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Shattered..
Last night…another night with pain…10 years, every night..continual nights with “no hope in sight”….weighing on my mind….what to do…where to turn….who to talk to at 3AM?..……how can I help the best, but still have a “LIFE” of my own…..The threat of falls, massive depression daily….a drunken alcoholic binge way tooo often….leaving me and the kids to pick up all the pieces…time and time again, over and over……. ….you wonder why I feel shattered??……..you wonder why I don’t care anymore?…..HOW can u honestly wonder?............A feeling of despair……my energy is slipping, my thoughts are far away…..I wonder why I’ve lasted this long?….It’s because I care….”it’s who I am”…..”it’s what I am”……My soul is “”dying””….my “heart” is shattered…..pieces can’t be picked up…..time slips by, days slip by.....some friends have been lost…..I’ve MOVED on…..I won’t be trapped……I LIVE each day like theirs no tomorrow…..my smile won’t fade as new friends have been made. Another night, another repeat of despair

Yeah If U Have A Penis U Need To Dieee
i had plans with this guy i had been talking to since like dec...fucking didnt answer the phone at all when we had plans on Sat. (i wouldnt have cared as much, but hes done this more than once) and other deceitful things that im embarassed to mention now, cause I sound stupid, but COME ON, I just dont want to be dicked around anymore. Dear god, Id rather be dealing with Casey right now. Atleast he wasn't as big of a DOUCHE

My Views On Nu-metal
-+-!!!WARNING!!! If you like "Nu-Metal" music, this may offend you!-+- There are so many Nu-Metal bands out now that claim to be hardcore. It should be called Pop-Metal, Pop-Rock or even Corporate-Rock. I'm talking about bands like Korn, Slipknot, Murderdolls, Limp Bizkit, Marilyn Manson, System Of A Down, Static-X,...ect. What gives them the nerve to make that claim? They are nothing more then teeny-bopping gimmick band that sing about teen angst issues and love to act like they are still in Middle or High School (Good Charlotte). Just put on a mask, and hire as many members as you can and call your fans maggots (Slipknot), or suck yourself off on stage(Manson). Yeah, that's considered hardcore. It's really just incredibly LAME! It's bands like these that put a black eye on the American Metal Scene. There are bands that aren't being played because of the politics of TV and radio stations. Great bands like Iced Earth, In Flames, Jag Panzer, Children of Bodom, Nightwish, Ep

Dimebag Darrell R.i.p.
On Dec. 8th, 2004, the world of metal lost a legendary guitarest named Dimebag Darrell Abbott. He was doing what he does best in the last moments of his life, by rocking the stage for all of his fans, until a coward took his life, by shooting him 5 times in the face at a Columbus Ohio nightclub called Alrossa Villa. It is a very sad tragedy that we won't ever get to see Dimebag Darrell play live again or hear any of his new creations. And to the sorry-ass bastard that murdered Dimebag Darrell, I believe Superjoint Ritual's Hank Williams III said it best... May you burn in the hottest corners of hell, you pistol-packin' pussyfuck! Rest in peace, Dimebag. Your legacy will never die.

Your On The Other Side Of The World
KT Tunstall - Other Side Of The World lyrics artist: KT Tunstall Lyrics song : Other Side Of The World Over the sea and far away She's waiting like an Iceberg Waiting to change, But she's cold inside She wants to be like the water, All the muscles tighten in her face Buries her soul in one embrace They're one and the same Just like water Then the fire fades away But most of everyday Is full of tired excuses But it's too hard to say I wish it were simple But we give up easily You're close enough to see that You're.... the other side of the world to me On comes the panic light Holding on with fingers and feelings alike But the time has come To move along Then the fire fades away But most of everyday Is full of tired excuses But it's too hard to say I wish it were simple But we give up easily You're close enough to see that You're.... the other side of the world Can you help me? Can you let me go And can you still love me When you can't

Have You Ever??
Have you Ever?? Have u ever cried so uncontrollably you couldn’t stop? Have you ever shaken from the feeling of “lonliness”? Have you ever felt physically ill because of crying? Have you ever cried at night in your bed because no one loves you? Have you ever felt pain in your heart and thru your entire body? Have you ever felt you would die “Lonely” and ‘Alone” Have you ever felt “no one in this world” really LOVED you? Has your heart ever been “shattered”? Have you ever simply “cried” weeks after someone hurt you? Have you ever really had a broken heart? Have you ever thought about that special person 24x7..comsumed by them? Have you ever been “grief stricken” by love? Have you ever experienced “total trust” in someone? Have you ever felt like you have lost “Your best friend in life”? Has your heart ever ached so fiercely for someone that nothing else in life mattered? Welcome to my world….

Ozzy Sabotages Iron Maiden In Ozzfest 2005
I heard on the radio and read the news on Iron Maiden's website (www.ironmaiden.com) and the Ozzfest website (www.ozzfest.com), that during Iron Maiden's last show on Ozzfest, Sharon and her little group of minions tried their best to ruin their showing. Before, Iron Maided went on stage, someone put in a tape to play over the PA system chanting "Ozzy! Ozzy!" This was played during their set and after. Chants of "Maiden! Maiden!" drowned out the Ozzy P.A. chant! While Iron Maiden was playing, the power would turn off at key moments of their songs, and eggs, lighters and bottle caps and ice were thrown at them from a certain area in the audience. During the song The Trooper, Dickinson would wave an English flag. While he was doing this, a man came out from the backstage area with an American flag with a shirt on that said. "Don't Mess With Ozzy". Isn't kind of odd that no one is allowed to be in the backstage area, but this man came out from there twice? And isn't it also odd that secu

I Wish
I wish I were ur eyez, so I could see u everyday I wish I was ur mirror, so I could look at u everyday I wish I was ur pillow, so I could sleep with U through long & lonely nites. but most of all I wish I was ur only gurl so I could try 2 give u tha world!

Album Cover That I Designed
My cousin in-law asked me to design an album cover for his Jazz band here in Pueblo, CO called Wallace Bones & Tubbs. He wanted me to do Characatures of him and his band mates. So here it is: Tell me what you think of it! Thanks

Darkness
I gave you my soul and you torn it i gave you my trust and you thrashed it i gave you my heart and you broke it you put me on a pedestal then crashed it down around me what did i do to you how could you fuck me that way why did you care for me that little i thought our love was perfect then you changed the man i loved went away you started to pull away i love you so much that I've lost control the anger has turned to rage in my dreams i kill in my thoughts i plan the darkness is sucking me in again my demons i face to go or to remain the darkness feels like home so safe so warm but how deep can i dip before i slip away into the darkness into the rage in my core the darkness calls oh to slip to it like a lost lovers arms as its arms holds me tight it reminds me its never lied never hurt me it whispers softly in my ears the darkness calls

Category: Quiz/survey
Answer this for me...... Category: Quiz/Survey 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 7. Describe me in one word. 8. What was your first impression? 9. Do you still think that way about me now? 10. What reminds you of me? 11. If you could give me anything what would it be? 12. How well do you know me? 13. When's the last time you saw me? 14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? and why not? 15. Do you want me, and if so in what ways (friend, girlfriend, fuck buddy, fellow ninja, etc)? 16. If you had me would you ever let me go? 17. Is there a song that describes me to you, or about you and me? 18. When you know you're about to see me do you get giddy like a school girl? 19. What physically sticks out the most about me? 20. When are we gonna do it? 21. How

We'll B 2gether Soon
U are so far away, U are so alone, I am here not feeling very strong I long for tha day we're 2gether again 2 see U 2 touch U 2 hold U again but while u are there and know I am waiting fully anticipating a wonderful reunion we'll both share until then my love please, for me take care:)

Rage
he hurt me you saved me his arms feel like a stranger your arms feel like home i feel like a women in your eyes i feel a fool in his his touch makes me forget who i am yours brings me to my self you feel so good i want to scream your a drug and I'm hooked the sweet serenity you bring the power you give you know my true self even if i forget it feels so good it cant be wrong others may frown on what we do i find i no longer care with you by my side i can take on the world you catch me when i fall your voice whispering in my ear your fingers run down my spine you bring me to my knees i crave your touch your soft caress your hot breath in my ear I'm yours almost completely i don't want you to go my dear sweet rage the only thing that could dominate me almost will you finish the job my dear sweet rage never leave me i like what I'm becoming i love the way

My Addiction
It is four am and I am still awake. I have a clue as to why though. I can never sleep and it progressively gets worse. It must be one of these things; the television, some severe sleep disorder, the million things running through my mind constantly, or the computer(namely cherrytap). Now I am convinced it is twofold; I probably have a sleeping disorder, but even with a cure I would still find a way to stay up and be on cherrytap. It is contagious too my husband is up as well. I am ok with my addiction to Cherrytap, I love it actually, and lets face it I could have a far worse addiction. So I am not complaining just confessing my addiction

Who Is Jack Schitt?
For some time many of us have wondered just who is Jack Schitt? We find ourselves at a loss when someone says, 'You don't know Jack Schitt!' Well, thanks to my genealogy efforts, you can now respond in an intellectual way. Jack Schitt is the only son of Awe Schitt. Awe Schitt, the fertilizer magnate, married O. Schitt, the owner of Needeep N. Schitt, Inc. They had one son, Jack. In turn, Jack Schitt married Noe Schitt. The deeply religious couple produced six children: Holie Schitt, Giva Schitt, Fulla Schitt, Bull Schitt, and the twins Deep Schitt and Dip Schitt. Against her parents' objections, Deep Schitt married Dumb Schitt, a high school dropout. After being married 15 years, Jack and Noe Schitt divorced. Noe Schitt later married Ted Sherlock, and because her kids were living with them, she wanted to keep her previous name. She was then known as Noe Schitt Sherlock. Meanwhile, Dip Schitt married Loda Schitt, and they produced a son with a rather nervous disp

Why Do You Care?
How can you sit and watch me cry How can you care if I'm alive Why do you sit there smiling all the time You have what I've hoped for You took it from me You stole my breath and now I cry miserably! How can you wonder why I'm decide How come you care if I smile or laugh Why do you even care if you see my eyes or not But still I don't understand From everything I've done You still care Why? You don't care without a reason What is your Why do you wait for me WhenI'm never gonna come with Just leave And everything will be alright At least tonight! Bye.

Pellet Gun Incident
I won't be posting any new pics for awhile. My nephew accidently shot me in the chin with his pellet gun and well to make a long story short they were unable to remove the pellet in the E.R. so I'm having surgery Friday to remove it. So until my face heals I won't be taking any new photo's. Love Ya All in good ole Cherry Land Muahz, Julia

Never Say
Never say you love If you don't even care Never talk about feelings If they're not even there Never say "Hi" If you really mean good-bye Never say you're going to If you're never gonna try Never hold my hand If your going to break my heart!

A Smile Proves Nothing
Everyone looks at me Notices that I'm not smiling They wonder How can it be And I'm not happy Can't anybody see Why I'm not smiling A smile doesn't prove anything at all The world looks upon me Notices I' not laughing They wonder How can it be. Today's the day it's over And I'm not happy anymore. Can't anybody see Why I'm not laughing A smile doesn't prove anything So why care What's the deal I don't see the point Truth be told I'm happy I just don't care Why smile when I'm not in the mood why laugh it wasn't very funny I just don't really care.

Leroy
i'm the dumbest bitch in the world...let a girl with no where to stay sleep in the same house as your boyfriend and no you won't get fucked but she sure as hell will....so here I am not sure whether to cry scream or punch a wall. All I want is my family, a mommy and daddy and a baby in the middle...only problem is, that the daddy is a cheating piece of scum and yet i still love him...wondering if we can work through this and knowing the answer to that is going to be no...I need advice, i need a friend and most of all i need a percocet so i can eat a bunch and just forget the pain i'm in....and to think i thought my pill popping days were over....anyone got any pain killers....no to tell you the truth i really don't have to much of a problem with them...bad back and all i get the precribed but shit i wish i had some now.what do i do? Do i let him back in only to hurt me again or do i get out now while i'm numb.? I don't fucking know anymore I guess i wasn't lieing when i said I was

Lost Without You!
The day I left you there alone, I'm here standing I'm on my own. The day we made up, you said 'Goodbye'. It broke my heart, I wanted to cry. What you did was wrong. No doubt it was cold. You had to leave me, strong and bold. Here I am now I'm lost without you! I can't do anything, I can not find you. There I stay Years ago I broke your heart I let you go But here I am now Coming to you Different in many ways You'll see it's true I'm lost without you! Come back to me! I need you in my life to keep me happy!

What's Wrong
I'm talking to my friends trying to get hold of you but they've been telling me You haven't been going to school! What's wrong What's wrong This isn't right This isn't fair I was to know now why aren't you there Is it because I'm far from you Is it because I'm not there Is it because I'm right here Is it because there's nothing there to do I want to see you, hold you, keep you, and love you.. but I don't want to forget you.

Wiccan Definitions
Athame: A wiccan Ritual knife with a double edged blade and usually a black handle. It is used to direct personal power and is never used for cutting. It has a variety of spellings and pronunciations. I pronounce it Ath-ah-may. Autumn Equinox / Mabon: A Wiccan festival also known as Mabon marking the second harvest. Balefire: A fire used for magical or religious purposes and is usually used in Ritual on Yule, Beltane and Midsummer. Bane: That which destroys life, is not useful, is destructive or evil. B.C.E.: Before Common Era; the non-religious equal to B.C. Beltane: A festival derived from the ancient Druid fire festival celebrating the union of the Goddess and the Horned God, it is also a fertility festival. It is also known to some as May Day Eve, Roodmas and Cethsamhain. Besom: Broom Boline: The white handled knife used in magic Ritual for practical purposes, such as cutting herbs. Blessing: The act of placing positive Energy upon

Wiccan Paths
The Wiccan Traditions Just as in any other religion, the Wiccan religion has many different traditions or paths. Each path has its own distinct rituals and practices, and many are bound by a sacred oath so that their practices are held in secret, not allowing members of other traditions to know their ways. The list below tells about some of the different traditions of Wicca. Alexandrian Tradition Founded and based upon the teachings of Alex Sanders, in England. Ceremonial Magick and the Kabbalah have been included with the rituals of Gardnerian Wicca. Skyclad is a common practice in Alexandrian Ritual. As with other Wiccan religions, the duality of Goddess and God is recognised and the Sabbats and Esbats celebrated. Asatru Tradition Asatru is a Norse word meaning 'Belief in Gods'. This tradition is very ancient with its roots in the historical agricultural Vanir and warrior Aesir tribes of Scandinavia and Northern Germany. The main deities are the Goddesses

F.a.q
1.Will you give me Head?If you read the dysfunction page on head youd understand NO. 2.Why do you wear girls clothing?I hate penis and everything related to them that fact that i have one actaully makes me sick inside 3.So you like Anal?Yes Very much so but only from Miss Alice Skary 4.So your Gay?Miss normally means girl so no im not gay im a straight male who like chicks with dicks! 5.Will you go out with me?Mistress makes these choices not i 6.What got you into fetish work?well ive been interested in the lifestyle from behind closed doors for a long time now and steped into the limelight with a performance/discussion team at a nearby college before Miss Alice recruited me into modeling and as a Full time Slave im sure ill have alot more soon these are just whats come up today

To All My Friends And Famlily
Sweet words are easy to say, Sweet things are easy 2 buy, But sweet people are difficult to find. Life ends when U stop dreaming, Hope ends when U stop believing, Love ends when U stop caring, Friendship ends when U stop sharing So I share this with whom I consider a friend. To love without condition, To talk without intention, To give without reason, And to care without expectation is the heart of a truefriend...zz..

You Do Know That There Is A War On?
Okay so I know that this really ties into my other blog, about there being too many ass clowns. But I like to write things out to get them out of my head. Plus I know that someone is going to want to know what has been happening lately. Before I can really start, I have to give some back story. First of all I have spent most of my adult life in the military at some capacity. I used to be Infantry before switching to psyop. I have been on tactical teams all this time. I am an operator and I earned the term. When the fit hits the shan, you want me covering you six. I am not the most bad ass guy on the planet, but I know what I am doing when things go that way. When the going gets tough, the tough get cyclic. If you know what that means, we are on the same page. Currently I am a contractor and I don’t feel bad about the fact that I am not going out on missions. I paid my dues, and I am good at my job. To me, I work for the guys out in the field. They have pretty much the worst dan

Too Damn Funny.
The Nun teaching Sunday school was speaking to her class one Sunday Morning and she asked the question, "When you die and go to Heaven "Which part of your body goes first?" Suzie raised her hand and said, "I think it's your hands." "Why do you think it's your hands, Suzie? " Suzie replied:"Because when you pray, you hold your hands together in front of you and God just takes your hands first!" "What a wonderful answer!" the Nun said. Little Johnny raised his hand and said, "Sister, I think it's your legs." The Nun looked at him with the strangest look on her face. "Now, Little Johnny, why do you think it would be your legs?" Little Johnny said, "Well, I walked into Mommy and Daddy's bedroom the other night, Mommy had her legs straight up in the air and she was saying, 'Oh God, I'm coming!' If Dad hadn't had her pinned down, we'd have lost her."

Hey Y'all
I probably won't be online very much for the next few days. I'm sick and I need to get something done about it. I really can't afford to go to the doctor, but I can't stand it anymore. I would like the contest to continue on as it has been, it's been a great race to see who wins. There is still 13 days of it left people, so don't worry! Still plenty of time!!!!!!!!!!!!! However I would like to place the statistics in my blog as of who holds the 1st 2nd and 3rd places at the moment. . . 1st place female at the moment is Mrs. Babycakes who has 2142 comments 1st place male at the moment is Unloved Dark Moon with 4030 comments 2nd place is Roughneck MP with 2309 comments and 3rd place is The Juggalo Thrill Hammer with 78 comments I will update it daily now to let everyone know how it's doing. Hugs DJ Bad Ass Cowgirl

A Few More Poems These Are Short And Sweet.
Things sure have changed. I remember a time when things were so simple and real; That seems like for ever ago now, just a memory I feel. People are filled with hate, greed and evil rage; Seeds of hate grow strong as life turns another page. A decietfully beautiful flower grows by the the way; Hate's seed full grown, awaiting Death's atonement day. Things sure have changed. Joey L Bellmore Copyright ©2007 Joey L Bellmore Eat Me Yes, I know it, you say I shouldn't say the words. I say Eat Me because all these rules are for the birds! It's part of a literary masterpiece so, It can't be bad. "Eat Me" was on the cake in Wonderland that Alice had! If you dont like it, dont listen while I say it loud. Eat me, Eat me, Eat me and make your momma proud! Joey L Bellmore Copyright ©2007 Joey L Bellmore

It's Not Real
I heard stories from some friends about you and I want to know now are they true. Rumors are spreading fast as I take a glance of the past. What I saw seemed so real. Then saw you come down from the hill. I follow the road in which you took then I stood there as you looked. Upon my face which was crying you saw then that I was lying. About the way I truely feel but I just said it wasn't real. I have searched and searched for a man. Hoping he would understand. I'm wierd and a twig that much is true. I prayed and prayed I'd find you. Look into the stars above If you are my true love.

Tear Jerker Poem
The weeper (A re-write) He sits alone in an alley, he can't be more than eight. Just a boy all alone, he is a victim of life and fate. No mother, no father and no one else to love. This child would be all alone if not for GOD's Love. He is "The Weeper" sad and alone. I watch him for a while and I shed more than one tear. I look at this child and I'm taken with doubt and fear. I have to do something I have to help him out. Why, must he suffer so, What is his pain all about? He is "The Weeper" so sad and alone. I prayed that night and ask GOD "Why", I ask all night. I ask "Why does he suffer when You could let him die"? GOd finally answered when the night was almost through. God said,"He suffers for you to see,It's all for you". He is "The weeper" so sad and alone. I cried myself to sleep not knowing what it all meant. When I woke the next day the alley is where I went. The boy was gone and a note was left where he had sat. The note said, "I'm with God MR. Tha

Questions???
What happens when you don't try anymore??? What happens all the things you had are not there??? What happens when you realize life isn't a score??? What happens all you know is fear??? What happens when you see there is nothing more??? What happens when you have left is that one tear??? When does this life start to make a little sense??? When does start to get that much easier??? When does it feel like you are put up against the fence??? When does it seem like all the people are getting cheesier??? When does it seem like you lose all your confidence??? When does it make right just to be a people pleaser??? Where did all of your hope seem to go??? Where did your life really begin??? Where did the river of life start to flow??? Where did you learn to live in that skin??? Where did you decide to be the average joe??? Where did you decide that you should fit in??? Why is it right for you to think your weak??? Why is it the last thing you get is not what you want??

Sandpaper People - Know Any???
(emailed to me by a friend of mine, Danny...) â€œBeloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.â€ 1John 4:11 (NKJ) Devotion: Have you ever encountered a â€œsandpaper person?â€ You know, someone that rubs you the wrong way. Most of us want to run and hide from sandpaper people. Sometimes we escape them, but not for long. Eventually, we will run head-on into another one. Why? Because God is doing some of His best work in us when He places sandpaper people in our lives. Have you ever noticed how hard it is to love a sandpaper person? Theyâ€™re usually arrogant, mean, rude and selfish. They like to demand their own way and boast in their accomplishments. Yet, God has called us to love all peopleâ€”not just the lovable, but the unlovable as well. The Bible says, â€œBeloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one anotherâ€ (1 John 4:11). You may be thinking thatâ€™s impossible. Youâ€™re right; in our own strength we canâ€™t love the unlovely. Yet,

It's Real
YES IT'S NOT JUST A MYTH THAT SOME PARENTS BEAT THEIR KIDS UNTIL THEY ARE DEAD IT IS REAL. JUST TAKE FOR EXAMPLE THE GIRL IN THE SONG "ALYSSA LIES". SHE WAS FRIGHTENED TO TELL THE TRUTH, GROWN UPS THAT SAW THE ABUSIVE BRUISES WERE AFRAID TO GET HIT THEMSELVES. IT NEVER ENDED AND NOBODY DID ANYTHING UNTIL THAT LITTLE GIRL WAS MURDERED BY HER DAD. IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME THAT'S OK, BUT THIS ISN'T ABOUT ME NOR IS IT ABOUT ME GETTING GLORY FOR HELPING THE KIDS. THIS IS ALL ABOUT THE CHILDREN AND YOU SHOULD PASS ON MY RIBBON IN MY PHOTOS TO HELP THEM SPREAD THE WORD THAT SOME CANNOT DUE TO THE FACT THAT THEY GET THREATENED OR BEAT WHEN THEY TELL ON THE PARENTS THAT HAD ENOUGH SENSE TO REPRODUCE, BUT NOT ENOUGH SENSE TO TAKE PROTECTION IN THEIR FAVOR TO NOT HAVE THE KIDS THEY BEAT UNTIL DEATH. SO I WILL LOOK FORWARD TO OTHERS JOINING THIS FIGHT AGAINST ALL FORMS OF CHILD ABUSE AND PLEASE DON'T BE AFRAID TO TALK TO ME ABOUT DOING SOMETHING ELSE TO HELP THE KIDS!

This Wasn't Meant To Be!
I recognize these feelings It was when I was with him How could you make me feel this way? How did you take my breath away? How did you make me skip a beat? How could you make me lose my heart? I thought nobody else could make me feel this way. Nobody but him then you came along and I felt this everyday! I repeatedly told myself.. no it cannot be. But when I stopped ..... yes, I can finally see. You stole my heart just like that. How is it that you did this? I see him when I see you It's how I know this can't be true.

So I'm New Here
New to the site (if you hadn't gathered that yet), and I'm not really sure how this all works. I try to rate back, but sometimes i miss a person, or forget, or get distracted, so my bad, lol. This site seems pretty cool... kinda ddicting like crack :-p Holla!

The Courage You Gave
I fought a dreadful path hoping I won't go back. But then you came along Something inside made me strong. The things I told to you hardly any of it were true. But then we spoke again My mind got rid of him. When you took me by the hand. I felt things I couldn't understand. I thought for sure I locked my heart But you came in right from the start. But I thought I had the key And now it seems you'r the one for me. If I hadn't lied from the start. Maybe saying goodbye wouldn't break my heart!

Yet Another Heartbreak....
my husband called tonight...and i missed his call. ive been crying since midnight and the tears just wont stop. the last time he was allowed a call was for christmas...and i miss his voice terribly. right now id give anything to be able to talk to him. to tell him how much i love him..how much i miss him...but i cant. im heartbroken...and the hole left in my heart when he left just got a little bigger. i feel empty...i know some of you dont understand how missing one phone call can send me into a spiral of pain and tears but put yourselves in my position. imagine your significant other gone for months. they're only allowed one call every so many months and you miss it. now you have to wait months before you can talk to them again...before you can hear their voice again. i really needed to hear his voice...it isnt a want..its a need.

Snow
I love snow! But one of my jobs really sucks when it snows. I work at a roadside assistance business and when it snows I am super busy. Granted I only dispatch the runs (I love telling people where to go) but it keeps me busy. Every one else in Indiana seems to complain about the snow. I love to drive, walk and play in the snow. I guess that is one of the reasons my friends call me a polar bear. Such is life! Let it snow, let it snow, let is snow!!!!!!

Nice...
I actually liked LOST this time. It's so nice to like an episode again! It's funny: there is a picture in one of my folders in which you can see my entire breast, and it isn't marked NSFW because my boobs are so small that you can't really tell...

Everything I Needed To Know I Learned From D&d
Playing D&D will really teach you the basics of life. The Party When playing D&D a single player without a party to back him up is quickly eaten alive by the Goblins, Dragons, and Tax Collectors of the world. Only a full adventuring party is equipped to take on any foe. In the real world a person without any friends or support. Someone who is truly alone in the world, is quickly eaten alive by depression, girls, and tax collectors. (Tax collectors are dangerous in every world). The importance of NPCs In D&D NPCs are the people who do all the mundane things of the world. From washing your horse, to planting corn, to being your lover. Most people in the D&D world are NPCs and will never go on a great adventure. If you treat an NPC badly they may steal your horse, poison your mead, or even GASP, stop being your lover. No one can get far without the support of the NPCs Most people in the real world are NPCs also. Mundane people who lead mundane lives. But if you treat t

To My Master
To my Master... As i sit here and think of You, You are ever on my mind. Pictures from the past float through my mind For me to remember: Your touch, Your feel, Your strength, Your power; That i crave so when You are here My strength through Your power, My calmness through Your control, My peace through Your strength, My passion through Your direction, My direction through Your command. I am Your slave, in all the ways that You request, In submission, pleasure, pain, mind, body, and soul I am Yours as you wish, Your every whim or command. You chose me; my only wish is to please You As you may require of Your slave. With all my love to You, stormdreamer (aka slavegirl4mymaster) *big hugs and kisses*

Nails In A Fence
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just li

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Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night
DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT by Dylan Thomas Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Though wise men at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night. Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, Do not go gentle into that good night. Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. And you, my father, there on the sad height, Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray. Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

If I Tried 2
I can't change how the feelings will be shown Don't blame you, you're nervous on your own propose the worst and i'm the first in line despite the rest, It's not a bad sign that you mean the world to me... and the city and my soul disagree last time round fast, I'll see you on the way down life's a funny thing when you can't bring yourself to face it if you want to now i'll shake here, for your sake dear I was raised and I was born here I couldn't leave California if I tried to Can't say now where I'm gonna go When I figure it out, you'll be the first to know. Do you understand that it's out of these hands of mine Despite our plans I've got to draw the line And you still mean the world to me... the city and my soul disagree last time round fast, I'll see you on the way down life's a funny thing when you can't bring yourself to face it if you want to now i'll shake here, for your sake dear I was raised and I was born here I couldn't leave California if I tr

Garden
When I was a boy, I thought as a boy. Educated by film, theatre, and novel on the concept of love. It was an undiluted concept. Pure as the northern snow. Love and sex were two synonymous ideals. One could not exist without the other. After engaging in sex for the first time, I learned something important: while the two could exist separately, that did not mean that they should. Fooling around is fooling around, but it only fills the void temporarily. For within each of us exists a void that we so desperately want to fill. We are not born with this void, but rather we grow into it. Sex is like filling an earthen pit with water; it will fill the hole, but over time, the water evaporates leaving the hole still there. Whereas love is akin to planting a garden in the hole. Now not all gardens take to growing in the same kinds of earth, but the hole is no longer empty. A void has been filled. Allowing us to enjoy our ga

Weight
Sleep weighs heavily upon my eyes. No real reason for it that I can ascertain. I'm tired, and not from deprivation. It has been an emotional roller-coaster of a week. Full of ups and downs from the peaks and valleys. I could sleep for a week, but everything would be much the same. I just don't know if I have the strength to carry on. This battle that we call like. I know that tomorrow is a new day, but it seems so far away. From work to women, life and loss, it all weighs heavily on my soul.

Enamory
When success comes. Everyone should love me. With exception of fools and the envious. Respect. Adoration. Hubris. What I've got I've earned. With blood, sweat, and tears. Remain the fools: they shall love me in time; and the envious: who shall ever hate me because of who I am. Emotions shallow, like the deepest edge of the kiddie pool. Why base one's worth on others? When it is our own self-worth that makes each so valuable? Bleeding from hard-fought battles, Sweat trickling down our brow with the work put in, Tears from all the battles lost, or casualties gone. In the end, we are who we are. Not the destination, but, the journeys that brought us there.

Dream A Little Dream
So tired. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Spiritually. Is there anything, Anyone, That can wake me from this stupor? Caught between a consciousness, And the dream; Lying somewhere betwixt. My muse has left me For children and animals. Other muses dance just outside The edge of my vision. A myriad of angels, And enchantresses. Though still my muse lays within gaze, Leading the chorus of my dirge. When wake the dreamer, Has the dream ground in reality, or the reality in the dream?

Because You
I wake up early so that I may see you, taking the chance I will be late for work, but you are worth it. Because you make me smile and laugh. Because you give me strength. You help me be the man I want to be. Awakening, both hopes and dreams I thought long lost in the sea of reality. Time spent with you is like a dream; where the time, though real, is both long and short in duration. We've had now three periods of encounter.. After the second, I knew I wanted to see you again and again. I would not go gently into the night. Though the odds are stacked against, I would not give up on you without the fight. Because I fight for the things, or the people, like you, worth fighting for.

Sex Quiz
1.Name? 2.Age? 3.Location? 4.Height and weight? 5.Single or Married? 6.Think I'm Hot? 7.Kids? If so, how many? 8. Would u have sex with me? 9.No strings attached or relationship? 10.Favorite Positions? 11.Like to give oral? recieve? 12.How long can u last? 13.Have sex outdoors? 14.one orgasm or multiples? 15.Loud moaner or quiet? 16.Like to use handcuffs? chains? 17.In control or be dominated? 18.3somes? group sex? on camera? 19.straight or bi? 20.Horny all the time? 21.will u repost and send filled questionaire back to me so I can reply to u?

Elemental
Branching infatuation upon the leaves of life twist with the fickle winds of fate. Without the wind, the leaf stays as grounded as the mountain's of terra. But come the elemental air, some things stir against it. Twixt gentle and violent, things rarely remain the same. Forgotten by the wind is infatuation's leaf. Lost in the air. Left twisting. But infrequently are circumstances the same. Whether left alone, torn asunder, or carried off on zephyr's sweet kiss, that leaf remains forever changed with each breeze that it finds. For good or ill.

I Am A Gamer
I am a gamer. I am known to spend the weekends tucked safely away in a friend's home. From here I sling a variety of dice from my right hand. I consult charts, rules, errata, and various sourcebooks. I have blown entire yearly budgets of third world countries to take me to another place. A place of the mind. Translocation by creativity, if you will. I am a gamer, and this is my preferred mode of transportation. Though my ass remains firmly located in the chair, I go somewhere that most people will not dare ever venture. I enter the world of possibility. Where good and evil fight eternal wars against each other. Sometimes the cast is familiar, sometimes the pawns of the divine change, sometimes good wins, sometimes it loses, but it never stops until all wars are won. I am a gamer, and for once I can be the hero. Some might express pity towards me and mine. Calling us geeks. I embraced this long ago. For within each of us is a geek. You remember that part of yourself from elementar

More Poetry
Through Your Eyes Through your eyes I see the path I take Through your eyes I see the choices I make Through your eyes I see how the world should be Through your eyes Is how I can see Through your eyes Life is so clear Through your eyes I can see what I fear Through your eyes You see into my soul Through your eyes I became your goal Through your eyes You see into my heart You see me through your eyes While were apart

Hating It Right Now
so i'm in germany. now i know i should be taking advantage that i'm in europe for the next three years. but i miss home so much. maybe it would be different if ppl were somewhat nice. maybe i need to go back to the states. it's cold, and it's either rained or snow since i've been here. i have forgotten what the sun looks like. i know that sounds crazy but i've been here a month and it has yet to shine. maybe i'm just not cut out for this kinda life. someone help please?!?!?

Jus Some Poetry
A Dream After all the years ive known you i still feel the same... I melt when i see your face and even hear your name... I wish i was your's for now and forever... I wish there was an "us" a you and I together I love you and someday you will see... And just then it will be you and me... If time was money id spend it all on you... If i said i loved you, i culd say it an it be true... If a dream could last forever, id dream of you and me... If i could spend time with u id ask for eternity... You mean more to me than you will ever know My love for you wont fade, it can only grow

Charlains Poem To Me
The days have gone the years have past but our love is one will last many have tried to tear us asunder but niether heart fell to the plunder it is so true we are as one you are the moon I am the sun Happy valentines day babygirl Charlain

Glug - For The Norse Folk ( And Any Body Else)
Glug 8 ounces water 1 cup raisins 3 cinnamon sticks 5 whole cloves 12 cardamom seeds 2 dry orange peels Boil ingredients for 10 minutes in saucepan, and then add: 1 gallon port wine one 750-ml. bottle brandy 16 ounces rum 1/2 cup sugar Bring to boil and let simmer 1 minute, then turn off burner and ignite. Allow the mix to burn for about 15 seconds. Serve hot. ________________________________________ Copyright © 1997 - electronic Gourmet Guide, Inc. All rights reserved. Glug Place in cloth bag • 6 cardamom seeds - whole • 7 cloves - peppers removed • 4-5 cinnamon sticks • 1 ginger root • Pinch grated nutmeg Cook slowly for 1 hour in 1 1/2 quarts water. Cook slowly in pot: a. 1 gallon port or b. 1 gallon burgundy • 1 lb. granulated (or brown) sugar. Less with a. more with b. • peels from 2 oranges • 1 lb. raisins • 1 pkg. blanched almonds DO NOT boil the wine! Heat slowly for the hour the spices are cooking. Remove the spice ba

Help Single Barrel
IF YOU WOULD DO ME A FAVOR... GO TO SINGLE BARREL'S SITE AND RATE THEM FAN THEM COMMENT THEM GENERALLY JUST HELP THEM GET THEIR STATS UP THEY ARE ONE OF THE BEST BANDS EVER...IF YOU'RE EVER IN VIRGINIA THEY ARE A MUST SEE THANKS SO MUCH!!! PS IF YOU HAVE TROUBLE FINDING THEM YOU CAN LINK THROUGH MY SITE.

Just Can't Wait
Another summer coming with the feeling it brings Another reason to avoid all the permanent things Before you know what time it is it's time to go And reattach all the strings But you got me going So many places You got to be knowing What that look on my face is I just can't wait I just can't wait I just can't wait for you to say That you want me That you want me I just can't wait for you to say that you want me Well you need sunlight for things to go right It just takes a taste you know And every single little bit of love that I spread is coming straight for you Would it be all right to go out tonight? It doesn't matter where we go You're the only one that I want to be near And try to get to know Cause you got eyes that I would love to look through A life that I can't wait to get in to As long as I can see what you see As long as it's what you believe As long as I can see what you see As long as it's what you believe

So Glad It's Over.
Valentine's Day is an obligatory holiday designed to make people spend their hard earned money on silly things like flowers that'll just die anyway and candy that'll just get eaten. Yeah, I said it. Someone had to. Can you tell that I spent my day NOT celebrating love? No flowers and candy. No cards and kisses. No moonlit walks and stolen embraces. But it was by choice. The person I would have wanted to share this day with is separated from me by a great distance and that whole "if you can't be with the one you love then love the one you're with" thing just never did work for me. Besides the entire concept of setting aside one day in a year to celebrate love is ludicrous to me. Think about it...trying to cram everything that love is into one 24 hour period...it's impossible. Besides, if you're not celebrating love every day of the year then you don't have real love to begin with. Love encompasses so many things. It is a bond...a complex emotion...a connection... Connection. Life is

Wassail - Take Your Pick
English Wassail Ingredients: 1 pint water 1 cup of honey 4 cloves 3 sticks of cinnamon 2 lemons thinly sliced 1 bottle medium dry red wine Directions: Boil together water, honey, cloves and cinnamon for five minutes. Add two lemons thinly sliced and allow the mixture to stand for 7 or 8 minutes. Add a bottle of medium dry red wine and heat slowly until just below boiling point. Then pour into a jug and serve hot. This recipe for English Wassail serves/makes 6 Light Wassail Yield: Makes 10 to 12 servings. • 1 gallon apple cider • 2 cups cranberry juice • 1/2 to 1 cup brown sugar, to taste • 2 teaspoons cinnamon • 1/2 teaspoon ground cloves • 1 orange, thinly sliced Combine all ingredients in a large saucepan or pot, adjusting sugar to taste, and simmer for 30 minutes. Serve in mugs, or pour into a punch bowl and serve warm in cups. Holiday Wassail II Ingredients: 6 cups apple cider 2 1/2 cups apricot nectar 2 cups unsweetened pineapple juice

Do It Again
Instantly awakened by my imagination old fashioned infatuation, i can be anything that you want me to be, and you can have me in every position that you dreamed, i know you've got a wild streak, you're a freak, you're alone in your bed with graphic images in your head, Let me do what i want to do with you let me tie you down lick you up and flip you all around let me tell you how sexy you are, as i'm goin' down on you in the car, feeling this good is a sin, uh uh uh um um lets do it all over again, do it all over again, do it Just one thought this might get boring wake me up in the morning by pouring honey on my body and lickin it off and taking me to concerts and then you're takin off your top i know you've got a wild streak, you're a freak then your back in our room with a bride and a groom, Let me do what i want to do with you, let me tie you down, lick you up and flip you all around let me tell you how sexy you are as i

Dead Donkey Raffle! :0
Donkey Raffle A Cajun named Jean Paul moved to Texas and bought a donkey from an old farmer for $100.00. The farmer agreed to deliver the donkey the next day. The next day the farmer rove up and said, "Sorry, but I got some bad news. The donkey died." "Well then, just give me my money back." "Cain't do that. I went and spent it already." "OK then, just unload the donkey." "What ya gonna do with em." "I'm gonna raffle him off." "Ya cain't raffle off a dead donkey!" "Sure I can. Watch me. I just won't tell anyone he's dead." A month later the farmer met up with the Cajun and asked, "What happened with the dead donkey?" "I raffled him off. I sold 500 tickets at $2.00 apiece and made a profit of $898.00." "Didn't no one complain?" "Just the guy who won. So I gave him his $2.00 back."

Hmm
It has accured to me I have a blog everywhere. Except here. LiveJournal and MySpace, but not CherryTap. Probably because I don't visit here often. ANYWHO! I'd like to take this time to advertise my artwork! http://cin3ris.deviantart.com Please visit and leave me some feedback here or where ever! Thanks! Take care everyone!

Me
Hello all, My name is Nick, I was just writing this blog to introduce myself... I will post my views of the world in here.. not that anyone really cares what i think, i just feel as though i can write a blog of how i feel... Ever make a mistake you wish you could take back? Everyone had, if not that makes you perfect. I made the mistake of getting married too young to the wrong woman...she wasn't very pretty, she has the personality of a six year old, she acts more like a man than a woman(scary a woman who acts like a man and is not lesbian, i dunno how that worked...) seven years later we are going through a very nasty divorce, she's taken most of my money, so much so that i can't move out of this god forsaken town. She actually thinks she can cheat on me and i'd be ok with that. It drove me nuts for five of those years... Now i found someone else (at least i'm talking to someone else, i hope it's more than talking though she's so much better than my ex-wife it ma

A Valentines Day Survey
ok, heres the deal--on valentines day would you(ladies) rather get... #1. roses(flowers) #2. candy #3. nighties & pj's #4. a stuffed animal #5. sex #6. all the above(or atleast 3 of these) and how do you say "thank you" to your man? just a survey please ladies, answer for me--and honestly dont be scared or shy!!!!!!!!!! have fun with it and HAPPY VALENITNES DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Won Second Place
i just wanted to say thank u to all the people that voted for me thank u very much i didnt get much but i did get second place i got a platinum cherry so yeah thats cool but thanks for being so cool and now i know who to count on when im in a contest and i know who to help when they are in contest but think u anyways

Sex
You prefer Rough sex! You like it ROUGH. Hard, great, wonderful slamming sex is your type of sex. More the product of lust than love - and utterly horny - rough sex is what satisfies you. 'What is the best type of sex for you?' at QuizUniverse.com

The Doword Spiral
THE DOWNWORD SPIRAL You showed me happiness You showed me love I was finally at peace then you took it all away You took my heart and thru it away You left me with nothing Even less then what I had before I proved time and time again I would be there to save you Now your gone Who saves me

Time For Zoey To Arrive!
Tomorrow morning at 11am, our little daughter, Zoey Rayne will be born via C-section!! It has been a long 9 months and we are so anxious to meet her. I am nervous about the surgery, but excited to finally meet her! I will post pics as soon as I can. Keep us in your thoughts :) Mely and Bad VooDoo

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Always defending the good, Protecting the ones he loves, Shining in the light, a perfect soul, Searching for the one that will steal his heart, Not knowing that person is dark and fairly evil, Yet looking in her eyes, he cares not for what she is, Only for who she is, his woman, Now this knight vows to stay true to this woman, You never see good and evil joining forces, But here you see just that, Good and evil coming together under one cause, Love, stronger than any army or armor, Here you have a Loyal Knight and his Vampiress.

Sexy Southerners
Southerners Only a Southerner knows the difference between a hissy fit and a conniption fit, and that you don't "HAVE" them, you "PITCH" them. Only a Southerner knows how many fish, collard greens, turnip greens, peas, beans, etc., make up "a mess." Only a Southerner can show or point out to you the general direction of "yonder." Only a Southerner knows exactly how long "directly" is, .... As in: "Going to town, be back directly." Even Southern babies know that "Gimme some sugar" is not a request for the white, granular sweet substance that sits in a pretty little bowl in the middle of the table. All Southerners know exactly when "by and by" is. They might not use the term, but they know the concept well. Only a Southerner knows instinctively that the best gesture of solace for a neighbor who's got trouble is a plate of hot fried chicken and a big bowl of cold potato salad. If the neighbor's trouble is a real crisis, they also know to add a large banana puddin!

Friends
I AM SO VERY DISTURBED TO SEE I HAD ALMOST 400 FRIENDS AND YET THERE IS ABOUT 20 WHO FAITHFULLY KEEP IN TOUCH. SO....I AM DELETING PEOPLE I NEVER HEAR FROM BECAUSE OBVIOSLY YOU HAVE NO NEED TO BE ON MY FRIENDS LIST! NEVER A HELLO, A GOODBYE, HAVE A NICE DAY, OR A RATING, SO SORRY BUT THE NEWSFLASH IS....YOU ARE NO FRIEND OF MINE. IN RETROSPECT....TO MY FRIENDS....YOU ARE THE BEST AND I LOVE YOU ALL!

Causing A Rucous With [rob] Rotten
so i just got off the phone with rotten tonight as we're going over a bit on his new project(s) that I'm going to be heading up on the web...he's amazed at the amount of work I'm doing on the road in traveling to shoot wherever... so he brought up the idea (obviously around his shooting schedule and my touring schedule for ozzfest) that we should team up and go on a rampage shooting for whatever projects we have lined up in the assorted cities I already shoot in or the ones I need to go shoot in...which is a totally killer idea as we'll both get a ton of work for our sites... and get all the models 2x the work as well... but I think one of us will end up dead in a hotel along the way due to too much *insert poison of the weekend here* hahahaha... however if that happens, my blogs will be 12x as entertaining and the book idea will be filled by that point im sure hahaahha... also I heard from the main contact for us with ozzfest... seems that vendors this year are out of the ozzfest fie

Whats Your Sex Style?
Whats your sex style? Erotic Sex StyleKissing, touching...pulling hair...handcuffs...whatever goes in your bedroom or backyard...truck...neighbors bedroom even! Its lights, camera ...ACTION BABY! Take this test

Valentine
its a beautiful day in cherry tap a beautiful day in the cherry tap would you be mine would you be mine would ya be my valentine i have always wanted to have a valentine just like you i have always wanted to live in the cherry tap with you so would ya be mine would ya be mine would ya please oh please be my valnetine HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ALL MY FRIENDS LOVE TAY

What Do Your Eyes Say About You?
What do your eyes say about you? ShyYou have a certain shyness about you. Not saying that there are times when you\'re outgoing, but for the most part you like to lay low and keep unnoticed. You don\'t always have to be the center of attention, but try to make some witty banter now and again. Take this test

Love
love is a word people use to freely to get what they want out of another person.many people think they found love and then its gone..the word is so meaningless to people nowadays.you can never tell if someone really means what they say.my idea of love is when your in a crowded room and all you see is each other.your heart racing everytime you hear their voice or feel their touch.you want them to be the first thing you see in the morning and the last thing you see at night.love is blind to faults.being in love to me does not mean you lose yourself just gain another half.you should except the individuality of each other.never try to change one another.always be open and honest about everything even if it hurts.communication is important to make any relationship good.try new things to keep the passion alive.always remember you have to love yourself before anyone can trully love you.

"dog" The Bounty Hunter
Duane The Dog Chapman Most Recent Role: Himself on Dog the Bounty Hunter Alias Name(s): Duane Chapman, Dog Gender: Male Birthplace: Denver, Colorado Birthday: 2-1-1953 Birth Name: Duane Lee Chapman Raised in Denver, Colorado Dog is the oldest of four children born to Wesley and Barbara Chapman. His father was a welder with the Navy. His mother was a minister with the First Assembly of God. Duane grew up tough and poor and dropped out of school in the ninth grade. Chapman subsequently joined a motorcycle gang. Dog was arrested 18 times for armed robbery. In 1977, Chapman was sentenced to five years of hard labor and served two of those years before being paroled in 1979. Before his sentencing, Chapman had married and fathered at least one child. His wife, at the time, had filed for divorce while Chapman was in prison. Because of this fact, Chapman owed money for child support. The judge in charge of handling the child support case asked Chapman to catch a fugitive for

Can't Stop The Writing......fingers..cramping
I do have quite a bit on my mind tonight. I must be going for the record for blog posts. I think its that I have questions to which there are no answers and this is a way of closure for me.....maybe not...think I just like to talk. LOL. Let me tell you a little about tonight. Myself and a co-worker were on our way back to our place of business from the local court house when we notice a man walking up to our work. In one hand he was carrying something in the other he was holding up his pants. He slipped a little bit and his hand shot out to balance himself and his pants went straight to the ground. I just laughed and laughed. Why....Why in the hell would you wear pants that you had to physicaly hold up with one of your hands? What benefit does extremely overly large pants give you? Does it make you run faster? Are you able to jump higher? Are you waiting for someone to crawl in them with you? What? What is it? I dont understand. I had pants that didnt fit me once, and you know wha

Sad News
Please join me in remembering a great icon of the entertainment community. The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He was 71. Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of celebrities turned out to pay their respects including Mrs. Butterworth, Hungry Jack, Aunt jemima, Hostess Twinkies, and Captain Crunch. The grave site was piled high with flours. Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded. Doughboy rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times he still was a crusty old man and was considered a positive roll model for millions Doughboy is survived by his wife Play Dough, two children, John Dough and Jane Dough, plus they had one in the oven. He is also survived by his

Poetry
"Trapped" Trapped in my world of confusion, my head spinning and spinning, vision blurred, confusion is what I deserve. Trapped in my world of pain, keeping it all inside, hurt is all I feel, pain is what I deserve. Trapped in my world of anger, vessels ready to explode, blood boiling, anger is what I deserve. Trapped in my world of sadness, crying, weeping, not knowing what to do, sadness is what I deserve. Trapped in my own reality, scared, helpless and empty, not knowing what to do. Nobody will save me, death is all I deserve. alo

Saint Valentines Day Verbal Massacre
Store bought affections with confections, sugary sweet treats that seek adoration. Card creations in mass production equate to consumer seduction. Procreation from the adoration is the goal, a soul for solace, the fallacy in sincerity, a rarity is a true heart felt. My eyes welt with tears held back, when the romance is real. But still the rose in mass production is corruption in all that's true about a hallmark holiday that will never go away. As women want the attention, men want to consummate the true intention. Candle light dinner is the spinner in direction. Wonder not on romance, but the stupid courtship dance. We do things just because, not just with hearts filled with love. A day of romance should be random, not tandem to a calendar date, but my spate is on forced displays of affection that seem to pass by without correction. Happy Valentines Day. -ed (Love is as true as we make it)

Sorry Guys
THOSE GUYS THAT HAD PICS MARKED NSFW WERE UNABLE TO VIEW THE PICS SO I HAVE UNMARKED THOSE PIC AND SINCE THEY WERE NOT ABLE TO LET THERE FRIENDS AND OTHER RATE AND COMMENT THERE PICS THE CONTEST WILL BE EXTENDED TO AT LEAST THURSDAY OF NEXT WEEK TO GIVE THEM A FAIR CHANCE... SORRY THIS IS MY FIRST CONTEST TO HOST.SO I DIDNT KNOW THIS WOULD HAPPEN!! HOPE YOU ALL HAD A GREAT V'DAY ... I KNOW I DID ;-0 I GOT TO GET TO SLEEP NOW OR I WILL NOT WANT TO GET UP IN THE MORNING MUAHHHHHHH!!!

I'm Outta Here, Going On Tour.
Its just been confirmed. I am leaving Orange County, CA this Monday at noon to go on tour as a tech for The Fenians. We'll be out on the road until March 17th. For more information/tour dates, please check out www.thefenians.com

Valentines Day- Will This Day Ever End?
I swear it's the loneliest day of my life. I wonder how many poor souls commit suicide on valentines day? Is there a Study somewhere that I can research that?? Of course we all know there are TONS of VOWS being exchanged on this very day!!! Yippie. Good for them. I think Valentaines day should have an alternate holiday...kind of like Chritmas!! if you are Jewish, you celebrate hannakah...so no one if LEFT OUT!!! SO we need an alternate to Valentines Day!! Valentines day just reminds the MILLIONS of Single people in the world......THAT they ARE SINGLE!!!! HELLOOOOOO!! Right now....there are thousands of women Crying over Ice cream and chocolates they bought for themselves this very moment!!!!! ANd Guys...sitting in a strip club, getting wasted with friends...buying lap dances or just in a bar getting Drunk!! Maybe at Hooters!! Either way...a large percentage of american citizens are NOT celebratting this LOVELY HOLIDAY...GIVE US A BREAK!!! GIVE US A HOLIDAY!!!! GI

I Wish For Deaths Kiss
I WISH FOR DEATHS KISS, FORE IF THIS IS LIVING, WITHOUT YOUR TOUCH, YOUR HEART, YOUR LOVE FOR ME. THIS IS NOT LIFE, THIS IS BUT MERE EXESTENCE, I SHALL WAIT, FOR YOU, MY LOVE, MY ONE, MY ONLY. DON'T FEAR, EVEN IF SHOULD PASS ONE DAY BEFORE YOUR RETURN, MY HEART AND SOUL BELONG TO YOU FOR ALL TIME ETERNAL. MY HEART IS HEAVY, WITH YOUR ABSENCE, NO SWEET WORDS, NO POEMS, NO LOVE NOTES,NO KISS, I FEAR I MAY GROW COLD. WITHOUT YOUR TOUCH, THE FIRE FROM WITHIN YOUR SOUL. I AM SO TIRED OF TEARS AND SORROW, I PRAY TO GOD, FOR A BRIGHTER TOMORROW FOR YOU AND I. I ACHE AND LONG FOR THEE, I VOWED TO YOU AND YOU ALONE, NO OTHER, BUT THEE. I SHALL WISH FOR STRENGTH,PEACE AND LOVE FOR US BOTH, AND TOGETHER. I FEAR NOT DEATH, BUT FEAR LIFE WITHOUT YOU. TEARS I SHED, FALL UPON THE BLACK GROUND UPON WHICH I STAND, I SHALL STAND TRUE ALWAYS UNTO YOU. FOREVER I SHALL LOVE YOU AND SHALL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU. AS I WALK ALONE IN THE DARKNESS, MY PATH IS LIGHTED BY YOUR HEART A

Pissed
Ok I don't understand what the deal is with people on here I didn't do a damn thing wrong and yet they think they gotta block my ass.. Hello I am a nice person and don't usually step on toes... My friend Jow un-blocks me then turns around and re-blocks me the next day for no apparent reason.. Ya know if your gonna block me have a reason why... I didn't do nothing to you and if I did then I would understand but whatever obviously your not someone I need to be friend's with if you do that kind of shit to a so-called friend Peace out peeps Always and Forever Heather

Legend Of The Coconut Tree From Guam
Long ago there was a Chamorro family belonging to the Achote tribe. The family had a beautiful young daughter who was admired by everyone in the tribe. One day the girl became very thirsty. She wanted to drink the juice from a special fruit. Everyone tried to find the fruit she described but to no avail. Soon the girl became very ill and died. The father buried the girl on a hill over looking the village. He placed a beautiful headstone on her grave and the people covered it with many beautiful flowers. One day the villagers noticed a strange plant growing on the girl's grave. They thought it was magic and built a shelter to protect it. Five years after the plant appeared, it had grown 20 feet tall, strange looking fruits appeared. One of the fruits dropped to the ground and cracked open. The chief called on the father of the dead girl to eat the strange fruit but he refused. He called his wife to eat the fruit. She said it was sweet and chewy and called it coconut.

Happy Valentines Day,- Read The Bottom, It's Not Just The Same Old Blog.
Happy valentines day. Another response to a bullitine sort of thing. — Wednesday, February 14, 2007 It's long, but it's worth reading. -To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart out there again, because she has been HURT too many times or so badly. -To every girl that has been cheated on, because she's not a slut who gives it up to any guy. -To every girl that dresses cute, not skanky. -To every girl who wants to be called beautiful, not hot. -To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present for you. -To every girl who gets her heart broken, because he chose that bitch instead. -To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend. -To every girl who would just once like to be treated like a princess. -To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak. -To every girl that won't get

Southerners
Only a Southerner knows the difference between a hisse fit and a conniption fit, and that you don't "HAVE" them, you "PITCH" them. Only a Southerner knows how many fish, collard greens, turnip greens, peas, beans, etc., make up "a mess." Only a Southerner can show or point out to you the general direction of "yonder." Only a Southerner knows exactly how long "directly" is, .... As in: "Going to town, be back directly." Even Southern babies know that "Gimme some sugar" is not a request for the white, granular sweet substance that sits in a pretty little bowl in the middle of the table. All Southerners know exactly when "by and by" is. They might not use the term, but they know the concept well. Only a Southerner knows instinctively that the best gesture of solace for a neighbor who's got trouble is a plate of hot fried chicken and a big bowl of cold potato salad. If the neighbor's trouble is a real crisis, they also know to add a large banana puddin! Only Southerne

What I Am, What Am I
What i once was is no longer now. I am nothing, with nothing to gain and nothing to loose. My fear and pain is numbed by nothingness. I have no hope, no joy, no future. I was once strong, I was once smart, but now I care for nothing. I was once irrogant, I was once angered, but now not even anger will accompany me. Without you I am nothing. You were my drug and now I suffer from the addiction. For you I changed to better myself and fear slowly creeped into my heart and turned me back. Day by day I began to relapse into what I once was. Always angry, full of hate, and never happy. I swore to never again become what I most feared and hated, but now I have nothing. Now I sometimes ask for the anger, at least this way I can still feel, something,anything. But it always aludes me. Fear has even become a friend to me, but fear always leaves me. And I am left with nothing. What I used to be was hated by all, by me. I changed and I was no longer hated by all but still hated by me. I changed mo

Legend Of The White Lady From Guam
During the early Spanish colonial rule in the late 1600's on the island of Guam, there lived two newlyweds in the quiet hillside village of Maina. The couple, a Spanish officer and his Chamorro bride. Before marrying, the bride's husband was romantic, dashing and polite. But soon after their honeymoon, he became cruel and abusive. Every night the husband demanded fresh mountain stream water with his food and sent his wife to the small creek in the valley below to fetch his water. After a while, the woman actually began to enjoy her lonely walks and eventually it became a ritual that she looked forward to. Her favorite time was during the full moon when the moon's reflection shimmered across the surface of the moving creek like dancing stars, with the gentle wind whistling through the jungle foliage. Her husband soon began to notice that it took longer and longer for her return and became enraged. Then one stormy and rainy night on their first wedding anniversary and during a new

I Had A Dream
Last night I had a dream. I remember it as clear as if it had happened in real life...I just wish it had. Angela came back to me. She came and found at some place. I think I was camping or something. Alli was with her. She came into my tent and we talked. We were both recalling past events from when we were dating. She came back because she knew that I still loved her more than life itself and she had realized that she loved me too... College had changed her though. She was different. Darker. She was wearing black lipstick... It was weird, but she was with me so I didn't care. I wonder if she had a similar dream last night...?

Legend Of Sirena From Guam
Guam's legendary mermaid, Sirena, lived in Agana during Spanish times near the Minondo River where fresh spring waters dividing the city of Agana met the ocean at the river's mouth (Bicana) not so far from the site of the statue above. She loved the water and was known to swim whenever she could steal a moment from her chores to satisfy her greatest pleasure. One fateful day, Sirena's mother sent her to get coconut shells to be used as coal for the iron. Oblivious to time and duty, Sirena couldn't resist the refreshing river. There she swam while her mother called impatiently. Sirena's godmother happened to be visiting, and as her mother angrily cursed her daughter with the words, "Since Sirena loves the water more than anything, she should become a fish", her Nina (godmother) quickly interjected, "leave the part of her that belongs to me". Unknown to mother, godmother, family and friends, Sirena was never to return home again, for feeling unusual sensations as she swam, she so

Let Love Flow Freely
Love believes what cannot be possible. And then love makes it happen. Love is the reason that defies all reason. Love unites even those who could never otherwise agree. Give love not because it's your obligation. Give love because you can. Offer love not because you seek some treasure in return. Offer love, and you'll find that it is the treasure. When you're not sure what to say, let love do the talking. If you can't decide which way to go, decide to act from a perspective of love. Love connects, empowers, illuminates and understands like nothing else can. Let love flow freely from every moment in your life. -- Ralph Marston

Tell Me What U Think !!!
This is a awesome Slipknot song be a real friend ,friend's and tell me what u think !!! Music Codes - MySpace Layouts She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame. All the torment and the pain Leaked through the cover in me Id do anything to have her to myself Just to have her for myself Now I dont know what to do, I dont know what to do when she makes me sad. She is everything to me The unrequited dream A song that no one sings The unattainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in All I need to make it real is one more reason I dont know what to do, I dont know what to do when she makes me sad. But I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this build up inside of me A catch in my throat Choke, torn into pieces No, I dont want to be this But I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this build up inside of me I wont let this

Dancing
Dancing I wish I were dancing Floating across the floor He is wearing a suit I, a gown The music, sweet and melodious Finds me twirling in a fantasy land Filled with happiness Laughter Love His warm embrace Tickles my senses And my heart surges forward And then As I am looking into his eyes Searching every corner of his perfect soul I stop And realize that I'm not in a ballroom Not in a gown I'm just standing, staring into his eyes And I'm dancing - Jennifer Suzanne Brown -

*drool!*
i was cruising Ebay Motors...i'm in a browsing mood and i'm into little British sports cars (MGs, Triumphs, Sunbeams, Austin Healey, etc...) and i found this beauty! too bad i don't have $16,500 to buy it outright. check her out Cherries, isn't she incredible!? i am almost in tears i want this car so much! here's the addy: http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/MG-MGA-MGA-1962-MGA-VERY-RELIABLE-1622-MKII-MK2-MK-2-MKII-MG-A_W0QQitemZ330086779272QQihZ014QQcategoryZ80750QQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem and a link (bear with me, it's my first html linky-thing^.^) 1962 MG A...cherry! *sigh* you think if i sold a kidney i could afford it?

Need Your Opinion...
I plan on placing myself under the needle again soon. I already have a celtic cross on the bottom of my right forearm, should I get something on the other arm to even it out or I was planning on getting a design on the same are that incorporates that, but will turn out to take up most of my arm. Any ideas?

Fuck You. Part Two.
my mutant raptor neighbors are at it again with their rocky-rambo-jurrasic park exhibitions. i loathe those wastes of human life with every bone in my achy body. ever since i screamed "fuck you" out the window [about five minutes ago] they have been parading around like elephants and shaking my ceilings just the same... minus the guttural screaming.

Yay
yay i got my first tattoo today kick ass mang.. well i like it its in handwriting and says bella :) i wanna get some chit added on there before he leaves town.. thx nigel u rock my socks ;) kay ps.. ill post a pic whenever i get some taken :D

R.i.p Ken
this goes out to the farther and my mates dad ken griffiths who passed away at 4.AM this morning (gmt) we have known each other for over 18 years we all shed some tears im sorry to see you go me and your son have got into bother together aswell you know, we will miss you man as long as our tears flow but hopefully the carnival will pick you up as they go, ken you were my next door neighbour my friends farther and a savior hopefully we will meet again all the best and god speed to you my friend To ken a 46 year old that past too soon my friends dad a good mate and a great farther we all miss you man god speed to you and heavens best good night mate. 15/02/07 4am

Priceless.
Hooded winter jacket with large inside pocket to conceal identity & carry gun: $65.00 9mm Handgun purchased from Ray-Jay up the block: $150.00 Failure to master proper weapon retention during your planned armed robbery: PRICELESS!!!!!

Völuspá-the Song Of The Sybil
Völuspá-The Song of the Sybil Heidi men call me when their homes I visit, a far seeing Volva, wise in talismans. Caster of spells, cunning in magic. To wicked women welcome always. Arm rings and necklaces, Odhinn you gave me To learn my lore, to learn my magic: Wider and wider through all worlds I see. Outside I sat by myself when you came, Terror of the gods, and gazed in my eyes. What do you ask of me? Why tempt me? Odhinn, I know where your eye is concealed, Hidden away in the well of Mimir: Mimir each morning his mead drinks From Valfather's pledge. Well would you know more? Of Heimdal too and his horn I know. Hidden under the holy tree Down on it pours a precious stream from Valfather's pledge Well would you know more? Silence I ask of the sacred folk, Silence of the kith and kin of Heimdal: At your will Valfather, I shall well relate The old songs of men I remember best. I tell of giants from times forgotten. Those who fed me in former days: Nine wor

Death Of A Friend
I Want You To Know by Angela A brief moment of darkness was all that I knew, before Heaven's Gate came into my view. Loved ones and friends I had missed for many years, welcomed me with open arms and many happy tears. All the hurt, fear and pain that I have ever known, is gone from my life, I am finally home. I gazed upon the Lord's sweet smiling face, and for the first time in my life I knew and felt His grace. I know that you miss me, but please dry your eyes. I will always be watching and loving you from my home in the sky. A cool breeze on your face, a touch of light rain, I will send as a reminder that we will be reunited again. Life on earth is but one brief moment in time, I am finally home, Eternity is mine.

Party Yall Read My Last Blog
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My First Real Love
Goodbye At Last by Barbi D Saying goodbye is never easy It's the hardest thing to do But what hurts even more Is not the chance to say it to you. Yesterday is just a memory Our laughter was sunny and bright Then clouds started to gather For you were no where in sight. You were my first real love And this I will never forget How you left without a warning No good-byes, my only regret. Wherever I may be now Always searching for another so true To place my world of emotion Handing my love to someone like you. If again I must go there And experience all the pain I would do it in a minute For all the good I would gain. No matter what my wrongs You offered only love Until the day you left me For your new home up above. I know you still are with me Your love is within my heart Though life is no longer present Our souls will never part. This is given to you in honor Of all that we did share I just wanted you to know, dear, How much I really did

Smokes Music Getting Them Plays
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Am I
> >AM I?? > >1. Quiet / Loud? > >2. Short / Tall? 3. Weird / Original > >4. Nice / Mean 5. Friendly / Selfish > >6. Normal / "Special" 7. Smart / Stupid > >8. Boring / Fun > >9. Attractive / Unattractive > >DO YOU THINK I'M... > >1. A psycho?: > >2. A nerd?: > >3. An asshole?: > >4. Ghetto?: > >5. A faggot?: > >6. Two-faced?: 7. Obnoxious?: > >8. Immature?: > >9. Mature?: > >11. Moody?: > >12. Stoner?: > >13. Alcoholic? > >15. Lovable?: > >JUST SOME QUESTIONS > >1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up?: 2. (a)> >Do u think I'll get married?: (b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?: 3. When is my birthday?: 4. Who is my best friend?: 5. What song (if any) reminds u of me?: > >6. Do I remind u of any characters on TV?: 7. If u could rename me...what would my name be?: > >8. Have u ever had a dream about me?: > >10. If u could give me anything...what would it be?: > >11. If u could promise me anything..what would it be?:

Time On Earth
Time on Earth © By Stacy E. Daniels I know that my time on earth is through And now I'm coming home to you. The Lord that gave my life to me Will now set my spirit free. I have known joy. I have known sorrow I have loved you like there was no tomorrow. And through it all I have no regrets because you're the nicest people I have ever met.

What Do I Do.
So It's Valentines Day And i am away from the one i love. I should be there with her but here i am 10 thousand miles on a training base i know i dont belong on. Not fit to be up front but too proud to bow out due to injuries from the past, To leave is a discrase to all i believe in, But i miss her so much that each day away from her kills me alittle more. I talked to her today being it was Valentines Day. I could hear her sister return from her date with her mate, And the words thank you baby for a wonderful valentines day cut threw me like no weapon ever could. There the woman of my life sits a waiting my return and i am here, unable to do anything! What kind of man am i? i can do nothing for the one i love. I'm suppost to be strong , army strong yet right now i feel so weak anything could hurt me. I am sure i am not alone in these thoughts, I am sure there are other brothers and sisters in arms missing their loved ones as well, being far away from them. Along with

Domestic Violence
Hurt Till Thee End © By Pharin A. Walker My man hit me last night. Just cause I spoke Back to him. Said he was the man of the house, And I shouldn't dare talk back to him. So, I held my face in my hand an began to cry. Lord, why does a man hit a woman this way? I got down on my knees an began to pray. How could he hit me, And say that he loves me? Don't he know how much he's hurting me? More tears began to drop, As I prayed harder to my God, And asked him to make the pain stop. Lord, when I felt his hand touch my face, I didn't understand how the man I loved could do me this way. The pain began to hurt more and more. It felt as if I could live no more. Oh Lord, Oh Lord, please make him stop. I don't want to be one of those stressed out women, Because I was the one who called the cops. Oh heavenly father please make him love and cherish The woman he's' got. My little girl came into the room And said mommy why you cry? I lift my head and said your da

I Am Pagan
I am Pagan I am Pagan. I am a part of the whole of Nature. The Rocks, the Animals, the Plants, the Elements, and Stars are my relatives. Other humans are my sisters and brothers, whatever their races, colors, genders, sexual orientations, ages, nationalities, religions, lifestyles. Planet Earth is my home. I am a part of this large family of Nature, not the master of it. I have my own special part to play and I seek to discover and play that part to the best of my ability. I seek to live in harmony with others in the family of Nature, treating others with respect. I am Pagan. I celebrate the changing seasons, the turning of the Wheel of the Year. I celebrate with singing, dancing, feasting, rituals, and in other ways. I celebrate each turn of the Wheel with personal spiritual practices and by taking part in community festivals. Samhain, commonly known as Halloween, is a time for gazing into the future and for paying homage to my Ancestors and other loved ones in the Spirit w

Child Abuse
Only Three © By Bebeshuree L. Macias My name is Misty, I am but three my eyes are swollen shut I can not see I must be stupid I must be bad what else could have made my daddy so mad I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly then maybe my mommy would still want to hug me I can't speak at all I can't do no wrong or I get locked up all day long when I awake I'm all alone the house is dark my folks aren't home when my mommy comes home I'll try to be nice so maybe I'll just get one whipping tonight don't make a sound! I just heard a car my daddy is back from Charlie’s bar I hear him curse my name he calls I press myself against the wall I try to hide from his evil eyes I'm so afraid now I start to cry he finds me weeping he shouts ugly words he says its my fault he suffers at work he slaps me and hits me and yells at me more I finally get free and run for the door he's already locked it and I start to bawl he takes me and throws me against the hard wall

My Soldier Sent Me Roses...
Well, I really missed my hubby more than ever today. Not only because it's Valentine's Day, but today made three years for us. :)) I knew he wouldn't forget, but I didn't expect to get a gift on two seperate days. Yesterday he sent me the Velvet heart with yummy chocolates with a sweet little note. I don't think I've ever eat any as good. We were on the phone whenever I got it, so it was really sweet. Today he sent me a bouque of beautiful Roses and Lilies with a second little love note. :) They are just so pretty and smell so good. I took them out of the bouque and put them in a vase so they can fully bloom. My hubby and I have also decided that whenever he gets home from Iraq we are going to be moving out of state. I'm sort of nervous but excited at the same time. He was offered a job working in the IT field, but it also requires that he re-inlists in the military, but atleast it will be under non-deployment statis, and I am VERY happy about that. He is only going to re-inli

Precious Loan
Precious Loan © By Mary K. Guerrero God blesses us each with so many things And sometimes that blessing is a child. He chooses a special angel, picked just for you And loans them to you for awhile. From the time they arrive They hold your heart in their hands And add countless precious moments to your life And each night we bow down and ask the good Lord above To protect them and keep them from strife. For this oh so precious gift, God doesn't ask a large fee. “Just love and care for them, and teach them of Me”. So we do what we can, We work hard and we pray And watch them blossom and grow With each passing day. Not one of us knows how long they'll be here Or when God will call for his loan, And take that special angel, picked just for you Back to his glorious home. But he made us a promise and I have no doubt, He will carry you through this great sorrow. Because when it's your time, she'll be first to greet you And you'll be blessed with an eterni

Vday Was Created By Satan And Hitler To Plague The Single Man/woman.
well, today is Vday, the one day of the year when every happy couple, or unhappy couple make the rest of us feel something like the mixture of poo, chewing gum, and ciggerette butt you scrape off your shoe. Luckily i spent the majority of my day with my head crammed in a mixture of an enterasys switch matrix, a cisco router, a dell switch, and access control lists; so thankfully most of the day passed by without me noticing. I dont hate today, because truthfully ive never been in a relationship on Vday for all of my 28 years.. so yeah, coming home to my empty apartment alone does kinda make one feel a bit blue. and the only phone calls from females ive recieved today were from my mom and my aunt and my grandmother... bless em.. so yeah, ill just be chillin in my blue funk over here, dont mind me =p

Nothing Happening
Did absolutely nothing today except go shopping for an elderly couple I help out every once in a while. Stood in line seemingly FOREVER... It's Valentines Day and NO DATE! watching David Letterman right now. So I'm gonna change the channell and check my email. Talk attcha later BLOGGERS!

You Might Be A Red-neck Pagan
You might be a Red-Neck Pagan If you call the Quarters by invoking "Billy, Joe, Jim and Bob".... If your favorite robe has the logo of a manufacturer of major farm equipment on the back.... If you call the Gods by hollerin' "Hey y'all, watch me!".... If you've ever harvested ritual herbs with a weed wacker.... If you've ever blessed chewing tobacco.... You call your High Priest Billy Bob You call the four directions with a flashlight You ever canceled a ritual because of a football game Your athame has a can opener and a nail file on it too Your ceremonial jewelry is plastic You celebrate your simple feast with Beer nuts and a Keg The Super bowl is your most important holiday You use an engine block for an altar You've ever marked out the circle with duct tape You've ever done a Lotto spell Your scrying mirror says, "Objects may be closer than they appear" You've ever used a cauldron as a spittoon You've ever financed a ritual tattoo Your child and your dog hav

Social
1.Would you be in control? 2. Would you whisper freaky shit in my ear? 3. Would you talk dirty to me? 4. Would you kiss me with a little or a lot of tongue? 5. Would you go down on me? 6. Would you let me go down on you??? 7. Would you give me a hicky?? 8. How many rounds would we go? 9. What would you wanna do afterwards? 10. Would you take off all ur clothes for me? 11. Would you lick and bite me all over? 12. Would you like 4 play or get straight to the point? 13. Would you take your time if I told you to? 14. Would you fall asleep when we were done? 15. Would you want to go fast or slow? 16. Where would u wanna "do it" at? 17. Would u be loud or quiet? 18. Do you think u could make me have an orgasm? 19. Are u gonna re-post these so I can answer them for you? 20. WOULD U FUCK TODAY? EMAIL BIG DADDY AND LET ME KNOW WHAT U WOULD DO IF I LET U RIDE IT GIRLS REPOST AS"IF I LET U HIT IT" GUYZ REPOST AS "IF I LET U RIDE IT

This Valentine Thing Is Overrated
Yea, Yea, I hear you, "You just say that cause you dont have one". Well you are damn well right. LOL. My ex came to pick up her Blazer and she showed me what she and her friends got for valentines day. I looked at her, then I looked at what she got. I knocked everything out of her hands and kicked her in the shins. Well, ok, maybe I didnt do that. You wanna know what I remember about today? The last guy I had to deal with at work had pissed all over himself and was drunk off his ass. Now dont take it the wrong way, i am far from upset. You are asking me why am i complaing then? I will tell you why, I am human. I want companionship, someone to watch movies with, someone to share my hyperactive moments with my down times. Thats just human nature. Would I be better off with somebody right now? thats another story. Anyways, I am wishing all those without valentines a Happy Valentines day and to tell them I am feelin' ya.

Me
Odd Facts about MEDO YOU SNORE?:don't know LOVER OR A FIGHTER?:both WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?:clown's AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?:no WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?:it suck's donky ass DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?:no WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?:hell yes HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?:it suck's WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?:black DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:yes HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?:no ANY SECRET TALENTS?:yes WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?:texas HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?:yes HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?:no DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?:don't really think about it HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?:3 CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?:no HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?:yes ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?:no WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?:it s not right IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?:yes DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?:no WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?:nothing WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU":the second i read this IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?:yes

Dont Tell Me
Please don’t tell me that I told you so Because Trust me I know I know I was stupid for falling for him To really think we could ever be more than good friends I know it was stupid, and I was living a lie But you don’t have to tell me cuz I feel it inside If you don’t know what to say then just sit back and watch me cry Because right now I just need a friend by my side Just please stop telling me I told you so Trust me I know

Reissiger Faircopy Etc. Progress
Was running into some troubles, but have now got 7 pages exactly done and done mostly properly I think ,175 bars (backwards from the end of the about 370-bar Rondo: Allegro finale of this 1840s work.) About 175 bars from the end or so starts a fugato* based on one of the main themes of the movement ... yes, near the beginning of the movement- I peeked and looked at the beginning ;^) *a fugue that's part of a piece, usually brief and usually rounded off at the end to lead into another section of the piece, as opposed to a regular fugue which is, well... a piece in itself

101 Things About Me...
001: Real Name – Stephanie 002. Nickname – Stephie, mommy, mama, 003. Single or taken - Single 004. Zodiac Sign - sagitarrius 005. Male or Female -Female 006. Elementary School - a bunch lol waller road for the most part 007. Favorite Color - Pink & red 008. How many buddies on your aim – dont have aim 009. Screen name – kcangel3303 010. Hair Color - naturally dark blonde 011. long or short - med/short at the moment 014. Eye Color – blue 015. Are you health freak- nope 016. Height - 5"4 1/2 and damn proud of my 1/2 lol 017. Do you have a crush on someone – yes 018. Do you like yourself –sometimes 020. Think you're awesome – not really 021. Piercings – ears and tongue 022. Tattoos – 1...tramp stamp 023. Righty or Lefty - left ___Your 'Firsts'___ 024. Surgery - had pre cancer tumor removed from overies on my 17th b-day! 025. First piercing – other than ears was my belly button dont have it anymore though 026. First best friend – my grandmother 027. First Award –

Valentines Day
just another day in the life well i went to court on an order of protection only to find out that his lawyer is turning it into a child custody hearing. she flat told me that I needed my lawyer because she was going for permanent custody. the new hearing is set for wednesday the 21st. she tried to make it a 30 day continuance. i stated that 30 days is too long and that I was ready to proceed. well anyway, so much for happy freaking valentines day. i hope to have my guns loaded next week with my lawyer in tow. may the powers that be help this process to come to a reasonable settlement. thanks to all of you who said a prayer. love to all my friends. hope ya'll had a good day. Karen dove

Mask
I’ll just but on my mask, and smile when you come by No one has to know that I’m crying on the inside No one has to know that I’m attached and I don’t want to let go I want to keep you around because I’m not ready to say goodbye I’ll just have to learn to keep my feelings on the inside Even though I’m hanging on ever word you say Waiting for the next time you say my name I’ll just play it off, like your just another fuck No one has to know that I’m crying on the inside I’ll just but my mask back on, and smile when you come by

For My Valentine
Will you be my Valentine? I know that I am yours. You are like a tossing sea And I am like your shores. You are like an endless wave And I your waiting sand. And I will wait forever as You come and smooth my hand. I will wait forever, yet You are a part of me. I hold you in my arms, while you Come to me endlessly. Will you be my Valentine? I know that I am yours. I love you with a love that yearns To be your golden shores.

In The News
Just seen somthing briefly on the news about this website, but I'm not a 100% sure if it was this site, but it looked like it from the brief flash they shown on the screen. Never mind... it's a site called: farmersonly.com

Boo @ Last Minute Snowstorms.
Meh. So the trip was good. Lots of snow, lots of wet roads, alternate routes, delays and shit. Got camp set up before it started raining here. x.x Its quite cold. Lol. So, were in Florence AZ. And for the first time ever, I have cell service @ an event! Woooaaaahhhh. Phones low on power though. =P. So it'll be off a lot. Thanks for all the VD wishes. =). You all make me feel special. Illusion, Cat, Ninja, King, Misfit, Alice, Purr, Erika. Thanks ya's. I was afraid that this VD was only going to bring with it a terrible crotch itch. Or anal leakage. =P Well, time to be a pirate for the wknd. =D! If I missed anyones wishes... I'm sorry... Either I didn't get 'em or my minds already friend. Take it easy all! Happy wishes from Estrella War! Yarr.

St. Judes
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Driving Away
your tenderness and the taste of your kiss just a few of the things i pain fully miss out on the high way im drivin....driving away out on the high way im drivin....driving away i still dono why exactly...you left that day cause you and me were there apitamy the apitamy of happy out on the high way im drivin....driving away out on the high way im drivin....driving away out on the high way im drivin....driving away

Happy What??!!.....lol
It's another Valentine's Day .... Yay That!! A day that men all over the world feed in to the girlfriend question of "Do I look fat?" by puchasing large amounts of chocolate for them and giving symbols of love that DIE! LMFAO! The thought of showing someone love by attempting to purchase a bouquet larger than anyone elses in your girlfriend's office kills me. Yes, it's really nice to know that you are loved, wanted and thought about but have you ever tried to take one of those big ass flower arrangements home in your car?....LOL Valentine's day also has some other pretty cool significance. It was on February 14th that penicillin was discovered back in 1929. Maybe, just maybe, there was enough loose ass flowing with the loose booze during prohibition that someone thought that there should be some kind of treatment for those little itchy, owie gifts that were left behind. Or, just maybe, someone thought that penicillin would cure the nasty infection that could have set in o

New...
I'm getting slightly addicted here at Cherry Tap, even though it pisses me off when the server and/or Cherry Tap fucks up when you are in the lounge area. It has been nice 'befriending' fellow peers at Cherry Tap, all those whom have rated, commented, and etc cetera -don't worry, I'll do the same for you! :) Things just take awhile, yes?

Showing Through The Mist
sensing you near smelling your scent reaching out to you feeling your touch kissing you gently holding you close showing our love to all sensing the jealous thoughts making my vow to you promising you this my love for ever your til time ends as well

Barely Breathing
Sometimes I feel as though I am barely breathing, barely making sense of the world around me. I feel as though I am fighting to keep my head above water. I laugh and I smile when those around me do the same but inside I feel dead. I can be in a room with a ton of people and still feel so alone. It's a feeling I'm just not used to and I don't like it. I've had a hard time sleeping. I take pills. Anything I can get my hands on to numb me and let me fall asleep. I'm scared but I won't admit it to anyone. My life is the one thing I should have complete control over and it has completely spun out. I'm not the woman I was a few months or even a few weeks ago. I close my eyes and I hear a baby crying and when I open them I can't find her. She isn't there. It haunts me. It hurts. It scares me. I go on day to day living my life wondering what else is in store for me, praying it is only good things. I could use some luck right now, the warm embrace of those that love me, anything to make me real

The Lie
within her heart was the simplest thing a word, a phrase, nothing spoken, only thought and she kept it there for years to come where no one could find it gathering dust but in her eyes upon a second glance was the glimmer of that word's meaning so real, so attainable but guarded just the same "do you love me?", he asks "No" she replies, then she turns her head so he can't see

Death Is At Hand
Whether or not the truth is a fake, And if the words are all lies, I don’t care if the stars come out, And madness falls from the sky, And if the darkness of the night, Does not exceed the day, I know I will still be standing, I have no need to pray, For the forthcoming of the end is here, My death will soon be at hand, And no longer will I haunt you, Nor my words poison this land, You wished for me to go, And now I will depart, You cannot change my decision, My mind has been torn apart, You hurt me deeply, In a way I cannot express, But it doesn’t matter, It’s a crime, to which you cannot confess, All I can hear, Are the voices in my head, They all say the same as you, I’d be better off dead, They all surround me, These shadows in my room, But I don’t care anymore, I feel safe faced with doom, My absolution is close, My transformation is near, I have nothing to lose, Except my doubt and my fear, I feel the flash of agony,

Remember Me
Take just a moment Let me wonder through your mind Remembering all the memories How life treated us so kind. Remember passion between two hearts The desire that lite the flame A flame that burnt for so long Things will never be the same. Just close your eyes and remember The happiness our hearts shared We felt like two young lovers And we truly cared. A love filled with passion Love I felt would never die Within an instant it faded My heart to this day... crys. Now life is meaningless The tears flow so free So much pain and heartache How could you hurt me? Your love will always be sacred No other can ever fulfill This emptiness within my heart I wish you would have filled.

Breast Cancer
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This Smile
Do you see this beautiful smile? This exquisite, dazzling smile of mine Take a good hard look at it sparkle For this will be the very last time That I’ll grace you with it’s presence That I’ll display it for your eyes to see Because you my friend are not worthy Nope, you’ll get no more smiles from me Do you see this lovely smile? Filled with love from deep within Don’t look forward to seeing another Not a smirk, not a beam, not grin Try to break this woman’s spirit Attempt to put her in her place Then you expect her to be happy Hmph, won’t see a smile upon this face Do you see this radiant smile? Take some time to memorize Perhaps the memory will tide you over You’ll have to recall it from your mind Say goodbye to this sweet smile The one you claim that you adore Now is your chance, take one last look Cause you won't see me smiling anymore

Fibromyalgia
http://www.fmaware.org/ Check out this site and support all the people out there with Fibromyalgia. This site tells about what it is and how to deal with it and how to support people with it. I support these people and hope you can to! Thanks so much!

Hurt On Valentines Day
well i didnt tell him but he hurt me on valentines day. He had the gift he was suppose to get me built up to be untoppable. It would have been a nice gift but it could have been topped. I only wanted on thing ( i wont say it cause he knows deep inside what it was.) but the point is why say and build things up if u arent going to follow through with them. If you forget then its the same as not doing anything IF you have it built up to be something its not. I will admit the gift he told me he had planned to get me was nice. But he knows i wouldnt have had any time to myself to enjoy it. I have 3 kids so where do i get time to enjoy anything dealing with a spa package. Just like at xmas he talked about how he was going to get me a ring and have our daughter give it and a note to me asking me to marry her daddy. I was so looking forward to that then it never happened. Looks like i would be use to him not following through. and something told me when he kept saying how good of a gif

Some Good Lyrics
from a guttermouth song. best band ever by the way. "you know, what pisses me off more than anything is all these people who aren't exactly politically correct. like the other day, i was out walking my siberian-american huskies. and you know how canines are: they like to sniff everything, including each other's butts. so some guy walks up and he says, "get your dog's ass out of that other dog's nose!" so, i replied, "how dare you call them dogs! they're siberian-american huskies. that's like calling an african-american a black. or calling a mexican-american a mexican. or calling a homosexual a stupid faggot!" it pissed me off so much i got a nose ring, died my hair blue and moved to san francisco!" and yes i am real bored.

Baby I Love You Papi Chulo Fernando Guiterrez 4lyfe
Baby, I loved you Why did you let me go? Yes it hurts me But I still want you to know All the love we made Can never be erased And I promise you That you will never be replaced I loved you, Yes I did. But now you left me Without a reason to live. When I first saw you, I thought we would last But in the end I fell for you And I wonder why our love went so fast. Lately, I'm not as happy as I used to be Because all of the good times Were only with you and me I wish you would tell me What made you cry and end our love I swear if I did anything wrong Tell me, so I can rest high above Because right now I cannot stand this pain And I do not want To die in vein. Baby, I loved you Why did you let me go? Yes it hurts me But I still want you to know All the love we made Can never be erased And I promise that You will never be replaced...

Blood Red Skies
I am afraid, hunted every step. I am captured, the traitor in your eyes. I can’t get away, From within my prison, I can’t go but at the same time, I can’t stay. I am betrayed, the dying in your plot, I am cast out, the leper by your door, I feel I have no hope, I could just curl up and die, This is the only way I know how to cope, I am caught, a fox in the cars headlights, I am trapped, a fish inside your net, I don’t think I can live on, I’ve taken your poison, I don’t think I can carry on knowing you’re gone, I’m lost crawling in a labyrinth of lies, I’m doomed, wandering in a land of make believe, I think that my time has come, I hear death, As he, with his wife pain beat a long solitary note on my drum, I am sinking, a ship beneath your waves, I am failing, the light within your dark, I can’t see the way to go anymore, In case I fall, And end up a rotting carcass on your floor, I am leaving, the boy you once knew, I am going, the

Once Upon A Fairy Tale
Once upon a fairy tale Was a girl we all know well A princess only dreaming of The hope of finding her true love She searched the land but couldn't find The true love that she had in mind She tried to find him everyday Till her hopes all washed away She sat upon her empty throne Thinking that she'd be alone Everything in life felt wrong Until one day he came along Prince Charming was this prince's name And her lover he became She finally found her one true love The one that she'd been dreaming of Finally everything felt alright She had a prince to hold each night Someone to sit by on her throne No longer was this girl alone But then on one awful day He found Snow White and went away On a horse they waved goodbye This princess was left to cry She knew she'd have to live without The prince she cared so much about Goodbye to love and all the laughter Goodbye to happy ever after

Kinda Pathetic
is it bad that all the "guys" on my friends list have no crushes on them but almost all of us have crushes on someone else? i know it only takes the showing of a bit of skin (yes that got me) to make it happen. wonder if i bitched in the bulletins if that would get me enough attention to get a chick or a *homo (they can have crushes too) to have a crush on me? *homo's please don't take offense at above comments i am just being a sarcastic jackass. although i do like the legislative action against the non-homos for shooting down your marriage chinga.

Memories Live Forever
Dreams can last a lifetime, And the memories still remain, You continue to live in my heart, And the tears fall like rain. A love that was so magical, Beautiful in every way, Slipped through our fingers, And we regret it still today. I guess we'll never know, Why things couldn't go our way, We were just too young, Didn't realize our love would stay. It's strange after so many years, How I still think of you, I can see your beautiful smile, And so many nights I dream of you. The dreams seem so real, I wish they would go away, They're just so magical, That's when I wish you would've stayed. Now all I have left of you, Are a few pictures from our past, And I'll treasure these memories, That will forever last.

Soilder Please Read Very Sad And Yet Distrubing Kinda I Think I Wrote It But I Styl Love What I Write Its A Part Of Me That Will Always Be Me
You hold me close, hands stroking my back, smother me in kisses, which I'm soon to lack. my eyes start to burn, as I blink back the tears, trying my best to smile, concealing my fears. I choke on a sob, as you whisper goodbye, praying to god, I wont break down and cry. I need to have faith, I need to be strong, I'll just have to wait, you wont be too long. you pull away and leave me, sorrow in your eyes, the pain is etched on my face, its too hard to disguise. when you leave, I'm filled with dread, can't help to imagine, you lying there dead. why do you have to go, and fight this awful war, each and every time you leave, I miss you more and more. my life's non-existent, without you by my side, the only reason you wont return, is you'll dent your precious pride. my minds comatose, I cant even think, pushing me over the edge, I'm right on the brink. everyday I turn on the news, terrorist bombs, soldiers dying, children screaming, women cry

Valentines Day
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS...HOPE EVERYONE IS SPENDING IT WITH SOMEONE THEY LOVE....SOMEBODY SEND LONELY OL' ME A V-DAY KISS ;)...TO ALL MY REAL FRIENDS ON HERE LUV U GUYS....AND TO THE REST OF YOU *&%(*&*)*&)(*&'s...LOVE U TOO HAHA...NOW!!! ONTO MY NEXT BEER!!!

All Those Love Poems I Wrote And You Left
I'm sitting here remembering All the good times we've had The times when I loved you Good, happy, bad, and sad. I remember when I used to hold you Safely and close to my heart Even if it was broken and slightly torn apart I thought about you twice. During the day and at night. Everything was going wrong those days You were the only thing that seemed right But then I broke down. I went through another heart break again This time it was really tough I didn't think my heart would mend But then you and me Bent down and picked up my broken heart's pieces together You reassembled my heart Only this time you made it better. You collected all my missing pieces Filled in every hole and crack. And when my heart was good as new I thought you'd give it back. It's true that love is blind Because I really couldn't see You were fixing up my heart But you weren't going to give it to me I thought this was our chance Maybe we'd finally be together Until you ga

Love From The Heart
"Love from the Heart ".. " Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage." " You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have really lived, are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of Love." " LOVE thrills the soul, takes patience as it's bride, shows kindness and grows with time." " Love becomes boundless only when aloowed to show itself to the keeper of the Heart." " Love endures the test of time and ever shadows it into eternity." " Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get â€“ only what you are expecting to give." " Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less." " If you Love someone more than anything, Then distance only matters to the mind, not to the Heart." " Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your Heart. " " A hundred Hearts would be too few To c

Since You Went Away
Ever since you went away, it rains everyday The day seems to be quiet with silence And the nights seem to be long and lonely Ever since you went away… Life seems to have no purpose, No reason to continue this way Striving to survive appears to have no end Such as the path in which I was left stranded in The pain just seems to be growing inside And the trees appear to stand still in the breeze The ocean seems to overflow with agony And the stars look as if they have lost their shimmer Since you went away… The moon does not radiate and lust Among the shallow lakes No longer does the wind howl its nocturnal song Which awakens the truth within the soul Everything seems to be different, Light seems to cower, under the rule of darkness And I seem to have forgotten the meaning of life Please come back, won’t you? Because it’s not the same since you went away Time appears to have no meaning And colors look as they have dimmed and faded away The roses seem t

What Is Love?
Love is not bothering what you are inside or what your physical deficiencies are. It's acceptance. Love is sending him flowers to tell him that you are lucky to have him. Its appreciation. Love is knowing that it will be the most tender goodnight kiss. It's anticipation. Love is not bothering about work and kids and just giving time to one another. Its adjustment. Love is knowing that you are made for each other and you will be there for each other for ever. Its bonding. Love is telling a person if you have to leave, you will want her to sleep and would not disturb her, and in reply being told that she would rather be woken. It's compassion. Love is making love at the most outrageous place without the fear of getting caught. Its craziness. Love is lying in each other's arms the whole night. It's closeness. Love is thinking about him the whole day and longing to be with him. It's desire. Love is the screaming out in joy when you have reached the climax. It's ecstasy. Love is giving one

Part Of Me Is Hoping
Everything is fading now All the sorrow and the pain Though I still see him there Standing in the rain I keep trying to walk away I need to leave him there But I want to go back to him To tell him I still care God I miss him so much But a part of me always knew That we would fall apart And all would be threw You where so confident That we’d stay together And for a time I played along Though I knew love wasn’t forever You understood me somehow You made my day feel brighter And when I felt my problems where heavy You made them feel so much lighter How I always dreamed Of just being alone with you Having a house and family together Watching our children as they grew But I was too much a burden I bought out your darker side The one full of pain and hate The one you try to hide But it wasn’t just me who did this Whenever you said I love you You’d start to go on About all the wrong things I do You sometimes would bring me down Make me feel so

Rememberence Of A "perfect" Love
Touch me softly Caress my skin Feel my body All over again Send those shivers Down my spine Do it again Just one more time Touch your hand to my face And your lips to mine I want to feel you One last time Take my hand Hold it tight Kiss the pain And make it alright Hold me close And keep me warm Protect me from the cold Hold me in your arms Touch me gently Kiss me deep Make it so my head spins And I get weak Talk to me softly Whisper words in my ear Tell me you love me And then hold me near Leave me breathless Unable to talk Leave me weak Unable to walk Play with my hair Trace my face with your lips Pull my body to yours And place your hands on my hips I want to feel your heartbeat Beating against my chest I was to hear you say I'm better than the rest I want to know you love me I want to know it's real So open up your heart And tell me how you feel Open your eyes And look into mine Notice the tears And stop wasting y

Fiirst Bl0g 0n V-day
Today has been really had on me, although I had many people who cheered me up greatly. Such as all of the wonderful people who left me Valentines Day comments on here. I would have commented back, but I don't have any super cool glitter pictures Haha. But thank you all so much. =) Anyways, I`m hoping that many of you actually read this because I feel like I don`t talk with many of you. I don`t know about the rest of you but I`m looking for some friends to get out of this website experience. Okay wow, I sounded ancient for a minute. But that`s not what I meant by that. I think that people online are a lot more interesting to chat with instead of people around my area because, well, they`re more open and definitly more friendly. Send me as many messages as you want!! I LOVE GETTING THEM! I`ll respond to all of them too!! Please I do insist. Anyways, I`m not on here to whore myself out as some big hot shot wanna be celebrity. I`m just being myself, trying

Teach Me To Let Go For You Have Done It Fast
Teach me to stop caring When I think of what we were Teach me to stop crying When I see you there with her Show me how to live again When you're not here with me Show me how to fight the fact That we're not meant to be Tell me that I'll be alright And my life will be okay Without you right here by my side To hold my hand each day Let these teardrops wash away Don't let this heartbreak last... Let me let go like you did For you've forgotten me so fast

Soo I Found Out What I Was Having...
and its a BOY!!!! I'm so excited and so is james. he is sooo cute..he was sucking on his little thumbs in the ultrasound..awwww I can't wait till he is finally here! i had a very good valentines day...James got me a HUGE bear, with 2 roses in its little paw and a Huge balloon. it was nice..I made him an angel food cake with strawberries and whip cream and I also made him dinner. and later we are going to celebrate more...rawr..haha...well I hope you all are doing good :) xox Jess

The Letter I'll Never Send
I wish I could say How much I care for you But I don't know how So here's what I'll do I'll write you a letter Saying what I've been through Day after day Always thinking of you I don't see you much But when I do it makes me cry So I'll write to you Without a lie I'll say that I love you The first line that I write So you instantly know At your first sght I'll say that I dream I'll say that I fly And without you I'd probably die I'll say that I smile As I write you the note I'll say that I wished I could wear your big coat I'll say that whenever I close my eyes I see you face It never dies I'll say that you're perfect In every possible way That I wish I could hold you Every single day I'll say that I wish You were here with me But it's crazy beacuse I know you can't be Do you think about me Or did you forget The things we had done And the goals we had set But after I read My note once again I realize I'd never send it It's

Words Unspoken
don't understand, How can you do this to me? How can you change your mind so quick, And tell me it's not meant to be? After all the things you said, And after all the things we did. Your going to throw it all away, Who are you trying to kid? I deserve some answers, What did i do wrong? How can our love be over, After being together so long? I got so many questions, Cos now my heart is broken. But there's nothing i can do. So i'll leave these words unspoken.

Alright, Where's My Vodka And Orange Juice?
First of all, thanks to everyone who stopped by my page and made me feel welcome here on CT. I was suprised on how many people have stopped by. This is so much better than my other page *coughMyspacecough*. Anyways, I got a head cold right now. I hardly ever get sick, but when I do, I freakin hate it. Plus since I'm not too sick, I still have to go to work. Dammit! Oh well. That's about all I have to say. Later!

Gurl Who Can Not Be Saved
I’m feeling so lost now Once again I’m alone I know you hate me now I can tell by your tone We’ve been torn apart and don’t want to live Now you’ve torn my heart There is no forget and forgive So what am I to do Forget it all? Just not love you? I’d rather die and fall I sit here on my floor My entire body shaking Deep down inside I feel something awakening I try to ignore it Push the feelings away But as long as I feel this way The thing inside me will stay So I look out the window Wondering if I’ll see the moon You told me just last night That it should be here soon I use to always look at it And think of it as a light Now I see it as an evil thing That comes out at night And as I stare, I remember You made me so strong And in times of confusion You taught me right and wrong Then I think what will happen now Will we just go are separate way? Did I make the mistake? Of not asking you to stay I feel so confused and lost So I keep

A Whine That Could Happen On Any Given Day.
I just want to know the truth. I am tired of getting little bits here and half-truths there and "I'm not too concerned"s and "it's not all that much"s. I don't feel like a best friend. I feel like a sucker. I need a validation of my own: that I'm worth more than food and rides and moral support whenever he wants it. He'll say I am, but then I turn around and find out there was more to yet another story I've been told. It is getting tiresome.

Frozen Love
I always thought we'd grow old together. Facing each new day. But now, in the tears that fall upon my face. Your memory fades away. We walked with our problems in silence. Dawn falling into dusk. Leafs collecting at our cold and tired feet. Along with what grieved us. In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls. I want to scream and shout. My mouth opens, but the tortured words... Just won't come out. You! This man I began to love. Got lost for a "Nothing". Everything we'd built, destroyed. Over one careless fling. Used to think I was so lucky. I had it all. Nothing unknown is knowable, so depressed. You just watched me fall. My heart bleeds. The snow becomes red. How life has mocked you. Were you ever here? memories gone, dead. Your like salt on an open wound. Reminding me you once were here. Warm like the blood in my veins. The love I had for you, so dear. In my distorted, broken dreams. So empty, yet real. I'm floating through air. I touch y

The Intelligence Of People!
I understand some things can go over peoples head, but on most things its hard for people to grasp the concept of a thought. In all honesty, its easy for me to grasp someone's thought, and where they are going with an idea. I am only 23 years old, and people older then me can't even grasp shit, that says a lot for humans. I look at people my age, and it saddens me that they can't have an intelligent conversatioon with someone unless it contains the words sex, and>or drugs, and this scares me> My generation is up next to rule the world and if all they can think about is sex and drugs, our world is going to be fucked. They are probably the cause of 2012 LOL. The world would be one big drugged out orgy, grrr humans...where's the ketch-up!!

Remain Calm, I'm Coming To Your House To Kill You
Inhale But exhale I don’t What I’ve invited in my lungs Is stuck there for the long run Until I can make the long run to the blood I’m sucking on Tell me you don’t care how I get there Because the trail I leave behind will be a messy one My soul may reek with the weak’s blood tears and cum I may still carry the stench of the food I’ve gone through Know that I’ll consume whatever foul taste I have to All in the name of being closer to you Tell me you want me dirty and as fucked up as I can be Just so you can tongue me clean Consider for a moment just how fucked up I can get And know that every act of depravity I commit Is done as a prayer to the toy from the pet Can you make me the pet I need to be? Unleash me when it’s time to play And cage me when you’re done with me Stand toe to toe with a snarling beast And beat it the fuck to sleep Do you see the bottomless pit of food in me? I want to drain you to oblivion for eternity Feed you to bloating and bursti

Drowning
Tears fill my insides as i slowly start to drown the hunger of red cascades pulling me under further and further i fall deeper into a whole An abyss of pain and damnation trying to hide from relief the cold razor sharp metal calling for my hand wanting only a taste Sweet, bitter sweet relief Sadness clutter the mind leaving no room for happiness Tears slowly fall from my eyes as the hunger takes over the torn skin burns for a second I’m free but only for a second......

Singles Awareness Day
A you single? Are you made aware of it ever day on Feb the 14th. Aint it a.... well you get the idea. Don't feel bad you're not alone. Millions suffer this ailment often, and numbers fluctuate too often to really get an accurate count. So, when Feb the 14th rolls around and makes you feel like a slug, think of this. Somewhere down the street or where ever, there is a bar. In this bar is a few women or men, who like you are feeling the slings and arrows of singles awareness day. (feb 14th). And though it appears they are just having a drink, they are as the night wears on in fact Loweing their standards. Its prime time to snag one. Don't sit around and mope this Singles Awareness Day, get out, lower your standards, and settle for something less then your dream tonight!! (this ad is sponsured by the devorce lawyers of america)

Every One I Know!
well its me again.im back out here running down the highway im off to jacksonville fl. and because i have no special person in my life im going to say it to all of you on my list that reads this happy V-day to you all and i love ya! well need to get my happy ass to work get thru atlanta tonight b4 traffic starts up talk soon

I Will Always Be Your Gurl
I seen you with her the other day I'm still trying to get over you but everyone knows Real love doesn't go away I look into your eyes just to see if your love has changed because in my heart I will always be your girl In my heart this love will always stay We began to gaze into each others eyes As i look back in time when you first told me you Loved me,As i reminisce I began to cry But then your girlfriend starts to pull you away as she turns her back I whisper"I Love you baby, Why did you go way? Why didn't you stay?" In my heart I'll always be your girl Thats something no one can change Because you were my first love and these feelings in my heart will always stay the same Nobody can ever take you place what we has should have been Everlasting,Thats something that would never end I loved you so much I wish it could have lasted till the end In my heart I'll always be your girl in my heart are love will always stay the same Even if your

Actin Ugly
Im in a bad mood today so..... pardon my rant.... but.... It¡¯s amazing how being drunk and having insomnia can have you focused on some shit for hours that has absolutely zero significance to you or anyone else on planet earth. But oh! What fun it is!! After getting blizted and then NOT being able to go to sleep ¡ª which is the most back asswards thing I¡¯ve ever heard of in my life ¡ª I stayed up watching reruns of Law & Order and music videos. Now, I¡¯m not a fan of Law & Order¡ not even a little bit¡ in fact, I¡¯d never even seen an episode until this year. But that shit was GOOD! I must have watched three straight hours of that shit from like 1 am until 3am! ¡°But wait Kav¡. 1am to 3am is only two hours??¡± Not last night it wasn¡¯t! DUDE!! The worst night on fuckin earth to have insomnia is after Valentines day depression......it felt like the damn night they turn the clocks BACK..... Now my ass couldn¡¯t go to sleep for an EXTRA ho

I Still Want You
Listen really closely To my heart's confession Maybe if I get it out I'll be rid of this depression. I know that it's over But I still dream of you. I can see in your eyes That you still feel it too. It's breaking my heart slowly, Not to be with you. I just can't help it. Please tell me it isn't really through. I'm trying so hard to be without you. But I just don't feel whole. You were all my life. My Heart, Mind, and Soul. I know no matter what. You'll be there til' the end. But I don't think I can stand that. I need you as more then just a friend. I can't deal with this. Not having you is making me insane. I know that pain wont last forever, But the scars will always remain.

Tired
Tired of fighting, tired of tears, Tired of waiting all these years. I can't turn back, it's too late now, I have to hide my crying brow. Inside I hurt, I scream in pain, I think there's nothing left for me to gain. Hollow eyes look back at me, I don't know who they see. A quiet fury passes over me, How the hell did he do that to me? Happy ever after never came true, Valentine's day has been so blue. Watch everyone else with roses and bears, Their boyfriends show they really care. A simple "I Love You" would help me mend, I'm so afraid this is the end.

Fuck Valentine's Day!!!!!
That's Right!!!! I said it! I hate this Holiday! It's never given me a good moment or memory! For all of you who have someone to share it with . . . I'm happy for ya. For those who can't be with the one you want to share it with . . . I feel your loneliness and hope you are with them soon. I probably won't feel this way forever. Maybe someday I'll have someone to share this day with. I know alot of you out there know exactly how it feels to be a lonely single romantic on Valentine's Day. And for that . . . this one's for you!!!

Life Sure Sux!!!!
Well this was the day set aside to show the one you love how you feel and how much they mean to you! Wonder just how many people were truly honest about it???????There is one major thing about me that I guess people do not notice so very much...........I am a very loving, caring , compassionate person that also feels that overwhelming need to have Love in her life......I have been played with and so very seriously hurt and damaged in my soul until I feel like it is all for naught! Apparently I have given my heart too readily and now must once again suffer the consequences of letting down the walls I had so strongly built up......Am not asking for pity, or anything of the Like, just Good, Honest Friends......May all your dreams of happiness and Joy & love come to you all!!

It Is The Soldier...
It is the soldier, not the reporter, who has given us freedom of the press. It is the soldier, not the poet, who has given us freedom of speech. It is the soldier, not the campus organizer, who has given us the freedom to demonstrate. It is the soldier, not the lawyer, who has given us the right to a fair trial. It is the soldier, who salutes the flag, who serves under the flag, and whose coffin is draped by the flag, who allows the protester to burn the flag.

The Feedback Loop
You're somewhere quiet. There's people. Its a solemn occasion - say, a wedding. No - it's a minutes silence for someone who's died. The minute is ticking away. . . tick tock tick tock. . . and suddenly this thought pops into your head - The worst thing you can do in a minute silence is laugh. And you almost do, as an automatic reaction. But then, you think how awful it would have been if you had laughed, and you almost laugh again, only its a bigger laugh. But, then you think how funny it would have been if you'd laughed that bigger laugh, but this time the laugh is an enormous laugh. Let this one out and you get whiplash! So you're standing there, in this quiet room, shoulders going like you're drilling the road, and what do you think of the situation? Dear Christ! You think its funny!

A.v.d.
Well, today mark's an anniversary of sorts. Today is Anti-Valentine's day! Yes, one year ago, I made a decision as I drank in Grafton with co-workers that today, I would do something, anything that was representative of going against the candy & flowers aspect of Valentine's Day. Ergo, I grabbed my cell and proceeded to call off work at 4 in the morning. Roughly 12 hours before I was scheduled to go into work. This led to four other co-workers to do the same, albeit at a later time. And also was, indirectly, responsible for the firing of two of those co-workers, but that's another story. Anyways, I remember it well, I hung out with friends, went to the movies by myself, some action or comedy with naked women in it. (Always a good selection!), and then proceeded to go to my favorite den of sin . . . the strip club. I could speak of strip clubs with the best of them. I'm an expert on the places. How to get a dancer's number, real name, backstory, stereotype, home address,

Left Broken Hearted A Poem About Love Online
First we were strangers, Meeting online. Living our lives in happiness; Everything was just fine. Both of us were healthy, We went through the usual strife. Heartbreak and jealousy, We lived pulling through life. Getting to know each other, We became the best of friends. Still didn't meet face-to-face, But we got to in the end. Burning in our friendship, We'd never let it end. Whether we worked out or not, We'd still be best friends. And then one day we lost contact, You never picked up the phone. And every time I called your house, No one was ever home. I kept calling and calling, And I finally got through. I nearly fainted when I was told, What was wrong with you. You were dying; Had a deadly form of cancer. I asked your mother what it was, But she gave me no answer. All she did was cry and sob, I didn't know what to do. But one thing was for sure, I had to see you. Rushing to your room, I collapsed once outside. Sobbing at the sight

My Stash.
Check out my stash for a live recording from my band's last show. *edit* Youtube bites it, unless you check it out later. Search Cassandra Syndrome on Google video. Yes, I am an attention whore. Thats why I'm here. :D

Computer Friends
FRIENDS WITHOUT FACES~~ We sit and we type, and we stare at our screens We all have to wonder, what this possibly means. With our mouse we roam, through the rooms in a maze Looking for something or someone, as we sit in a daze. We chat with each other, we type all our woes Small groups we do form, and gang up on our foes. We wait for somebody, to type out our name We want recognition, but it is always the same. We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes flirt In Palace we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt. We do form friendships - but - why we don't know But some of these friendships, will flourish and grow. Why is it on screen, we can be so bold Telling our secrets, that have never been told. Why is it we share, the thoughts in our mind With those we can't see, as though we were blind. The answer is simple, it is as clear as a bell. We all have our problems, and need someone to tell. We can't tell real people, but tell someone we must So we turn

Happy Vd!
A friend of my mom's calls this Singles Awareness Day which I think is rather appropriate. I hope all you singles found someone to cuddle with... and if not, keep your chin up. We all have someone out there. Maybe even a couple of someones. Patience and confidence in that fact are the key. And for the couples, please remember that romance doesn't have to be chocolates and flowers. My husband is far from the traditional romantic but there is certainly romance in all the things he does for me. Just putting your sweetheart before yourself is probably the most romantic thing a person can do. Valentine kisses to you all!

Lowering One's Head In Shame
Lowering one's head in shame, Trying to hold back the tears as you hear your name. Finding out who you could trust... Lies being told about you. Feeling no one out there really cares, When you ask them to then they share. Asking God to forgive what you are thinking, Knowing it is all that you are doing is sinking. Lowering one's head in shame.... knowing that no one can feel your pain as you do in the same.

Public Parts Of My Schedule In Sketch
tomorrow-- appointments - nutrition, apartment. Friday - travel downstate to the NY City/Long Island area until Tuesday afternoon to visit family, for a doctor appt, and for an Asperger (etc.) support meeting. (may begin PenguinBlog2 soon: I'm greedy and like having your much-appreciated votes count ;^) *g*, and a too-long blog can get unwieldy and difficult of search - admittedly the longest ones here only have 40-45 posts.)

The Poets Heart
No uttered words the poet speaks, No skies of golden hue, No tales of unrequited love, They were lost when I lost you. No words to caress his lover's heart, And gone the dreams he swore they'd live, But alone within the poet dwells, No uttered words... none left to give. No music swells within his soul, Just silence surrounds his heart, And the solitude engulfs his world, When the poet and love depart. And lost the beauty he once could see, And the glory he saw each day, Now the poet pens his last farewell, No more love can he convey. But what's the poet's soul to do? To release the love he feels, For he'll surely die and wither, If that love he now conceals. He must hide the hurt and heartache, Just smile to friends and say, I'm fine... love doesn't matters, And deceive them all that way. For a different face he'll show them, To barricade his pain, To hide his shattered spirit, From the love he ne'er attained. But the pain within shall kill h

I Am Apparently A Douche Bag
Apparently I am a douche bag. I am not meant to walk around and have thoughts or feelings. I am not meant to be human and have flaws. I am not the perfect person you want me to be. I never will be. Save yourselves from me and my amazing ability to destroy anything that has ever meant anything to me. Watch in amazement as I sabotage everything I ever have going for me. I am obviously meant to be alone for the rest of my pathetic existence. Go ahead, everyone, pass me by, please. I want you all to do the favor and walk right by me. Don't smile, nod or even wave, cause apparently that gives me the perfect opportunity to destroy even the calmest of friendships. I am self-destructive when it comes to all things(minus the physical cutting shit). Welcome to my life, please leave before you get hurt. I am tired of always being the one who "causes the pain". I am forgetful, self-reliant(to a unhealthy point), and apparently self-centered. All I have wanted to do was help people, but all

For You Are The One
For you I would climb The highest mountain peak Swim the deepest ocean Your love I do seek. For you I would cross The rivers most wide Walk the hottest desert sand To have you by my side. For you are the one Who makes me whole You've captured my heart And touched my soul. For you are the one That stepped out of my dreams Gave me new hope Showed me what love means. For you alone Are my reason to live For the compassion you show And the care that you give. You came into my life And made me complete Each time I see you My heart skips a beat. For you define beauty In both body and mind Your soft, gentle face More beauty I'll ne'er find. For you are the one God sent from above The angel I needed For whom I do love. ~author unknown~

Cuts
cold and bitter thoughts culter the mind only leaving room for hunger sweet cascades of emptyness fill a puddle in the floor only wanting more the cold sharp steel calls for the hand wanting only torn flesh its burns only for releaf

A Gift Of Love
For Valentine’s Day I don't need candy, You are my sweet. I don't need Champagne, Your kiss is like wine. I don't need roses, You are my flower. I don't need diamonds, You're a priceless gem. I don't need gold around my neck, To be wrapped tightly, in your arms. I don't need you to be present, To know you are here with me. If you must give me anything, This Valentine's Day, Gift wrap your love, And send it to my heart. That's all I've ever wanted, From the beginning, From the very start...

Down On My Knees Dear God Help Me Please Amen
Dear Lord I need your help tonight Cause I just can't seem to see what's right I lost your promise you made to me That you'd hold my hand eternally See I am dealing with the tears Dealing with the fears Of admitting that my heart is sold And that I'll never have his hand to hold I'm praying to you God down on my knee's I don't know what to do Lord, help my please I need you to take this pain away Take me into "Far, far, away" Where all my dreams of "us" can come true Where the storm is gone and the sky is blue My hands are shaking, stomach aching Don't you see Jesus my heart is breaking Sick of tears in my eyes Sick of hiding my cries Sick of pretending I'm okay Sick of trying to make this all go away Father just take my heart out of his hands And put it back together again I reached for his hand, reached for his heart But instead all I came back with was scars He wants to throw away memories and forget the past But those memories were what was g

Fell To Deep
Sorry for not being able to go on I no longer have any strength My heart keeps breaking into pieces When you tell ppl Im just ur friend I dont know how to tell you this I cant seem to find a way To tell you that I think its time We went our seperate ways I am tired of being second Not being your only one Only being yours When your looking for fun I love you too much now I didnt notice what I was feeling And now its too late Since my heart is breaking I fell in too deep And I cant find my way out of ur heart Every single kiss u now give me Slowly tears me apart Now when you touch me I wonder if u touch her the same way And I no longer feel excitement Instead my soul slowly fades away So I think its time to give up on us And on everything we had I cant believe I am thinking this But I just cant control all of this sad Baby please understand me I dont want this to end I want to be in your arms forever I want to be more than just "special frie

Heart Broken On Valentines Day
Its Amazing that sumthing soo stupid can hurt so much. I deserve someone That can see how special I am. Its sad really that you cant see whats really there. Theres No one else like me. No one will ever compare. Its too bad really, but its your loose so why should I care.

A Gangsterz Lyfe
As the hours pass nd the lonelii daiis end ii keep lookiin 4 waiis to make thiis broken heart mend all ii have riight now are piictures to remiind me of the past just thiinkiin of me and u shows how stupiid ii was for thiinkin we would last the streets are not easy full of gangsters and thugs pandejos diie everiidaii maiibe cuz of drugz triin not to joiin in but cholos don't care iif u lose your liife the ones that care about you wiill thiink iit wasn't faiir chiiliin wiith the homiies liiviin "ThE CrAZii LiiFe" iits suddenly not theii fault iif u got stabbed wiith the kniife you hustle you blaze and everiithiin iin between and iim stiil here bii ur siide but now uve become the most wanted bii the poliice your chance of beiin iin the free world slowlii decrease hoes at everii corner trii to show what theii can do then u come bak to me and expect me to understand what u goiin thru u know iil alwaiis love u and be there 4 everythiin u do

Heya
I love Valentine's Day, just got done watching a movie, eating my famous spaghetti and garlic bread, brownies and my husband got me a Stitch doll and a red rose...:)..I painted him something with a poem on it, bought him a choclate set of lips and a button with two kittens cuddling on it. We drank some Bacardi laced wine, and he gave me a full body massage...:)

Hi Everyone
Hi everyone, Just a quick note to say i hope you all had a great Valentines day. Tomorrow i have a crazy busy day which will start at 4am in the morning. I am sorry if i have not got back to replying to messages and comments etc but will do tomorrow night or friday. When I finish work tomorrow i have a big exam to take so I will not be here until late on...but i do have the day off on Friday. If you want to comment or message me or I havent yet commented on your pics etc please send me mail so that sometime over the weekend I can do it. You all have a great night Stay safe Huggers

Why Do Men Think Women Are Stupid!!!!!
I can't quite figure out one thing and the burning question is why do men think that women are sooo stupid and we can't see the signs of a player!!! Someday people will understand that I have been married and been through hell and back so i can see all the signs of a player and the signs of when someone is lying!!! I am gonna tell everyone now I have been through enough to understand that most men are really stupid and well they can't figure out that you can't play a player and I have been down that road in my life and i have played men, but remember i was much younger and that was when i had time for that shit. I have figured out that most men don't mature at all and all they think about is themselves!!! Well let me tell you I am much too old to but up with the bullshit anymore so please remember if you are going to try and get in my pants you better get alot of sleep if you think that you can get around me knowing that your a player I will figure out really fast so be prepared for th

Story Of The Broken Hearted
“Just forget about him, just let him go” that’s what everybody said So I tried taking the images of you out of my head All the memories, the moments, and kisses that we shared They kept running through my head, that’s when I knew that I still cared I gave you all my heart and you only let it fall And once you loose that trust, you basically loose it all So I really had no choice I had to try to let you go We had it great from the beginning so I never would’ve known That you would go and break my heart, so it was time to say good bye You stood right in front of me while there were tears in my eyes And it wasn’t too long before a tear ran down your cheek I guess you didn’t want me to see. . Cuz you looked down at your feet As I stood there speech less all you could say was “I’m sorry” All I could think about is “why, why would he want to make me cry?” “Everything he ever told me, was it all a lie” So many thoughts and questions running through my head at once And then tha

Uhhuh
Dancing with the world, I call my own Stringing along my hopes and dreams Impatient anticipation Fulfilling my every move Wondering gaze of confusion Tailored needfulness Taking deep breaths of conspiracy Running Walking Crawling

Happy Valentines Day !
A lie of love did pass away Left me waiting on the day When a pure soul a match to mine Would awaken me with love sublime And show me love was not a fairy tale That it was real and not for sale That all I had know of love before Was nothing compared to what was in store When a heart so true could love just me When it mattered not of the past we see When all that clouded was cast aside When there was no reason to run and hide When all I could ever dream had come true This was the gift I found in only you For love had died and passed to dust All I believed in was hardened lust For all the was love had been a lie Now thanks to you the past did die And love lives true in your angel eyes I live for the view that brings my sighs And knowing you heart and soul love me Is a joy I will live for all eternity By R. Thomas Dinsmore The last face I see before I sleep the one that has made me hers to keep We hold and kiss and make sweet love She is my angel from heaven

Valentines Jokes
A young woman was taking an afternoon nap. After she woke up, she told her husband, "I just dreamed that you gave me a pearl necklace for Valentine's day. What do you think it means?" "You'll know tonight." he said. That evening, the man came home with a small package and gave it to his wife. Delighted, she opened it--only to find a book entitled "The meaning of dreams". ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Argument (ar*gyou*ment) n. A discussion that occurs when you're right, but he just hasn't realized it yet. Airhead (er*hed) n. What a woman intentionally becomes when pulled over by a policeman. Bar-be-que (bar*bi*q) n. You bought the groceries, washed the lettuce, chopped the tomatoes, diced the onions, marinated the meat and cleaned everything up, but, he, "made the dinner." Blonde jokes (blond joks) n. Jokes that are short so men can understand them. Cantaloupe (kant*e*lope) n. Gotta get married in a church. Clothes dryer (kloze dri*yer) n. An appliance designed to eat so

I Piss On Your Valentine's Day Whining.
What's the big whine about? I don't have a Valentine. Even when I had boyfriends on this day, it never was a fairytale-type deal! There is nothing about February 14th that makes it different from other days except all the cupcakes in the bakeries have pink frosting. If this day makes you so upset because you have no date, do you get upset every time you see a couple holding hands? I find that much more upsetting when I feel lonely. Do you write a big rant every time you see public displays of affection? How about trying this: make you FRIENDS some goodies (they are the people who matter in the long run). Buy yourself some fattening chocolate and flowers that will wilt in five days. Pick out how much you would spend on someone else, and spend it on yourself. You'll pick out the correct kind of chocolates that way! My family celebrates Christmas without going to mass for Christ. My family celebrates Halloween without setting a plate of food at the dinner table for the

When I Close My Eyes At Night...
You want to see what I see when I close my eyes at night? Imagine? The barrel of a gun about 6 inches from your head, before you can instinctively move you see your marks’ finger apply pressure to the trigger. You expect and prepare for the worse, life to end as you know it………….but instead you hear a “click”, then your training falls right into place without hesitation. Now your mark is in your shoes, lying in the damp grass, alone, pride keeps him from begging for his life, though some do. Pathetic! You kill? Yet you beg for your life and actually expect mercy, no mercy. As the mark lays on his back pushing himself through the wet slippery grass away from you till he reaches a tree behind him that he ultimately knew was there, the tree representing the end of the line for him essentially. You plant your feet firmly, look into his eyes with this sickening desire to watch the horror expose itself in his gaze, then the final gratification of witnessing life leave his expression complet

15 Feb 07 - Thursday
15 Feb 07 - Thursday 0037 Claudius Drusus Germanicus Caesar Nero emperor of Rome (54-68) 1564 Galileo Galilei Pisa, Italy, astronomer/physicist 1812 Charles Lewis Tiffany Killingly CT, jeweler (Tiffany) 1907 Cesar Romero New York NY, actor (Joker-Batman, Ocean's 11, The Thin Man) 1927 Harvey Korman Chicago IL, actor (Carol Burnett Show, Blazing Saddles) 1944 Mick Avory rock drummer (Kinks) 1954 Matt Groening cartoonist (Life in Hell, Simpsons) 1957 Jake E Lee rocker (Badlands) 1964 Chris Farley actor (Saturday Night Live, Wayne's World, Coneheads) 0399 Philosopher Socrates sentenced to death 1764 St Louis founded as a French trading post by Pierre Laclade Ligue 1869 Charges of Treason against Jefferson Davis are dropped 1870 Ground broken for Northern Pacific Railway near Duluth MN 1903 1st Teddy Bear introduced in America, made by Morris & Rose Michtom 1918 1st WWI US army troop ship torpedoed & sunk by Germany, off Ireland 1929 St Valentine's Day massacre (Chicag

Why Me
well lets start things off by saying i am having a rather shitty month i get transfered from one store to another store the new store gives me all overnight shifts and i am over tiard then my mechanic moves which means no more cheap repairs lol so i am tring to finance a car imagine that haveing a terrible time with that who wants to make payments not me then my work schedule is so f up i dont see my man but maby one a week when i come in he is going and our only day off he volenteres to babysit wtf i guess no fun for me well what else could go rong

Valentines
Night closes in on this eve of despair Hauntingly familiar this chill in the air Crushing blow of another harsh day Fates cruel hand has swept it away Dreams and nightmares have merged into one Scars remain from the love that is gone Weaker and weaker with every drawn breath Wanting, embracing, caressing sweet death

Would Anyone Care
if i did a good job would anyone care if i ruled the would would anyone care if i actuly tried would anyone care if i told you i loved you would you care if you said you loved me would i care if my truck got broken into would my friends care if i died today would anyone care if i died tomorrow would anyone care

My Prayer
I PRAY THAT I MAY LIVE TO CONTINUE F**KING ALL THEM HEATED B****ES AND HO’S, UNTIL MY DYING DAY. AND WHEN IT COMES TO MY LAST DAY, I THEN MOST HUMBLY PRAY EVEN THEN IN THE LORD’S GREAT CAST, THAT I WILL BE GRANTED THE CHANCE TO HUMP ONE LAST HO BEFORE I PLACE THE GREAT 9” LONG ANACONDA TO REST ON MY CHEST.

Ball And Chain
IT IS MY SECRET MY BALL AND CHAIN I AM CHAINED TO IT BOUND TO FOREVER BE FOREVER BE ATTACHED THE CHAIN IS LONG BUT NOT LONG ENOUGH I AM FOOLED FOOLED INTO THINKING INTO THINKING IVE ESCAPED ONLY TO BE JERKED JERKED BACK TO REALITY MY PAINFUL REALITY BY ITS SIDE WE ARE ONE THIS SECRET AND I I FEEL THE COMFORTING WEIGHT OF THE CHAIN I DO NOT BULK I DO NOT RALLY AGAINST MY FATE THIS BALL AND CHAIN FORGED WHEN I WAS YOUNG TO BE BROKEN ONLY BY DEATH I LAUGH IN ITS FACE I CRY BEHIND ITS BACK IT HATES ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE IT FOREVER ONE COMPLETENESS ONLY WHEN BOUND WHAT A CRUEL JOKE DESTINY IS

International Dirty Day
With so much choas and worry going around, I fight to want a reason to be here. Cause I dont really. And it sucks. Because I can hope and wish and pray how ever much I want and I still wont be where I want to be. Today is one of those Hallmark days where many people are in the comfort and adoration of the ones they love. I recieved an unexpected surprise that I had thought would never return. Pleading a pathetic case of "sorry" and "I am getting better" was all the words the woman handler could process. Again another woman fell away from him and again he comes back to me. I will not have it, I dont want it and now I am pissed off. Why cant he just fall in a hole and stay there and forget that I exsist. He blackened my eyes and tore my heart away and gave it back full of disease. And now he expects me to respect him?....FUCK THAT NOIZE! I have my heart somewhere else, and as far as I am concerned belongs there. It is this fantastic guy that kept the darker moments of today du

Sometimes Its Not Close Enough To The End
well lately life hasnt been going the greatest, yeah i have my family and my friends to talk to but sometimes that is just not enough, i want my other half, the one that completes me, the one that i can talk to every single day and i can tell him anything and he would never judge me. Sometimes i question all ive been through and all ive seen and sometimes it just seems like its not close enough to the end... they say your suposed to live life like your one day closer to death, man there are times when i feel like i could live life like tomorrow is the end.... I have these feelings That stay so deep in my heart I want to find that someone That makes them all fall apart The guy that stands beside me To wipe away the tears That make me forget what ive been through The past 21 years He holds my hand and breathes Like he can feel my pain He'd sit right beside me When i feel like sitting in the rain The guy who tells me he loves me When hes right infront of his friends The

Baby Airplanes
> Subject: Curious 5 year old > > > A mother and her 5 year old son were flying > Southwest Airlines from Kansas City to Chicago. > > The son (who had been looking out the window) turned > to his mother and asked, "If big dogs have baby dogs > and big cats have baby cats, why don't big planes > have baby planes?" > > The mother, who couldn't think of an answer, told > her son to ask the stewardess. > > So the boy walks to the galley and asks the > stewardess, "If big dogs have baby dogs and big cats > have baby cats, why don't big planes have > > baby planes?" The stewardess responded, "Did your > mother tell you to ask me?" The boy said, "Yes, she > did...." > > "Well, then, tell your mother that there are no baby > planes because Southwest always pulls out on time. > > Have your mother explain that to you."

Edgar Allen Poe The Raven
The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore-- While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. "'Tis some visiter," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door-- Only this and nothing more." Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December, And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow;--vainly I had sought to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow--sorrow for the lost Lenore-- For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore-- Nameless here for evermore. And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me--filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating "'Tis some visiter entreating entrance at my

Be Yourself
Happy Valentine's Day to everyone on Cherry Tap! Hope You all have a Valentine for this special day! Hope you all have a wonderful day. Do what your heart says and dont hold back on your dreams, no matter what anybody tells you. Today is about love and caring about that special person. So go out get crazy and just have fun tonight. All my love, Naughty Nikki

Robert Frost The Road Not Taken
Robert Frost Poetry The Road Not Taken Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference

Internet Access Problems/valentines Day
My cable/phone/internet have been out most of today due to the winter storm we had here tuesday night/wednesday morning. I shoveled what seems like 2.5 feet deep of snow out of my driveway, along with several large drifts and additional accumulation which had blown/fell by morning. Anyway, I owe a lot of people valentine messages, replys, thank yous, and am truly sorry that it's probably not going to happen today/tonight. :( I hope all of you had a very nice Valentine's Day. *hugs & kisses* Chris

Fishing...
> Subject: Pet Fish > > > A Texas redneck was stopped by a game warden in > East Texas recently with two ice chests of fish, > leaving a river well known for its fishing. The game > warden asked the man, "Do you have a license to > catch those fish?" "Naw, my friend, I ain't got no > license. These here are my pet fish." > "Pet fish?" > "Yep. Every night I take these fish down to > the river and let 'em swim' round for a while. Then > I whistle and they jump right back into this ice > chest and I take 'em home." > "That's a bunch of bull! Fish can't do > that!" > The redneck looked at the game warden for > a moment and then said, "It's the truth. I'll show > you. It really works." > "Okay, I've GOT to see this!" > The redneck poured the fish into the river > and stood and waited. After several minutes, the > game warden turned to him and said, "Well?" "Well, > what?" said the redneck. >

Cat Contest Winners
~~ Cat Contest is now closed the winners are everyone! ~~ Best Cat on CT contest! 1st Cat is...... Wins Silver Motorcycle and a Beer Keg with 5315 comments 2nd Cat is..... Wins Rolex and Beer Keg with 2117 comments 3rd Cat is...... Wins Diamond Earrings and Beer Keg with 1530 comments 4th Cat is...... Wins Platinum Cherry and Beer Keg with 500 comments 5th Cat is...... Wins Root Beer and beer keg with 219 comments 6th Cat is...... Wins Shot of Jagermeister and Beer Keg with 183 comments most comments wins! VIP & VIC gifts awarded to the winners! thanks maria

Okie Dokie
For those morons out there that want to shout box me messages calling me names. Go for it =] Just because your homosexual friend sends you to do his dirty work cause he wants you to take it in the ass is NOT MY PROBLEM. Happy valentines day. And whore stay away from me. Ilu anthony

Just Noticed...
I just noticed that I have more of my friends here that are online tonight. I guess im not the only one that thinks that today sux. i think ill look at it a different way tho because if i wasnt very single i would have spent at least $50-$100...at least. Its a wonderful day now lol. No worrying if i got a good card...no worrying if she will like the flowers...no worrying if she will like the ring/necklace/earrings that i got. Oh...one more thing i dont have to worry about...will i get laid tonight?? hahaha the answer is simple...no.... ok ok ok so much for feeling good now... damn!!! god today sux....

Hatred (part 2)
HATRED (Part 2) Satan come And take this man Far away Make him pay For all he has done Let me dance In his ashes Let me hum To his moans of pain Drops of blood Crimson Red Paint my lips Bright with life Smiling Burn by flames Singe your soul Beg and plead As the Devil Has deaf ears Just like you You evil man Nothing left But laughter Listen closely Ha Ha Ha Will forever Echo Eternally The last word Is finally Mine! Written by: Melody 2/14/07

Birthday Bash In My Girl Illusions Lounge
HEY YALL THIS IS AN INVITATION TO SMOKE E. DIGGLERA'S 30th BIRTHDAY BASH! The Official CherryTap Page of Smoke E. Digglera@ CherryTAP DATE:FEB 15th 07 TIME: ALL DAY PLACE:MY LOUNGE THIS IS LINK TO MY LOUNGE http://cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=5065

Today
Well Happy Valentine's day to everyone. Today was a great day. We had some snow then ice and pretty much couldn't go anywhere so we all spent the day in our jammies and laid around on the couch. It was awesome I love spending time with my family like this. We also napped hehe. My husband and I are not much of Valentine's day celebrators but this year he told me I could get a good camera so I am thrilled about it :). I am hoping that this weekend we can have some decent weather so I can take the kids somewhere and do something with them. They so need it. I really don't have much to do but blah blah blah cuz I am bored but I thought I would post a blog anyway. I hope everyone had a Great Day :)

Morph Contest
its called the morphing picture contest gotta get 150,000 comments to win.no exp.date winner gets a corvette or a motorcycle or a trpical vacation they get to choose and the rules are simple its gotta be a morph and you can comment on yourself.then ya go to photo and click on morph contest pic thanks tracymarie@ CherryTAP

Work
i still have more paperwork to do. My job is a substitute. I don't know where i work until they tell me. When soemone cannot come to work i get called. Could be day could be night...i don't know. This may or may not cut into my religious and social time which sucks. I still have a TB test to do and i have to turn in the bank related stuff too. This is all still a bit too stressful. I still have bank debts to worry about. I don't have to worry about the phone bill for now. Money is still an issue. Some day it won't be but i don't know when.

Happy Vd!!
Oh joy of joys it is another Valentines Day. This holiday gets on my nerves. I absoulutly hate the jewlery tv ads for VD. I mean honestly if my husband can only show me one time a year how much her loves me then we (me and him) need to have a serious one on one. Dont get me wrong I like jewelery the bling bling is nice. But in my line of work I really can not wear it. Personally the way to my goodies is through my stomach. Take me out to eat at a killer steak resturant and omg I am golden. HMMMMMM.......Meat......yummy and a couple of cold beers. Oh yea, he does that for me and yepper when we get home it is game on. Any ways Happy Valentines Day to y'all!!

Love???
What does it mean to love? I've often wondered what ppl thought love means. Today is nothing like it was years ago when love ment sacrifice and understanding. You had to give it your all to make it work. Now a days ppl give a little and expect much more. Love is not pure lust it's much more. I see couples these days with nothing to show for their hard work, but sticking together because they truely love each other...then i see couples that fight because they have nothing. I know in my life I want true love and true happiness and i'm willing to sacrifice the shirt off my back for that. Not many people out there can say that. I honestly would rather just get by and know there is someone by my side willing to work with me than have someone working against me and have lifes "pleasures". I know this probably means nothing to you (if your reading this), but today has got me thinking alot about love. What it means, and why it's so important...but everyone taking it for granted. When someone g

Your Love Life Secrets Are...
Your Love Life Secrets Are Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt. You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go. Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Metaphysical Forecast For Feb.14th-20th The Karma Of Judgement
THE KARMA OF JUDGMENT by tony mims February 14, 2007 tm@listenandbeheard.net FREE Click on Tarot Game at PlanetAUTHORity.com Thursday March 29, 2007 7-9pm Tony Mims will explore the metaphysical arts including, astrology and numerology. A personal reading is included with admission price. $10 advance reservations, $15 at the door. Limited seating. Make your reservations early. Listen & Be Heard Poetry Café Phone :707-554-4540 818 Marin Street, Downtown Vallejo CA, USA 94590 tm@listenandbeheard.net Welcome to another week of self-exploration and universal understanding. This week’s forecast of major transits began late Tuesday night when Mercury, the planet of communication and details of daily life at !0º Pisces, went retrograde. Mercury will be moving retrograde until March 7th. Whenever Mercury is retrograde you can expect disruption of schedules, travel, communications, messages, and news. Mercury retrograde’s p

Heart In A Cage
Once upon a time, my heart was in a cage. Bound up where it's every move was restricted. Each pump of the needed blood let the pain once more come to the surface. The iron bars that held it were sealed tight. There was NO room for this heart to grow. NO room for it to be free from it's former pain. Is there not someone who can break these bars? Is there not someone who can free this heart from it's prison? Is there someone, anyone, who can help this heart? My heart is longing to be loved. My heart is longing to be accepted. My heart is longing to be held. One day, the heart in a cage will break free....

Checkin In On Everyone
Hello to all my wonderful friends .. I hope youre all having a Wonderful Valentines day ..and If youre being effected by this snow storm I hope youre keeping warm and dry ..im going to take a couple of days and recoup from my wonderful stay in the hospital (Blah) .. but ill be back soon .. im making an appt with both my doc and the ortho surgeon tomorrow so .. Lets all keep our fingers crossed that ill get in there and all this shit will have been stress and well the arm will be okay ..* for those of you that dont know what the hell im talkin about I was in the hospital with some wodnerful chest pains .. queesy's and all that fun stuff .. so they did all the required tests .. and the Ol' ticker checked out Fine .. but they want me to have a full check over to make sure whats really goin on.. as for the arm .. well with all of this wonderful snow we've been having .. I took a shitter off the deck steps ( yeah go ahead and laugh I did ) and well I went one way and my arm went another ..

Happy Valentine's Day...well Sort Of
Ok, so thanks to this crapload of snow we got I didn't even get to see RJ today! I know, I know its just any other day to most, but I've always loved it. I hope we can get out by tomorrow so we can go for our romantic dinner. I think he got me something too, even though he won't tell me if he did or not! (Damn boys!) I have to give a special Valentine's Day shout out to my crazy crew though, I know we're all together at heart all the time and I'm so thankful for that! I'll have to update when I finally get my Valentine's date LOL Many Meows!

What Do You Want From Me?
As you look around this room tonight Settle in your seat and dim the lights Do you want my blood, do you want my tears What do you want from me? Should I sing until I can't sing anymore Play these strings until my fingers are raw You're so hard to please What do you want from me? Do you think that I know something you don't know What do you want from me? If I don't promise you the answers would you go What do you want from me? Should I stand out in the rain Do you want me to make a daisy chain for you I'm not the one you need What do you want from me? You can have anything you want You can drift, you can dream, even walk on water Anything you want You can own everything you see Sell your soul for complete control Is that really what you need You can lose yourself in this night See inside there is nothing to hide Turn and face the light What do you want from me?

Fire.....................
"Look at me Saving damsels and princes - Running, creating, fantastic Lone star, funny Cute, sometimes Undeniable, Step aside." The fire I burn on others: They can't believe otherwise, I scald them with it. The fire turns to a face: I quench myself With inward tears. The fire becomes a fist: Raging, ramming this simple body Into your jagged fence. My hands are raw, bleeding Smiling, I throw on bandages And go harder. Aged, I want to remember that With you, I tried.

Of All The Luck.....
WELL OF ALL THE ROTTEN SHITY LUCK I STOOD IN THERE AND BAKED THOSE 100 MOTHERFUCKIN CUPCAKES AND DIDNT IT CUM A LIL TINY BIT OF SNOW AND THEY CANCELLED SCHOOL ,......I AM NOT A HAPPY MOM....LOL.....OH BUT ITS VALENTINES DAY SO HAPPY HEARTS EVERYONE MAY CUPID STICK AN ARROW IN YOUR ASS!!!!! LOTS OF XOXOXO....OH WOW I JUST LEARNED SUMTHING IN MUMM LAND DONT BE STUPID YOU WILL GET YOUR ASS RAGED EVERYTIME! NOT ME PERSAY BUT ONE OF THE MUMMS I READ THEY WHERE REALLY GETTING THERE ASS CREAMED HAHA!! SO HOW WAS THE DAY VERY INTERESTING TO SAY THE LEAST I LEARNED VERY LITTLE LOL....BUT IM TRYING TO DECIDE IF I WILL EVER GET RID OF THIS LOUSY HEADACHE AND IT HAS COME TO ME NO I WONT EVER! WELL IM OFF HERE FOR A FEW AS ALWAYS THANKS FOR BEING A PART OF MY LIFE IM A BETTER WOMAN FOR IT A LIL MORE EVEIL BUT BETTER OFF! LOL GOODNITE!!

I Hate The Male Species! And Yes I Can Spell That Word.
Ok its final i hate guys they suck! Lol ok what would yall do if you had a guy, he sent a pic to you of a hot girl saying it was a yummy pic. Wouldnt you be upset. but then he claims he was just messing around, but this is after he said he was getting even with you for talking about your gay friend. Doesnt it sound just a wee bit jerkish to you? I have no reason to be upset? If he didnt think she was oh so "yummy" then he wouldnt be looking through her profile and pictures like he probally does all the time with these slutty looking girls on his friends list that i havent said anything about. >=(

My Grandmother
This blog is dedicated to the most wonderful woman I know. My grandmother! If there was ever a saint on this earth, my grandmother is that saint! She dedicated her whole life taking care of people. Did not matter if she knew you or not, she would help you through a tough time. She took care of our whole family and was the foundation of the family. She taught all of us how to love and to live life as a good person. I may not have followed all of her advice but she gave me the right advice on everything a person needs to know! She loved me with all of my faults and never once did she look down on me. On Feb. 8th 2007 she had a major stroke at the age of 85 years old. It is now Feb 14th 2007 and she is still holding on without any help from the doctors or a feeding tube. She did not want to live in a bed with tubes going to her. It is very hard to let go of a person that means the world to you but I know she will be going to a better place where she will have her sight back and will be ab

For Want Of You
for want of you across the distant miles turbulent oceans and foreign lands my heart has learned to fly for want of you the night becomes my ally its dark, spindly fingers pull me close to offer solace as we meet in misty dreams for want of you I cry myself to sleep with silent tears a veil-like sadness wrapped around me a prayer unanswered a longing denied for want of you I have learned to raise my eyes to see the stars and know this one thing we share for want of you I lose myself give myself offer all I am and all I might be for want of you

Part Ii
He crept in the room, not a sound was made. She’d fallen asleep on the table, her hair in her face. As he walked by, he tucked her hair behind her ear. She stirred slightly. Making his way around the table, he stroked his hand down her ass, her thigh…she sighed with content. When he reached between her lovely cheeks, finding her slit - I’ll be damned. She was even wet in her sleep! Softly stroking her sweet wet pussy, she slowly began to stir. “Wake up, cunt,” he said as he smacked her on her ass. Still stroking her wet pussy, he grabbed the back of her head by the hair. Pulling her head back, he leaned over to gently kiss her. Who was this man? Soft touches, sweet kisses…the complete opposite of the man before. With regard to the comment that is. She began to wiggle her ass, inviting Master to continue with whatever would be his pleasure. She felt him squat behind her and tried to prepare for whatever might be coming next. Softly, he slid his tongue between her w

Lost For Words
I was spending my time in the doldrums I was caught in a cauldron of hate I felt persecuted and paralyzed I thought that everything else would just wait While you are wasting your time on your enemies Engulfed in a fever of spite Beyond your tunnel vision reality fades Like Shadows into the night To martyr yourself to caution Is not going to help at all Because there'll be no safety in numbers When the Right One walks out the door Can you see your days blighted by darkness? Is it true you beat your fists on the floor? Stuck in a world of isolation While the ivy grows over the door So I open my door to my enemies And I ask could we wipe the slate clean But they tell me to plesae go fuck myself You know you just can't win PINK FLOYD

Leave It To A Marine
A Marine was deployed to Afghanistan. While he was there he received a letter from his girlfriend. In the letter she explained that she had slept with two guys while he had been gone and she wanted to break up with him. AND, she wanted pictures of herself back. So the Marine did what any squared-away Marine would do. He went around to his buddies and collected all the unwanted photos of women he could find. He then mailed about 25 pictures of women (with clothes and without) to his girlfriend with the following note: "I don't remember which one you are. Please remove yours and send the rest back...

Keep Talking
There's a silence surrounding me I can't seem to think straight I'll sit in the corner No one can bother me I think I should speak now My words won't come out right I feel like I'm drowning I'm feeling weak now But I can't show my weakness I sometimes wonder Where do we go from here (It doesn't have to be like this, all we need to do is make sure we keep talking) Why won't you talk to me You never talk to me What are you thinking What are you feeling Why won't you talk to me You never talk to me What are you thinking Where do we go from here (It doesn't have to be like this, all we need to do is make sure we keep talking) Why won't you talk to me You never talk to me What are you thinking What are you feeling Why won't you talk to me You never talk to me What are you thinking What are you feeling I feel like I'm drowning You know I can't breathe now We're going nowhere We're going nowhere PINK FLOYD

His Pain, My Sadness
I have a deep sadness that deepens everyday.. knowing he is still here, knowing he is still breathing. I pains me to think of it.. though not the pain he is forever feeling. I speak of my Grandpa. My friend. He is 76 years old and not doing too well. He has lived a long enough life, is it cruel to pray that he passes soon? I can't stand the thought of his torture. even now my eyes well up with tears.. as they have been doing for a while now. When I talk to him of course he sugar coats everything.. not to worry his "Little Lamb". I miss him so much and I wish there was something I could do for him. ANYTHING to ease his agony. Fuck I hate knowing his current state... I love him too much to .. WONT YOU TAKE HIM OUT OF THIS FORSAKEN LIFE ALREADY!? END HIS PAIN!? END HIS SUFFERING!? I BEG YOU END IT NOW! TAKE HIM HOME TODAY! Yet I want to see him one last time before he goes. He lives near Denver Colorado.. God I miss him. I last saw him in 2005. 2 fucking yea

Long Distance Valentine
here we are again facing Valentine's Day far from each other's shelter and they ask how can two be as one without ever touching but oh, my love we have touched minds hearts souls we have traveled more than most will ever have the chance for each night our spirits fly across oceans we have lain together in dreams and awoken separately with the kiss of the other still lingering on our lips we have seen deeper into ourselves than most ever dare to look for the faith we have in us comes from the most profound place inside and we live our lives together but apart with trust in the future and appreciation for the now so do not lament this Valentine's Day for cards not sent flowers not received but know instead that there is love in this world that is only for you and tomorrow will still be Valentine's Day for us

Valentine Thoughts
I am not really sure where I could start. I do know that no matter how I start, or end for that matter, I am not going to be able to fully express myself. I have always been bad at that sort of thing...but I am just going to go for it. I am kind of against Valentines day. I spent most of the day avoiding it. We watch TV in the office while we work...when something of that sort would come on, I walked out and had a cigarette. I am not really sure what it is with me lately. I was almost furious at the thought of celebrating a holiday that was made up by a greeting card company. I just don't see the point. I only got one valentine today, too. It was from a friend of mine that I used to go to high school with. Not to say that there is anything really wrong with me only getting the one...I guess this whole thing is just kind of a mixed bag for me to really process. Too many thoughts on one subject and not enough time to digest...maybe I should just go to sleep.

In A Sexret Place
Lately I've been having passionate feelings for someone I like, so I want to read poems fileld with passion. Not whimsy love poems, and not overly sexual, hardcroe erotica passionate poems. I want love, I want to feel the passion of your love for someone, it can be any kind of situation or kind of love, I just feel like I am being overwhelmed with passion. You awaken my spirit You ignite my soul I feel you scratching at the surface To my innermost being My every longing and desire Is shrouded in the mystery of you Your heated passion Is tamed by your beauty Enchanting... mesmorizing... The toll I pay in life Pains and pleasures Temporary bliss I escape to your presence To fulfillment and joy To cast off the weights of this world And find rest in mythical mists Upon dew drop waters Reflects my life with you An eternity caught in a breath This place is a secluded place Hidden in your love Am I lost Could I disappear Here where only you wo

M.i.l.f. On Ct Contest Now Open !
~ Okay Best M.I.L.F. On CT Contest ~~ I'm having a M.I.L.F. contest so i need a lot of ladys for this Winners will get 2 prizes each and everyone else will get 1 1st Person is....... with 1 comments 2nd Person is....... with 1 comments 3rd person is...... with 1 comments 4th person is...... with 1 comments 5th Person is...... with 1 comments Contest will start on the 2/16 thur 2/23 Want in send me ur pic link to my inbox. thanks maria click on pic to enter contest! Maria ~!~......Angel Family Founder~~@ CherryTAP

Everything Is Closed!
hmm and so we got hit with this horrible weather and the snow is up almost to my waist.. it was up to my knees this morning.... not comments from the peanut gallery or the land of the jolley green giants you tall people bc im on 5'2. but coming back from walmart i seen everything is closed except walmart and plaza and ironic the movie theatre... yeah hes gonna get customers...and pizza hut,who they werent stupid because all the other pizza places in town are closed. well anyways the weather is shitty here in NY so everyone else hope your valentines day went well. because we are up to our asses in snow and well today just sucked.

V Day
hope everyone has a good valintimes day, to me it is just another day for me to give my kids something special. now i hope to find me something special, or should i say someone special i guess time tells everything you all have a good one

Kenny Chesney Flip Flop Tour
This really iced my cake... Lost 2 best friends in the last 2 weeks and now Kenny isn't coming to Arizona. Oh and alone on V-day.... I wonder how much more pitiful I can get! DATE CITY VENUE 04/12/07 Omaha, NE Qwest Center 04/13/07 Des Moines, IA Wells Fargo Arena 04/14/07 Fargo, ND Fargodome 04/19/07 Greensboro, NC Greensboro Coliseum 04/20/07 Columbia, SC Colonial Center 04/21/07 Jacksonville, FL Veterans Memorial Arena 05/06/07 Indio, CA Coachella Music Festival 05/10/07 Grand Rapids, MI Van Andel Arena 05/11/07 Grand Rapids, MI Van Andel Arena 05/13/07 St. Paul, MN Xcel Energy Center 05/18/07 Columbia, MO Mizzou Arena 05/19/07 Little Rock, AR Alltel Arena 05/20/07 Lafayette, LA Cajundome 05/31/07 New Orleans, LA New Orleans Arena 06/02/07 Tampa, FL Ford Amphitheater 06/03/07 West Palm, FL Sound Advice Amphitheater 06/07/07 Columbus, OH Germain Amphitheater 06/09/07 Pittsburgh, PA Heinz Field** 06/14/07 Houston, TX Cynthia W. Mitchell Pav.

Sexuaziland
Sex will always be a problem as long as we lack a potent technology.. There will be a country named sexuaziland And it will be a nation covered with golden sand There will be a place where sex does not inspire fear And it will also be the place where people do not hunt deer It is a nation that will come When our dislike for science gets overcome In that grand nation the rule of reason will prevail And the voice of religion will no longer sail In such a place people will copulate night and day They will do it everywhere and even hanging from a stay There will no longer be taboos and sins Because progress will have put them in the dust bins In that country there will be no more abortions Because science will have assured against conceptions Technology will have finally put to rest The debate that drove people to pound their chest

Untitled No 8 ?
Some people get stood up, some people get fed up. Some thoughts are broken, like emotions beyond repair. We're all someone else, we all feel, we all hurt, we all bleed, we all want and need. We can all lie, we can all be unsure, we all die. To know something is nothing even when your sure, we all want to run, to hide, to fly, to die. Words can mean it all, or nothing at all. We can all heal, or fall. Some of us do what we do, say what we say and play for today. The unbreakable,ununderstandable, the mistaken, the broken and the fake.

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Karma.... Yeah Right!!!
OK, I've talked about my crazy neighbor before... what the F***k!!! It's been a year 1/2, the police haven't arrested her (them, her husband too), the courts keep delaying justice & she's getting nuttier by the day. She has arrest warrants for harrassment, tickets for disturbing the peace, & violated her restraining order more times that I can count. She's threatened to kill my kids, her husband violently went after my 11 yr olds son (on tape), then my husband, cusses out my kids & yet...no justice. Meanwhile we have decided to just F***ing move. Our attorney says it could cost us thousands of more to prosecute these people & when we finally do win, we may be in more danger. I was a strong believer in Karma now I just know any more. To top it off, we can't get financed for another home because of all the debt we've aquired due to attorney;s fees, vandalized property, maintaining security cameras, vet bills (she poisoned our dog), new car (she put sugar in the gas tank) & now medical b

For The Sake Of Love I Write This Today...
Forgive me if I hurt you When my temper subjugates me Forgive me if I wronged you When my wicked comes to play As my loyalty is bound to you Just loving who you are With these simple dreams I share with you Growing fervid constantly And with our promise not to stray, my love I consecrate these words to you Knowing we’ll grow better everyday ....................from me

Touch Me !
Touch me, just touch me.... The gentle graze of your hand along my cheek says so much. A simple entwining of fingers leaves lasting memories forever cherished. The sweet tenderness of your lips brushing over my delicate skin with a feather light grace sets my soul a blaze. Your shimmering sapphires, pierce me to the core revealing the vulnerability I desperately try to hide. Your words release my fears in the most caring ways; and when I fall apart you piece me back together again. Both my wounded heart and tormented soul have found comfort in the sanctuary that is you. And when my mind is spiraling and lost in a fog of painful confusion it still silently screams for the only thing that can bring it peace.. Touch me, just touch me, touch me now...

Bedroom Eyes
That Special Women. You have bedroom eyes. Perfumed ivory are your tender thighs. Teeth that bite with cherried mouth. Scottish lilt from exotic south. Sensual, sloping, feminine nose. Arching back, a feline repose. Sexy waves flash silky hair. Lingering touch with fingers fair. Toes that flower to shapely legs. Musical voice that Romeo begs. Don Juan would try to woo your bed. Heavens angel I have wed.

Ova 40's Contest Im In
OK GUYS IM IN A CONTEST EVEN THO I DONT KNOW Y I NEVA WIN LOL ITS FOR CHERRY'S OVA 40 U CAN COMMENT BOMB ME AND RATE ME SO PLEASE IF U FEEL SO RIGHTLY ABT THIS PLEASE BOMB THE HELL OUT OF ME SO I CAN FINALLY WIN SOME THING THANKS

What A Life
Ahhhhhh nothing like thinking back to being the youngest of five boys in a most disfunctional family waking up on Sunday morning wiping the sleep outta my eyes or lack of sleep outta my eyes from all the yelling that kept me up so late.I can still freshly hear the wonderful sounds of my mom calling my dad a motherfucker as he burps takes a drink and says fuck you nevertheless its morning and as i head downstairs I can still smell the scent of alcohol looming in the air.I make my way to the living room hear the clanking of empty beer bottles as my feet kick them then I step over a few mounds of dirt from some broken flower pots that i'm assuming my mom wasnt trying to water and dropped but rather toss them against my fathers head, finally making it to the kitchen i turn on the lights and as I do the roaches scatter so I race them to the pantry to beat them to the cereal.Excited as I am because one thing we had alot of even being poor was cereal and kool-aid so as I make my mind up and c

He's My Love
Every night before I rest, I see his face at its best, a smile big as day, I see it there as I lay, his eyes shining bright, sending out a subtle light, teeth so white I can see, me and him were meant to be, I close my eyes, and sleep with butterflies, I dream the night away, with images that will always stay, once I awake, theirs an extra breath that I must take, for every time I think of you, it is harder to breath the morning dew, I know I love you, and I hope you love me too, I know this is love, even when push comes to shove, no matter what I do, I will still be in love with you!

Rotfl
so i live near the projects in providence (chad brown). and on a normal night, there's... 10? 12? cop cars just - parked, sitting on the side of the road. meaning that those cops are patrolling a two or three mile radius. two per car. tonight. only five. ::smirks:: that. amuses me. :)

Happy Valentine's Day!
I figured this would probably reach all my real Friends on here easier than posting a Bulletin for everyone... But since NO Blog of mine is complete without a Rant of some sort :P I've just been going through, doing some rating for my Friends. And I have to ask.. Are ANY of the men on this site besides me ( And most likely Drunkard) actually getting Laid? I mean come ON now.. LOL. A woman shows a bit of cleavage - It's like a feeding frenzy of humorous (to ME at least) comments.. "ooh, I like that", "ooh, I'd hit that" - And others not so nice.. It's hilarious that Guys actually think that these comments are going to magically make a woman jump through the computer screen... I bet they even think such witty repartee is going to make the women leaves their Boyfriends and husbands too! Thank goodness is all I say. I am SO glad my though process starts in my BRAIN, and not significantly lower... :)

Killer In Our Midst?
THIS PERSON IS VERY DANGEROUS, I WILL ONLY POST THE USER COMMENT AND EMAIL FROM TODAYA USER COMMENT FROM WTF (THE PERSON WHO WANTS TO KIComments on Tom and Jami: > > WTF!!! > > 2007-2-14 15:57:2 > > YOU R NOT THE CENTER OF MY UNIVERSE MORE LIKE THE SCUM!!!!NOT EVEN SCUM....FROM THE WAY YOU ARE ACTING I WOULD HAVE TO SAY THAT WHAT WAS SENT TO ME THAT I POSTED IN A BLOG IS TRU!!!GOD HAVE MERCY ON YOUR SOUL!!! > > > > ALSO AN E-MAIL > > > > ISSUES MUCH!!! I AM PRETTY SURE YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHO I AM AND I AM PRETTY SURE I WAS THE ONE WHO ASKED YOU ABOUT YOUR BULLSHIT. BESIDES NOW I KNOW THAT YOU DID DO THOSE THINGS BUT THATS ALL RIGHT THOUGH CAUSE YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHEN OR WHERE I AM JUST KNOW THAT OUR PATHS WILL CROSS!!! I JUST FOUND OUT WHO IT IS, AND HIS NAME IS HEY YOU AWAKE

Valentine's :(
Valentine's is suppose to be one of the happiest day's in any relationship. Well. To me, Valentine's isn't worth much with out the one you truely love next to you. Although I did get to speak with him for about 6 hours today, it was still pretty depressing. Welcome to my life. Yeah, I am a strong woman, deep inside. Yet, that doesn't really matter today. I have done my best to be strong for my husband, but he can still tell the difference. So much to be said, in so little time. It's amazing how you can miss one person so much, and not know it till that person is over a thousand miles away. Especially on any Holiday or special occasion. As you know, I have posted the link's of what I have recieved from him today. Although wishing he didn't go off and spend all that money on me just for one day isn't unusual. He say's that I am way to spoiled, but look what he does. I am not complaining. I know he does that because he love's me to death. I just wished he could have been here with me tod

Sex Not In The City
Ok so im banging this chic in a car in a school parking lot late at night next thing I see is a bright light, I thought either she has the whitest ass in the world or it's the cops, well come to find out she tans naked and it was a police officer.In full humping motion i'm asked by the officer to step out the car I told him in a shaky tone i'm cummin!! he said ok little did he know I was really cumming full out orgasm.Needless to say i was charged with disorderly conduct not by my sexual performance mind you but I guess fucking in empty parking lots is offensive, so once in court the judge asked what I was thinking to do such a thing I told him I was an alcosexamaholic he said and whats that?I replied i drink till i'm fucked sir but realized that wasn't the right thing to say to the judge so I decided to plead the fifth and wondered if I pleaded the fifth would he know i've been drinking.

So Upset:(
i am real good friends with this guy.. jaymac.. omg this man is freaking amazing.. my year was arough year with everything majorly.. and this man means the world to me.. it is hurting me now trying to fight tears because i am soon to lose the best thing i had here in nj.. i will never see him again it kills me.. i wish the best for him when he goes to turkey.. not one day will go by that i dont think about him. i guess when you deal with military you are bound to lose the ones you love. yes i love this man as a friend nothing more.. because he was there no matter what.. my text messaging will never be the same.. i try to write this i got this lump feeling in my throat..hmmm.. ill miss you jaymac

Last Dance
"Love is like a river that flows through your soul, caressing the banks, cascading over stones, unhampered by a fallen tree, rolling gently out to sea...unconditionally." ________________________________________ He asked again if I love him... as his tears enunciated the spaces and time ... the distance in between this slow dance of togetherness, this rare and elusive betrothal of heart and soul, man to woman. Does he realize I can refuse him nothing this spirit kindred so undeniable I have found with a love so profound it pales in the simile of the sunshine that will grace tomorrow’s sands? He asks if I want him, in pleading tones recollected as I walk this nightly path, a rehearsal in silent ballet with his spirit, heart spiraling through stolen moments in preparation for the next entrechat. Oh muse

Tears
So tired of being strong So tired of trying not to cry So tired of holding it all together I cant do it anymore! Its time to break down Its time to let it all out Its time to let the tears fall! Erin Francis Valentines Day 2007

Family Fuckin Entertainment
The not so wonderful Wizard of Oz Current mood: giddy Ok i hate to have to ruin every girls thought of the Wizard of Oz but fuck it I gotta tell it the way a guy would be thinking it, and im just the right guy to tell it.So to put it simple why would three guys with one girl be looking for a brain, heart and courage when I know they would be trying to get that pussy.I mean come on ladies you know a guy dont need brains to fuck are dicks do the thinking by then and a heart you definately know we dont have to love you to fuck you and lastly courage haaa i mean come on its only pussy dont be scuuuuuured.Let it be known that next time you come across munchkin land ask to see the wizard the wonderful wizard of cock.

Lost At Sea
Red lipstick covers my face. Purchased a ticket for a free ride from the human race. Her lace costs nothing but a promise of passionate hips. She has a face that could launch a thousand lips. A lady Godiva, a leader of class, she is like a raging oceans tempest loch. My body''s her rocky beaches, my love is her tidal clock. Like a hungry piranha''s shock, she tears my flesh, gorging herself on my loving lift. A winter storms envelopes her body, as white snow blows, but her hot warming spine sizzles my drift. Surf goes up as we ride her rolling waves; my ships sextant goes in all four corners of her trade winds. Her Sun and Moon soon dispels any notion of stopping earths spell, for she has Gia’s taunt spine , loaded with curving petals that grinds. Blinding me to an unsettling swell, my heart pounds in painful pleasures death nell. Lost

In Silence
In the candle's gentle glow, I lay with my head on your chest. Words go unspoken, and I hear nothing, Except the beat of your heart in the silence. And there's a notion that I get, As you idly stroke my hair, That time is crawling by, If only for us two here, Stopping completely as our eyes meet. Your eyes shine brighter now, And I see everything just for me. I wonder if you always knew somehow, That look could bring me to my knees. But no, I can't be that transparent. Though here in the fading twilight, I wonder if you can see right through me. Because now, I'm not hiding anything. With a peace I haven't known in years, I bare my soul for only you, Content just to have you here. The moon shines bright outside your window, Making ours a world apart. Your gentle smile puts me at ease, As I fall asleep to the beat of your heart.

Haters And Other Bs
I AM SO SICK OF THE "GROWNUPS" ON HERE ACTING LIKE WE ARE STILL IN JUNIOR HIGH. GO TO MYSPACE IT WILL BE MORE YOUR SPEED. I AM NOT GOING TO MENTION NAMES, YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE BUT WHY DO YOU FIND SOMETHING AND PEOPLE TRUST ME IT DOESN'T MATTER WHO OR WHAT IT IS AS LONG AS IT GIVES THEIR BORING LIVES SOME MEANING. SO I GUESS WHAT I AM SAYING IS THAT I WAS TOLD BY CT TODAY TO HANDLE THINGS MYSELF AND I HAVE BEEN REAL FUCKING NICE SO FAR BUT THAT IS OVER, SO IF YOU HAVE PISSED ME OFF AND AGAIN YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, WATCH YOUR BACK ITS ON. STOP PICKING ON NEW PEOPLE TOO CAUSE I WILL WATCH THEIR BACKS, ESSENTIALLY WHAT THIS BLOG IS FOR IS TO TELL YOU PEOPLE AND EVEN THOUGH THERE ARE JUST A FEW FUCK OFF, GO TO HELL AND LEAVE ME ALONE. IT IS WONDERFUL TO BE THE CENTER OF YOUR UNIVERSE AND I KNOW BAD PUBLICITY IS BETTER THAN NONE BUT I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO. SO KEEP BOYCOTTING MY HAPPY HOURS AND WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. BY THE WAY MY HAPPY HOURS HAVE BEEN UNCHANGED BY THESE ASSHATS. S

Valentines Day
I want to wish all the people on my friends, fans and family list's a HAPPY VALENTINES DAY Wether you with the one you love or not i hope everyone at least got a little ray of sunshine today from an admirer. Love ya all.

Lustfull Eyes
Lustful eyes transversely scan the scene… Sight yearns for me undesired I have the one that I love… Through the temptations strong Envious lens reflect clear egotistic wants… My body language disapproves Conflicting communications in the dance… Red eyes are jealous as usual Shameless heart targets me… While I insist on my lover’s lips Eyes brazenly emerged determined to rule… In the absence of no subject Aching tears of crocodile proportion… Hopelessly performing for wholesome fantasy Tender innocence falsely on display… Jealous heart about to deservingly break Waltzing indisputably with my other half… Disco lights jazz above rejoice Devilish eyes hopelessly departed… Never to appear imposingly disruptive

To My Special Lady
Just Because You Touched me. Just because you touched me I will never be the same. Just because you touched me my new mantra is your name, A name I gently whisper in a never ending prayer, And try to find the words to tell you just how much I care. Just because you touched me I’m a different man inside. I’ve found the kind of happiness I’ve always been denied, And just because you touched me I’m the luckiest of men, Because you felt me love you and I know we’ll touch again. Reaching me in places that were never touched before. My heart was cold and closed but you have opened up the door, And just because you touched me such a light is shining through. It only took that touch to make me so in love with you. Just because you touched me, as I felt your loving hand I knew that there was someone out there who could understand. And just because you gave to me the greatest love I know That I’ll be always touching you wherever I may go. Just because

Valentine's Day Poem
Hearts and roes's and kisses galore what the hell is all that crap for? people get mushy and start acting queer, it's definitely the most annoying day of the year this day needs to get the hell over with and pass, before i shove something up cupid's ass. i'll spend the day so drunk i can't speak and wear black for the rest of the week. guys act all sweet but soon it will fade, for all the are doing is trying to get laid. the arrow cupid shot at me must not have hit. cause i think this love thing is a crock of shit. so hear's my story... what else can i say? love bites my ass... screw valentine's day!!

Give Unto Me
I’ve been wishing for someone As I stared at a falling star Tonight Give unto me The taste of love Give unto me The feeling of true passion This is all I ask Before I fade into the shadows Once more All I want is for someone to love me Will someone save me From the dark and bring an end To this morbid fairytale ? Give unto me The taste of love Give unto me The feeling of true passion This is all I ask Before I fade into the shadows Once more Please hear the plea … of my bleeding heart Please wake me up From my poisoned dreams Of romance Give unto me The taste of love Give unto me The feeling of true passion This is all I ask Before I fade into the shadows Once more

The Pa Snow Law And My Ratio Plan . . .
For those of us who live in the fine Commonwealth of Pennsylvania (*clears throat*), you may be aware that the law makers recently enacted some sort of new fanangled "Snow Law" that states that you have to have your car completely free of any snow and ice before you drive on the road. You can be fined for this if pulled over - and the police do not have to pull you over for another infraction. They say that snow flying off of vehicles causes accidents. Now, originally, I was, needless to say, LIVID about this. Not only is it an outright stupid law, but if my tax dollars are being spent paying friggin mororns to pass laws regarding snow on cars, I am going to stop paying taxes until the legislators of this state can prove to me that they spend one single moment during the day being sensibly productive. Then, I started concocting several plans of "attck" in my mind - from writing letters to my elected officials demanding them pay for every single resident of this Commonwealth

Indulging Geeess
I am blogging this to humour my good friend Gee.. cos I love him so... 1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. What does it say? "Fucking" is not a four letter word. It's..it's a seven letter word. Isn't that your lucky number? from The Wasp Factory by Iain Banks. 2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What's there? Seph.. he is at arms length because i am a bit guffy. 3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? Celebrity Uncensored or summat like that. 4. Close your eyes really tight. What do you see? Blackness 5. Grey hair - Distinguished or "not a good look" - It depends whether you are sporting the salt n pepper look or the mad wizard look really. 6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Seph's X box game.. I think it is Lord of the Rings.. i hear Orcs! 7. Have you ever wished you could be somewhere else? Yep.. when my kids tell their teachers personal issues about me in front of

Sexiest Butt Contest
Okay, I'm running a little behind in the contest. Thanks to All who have commented and helped me out! For those of you that haven't commented on me yet... SHAME ON YOU!!! I really do appreciate all that you can do! Click on the picture below to go to the contest. Click ^^^^^ Here to go to the contest!!!

Rip Cherry Tap Member
http://cherrytap.com/user/570113 THIS IS ONE OF MY GOOD FRIENDS THAT DIED OF OVARIAN CANCER AND SHE WILL BE MISSED BY US ALL SHE WAS A LOVING AND CARING PERSON I HAVE LOST A GREAT FRIEND SO IF U COULD REPOST AND SEND SOME LOVE THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS For one week of my life, I was touched by a pure love. A love that came from a friend that would steal my heart. To this day there is a hole in my heart. A spot I had reserved for her, she wiggled her way into my life, and I was willing to let her in. But today things are a little less brighter, a little less happier. I lost my friend, my soul mate, my happiness. I am saddened to learn that she has passed away, and I am angered that this world has lost yet another beautiful soul. But she is in a better place now, with no wars, no poverty, no prejudice. I wish I could join her, but I can't so all I have are memories......one week of my life. I love you Ashley Rest in Peace. (repost of o

Surreal Life
If you told me last summer that I'd meet a man who's stolen my heart and taken my hand I'd tell you you're crazy and that I'm no fool But I saw that man And tried to keep cool He was handsome and funny And perfect for me I couldn't resist him And neither could he More than a year's passed Since we met that first day And he gave my life color in this world filled with grey No words could explain the love that I feel for it dwells in my heart and makes life surreal

M.l.i.f. Contest Now Open!
~ Okay Best M.I.L.F. On CT Contest ~~ I'm having a M.I.L.F. contest so i need a lot of ladys for this Winners will get 2 prizes each and everyone else will get 1 1st Person is....... with 1 comments 2nd Person is....... with 1 comments 3rd person is...... with 1 comments 4th person is...... with 1 comments Contest will start on the 2/16 thur 2/23 Want in send me ur pic link to my inbox. thanks maria click on pic to enter contest! Maria ~!~......Angel Family Founder~~@ CherryTAP

A Breath Away
When you are a breath away. Tingling shivers, emotions flow as rivers, uncontrollable. Heart stops, skips, hurts, cannot assert, will. Tongue, silent, can't form words in storm, of desire. Knees weakening under stress, wanting to possess, you. Thoughts lost, obscure, cannot endure, confusion. Sweet misery is calling, sirens enthralling, me. When you are a breath away. Push away, or take to breast, give me rest, in you. But not, Just a breath away.

You Are
You are my heart, my hope, my help, The passion that is me, The whole of which I am a part, My peace, my ecstasy. You are my future, present, past, My ship, my sail, my ocean, The wind that brings me home again, The home for every motion. You live within me, yet I am Without you all alone. With you I am full of light; Without you I am stone. Is this foolish? Yes, perhaps, But also it is true. I think of life as something I Can spend with only you. Ah, my love! Love longs for such Sweet celebrants as this! Love is a burden and a joy, Slavery and bliss. This day of love come love with me, Come sing with me my song. Come be my Valentine, and I Will love you my life long, my love, Will love you my life long.

Confused
First let me start by saying I wish I could figure out how to write something on my profile..Then I would like to say thank you to all the nice ppl that welcomed me here.. You have all been warm and friendly, and if I have not replied, it is because I have no idea what I am doing... With that out of the way may I add, I am just coming out of a relationship that really broke my heart.. I for sure loved the guy, but am now realizing it was never meant to be.. Until yesterday I had hoped that things would turn around, but I am facing the reality of it.. I don't want to become hard or cynical and will never give up on love and that is why I am here.. To meet new and exciting people and hope for the best.. As they say off with the old and on with the new.. Thanks everyone Lolly

Snowed In
Damn, we got 15" of snow here!! I posted some pics in the "SNOW" folder if anyone wants to see. The city I live in is so awesome that they haven't even plowed my street once yet - gotta love it!!! Oh well, snowed in on Valentine's, I guess it could be worse!

Supporting A Friend
Ok..so I like to go out and have a good time once in a while. However, my best friend of 21 years recently came out of rehab for alcohol addiction. I've been nothing but supportive of her decision and have even attended a number of AA meetings with her. Last weekend I decided to go out with a few other friends and have a good time. Although I felt a bit bad being out and having a good time without her I found no reason to not go out and enjoy myself, I'm not the one with the problem. Well it has now been 7 days since my best friend has talked to me because I went out. So now I feel guilty and have the feeling that I've somehow lost my best friend. But as I've said I'm not the one with the problem and I still have nothing but support for her. Now I'm lost and not sure whether I should feel guilty or just let the whole thing blow over. Any suggestions would help cuz now I feel I need some support.

A Witches Poem
A witches poem Down the pathway Deep in the woods… There are two witches Evil and good As I arrive closer I hear their chatter As their arms rise higher Their voices get louder They call on their gods They call on their goddess They call on their sisters From up above… The burning of the fire I now can see clear With spirits among them I feel no fear…. The sacred ground I will take my stand For I will be The power of three… For we are here And we are near Till the end Of eternity…

Trust
I hate that I find it so hard to trust anymore. i hate that I second guess everything. I hate the fact that I really like this guy and I prolly am fooling myself again. I hate that my jealousy is controling how I think, and I hate that my insecurities are ruling my brain. I hate that it may turn out to be right. Does this mean I am a self fulling prophecy or my instints are really good?? I wish I knew??? I hate the fact that I like him so much. And that if he is playing with me, that it will hurt like hell again. God I would just love to live without that feeling of pain for awhile. But im starting to wonder if Alex has the right idea. Cut everything out and let nothing in and u cant be hurt.

Happy Valentine's Day, Everyone!
Just wanted to wish all my friends/family/fans and past life companions (Did I forget anyone?!)a Happy Valentine's Day! Hope everyone has a wonderful night! Had a rather long day at work and just got home. Nice to have more clients coming through the door, lol! Again, have a wonderful evening, everyone! Much love and warm hugs to each and every one of you!! Blessings all over the place!

The Twins Of Kane – Genesis 1.1
The time has come for me to say good bye officially to CherryTAP. I was thinking about it all and realistically this place is just not right for me, and I am going to be leaving for good. It’s silly to stick around realistically and I have decided that it is best to just delete any account I have on any site so that nobody is left wondering when is he coming back? The answer will obviously be never. I decided since I was leaving though I might as well spell it out exactly for anyone that thought I was a bit to vague the last time. Like a lot of morons I spent a lot of money on this site in blasts, a couple of happy hours, VIC, and spent countless hours of time doing my thing around here and thinking that I could be a power of example in some regards, and I am sure that I have. You just never feel like anything is worth it and it leaves a bad taste in your mouth actually. The popular people here are some of the most deplorable human beings I have ever had the opportunity to even have t

Today Is Not Happy
Its valentines day and a few very few people have told me happy valentines day.Guess what?ITS NOT!!!!!!! I am still mourning my grandmom and it is the one year anniversary of the day I had a miscarriage.What is so happy about that?Plus the guy I have been in love with broke up with me yeasterday.No one has giving me any valentines gifts except for one person.Thanks shmoo your a sweetie for that.So no nothing very happy about today.

Happy Valentine's Day :)
So this is what happens in my household...when i didn't drink the night before..and the cable is out.. stuffed mushrooms chocolate chip cookies blueberry muffins home made guac spanish rice home made chicken cheese peppers, onion..flautas :D now a romantic night watching Jackass part two while getting buzzed wootwhoot flowers are so overrated ^_^

For Our Soldier’s
For our Soldier’s The flag flies high With pride in the sky As they fight for our rights And freedom for all We shed our tears For those so dear For a safe return In the future so near Hand in hand As the tears fall We must take our stand For this is our land They stand proud and tall Their courageous and brave They protect us all From others evil ways So for all the prayers That we say Burn a white candle To help protect them in every way Pass this on If you wish For a Soldier’s family Is easy to miss

The Flower Of Your Name
I’m thinking about you In a different way Nothing specific Just everything I cannot help But notice The effect of your Affection When it all gets Confusing You send a Suggestion You are already Within me I felt you beam your Way in I was not trying To fight you I like you under My skin A tailored soul Well accessorized Looks elegant Next to mine So draw The curtains Until you’re Certain Get your goodbyes Memorized

Sunsets And Lovers
Sunsets and lovers As the sky grows dim The colors start to stream In different shades and dreams For two lovers so far apart Yet so close through the heart The night is just begining Their love always in the making For romance is starting to brew For two lovers over due So far apart to feel the touch Though in their mind They stand hand in hand Their eyes will meet As the sunset completes

Up On Toproof Of .....
You sneezed like a drunken trombone shouting loud Creator’s name and my heart, my poor foolish kite-flying tambourine of a heart thought you were singing sonnets. So I danced. On our mattress. Until the bed splintered like wood for kindling Gnostic joy. You turned emerald inside a dream and your hair smiled across my face like a perfumed sonata sprinkling piano dust over the ocean. Thus I woke and screamed, “Look! Look! Winter at last is dead and gone!” Naked I ran through moonfire and broke frozen ground that I might sow seeds of fleshy bliss and watch them blossom tributes to the lyrical rose of your beauty. Naked I nibbled your thorns to their quaking core. But what is this sweet annihilation of all sense and sensibility each time love flies through the door of my heart’s mud-and-stick palace? What is this slow blue dream of

The Forgotten Ones
THE FORGOTTEN ONES The forgotten one is always alone we are used and mentally abused No one cares no one dares to carry the pain that runs through the veins of the forgotten ones We only exist when your in need then in the end we don’t exist When weeks go by without a word when you know you are the forgotten one We are far and near we are every where In this world we will remain and carry the pain for we are the forgotten ones When we are gone from this world you will be alone to carry the pain for the forgotten one

When You Are Alone
When you are alone When you are alone No one seems to care Some sit and cry Wishing you were there When you are not alone And every one is there Deep down inside You still feel alone When family turns away And friends move away The times only get harder For those they left alone When you feel alone With every one there What else can you do Except sit and be alone In this tiny world Where no one seems to care I hide in this tiny shell Till some one wants to care All though there’s a few I know that really cares They hide their feelings very well And that’s so hard to bare So if you always feel alone I know how you feel Cause I have been there For several years

Dark And Lonely World
Dark and Lonely World In this world of mine I’m left so far behind With all the pain and sorrow It feels like no tomorrow Life is so unfair When no one seems to care No matter what they say It seems untrue today As I sit and cry I start to wonder why It feels like no tomorrow For today is creeping by I sit under the weeping willow With all the pain and sorrow Hoping one day soon I’ll be where I belong I know where I belong I see it in my mind I know I’ll be there soon In this world of mine Cause all you’ll ever see Is all the love you’ll need Feel free to come and join me In this world of mine

Second Day Without A Fag!!!!
Well this is my second day without smoking and its driving me nuts, I was okay when i am at work but when i come home its pure torture even with the patches, i keep reaching out to grab the cigarette papers to make myself a smoke and then realising I am not supposed to be doing this anymore. I think thats the hardest part, also I just want to eat more as well its a good job there is no food in the house or I could be the size of a three bedroom semi detached house by the end of the week. I managed to avoid all the usual Valentines day shite or so I thought, the other half looked at me this morning and said "that's seven years then" I am so glad he aint one of these romantic bastards, his sarcasm is quite refreshing at times although it did take me ages to get used to it and realise also that he just cant help himself hahahahahaha we live and learn and rock and roll

My Broken Heart Can Never Be Mended
I gave you my heart, I hoped you would give me yours, I fell in love, I hoped you would love me too. I am letting you go, Because of what I was told, If you let something go, If It comes back to you it is truely yours. My heart is breaking, I feel I could cry a thousand tears, I don't think you even care, Now my life is meaningless. Happy Fucking Valentines Day!