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A Poem I Wrote
"Through the wind and through the trees my beauty walked with ease. Though the walk was taunting verily she kept on walking. Through the fog and through the rain. She would not stop to wait and see. My beauty would not stop until she reaches me." It's a poem for a crush type thing. What do you think?

Generation Gap
Generation Gap... There have been a couple of generations in the last sixty years that have missed the boat but this group isn't one of them. A first grade school teacher in Virginia had twenty-five students in her class. She presented each child in her classroom the first half of a well-known proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the proverb. It's hard to believe these were actually done by first graders. Their insight may surprise you. While reading, keep in mind that these are 1st graders, 6-year-olds, because the last one is a classic! 1. Don't change horses...........until they stop running. 2. Strike while the...........................bug is close. 3. It's always darkest before.............Daylight Saving Time. 4. Never underestimate the power of ....................termites. 5. You can lead a horse to water but........................how? 6. Don't bite the hand that..........................looks dirty. 7. No news is...............................

Thanks
When the Lord was creating peace officers, he was into his sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one." And the Lord said, "Have you read the spec on this order? A peace officer has to be able to run five miles through alleys in the dark, scale walls, enter homes the health inspector wouldn't touch, and not wrinkle his uniform. "He has to be able to sit in an undercover car all day on a stakeout, cover a homicide scene that night, canvass the neighborhood for witnesses, and testify in court the next day. "He has to be in top physical condition at all times, running on black coffee and half-eaten meals. And he has to have six pairs of hands." The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands... no way." "It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said the Lord, "it's the three pairs of eyes an officer has to have." "That's on the standard model?" asked the angel. The Lord nodded

Rambling
Have you ever told someone something that you regretted as soon as the words left your mouth??? Then that person tells someone else and then you are completely screwed??? How do you go about fixing this? Do you let it go and just let everything work itself out??? I guess that is what happens when you think you have complete confidentiality with a person. I know...just keep you mouth shut and this won't happen. Right?!?!?!?! Apologies to all

Dumbasses
PITBULL: hey get a job PITBULL: no one likes me i got 367 fans an you PITBULL: won't say shit now huh fag ->PITBULL: I have a job....and that fan shit don't mean nothing. ->PITBULL: is fag the best insult you can come up with, you closet homo? PITBULL: ok i got almost 2000 buddys PITBULL: whatever you crossdressing incestual queer boy ->PITBULL: thats pathetic really...how many do you talk to? I have barely over 100, and I actually keep in contact with over 80% of them. I'm not here for attention like you. I don't need online friends to make me feel better about myself, unlike you. I don't need to pretend that I'm a good person, I know I am...unlike you. you are a sad, pathetic, lonely guy... PITBULL: they all added me an we talk in the blogs PITBULL: an i'm sorry you take the mumms seriously heres a razor ->PITBULL: I'm sorry you are so pathetic that you think you need numbers on an online site to be accepted into society PITBULL: hey does your daddy know you mom's about to

Yes Jesus Shows Love To > Me To. All
Jesus does love me and shows me all love; and I do as He ask . I give word For thee to shed light on those who want to see ; His light thru scriptures here typed on my page ;TO find or in our Saviour,s word here on my page . and look in the bible and see it to , but know God loves you and ;there is a WAY TO BE SAVED ..WALK in His faith .. Awe what a great way .........its all good , love and The right way to truth everlasting eternally thru God,s word.. .. Thru Our Christ Amen!!HE GAVE US SALVATION THRU hIM!!!!PRAISE GOD ALMIGHT !!!tHE GREAT ONE .!!!!!!AMEN!!!!!

Cowboy Computer Specialist
Cowboy Computer Specialist * Log On: Making a wood stove hot * Log Off: Too much wood on fire * Monitor: Keep'n an eye on the wood stove * Down Load: Gitten the farwood off'n the truck * Mega Hertz: What ya git when ya git thrown offn yur horse * Floppy Disk: Whatcha git from tryin to tote too much farwood * RAM: That thar thang what splits the farwood * Hard Drive: Gitten home in the winter time * Windows: Whut to shut when its cold outside * Screen: Whut to shut when its black fly season * Byte: Whut dem dang flys do * Chip: Munchies fer the TV * Micro Chip: Whut's in the bottom of the munchie bag * Modem: Whatcha do to the hay fields * Dot Matrix: Ole Dan Matrix's wife * Lap Top: Whar the kitty sleeps * Keyboard: Whar you hang the dang truck keys * Software: Dem dang plastic forks and knifes * Mouse: What eats the grain in the barn * Mouse Pad: That's hippie talk fer where the mouse

The Greatest People I Know
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Violate
Here's my second go at a Hawkins Song this time using Violate by Iced Earth Enter Now The Shitty One Ugly Little Man Vile Voice Disgusting Hair Ugly Little Man Born On Earth Unluckily Shit Festers In His Throat Talentless Clown Impersonator Ugly Man Gone Insane Enter Now Enter Now I'll Violate I'll Beat You With Your Voice Box Rip Your Throat In Two I'll Make You Eat Your Cds There's Nothing I Wont Do I'll Rip Your Tongue Out Of Your Mouth Anything To Shut You Up I Revel In Your Silence I Violate And Shut You Up Enter Now Enter Now I'll Violate

One Liners (coool1)~~~
One Liner J 1. Regular naps prevent old age... especially if you take them while driving. 2. Having one child makes you a parent; having two makes you a referee. 3. Marriage is a relationship in which one person is always right and the other is the husband! 4. They said we should all pay our tax with a smile. I tried- but they wanted cash. 5. A child's greatest period of growth is the month after you've purchased new school uniforms. 6. Don't feel bad. A lot of people have no talent. 7. Don't marry the person you want to live with, marry the one you cannot live without... but whatever you do, you'll regret it later. 8. You can't buy love. . But you pay heavily for it. 9. True friends stab you in the front. 10. Forgiveness is giving up my right to hate you for hurting me. 11. Bad officials are elected by good citizens who do not vote. 12. Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired. 13.

A Different Night
I'm not a huge Star Wars fan (not like this buddy of mine, Mark - but he sent me the DVD, so Diane and I watched it). About half-way through she starts calling me Han Solo: "Get me another beer while you're up, willya, Han?" "Move over, Han, you're squishing my boobs." I was thinking it seemed kind of redundant - you know "hand" and "solo" - but I didn't want her to get any ideas so I kept my mouth shut. She disappeared for a while and came out of the bathroom with her hair done up in twin honey buns like Princess Leia and I figured it was time to pull out the old light saber. So me and the Princess are going at it on the sofa with the damn DVD on pause and that great John Williams score repeating over and over and we're damn near the death star when she cries out: "Yes, Han! Use the Force!" I did. Today we went out and bought "Return of the Jedi". Definitely a knight to remember. © All rights reserved

Too Many Nights
Diane had spent too many nights out with Roxie, out with Kelly - out, out, out, all the fucking time - and leaving me to channel surf and drink too much beer. So I decided to entice her. I took a nice long shower, double scrubbed my parts, and I put on this stupid thong she bought me at some sex party Jan and her friend, Venessa, threw - it made me look like I had a bag of grapes hanging from my belt. Then I rubbed baby oil all over to make me shine like those guys in the goddamn magazines that she brings into the bathroom. So, she comes home - I can hear her keys in the door and I lay down on the dining room table spread eagle - dinner for one - and she walks in... ...with all her friends... ...and mine... ...and the couple from down the hall... ...and the cable guy... © All rights reserved

A Different Love Story~!
A different Love letter and a beautiful reply to it. A teenage college guy sent a love letter (in Q/A format) to his classmate. My Dearest Reshma , Please answer the following questionnaire. For Options (A) 10 marks, (b) 5marks and (c) 3 marks. ********** 1) Whenever you enter the class room, your sight always falls on me because: (a) of love (b) you couldn't control seeing me (c) really ... Am I doing it? ********** 2) Whenever professor cracks joke, you laugh and turn and look at me because: (a) you always like to see me smiling (b) you are testing whether I like jokes (c) you are attracted by my smile ********** 3) When you were singing in the class, I entered and immediately you stopped singing because: (a) you are so coy to sing before me (b) my presence influenced you (c) you feared that whether I'll like your song ********** 4) When you were showing your childhood photo, when I asked for it, you hide it becaus

Christmas Party
After the annual office Christmas party blow-out, John woke up with a pounding headache, cotton-mouthed, and utterly unable to recall the Events of the preceding evening. After a trip to the bathroom he was able to make his way downstairs, where his wife put some coffee in front of him. "Louise," he moaned, "tell me what went on last night. Was it as bad as I think?" "Even worse," she assured him in her most scornful tone. "You made a complete ass of yourself, succeeded in antagonizing the entire board of directors, and insulted the chairman of the company to his face." "He's an arrogant, self-important prick, piss on him!" "You did. All over his suit," Louise informed him. "And he fired you." "Well, fuck him," said John. "I did. You're back at work on Monday."

Gutters
Been swimmin in th e gutter of life for so long i have learned that doing the back stroke is the best way to avoid poo getting in your mouth. Some think its arrogance but I think its smart. look like you know what your doing even if you dont....

The Wait...part Iii...
another night is over... another wasted night without you... a trace of your lingering scent... as i touch the empty space on the pillow... briny trails left by the tears... glistening on the cheeks... recollections of your soft finger tips... and your warm sweet kisses... so many things have been said and done... regretfully...can't be undone... memories...good and bad...bitter and sweet... i still cling on to...they're all i have left... i've stopped looking for the reasons... why you left... without a trace... you've said "sometimes one has to be cruel to be kind..." is it to save my heart from breaking or yours? i know...come what may... i still love you...in my crazy ways... and i still turn around...thinking i hear you... calling my name... but i know...it's just the wind...playing a joke on me... wherever you may be...i wish...and hope... life treats you kind... and maybe...you're thinking of me right now... as i think of you... take care...my love... y

Fans
Hey everyone I have a really good friend that has helped me out in so many ways...I wanna return the love....all i need for ya to do is stop and fan him...all he needs is 6 more to go and then he will have 1000 fans. Thanks Let him know i sent ya...it only takes a couple of seconds BabyBoy J·Hubby/RL BF to SultryPrincess·Founder of Gothic Rebels Family·Member Of Club Far@ fubar

Everyone Should Read This
In memory of Belinda Emmett, in appreciation of Kylie Minogue, and anyone else you know that has been struck down by cancer A handsome, middle-aged man walked quietly into the cafe and sat down. Before he ordered, he couldn't help but notice a group of younger men at the table next to him. It was obvious they were making fun of something about him, and it wasn't until he remembered he was wearing a small pink ribbon on the lapel of his suit that he became aware of what the joke was all about. The man brushed off the reaction as ignorance, but the smirks began to get to him. He looked one of the rude men square in the eye, placed his hand beneath the ribbon and asked, quizzically, This?' With that the men all began to laugh out loud. The man he addressed said, as he fought back laughter, 'Hey, sorry man, but we were just commenting on how pretty your pink ribbon looks against your blue jacket!' The middle aged man calmly motioned for the joker to come over to his tab

Tired Of The Drama!!!!
Ok I am going to be doing a mass deletion on my friends list and here is why..I am so tired of opening my page and seeing a bulletin board of nothing but drama! People need to grow up!! Its the fucking internet. Should you care what someone else on another pc who u will never meet thinks about you? No you shouldnt! You only have to do what makes yourself happy fuck everyone else. Ive noticed lately there are alot of drama starters, hypocrits, and homophobes on this site! I dont want no part of any of it. So therefor I am doing a mass deletiion and only keeping those who i know are on here for friends not drama. If u dont like what i said just delete me now and will save me the time of deleting u later. Im not here for popularity like alot are!

Bananas
Bananas are better than Men because... You don't mind swallowing a banana. Bananas are always stiff. Bananas don't know how to fart. A bananas only purpose is to satisfy you. No one cares if you have two bananas in bed with you at the same time. Another woman will never try to steal your banana. Bananas can last the whole night through. Even the smallest bananas are at least eight inches long.

Anniversary
A very elderly couple is having an elegant dinner to celebrate their 75th wedding anniversary. The old man leans forward and says softly to his wife, "Dear, there is something that I must ask you. It has always bothered me that our tenth child never quite looked like the rest of our children. Now I want to assure you that these 75 years have been the most wonderful experience I could have ever hoped for, and your answer cannot take that all that away. But, I must know, did he have a different father?" The wife drops her head, unable to look her husband in the eye, she paused for a moment and then confessed. "Yes. Yes he did." The old man is very shaken, the reality of what his wife was admitting hit him harder than he had expected. With a tear in his eye he asks "Who? Who was he? Who was the father?" Again the old woman drops her head, saying nothing at first as she tried to muster the courage to tell the truth to her husband. Then, finally, she says, "You."

The Whole Truth And Nothing But The Truth
http://news.yahoo.com/s/time/20070827/us_time/whygonzalesfinallycaved Why Gonzales Finally Caved By MASSIMO CALABRESI Mon Aug 27, 3:40 PM ET The Administration line on Alberto Gonzales's resignation is that he made the decision on his own, after weeks of consideration. On Friday, at the end of a two-week vacation in Texas, the Attorney General called President Bush and told him "that he felt it would be in the best interest of the [Justice] department," if he stepped down, according to a senior Administration official. The President "reluctantly accepted that decision," the official says, and later asked Gonzales and his wife, Becky, to come down to Crawford, Texas, where Bush has been on vacation. Arriving for an informal lunch with the President and First Lady there on Sunday, Gonzales handed over his resignation in writing and told the President that he'd be able to stay in the job only for another three weeks. That timing fit with Josh Bolten's deadline for re

Birth Control Pills
Upon returning to their car from a shopping tour, one of the young ladies realized that she had forgotten to stop at the pharmacy for her birth control pills. She rushed into the nearest pharmacy and gave her prescription to the pharmacist. "Please fill this Immediately," she said. "I've got three people waiting in my car!"

Girl's Night Out
She said she needed a girl's night out, so I settled in to watch my Tivos of Jennifer Garner as Spy in Tights - just twisted open a long neck and there was a knock on my door. I thought you and Moxie were out painting it... "Moxie's getting laid - figured I should, too. Got another beer?" Turns out she likes Jennifer Garner. We were in the middle of the one where she finds out her mother was a spy for a super secret organisation of female agents wearing bikinis and working for a guy called Charlie and her father wasn't really Boswell, and she turns to me and says "I've seen this one, wanna screw?" So, I'm weighing my options while popping the buttons on my 501s - Hmmm - lemme see... twelve inch tall two dimensional lycra babe...or... seventeen dimensions of fun with an actual redhead butt naked on my sheep's kin rug. No brainer. About half way into some Kama sutra thing where she puts her foot on my shoulder I put my arm parallel to her

Within The 90 Day Window
Well I have made to to within 90 days (actually closer to 70 days) of leaving this place once again. I got to tell you, this is my third trip to Iraq and by far the worst. I don't know if its because it was 15 months long, my son is older and I am missing everything, or that I lost one of my best friends in May. All three reasons play a part, I'm sure. Either way its almost done. All I got to do now is stay vertical until November. It is always a bitter sweet moment when you step off the plane and one of your friends doesn't. I've gone through it a few times and it never gets easier. The Army is a funny place. Its like a fraternity in some ways. The closeness you develop with the men you fight along side of is unparalleled. But the opposite side of that coin is that the people you dislike are amplified that much more. Its hard spending day in and day out with people you dont like. But I guess its just like any other job. I cant wait to get off that bird and smell those oak t

Love Or Money?
I was asked the famous question the other day "next time will it be for love or money"? lol Well, the answer to that is definitely LOVE but I will not settle, if someone wants to come in my life and not participant 100% then get the hell out (I was all done with settling a long time ago). That's where "wants and needs" come in to play.... those guys that are willing to cheat on you, leave you, pay little attention to you .. well those are the guys that are wants... they are a dime a dozen. They fill a void for a moment, day, week , month, and even sometimes years, but it's not real love. The one I want in my life, isn't going to try to change me, they're going to want me to be me all the time. I don't need someone to complete me, I need someone to compliment me (and I don't mean "you look nice .. you're sweet"), I mean compliment my personality. I feel that if you have two people that are already complete, they already know who they are and what they want then together they

When Your Gone
I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cried And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it okay I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do Reminds me of you And the clothes you left They lie on the floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it ok I m

14 Weeks Today
Today is a huge benchmark for me and my baby! I am officially in my second tri-mester and can worry a little less now that the chances of misscarriage are a lot less significant. Thank goodness! 14 weeks: Head to bottom, your baby's 3 1/2 inches long — about the length of a lemon — and weighs about 1 1/2 ounces. Her body's growing faster than her head, which now sits upon a more well-defined neck. By the end of this week, her arms will have lengthened and will be in proportion to the rest of her body. (Her legs still have some growing to do, though.) She's starting to develop an ultra-fine, downy covering of hair all over her body (called lanugo). Her liver starts secreting bile this week, a sign that it's already functioning properly, and her spleen starts contributing to the production of red blood cells. She's also producing and discharging urine into the amniotic fluid, a normal process that she'll keep up until birth. You still can't feel your baby's movements, but her hands a

I Belong To You
"I Belong To You" Everybody needs to belong somewhere Life can feel so alone without someone who cares And when life becomes something just to get through That's when I'm glad that I belong to you I belong to you I belong to you You're the one who will never let me down Won't let me down I belong to you I belong to you Sometimes life brings more pain than we can bear alone When hope is gone and I have no strength to stand on my own When nothing helps, there's nothing that I can do You surround me and show me I belong to you I belong to you You're the one who will never let me down Won't let me down I belong to you I belong to you When love is gone, there's no arms to run to anymore I'm all alone, there's no one for me to live for Letting go of the things I've always clung to That's when I need to feel that I belong to you I belong to you You're the one who will never let me down Won't let me down I belong to you I belong to you these lyr

Goodbye Fubar!
To all my family, friends, fans and crushes... I am saying goodbye to all of you. Most I don't know but there are a few great people on here that have made this site worthwhile to be a part of. I want to let you know I will miss you all! If you want to email me I will try to get back to you weeirishgurlaz@hotmail.com. This site has also created heartache for me and for my own well being I feel its best to go. I am not going to delete my account or take down my pics right away.. I will just slowly fade away. Thanks for everything everyone! Weeirishgurl - Desiree

At The Urinal
This morning I was standing next to a very fat fellow at a urinal when suddenly for no discernible reason he confided in me that he "Hadn't seen his thing in 15 years." Not knowing why he suddenly decided to confide such personal information to a complete stranger and not knowing what to say and wanting to be helpful I said "Why don't you diet?" Giving me a surprised sideways stare he said "Dye it? WHAT COLOR IS IT NOW?"

A Carrot, An Egg, And A Cup Of Coffee
You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again. A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon, the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see." "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel th

Jagged Little Pill
Dancing under the strobe lights I’m having so much fun I wish they would have told me That it’d only just begun What started as a girl’s night out Had ended in disaster Soon they’ll find my lifeless body Underneath some fallen plaster In the middle of this dance floor At an out-of-control rave A few guys approached us With eyes showing a crave With the guys we took a walk We didn’t go very far We just walked around the block And into their shiny black car One guy took out a small box It contained small white pills

Observations On Life!
Funniest email, ever 1. Food has replaced sex in my life, now I can't even get into my own pants. 2. The closest I ever got to a 4.0 in school was my blood alcohol content. 3. Marriage changes passion...suddenly you're in bed with a relative. 4. I saw a woman wearing a sweatshirt with "Guess" on it...so I said, "Implants?" 5. I don't do drugs anymore 'cause I find I get the same effect just standing up fast. 6. Sign in a Chinese Pet Store: "Buy one dog, get one flea..." 7. I have my own little world. But it's OK...they know me here. 8. Money can't buy happiness, but it sure makes misery easier to live with. 9. I got a sweater for Christmas...I really wanted a screamer or a moaner. 10. If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal? 11. I don't approve of political jokes...I've seen too many of them get elected. 12. The most precious thing we have is life. Yet it has absolutely no trade-in value. 13. There are

Howie Schwartz Speaking At Authority Summit
Howie Schwartz speaking at Authority Summit Howie Schwartz speaking at Authority Summit - Behind the scenes and co-creator in a number of internet marketing projects. He is often working hard at the "lab" on finding more innovative methods at increasing traffic that most marketers overlook. His knowledge on Web 2.0 and its impact on the internet is often unmatched, and will be sharing his secrets on how best to harness Web 2.0 to your traffic advantage. An SEO expert skilled in "black hat" tactics, Howie has recently switched his focus to more "white hat" strategies. With his SEO background almost every site he touches turns to gold.

Spread The Joy
I have been arguing with myself over what to do with this blog. It has been a toss up between the notions of making it a short insightful blub litter bin or actually using for some 'higher purpose'. I am thinking currently... that after this post, I will make it a place to start exploring my perversions in a litarary sence. Not every one has the particular calling to the pursuit of fine filth that I do and I should show the rest of the world some love and spread the joy. Who knows eventually someone other than me may even read it? If not, I always can take refuge in the knowledge that I have managed to chronicle my fantasies & poon-quests for posterity.

It Was All A Dream When I Awoke-----
Visit www.hostdrjack.comHost Your Images & Videos FREE CLICK HERE! I WOKE UP THIS MORNING FEELING SEDUCTIVE AND PLAYFUL WANTING TO TOUCH THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE BUT NO ONE WAS THERE I WANTED TO REACH OVER AND BEGIN TO RUB, CARRESS AND MASSAGE HIS PERFECT BODY. HOWEVER AS I STRETCHED THERE WAS NO ONE INSIDE MY SHEETS THAT I COULD WRAP MY ARMS AROUND TO CUDDLE AND HOLD HIM I THEN REMEMBERED THAT I WAS SINGLE AND THAT I SHARE MY BED WITH NO ONE THOUGH IN MY HEART I FEEL HE WAS OUT THERE......SOME WHERE. AS I START MY DAY....I AM THANKFUL I AM THANKFUL I KNOW HOW TO GIVE MYSELF AN ORGASM,I AM THANKFUL THAT I HAVE SUCH AN GOOD IMAGINATION.I HAVE THANKFUL OF COURSE FOR MY FAMILY AND ALL BUT I SURE DO WISH I COULD BE THANKFUL THAT IT WASN'T A DREAM AND HE WAS THERE UNDER THE SHEETS IN THE BED WITH ME. AND EVEN THOUGH I WANTED SOMETHING SOFT, DELICATE AND SENSUAL TO TOUCH MY ACHING BODY I KNOW ONE DAY HE WILL AND ALL WILL COME FULL CIRCLE.

Vacation Update 2: Mick Foley Feeds Sam Video, Traveling Virus Coming To Philly, New Video Online
Add to Technorati Favorites Sweet Jeebus, I really need a hobby...because sitting here with the shades drawn, nuturing my pasty-as-hell complexion is doing nothing for the social life... OK, here we go with Vaction Update 2...because while the Opie and Anthony Show is taking some time off, there's still work to be done. Thanks to Sam, and his inability to consume grown-up food, we have two new videos of him being force-fed by Mick Foley (from Friday's show) online: Mick Foley Feeds Sam - Part 1 Mick Foley Feeds Sam - Part 2 If you missed the Opie and Anthony Traveling Virus at the PNC BANK Arts Center, don't fret...the fans took a shit-ton of great photos, and we have the first batch online now: Opie and Anthony's Traveling Virus at PNC Bank Arts Center - photos by Mike Black Virus Tour at PNC (photos by E ROCK, we think) Photos: Virus Tour at PNC (Lee Mels) Photos: Virus Tour at PNC (CurseofTheBambino) The Next stop for the Traveling Virus Tour is Tweeter Center in C

I Appreciate The Honesty!
I just posted my 1st Mumm and pleased with response...I thought everybody would be for the pics coming back, but I like the fact that many dont care...which I think is great since it shows that your here for getting to someone not what they look like naked. Many of you are right, I will decide ,myself how I want to go about this, but I was just interested in what the response would be. Thank you all for you comments in either case because they do mater in either case. Enjoy your day! Remo

John 3 ;17 - 21 ; Verses >.god Doesnt Come To Commend The Worls >.
john 3 ; 17 17 ;for God did not send His Son into the world to comdemn the world, , but that through the world ,He might be saved. 18 ; he who belives in Him is not condemned., But he who does not belive is already comedemned already. Becaused he has not belived in the name of the only begotten Son. 19 ;And this is the comndemnation, that the light has come into the world , and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 ; For everyone practicing evil hates the light, least his deeds be exposed. 21 ; But he who does the truth comes to the light, and his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God. ..........And may He Reign Soon Amen!.

Gotj 04
MY FIRST GATHERING EXPERIENCE. WAS UNFUCKINGBELIEVABLE!!!! I WISH I COULD GO BACK TO THAT DAY. GATHERING AT CRYSTAL FOREST WAS AWESOME. THE SHADED AREAS. EVERYTHING BEING CLOSE. RIP TO THE NINJA WHO PASSED AWAY AT THE CLIFF. MAY HE RUN WICKED WILD IN SHANGRILA

Awww
can you believe he did this for me? :) i ♥ you James! (i have to confess it made me cry a bit the other night and yees i'm very sensitive) it was very sweet and kind of you doing this for me you mean a lot to me and i hope you know that :P http://www.fubar.com/stashEntry.php?stashId=3271726 well i'm working, and fighting with Ubuntu and Fedora Core lol (for the ones that doesn't know, they are linux) this is my last week working here and seems like it's weird that i still didn't realize it... don't feel it like the last one. i'm working in many things at the same time to be patient if i take sometime to answer messages or shoutbox well i'll be around :)

Blah Tuesday !
I am so tired today !! Its a blah Tuesday for sure ! perhaps I need a shot of something lol to keep me going all day ! send me some shout-outs or comments friends that would make me have a better day xoxo *winks* ~Babydoll~

Pupp
PUPP stand for Pruritic(ITCH) Urticardial(like Hives') Papules(Red Pimples) and Plaques(Irritable flakes) of Pregnancy.It is an annoying but benign condition.It is the most common skin condition of pregnancy and is characterised by a typical rash,usually appearing in later part of pregnancy.It occurs in less than one person in a hundred.Therash usually develops on the abdomen near the umbilical area and spreads to the thighs and extremities.Sometimes itching can become very severe.It is more common in first pregnancies and seldomrecurs in subsequent pregnancies.This condition is usually a familial one and can be traced back through the father's side of the family.Treatment can involve cortisone creams in the worst cases,but occasionally simple moisterising creamswork.So can calamine cream.Long,warm sodium bicarbonatebaths can also be relieving.You may needto be treated with oral steroids if the itching becomes intense,butthis is not often the case,and is certainlyactively avoided.Thele

Clear The Air!
OK LET ME CLEAR THE AIR I CREATED A MUMM ASKING IF HAVING A FOOT FETISH IS SEXY OR NASTY AND I HAVE GOTTEN A FEW REPLIES. DONT GET IT TWISTED YES I LOVE WOMENS FEET, BUT IT AINT WUT PEOPLE ARE MAKIN IT OUT TO BE AND I KNOW IT AINT FOR EVERYBODY, BUT FOR THE PEOPLE THAT LIKE IT OR DONT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT THNX 4 THE LOVE AND 4 THE ONES THAT DO DONT HATE!

540
Oooook! Soooo..Drama from homelife yesterday - done & overwith! I'm still not comfortable staying around here, but I didn't want to overstay my welcome at my neighbors house. So I'm home. Anyways, I added some new photos! :D I sorta like them! Also - If you haven't already done so - Go check out Ms. Stang! She's a very awesome real fubar woman! I would love to see Stang as a GodMother! She's one person that truly deserves it!!! What are you all waiting for...Go!!! :P FU BAD B!TCH ۞ Stang!۞ Owna & Reppin Stangs Underground۞@ fubar

Relationships
RELATIONSHIPS!!! If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently

Lmao
Well, hell...I did it again. Went and got myself blocked from the mumms. That sucks cause I had so much fun last night. Oh well. I am so stupid sometimes. Stayed up until 5am drinking, got drunker than a skunk. My boss calls at 8:20 and wakes me up. LOL I have a good boss and am very thankful for that. Missed two hours of work....still drunk, got the shakes. Will I ever learn? Hmm, I think it might have been worth it! Oh btw, I am marking every damn thing NSFW. Damn bouncers.

Bring It
TO THE BACK STABBING LYING ASSHATS: So I hear you like to talk shit behind my back and are stupid enough to think I wont find out LMAO You really are pathetic and immature. If you have something to say to me or about me have the fricking guts to come to me with it. Stop being a little bitch and step. You continue with your HS drama BS you will have 2 choices. 1) You can grow up and bring the issues to me. Stop sending your friends to my page. Stop sending them to talk to me to get info for you, guess what... I am on to your little games. 2) You can continue to act like a little bitch and hide behind others. But know this asshat, it doesn't stop I have a lot of information on you and you know I do and I can and will RUIN you. Make no mistake. So the choice is up to you. You can grow the hell up and move on. Or you can continue and be annihilated. Simple even for one such as you that lacks the brain power to comprehend. Oh and that goes for your little friends too.

Parts And The Whole
Am I the sum of my parts or parts of a whole do I even have a soul? am I who I am because of what I've learned or have I learned them because of who I am? I am the monster... lost and found within myself....created from bits and pieces of wrecked and useless lives molded shaped and forged in the dark without reason rhyme or conscience,,,,oh to give meaning to these scared and wretched hands to have them feel truth and love,to have a heart beating in my chest that I know is my own,to breathe a breath with faith it wont be my last. Can you look past the deep anger inside me?I'm not even sure its mine,flashing memories cannot be my own,the gallows the guillotine plague.stabbing slashing pain in my head a thousand voices scream from within... ...corpses of teachers, friends, hypocrites and bastards...lovers, mothers, liars, and thieves. I hear them from all parts of my being. My fingers bleed my eyes bloodshot,wanting to tear off my ears to stop the sound.....cut myself apart to fi

Today On Worldrock Radio
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Ratings
As most of you are aware, ratings and fans and points mean nothing to me, its REAL friends that matter. If you rate someone, then make it an HONEST rating on their appearance, action or photo, not to gain points for popularity. People who need points/ratings for popularity must live a boring sheltered life to need such attention on a computer. Trading points is immature. So see, I am down to earth, I am here to talk to and meet people, not all the bullshit "Fan me, Rate me" hype. With that said, I am cleaning up my fans/friends list again, if I do not talk to you, then you are on my list for the wrong reasons and will be removed. "MOVE ON" To old for games and drama!!! Want to know me for me? Fine! Read my profile and lets chat.

Affection
There is no greater wonder than the way the face and character of a woman fit so perfectly in a man’s mind, and stay there, and he could never tell you why. It just seems it was the thing he most wanted. Robert Louis Stevenson 1850—1894 The heart has its reasons, whereof reason knows nothing. Blaise Pascal 1623—1662 It turns out that it’s not where we are but who we’re with that really matters. Unknown Love is not finding the perfect person, but finding the imperfect person perfect. Unknown Talk not of wasted affection; affection never was wasted. Henry Wadsworth Longfellow 1807—1882 And my favorite.......... "Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Walk beside me that we may be as one."

Good Ol' Ben Franklin
As Ben Franklin said, "In wine there is wisdom; in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria". In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine & beer (or tequila, rum, whiskey or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of crap. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information; I'm doing it as a public service.

Family Member Killed
last night my uncle was killed in afghanistan. i'm sorry if i offend anyone but i dont really care right now. i wish they would just blast a nuclear warhead at that fucking place and blow it off the face of the earth. i would do a little happy dance if the US did that.

Top Friends
i like how people get pissed off because u move em to a different spot yet agen i like how ppl just get all crazy because either u dont put them on ur top friends and yeah haha myspace people have gone crazy

The Pit Falls Of Being Numero Uno
I find life interesting. What I find more interesting is the mechanics of how Fubar operates. My life does not revolve around ratings or contests. I talk to whomever I want or I can choose to ignore someone. Yesterday, I read a friends blog about getting a request to comment on someone. The request came through his shout box. As usual, his blogs made perfect sense. Not like my rambling bit of Chicago ebonics. But the reason I mention this, is to show how vulnerable we are while on here and how others can take advantage of our profiles. Whether for a nice reason or to just be a jerk. In the past week I have been slapped in public because I voiced an opinion. One chick called me a "bitch" because she didn't like my response....and I am just putting her words neatly compacted into one word...To be honest, I don't see myself as anyone's 'ho'. I responded that she put the question out in the open and I had the right to respond. She just got wild with the name calling. So I d

Both In Bulletin And Blog
Somebody has started to straighten some of these thoughtless and ungrateful people out. And I am even more grateful that it was someone serving in one of the branches of military. Military paid too much ? You be the judge ! This is an Airman's response to Cindy Williams' editorial piece in the Washington Times about MILITARY PAY, it should be printed in all newspapers across America. On Nov. 12, Ms Cindy Williams (from Laverne and Shirley TV show) wrote a piece for the Washington Times, denouncing the pay raise coming service members' way this year -- citing that the stated 13% wage was more than they deserve. A young airman from Hill AFB responds to her article below. He ought to get a bonus for this. "Ms Williams: I just had the pleasure of reading your column, "Our GIs earn enough" and I am a bit confused. Frankly, I'm wondering where this vaunted overpayment is going, because as far as I can tell, it disappears every month between DFAS (The Defense Finance and Accou

My First Blog
Well, where do I begin? I am married to a man that would rather jack off then throw me a bone. He claims that my cooter smells and that it tastes like a soggy fish sandwich that's been laying at the bottom of the trash can all week. It hurts but whatcha gonna do? I would wash my ass but I like the way flies buzz around it. Not to mention I have herpes and it kinda burns. I do have pussy pics I am willing to show. I think my snatch looks hott with all the ooze coming from my open sores. Who wants a lick?

Loss
Yesterday morning, my cousin died in his sleep. His heart gave out from all the drugs he was doing. The same rock that he chose over a family that was willing to help him and love him. The same rock that turned him into an angry man who blamed everyone else for his own problems. Like he was Mr. Perfect and we were all out to get him. For years I sat back and watched him turn his back on EVERYONE who tried to help him. The last time I ever saw him, he was laying in the hospital almost dead from pneumonia. I looked right into his eyes and told him 'now that you're not high, maybe now you will realize how bad you hurt everybody, and just how much this family loved you'. And I walked away. That was the last time I ever saw him. I doubt my words ever sank into his head, but at least I said my piece. Rest In Peace, Brady. Too bad you were blinded by the demon known as Coke. You chose your path, walked it, and found your so-called "rainbow" at the end that you were looking for. I hope it w

Just Blah
So here I am in many situations and none of them looking that great. I am trying what I can to make it the best for me and here everyone still yells at me. I thought I have been trying to take care of myself and make the best choice that I can from my experience and advice from others. Yet, here I feel I can not do much right still and I should distance myself from others. I am only working ten hours at one job and needed more income and decided to get another job at night on top of the first one and classes. I can work up to 40 hours a week through the second job, but i only want 20 because of the course load I have. I had a fear of getting fired from my first job because right now, I am at a stage where I am sick most morning and late night, making it hard to go to my job and she was not responding to me, but after speaking to her superior, they said just come in Thursday and there will be no problems. Great, so how to tell your body not to be sick on Thursday. So now here I am, alon

It's Sinking In Now...
This is the first morning I've woken up and I wasn't crying. Although, I'm doing that at this particular moment but I'm trying to be optimistic. I know my brother wouldn't want me to be sad. But it's hard when I feel like a part of me died with him. It's devastating to finally accept that he's not coming back. I...don't really know what to do with myself. Everything's going in slow motion and I'm feeling every agonizing second of it.

Proud To Be From Arkansas
Somebody from California apparently wrote the top part, but somebody from Arkansas came back and put them on their asses at the bottom. And whoever that was, GOD BLESS YOU! CALIFORNIA: - I can wear sandals all year long - I go to the Beach - not "down to the shore" -Our chicks are WAYYYY hotter than yours. Well...Miami can hang. - I say "like" and "for sure" and "right on" and "dude" and "totally" and "peace out" and "chill" and "tight" and "bro" and I say them often - I know what real cheese & avocados taste like -Everyone smokes weed and its no big deal -We'll roll up 40 deep when something goes down. -I live next door to Mexicans, but we call them American's! -All the porn you watch is made here, cause we're better and thats how it is - I don't get snowdays off because theres only snow in Mammoth, Tahoe, Shasta, and Big Bear - I know 65 mph really means 100 - When someone cuts me off, they get the horn and the finger and high speed chase cuz we d

My Thoughts
Hey Dawn. Its Gothic Soldier. I hope you return to us the same loving and sweet person you have been to us all. I work with alot of soldiers but none of them are more of a soldier than you are and have a heart like one. The lounge and fubar wont be the same without you.Take care and God Bless the beautiful women that we have all come to love. In heart and mind i will be there walking your journey with you. Love Ya Sis. To all this is a special person to alot of us. so please pray for her safe return to us all. She has helped and toke us in to her heart as part of her family. She deserves respect as the respect she gives each one of us. If anyone deserves to be called a soldier it is her. B/c she is strong and good hearted like a soldier in a war. So to her the special women. Life here is waiting for you. The walk maybe long and hard but your friends will continue to walk and be strong for you. Your songs Ozzy- Crazy Train and Changes will remind us of you always.

Why Is It...
Why is it that guys have to ask "so did you cum?" after sex? Ok...here is my thought... if you have to ask do you honestly think it happened? Not saying that this has happened to me recently... I just was bored and thinking about this last night so I thought I would ask...

8/28/07
One of your biggest assets is your willingness to see both sides of almost any argument. Unfortunately, today that could land you in trouble with your sweetheart or someone in your immediate family. Ok looks like a day to bite my tongue! Which is probably going to be pretty hard to do since I pretty much say what's on my mind.

The 5 Celtic Invasions
The first inhabitants of Ireland were led by Cessair and her husband Fintan. They lived there either before the great flood, or moved there to escape it. After the flood all of Cessair's people were lost save for Fintan, who escaped by changing into various creatures, a salmon, eagle, stag and a hawk. The Formorians (also Fomorians, Formors, Fir Domnann, Fomhoire) are sometimes said to have been the first inhabitants of Ireland, but their origins are unknown. Some belive they were there in the time of Cessair, and gained power later, others belive that they came from the sea after the flood receeded. In any case, by the time the Partholons arrived, the Formorians were very powerful. They possessed hideous misshapen bodies which appeared to be created from a mishmash of leftover parts from various animals. They usually had both arms and legs, and were generally human-shaped, but terribly ugly. Formorians were very powerful and terrible to behold. The sons of Uar the Cruel, were named

Need Everyones Support
Please join us in this FLY THE FLAG campaign and PLEASE forward this email to folks in your address book asking them to also forward it. We have a little less than one week and counting to get the word out all across this great land and into every community in the United States of America. On Tuesday, September 11th, 2007, an American flag should be displayed outside every home, apartment, office, and store in the United States . Every individual should make it their duty to display an American flag on this anniversary of our country's worst tragedy. We do this in honor of those who lost their lives on 9/11, their families, friends and loved ones who continue to endure the pain, and those who today are fighting at home and abroad to preserve our cherished freedoms. In the days, weeks and months following 9/11, our country was bathed in American flags as citizens mourned the incredible losses and stood shoulder-to-shoulder against terrorism. Sadly, those flags have all but

Do You Not Like The New School Mentallity Of Retards And Buttheaded Tweekers?
Are you tired of supporting everyone's habbits? Do you both look out the window while doing it doggie style? Does Pyrokleptomania affect your ability to light a cigarette in your own house? If so please send one good bullet to the forehead of those affecting your day.

My Son
Well it is driving me nuts that I was called a misfit mother the other day by a drunk women, so I thought I would jot it down for yall. I spend ALL my time and energy on my son and he is extremely happy and healthy and my own MOM got drunk, called the cops on me and threatened to take my son away from me. ! I can't get the thought out of my head!

Baby Airplanes
A mother and her young son were flying Southwest Airlines from Chicago to Orlando. The little boy (who had been looking out the window) turned to his mother and asked, "If big dogs have baby dogs, and big cats have baby cats, why don't big airplanes have baby airplanes?" The mother (who could not think of an answer) told her son to ask the flight attendant. Therefore, the boy went down the aisle and asked the flight attendant. The flight attendant, who was very busy at the time, smiled and said, "Did your Mom tell you to ask me?" The boy said, "Yes, she did." "Well, then, you go and tell your mother that there are no baby airplanes because Southwest always pulls out on time. Have your Mom explain that to you."

Classes
well had my first day of classes yesterday. Got a few assignments done. Mostly still trying to get things organized, I need to create one big calendar that combines all four classes in one to keep it organized. It turns out that class that I thought I would like the most, and would be the easiest will be the one that requires the most work. I even have to do a power point presentation. I don't even have powerpoint, just the viewer. Maybe I can get just the trial version to get the assignment done. I would hate to spend $150.00 just to do one program. And I have never even done a power point before. So I will have to figure that out too. but before I do even that I have to pick a subject for that and I have to pick a subject for my research paper. It suxs having been out of school for like 30 years. Thank god for computers and the internet. but then again I think I really like this online course study. attend classes online when i want, but using the bulletin b

Because My Friends Are The Best!
Today's Horror-scope: You're getting massive support from your friends, or at least some of them -- even if you can't see the effects quite yet. No matter how weird things get, you know you have something to fall back on.

Way To Go Johnnie!
Did John Howard really say this? Im impressed if he did. Muslims who want to live under Islamic Sharia law were told on Wednesday again to get out of Australia , as the government targeted radicals in a bid to head off potential terror attacks. A day after a group of mainstream Muslim leaders pledged loyalty to Australia and her Queen at a special meeting with Prime Minister John Howard, he and his Ministers made it clear that extremists would face a crackdown. Treasurer Peter Costello, seen as heir apparent to Howard, hinted that some radical clerics could be asked to leave the country if they did not accept that Australia was a secular state, and its laws were made by parliament. "If those are not your values, if you want a country which has Sharia law or a theocratic state, then Australia is not for you", he said on National Television. "I'd be saying to clerics who are teaching that there are two laws governing people in Australia : one the Australian law and another Islamic la

On To The Poomse! Ki Bon Hana
Morning Fubarians! Its been a little bit since I wrote here. I had finals last week so that took much of my time, but school is out for two weeks so Im free! Woohoo! Anyways I am going to start on my series about the actual Poomse, hope you enjoy it! There are many types of Poomse taught in the world, and from school to school the poomse vary as well. In my Kwan, or organization we start with the Ki-bon forms. These are simple I pattern forms that have only a couple of moves within them. So they are ideal to help teach the basics to beginners young and old alike. All forms teach muscle memory and how to move while performing moves. These are very important to learn. As Bruce Lee once said "A good fight should be like a small play...but played seriously. When the opponent expands, l contract. When he contracts, l expand. And when there is an opportunity... l do not hit...it hits all by itself (shows his fist)." While learning the form itself is not the secret to martial arts its a

Leaving
Hey gang, just a small update... Off on a business trip to the capital. Will probably be gone 36-48 hrs. Nothing major. Keep em coming cause I return the favors! Peace and Chicken Grease! *Beer better be on someone upon my return!* Jon

Preschool
my kid is starting preschool next week and i am so nervous about it. I wonder how she will do in it, will she make friends, will she do good in school. It seems like yesterday when i held her in my arms as a baby and now she is going to school. she is growing up so fast. i just know i am gonna cry her first day.

No Right Word S To Say When A Friend Is Leaving >
So Ill try now to express whats in my heart , I love all my friends; As they are like gem,s to me , very valuable , yet rare and rarer . So many are going now for all kinds reaosns; But God has a plan ; Ill see all them again one day > And I want to give hugs.. best wishes and love to all and may your trip or journey be blessed and all receive what Thy Lord has sent to you; He has a love of greatness for you ,our God does ; He,ll hold you and keep you all with in this love .. May my friendship have blessed you to and added to your life in some way and know you have fufilled my life too in ways as no one else could ;each individual has touched and blessed my life, in love and knowledge and kindness and so much more , know this; as I tell you now.; . God he keeps me and lets me know ;ill see all one day soon.Until then my friends ; God be with all you . as He is with me. God Speed ..Amen!!! from Diana. hugs and hugs..

I,m Havin Trouble With The Pic Links On My Page!!
I APOLOGIZE TO ALL THE MEMBERS IN THE ABOUT ME SECTION ON MY PROFILE PAGE, I AM HAVING TROUBLE WITH GETTING THE PICS TO STAY ON THERE! I COPY THE PIC LINKS OFF YOUR PAGES THEN PASTE THEM IN THE ABOUT ME SECTION AND WHEN I SUBMIT THEM THEY JUST TURN INTO NAMES AND I DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE PROBLEM IS SO IF ANY OF YOU DO PLEASE HELP ME OUT OK.... THE ONES IN VIDEO DO PASTE RIGHT , I AM CONFUSED LOL THANKS GAIL

Gotj 07
WOOP WOOP!!! Besides the HEAT kickin me in the ass .. 4 days 3 days .. WHAT A BLAST. SOrda. haha. MY 4th gathering .. nothing was new to me .. seen alot of familiar faces .. met some new homies .. LOVED IT. my homies got to perform on the MAIN STAGE the very first night .. "EDIFIDDDDDE" THEIR TIME TO SHINE! RIP to the ninja who passed! Next year .. KEEP FLUIDS IN YOUR BODY .. at all times .. especially if its going to be THIS hot and you plan on DRINKING or DOING DRUGS. we dont need to lose family to BullSHIT. HOW WAS YOUR TIME ?

My Naked Pics
Ok got ya to read this finaly. I need help BAD. Im really loosing in this contest so far. Comments are the only thing that counts and you can leave as many as you want. Please repost this I could use all the help I can get. And who knows, I just got me a cam so those naked pics may not be to far off. click here

Hey Guys!!! Check Them Out!
These are my Fubar Sista's. My BFFs and Some of the best people I know. Guys give them the love and RESPECT they deserve. :) Persia {SSDC}@ fubar stina@ fubar the M.I.L.F.@ fubar Eliza"bitch"@ fubar Trancy@ fubar Dy@ fubar Maggie@ fubar

Total Lunar Eclipse 8.28.2007
last night and this morning there was a total lunar eclipse... i am blessed to live in a part of los angeles where the sky can not get any blacker, at the beach. there's no glow from electronic interference over the water. so my pops (yes, my daddy) who is 74 years and i posted up in my front yard and pulled an all nighter. looking at the most incredible, awe inspiring sight ever beheld. and we talked and sat silent, then gasped in amazement at the beauty... *tears in my eyes ...now i will always think of my pops when i look at the moon...

Hey Ladies! Check Them Out!!!
These are my Fubar Bro's. Some of the nicest, sweetest guys on Fubar. (Sorry if I'm blowing your rep, guys, but its true!!!) Ladies, show them some love because they deserve it and they give back what they get (and I mean that on either side, so be nice!!!) Restrictive@ fubar November (fubar hubby of Ruby Cairo {SSDC}@ fubar -Odin-@ fubar pip1966@ fubar Mr. P@ fubar Darrell@ fubar

Bests Songs
And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything seems like the movies Yeah you bleed just to know your alive And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am...

A Quick And Heartfelt Good Morning/good Afternoon!
I need to leave for work soon and I have so many comments to respond to! This will have to suffice until I have the time, lol. Much is going on energywise - if you've read my other blogs, you know whereof I speak. At the moment, I'm feeling a bit scattered. I need to get to my office where the energy is more appropriate for energy sending. Please be aware that the energy is particularly restless and unsettled today! Short update: my oldest daughter Jenn, who got out of jail last week - sprung without her psych drugs by the way - is passed out drunk on her 20 year old son's couch!! I could kill someone at the moment, lol, and that's not like me. I'm a frustrated camper at the moment. But, as I always say, I will survive! No disco lights, please!? I'm off. Have a wonderful day, everyone! Hang in there! Much love and warm hugs, everyone. Blessings, lots of them, for all my friends, all over the world! You are loved so very much. Later! Muah!

Nsfw Info
Fello "FU's": I get daily emails from people telling me about our NSFW policy. Most of the time, I go to the page and their is NO salute and a bunch of photos that any one with half a brain would flag NSFW. We respect everyone's freedom of expression here, and we do NOT like to delete people. However, we do have boundaries and will take action when necessary. Please read the following information about NSFW material on FUBAR. 1. FUBAR is not an amateur porn site. Please flag ALL NSFW content. Read our welcome message and our Terms of Service. It clearly states that we will delete you if you upload NSFW content to public areas (Photos, Mumms, Blogs, Stash, Comments, Bulletins, etc.) 2. If we find an excessive amount of NSFW photos of yours showing up in our mod queue that you purposely did not flag, your account will be DELETED. Read our Terms of Service. If you have been here longer than a month, you should know the drill. We do not want to babysit people. 3. If you throw

Bushco At It Again....
http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/august2007/270807_market_crash.htm Market Crash Forecast Suggests New 9/11 Mystery trader bets on huge downturn that could only be preceded by catastrophe Paul Joseph Watson Prison Planet Monday, August 27, 2007 A mystery trader risks losing around $1 billion dollars after placing 245,000 put options on the Dow Jones Eurostoxx 50 index, leading many analysts to speculate that a stock market crash preceded by a new 9/11 style catastrophe could take place within the next month. The anonymous trader only stands to make money if the market crashes by a third to a half before September 21st, which is when the put options expire. A put option is a financial contract between two parties, the buyer and the writer (seller) of the option, in which the buyer stands to benefit only if the price of the asset falls. "The sales are being referred to by market traders as "bin Laden trades" because only an event on the scale of 9-11 could make

This Is Seriously Messed Up!!!
i came to this site invited by family members saying it was really a fun place to be. for the first few weeks i agreed until i found it was taking up most of my time and i was paying less and less attention to the real world around me. so i started to distance myself from all these internet comunities and saw that there are friends and family right here next to me. sadly tho family members with who i used to talk with, and have a once and a while online game with, didn't. now, when i do get a word from them, its mostly about this site or the talk, after a hello how are you, is leading up to it. what bothers me is that i see them online here on fubar use the shoutbox to get to them i'm ignored only to recieve a message a few days later that "im in a contest need help bombing" or i get e-mails saying: this user wants u to see this stash, picture, profile. i want my family back!! i can agree that internet comunities do have their charm but to the point of neglecting family??

Many Now Lord Being Called Home >word To Those Who Havent Made The Choice Yet ..
as I think and say prayers ; I have tears and my heart is hurting ; But not because some die that is God calling them home . My tears are for the living and sadness; And tears of joy for those that have passed on ; But tears of saddness of missing them that are being called home now,when they are gone.. See To me they live thru Our Lord an are not dead at all.unless God,s judgment said so .but the Living they are in need of faith in order to RECIEVE SALVATION of our Christ;. I say that their decision is a choice within in them , I can only give thy Lords word and hope some see a glimps of light thru to our Christ > Im saddend and hurting for I want no one to be lost to death or Satan or such evil.But even I cant save any ; Thru Jesus christ all are given salvation , He was the sacrifical lamb. Look to him and He will wash you clean thru and in His blood for eternal life.Amen! Amen! Amen!

Food For Thought
You don't need an explanation for everything. Recognize that there are such things as miracles, events for which there are no explanations. Later, knowledge may explain those events quite easily. The fact that you can plant a seed and it becomes a flower, share a bit of knowledge and it becomes another's, smile at someone and receive a smile in return are common miracles. Your duty to yourself is to believe that for which you have sufficient evidence, and to suspend your judgment when you have not. Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic. Some things have to be believed to be seen. Don't believe in miracles, depend on them.

Wills Of Steel.
Two Luvy blogs this morning. So last night we were staying up to see Mars. Normally she's asleep by 9:00/9:30. This kid sat next to me on the porch, then in the living room, then turned on the TV. We saw Addams Family Values twice in a row, 3 episodes of the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and she was watching WWE. Then to keep ME awake cause I was the one falling asleep she came up with an ingenious suggestion... a video game. So we played Tetris til 12:30. oh btw. Mars can kiss my ass.

Again On Respect
One of the things ive been doing in trying to rebuild my life is to reconfigure my thinking about alot of things. One of those things is respect. What is respect? How do I get it? Whom do I give it to? What exactly is respect? Is it a way of handling yourself? Is it a way of handling others? It's both and much more. Respect starts with loving yourself for who you are. NO matter how you live your life, if it's a way that enables you to be good to yourself, then do it. Respect yourself enough to make your life good. Respect is not letting yourself use others or be used. Also, when you respect yourself, it may not be in a way you think is a big deal. It's the small stuff. It's not letting yourself be put into compromising positions. It's not when you make decisions that you know arent what you need to be doing. You are so much better. How do you get respect? You dont get it just because you say so. You dont get it by disrespecting yourself. You get respect by acting respectfully. Do

What The Hell?
I have been here for quite a while now. I like this site it has an incredible mix of beautiful people. But lately I have been wonderin why the haeck I stay here, I get maybe one person viewing my profile per day. Some days I dont even get one. I mean am I that disgusting looking that I scare people off before they even get to my profile???? oh well guess I'll never know

Im A Grandma
HELLO MY NAME IS TERRY KRISTOPHER AND I JUST WANTED TO SAY HI TO ALL OF GRANDMA'S FRIENDS AND FAMILY I CAME INTO THE WORLD AT 5:5I AM AUGUST 28TH AT 8LB.S 3OUCES. AN 21 1/2 INCHES LONG. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers we love you all. DreamWeaver :)

In Memory Of Michel Castillon
A FRIEND SENT THIS TO ME YESTERDAY HAVING NO IDEA THE EFFECT IT WOULD HAVE ON ME AT THE TIME, WE ARE ALL HERE WITH NO IDEA WHEN WE MIGHT STOP ON A DIME...........I AM REPOSTING THIS AND A FEW OTHER THOUGHTS AT THE END BUT TAKE THE TIME AND TRULY READ AND UNDERSTAND THE TRUE MEANING IN THIS PASSAGE: One day someone special will be gone. And on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of your bedroom, you might be struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't any more. No more hugs, no more lucky moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, No more "just one more minute." Sometimes, what we care about the most goes away. never to return before we can say good-bye, Or say "I Love You." So while we have it . . it's best we love it . . And care for it and fix it when it's broken . and take good care of it when it's sick. This is true for marriage .... and friendships .. And children with bad report cards; And dogs with bad hips; And aging par

This Is Funny!!
It's time again for the annual "Stella Awards"! For those unfamiliar with these awards, they are named after 81-year-old Stella Liebeck who spilled hot coffee on herself and successfully sued the McDonald's in New Mexico where she purchased the coffee. You remember, she took the lid off the coffee and put it between her knees while she was driving. Who would ever think one could get burned doing that, right? That's right; these are awards for the most outlandish lawsuits and verdicts in the U.S. You know, the kinds of cases that make you scratch your head. Here are the Stella's for the past year: 7TH PLACE: Kathleen Robertson of Austin, Texas was awarded $80,000 by a jury of her peers after breaking her ankle tripping over a toddler who was running inside a furniture store. The store owners were understandably surprised by the verdict, considering the running toddler was her own son. 6TH PLACE: Carl Truman, 19, of Los Angeles, California won $74,000 plus medical expe

Who I Will Miss On Lc/ct/fubar #1
Who I will miss the most on Lost Cherry,Cherry Tap,Fubar is my wonderful and caring and sexy and beautiful and amazing stunning friend and who i consider to be my bestest friend on this site ever ~NiCcKiE ~ Princess' Mistress and i am going to miss her because she's leaving this site and it makes me sad as anything i just hope she returns to this site and to me as my friend because she made it so bearable for me on this site without her been around i don't even know how i will cope on this site without her she's my rock of strength on this site and now i feel i am losing my best friend for a 2nd time in a space of 2 years which makes me so sad and depressed and all this time on the 3 site name changes there's always been one person who has remained in my family list either it be Lost Cherry or even Cherry Tap or even Fubar and it is ~NiCcKiE ~ Princess' Mistress and she's so damn special in my life to me and she'll remain in a special place in my heart forever you are the m

Shes Like The Wind
Yea Yo Tony Sunshine [Lumidee] Listen baby I’ve been around I know that you like how I wear my crown And I know that im something that is so profound So far what im hearing look I like the sound Everybodys talkin about it We could be talkin why would u doubt it Your plams are sweaty and your heart sounds poundin This is what u feeling tell me about it [Tony Sunshine] Shes like the wind Thru my tree (baby yea baby yea) Shes rides all night Next to me Like u won’t believe (No) She leaves me the moonlight Only to burn me wit the sun Damn it I believe she knows She takin my heart She doesn’t know what shes done Baby please I feel her breath in my face (baby I can feel) Her bodys close to me (her body close to me) Can’t look in her eyes (can’t look in your eyes) Shes outta my league (shes outta my league oh) Just a fool to believe Shes got everything I need Shes like the wind [Lumidee] If u cant conceive it muffin Cause u just let it be its nothing

Lord Another Prayer Now 2 The Miner S>in Utah>
Lord It,s Thy will be done now , and hold all dear to You ;As they keep looking, It,s the seventh hole O Lord; and I know ; yes I know there is hope always in you > Lord. , May some good come from this , may families Know our prayers be with all ;and the resucers that help . God give them a great strenght to go on and may they find the miners please O Lord . ,help all to get thru this now that need You and thy grace and thy mercy and all thy love . comfort and give food , shelter and anything lacking there of , see that all are given this thru thy Love I ask in Thy name O Lord> As I abide by Thy Will be done on earth as it is in Heaven O LOrd . Amen!!!PRAISE GOD ALMIGHTY . .

This Needs Attention
everytime i get invited too play a game i eitherr get told game loading and then forgotten about and the other person is told they are waiting for me too join. HELP HOW DO I GET THIS TOO WORK PEOPLE

Fake Money Doesn't Fool Tenn. Strippers
SMYRNA, Tenn. - A man who authorities say used his computer to make fake $100 bills to buy lap dances at a strip club has pleaded guilty to counterfeiting charges, federal prosecutors said. Strippers at Deja Vu in Nashville were suspicious of the bills and called police after Damon Armagost spent $600 of the fake money April 16, authorities said. When officers arrived, Armagost first told them he got the money when he sold gold coins for $1,400 to an unidentified person. U.S. Secret Service agents later determined that counterfeit bills with the same serial number had been passed in other parts of the country. When they went to Armagost's Smyrna home, about 20 miles southeast of Nashville, a family member told agents that an image of a $100 bill had been on a computer there. Armagost then acknowledged that he had downloaded the image from the Internet and printed 14 of the bills, prosecutors said. He pleaded guilty Friday to manufacturing and passing counterfeit currency an

Goodbye
I sit on the verdant turf, In silent contemplation, Of all the smiles we shared, The unconditional love, And support, You once gave me. My heart-torn soul, Can not, Will not, Find the words, That must be spoken, A final, Goodbye. I remember all the time, We shared talking, About the future, Of hopes and dreams, All of that is gone now, Lost to time. I am lost without, Your arms that gave me, Comfort and acceptance, Your words that gave me, Reason and understanding, Confused and alone i sit. When I dream in the night, I still hear your, Voice, I still feel your, Presence, I try to hold onto it. But, The morning always comes, To steal those dreams, The only words I can find, The only words my heart will allow, Come unbidden to my lips. I love you dad....Goodbye

Choices Of Love.
My life is full of important choices, So many decisions,the little voices, you got to make the right move, to stay with your own groove, if you mess up it could be bad, a choice someone makes can make you mad, a choice he made,made me deppressed, now for him I'm never going to rest, he upset me so,he don't even know, to get him bach the choices are harsh, I'll have him back before the end of March, I feel his love deep in my heart, I'll get him and we'll never part, I know he can feel my love, I sent it to him from way above, I want him to be with me, but my point he don't see....

Biggest Loser
well i went sat to the open casting call.. i didnt get a call back but piper said dont give up.. because someone before didnt get a call and they sent in a video and got it.. so me and ashley did a video and on payday i am going to mail it in.. i dont want to give up even if i dont make it.. i going to watch the biggest loser so it will be like i am on the show in my own way..

My Secret Death.
"My Secret Death" you were the one that always got me to smile, that was really good, but it was only for a while, I really don't see how that could be, someone was always after me, I still wish that it was never really true, butI know deep down inside it is, what can I do?, my happy smile was flipped upside down, them horrible throughs make me frown, I never had no meaning in your life, instead of a razor blade, it could of been a knife, your worring about me would have been done, you could of had all your friendly fun, nobody would of cared that much, all I would of missed is you my crush, nobody would of had to known, because of you that would not of shown, how badly I wanted my life to end, remembering the words 'your my fucking friend", the more those words go through my head, the more I wish at this moment I was dead.

Feeling A Rose Die
Your love is like a dying rose, how much pain, knowbody knows, as the leaves curl, your love goes onto a swirl, as the petals turn black, you feel the love you lack, as the water drains out, you realy want to shout, as the stem falls down, you have an unchangeable frown, the rose looks so very sad, the pain kicks in oh so bad, as the petals start to fall, you know thats the end of it all.

Lost
so I've never had a home. I've had places to stay but they have been places I was comfortable. I spent the night before last in a hotel room cuz I got kicked out of my house. So will I have a place called home or will I always be just a drifter from place to place. I know home is where the heart is but what if you have no place to put your heart or love in it?

Embrace The Night
Each of us In our own way Claws through the darkness Twords the light Of hope and life. Seeking to forge Order from chaos To turn back the tide Of death and hate That seeks to overwhelm us. But sometimes we fall Down the pit of despair Into the abyss We have created With our tears And pain. Trapped Still trying to claw Our way twords the light But tired and heartsick Of the fight We close our eyes And We embrace the night.

The Present
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room’s only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, and where they had been on vacation. Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of ev

As You Were.
return to life as you were, Before I came into play, return to life as you were just forget about that day, return to life as you were no longer falling asleep on the phone return to life as you were once again facing it all alone, return to life as you were forget the memories that we shared, return to life as you were, when you believed no one cared, return to life as you were, though it will never be as it was before, return to life as you were, you'll never forget the day i walked through the door, return to life as you were, another thing to add to the list of things that failed, return to life as you were, another part of your life that derailed, return to life as you were, another piece of your heart now gone in the wind, return to life as you were, now with just another memory of a best friend.

What Is Love?
I believe that it is the single most important thing in all of creation. An emotion that eclipses all others, one that drains and yet at the same time fills ones soul with such happiness. I helps you to feel secure, special and gives you a sense of acceptance that allows you to accomplish such wonderful things. Love defines us yet does not control us. It is the ultimate act and expression of trust in another human being. It is truth and honesty. it is the celebration of sharing yourself and your life with another. It is giving everything you are and only taking that which is freely given in return. Love is not demanding or demeaning. Love hurts but is never hurtful. It is such a wonderful concept. Is it not? The problem is everyone sees love as something different We, in my opinion, are all born with an ideal picture of love. Then as we begin to grow every person we interact with effects our perception of love. Our parents abuse or ignore us. Our brothers a

Losing Love.
I'm not sure I'll find the right words to say, I never imagined writing these words today, I have tried so hard theres nothing else I can do, no words only tears came with the throught of losing you, my love for you is breaking my own heart, my feelings have been true since the very start, will I end up as that girl you used to know?, my memories of you fading away oh so slow?, do you care atleast one bit about how I feel?, do you remember you still owe me that meal?, will it be me who will one day call you old number, and not be able to do anything but sit and wonder?, have you really made this sudden choice?, for me to never again get to hear your voice?, will i never again have you by my side?, have I lost you....you my pride?, will this poem be the words of my last toast?, to you...the one I love the most?, are you really letting me and you end?, though you promised to always be my friend

Thank You O Lord ; For The Devil Did Not Discourage Me This Morning> Ty Ty
in caes you all are wondering , I was in the middle of the Prayer for this morning and microsot internet encounetred a problem; needeD to shout down ;and I thought My Prayer to Our Lord This mornong for all you and our Land was lost; God ; Thank you ;My Lord It wasnt and I had faith and priyed it to be here; awesome and it is; Thank you O Lord Even for small things O Lord ;thank you A,men!!You are here with me I know you are !! Amen!!! Praise my Lord Amen!!!

Alone
Alone Alone I wake, A half remembered dream, Playing about the corners of my mind. My fears bloom, Overwhelming my faith and hope, There is no respite. In desperation I reach for you, To pull you close to me, And find nothing there. I try to retreat inside, To capture a dream of you, But find only Emptiness. Sleep eludes me now, For I have remembered, Alone I wake.

Your Wait Is Almost Over!
Unlock the door, I'm just waiting to open it for you. Dearest Friend, Your wait is almost over!!I keep My Promises, Always! Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.

Everyone, Hold On! Please!
I thank Bob Dylan most deeply for the title for these blogs. I wasn't sure how to name these without them sounding way too esoteric, lol. But esoteric they will be!! For those who haven't read my other blogs about the planet retrogrades that are in the works right now, the inward moving energy is going to be especially hard on men, especially young men in their 20's. I have had a rash of young 20somethings deciding it's time to "check out", leave the playing field, commit suicide. I need some help here, my energyworker friends, lol!!! Please be supportive! Dear female friends, we've been working our issues for ages. Alot of these young ones - this is the first time they've had their issues shoved in their faces! I do not come from a generation, or a mindset for that matter, that considers suicide a viable option. However, I could very easily fade away to another plane or dimension, if allowed that luxury! Sorry, I'm anchored now - it ain't gonna happen, lol! If there is a

I Knew I Had Something To Do Today!
Today's Horrorscope: You've got to try something a little different today. Your people are just going to bumble along helplessly with or without you, so see if you can focus solely on your own business instead of theirs. Comes on the day inwhich I've recieved letters begging for my help. I'd forgotten what it's like to be needed! A change is coming...

To Whom It May Concern.
My friends please hold my hand tight, understand my life, understand my fight, what I choose to do, brings a smile to my face, my feet will stand firm, I have found my place, I have chose to work through school, then begain to train to do what I need to, before now I didn't have a path to walk, this is from my heart , no longer just talk, smile as I better my education, smile as I enlist into my dedication, for after all I have found my place, don't mind the tears, mind the smile on my face, the tears will come , the tears will fall, but believe, I will do this after all, the pain will come, the pain will go, whatch my life, enjoy my show, the smile will come, the smile will stay, knowing you held my hand the whole way..

Lost Again.
I used to cry because I was so happy, Now I am crying and nobody can stop me, I feel trapped inside of never ending walls, Causing a flood with ever tear that falls, I never thought it would end this way, I thought you'd ask me to stay, at first I wasnt so sure, But with you I felt so secure, Now a tear drops to every song, You're the one that left, but I wish I was gone, the words keep going through my head, I was surprised by the words you said, you said " I cant stay I have no feelings", but I've got to play with my dealings, you said " you can go get everything or stay with nothing, you can choose", it doesnt matter anyways cause every hand Im dealt I seem to lose.

Thank You
Thank You to everybody who showed me some Birthday Love on Fubar i will make sure i leave you all a birthday gift when becomes your birthday a great big hug to al the people who left me wonderful birhday gifts to me from Bruce

Give Her Some Help!!
~Savannah~............... I really need help right now.. My VIP runs out on Saturday...I joined a giveaway, and this time it should be easy. I need to get a total of 7,500 comments. Hers the best part.. Comments count as 10 comments.. So if you can at least rate this pic for me, I would love if you could comment bomb but I understand. Please at least rate for me. Thanks!!! Please click the picture below.. It will take you to where I need the help, LadyGray is holding the giveaway I am in. http://fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=837622&i=2448971795 See her comment below for the pic link....

Un-named.
I am that dream you can never forget, I am that mistake you'll always regret, I am that true love you let slip so far away, I am that fear you hope not to face everyday, I am that lonely look everyone sees in your eyes, I am that feeling you get when someone dies, I am that feeling you get when walking down a dark lonely street, I am your heart when it aches from defeat, I am the shadow that you see thats not really there, I am that person in which you should always live in fear.

Good Story
TO MEET SUCH A MAN > >>> >> > >>> >> I sat, with two friends, in the picture window of a quaint restaurant > >>> >> just off the corner of the town-square. The food and the company were > >>> >> both especially good that day. > >>> >> > >>> >> As we talked, my attention was drawn outside, across the street. > >>>There, > >>> >> walking into town, was a man who appeared to be carrying all his > >>>worldly > >>> >> goods on his back. He was carrying, a well-worn sign that read, "I > >>>will > >>> >> work for food." My heart sank. > >>> >> > >>> >> I brought him to the attention of my friends and noticed that others > >>> >> around us had stopped eating to focus on him. Heads moved in a > >>>mixture of > >>> >> sadness and > >>> >> disbelief. > >>> >> > >>> >> We continued with our meal, but his image lingered in my mind. We > >>> >> finished our meal and went our separate ways. I had errands to do and > >>> >> quickly set out to accomplish them. I glanced toward

This Is Cold...but You Go Girl Lmao
Dear Wife, I'm writing you this letter to tell you that I'm leaving you for good. I've been a good man to you for seven years and I have nothing to show for it. These last two weeks have been hell. Your boss called to tell me that you had quit your job today and that was the last straw. Last week, you came home and didn't even notice that I had gotten a new hair cut, cooked your favorite meal and even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You came home and ate in two minutes, and went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don't tell me you love me anymore, You don't want sex anymore or anything. So, either you're cheating on me or you don't love me anymore. Whatever the case is, I'm gone. Your EX-Husband P.S. Don't try to find me. Your SISTER and I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life! ___________ Dear Ex-Husband, Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It's true that you and I have been married

Poetry.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~So alone~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have found my pleasure in your pain, laughter spills out like falling rain, with disbelief you give me that stare, look into my eyes, do you think I care?, my blood has begun to boil hot, to feel pity for you it does not, I don't care for the words you have to say, nothing is going to change my way, for I am not me because of you, it doesn't matter what you THINK I should do, alone, I have walked this far down the road, it has been dark, painful, lonely and cold, alone I will continue, no-one by my side, I keep on rolling out, as does the tide, in solitare, as I accomplish each goal I have set to achive, and alone I will laugh, as you see, but still do not believe, please don't claim to have been by my side, alone I have earned and gained my pride, and do not claim to have been my friend, I will stand alone as my journey comes to an end

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 20 May 25 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 20, May 25, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Anti-porn Campaigners Petitions Seeking Grand Jury Investigations in Kansas and Missouri KANSAS CITY, KS . - Last week leaders of local churches in six counties in both Kansas and Missouri turned in petitions requesting grand jury investigations of adult businesses in their communities for the "promotion of obscenity." A total of 32 businesses, including strip clubs, adult retailers, and video rental stores, were targeted. "It went very well," Phillip Cosby, executive director of the Kansas City chapter of the National Coalition for the Protection of Children & Families (NCPCF), the organization that spearheaded the petition drive, told XBIZ. "There was a meeting that

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 21 June 1 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 21, June 1, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Adult Novelties Never Intended as Target of Controversial Alabama Obscenity Law MONTGOMERY, AL - Two government officials responsible for the controversial adult bill banning the sale of sex toys have spoken out for the first time since the bill was passed in 1999, claiming that sex toys were never the focus of the anti-obscenity bill, first proposed in 1998. Sen. Tom Butler and Madison County District Attorney Tim Morgan told the Huntsville Times that the Anti-Obscenity Enforcement Act they helped bring about was originally designed to shut down strip clubs, and that the one line in the 14-page bill that refers to the sale of sex toys was included by legislative aids

Looking Through Your Eyes..
When I look through your eyes.. I see deep inside your soul.. I feel my spirit rise.. I've never felt like this before.. I don't know how this can be.. The power you seem to posses.. Touched though you've never been close me.. Feeling like my soul's caressed.. A few words exchanged.. I'm left longing for more.. Our live's rearranged.. Soul's left tattered and torn.. I long for the day when you're by my side.. So we can do away with those sad days.. Our feelings we no longer hide.. We finally get to say those things.. A love we can share.. To last longer than time.. Someone who cares.. To be yours and you'll be mine.

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 22 June 8 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 22, June 8, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Max Hardcore Indicted on Federal Obscenity Charges CHATSWORTH, CA - The Department of Justice indicted adult producer/director Max Hardcore on federal obscenity charges filed last week in Tampa, Florida. According to AVN, the ten-count indictment charges Hardcore with "transporting obscene matter via mail and computer." The indictment states that Hardcore "knowingly used an interactive computer service [...] in and affecting interstate commerce for the purpose of selling and distributing

Site For Maxthon Browser
THIS IS A NEW BROWSER THAT REBELBREED FOUND OVER THE WEEKEND THAT HE REALLY LIKES. HE SAIDS THAT IT IS JUST AS FAST AS FIRE FOX WHEN BOMBING. JUST THOUGHT THAT I WOULD SHARE IT WITH EVERYONE, IN CASE, YOU MIGHT LIKE TO TRY IT. YOU CAN DOWN LOAD IT FOR FREE TOO. CLICK ON THE LINK BELOW TO TRY IT. HAVE A GOOD DAY. MUCH LOVE TO ALL, REBEL LADY

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 23 June 15 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 23, June 15, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Downtown Los Angeles Condo Owners Insist Adult Store Relocate LOS ANGELES, CA - It often seems as if efforts to shut adult businesses down are limited to Podunk Bible Belt towns, but the recent outcry against a new adult retailer in downtown Los Angeles proves that opponents of free speech are everywhere. An adult retail store, the name of which was not reported by the Los Angeles Downtown News, the paper that broke the story, opened on the ground level of the restored Bartlett Building, p

Things You'd Love To Say Out Loud At Work -- Sometimes Elsewhere.
THINGS YOU'D LOVE TO SAY OUT LOUD AT WORK AND SOMETIMES ELSEWHERE. (I have the feeling that some of this has been copped from DESPAIR, Inc, in Austin, Tx. 1. I can see your point, but I still think you're full of shit. 2. I don't know what your problem is, but I'll bet it's hard to pronounce. 3. How about never? Is never good for you? 4. I see you've set aside this special time to humiliate yourself in public. 5. I'm really easy to get along with once you people learn to see it my way. 6. I'll try being nicer if you'll try being smarter. 7. I'm out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message. 8. I don't work here. I'm a consultant. 9. It sounds like English, but I can't understand a damn word you're saying. 10. Ahhh...I see the screw-up fairy has visited us again... 11. I like you. You remind me of myself when I was young and stupid. 12. You are validating my inherent mistrust of strangers. 13. I have plenty of talent and vision; I just don't give a damn. 14. I'm

Foundrymusic Interview With Behemoth Frontman Nergal
I had the pleasure of catching up with NERGAL from Poland’s BEHEMOTH. We talked for a while about Ozzfest, the band’s new album, the musical state of Poland and America, and a lot more. Be sure to catch these guys on Ozzfest this year and to pick up The Apostasy. This band fucking rules!FoundryMusicJosh: How’s it going?Nergal: Pretty well, I just woke up actually. We have been traveling all night and are going to be doing a show soon. How are you?FoundryMusicJosh: Doing good, thanks. First of all, how has Ozzfest been thus far?Nergal: It’s been fucking great! Being a part of this tour has been one of the best things that has happened to us during our career – and that’s huge, given that we’ve been around for 16, nearly 17, years at this point. We are really enjoying bringing Black Metal music to the masses. As you can tell, we are one of the two heaviest bands on this tour and it’s great to see the reations of the fans to our music.Foundr

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 24 June 22 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 24, June 22, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Adult Friend Finder Offers FSC Matching Grant to Battle 2257 Changes PALO ALTO, CA - Sexual networking site AdultFriendFinder.com has offered a grant to the Free Speech Coalition that will match donations up to $10,000 made to the organization in aid of its fight against certain amendments to the 18 U.S.C. 2257 record-keeping statute. The amendments being challenged are those that, if made effective by the Department of Justice, would require so-called "secondary producers" to acquire and

Old Man - Weekend
An older, white haired man walked into a jewelry store one Friday evening with a beautiful young gal at his side. He told the jeweler he was looking for a special ring for his girlfriend. The jeweler looked through his stock and brought out a $5,000 ring. The old man said, "No, I'd like to see something more special." At that statement, the jeweler went to his special stock and brought another ring over. "Here's a stunning ring at only $40,000" the jeweler said. The young lady's eyes sparkled and her whole body trembled with excitement. The old man seeing this said, "We'll take it." The jeweler asked how payment would be made and the old man stated, "by check. I know you need to make sure my check is good, so I'll write it now and you can call the bank Monday to verify the funds and I'll pick the ring up Monday afternoon," he said. Monday morning, the jeweler phoned the old man. "There's no money in that account." "I know," said the old man, "But let me tell you a

Hush: Lullabye For My Daughter
Hush now my darling please dont you cry because mommy is here to hold you through the night hush now my sweetheart im not going anywhere because without you by myside my world is only gray and without you by myside my day is turned to night.... hush now my baby please dont you be afraid because mommy is right here by yourside... hush now my darling please dont have a fear because mommy wont let anything happen to you hush now my sweetheart dont you be lost because mommy will be there to find you.... hush now my baby dont say a word because mommys right here to rock you to sleep hush now my darling please dont you cry because mommy is here to hold you through the night hush now my sweetheart im not going anywhere because without you by myside my world is only gray and without you by myside my day is turned to night....

Living In 2007
YOU KNOW YOU ARE LIVING IN 2007 when... 1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave. 2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years. 3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3. 4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you. 5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses . 6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries. 7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen. 8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it. 10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee. 11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : ) 12. You're reading this and nodding and laughing. 13. Even worse, you know exactly

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 25 June 29 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 25, June 29, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. AB 1551 Set for First Hearing Monday SACRAMENTO, CA - California Assembly Bill 1551 has now been set for its first hearing on Monday, July 9, 2007 (date subject to change).. The measure, by Assemblyman Chuck Calderon (D-Whittier), fabricated claims that adult entertainment venues cause adverse so-called "secondary effects," and seeks to impose a tax upon all adult entertainment businesses and products to ameliorate those effects. The tax, the amount of which is unspecified as of now, will

She
She holds back her tears she never shows her feelings she always bites her tongue and shallows her fears as she feels she has to be strong and brave for everyone else. she barely shows emotion she barely lets anyone get close to her she hides herself from the world she will never tell you her wants or needs she will never let you see the real side of her she will never tell you if she is hurt,sad,or upset she will never have the balls to trust anyone in this world again she already trusted once but ended up alone again she already had a promise mad to her but it was broken will she ever find that special friend again or will she end up alone for the rest of her life as the darkness already fell over her.

Weird Day
it's been a weird day, i get up and get ready to go to work, go out to get in my jeep, i got the top and the doors off, and there's a huge teddy bear propped up in the passenger seat holding a giant heart that say's i love you,. haahaha, so apparently i got a secret admirer, nice start to the day. so i get to work and am talking to this guy that got hired not to long ago, we're bs'ing about this and that, tell him i'm from the mitten and he's like cool, asked me if i knew about esham! so i get excited, not many people out here or outside of the d know about esham and natas. so i start going off, hell yeah i know esham, natas, and ask him how about the dayton family? say's oh i never heard them. wtf? esham and natas have put out way more records, but dayton fam hit it a lil bigger, esham and natas were more underground so that kinda struck me weird, a bunch of other little stuff happened tonight that was way weird, i blame it on the moon, for those of us on the west side of the u.s, we

A Chat With A Loser On The Net.....got To Love This One.
mr. tongue: no im not ok sorry see ya ->nida: lmao and you arent horny or begging for something to jerk off at........the answer is NO. mr. tongue: can i at least see the closed folder ->nida: sorry not interested now, i dont do that for a close friend let alone a total stranger. mr. tongue: ill prove it dont get mad just go there ok ->nida: that sounds so much like a lie and a bullshit line. mr. tongue: its not that im not horny i just wanna see u live ->nida: i am not going to yahoo for you......sorry i dont need to be a jerk off object for a man with a mission...... mr. tongue: plz robert_morrison35 ->nida: noooooooo really?!?! DUHHHHHHH mr. tongue: some r closed ->nida: there are almost 100 pics of me on this site......not like it is a hard sell mr. tongue: im sorry ur just soo cute i wanted to see ya ->nida: you keep asking like you are on a mission from the gods........ mr. tongue: yes u have cam? ->nida: a bit far from rochester ny dont you think..

Fun Times
To those who actualy read this....... After much decsion and thought, I have decided to delete my profile. My dumb V.I.P. that I couldn't catch while on vacation is over on 9-20. After that time, I will delete my entire profile. I am NOT doing this to make u all beg me to stay and or gain points and all that crap. It is just I am on here too much from work. I have to refocus myself here. My boss knows I am on here, but that's not the point. I very rarley get on from home, so it makes more sense to just give it up. I am also so sick of the drama. Everyone hates someone new once a week, then they make up then they hate each other again. I tried to ignore it, but I can't when it is all over the site. I started deleting my pics as well. They are almost gone. To those in my family, you guys have made me laugh on days I wanted to cry. Have been there for me in ways I could never explain or express. I love you guys immensly and most of you have my yahoo, that I am keeping.

The Preacher
Subject: The Preacher The Alabama preacher said to his congregation, "Someone in this congregation has spread a rumor that I belong to the Ku Klux Klan. This is a horrible lie and one which a Christian community cannot tolerate. I am embarrassed and do not intend to accept this. Now, I want the party who did this to stand and ask forgiveness from God and this Christian Family." No one moved. The preacher continued, "Do you have the nerve to face me and admit this is a falsehood? Remember, you will be forgiven and in your heart you will feel glory. Now stand and confess your transgression." Again all was quiet. Then slowly, a drop-dead gorgeous blonde with a body that would stop traffic rose from the third pew. Her head was bowed and her voice quivered as she spoke, "Reverend there has been a terrible misunderstanding. I never said you were a member of the Ku Klux Klan. I simply told a couple of my friends that you were a wizard under the sheets." The preacher fell to his knees

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 26 July 6 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 26, July 6, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. AB1551 California Adult Industry Tax Bill Amended to Include 8% of Gross Revenues and Pay Per View CANOGA PARK, CA - Monday, the amendments to California Assembly Bill 1551 were released. The bill, sponsored by Assembly Member Chuck Calderon (D-Whittier), seeks to impose a tax upon all adult entertainment businesses based on fabricated claims that adult entertainment venues cause adverse “secondary effects.” Among other stipulations, the amendments institute an 8% tax on gross revenues, add

You
There you stood before me Waiting with your arms opened wide Just wanting to hold me all through the night Careless of my moods Careless of the tears I cried You knew my pain You knew my sorrow You comforted me through it all You always told me how beautiful I am Always told me I make a wonderfull mother Even though I struggle to do my best You never look down upon me you never let someone be cruel to me you never let me give up but force me to keep trying you hold my hand you walk me through my fears you hold me through my tears you protect me from whats bad you make me do whats right you make me laugh you make me cry you make me frown you make me smile I know you have your doubts I know sometimes you wonder if its going to last I know sometimes you feel as if I don't love you but nothing could ever change my love for you I told you once before and I will tell it to you again Your happiness is my happiness Whatever makes you happy I wi

1 Question....anything Goes...
1 question 1 answer That's all you get. You get to ask me 1 question. (TO MY INBOX) Any 1 question, anything, no matter how crazy it is, and I promise to answer it....no matter what the question is. No catch. But I dare you to repost this and see what people ask

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 27 July 13 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 27, July 13, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. OPEN LETTER TO FSC MEMBERS RE: UPDATE ON DOJ’S RELEASE OF PROPOSED 2257 RULES & REGS Dear FSC Member: This is an update on the proposed 2257 Rules and Regulations released by the Department of Justice (DOJ) on Thursday, July 12, 2007. As always, we will provide you with more information as it becomes available. First, it is important to recognize that the regulations that the DOJ has set forth today are simply proposed regulations, issued for comment and possible change. They have not y

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 28 July 20 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 28, July 20, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. FSC provides the following overview of the proposed 2257 Rules and Regulations for members' information. Frequently-asked questions and information regarding how industry representatives can contact the DOJ with requested feedback on these proposed rules and regulations will be provided in the upcoming X-Press, through a member e-mail Advisory and/or posted to the FSC website at www.freespeechcoalition.com . We ask that the industry await further suggestion about contacting Congress so that o

Life
My grandmother passed away last Thursday. Up until 2 years ago I hadn't seen her in probably 13 years. And I only saw her then because my grandfather passed away. Technically she would be my step-grandmother but she never treated me as a step-grandchild. I have better memories of her growing up than of my blood grandmother. Her passing has made me very angry at my family in general. Angers me that people allow such petty shit to keep them from family they love. I mostly blame my grandfather because he didn't want to be that involved in his own children's lives anymore, but my father didn't exactly go out of his way to mend any bridges. Therefore after I turned 10, I never got to see those grandparents anymore. Until one passed away. I never really got to tell either of them that some of my fondest summer memories was going down to Iowa and spending months down there. Going swimming at the community pool, going to see Temple of Doom w/ g-ma and her making me sleep w/ her because she was

Good Folks
It's been so cool since I changed my name to express my dislike of how fubar has been going. Friends I haven't heard from in months have contacted me and asked if I was going to leave and if so, what my new address will be. I'm not leaving yet but will leave an address if and when I do. I really love you folks, you are the reason I'm here at all. I dislike the dimwitted way things are run here but then, it's their site, they can do what they want and they're proving that. For the mean while, stay happy and lets play nice or maybe a little bit on the naughty side.

Miss. Ranked Fattest State In Nation
Experts say Mississippians need to skip the gravy, say no to the fried pickles and start taking brisk walks to fight an epidemic of obesity. According to a new study, this Deep South state is the fattest in the nation. The Trust for America's Health, a research group that focuses on disease prevention, says Mississippi is the first state where more than 30 percent of adults are considered obese. Aside from making Mississippi the butt of late-night talk show jokes, the obesity epidemic has serious implications for public policy. If current trends hold, the state could face enormous increases in the already significant costs of treating diabetes, heart disease and other ailments caused by the extra poundage. "We've got a long way to go. We love fried chicken and fried anything and all the grease and fatback we can get in Mississippi," said Democratic state Rep. Steve Holland, chairman of the Public Health Committee. Poverty and obesity often go hand in hand, doctors say, b

A Question For The Guys ...
This is related to something I heard on the radio yesterday. Is it true, guys, that you find it a turn on when your girl wears your clothes? Why is that? And what article or articles of clothing are the biggest turn on for you? Just curious.

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 29 July 27 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 29, July 27, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. FSC Launches 2257 Public Comment Campaign CANOGA PARK, CA - Today, the Free Speech Coalition released its "2257 Guide for Public Comment" and launched a campaign to garner industry participation during the DOJ's public comment period for the 2257 proposed rules and regulations. The guide educates members of the adult entertainment industry about how and what to communicate during the public comment period. Input about the new rules and regulations released July 12, 2007, will be accepted b

Gotta Love My Life....right? Hey At Least Youre Not Me....
Yesterdays email from my mother contained the folowing: "No way to drop this bomb easy so here goes the total shite - The right side of my heart is dying for some reason. Have to go have various tests over the next couple days – on lasix to dump the fluid in my legs (looks like elephantitis) – it's ok for me to drive as long as I don't over exert – can't vacuum, lay my floor or do any heavy lifting – just sit around like a lump until they find out what's going on – I feel ok – I just went to the drs cause of "weird symptoms" that didn't seem to go away, like palpitations & racing pulses & no breath & water retention (all of which is just not me)" So if I'm not talking its because I can't.

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 30 August 3 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 30, August 3, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. FSC Launches 2257 Public Comment Campaign CANOGA PARK, CA - The Free Speech Coalition has launched a campaign to solicit adult industry participation during the public comment period for proposed changes to the 2257 record-keeping law. The Department of Justice released the proposed rules and regulations on July 12 and will accept input on the law through Sept. 10, 2007. Last week the FSC published a "2257 Guide for Public Comment" designed to educate the adult industry on how to respon

Power Of God
Dearest in Christ, Firstly i have to thank God for yourwonderful life so far,But my believe is that as youare following the word of God you will be fully blessat all time in jesus name,but before i will go letshare this word together- A Lifestyle of Miracles The story found in John 2:1-10 of Jesus’ miracle ofturning common water into excellent wine exemplifiesthe miracles God can bring to us when we put Him aboveall others in our lives and give our best to Him. When Jesus was ready to perform His first miracle, Heasked the servants to give what they had-water. Inother words, He asked them to sow out of their needand give what they had. In obedience, they poured thewater into the stone jugs. When they poured out theliquid, it was wine-not just any old wine, but therichest and the best wine! This was a miracle ofSeed-Faith! Sure, there had been miracles in the Old Testament. Inthe covenant God made with Abraham and his seed, thefirstfruits of each harvest were give

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 31 August 10 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 31, August 10, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi X-Press Editor-in-Chief: Scott L. Lowther Special thanks to Cubik Corp. for formatting and Val Vizmanos for distribution Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Please support our sponsors by selecting the logos above. Industry Mourns Death of Lenny Friedlander, Former FSC President SYLMAR, CA - Lenny Friedlander, 50, owner of New Beginnings and a founder and former president of The Free Speech Coalition, passed away last Sunday. Friedlander began his career in the adult industry in 1978 working for Lanny Cohen at Marlan Distributors and went on to become the company's head of sales before launching New Beginnings, a distribution company

Kids Are Too Much. =)
Luvy goes to an "ice cream social" at her school yesterday and meets the new librarian. Now she wants me to marry said librarian because: "He has a faux hawk! He loves Chiodos and that dying band! And he's in CHARGE OF BOOKS!" Cute kid, always looking out for me. :D

What Dumb Holiday Is Your Birthday?
What dumb holiday is your birthday? Keep adding :) just copy and paste the url into your address bar and search your birth month, then repost as "What dumb holiday is your birthday?" http://library.thinkquest.org/2886/INDEX.HTM Mine is July 7 is . . . . . National Strawberry Sundae Day... whats yours ...????

Prayer2
The first sentence is pretty powerful. "God determines who walks into your life....it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go." Father, God bless all my friends in whatever it is that You know they may be needing this day! And may their life be full of your peace, prosperity and power as they seek to have a closer relationship with you. Amen. Now send it on to five other people, including the one who sent it to you. Within hours you caused a multitude of people to pray for other people.Then sit back and watch the power of God work in your life. PS. Five is good, but more is better, who else do you know that needs a prayer?

Free Speech Xpress Vol X No 33 August 24 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 33, August 24, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Stories without byline submitted by FSC contract writer, Scott Ross Contributing writers: Matt Gray and Dave Grimaldi Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Thank you for your support of FSC and our important mission. Together, we are making a difference. Miami Officials Vote to Close Flava Works House MIAMI, FL - In a 5-2 vote, Miami's Code Enforcement Board ruled last week that Flava Works is running an adult business illegally because it is based in an area that is zoned for residential use. The studio has been found guilty of two violations: operating an adult business in a residential area and operating a business in a residential area. Flava Works has been instructed to stop all operations of its internet site, CocoDorm.com. CocoDorm.com pays young m

Dedication To A Special Friend Dj Skylar Dawn
SOME MAY THINK THIS MAY SEEM STUPID TO BLOG SOMETHING FOR SOME ONE, THAT THEY DON'T KNOW. BUT THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT SOME OF US HAVE TO SHOW! WE HAVE MADE SOME VERY SPECIAL FRIENDS ON HERE AND WHETHER OR NOT YOU KNOW IT, SOME PEOPLE GET TOO SERIOUS ABOUT THESE THINGS. BUT THERE IS ONE PERSON THAT NEVER TURNED HER BACK, NEVER STOPPED THE HUMOR, NEVER SIT AND NOT LISTEN TO ANYTHING WE HAD TO SAY! AND TO ME THAT IS A VERY SPECIAL FRIEND THAT WE ALL NEED IN OUR LIFE! WE LOVE YOU DJ SKYLAR DAWN AND I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL YOU RETURN TO US AGAIN. SO WE CAN GET BACK OUR SPECIAL LITTLE GRIN! YOU HAVE NEVER TURNED AWAY OR NOT SAY ANYTHING WHEN SOMETHING NEEDED TO BE SAID AND FOR THAT I GIVE ALL THE PROPS TO YOU FOR DOING SO. TREATING US LIKE REAL PEOPLE LIKE MOST DON'T TREAT US BECAUSE THEY ALL THINK THIS IS JUST A COMPUTER! WELL GUESS WHAT WE HAVE REAL SOULS, HEARTS, MINDS, AND LOVE IN OUR HEARTS SO DON'T ABUSE IT OR MISUSE IT! BECAUSE YOU MAY NEVER KNOW WHEN YOUR SPECIAL FRIEND IS T

Dumbass Men
Why is it that a man can claim to "really be feeling you," but don't want you? Why is that he can SOMETIMES say that he wants to be your man then when you ask him about it, he is clueless. If men would make up their damn mind, women wouldn't be wasting their damn time on one loser and get a little bit of what they want from many men because it seems that no one man can fulfill ALL my needs. Guess that is why the front of my car says NEVER SATISFIED. I am tired of the games and lies. If all you wanted was sex, say so. If you want more, be a man, speak up and say it. Bottom line: I am single so if you are really about something, then get at me and let's see what happens!!!!! Aimee

Prayer
I claim it for you - now claim it for me. God has more than a thousand Ways to provide for us, that we know nothing about. Here is your financial blessing! It's a simple prayer, you got 30 Seconds? Don't sleep on this...Someone recently read this for the first time and Received exactly enough for a $0 balance on all credit cards. If you need a financial blessing, continue reading this e-mail. Heavenly Father, most Gracious and Loving God, I pray to you that you Abundantly bless my family and me. I know that you recognize, that a Family is more than just a mother, father, sister, brother, husband and Wife, but all who believe and trust in You. GOD, I send up a prayer request for financial blessing for not only the Person who sent this to me, but for me and all that I have forwarded This message on to. And that the power of joined prayer by those who Believe and trust in you is more powerful than anything.! I thank you in Advance for your blessings. God, deliver t

I Just Wanna Die!!
OMGosh, the worst thing in the world happened to me lastnight and it has killed everything inside of me..EVERYTHING!! I feel so0o sick and so0o empty right now, I feel as if I could die and it wouldn't matter. I never knew that people could be so0o cruel and so0o mean, I mean sure I know this has happened to alot of people but I never knew just how bad it was until now..I wish I could just say what happened but it makes me sick to think about it!!! I hate this..I JUST WANNA DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Help The Fat Guy Out Please! :d
COME ON PEOPLE HELP THE FAT MAN OUT. I WANNA SEE HIS FACE ON THE SPOTLIGHT..., DON'T YOU? HE'S NEEDS LOTS A FU-BUCKS TO GET THE WINNING BID. SO HELP HIM OUT AND COME RATE AS MANY PICS FOR HIM AS YOU CAN.THANK YOU TO ALL THAT HELP HIM OUT WITH THIS. :)~FAT SONNY~@ fubar

~the Gathering~
Oh, Gods!! What did she do with my trench?! Oh. The fire. Ah, well, guess must needs accquire a new one. Damn. All those memories, all those- treasures of my past. The Japanese coins saved from nigh eight hundred years ago- my first wages as a kunoichi at the service of the Shogunate. The finger symbols from when I danced for the Sultan just before I took his life and his fortune. The staff I created and blessed under a full Samhain moon, under the eye of a falling star- all the beadwork and carving done by hand. The masks from decades of Carnivales, the ancient tomes of spells and Workings, my beloved familiars Methos, Daisho and Yuki. All gone. Would that they were as immortal as I. And my blade. Ahhhhh, my blade- Quicksilver. Gifted to me by a warlord who tried to gain my favor yet ended up gaining my contempt instead. The new one- Serenity- she is a fine blade yet the hilt is not the ten inches I require for superior handling and control. Guess that is ye

How Would You Start?
Have you ever had something just praying on your mind? Something you need to talk to someone about, but cant find out how to do it? Then you finally get the courage to talk to them and you cant be around them? Does it just eat away at you because you cant let it out? Do you fear how they will react? The things they might say. How do you start a conversation like that?

Melaleuca, The Wellness Company
I just wanted to say thank you for all who have asked about Melaleuca. Thanks to you all, I have been promoted to Marketing Executive 3 and im on my way to a Director 1. Not only are these products great for allergies and asthma, but they are safe around children. Own a business? or just stay at home? Either way one try and you are hooked!!! Hit me up for details and if not for you then for someone you know!!!!

Hope...
...Is false. An illusion to fool the senses into creating an even bigger void of despair following the event hope had been created for being removed. There is no reason to feel this. There is no reason to feel anything. Why believe in something so ready to create odds stacked against it? I feel I can nolonger exist within this human society. They disgust me greatly. I nolonger feel as though I'm one of them. For me to stay simply wouldn't work. For my mind to fulfil its desires would simply be incompatible with the laws and rules of such a society and with too many humans I'd be powerless to stop that. I've no doubt in my mind there is what some would call a flaw, this is resulting in hatred toward the living and utter contempt for those of humanity who haven't done anything to deserve my approval and respect. I am a monster, I know this. If I were in a small group lost somewhere with no rules, I could at least show my true face. Life is but a series of masks and I grow tired of weari

I'm Sorry
My words were never meant to cause you pain my words were never meant as digs my words were only meant to show you deserve better My words were never meant to make you cry My words were nevr meant to make you feel down My words were only meant to show you you are wonderful Wishing you knew what a gift you were to those who love you Wishing you knew how truely good you ae Wishing I could somehow, someway make you see what is right there........ In your eyes In your smile In your touch In evry sweet thing you do In evry caring word In every joke, laugh, or just plain sillyness. You are so wonderful, so amazing, so loving and unselfish. Only want you to be happy and have what you deserve in life....which is only the best of everything. ...............I'M SORRY

My Wife
Things are getting a little out of hand around my house in that my wife doesn't seem to want to take any responsibility toward helping with the bills. I grant you she is 34 years younger than me and she is very imature but she want all the crap we have but is screwing around instead of helping like she should. I think I know one reason why she is like this but, agaain, this shows how imature she really is. I will not put it in here because I may be wrong and if I am there is no need to start trouble. Maybe things will straighten out soon, at least I hope so, ut I am not holding my breath on it.

Only In America(thanx I Am What I Am, Nothin More Nothin Less)
ONLY IN AMERICA : Only in America .....do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front. Only in America ......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke. ! Only in America ......do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters. Only in America ......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in t he driveway and put our useless junk in the garage. Only in America ......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight. Only in America ......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'. Only in America ......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering. EVER WONDER .. Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin ? Why women can't put on mascara with thei

Depression Ii
Another from Abyssic Hate. Awesome project. I relate to the words, the hatred of man and life flows through my own mind. I think about life and feel pure hate about being trapped here on this earth Envying all deceased souls who've passed on from this ruined plane My dormant hours are filled with fear, my waking hours I will not face All will to life has expired I just want to fucking die! The thought of life reviving is nothing but pure illusion This impulse to end my life keeps on echoing through my mind Wishing that I had the strength to extinguish the whole of mankind I know that this goal of mine will never ever be attained I hate this fucking human race for what they have all done to me Driven to this destructive state Guided by insanity! The thought of life reviving is simply just pure illusion This impulse to end my life keeps on echoing through my mind My cries for help have gone in vain No need to endure this endless strain My screams of pain seem d

Depression I
This is Depression pt. 1 by Abyssic Hate. Right now I feel these words resounding within my mind... Far beyond the walls of all safety in a land Disgusting as the highest of God's heavens Starved hands keep appearing - clawing Tearing shreds out of the flesh and mind And as the sands crawl their unchanging path All means seemingly focus towards the end There is no reason to live anymore when the reason cannot be attained But the solace lay beyond the darkness In a land where light and life dwell Yet soon will come death and the numbing fires Only then will my mind lie to rest For I am alone on this world Enslaved and surrounded by the living dead Yet still I stand tall as I bleed Deep from within the cuts upon my skin

Flaws And All
It's all about unconditional love... What we all want... Today... this goes out to my gf... Kylie, Casino Barbie, Tantrums Desire, whatever your name is on Tap - I love you flaws and all and hope your love does too... xoxoxo I'm a train wreck in the morning I'm a bitch in the afternoon Every now and then without warning I can be really mean towards you I'm a puzzle yes indeed Ever-complex in every way And all the pieces aren't even in the box And yet, you see the picture clear as day I don't know why you love me And that's why I love you You catch me when I fall Accept me flaws and all And that's why I love you And that's why I love you And that's why I love I neglect you when I'm working When I need attention I tend to nag I'm a host of imperfection And you see past all that I'm a peasant by some standards But in your eyes I'm a queen You see potential in all my flaws And that's exactly what I need I don't know why you love me And that's wh

Sisters
SISTERS I remember when I first met you I knew there was something special about you were brought to me in heart,soul and mind I knew you were always gonna be there for me no matter what and I am greatful that you were I would be so lost without you. I know that sisters never forget eachother and are eachother's backbone and to hold one another up so we don't fall to the ground. Your are the light that shines down on me you are my tears that i shed your my heart that beats I will always love you dj skyler dawn no matter what we may not be blood but we are sisters in spirit mind and the soul. I will never forget you and you are in my prayers your are the angel I had waited my whole life for I am glad you came into my life I will be here waiting for your return.. Please Get Well I never knew how much you meant to me until i heard you say you were leaving I have not stopped crying for you but I am going to be strong and thank you for everything you ha

In My Mind
I think too many of my friends have felt this lately... Too much drama - too many games on Tap - too many players... Seems daily someone is getting hurt. Imagine seeing him on the town holding another hand. She's staring me down so I figure that he told her who I am But it don't matter either way what they do or say 'cause ain't nothin' changed he's standin with her but his soul is callin' out my name. In my mind, I'll always be his lady. In my mind, I'll always be his girl. Saw his momma just the other day said he'd been through a spell (well, well) had a bad breakup thinks he's on his way up it's hard to tell She said i think it'd do some good if you call him every now and then you see he's been through some things and I'm thinking he could really use a friend Chorus: In my mind I'll always be his lady. (I'll always be) In my mind I'll always be his girl. Only time will tell if I'm his lady But in my mind I'll always be his girl. They say i

Man Vs Wasp.
I am about to impart to you a terrifying tale of the malevolence of Mother Nature and one man’s courageous attempt to thwart the dastardly schemes of the Animal Kingdom. At approximately 4 am on the morning of the 26th August, I was awoken by a loud and somewhat angry sounding buzzing. Dragging myself from the depths of sleep, I switched on the light and was greeted by the sight of Nature’s biggest bastard; a wasp, the hymenoptera world’s equivalent of a twat with a shotgun. Having been a victim of one of these black and yellow striped micro-demons in the past, I was well aware of the searing agony that accompanied the jab of its venom loaded stinger. The strange thing was, said vespid asshole had managed to find its way into my unnecessarily large light shade, and was showing distinctly moth-like tendencies in its attitude to escape; namely, banging its head against the shade then ricocheting off onto the hot, naked bulb. While I was more than happy to let it continue with its slow

Dedicated To Dj Skyler Dawn , Words From My Heart To Give Her Streangh In Her Time If Need
SUPPORT Sometimes I just feel like giving up and grieving, Because as of right now, I just feeling like leaving. I look out the window and feel so bitter tonight, But all I need to do is think of memories with you, and it feels all right. Mom you are the one who keeps my smile on, So i'll remember you even when your gone. Because you’re the first thing I think of when the sun shines bright, And the last thing I think of when I sleep at night. Every time I see you, I sit and thank the Lord, Because you aren’t with me, it feels like my heart’s been stabbed with a sword. But I will do anything to keep you safe and happy, I will do anything no matter what it may be As I drift off to sleep, only you are in my mind,. I stare out the window and swear by the stars and the moon, I will never do anything ever to hurt you. I promise to you, that I’ll always be around, If you are a tree, then I am your ground. Mom I’m always there even if you can’t see, But I’m there to

Just For The Record
I DID NOT JOIN FUBAR TO BE HARRASSED DAILY BY DIRTY OLD MEN THAT WANT ME TO WATCH THEM MASTURBATE! LISTEN GUYS IF YOUR THAT HARD UP GO TO A DAMN PORN SITE, OR GO ASK SOMEONE ELSE. NO MEANS NO. I DONT WANT TO SCREW YOU, I DONT WANT TO WATCH YOUR WRINKLED OLD PENIS ON A WEB CAM! GET A LIFE, OR GO FIND SOME HOOKER ON THE STREET, AT LEAST SHE'LL MAKE SOME MONEY OFF YOUR DIRTY OLD ASS!!! THANKS! *Amy*

For Those Of You That Have A Myspace Account
myspace.com/buckeyecherry Please add me there, I have been only able to check in here once or twice a day and not for long. Still going through some stuff and I am there right now more because my daughter is there, so if you do have one please add me there. Also there is a page for all my adult comments at myspace.com/buckeyewitch Thanks to you all and i love ya and miss ya.

Elcipse Of Another Sort
I went to bed at 7:30 last night. As a result, my bed rejected me at 3:45. It looked like dawn, the sky was so bright. I went outside and the sky was crystal clear and the full moon was brliiantly shining. I thought I was going to get a great view of the eclipse, but no......... right when the barest of shadows touched the moon a massive cloud bank rolled in and stayed. Oh well, better luck in February.

A Grain Of Sugar And A Speck Of Salt...
Good Morning. Did you get a glimpse of the lunar eclipse? It was quite interesting to say the least. I had slept uneasy most of the night due in fact to train whistles and the moon shinning so brightly that I had not even noticed the eclipse was taking place while I stopped for morning coffee at a local gas station. The attendant asked me if I had seen the moon. I said yeah it was bright as hell…then he said no I mean the lunar eclipse… Duh! Comes as a more and more frequently used term in my head about myself. So after I brow beat myself into submission I said “dang, I thought for a moment it was a bit darker then it was last night” Oh well better to see it then not. However seeing the eclipse will not change anything in ones life, perhaps make it richer for seeing it. The wonders of our world unfold in a heavenly performance. It’s an eerie calm that took place as it was happening that I can truly say. I mean yeah, you still could here distant traffic. The symphonic chirping of the cr

Good One For Me Lol
Daily Horoscope: Aries For August 28,2007 Things could get pretty frustrating between you and someone close, so be careful not to unleash any more hostility than you really mean to! It's a good time to practice patience and let others lead the way.

Satyr Downrating Asshat
Another downrating asshat !!! satyr@ fubar this limp dick mother fucker comes and downrates my pic so when i go to return the favor he gets all bent out of shape LOL too god damn funny !!! then he blocks me like a bitch he is. then he really pulls a smooth one and goes to my girls page and rates her a 10 lol she went to his page and blocked his ass!! so satyr this is for

Wow!!
What a treat...I just sat and watched the lunar eclipse. I live in a rural area, so it's dark enough to have had a great view of it. There are a gazillion stars out tonight that fill the sky. It kind of made me feel overwhelmingly small and insignificant sitting there surrounded by it all. It was a spectacular beauty to see. I was graced even more by a shooting star half way through the show. I kind of felt like the little kid waiting for Christmas to come and then sitting there in complete awe over the gifts that surround the tree. This was a far greater gift to behold. The heavens were filled with absolute greatness. I wish that I had paid closer attention to these things when I was growing up. I can only imagine the many miracles that I missed along the way. I just feel very blessed to have taken in such a spectacular sight tonight.

8-28-07
One of your biggest assets is your willingness to see both sides of almost any argument. Unfortunately, today that could land you in trouble with your sweetheart or someone in your immediate family. ---------------------------------------------------- Bring on the drama, might she stop denying what is happening? Will she tell me who he is?

"equal Love" Rant!
You see all these people with blasts or tickers which claim "Rate/Comment/Add/Fan me and I will show equal love".... And people say *I* am a good fibber! ITS A LIE! IMHO all they are doing is whoring themselves for points and bucks! NO EQUAL LOVE! Sh*t, RATE ME and I'll show love - I DONT LIE!

August 28, 2007
You make so much progress on whatever it is that has been hampering you lately that your boss or teacher takes serious notice -- as long as they're not too wrapped up in their own weird dramas, that is!

Another Blonde Joke???
Bob, a handsome dude, walked into a sports bar around 9:58 PM . He sat down next to a blonde at the bar and stared up at the TV. The 10:00 PM news was coming on. The news crew was covering a story of a man on a ledge of a large building preparing to jump. The blonde looked at Bob and said, Do you think he'll jump? Bob says, You know, I bet he'll jump. The blonde replied, Well, I bet he won't. Bob placed a $20 bill on the bar and said, You're on! Just as the blonde placed her money on the bar, the guy on the ledge did a swan dive off the building, falling to his death. The blonde was very upset, but willingly handed her $20 to Bob saying, Fair's fair. Here's your money. Bob replied, I can't take your money, I saw this earlier on the 5 PM news and so I knew he would jump. The blond replied, 'I did too; but I didn't think he'd do it again.' Bob took the money......

Hey You......
Well I have been in here a few days now and I just wanna thank all the wonderful people in here and just look at all my new friends I have made soooo far!! Thank you!! ~smile~ I am also moving up right now I am a level 5 and I just keep on climbing!!! LOL

To Those Who Miss Me
Hi all I'm not gone for good. I'm still here, just unable to get access to PC. It will improve soon. Thank you all for the care and attention. You know how much I appreciate that. PS I should be back by the end of this week.

Could Be Dangerous
Hey gang. I'm sorta new to this whole FUBAR place but so far it all looks pretty friendly. I think I may like it here. I live in Tallahassee Florida, I just bought a new dog, but at my apartment I'm not allowed to have pets...so I figured a way around it. I bought this invisible dog and now I need to find one of those invisible fences to keep him in. The last dog I had was one of those Paranoid Retrievers. No matter what I threw, she would bring back everything. I hope to make some great friends here. Im sure I will.

My Point!!!
I would like to thank all that have read my past few blogs...stepped on the scale a little sooner than I should, I have now lost about 8 pounds!!! I can't wait!!! 32 more left to go!!! With the girls, Bre is doing better now, the insurance company of the pharmacy is supposed to be getting in touch with me now. It seems that they don't want this to go public, since it is a huge chain, I would say not. We will see what happens there. Peanut is doing good, tics are at a minimum right now. Her fathers side of the family is refusing to believe that, even now with the doctor diagnosing her, she has Tourettes. That's ok though, I think it gives her an added touch of personality. I have a video of her, that Jamie uploaded for me and the doctor, it is in my stash. If you would like to see it!!! Finally, for those that have read about my boyfriend and I breaking up. He is not a bad person, I never meant for it to sound that way. He is a great guy, and he brought it to my atten

Excerpts From The Jardin Blog On Slap And Tickle.
This is being posted to show just what people do in fact read and it is amazing that they do. So please let me know what you think because only five people ever drop by and make comments on the spiel below. I apologise in advance for it. ++++ Tres belated felicitaions mon cherest ami and Moi sees that tou have packed up for the night and who can blame tou. Well mon cher ami, it has been uno bella journo filled with muchas kisses from la sol which has been bella all jour. Oui, Moi even did some mega fettling aujour but that is non important really. Mon cher ami, after waking this matin from the Astral Plane Moi ovred the windows to see the bella bleu sky plus tiny white and fluffies. Oui, it was une bella sol rise so the weather omens were looking bon. Indeed. Then Moi went to the port to see thousands of birds sur la jardin and the most wondrous sight was that of the thrushes. There must have been ten enfants and Moi has non seen that many in eons. It brought une lump to the throa

Body, Remember
Body, remember not only how much you were loved, not only the beds on which you lay, but also those desires for you that glowed plainly in the eyes, and trembled in the voice—and some chance obstacle made futile. Now that all of them belong to the past, it almost seems as if you had yielded to those desires—how they glowed, remember, in the eyes gazing at you; how they trembled in the voice, for you, remember, body.

Asleep
ASLEEP. As far from pity as complaint, As cool to speech as stone, As numb to revelation As if my trade were bone. As far from time as history, As near yourself to-day As children to the rainbow's scarf, Or sunset's yellow play To eyelids in the sepulchre. How still the dancer lies, While color's revelations break, And blaze the butterflies!

In My Arms
In My Arms by BlueWolf © In my arms you are safe, From even the worst storm. I'll forever be your shelter, And always keep you warm. In my arms you're so loved, You'll feel it has I hold you. So very close to me darling, To show you my love is true. In my arms you'll be happy, When you feel all the love. That I have for only you, It will be like heaven above. In my arms is where you belong, So I can hold you so very tight. To never ever let you go darling, As you lay here beside me tonight.

Dying
The sun kept setting, setting still; No hue of afternoon Upon the village I perceived, -- From house to house 't was noon. The dusk kept dropping, dropping still; No dew upon the grass, But only on my forehead stopped, And wandered in my face. My feet kept drowsing, drowsing still, My fingers were awake; Yet why so little sound myself Unto my seeming make? How well I knew the light before! I could not see it now. 'T is dying, I am doing; but I'm not afraid to know.

If I Should Die
If I should die, And you should live, And time should gurgle on, And morn should beam, And noon should burn, As it has usual done; If birds should build as early, And bees as bustling go, -- One might depart at option From enterprise below! 'T is sweet to know that stocks will stand When we with daisies lie, That commerce will continue, And trades as briskly fly. It makes the parting tranquil And keeps the soul serene, That gentlemen so sprightly Conduct the pleasing scene!

Jilted
My thoughts are crabbed and sallow, My tears like vinegar, Or the bitter blinking yellow Of an acetic star. Tonight the caustic wind, love, Gossips late and soon, And I wear the wry-faced pucker of The sour lemon moon. While like an early summer plum, Puny, green, and tart, Droops upon its wizened stem My lean, unripened heart.

Right Now - Total Lunar Eclipse!!
At this exact moment is a total lunar eclipse! West-coasters, whom normally get shafted with not being able to see things like this, finally get a front-row seat to this eclipse! Very very cool indeed, and I'll have more photos up as I take them!Click the pic for more info!

Wasted Time
A deep sorry filled my heart last night. I tried to review the recent events of my life. I couldn't recall but a few. I was saddened to think that the few memories I've had during recent days, Would all soon just fade away to nothing. Today, I have no unusual plans to think of. How sad it is to think that this moment right now, Will never be thought of again. Today,very soon, today will be forever lost. It is as if life has been just a series of significant memories and all the time passed in between has never even existed at all. Years of life held in a handful of dust. Maybe today I'll do something great that I will NEVER forget. I feel better now. Today will not be forgotten!

Wings To Fly
How can I always lend a hand But ignore the cries within myself It brings me joy to bring you a smile But my emptiness still sits up on the shelf Inside my heart will always bleed But I will never let it be shown on my face Only the tear that falls down my cheek Will give you a glimpse, a shadow, a trace I suffocate when I try to breathe The chains you gave won't let my body go I have dreams, and needs, and wants My body is numb, I think maybe you should know I struggle with my demons each day You feed them while you slowly watch me die Please let me be and please set me free I want to smile as I look up at the sky I want the moon to brighten the night I want the clouds to pass me on by I want the stars to guide me to heaven And I want wings to life me and fly

My Cousin Was Bombed In Iraq (pfc Aaron Tieffel)
PFC Aaron Tieffel was bombed in Iraq Aug 24, 2007. He was taken to Germany but his was worse off then they thought so he was transfured to Walter Reed Army Medical Ctr in Washington DC. He is listed in critical cond. Please pray for Aaron for he servied this country well and very much proud. Love You All, Hugs and Kisses, Laura

...i Have No Title For This 1...
Sometimes I ponder about what will come next Where will my life turn when it seems to stall? When is the next time I will smile again? and how will I get up, should I fall? Happiness fills me with a touch of sadness. By that I mean I know it can't last. Beauty decays, laughter subsides When will the stones be cast? Tragedy can be measured by the amount of happiness taken away Elusion is our only protection As we fall victim to its prey So when I've reached a fork in life's road and the choices are many or few. I follow the one that leads away from misfortune Thats all I can really do When life is good You have to hold it in your hand You have to close your eyes You have to breathe it in! Happiness may end While tragedy begins Today is the beginning Is tomorrow the end?

Heart Broken
My soul aches, My heart breaks. A tear in my eye, I'll forever cry. I wish my pain away, I wish it away today. Why does it hurt so bad, Does this make him glad? Why does he douse my inner flame? Was this breakup my blame? What did I do to deserve this? I just wish I could have one last kiss. Why am I so heartbroken? A depressed soul I'll always be, Everyone will always see. I will be strong, Because he was wrong. This is now the past, It's going very fast. Love so simple, but hard to say, It keeps me living another day. I'm drowning in thoughts of how things use to be, My chest was shut tight, complete with purity. It's been a bad day, I'll try letting it not show, Another sad day, I'm just letting it go. Why am I so heartbroken?

Heart Broken
You Told me You Loved Me, I Thought It was True, But Now I'm Sitting Here Crying, All Because Of You You Said I Was The Perfect Girl, So I Gave You My Heart, And All You Did To It, Was Tear It Apart One Year Of Nothing, How Could This Be, We Were Meant For Each Other, But I Guess That You Could Not See

This Is So Right!
One evening an old Cherokee and his grandson were sitting out by a large fire. A The Grandfather sat his young Grandson down, and began to tell him a story, he told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. The Grandfather said "my son, there is a battle inside of each of us, it is between 'two wolves' ." "One wolf is evil, jealosy, hate, envy, sorrow, regret, self-pity, arrogance, greed, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego." The Grandson listened to his Grandfather continue, as the fire in front of them began to crackle. The Granfather took a puff on his pipe and continued... He said " My son, the other wolf inside of us is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith." The wise old Cherokee contnued to smoke his pipe, and watch his grandson think about his story. The grandson sat and thought about all of this for a moment and said "Grandfather...which wolf wins the

Footsteps Of Honor...!!!
Footsteps of Honor Current mood: optimistic Category: Writing and Poetry Hope you like it..;) I hear the songs of the Whispering Wind. I feel their chants brushing against my cheek. I taste their rhythm in the words I speak in song, And take in its lessons to balance in flow, leaving my foot steps behind in harmony. I hear the dance of the rain making its way, dancing on the roof tops of our Mother Earth. I feel her gift of cleansing, and feel my spirit growing. My spirit soars with life flowing through in veins. leaving my foot steps behind in Honor. And if I should happen to fall behind, I will take all my reminders in hand, and place them in heart. I would plant another seed of growth, and take in all that needs to be. Leaving my foot steps behind with self respect. Knowing that I am always two steps ahead.

Men
So, it has occurred to me recently, that though i have mainly male friends, i don't think i get them at all... lol... i know that i am not a supermodel, but i know that i am not ugly. i know that even though i may be a bit of a bitch at times, i am not impossible, and yet the men in my life have thier heads shoved so far up thier ass they can't see straight... is that some sort of genetic defect caused by testosterone? i am just looking for someone that i feel a connection with that loves me as much as i love them, i am tired of being in love and getting nothing in return, so if there any men out there, not little boys, men, that are looking for a real woman, who is honest, and caring, oh and has kids, let me know. at this point i am about to just give the fuck up on love all together.

My Daughters!!!!
I've learned the most important lesson about relationships that no matter what we r doin', no matter how little it seems.... All they want is 4 me 2 be fully present, they don't want me 4 what I can give them, where I can take them or what we do together.... They simply want me 4 me, they taught me that my way isn't the only way. I hope through the years, they may have learned from me sum measure of all that I have learned from them!!!! THANK YOU BABY GIRLS SHALAMOURE & DEBORAHA LUV U ALWAYZ MOMMY 8~28~07

My Three Ring Circus
Sometimes I feel like the ring master of a 3 ring circus...I have been sitting here listening to my kids run around this house yelling and screaming, crying and complaining, and all out fighting for the last few hours...Of course every time there is an uprising I have to go and send them to their respective corners...I think the summer has lasted too long and it is high time they go back to school! My oldest son (15) just scared the life out of my youngest daughter (10)...He was outside waiting for the eclipse and she was in her room playing until he tapped on the window and gave her a heart attack....It is 1am and my b/f type person is sound asleep...I hope he stays that way...Anyway, the fun never ends at my house...I swear if it ever calmed down I would think the world had ended...I can't complain too much though, it is the end of summer and they have to get all of this out of their systems before they start their daily routine again... My oldest daughter (17) is trying to "stay i

This Is How I Want It Done And It Should Be Done.
This is all you need to know! 95% of females can't cum from sex unless they are on top…and why not unless on top? So they can stimulate their clit by grindin’ on our pelvic bones, which really does nothin’ for them, so the key is to eat pussy first! Make her cum a few times, numb her up, then hammer away or soft and slow with a lot of vaginal teasin’ with your meat thermometer to build it all up in the end, however you like! Now, once you are in between her legs, don't just fuckin' dive in there like a pig goin’ to the trough, take your time! I know that pussy is damned near irresistible, but don't act like it is! Lick her inner thighs, kiss them, kiss around her pussy lips, kiss the lips, etc. etc. Finally, once you've got your tongue on her clit, this is what you do! (you can use your hands to spread apart her lips if you want, that’s all preference! Its easier to make them cum with their lips spread so you can have easier access to their clit!) Roll the tip and somewhat flat par

Letter From Sunday 26 August 2007
Hey there, Since my last email was so long I'll make this one quick (smile). I just want to let you know that the ratings for HOUSE OF PAYNE have been through the roof! Thank you for watching. As a lot of you can see, the show keeps getting better and better. Thank you for giving it a chance to grow. I thought you'd might like to know that Mr. Brown is moving into the HOUSE OF PAYNE this Wednesday, and next week you'll get a sneak peak at the set up for MEET THE BROWNS-The TV SHOW, so please try to catch them if you can. Oh yeah--I'm so happy for your responses to my upcoming movie, WHY DID I GET MARRIED? Thank you to all of you who checked out the trailer at my website. If you could not load it it's because there was so much traffic. October 12th can't get here fast enough! You are going to love this movie. Here is another link to the same trailer, if you haven't seen it yet. http://tylerperry.com/wdigm God Bless, Tyler Perr

28 August 2007
Dear Alexa, Here is your single's love horoscope for Tuesday, August 28: If you're a better Cupid for a friend now than you are at furthering your own romantic aims, well, don't think the universe won't notice you're sharing the love. Smile -- that karma'll come back to you!

28 August 2007
Dear Alexa, Here is your AstroSlam for Tuesday, August 28: The lost love that you like to think of as your great tragedy will prove to be a belly clenching comedy when you see them driving a beat up Cutlass Supreme with their brood of jug-eared children.

Looking For Members For Viking's Den!
Well,anyone that knows me or has seen my pics knows i'm very proud of two things,my danish/norweigan heritage and the fact that i'm pagan,practicing asatru,skaldi and old norse.well i'm opening a lounge looking for members,it is called The Viking's Den,a place to kick back have a few,and talk about anything you want! So I'll be looking forward to seeing u there!Skaal!

Laughter - Chapter 1
Ok, I admit it... I'm a huge Will Ferrell fan. And since today was NOT a good day, I searched out a laugh on 'metube', and now I don't feel like taking candy from little children. Like you've never done it before... oh please. Just watch and laugh, then click the 'point-o-meter'. C'ya, ~David See? Told ya you'd feel better... now get back to work, and come back tomorrow.

Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face You told me how proud you were but I walked away If only I knew what I know today Ooh, Oooh.. I would hold you in my arms I would take the pain away Thank you for all you've done Forgive all your mistakes There's nothing I wouldn't do To hear your voice again Sometimes I want to call you But I know you won't be there OOh, I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself, by hurting you. Somedays I feel broke inside but I won't admit Sometimes I just want to hide, cause it's you I miss And it's so hard to say goodbye When it comes to this Oooh, Yeah.. Would you tell me I was wrong? [Hurt lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com] Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am? There's nothing I wouldn't do To have just one more chance To look into your eyes And see you looking back OOh, I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I jus

I'm Bored Too Too But...
Am I the only one that thinks its so insincere that people sit there ahd hit the "I'M BORED" Button and rate your photo without every looking at who they are rating? I look at profiles, either through looking at the scrolling list at the top, or through the friends and comments of those I talk to on here. I cannot even comprhend rating a photo without looking at the profile first? Maybe I am just not normal. This site is after, about self promotion. For most, its all about the points and the ranks and all that other fun stuff that sucks the life out of what makes these kind of sites fun. Maybe I am just not into Attention Whores that are only interested in seeing how many people they can get to rate/comment/add them? I know when I look at a profile, I take the time to rate it at least, check out the pic they are using for the default pic and rate that, and then fan them if I feel like it. Hell.. I will even add them as friends.. which I guess puts me into the somewhat insinc

What Do I Do Part Ii
To get a full understanding of what this blog is about, you will need to read the previous blog, "What Do I Do." Anyway, today, I did one of the most difficult things I have done in a very long time. I went to the local DSS office and filed a report with the appropriate people concerning the incident that occurred on Saturday. I made it VERY clear that this child is taken care of in all other ways. But this was something that I witnessed and that I could not let slide by. I just can't explain the feelings I have had since it happened. I did not do this to be a mean person. Or to be a trouble maker. Anyone that knows anything about me, knows that I love children of all ages. Those children in my family, regardless of their age, are my babies. I have cousins that are now in their late 20s that still thank me for always being there for them and looking out for them, and I'll be damned if I will stop now. I pray that this was just one incident that happened and truly that noth

Another Year Older...
Hmm...I'm 24...24...I thought by now I'd have some stuff done but I don't. However I am in the process. I am saving money to buy a house. I am back to working on my art to start an apprenticeship. I am doing more photography which says a lot, I stopped doing it for years. I guess I was in a weird mood for a long time. I don't know what was wrong with me but I finally feel a little normal. Now all I need is a vehicle...oh wait I'll have one in a matter of days. So I just need to get that second job in place and that will keep me out of trouble. Today is my birthday and all I have planned is helping my mom make and decorate my own birthday cake, and eventually going out to dinner. Everyone is giving me money...whoopie. I wanted a something to unwrap damn it! I'm a princess...fuck that I'm the queen and I wanted a damned box with unrecycled paper on it that I can rip off and throw in the trash can, only to open with some crap in it. Is that too much to ask?

(my Art) Maybe Not Done.....
thanks to a wonderful friend of mine she has encoraged me to keep with my art....so i have some thinking to do....as of now i may not be copleatlly done with my art....just a hyatus of sorts i guess.....well besides the cd cover and logo im doing for a friend (dont worry bro not going to leave u hanging).... i wanna thank everyone elses words of encouragement, means alot ot me in this time of depression for me....as i am starting to come out of it slowly this may not be the end of my art... so thank you all my true friends!

My Flashing Text Problem
well, ive made a whole lot of words, especially including my "halfalien_s4" name into these neon flashing texts that i got from cooltext.com. the proble is that whenever i upload an animated neon flashing one into my photos it doesnt flash or look right, does anyonw know what the problem is and/or how to fix it? if anyone could help me on this i would be greatly appreciated, not to mention ill buy u gifts, rate ur stuff, ect. :-) btw, it works when i put it out on the very front of my page but not anywhere else. much help is appreciated!

Suckage
So for the past week I've been sicker then I've ever been finaly getting over whatever it was. But then I got bad news from my gf, her grandpa is dieing and she's spending time with him so I haven't been able to talk to her :( so right now things pretty much suck.

Attractive Test
Would you kiss me? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Maybe [ ] Already Did ***************************** Am I hot? [ ] No! [ ] OK [ ] Fine [ ] Beautiful [ ] Gorgeous! ***************************** Would you hug me? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Already did ***************************** Do you think I'm a virgin? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] Don't know ***************************** Name one thing you would like to do to me... [ ]____________ ***************************** I look like.. [ ] A player [ ] One time thing [ ] Next gf or bf [ ] A friend [ ] A friend with benefits [ ] A possibility [ ] Another somebody ***************************** If you saw me for the first time, would you talk to me? [ ] Yes [ ] No [ ] maybe ***************************** Would you rather... [ ] Hook up with me [ ] Cuddle with me [ ] Date me [ ] Friends [ ] Friends with benefits [ ] Have Sex ***************************** On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me.. [ ] 1 [ ]

Call Center‎
Actual call center conversations! Customer: "I've been calling 700-1000 for two days and can't get through; can you help?" Operator: "Where did you get that number, sir?" Customer: "It's on the door of your business." Operator: "Sir, those are the hours that we are open." +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Samsung Electronics Caller: "Can you give me the telephone number for Jack?" Operator: "I'm sorry, sir, I don't understand who you are talking about." Caller: "On page 1, section 5, of the user guide it clearly states that I need to unplug the fax machine from the AC wall socket and telephone Jack before cleaning. Now, can you give me the number for Jack?" Operator: "I think it means the telephone plug on the wall." --------------------------------------------------------------------- Caller (enquiring about legal requirements while traveling in Europe ) "If I register my car in France , and then take it t

Holidays And Other Jokes‎
Wrapping Presents with a Cat 1. Clear large space on table for wrapping present. 2. Go to closet and collect bag in which present is contained, and shut door. 3. Open door and remove cat from closet. 4. Go to cupboard and retrieve rolls of wrapping paper. 5. Go back and remove cat from cupboard. 6. Go to drawer, and collect transparent sticky tape, ribbons, scissors, labels, etc. . . 7. Lay out presents and wrapping materials on table, to enable wrapping strategy to be formed. 8. Go back to drawer to get string, remove cat that has been in the drawer since last visit and collect string. 9. Remove present from bag. 10. Remove cat from bag. 11. Open box to check present, remove cat from box, replace present. 12. Lay out paper to enable cutting to size. 13. Try and smooth out paper, realize cat is underneath and remove cat. 14. Cut the paper to size, keeping the cutting line straight. 15. Throw away first sheet as cat chased the sc

The Best Beer Song Ever
Ok ppl. I found this song today and it fukin rocks ass. if you liked Green Jelly's Three Little Pigs then you will like Slight's new song Fuking BEEEEER! It didn't follow Green Jelly's lead. It is a type of song all it's own. It is sorta of industrial.... i think not too sure. let me know if u know wut type of style u would out it in to. Soo kick up your speakers and fukin rock out to this new cut and feel the double kick drums pound ur assssss offf. By the way it just got released 5 days ago on there site so ur kinda hearing it fresh. I bet this is gonna be another sleeper. Click it-----> FUCKING BEEEERRRRR!!!

I Feel Like The Biggest Idiot In The World
So I recently (this week) started a new job and I closed tonight (at midnight) when about 10 minutes before I'm ready to close I get a phone call from I assume my boss (sounded like him and he said it was) asking me to wait about 10-15 for him to come by because he had to pick one of his tools up. So like any good employee I did. Then about 10 minutes later I get a call from someone who wasn't my boss (I think it was his cousin [who happens to be someone I've been told not to trust on numerous occasions]) asking me to put a box of tools on the roof (see where I'm going with this). After I did that the handyman comes in asking for my boss. He waits around with me until almost 12:40 (a full forty minutes after I am supposed to have gone) Finally I relay the two phone conversations to him and we come to the conclusion that I was duped by the cousin. So I left to go home not before leaving my boss a note just in case it was him who called and if it wasn't him he knows what happened. But kn

Iraq
Well here is goes I will deploying to Iraq here really soon and I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that has given me support and I hope that everyone will keep me in there prayers. I just hope that I will return safely and once again thank you for all your support.

The Winners For Fubar Prince Or Princess Is:
THE WINNERS FOR FUBAR PRINCE OR PRINCESS IS: 1ST PLACE WINNER: 1 MONTH BLAST OR 3 MONTH VIP Current rating: 10.18 (71) Uploaded: August 13 2007 Comments: 55352 2ND PLACE WINNER: 1 WEEK BLAST OR 1 MONTH VIP Current rating: 10.13 (54) Uploaded: August 14 2007 Comments: 41907 3RD PLACE WINNER: 3 DAYS BLAST & VIP CART ON WILDCAT TRAIN (YOU CAN INVITE 2 OF YOUR FRIENDS TO JOIN TOO) Current rating: 10.12 (66) Uploaded: August 17 2007 Comments: 35132 4TH PLACE WINNER: 1 DAY BLAST & RIDE ON WILDCAT TRAIN Current rating: 10.08 (77) Uploaded: August 15 2007 Comments: 28758 I'D LIKE TO GIVE A SPECIAL THANK YOU FOR EACH ONE OF THE CONTESTANTS WHO PARTICIPATED IN MY CONTEST. LUV Y'ALL YOU ROCK PEOPLE HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK HUGS AND KISSES ۞WÌLÐÇÄŦ۞®

Hey Guys
well here is the thing yup i am flyin out tommrow WOW how awesome gesh about time.. anyways i will be back in MS on wed. 32 hours to get back.... dont know when i will be able to get online but i wanted everyone to know how much i miss u guys.. and thank you to the ones that have not forgotten about me MUCH LOVE!!!!!!!!!!...

Im A Lucky Man
hi im bigboy, and i have a story to tell. you can vote or not. i have my own confedece back, im a brand new man now.. am i crazy well yes i am, you see a woman with very good tast just steped into my life and made me a very happy man... i see the world threw different eyes, yes im talking about love, im in love with this woman that loves me as well.. thats a very specail thing to me... you all may remember me as the man that was very unhappy with my self... yes im raddling on, i guess thats love... am i a lucky man well lets see im in love, im very happy and im not talking stupid any more... so yes i think im a lucky man, and very happy with my woman..... vote if this is good and sounds like ive changed for the better....... BIGBOY

2am On Painkillers
So are all relationships bullshit or just the ones that I find myself in? Yeah probably just me huh!? That’s ok . . . I am ok with that . . . I can deal with any fucking stupidity that is thrown at me. I have learned a great deal here lately about relationships and what I am hoping to gain from one. Now, I couldn’t have done that without the help of these lying and cheating assholes that I keep running across. I hold no ill will toward them, hell I thank them for helping me find my way. These are the men who have shown me he light so to speak . . . They have brought my revelation about . . . They have opened my eyes. I know better now what I want than I have in a long time, and I am not afraid to go after it when I find it. I want everything . . . LOL. I want a man who is content with his life no matter what he is doing with it. I want a man who is not searching for someone to complete him but for someone to compliment him. I want a man who is secure enough in himself to s

Horoscope ~ August 27, 2007
Here's another horoscope that's right on target for me. August 27,2007 Your spouse, sweetie or business partner is making a scene that's hard for you to deal with, so try to step back and let them go for a while. It comes down to a clash of ideas, so you'll need to negotiate sometime.

Sept 1st... More Insanity!
This Labor Day Weekend will be one you never forget. Join the Shady Bastards as we out do ourselves, bringing you a bigger and better foam party to end the summer right! With D.J. FBI 18+ For The Ladies21+ For The GuysSponsored by: Click Here To RSVP On MySpaceSorry... Fubar doesnt have events

Scorpio
Once you have opened this bulletin, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictionist. Read your sign, then repost this in a new bulletin with your zodiac sign and label. If u dont repost this, u will have bad luck for as long as it says in your description!! V • I • R • G • O: The whore Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.Great kisser. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost. S • C • O • R • P • I • O: The lover Can be mean sometimes, and will Probably knock your ass out, if crossed the wrong way!! EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy.

Why I Love Being A Firefighter
In Phoenix, Arizona, a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year old son, who was dying of terminal leukemia. Although her heart was filled with sadness, she also had a strong feeling of determination. Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up and fulfill all his dreams. Now that was no longer possible.. The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dreams to come true. She took her son's hand and asked, "Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with your life?" Mommy, "I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up." Mom smiled back and said, "Let's see if we can make your wish come true." Later that day she went to her local fire department in Phoenix, Arizona, where she met Fireman Bob, who had a heart as big as Phoenix. She explained her son's final wish and asked if it might be possible to give her six-year-old son a r

A Hundred Days Ago (poem About Self Harm/cutting)
A hundred days ago I put the razor through my skin The sweet taste of blood and wine For me it's a sin Scars on my body that I can't cover But mostly in my soul I hope it soon will be over Have you reached your goal? You detroyed my life Made me hate Because of you I used a knife I know this wasn't my fate It's not true What you tell You have no clue Just want to make my life a hell But I wont give in anymore The hate inside me dies I'm closing this door And the book of lies A hundred days ago I put the razor through my skin I believe it was and will be the very last time I wont let you win.

Love Me Or Leave Me
Love me or leave me... May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trails to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.The happiest of people don't necessary have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. What do you do when they only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? No man/woman is worth you tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. When we are hurt, there is now sweeter revenge than to forgive. ( Thank You ). Wish your all Dreams Come True. Be Happy Always,

What The Hell Is Going On?!??!?!!!!
So far tonight, I have had to deal with these really stupid "Bouncers", I mean just now I went through 4 bouncers to get to ONE person's page! This is getting frustrating and really stupid! What's the purpose of them anyways? To annoy people and make them not want to be on this site anymore? I've been on this site since just about the beginning and I've tried and tried to just go with the flow, but all these changes are just getting out of hand. Oh how I miss the days of Lost Cherry! I'm just saying.

I'm Sorry
I'm sorry I wasn't your everything And not your one true love I'm sorry I wasn't desirable Like an angel from above I'm sorry I wasn't perfect Like the wife from your dreams I'm sorry I wasn't good enough Cause thats the way it seems I'm sorry I wasn't what you wanted I didn't pass the test But after all, I wanted you to know I tried my very best

Am I Crazy?
Am I crazy to fall for you? Am I crazy to love someone new? Am I crazy when I'm in dispare? Am I crazy when I want you there? Am I crazy when I want ot give you my heart and soul? Am I crazy to tell a tale that no ones ever told? Am I crazy to want to be loved? Am I crazy when I look to the sky above? Am I crazy to want you next to me at night? Am I crazy to want you to hold me tight? Am I crazy when I want to hear or see you? Am I crazy when I feel depressed, lonely, or blue? Am I crazyif I really want my baby? No I'm just crazy in love with thy!

Crazy Beautiful
Your sugar fix, is all I need it's enough to make me want to bleed your loom in the shadows of my heart I never listened from the start my dense hole kept me from the you and now its hard to make it through tonight I must endure your pain for your reckless favering's drive me insane

At Master's Side
Whether above Him in midair Or at the foot of His Chair (kneeling, pleading, flaunting) Behind Him in His Bath (washing, rubbing, caring) Or Head rested in His Lap (sighing, dreaming, sharing) my body is about His Above, Beneath, Below, Behind But... Our hearts are Side by Side.

Love Makes You Do Crazy Things
People in love do crazy things Like think they can fly When people are in love They never have to cry When people are in love They might learn to bake When people are in love They don't know they can break When people are in love They just have this natural glow They are always so perky You just can't say no People love People leave People say things that seem As pretty as the lies they weave Who told you you could fly? Who made you think you wouldn't fall? I bet he made you think He'd never make you ball

Crazy In Love
Love makes us do crazy things loves makes the mind go insane will he call? where's he at? Is he thinking of me? What time will he be back? I know how you feel I know what love does I’ve been in your position crazy in love what should I do? What should I say? Think twice girl it's just the first date! When is the right time? How should I go about it? Will he really stick around be around when I frown? He doesn't know what we go through sitting around looking so blue we think about his every moves but he doesn't care as long as he sees b*obs were so crazy in love we don't even know it so crazy for him girl just don't show it!

Waiting
Wanting, lusting, to be held, to be loved, to feel warmth, to feel your beating heart. Wanting to be sheltered from the cold, heartless winds. Falling into invisible arms; into an abyss of love. Wishing, hoping, that my desires will be filled; my desires of loving warmth. Wanting to be held, comforted, loved. Dreaming of passionate embraces, of tender kisses, loving words, romantic nights. Waiting for undying love.

Hero's
For many years Ben Stein wrote a biweekly column called "Monday Night At Morton's." (Morton's is a famous chain of Steakhouses known to be frequented by movie stars and famous people from around the globe.) Now, Ben is terminating the column to move on to other things in his life. Reading his final column is worth a few minutes of your time. Ben Stein's Last Column... ============================================ As I begin to write this, I "slug" it, as we writers say, which means I put a heading on top of the document to identify it. This heading is "eonlineFINAL," and it gives me a shiver to write it. I have been doing this column for so long that I cannot even recall when I started. I loved writing this column so much for so long I came to believe it would never end. It worked well for a long time, but gradually, my changing as a person and the world's change hav e overtaken it. On a small scale, Morton's, while better than ever, no longer attracts as many stars as it u

Could This Be Crazy?
The love I feel Real or just a wishful thought, I cannot tell. But the thought of a moment, A moment where we can Make love all though the night- Is an anticipation that is maddening To my longing for you. You’ve put in me a longing So fierce that…. In time has become a desire very overwhelming. So overwhelming That I contemplate whether Or not to be worried of. To want someone as badly (much) As I want you! Could this be crazy?

Within This Storm
Tonight, the rain washes over blankets the earth with tears your love has drown within this storm now i crumble, and realize my darkest fears. my ears fall deaf as the thunder roars my skin feels no warmth as the silver rain pours this night is sacred, as was your heart now clouds rule the kingdom, picking our love apart. my eyes hold no sight, as lightning illuminates this soul is drained of passion, as the water rejuvenates the sky is sharp, like the words off your tongue angels write the music, but our song remains unsung. raindrops pierce this flesh all love buried in the ground you leave me here, an empty chest my loving heart, nowhere to be found.

It's Crazy
It's Crazy, I've never met you, Yet I feel like I've known you all my life. The second I saw your photo I already knew your voice, Your laugh, Your smile. I can talk to you about nothing, and everything, and know that you are smiling on the other end of the phone, and that just hearing my voice is enough. That it doesnt matter what people say That we know what we feel is real. I cant wait till I feel your arms around me, and the feel off your kiss on my lips. Cos although I have never met you, I love you. Simple as this.

Battle Of The Sexes
This has got to be one of the funniest man VS. woman stories I've ever read.... Hilarious and true.. (Man)I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart. FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?" Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep. The very next da

Crazy (i Felt This Way Not Too Long Ago...)
You know my little secret. I'm in love with you! But I am worried, Because she is too. I need some help. I don't know what to do! That's why I call myself crazy. Bcause I am crazy over you!

The End
Several months have passed since we last kissed whom would have known you would be the one that i miss love has gone far, far away leaving me lonely awaiting for that one day. something so special has been destroyed for their now is a whole in my heart looking for someone to fill the void i hope that you are happy with all that you have done destroying my life watching me come undone

Most Men Are Like......
1. Men are like ....Laxatives ...... They irritate the crap out of you. 2. Men are like ..Bananas ...... The older they get, the less firm they are. 3. Men are like ......Weather ..... Nothing can be done to change them. 4. Men are like .....Blenders .... You need one, but you're not quite sure why. 5. Men are like .....Chocolate Bars ... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips. 6. Men are like ....Commercials ...... You can't believe a word they say. 7. Men are like ..Department Stores .... Their clothes are always 1/2 off. 8. Men are like .......Government Bonds ..... They take soooooooo long to mature. 9. Men are like ......Mascara ..... They usually run at the first sign of emotion. 10. Men are like .Popcorn .. They satisfy you, but only for a little while. 11. Men are like . Snowstorms ... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last. 12. Men are like .......Lava Lamps ... Fun to

Plz Read
Plz notice: I don't fan anybody, only who I really want, so, don't ask me. If u fan me, that's your own decision. I don't rating anybody, only who I really want, so, don't ask me. If u rating me, that's your own decision. I don't chat here, only to a very-very few ppl, mostly who I know already. Don't take it personal. I accept almost everybody as friend, and reply to private messages. I rate back everyone if I am here. I rate pix and send comments too. But I dont send fake comments, and fake rates... In my opinion it`s a kind of honour, to be honest to each other. `Family` is a special place here to me. :) Thank`s for your understanding, guys! Hugs Anita

Love Sucks
Along this road, that we call life, we come across a lil thing called "love." Depending on how your introduced to it, lies how well you'll adapt. In my case, I tried, for the life of me, to put into words how I felt. I figured that was all I had to do in order to have the guy(my first love), fall in love with me, just as much as I was in love with him. I was wrong. And its safe to say that this has been the hardest, craziest, roller coaster of my life. Being 20 now, I know a lot more then I did then. And am able to realize the things I never knew was possible. At 14, I looked at the world through rose tinted glasses. Everything was peachy and love was very much alive in me, just as it is today. So, follow along with me, my life, as it unraveled and see chapter by chapter(or by age), just how crazy life can be when love follows. And for what its worth....love is like a river. The further you follow it, the more deeper and clearer it becomes. I don't think you quite ever "get

Prey Hell Hath No Fury!
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Reality
Death, departure, walk away, walk out Should I or should I not pout Family and friends Lovers and one-night stands I have loved, lost and lived How do I trust, how do I love again I should move on, it's all in my past But my pain remains, continues and lasts This pain lingers in my heart, mind and soul Damn it - why is this world so cold How can I have faith in God and family When people I love are taken from me Where can I find true and loyal friends I'm sick of the lies, fights and revenge Hurt continuously, hurt at a young age How do I love again with all of my rage How do I get past all of this, show me a sign So I can leave my sadness, pain and crying behind

Life Sucks
Life Sucks, things happen, The world changes while you're nappin. Don't expect she revolves around you, `Cause what first comes down, is all that surrounds you. You lose your love when it's all that matters, When your heart's the softest, then it shatters. Just when you think they're worthy of your trust, Is when you find out they're all for the lust. They treat you like gold, until you get old. `Cause when they get used to you, They show the abuse to you. Life sucks, things happen, Everything changes, while you're nappin. Don't expect the world revolves around you, `Cause what first comes down, is the love that surrounds you.

When Your Hut Is On Fire
The only survivor of a shipwreck washed up on a small, uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for God to rescue him. Everyday he scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming. Exhausted, he eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect him from the elements, and to store his few possessions. One day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his little hut in flames, with smoke rolling up to the sky. He felt the worst had happened, and everything was lost. He was stunned with disbelief, grief, and anger. He cried out, "God! How could you do this to me?" Early the next day, he was awakened by the sound of a ship approaching the island! It had come to rescue him! "How did you know I was here?," asked the weary man of his rescuers. "We saw your smoke signal," they replied. The Moral of This Story: It's easy to get discouraged when things are going bad, but we shouldn't lose heart, because God is at work in ou

Eternity
Wandering in darkness grope, Finding not a glimpse of hope. Fingers touch to find my way, Each foot fall, my heart betrays The fear which drives me through the day. Suddenly the ground is lost, Flailing arms as body's tossed. Splashing down in crimson pool, The warm embrace is much too cruel, I curse this lowly, wretched fool. Floundering in this self made hell, Warmth increasing as I dwell, Within the confines I create, Screaming as myself berate, Giving in to this, my fate.

The 5 Stages Of Grief
I figured I would address the questions and thoughts that go along with them, at least for me, which is something I have yet to let leak out of my mind.... 1. Denial - Did my mother really die or am I in a coma somewhere dreaming all of this? No, it hasn't been almost a year already. Make sure there are 8 cups in the coffee maker because mom is going to want some too. Maybe she is just away for an extended vacation? Children just don't die before their parents. 2. Anger - Why the fuck did she leave things in such a mess? How could she leave me alone in the world? She should have told me things I would need to take care of, especially about the house. Why the fuck did she buy this ridiculous house way up here in Vermont? Why didn't she get better treatment? Why did she give up the fight against cancer? Why did she make me make the decision to give the morphine and let her die? Why did she even give birth to me in the first place? How could she leave me with this much to deal with

What Makes Me Smile?
Yeah, that's really not an easy feat unless you're one of my kids... There are, however, several things that do make me smile (not including my kids) and I realized them all today... Here goes: 1. Looking at pictures of my friend's kids. There is nothing in the world like seeing a happy child. 2. John Mayer's music. Above all others, he really does it for me on a daily basis. 3. ALL of my little love lions. Buddha has recently made me his "butt rest". All of him is on the couch, except his butt, which is on my leg. 4. Rob Zombie's movies. House of 1,000 Corpses and Devil's Rejects are both so masterfully done that there are many comedic scenes. No, really, there are. 5. A nice, hot cup of coffee in the morning. 6. My mother's truck. Backing down the driveway it moos like a sick cow and tells you you are going NE, then W, then S, then something else. It's different every time. Oh, and the drivers seat that puffs up to cradle your ass has sprung a leak that only happe

I Lost Today
All this sorrow, All this pain Left alone in me. No more happiness No more joy. I can't think of why you left me Here alone in this cold dark place. I lost everything today, A husband, A best friend And worst of all myself. When you left I slowly drifted away from myself. Your hear whispers in your ear Songs that you used to hear, Shut, blocked out, left behind. With no pain inside. Deep down do you hear me? Do you feel me? Can you remember the last time we talked? Can you remember the last time we hugged? Can you remember the last time we touched? It was to long ago that you left me here.

Lost Love
I feel like my heart is gonna stop beating, these painful days just keep repeating, waking up in the morning slowly rising from the bed, first thought of the day....wishing i was dead, I'm sick of the bright sun rising on a cool morning, I'm sick of having no enjoyment everythings boring, i just hate my life and can no longer take it, when I'm out and gotta smile i tend to fake it, i cant believe where my life has taken me, every love in my life has forsaken me, all this has happened to me because of you, and you left me here not knowing what to do...

The Fine Are Of Not Being Offended
There is an ancient and well-kept secret to happiness which the Great Ones have known for centuries. They rarely talk about it, but they use it all the time, and it is fundamental to good mental health. This secret is called The Fine Art of Not Being Offended. In order to truly be a master of this art, one must be able to see that every statement, action and reaction of another human being is the sum result of their total life experience to date. In other words, the majority of people in our world say and do what they do from their own set of fears, conclusions, defenses and attempts to survive. Most of it, even when aimed directly at us, has nothing to do with us. Usually, it has more to do with all the other times, and in particular the first few times, that this person experienced a similar situation, usually when they were young. Yes, this is psychodynamic. But let's face it, we live in a world where psychodynamics are what make the world go around. An individual who wishes

Dinner With Depression Part 1
The waiter comes to the table, sort of shuffling. Could be due his age, or could more probably be due to the enormous weight he is carrying on his shoulders. It's a requirement of working here. You must be carrying some sort of emotional baggage. He looks pained. "Good Evening. Tonights special is greif, sauteed in a light hopeless sauce, smothered in guilt. On the side we offer sadness served on a bed of fresh anger. I'm sure it will be to your liking. Oh, and we have a lovely 2006 teardrop with just a hint of blood for flavor, from the vineyards of Vermont. Shall I tell the chef to put the special crushed dreams seasoning on it for you as well?" I suppose it doesn't matter what I order, since it is the only thing on the menu every time I find myself here. Across the table from me is a version of myself from a little over a year ago. Sometimes it's a version from a long time ago, it depends on the night. I almost never contribute to the conversation. There is no need. It all get

Employee Evaluations
Since my last report, this employee has reached rock bottom and has started to dig." > >"I would not allow this employee to breed." > >"This employee is not really so much of a has-been, but more of a definite won't be." > >"Works well when under constant supervision and cornered like a rat in a trap." > >"When she opens her mouth, it seems that it is only to change feet." > >"He would be out of his depth in a parking lot puddle." > >"This young lady has delusions of adequacy." > >"He sets low personal standards and then consistently fails to achieve them." > >"This employee is depriving a village somewhere of an idiot." > >"This employee should go far, and the sooner he starts, the better." > >"Got a full six-pack, but lacks the plastic thing to hold it all together." > >"A gross ignoramus--144 times worse than an ordinary ignoramus." > >"He doesn't have ulcers, but he's a carrier." > >"I would like to go hunting with him sometime." > >"He's been working wi

Dear Alcohol, But I Still Love You!
Dear Alcohol, First & foremost, let me tell you that I'm a huge fan of yours. As my friend, you always seem to be there when needed. The perfect post-work cocktail, a beer at the game, and you're even around at the holidays, hidden inside chocolates, as you warm us when we're stuck in the midst of endless family gatherings. However, lately I've been wondering about your intentions. While I want to believe that you have my best interests at heart, I feel that your influence has led to some unwise consequences: 1. Phone calls: While I agree with you that communication is important, I question the suggestion that any conversation of substance or necessity takes place after 2 a.m. Why would you make me call those ex-boyfriends/girlfriends when I know for a fact they do not want to hear from me during the day, let alone all hours of the night? 2. Eating: Now, you know I love a good meal, but why do you suggest that I eat a taco with chili sauce, along with a big Italian meatball an

Burning Tears
Tears burning as they fall My soul is crying for you Melting a path to my heart Where love still lives so true Memories screaming in flame Holding your picture again Eternity has stood still Since you left me in pain How do I live in darkness Without you lighting my way Fading images haunting my life When I turned and left that day Hiding beneath tide of misery Waiting to be swept away Drowning waves of broken dreams Never your love would I betray Will you catch me when I fall From my cliff of sorrow Need your love to continue living Without you time is borrowed

Why Why Why?
Why, Why, Why???? Why, Why, Why Do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are going dead? Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough money? Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet? Why doesn't glue stick to the bottle? Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection? Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard? Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him? Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets? Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "lisp"? If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes? Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white? Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale? Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?

My World
My hands are trembling with fear I'm so petrified of tomorrow And what it might bring For nothing is what it is anymore And I am not who I am. My eyes are red and raw from crying I just feel so exhausted and miserable Like I have nothing left to offer And I know nobody could understand that So I don't say a word. My head is throbbing, I can't think straight There are ghosts haunting me Screaming horrible things While laughing and pointing And they won't leave me alone. My heart feels empty I don't belong anywhere I don't enjoy anything anymore There's nothing to look forward to There's no hope. My world has fallen apart It collapsed at my feet There's nothing left So It's time to leave, get out of here And end it all right now.

Broken Woman (first Draft)
When it began she was whole. She was brilliant, like a flawless diamond. She was delicate, as the petals of a newly opened rose. She was strong, and could bend like a tree to weather any storm. Then he came, and as two she was lost... Standing on a pedestal that was made for her by others, she became vulnerable to him. He surveyed her for a long, long time. When he was sure he knew her weaknesses, he began his work slowly. She, beautiful and solid, trusted him. The first thing to go was her skin. He tore it off in great strips, telling her each time that it was a good thing. That, to be truly one with her, he would have to see under her skin. She believed him. She turned her mind from the pain until all of her skin was gone, then she looked at herself and thought "he will see me now, all of me". The second thing to be removed from her was the muscles covering her bones. He told her that he needed to see deeper inside of her, to who she really was as a person. She believed him. He

Test For Dementia
"Test for Dementia" "It's that time of year to take our annual senior citizen test." Exercise of the brain is as important as exercise of the muscles. As we grow older, it's important to keep mentally alert. If you don’t use it, you lose it! Below is a very private way to gauge your loss or non-loss of intelligence. Take the test presented here to determine if you're losing it or not. The spaces below are so you don't see the answers until you've made your answer. OK, relax, clear your mind and begin. 1. What do you put in a toaster? Answer: "bread." If you said "toast," give up now and do something else. Try not to hurt yourself. If you said, bread, go to Question 2. 2. Say "silk" five times. Now spell "silk." What do cows drink? Answer: Cows drink water. If you said "milk," don't attempt the next question. Your brain is over-stressed and may even overheat. Content yourself with reading a more appropriate literature such as Auto World.

Although You...
Although you have gone, And fallen asleep. Your now resting in heaven, For your safe keep. Although you have gone, From sight and sound. We will always feel, Your warm presense around. Although you have gone, To heaven up above. We feel you shower us, With all of your love. Although you have gone, We still shed a tear. You haven't gone far, We feel you close and near. Although you have gone, And we can't see your face. We know your in heaven, And you we can't replace. Although you have gone, We didn't want you to go. But always remember, We love you so

Dealing With Drunks Who Don’t Realize That They Are One.
Dealing with drunks who don’t realize that they are one. Not sure how to start this, so I am going to just jump right in......I recently had someone who I thought was a "friend" tell me that she could fix my car. Very simple job, just put a starter in. Ok, so she came over and then proceeded to make a mess of things. First she dropped a tool down behind my headlight. So, then she took my battery out. Then she was going to take my front clip off to get to it. Everytime that she wanted to leave, I went with her. Because if I didn't, I felt that she would not come back. I realized that she was drunk when we made our first trip back to her house to get some more tools, so she said. She just wanted to get more vodka/moutain dew. After our second trip to her house, I realized that my car was not going to get fixed by her. She has hepatitis C and she still drinks like there is no tomorrow. She uses the excuse that she is just living her life to the fullest. Her son had asked her where

Apathepoetic
Apathy. He looks at me, his eyes a brilliant colour that no word could describe. It may not be the colour, but more the depth of his stare. Not many people take the time to see all that in a look, but I do... Always have, always will. It's something I learned a long time ago. You can tell a lot about a person by looking them in the eye, looking deeper into them. You just have to take the time. Sometimes I wonder how many people even know the colour of my eyes. I'm betting it's not many, if any at all. No one cares. So many are trapped into singular emotions, or devoid of emotions. It makes me sad. Pathetic. I was once told the four basic emotions are happy, sad, mad, and scared. That everything we feel can be boiled and stripped down to one of these basic four. I didn't buy it then, and I don't buy it now. Maybe it's because I have trouble separating emotions enough to strip them down. I tend to feel on an amplified level. That being due to my incredible want to actually live life

Muse
The elusive muse hides, laughing in the corner, watching me crumble, my hands in my hair, pulling, twisting, knotting. She takes great pride in the way she is always able to keep herself just beyond my reach. It amuses her when I wake up, twisted in the sheets, still running from my nightmare. She orgasms when the only movement during the depth of night is the bead of sweat running down my face as I fight the terror caught in my throat. She has unwrapped me. She splays me, naked, across a cold slab of grey marble for dissection by the masses. She bleeds me slowly and makes beautiful artwork out of each splattered drop. She makes me feel guilty and repulsive. She does not allow me to hide from the world, nor to creep into the crevices of life. She turns my thoughts to ashes and sprinkles them into the misty winds. She tells me to look inside. This is where I will find my insperation.

Poem Circa 1995
The phone rang today. It's been about three years since the phone has rung. Not even a wrong number. It startled me from the blackness I had been swimming through, and I thought that I wouldn't know how to work it. It rang several times before I answered, jolting me from my serenity. I picked up the receiver on the twentieth ring or so. My voice cracked, as I do not feel the need to use it often. It was a person who had read of one of my so-called achievements and wanted to know if I could help them. Pathetic loser. What is it I could do to help them? I cannot even fathom how they live, how they think, how they perceive my world. I told him to drool and he was happy. He knew how to do that well, he said. He thanked me and hung up. I lit a cigarette and smashed the phone into pieces.

Harly And God
Arthur (Harley)Davidson, died and went to heaven. At the gates, St. Peter told Arthur, "Since you've been such a good man and your motorcycles have changed the world, your reward is, you can hang out with anyone you want in Heaven." Arthur thought about it for a minute and then said, "I want to hang out with God." St. Peter took Arthur to the Throne Room and introduced him to God. God recognized Arthur and commented, "Okay, so you were the one who invented the Harley Davidson motorcycle?" Arthur said, "Yep, that's me." God said, "Well, what's the big deal in inventing something that's pretty unstable, makes noise and pollution and can't run without a road?" Arthur was apparently embarrassed, but finally he said, "Excuse me, but aren't You the inventor of woman?" God said, "Yes." "Well," said Arthur, "professional to professional, you have some major design flaws in your invention: 1. There's too much inconsistency in the front-end protrusions

Shadow For Sale (circa 1999)
Shadow for Sale 5 a.m. I love this time of day. I love it because my world is grey. No colours to hide behind. Dark corners where the shadows are alive. If your brain allows, you can see them moving across your yard, climbing your stairs, slithering in your bed, writhing next to you in the middle of waking and dreaming. Feel thier coldness against your skin and pray. Pray for the sun to save you. If you're lucky, you will be vaporized by your sun savior and become a shadow. Only then will you ever know true freedom.

Open Letter To A Bastard (circa 2002)
I am leaving you today. I am fleeing with my deteriorated body, my shattered mind, and my frightened child. I am not taking anything of value to you, only my filtered soul. I have no want from you. Not money, not pity, not attention, not sex. Do not seek me, for I can smell your rancid blood. It stains my heart. I will run from you until my wounded body no longer carries the weight of my scars. I will run until my child's tears turn to rainbows. Only then will I face you again. To dance upon your grave.

Poem Circa 2004
Naked, floating in the pristine illusion of darkness. Fluid perfection invading my pores. I am alone in this soundless prison, my only view of your world distored by a thick glass barrier. You peer in from time to time, thinking of how beautiful I have become. When the light is right, I can just barely make out the features of your face. How handsome you are! I wish that you would reach in and stroke me, show me you care, but I know this is a stolen moment. You will soon be gone, the light will disappear, and I will be immersed in darkness once again. I have spent long hours planning my escape. I know I can reach the end of the glass, but I don't know what comes after. I know nothing of your domain. I fear the shock, but know I will be alright once my stature adapts to the biting breeze. I reach upwards and grasp the edge of my cyllindrical home. Slowly ascending into the morning sunlight. I perch atop this small glass, crouched small, adjusting to the atmospheric changes. I

Locked
I can't throw things. I want to, but I can't. It's way too early in the morning and I would wake everyone up. Don't wanna do that, then I would have to explain my foul mood. Not gonna do that. But damn if I want to just destroy something, anything. Or maybe go out and drive like an asshole for a while. Or scream and scream and scream and fucking SCREAM! Why? Well, I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to be vulnerable. I sure as hell don't want to open myself just to get a twisting knife in an already opened and bleeding wound. In fact, I never want to feel like this again. Hell, I didn't want to feel this way to begin with, but curse my intelligence and my ability to research. Oh God, why can't I just be stupid? Ignorance is bliss, right? Give me ignorance or give me death. I think they both would hurt the same. No, I'm not going to let this one out of the bag. I'm going to smile my pretty smile and hide my eyes from those who see beyond them, for a long time. Maybe forev

She Told Me....
She told me of your anger How scared she was of you When you got that way The look in your eyes And edge to your voice She didn't tell me how she had hurt you She told me of your life How you've made bad decisions When you felt trapped The mess you had made And bad feelings left behind She didn't tell me how long ago this was She told me of your shortcomings How you have so many flaws When they manifest themselves The things she didn't like And how terrible they were She didn't tell me anything good about you She told me of your perverseness How you like strange sex When you would ask for it The things you made her do And what you've done to her She didn't tell me that she was willing She told me a lot of things about you And never mentioned that she was never part of your life Never mentioned your good qualities Your good nature You wonderful man

Killswitch Engage - The End Of Heartache
Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting Seek me, Call me, I'll be waiting This distance, This dissolution I cling to memories while falling Sleep brings relief, And the hope of a new day Waking the misery of being without you Surrender, I give in Another moment is another eternity (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart You know me, you know me all too well My only desire - to bridge our division In sorrow I speak your name And my voice mirrors, mirrors my torment (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart For comfort, For solace (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Hmm...
ok, I have to admit, I'm a little lost and confused here at first glance at Fubar. I'll have to make some time to tool around and figure out what's fun. (i'm still a myspace junky) I love the "shot" thing, if I knew how to do it I would give everyone a Jager! So for now, bear with me for awhile, I have alot going on so I'm not sure how often I'll be able to check in. I'll do my best I promise. I'll try not to get as bad as I have with updateing my own websites. I'ts just so fucking hard to find the time when you have 8 hundred million other things going on. ok stop blabering, Pimp says, "YO! to my peeps!"

Silence Me
There are always so many words and thoughts that infuse themselves into my mind. All the time, there is no rest, no silence. I have tried and tried with no avail to silence myself. Nothing works. Nothing. Once, in the very distant past, there was a person who could silence me. The memories are hard to pull up now, but I can remember tendrils of being silent, just being when he was around. Perhaps this was a bad thing, maybe I was too "into" him to notice the outside world. Maybe I should never go back to that place... So why do I seem to crave the idea of silence? Or maybe it is the idea of having someone I can be distracted by? The words that come to mind most often is someone to wrap themselves around my thoughts and evelope my mind.... If only that were possible.

When The End Comes. (graphic Language)
The shadows rise up, overpowering the blood moon, Liquid trickles across our bodies as the room spins; This life was brought abruptly to its end, too soon, Cold chills rival the heat, skin all needles and pins... Such a caring young man, so vibrant and full of love, The cold metal flash-heated still smoking on the floor; Tonight, he found freedom, and moved high above, We all pass out on the ground, covered in carnal gore... So often, I've looked at this as my best way to escape, I've longed desperately for the release that he has found; Now, one happening, one experience, I'm in no shape... Covered in dried blood, I awake and stir from the ground. One instant, I had my best friend, and I could see his smile, The next, the whole world spun, and he was gone instantly; I can't deal with this hurt, as I struggle to choke down my bile, I am crumbling inside, falling apart where no one else can see.

Found Love
Found Love V1. It happened So fast Smooth with lightning speed In a heavenly instant Yeah, I let my heart lead I just closed my eyes I just closed my eyes Then to my surprise Ch1.I Found Love I found you Oh, Oh, a miracle long overdue You opened the door You Found the Key I Found Love And love Found me V2. You walked on in Yeah, you came right through And this ole heart, yeah Had been abused Your Gentle touch Your Soothing Voice Girl I had No Choice CH2. I Found Love I found you Oh, Oh, a miracle long overdue You opened the door Girl, Found the Key I Found Love And love Found me