child off his lap, and started to say omething to Santa, but halted. "What is it?" Santa asked warmly. "Well, I know it's re ally too much to ask you, Santa, but ....." the old woman began, shooing he

What Is A Friendship Box?
Printer Friendly Version Comment on Article -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Into a box of friendship To insure that it is strong First a layer of respect On the bottom does belong Then to the sides attach In the corners where they meet Several anchors full of trust Devoid of all deceit The height of friendship can be measured By the sides of four So make them all a larger cut And the box will hold much more Now fill it up with courtesy Honor and esteem Understanding, sympathy And passion for a dream Add to that your honesty Emotions joy and love And since they're so important Place them up above But leave the box wide open So all can see inside To learn what makes a friendship work From the box you built with pride

Feelin Lots Better
Okay, I was a little harsh to guys that last blog I put in, but just to make sure all of you understand... I have been through so much lately that I am somewhat hostile to guys. To all the guys, don't take it personally, unless you are any of my exes! LOL! Mainly my Ex-Husband! I feel somuch better now that I have vented and gotten out of town for the weekend. I have some really good friends to hang with that make me feel better: Randa, Missy, Heather, Kyle, Powder, Melissa, and most of the time Eric. Don't take anything I say about guys personal. Just being and angry bitter bitch. LOL! I am a female and our hormones are FUCKED up! Can you actually make those stop without becoming a guy?! I hope to meet lots of new people on here! I am always up for new things!

Downrating Part Ii
The person who downrated my blog told me why he did it. He thought I had blocked him. I guess for some reason I had accidently had that setting on that anyone in my family blocks someone than that person is blocked. It was accidental. Unlike my other "friends" who tried to get ahold of me other ways (sending a bulliten or a gift) he downrated my blog. I let him know, that I did NOT intentionally block him and he changed my rating of my blog. I am wondering tho, do I truely want this person as a friend? Instead of trying to get ahold of me to let me know my settings were "wacked" like my other friends did, he did something impulsive and to me kinda of mean. What are your thoughts? Oh, he also said he downrated me, because I said I was thinking of leaving CT. Is that a reason to DOWNRATE you. Because you are sharing your opinion? And if you are being downrated because you are thinking of leaving then maybe he shouldn't be my friend then, as it is obvious he doesn't w

Monkfish Kebabs
INGREDIENTS * 8 (8-inch) bamboo skewers * 2 tablespoons extra virgin olive oil * 2 tablespoons fresh lemon juice * 1 tablespoon chopped fresh cilantro leaves, plus 4 sprigs, for garnish * 1 teaspoon ground cumin * 1 teaspoon kosher salt * 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper * 1/2 teaspoon minced fresh garlic * 2 pounds fresh monkfish, cut into 1-1/2 inch squares * 1 green bell pepper, seeded and cut into 1-1/2 inch squares * 8 ounces whole small button mushrooms * 1 lemon, cut into wedges, optional, for garnish METHOD Soak 8 bamboo skewers in water for 30 minutes to 1 hour. This will keep them from burning later.) Whisk together the oil, lemon juice, cilantro, cumin, salt, pepper, and garlic in a bowl. Transfer the marinade to the plastic bag with the monkfish cubes and shake to combine. Refrigerate for at least 30 minutes and up to 2 hours. Preheat a grill or grill pan to high. Remove the fish cube

Crab Casserole
INGREDIENTS * 4 tablespoons butter, divided * 1 cup chopped onion * 1 cup chopped celery * 1 (8 ounce) package fresh mushrooms, sliced * 2 cups prepared herb stuffing mix, divided * 3/4 cup milk, divided * 1 (8-ounce) can water chestnuts, drained and sliced * 2 cups mayonnaise * 1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce or to taste * Liberal dash of Tabasco Pepper Sauce * 1-1/2 pounds lump crabmeat METHOD In a heavy saucepan melt 2 tablespoons butter and sauté onion, celery, and mushrooms until soft. Set aside. Soften 1 cup of stuffing mix with 1/2 cup milk. Stir in vegetables and water chestnuts. Thin mayonnaise with remaining milk and Worcestershire sauce. Add to mixture and season with Tabasco sauce. Fold in crabmeat. Spoon mixture into a 2 quart buttered casserole dish. Sprinkle remaining stuffing mix over the top and dot with remaining butter; preheat oven to 375 degrees and bake about 45 minutes or until golden

Crab And Shrimp Étouffée (a Cajun Recipe)
INGREDIENTS * 1/2 cup (1 stick) butter * 1/3 cup all-purpose flour * 2 cups chopped yellow onions * 1 rib celery, chopped * 2 large garlic cloves, peeled * 13 cup seeded and chopped red bell peppers * 1/3 cup seeded and chopped green bell peppers * 1 cup water * 2 pounds medium-size shrimp, peeled and deveined * 1 1/4 teaspoons salt * 1 teaspoon Tabasco brand garlic pepper sauce * 1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper * 1/4 cup chopped green onions (green and white parts) * 1/4 cup chopped fresh parsley leaves * 2 pounds jumbo lump crabmeat, picked over for shells and cartilage * Hot cooked long-grain white rice METHOD In a large, heavy pot, over medium-low heat, melt the butter, then add the flour. Stirring often, cook until the foam subsides and the mixture turns a golden color, like sandpaper, 10 to 12 minutes. Add the yellow onions, celery, and garlic. Cook, stirring often, until soft and gol

Baby Clams & Shrimp In A Coconut-curry Brodetto
INGREDIENTS * 1 tablespoon olive oil * 1 small shallot, minced * 2 cloves garlic, minced * 1 (15-ounce) can coconut milk * 2 cups bottled clam juice * Juice of 1 lime * 1 tablespoon Madras curry powder * Salt and freshly ground black pepper * 2 pounds baby clams in the shell * 1 pound large shrimp (21 to 30 per pound), peeled and deveined, tails on * 1 pint cherry tomatoes, halved * 1 small bunch cilantro, stemmed and coarsely chopped METHOD In a large cast-iron skillet, heat he olive oil over medium-low heat. Add the shallot and garlic and saute for about 5 minutes, or until golden brown. Add the coconut milk, clam juice, and lime juice, stirring to combine thoroughly. Heat until bubble and thick, about 10 minutes, then add the curry powder and season with salt and pepper. Add the clams. When they begin to open, about 2 to 3 minutes, add the shrimp. Cook for 2 to 3 minutes more, until the shrimp have turned pi

Who'd A Thunk It?
image00128.gif According to the Alaska Department of Fish and Game, while both male and female reindeer grow antlers in the summer each year, male reindeer drop their antlers at the beginning of winter, usually late November to mid-December. Female reindeer retain their antlers till after they give birth in the spring. Therefore, according to EVERY historical rendition depicting Santa's reindeer, EVERY single one of them, from Rudolph to Blitzen, had to be a girl. We should've known... ONLY women would be able to drag a fat man in a red velvet suit all around the world in one night and not get lost. . .

Doctor's Appointments....
Okay, so normally I do not have both the kids at the same time for a doctor's checkup but this time I thought it would be best to get both of their appointments knocked out at the same time. Okay, so I learned my lesson from this because I will never do it again. Sammy was the best of the two though when it came to seeing the doctor. She was very good and listened very well. But the jake-myster was nothing but good, however. He thru the biggest fit with his checkup. He does not like anyone touching him but me or anyone else he knows on a personal basis. So, I was fortunate enough to have my father there with me to help calm the boy down a bit but even my dad was getting tired of Jake's actions. On top of that, both Jake and Sam have a bad cough and cold. So they had to get checked out for that too. The just have a little infection though...the doctor gave me some medicine for that however. Then the doctor asks me if I live in an area where there are smokers. I told him "yes

Sea Scallops Sauteed With A Saffron Cream In A Pumpkin Squash Cup
INGREDIENTS * 8 mini pumpkins large enough to hold 4 large scallops * 32 large sea scallops (diver hand-picked quality) * 3 cups chardonnay * 4 tablespoons shallots, minced * 2 tablespoons garlic, minced * 4 lemons,juiced and zested * 1 cup scallions, 1/4" chopped * 3 cups heavy cream * 1 teaspoon saffron, crushed * 1 teaspoon sea salt * 1/2 teaspoon white pepper * 1/2 cup pumpkin seeds, toasted and seasoned (reserve for garnish) METHOD Cut the tops off the pumpkins, just like you would to carve a jack-o-lantern. Using a sturdy spoon, scrape the insides clean. Set aside until you are ready to warm in the oven. Warm the pumpkin tops and bottoms in the oven at 250 degrees as you begin to prepare the sea scallops In a large saucepan over high heat, reduce the chardonnay to 2 tablespoons. It will be a golden color with a tart rich flavor. Add the garlic, shallots, zest, lemon juice, salt, pepper, and crushed saffr

Chef Gordon Ramsay's Trout With A Lemon & Caviar Sabayon
INGREDIENTS * 2 trout (preferably wild), about 2 1/4 pounds each * 2 large globe artichokes * A squeeze of lemon juice * A little olive oil for frying * 1 tablespoon butter * Sea salt and freshly ground black pepper Sabayon * 6 egg yolks * 1 teaspoon lemon juice * Grated zest of 1 small lemon * 1 tablespoon Osietra caviar METHOD Fillet the trouts, leaving the skin on. (Or ask your fish merchant to do this.) Check the flesh for pinbones with your fingertips and pull out with tweezers or thin pliers. Score the skin several times in even cuts using the tip of a razor-sharp knife. Set aside. Cut off the artichoke stalks, pull off the leaves, trim the bases, and cut out the hairy choke. Cook the bottoms in boiling salted water with a good squeeze of lemon juice for about 15 minutes. Drain and cool, then cut into diamonds or slices. Fry the pieces of artichoke in a little oil and butter until nicely browned. Drain and keep wa

Seared Fingers Of Striped Bass
INGREDIENTS * 3 teaspoons olive oil * 1-1/2 teaspoons ground coriander * 1/4 teaspoon ground cumin * 2 garlic cloves, crushed * Pinch of crushed red pepper * Zest and juice of 1/2 lemon * 1 pound striped bass or tilapia fillets, cut into 8 strips * Salt and freshly ground black pepper * 1 teaspoon unsalted butter (optional) METHOD Combine 1 teaspoon of the olive oil, the coriander, cumin, garlic, red pepper, and lemon zest. Coat the fish with this mixture; marinate, refrigerated, 45 minutes. Scrape excess marinade from the fillets; season with salt and pepper. Heat a nonstick skillet over high heat. Add the remaining 2 teaspoons olive oil (it should shimmer, but not smoke). Add the fish to the pan skin side up. Add the butter (if using) to aid in browning. Sear the fillets without moving them, until browned, about 2 minutes. Turn; cook until done, about 1 minute more. Remove from heat; splash in the lemon juice.Serves: 4 as a l

My Reply To A Sex Appl. Bulletin By The Stallion
The Stallion date: 2006-12-05 15:21:55 subject: sex application submission, bigboy read receipt: Yes read: Yes replied: No block user 1. Your Name: You can call me whatever you like. 2. Age: Wait, if i remember correctly, what turns you on are 12 year old boys. 3. Favorite position (s) ? You on the ground with your legs spread and your hands behind your head. Me standing over you with a loaded pistol aimed at your back. 4. Do you think i'm hot? You must be, i always see you sweating for no apparent reason. 5. Would you have sex with me? Only if i had AIDs or something would it be worth it. 6. lights on or off? Anything that involves you're being present is better with the lights off... and with a clothes-pin over my nose. 7. Would you have to be drunk? If drunk were the horizon, i'd have to be whatever you'd be after circumnavigating the globe, and almost returning to exactly where i started. 8. Would you take a shower with me? Shower? Is th

12 Steps For The Web
A Twelve Step Program for the Web 1. I will have a cup of coffee in the morning and read my newspaper like I used to, before the Web. 2. I will eat breakfast with a knife and fork and not with one hand typing. 3. I will get dressed before noon. 4. I will make an attempt to clean the house, wash the dog, get the kids off to school, and all before even thinking of the Web. 5. I will sit down and write a letter to those unfortunate few friends and family that are Web-deprived. 6. I will call someone on the phone that I cannot contact via the Web. 7. I will read a book...if I still remember how. 8. I will listen to those around me and their needs and stop telling them to turn the TV down so I can hear the music on the Web. 9. I will not be tempted during TV commercials to check for email. 10. I will try and get out of the house at least once a week, if it's necessary or not. 11. I will remember that my bank is not forgiving if I forget to balance my checkbook because I was too b

O_o
things happen,people change, lives get lived words get said that shouldnt be said somethings unsaid that shouldnt be heart ache, heart break these all are a part of life you live, you grow, you stumble, you stand tall I love you all of you differing degreees of said love but you all deserve it.. except you .. no, not you, YOU with that hat on yea you

Meeting Of Two Souls
sitting here looking out the window wishing,wanting what is it that makes it all worth it where can i find it what price do i have to pay i need it it's soo cold without darkness has settled where is the way out how can i find what i need as i grow weary my eyes begin to close i feel it i see you somehow it all feels right never met you i feel we belong how is this possible can it be true can two souls seek another can the travels past reveal the hearts desire all in a matter of a few brief words my soul revealed its desire the moment you neared me

The Mask's We Wear
See her painted smile Glazed eye's unblinking Serenity’s victim Her image mirrored Society’s lost and abandoned Unable to feel Expression long lost We see her mask And accept Never questioning her choice Never daring to look beneath Leaving the pain where it is comfortable Behind the mask's we wear

Life
AnLOVE starts with a SMILE, grows with a KISS, and ends with a TEAR. DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. ACTIONS speak louder than words. The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. DON'T let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. LIFE'S SHORT. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE. Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it. BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it HURTS to look back, and you're SCARED to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there. TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS. Friends are FOREVER. Good friends are like STARS You don't always see them, but you know the

Thaks To All....
Just wanted to say thanks to you ALL that have just read my latest blug. It shows to me, that i have REAL friends on here, an im glad. If i havnt added you to my "Family list" once im abble to, i Will. If you allready on it, there is a reason, you are, an it means alot to me.

Muppet Personality
Blame Scotty for these! I do. :) You Are Miss Piggy A total princess and diva, you're totally in charge - even if people don't know it. You want to be loved, adored, and worshiped. And you won't settle for anything less. You're going to be a total star, and you won't let any of the "little people" get in your way. Just remember, piggy, never eat more than you can lift! The Muppet Personality Test

Love Style
Your Love Style is Agape You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. What's Your Love Style?

You Know You Are Living In 2006 When...
1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave. 2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years. 3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3. 4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you. 5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses. 6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries. 7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen. 8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it. 10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee. 11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : ) 12. You're reading this and nodding and laughing. 13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forw

Forget Me
The reality is... you dont see me .. the love you share, you share it freely.. My love condemed.. one soul to find... your love for me' a waste of time.. My thoughts towards actions, your motions your reactions.. To much in this world is surpassed.. it hides the devotion that you could create in a world once blind.. that you once had with me when you took the time.. Forget me, like you always do Forget the ways I make you swoon Forget me know, my heart left shattered Forget the goddess you left battered Erase the memories, the seconds of time I will never look back there is nothing to find.

Inner Peace
The Symptoms of Inner Peace! Some signs and symptoms of inner peace: A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than on fears based on past experiences. An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment. A loss of interest in judging other people. A loss of interest in judging self. A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others. A loss of interest in conflict. A loss of the ability to worry. (This is a very serious symptom.) Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation. Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature. Frequent attacks of smiling. An increasing tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen. An increased susceptibility to the love extended by others as well as the uncontrollable urge to extend it. Author Unknown There are two kinds of people: givers and takers. The takers eat better, but the givers sleep better. Unknown

Count Your Blessings
Count Your Blessings When upon life's billows you are tempest tossed, When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost, Count your many blessings, name them one by one, And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done. Refrain Count your blessings, name them one by one, Count your blessings, see what God hath done! Count your blessings, name them one by one, And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done. Are you ever burdened with a load of care? Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear? Count your many blessings, every doubt will fly, And you will keep singing as the days go by. Refrain When you look at others with their lands and gold, Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold; Count your many blessings. Wealth can never buy Your reward in heaven, nor your home on high. Refrain So, amid the conflict whether great or small, Do not be disheartened, God is over all; Count your many blessings, angels will attend, Help and comfort give

Sick Of All The Maliciousness And
OK I am getting SICK AND FREAKIN TIRED of all the "That **** is fake" back and forth bulletin comments i see floating around.. and it seems to be from basically TWO members. (and i think we all know which two...) Quite frankly....I don't CARE if someone has a fake pic up.. what diff should it make? They will eventually get caught and have to explain the egg on their faces. Come on people, its the friggin INTERNET for god sakes. Give me a freakin break!! This has gotten flippin pathetic. If you don't LIKE someone on here... Just fucking BLOCK THEM. Quit acting like a bunch of goddamned 4 year olds and just leave it alone already!! Also, if i get ONE MORE damned bulletin posting on my page that says if i do not do something, or if I do not repost something I will be deleted.... I am gonna flip a bloody gasket! DELETE ME *** right now *** if you are sending these. I will vote for who I want, IF i want to do so, NOONE is going to ORDER me to do it!!!!!!! Frankly I dont vote i

This Blonde Needs Ur Vote!!!
CUMMON GUYS, THIS BLONDE NEEDS YOUR VOTE! PLEASE GO VOTE FOR ME FOR THE SEXIEST NON TOP CHERRY CONTEST AND LEAVE A SMALL COMMENT. U CAN VOTE AS MANY TIMES AS U WANT. PLEASE PASS THIS ON TO ALL UR FRIENDS, FAMILY AND FANS..THIS 40 YR OLD NEEDS ALL THE HELP SHE CAN GET TO WIN THE SEXIEST NON TOP CHERRY CONTEST. TY HUN MWAHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.......HERE IS THE LINK TO GO VOTE http://www.cherrytap.com/bulletins.php?b=3850497396

Go With The Flow
Go With The Flow If the sky above seems cloudy And you are left out in the rain If you are searching for a rainbow But the colors bring you pain If your world is not revolving And there is no end in sight If you are looking for the sunshine But all you see is night If all around are smiling But all you can do is frown If you are tired of all this living When life just brings you down Then look beyond your teardrops At the wonders of this land The beauty of a flower Like velvet in your hand. Feel the air around you The smell of new mown hay Laughing children in the park The innocence there at play Imagine floating with a butterfly As she flutters between the trees Or the whispers of the ocean On warm hot summer's breeze Think of the taste of candy floss As it melts upon your tongue Or the melody of morning birds As they greet each day with song Remember words of beauty Told in your mother's embrace Feel the gentleness of her touch As s

Protestors.... Come Read This You Idiots
I was in my regular chat room today. we were talking about killeen texas.. home of ft hood.. as most of you know i support my troops 100%... then i mentioned i would like to go see the new Memorial Cementary they have up there.. well come to find out the PROTESTORS, have been there when there is a funeral on the other side of the road, the gates... protesting... what the fuck can you protest to those men and women who have died? what gives you the fuckin right to sit there and do that? OH IT WAS THAT SOLDIER THAT DIED FOR YOU FREEDOM OF SPEECH.. which you abuse terribly.. It is the SOLDIERS who gives you the right to protest whatever. you can agree/disagree with the war... but actually going to the site where they have their final resting place? going to a funeral where people are mourning a loved one to protest the war? havent those people endured enough without you going there starting shit? IT IS THE MOST DISRESPECTFUL THING KNOWN TO MAN. They fight to keep your freedom of speech..

What A Week/mth
Well this past week has been VERY Streefull from me. LAst Thursday night i went in to work, an found out that i was on "indefinet supention" PC word...in engilsh it means i was fired. So the next day i went in to work to talk w/my boss and he said "come back tuseday an we will talk" Long story short, Tusday is here, an i went in to talk to my boss, begged for me job back, took a hit for 3days off, an i go back to work tonight. Latey i have been under alot of stress an well it rolled over to work an i know i should leave outside stress outside, an only have work stress at work. Everyone has stress, some handal it well. I thought i was but guess not. I uesally keep it in an deal w/it n my own way, but it somehow slips out. (not goin to bore you w/it) but wish life came w/a rule book/guideline what ever, so i knew what was goin to happen.

I Got To Hear From David Today!!!
Yeah i got to talk to him online today.. it was such a relief to know he is doing good and all. he is in the intense part of all the fighting. in babquah.. however you spell that f**ked countries cities.. since there isnt much to do he has been working out and as he tells me " i am becoming buff" he said he been writing a book, and thought about doing a film.. he has thought about the name of the company and all.. then he asked me if i wanted to go out with him this friday night... i started laughin then it turned into tears.. (i know all of them have asked friends, girlfriends, wives, finacees and i am more than sure they asked them that question.) it is funny.. i know but being over here knowing that u dont know what is going to happen or if you will ever see that person again. its hard.. he got offline and got back in line so he could talk to me some more.. crazy guy.. but it was all worth it, tears, support, love, everything just to hear them say hi.. it is always worth

December 5th, 2006
As of this last Sunday it was recommended that I go back on my birth control patches to get back to normal....I remember when I was waiting for the right time to get off of them and now I am back on them but I get the feeling that they are working. I am starting to feel a little bit more normal again. I still cry sometimes and miss my baby. I made a little place in the house dedicated to the baby on an onld fashioned dresser and I have promised myself to take it down by the first of the year or when I am pregnant...whichever comes first. I want to remember this but I dont want to drag it out for too long. I think that I am already starting to let it all go. I didnt go in for my blood draw yesterday or today. I am gonna wait as long as I can before it drives me crazy and I NEED to know my numbers. Maybe I will go tomorrow. Thanks to those that keep following this with me.

Pride
I don't think the American Indian has to go into the service to survive. I think they go because they want to. I think they go because they are super patriots. I mean, any pow-wow you go to, the American flag, after all the American government has done to Indian people, the American flag is still there. Always. You always see it there. I think any war the United States fights, there'll be Indians in a high ratio involved in it, in the actual fighting. Jerald Lytle One of the things that the Vietnam experience has done for me, I guess, probably the most profound experience, is that it's given me an attitude that I've never had before. It's not that this country owes me anything or anything like that. What it's done is solidified my place in this country. I don't have to take a back seat to nobody now. I paid my dues. I was talking to my son the other day. And I asked him if he wanted to go into the service. He shook his head. And that's all right. I told him that. Because I paid his

I Want To Go Back
I want to go back To a time long ago when things moved slow Before, we raced to our grave Long before, we had a microwave You wave at everyone you know We listened to music on A.M. radio We took our dates to a drive in Hopped in the back after the movie begin We waited all year for the holiday's For the snow to fall, to take out our sleighs The first virgin snow to fall on a winter's ground I can still see it in my mind falling without a sound We hold these thoughts so close in our memory Of how simple life used to be. We try and vision what will be Try as we might, still can't see Will, my day become a memory in a year or two. Only Tomorrow know's, it holds the clue. Yesterday is history, and tomorrow is a mystery. It's better not to ponder over the past, nor long for what's to be. The future is not promised to you nor to me. Maybe, it's by grasping each minute of the day, lingering slowly, before they pass away. The days of our past and the days

Hardcore
The first time I went to Vietnam I was nineteen years old. I turned twenty in Vietnam. And that was really the most hazardous tour of duty in Vietnam because I did see a lot of action and I spent a lot of time as an infantry trooper. And I saw a lot of people die that first time in Vietnam. And it hardened me. It hardened me to the point where I didn't believe in a lot of things I had been taught to believe in. The goodness of man and God, and trust, things like that. That first tour in Vietnam destroyed a lot of things in me. Jerald Lytle The reason I suffered delayed stress was- well, we had a phrase in the Marine Corps. It was called hard core. It was a compliment if you were hard core. But it had a negative effect when you came home because up until that period in my life I hadn't experienced any intense emotions other than fear. I hadn't experienced grief, intense hate, intense love, or anything like that. And in the Marine Corps, to some degree, you try to suppress those emoti

News Come And Check Me Out
hey to all my friends i got some news as of yesterday. i was accepted into a writing school and i will be able to write books for children. im excited. come by check me out whoever reads this. ill see ya later leave some comments thanks

Help Those In Need!!!
Its that time of year to be thankful for what you have and help those less fortunate. My Great Grandfather was a Minister for the Salvation Army for many years. To honor him and all those Good People who stad out in the cold and ring those bells We at Club Illusia set up an Online Red Kettle to Help raise money for the Salvation Army. ALL DONATIONS GO DIRECTLY TO THE SALVATION ARMY NOT INTO A PERSONL ACCOUNT!!! Please...In the Spirit of the Holidays...Help Those who need it the most! Click on the pic to donate Money to the Club Illusia Kettle for the Salvation Army!! *Ringing Bell*

Post Traumatic Stress
All societies recognize this. If you are going to send someone off to war. there is an unwritten contract that you are going to bring these people home with honor and respect. And it's always happened in this country. Except with the Vietnam war. The frustration of the war fell upon the vet himself. They turned out to be the bad guys. That's why there is the magnitude of problems among the Vietnam vets. And why the problems have persisted for so long. Harold Barse I think a lot of times we didn't know where to go with our problems, our frustrations, and our searching for answers. Indian vets are no different than anyone else. I went to Nam out of curiosity. I wasn't there for any particular patriotic reason, but when I came back, I suffered from what I know now as delayed stress. I just thought it was growing pains or whatever. I didn't have a name for it. I just felt rotten. Grady Renville When I first got back, I had a lot of anger in me and I don't know why. I understood mor

Leaving!!!!!!!!
i'm leaving here this cherrytap turning into another myspace is a bunch of shit so in the next couple of days i'll be completely gone from here and the ones thats on my friends list now, if u want to stay in touch just send me something in the next couple of days and i'll give u my yahoo name and we can chat there anytime without someone monitoring who or what i'm looking at i'm a grown man i can make my decisions without somebody that don't even know me telling me what i can see and not see so i hope that my friends will give me a holler and want my yahoo name to chat with me, its been fun but it ain't been real damn fun..

Warrior Tradition
I was named by my great grandfather when I was a child. I was blessed by him and given a name. It means "the little warrior". He told my mother that I would be the one to carry on our tradition as a warrior. So it's been more or less since birth that I've been kind of destined to served in a war. Ed Yava Many of the Indian tribes had warriors dances, soldier dances, peyote meetings, prayer meetings, feasts, or something along those lines to prepare the individuals to go. The bullet-proofing ceremony for some tribes. And he's given recognition and honor when he leaves. We did a survey and it looks like forty per cent of the Indians had some kind of tribal recognition or feast or something, going or coming home. That's forty per cent. So there's sixty per cent who didn't have anything for themselves. Their family didn't have the money to provide something like this, or maybe the family wasn't a traditional family.

What We Need In Our Lives
Calmness in our lives I am passing this on to you because it definitely works, and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple advice heard on the Dr. Phil show, you too can find inner peace. Dr. Phil proclaimed, "The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you've started and never finished." So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of Jameson, a bottle of Bailey's Irish Cream, a bottle of Scotch, a package of Oreos, the remainder of my old Prozac prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freaking good I feel. Please pass this on to those you feel might be in need of inner peace.

The 5 Deadly Sexys
A Public Service Annoucement For All Women This is PSA is for women of all shapes and sizes! It's to be used as a training device to control your man. Let's not waste anytime, shall we? I KNOW I AM sexy: This is pretty self explaintory. This is the woman that is so confident that she is the hottest thing in the room - that she turns out to be the hottest thing in the room. She oozes out of every pore in her body an attraction that men notice. Everybody gets a taste of her eye contact. She dares you (in a non-verbal way) to ignore her - but you can't and the more attention she gets the sexier she gets. She's not working the attention she OWNS the attention. That and you. I'M WORKING sexy: This is the woman on the dance flooor seducing her prey with grinding hips, soft gentle sways, and direct eyesa contact. This is the woman with the puppy dog eyes and pouting lips. This is the woman with the fluttering eyelashes, with the "I'm so innocent" look. In any case, body language is

Don't Take It Personal My Ass!
You know, I am really tired of peopl telling me to not take things personally. What am I Monica? How else am I supposed to take things? Ya know I can read: a person's body language looks between the lines the underlying message I'm not an expert BUT I'M DAMN GOOD AT IT!! I'm simple -" what you see is what you get" kinda girl. And I know how I wanna be treated. I don't follow the whole "treat other as U wanna be treated" for everyone cuz I know (family, friend or foe) they'll probably treat me like shit. But there are certain people that I treat with respect. Some of these peopl don't deserve it, tho I continue to do so cuz U never know whom U may need. Then there are the those that get the FUCK YOU message Gremlin left. Then there are the ones that I'm so indifferent to that it doesn't really matter. But they all say the same thing, "Don't take it personal." How About This: Don't fuck me just to fuck me over. Hell I've got toys to do that. No? okay...... How About This:

A Gremlin Rant
You know there are some ppl in your life that you come to realize are "toxic friends". These are the ppl that drain you, and are always negative no matter what good new s you bring. You could win the damn lottery and these ppl point out how much taxes you get to pay, and how long before you get your first check. Then there are the "friends" that you call, you send letters to, you email, you text message. You do everything that you can do, to contact them, and they are nowhere to be find. You COULD quite possibly NEED them, and they aren't anywhere around. And then when you finally have given up on them they call, with some half assed, lame exscue about how busy they were. THEN they wanna know how you are. Do you really expect to be told after 3 months have gone by? Hell, how STUPID would you feel if I decided that suicide was a better friend than you? These are the people I say fuck you to. Let me say that again..... FUCK YOU. You are not frie

Coming Home
Indian people have always respected their vets. It's never made any difference with the politics of the war. They recognize these people who have done a sacrifice for them. When they serve, they are serving for their people. And that's who they do it for. And Indians recognize this. So when they come home, they come home with honor and dignity. Not like many of the non-Indians who came home to outright hostility. Yet, that does not keep you from having the problems. Indians are human beings, too. Traumatic events are traumatic for us as well as the for a non-Indian.The only thing Indian people do, is, they recognize this. Indian people have recognized that war changes people. For centuries and centuries and centuries, they've known this. So when you send a person to war, something happens to him out there. But- they are not held in any low esteem. It's recognized that- these people did something that is completely against the law of the universe. They stepped into total turmoil, disrup

Better Then I Used To Be
BETTER THEN I USED TO BE MY HAIRS A LITTLE GRAYER THEN IT USED TO BE INOW WHERE READING GLASSES TO SEE I'VE GOT A WRINKLE OR TWO UPON MY FACE I HAVE TO PUT POST IT NOTES ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT, I'M A LOT MORE MELLOW IN MY MIND I'M NOT AS MEAN AND A LOT MORE KIND ALL THE THINGS THAT'VE PASSED BEFORE MY EYES I NOW KNOW, THEY WERE BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE EVERY DAYS A MIRACLE, EVERY DAYS A GIFT I NOW SHARE MY SMILE TO SOMEONE TO GIVE THEM A LIFT NOW IN MY LIFE, THERE'S LOVE INSTEAD OF HATE I'VE LEARNED TO BUILD A BRIDGE OF UNDERSTANDING AND TO TOLERATE I'M TRYING TO CLOSE THE GAP OVERLOOKING THE COLOR OF SKIN LOOKING INSTEAD TO THE SOUL THAT LIES WITHIN A THOUGHT HAS OCCURED TO ME I'M NOT AS GOOD AS I ONCE WAS BUT, I'M AS GOOD AS I'LL EVER BE CHRIS

Need To Improve My Status
I have pictures of the World's Greatest Ass, but I hit my pic limit, could you help me increase my status by rating me or my pictures and as a reward, you will see the best behind your eye's ever focused on.

It's Raining Men - Seems The Waters Are A Tad Muddy
I've lost faith in men. Ok I never really HAD faith in men, but now it's more "official". Why is it the cute guy, who has a kid, and a wife feels the need to cheat? Well, I'll tell you why....cuz men (if nothing) are stupid. Fellas, please do not marry someone if you don't love them. Please don't marry someone "for the sake of the kids". These are the 2 biggest bullshit reasons for the M word to take place. First of all if you do marry someone for the sake of the kids, all they are gonna see is that mommy and daddy don't love each other. And chances are that if a man and woman don't love each other in marriage, they are mostly likely gonna cheat. Which then shows your child that cheating is ok. AGAIN - not the message we wanna send to our kids. You don't have to be married to your baby's momma, in order to be a dad. Remeber when you cheat you're not just cheating on you're wife. You're cheating on you're kid too. WoW, what's it like to cheat on 3 things (wife , kid, family) all at

Native American Vietnam Veterans
Native Americans have one of the highest record of service in the Vietnam era conflict, per capita, of any ethnic group. A majority of these men enlisted, and a disproportional number served in combat positions: in infantry regiments, tank battalions, airborne and airmobile units, and artillery batteries. At first glance, these statistics might seem surprising. After all, historically, the U.S. military took Native land by force, and wiped out a generation of Indian warriors. Paradoxically, however, the recruitment of Native Americans had been as much a federal policy as Indian removal. Indians were recruited to fight with American forces against the British and the French. Native American served in the Revolutionary War and the War of 1812, and were recruited by both sides in the Civil War. A much more powerful and persistant reason for the record of service, is that, in fact, many Indian veterans think of their modern warfare experience in terms of much older traditions. For

Anyone Please
Now i know not everyone is blessedwith double DD's but - could someone PLEASE explain to me the why a woman who is (painfully obvious) not out of the t shirt wearing stage of life is wearing a bra? I understand that water bras help the less fortunate alittle, but I mean if you're all tip of the nip why are you wearing anything at all? Ladies if gravity is not your enemy why....WHY are you wearing something? Case in point, female comes in making the tables jealous. I guess she's trying to be sexy or hot (failing but trying all the same) cuz she's got these big Fendi sunglasses on and a pair of hip huggers. She suffered from the Noassatall disease, so the jeans kinda looked baggy. She wore a see thru shirt as well. And a bra. A really really pretty bra. Why am I staring at this woman's boobs (or lack of.)? Cuz it was really pretty bra. Hell I would have worn it. but since the shirt was see thru you could see the TAPE on the bra that held it in place. Ladies if you have to tape your b

Austin Marine Laid To Rest - Corporal Michael Craig Ledsome
Austin's KVUE television posted an excellent story about him on the website called, Austin Marine Laid to Rest. With more than 400 mourners in attendance, including Chuck Murphy, one of the many Patriot Guard Riders in attendance, who stated that: "For us, it's not about the politics; it's... this Marine to protect our Constitution. Our Constitution allows us to have the life that we enjoy in this country that's enough reason for us to be here. He died for all of us." Isn't that just a great quote???

Competition Results
Thank you to everyone who gave me their support for my competition. Well, overall in the drug-free competition, I ended up 5th. They figured this on ratios of how much the person weighs compared to what they lifted. I squatted 578, benched 385, and deadlifted 523... all personal records for me in competition. I weighed in at 162.25lbs. Overall out of everyone in my weight class, I had the best total. It was good meet, and I'll be competing again in the spring at National's to try and qualify for the World's. Thanks again. :)

If
If U have a kid that's A.D.D then why the FUCK would you give him a cup of sugar to eat? Like it was just food to eat, a fucking cup of sugar?A kid that's running around picking everything it can get it's grimy little dirty hands on and tossing it to a new spot...and you're feeding it sugar?! Which was better than him licking his finger and sticking it in the sugar like he was doing at first! AND (cuz that's just not all of it ever) you're giving me a dirty look when i tell you that the kid has to leave. AND YES I DID TELL THEM THE KID HAD TO GO! He tore up my office. And cuz life is never simple we not only get to clean it up - we get to prepare for an audit set for tomorrow as well. No the office was already clean so we didn't have much cleaning to do, we were working on the files in my office. It's not funny. I don't know who's ass to whip, first and hardest. Oh wait yeah I do...the bitch that fed the A.D.D. kid a fucking cup of SUGAR!!!! It wasn't even her kid! And this nasty ass b

For All The Army Gals :)
*You complain that your boyfriend/husband has worked late all week and have barely seen him---I look forward to the two weeks a year we spend together. *You complain b/c he doesn't call you enough---My heart is thankful for the 15- second phone call I got last Tuesday in the middle of the night! *You whine to you friends about how much you miss him already because he is on a two day trip with his parents---I haven't seen him for 7 months now. *You don't fee like making love tonight because you are too tired---We will stay up all night because we don't know when it will be the last time. *Your boyfriend/husband belongs to you---Mine belongs to the government. *Your boyfriend/husband is training for his game next weekend---My boyfriend is trained to kill. *It's just not practical for you to drive an hour to see him every weekend during school---He spends $700 dollars on a plane ticket just to see me 2 days. *You hate hanging up the phone when talking to him---My hear

Why A Tomboy Is A Better Choice For A Girlfriend
1. Tomboys are pretty. They usually: a) Don't know b) Know it c) Know it but don't care-NOW PASS THE FOOTBALL BITCH!! 2. Tomboys don't diet. So we'll never ask the stupid, "Do I look fat in this?" question. We don't care, there baggy jeans! 3. Tomboys don't like shopping. Unless it's for sporting goods. Chances are we're wearing your boxers right now! Hey! It's a great way to cut back on having to go to the mall, and spend money. Do these jeans show off my ass too much? 4. Tomboys are great at holding secrets. Cmon,tomboys don't wear make up, dresses, or high heels, but the one day we do we are sex goddess. Only to return to normal the next day. So if we can hide a sex goddess, guess what else we can hide.....bodies...blood..... 5. REAL Tomboys don't wear pink. Red and dark colors (like those found in blood, and bruises). We prefer to hide the blood spilled. Besides who doesn't look great in black? 6. Hangin with a tomboys is like hangin with one of the guys. They don

I Need A......
I need a man. Not some guy scared of me (tho that would be nice 2). I need a man that has an opinion and isn't scared of mine. I need a man that has a sense of humor, and knows mine. I need a man that has a brain, and knows when to NOT say something. I need a man that knows how to read body language. I need a man that likes to look into my eyes. I need a man that isn't scared to bend me over his leg, spank me really hard and then feed me his cock, while telling me, "You're a dirty slut. Suck my cock whore!" I need a man that has a fire in his heart for me. I need a man that is willing to let me into his heart, know what's on his mind, and hold me in his arms. I need a man not scared to dance to my beat. When 2 ppl come together it's to combine the music, not dance to one beat. I need a man. A real man. Are you?

Old Cowboys Advice
Your fences need to be horse-high, pig-tight and bull-strong. Keep skunks and bankers and lawyers at a distance. Life is simpler when you plow around the stump. A bumble bee is considerably faster than a John Deere tractor. Words that soak into your ears are whispered..not yelled. Meanness don't jes' happen overnight. Forgive your enemies. It messes up their heads. Do not corner something that you know is meaner than you. It don't take a very big person to carry a grudge. You cannot unsay a cruel word. Every path has a few puddles. When you wallow with pigs, expect to get dirty. The best sermons are lived, not preached. Most of the stuff people worry about ain't never gonna happen anyway. Don't judge folks by their relatives. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll enjoy it a second time. Don't interfere with somethin' that ain't botherin' you none.

Please Do The Survey! Need As Many People As Possible To Answer The Questions And Send Them Back For Info For My Project Report!
Survey 1) What would you do if all privacy were suddenly gone? 2) If a camera could see anyone anytime, and it was invisible to the naked eye, would you watch? 3) If you could watch anyone anywhere, even yourself, without them knowing you were all the way at home, who would it be? 4) a) How often would you watch anyone at any given time, anywhere across the world, including yourself, and they wouldn’t know you were watching? b) Someone in the past under the same circumstances, how often would you view them? 5) What if there was a way to see what someone did so lying would be impossible? 6) How would you feel if someone watched you when you breed, eat, sleep, but you wouldn’t know they were there? 7) If Religion were proven to be a myth, an old story, would you want to believe it? 8) Would you want to know what your ancestors did in the past? 9) Would you watch your past again and again if you could? 10) If we could inhabit another planet, without endangering

Cherrytap Or Myspace???????
what happen to the old cherrytap that all loved where u could go and make friends see pics of anything and everything u had if u posted for everybody to see? now u can't see anything sexy or close to nude now, reguardless of what u set it to u have to add the people as friends just to see the pics? thats not right cause i thought this was a place the to make friends not just to see how many people u can get on ur friends list and how many points u can get to beat others, thought this was a place to meet people and mingle, and view what the good lord gave u,because if u added everybody to ur friends list just to see their pics u would have a million friends come on people theres no way to ahve that many friends so lets put it back to the old way. Is this not an adult site or is it a kiddie site that grown ups r on and don't want ur bosses or kids to see if ur on here it should be in a private place not at work or in the middle of the family room GEEZ some people need to grow up and use

Titled As Encrypted
curled up in a ball on the couch, trying to be as small as i feel for the life of me i cant cry, and the death of me seems so un real escape myself in a bottle, or a pill, or ten, all that gets me is hurting my friends like a broken piano i am out of tune, i sit unused till my time ends i'd bleed myself out but i am too scared its my friends that help me even if i am too impaired for how much longer will i have to be this sad i would like to know cause things are getting pretty bad i will just have to hang on as long as i can its not so bad with all these friends there is some one out there that deserves my love until i find her i just need more drugs this heart that bleeds into itself just needs to be put on a shelf try though i may its ok if this is my last day

How Is Your Inner Child?
Your Inner Child Is Surprised You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things. How Is Your Inner Child?

Whats The Name???
This guy walks into a bar and two steps in, he realizes it's a gay bar but decides, 'what the heck, I really want a drink.' When the gay waiter approaches he says to the customer, 'What's the name of your penis?' The customer says, 'Look, I'm not into any of that. All I want is a drink'. The gay waiter says, 'I'm sorry but I can't serve you until you tell me the name of your penis. Mine for instance is called Nike, for the slogan 'Just Do It.' That guy down at the end of the bar calls his Snickers, because 'It really Satisfies." The customer looks dumbfounded so the bartender tells him he will give him a second to think it over. So the customer asks the man sitting to his left who is sipping on a beer and asks, 'Hey bud, what's the name of your penis?' The man to left, with a smile, looks back and says, 'TIMEX.' The thirsty customer asks, 'Why Timex?' The fella proudly replies, 'Cause it takes a lickin' and keeps on tickin'!' A little shaken, the

What Kind Of Intelligence Do You Have?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks. You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent. An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer. Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best. You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer. What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Are You A Movie Buff?
Your Movie Buff Quotient: 74% You are a total movie buff. Classics, blockbusters, indie favorites... you've seen most of them. Your friends know to come to you whenever they need a few good DVD rental suggestions. Are You a Movie Buff?

Global Warming 101 On Oprah Today
If you aren't already watching the Oprah Show, today's show with Al Gore on it is VERY interesting look at Global Warming 101. Take a look, if you can, while you can.... He might have not made a very good President, but he is very good at being a lecturer on this show.

Ultimate Sex Survey
The Ultimate SEX Survey by game_gurl69Do you like it rough or sensual?: depends on mood and who withDo you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?: uhm oppositeHow often do you like to have sex?: as much as possibleIs sex a top priority for you?: most timesDo you have sex face to face with your partner?: sureHow often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: not often enuffHow do you feel about one night stands?: fun as long as u bein safeHow many one night stands have you had?: a fewWhat's your favorite position?: bend over babyWhere's your favorite place to have sex?: anywhereDo you prefer to make love or f*uck?: depends who withHave you ever watched porn while having sex?: hell yeahHow long do you usually fore-play b4 doing the deed?: at least 30 minDo you get off first or do they?: most times theyDo you like kissing during sex?: yesDo you moan? If so, are you loud or quite?: yes and all dependsDo you prefer your par

Nothing Left To Breath
Laugh hard it's a long way to the ground this time I wish I could wash the dirt off these intentions I've always wondered what your kind of people are made of with all the fires of your hell pouring out your eyes I'm scared to be alone tonight We're sliding from day to day it's a grab bag and all the surprises are just waiting for you to open them I told you so I told you so I hate the faces you make when you say you love me crying blood dust in bathrooms I wish it wasn't true I was never that good to you, I gag and swallow and beg you know but the chemicals in your brain never did interpret me you tore me in half now useless defiled I don't know where I'll fall

Thought Of The Day 12/5/06
Ok lets start this out right. I am going to touch on two topics that always seem to cause controversy: abortion and religion. let me set the stage....I had a doctors appointment and his office is located across the street from planned parenthood(a place that does abortions if anyone is not familiar with it). And there are the religious fanatic protesters out there with their signs and billboards. This is ofcoarse a daily occurance, i mean these people are out there in shitty weather and i think its always the same 3 or 4 people(do they have lives?) Now as far as abortions that is a debate i choose not to get into. My official stance is one of no stance cause at this point I have no buisness sticking my ugly face into that. I am not a woman hence i am not going to give birth and as of right now i am not fathering any kids. so until either: a)i am able to give birth or b) i impregnate someone I am going to try to stay out of the debate. But.........I am against these protes

Social Networking Websites Are A Danger...
Here Is my Term Paper.....lemme know what ya think!! THIS IS MY HARD WORK! Technology has come a long way. Almost every home in America has a computer these days. Twenty years ago, children went to school. They made friends and played outside. Today, kids come home from school and turn on their computers. They chat with their friends via Instant Messages and Social Networking websites. When you expose your child to the internet, it opens the door to all kinds of things that can put them into danger. Social Networking websites like MySpace, Classmates and CherryTap are exposing our children to things they should not have to experience. â€œTwo out of every 3 people online in the United States now visit social networking sites,â€(Lamb) Social networking websites are a dime a dozen and more crop up each day. Some are larger and attract more people and others are smaller and cater to certain groups. Classmates.com was the very first social networking site on the internet. It was

Exclusive Nonissue
It all comes Down To faith How and why You believe Does not matter Whether correct Or erroneous You still have Your two Feet Do what you feel Must be done Experience that And this A subtle claim Which must remain It is only All of you That's missed I will not attempt To stop your flee I can only give You a motive To return I know my part Is in the heart While your mind Still turns

New Start's
New start's can be a bit tricky.Today I woke up and something told me to go and take a look at my tagworld page. I go to my page and proceed to update a few thing. Soon after I decided to go and check out the widgets, tagworld had to offer.There was only a couple , a chat box, photo cube ,and a kewl looking daily horoscope one, so I said what the heck,and went ahead and got the HTML code, and placed it on my tagworld page.What it said really made me think considering what has been going on in my life, this is what it said: Today's Date: December 05, 2006 You were mistreated. You'll get your own back. Forgiveness takes less effort. Enemies or oppressors might not even see themselves that way.

Ptsd "wonder Drug" Claims By Dod & Va
Army to fund research on memory pill that may help PTSD victims By Jeff Schogol, Stars and Stripes ARLINGTON, Va. — The Army has agreed to fund research to see if a drug used to treat high blood pressure might be able to lessen the emotional impact of memories associated with post-traumatic stress disorder. CBS’ “60 Minutes” first reported Nov. 26 that the Army was looking at whether the drug Propranolol could be used to treat PTSD. Researchers hope to recruit several dozen veterans who served in Iraq and Afghanistan from the greater Boston area for the study, said psychologist Dr. Scott P. Orr, who will help conduct the research. The study will look at whether Propranolol can reduce veterans’ emotional responses to certain memories by cutting down on the accompanying surge of adrenaline, said Orr, who works at the Department of Veterans Affairs Medical Center in Manchester, N.H. In initial tests, people given the drug were observed to have reduced physiological r

Possible Party
You know, I'm thinking...All the people I've met on here, it'd be great if we could all meet up at a hotel or something and have a swinger's party. My hubby and I spent our wedding night at a hotel with a jacuzzi in the room, so maybe we could all chip in and find something like that??? Make some comments, see if we can set something up people!!!

A New Way To Get Updated...
I was playing around with a few ideas on how to help spread more word for advertising my novel. I guess there is never enough ways to plug it huh? lol Anyway- I created a message forum in which I can post profiles, pics, updates, summaries, sneak peeks and anything else that falls under the topic of my series. I wanted to give my friends and fans the opportunity to check it out, register, and have instant access to news regarding the novels as they are published. So feel free to drop in:(Just click the link below) Spellbound Forum Hope to see you there! ~Lady Aurora

This Is Sad Song....... But I Just Cannot Get It Out Of My Head
Feelings, nothing more than feelings Trying to forget my feelings of love Teardrops rolling down on my face Trying to forget my feelings of love Feelings, for all my life, I'll feel it I wish I've never met you, girl You'll never come again Feeling, whoa, oh, oh, feeling Whoa, oh, oh, feel you Again in my arms Feelings, feelings Like I've never lost you And feelings like I'll never Have you again in my heart Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it I wish I've never met you, girl You'll never come again Feelings, feelings Like I've never lost you And feelings like I'll never Have you again in my life Feeling, whoa, oh, oh, feeling Whoa, oh, oh, feel you again In my arms......

Hmmmmm???
I have another week until my birthday but I've already gotten two gifts. The first one was an ashtray from Marlboro. The second one was a $10.00 gift certificate from Adam & Eve. LMAO Geeze.....what the hell does this say about me?

Your Everlasting Kiss
the taste of your lips and the touch of your skin is what ill forever long for...the look in your eyes and the smell of your hair linger hopelessely in my mind...as my soul drifts through the wind like a leafe in the breeze... i rememer our love... or was it love? could it have just been an illusion in my thoughts? did you ever speak my name when you were lost in the darnkess...or was i just hearing things? ive come to believe i was never really loved... but then my tears are wiped away by your kiss -Kat

Brand New 3x7 Song Premeries Today!!!
Today at 6pm-8pm est, 3x7's brand new song To Beter Memories debuts on Temptation X Radio!!! TXR is the first that gets to permerie this song before anyone else on the net. Even before it goes up on myspace. So That means one thing if you want to hear the new song show up in the Temptation X Radio Lounge and you will hear it. Also James Dean and Paul from 3x7 will be in the lounge talking to everyone and seeing what they think of the new song. They are wanting this out before the new album is even finish. So come on in and check it out!!! Rocker78

Nothing Exciting
Last night went better then the previous that was nice. things went smoothly. i was kind of tired all night cuz i didnt sleep a whole lot yesturday but lack of sleep has never been an uncommon thing to me. im listening to audio books woohoo. i got limewire cuz i figured that ill be wiping out my comp soon ne ways so if it ends up getting a virus or something it doesn't matter too much. i've started falling inlove with criss angel and type o negative is niftyful. i keep missing my friend, i work and so does she now so we havent talked in like two months. it's sad cuz we were really close for a while. i was sleeping when she got on yesturday :/ honestly if i knew she'd be on i would have rathered been even more exhausted at work and gotten to talk to her. i got six hours of sleep today which isn't too bad, i had a weird dream my foster mom was making me get out of bed and i was saying i just wanted to go back to sleep, that was slightly odd. umm trying to think of anything interesting

*~fun With Yahoo - Session 13~*
h_balls2000: hi PiercedQT: Hi h_balls2000: how are u? PiercedQT: Good you? h_balls2000: fine h_balls2000: u asl plz h_balls2000: male or female? PiercedQT: 32/F h_balls2000: well do u like to be my mistress? h_balls2000: like a nurse to me and examin my dick and big balls PiercedQT: Sure - bend over and say "AHH" h_balls2000: ok ill show u my dick and balls and tell me what to do to examin them h_balls2000: i have a ruber bands and ropes and a tupe which inside the pen h_balls2000: ok for you my nurse? PiercedQT: You have all that inside your cock?!? h_balls2000: i did not try it h_balls2000: have u ever see anyone do it? PiercedQT: Yeah I'm sure guys just shove ropes and pens in their weenies just for fun and stuff... like all the time. h_balls2000: is't it dangourse PiercedQT: I'm sure it is - but good sex is dangerous... or so I am told. h_balls2000: ok u can see my cam? PiercedQT: Yeah I see it h_balls2000: ok u like to start

What Is Your Perfect 2007 Car
You Should Drive a Toyota FJ Cruiser A true adventurer, you're always up for trying the latest new thing. And you need a car that will take you anywhere, because there are no roads where you're going! What 2007 Car Should You Drive? And this is what I am driving!!!!

What Song Should You Strip To?
Your Stripper Song Is Super Freak by Rick James "That girl is pretty wild now The girl's a super freak The kind of girl you read about In new-wave magazine" Freaky? Yes. But you're also pretty darn funny. What Song Should You Strip To?

What Is Your Muppet Personality
You Are Gonzo the Great "Is something burning in here? Oh, it's just me." You're a total nutball who will do anything for attention. The first to take a dare, you'll pull almost any stunt. You're one weird looking creature, but your chickens don't mind! The Muppet Personality Test

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as i sit here looking out the window... i think to my self... what did i ever do to the world that they hate me so much???... i walk out the door and animals attach me... i walk in a store and people shun me... they dont want to see my ugly face... they dont want anything to do with me... im a lost cause... in an even bigger lost cause... i have no where to go... no one to love me... so... i just stay inside... i stay away from all of the shame and shunning... its not worth it... i can be just as happy inside by myself... no animals no people... no nothing... just me and my computer... the gateway to a new life... im sure that that life wont be found but i guess its worth a try... but the day will come that i will shun them... they will see that im no that bad of a person... i have values... im fun... outgoin... just... oh hell who am i kidding... ill never be accepted in this enviroment... like i said.... ............ Im a Lost Cause

November 25th - December 1st
Saudi Arabia is going to sue global tobacco companies over health reasons. Who the hell do you root for in that? Saudi Arabia or tobacco companies? A man in Croatia survived a 700 foot crash over a cliff in a canyon in his car. He was able to call on his cell phone for help. Which is also the reason why he was in the accident in the first place. I tell you what....nothing brings me a bigger smile during the holidays than sticking electrical lights on dry timber. Have you seen the pictures of Britney Spears going around on the internet? I can't show it to you, but I can tell you it did help her get a big endorsement deal for Starbucks' new bottomless cup of coffee. Britney is known as "The panty-less Menace.” Why are reporters even covering this? Aren’t there things going on in the world? "Yes, today in Iraq, the fighting intensified ... hold on. Breaking news. Britney Spears. Britney Spears’ cat spotted getting out of limo ... Oh, it’s not a cat." Pope Benedict has returned

How Flirty Are You?
You Are a Natural Flirt Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt. And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting. Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt. And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive! What Kind of Flirt Are You?

Thoughts Of Mine ..
They say the shadows are cold and dark ( I welcome it with open arms)..The religions of the world call it the realm of demons and demi-gods ( I welcome them as friends and family)...this is what a shadow walker is.. they live in the comfort of the shadow..they can not live in the light for they are persacuted and judged by those who do not understand there very being. we are hated for what we are..We don't follow treands or the latest things...It makes us sick to see how everyone needs to be the same to fit in.. The shadows except who we are and doesn't ask for you to be beautful and vein..It's a place of equals..some people would say I'm crazy for talking about this..They hate the truth..aspecialy if they can't see it..

And So It Begins...............
Welcome to my new series of ranting and ramblings. I actually started it yesterday but my dumb ass put it in my articles blog. in this one i am going to share some of my own thinging....i know i know ..you don't care what i think, but I'm not making you read this am I, huh? I have 2 other blogs one with articles about various topics that i find on the net and the other is my poetry. check it out if you like. I encourage coments on all of my blogs I like to know what other people think, if you don't want to share it with everyone you can always private message me too. so are you ready to journey with me?

What Kind Of Kisser Are You?
You're an Expert Kisser You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Finally Some Cops I Like
STOCKHOLM, Sweden - Two Swedish border control officers risk disciplinary action for keeping a photo collection of "exceptionally beautiful" women who passed through their checkpoint, police officials said Tuesday. The officers, who were working at a ferry terminal near Stockholm, made photocopies of the women's passport photos and placed them in a binder. They also noted the date of birth next to each entry, the Stockholm police department said. The binder contained instructions on how to compile the collection, and orders to make backup copies in case the binder would go missing or be confiscated by "evil-minded bores," police said. The instructions also stated that only "exceptionally beautiful" women belonged in the collection and that no personal data, aside from the date of birth, should be included. The men's employer found the binder and reported them to police, but the matter was dismissed because the compilation was not considered illegal. Stockholm police passed the matter t

Im Just Thinkin Outloud...
Im sooo damn tired of being single...why is it soo hard to find someone to be loved by? I had it once and it went away and I really really miss it! Anyone on here from Maryland so we could maybe hook up or something cause Im tired of the single like and im starting to go crazy and give up hope that ill ever find the right girl, if any girl. If you know anyone that would be interested in me, let me know who that girl is and tell her to check me out...is it you maybe?

Senior Citizen Test
It's that time of year to take your "Annual Senior Citizen test." Exercise of the brain is as important as exercise of the muscles. As we grow older, it's important to keep mentally alert. If you don't use it, you lose it! Below is a very private way to test your loss o r non-loss of intelligence. Take the test presented here to determine if you're losing it or not. The large spaces below are so you don't see the answers until you've made your answer. OK, relax, clear your mind and begin. 1. What do you put in a toaster? Answer: "bread" If you said "toast," give up now and go do something else. Try not to hurt yourself. If you said, bread, go to Question 2. 2. Say "silk" five times. Now spell "silk." What do cows drink? Answer: Cows drink water. If you said "milk," don't attempt the next question. Your brain is over-stressed and may even overheat. Content yourself with reading a more appropriate literature such as Auto World.

Why Parents (should) Drink...
Why parents drink... Too good NOT to pass on! A boss wondered why one of his most valued employees had not phoned in sick one day. Having an urgent problem with one of the main computers, he dialed the employee's home phone number and was greeted with a child's whisper. "Hello." "Is your daddy home?" he asked. "Yes," whispered the small voice. May I talk with him?" The child whispered, "No." Surprised and wanting to talk with an adult, the boss asked, "Is your Mommy there?" "Yes." "May I talk with her?" Again the small voice whispered, "No." Hoping there was somebody with whom he could leave a message, the boss asked, "Is anybody else there?" "Yes," whispered the child, "a policeman" Wondering what a cop would be doing at his employee's home, the boss asked, "May I speak with the policeman?" "No, he's busy", whispered the child. "Busy doing what?" "Talking to Daddy and Mommy and the Fireman," came the whispered answer. Growing more worried as he heard what sounded li

What Is Your Love Style?
Your Love Style is Agape You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. What's Your Love Style?

How Does Nearly $50,000 Mysteriously Reappear.
Got a letter from my sister-in-law's idiot, errrrr lawyer. It seems that he considers an accounting discrepancy of $50,000.00 that mysteriously appeared in her personal account a trivial discrepancy. How in the hell is that trivial? That's a pretty big accounting discrepancy. And then she wonders why we are asking her to provide documentation to back up her accounting? I think she just proved our case right there. It is much better to have someone think you are stupid than to open your mouth and remove all doubt.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?
What Your Sleeping Position Says You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games. What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Today I Wanna Say Thank You
Today i wanna say Thank you, For your friendship thru the years, For offering your support selflessly, When i needed someone to dry my tears, Today i wanna say Thank you, For you have given me so much of your time, When my world crashed down around me, It was you who convinced me things would be fine. Today i wanna say Thank you, For being able to understand, I never had to say a word, You knew just when to lend a hand, Today i wanna say Thank you, Thanks for your hope and belief in me, I'll be your strength when your down, I'll always have faith in your dreams. Today i wanna say Thank you, For the person that you are, I know one day that voice you've got, Will turn you into a star! Today i wanna say Thank you, I don't think i say it enough, You realise whats really important, When the road you walk is rough. Today i wanna say Thank you... I love you like a sister and you need to know, Today i wanna say Thank you... Cause we don't always have tomorrow

What Does Your Birth Date Means?
Your Birthdate: January 12 You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I Need All Of Your Support.
OK, so I am going to give one of these online contests a whirl. I am competing in the sexiest guy over 30 (and 40 LOL) and i need you all to vote. Leave comments again an again and again... It has always been fun to vote on all the othe contests so lets see how i do as a recipient, Thanks all my C. T. friends. Mikey

Which X-men Are You?
You Are Storm Exotic and powerful, Storm descended from a line of African priestesses. Emotions can effect your powers, but you are generally serene. Powers: controlling weather, creating winds that lift you into flight, generating lightning Which of the X-Men Are You?

2007 Universal Predictions
Dear Readers: Let me start this newsletter by saying to you that “Knowledge is power ignorance is evil”. Many people in 2006 lost their lives and even though you may say “its an act of God” there is more to it. When a calamity occur both on a personal level (divorce/death, etc.) or on an international level (natural disasters / 911 dilemma etc.) I can assure you that I saw it all unfolding well before CNN splashed the news all over the world. In my constant pursuit to educate the mass and raise people’s cosmic consciousness I encountered both great support and serious opposition. But I understand the people reluctant to spiritually grow outside of their religious poisoning and induced fears are only victims of a mass mental manipulation induced by controlled information generated by numerous powerful manipulative religious organizations. Their aim is to nurture a constant flow fear (using the natural human instinct of preservation) by monopolizing the media with their nume

Ever Wondered?
Have you ever wondered where all of your friends go when you are down? What about the ones you grew up with, the ones you planned on changing the world with? Where did they go? What are they doing now? What changed? As for me the major change was what I considered important the older I got. My loved ones, family, country. The traditions I came to know and love. As i struggled to climb the corporate ladder i found it was leaning against the wrong building. This lead me to reconsider the importance of spending the short time I have with the ones that are most important, and that was not my boss or co-workers! I wonder, am I the only one that feels this way? What about you? What changed?

Hot Story From A Friend Of Mine
Lisa's fingers clutched the steering wheel as she sat in the parking lot of the book store. Nervously she glanced around making sure she did not recognize any of the people or cars. Her hand moved to the door handle but stopped. This is crazy she thought jamming the key back in the ignition. He probably won't show up, and even if he does, he won't talk to me, once he sees me he will just keep on walking. "What if he does show up?" She whispered to herself. She looked in the rearview mirror at her reflection then took a deep breath. "Its time to quit being a coward," she said into the mirror. Grabbing her purse she opened the car door and slowly walked up the path to her favorite book store. The scent of coffee called to her but she kept walking, afraid of making a mistake, what if she got the coffee and spilled it on herself, and then he really showed up, or worse she spilled it on him and he left. Smiling at her own vivid imagination she shook her head and wandered around

Your Taste In Music
Your Taste in Music: 80's Alternative: Highest Influence 80's Rock: Highest Influence 90's Alternative: Highest Influence 90's Rock: Highest Influence Classic Rock: Highest Influence How's Your Taste in Music?

The Peeping Tom-ette
She looked at the clock on the wall in the kitchen and soon was headed upstairs to her room. Turning off the lights, she ran to the window and slowly peeked through the blinds. What she was looking at was a swimming pool, but that wasn’t what she was aiming to see that evening, it was who was going to be at the pool that she wanted to see. And there he came, wearing nothing more than a blue towel around his waist. His back was towards her so he never noticed her gazing eyes as he took off the towel to reveal nothing underneath. Her heart started to skip a beat when he dove into the pool. Sometimes she wished that she was the water in that pool and when he did dive in, she would feel every part of his body as he rippled through her. It made her shiver every time she thought about, it sending her mind racing. He would do this every single night at around 9 o clock and would swim for about ten minutes or so, and then by her surprise would masturbate in the lounge chair.

Christmas Poem #2
Christmas Love Is more than a faded word On a wrinkled Sweatshirt Or A word that Rhymes with dove In a popular song More, even, Than the theme Of a scholarly sermon Preached From a marble pulpit In a Gothic cathedral Love Is being tuned in To other's needs So you can catch the tiredness In a voice And see the sag Of weary shoulders And pitch in To do the dishes Or take the garbage out Love Is dropping coins In the Salvation Army Kettle Which is easy -- But it is also Asking the lonely old person Down the street To Christmas dinner Even though he - or she - Is a whiny complainer. We can't all age gracefully! Love Is seeing through The thick black clouds Of bickering, Prejudice, Hate and greed Which hang between Earth and sky And catching the gleam Of the Star -- Still there Love Is listening To hear -- Beyond the cacophony Of cult-leaders' voices And the explosions Of terrorist bombs -- A baby's cry Fo

Contest, Yeah That's Right Bitches...
I'm in a contest, one that actually is cool and not about my terrible lack of cleavage. Dorkiest photo! And please in the world of Dorks I am king. vote for me, OFTEN, comment bombing is allowed. So yeah if you love me comment millions of times!!!

...over That Horizon...
I was waiting for you to tell me you were ready for me, ready to see the things I see, get inside my mind for a bit, look through the dark pit onthings in my head, things I've read, seen, and heard, lived in this world. I been through alot of things, seen the bad scenes, been on the hellish rides into darkness, the situations with no finesse, the hardcore, bustin' down doors, breakin' the bones, and the homes of enemies, but it's not for me, I moved on, out here, to steer clear of all the drama and violence, it's not the answer, though it sees to spread like cancer, through our streets, through our hearts, and minds, changing the times we live in, and what we believe in, how we perceive the things around us, clouded as the truth seems to be, its there for you and me to find it, and embrace it, and keep the cycle going, keep the people knowing what's going on in the world, and to not be so absorbed by the media-controlled environments we live in, time to give in to the inner voices, and

If We Were Reapers...
Author's note: No, I am not crazy. Just got stuck on a cool show, and the idea and imagination behind it. It's called "Dead Like Me". Used to be a show on Showtime. Basic premise is about "undead" people who reap souls. When someone is about to die, the reaper is in charge of taking the person's soul, preferably before they die. This blog entry is just based on imagination running through my head with a non-sensical "what if" type thought process. Read on if you are open-minded and imaginative. If we were "reapers"... What if I died. And despite anything I have ever seen, heard, or believed about the "after-life", I find out my destiny, my "job", after death, was to reap peoples souls. Creepy huh? But also interesting. Just think of all the things I would see, and learn. So many ways to grow. So much more knowledge to absorb. And a chance to help those moving from this world to where-ever people do "go" when they die. I pause for a moment here to smile at how many of y

If
IF If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you, If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you But make allowance for their doubting too, If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise: If you can dream--and not make dreams your master, If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim; If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same; If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools: If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breath a word about your loss; If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve

Beautifully Stated
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. ~Anonymous~

Life
Some things I've come to realize and some details you may not know about me: 1. Its harder to smile when you want to cry then it is to cry when you want to smile 2. After everything thats happened in my life, I'm not a fan of the word 'time' 3. My self-esteem isnt anywhere near where it should be and it hasnt been for years 4. I put on an act around everyone Im not super close to because Im afraid to let anyone in 5. I laugh and burp when Im nervous 6. Somedays I think it would be easier to give up 7. Even though I seem optamistic Im really a pessimest 8. I critisize everything I do and I never believe that I am good enough 9. I feel like I cant trust most people 10. Im afraid of being hurt 11. I like to run in the rain 12. If anything is on my mind... I'll say it 13. My food weakness is Mexican food 14. I dislike my body 15. Im afraid to be alone 16. Im emotionaly unstable 17. I need to be told Im beautiful to believe it 18. I was in therapy for 6 months 19. Im

Friends Come And Go
Tis funny the things that go on here you get really connected with people. I have met some awesome people here and a special someone - but i mean things arent always as they seem ... I was recently surprised that a someone got CT married .. what possessed them to do this has left me out in the cold and dark obviously wasnt as close of a friend as i thought .. so to all my other cherry friends - dont let a ct marriage sneek up let people know or are you hiding one yourself?

Ponderisms
I used to eat a lot of natural foods until I learned that most people die of natural causes. Gardening Rule: When weeding, the best way to make sure you are removing a weed and not a valuable plant is to pull on it. If it comes out of the ground easily, it is a valuable plant. The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy a replacement. Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway. There are two kinds of pedestrians: the quick and the dead. Life is sexually transmitted. Health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die. The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth. Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again. We could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to criticism. In the 60's, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal. Ho

The Virus
While writing this article I have borrowed from a huge number of sources. I do not claim to be an authority in the field of viruses, nor do I take any responsibility for the accuracy of the text. I was merely being curious about viruses and the possible threat they pose to the world population. Viruses... Attack of the living dead. No, no - this article won't be about zombies.. Although the comparison is rather obvious. In essence, viruses do not live – according to half of a divided camp of scientists that is… For an organism to be classified as being alive it must · Reproduce · Obtain and use energy · Grow, develop, and die · Respond to the environment Can viruses reproduce? The question is simple enough, but it’s a hard one to answer. Fact is that viruses can not reproduce themselves without “help”. Help comes in the shape of a host cell where a virus latches onto with its “tails”. It then injects its genetic material into the host cell. Other viruses hav

"she" Is Me.
He claimed love was a myth, nothing more then a dream he dares not, Then what was this deep aching within his chest? As though her passions were a tide, following the command of the moon, She brought forth in him, waves of rapture, which were beginning to crest. He denies the emptiness whenever she’s out of his sight, He wanders through each day only half- aware of what surrounds him, The need to hear her voice, feel her touch, is sometimes unbearable, As is the want to hold her each night, become lost in the scent of her skin. He’s plagued by an insatiable appetite that consumes all thought, For not one woman has ever evoked such raw desire, To laugh with her is amazing, to make her laugh, incredible, Tender sounds of sweetness sifting through wildfire. Straight to the heart, to the depths of his soul, Yet love remains something he cannot conceive, Even with open eyes he is still so very blind, For “ he “ is you, and “ she “ is me. By:Unknown

Christmas Poems
Mom is Making Christmas Cookies baking in the kitchen- The smell floats through the air; Mom is making Christmas with her usual merry flair The house she gaily decorated, Each gift she stiched with love, And we'll gather around the Christmas tree for an evening of old-fashioned fun Thie evening she'll sing a carol for us With her angel's voice. Yes, Mom is making Christmas- A true reason to rejoice Christmas Giving Christmas is for giving And for showing that we care, For honoring the Christ Child With the loving gifts we share. The wise men gave of riches; The shepherds, faith and love. Each gift, in its own measure, Was smiled on from above. Let every gift be treasured; Not always size or price Determines the extent of love And willing sacrifice Handsome gifts with festive trim Bring smiles of sweet content, But modest gifts of humble means are ofttimes heaven sent. Whether it be large or small, Each gift will share in pa

Last Weekend At The Kinky Con!
Woo hoo! I had a blast! Feet, feet, feet and more feet! (and a few calves and thighs... :D It was an amazing time, and I am sorry now that it's over, but it has opened many possibilities for the future. And I bought a new embroidered t-shirt (with Toes R Us and two little feet on it!)

You Still Inspire Me {{poetic Garbage}}
such a warm embrace from one so cold hearted he whispers the words I need to hear "I might be in love with you" and I feel myself falling again drawn to his aching heart knowing it will be my downfall, I cling to a false love he breaks me down and revels in my misery he whispers the words I dread "you are my one regret"

Top Ten Worst Natural Disasters
Top Ten Worst Natural Disasters Rank Type Location Date Death Toll 1. Flood Huang He River, China Summer 1931 850,000-4,000,000 2. Flood China 1959 2,000,000 3. Flood Huang He River, China September-October 1887 900,000-2,000,000 4. Tropical Cyclone Ganges Delta, East Pakistan November 13, 1970 500,000-1,000,000 5. Earthquake Shaanxi Province, China January 23, 1556 830,000 6. Flood North China 1939 500,000 7. Tsunami Indian Ocean December 26, 2004 250,000-310,000 8. Tropical Cyclone Haiphong, Vietnam 1881 300,000 9. Flood Kaifeng, Henan Province, China 1642 300,000 10. Earthquake Tangshan, China July 28, 1976 242,000* *Official Government figure. Estimated death toll as high as 655,000. Earthquakes - Highest Death Tolls Rank Location Magnitude Date Death Toll 1. Shaanxi Province , China ~8 January 23, 1556 830,000* 2. Tangshan, China 7.5 July 28, 1976 242,000** 3. Aleppo , Syria unknown August 9 , 1138 230,000 4. Near Xining , China 7.9 May 22 , 19

Feeling For You
Smiling at me, Your lips form words, But are they the truth? So many times you’ve made promises, And so many times I’ve been disappointed, It’s so hard to comprehend what you mean to me, You say you love me and yet I can’t reply, Honestly I don’t understand what I’m feeling, You take a step closer, Involuntarily I step away, You look at me, hurt flickering in your eyes, I glance away, Hating the power you still have over me. I wonder if I’ll always feel this way. Soon your gone and it’s like, You weren’t ever there, I gaze out the window, As I remember, Everything you meant to me. Sighing I turn away, My heart burdened with sorrow, These are just some of the feeling I have for U. By:Vixen

Honesty
Ok so what is up with people no longer knowing how to be honest? Everyone says oh I am so upfront, but when it really comes down to it, the truth is no where to be found. I really don't remember the last time I met a person with the exception of my best friends, who knows how to be honest. Well that's enough ranting. Bye for now.

Which Action Hero Are You
You scored as Maximus. After his family was murdered by the evil emperor Commodus, the great Roman general Maximus went into hiding to avoid Commodus's assassins. He became a gladiator, hoping to dominate the colosseum in order to one day get the chance of killing Commodus. Maximus is valiant, courageous, and dedicated. He wants nothing more than the chance to avenge his family, but his temper often gets the better of him. Maximus83%Batman, the Dark Knight50%Neo, the "One"50%Captain Jack Sparrow50%William Wallace33%The Terminator33%El Zorro25%The Amazing Spider-Man17%Lara Croft17%James Bond, Agent 007

Your Sweet Oblivion
where are the dreams we were promised? well you dont.. have to wait anymore i made my final decision they wrote my name in... this covenant now ill rip the stars right from the skies like shadows of gods we'll wake up beneath our dead sun to reclaim what was ours all along what they deny us.. will make us theyve chained us to what they believe but ive always known i was the one to release you from the endless anticipation well you dont have to wait anymore but you better start praying be my addict ill be your heroin be my habit ill be your oblivion be my addict ill be your heroin be my heaven ill be your sweet oblivion ive walked the lie backward until the lie was the answer until id proven what i always knew was wrong i burnt the ends to open i cauterized the omen i pulverize the diamonds back to coal i suck the light out of every miracle be my addict ill be your heroin be my habit ill be your oblivion be my addict ill be your heroin be my heaven

I Am Still Here
AND YOU CAN TALK ALL THE S*** YOU WANT, BUT I WONT BE AROUND TO HEAR IT. WHY? OH, THATS RIGHT, BECAUSE I AM FINALLY GOING SOMEWHERE IN MY LIFE, AND GETTING MY S*** STRAIGHT, AND Y'ALL F***ERS ARE STILL FLOUNDERING OUT THERE ON YOUR OWN. DON'T HATE JUST CUZ' YOU DONT HAVE WHAT IT TAKES...REMEMBER, I EARNED THIS JOB, AND THIS SPOT, AND THIS MONEY...GET OFF YOUR ASS, STOP PARTYING SO MUCH, AND GET A REAL JOB, MAKE SOME EFFORTS, AND STOP HATING JUST CUZ' YOUR LAZY AND IM NOT...

Dark Love
I see her first darkly through skein-nets of trees, she is a brilliant flash of white pensive and private, she broods in the woods the darkling woods thinking of the dark the dark demon of the night how he comes to her with dark-bright featherwings to enfold and restrain to capture and possess, how she writhes, moans and cries out……..wakes in the morning to an empty bed, how he haunts her heart spaces through the sun-filled hours with his dark hope……..with his demon grasp but then . . . . she sits in a sunny place till her perfect lover comes to sit quietly with her and does not touch her nor writhe nor moan with her nor delight her body but sits and says nothing while her dark bird hovers…….. unseen yet bright-dark in the world by JCSTREET

Ahhh
Work is insane.. with the holidays coming up there are sooooooooooo many cookies to make and I am ALWAYS the one who gets stuck doing them.. I hate it and I am cranky and I have cramps and I just wanna take a nap so I am going to do that!

Foul Eden
set me free - how long can a soul hold on? whats it take, i feel strong but i break so easy let me go - i know i got so much to give but they suck every gift they endlessly bleed me and i - i dont think that sorry is enough i - i cant take this much thoughtlessness and ignorance thoughtlessness and ignorance it was people like you people like you that killed christ in the valley of killers and stars where the demons play the part of the saints and the ones that will save us from all the demons they made in our hearts this foul eden foul eden we find ourselves in some catastrophic antithesis of everything we were envisioning the money is spent the fruit has been eaten the leftover core is this foul eden set me free - i know i could have been so much more but life treats you like a whore you swallow the dirt til nothing quenches the thirst anymore well what the hell did you expect me to shut up i guess well save your breath that hasnt

New Pics Of Me - Options
So, since I'll be taking some new pics of me, hopefully later today, I was wondering what everyone would like to see....Here are my ideas so far, feel free to add your own: 1. Full body shots 2. Garter & Tights Let me know! ;)

Mamma I Love You
Mamma I Love You You are my, life my heart. I've always loved you, and I never did or do stop loving you. either though I don't show it to you that much like i should. Your always in my thoughts when i go to sleep and wakeup in the mornings. When thoughs years we could'nt see each other the more you was on my mind. there were times that I would just start to cry anywhere and not know why I was crying. There's Times that I would cry in my sleep . Either though I was Not around you that much till like almost 9 years now. And till this day mamma I will always Love You Forever!!!!! Written By Bessie Marie Meadows

The Secret Wish Of Us All
this beautiful but stupid world has had its ugly way with me its cut me down and chewed me up and subjected me to every indignity we shoulda sterilized em wherever we found em cause the planets paralyzed with the idiocy the streets are flooded the maggots overruning the earth a viral spiraling curse corrupting everything it touches well talk is cheap - but not my sympathy ive cut my ties with humanity and ive come to set it all straight to expose the secret wish of us all cause im through im through with the crying and im done denying myself im through agonizing im done apologizing this is where it all ends cause ive been buried up to my neck in it ive swallowed it and wallowed in it til i couldnt take another breath ive bought it and sold it now im just sick to death all i got was nothing more than an infection and the only cure for the condition was to settle the score you better believe you better believe beautiful stupid world beautiful stupid

Thank God For Children Saying Grace...
Last week I took my children to a restaurant. My six-year-old son asked if he could say grace. As we bowed our heads he said, "God is good, God is great. Thank you for the food, and I would even thank you more if Mom gets us ice cream for dessert. And Liberty and justice for all! Amen!" Along with the laughter from the other customers nearby I heard a woman remark, "That's what's wrong with this country. Kids today don't even know how to pray. Asking God for ice cream! Why, I never!" Hearing this, my son burst into tears and asked me, "Did I do it wrong? Is God mad at me?" As I held him and assured him that he had done a terrific job and God was certainly not mad at him, an elderly gentleman approached the table. He winked at my son and said, "I happen to know that God thought that was a great prayer. "Really?" my son asked. "Cross my heart," the man replied. Then in a theatrical whisper he added (indicating the woman whose remark had started this whole thing), "Too bad s

Lyrics
A song I wrote : V1 I was lost surrounded by darkness But you showed me the light I thought about just giving up But you taught me how to fight All I wanted to do was hate But you showed me I could love My self-seteem was to the ground But you made me look above I ate that poisonous apple But you gave me the antidote I thought I was going to die But you kissed me and gave me hope C Its like a dream come true That I finally found you You are my guiding light Leading me through every night To the end from the beginning You are my fairytale ending V2 As I fought through all my fears You were standing by my side I took you back through all my pain You didnt run and hide Whenever I would just break down You wiped away my tears When I tried to push you away You grabbed me and held me near When I was jumping off that cliff You gave me your wings to fly So my angel how is heaven You must know what its like

The Day The Music Died (part 1)
Desperation - oh wont you tell me what its like cause its not like id know nothin bout being lost and tossed aside my mind racing - endlessly pacing - i just cant believe ive wasted all my life - on cold hearted liars on people who dont give a damn - whats inside you inhuman excuses apathetic and clueless they live to break you down - because youre alive and they fear it they can rip my fucking heart out - but theyll never break my spirit come on - you will never break my spirit - come on maybe its just me - tryin for something i'll never be maybe its obvious - but its just somethin i'll never see tell me its a dream - oh tell me its just a lie had the weight of the world running through my head - ever since - the day the music died but i just cant believe - its come down to this searchin for a glimmer of hope - in this pile of shit its taken all my life just to know - that i am better off on my own god how i hate you fucking all. oh desperation - why dont you t

Life In General
Things I wish would or would never have happened: The woulds: 1. There are tons of stories out there about guys who treat their girlfriends like they are something special. They say things to them to make them smile, they buy them things for no reason, and just by the look in their eyes you know they love them... I would love to find a guy that looks at me like they wouldn't give me up for the world, a guy who shows me that he loves me and a guy who actually seems to care about me! 2. I would love to open up my heart and completely give it openly to someone 3. I would like to find something that makes me soar. Makes me feel like Im free and can do anything I want to 4. I would like to do something SO exhilerating that my mind doesnt have to think about the world just the feeling 5. I would like to feel beautiful not just be told it The would never have happeneds: 1. I wish the world wasnt so full of sick people. The rapists and the murderers. They have ruined my

Gotta Love Parties
Some of my friends from myspace have invited me and my hubby to a swinger's party in January. Needless to say, I'm wet and rarin' to go. ;) I hope to find more parties like this, cause, let's face it, who doesn't love sex???? Mmmm....Can't wait.

I Wrote This Last Night
pretty little girl she was so nieve and yet so smart beautiful smile and a beautiful heart nothing ever tainted nothing ever touched then one day it all changed he came down the stairs and asked to play a game silly little girl said yes little did she know she was going to be giving him what little she owned years went on and nothing changed then one day the nightmare came to its end he left her alone but at her expense after all no one belived what they looked at to be a little girl but her memories would always live they would always haunt and for her there would always be a small voice to taunt

Poetry
there's a hundred fears but a thousand tears behind this smile there's loneliness brought by a kiss behind this smile there's a dark, like night with just one light behind this smile there's a story in the making about a heart breaking behind this smile there's hurt and pain a feeling of shame behind this smile my hearts in denial yet all the while I smile

Bestfriends Forever
BestFriends Forever I'm glad that you and I have each other, you are the best thing that ever happen to me. You mean the world to me. your there when I need someone to talk too. you there just to keep intoch. It seams that we been Friend for years on years. But these past months we've gotten even more closer than ever. it like we never lost each other. When we found each other again It just took me a while to remeber the times we spent together. So till this day I'm Glad that we have each other once more again, and it will me till the end!!That's what BestFriends are for the most in the world. Written by Bessie Marie Meadows

Poetry
The late night calls Your voice in a song But what does that matter It only keeps one thing Your voice close to me Reading things you wrote Seeing your face on a page But what does that matter It only keeps one thing Your words close to me The smell of a rose The hint of cologne But what does that matter It only keeps one thing Your smell close to me The taste of your lips The feel of your hand But what does that matter It only keeps one thing Your touch close to me The emotion we share The connection we had What does that matter It keeps everything It links you to me

Poetry
Through what you will do And what you will see My dear friend, forever Im my heart you will be As the seasons welcome change From hot summer to spring From my soul to yours A song I will sing Change may overcome us As the time ticks slowly by We my lose touch See distant memories and sigh But my friend, my love I hope you can see No matter what happens In my heart you will be

Poetry
I sit here and wait As I look at the clock tick-tock Come back to me A year has past My heart still yearns Sighing Come back to me Nearly a decade Till I saw you again Hurting Come back to me Five more years gone My soul sings a song Lovingly You're here with me

What Kind Of Hero Are You?
You scored as Batman, the Dark Knight. As the Dark Knight of Gotham, Batman is a vigilante who deals out his own brand of justice to the criminals and corrupt of the city. He follows his own code and is often misunderstood. He has few friends or allies, but finds comfort in his cause.Batman, the Dark Knight92%El Zorro88%Captain Jack Sparrow71%James Bond, Agent 00771%Neo, the "One"71%Indiana Jones63%William Wallace58%Lara Croft50%Maximus50%The Amazing Spider-Man50%The Terminator

Poetry
Hiding in a corner Waiting to be found Crying out to you yet not making a sound I have been Drowing in lonelyness Caused by a tear Lost, missing in action shivering in fear Hidden by the heavy cloud I hold in my head Only knowing one little thing Im alive not dead The all knowing all gracious lead me from my pain There is no way it's just me I'm not going insane Time passes by ticking slowly pasts being unbound But Im still here, hiding in a corner Waiting to be found

So Sad But On So True
1973 vs 2006 Scenario: Jack pulls into school parking lot with rifle in gun rack. 1973 - Vice Principal comes over, takes a look at Jack's rifle, goes to his car and gets his to show Jack. 2006 - School goes into lockdown, FBI called, Jack hauled off to jail and never sees his truck or gun again. Counselors called in for traumatized students and teachers. ++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Johnny and Mark get into a fist fight after school. 1973 - Crowd gathers. Mark wins. Johnny and Mark shake hands and end up best friends. Nobody goes to jail, nobody arrested, nobody expelled. 2006 - Police called, SWAT team arrives, arrests Johnny and Mark. Charge them with assault, both expelled even though Johnny started it. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Jeffrey won't be still in class, disrupts other students. 1973 - Jeffrey sent to office and given a good paddling by Principal. Sits still in class. 2006 - Jeffrey given huge doses of Ritalin. Becomes a zombie. School gets ex

:| I'm Not Pregnant.
I finally got my period lastnight, after 3 months of not getting it. :( This sucks, LOL, worst cramps ever. But I'm making my man take me out tonight for dinner&a movie. But anyways, lastnight we were driving down the street and these little kids had tape from a VHS stretched across the road and we drove through it, we chased them for atleast half-an-hour and boy did they look like they were going to shit their pants.

To All My Friends!!!!!!!!!
IF U HAVE VISITED MY PAGE, COMMENTED & RATED MY PROFILE,..OR MY PICS, TYVVM!! & BE ASSURED I WILL RETURN THE LOVE TO U. I AM HERE FOR MY FRIENDS!! I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT BEING THE #1 CHERRY LIKE ALOT ARE SO IF THATS WHAT YOUR ABOUT PLEASE MOVE ON DOWN THE CHERRYTAP ROAD. AS MY FRIENDS ALWAYS RATE MY PAGE & PICS, AS I WILL ALWAYS THEIRS, WITH LOYALTY & LOVE FOR YOU USERS OUT THERE.. I WILL BE MONERTING FRIENDS WHO DONT DO ANYTHING BUT SIT BACK AT LET ME RATE THEM & NOTHING IN RETURN. THOSE WILL BE TAKEN OFF THIS WEEK 12-4 THROUGH 12-11. IM SORRY ALL BUT ITS EITHER THIS OR BYE BYE 4 ME. NOTHING WORSE THAN USERS. IM TIRED OF BEING USED HERE..AND I AM NOT GOING TO LET IT HAPPEN!! SORRY, BUT THATS MY FELLINGS. SHALLOW MINDS NOT NEEDED HERE, I HAVE NO TIME FOR THAT. ONLY MY SINCERE, HONEST & REAL FRIENDS ARE WELCOME.. THE ONES WHO REALLY CARE!! "DO UNTO OTHERS, AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM TO DO UNTO YOU" THANKS FOR STOPPING BY!!

I Love You, Your My Heart
Your the frist thing that I think about when i go to sleep at night,Your the first thing i think about when I was up in the mornings. your there when I need someone to be around me, when I'm alone. You mean everything to me, even in this world. I think about you alot. Know how you are doing, and also wondering if you are thinking of me, about the same thing I'm thinking in my heart right now.There no time of the day that your not on my mind. Written By Bessie Marie Meadows

Amnesia
Amnesia Images cascading…echoing across the mind Hundreds of words seeking meaning Trying to attach the right word to the right moment So many expressions for a single image An impression, which as we speak, rips through my soul Scratching the surface of my own self worth Moving forward towards my destiny because of what I’ve been sold However I have nothing inside my minds eye to compare this… I fear another distant memory has up and gone away But how will I justify letting it slip from my grasp? Tomorrow just what will I sit and say? Will I find the missing scene in this melodramatic play called my existence? Act it out as if it never was absent from my being Or will I forever wander these lonely streets, which represent my fading memory? A shell of the man I used to be

Love Or Something Like It
A Girl I knew I remember sitting on a driveway in the suburbs, with the girl from the coffee house I had met just days previous. The moment was breathe taking to say the least Her hair smelled like roses… And I couldn’t believe she was leaning against me I felt her heart beat fall in sync with my own, and it was then, that I knew I was hers Her hair… It was a certain shade Nothing extravagant… But oh so elegant It just flowed down her shoulders And as oceans of red and blonde fell over my eyes… It caressed my face slightly, before meeting her back We sat on that driveway for what seemed like forever But I discovered later that it was only a few hours… A few hours of contentment, in every conceivable definition of the word As life unfolded that miscellaneous evening, so did my introduction into love So much was said with little conversation But everything made sense, and every undertone was understood Her eyes seemed to almost sing to me Saying to me… You ar

Jazmine Marie
Jazmine Marie You are my heart you are my life. At first you cane on this world with a hard time with life. And the more the months went by the more and more you gotten better. I love you more and more each day like you are my own Daughter. But yet I'm your God Daughter and your Anut that loves you will all my heart. Either though I'm not there to watch you grow in to a beauitful woman, I'm still there with you day and night in your heart,mind and spirt. i'm So happy that I shear a specail place in your heart and your life. Your always in my thoughts all the time, Day and Night. Your so prechies and wonderful to have someone to love you and care for you. As much as everyone that is around you,and always thinking of you all the time. Written By Bessie Marie Meadows

All About Us
WE WANT EACH OTHER AND WE WANT OTHERS TO WANT US TO WANT US TO WE LIKE TO BE WATCHED EVERY TIME WE GET DOWN AND NASTY WE JUST HOPE SOME PIRVERT IS WATCHING IN THE WINDOW WE LIKE TO RAMMED EVERY WHICH WAY WE CAN GET IT GIVE US A CALL TONIGHT AND WE WILL MAKE YOUR FANTASY COME TO LIFE

First Time Using This Site
I must say this site is freakin me out. It looks pretty cool but jesus there's stuff EVERYWHERE!! Its gonna take some getting used to but right off the back it seems smoother than myspace, so that's a plus. I wonder how many of my myspace friends are using cherrytap...

Life
The past and the present are present in the future,and the future iz containedin the past,therefor ALL time iz unredemable.Things that should of happened are all an illusion,cuz the only thing that could of happened iz what did.There iz no changin what happens cuz it's all ready writen>We cant change ant thing from happning cuz We Are Forever Doomed By Destiny...... And Fucked By Fate.......

The Magic
As a child, I believed in Christmas magic. I was an only child. I usually got what I wanted for Christmas, but there was always something else. Something extra special that I didn't ask for, but didn't know I wanted. Like one year, I think I was 10. I went downstairs and under the tree sat this HUGE stereo. Record player, radio, dual cassette and huge speakers! I never asked for it, but there it sat... a gift from "Santa". I knew full well that it was from my parents, but it was still santa all the same. Growing up there was always a gift or 2 unwrapped under the tree. Those were my santa gifts. I am 33 and to this day, there is still one gift under the tree for me from santa. Something I never knew I wanted, til i got it. 2 years ago, my husband went overboard for christmas and he gave me the santa gift. I didn't expect much of anything from him, let alone 3 pieces of really nice jewelry and all of my favorite movies and my favorite video game. I wasn't happy that I got all the loot,