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Be Loved
My Beloved is the earth I am the flower longing to blossom inside of Thee forever He is the Star I am the moon that worships him as my shadow reflects His Blessed Light My Beloved is the Sun I am His devoted beam of light eternally mirroring His Mystical Sunshine He is the Perfect Pearl I am the shell that holds the secret inside as He grows ever more Divine with time He is the Face I am the tear that sheds for thee endlessly wondering will He ever look towards me? My Beloved is the Eagle I am the song I pray He sings..... echoing throughout the canyons of time Beloved hear my cry! He is my Heart and I the blood that rushes in and out calling His name ..... Beloved make me rich with Thy Spirit! He is the Sea I am the wave ceaselessly calling for Him as I long to reach His Shoreline time and time again... My Beloved is the instrument I am the note praying He weaves me into His Divin

Morning Slumber
Seeping in her dreams with sleep she lays, Her dainty dappled aspect placid and fair. The sun whispers a morning summer light that strays, And trips upon wisps of her tawny hair. Butterfly blinks tap sleep from her eyes, Those honey-moss gems of amber appear. She breaths the new day that clamber to sapid lips, Disguised within her July smile so clear. god bless all.

I Have Learned
In this life That greatness Is a careless whisper away And is found where you least Expect it. I have learned. I have witnessed that true love Should be experienced, not sought after. Nor tempted through the wreckage of impatience Pulsating inside the heart's of all men A black worm through the apple I have seen. I have felt that life is short And must be cherished That the clock stops for no one Not even the planets And that time presses forward. I have understood. I have noticed that an indigo dusk Is not permanent That all creations wonders pass by In the blink of an eye That all mens struggles Are not in vain. I have remembered. I have seen how small I am And how great the Universe is How the cosmos so briefly grace us With its solar omnipotence And how one person can change so much I have struggled. I believe that kindness is important And is so frail and fleeting I give freely

Fate Or Destiny?
Fate or Destiny? "People often meet their destiny on the road they take to avoid it" - French Proverb Many people talk of Fate and Destiny as if they are one and the same thing, but it may be interesting to examine the subtle difference between the two. It is believed by many that before we are born we make definite choices as to what we wish to learn, and the aim we want to fulfill during the coming life. It is a Spiritual decision which is rarely remembered once we are born, but in hindsight we often see that events and circumstances have led us unknowingly onwards towards our chosen destination. So our Destiny could be classified as our own personal Star. It is the Spiritual Will of the person; a deep inner need; something that drives us to do what seems impossible. It nurtures us with hope in our darkest moments; enables us to dream of better things, and resides in a place where we are destined to find our fulfillment. Destiny is what we are here on eart

Fades Away
V2: "How your ruthelss actions, now followed by attractions, was let down by the way you held your nose in thee air, You made me feel like, I was used and abused like, my heart was your rebound playground ya, And somethin like the feelin of the microphone healin like I never really ever got the feelin out, My belief in love striving for truth, I can't decide if this all turned out right... C: And It all fades away when he's here, you don't see me anymore and it all goes away when he's near, u don't hear me anymore... god bless you allxxx

Eternity Caring Too Much
Eternally Caring Too Much Giving an inch and running for miles Taking advantage if just for awhile Run back to you an inch away forgiving forgetting here to stay Like the waves that crash upon the shore It's rough sometimes but natural Breath of fresh air that is so pure Keep caring bout you more and more Like the waves that crash upon the shore It's rough sometimes but natural Breath of fresh air that is so pure Eternally caring too much I want you Wanting me So caught up in this jealousy I want you Wanting me So caught up in this jealousyI want you I know that you've got someone new to prove we're through But baby I know ya see that it's me that is meant to be god bless you allxxx I want you Wanting me Eternally caring too much

Friends What Would We Do Without Them
I should be asleep now im so tired... met up with some old friends to-day and had such a great time, just got off the phone with one of them. Its funny how we choose our friends, some make us laugh some drive us up the wall and some are just plain naughty. But what would we do without them.... My friend ross can talk you crazy, we just chat about any mad thing. He makes me laugh with his mad jokes and he loves to wind you up. But if im sad he can always make me happy and bring a smile to my face. He'd make the purfect boyfriend he knows me so well. I was the one who introduced him to Stacey is partner and they are now both very happy together. We are so close he's my best friend, I'd love to be able to get that close to a guy who could understand me the way Ross does. Think i'd better get some sleep but just wanted to say dont you think friends are amazin .

The Marine
A United States Marine was attending some college courses between assignments. He had completed some missions in Iraq and Afghanistan. One of the courses had a professor who was a vowed atheist and a member of the ACLU. One day the professor shocked the class when he came in. He looked to the ceiling and flatly stated, "God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes." The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, "Here I am God. I'm still waiting." It got down to the last couple of minutes when the Marine got out of his chair, went up to the professor, and cold-cocked him; knocking him off the platform. The professor was out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked and stunned and sat there looking on in silence. The professor eventually came to, noticeably shaken, looked at the Marine and asked, "What the

It Was The Rumor....!!!
couple of days ago , i went to my friends showroom ... and there i have seen the new collection of the bikes. including one of mine fav. 2007 HAYABUSA. i talked with him and he told me about the latest survey of exotic cars in the town. he also mentioned that LAMBORGHINI has been spotted in the area. but he wanted to make sure either it is true or not. last night i got his call and he told me that it was jz the rumor for now. but sooner or later there will be LAMBORGHINI available in the town. Interesting Isn't it...:)

My Hero's
there are people in my life who i cannot live without. One would be my mother though she and I do not get along at times, she is always there to comfort me at times of sorrow. My second hero is my brother Justin he is my bestfriend If I wouldn't have had a bro like him well then there is no sense living. Justin and I hangout alot and currently i am missin him cause he is away on business. My third hero is my other brother jason he is in the Navy and I think you very well know why he is my hero. My fourth is my best best bestfriend kimmie, she is my twin sister well not really my sister but she might as well be if it were not for her bein my friend then I probably never know just how great she is.

The Trial
Klingon: "After the first shot we lost our gravitational field. I found myself weightless and unable to function. Then two Starfleet crewmen came walking towards me." Worf: "But perhaps they merely wore Starfleet uniforms." Chang: "That remark is purely speculative, I move that it be stricken." Judge: "Colonel Worf, we are interested in facts, not theories!" Worf: "If the gravitational field was not functioning, how could these men be walking?" Klingon: "They appeared to be wearing magnetic boots." Chang: "Doctor McCoy, would you be so good as to tell me... what is your current medical status?" McCoy: "Aside from a touch of arthritis, I'd say pretty good." Chang: "And you have a singular wit, Doctor." McCoy: "For twenty-seven years, I've been the ship's surgeon aboard the U.S.S. Enterprise. In three months I stand down." Chang: "Ahh. You know, I believe that you consumed rather a generous amount of... Romulan ale in the Officer's Mess on the night in

Just Want To Sat Thank You!!!!!!!!
This one goes out to CherryTap!!! Sorry!!! But if it was not for them I would have never got to met such very fine people on here. And some of them I feel really coles to . I even call one of them My Sis. It just makes feel rally good to know that there are real people out there that do care about others!!!! One day my real wish is to really get to met them or some in person. But right now that is just a dream. Cherrytap you are great people and soare all the rest. The only thing that I can say to you is THANK YOU for letting me join. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoo PS. I feel like one of the family already and I have only been on here since I think Jan of this year.

Partt5 New Religion
Religion is that—what each of your bones felt the most resolutely strong for---defending each honest and fructifying voice from within like the citadel of the gods, Religion is that—what your heart feels is the absolute epitome of righteousness—no matter how uncouthly the barbarous planet outside chose to devour every bit of you; from your very roots, So folks lets forget everything else; come lets move united and forward; come lets live this immortal religion of our hearts to the fullest; come lets forget our disdainfully castrated pasts and give this new religion of ours a fresh try—and our very very best…the end god bless you allxxxx

Dream Guy
I dont want a guy to shower me in gifts, an fly me to paris on weekends.I want a guy who notices when I get my hair cut, or when I dress up he compliments me on how I look. When I cry he wipes my tears, and when im lonely he makes me feel loved. A hug means more than any gifts or presents.... Someone who will love me with every single beat of his heart, who thinks about me constantly and wondering if im ok. Who can help me reach my dreams and goals. Who will protect me from my fears treat me with respect and love every part of me especially my flaws. Someone who can make me happy bouncing on air happy. I can but only dream that out there,there are guys like that,that are real and not just a dream, and one day my dream will come true.

Part Four Of New Religion
Religion is that—what your mind fantasized till beyond the most unbelievably beautiful limits—and thereby felt in the seventh heaven of ubiquitous prosperity whilst traversing each instant on mundane earth, Religion is that—what your shoulders philanthropically hoisted from one end of your adventure to the other—being a selfless harbinger of humanity to mitigate each ounce of sorrow with profound camaraderie and care, Religion is that—what your legs want to ecstatically gallop after; like the horizons indefatigably running after the Sun—the most tantalizing mirage which tirelessly triggers you to achieve more and more and more, Religion is that—what the tiniest cranny of your soul unshakably radiates---permeating such a yearning that you continued to wondrously exist beyond your corpse for a countless more lives and lifetimes, next part in next blog god blessxxxx

Iggy
Well I logged off the pc before she got home from work. Needless to say I did hide out in my daughters room in the sweltering heat. (We hit records today with 101) She hasn't mentioned anything else to me, but I have this really empty feeling if that makes sense. The way that I see it, if I do have to go stay at my moms until I go back to Germany can't be as bad as staying here feeling like I am in jail or being treated like a 2 year old. At least at my moms I would have my own room and peace and quiet. The only thing I would not like is having to give up the job I got because there is no bus out there. With all of this bullshit I am damned if I do and damned if I dont. For me being a usually "UP" and Cheery person, I am feeling really hollow right now. My only goal at this moment is to be back in Germany with Rudi and that is not possible till at least August 20th, and thats only because passport bullshit. I do need to snap out of this though, because I hate being in this mode =(

Dumped By The Bf
Ok I swear to god I all of a sudden have started texting like crazy. Ok Ok heres my story, early last year around March i met this guy through a singles website and well we hungout a couple of times and started to talk on the phone alot. there came a time i became obsessed over him and called him all the time, and well I called him one day and he told me to stop callin cause he was engaged and i was like wtf engaged he said he was single, and anyways I have not called anyone without their permission ever since. So anyways heres my new story I met a guy on here a few weeks ago you know who you are if your reading this anyways we started chatting on the phone and stuff, and well we then became a couple or so i thought, anyways he first came to me claiming he had a crush on me then I had a crush on him and then I feel madly in love with him. Anyways heres my little problem see I have this wee little problem with texting and stuff and well as you read at the beginning of this blog I do not

Thanks To All!!
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that has sent me a get well card or any gift of the sort. I have been suffering from terrible migraines and anexity since my car was hit. I got injections today so now I am doing a bit better. The stress from this kid is really getting to me I guess. But hey life goes on.....just a quick favor...if anyone knows of a car for sale cheap but good running, would ya let me know?!? Thanks again!!! ~Echo

Part Three Of New Religion
religion is that which each part of your eyes wanted to mellifuously hear enthall to the most unprecedented of capacities in the everlasting symbotic tunes of blissful survival. religion is that what your palms wanted to clasp infalliby forever and ever and ever that united strength of togetherness that granted you the temerity to palpitate even in the most apocalyptically disastrous of stroms and times. religion is that what your mouth wanted to perennially talk and sing praises about rhqapsodically engulfing each element of he atmosphere around you with with the unbridled happiness of countless lifetimes in one. religion is that what each of your bones felt the most resolutely srong for defending each honist and fructifying voice from within the citadel of the gods. next part in next blog god blessxx

Lifes Simple Pleasures ( Whats Yours)?
what makes us happy? is it the simple things in life that bring us the greatest joy. like wearing sexy underwear a clean glass to drink from. Painting your nails, watching the world cup. Pressing the button on the traffic lights when your not crossing. Trying on clothes you'll never buy. Having a laugh with your mates, entertaining friends. Maybe sunshine on your day of , or wearing new socks or getting the giggles, finding a bargain or listening to music. No matter what your simple pleasures are, and im quite happy for you to tell me. Its always those little things that bring the greatest joy. A babies first steps that text a smile a kiss holding hands things like that make us rich. Dont get me wrong id love to win the lottery but even when we have no money all of the above can still make us feel rich. what makes you happy? please let me know...........

Whats Next....
So i guess my wife is moving to CA. Shes a kinda depressed i guess. Actually I take that back shes just really psycho. I have my kids at least. I just hope she can get better soon, to be there for her children. Oh yeah and there is another guy. Apparently shes going out there with some stupid marine, no offense other marines, but this one is an idiot. Ok that enough for now, I post more later.

I Have No Luck!!!
So, there I was sitting in the courtroom, not ten foot away from this clean shaven kid. His name is called, his attorney pleads "not guilty" for him. I walk out steaming mad. Now, let me back this up. Early Sunday morning, we are getting ready to leave my friends house. All of a sudden we hear this loud boom, it shook the building. I look out in time to see a red car pulling off. I then realized that the car had hit my friends truck and slammed the truck into my car. On the phone with the cops, I am going into detail. I get a call back to ask me to come identify the car I seen drive off. Less than a mile away, we pull up to see a young kid standing outside the car with an officer. The other officer came over to talk to me. He said the kid was saying that it was not him. I told him that I have the kids front bumper, fog light and cell phone back where is wrecked. Yeah, you read that right, he hit so hard the cell phone flew out the window. After the kid realizes that I was there to b

You Had Me From Hello...
One word, that's all was said, Something in your voice caused me To turn my head. Your smile just captured me, You were in my future as far as I could see. And I don't know how it happened, But it happens still. You ask me if I love you, If I always will......... Well, you had me from hello I felt love start to grow The moment I looked into your eyes, You won me, it was over from the start. You completely stole my heart, And now you won't let go. I never even had a chance you know? You had me from hello Inside I built a wall So high around my heart, I thought I'd never fall. One touch, you brought it down Bricks of my defenses Scattered on the ground And I swore to me that I wasn't Going to love again The last time was the last time I'd let someone in Well, you had me from hello I felt love start to grow The moment I looked into your eyes, You won me, it was over from the start. You completely stole my heart, And now you wont let go.

A Tru Story Not My Own .. Plz Play Safe !
* I have put this story here as a reminder to everyone. Play safe.* ColdIce's Story A sad but true story The following article/story was originally found on the Anvil Dungeon International site (which WAS specifically for BBW -Big Beautiful Women- and had an IRC Undernet channel #BBW-BDSM). This non-fiction accounting of a woman's true and horrific IRC-to-'real life' is here thanks to DRKfantasy. MY STORY Some of you know me personally, some only through the computer. Some of you may not of ever heard of me. I am writing this in the hopes of saving someone from going through the anguish and heartache that I and my family have gone through. My nickname on Chat is Cold as Ice1. I am 38 years old. I have a family consisting of three children and three step children. The older two step children do not live with me /but I was very close to them. Living at home are my three children. Lisa is 19. Shelley is 13 and Daniel is 7. My step daughter 18 also lives

Pennsylvania
You've never referred to Philadelphia as anything but "Philly." And New Jersey has always been "Jersey." You refer to Pennsylvania as "PA." "You guys" is a perfectly acceptable reference to a group of men & women. You know how to respond to the question "Djeetyet?" (Did you eat yet?) You learned to pronounce Bryn Mawr, Wilkes-Barre, Schuylkill, Bala Cynwyd, Duquesne, New Tripoli, Tunkhannock, Punxsutawney, Tamaqua, Susquehanna, Allegheny, Mahantongo, Shenandoah and Monongahela. You know what a "Mummer" is, and are disappointed if you can't catch at least highlights of the parade. The first day of buck and the first day of doe season are school holidays. You can use the phrase "fire hall wedding reception" and not even bat an eye. You can't go to a wedding without hearing the "Chicken Dance," at least one Polka and either an Italian song (sung in Italian,) or "Hava Nagila." At least 5 people on your block have electric "candles" in all or most of their wi

How To Drive In Jersey
1. You must first learn to pronounce the city name, it is New-erk not New-ark. 2. The morning rush hour is from 5:00 a.m. to noon. The evening rush hour is from noon to 7:00 p.m. Friday's rush hour starts on Thursday morning. 3. The minimum acceptable speed on the turnpike is 85 mph. On the parkway it's 105 or 110. Anything less is considered "Wussy." 4. Forget the traffic rules you learned elsewhere. Jersey has its own version of traffic rules. For example, cars/trucks with the loudest muffler go first at a four-way stop; the trucks with the biggest tires go second. However, in Ocean/Monmouth counties, SUV-driving, cell phone-talking moms ALWAYS have the right of way. 5. If you actually stop at a yellow light, you will be rear ended, cussed out, and possibly shot. 6. Never honk at anyone Ever. Seriously. It's another offense that can get you shot. 7. Road construction is permanent and continuous in all of Jersey. Detour barrels are moved around for your entertainme

Tequila Loves Me...
South of the border. American dollars Take you a long, long way Beachside bungalows, sand between your toes, Nobody knows your name There's a worm at the bottom of a bottle That's well within my reach And the heart that you broke will soon be a joke As soon as he and I meet Oh forgettin's cheap in Mexico She'll be there waiting And she won't say no Tequila loves me even if you don't Madam Tequila's a fine senoriata All my compadres concur She won't lie, she won't leave in your hour of need So we're raising our glasses to her They say "valmos hecharlo el traga" It means "drink it all down 'til you see The bottom of the glass and it's kickin' your ass" Boys, the next round's on me Oh forgettin's cheap in Mexico She'll be there waiting And she won't say no Tequila loves me even if you don't Oh forgettin's cheap in Mexico She'll be there waiting And she won't say no Tequila loves me even if you don't Oh forgettin's che

Part Two Of New Religion
religion is that what your hands wanted to give the most unflinchingly definitive shape to such an unfailing silhouette of eternal frienship which was immopsible for eve the most beguiling of demons to disrupt. religion is that what your lips wanted to kiss 24x7 perpetuating even the most bizarrely frazzled persona to uninhibtedly sour in wisps of unfettered paradise. religion is that what your nostrils wanted to inhale till the last breath of your life an entrenchment of unassailable compassion which made existance the most priceless chapter of destiny. relion id that what your fingers wanted to timelessly intertwine which each unveiling instant back in the spirit of invinicibly bountiful frendship for times beyond an unfathomable infinate nect part in next blog god blessxxx

Overwhelming Fear At 70 Mph
The car died going 70 mph on the highway yesterday... Scared the hell out of me because my daughter was in the car with me... It restarted right away, but this means my water pump has just about completely bit it.... How you say do I know the water pump is what killed the car? Well see the water pump I was told (right before going to Chicago to see him) was about to die... I didn't have the money to fix it then (or NOW)... It froze up, which jammed the belt... essentially locking up the engine momentarily... How did you restart it so fast? The car is a manual transmission and because we were going so fast the car actually restarted itself (pop-start) when I pushed in and let out the clutch.... Will it happen again? YES... and more often as the pump gets worse... Why don't you just fix it? Because I have less than $20 to my name for the next month and can't even pay rent right now... and the medical stuff is sooo delayed that I might lose my only job offer because

Wtfe
I realize the internet is an opportunity to meet a variety of people, and I think...if you can listen for a sec...here it is ....illusional love. Meaning..love can be felt, but not for real...The heart can feel what the eyes can't see, and its happening all the time . A lot of people feel somthing for the people they talk to on a regular basis, but you have to understand, as much as it is wanted it is not real. Until you meet. Till it becomes real and you meet...thats when the reality starts...I don't know ..just my opinion..I care about people that I have never met, and I think its more of an illusion then what we all care to admit.

Looking For Some Help
I am really trying to get this for my son. He got straight A's the whole school year and really deserves thhis.His B-day is coming up and I just cant afford a X-Box 360. All I need is 10 referrals and thats it. It is free. Just Please take a second to read this. I took it from my ebay page. Thanks in advance and i will somehow return the favor I promise. Just take 1 minute and read this. This is very EASY to do! It literally takes 10 minutes to setup. Simply follow the steps below. Click on the link below, register, pick an account type (referral is the easiest) and complete just 1 offer (Very important that you complete the 1 offer otherwise your account will sit in limbo until you do).This is not like other sites where you need to complete one offer on 2 or 3 different pages!!! And a lot of these offers are FREE trials with nothing else to buy...No committments!!! There are plenty of cool offers to choose from such as Blockbuster online, Stamp.com, Netflix, Gamefly which ar

The Light
Soulidium lyrics The Light I've lived my life I dont apologize to anybody... Love has come and now I'm free to be the real me... And now I see I see the light Freed from the night, the sun is rising again.. And I feel I feel alive It's on my face Not far from grace... not far from grace.. If it feels right it cant be wrong, it's so extraordinary Break your chains despite their key You were born to be free... And now I see I see the light Freed from the night, the sun is rising again.. And I feel I feel alive It's on my face Not far from grace... not far from grace.. And now I see I see the light Freed from the night... And I feel I feel alive not far from grace... And now I see I see the light Freed from the night I feel I feel alive not far from grace... not far from grace... Written By Michael McKnight Music By Soulidium Copyright 2007, KnightVision Music MMK Music Publishing

Wishful Thinking
She slept with dreams that haunted her The voices chanted words that taunted her Through her years, only one friend she'd made A solid, yet beautiful, sharp steel blade She inhales the smoke with each shallow breath Having only one whim, one wish for death.

I Must Protest!
To offer Klingons safe haven within Federation space is suicide. Klingons would become the alien trash of the galaxy. And if we dismantle the fleet we'd be defenseless before an aggressive species with a foothold on our territory. The opportunity here is to bring them to their knees. Then we'll be in a far better position to dictate terms.

Angel And Demon
She cries each night for his life He plays around on the Devil's playground She's his only happiness to get away from his sadness He drinks his beer to get away from the pain She is his sunshine and without her, he's alone in the rain Their love is strong, though he is weak She dreams about him, he never sleeps In his stoned eyes of darkness She tries to see inside him She would stop breathing if he asked her to Anything to prove her love is true Though his life is under the Devil's sweet spell He rests in her Heaven, she suffers in his Hell.

Lets Come Embrace Our New Religion
religion is that what even the most infininitesimal cranny of your eyes wanted to see inexhaustibly absorb admire yearn for till times beyond infinity and even beyond your veritaby stinking grave. religion that is that what each ingredient of your blood inexhaustibly craved to be part of flow for with an untamed zeal resembling the unendingly vivacious expanse of the cystaline blue sky. religion is that hat the innermost voices of your conscience felt to be the ultimare truth irrespective of whatever be the place time situation moment or condionality of impoverished and truncated life. religion is that what every part of your feet wanted to ardently step on pave an inimitably righteous path of their very own admist a brutal guagmie of emotions and squalid commercialism all around next part in next blog god blessxxx

Do You Know?
As the fiery red sun fades into night and the waves caress the windswept shore; The moon unveils it's icy stare I need her love more and more The forest floor is an empty grave The birds no longer sing - they only cry My long lost love so close - yet far Only God knows why An angel in a sea of hate A rose, alone in a field of hay My lover in my every dream My only hope - someday Perhaps it's youth that hides her heart With armor, ice and fire Perhaps it's love's sweet poison That's fueling my desire It only takes one heart to want To love, needs two to make it right Love and beauty rest in front of my eyes I never saw it until tonight. From my friend Christopher Eckert 12-28-95

(must Read)
i don't know what guy wrote this, but he's a genius. Every guy on the face of the earth should read this. If they did, girls would probably get treated a lot better than they do... This was written by a guy who has had years of experience. and he's pretty good with girls.. 1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house [without notice]...they run around in their underwear just like we do. 2. DON'T CHEAT ON THEM. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud. If you do cheat on them do not ever talk to the girl or see the girl you cheated on them. They will be hurt , no matter what they say. 3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the hat. 4. NEVER miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful. 5. DON'T refuse to kiss in front of your friends

Sad Story Of A Girl....part 5
We are coming back to current times with the girl right now. She feels really stupid right now. She is dealing with things that she doesn't want to deal with. She has learned a few things that have her very upset, most dealing with the boy. She had at one time thought she was special to the boy. She gave up that hope a while ago. She knew that the things he said and the way he acted towards her were words and things made of spider webs. Easily blown away and just as easily seen through. She has sat here listening to the boy talk about how he can't stand women who sleep around. Those who give themselves to every man that they can. She finds out that the boy is the exact thing that he himself despises. She has tried hard to prove to him that not all women are like that. She can't claim to be perfect but most all of her life, she has been a very well behaved person. She has made her mistakes and done things that weren't too well thought through. Those spur of the moment things, things tha

Todays Funny 7/5/07
MARK YOUR CALENDAR FOR NEXT SATURDAY!!!!!!! As you may already know, it is a sin for a Muslim male to see any woman other than his wife naked, and that he must commit suicide if he does. So next Saturday at 4 PM. Eastern Time all American women are asked to walk out of their house completely naked to help weed out any neighborhood terrorists. Circling your block for one hour is recommended for this anti-terrorist effort. All men are to position themselves in lawn chairs in front of their house to prove they are not Muslims, and to demonstrate they think it's okay to see nude women other than their wife and to show support for all American women. Since Islam also does not approve of alcohol, a cold 6-pack at your side is further proof of your anti-Muslim sentiment. The American government appreciates your efforts to root out terrorists and applauds your participation in this anti-terrorist activity. God bless America . It is your patriotic duty to pass t

Sad Story Of A Girl....part 4
We are going to take a look into some of the smaller details of the girls life now. We are going to go back a little over 4 years ago, a few months after the girl left her husband. Her and the husband were getting along. Trying to recover that friendship that they shared years ago when they were in their teens. She went over one day to house sit for him. He was expecting the cable guy to install his cable that day. So she and the kids went over and waited for the cable guy to show up. He came, installed the cable and asked if he could smoke a cigarette before he left for his next job. She didn't see a problem with this so they sat there talking for the better part of an hour. He told her all about his fiance and his best friend. He told her that he thought that she and his best friend would hit it off and asked if he could give him her number. She was a little wary about that so she gave him her pager number instead. The next day she received a page. When she called the number back, it

Sad Story Of A Girl....part 3
We continue with the story of the girl. She sits here wondering what is wrong with her. Wondering why is it that she sits here, feeling like nothing more than something to be used and put away until later. She struggles to still see any beauty in the world. Where once she looked and saw color, is now all shades of gray. Bleak and dismal her world has become. She wonders if she will ever be able to see the world as she once did. Will she ever be able to see the world with the eyes she once had? Will she ever find someone who still believes in the beauty that she once saw? Will she ever stop letting people use her and treat her the way she does? Will she wake up one day and say "no more"? She sits here doubting it. She thinks about her friends. She wonders if they will ever be able to be the people that she knows they can be. Will they ever be the people she needs them to be? She thinks about the boy. She worries about the boy. She wonders if the boy will ever see her as more than a conv

End Of Forever
This is the day they've dreamt of so long A magical moment of music and song Candles are flickering with beautiful light On this day, everything must be right Here comes the bride as the wedding march sounds A vision of white in her glorious gown Her groom stares with love at the light of his life He's waited so long to make her his wife They stand side by side, perfect together Vowing true love till the end of forever. 3-12-96

7/7/07
I have come on to find my shout box over flowing with a ton of stuff. I will gladly help anyone of my friends who needs it but you all need to know something about me first - if you do not already. I have MS and the medications I take (esp the ones at night) mess with my short term memory. I an not blowing you off. I love you allAlso due to my MS I have ptic Neurosis so my eyes do not work well all the time. There will be daywhere I can see ok but the sb is a stretch. If it is important tell me to log on to yahoo and try and have your font large. I am an ordained Reverend and have 2 weddings happening soon. You know who you are. Please contact me via e-mail witchyvampgoddess@yahoo.com and send the dates and other info there and give me 48 hours to respond. This is because there are many times I have had conversations on here at night that I do not remember and I do not want anyone feeling like I am neglecting them. My meds have actual side effects of blackouts and amnesia. I am sorr

Dream...or Is It?
She had dreamed of this, but somehow it seemed so intimidating now, the crowd pulsating in rhythm with the music, in rhythm with her heart. She gripped the microphone until her knuckles turned white, the sweat beading on the back of her neck. Texas looked back at her, his eyes shining with excitement. She could see Tasha in the crowd, her fragile frame standing so strong, she shook the doubt off her shoulders and hoisted one Converse on the step. She took as deep a breath as she could muster and closed her eyes. The light was still invading her eyelids, searing energy into her brain. Texas couldn’t help but grin. Scott’s ponytail swung next to Tasha, and he flashed the rock n’ roll fist at her. She set the microphone on the stand and faced the crowd. It was a sea of blazing eyes, jumping twentysomethings, waiting for her to fight or fly. So close no matter how far Couldn’t be much more from the heart Forever trusting who we are And nothing else matters… She watche

From An Oklahoma Police Officer
'TO MY DAUGHTER' (AOL IS TRACKING THIS) > PLEASE DO NOT DELETE > > THIS WILL HIT YOU WHERE IT HURTS! > > > > *Just for this morning, I am going to step over the > > laundry, and pick you up and take you to the > park to play. > > *Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in > the sink, and let you teach me how to put that > puzzle of yours together. > > *Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the > telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with > you in the backyard and blow bubbles. > > *Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not > even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine > for the ice cream truck and I will buy you one > if he comes by. > > *Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about > what you are going to be when you grow up, or > second guess every decision

Hmm..........
well Desj I think we are going to get a chihauhua or something cool like that. Maybe even an attack turtle. I am pretty sure lunchmeat the cat isnt coming home. She went out to make babies and must have met an untimely end, or found a start in kitty porn. Oh, the horror of it all. She was a valuable member of the desjarlais houshold, and will be missed. Can I get a "Yeayyyyyyy new pet!!" hehe

Not Sure Of.............
NOT SURE OF... You're not sure of: THE DOCTOR because he says, "Take off your clothes." THE DENTIST because he says, "Open wide." THE HAIRDRESSER because he says, "Do you want it teased or blown?" THE MILKMAN because he says, "Do you want it in the front or the back?" THE INTERIOR DECORATOR because he says, "Once it's in, you'll love it." THE STOCK BROKER because he says, "It will rise right up, fluctuate for a while and then slowly fall back again." THE BANKER because he says, "If you take it out too soon, you'll lose interest." THE HUNTER because he goes deep in the bush, shoots twice and always eats what he shoots. THE BELL ATLANTIC GUY because he says, "Would you like it on the table or against the wall?"

Psycho Dwarf (an Interesting Song For Anyone To Hear While Drinking)
Artist: Beatnuts, The Album: Intoxicated Demons Title: Psycho Dwarf "get on down" (repeat 4x cut and scratched) I wanna fuck, drink beer, and smoke some shit! Fuck, drink beer, and smoke some shit! I wanna fuck, drink beer, and smoke some shit! Fuck, drink beer, and smoke some shit! Verse one: psycho les, juju Knock knock, who is it? what my moms is the wizard I'm about to land like an avalanche or a blizzard So open up, let me in, then Check out the ill motherfuckin les swing Wickedy wicked, your girl's tit i lick it And shwin-g it, like my man wilson pickett I kick it, the spanish psycho's a lunatic Rip a show, get the dough, and stick the hoe with my super *dick* It's a ahh nut, then i be ghost You got ta be clean everything not gross I bust a ill style that your ears are not used to Beatnuts make tracks for the crowd to get loose to So honies in the house if you're hot rip your blouse off My brothers if you're thirsty, crack the forty ounce Be

If "monsoon" Is Here, I Could Be Offline A Lot
Don't even ask why. I have this damned thing on a surge protector, and yet some people are so scared by what they hear on the news that they are ABSOLUTELY CONVINCED my computer's going to burn down the house if it's on during a rainstorm. Yet somehow it doesn't apply to the TV. A$$wipes. And to make matters worse, the internet-ready cell phone I ordered isn't here yet. If you don't see me online for a while, it's because paranoia is god in the minds of the retarded.

So You Say
You say you love me, and I know I love you But you say things to me that just aren't true "I can't live without you" "I'll do anything for you dear" You say only things you think I want to hear What about honesty? Where did that go? Am I here just for sex? Am I just your hoe? That's the only time I feel special to you Feel needed, feel pretty, like you want me, too If this is real love, and true love it seems Then why do you lie and why are you so mean? I love to love you. You mean the world to me So why do you hurt me? Can't you see? I don't want you to leave, and I'm afraid that you will Every time you're gone, my world just stands still I don't want to hurt and I don't want to cry What's wrong with giving a damn about me? Do you think you could try? If your will is strong, and you want this to last Then give it your best effort and forget the past I know it takes time, so why not start now? You know what to do, don't ask me "how?" So why can't we foc

62- She Shines
She shines from the inside out Looking into her eyes is like staring at the sun When she says your name she leaves no doubt Feel like you can can touch the sky..you are the one She shines from the inside out Takes away the haze, helps me along my way She is the rain in my season of drought Laughter and smiles to brighten my day She shines from the inside out Everyone she meets speaks of the way she captivates Can't tell you what it's all about But she pulls me out from under a tidal wave She shines from the inside out And I am in awe everytime my phone rings That voice slays me even when she pouts Brings me up whenever she starts to sing

I Just Dont Understand
why why why.... After 3 years and all we've done, bought this house and land....got ourselves a life... now you descide that you would rather spend your time partying ,drunk and high.... I never asked for anything more then love honor and respect from you...and I gave you all that I ever expected for you to give back.... but yet here we are another summer and you have lost your mind... I have never heard of a seasonal addict...but nw i have lived it. you have finally decided that you would rather spend your time drunk and stoned... well enjoy your "friends" little gurlie...cause once they use you up they will toss you aside... this all would be a bit easier if you could've told me why. all i got was the " its not you its me" well....duh....no shit sherlock... i gave you love, trust, caring, hope, and respect...and yet even where the kids a re concerned you are just oblivious.... I could deal with this if you were an actual alcoholic...and this was something we have bee

Plubic Restrooms
Subject: Public Restrooms !! > > >It is not the destination but the journey > > > > When you have to visit a public > > bathroom, you usually find a > > line of women, so you smile politely and take > > your place. > > Once it's your turn, you check for feet under the > > stall > > doors. Every stall is occupied. > > > > Finally, a door opens and you > > dash in, nearly knocking down > > the woman leaving the stall. > > > > You get > > in to find the door won't latch. It doesn't > > matter, > > the wait has been so > > long you are about to wet your pants! > > > > The dispenser for the modern > > "seat covers" (invented by > > someone's Mom, no doubt) is handy, but empty. > > You would hang > > your purse on the door hook, if there was one, but > > there > > isn't - so you carefully, but quickly drape it > > around your > > neck, > > (Mom would turn over in her grave if you put it o > > n > > the FLOOR!), yank down > > your pa

61-beautiful Lies
Lie to me and say that you want me Tell me how its just not the same Lie to me and tell me how much you need me Its beautiful lie that makes my day Did you think of me in your darkest moment Could you count the times you said my name In my mind the pictures never fade A beautiful lie is on what this life was made A beautiful lie But its only as cold as you make it A beautiful lie Yes my dear i always knew how you faked it Does it make me a fool to let it slide Can i ask for forgiveness after the flowers have been layed The transparancy leaves nothing to hide Thinking back on the dreams we burnt i could've never stayed Cigarette rings hung over you like a halo A beautiful lie in that beautiful disguise And Yes I think of you in my darkest of moments And your name is tattooed in the color of your eyes A beautiful lie The truth only ever lets you down A beautiful lie Comfort in that soothing sound

Exile
“ Exile “ Beneath the bright sun, the exile wonders His heart is turned in, his spirit ponders What sins he has done to deserve his fate Alone he must wait for his death day to come When he was a child, his parents forsook him They set him adrift, consigned to the dark whim Of fortune, He grew, and soon was a man ‘Twas then that his thoughts ran to vengeance and doom He challenged his father, and cut off his head He challenged the priesthood, and left the priest dead He challenged the people, and they drove him out Into exile, Now doubt plagues his mind and soul How different are we, than he wandering there Forsaken by nature, forbidden to care Of other poor mortals in trial after trail We are the exiles! Amusement to angels, but vermin to God!! Warchild 1999

Empty
“ Eternity “ Blissfully empty A strong heart, once betrayed Now silent and cold Waiting, The spark of love…. Everything and nothing Wanting the past Fearing it as well Everything is uncertain, No Fate Only what we make for ourselves Eternal emptiness or…Eternal uncertainty Cherished object of love Now an instrument of death The heart, The nexus of the soul Full of life….. If put to use As cold and hard as stone When used and abused

Another Time
a long time ago.. what a long time ago since illusions were lost shattered by lifes brutal way sometimes when i am drowning in pain and tears bring no relief anger bearing down pushing me deeper into the darkness to the edge of madness to the abyss i am either going to drown in sorrow or soar thru the clouds watching butterflies dance amoung the flowers, neither here or there just being but until that decision is made i shall dance along the edge of what is my life and think of the lil angels and not so lil angels that have blessed my life and bring the tears to an end by accepting me and my flaws, to learning of a new world and the possibility of a brighter future... another dance, another dream, another day, another time with you........

Sighs
so some reason this feels like its gonna be a reallyl ong night.. its hot and sticky... i have a song stuck in my head.. and i finally realized that someone ive liked for a really long time really doesnt like me.. like apparently not even alittle bit or as a friend... how fucked p is that?!?! oh well.. i guess its my guitar that will do the talkin tonight huh? cinn[vicious]

Regret
With nothing to live with but regrets I have become bitter With nothing to feed my soul but bitterness I have become malicious With nothing to give but malice I am lonely With no one to talk too, I evolve into madness Within the cold comforts of insanity I have no regrets. Warchild

Striken
“ Striken “ Calling to the souls of the fallen Back, to once again sing and dance, To visit a loved one a final time Until its time to go!! I found myself without morals, Where it all began, looking in the place Where we all want to live I stopped to see forever, not wanting to see wrong. I continued, I stopped not rightly to clear my head For a moment and traveled on three weeks I looked to my heart to see love, And so followed many battles, I fought pain in my left hand My left hand looking for peace in my right. Extended away from my heartland crossed the last valley. I looked right into the valley of evil and found the home of the beast. To know mine enemy, I have done wrong. Thought the lord of the heartless, I can do evil no more. I see the devil and he binds me, But aren’t devils merely angels tearing away your guilt? I stopped on the last day of the last month of the last year and again I have found my heart, my light must be righteous in a peace Unkn

Not A Poem A Story From 2 Years Ago
The Reality of a Broken Soul The sun hadn’t yet rose and there I was hiding behind a tree across the street. My heart pounding so hard in my chest I half expected it to burst free, as I watched her father walk out the front door and head for his green truck. Did he just look at me? No. I wait for him to leave for what seems like hours, but in reality it was only seconds. I watch as his tail lights fade into the distance, then dart across the street doing my best to dodge the street lights. I creep across the yard as quietly as possible, and reach her window. Two light taps on it and I see her smiling face. What was I doing visiting a girl four years younger than me at 5:30 in the morning behind her fathers back? Nothing like one would think. I was only 20 years old and she was 16. People could think I was there to take advantage of such a young girl, but it just wasn’t true. I’d crawl up through that window, or sneak through the back door and we’d lay in her bed and I’d hold he

No Title
Can you hear my heart When you wrap your arms around me? Do you feel me get weak When you kiss me? Have you seen my eyes Every time you walk near If you could hear my heart Would you want to know All the things that it would have to say All the things it would have to show? Would you want to see my soul melt Every time you touch my skin? I am powerless in your arms If you'd only let me in. My heart is yours - if you want it to have Just listen... it's beating for you. 6-9-05

Demons
“ Daemons “ On abysmal fields fiends clash Mighty generals lead their armies into battle Great arch-fiends slay their enemies again And again, while archangels dive Driving the dark before them Even the eternal howling winds of pandemonium Can’t silence the agonizing screams of The dying as those immortal enemies Clash and die, over and over for all eternity All the while the Daemon lords watch Amused by what they see… PUPPETS…… ALL……. Tho, the highest to the lowest demon will Endure the searing flames of truth from Heaven, all for the sake of the great Commodity, Punished by their own wicked Forms for their immortal sins. Banished Into deep, dark, lonely bottomless pits….. Yet still they strive for the great commodity Their forms blasted apart, their bones Crushed underfoot, their skulls split Asunder by the blows of angels. All For the sake of souls, The great commodity Walking, crawling, slithering, and flying, all Moving toward the goal, hoeing in the pr

Soloman And The Witch
“ Solomon and the Witch “ And thus declared the Arab lady: “Last night, were under the wild moon On grassy mattress I had laid me, Within my arms great Solomon, I suddenly cried out in a strange tongue “Not his” “Not Mine” Whatever has been said, sighed, sung Howled, Meowed, Barked, Brayed, Bellowed, Yelled, Cried, Crowed There on replied “ A Cockerel” Grew from a blossoming apple bough Three hundred years before the fall And never grew again, Until now And would not now but that he thought, Chance being at one with choice at last. All, that the brigand apple brought, And this foul world were dead at last He that craved eternity Thought to have crowed again For though love has a spiders eye To find out some appropriates pain- Aye- Through all passions in a glance For every nerve tests a cover With choices of cruelty and chance And when at last that murder’s over May-be the brides bed brings despair For each imagined image brings And finds a real image the

Feeling Mushy
“Untitled” I had closed the door upon my heart and wouldn’t let anyone in I had trusted and loved only to be hurt, but that would never happen again I had locked the door and tossed the key as hard and as far as I could, Love would never enter there again. My heart was closed for good, then you came into my life and made me change My life, just when I thought that tiny key was impossible to find. That’s when you held out your hand and proved me wrong. Because inside your hand was the key to my heart, You had it all along.

Awake
“Awake” Even such is time, that takes in trust our youth Our joys are all we have and it pays us with but Earth and dust. Low in the dark and silent grave when we have told All our ways, shut up the stories of our days, but from this earth, this grave, this dust, my god shall raise me up I trust! Awake She cried my true love comes from her midnight grave, Now let pity hear thy maiden Thy true love she refused to save Wrapped in the shade of night, the goddess lives; Yet to the land she escapes in her dark disguise. Come, sleep oh, sleep the certain kind of peace that Built a palace of wit and a balm of woe, The poor mans wealth, She, Awoke And passion was RELEASED.

My Home In Hell ( Sdsp)
My Home In Hell My home is one of heartache A place of steel and stone A barren cell, a home in hell And here I must atone For all my crime I pay with time Where lights glare day and night And though I rage and pace my cage I must stay and pay My home in hell is one small cell That no man wants to own For here I spend my life condemned A man the world disowns So I, The damned, Within walls crammed Lie in my man made grave A man all men condemn for sin But no man strives to save Each bitter day, I curse and pray To any god unknown My hope is fed on fear and dread But these are only bones I feel and ache as though a stake Were driven through my heart No greater curse, no hunger worse Than hunger within my heart I face the wall and taste the gall Of failure and defeat But hope is cheap where life is cheap And thoughts of freedom bittersweet I beat and maul the concrete wall And walk the concrete floor I damn each day the prison way And hope

Deep Within
Within the midst and mist of seamless indigo uncontrolled hours of crave filled night Within the decadent fog of moist dreams fantasy’s boiling sands he seeps in sin soaked triumph A Zorro masked seduction of flesh tone shadow’s silhouette erotic and hypnotic to her his passion’s prey Beneath closed eyes of weakened will through opened soul that is weaker still A taunting touch of ten fold lust is known Parting slumber’s wanton lips awakening the wantonness within such other lips that tremble and quiver with fearless desire He strikes and moves; his weapon’s thrusts precise and measured in tortured calibrations only she survives She stirs and squirms in feigned helpless counter mews in betraying melting tones “Mmmmmmmmmmmmmore ...” Raw animal instincts rising heating now, the vessels from which intrusion champagne’s cream froth and foam, spill over voracious victor’s cup leaving its sensual spoils to be tasted in yet another climactic war She

Wasting Time
See me as I am A puppet without a soul You twist and turn You don’t know why But in the end we all just die Faces in the darkness Living and Dying Laughing and Crying The puppet masters strings Are twisted and frayed So is your life Dead and decayed After everything I’ve done I hate myself for what I’ve become It took you to make me realize Life is an illusion!!!!!! Warchild 19

Hunger
“ The Beast” The beast lives Out in the raging storm Beyond the pettiness of humanity Knowing only rage and eternal hunger The call of hunger is without equal Fates worse than death await those –who refuse its call Eternal torment at its worst- Unearthly life and ungodly agony “Consume and Destroy” The eternal quest for peace Granted only in the death like sleep of daylight Awakening each night- knowing nothing Only hunger and rage- The perfect drug Sating my carnal hunger- with innocence and beauty Abandon all hope, ye who enter here The night is boundless, with limitless possibilities Warchild 03-19-1999

Fuck Religion
The beauty of religious mania is that it has the power to explain everything. Once god or Satan is accepted as the first cause of everything that happens In the mortal world, nothing is left to chance….or change. Once such incantory Phrases as “ We see now through a glass darkly” or “Mysteriously are the ways In which he chooses his wonders to perform” are mastered, logic can happily be Tossed out the window. Religious mania is one of the few infallible ways of responding To the worlds vagaries, because it totally eliminates pure accident. To the true Religious maniac, it’s all on purpose.

Anger
“ A 45’s Tempo” The seasons of my soul they come and go, But as they slip away , I know that something, something Else remains that will never fade away. The pieces of my heart have been torn apart. I find that in my bleakness that something remains that will never fade away. It’s the hate that runs so deep through my veins that the only thing that can cease my madness is the cold feel of hard steel in both hands, with the aim of two ways in the same purpose of the only way my hate knows how to be put out. The final end is such a mess. But who gives a fuck—I don’t have to clean it up!!!

My Family
“Worlds Apart” At the beginning there were Four One tall and strong, Proud and full of ideals—(A convict) One tall and slender, Moody and graceful, full of imagination—(A writer) One tall and broad, Quick and decisive and full of curiosity—(A tinker) One small and slight, Proud and idealistic and full of possibilities—(A mother) They grew, were nourished, developed individually and Independently, matured were educated and fulfilled……. And yet they yearned One for life to it’s fullest-Consequences be damned One for entertaining others with the spawn of his mind One for understanding the world and how it works The last for fulfillment of all life’s trivialities -And yet they grew and matured- One sits with an uncertain future, praying for time To fly by as it did so in his youth One works himself to death to provide for himself In the hopes that his imagination pays off—praying On others fears and superstitions One eternally questioning everything- leaves the

Destiny!!!!!!!!!!!
When you're taught through feelings Destiny flying high above all I know is that you can realize it Destiny who cares as it turns around and I know that it descends down on me It's just another day the shame is gone hard to believe that I've let it go Destiny can't replace my life Scary shadows of my past are alive Destiny who cares as it turns around and I know that it descends with a smile It's just another day the shame is gone it's hard to believe that I've let it go away It's just a melody it bleeds in me hard to believe that I've let it go

Angels And Demons
“Angels and Demons” I’m a star I’m a slave I’m a whore I found the door I’m game So lets play I need satisfaction Without delay Crack the whip Wrap me in pain Hit me Kiss me Pleasure and pain Am I mad Or am I sane? Swimming in a river of desire Dancing on a lake of fire Totally free, I’m letting go No attachment, No fear Enjoying the show I’m a star I’m a slave I’m a whore I found the door I know the devil I know his show He sends me demons From down below I know the lord He’s always nigh He sends me angels From up on high All together we dance and sing We love each other Lust is king Angels and Demons Pleasure and Pain Am I mad Or am I sane Warchild 1999

Bother
Artist: Stone Sour Album: Stone Sour Title: Bother Wish I was too dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds (Solo: Corey) Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep

Family Emerency
TO FAMILY THIS RUBIA I WILL BE OFF LINE OFR THE NEXT FEW DAYS DUE TO THE FACT MY EX HUSBAND AN GIRLFRIEND ABUSE MY SON, MY EX HUSBAND WHO CHOKED AN SLAM MY SON IN TO A WALL OVER ICES PLEASE BARE WITH ME ANY ONE NEEDS HELP GO TO SHADOW OR CANDYRAIN ALSO CHERRY HAS A FAMILY PROBLEMALSO SHE HAD TO LEAVE FOR HER SISTHIER SHE WILL BE BACK ON STAURDAY EVENIN PLZ KEEP CHERRY IN THE LEAD IM SORRY LOVE RUBIA

Circle
Artist: Slipknot Album: Vol 3: (The Subliminal Verses) Title: Circle Give me the dust of my father Stand on the face of the angels Bear all the secret flesh of time itself Follow me (Follow me) I've come so far behind again Follow me (Follow me) Wish so hard I'm there again Follow me (Follow me) Follow me (Follow me) All that I wanted the dreams I had before All that I needed I've never needed more All of my questions are answers to my sins All of my endings waiting to begin I know the way that I faulter Can't be afraid of my patience There's a sacred place where --- keeps safe Follow me (Follow me) I've seen so much I'm behind again Follow me (Follow me) I feel so bad I'm in love again Follow me (Follow me) All that I wanted the dreams I had before All that I needed I've never needed more All of my questions are answers to my sins All of my endings waiting to begin

Paradise Awaits
in a room i sit all alone waiting to come home as my day goes on i think of you and you help me get through at night i wait to hear your words they give me sweet dream all night long as time goes by i think of you and when enough has past i will come home to you together a life we can build nothing can stop us nothing can stand in our way of building our paradise together we will stand side by side and walk through life hand in hand i once thought happiness could not be found you turn my world around you showed me joy for a long time i have not seen you have given me hope for my dreams when i look into your eyes paradise awaits

He's Just Not That Into You
This is also from my Xanga blog, but I thought it deserved it's own place. This is quotes from the book "He's Just Not That Into You". When I first posted this blog on Xanga I had things colored and underlined and it looked nice, but that's not happening here. He’s just not that into you if he’s not asking you out…Because if he likes you he will ask you out. *When it comes to men, deal with us as we are, not how you’d like us to be. *An excuse is a polite rejection. *Don’t get tricked into asking him out. *If you can find him, then he can find you. If wants to find you, he will. *Hey, let’s meet at so-and-so’s party/any bar/friend’s house is not a date. *Men don’t forget how much they like you. So put down the phone. He’s just not that into you if he’s not calling you…Men know how to use the phone. *Meeting someone you like and dating him is supposed to make you feel better, not worse. *If he’s not calling you, it’s because you are not on his mind. *If he crea

The Virgin Servant
It was the night before your birthday. Every thing was planned for our night all alone. The candles were set one by one . The centerpiece cradling a basket of your favorite flowers, roses, were set in the candle glow . To the roses I added a tint of aroma therapy to set the mood. Upon the silken red sheets I lay thinking ,yes this is the perfect night to loose my virginity its going to be perfect how could she resist. Following a deep sleep upon the silken sheets I awoke to the sound of a gentle knock. You looked soft as a dove in the warm misty breeze. Your lips bright as blood ,yet, a tint of gloss making it look as if they were made of porcelain. Your lips were calling to me as my dick starts to grow. I look upon you and notice the shirt you are wearing. Small and tight showing every curve ass as well as your of innocence around your breast. White ,oh white indeed ,I could barely see threw to see the areola. My penis was starting to show threw my pants. Your skirt was short,

Be Demons Be Driven
“Torture” Nothing has changed The body is painful It must eat, breathe air, and sleep It has thin skin, with blood right beneath It has a goodly supply of teeth and nails It’s bones are brittle, it’s joints extensible In torture, all this is taken into account Nothing has changed The body trembles, as it trembled Before and after the founding of Rome In the twentieth century, before and after Christ Torture is, as it’s always been, only the earth has shrunk And whatever happens, happens next door Nothing has changed Only there are more people Next to the old transgressions, new ones have appeared Real, Alleged, Momentary, None But the scream, the bodies response too them Was, is, and always will be the scream of Innocence In accord with the age old scale and register Nothing has changed Except maybe manners, ceremonies, dances Yet the gestures of the arms shielding the head Has remained the same The body writhes, struggles, and tries to back away

Be Demons Be Driven
“It’s A Short Life” Your born You eat You shit You sleep You grow up You work You mate It’s fate New family More bills You’re fucked Drink pills You survive You gain weight Say, Good-Bye Time to die

Be Demons Be Driven
Dark night of the Soul I continued in oblivion lost My head was resting on my love Lost to all things and myself And, Amid the Lillies forgotten Threw all my cares away Thought of the Day---- April 23, 1999 Let no one read the poems I have written up Till now Let no one believe in them, As I believed Before the defeat Before life taught me That I was a fraud That I only dreamed I was different That I never was what I thought I was

Be Demons Be Driven
“Untitled” Here I sit All full of hate Who now Will I segregate Will I love and lose Will I lust and gain Don’t know what to chose All I see are chains Locked within my mind I’m beaten with bars I won’t look behind Above and beyond I can see the stars Of those left behind All are bones A heart full of love Turned to stone Through love lost With agony and pain You must suffer To earn your reign Through hate and fear Are proper gears? A machine of hate Lost in the dust of years The reaper comes With passing time Through palace or slum Without reason or rhyme There is a dreadful hell Where sinners must With devils dwell In darkness, fire, and chains Steel will rust Chains will break How many hearts Will I forsake? Warchild 1998

Howdy
I closed down my Xanga account, so here is some of my blogs (in some cases only part of them). Some of the blogs are also posted on Myspace, but not all. Tuesday, November 14, 2006 The Freshman "15" and Other Myths Since your first week in a new place can be scary, it’s important to separate the fact from the fiction. So I’ve cobbled together some undisputable scientific tidbits that should keep you feeling cool, calm and collected during the seven days that will make or break your college career. If you’re not ready for the truth, stop reading now - because there’s no turning back. Remember, poking a hole in a myth is a lot like poking a hole in a condom – do it and people will respect you. First off, you will become more popular the more groups you create on Facebook. The guy who created the “People Who Say Soda Not Pop” group drives an Escalade. In the dining hall, people address him as Sir, not “Finklestein,” not “Adam.” Secondly, it’s OK to sleep with everybody

So Can I
I can look into your eyes And see you're not for real I know you don't mean what you say Or feel what you say you feel I know this game, I've played it before I know it all too well I know all your moves before you make them You can't hide inside your shell I can't, however, make you love me I can't make you stay So I'll just play along with you In hopes you will, someday.

Little Lies
Lie to me please I’m asking you will you lie to me I know I’m fat stomach so far out I cant see my feet Stretch marks so deep it looks like I’ve been cut with a knife Why wont you lie to me I see my face in a reflection permanent black eyes form lack of sleep jagged teeth half rotted away and fallen out of their cozy little spot in my mouth I now beg you please lie to me My hands fat and stubblely I can barely shake peoples hands when they say "Hi" or even put my fingers together to grab this stupid pen Now please lie to me I need to hear your lies coming form your mouths I need ot hear how beautiful I am not just another fat loser in a "dress" I wanna here how beautiful my eyes look or how pretty my smile is so I am not afraid to even laugh for god sake I need to hear these little lies so I can be alive once again "a body is only a shell of what others view as you... but true self image hides within."

Hey All
I know i havent been on much here lately only because im working 12 hour shifts now 6 days a week... I'll still pop in from time to time and add more morphs and goodies on here and still creating new things for people so please dont forget ya wanna morph or something created.....give me a haller. And please and most important........Stop by check out my profile and leave me some love in between....I'll be sure to return the favor. HAGN.......

What Going On Today Update!
Well, I been feeling little more tired mostly because I been going on 2 to 4 hours sleep not a day but week that not good when you are ill. Believe it or not it can cause you more pain then you already have and it can make you get sicker easier then you already do because rest heals the body and the soul. Well, almost two months ago my doctor put me on Chemo , yea, Chemo before that my hair was falling out from early stage lupus now my hair is falling out from Chemo and when I went to the doctor today thinking I would be able to get off of it or maybe one of the other pills I take. WRONG he added two more Chemo pills on every Thursday of each week so now I take 6 and I get blood test done instead of every two months or three I am back to once a month sucks but has to be done. The pills I take are POSION pills basically what it comes down too. I hate it too. Then he added another pill that the goal is to help me sleep HUH! we shall see about that I mean I would love nothing better t

A Vampire's Kiss (poem)
A strong sense of connection A loving embrass A sharp pain in the side of my neck Everything slowly fades to red He was my love He was my life I will never love anyone the way I love him This kiss would never be forgottn It changed my life forever I was now part of a new world A world of eternal darkness My love and I will be together for eternity A vampire's kiss changed my life A vampire's kiss brought a sense of completion into my life There was never a first kiss that meant so much As my vampire's kiss Through darkness I found light Through death I found life and love Copyright 2007 Crystal Allen

Wasted
Artist: Carrie Underwood Album: Some Hearts Title: Wasted Standing at the back door She tried to make it fast One tear hit the hard wood It felt like broken glass She said sometimes love slips away And you just can't get it back Let's face it For once this second She almost turned around But that would be like pouring rain Back into a cloud So she took another step and said I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it I don't wanna' spend my life jaded Waiting to wake up one day and find That I've let all these years go by Wasted Another glass of whisky and it still don't kill the pain So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday Face it. Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded Waiting to wake up one day and find That I've let all these years go by Wasted Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing But still every morning' the color of the night

No More Trust
people should really shut the hell up hen they dotn know what they are talking about..i.e.-clay..all he does is runs his mouth..and this is why are marriage has gone to shit..becasue he talks to damn much he dosent know when to shut the fuck up...i guess his only thrill in life is hurting other people..i guess someone people get off on telling other peoples secrets to others..well see thats y i dont run my mouth well i mean i did this time to clay whom i thought i could trust not anymore...there is no more trust...

Pa
You've never referred to Philadelphia as anything but "Philly." And New Jersey has always been "Jersey." You refer to Pennsylvania as "PA." "You guys" is a perfectly acceptable reference to a group of men & women. You know how to respond to the question "Djeetyet?" (Did you eat yet?) You learned to pronounce Bryn Mawr, Wilkes-Barre, Schuylkill, Bala Cynwyd, Duquesne, New Tripoli, Tunkhannock, Punxsutawney, Tamaqua, Susquehanna, Allegheny, Mahantongo, Shenandoah and Monongahela. You know what a "Mummer" is, and are disappointed if you can't catch at least highlights of the parade. The first day of buck and the first day of doe season are school holidays. You can use the phrase "fire hall wedding reception" and not even bat an eye. You can't go to a wedding without hearing the "Chicken Dance," at least one Polka and either an Italian song (sung in Italian,) or "Hava Nagila." At least 5 people on your block have electric "candles" in all or most of their wi

Set Me Free
HURTFUL WORDS,IMPATIENT EARS, PIERCING STARE THAT I HOLD DEAR. ACHING MIND, DYING SOUL, YOUR ONCE WARM HEART GREW DARK AND COLD. BITTER TEARS, FORGOTTEN GIRL, I ONCE REVOLVED AROUND YOUR WORLD. SETTING SUN, FADING LIGHT, LOST AND SCARED, LONELY NIGHTS. I GAVE MYSELF, ALL I KNEW, MY LOVING HEART YOU TOOK THAT TOO. FRIGHTENED CHILD, AFRAID TO CRY, MY BROKEN WINGS REFUSED TO FLY. YOUR SELFISH GIFTS, MY CLUTCHING HANDS, I CAN'T FORGET, DON'T UNDERSTAND. WITHOUT A THOUGHT YOU LEFT TO FAST, I SIT HERE DROWNING IN MY PAST. I KNOW NOT WHAT HAS BECOME OF ME, YOU TOOK MY HEART, NOW SET ME FREE.....

Worshiping Slave
sissy bitch slave was granted permission to cum worshiping My feet, in exchange for that pleasure he had to eat all of his cum.... Since he doesn't have the pleasure to be anywhere near My feet, he had to settle for watching on his computer screen and what an imagination he has!!... he took a very nice picture which I am sharing with you all

Peacefully
AS THE COOL BREEZE BLOWS THROUGH MY LONG BLONDE HAIR, THE SMELL OF YOU LINGERS AROUND ME IN THE AIR. YOUR PHYSICALLY NOT HERE BUT I CAN STILL FEEL YOUR TOUCH, I NEED YOU, I WANT YOU, I MISS YOU SO MUCH. THE SUN SHINES DOWN ON THE EARTH HERE BELOW AS I WALK ALONG IN THE BEAMS, LOOKING UP WITH MY EYES CLOSED TIGHTLY SHUT I WISH UPON ALL MY DREAMS. ALL MY DREAMS INCLUDE YOU AND OUR LIFE THAT'S COMING TO BE, SLOWLY OUR LIVES WILL FIT TOGETHER AS YOU AND I BECOME "WE".

Black Wing
in turn it speaks in darkness lies my doorway creaks somebody cries the fire burns the blackest flames its soon your turn a liar's game i never thought about it again til now i thought it slipped away an evil pumps through your veins on blackened wing your skin crawls looking deep heretic withdrawals demon seed burning desire thoughts of you internal fire burning through i forgot about it again til now i let it slip away your nothing but evil desire carrying me on black wing

It's Story Time.....
It’s Story Time. Part One She’s a simple girl, doesn’t want from anybody, loves people, and works hard. She was raised to believe everyone gets a fair chance. Now what you do with that chance is up to you. She was also raised with an alcohol, a habitual liar, a wife beater, and a con man/ thief.. But she came through it maybe not with shining colors, but close enough wit today’s society. She promised herself not to be tied up with resemblance from the past. She strayed away from liars, had her bout with drinking, but knew when to stop, can spot a con man, and has a fear of marriage due to what she saw growing up. Her fear didn’t stop her from coming close to marriage, four times I think it was. Anyway, she was very independent, she worked most of the time, or she was trying to better herself with classes, always in classes. Now this girl was a fat child, whom grew into a very slim, healthy, young lady. She purchased her own place, worked on it day and night,

Life
DAYS COME AND DAYS GO BUT ONE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE, IT'S NOT AN ORDINARY TYPE OF DAY BUT ONE YOU SHOULD HOLD DEAR. FOR ALL THE YEARS I'VE BEEN LOOKING AND MY SIGHT TAKES ME HERE, THINKING OF ALL THE UNANSWERED PRYERS SLOWLY DRAWS A TEAR. WHEN YOU NEED SOMONE TO RELY ON AND THEY ARE USUALY THERE, LIFE IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS; LIFE DOESN'T AT ALL CARE. MYSTERY CAPTURES ALL YOUR TIME AND LEAVES YOU WONDERING AND FEELING BLUE, YOU FINALLY THINK YOU'VE FIGURED IT ALL OUT BUT DON'T EXPECT ANSWERS TO STAY TRUE. DECISIONS SURROUND YOU EVERYWHERE AND SMOTHER YOU FROM A BREATH, SOMETIMES IN LIFE ONE GETS TO ROUGH AND CARRIES THE WEAK TO DEATH. THERE'S A WAY FOR EVERYTHING TO TURN TO GOOD BUT IT'S HIDDEN DEEP WITHIN, SO TRUST YOURSELF AND BE STRONG AND BECOME YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND.

Poetry
EVERYWHERE Everywhere I go I see you When that time comes I don't know what to do Everywhere I go you are with me Showing me everything I need in life to see Everywhere in place i roam That I know that you are at home Everywhere I sit I think of you I don't know but beyond the horizon is that.......... I LOVE YOU Anywhere and Everywhere

Hmmmmmm Update!
*Update* I've blocked him from sending me emails from him sending instant messages, I've blocked him on yahoo 360 and myspace...the only problem i am having now is the phone calls....I called the cell service provider like someone told me to do, they told me there is no way to block his #....I'm glad he doesn't know where i live or have my home #

Stomp The Yard
You ever go through Blockbuster with kids? You walk slowly around looking at the New Releases, while your kids run amock raking videos off the shelves like dominoes. Some bulgy woman who works for the store chasing after them, while trying hail me with "Sir? Sir? Are these your boys?" To which I always say, "No." This allows me time to find a movie that I'll like. Because I know that about 40 videos are coming from 4 little hands that I won't like. Kids don't know how to pick a good movie. They don't read any reviews. They easily believe what they see on TV ads. And, the only "word of mouth" they get is from other kids...who know as much as your kids do about movies. So, as I'm looking at The Last King of Scotland, here comes both boys with some movies for me to approve or deny, based on what I think would be appropriate for them to watch AND what I could stomach watching. Spenser's Choices (he's 9) 1. Leprechaun 2: A midget killing people...Vote: Denied. Why?

18 With A D-cup
Ever since Amber could remember her tits were always bigger than anyone else in her class, and even in 8th grade she was a solid C-cup, while now as a junior she filled her bras out to a very full 36D. All this big tit flesh ran in the family, as both of her older sisters were D's and her mom and two aunts were double D's! It's not as if they were big over weight cows either, the Wilson girls while not thin were nowhere near hefty, nice and healthy is how her dad referred to her mom, and that described Amber to a tee!!! Because of her obvious attributes, Amber received a whole lot of attention from the male species, and not just from boys her own age! The male teachers always paid a little more heed than they did to other more normally endowed girls, and while Amber didn't overtly flaunt it, she loved to make the boys (and men) squirm around her by accentuating her ripe bust. Her favorite victim was wimpy Mr. Fields the government (yuk!!!} teacher. Amber loved nothing more than to unb

Drums
Thank you, [$DEITY] for whomever you saw fit to instill with the need to create drums. FUN 20 minutes banging away on a kit are as good as a months worth of therapy, and that's a fact. and I get a partial workout too, without the bruises that Sensei leaves me as reminders to practice... MORE FUN Animal was right..."Beat Drums!!!" such a simple truth... I do love em, yes I do... *now let's see if I can hit my piano with something heavy...* :D

Thanks To All
I JUST WANT TO TAKE A MOMENT AND SHOUT OUT MY THANKS PLEASE DONT BE OFFEDNDED BY THE CAPS BUT I AM EXCITED AND WANT TO THANK YOU FOR RATING ALL MY STASHES AND PICS AND ANYTHING ELSE YOU RATED FOR ME AND ALSO THE COMMENTS.....I WILL BE TRYING TO GET TO EVERYONE OF MY FRIENDS AND FANS TO RETURN THE FAVOR ....LUV YA ALL AND THANKS

Wat Should I Do?
well since im new to CT i cant do any mumms yet so ill be writing blogs! i have a man but theres this guy that really likes me! im i really nice person i dont know how to be mean! so i talk to him alot, he's realy nice to and it feels good to have some one to talk to but i dont know why i feel like im cheatin on my boyfriend. i jus feel like i shouldnt be talkin to him cause he likes me and it would jus be like im leading him on! so wat should i do should i stop talkin to this new guy or jus get over it and stay friends with him?

Update! And Thank You All!
Thank you to all those who were so willing to help shore up my energy for my visit with Jennifer! I actually became very calm and serene before we ever arrived at the Jail, lol. It was such a blessing - I hadn't realized how much I dreaded that visit! As much as I love my daughter, and having seen her in all manner of conditions, visiting her in jail felt like the very last straw. She was most happy to see us and is really kind of comfortable with the strongest of boundaries! Her limits are set for her and they are well enforced. Again, I thank you for all your support and your willingness to share energy! You have no idea how much it helped today! Much love, warm hugs, and blessings to all my friends all over the world! Good night! Muahz!

Hard Nipples
Steffi Lange swep into her office with a grim look on her face while her executive assistant, Shelly Engel, rolled her eyes and thought to herself, "Oh shit, it's gonna be one of those days!!!" After pouring a fresh cup of coffee, she knocked on Steffi's door and entered he boss's office. "Here's your coffee and the Journal, she said, placing them on the desk in front of the blond executive. "Men are such pigs," spat Steffi! "What happened," asked Shelly, as she took a chair across from the large desk in front of her boss? "When I was walking from the train I think every man on the street must have looked at my chest, it just makes me sick," said an irate Steffi!!! Now Steffi Lange was a very good looking woman with mane of blond hair and long slim legs, she is just naturally going to command attention from the opposite sex, but what really makes them sit up and take notice, however, is her more than ample chest, an easy 38D, she is every man's wet dream! Her unusually large nipples se

The Life And Times Of A Single Middle-aged Mom
Okay. So gone are the days when I could throw caution to the wind and conduct myself like there could be no tomorrow. I was single. And I was young. And I had no kids. Now, I am middle-aged (or so they say). I will soon be *gasp* 45 years old. How sad. I don't FEEL 45. I don't even think I look it. I get hit on by men who should be dating my daughter. But she's almost an adult. A sure sign that I am getting OLD. I listen to popular music and like it (sometimes). I don't try to dress like I'm 21...I know my limits. My figure was never built for that even when I WAS 21...LOL. Oh yeah - and when I complain to my mom about getting old, she says "Think how I feel! I have a daughter that's middle aged!" Point taken. As I come to this milestone birthday, I think to myself "Is this it? Is this my existance? Am I to live out the rest of my life wondering where the time went and why I had to be a responsible adult, a good provider, a decent mom, and someone in a profess

The Drama Never Ends....
The last straw... Anyone that knows me knows the hell my son has went through with his dad and his dad's girlfriend over the last month and a half. Well the drama continues.... I picked my son up Wed. The ex asked me if I still talked to G. I said not on a regular basis and he goes on to tell me about an incident that happened while they were at WalMart (G is the girlfriend's ex and my cousin). I told him and his girlfriend "well you two need to understand that this little 'get together' of yours has hurt a lot of people and messed up a lot of lives." Him: shrugs his shoulders "oh well." Me: "I know you don't give a shit about how much your hurt me but you need to take a step back and see this from the other side. G was reacting out of hurt. This is how he is handling the situation." Girlfriend pipes up at some point during our conversation and says "if I would have known you and him was trying to work things out I wouldn't have got involved." Me: "bullshit, you kne

Feedback Please
Ok this would be muchly appreciated for those who do look. I put alot of work into this so far and would like to get some feedback from you on it :-) Click here to take a look I will even buy everyone a VIC gift who can give me reasonable feedback. Thank you very much

Tattoo Survey
If you have at least one tattoo, do the survey, if you don't then pass it on! 1. Have you ever cried during a tattoo? no 2. When did you get your first tattoo? My 39th birthday 3. What was your first tattoo? My trademark "UnLoved Rose" 4. Which tattoo is closest to your heart?"UnLoved Rose" 5. Do you have a matching tattoos with someone? no 6. Do you have a tattoo that someone messed up on? no 7. Do you have anyone's name tattooed on you? no 8. What was the most painful tattoo you received? Haven't had a painful one, I guess I like the sting of the needle. 10. Do you plan on being heavily or moderately tatted? moderately but tastefully 11. Do you have a tattoo that you constantly have to explain? yes 12. Have you ever gotten an infection from a tattoo? no 13. What is the longest session you've ever sat straight? 3 hours 16. Do you regret having gotten any of your tattoos? no! 17. Would you consider ever getting any of your tattoos removed? no 18. What are you goi

The Cruise
Maureen O'Connell strolled leisurely down the pier, taking in all the sights and sounds that surrounded the departure of a luxury cruise ship. A native New Yorker, Mo had spent the last several days cruising South Beach and enjoying the Miami sun, and boy, this was living, the middle of February and the temperature had been hovering in the mid 70's! As Mo walked past her, the Molly Dee gleamed sparkling white against the azure blue Florida sky, all 790 feet of her! The brochure that her travel agent had given her didn't do the big liner justice, she looked absolutely fantastic! Mo had been planning this trip for over a year, and now that it was here, she could hardly believe it, so after lugging her suitcase on board, she was met by a the purser, a pretty young woman, who looked at her ticket, handed her a detailed map of the ship, and informed her where her cabin was located. "Two flights up," Mo mumbled out loud, while she rode the elevator to the promenade deck. Walking down a long

Flooded Apt
well over the weekend my apt got flooded some of my things got messed up. me and my son had to stay there for three days with water all over the place! finally they moved me to a new apt. on monday, but my only problem is that some people are tellin me i should get a lawyer but i dont know wat to do! i did fall down the steps cause the water and my son to but im kinda innocent minded to all this so i need help wat should i do?

Morning Sugar
As June Halstrom sat at her kitchen table drinking her morning cup steaming hot black coffee, she thought, "God, I wish I could just sit here all day!" It was cold outside, about twenty degrees, and June involuntarily pulled her terry cloth bathrobe tighter around her body. She had a lot of errands to run today, and the day wasn't getting any shorter! Her reverie was broken by the ringing the kitchen phone, and after answering it, it was her neighbor Bev who wanted to come over for a quick visit. June started to protest, but gave up when her friend said she was coming over and hung up the phone on her. Two minutes later there was a knock on the back door and Bev came in without waiting for her knock to be answered. "Now, Bev," June protested, "I've got a lot of work to do today, and I don't have time for any fooling around!" Bev plopped down on a chair and poured herself a cup of coffee, cocked her head to one side, and looked June over with lust in her eyes. "Now just a minute, Bev,"

Just About Through With Ct
Seems people are more interested in point whoring than making meaningful friendships...I'm 38, I don;t need the adolescent BS that populates this site for much longer. Hope the door doesnt hit too hard on the way out when I make my decision. :)

Rigatoni With Hazelnut Pesto
Rigatoni with Hazelnut Pesto Delicious hazelnuts form the base of a smooth and elegant variation on pesto sauce. This lovely summer main dish is great either hot or at room temperature. Credit: Fran Clinton Servings: 4 to 6 Ingredients: * 1 cup hazelnuts * 2 cups basil leaves * 1 cup olive oil * 1/2 cup Parmesan cheese * 1/2 teaspoon paprika * Dash of salt * Juice of 1/2 lemon * 1 pound rigatoni, cooked and drained Directions: In a food processor, finely chop the hazelnuts. Add the basil leaves and process until the mixture resembles coarse meal. Add the olive oil in a steady stream, and then add the Parmesan cheese. Season with paprika, salt and lemon juice and process until smooth. Toss the pesto with the cooked pasta, and serve warm or at room temperature.

People Dissing On My Kids....
You know what really sucks????? When idiots respond to a rating of their pics with comments about my children. Yes I did call them people idiots because that is what they are. I am so tired of the immaturity. If you can not handle a rating take the picture off. I get low ratings and I don't respond with hatred. I just say what ever...

Nawtee Horoscope
I'M A CAPRICORN!!!!!! LOL ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- Taurus (April 20 - May 20) --Don't tease them. It will only piss them off. Taureans are realists. If you say that you are horny: Prepare to be fucked. Taureans are heavy indulgers, though. All forms of indulgence: Sex-drugs-wine-food...whatever their vice may be: they simply cannot get enough. They do not believe in moderation. They will fuck until they are sore. Taurus likes to have sex just for the sake of having sex. What they lack in originality, they make up for in stamina and endurance. Okay...so they may not be into bondage, okay? But they WILL lick you until you have at least three orgasms or until you pass out...whichever comes first. Taurus uses their tongue for EVERYthing...and I mean that. They love to lick people in whipped cream, alcohol, chocolate, flesh and candy???Bring it on! Caution: They are looking for a relationship so be kind to them. They also have a BIG wet th

Promotion
SO... I WAS PROMISED THIS PROMOTION ABOUT 4 MONTHS AGO WHEN A CERTAIN OFFICE POSITION OPENED UP. I WAS, UNFORTUNATELY, PASSED UP FOR THIS POSITION WHEN IT WAS FILLED JUST A MONTH AGO. MY BOSS' BOSS PULLED HER WEIGHT AROUND (AND BELIEVE ME, SHE'S GOT A LOT TO PULL!) AND BROUGHT IN SOMEONE WHO'D BE HER BITCH. SO, JUST TODAY I WAS OFFERED ANOTHER TYPE OF PROMOTION. IT'S NOT THE OFFICE JOB I WANTED, BUT IT IS A STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. I AM GOING TO BE CARRYING OUR COMPANY PAGER TWICE A MONTH, EVERY OTHER WEEK. I WILL BE ON CALL 24/7- WHICH TO MY COMPANY IS ONLY WORTH $100 A WEEK ON TOP OF OUR NORMAL PAY. GEE... IF THAT'S ALL MY FREE TIME IS WORTH, NO WONDER I CAN'T AFFORD ANYONE TO CLEAN MY HOUSE! I AM CELEBRATING NOW THOUGH... HERE GOES 1/2 A BOTTLE OF SOME NICE WHITE ZIN...LOL TONIGHT, I AM STAYING THE NIGHT AT MY SISTER'S HOUSE AND KITTY SITTING HER 5 WEEK OLD KITTEN. THIS THING HAS A FUCKIN SET OF LUNGS! I DON'T REMEMBER MY KITTIES BEING THIS LOUD AND OBNOXIOUS.

The Time Is Here!!
Well, It has been almost a year of waiting.But the time is here. In the next 48 hours I will be leaving for Pa. I cant wait! Baby, I love you so fucking much. And I cant wait to start sharing our lives. Im so damn happy!!! *Doing The Happy Dance* :) :) :) :)

Dedicated To All Of Sir George's Friends
This will be the last poem, or at least for a while? This is Dedicated to all of my Friends. To each and everyone of you! Since I have been lucky to have been able to talk with some of the Most Beautiful Women in the World! I dedicate this poem to all of you. Please Send My Friend An Angel... Please send my friend an angel send her one of mine a loving and caring one the best that you can find Please sned my friend an angel and trust her with it's care someone or something for her to love and to always be there Please send my friend an angel one to help her fill her days with hope, love, and laughter and the warth of sunshine rays Please send my friend an angel you know she gave me of mine please send her down an angel a true friends hard to find. Thank you all for being my Friend. You dont know what that means to me? Im sorry that Im not here to be with you today. But I have somethings that I have to take care of? So I have sent you the Angel that was

The Line
The cold was sharp The night was a danger Blistering Inhospitable to any stranger Twas a familiar face That I bade to enter Glistening Eyes that could melt down the winter Fastened On mine quicker than I could counter Pleading with him Like the prey does the hunter Missing Within was the will not to venture The music begun I was drawn It was wrong But the cold was much sharper alone

My Hero!!!
Hello all you wonderful cherries. Normaly I am all about fun and good times on CT but today I want to tell you a little story about my hero and what he did to day. This afternoon I came home to my husband on the phone with his travel agent which to me usualy means he is off to do sum buisness for a day or two. After he got off the phone he told me that he had purchased two tickets for our freinds wife and son to fly out here they are going to spend a few days with there family out here, and on sunday they will be cumming to our house where my husband has made arrangements for them to video chat with him. then he went out this afternoon and purchased a new pc for her to take home with her so she can get online and talk to him from home more often. Now I have allways known my husband has a huge heart but I have to admitt today he evan suprised me and all he could say about it this eavening is he wishes he could do the same for every family that is going through simaler cercumstances. T

Asleep Continued
being wrong again that everything wont change when we return feeling this again i guess its better when we leave bridge: falling for you once more brings me back to memories weve made i have my decision to bring you back this love i dream at night god bless you all derekxxxxx

Lost.
Sometimes I wish I had one more day with you. I remember when you said goodbye to me. I remember thinking I would never make it through. I didn’t want to hear that goodbye, but I listened. I knew better than not to. Is it ok to cry? I felt so safe. Nothing would ever hurt me. There was nothing in this world that you couldn’t fix. To feel like your little girl one more day… God, I want that. But then I remember the pain you were in. I remember hearing it in your voice…your pride slipping from you. Losing control. Losing the battle. I remember how much you suffered for me. Tried so hard to protect me. To keep me from anything that would hurt me. Not wanting to leave me. I have never had someone fight so hard for me. To suffer so much for me. To believe so strongly in me. I remember when I used to pray that you would make it to just one more thing. Such a selfish thing for me to do. But I couldn’t imagine living without you. I still can’t. It’s

Laws
Law of Mechanical Repair: After your hands become coated with grease, your nose will begin to itch or you‘ll have to pee. Law of the Workshop: Any tool, when dropped, will roll to the least accessible corner. Law of Probability: The probability of being watched is directly proportional to the stupidity of your act. Law of the Telephone: If you dial a wrong number, you never get a busy signal. Law of the Alibi: If you tell the boss you were late for work because you had a flat tire, the very next morning you will have a flat tire. Variation Law: If you change lines (or traffic lanes), the one you were in will start to move faster than the one you are in now. Law of the Bath: When the body is fully immersed in water, the telephone rings. Law of Close Encounters: The probability of meeting someone you know increases when you are with someone you don‘t want to be seen with. Law of the Result: When you try to prove to someone that a machine won‘t work, it will. La

Asleep
chrus lyrics can i be put asleep while youre away? because staying awake is sucide for me? these oceans of photographs are only drowning. knowing youre out there, kills me when am here. all lyrics to song: nothings really taken my mind off you and here i am waiting for what? theres no substance being gone again opens my eyes more to what we have off we go again i quess its so long for now chrous: can i be put to sleep when your away because staying awake is sucide for me this ocean of photographs are only drowning knowing youre out there kills me when am here verse two: nothing is really making my world spining faster and time is in slow motion as i think about her rest of song in next blog

If It Wasn't For The Innocents
"If it wasn't for the innocents" Sitting here in fear that the darkness is to powerful, how much longer can it be held at bay. It’s so close to taking over. The battle is exhausting. How much more do I have left to give.... The battle must rage on, there are innocents that must be forever protected. So now I must battle I must fight even though Im completely exhausted. Can’t even pick up My arms anymore but I must move forward. The darkness that is knockin at the door is threatening to break thru, oh god give the strength to keep it all away, and to protect those who don’t deserve it. Oh God give me the strength....... If it wasn’t for the innocents would it be worth the fight would it be worth the stress, worth the grey hairs, the pain? If it wasn’t for the innocents would I have givin up a long time ago? Oh God give me the strength…….

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My Bird Pebbles Just Died
I had Pebbles for 15 years. She was an african grey parrot. She was a baby to me. I took her everywhere. She talked and would always give me kisses. I dont know why she died. I am very sad right now. I loved her very much. I went to check on her and give her some food and water but she wouldnt drink the water and she didnt do her normal head bobbong thing she does to me when she sees me. I knew right away something was wrong. I tried to get her to drink some water and she wouldnt so I called the vet. I live on Cape Cod and there arent many vets around here adn the only emergency vet hpstpital that is here said they donthave anyone on that knows about parrots so they would try and locate a vet for me that does. In the meantime Pebbles had fallen to the bottom of the cage. I picked her up and started force feeding her water with a medicine syringe, she was drinking it but not responding well. She finally took her last breath and died in my arms. I was crying and my son was crying. My son

My Couple Of Days....
July 4th my man finally got out. We spent the rest of the day together after 2pm (when he got outta work) It was fun til we had to deal with 3 drunks ones. DAMN IM SICK OF BABYSITTING DRUNK PEOPLE! But anyways. After 1:20am It was more fun just him an I. WOW THATS ALL I CAN SAY. Lets just say I woke up my lil sister, her friend, my brother downstairs an my drunk mother lol... He spent the night of course an went to get things done today. Today Im kinda depressed an really dont wanna talk about it. There is only one person that I will talk to about it an thats my boyfriend. Everyone in my family keeps talking about my father an shit well I dont wanna hear it an i dont wanna talk about it. Its been almost a year. This sunday will be one year that he has been gone. I dont like it at all. Tuesday night I wish i could have took my car an drive it off the road an hit something an die. But there is 2 people that are stopping me from doing that in my life right now (my lil sister an my boyf

Joke
A construction worker on the third floor of a building needs a handsaw. He sees one of the laborers on the first floor and yells down to him, but the man indicates that he can't hear. So, the guy on the third floor tries to use signs. He points to his eye, meaning, "I", then at his knee, meaning, "need", then he moves his hand back and forth, meaning, "handsaw". The man on the first floor nods, then drops his pants and begins to masturbate. The man on the third floor freaks out and runs down to the first floor yelling, ''What the hell is wrong with you!?! Are you stupid or something? I was saying that I needed a handsaw!'' The laborer looks at the carpenter and says, ''I knew that. I was just trying to tell you that I was coming.

Thursday 7/5/07
Just another ordinary day today, I did the usual chatting and listening to music. We saw an attorney about my brothers accident but don't know how that will go yet, but the guy seems hopeful that things will go in my brothers favor, so that's a good thing. He comes home the 14th and then we'll go from there I guess. Well, I'm gonna end this here, have a good night everyone.

All My Love
in this vast world the only thing i want is to give all my love to you when we first meet the only thing i know was my heart belonged to you oh i remember then we held eachother tightly tremling queitly we were intoxicated,youthfull,elated quenced in the fires of our passions and hope (dreams) as time moves on our pain we mend together the only thing i need is you to give all my love to you

Just Checking In
Hey everyone I have been having a blast here, today I went and took my test for truck driving and then I got my permit and then I had my first experience in driving and it is not easy double clutching is not fun but I learned how to do it today and then I had to downshift too. And guess what else I didn't hit any curves. ROFLMAO I have two more weeks her and then I am going to be on the road for about eight months with this company that I am with. I just wanted to touch base with everyone.

Best Quotes Ever!!
Everyone has a favourite film. One that you remember watching when you were a kid, one that you've watched a gazillion times over, one that made you laugh, one that made you think twice. Me, I've got about a hundred favourite films, some of them you'll recognise, some of them you won't but they've all got one thing in common - some of the best lines ever! Heres some of the best in my humble opinion, feel free to add your own..... I wanted to see exotic Vietnam, the jewel of Southeast Asia. I wanted to meet interesting and stimulating people of an ancient culture and kill them. Full Metal Jacket I wanna say something. I'm gonna put it out there, if you like it, you can take it, if you don't, send it right back..... I want to be on you. Anchorman Take me to a place where the drugs are free, the clubs have no gravity and every shag guarantees an orgasm! Human Traffic Diego Delgado: Do you have a dream, George? George: Well, I would if I could get some fucking sle

Fake People
Lastnight I realized I am very mature for my age. Just seems like every friend is the same. There is very few I can talk to heart to heart. Seems like once people find someone they like they throw me to the fucking curb. Why bother being nice or getting close to anyone as a friend? I think I am going to walk my own path in life and could care less about anyone, except a few. So now I lost a friend. Which is not unsual. I am a person who would do ANYTHING for people that are my friends...once I am hurt or blown off or basically ignored I ignore them and stop talking. I am getting used to it really. If I am ignoring people look at what kinda friend you are to me. Would you do anything for me such as listen to me when I need someone tot talk to or NOT BLOW me off? I am just going to go my own way cause society is fucked and I am nto dealing with fake people. If you want a friendship with me you better gain it. My friendship is not fake so I do not being fucked over. And if I am hurt and s

For Team B
www.hostdrjack.com TEAM B IS DIFFERENT BECAUSE THIS IS THE CALVARY RIDIN IN TO KICK BUTT AND BRING OUR MEMBERS TO VICTORY!! THEY,RE GONNA LUVVVV YOU! SINCE YOU CAN ONLY RATE SOMEONE,S STASH ONE TIME EACH YOU SHOULDN,T GO IN AND RATE OUR CLUB MEMBERS STASHES UNTILL WE CALL YOU IN VIA BLOG TO A CERTAIN PERSONS STASH WHO IS CLOSE TO LEVELING. I AM GOING TO ASK EVERYONE TO LET US KNOW WHEN THEY ARE ABOUT 5,000 PTS AWAY FROM LEVELING AND TO LET US KNOW AHEAD OF TIME WHEN THEY ARE AT 10,000 PTS AWAY SO I CAN PUT THEM ON A LIST FOR YOU TO DO. IF ANY OF OUR MEMBERS STASHES ARE VERY LARGE YOU CAN FEEL FREE TO RATE THEM THE SAME AS YOU ALWAYS DO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS NOW. BUT SAVE ENOUGH OF THE STASH TO GO IN WITH THE FAMILY AND BRING THEM TO VICTORY OK. AS I TOLD TEAM A I WANT YOU GUYS ALL TO GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER AND SO GO AND RATE OUR FELLOW MEMBERS PHOTO,S AND FAN AND RATE THEM AS USUAL. WE ARE A STASH CLUB FAMILY NOW AND TEAM A IS JUST AS IMPORTANT AS TEAM B IS

Me Within
Me Within I hold the burden of life Like a boulder on a limb So heavy Yet somehow I withstand its pressure I’m only human What more could God want I know he’s with me I feel him within Why cant I find the strength he offers While I cry my lonesome tears Slowly knowing what I’m after Yet defending all my fears Will the day come along Where I will stand up proud and speak “ I am thankful for who I am today No matter what they say”

Gay!
People sometimes tell me being gay is a sickness. Well I'm going to say this only once being gay(GLBT) isn't an illness. I love being with the same sex so what if you don't like it. Its not your bed we're getting into. There is a saying a friend once told me "No one knows where your nose goes behind closed doors" and I would have to say I agree with what he said. I hang around alot of st8 that at one time wouldn't have been caught being around but they are cool with it now. So please don't judge others for being gay. If you don't like it don't speak to them. BTW! these are just my thoughts so if you feel you need to comment on them please do

For Attention Of Friends
i have started a english christain fun room every top member has been rated a 10 or more by lots of people other friends rate every one of my pics and you become a member give every pic a rating asnd your a member top member rate you theres lots of points every one that comes to page rated you your cherry level will go up quick just rate all and you become a member your pic goes on as a pic and then your fun begins join today dont delay derek god bless you all derekxxxx

Ohio Friends
Friends: Tell you not to do something stupid when drunk OHIO Friends: Will post 360 degree security so you dont get caught --------------------------------------------------------- Friends: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs OHIO Friends: Call your parents drunk as hell and tell them about the nasty bitch you tried to pick up -------------------------------------------------------------------- Friends: Hope the night out drinking goes smoothly, and hope that no one is late for the ride home. OHIO Friends: Know some wild shit will happen, and set up rally points and an E & E route. --------------------------------------------------------------- Friends: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong. OHIO Friends Will be sitting next to you saying, Damn...that shit was fun " ------------------------------------------------------ Friends: Cry with you. OHIO Friends: laugh at you --------------------------------------------------------- Friends: A

New To This
Well I figured I'd check this site out and so far it seems cool...Things with me are going ok. I am just here looking to make some friends to talk to. I really do have a hard time making new friends cause of being shy...my boyfriend thinks that I don't need friends. Things with my boyfriend are really rocky right now and dont know what to do about him..it is complicated and I am so lost on what to do. Well have to go hell be home soon

Common People
Pulp - Common People "She came from Greece, she had a thirst for knowledge She studied sculpture at Saint Martin's College That's where I caught her eye She told me that her Dad was loaded I said "In that case I'll have rum and coca-cola She said "fine" And then in 30 seconds time she said "I want to live like common people I want to do whatever common people do I want to sleep with common people I want to sleep with common people like you" Well what else could I do? I said "I'll see what I can do" I took her to a supermarket I don't know why but I had to start it somewhere so it started there I said "pretend you've got no money" but she just laughed and said "oh you're so funny" I said "Yeah" Well I can't see anyone else smiling in here Are you sure you want to live like common people you want to see whatever common people see you want to sleep with common people you want to sleep with common people like me?" But she didn't understand she just smil

Mouthy Ass Bitches!!
Hey, Well.. Some People on here.. Just don't know how to keep their Mouths Closed! One Person Should Know Who They are... Message me and Ask me about a Certain Person, Then Turn the Tables, and say I was asking them about that Person.. And say I was hitting on one of their Friends!! It's a Bunch of Bullshit if you ask me! I don't Flirt with ppl on the Net. Unless I know them.. I'm not a Big Whore like this Person.. And the Other person, Just won't listen to what I have to say, Even tho They are supposed to be a good friend.. But I guess the Tables Turned on that one too.. So, I guess I just don't know what the Fuck to do anymore.. I can't totally Erase Them from my Mind.. This person I thought was a really good friend, and I could tell them anything. And now they just won't talk to me! So, My life Just typically Sucks right now. Because of this One Individual.. And the Shit they Started!! I hate People!!

The Reality Of Frenship
true frendship is excepting eachother as brother and sisters and allways talking to one another and as borther and sister as it was in the beginning we all come from one women down history so were all related so friends join hands across the sea were ever you are an unite as one family god bless you all derekxxx

Ashamed Of You
I am so taken aback and ashamed by what I heard and then saw today, which is saying a lot seeing how I've become numbed by the state of our populace. This started at work, as most things do. Two of the agents were talking about a stabbing victim out of Texas. I listened in for a second but then had to ask what they were talking about. They explained that a woman was stabbed in a store and lay bleeding as people walked by going about their normal business! They couldn't give me details but said it was on the news a few days back. So now I'm home, I checked the "MSN" news and to my horror found the news clip they were referencing. A mother of three was stabbed. She bled to death while others walked over her. She tried to get up three times but fell back to the floor. One woman stepped over her five times and then stopped and took photos and a short video of the victim with her cell phone! Now I understand that no person has to help another person. I see it every day, snub

I'm The Girl
I'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because I'm sleepy, but because I want to be closer to you... I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than in an expensive resturant... I'm the girl who says, "Okay, but you owe me..." jokingly. Not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you and I care... I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will have fun because it means I am spending time with you... I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms... I'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me... I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you.. I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss.. I'm the girl who you can talk to about anything.. I'm the girl

I'm In 2 Contests--come Show Ur Support
To all my friends and family,, I am in 2 contests, the first one is 4th of July: here's the link to that one: the 2nd one is for Hottest Uniform Contest and here is the link for that one: The only way that I can win is from you guys rating and commenting my pictures, so show me that serving during Desert Storm was appreciated!! You can rate once and comment as many times as you want!! much love and blessed be Lena aka mistress dark angel

Tired...
I'm so tired lately...tired of being bored, tired of being lonely, tired of doing things on my own, tired of being irritated, and tired of running in circles. Things seem so easy for so many people. Maybe the rest of us are just taking things too seriously or making it difficult on our own...ok sorry bout the bitchin...I'm feeling a little cramped and a little worn out. The hope of things turning around in the future is looking like it's foolish but who knows right? Tomorrow things could change drastically ;-)

Malokata
MaLakota- MaLakota(I am Lakota)! Still holding onto our ways and our ceremonies,still a proud people.People want to be like us,they want into our ceremonies,want to know our language.They want to try to understand us or any other Native,the thing is,they can't ever reach that point in understanding.As my ancestors have tried to convey over and over since the European Invasion of this country; WE can NEVER be understood because our traditional way of life is completely different of those in the dominant society .Outsiders want to know how we perservere in the times of adversity..Lakota people will tell you that it is our way to suffer,it was meant to be that way for Lakota Oyate..It teaches us to strive for the best,teaches us to be humble but most of all it teaches us to depend on Tunkasila in the time of need,he's the only one who can actually fix our wrongs.So when Tunkasila thinks we learned our lessons he helps us to move on with no regrets so that we may go out and help others bu

Recycling The Blues
I added some more vocals to a song i wrote with my band and i think this is probably going to be our strongest release so far, its called "Shine" and is some kind of weird combination of dance music and rhythm and blues, its groove feels a bit similar to the song "Knock on Wood" as done by Amii Stewart (Now theres a strange disco flashback for you!) Anyway, i added more vocals and the vocals led us to adding some chords underneath them and suddenly we were in hitherto uncharted territory for us, now this is turning out to be a really complicated yet simple song if that makes any sense at all.. I also added some lap-steel to the song, lap-steel is a criminally underappreciated musical instrument almost exclusively used in country music but it is also really suitable for adding swelling chords and siren-like melodies to dance music, i think a lot of dance music bands should fire one of their keyboard players and replace him with a lap-steel player, its a much more organic and interesti

None
Well I fought my last and final boxing match today. Needless to say it was a victory for me knocking out the girl in the 4th round. I can't say i will miss the sport, don't get me wrong its been my thing since i was 14, but you can only handle going to sleep with a headache for so long. lol. It was a great way for me to end my 13 yr career as a female boxer. it meant even more having my dad there to support me. He's now suggesting I go back to wrestling. I don't think the world is ready for that yet. ; }

For Attention Of Friends
look at the pics on my page every top member of my christain english fun room has there pic voted over ten by lots of people other friends that are not a top member in pics visit my page vote every pic every one has a rating of 10 or more each one rate all your a member thankyou derekxxxx

Alice In Wonderland!!
This makes no sense, but it so my favourite ever horoscope = D "Sometimes you feel like Alice at the tea party, but other times you identify with the Mad Hatter. Hey, go with it. Even a balanced and graceful sign like yours feels off-kilter every now and then." Though not too sure how i would look dressed as alice, the Mad Hatter rocks though! (Do i get to be a bit Cheshire Cat tho?)

Best Friends
When I cry you help me out When I'm happy you hear me shout When I grin you know I'm really mad because you are my best friend You can tell when I'm sad You're there in thick and thin You're my best friend You hear me out when I want to talk You help me out when I get mad You are the bestest friend I've ever had So hear me out when I say You're the light in my day You are the moon in my night You shine very bright You are the bestest friend I have and I miss you

First...
In this blog I'll talk about movies. Although, knowing me I'll post one or two and then get bored with it ... or just get lazy. I saw Transformers on Tuesday night with Jay. It was pretty sweet. Michael Bay didn't completely fuck it up like I thought he would. Some of the best special effects I've ever seen, and the action was pretty insane (at least Bay's usually good for that). The story was weak, but I wasn't expecting too much anyway. Room for improvement, but still pretty awesome. -Corey P.S. That's hardly what I call a review. I just wanted to throw something up real quick.

Sexiest Morph Contest Will Start Sunday
SEXIEST MORPH CONTEST WILL START SUNDAY JULY 8TH 6 PM CST AND END SUNDAY JULY 15TH 6 PM CST I WILL POST BULLETINS OF THE CONTESTANTS THERE IS STILL TIME TO ENTER GET YOUR ENTRIES TO ME BEFORE NOON CST ON JULY 8TH THANKS BECBEC becbec@ CherryTAP

The War Inside.
Anger, Rage, Turmoil and pain, the constant feelings that plague my brain. Darkness, Confusion, Despair and Stress, these things, they control me, my life is a mess. Lies, Deceit, Manipulation and Greed, through these things i obtain what i need. Secrets, Shame, Drugs and Drink, these things dictate the way that i think. Love, Happiness, Peace and Joy. such strange emotions, last felt as a boy. Courage, Commitment, Dedication and Pride, many times i claimed to have them, many times i lied. Honor, Integrity, Respect and Trust, my family instilled them, but i let them rust. Values, Morals, Faith and Belief, turned my back on all them, i became a thief. Suddenly a thought, foreign and strange, "Is it too late, or can i still change?" With so much anger and pain inside, Can i really learn to take it in stride? I want more than anything to be more humble, to learn to walk straight and no longer stumble. And i know it'll take time, but i'm ready t

People That Dont Wanna Read A Profile Befor Talking You Us!!!!
Ok heres the lowdown on wut ive been trying to say .first of all right behind our ct names is usually a small little note describing our name well if i say im a dammm lesbian dont keep trying to talk to me asking nasty questions.if i say im only wanting to add gurls to my friend list then dont ask why and dont get me to change my mind.....im not ok their are too many perves in the world we live in for me to have to repeat my self...OK.....THANKS

Survival
TO FRIENDS,A TOAST TO SURVIVAL WE RAISE OUR GLASSES HIGH,AS A TEAR FALLS OUT OF MY EYE, I THINK I NEED YOU A LITTLE MORE, HOLD ME UP CAUSE WITHOUT YOU I HIT THE FLOOR, BECAUSE THERES JUST SOMETHING ABOUT YOU I ADORE,...

Ooooooo Jumps Up And Down Like An Excited School Gorl
I forgot to tell you I enrolled at Rogers hair and cosmetology academy Tuesday afternoon. I start school in September and its a 10 month class. Im so excited. Im letting my hair grow out so I have more to play with when I start studing. whoop

New Week New Day
Actually this was not a bad day today. I have been working on a few things in the last couple of days. Getting ready to pain and i have been thinking of going to Nudefest! and the Popcorn Festival this weekend. I'm planning to see Transformers this weekend. I'm not expecting much with Micheal Bay Movies after Pearl Harbor though. On the fourth I just pretty much bummed out.

You Knew It Was Coming Sooner Or Later Pt 3
Ok Ok its been quite sometime since i have written one of these. I think I left off on thugs and thug wannabes.. of yes we all know a precious gem this guy and/or girl. not only is it embarrassing to be around its oh too sad to see. just cuz you love rap and whatever rapper it is doesn't mean you are a thug. research some true thugs..it a chuckle that anyone would even think they could live in that world..one fuck up was death of u and your family..not like these movies which either dumb them down or glamorize it..just cause you know someone who knows someone is in on it doesn't make anyway a thug...just a stupid criminal..but hey don't let this stop ya..the population is to large so go get killed off so there is more for the ones who use their heads. Now on to tattoos..don't get me wrong..i am about to become a tat artist, but too many that are just godawful jus gets under my skin that a tat artist would place his art in such a manner it looks like an amateur done it...lots of arti

Can Marriage Survive Infidelity
Marriage can survive infidelity. It's not easy. It hurts. There will be anger, tears, and depression. It takes time. It takes a decision to love. It takes a decision to trust again. It means no garbage dumping. It takes courage. It takes commitment. We say this because our marriage did survive unfaithfulness. Our crisis happened in our eighth year of marriage and the result was a really nasty divorce. Two years later, we re-married each other. We've now been married over 40 years. So, yes, we believe a marriage can survive an extra-marital affair. But ONLY if both partners are willing to work at making the marriage successful. Feelings Surrounding Marital Infidelity Some feelings that are prominent when a couple experiences the accusation of infidelity in their relationship include: Shame Guilt Blame Anger Hurt Disappointment Rage Embarrassment Forgiveness Jealousy Lust Resentment Denial Mis-trust Some Marriages Should No

I Haven't Been On Here Much
If you are rating me and fanning or whatnot please have patience I am trying to get to everyone!. I have been ill lately and just haven't been around as much and that makes it hard to keep up! Thanks xoxo

Regret
New Order Regret "Maybe I've forgotten the name and the address Of everyone I've ever known It's nothing I regret Save it for another day It's the school exam and the kids have run away I would like a place I could call my own Have a conversation on the telephone Wake up every day that would be a start I would not complain of my wounded heart I was upset you see Almost all the time You used to be a stranger Now you are mine I wouldn't even trust you I've not got much to give We're dealing in the limits And we don't know who with You may think that I'm out of hand That I'm naive, I'll understand On this occasion, it's not true Look at me, I'm not you I would like a place I could call my own Have a conversation on the telephone Wake up every day that would be a start I would not complain of my wounded heart I was a short fuse Burning all the time You were a complete stranger Now you are mine I would like a place I could call my own Have a con

That Person
that damn person with no spine who likes to makr your pics NSFW some may have deserved it others showed nothing.Such a spineless idiot of a cowardly stain.At least have the courage to leave a comment as to why you rate the pics NSFW.

Internet True Love
You know he loves you when he gets you a blast *kisses* ty Page... Yes Ms. Funky Munky, I know you already got me one and I TRULY love you back too :) THanks to all my friends that stand behind me, no matter what I am going through or I put you through. Love ya, you know who you are. Sherliciousss :)

Trapped (breaking Through)
Once again, trapped inside a prison of my own making,these walls are closing in,shuttin out all the dreams that i've been chasing. "They" say the light is "easy to see", if u step outside the box,but what "they" dont see, is that it aint easy for me.. too many chains wit too many locks. But, i'll do what i can, only, in my own way. Time to step up, be a man, throw my past away. Though i can neva forget it, i will no longer dwell, yeah,all that shit i done did it, but now i'm sick of this hell. I know i cant erase it, all the pain that i've caused,but i can choose to turn and face it, start livin life, instead of leavin it paused. So, as the days go by i pray for time to heal, I need to be rid of this pain that i feel. It's locked deep in my heart..yet it controls my mind,I wish i could turn back the hands of time. Back to a place where i knew no addiction, where no time was a waste..no inner confliction. But, these great walls are thick!!, they show me it's re

Feel Like Shit
So I"m going to go pretty soon cause apparently the soup did not do the trick for healing me I feel just awful and will be headed home in about 15 minutes. aurgh lets hope I am able to make it home with out puking cause I swear its coming on

105 Ways To Cure Boredom.
1. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO REHAB? - Yes I have.... 2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? - 6 years 3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? - The Shmee bought me a new bowl...it's pink with cherries. 4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? - I drop my phone all the time. 5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? - Ummmmm......yea 6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? - Gas and smokes 7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE? - Tacos 8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? - Eyes and hair (I prefer a shaved head) 9. ONE FAVORITE SONG? - 'Something I Can Never Have' Nine Inch Nails 10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE? - Lindenhurst IL 11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: - Rolling Meadows High School in Rolling Meadows IL 12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: - U.S. Cellular 13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: - Torrid 14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD? - I worked at Walgreen's for over a year. 15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? - Not unless they came in a board game 16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: - Not since high school

Play Time
PLAY TIME By rattdoll The phone rang at 4:00 in the morning. I decided not to answer it, because it woke me up out of a sound sleep. You left me a message on the machine. “Wake up! Wake up and give me a call back, it’s important!” I get my lazy body out of bed and find the phone and call you. You tell me that you know I’m horny, and that you have some one that I should meet with. You tell me that your friend is just a couple of years older then you, and he has black hair, a fit body and very horny. I tell you, “Sure darlin, send him over.” You tell me that you’ll give your friend directions to my place and he’ll be there in about 20 minutes, then tell me bye. You call me back five minutes later and ask if I would like for you to come over too. I could not resist having your body, so I said yes. You tell me that you’ll be over in about a half hour, and hang up. No sooner then I hang up the phone, you

For Team A
www.hostdrjack.com TEAM A IS BASICALLY DOING THE SAME THING YOU HAVE BEEN DOING ALL ALONG JUST GOING AND RATING OUR MEMBERS STASHES AS YOU HAVE BEEN DOING WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS BUT SINCE YOU ARE A MEMBER OF A STASH CLUB AND WE ARE A FAMILY OF OUR OWN NOW JUST FOCUS ON CLUB MEMBERS NOW MORE. PLEASE GO AND MAKE FRIENDS WITH ALL OF OUR OTHER MEMBERS AND RATE THEIR PHOTO,S AND STUFF JUST LIKE YOU ALREADY DID WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS. WE WILL ALL GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER AND MEET IN THE LOUNGE TO PARTY! OR JUST HANG OUT AND LISTEN TO MUSIC, EVERYONE IS WELCOME IN AND I AM KEEPING IT JUST FOR OUR ENJOYMENT AND SOCIAL PLACE RATHER THAN DISCUSSING ALOT OF CLUB ISSUES THERE AFTER ALL WE ARE ALL IN HERE FOR THE FUN OF IT ANYWAY BUT THERE IS A DISCUSSION BOX ON THE RIGHT INSIDE THE LOUNGE IF YOU WANT TO ASK ANY QUESTIONS OR HAVE ANY IDEAS OR SUGGESTIONS. I WILL TRY TO READ AND ANSWER THEM FOR YOU SO LETS GET OUT THERE AND START MAKING FRIENDS OF ONE ANOT

Blesssed Be My Friend, Brother, Father, ...i Will Miss You
It ironic that when I get bad news it is to CT friends that I turn to. I just got a phone call that a wonderful friend of mine has died. He and his wife and family have been part of my life for 15years. When I was a single Mother, they helped me with raising my son. When I was alone in a strang city...they helped me. I remember when I learned to drive a stickhift car, Dave was the one who taught me. I think I worried him alot that day but he was understanding and very patient. They are about 10yrs older than me, but we watched our kids grow up together and we went through hell together. When my son got the chicken poxes they wanted Cory over there so that thier kids could get it too. From them I learned how to live as a strong woman and Mother. THrough Dave my son was taught to fish, built things, and camp. The best memories I have are of them. They were at every important moment of my life. From Partying with me at 21yrs old, to helping raise my son, to see

Hate And Pain
how can i beleave that you care about me you dont show it you dont seem to love me in your mind all that matters is that you have money to get drunk on never mind the fact that you have a daughter that does not even know of you because in her mind she dont have a father can be a because of me it takes a real man to be a dad every one tells me not to stay stuck in the past and just to for get about the past but how can i forgive and forget about all the horrable nights and days we were together you beating me and well now there is alot of hate in my life that will never go away the man i thought so deep inside of me would never be a bad father to bad you wont be there to see your daughters frist step hear her frist word her love for me is so sweet i sit on my bed room floor writing i slowy take a knife and slit my wrist open the pain is so bad i fall on the floor and the only thing that is going though my head is "why did i even let you in the door" as i lay there i can see the blood

Thursday Links: Philly Road Show And Wow Motorcycle Run Next Week, New Photos And Videos, Traveling Virus Coming To Boston
While the Opie and Anthony Show takes a few days to catch up on work, prepare for next week's shows in Philadelphia, and shake off a hangover or three, we're hard at work keeping you informed online of all the different things going on... so let's get on with it, shall we? First things first, while you're enjoying The Worst of O&A, you can always turn on your PALTALK and spend time staring at naked women all over the globe who are at home, getting dressed, sleeping, or boning their boyfriends/husbands on cam (we shit you not. We've seen it many times ourselves). Next order of bidness...The O&A Show is headed to WYSP in Philadelphia next Wednesday and Thursday (July 11th and 12th) along with the 2007 WOW Motorcycle Run, and there's a bunch of stuff we'd like to get the listeners involved with, so pay attention: What's the Weirdest Thing You Own: Part 2 - Remember the dead monkey that someone brought in last time? Try to top THAT, mister! Email Travis With your Weird Thing and ALL

Goodnight
I watch you sleep in our bed I lay a soft kiss on your head I lie listening to you breath And think of how this came to be How did I get a girl perfect like you One who loves me through and through i hear you sleep and release a sigh I dont want this moment to pass me by I promise i will never walk away As long as you love me here I will stay I swear that I will never let go Beacause your the only one i need to hold I say goodnight and kiss your cheek How do you make me so strong yet make me weak Your my lover and my best friend And i pray to god this will never end

So Let Me Tell You...
It is SOOO emotionally draining to go to a funeral home visitation of a 16 yr old and to leave there and have to go to the next funeral home for another visitation of a 15 yr old. I sooooooo don't want to let my son out of my sight! :( And yes I realize thats impossible. Just the way I feel after this evening.

Life In General
Im sitting here trying to enjoy my last days of freedom, and the people in my life arent making it easy.Especially the men I love most. They keep telling me that they will be there for me, but none of them want to get too close for fear of being hurt (Men:dont claim to understand them,just love them)One in particular keeps going back and forth, the night before (hadnt seen him in a while)he was being very affectionate. And yesterday I tried to keep a distance( long story) but he kept suprising me.Just wanna ask him whats really up, but dont know if i would get a real answer. Thats about it for now, if i think about the other stuff right now, will give me too much of a headache

The Last Day
Well Folks..Its Time To Call It Quits Here On The Tap...Had A Great Time With All Of You...There Were A Few Exceptions And You Know Who You Are...Remember, Kharma Can Be A Bitch...I'd Like To Thank One Special Person For Helping Me Find My Old Self Once Again....She Knows Who She Is....A Godsend..An Angel..Words Won't Do Her Justice.... Had A Blast People....Always Remember "It's 420 Somewhere" Have A Good One Folks EK

Driven Through The Ruins
You were the source to my deepest figments. Yet a repentant deceiver, who surrendered to the uttermost ridiculous ways. I still scream in woe. The evil in your soul, the demons playing with your thoughts, will not disappear until you have let go of the past. This moment is crucial... All that matters is the size of the terror. All that matters is the size of the terror! To proceed I must know why you're still here. Although I drudge to endure. Mystery fog surrounds the trees. This is the night of the beloved. No! Don't leave me now! Blow away the fragments of your own imagination. The tension strikes me, though I shall fear no such thing. For I am the peace that shall forever cause unrest. You were the source to my deepest figments. Yet a repentant deceiver, who surrendered to

"america Alone"
Excerpt from "America Alone" by Mark Steyn: "Don't take Osama's, or Saddam's, or Mullah Omar's, or the Chinese politburo's word for it. Consider those nations who (a) regard themselves as broadly well-disposed toward America and b) share the view that Islamism represents a critical global security threat, yet (c) have concluded that the United States lacks the will to get the job done. You hear such worries routinely expressed by the political class in India, Singapore, and other emerging nations. The British historian Niall Ferguson talks about 'the clay feet of the colossus.' Admiral Yamamoto's 'sleeping giant' has become harder to rouse-the La-Z-Boy recliner's a lot more comfortable and pampering than the old rocker on the porch. In Vietnam, it took 50,000 deaths to drive the giant away; maybe in the Middle East, it will only take 5,000. And maybe in the next war the giant will give up after 500 or 50, or not bother at all. Our enemies have made a bet-that the West in general and

Ratings
Its nice to have and add friends but i have seen alot of people that accept don't even rate or comment or anything... I know your probably busy but how hard is it to rate, fan and rate a pic? Once someone accepts I usually go back and do that plus alot more. As we all want to go to the next level.....

Breathe No More
Title: Breathe No More - Evanescence [Piano Solo Opening] I've been looking in the mirror for so long. That I've come to believe my souls on the other side. Oh the little pieces falling, shatter. Shards of me, To sharp to put back together. To small to matter, But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces. If I try to touch her, And I bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe no more. Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well. Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child. Lie to me, Convince me that I've been sick forever. And all of this, Will make sense when I get better. I know the difference, Between myself and my reflection. I just can't help but to wonder, Which of us do you love. So I bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe now... Bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe, I breathe- I breathe no more. [Piano Solo Ending]

The Truth About Me
HERE IS THE TRUTH.. I MAY LOOK STRONG.. BUT REALLY IM WEAK IN ALOT OF WAYS.. I LET THINGS TAKE MY LIFE OVER.. WEATHER THATS PEOPLE IN MY LIFE, NOT IN MY LIFE, OR ME JUST KNOWING THINGS WILL BE BAD FOR ME.. SO I CAMKE IT HAPPEN. THE REASON I SAY THIS IS CAUSE.. RIGHT NOW IN MY LIFE.. I DONT SEE THE LITE.. JUST ALOT OF PAIN AND OMG WHAT WILL I DO.. SAD THING IS. I HAVE PEOPLE THAT LOVE AND CARE ABOUT ME. AN SOEM ARE THE ONES THAT I REALLY DONT WANT GONE.. ABOUT 4 MONTHS AGO.. I WAS DOING WELL. HAPPY ALL THE TIME.. SMILING AND LAUGHING.. JUST HAVING FUN.. THEN I CHANGED MY LIFE MORE.. SO THAT MY EX COULD SEE AND HERE THAT ITS OVER.. NO MORE HOLDING ON.. I KNOW THIS ROAD WOULD BE HARD AS HELL.. I HAVE DONE SOME ONE IT A YEAR AND A HALF AGO.. BUT THIS TIME.. MY WORLD CRASHED.. IN SO MANY WAYS.. LIKE THE FACT I HAVE HAD TWO WRECKS, WORRIED I WOULD LOOSE MY JOB CAUSE OF THE LAST WRECK, LOST MY HOUSE, LOST A FRIEND OR MAYBE MORE.. I HAVE HAD TO GO BACK HOME.. SOME WHERE I HAVE NEVER WANTED

Illusion
Tall I saw you out in the crowd So many faces, But it was you that I picked out I see the rainfall Outside my window at night I have discovered my fortune and it's you... I lie between hell and heaven I lie between right or wrong If I were God I could have have you, but I'm just human like yourself I keep on smiling Cause I have this dream Every night when I go to bed I have this picture of you right before me You say these three words Never forget you But when I open my eyes, You were gone far away

Swallowed Tears Trail Of Tears
Icy blue and numb I crawl the red heaven gapes at me As I embrace the pale my final thoughts will sail... And now depression flows from your eyes On my aching wounds you spill your tears But my own hand. I drown your selfish dream You seek, not finding... the eternal portraits They await me like the night as this shivering candle holds my only light Icy blue and numb I crawl the red heaven gapes at me As I embrace the pale my final thoughts will sail...

Song
When silence cries... Is it what I feel? or is it what you really long to be? Depression grows again to you I pledge my guilt Deserted fields I stroll there is no relief The bleeding night surrounds you like a darkened veil The echoes wake my sleeping thoughts The distant voice... it cries again I realise it is not a dream, like a journey in solitude Ignore what I once did say When silence cries... The pleasant feeling of something dying (she said) Upon the innocent it will rise once again A tear I spill in silence Punish the word of wisdom that I once gave When silence cries... A passage of dreams a passage of dreams and memories Tiny little screams feeble yet revealed

Its That Time
My friends list has gotten to unmanageable proportions. So its time to clean it out and keep only those who I talk to or at least comment back and forth with along with my 2 families. So if you want to be kept on my friends list please contact me or I will be removing you. I will be starting that process tomorrow

Newww Pics
i guess im back for the next few days while i have a half decent computer to use. i cant use my other computer cuz its wayyyy too slow for this site. but i have some new pics so you should check them out and comment =] but i have gotten to see the movies shrek 3 and knocked up over the past few days. I thought Shrek 3 was better than the first and second ones. and I thought Knocked up was fucking hilarious. If you havent see knocked up you really need too and i suggest you dont bring anyone under the age of 15 cuz its pretty rude and has some nudity. monday i get to see the 3rd pirates of the carribean. but i'll keep you updated. byeeee!

Ipod Help...
yes, PuNkGuRrL should offically recieve the "im a dumb-ass" award.. last night i got my drag cd together (btw im in a show saturday...) and moved around a few music folders.. (yes including the ipod one) ... i wanted to add my new music to my shitty busted ipod and plugged it into my lappy. a box pops up saying that my library is empty and something something something.. well me being the dumb ass i am just clicked the button that said continue or ok or just delete everything and screw me.... (it went something like that) low and behold all the music on my ipod is deleted and my library is empty.. ::sigh:: anyways.... i still have all my music on my lappy and my external hard drive and im not looking forward to adding each folder one at a time to my ipod library. i tried deleting itunes and redownloading it hoping that someone up there (or down there im not picky) loved me and would just do it automatically ... but no.... is there a faster way to do this? ♥

Thngs Of Late
Things around here aren't going so great. My check has not shown up yet, which is very odd since it is a goverment check and is supposed to arrive on the 3rd of the month. It is the 5th and still no check. No check means I am still here in El Paso and not on the bus to be with my Baby like I am supposed to be right now. Being that there is speculations that since the roomie is the one that goes to the box to get the mail all the time cause she is the only one with the key, that she is hiding it from me. If that is true or not, I don't know. SSI said it was mailed out and that I have to wait to see if it shows up and if not have the roomie write a letter saying I am being evicted and need my check right now and they will see if they can write me one out at the office. Now the thing is to see if it shows up tomorrow and if not see if the roomie will even take me down there to do such. I will more then likely lose my internet tomorrow since their phone is being put in because well, I'm

Just Have To Ask
Why oh why do the same people continue to come lurk around my page .... seem to do nothing ~ Oh goodness I dont wanna know what they are doing ...Ewwwww and continue to send me a friend request that I have rejected time and time again ! Do they think I will change my mind ? Nope, Notta Does this happen to you to ? Please help me here .. I am again never ceased to be amazed by stupidty Ho Hummmm

You
Artist: Evanescence Album: Remixes or Bonus Tracks Title: You The words have been drained from this pencil Sweet words that I want to give you And I can't sleep..I need to tell you...goodnight When we're together I feel perfect When I'm pulled away from you I fall apart All you say is sacred to me Your eyes are so blue, I can't look away as we lay in the stillness You whisper to me, Lady, marry me, promise you'll stay with me Oh you don't have to ask me, you know you're all that I live for You know I'd die just to hold you, stay with you Somehow I'll show you that you are my night sky I've always been right behind you Now I'll always be right beside you So many nights, I've cried myself to sleep Now that you love me, I love myself I never thought I would say that I never thought there'd be you

"just Friends"
I guess the term "just friends" doesn't mean shit anymore. It's all in who wants to f^ck who. Guess it's impossible for a guy to not want to bone every female that comes within reach. F^ck it, I'm out. I can't play these little games, even in an online atmosphere. I'm in a f^cking war zone, working 60 hours a week, going to school full time so sorry if I can't email people the way they want to be emailed. I know, it's my loss

What Slavery Is /what Slavery Is Not
What Slavery Is What Slavery Is Not slavery is not about suffering . . . . . . slavery is about service. slavery is not about humiliation . . . . . . slavery is about humility. slavery is not about pain . . . . . . slavery is about being present. slavery is not about being used . . . . . . slavery is about being of use. slavery is not about control . . . . . . slavery is about letting go. slavery is not about what is done to you . . . . . . slavery is about what you do for others. slavery is not about abuse . . . . . . slavery is about acceptance. slavery is not about proving anything . . . . . . slavery is about being real. slavery is not about contempt . . . . . . slavery is about respect. slavery is not about how you look . . . . . . slavery is about how much you care. slavery is not about denying yourself . . . . . . slavery is about being open. slavery is not about bondage . . . . . . slavery is about freeing your spirit. slave

Excuse Me ???
I'M IN A "SEXIEST EYEZ" CONTEST FOR A BLAST IT'S BASED ON COMMENTS ONLY UNLESS A TIE THEN IT GOES BY RATES SO PLEASE WHATEVER YOU CAN DO WILL BE APPRECIATED. SO RATE AND COMMENT !! THANK YOU ALL TO THOSE THAT HAVE ALREADY STARTED !! XOXOX

Bad Day At Work
Ive really had day at work. My boss yelled at me and had no right too. I may have a disability and may not be perfect. This have been going on for awhile. I do not like my boss nor get along with him, because he is rude and very strict. I seriously hate it very much. I just get frustrated because with our job we do labeling and numbers and such, I may not know much and am not PERFECT! I do have disability so what, but he has to understand where I stand and no right from wrong, but he doesn't need to yell at me and my friend and such when we do something all the time you know..what should I do? PLEASE HELP! LOVE YOU ALL!

No Submit Button
Some peoples pages the submit button isnt showin on their comment if you just click outside the box after you commit you can press enter and it will submit your comment.Thought this might help whoever didnt know.

A Litl Humor
YOU ARE FROM OKLAHOMA IF.... 1. You can properly pronounce Eufaula, Gotebo, Okemah, and Chickasha. > > 2. You think that people who complain about the wind in their states are > sissies. > > 3. A tornado warning siren is your signal to go out in the yard and look for a funnel. > > 4. Your idea of a traffic jam is ten cars waiting to pass a tractor on the highway. > > 5. You've ever had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day. > > 6. You know that the true value of a parking space is not determined by the distance to the door, but by the availability of shade. > > 7. Stores don't have bags, they have sacks. > > 8. You hear people say "ya'll"instead of you guys. > > 9. You think everyone from a bigger city has an accent. > > 10. You measure distance in minutes. > > 11. You refer to the capital of Oklahoma as "The City." > > 12. It doesn't bother you to use an airport named for a man who died in an airplane crash. > > 13. Little smokies are something you

4th Of July Pics
Well I uploaded a few. But looks like CT is acting up. I have more to upload but I keep getting Error: upload not completed successfully.. try again? I used firefox. i have reoboted, refreshed and its not letting me upload them. I have tried everything. I went to the support lounge with no help.. I will try and upload the rest later. CT has me pissed at the moment :(

Cherry Blast
I was wondering who can show me some Love and Give me a Blast ? I saw it done and I am new here so I don't know how it goes or how to do it, but if I could get a Blast, I would be soooooooooo Thankful... Sincerely.... John

Manners
I consider my page my house. I, as should you expect when you come to my house you act respectful. When I go to your house I should respect you. I don't come to your house and piss on your couch. I don't understand why people come to a page and downrate people.If you don't like me don't come to my page. If you don't like a pic don't rate it. Grow up dumbass. If you gotta hate someone, hate yourself. You need Jesus.

Stop The Knife Stop The Hate
Fire anger always hates Sons and daughters lie in wait Gangster rappers on TV spiting g hate for all to see Children living in the street People screaming crying hate The world with problems we seem to hate Anger pain and people hurt a child Stabbed lying in the street gone Angels weep for one young life a mother cries Tv news showing those who have died Can you see Lord the people we have become? Knifes and gangs think there cool Trying to prove they rule People dying because they stare People running from there What makes you think you can control a life When you could be the laughing fool Hang your head and cry in shame And realise you took a life to day Please Stop The knifes stop the hate stop the killing Renumber it’s your life Don’t take another

The Darkness - Ps3
So traded in two games from my original PS3 line up (Call of Duty 3 and F.E.A.R.) to pickup: The Darkness puts a neat spin on the traditional FPS (first person shooter) by adding a "demonic" twist. Our anti-hero Jackie Estacado, reminiscent of the crow meets good fellas, gets a suprise on his 21st birthday: his "uncle" Pauly wants to execute him, and he releases an ancient dark curse which haunts his family. The darkness manifests itself as two snake like appendages that can be controlled and be sent out to slitther and eat people's hearts (yes very graphic yum ensues) As well as other various forms. Video is Graphic... The characters are decently scripted, humorous, and foul mouthed. Definitely not a game for the weak of stomach as execution style gunplay is involved as well as a proclivity for obseceneties. Originally based on the TopCow Comic of the same name... But the game draws you in decent, until you take a side trip after attempting to commit suicide. Jac

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Using your mouth Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mouth. You are incredibly sensual, a great kisser and a seductive lover. You drive all of your partners crazy with your mouth. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Do You Like Basketball?
This is a friend of mine and I want all of you to go help him out! Go to this site http://gopro.nba.com/video/285/ and rate this video and let them know what you think... Also his myspace url is http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43399767&MyToken=4f5ccd07-815e-42cb-89b6-c6ab98ab51af Go show some love and help him out .. This is what Brandon wrote: Hey I need you to pass the word on to every one you know and go to nba.com...click on the miller lite go pro screen......vote for my video its titled Nothing's Impossible. My user name is blee34 and let me know what you think. I need you to vote everyday until July 26! Let me know you honest opinion! It would be greatly appreciated!

Tell Me What You Think Dont Lie
we went out to eat. i got there first and was at the tabel when you walked in. you had on this short littel plade skirt and a white top. you looked so hot. when you got to me you bent over with this very naughty smile and whispered in my ear this is what i took off in the car. as you handed me your underwear. i looked up at you and said you have been hear 10seconds and you are already giveing me a hard on! god i love it when you feel like being naughty. every thing about you was hot. the way you smelled. the way you walked over to me. the way you showed just enough of your breast to drive me crazy. and most of all how someone that looked so sweet and good could have such a naughty side! you drive me crazy baby doll. you came over and sat beside of me. we ordered our drinks. the waiter could not take his eyes off you and i could understand why. as yo u were talking to him with out missing a beat you totaly shocked me. you reach over under the tabel and started rub on my already hard

Friend In Need
Hey guys & gals; a very sweet friend of mine had his account hacked into. He was a VIC & a high level cherry. Sadly starting back a level one sucks so go show him some cherry love. Spank him with rates & fan him too if ya don't mind. badactor@ CherryTAP XOXO~Lizzy

A Crime To A Lovers Heart.
I am the careful one Slight of hand a gentle caress upon your skin. I am like the wind in my gentle way Fullfilling is my play as your body lay. My hands they move fluid like waters churn bending and flowing across skin rapidly warming I am the fire that burns with heat drawign sweet gasps from between parted lips. I am that lover who shall tke his time Touch you where it is your hearts desire. For I am the man that wishes with baited breath to do what you ask and love you right. I am the lover oh shall wait in the night candles lite to kiss your lips I am the one who desires all of you for to desire anythign less would be a crime to a lovers heart.

Xoxoxoxox
You have a sexual IQ of 144 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Just Thinkin...
It may just be my perception, but it seems as though no one is who they appear to be. I have been chatting online for a while and there are a few people I have met in person. Whenever I talk to someone and we wind up having real conversations I always wonder how many other people they're playing the same way. I know that it's probably not fair to assume that's what they are doing but that sure seems to be the case most of the time. A lot of people seem to use the internet to find that special someone...how the hell do they expect to do that when they're dishonest and two faced? Interesting...

Another Brief One!
Jessica, Damian, and I are going to visit oldest daughter Jennifer in the LaCrosse County Jail, oh joy! Yes, I am breaking down and visiting her in jail - I'm really not looking forward to this visit at all. She lucked out at her sentencing hearing on Monday! She will sit for three more months in the jail, then be put on Justice Sanctions again for a undetermined period of time. Not sure this is going to do it, but I can try to think positively. I've just done this a few too many times. I'll let you know how it goes! We're getting ready to head to LaCrosse. I could use an energy boost from anyone willing to share, lol! Love, hugs, and blessings for all my dear friends! Later! Muahz!

On Vacation
hi everyone i hope you are having a safe holiday i am going to be on and off til monday i sure miss everyone i am on vaction enjoying the family and going to see sadie yippie i cant wait ...... muah i will get back with ya have a good week

Cherrytap
Hey Everyone! I want to let All my friends and even people I dont know that I have alot of skins for CT that I have created so check them out and feel free to rip some..I can also make you one if you ask nicely :) I also want to thank all my friends and fans for being so awesome..I appreciate all the rates and luv that you leave me. I am not on as much as I was because this is my busy time for work...I live in a resort place so in the summer all the tourists come here and want my massages so I do about 5 a day and am usually pretty beat afterwards so dont think I forget about any of you..just really busy right now. If there are any on my friends list that I have not rated yet or need some rates let me know by leaving me a message and I will get to you! Luv Simmer

Cherrytap
Hey Everyone! I want to let All my friends and even people I dont know that I have alot of skins for CT that I have created so check them out and feel free to rip some..I can also make you one if you ask nicely :) I also want to thank all my friends and fans for being so awesome..I appreciate all the rates and luv that you leave me. I am not on as much as I was because this is my busy time for work...I live in a resort place so the summer on the tourists come here and eant my massages so I do about 5 a day and am usually pretty beat afterwards so dont think I forget about any of you..just really busy right now. If there are any on my friends list that I have not rated yet or need some rates let me know by leaving me a message and I will get to you! Luv Simmer

Pimp Me Out Lol
im makin id's now all i ask in return is a fan rate and add im tryin to get my ranking up so if someone wanted to pimp me out that would be awesome. i know there is some people on here with a crap load of friends and fans (i need some lol) but yeah if u want an cherrytap id there r some examples in my pics let me know what kind you want and the pic link and what name u want on it, and ill do it, if u want somethin different send me some ideas and ill c what i can do on the pics no gifs please (morphs) the dont seem to work lol and not too close to your face gotta crop it down and resize it ill ge to u in the order u send me the request unless it is a different one then ill do them at the end thanx

Blue
Have you ever just felt so damn blue? Just after all the rush and chaos of life slows to a halt and you are left standing there wondering what just happened, and it hits you that you missed something. Makes me blue, makes me wonder if anyone knows me. Leaves you wondering if the life you lead is the right way. So many telling you that your life is the bomb, but yet where are they when you need them? Or is it me not letting them in? And why not? You ever wish to let someone in to the point that you are thinking about it all the time? I hate when i start worrying what someone will think of me. Standing up for who you are takes guts, believing in yourself takes guts too. Sometimes though, your 'guts' get torn right out. I know though, that all you can do is be yourself, others will come and go, some will stay. I hope the ones i wish to know all about stay forever.

An Invatation
Hello boys and girls.. I wanted to take this opportunity to invite those that are interested to a graduation ceremony at the Great Lakes Naval Station on the 20th of July in Chicago, Ill. My Son Charles J. Mays will be graduating from the Navy Medical Training course and should be receiving his promotion and possibly a Meritorious Service award. I will be riding up there on the 18th and hanging about until the ceremony on the 20th. So if anyone will be in the area and wishes to not only show support to my boy child but to the other Navy Cadets that will be receiving rank and Honors. These kids have worked years learning of Honor and service to our Great Nation and deserve the admiration of all of us. Very soon most of these young men and women will be putting themselves in harms way in order to preserve the freedoms we have so long enjoyed. In a time when we so many of our children are falling by the way due to drugs and violence heres a chance for you to let the

Stupid People
Why can't people just mind their own business? I saw a video on youtube yesterday in which a gentelmen purchased a hooker. The worked for Lowe's and was driving a Lowe's box truck. First he drove around a park where there are alot of hookers and he chose the one he liked. He drove her to a resturaunt and got into the back of the truck on proceeded to have sex with her. Then a gentelmen with a video camera opened the back of the truck and told the man he had called the cops and called his boss. The man with the camerea said if wasn't safe for his kids to play in the park or anyone's wife to go shopping because this gentleman was banging whore's. First of all let me just say that I am not saying that buying a hooker is ok because its not. I just to share my thoghts on this video. The guy with the video camera I hope he dies tonight. I mean how is this banging a hooker gonna keep kids from playing in a park or keep anyone's wife from shopping. Answer is its not. This guy with the ca

How To Treat A Woman
HOW TO TREAT A WOMAN: > >Wine her. Dine her. Call her. Hold her. Surprise her. > >Compliment her. Smile at her. Listen to her. Laugh with her. > >Cry with her. Romance her. Encourage her. Believe in her. > >Pray with her. Pray for her. Cuddle with her. Shop with her. > >Give her jewelry. Buy her flowers. Hold her hand. Write love > >letters to her. Go to the ends of the earth and back again for her. > > > > >HOW TO TREAT A MAN: > >Show up naked. Bring chicken wings. Don't block the TV

6 Canadian Soldiers Killed :(
Afghan roadside bomb kills six Canadian soldiers Wed Jul 4, 3:36 PM ET KABUL (Reuters) - Six Canadian soldiers were killed in southern Afghanistan on Wednesday when their armored vehicle hit a roadside bomb, the Canadian government said, in what was the deadliest attack on NATO forces this month in the country. The Taliban claimed responsibility for the attack, the deadliest since April, when six Canadian soldiers were killed in a similar incident. It brings the total number of foreign troops killed in action in Afghanistan to more than 70 this year. Afghanistan is going through one of its bloodiest phases of violence since U.S.-led troops overthrew the Taliban's radical Islamic government in 2001. The Taliban are strongest in southern Afghanistan. Ottawa said the six men and a local Afghan interpreter died when their armored vehicle hit the device in the Panjwai district about 20 km (13 miles) southwest of the southern city of Kandahar, which is home to Canada's 2

Something That Just Made Me Cry
I was reading my sons book to him titled I will love you forever.A part in the book has this in it I will love you forever I will like you for always as long as Im living my mom you will be.When I read that I started to cry since I recently lost my mom and love her so much it reminded me of how much I miss her and love her.

Hmmmmmmmmm
why must my ex boyfriend continue to let me know what's going on in his life?? (we spilt up in march) i'm the one who dumped him and to tell ya the truth i don't give a f*** what he does! he calls all the time or he emails me everyday...he tells me he's getting married! i say good for you now leave me alone!! this is the only place i can blog about it without him reading it!! *Update* I've blocked him from sending me emails from him sending instant messages, I've blocked him on yahoo 360 and myspace...the only problem i am having now is the phone calls....I called the cell service provider like someone told me to do, they told me there is no way to block his #....I'm glad he doesn't know where i live or have my home #

I Do Not
i do not ask for you all to rate my pictures i rate because i want to i pick and choose who i rate i dont ask for anyone to like me they just do i dont ask for you too have a crush on me thats on you i dont ask for gifts i dont as for blast or vics geesh why is it that you try to do something nice and i still get people pissed or upset with me

Coming Home With Mommy Today!
Yes, little Jeffrey gets to go home with Mommy today after being circumcised wust like his Daddy! Last night before I had to leave the hospital the nurse commented that he actually smiled when I kissed him goodnight -- that is just the thing to warm a proud parent's heart, isn't it? Today's my first day back at work since the beginning of July, so after work I get to pick Martha and Jeffrey (and Sarah, the new big sister) up at her parents' house and we go home. For the next six weeks, Martha doesn't drive --she really hates that -- and doesn't get to lift anything heavier than close-to-eight-pound Jeffrey. No climbing stairs either, but I do the lion's share of that with Sarah anyway! Thank you for all your welcome messages and gifts! We thank you from the bottom of our hearts. David

Needing Advice
Ok this is my delima...... I have 2 very good friends, and they used to be married then date then now again broke up. ( I know they are both gonna read this, but I really think I need the feed back on this one.) Any ways I have this big annual party that I have been having for a few years now( this will be the 4th one) and they both have attended every year. And to really put a spin on it this will also be the very Last one ever due to where we have it is being sold. Anyways... I am very good friends with lets call her Jane.. she is my best friend, and I understand she dont want to deal with her EX there, but on the other hand lets call him BOB, he has done the DJing for this party every year and really knows how to get it going and keep it going, he very fun and out going and alot of people who are coming asked if he was doing it again. Also I am still good friends with him to, Also my mother wants him there to dj. She even offered him Money to come and do it. Ive been honest wit

Mom Con't
There hasn't been much of a change. She's still confused most of the time. She pulls the tubes out at least once a day so far. It looks like they may have to do surgery if the blockage doesnt pass soon. I'm just taking it one day at a time. I wish I had more family closer to help out. I'm there everyday all day. Today I came home because of a headache.

Hmmm
Well after speaking to my mom, I can stay out there. Thats not a problem. The only thing is, her internet connection is dial up so that will blow for me. I wont be able to work where I am currently, but can possibly find another job. My boyfriend, as wonderful as he is told me that I do not deserve to be treated like my sister is treating me, and if it came down to it he would pay my complete way back to Germany. I didnt want that at all, but once again just goes to show that I have an angel!

Acapulco Chicken
Serves: 2 Hands-OnTime: 10 Minutes Cooking Time: 15 Minutes Total Time: 25 Minutes What you need: 2 skinless, boneless chicken breast halves - cut into bite-size pieces 1 tablespoon chili powder, divided salt and pepper to taste 1 tablespoon olive oil 1 cup chopped green bell pepper 1/2 cup chopped onion 2 jalapeno peppers, seeded and minced 1 large tomato, cut into chunks 10 drops hot pepper sauce What you do: 1 Season chicken with 1/2 tablespoon chili powder, salt and pepper. Heat oil in a large skillet over medium high heat and saute seasoned chicken for 3 to 4 minutes, or until no longer pink. Remove from skillet with a slotted spoon and keep warm. 2 In same skillet, stir fry bell pepper and onion until soft. Add jalapeno peppers, tomatoes, remaining 1/2 tablespoon chili powder and hot pepper sauce. Cook, stirring, for an additional 3 to 5 minutes; add chicken and stir fry for 2 minutes more. Submitted by: CapeCodLorrie Nutrition Info (per serving) Calories 333

My Check Up
i went to the doctor today and found out i have stage 2 breast cancer,so they are going to take the lump out and hopes to it not returningback for good,breats cancer stage consits of two stages and one is were they cannot detect the spread but can detect the lump in the breast and that is were im at they detected a lump but the will hafe to run lots of test to find out were it is and if theycan get rid of it with just meds or surgery.so what i have right now is a tumor in my breast which can be remoed. m happy to find out it hadnt spraded yet and all prayers that people are sendng me i thank you so much for with out you all id be lost.god bless and ill try my bestto keep everyone informed. please dont feel sorry for me thats not what i wan just pray and let god do the work.ty,luv honielynn

So Tired.....
Please let me start off by saying this... I am not one of these kinds of ladies that goes around hating ...nor am I judging other people....yeah I may talk about ya and laugh a little...but I sure am talkin about myself at the same time.... So that being said..... WHy in the world do people pretend to be something they are not! I am so sick and tired of dissapointment in my life steming from assholes that are not true to who they are or what they say! I have done a whole lot of shit in my life and not all has been positive by any means But please God I feel like I have payed my debt and things have come full circle! I guess I should be loooking at myself and the people that I am choising to be around.... I thought I had a high standard to hold people to...but apparently its not as high as it needs to be! And just as In my last blog I spoke about this might just be about you..... well it sure the fuck is.... so all of you assholes can get off your high horses and check yourselv

Tattoo Survey
If you have at least one tattoo, do the survey, if you don't then pass it on! 1. Have you ever cried during a tattoo? almost but no 2. When did you get your first tattoo? 13 3. What was your first tattoo? A letter M on my shoulder 4. which tattoo is closest to your heart? I would have to say my fish on my leg , my son drew it when he was 3 5. Do you have a matching tattoo with someone? No thank god 6. Do you have a tattoo that someone messed up on? No 7.Do you have anyone's name tattooed on you? yes, my son's name 8. What was the most painful tattoo you received? my lower back 9. Have you ever had a girl/boy friends name tattood and had to cover it? oh hell no 10. Do you plan on being heavily or moderately tattooed? heavily 11. Do you have a tattoo that you constantly have to explain? nope 12. Have you ever gotten an infection from a tattoo? hell no 13. What is the longest session you've ever sat straight? almost 6 hrs 14. What

Help Me Choose
I HAVE 5 PICS IN AN FOLDER MARKED, "NEED SOME HELP" PLEASE GO IN AND COMMENT ON THE PIC THAT SHOULD BE MY NEW PROMO PIC. THESE ARE THE PICS THAT I PRINT OUT AND SIGN FOR FANS. WHICH SHOULD I US.....PLEASE HELP ME OUT

No
I sit here in a dark courner Crying alone. My heart I walled up keeping anyone from getting in. I am standing on an emotonial ledge. Teetering over the edge. If you are not here to save me then reliese your grip and let me fall. If you wont come here and be by my side then why bother holdeing on at all. I'm not intrested in a friend because that All I have. I am there teddy bear that they tell there secrets and problems to. when there done I am tossed aside or in a toy box only to be brought back out when another problem comes up. They don't cuddle with me at night, or wish to keep me as there own. I am thrown again into the darkness. So that is where I will roam.

Ok Thats It
ok this is it i cant stand this anymore if you all are going to put a crush on me make sure you realy want it cause if not dont put one on and then take it off just cause i wont talk to you or cam on yahoo this is realy getting anoying i wish i could just shut down that freekin thing grrrrrrrr

Dont Start Shit With Me There Wont Be Any Shit
FUCK YOU..GO DRINK DRANO AND DIE! I HATE U GO CATCH A FUCKIN STD! UR MOTHER FUCKS DOGS! FUCKIN NASTY ASS TRIFLIN FUCKIN COCKQUEENS. MOTHER FUCKIN YEAST INFECTED PUSSY HAVIN TWATWAFFLES.! I HOPE U FUCKIN COCKSUCKIN ANAL WHORES DROP DEAD N UR FUCKIN OATMEAL! THIS IS TO THE ASSHOLES THAT THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY TO START SHIT WITH ME IN MY SHOUT BOX, DONT START ANY SHIT WITH ME AND THERE WONT BE ANY SHIT GOT IT ?

Updates
the type of life support that i meant was that shes is on a breathing machine while she is in an drug induced coma im sorry for any mistakes i have said or made it was late at night when i typed that and there was a lot of stuff going on i had spent some time talking to cops and stuff. so im sorry for any confusion she had surgery to stop the internal bleeding. and to help stop infection they put her into an drug induced coma she will be in it for another few days then after that she should be awake and alert. we are praying that she is. shes a strong woman she has two amazing children. if she gets better and gets out of the hositpal she will be going right back into what they call 5 EAST its an mental hositpal she is really depressed at this moment with some recent events that have gone on with her now ex boyfriend. she had tried to cut her wrist after her ex boyfriend broke up with her over the internet while she was sleeping and it has hit her really hard that he couldnt come to her

Why Are We Fighting??? Can Anyone Tell Me?
hey everyone, i ahve not written in a long time, but i am going to try this again.. i sit here and i sit here day after day. just thinking of the world out there passing along. you know it funny i wonder what all the people in the world are in such a big hurry for. i seem to get more acomplished in my day by taking my time and thinking about what i am doing. people are fighting everwhere. out in the world yes but here too. come on people, think about it aren't we doing the same here as we are complaining about out there in the world ? yes ok i know the puter is the world , but we have to remember this; anyone can be anyone behind a puter screen and key board. i have lots of friends out there, but there are alot that i don't know either and i just have to give people the benefit of the doubt. then if they mess it up it is on them not me, and i know that i gave it my all to get along. then i just let it go. so why do we feel that we have to get even with someone??? if we take care of our

West Sizzles As Temperatures Soar
Thu Jul 5, 2:02 PM ET AP Associated Press LOS ANGELES - A heat wave sizzling across the West showed little sign of letting up Thursday, with Las Vegas forecast to tie a record high and even northern Idaho expected to top 100 degrees. "You can become dehydrated really quick before you know it. You step outside and, 'wow,'" said Charlie Schlott, a meteorologist with the National Weather Service in Las Vegas. In Las Vegas, the temperature reached 100 by 9 a.m., well on its way to the forecast record high for the day of 116, according to the National Weather Service. The mercury last reached 116 on the date in 1985. Near-record highs were also forecast for Southern California, where the mercury was expected to top 115 in the desert. Thursday was expected to be the hottest day of the year so far in northeastern Oregon, with temperatures forecast to hit 107 in Hermiston and Pendleton. A high of 101 was forecast in Spokane, Wash., and nearby Coeur d'Alene, Idaho, which wou

My Life Really Sucks
i have one day to come up with 200 dollars to keep my husband out of jail. he got a ticket for no insurance and the judge said that if he didn't have his license changed from oregon to texas by tomorrow then he'll go to jail. and of course when it rains it pours cause i checked my bank account to see how much money we had cause i also need to get my son some formula we're over drawn by to much money. i know most people on here will tell me that i need to manage my money more better and if i didn't have some many bills going out and so many different needs i'd be able to. i was stupid and told a credit card company to go ahead and give me a credit card even though i didn't have a jobe. then my daughter got sick and needed medicine so i ended up using it on stuff we needed so there it is my bad credit and needing stuff i'm not asking for money i'm just venting cause this is the only way i can. and people are wondering how i get on the internet with needing stuff its cause my mother in la

My Birthday
So I rang in my 21st birthday by drinking it up in Vegas and I ended it by buying drinks for everyone last night and got totally plastered... today i have plans for some 151, malibu rum and pineapple juice!!! Can u say caribalou? I don't even know how to spell it!!! lol

Tuesday, July 3 2007 - Shell Beach
From my page at: http://www.wannasurf.com/community/index.php?option=com_wclogbook&task=showLogbook&id=6080&spot_id=3926&lbk_view=table&lbk_view=blog Spot: Pismo Beach, USA California Session's Rate: Nb waves ridden: A few....Almost Lentgh of the surf session: 1-2 hours Surfboard ridden: Good 'ol "Red" Weather and water temp: colder than LA thats for sure Waves height: less than 1m / 3ft Description: This wasn't at Pismo, it was actually at Shell Beach, probably a mile down from Piso. It kinda sucked, the waves died out before I could get acclimated to the colder northern waters, and the super slow waves that would just roll in without breaking, super sloooooooowwwwwwly. There were some good lefts and rights, which totally fucked me up. The LA beaches I frequent have equal opportunity waves that offer lefts and rights, so I don't get all that technical at this point. I'm gonna have to get used to that shit someday, so it's all good. I heard they had just c

“my Wishing Star” (living A Lie) By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1999
“My Wishing Star” (Living a Lie) by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1999 Published 8 November 2005 :: Poetry You were my guiding light My angel eyes Matching thine angel face You were my only desire The only thing I wished for And was powerless To make come true The stars above Call forth a meaning Never before set before me By thine heart Lain upon he ground Drawn lightly within the sand Where upon this concept Was I lost And turned away How can I find my way back How can I revive What was based on a dream Heart afire Hidden desires And still you know not How I feel Would it change the world If this ring upon your finger I place And those lips I embrace Living a lie How simple it was to do When I didn’t know you When I hadn’t seen you Before . . . Star within the night Please give back my sight I sold my soul To the gate of hell For a chance at love And you gave me her Only for those gates To win her away To carry her heart To

Please Help Nothing Is Impossible
This is a friend of mine and I want all of you to go help him out! Go to this site http://gopro.nba.com/video/285/ and rate this video and let them know what you think... Also his myspace url is http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43399767&MyToken=4f5ccd07-815e-42cb-89b6-c6ab98ab51af Go show some love and help him out .. This is what Brandon wrote: Hey I need you to pass the word on to every one you know and go to nba.com...click on the miller lite go pro screen......vote for my video its titled Nothing's Impossible. My user name is blee34 and let me know what you think. I need you to vote everyday until July 26! Let me know you honest opinion! It would be greatly appreciated!

5-minute Skillet Potatoes
Serves: 4 Hands-OnTime: 5 Minutes Total Time: 5 Minutes What you need: 3 teaspoons Archer Farms™ Mediterranean cooking oil 1/2 teaspoon Archer Farms(tm) organic rosemary, crushed 1/4 tablespoon Archer Farms™ organic sage 2 tablespoons chopped roasted red bell peppers 1 (16 ounce) package Resers® Potato Express(tm) diced redskin potatoes 1/4 teaspoon Market Pantry™ salt 2 tablespoons Market Pantry™ shredded mozzarella cheese What you do: 1 In medium skillet, heat oil over medium heat. Add rosemary, sage and roasted peppers; cook and stir 30 seconds. 2 Add potatoes; toss to coat. Spread potatoes evenly in pan, sprinkle with half of salt. Cook potatoes 2 minutes. Turn potatoes over, sprinkle with remaining salt; cook an additional 2 minutes. Sprinkle with cheese.

Back From The Land Of The Emotionally Dead
Ever had those days when you just couldn't take the rat race anymore? I have,I'm sure you have too,we all have. It took a car wreck to bring me back from the insanity I call my life. I as usual was on my way home from work going to meet my new wife for dinner at a local pub and suddenly,my cell phone rings. Stupidly,I answer it to discover my ex calling me and then within seconds,I glance up to see a car coming at me. Boom! we collide,I woke up in the hospital. After a few weeks trying to heal,I looked at my life and how I almost lost it answering a call from my past. I guess the oncoming car was a sign from The Big Dude that I should focus on the now and never answer my cell when driving. So,here I am black and blue and on hella morphine trying to jot down a few thoughts. Sometimes life hands us instances like that to help us veer onto the path we need to walk. Though I have a totalled Civic,I still have a loving wife and my life,I can replace the car but I am not replaceable. As for

July 5th 2007
Ok...so no more internet at home...which is why I'm doin this little update thing...just tryin to keep those that care posted! I'll be moving at the end of the month...to where? I don't know...but as soon as I do, you'll know as well! Hope everyone had a fun and safe 4th and I will update again soon!!!! *kisses*

“midnight’s Wave” By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1997
“Midnight’s Wave” by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1997 Published 8 November 2005 :: Poetry Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear I stand upon my window’s breast Watching the waves as they crest From my windows mouth I see The suns golden rays Held deep within the deepest night I see the oceans tranquility Held within two perfect orbs From the distant streets, I hear Ben’s mighty chime But before me I see Both an Angel And Midnight’s wave

It,s As Easy As Breathing....
www.hostdrjack.com CLUB RULES AND REGULATIONS IT,S SIMPLE........... PLEASE GIVE THE RESPECT THAT YOU EXPECT. OUR GOAL IS TO HELP OUR MEMBERS. WE WILL REMAIN A STRESS FREE AND DRAMA FREE CLUB. NEVER TAKE ANYONE OR ANYTHING FOR GRANTED IF YOU DON,T KNOW...ASK. SIMPLE IT,S LIKE A GOOD BOOK I READ ONE TIME SAYS DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU... AS WE WILL BE CHANGING ALOT OF THINGS AS WE GO ALONG PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LEAVE ME ANY QUESTIONS OR SUGGESTIONS IN A MESSAGE AND I WANT TO KNOW YOUR IDEAS HEY I AM NEW AT THIS TOO... BE SURE TO WELCOME ALL OUR MEMBERS WITH RATINGS AND COMMENTS, I,M SURE THERE IS SOME THAT YOU DON,T KNOW. WELCOME ALL NEW MEMBERS THE SAME WAY AND BE SURE TO CHECK FOR UPDATES FOR AGENDA AND INFORMATION IN MY BLOGS ON A DAILY BASIS THAT,S IT! MORE INFO FORTHCOMING... HAVE A BLESSED DAY

“lil Town...lil Heart”(jesus’ Doubts) By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1999
“Lil Town...Lil Heart”(Jesus’ Doubts) by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1999 Published 26 November 2005 :: Poetry Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear Dedicated in memory of those who were there and who died at Columbine High School (5/10/99) Fear and exhaustion Grip at my heart Plaguing my mind With an all to familiar tune Upon this world Father put me Shed my blood Father bade me But for What use was this If children still die Held within their mothers arms Or clinched together with their friends Being slaughtered like cattle Upon this day I stand before thee Like any other day Before. . . Except upon this day A shield I carry Because my blinders I have removed And now can see The world for the hell It has become A world where my daughter May grow up free of slavery And oppression Yet still be a slave To terror And the child with a gun Now I lay you down to sleep I pray thee lord Their soul you keep If they die . . . Guns are firing

Hope
Hope can be as large as the universe itself and very powerful as well. When we have hope, we believe that what we are hoping for is truly possible. In turn, when we believe, we can experience and achieve just about anything we set out to do. Hope helps to smooth the bumpy road and to help us see beyond the obstacles or crisis. The key is to have hope at all times regardless of the current circumstances we may be in. With hope, the entire universe literally opens up to us.

Last Song I'm Wasting On You
"The Last Song I'm Wasting On You" Sparkling grey, Through my own veins. Any more than a whisper, Any sudden movement of my heart. And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away Just get through this day Give up your way, you could be anything, Give up my way, and lose myself, not today That's too much guilt to pay Sickened in the sun You dare tell me you love me But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way You're just so pretty in your pain Give up my way, and I could be anything I'll make my own way Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate. So run, run, run And hate me, if it feels good. I can't hear your screams anymore You lied to me But I'm older now And I'm not buying baby Demanding my response Don't bother breaking the door down I found my way out And you'll never hurt me again.

“lil Town...lil Heart” Origional By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1999
“Lil Town...Lil Heart” Origional by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1999 Published 26 November 2005 :: Poetry Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear Dedicated in memory of those who were there and who died at Columbine High School (5/10/99) Upon this day I stand before thee Like any other day Before. . . Except upon this day A shield I carry Because my blinders I have removed And now can see The world For the hell That it has become A world where my daughter May grow up free of slavery And yet still be a slave To terror And the ever luminous Death . . . Now I lay me down to sleep I pray thee lord Keep my family safe And mine soul you keep If I die . . . Guns firing Children are screaming And all because a parents best Was not good enough Upon this day Before thee I stand Free of blinders Shield in hand For fear that the next report Is of mine doing Because my best Was not good enough And again Our children are not safe In the one place

True Or Fake ?????
Why do P/people think they have to be one P/person for O/one and A/another for A/another ?? Why can't we just be O/ourself and be cared for for being who W/we are ??? Does a computer screen make the difference or are P/people always going to be like this ?? I personally am on here as i am in real life if i say some thing to you its real not made up and fiction ... I wont t ell Y/you i am something i am not ..... I can be your best friend or the one who you can walk away from that is Y/your choice but don't tell me Y/you feel or are S/some one Y/you are not ... I will not be like that i truely care about O/others and if Y/you want a true friend look me up if not go away

“losing My Heart “ By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1997
“Losing My Heart “ by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1997 Published 26 November 2005 :: Poetry Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear Love . . . What is it What is this mystical emotion That seems to escape me at every turn My feelings are gone Because I have never known love Only the pain of watching it die Why could not I not give her the world Instead of giving her all my love I sat back and watched as she cried I felt her emotions As she walked by So now I’m left To wonder why Why am I drowning in a sea of sorrow Why won’t I see another tomorrow After hurting her so I say good-bye For now, I am losing my heart My world is falling apart

First Time
There are many first times in life lol some great timesso not so great ..Anyways this is my first time being a cherry :) so if you would all be patcient i would greatly apreciate it ..any advice or info i will take in apreciate all tho i may not follow to well lol i have blond moments but you will find im pretty relaxed and just am me i dont try to impress noone if ya dont like me fuk off its simple lol..but anywho thanks to those who rated me already i tried to return that favor and hope you all had a great 4th

Goodbye 7-4-07 By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 2007
Goodbye 7-4-07 by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 2007 Published 17 May 2007 :: Poetry Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear And I use to belive there was so much more to life then this I am use to seeing the bigger picture Finding the light In a world Wraught with darkness So many times I’ve heard How nothing Lasts forever Not love Nor despair Not health Nor pain But if nothing lasts forever Why do we have words Like eternity Why is there a word in every dialect Which may describe Or simplify This force This occurance To which No one believes

Carla (a Question This Way Comes) By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 2007
Carla (A Question This Way Comes) by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 2007 Published 18 May 2007 :: Poetry Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear I have spent A lifetime running Wearing masks Trying to hide The monster Within And yet With a simple Question You bring it all back As if the cuts upon my wrists scars from many souls many lifetimes ago were not nearly enough My far Angel hath gone foresaking me with but a small 9mm upon her mind My demon Christin is gone though she breaths amongst the nightmares and the scars I still bare And always will I have spent a lifetime Gazing within my mirrors And seeing the scars from fires long ago past seeing the beast nae the monster Life has made me feeling only peace within solitude knowing only tranquility within this mask and yet with but a simple question you bring it all back the cancer is gone and yet its virus lives still within my blood the lifeless bott

Me?
What color is your soul painted?RedYour soul is painted the color red, which embodies the characteristics of love, strength, physical energy, sex, passion, courage, protection, excitement, speed, leadership, power, danger, and respect. Red is the color of the element Fire, and is associated with blood, life and death, birth, volcanoes, and intense emotions.Click Here to Take This QuizQuizzes and Personality Tests

Ct Rulz
1. If someone is nice enough to rate you, rate them back. Men... DO NOT BE AFRAID TO RATE OTHER MEN! No one is asking you to date them... Just to Rate them~~~ 2. If you dont like someones photo, leave it and dont rate it at all. Just pass on it. Dont bother to rate it at all. You would not walk up to a stranger on the street and say... Feck man.. I would give you a 2... So why the feck you wanna do it here??? 3. If you dont like someone, dont talk to them. Block them. Babyjesus and Scrapper work hard to make blocks and things. You dont like them... Block them. Dont talk to them. 4. If someone is nice enough to fan you, fan them back. It is a nice way of saying thank you. And you both are getting points for it. 5. Keep your bs out of other peoples bulletins. Marq and Achilles are wonderful for bringing their shit to the bulletins of others. Why? Because they are mindless cowards and have nothing going on in their lives to fulfill them. Thus, they add people to their lists, t

The Past
You sit and point fingers at the life you have jaded when all along it was you who had raided a young soul and heart and mind. Never taking into consideration the future you were creating and the relationship you were taking--away-- with your lie and dollar consumed high. As you watched the bruises form and the young mind became cynical, it was all okay even today. Never taking any blame for watching your wallet get fat while the young soul fell flat. You are the only one to fail, left a young life to derail, spinning out of control. Now that it's twisted, take a long look at what you have created. With each crack of the leather to see the love and trust deflated. Was it worth it?

Sex Talk
Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories. Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile. Having nice sex burns 358 calories. Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories. Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal without......................187 cal Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal With one hand.........................12 cal With mouth.............................85 cal Put on Protection hard .......................... 6 cal soft..........................315 cal Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal Finding G spot ......................92 cal I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal Entry Holding her..................12 cal On the floor.................8

Trickery.....
What's with the hot ass chicks u see pictured on CT, click on their profile and it's a 21 year old boy with a hundred million points and 10 thousand fans.........that's like going into a real bar and making out with this beatiful, hot chick and reaching down to rub her sweet little clit and there's more than a handful of nuts and berries there.........WTF? Life is fucked up when u play like that, be upfront no matter what your lifestyle is....your only being dishonest to urself in the end.

Class Ring 2007 By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 2007
Class Ring 2007 by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 2007 Published 10 June 2007 :: Poetry Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear A stone Within a field I find Carved in love Broken by time Love Here once bloomed As I held you Within my arms But My back I must turn Leaving my past Leaving my heart Upon this hill A stone Upon this knoll I unearth Breathing life Into the words Here written Finding only a ring Where once I had burried My heart My life Finding only pain Fore only the heart I gave her Lies broken And Dead And but fore The memories Of us My life I am sure Would end A stone away from time I find Where upon I lay another Discarding life For memories Discarding life For the ghost That was you and me Enscribing these words Imortal through time 2 Lovers Captive in time Depart Me with your class ring And you Forever with my heart

Wednesday, July 4th, 2007 - El Porto
From my page at: http://www.wannasurf.com/community/index.php?option=com_wclogbook&lbk_id=1017&task=showLog Session: 4th Of July @ El Porto Written by Jungle Bunny Wednesday, 04 July 2007 - 04:20 pm Spot: El Porto, USA California Session's Rate: Nb waves ridden: More than I thought, I was told after! Length of the surf session: 4 hours Surfboard ridden: 9ft soft top :( Blah Weather and water temp: not to cold, overcast Waves Quality: fun Description: So for the 4th, we decided to head out to my new fav spot at El Porto which was a fiasco due to road closures, but my determination was such that somehow I found our way there. The place was PACKED. We were super lucky to even find a parking spot. The day was overcast, which was actually nice, since I tan easily and needed a break from the sun for one day. For some odd reason, there were few surfers out there compared to the last time I had been there, last Monday. Which was alright, since I was abl

Digging Day
I started digging today.. yep.. in my back yead. I am going to pour a concrete pad that my garbageg cans will sit on in my back yard. Also preparing a place for my air conditioner to go next year. But 4 hours of digging and I am only 1/2 way there.. and Now i am dead tired. So I thought I would hop on here to see what was about. Well the forth went off with out a hitch. nothing burned down this year!! YEAH!!! Went to a buds BBQ and that was great. He has a pool and I got to lounge around for a few hours and then we played a game of touch football. Guys my age should not try this when its 90 degrees outside. But the game went well. I threw 4 touchdowns!! After that went home and watched all my neighbors light off fireworks.. did not get any this year my self.. just thought that all my neighbors were doing it.. why blow the dough?

Emotions
People live with their pain everyday. Some live with pyshical pain and other live with emotional pain. So they treat others like they are nothing. They think because of the pain, that others should live their live in vain. That we are supposed to adjust our lives to suit their feelings. They say that you don't and will never understand what they are feeling. Which may be true, but that does not mean that they should be cruel, and try to make you look and feel like some kind of fool. So in this conclusion, what you should try and do is listen to yourself and understand that pain that you feel will last the rest of your life. But when you put others down your just making your pain even worse, because the more angry you get, it will hurt whether its pyshical or emotional for just revalating on it. So think long and hard on how you react towards people because they just might do the same to you. EvilStimpy

Downrates...
I know they shouldn't upset me or offend me...but they make me sad. Most of the time it's from other women who just want to downrate...and that makes me sad. The rate system isnt really a rate system...it's more about getting and giving points. So when people downrate...its kind of a sign that the person is really pathetic. *sigh* C'est la vie...

Apoligy
ok not sure wat happen but for those of u who think i abandend u i have not ok i was incarserated for a bit and if that bothers u so be it.... and actually right now im going through a few problems so i maybe on but just not with it so i apoligize for those who think i have... im just very bored and very well....lonely tired watever.... so again im sorry..... thanks tongue......

Friends Again!!!!
Still don't understand people that can't get their crap togethter enough to tske care of their future....My friend is still taking his sweet time getting moving for important stuff but at this point I no longer care .....I have invested almost two years on this friend to find out he is a total shit...I hope he is happy in all the decisions he make from now on cause I DON'T GIVE A RAT'S ASS ANYMORE!!!!!GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!

Asian Sesame Ginger Steak Salad
Serves: 6 Hands-OnTime: 5 Minutes Cooking Time: 10 Minutes Total Time: 15 Minutes What you need: 4 Sutton & Dodge™ Eye of Round Steaks 1 cup Archer Farms™ Asian Sesame Ginger dressing 1 (5 ounce) package mixed baby salad greens 8 ounces grape tomatoes, washed and drained 8 ounces bean sprouts, rinsed and drained What you do: 1 Marinate the steaks in half a cup of dressing. 2 Grill the steaks to desired doneness. 3 Toss the salad greens, grape tomatoes and bean sprouts together with the remaining half-cup of dressing. 4 Put salad on each plate and top with thin slices of steak. Serve with additional dressing on the side. Submitted by: SuperTarget Nutrition Info (per serving) Calories 519 (63% from fat) | Protein 31.5g | Fat 36.9g (sat 11.1g) | Carbohydrate 15.5g | Fiber 1.4g | Cholesterol 92mg | Sodium 295mg

Im Sorry
Dad, Im sorry I wasnt exactly what u wanted but believe me i tried. When i heard that u left my heart and soul died. Im sorry that i wasnt there when u needed me the most. Im sorry daddy that i wasnt the boy that u wanted but i loved u more than any person could love their father no matter what anyone says! U were my life u were my every reason to keep goin on in my life. I said that u were the greatest father in the entire world and believe me now that ur gone u will live on. I will make sure of it and as u watch over me i promise i will make u proud of me no matter what it takes. Im sorry that i couldnt take away all ur pain when u were hurting, Im sorry ur gone and im still here, and its a lonely world without u, but u know that I will do my best to make ur legacy remain. Im sorry that i can never hear ur voice again.Im sorry that u will never sing again. I know how much u loved it. I am sorry that Im crying but its hard to handle it without u behind me tellin me not to.

The Best Is Yet To Come
For some time now through thick and thin I have never stopped loving the one person I still think is the one for me in this world. I remember when I met when we met there was this kiss that was not planned, very unexpected but so very memorable there are times when I recall it and and new feeling or sensation arises. We were watching a movie sitting next to each other and I know i wasn't thinking of kissing her and she was not thinking of it. We were sitting next to each other watching a movie and all of a sudden it was like we were pushed into each other and just like two very strong magnets our lips locked and everything seemed to fall into place after that our arms around each other and that for that moment everything else didn't matter. I even forgot what the movie was. When we disconnected from our moment in time it was like waking up from a dream and I was thinking and she said "what just happened" We both didn't know but after that our lives seemed to orbit each other and we

Apricot Mustard Glazed Pork Loin
Serves: 8 Total Time: 1 Hour 45 Minutes What you need: 1 (3 pound) pork loin Salt and pepper 1 cup water 3 tablespoons coarse grained mustard 3 tablespoons apricot preserves 1 tablespoon Market Pantry (tm) butter, melted 1 teaspoon Market Pantry(tm) minced garlic What you do: 1 Heat oven to 450 degrees F. Season roast with salt and pepper. 2 Place in a shallow uncovered roasting pan. Roast 15 minutes. 3 Reduce temperature to 350 degrees F. Pour water over roast and continue to roast 30 minutes longer. 4 Meanwhile, stir together remaining ingredients. Spoon the glaze over the roast, spreading to cover it. Return to oven and roast 15 minutes or until internal temperature reaches 145 degrees F. 5 Place roast on a warm platter and cover for 10 minutes before slicing. Submitted by: SuperTarget Nutrition Info (per serving) Calories 288 (52% from fat) | Protein 27.5g | Fat 16.3g (sat 6.3g) | Carbohydrate 6g | Fiber 0.1g | Cholesterol 87mg | Sodium 193mg

Ancho And Spice Rubbed Flank Steak Tacos
Serves: 6 Total Time: 25 Minutes What you need: 1 tablespoon Archer Farms™ fajita seasoning 1 teaspoon Archer Farms™ ground ancho chile 1 teaspoon Archer Farms™ ground cumin 1/2 teaspoon Archer Farms™ ground cinnamon 1/2 teaspoon Archer Farms™ red pepper flakes, crushed 1 1/2 pounds Sutton and Dodge™ flank steak 2 tablespoons Archer Farms™ pure or extra virgin olive oil Tortillas What you do: 1 Preheat grill. In a small bowl, mix fajita seasoning, ancho chile, cumin, cinnamon and red pepper flakes. 2 Rub steak with olive oil. Sprinkle spice mixture over steak and rub well 3 Grill 10 to 12 minutes over high heat, turning once for medium rare, or to desired degree of doneness (steak will be very chewy if cooked past medium). Or, broil 4 to 6 inches from heat following grill instructions. 4 Remove steak to cutting board and cover loosely with foil. Let rest 5 minutes. Slice thinly into angled slices across the grain. Submitted by: SuperTarget Nutrition Info (per serving)

Think About This
"Whisper" Catch me as I fall Say you're here and it's all over now Speaking to the atmosphere No one's here and I fall into myself This truth drives me Into madness I know I can stop the pain If I will it all away [Chorus:] Don't turn away (Don't give in to the pain) Don't try to hide (Though they're screaming your name) Don't close your eyes (God knows what lies behind them) Don't turn out the light (Never sleep never die) I'm frightened by what I see But somehow I know That there's much more to come Immobilized by my fear And soon to be Blinded by tears I can stop the pain If I will it all away [Chorus] Fallen angels at my feet Whispered voices at my ear Death before my eyes Lying next to me I fear She beckons me Shall I give in Upon my end shall I begin Forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end [Chorus x3] Servatis a pereculum. Servatis a maleficum

Alfredo Strata
Serves: 8 Hands-OnTime: 10 Minutes Cooking Time: 1 Hour Total Time: 1 Hour 10 Minutes What you need: 1 loaf Archer Farms(tm) Italian bread, crust removed and cubed 1 cup Market Pantry(tm) frozen chopped broccoli, thawed and drained 2 cups Market Pantry shredded Parmesan Romano cheese blend 3 Market Pantry(tm) large eggs, slightly beaten 2 cups Market Pantry™ milk 3/4 cup refrigerated four cheese Alfredo sauce What you do: 1 Spray 12x8-inch baking pan with nonstick cooking spray. 2 In bottom of pan layer half of bread cubes, broccoli, 1cup cheese and remaining bread cubes. 3 In large bowl combine eggs, milk and Alfredo sauce; pour over strata. 4 Refrigerate at least 4 hours or overnight. 5 When ready to bake, top with remaining cheese and bake at 350 degrees F., uncovered, for 50 to 60 minutes or until knife inserted in center comes out clean. Remove from oven and let stand for 5 minutes; cut into squares.

Haunted
"Haunted" Long lost words whisper slowly to me Still can't find what keeps me here When all this time I've been so hollow inside I know you're still there Watching me, wanting me I can feel you pull me down Fearing you, loving you I won't let you pull me down Hunting you, I can smell you - alive Your heart pounding in my head Watching me, wanting me I can feel you pull me down Saving me, raping me, watching me Watching me, wanting me I can feel you pull me down Fearing you... loving you I won't let you pull me down

Spice Girls Are Back!
Hi Everybody, We just really wanna say a massive thank you to every single one of you that has registered for tickets for The World Tour. That's well over one million of you - can you believe it? Even more are signing up every minute!! It looks like you're still up for a great party and it's gonna be one hell of a Party! We wanted to let you know that our relationship is stronger than ever - it is fantastic hanging out together again and we've still got that "Band Magic" with that mad sense of humour! We've been doing a photo shoot for the Greatest Hits Album cover and making some very exciting creative plans for the tour! - Just you wait!!! We're gonna take a bit of a break before the really hard work begins. "Baby's having a baby!" Yeah we're giving Emma some Mama and Baby time! We're gonna let you know very soon if you have been one of the lucky ones selected to buy your tickets. We hope that you have because it’'s going to be an amazing show! You never know, your fr

Gonna Lose My Mind
After staying at my sisters for a few weeks and paying her a weekly rent she tells me that I need to go stay at my moms for the weekend. When I tell her that I am not calling my mom hence I work right near my sisters and cant get to work from my moms, she is turning into a royal bitch! She is the one that told me when I come back from Germany I can stay with her if I pay a weekly amount to her, and it was the easiest place for me to find a job till I go back to Germany at the end of August. She just sent me a text and told me that if I don't call my mom that I can find another place to stay and to take my damn computer with me. WTF! Family members now days (at least mine) are fucking ignorant and selfish! I thought families were to stick together through thick and thin. Well obviously blood is thinner then water in my situation. All i want to do is go back to Germany, I am not hurting anyone nor am I bothering anyone.

Self Police The Mumms?
OK, so despite Scrapper making a whole blog about how MuMMs aren't surveys, etc - they're still being made and what's more bouncers aren't deleting them... What I'm gonna do is mark all these fucking things as NSFW. I mean, it's getting way beyond a fucking joke now. Ford or Chevy and Coke or Pepsi mumms and it's not even fucking happy hour... I LOVE the mumms - the more people who are in the mumms the fuckin better as far as I'm concerned. But frankly, I've had enough of this lame point whoring shit. I'm becoming a fuckin narc... there's no point bitching about this shit and doing nothing about it. This has been another whining bitching blog. What? At least I didn't MuMM this shit...:P

The Grand Opening
The Grand Opening I had finally had sometime to myself. The boys were camping with they’re grandmother and I had sometime before school started. I have always wanted to visit Canada, so no better time than the present. I checked on tickets and hotels. I found a good deal leaving on a Thursday. I put the package on my card and commenced to packing. I didn’t know anyone there but was going anyway. I found a place about 5 minutes from Detroit. So, if it wasn’t all that I could just hang in the motor city for the weekend. I had talked to a friend in Dearborn and she had turned me on to this new club opening on Saturday. I wasn’t sure because I haven’t done the club scene in about 10 years. I had some family I wanted to see plus I wanted to do some shopping. I visited to some relatives and a few of my cousins took me to the mall. We caught up and I asked about the new club that was supposed to be opening. They said that they had heard of it but wasn’t sure if they were going to check