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Too Far
You pushed me today… you pushed me too far.I feel the rage running down my arms.My fingers turn into fits as the fire starts.As you yell at me the fire spreads.If you keep this up your going to be dead.You push me again this time to the floor.I feel the anger taking control.I can feel the fire spreading to my eyes.I start to get up you just push me back down.Then you start feeling your self falling to the ground.As I swing with my left then swing with my right.You will never forget the day you picked this fight…..and pushed me too far.
As I Wake
I wake from my slumber and look around in a dazeAs the fog in my mind starts to clearI notice I am not alone; I see long black hair drifting in my faceAs the wind drifts through my window;Teasing me with her sweet fragranceAs the spring sun starts to warm my body,As i stare into the sky the clouds souround me with tranquility;I start to feel content and happyI realize I have something everyone wants and fears,I am not alone
Its Not..
Its not who you say you are or pretend to beIt’s the real you that shines through for me to seeIt’s the way your smile shines through the darkness people seeI find the real you piece by piece and day by dayIt makes them look like fools when they guess who you areI can’t wait till I fully know who you really are
The world around me just won’t stop spinning.It’s like a roller coaster that just wont give.I see my life and dreams go flying by and it makes me sickSo many things I haven’t done and so many people I haven’t metMy life spins, spins out of control;And all I do is nod and take a drinkI have thoughts of the love I have never felt;And the dreams I never livedWhy didn’t you stop me stop and take the keys?Why did I have that last drink?You should have said no and taken the keys;You should have saved my life but you didn’tNow as a lay here in the ditch see my life flow past my eyes;I can see the lights coming closer as it all fades awayAs I lay here all I can think of is the life I never lived and the dreams I lived had.
Mountain Dew and Mentos Cigarettes and the Alphabet Street lights and Bar fights Fast cars and fun shaped scars Bikes with no brakes and staying up late These are a few of my favorite things. Sleep beckons me. And I worship nicotine. He never believed in me. I was stupid and couldn't see. Love is a fucking disease. I never asked for your pity. I'll chalk it up to bad taste. First tries are always a waste. What's Life but an evolved childhood game? So what if I'm not straight edge? My braids still fall the same.
Stars I Can Reach.
What I would do to be known for Epigrams I want so badly, (more than you’ll ever know) To be clever. I have no notoriety to speak of They call me Anomy Go ahead on with your third degree I stopped listening In the first degree I wear titles like scarlet letters For the world to see “Aggressive” “amorous” “vicious little violent girl” Oh she could have been so great If only she weren’t so full of rage This analgesia has me begging to feel Anything will due, it doesn't have to be real.
Experience Of How Childhood Pain Has Impacted My Life
The purpose of this poem is related to my own life and how there was a girl trapped inside and noone knew how a Grown woman held somuch hurt and pain inside. So here is a poem from that inner voice inside that was never heard. The title plays along with it becauseso many people have said that they know what I went thru and my response is " Can you?! Thru my EyEs! Noone can ever see 100% all the things thatyou have went thru in LiFe..."CAN YOU? THRU MY EYES"    For so long I have felt like a stranger hidden in disguiseCan you figure me out by glaring into my brown eyes?    Tell me what my soul has thirsted for in the past years?Can you total up yesterday's painful grieving tears?    I'm trapped inside a cold dark world of durange madness.Can you please help me to understand why all the sadness    Thru my eyes is a lost child reaching for the divine lightCan you see the helpless child inside of me triin hard to fight?    Time keeps slipping and no one can hear little girl cryCan yo
All The Oreos Were Gone
and boy was I mad...   I’ve never been that good at kicking habits. I always wished I was. The silly boys are banging down the bathroom door, and like all the times before it’s a mistake. I'm a waste- not worth the time to save. In my dreams all the girls had hairy legs and they looked at ME like I was crazy… as I whispered about lies. The boys all wore the same clothes from the same wardrobe in the courtroom. The judge was on about delinquents and keeping them under control. She looked angrily at me. And all the boys, they had red hair All I could think was that it wasn’t fair, I desperately wanted red hair. Lately I’ve been leaving pennies heads up on the street. Maybe someone will find them… and have better luck than me. My notebooks are getting full with ideas never fully thought out. I’m thinking about setting fire to them… Say goodbye... Watch my dreams all up in flames. It will be beautiful. "All prettied up and no pla
Within Temptation-memories
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The Truth About This Piece Of Shit Site
Its time this site has been expose for what it really is, a slutfest full of things who, despite being married, post slutty pictures for the world to see. Now the "things" i am refering to are you people, which in my eyes are nothing but things. this morning i removed everyone from my friends list and defaned everyone i was a fan of, because none of you things are worthy of being called a friend, you're all just a bunch of sluts and fags who believe in a bunch of crap that some idiot thought up and made into a so called religion. WHY DONT YOU LOSERS TURN OFF YOUR COMPUTERS AND GO OUTSIDE INTO THE REAL WORLD. GET A JOB AND MOVE OUT OF YOUR MOM'S HOUSE, THAT'S NOT ATTRACTIVE!!!
Blocked....again Ha Ha
About a week ago Kyle asked me to give him the block link to a certain user. I did that. I asked him about it and he said that the guy would come to his page every day and rate him a 1, but he couldn't do anything because he was blocked. More on this whole tool tip thing in a few. Needless to say I give the guy a piece of my mind in a profile comment. He has his profile set on comment approval so I know it didn't get posted. I just wanted to vent and I did. He FINALLY came back and rated me a 1. I'd thank him for the points, but I can' He's such a douche.   Now on to the tooltip thing. Why is it that if someone has you blocked, you can't see their tool tip? Now anyone can block you and stalk you and you are left to do NOTHING. If you want to block them, you have to have a friend go and get the block link for you. The thing sucks. I don't really want people to know when I block someone. It's not their business. Now it has to be. More people tend to ask WHY than to mind thei
I stare at the stop sign and think Of absolutely nothing. You never could have stopped me. I went to The Studio and watched him get “Save Me” tattooed on his wrist. I’ll admit that it was beautiful. I know that it’s me that needs saving now. The oblivion has never been so peaceful. This sickness has never been so sweet. I tell myself that (in the end) it will be alright. I scratch my face until it bleeds. Pull my hair and scream. I am completely rediculous. Imagine me still caring. Imagine me free of this hate. Do you miss me now? I love you more than… ego suicide. The poison that fills my mind, is no comparison to what fills my stomach. I pull the trigger on my dollar store gun. Oh, how I wish it was loaded. I wanna be a cowboy… but I’ve got no hat. I aim to kiss and miss. Hit your lips and this… is a mistake. Boys think twice about a girl so nice. Chucks don’t do so well in the snow. If I wanted to fall asleep alone, I woul
Alive By Default
Kicking kittens is probably the best thing to ever happen to me. Pull back. Release. And the rage is gone. Destroy the innocent. I fall to the ground and the grass stains my jeans. I think for a few moments about strippers and how I’m never on time. I realize that I can’t speak. There is no defense. And my mind is weak. Going home to pour myself a pot of coffee. And do my hair all up with a can of hairspray. It still doesn’t look as good as yours. I smoke a pack and forget- that I seek to destroy. I dress myself in plaid, and fall down the staircase. I’m up and I’m a lush. Blinds cover my eyes, and I’m really only hiding from myself. I draw pretty zombies in pencil. And ramble on the phone for hours. I just don’t want to be alone. My art history book makes good fire. And I don’t want to get out anyways. I’m a bit of a pyro and I will die happy. Up. In. Flames.
12 Step/they Are Calling Me Miss September
Mother told me I have to marry an Indian. To carry on the bloodline. I sighed and stood in front of the silverware drawer. I spent an hour holding a KFC spork, Trying to figure out if it went with the forks or spoons. Giving up was easy. I use to idolize quitters. They had the ability to just Let. Things. Go. I don’t remember how this started. But I know this is where it ends. Wave goodbye to lost loves and fits of lust. If. I. Can. Lets play Confession. My name is Tarin and I have substance abuse problems. I will do anything, so that I don’t feel empty. I love someone but can't tell them. Sobriety is my hell. Sleeping alone makes me cry. I am terrified to manatees. I act childishly to avoid reality. They say admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery. I’m waiting.
I think they broke apart my mind, They just wanted to see what was inside. They wanted to know if fairy tales were true Or if they were poorly constructed lies, told to pass the time. And I told him I was trying to write a catchy pop song about failure and hate and sodomy. I don’t think he believed me. But I looked him dead in the eye. And pinky promised. I told my 8 year old sister I was a raging alcoholic. And she told me that god didn’t like me anymore. And then she cried for me. For my fury, for my weakness. Staying up till 5 am only feels right with Dyllon. When we’re watching Thumbalina And imagining that tiny, tiny girl trying to fuck that thumb. That had us rolling for like a half hour.
It's Not Over Yet.
I have a sick desire To destroy everyone who I’ve ever thought of admiring. To make them less than me. Because in the end I know That of the three words that could heal me, You would only speak two. I will do my time, I know I deserve this punishment. And another day passes that I don’t feel like I know I should. I’m far too young to feel so much pain. Growing old doesn’t seem like such a shame Anymore… Falling asleep on hard floors Clutching whatever happens to be near. It’s the perfect entertainment Watching a lost girl fall to pieces. Tears never stop falling from hallow eyes. Kiss me just once On the face like a person. When you are afraid of everything Life seems like such a waste.
Sometimes I feel like I’m swimming in misery… And drowning in remorse. His heart is broken he swears as he holds his arms out Begging me to fall into them. And I just…can’t. The only things that hold me are my mistakes. They cradle me, like a mother cradles her baby. And I apologize to him with words that come from the clouds. We’ve been stuck here for so long… Me pleading my case and him begging for more. I have dreams of being a star(fucker) To be appreciated for an hour To be remembered for a good time. I will have my cake and eat it too I want to bask in my own (alter)ego To be a glorified (pain)slut Today they told me I am crazy In whispers barely audible Like they were afraid of what I might do I screamed                                                   I KNOW
Drama Mama [deathcab To Kill Me]
Breathe child, you are free of hate. And I envy you. I want to bash you to sleep And steal your peace. For I am weak and there is no rest for the wicked. As a child the life was bludgeoned from my being. All that I have left is a shell. Love me not, for I will destroy you. I know this and I hold this fact dear. I enjoy knowing I will be alone at the time of my demise. Singing suicide hymns for no one to hear. It’s alright now. Basking in the glory of my defeat… Cause darling, it’s all that I have left now. And secretly, subconsciously I think, I wish for nothing more than to grab your hand And pull you into the abyss with me. And for you to fill this emptiness that is no longer a part of me. It IS me.
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Violate This.
I hope you can hear my screams now… Because they are deafening. This is for you. My throat is raw and I’m begging for more. There is no happy ending, and no savoir. And this is alright with me. I will float through life, with a smile, knowing that this is the longest chapter… The last inning, and the final round. And it will continue forever.   I know that you’re watching me with paranoid eyes Whispering into my ears those paranoid lies Oh, you don’t have to… I know now that asphyxiation is beautiful That I call you Nightmare but you are really my fantasy The sun is bleeding red and lust can’t save me now I wish that you could steal me away And we could live like a fairy tale… But hunny, fairy tales aren’t real. Dreams come with cracks in them And stars fall from the sky. I have kissed the lips of hypocrisy And held the hands of my mistakes… I won’t miss you now.
I Thought This Was Really Awesome
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See You Next Sunday.
The bittersweet aftertaste Of cocaine and sex. Stumble from the back pew Smear the blood across your face. Find a place to put the shame Maybe between your little whore legs. See you next Sunday.
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So foul and fair a day I have not seen.  -  William Shakespeare
Do you hate me now? The answer is in the question. You always hated how I spoke in riddles And I did it for that reason. You're wishing for my death now I hear, And I'm living just to spite you. I lie about who I am now So I can say I'm just like you. I called you up the other day I knew you would answer, you haven't changed. It's kinda like a slap in the face knowing I'm not the same. Reality is like a head on collision When karma comes back three fold. Vengence is beautiful And I'm thriving on the lies you told. I'm just like you now Gnawing on the hand that fed. Slowly but surely You'll choke on the words you've said.
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Something Catchy.
It’s hard to explain The feeling I got as his voice began to waver. Like the first cigarette in the morning. Like the anticipation before a car crash. Something like the build up to sexual climax. Blood flowing from my veins, And the first rush of a high. A needle piercing my skin, Like watching something beautiful go up in flames. All these things that…things that I love. And as he begins to sob…I cum.
I Haven't Heard One Thing You Have Said;
the whole time you were talking I was too busy picturing you dead.   Scribble out all the false apologies And mark this down as another casual tragedy. The way I sobbed as you left me lying there Trying and stifle your laughter as I struggled to keep with up time. Pass me another dose- things are becoming clear. The cliché cuts are much deeper than they need to be. Much deeper then they would be if you ceased to breathe. We’ll call this the only thing you ever did for me. Close your eyes and remember me. As the last thing you’ll ever see.
The sound is sickening as they take my mistakes through their nose in the next room. The alcohol isn't working fast enough and I still feel regret. I remember faces but not the names. I never wanted it to get this bad. When I was a child I wanted to live forever. Now with the sparkle gone from my eyes, the glow gone from my skin. I only want to die with one single speck of honor.
Lady In The Ghetto, And A Snowhite Smile.
The only light for me is the sparkle in her eyes and the light around her halo. Darkness comes from the life I lead... The hate for Him her parents were Jesus and Cesar. She dies a little everyday… No one believes her. Romance with Razor Blades, Everlasting Love and Narkanal. See you on the other side. Now we believe. Take some Tylenol Sit back and Breathe. The pain they can not bear? I can. Oh I will... I will be a revolution.
The Cliche Cut That Never Heals.
You make me so sick. Like 7-up and crackers Regurgitating my mistakes. [Spelling them out like alphabet soup] I’m crazy now Voices in my mind and walls eating me alive. Maniaphobia. [Live in fear, live in fear] The car is crashing. Broken glass and shattering fiberglass. Faces meeting the cracked cement. [I'm not sorry I find this beautiful...] I beg for another hit. What do you have and how much should it take To make me scratch a hole in my head? [Filthee fucking addict] We're killing it. Blood bath and broken skulls. Killing our creators. [There's a new king now]
Titles Suck.
Formal Title:Sexface.   It’s sort of hard to fall asleep When all you hear is the sound of them fucking. One room away. And I couldn’t help but regret Calling him mine when he was three doors down With nothing left to say. When my darling friend Opiate came into play I hardly remembered the reasons for my solitude. Spin spin spin …fall. These are your dreams ripping apart At their carefully constructed seems. Don’t stop! There’s no time to breathe. [I’m paranoid there’s not such thing as paranoia] Get back on that horse and play this game with me. Do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars. Sorry! Switch places with an opponent. It’s not that simple. There’s a missing component. Give me the missing link. I know you own it. I saw sound and I was screaming purple at you. You’re just mad I won’t give you blue.
For The People
I shouldn't even have to write this because it's so stupid, but I've been noticing it a lot lately and it annoys the hell out of me. I come on here because I'm bored, I like talking to people, I like laughing and goofing off and you really don't need to think much to be on here. It's a nice escape from reality and we can all use an escape sometimes. Having said that, I notice people taking stuff WAY too seriously on here (and other sites.) Sometimes, a status is just a status--there is no need to overanalyze. I put a lot of song lyrics, movie/tv quotes in my status and I get random people saying things like "whoooa I better watch out for you" or something similar.   Friends/family ranking: If you don't like the "position" you are on in someone's list, you need to log out. Plain and simple. I don't organize my list by who I like the most; it's usually by who I've known longest/talk to the most. Don't like it--delete me. Funnily enough, people who have said others were ridiculous for
I told him I did that thing we don’t talk about. He answered- Oh. Considering we talk about everything Except that. I knew he would know. And be disappointed. That might be a lie. Other things go unsaid. Like how we can’t stand to be in her room. While she’s away, Falling into the cracks of religion Masked by the fallacy of recovery. In our selfish minds We can’t help but wish she were still the same Calling herself Oblivion And doing that thing we don’t talk about.
Freelance Therapy
Is this what you always wanted from           a girl like me. A half hearted hand job on the way home to show you this was worth           the time it took going out of your way. And in these last few minutes I will show you I am just as good           on Sunday morning as those other girls. And that guy last weekend fucked me,           like the whore that I am, And told everyone. But lets not go placing blame, baby.           Ol' Georgey boy has enough. Plus, He already said he was sorry for that. When he was twisting that knife.           Counterclockwise.
A Few Things I Forgot
My wife Martha turned two on Monday!  Once that sinks in, let me tell you I mean she’s been at Wal-Mart for two years as of two days ago, a detail I know she’s told me but I’ve been forgetting to commit to memory the way I do most things, by writing them down.  So now I know, and knowing is half the battle (boy, Microsoft Word is showing me with that jagged red line that I can’t spell worth a lick)!  But I’m consoled somewhat and pray KHRT realizes this year for Christmas – less than three months away, really? – “Sharing Is Its Own Reward”, not “It’s”.  At least, I don’t think sharing possesses it … on a walk yesterday north of my office, I noticed one church’s billboard that advertises “Sunday School Year Around” when it should be “Round” unless the Sunday school year encloses something else.    Joe smiled.  “Let me say in conclusion that developing and embracing
Looking back now [back into the past via time travel] Something so direct as “You have too many fuckin pictures of me.” Should have made me take some [dramatic staged] action. But attachment is a tricky thing. Not attached like Velcro. But more like seeking out comfort, desperately. Now- when we’re down to the metaphorical wire, And I have to start making [rational but quick] decisions. It becomes evident that he was righty right. I have too many fucking pictures of him. Being reduced to tears knowing I'm letting memories fade, [it's better to burn out than to fade away] Was one of the hardest things I’ve done. Not hardest like- knock on wood. But more like heartdropping, breathstealing hard. Take me home now. Because this place isn’t even close. And all that I could salvage is all that I have.
Rx Lust
In the back of my mind I heard a comment about my painkiller eyes. It rushed forward and out into the world- Much like children after last bell. I was found out.
1. 2. 3.
The way you speak brings the taste of vodka back to my breath.And darling, I'm sorry to say itBut you've got nowhere to go,When you've said yourself it's just a game.Moving my players closer to yours, but you keep escaping.I'm chasing the horizon and I've already reached madness.I'm not all that sure you're not himcoming back to prove a point.   I'm falling down that flight of stairs all over again.And I can feel the sharpness in my ribs.Stop spinning those words, I need to take a breath.
Oops I Did It Again...
So, I "ran" for the fourth time tonight.   It's not really a run, but a slow "shuffle/jog" kind of thing.   The thing is, I did it. :P   I'm not gonna lie, it sucks, and feels oh so good when it's time to stop.   It's almost like holding in a pee to the point when it's painful, just to experience the euphoria when you finally get to go.
Let's Start A Ryot!
Clash Of The Humanbanes...
I wave my hand and they raise up, most still twitching from just dieing. Then they turn on there comrades and begin to fight this The Orcs begin to retreat. looking over at the elf I nod and her wolf comes out on the left flank and I hit it with stoneskin as I summon my shield and mace of spellstoring, the gnome, transformed into a raven flies over them and drops a fireball in their midst, they begin to regroup anyway, then I see him a large human on the ridge watching them, a night blue dragonfinned helm three red glowing gems inset, and ceremonial piece mail armor, I know this man, he brandishes his humanbane longsword, pointing with his heavily scared hand at me, I simply smile back and flick my wrist, in place of my mace, now there is a longsword, of glowing silver, with flames running the length of it,my very own humanbane known as cleanser "Warduke, I am Tandar the dying, I have been sent to kill you." I say. He laughs and says. "puny mortal, the gods could not bring me d
A Little Love For Mamba
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200. My name is: Nadia Marie 199. I was born on: October 2, 1986198. I am a: Female197. My hair color is: Dark/light brown, sometimes with highlights... 196. My eye color is: Light brown, but change colors to, hazel, yellow, green, violet, dark brown, violen brown...195. My shoe size is: 7.5194. My ring size is: 6 193. My pant size is: 9192. My height is: 5' 6"191. I am allergic to: everything...pennicillin, amoxicillin, everything that  a person can possibly be allergic to in nature, bees, bug bites, and avocados *which i still eat*190. I live in: Highland, with my mom. 189. The last book I read: Let Me In by John Ajvide Lindqvist188. My bed is: comfty and right behind me187. One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex: is that they can be just as difficult and touchy as girls 186. I am glad I'm my sex because: I can get things for free, and change the mood of the opposite sex just by smilin at them. 185. My favorite color is: blue, black, red, and pink184. My Best frien
What To Do When Faced With The Loss Of Love That Hasn't Be Given A Chance.
TroubleStrifeTrue love?Ending? Dear friend.Don't worryI am hereI won't leave you I,.... I can't leave her Found the one.She sees in me.I see her soul.Her most amazing mind.Her lushious body.I can't let anyone else see.Why do i feel like i need her? Because i do.I need her like i need air.I need her like i need the sun.Her brown eyes,As deep as the ocean.Hiding wisdom in the depths.Strange for one so young. She's not young. Not in realityHer years have seen horrors.Pain,Death,Lost love, Why is it she must feel these thingsI would do anything to take the bad memories away. She knowsI told her, Or is she even smarter than i first thought?She is.I know her.I love her.I tell herI ask her She tells me, she can't. I ask whyWhy after all the time i've stood by her Why can't i, like all the men Have One Chance. Did i do something wrong? Is something wrong with me?   No I know how i feelI think she feels the same.I will fightI must fightTo show herShe won't lose me No Matter W
Interweb Machine
So, many of you know my life has been total utter crap the last few months. Those of you who don't know, don't worry bout it, but trust me. It was. Now in this pile o crap my life has been, there have been a few shinning not crap items. One has been a dear friend of mine lettin me live in her empty condo, and lettin me use her interwebs mahines. Now, I must move from her soon to be occupied by her again condo. In her proccess of re-occupying her condo, she is shutting off her cable. That includes the interwebs. So, while I am moving into a new apt, and will get my own interwebs there, sometime soon, my curent interwebs will be goin away. This will not be a typical fu-sabbaticle for me. I will miss this place from day 1, and will be back as soon as my new home interwebs start interwebbing. I move on the 9th, so it'll be after then sometime. I know not when.   and in addition, many of you can text me, but some of you can't. If you do NOT know my number, and would like to, ask for it. T
With eyes wide shut I stand Wandering the world of sinful man My story is writ in sand And I bleed upon it where I can   We tremble at the midnight call We flee into a world of white Our lives go before the fall The sun has claimed my sight   Darkness creeps into the heart Decay the catalyst of doom Heralds the day we shall depart Detached from our first mother's womb   Woven threads will aways fray Torn asunder by the flight Abandoned in their disarray The eye turns from their plight   Reap what he hath wrought A world enmeshed in fear The screams of the distraught Do not fall upon his ear
Nietzsche (31,688)
Shatter the bells that scream my fall Silence the voices that whisper inside Turn away from death's clarion call Serving three counts of deicide   Cling to life in a metal cage Eternity trails on and on Remembering battles and unleashed rage And longlost memories of dawn   Wandering inside geometry Release denied at every path Sick of my own artistry Tormenting me will not bring them back   Nothing has become a thing And then disappeared again I find my soul too frightening And I revel in the pain   One trillion seconds have passed And I have been forgotten And the people all amassed Turn their eyes to heaven
Serpents crawl across the roof Venom dripping on my face Burning up my only truth I will fall with poisoned grace   Snakes slithering on my ceiling Closing my eyes won't heal my mind All things my darkness revealing When will I finally be blind   The floor beneath is slick with oil It becomes so hard to stand Unravelling the deadly coil I will never understand
At The End Of The Month
  Beaten down into the ground Broken by a thousand fists Bloody carnage is the sound When they shatter my pale wrists   I wonder why I never fall When I can't even fucking stand I'm a tossed tormented doll Slain by my own father's hand   Rising blackened from the mud They can't keep me in this place Covered in gore and caked in blood I will dance with cherished grace   My heart is dripping out the time I will stumble and my eyes will cry And I'll be thrown into the slime But I will never fucking die
The Cure
My medicines stick inside my throat Water rushing across my teeth Power invested in a smooth white coat Around my neck a poisoned wreath   White and foul I crack them open Tasting all the laughing decay Thrusting in my deepest den Eating up my darkest day   After all the mobs don't care Burning witches at the stake All the circling faces stare Drowning witches in the lake   Death is their closest friend When they all united stand But I laugh for in the end I will die by my own hand
A broken harlot wandering darkened streets Curiosity punished forever by my fate My pride and dignity died between my sheets Scarred forever by a twisted lovers hate   Blood trickling down my pale legs Darkness penetrated deep inside my skin My soul dragged up from the vomiting dregs Condemned to hell for my vile sin   The cruelty of my masters marked forever on my face My disgrace festering in my bed Lying in a nest of thorns and lace My beautiful corpse in the alleys of the dead
Suffering carved forever into my skin Adoration for the pain that keeps me breathing My blood the only cure for another's sin In crimson slashes I find my only healing   Blessing the blade that steals my blood Bloodier still the benedictions I leave upon the shelf Hungrier yet to drink up the flood A soul of rage carried out against myself   I lie upon the floor cherishing this pain Shrieking agony drowning out my fear My veins flowing into a scarlet stain The dripping of my life the only sound I hear
The Hangman Suicide
Running towards our third demise Blackened hearts and blackened souls No one watching our blood rise These highways all have deadly tolls   But we travel on them nonetheless Recalling the cures we swallowed down Searching for a god to bless Punishing a tarnished crown   These things that ferment in my mind The pain I know so very well Sometimes I wonder if God is blind Is he watching when I'm in hell
Just Atnother Day
Well it's been a interesting day today. Been working on one of my other blogs. Check it out ,go to and go to blogs ,but first become a member  it's free . Then go to blogs ,  then go to search  and search( Angelos blog about anything ,)that's the blogs name   check it out . It's borring for  now, but it'll get interesting as i go along  it with it,I promis. 
An Intro
  It all started simply enough, I'm walking through Borders not really looking at anything in peticular when I get a text message from my good friend Steve Brown that states "We want you to say something at our upcoming show." It would've been so easy to say no but then I wouldn't be writting this. I told him I would be glad to do it. Now I had to do something I haven't done in a long time and thats be creative. So now I'm wandering around the store with my mind going a mile a minute looking for a peice of inspiration anything to spark the creative process, and then I found it sitting on the self almost like fate a new Mick Foley book. For those of you not fimillar with Foley he is with out a doubt one of the most creative minds I have ever seen. A professional wrestler that can work a crowd like no other and here it is in my little hands more of his knowledge and if need be something to blantally rip off as I've done in the past.    Anyways the day of that show have come and gone and
Greg Giraldo
Greg Giraldo died on Wednesday after being hospitalized for a prescription drug overdose four days earlier. The 44-year-old comedian and seventh-season Last Comic Standing judge's death was first announced by Jim Norton, Giraldo's friend and fellow comic. "Greg Giraldo passed away today," Norton wrote on his Twitter account Wednesday afternoon.  "RIP Buddy." Giraldo's family was at his side at the time of his passing, according to TMZ. According to the New York Post, Giraldo was found unconscious in his hotel room in East Brunswick, NJ on Saturday evening following "a wild party." "It was a like a zoo here," an eyewitness told the Post. Paramedics were reportedly able to resuscitate Giraldo, who had been staying at the hotel for a four-night appearance at a local comedy club, but he had remained in critical condition at Robert Wood Johnson University Hospital in New Brunswick.  The overdose was not a suicide attempt, according to Giraldo's representative. "Greg was one of the most tale
So fucking tiredEverybody's always stabbing my backAnd to the liarsThis is for everythingYou said I lackSo now it's timeI'll take yoursAnd I'll take mineI just want to watch you bleedFor all the pain you've given meAnd for the times you brought me downNo one can save you nowTake you final bowSo keep pushing meI'll take your eyesI'll make you seeAs I watch you dieYou can screamBut no one's aroundYou can't be heardWhen you're six feet undergroundSo now it's timeI'll take yoursAnd I'll take mineI just want to watch you bleed For all the pain you've given me And for the times you brought me down No one can save you now Take you final bow
Mel Is A Cunt!
To MEL: · new friend request from 'SEXYGIRLBLONDE ...' received!   cancel Chat 4:04pm reply MEL: lmfaoooooooooooooo   cancel Chat 4:04pm reply MEL: she's only replying to you....she likes you!   cancel Chat 4:04pm reply MEL: or you're the only weiner commenting her   cancel Chat
For Those Voters In California
I used to work for an airlines at LAX; Los Angeles for those who don't know. I checked in former Governor Jerry Brown and his aide back in the late 1980s...for their flight..I questioned Brown and his responses were to say the least, relative to someone who was stoned out of his mind as his responses were slurred blah, blah, blah. He couldn't even provide his I.D. Do you really want this guy as the new Governor of California?
The Tapestry Of Odette, Part Ii (excerpt)
She wasn't sure of the exact moment that she slipped into slumber, but suddenly she found herself standing before a wall of tumbling colour. Reds, metallic hues, deep purples, soft greys, all rushing together in a cacophonous waterfall of brilliance. She stood entranced, just staring at it, as every shade known to man and bees rushed before her eyes, constantly changing and shifting. It put any rainbow she had seen to shame. Nothing was faded here, it was all bold and brilliant, dripping from the canvas of the gods before her enchanted eyes. It all mixed and swirled together, churning and pounding like the rapids of a river. Orange, forest green, bright pink, dun, differing shades of black, colours she couldn't even imagine, all tumbling together. It was awhile before she even noticed the ground beneath her feet, which was some sort of soft sucking mud. The two walls that angled away from the colour wall were both pitch black, made of shiny obsidian. They met together somewhere in the
New Videos Posted
I posted 25 links to youtube videos today. I did a little mixture of music so I hope everyone enjoys them. Also, I am trying to get my achievements and level up again so any and all help will be greatly appreciated. I need over 200,000 points yet to level up and I need bling and activation of special abilities and a blast and so forth to get my achievements. Also if anyone wants to be gracious and help me to become VIP status I would appreciate that as well, but I know that is expensive so I am not going to expect that one to be done. But yea if anyone wants to really truely help me get ahead on FU then please do so. I will do what I can to return favors for my friends.
Top 10 Lines The Perfect Wife Should Say
About Me (health Update..)
  Sept / 29th / 2010...  Hi everyone. Well just got back home from a new mri / doppler . They just found another couple clots in my upper right leg .. Ughhhh.  My Doctor is referring me to see a blood specialist  to find out why all of a sudden the new clots are developing . Guess all the abuse I did to my body in the years past is finally catching up to.. Oh well thank you all for your thoughts and prayers from the earlier post . Thanks again. Take care . Tom.. 
Janey Godley Podcast “episode 12”
(Pleases be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language)   Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hear it on Janey Godley’s podcasts, expect some bawdy language and home truths, as Janey Godley and Ashley Storrie lead you down the roads less taken in their fantastic weekly podcast. Listen as mother and daughter banter, bait and burst with laughter.  In the twelfth episode of Janey Godley’s Podcast Janey and Ashley discuss Scientology and L Ron Hubbard’s true intentions, Ashley’s new religion Batamology, the new Labour leader Ed Miliband, Tanya Lee Davis’s scooter girl campaign, why Mrs Miliband should kick Jan Moir in the lady balls, Janey reads an excerpt from her autobiography and Ashley impersonates Wayne Rooney… all this with new music from Paul Alexander Boyd! (don’t forget to vote for us on     Please do comment on the Janey Godley Podcast At the following link: http://janeygodley.po
The "real" Me
Most who know me know that due to some torn tendons in my foot that I'll be out of commission for a few weeks. However, I did do a show this last Friday, opening for Great White and Kittie. It was a rather fun show, I thought - a bit last minute, as we were asked at the very last second, but nonetheless good. I'd decided just for shits and giggles to do a cover set for our 2nd set (as another band cancelled so we played a double set to keep the crowd entertained). I picked the set as it was rather last second and easier for me to kick it out that way. I chose a bunch of songs that we jam out in rehearsals - mostly high energy, and above all just fun for us. The set went great, the crowd was into it, singing along, screaming, high-fiving us. Today, however, I got handed something that rather floored me - a review of the show, including our cover set. In this review was a very scathing synapsis of that set. Here's part of what was said: "Trent is a very talented musician, of which ther
My Music
If anyone likes guitar music, please check out my music and videos.   Okay so here are my music videos here on fubar:   Also here is my music on myspace, all original songs:   And YouTube as well: Hope you enjoy it   thanks for reading   Matt
The Promise
If you wait for me then I'll come for you Although I've traveled far I always hold a place for you in my heart If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile Then I'll return to you I'll return and fill that space in your heart Remembering Your touch Your kiss Your warm embrace I'll find my way back to you If you'll be waiting If you dream of me like I dream of you In a place that's warm and dark In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart Remembering Your touch Your kiss Your warm embrace I'll find my way back to you If you'll be waiting I've longed for you and I have desired To see your face your smile To be with you wherever you are Remembering Your touch Your kiss Your warm embrace I'll find my way back to you If you'll be waiting I've longed for you and I have desired To see your face, your smile To be with you wherever you are Remembering Your touch Your kiss Your warm embrace I'll find my way back to you Please say you'll be w
In Loving Memory Of Roxxy
This is a page for Roxxy, the people who knew her here respected her alot. As some of you may know what has happend in the last 4-6 months, she has been through to hell and back. Not long ago she had twins a boy and a girl, not long ago she lost her precious daughter, who was very ill, now it was roxxy's turn, she was sick with diabete's and needed a kidney transplant, wich we could not find a donor for her, suddenly her last kidney also failed, wich made her incapable of doing anything. Later to find out the doctor's said she had turned for the worst. An infection started and spread to her heart quickly (endocarditis). Later that evening the doctor's took a MRI and realized the infection spread to her brain, then she was put on life support for a very shot period of time. She was pronounced dead this morning at around 7:18 am. I will be posting from other's that may have there last words for her, and some pictures. may you rest in peace with little girl... I'll see you soon angel's.
Hot Air Baloon
A woman in a hot air balloon realized she was lost. She lowered her altitude and spotted a man in a boat below. She shouted to him, *Excuse me, can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago, but I don't know where I am.*...The man consulted his portable GPS and replied, *You're in a hot air balloon, approximately 30 feet above ground elevation of 2,346 feet above sea level. You are at 31 degrees, 14.97 minutes north latitude and 100 degrees, 49.09 minutes west longitude.*She rolled her eyes and said, *You must be an Obama Democrat.**I am,* replied the man. *How did you know?**Well,* answered the balloonist, *everything you told me is technically correct. But I have no idea what to do with your information, and I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help to me.*The man smiled and responded, *You must be a Republican.*?I am,? replied the balloonist. *How did you know?**Well,* said the man, *you don't know where you are, or where you are going. You've risen to w
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Movie Quote
What if I told you insane was working fifty hours a week in some office for fifty years at the end of which they tell you to piss off; ending up in some retirement village hoping to die before suffering the indignity of trying to make it to the toilet on time? Wouldn't you consider that to be insane?
You may not know this about me but I like hockey. My love affair with the Lightning began when I was in highschool Tampa got it's hockey team and tickets were cheap and abundant. They were pretty much giving them away. My bff at the time (Derek) would invite me along to the dismay of his other friends. I would always have a blast. Here is a game I can follow. It's fast moving and it's air conditioned. When I moved to NJ, I was lucky enough to cheat on my boyfriend (who never liked to anything besides drink in basements and play ping pong) with a guy who also liked going to hockey games. Seeing hockey at The Garden was always amazing and way more entertaining than the NJ basement parties. When I moved back to Tampa in 2000, I got a job at the local news station as a floor director. It was my job to mic up guests and tell them what was going on. My favorite sports guy, Al Keck, would constantly call me out on taking my sweet time putting that mic on Vinny Lacaviler. I would jokingly te
I Believe
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned I believe the grass is more greener on the other side I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality I believe that trust is more important than monogamy I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul I believe that family is worth more than money or gold I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness I be
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Love? Opss!
 well i learned how  to love without expecting anything in return..     for a while i felt good but soon enough I had to stop. Why? Because The more   I love the person ,the more i lose myself .And the saddest part of it all is finding    myself again when I already know That i can no longer feel whole because part    of me went Astray with the person I had to forget ...
well relationships  are like a glass ,sometimes it's better to leave them broken then try to hurt yourself putting it back together ".  ................"There is no remedy for love but to love more "..............  
You Know What?
people so seldom say i love you and then it's either to late or love goes when i tell you i love you ,it doesn't  mean i know you'll never go ,only that i wish you didn't have to go (==)
Hey All
they there all were new to this crazy place. send us a msg if have crazy and fun place to be. take care all see around
Originally Posted On My Angel Of Anguish Myyearbook Profile
Top Ten Reasons You Know You Can't Live Without Him 10. Because the day he finally told you he loved you and wanted to marry you...You had already given up and found someone else...And it left you so broken you cried for two days after...and he didn't say I told you so when that someone else turned out to be the biggest player you've ever met... 9. Because you've tried to find someone else...when you know you've lost him...and no one can compare with him...or erase his memory from your mind... 8. Because you don't answer when he calls on purpose just so he has to leave a voice mail...and you listen to those six words "Its Me. Call me back. Bye" over and over whenever you need to hear his voice... 7. Because you login to your online accts over and over just to see if you have any new notifications...and when you do your heart jumps cuz they might be from him... 6. Because your heart beats even faster when those notifications are from him or you see his sweet face in your inbox... 5. Bec
A Kajira Pole Dance Written By Yours Truelly
she stood in the middle of the room, her heart was beating hard against her chest.. she could feel eyes of the Free drinking her in.. she stood motionless waiting for her cue listening for the sound of the rumbling drum to play.. her breath was heavy against her red stained lips.. slowly she raised her sunkissed arms into the air crossing her rists and stretching out her limber fingers as if she was reaching for the stars.. the drum began to roll softly and she could feel the beat swimming thru the air.. slowly she began to sway almost afraid to move.. she there was a crowd watching her waiting judging her almost..  her hips began to slowly sway the scarf that was tide around her waist bellowed with her graceful movements.. lifting her golden gaze breifly to the crowd seeking the glance of her Master.. then pulling her stare away hesatantly.. her wild tresses fell around her bare shoulders as she began to move with in herself.. the beat of the drum getting louder as her hands dropped f
Forever & Always
Baby when I look in your eyes I see a future with you Baby when you touch me I feel your love Baby when you whisper to me I hear your sexy voice Baby when I'm with you I wanna be with you all the time My heart beats so fast that I can't live without you It seems that when I'm away My mind is always thinking about you It don't want to stop All I ever wanted is to be with you forever & always
Cartier Watches Ladies Cartier Watches Make You Fun
  If you want to own a fashion and luxury cartier watches_replica cartier watches_ cartier replica watches, you will focus on the ladies cartier watches. The cartier Series that was launched new products has been enriched with a new chronograph. The watch features a stainless steel case with stylish sporty design and rounded angles. And the wathces is equip with a fashion dial,These cartier clocks are very much welcomed by people who wishes to have a watch that will make him or her the center of attention. And what is more, it is the cartier should be a syble of the success man. when you wear the cartier watches you will make a different feeling. The cartier watches is different from the other brand, the watches is very beautiful and fashion in the watches market.And the more and more people start to choose the cartier watches because the watches is leading the fashion trend. If you choose the watches, the discount cartier watches_replica cartier watches_ cartier replica watches is
Rado Watches Collections For Men
      Rado Watches_replica Rado watch_rado reolica watches is part of the domination of the Swiss watch and clock production. This brand was first established as Schlup & Co. in 1917. Over 90 years later, Rado now generates more than half million watches a year, while 300 persons employed to do. Rado is famous for several things, including the first use of certain materials in watchmaking: sapphire crystal, hard metals such as tungsten, ceramics and lanthanum. Rado watches vary in value from the low of around $ 400 for a large, high above $ 25,000 for clocks that are more precious materials. DIASTAR collection of brand Rado was the first scratch proof watch in the world, released in 1957. Today, this same clock as DIASTAR original cast. This collection consists of four models: the original, 515, anniversary, and Magic. In Rado DIASTAR collection is one of the reasons why the brand in particular is known for its scratch-proof watches. Watches DIASTAR only modern watches seem to join
Stupid Convos
After I made a stupid remark on a photo:  the remark I made was No fucking, thank you. From PURPLE GRAPE: WHO WOULD WANT YOU OLD UGLY FUCKER To PG  Is Goodyear missing a blimp? From PURPLE GRAPE: YEAH U UGLY FUCK GO BACK TO IRAN DOUCHE BAG Then she blocked me Yay me Horwitz is a Persian last name?
I  am perplexed that so many of my friends are against a mosque  being built near Ground Zero .I think it should be the goal of  every American to be tolerant.  The mosque should be  allowed, in an effort to promote tolerance. That  is why I also propose, that two gay nightclubs be opened next  door to the mosque thereby promoting tolerance within the  mosque. We could call the clubs "The Turban Cowboy" and "You  Mecca Me So Hot".      Next  door should be a butcher shop that specializes in pork and have  an open barbeque with spare ribs as its daily special.   Across the street a very daring lingerie store called  "Victoria Keeps Nothing Secret” with sexy mannequins in the  window modeling the goods.      Next  door to the lingerie shop, there would be room for an Adult Toy Shop (Koranal Knowledge?), its name in flashing neon lights, and on the other side a liquor store, maybe call it "Morehammered"?  
A Template From Dx
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Time Standing Still
One year and three months has passed since I lost my best friend, lover and husband. It seems like yesterday. I really thought I'd share some words of wisdom with y'all but for the life of me I can't find any. Peace out.
How To Grab A Img Code
Ok you want to resize an image Bigger or Smaller? Or specifically a Background Bigger or Smaller? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- First I recommend using PIXresizer (FREE) @;1 Heres a few  options explained: **You can work with One single pic or Multiple (see the tabs on top)** Load Picture - Load the saved file you chose (from like Photobucket or Google, etc -Make Sure its not copyrighted! Fubar Doesnt allow plaigarism!) Custom Size - You can choose a variety of preset custom sizes (for Backgrounds ignore this) **Where it says 600 x 450** - 600 refers to the Width AND 450 refers to the Height Select File Format to SAVE FILE AS - You can choose the options to save the image as: BMP GIF - typically for animations (Gifs cannot be resized with this Software - they are multiple images put together and resized individually) JPEG (JPG)
Lounge Coding By Stevens
This Blog is for Basic Lounge Skinning. Below is the css(Cascading Style Sheet) code for the Lounges. I took the original coding from a link reference(Able to download just click the link) and tweaked it a bit to suit everyones needs for the Lounge. All are labeled as to what they do. /* changes all link colors */ a,, a:visited{ font-family: arial, arial, arial; color: -; font-size: 10pt; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; font-style: normal; /*cursor: url(;*/ } /* Changes all active links */ a:active{ font-family: arial, times new roman, san sarif; color: -; font-size: 10pt; font-weight: normal; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; } /* changes all hovered links */ a:hover { color: red!important; font-family: Vivaldi; font-size: 12pt; font-weight: bold; background-image: url(''); } /* changes all hovered images */ a:hover img { filter:
Basic V.2 Lounge Code (paste In Images)
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A V.1 Template
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Template 4
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Template 4
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Basic Lounge Code V.1 (just Paste In Links)
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The Truth
i've never claimed to be beautiful...... i don't think i'm sexy... i'll never be graceful, exotic... or even popular... i know i'm not the smartest... i'm not that talented... there is not one thing about me that is interesting...... i'm use to being passed up... ignored.... even forgotten... it's nothing new....... i've started to expect it even.... i'm great at pretending...... ....i'll lie and say it's okay.... i didn't notice that i'm here with him...but i'm actually all alone... i know he is using me... and he was taking advantage of me.... and he really doesn't really care.... i'm convienient....... i'm gulliable...trusting... too open..... i no longer have a heart... it's been shattered too many times... into too many pieces.... so many pieces have been lost.... stomped on... kicked aside.. destroyed.... i'm so lost... unsure...... ready to give up... i no longer am sure of what it is i want..... i trust too much... i care to fast... i become attached....too easily...
Once Again....
for once i want someone to truly see me.... to fully understand me.... someone who wants to care for me..... comfort me... listen to me..... i need someone to make me laugh.... ..someone who will keep the tears away..... someone to hold me... someone to keep the loneliness away at night..... i want a person who wants me for me... not who they want me to be... someone who fully appreciates me and what i want to do for them.... is it really so hard.. is it really too much to ask... if there really is someone such as this? 051410
What Do You Do?
i finally met someone.... ..who i fell for at first sight.... i trusted wholeheartedly without restriant ....i wanted to give my all... and then he cracked my heart.... he felt almost the same... just not as deep.... he didn't want what i wanted... so i held back... pulled myself in.... i didnt want to lose what little of him i had managed to gain...... and he went away.... just temporarily ... i held out.... not looking.... and someone else wandered into my life.... quite unexpectedly.... my attention was grabbed... my interest undeniable... there was a connection...a bond... almost the same...but not the same... it wasn't an immediate falling..... but a sudden trip... i fell into his arms ...with no regrets... and it was more than expected.... ....more complicated than i thought it would be.... and then..... the first...came back... full force..... not in body... but in presence.... seemed as if maybe he was wrong maybe he felt more than he thought... it was almost ever
i seriously feel like i need to rip my heart out right now... one half wants to go right, another piece wants to stay.. and the other.. well.. it's just lost... i have my moments when i'm happy... just a text.. or msg will make me smile.. but the minute it seems like i'm forgotten... i'm sad and lonely again... i feel like i need something.... someone.. to hold me on the right path... hold my hand and help me walk down it... i don't care to make decisions anymore... i don't care if it will hurt me in the end... i just don't care anymore... it's bad to say.. i know.. but i'm tired of only being used. everyone just wants me to do them favors, they want what i can help them out with.. not for me. and it's tiring... to feel neglected and unwanted.. like i'm a last resort... you don't really care... i see that now.. so just quit pretending.. i'm trying so hard to move in my life... but it's so lonely at the same time... i just want to find a corner... and cry. 05172010
There's this guy... he's telling me everything I have ever wanted a guy to tell me..... ..He wants me to be his.... he likes being around me.... I'm beautiful.... He misses me when he doesn't see me... he doesn't want anyone else to take me.. while he has a chance to have me. He wants me to be his girl. He wants ME. But my heart isn't there... I like being with him... he makes me laugh.... challenges me.. but when we are apart... I don't think of him so much.. I don't miss him... but what if he is what I need? I told him I'm not ready for labels... I'm not sure he understood what I was trying to say... .. I want to belong to someone.. I want someone to want me for me... ..but I'm not sure if he wants to give me what I need... or just take everything I have to offer... but I don't know what I have left to offer... I'm already holding out my heart... offering it to someone.. who doesn't have an opportunity to take it... stupid, I know.... but that person... is who I am always thinking
Things I Hate The Most
the thing i hate the most is that you are still the first one i think of when i want to talk to someone... or maybe its the fact that when i'm down.. i remember you were always able to bring me back up... no matter what, you could always make me smile... i could never stay upset... you could always talk me into anything... i hate it that i miss you... i hate it that you're not mine... i hate it that i'm sitting here still thinking about you. i hate that the thought of seeing you still makes my heart jump into my throat... i hate that if i ever did see you again.. it wouldn't be like before... why did you even bother? all u did was tear up my life.. when you walked out of it.... do you even think of me? did you even care? did it even hurt you.... to tell me you chose her? 071110
how am i suppose to give you the answers to things i don't know? how can i help you, when i can't even help myself? i don't know how to make things better, i can't tell you what you want to hear... i can't fix things for you, i can't change the way things are.... i know you're not happy... i'm not either.. coming to me.. it can't fix anything.. i'm not your answer... nothing i say or do .. will change anything... i have nothing to do with your problem... even tho i kno you blame me... i'm sorry you didn't think i was good... that i was such a bad influence... i don't know how it happened.. i don't know what i did... to make you think i'm the bad guy... i have my own problems... my own pains.. i don't know how to fix me.. how can i fix you??   071310
Not Yours
How is it I feel a HEAVINESS and an EMPTINESS at the same time? I CARE too much, I TRUST too easily... and all it brings me is HEARTACHE.   YOU can make me smile, but then YOU make me catch my breath in the next second... YOU make me feel like I am SPECIAL one minute.. but then INSIGNIFICANT the next.   I want so much to make you MINE, to be THE ONE you first think of... to make you SMILE, and BRIGHTEN your day.   but I'm AFRAID if I let you know, that you will DISMISS me, and say I am not what you are SEARCHING for. that I will NEVER be that for you. 092810
*condensed Thoughts
Sick and tiredWe've all been there beforeYou try to just shake it offBut it only hurts moreI'm trying my bestBut nothing seems to work outJust because I have a smileDoesn't mean I don't have doubtsIs all this pain really worth it?I need an answer to that questionAll the shit I've seenAnd the things yet to be mentionedWhere did I go wrong?When will I find my purposeI feel like I'm drowningForever finding the surfacePack up and leave townSpur of the moment thoughtI'd never have to see your faceReminded of times I let you downCan't say I haven't triedBut whose to say I have?I keep fighting Reaching deep inside
The Curious Case Of Mazlan Othman
“You say he talks to you about his own life, as well as asking you about the life outside?”         “Sometimes.  But it makes no sense.  He has to use their words when he talks about his work because there are no human words for the things he is telling me about.  A few days ago he was saying that he was feeling unhappy because during the zootleboot a tsutsutsu went into spiwis, and therefore it was not possible to izdool the shuchuthu.  At least, it sounded something like that.  I saw no point in even trying to understand what he meant.”         “If you keep on listening, it may make sense in time.”         Star Wars predicates a galactic civilization has existed for thousands of years and they overcame the problem of understanding each other long ago.  Star Trek devotes limited screen time to this issue because it takes away from the action.  It’s an intelligent bet that an article I saw on FOX News while working out yesterday has
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Much effort, much prosperity.  -  Euripides
Mucho Rawr
      The epitome of coolness.  Gawd what I would do.....     Scuse me.  I'm having a moment....  
Is It Fair?
So I wrote this blog like 4 months ago but someone magically had it deleted so ill try again and if that doesn't work then I guess I can go through blogger where I can even include specifics.    I spent a lot of time and money getting to level 45. It took a lot of friends to help me get there .. trust me when Isay my wallet complained day in and day out, and I even can say that this whole leveling thing took a toll on my personal life and that of a person who helped me from the first in the sense that i couldn't go places I wanted to go so that I could do it here,and that arguments ensued from bombing 6 times a day.. anyways one day I was going around fu comparing how good people are at leveling like for example i was like 900 something to 34  but I was like 74 to 45 thats pretty good .... and I just wanted to compare how fast the people on fu leveled who leveled first whose the most recent it.... it was my "I'm bored out of my mind nothing to do once you level" thing right ..  then
Life And A Hard Choice.
Well, life is full of hard choice's but the one I am going to talk about is the choice to ask someone the one question that could hurt even friendship. I have this one gal I really like and thinking it really might go to the point of love but I really don't know if she likes me that way or just as a friend. I really like being her friend but wish it I could have more. I really don't know if it is worth asking her. On the other hand I think I am just being a coward because I just won't tell her but worried that if I do ask she would not talk to me even as a friend. Life and it's choices really suck but I guess we must all live thur them.
I used to need to think things through on every possible level. Focusing on every minuscule details before I would even consider taking an appropriate action. Its funny how life forces us to change in ways we never could even imagine. It's forced me to no longer have any well thought out plan for awkward social situations.  It's forced me to break down my barrier walls and let people through. No longer able to hide behind a hardened bitch persona. Forced to admit that sometimes I need to let someone help me in life not only for my own sanity but people like to know they are wanted and needed.
Ultimately Its Just A Website :d
whether you have thousands of friends on your list or less than 100....fubar is just a website. whether your name is red, pink, yellow, blue, orange, green, neon green, gray, purple or white...fubar is just a website. whether you are fumarried or not...fubar is just a website. whether you are level 45 or stuck at level 17 and cant seem to get the help you need...fubar is just a website. whether you are blocked by many or just a few or none at all...fubar is just a website. whether you like to mumm or prefer to play the fubar game/mafia/lounges...fubar is just a website. whether you like to filter out everything on your bartab or prefer to read it all...fubar is just a website. whether you have zero blingies or thousands of blingies...fubar is just a website. whether you get bombed/rated/blinged/fuowned/run a HH/blast everyday or not, fubar is just a website.   whether you are happy here or not, fubar has a logout button. free for everyone to use.   feel free to add to my l
Adult Or Child?
 So have you guys noticed that selfishness has no bounds here on fu? That no one does anything when these users do shit to people who place a lil bit of trust on them? Who can you go to when no one will correct these issues?   This is supposed to be a site for ADULTS. But no one cares about being fair or being honest you know those things most of us where taught as children. They assume that because its ONLINE it has no impact on real life. to those who are wondering how.. heres a real life example: I sold a person who was a part of my fu "family" for the whole time I've had this page. This member told me if I'd sell her a boomerang for fubucks. I told her that I didn't need the fubucks, but I hate telling my friends NO when ts in my power to help (a habit I've broken) so I told her that I really wanted that diamond bling they had and it cost 50cr. and that I found it tacky to bling myself so how bout if I sent her a 65 cr bling pack for 5 mil (THATS RIGHT NOT A TYPO 5,000,000) and ou
I'll never forget the first time I set off a bomb in MGS4.The way Snake just...sailed into the airand slidIt was worth setting my own claymores just to walk in front of em.*Boom*HURK!*thump*AGH*scraaaaape*/falls limpNever get tired of that.I just drove in a random direction today.Wound up... north of tecumsehadjacent to some bumblefuck offshoot of the kansas riverand after about 30 minutes eventually made it back to highway 40.That was some pretty country.The bad news is I've got zero energy.A mexican coke, a cup of coffeetwo meals and I'm still flatlined. Been like this all month.It'd probably help if I got up and out a bit.I'll probably wind up flipping a coin to see if I'll play Demon's Souls or Fallout 3.Leaning towards Fallout 3 since I want to get all the supermutants hunted, and all the Bobbleheads collected, and I can play that game offline, I've got a HUGE download of the MST3K collection going on.I'm just... bleh.Oh yeah... first coat of primer is down on about ... 1/3 of my
Grocery Giddy
I procrastinate grocery shopping, to the point of vapors in the fridge, echos in the cabinet. But yet when  I do go, I get the biggest charge when I get home and put everything away. I often do a strange celebratory dance after everything is stocked. I have to fight the urge to sample everything, to avert subsequently makin myself naseous from the odd smorsgabord of things that dont necesarily go together. But Im so excited! I mean I got this, and that, ohhh and those, ahhhh and these!! Ohh ok, maybe just a smidge..    
Lipps N Boobies
subject: hi received: 09/28/2010 01:43 pm replied: no   block this member u are one very cute,sexy n atttractive lady...n u have some beautiful lipps n boobies mmm name is dj im 42 in beautiful clearwater beach,florida....u have yahoo or hotmail messenger hmm...or we could talk by phone too hee....P.S. Im from louisville n born n raised in kyPeace....DJ     Yeah, I'll get right on that.
Im In An Auction Come Dew Tha Damn Thang Ill Take Care Of U
Homeowner's Association
So, I just got back from running some errands, and my neighbor was getting ready to pull out of her driveway.  Her and I have had very few conversations, but the topic usually involves our HOA.  She was gone the past few weeks, helping her daughter move in to a new place in Indianapolis, and left her van parked in her driveway.  Well, the van ended up having a tire go flat, while she was away.  Low and behold, the HOA struck again, and called the local authorities to cite her a ticket for having a "broke down vehicle in her driveway". Damn, these fuckers are getting on my nerves.
What Would You Do?
Questions where the question "What would YOU do?" applies to them.   Answer the question, then repost a new question for others to answer as well :)    This should be an interesting experiment. Question Number One: What would YOU do if you were locked away in a room with me for 24 hours and all that was playing in the background was love making music? :P
You Need To Be Aware Of What Is Realy Happening
Lohan, 24, is all over the news because she's a celebrity drug addict. While Justin Allen 23, Brett Linley 29, Matthew Weikert 29, Justus Bartett 27, Dave Santos 21, Chase Stanley 21,Jesse Reed 26, Matthew Johnson 21, Zachary Fisher 24, Brandon King 23, Christopher Goeke 23, and Sheldon Tate 27 are all Marines that gave their lives this week, no media mention.Honor THEM by reposting!!!
The Haters!!!!
Well I just want to let you know that it is ok for you to hate me when you don't know me.... It is ok for you to say what you want...But know this if you thought I was well a *itch before you started rollin on me ...Well I can be a bigger one if you push ..... I am not here to take you on. I am here to have fun sooo shut up and have fun!!!!!     I am sorry that your life is bad enough that you feel you must strike out at me but that's ok cus I can take it and well I am sorry for your loss!!!     -Lisa
Tutti Loves Y'all!!!     From Tutti... to all of you!..   Enjoy and peace out!!
Ooops See If I Follow You Folks Anymore Know I Will
I must have made the person mad Its time t...: U BITCH   cancel Chat 12:01pm more To Its time t...: you nasty cunt   cancel Chat 12:01pm reply Its time t...: FUCK YOU   cancel Chat 12:01pm more To Its time t...: try some feminine hygiene   cancel Chat
The Anniversary Blog
The past month I have been down on my hunkers with a nasty flu, Ashley my daughter got it as well and she was worse than me, it felt like a TB ward in my home. Husband didn’t get it which is good as when he gets flu, it’s like he has had a stroke and paralysis of the torso, but not in his moany mouth.   I almost had to cancel comedy gigs, but instead just went along, stayed away from everyone and shouted random words into a microphone in a funny fashion…I hope.   Husband and I celebrated our 30th wedding anniversary, we didn’t go away to a swanky hotel as we decided to have the argument at home, we always argue on important dates. I can’t believe we have managed thirty whole years together, I was only 18 when I met him and he was 16 and half years old, then we got married when I was 19 and he was just 18 that month. We were just bloody kids, yet people allowed us to get married, that’s a lack of parental guidance as far as I am concerned.   So
Desktop Publishing
I often get questions from friend looking for an alternative to the expensive Microsoft Office software. Spending hundreds of dollars isn't an option these days and the Office sutie can cost as much as the PC! Fortunately, there is an alternative. It's been around quite a while now. LibreOffice, formerlay OpenOffice, is an Open Source solution and is available at: It's worth giving it a try and now supports Microsoft document styles as well as XML styles (if you even care). Let me know if you have tried it and have any other software needs!   Pete DeathwishDuck
Come one and come all party like a rock star.............
Looking For My First Time
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Rant (nsfw)?
I know many have assumptions about me/ 1.  Just  because I am 51 and unmarried doesn't mean i am a koksucker 2. Just because I am a convert to Judaism doesn't mean I know only a little more than born Jews 3. Just because I have a preference for Asian women doesn't mean I cannot find a Jewish woman 4. That I am a wolf because I talk to young women   I know 1, 3, and 4 are contadictory, deal with it     5. Just because I don't mention my employment too often, doesn't mean I am unemployed  6. Because I have a beard I must be hideous looking without it, well actually that is true End of Rant
"circumcised Vs. Uncircumcised"
                                                       "circumcised vs. uncircumcised"I was wondering and curious if females/women prefer a male to be circumcised or uncircumcised?which brings me to the next question i'm curiuos about is if you had sexual intercoarse with both in the past, is there any difference to what yous feel during sex intercoarse with being cut/uncut(natural)? I am alsowondering if one or the other gives you/make you orgasm faster or better between the two? or doesn't it make any difference? I would like to hear your input on this curiousity. My mom made the choice to have me "circumcised" at birth, so I never had the choice to decide in the matter.
A Huge Year Shaping Up
Some of you may know that I build plastic models as a hobby ... makes me good with my hands (nod,nod nudge,nudge wink,wink) ... anywho ... I use a webnetwork called Kitmaker network to help with what my dr calls AADD ... someone on a given subject site (Armor is Armorama , aircraft is Aeroscale ... etc etc) Will come up with an idea for a campaign ( Helicopters or The Battle of Britain or COD:Modern warfare even) ... Participants are then given a set time in which to build a kit for said subject ... I am completing one such campaign now PIN-UPS the name suggests these are aircraft with scantily clad or even nude women on their noses ... I have 2 more ending before the end of the year and 8 so far for the coming year ...   If I can figure this all out I may try to post pics here or on my page so come by and check me out ... You never know you may like what you see ...
Friend Vs. Juggalette
 Friend vs. Juggalette   Friend: Will leave you hanging to be with a crowd. Juggalette: Always has your back. Friend: Runs for help in a fight. Juggalette: Jumps in the fight to help. Friend: Will bail your stale ass out of Jail. Juggalette: Will be sittin' right next to you saying "That was f*cking awesome!" Friend: Will help you move out of a house. Juggalette: Will help you move a dead body out of the house. Friend: Bums you a cigarette Juggalette: Bums you her last pack Friend: Is there when you need them Juggalette: Is there even when you dont need them Friend: Gets drunk at a party and pukes on your carpet Juggalette: Feels worse than you do about puking on your carpet in the morning Friend: Hides you from the cops Juggalette: Is probably the reason the cops are after you in the first place Friend: Lets you make an a**  out of yourself in public Juggalette: Is up there with you making an a** out of themselves too Friend: Likes you cause your always doing stupid sh*t Jugg
A Fast Look About Gift
Are you currently interested to buy some gifts? In fact I dislike doing this job as I am really bad at choosing gift. The great point is that you now have access to numerous websites that will offer you reviews of the various gift which exist. In order to enable you to make your decision I'll be speaking briefly of 3 gifts and I hope that it'll be useful for you. When choosing your gift you'll have a difficult time choosing among the various models which exist. Moreover the gifts may also vary a good deal depending on the event. For example a birthday may require a different gift than Valentine's Day. Lovers will choose perhaps to give a box of chocolate. One French post which has recently grabbed my attention is gift ideas ( idee anniversaire ) and may be worth taking a look. You could also consider the possibility of giving watches. Whether it's for man or woman watches may be appropriate for both of them. Watches can be acquired at different price range and also co
9:09am reply V3NOMOUS: your primary is disgraceful   cancel Chat 9:18am more To V3NOMOUS: *shrug* don't look/block it   cancel Chat 9:19am reply V3NOMOUS: I dont kno how u feel good about that pic   cancel Chat 9:20am more To V3NOMOUS: Like I said... don't look or block it. I don't know why you care and btw it's a cigarette not a joint.
Good Eeg Test Results Say That Struggles Are Worth Having And That Which Is Worth Having Is Worth Waiting For.
I had a letter yesterday from the hospital, namely from the Neurosurgeon instrumental to my having surgery.  It read that following the EEG tests to ascertain electrical activity in respect of future seizure activity, the results showed that although they were aware of a small number of sharper waveforms, during the over-breathing exercise test, they were on the right temporal lobe.  These however did not constitute ongoing epileptic activity.  Therefore it would appear that further medication reduction could take place in a year's time.  This will be my next appointment with the Neurologist and hopefully he will write the prescription for reduced dosage medication and the reduction can begin, slowly of course. These results are good news and I wish those who matter to me were still alive for me to share this happy news.  The struggles over the last four years have been worth putting up with although it has to be said that maybe the worst struggles encountered following surgery occur
A Story Of Rainy Days In Sri Lanka And A Bit Of A Diary For The Christmas Diary Letter List.
Well, what is there to grot about?  The leaf man has left so cannot really grumble about him.  I am not sure the toad would be happy to be written about today, nor his granddad.  Firstly he was exposed when someone lifted the wet mat off his back.  Poor thing was just minding his own business in the cracks of the patio.  He decided to hop it rather than croak it so did not have his photo taken. An after dinner walk led us to a pond which had the biggest granddaddy frog perching on the edge.  He too was disturbed by a nosing person and had to make an unceremonious leap into the pond for cover. I had a massage this morning which was uplifting and only the third one of the whole holiday.  It was a Chinese massage, back and head.  Worth every rupee too because he sorted my spinal twist and relieved the shoulder knots. We were supposed to be going to the lagoon but the taxi driver had a job on so somehow it could be the lagoona tomorrow and that is our last day here.  The rain has not b
Happy Birthday Playerette!!
Hell she's even real... We don't call her Shut Down Sharmy for nothin. xPlayerettex MJBxWCB@ fubar
   Well, I am a teacher, of 2 year olds, so yes there is a lot of stress in my job. But also in my life. My youngest has moved out and yes normally that would be a good thing. My son on the other hand has decided to do it in a bad way. Got fired 2 weeks after moving out and is now on Welfare I hear. Turns out you can't argue with Safety officials about their jobs...Go figure..   Why do kids have to be this way? What are we doing wrong in raising them nowadays? I hear we ask too much of them, yea right, not enough if you ask me. My son who is a brilliant young man (with no social skills) is destroying his life because he thinks it is ok to talk down to people, to make fun of them, and just ignore what was helping out at home (that's why he moved out) I wanted him to have normal hygiene, to put away his clothes (which I washed) and to rinse and put his dishes in the washer. No rent (so he could pay student loans) and no bills (same reason) and I got too much crap in return. No, I didn't
Don't Want No Short D*ck Man....
It's too early to deal with these douches.     My Chat Online Buddies (50+)ClearPop Out 6:20am reply juggalofir...: do little dicks make you laugh? 6:22am more To juggalofir...: yep. I point n everything 6:22am reply juggalofir...: mines 4inches is that big? 6:23am more To juggalofir...: um no. that's not very big 6:23am reply juggalofir...: is it tiny? 6:23am more To juggalofir...: it's pretty small. 6:24am reply juggalofir...: would u make fun of it 6:24am more To juggalofir...: without a doubt
....just The Way You Are.
Are you interested in anyone?I'm interested in a few people. Interested is such a vauge word. Has there been anyone particular on your mind at all today?a little If you could have one wish and have anything right now, what would that be?my own place Your plans for tomorrow?work and then making a pie with the boys. What is the first thing you usually do in the morning?pee. Do you miss someone?yes. Anyone you're looking forward to seeing soon?Of course Is tomorrow going to be a good day?I hope so Have you ever been to a funeral?I have... How about a wedding?Yeah.... Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama sweats over shorts?Jeans Has the last person you kissed ever took their shirt off in front of you?Sure has Did you have a dream last night?I did, but I don't really remember it. Do you want to say something to someone?Nope,  I'm good. Who was the first person you saw this morning? Connor Have you held hands with anyone today
Speaking Of Brain Dead Zombies
Just had a user come into my office and say "This government website is down, I wanted to know if someone could call them and find out when it will be back up" First of all, why can't you?  It doesn't require a degree to ask "When will you be back up?" Then, like they would even tell you, because you know constant interruptions always make me fix things faster. Yeah, I'll be so glad when I leave this place, I'm tired of being the master of the freaking internet.
To Everybody
everytime i turn around there is someone starting drama on this site.i am sick of it.just because you don't like someone does not mean you have the right to talk about scream out they are the hell do you know if i'm real.have you ever been with me or raised up with me.NO.i have never hung out with any of yall.alot of yall just want to hurt other people and don't care if someone has feeling for that person.everybody does things for a reason,might not be the right reason.i let myself get to jealous or stupid things on here and i have to pay the price for now yall care , focus on one thing was to hurt that person and never cared of what it would do to me.really get sick of this place.just want to leave this site for good.we i first come on this page i knew it was a bad thing .that took a hole 5 min.i really don't know why i logged back in this place.after three months i kept getting email from this look at me.i hurt alot of people i care about.not f
Okay. So I hear a whole lot of people talking about equailty. Call someone black, instead of "African American" and you are a racist. Call someone Orental, instead of "Asian American" guess racist bastard. Call someone a Jew instead of Hebrew, or Pagan instead of Wiccan, and you're not religously sensitve. You have to respect everybody. You have to call them whatever they have chosen to be called this week. YOU must be sensitive and understanding. Respect "African Amercans" even if they were born outside Africa and have never been there. Respect "Chinese Americans" who have never been near China. Respect, Jews, Christians, Muslims, Native Americans, Latin Americans....Hmmm wonder why there are no Canadian Americans? That being said, don't fret. You are FREE and welcome to discriminate. Gays, Lesbians and Bi-Sexuals are still fair game. Fell free to call them names, beat them, violate their rights. It's okay as log as you limit it to Gays, Lesbians and Bi-sexuals. JUST
Just Me
I sitting here on this site listening to music by my # dj and all i can think of is how and why peopl cant take me for me? back n day when i was on this site people were nice,now dont gte me wrong some people on here are awesome and then well there r some that are jus plain rude and full of themselves.This sote makes it so easy to friend,rate,crush etc on different people which aint back but when u rate someone and then friend them and they send u a message that says " umm ur not good enough to be on my page" or my favorite k umm i dont talk to fat people....right there that "FAT"word i dont know but damn that word pisses me tf off more then nething,i know im fluffy as i call but heres something the idiots who commented that was....yes im flufy but u either hate or love me either i really dont give a fuck either way u can watch me walk heres my lil quest......i challage neone reading this right now to go and talk to a "fluffy" person....ud b surprised what a HI means to them a
One Of The First Signs A Slave Is Not For Me.
If someone is applying to be a personal slave and you email them a single, first question BUT instead of getting even slightest acknowledgement that a question was asked (much less an answer) they write back, "Mistress when can i start serving you and become an obediant slave"; I'd say that's a bad sign, how bout you? It's one of the many early warning signs that I look for when deciding whether or not to consider a person applying to be my slave for even a first meeting in a public place... much less the possibility of serving me on any level. It's one of the many early warning signs that I look for when deciding whether or not to consider a person applying to be my slave for even a first meeting in a public place... much less the possibility of serving me on any level. MISTRESS GENEVIEVEhttp://msgenevieve.com
Nymph Of The Woods...
nymph of the woods... i am a nymph of the woods..  not that i can't sparkle in the city with  the glittering lights..  or that i don't catch my breath and hold  it by the majestic world on top of the frosty mountain.  i can be lulled hypnotic, listening to the roaring songs  of the waves and enjoy the warm, golden sand bubbling  between my toes..  i can lay flat on my back for an entire afternoon and be  constantly amazed by the various hues of blue in the sky  and the life of the moving clouds.. but my spirit belongs to the woods..  part of the cool, moist earth and the  soft whispers of the living trees and trickle  of clear brooks..  precious sunbeams, gloriously individual,
Words Of Pleasure...
so very flattered!!! i recieved this only moments ago... and im very flattered... it was written for me.. about me.. and oh man!!! to excite some one to cause a desire.. a thought... even a fantasy.... thank you ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Mmmm! They say a picture of beauty can speak a thousand words of pleasure...Well every time a picture of you comes into my mind...damn I find myself getting lost in so much pleasure and desire...that without hesitation I feel myself.....Wanting you, needing you...and when you're not here I find myself touching myself for you...I Often Find Myself Fantasizing About YouI can see my hands wanting to explore all of you....Your lips taste like you gently suck on my tongue...trying to pull me deeper into your mouth...It's then that my eyes will fully engage in the essences of your you'll stand before me in black lace...I'll slowly run my hand up b
Seduction By Poetry...
seduction by poetry...into my bed of poetry i invite you where i’ve laid myself out and opened my heart and mind if you like what you read and decide to dive into me i’ll swiftly take each of my poems and wrap it around you like a white silk sheet where you’ll find me in between and feel all of me as i twist my sentences around your waist trickle my words down your back breathe them into your ear and burn them into your mind my consonants will dig and cut into your burning skin my vowels will caress and kiss your body, pain, and pleasure at the same time i’ll kiss you deeply and intensely with each letter as i write my name across your chest and brand it into your heart you’ll grip my sheets of poems and unknowingly you’ll twist them around you even more getting yourself hopelessly lost in my web of poetry as each sentence wraps around you more and more tighter and tighter not minding that you can’t breathe anymore as you keep reading my scarle
Why Is It Always Me!
I wish i knew why it's always me that gets my feelings always hurt. I lost 2 friends today who i really deeply loved until and so i thought i could tell them how i feel and try to get them to understand. Through out my life i was physically & emotionally abused by my real father who lives in the UK now and has always. These 2 friends knew i was having a hard time when i met them and neither of them even cared about me or my feelings or even tried to comfort me anyway they could. They both left me on myself really emotionally sad and feeling not loved at all. I have always been there for my friends but why cant they be there for me? .  It's not easy at all infact you'll be pretty damn lucky if you can get over the abuse because i know i can't and it's haunted me ever since it's happened. After i told these 2 friends my exact feelings about them they blew their pipe off and ripped me up for telling them. I already had a feeling about these 2 ex friends and today they confirmed it for me
Tuesday September 28, 2010
Well, it's time for another edition of The Daily Crazy.......   Whatever happened to Soap-On-A-Rope? You guys remember that, right? I think it was invented for men in prison so that they wouldn't drop the soap, but then was taken away cause it could be used as a weapon. I don't know..... Anybody here remember George Carlin? One of the GREATEST comedians EVER. Here are 101 Greatest Carlin Quotes: I don’t have pet peeves — I have major psychotic fucking hatreds! Think of how stupid the average person is, and realize half of them are stupider than that. Swimming is not a sport. Swimming is a way to keep from drowning. That’s just common sense! A house is just a place to keep your stuff while you go out and get more stuff. Have you ever noticed that their stuff is shit and your shit is stuff? I wanna live. I don’t wanna die. That’s the whole meaning of life: Not dying! I figured that shit out by myself in the third grade. I used to be Irish Cath
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There is nothing so stable as change.  -  Bob Dylan
Do Not Make Me A Football Or Music Widow
Eleven third-graders were in my Sunday school class yesterday, the start of a busy day that I really needed because I started off in a bad mood.  I’m not sure why; one of my prayer requests (after Jeffrey ran in front of a car that came so close to hitting him) was “why am I so dark?”  Before we left the house for church, I slammed my fist down on the table by Jeffrey when he wasn’t clear enough speaking … my wife Martha shouted me down on this one, but I won’t point out the mote.  The high point of our ongoing Sunday school lesson on the Ten Commandments, besides attempting to teach them and reinforce them with the play, came when I asked the class was adultery (as in the seventh commandment, “Thou shalt not commit adultery”) was.  One young girl’s answer: “Killing an adult?”    You need a good laugh, something I need to remember next class.  The point of the play is for people to exaggerate themselves with the puppe
Ulysse Nardin Ei Toro Watch
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Zenith Defy Xtreme Watch
Speaking of the direct functions of the Zenith Defy Xtreme watch Split Second – telling the time – it performs them very effectively. Naturally, the central hands indicate the hours, minutes and seconds. But that is not all that the Zenith Defy Xtreme Split Second watch can do. Other than the date display window at 6 o’clock, there are two counters at 3 and 9 o’clock. The watch also features a graduated unidirectional rotating bezel that can be used to mark the elapsed time. For instance, the dial of the Zenith Defy Xtreme watch Split Second is made using the method of construction employed in car manufacturing – multi-layering. Each of the elements of the dial is made using a unique technology and materials. The case of the Zenith Defy Xtreme Split Second is designed in such a way as to resist shock.Apart from shock-resistance, the watch has many more useful features. The sapphire glass protecting the dial is coated with an anti-reflective layer that mak
Today, a humming bird flew around my building, came over and stopped right in front of me. It just stopped like 2 feet from my face, sat and stared at me for over a min. Then flew back in the same exact path that it flew in from. Now I don't know if humming birds are good omens, or good luck, or if it was some sort of message from God, but today has been the most unbelievable day ever. I have been crying actual tears of joy for hours now.
I Love U Why'd U Leave?
I once was able to love with the fullest of my heart, When we spilt that all fell apart. I cried so many tears and died so many nights, Trying to hold on trying to fight. I couldnt see my life past you, I simply didnt know what to do. I was broken even more destroyed, All the bullshit and with my emotions you toyed. Yeah I've moved on just to compare them to how you were, They never have a chance you ruined there score. I think you cursed the love I can produce, Now I feel so effing used. I gave you all of me mind body and soul, Sitting here telling myself I told you so. You disrupted my life for so long, After a year still wondering where I belong. I wish I would of know the outcome to the end,
Bca Auction
'Tis the season for auctions, it appears... Starting October 1st (If I'm lucky), I will be having a breast cancer awareness auction.  I haven't ironed out the details yet, but there will be no entry fee and bids will start with fubucks.  I will have a fubuck to cash conversion, and cash bids will not automatically outweigh fubuck offers. If you or someone you know would like to join, send me a PM with a link to the pic to be used.  I will make the graphic for the auction.   Now for the details... should people come up with what they want to offer, or should I have a blanket set of things bidders will get?
I called you tonight needed to hear ur voice, Just wanted you to know what ima bout to do is my choice. I cant go on loving someone I can no longer have, I cant continue to live my life heartbroken and sad. I've tried to move on but every thought I have is consumed by you, Just hold this is something I need you to do. Listen to me hear my plea, Its the least you could do to help set me free. I cant be haunted by a love that once was, Cant you love me jus cuz. I mean seriously all that I gave, Your going to let me take this to my grave. Tell me you love me one last time, Whisper in my ear everything will be fine. I never did anything to make u leave, And what you did to me I can not believe. The tears are falling so fast and hard, These feelings Im trying to discard.
Some Things You Got To Let Go
ok i came to understand that i need to let things go . my friend is being used by this asshole guy and he is useing her like a goldigger and she have gave him stuff and he did not give her nothing in return but a fuckin headache and i tried talking to her and nothing have worked and he have even cheated on her and i told her because a friend caught him and she did not believe me and the other night as i was going to work i could not drive i had to pull over and chill and i called her and told her i could not be friends for a while and she hung up with me all mad and i really at this point dont care because when you do all you cant to help someone and you get nothing but stress and pain its time to let it go . it sucked doing it i was crying but i feel my life would be a whole lot better with out that drama :( and i so i found a quote that goes with how i feel   "I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you
It's Amazing
It's amazing how I feel when I'm around you,How my heart pounds when you come into a room.I look at you and think: My God! How lovely!And everything I am bursts into bloom. I feel as though you must, you must be mine,Not as a possession but a goal,Something almost unimaginable:The free devotion of another soul. As though I were about to enter heavenOr just within the hour condemned to die,My mind with one fierce thought keeps running over,With you, and only you, the reason why.
My First Expirence With Fubar
Hell0 world , my first expirence wiyh fubar has not been so bad , but can be better.  Hope i doe'nt bore any one, I promise i'll try not to. well that all for know...see ya!    
I Love Mixed Martial Arts
I absolutely love Mixed Martial Arts (MMA). I never miss to watch a UFC event and love catching up on the newest mma gear ! My top 5 favorite fighters are: Randy Couture, BJ Penn, GSP, Fedor and Lyoto Machida.
The Wonderfull Life Of Us
In this day and age of Facebook, Fubar, Myspace, how did people find each other 30 years ago? Don't get me wrong this is cool stuff, but how much farther can this go? I think more about what is going on in my computer world more then my reality itself. With texting, and email, and Photoshop I still have a family, a job and a list of other things that I have to do. i think i put that in my black berry in the "Things to do folder". I feel that the world is driving us to sit in front of a computer for the rest of our lives. My kids who are 3 and 5 already know how to go on Toy Wiz and look up Star Wars action figures. WOW What is next. You back in the day people who lived off the grid were like the people who lived in the hills. Now is like if you don't have a T1 line or cable modem you are out of the loop. Remember Pagers?  Everyone had to have a pager. I don't think doctors have them now, or intergated into their 600 dollar phones. Has there ever been a time that you didn't want to both
Chop Suey
Want to make a girl feel like shit?  All the guys I know have figured out how to do it, all they do is insist on telling me how hot my best friend is and how they would like to get w/ her.  Hi remember me I'm the fat ugly friend apparently.  talk about a good way to ruin a girls ego.  I mean come on is it really necessary for everyone to tell me how hot she is and i'm not?  Why do i want to know that everyone is attracted to her and not me Guess i'm just feelin sorry for myself cause yeah it gets really really old.  
My Journey, My Adventure By Dj Marco Andre
Hey readers, I hope you are all having a good day!   Thought I would tell you about my latest adventure. Last week I took a road trip to Texas and it was the most incredible experience and most far out thing I have ever done alone. Originally I was going to chill with a friend who used to live in my city years ago. Didnt quite work out and Im almost convinced he has a few screws loose since back in the day. BTW - Stop texting me weird messages like Im still down there. You know we have mutual friends, dont make me put it on blast. I will always remember your faces even if not the name because you are truly part of a new chapter in my life networking and promoting my developing web based business, nationwide. I would like to send a special shout to Red, Christina, Fatima and Svetka. You four are the best and more importantly were with me at the start of my journey which makes you stand out in my mind the most. I even met 4 rappers along the way, the way back and a stylest al
Accepting "i Can't "
TRUTH   VS.    THOUGHT/BELIEF   ...TERMS....   Truth can have a variety of meanings, from the state of being the case, being in accord with a particular fact or reality.  Reality is the state of things as they actually exist, rather than as they may appear or may be thought to be.[1] In its widest definition, reality includes everything that is and has being, whether or not it is observable or comprehensible. Belief is the psychological state in which an individual holds a proposition or premise to be true.    Truth.... I am mentally ill.       Truth ...I am physically ill     belief.....Someone  cares  about me..     truth.......THAT  someone needs  help.      belief.....i was in a relative situation.  REALITY-  I become emotionally ill .. Struggling with a fight.   TRUTH-   I h
To My Lil Girl
I can remember a sad winter night not to long ago whin you were took from me,my love,and the only place we called home.As your mom packed all your stuff determined she was gonna leave,I can remember all the worm tears running down my cheek.I prayed to god to please help me change your mothers mind ,but nothing seemed to work you see i was running out of time.How could she do this just take my only baby girl,without a word or warning she ruined my entire world.She crushed all my plans for us,thoughts of you and me,now without you in my life im feeling so incomplete.Maybe someday,in some kind of way ill have you back in my life,so i wont ever have to feel the pain i felt that sad winter night--
Friday, December 18, 2009 Restless Search For Mr./mrs. Right
RESTLESS SEARCH FOR MR./MRS. RIGHT Unstable Interpersonal Relationship Traits Shift in adittude in others Ideaization Avoidance Manipulation Intolerance of separation Afflicted w/ Self Loathing need constant intimacy Fear of intimacy Major distrust of all others Private ritualistic thinking consistant behavior /habit Repel/frustrate needs
Past Blogs Help Me See My Progress..."made Your Bed"
Sunday, January 17, 2010 Made your bed Made your bed   (dedicated to...Someone that thought he was better than me,,, And my stupid ass believed him) Now go and lye in it,  Hide from every lye in the world that you've just spun me and others in the past 3 months..    Use your excuses all you like.. Thats right .. Guilt gets lighter if you pin your actions on someone else.. But its better to act like im the problem.. He's the problem She's the problem This time i see  it was NEVER ME.. Its your way to be,,, I stuck up for you ,to get STABBED And learn that everyone was right about you.. what you pushed me to believe   it was never you. You use  You hurt You lye You cheat But its all right  Cause you got a lye.. An alibi Go use the next guy  Tell them a bunch of lyes about me Why?? Awww u need sympathy. Need people to carry you through life Proud of your accomplishment A real hero  Because you never worked for anything never have everything,, Use everybody 
Find Fuck Buddys
Find A Fuck Buddy Tonight
[you Were Always On My Mind]
I can not stop thinking about slamming my longglisteningbrass caseinto your well greased chamber.Kakow.Need a sniper game.This is actually just a test as I try to fix my blog.Witchie broke it :|
feeling empty feeling alone i jus want to sit at home crawln in a lil box under the ground and pray that i end up drowned the happiness i had has once left me  the joy that i had in my heart fell apart i dont think im ever ment to be happy the sorrow has taken my soul up completley i thought i found someone who can turn me round i guess i thought rong so i found  i gave my heart and it has been shattered thats what i get for becoming so clouded i actually fell in love with him trusting and thinkin i could live again i was so dumb for opening up  why did couldnt i have learned so much  the first few times i took down the wall  and let someone in they stole it all  you would think i would learn my lesson am i that desperate to keep getting hurt with depression  ik now that i wont eva win  on a battle of nothing but pretend i needa stop living in the fantasy world  wake up and realize that my world wont stop the spin  all men are the same they all nothing but lame
ever feel like you dont belong like everyone hates you from night till dawn the 3rd wheel is hard to accept but sometimes its only for the best dont want to get into the mix of things jus feel like your being nosey all the same going everyday and feeling ignored makes you go crazi and feel unadored you sit and think what is wrong with me do i really make that big of a scene to lose everyone i have ever loved i feel like i will never rise above the emotions i feel hurt to the max i wished i didnt have a heart made of glass to where eryone can see in and take control i want to not care and not have a soul i want my heart to be ice cold so i wont feel nothing at all i dont want to have a damn care in the world i want to find that intended wall that i had up at one point in time to keep out everyone and to block all from sight it was easier to pretend that all would jus end i have my good and bad days jus like all the rest so dont juj me for what im saying for you would be the fool to assu
My Days Are Numbered
my days are numbered and so are my nights thinking about it leaves me in fright i lose so much sleep tossing and turning dont know where i am going but i long for the yearning i want you to see what i can truley be age is jus a number cant you see im full of love and care freewhy cant you love me just for me jus when i think i have found someone who truley cares the assholes have found me from somewhere its all a game to them i seeplaying with my heart so fucked up for memy mind is racing with thoughts galorewhat is wrong with me i think once moream i to old to be in this gamei cant be happy but theres no one to blamesarrow lives beneath this framemy days are numbered and so are my nightsi no longer live in fright my heart ice cold within my soul how could someone love me being so old one day maybe that man will come and melt my frozen heart some until that time i will be lonely and freenever fullfilling what should become of me sitting here waiting what could be but never the less alw
Snuff - Slipknot
Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocence, and leave me with my sinsThe air around me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...So if you love me, let me go.And run away before I know.My heart is just too dark to care.I can't destroy what isn't there.Deliver me into my fate -If I'm alone I cannot hateI don't deserve to have you...My smile was taken long agoIf I can change I hope I never knowI still press your letters to my lipsAnd cherish them in parts of me that savor every kissI couldn't face a life without your lightBut all of that was ripped apart...when you refused to fightSo save your breath, I will not hear.I think I made it very clear.You couldn't hate enough to love.Is that supposed to be enough?I only wish you weren't my friend.Then I could hurt you in the end.I never claimed to be a saint...My own was banished long agoIt took the death of hope to let you goSo break yourself against my stonesAnd spit your pity in my so
Zzyxz Road - Stone Sour
I don't know how else to put this.It's taking me so long to do this.I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight.My muscles feel like a melee,My body's curled in a U-shape.I put on my best, but I'm still afraid.Propped up by lies and promises.Saving my place as life forgets.Maybe it's time I saw the world.I'm only here for a while.And patience is not my style,And I'm so tired that I got to go.Where am I supposed to hide now?What am I supposed to do?Did you really think I wouldn't see this through?Tell me I should stick around for you.Tell me I can have it all.I'm still too tired to care and I got to go.I get to go home in one week.But I'm leaving home in three weeks.They throw me a bone just to pick me dry.I'm following suit and directions.I crawl up inside for protection.I'm told what to do and I don't know why.I'm over-existing in limboI'm over the myths and placebosI don't really mind if I just fade awayI'm ready to live with my family.I'm ready to die in obscurityCause I'm so tired
Blog Challenge: Idiot F**k Sakes Do Something For
DO YOU WANT a SOCIAL NETWORK that is like leaving work on a hump day and you stop in at the local bar? NOT family, friends or co-workers on facebook but a place full of rounds, games, flirts and webcam stream or roulette. THEN you must join and find friends, make a family, get fu-married or fu-divorced and join a lounge too. The site is basically free all access but it offers lots of tempting points prizes and VIP access for donations or subscription too. What the hell is this? doesn't look like that page?   Do you belong to a ning,, or other social network host? How many interest socials where member's can build a sub-group and administrate it, host and fan page it.. well IDIOT f**k sakes DO something for like this because am CHALLENGING you to reply with your comment after reading this and not move on until your profess and gather your fubar companions wherever your online social life takes your ugly stupid ass.  
Chat With A Known Cam Girl Lol
Ok this is a little chat i had with a known CAM girl on here. I hope you find it as entertaining as I did making it LMAO! They are such dumb asses! And let it be known, NO SHE WAS NOT HAKED. LMAO I cant and wouldnt do that....... but what she doesnt know wont hurt her now will it LOL! Enjoy!   nucking_futz33: ok turn that cam on like you promised'Joana Jones: ok babe but i have a lil favor nucking_futz33: LMAO, I knew itJoana Jones: wat do you mean?nucking_futz33: spill itnucking_futz33: where do you want me to vote for you?Joana Jones: on my linknucking_futz33: uh hunucking_futz33: turn the cam on firstYou have accepted the invitation to start photo sharing.Joana Jones: i have but in the private site Joana Jones: just click this ****Deleted HTML for privacy reasons****nucking_futz33: ahhhhhhh but didnt you just say that you would turn it on here? Why do we have photo sharing up? Do you plan on showing me something?Joana Jones: babe do that linkJoana Jones: okJoana Jone
Never Enough - Five Finger Death Punch
I'm so fed up with everyone around meNo one seems to careI'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna changeI'll never be the sameIt's always do this, do that, everything they want toI don't wanna live that wayEvery chance they get they're always pushing me awayIt's never enough, no it's never enoughNo matter what I sayIt's never enough, no it's never enoughI'll never be what you want me to beIt's all so messed up and no one ever listensEveryone's derangedI'm just so fucked up and I'm never gonna changeI wanna lay it all to wasteThey're always say this, say that, nothing that you want toI don't wanna live that wayEvery chance they get they're always shoving me asideIt's never enough, no it's never enoughNo matter what I sayIt's never enough, no it's never enoughI'll never be what you want me to beI'M DONE!In the end we're all just chalk lines on the concreteDrawn only to be washed awayFor the time that I've been givenI am what I amI'd rather hate you for everything you areThan ever love yo
...You just have to shake your head and walk away. There's really no other options...I thought about another things I learned this week blog, But frankly, I haven't learned anything really, nothing that stuck at least... I guess learning that the possibility that someone can truly give a damn is something big, yet at the same time, I know how to love and how to care, I know how to stop being a hard ass long enough to actually put forth effort into something. The one person who'z sworn to love and cherish and uphold you will more often be the one person that will let you down, time and time and time again, sometimes it's just an inevitable part of the day to day, the let down and constant down side to actually giving all of you. So when that's all over, A person has to rebuild, from the ground up. This process takes time, it takes effort. It takes wanting to prove to the world but most importantly yourself that you can not be beat, that you can NOT be held down. Nothing in this world t
Warm N Fuzzy
It's a crisp, rainy Fall day here in the Bluegrass and I LOVE it!  Autumn is my favorite time of year.  The colors, scents, and briskness in the air never fails to refresh me.   I love the warmth and coziness of dim lights, fuzzy throws, hot spiced teas, scented candles or wax tarts burning.  Today it's Hot Maple Toddy scented tarts. :)   I've already decorated my front door and front flower bed for the season.  Autumn leaves, pumpkins,  chrysanthemums in yellow and dark red, and a cute lil scarecrow.     Time to bake fresh apple cakes, apple dumplings, apple pie, pumpkin bread, and make some fried apple pies.  Pour another glass of fresh cider.     What a lovely time of year.  :)     That is all....   For now.
Chili's And St. Jude's
I saw this when I ate lunch there on Friday and some friends are putting it in their fb status, so I am being a sheep for a good cause. If you're going out to lunch or dinner tonight, go to Chili's--100% of their profits today go to St. Jude's Childrens Research Hospital. You can go to the Chili's website to make a donation or find them on fb.   :)
well i have 40 some pics of me & will be adding more  over time but if you think im doing a salute ur crazy i dont think i need to hold a little paper up to make friends & ya dont like me cus of that then ur lame im here to have fun  & become best friends & more  if it happens  to turn intoo more great
Hosting A Another Auction!!
Im hosting another Auction!!! So if u wanna join up, send me a PM with the subject Auction, the pic u wanna use and ur offers by Thursday the 30th. I will open up the auction Friday morning (Oct 1st). The auction will end whenever ur happy with a bid. There is no entry fee! I will not have any DRAMA, so it its u or surrounds u, u will be removed from  auction and friends list..thanks, Sheri
Girls Of 4 Moon House - Part 4b
WARNING: Not for persons under the age of 18.Story contains descriptions of extreme violence and sex. Preface:I write in an effort to change the attitude of the deviant reader... paradoxically those that find what I write appealing. It is by my graphic harshness and salacious content that I attract (bait) those readers ... those deviant minds that I can then interact with... in an attempt to change misguided notions and attitudes of abuse against women and children. My methods are deviously unique... but very successful. I write to AROUSE...and then to APPALL... and so the bitter seed is planted. My stories do not glorify the act of coerced sex or violence... nor do I support sexual abuse of any kind." violence is typically unrealistic, simplistic, glorified, and even presented as humorous."The "bang, bang, you're dead" sanitized scenario that we so often see on TV or in films communicates nothing of the reality of death or dying.It is only when we see death firstha
Rip Cliff
Stone Sour- Bother
Wish I was too dead to cry My self affliction fades Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go till it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason My flaws are open season One good turn deserves my dying For this, I gave up trying You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther Once I hold on I won't let go till it bleeds Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go till it bleeds You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I'll never live down my deceit Stones to throw at my creator I don't need to be   
Dont Forget About Me
They say love is just a gameThey say time can heal the painSometimes you win, sometimes you loseAnd I guess I'm just a foolI keep holding on to youI told you once you were the oneYou know that I'd die for youAlthough it hurts to see you goOh this time you should knowI won't try to stop youDon't you forget about me babyDon't you forget about me nowSome day you'll turn around and ask me, why did i let you goSo you try to fake a smileYou don't wanna break my heartI can see that you're afraidBut baby it's to lateCoz I'm already dyingDon't you forget about me babyDon't you forget about me nowSome day you'll turn around and ask me, why did I let you go
Girls Of 4 Moon House - Part 4a
WARNING: Not for persons under the age of 18.Story contains descriptions of extreme violence and sex. Preface:I write in an effort to change the attitude of the deviant reader... paradoxically those that find what I write appealing. It is by my graphic harshness and salacious content that I attract (bait) those readers ... those deviant minds that I can then interact with... in an attempt to change misguided notions and attitudes of abuse against women and children. My methods are deviously unique... but very successful. I write to AROUSE...and then to APPALL... and so the bitter seed is planted. My stories do not glorify the act of coerced sex or violence... nor do I support sexual abuse of any kind." violence is typically unrealistic, simplistic, glorified, and even presented as humorous."The "bang, bang, you're dead" sanitized scenario that we so often see on TV or in films communicates nothing of the reality of death or dying.It is only when we see death firstha
DIFFERENT WAYS OF LOOKING AT THINGSTwo guys were discussing popular family trends on sex, marriage, andFamily values.Bill said, 'I didn't sleep with my wife before we got married, did you?'Larry replied, 'I'm not sure, what was her maiden name?'___________________________________________A little boy went up to his father and asked: 'Dad, where did myIntelligence come from?'The father replied. 'Well, son, you must have got it from your mother,Cause I still have mine.'___________________________________________'Mr. Clark, I have reviewed this case very carefully,' the divorce CourtJudge said, 'And I've decided to give your wife $775 a week,''That's very fair, your honor,' the husband said. 'And every now andThen I'll try to send her a few bucks myself.'___________________________________________A doctor examining a woman who had been rushed to the Emergency Room,Took the husband aside, and said, 'I don't like the looks of your wifeAt all.''Me neither doc,' said the husband. 'But she's a
Fubar Seriously Needs To Listen This Is The Most Important Thing Fu Needs To Take Care Of!
Ok seriuosly   i had this real long thing typed out so im going to try and type out as much as i  can remember from it   so here its goes   Fubar has been talkin about making changes and has been asking its users to make suggestions so heres a few of mine   IM SICK AND TIRED OF FAKES...and fubar thought they would make us post salutes to prove that we are real people...but most users have found out that theres a way around fubars salute rule   Take Dark Ang3l Owner of hot women and Hot Cars lounge for example shes a lvl 28 i believe and has NO SALUTE... how is this so you may ask well shes running an incredible head game on MANY MANY MANY people... she will cyber you and make you think theres a chance of a relationship...but there isnt see shes good like that she plays head games so bad...she done it to a friend of many on fubar and hes no longer with us... if you cant buy her something then she gets pissed and turns on you... she has skype and YIM and claims shes got
My white cat Jack got hit by a car this morning. H e was always the adventurous one and never stuck to his training. So i suppose this day was going to happen sooner or later. He's the most vocal cat I've ever had though, it was never a wonder when he was around. Im gonna miss him. I still have suzie, she stays at home all the time. I hope jack's death doesnt change her too much. Thanks for condolences everyone, I hope youll understand if Im not to vocal today :(
Earth's Black, Scorched Heart By Brad Hursey
I'm speaking on behalf of our planet right now When everyone in the south was gettin' everyone crunked up Corporate america must have paid mother earth To keep her mouth shut the fuck up   Americans will put up with anything as long as it doesn't block traffic But we're ready at the drop of a hat and shit To see a motherfucker get his ass kicked If he's fuckin' with our pussy, our paper or plastic We're quick to get the gat quick and clap shit And put his bitch ass in a casket If he makes us insecure or does something drastic Now when you take this theory and grasp it Get realistic and graphic Maybe you'll think about it like that's sick And not sick like when I'm writin' these rhymes But sick like someone who really isn't right in his mind Cause we walk around ignorant  I don't care so long as it doesn't affect me We can stand up to eachother but we can't stand collectively Up to a bunch of stuffed suits that govern us deceptively And rape our planet that we all s
Comida Sana
Me encanta comer bien y que la gente se cuide. Porque hay que saber saborear de la buena comida y disfrutar de platos que no solo se sirvan de carne.
Anti Spam Warriors!
This one is for you.   Honestly…All those who go around looking for content to shout spam on, in my opinion is very sad! Think about it… THIS IS THE INTERNET, you can choose what you do or do not view, yet you take the time out to eye someone else’s space and then even more time out to tag spam or report it…After they posted one, YES ONE, link!   Why was it so hard for you to just ignore it?   Don’t get me wrong I know there are folks that do abuse the internet, corrupt and clutter it with crap… But someone, who is, trying to promote their legit business why would you try and get in the way of that???   Yet you don’t take time out to report the repeated adverts on T.V that consistently and continuously promotes junk food, and what ever other sleaze you can think of!??   You confuse me… Internet police, you all have too much time on your hands!!!   Perhaps I do too for even writing this, but it is REALLY jarring arrrrrrrr
Seeing how hot and muggy it was today the children all got asked to go and have a drink from the bubbler's to ensure that they don't over heat or dehydrate and as they swarm around waiting to get a chance at having a drink a little boy says to me "shell theres a frog"... "where?!?" i ask he leans over looking down the drain in the sink i lean over the top of him and look down theres no frog there but this little boy is concentrating really hard on looking to see this so called frog, me being me ceases the opportunity i give a quick light poke to the sides of his belly and say in a deepish voice "RIBBET"  it scared him and he jumped out of his skin Fortunately for me a little girl who had heard him say there was a frog there but didn't see me scare him came up to have a look for this frog she bent over looking down the drain and as she did i once more gave a quick light poke to her sides and in my deep voice said "RIBBET" she to jumped out of her skin
Today in the sweltering heat and humidity i plonked myself down on the large soft block next to the small trampoline in the shade under the tree to watch the children and make sure they were taking turns and sharing the trampoline when a boy all of two years old come screaming across the yard yelling my name i smile and say his name back to him and he says to me with the UT most enthusiasm and excitement he declares to me " I have pockets" i get all excited and say "pockets! thats awesome!.. and what do you have in your pockets?" and as he stands there so cute and boyish he replies   "hands" 
Nothing New
it's been a while since my last blog. juts doing my job everyday here at balad. dealing with mortar rocket attacks alomst a daily bases after a while it's get annoying they almost never hit anything but dirt. and other shit that goes on vehicle accident's, people being stupid, just reglar shit that i do back home station i do here as well. i'm still praying and waiting until get back home. with hard work i'll be 40 pounds lighter and 14000$ richer.
Fu-owned Auction 14 Preview
Comment Please: How Important Are Friends Made Online?
HOW IMPORTANT are friends made online? Since becoming a geek which started for me in my mid-thirties, I always thought of the internet as an artistic and social tool. So began by blogging my thoughts, creating original virtual artwork and the past three years spend a lot of time in webcam chats, instant messages and circles of interests on facebook and other social networks. Intelligence and conversations are a turn-on to me meeting people. These two things can be evident in cyber conversations. Over time, now have made many 'friends' online with my instant messenger filled by more persons I have never met in person. Just like my visible friends, I find myself reflecting some days about a online friends recent shares or their birthday and special occasions, too. These are people in my thoughts. I am not talking about someone who would ask me to loan them money. Someone who badgers me for more contact. Just people online who drop messages and check in to say 'hello'.
Monday September 27, 2010
The V Sign - Wtf???
This is taken from the Urban Dictionary.   V Sign    A hand symbol usually performed while drunk, in public, in front of a camera by an ugly wannabe scenester chick. It is performed by holding up the middle and index fingers accompanied by some hideous snarled lip or grotesque tongue wagging. While originating with British folks, and a sign used by gang bangers, and most commonly done by Asian people whenever they get their pictures taken these stupid scenester wannabe hookers seem to think it looks cool or hip. While in all reality they look dumber than ever and every guy and cool chick is laughing their asses off at them both in person and every time they blind themselves by looking at their pathetic myspace pages. Hey check out that fat ugly aging emo/punk/rock-a-billy/wannabe scenester whore doing the whole stupid V sign in front of her own camera so she can post pictures on myspace of how cool and stupid she is.
Trekking Info
The best way to experience Nepal’s unbeatable combination of natural beauty and cultural riches is to walk through them. The immense contrasts in altitudes and climates found here support an equally spectacular mix of lifestyles, vegetation types and wildlife. Trekking in the mountains of Nepal is more a cultural experience than a wilderness expedition. You will be passing through picturesque villages inhabited by diverse ethnic groups. You will see Chhetri farmers working in their fields and Tamang herders grazing their animals on the steep slopes. You will meet Gurkha soldiers home on leave and come across Sherpa yak drivers transporting goods over the high mountain passes. And always in the background, the icy pinnacles of the Himalaya loom over the scenery. Trekking in Nepal is an all season activity. It is possible at any time of the year depending on where one wishes to go. However, the most popular season are spring (February - May ) and autumn (September-November). Even d
[holy Crap. That Was Dull]
Go ahead and ask me.I have NO idea what I did today.Uuuh...Disassembling my Zaku I took about 5 seconds.Snapping the left hip joint off...Oh my FUCKING god... *sigh*Really pissed about that.Damn thing was way too firm fitting, and just like a dozey episode of genshiken, the damn thing just clicked and fell off when I forced the issue.I didn't cry.I'm surprised that I didn't.Then I masked every freaking contact point on my kit while the hip joint's super glue set.It's ready to paint...Kinda.I need about ... a dozen more clips and more skewers. I think I'll be happy if I get primer down on all the parts.I isolated all the unique parts (center)all the left side partsall the right side partsall the internal parts (the skeleton of the torso) (not being painted)all the head partsThe head and hands are going to be the most complicatedthoughdue to the unique nature of the shins, I decided to mask the knees rather than remove thembut back to the headAlright, the head consists of2 small rubber j
ok so yeah i totally get that you have an opinion and you are entitled to it... but where in that do you get that i actually might want to know about or hear your opinion, keep it to yourself unless i ask for it... i could really care less about it... or what you think of me... and i dont want to hear you go on and on about it... its not like your that interesting anyways... geeze learn how to stfu...  and quit stating your opinion to me as though you are bitching about it.... it gets so old and so fast hearing about the same damn thing all the time!!! so you dont like me? do you really need to tell me?
Cherokee Word Set
English (Français) Cherokee One (Un) Sagwu Two (Deux) Ta'li Three (Trois) Tso'i Four (Quatre) Nvgi Five (Cinq) Hisgi Man (Homme) Asgaya Woman (Femme) Agehya Dog (Chien) Gihli Sun (Soleil) Nvda Moon (Lune) Nvda Water (Eau) Ama White (Blanc) Unega Yellow (Jaune) Dalonige Red (Rouge) Gigage Black (Noir) Gvhnige Eat (Manger) Agi'a See (Voir) Agowatiha Hear (Entendre) Atvgi'a Sing (Chanter) Dekanogi'a
So, for one of my classes tomorrow, we're supposed to draw a concept map by hand. It's a team project, but since it was such a simple task, we elected one person from my team to do this. Unfortunately for my team, I got chosen. Now, for those of you who don't know what a concept map is, it looks something like this:     So, here's my concept map for my class:    
Omega De Ville Watches For Your Christmas
      For watches lover, their interesting is collect all kinds of value watches. With a total of 12 distinguished watches for men, 5 for women, the omega de ville Collection is one of the largest collections created by the brand. Offering a glittering array of graceful and elegant omega seamaster watches_Omega watches_replica Omega watches, this collection is the answer to all your painstaking quests for a high quality watch. I always think the omega de ville Collection is worthy collection. The men's De Ville collection features a square dial X2 obtainable as a co-axial chronograph either with big date or slim second characteristics. This collection offers a myriad of COSC certified chronometer watches ranging from the GMT, Power Reserve, Our Vision, and Chronoscope to Rattadante. These watches are available in two forms of dials, including the 38.7mm and 41mm dials. With various colors, you can always find one to fit your attire no matter what your preference is. The transparent
First Day
so this is my first day on fubar...i'm a bit confused, but i'll get the hang of it soon, i'm please have patience with me as i learn to use this site, lol...
Ulysse Nardin El Toro Replica
    Famous for being amongst the pioneering brands of Haute Horology, ulysse nardin el toro replica_Ulysse Nardin_replica Ulysse Nardin watches is worldwide known for its passion for marine chronometers, the original field of activity of this brand. In 1846, when this brand was founded, the marine chronometers were in high demand by the US marine and Ulysse Nardin was amongst the best providers of quality sporty watches for the marine. Later on, the company developed its portofolio and started creating innovative timepieces that are considered landmark pieces of the watch making artistry.        The new timepiece brought on the market by Ulysse Nardin will be exhibited during the Baselworld 2010 event and will definitely stir up the audience present there. Peculiar to Ulysse Nardin, this watch displays a progressive and contemporary design which captures the eye immediately, while its movement is a combination between all the very best techniques and innovative technical elements em
Rain Drops
I feel the rain falling on my skin, cool drops falling and running down my body...They become your hands as they begin to slowly run down my face and neck, making visions dance wildly in my mind... Onto now my aroused awaiting breasts they travel, running down to the tips of my nipples and dripping off onto the ground below... The crease between my breasts has now become a valley in which they run down to my stomache touching so softly and gently... father down they move caressing me touching my inner thighs causing their own twisted delight, they are teasing me... Moving down my legs calves and ankles and off the tips of my toes I notice they have made a picture below, a puddle of water to some, but to me a passionate pool of rain drops is what I see...
Road Side Drinks (from The Grass To The Glass)
- Bash'em Brandy       from the fender to the bender - Red  Swipe       a splotch of mice on ice - Freeway Frappe'         swirl of squirrel with a turnpike twist - Strawberry Quackery        fermented foal fruit - Slipper Sipper            creme d' windshield & elk stool gruel -  Rubber Rum           tread of the dead -  Pigeon Collided           the taste with an impact -   Road Runner Slammer            for the run through,            rundown, runover feeling -   Squirrelly Temple            I.Q.  brain juice -   Squirming Organ isms             critters you can't keep down -   Crushed Coyote Cooler             you'll howl all night -    Gravel gimlet              guess the mess                   Median Microbrew    -   Tire Tread Red                a mashed, slow brand                of rabbit hops -   Porcupine  Porter                  a quill-fully crafted brew                   that sticks to you -    Possum Tail Ale                 
THE POEMI knelt to pray but not for long,I had too much to do.I had to hurry and get to workFor bills would soon be due.So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,And jumped up off my knees.My Christian duty was now doneMy soul could rest at ease.....All day long I had no timeTo spread a word of cheerNo time to speak of Christ to friends,They'd laugh at me I'd fear.No time, no time, too much to do,That was my constant cry,No time to give to souls in needBut at last the time, the time to die.I went before the Lord,I came, I stood with downcast eyes.For in his hands God held a book;It was the book of life.God looked into his book and said"Your name I cannot find.I once was going to write it down...But never found the time"
When You Thought I Wasn't Looking
WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you hang myfirst painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wantedto paint another one. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you feed astray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kindto animals When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make myfavorite cake for me and I learned that the little things can bethe special things in life. When you thought I wasn't looking, I heard you say aprayer, and I knew there is a God I could alwaystalk to and I learned to trust in God. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make ameal and take it to a friend who was sick, and Ilearned that we all have to help take care of each other. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give ofyour time and money to help people who had nothingand I learned that those who have something should !give to those who don't. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you takecare of our house and everyone in it and I
Beautiful Prayer
I asked God to take away my pain.They said, No. It is not for us to take away you pain , but for you to give it up.I asked to make my handicapped child whole. They said , No. Her spirit is whole , her body was only temporary.I asked to grant me patience.Ther said, No. Patience is a by product of tribulations: It isn't granted , it is learned.I ask to give me happinessThey said , No. We give you blessing . Happinessis up to you.I asked to spare me pain They said, No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly caresand brings you closer to Us.I asked to make my spirit growm.They siad , No. you must grow on your own, but We will pruneyou to make you fruitfullI asked for all things that i might enjoy life. Godsaid , No . We will give you life so that you mayenjoy all thingsI ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as They love me.They said.....AHHHHHH, Finally you have the idea.
I Will Be There
I'll be there*When no one is there for you**And you think no one cares**When the whole world walks out on you**And you think you're alone**I'll be there**When the one you care about the most**Could care less about you**When the one you gave your heart to**Throws it in your face**I'll be there**When the person you trusted**Betrays you**When the person you share all your memories with**Cant even remember your birthday**I'll be there**When all you need is a friend**To listen to you whine**When all you need is someone**To catch your tears**I'll be there** When your heart hurts so bad** You cant even breathe** When you just want to crawl up and die**I'll be there**When you start to cry**After hearing that sad song**When the tears just won't**Stop falling down**I'll be there**So you see I'll be there until the end**This is a promise I can make**If you ever need me**Just give me a call and...**I'll be there...*
Memories Of What Once Was
                                                              Memories of What Once Was        Sittin' in a small cafe'      sippin' on some Joe      Thinking of the times we shared,      Oh so long ago.         I shouldn't be shocked,       I shouldn't be surprised,       It all started with       Little white lies.        Reading some faded letters,      I've held close to my Heart,      faded through time,      I cherish more,      ever since things fell apart.       I shouldn't be shocked     I shouldnt be surprised,     It all started with     little white lies.       Holding on to the memories     and the dreams that never came true,     unprepared for how life would be,     now that I no-longer have you.       I shouldn't be shocked,     I shouldn't be surprised,     It all started with     little white lies.       I knew what I wanted,     but I didn't know     what to look for,     then I found you     I couldn't ask for anything more.  
Sometimes I get so tired of being me...   The End.
True Life
I came home from work about a quarter to 3pm. I ran upstairs so excited to tell you about my day. Then, I saw the door. It was closed, but I knew what was going on. So, I knocked. "Let me mute the tv", I heared. I waited. Then a reply of "what do you want"? " I just wanted to let you know I'm home from work......hey did you ever get the dining room table or the christmas tree"? She simple replied back "yeah, they're both in the garage". The last words I heared from my Mom. 45 minutes later I hear my father calling my name. So, naturally I went to see what was up. I was only down the hall. First words I hear out of his mouth is "I can't wake your mother up". "What the fuck you mean you can't wake her up", I replied. I look in the bedroom and I don't see her anywhere. I run around the corner and she's laying on the bathroom floor. I just panic. I run over to her and see she's not moving or breathing. She's laying there lifeless with purple & blue as her skin tone. I had no
To Those I Love And Those Who Love Me
I love you so much mom and with everyday that I wake up. . .I still can't believe your gone.I know your in a better place and watching over me, but I just can't let go of you. I will make you proud of me someday. I love you mommy and you'll always be in my heart forever. . . mani   While I am gone release me, let me go. I have so many things to see and do. You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears. Be happy that we had so many beautiful years. I gave to you my love. You can only guess  how much you gave to me in happiness. I thank you for the love that you each have shown. But now it's time I"ve traveled on alone. To grieve for me awhile, if grieve you must. Then let your grief comforted by trust, it's only awhile we must part, to bless the memories within your heart. I won't be far away, for life goes on, so if you need me, call and I will come, though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near. And if you listen with your heart. You'll hear my love around you soft and cle
I Love You This Much I Love You This Much. . . . . . Enough To Do Anything For You ~ Give My Life, My Love, My Heart, And My Soul To You And For
I Love you This Much.  .  .  .  .  . Enough to do anything for you ~ give my life, my love, my heart, and my soul to you and for you. Enough to give all my time, efforts, thoughts, talents, trusts, and prayers willingly to you .   .   . I love you enough to want to protect you, care for you, guide you, hold you, comfort you, listen to you, and cry to you and with you. Enough to be completely comfortable with you, act silly around you, never have to hide anything from you, and be myself with you. Enough to share all my sentiments, dreams, goals, fears, hopes, and worries ~ my entire life with you. Enough to want the best for you. to wish for your success, and to hope for the fulfillment of all your endeavors. Enough to keep my promises to you and pledge my loyalty and faithfulness to you. Enough to cherish your friendship, adore your personality, respect your values, and see you for who you are. I love you enough to fight for you, compromise for you, and sacrifice myself fo
Dark Side Of Astrology
I found this in on the world wide web. It's not the actual dark side astrology but it made me giggle and go hell yea at the same time. Thought I would share. Enjoy. Aries:Unless you are a masochist, never get tangled up with the sadistic Arian. They love to humiliate you, control you and inflict pain on you. They are the megalomaniacs of the zodiac and have an ego the size of the Empire State Building. Don’t cross them or you’ll find just how short a fuse they have – yes, they’re a notoriously bad-tempered lot. They have a propensity to invade Poland.Famous Arians: Adolf Hitler, Hugh Hefner, Alan Sugar, Celine Dion, Piers MorganTaurus:Taureans are completely materialistic. They know the cost of everything and the value of nothing. They are totally obsessed by wealth and fame and may end up as a stalker. Despite being so starstruck, they are jealous and resentful of anyone who has made it. They are stupid, dishonest and overbearing. If you suspect a Ta
Anyone else having the shits with Google Chrome? I've uninstalled and reinstalled it several times, did two system restores, wiping out half my programs, as well.. Updated every damn thing, too.. All I get is a plain white page and the waiting icon stays going until the pop up comes forth with "kill Page' or "Wait".... but kill the page doesn't working.. click after click..       *click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click.......................*
Who Is Madam M
Lifestyle Domme. ProDomme. Anachronistic.Poly.Bi.Sarcastic.Sadistic.Protective over Mine.Cruel & Compassionate. I never mix Pro D/s with Personal D/s so when contacting me make sure you know which end you are on. I am not nearly as mean as I seem. I keep my guard up but deep down I am a cool ass Goofy as all hell. Sarcastic and nerdy. I am here to stalk total strangers. Oh yea and make some friends along the way. I welcome conversation from Dominants as well as submissives so feel free just remain respectful. I have quite the sadistic streak and have a soft spot for pain sluts and for sissies. For those that enjoy pampering a Goddess feel free to do so here: Wanna know more feel free to ask. Either I'll answer or tell you to go fuck yourself. :-) ~M  
This Is Our Time
                          This Is Our Time We wake up in the morning at the dawn of a new day,      And hope and pray to God above that things will go our way.There are times we reach that mountaintop and think we have it all,      Then there's moments that are rocky and we stumble and we fall. As your world comes down around you, no matter how hard you try,     And the darkness fills up in your heart and you don't even know why.It's seems like one step forward, two steps back, and we're left so hard and cold,      'Cause it seems like it'll be forever until our destinies unfold. Then your heart cries out into the night and hope that someone hears,      And you pray that they will take away your doubts and all your fears.The hell you're in is way too much and you can't take anymore,      And you want that feeling in your heart like you've never had before. In a tiny, single moment, someone whispers your name,     And it changes your life forever and you'll never be the same.Those s
Poetry..{ Call Me A Emo, Homo, Or A Chick...and I Will F**k Your Girl :) }
I desire to live carefree, not free of care or care less..but rather care free. I dream of a warmth that ignites a fire, a fire that envelopes all of me, that can only be extinguished by the one. I desire to feel as if nothing else matters, as if the world slows and time stops. I dream that a change will come one day...and I might find my dreams and desires. That I shall crawl out of this dark place I have put my self a dream in its self..but a dream that I recall every day.
Black and White...In a sense.. Like A tree, growing away from the sun Like Night is to day.. and Love is to hate.. Is and I are..
well i have a feeling like tonight is going to be like every other night. I am going to be alone once again and its something that i want to quit. I have been looking for mr.right but i am starting to believe that he doesnt exist. I just dont get it. I am pretty smart caring and affectionate and smart so how come every guy i meet does not seem to work out.  I will not give up though i will find the guy that can make me smile just by looking at me. The guy who will send shivers through me when he kisses for the first time!
For Sale!
Okay, so Karen and myself especially have been making jewelry as most of you know. We've sent quite a few items to various friends by request for free. Unfortunately, this is an expensive habit. I would love to send everyone free stuff, but at some point I need to turn a profit. I love making this stuff, but it costs money and especially time. Some of the weaves I make take hours to complete because of the complexity and some of the preparations I have to do to get started. So, while I won't be sending out any more free jewelry, you can still buy most of the things in my jewelry album. I have an etsy store set up and you can find it here: The store is "Chained Beauty" and my user name is "Deswellyn." If you let me know that you are definitely going to buy an item right away, I can alter the price and maybe give you a little discount. Shipping is free. I'll have to see if I can do some sort of discount code which would save some trouble. Also, you
Good To Be Back
well, I've been away for a year. while my husband was healing from throat cancer. i visited yesturday and people were very welcoming. i had a blast! new things to do and new people to befriend, and new levels to reach. i just wanted to thank all my friends for not forgetting a little magic!
Wired Science
       If I told you I love you,       would it make you happy?       If I told you I hate you,       would it make you mad,       If I told you nothing,       would it make you curious?               PENNI
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Atheistic Assessment▬●ΑΘΕΟΣ--☭--☆
Blogging Buffoon Activated Warning: A lot of reading ahead :P Okay I am bored and figured I would do a blog....what better than on.. atheism. These are either pictures I found on theistic websites [mostly xtian ones] or stuff I have heard people say in relation to atheism or things that atheist may use to support their position.This picture is one I found particularly funny. Um, this atheist may actually convert to believe in a deity if someone can tell me what the fuck this person was trying to say? Maybe this person was so moved by the spirit he/she forgot how to speak English.This was a photo that a friend sent me that had been forwarded to her by her Christian friend, the email said it was “kid safe”... I will go through each one and attempt to dissect them as best as I can. Which as always will simply be my interpretation, I do not speak of all atheist, just myself.“Unlike Christians, atheist believe in “luck” and “fortune”, while Chris
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Mfkn Family
MFKN Family   Back in the Summer of 2009 a family was created here on fubar. You will know this family as MFKN. When this family first started it was founded by MFKN Bubzy and MFKN Cruser. For those of you that where around back then, you will remember that MFKN took over fubar. It became HUGE! There were over 200 members within the first 3 days. Over the last year MFKN has become very quiet up until the last few weeks. MFKN Bubzy and her hubby Playinhard had taken a long break to deal with real life. Congrats on the new baby by the way! Your baby is absolutely precious. While they were away MFKN The Slut and MFKN Cori were the ones that volunteered to run things while in their absence. In the last two months there have been two homepages created and then deleted. There was a homepage created by former MFKN member Seed of Filth. This homepage was created when The Slut and Cori had problems accessing the original homepage and Seed was trying to keep MFKN together. Once the homepage w
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Native Herbsnative Herbs And Meds Sunday, September 26, 2010 11:27 Am The Old Ones Tell Us That At One Time, The Animals, Fish, I
Native Herbs and MedsSunday, September 26, 2010 11:27 AMThe                     old ones tell us that at one time, the animals, fish, insects                     and plants could all talk. Together with the people, they                     were at peace and had a great friendship. As time went on,                     the numbers of people grew so much that their settlements                     spread over the whole earth, and the animals found themselves                     cramped for space. To make things worse, the people invented                     bows, knives, blowguns, spears, and hooks, and they began                     to hunt and kill the larger animals, birds and fish only                     for their hides. The smaller creatures, like the frogs and                     worms, were stepped upon and crushed without thought, out                     of carelessness, and sometimes even contempt. The animals                     decided to meet in a council to agree on measures
Native Herbs And Meds
The old ones tell us that at one time, the animals, fish, insects and plants could all talk. Together with the people, they were at peace and had a great friendship. As time went on, the numbers of people grew so much that their settlements spread over the whole earth, and the animals found themselves cramped for space. To make things worse, the people invented bows, knives, blowguns, spears, and hooks, and they began to hunt and kill the larger animals, birds and fish only for their hides. The smaller creatures, like the frogs and worms, were stepped upon and crushed without thought, out of carelessness, and sometimes even contempt. The animals decided to meet in a council to agree on measures for their safety.  The
How It Works
            The Process:       • First, you see something you like. Either in my Anims album or in the scroll, or someone told ya where to get it. You've come to the right place :D     • Second, You -can- shout me to confirm, BUT ….. for a certain project you would like, I need your favorite color and any pix that you'd like to see in the animation. PLEASE PM me the links to the pix and the colors. (I get hundreds of shouts a day, i WILL lose your info !!!!!)     • Many have asked 'what's the cost?' … it usually depends on how much time it takes to create, render and upload your animation. Right now, they're averaging 20-50 mill fuBux and the usual bling/credits/pimpouts etc. It really all depends on complexity of the animation. I'm easy, i just like making em :D:D     • Depending on how busy I am, you'll have it in 30 mins up to a day or two. It really all depends, and I'll let ya know when i get your PM. :D:D    effective 05-2011: I'm s
Thank you all who have expressed your concern over my Cody Bear The surgery went great, they removed a 3-1/2 inch diameter tumor from his elbow on Thursday. Satureday hes caught a rabbit (he still has a cast on his leg). He doesn't seenm to be in any pain or discomfort, yay!!  Now I just need to figure out how to pay for it all. I'll take donations!! Lol. Anyway just thought everyone would like to know he's doin' awsome and thanks again for your shoulders. Now back to your regularly schedualled program      
   So I'm not the blog type, but what the hell. Sometimes I got shit I just wanna say even if no one listens. So if i write this then, it's cool. I said it. So today my thing is this regret. I don't know if you can say what I'm talking about is regret per say so much as just this whole,"where did I go wrong?" or why did I do that or whatever. Whats the point?What good does that do you. To spend so much time thinking that sort of thing. We all have things that we would change if we could. God knows if you guys knew the screw ups I've made along the way, I'd hear "dumbass" from every direction. The thing is every time I've screwed up or let that just perfect thing go, I've learned from it. To me that's the key. Our screw ups make us better. Build our character. Alow us to form ourselves into better people then we were before our error. This is in itself a good thing. You wont make that mistake again. So I understand kickin yourself, but give yourself a break. I just had someone go on and
What No Coffee ?
You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again. A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as soon as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she p laced eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me what you see.” &ldqu
Why Do I Bother?
After writing some of this in an email to a friend of mine this morning, i realized i'd never spilled my heart this eloquently before... so i'm posting portions of the email here for all to read my depressed mood in black & white:   I've spent 10 years watching my husband slowly morph into a man i don't know, a man i can't love... an emotionally abusive, hypocritical man that lets his anger push him to leave bruises on my heart and my face when he can't get his point across... the eminem/rhianna song "love the way you lie" is my life... i try to leave and he apologizes, i stay and we go right back to the hurt... he'll never actually let me leave... he'd kill me emotionally if not physically to keep me from being with someone else... and every day i fall more in love with a man i'm scared i'll never in this life have because i don't want my daughters to grow up without their mother... I know my husband feels pain, hates seeing me potentially falling in love with someone else in front
Png Had A Bad Day
PNG comes into my office on Friday crying, turns out her BF is about to break up with her.  She wants to get on facebook and make the hit first (we have it blocked from the office) so she asked if I could help (of course, it's blocked for the users, not the admins.) I hook her up, and she goes over the details, he's a democrat and she's a republican and he didn't like how she voted in the last election (if you remember what I posted about her politics before, just shut up)  and he said something along the lines that he basically found her vapid.  I am paraphrasing here, but that's the gist I got.  So I tell her plenty of nice things;  there's someone better for you, you're a sweet pretty woman, full of laughter, who wouldn't go after you, and etc.  In an attempt to make her laugh, I say "I guess you'll finally let me take you to lunch now" but yeah, that didn't go over well.  Ya know, I am being just the awesome guy I am, though its really not flying, I think it got to the point w
Where Pain Used To Be
I wake up bent like a willow after having surrendered to you thoughts that once I didn't have grew into thoughts I pushed away but later became thoughts I spoke to you and you devoured them We were tangled so tightly I didn't know where I ended and you began. I was the drop of rain running down your neck across your shoulder and down your back and your skin responded with a quiver. And now, no breath remains my love stripped bare and everything I am rests within your hands. The sky opened last night and drenched us with everything we knew lay behind the wall of fear. We discovered that our souls  were made for each other. We forgot in those moments everything we were afraid of and where pain used to be now there are butterflies. Poem By Tammy C. 
[this Has Nothing To Do With Eggs]
Shield construction is about done, and I'm a LITTLE loaded on fumes.Stupid oilbased flammable...okay, don't burn contour putty over an open flame.It makes the room purple.Even if it goes up like a napalm snorting elephant.Puttied, sanded, puttied.Not looking forward to getting the cracks and crevices clean before priming.A step I may put off... for weeks.I'm half tempted to putty the whole surface, it sure is sheeny firm and smooth. The main objective was to mask some seams though.I don't know what to do with the lil knuckle parts I made.I could always do some test positioning but... I'm pretty burnt out today.Spent most of the day freaking out.Oh yeaaah... I've still got Gouf parts in the garage... I should probably bench that huh?AlsoBF1942 is acting as a sniper trauma patch.Forgot how... obnoxious that game was.Respawn timers *shakes head*.And rocket snipers.And bot path jigs*Shrugs* Games, MST3K, scrap building.I wanna work on a gun next.I'm intimidated to say the least.And I may h
just yesterday you said you loved me that there was nobody else above me that i was yours and you were mine but the words didnt image you to fine but then you had to put our love on hold when it came to makeing love it wasn't you any more now your telling me i got to walk out the door can't you see this is killing me it's hurting my soul (oh baby) how am i suposed to leave you when my heart tells me to keep you how can you ask to let you goooo (no i just cant let you go) can't you see im slowly dyin but im gunna keep on tryin please don't ask me to let you gooo let me start by telling you i love you wit all my heart but i cant understand the reasion girl you and me were supposed to be for ever n ever now instead of being in love its like we used to eachother how could we do this to eachother we used to ride for eachother die for eachother cry for eachother now its like all of us wanna say bye to eachother i cant let this happen i refuse to loose you i love you baby its the truth as u
Lonesome Brown Brother In Need Of Some Fun
dont even know what to say kingman is boring right now and some people are stuupid.
This One Is For My Mother Fuckin Home Girl!
Adrienne, what's up! We all miss you. I kinda choked up at your funeral and didn't get to say what I wanted to say. So this one is for you A.       First off let me say, we had some goooooood times. All the way back to the trailer park boo. Remember when we used to throw parties and and I would always snap on a mother fucker if they disrespected your place or you? Will always feel that way home girl.    When I went to prison we lost contact for a long time but my love for you would not let me let our relationship go. When I came back to Bradenton I had no car and found you after lots of searching! I road that damn bike all the way out to your mothers place from by Harley Middle School!    Again our friendship was reunited and we still had each others back. No one could ever disrespect us in front of each other with out feeling the our words! They knew than words were backed up too so they didn't have anything to say!    I hang out with mick and every now and than. He
Omgz! Lol. Misfit Loves My Ta-tas!
Did It Turn You On?
I can't believe almost 8 yrs have passed since I was sent to see you in a professional as the patient witha wicked eating disorder and cutting as the almighty never gives up child psychologist who saw very few adult clients....I was amongst those elite adults....and I would unfortunately live through what you did to be victimized by your voice and words years and years later. Looking back, all I want to know is this one thing but you aren't brave enough to tell me the truth.  YOU lost your license and eventually everything else due to an accusation of sexual misconduct in several forms with a minor child patient, female, that had a history of both sexual and physical abuse.  So tell me the truth you coward....when I finally trusted you enough with the details of my own explicit abuse horrors did you go home and masturbate to those images?  Did my agony turn you on?  Afterall it happened to me at about the same age as that girl in your care. Did the destruc
Nothing But Love For Misfit! She Owns The Right Boob. I'm Sure She'll Sell The Rights For A Fu-pony.
Saturday's Fake , Drama, Facts, Issues And A Fun Run...
Hello's the weekend and yeah it's been quite a hot minute since I wrote anything and well, I apologize I guess, I know some people look and look and yada well, here goes...this is about how this place is at the moment.... Yup, you see it right...drama llama humping drama llama. For those who don't understand the imagery there, well, I all know it's true. You see it all over. You've probably even even involved with some of it yourself or at least known someone that has recently... There are people here behind the screens, ok?..these people have feelings. Most people that hang and chill here, are here for a reason. Some people are here for the rate and point game, some people are here to just be perverts, some run better "FuGame" than others, some are just here for friends, etc,'s always the same ol reasons. People sign in for whatever they enjoy. That's the point. I must have said it 16 billion times in this blog
I'll Be There
I'LL BE THERE.. -When no one is there for you -When you think no one cares -When the whole world walks out on you -When you think you're alone ILL BE THERE.. -When the one you care about most could care less about you -When the one you gave your heart to isn't -When someone throws something in your face ILL BE THERE.. -When the person you trusted betrays you -When the person you share all your memories with cant even remember your birthday ILL BE THERE.. -When all you need is a friend to listen to you whine -When all you need is someone to catch your tears ILL BE THERE.. -When your heart hurts so bad that you cant even breathe -When you just want to crawl up and die ILL BE THERE.. -When you start to cry -Or when hearing that sad song -When the tears just won't stop falling down ILL BE THERE.. *So you see I'll be there until the end *This is a promise I can make *If you ever need me *Just give me a call and.. I'LL BE THERE
Give You My All
If I were to give you my all. Would you give me your all to.? If I were to tell you that you mean everything to me. Would you tell me the same.? If I were to say to you that nothing in the world makes me happier then seeing you smile. and to hear you laugh. Would you even care? If I were to hold you close, and never let you go away from me. Would you hold me closer.? If we were to be together forever and ever. Would you promise to never leave. And love me unconditionally.? If I gave you everything. Would you just let me stand beside you? If I told you i love you. Would you tell me "I love you to" The things we say. The things we do. Does this appeal to you? I try to say the things I feel.. If I were to promise you the world. Would you promise me forever? If I were to speak of you in godly tones. Would you speak of me into heavens ear? If I kissed your lips. And never stopped. Would you Let my kiss go and walk away from me.? The way I feel. The kiss I long for. The things I want to touc
I Know, That You Know, That I'm Nothing.
So it’s another Saturday or Tuesday, or any day. They’re all interchangeable.  One day merges into another, the nights blend. I’m listless. I can’t sleep. Too many thoughts bouncing around in my mind and no resolution.  I guess or rather I know, I’m lost.  I’m 42 years old and haven’t a clue as to what to do with my “so called life”.  I spend my days and nights, searching for answer.  A sign , a clue. What am I looking for? Closure. Awakening.  Understanding.  A reason to go on.  I’m a big disappointment to all those that know me. To my family, especially my parents. They expected and wanted so much for me.  As did I. To the people that I’ve loved (now, and in the past) what can I say?  I know I’m not perfect. Not even remotely close.  I was never honest with you. I lied, I was deceitful.  I said things things you wanted to hear. I did not, however cheat on you.  One thing in my favor, and there isn’t much,
Geeker: Cam So Sexy!
So if this is the first time reading a blog of mine, just telling you straight-up that am a online nudist working from my desktop at home in San Francisco and a regular chat or webcam roulette whore for wanking my cock and seeing who else is doing the same. From the experience of my fetish have become a prolific blogger and webmaster of several 'webcam socials' for adults too.   The second thing, is to add, a blog entry for reference from months ago about the importance of online friends as a honorable relationship. You know when my clothes are off and my cock is hard or my ass is showing on a webcam, and another person lingers around their computer looking and asking chat questions ... have made some really great friendships without all the baggage that being 'cloistered' in clothing on webcam weighs down the connection. It is a very vulnerable and beautiful thing, nudity and fully blossomed genitalia on webcams. Today, anonymously chatting the fuLette webcam interface, came across
Dirty Old Perv
sidney398 mins That is such awesome cleavage and when added to your beauty, it is a mind blower. Need some NSFW pics. LOL       He's freakin 70 years old :o   Talk about a dirty old man.  Gawd.
This Poem Is Called Child Murder
My name's sky I'm three,My eyes are swollen.I can't see,I must be stupid.I must be bad,What else could have made my daddy so mad?I wish i were better i wish i weren't ugly,Then maybe my mommy would still want to hug me.I can't do wrong i can't speak at all or else i am lockup all day long.When i am awake i am all alone.The house is dark my folks aren't home.When my mommy does come home.I'll try and be nice,so maybe i will just get one whipping tonight.I just heard a car,my daddy's back from charlies bar.I hear him curse.My name's called,I press myself***gaist the wall.I try to hide from his evil eyes.I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry.He finds me weeping calls me ugly words,He says it's my fault that he suffers at work.he slaps and hits me and yells at me more,I finally get free and run to the door.He's already locked it and i start to crawl,He takes me and throws me agaist the hard wall.I fall to the floor with my bones nearly broken,And my daddy continues with more bad words spoke
No Cable?
I've been debating getting rid of my cable to save money, since I don't watch too much on there.  I know I can get a hold of the shows I do watch via the internet.  But what I don't know is if I can watch sports online NFL, NHL, and others...anyone got any feedback about this?
Voyeur Cam Idea And What Its About
  ok so im starting a voyeur cam that means a cam thats basicly just turned on when im home.... im gana do everything i would do normaly with the cam just on no directing please im doing nothing to amuse you it is just an expiriment about people viewing into anothers life the more... probabaly wont be walking while on it.... cuz i wana treat it just like i would if it wrnt on means usuly not looking at myself whlile online and basicly u guy can just watch me.... do what id do any day.... but dont get to excited i live a pretty boring life oh i also will cover up when i smoke cuz i dont wana pass the legal to illegal grey line
New Cell Number!
Hey all been gone so long!!!! Got anew cell number with unlimited everything so hit me up k 1-660-202-0427
LMFAO @ Kid Rock telling people to drink responsibly in a bourbon commercial. HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!       That is all.
New Fubar Lounge: Djs Gave My Ear A Std!
CLICK click the banner for lounge hello... I opened a lounge at fubar. It is not like the amount of online chores at several 'webcam social's and facebook fan pages and numberous blogs.. but I really like fubar. It is the anti-facebook and if it just combined forces with : 'facebook for burning man' with* it would be a great social movement for irrelevancy combined with social glee.   Now i have another site needing users, a demographic niche for members and target audience. besides writing rules, faq and forum discussions.
Ode To The One That Would Never Let Go
Lets self medicate togetherLets stabilize our moodsEstablish some self confidence..Identify M.E. Through youLives of long self punishmentSlowly intertwine.Actions of emotional..don't keep them in line .
so there is a show on MTV called Made and i love the show cuz it shows teens wanting to change somthing about thereselves or wanting to do somthing that most ppl wouldnt think they could do and i have been thinking bout going on the show cuz i want to be more of a girly girl that have guys falling all over her cuz yes ok im preety but im not drop dead gorgous that every guy that sees me wants to date me and most of my friends have bfs or gfs and i feel left out yes im not the typical chick im not clingy and want to be with her bf all the time and cant be with out him ever well i need my space and i hate when guys are clingy and i need time to myself idk y i just do and im not a tom boy or anything im rotc and in show choir so i juggle alot of stuff and i put make up on cuz i care what i look like but at the same time i dont wear short shorts and tight ass tank tops that shows everything and i like being myself but at the same time im jelouse when i see really preety girls in the halls
Need to feel betterBad situations get me lowProcess itPush it awayProcessing will deaden the feelings.soon i become quite numb
Lost My Friend To My War In The End...
Had a friend made it end..A war in the end consumed my best friend...The exact same war i fight I call my war addiction..He sees his war as fun..Open his eyes ... dont he realize?This War Can kill us both in the end???M.E.6/11
Sumtimes We Get Dissapointed..
Because wen u jump into luv headfirst...later on u can find it hard to accept sumone was not who they thought they were..even worse many of us waste countless amount of energy and time..waiting for them to be all they said they would be..Trust me they will not change and the gut feeling u had...which u ignored will leave u kicking ur own ass for a bit....You may be so emo attached to this refuse to see their day they leave u for dead and move on..and u???? well u change for the better but u won't see it at all at first.
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Players Cheaters Men And Women
Here we go again What is it with egostistical women and men Why you wanna put yourself in pain Why do you decide to cheat that day When we dont accept your apologies Thats when you start talkin shyt about me Im like what the f*ck is wrong with them Im not involved with that shyt sorry My parts  are precious to me If you decide to share keep doin what your doin Your actions will catch up one day  
Not So Good News
My uncle's surgery went well. They were able to remove the entire growth. They took samples of the lymph nodes in his lung and upper chest to have them tested. The lungs are clear. The upper chest, not so good. In a few of the lymph nodes they found stage 3 Cancer. It didn't show up on the PET scan because they were so small, about the size of a pin head. So that means my uncle gets to go through four months of radiation and chemo. Doctor was honest and told my uncle he has a 50/50 chance. Obviously, we're hoping for the best but the reality is it might not turn out that way in the end.
Happy Birtday Baby
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY   "I know that I havent been the best to you through the months, But I want so much for you to be happy, Because I love you with all my heart and its the best I cud do for your birthday Right now.Its early I know but who knows I might not be here tomorrow I love you chris NEVER forget it.This website is just what it is a site and it has a off button, But my love for you has no off button (your an angel) Happy Birthday baby I love you" I LOVE YOU!!!!!
So Far...2
running out of things to do here,and dont know which one to chat with.
Trying To Get Stuff Off My Mind!
Well 2010 has been a crazy year. I have learned what i want and dont want thank god its about time lol. I have done somethings im not proud of and hurt some people that i should have never hurt or been with! I found someone to love and i have lost love but it only makes me stronger! I'm talking to a new guy and he seem very sweet! We are not together just yet i'm going to take this one a lot slower which it needs to happen like that bc its seem to make things better when u wait in stead of jumping in something and wasteing time being with someone that is very wrong for! So i found some old friends i have not talked to in forever omg and they are still goofy lil boys lol. I still have my best friends which dont have a fubar which sucks lol. I also made some new friend his name is jacob he is a country boy in and out omg!! Which i love country guys dont get me wrong but he just anit my type and we are better off as friends His idea of a fun time is hunting and mudding lmao ugh nooooo!! M
Song Lyrics
OhYeahMmmmI'd wait on you forever and a dayHand and footYour world is my worldYeahAin't no way you're ever gon' getAny less than you shouldCause babyYou smile I smile (oh)Cause wheneverYou smile I smileHey hey heyYour lips, my biggest weaknessShouldn't have let you knowI'm always gonna do what they say (hey)If you need meI'll come runningFrom a thousand miles awayWhen you smile I smile (oh whoa)You smile I smileHeyBaby take my open heart and all it offersCause this is as unconditional as it'll ever getYou ain't seen nothing yetI won't ever hesitate to give you more baby (hey)You smile I smile (whoa)You smile I smileHey hey heyYou smile I smileI smile I smile I smileYou smile I smileMake me smile babyBaby you won't ever work for nothingYou are my ins and my means nowWith you there's no in betweenI'm all inCause my cards are on the tableAnd I'm willing and I'm ableBut I fold to your wishCause it's my commandHey hey heyYou
Time And Again...
I am filled with despair…my heart wrenching open…I am my own calamity…my own poison… afflicting wounds I cannot retrieve…And now, there is no cure for the broken heart that I haveSeeping deep…cutting too unfathomable… I have love and hope to give… I am daylight to the darkness….but my pain is too deep and cuts it wideHopeless…empty…lost…Crying into the empty bed…I alone must share…Theres no going back...Theres no do-overs...I am chained to my mistakes and ripped apart...
Old Prospector
An old prospector shuffled into the town of El Indio, Texas leading an old tired mule. The old man headed straight for the only saloon in town, to clear his parched throat. He walked up to the saloon and tied his old mule to the hitch rail. As he stood there, brushing some of the dust from his face and clothes, a young gunslinger stepped out of the saloon with a gun in one hand and a bottle of whiskey in the other. The young gunslinger looked at the old man and laughed, saying, "Hey old man, have you ever danced?" The old man looked up at the gunslinger and said, "No, I never did dance... never really wanted to." A crowd had gathered as the gunslinger grinned and said, "Well, you old fool, you're gonna' dance now," and started shooting at the old man's feet. The old prospector, not wanting to get a toe blown off, started hopping around like a flea on a hot skillet. Everybody was laughing, fit to be tied. When his last bullet had been fired, the young gunslinger, still
Fun Run
I am joining the family fun run which is organized by the newly elected members of the student council Dominic, my gay friend is joining too. I am very pleased with the first project the new officers have for us, graduate students. We are thriving in a very stressful world and we need this. ** Love  my new friends. Shane, Lyn and Ruth are the coolest girls in the grad school. I love hanging with them.
Make A Difference........
Like me, most of you don’t really know the people we add to our friends list.  Unless we take the time to really get to know someone.  But on a site like this, it proves to be hard.  We all see little things that upset us, and we sit back and wonder… this how that person is in real life?  I have seen status’s that make me cringe, and a few that have about made me throw up in my mouth, and some that can be touching.  But on a site like this lately it seems to be more about the “like button”.  Personally, I don’t care what color your name is.  This isn’t high school anymore.  Because if it were, let me tell you some people would have more self respect and be respectful of others.  And that seems to get lost on here in the greed of being Green, or number 1, or what level you can reach.  So on that note, I would like to make a point, and maybe see if I can make you guys sit back and think, and see if I can just get one person to not be so self
well as most of you know me my grandfather passed away on thursday september 16 this year. He fought cancer for 17 years of his life and a few days before he left us it went to his bones. He will be missed. He always had given me a reason to smile when i was down, and i'm glad he got to meet robby before his mind started to go. When his mind went it went fast. I'm glad he isnt in pain anymore. Growing up he knew everything we use to call him the temple of knowledge. Even though that was gone before we knew it he still stands as one. I was his only granddaughter. I will never forget the good times we had with him. They say what happens in the past stays in the past but this one will stay with me forever. I love you grandpa
And I wonderDay to dayI don't like youAnywayAnd I don't need yourShit todayYou're patheticIn your own wayI feel for youBetter fuckin' go awayI will be hereBetter fuckin' go awayAnd I'm doing the best I ever didI'm doing the best that I canAnd I'm doing the best I ever didAnd I don't need toFantasizeYou are my petAll the timeAnd I don't mind ifYou go blindYou get what you getUntil you're through with mineI fuckin' feel for you(Better fuckin' go away)And I will be hereYou better go awayI feel for you(Better fuckin' go away)I will be hereYou better go awayAnd I'm doing the best I ever didI'm doing the best that I canI'm doing the best I ever didNow go away...
Straight Out Of Line
There's no reasonThere's no compromiseChange in seasonsLiving the high lifeI don't know youSo don't freak on meI can't control youYou're not my destinyStraight out of lineI can't find a reasonWhy I should justify my waysStraight out of lineI don't need a reasonYou don't need to lie to meI'll confess this you're my tragedyI laid you to rest justAs fast as you turned on meGone for everVanished the memoriesDisplays of pleasureAre masked by your miseryStraight out of lineI can't find a reasonWhy I should justify my waysStraight out of lineI don't need a reasonYou don't need to lie to meLie to meStraight out of lineI can't find a reasonWhy I should justify my waysStraight out of lineI don't need a reasonYou don't need to lie to meLie to me [x3]
Time To Get Nekkid!
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The Real Me, Like Me For Who I Am, Or Leave Me The Fuck Alone!!
I don't know how many will actually read this, but here goes.....I was talking to my big brother tonight and we have both gotten to the point of 'YOU EITHER LIKE/LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM, OR JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE'. I am a 35 y/o civilian diagnosed with PTSD, and my teeth are rotting out of my mouth, there isn't a damn thing I can do right now to get them removed. But unlike a lot of these whiney ass little bitches, I REFUSE to sit around and bitch about how sad and miserable my life is, I am going to enjoy every single moment of my life-good or bad!! But to a few guy's that I have met on this site and one on another site, I guess my FLAW'S and IMPERFECTION'S are just too much for them, well they can kiss my dying, ptsd affected greek ass.....EVERY DAMN ONE OF THEM! I do NOT want any pitty, or any sympathy, and I sure as hell don't want you to tell me that you're sorry. I am not claiming to be perfect, I had made a lot of mistake's in the past 2-3 year's, but then again, according to
wait another minuteCan't you see what this pain has fucking done to meI'm alive and still kickingWhat you see I can't see and maybe you'll think before you speakI'm alive,For you I'm awake Because of you I'm aliveTold you I'm awake,Swallowing youTake another secondTurn your back on me and make believe that you're always happyIt's safe to say you're never aliveA big part of you has died and by the way,I hope you're satisfiedI'm alive,For you I'm awake Because of you I'm aliveTold you I'm awake,Swallowing youI'm alive,For you I'm awake Because of you I'm aliveTold you I'm awake,(go)tearing it back, unveiling me taking a step back so i can breathehear the silence about to breakfear resistance when I'm awaketearing it back, unveiling me taking a step back so i can breathehear the silence about to breakfear resistance when I'm awakearrrrrOH YEAHAH YEAHI'm alive,For you I'm awake Because of you I'm aliveTold you I'm awake,Swallowing youI'm alive,For you I'm awake Because of you I'm alive
I Stand Alone
    Now I've told you this once before can't control meIf you try to take me down you're gonna breakI feel your having nothing that you`re doing for meI'm thinking you`re a fake, you run awayI stand alone Inside I stand alone(I stand alone)You're always hiding behind your so called goddess So what, you don't think that we can see your face?Ressurrected back before the final fallenI'll never rest until I can make my own wayI'm not afraid of fading I stand aloneFeeling your sting down inside me I'm not dying for itI stand alone Everything that I believe is fading I stand alone Inside I stand alone(I stand alone)Now it's my time (now it's my time)It's my time to dream (It's my time to dream)Dream of the skies (dream of the skies)Make me believe that this place isn't plagued by the poison in meHelp me decide if my fire will burn out before you can breathe Breathe into me I stand alone Inside I stand aloneFeeling your sting down inside me I'm not dying for itI stand alone Everything that
Strength In The Slience
In words left unspoken i lay awake In this lifeless solitude of what my world has become I find strength in the bonds that hold me to you I may not say it in so many words But you give me strength of whats to come Courage to fight yet another day I know that it gets better Shades of black and white with hints of grey You bring the fiery passion That is soo hard to escape I find wisdom in each line you write Words coming like crazy at each passing time Moments of silence don't scare me as often Cause in those vast moments are the times i see you best I see you for you and not the scar that you carry A heavy burden on your heart Painted with sorrow and such disillusion I give you hope and a possible conclusion With this I take in my hand so small That i hold your great fate Never in hatred nor in Violence I somehow find Strength in your Silence
Replica Ulysse Nardin Watches
  Kenzo, founded by noted Japanese designer Ulysse Nardin Replica Watches_Replica Ulysse Nardin Watches_ulysse nardin watches, and now a part of the LVMH luxury group, will unveil its latest jewellery line (watches already done under license by Seiko) at Baselworld 2004.The Kinomi collection is made of 925 Sterling Silver and semi-precious stones such as cornaline, corundum and smoked quartz.  For Baselworld 2004, Italian maker Officina del Tempo, will highlight its Agadir Chrono Gel.The case is 316L stainless steel with a curved back to better fit the wrist.Water resistance is good to 100 meters.The case has steel trapezoidal shaped pushers.Movement is the quartz caliber FS00.The strap is made of silicone-gel, with Replica Ulysse Nardin Watches on the upper side (available in cobalt blue, sun yellow, fire red and vivid orange).  Paco Rabbane watches are made under license by Yonger & Bresson of France, founded in 1975.This maker of private-label watches also produces timepieces for d
Corum Golden Bridge Watch Metals Dyed With Any Of These Colors
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How I Lost My Mind.
It went numb.From the first note to the last feather fall.I could fix me.With a handful of pills.Or a spent brass shell.All equations can be solvedwith one well placed zero.Just another raw itchof a scab picked clear to the bone.No amount of acetone or moonshine will wash it away.Like a winter without blankets.A desert without sand.All it took was one pause.When there should have been a step.My world was never the same color again.
So Far...
So far I met alot a friendly ppl here. too bad i'm limited to some features I can use like sending messages and giving gifts if I have enough fubucks. Anyway if anyone like to chat I on some day and maybe some nights. Might make a crush on someone...hehe
Horse Auction...
Lil' Bobby attended a horse auction with his father. He watched as his father moved from horse to horse, running his hands up and down the horses' legs, rumps, and chests. After a few minutes, Bobby asked, "Pop, why are you doing that?""Because I'm thinking of buying these horses," said his father.Bobby suddenly got a worried look on his face and said, "Then I think we'd better hurry home right away!""Why?" his father asked."Because the mailman stopped by yesterday, and I think he wants to buy Mom!"
The Truth..
B..ullshit I..nformation T..hat't H..elp Y..ou
My Wonderful Husband
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my lip moves by itself
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Action expresses priorities.  -  Mohandas Gandhi
[building A Shield]
Lols metaphors.   We're trying to get this (see upper right white thing on the shoulder?) tooooooo Schawaaaaaah~ Neither of those pictures are mine >>uhanywayI decided to bareback this thing since I got a cutting surface and some modeling clay.and... well seriously, I learn by exploding.I took the skeleton frame, drilled a pair of holes and took a bent piece of sprue (the plastic sheets these parts originally come on) and created a hook, I then fit the hook through and made a shield handle by glueing the bent sprue in place.Now I had... a light, flimsy ass piece of crap shieldBut I had a shield.So I then proceded to schloop on some no set super plastic modeling clay to get some of the ... shape downsee, the bottom plate has .. well... nothing in it, and if there WAS a top plate, it'd have substance, some folks justslap down a thin layer of plastic plate and leave it hollow...I filled the empty space (which was > than the cover) and I decided on something more plastic and more
Living In The Past??
  The events over this past week have really made me think, as a country are we still dwelling in the past? I'm a firm believer in you treat someone how they treat you, you get what you give, and if something bad happens to you it happened for a true reason. I was never raised to value someone based upon the color of their skin, rather how they treat you and others. This week has really made me question the values that many Americans have in regards to race. About a week ago I got a call from my son's 4th grade teacher in regards to a little girl claiming my son said he was going to bring a gun to school. The teacher said she didn't think this little girl was telling the truth, but still had to report it as the girls mother is the one who called her about it. The mother wanted to have a meeting with me, okay fine I agreed because it was best to let this mother know that I don't even have a toy gun in my home let alone a real one. When I questioned my son about this and about the litt
*my Heart Is Base (i Call Safety)
I'll play the gentlemanAnd you can play the whoreThis isn't HalloweenI won't be your trick anymoreYour evil smileYour wicked eyesI won't fall for yourClever disguise Slow it down just a little for meIf I'm your Prince thanYou're my castastropheYou left me feeling emptyMy heart is base andI call safetySecond verse,same as the firstThis story's getting oldI was your lastYou were my worstAt least that's what you're toldSuch a tragic little wayFor our story to beBut Poe never wrote any happy endingsSlow it down just a little for me If I'm your Prince than You're my castastrophe You left me feeling empty My heart is base and I call safety
Awkward Silence In A Car.
I was driving home today on the freeway, looking around at the various people coming and going to their destinations where ever they may be. Typically, I don't people watch while driving, but SoCal traffic blows around 3-6 so I had plenty of time to look at their faces and see the horror. What caught my attention was the looks on the faces of couples. The first pair was probably in their late forties. Both were looking straight ahead with sun glasses on, not talking. The not talking part irked me, as they sat in complete silence behind me for at least two minutes. Then I started looking around and noticed several couples sitting in the same depressing silence. Who does that? Every relationship I have been in, my partner and I had plenty of things to talk about. We could talk for hours, about politics, school, work, news on television, or whatever is going on with their friends and family. I guess they have been together for so long that they have run out of things to say to each oth
Beckee420 Offers Up Some Great Promo Idea!
A few promotion ideas! OK Street Teamers - I wanted to make this blog to give a few ideas on easy ways to promote! The point of a street team is to get dedicated people to promote out on the streets. Online ads are great - but its always better to get out there and talk to people. Our goal is to make fubar look good! We want people to join and see how much fun we have! We dont want people get the wrong idea of fubar because of how we promote. Just be smart when you go out there. Dont get hurt and dont hurt anyone else! lol Please always be respectful of people and property. And dont forget to take pictures!!Ideas:You can grab a logo from the street team, print it, take it to Office Depot and get copies made. Or you can make your own designs.Hand em to people, leave em places you go daily, stick em places (with tape), ask local shops to post em for you or leave em on counters. Just get creative and dont do anything to get you in
Come Own Me!!!!!!
Im up for auction..Come bid and Own me....  
Can U ?
Can u hurt without hatin ?  can  u agree theres enough pain already ..  why throw arrows at an unarmed person ..  i don't want to start war .. just becuse its over  i want to leave my dignity intact  and yours too if its possible  i don't want to fight anymore .. its over .. it only serves to hrt  why be so two faced dear .. its sad ... once you were my everything util you choose not to be ... life must go on dear .. life is too precious to waste hating ..  far too precious let cut our losses , and hopefully u find a better mate , a person who truly understands you  .. thankyou for everything , especially my lil one ... she had the best of both you and me ..  please caue her hate .. dont cause her to cry .. hold her close and show her you love her like no other ... all the best dear X ..  
Lonely Train
Big train rolling down the lineMakes me lonelySometimes I wish to ride awaySometimes I want to ride awayYeahBig plane flying through the cloudsMakes me worrySometimes I wish to fly awaySometimes I want to fly awayBut you can't judge a bookLooking at the coverYou can't love someoneWhile messing with anotherNo, you can't win a warFighting with your brotherYou wanna have peaceGotta love one anotherBig guns lighting up the skyMakes me worrySometimes I wish to run awaySometimes I want to run awayBut you can't judge a bookLooking at the coverYou can't love someoneWhile messing with anotherNo, you can't win a warFighting with your brotherYou wanna have peaceGotta love one anotherI have seen my brothersIn ashes on the groundAnd maybe in a new lifeWe can turn this thing aroundBut you can't judge a bookLooking at the coverYou can't love someoneWhile messing with anotherNo, you can't win a warFighting with your brotherYou wanna have peaceGotta love one anotherNo you can't judge a bookGotta love o
Funny How ..
funny how ..   you were so nice yesterday .. when you are trying to get something so kind , so sweet then today you act like a totally differet person ..  even if were not together any more ,theres no reason to cuss at me like im ur dog ..  no reason to try to boss me around ..  it only makes me more sure in the long run , i made the right decision..  were both hurting yet i choose to be as kind as i can ..   i understand your angry , but you have no claim on me now ...  you have power to coherse me in any way .. quit messing with my head ..   a big sigh ... i just shake my head for now .. at loss for how to make the situation better .. good luck X ..  let you find someone who suits you much better theni ever did ...    
Dont Cry For Me When Im Gone!!!
  1932-2004 R.I.P.   MOM I MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW IS NOT THE SAME  HERE WITH OUT YOU MOM , YOUR ALWAYS  MY  BEST FRIEND AND MY MOTHER,NO MATTER YOU HERE OR HEAVEN I LOVE YOU                              DONT CRY  FOR ME WHEN IM GONE Don't Cry For Me When I'm gone; don't cry for me ...I am not dead; I'm in sweet eternity I'll live forever; I'll wait for all of you When it’s your time; it’s what God would have us do. He called my name; He said come home I did not die; please do not cry; I will no more roam I'll be by our Savior forever; soon, you too We’ll walk in the light; praising God in all that we do. Do not mourn for me; I have sweet victory I'll walk in Gods’ garden; and glories see I am not dead; He set me free; an Angel called to me Its beautiful here; Heavens’ full of cheer; you'll see. I did not die my love; I only went ahead I knew you’d understand; though I know this, you'll dread That will pass too; do all God would have yo
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Poem Bout Snipers
We. marry in at a young age, we sign our lives away. We never look back never disobey, we will always always find a way. Lonely cold nights and protection dependant on a string we are constantly vigilant looking at every little thing. We do our jobs day by day although we are far far away. Far away from our homes at night doing what we do so yall can sleep tight. Who are we you ask we are Scout Snipers completing our tasks. Defending our country with loyalty true we send enemies up into the blue, to meet our maker is not a question of how but when. So all you people sleep tight and pray that we will live to fight another day. We are Scout Snipers of the USMC Semper Fi Do or Die Oooo Rahhh we knock em down 1 2 3. Thats a little poem i wrote while i was with the corps hope yall enjoy ;)
Lazy Americans
Take people off of unemployment insurance and make them realize that they actually have to work to provide for their families. Help them get into the labor pool instead of the unemployment lines. If they want to draw unemployment and there is work, farm labor or whatever available and they decline, then decline their claim for unemployment or welfare. Lets help to teach Americans that it is better to work than to stay at home and starve. If we need to better serve this labor pool ,that has no other choice than to work at this level, then let us improve the conditions to what they need. Americans would gladly work at Tyson foods or someplace similar if they could get the jobs away from the illegals. Lets us help the companies to provide transportation to these jobs from Urban areas and then we could also mitigate the damage that is being done to our society by the illegal population.To those who say I am educated and deserve a better job because I have a degree, I say get
Entwined Illusion
I am terrorI am your dark flameEverything you want me to beYou will not be ashamed Entwined in my illusion You're nothing to me anymoreAn unworthy opponent you have becomeSluggish, self abused, bastard, whore Remember the dayThat day when you threw me awayYou told me I was worthlessThat I wouldn't be better than this I now stand at your pitLooking down I start to regretAll the rage I can't forget 
Easy Prey
Innocent, soft spoken, and currently unbrokenThis timid one is great preyShe falls into my trap! She weakens under my graspNow I'll let her feel my wrathTerror an agony streak through her faceWishing I'd fuck her in a different place Her muffled screams serve my pleasureShe wiggles with each pounding pressure I know she's never had betterToo bad I had to scare her She crawls away in dismayCertainly was easy preyI know she'll remember me everyday... 
Just B!tch!ng
Frack, I need to get a different life.... Get a real boyfriend, not just someone that wants to be around for a booty call.  Some that wants me around for more than an hours time until they get off.... Seems that everyone I meet just wants to 'hook up' and then when they get tired of the game, your back on the streets again. Frack, I'm tired of this frackin game.... Is there no one out there looking to find their one and only? Or is it just game on for everyone? Ok let me get off my b1tch box before I get violent. *sigh*    
I Try! Vent
All my life I have tried my hardest at everything I do. My parents expected the most of me. Best grades and everything else. I did my best to live up to their expectations but it just seemed like it was never enough. Never made a D in my life let alone a F. Never smoked or did drugs. I go to school full time while taking care of my family what the heck else do you want from me?? (MOM) I made my life 100% better then you had made yours just like you wanted! So why are you so upset with the choices that I make for myself? UGH!
Kills Me--- Rant Sorry
It kills me to know that he will never to be good enough for u That you throw him aside like a piece of trash What did that little boy every do to you but other then be born Why can you love a child who isn't even here more then the one that is I know you hate me I dont give a shit about that But why do you hate such a beautiful little face So innocent and pure The very being that you gave life too How can you be such a son of bitch To not give to shits about that lil boy. What the Fuck did he do to deserve this It kills me to know that u do this to him It kills me to know that he even shares a common thread with your sorry ass It kills me slowly like turning a knife deeper in the wound that is already there that you could care less about him That he is just an after thought to you Like something you never did I have only a couple things to say to you if I ever saw you in person Thank you for such a perfect lil boy ANd for you to Go Fuck Yourself and Die in your self
"Hi Mom, it's me." "Hi Sally, are you okay?  Aren't you with your father at the Ace Hardware?" "Yeah, I was, but I got arrested and they've let me make one phone call." "What happened?" "Oh, I punched this African-American woman in the face." "What on earth... Why did you do that???" "Well, it really wasn't my fault." "Dad told me to find a
I am me in all the world there is no one else exactly like me everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I alone choose it, I own everything about me, my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions whether they be to others or to myself, I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears, I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me by so doing I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me and other aspects that i do not know, but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me, however I look and sound, whatever I say and do and whatever I think and feel at a moment in time is authentically me, If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought and felt turn out to be unfitting I can discard that which is
The Darkness In Anothers Eyes May Be The Light Of Mine
A word of advice before you read this. Do not take what you read here as an invitation to invade my life and my mind. This is an interest and one that is not fully explored. So before you come seeking what you think I am offering, step back and take a moment to introduce yourself and be given the opportunity to be a friend. Just sayin."THE HEART OF A SUBMISSIVE"I am a submissive woman. I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive/slave to another in a loving relationship. I am not weak, or stupid. I am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life. I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.I look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am I more complete than when he is with me. I know that he will protect my body, my mind, and my soul with his strength and wisdom. He is everything to me, as I am everything to him. His touch awakens me and his thoughts free me. Only in serving him do I fi
It's Friday
A good man died today in a small Texas town. He was a man of character, integrity, and honor. His promises were never broken. He gave people everything he had if they needed it, but also made time to share small words of encouragement for folks whose hearts needed more than stuff to get by another day. He had no lofty title or riches, but he was esteemed by everyone who had the pleasure to know him.   He was not blessed with a graceful death. Cancer ravaged him, took his vitality, took his peace, took his life. The agony he bore was horrible these last few weeks, and yet he spent the energy he had trying to comfort others who would mourn him.   I do not have any shame in saying that I weep as I write this, that within me is a desire to scream in anger and pound my hands into the walls to put this pain someplace else than within me. I have a rage that consumes me. I am not like this man, I have done evils uncountable, I have destroyed so much. I have killed without remorse, stolen,
Twice-baked Cheesy Ranch Potatoes
Creating a delicious meal just got easier with this FANTASTIC side, made with things you already have on hand, or can prepare ahead of time from leftovers!   4 medium baking potatoes, baked. (You know - like from the other night's dinner with baked potatoes? Just set a few aside!) 1/2 Cup Ranch dressing 1-1/4 Cup frozen broccoli cuts, thawed, drained and chopped. 8 slices of bacon, cooked crisp and crumbled (...because you might have made a few slices extra at yesterday morning's breakfast?) 1/2 Cup shredded Cheddar cheese   Preheat oven to 425 degrees. Cut a lengthwise slice from the top of each potato. Remove skin from top slice. Scoop pulp from potatoes into a medium bowl, leaving 1/4" thick shells. Mash pulp and ranch dressing in the bowl. Stir in broccoli, cheese and bacon. Spoon potato filling equally back into the potato shells. Arrange potatoes on a baking sheet. Bake uncovered for 15 minutes or until potatoes are heated through. Garnish with more crumbled bacon, chive
Who Am I
Who AM I Am I just a puppet on magic strings, For you to play with as you please? Am I the beast while you play beauty, ...And making me perfect is your duty? Am I the tortoise and you're the hare, Is that why you don't seem to care? Am I Mufasa and you are scar, Is that why you push me so far? Am I the ball and your the player, Where I end up, you don't happen to care? I am not a toy for you to play with. And I am not some stupid myth! I have feelings just like you, Although mine are probably more sncere and true! ...I am who I am, that you cannot change. And my life is something you cannot arrange! I am not someone you can behest. Because I am a person, no more, no less! I guess what they say is true, I will always love you!!!
Looking For A Game Maker!
Lol I came up with a weird game I wish I could make but I can't so if you can by all means take this idea take the credit I just want to know if it gets made lmao game idea is this you are in line for a ride at a theme park or fair someplace you can drink. You have to go pee badly, you have a strange power to transfer your urine to random people so you use that to shorten the line you can only go so fast and you can't make peoples bladders burst or you'll lose. People in wheel chairs take it twice as fast. every so often your buddy gives you a drink so it's hard to empty your bladder lmao. I came up with that idea when I had to wait in like at the doc's office and I had to go so badly lol.
A Word On Class.......
this goes out to all u bling pack hoars selling ur naughty pics for straight money. 1st .... you are not any classier than a pornstar ur still exposing yourself for money, thats the reality of it. 2nd .... most pornstars dont have "rundown pussies" as i recently heard. in fact, most pornstar's pussies are in better shape than the average female. why you ask? because their pussy is their business, their moneymaker and you take good to excellent care of your equipment when it makes you money. on a personal note, most pornstars ive seen do not have a "beat up" pussy.  The ignorance of young women on this site does not even amaze me anymore. In fact what does amaze me is when a female under the age of 27 has any common sense at all. Yeah i said it...... you girlies got a lot to learn about life. Quit tryin to be pornstar wannabes and think ur any better than a pornstar cuz u dont do it professionally. I got news for ya, it makes ya worse, and even less attractive to me and most men. Do
After School
         It was last period and I was egger to get home and play. I had been thinking dirty thoughts all day and I needed to do something about it before I exploded from it. As soon as the bell rings I run out the room all the way home. I did not notice the car in the drive way when I ran by to get inside. When I finally stopped it was to see my step Daddy in the computer. He had not noticed that I was home since I left the door open when I ran in the house. I slowly go back to close it then I quietly walk up behind my step Daddy to see what he was doing. When I saw that he was doing the one thing I wanted to do it make me wetter than before. I grab a chair and put my leg on it after I take off my panties so I can play.                    I start to play with myself watching him jerk off to porn. I could not believe it but it made me wetter just thinking about him fucking me like the guy was in the movie he was watching. I guess I made a noise or something because he turned in his seat
Birthday Spankings
    I walk up behind you and slip a blind fold over your eyes, I then grab your hands and tie them together behind your back, and finally I push you on the bed. I never said a word I just got on the bed with you and turned you on your back on your arms. All you hear is giggles and all you feel is someone taking your pants off. You have no idea who it is or what they are going to do to you.      I take your clothes off but your shirt. I then grab your shirt and cut it off of you. I smile and then I take my nails and run them all over your body making goose bumps show up before stopping to blow all over your privets but never touching you there. I then lick your legs, stomach, chest and neck but that is it. I then nibble you all over but just like before I make sure nothing touches your privet parts.     Finally I until your hands but I jump off the bed before you can grab me. You finally see me and say, “You, what the hell was that?” You try to catch me but I run a way gig
Some Animal Play
When I got home I noticed there was something on my bed waiting for me. When I opened it it was a cat outfit. Smiling I ran and took a shower before changing into the outfit. I then got on all 4's and waited for him to come home. He came home not 2 minutes after I was done, it took him a second to see me waiting. He smiled and walked up to me, I purred and wiggled my hips a little. But all he did was pat my head and then walk over to the computer and sit down. Frowning I watch him for a minute, when he did not say anything or do anything I slowly crawled up to him. I stopped at his legs and then put my head on his lap and looked up at him. When he shifted in his set and kept typing I decided to get bold. I moved my head to his inner thigh and lightly touched his crotch with my right hand and softly whined. All I got this time when I looked up was him sitting still not moving. So I decided to go all the way and got closer so I could put my face in his crotch, I then took a deep breath
Fun In The Shower
I had just washed the shampoo out of my hair and was reaching for the soap when my hair was yanked back and I felt a familiar male body behind me. I was not able to turn my head for the grip he had on my hair but I did not need to see who it was since I already knew it was. My head was then turned to where I was forced to look at the wall. He then started to nibble and bite my neck and shoulder making me shiver and moan. When he was done he tugged on my hair making me turn my head again making me look at the shower screen as he nibble and bite the other side of my neck and shoulder. I moaned louder and wiggled my hips a little only to have my ass smacked and then I herd a growl from behind me. I stopped moving and just stud still. He bit me one more time on my shoulder before he moved his free hand to my nipples.He then pinched and pulled on my nipples before twisting them a little. I had to lock my knees to keep from moving my hips again from the pleasure I was getting from what he
Masters Cock
It's the weekend and Master and me where alone tonight. I had something planed for just for him. When I was done with the dishes I looked in the living room where my Master was. When I noticed that he looked asleep I smiled knowing that I can do what I planed and it would be a surprise to him and I know he would love it. Slowly I walk into the living room. When I got close I got on my hands and knees and slowly crawled to my Master. When my chest hit the couch I stopped and looked up at my Master's face to see if he was awake or not, when I saw his eyes where still closed I smiled. I slowly undid his belt and then I slowly unbutton and unzipped his pants. Looking back up at him I slowly reached into his pants and pulled out his soft cock. When I got it all the way out I sat up where my ass was in the air and my arms where around his hips. Using my right hand I grab his soft cock and squeezed a little, when I felt it jerk a little in my hand I knew my Master was awake. Smiling I leane
Wild Night
It was a beautiful night, full moon and all. I decided that it was a perfect night for a bone fire. I asked my Master to please start one. After he said yes I put the kids to bed me and my Master staid out to look out at the stars and the fire. It was getting a little warm so I went inside and changed into my running shorts and black tank top. When I went back outside my Master was in shorts as well standing by the bone fire waiting for me. Smiling I walk to my Master but halfway to him I stop because something was off. We stood staring at each other for what felt like hours before something snapped between us and my Master ran at me and tackled me to the ground. Seeing the smile on my Masters mouth and in his eyes I knew he was only playing so I bucked my hips and knocked him off me. I then jumped on his back and tried to pin him down. "I believe its the other way around." My Master then grabbed my right leg and pulled me off and tried to pin me again. "Oh no you don't. I wont go d
Naughty Slave
I was at home alone, while Master was working late. I was so horny since I was waiting for my Master to come home so I could please him and in turn get pleasure as well. But when my Master called to tell me he would be late and not wait up for him. I could not wait anymore so I went and got my toy thinking he would never know if I finish before he got home and clean up as well. So I got naked and got into bed with my toy and laptop. I went and started to play with my toy in my pussy, I was so into it that I did not hear my Master come home, when he walked into the room is when it hit me he was home. I was close to coming and almost did not stop. My Master just stood there watching/looking at me until the movie I was watching made a noise, the chick in it moaned loudly snapping my Master out of it. "So slave having fun there." Blushing I start to pull my toy out as I slowly close my legs at the same time. While my other hand reached to turn my laptop off. "What do you think you are d
Girls Night Out
Tonight I finally get to meat my Master's other slave. He promised me that me and her will have tonight alone to see how things go with each other. I was so excited I was dancing around. I had the house clean, dinner was cooking and the kids where over at there grandma's. I had taken a nice long hot bath and was in my kajira out fit my Master got me. When my Master pulled up with her in the car I was waiting for him and her at the door. "Hello Mine, I am glade you did what I told you to do. Now show your chain-sister to the bathroom so she can shower and change." "Yes Master." Grabbing her hand I showed her the bathroom and put her suit case on the bed so she could change in the room. When I was done I went back into the kitchen to check on dinner . My Master was sitting in his chair watching me. "Mine I have decided to stay home to watch and make sure nothing goes wrong with you two. But do not worry I will not stop you or join in unless you both say it is ok for me to join. Now c
Laundry Day
 It was my turn to do the laundry, Mom and Dad where out so I decided to do theirs too since it would make my Dad happy. So I walk into their room to get there laundry to do when I hear the shower running in the bathroom. I stop died wondering who is home when the water stops and then a few minutes the bathroom door open and there stood my Dad in a towel. I don’t say anything but just watch him as he walked out of the bathroom still wet. When he stopped I knew he saw me looking at him since he let the towel slide a bit.  “May I ask why you are in my room angel?”  “I came in here to get the laundry Dad. Why are you home Dad, mom told me you and her where going to a friend’s house for the day and won’t be back until late tonight.”  I look around the room so I don’t look at my Daddy in just a towel since it was making me wet. When I happen to look at him again I notice that his towel was tented and it made me blush and bit my lip before l
Wow...this Chick Is A Nutbar....
So I'll give a short background on this girl I met here...She talked to me once after adding me as a friend. The second time, she left me her number and "text me" in my shoutbox. So i do. The problem is I began working overnights this week, and have to continue them for 2 more. When I first texted her, that was the first thing we discussed; I'm tough to reach when I'm on such a crappy schedule. So here's a few of our previous "conversations":11am TuesdayCristy: HeyMe: Good morning Cristy :)Cristy:  What's your name? Me:  My name is Dan...I need to get to sleep tho, I'm sorry. :( Cristy: sorry4pm TuesdayCristy: (sends typical myspace pose pic) Me:  Hey you, thanks for the pic :) told ya I'd be back, whatcha doin? Cristy: nothin, u lol Me:  Just layin here, could go for more sleep, but I doubt I can fall back asleep. :-/ Cristy: Don't lol Me:  What do I get if I stay up and chat? Cristy: Nothing I dont take naked pics Me:  Oh, I def didn't mean it like that. I would have suggested like a
Wth And Htf?
 TeArY just activated bling: Famplifier! WTH is that old biddy doing in my live feed and HTF did she get there??? She has me blocked.  Ole bitch.
Blog.. Blog.. Can't Think Of A Good Title For This
I like this site. I am tired of the gossips that I have to deal with on Facebook. Fubar is different. I can be what I want to be without caring if it will hurt my reputation. Here, I have every right to be myself. I can be what I want to be. No one will care. No one will talk behind my back. No one will make me a butt of jokes if I get a lousy guy as my boyfriend. I am free here.   I don't want to please everybody. I am tired of that. All my life I've been this goody-good girl who is always smiling even if she is being bashed, bullied or picked on. I am tired of playing that role and I will never again let myself be a victim. It's high time that I get a life, far from phony people and disloyal friends who are only true to you when they need something from you.I'm not saying that all my friends are phonies. It's not like that. What I want to do is to limit my circle of friends to those who are true to me. I don't need a lot of friends. I just need the real ones. All I want is a peacef
Ensign: You Must Not Remember What I Say
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye.            Isaiah 18:3   AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS                                                24 September 2010    I once read a motivational speaker’s book and he began with the phrase I’m using today.  YOU MUST NOT REMEMBER WHAT I SAY.  In case you were confused and thought you picked up a book on hypnosis … the author’s point was that you have to remember what you think and what you’re going to do as a result of what you hear.  It’s not enough to be challenged; what are you going to do about it?   I’m going out on a limb here, but I don’t think Jesus when He walked the earth had a reporter following Him documenting the teaching and the miracles and the fellowship He had with others.  YES, we have the Gospel accounts of Jesus’ life in the New Testament and YES, they
Misery Loves Company
Pain, hatred, sorrow, and love. all are emotions that involve another person to have. If this means humanity must have pain to have happiness and vice-versa, why should we want it? because Misery loves Company. and goddamn it, misery LOVES me. fuck it. im tired of trying to explain everything and no one takes me seriously. no one listens to MY pain when i listen to theres. if i feel like shit, its " everything will be ok" or" dont worry, better things are to come" when i take hours out of my life to help them feel better.   I AM DONE.  
A New Spin On An Old Tale
dead man walking neck in the noose try as he may he can't break loose thoughts still spinning tears so divine pain and madness filling his mind can't find the way out can't see from within can't forgive himself his every sin he takes the gun and prays again hoping for eternity and trying his strength bites down on cold steel can't cock it back he's sees her face eyes gleaming black he knows not the way to make it right he knows not how to fix his plight lonely and cold forevermore  forgive him high father he's nothing more can't control the impulses  the heartless rage he can't simply turn the page never looking forward  only back so he pops a few pills and then a few more thinking this is the way to end this fight he wakes up to white  so covered in blood her face staring at him her hand in his begging him please to not let the monsters win her love eternal  conquering his pain this does NOTHING more then to help him sustain one day more and nothin
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Oooo..."master" Alex...lmao   So, "Master" Alex here decided to give me a "shout" in the shout box: misterak20: hello... i have to admit that you have a very submissive appearance to me. it seems as if you are waiting for someone who takes control. you have a sort of body language as if you are that sort of female i prefer to see with a collar arround her neck instead of a necklace. and i am sure i am correct about your personality about that. *snorts* Wow, how observant...NOT! Oddly enough, when I responded back to this winner, he went all silent. Hmm, yeah, just as I thought. "Master" my ass. Check out his profile too. Lots a real interesting info on him. *shakes head*
Perfect Man
For the longest of time I have toyed with the idea of what the perfect man for me would be, and I think it would be safe to say it would be a mix between Dr. Henry Walton Jones, Jr., Professor Robert Langdon, Professor Charles Edward Eppes, and Devil Cynster. The idea of having someone so smart and knows the subject I have always love, history, mixing it with the subject that I have never understood, math, and then adding in power and strength, that would be the perfect man.   Now if we are talking about outside looks, my ultimate want would be some shade of blue eyes, but other then that I can give you a long list of male celebrities that I would want to be with, look wise, but for me it really isn't about that, it is about the conversations and wanting to go see and do the same kind things. And I would also like him to push me into doing something new, something that I couldn't ever see myself doing before, all while holding my hand.   If I could find all those guys wrapped up i
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Omega Seamaster Americas Cup Seamaster Aqua Terra Xxl Small Seconds
    Every year Omega enriches the Seamaster collection with new fantastic models. Last year the company presented the truly fantastic Omega Seamaster Aqua Terra XXL Small Seconds _ Replica Omega Watches_Omega watches Fine Jewelry. This collection includes brilliant watches that are made of white gold. Omega Seamaster Aqua Terra XXL Small Seconds This year Omega decided to enrich their famous Seamaster collection with a novelty that is designed first of Replica IWC Watches all for collectors. The Omega Seamaster Aqua Terra XXI Small Seconds watch comes in a limited edition of 88 pieces in each version (pink gold or white gold). The watch is equipped with the 2211 caliber – COSC certificated chronograph. The Omega Seamaster Aqua Terra XXI watch catches attention by many characteristics and first of all by its size – the case measures 49.2 mm in diameter. In spite of such a big case, the watch is equipped with normally sized ETA 2895 caliber (25,6 mm x 4,75 mm). The watch h
Just A Warning
I have no way of explaining this beyond...I just can't play today. That's why my settings have changed. I don't want to talk about it, I don't want any hearts and flowers or six verses of kumbayfuckingyah...and I don't want to piss on anybody's parade either - but I'm not good at pretending, so sorry. Sometimes it's best I just shut the fuck up.   Best analogy I can come up with is the wounded tiger doesn't really give a fuck who it mauls - so as a slightly more evolved creature I'm at least shutting the cage.   You haven't done anything wrong. And don't worry about me, I will come about soon enough. In fact there's stirrings of it as I consider this emo bullshit.   Just don't expect much from me, and we'll be fine. Kia kaha C
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The Other Hero
Ext. Night.  A City parkWIDE: Showing a park path.The sounds of running and yelling can be heard.  Four forms begin to appear, one is obviously being chased by the other three. CLOSE UP: of roger as he runsRogerOh god, oh god.(To the attackers)Please just leave me alone.CUTAWAY: To the attackersAttacker 1Like hell we are.The attackers catch up with ROGER.  ATTACKER 1 picks up by his shirt.ATTACKER 1Now, you're going to get it for talking to Jennifer.ROGERNo, I swear I didn't mean to.  She needed help with...ATTACKER 2Shut the fuck up.  We don't need your shit.Attacker 1 throws Roger to the ground.ATTACKER 1Goddamn, I've been waiting for an excuse to fuck you up.  Alright boys, lets get this done.The three boys start to kick Roger mercilessly.  Laughing and throwing insults as they do.CLOSE UP: Roger curled up in a ball.Roger screams and crys for help. MEDIUM:On boys kicking himWe see a soft, barely visible light emitting from inside of Roger's curled up form.  None of the boys seem to
seriously if ur gonna whine bout what i rate u then just go away. if its a real pic ill rate 10 (11 if i can). if its any other kinda pic ill rate what i think of it. if its lame it wont score high! geeze this just a social network site no need to have ur panties bunched up over what ppl rate u. get over it and move on. opinions r like assholes, everyones got em so if u dont wanna b rated on a social site then get off it!
Who's Life Is Mine
This is written as a 20-30 min script but ideas on how to make a lil longer would be awesome too.     ACT IScene 1Scene 1Stage starts out in black out.  Spot light slowly rises center stage.  A young girl dressed up walks out on stage.AnnouncerNext onto the catwalk is Julia Peterson.  Julia is 16 years old and this is her fifth time walking the catwalk here at the beautiful AT&T Auditorium.Julia walks to the front of the stage fully in the spotlight, she has a small smile.  She turns and waves to the crowd.ANNOUNCERTonight Julia is modeling the new young and beautiful line from JC Penny's.  JC Penny, where every day matters.Julia smiles again, curtsies and walks back off stage into the darkness.Blackout.Scene 2Lights up on a living room.  Julia's mother is sitting on the couch sewing presumably one of Julia's dresses.  Julia is sitting in a chair with a blank expression on her face.MotherI hope you know sweety, you did absolutely wonderful last night.  You were so beautiful up on th
Losing It
There's a monster inside of me struggling to break free. Clawing beneath my skin, weakening me. Im about to give in, count 1,2,3. Let it break out, unleash its fury.
Why do people always have to lieThey lie to make themselves feel goodWhy are there con artists everywhereThey are around to keep people on their toesWhy do so many people play gamesThey play games cause all they suckWhy do people hurt other peopleThey hurt cause the do not careWhy are there so many fake peopleThey are fake cause they will find someone to fall for their gamesWhy should i even care aymoreI care cause it is who i am
My Last Night With My Momma....
Today, 15 years ago i sat at the edge of your bed all night long, waiting, listening for a night that would never end   I heard you talk I heard you breath at one point you asked me why you were here...   we laughed and talked until daybreak grew closer i dont know if you heard me or even understood what we talked about   some of the conversations we had didnt make any sense at the time was it a dream or reality altho i cherished every word   as i walked away just as i had done the morning before i kissed you softly said i love you, momma  you looked at me smiled and said i love you too   i told you i will see you soon you told me to get some rest i went home, layed down only to wake up scared out of my mind...   i rushed back to see you as i saw your face you smiled a wide smile you told me im glad you are back   you asked me to come closer and so i did, not noticing all the other people in your room you quietly said, I'm gonna go now... i jokingl
So.... Show Me The Money
Since my blog yesterday I have had quite a few of you ask if I would seriously consider taking chocolate letters orders from you guys this year and send them out. I figure if I actually do it NOW before I am super busy & I keep forgetting or dont have time to oganize it or I am missing half the letters  or its way to late to ship them on time...why the heck not. For those of you who dont know they are a tradition in Holland where everyone gets their first name chocolate initial GREAT stocking stuffer for any age. So if you guys are really interested then lets give this a go   You need to give me your order and specify if you want pure or milk chocolate You need to trust giving me a CC number with expiry date You need to be prepared for shipping charges those are your baby not mine :D Americans need to accept the slight risk that because of super ridiculous home land security rules they might not make it to your door ( I am told this is a way slighter risk than in past years
Sad Today   Link to the article about the kids getting hit today :( 
How Fights Get Started...
How Fights Get Started...My wife sat down on the couch next to me as I was flipping channels.She asked, 'What's on TV?'I said, 'Dust.'And then the fight started....******************************************My wife and I were watching "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire" while we were in bed. I turned to her and said, "Do you want to have sex?""No," she answered.I then said, "Is that your final answer?"She didn't even look at me this time, simply saying, "Yes."So I said, "Then I'd like to phone a friend."And then the fight started.....******************************************Saturday morning I got up early, quietly dressed, made my lunch, and slipped quietly into the garage. I hooked up the boat up to the van, and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour. The wind was blowing 50 mph, so I pulled back into the garage, turned on the radio, and discovered that the weather would be bad all day.I went back into the house, quietly undressed, and slipped back into bed. I cuddled up to my w
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Well Shit.
My laptop is running so slow. I'm not sure what's going on. I thought maybe it was because I had so many other things running, but nope. No more than I normally do and it generally runs fine. Anyway, it's Random Gift give random people gifts and have some fun. Make sure you give something to a stranger and let them know it's for random gift else is this thing going to spread? ....and to think, some people thought I'd forget
Been A Long Time...
Kind of a crude message, but it's all I have time for. I came to Fubar a long time ago, and the community of people here was great. Sadly, my computer couldn't handle it and I ended up leaving. A lot has happened since then. So, to anyone who wishes to follow and stay friends, my AIM is meekoxiii, my hotmail is, and my yahoo is It was nice knowing you and I hope that we talk again someday. I'll be deleting in about a week or so. :3
Have you had a friend, especially a friend with benefits? How do you tell them things? Personal things, or even things that you're afraid to bring up? Do you get anxiety attacks? Do your nerves freeze up in fear? Does you stomach tighten and hurt? Mine does. How do you go from FWB, to something else, something more, something deeper, especially when you're afraid to speak your mind. Not that you are afraid of your friend, not by any means, but afraid of the consequence if what you say is taken wrong, or they can't or won't, feel the same way. I get attached to people, perhaps I open my heart too easily, but there it is. You're afraid to change the status quo because a) you don't know how to tell them that you'd be willing to be more (if that is how your friendship grows) or b) because they will take it wrong and walk away (just like everyone else has) I'm tired of the 'fly by night guys', I want someone more steady, someone that wants to be with me, and not just for the sex, but bec
Lil One
if only i were able to hold your little hand .. if only i were there to see your first smile  welocme to the world lil niece .. i will do my best to keep you safe ..  and protect your innocence .. I love you already Kelisha Elizabeth , and in the years to come , i will strive to be great aunty to not only you but all of my nieces and nepthews.. Again i say welcome lil one ..  
if ever i am to fall in love .. can i stop myself from falling , it seems like a long way down  lke falling off a cliff , and free falling ..noone to hear my scream on the way down.. it sad to say im kind of scared of love , its left its scars on me ... but i cant say that im not willing to ever fall in love again.. only that it hurts .. when loves ends .. but does it truly end or just change ... still i wonder .. will i answer true loves call ..  will i love with no reservation  will i trust with no reservation  will i respect a man , the way i once did...  or will i run in fear .. in fear of knowing what could go wrong ... Love is patient , love is kind ..   My heart is not stone , yets still it feels like stone sometimes .. my tears are not oceans yet sometimes they feel like oceans.. hands are not weapons yet sometimes  they feel like guns .. my tongue is not a sword yet it can cut like a knife ..  my feet  have walked many miles on this journey called life .. yet
Health Update Sept / 2010
Hi every one. Well those of you that will take the time to read this.  Some of you know that I went and had some test done a couple weeks ago. And some of you that are close to me and know me already know this if you remember . Well just talked to my Doctor earlier this afternoon and he told me the results. Took awhile cause he was out of town for a week. Any way they did a new (mri / doppler ) and they found that I have a blood clot in my upper left leg. Due to the type of clot it is and where it is there is nothing that can be done surgery wise with it . For now will treat it with blood thinners, ( Yea rat poison ) , To control the blood flow in my leg. Now I'm not posting this for  ( Oh I'm sorry // Or for sympathy )  I'm posting it just to let every one know . I have accepted this and so has my family. This is all in God's hands and I have always trusted and believe in him. So thank you for taking the time to read this. Have a good evening and great weekend ahead. Thanks ..... Tom 
Just A Taste
As she walked through the grocery store she had no clue what to make tonight for dinner.  Tonight was to be date number four with her new boy friend and she was in the mood something special.  As she turned into the dairy isle she could help but drift into a naughty though as she passed the whip cream section.  She had always fantasized about having  whip cream applied all over her breast; feeling the cold cream over her breast then a hot tongue suck and lick it off was more than she could handle.  Her new boy toy was not yet proven in a sexual sense but after the thought of the whip cream she felt a desire to have the relationship move to the next level.  So she decided to txt him a coy message saying, “ I hope you have a sweet tooth.”  She tossed the can of whip cream into her cart and continued on to the vegetable isle.  He was sitting at his desk as his blackberry began to vibrate on the desk.  He was feverishly trying to finish up the proposal for his number one accou
For My Friends
I am very fortunate and proud to have the wonderful friends in my life that I do. These friends understand and accept me for who I am. They understand my silences knowing that sometimes I must be silent for my sanity. They accept my lunacy when I throw my good southern fits as well as when I throw material things. Some let me blow off steam and some set me straight. They always seem to know which one is called for at that particular moment. They accept my humor which can be downright trashy! They allow my affection which at times can be hard for me to give. They accept the walls that I sometimes build for my safety because they know it will fall eventually. They tolerate the moments when I am cold and distant because they realize deep inside I care and worry about them.  They know I have my demons and they love me anyway. I adore and appreciate my beautiful friends. So I toast those close to me...I am a better person because I know you. Thank you for allowin
It's A Romanc Thing, Lol, And Paranormal.
When time began two beings existed – as different as light and dark, soft and hard – neither good nor bad, but different and they warred. The two beings were Gods, hardly the only Gods, but the only ones that mattered.             One, a female with dark hair, like a raven’s wing come to life, and light features named Satiria who controlled the four elements.             The second, a male with hair like molten gold, and features as dark as night, named Jaden who had unsurpassed telekinetic abilities.             They battled endlessly, each assuming themselves to be the best. Wind blew, raging across the land, causing dust and land to spike uncontrollably as Satiria fought for dominance. Jaden struck with force, sending bonds to hold her in place for a mere moment before she broke free. On and on it swept, catching species in the crossfire, creating abominations not meant to see the rays of sun.             Settling finally on the need to combat the problems thei
So Tired
I am so tired of your so called "friends" blocking you for no reason, If you dont want to talk anymore at least grow a pair and say so.... Im just tired of putting everything I have into something and then someone just throwing it all away like it was nothing...
Hours Of Fun With Creepy Cat
A co-worker sent this link to me and I've been laughing my ass off. Have fun!
Masochistic Bitch
Soooo I am in a fuckin mood....people suck and even listening to my pissed off rage the fuck  on and  get it outta your fucking system before ya go out and just start shooting some random fucking asshole because he has socks on with his hideous fucking jesus sandals and smells like shit because the liberal fucks in Boulder think rocks make for good deodorant   I had to repierce my own lip because I swalled the post when the stone came off, yes brilliant and no I never retrieved it. Well....course I didnt have the right angle to shove the piercing needle back thru by myself so I thought what an idea..take the blunt internally threaded post you have...and just shove the mother fucker until it rips back thru the membrane that managed to close up in a matter of hours...yes I am a masochist...but that was not much of an orgasmic endorpin rush...hard to believe eh Ohhhh and I got my nipples double pierced ...yeah that one was enjoyable tho so I will end my rant...and go google m
My Hunny
lang@ fubar
Kinky Family
My Friend Steveg From Soundmonster Love Em All To Death And Want To Share
Hey there to you all, I usually don't have much to say, but I have a friend and I want to say this and hope you will respond, that would be so nice instead of the  crap, bored an bad feelings out there we have all been having with the economy, hell trust me I know a single mom and unemployed and cant find work and this just a bit to take time to hear the demo, the original will be even better if you can imagine, I do wish them the best and will spread the word everywhere for them cos they are worth it. Hell they dont need me but I want to share them with you. please take a min 2 listen to my friends from soundmonster very talented bunch of very nice guys., for fubar and on facebook, want to share steve and soundmonster. luv yall shelly from alaska yea snow princess xoxo
Can Only Promise Today
promises made and promises broken you wanna get laid but you act like your jokin i might cross my fingers but i wont hold my breath i know that this ring it dont mean until death   i used to believe in fairy tales but then i grew up   i know love is imaginary so that look in your eyes it dont scare me standing alone with your arms wrapped around me right now i dont care that the dark it surrounds me   i used to believe in fairy tales but then i grew up   I know that to you i may sound jaded but its  not just that its more complicated its just that my eyes they seem to be open im tired of the lies the dreams and the gropin   i used to believe in fairy tales but then i grew up   you give me your hand say its mine for the takin kiss the pain in my eyes and help me awaken i cant promise forever but i give you today you explan that ill see and you wont walk away i used to believe in fairy tales but then i grew up   :)
The Deep Calm Before The Plunge........
If only I really could express thoughts and feelings on here....but I don't know if everyone in cyberspace would like dealing with my nightmares....or my daydreams....I tend to think a little too deeply and loose people in the process...I forget that some just don't give a rats ass if my soul is screaming to be released from this physical prison.....and what that means......I tend to forget that I really do affect others as much as I do, and how much they affect me as well.....I forget that people don't really give a sh!t about what poisons are in our water supply, what the "energy crisis" is really doing to us....and I tend to believe that if I tell them about it they will magically start caring.......I forget to spend time on the people I need to spend time on....and I don't spend enough time with anyone, I really need to work on this one, but to all that have stuck by me and allow me to go off on my ravings know that I will always love you more than anywords could express in this li
Just Another Day Full Of Bullsh*t
Seems like by now I would have learned to blow off the crap that happens on this site. Yet I am continually amazed by the ignorance of people who are supposed to be adults. Being on Fubar is all black & white lately. There is no gray area in the middle. Either you "put out" so to speak and have the world at your feet. Or you tell people to buzz off and end up being forgotten. Well, I can honestly say I don't give a rat's ass about the first group. Dealing with people who cop an attitude because I don't have a desire to flash my boobs for them is getting really old. I didn't join this site to satisfy the needs of some jerk who can't find a set of real ones to look at. I can't even count the number of asshats who have called me every name in the book over such petty bullsh*t and I'm not even gonna try. All I know is that I am the type that adds anyone. I figure everyone deserves a chance. Adding newbies is one of my ways of welcoming them to Fubar. After all, it would be boring on this
Holy Whiny Fucking Cuntitis Around This Joint!
Randy HAPPILY MARRIED TO MY SOULMAT... Buzz:  100% sh*t faced! Level:  Guardian Angel (35) Gender: Male, 50 Location: East Troy, WI Status: Baby? Is my stuff HOT!!! huh???   9:14am Randy HAPP...: you nasty hole you..your wishing you had a pussy you dick toted wanna be 9:15am  Kloverlynn: lmfao sure dude cuz i am the middle aged man fucking cryin like a bitch about getin blocked 9:16am  Kloverlynn: only cunts use comment approval and then come talk shit. So go rub your achy pussy elsewhere dude
My Experiment
I took upon myself to create this experiment for personal reasons. Question: Can you change one's perception of physical pain? Take as a give: pain is an emotion controlled by your brain. Hypothesis: One can conciously control their personal perception of physical pain. Experiment: The experiment is simple actually.  A willing participant has to endure bouts of pain.  The pain should increase as the experiment is proven for the enjoyment of all envolved. Basically what happened was I wanted to be able to push my pain limits.  During "sessions" I would consciously take the immediate sensation of pain and think of it instead as pleasure.  This experiment is successful according to the actual willingness and effort applied by the participant. Its a power of the mind thing idk i think im done bloggin for a sec lol
I Can Feel Your Heatbeat
I saw you talking on the phone I know that you are not alone But you stealling my heart away Yeah you stealling my heart away Nicole: You're acting like you are on your own But I saw you standing with a girl, oh Stop tryn to steal my heart away Stop tryn to steal my heart away Enrique: I don't know where we going I don't know who we are I can feel your heartbeat I can feel your heartbeat Nicole: he said to me Enrique: I can feel your heartbeat Nicole: running through me Enrique: feel your heartbeat she said Nicole: I can feel your heartbeat Enrique: She said to me Nicole: I can feel your heartbeat Enrique: She said to me Nicole: I can feel your heartbeat Enrique: running for me Nicole: Heartbeat, feel your heartbeat Enrique: Mabye its the way you move You got me dreaming like a fool That I can steal your heart away I can steal your heart away Nicole: No matter what it is your think I'm not the kind of girl to blink and give my heart away Stop tryin steal my heart away
Good Bye
Because I love you, I can let go.I still care bout you deeply my feelings I will not show.I think bout you every night before bed,All through out the day thoughts of you flow through my head.I listen to song you sent me after one of our last fights,Believe me baby I wish I could make everything right.I'll never forget the way we laughed or the hours we spent talking,But honestly that doesn't keep me from walking.We both moved on and grew up a little bit more,There's no more trying to settle the score.Just when I think your gone for good,You come back and make everything so misunderstood.I can't continue this cycle of off and on,I hate to say this but please be gone.No more late night call's of I love you,No more confusion of what to do.There's no more me there's no more us,I'm sorry baby its for the best, simply must.
Shitty Parents!
 I FUCKING HATE BAD PARENTS!      OUR KIDS REALLY ARE THE FUTURE OF OUR OWN FAMILIES! This is a link to some site my home boy posted on facebook. When you click on it you will notice a small video on the site. The mother in this video need her fucking ass kicked! She is teaching her daughter how to smoke a blunt! And I think I heard my homeboy say something about her being only two years old, though she looks about three! But what the fuck! I could slap that bitch!
What To Do ...
Ok so I feel like blogging about this so that someone that sees it may help.  It seems that I have become intrigued with the whole being a  dj thing.  I think its awesome what my favorite dj's can do and I want to do it too.  So I know this is just a silly blog but I really would love any advice any dj could offer someone who doesn't have a clue how to use zulu which is what I downloaded after having issues with my virtualdj.  Feel free to mail me if you want. Thanks in advance for your help :D
Angry Night.........
Its so easy to become so numb, Rubbing the blade against my thumb. The cruel reality of the world has set it, Never get to start over stuck at the end.   Haunted by the wrath of your abuse, To love again I have no clue. I sabotage everything given to me, Never truly understanding so blind I can't see.   I trusted you with my body, soul, and heart, Only for you to to abuse it all and tear me apart. I sometimes wish I would of died that day, But no so fucking stupid I stayed.   You took the true meaning of love away, Anytime someone get's close I start to stray. I've lost more now that your gone, I keep replaying this damned song.   I remember how you promised to love me as your wife, Then fucked my cousin on our honeymoon night. Your so fucking worthless no where near deserving my tear's, But yet even though were mile's apart I still live in fear....  
I'm Sorry...
  I got a call yesterday with some saddening news, Friends say they saw you recently looking so confused. They said the spark that once lit your eye's is gone,  They said you roamed around looking to belong.   The saddest part is you were lost in your own world you couldn't them there,  Off into the clouds you drifted to stare. They said tear's filled their eye's as the walked on by,  Realizing now why I could no longer try.   They heard the horror stories but couldn't believe it true,   I did a good job at hiding myself when I was black and blue. They asked me to call you to see if you were okay,  I told them it was better if I just stayed away.    I cried when I hung up the phone, I so wanted to call you and tell you to come home.  That wouldn't have been the right thing to do, No matter how much I still love and miss you....
I Have Been Playing Poker For A While And Hit Some Donkey Hands
I was playing poker online and had a Queen eight and hit runner runner quad queens then I get Jack four and floped quad fours what the hell has happened to poker people are stupid and play any hand they want and yet they hit nothing when I have the best hand plus I also hate it when people put you all in cause they have an ace if you have ever played poker would you get mad if someone did that to you and cracked your pocket pair

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