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Just Put Some Ice On It
“I should warn you, I suck.” I felt obligated to tell her. I mean we just met, how was she to know? I noticed her there with her friends obviously having some drinks after work. They were all business attired and relaxing: ties loose, top buttons unbuttoned, jackets over chairs, hair down. But she stood out. She had this soft, round face that was lit with the evenings antics as well as a few glasses of wine. Her hair was black and so thick it absorbed light. She seemed so sweet taking compliments genially with a smile, a tilt of the head and a lilting thank you. The problem was I couldn’t just walk up and talk to her. She was with a pretty sizable group of people and it would’ve been a little awkward for me, in my barroom uniform of jeans and a ratty black tee shirt, to work myself in. When she turned to put her name up on the list for the pool table I saw a chance and added my name after her. All I could do was stare at her while they names ahead of us played out their games

Just Next Door
Andrea and John had lived next door to each other for several months before they'd even introduced themselves. Their doors were right next to each other and they were headed out at the same time. John was in his early thirties, athletic, brown eyes and hair, good strong facial features. Andrea was in her late twenties, with blonde hair down her back, a nice tan and well soft, yet tight and toned body. They made small talk for a few minutes and a week later ran into each other and sat on the steps of their apartment building drinking a few beers. She had on a sun dress, which in certain lights was almost see through, and when he was sure he wouldn't get caught he checked out her gorgeous tan tits, bare back and neck. Both had wanted something to happen but they had to work early in the morning and they lost their nerve. However, as they were climbing the steps John asked if Andrea would watch his cat while he was out of town for the weekend. She jumped at the idea to see how he lived an

Taken Part 2
You smile and twist my nipple ring as you take my whole cock into your ass. The pace you set is so rhythmic I can only smile and breathe. Your ass is so incredibly tight and the picture of you on top of me with you pussy showing fully I could cum just over looking at that. I move my hand down to play with your pussy but you move my hand away. With expert care you reach down and begin to lightly pat your clit. I am amazed at your skill. You're straddling me, balancing yourself on the back of the chair and spanking your pussy. Well I can tell that you won't last long at this as your pussy swells right up and I feel the accumulation of your sweet nectar on my lower belly. I help you by taking your hips and lift you up and down taking some strain off of your arms and legs. As I can feel you hunger increase I realize that this position isn't going to be enough to get you off again. I wrap my arms around you pick you up, cock still buried in your ass, and take you to the counter. It's the

Taken
Tonight I've made preparations for a romantically quiet evening for us. A good movie and a nice meal with the phone turned off. I've selected a mild bottle of wine that will go great with the broiled shrimp and Mediterranean chicken dish that I've prepared. As you sit on the couch randomly flipping through channels while you wait for dinner I lean overtop of the couch and kiss you gently on the side of your neck. "Dinner is served!" I say in a low whisper as I take in your natural smell. I think to myself that no perfume could compare to that. No matter what you seem to be doing you smell great! I can't help but get a little aroused at the thought of smelling you all over. We go over to the dining rooms table that is set with two tall candles and I've laid out the wineglasses with the napkins rolled into them. I've tried to make it as restaurant like as possible. As I pull out your chair so you can be seated I steal another quick whiff of you and let go a little moan. You giggle

Take A Walk, Fuck A Stranger
I was taking one of my walks where I try and find interesting things to take photos of around the area I live in, and as usual, nothing appealing could be found. Tired and a little frustrated from walking around for 2 and a half hours and only taking three pictures, both of which I had little hope for, I made my way back. The walks I didn't mind, there was always that little chance that I would find something worth capturing with my film, and I liked the extra exercise, but after not getting anything out of it, walking back seemed daunting and I was not looking forward to it. I suppose if I really wanted I could have taken more pictures, but I didn't bother with mildly appealing crap, I wanted something special. After a while I came closer to my house, and started slowing my pace. It was an uphill and I was in no mood to rush up it after the walk. It was a hot day and I had nothing to drink since I left home. Two houses down from mine I noticed a mother and her baby sitting under a

A Song That Made Me Think...
Better Than Me" I think you can do much better than me After all the lies that I made you believe Guilt kicks in and I start to see The edge of the bed Where your nightgown used to be I told myself I won't miss you But I remember What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me While looking through your old box of notes I found those pictures I took That you were looking for If there's one memory I don't want to lose That time at the mall You and me in the dressing room I told myself I won't miss you But I remember What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me The bed I'm lying in is getting colder Wish I never would've said it's over And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older Cause we never really had

Livejournal & Myspace(new One)
I need some friends on livejournal & Myspace. I got a new myspace. I hope i can keep this one. Anybody has a livejournal or myspace. Add me. ^_^ http://www.myspace.com/185699948 http://completexdenial.livejournal.com/ I failed to say, my journal is mostly friends only.

Fuck Me Baby!
OH this should be interesting... CAUSE.... YOU GOT F**KED!!!!! That's right, time to start the game. Post this to see how many will sleep with you! How many will kiss you! How many will marry you! How many will have your kids or you want them to have your kids! How many will make love to you! How many want to make out with you! And the catch? If you want to do these things to the person who sent this. LET THEM KNOW!!!! Don't hide, don't be bashful. Tell them and they might thank you for it. Give them the opportunity to respond by Reposting!!!! If you don't. You will have some bad luck

Irritated
In our age of instant gratification, we've all forgotten to have some fucking patience. I look around everyday and see people acting like three year olds, yelling at minimum wage employees for not getting them their damn (fill in the blank) fast enough and threatening to bitch them out to the manager. Shut the fuck up. You can wait. What better things do you have to do really? Rush home and watch the latest episode of the OC? Go masterbate for the 8th time? Take a deep breath, chill, let your mind wander. Your shit will get to you before you even realize it. And tell that slave-wage earner to have a nice day. They deserve to hear something nice for a change too. And yet..... * I hate the new generation and their sense of entitlement. I had to work at the bottom once too, and for those of you who didn't, you fucking should have. Builds character, and fuck you if you think that's cliche, because it's true. I'm a polite customer, but you had better not be on the phone with a per

Attn All Rawr Members
I need everyone to go add this guy as a friend. I also need you to read his blog that is linked in this blog. Thanks! The guy you need to add: http://www.cherrytap.com/user/165815 The blog you need to read: http://www.cherrytap.com/blog/37754/328017 I also need to make sure that noone is in a contest during the week of this contest. If you are, please let me know. Otherwise I expect you to be here bombing this picture. Thanks!

I Wonder If She Knows??
As I sit here at night, thinking of her I wonder if she knows she's the one that's on my mind? I wonder if she knows that she's the first thing I think of in the morning when I get up? I wonder if she knows that through out the day I often times catch myself thinking about her, and day dreaming about the life we could have. I wonder if she knows that I could love her like no other ever could? I wonder if she knows that I'd give my soul to the devil just feel her soft sweet lips if only once? I wonder if she knows that I'd give my life for her, no questions asked? I wonder if she knows that I'd give her the beating heart out of my chest, just to know that I died loving her? I wonder if she knows that no matter what, I'd always stand beside her? I wonder if she knows that when I say 'I love you' I mean it unconditionally? I wonder if she knows that even tho the distance between us is great, that she's always on my mind?? I wonder if she knows that no matter

Fuck Me Baby.....
OH this should be interesting... CAUSE.... YOU GOT F**KED!!!!! That's right, time to start the game. Post this to see how many will sleep with you! How many will kiss you! How many will marry you! How many will have your kids or you want them to have your kids! How many will make love to you! How many want to make out with you! And the catch? If you want to do these things to the person who sent this. LET THEM KNOW!!!! Don't hide, don't be bashful. Tell them and they might thank you for it. Give them the opportunity to respond by Reposting!!!! If you don't. You will have some bad luck

This Has Got To Be One Of The Most Clever
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com E-mails I've received in awhile. Someone out there either has too much spare time or is deadly at Scrabble. (Wait till you see the last one)! DORMITORY: When you rearrange the letters: DIRTY ROO M PRESBYTERIAN: When you rearrange the letters: BEST IN PRAYER ASTRONOMER: When you rearrange the letters: MOON STARER DESPERATION: When you rearrange the letters: A ROPE ENDS IT THE EYES: ! When you rearrange the letters: THEY SEE GEORGE BUSH: When you rearrange the letters: HE BUGS GORE THE MORSE CODE: When you rearrange the letters: HERE COME DOTS SLOT MACHINES: When you rearrange the letters: CASH LOST IN ME ANIMOSITY: When you rearrange the letters: IS NO AMITY ELECTION RESULTS: When you rearrange the letters: LIES - LET'S RECOUNT SNOOZE ALARMS: When you rearrange the letters: ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S A DECIMAL POINT: When you rearrange the letters: IM A DOT IN PLACE THE EART

My Grandson Tristan =0)
Wow.. I cant believe its been almost 2 weeks since my daughter Krystal delivered her 1st son, Tristan Blaine Engelbach, He is such a good baby, she was so very lucky to get a son, just like her when she was a baby. He isnt a cryer, needs so little attention, but of course he is spoiled already. When Mommy and Daddy arent Holding him, its Grandmom, Great Grandmom, or Aunt Kate or Kristi anna. He spends the weekends with Mommy and Daddy, and during the week, Mommy brings him over to see Grandmom, and Great Grandmom,& his aunts. When Daddy gets home from work, They go home and make him dinner,and get the place cleaned up, so Mommy and Daddy can spend the rest of the night with there little bundle of Joy. I cant believe at almost 2 weeks old, he is holding up his head, and grabbing things to put in his mouth. He can hold his pacifier in his own mouth, and when it falls out, he can put it back in. That is when Mommy gives him one. She dont want him getting hooked on that ucky thing, if he d

Pictures I Made For The One I Love
my baby K.a.y.d.e.e.(( shes my world )) && this is my baby Kaydee && she is my other half && she is my everything && she loves me for M.E. && she is the sun in my hair && she is the one i cant live w/o && she is the shine in my eyes && she is the glow in my smile && she is my best friend && she is my Girlfriend && she is my Fiance && she is my soul mate && she is the sunshine in my hair && she is the only woman for me && she is amazing && she is the one thats makes me feel whole && she is the one i never want to loose && she is the one i love to be with && she is the one i can not live without && she is the one i tell everything && she is the one im not afraid to cry in front of && she is the one who can tell im sad even when im smiling && she is the one who I would take a bullet it for!!!

Public Service
Water vs Wine It has been scientifically proven that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli (e coli) bacteria found in feces. Body waste. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine (or rum, whiskey, beer or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling or filtering and/or fermenting. WATER = poop WINE = HEALTH Ergo: It's better to drink wine and talk stupid than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I am doing it as a public service.

He Is My World
before u; i was lost in love, no where to go, no where to turn. there u were popping up to say hey not realizing that u would steal my heart away. the late nights on the phone, were simple and sweet and pretty soon u were in my dreams. day in and day out u were on my mind, hoping one day you could be mine. your smile melted my heart away, your eyes took me to another place. your voice made my knees buckled, and your love made the holes in my heart complete again. for once im not afraid to love agian, for once i can be worry free. babydoll you dont know how much you mean to me, thanks to you my life is complete.

Life Is An Opportunity
Life is unbounded and is only limited by what we can imagine. We all have the potential to make life the way we want it to be. We all have the ability to make life a better place not just for ourselves, but on a global scale. Try small things, like smiling. The more you do, the more people like to be around you and feel safe. Complaining won't get you anywhere. Instead, take 100% responsibility of your life. When you do, you take things in better for yourself. And you won't complain as often either. What makes you happy? What do you love to do the most? Ask yourself these questions. Go ahead, try it. When you answer yourself, with the help of the imagination, and truly grasp the very thing you love to do the most, or something that you love the most. It makes you feel great and want more of it. And feeling good is great. Because when you feel better, you'll do better. --Xonus ;)

My Horoscope
Daily Horoscope: Leo For May 1,2007 The toughest thing in the world isn't beating someone with your superior mental or physical strength; the toughest thing in the world is being strong enough to be vulnerable. Take a risk and show your real self to someone who counts.

Skateparks In Arizona I Love To Go To!!!
PV (Paradise Valley) Skate Park... Paradise Valley, AZ Union Hills - Glendale, AZ AJ - Apache Junction, AZ The Wedge - Scottsdale, AZ Desert West - Encanto - Glendale, AZ Freestone - Gilbert, AZ

My Autopsy
Your doctor has scheduled you for an autopsy on ___________ at _______ AM/PM. St. Amgems Hospital wants you to be prepared for what should be an eventful time. This guide should answer the most common questions in regard to your procedure. Please call your doctor's office if you have any further questions. Please remember, autopsies are performed on an "as needed" procedure. If you, or a qualified Medical Examiner chooses to cancel your autopsy, the Pathology department requires 24 hours notice. WHAT IS AN AUTOPSY? As advanced as medical science is, sometimes we need more thorough procedures to find out why your living status has been impaired. An autopsy can include CAT scans, X-rays, and surgical evaluation. WILL IT INVOLVE SURGERY? Yes. At times when there is a lack of obvious traumatic impact, surgery is needed. Your doctor may wish to examine your vital organs. This involves removal of the organs for the purpose of study. The contents of your stomach will also be examine

In General
I just want to tell you a little about me. I love spending time with my friends and family. My friends are my family. Since I live in FL and my mom and sister are in MD. I love to learn new things. Like around the corner you never know what is waiting. We all only have a limited amount of time on this earth, so we should make the best of it. If tomorrow never comes, how do you want people to remember you? Don't fill yourself up with anger and hate. Live, love, and laugh. Laugh as often as you can. I do.

Uncle Terry
A poem writen by my son Uncle Terry I just want to let you know You meant the world to me Thank you for the stuff you’ve Done for me I used to always Look forward to your visits Always loved you even if I didn’t show it And never imagined you leavening me this way I don’t now if it would have helped ease the pain Or make it worse to know that you were dieing And maybe even suffering I mean what happened no one knows but you Your death was a surprise and you left allot behind Like your wife and the rest of your family like me No one could read your mind to see what you saw and no one will ever know now But you got your own tree I guess it represents you But no one will ever forget you tree or no tree We all loved you and will never get why you had to die But I still love you and will never forget you And I hope you’re happy up there Because if you are then I’m happy to And I never got to say good bye So good bye and I love you I deducted thi

Sexiest Brit Verses Sexiest American - A Must Enter Competition
welcome to the hottest competiton on cherry tap yet!!! we have had all sorts from best ink to best kids etc this contest is the sexiest brit verses the sexiest american, you can be male or female, or both haha, the way the contest will work is a heat of the sexiest brit, also a heat of the sexiest american, the winners from each heat will go head to head to become the sexiest cherry, i am looking for contestants, so if you think the sexiest cherry crown belongs to you , contact middlesmash or candygirl uk the contest will start when i have 10 uk and 10 american contstants , so come on what a crown to hold there will by prizes for the winner of each heat and another one for the overall winner - what you waiting for !!

Woman
So i was wondering..... why is it woman always seem to stress about hooking up with assholes then when they do meet a good guy they seem to pass it up 90% of the time. dont get me wrong but all i wonder is in one breath you say you meet only the asses and then you continue meeting only the jerks that will treat you bad how is that productive. Kinda like the eith wonder of the world who knows how or why girls pick guys the way they do.

When A Guy Misses You...
When A Guy/Girl Misses When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you she wants you to hold her hand When she wants a hug she will just stand there When u break a girls heart she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing games When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more tha

May Sucks!!!!!!!!!! Already!
well may is a busy fuckin month for me i wanna scream already......my oldest girl has got prom and graduation and then my youngest girls birthday is this month .....all i here is i want i want i want .....well u know what i want peace and fuckin quite and im not getting that at all.....LOL....im ranting im just havin one of those fucked up days anywho i havent commented worthshit the past 2 days but ill be on it to im sorry everyone.......love ya all! xoxox

First Blog
hey im new to this thing and wanna see what its all about. Im single and am down to meet new people. so if you like what you see, dont be shy and send me a message. Im usually the shy one. Hope to hear from you.

Top 20 Things To Turn A Man Off During/before Sex
Top 20 things to turn a man off during/before sex 20. can i move in 19. laughs (woman) 18. Smelly vag (douche PLS) 17.I'am on my period (woman says "You can just go get a towel") 16. I just got over an STD 15.My birthday was yesterday i turned 13 14. Changes tv station 13. woman asks if your finished yet 12. Is this your first time 11. My dads home 10. Falls asleep 9. yelling out his dad's name 8. puts pillow over your head and beats the shyt outta you 7.Are you in yet 6. Finding out shes your cousin 5. dry cum stains on her ass 4. Finding out the woman has a penis 3. Realizing the penis is bigger than his 2. your mom can do better 1. Finding a used condom inside her

Question Question
Why is it that people you think your close with or was close with at one time seem to let you down at things you never thought they would. It could be something as simple stepping up to the plate and handling your business, but when you expect them to do it they let you down. This is why I dont always trust people cause the moment you let them in they let you down.

Baked Ziti With Four Cheeses
Baked Ziti with Four Cheeses One of this ultra-cheesy dish's many virtues is that you can assemble it ahead of time, keep it in the fridge and just pop it in the oven when you're ready for dinner. Another plus is that kids love it! Use homemade tomato sauce if you have some on hand. Credit: ILovePasta.org Servings: 10 Ingredients: * 1 pound ziti, uncooked * 1 (32-ounce) jar pasta sauce * 1 cup low-fat cottage cheese * 3/4 cup parsley, chopped * 4 ounces Parmesan cheese, grated * 8 ounces part-skim mozzarella cheese * 4 ounces provolone cheese, cut in quarters Directions: Cook the pasta according to the package directions; drain. Coat a 13-by-9-by-2-inch baking dish with cooking spray; set aside. Place a thin layer of sauce in the bottom of the prepared dish. Continue making layers of pasta, cottage cheese, parsley, sauce, pasta, Parmesan cheese, pasta, mozzarella, parsley, pasta, sauce and parsley. Sprinkle provolone on top.

Mess
There is a part of me that wants an answer, a part of me that doesn't want to know. A part of you that I am in love with and a part I am willing to let go. This is a delicate unraveling. Now and then I find pieces of the floor. Tiny little bits that tell me maybe I shouldn't take this or love you anymore. Someone is going to have to fess up. Someone is going to have to clean this mess up. Wonder what will make you happy. I wonder what you'll do with it all. I have a map in my hands, but somehow I still don't understand why I have to always miss you. Why I have to make the call. Before you drive me away take a good look at me. Picture me not lying naked on the couch. I wish the best for you every time you go through this before you finally figure it out. I wanted you the first time. I loved you from the second. And I don't know how that ever goes away. As far as I can tell, you're really good at talking. I think it's time you let me know I'm just your latest mistake. Some

Clouds Of Love
On the night I met you my heart stopped beating it froze with desire at what I was seeing On this night for us that shouldn't have been what lay ahead nobody could see You alone started these flames of wanting desire a million seas couldn't quench the fire But love isn't always the easy friend you have to sail the storm to receive the love you send So till the day comes that these arms can hold you near I'll sail the storms and watch as the clouds disappear

My Friends
This is to my Three Friends that ever talk to me here.. They know who they are... I want to thank you for loving me.. and thank you for being there for me.. but I won't be on CherryTAP as much anymore.. I see the other girls getting a lot of people talking to them.. and I don't have that..I lost my lounge because of my friends all leaving and never say HI anymore. Only three people on this site talk to me at all...almost all my friends have come and gone.. Just those three are here talking to me. I feel like I don't have a home here or even a place here on CherryTAP. Gods knows I want people to talk to.. if this seems out of jealousy.. it is. I am not ashamed to admit it. I am so jealous of the other girls who get many hellos.. comments and all.. I think I am a good person with a big heart.. I am a fun, caring person.. I wish I had people to share that with. And this is for them. I love you my friends.

Poison
My boots crunch over the frozen ground and I scan the white horizon for any trace of that asshole... Silently, flakes begin to cascade from the sky, partially obscuring my vision. Breath coming in foggy gasps, as the wind and my breathing are the only sounds I hear... Blood in the snow... I see a partially naked form half buried in a snow drift... Blood is seeping from one corner of his mouth, his white blond hair streaked with red. I'm down on my knees now, digging... The snow is a white blur past the sides of my face, I can't get him uncovered fucking fast enough... The tattoo of my lips on his groin uncovered now, the color isn't purple anymore, its black. "Frost!" "Frost you dick head don't you dare!" I whip off my leather coat and wrap it around him, I have to keep him warm. His eyes fluttered...Shit! He's alive! His lips move slightly... "Shut up, Frost. If you make one smart fucking comment right now I will leave you to freeze your dick off in the s

Lessons In Life!!!!
>THIS IS TRULY A GOOD LESSON TO ALWAYS REMEMBER! > >Eddie desperately wants to make love to the really >cute, really hot girl, Gina, in his office.... but she >is dating someone else. > >One day Eddie, terribly frustrated, says " Gina, I'll >give you a $100 if you let me make love to you..." > >She stares at him & says > >"Are you out of your mind?" > >Eddie replies, "Look, I'll be really fast. I'll just >throw the money on the floor; you bend down, and I'll >finish by the time you've picked it up." > >Gina hesitates a moment; then says she'll ask her >boyfriend, & see if he'll agree. > >So she calls him and explains the offer. > >Boyfriend says, "OK, but ask for $200; & then pick up >the money really fast. >He won't even be able to get his pants down. >Call me back as soon as you get the money." > >So she agrees and accepts Eddie's proposition. > >Half an hour goes by, & no call from Gina. > >Too impatient to wait any longer, boyfriend calls her; > >"W

Tips From The *redneck* Book Of Manners
***GENERAL BEHAVIOR*** 1. Always identify people in your yard before shooting at them. 2. It's considered poor taste to take a Budweiser cooler to church even if the NASCAR races do start at noon. 3. If you have to vacuum the bed, it is time to change the sheets (preferably clean sheets - if not shake the old ones out the window and leave hanging for a day or two to air out). 4. Even if you're certain you are included in the will, it is still considered tacky to drive a U-Haul to the funeral home. ***DINING OUT *** 1. Avoid throwing bones and food scraps on the floor as the restaurant may not have dogs. ***ENTERTAINING IN YOUR HOME *** 1. A centerpiece for the table should never be anything prepared by a taxidermist. 2. Do not allow the dog to eat at the table no matter how good his manners are unless you know the person a day or two. ***PERSONAL HYGIENE *** 1. While ears need to be cleaned regularly, this is a job that shoul

My Work!
A Monster Created The open mind is a dangerous playground for obscene thoughts to prey. Innocence lost to an open mind. I explore all realms of self-discovery, only to find the monster lying beneath was not predator but prey. A victim of a mind, of sorts, urged by my own self to fail, fall short, and ultimately self-destruct. Imagine being out of control and feeling completely content, on a road to nowhere; crashing hard into a concrete wall, just before falling to your demise. The pain is great. There are parts of you that you cannot save, but you salvage what is left and rebuild. In pieces, broken and strewn, you pick up whats left and carry on. Your mind is shattered. Your vision lost. Emotions run at a trickle. Lightning strikes and you are recreated: a monster, a second chance given to you as a last resort. Now, all you need to do is prove you are not the same

The Pain Thats In My Heart And In My Body
i just want every1 to know who cares to read this that i have a hard time gettin on this thing anymore. my body wont allow me to sit here for as long as i use to. i have been diagnosed w/ mialfasha which i cant spell it or even care if im close. lol. but what it is, is just like fybermyelga if any1 knows what that is. its like arthritis to the joints and muscles. so im in a lot of pain sometimes and those doctors wont give me anything good for it, damn it. lol.. i had a bone scan done of my entire body which shows my skeleton. it shows im covered w/ arthritis all over my body which makes things even worse. my hip joints and spine are all thinning out already. well theres more but u get the point. if u think im on, my comp maybe just connected so i can check whats going on from time to time. this pain is so hard to bare but the worst part is im having a hard time w/ my son and he spends a lot of time w/ my parents. i see him a couple days a week he stays some nights but a lot of times i

Introduction...
This is an ongoing functioning work in progress...For all you Occult and Vampire fans out there...I hope you get great fun out of my characters... If you don't like sex, death, mayhem, and chaos...don't read my short stories!

Unlocked..........
I went to bed around midnight, and was in that place where you're almost dreaming, yet still vaguely aware of your surroundings, when I heard the little chirp of my home alarm. I thought I'd imagined or half-dreamed it, but I wanted to check the lock on the door, just to be sure. I was dressed in a little black nightie, which was fine for sleep, but the apartment was cold, so I grabbed a long robe to cover myself. As I reached the door, I put out my hand to check the lock. Suddenly there was a hand covering mine, and another around the back of my neck, and I was pushed against the door. "Do not move or make a sound." My heart and mind began racing-where did this man come from? Why was he in my home? What was he going to do to me? I began to hyperventilate and whispered, "Please don't hurt me." "I've been watching you, and you are going to get what you deserve tonight. You left your door unlocked, so I know you want it." I never leave my door unlocked; it had to be when I brought

Thought Of A Different Place
I was driving to work saturday night and found myself deep in thought about what kind of life I live. i had the top of the Corvette, Lifehouse-You and Me was playing extra loud to drown out the noise from the wind and elements around me. I found myself thinking about a person that just cant escape my mind. This person has been thru so much and still keeps going. I have been thru my fair share of events in my life that seem to cloud the sunniest days, but all seem tolerable in comparison. The thought going thru my mind were thoughts of meeting this person. Im sure plenty of u on here are or have had a situation on here of being distancely challenged in relationships. Well the thoughts were traveling thru my mind almost as fast as I was going down the road. The details of every moment as clear and detailed as an actual expierience that played out like a symphony. Everything around me was fading away. As I got closer to work, I found myself lost in thought thinking about conver

No Longer Shall We
It is time for our countries to rise up and say no more, it is time for our people to tell those in charge that we are unwilling to pay tens of billions of dollars per year so that Israel can go about terrorizing their neighbors, it is time our people stop and open our eyes to the lies that have been spread over the last seventy years and it is time we as a people rise up in unison and take back what we fought and died for. My fellow white men and women it is time we put a stop to the Jewish influence we have been bombarded with, it is time we force our corrupt governments out and reinstate a more just form of law. We live in a society that is not for those who fought and died to make our countries what they are today, instead we the white race are forced to support those who not only had no hand in the creation of the societies we built, but whose soul intentions are to destroy what we have built and have us suffer. A cleaning of our borders is long overdue, we must start at the to

Great Lyrics, Especially In The Times We're In Now -- Land Of Confusion, Collins, Banks, Rutherford.
I must've dreamed a thousand dreams Been haunted by a million screams But I can hear the marching feet Moving into the street Now did you read the news today? They say the danger's gone away But I can see the fires still alight Burning into the night There's too many men, too many people Making too many problems And there's not much love to go around Can't you see this is a land of confusion? Ah Ah Ah Ah This is the world we live in (ohh ohh oh) And these are the hands we're given (ohh oh) Use them and let's start trying (ohh ohh oh) To make it a place worth living in Oh, superman, where are you now? When everything's gone wrong somehow The men of steel, these men of power Are losing control by the hour And this is the time, this is the place So we look for the future But there's not much love to go around Tell me why this is a land of confusion Ah Ah Ah Ah This is the world we live in (ohh ohh oh) And these are the hands we're given (Ohh

First Visit
Went to visit my girlfriend in jail for the first time today. She looked so good but I could tell she is lonely. She told me about all the bitch's shes fucking in there and how she got a guard in trouble cause she gave him a blow job. Yes she is a whore but ya gotta love that about her. I didn't realize just how much I have missed her until I saw her. I hated not being able to touch her or kiss her. I can't wait for her to get out so I can grab her and hold her and let her know she is safe. She goes up for parole in October but dose not think she will get out then.

Recovered?
I got my van back... Big fat hairy assed deal. Constable Gallant was so wrong. they trashed my poor van. I had to tow it home cuz the front end wass so fucked up it wouldnt hold a straight line. Good news is the thief left a big bag of candy bought with a debit card. bad news is the cops play hell to get that info from the banks to lay charges. So the cops confiscate the items I point out as not being mine... hmmm four ashtrays look brand new and are identical to the original ashtray in my caravan? WTF does this guy have an ash tray fetish? Oh and a sirrius radio... lets hope thats not stolen cuz if it hasnt been reported stolen we got our man. and then theres the cd case with about 20 cds... all of them have that arabic paki kinda writing on it... hmmmm is our thief a foreigner? they didnt move the seat to drive the van so that says they must be about my height... hmmmmm... a whole box of hockey cards... damn I shoulda kept my mouth shut and said they were mine, esp at 4 bux a pack.

Heart Broken At Last
Tears, scars and the hurt will never seem to mend. Apologies, heartache and sorrow were wasted time in the end. Love seems to start with the smallest, sweetest little smile. Unconditional lovers will travel that long, extra mile. Love seems to grow with that extra special and magical kiss. Knowing in your heart, they're the one you will always miss. Love seems to end with alot of pain and those uncontrollable tears. Your friend, lover and soul mate is gone after all these years.

The Crushes
You know... it really sucks that CT won't even let one GUESS who has a crush on them. Sheesh... OK - MY crush knows who he is. I told him flat out (he would have figured it out anyway). I'm NOT saying that my crusher absolutely has to come clean, it would just satisfy my curiosity. Open note to my crusher: If you want to keep your identity a secret. That's OK, I don't mind. Just know that you have my warm thanks for crushing one me. ~I

Offline
Well maybe you noticed I was off for a few days, or maybe not. Anyway my "new" computer came with every thing including one of the nastiest viruses tech has run into. It's a "polymorphing" virus whatever the hell that is, all I know is it hides from virus scans and self replicates. So I'm back on this old slow one for now. See you round the Tap.

Just A Little Song I Wrote
I almost didn't have the strength today To climb out of bed And face another lonely day without you here It's just not fair Everywhere I look I see your face I miss your smile You've been gone a while Chorus: I stand here waiting To catch you when you fall And even though I let you go I didn't let you go to far I stand here waiting For you to say you love me But I know it's too late And you could never love me anymore Standing in the middle of a crowded room But I'm all alone And I feel so wrong Since you've been gone Light another cigarette and wonder where The time has gone This whole world's gone mad I gave you all I had Repeat Chorus They say if you love someone Sometimes you've got to let 'em go But I never knew letting go would be so hard Repeat Chorus

4/30/07
Are you getting the wrong answers because you've been inadvertently sending the wrong message? Think about what you really want. Then rephrase the question so you get a reply that addresses your concerns. ----------------------------- Hmmmmmm. Why is this one sounding so familiar to me.

Hot Fuzz And Heroes = One Awesome Monday
Finally saw Hot Fuzz today. if you haven't seen this movie then you must watch it. it truly is the best buddy cop movie ever made. the shaun of the dead guys are absolutely brilliant. the movie is a mash up of different styles of films that works amazing well. Watched the new episode of Heroes. Damn that show is amazing. It is hard to believe that this show is on a major network since it is so damned good. i will not spoil anything for those who had not seen it, but if you have not watched the series then you need to get your butt all over it.

My Golden Best Friend
We'll, I have to get something off of my chest before I go to bed. I just talked with my Golden Best Friend Chris, and the conversation didn't go so well. Let's start from the beginning, so you can some what follow this relationship. The VA put me into a Training Program learning how to make eyeglasses. The job title is Lab Technician. Chris ended up being my Supervisor, and I missed some work due to personal issues prior to him being my Supervisor. Once he was my Supervisor, he started to talk with me daily and helped me in every way possible. He was married and his wife also worked with us in a different area of the building, and he told me that they were living seperate lives and that it was time for him to move on. Chris could tell when I was upset, and so he was constantly taking me outside to talk with me about what was going on with me. At the time I was living at the mission, because my husband had walked out on me. Our friendship ended up turning into a relations

For Ifc Members...kids Contest Ends The 3rd
ok on this contest im asking these ppl to go to these contest and bomb: lynks kids : barb, lynk, shelley, christina, and donna... pheonix aidin an on nhcuties im asking: jessica, andrew, dallas, and chaos onm this one: stephen skylah

Recipe For Making Love
Recipe for Making Love Ingredients: 4 Laughing Eyes 4 Well-Shaped Legs 4 Loving Arms 2 Firm Milk Containers 2 Nuts 1 Mixing Bowl (fur-lined or smooth) 1 Firm Banana Directions: 1. Look into laughing eyes. 2. Spread well-shaped legs with loving arms. 3. Squeeze and massage milk containers very gently. 4. Gently add firm banana to mixing bowl, working in and out until well creamed *For best results, continue to knead milk containers. 5. As heat rises, plunge banana deep into mixing bowl and cover with nuts, leave to soak, (preferably NOT overnight). 6. The cake is done when banana is soft. If banana doesn’t soften, repeat steps 3-5 or change mixing bowls. Notes: 1. If you are in an unfamiliar kitchen, wash utensils carefully before and after use. 2. Do not lick mixing bowl after use. 3. If cake rises… LEAVE TOWN!

Maybe I Should Be Good
for a while hahah. i did it once before hahah 5 months anyways...although it was pretty tough for a while ... maybe it would be best though. clear my head and get inside myself focus on my art and maybe take pics if i can actually get out during the day haahahah all i ever do is work or play on the computer not that its bad its just i dont draw or paint or do much of anything anymore but day said shed develope my pics for me for cheap so i can get back into photo and shit like that lol i can live off rice i guess hahah anywyas im just rambling keeping myself occupied

The Invisible Letter (mail Call)
The strangest thing happened today, An invisible mailman passed my way! He gave me something that wasn’t quite there, And to see invisible mail is really rare! SO… I opened this nothing real real wide, To find even more of nothing inside! The scent was so sweet, as I can recall, So sweet in fact, it was nothing at all! So, I’m writing you back with love you can bet, To say thanks for the letter I never did get! Now maybe next time you will think twice And pay close attention to this here advice! I sit in my cell, so lonely for now, But things will soon change if God will allow! I will be out there where things are much better, And I pray YOU”RE never here expecting a letter!!

Ho'okipa
Here's to You and Yours And to Mine and Ours And if Mine and Ours Ever come accross to You and Yours I hope You and Yours will do As much for Mine and Ours As Mine and Ours have done For You and Yours...

Box Of Kisses
The story goes that some time ago, a man punished his three tear old daughter for wasting a roll of gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and he became infuriated when the child tried to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree. Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift to her father the next morning and said, “This is for you, Daddy!” He was embarrassed, be his earlier over-reaction. But his anger flared again when he found the box empty. He yelled at her again, “Don’t you know that when you give someone a present, there is supposed to be something inside it!?” The little girl looked up at him with tears in her eyes and said, “Oh, but Daddy, it is not empty. I blew kisses into the box. All for you, Daddy!” The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little girl, and he begged for her forgiveness. It is told that the man kept that gold wrapped box by his bed for years and whenever he was discouraged, he would take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love

A Lovers' Pact
The snow, so peaceful and serene, caressed by the soft moonlight, gave magical feelings to the night. The soft blue glow, the lovers' words that then did flow, their lips closer and closer until, locked in the throes of a passionate embrace, he decided to express his feelings, to keep her safe. He whispered softly, his words like music to her ears, "I Love You," and her response the same, heard like the gentle breeze, "And I, love you, forever." That was the night they promised to be together through everything, each to care for the other when old and gray A lovers' pact the most likely to last.

The Value Of A Smile
It costs nothing, But creates much. It enriches those who receive, Without impoverishing those who give. It happens in a flash, And the memory of it lasts forever. None are so rich they can get along without it; And none are so poor, but are richer for its benefits. It creates happiness in the home, fosters good will in a business, And is the countersign of friends. It is rest to the weary, daylight to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, And nature’s best antidote for trouble. Yet, it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, For it is something that is no Earthly good to anyone ‘til it is given away. And, if someone should pass by and not give you a smile, Leave them one of yours. For, nobody needs a smile; So much as, those who have none left to give.

The Everything Test
The Everything Test There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all. Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-) Personality You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about self than concerned about others, more atheist than religious, more dependent than loner, more workaholic than lazy, more rebel than traditional, more artistic mind than engineering mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.As for specific personality traits, you are romantic (100%), adventurious (100%), innovative (86%), slutty (79%).

Meancholy Season
All year I wait for my December The best of times I remember A time for family, together as one Yet, this year I have but none Why are we lonely On such a festive time of year (Excuse me while I grab a beer) I might shed a tear as I throw on fake cheer in front of no single one that is here I know in my heart is where I'll start No matter how much it falls apart I live to love and learn to live But there's only so much my heart can give We can't always be with the ones we love So we love the ones we're with Is it a gift, we learn to bury Or just some humor inside above Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired It's an acronym I live by All just a life of a hunted lonesome dove Enough of my distress How was your day Mines less than 22 Days or bullets, one may guess But something I must pursue Who does care When no bodies there I… do

Testament Viii * Comments Rate Plz*
"It was said the comet always prescedes them by inspired light blessing never fails" To believe in somethin that proven fact must always be seen but to already know opinon is no need to believe becuase its already forseen and understand. Wat is the line between faith and fact when we want to accept outcome?..natural gift assume the position of of talent not knowledge. we begin to understand that knowledge is a small piece of material so fragile to talent it becomes center piece politic for power. why do we insist that knowledge hold the key to perfection if talent is the one door that take risk for mistakes. knowledge can be erasable and tolerent talent is energy preserve so the lesson posesses that strength should be summon carefully. to cheat optimisic is one weakness that can be achieve but if both work together can discover the secret of the answers without questions. we can not abbreviate love becuase of its meanings but if U is a constant and I is a vowel then we can e

March 1995
Never look back, Continue moving forward. Regrets I have none. Srength comes from within, Fate and Destiny are on my side. I will survive, move on again. As I have always done. Adversity comes every step of the way. Each day is a struggle, to do what is right. Tomorrow brings new hope, so I am told. I need no hope, only a new sunrise. As long as there is that I have survived.

What About Us?
I knew things were going to change and wouldn’t be the same but not like this especially with such pain! You could have told me yourself instead I found out for myself I knew the day was coming when I had to let go but tell me why am I feeling used and so damn low? It was just us when I had you and you had me why did you use me like this instead of letting me be I should have stopped this from the beginning I blame myself for being so fucking giving I suppose I was hoping for a change chancing everyday until the day you felt the same I realize now I was never part of your plan you used me until she decided she wanted you as her man This shit is so unfair when I was the only one there! I gave you myself and so much more I was faithful it was only you I adored Yet she won when I never knew I wasn’t the only one I hate this aching in my heart I feel like I’m losing myself and falling apart I hate that I cannot hate you for the things you do eve

No Longer A Dj
i am leaving dj, i may or may not come back as a dj, but as 4 now im done djing. as for being in lounges, i kinda lounge hop, but i spend most of my time n support. if u would like 2 get ahold of me 4 further info, u can yahoo me if u hav my yahoo, or shoutbox me, i will get to it as soon as i can. thank you, ÐËTH

Some How Found, Some How Lost
Some how found, some how lost Finally found what I had lost I peace of myself dropped somewhere on the street of my past Trying to clean up what was a mess I realized this was a test a test of faith A test of strength Such a waste of time To come back to this place I could live with out my past as long as it doesn't corrupt my future. In this journey of life in this quest to find yourself you sometimes find Your own little hell a place for the forgotten and a place for the past, Sometimes you dig the hole to deep, Sometimes the walls are way to steep You can't escape from this place So you put on a different face now your someone else You have learned to fake to erase your face You âre a person not a clown You cannot fake reality In all these years this is all I have found I found what was wrong and I found what was right All in my past. All in my fight.

Give Alil To Get Alil...my Lil Rant, Guess We All Have Them At Some Point, Lol
OK IT MAY SEEM I AM BITCHING OR A POINT HO AS SOME MAY CALL IT BUT I LIKE KEEPING THINGS IN ORDER..... I HAVE NOTICED I HAVE 157 FRIENDS, 127, FANS, AND 184 FANS OF... THE WAY I SEE IT IS EVERYONE LOVES THE FANS S I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS AND FANS.. SO IM SURE IF UR ON MY FRIENDS LIST THEN I HAVE FANNED YOU AS WELL AS RATED YOU.. SO OUT OF RESPECT SHOULDNT I BE FANNED AND RATED ALSO???? YOU WOULD EXPECT TO BE, IM SURE...ITS JUST OUT OF R.E.S.P.E.C.T.... SO COULD YA PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU HAVE ME RATED, FANNED AND ADDED.. YOU KNOW I ALWAYS RETURN ANY LOVE THAT ONE SHOWS ME... SO WITH ALL THAT SAID NOW I WOULD LIKE TO SAY GOODNIGHT TO ALL AND HOPE YOU ALL HAVE PLEASANT DREAMS.. OH IM LEAVING MY LINK SO THAT IT WILL BE EASIER TO FIND THE ORIGINAL WRITTER OF THIS LIL BITCHIN SPREE, LMAO...MUCH LOVE TO U ALL..."DONTCHA" *Dontcha™*S.B.A.B./ I.B.I.C* & *Crew Enforcer 4 C&D Chargers Of The Elite Bombers*@ CherryTAP

I Wanna Be A Rock Star
I WANNA BE A ROCK STAR BUT I STILL NEED LIKE 37,000 POINTS IF ANYONE FEELS BORED AND WANTS POINTS FOR THEM SELVES TO I HAVE LOTS OF PICS AND A DECENT STASH YA CAN RATE LOL HOPE YA'LL ARE HAVIN A GREAT NIGHT

Finally
Finally my man called me this morning. He has been working non stop since last monday 12 hour shifts. He isnt to happy cause he wanted to spend the whole weekend with me but couldnt even do that. FUCKEN JOBS I SAY! But we all have to live some way some how. But anyways..... ya thats about it for now... I love my baby

Rough Sex !!!!!
Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!! Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories. Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile. Having nice sex burns 358 calories. Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories. Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal without......................187 cal Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal With one hand.........................12 cal With mouth.............................85 cal Put on Protection hard .......................... 6 cal soft..........................315 cal Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal Finding G spot ......................92 cal I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal Entry Holding her..................12 cal

The Angel
The angel is curiosity as she ponders the design and function of previously unseen objects. The angel is happiness as she interacts with those around her, bringing joy and laughter to their lives. And at day’s end, the angel is weariness, for she has given of herself much this day, asking little in return. And now the angel sleeps.

Ok My Good Friends This Happy Hour Is For The People Who Rate My Stash You People Are Good I Love Yall...
i was never gonna buy hh again but do to so many people who helped me get to rcok star this one on me i love you......thiere were alot of you i cant mention one not the other ssssss.any way have fun get your stashes ready..this one is with love ..dont buy me gifts save your money ...i love you....

Silent Pain
SILENT PAIN Mah face keeps on shining pretending like i'm filled with joy and happiness mah inside suvers the pain inside is killing me and nobody knows... at night i cry myself a sleep waking up in the mroning feeling disappointed cuz i'm allive meaning there's another day looking out for me filled with sorrows and pain and nobody knows... i look in the mirror mah face looks terrible caused by the tears from last nigh the minute i step outside i put on my mask and all my sorrows dissapear all day long i'm acting happy and nobody but me knows what's hidden behind that mask... at night when i step into my room i feel released cuz i can take that mask off no more pretending just me being me but still i'm feeling down knowing that when i wake up in the morning nothing will be changed and nobody knows it but me...

May 1st 2007
WELL HERE IT IS MAY 1ST 2007 28 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY AND COUNTING ILL BE 28 THIS YEAR ALSO MY 4TH ANNIVERSARY ON THE SAME DAY IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO MY DAY TODAY DUE TO HAVING TO GO FIND OUT IF I NEED SURGERY FOR MY BACK BUT ILL BE OK GRANDMA STILL NOT ANY BETTER BUT GOD WILLING SHE WILL BE DOCS SAY SHE GONNA BE OK BUT I THINK THERE IS SOMETHING THE DOCS ARE NOT TELLING US ABOUT WHY THEY KEEP POSTPONING HER SURGERY I AM SURE THEY WILL CONFESS SOONER OR LATER WELL THATS ABOUT IT FOR TODAY ALL CATCH ME TOMORROW FOR ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF THIS ANGEL

Men Laws
1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella. 2: It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances: (a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master. (b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse. (c) After wrecking your boss' car. (d) One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The Crying Game". (e) When she is using her teeth. 3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies. 4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours. 5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her. 6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable. 7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly optional. At that point,

Closed
i close my eyes, and all i see is you. you are in my thoughts, and in my dreams. when my eyes open everything fades. then i start to blame... myself for not saying what i feel. you for not knowing. me for not following my heart, you for doing so. then when the pain and sadness finaly kick in, i close my eyes again. my eyes are closed so often, i feel like i am sleepwalking. the tighter i squeeze, the less of me i see, and the happier i am...

Scared
scared So it is 11:30 pm....I should be in bed asleep, but here I am. Well as most of you know I accepted that key position, it is either the smartest move I have ever made or the dumbest, I haven't decided yet, all I know is that it scares the crap out of me. Hopefully it will get me going in the right direction to start making my dreams a reality. I am just so tired of living in limbo, I am ready to start living my life, I am ready to be happy again, to smile again....truly smile again. I honestly don't remember a time in my life where I cried as much and as often, I am ready to stop crying myself to sleep. I know what I want, just need to figure out how to get it

Wrote For My Husband Before We Got Married 4 Years Ago
he smiles lighting up my life all i want to do is hold him tight and say i love him. is it to much to ask him for his heart and his trust what i feel for him is more than lust. I understand what your going through i been there too the hurt and pain that you feel only time will help heal and when its for love again that you yearn the eagle will fly and the fire in your eyes will burn wrote for my darling husband before we were married

Bitch Is Gonna Die
BITCH,YOU BETTER RUN,YOU BETTER HIDE THERE IS MORE TO COME THAN WHATS INSIDE,I AM ONLY ONE,BUT OH SHIT,I COULD FUCK YOU UP,SO WHAT THE HELL,IN THE HOOD IS UP TO ?YOU DRAIN MY LIFE,CAUSE ME SUCH STRIFE,40 PEOPLE AFTER YOUR ASS,YOU BETTER BE THINKING A COFFIN MADE OF BRASS,NOT THAT I THINK YOU DESERVE SUCH A HONOR,BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO VALOR,CIRCLE OF FRIENDS YOU BETTER FIND A NEW ONE BECAUSE IT NEVER ENDS,I AM MORE FRIENDS WITH A JUGGALO YOU FUCKING HOE,YOU ARE A CUNT,AND BITCHES AND ASSHOLES ON THE HUNT,YOU BETTER NOT BE FREAKIN'COME OUT OF OUT YOUR HOUSE YOU'LL BE STANDING IN A CORNER LIKE A FUCKING MOUSE,MORTAL ENEMY ARE YOU BLIND,DON'T YOU SEE,...NOW BITCH THEY CALL ME LIL PSYCHO CUZ IM A CRAZY BITCH AND YOU MIGHT REMEMBER ME CUZ'YOU FUCKED OVER MY BROTHER YOUR NOTHIN BUT AND LOW NASTY SLUTTY UNDERCRUST, OHH DAMN THATS 4 FEET LOWER THAN A CUNT YOU MUST BE A NASTY WHORE BUT LET ME REMIND YOU THAT I PREFER THE DARK AND THE SHADOWS SO THERE I WILL WAIT AND LINGER TILL MY PRAY COMES TO ME

Searching
Searching,seeking no stone left unturned. wondering,waiting a hard lesson learned. where are these answers.when will i find. That which will ease this troubled mind. so i go down an endless road.to face the unknown and bitter cold. Where it will take me,no one knows.but it is my road to travel. The Lord of Sorrows.............

Please Help Me
IM HERE TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT A PERSON THAT I THOUGHT WAS A MAN,BUT HE WAS A DOG! ITS TRULY HARD TO UNDERSTAND HOW HE COULD BE LIKE THIS. BUT HES OUT THERE AND WE NEED TO STOP HIM NOW.HE HAS TOLD 4 WOMEN THAT HE LOVED THEM,AND THAT HE WANTS TO MARRY THEM AND LIVE WITH THEM AND IT SAD THAT HE COULD GET INTO EVERYONE HEART AND PLAY PEOPLE FOR A FOUL. ITS SAD THAT HE THOUGHT HE COULD HAVE GOT AWAY WITH IT .SO PLEASE HELP ME TO GET THIS DOG OUT OF CT. HIS NAME IS PETE AFFRUNTI. ANY WOMEN THAT IS IN CONTACT WITH BEWARE HES A DOG,

Mortal Enemy
BITCH,YOU BETTER RUN,YOU BETTER HIDE THERE IS MORE TO COME THAN WHATS INSIDE,I AM ONLY ONE,BUT OH SHIT,I COULD FUCK YOU UP,SO WHAT THE HELL,IN THE HOOD IS UP TO ?YOU DRAIN MY LIFE,CAUSE ME SUCH STRIFE,40 PEOPLE AFTER YOUR ASS,YOU BETTER BE THINKING A COFFIN MADE OF BRASS,NOT THAT I THINK YOU DESERVE SUCH A HONOR,BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO VALOR,CIRCLE OF FRIENDS YOU BETTER FIND A NEW ONE BECAUSE IT NEVER ENDS,I AM MORE FRIENDS WITH A JUGGALO YOU FUCKING HOE,YOU ARE A CUNT,AND BITCHES AND ASSHOLES ON THE HUNT,YOU BETTER NOT BE FREAKIN'COME OUT OF OUT YOUR HOUSE YOU'LL BE STANDING IN A CORNER LIKE A FUCKING MOUSE,MORTAL ENEMY ARE YOU BLIND,DON'T YOU SEE,...NOW BITCH THEY CALL ME LIL PSYCHO CUZ IM A CRAZY BITCH AND YOU MIGHT REMEMBER ME CUZ'YOU FUCKED OVER MY BROTHER YOUR NOTHIN BUT AND LOW NASTY SLUTTY UNDERCRUST, OHH DAMN THATS 4 FEET LOWER THAN A CUNT YOU MUST BE A NASTY WHORE BUT LET ME REMIND YOU THAT I PREFER THE DARK AND THE SHADOWS SO THERE I WILL WAIT AND LINGER TILL MY PRAY COMES TO ME

All Moved.. Well Kind Of
I am back :) Move went well still have boxes all around but the place is gonna rock! Nice to be out on my own again. I love my family but after being on my own for so long you kind of miss your freedom. New job kicks ass. Best decision I ever made (well with a little help from my best friends... you know who you are) There seems to be a lot of new things going on in my life right now. Gotta love spring:) Well I guess that is it Hope all is well for all of you Kisses Jillie

Clarity
magic clarity falling down like life itself to sea making waves and crashing fast upon the rocks darkness deep beneath the wash still i keep falling down take the pain inside my brain and make me safe and sound

Unfortunate Reality
Unfortunatly there are things that some guys do that just hurt you. For example a friend of mine tells this girl that he doesn't like her except deep down he really does and he knows she likes him alot so what did he do he went and invited another girl over had sex with her and told the person he liked about it.....somtimes guys can be so mean. but that is the unfortunate reality of life. There is no prince charming. Sure there are guys who seem perfect but when you get to know them and see the real side to them well you realize that they aren't as perfect as you thought and you end up disappointed.

I Am New To Cherry Tap
Gypsy-Agent-69 Says... Hello My Name Is Steve. And it really is such a honor to meet you. I am a Romanian Gypsy & Part Greek.. I have black hair & blue eyes. Right now I am single and looking. I work for Microsoft Computers. Microsoft gave me the name Gypsy_Agent. Because I am in the Security Department.. What I'm Into I Like Computers Cars Sports. Dancing Music. Fine Food. Also wine tasting. White Zinfandel is my favorite wine. OK To tell you the truth it gets me horny LoL. My Dreams To meet a real nice down to earth women. Who is not into playing games and likes to laugh and have fun. The KEY-WORLD HERE IS Fun ! It's good to be serious when it calls for it. Also I am attracted to being in good shape women who has a fun and open personalty.. A women to me with a personalty can go a long way in life. Think about this when your looks runs out what do you have left ?.

Volume V - Fish Fry
Volume LIX - Fish Fry Category: Pets and Animals I did something this past weekend I haven't in some time...went fishing. And what fun I had! Saturday morning and afternoon we had to work, nailing deck boards for a huge 3000' job down the road from the shop. But after that....it's ass-whupping time. My father recently purchased a pontoon boat from the wife of a friend who recently passed away, and hasn't used it yet. So this past weekend was a perfect time for its maiden voyage. After the business was done, I got my poles ready, as did my brother, father, and friend James. We loaded up in my Pop's Nissan Titan truck, and headed down to Berry's Boat Dock, by way of Potts' convenience store, on the corner of highways 212 and 36. Filled up with gas, got beer, and a fishing license. Dropped the boat into Jackson Lake. Pulled the motor WIDE OPEN, cruising up and down the Yellow and South river areas of the lake. We got to our water-bourne destination, which is called W

My Life
It's weird how life has differnt destinations for everyone. Mine hasn't made sense yet. All the happiness I've had turned into pain. All the dreams I've had turned into nightmares. The help I've given out was not taken into consideration. I've taken people out of the darknss and been left behind. The ones who were their, showed compassion. If I were to say good-bye, would anybody cry? Would people reconize that I'm gone? How can I smile when all has been devoured? Love taken away. Used to cover up someones past misersy. I try to smile But what is their to smile about? Why, When i needed help for my mistakes nobody was their to lend a hand? So alone, I try to climb back up the road to recovery. Beliefs and reliefs fail. I see visions of happiness float by in the distance. Not near enough to grab. I'm tired of this feeling I hold in side for so many years now. I want to close my eyes and reunite with those miles away up above. I see though, taken my life away thing won't g

Doctors And What Everythng Means
Ok, so I did go to the doctor today to find out if I am actually pregnant. First, he didn't discourage me by saying that he didn't believe I wasn't pregnant. He said to test again in a couple of weeks and to take prenatal vitamins which he didn't seem to realize I had been taking for almost two weeks now. but I guess from the talk we had with the doctor I didn't get too discouraged much less mad at him for the negative test results though. He did tell me what to look out for, so maybe in the next week or two we'll have a good result. All I ask is that my friends help me pray that the next test I take will be the one that confirms my feelings. :)

Thinking
Thinking and thinking, When will I ever all in LOVE? Feel either the pleasure or pain? I want to feel the good and evil. The word LOVE, Nobody can explain. Once you're with that special someone. It could be month, days, years, even weeks to figure out what LOVE means in your eyes. I wonder does LOVE have a destiny or trail. When you're in LOVE, Don't be blammng LOVE for your actions that you do to another person to hurt them. Can you feel stronger or weaker? Does it make you high in the sky or as low as the dirt under the earth? If you fall in LOVE you should be committed or at least 100000% honest to your partner. It takes alot of people to fall in LOVE over the months, years, and days or maybe at first sight. Every person in this world is differnt when it comes to fallen in LOVE. It might sound insane or stupid, But it's not you. Everybody isn't the same when it comes to finding LOVE. If someone says they fell in LOVE at first sight, on the net, at a store, etc. Just be the

First Day
The first day I road over that hill, I could just see that I'd be with you. I knew one day I would have a chance with you. They way you touched me and held me, They way you smiled with joy, Just toom me into darkness, Where I knew I wouldn''t be alone. I just felt someone there. I knew it was you. There with your arms out to keep all that scares me in the dark away from me so I don't get harmed. I had butterflies in my tummy. Right then and there I new you were their to protect me. As time went on, The feeling of having butterflies grew stronger. I didn't want to stop those amazing butterflies down there. I waited and waited to hear those 3 words come out of your heart with meaning, with honour, with respect. Once you said " I love you", I couldn't help it but cry. Known I have someone who cares for me now. Those 3 words, echo in my head everyday. Everyday those 3 words circle around me like a lost cub trying to find it's mother. When the cub does fin it's mother, They hug eac

Life
Life without you would be cruel. Life for me would be empty, Sadness, and pain. There's no way I could live without you by myside. Life without you would be filled with darkness everywhere and the sky filled with clouds of tears. I would have a soul only you can refill. Life with you and love in it would be eternal. I want to take life to the risk of wrapping my life so complety around yours. I hold the key to my heart so I can turn it over to you and lock it in yours for life. My soul is powered But your love is the only thing in the world that keeps the electristy flowing. Everyday and hr, It is you who keeps me happy, Be myself, smile with stars in my eyes from you. Baby, Your love to me is something special that I treasure with chains around it So nobody else can take them off. Every night when you leave me for the next day to come, I cry with warm, happy tears. My tears have never turned out cold. Life gave me love from you the first day. This love has never felt so amazing.

Us And You
When I think of you, I see eyes of a wonderful lover, Heart of a father and hands so soft. So soft to hold your unborn child. I see you lead me into paradise where gorogus love birds cherp. Eternal to me means, You as mine forever(Husband and wife, Father and Mother). Where on a mission to start a new life together. When I think of you, I see your wings come down, swooping me up gently and flying away to that dream place we see as a couple. Nobody can compare to you or the terrific heart you have. We should never have to depart from eachother. Only you can sweep me off my feet All the bad aching pains I hold in my heart, Dissapear when you hold me. Your dreams interwind with me so we achieve our goals together. We will not go forward alone on achieveing our goals. As one, We will work together. At night when I look high in the sky, The stars light, Remind me of the stars entrance to your soul. There's nothing better then two meoldies becomming a sympthony. Now that's appo

Together
I discovered what it feels to have someone. As I predicted it would be. As your presence is with me, Our bodies our pressed upon eachother. Everything else disappears as the softness of your body collides with mine. I'm taken over by ecstacy by this minute. The energy flowing between us as it starts feeding on our souls as we embrace eachother. Your heart beat ajust to mine. We watch this moment happen as we learn it. Like beginning taught in school. Two souls embrace eachothers aching heart. Dreams begin to shine upon eachother. Wishes fly above us. We as one,explore what the mind can't see with creativity. Letting everything take it's course and not stopping destiny's trail. The numbness of being alone starts fading away and time to take the chains off the trap So a new gap can be formed. All obstacles come clear to mind. The bite of glory comes over me. Imagination takes it's course. Without eachother near, We feel incomplete. Missing the completeness of our other half.

So, I Have This Friend...
And...her name is Tina...and she...is an asshole...Yep. It's okay - she knows it. She always makes me do these absurd things...like just now...she pulled her shirt out and said...ummm..feel this...and I did and I was like ick...and when I touched it, she said yah - it's all sweaty. The thing is...she does this shit to me all the time. She is totally the person that is like...I think this milk is sour, taste it...but it's always something worse... She makes me smell her armppits...ha...and, yes, I actually do it...cause, really...I'm an asshole too... At one point, her two year old daughter had a cast on her arm and it was getting to be gross cast time and she's like smell it. And, I'm like no...and she is just persistant until I smell the damn thing. So, I do. And, I almost gag. And, she's like yah - it's gross, huh? The other night...she tells me..feel this diaper...it's so heavy...and I'm like NO. No, I'm not. And, she's like well, you're closer to the trash can so y

Still Frame Memory Conclusion
Despite the insane ranting and antipolitical nay saying that I do, deep down I'm a philisophical person with unmet needs to my talent. Dabbling in the fields of Psychology, Philosophy, and Sociology I have made compasison charts of the human pschye and came to the conclusion that everyone has a still frame photo kept in the recesses of thier mind that takes them back to a time when they were at a new point in life, as life goes on more of the stillframe memories make a collage of things past that define who you are as a person and what makes you stand outrom the peope around you and the influences you have on others. think about this people it is very true and someday when i get enough data pooled i will beable to present this theory as a documented test of human thinking and social structure.

Where Is He?
Where is the man that will love me for who I am? Where is the man that will take me into his arms and never want to let me go? Where is the man that looks into my eyes and we know what the other is thinking? Where is the man that will take my hand and go for a walk with me? Where is the man that will take me in his arms and dance with me even when there is no music? Where is the man that will kiss me in the rain? Where is the man who will look past my faults and focus on my better qualities? Where is the man who says he cares about me and means it? Where is the man who says he cant get me off his mind? Where is the man who will be there for me thru thick and thin? Where it the man who will tell me he loves me and means it? Where is the man who wants to spend the rest of his life with me? Where is this man? If you see him, please tell him I am looking for him. If you are this man, where have you been all my life?

What Religion Are You?
You scored as Christianity. Your views are most similar to those of Christianity. Do more research on Christianity and possibly consider being baptized and accepting Jesus, if you aren't already Christian. Christianity is the second of the Abrahamic faiths; it follows Judaism and is followed by Islam. It differs in its belief of Jesus, as not a prophet nor historical figure, but as God in human form. The Holy Trinity is the concept that God takes three forms: the Father, the Son (Jesus), and the Holy Ghost (sometimes called Holy Spirit). Jesus taught the idea of instead of seeking revenge, one should love his or her neighbors and enemies. Christians believe that Jesus died on the cross to save humankind and forgive people's sins.Christianity100%Paganism67%Buddhism67%Islam50%Judaism50%Hinduism42%Satanism42%atheism25%agnosticism

Wit's End
Somedays are better than others for most folk's out there in the world, but what do you do when things take a turn for the worst and you at the bottom of the ladder?. I find it hard sometime's to move on in day to day life living for the moment and praying I see another day. I feel like taking a break from my normal life and taking an excusrion into unknown water's and relaxing before I get to Wit's End. In essence what I am conveying to you people who do read these nonsencical blog's I write is take some you time and cherish what you have, no sence in wasting away the time at a dead end job and taking steam all week that boil's over and sends you on a fritz. Take a weekend and plan out some you time go to a library rent a couple movies whatever tickles your fancy and get to know yourself and let the hassles of life pass you by for a change.

Chosen: Gettysburg
Music Video:ADRENALINE (by Gavin Rossdale)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone if i could find rammstein's "sonne" in video form, it would be here instead of "adrenaline" by gavin rossdale. yay XXX!! that was a good action movie ^_^ so, hans is awsome! and frickin amazing ^_^ he's so cool and he's an awsome-tastic friend! lol we both LOVE rammstein and he's teachin me wat he knows in german. we get to go see grindhouse wit lonnie on friday (hopefully there wont be a lacrosse game!) at like 10 pm. haha that will do wonders for my attitude the next day (which is PROM). lol, so yea hans and i are just so alike, he may have to become my shadow instead of lonnie's! i chose this morning. i woke up and went downstairs and said "it's gettysburg. that's where i'm going". my mom almost started to cry cuz she knew how hard it was for me to choose. the good nesw is that i get a car this summer and then i can see katie all year with her friends who amuse me to no end^_^

Just Had To Vent A Lil
Ok ok I know some people like contests on here, kewl for them, some people have mutual people on friends list.. even better.. But why complain about people not bombing or rating you. I try to return the LUV to all vistors, friends, fans etc.. I cant help everyone with a contest or I wont get to enjoy CT in my own way. If I dont participate in ur contest, please dont take it to heart, there are gadz of people on here and gadz of people on everyone's friends list, which means gadz of people posting & reposting bulletins saying help me win this contest or that contest or help my friend win.. Good luck to all those who do participate in em, its just not for me.. I'll help if I have time or energy but plz dont try to make me feel bad by saying if you dont help ur not a true friend and will be removed.. If you wanted to remove me, u would of by then.. Heck remove me now and make both our CT experiences alot easier.. again just had to vent its not aimed at any one person ..

This Is For Her, The Bitch!
Forget every word you spoke. Regret this life to choke. Purity, just a blinded coward. Seventeen, the number you chose me. Seventeen curses now will be blamed on your sacred black heart. Now I'm awake. My will is stronger than before. You don't know me, and you don't see me. You will never fucking know me. Everything went black tonight. Now I'm sick of being blamed for your worthless identity Of a victim, the claim you make. A false claim for a bullshit tear. Not from me, anymore. Not from me, anymore. Anymore. Not anymore. Now I cast a thousand plagues on you. So left behind, to make amends. Now I am set free, and I can see right through you, But you're too blind to see me. Now I am set free, and I can see right through you, But you're too blind to see me. Red. Red is the color that makes me sick, And is paid for in blood. It's paid for with your blood. And now we're taking it back. And we keep on taking it back. And now we're taking it back. And w

Cinema Strange - Aboriginal Anemia
You sit watching your brother die 'cause he chewed on sickly rabbit. Poor boy Parzifal likes to hunt his sister, and so infection sets in like a gang of wolves licking at the heels of the anemic aboriginal hunting grounds, where you sprain your thumb throwing rocks at cadavers. Bashing in my weakened knees, bashing in my weakened knees... Animal people scale the walls so easily: your bitter family! Holding court without your brother, rectify your viral sanction. Anxious ears solicit thee, my snarling spies sit down to tea and ignore the bubbling sores that swell and spit along your backbone! Call your general, fortify his skin so my disease can't penetrate your china shack of ignorance and purple turbans! Split the bread between your chins, annihilate bacteria! Eating, breeding serfs and peasants, bloody plague-boys stealing crumbs! Bashing in my weakened knees, bashing in my weakened knees... Stripling arrows ricochet off teeth and crystal nighttime goblets. Dinner party, din

In Three Days
In Three Days by Robert Browning So, I shall see her in three days And Just one night, but nights are short Then two long hours, and that is morn See how I come, unchanged, unworn! Feel where my life is broken off from thine How fresht the splinters kee pand fine,- Only a touch and we combine Too long, this time of year the days But nights, at least the nights are short. As night shows where her one moon is, A hands-breadth of pure light and bliss, So life's night gives my lady birth And my eyes hold her! What is worth The rest of heaven, the rest of earth? O loaded curls, release your store Of warmth and scent, as once before The tingling hair did, lights and darks Outbreaking into fairy sparks. When under curl and curl I pried After the warmth and scent inside, Through lights and darks how manifold- The dark inspired the light controlled! As early art embrowns the gold. What great fear, should one say, "Three days That change the world might cahnge a

Monday Strikes Again
Oh well I knew it was to good to last. I called my parents tonight to see how things were going and to let them know my daughter was not going to her Girl Scout meeting tomorrow. Well my mom asks if I got the e-mail about my aunt in Ft. Lauderdale - no what is going on. Apparently she is throwing up blood and had to be placed in the hospital. She was stabilized a few hours ago and now I get to wait on my mom to call me with more information on the reason why my aunt was throwing up blood. My aunt has cancer - it was breast cancer which went into remission, then progressed to lung cancer and now is brain cancer. It moves each time and she is taking chemo treatments. Her weight had dropped to below 100 pounds but as of last week she was back up to 115 pounds. My mom is so worried - I can tell and I know there is other stuff she is not telling me because she doesn't want me to worry about it. I love my parents for trying to protect me but I would rather get the entire story now t

Walking Suicide
I'm a walking suicide but you'd never know cause' I hide I got too much pride to show my depression I think about dying everyday but never say anything cause' people will stop me rob me from succeeding in my goal. I fold my letter up saying how sorry I am for being a disappointment to my family and you'll be better without me. You'd never think little baby girl would try something so bold didn't know that the mold you made her in turned it's grin and that hell really existed in her eyes and she cries for god to please just let me die and be free from the reality she's facing!! I'm a walking suicide

Underage
Just had a run in with a minor on Cherry tap who was 14 didn't post an age at all and when I found out that she lied especially about her age being 16 and then her sister got on ( being much older ) had told me their mother was killed by an internet stalker that got me thinking is there anything safe any more - The minor was flirting with me a 34 year old man - that shows me that all those tv shows about stalkers on the internet is just one more excuse to watch your kids better to know what they are up to and to let them know about the dangers that lurk out there I closed our conversation with you know next time she may not be so fortunate Thanks for listening and watch yourselves

What Am I Doing?
I have no idea. Here I was, sitting, thinking about what has transpired over the last couple of months, and wow have things changed. If you are wondering if I gave up on Harley, well...to be honest I haven't. I think he is an awesome person, just is ashame that he works to much and leaves little time for anyone or anything else. Here is the best part though. There is a new guy. Yep. A new one. I haven't exactly thought of what to call him here, so let's call him newbie for now. Well, the only problem with that is he isn't exactly new. We talked on and off a year and a half ago. Maybe longer, I suck at keeping track of time. If you would have asked me back then what I thought about him, it might not have been exactly nice, but it wouldn't have been ugly either. Now, it is like I am talking to the same person, but he has grown a little, or maybe I did. I can't help but wonder why now. I know, I think too much. This morning was funny. He called me at work to talk for a few before he went

What Ya Think, Huh?
The True You You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you. With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies. You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday. The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match. Who's The True You? You Should Have Been Born Under: You've got a ton of energy - and need plenty of room to roam. You tend to follow your whims, and it's hard for you to stick to one thing. Specific jobs, loves, and friends are always changing and never a part of your life for long. Very intuitive, you tend to know what people are thinking before they say a word. You are most compatible with a Dog or Tiger. What Year Should You Have

A Lap Dance Is So Much Better When The Stripper Is Crying
I was lonelier than Kunta Kinte at a Merle Haggard concert That night I strolled on into Uncle Limpy's Hump Palace lookin' for love. It had been a while. In fact, three hundred and sixty-five had come and went since that midnight run haulin' hog to Shakey Town on I-10. I had picked up this hitchhiker that was sweatin' gallons through a pair of Daisy Duke cut-offs and one of those Fruit Of The Loom tank-tops. Well, that night I lost myself to ruby red lips, milky white skin and baby blue eyes. Name was Russell. Yes, a lap dance is so much better when the stripper is cryin' Yes, a lap dance is so much better when the stripper is cryin' Well I find it's quite a thrill When she grinds me against her will Yes a lap dance is so much better when the stripper is cryin' Well, faster than you can say, "shallow grave", this pretty little thing come up to me and starts kneadin' my balls like hard-boiled eggs in a tube sock. Said her name was Bambi and I said, "Well that's a c

Breaking
As I sit in a corner Contemplating life or death Contemplating whether or not to pop pills Or cut my arms and legs I slowly remember all the pain Losing what is left of my sanity Slowly breaking down Feeling tears creeping out of my eyes As painful memories return Memories of what used to be pleasant things Remembering all of the people who wouldn't care Picturing the funeral where only few would show Knowing all of them will be asking one question one I can't take it I am weak As I lay down, crying Breaking... Wishing many would die As my weakness prevails Crying while many sleep Dieing inside Breaking inside and out

Short Story Called The Unkown Bond
She has always wanted to make her father proud of her. But she soon discovered that he wasn’t right about everything. Rhiannon was the princess of the elves who lived on the east bank of the river, Draven. She always had a natural curiosity about her and her father, King Kimarhi, knew this. He always feared that her curiosity would show her the truth about King Auron, king of the elves that lived on the west bank of the river, Draven. But years ago Kimarhi and Auron had made an agreement that neither would allow their daughters to meet. The two kings had a secret that neither daughter knew about. A secret that tormented each king and caused him to lie about each other. Rhiannon was beautiful in the eyes of all who looked upon her. Her fair skin had not one blemish or scar, her pale blue eyes made you feel as if she could see into your soul. But the one feature that everyone was envious about was her long, flaming red hair. She had one weakness. She wanted to know everything she could

Happy Mother's Day
Mother I would give you the most beautiful spring day I would give you soft clouds in a deep blue sky I would give you warm sunshine to match your grace I would give you a gentle breeze to lift your spirit I would give you full trees to shade your brow I would give you cool fresh water to quench your thirst I would give you all of this and so much more I give you my respect and love forever Happy Mother's Day ©Dark

Skitzer
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Found This
Someone to love 8/03 I found someone to love It was right under my nose all this time I took them for granted cuz I knew they were kind I was aware of the presence Just never paid them any attention And not to mention They are loyal kind and funny And has no problem spending my money Trust is 90% of love I trusted that person But didn’t have the nerve To give them the love that they deserved I found someone to love I found love I found me

Pills
Pills Together we are one Separate we are none Defeated by the truth The things we cannot do Just a shaken mind that breaks Through all the pills I take. Simple in a jar Of everything we are But then the lies begin a mind corrupted within But a pill can solve it all This spin in which i fall. Together we are one Separate we are none Defeated by the truth of everything we do A shaken mind that breaks Through all these pills I take. Ease the pain we're not insane In denial without a trial Loss of hope Loss of love Loss of everything up above. Just give me one more I'm giving up As I fall I feel its clutch. Spinning faster I'm dying within Feeling this moment of death begin. The pain was real it wouldn't stop it continued with every pill popped. Together we are one Separate we are none Defeated by the truth The things we cannot do Just a shaken mind that breaks As the pills begin I suffocate.

~*with All My Heart*~
With all my heart i can say there isnt a day that dont turn the world around and make me think of all that has made me happy and turn my life into something more than i would ever think of with wonderful friends,family and a truely wonderful man that are there for me and back me up....with all my heart i love each and every one of them. My friends talk me through ruff times and tell me its gonna be ok and things will work out. My family well they back me up and they stand there with me and fight when ever needs to be delte with. The same as the kindness warmest hearted man that i could ever be with he does all that he can from standing at my side to talking to me, easeing any pain that crosses my path. Hushes my tears when they start to fall down my face with his words With all my heart i love them all for being there for what ever crosses my path as ill always be there for them With all my heart i love the one and only man that has made me see that there is love out ther

Happy Birthday Wildfire! We Miss You!
TODAY WOULD HAVE BEEN THE DAY THAT MY FOAL WILDFIRE TURNED ONE. BUT SHE PASSED AT 3 MONTHS OLD CAUSE MY MARE STOPPED NURSING HER AND I DIDNT CATCH IT IN TIME. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILDFIRE! VAMP

Abuse
Fire ignited Burning her innocence Flames licking Showing no mercy Her beauty and her purity Engulfed Every day as the night falls, And darkness reigns Her young body ravaged Tears fall Heart torn and ripped, Soul writhing in pain…. She closes her eyes And through the blazing flames Of hate and agony and fear unspoken She opens her inner eyes, Her children’s eyes As she gazes into the distance Of all things light and warm and comforting Things she has known but long forgotten Her Angel now charred and small Keeps her weeping vigil.

Can This Really Be Happening?
Ok, so right now, things are going right along as planned. except the minor mishap with my stepdad's car, things are good. Its odd. lol For many reasons. Things like this never work out for me, and they are. I am actually moving, I am actually escaping this place, I am actually truely starting over. And I couldnt be more excited and scared shitless than I ever have been in my whole life. The one and only thing that is worrying me the most, is my grandparents. They are my life, especially my granma. She is my best friend, and shes dying. They both are. And I feel horrible for leaving before whatever happens next, but I realized that I cant put my life on hold for anyone anymore. Thats all I've ever done. I was going to stay here because my mom wanted me to stay so she can still get the child support, and make sure I'm safe and sound. Which is exactly what every mother wants, right? I understand that part, I mean, the safe and sound and not getting into trouble, but you shouldnt use your

A Mother's Biography
My son, Natas Elysium, was born March 30th, 2004 @ 11:31pm. His birth is one of my proudest memories.:) We had him by waterbirth (hottub birth) and had a midwife deliver him, her name is Jean, She has since moved and relocated her midwifery. Kim is the other midwife, a very wonderful midwife... I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with Natas, I was about 9 weeks about a week after the Type O Negative concert that we went to With my husbands cousin and his (then) girlfriend... I went through alot with this pregnancy (my very first and hopefully not my last)... I spent alot of my pregnant time at the music store, doing factory work, and listening to LOTS of music!:P I also spent much of that time babysitting and for a while taking bellydance classes... I remember going through so much with this first pregnancy, Massive weight gain (about 63 lbs.), swollen feet, gestational diabetes, and many Braxton Hicks contractions and some back labor... I also had many friends and family wi

Empty
Life,Death Steal my last breath Hurt,Pain Open Me And Drain Discarded,Bereft I have no Feelings Left Forgotten,Forlorned My Heart You Have Shorn Broken,Bleeding No Hope of Reprieving Lust,Love Ill Have none of Despise,Hate I sit here and wait Here is a Lame attempt..comment as u see fit

No Tears In Heaven
No Tears In Heaven "No Tears In Heaven" Rose, they say there are no tears in Heaven, But that must be wrong today. Because you took a part of my broken heart, When you went away. I know my tears must have followed you, How else can it be? My Spirit feels broken, 'Cause you are no longer here with me. Lord knows I cried to the Heavens, my tears fell like rain. So, I know my tears must be in Heaven, Things will never be the same. Rose, they say someday I will accept your passing, But, right now that can't be true, Because part of me is in Heaven, My tears ....they followed you.... R.I.P buddy we will miss ya 02/14/88 /04-20-07

God Is Up To Something
When you're down to nothing, God is up to something." This is beautiful! Try not to cry. She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of theoperating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care anymore ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?" The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his

I Only Wish....
I only wish he would call me beautifull, gorgeous, and alluring. I only wish he would look past the fact that I may not be as skinny as all those women on his page but that I am as beautifull on the inside. I only wish that he would realize what a big heart I have and how kind hearted I am. I only wish he realized how much I care about him. I only wish he would take the time to get to know the real me, the person on the inside. I only wish that he knew that I would do anything to be the one for him. I only wish....well I guess it is time to stop wishing and make it a reality and I will do what ever it takes to do so. Just something that was on my mind. Not feeling sorry for myself but just starting to come to a realization. I am not speaking of any inparticular here, but I think there might be some other women out there who might feel the same way. If not, well I am sorry for saying so.

Makes Me Sick
Dont really apply to me but gotta love our future. Month One MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lie

Honesty
im alone, yet surrounded by people im fearful, even though i show to people that nothing bothers me im smiling on the outside..even though i am hurt and torn apart on the inside i laugh and joke, when all i think about is sad depressing thoughts im in love but feel like at any moment i could lose that all and im scared i feel like even though i am a grown up that i am still a little kid and need someone to show me that they love me..to take me by the hand and show me the way someplace i crave attention when everyone feels i dont need it i am drowning and holding on to a life raft that has a slow leak in it and its sinking i think all the time about what could have been, what should have been and what is....where i made my mistakes and how i cant change the past but when i go to change the furture i am usually alone i keep everything bottled up inside until i flip out on someone and they get hurt and at that time i could care less what they think when they hear what i have to s

Does It Matter?
Does It Matter? Does it matter if I choose to stay? All I want to do right now is be away. I don't need anybody to hurt me more; I'm filled with pain, my heart is so sore. Does it matter if I get rid of feeling? Feelings make you vulnerable to anything. No more feelings left to love anyone; No body is worth my time, I'm alone. Does it matter if I let go of my friends? I know one day, it will all come to an end. After all, I'm fed up and had enough; I will be hurting inside, I hate this stuff. Does it matter if I never believe again? I know I have nothing but hell to gain. My trust dies for the rest of my life; This world left me with nothing but a knife. Does anything matter anymore? I wonder if there's anything to live for. I'm going to keep being torn apart; I shouldn't have been here from the start.

What Mythilogical Creature Are You
You scored as Angel. Angel: Angels are the guardians of all things, from the smallest ant to the tallest tree. They give inspiration, love, hope, and positive emotion. They live among humans without being seen. They are the good in all things, and if you feel alone, don't fear. They are always watching. Often times they merely stand by, whispering into the ears of those who feel lost. They would love nothing more then to reveal themselves, but in today's society, this would bring havoc and many unneeded questions. Give thanks to all things beautiful, for you are an Angel.Mermaid75%Angel75%Faerie67%Dragon33%WereWolf33%Demon0%What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

Im Sorry
LAST NITE I WROTE A BLOG USINGSOME BAD LANAUAGE IM SORRY I WAS HAVING A REAL BAD NITE AND I TOOK IT OUT ON MY FRIENDS I SELDOM USE THAT KINDA WORDS BUT IT JUST ME UPSET WHEN PEOPLE USE THEIR DISABLITES TO MAKE [PEOPLE FEEL SORRY SO ON THAT NOTEILL CLOSE FOR NOW BYE HUGS EVIS

Changes
Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around much. My real life is interfering with my online one, lol. There’s been so much going on. First off, I finally told my dad that my life is my own and I’m going to do what in college and afterward. I expected him to go completely postal but he didn’t. He told me he respected me for the way I handled it and apologized for being too controlling. Total stunner. But it’s a real weight off me. I was stressing about it for weeks. I moved out and I’m living with Jack and Jessica. We have a pretty nice apartment on the 6th floor. Oh but next time we’re hiring movers because shoving that couch into the elevator was an epic battle that I’m not eager to repeat. It’s an awesome building downtown with a rec room, pool, and computer lounge. Sometimes we get on each other nerves (like if Jack doesn’t stop leaving hair in the sink when he shaves, I’m going to cut him with that razor) but so far we’re getting along great. I have a kitten! She’s so cute. All t

Spare A Thought For Me
As you sit at home in your comfy recliner chair With your glass of wine and bowl of stew Spare a thought for me Whilst I eat my bully beef and biscuits As you watch your children perform their newest play In fairy wings and pirate swords Spare a thought for me As I kiss their picture before I pick up my gun As you freely spout your opinion on every subject Spare a thought for me As I take a bullet in the chest so you can do just that As you walk freely in the leafy parks Spare a thought for me as the light ceases to shine and I pass into the hand of our lord Spare a thought for the soldiers like me who gave their lives to protect your freedom. Don't forget us Educate our children and tell them of their brave grandparents who gave up everything they had so all people could walk freely and talk openly without fear For a live lived in fear is a live not worth living. R.I.P to all who die

What Do Your Eyes Say About You?
You scored as Passion. You are very passionate whether that passion is good or evil has yet to be determined. You have great power over others and they seem to flock to your service. You are very competative almost to a fault. Perhaps you should let someone else win for a change?Passion75%Eyes full of Pain25%Mysterious17%Diamond Eyes0%What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

My First Affair With That Older Woman
My First Affair with That Older Woman by Charlse Bukowski when I look back now at the abuse I took from her I feel shame that I was so innocent, but I must say she did match me drink for drink, and I realized that her life her feelings for things had been ruined along the way and that I was no mare than a temporary companion; she was ten years older and mortally hurt by the past and the present; she treated me badly: desertion, other men; she brought me immense pain, continually; she lied, stole; there was desertion, other men, yet we had our moments; and our little soap opera ended with her in a coma in the hospital, and I sat at her bed for hours talking to her, and then she opened her eyes and saw me: "I knew it would be you," she said. then hse closed her eyes. the next day she was dead. I drank alone for two years after that.

Raising Kids Alone.
It is so hard to raise kids on my own, there are many days I don't even know what the hell I am doing. I don't even know how to be a father, never had the example. I never have met or known my own father. I feel many a day that I am the shittest father in the whole world.

Dare To Wear My Feelings On My Sleeve
you ever feel alone? ever feel like even though you are in a house full of people that they are all strangers? You ever feel like giving up? Moving away to someplace that no one knows you and starting all over? you ever get so depressed that you cry about everything that you have kept bottled up inside? I feel like i am gonna lose everything....i lost my family..for some damn reason...i feel like since i am in such a shitty mood that im gonna lose my man....i feel like my kids are gonna hate me and wanna leave...i feel like my work suffers from it all cuz i take it out on people at work....its stressin me the fuck out and there is no one that i can talk to that would understand anything i have to say. i try and tell my man that hey i want a little attention...that when i am all depressed show me that you love me..that you want to be here with me..tell me that im pretty..something....i feel even more alone when he ignores me..or lets me rant and rave and then walks away from

The Wallz
I sit up at night, it's at least 3 or 4 Blood drippin' out my knuckles From knocking skin on drywall I see a face like flashlights on they chins The more I blink the more it happens again, damn Victims, from like '89 Floating their faces on the wall like it's the last time I'm gonna see them again The same time every night The wall gets bigger with every flash of day light Are they like venting on me Walls confining me, inside of me There's an emptiness that won't go away I never said that I was right inside of my mind But I'm sure over time I'll learn to climb the walls I'm sure that over time I'll learn to right all of my wrongs Sure it's right, four walls reflecting my life Every night that I sit and watch the replay Tell 'em I can feel them looking at me I can even hear them talking when I'm tryin' to sleep Sometimes they start spinnin' or just closing in And it's just too much to be, I can't win Don't grin, it ain't funny I just set it ablaze I had

For The Ones With Perverse Minds Like Myself
Guys do ya wanna make ya woman have an orgasm like none she has ever felt in her life?.....Continue and read on Ladies do ya wanna have an orgasm like there is no tomorrow? One that would make ya body just tremble?....Ok then read this that I recieved from a VERY good friend of mine I looked up some medical articles and here's what I found out...... Start slow. Use typical foreplay. You may want to start with her on her back. Stimulate the clitoris. This can be done with a moist finger, or with your tongue. Performing cunnilingus while rubbing her breasts with your hands can be quite stimulating for her. At any rate, continue clitoral stimulation until she is lubricated. At this point slide two fingers into her vagina. Allow them to move along the front wall of the vagina. You should encounter an area about 2 inches in, which should be somewhat enlarged. This is the G spot. It lies directly along the urethra, and is located almost directly behind the clitoris. Slowly stroke

All My Friends And Family
I had to turn all my stuff on ct to friends only...and Im not gonna be accepting anyone new as a friend unless u have a salute pic bc my freak stalker just informed me he has 42 FAKE accounts....sorry for the inconvience..much love to yall and thanks for ur support Tabby...

Friends Only
I had to turn all my stuff on ct to friends only...and Im not gonna be accepting anyone new as a friend unless u have a salute pic bc my freak stalker just informed me he has 42 FAKE accounts....sorry for the inconvience..much love to yall and thanks for ur support maria...

Baby Times Are Lonely
I liked you when you took me in, But I wasn’t sure what to think back then. We flirted and gave in to lust, As time went on we learned to trust. I worked all night away from you, And that made you feel sad and blue. You asked if I would stay with you, That’s when our love really grew. Chorus: Baby times are lonely. I just want you to hold me. When everything is said and though, I’ll be waiting here to hold you. Your baby needed a father, But you told me not to bother. Yet I wanted to be “Daddy,” So we became a family. Soon my boss said I should go, What to say when I got home. Instead your love was tender & smooth, Then we packed our things and moved. Chorus: We found a place so perfect, But later realized it was a wreck. I had good jobs but lost all three, Because of previous felonies. I came home one night & you were cheating on me, My heart cried just like a big baby. When I caught him I just started to wail, Now I’m sitting in the county j

Abortion
Month One MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby M

Mothers
If you send this to just one person, it should make it all the way around the world by Mother's Day. This is for the mothers who have sat up all night with sick toddlers in their arms, wiping up barf laced with Oscar Mayer wieners and cherry Kool-Aid saying, "It's okay honey, Mommy's here." Who have sat in rocking chairs for hours on end soothing crying babies who can't be comforted. This is for all the mothers who show up at work with spit-up in their hair and milk stains on their blouses and diapers in their purse. For all the mothers who run carpools and make cookies and sew Halloween costumes. And all the mothers who DON'T. This is for the mothers who gave birth to babies they'll never see. And the mothers who took those babies and gave them homes. This is for the mothers whose priceless art collections are hanging on their refrigerator doors. And for all the mothers who froze their buns on metal bleachers at football or soccer games instead of watching from the warm

Planted More Roses
but i think i might hurt randys dog he chewed up my little bitty lilac. one i was waiting for it to get bigger before i planted. we had it on the outside table so the dogs wouldnt mess with it. guess his dog aint as stupid as he pretends. at least i got one little bitty one to plant sometime in the near future. and we got my black rose and my other purple rose planted. now if i could teach aiden to aim the hose on the rose and not on him. lmao so the man i have been trying to avoid has decided that losing me is too much for him to bear. and asked for this week to prove his love for me. i figured i had to stay this week anyway so what the hell. but i must admit he is doing a pretty good job of it. until today. havent heard from him since this morning. wondering if he decided to forget it or if he wasnt feeling too well since he did have surgery on his mouth last friday. think i will give him the benfit of doubt. for at least one day anyway. so other than being hot and rather ti

Please Help
I JOINED MY FIRST CONTEST AND NEED MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY TO CLICK THE LINK AND COMMENT IT MANY TIMES AND RATE IT... I WILL RETURN ALL LOVE SHOWN.. THANKS YOUR SEXYKAT.... http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=795687&i=2688731658 COPY AND PASTE IT.

Problems All The Fucken Time..when They Gonna Stop?
Ok so I am hurt, discusted, upset, miserable, down right mad....more than anyone can even think!!!!! My mother is getting married on July 7th of this year, and you know something? My sisters are in the wedding but not me!!!! I have to find out from my best friend when the wedding is..as far as time goes..who would be marrying my mother and her boyfriend..which would be my grandmother...all that good and happy go lucky bullshit!! Then my sister calls me and tells me to drop the cell phone money off to her tomorrow after I am done taking the kids to the playground, just so she didnt have to call me and tell me herself!! So when my sister calls me I go off and ask her if she is in moms wedding and she says yes..which I already knew of course...and then I say about how nice is that when I dont even get invited to the fucken thing!! She then tells me that mom hasnt sent out any invitations yet..HELLO!!!! DO I NEED A FUCKEN DAMNED INVITATION TO MY OWN MOTHERS WEDDING?????????? DO I HAVE

He Wont Leave Ame And Maria Alone...watch Out For Him....
There is this guy on ct that is a real wrack job..im warning all woman to block him..he is a stalker freak...he wont leave me alone..hacks my yahoo...this a convo he just had with me about my friend... Shawn Thompson: do u call maria? star miller: ya Shawn Thompson: what u guys talk about? star miller: why Shawn Thompson: ive been told something and just seeing if its true Shawn Thompson: so im trying to hear it from u star miller: what is it Shawn Thompson: tell me what u talk about then ill say wat i was told star miller: whys it ur bussiness Shawn Thompson: about wat tabby? Shawn Thompson: dont lie star miller: stuff Shawn Thompson: u guys talk about me? star miller: we use too star miller: about how u played us Shawn Thompson: LOL I DIDNT FUCKING PLAY U Shawn Thompson: good bye Shawn Thompson: ur hacked Shawn Thompson: u jsut did u fucking whore Shawn Thompson: good bye Shawn Thompson: im busy hacking ur sorry ass Shawn Thompson: cant believe i liked u

Cut The Amount Of Gas We Use
President Bush wants us to cut the amount of gas we use. The best way to stop using so much gas is to deport 11 million illegal immigrants! That would be 11 million less people using our gas. The price of gas would come down. Bring our troops home from Iraq to guard the border. When they catch an illegal immigrant crossing the border, hand him a canteen, rifle and some ammo and ship him to Iraq. Tell him if he wants to come to America then he must serve a tour in the military. Give him a soldier's pay while he's there and tax him on it. After his tour, he will be allowed to become a citizen since he defended this country. He will also be registered to be taxed and be a legal patriot. This option will probably deter illegal immigration and provide a solution for the troops in Iraq and the aliens trying to make a better life for themselves. If they refuse to serve, ship them to Iraq anyway, without the canteen, rifle or ammo. Problem solved.

True Happines
True Happiness Where does true happiness come from? We seem to think that we can give and receive happiness. If we give our kids the right gift, or if we give them a lot of gifts we will give them happiness. If we get a big present from our husbands the happiness we get from it will carry us though the coming year. Has this ever worked for you? Have you ever been given a gift that brought you true happiness? I haven't. Have you ever been able to buy something that gives you true happiness? In my twenties I watched co-workers and friends think that a car or a house in a certain neighborhood would make them happy. They would work and work so they could buy the desired object. Once they obtained it, they were no happier than they were before. Something bigger and better became the goal, and if they bought it they would be happy. Do you think any of my old co-workers have bought their happiness? Some of them have some great things, but none of them have been a

My Thoughts
Simple Moments... I am a woman, who in the past, has always wondered how my future was going to turn out. I just wanted people to see that I had worth, I wanted to be loved, and respected. To be financially set, looking towards that future, and always wondering if I would ever reach those goals. I began to realize that it isn't the future I need to worry about, it is the moments, and when it comes to the moments in my life, I have been truly blessed. I have had my really good ones, the really bad ones and the in between ones, and it makes me realize that there would be no future without these moments. The moments that makes me smile and laugh, the moments with good friends, who love me and only want the best for me. The bad moments, where lessons had to be learned, even if it hurt and wounded, it was a lesson that needed to be taught. The in between moments where I am never quite sure what is going to happen, and those are the times of self doubt, and wonder. Moments of anxiety, p

Saviour
Her skies dark from ravages past Of granite and stone, her spirit is cast. Her eyes covered, her hands bound. A quiet prayer for loves key found. The anger of betrayal still fresh in his mind. A sought after hope of true love can he find. Through clouded darkness her hand he did seek. Warmth and tenderness her voice softly did speak. An outstretched hand to her did reach. Long sought after healing has begun for each. Her skies turn blue, her stone falls away. Hand in hand together they stay. She carries his heart gently yet firmly in hand. His prayers answered of a love that will stand. Golden sun on horizon does rise. Two souls are carried aloft high in the skies. Who saved whom is not quite known. For loves tiny seeds have gently been sown. Mark ©

My Best Friend
In this world I have many friends.But I only have two best friends.they are two people whom i care about and love very much. My bestest friend is my husband Jesse.He has made me the woman I am today.He has taken me from the broken little girl I used to be to the confident,strong woman you see before you today.He has never judged mein any way ,shape or form.He knows all about my past and things Ive been through and here he stands with mestill til this day.I want him to know that I Love Him Vety Much.My love for himis like Ive never felt before with anyone and that i never will feel with anyone else but him. My best friend is Matt.He has been a stronghold for me.Whenever I feel down,lost,or just phsycho(lol),he has always been there for me.He knows when i need just a smile,or when i need that little touch that just says "heydarlin,hold your head up,your a great person"."I love you babygirl".He is a very special person to me.To Matt,I just wanna say Thanks for being that best friend

Yea May Babies
MY B DA IS C"MON SOON YALL finally and a month left of school well shit this is the last month cheaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so time 2 grad throw my cook out party and hit the club 2 celebrate u kno ha ha

Poetry
Never A sinking feeling fills your heart Anger and confusion takes over Pain so intense you cry out in anguish Tears blur your vision as the heartache fills your soul It wasnt suppose to hurt this bad It wasnt suppose to matter You knew from the start it wasnt meant to be Could never happen,Could never matter So why does it hurt Why does it matter You said you were strong that you can deal You build walls that remove your chance to be hurt But those walls were lowered in a blink of an eye And you were left naked to the pain Rejection feeds ur doubts making you question everything Regret shows in your eyes as you lash out Why did you have to fall for him You should have protected yourself You should have never lowered those walls Free You sit alone among flickering candles Their glow reflects off your still frame You tilt your head back as the feelings wash over you Conviction fills your soul You know what you must do You know has to be

My Song.
I walk this trampled terrain like a soldier who has lost his footing a dreamer whom has lost her faith A seer who sadly see's no visions an actor whom has lost his face. Broken by the hand which guides me trampled by the words which lead I find that only I know truth and from the other lie's I'm freed. Head held high I walk among you stones thrown crooked do not bleed I stand strong with broken vision Within myself is all I need. I will not fall to grasping hands I will not fail what I find true and though without the other comforts my stolid steps shall lead to you. My passion burns my inner fire this darkness treads on enemy ground for my beliefs are truer, higher and this heart inside is sound. My way is long through harrowing path my feet weep blood, my marrow aches but home I see you calling me You are the one thing they can't take Though vision blurs and mind it tires If I need I'll crawl my pride and head held high, lit with this light I sh

Before You Open Me
Before you open me Make sure this is truly something you want to do Right now all you have is an outside view Are you ready to explore what lies within? Think about this for a while before you begin What you’re about to experience is very precious Some would say priceless I am wise beyond my years as my soul is old Some would say ageless Few have scratched the surface And many failed to grasp its meaning Of the life that has taken me Far beyond simple dreaming. Are you prepared to dive Into the black sea of my soul? Can you abandon all your fears And all that you’ve been told? Are you ready For a new kind of addiction? I think you like danger At least that’s my prediction Learn what makes me smile And what touches my heart Learn why it is I relish the dark Hear the laughing demons Tuck me in at night Feel the lustful passions Lurking behind my blackened sight Open me Touch my pages Be careful I can be quite contagious Smell the scents of st

Are You A Real Friend?
FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food. REAL FRIENDS: Are the reason you have no food. FAKE FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong. REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn we fucked up.but that shit was fun!" FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back. REAL FRIENDS: Keep your shit so long they forget its yours. FAKE FRIENDS: Know a few things about you. REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you. FAKE FRIENDS: Are for a while. REAL FRIENDS: Are for life. FAKE FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough. REAL FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste." FAKE FRIENDS: Will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you. REAL FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out. FAKE FRIENDS: Wont send this back. REAL FRIENDS: Will send this to you and to 10 other real friends

Sensual Touch
SENSUAL TOUCH Her lover's flesh asleep with dreams,between two silken sheets She watches on with adoring eyes,inside she feels complete By the window in the still of night,the moon shines on her skin As cascading hair softly flows,so does the love within Tempted by the tender memories,fresh within her mind Her senses come alive again,arousal's silhouette defined Against the wall so cool,she leans and licks her lips As the taste of him unfolds again,remnants of his kiss Thoughts begin to stray, as she turns her face into the night Gazing out the window,at the stars and moon so bright She traces a painted nail,slowly over an ivory breast Pondering sensuous ways,she could touch her lover next There within the stillness,as the wind howls a tune for lovers Silently he breathes her in,her fragrant scent upon the covers Awoken by the missing,of her warmth and nakedness He rises with an aching need,to feel her soft caress His footsteps on the wooden floor,brings to

Heres What I Want To Know
How is it when a parent is abusive to their child and that child or children are put into foster care cause the parent has punched them in the face over a pack of cigerattes, is allowed by the courts to get the children back. Wouldnt that just be putting the child into harms way once again? Can the abusive parent reallly truly change their ways?

Today's Quote Is: Rumors
"Never explain--your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway." Baquera says: this quote is correct, you hear a rumor and you say to yourself, do I need to defend and explain the situation or should I just sit back and watch? Well I've always sat back and watched and 9 out 10 times the rumor fades. So, to excert myself for a short period of time is a waste of my time and not good for my health. The truth is rumors are always there, but you don't have to be! LOL! Laugh it off and let go and let god deal with it!

Prayer Of An Unknown Confederate Soldier
The Blessing of Unanswered Prayers I asked for strength that I might achieve; I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things; I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for riches that I might be happy; I was given poverty that I might be wise. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men; I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life; I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I had asked for, but eveything that I had hoped for. Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered; I am, among all men, most richly blessed. - Unknown Confederate soldier

Part 7
Well, when we last saw our main character, it was the middle of July, 2005. By this point I had set up my retirement ceremony for Friday January 20, 2006. If you have never been to a military retirement ceremony, they can be either very short and sweet, or can be real tear jerkers. My goal was to make even the toughest guys shed a tear. As a First Class Petty Officer, it would have been normal for me to select 6 other First Classes to be my side buoys. I had not taken that route because the results from the Chief Selection board hadn't come out yet. What I decided was to select 3 men and 3 women who don't work in my division, to be the side buoys. Also, there were to be 2 Third Class, 2 Second Class, and 2 First Class petty Officers. I decided on the male Third Class. This guy was a Quartermaster, whom I had done a lot of talking to over the course of my 3 years onboard. He had struggled with adjusting to military life, especially when he was working in the galley as

Conscious
if it feels good i feel bad. if i like it it hurts me. conscious - is relative. an environmental trait. move beyond the flesh. touch my energy and be one. conscious - is relative. a creation of mine. if it feels good i feel good. if i like it it doesnt hurt. conscious - is relative.

The Rise Of The True Pentagram
One dark afternoon, like a shadow I flew, through the rain that fell sick with lament. To this house of incest, for when we undressed, blasphemies against Venus were rent. But when sister removed, her wed body approved, the parade of my heavenly quests. Yet all tongues are not true some are forked or askew, like an uncivil serpent at best. For ousted from Eden, I fousted all reason, hook in mouth like Saint Peter Pan. To haunt fairy groves, and hot virgin coves, where in the promiscuous swam. I elected lovers, and rejected others, misfistresses that don't give a damn. But in those that still do, my deep interest grew, the rise of the true pentagram.

Mmmmm
Well today was wild. I went to an office building to make some appointments I saw a girl giving me the eye... and Im not wearing panties so I decide to be naughty and bend over to pick up my pen. I knew she saw my wet pussy cause her jaw dropped. I walked over and asked her to show me where the bathroom is and winked. She blushed and came with me hehehe. When we got there I pushed her in the stall and made out with her and putting her hand on my pussy... I knew she liked it cause she slipped a finger in lol. well long story short we were in there for 30 minutes cumming and cumming and cumming. god I was such a mess when I left... but it was worth it hehehe. later

10 Golden Rules For Taying Happy W The One You Love
First & foremost, love each other. Realize how lucky you ate to be in love with someone who loves you. Say "I love you" often & in different ways. Surprise each other with gifts of praise to show your love. Remember that love grows in an atmosphere of freedom & trust, not from restraint and obligation. Do things to keep your love and romance new & alive. Don't take love for granted, ever. It's such a blessing… Listen objectively to each other, as you would to a friend. Acceptance is a key to understanding & a buffer for tension & resentment. Don't take things personally; give each other the right to have different opinions, the right to disagree. You don't want anyone to control your feelings, so don't try to own someone else's, not even the feelings of the one you love. Never stop treating each other like sweethearts. This is important! Talk to each other as sweethearts. Do things that sweethearts do. Share the chores around the house. Work together in achieving your goals. Do

Me And Tabby Are Getting Stalkd My Arrowhawk
There is this guy on ct that is a real wrack job..im warning all woman to block him..he is a stalker freak...he wont leave me alone..hacks my yahoo...this a convo he just had with me about my friend... Shawn Thompson: do u call maria? star miller: ya Shawn Thompson: what u guys talk about? star miller: why Shawn Thompson: ive been told something and just seeing if its true Shawn Thompson: so im trying to hear it from u star miller: what is it Shawn Thompson: tell me what u talk about then ill say wat i was told star miller: whys it ur bussiness Shawn Thompson: about wat tabby? Shawn Thompson: dont lie star miller: stuff Shawn Thompson: u guys talk about me? star miller: we use too star miller: about how u played us Shawn Thompson: LOL I DIDNT FUCKING PLAY U Shawn Thompson: good bye Shawn Thompson: ur hacked Shawn Thompson: u jsut did u fucking whore Shawn Thompson: good bye Shawn Thompson: im busy hacking ur sorry ass Shawn Thompson: cant believe i liked u

Whole Brain Thinking
Whole Brain Thinking By Owen Waters Do we still have unimaginable potential just waiting to be unlocked? When you examine the functioning of the human brain, the answer is a resounding, “Yes!” The human brain includes right and left hemispheres. These operate in different contexts as they perform different functions. In most people, the left hemisphere is primarily detail-oriented, while the right is visually oriented and recognizes patterns. The right hemisphere recognizes the picture, the overview or the context, while the left brain translates that image into words. When you look at a person who seems to be someone you knew a long time ago, you recognize the pattern of that person’s face long before their name catches up. You move in for a closer look, while trying not to stare, and your left brain is thinking, “Oh, that’s um, oh…I’ll never forget, um, what’s his name.” The detail-oriented, left-brain hemisphere provides these functions: • Logic • Sequential pe

A Lingering Gaze
I was up at work today and one of my co workers got on the the topic of love lifes cuase we were bored she askes me about mine and how it has always been. so i tell her " oh up untill about a month ago it has been like this girl meets boy, girl sleeps with boy, finds out boy is an asshole sleeps with boy a few times keeps boy on a list of who to call if bored. yall know the deal and after a few months or years take boy off list. never ending cycle untill now. I tell her i have met someone and have been unofficail seeing that someone for about a month or so than we became officil on the 22nd and my list has been tost out the window cuase im happy with this one. so than she asked me how I and my ol'man as he likes to be called met so i thought back to that day when i had run away to my safe haven (one of my freinds houses he knows who he is) because i just needed to get away from my life for a bit everything was crashing around me. so i was sitting at his computer messing aroun

Love (undefined)
The word "love" may be the most battered, abused, and misused word in the English language. To define love is impossible due to the over-whelming abundance of emotion; Yet, lack of time and vocabulary. We have little trouble saying it, but more difficulty sharing it because so few of us truly feel it. To "feel love" is the ONLY way to "know love".

Mommy !!! Do You Have A Soul Or No
this was not written by me but when i read this every time i cried harder then ever befor when somthing has a heart beat it is alive and has a soul, when you stop somthings heart you have killed it when you do it with out its concent it is murder. simple logic true facts and laws of man yet man continues to break its own laws i do stand on the line of logic and reason but if it must be done for reasons do it befor it is murder ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Month One MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it whe

I Finally Have All My Things Back....
My mother finally gifted me with all of my lovely shit back. This is both go and very very very very very bad... Bad as in now I have no fortress of solitude... no Casa Del La Fuck so to say. Good as in now I have all of my DVD's and flat ware back. I also no longer have a place to hang out with friends because I'm sure as fuck not inviting them (yes all 3 of them) out to suburbia to hang. Oh yes I could see that ending well... not. Anywho... other than that life has been uneventful... I've mellowed a bit.. I'm not as suicidal as I was a week ago. Still not happy but I'm as good as it gets for the time being. Don't be a stranger let your local Nita know how she's affected absolutly nothing in your life.

Soul Mates
One day you'll find someone you truly do love, who is your soul mate sent from above. To have your soul mate will mean a lot. You better thank the lord for what you've got! And when you find her, you better hold on tight. Don't ever let her slip past you sight. This woman you find, just keep in mind - She's more than just one of a kind! It's good to know you have someone near, in case you have to let out a tear. To the person who reads this, I'm not only a poet, But a guy who says... "Goodbye."

My Happiness
My happiness lies in your eyes They are beautiful and different colors They shine when they look at me At night when they are closed I love to kiss them My happiness lies in your touch As you slowly pull me in closer to you As you mold your body against mine At night when I lie there next to you I feel at peace My happiness lies in your smile This is something you don't often show This is something I love to see At night when you take in air I love watching your mouth. My happiness lies in your voice As you pick up the phone and say Hello As you whisper in my ear At night I can't wait till you wake up so I can hear it again. My happiness lies in the arch of your back As I run my hands up and down your spine As I mold my front against your back as we sleep At night I love kissing your back My happiness lies in your skin It smells so good, so soft, and rough It feels so good against my skin At night I love feeling it warm me My happiness lies in your t

Two Firends
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT. DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE. THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE. THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS, WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED! GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM. AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING, HE WROTE ON A STONE: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE ". THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?" THE FRIEND REPLIED, "WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE, WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT

What I Found Out On The Subject..
This information came out of the Cherry Tap BIBLE.. What is a Salute and why should I make one? A salute is a candid photo of yourself holding a HANDWRITTEN sign with your screen name, member ID, and CherryTAP.com or LostCherry.com proving to the world that you’re the real person behind your CherryTAP profile. Members often write their information on their hands, feet or other body parts. Please do not submit NSFW salutes. You will NOT be able to move up past level 10 without a verified salute. How do I make a Salute? Take a photo of yourself with the following information clearly displayed in the photo. 1. Your SCREEN NAME, 2. Your Member ID number, (which is located in the end of your URL address; www.cherrytap.com/user/22) 3. AND, the words: CherryTAP The following items will be accepted as a complimentary addition to your salute: You wearing a CherryTAP t-shirt or you in front of your CherryTAP homepage (not your profile page or any other CherryTAP page) th

What Not To Say To A Nakkid Guy
1. I've smoked fatter joints than that. 2. Ahh, it's cute. 3. Who circumcised you? 4. Why don't we just cuddle? 5. You know they have surgery to fix that. 6. It's more fun to look at. 7. Make it dance. 8. You know, there's a tower in Italy like that. 9. Can I paint a smiley face on that? 10. It looks like a night crawler. 11. Wow, and your feet are so big. 12. My last boyfriend was 4'' bigger. 13. It's ok, we'll work around it. 14. Is this a mild or a spicy Slim Jim? 15. Eww, there's an inch worm on your thigh. 16. Will it squeak if I squeeze it? 17. Oh no, a flash headache. 18. (giggle and point) 19. Can I be honest with you? 20. My 8-year-old brother has one like that. 21. Let me go get my tweezers. 22. How sweet, you brought incense. 23. This explains your car. 24. You must be a growing boy. 25. Maybe if we water it, it'll grow. 26. Thanks, I needed a toothpick. 27. Are you one of those pygmies? 28. Have you ever thought of worki

Gonna Be A Daddy! Woooha!!!
Hey Everyone, We have some very Joyous news to share! We just found out that Melanie is Pregnant! We are VERY Excited!!! But, been another tough couple days...Please pray for Melanie, She is tired and weak, Please Pray for her strength and for her courage. And pray for the little angel inside of her, we have a long road ahead of us but many joys along the way. your thoughts and prayers have helped more than you know! "It is God that gurdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect. He maketh my feet like hinds feet and setteth me upon my high places. He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms. Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath holden me up, and thy gentleness hath made me great. thou hast enlarged my steps under me, that way my feet did not slip." Psalms 18: 32-36 http://cherrytap.com/user/376941

Rick Needs A Sexy Stalker
* Please apply to my page if you can fill the following requirements. 1. Must send me no less than 50 messages per day. 2. Must Add, Rate and Fan Me and must stalk my page by the hour. 3. Must be a raging nymphomaniac and want sex no less than 3 times a day. 4. Must be extremely jealous and possesive and get pissed off when other females check out my page. 5. Must pledge here undying devotion to me and want to have all my children. * and if I think of anything else...I'll add it LOL

If U Saw Me In Your Bed.....!!!!
IF U SAW ME IN YOUR BED.....!!!! =)If you woke up n da middle of da night and saw me in your bed what would u do? Give me your opinion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1) go back to sleep 2) slap me 3) cuss me out 4) jus tell me to leave 5) climb on top of me and cuddle 6) fuck me so good... details please! 7) give me head 8) make me breakfast 9) ask me my name (lol) 10) call the cops 11) make love to me until we get tired 12) say damm u look good_ howd u get here? Repost with the title IF U SAW ME IN YOUR BED!!!!! and see how many ppl want u in their bed.u might be surprised by the answers u get......u could answer the ones who sent u the bulletin

Another Day Another Debt
Why do we work? I have thought about this long and hard since my job started messing up my pay checks, i am now three weeks without a check, and it is finally hit me the answer of all answers, most of us who have our dream job work because we enjoy what we are doing, but those of us who have not yet found it work, to make a living in other words we need money. Well I have thought long and hard and have realized that if money is so damn important why should we continue to only allow the rich to control it, why are we listening to a government who makes us pay for them, when they should pay us for the priviledge of working for us, since that is what they do, but no instead we are forced to pay for wars, former presidents salaries, and convicts to live all live better than comen man, and i am sick of it. I do love this country, but I believe it is time we as citizens spoke out against the wrongs that are committed in our names.

10 Steps For An Un-happy Relationship
Find as much as you can to get annoyed about on a daily basis. Get angry about the annoyance so that you create an atmosphere of hostility in your home. If anyone suggests you need anger management, be sure to cite all the annoyances that caused this, so they know it's not your fault. Do what "you" like to do and brush off or point out the absurdity of your partner's preferences. If they try to do something for themselves, be sure to accuse them of selfishness and greed. Claim they always focus on money. When you start an argument, make sure that you win it through intimidation and anger. If your partner suggests that you are manufacturing things to get angry about, make sure to accuse them of starting it or claim THEIR behavior is what causes your outbursts. When you've made them mad enough to fight back, be sure to declare that they are, in fact, the one with the anger problem. When you criticize, do it often and for every infraction you can think of—like windows up

"harley Riders Wish"
A man riding his Harley was riding along a California beach when suddenly the sky clouded above his head and, in a booming voice, the Lord said,"Because you have tried to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant you one wish. The biker pulled over and said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I can ride over anytime I want." The Lord said, "Your request is materialistic, think of the enormous challenges for that kind of undertaking; the supports required reaching the bottom of the Pacific and the concrete and steel it would take! It will nearly exhaust several natural resources. I can do it, but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take a little more time and think of something that could possibly help mankind." The biker thought about it for a long time. Finally, he said, "Lord, wish that I and all men could understand women; I want to know how she feels inside, what she' s thinking when she gives me the silent treatment, why she cries, what she means

Cherrytap...
Sorry I haven't been on much lately.. there was getting to be too much weird stuff on here.. I was getting bombarded with people asking for NSFW pics of me (which means they didn't read my profile page at all..) and I was just tired of coming here. I need to focus more on my personal life.. I'll still stop by and say hello when I get a chance, but it will only be probably for a few minutes at a time.. unless I have a hankering to stay longer. I've made wonderful friends on here and it has nothing to do with any of you. I just need to do things in "reality" as opposed to sitting here all day.. so I'll stop by when I'm able, otherwise, don't think I just forgot about all of you.. cuz I haven't.. :)

Another Poem
Written deep down inside my mind One captures my lust and left me blind To any other who may have desires For only for her burn the hottest fires Raven hair and eyes blue green and deep Soul that is beauty made me hers to keep And I would never view any other but her And look at her past the world into a blur For she is so sweet to the minds eye And part of me passed on and had to die For lack of this sexy vixen so true Now no other beauty could ever do For one who washed away all other stain Till only my deepest desire remain And to hold her and kiss her sweet lips And join as one both at her sweet hips And see beauty gaze into me deep and long And feel all we have grow all the more strong And get lost together in one soul we share For my sweetest souls beauty is all that I care By R. Thomas Dinsmore

These Walls
These walls that enclose me, severing my soul. Depriving my family...They don't even know! These walls have no feelings. They're concrete & steel; They punish,; They take everything that is real These walls do not care, nor do they brood. Living off humans , as if we were food. They capture our memories & keep them inside; Not worried 'bout loved ones, who languish outside. These walls that are built to enclose us & hide; can't steal my feelings, & boy have they tried. Please understand me, my friends one & all; These walls that surround me, someday will fall

They Wanted To Up My Insulin
gee they wanted to up my insulin today and i told them to go to hell. im done taking the shots 12x a day. asked for the pump to stop the torture. and they refuse so he didnt like it when i said im not upping it and just gonna sit back without it. anyways im thru taking these shots. eventually they would have no choice but to give me the pump

~mia~
Hey everyone :) Havent been around lately been working alot and not really having time to be on the NET :) I hope everyone is doing great and I will catch up at some point :) Take care and Have a great week :) xoxo

Just A Bunch Of My Poetry
To ponder mysteries of love and to wonder why Is it a fools quest that remains lost until we do die For none can explain why we feel and about whom And when we have not one to love we do feel the gloom Love it is not about looks so much as the soul And without one to love we are often less than whole To search a lifetime for true love only to abandon hope To give up the dream unfound and reach the end of our rope And then to have love find us when finally we let it go Is proof beyond all that there is some thing we should know A divine spirit guides the way and for each has a plan To ponder mysteries of love is a foolish nature of a man By R. Thomas Dinsmore Twist and turns on this life’s trail Like a boat on an ocean without a sail I drift along unknowing the fate Unsure of all and yet free of hate Mind at rest an eye in the storm Till hopes and dreams take the form Of loves sweet hopes and desire Of one who holds and keeps the fire Of passion the is without

Monday 4/30/07
It was another pretty, but boring day today. I stayed inside in the air conditioning all day as it was 85F here and is still only down to 82. I did the usual chatting on Phreik.com in the Lobby and going to the Deaf and Hearing room with DJ Crackerjack here in a little while I think. Other than that I just listened to CrushFM all day. I'm not looking forward to this coming month, because of a law that will most likely be passed here in the states about royalty fees going up, which means CrushFM and other online radio stations will have to shut down if they aren't able to pay these fees anymore. This law comes into effect on the 15th, so alot of the dj's and listeners of Crush (and other radio stations I'm sure) are really down. There is a petition at savenetradio.org if anyone reading this is interested in signing this and helping us keep CrushFM open. Well, I think I will end this here for tonight. Have a good night everyone.

Pweor Of The Mind
AOCCDRING TO A RSCHEEACH AT CMABRIGDE UINERTISY, IT DEOSN'T MTTAER WAHT OREDR THE LTTEERS IN A WROD ARE. THE OLNY IMPRMOETNT TIHNG IS TAHT THE FRIST AND LSAT LTTEERS BE IN THE RGHIT PCLAE. THE RSET CAN BE A TOATLE MSES AND YOU CAN SITLL RAED IT WOUTHIT A PORBELM. TIHS IS BCUSEAE THE HUAMN MNID DEOS MOT RAED ERVY LTETER BY ISTLEF. PRTTEY FREIKANG AMZANIG, HUH?

No Gas...on May 15th 2007
NO GAS...On May 15th 2007 Don't pump gas on May 15th 0n April 1997, there was a "gas out" conducted nationwide in protest of gas prices. Gasoline prices dropped 30 cents a gallon overnight. On May 15th 2007, all internet users are to not go to a gas station in protest of high gas prices. Gas is now over $3.00 a gallon in most places and their are plans of gas going up to $4.00 a gallon. There are 73,000,000 + American members currently on the internet network, and the average car takes about 30 to 50 dollars to fill up. If all users did not go to the pump on the 15th, it would take $2,292,000,000.00 (that's almost 3 BILLION) out of the oil companies pockets for just one day, so please do not go to the gas station on May 15th and lets try to put a dent in the Middle Eastern oil industry for at least one day. If you agree (which I can’t see why you wouldn’t) resend this to all your contact list. With it saying, ''Don't pump gas on May 15th"

I Lost Someone Special Today
Today one of the most beautiful women I know died. She always called me her Lula Bell. She made my first birthday cake and dressed me up every Halloween. She truly treated me like her daughter growing up. She made me smile always and made a point to always call me beautiful. She was the person who shaved the rest of my hair off for surgery and the one who taught me to make mints. Her son and I were like two peas in a pod. She was the lady who put me in vinegar when I had a bad sunburn. She was a mother to me growing up. She always introduced me as her daughter. The last time I saw her was 2 years ago since she moved away. Today I get a call telling me she is gone. She died of a heart attack at the age of 58 years old. I will miss her greatly. Tears escape my eyes as I write. Please say a prayer for her two sons, husband, and four grandchildren. Thanks Lula Bell

My Naughty Horoscope (capricorn)
Capricorn You are very successful in life and are always planning for the future. You are probably already in a committed relationship and enjoy the intimacy that comes with your lovemaking. You are direct with your lover about what you like and you like it when they are direct with you. You have excellent sex, because you make sure that it’s a custom fit for yourself. Sex matches: Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com Come rate mine too ,please? (click here to link to mine) CAPRICORN December 22 - January 20 Ruling Planet: SATURN - The God who oversees time, discipline and dedication, which means Capricorn can go the distance - with major staying power - in bed and beyond!! Capricorns are very good at hiding their emotions, so it's often hard to tell when they are truly, deeply in love. If you have a load of cash, you can almost bet on admiration from a Capricorn because the goat is turned on by money. Like I said

Monday Thru Thursday Nights 9 Pm - 1am
Come listen to the bad azzed DJ with the sexiest voice on the net Dj Onyx Illuzion at Aftershock Radio 9 pm - 12am est Monday and Tuesday and 9pm - 1am Wednesday and Thursday http://www.aftershockradio247.com or in winamp at http://rs1.radiostreamer.com:8028 high band and http://rs1.radiostreamer.com:8600 low band All requests taken and played according to availablity but will get gotten and played during the show. DJ Onyx Illuzion of Xxxtasy all requests can be sent to tamedcat@yahoo.com

An Inspiring Note
Sometimes people come into your life, and you know right away that they were meant to be there - to serve some sort of purpose, to teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be - possibly your spouse, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, or ever a complete stranger. And some times things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower or heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, strait, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet who affect yo

Why No Pics????
As an answer to the question. Why do I have no pics on here of me?? Well...my explanation may not make sense to many of you and to some it may make perfect sense. I am in my sixth month of recovering from a very serious and very rare cancer. I have people tell me I look good and I look beautiful all the time. But I just do not feel it. So I hope to soon overcome this fear and post some pics of myself on here....but untill then..please be patient.

A Couple Of Amusing Little Stories
As a woman passed her daughter's closed bedroom door, she heard a strange buzzing noise coming from within. Opening the door, she observed her daughter giving herself a real workout with a vibrator. Shocked, she asked, "What in the world are you doing?" The daughter replied, "Mom, I'm thirty-nine years old, unmarried, and this thing is about as close as I'll ever get to a husband. Please, go away and leave me alone." The next day, the girl's father heard the same buzz coming from the other side of the closed bedroom door. Upon entering the room, he observed his daughter making passionate love to her vibrator. To his query as to what she was doing, the daughter said, "Dad I'm thirty-nine, unmarried, and this thing is about as close as I'll ever get to a husband. Please, go away and leave me alone." A couple days later, the wife comes home from a shopping trip, places the groceries on the kitchen counter, and hears that buzzing noise coming from, of all places, the l

To Touch The Face Of God
The quest for perfect union with God Is like trying to catch A butterfly... without a net. Sometines you can almost grasp it And just when you think you got it It sails away. But oh the wonder When You finally do grasp it! You see the beauty, the softness and you are filled with Such a Love That can only come from the knowledge That you have touched The face of God!

Opening The Heart
Love is a friendship that has caught fire. It appears as quiet understanding, trust, sharing, and forgiving. It remains loyal through good & bad. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weakness. Love feels content with the present; it hopes for the future; it doesn't brood over the past. Love includes the day in, day out, chronicle of irritations, problems, & compromises; the small disappointments, big victories, and good goals. If you have a love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else you have, it never feels enough.

What Kind Of Friends I Have
Hello all me again I am just shocked, to tell you the truth people I hardly talk to are coming out of the wood work showing me they are truly my friends. Then there is people I have been friends with talk to all the time. Because there are some people talking shit about me instead of talking to me and asking if the stuff is true. Just assume it is and then not even tell me how I have done them wrong. I don't get it. You would think that if you are friends with some one and you value that friendship as I do all of yours whether we have talked once or 200 times you would at least talk to that person instead of believing everything you hear on Ct especially from people who have a grudge against me. Wow this is so much like High School all over again. If some one don't like you they put you down behind your back to everyone instead of coming to you or just leaving you alone. Well I have said my part and if you are my friend shout at me or send me a pvt and let me know if you

Trust
You wonder what the word "TRUST" really means. Should you believe someone you just met, or someone you have known for years. When someone new comes into your life, you want to believe them. What could they have done to you yet? That is the mystery about "TRUST". Who should you put "TRUST" in? "TRUST" is a very big word and it should be used very wisely. "TRUST"

To All Mother;s This Is For You
Mothers If you send this to just one person, it should make it all the way around the world by Mother's Day. This is for the mothers who have sat up all night with sick toddlers in their arms, wiping up barf laced with Oscar Mayer wieners and cherry Kool-Aid saying, "It's okay honey, Mommy's here." Who have sat in rocking chairs for hours on end soothing crying babies who can't be comforted. This is for all the mothers who show up at work with spit-up in their hair and milk stains on their blouses and diapers in their purse. For all the mothers who run carpools and make cookies and sew Halloween costumes. And all the mothers who DON'T. This is for the mothers who gave birth to babies they'll never see. And the mothers who took those babies and gave them homes. This is for the mothers whose priceless art collections are hanging on their refrigerator doors. And for all the mothers who froze their buns on metal bleachers at football or soccer games instead of watching fr

To All Mother
Mothers If you send this to just one person, it should make it all the way around the world by Mother's Day. This is for the mothers who have sat up all night with sick toddlers in their arms, wiping up barf laced with Oscar Mayer wieners and cherry Kool-Aid saying, "It's okay honey, Mommy's here." Who have sat in rocking chairs for hours on end soothing crying babies who can't be comforted. This is for all the mothers who show up at work with spit-up in their hair and milk stains on their blouses and diapers in their purse. For all the mothers who run carpools and make cookies and sew Halloween costumes. And all the mothers who DON'T. This is for the mothers who gave birth to babies they'll never see. And the mothers who took those babies and gave them homes. This is for the mothers whose priceless art collections are hanging on their refrigerator doors. And for all the mothers who froze their buns on metal bleachers at football or soccer games instead of watching fr

%$@*&
cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need come into my life forever the crumbled cities stand as known of the sights you have been shown of the hurt you call your own love is suicide the empty bodies stand at rest casualties of their own flesh afflicted by their dispossession but no bodies ever knew nobodys no bodies felt like you nobodys love is suicide now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace you can't help deny forever the tragedies reside in you the secret sights hide in you the lonely nights divide you in two all my blisters now revealed in the darkness of my dreams in the spaces in between us but no bodies ever knew nobodys no bodies felt like you nobodys love is suicide -Smashing Pumpkins

Prison / Freedom
On July 29, 2005 I was released from prison six months early for good behavior onto parole/probation. I was released to a half-way home. I had myself enrolled in college already before being released. I was taking computer animation. I got a job on work-study as a student aide in the school library. All was going well, but one day I reported to my parole officer for a scheduled appointment. I went through the metal detector and all, picked up my personal items while chatting w the guard, and seen my PO. It went good, then when I came out to leave everyone was being searched. When I got searched they found money on me that I did not have when I arrived. Apparently, when I picked up my property after passing through the metal detector, I picked up someone else’s money too. I didn’t do it knowingly because my mind was preoccupied talking w the guard. It was and accident. Anyway, I was thrown in jail regardless for a week. When I got out and reinstated on parole/probation, I was behi

I Feel The Love!
Dear Connie, I know the counselor said we shouldn't contact each other during our "cooling off" period, but I couldn't wait anymore. The day you left, I swore I'd never talk to you again. But that was just the wounded little boy in me talking. Still, I never wanted to be the first one to make contact. In my fantasies, it was always you who would come crawling back to me. I guess my pride needed that. But now I see that my pride cost me a lot of things. I'm tired of pretending I don't miss you. I don't care about looking bad anymore. I don't care who makes the first move as long as one of us does. Maybe it's time we let our hearts speak as loudly as our hurt. And this is what my heart says: "There's no one like you, Connie." I look for you in the eyes and breasts of every woman I see, but they're not you. They're not even close. Two weeks ago, I met this girl at Flamingos and brought her home with me. I don't say this to hurt you, but just to illustrate the depth of my des

My First Blog (intro)
OK, so this will be my first blog entry. I have done a lot of other things on CherryTap (pics, Stashes, Bulletins, ect...), but not this. I am going to start buy copying some of my old blogs from Myspace over to here because I like them and want to share them with the CherryTAP community as well. About me though... I am 31yo and live in Albuquerque, NM. I work as a freelance contractor and go to college for video game design/development. I am on parole (been to prison) for aggravated battery. I caught my fiancee cheating on me and beat up the other man that was in bed with her. I am trying to put my life back together again now and move on. I learned most of my HTML skills on MySpace and have found CherryTAP much better. If you would like to see my MySpace page, add me as a friend and mention to me that you saw this blog on CherryTAP. I will add you as a friend. My MySpace account it private do to issues with certain other individuals. http://www.myspace.com/cowboy_58824 Ho

Lets Play!!
HERE ARE THE TEAMS SO FAR... HEARTS - WILL BOMB CONTESTS OF SQUAD MEMBERS ONLY!! SABRINA CHRISTIE DONNA MEGAN SANDRA ANGIE JAMEZ STEVE DIAMONDS -WILL BOMB CONTESTS OF FAMILY PARTNERS & SQUAD MEMBERS IF WE NEED EXTRA HELP SUZIE-Q DANA JESSI KELLY CASI CRYSTAL CAIN TAZZ SPADES - WILL BOMB GIVEAWAYS CRYS T,J, STEPHANIE MESHELL STACIE MICHELLE AUSTIN DANIEL SCOTT CLUBS - ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR KEEPING US LEVELED- FAN ADD AND RATE EVERYTHING FROM FAMILY, AND PARTNERS...THIS KEEPS US STRONGER... LINDSEY SPECIAL K CARLENA NEE-NEE LEXI JASON KING JOE WES MIKE I WILL ADD MORE LATER...AND OF COURSE YOU CAN STILL BOMB THE OTHER STUFF TOO... THESE ARE YOUR PRIMARY OBJECTIVES... AND AS I SAID EARLIER..IT'S STILL COMING TOGETHER....

Saying Goodbye
Saying goodbye takes time to say not a disappearing act to leave someone hanging in balance not knowing where to go and how to procceed. Being abandoned hurts more than being cheated on... When you make promises such as meeting for the very first time or traveling you tend to think this is the person you were destined to meet. Saying goodbye doesnt make a permant means to an end but letting a person its good bye for now. Saying all the stuff a lonely woman wants to hear is painful enough when you thought everything was fine only to learn youve been walked out on with no end in sight with phone calls not being returned and emails not read, Hell yes this is the internet but behind the keyboard and the monitor there is a real heart, real love, real emotions most of all a real person who can break at a moments notice. So if you cant say goodbye then just go away.. If you can't be real, search for a reality show we all knows those are fake... If you cant for one sec tell this person you rea

I Wish I Was A Punk Rocker With Flowers In My Hair!
The Everything Test There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all. Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-) Personality You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about others than concerned about self, more atheist than religious, more loner than dependent, more lazy than workaholic, more traditional than rebel, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.As for specific personality traits, you are outgoing (100%), romantic (71%), slutty (68%), horny (67%). S

Unidentified Crushes!
So I noticed some people have a crush on me. Well being the type of person I am I would love to know who. So to my crushes, who are you I'd like to know? For the men and/or women that step forward to identify yourself a special present waits for you. Hope to hear from you soon! Reply via comment or email.

Hate.....why?
Why hate me if you have never met me? why does the color of my skin mean so much? why not just give me a big hugg.. Bet you can't hate something you can touch so much.. I feel that hate is a conditioned responce and we feel the need to do so. Just cause Mom and Dad hated whites, Blacks, hispanic's or whoever..doesn't mean YOU need to also Turn over a new leaf N be yourself, and let the past be past, Love you Brother of Sister or Mother and may it forever last.. Love you,Germanie

Attitude
The Longer I Live The More I Realize The Impact Of Attitude On Life. Attitude, To Me, Is More Important Than Facts. It's More Important Than The Past, The Education, The Money, Than Circumstances, Then Failure, Than Successes, Than What Other People Think or Say or Do. It's More Important Than Appearence,Giftedness,or Skill. It Will make or Break a Company, Church or Home.The Remarkable Thing Is We Have A Choice Everyday Regarding The Attitude We Will Embrace For That Day. We Can Not Change Our Past....The Fact That Certain People Behave in A Certain Way.We Can Not Change The Inevitable. The Only Thing We Can Do Is Play On The One String We have,and That Is Our Attitude. I Am Convinced That Life is 10% What Happens To Me and 90% How I React To It......And So It Is With You..We Are In Charge of Our Attitudes

Life
hey guys jessa here ...im just wantin to let all of you know that i am fine and alot has happened so i must say that in my past blogs i was rude and crude to some ppl who are know what i can say are my close friends rite know so hunnies im SORRY for all the bad stuff i posted on the net and for what i had said behind your backs im just glade we are acting like the adults that we are well sometimes are lol and but it all behind us and started fresh a new life some would call it and i am really happy that you guys are now my friends just wish we were friends and became friends in a differant way but hey all things happen for a reason and IM SO GLADE that when one door closed it opened a new one and on the other side there you guys were with open arms and hearts and i will never let anything happen to our friendship ...just wanted ppl to know what was up and know you all do take care and god bless ~jessa~

Seizure
im sorry that I talk about all the shit that I do on here I am sure that no one gives a shit.. lol I just am confused about everything happening.. If it werent for what people I have in my life who are here for me.. I think I would be in tears .... Thanks Bobbi sue... U are my gurl..:P my minds made up what I have to do and what I am going to do... I am just not sure what I want to happen will even happen... I am not sure that I give a shit anymore... why should I... stop caring seems to be what everyone else is good at, maybe I should too.. I know what I want wont happen.. it never does.. but I am living this life for me.. and so far.. so good .. I think..

Oh Oh Lol
blonde woman was having financial troubles so she decided to kidnap a child and demand a ransom. She went to a local park, grabbed a little boy, took him behind a tree and wrote a note. "I have kidnapped your child. I am sorry to do this but I need the money. Leave $10,000 in a plain brown bag behind the big oak tree in the park at 7AM." Signed, "The Blonde." She pinned the note inside the little boy's jacket and told him to go straight home. The next morning, she returned to the park to find the $10,000 in a brown bag behind the big oak tree, just as she had instructed. Inside the bag with the cash was the following note. "Here is your money. I cannot believe that one blonde would do this to another "

New Pix Taken Last Night!!
New pix taken last night!! date: 2007-04-30 16:42:02 Please comment!!! Also comment my just me folder(be as dirty as u want ladies) and my workout time folder to help me out i always return the favor...Please fan me to!!!

Sex Facts
Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!! Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories. Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile. Having nice sex burns 358 calories. Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories. Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal without......................187 cal Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal With one hand.........................12 cal With mouth.............................85 cal Put on Protection hard .......................... 6 cal soft..........................315 cal Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal Finding G spot ......................92 cal I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal Entry Holding her..................12 cal

My Boston Sports Blog
Well here we go...I have been told that I have too much time on my hands with all the sports stuff I know. So i figured what better way to get it out than to start putting it in a blog. So here I go. And I am open to any critisizm.... First off RIP Josh Hancock..and our thoughts and prayers are with his family.. Well i guess it was a good weekend to be a Boston sports fan. Winning 2 out of 3 from the Yankees in New York, and getting Randy Moss in a trade with the Oakland Raiders. Granted the Yankees had a horrible month, it is only the first month of the season and they shouldn't be counted out by anyone(even us die hard Red Sox fans). And also hat off to A-rod, for having one hell of a month. It looks like the booing of A-rod in NY has stopped for now. Not sure if it was just my tv or not but it did sound like the Yankee fans were booing Mariano Rivera on Friday night when Joe Torre came to the mound to get him, after another inefffective outing. I personaly don't think t

Do You Know This Person?????????please Help
THIS PERSON WHO CALL HER SELF the_big_bitch34 GET MY LINK AS REFERRAL AND I DON'T KNOW WHO IS HE OR SHE..PLEASE HELP OUT I ALREADY REPORTED HER TO CHERRYTAP ۞WÌLÐÇÄ†۞ £õÚñÐÈR ñ õWñÈR õ£ †.M.Ä.£. ñ LõÚñGÈ۞ £Äñ,R Ä†È,ÄÐÐ۞ the_big_bitch34@ CherryTAP

New Routine
It took me the better part of today to make the rounds to the people in my "Fan-Of" list. I'm behind on adding new Club F.A.R. Members & rating my new friend's stuff. So I've come up with a routine on how I'm going to start doing things. Monday ~ Make comment rounds & try to hit people's pics as they are uploaded. Tuesday ~ Make comment rounds to just those in my "family" as I consider those people to be good friends. (Have openings to anyone wanting to get to know me & be a real friend.) Add new Club F.A.R. Members & rate pics/stashes. Wednesday ~ Make Hump Day comment rounds. Thursday ~ Make comment rounds to my "family" list. Add new Club F.A.R. members. Rate pics/stash & contest bombing if asked by the person in the contest & not a friend of a friend. Friday ~ Make comment rounds only. Saturday ~ Make comment rounds to family members only. Sunday ~ Make comment rounds to family members only. Rate pics/stash & perhaps contest bomb if asked. I still h

Accused Of Treachery And Witchcraft
She remains defiant in the face of death Nailed to the cross Accused of treachery and witchcraft She was only true to her soul She had a taste for adventure She could bewitch and beguile She was fantastic company A party animal who also had a sensitive side She loved romantic trips to Paris and Rome She liked expensive clothes Her lovers would spend all their money on her But that was enough to keep her close She always felt the need to move Always uncomfortable in one single place A thirst for excitement which had to be quenched Many of her partners became paupers A few even took their lives She was an explosive personality Once you had spent an even in her company Your life would never be the same And now she has been judged by her former lovers Found guilty of being a witch An old crime in a modern setting I kneel at her feet and beg her to forgive us all "Your beauty corrupted our souls Such beauty only belo

Friend Material
What the fuck! Okay I have heard this so many times and I am fucking sick and tired of hearing it. I cry every time I hear it. FRIEND MATERIAL! That's all I'll ever be... Yes this is my pitty party don't like it don't fucking read it! I've had enough of guys saying "oh your so beautiful and I like, but I don't want to date you." That's a bunch of shit. Then there are the guys that say "hey lets have sex." Uh lets not! I'm a nice person, just not now. LOL! Becuase I am pissed! If men took their hearts and eyes out of their dicks maybe they can see the beauty within girls. They would also be able to see and feel when they are letting love pass them by. Yes I know there are women out there that are just as bad maybe even worse. But my problems right now are with men. No I am not going to turn into a lesbian. That's all I have to say for now. If I can find one guy in this world that can prove me wrong that all men arent the same, then I will be truthfully happy.

Come On My Babies... I'm Waiting For You All!!
***this is a repost from my bulletin just in case you don't see it!*** Stop by my CT Home... check out My new Fetish Videos and Pics on My CT Stash.... For all you fetishist come and enjoy it!!.... Don't forget to rate, your Mistress will love you for it!! I have tons of new pictures waiting to be uploaded but I need your help (once again) to move to My next CT level... I'm only a mere one thousand and some change away from My next level so come on My Cherry Lovers, subs and slaves and help your Mistress to move me up!!! You are going to love what's coming!!!! *Spanks & more Spanks* Mistress M

The Imperial Nuclear Order
THE possibility of a nuclear strike by the United States against Iran has now entered mainstream political discourse in the U.S. This needs to be seen in the perspective of: -U.S. determination to attack Iran but the virtual impossibility of achieving all its objectives through non-nuclear means; -the predominance, at the highest levels of the Bush administration, of men who believe that problems of a global war and the consequent overstretch can and should be resolved by deploying "mini-nukes" - not retreat, but escalation to a higher level; -the much wider spread of actual nuclear weapons among the key U.S. allies than is ever revealed in the mainstream media; and, most crucially, -the immense nuclear superiority the U.S. has kept gaining since the collapse of the Soviet Union and the consequent doctrine of "usable nukes" it has developed during the Bush presidency. Using nuclear weapons becomes thinkable because the U.S. has unrivalled capacity to do

My Business
Walked in the store what's everybody staring at They act like they never seen a mutha fucker wearing black Following a nigga and shit Ain't this a bitch All I wanted was some chips I wanna take my business else where But where?

Today
Today is the start of windown of school. This semester has been the hardest because I have lost friend and relationships close to me. I lost my fiance, and best friend to stupidity and my classes have been the hardest I have ever undertaken. However it's 2 weeks of school left. I'm apprehensive about what is to come but I feel I have grown a lot in the past 6 months. I understand myself and others better. I hope to start more blogs but it's pretty outside and my bike calls. I miss red and the way she felt on the back but she has to learn who she is and that, as I know, takes time. Also, my 66 Mustang is due out of the shop this week, something I'm seriously looking forward to. A classic always makes my blood run hotter. Just the body and personality of them. Now, onto the house. I've finished painting 2 of the bedrooms, mine is the only one left and I'm debating on the color. I'm thinking a light blue. Even with my tractor it's hell keeping the 10 acres mowed.

A Cowboy In A Gay Bar !
Brokeback Bar (lol) cute A cowboy walks into a bar and two steps in, he realizes it's a gay bar. But what the heck, he says to himself, "I can really use a drink." When the gay waiter approaches, he says to the cowboy, "What's the name of your weewee?" The cowboy says, "Look, I'm not into any of that, all I want is a drink." The gay waiter says, "I'm sorry but I can't serve you until you tell me the name of your weewee. Mine for instance is called Nike, for the slogan 'Just Do It,' and that guy down at the end of the bar calls his, Snickers, because it really 'Satisfies.'" The cowboy looks dumbfounded so the bartender tells him he will give him a second to think it over. So the cowboy asks the man sitting to his left, who is sipping on a beer, "Hey bud, what's the name of yours?" The man looks back and says with a smile "T imex," and the thirsty cowboy asks, "Why Timex?" The fella proudly replies, "Cause it takes a lickin' and keeps on tickin!" A little shake

Free At Last!!!
FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST, THANK THE GODDESS I'M FREE AT LAST!! As of April 23,2007 I am legally free again, WOO HOO!!! Now I can close that chapter of my life and not worry about it. I think we may have found our second male to make us a quad. Keep your fingers crossed for us, LOL. Its the first time that we all really like the guy and he fits very well with all of us so far. Granted he is a little under experianced in bed compared to us but lol we can and have already started to change that, LOL. Well work is going great. If I havent missed the chance I may put in for a supervisory position. Was scared to at first cause I am still new there. But was told that I would be a good one to fill the position and that I would more than likely get it if I put in for it. So if its ment to be I will get it. WOW, never thought I could do that so soon. But I have tried to bust my ass at work. Ok well sorry its been so long since I last wrot but busy with work and now soccer for my daugh

Wtf Is Up With...
People who go 45 mph on the freeway? Speed limit is 55, everyone else is going 80, so step on the gas!!!! I live in the part of PA where drivers are considered the worst in the state! say there are 2 left turn lanes, and your on the outer turn lane. Everyday I get cut off by someone who is in the inside turn lane. Today there was a truck blocking the right lane on a major street, and I was first in line behind it. The bitch behind me decided to try and go around me but honked and flipped me off when I got in front of her. Uhm, excuse me, I was in front of you??? Then, she ends up turning into the bank thats a half block down. You were in a hurry to get half a block? Fuck you! What about the people you try to let onto the freeway? You slow down, flash your lights at them, honk at them, and they still won't go. Then, when you figure they're just gonna sit there, you speed up, and THEN they decide to jump in front of you??? What about the people on the on-ramps that cut you off to get ont

Poems
This funny little dragon and poem were made into greeting cards for children and families affected by autism. PEOPLE SEEM TO LOVE THIS!.. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- “Aubrey the Autism Dragon” The other day I met someone Who gave me such a fright… He came into my bedroom and He stayed all day and night! He climbed onto my book shelf and He looked for snacks to eat But couldn’t find what makes him smile He likes a special treat! So when he looked into my box That’s filled with toys and such He smiled with glee and reached down in And said, “Thank You very much!” He ate up all the puzzle pieces that I had inside Then rubbed his big fat belly and opened his mouth wide. The last bite that he took made the dragon burp and say. Good-bye for now, but don’t be sad, cause I’ll be back some day! -By Amy Sellers

This Poem Has Been In My Family Since I Was A Child...
Desiderata Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all ar

Poems
Blessed Are Those I. Blessed are those who stop and listen to my chatter. You may not understand me; but I love when people talk to me, for I long for companionship, too. II. Blessed are those who take my hand and walk with me when the path is rough, for I easily stumble and grow weary. But thank you, too, for letting me walk alone when the path is smooth, for I must learn independence. III. Blessed are those who take the time to tell me about special happenings, for unless you make special effort to inform me, I remain ignorant. IV. Blessed are those who wait for me. I may be slow, but I appreciate your patience. V. Blessed are those who are not ashamed to be seen in public with me, for I did not choose to be born thus. It could have been you as well. VI. Blessed are those who do not pity me, for I don't want pity. All I want is understanding and respect for what I have learned as well. VII. Blessed are those who notice my accomplishments, small as they may

Poems
Freddy Frog has a few stories out now... this is his original tale! 1 of 12 contemporary rhyming stories in my newely released book: Miss Amy's Hurray for Rhyme it's Story Time. (Collection #1)- Collection #2 "Snack Attack" is in production now! .. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Freddy Frog Freddy Frog went hopping on a frosty chilly night. But when he hopped into the pond he slipped on top the ice. He stomped and jumped into the cold to try and take a swim, But getting down below the ice was very hard for him. Freddy tried throughout the night. He never slept wink. He night was almost morning now. The sky glowed orange and pink. He had to try a new way down since hopping wouldn’t do. So with his kindest froggy croak he said, “Hello to you!” Oh please, dear Ice, I’d like to splash and play there down below. Open a hole just large enough for a small frog to go. Just then th

I Need A Girlfriend!!!
-The Girlfriend Application- About You Name: Age: Height: Hair Color/Style: Eye Color: Favorite Color: Favorite Food: Tattoos: Piercings: Drink: Smoke: Any Other Drugs: Would You Kiss Me Anytime?: Anywhere?: Do You Like To Cuddle?: Have You Ever Been Cheated On?: Would You Cheat On Me?: Have You Ever Cheated On Someone?: What Are Your Favorite Hobbies?: If You Categorized Yourself, What Would You Be? (Prep, Punk, Goth, etc.): Other Fun Stuff What's Your Idea Of A Good Date?: What's The Type Of Music You Like?: Do You Like The Rain?: If So, Would You Play With Me In It?: Do You Like Movies?: If So, Could We Stay Up All Night Watching Them?: Would You Cuddle With Me 'Til We Fell Asleep?: Do You Like Playing Sports?: What's Your Favorite Feature About Yourself (Physically)?: What's Your Favorite Feature About Me (Physically)?: What's Your Favorite Feature About Yourself (Personality)?: What's Your Favorite Feature About M

Monday
Here we are...damn, it is Monday already. Of course, it is not such a bad thing....if you miss one...you will probably miss a lot. I am having one of my favorites....Black Velvet and Diet Coke (gotta keep that boyish figure going).....today has been.............................strange, maybe? Lots of things to hope for...info on work and such....but nothing came through today....so I wait for another day and see what the future holds. So, for today at least, life has kinda been "lived in the slow lane". Wanting to get a lot of things started....ideas for work, ideas for new pictures.....of course through it all...as usual....I am a bit frisky.....seems as if that happens a lot......!!! For now I am just sitting and waiting....not really sure what the hell I am waiting for...but I am doing a damn good job waiting for it. Guess it is just one of those Monday things................been sitting on the front porch...naked....drinking whiskey....and the only damn thing that passed

Limiting Time..
I know I said I was limiting my time on CT... but can I use it as an excuse not to mow the grass? PLEASE? :) My stepmom made an awesome strawberry pie yesterday and sent the last piece home with me... and I just finished it. I think that was the BEST pie I ever had. I want MORE!!!

Need Your Help People Please?
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The Light
STANDING IN THE SPOLIGHT, TRYING TO SHADE THE LIGHT, LOOKING BACK IN THE CROWD, I SEE A SILOUETTE OF A MAN, POINTING DOWN AT ME, HE WHISPERS OUT BUT IT SOUND LIKE A CRY, DON'T GO BACK THE WAY YOU CAME, ONLY STAY THE PATH AND YOU WILL SEE, THE MAN DISSAPEARS BUT THE LIGHT STILL STAYS, NEVER DID I THINK THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN TO ME, ALL THIS TIME WONDERING IF I WAS RIGHT, NOW I KNOW THAT I AM FULL OF MIGHT, JUST LET GO AND LET ME STAY NEVER AGAIN WILL I EVER SAY THE WORDS THAT COME TO MY HEAD UNLESS THE WORDS I SAY AND MEAN ARE, THE TRUEST WORDS TO BE SAID, NEVER AGAIN WILL I BE DAED, A SECOND CHANCE HAS BEEN GIVEN I WON'T FELL NO ONE EVER AGAIN

Water
I just spend a few days out in the desert, and my body is functioning in prime form. Everything I drank was absorbed almost instantly, all the food I ate was burned off and I’ve been sleeping well for the past couple days I’ve been home. Something about a blazing sun and blistering heat throws your insides into overdrive and you feel…good. I would drink a bottle of water, and aside from quenching my thirst and aiding in keeping my body cool, I could feel it absorb and be used up. Still right now, two days later, I have a 1.5 Liter of Evian at my desk and every drink is being absorbed. And on the first day, I was sweating and by the end of the day I felt like scum. But my body must have flushed out all the toxins because the next day I sweat just as much (if not more) and I didn’t feel as grimy. On top of a second-layer tan, my skin got really soft. And my allergies…*POOF* Gone. What am I getting at? Go out to the desert with your spirit guide and spend two days list

Frozen And Crushed
The door closes and it shuts out the light. No more light shines through my eyes. The darkenss takes over As the light fades away Makes my heart sink further below the surface Coldness moves through and freezes everything to stone No fire to burn, no sunlight to free me. Destined to be frozen solid never to return to the surface.

Part 3 Lyrics Of My Life
standing in the middle of a dark room a mouse runs across the floor I stand up in the crowd waving my arms around looking down upon those that frown at me i may be small but i will stand tall when the masses go down and fall never will they understand what i have set out before them a journey that will take a life time to learn.

Con't Lyrics Of My Life
everytime i think about the day that me and you made out waiting for the projectile to spue right out i think about the first time that i told you i do takes me to the day that i wanted to be with you never again will touch a beauty so sweet or feel the tenderness of your passionte kiss everyday i think about what i could have done something that i could do to just to get back with you i would do anything to be with you again.

Lyrics Of My Life
I REMEMBER THE DAY THAT THE WORLD TURNED AWAY FROM ME IT MADE ME REALIZE THAT NO ONE IS WHO THEY SAY THEY ARE I SEE NOTHING BUT A LEMONADE NO ONE TO COME AND PISS ON MY PARADE I RAISE MY GLASS AND TOAST TO YOU MAY YOUR NEXT BIRTHDAY BRING DEATH TO YOU I'LL FIND A WAY TO LIVE AGAIN WITHOUT SOMEONE LIKE YOU TO STAND IN MY WAY AS I STAND ON MY ROCK IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEA ALL THAT I GOT IS THIS TINY LITTLE WAVE TO PISS ALL YOU MOTHERFUCKERS AWAY

Marriage
Screw this marriage thing im unhappy as hell & i just want out. Why did i even bother marrying this man when he doesn't show ANY love compassion & doesn't EVER hardly EVER makelove to me. *** Maybe that is why his first marriage failed cause it was REALLY his fault NOT hers as he claims. Screw it & this joke of a marriage im interested in someone else & i just may go for it, another man that is. :(:(:(:(:(:(

A Dictonary For Women
A DICTIONARY FOR WOMEN Argument (ar*gyou*ment):n. A discussion that occurs when you're right, but he just hasn't realized it yet. Airhead (er*head): n. What a woman intentionally becomes when pulled over by a Police Officer. Bar-be-que (bar*bi*q): n. You bought the groceries, washed the lettuce, chopped the tomatoes, diced the onions, marinated the meat and cleaned everything up - but he "made the dinner." Blonde jokes (blond joks):n. Jokes that are short so men can understand them. Cantaloupe (kant*e*lope):n. Gotta' get married in a church. Clothes dryer (kloze dri*yer):n. An appliance designed to eat socks. Diet soda (dy*it so*da):n. A drink you buy at a convenience store to go with a half pound bag of peanut M&Ms. Eternity

Love Language
I feel loved when...The Five Love Languages My Primary Love Language is Physical TouchMy Detailed Results:Physical Touch: 11Quality Time: 9Acts of Service: 4Receiving Gifts: 4Words of Affirmation: 2About this quiz Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.Take the Quiz!Check out the Book

1 May 07 - Tuesday
1 May 07 - Tuesday 1764 Benjamin Henry Latrobe engineer/architect (built Capitol) 1769 Arthur Wellesley Duke of Wellington, British PM (C) (1828-30) 1830 Mary Harris Jones [Mother Jones], hell-raiser 1852 Calamity [Martha] Jane [Burke] frontier adventurer/Indian fighter 1909 Ethel Jane Cain original UK Speaking Clock voice 1916 Jack Parr Canton OH, TV host (Jack Paar Show) 1927 Harry [Harold George Jr] Belafonte New York NY, calypso singer (The Banana Boat Song) 1939 Judy Collins Seattle WA, singer (Send in the Clowns, Both Sides Now, Clouds) 1944 Rita Coolidge Nashville TN, singer (Higher & Higher, We're All Alone) 1953 Felix Hanemann rocker (Zebra) 1954 Ray Parker Jr Detroit MI, rock guitarist/vocalist (Ghostbusters-Who You Gonna Call?) 1966 Johnny Colt Cherry Point NC, rock bassist (Black Crowes- Shake Your Money Maker) 1968 Mark Scott Paramus NJ, rock drummer (Trixter-Give It To Me Good) 1707 England, Wales & Scotland form UK of Great Britain 1840 1st ad

4-30-07 Astrology
Are you getting the wrong answers because you've been inadvertently sending the wrong message? Think about what you really want. Then rephrase the question so you get a reply that addresses your concerns. Hmmm me don't like this one so much lol but so true also sometimes. LOL

Mom - Job Description
What a Job! MOM - JOB DESCRIPTION This is hysterical. If it had been presented this way, no one would have done it!!!! POSITION : Mother, Mom , Mama, Mom my, Ma JOB DESCRIPTION : Long term, team players needed, for challenging permanent work in an often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities. Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties also required. RESPONSIBILITIES : The rest of your life. Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily, until someone needs $5. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, this time, the screa

What Is Love All About
Just when you think that you meet someone that is really true, there is other factors that might keep you and the other person from really finding out how far their relationship could go. people today say they are not racist but when it really comes down to it a lot more than they want to admit. i know a lot of problems would be solved if we all would look at people from the inside out, but that will never happen. I just hope that the guy i want to continue seeing does not let others and there beliefs stand in our way, i guess if you really love someone you will let others know that they can have opinions but they need to keep them to themselves. well i will find out going to try this dating thig again if it does not work i guess i know single may be the status that i need to stay.

Bar Part 4 Of 5
As I turned the corner onto my street, I wondered if I would see cars in my driveway. I'd spent an incredible Friday night and a memorable Saturday morning with two beautiful women. We'd even talked of spending at least the weekend together. My natural male insecurity still caused me to worry. I wanted to see these two again, but I had no easy way of contacting either of them. I didn't know their surnames. I didn't know where they lived. I had no email addresses. I didn't know their phone numbers. The sum total of identifying information I had about the two of them was where Michele worked. A wave of relief washed over me as I turned onto my driveway and saw two cars. I parked, gathered my purchases, bounced into the house, and was greeted by both a melodious, "Is that you, Jake?" and the obnoxious scent of fingernail polish. "Hi, Michele. It's me." A second woman's voice chirped, "We're upstairs, painting our nails. We're showered, we're squeaky clean, and we both smell de

Sometimes I Wonder Why?
SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY WE WERE BORN ,WHY WE WERE PUT ON EARTH,WHY DOES BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE,WHY DO WE DIED,WHAT HAPPENS AFTER WORDS ,WILL WE EVER SEE FAMILY OR JUST BE BURIED UNDER A BUNCH OF DIRT,WILL PEOPLE REMEMBER HOW U WERE TO THEM,THE GOOD THINGS YOU DID FOR THEM,SOMETIME I GET THOUGHTS AND WONDER WHY,WHY WOULD A FATHER HATE HIS ONLY SON CAUSE HE HAS LONG HAIR,OR SOMETIMES U DONT SEEM TO FIT IN SOCIETY NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO,SOMEDAYS I WISH I WOULD OR COULD UNDERSTAND THINGS,SOMEDAYS LIFE IS SO CONFUSING

Sighs
Well tomorrow is court....UGH!!! I have gone over the report w/my lawyer today and things are looking well but god seems like when I try and mend my relationship w/my mom seems like things go backwards....Why is it parents have to come up and make shit up lord....So here Iam worried about court tomorrow and at the same time worried my bf who Iam really starting to fall for is goin to just throw me away as well tomorrow...LONG story dont ask just I guess its me being insercure AGAIN!!! Sure we have a LDR but man I hate not being able to trust him and lord knows I want to cause I REALLY want me and him to work out for the best!!! Well hopefully with court tomorrow I'll come home in a good mood and things will be good between me and my bf as well....so stay tuned for tomorrows report haha

Who Was Ur Last
just be 100% truthful........LAST PERSON 1. You hung out with? MANUEL 2. last person you texted? ALEX 3. last person you were in the car with?MANUEL 4. Went to the movies with? WHATS A MOIVIE...LOL 5. Went to the mall with? MY BABY DADDY 6. You talked to on the phone? BABY PAGENT GUY 7. Made you laugh? ALEX 8. You hugged? TAMMY 9. You cried with? IDK 10. Last Kiss? MY EX HUBBY ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ANSWER TRUTHFULLY... 1. Sun or moon?SUN 2. Winter or Fall? NEITHERI 3.Left or right?RIGHT 4. Sunny or rainy?SUNNY 6. Where do you live? SECERT 8. Do you want to get married? I KINDA AM LOL 9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?TWIRL 10. Do You Cook?NOT REALLY 11. Current mood? TIRED --------------------------------------------------------------------- IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU... 1. Kissed someone? NOT REALLY 2. Sang?YEP 3. Been hugged? YE

Dirty Thirty
The Dirty Thirty... 30 unknown facts/secrets about yourself: 1. When was the last time you shaved your legs? LAST NIGHT 2. What were you doing this morning at 8 am? ASLEEP 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? TAKING ANOTHER QUIZ 4. What are you wearing?SHIRTS AND A TANK 5. Are you mad at anyone right now? YES I AM 6. The Last 2 people to hug you? FRANKY AND TAMMY 7. Last time you had sex? WTF R U SERIOUS... 8. Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile? YES ITS GREAT 9. Last thing received in the mail? A CABLE BILL 10. Do you have any famous relatives? NOT ALIVE 11. Have you ever had sex in a public place? YEP 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops? NOPE 13. How is your hair? IN A PONY 14. How many different drinks have you had today? JUST ONE..JACK 15. What have you eaten today? STEAK AND BAKED POTATOE 16. Are you any good at math? FREAK NO 17. Do you have plans for Friday night? YEP 18. Do you draw your nam

Right And Left
You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports. Are You Right or Left Brained?

For A Friends Wedding A Poem
YOU SAVE ME FOR SO LONG IVE BEEN ON MY OWN TRYING TO FIND MY HEART A NEW HOME ID ALMOST GIVING UP WITHERING IN SORROW AND DROWNING IN TEAR THEN YOU SAVE ME,AND MY WOUNDED PRIDE SAVED ME FROM DYING INSIDE FREED ME FROM THOSE SAD MEMORIES YOUR LOVE HAD REACHED OUT AND SAVE OLD ME YOU HAVE BEEN A GODSEND TO ME HE SENT YOU HEAR TO SET MY HEART FREE NO MORE LONELY DAYS, OR SLEEPLESS NIGHTS A FRIEND TO TAKE WHATS WRONG AND MAKE IT RIGHT,THEN YOU SAVED ME ,MY WOUNDED PRIDE FREE ME FROM SAD MEMORIES,YOUR LOVE REACH TO ME AND SAVE ME FROM DYING INSIDE

Men Are Evil
Wow, so I haven't posted on here forever. So much has happened. I'm done trying to get back together with my ex-fiance Justin. Everything that he's said for the last year or so, has turned out to be a lie, which he told me himself. He was just going to string me along, and wait until the day before I was supposed to go to Nebraska to visit my family to tell me everything. Well, fuck that, and him too. I don't need his drama and bullshit. He's trying his best to hurt and punish me for breaking up with him. He's convinced that I broke up with him for my ex, Dustin, who is my daughter's father. That isn't the case, but I could never convince him of that. Then more recently, one of my other exes, and good friends came to visit me. Aarron as far as I was concerned was to close to perfect when we dated. I was totally in live with him. I never really got over him. Well, that all came to a screaming halt. He came and stayed with me for about a week. The whole time, I thought, he just neede

Fireworks And Freedom
Fireworks and Freedom Written by: Peggy A. Rowe-Miller ©July 4, 1994 Red, White and Blue.... Celebration of one nations glory. Hundreds of people all swarmed together. They watch explosions of colorful fury. As each explosion comes to its end, I watch the sparks float down again. Like little tiny fairies. I really wonder, about fireworks and freedom. Haven't they always gone hand in hand.... fireworks, and freedom? Look around! One woman stands in the masses, and looks away long enough to wonder. Look around at all the carefree children, and deep down inside she knows... that one out of six are being fucked by their fathers. This is what our fore-fathers fought for? So, great-grandchildren could live in fear? One woman stands alone in the masses, and looks away...at the eyes of her sisters. And she wondered to herself how many were living with the bruises. In the glow of a white explosion.. She saw a sister

45 Questions
1. whats your name spelt backwards? AHTIBAT 2. What did you do last night? SLEEP 3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer? FIREFOX 4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery? YTF WOULD I DO THAT 5. Last time you swam in a pool? LAST WEEKEND 6. What are you wearing? SHORTS AND A TANK 7. How many cars DO you owne? ONE AND A TRUCK LOL 8. Type of music you dislike most? RAP 9. Are you registered to vote? YEP...VOTE FOR HILARY 08... :) 10. Do you have cable? YEP WHO DONT? 11. What kind of computer do you use? DELL 12. Ever made a prank phone call? YEP, WHO HASNT... 13. You like anyone right now? I DID BUT HES CONFUSED 14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? HAVE BUNGEED... 15. Furthest place you ever traveled? CALIFORNIA 16. What's your favorite comic strip? NEVER READ ANY 17. Do u know all the words to the national anthem? DUH..IM AMERICAN 18. Shower, morning or night? BOTH 19. Best movie you've seen in the past month?

Earning Your Desk
(True story, Google her name. The VFW named her their Teacher of the Year in 2006.) Back in September of 2005, on the first day of school, Martha Cothren, a social studies school teacher at Robinson High School in Little Rock, did something not to be forgotten. On the first day of school, with permission of the school superintendent, the principal and the building supervisor, she took all of the desks out of the classroom. The kids came into first period, they walked in, there were no desks. They obviously looked around and said, "Ms. Cothren, where's our desk?" And she said, "You can't have a desk until you tell me how you earn them." They thought, "Well, maybe it's our grades." "No," she said. "Maybe it's our behavior." And she told them, "No, it's not even your behavior." And so they came and went in the first period, still no desks in the classroom. Second period, same thing, third period. By early afternoon television news crews

Cute!!
If you want someone who will bring you the paper without first tearing it apart to remove the sports section..... Then buy a dog. If you want someone willing to make a fool of himself simply over the joy of seeing you .... Then buy a dog. If you want someone who will eat whatever you put in front of him and never says its not quite as good as his mother made it .... Then buy a dog. If you want someone always willing to go out, at any hour, for as long and wherever you want ..... Then buy a dog. If you want someone who will never touch the remote, doesn't care about football, and can sit next to you as you watch romantic movies... Then buy a dog. If you want someone who is content to get up on your bed just to warm your feet and whom you can push off if he snores.... Then buy a dog.

Haters
people are outdated these days. They think that their better than anyone and everyone else.I do admit not all people think like that but a big portion.I just want to know where they get off thinking this.

Memories
I was threw my jewlery box Found the wedding band you gave me The memories came flooding back Of all that you put me threw Pain and the hurt that I still feel Just like it was yesterday I started to cry I pick up the ring threw it cross the room Wondering how you could have done that to me I don't want you part of my life Now its time to pick up up the pieces Move on with my life signed:marion g.

Black Eye Peas
What's wrong with the world mama? People living like aint got no mamas I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism But we still got terrorists here livin In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK But if you only have love for your own race Then you only leave space to discriminate And to discriminate only generates hate And if you hatin you're bound to get irate Yeah madness is what you demonstrate And that's exactly how anger works and operates You gotta have love just to set it straight Take control of your mind and meditate Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all People killing people dying Children hurtin you hear them crying Can you practice what you preach Would you turn the other cheek? Father Father Father help us Send some guidance from above Cause people got me got me questioning Where is the love?(where is the lovex3)(the love2x) It j

Which One Are You?
Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble? A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities of well known and modern cartoon characters. The information that was gathered was made into this test. Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results. Do not cheat by looking at the end before you are done! Then send this to all your friends and change the subject of this message to what character is you. 1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date? a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.) b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.) c) Painting in the park (5 pts) d) Rock concert (1 pt.) e) Going to the movies (3 pts.) 2. What is your favorite type of music? a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)

Let Me Clear Somethings Up
Thank you to all who read my last blog and have commented on it to me in pvt messages.I want to clear something up Yes I have been kicked out of the mafia but Angel was not she left to be with me and cause she didn't like what she was hearing from some members of the mafia about me who have a personal grudge against me. I need to address something I am not having problems with the whole mafia and I am not mad at Steph the head of the mafia me and her are friends and will stay that way. I do understand why she was hurt and I have told her I am sorry. I wish her and I could have talked first and maybe this would not have happened. Like I said there are a few members of the mafia that have a personal grudge against me and have not been adult enough to tell me why or talk to me about it. They find it easier to talk behind my back instead of just coming to me and letting me explain it or fix the problem. These are the same people that have been causing me all the trouble. I just wan

Jus Something !
Broken Chains A sad melody Falling tears Listening ears A friend just for me Reaching out Sharing doubt Whe life gets me down Hands to clutch Gentle Touch Can turn me around Spoken words Softly heard Cognitivity Holding tight Loving light Calm serenity

Insanity
A doctor at an insane asylum decided to take his patients to a baseball game. For weeks in advance, he coached his patients to respond to his commands. When the day of the game arrived. Everything went quite well. As the National Anthem started, the doctor yelled, "Up Nuts", and the patients complied by standing up. After the anthem, he yelled, "Down Nuts", and they all sat back down in their seats. After a home run was hit, the doctor yelled, "Cheer Nuts". They all broke out into applause and cheered. When the umpire made a particularly bad call against the star of the home team, the Doctor yelled, "Booooo Nuts" and they all started booing and cat calling. Comfortable with their response, the doctor decided to go get a beer and a hot dog, leaving his assistant in charge. When he returned, there was a riot in progress. Finding his tizzied assistant, the doctor asked," What in the world happened?" The assistant replied, "Well everything was going just fine un

When?
My heart is in complete silence. Was it real...the pin pricks on my fingers. The sweet taste of her sweat. The salty aroma of her anticipation. Silk raked across her skin. Nails teased across her heavenly body. And it keeps floating to the surface... It insists on popping. Who dares interrupt my revelry today? What new hell? What new travesty... Who dares tread on this holy place. Where I contemplate the profane and the divine... My sacred... Your sin... as I paint my vows on her skin. Stiff. Like death. Like living. Chained down... gagged... and pierced. Violated... Invaded... Sullied...ruined... as I lay here... waiting for you to release me. Release me from real. Erase my emptiness. Today... Was it on the tip of my tongue... or the tip of my thoughts?

Back Home
Well, we're back home in MO, after spending a "few hours"...lol in Indianapolis. We got into Indy around 11:30, and ended up making arrangements with Lee's cousin, to meet them at the Denny's where they were having a late supper. So, we tormented the waiter at Denny's till going on 1:00. He was a fabulous kid, and took it all in stride, joining in on our fun! naturally, even when we got back to Lee's mom's, we still had to sit around, talk, and unwind a bit, before calling it a night. We met up with Lee's sister to deliver her wedding rings that Lee made, and got to spend a bit of time with her. We had to rush back and pick up Laura, then we headed to the park to spend time with cousins, nieces, brothers...just a whole slew of us, to celebrate laura's b.d. which was on Sunday. We had a beautiful day for it, and naurally, all the kids had a ball playing. Of course, we were hoping to get out of their sooner than we did. that's the way it always goes when we visit though.

I Know Whats Happening Now
Well yesterday something happened that I didnt think would.. I came to realize that I am better then all this shit that happens all the damn time... I am better than drug users girlfriend.. I am better than just being someone's FUCK I am better than just being told what to do I am the kinda person, the kinda girl that loves to take care of people.. I love knowing that someone is benefiting from something that I am doing for them.. But, I deserve more than I have now... I am ready to be me.. and not be someone else or meet someone else's expectations... I think I am a great person... I think I can be something to someone... I am capable of being there for someone 100% but there isnt anyone there (except a few people) who are there for me 100% and thats bull shit..

Got Rid
of him.. i found out so much shit about him last nite.. it wasnt funny... not did i get one phone call but many... and it was from the same lady.. but she wouldnt give me her name or anything.. i wrote him or should i say text him because he wouldnt answer his phone.. and i told him that he is truley fucked up in the head... and he fucked up a good things here.. and will im done with him. not only did he hurt me.. but it make me think that there is not good men out there.. what the hell.. will that is how the rest of my weekend went.. and he still has this women over there... i feel sorry for her..she will see what he is all about.. he was a good man.. and he never treated me like this... and we were friends for 2 yrs..

Worst Week
My brother David has always been the proverbial black sheep of the family. We were raised by strict Southern Baptist parents, some of whose tenets and ideals actually passed on to the next generation. David, however, had....issues. He had more than issues, he had a lifetime subscription. He started his own courier business, but had the bad luck/lack of business sense/deep desperation to partner with a criminally minded con artist. Through his many machinations, my parents lost their home, along with most of their life savings. David lost his car, then became homeless. This is not to say that David had a criminal intent - he was a terrible judge of character, and would trust anyone, no references required, no questions asked. To have that sort of blind faith in humanity in today's society is nothing short of miraculous. Most people in his hometown knew him either through his charity work with the YMCA, his dedication to local sports, or his volunteer work with childrens' sports. No ma

Tailgating
Tailgating A man was being tailgated by a stressed out woman on a busy boulevard. Suddenly, the light turned yellow, just in front of him. He did the right thing, stopping at the crosswalk, even though he could have beaten the red light by accelerating through the intersection. The tailgating woman was furious and honked her horn, screaming in frustration as she missed her chance to get through the intersection, dropping her cell phone and makeup. As she was still in mid-rant, she heard a tap on her window and looked up into the face of a very serious police officer. The officer ordered her to exit her car with her hands up. He took her to the police station where she was searched, finger printed, photographed, and placed in a holding cell. After a couple of hours, a policeman approached the cell and opened the door. She was escorted back to the booking desk where the arresting officer was waiting with her personal effects. He said, "I'm very sorry for this mistake. You

A Fantasy
It is evening. The sun slowly dropping over the horizon. i am clean, dressed, and prepared for your attention. All the blinds are down. You are working in your office. i have just finished brushing my long red hair when i hear the bell. You are summoning me. i hurry, gracefully to your office. You take no notice when i enter. i move to the side of the desk, behind your chair. i kneel , head bowed, hands draped carefully over one knee. "You summoned me, Master?" i say. You say nothing for a moment, perhaps to test my patience. i pass the test, this time. "Yes," you reply, your deep voice resounding in my ears. It sends chills down my spine, is so live the sound of it. "I have a surprise for you." i am excited - a surprise!! "What is it, Master?" i bring my eyes up to meet yours in my excitement. "You shall see, my little one," you proclaim. "Rise, love." i stand before you. You run your hands over my thinly clad body, smiling at the negligee i have chosen. You drink in t

Wrong Email Address
A Minneapolis couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years before. Because of their hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel schedules. So, the husband left Minneapolis and flew to Florida on Friday, and his wife was flying down the following day. The husband checked into the hotel, and unlike years ago, there was a computer in his room, and he decided to send an e-mail to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her e-mail address, and without noticing his error, sent the e-mail to the wrong address. Meanwhile...somewhere in Houston ... a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a Minister who was called home to glory after suffering a heart attack. The widow decided to check her e-mail, expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she screamed and then fainted. The widow's

Horoscope April 30,2007
Your impulses tell you to do one thing, but the more calculating side of you says there's a smarter, smoother route. Get quiet and listen to your guiding voice. There's a middle way. If only I could shut mey mouth and listen to that wonderful guiding voice life would be so much easier.

Say A Prayer...
For my boyfriend, Cain... Also known as Ourwkdgm on Cherrytap.. He got into a terrible accident last week.. Thankfully he was able to walk away!! However he's in alot of trouble and landed himself in jail and it's not looking good!!!! We need all the kind wishes and prayers we can get so please everyone... Say a Silent Prayer for Cain!!!! If you know anyone who has been locked up then you know how it is... CAIN BABY!!!! We all love you and miss you dearly!!!! Were praying for your safe return... I long for the day to be in your arms again!!!!! "Always & Forever"

State Vs. Old Lady
Defense Attorney: What is your age? Little Old Woman: I am 86 years old. Defense Attorney: Will you tell us, in your own words,what happened to you? Little Old Woman: There I was, sitting there in my swing on my front porch on a warm spring evening, when a young man comes creeping up on the porch and sat down beside me. Defense Attorney: Did you know him? Little Old Woman: No, but he sure was friendly. Defense Attorney: What happened after he sat down? Little Old Woman: He started to rub my thigh. Defense Attorney: Did you stop him? Little Old Woman: No, I didn't stop him. Defense Attorney: Why not? Little Old Woman: It felt so good and no one had done that since my Abler passed away some 30 years ago. Defense Attorney: What happened next? Little Old Woman: He began to rub my breasts. Defense Attorney: Did you stop him then? Little Old Woman: No, I did not stop him. Defense Attorney: Why not? Little Old Woman: Why, his rubbing made me feel all alive and excited. I ha

In Good Company
There it was. That sparkle...that ephemeral whisp. It glimmers on the pool's surface. Like a full moon? Like a fist sized diamond? Like hope? ...yeah. Like hope. You're the queen. He's the pawn. And who am I? What have I? I'd like to think... I'm the king. No. Better yet. The player. And in one forfeiture... placing my finger on his crown to dance a moment with his wobble. thoughtlessly whimsically wantonly tip and all the king's men fell with him. Pierced their throats in surrender at the tragedy that befell their lord. Fresh out of the box. Layed neatly in a row. Steeled for conflict... and then... silence. The light extinguishes Hello emptiness...did you miss me? But what of our widowed queen? Left... pure, virginal, perfect in the ruin.

Changes
I beening thinking alot about my life my past my future but mostly about my past ,by past i mean my younger days when i was starting to become an adult when you start to feel childish things slip away no matter how hard u want to hold on to them.I thought about my frist kiss and my frist girl friend who i liked very much but moved away before things ever got serouis. in away it was a perfect realtionship we enjoyed being around each other. there was no tesion and even though i was a teenager i wasnt concerened with try to sleep with her. It was very innconet which isnt something most people get to experencie most people get to have anymore. I thinking back on old freinds who i havent seen in years and i wonder whatever happened to them. I think of the times before u realize someday your parents will die and so will You. I just miss the wonderment of growing up ill be 30 in less then 2 years 30 use to seem so far away. I loved being a kid and i held on to as long as i could haveing a so

The Clubhouse Cherrytap Is "getting Away With Murder"
WE ARE KICK'N UR ASS !!!!! AND U KNOW WHO WE'RE TALK'N ABOUT BUT WE WONT MENTION ANY NAMES!! WE HAVE THE BEST LOUNGE/FAMILY IN CHERRYTAP!! SO ANYONE WANTING A JOB OR WANTING TO JOIN COME OVER AND CHECK IT OUT. WE BACK OUR FAMILY!!! EXECUTIONER OWNER AND PRESDENT OF CLUBHOUSE CHERRY TAP PLEASE READ PROFILE THEN ADD ME@ CherryTAP JUST CLICK THE UPPER PIC & WE'LL SEE U SOON !!

Poem
And I start off with this: Most of my poetry No matter what the subject, what the theme Though I never purposely start off with a scheme Most of my poems, my dear friends Are inspired by him. But I tell no one And I sometimes deny this Even to myself I search, always, in my mind The words to describe the way I feel about him Though sometimes there are no words to be found And so I compose these stanzas About apparently nothing Though he resides in all the flow And all the sounds of my words No matter how many years have gone down. I often look back and see The depth and reach of my poetry And I read them all the time. All my word play, pace, and internal rhyme He just won’t know how little I’ve tried How little I have to try To keep his blood running through my verses Sometimes my thoughts go deep And I go off on abstract curves I can write anything, Freestyle, sonnet, haiku, blank verse But never once do I waver From drenching it in his flavor Every

Love(for My Man)
L. is for the LONG lasting life I pray to god I will be able to share with u O. is for the OVERWELLMING emotions I have for you and they grow with each passing day V. is for the amount of VALUE in the relationship we have the words spoken and the times we have together E. is for never being able to get ENOUGH of everything about who u r to me

For My Man
If I could interest you in a book then I would be the author Here take my words for they are all that I can offer If I contained all the air that it took for you to live I would say take all of mine for it is all I can give If I could keep hold of the time thinking of you that I have spent I would give you my biological clock for that is all I can present If my heart were locked and I needed to be set free I would say take me I’m yours for you hold the only key If sweetness is what you lacked then I would steal honey from a hive Satisfying your sweet tooth for as long as I am alive If sounds of positivity is what you needed to hear Then I would give you endless words of affection in your ear If thoughts of desert were to ever cross your mind I would add an S in the middle and leave your sweet worries behind If attention is what you asked then I would fill the task Leaving my arms as that place for you to bask If the taste of love is all that you need I would kiss you g

Math Italian Style
An Italian workman wants a job, but the foreman won't hire him until he passes a little math test "Here's your first question," the foreman said. "Without using numbers, represent the number 9." "Without numbers?" the Italian says, "Datsa easy." and he proceeds to draw three trees. "What's this?" the boss asks. "Ave you got no brain? Tree and tree and tree makea nine," says the Italian. "Fair enough," says the boss. "Here's your second question. Use the same rules, but this time the number is 99." The Italian stares into space for a while, then picks up the picture that he has just drawn and makes a smudge on each tree . "Ere you go." The boss scratches his head and says, "How on earth do you get that to represent 99?" "Each of da trees isa dirty now. So, it's dirty tree, and dirty tree, and dirty tree. Datsa a 99." The boss is getting worried that he's going to actually have to hire this Italian, so he says, "All right, last question. Same rules again, but