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King Of My Heart
I am in love with youYou are the king of my heartAnd with each day that passesI realize that without youMy life feels emptyI crave for your special touchAnd long to rest in the comfort of your armsI am in love with youAnd even though my heart breaksWith each day that passesI realize that you are worth waiting forAnd I will wait for dayUntil the window is openAnd you rule my heart again

New Pics Up! After Coma And Hospitalization.
A couple of years back, I pretty much disapeared off Fubar and the internet for several months. My wife had actually been found dead for about 20 minutes before being revived. Rushed to the hospital, she remained in a coma for three months. During which she suffered lung blockage, total kidney failure, a night of a feverish 108.9 degrees, setting hospital records for survival rate, and two surgeries where they put in her feed tube wrong, leaking liquid food all over the inside of her abdomen causing several infections. She beat all of that and just when they wanted me to take her off kidney dyalisis and keep her on morphin because she would be nothing but a vegatable, if she made it at all, I refused to pull the plug and three days later, she woke up! She could only move her eyes, her lips and one finger! It was enough to start our long long road to recovery. Well, that was about 3 years ago. After battling two years in nursing home, with nightmarish stories you wouldn't believ

Parody Song
Cock Blockingby Andrew QuintanillaHey I'm cock blocking you and your ex,I can't help it that my penis is too small to fix,Can't you realise I don't last long and can't please,I'm cock blocking, I'm cock blockingYou don't have to know I'm jealous,that I am jealous,Baby girl, you know me,that when your with him,I get so so shitty,I know what you do behind my back,I know I can't satisfy,even though he can outdo me,I'm only a minute manI can't go any longer I'm cock blocking you and your ex, I can't help it that my penis is too small to fix, Can't you realise I don't last long and can't please, I'm cock blocking, I'm cock blockingI try to control, But you ignore,I whine about when it hurts,Even during rough sex,I wished you know,Why I can't be Orgasmo, When will you listen,But your too strong for meAm I too much of a pussy,Cause I will admit it,Come on and tell me,I could only last so little,Am I right or wrongAnd I'm cock blocking you and your ex,I can't help it that my penis is too sm

To Those That Serve
I have been chatting with a couple of people, TomG and Muerte Bella. It got me thinking, and me thinking isn't something most of you want me to do. Having said that, I have but this to say. In America we set aside 2 days of the year to thank our Veterans. Memorial Day for those that paid the ultimate sacrifice for our freedom. The other being Veterans Day which is set aside to thank the Veterans that are serving now, have served, and are still among us.So, what about the other 363 or 364 days out of the year?? Do they get a big fuck you??All too often we take our liberties for granted, 9-11 should've alerted us that we are vulnerable even in our own backyards. I don't care if you support the war on terror. I DO care and demand that you support those that took the oath to defend your right to bitch about or protest it. If you can't be bothered to support your Armed Forces, either feel free to stand in front of them or remember the borders are open and the only thing holdin

Pleasure's Mine.
Maybe I should learn how to drink around other people.It seems like the well adjusted thing to do.I could put my keys in my hand.Put my hair down in a sensible orderand waltze merrily down to the corner bar. Singing obscure songs nobody digswearing shirts no one understandsdrinking out of glasses no one uses. I distinctly recall feeling very reassured when I put my keys back on the desk, and took my shoes off for the third time today.

Microsoft Officially Launched Office2010, Marks The Operating Mode Transition To Cloud Computing
Microsoft officially launched Office2010 operating mode transition to cloud computing This is so far the people are still doubts cloud computing is an important reference information, reflecting cloud computing will be a history of computer development inevitable trend. Assisted teaching in China due to cloud computing collaboration platform interrupt Google temporarily affected, expect Microsoft to take advantage of Google could not land a good time to support the rapid development of Office2010 cloud computing classroom. Of course, expect the domestic information technology education institutions and organizations to expedite the development of China's own platform for cloud computing assisted instruction (refer to Google site and Google Education Suite mode), realizing a historic turning point in education information. SAN FRANCISCO May 13 morning news, Microsoft today officially released in the world, including MS Office 2010, including business platform software. And in the past

The Taco Test
You Are Endearing You are outgoing and friendly. You always have something to be excited about. You are indulgent and comfort seeking. You enjoy the finer things in life. You are a person of strong taste. You are adventurous in what you like. No one would describe you as hot-headed. You maintain your cool no matter what. The Taco Test Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

R.i.p Brodie Malcolm Collier
In memory of Brodie M. Collier Current mood: sad Category: Life At night when I fall asleepyou are all I dream of...The one who's always had my heart,my angel from above...I want to hold you in my arms,comfort you when you weep...Be there to tuck you in at night,then gently kiss your cheek...I want to tell you sweet dreams before you lay your head to rest...Then whisper softly in your ear,"to have you, I'm truly blessed"...I want to be able to love you,prove to you that your my ultimate joy...Then I wake up crying tearsbecause I'm without my little boy...My days without you hurt so bad,But I have alot of memories...And every day 'till we meet again,I'll wish I had you here with me...Not a day goes by that Mommy doesn't think of you my precious angel, but I know your not hurting anymore and I'm grateful for that.....Save mommy a seat, because when I meet you up there, i'll never leave your side....I love you so much Brodie, you were and always will be my sweetface....I miss you my

Read It And Judge Me....see Yah...hmmmmmmmmmmmm
I'm ashley wilson...A very hot and sexy lady that no man can resist...Kissing is my favorite but it depends on who I kiss...I am so flirty that leads me for being bitchy...But I can be funny and wacky two that can make your lonely world happy and crazy wild...I wear thongs most of the time...But at times I try not wearing (panties) too...And it feels good...lol...without it I don't have to be conscious with panty lines...I like to unleash the immortality of every man by just ripping the clothes off...And satisfying their needs to the fullest...Have a doubt???well, you can figure that out by yourself, there's no harm only satisfaction...I'll be waiting for you, sweety...I want to be touched everywhere...I usually like to start w/ kissing, That's my favorite...If I kiss somebody who doesn't know how to kiss, I don't want to go any further, but if you know how to kiss, then I'm so much interested in you...You are probably good in bed...haha...And from that it can lead you further to touch

David's Memories ...a Work In Progress
Molly rolled over in the bed and realized that David wasn’t there it was 3 am and she figured he got up for a cup of coffee as he had been doing so she got up to join him. When she got downstairs, she wasn’t prepared for what she found it was David leaning over the coffee table weeping, wiping his hands on his chest repeatedly.“Davey are you alright?” she asked him as she put her hands on his shoulders sitting down behind him.“I can’t make the blood stop he keeps bleeding and I cannot make it stop. He took two rounds in the stomach and I can’t put his insides back in either. He is dying and I can’t make it stop what the fuck do I do now?” He kept repeating.She begins to weep along with him and is afraid the kids are going to come down and see their Daddy on the floor. “Please get up I don’t want the kids to see you like this David. Please get up off the floor and I will help you clean it up alright?” He wiped

How To Tick People Off...
HOW TO TICK PEOPLE OFF Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 99 copies. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sexual favors." Specify that your drive-through order is "TO-GO." If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up." Reply to everything someone says with "that's what you think." Practice making fax and modem noises. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc" them to your boss. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with prophesy." Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears and grimacing. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room. Holler random numbers while someone is counting

My Life My Baby Boy
I held him in my arms that night. Nothings ever felt so right. He is the life I’ve waited for. A lullaby I sung to him that night. A hope I never did expect. I love you is what I said. He is the reason I wake up. The only handle I have on life. Every breath I take is for him. His existence brings me to my knees. I want you to have it all. I’ll be there to catch you if you fall. You’re every star that shines in my sky. You’re the happy tears that fall from my eyes. You’re exists brings me to my knees. The only reason I choose to breath. I held his hand with his first steps. I savored every moment from the start. Never had I thought someone could own my heart. Then he looked at me and said my name. Now I’m his with the rise of every sun. I want you to have it all. I’ll be there to catch you if you fall. You’re every star that shines in my sky.

Yes No Maybe So
Please answer this and send it back too me in my inbox. You can add more to these if you want. Post it with out the answers. You might be surprised with the results.y = Yes n = No m=MaybeWould you? Will you?......[_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _[_] kiss me?[_] let me kiss you?[_] take me out to dinner?[_] let me drive you somewhere?[_] buy me a drink?[_] take me home for the night?[_] let me sleep in your bed?[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?[_] let me make you breakfast?[_] help me with homework?[_] tickle me?[_] let me tickle you?[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?[_] instant message me?[_] greet me in public?[_] hang out with me?[_] bring me around your friends?[_] make out with me?[_] in public?D0 Y0U…[_] think im cute?[_] think im hott?[_] want to kiss me?[_] want to cuddle with me?[_] want to hook up with me?[_

Boyfriend App
EVEN iF YOU HAVE A BOYFRiEND OR GIRLFRiEND- DO THIS THING!I WANNA SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THIS BACK! DO IT NOW OR ELSE YOULL HAVE BAD LUCK FOR 5 YEARS STARTING NOW!!! ***{Ladies Title it "Boyfriend Application"}******{Guys Title it "Girlfriend Application"}******Basic Info***o1. Your Name:o2. Age:o3. Fave Color:o4. Whats your sign?o5. Phone Number (you dont have to do this one):o6. Location(you dont have to do this one):o7. Height:o8. Hair (color and style):o9. Piercings/tattoos:***Here Comes The Fun***o1. Are we friends?o2. Would you kiss me?o3. With tongue?o4. Would you enjoy it?o5. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?o6. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?o7. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?o8. Would you walk on the beach with me?o9. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?10. Do you/have you talked about me?11. Do you think I'm a good person?12. Would u take a nap with me?13. Do you think I'm cute?14. If you could

The Battle Within
The Battle Within Sleepless nights,dreadful dreams,are haunting me. The mysterious soundsof the night,are very frightening me. Panic and rageRuns through my bodyThe devil is trying to get in. Day after dayI fight off the urgesThat would be so satisfying A battle ragesDeep within my soulIt's all I can do to hold on. Prayer is my weapon,faith gives me peace of mind,to stop the demons from taking over. Depression knocks me down,Grace picks me back up,As the battle still rages I pray and prayFor the fight to endBut I know the battle is still within.

Love
LOVE You told me that you loved mewhy did you leave me to cry in the coldyou swore this time was differentwhy does that line seem so old You told me I was the only onewho could make you feel that wayyou told me that you cared about meso why didnt you stay All the nights you laid with mealone in the dark in my bednow I finally realizeyou were just messing with my head You may say love is a powerfull butlove seem to be parts of the weakness links between us That the word love people often misusesomething they take for grantedsomething they beat and abuse My wounds run deep inside methere's blood all over the placeI think I’ve really lost it this timeIm ashamed to show my faceIm afride to show my love againnot knowing if i will ever be loved again.

Goodbye
Goodbye Now I’m watching over you,because I cut it way too deep,don’t worry I’m still watching you,I watch when your asleep,I know you miss me so much,and you loved me with all your heart,but I’m in a better place now,and you cant tear it apart,you don’t have to worry now,I’m with some of our relatives,just don’t do what I did,and you shall live,I’m always around you,and always on the inside,I’m the whisper in the wind,Your shadow,in your dreams,in your prayers, so turn off the lights close yours eyesanywhere you seek me,just have the time of your life,and don’t cut it too short,take in every second, minute, hour,because you’ll never know when you’llend up where I am So goodbye my friendsgoodbye my lover goodbye forever goodbye see you in the next world GOODBYE

This Day
we honor our brothers and sisters. we honor their deaths their fight for our freedom. we honor the men and women past and present . that have died and still fight on. thank you from my family to our gi,s may you go home soon.

Guys, Check Yourself Down There
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Dynomite Mademen Dont Hit List
Big Turfs u shouldnt attack (never mind that if there on hitlist) biker mafia Kings Dominion (RHFS) - dont hit them Lucifer Legion - my friends turf Surf and turf (we ally add them all Tattooed pierced and Dangerous - beuse we allys Redeemers will prvail - got alot of cash 1-2 when attacking for cash on other big turfs Dont attack young gun mafia 2-3 on small turfs many as needed when attacking on hitlist if there not in turf go for it attack as many as u want

Memorial Day...
Myself, My Father, My Mother and My Parent's Fathers... Five Generations. To the missed birthdays, the lonely Holidays, those that fall asleep with sand in their beds, woken by the sound of gunfire. To the long hours, the crappy food and the prayers to make it through another day. From Bunker Hill to St Mihiel, Omaha Beach to Iwo Jima, Inchon Valley to the Mekong Valley, from Beruit to Salines Airport, the streets of Khafji to the hills near Tirana, the World Trade Center to the Pentagon, MSR Tampa to the Hindu Kush...To those that lost friends, to those that lost a body part to those in a cell that lost heart and to those that lost it all... THANK YOU for choosing to stand that post. We, as a nation are indebted to you and those like you. Carlton, "Ski", "Wolf", "Rocko", "Kasper", I miss you Guys.

Mademen Inc Dont Attack List
Big Turfs u shouldnt attack (never mind that if there on hitlist) biker mafia Kings Dominion (RHFS) - dont hit them Lucifer Legion - my friends turf Surf and turf (we ally add them all Tattooed pierced and Dangerous - beuse we allys Redeemers will prvail - got alot of cash 1-2 when attacking for cash on other big turfs Dont attack young gun mafia 2-3 on small turfs many as needed when attacking on hitlist if there not in turf go for it attack as many as u want

I Am A Fu Hoar
I am quite possibly the worst Fu Hoar on this site. My 4 year Fu anniversary is coming up. Sad I know considering people who have been on this site for a lot less longer than I are way higher in the levels (hence why I say I am the possibly the worst fu hoar). Now thanks to Passions and Jacko, I might possibly be able to level. (keeps fingers, toes, arms, eyes and legs crossed) I am asking you, my more experienced fu hoars, how much would an acceptable fu buck price be for a 25 bling pack and VIP be? ( I figured I would try to procure some achievements as well). Also for you pros out there, do you think that FU would retroact my spotlight acheivement? I have screen shots and such...just wondering. And if any of you have any advice, I would surely appreciate it. PS...I want to know who else has been on this site as long as I have...be nice to remember good ole Lost Cherry.

Hockey Gods!!!!!!!!!!!
Our father who art in Philly, hockey be thy name. Thy will be done the cry will be won on ice as it is in the stands. Give us this day our pucks and sticks and forgive us our penalties, as we forgive those who cross check against us. Lead us not into elimination but deliver us into victory. In the name of the fans, Lord Stanley, and in the name of the Flyers. Amen.

Remembering Memorial Day
Arlington National Cemetery Remembering Memorial Day by Mike Krumboltz May 28, 2010 1,370 Votes For many, Memorial Day brings to mind images of parades and picnics, of barbecues and baseball games. What's sometimes forgotten are the reasons for the holiday: The sacrifices made by American soldiers in times of conflict. As the United States' death toll passes 1,000 in Afghanistan, Memorial Day takes on an especially poignant meaning this year. Here's a brief look at how the holiday got its start, and how people are searching for ways to honor the brave men and women who have lost their lives. The first holidayOriginally, the holiday was known as "Decoration Day." It was started by a Civil War general named Gen. John Logan, who was the Commander-in-Chief of the Grand Army of the Republic. General Logan sought a way to help the country come back together after the horrors and divide of the Civil War. The holiday was first observed on

Welcome To My Life...
Welcome to my world, where I carry around dreams, a few diseases, & the determination to live life my way. Up until a few days ago, my attitude checked out ok, & I thought, Yay!, I am winning, but then someone or something comes along & knocks me back down again & I feel like I've accomplished nothing & that my life has not been what I thought. I feel like I'm a novelty that people want when it suits them, but they don't want me when I don't live up to their ideals of who I should be, & the novelty wears off. Then they go off to continue with their lifes without a second thought of what they did to me by coming into my life for such a short period, & how it has & will affect my well-being. The sudden ups & downs are harder on me than any of the medications they have me on so that I might live a longer & more fullfilled life, which is a bunch of crap, because no one sticks around a person who is sick all the time. And that's just the beginning...strange as it sounds, I do love my life.

Gone But Never Will Be Forgotten
Many heroes fall during battle this fight for freedom often costs these men and women we send to foreign shores often it these lives that are lost but they will not be forgotten we honor those souls that slip away and know that they've become angels In heaven, on this day The memory of them lives on as we sleep we see their face the dreams seem so very real we often imagine their warm embrace God has given them free reign to whisper gently to the trees to glide effortlessly among the clouds and dry your tears with a breeze So as long as we are alive we will hold them in our hearts and as long as we can breathe our heroes will never be apart So as we bury you with honor we will grieve, then heal & pray and even though we'll miss you you we'll be reunited in heaven one day

Isotope Separation
thanks for making me feel lessreminding me somehow that there's a need to distressdigressing into depressing delusions, driven to see past the illusions and diabolically demeaning definitions derived from your stereotypical conclusions about the outsides of a woman. you stole my ability to see beyond my imperfections, idolizing idiotic inconsequential portions of my identity only to secretly sequester the parts of me that fit the parts of you so profound and perfectly to their prolific perilous fate.. drowning beneath your disgust and disapproval, disguised in a devilish ruse to help you obtain and abuse the very treasures that trolled yet so well hidden inside of me.you made me trust you and turn myself over, let go of my inhibitions when you didn't want to own them and leave me lay broken in the wake of your indifference and indecisionyou slay me with precisionwe are alike in many a measure, identical properties that perpetuate pleasure and pleasingly plot to unite us as one at least

I Pray For You
by: Jared and the Long Road to Love I haven't been to church since I don't remember whenThings were going great til they fell apart again So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to doHe said you can't go hatin' others who have done wrong to youSometimes we get angry but we must not condemnLet the good Lord do his job, you just pray for them I pray your brakes go out runnin' down a hillI pray a flower pot falls from a window sillAnd knocks you in the head like I'd like toI pray your birthday comes and nobody callsI pray you're flyin' high when your engine stallsI pray all your dreams never come trueJust know wherever you are, honey, I pray for youI'm really glad I found my way to churchCause I'm already feelin' better and I thank God for the wordsYeah, I'm gonna take the high road and do what the preacher told me to doYou keep messin' up, and I'll keep prayin' for youI pray your tire goes out at 110I pray you pass out drunk with your best friendAnd wake up with his and her tat

In Flander's Field
This poem was read every Memorial Day when I was growing up... Means more to me now with the Passing of my Grandfather. So for all of my fellow Brothers and Sisters in Arms that are still in the Service... And for those that are no longer with us.... We Will Remember You. In Flander's Fields by Lieutenant Colonel John McCrae In Flanders fields the poppies blow Between the crosses, row on row, That mark our place; and in the sky The larks, still bravely singing, fly Scarce heard amid the guns below. We are the Dead. Short days ago We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow, Loved, and were loved, and now we lie In Flanders fields. Take up our quarrel with the foe: To you from failing hands we throw The torch; be yours to hold it high. If ye break faith with us who die We shall not sleep, though poppies grow In Flanders fields.

Here I Am Again........
It's been just a bit over a year since I last blogged, at least anything of substance. I've just spent some time reading back through some of my blogs, amazed at where I have been, an awareness inside of the movement forward along my Path. So much chaos.....so much pain! Not so much chaos now but the pain continues, ebbing and flowing as pain and sadness do. I am down to one teenager at home. Dakota is almost 16 now. The oldest grandson Damian is 23 and on his own.....doing well. Middle grandson Tim is on his own, as well.....still a work in progress. Tim usually calls me when he is in need of free medical care, lol. Dakota......well, he's a teenager, what can I say. I am thankful he is the last......I'm ready to hang up my child-rearing spurs, thank you!! My Oriental Medicine practice continues to thrive and grow. I am thankful I am able to support myself and Dakota. I'm using my essential oils in my practice now. And crystals are "talking" to me these days, lol.....yeah, I've

Fun Until...
Happy Memorial day I went to Bourbon street last night and hit a few bars, hit a strip club, had some pizza and was having a blast...then my friend gets a text from our ride. Dude was in the car and leaving... wtf? so yeah not only did we get stranded by a "friend" he decides to tell the girls he took their purses out of the car and left them in the parking lot!!! yeah... needless to say after getting to when he parked, no purses and no car... I had to catch a cab home @ 430am... for some reason every time i go to bourbon street or the french quarter i get seperated from the party, but never got stranded, but what kind of asshole leaves peoples shit in the parking lot? I think he deserves a special kind of ass whoopin for that...but I really hope he just "said" he took their purses out of his car and left them cuz you ladies keep a lot of crap in them

Here's How Our Program Works!
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Mistakes Of The Heart
Stepping out into the cold, first time seeing your smile Wrapping my arms around you That first kiss, first of many Feeling the warmth of your lips Holding you in my arms, hearing those words Did they have true meaning, or just empty words As time wore on, they seemed like only words The coldness in your voice No affection in body language You were always wanting, never giving in return Willing to give all for none in return What I get for following a hunch Mistakes in the past, bound to not repeat Was I wrong, yes I was Nothing can change what was said Knife wounds to the core You kept hurling daggers til the end Blind to what was there Always wanting others to love you as well Never satisfied with just one Heart will lie, will never heal Build a wall to protect what's left From your words at the end To destroy what was available for only you.

Kindness
Let us not underestimate how hard it is to be compassionate. Compassion is hard because it requires the inner disposition to go with others to the place where they are weak, vulnerable, lonely, and broken. But this is not our spontaneous response to suffering. What we desire most is to do away with suffering by fleeing from it or finding a quick cure for it. As busy, active, relevant ministers, we want to earn our bread by making a real contribution. This means first and foremost doing something to show that our presence makes a difference. And so we ignore our greatest gift, which is our ability to enter into solidarity with those who suffer. Those who can sit in silence with their fellowman, not knowing what to say but knowing that they should be there, can bring new life in a dying heart. Those who are not afraid to hold a hand in gratitude, to shed tears in grief and to let a sigh of distress arise straight from the heart can break through paralyzing boundaries and witness the birt

So I Went To Work The Door Thing In The End
I can't believe I made actual mumms about it and that actual mumm comments influenced my decision!!! :o Anyway, all in all it was a pretty good night. The guy ended up paying BOTH of us even though I was just there for the lolz, but I did end up doing a lot of work anyway. He asked me if I wanted to help him out again at another event...meh it's fun I guess but tres annoying. Taking the cash and giving change is easy but I guess being sociable is also part of the job description. Whoever said I'd get hit on was right lol. I had a bunch of drinks lined up at the back from guys even though I told them I wasn't meant to be drinking on the job. (which was a lie...the manager got us drinks as well, I guess normal rules don't apply!) It's fun, but a bit annoying when they hold up the line. The promotion thing...I don't mind doing it but I'd rather not. Standing out in the cold talking to strangers and trying to convince them into going to the bar is just bleh and I got a sore throat

Wonderful Poem By Billy Collins
The Death of the Hat--Billy CollinsOnce every man wore a hat.In the ashen newsreels,the avenues of citiesare broad rivers flowing with hats.The ballparks swelledwith thousands of straw hats,brims and bands,rows of men smoking and cheering in shirtsleeves.Hats were the law.They went without saying.You noticed a man without a hat in a crowd.You bought them from Adams or Dobbswho branded your initials in goldon the inside band.Trolleys crisscrossed the city.Steamships sailed in and out of the harbor.Men with hats gathered on the docks.There was a person to block your hatand a hatcheck girl to mind itwhile you had a drinkor ate a steak with peas and a baked potato.In your office stood a hat rack.The day war was declaredeveryone in the street was wearing a hat.And they were wearing hatswhen a ship loaded with men sank in the icy sea.My father wore one to work every dayand returned homecarrying the evening paper,the winter chill radiating from his overcoat.But today we go bareheadedinto the

When Souls Cry Out In Pain
My soul cry's in pain, as I stare out through my window pane. My tears stream down my face, hitting onto my pillow case. I am a soul in pain, no love or comfort, will I gain. Love is lost never to receive again. I am a soul who' been forgotton, no one seems to share them selfs to help me out. They turn away and laugh in my face, for they think I'm just a mental case. I scream out to God in pain, why must you, put me through all this anguish, and sadness. I wonder through the roads of life, living but not living, each day is a stuggle. As I search, for comfort but its not there, pulling away from people who stare. Reaching out in the vast cosmos of space, leaving behind a life that has not lived. I cry but no one hears, my fears are as real as they shatter the sound of my own beatting heart, wish I could just rip it out. No more feelings I will bare, cause frankly who even cares My soul crys in pain, never wishing to live once again

And Here I Sit Once More
Here I sit once more, thinking of my life and what I have made out of it ..which is nothing. I wish I could re do it all over again and change somethings. Like get a career, take better care of myself. I have no friends to speak of, because I am so anti social only cause I am sick of being judged by family and peers Tired of people who seem to have it all , and here I am trying to make sure my family have food on the table and take care of the bills and pray we dont lose this shit hole of a house. I am bitter yes you betcha, am I lonely dam right. I may have a family but I am still alone here. I feel like im soooooooooooo gawd dam non important, taken advantage, not respected. Soooooooooooooooooooooooo yeah would I if I could start my life over yes in deed.......would first ask for a new family to grow up in......as mine was nothing but abuse and mental cruelity. All I want is to be loved by a man who respects and appreciates what I have done for him. I dont want or thi

Forever Alone...
Sitting in the dark his mind wanders, thinking of days past, of people long gone. Friend and foe alike long gone, memories of loves lost and unrequited. Many regrets pass through as well, places he would have gone. Things he would have done. Sure he could go to those places now, but they are empty and barren not even plants. With nothing but the shadows of the people that once dwelt there. Was this what he wanted when he made the wish? He had no idea how long an eternity was. He has wealth beyond measure, he never has to eat, except to remember the taste. He needs not breath or sleep, he cannot even die. He is immortal. He cries loud and curses the gods, the sky, the sea of darkness around him, the very earth beneath his feet. Anyone that might see him would think he is mad, but noone can, noone will. He is alone and has been for thousands of year, from moments after he made that cursed wish from the lamp he found in his basement. To be young and rich forever was his wish, to never die

Just My Luck
I ended up with an older woman at a club last night.She looked pretty good for a 60-year-old. In fact, she wasn't too bad at all, and I found myself thinking that she probably had a really hot daughter.We drank a bit, and we had a bit of a snuggle, and she asked if I ever had a 'Sportsman's Double?''What's that?' I asked. 'It's a mother and daughter threesome,' she said.'Oh...' I said as my mind began to embrace the idea, 'No, I haven't.' And I wondered what this daughter of hers might look like. We drank a bit more, then she says with a wink that tonight was 'my lucky night.I went back to her place. We walked in.She put on the hall light and shouted upstairs:'Mom, you still awake'

Lost Love
She sits, gazing at the horizon, waiting, willing it to change. Hoping with all of her heart that she will see the dark spot appear on the sea. But she knows deep down he is gone. She has recieved the letter saying his ship was lost during the battle. She refuses to believe it. This was his last outting. He promised he would return, they would be together forever and build a house right where she now stands overlooking the slowly darkening waters. He promised, and he never breaks his promises. He always comes back and tells her tales of the far off lands and battle he fought in. Such amazing places with ancient statues and castles with wall higher then the tallest tree. Maybe one day he will take her to those places, that would be nice. She steps forward, dreaming of being with her love that will never return. Weeping softly as the sun makes it's final decent into the dark ocean, clutching the letter to her chest she steps off the edge and goes down, down, down, to join her love somewh

Memorial Day.....
So what is everyone doing? Knowing some of you, probably get drunk and have a BBQ right? Nothing wrong with that......... It's not supposed to be a celebration!!!!!! It's supposed to be a Memorial, to all the fallen, sure it's a vacation but don't treat it like one. When ya have that BBQ, maybe just keep them in your mind. If you believe in prayer, maybe pray for them. Go to the local cemetary, anything besides thinking oh wooohooooooo vacation I get the day off!!! What has happened to this country lately? Has it really gone this far down? I sure as hell hope not!!

Jack
I can make the madness melt.With a simple formula of ecstasy and gaping mouths.Ready for reception of tepid affection and swarming biotics.Medical marvels in the south buroughs. Not unlike working plague. Sequined lepers. A fist full of billsa pocket full of dreamsand tonight everyone's a model just doing this to get by for a couple monthsa single mom in a studio apartmenta sob storyanother jonesing fearful, moaning sanctus semptem charged by the hour You think I'm really cute,but you've gotta get to the next stationso you insist that just this once I pay Still and dry. The skin of your cheeks gone cold.The light behind went out.Will anyone care when they find you?Will anyone find you? As I thumb through the bills I handed youpocket full of dreamsmouth full of poison mediocrity.

A Night At The Camp Fire
I went to a friend's house this weekend. He had invited me over for drinks around the campfire with a few friends. When I showed up he and one his friends were already drinking and having a good time. We talked and joked and had a few drinks. During the conversation, the topic turned toward sex. This usually happens with me. I have a tendency to bring the subject out in people. We talked about simple things, like sex with exes or friends. Then, I was ordered to give his friend a blow job in a camper sitting just out of the firelight. No questions asked. I walked over, took the guy's hand and led him to the trailer. I laid him down and told him to open his pants. I bent down and took his limp dick in my mouth.... I love giving blow jobs.... They fascinate me.... The feel of a man on my tongue. The ability to lose myself in the moment. I ran my tongue up and down shaft. I circled around the head and felt his fill my mouth as became excited. Reaching up under his shirt, I took a ni

One Wish
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

The One Thing That Remains... ( It Could Be Your Mom Or Dad, Your Friend, Someone Who Cares About You)
The one thing that remains... It seems like it's always this time of year that i stress myself out so bad that I freak at the small things, because the big things are so enormous that the shadows they inflict on my life make everything dark. I'm just looking for some sunlight, and I know that it's right around the corner, but right now, I feel like that corner is light years away. Time creeps and im barely scraping by. But amidst all the pressure and the ...i guess overwhelming ambition to do great, there is one thing that remains. Irreplaceable support. Mom, I dont tell you often enough, how much you keep me motivated and on my feet. When shit falls apart or i start to talk myself down, you are always there to pick up the debris and toss me back on track. The little texts you send are uplifting, even if it just says "you are wonderful and i love you no matter what." but the truth is, im only wonderful because of you . You shaped me to always be strong and such an individual with

Fate As I Believe
Fate It really is true that everything happens for a reason.Our lives are just one, big plan that ultimately completes a person. Sometimes it's hard to believe this theory and sometimes it is hard to understand why something didn't exactly work out the way you had hoped at the time, but if you remind yourself that it's all part of the plan, it helps. At least for me, it does because i truly believe this. Whether it be a person you hope to date, fall in love with, break up with, get cheated on with, someone you meet in a grocery store, the reason you took the left turn instead of right, the reason you got pregnant, the reason you didn't get pregnant.. EVERY single component works in a certain way and directs your life how it is supposed to go. Granted, we all make decisions, but who's to say that those decisions aren't already made for you, as "part of the plan"You can not make someone love you.You can not wish for things to change or change a person's mind.It is the way it is for

She Makes Me Want To Scream
I am not one to bitch about single moms because hello I used to be one but when the father of a child tries harder than any father I have known to see his boys and she always has an excuse as to why not...it really pisses me off. She makes him pay up to 2k just to see them for one night. She has told him he can see them at christmas and when he shows up, they are nowhere to be seen. Every time they talks she wants more money. She says that kids can't travel on a plane unaccompanied until they are 12...which is total bullshit. Kids can start flying at age 5 as long as it is a non stop flight. Now her big excuse is that she doesn't want them to spend any time getting to know me or my kids. She threatens to take him back to court and now he's ready. After 5 years of her telling him no he is going to fight back. Just so he can get the visitation he is entitled to. He pays his child support on time every month. She didn't work at all last year and she begged him to claim the younge

New Tatts
got 2 new tatts today for my b-day. both are awesome and one is for my radio station. its the station id and logo and it kicks ass. ty to vintage ink in san antonio for the awesome work. pics will be posted in the next couple days so watch for em.

Some Kind Of Stupid
So, I'm in a chat room tonight and an individual who I particularly don't like is whining about a sunburn. If that's not bad enough, the dumbass put Icy Hot on it. Okay, seriously, how stupid are you to put Icy Hot on a burn?

Fade
i let her fade as the darkness grew said goodbye to the woman i knew i tried to fight, gave it my all yet little by little i felt the fall my cries rang out, my heart bled until one day i just felt dead an empty shell is what lies here feeding off the hearts worst fear Outlaw Angel

The Kiss
meeting for the first time looking into you eyes holding you close outside the moon is full the music flowing in our heads swaying slowly dancing in the moon light i kiss you softly our lips our mouths part and tongues touch your eyes sparkle and i hear you moan as we kiss visions you this fill my head as i close my eyes i see us holding each other kissing in the moon light one moment that will forever be eched in my mind till that one day we will meet that one day we will kiss the one day we will be in each others arms till that day i will dream this dream of kissing you in the pale moon light under the stars

Tired Of Them
why is it that people say one thing and do another! people are who they are and nobody had the right to judge others just because they are different then them. they say " i love you for who you are", they are really saying "i love you as long as you fit in how i want you to be not who you are". why cant people just be who they are not what people want them to be? i am who i am take me or leave me. love me for who i am not who you think i should be.

Scuttle
scuttle\SKUHT-l\ verb; 1.To run with quick, hasty steps; scurry.noun: 1.A deep bucket for carrying coal. 2.A small hatch or port in the deck, side, or bottom of a vessel. 3.A small hatchlike opening in a roof or ceiling.verb: 1.To sink (a vessel) deliberately by opening seacocks or making openings in the bottom. 2.To abandon, withdraw from, or cause to be abandoned or destroyed.noun: 1.A short, hurried run.

Im Sorry
I never meant to hurt youthe way I know I have.Your love means more to methan anything and I'll do whatever it takesto prove that to you.Since the day I met you andyour love touched my heartI knew that my life would never be the same.Please forgive me for the pain I've caused.I'll make it up to you every chance I get.You have my heart and my love forever.

I Love ..
I love to listen to you talk,as you open up to me,expressing what your feeling,and everything you see. I love they way you listen,and how i know you understand,everything I'm mumbling,and help me through it with your hand. I love how you give me advice,and tell what's on your mind,You always make me fell better,with those things you say, I love the way you help me,Whether is night or day,your always there,every step of the way. I love the way you make me smile,and make me glow with delight,You take away my fears,and make everything alright. I love everything about you,And you'll always be my Friend .. and maybe more,I love the fact we don't know what's in store.

The Hard Facts:what Languages Web Developers Should Learn
When I first started learning programming, choices were limited to machine code or a version of BASIC. But then I am ancient. windows 7 In many ways, the newcomer to programming who’s aiming at web or mobile development has a much better time of it today. This is because whilst there are many, product many languages to choose from, they have much more in common than languages of the past. Learn ActionScript, for example, and you’re half way there with C#, PHP and JavaScript, as their basic constructs are identical. Microsoft But the real value you, as a web developer, can bring to a project is specialist skill. Whilst every good PHP developer understands the basics of C#, no web project can be completed without in-depth knowledge, and this takes time and lots and lots of practice to develop. It’s a huge investment so the choice of which language to specialise in is also critical, at least in the short- to medium-term. Windows 7 Office 2010 Only Sales $9.99 !

Vision
... If everyone who has ability to see.. could for one week see in a fog. They would understand and see life a little differently ..of course senses are more acute .. but there are other sense that becomes apparent, you ou go on instinct .I have learned so much about myself as well as others from experencing this . I had to understand myself and others in a total new way as well as normal everyday things we take for granted... Like we wake up knowing the sun will rise and the sunset will set ..the moon will guide us ..and the stars to enlighten in dark ..but what if you woke up and things where grey and not there for you to see .. a trust begins to take a different form. You begin to trust others to see for you and to guide you .. you rely on that trust in others to make things clear for you..seeing through them. You lose something in this process .. and you gain !My eyes are wide open now to everything..knowing what is real and who you can trust .. I have gained so much of inner i

Can I Own A Canadian?
In her radio show, Dr Laura Schlesinger said that, to an observantOrthodox Jew, homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22,and cannot be condoned under any circumstance. The following response is anopen letter to Dr. Laura, penned by a US resident, which was posted on theInternet. It's funny, as well as informative: Dear Dr. Laura: Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I havelearned a great deal from your show, and try to share that knowledge with asmany people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexuallifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that Leviticus 18:22 clearlystates it to be an abomination ... End of debate. I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some other elements ofGod's Laws and how to follow them. 1. Leviticus 25:44 states that I may possess slaves, both male and female,provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend of mineclaims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canad

Ying N Yang
ive always wanted a tall guy, other than black or brown eyes, someone with color but not too dark..i did the spanish thing n that didnt work out, they r all illegal or have drinking problems.. i wanted someone good to me, n mines, someone that doesnt have a drinking problem, and likes the same stuff as me, n sometimes different. someome whos not going to cause problems for no reason, someone who wants to b with me, reguardless of how i am..all i need sometimes is someone that just understands n holds my head through my pain, cuz the other side will be sunny skys free of rainy nights of pain.. needless to say, everyone tells me to not meet people off the net, but now a days that one of the most common places u find anyone.. i found my mister right for me. hes tall sexy has the perfect body anyone could dream of, perfect everything, lol i like perfection..hes personality matches mines on a point, yha we fight sometimes, but everyone just wants to get shit on their minds out..im le

What Good Friends I Have
okay now i know ive been off the loop for a minute, by not having alot of female friends...so this one chic who i considered my home girl. ok we have everything in common, from kids ages to favorite foods, likes dislikes. etc.. okay now, i have a good heart n will help a friend in need, so now since i babysat her monster 18month old, n couldnt go look for a job those three days, shes yet to have paid me, and she knows i have no job. she just got an 800$ pay check this last week n said it all went for bills but yet she could go to the other side of the state to visit friends??? and another thing i seen her at the store after she got back buying beer n spending atleast 50$ on dumb shit..so how couldnt she give me money?? and while i was at the store, she called my man sexy, well she didnt see me infront of him cuz hes really tall, n his back was to her, but apparently she walked in and said hey sexy. then when he turned around she saw me, n had a shocked look on her face.. she k

Final Cd
Unspoken Voices is recording their first and ONLY C.D. that is featuring me within it. As I had said before, I am leaving to Huntington, West Virginia in August. Firsthand, I had already known my tenure to be in Unspoken Voices was going to be short. Schooling is a definite priority within my life; However, if I decide to move back to New Jersey in the future, I would then consider making appearences with my former bandmates/friends who are actively seeking permanent bands. The CD should be completed by the ending of July. I will do my best to make copies and online recordings. Thank you all for the support! JP

Amazed!!
He sits and looks out across the valley. While staring in amazment at what he see’s before his eyes he wonders what she is thinking. Is she thinking of him? What is she doing? Where is she? He can only imagine. He is amazed He then thinks of all that she has said to him. He thinks of the trust that he has for her. What her words really mean, and why they mean so much to him. He thinks of these words because she has given him a gift. It is that feeling that is down deep, so down deep that it is a surprise to him when it has finally come out. It has been something that was there all along. Something indescribable. So real, so right. He is amazed While just sitting and staring off at what God has created, a smile comes across his face. He has thought of one of the many memories that he has shared with her. His mind goes back in time to places that he had been, the feelings he had felt, the love that he had shared with her. The smile is still there, but

That Moment
He walks into the room. He had been anticipating this time for quite a while, all the while knowing that she had been as well. He see’s her across the room, through the people that were there. Their eyes lock, it was a moment that was indescribable. This is what they had waited for, that moment. He begins to cross the room, slowly at first and very quickly picking up his pace. She is shocked by his confidence, how he carries himself, so confident, so there and so right now. She can hardly move her legs because of the excitement of it all. But somehow, she finds the strength to pick herself up, and begin walking to him, slowly then as quickly as he is moving. The finally meet at the center of the room. For some reason, there are no people there anymore, just the lights that are now dim, and music playing. He embraces her in his arms with the upmost of strength and confidence. She can feel immediately, how much he has missed her, how incredible it feels to be in his ar

Man Stuff
"It's not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of good deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actualy in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcomming; who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat." Teddy Roosevelt. Man.

Bling Deal
If you buy me a bling pack this is what I will give you in return: 25 credit bling pack I will get you either 1 auto or 1 bomb or 2 boomerangs ($14.99) 65 credit bling pack I will get you 6 boomerangs or 1 auto+1bomb+1boomerang or 2 autos+1boomerang or 2 boombs+1 boomerang ($37.49) 135 credit bling pack I'll get you 12 boomerangs or 5 autos or bombs.. ($74.99) ... if I didnt mention a deal you would like to make talk to me I'm sure we could work something out .... because there could be so many combo deals to list lol .. its a win win .. Deals last until the sale is OVER hit me up and let's deal you will get more for the buck THE SALE IS OVER TUESDAY JUNE 1ST AT MIDNIGHT FUBAR TIME PST as Baby J did say in his status.

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me
"If tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say. I! know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above,

Amor
It’s so hard to look at the last year and look at the present and see how my life is today. I would of never thought in the past 6 months fate would of introduced me to the guy our moms always tell us about. You know the prince in the stories of fairytales, that young girls dream about. I would have to say, of course I was skeptic about having the one, or anyone for that matter. It wasn’t my goal or number one priority. It makes me laugh to think how cliché the saying goes, “you won’t find him until you stop looking.” Well, I stopped looking for anyone and gave myself fully to this thing some call fate. I stumbled into Johnny and thought nothing of it. Over countless hours of conversation daily and tons of laughter we fell in love. He became my craving you know the thing you can’t live without. He is the butter to my bread and all of those perfect match sayings. I can say I am truly in love for the first time in my entire life. Not that puppy lov

High School
They say high school is tough, But I think that it's fun. It's where we make life long friends. Where we meet our first loves. It's a whole little world of its own. A place where we learn not only about equations and formulas, but about the bigger picture of our world. About life and the world we live in, And the people who live in it. In high school, we're exposed to various ethics and backgrounds; With all of this, we recognize what makes each of us different. And with open minds, we can accept and appreciate That of which makes each and everyone of us Unique in our own special ways

Heart Of A Poet
From the heart of a poetComes words of sorrowJoys withinAnd unseen tomorrowsTears with smiles are beautiful thingsGifts of thoughts to a human beingLessons of loveBe still and waitKindness is patientIt does not takeBut gives to all who hesitatesWho writes the words without mistakesWho needs to feel and needs to show itWhos meaning is real and needs you to know itWhos friendship is sealed above and below itInto and out of the heart of a poet

Perfect Life
I dream of a perfect life. Simple not complicated. Enough to please me, but keep me alive. Happy to smile with no disappointments. I watch the horizon about; no words of doubt. Looking forward in anticipation. But backwards at satisfaction of the conclusion of each day. Heeding the prompts of my inner voice; and what I hear is comforting, full of reassurance. Sweet feelings of contentment. But the human soul dies, To be forgotten soon. Turning into unfamiliar faces; A blank drawn in a space, A hole left in the wake alone. Of a perfect life I dreamt, which closes cold over, and UNKNOWN.

My Core
I am easily gone and hurt to the center of my human flesh. Numbnezz takes over the pain that used to accompany my soul. Severed like the skeleton of my ancestors long ago. My words a whisper to the vengeful souls of life. A painful world of needles we live in and yet I am stuck standing like a statue of cold stone all alone in the wide open. Like a simple minded target for easy prey. No one cares enough to reach out and save me. No one even glances as they pass by. I rott in this prison of my making with each hurtful memory I continue to pile on the bricks of the invisible wall around me. Many try to break through but none are able to succeed. My heart is one of stone and coldnezz. My eyes dark and gray. My mind distant and unknown. And my soul lost to the demon far below. A bitch some call me, others venge upon the blood of those I shed. I have no breath for it was sucked clean out of me by death himself. Can I be saved? Do I still have a chance? I fear not my friends, for we are all

My Breathe Ripped Away
Cold, Severd, and darkened from deep within. I can feel death draining my veins. Sucking the life I have left. My pulse weakened. My veins empty. My life gone away. Down the twisting and turning, tunneling drain. Forever gone. Always Lost. The Vengeful Severence of what is left of my self pity. Why? I scream silently inside. The involuntary tears stream like a beautiful red river, staining the floor upon which I stand. How much must I endure? All the shattering memories and the conpulsive pain come riveting back to me. I stand alone in the wide open gates of Hell...Welcoming it all with limbs of numbnezz. With a broken heart and tears of stained blood where tears once were known. I slowly give in and let it all consume the person I once was long ago.

Lost In Distance
The pages of the torn book and chapter in my life keep turning to ash. Dust to Dust. Drifting away. Nothing Left. Shutting up and leaving behind not a single clue as to what once was in my heart. The feelings are long gone. The memories a distant treasure. My heart long broken. And my life long ago torn. My soul ripped from my body and my breath taken by those who hurt me the most.Though one memory of the past still stands. Still haunts the life I live now. Can I save it? Who knows. They say you never know what you have until it's gone. Been quite some time now and yet I know where my heart resides tho that person will and may never know. I tried to move on thinking that my chance was long ago lost and forgotten. But, maybe I am wrong. I dunno where it leads or may go. Should I risk all I have or jus let it go?

Land Of Tears
Would you like to join me,in my land of tears?There is so much to learn here:Love means losing, in my land of tears.But in the process, love calms all fears.So maybe, you feel, you'll lose it all inthe end,But nothing compares to the places you've been.Death is permanent, in my land of tears.But there is nowhere to run to when it nears.And when someone is taken, there's such painin your heart.But be greatful- that someone was there fromthe start.Friendship is life, in my land of tears.It comforts all sorrows when the darkness lears.Forever binding and never untrue,It will be right there, through and through.There is so much I have learned here. Wouldyou like to joing me in my land of tears?

In My Eyes
When you look into my eyes,What do you see?Do you see the deep blue skies,Do you see me?When you look into my eyes,What can you find?Can you find dark black holes,Or are you blind?When you look into my eyes,Are you for real?Are you searching for me,To know what I feel?When you look into my eyes,Can you get back out?Is quicksand sucking you in further,To see what I'm about?When you look into my eyes,Why don't you see the truth?Why don't you notice me?Why are you so aloof?

How I Feel
The pain. The depression. It's all gone away.Involuntary tears streaming down my face.Its all torn apart. Nothing left.All faded away.I ask you one more time.Where is my life direction.The path. My journey.The light above and beyond.Flowing down the tunneled drain.Twisting and turning.Far away. Slipping and sliding.Into the distant darkness.I scream. I reach. I strive.Distant fears and screams.Agonizing. Terrorizing. Tagonizing.Flaming brutal torture alone.Why I ask you.Why I scream. Throat burning.Am I treated like I am.Abusiveness. The long struggle...Fighting to stay alive.Hurt and depression...heartbreak and failure.Broken and bleeding.Torn and pleading.Down on my knees.I'm locked deep down inside.Fading into eternal darkness.Unable to breathe.Covered..and coated...and showered.In the realms of HELL i DO reside.

Depression
They want me to push you away. They say you hurt me, but I don't want to believe. For I find a certain safety in your arms of ugliness, the only things that want to embrace me lately. And even when I think I'm done with this abuse, I don't know the sweet words that will sweep you away, some old childhood incantation that crawled away from my bitter memory when it turned its back for a moment. You are a sickness; I cannot control you, though there are magical concoctions that can. But I cannot make the quest for them alone, and you have me feeling as though there's no one who loves enough to help. They don't believe me when I tell them that you have taken over who I am. I know not if they deny your power, your existenance, or the fact that you have chosen me for your victim. I only want to go back and forget I ever looked into your dark eyes. But it is too late and I feel as though our tainted courtship has ruined everything. You do not comfort me when I cry in dark cornors, but you pus

Because I Am Me
When you tell me to comeI want to because I love youI don't because I am my own personWhen you want me to lieI want to because you say soI don't because I am truthful to my wordsWhen you tell me to trust youI want to because I believe youI don't because I am unsureWhen you want me to speakI want to because it makes you happyI don't because I don't have timeWhen you ask me to come earlyI want to because I am faithfulI don't because I am not in a rushWhen you say forget about the pastI want to because that was thenI don't because I learned that you can't

Judgement Day
September 11, 2001began like the many days before,But before long the world would knowwhat this day had in store.A hijacked plane flown into one of the twin towers,ending its deadly flight.A mere 18 minutes later another plane hit,This the beginning of America's plight.The once vital components of a business day,Such as documents and desks,Now trivial objects as hopeless employeesLeaped tragically to their deaths.The Pentagon, once a national symbol ofOur country's safety and strength,Was also attacked and bears a wound,Smoldering hundreds of feet in length.The entire world watched in horror,As tower one crumbled to the ground.No true New Yorker will ever forgetThe unbelievable sight and sound.A short while later the other one caved,Crashing down floor by floor,And before our eyes reality set in:The World Trade Center was no more.Fireman and cops rushed to the scene,Helping in any way they could.Many of them risking, sacrificing their lives,As any of our finest would.Civilians ran in f

America's Prayer
The whole world cried out ' why?'As we watched those planes leave the sky,And cause so many innocent victims to die.We stopped and stared, our eyes were glazed,The nation was shocked, more so amazed,But we were powerless as we all gazed.The skyline was beautiful, powerful and tall,We were speechless as we watched it fall,Our hearts go out to one and all.Revenge is wrong, but someone must pay,Killing more, won't take the pain away,But uniting together is the only way.We won't let this happen any more,Or it will lead to all out war,You mark my words for sure.So let the terrorists think that they've won,While they laugh and cheer at what they've done,Because this world WILL unite as one.We'll give them a slap in the face,As the buildings get put back into place,And prove WE are the true HUMAN race.

American Freedom
Blood is the fluid of life spilled for countries for what we call freedom and fighting for our country and land. They say that America is the land of freedom to do as you please, but what they really mean is to pay taxes out the ass and be shut up forever. In America they say you are free and have no worries, but really it is all a lie to make you feel safe. It's nothing. Just a world of endless dreams and hopes gone to hell that you'll never be free. If we were considered free this nation would not be despising upon race and wealth. What should it matter what color you are or even how much money you have. The American Government says that there is opportunity here, but what opportunity is that? The opportunity to fail before you even try to succeed. There are no jobs to support our families, because foreign people come into this country and take them from us. When we have lived here all our lives and they just emmigrate and steal them all blind. How are we supposed to believe that our

Razor Blade~easily Gone~
I stand and I sit and I think~Think of how I can help myself~Should I cut to ease the pain~To understnad the confusion~Should I take the razor blade~And slice it over my wrist?~So I stop and look around at my surroundings~All soaked in deep red, rich blood~I glance downward~And scrape it across my wrist quickly~once~twice~again and again~The memories~The past fading~I begin to bleed~To slowly feel free~No more, No more I chant silently~I fall down on my knees~Watching my blood flow like a beautiful river~I begin to cry~The involuntary tears streaming down my face~Down my arm the blood flows staining the floor I stand upon~These involuntary tears simply fall like rain drops from the sky~Splashing down to my veins~Feeling oozy~fatigued~I leave the world in vein~Remembering to cut one last time~deeper the scar of life~slipping into an eternal abyss and funeral forever~

Demon Dreams
When satan's son is dead, castrated A dark gateway will be created The world will transform to a living HELL And will create the unholy shell Where the skeleton hangs the body lies As demons' hands reach for the skies The life within now gone away Tomorrow is a darker day Joy to demons, Joy to hell Joy to those within the shell The hatred is a joyous thing And sorrow makes the church bells ring The tree of life is grown with thorns And sprout anew with little horns The angels have abandoned flight And there will be no morning light Those who burn with holy fire Will not reach their one desire The happy dreams will not be filled Let all the joyful ones be killed The dark one sits on burning tower The bright one feels his folding power It seems now that the tide has turned Let all the holy ones be burned The world has now come to an end This is it, I'm afraid It's over my friend.

Magickal Fairy
Twisted minds in an endless world of pain. A place where beautiful things vanish before the naked eye. Darkness rages and takes over the world of existence. I was once a magickal fairy beautiful and adored by all. Glitter magick and charmed by everyone. But my wings have long been torn. My magick long faded away centuries ago. My soul ripped and taken from my fragile body. My heart of warmth long ago shattered like a million pieces of a mirror. Voices all around keep chanting and telling me to believe. Believe in what I shout and scream aloud? Existence above all abyss in the world of belief. I meditate and wink a smile at all who do believe. And I start to slowly chant a simple....fairy tale. To read.....all you have to do is believe within yourself.

Petition.
BLOCKING "ORDER A ROUND" I've been considering doing this for a while, so here it finally is. Tired of getting countless Pints of fuIness [or whatever the drink of the day BabyJ has chosen]?Started wondering what good is being a Demon, able to shitface people...when they're already shitfaced the entire day? This is my proposition for a block option. If you would like to have one, post "yes" as your comment. If you enjoy the attention and deleting tons of drink gifts, post "no". If you don't really give a crap either way, don't comment.

Daily News For The Thinking Man
Apparently, some terrorists like to take in the sites before they blow sh*t up. The all-American cocktail of glitz, commercialization, and entertainment, garnished with the busiest subway terminal in the city and thousands of tourists packing the streets daily, Times Square is for terrorists what Carnegie Hall is to musicians: the big time. Fortunately for us, the most recent jackass to attempt taking out a chunk of Times Square wasn’t a front row kind of guy in his bomb-making class. It's good to know there are slackers even in terrorist cells. [Shout out: What do you think about ... Times Square Bombing Attempt?] http://www.youtube.com/v/H7__rhJkM8M&hl=en_US&fs=1

Things Men Do To Get Laid That Science Says Turn Women Off
6 Things Men Do To Get Laid That Science Says Turn Women OffBy Kathy Benjamin Mar 29, 2010 2,234,203 views As we mentioned in this article, attracting a woman can be so easy you don't even realize you're doing it. Of course, most of the methods are totally outside of your control and can only be done on accident. Unfortunately, it turns out there are just as many things you're doing to repel women, again without even knowing it. Don't blame us; it's science. Common turn-offs include: #6.Talking to Her So you're in a club and--thanks to those eight shots of Jager, each of which you swear is making you exponentially sexier than you were before you downed them--you finally decide to approach the hot chick you've been leering creepily at all night. You've got your game face on and an arsenal of pick-up lines that would slay a Victoria's Secret catwalk. With a perfect storm of raw sex appeal like this brewing all around you, it comes as no surprise to you that the object of your carn

Sadomasochism - 470 Bc
Sadomasochism - 470 BC If you're reading Cracked, you're probably the type of person who already knows that sadomasochism was named after the Marquis de Sade. But he didn't invent it. Alternatively known as "bondage," "S & M" and "get the fuck out of my apartment," sadomasochism involves two consenting partners engaging in a style of sexual roleplay characterized by domination and submission. One partner, the dominant, inflicts pain, while the other partner, the submissive, receives it. S & M covers a wide range of activities, from simple verbal abuse and light spanking to full-blown flogging and humiliation. So if de Sade wasn't the father of sadomasochism, who was? Tarquinia's Tomb of the Floggings contains some of the earliest erotic artwork known to man, and they're almost 2,500 years old (dating around 470 BC). In addition to numerous depictions of orgies and guy-on-guy butt-tastic sex, we have a scene of what is clearly two dudes filling out one woman while whipping her

Zoophilia - Older Than Civilization
Zoophilia - Older than Civilization Zoophilia, also known as "bestiality," is the practice of having sex with an animal. While it isn't expressly illegal in most areas of the world, it also isn't officially condoned, the policy apparently being "let's not talk about it and hope it goes away." According to this article, most zoophiles experience the first stirrings of their fetish between the ages of 11 and 14, which suddenly explains the success of both Alvin and the Chipmunks movies. Zoophiles don't draw much of a difference between the affections of a human and an animal and, really, we can't see much of a difference between a pet and a significant other--they both cheer you up when you're down and they both can be trained to lick your genitals. As it turns out, the act of bonifering an animal may be older than recorded history, because it's really not all that hard to figure out just what's going on in this cave painting from Val Comonica, circa 8000 BC. And he looks like he's h

.full Of Wrong Timing.
So to give a little bit of background on this piece.... I was dating someone for a while during my Freshman and Sophomore years of college. I fell in love with him and he decided that he had met me too early in his life, that while he wanted to settle down with me, he needed to join the Marines first... I understood at the time, but then about 2 weeks after we broke up he got his ex girlfriend pregnant. Instead of joining the military and coming back home to me, he decided to "do the right thing" and marry her. They were engaged to be married last August, their daughter was born the previous December... Now, I received a message in April of last year telling me that the unthinkable had happened. Tim had been hit by a car. Absolutely devastated me. So the last bit about always loving him? That's true. I still love him, and I definitely always will and I miss him every. single. day. That's why I have the spoon tattoo. He was big spoon. Okay, now the actual piece of writing haha. I

Necrophilia - Fifth Century Bc
Necrophilia - Fifth Century BC There's no polite way to put this: Necrophilia is the fucking of dead bodies. Although considering the recent popularity of "vampire romance," having sex with a pale lifeless meatwad is apparently mainstream now. Those nipples might as well be dollar signs. Psychologists have theorized that there are a number of reasons why someone would be attracted to corpses, chief among them being the desire for a lifeless and unresisting partner (well, duh). But apparently the whole craze started the same way so many things start: with mummies. Herodotus (the Greek historian who lived in the fifth century BC) wrote in his Histories that, in order to stop people from having sex with corpses before mummification, the ancient Egyptians left them to decay for three or four days before handing them off to the embalmers. That's right: Necrophilia was such a problem for these guys that they had to take active preventative measures against it. But that's not all:

Foot Fetishism - 13th Century (or Earlier)
Foot Fetishism - 13th Century (or Earlier) Put simply, the foot fetish is a sexual attraction to feet, be they wrapped up in stockings or bare in all their sweat-pruned glory. Try to picture all the boners we just created. Foot fetishism has many forms, and can range from simple kissing and licking to full on penis massages. Many celebrities are self-confessed foot fetishists, including Jay Leno, so if you want to take a moment and ponder that, we'll wait. And while there are many, many websites and lots of YouTube videos supplying wank material for foot lovers, you probably could make a good living selling the same material a thousand years ago. These aren't for the beach. The first mention of foot fetishism we can find dates back to 1220 AD. Experts think the fetish got its start due to fear of STDs (history records show a lot more foot lovers during syphilis epidemics, like those of the 16th and 19th centuries). Keep in mind that back then, pretty much everyt

Autoerotic Asphyxiation - 17th Century
Autoerotic Asphyxiation - 17th Century Experts say that on the list of most frequent causes of embarrassing deaths, autoerotic asphyxiation ranks just below tequila and above backyard wrestling. While the term "sex accident" may sound awesome--like a high speed collision with a tractor trailer made of nudity--the reality of it is hotel staff discovering your body strangled to death and clutching your genitals in a kung fu grip. Autoerotic asphyxiation is just a big-city scientist term for "masturbating while strangling yourself." And it's more common than you'd think: according to ABC News and the FBI, roughly 500 to 1000 young men accidently die each year during autoerotic asphyxiation, though we're curious why the FBI is involved in this figure. If you were thinking the practice was accidentally discovered in some 1980s S & M club, you're wrong. Erotic asphyxiation goes back to the 1600s, when it was used as a treatment for erectile dysfunction, presumably because the patient i

Tentacle Rape - Late 18th Century
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Women Are Lightweights....
Women Are Lightweights When Ogden Nash commented that "candy is dandy, but liquor is quicker," he was most definitely talking about alcohol as the liquid panty remover. It's supposedly faster and more effective than witty conversation, flowers or even dick jokes. Give a girl a shot of tequila and she'll be a giggling puddle of uninhibited goo the moment it hits her bloodstream, while men can slam back the rest of the bottle and still be ready for anything. What Science Says: It's true, but not for the reason you're thinking, which is most likely body size, right? According to researchers, the real reason why women can't hold their liquor as well as men is because men and women have very different water to fat ratios to their bodies. Men's bodies are made up of about 61 percent water, whereas women average about 52 percent. While this doesn't sound all that important, it basically means that male biology acts like a cheating bastard of a bartender, watering down every drink a guy

What Happened To The Beautiful Day?
Give me more time, you said. With this, the sky opened up, and rain started to pour from the darkened clouds. I’m just trying to figure things out, you said. At this, I looked past you, hoping you couldn’t discern the tears from the rain on my face. This will never work, you said. Wanting this, I was more determined than ever you’d see that it really could. I wish I would’ve met you years from now, you said. Hearing this, I wish I could believe it. The day grew darker, as dusk came on. Then the day finally slipped away as night creeped in. I saw your image fade away into the deep blackness, and I was alone again. Isn’t this the way it always ends? We’ve reached my winter, my end of seasons. When things lay dormant, sleeping, waiting. But Spring will come. You’ll see.

Snob's From Evey Walk Of Life
Now this is something, I will not stand for even from my own children. Hubby and I were invited over to my middle son's house for a visit. I wore a nice black and white out fit. and I actually thought I looked good . Any how, my son greeted us, and started to show us the house he now is in hawk for. I ask were his soon to be wife was and he said over at her mom's . I said oh okay. We stepped out side to look at the back yard when one of his neighbours peered over the fence and ask were Stacey was. He said over at her mom's, his responds was ohhhhhh is that because she doent want to deal with seeing your mom again? My son just shook his head and looked at me. I just glared. I will give you some information as to why his woman doent like me. One day a few years back they came over and were talking about this 4, 000.00 engagement ring, (victorian) she wanted so bad. I said isnt that rather expensive for you to dish out chris, it isnt like you have a job that you would be ab

Women See Mauve, Men See Purple
Women See Mauve, Men See Purple A couple is staring at paint samples, the wife enthusiastically discussing the merits of aged ivory over albino Caucasian while the husband starts chewing off his own arm in hopes of escaping this hell where "white" has 30 different names. We're told that men are color impaired, forever mixing black socks with blue ones and refusing to wear salmon red because he's sure it's pink and he's going to get beaten bloody if he is seen wearing it in public. Only deserts are safe for pink polo shirts. Meanwhile, women are allegedly color obsessed, meticulously matching outfits and orgasmically relishing the differences between ecru and so white it's white, which implies that women are not only pretty shallow but kind of nuts as well. What Science Says: The gene for seeing red is only carried by the X chromosome, which puts men at a serious disadvantage for seeing the color spectrum. Color, after all, is defined by our ability to perceive red, green and blue,

Women Love To Talk (and Talk)
Women Love to Talk (and Talk) When it comes to communication, we've all heard that men are from a planet rich in iron oxide and women are from a planet that is full of sulfuric acid clouds, and without the insights of a skilled stand-up comedian or the psychological stylings of Dr. Phil, men and women are doomed to a lifetime of misunderstandings and divorce. Why? Because apparently on Mars telling someone you're fine means all is well; while on Venus saying you're fine is code for "If you don't figure out that I had my bangs cut half an inch before I freakin' point them out to you, I'm going to shiv you with an Ebola soaked nail file." So women love to talk, men keep it bottled up. But that's ridiculous if you think about it long enough. After all, humans are social animals, so if women are the better communicators, then how did they end up as the subjugated sex for like, ever? What Science Says: The areas of the brain responsible for language are over 17 percent larger in

Women Are Wimps
Women Are Wimps This is as basic as stereotypes get. Guys are bigger and stronger and traditionally are thought of as the more badass of the sexes. Women are frailer, smaller and prone to the sniffles at the slightest injury. The one exception, of course, is childbirth, when even the weakest woman is an Amazon warrior when it comes to tolerating labor pain that would make a grown man whimper like he just took a paintball shot to the nuts. So call a woman frail, and she'll reply that if men had to give birth, the human race would have died out a long time ago. What Science Says: Women do have a lower pain threshold, but it has nothing to do with toughness. Men simply don't feel pain the same way women do, and what they do feel, they feel a lot less of. Women have more pain receptors in their skin for starters, amplifying their exposure to aches and pains. Researchers believe it might be tied to the presence of GIRK2, a nifty little protein that not only affects pain

Adam And Eve
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Men Are Freaking Slobs
Men Are Freaking Slobs If detergent commercials have taught us anything, it's that the female nose is so highly evolved that it can pick out the stench of sweaty gym socks from a thousand paces. And once she has the scent in her delicate nostrils, a real woman cannot rest until the malodorous insult has been found, eliminated and replaced with a Linen Tides Breezy Cotton Fluff-n-Fresh (Now With Real Strawberries!) scent. Their men, meanwhile, can wear the same sweat-stained T-shirt for a week, and will let garbage pile up in the kitchen until somebody calls the health department. But that's loco right? It's like saying women were predisposed toward cleaning up after men or something, which is totally whack. She LIVES for this shit. What Science Says: Women really are better sniffers than men. This is despite there being no physical differences between the male and female nose or the number of receptors they have. Not only are women better at detecting smells, but studies have

Women Can't Drive....
Women Can't Drive and Park For Shit There is allegedly one thing women and blind men have in common: their ability to navigate. Even Google loves this stereotype, tossing back an impressive 75,200,000 hits when we typed in "women can't park." Then there are the supposed differences in the ways women and men get from one parking spot to the next, a practice often referred to as "driving." According to the Hollywood formula, men navigate by compass directions and a stubborn refusal to ask for directions ever, while women get from here to there by using landmarks, a winning smile and a little leg. Tell a woman to turn north, then east and then north again and every sexist comedy writer we polled here at Cracked agreed she'd get turned around faster than a frog in a blender. So, if this ridiculous stereotype were true, then Mother Nature has given men a serious edge in the "getting around" department. But that can't be right, because the decade of the 70s promised us that Mother Natu

Love It!
Yesterday, I'm standing outside the grocery store watching this guy talk to his son. They are approached by a man in a suit who says he's new in town and is looking to find the post office. After they tell him, he says he'a a preacher and is starting at a church nearby. He asked them to come in and he can help them find God and get into heaven. The Dad looks uncomfortable and doesn't seem to know what to say. WHEN! The son chimes in with, "With all due respect Mister, you can't even find the post office." That kid is AWESOME.

Things On My Mind!!
i have so much on my mind, like it seems like the girl i love with all my heart is just not interested in me anymore, she hardly talks to me the way she used to, she's more interested in talking and txting other guys, i just dunno, im so confused. she means alot to me and i gave up so much for her and deal with alotta shit from her family and younger siblings, ppl tell me its soooo soon in the relationship or u guys havent been together in person that long so give it time!!! but the way i feel inside tells me she doesnt truly want to be with me anymore......and then at times she makes it feel like she does and makes me feel sooo good and happy, i just dont know right now im so confused, i just want a good woman for once.....is that too much to ask for???? i dont know what else to type right now maybe ill add more later...anyways thats whats on my mind lately. i do love you baby with all my heart, and want things to be great, i just hope you are being completely honest with me on everyt

5 Teens Pregnant After Playing The Game
The game is called “the sun” or “a star.” after some young teens played the game 5 girls got pregnant. The participants were between the ages of 14 and 15. The game, so far, is limited to Poland. How soon will it makes its way to the USA is anyone’s guess. But, what’s going to stop American teenagers to start playing the game? For the story http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,593625,00.html BlastFM is you place for a wonderful diversion from the cares of the world. Indulge yourself in a listening experience sure to make you tap your foot www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Mando'a (mandalorian Language)
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Memorial Day 2010
The soldier stood and faced his God Which must always come to pass He hoped his shoes were shining Just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, you soldier, How shall I deal with you? Have you always turned the other cheek? To My Church have you been true?" The soldier squared his shoulders and said, "No, Lord, I guess I ain't

The Oak Tree
The Oak Treeby Johnny Ray Ryder Jr A mighty wind blew night and dayIt stole the oak tree's leaves awayThen snapped its boughs and pulled its barkUntil the oak was tired and starkBut still the oak tree held its groundWhile other trees fell all aroundThe weary wind gave up and spoke.How can you still be standing Oak?The oak tree said, I know that youCan break each branch of mine in twoCarry every leaf awayShake my limbs, and make me swayBut I have roots stretched in the earthGrowing stronger since my birthYou'll never touch them, for you seeThey are the deepest part of meUntil today, I wasn't sureOf just how much I could endureBut now I've found, with thanks to youI'm stronger than I ever knew

I Did A Bad Thing Last Night...
So I went out for 'girls night out' last night and I drove. I knew I could have a little to drink but not a lot. I ended up having two cocktails and had about 5 shots...of colourful stuff. Not sure what was in there. I wasn't drunk. And I did go Casino for two hours to eat and just let the alcohol dissipate a bit. I drove home anyway. But if I HAD been pulled over I think I would have been in Bwig twouble.

Table Set For One
You may notice this small table here in a place of honor. It is set for one. This table is our way of symbolizing the act that members of our profession of arms are missing from our midst. The are commonly call P.O.W.'s or M.I.A.'s, we call them brothers. They are unable to be with us this evening and so we remember them. This table set for one is small... it symbolizes the frailty of one prisoner against his oppressors. The table cloth is white... it symbolizes the purity of their intentions to respond to their country's call to arms. The single rose displayed in a vase reminds us of the families and loved ones of our comrades in arms who keep faith awaiting their return. The red ribbon tied so prominently on the vase is reminiscent of the red ribbon worn on the lapel and breasts of thousands who bear witness to their unyielding determination to demand a proper accounting for our missing. A slice of lemon is on the bread plate... to remind us of their bitter fate. There i

Why Do People Have To Ruin Other's Fun
As the title says, am venting, so if you don't want to read this rant, then best to leave now. My fu-hubby and I are on our 4th turf, the last 3 deleted because some asshats had to keep hitlisting and coming into turf and trash talking, basically making sure that we couldn't do anything on mafia. I am sick and fucking tired of so-called adults acting like little kids that think it is fun to beat someone down just because they can. The turf we are in now is getting the same treatment, hitlisted for the hell of it and then keep doing because someone gets rightfully pissed off because was listed for no good reason, just for shits and giggles. Apparently people are thinking because small turf, we don't deserve to be left alone to play the game. Have had people outright tell us to delete because they wouldn't stop fucking with us, they were having fun. All I can say is must be nice to be able to act like an asshole 24/7, because would bet money that these people are just as much of ass

Dennis Hopper
LOS ANGELES (AP) — Dennis Hopper, the high-flying Hollywood wild man whose memorable and erratic career included an early turn in "Rebel Without a Cause," an improbable smash with "Easy Rider" and a classic character role in "Blue Velvet," has died. He was 74.Hopper died Saturday at his home in the Los Angeles beach community of Venice, surrounded by family and friends, family friend Alex Hitz said. Hopper's manager announced in October 2009 that he had been diagnosed with prostate cancer.The success of "Easy Rider," and the spectacular failure of his next film, "The Last Movie," fit the pattern for the talented but sometimes uncontrollable actor-director, who also had parts in such favorites as "Apocalypse Now" and "Hoosiers." He was a two-time Academy Award nominee, and in March 2010, was honored with a star on Hollywood's Walk of Fame.After a promising start that included roles in two James Dean films, Hopper's acting career had languished as he developed a reputation for thro

Butthurtedness At It's Finest
so....I unblocked that piece o crop... and he comes ...kills my buzz and rates me a one....with both his profiles. when I went to return the love ...I find I"m still blocked..... Is this chicken shit at it's finest?? or what?? should I just block him and keep it that way??? honestly, I don't like him going after my friends... sigh, maybe a nice orange person will show him his ways??? perhaps this should be a mumm?? I dont rate 1's...even when I slap someone or buzzkill them I don't reate them a 1 ...I either a. don't rate...or give them an 11 ???? from: rednecks demon United States subject: hey received: 05/27/2010 04:10 pm replied: 05/27/2010 04:11 pm block this member

Get Nekkid With Nekkid Radio!
Join me for my Serene Sunday show show at 8am est. Get connected & happy listening and stay Nekkid! http://st1.webradioworld.net:8258/ Did you know you could connect from our website? Go to www.nekkidradio.net and listen to us any time you'd like!!!!

There Is Nothin I Hate More Than A Low Down Muther Fukkin Liar
in these words i have to say i includes ....U , i , and 99 percent of the people that will read this ...and if you are in that one percent ...u sure the fuk are here by accident....cause the net and everyone is full of shit....loathing....jealousy backstabbing , i hope this pisses u off . even though i dont know . you im talking about you and u know it and ur self rightous justifacation, misserable, holier than tho ass cant take the fact someone knows you without knowin your name ....hide behind you lies...your self justifications for blocking this person or that person. he is not cool enough or she is just to homely lookin ...i am here for the fukkin music an if i meet someone cool or a friend for life thats a fukkin bonus....... who i am honestly is not a liar on a fukkin keyboard... i just wont talk to you till the next best thing comes around...if there is not a connection i will tell you ..i wont string you along and i expect the same in return.. if i dont like you ..i wont

Radiougly To Launch New Website Memorial Day!
This Monday, Memorial Day, May 31, 2010, RadioUgly.com will be launching their web new site. Completely unlike the current site, version 2 is self-contained, well organized and very informative. With a section where registered users may add their own web links and another which allows promotional authors to request "Publisher" status this site promises to be very interactive. Artists have the ability to upload their ROCK tracks to be included in RadioUgly's "Request Line" and station rotation. Rock music is streamed 24/7/365 with live DJs daily. The sight includes a chat room which is very user friendly, much like the people who frequent the chat. Listeners hang out with artists, bands, fans, RadioUgly staff and newcomers alike. Tutorials, articles and media reviews along with music-related news and information make this site a 'One-Stop Info Shop' for artists and fans/listeners alike. http://www.RadioUgly.com check it out Monday and leave some feedback.

Help Out Your Favorite Whore...for A Salute.
I've been in some bad times this last week. If you'd like to help or have a NSFW or SFW salute from me, check out my Twitter, click the latest link & sign up to the site using it & you'll get your choice of either of the above. Thanks in advance. It's a simple task and it's free AND you could see me on cam without being a guest. lol

My Perfect Man... (subject To Change/add)
Intelligent, outgoing, patient, sweet, loyal, loves to cuddle, non-drinker, positive, no kids, no baggage, loves cats, all heart, kind, not all about sex, drug free, ambitious, handsome, attractive, quick witted, funny, understanding, great family, christian, greatjob/career, dosent give up, knows what he wants isent afraid to get it, isent boring, honest, creative, never been married, drives, loves to play video games, man of God, trustworthy, smokes, loves giving, also loves to recieve, can cook, abad boy with a good heart loves music. Is NOT a man whore Dedication Not Egotistical

Hello People Whats Going On?
hello everyone my name is anthony i,m from statesville nc 46/6ft/196 here looking for new friends to get to know and hook up with i like to go out and have fun dancing and playing pool i also like to work out go hiking and camping i like all kinds of music and i get along with everyone i,m a cool person to get to know i,m the same every time we talk r see each other so if you want to know more just ask and i will tell you more.

Why Do I Care?
Why do I give a damn what you have to say or what you think or the lie's you have told? When you open your heart to a friend and they shove it back in your face for there own gain. You trust someone and there doing everything they can do to hurt you. What did I do so bad in life that you think you have to shit on me...my family? Is your life just so sad that you have to make fun of and be mean to other people. Even one's who have stood up for you and loved you? All I can say is Karma is a bitch and if you stay on the same path you well end up all alone. And you have to ask your self...is this the way you would want your child(en) to grow up and to act. To be cruel and unkind to people just for the hell of it? At some point we all have to grow up. And your words and acts hurt. Not only the people you are trying to hurt but they hurt you as well. So it's up to you..are you going to grow up are you going to keep going though life hurting people?

Break Stuff
Its just one of those days When you don't wanna wake upEverything is fuckedEverybody suxYou don't really know whyBut you want justifyRippin' someone's head offNo human contactAnd if you interactYour life is on contractYour best bet is to stay away motherfuckerIt's just one of those days!!Its all about the he says she says bullshitI think you better quitLettin' shit slipOr you'll be leavin with a fat lipIts all about the he says she says bullshitI think you better quit talkin that shit(Punk, so come and get it)Its just one of those daysFeelin' like a freight trainFirst one to complainLeaves with a blood stainDamn right I'm a maniacYou better watch your backCuz I'm fuckin' up your programAnd if your stuck upYou just lucked upNext in line to get fucked upYour best bet is to stay away motherfuckerIts just one of those days!! I feel like shitMy suggestion is to keep your distance cuz right now im dangerousWe've all felt like shitAnd been treated like shitAll those motherfuckers that want to

What Kind Of Brownie Are You?
You Are a Caramel Brownie You are a very sweet person. Even when you get yourself in to binds, people know that your heart is in the right place. You're the type of guy or gal that people never forget. There is something "sticky" about you - you stick in people's brain's. You are act naturally. You let the world see who you are, flaws and all. You're a little chaotic and even messy, but you're okay with that. You can be a bit hyper and unfocused at times. You don't stay organized - but that's part of your charm! What Kind of Brownie Are You? Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

Where Do You Think Best?
You Think Best While You're Driving In order to be able to think, you need to be able to have time to think. Problem is, there isn't a lot of time for that in your life. When you are driving, you are finally able to let your mind wander. And it wanders to some pretty interesting places. Depending on the conditions, driving can make you feel elated, relaxed, or even frustrated. All of these varying emotions spark a lot of revelations. While the thoughts you have while driving may have a lot of noise in them, there's definitely some insight to be found. Where Do You Think Best? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

What Kind Of Intelligence Do You Have?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence You shine in your ability to relate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person. What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have? Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

Is Your Brain Old Or Young?
Your Brain is Old You may not be over the hill, but your brain sure is! You don't ever exercise your brain, and as a result, it's getting lazy. It's time for you to get to work, and it's not going to be easy. Turn off the tv. Start reading. Take a class. You can be smarter and sharper if you want to be! Is Your Brain Old or Young? Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

The Pasture Test
You Are Flexible You believe that wherever you go, there you are. And you are able to be anywhere. You can easily adapt to changing situations - in fact, you think a little change does you good. You are incredibly observant, and because of this, you are very wise. You have an impressive memory. You are a very visual person. You never forget a face or a scene. The Pasture Test Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

The Either Or Love Test
Your Love Style is Balanced You tend to approach falling in love practically. You don't let your heart get ahead of your head. You see love as an important part of your life, but it's not the whole picture. You keep romance in perspective. You see love as calming and relaxing. Being with someone makes you feel pampered and cared for. You need a stable relationship. You are swept off your feet by words of love. A love letter or love poem from your sweetie can make your heart melt. The Either Or Love Test Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

What Will Your Life Be Like In Ten Years?
Your Life Will Be Fun in Ten Years You're the type of person who doesn't like to plan much. You rather just go with your gut. You live for change, and you're almost always optimistic. You truly love life. You refuse to be bored or be boring. You jump ship if something is starting to be a bummer. Don't forget to inject a little stability in your life. There's only so many relationships and careers that you can burn through. What Will Your Life Be Like in Ten Years? Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

Is There Really A Answer
On those days when you think you finally got life figured out, you have finally got all the answers and all things in your life are in order these are the days you figure out you really don't. When you ponder the question does life have a meaning or are we put here as someones idea of a joke or game what answer can you come up with. Its a hard question because I dont really think anyone knows the truth, we struggle everday to maintain some tyoe of balance or order to our lives but there is always that one thing that throws it all out of wack. Its the thing we could not have planned for or even thought possible but yet it is happening. It could be something good or something bad but either way it shifts the scales of our lives in a new direction. The real question is not what is life about but what do we do with the things that throw us off balance. If its something good do we keep it and try to lean the scales back the other way or if it something bad do we toss it and return the scal

Day 1
lost...thoughts of happiness and gentle kiss ... i wonder ...hold my breath for a time...what do we keep...lost..only memories..or a piece of soul...what loves if you are lucky heart mind and soul...lost... would you give...give your soul..to be shared...loved...maybe that is the answer....maybe that is your fear...lost

Illegal Land Grab In Michigan- Please Read
This was emailed to me today. Please every one read and sign the petition. This is for future generations. http://www.savethewildup.org/petition/ Story Updated: May 27, 2010 BIG BAY, Mich. – The defenders of sacred Eagle Rock sat in a circle and wept as they were surrounded by dozens of heavily armed state and local police officers who raided the Eagle Rock encampment the morning of May 27 arresting two campers at the request of Kennecott Eagle Minerals, who wasted no time destroying the month-old camp to make way for their nickel and copper mine.Witnesses say there were about six people at Eagle Rock when police moved in including four campers who had spent the night and two supporters who arrived with a warning the raid was imminent. Armed with high-powered rifles, Michigan State Police and mine security could be seen atop Eagle Rock scanning the vast Yellow Dog Plains with binoculars apparently looking for trespassers.Two handcuffed campers, who refused to leave when

:(
2:48pm So this always happens. When I date a new guy and then things go well, it's as if I never existed. I didn't do anything to scare him off or anything. There is this guy I really, really liked. He has everything I've ever wanted in a guy. We got along, we hung out, met his family, and everything. All of a sudden he says he wants a break. We weren't really in a relationship but we were dating. I hadn't been in a relationship and he knew why. I always end up hurt, which is why I don't date altogther. Somehow, I thought things were different. Shows what i know huh? Last night, we were supposed to hang out, but he decided not to. That's when he called me and told me he just wanted a break. I tried not to look into it. I told myself i shouldn't like him and to only give him a chance, but I guess I liked him more than I thought. I'm not the type of girl to fall easily. I'm not the kind to play games. I am the type who knows what she wants. I should just take a break al

Marketing Your Work
I've decided to start a blog series about design. This is the first in a series. I will also later include either a video or a link you can use to see some of my work. I'll be updating my status from time to time so that you are aware that a new design blog has been posted. I hope you get something useful out of these blogs as I have. http://tv.adobe.com/watch/fitc/marketing-your-skillz-aka-self-promotion-for-the-shy-creative-type

Bling Pack Deals
if you buy me a bling pack this is what i will give you in return 25 credit bling pack ill get you either 1 auto or 1 bomb or 2 boomerangs 64 credit bling pack ill get you 6 boomerangs or 1 auto+1bomb+1boomerang or 2 autos+1boomerang or 2 boombs+1 boomerang 135 credit bling pack ill get you 12 boomerangs or 5 autos or bombs.. and for the BIG 1000 credit pack you will get the fupony + 8 autos .. or what ever deal we can agre on :) ... if i didnt mention a deal u would like to make talk to me im sure we could work something out .. cause there could be so many combo deal to list lol .. its a win win .. deals last till the sale is over n i beleav thats the may 31st... hit me up n lets deal you will get more for the buck

Juxtabranchial Organ Secretions In The Higher Mollusks
When I left the house this morning after our niece Josceline had spent the night (and I’m becoming convinced that my son Jeffrey and my being the only males in the house leads him to strike out more as he feels the girls “gang up” on him) we had just viewed her scrapbook of all the things she’d done in kindergarten. She’s scared when she doesn’t have the night light on even though her mom Margaret once had a blanket settle over it and could have burned their house down … but I digress. Since their aunt Mary had fed the kids before I got home, I went to meet Martha after work where she got off and we went to eat. I didn’t want to pick it out because she tends to draw out the negatives, but she had me do so anyway, the finally renovated Schatz Truckstop that had much better service than last time we went! The comic strip “Doonesbury” has enjoyed a love-hate relationship with many people and even engendered debate on wher

Ethnic Discipline
My hotel room is literally yards from the pool area. Altho thats a nice perk, also I am exposed to the culmination of guests noise. These burgoise white middle class people with thier high pitch hyper-active squealing munchkins, that dont even acknowledge their parents presense when they make their feable attempt at convincing them to keep their siezure inducing frequency at a level that is respectable to the nieghboring roomies. Five hispanic kids, which were out there before even the others, were just fine until the other kids showed up and then of course as kids do, they kind of followed suit and started getting a little rowdy. Within about 2 mins, the Dad appears on the patio,.....now I know a little spanish, but I couldnt make out this ricky ricardo tongue-rumbling rant, but it was short, concise, deliberate, and quite effective....cause these kids aint made a peep in a half hour lol. And theyre having just as much fun as they were, theyre not moping around all butthurt eith

Ramblage
It's been a while since i've written anything new. My mind has been blank, the words have refused to come through There have been many thoughts floating around my head Thoughts of hope yet some thoughts of dread. I'm sitting here thinking of words to impart But the words seem to be stuck somewhere down below my heart. I could sit and ramble about the events of my day But that would be boring and you'd look away I could make up a tale thats fascinating and intriguing But it would be nonsense and not worth you reading So instead i'll stop rambling on and on Until the words that i'm seeking come back from where they've gone

"sack Tapping" New Teen Game
This is the first I’ve heard of “sack tapping.” Apparently, young men in school are punching each other in the groin. A Minnesota teenager had one of his testicles removed because of this new game. Is there nothing young people won’t do? http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,593680,00.html BlastFM is a great diversion from the day to day routine of being punched. It’s here for you 24/7. Tune in BlastFM for a musical experience second to none! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

To All My Friends
Im deleting my profile and starting a new one..for some reason i cant rate anyone or their pics..and i cant change my statues or mood...for anyone that wants to remain friends you can find me with my email.... kittykarlf150@yahoocom...sorry everyone.....i will have my new profile finished by june first.... love to all, night owl

Ugh
DJSDmok3y69...: hey wanna enter a tata salute contest if creative you might win a boomerang plus i will give you 5 million fubucks once salute is received To DJSmok3y69...: Yeah..no. Nice people have given me boomerangs just because I'm awesome. I don't have to prostitute myself for them Okay...this new chat system makes C&P weird..

Who I Am (july 2007)
okay so I skipped acouple songs cause they were shyte.. so heres next in line.. Who I Am I sit behind my eyes Watching the way you make me smile I can't seem to hide From the way you drive me wild Your kiss lingers Touch of the fingers Reminds me (chorus) I remember who I was Can't change the things I've done You taught me how to stand So I'm thanking you for who I am (verse 2) I sit in your light Can't beleive I made you mine I can't resist your eyes You don't see that you shine The way you say Don't go away

Metamorphosis (march 2007)
So I just noticed march o7 was busy for me... but here comes another one Metamorphosis Standing, stranded in my malcontent Breathing, bleeding until my life is spent I am falling into the depths of hell My soul is stirring trapped within your spell (chorus) Gimme just one last kiss so I can forget you Tell me just one last lie so I can see this through In my mind I digress I'm blown away My voice fades I find no words to say Hoping, praying for my soul's salvation Killing, Dying just to find myself shunned I have fallen from your loving grace My memory blurring lost my image of your face ( chorus) Searching endlessly for my soul's savior Loving blindly found within' your favor In this pain I've finally found peace Trying to rise up but I'm just too weak (chorus)

My Valentine (march 2007)
another short one.. but bear with my I was just begining to write My Valentine Is my evil finally winning out So much hate I want to shout In my darkness I abuse myself Pain is my heaven, Happy is my hell Can you make me feel like something more I notice I am like an open door You walk right through me Never to see The damage you have caused Chorus I die alone here I've washed away the fear I'm so sick in my mind This is my valentine I am trapped in my own distain My last shirt with your blood is stained In the light I am blind Black are my thoughts, Chaos is my mind Tongue cut out can't find the words to say I notice my soul is like a plate upon a tray I serve it up urging you to eat Does my blood taste sweet upon your tongue (Chorus) This is my valentine This is my valentine This is my valentine to you.

My Suicide (march 2007)
here comes another one. it's short but to the point My Suicide I can't take myself no more I feel like such a whore Running blindly I see my soul disintegrate Can you help me to escape my fate So much pain I just want to shout I need to find myself a way out [Chorus] This is my suicide note The simple things I wrote They seem to help me to cope With what I'm about to do I guess I missed my chance At finding true happiness I'm crying can't sleep I need to be alone So numb, so cold I'm in this hole So many tears I think I'm going blind I wish I wasn't dying inside (chorus) Please don't cry for me I'm finally happy In hell all alone I think I've found my home This is my suicide note The simple things I wrote They seem to help me to cope With what I'm about to.......... Do

Angels And Demons (jan. 2007)
These are going to come pretty quickly.. I'm going to try to get all my old stuff up first.. No promises. Angels and Demons The pain I feel makes my mind ache Can't believe that you're a fake Learned that love was never there Can't stand how you made me care I don't know what you did to me Opened my heart and now I see (chorus) I know there are angels, When I'm fighting my demons I feel them hold me down, when I wake up screamin' You picked me up, to watch me fall again So much for love that lasts, this is the end All the lies brought to light So much temptation no will to fight Can't feel anything but the cold As I watch myself grow old In a daze no purpose or direction As I slowly die in my own reflection (chorus) I need to find a way to get out of myself Feels like I'm lost, wandering through hell I need to break free of these chains So I can feel like I'm, somewhat human again (chorus)

The Point Of This Blog.
Alright so this blog is dedicated to my lyrics.. I'm going to start withone of my oldest songs.. but it's going to be jumbled. so I'l just put when I wrote it so everyone know's what songs are old and what songs are new..I'm not doing this for attention.. I'm doing it to share my lyrics with my FUfriends. and maybe one of my songs will touch someone.. Okay so this one is called If.. It's basically about someone contemplating suicide. and all the questions racing through their mind... I't snot the best but it's my earliest work (that I can find).. L8er Daze IF(2006)What would ya do if I diedWould you break down start to cryOr would you look back in timeThink of me, laugh and smileWould ya save me from this fallI wonder, would you miss me at all (Chorus)Well just think about the time's we sharedWhen I die remember I'm still thereIn your heart and memoriesAll you need to do is think of meand I'll stand by you What would ya do if I said those three wordsWould

From Guys Point Of View
From a guys point of view:We don't care if you talk to other guys.We don't care if you're friends with other guys.But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't waittill the morning.Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.Yeah, you can quote me.Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in.LET US PAY FOR YOU!DON'T "FEEL BAD"We enjoy doing it.It's expected.Smile andsay "thank you."Kiss us when noone's watching.If you kiss us when you kn

B I T C H
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts ordo things my own way, they call me a bitch.Being bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speakagainst it, I am defined as a bitch.The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead ofbeing everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.It means I have the courage and strength to allow myselfto be who I truly am and won't become anyone else'sidea of what they think I "should" be.I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!So try to stomp on me, try to douse my innerflame, try to squash every ounce of beauty hold within me.You won't succeed.And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embracethe title and proud to BEAR IT. B = Beautiful I =

Time To Get Nekkid!!!
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My Bad....
I kind of feel like an ass. See, I wanted to take a few days FuVacation and came up with a cute way (or so I thought) to leave. Thursday, I changed my screen name to THE JAI ASSASSINATION CONSPIRACY. I then played in the MuMMs, blogs, and everything else. So when I was ready to logoff, I deleted my default and made my status "BANG!". I was hoping to return and see comments like "I guess the conspiracy was right lolz" or something. ... Instead, I returned to alot of concerned friends, even texts asking if I was okay. I truly am sorry folks. But if you've never heard me say it before, I'll say it again: I WILL NEVER FUICIDE. I don't believe in it and think it's a slap in the face of everyone who's left me comments, love, and cool blingees. I just needed a few days off because of dealing with FuDrama coming from every angle as well as some RL stuff that's been going on. I may still take a couple more days off but wanted to clear things up. So, once again I'm sorry but thank

Undo It - Carrie Underwood (lyrics)
I should have known by the way you passed me byThere was something in your eyes and it wasn't rightI should have walked but I never had the chanceEverything got out of hand and I let it slideNow I only have myself to blame for falling for your stupid gamesI wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your faceYou stole my happy, you made me cryTook the lonely and took me for a rideAnd I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo itYou had my heart, now I want it backI'm starting to see everything you lackBoy, you blew it, you put me through itI wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo itNa, na, na, na, naNa, na, na, na, naNa, na, na, na, na, naNow your photos don't have a picture frameAnd I never say your name and I never willAnd all your things, well I threw them in the trashAnd I'm not even sadNow you only have yourself to blame for playing all those stupid gamesYou're always gonna be the same and, oh no, you'll never changeYou stole my happy, you made me cryTook the lonely and took me for a rideAnd I wanna u

Microsoft Office 2010 Screenshots:backsatage View
If there’s one thing you’re bound to notice when using Office 2010, it’s the Backstage view. This is a unified set of commands and information that relates to the particular file you’re working on. For example, forget pressing and getting that boring old print dialog (shown right for comparison). Instead, you’ll get something that looks an awful like the below, complete with an automatic print preview and an overview of all the settings. That not only looks nicer, it also makes it far easier to pick up mistakes (printing in portrait when you meant to print in landscape, for instance, or choosing A4 when you wanted A3).

Who I Am.
What's up people! Nice to meet everyone here on Fubar, this is an amazing place and I can see why it's so popular. I have a feeling I'm going to be here for a while and make a lot of friends. That being said, it's time to get down to the point of my first blog. Fubar is so unique, that each person's profile and lounge are an extension of who they are, it's really cool to see how everyone expresses them selves. Just like I do on my profile, I'm a very passionate person. I'v visited quite a few lounges since I'v joined, a few have been amazing to me and I'v made friends. Now here comes the interesting part. Some lounges seem to want to take on a bit of a more...........lets say........demanding role. I get it, it's your lounge your rules. Though some people arn't comfortable with showing their real face, thus they put up something they enjoy like anime characters. I don't expect everyone to understand anime or cartoons, it's not for everyone. Anime is just who I AM. I'v actually been

Lmao
If you can read this whole story without laughing, then there's no hopefor you. I was literally crying by the end. For those of you who have lived / traveled in Texas, you know how true this is. I no longer let any Texan pick a restaurant.20 These folks do not like the flavor of anything, they just like the burn.Sometimes truth really is stranger than fiction….and a lot more amusing. *********************************** ********************************They actually have this Chili Cook-off at Halloween time. It takes up a major portion of a parking lot at the San Antonio City Park. Judge #3 was an inexperienced Chili taster named Frank, who wasvisiting from Springfield, IL. Frank: "Recently, I was honored to be selected as a judge at a chilicook-off. The original person called in sick at the last moment and Ihappened to be standing there at the judge's table, asking fordirections to the Coors Light truck, when the call came in. I wasassured by the other two judges (Native Te

Tandar The Dying...
Striking out from the church in the elvin city of Feanus, Tandar begins his first real adventure. Being a human in an elven city wasn't easy so much of his days were spent praying to the elven god Corellon Larethian. The god appeared to him while his village was being burned by the forces of the dark heart and lead him away safely to a group of elven scouts and bid them to take him to the church. The young boy grew to be a man there, training to be a warrior for justice. He didn't think he was ready to be out on his own but the head Priest said it was time. So now with sword on his hip and shield on his back, and prayers to his god, he returns to the human lands to find heros to fight against the coming darkness. A darkness that threatens to destroy all of the land. A darkness that knows he is coming and will do everything in it's power to see him fail. But there are others that feel the call and they shall all meet, and become a force of light to stand against the tide of evil that is

Confess
so i have to confess i already have Christina Aguilera's new cd. and i like it haha. the first song is great. the second is okay. woohoo is fun.and the next song reminds me of Goldfrapp. But when the album gets slows, it gets boring. but overall I like it. yeah. thats all i have tonight.

My Sorrow For You
My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you in the graden of life where I bleed for you where my sorrowing heart bleeds and crys for you to come and save me from this mess and take me away.. My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you in the graden of life where i lay awake waiting for your kiss to set me free from my sleeping pain that burns deep to the core, My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you as I lay awake in a sleep for your kiss to break my spell of hell this is My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you just wish i could take your pain away because my heart only beats for you

Untilted
i love you more than death her self as she stands right here in front of me looking at me so beautifully and sweet, speaking to me softly as she whispears in my ear "i love you more than life even those i'm the taker of life i'll give up forever if we can let are lust and sin come undone just for one night here under the stars and the pale moonlite" she take me by my hands hold me close to her as she slowly cresses my face and looks into my eyes i see in her eyes a cold lonly empty soul that has been looking for love all these years she seeks what i seek beauty within the dark. i see in her eyes all she wanted is to live as she look into mine eyes all she saw was death and pain and she know i just wanted peace so my soul can lay to rest and no longer be in pain.. she softly leads and give me a kiss feeling her love passion and fire on her lips and tongue she holds me tight into her arms slolwly draining me of my life as my last breath comes along i say i'll see you soon and siad my fin

Andrea Rose...
Some walk through this world heavy and sadFew possessed the magick Andrea Rose had.Most people focused on what brought them strifeUntil Andrea Rose brought rainbows of joy to their lifeVery Ancient was this child’s precious dear soulFor she knew how to make a broken heart wholeShe brought to us all the balance of wisdom and playAs she introduced wholistic wellness into everyone’s dayWe had her but for only a few short yearsShe taught us how to love and let go of fearsBut now she can dance in the Angelic faeries lightsBringing back their magick to illuminate others dark nightsHer spirit continues the work she set out to doFor she was one of very the Chosen fewNow we release her to fly with the faery/angels aboveBeing eternally grateful for Andrea Rose’s Legacy of Love

Lie Detection Tool
No need sophisticated detector to find out if your lover is lying or not. Simply watch his movements, as suggested below Cosmopolitan. And for the liar, you are also required to read that gives the body a more reliable force while making up the story later!1) Go to the top and to the leftTake a look at how the body language when he will answer your questions. If the eyes move to the right, he was trying to remember the incident. But when he looked up and to the left, he was making up answers that fit.2) Playing the nose and earsObviously, he did not have any allergies. But he kept his ears and nose play. Maybe he's allergic to lie! We're lying, more blood will flow to the face, nose and ear warmer and become itchy.3) Slide to the left, slide to the rightMiungkin nervous when he was just sliding a chair or raps his fingers. But as someone who is suspicious, this could have happened because of the nervousness she was lying.4) Shut up!When someone is trying to dispel the truth out of his

My Feelings
You're taking over my thoughts. My dreams. You do this without trying. Without knowing. Your voice. Your smile. Your touch upon my skin. Oh how I melt on the spot beneath me. Your eyes. Your body. Oh how I see you and feel weak. I can't control this power taking over me. What must I do to know how you feel about me? Because this feeling is true...

Yeehaw!!!
Went out with a few of my girlfriends this evening! damn did i need that break. A few beers, on the patio with good company, couldn't ask for better. I do have a question for you wonderous fu-peeps: Am I ridiculous for being annoyed with the waitress for 1) taking 35 minutes to come to our table the first time? 2) not bringing our drinks for another 10 minutes? 3) bringing out our food after it had become hard? 4) screwing up the bill in epic proportions? Aside from the fact that she was retarded, we all had a great time. I think bad service may just be a pet peeve of mine.

Dhh 1
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No One Listens To Me,do They?
Do you ever feel like screaming or feel you are not heard.Well everyone in todays world,women do get heard & I will be heard. I will not allow anyone to take away my fun here.I am totally upfront.I admit I flirt,talk,cut up it is who I am people,but when someone tries to take that away from me I get angry.It is down right insane. So many assume I am with this one or that one over a status,if you want to know ASK ME!!! I have no reason not to tell you the truth.I am a peaceful type person & I honestly dont need the drama crap coming from this place. My life is full as it is . I come here to relax,meet knew people,talk to the ones I have gotten to know and dog gone it if I want to meet people I will.No one has a hold on me.No one owns except with fake money on Fubar.Come on guys. I am getting so aggravated over all of this that I dont even talk that much anymore.I dont feel comfortable to be me and it stops today. Another thing that is getting to me is this.Just because I approv

I Re Wrote Al Bundys Nuddie Bar Poem For Fubar Hahah
i RE WROTE AL BUNDYS NUDDIE BAR POEM FOR FUBAR HAHAHA ITS JUST FOR LAUGHS I LOVE FU XOXOX Where the Sometimes music stinks and You order cyber drinks Fubar Where the girlies always rant but post picin their underpants Fubar When all you wanna do is see their butt and whenthey want something thier trap never stays shut Fubar Where you can't touch a breast and the perv ask to see the rest Fubar Where you look at a Pic and get bitched out if its under 10 u click Fubar Where the beer Doesnt get you drunk but you dont give a fuck fubar Where a fubuck's and blings enough to see Fu whores stuff Fubar Where No salutes may be fake but man do they make you wanna eat cake Fubar Where you Talk shit in lounges and mums and wish you could lick her bum Fubar Where youll buy bling packs and never get them in the sack fubar Where You talk shit andsick of it but you love it Fubar where you can talk about your problems and people care about them and s

Jibberish... *status Unknown*
Baby, do you know what real love is supposed to be? than you should let me love you... It's a shame you just don't know your worth... from your head to your toes... I just wanna show you your worth... give you everything you want and need... good love and protection.. so you know what love is supposed to be... Let me be the one to give you everything... If you just let me love you (h) [6] Rings true on more lvl's than you know....

Very Scary
Look in the mirror and see the truth. The government is getting closer to forcing every company in America to accept unions and every worker to be in a union. (Keeps us more easily controlled). Any company that doesn't accept unions will be run out of business and every employee that doesn't join a union will lose their job. If you are a union member you hope for better wages and benefits so you support whatever your union bosses promise. It is trickle down economics. The government gets more from the unions and then the union bosses raise your union dues so they are enriched also. Now comes the truth to the lie. The lost revenue from taxes from non union companies and laid off non union employees will have to be made up somewhere so more union dues and cut benefits are headed your way to the point where you are making less then you are making now but the government and unions will claim you are the lucky ones because you still have a job while the rest of us are unemployed. When it g

Prjudice And Assumptions
I was having a discussion the other day with an Etomologist. The conversation had come around to the subject of the most misused word in the English language.The word that I was putting forth was 'prejudice'.prej·u·dice –noun1.an unfavorable opinion or feeling formed beforehand or without knowledge, thought, or reason.2.any preconceived opinion or feeling, either favorable or unfavorable.3.unreasonable feelings, opinions, or attitudes, esp. of a hostile nature, regarding a racial, religious, or national group.4.such attitudes considered collectively: The war against prejudice is never-ending.5.damage or injury; detriment: a law that operated to the prejudice of the majority.–verb (used with object)6.to affect with a prejudice, either favorable or unfavorable: His honesty and sincerity prejudiced us in his favor.—Idiom7.without prejudice, Law . without dismissing, damaging, or otherwise affecting a legal interest or demand.When I grew up the second d

Holiday Weekend Fake-fest...
Well, before we get to the pending fun ahead, let’s take some time this weekend to remember our brave men and women and their families during this time. For without them, their sacrifices, and the legacy they pass down from generation to generation, absolutely none of this would be possible… Now it’s off to the unofficial kick-off of Summer 2010. And I’m sure it will be one that will be well, most remembered indeed. Summertime on fubar always brings a certain vibe in these here parts that leaves those that survive, yes I do mean survive, lasting memories that carry on with them going forward, whether it be real life, or just your fubar life (yes people have two, well, some anyways and some it intermingles, hopefully for the positive.) But anyways I digress here, let’s just get to this meaty piece of early

Slipknot And Ronnie James Dio
This week is a sad day in rock/metal history we have lost two very good artists ronnie james dio of cancer and paul grey from slipknot the bass guitarist of unknown reasons so far may all are wishes go to family and friends of the deseased rock on ronnie and paul you will be remenber forever for the contributes you did to the rock scene

A Brand New Start By Jill Lemming God Sometimes Brings Us To A Place Where Answers Can't Be Found... Where We Cannot See Tomorrow, For Confusion
A Brand New Startby Jill Lemming God sometimes brings us to a place where answers can't be found...Where we cannot see tomorrow, for confusion all around.Yet deep inside we realize that all things work for good...Even times when we've been wounded and we feel misunderstood.Don't dwell on the injustice and stay focused on God's heart...Find forgiveness and go on, you can make a brand new start.

I In Contest
plzz vote on me or comment i'm in contest http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1865381&albumid=2061410&i=1536193411&idx=64 u have to add him to vote n comment me i donot have biggiest boobs and i'm in bra i love to win 65 bling packs so plzz vote for me

3 Day Weekend :)
I can't say if I am happy that the Memorial Day weekend, or not. The last two weeks have been a real roller coaster with my emotions.Friday, May 21, Grandma was checked into the ER due to abdominal pain, three days later we find out that her colon cancer back, but this time in two different places. And with all of the the in the hospital and trying to keep family back in Drexel Hill, PA, informed, tempers flair because they don't understand Grandma wants to talk about anything but what is going on. It all takes a lot out of a person.At the same time I was trying to be strong for my grandma I had an ex come back into my life, and after meeting up with him for some chatting only but after wards I started thinking and having questions. That always gets me into trouble, come to find out that he never really liked me. Talk about a big 180. I still don't understand how a guy can sit there and spend so much time with you and make all the first moves without having like the girl, not ev

Money
so I finally get my unemployment benefits, yay for this! And all I need to do is transfer funs from the electronic transfer with the bank that UI sends my money to. Does this not sound simple in out electronic age of internet and telephone systems? I figure this would be something so common that a majority of people recieving benefits would have been doing...right? then why can I not get this to work? the online services is unavailable at this time...just great. the telephone number for the bank say i need to call a different #..its not the same # on the back of the card so i call...but its the same automated system with the same options that dont include, transfer funds or speak to a csr... so, apparently i will just have to go to an atm, withdraw however much cash im allowed to in a 24 hour period on this card and go deposit the cash in my checking account. so this got me thinking, am i spoiled or lazy that this is bothering me, that i have to get off my ass and go to th

Wtf?!
I'm all for supporting the home team. We have big ass Blackhawk Jerseys on the lions in front of the Art Institute. They look rather cute. But dressing up the statue of Michael Jordon in front of the United Center? Um, I'll let you decide.

Tiki Barber Stopped At Line Of Scrimmage In Hospital
Tiki Barber was stopped for no gain in the hospital. Tiki’s wife, he’s still married, barred the ex-New York Giants running back from the delivery room when she gave birth to their twin girls. Tiki, who is having sex with a hot blond, had to wait to see the girls. Well brother, how is that sex with your new babe? I’m sure it’s still good but being a father is going to be blocked till the court figures it out. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/05/28/tiki-barbers-estranged-wife-bans-delivery-room-twin-daughters-birth/?test=faces BlastFM is loyal to its listeners. BlastFM doesn’t cheat you out of the music you love. Hit us up! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Roadtrip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so, I just moved from long beach cali to springfield missouri. It was one hell of a trip. I went to vegas first and won some money, lots of it. My game is blackjack, and I left vegas with 10,000 in my pockets, after spending 800 of my own. it was still a good taking. After that I went through new mexico. I got pulled over for a broken tail light, the cops searched my car and found my gun in the backseat in my lockbox. one of the cops freaked out, and before i knew it there were ten squad cars and a bunch of police screaming at me to get on the ground or they'd shoot. After being kneed in the ribs and smacked in the back of the head I was arrested. I'm pretty lucky considering I DID fight back and knocked out four of them before they got the drop on me. I only fought because I was in the middle of the desert and they were talking about taking all my money and leaving me to the wolves. I paid them off with my winnings from vegas and let them keep my .357 ruger gp/100 r

Gary Coleman Dies
Gary Coleman, the child star of the smash 1970s TV sitcom "Diff'rent Strokes" whose later career was marred by medical and legal problems, has died after suffering an intercranial hemorrhage. He was 42. Utah Valley Regional Medical Center spokeswoman Janet Frank says life support was terminated and Coleman died at 12:05 p.m. MDT. Coleman, with his sparkling eyes and perfect comic timing, became a star after "Diff'rent Strokes" debuted in 1978. He played the younger brother in a pair of African-American siblings adopted by a wealthy white man. His popularity faded when the show ended after six seasons on NBC and two on ABC. He suffered continuing ill health from the kidney disease that stunted his growth and had a host of legal problems in recent years.

Gary Coleman
PROVO, Utah (AP) — Gary Coleman, the child star of the smash 1970s TV sitcom "Diff'rent Strokes" whose later career was marred by medical and legal problems, died Friday after suffering a brain hemorrhage. He was 42. Utah Valley Regional Medical Center spokeswoman Janet Frank said life support was terminated and Coleman died at 12:05 p.m. MDT.Coleman, with his sparkling eyes and perfect comic timing, became a star after "Diff'rent Strokes" debuted in 1978. He played younger brother Arnold Jackson a pair of African-American siblings adopted by a wealthy white man.His popularity faded when the show ended after six seasons on NBC and two on ABC.Coleman suffered continuing ill health from the kidney disease that stunted his growth and had a host of legal problems in recent years.Coleman suffered the brain hemorrhage Wednesday at his Santaquin home, 55 miles south of Salt Lake City.A statement from the family said he was conscious and lucid until midday Thursday, when his condition wo

Art Linkletter
LOS ANGELES (AP) — Art Linkletter, whose "People Are Funny" and "House Party" shows entertained millions of TVviewers in the 1950s and '60s with the funny side of ordinary folks and who remained active as a writer and speaker through his ninth decade, died Wednesday. He was 97.Linkletter died at his home in the Bel-Air section of Los Angeles, said his son-in-law, Art Hershey, the husband of Sharon Linkletter."He lived a long, full, pure life, and the Lord had need for him," Hershey said.Linkletter had been ill "in the last few weeks time, but bear in mind he was 97 years old. He wasn't eating well, and the aging process took him," Hershey said.Linkletter hadn't been diagnosed with any life-threatening disease, he said.Linkletter was known on TV for his funny interviews with children and ordinary folks. He also collected their comments in a number of best-selling books."Art Linkletter's House Party," one of television's longest-running variety shows, debuted on radio in 1944 and w

What Do You Exspect?
If you come to a person and ask them a question would you exspect them to give you the answer you want, Or would you wish for truth. I pride myself in Truth,Honor and Integrity. I will not ever tell you a lie even to save your feelings it is not fair to you nor me to exspect Less.

Homemade Adult Video (master / Slave)
I uploaded a homemade video to the Internet. It is a video of a Master and slave, it is an adult (18+) video.You don't see the Master's or the slave's face.It is in clips.78 Clips : The shortest clips of the 3 hour (2:46) video : All the clips are less than 5 minutes http://yfrog.com/5ufile24042bzx 44 Clips: These clips are all less than 5 minutes. (The same movie)http://yfrog.com/0sfile3972ezx 20 Clips: These clips are all less than 10 minutes. (The same movie)http://yfrog.com/jkfile23169zx 13 Clips: These clips are all less than 15 minutes. (The same movie). http://yfrog.com/0jfile12828zx You can choose which album to watch depending on your internet speed and you like short or long clips.

Overheard In The Burbs | Worse Job In The World
Guy 1: (looking at traffic cop, empty intersection) That's gotta be the worst job in the world?Guy 2: Sticking your hand up a horse's butt to get him to ejaculate...that's a worse job.Guy 1: You're right. -- Overheard in: Downtown Lebanon PA --

Overheard In The Burbs | Trial Of The Century
Judge: You have been cited for driving without a seat belt.Defendant: Yes, but...Judge: Plea?Defendant: Your Honor...Judge: Plea?Defendant: Not guilty.Judge: Are you ready for trial?Defendant: What? Are you serious?Judge: (reviews book) Trial set for Friday,3 p.m. -- Overheard in: Traffic Ct, Somerville Cty NJ --

Thoughts For Memorial Day
As we head into Memorial Day weekend this year, I thought I'd take the time to give some thoughts I have on the holiday. It really is making me think of my grandfather, Walter this year. When I trace our family tree, through Walter, back several generations, we get back to John (who I believe would be Walter's Great Grandfather, but there may be more or less Greats in there. LOL!). I bring up John because he was a Civil War veteran, who was lucky enough to make it home. For those who weren't so lucky, like John's brother, who died in the Andersonville prison in GA, a new holiday was created so that their graves would not be ignored (at that time, the dead were burried where they died, rather than returned home). This holiday was known as Decoration Day, and eventually became known as Memorial Day. Walter, who was born in 1920, was among the many that received draft notices after the bombing of Pearl Harbor began World War 2, and he was assigned to be a mechanic in the Army Air Co

Overheard In The Burbs | All He Does Is Stare At The House
Woman 1: All he does is look at the house.Woman 2: Why?Woman 1: He says, relaxes him.Woman 2: (nods)Woman 1: My husband relaxes standing in the street staring at our house.Woman 2: What about the cars?Woman 1: Huh?Woman 2: The cars in the street, where Jack stands?Woman 1: They seem to avoid him. Unfortunately. -- Overheard in: Whole Foods Cafe --

Overheard In The Burbs | He Really Likes To Swing
Woman 1: We bought the whole swing set and only person who uses it is Ken.Woman 2: That's good. My kids love ours. It's good for them to swing and play.Woman 1: Ken is my husband. -- Overheard in: Playground, Merion PA --

Not Always Right | Stupid Bytes
Retail | Tennessee, USA Me: “Thanks for coming in! Anything I can help you find today?” Customer: “I need the internet.” Me: “Okay. You need to get connected to the internet at your house?” Customer: “No! I need the internet, idiot. Don’t you guys sell them here with lots of gigglebites and dial-up modems and the like?” Me: “You need a computer tower then? We have plenty of those.” Customer: “No! I need the internet! My friend has an internet and its fast and has 10 gigglebites.” Me: “Okay, I will do everything I can to help you. I would also recommend you grab a copy of one of our guides that should be a great help.” (I show him a copy of Computers for Dummies.) Customer: “Does it come with the internet?”

Not Always Right | Sometimes The Customer Is Right About Being Wrong
Call Center | Los Angeles, CA, USA Me: “Hi, I’m calling from [Company] verifying that you are looking for information on a loan modification.” Caller: “I was, until I found out you could you couldn’t help me.” Me: “Well, sir, I’m not sure why you think that. We have been able to help lots of people. If you would like, I can connect you with a counselor who will be able to let you know what can be done.” Caller: “You can’t do anything for me.” Me: “I can assure you that there is something we can do. At least we can provide you with some information.” Caller: “You can’t do anything unless you are able to invade the Chinese.” Me: “Excuse me?” Caller: “The only way you can help me is by invading the Chinese.” Me: “Well, sir, I think you are right. I don’t think there is anything we can do for you. Have a nice day.”

Default Pics
I bet anyone is gonna bother to even gander at this, but why not give it a shot. Some of you guys crack me up on here. I love how far some people on fu would go to exploit themselves for intangible objects. Maybe I need to explain further. The "Auto's are on" and "Boomerang on" defaults with their face flashing in between their photo. I mean seriously. Without it, I can clearly see you have autos on or your point whoring item whatever it may be. I can clearly see the boomerang gif and the flashy 11's next to your name. But really, why am I complaining about this? I mean these people laugh. I love seeing people on here make themselves look like morons for "points" on here. I laugh at you guys and gals with those defaults at your own expense for even putting them up when you activate these things. What is even funnier is when I status something and out of the blue I get some twatwaffle stating " Hey I got my boomerang on time to rerate". News lash. IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU

I'm Moving On
by Rascal Flatts I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demonsFinally content with a past I regretI've found you find strength in your moments of weaknessFor once I'm at peace with myselfI've been burdened with blameTrapped in the past for too longI'm movin' onI've lived in this place and I know all the facesEach one is different but they?re always the sameThey mean me no harm but it's time that I face itThey'll never allow me to changeBut I never dreamed homeWould end up where I don't belongI'm movin' onI'm movin' onAt last I can see life has been patiently waiting for meAnd I know there's no guarantees but I'm not aloneThere comes a time in everyone's lifeWhen all you can see are the years passing byAnd I have made up my mind that those days are goneI sold what I could and packed what I couldn'tStopped to fill up on my way out of townI've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn'tI had to lose everything to find outMaybe forgiveness will find meSomewhere down this lonel

Maybe You Should Know
by Kenny Rogers Seems to me that we've been friends foreverWe spend our time together as all good friends will doBut the silence only liesIf you could read my eyesThey hold another feelingI could show youMaybe you should knowJust how much I love youIn my heart there's no one else above youMaybe I should hopeYou find out for yourself somehowOr maybe I should tell you nowMaybe I should wait and take the chancesA good dancer never dancesUntil he hears the cueBut the orchestra is goneThey've left us all aloneThere's no one here to tell me how to tell youMaybe you should knowJust how much I love youIn my heart there's no one else above youMaybe I should hopeYou find out for yourself somehowOr maybe I should tell youMaybe I should tell youMaybe I should tell you now

Ensign: It Was A Sunny Day In 1432 ...
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 28 May 2010 … well, perhaps not so sunny considering the weather England is often known for (with my apologies to those reading this who live there) when young men preparing to graduate from Oxford University stepped forward and each gave a sermon. In Latin. At this time, churches were by and large the only place to get an education in Western Europe. We don’t require that today, but the service where this was done is now known as a baccalaureate service. Derived from “bacca lauri” for the bachelor’s degree they were to receive from Oxford and the laurel wreath they were crowned with for their sermon, it’s still a celebration of those graduating and preparing for the next part of their lives.

Things I Hate
I despise sitting on a crowded train and we all know first class is empty with just one fat bloke touching his willy in there, enjoying the solitude as he alternated with fingering his silk tie and fighting the good fight of keeping his spectacles on his sweaty nose as his upper body shuddered. I merely walked past him and headed off to find the manager to ask about an upgrade. The train manager sat in a cubicle watching the solitary man in first class touching himself on her personal CCTV in her wee special manager's cubby hole. "Can I get an upgrade to first class please" I asked. She never took her eyes off the CCTV screen "Yeah if you have a hundred pounds to spare?" she muttered as she watched the grainy screen. "Really, that much to sit beside a lone masturbator?" I said as I nodded at the screen she was watching- the man was no longer fumbling...he was wiping his hands. The train manager's head snapped straight at me "I beg your pardon?" "Him on his ow

Best Bumper Sticker Ever
Best Bumper Sticker--keep it going Let's spread this one around the United States two or three times!!!!!! AMEN TO THIS ONE!!!!!!!!!!! I'm proud to send this one!I PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO THE FLAG, OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, AND TO THE REPUBLIC, FOR WHICH IT STANDS, ONE NATION UNDER GOD , INDIVISIBLE, WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL!I was asked to send this on if I agree or delete if I don't. It is said that 86% of Americans believe in God. Therefore I have a very hard time understanding why there is such a problem in having "In God! We Trust" on our money and having "God" in the Pledge of Allegiance. Why don't we just tell the 14% to Shut Up and BE QUIET!!! If you agree, pass this on, if not delete.I AGREE !!!!

Me
Pain has always been my best friend, my only friend but now its my worst enemy this pain hurts so much the gates of hell will open and welcome its new child When i thought of all the good hoping to fight for you and protect you but you took my heart and broke it into thousand irreplacable bloody pieces i had no tears to cry because my emotional being was dry and my soul was lost without you now the monster from within has been awoken and now all thats is left is a dead man walking in search of a way out of this maybe another can cure me before its to late and rage consumes me but for now im dead and cold living without a heart.

I've Been Doing It All Wrong!
I'M SO GLAD I FOUND OUT ABOUT THIS! I have been doing this all wrong for years!!!!!!!! The correct way to weigh yourself: I can't believe I was doing it wrong all these years. WE MUST SPREAD THE WORD. Never take life seriously; nobody gets out alive anyway.

For Guys : Really Didnt Think I Had To Post This Yet Again Read It!
i have pics that are private and there are reasons why they are private. dont come running to me asking to see them it wont happen. and then dont bitch and curse at me when i tell you no.they are my pics and i will do what i want with them and let who I WANT see them. the choice isnt up to you its up to ME and me only. oh and especially if i just add you dont hit up my sb askin if you can see them. grow up and act your age and not like a horny asshole. i dont tolerate shit like that. i dont care if you dont like this or if this makes me sound like a bitch. and my family are my friends most in real life thats why they are there. adding me to your fam will not get you added in mine.

Want To Know How I've Mellowed? I Took This Advice.
Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99 If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know t

Rip Rip Stomp Grrr
Ok, so, yesterday I did pretty well... eyes teared up for a split second and I held back the flood... refused to cry AGAIN. But then, today, HERE THEY FUCKING come. I start talking about my ultra sound appointment and I cry. I swear, it must be my hormones. I've been dumped before dammit, but I guess it does make a difference when this time it's the father of your baby. I know I'll be ok and I know that just because he doesn't love me, I'll get by. Being so emotional sucks... at least if I've got to be all emo, I could be angry and not this pitiful sob story. Heh, today my goal is to be pissed off all day instead of sad. Sounds good, right? j/k.

Recent Update On Me And Melanie!!!
Well everyone has been aware that i'm a high risk bring pregnant, as of now things are changes...it is true that they aren't gonna let me have any more kids after my daughter is born they made it clear in Morgantown today and also their is more than just that when I go back in 3 months after my daughter is born they are still wanting to fix the murmur but not only that they are possibly fixing the valve the reason it is preventing me from having kids is that they are gonna put a metal tube where my defective right valve is to fix the blood flow also I will have to get shots about once month or more. So yes pretty much i'm a mother with more complications than I was ever prepared for. But all in the good news is Melanie is healthy as can be and they see no problems with her heart in the future, she is getting everything she is needing but she is weighing 2lbs they said she is growing well and is blessed to see that she is good. Now they are planning on seeing me in Morganto

I'ma Polish Hoar. I Admit It.
So, I have been a busy lil bee this morning. So far I have polished Pedro's weiner, Doug's exploding pecker, LilBoop's ta tas And beaver, mb's kitten, and Witchie woman's WEINER. Who knew Witchie has a WEINER? And now DIT's weiner. Someone stop me!

Capricorn Female
It is very difficult to define the characteristics profile of a Capricorn girl exactly. She can be the sexy babe on the beach or a scientist sitting in the laboratory, doing experiments that can save mankind. Whatever she is on the outside, when you look inside you will find a girl who looks for security, authority, respect and position. It is an entirely different matter how she seeks to achieve these goals. It may be as the president of a country or as the wife of an ambitious man. She seeks recognition and it doesn't matter how she gets it. A Capricorn female is like that goat, which has to reach the top of the mountain. It doesn't matter what position she starts and how slowly she walks, she will be at the top much before those, who were running in front of her. She will do it with such subtlety that you wouldn't even know when she crossed all the milestones. She has her aims and ambitions, but they don't come before her family. She can enjoy the role of a wife or a mother as much

Painful Pain
the painfull memory of a damge childhood that haunts me like a nightmare destorying me leaving me helpless and weak can't defend for myself because i'm blinded by the hate that runs through my body like a drug being injected into my vains make me not see thing so clear, everthing is so dark when you are all alone with no one to hold you when you are dying on your back laying in a pool of your own blood and have nothing to show for what you did in your life only the mistake you did and the scares you got from the painfull memorys of your childhood nothing seem to make sense to you your inncote is takin from you at a young age each day you face a new challege of what would life throw at you next when will life take you away with just one breath not know what life will do. life play it's sick joke that will haunt us to the day we die and hope that are mistake will not be repeated life painfull memory show me that life is just a dream on the way to death, if this is my hell then give me de

True Love To Be Spoken
I want you to feel me, and i want to feel you, this warm embrace is this love that i am feeling is this my temptation of lust, can't get you out of my mind, to many sleepless nights tossing and turning just want to feel you, and i want to feel you too, i slept to long without you by my side can't get you out of my mind wanting for you to come to bed, i feel so cold and naked with out you by my side i will give away all my richest just to see you smile i will give you my heart just to hear you say "i love you" i want you to feel me and i want you to feel you i am so loss without you only you can save me from this heart ache my love for you is what i am today everything i do, i do for your love.

Forbiden Love
If only tonight we could sleep, in this bed of roses, if only tonight we had peace, now shattered and broken, if only tonight we could fall, in this deadly love, if only tonight death would come, leave my tainted heart numb, if only tonight we could sin, again and again, if only tonight we could begin, our own heaven. If I die before I wake, I pray no one my soul to take, If I cry before I die, Dry my tears and leave a smile, If I scream before I cry, Tell me it will be alright, If I bleed before I scream, Tell me this is just a dream, So put your bullet through my head, kiss me goodnight, and leave me dead

I Am Who I Am And Not Willing To Change For Any One
Okay folks, Im gonna tell ya a bit about myself . I am a good hearted woman who just stands up for what is right and detest any one who is rude, ignorant, judgemental and just down right a ass hole. I have posted blogs, and mumm's and just told people my thoughts and feelings. I am sure I have pissed off alot of peeps in here but yanno, only the ones who feel its great to hurt others. How sad and misserable must your life be to do this to someone else. If we all just stop the BULL SHIT!!! and learn to get along , give a helping hand , even if its just to let them bend your ear when they are in pain. We all suffer from lifes pains and disappointments , and it sure would be great to know there is someone out there willing to lend you a ear or even try and cheer you up or even better give you help in solving your problem. I am in pain emotionally and its getting to me physically which is sad...I hate having depression, no one as a idea of what people like me and others go th

Stupid Encounter # 37 - Juggahoes
FeindishTi...: I'd rate a - number but they don't have To FeindishTi...: Oh go rape a baby with a hatchetFeindishTi...: an if you said that shyt to my face I'd prob slap the piss out yacancelChat3:12ammoreTo FeindishTi...: so you slap girls?To FeindishTi...: i mean dont worry most juggalos do beat woman but what most juggalos dont know is that most people carry guns and so if you pull out your hatchet you will be DOAFeindishTi...: I never hit a girl before in my life but that was some fucked up shyt to say!cancelChat3:17amreplyFeindishTi...: an I've taken gun out of people hands completly unarmed so eh an guns are stupid anyway!cancelChat3:18amreplyFeindishTi...: you know shyt about a lo or a letteTo FeindishTi...: hatchets are stupidcancelChat3:26amreplyFeindishTi...: the hatchet is a symble for the warrior dumb ass!cancelChat3:27ammoreTo FeindishTi...: yeah well a gun is a symbol for americaFeindishTi...: you ppl are really stupid you think we just go around killin pll an shyt you kn

Love Flame
The sun rises like gold and sets like burning fire just like in my heart. Waiting to see if you would come I gave you extra light. It is called my eternal flare. It won't ever blow out, as long as you are near. Is it Love everyone is looking for? If it is we are all in danger, because it is once in a lifetime we meet somone we really love. So don't lose hope in that special someone because if you do it will be too late. When you finally realize it, you have lost everything you worked so hard to find. Don't ever forget, it's hard to keep a flame going,

Late Night Ramblings (really Random)
So here I sit. Listening to the TV in the background, sitting in my parents living room telling myself I really should be sleeping. But I can't. I don't know why. I always seem to have trouble sleeping. My mind just goes and goes and goes. And normally things I think about are nothing to worry about or anything spectacular. It seems to run the most right before I try to lay down to sleep. I'm sure this happens to a lot of people. But have you ever wondered why? Maybe it's because I'm alone, nothing is really distracting me from the random thoughts I've got going on. My brain is stuck in the future. Granted I live my life day to day, I'm constantly thinking of what my life is going to be like in a year or two or 12. Will I be successful? Will I be as I am now? God, I hope not. That's just sad to think about. I guess I'm just to a point in my life where I'm ready for things to start happening. But that won't happen until I start making some moves. Which I plan on doing. But

Green Printing Services - Best Way To Prevent Pollution
In this eco-friendly world everybody wants to do their part. There are a lot of ways by way of which people can make sure that there are doing their bit in saving the earth from getting polluted and thus save it from a lot of calamities that nature experts foresee in the future. Green Printing is one such method which aims to reduce the burden of pollution on the nature and aims at saving it. It includes a set of practices by way of which corporations can get their documents printed but at a cheaper cost and in an eco-friendly way. This is done by resorting to the use of safe organic colours instead of harmful dyes for the purpose of printing. Green printing also involves saving paper and recycling it. There are a number of companies for Offset Printing in Sydney which resort to the practice of saving or collecting old paper and then recycling it to produce recycled paper. It may be of a poor quality but it can be put to use in areas which do not have to be concerned wi

Hand Me Down
Someday they'll find your small town world on a big town avenueGonna make you like the way they talk when they're talking to youGonna make you break out of the shell cause they tell you toGonna make you like the way they lie better than the truthThey'll tell you everything you wanted someone else to sayThey're gonna break your heart, yeahFrom what I've seenYou're just a one more hand me downCuz no one's tried to give you what you needSo lay all your troubles downI am with you nowSomebody ought to take you inTry to make you love againTry to make you like the way they feelWhen they're under your skinNever once did think they'd lie when they're holding youYou wonder why they haven't calledWhen they said they'd call youYou start to wonder if you're ever gonna make it byYou'll start to think you were born blindFrom what I've seenYou're just a one more hand me downCuz no one's tried to give you what you needSo lay all your troubles downI am with you nowI'm here for the hard timesThe straight

The Amazing Shrinking Woman
I am far from used to any sort of physical fragility in myself. Since the beginning of me, I have been a big soft lump of a person; held up with thick, seemingly unbreakable bones. I look at pictures from even a year ago and frown. Did I look that way? Was I that person? Where the fuck was my neck? *sigh*So now I sit and try to get used to sharpness of my shoulders, the collar bone that once lay settled beneath a thick blanket of fat, hips that have reachable edges. Marvel at how the strap of my tank top sits away from my skin, where it used to lie flush. Where did all these things come from? I can't complain. This is what thirsted for since I was old enough to realize I was bigger than everyone else. But stip away 80bls of YOUR weight and see how it feels. It's like I'm constantly naked....

Us
These are only funny because they are true. *If I'm too lazy to masturbate, do you really think I have the motivation to talk to someone I don't know? *I don't wanna be drunk the first time we make love, so can we just fuck instead? *Statuses about your cock are only funny when you're not lying. *If "Obama" is the answer, Then that must have been one stupid ass question. *I believe that sex is one of the most beautiful, natural, wholesome things that money can buy. *Bisexuality immediately doubles your chances for a date on Saturday night. *There are a number of mechanical devices which increase sexual arousal, particularly in women. Chief among these is the Mercedes-Benz 500SL *If a Dodge Challenger was a dude, I'd totally get over my gag reflex. *Sex is one of the nine reasons for reincarnation. The other eight are unimportant. *Hockey is a sport for white men. Basketball is a sport for black men. Golf is a sport for white men dressed like black pimps. *I don'

Love Like Crazy- To Boobaby
Ads by ClickFuse LEE BRICE - Love Like Crazy lyrics they called them crazy when they started outsaid 17 to young to know what loves aboutthey've been together 58 years nowthats crazyhe brought home 67 bucks a weekbought a little two bedroom house on maple streetwhere she blessed him with 6 more mouths to feedthats crazyjust ask him how he did ithe'll say pull up a seat it'll only take a minute to tell you everything(chorus)he'll be your best friendtell the truthover use i love yougo to workdo your bestdont out smart your common sensenever let your prayin knees get lazyand love like crazythey called him crazy when he quit his jobsaid them home computers boy they'll never take offwell he sold his one man shop to microsoftand they paid like crazyjust ask him how he made ithe'll tell you faith and sweatand the heart of a faithful woman who never let him forget(chorus)he'll be your best friendtell the truthover use i love yougo to workdo your bestdont out smart your common sensenev

Death Is Knocking At My Door
I have finally reached my breaking point....I no longer have an escape...I have nobody to turn to. Death is much more clearer to me. My whole family has given up on me and has thrown me away and my own girlfriend has done the same thing to me as well. I feel I am better off dead than alive. I am lost in the dark fog that I can no longer see the light. I have given up the fight in me is no longer there, I have been fighting for thirty five years. I cannot fight anymore, I no longer have the strength

Yesterday When I Was Young
Seems the love I've known has always been The most destructive kind Yes, that's why now I feel so old Before my time. Yesterday when I was young The taste of life was sweet as rain upon my tongue. I teased at life as if it were a foolish game, The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame. The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned I'd always built to last on weak and shifting sand. I lived by night and shunned the naked light of the day And only now I see how the years ran away. Yesterday when I was young So many happy songs were waiting to be sung, So many wild pleasures lay in store for me And so much pain my dazzled eyes refused to see. I ran so fast that time and youth at last ran out, I never stopped to think what life was all about And every conversation I can now recall Concerned itself with me and nothing else at all. Yesterday the moon was blue And every crazy day brought something new to do. I used my magic age as if it were a wand And never saw th

30 Mil Fubucks Lottery!
30 million FuBUCKS up for grabs! DRAWING IS MONDAY 5-31-2010 at NOON FUTIME! Here's how it works. You Fupal me 500k entry fee.. Thats it! The fupal messages are given a number as they come in. the first one i get is #1, second one i get is #2... and so on... At drawing time i use an online random number generator. IT picks the winner, then I FuPal the winner the 30 million. I have done this before with great response. Check my LOTTERY WINNERS FOLDERS IN MY PICS For examples of past winners :D Thanks and Good Luck! FEEL FREE TO ASK ME ANY QUESTIONS :D

Illusions
did you ever notice that a head shot can conceal about 50 pounds . lol. you know what im talkign about . the old " whoa .. she looked hot in her pictures" yea but did you see any pictures of her from the chest down ? uh , no i never noticed that6 . yep , there you go false adfvertising ? shrug

Ihw Promos
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Ramblings
It's been a loooooong week...and it's not over yet. For those who don't know, my work involves dealing with people on different time zones (no, I don't work for Fubar). That means I'm waitingggggggggggg waitingggggggggg waitinggggggggg for that little gap between when Nigerians are at work and the Australians haven't buggered off from work because they're lazy bastards. When that gap emerges, I get to yell. A lot. I enjoy it. Because there's a purpose to it. There's ALWAYS a purpose to what I do. And it's rarely for myself that I'm doing it. That increases my enjoyment. Radical I know. I still owe Liverjuice his super-whoring tools, and I still haven't finished the epic pome...ok, I haven't really started the epic pome...I'd do the 'why Doug should win Fubar' thing but at this point me voicing the word fubar aloud would probably result in a veer off into a significant rant ending in five minutes of mumbling about snivelling cowards...and then it'd be too big to upload and I

Letting Go...
A young boy in the tribe had fallen in love with a young girl from another tribe. Everyday the young boy would cross the plains to see her. They found comfort in each other since they both had been hurt in the past. They both had suffered hardship. They had seen loved ones taken by sickness and killed while hunting. They had both known famine and drought, despite their youth. Together, they would walk down the river and by the canyons. They laughed about the goings on in the tribes, dreaming of the time when they came of age to marry. Two full seasons had passed, and the time came for the young boy to participate in the rite of passage, so he could become a hunter and a man in his tribe. To do this, after the fall harvest he had to leave the tribe and brave the winter alone. This would prove that he was strong and wise enough to provide for a family. The young girl feared for him, she knew it was a dangerous time. The young man reassured her; “I have learned much from

Sexualyexplicit
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Big Change
So in just over 18h my mom have graduated collage and be on aq bus to Bamff Alberta. This is the change that I know she needs but I feel like everything around me if falling a part with her leaving. I know its not her falt. I am proud of what she has done this past year going back to school getting this amazing job offer but deep down inside i would rather keep her locked up in my room then let her leave me. Its going to be a happy but sad day tomorrow. But I know that my mom is just going to go out there knock there socks off and show them what she can do. I am so proud that my mom has moved into this new path in life. I wish her the best of luck. I love you mom so much and hope that you keep following your dreams. Miss you already more then you know.... ****runs away crying****

My New Conclusion
Where to start? When i started on this site, i had no clue about how it worked or whether i even liked it. After about a month, i discovered the mumms.. it was love at first sight. in the following (almost) year, i spent many nights and days in there. making friends, making enemies, and using my quick tongue to hurt others, and make myself feel better. you see, at the time my life was less than happy. (any of you that have known me, know what i'm talking about.) Within the last 3-4 months, the mumms just haven't been as much fun for me, but i couldn't figure out why. I kept thinking it was because the new mummers were just lame, or the posted topics were boring to me. After a long and far too drawn out mumm confrontation yesterday.. I felt unsatisfied. It seriously left me with a bad taste in my mouth. I logged out in the middle of it, because it wasn't making my adrenhiline pump like it used to. So i thought about it, and came to this conclusion: The mumms haven't changed, the m

Sour Girl [post Out Of Complete Boredom]
1. Put your music library on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.4. Ok, go!5. When you're done, the answer to #20 is the Title of your note.1. If someone says "Is this okay?" You say?Hatredy [by Dethklok]2. How would you describe yourself?This Love [by Maroon 5]3. What do you like in a guy/girl?Haha - Sweet Transvestite [by Rocky Horror Picture Show Soundtrack]4. How do you feel today?Time of Your Life [by Green Day]5. What is your life’s purpose?Porn & Tragedy [by Slyde (local band)]6. What's your motto?Burritos [by Sublime[7. What do your friends think of you?Hey [by The Pixies]8. What do you think of your parents?Gimme Shelter [by The Rolling Stones]9. What do you think about very often?People Are Strange [by The Doors]10. What is 2 + 2?Never Tear Us Apart [by INXS]11. What do you think of

Lmao
Ok so the following happened in Baby J's blog. I'm amused. Is this the type of person he really thinks I am? Sedu FuEngaged ...17 mins -- 85 of 86 Sedu FuEngaged to Sexxie Bitch said: So basically what this means is that those of us who aren't point whores and actually appreciate and value what little bling we have will no longer be able to appreciate them because this crap is going to be over the top of them? That's ridiculous. Is there going to be any option for us to not have that appear on our bling at all? I don't want people spending money or wasting time on me, but at the same time, I don't really want my page to look like crap as a result of it. babyjesus said: i guess if you view the cup as half empty, have your head up your ass and like to talk to your 'friends' about the depressing life you live and how you wish it would all end in a bloody massacre, yes-- that is exactly what it means. jesus christ, do the rest of us a favor and lig

If You Are Out There Please Read This (wtf!!)
(this is my first blog so bare with me) Amanda is my name. I have been a part of Fubar for over three years now. I am the DJ Manager of Club Vegas. I have been there since the day it opened and have met some really awesome people that I would have never met had it not been for Sassy, Brian, and Mimi (the owners of Vegas). Just recently we had a incident with a coder of outs. We needed help and he was not around so a few people in our lounge went looking for a coder to help out. The found one who could code our lounge where it did not lag anyone because we had had a lot of complaints about it, but our coder got mad about being replaced and completely fired himself. Him and his fu-wife then left and unsubscribed from Club Vegas. When this coder left he told me that he wouldn't ask me to choose between him and Vegas. Now you see Sassy is like my big sis, and the coder well I loved him and he claimed to love me as well. So you see my predicament. Yesterday Coder (that is what I will r

One Bad Apple
Whenever ppl says, damn he ruined it for the rest of us...and in the past it has, I recently made the choice that one bad apple isnt going to fuck it up for others who arent shitheads lol....and believe me, i know who the good ones are, even if i havent spoken to you, i know lol, and i dont want ppl to be scared to say things to me afraid im going to chew you out...just have common sense, which i have found isnt real common lol...i have a sense of humor, just dont disrespect me...plain and simple...i dont think thats so much to ask...and the whole, dont put up nudes if you dont want ppl to say things, its my page, my pictures, my pictures should say : wow, shes pretty cool for sharing these, NOT, hey, i can talk to her like a whore, hell, my pics are with my husband...i highly doubt that is being whorish, and i dont think me sharing them says im a whore either, maybe it says im somewhat confident that ppl will enjoy looking at them...but, maybe im wrong, maybe im giving ppl too much cr

Bdsm
Really ppl...please dont tell me you honestly think bdsm translates to beat your submissive....two words for those who believe this, DUMB FUCK...ENOUGH SAID, now, if you really want to know what its about, an honest to God question, by all means ask....you need one thing when dealing with this life style...OPEN MIND...if you dont have one, exit the way you enter...xoxo

Long But Contains Many Of My Wisest Thoughts!!
WISE WORDS AND SAGE ADVICE - Do not argue with an idiot. He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience. That is why I don't argue with a politician. - The last thing I want to do is hurt you. But it's still on the list. - We live in a society where pizza gets to your house before the police. - If I agreed with you, we'd both be wrong. - Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny. If you see him without a sandwich, look out. - Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand. - War does not determine who is right – only who is left... left, oh ya they are the ones holding the protest signs. - Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit; Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad. - Politicians and diapers have one thing in common. They should both be changed regularly, and for the same reason. - Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car. - Evenin

Charming!!!!!!!!
loverboy75: hey girl whats up i dont know you but i do know some girl from you way dawn macarthor 12:56pmTo loverboy75: yeah? i dunno where that is 12:57pmloverboy75: i didnt say its where your from co and the city dawn is a person and i didnt say that you knowed her all i ask did you know her,aint gotta be a bitch 1:02pmTo loverboy75: hey dont get all pissy at me dude..you never said who she is how do I know if I know her 1:03pmTo loverboy75: i just now saw that part and no I dont know her..but ya donthave to be a fucking dick...all I said was i dunno where something is..fuck you are a charmer eh? 1:05pmloverboy75: hey im sorry if you took it if i was being a dick i dont know who pissed on your pradade but i wasnt being a dick but i can be if you want to say that i am 1:06pmTo loverboy75: yeah your reply sounded pretty snarky..and if you think you wanna be a dick go for it..whatever turns your crank 1:08pmloverboy75: no i dont like beind a dick but the only way im a dick if wom

My Life: A Flash In Time
My Life: a flash in time A mere boy in my twenty's my whole life lies before me accepted a challenge for adventure without fame. Becoming my childhood hero James Bond complete with a tuxedo, now to be known as double 'O' & ½ The mild mannered telephone repairman 5000 miles to install a line Family never understood a thing as the million miles pass by We all have our secrets some more colorful than others Some known some not will take to the grave out of pride not smarts Of cource the memory more colorful sweat burns your eyes so much time in the desert So many lies with no change in 2000 years The desert did change me

I Just Want To Run Away And Never Look Back
Every other week I dread, because its time to pay the bills and get food and make sure hubby has gas for the car. And as hard as I try to keep up with the bills, I just cant, hubby doesnt make enough thats the main thing and he has a bad back to boot. I feel like a complete failer, cause I can't keep up and keep enough food in the house. And when I speak to hubby about it..all I get is, WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT IT...well listen would be nice and understand its hard and I just cant give him any more funds other then his gas money. It's so hard for us, that I have to take my youngest sons disablity check and only give him 200.00 of it. Doesnt that suck!!! I filed for disabilty myself two weeks ago and I am just waiting to see if I get it or not. But I feel like I have failled big time, and just want to run away and hide never looking back. But I cant do that, I love my family and it would just kill me. All I want is for him to understand the stress, I am under, the str

Just For Today Na
Just For TodayJust for today my thoughts will be on my recovery, living and enjoying life without the use of drugs.Just for today I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.Just for today I will have a program. I will try to follow it to the best of my ability.Just for today through NA I will try to get a better perspective on my life.Just for today I will be unafraid, my thoughts will be on my new associations, people who are not using and who have found a new way of life. So long as I follow that way, I have nothing to fear.

Firewind - The Longest Day
Take my hand now, I will lead you far awayFrom our homeland, to a place we shall not stayBut for moments, until your crying fadesAnd the haunting, of all those who paidHold your mother's memoryShe was always there for you, but now she's goneThe longest day will it ever endHow long can men behave this wayThe longest day has taken our lovesHow long can wars remainThe morning sun rose, as it did like yesterdayA day like others, until the bombs fell our wayMy son and wife died and left our small hometown in flamesThere was no reason, to be hit by death's reignHold your mother's memory She was always there for youBut now she's goneThe longest day will it ever endHow long can men behave this wayThe longest day has taken our lovesHow long can wars remainI hold your handAs you took your lasr breathI could not save youNor my son from deathThe longest day will it ever endHow long can men behave this wayThe longest day has taken our lovesHow long can wars remainThe longest day will it ever

Disney Cancelling Soapnet
If you are hooked on Disney’s SOAPnet station then you will be going through withdrawals. Disney is cancelling SOAPnet to air a children’s channel called Disney Junior. The change will take place in 2012 so you have some time to record all your favorite shows. For more http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/05/26/disney-shut-soapnet-launch-disney-junior-channel/ BlastFM is not going off the air. 24/7 for your listening pleasure of the best internet music you will find www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Holy Something Or Other.....
yea ok i've been off for a long damn time. Sadly ill admit i forgot i had this place. But you have to realize i was fucking stomped with crap on the cassi done it list. some a still in progress, for instance deployment. Right at the tippy top. but im back now so yay me. tired as hell but yea lol. so ok thats bout is for now more later maybe.....

Dreams
Where is he? The man who hides in my dreams. The no named man who visits me everynight while i sleep. I feel no need to hide the inner me, for he loves me for all my flaws no matter how big or small. Y cant he come out and save me from my pain. Must he hide inside while i slowly die outside. So the question lies y must my quest be so agonizingly long when he is so close, or is it just a dream?

Door
As i cry these silent tears i put a smile on my face, like makeup, a normal routine. Hoping this time you will look into my eyes and see the pain that i hide. Why is it you say you love me but you ignore me. If this is love i want no part of it. Must i hide inside with these tears i cry? Will i mess up your perfect little world? When will you open your eyes and see the door and let me out? Cant you hear me screaming banging on the door? The key is in plain sight cant you see it, just look into my eyes! I guess i must move on hoping the next will use the key to unlock the door!

Take Over
You said you would catch me as i fall. I turn around just long enough to see you with your arms streached out, but as i hit the ground hard i open my eyes and look up to see an empty room. So cold all alone "what have i done to desirve this" i scream in to the cold empty room. Just waiting for someone to come find me just a helping hand. No more tears to cry as the pain grows stronger, close my eyes and let the cold take over.

When Will Baby Arrive? Take A Guess
I am Going to be induced on June 3rd if baby girl don't come before then.... So what i want from you all is Guesses! I am Currently as of May 25th 4 centimeters dilated. I will be 39 weeks pregnant May28th. I have gained 22 lbs. I have contractions off an on obviously. So you tell me, What day do you think Trinity will come? What time? How much will she weigh and how long will she be? What color hair and eyes will she have??? Have fun we'll see who gets which one right. Remember my other 2 kids were born Late Eric was born 6 days late and Cassidy was a week late and came by induction. Both natural no Epi. They have a different father then Trinity so i don't think their weight and length at birth will matter. But i'll give them to you anyway. Eric was 7 lbs 6 oz and 20 1/2 inches long, Cassidy was 8 lbs 11 oz and 21 inches long. HAVE FUN GUESSING EVERYONE!!!

Unaware
As i watch my world fall to peices all around me i pick up the glue and peice it all back together just long enough to watch it fall again, picking up the peices as i watch the ppl go by kicking their feet with their noses in the air all i can do is hold my head down in shame crying unware of the water surrounding me all i can do is let it take me in,drowning hoping and preying that someone anyone would look out and see whats right in front of them screaming JUST LOOK! As i slowly drown unnoticed i close my eyes just long enough to see the dawn and start drowning all over again!

Wonder Lust And Solitude
Wonder lust and solitude,Trickle down and endless road.Where time knows no end and fear has no soul,Caught in the passion,Stolen by desire, I felt the flame of an ever lasting fire.The sands in the hour glass did not seem to fall,Time stood still during that winters call,I lost my self in wonder,Had a chance for love.I know now love is not forever,I know now the widowed mind weeps,But for solitude I keep my tears,And Never do I believe another mans words.I thought he loved me,And still I believe,Deep down inside there are still feelings for me,But to himself he does keep.He will never speak those words of sweetness,He will never show he cares,For he is lost in that lonely hour glass,Where he cant se that I care.

Table For Two
Candles flicker softly on a table set for twoThere's no one on the earth tonight except for me and youA nice romantic dinner and a bottle of chilled wineAnd we are here together in a moment stopped in timeA love so few have ever known and this is its birth nightAlone within our little world, you and I and candlelightSo soon we will set free the feelings that we want to shareAnd I am held here spellbound by your laughter in the airThoughts of love like falling leavesSwirling in the autumn breezeFlow in our minds and in our eyesA tender look and longing sighsWe touch and as the fire startsThat we have kindled in our heartsWe kiss and here the angels singAs heavens gift to me, you bringNo more to live my life aloneAnd in your soul I found my homeAt peace within your loving armsCaptivated by your charmsAnd happily I'd die for youHere at this table set for two

Eyes Of Darkness
In the eyes of darknessI stand by theewebbed in silenceyou speak softlyyour words are calmingsome what fareTo hear you say how much you caremakes time pass quickermakes the pain easy to bearThe beast does fight mebut I know your thereIn the eyes of darknessIm slowly losing lifeDrifting awayAll I hear is you voice asking me to stayyou kisses heal mespare me some timeIn the eyes of darknessyou whisper your forever mineholding you while the days drift slowly byIt makes facing the beast easier to bear.In the eyes of darknessI know you will always be there.

For My Mom..5 Years June 1'st She Left My Brother,sister And Me We Miss Her As Much Today As We Did On That Day
If Roses grow in Heaven ,Lord please pick a bunch for me ,Place them in my Mother's arms and tell her they're from me. Tell her I love her and miss her, and when she turns to smile, place a kiss upon her cheek and hold her for awhile. Because remembering her is easy, I do it everyday, but there's an ache within my heart that will never go away. I Love You Mom!! ♥ today, tomorrow,and forever!!

Backyard Delight...
So last night, my wife went to let our lab inside before bed last night. When she looked thru the window, the lab was staring at something. as soon as my wife opened the door, the lab starting barking and growling at something in front of her. my wife sees a snake lying in the grass and gets the lab away from it. luckily the lab was not bit but was sure in the hell not going to let it near my wife. i walk up near it and see the markings. the markings are very similar to a rattlesnake. of course I took a pic. see below or in first comment. I look at its tail and realize no rattler here. it appears to be an young Texas rat snake. still nothing u want to find around your dogs or kids. i did not kill it but did scare it out of the yard. first time in 6 years in the house we have seen a snake.

God's Garden
My aunt wrote this whem mom died. God looked around his garden, And found an empty place. He then down apon the earth. And saw your tired face. He put his arms around you, And lifted you to rest. God's garden must be beautiful, He only takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, He knew that you were in pain. He knew that you would never Get well on earth again. He saw the road was getting rough, And the hills were hard to climb. He closed your weary eyelids, And whispered "Peace be thine." It broke our hearts to lose you, But you didn't go alone. For part of us went with you, to his heavenly home. This says it all! We love and miss you very much. From all your family Susan Elaine Steffen

Logged Into Fubar Thru Facebook?
If you are having an issue where you are not able to log into fubar or you had to create a separate account to log into fubar, then here is what you need to do. 1. log out of fubar and facebook, if you can't log out of fubar just log out of facebook 2. clear your browser and cache, temp files and reboot your pc 3. log into facebook, and then log into fubar directly, by typing www.fubar.com.

Old About Me....blah Blah Blah
I just moved my old "About Me" section here if anyone cares to read it. I do highly suggest reading it though, if you care to converse with me. If you've found this and bothered to make it over here in the first place then you've already got bonus points in my book... NOTE TO THE INSECURE TYPES WHO ARE STOPPING BY TO CHECK ME OUT because you think I am gonna steal your FuMan or FuHubby. Please. I don't have a problem meeting men in real life and this site THRIVES ON flirting. It happens. If I put a heart as a profile comment it means I've stopped by and rated him, not that I want to run away with him and make babies. If you can't get over that then maybe you should try a different site. I assure you that my inbox and/or shoutbox are *ALWAYS* open if I am doing anything that is giving you that not-so-fresh feeling. Please talk to me about it like the adults we are, rather than spreading nasty rumors or gossip. If you choose to go the gossip route, just remember karma's a bitch. I am

Trent Reznor's Latest
If you know me, you know I believe in this: There are musicians, and there is Trent Reznor...the GOD of music. I have been to every local NIN show since PRETTY HATE MACHINE, have all the CDs, and even an un-opened SIGNED vinyl copy of THE FRAGILE (BEST.ALBUM.EVER) So, you can imagine my heart dropped when he said NINE INCH NAILS was dis-banding. Of course, he's been known to take time off before but once he got married I pretty much figured he was retired. Boy was I wrong... Him and his wife has a new band called HOW TO DESTROY ANGELS and once again, I am blown away!!!! Of course NIN.com is still being updated, but check out HOW TO DESTROY ANGELS' home site.

Don
C what is up with this whole Fubar thing?????? You have people on here flirting, stripping, talking , chatting, doing whatever and you can't figure out if anything is fake or not????? Than there is all of the Fake Crap around here with the Fake photo's or porn stars I mean come one unless your a 40 year old virgin get a life. To be contin.....

Stun Gun
(Quarashi) Aye yo this shit doesn't come easy, but hey don't misjudge me, whatever might displease you, still couldn't touch me. I don't care what I write is what I'm gonna, bust fights on round one, if you fuck with anyone of us. What! Please, you better run till your knees concede, shit hits the fan next time you see me. And I don't stall about what's up with ya'll now freeze on the spot, when it's time to let it all out. And I don't know I just don't know why things always get little bit out of control. Why people get rowdy when I come into the place. Whoops! there goes my glass in your face!One time for my posse. Posse.Two times for my homes. Homes.We'll be chillin in the backseat. Backseat.Where we bury the bone. Bury the bone.Here's a birdie who plays dirty in this game. It's a shame that my ex wants to act this way. What a hag man, what a bunch of crap to say. When I've been nothing but fair with you up till this day. But hey, you got what you wanted so choke on this shit to

Helping Open A 'door' To Someone In A 3rd World Country
Four am and after communicating in prayer to the 'Great Spirit' I have been lead to write this blog howl! I was raised by a Nazarene Minister and a school teacher and that 'helping others' enviroment shaped me in many ways to be the 'wolf' I am. About a year ago I met someone through Yahoo Personals that was a school teacher in a 3rd world country. She was working 5 hour days 5 days a week making $50 a month. Also she attended the local university there part time. Poverty,diseases,short life spans of approx. 47 years of age,bandits,villages with no electricity, cities with sometimes electricity.scams,hospital where you have to pay before you are treated,ect. were conditions in this country all too familiar to her. I established a friendship with her and found her to be honest,intelligent,educated in many areas as she spoke 3 languages,needy,warm,great sense of humor,and a 'people person' who liked to help others. She was originally from Australia and lost both her parents and end

A Lesson In Futility
A couple was walking along the shoreline one evening. The night was cool and pleasant and they were in love. As they walked along they talked softly to each other, with a light heart and happy mind. They continued to walk until they came upon a bend in the beach. As they turned the bend and looked at the beach spread before them, they stopped. In silence they looked upon the shore to find hundreds of fish… beached and dying. As far as they could see. They continued to walk, and continued to pass more and more fish that were dead or gasping for air about to die. The woman looked at her man and said “This is horrible” He nodded in agreement. “Let’s just keep walking” he said. The couple continued down the shore, expecting that the next turn would bring a clear and clean beach. Instead, they found only the same thing. Dead fish, and those that were still dying. As they continued walking they watched as the sea gulls gorged themselves on the fish. Unt

Haven't Written In A While.. Nothing New To Say.
I want something epic out of this life. I want the love and affection of a man that I love. I want chemistry, fireworks, knowing before anything has to be said that this is who I will spend my life with.. I had that feeling once, and I lost it. I lied to myself, and played myself short for what I can offer in a relationship, and my decisions came back to bite me. I am scared, literally almost to death sometimes, that I will mess up, make the wrong choice, end up alone.. I'm queasy just thinking about it. I let no one in that close anymore. I've been beaten, mistreated, left alone, ignored. Stalked, verbally abused, and chased by some that refuse to take no for an answer, and I let them all believe what they want. Who am i? Poisonous, venomous, I can drown you in the deepest sorrow you've ever known, because my sadness is like a disease.. I'm negative to the deepest part of my soul, and I will draw you in. I just want someone to lift me out and hold me close. Isn't that the most ridicul

We're In This Together - Nine Inch Nails
"We're In This Together" I've become impossible holding on to when when everything seemed to matter more the two of us all used and beaten up watching fate as it flows down the path we have chose you and me we're in this together now none of them can stop us now we will make it through somehow you and me if the world should break in two until the very end of me until the very end of you awake to the sound as they peel apart the skin they pick and they pull trying to get their fingers in well they've got to kill what we've found well they've got to hate what they fear well they've got to make it go away well they've got to make it disappear the farther I fall I'm beside you as lost as I get I will find you the deeper the wound I'm inside you for ever and ever I'm a part of you and me we're in this together now none of them can stop us now we will make it through somehow you and me if the world should break in two until the very end of me until

Sleeve
My heart is on my sleeveCause I like making people smileMy heart is on my sleeveCause I like to keep people happyMy heart is on my sleeveCause I hate being selfishMy heart is on my sleeveCause I know one day someone will take itMy heart is on my sleeveCause I don't wanna be aloneBut wearing my heart on my sleeveHas created tons of painSo from this day forwardI will walk around sleevelessTo prevent all the hurt and painI will wear sleeve again one dayBut only when the right person comes along

Drake
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kV_YdALjpmw this song is sooo amazing....plus i love both alicia keys and drake.....but drake's verse is so real... Taz keeps telling me he just turned thirty having dreams of being single forever he's getting worried and im SCARED too because im in the same boat good women are RARE too, none of them have came closeMe i haven't changed much you know how i play it better safe then sorry instead of searching for substance at every single party baby being part of this life i feel like im bound to end up with somebody that's been with everybody I need you to rescue me from my destiny im trying to live right and give you whatever is left of mecause you know life is what we make it and a chance is like a picture it'd be nice if you just take itor let me take it for ya, im just down to rideor we can just roll around the city till you finally decide got more then a thing for you, tattoo and ink for you right over my heart , girl ill do the unthi

Randomness
I felt your love rush across me like so many waves; I lay motionless.I recognized the absence of your thoughts, I knew I was lost and late.I could've kept going, but coursing through me was fear.Fake. False. Flash flood. Front runner. Cracks, crevices, calm before the storm. Hold me whil I lay here and die.

Not Matter What (poem I Wrote Just Now)
(Im writing out my emotions sorry if it isnt put together well) Im not fucking perfect But im fuckng realpeople throw shit at me except me not to feelords dont hurt but yer they dobrings back memories that are horrabile for me good for you hate u for makng me feel this way i hate u for causeing me pain i hate the no matter what i do isnt righti hate that every little thing i do u wanna start a fight the sec im smile u rip me down sometimes i think ur only happiness would be to see me drownIm not here for ur please yet ur hear for my pain i try to be nice but u take evertything in vain all the hurt in life i been thru they say the next day comes and the sky is newthe star in the sky yet im always falling tears in my eyes yet im not lucky enough to be drown in them fucking stress fucking pain it hurts so much u always compian i cant do it i cant to i just cant i cant even speak any more or feel i as i write this i have more then tears i cant even finish this......... just throW i

How Do You Love!!!!
Love with all your heart and soul, Take the time to listen, to learn, To feel, to be felt, Love with understanding and focus, Love with dedication, Love with knowing that you are loved in all ways. And that this love is undying, Love with an apparition 4 love, Love you and all that is around you, Love in faith, Above all love God as God loves us all. And you will know how to love.

Insensitive
by Jann Arden How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss?How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?How do you block the sound of a voice, you'd know anywhere?Oh I really should have known, By the time you drove me home,By the vagueness in your eyes,Your casual good-byes,By the chill in your embrace,The expression on your face, that told me,Maybe you might have, some advise to give, on how to be, insensitive.How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend?How do you teach your heart it's a crime, to fall in love again?Well you probably won't remember me,It's probably ancient history,I'm one of the chosen few,Who went ahead and fell for you,I'm out of bold, I'm out of touch,I fell too fast, I feel too much,I thought that you might have, some advise to give, on how to be, insensitive.Oh I really sould have known,By the tim

Mexico Is Angry!
This is very interesting and if Arizona can do it, why can't the rest of America do it? MEXICO IS ANGRY! Three cheers for Arizona!!! The shoe is on the other foot and the Mexicans from the State of Sonora, Mexico do not like it. Can you believe the nerve of these people? It's almost funny. The State of Sonora is angry at the influx of Mexicans into Mexico. Nine state legislators from the Mexican State of Sonora traveled to Tucson to complain about Arizona 's new employer crackdown on illegals from Mexico. It seems that many Mexican illegals are returning to their hometowns and the officials in the Sonora state government aren't one bit happy about it!!!

You Learn
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have worth and you learn with every goodbye, you learn.

Chrome Affect
I kick steps it. With the wicked melodic shit. Carry it with much pride upfront fuck off with yo taunt. I'm burying bitches deep into the ground that are misled with stupid bullshit. Ain't half to fit. What i fucking wiitten. Off with an image no line & scrimage. Ass i rimmage put it down to no test. It be no rest. I'm here to kick it give it to ya with that wicked psychotic shit. Oh i'm gonna let you know. Just how it go. My mind ticks & i'm off to blow so. Oh i'm up on the scene. Looking for that fine ms thick & curvy booty queen. You know what i mean. All nice & lean. Clean hit with the nineteen gullotine. Thats just how i'm rolling disposing all you fakes. That try to break. Just a mistake you making. Thinking what you taking. Quit faking blinggity begging whores. Get ya face wiped out on the floor. Discovery you ain't seeing getting through to me. You don't know me. So back on off see. Wicked fine g kick it with that sick shit slap choke yo neck. Til you out of breath & none left.

May 26
when you see your life not going in the direction you inteded it to go it is easy to simply stay on that path. Often we are set on our way we feel comfortable because we know it, it is comfortable. It takes courage to change the course, it takes courage to do something about your life. I hope that when you see your life not going in the direction you intended it to go that you have the courage and internal fortitude to do something about it. Have courage, your life is what you make of it.

8/5
I wonder if there's a way I could arrange to skip work, play video games, eat strawberry sorbet, and have sex all at the same time. Would the world collapse from too much hedenism and awesome in the same place at the same time?If a day is awesomeand a tree is in the woods does it make a sound as reality is crammed down into a singularity? Only one way to find out. ...I left out motorcycle jumps.

Car Parts...
i pride myself on being smart, artistic and good looking, so how can a mind so strong be so wrong? why does it seem like everyone i love either gets hurt or grows to hate me? how can such a nice guy go so wrong? when can i do summing right? im just like car parts, i look nice, but ill always be replaced someday by summing better...

Life
I find myself lost searching for something that is missing in my life. The dark shadows of night haunt me. I am surrounded by evil, though I feel safer now than I have ever been.I find myself at the edge of a cliff.DO I JUMP?Do I turn and run back into the shadow filled hallow night?I catch myself turning back and wondering what is at the bottom of this dark hole. Thinking will he be there to catch me?CAN HE CATCH ME?WHAT IF I JUST FALL?I turn and look back into the shadows.Saying to myself "DO I KEEP RUNNING AND HIDING?"Staying away from thing that haunt me.I cant fight the evil that lurks anymore,I close my eyes,Take one last deep breath,Whisper I love you into the air, hoping you can hear it.Then I take on last look in to the cold dark night and I JUMP.I dont feel myself falling,I hear screams and crying in the distance,Realizing it is the cries of hearts I broke, loves that I have lost and people that I have hurt.I can not repent what I have done in my past.For that my soul is d

A Fear That Has Me Wondering
Whats next in my life?Hatred is all i ever really KnewLove is not something I give easilyWhere do I go from here I still travel a distant lonely roadTo end up where I always am atA dark deserted highway to destructionA path in which i lend my self well to followI dont have the strength of a million swords to allow my self this kind of painbut yet I always endure itWhere does it end?It ends with a broken heart every time I see itit ends in a world of unhappiness and lonelinessI cant see my self going on but yet I doI drive my self to hurtTo be tortured amongst the rest that are like medoomed in a world of painI dont know what to doI dont know how to proceedI want to follow my heart and every thing it tells me to dobut if I do i am afraid I am just headed for the very place I am at right nowheart ache.

Messed Up
I walk in the darkBecause that is the only world I knowLurking in the shadows behind every wallThe smell of lust in the airTwo lovers in the midnight glareA killer in the wind Wanting a taste of themCrying out in the night This creature does not fight.Taking what they want Giving what they willA cry in the distance Please end my painAn Immortality I can not standTake me to the world I seek to findTake me to where love is truely blind.

Hmmmm!
Your eyes finding me,calling out to me......Felling my temperature rise from deep with inA hunger in my soul....wanting to devour you,to taste you from head to toe...your kiss, your sighs, your touch,pleading for more....Fingers tracing the outline of your body..every line, curve and spot...Making each other incredibly hot...My hand upon your faceLips barely touching...You bite my lip and smile,holding me in a playful way...our hands guiding the other to the deepest pleasure..nothing is taboo when I am with you...Hands upon your hips,pulling you unto me...feed my hunger, satisfy my soul...eyes fixed on each other,locked together in a moment of passionate love...hands finding their mark..bodies working together...if only this moment could last forever...

What Do I Do
What do I do?Where do I go from hereMy heart has been ripped out and left stomped to piecesAnd I am told life goes on.Does life go on.I found some one I can call a friend right now. I know he wants more, I believe at some point I do tobut I cant say yes or no right now.Its not that I dont love himI am scaredAfraid of being hurt again.I know he could be every thing I dreamed of but He is not ready to be every thing I wantI dont blame him.I am not at that point yet either but what happens when I am and he isntI cant tell him that I want moreHell right now he cant even give me the things he wants toI dont know what to do or where to go.I am left with the same decision that I have always been left withLive with what I can have or live alone.What do i do?I dont want to live aloneand I am not sure what he really wants to giveSo where do I go from here?What do I do?Sit back and wait.Hold on to that dream or reach farther than I have ever reached before.Am I gonna be left as the one who holds

Love
What is love? I know the basic concept, I've seen it in movies and television and I thought I felt it. But thus far it's been nothing but a crush. So, how does one know when the love is real and not just a crush? How does one know the difference and sometimes I wonder if it is possible for any woman to love me. I mean, it's never happened before so I wonder if it will ever happen. I wonder if I'm destined to find love sometimes, or even know what true love is. I know it exist but for me it seems unobtainable and it seems that I'm destined to be single until my dying day. To never know what it is like to be with another person, to live for another person, to think about that other person, to know that other person feels the same way about you. Sometimes I just wonder.

Pointless Blog
Not like anyone reads my blogs anymore. I just feel like whining for just a minute. Not really whining, just pointing something out. Getting newbies to send you a drink is proving to be a difficult task. I've sent over 50 drinks with kind messages asking for a returned drink and I've gotten TWO back. haha I don't know how else to get the newbs to send me a drink. Oh well. Not like I'm going to be getting 9 million points anytime soon. haha Okay, I'm done.

Families Adopted Or Not
Well I know we really can not choose who are parents are and who our relatives are but we sure can respected them. I have been looking back at so many things about what family is bilogical or adopted but we all live and learn either way. I know it is hard to be in a family at times it is as easy as 1,2, 3. I just know it not who they are and where they come from it is about uncodianal love and understanding. Familys may end of broken up in many way but god is all we need to make our lives a bit better then befroe. I have learned alot about family in these last few years or so that no matter what or where we are we can all count on each other. I know none of us are perfected and we will never be. I have also learned that respected is a big deal in some families and as I saw in my aunt's family it is a big deal. I know we all were rasied differently but we are all still family we may not always agree but we are still family and that is how it should be. No matter what we shou

Bling Polishing! (preview)
We're about to launch the Bling Polishing feature on the site. This is simply a way for everyone to earn more points and have their old bling work for them. :-) It's free and everyone can polish bling. If you have bling that needs polishing, you can polish a few yourself but you'll want to get other people to come polish it for the maximum amount of points. Both the polisher and the polishee (is that a word?) get points. It works like this: All bling items have a few levels of cleanliness. Every 24 hours they get a little 'dirtier'. Whenever they're polished, they go back to their perfectly clean state and the polisher and polishee gain points. The number of points gained by both people are effected by all bonuses (Happyhour, buzz, etc) and by the credit value of the item being polished. More points are earned by polishing higher value items, however, it's linear. We did this so there isn't a benefit for having really high value bling and there's no penalty for having a bun

Keep Us In Your Prayers Plz
I went into labor yesterday while packing things up to move out of state.. he had a good heartbeat but his lungs wasnt developed to breath on his own.. he was born yesterday May 25th at 5:09 p.m. he was 1 lb 12 inches long... We are very heartbroken.. plz keep me and stanley in your prayers

Friends And Ture Friends
Well I have been on really about 3 years now and have made alot of friends and I have True friends. Yes I know most of them are online but either or if you are online or off line we all have people we call friends and we also have true friends. A true friend knows your past and is in your present when you need them, not just when they need you. They love you despite your faults and support you always. This is what a true friend is as you read this you will see that I am not trying to be mean or anything but only the true friends are the ones you count on the most. Even as a friend we all can hang out and get to know each other and have fun. But pepole come and go in our lives and those who stay though think and thin are the ones you can call a down right true friend. Some friends can turn into family and family can turn into friends but it their choose. We can not choose our really family but we can pick and choose the friends we tend to call family. As most of you might not know but

One Drop
Dark clouds fill the skies the air grows cold Turning to look around though all is empty,hallow without sound without light Shimmers of what once was there gone and no hope of coming back Madness settles in tears fall in endless streams Darkness comes long before even one drop can ever dry

Ego Bypass Generator-sybreed
You delight yourself in a paranoid state of mind A bunch of mischief talking shit, it's what you're all about You celebrate yourself in filth and self-indulgence As you believe you own the world Fuck you! [Chorus:] You blame us all to never trust your lies (trust your lies) Your lame words won't ever justify wasting our precious time You want it all, could kill for five seconds of fame No matter who you suck: you're just a hopeless case You rate yourself as fucking number one A poisoned ego oversized but undefined No hope you'll improve yourself No reason to try to understand [Chorus] A worthless, miserable one, absurd and non-relevant You'll burn yourself with all your hate You're tainted, devoid of soul A vain being to nullify with no remorse [Repeat chorus till end]

Life
Well life sometime take unexpected turns you can either go with the flow or run away from it. My life is on a path that I really wish I know whre it was going and sometimes I am glad I have no idea where it will go. All I know is I can either run form it or face it. Yes at times I want to run and other times I am glad I have not. I know that whatever I do or say can and will be either heard or ingoned. Well anyways some of you probbly have no idea what i am talking about and tjhat is okay and others well I sure you do or might.

The Bitch Blog For The Day
today is a day for thoughts, of love, 0f hate, and the darkness thats in us all Im not talking about the Emo cut myself darknss Im talking aboiut the place we all Hide from every one, but thoses close to us. We all have that place where we put the things hurt us. Where the Lies People have told us are stored. The Place where our fears seem so close and so real. The place that we dont share. To Most of us that place is small and easly delt with,but for others is a Hollow and frighting Place that could at any moment consume Our Lives. I have lived with in my Darkness, nd Have come out on the other side a better person, But now Im being Hunted with the feart that I might fall back in to it any moment. I belive that we are Ment to have great Loves and great pains. the Great Loves are the ones we never forget and the ones that hurt us the most. Thoses ae the Loves that cause the festering wou

Barricade-stars
Trapped on the terraces, I looked at you and knew You were the only thing that mattered There was no one for me but you In Harmony Street we beat a man Just for standing there I held my breath as I watched you swing Then run your fingers through your hair Oh, how could anyone not love the terrible things you do? Oh, how could anyone not want to try and help you? In Bermondsey in Burberry, you held me at the barricade, the pigs arrived with tear gas And I wept at the mistakes we made We stalked the streets like animals And danced as windows shattered For our island, for the thrill of it, for everything that mattered Oh, how could anyone not want to rip it all apart? Oh, how could anyone not love your cold, black heart? I found you on a Saturday, and that was where I lost you You had finally walked away because of what it cost you, years later when I saw your face In line to catch the morning train, you looked like you'd been softened Like you never really love

Random Dopey Thought
I would love to meet the cat who would turn down the $1 donation when confronted with this while buying fast food. Fast Food Worker: Would you like to donate $1 to feed starving children? Customer: One dollar? Nope! FFW: But sir, you could help feed a child. Customer: Can I please have my Kids Meals before MY kids become the charity? FFW: What about the starving children of the world? Customer: Fuck' em!!!! Just a thought.

Teens Pour Vodka Into Their Eyes
For those of us who have been around for years, we can recall college students swallowing live gold fish. There has always been stuff younger people do that older people don’t understand. The current teen craze excepted. Seems like teens are pouring vodka into their eyes directly from the bottle. Now that is really nuts. http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,593570,00.html BlastFM does not encourage drinking or any other activity that will mess you up. BlastFM is just a fun way of getting you to tap your feet and dance or sign along www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Qotsa - Better Living Through Chemistry
The blue pill opens your eyesIs there a better way?A new religion prescribedTo those without the faithA hero holding a knifeAnd blood is not enoughIs it too late to go back?Is it too late to go?There's no-one here (there's no-one here)And people everywhere (people everywhere)You're on your ownLet's see if I'm hearing this rightIs it just that I should takeThe never-ending supplyTo carry out the deadYour idols burn in the fireThe mob comes crawling upI'm reclaiming my mindDestroying everyoneThere's no-one here (there's no-one here)And people everywhere (people everywhere)You're all alone

Sic Semper Tyrannis, You Sockdologizing Old Man-trap
I’ve never doubted that my nephew Patrick would graduate high school. Yesterday having been the last day of class for him, he and Donovan were out at our house today where several shingles had blown off the roof from sixty-mile-an-hour winds in some places that we’ve got homeowners insurance for to replace our sister Mary’s couch. I wish we’d gotten photos of Sarah and Jeffrey bringing the cushions up the stairs (Mary lives in our basement) and then teaming up to bring one out to the back of our house for garbage pick up. Unless someone drives by and wants it before Friday (but it sags in the middle and is missing a leg, so we’ll see) it goes to that couch room in the sky … so if the devil wears Prada, what does an angel wear? Tonight after work (once again, everybody at our house is off but me) Minot High School’s baccalaureate service is being held at Our Redeemer’s Church in the southeast of town, and we’ll be at that for