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Here's What Happens To Angry White Men
Man Shoots Wendy's Manager Over Chili Sauce POSTED: 8:05 am EDT May 30, 2007 MIAMI GARDENS, Fla. -- A manager of a fast food restaurant ended up in the hospital with gunshot wounds after a dispute over some chili sauce. Investigators said a man asked for 10 packs of chili sauce at the Wendy's drive-thru in Miami Gardens. The worker told the man that he was only allowed to give out three packets of sauce. The employee eventually gave in, but the enraged man still wanted to speak to a manager. But talking was the last thing the man ended up doing. "When I get to the door, I didn't have a chance to talk to him. The next thing I know he was shooting at me," said Renel Frage, the victim. Frage was hit in the arm. He is expected to fully recover. The shooter fled with a female passenger and his sauce.

Woman Driver??
German mistakes subway for underground car park Wed May 30, 9:15 AM ET BERLIN (Reuters) - A German mistook a subway entrance for an underground car park and her vehicle got stuck on the stairs, police said on Wednesday. The 52-year-old drove her Volkswagen Beetle across the pavement in central Duesseldorf and into the entrance where it ground to a halt about five steps down, police said. Police estimated the damage at around 1,500 euros ($2,000).

Daily Sagittarius Forecast:
Daily Sagittarius Forecast: Courtesy of MsTags.com Quickie: Don't focus on what makes you happy. Focus on what makes you unhappy -- and fix it. Overview: Yes, every emotion is valid and should be acknowledged, but that doesn't mean you have to take action on them. Learn to ride out your feelings and you'll see which ones deserve a reaction and which don't. Daily work (by Astrology.com) You'll bound out of bed today, ready to tackle the world like a linebacker taking down an opponent. You've got a burly attitude, and the back-slappy, enthusiastic laugh that will help your ideas go over like gangbusters. - Horoscopes by Email - Co-Worker Compatibility - Yahoo! Astrology home Daily couples love (by Astrology.com) The two of you have a lot of territory still unexplored, and you're feeling frisky enough to check more of it out today. Your good energy makes it easy to find new ways to love each other. - Horoscopes by Email - Romantic Compatibility - Dating Do's and Don'ts D

The Haze (a Poem Kinda)
TEN YEARS AGO I FEEL IN TO THE DEEP STATE OF DEPRESSION. I WAS LIKE A FOG OR A HAZE THAT JUST WENT ON FOR DAY AT A TIME WITH NO END IN SITE. NOW TODAY THE FEELINGS THAT I THOUGHT I BARRIED SO LONG AGO HAVE RETURNED AND IM BACK IN THE SAME HAZE AND IN THE SAME PLACE. MY FAITH SAYS THAT EVERYTHING OF THE EARTH WILL COME BACK AS SOMETHIN MORE NATURAL AND MORE PURE, I DONT DOUBT THAT AT ALL. I BELIEVE MY GREAT GRANDMA OR MY NANA AS I CALLED HER, WOULD HAVE RETURENED AS A BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY. AND NOW MY GRANDPA WILL COME BACK TO ME AS A BEAUTIFUL EAGLE AND FLY AS FREE AS A BIG. I KNOW HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND OUT SOUL WILL CROSS PATHS AT THE CROSSROADS BETWEEN THE WORLD. THAT CALMS MY ACHEIN HEART AND SOOTHES MY DEMENTED SOUL.

Here's A Nice Romantic Dinner!
Guinea pig 'fried for dinner' A German bricklayer, who accused his girlfriend of liking her pet guinea pig more than him, killed the pet and turned it into a “romantic” dinner for two. Lara Hochner, 23, from Darmstadt only found out what had happened when she went to her beloved pet Rudi after the candle-lit meal, to make sure he had enough food and water. When she realised he was not there, her 29-year-old boyfriend Werner Brenner admitted that the couple had just eaten the animal. He said: "She lavished more love on her pet than me in the three years we were together, and we were always fighting about the noise the damn thing made at night." So when Lara was at work and he had a day off, Werner killed Rudi with a hammer, disemboweled him, fried him and served him for dinner. Lara has now moved out of their shared home and lives with her parents, and has started court action against her now ex-boyfriend.

One Special Wish
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

Just Typing
just seems like everything around me is falling about even more now just seems like nothing is going right seems like every time i turn around sumthing happens like my divorce has been put off for 6 months it sucks cause i want out of this marriage so bad he screwed up and now i have to wait till he gets back to have it im going on living my life doing what i wanna do he did while we was still married y can now thouhgt i could trust sumbody found out that i cant if u say ur going to do sumthing then do it dont lie to me if u cant handle how i talk then dont talk to me geez how hard is that just if ur going to do or say sumthing then do it sorry just venting have no one to talk to yeah i have my famiy but they just look at me and say thing will be ok blah blah but u know just wish i had sum one that would just listen not say ok sorry brb blah blah anyways i need to go just vent untill the next time

Stevie Nicks Concert
Last night me and a friend went to see Ms. Stevie Nicks at the ZOO Ampitheater in OKC. It had been a life long dream to see her in person and I finally got to go. It seems I was either sick or I had to work. Chris Issak opened and did a 1 hour and 20 minute show that never stopped! He was fabulous and if you have never seen him live, your cheating yourself! Stevie opened up with Stand back and of course, the place erupted! The whole place was lit up like a Christmas tree, lol! I had heard some reviews that were less than favorable, ie voice gone, etc. However, her voice was great and pitch perfect. Not bad for 59 years old. SHe performed anything from "Golddust Woman" to "Seventeen" and the band was really fantastic, they did not disappoint in the least. Two things, her show was 1 hour 40 minutes long and she did not perform a lot of songs. She merely played SEVERAL at length. That was a terrible diappointment for me after waiting so long to see her. For example, No "Gypsy", "I'

Busy Busy
Things are pretty chaotic for me at the time so I haven't been on much. The school year is winding down so work has been hectic. I am so looking forward to summer vacation! So between work and my sons baseball and starting a new life and seeing someone, I don't have much time on here anymore. My whole Memorial Weekend consisted of my sons baseball tournament, which they took 2nd place in! He was asked to try out for the All-Star team and he did but we won't find out until June 5th if he made it or not. My life lately has been a whirlwind..never know if I'm coming or going but for the most part it's been good..I miss chatting with a lot of you on here, but once things settle down some I'll be on more. I hope everyone has been well and I will be trying to catch up with everything you have uploaded here and there. Take care :) Susie

Kiss 45's, Cd's, Cassette & 8-track Tapes
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The Value Of A Drink
The Value of a Drink "Sometimes when I reflect back on all the wine I drink I feel shame. Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the vineyards and all of their hopes and dreams. If I didn't drink this wine, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered. Then I sayto myself, "It is better that I drink this wine and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver." ~ Jack Handy WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may leave you wondering what the hell happened to your bra and panties. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day. " ~Frank Sinatra WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may create the illusion that you are tougher, smarter, faster and better looking than most people. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ "When I read about the evils of drinking, I gave up reading."

Damn 89 :-/
10-20 = goodie good 21-30 = a little rebellious 31-40 = getting there 41-50 = rebel 51-60 = bad girl/boy 61-70 = bitch/asshole 71-80 = fucking badass 81-90 = damn 91-100 = cant believe you made it this far 1) x smoked (weed or cigs) 2) x consumed alcohol 3) x slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex 4) x slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex 5) x made out with someone of the opposite sex 6) x made out with someone of the same sex 7) x had someone in your room of the opposite sex 8) x watched porn 9) x bought porn 10) x done drugs TOTAL: 10 11) x taken pain killers 12) x taken someone else's prescription medicine 13) x lied to your parents 14) x lied to a friend 15) x snuck out of the house 16) x done something illegal 17) x cut yourself 18) x hurt someone 19) x wished someone to die 20) seen someone die TOTAL: 9-19 21) x missed curfew 22) x stayed out all night 23) x eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself 24) x been to

Kiss Records
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I'm Diffrent.
I'm Diffrent because I never judge a woman by her body or looks or that she has kids. I'm Diffrent I feel every woman needs love and children do too every woman has a heart and sould and more men need to realize that. I'm Diffrent because I like to take care of a woman and the kids and spoil her make her dinner and buy her flowers give her a nice massage and take care of the kids give her time to rest some . I'm Diffrent because most of my life I have been picked on and messed with from teachers and kids in school and I have never done nothin to no 1 at all . I'm Diffrent because I have a heart I have lost a lot in my life that I can never get back or replace the reason for the skeleton on my left chest is because I have lost my little bother I left home back in 92 from Cali and I left him there the last time I was ever back home was 95 and I got to see him now come to find out he is no longer alive even though I got to see him the last time in 95 for a small visit when

Mathematics
Mathematics From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this: What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life? Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions: If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26. Then: H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% and K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% But, A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100% And, B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T 2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103% AND, look how far ass kiss ing wi ll take you. A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G 1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118% So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that, while Hard work and Knowl

Todd Mcfarlane Kiss Figures
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My Analysist
lol I got an analysist today from an old friend the names are altered so u stalkers dont pm people lol but check this shit out.. [12:48] sarahxxxx: if u call me a cunt again ill cry [12:48] sarahxxxx: so ur forewarned . [12:48] sarahxxxx: still wanna know ? [12:49] xxx.sniper: yes i do [12:49] sarahxxxx: i think down deep down deeeeeeep ur a nice guy BUT [12:50] sarahxxxx: i dont think u care about people like u wishh u could or did [12:50] sarahxxxx: i think u want what u cant have [12:50] sarahxxxx: and i think u take things like [12:50] sarahxxxx: sex too lightly [12:50] sarahxxxx: i tihnk u got alot goin for you [12:50] sarahxxxx: i think u dont see what i see in you [12:50] sarahxxxx: which is the potential to be a really great guy [12:51] sarahxxxx: i think ur scared tho that if u show yourself or your heart too much ... youre terrified of being hurt [12:51] sarahxxxx: which is why its so hard to get to know the " real u " [12:51] sarahxxxx: i dont like

Im Sorry
i am feeling sorry for the people who had crushes on me i dont know if it is because i didnt talk to you or if it was because of me deleteing my nsfw folder but in any case i am sorry but i have a child who is special needs and i am moveing this weekend so i am packing and if any of you dont understand im sorry as well i do the best i can and i try to talk to you all but there are so many friends and the only way i can think is through blogging i love you all and you all are awsome just try to understand please it isnt i dont want to talk to you all cause i do but some times it is hard

Kiss Books & Magazines
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Our New Citizens
HOW ARE YOUR NEWLY ELECTED OFFICIALS PERFORMING FOR YOU? You will not see this photo on the front page of the NY Times or on the lead story of the major news networks. The protesters put up the Mexican flag over the American flag flying upside down at Montebello High School in California. I predict this stunt will be the nail in the coffin of any guest-worker/amnesty plan on the table in Washington. The image of the American flag subsumed to another and turned upside down on American soil is already spreading on Internet forums and via e-mail. Pass this along to every American citizen in your address books and to every representative in the state and federal government. If you choose to remain uninvolved, do not be amazed when you no longer have a nation to call your own nor anything you have worked for left since it will be "redistributed" to the activists while you are so peacefully staying out of the "fray." Check history, it is full of nations/empires tha

Kiss Toys
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Da White Sox
if anyone knows how to report someone, pls let me know..this guy on here with the handle Da White Sox just called em a fuckin cunt because he asked for my yahoo messenger..I TOLD him I'm hardly ever on there because I work alot..He asked for it anyway AGAIN, so I gave it to him...then he goes..ar you ever going to answer your IM..I then told him..yet again, that I hardly get a chnace to get on that thing becuase of work.. He then tells me to stop playing games..calls me a fucking cunt..and rates my pictures 1's.....

New Seat Belt Law
New Seat Belt Law became effective January 15, 2007 __________________________________________ New Seat Belt LAW The national Highway Safety Council has done extensive testing on a newly designed seat belt. Results show that accidents can be reduced by as much as 45% when the belt is properly installed. Correct installation is illustrated below....... This is very Important, please pass on to friends and family. THIS MAY SAVE A LIFE!

Chocolate Ice Cream
Chocolate IceCream C reamy, smooth...decadent H eartly delicious O h, My mouth waters C runchy nuts over velvety smooth cocoa O n my tongue does melt L usciously sweet and satifying! A treat on a Summer's Day T astefully divine E ating it, savoring the rich texture I cycles on my tongue form C reamy smooth it tastes down my throat E nticingly delicious...I crave for more! C hocolate ice cream, my Delight R avenous I am for some, I'll.. E arn my money to buy some more A and feed my chocolate ice-cream frenzy! M MMM! What can possibly take the place of Chocolate Ice-cream..You tell me!!! Chocolate Ice Cream 2 oz Unsweetened chocolate 1/3 c Unsweetened cocoa pwdr 1 1/2 c Milk 2 Large eggs 1 c Sugar 1 c Whipping cream 1 t Vanilla extract 1.Melt the unsweetened chocolate on top of a double boiler over hot, not boiling, water. Gradually whisk in the cocoa and heat, stirring constantly, until

Kiss Guitar Equipment
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Blogs
so this is my first blog ,, and boy is this gonna be nice ,, need to vent alot ,,, so ,, well my first thots are that im getting sick and tired of constantly seeing new peeps coming on and looking at profiles,,shows no gender or age and nuetral pictures ,, seems like fake profiles hhhmmmm....advertising boost maybe interesting ,,, moving right along ,im sure my friends have figured out im not a points whore so if you have nothing to offer me in a friendship then dont bother trying ,, wanna be friends keep it real,,,, IVE BEGUN TO NOTICE THAT I GOT ALOT OF PEEPS THAT ARE ON MY FRIENDS LIST THAT HAVE NEVER SPOKEN TO ME ,, THATS AN ISSUE THAT NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED ,,, PSSTT TIME TO CLEAN OUT THE CLOSET SPACE ,,,and a final shout to my peeps ,, LORI YOU KNOW WUSSUP,,, LISA ANN ,, U DA BOMB ,, WITHOUT CT i wouldnt be in contact with V right now so big up for CT and V holla back ,,, and CJ is a lil bucket of sunshine ,, specializing in making me giggle lol LOVE ALL YALL AND YOU ALL

For My Brother James
Help me to understand why you chose not to live, all the laughter we shared, the times of sorrow, why did you not come to me instead… At times I am so angry at you, then at times I know you must of hurt so bad, I wish you would of come to me, maybe together we could of worked it through.. You were there for me for so many years, and I just feel so hurt and alone I wish you would of told me, or said goodbye, I love you my brother I know you would want me to be strong as so many times you told me no tears.. How do I get through this now who will tell me, who will be the one to sit with me and laugh through our pain, to not let others get us down and always have my back, I still think I am in shock that I will wake up and there you will be.. How do I go to town and visit all the places we shared, I can hear you laughter as you tease everyone, how selfish I must sound, but those times I just wasn’t ready to have them end, I gave you protection to keep you safe, why didn

Apple, Banana, Bannock
The teacher walks in and finds an apple on her desk with the letters 'ILU" written on it. She asks who left the apple, and a little white girl raises her hand. "Well, sweetie, what does 'ILU' mean?" The little girl replies,"I love you." The teacher says, "Isn't that sweet" and continues with class. The next day the teacher finds a banana on her desk with the letters "YAS" written on it. The teacher asks who left the banana and what the letters mean. A little white boy raises his hand and says,"It means, 'You are special.'" "Thank you sweetheart," the teacher says. The following day, the teacher walks in to find a basket of bannock with the letters "FUCK" written on it. The enraged teacher asks who left it. A little Indian girl raises her hand and cheerfully says,"Yes ma'am, I left it. It means, 'From Us Cree Kids'."

Kiss Cars
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Forgive Me
FORGIVE ME Since you have left me Like a lovelorn child I am hopeless, wandered at nights I turned back to you, I know guilt is mine Like a foreigner in my house I climbed the stairs slowly I don't have the courage to knock the door I turned back to you, I know guilt is mine I wanted to see you for one last time I waited this moment for nights Tell me if you don't want me to turn back to you Tell me to go but before still Forgive me, please forgive me I am begging, don't ask any question I have no answer, the guilt is mine Forgive, forgive me *Not mine*

The Justice Tarot
Justice This Deck: Morgan-Greer General Meaning: Traditionally, what has been known as the Justice card has to do with moral sensitivity and that which gives rise to empathy, compassion and a sense of fairness. Since the time of Solomon, this image has represented a standard for the humane and fair-minded treatment of other beings. Often including the image of a fulcrum which helps to balance competing needs against the greater good, and a two-edged sword to symbolize the precision needed to make clear judgments, this card reminds us to be careful to attend to important details. It's a mistake to overlook or minimize anything where this card is concerned. The law of Karma is represented here -- what goes around comes around.

Pulsate - Poem
Flowing crimson, Life giving serum, Beating, throbbing, Music threatening to overcome. Roads as strong as stone, Twisting and turning under the skin, Evil shadows creeping about, Seeking the blood within. Strong and pulsing, Heart as pure as gold, Radiating, A dance ancient and cold. Silently he slips in, Deep within your soul, Intently listening, Testing his control. Thump, thump. Thump, thump. The lyics call, Breaking the smooth barrier, The beat begins to fall. Stroking lovingly, The victims beautiful shell, At last the music exists no more, Alas....the tolling of another bell...

It's Hard
It's hard ~Tony Martinez I come in the early mornings When all is still No one is around I come to you My angel To give you As much of me that you need and want I know it's hard I know it's bittersweet You feel it You love it But you still hold back I understand my love I do It is hard for me It is bittersweet for me I hate hiding in the shadows But for you I will do anything Don't hold back my love Don't hold back my angel Let that fire shine that i see in your eyes Even if only for 1 moment Even if only for 1 morning I will dive into the Darkness to keep it at bay when the morning is over I will only come to you for such a special morning A special moment When I need to recharge No matter what I will present myself to you Each morning When all is still Giving you all you need and want I know it's hard I love you My angel

Monkey Pot Head
A monkey is sitting in a tree smoking a joint when a lizard walks past and looks up and says to the monkey, "Hey! What are you doing?" The monkey says "smoking a joint, come up and have some." So the lizard climbs up and sits next to the monkey and they share a few puffs. After a while the lizard says his mouth is 'dry' and is going to get a drink from the river. The lizard is so stoned that he leans too far over and falls into the river. A Crocodile sees this and swims over to the lizard and helps him to the side, then asks the lizard, "What's the matter with you?" The lizard explains to the crocodile that he was sitting smoking a joint with the monkey in the tree, got too stoned and then fell into the river while taking a drink. The crocodile says he has to check this out and walks into the jungle, finds the tree where the monkey is sitting, finishing a joint. The Crocodile looks up and says Hey!" The Monkey looks down and says....

Unrequited Love
"...Things that hurt: getting slapped, getting stung, giving blood, headaches, broken bones, third-degree burns. All of these things cause great pain. We try to avoid them at all costs. However, the one thing that causes more pain than any of these cannot be avoided — unrequited love... ... When it is given and not reciprocated, all you get is a feeling of sadness that cannot be imagined unless you have been there yourself..."

Real?
im dreamin of cats again. the world is comin 2 an end. we r n the galaxy facin certain death. the universe will explode if we dont stop it now. 'Freddy' is lovin every min. of it. 'Cat' is my protector,my savior, & the love of my life. Freddy kills Cat. he died 2 save me. i scream n horror. 'Lita',plus 4 crewmen,includin myself r aboard a ship headin towards the rip n the galaxy tryin 2 escape death. Freddy is the emperor & warns us 1 last time.then a big explosion comes towards us like a huge fireball n space. i ball up n the corner on the floor & cover my head. i cry as i close my eyez & pray 2 b saved. then silence. then Lita sayz 'live 4ever'. i look up & say 'what?' i stand up,turn around & what do i c? our lives have been spared cuz my savior & protector has returned 4 me. the tears rolled down & wouldnt stop. i said over & over again 'i love u'. he said he felt the same & would b wit me 4ever. he got 8 more lives 2 live. he will never leave me & he will alwayz b there no matter

Friendships
If we cherish something we must take care of it. Family, job, health, are some of the things that we take care of because we value them. Included among the things that we cherish should be the friendships that we have established and the friends that we have. Time, care, and attention are all required to maintain a healthy, respectful, and long-lasting friendship. The best of friends contribute to the friendship, because a true friendship returns so much more throughout the years.

"kiss Alive" Misc. Concert Items
“96-97” ALIVE/WORLDWIDE REUNION TOUR ONE PAIR OF PETER CRISS CONCERT DRUMSTICKS {$50.00} UNOPEND STILL IN PLASTIC CASE BLACK STICKS WOOD TIPS/METAL HANDLES PETER CRISS SIGNATURE IN SILVER W/KISS LOGO “FAREWELL TOUR” FROM CARBONDALE, ILLINOIS, SEPTEMBER 1, 2000 ORANGE FLOOR ACCESS BRACELET (CUT) {N/A}; TORN TICKET STUP WITH RAISED BLACK KISS LOGO {$6.00}; 2 PEICES OF CONFETTI FROM THE PERFORMANCE OF “ROCK AND ROLL ALL NITE” {N/A}; KISS ONLINE MERCHANDISE CATALOG RECEIVED AT THE CONCERT {N/A}; KISS FAREWELL TOUR LUCITE KEYCHAIN (BROKEN) {N/A} “WORLD DOMINATION TOUR” FROM BURGETTSTOWN, PENNSYLVANIA, AUGUST 21, 2003 2 UNTORE TICKETMASTER TICKETS FOR VENUE “POST GAZETTE PAVILION” IN BURGETTSTOWN, PENNSYLVANIA (MINT) {$20.00}; 2 CONCERT PROGRAMS FROM THE 2003 KISS/AEROSMITH TOUR; AEROSMITH “ROCKSIMUS MAXIMUS” TOUR PROGRAM (NEAR MINT) {$30.00}; KISS “WORLD DOMINATION” TOUR PROGRAM IN MINT CONDITION {$30.00}; ONE METAL LICENSE PLATE WITH RHINESTONE KISS LOGO, WORLD DOMINATION TOUR, 03

Concert Tonight 5-31-07
Woohoooo Getting ready for the Kenny Chesney Concert tonight in New Orleans!! Jamming out in Club Fear right now come check it out Click the pic to enter!! Come ROCK in CLUB FEAR with DJ WHODA!!!!!! 12~ 2pm est!

Nasty Freak
Welcome 2 the Nasty QUIZ. Are u daring enough 2 answer this 4 this person? if so, message them your answers!!! Rules: Answer this 4 the person who posted this and then repost it 4 your self! 1.Would u have sex with me? answer: 2.What position would u ........ me in? answer: 3.Would u suck me up/eat me out? answer: 4.Would u sex me hard? answer: 5.Would u have sex with me the first night u met me? answer: 6.Give me a naked pic? answer: 7.Would u do me in the shower? answer: 8.Would u hancuff me or tie me up 2 the bed and then do me? answer: 9.Would u use desert? answer: 10.Would u have a 3-some with me? answer: 11.What makes u want 2 have sex with me? answer: 12.Would u talk dirty 2 me while we sexed? answer: 13.Where would u do me @? answer: 14.Would u do me in front of people? answer: 15.Would u do me again and again? answer: 16.Would u do me in the rain? answer: 17.Would u mind if we did it like ........ stars?

Having Fun
Having Fun ~Tony Martinez My angel Thank you This fight This journey That we travel together Is a long and hard one With so much on the line Tension and emotions run high Thank you for taking a break with me Thank you for jumping with me into the pile of leaves For rolling around and laughing with me Sharing little things and whispering sweet nothings You say "shhhhh" but still smile The sparkle in your eyes tells me all I need to know Tomorrow is a new day The battle will rage on I love you My angel

Enough
Ok enough of the bitching if i delete you from my list is because I did my part i make sure everyone on my list gets rated and at lease 1 comment a day... i try very hard to stay on top of everyone on rating there stuff. but my list list not a parking lot if u don't show interest back then u don't need to be on my list period so get over it,either return the favor or get ta steppin!!!!!!!!

Hand Signed Items
MULTIPLE GENE, PAUL, ERIC & VINNIE {$125.00}; “LICK IT UP” ON VINYL ERIC SINGER & BRUCE KULICK; “ALIVE III” COMPACT DISC {$50.00} & “REVENGE” COMPACT DISC {$50.00} ERIC SINGER TWO 1ST ANNUAL CINCINNATI kiss EXPO VIP PASSES {$30.00} 10 ½ “ SIGNATURE SNARE DRUMHEAD SIGNED & PERSONALIZED {$30.00} TWO AUSTRALIAN “FAREWELL TOUR” WINDOW DECALS W/ERIC AS THE BEASTKING EACH HAND SIGNED IN BLACK {$40.00} 2ND ANNUAL CINCINNATI KISS EXPO/ROCK SHOW STAFF PASS {$25.00} 2ND ANNUAL CINCINNATI KISS EXPO/ROCK SHOW UN-NUMBERED VIP PASS {$25.00} GENE SIMMONS 8x10 GLOSSY AUCTION PHOTO SIGNED IN BLACK W/ ENVELOPE {$55.00 FOR PHOTO} {$5.00 FOR ENVELOPE} PETER CRISS PROMOTIONAL POSTER FROM THE AHEAD DRUMSTICK COMPANY; SIGNED BY PETER IN BLACK SHARPIE Size: 18" x 24" {$15.00} POSTER HAS BEEN DAMAGED, AS IT WAS FRAMED ON THE WALL, THE GLASS SLIPPED OUT OF FRAME AND TOOK POSTER WITH IT. THE POSTER WAS TORN IN THE LOWER RIGHT HAND CORNER OPPOSITE THE AUTOGRAPH. BEND MARKS ARE VISIBLE, AND VA

Out Of No Where
it felt so right and yet it just disappeared without a rhyme or reason. i don't know how to feel but hurt. i didn't do anything. your the only one that can make me feel like this. i just want to know the truth. you know i am forgiving and understanding. just don't leave me hanging. i love you

It's Bed Time!
Why do we always do the right thing, or why do we always feel as if we should do the right thing?? It's like you're always expected to put others before you. Don't do this caus it'll upset this person! Don't say that or it'll upset that person! Well, I'm sick of doing the right thing, I'm always thinking about how my actions will affect others, damn it, I want to be happy doing what I want to do! So, for the rest of the day I'm gonna do what I want regardless of the consequences to world peace! I'm gonna speak my mind, I'm gonna go where I like and I don't give a shit what anyone thinks, until tomorrow that is! I'm off to bed!

Do You Love Music ???
Hi all you sexie cherry tappers, thanks for stopping by and showin love! I would love to show ya the same love, so stop on by www.aftershockradio247.com and let us know what you wanna hear. We play it all and our dj's kick ass !! *~-=-ASR247DJ-=-~* Your #1 station & the BEST on the Net-All request all the Time! >URL FOR WMP OR WINAMP http://rs1.radiostreamer.com:8028/ www.aftershockradio247.com Now Hiring !! Like what you Hear? http://radio.top-site-list.com/vote65.html Also look for us in the After Shock Radio lounge right here in CT !! I DJ Live Mondays and Thursdays noon to 3pm Eastern time, stop by and give love to all our rockin djs!!

May 31,2007
Some days it's a hard knock life, while other days you can't wait to pick up your chin and grin at what comes your way. Most of the fun is in finding out what kind of day it's going to be. Chances are this one's a keeper. Well...it started a shitty day BUT it has turned around. Think I will keep this one...:)

Stuff I Wrote In High School
Deadly Night The darkness fills me. The blackness consumes me. The emptiness surrounds me. The man inside has left me. The pain is so great. The time has been so long. The one I've needed I didn't know. The ones I've known I haven't needed. The memories kill with each rememborance. The light of hope has dwindled out. The anwsers evade me, out of reach. The scent of happiness runs from me. There is nothing left of the real me. My sanity my loss I see my sanity dripping as out of a faucet I see my self in the puddle it makes my reflection looks different he laughs and points what is this I am? without my self who am I? If I am still here who is in the puddle laughing? Is it me? Or some one inside me? Why does he hurt me? Who can I be without myself? At last I am nothing! My selves My loneliness enslaves me like a maniac being tied up and because of this so I am My anger rages like a caged lion he threatens to harm but no one hears his vengefu

Missing You
Missing you ~Tony Martinez Some long days passed I didn't hear your sweet voice whispering in my ear I would whisper for you Not wanting to wake the Darkness from the stupor. Finally you called out to me Told me not to fear For you heard me We come together in a loving embrace I rub my face on yours Tears flowing freely I love you Angel I love you God I love you I kiss you deeply not wanting to let go How I have missed you I love you My angel

Stress Management
Just in case you are having a rough day, here is a > stress management technique recommended in all the > latest psychological journals. The funny thing is that > it really does work. Think about each step below. The > entire process can be successfully accomplished in > less than one minute. > > 1. Picture yourself lying on your belly on a warm rock > that hangs out over a crystal clear stream. > 2. Picture yourself with both your hands dangling in > the cool running water. > 3. Birds are sweetly singing in the cool mountain air. > 4. No one knows your secret place. > 5. You are in total seclusion from that hectic place > called the world. > 6. The soothing sound of a gentle waterfall fills the > air with a cascade of serenity. > 7. The water is so crystal clear that you can easily > make out the face of the S.O.B. you are holding > underwater. > > See? > It really does work.

Why Are Some Women So Prudish That They Are Frightened By Other Womens Tits And Embarassed By Their Own
First of all, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH SHOWING YOUR TITS??? I did not HAVE to show my tits to GET A MAN as this person states. I show my tits cause I like to, I am proud of them, God gave them to me. And if I do bring them out and flash them it gives me extra chances to play with them and rub on them which feels good so who wouldn't want to. Just be cause you "HAVE A MAN" doesn't mean that you have to be some sort of sexual prude. "MY MAN" as you say is damn proud of my body and urges me to show off what I got. He also trusts me enough to know that I'll be going home with him everynight and only him (unless we invite someone to join us...lol) It's not like I do it in the middle of wal-mart or in appropreiate times and places where children are exposed to it. SO COME ON LADIES, LETS SHOW WHAT YA GOT!!!! Laters Amanda I JUST WANTED TO LET ALL THE WOMEN KNOW OF THIS PIG !! I HAD HIM ON MY FRIENDS LIST BECAUSE I THOUGHT HE WAS NORMAL. WELL NOT TOO LONG AFTER PUTTING UP T

Come Feel Me.
Tagged by Cat to tell you the 6 spots that make me hot and by Lanie, to tell you some 10 truths/lies. I am going to combine them and give you 10 spots that make me oh so so hot ... but only 6 will be true ... You can guess which! If you touch me anywhere within the truth zone ... you own me for the night ;) 1.) My tongue ... not so much if you touch it ... but while it is touching. 2.) My brain ... mucho stimulation if you can get sexy inside my head. 3.) The very tip of my pinky ... when touched lightly. 4.) My hair ... when gently pulled. 5.) My booty ... when lightly spanked. 6.) My elbow ... when dipped in whipped cream and licked clean. 7.) My neck ... when lightly kissed or whispered upon. 8.) Inner thigh ... when gently rubbed. 9.) My collarbone ... when given tongue action. 10.) The nips of my tipples ... when stroked in a circular motion . I am not tagging anybody ... so just list your hot spot below or tak

Hey There We Are 1236 Behind And We Need Help Please
HEY GUYS I NO I HAVEN'T BEEN AROUND MUCH TO SHOW EVERYONE LOVE BUT WE NEED HELP IN HERE ASAP PLEASE THIS CONTEST IA OVER TODAY AND WE ARE 1236 BEHIND JUST CLICK THE LINK AND COME AND HAVE SOME FUN LMAO

Prisoner Released.
As I pack my bag and make my preparations, I can't help but think to myself about the fact that this is my first real vacation in years. Every other trip I've taken has either just been a long weekend camping [usually with the kids and/or dog] or the trip has been taken for some other reason [such as the trip to NC when my father was dying]. When I was a kid, family vacations were always taken to visit my father's family in North Carolina, with a brief stopover in the Smokey Mountains. We never really went anywhere else. But now, I am. I'm getting on a plane all by myself and flying to someplace I've never been before. I'm taking that leap. I'm taking that chance. It makes me feel free. I feel like a prisoner, acclimated to life behind bars, suddenly released into a world full of choices. After all of this time, that's kind of a scary feeling. 2 days.

Native American Poem
~ Forgotten Ones~ Should we forget our Ancestors and our teachings, our culture and language or feel ashamed when we tell someone we are American Indian ~ its a sad reality that this bigotry is not confined to the white world as many within our own nations feel the same way. It may because our skin is not dark enough, the color of our eyes, or because we stand out, we don't look the same among our own people. My Mother was Cherokee Tsalagsi Trible Wolf Band--Kitualah Clan Anigiduahwa ~Father was german. Am I less American Indian because my blood does not run pure. I have not nor will I ever forget my teachings, traditions, culture, and language taught to me as a young boy then through my adult life. My heart is saddened my people as I know that this bigotry continues in every Nation across the Country. Stop the hatred my people ~ We Are All Related ~ These words written by ~ White Wolf (Chuck Westfall)

Some Ppl
I have come to the conclusion, that there are some clever people in this world.....People trying to get close to those that are close to me, and believe it or not, I am not suprised....A bit confused, but not suprised.When all else fails.....FRESH TACTICS.....SO I guess I'll just sit back and see what happens....It amazes me that they can convince people of even the purest bullshit.....While I have to give you credit for being so smart, I must also tell you that I am not as stupid as you may have thought. I see what you are doing, and I know why you are doing it.....So do yourself a favor and just stop......You have caused enough damage, and quite frankly you now have your own life, which means you are out of mine.....So now that you are out of my life.......STAY OUT......Stop trying to weasel your way back, you have stated your case and convinced people of shit that simply isnt true......I do truly hope that you are happy with what you have done, but for the love of all that is holy..

Saying Goodbye
omg.. i cant believe people are so fucking petty.. do people really have to tell lies about people just to hurt someones feelings.. we are all sapose to be adults here.. but people act like they are still in kindergarden... i am soooo fuckin pissed right now i want to turn arround and go back to wyoming just so i can beat the shit outta some fuckers that dont know how to quit talkin shit. and why the hell is it that just because someone leaves that means that they arent your friend anymore..its not like i left because i wanted to get away from the people i hung out with.. i hated the town i lived in and wanted to start over.. whats wrong with that?? here i am, havent been gone but 2 days and already listing to people and their rumors and shit.. and lies..omg.. i am sooo glad im not there to listen to it..lol.. i can just turn my phone off and ignore them ignorant fuckers...

My Firegear Works
So we had a truck fire yesterday which is no big deal right well wrong. You never know what will happen at and kind of fire and yesterday proved it. I was on the attack line backing up the other firefighter when I started to feel my leg getting a lil hot. I look down and well i am standing in a nice lil patch of flameing debris from the truck. That kind of freaked me out a lil bit but the best thing is the gear did its job and worked great for me. It kind of freaks you out the first time when ya see your legs with fire about up to the knee. But it works out we got the fire out and no one hurt!

It All Starts...the First Night
on the street... ok, i was just reciently kicked out of my home (at the time because for some odd reason im always moving) and I quite litteraly was on the street for about 20 days or so...it didn't really bother me at all...idk {everythings stable at the momment...im still homeless ive found so really good people to stay with untill im sent off to job corps in OR...but thats a different story} The first night... The first night i decided not to freak out and to just take things as they came...which is pretty much how i live my life, a really good book to read is The Way Of Failure by Mariana Caplan...back to the story...I remember a mutral friend dropped me off at the gas station across from walmart on forest drive and at that moment i felt like this is really happening i guess i was second guess myself thinking that she was bluffing but on the other hand i prepared myself for the worse...so i got out of the car and said good bye. I didnt have my stuff with me because i n

I Should Have Known I Have Been Here Before
i am a whore of the mush theory. everyone i know is put into a bowl. people i think about become watered down. people i see everyday move around and get sugary. all these things arent making me stronger. they only make me wish harder that i would never been. i cry another tear yet i have no one here to catch it. laughing at me, since i asked for it. i could have stayed alone but i once again chose to feel. i dont really mind the aching so much, its pretty constant so you get accustomed to it. its the hollowness i feel. that for a moment it could be filled. its not the aching, its not the breaking, thats become so mundane. its just being that close and having it crush me once again. i know i am not gonna die tonight or even tomorrow, although all the tears i have cried i could easily drown. i didnt die from anyone in the past and i wont die over you. although you might have stuck the knife in just a lil bit deeper. is lightning wrong because it sets the ground aflame? not everyth

The First Law Of Thermodynamics
"You are my courage, as I am your conscience. You are my heart and I your compassion. We are neither of us whole alone. So long as my body lives, and yours -we are one flesh. And when my body shall cease, my soul will still be yours -I swear on my hope of heaven, I will not be parted from you. Nothing is lost, only changed." Diana Gabaldon Drums of Autumn That was what I had, with him. I will settle for no less in anyone else. I want it all.

What About 20???
Sometimes you're right; sometimes you're wrong. Either way, though, the fun is in finding out whether you're on the money or a little off the mark. Don't let one setback stop you from exploring unknown territories.

All I Want
empty eyes and burning lies offer nothing new seasons bring unkindly words souls are torn in two I think im seeing all i want seeing it from you blackened minds and crying eyes making it all true forever bleeding losing faith a life misleading internal wraith once a long time ago I felt your heart many times ive seen you smile now you fall apart i think ive seen all i want im tired of you you took my mind and took my eyes now ive become you

Does This Mean Im Going To Have Some Fun
Whee! Your love life takes off like a rocket. Who cares about steering or destination -- you should just sit back and enjoy the ride. The line between fact and fiction gets blurry. Is this your life or a romance novel?

Food!!!!
INGREDIENTS * 1 slice ham * ground black pepper to taste * 1 clove garlic, minced * 1 1/2 quarts water * 1 onion, chopped * 2 stalks celery, chopped * 1 (16 ounce) package wide egg noodles DIRECTIONS 1. In a medium saucepan, combine ham, black pepper, garlic, and 1 1/2 quarts water. Bring to a boil, reduce heat, and simmer for 15 minutes. 2. Add onion and celery; continuing cooking until vegetables are tender, about 5 minutes. 3. Add noodles, and cook until al dente. Serve hot.

Sin City Pt 1
She was walking home just as she had always done after work. Always at night and always in the wrong part of the city. She always tried to be as invisible as possible. And so far she always got home safe. But tonight was just not her night, it was raining and she had forgotten to bring an umbrella or even a rain coat. At least it was only sprinkling but she would be soaked by the time she got home. She didnt like the idea that she was working at "The Oasis" the local strip club to pay for her bills and her 3 year old son's food. But every time she tried to think of another way to make good money her head would just hurt and then her heart. So she just kept walking down the barely lit sidewalk when she had just realized she had been keeping an eye out around her. She started walking a little faster and looked around franticly. But no one was around save the sound of a rusted out car that was probably one street over. As she kept walking she kept thinking it sounded like the car was gett

Another Random Survey
1. Who were you with Friday night? Home 2. What woke you up this morning? The Ace & TJ Show on the radio 3. Where are you? my office at home 4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? I hope so, its Friday 5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today? Luis. 6. When was the last time you cried? Don't remember, probably about a week ago or so. Satuday. 7. What were you doing at 10 last night? Cooking, mojarra frita. 10. What were you doing at midnight? Sleeping 12. Ever thrown up from a roller coaster or an amusement park? almost 13. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW? I really dont want to go to the store... 14. Would you take a bullet for anyone? mi familia. 15. Where would you like to live? the beach. 16. What kind of home would you like? Right on the beach. 17. What do you want to be when you grow up? More active in la revolucion, helping la raza 18. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? working hard, with a kid hopefully 20. Who is you

S.m.
AS YOU KNOW THE WORLD OF MODELS TODAY ARE NOTHING BUT STICKS WITH WIGS... SICK! WE ARE LOOKING FOR REAL WOMEN WITH ATTITUDE AND LIVING AN ALTERATIVE WAY OF LIFE, WAY OUT OF THE NORM... GOTH, ROCK, ROCK-A-BILLY, PUNK, CYBER, ECT. ECT. FOR OTHER INFO AND OR QUESTIONS SEND US A MESSAGE HERE OR EMAIL US AT sinisterminions@gmail.com SO IF YOU THINK YOU GOT WHAT IT TAKES... BRING IT!!!!! MORBID & ZOMBIE DOLL

Be Careful
*BEWARE OF PAPER IN THE BACK WINDOW ** ** OF YOUR > VEHICLE * > * * > * ** ** NEW WAY TO DO CAR JACKINGS** > > ** (NOT A JOKE) ** > > ** Heads up everyone! Please, keep this > circulating... ** > **You walk across the parking lot, unlock your car > and get inside.** > ** You start the engine and shift into Reverse. > * *** * > *When you look into the rearview mirror to back out > of your parking space, > you notice a piece of paper stuck to the middle of > the rear window. So, you > shift into Park, unlock your doors, and jump out of > your car to remove that > paper (or whatever it is) that is obstructing your > view. ** > **When you reach the back of your car, that is when > the car jackers appear > out of nowhere, jump into your car and take off.** > **They practically mow you down as they speed off in > your car. * *And guess what, ladies? I bet your purse is > still in the car. ** > **So now the carjacker has your car, your home > address, your money,

Sticks And Stones!
I am spending less time on CT these days. It has lost its appeal to me. Anyhow my true passion is forums. I love to post and interact with people in that setting. Here you can't really do it unless you sticky something. Anyhow my new site is called Speak Your Minds and you are free to discuss whatever you want. I do have areas for crime and missing people as well as chit chat and tv stuff. Since it is a baby forum (brand new) I need help to get it rocking. We have an arcade with lotsa games like Mario and Pac Man as well as black jack and pinball! You can talk about anything you want. We are 42 members strong now so please come check us out! I really hope you come post with me...I wanna know all my friends better!! There are other things besides CT! Really and this will be fun! http://speakyourminds.net/forums ¢¾Immortal¢¾Love¢¾@ CherryTAP

Number 5
My score on The Your Type of Girl Test: The Hot Friend(33% Sexy-Cute, 48% Dark-Light, 46% Artsy-Stylish) img.catIMG { border:1px solid #000; } td.sexy { background-color:#AA0000; color:#FFFFFF; } td.cute { background-color:#FFC3C3; color:#000000; } td.dark { background-color:#AAAAAA; color:#000000; } td.grey { background-color:#CCCCCC; color:#000000; } td.light { background-color:#DDDDDD; color:#000000; } td.artsy { background-color:#5B93E7; color:#000000; } td.neither { background-color:#7DAAEF; color:#000000; } td.stylish { background-color:#AECDFD; color:#000000; } td.name { background-color:#F3F3F3; color:#000000; font-weight:bold; } Sexy, neither Dark nor Light, and neither Artsy nor Stylish, she's just the Hot Friend. You know you've got one of these. Great face, great uh... assets. This is the type of girl who is fawned on by guys constantly, never realizes it, and finally marries some jackass who's just like you... but damn it, it's not you! If you liked my tes

Completely Off Topic
Is it just me? So I'm in a line at the register at my local 7-11 type store (not actually a 7-11) and there's this lady with a couple of kiddies in front of me paying for some stuff... no biggie... then i notice what the one kid is messing around with... ***Editor's Note: I KNOW that I'm out of touch with the reality to which most people subscribe, but have I gone THAT far astray?*** ...messing around with a small machine, a toy, which spins the lollipop it is attached to in the kids mouth. WTF? No wonder kids are getting fat; hell they're apparently too lazy to lick a damned lollipop whithout High Tech assistance... auuurrrgh.... *stalks off to find a new Universe in which to live...*

Survey I Stole Lol
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey 2.0 Name: Mari aka La Guera, aka Malandrina, aka SadGirl Birthday: Feb. 1 1986 Birthplace: Far Far Away lOl Current Location: Charlotte, NC Eye Color: Hazel Hair Color: Dyed Light Brown Hair Type: Long and curly Height: 5'6 Right Handed or Left Handed:Right Your Flavor: CHicana Religion: Christian, Pentecostal Marital Status: With Luis The Shoes You Wore Today: None Yet Your Weakness: Good Music, the beach, cholos Your Fears: heights, spiders Your Perfect Pizza: veggie w/ goat cheese and supreme pan from pizza hut Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: lose weight and graduate college Your Most Overused Phrase On IM: orale, chalez Thoughts First Waking Up: what time is it?? Your Best Physical Feature: hair, eyes, nalgas Your Bedtime: 9-10 Your Most Missed Memory: chillin w/ my homies Pepsi or Coke: Diet Coke McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds. Single or Group Dates: Grou

Number 4
My score on The What type of MAN turns you on Test: Action movie star(You scored 70% masculine, 64% athletic, 63% exotic, and 56% refined!)You love a manly man and you don't have time for boys. You like someone who looks exotic and who takes care of his body and hygiene. That is a good idea in case you are trying to eat jello shooters off of his beautiful 6 pack. Someone like.....Jean-Claude Van Damme, Belgium's hottest export. But let's face it, the whole point of this was to look at a bunch of hot guys. If you liked what you saw, please rate my test! Link: The What type of MAN turns you on Test (OkCupid Free Online Dating)

In The Mind Of The Rockstar Princess
What is in my mind right about now? Well a lot of things actually. I have just graduated from a community college here in Michigan and I'm going on to a University. But thing is, I have to tread lightly bcuz of a couple of stories that I have heard from friends. But that does not matter, all it matters is that I'm doing my business and that is how I will leave it at that. Plus, the love of my life, (Christopher) is doing just fine and everytime I talked to him, I feel so much closer to him than ever before. More later as it will develop.

Number 3
My score on The Which hot girl do you deserve? Test: Amanda Bynes(You deserve...#CATEGORY#)So she's funny. You're nice, but aren't extrememly sly in your pursuits. The good thing about this is, if you manage to snag someone, she'll stick around. The bad part is: she might not be that hot. You have to be assertive to meet a hot girl; they're used to people coming up to THEM and have no ambition to do the work themselves. Link: The Which hot girl do you deserve? Test (OkCupid Free Online Dating)

Dracula, The Legend
Dracula is the best known sort of vampire. Vampires have lots of faces, behaviours, powers and names. Vampires can change their shape into a bat, rat, wolf, cat, spider or a raven. They can even transform their body into a cloud of mist. Vampires are very strong, have senses far beyond humans and can even control some type of animals. Vampires have to sleep in their coffin during the daytime. Originally the coffin was made so that animals chouldn't dig up the body. Vampires are harmed or killed by the sun. Religious symbols can harm a vampire, but there has to be a very strong faith in the symbol and it's efficiency as a dispeller of evil. Vampires have no shadow and no reflection in mirrors because they don't have a soul. When a vampire stands directly between two mirrors it would see into eternity, so could be killed. Vampires cannot cross running water, because of their reflection. Drive a wooden stake in one blow through the vampire's heart (his source of life and power). Behe

Freedom Isn't Free
a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"> I watched the flag pass by one day. It fluttered in the breeze. A young Marine saluted it, and then he stood at ease. I looked at him in uniform So young, so tall, so proud, He'd stand out in any crowd. I thought how many men like him Had fallen through the years. How many died on foreign soil? How many mothers' tears? How many pilots' planes shot down? How many died at sea? How many foxholes were soldiers' graves? No, freedom isn't free. I heard the sound of TAPS one night, When everything was still I listened to the bugler play And felt a sudden chill. I wondered just how many times That TAPS had meant "Amen," When a flag had draped a coffin Of a brother or a friend. I thought of all the children, Of the mothers and the wives, Of fathers, sons and husbands With interrupted lives. I thought about a graveyard At the bottom of the sea Of unmarked

What Dragon Are You?
your dragon self (stunning pics and detailed results) You Are A Fairie Dragon, you live in trees and you are mischievous and malicious and like to pull pranks on everybody. You can become invisible and you can breath a gas that gets your enemy totally uniterested in the fight. You attack only to protect your territory. You have telepathic abilities and you can communicate with other forest animals.stone: amethystquote: "Tragedy is when I cut my finger. Comedy is when you walk into an open sewer and die." from Mel Brooks you control:humor Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Im Bored In School
So0o this is my first blog on this site. im so bored im jus chillen in school bored outta my mind and bout to go crazyyyyy on my friend nick because he is such a backstabber!!!!!!!!!!!! well uh yea im out cus i dnt want to get in trouble pccccc show me love=]

Man And Woman Understand Love Different.
Keep it simple. Coming up with elaborate plans to say I love you" may take the focus away from the message. As grand as it sounds to have a hot air balloon descend from the sky, spilling out the words in sparkling confetti over both of your heads, it's more effective to simply say the words and mean them. Say it often. . . . Expressing love can mean different things to different people. When a woman says, I love you," she is saying, I deeply care for you and am glad to be a part of your life." A man's expression probably means, I feel intensely romantic and want to be with you forever." Understanding this difference helps women to understand why men might not express their love as often, thinking it might diminish his meaning. A man, on the other hand, needs to understand a woman's emotional need to be reassured of his love frequently. Understand your partner's needs and use expressions that h

This Is A Warning To All My Friends, Especially The Ladies!!!
ItalianMeow@ CherryTAP AVOID HIM AT ALL COSTS.. DONT FALL FOR HIM BEING CUTE. AND DEFITNITELY DO NOT GIVE HIM YOUR YAHOO ADDRESS.. THIS LIL MAGGOT HACKED THE EVER LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME AND IS THE REASON I WILL NO LONGER GIVE ANY NEW FRIENDS ON HERE MY PRIVATE IM ADDY'S ANYMORE. HE IS VERY BORED, ALL HE WANTS TO DO IS SEE YOU NAKED ON CAM AND IF YOU REFUSE HIM HE STARTS GETTING INTO YOUR SHIT AND WILL INFILTRATE YOUR COMPUTER.. HE HAS GOOD SPYWARE HE MANAGES TO SLIP IN. >I HAD TO COMPLETELY WIPE MY HARDDRIVE CLEAN AND LOST LOTS OF GOOD STUFF BECAUSE I DIDNT TRUST THE FILES. NONE OF THE ANTI-SPYWARE WAS GOOD ENOUGH TO CLEAN HIM OUT COMPLETELY.. THAT WAS MY ONLY OPTION.. THIS IS MY PUBLIC MESSAGE FOR THE DAY.. PASS IT ON, WARN THE LADIES ABOUT HIM. HE'S A PSYCHO! >THANKS, AND BE SURE TO PASS THIS ON!! >CINALISH P.S. I DID POST THIS IN BULLETINS IF YOU CAN PLEASE RECIRCULATE IT, I WOULD APPRECIATE IT.. I'D HATE TO SEE IT HAPPEN TO ANYONE ELSE. I AM SHOCKED TO SEE HIM STILL HERE.

The History Of Dracula
The original Dracula is related to Vlad Dracul (1431 - 1476), beter known through history as Vlad Tepes (read Tsepesh). Vlad has ruled Wallachia (Tara Româneascã, now southern Romania) between 1456 and 1476. On the 8th of February 1431 emperor Sigismund of Luxemburg conceded the rulership in Wallachia to the father of Vlad (called also Vlad), who has been living at his court, and he gave him a necklace and a golden medalion with a dragon engraved on it, the badge of the knights of the Order. The Order of the Dragon was an order formed by the Holy Roman emperor Sigismund for the purpose of defeating the ottomans (the old name for the Turks). Vlad spent his childhood in Sighisoara, Transylvania (now central and northern Romania) with his family, waiting for his coronation. He's father used the emblem for his first two monetary emissions: the symbol of the dragon. He also went by the name "Dracul". In old Romanian dracul means the dragon or the devil (in the contemporary Romanian

Number 2
My score on The Lover Style Profile Test: The Liberated Lover(54% partner focus, 71% aggressiveness, 70% adventurousness)Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that: You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own. This places you in the Lover Style of: The Liberated Lover. The Liberated Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and forms the kind of free-thinking, sexually-exciting, self-confident lover that society once condemned but that a liberal-mind cherishes and exults. The Liberated Lover is a treasure to find, though it can sometimes be difficult to do so because they are often already engaged in relationships or are in high-demand if "in the market." In terms of physical love, the Liberated Lover is possibly the most thrilling and demanding

True Story's
Some people tend to cover up the truth when they show up in public with a black eye, broken arm or using crutches, and then try to explain what happened. Elaborate stories are concocted, but nearly every time the truth comes out, sometimes quite soon, sometimes years later. TRUE STORY #1: There was this young couple who had a terrific argument one morning before leaving for work. The wife couldn't get her dress zipped up in back, so she backed up to her husband and motioned for him to zip up her zipper. "I'll show you zipping", he thought, and briskly whipped it up and down the slide till it broke. He had to cut her out of her favorite dress, which didn't make her happier with him. They went their separate ways to work, both boiling mad at each other. The wife did a slow burn all day. When she got home that evening, she walked through the garage and saw her husband under the car fixing something, with only his legs sticking out. She decided her moment of REVENGE had come. She

The Downfalls Of Vodka! Lol
my sister and I were invited to a wedding ceremony and then reception at night. It was a gr8 day and night and we both had too much to drink(9 hours of voddy!).When it was time to leave i dragged her off the dance floor and she said'you got my bag?' i said i had been lookin after it all night.But as we were getting to the taxi I noticed she was barefoot so I nipped back quick to get her footwear.When we got home she said 'did you get my boots?' 'Boots?' I said you had shoes on and shows her these brand new bought for a wedding black high heels!! No she said I had boots on and the heels were all ruined! so apologies to the poor barefoot lady that had aquired some tatty boots and lost her shoes!! the perils of alcohol!! on the upside they were the same shoe size and my sisters new black high heels fit her lovely!!!! lololol

Top Ten Signs You're A Fundamentalist Christian...
(From Blackrose's MySpace Blog)Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian...10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of yours.9 - You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from other life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt.8 - You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Triune God.7 - Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" attributed to Allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in "Exodus" and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in "Joshua" including women, children, and trees!6 - You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got kil

For The Real Friends I Have On Cherrytap!!!
Ok for starters- i am not going to delete this one- but there are some who beg to differ-- but-- I see no need in saying to hell with the ones i know have shyt on me and have shyt on real good people on here.What pisses me off is the fact that i have made some great friends here and have been through some shyt with alot of fake - phony assed so called wanna be friends that only use you- yes this is a site for people to see how many rates and comments you can get to level up and become a "BIG WIG" but you know-- lol-- how in the hell do you think that the people under you feel? when they come to your page and rate you your lousy assed ten or 11 if they can afford it- then a day later they go back to leave a comment and OOOOPS--- they cant because you have taken them off your list- or the men on this site--- not all of them but a alot of them-- the first thing they ask is--- "Do you have a web cam?" or Yahoo? or msn?ect. Now you that know me - know Im gonna speak my mind- reguardless- i

Drácula - Vlad Tepes History
Prince Vlad, or as he was called even in his own time, Dracula (which means "Son of the Dragon") tops the list of Romania's many, many Christian crusaders who, in the transition years between the Middle Ages and the Renaissance, fought to keep the Muslim-faithed Ottoman Turks out of their country. Odd that a name known for stirring nightmares actually belonged to a crusader of a religious cause! Still, Dracula was not a saint. He ruled his military kingdom of Wallachia – southern Romania – with a heavy and blood-soaked fist. To not only the Turks but also to many of his own countrymen he was Vlad The Impaler, Vlad Die Tepes (pronounced Tee-pish). Determined not to be overtaken by the intrigue of an intriguing political underhandedness, in a world in which princes fell daily to smiling, hypocritical "allies," paranoia among the aristocracy was, and probably needed to be, utmost in a sovereign's disposition. Dracula built a defense around him that dared not open kindness nor trust

From: Al
I like you because of who you are to me... A true friend . And if I don't get this back I'll take the hint Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you. Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:00 PM tomorrow. It could be anywhere -- AOL, Yahoo, outside of school, anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Please send to 5 people in 5 minutes . Remember: "A good friend will come bail you out of jail.... But a true friend will be sitting next to you saying WE screwed up, but we had fun! " Proud to be your Friend! Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence, and don't skip ahead . I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes. I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for. I've learned..that money doesn't buy class. I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

From: Buster
Yes people I do save these, I may not ever hit ya back with them cuz they take up alot of room. Doesn't mean you all aren't in my thoughts every minute of every day. IF U WERE A TEAR IN MY EYE I'D NEVER CRY CAUSE I WOULDN'T WANT 2 LOOSE U ! SEND 2 EVERYONE U LOVE OR CARE FOR as a friend IF U GET IT BACK, THOSE R UR TRUE FRIENDS!!! I love you i love you I love you I love you ------I love you. ------I love you. ------I love you. I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you ---I love you I love you. --I love you----I love you.. -I love you------I love you.. I love you--------I love you -I love you------I love you.. --I love you----I love you.. ---I love you I love you. I love you----------I love you -I love you---------I love you --I love you------I love you ---I love you-----I love you ---I love you----I love you -----I love you I love you

From: Green Eyed Beauty
A chocolate said to a lollipop, you are damn sweet. And the lollipop said : Not as sweet as the person reading this! Ur smile makes me smile... ur talks make me glad.. But ur absence makes me sad... Be always with me my dear friend!!! send this 2 all ur friends in ur list n also back 2 me if i am ur friend.... If u get more than 7 u r lovable" ^H E , -^_^-, .. _, .-'^ R S , .-^_______..| _.. H E , .-^____________k __..,Y.-^________________i ________________________ss ________________________kis _______________________skiss _______________________kissk ______________________isskiss ____________________kisskisskis __________________skisskisskisski ________________sskisskisskisskissk ______________isskisskisskisskisskiss ____________kisskisskisskisskisskisskis _________skisskisskisskisskisskisskisskiss _______kisskisskisskisskisskisskisskisskissk ______isskisskisskisskisskisskisskisskisskiss ______kisskisskisskisskisskisskisskisskisskis _______skisskisskisskisskisskis

A Poem Titled : ~is What~
~Is What~ Die is what goes through my mind, Going in all direction trying to unwind, Lonliness is what fills my heart, My soul being torn apart, Love is what I long for, From the one I most adore, Emptiness is what I feel, Turning like spokes of a wheel, Happiness is what I need to see, Joy to fill up the hole in me, Sadness is what I have day in and day out, It hurts so much I want to shout, Depression is what they call it, Death is what I have to take, But no matter how you look at it, Sooner or later that'll be my fate, Oh,why do I have to wait, For a zero is what my life I rate, Written By : ~CH3RR13L10US~

This Is A Ribbon For Soldiers Fighting In Iraq . Pass It On To Everyone And Pray.
I HOPE I DO NOT HEAR OF ANYONE BREAKING THIS ONE OR SEE DELETED This is a ribbon for soldiers fighting in Iraq . Pass it on to everyone and pray. This is a ribbon for soldiers fighting in Iraq . Pass it on to everyone and pray. SLEEP LAST NIGHT? Bed a little lumpy... Toss and turn any... Wish the heat was higher... Maybe the a/c wasn't on... Had to go to the john.. Need a drink of water... ? ? ? Scroll down * * * * * * * Yes.. It is like that! Count your blessings, pray for them, Talk to your Creator and the next time when... the other car cuts you off and you must hit the brakes, or you have to p ark a little further from Walmart than you want to be, or you're served slightly warm food at the restaurant, or you're sitting and cursing the traffic in front of you, or the shower runs out of hot water, Think of them... Protecting your freedom! DO NOT DEL

I Was Reminded
as we lay there quite I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you your smile, and the way it teased at me seductively your laugh, and the way it tempted me your eyes, and the way they seem to hypnotize me as we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons I love you your smile, and the way it brings such life into me your laugh, and the way it makes everything okay your eyes, and the way they seem to read my thoughts as we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you your smile, and the way it confuses me your laugh, and the way it seems to mock me youe eyes, and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

Surrender
lay your head back lover, relax your troubled mind, let me fill your world with peace, leave the past behind. fill the night with pleasure, sweet, erotic bliss, movement of both places and time, suspended with a kiss. lift your hear to soar above, gaze into my eyes, the single sound to reach our ears, love's releasing sighs. entwined as one, a single cord, we'll surrender in the night, staying here forever, in the moon's cressing light.

A Poem Titled : ~my Mind,my Heart~
~My Mind,My Heart~ Tears fall from my eyes, Hurt comes from my soul, No one hears my cries, Inside is the scars of a life untold, Love lives,then it dies, Everything has changed, So many lies, My life rearranged, The day has turned into night, The night into day, Everything's wrong,nothing's right, I wish the pain would go away, If not,I shall give up my life today, My Mind would have nothing to think about, Then the memories would fade away, My Heart would have no doubt, I'll never again wonder why, I feel the way I do, I always sit here and cry, My Mind can't seem to forget, The hurt that is inside of me, My Heart will always have regret, For the person I use to be, Written By : ~CH3RR13L10US~(I got an award on my wall anlong with several others from poetry.com for this,this one was the first one I submitted).

More
More! I see myself holding you close to me, Squeezing your body tight. But for all I see as I daydream- I know I'll get tenfold tonight. Running my palms across your breast, As you tremble and bite your lip. Feeling your hands upon my chest, The softness of each fingertip. Tasting your neck so sweet, so soft, And slowly lowering my kiss. Over pert nipples, across your navel, And finally into pure bliss. Looking upon your face from below- As you tilt back your head. Feeling your fountains begin to flow- As you ease back on the bed. Your 'innocent little devil' look- Crying insatiably with the sensation. Lip to lip lapping up every drip- From the well of your creation. The way you pull me up by the hair- To the heat of your mouth, on fire. No other thoughts, no other cares, Just the quenching of mad desire. Riding the tide of passion, Pushing my love into you. On the waves of your emotion- In slow motion, so sweet and true. Pulse pounding

• Lessons For Life: A Must Read •
• lessons for life: a must read • I received these in an email today, and it really helped me put a lot of things in perspective... hopefully they will provide as much light for you as they did for me.... 1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady. During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello."

The Wooden Bowl
I guarantee you will remember the tale of the Wooden Bowl tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now. A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year old grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered. The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess. "We must do something about father," said the son. "I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor." So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate a lone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl! When the family glanced in Grandfather's direction, sometime he h

Rains Embrace
Rain's Embrace Cold, quite rain gently falling Yet the dampness we don't feel; For our bodies are absorbed in each other Hot as the heat from hell. I lead you slowly into the woods Place a quilt on the ground; The noise of nature is all around us Yet the beating of our hearts is the only sound. Your kiss is gentle, yet demanding My body arches to feel The touch of your hand, the feel of you Without resistance to you, I yield. You taste the essence of my body You bring me more pleasure than I've ever known I give myself to you completely The quietness is disturbed by our groans. You rise above me with a sudden urgency Our needs are great, we both have found; Our hearts pounding with anticipation We become one, lying there on the ground. Rain has never been more beautiful As we lie together in each other's embrace; The taste of you, the feel of nature A beautiful moment- in my memory forever encased.

• Learning •
• learning • After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean possession and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your roads today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.... so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn, and you learn and after every goodbye, you learn...

*** New Contests ***
ok working out the bugs & problems involved with NSFW pictures in first contest considerin doing upcoming one for: BEST HAIR SEXY SMILE PRETTY EYES BIGGEST SPORTS FAN BEST PET any other suggestions or ideas for contest or prize giveaways please leave comment here Thanks CHUCK

“well Behaved Women Never Made History”
“well behaved women never made history” I would like to comment on what I think is a profound misconception of the intended meaning of the phrase "well behaved women never made history". I've been seeing it quite frequently, especially as captions of pictures with breasts hanging out. I am getting the impression that it is being misinterpreted as "It's ok to act in a promiscuous manner, dress provocatively, be as wild and carefree about responsibilities as possible … for according to this quote, that is the only way to affirm my self worth in this world" Please allow me to explain what I believe the quote was originally intended to mean. Throughout history, women were shunned, condemned, ignored, trivialized and mocked because of their supposed inferiority to men. They were told what to do, when to do it, how much of an education they could pursue, whom they were to wed, etc. They had no freedom in society nor any opportunities to express their intellectual a

Friendships
Giving someone your friendship is the most precious gift you can give, except for your heart. Friends are something you can never put a price to.. they are worth more than any possession you may have. I worry when I lose one. I never give up easily.. and fight to keep it. But sometimes people just decide they don't want/need you anymore. Not much you can do about that. Sometimes though I wonder if I should stop worrying about what friends I don't have and just be happy with the ones I do have.

May 29, 2007
SITTING HERE WITH THE DARK BLUE SKY. THINKING ABOUT WHAT I WANT IN MY LIFE. KNOWING THERE IS SOMETHING OUT THERE FOR ME. KNOWING THAT I CAN HAVE ANYTHING IN THE WORLD, ALL I HAVE TO DO IS GET ON THE RIGHT ROAD FOR IT! YOU SEE I HAVE BEEN THIS FRAIL LITTLE GIRL FOR FAR TOO LONG! TIME TO BE BOLD AND BREAK FREE FROM MY CHAINS OF FEAR! I KNOW I CAN DO IT,IT'S JUST A MATTER OF TIME ON DOING IT! THE THINGS THAT USE TO MATTER DON'T SEEM TO REALLY MATTER ANY MORE! I KNOW I'M A BETTER PERSON THAN WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME, SO FUCK THEM AND THEIR THOUGHTS! I'M A 34 YEAR OLD WOMAN, NOT A 18 YEAR OLD TEENAGER! TIME TO TAKE ON THE RESPONSIBILITIES OF A WOMAN AND GIVE UP THAT CHILDHOOD LIFE! TIME TO WAKE UP AND SMELL THE DAMN ROSES AND TAKE ON A NEW LIFE. WILL IT BE HARD THOUGH? FUCK YES, BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I CAN'T DO IT! BECAUSE I AM A STRONG PERSON WITH SOME DREAMS THAT ONLY I CAN MAKE A REALITY! CAN I DO IT? FUCK YES, BECAUSE I AM ME! SO THEREFORE IT IS TIME TO TAKE ON THE WO

Becca Sad Sad
becca sad sad.. becca lost a friend.. he's the friend i care most..but why he changed bcoz of a word? just because u bad mood so u can give up our friendship.. u really make me sad,,!! i just can't blif that u juz leaved us.. i feel like wanna bang ur head..and make u wake.. how sad..

Something To Think About...
I am thankful.... For the spouse who snores all night, because they are at home, asleep with me and not with someone else. For the teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes, because that means she is at home & not on the streets. For the taxes that I pay, because it means that I am employed. For the mess to clean after a party, because it means that friends have surrounded me. For the clothes that fit a little too snug, because it means I have enough to eat. For my shadow that watches me work, because it means I am out in the sunshine. For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning, because it means I have a home. For all the complaining I hear about the government, because it means that we have freedom of speech. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot, because it means I am capable of walking and that have been blessed with transportation. For the noise I have to bear from my neighbors, because it means that I c

Tammy, Here's Your Forecast For June 4th - June 10th
Last Quarter Moon, June 8, 7:44 AM EST Dear Tammy, One of the reasons I have made astrology my life's work is that it allows me to help clients gain new understandings about the challenges life puts before us. By looking at a client's natal chart, I can easily see what is causing tension, and I can also see if more positive planetary aspects lie ahead. I have found time and time again that challenging astrological periods are often accompanied by an unexpected positive planetary aspect. Let me give you an example. Not too long ago, a client of mine whom I'll call Chloe was concerned about her job. Her company's new management was out to "streamline" their work force and Chloe knew she was in a vulnerable position. Her chart showed me that indeed a job change was in the stars, but it also revealed a positive development ahead. I knew Chloe had been miserable and stagnant in her position for a while, so we explored all the possible alterna

Song
Everytime I close my eyes Babe, Its you I see. Dont you know what you mean to me. Everything i hear and see, Reminds me of you. Even the man in the moon. We could have so much, If only you took the time to see. No i cant see the future but girl if i could, it would filled with you.

Morning
not quite awake here.. but wanted to say hi. David's socer season ended last night. They tied. Kids all looked tired after playing last night and then last night it was still around 90 when the game started. Glad it wasn't me running around out there. Got lots of worktodo today. But I think I better mow this morning before itgets too hot and thunderstorns hit later. I can always work this evening. Ya know a friend really put a smile on my face yesterday. Its someone I hadn't really talked to much lately so I wasn't expecting what she said. She said she was glad I didn't leave CT(that we needed some normal ones here..lol). I know others have said it to me.. but I just wasn't expecting it from this friend. So it made my day. :) Hope everyone has a great day!

Busy, Busy, Busy!
Just a brief note! I will respond to all the lovely comments/rates/etc. as soon as I can, lol. This has been a crazy week - a short one, with incredibly long days! Lots of new clients, returning old clients, extra belly dancing practices (including tonight, I might add!!), and lots of energy being sent out and about! I am working hard to stay grounded and focused, as well as calm, lol! My niece Sarah is taking me out on Friday night for my birthday (actually on Sunday!), so I may spend Friday night at her house - just to be safe, lmao! Wish I weren't going into my weekend quite so tired to start! Have a wonderful Thursday, everyone! Much love and warm hugs to one and all! Blessings for everyone, all my friends all over the world! You mean a great deal to me and are definitely loved, lol. Later! Muah!

New Contest
My First Contest!! NEW CONTEST!!! SURPRISE END DATE! Most comments wins! Rates = 10 comments Would like to start this contest on Monday June 4’2007 – end date well that is thing you don’t know it’s a surprise. Self commenting & comment bombing is allowed. NO down rating others or rude comments please or this will be an automatic discharge from the contest. So bomb, bomb!! Everyone will be given at least 24hrs notice prior to contest closing! 1st Place - 3 day blast 2nd Place - 1 day blast 3rd Place - Big pimping gift All entrants will receive a trophy. Need at least 15 contestants to start contest, please private message me with the link to your picture No NSFW pictures. I ask that you please Fan, rate, add me before contest begins. (All be returned) Your contest host “Ladygray” ~*♥Ladygray♥*~CT Wife to Mr.Reapher~*Official Fallouts Slammer*@ CherryTAP

Members Needed
friend request for the CT.L.R.L.Society of Wolves Hows it Going ,I'm Jeff Founder of a Bran new Family here on the CT. Seeking Loyal new members,to be part of the L.R.L.~The Objective of this Family is to Win Contests.The Wolf is out Totem,A Wolf Morph comes with membership.The Wolf is Strength,Unity + Loyalty.Either just send this back as a regular friend.Or send this back a member of my Family.Add L.R.L.~Society of Wolves to your nic.An I'll be by to retrieve your Code an add it to the Family blog,an a Picture for your Morph.Hope to see u.Many Hugs. just click here friend request for the CT.L.R.L.Society of Wolves Lord~Wolf~L.R.L.~Society of Wolves*Roadhouse~Riders~*Club*@ CherryTAP

Do You Have A Heart Of Gold?
Do You Have a Heart of Gold? (Beautiful Anime Art) You Have a Heart of Gold!You are warm, kind, and caring and focus on being the best person you can be. You often go out of your way to help friends. You have a sunny, positive outlook on life and bring joy to others.Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Vampire - Poem
Unfurled Hunger By Crimson Angel Dangerous levels, Of unbridled lust. The hunger surging, Becoming a must. Pain and anger, Boiling within. Animal urges, Unmistakeable kin. Painful wails, Tears that never show. Binded by bloodlines, A soul that begins to glow. Neverending thirst, Relief soon to come. Beauty lies close to home, Guilt finally numb.

Vampires - Silencing The Lambs
Harken stranger to the silent streets, Where the essence of fear brightly burns, Behind closed doors frightened hearts beat, For this be the night the dark bard returns. Wonder ye if ye will, How came this rampant fear, Aye, as I wait for mine own heart to still, Might I grab for a moment a stranger's ear? Listen close to this tale of woe, For the danger lies not in the night, Even as mine eyes rove to and fro, My soul slips with fright. Twas once a darkening eve long since gone, As the market prepared to close. A man, tall of stature and speech of song, Wandered in from the road. Tattered cloak blowing in the breeze, His face, handsome and lean. His dark prose drew the village with ease, As he spoke of the horrors he'd seen. Yea, tis truth I speak with these lips of mine, As memories of that night invade, Horrible losses adding to the legends of time, My remaining years alone and afraid. I shall never forget the spell he wove, His magic dark and binding,

Help Me
id love for someone to mail me a little bit on how the hell this site works lol... are there chat rooms? or like a search for local people? etc. Im also looking for new friends to help me with this contest- think you can help? -Christina if you can JOIN the site- i get ALOT more votes for that- its only 2 seconds to join!! USE RECRUIT CODE 115 AND STATE NJ ZIP CODE 07728

Leaving...
I wasn't going to leave Tucson for another week or so, but I'm getting too lonely and I miss hiking in my secret spot. Therefore, I am getting on a bus Friday, and taking the 42 hour trip back to Minnesota. I will be waiting for Eric to come on the 20th, and then we go to Waseca to get our skydiving licenses. This will take us a month. Then we fly to the Bahamas for 3 months. After that we go to Lima, Peru to start our trek across South America. I'm rather sick of all this waiting. I just want things to happen. By the time I get back to Minnesota, I'll have been to 15 states in 4 months. I'm kinda sick of the U.S... Have you ever been so lonely you hurt? And you get sick and want to cry? That's kinda how I am right now. I haven't been able to take any recent shoots and I'm rather disappointed. I would have been working with some very talented photographers. It's a shame really. But for now my vanity will have to be in check. I won't have internet for quite awhile. In the coming week

I Really Do Give Up With This Place
just getting me site rehosted elswhere and looking at webcam options to see how that works, anyway wont be here much as it just does me head in now, I did quite used to like this place at one time, but the novelty wore off really quick

See No Problems Have No Pleblems
If you don't want to be burdened with problems, then don't create them. Instead, use the exact same circumstances to create positive possibilities. Whether or not something is a problem depends on the way you respond to it. As such, you can choose a life filled with problems or a life that's free of them. Certainly there are difficult and challenging situations that come your way on a regular basis. But is there anything to be gained by turning them into problems? Choose instead to transform those difficulties and challenges into opportunities. Know that there is always a realistic and workable way, and commit yourself to finding it. Rather than being weighed down by problems, you can be energized by possibilities. Instead of fighting against what you don't want, you can be working toward what you most sincerely desire. Free yourself from problems by never creating them in the first place. Focus your energy on the positive possibilities and bring the best of them to life.

Runaway Soldier
A soldier was running down the road, and came to a fork in the road, where he saw a nun standing there. Out of breath he asked, "Please Sister, may I hide under your skirt for a few minutes? I'll explain WHY later." The nun agreed. Just a moment later, two Military Police came running along and asked, "Sister, have you seen a soldier running by here??" The nun replied, "He went that way." After the MP's disappeared, the soldier crawled out from under her skirt and said, "I can't thank you enough Sister. You see, I don't want to go to Iraq." The nun said, "I think I can fully understand your fear." The soldier added, "I hope you don't think I'm rude or impertinent, but you have a great pair of legs!" The nun replied, "If you had looked a little higher, you would have seen a great pair of balls. I don't want to go to Iraq either!"

Hmmmmmm
Thursday, 31 May, 2007 Cancer (21 Jun - 22 Jul) You can feel the Full Moon in everything you do today as the waters of your emotions overflow their old containers. Your dreams are so big now that they can spill into your waking life. Listen carefully to what's being said between the words that are spoken. Let your imagination come alive, but don't neglect your chores; get ready to make the most of the changing landscape by finishing your work as quickly as possible.

31 May 07 Kay Punished
Well if you read the previous blog you saw that Kay had swore, and that punishment was being given. Yesterday once all employees were gone Kay came to me and requested that she receive a thorough spanking to help correct her behavior, She was nude when she came to my office, knelt down, and requested her disciplining. I took her over my desk and proceeded to warm her ass up for 30 minutes with my hand, not hard swats but ones to get her ready. After the hand spanking I inquired why she felt she needed to be disciplined, she responded that her language was not proper for a lady and that she was testing me to see if I would follow through, I then informed her to get the item which was going to be used to punish her bare ass. We have many items, strap, crop, paddles, brush, jonny loop, and the new switch she had made. Kay got the jonny loop and the new switch, and handed them to me with down cast eyes. I started with the loop, which is very quiet but stings the ass fast causing li

Thursday Links: Opie And Anthony Live, Bill Burr, New O&a Videos Online, New Rss Feeds, Traveling Virus Tickets, New Video Hotness
Umm...who is this 'SharkyGirl_70' person in our Paltalk Room??? She's not moving or sleeping REALLY heavy with her head cocked to one side. Anyone have her contact info??? Welcome friends! Welcome to a lovely ThursDEE and another fine edition of the Opie and Anthony Radio POgram, which is broadcasting LIVE (on terrestrial stations) for your enjoyment. Bill Burr is filling in for Jim Norton, who is going to be filming his hour-long HBO special this weekend in Washington, DC. If you want to SEE any of us asswipes LIVE, in-studio, picking our noses and throwing boogers at E ROCK, you should turn on your Paltalk and go to 'Opie and Anthony LIVE'. You will also be pleased to see several young ladies, poised in front of their webcams, topless and/or nude, sleeping, smoking, showering, screwing, or otherwise. Naked chicks in the morning RULE. RSS FEEDS ARE WORKING: Thanks to our own FoundryMusicJeff, we finally have RSS FEEDS available for some of you more tech-savvy webbies. We're s

The Italian Tomato Garden
An old man lives in the country, alone. He wanted to dig his tomato garden, but it was very hard work as the ground was hard. His only son, Vincent, who was used to help him was in prison. Te old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament. Gets kinda funni from here. hehe Dear Vincent, Im feeling pretty badly, cause it looks like I wont be able to plant my tomato garden this year. Im getting to old to be digging up the tomato plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over. I know you would be happy to dig up the plot for me. Love Dad A few days later he received a letter form his son. Dear Dad, Dont dig up the garden. Thats where i buried the bodies. Love Vinnie At 4 am, police and F.B.I. agents dug up the whole area, not finding any bodies, they appologized to the old man and left. That same day the old man received a letter from his son. Dear Dad, Go ahead and plant those tomatoes now, That was the best I could do

Forgiveness....
To forgive Is not to forget. To forgive Is really to remember That nobody is perfect That each of us stumbles When we want so much to stay upright That each of us says things We wish we had never said That we can all forget that love Is more important than being right. To forgive Is really to remember That we are so much more Than our mistakes That we are often more kind and caring That accepting another's flaws Can help us accept our own. To forgive Is to remember That the odds are pretty good that We might soon need to be forgiven ourselves. That life sometimes gives us more Than we can handle gracefully. To forgive Is to remember That we have room in our hearts to Begin again And again, And again. ~~ Author Unknown ~~

12 Steps To A Great Relationship
1. AFFECTION ~~ the strongest weapon in the arsenal. 2. COMMUNICATION ~~ listen, think and speak, Please, in that order! 3. PHYSICAL CONNECTION ~~ touch, embrace, hold for no reason. (pda~~~public display of affection) let everyone know of your feelings. 4. ACCEPTABILITY ~~ learn to accept unconditionally. 5. SENSITIVITY ~~ don`t think it`s weak to show emotion. 6. CREATIVITY ~~ create new and different ways to show affection. 7. RESPECT ~~ you`ve got to give to get, give openly. 8. SPONTANEITY ~~ leave everything to chance, open to all possibilities. 9. COMPROMISE ~~ be open to change. 10. RESPONSIVE ~~ act on true feelings with thought. 11. COMPASSION~~ understanding and feeling all emotions. 12. THE BASIC FOUNDATION FOR A GOOD RELATIONSHIP LOYALITY, FIDELITY, TRUST, AND HONESTY. Where do u fall short... People be honest not every one has the 12 step down!!!

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Deceitful Lover
There was a time I saw you pure; I thought you were the one. No longer, do I feel so sure, Not after what you've done. I gave to you my very heart, My loyalty, my trust... Then watched you rip my soul apart With selfish, greedy lust. Once, I thought you felt for me, But I was merely used. You Brought me much atrocity; I hope you were amused You called it "love" and I believed, But now I see the lie. No longer, will I be deceived. No longer, will I cry. So leave me to my emptiness; It's all I've ever known. I'll never feel a lover's bliss Instead, I'll die alone. My whole life has begun to break. I'm dying from within. Loving you was my mistake. I'll never trust again

I Sure Hope This Is Accurate!
Follow your hunch, even (especially) if it takes you off the beaten track. You may not end up where you thought you would, but in actuality, you could land somewhere even better -- and you'll learn a few things along the way.

Tangled
Where’s the sun?…I need some light, I have no strength to win this fight, My petals wilt with each new day, Bruised and beaten, here I lay, My colour fades, my stem is weak, Air and sunshine I do seek, I feel cold, alone and tangled, Can’t move, as u slowly strangle, Web so thick, it swallows me whole, Years of sin have taken their toll. I’ve lost my eyes, can’t see my way, I’m sure my soul will soon decay, Feet of lead, I barely move, I’m losing spark, where is my groove? U stole my life, my happiness, My dirty deeds I must confess, To free myself from all I hold, And warm me from this bitter cold, My lips are sealed, my hands are bound, Free me from this underground, I’ll fade away, just let me leave, Sick of all the lies u weave, Just let me find some warming light, Don’t want the darkness of the night, Where are my wings, I need to fly, Or I will surely fall and die. Ellie

I Found This While Going Through My Email
Before you leave or look away...I encourage you to read this whole thing. ~~~ A time comes in your life when you finally get it ... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out ENOUGH!!! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change...or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that you are neither Prince Charming or Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you...and in the process a sense of serenity is born of ac ceptance

Everything I Do ,i Do It For You (honey)
(Everything I Do) I Do It For You lyrics Look into my eyes - you will see What you mean to me Search your heart - search your soul And when you find me there you'll search no more Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for You know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you Look into my heart - you will find There's nothin' there to hide Take me as I am - take my life I would give it all I would sacrifice Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for I can't help it there's nothin' I want more Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you There's no love - like your love And no other - could give more love There's nowhere - unless you're there All the time - all the way Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for I can't help it there's nothin' I want more I would fight for you - I'd lie for you Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you

Omg!!!
The Ace of Swords card suggests that you should stand up for yourself. Stick to the point, make yourself clear and compare your options objectively before answering or committing to take the next logical step. Understand or identify the cause. You get what you want by trusting your own personal convictions and inner voice. A strategy of asserting your independence, directing the questioning or getting right to the point could make you seem impersonal, indifferent or even bossy, especially if communications are related to romance or happen via cell phone or online. Sometimes you have to cut through the bull while protecting your privacy before you can establish trust or let down your guard. This is only reasonable. Keep your wits about you.

Final Day Of My 1st Ct Contest
OK THE TIME IS HERE... DAY 7 OF THE SEXIEST DAD CONTEST WE STILL HAVE 1ST BY A FEW 1000 BUT, BEINGS THAT US AND SHADYS SUP POSSE HAVE BOTH AVERAGED 10,000 COMMENTS A DAY FOR THE LAST 6 DAYS THATS NOT ENOUGH TO JUST SAY ITS IN THE BAG... WE NEED TO TAKE THIS LAST DAY 1 STEP FURTHER AND ADD A FEW MORE INSURANCE COMMENTS!!! I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO ADD THAT SHADY'S SUP HAS MADE THIS A VERY FUN CONTEST WIN OR LOSE YOU GUYS ARE TOUGH... IM VERY PLEASED TO SAY MY 1ST CT CONTEST IS A GOOD 1 AND THE CONFEDERATES RAWK LOVE U GUYS!!! NOW LETS TAKE THIS 1 HOME AFTER ALL THAT WOULD MAKE A GREAT FATHERS DAY, B-DAY, AND NOT TO MENTION MAKING MY 1ST CONTEST THAT MUCH BETTER!!! THANKS SO MUCH, ~ERIC

Libra - May 31st.2007
Is someone accusing you (of all things) of being too nice? Is that even possible? Okay, you want to dismiss this, but sit down and think about it. Could it be that there's a kernel of truth in this person's supposition? hmmmm could it be possible?! : thinks, yep, could be!: lol

Last Day!!!
LAST DAY TO VOTE!!! I need your help to put me back in first place in the calendar competition!It ends May 31st at midnightIt's also My BIRTHDAY month!!! I think I should represent May... no? Send your votes everyday ( it's almost over) please and tell all your friends. Repost this Bulletin and help me out. Vote in the Calendar contest as well as playing cards contest! ** Remember, joining with my recruit number gives me five extra vote points! If you're not from the Tristate area, use zipcode-08869. My Recruit ID# is 325. Help me win!! PLEASE JOIN!!!!!!! It will really help me get further! Vote for Miss Lush for May!! Let's do it this time Really! Thanks for all who have been participating and helping and thanks to those who will make me win this upcoming month!!

I Have Since Re-established My Self Just To Share...
I just realized I have lost all faith in my own intuition. 5/23/07 3:30am. I can no longer think and feel with no regrets. Time and time again I keep finding out I am wrong. It's starts out oh its all good, this rocks, but then all hell breaks loose and it all falls to pieces. For those of you who are truly my friends, this can not bode well for you. I'm sorry. You have had to listen to me bitch and freak out about shit I honestly never would have before. Before what I have no idea so don't bother asking LOL. I have been sad for weeks now and it all came to this final conclusion. I have no trust or faith in people anymore. Is it really my intuition that is so off or is it other peoples lies and deceit and revenge? Seems the only time I'm in a good mood anymore is when I'm drinking. Not a good thing. ~Unfinished, but the most honest thoughts I have written down in close to a life time. ~HML~

A Dream From Pagan Fyre
I seemed to half-wake, stumbling to the entrance of my tent to look out. I had heard a noise that had roused me. At first, I saw nothing in the grey dawn lignt. Then, as I stepped out of the tent, I heard a purred growl, low and to my right, just as I saw the golden eyes of the black panther lying there. I was startled, but not afraid. I moved slowly to my left away from the panther, turning slightly to keep my body towards him as I left the camp. I tensed as he came to all fours and followed me. He walked beside me, not coming towards me, but rather keeping pace with me. He moved slightly closer, and began to tell me things as we walked around the camp. Others in the camp who saw us didn't seem to think it unusual for me to be walking around with a black panther for a companion. I tried to react accordingly, but I was still tense. I could understand all the panther was telling me at the time, but I cannot remember any words at all now. I do know the words were spoken directly into

The Flight Of Love
Illusive she flies, Like a butterfly. For a moment, She lights upon our shoulder. Then, she's gone. Again, she lands For a heartbreaking second. We hold our breath As her wings fan our face. Again, she flies. Once more, she lights Like a shadow sweet We hang on too tight Wounded this time, She tries to flee. One last time, she comes. We wait again. We dare to love more freely As she lands this time Praying that she never dies.

About Love
Just because you're special and just because you're you doesn't stop me from thinking so much about the way I love you Though we're not together and sit apart many miles away I dream in my sleep and in my heart that we'll be together one day. I know I'm still in your heart when you're wondering where I may be swimming the deepest oceans to rescue God's angel made for me. I may be foolish to wait I'll wait as long as forever may be as long as you remain within my heart that's the only love that matters to me. I miss your heart, beating across from mine all because I love you.

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My Latest........
Jamie is standing looking in as a man and a woman are kissing in a store. She feels jealous that she doesn't have someone in her life, and misses the love and attention. She walks home sad and lonely. As she crosses the street to get to her apartment she comes up on the couple as they are walking. She starts to talk to them and realizes that they are neighbhors and they are looking for another person to be involved in their intimate sexual fantasies. She is kind of shocked at first and doesn't know what to think of the situation, so she tells them that she will think about it, and let them know. The more she thinks about it, the more she is interested. So she gets ahold of them and let's them know that she is interested in doing this, but taking it very slow and easy at first. They decide on the date, time and where. The day of this experience is on Jamie before she realizes it. She makes it the place previously decided a little early and she walks in to a beautiful old

Just Venting
see i cant figure out y dick heads like sexygordonfan84 whos still freash meat has 1 picx and want to rate a 6 he s not the only one ive seen 7s ,9s those aint to bad really not like the 1s and 2s some newbies give andf i usally just let it go but tonight its bugging me im sick of my friends beeing messed with by ass holes and low rating prick . likle i sayed im just venting . lol

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If Your A True American,read This!
IN CONGRESS, JULY 4, 1776 The unanimous Declaration of the thirteen united States of America When in the Course of human events it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation. We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. — That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, — That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to

A Confession
I have to admit, I'm a bit of a prude. I'm also tipsy right now, so forgive the lack of coherent tone in this post. I know better than to be prudish. I love women. I love their shapes, their scents, their voices, their virtues. I love making women happy and sharing time, pleasure, and joy with them. Nothing makes me happier than a woman's joy. So even though I know better, why am I sometimes a prude? I don't have a good explanation. Well, that's why I'm here, to get over that. I love beauty and I know it and I want to take some time to celebrate it. That's all for now. Everyone have a good night and for my sake if not your own, don't overlook the beauty around you!

And The Fucktard Of The Year...
Ok so I normally stay outta drama on here but this was uncalled for so I reposted this bulletin... http://cherrytap.com/bulletins.php?b=2835221417# He was on on my fan train so I commented him asking him to plz take I.A.R. off his name b/c he was no longer a member. & I blocked both of his accounts that were posted in the bulletin. Than the fucktard makes another account... bbG LOVER and comments my fan train page... ~Insane Asylum Rejects FanTrain Family Page ~ w/this image... & in regards to the comments his CT wife left in the bulletin I posted, she needs to get her facts straight b/f going off on ppl. BBG didn't start ripping his pics till after he had ripped the pic of a fallen solider. If he doesn't like his pics being ripped than maybe he shouldn't rip just to start shit. I think these 2 deserve each other & I believe they have won the fucktard of year award for this blog LoL! THAN THE CRY BABY POSTS THIS BLOG... http://cherrytap.com/blog/87318/3696

How Could I Live Without?
"You don't 'do' surprises. You plan surprises -- for other people -- but in your own life, everything's planned and accounted for. Aw, come on! What fun is that? Let yourself be surprised and you'll like what you see." So ok own up, who is planning surprises?? Me planned and accounted for? If i am i do it in a weird fucking way! = D Morning peeps.!

Friends
SO JUST SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT WHO MY FRIENDS REALLY ARE....I OPENED A LOUNGE WITH 2 OTHER PPL IN THE HOPES OF MAKING A FUN ENJOYABLE PLACE FOR ALL MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND AQUAINTANCES AND TRUST ME WHAT A GREAT LOUNGE WE HAVE A GOOD CROWD OF FRIENDS THAT COME IN ON A REG....COULDNT ASK FOR ANYTHING BETTER...BUT ILL TELL YOU ONE THING YOU SURE LEARN WHO YOUR TRUE FRIENDS ARE, 1 MISTAKE OR MISUNDERSTANDING AND SOME OF THE FRIENDS YOU THOUGHT WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU SIDE ARE THE FIRST TO TEAR APART WHAT LITTLE YOU HAVE LEFT OF YOUR HEART....I HAVE TO SAY THE ONE PERSON THAT HAS STUCK BY ME NO MATTER WHAT I WILL LOVE TILL THE DAY I DIE AND IF I GO FIRST HE WILL BE LOOKED AFTER, SHANNON YOU ARE THE MOST AMAZING PERSON I HAVE EVER MET AND WITHOUT YOU AND VIX THINGS WOULDNT HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE!....SO WITH THAT SAID I HAVE A FEW OTHER NAMES ID LIKE TO MENTION,THANK YOU TO VIRUS YOUR AN AWESOME FRIEND,JOKER 1 IN A MILLION PPL LIKE YOU,SUPER,BUDSGIRL,BABYT,CYBER,SNUGGLES,RACH,SANITY,TROUBLESU

Bling Bling Baby!!!
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I started recieving perverted messages from some guy, I kindly told him I wasn't a slut yet he continued sending me these messages so this is the outcome (read from the bottom up): ->knowom: Slut? I'm not the one sending somebody sleezy messages, get a life asshole. knowom: well whatever slut bye ->knowom: No. I am just not a fucking whore. knowom: wow your a up tight prude ->knowom: If you dont fucking stop I will block you, I dont give a fuck how hard your dick is. You are lucky I am no where near you i'd chop the damn thing off. knowom: my dick is so hard right now I bet your pussy is really tight I'm a prude because I wont cyber with some asshole? Wow, some people need to get a life.

Remembering You By Outlaw Dj
Remembering You by Outlaw DJ I remember the smiles you gave me I remember how I felt my heart again I remember believing the love I remember the sin I remember all the nights i cried I remember the blood that fell I remember the lies that spread I remember secrets that I'll never tell I remember the pain i caused And the pain i received But one thing is still certain It is still you that I need....

Beats Me
I guess that I am a softy. I see bulletins from my friends so I look at everyone of them. But when I post one it seams like I cant get but maybe two or three come back on it. Maybe I should not answer any more of them.

Another Poem By Me...untitled
for all my old friends..and my new ones too, just remember ive always tried to be so true. ive hurt alot of people,including myself,& kids, but i wont anymore cuz im calling it quits. im dying inside and none can help, im putting all my love up on the shelf. its up for grabs for anyone to take, cuz now im gone & noone can wake. the hurt, pain and all the misery, cant anyone really see. im leaving now and think itll be better, take my life and put it in the shredder. ill miss some that have no clue i will, then others that will love me still. my best to all of you,near and dear or not... but my hearts & my loved ones will not deal with anymore knots. BL 6/15/06

A Poem By Me.."confliction"
"confliction" sometimes it feels as life is short.... sometimes life feels, oh so long. i just wanna give up, but yet gotta be so strong. give me the gun, give me the knife, but yet i'll do nothing and take life in strife. i want to live, i want to die...... someone please let me reach the sky. i live and breathe, but inside i seethe. someone help before i freeze. give me the strength to keep goin, and let my heart keep gowin. BRENDA LEE

Home For A Few Hours & The Ranting Has Begun....
& to think i actually wanted to come home a few hours ago lmao. well as most of you know i went up to north carolina to visit with sean. he was given a 96 for memorial day & it was the best weekend ever. it was perfect...everything was perfect. distance puts a strain on any relationship but somehow all the lonely nights seem so worth it to me when i wake up to his smile & to his arms around me. they say that a stable & happy marriage only happens when you fall in love with the same person over & over again. well its true....i fell in love with him all over again....but then i fall in love with him everytime i hear his voice...or get a picture from him. he said that this physical distance would be for just a little while longer...but that no matter what base he's stationed at i will always have his heart. ::cries:: see....now im all teary eyed. i gained alot from this weekend.... for starters i made a new friend that has all the same insanities that i do. we have so much in

Where The Fuck Is Freaky
I am wasting my drunk on fucking line. What the fuck you ask Its fuckin Freaky. This mother fucker,Iam not allowed out unattended soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, he is at wendys what a slut.Squirrel said he was a slut Ijust agree. Dude fuck. I am drunk I am on the fuckin computer I must suck !!!! When did this Happen

Stupid Names On Cherrytap
I would have to say that there are some of the most stupid names that I have ever seen here on cherrytap. I mean my god what makes a person proud of the fact that they are a fucking sex slave to some other stupid ass. If a person is that weak and has no more self esteem to post the fact that they are a slave to someone then I really feel sorry for them. Then you have the dumbass's that there name is daddy's sex slave or some kinda bullshit like that. I am sorry if I offend but in my opinion if my get turned on by calling your sex partner daddy then you might as well go ahead and actually screw your daddy because you are saying that turns you on by using the name daddy. I am sorry that is just plain nasty. I try to not piss people off but I call it like I see it.

Long Distance Love
You are so far away from me. you're the only person I can't wait to see. I wish you could be right here next to me. I always dream of you. Because this is all I wanna do pictures and memories is all I have of you. My thoughts are constantly on you. I think of you in everything I say and do. I can't wait till day I see you. I miss you more then life itself. I'm sick of being by myself so many years later and you still on my mind. Why am I so blind? That i can't see your still there waiting for me? you are the only one for me, can't you see? me and you were meant to be. I know someday we will meet again and we will be together, till the end......

The Race
We ran a race and won. we said a prayer and it was answered. we dreamed a dream and it came true. we fought a war that we thought we couldnt win. we believed when noone else would. We had faith when others had none. we held on when everyone else let go. we had a friendship that everyone would have loved. We climbed a mountain that everyone said we couldnt climb. we swam acrossed the raging sea when others said we wouldnt make it. we loved when others said we couldnt. we made it even though others said we'd never make it. we listened when noone else would. we wiped away the tears when noone else would. we became friends when everyone said we'd never be friends. we won the race that everyone said we'd never win

Farewell
Well.. just to let everyone know.. i will most likely be leaving this lovely place i have come to call fun... please dont ask why.. just know its for my own reasons.. and that i really should so i can get my head on straight...unless someone out there can convince me other wise.. i will only be on here for maybe another week...

Social Security
Mom was a homemaker, and Dad worked all his life and paid into Social Security. Dad passed away and now Mom can barely make ends meet. While the possible "illegal" alien in front of her at the grocery store buys the name brands, Mom goes for the generic brands, and day old breads. She doesn't have out of state calling on her phone, because she can't afford it and shops at the thrift shops and dollar stores.? She considers having pizza once a week "eating out". She grew up during the depression, watched her husband go overseas to fight in WW II a year after their marriage, and then they went on to raise, feed and clothe 5 children, struggling to pay tuition for parochial schools. The Senate voted this week to allow "illegal" aliens access to Social Security benefits. I'm sorry, but how can the Senate justify this slap in the face to born and bred, or naturalized citizens. It is already impossible to l ive on Social Security alone. If they give bene

Meeting
We knew it was destined to be... we had talked so many times & for so long, that neither of us would be able to control ourselves. Our first look at each other, deep into each others eyes, then our first kiss, the deep passion, we could feel rising between us. His toungue deep inside my mouth, me sucking & holding the kiss as I could feel the deep ache inside my pussy starting to build. I could feel the pressure of his hard throbbing dick, as it started to pulsate against my stomach & that made the ache between my legs build up even more. We just were not sure what to say to each other, but words never seemed so useless, until now... He took me by the hand and led me to his apartment. No talking, because neither of us had the breath....we had been telling each other for so long what we needed & wanted, that words were not needed... As we entered the main room & the door was shut behind us... I no longer felt "shy", I immediately reach for his shirt & took it off him with one smooth mo

Gotten Used To It!!!!
I guess you could say we have gotten used to the encounters that happen in our house we have learned to live with it and I guess they now have learned to live with us....We haven't had any more problems "yet"....I guess it just took them sometime to realize we weren't leaving and they gave up there scare tactics....We do still feel like we are being watched sometimes and we do still sometimes feel something brush past us or we feel coldness around us but we have gotten used to it and it don't bother us anymore....Sooner or later they will move on and finally let their souls rest at least that's what I am hoping for....I will keep ya'll up to date if I have anymore encounters!!!!

~our Addiction~
When I watch Him do what he does my heart longs, full of love for Him. And when we are together in the throes of what we do it all tastes like death. Something familiar and dark and dank and sick. Something long ago thrown out. And perhaps it is that death that keeps us alive or perhaps we are dead and our life preserves us... Maybe it is such an ingrained addiction that we will fall and drown in each other. We are in love with death and death is in love with us. ~Kory~ 05/25/07

~weep In Wonder~
They weep in wonder as he sings... crooning to them. Starlings all of them with sex in their eyes. Longing to open wide for him their nether mouths dripping for him... but they will go home longing... and alone but for what fiends they can find hanging outside the bar, buying their fixes sewing up snitches being the tattooed love boys they were born to be. The smell of their addiction Caressing their greasy flesh Bangs that hang in clumps across their pallid faces. For a drink or a lick and a promise these starlings can have a night of half hard fucks... But I will take Him home. And we will bleed the night away together... in love and death. And the starlings will still weep in wonder. ~Kory~ 05/25/07

~our Love~
We lay, our arms and legs tangled. Our minds and hearts numb but for a tiny pain. That pain is the truth we both know but won't acknowledge. It is over. We cling to each other, out of fear. Embedded within each other like shrapnel. We fear life without one another, not because we are happy together, but because we are all we have known. Tears leak from my eye. Spilling onto my cheek tickling my inner ear, I twitch, and I feel you grab me within your already tight grasp. I want to cry out. I wont. Nor will I let you go. Because I don't know how. I wish you would let me go but I don't know how to tell you nor do I have the heart to make you face this dying dead love~ Our Love. We lay, our arms and legs tangled. Our minds and hearts numb but for a tiny pain. That pain is the truth we both know but won't acknowledge. It is over. ~Kory~ 5/25/07

Being With Lotc The Ladies That Support Botmc
ICAN;T WAIT , I AM LEAVING ON THE 5TH, THE GUYS THAT ARE FROM THE CONNECTICUT CHAPTER ARE GETTING PATCHED AND WE HAVE CHAPTERS COMING FROM ALL OVER THE USA FOR THE PARTY FOR 3 DAYS.I WILL GET TO MEET ALOT OF BROTHERS AND SISTERS AND WE WILL HAVE FUN, FUN, FUN.................WON'T BE BACK TILL THE 9TH.............WILL BRING PICS. I AM MEETING UP WITH THE NY CHAPTER. AND WE HAVE VIRGINIA, TEXAS AND LOTS MORE!!!!!!! BROTHERS OF THE CREEDMC.............ROCK WITH LOTC PEACE......LADY DI AND RIDE SAFE YALL...

~*can U See*~
Can u see that its all ok and all is comeing forth with nothing but happieness and good things to all those who wait .... i waited and waited for things to come to me .... they came to me and i sat at the edge and i waited for that one love to come to me and tap me with the heart of gold and make all possiable just vanish into thin air and make it be known that he loves me with all that one person can love someone with as much as he loves me..... Can u see the happy that he brings me and i bring him.... i sit with open feelings and show that im not scared to express how much we love each other... we can see it others can see it do u see it .... Love is a a heart full of joy, Love us a mind full of joy, Love is two soul mates, Love is two people connected together with nothing more than love for one another. Im closeing now thanks to all that read please comment and rate. ~*Mandie*~ ~*His Love Burns For Only Me ~* As My Love Only Burns For Him*~'

My Ex-asshole
Real nice of him, isn't it? My apartment was being shampooed yesterday, and my cat was a no-no in there while it's going on. I brought the cat over to him for only four hours so we can get out of the pro's way, and I could go and meet the manager of a painting company... I'm pushing the employment thing. Dressed nice in black slacks, brown spandex dress shirt, black leather boots. Hair and face made up. Just as I was about to leave, that ex-asshole text-screams at me on the cell saying my cat attacked him and I gotta go over there and get the cat back RIGHT NOW. I tell him "I already told you that the carpet's being cleaned, and I have a little job interview this morning!" His reply? "I don't give a SHIT! I'll dump the cat at the pound and tell them it's a dangerous animal and have it put down!" I sigh. I drive over there, look at the cat. He's purring and rubbing his head on my legs. Hmmm... vicious, is he? I pick him up, put him in the car, and the ex-asshole argues wi

~~my Fine Was $370.00~~
> >Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep >going until you've read each "offense" and added up your total fine. When >you are done, send it back to the person that sent it to you and your other >friends. Title your Email "My fine is $........" You don't have to confess >your answers, just the amount of your fine. $1, 110.50 is the Max. > >Smoked pot -- $10 > >Did acid -- $5 > >Ever had sex at church -- $25 > >Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you--$40 > >Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25 > >Had sex for money -- $100 > >Ever had sex with a different race -- $20 > >Vandalized something --$20 > >Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10 > >Beat up someone -- $20 > >Been jumped -- $10 > >Crossed dressed -- $10 > >Given money to stripper -- $25 > >Been in love with a stripper -- $20 > >Kissed some one who's name you didn't know -- $10 > >Hit on some one of the same sex while at work

I'm Tired Of It!
Ok, I hate my fucking school! "Funny thing, if you notice our school equipment wasn't working so we hired a new Network administrator." ~R.Kunkel FUCKING LIES!!! He and others blame the former Admin for every thing that goes wrong. Cause its easier to blame someone that's not there, than it is to take the blame. "Shift the blame, except the fame!" I was told to day that I didn't know all the details about why he was fired... Hahaha. I have read it all! Every E-mail, every write up. Working in a school should be working for the better of our children's future. But all I can see is that, its more important to put up shelves and rearrange the office, than it is to help the students. He was even told to fix the Urinal stall walls, and fix the break room cabinet doors. How, as a Network Administrator, is this pertinent to the job duty? Or how about when he was on Dr.'s restricted duty... Sent home, forced vacation time. Because he couldn't climb a ladder or do jumping jacks. This

Midweek Meyham. Not Really, But I Like The Tittle Anyway
I went to class, I was a few minutes late though. Class went on and on. It was interesting though. It usually is. Today was morral development. It's always a fun thing to talk about. My teacher is funny. I sit in back and laugh alot, I hope she doesn't think I am laughing at, her. She sometimes tells settle jokes other people don't get, or just don't think is funny, and sometimes it's just funny because she talks about situations where I have gotten similar responses. There's all these people that make up rules, and then define morrallity as following the rules. While if the rules happen go corrispond with your beliefs, they bennifit you, and or you are the one that made them up, then it's probably really easy to say following the rules is what morrallity is based on. So for example, It's against the rules for you to have window airconditioner units in the barracks. It doesn't matter that it's 90-100 something outside, with 90% or more humiddity, and your ac that should work i

My Little Girls Room!!!!!
Well when my little girl was born we had to change my sons playroom into a bedroom for my little girl....She was still sleeping in the same room with us at the time because she was too young to be by herself yet but all her little toys were in her room....One night I was sitting up in bed reading when I started hearing what sounded like a lullabye and I got up to go check it out....I followed the sound straight to my little girls room and I opened up the door....I walked into the room and her little spin top was on the floor playing twinkle twinkle little star and then all the toys in her room started going off all at the same time and I started hearing what sounded like a child giggling and I left the room and went and checked on my son and it wasnt him he was asleep so I went back to my little girls room and it felt like something brushed past me in her room and all her toys started playing all together again....I went back to my sons room and took him back to my room with me....I wa

The One I Gave My Heart To
How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break My Heart So Bad? How Could The One Who Made Me Happy, Make Me Feel So Sad? Wont Somebody Tell Me? So I Can Understand. If You Love Me, How Could You Hurt Me Like That? How Could The One I Gave My World To, Throw My World Away? How Could The One Who Said I Love You, Say The Things You Say? How Could The One I Was So True Too, Just Tell Me Lies? How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break This Heart Of Mine? Tell Me........ How Could You Be So Cold To Me? When I Gave You Everything. All My Love, All I Had Inside. How Could you Just Walk Out The Door? How Could You Not Love Me Anymore? I Thought We Had Forever. I Cant Understand. How Could The One I Shared My Dreams With, Take My Dreams From me? How Could The Love That Brought Such Pleasure, Bring Such Misery? Wont Somebody Tell Me? Somebody Tell Me Please. If You Love Me, How Could You Do That To Me? Tell Me........

6th Annual Layne Staley Tribute & Benefit Concert! With Daughtry, Soulbender And Riverbend!
6th Annual Layne Staley Tribute & Benefit tickets on sale June 1st!!! This year's tribute will feature performances from Daughtry, Soulbender and RiverBend. Tickets are $25 dollars through ticketswest. All ages, bar w/ ID. Get your tickets while they last, this one is gonna sell out fast. Come celebrate Layne's life and legacy, and show your support for Layne Staley Fund!!! ~RB You can find out where to get tickets @ www.myspace.com/riverbendrock P.s. I don't make any money on the sales of tickets for this venue. I am really supporting my Little brother, and his good friends. I hope you enjoy their music as much as I do!. I'm sooo proud of him and I can't wait for their CD release party in the next coming mo's! P.S.S. if this blog will get me in trouble with the PTB's please let me know....

What Is The Difference
what is the difference between a Dominant and a submissive? some would tell you that being a Dominant means that you need 10 different toys with which to beat, a paddle and a moving target(who is willing of course) and that being a submissive is sitting in one place and enduring countless blows and pain all for the joy of feeling it. However, these things are some things that Doms and subs will do in the course of a relationship. these things are not what being a Dom/sub is. The core of a Dominant and a submissive is not what they get into for a scene, or their kinks. the key difference between a Dominant and a submissive is simpy this A Dominant has Dignity. A submissive has Pride. this seems too simple to be a fact, however consider this as an example A submissive has only what the Dominant allows them, pride is the one thing they always CAN have, pride in the Dom and how he/she can control the sub, pride in how handsome/beautiful their owner is pride in how we

The Indian With One Testicle
> > There once was an Indian who had only one testicle, and whose given > > name was 'Onestone'. He hated that name and asked everyone not to call > > him Onestone. After years and years of torment, Onestone finally > > cracked and said, "If anyone calls me Onestone again I will kill them!" > > > > The word got around and nobody called him that any more > > > > > > Then one day a young woman named Blue Bird forgot and said, "Good > > morning, Onestone." He jumped up, grabbed her and took her deep into the > > forest where he made love to her all day and all night. He made love to > > her all the next day, until Blue Bird died from exhaustion. > > > > > > The word got around that Onestone meant what he promised he would > > do. > > > > Years went by and no one dared call him by his given name until a > > woman named Yellow Bird returned to the village after being away. Yellow > > Bird, who was Blue Bird's cousin, was overjoyed when she saw Onestone. > > She hug

The Stickers!!!!
When we first moved into the house I made a play room out of the third bedroom for my son....When we moved in there was glow in the dark stickers as the border in the room I was making it into the playroom and the stickers were tacky so I took them down and placed them on top of the toy box so I could throw them away when somebody started knocking on the door and I went to go answer it....It was my mom so we sat down and she visited for awhile and then she left....I went back into the room to finish decorating it for my son when I looked up and the stickers were back up on the wall in the same exact spots as they were before and I stepped further into the room and the door to the bedroom slammed shut behind me....I left the stickers alone after that....That was the first encounter with just one of the ghost in my house!!!!

The Name Game
1. YOUR SPY NAME: (middle name and current street name) - Brianne Chaparosa 2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mom's side, your favorite candy. - Nita Reese 3. YOUR RAP NAME (first initial of first name, first three or four letters of your last name) - Let's go with JLa..my nickname in HS 4. YOUR GAMER TAG: (a favorite color, a favorite animal) - Green Giraffe 5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) - Brianne Albuquerque lol 6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name) - Lam den rox 7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards) - Annej Neddafcm 8. PORN STAR NAME: (First pet's name, the street you grew up on) - Macy Dakota 9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the automobile your dad drives) - The Green Porsche 10. YOUR ACTION HERO NAME: (first name of the main

The Bathtub Test
It doesn't hurt to take a hard look at yourself from time to time, and this should help get you started. During a visit to the mental asylum, a visitor asked the Director what the criterion was which defined whether or not a patient should be institutionalized. "Well," said the Director, "we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub." "Oh, I understand," said the visitor. "A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup." "No." said the Director, "A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?"

Butterfly
This beautiful poem was written for me by my wonderful friend white wolf!!!! Butterfly You are like a butterfly So beautiful and bright. You are a butterfly princess to me. Every time from now on each time I see A butterfly I think of you. You are so colorful in me mine eyes. Every time you smile it looks like a beautiful butterfly. So bright and beautiful and so proud you’re my friend By Justin Thomas

Movie Of My Life
The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

My Virtuous Curse
Standing here I think of my life the curse that I live alone and secluded cut off from my longing The darkness surrounding as I watch them from this tower kept prisoner by the night Preying on the life wishing to be what they are free to play with whoever’s in sight I wish to feel them to break this curse that binds me here within these walls waiting for touch My curse it comes every night I hear their moans within each breeze as it caresses my skin Forbidden to join for I must stay pure a state of torture is this my virtue in my darkened tower

Just My Thoughts
You ever have thoughts that maybe your hold on this world aint as good as you thoought it was? I have been trying hard to get into school asap. I know the only way anything will ever get any better for me is to graduate and become a nurse. I just still fear the unknown...once again, not a good hold on my world. I have been trying hard to not get upset by the choices my daughter is making in her life. She is close to becoming an adult, and moving faster at making me a grandparent before I am 35... A hold on my world that I never had. I guess life is just wearing me down.

The Ball And The Kitchen!!!!
Me and my brother were sitting in the living room one night watching t.v. and I had just put the babies to bed and I was trying to relax when we started hearing this weird sound like a ball bouncing on a hard floor....Well we knew it wasn't coming from the kids rooms or the hallway because the hallway and my kids rooms have carpet....I stood up and went to the kitchen and there was a ball bouncing all by itself in the middle of the kitchen floor....Me and my brother just stood there and watched it bounce for about 5 minutes and then it just quit and we heard what sounded like little footsteps going past us into the living room....That was my fourth encounter with just one of the ghosts in my house!!!!

The Real Me
I have been called a hopeless romantic many times and yes..it is true. I am very old-fashoined. I do not believe in being disrespectful to women. I am also very honest. If something bothers me I will let you know. I do not believe in purposely hurting someone's feelings. I am a very sentimental person. I love watching romance movies . Yeah, I will whine and say I don't want to see it because it is "girlie" but it is in part for attention and also because I get emotional watching them. Shhh....don't tell anyone. (Giving away my secrets here) I even cry watching talks shows. I do really!!! I blush alot too. Hell, I walk in Wal-mart and see a baby and have to stop and look. Then I get all mushy. Swear!!! I even kinda tear up. I love kids . I think the sounds of children are the closest we can get to hearing angels on Earth. I am also very romantic and have a very passionate side. I am artistic and love to write. I know tha tmany here may think me concieted or self-centered becau

My Moment Of Weakness
when I blog about the things I feel, I don't want people to feel sorry for me, I can't sleep sometimes well most times, so I blog, or I would be just here looking at the computer like a moron, so I tend to think back on things, like this guilt I have. In No way am I trying to hurt anyone by these blogs, so let me say right up front that I am sorry if I come across like I am heartless, I'm not I am just whacked. I feel that I could have helped more that day and cause I didn't its been hanging over me like a over cast day hence the guilt yeah I know you can tell me until you are blue in the face that it was not my fault, fate, timing "gods will" ect ect but until I am ready to believe that myself your waisting your time, I will remember more and I will blog more about how I feel, and if this is going to offend anyone please don't read them. Your input on these blogs are welcomed in comments or in a shout, BUT LOOK!!! I know I need help so if you feel the overwhelming need to tell me t

The Bath!!!!
I was trying to take a relaxing bath one night....I had the candles lit and the lights turned off and I layed back in the bath and closed my eyes....I then had this eerie feeling like somebody was watching me so I opened my eyes thinking it was my husband standing there or something and it wasn't....There was somebody sitting on the toilet watching me....I sat up in the tub and looked closer and that was when I realized it was a woman and she was looking closer too....She stood up and started walking closer and she was telling me to get out and then that's when I started screaming and my husband came running in the bathroom and turned on the lights and when I looked she was gone....That was my third encounter with one of the ghosts in my house!!!!

Attention! New Lounge Alert
Everyone is welcome to join this lounge as long as no explicit content involved. This is mainly for nature enthusiasts alike, but we can talk anything regards to healing ones soul thru massage and energy work encompanied thru it as well. Well Here you go as the link to relaxation and unwinding from a long day to a peaceful evening. Enjoy! http://www.cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=7748 Hosted by: *Wolf Child* Royal~Elite~Bombers~L.R.L.~Society of Wolves~Owner of Wolves Forever Lounge@ CherryTAP

Poem
Anger flows through me In a mighty rage Sometimes I feel as if I am trapped in a cage The more that I fight The smaller I get I try to scream But no sound will emit I try to plead But deaf ears are turned And when I am gone I am not mourned.

Creativity
-Timelessly line after lines I draw, curves after curves..They make sence to only me and no one else..Many like and dislike yet it matters not..for it's only a matter of taste and opinion- -My creativity has made me an outcast never to return..I fall from grace because I choose not to follow the norm..My weakness is my strenght but my strenght makes me captive to my thoughts- -Giving in seems like the only hope,but I can't because this means ignoring my mental state..is this my fate for being an artist? am I a slave to silence? Just being creative drains my soul because it takes everything within me- -Amoung everything in life being creative is one of the hardest things I have come acrossed- -But I will die with a pencil in my hand and a character within my thoughts that haunt my inner being begging to be brought to life- -For My creativity is all I have..

Poem
This room is my casket. The only place where I feel safe. Imagining I'm six foot under. I was never really brave. Life is so full of pain. She watches me suffer. Silently I am waiting. For this joke to be over. Get me a gun. I'm to weak to pull the trigger. I'll get in a sack. If you'll pull the trigger. Until the glorified hour. I'll stay in here. Stare at my blood. Tell the people calling. I'm grounded from the phone. I'll cry in my casket. Patiently I'll wait for death. While I listen to life's laughter. Banging in my head.

Liars, Cheaters, Exposed!!!!!!!!
Yeah wanna see some bullshit? Soo... I logg on this afternoon,, and check the stickeys. There is this bulliton offereing Freeblasts. I can use on right now,.. as cash is tight..So I open it up. Its from this dude asking people to add fan rate and comment bomb his girlreinds profile. The person who leaves the most profile comments will win a weeks blast!. 2nd place is 3 days, third is a one day!His girlfreind BTW is todays spotlight winner! *this is him* ICANBURS IS TAKEN@ CherryTAP *and here she is* SEXYGIRLBLONDE*^*^*in *GA.*@ CherryTAP So I message him asking for details.. and he gives them. I was concerned on how they would keep track,, he assured me she was at the pc counting comments. So i said ok.. sure... why not!?!?!? Big fukin mistake! I decided to get a really good pic of Marylin Monroe,as she is obviousy tryng to emulate her, and make a tag for her, and use that to bomb with. This is what I came up with..... I fan her, rate her 11 as instructed,

3 Murders!!!!
The reason there are 3 ghosts in my house is because 5 years ago before me, my husband and son moved in 3 people died here....The neighbors told me that the father came home one night and snapped....He strangled his wife in the master bathroom which that is my bathroom now....He stabbed his little 4 year old girl to death in her bedroom he stabbed her over 60 times that is the room my little girl stays in now....She wasn't even born when we moved in she is 2 years old now....The father then went into the room which now belongs to my son and blew his brains out there....There was a son too but they never found a trace of him in the house or on the property he was 6 years old....This is why my house is haunted and why I am having so many encounters....These spirits never crossed over they are still in my house!!!!

Teachers Gang Bang
teachers gangbang... by a teach in aussie Sometimes you just need to take a break. It has been four weeks since school has gone back and when I woke up this morning to a glorious sunrise over Port Stephens, I decided it was time to have a sickie. I called in at about 7.30 and faxed my lesson plans at 8.30. By then the sun was blasting into my lounge room window and I knew that it would be another hot day. I have numerous beaches to choose from, and with the wind coming from the west, I decided to go to Hardwood Bay surf beach. Hardwood Bay is also one of the more secluded beaches but have all of the amenities needed to enjoy the beach. The new surf club is only two years old and the car park is shaded and close to the beach. The best part is that it is considered a 'locals' beach and the tourists don't seem to come here. It's not the peak season anymore and being a Wednesday I was surprised to see two cars in the car park. I grabbed my towel and beach bag and hopped out of the ca

New Diet For Me
so yeah as of today i started a new diet. dont get me wrong i know im not fat but im just not quite as happy with my body as i was pre-baby and he's almost a year old now, so the belly fat isnt cool by me anymore. so im only gonna try this for a month wish me luck. im taking the diet pill SlimQuick, drinking one engery thing called Energy Shot, eating less than 1200 cal, and exersiceing. so im hopeing that i'll get rid of this little bit of extra weight around my tummy in a month. i started today and i'll end on June 30. a whole month and one day. please feel free to leave your opinion on this matter here or privately email your thoughts. you can support me, fuss at me, or remain netural its your choice. and no this isnt the first time i've done the weight loss thing, more like the 5th. thats right i wasnt always little even before baby, i was a big girl in Middle School and part of High School. but back then when i got tired of my body i lost weight the WRONG way. thats right folks i

Poem
Travel through the shadows That lurk within my mind Explore the unknown crevices Who knows what you may find Winged angels - Red hot demons Things to make you quake in dread You never know what you might see Wandering through my head Thoughts of impassioned love Might worm through my brain But so might thoughts of murder You would think me quite insane So if you want confusion That is just what you will find If you decide to take a journey To see what is trapped Within my mind.

Ghost In The Hallway!!!
I was in the hallway one day fixing to put the clothes away in my sons room when I saw mens shoes up underneath on the other side of my sons door....I called to my husband to come to the hallway when all of a sudden my sons door flew open and I started running down the hall and I heard footsteps running behind me and I quickly stopped and turned around and nobody was there....That was my second encounter with just one of the ghosts in my house!!!!

Cuz I'm Wondering...
Ok so I'm relatively new here and I was hoping to find something not quite as cheesy as myspace or aol right. Now seeing as how I'm new, forgive my naivete, but what's up with the rating thing? Is it just to see how may people you can get to rate you a 10? Do you want HONEST opinions? Do you REALLY care what a stranger thinks of how you look? I ain't tryin to be a smartass, I'm just asking to be asking. I've come across some pages where people are pissed to the nth degree because someone rated them low. But in all honesty...they really aint all that cute to begin with. So I guess my question is, do you want someone's HONEST opinion of how you look...or do you want them to LIE?

My Best Friend
My Best Friend When I first looked into your eyes, the look that I'll never forget... That silly grin you had on your face...that told me you were glad to be there... After time has past and even after all the disagreements... Walking away and trying not to look back... for some reason you were always there... you listened when I wanted to shout, you calmed me when I didn't know which way to turn... you laughed at me when I had a blond day... You held me when I needed a hug... you knew when I needed you... Because you are my very best friend... and that will always be... Love ya...

Into The Darkness
I awoke in complete darkness, with only the sound of little feat of mice or rats scattering across the cold hard floor I feel under my lifeless body. How I got here is a mystery even to me, even more of a mystery is who I am. From my perspective of time I feel like I might have been lying here for three or four days, but it could most likely be less. I have no memory of anything before this moment. I cannot move or even feel the sensation of anything beyond my torso. “Are you awake my childe?”, comes a whisper from above. I cannot come up with the strength to clench my teeth let alone try to speak. “I pray the rodents haven’t drove you to insanity”, no longer a whisper but rather a deep low voice, mesmerizing. I feel pressure on my chest, pressing down. “The heart still beats, I can only imagine how hungry you must be my friend.” Hungry? Yes, I have been very hungry. “I’m sorry I couldn’t have come to you sooner, but these are dangerous times and I couldn’t risk endangering either of

Poem
Look into your mirror Tell me what you see Is that you? Or is that me? I am your day I am your night I am your darkness And your only light Stay awake Don't dare sleep For into your dreams I will creep I'll scream thoughts of evil Into your head Until it becomes full Of images of death and dread Your hands will become my hands Your feet will become my feet Your body I will overcome And your soul I will defeat Now look into the mirror Tell me what you see Is that you? Or is that me?

Doctors Office
drs office by joe in OH I had received the message in the morning mail; “Please report to Dr. M’s office for further evaluation of your test results.” I had gone in for my annual routine check-up. What had they found? I spent the rest of the day worrying about it, and reported to the Dr.’s office that evening. The parking lot was nearly empty, and my concerns deepened. I pushed open the office door, and his nurse was waiting, with clipboard in hand. “We’re glad you could make it. Please come this way.” I followed her into the hallway, and she took my weight ... again. Then she showed me into a consult room. I sat down on the examining table, and she hooked up the blood pressure cuff. “Hmmm ... a little high. We need to do something about that” No wonder. I’m sure I didn’t mention what this angel of mercy looked like. Short golden hair, with pretty hi-lights, just like sun streaks. She stood pretty tall in those nurse shoes. When the other technicians and nurse

A Pantoum
Like grandpa to a child Who pulls a quarter from the ear Placed gently in the palm A child’s fears held mild Who pulls a quarter from the ear Strangers found me in the wild A child’s fears held mild To ease the sting of tears Strangers found me in the wild Gave my life a subtle calm

Poem
Searching, Searching through the night, Spinning slowly, Watching the bright light, Fade into an eternal darkness, Waiting, Hoping for your call, Bringing you back from your suicidal fall, Searching, Searching through the night.

Shadowed Raven
She walks with the dead, skyclad in the moonlight while dirt scatters about her paleness. Nothing is hidden here in this grove of lonely despair as she sings her song. Feathers adorn her hair … They come to pay homage to her, as she twists about in some dark and sensual dance. Their fingers roaming about her form as she undulates for them. Then, sets them out upon the land … Her children, damned souls, to roam about as she lays there indolent in the silvery light. That is when she calls out, a whispered voice upon the howling wind that echoes through the trees. To the ears of that one soul brave enough to venture to the lair of the Shadowed Raven. She calls now …

The Difference
I was torn in two by what I thought was love lost in the not so distant past. (okay I know a little melodramatic) I had a long distance love affair with a soldier in Iraq. It was intense and passionate and I thought it could be more. More what? Just more.. I am a realist but I was thinking when he got home we would date and see about the rest. Obviously it did not work or I wouldn't be blogging about it lol. I am not gonna get into the details cause it really doesn't matter how it ended. The fact is it did and it hurt but it made me realize a couple things. 1. I am a strong woman ( although there were a couple nights with Jose Cuervo that I would like to forget lol) 2. The love I thought we shared was not healthy. I am not saying the feeling weren't real. It just was too much too soon and the whole relationship began to consume who I am. Bottom line.. the realtionship was never meant to be. So now I am getting close to a man who has been a friend and confidant. We can talk about any

Bored God
I SIT AT THIS COMPUTER WONDERING WHY PEPS GET MAD WHEN SOME ONE THEY TALKE DTO ON HERE IS SEEING SOME ONE ELSE HELL IT IS THE INTERNET AND DAMN I WISH GUYS WOULD RELIZE ALL WOMEN ARE BITCHS YES THERE IS SOME OOUT THERE BUT YOU PROLLY MADE THEM THAT WAY AND THAT IS WHY THEY ARE THAT WAY TO YOU BUT ANY WAYS YES I GOT MAD ONCE BUT I RELZED I WAS PROLLY TALKING TO SOME 600 POUND HAIRY MAN WITH NO TEETH HELL FOR ALL ANY ONE KNOWS WHO IS REAL ON HERE I COULD BE SOME LOONY TOON OU TOF THE BIN(BUT I AM NOT) WELL I AM JUST BLABING ON HERE ALL I WANTED TO SAY IS PEPS NEED TO RELIZE THIS IS THE INTERNET AND TRUE LOVE AND BE FOUND BUT YOU HAVE TO LOOK FOR IT AND MAKE SURE IT IS THE RIGHT PERSON YOU WANT TO BE WITH

Got Balls? Take My Survey!
I don't get the appeal of these stupid surveys that everyone keeps filling out . They ask a bunch of questions that no one even wants to know the answer to. But since I can't stop you from filling them out I figure I'll just put my own survey out there. A manly survey, one that asks the questions that everyone wants to ask but is too afraid to. First question: are...... you........ READY?!?!?! 1 are you gay? 2 stop lying 3 will you let me sock you? 4 if a survey falls in the woods will some asshole repost it? 5 how often do you watch kiddy porn? 6 I said stop lying! 7 will you marry me? 8 surveys suck and you are gay now tally up your score and go kill yourself! 50 points or less = you're gay 100 points or less = you owe me money. pay up! 1,000,000 points or less = you're a pathetic loser, quit trying!

Apologizing
It has come to me that I have been looking at people's pages sometimes often more then once.. If it has offended anyone I apologize.. it isn't that I do it on purpose, I click on peoples pages to vote on them and so fourth.. Trying to figure all this out still and trying to find a way to make sure I do not click on the same peoples pages again and again..... Again if I have offended anyone I apologize for that. Krizz

Young Poetry- A Poem I Wrote When I Was Around 14 Yrs Old,
A fearful Night- I sit alone in my room with fright To curse the dawning of the night For when night comes your'e all alone. Not a soul to talk to Except your own. All your surroundings lie still without a sound. but in your mind, there is movement all around. A shadow perhaps, projected by the moon's lunar light. Will fill me up with childish fright Then, to my eyes' happiness, I see the rising of the sun. Now the end of my fear has begun.

Grand Opening
My husband has a new web site going. It is not much right now however it is operational. He is still working on the improvement part of it though. the address is www.angelsgrimoire.com. for those who want to check it out.

05-30-07
Your instincts are dead on, especially when it comes to a few personal interactions. Yes, that person is being weird, and yes, there is a reason for it. You may not be able to act on your knowledge, but it's still there.

...still...
the collapse of the world on the quietest day this time its the sun standing still we're holding on hope for something thats good i've come now as far as I can go today on this vast, empty space dont give up now dont throw your heart away :/

My Birthday Is Coming Up And..
I actually know what I want for once! I have NEVER been to a concert in my entire life. I want tickets to go see Breaking Benjamin. So who loves me enough to buy me some? I am thinking 2 tickets are enough. OH and of course it would have to be near Kentucky. It's not like this bitch can afford to travel. LOL I LOVE these guys!! Show a girl some love!! Please? I'm a Benhead! LOL

Better To Let It Out Here Then To Rip Someone Apart That Isnt Involved
Well what to say about a father who pins fault on you when you were not old enough to understand what was happening. I know what to say. I hope it haunts him how he treated me and that he doesnt rest good until he admits he was wrong. almost 19 years and still he refuses to admit what he did was wrong. So without further adue (spelling?) here is the story A child no more then 8 or 9 my dad walks in catching my half brother, who is like 5 years older then me, touching and fondling me. Being so young i was unaware that it was wrong. So what does dad do he spanks both me and him. Time passes and the same things keep happening. Mainly when everyone was asleep he would sneak in my room and do it all over again. out of fear of being punished i kept it all to myself. When i turned 16 it finally stopped because he stopped visiting dad. So today at 26 i finally tell my dad how he took my life away from me because i was scared of every man alive. I was afraid to get into a relat

Djing Gives You Herpes? / My Fetuses (sp?) Have Arrived...
so last night was a small/slow night at peabodys in general... more so due to the day after the holiday syndrome that most people had but also just because of the lack of promotion for the acid rain thing... however why a new revolution downstairs was pretty sparce would be due to the holiday thing... esp at a $5 ticket and a bunch of freebies handed out... anyway at somepoint of the night I ran out to see friends and was cornered by this chick on the way back up to spin more... she was cute, looked kinda drunk and really familiar but i couldn't place it... anyway we make small talk for about 2 seconds and she asked why i was going back upstairs, and I said to dj the stuff up there... she said you should stay down with her crew because djing gives you herpes... I just looked at her confused and said "thanks for the advice" and walked upstairs... the night slowly rolls on, I end up jetting out to meet samantha and krystle (who wasnt there) at the hifi... akwardness filled t

I'm Not Sorry
I’m sorry I love you so much it hurts to breath. I’m sorry I love you so much I named you my Sunshine. I’m sorry that I fall asleep in your arms every night, wishing I could Just stay there forever. I’m sorry that my forever is for now and I can’t explain that to you. I’m sorry you would give me the world, and try and I leave the door ajar. I’m sorry that you have to deal with all my quirks and annoyances. I’m sorry you think everything I do is so damn cute. I’m sorry that when you text me I text you back, quick like a bunny. I’m sorry you see my eyes light up with excitement when I hear a wind chime, chime. I’m sorry you can hug me and wish you never had to let go. I’m sorry I ma an attention whore and love every touch you give me. I’m sorry that I am smart and we have wonderful conversations. I’m sorry that when we are at Walmart we seem like we are married. I’m sorry that from the outside looking in we are the perfect couple. I’m sorry that I can look at you and

Would You Come Down, Please?
Write me down I am the words falling apart Take this broken world off of my heart So I stumble down into the room where the templates are made And you show me that somehow I can change these days You pulled a part of me I could never understand Crashing to your side and your breaking up this silence Never to again let my courage fall You try for every moment walking hand in hand So encouraging I’m continually coming time and time again for anything you say now For this foreign affair I will abide as the middle man Cause the solo cry is more than I can stand So I walk on air and awkwardly seek out a child’s form And I know that you won’t lead me to the storm

March To Dc
Not sure if most of you are like me or if anyone may read this, but I am pretty tired of the people no longer having a voice in our country. For many years now our country has been run my the highest bidder and not the people. Our Government is for sale. As the number of voters shrinks the lining of our elected offficals grows bigger. They say money is free speech, there for the more you have the louder your speech. If you have no money, or little of it to spend on politics your voice goes unheard. Yes, we have polls, but who can say they are not fixed anymore? I'll get to my point. On July 4th of this year I am going to walk from St. Louis, Mo. to Washington, DC in protest of our lack of accountablity and leadership in our countries capital. For to long I have just thought by voting I would have my say, but do I? I live in IL. and in every Presidential election I know my state will always elect a Demicrate for President, so why vote? When I get to Washington I will address my cong

The End Of This Tv Season
Ok as most have figured out I'm absolutely addicted to tv. (and please excuse and mispelling I'm extremely tired at the moment and should be in bed as I have to be up for work in 4 and a half hours. So I will pay for this bitch fest. But I have a few things I MUST get off my chest. I guess I'll attemt to go show by show but again excuse my if I ramble from show to show I will eventually get back to the topic at hand. First off I guess I'll start with Grey's Anatomy which I'll admit I didn't start as a fan from the beginning. I started watching after the end of season 2 over the summer to catch the reruns of the Denny/Izzie storyline because I had become a HUGE fan of Jeffrey Dean Morgan after falling in love with his protrayol of the patriach on the WB now the CW series Supernatural John Winchester. I just adore this man in so many ways and the way he could pull off two such different characters at the exact same time is just absolutely FANTASTIC. I of course went into GA knowing t

Ride With Me
Riding I toss my mountain bike and backpack into the back of my truck and head over to your place. The ride along the canal sounded wonderful so I take you up on the offer to do a little riding over the weekend. I follow your directions and soon find the place we are to meet at Bulls Island. I pull up in my truck and find a nice spot to park and start to unload and lock up. I see you already there and you walk up and give me a hug and a kiss and describe how much fun it will be riding today. The sun is high overhead but it is still crisp and cool so it will be a nice ride. I take the bike out and then reach for the backpack “ what is that for” you ask. I just smile and tell you will find out later. I lock up the truck, toss on the backpack and we ride along the canal. It is a nice ride and we chat and laugh and make fun of the pour souls stuck inside on a wonderful day like today. We ride along and I keep an eye on my calorie burn and se we are approaching 1000 calories after an hou

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Last Time In Jamiaca
That is the smoothest change to a bikini top I have ever seen I commented to her as I saw her slide her triangle top in place over her tank top and ten slide the tank down. Both breasts instantly fell into place and she just slid the tank down beneath the top and then up and over her head to remove it. I had seen her around the resort for a couple of days and talked to her briefly in the gym. She was German and had blonde hair. The first thing I though was “not another Blonde” I get myself in more trouble with blondes than any other hair color. Today she sits closer to me and she does this neat little routine and we start to chat. Seems she is in a similar situation as I am in a relationship but not going well. Has kids and together because of them. So she and I have something in common. I go off and get us a drink, as the sun is already high overhead and getting quite warm. It is afternoon and I have been lying in the sun baking for hours just reading and watching son play and reading

Evanescence My Immortal
"My Immortal" I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus] I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along [Chorus]

In The Locker Room
In the locker room We have a coed locker room at the gym and I invite you to the gym to join me for a work out. Little did I know we would work up a sweat before we hit even the first machine? But I am getting ahead of myself. Let me start at the beginning. It is a beautiful fall day and the sun is shining and the air is crisp. We meet at gym and I see your car pull in. I quickly park and walk over to you as you struggle to get your gym bag out of the back seat. I come up behind you and give you a quick hug and a kiss that startles you and makes you jump. I grab your bag from the back seat and we walk to the entrance of the club, we check in and head to the locker room and instead of giving you your bag to allow you to head into the ladies locker room I continue holding your bag as I head into the coed locker room. You get a puzzled look on your face as I enter and look around at you but you are right behind me. I decided we should just change in hear as after

For Those Who Are Interested In More Than Just My Breasts
It's been too long since I blogged. I enjoy bloggin on myspace because the people I generally want to read it are on myspace. But Since my boyfriend and all his friends are on my Myspace I really don't want them reading all this. I mean if they do its not the end of the world its just I would rather them not. I need to blog to get all this toxic waste thats in my brain out. Right now I'm in pain and and this blog is for me so it's going to be kinda dark. My life has not been very happy. I've had alot of pain such as everyone else. 3 months ago today I checked myself into a rehab. I wasn't on hard drugs and I was hardly on RX's. I did it because I saw my life becoming unmanageable and I wanted to salvage my life before it was too late. I have a Beautiful daughter who will be four in two weeks. She is my priorty. While in rehab they talked me out of drinking anymore, not that I was much of a drinker. The crazy thing is I struggle with missing things to numb myself. Getting

Hear Me
Im Calling You..... Can You Hear Me Calling You.... I Need You Here... Felt So Empty Inside I Need You Here Beside Me My Half..Baby You... I Can Hear Your Voice Whisper To Me Again.... I Want Nothing Else Right Now Just To Hear Your Voice Again Broken Dream...... Inside I Cried..Hurts..... Only You Can Heal This Pain In This Heart Of Mine Hear Me.... Im Calling You...My Love

I Need You
I need you here beside me, My friend I need you here, As I am going through a time of hurt, A time of pain and fear. For i can not bear to stand alone, In this heart of mine, I need you here to support me, This pain will last some time. I need you here, In every single way, As I can no longer stand alone, No minute, no hour, no day. This pain i feel is an un-ordinary thing, It is not the kind of feeling i need, I can not stand the pain, but there's nothing I can do, I hope and I wish and I dream, That someday I can stand against this feeling, But it is not possible, Unless I am here with you!

Dead Inside
dead inside You Just Don't Know... How Hard For Me To Forget This.. Everytime I Saw Your Face My Heart Bleed Inside Why Am I Not The Lucky One Why Life So Unfair To Me.. I Saw You The First Time I Wanted To Know You SO Much Before I Even Begin My Journey (Blink)It Took It From Me Am I Really Dead Inside Am I Really Dead That No One Really Know That Im Actually Exist Am I ...Am I...DEAD??!!

I Dream Of You
I dream of you I dream of your body lying next to mine feeling your breath, your body rising and falling realizing your every curve feeling your weight against mine knowing of your nakedness just under the sheet reaching out tracing your outline feeling your nipples through the sheet the curls of hair of your neatly trimmed bush my finger probing deeper feeling your clit rise through the sheet awakening you to desire I dream of you slowly removing the sheet revealing your body your legs spreading to accept my fingers and tongue my tongue probing your crevices circling your clit making it throb I dream of your heavy breath the moans of desire as I lick at you feverishly sucking on your clit bringing you closer to release your hands to my hair shoving my face deeper driving tongue harder longer strokes and as the swell comes over you I dream you call out my name your back arching breath in spurts convulsing with ecstasy like my dream?

Battle
The dark hoard flowed down the hillside like a river of shadow, consuming everything in its path. Chariots were incinerated or reduced to mere tinder as the great beasts unleashed their fury, tossing men and women around like rag dolls and devouring their steeds in one gulp. No one could stand against them: even their riders bowed at their every command. The world of man had come to a close- the Dragons had seen fit to reclaim what the humans had used so poorly. All but one of the Dragon's Thralls had sided with the beasts to save their own skin: known as the Soveriegn, Valyk was one with the Dragon's summation the humans were a pox on the Earth that must be erradicated, keeping only the few that served the Dragon Hoard and it's purpose. He rode into battle with such rage and fury even Xaelyth, his irridescent black, was at times unnerved. Yet the Dragon's were not without compassion. They did indeed see little purpose in murdering innocents: the lives they took were on the f

The Last Time.
Some victories are hard won and long awaited. Today marked one of those moments... I had my last custody conciliation meeting.. I know it's the last because my son turns 18 in November. The last time my ex will use the opportunity of appearing in public to try to attack and discredit the mother of his three children, of which he tried his utmost. What did I want? Equal travel for visitation.. I wasn't asking for much, it all comes at such a high price. And I won some kind of victory in that. As I looked at the face pouring out lies and inappropriate talk I saw how far I'd come from believing the man spouting them long ago, and it was so much garbage, but I'm sure, this is the last time.

A Good Song From The Past...
Highway run Into the midnight sun Wheels go round and round You're on my mind Restless hearts Sleep alone tonight Sending all my love Along the wire They say that the road Ain't no place to start a family Right down the line It's been you and me And lovin' a music man Ain't always what it's supposed to be Oh, girl, you stand by me I'm forever yours Faithfully Circus life Under the big top world We all need the clowns To make us smile Through space and time Always another show Wondering where I am Lost without you And being apart Ain't easy on this love affair Two strangers learn to fall in love again I get the joy of rediscovering you Oh, girl, you stand by me I'm forever yours Faithfully Whooa, oh-oh-ooh Whooa, oh-oh-ooh, oh Whooa, oh-oh-oh, oh-whoooooa-oh Faithfully I'm still yours I'm forever yours Ever yours Faithfully Wish I could find someone who would think about me like this.

Dwelling In Darkness…
I’ve been into the sweet chocolates my whole life. Milk… White… Cookies n crème… Dark chocolate was always too bitter for my pallet and I didn’t like the aftertaste. Then I was grabbing some Hershey’s Miniatures one day (just a small handful, less than five) and when I got back to my desk I realized that I’d accidentally grabbed a Hershey’s Special Dark. I decided to eat it anyway… chocolate is still chocolate. But… I liked it. I mean… really really liked it! A few days later I decided to test the theory. One king size Special Dark, one regular Herhsey’s Milk chocolate. The Special Dark got devoured… Experimentation since then has only proved the theory more and more true. No one knows why I suddenly like Dark Chocolate… but we all know it has something to do with Bran. That much, at least, I can justify rather easily. Healing… especially the kind of Speed Shadow Healing that we do… often has physiological side effects. I noticed a LOT with Wor

In Response To The Know Your Downraters Bulletin
What pseudo-(pseudo-pop-...-...-...-...)-psychology. Leaving out newbeasts who don't know the 1-3 from the 7-10, leaving out cases 5, 6, 7, ... 98, 99, ... leaving out why does this matter so damned much to everyone? If someone has it in for you and creates profile after duplicate profile to 1-rate all your photos with (which is what people seem to end up doing _to_ downraters, but hey!) - which someone did to me out of spite awhile back - that irritates, sure. But 1 "2" or "3" out of 250 "10"s on your profile, or something that reduces your average on a photo to around 9.8 or 9.9 (and then you retaliate - btw retaliation means -in kind- in the real world usually, not reducing everything to 3 or 4... but hey. Sense I'm expecting. YAY!!!!!!! Wheeeeeeee!!!!!! Idiots.) ok... fine... What surprises me is that I let this idiocy annoy me when I -have- jobs.

The Fallen One
Tell me about those who enter battle Young at heart and young in life Mixed into a fight that shifts in favor A man looking to start a personal vendetta Knowing he is in for more than he bargained Carrying a gun with the power of his holy hand An attitude that'll get him killed someday. Such a shame to see him go What a waste of blood flowing in his veins The bullet makes his excitement explode His rage will never end Doesn't give a damn about his body Someone who wont look to a future No sense of time or thought on a plan. Blind to tomorrow's essence Diseased on the time that breathes in and out He thinks that killing our enemies is the answer Killing time comes second to another But others will look at him funny And smack his robotic personality. Shooting everything in sight Pray to God he doesn't shoot his own left foot His choice in life seems forgotten Family burst into tears To say goodbye to the boy they knew Farewell to the fallen one.

The Old Farmer And The Skinny Dipping Girls
An old farmer in Ohio had owned a large farm for several years. He had a large pond in the back, fixed up nice, with picnic tables, horseshoe courts and some apple trees. The pond was properly shaped and fixed up for swimming. One evening the old farmer decided to go down to the pond, to look things over as he hadn't been there for a while. He grabbed a 5 gallon bucket to bring back some fruit from the trees. As he neared the pond he heard voices shouting and laughing with glee. As he came closer he saw it was a bunch of young women skinny dipping in his pond. He made the women aware of his presence and they all went to the deep end of the pond. One of the women shouted "We're not getting out until you leave!" The old man frowned and said?? "I didn't come down here to watch you ladies swim naked or make you get out of the pond naked." Holding up the bucket he said.. "I'm here to feed the alligator." MORAL: Old age and cunning will triumph over youth and enthusiasm every t

I Wanna Know 21 Things About You.
i wanna know 21 things about you. Current mood: curious i wanna know 21 things about you. Fill all the ?'s out.. no blanks! ANSWER IT AND SEND IT TO ME THEN POST IT FOR UR SELF and see who will answer...enjoy!!! 1.Your Full Name(It doesn't have to be full .. first name will do just fine): 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Fave Movie: 5. Fave Song: 6. Fave Band: 7. Fave Food: 8. Most Embarassing Moment: 9. Are you a virgin? HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush/attracted to me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you: 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do

Worry
DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY IS WHAT THEY SAY, AND WORRY GIVES A SMALL THING A BIG SHADOW, AND IT DOES,YOU TELL ME DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME, AND I WON'T AS MUCH AS I USED TO, BUT BABY,YOU'VE GOT TO UNDERSTAND, I WORRY CAUSE I CARE ABOUT YOU AND LOVE YOU. SO,MAYBE I'LL JUST WORRY A LITTLE BIT. BUT NOT ABOUT EVERYTHING.

Do U Want Pts.
ok its happy hour. and u know what. ok well leave a comment here and i will be by your page to rate all your pics and stash. so if you want some pts this happy hour then leave a comment like hit me. lol..It will be a first posted first served kinda deal. thanks

Everything Thats On My Mind Right Now
here is everything thats on my mind right now that keeps stressing me out : #1 being used by so called friends they always asked for rides and money but never returns the favor i feel like im getting stepped on #2 wherre are the real friends i cant seem to find friends around here all people around here does now is drugs and bugularies it seems all the nice people are gone a lot of people around here are rude make fun a of the way i look the way i talk #3 i keep problems botrtled up i cant find a good person to talk to i tried to talk my so called friends and they laugh at me and call me names how can i ignore them when everyones saying stuff all at one time# 4 wishing to find the special someone in my life im very shy and bashful afraid to talk to females i can talk over the internet but face to face i blank out (well at least i completed my online course and now just waiting for my diploma) #5 i cant seem to save money im in debt for the rest of my life because of some bullshit 15

Drama
I have dumb, crazy, stupid azz drama in my life right now. I'm usually so drama free. Now that a sista is single and ready to mingle all of a sudden in comes the drama. I have to admit it is pretty interesting but damn what's a girl to do?

President Assclown - "something Going On In Darfur?"
Wow, after years of genocide and 2 years of being in my awareness, President Bush finally woke up and realized something wasn't right in Darfur. Being as I don't always watch the news, I think I'm a "johnny-come-lately" to Darfur awareness, but President Assclown takes the cake. Well, what could have spawned this? Did Dubya finally learn to read and actually read a newspaper? Could it be the loud protests that have been going on for the past few years? Or could it be he needs a distraction from the fact he has bungled up Iraq so badly? Hmm, I tend to think it's the last choice. I mean, after all, he stormed straight into Baghdad without paying attention to our flanks, and under false pretenses at that of WMD's and Al-Qeada ties that didn't exist. Now he spouts his own living in denial of the civil war there. Oh wait, I mean "Sectarian Violence". That way we don't have to admit it's a civil war! Just like we had "sectarian violence" between the Union and the Confederacy, right? Call i

Going Further
I do not know the outcome of my actions Sometimes before I even know what I plan to do But of anything I can let myself do within the future Loving you is something I will always want to keep No matter where you may travel in your life Giving what matters most for your survival is key. Promise me that you shall never go away To keep everything I taught you close to heart Memories of my kind and gentle feelings Courage has been given for you to make it on your own And if you ever need me to hold or to love I shall always be closer to you than what you think. Times have changed and our world is slowly developing We must make the ultimate sacrifice now But do not worry about what will happen to me I will be stronger than before I knew the way you loved me Together we will pull through the darkness Going further into our dreams and our destiny.

Chicken Jambalaya
5 1/2 lb chicken pieces (drumsticks, thighs, and breast halves with skin and bones) 4 tablespoons vegetable oil 1 1/2 lb andouille, cut crosswise into 1/4-inch-thick slices 3 medium onions, chopped 2 celery ribs, chopped 1 green bell pepper, chopped 4 large garlic cloves, finely chopped 2 cups chicken stock or broth 1 1/2 cups water 1 (14- to 16-oz) can whole tomatoes in juice, drained and chopped 1/4 teaspoon cayenne (optional) 2 1/2 cups long-grain white rice, rinsed and drained well 1 cup thinly sliced green onions Pat chicken dry and season with salt. Heat 2 tablespoons oil in a 10- to 12-inch heavy skillet over moderately high heat until hot but not smoking, then brown chicken in batches, without crowding, turning once, 6 to 8 minutes total (add remaining 2 tablespoons oil as needed between batches). Transfer to a bowl as browned. Reduce heat to moderate and brown sausage in 4 batches in fat remaining in skillet, turning, 3 to 4 minutes. Transfer to a paper-towel

Well Maybe I Am Wrong
See i feel alone all the time but you know there is one person i know is there i just forget it sometimes that is my roomie... She is an amazing person.. I cant beleave i was lucky enough to have ment her... Thanks Trishie Pie Your the Best !

Sugar Daddy Still Needed!
I had someone that I thought was going to help me out with the situation that I needed help with, but it fell thru because the person was not looking to be a sugar daddy but rather someone to be his girlfriend. Well I have a partner in my life..so that fell thru because I would not leave my partner of 8 years. So I am still looking for a sugar daddy! Or someone that can help me out with the present situation ..which if you would like more info on what i am referring to you can email me.. Hugs and Kisses Kelly

Why Doe's It Hurt So Much
I feel for you but you don't feel for me how could i let me feelings loose hurting all over again why am i allway's alone I reach for you and you push me away all i did was care for you all i got was pain I can't feel I can't breathe all i do is cry in a dark tunnel that i can't find a way out of I want to live in your heart and die in your arms i'll never feel again the pain surrounds me forever now my feelings are locked up and i threw away the key as i cry i'm drowning

Opps....
A husband and wife are sitting quietly in bed reading when the wife looks over at him and asks the question.... WIFE: "What would you do if I died? Would you get married again?" HUSBAND: "Definitely not!" WIFE: "Why not? Don't you like being married?" HUSBAND: "Of course I do." WIFE: "Then why wouldn't you remarry?" HUSBAND: "Okay, okay, I'd get married again." WIFE: "You would?" (with a hurt look) HUSBAND: (makes audible groan) WIFE: "Would you live in our house?" HUSBAND: "Sure, it's a great house." WIFE: "Would you sleep with her in our bed?" HUSBAND: "Where else would we sleep?" WIFE: "Would you let her drive my car?" HUSBAND: "Probably, it is almost new." WIFE: "Would you replace my pictures with hers? " HUSBAND: "That would seem like the proper thing to do." WIFE: "Would you give her my jewelry?" HUSBAND: "No, I'm sure she' d want her own." WIFE: "Would you take her golfing with you? HUSBAND: "Yes, t

Burning Like A Flame Lyrics
Burning Like a Flame" as recorded by Dokken Never thought our love would last for so long Time and time again I thought you would be gone Still we kept love hangin' on I guess it's meant to be That your heart still belongs to me And now we've stood the test of time We survived I ask for hope and a chance You give the key to your heart You used to say that I'm not sincere I'm gonna prove that you're wrong I'm never gonna leave your arms Should've realized before Your love's worth waiting for CHORUS: Don't you know that it's OUR LOVE That's burning Burning like a flame And you know that it's OUR LOVE That's never gonna change Cause every time I touch you You just make me go insane Don't you know that it's OUR LOVE That's burning OUR LOVE Burning like a flame Like a fantasy in the dark You were gone I couldn't say the words That you wanted to hear But Baby now that I see the light I feel it's burning so bright So let's stop wasting all this time Shou

Queensryche-silent Lucidity Lyrics
Hush now don't you cry Wipe away the tear drops from your eye You're lying safe in bed It was all a bad dream Spinning thru your head Your mind tricked you to feel the pain Of someone close to you leaving the game Of life So here it is, another chance Wide awake, you face the day Your dream is over... Or has it just begun? There's a place I like to hide A door way that I run thru in the night Relax child, you were there But only didn't realize, and you were scared It's a place where you will learn To face your fears, retrace the years And ride the whims of your mind Commanding in another world Suddenly, you hear and see This magic new dimension I -- will be watching over you I -- am gonna help you see it through I -- will protect you in the night I -- am smiling next to you .. in Silent Lucidity [Visualize your dreams write them into permanent form if you consist in your efforts you will achieve dream control control how is that, better? d

Fried Turkey
1 (10-pound) turkey 2 tablespoons seasoning of choice 2 tablespoons of your favorite dry rub 3 to 5 gallons peanut oil Cooks Note: To measure the amount of oil needed to fry the turkey, place turkey in fryer, add water to top of turkey, remove the turkey and the water line will indicate how much oil will be needed to fry your turkey. Having too much oil can cause a fire. The pot should not be more than 3/4 full or the oil could overflow when the turkey is added. Wash bird inside and out, and allow to drain. Rub turkey all over with seasoning. Coat turkey with dry rub. Allow the bird to sit until it reaches room temperature. Heat peanut oil in a turkey fryer or a very, very large stockpot to 350 degrees F. Lower turkey into hot oil, very carefully, making sure it is fully submerged. Fry turkey for 3 minutes per pound plus 5 minutes per bird. Remove turkey from oil and drain on paper towels.

White Lion-tell Me Lyrics
we held each other tight and ran away into the night oh baby you were so afraid we knew we couldn't stay our parents didn't understand the love we had together we were teenagers far away from home we were cold and all alone tell me baby all through the night that you'll never let me go tell me baby cause I want the world to know together we were one we found the place where dreams are made and hearts never broken we said we'd never leave you know we couldn't turn around and face that we had left behind we were young in love out on the run we were cold and all alone tell me baby all through the night that you'll never let me go tell me baby cause I want the world to know tell me baby I'm the only one and you ever need tell me baby that you'll never let me go

Gone 4 Weekend
GONE 4 WEEKEND STARTING TOMORROW MORNING,I'M GOING TO COLORADO TO SEE HUBBY BE GONE FROM TOMORROW UNTIL MONDAY AFTERNOONISH. SO LEAVE ME MESSAGES AND LOVE AND I'LL GET THEM BACK WHEN I GET HOME IF U HAVE MY CELL UR LUCKY CALL TXT. HAVE GOOD WEEKEND RAIN.AKA STORM OF THE JLM.

Blackened Redfish
1 1/2 tsp. cayenne pepper 1 1/2 tsp. paprika powder 3 tsp. salt 1 tsp. onion powder 1 tsp. garlic powder 1/2 tsp. white pepper 1/2 tsp. black pepper 1/2 tsp. oregano 1/2 tsp. thyme olive oil 1/4 lb butter (1 stick) Mix all the dry ingredients thoroughly to form the blackening mix. Rub 3 or 4 single/serving redfish fillets with the olive oil and dust with the blackening mix. Heat a cast iron skillet to nearly red hot. Drop one-half of the stick of butter into the pan. Immediately place the redfish fillets in the pan which should be cooked for no more than 2 minutes per side. Add additional butter after turning if needed. It is recommended to cook blackened fish outside because of the amount of smoke that is generated. Alternate method for inside cooking. It will still generate quite a bit of smoke. Use any type of skillet, preferably with a non-stick finish. Place the pan on the burner set on high and add one-fourth of the stick of butter. Wait until the butter turns

Puddles Of Fun
Three little ducks go into a Bar.............................. "Say, what's your name?" the bartender asked the first duck. "Huey," was the reply. "How's your day been, Huey?" "Great. Lovely day. Had a ball. Been in and out of puddles all day. What else could a duck want?" said Huey. "Oh. That's nice," said the bartender. He turned to the second duck, "Hi, and whatyour name?" "Dewey," came the answer from duck number two. "So how's your day been, Dewey! ?" he asked. "Great. Lovely day. I've had a ball too. Been in and out of puddles all day myself. What else could a duck want?" The bartender turned to the third duck and said, "So, you must be Louie?" "No," she said, batting her eyelashes. "My name is Puddles."

Crawfish Pie
4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) butter 1 cup chopped onions 1/2 cup chopped bell peppers 1/2 cup chopped celery 1 1/2 teaspoons salt 1/2 teaspoon cayenne 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper 1/2 cup chopped, seeded, and peeled tomatoes, or 1/2 cup chopped canned tomatoes 1 pound crawfish tails 2 tablespoons chopped parsley 2 tablespoons flour 1 cup water 1/2 recipe Basic Savory Pie Crust Preheat the oven to 400 degrees F. Melt the butter in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Add the onions, bell peppers, celery, salt, cayenne, and black pepper. Saute for about 8 minutes, or until golden and wilted. Add the tomatoes and cook for about 6 minutes, stirring occasionally. Add the crawfish tails and parsley. Cook, stirring occasionally, for about 4 minutes. Dissolve the flour in the water and add to the pan. Stir for about 2 minutes, or until the mixture thickens. Remove from the heat. Let cool for at least 30 minutes. Place the crust in the bottom of a 9-inch pie pan and cr

Bourbon Pecan Pie
2 large eggs (slightly beaten) 1/4 cup dark Karo syrup 3/4 cup sugar 4 teaspoons corn starch 8 tablespoons butter 1/4 cup Jack Daniels bourbon 6 oz semi-sweet chocolate 1 bag pecan halves Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Mix eggs and Karo. Combine sugar and corn starch, add to egg mixture. Melt chocolate and butter, cool. Add bourbon and combine with egg mixture. Beat together in mixer on slow speed. Pour into a 9 inch unbaked pie shell. Sprinkle evenly with pecan halves. Bake on cookie sheet for one hour. Pie should be firm and will "set-up" while cooling.

Pralines
1 cup light brown sugar, packed 1 cup granulated sugar ½ cup light cream 1 ½ cups pecans, halved 2 tablespoons butter Combine sugars and cream in a heavy 2-quart saucepan and bring to boil over medium heat, stirring occasionally with a wooden spoon, until mixture forms a thick syrup. Add pecans and butter and continue to cook over medium heat, stirring frequently. Remove sauce pan to a heatproof surface (such as a wire rack) and let cool for 10 minutes. Use a tablespoon to drop rounded balls of the mixture onto sheet wax paper or foil, leaving about 3 inches between each ball for pralines to spread. Allow to cool. Makes about 12 candies.

Beignets
1 Envelope Active Dry Yeast 3/4 Cup Water (110 degrees F) 1/4 Cup Granulated Sugar 1/2 tsp Salt 1 Beaten Egg 1/2 Cup Evaporated Milk 3 1/2 - 3 3/4 Cups A.P. Flour 1/8 Cup Shortening Vegetable Oil for Frying Powdered Sugar in a shaker or sifter Combine the Yeast, Water, and Sugar in the work bowl of a stand mixer fitted with a dough hook (You could also make this in a food processor, or the old fashioned way, by hand). Let this sit until frothy, about 5 minutes, then add the Salt, Egg, and Evaporated Milk. Mix on low speed, then add half of the flour until it starts to come together, then add the shortening. When the shortening is incorporated start adding the remaining flour, a little at a time until most of it is incorporated. At this time I always turn the dough onto a floured bench to finish by hand, just like when I make bread; it's a touch thing. Knead the dough adding just enough flour as necessary to make a non-sticky, smooth dough. Place the dough into a large oiled

Red Beans & Rice
1 Tbsp Unsalted Butter 2 Tbsp Creole Seasoning 1 Cup Onion, chopped 1/2 Cup Bell Pepper, chopped 1/4 Cup Celery, Chopped 1 Cup Andouille, Cubed 1/2 lb. Small Red Kidney Beans (soaked overnight or for at least a few hours) 1 Tbsp Fresh Garlic, Minced 3 1/2 Cups Chicken Stock (You could certainly use water) A few Pork Neck Bones (be careful of any small bones that could fall off and get lost in the pot) 3 Fresh Bay Leaves 1 tsp Red Wine Vinegar (When I don't use Pickle Meat, I add a little vinegar because I like the flavor it gives) 1/2 Cup Tomato Sauce (I learned this from Louis Armstrong's Recipe) 1 Tbsp Italian Parsley, Finely Chopped 1/4 Cup Green Onions, thinly sliced on the bias 1/2 Recipe Creole Boiled Rice Mix together the Holy Trinity (Onions, Celery, Bell Pepper). Drain the beans. Melt the butter over medium heat. Add 1/2 of the Holy Trinity, 1 Tbsp of the Creole Seasoning, and the Andouille, turn the heat to medium high. Cook this for about 7-10 minutes, st

Sts-117 Atlantis Flight Readiness Review
Flight Readiness Review in Progress Launch Target: June 8 Launch Time: 7:38 p.m. EDT 05.30.07 NASA's Flight Readiness Review meeting starts today and concludes tomorrow, May 31, with the announcement of a target date for launching Space Shuttle Atlantis on the 21st mission to the International Space Station. The meetings are held prior to launch and involve a thorough assessment of preparations for the mission. NASA senior officials are determining the readiness of the space shuttle vehicle, flight crew and payloads for the STS-117 mission. A signed Certification of Flight Readiness endorsement certifies the successful completion of flight preparation processes. NASA managers will host a news conference no earlier than 2 p.m. EDT Thursday. The briefing will air live on NASA TV from the Kennedy Space Center, Fla. + NASA TV

Ill Miss You All
Hey all my sexy people. Well Finally got my deadline to move, so I will be gone for about a month. Ill be checking in from time to time but probly wont have my full internet untill im settled in properly. I will miss all my regular friends, so leave me love, and I promise to miss you all.

Roux (the Base For Everything Worth Eating)
2 tablespoons vegetable shortening 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour In a heavy iron skillet over medium heat, heat shortening until hot; add flour gradually, stirring or whisking to combine. Reduce heat to low and cook, stirring frequently, about 45 to 60 minutes or until roux is dark brown and has a nutlike odor (it will be very thick and pasty). NOTE: This process takes some time, depending on how high the heat is. The slower, the better, but be ready to remove skillet from heat and stir more rapidly if the roux appears to be burning. Set aside.