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Bet You Didn't Know....
In Greek mythology, Priapos (Ancient Greek: Πρßαπος) Latinized as Priapus was a minor rustic fertility god, protector of livestock, fruit plants, gardens and male genitalia. His Roman equivalent was Mutinus Mutunus. He was best noted for his huge, permanently erect penis

To Be Continued. Ha
hey you.. bloggers. sexys;) just thought i'd write a quick blog before ii go.. so i'll be back with some new pics, they are on my cell then we're just chill out i guess. anyway be back later;) rate me! it was a moment of weakness when you said yes. well you should've said no, you should've gone home. you should've thought twice before you let it all go..

Rogue
What is up with the pics.Its who ever shows more wins.What prize are you chicks going for?I like to show off sometimes but I am looking at all this and thinking its like bad porn.Please at least make a tasteful pic with cleavage and a pretty smile.Not hoes from hell.love ya.

Hennessy In Tennessee, Poetry By Sondra
Hennessy in Tennessee Ambient lighting, low and golden Mahogany table shines like new Velvet seats from days olden I share a bottle of Hennessy in Tennessee with you Soft candlelight and the scent of roses Saxman playing in the corner He has the blues, I supposes As he keeps time with the French Horner Chitlins, greens, okra, fried chicken and cornbread As well as tasty, spicy Cajun fare He blows the bittersweet tunes of those long dead With sorrow in his eyes, and in his

Some Old Poems
I don't want to hear the cruel words you speak with such venom.Why take your frustrations out on me? What did I do? Tell me!I'm here all the time. Everyday I'm here for you.Why make me feel dead inside? Why blame me for your failures?You're hardly there for me, I'm alone in this farce.I don't want to be the one any longer to carry the burden.I don't think you understand how much you degrade me.I don't even know if you truly feel at all! Do you? Can you?I don't know why I stay. I just don't. I don't know what to do.I don't know why you are like you are to me. Do you even know?You tell me why but I don't think you even know. No, you don't.Why can't you see how much damage you cause me? Others see it.I don't understand how you cannot see how you are or what you do!I don't...I don't understand, trully I don't.

Feelings And Who Knows What Else....yeah Poems..i'm A Geek Lol
So soft. So warm. So wet. Warmth floods me in places I dare not say! The images in my head run rampant. I focus on one. In this instant it's all I need. All i need for my release. Explosion happening uncontrollable. Now if just only for the real thing! Last night when i got home and saw bullshit in my sb again from moronic assclowns i kinda took it out on all men like i usually do. Don't really wanna use excuses but it's gotta be done. I've dealt with nothing but fuck ups, fucktards, abusers (but they got it back, i did fight back), guys thinkin woman are just here for their amusment and so on...rarely have i dealt with a nice guy except when it comes to my guy freinds...ironic...my last ex really ruined things for guys trying to get to know me and go further with me. It would end up being a novel if i started listing things..hell all my ex's were assholes with 2 exceptions...the one i lost cuz i had no control over and the second i lost cuz i fucked up...guess karma bit me in the ass

Sum Thing To Say
Believing in yourself is the most important thing I think anyone can posses. Without it everything is else is obsolete and irrevelant. You can surround yourself with great things and the best the world has to offer, but if you don not believe in yourself then nothing else matters. Some of my websites: Make Money Selling On EbayWeb Page BuildersLadies Fragrances Increase Link PopularitySEO Software ReviewsBusiness Website Builder

Random Thoughts...
"Fire scares me, yes, and earthquakes, and venomous snakes. People scare me more than anything, for I know too well the savagery of which humankind is capable." ~ Excerpt from Chapter 10 of Odd Thomas, by Dean Koontz In the middle of reading a book about a man who talks to ghosts, solves crimes, and takes down criminals I had a thought. In general, I don't particularly like people. Not to say I don't like certain individuals, I have friends and I enjoy the company of others. But in the grand scheme of things, I would just assume avoid delving into the real world social mix. I have the unfortunate gift of seeing things as they are and not how I would wish them to be and reality is no fun place to live. I don't think there is any inherit good, or evil for that matter, inside any of us. Rather, I think there is a primal desire. Supremacy. Simple enough, we all want to win. And, who doesn't? There is nothing wrong with wanting success. The issue lies in seeking individualism power vers

Heaven's Geocery Store
I was walking down life's Highway A long time ago I saw a sign that read heaven's grocery store. As I got a little closer the door came open wide and when I came to myself I was standing inside. I saw a host of angels they were standing every where, one handed me a basket and said, my child shop with care everything a christian needed was in that grocery store, and all you couldn't carry you could come back the next day for more. First I got some patience Love was in the same row. Further down was understanding you need that wherever you go. I got a box or two of wisdom then a box or two of faith for he was all over the place. I just couldn't miss the holy ghost I stopped to get some strength and courage to help me run the race. By then my basket was full but I remembered I needed Grace. Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill, for I thought I had everything to do my masters will. As I went up the aisle I saw prayer and I just had to put that in for I knew

I Quit
Taking a deep breath,fighting back the tears,determined never to let you seethe pain and tears you've made me cryas I walk away with pride.Keep my head highand act like nothing is wrong,I'll never give you the pleasureof knowing how much you hurt mePut on a mask againof perfect cool emotionlessness,the reason behind the nameof the heartless Ice Queen,shutting the doors of my heart.Building up walls that I let you through,you blew the only chance I give,take a step back emotionallyand re-evaluate my opinionand the situation I thought that I was in.I cared for you deeply,as a wonderful friendand someone I actually trustednow I see that I was wrong againwhen it came to judging a person.You say I'm being stupidand that you hope I wake up somedaybut thats ok with meit's you that is being stupidbecause you only see a tiny world.I gave you more chances than one,why I have no idea,and you threw them all in my face,I quit, I'm done, I give upyou're not worth the pain I'm putting myself through.

With A Smile
In the morning you wake and find you cant breatheYour heart starts to throb as the pain ends its leaveYou move like a zombie, your mind runs a blankMemorys soon flood in as your brain turns its crankAlone you can cry, at least for awhileWith others its easy to hide with a smileHis eyes you ignore though you glance here and thereSoon you find yourself in a heartbreaking stareCan he see the pain that you hide with a grin?Does he see the anguish he caused with a sin?You turn away acting as if you dont careWhen really without him its to hard to bareHe hurt you so much but your still holding onThis proves how love can sometimes turn out all wrongLove comes with heartbreaks, some big and then some smallBut in the end you'll walk away from it allSooner or later you will find the oneBut until then smile, the day is not done.

Rants Over Humanity.
After getting drunk friday night to pass away my time, and get my mind off of everything, i sat down with a notebook and started writing like a retard on speed to get all of this out. With my lovely friends help, i came up with this list. most of it, unrealistic and will never happen. The majority of it, I will make happen.

Dreams
There are dreams we all travelSome bring smiles and some fearBeen walking on a long roadWith thoughts that are never clearDrowning in my own eyesLaughing on my own criesSeeking truth in my own liesRising when my soul diesThere are dreams we all travelSome make us rise and some fallBeen riding this tide aloneStruggling while life takes its tollLeft alone within my mindSearching for serenityIf only I could see the truthWhat really lives inside me

No-one To Turn To
She sits at the windowand takes in the sights.She unknowingly staresat the beautiful lights.She would stay here forever;if only she could.She would never leave the windowbut she knows that she should.She's never felt the daylightupon her feeble skin.She's never writtenor spoken words from within.She's never felt affectionfrom the people that made her.She always looks out the windowbecause to her, it's a cure.She's got bruises and gashesupon her tiresome face.She will pass away,someday without a trace.

Pepsi
so i have noticed something about some people on fubar. They will only help out people that will give them something. be it bling or bombing them or whatever. I just have to say that those people that are like that are not real friends. if conversation and being there for a person isnt enough then they are not a real friend. a real friend doesnt want anything for their time or effort they do it because they want to. if i have to give someone bling to get bombed or bling or drinks or even for them to talk to me then i dont need friends like that. i would rather have a handful of real friends than thousands of people that i never talk to. thats stupid. and if you pay attention to some of the people on here that is all that they are about. they dont talk to anyone or do anything other than ask for rates or gifts or whatever. its retarded. and please dont get me started on the girls that will show their NSFW pics if you pay for them wtf is that about? anyway comments are appreciated rate i

Liar
http://fubar.com/user.php?u=3280216&friend=3280216" target=_blank>$heWantsMoneyhttp://b.pcc3.fubar.com/61/20/3280216/tn_1338383098.jpg">href="http://fubar.com" target=_blank>@ fubar Drew Duns...aka...So Far So Good So What...aka...She Wants Money is a cheater.

Strange Or Imagination
I went shopping tonight to get out of the house. My son and I went to Hot Topic earlu and looked around for a bit til I found some stuff I wanted. I just wandered about by the time i went to the register to buy the stuff 2-3 hrs had passed. iI was mind boggled. I guess it was because it was my first time in a while to truely be out of the house my by own desire. Anyways, we leave and go to walmart to get shoes and a few new clothing things for him and some other groceries. We stop by McDonalds to get him a happy meal and go back home. The kid goes off and does his thing and then wants tub time. While he's in the tub. I mess around with my things and lay them out and start fooling around on fubar. Seems pretty normal right? Well I start chatting with a friend about the usual chatter: how was ur day etc. I am listening to my music list. Here comes the weird part. During Tim McGraw's "Its your Love" out of nowhere I get this chill on my upper left arm and when i closed my eyes it felt s

Ugh Seriously Guys!!
No time to make this all fancy....PLEASE.. I am asking a huge favor.. If you have NSFW pics in your DEFAULT.. PLEASE DELETE ME or PLEASE DON'T RATE MY PICS.. (as I return all rates)I HAVE KIDS RUNNING AROUND ME AT ALL TIMES.. AND IT ROYALLY P*SSES ME OFF TO CLICK TO RETURN RATES AND WAMMMMMM.. I HAVE A D*CK ON MY SCREEN..*I don't care if you have them, but please put them in a folder so I know where they are.. for the sake of my children..IF YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND THIS OR DON'T CARE.. THEN YET YOU HAVE ANOTHER REASON TO DELETE ME

The Little Things...
Sometimes you can't help but to wonder if these things are planned, or it's just really awesome that stuff like this happens by mere coincidence. And then you see it happen. This is one of those times that just makes me really laugh out loud.

Depressed
this is sum i never thought to expectas i flew bacc in depression granny was in da medi am so confused i rilly dont understandonce apon a time i had a bunny n u had a manmysteriously i pondered sumething was wrong not ordinarily strange but clearly at the tip of the tonganother being learking from the shadows if i hadent seen it commin i wouldn't hav felt my hearts hollows i wonder why bad comes to good people n come to think of it as a signal where we ment or ment to be single now um lost no confort no mingle....now i need a drink what is a man to do i'd try sittin but i can't help but move what is a man to say my mind draws a blank when i attempt to pray what is a man only one who shows his emotion without thinkin on baccup plans where do i stand alone in this world i got their baccs many sounds but 1 band how is it that i continue the lord is my sheperd i follow he grooves

My Writings
APOLOGY by ADAM JOHNSONthrough the mountainsacross the seaeven the boundless forestswouldnt keep you from mebut i must departso i leave this for youan apology from my heartso that you might remember methe things ive doneand places ive seenmy attentionwas givenso few and far betweennow i realize my faultsa little latei can only hopeneglect doesnt lead to hatei dont know when i'll see you againtheres only one thing left to doplease forgive mei still love you WAIT FOR ME by ADAM JOHNSONwhere is my one true love?is she out there as lost and lonely as i?could she be with another... leaving me to be alone for eternity!?if you are truly out there and searching for me as i am for you....hear me now, feel me in your heart, see me in your dreams...as i convey this simple message"wait for me"no matter the distance to travel, no matter how long it takes, one day we will find each other....so i say once again, "wait for me"if you just have the patience... we will be together one day.dont ignore t

Abigalecaspar
In regard to naming, it appears that ugg boots, ugh boots and ugg boots have been used as generic terms for sheepskin boots in Australia. Ugg boots are unisex sheepskin boots, made of twin-faced sheepskin with fleece on the inside and with a tanned outer surface, often with a synthetic sole. Uggs are believed to have been first developed in New Zealand or Australia, although the exact date is uncertain. There has been a dispute between manufacturers of

Slautes,blings And Other Fucrap
ok heres the deal, rate my pics if u want, im not gonna beg for a rating or comments, also i will not give blings just to see ur nsfw pics obviously they must not be very good if u want something that is just a pic of bling,also i had a salute and it got deleted by mistake,so if i have to have one of those to see ur profile or ur pics then may i suggest u move along or u r not worth my time to see ur page,if this offends then click the little in x in the corner and have a good day

From The Pages Of Books
Many people who walk the earth practice the fine art of making others feel responsible and even indebted to them, without cause. "Psychic Vampires" are individuals who drain others of their vital energy. This type of person can be found in all avenues of society. They fill no useful purpose in our lives, and are neither love objects nor true friends. Yet we feel responsible to the psychic vampire without knowing why. If you think you may be the victim of such a person, there are a few simple rules which will help you form a decision. Is there a person you often call or visit, even though you really don't want to, because you know you will feel guilty if you don't? Or, do you find yourself constantly doing favors for one who doesn't come forward and ask, but hints? Often the psychic vampire will use reverse psychology, saying: "Oh, I couldn't ask you to do that"---and you, in turn, insist upon doing it. The psychic vampire never demands anything of you. That would be known in subtle wa

Imposters
G-damn, I was just looking thru my friends and wow, what Hot bunch of women they are, so to them I say ladies you are the finest of the finest on Fubar or any other network, you girls ROCK FOR REAL!!! much love to ya all.... What the fuck is really going on that someone would feel compelled to lie about their identity, with a fake series of Imposter pictures? To me that's a joke! And then theese imposters lead you on and on. And when they finally reveal their true identity, it's like getting punched in the stomach! you feel sick. and then the Imposter is like well you wouldn't like me if I wasn't a barbie doll, Bitch I don't like you because your a FUCKING LIAR! I have nothing against ugly people, Hell I'am one! But atleast I post a true 100% real picture of my ugly ass.... and all you should do the same. Keep it real 2010 live by it!

Reincarnation
I've been thinking. If the idea of reincarnation is true, what kind of asshole would you have to be in this life to come back as a woodpecker? Can you imagine an existance in which your sole means of obtaining sustinance is BANGING YOUR FACE AGAINST A TREE?!?

Quotes
There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills. Buddha This is so true.

*free To A Good Home*
A man in Grand Rapids , Michigan incredibly took out a $7000 full page ad inthe paper to present the following essay to the people of his community. HOW COULD YOU? - By Jim Willis, 2001 When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a belly rub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for y

Hotties Auction
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Pimpout For Friends
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My Crazy Fetish.
Hi friends well I realy have been teasing more then long enough but once I post the site of my fetish I don't want no harsh and rude nasty comments about it ok I get more then enough flack just because I have pet snakes ok. I have deleted friends before for giving me nasty comments 1 lady i knew for yrs until I found out she would lock her kid in a closet so she can spend the day on this site maken friends and racking up points.

Naughty Application
!!!NAUGHTY APPLICATION !!!REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE. DONT BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. LET THE FUN BEGIN........Your Name:Age:Favorite position:1. Do you think I'm cute?.2. Would you have sex with me?3. lights on or off?4. Would you have to be drunk?5.Would you take a shower with me?6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me?7.Would you leave after or stay the night?8.Do you like cuddling afterwards? .9.Condom or skin?10. Have sex on the first date?11.Would you kiss me during sex?12.Do you think I would be good in bed?.13. Would you use another female as a booty call?14.Can I use you as a booty call?15.Can we take pictures of the act?16.How long would we have sex?17.Would you tell your friends about me?18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend?19.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THIS BACK TO YOU!EVEN IF YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND ORGIRLFRIEND - REPOST THIS!REPOST AS- NAUGHTY APPLICATION

Random Things...
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The Wait Part Ii
Too cold to call it summer anymore They took down all the yellow lights at Market Street and 4th I left the plastic furniture you put out in the shade under the porch It’s been raining every day now for a week Flooded in the basement and I can’t find the leak You were always better fixing things around the house than you and me I will wait for you In neon streets alone I will wait for you And carry it like a stone I will wait for you Till you’re ready to come home Then halfway through the fall I broke your cup The one you used for coffee you could never get enough I went out and bought another and put it right back in its place beside the clock And in December all the questions finally stopped My friends came by while I was out and put your pictures in a box But almost every night I hear the turning of your key inside the lock I will wait for you In neon streets alone I will wait for you And carry it like a stone I will wait for you Till you’re ready to come hom

Getting Stronger
As in Dragon Heart A knight is sworn to valor, his heart knows only virtue, his blade defends the helpless, his might upholds the weak, his word speaks only truth, his wrath undoes the wicked. The right can never die, if a man still remembers him. Words are not forgotten, if a voice pronounce them clearly, The Code always shines, if a heart preserves it brightly...

Song Of The Day 9-28-09
"Fuck Off" A shimmy shimmy cocoa cocoa pu- pu - fucking puffs bitch It's the K-K-Kid Rock with the K-K-Kid Rock shit I'm on top bitch and rock for tricks Hella whips and nips and flip trips for whips I get all the money pussy falls like rain Been gettin laid and paid that's why I never complain If I ain't in it for the money, I'm in it for the P It's 1998 yo and you still can't fuck with me You don't be fucking with the blue eye Fucking with my 2-5 hope your fucking ass like my shoe size I got a new vibe, kinda like voodoo You do what we say and we'll do what we want to We're fucking up your city and we're fucking up your program Fucking all your bitches we don't fucking give a god damn Twisted Brown gets down with no assistance We won't quit until we're banned from existence Persistence pays if that holds true Then I'm a buy this fucking planet before the time I'm through I was praised and raised on the thoughts of no faking So I'm gonna get what I got coming and the rest I'm taking

Medical Issues
I am a mom of a special needs son, he is 10 and his name is shane. Shane was born with a extremely rare genetic mutation called X-Linked Hydrocephalus which is basically spinal fluid in his brain that collects in the

Haters!!!!!!
Today we talk about haters...hmm seems like theres a lot of them in this world huh but dont hang ur had when a hater makes itself known that means ur doin somethin right, so u know wut to do welcome them. U might be askin urself how do i deal with a hater. Just two simple rules 1.Like i said welcome them into ur life(hate to say this but they keep the world moving sort of like motivators, use them like tackling fuel) 2.NEVER EVER sink to their lvl, because they will usually try to make u join the team by throwing out idiot phrases(then ur a hater too we dont want that now do we) That concludes today's mini session till next time make urself feel good by any means and if that means hating on some1 feel free to hate on me i can always use the fuel

Surveys
Lookin for the Opinion of those out there.... THE QUESTION IS... using the scale below, what do you think of me?!0 = ewww!?! 1 = Definetly not attractive... 2 = Decent... 3 = Cute... 4 = Fine as hell!!! 5 = I'd do you... 6 = Pretty damn sexy!!! 7 = Lovable,I LOVE YOU!!! 8 = I wanna make you mine

Clear As Mud
You are everything that I despise You are everything that slowly dies You say you slit your wrists at night Because your parents got into a fight Razors roses and a black tomorrow As you just fill yourself again with sorrow As you part the skin you say the blades hit blood Now everything in life is as clear as mud No matter if you say goodbye Everyone around you is left wondering why You never felt any affection to anything but their ego So you thought to myself why don't I just go They are everything you dreamed would die So you figure that you will commit suicide You tell me of blades on skin And then the blood flow will start to begin It comes in ebbs and waves at first Next thing she knows she's facedown in the dirt The next day all the fighting has come to a halt The parents finally realize it was all their fault Before you went you heard the last serenade Then you went off to go join the Black Parade Now you're gone so it just doesn't matter anymore But you

There Is A Time...
There is a time for love and laughterThe days will pass like summer stormsThe winter wind will follow afterBut there is love,and love is warm There is a time for us to wonderWhen time is young and so are weThe woods are greener over yonderThe path is new,The world is freeThere is a time when leaves are fallingThe woods are grey,The paths are oldThe snow will come when geese are callingWe need a fire against the coldThere is a time for us to wonderWhen time is young and so are weThe woods are greener over yonderThe path is new,The world is freeThe path is new,The world is free

My Poetry And Yes I Wrote Them All
My life is useless and I'm no longer needed. I should have heeded the call when death came to chat. In constant pain for many years. Physically, mentally, and emotionally distressed. Tears through the years, many never veiled. Living in constant fear of what he may do. I sleep very little and very light. The only comfort I find in life is the sweet darkness of night. Tired of the pain, lonliness and despair. I now say goodbye for I now know. No one ever really cared. M.A.S. 9/28/09

Ramblings About My Job (funny)
I work at the mall in a very popular lingerie store. And to those of you who have never worked retail before here are a few pointers for you. 1. If you come in the store you are going to be asked by numerous people if you are looking for anything. It is our JOB to sell you stuff. If you tell us you are just looking your going to be asked repeatedly. 2. Please do not be rude to us. Even if you are having a bad day taking it out on sales people will only get you talked about once you leave the store. It makes us feel bad if you are nasty when we are only trying to do our job. Just smile and say "No thank you" if you do not need assistance. Also ask us nicely for help and don't bark at us, we're not servants. 3. If we do not have something in stock don't scream. You only make an ass out of yourself. There is nothing we can do if we are out of stock except call another store. Or (if the store has the ability) order it for you on-line. 4. When waiting in line don't get pissy if you have

Poems
Love Like A RoseCategory: Writing and PoetryLike the thorns prick, sometimes you wound my heartLike the red bulb, so is the blood from my heartLike the leaves on the stem, I hope you never leave meLike the green of the stem, your love for me I so envyLike the rose blossoms, each day my love blossoms for youLike the sweet smell of a rose, so are you just as sweetLike the red of the bulb, so is my passion for youBut like every rose, roses eventually wilt and dieJeremy

A New Chapter
Heart-Broken-Damn Where To Start On This?Shattered Hearts,And Painful Words.Those Words Can Get To You Tho.Them Break Up Words After A Year Or Soo.And Its Funny How A Guy Finds That One Special Girl And Just Lets Her Get Away Like Nothing Happen But Then Comes Running Back.And Then Tha Guy Keeps Doing Tha Same Routine Over And Over Like It Was A Script To Learn In A Movie.But Tha Real Shit

The Biker*
THE BIKER* I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall.I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief.I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But, you didn't see me, riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless.I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather jackets and gloves.But, you didn't see me, and my brothers donate our old ones to those that had none. I

Mini Me....
http://fpdownload.macromedia.com/get/flashplayer/current/swflash.cab">http://www.adobe.com/go/getflashplayer">">http://www.adobe.com/go/getflashplayer">> As the girlfriend of one of our hero that is over there fighting to protect us and for our freedom. I can personally say that it is hard. The times when you don't hear from them have to be the worst. Never knowing when and if you will hear from them again. Keeping them in your heart and praying is all that we can do. Having faith is the biggest part of it but it is hard. We have to have faith in God and believe in him that he will keep our love ones safe and bring them home to us soon. Please keep all of the men and women in the war in your prayers. Pray for there safety and their return, but also please remember to keep their family in your prayers. Staying strong and keeping faith can be hard at times like these. Thank you!!!

Dark Musings
Heat and moisture gather between her thighs as her fingers now tace along the curvature of her hips. She moistens her parched lips with her tongue as her fingers trial down to the waistband of her skirt. A sudden noise echoes in the empty alleyway bringing her out of her daze. Before stepping out of the alley she smoothes out her clothes. She is reminded of the sand that abrasively rubs her thighs and decides it is probably time to head home. A hot soak in the tub is in order and perphaps her release. The beast stirs within , she glances up with a darkned smile and blackened eyes. The cool night air carreses her heated skin. All around her a variety of music plays as she walks down the busy streets tuning out the world around her. She licks her parched lips and lights a cigarette in vain, hoping to calm the hunger that grows within.

Look To The Sky
Look to the sky what do you see Is it how it is ment to be The lightning flashs then it all goes black The moment is gone can't get it back There is nothing out there but empty space No clues no answers not even a trace If you chose to wish upon a open sky It makes no differenc when you die You can't take with you what doesn't exist So why does my love fo you still persist Like hollowed out eyes upon a empty face The Visions are gone without a trace

Auctions!
Hey all....Im having a salute contest. If you want to enter just SB me or send me a PM...It will start Mon..Dec 14th. Whoever can make me the coolest and most original salute will win a VIP or BLAST...winners choice. Contest will be judged on points....each pic rate is worth 1 point and comment worth 5. The contest will run for 1 month til Jan 14th. The top 3 salutes with the most points will be judged by me personally.....whichever I like the best will win the VIP/Blast. If you are interested let me know via SB or PM...Salutes can be SFW or NSFW....I will create a private NSFW folder to place entries in. Good luck, be creative, and have fun.

Type O Negative Concert
Friday, October 16th / Doors 7:00PM Friday, October 16th! Type O Negative With Seventh Void, Destrophy, Core Device and Beyond Visible. An all-ages to enter, 21 to drink event. $23 advance, $25 day of show + applicable surcharges.

Food For Thought
An escalator can never break: it can only become stairs. You should never see an Escalator Temporarily Out Of Order sign, just Escalator Temporarily Stairs. Sorry for the convenience. - Mitch Hedberg (RIP)

Awareness Of The Month
"For my future I have no concern, and as a true philosopher, I never would have any, for I know not what it may be: as a Christian, on the other hand, faith must believe without discussion, and the stronger it is, the more it keeps silent." Giacomo Casanova

Pretty Girl
Pretty girl, who is to blameFrightened girl, they don’t know her nameSaddened girl, who cries at nightDistant girl, who’s out of sightPsycho girl, with scars on her wristsFairytale girl, who don’t existSilent girl, without a nameIgnored girl, who’s filled with shameFaking girl, with plastic smilesFreakish girl, from a thousand milesEmotionless girl, cant feel much Pain Darkened girl, who brings the rainCrying girl, tears start to floodPsychotic girl, who drains her bloodHated girl, who no one loves Such a weak girl, who’s no longer thoughAngry girl, there is no cureHappy girl, she is no moreHidden girl, she covers her scarsPrisoned girl, lived behind her life’s barsCrazy girl, who bleeds so muchLonely girl, who’s out of touchStupid girl, who no one likesBeaten girl, who always fightsPretty girl, don’t give up nowSuicide girl, there’s someway, somehowScared girl, don’t be afraidDistant girl, don’t go awayMorbid girl, don

Desires
Dressed to fulfill your fantasy Cheerleader, nurse, school girl, and more Whoever you'd like me to be I'll surprise you at the door Eyes that shimmer Smile filled with delight Together we quiver At each other's sight You hold me first Embrace so tight I feel your thirst It's a perfect night Your heart beats with mine Our lips lock The clock stops in time Hard as a rock I'm taken away We dare not part As we move united I feel your dart Piercing through me Depths unknown Together we travel Together we moan All our energy consumed We collapse in each other's arms Sweet contentions Our bodies soar Nestled in your arms Peaceful and sound Dreaming of you Until our next round

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My Blog
So I had a cute boyfriend for exactly one day. I don't understand why someone would just ask me to be their girlfriend after meeting me and one day. But unfortunatley, I'm the clingy type. I like to be called daily if not at least seen daily. He couldn't do either so I ditched him. Sorry but I'm not about thisbullshit don't waste my time. I want a serious relationship but it seems that either a.I appear as too much of a sex object or b. everyone i seem to meet who says they want a relationship, honestly dont and just like, much like nikolai, he's complete bogus. He dated me for about a month or so but all the wihle still trying to get back with his ex even tho she is with some abusive boyfriend. so after awhile i started to realize from him not calling me unless he wanted me to come over and go out, that i was being used, i was being a replacement, or almost a rebound. but whatev it is what it is. at least i have to of his video games i will sell or keep and never give back lol. anywa

Woman Like You
FOREVER MINE IM HERE FOR U ALL THE TIME YOUR THE ONE ALWAYS ON MY MIND IM HERE THINKIN ABOUT MY LADY U AINT SHADY UR DA ONE DAT MADE ME SHES MY CUTIE PIE IM DREAMING OF U EVERY NIGHT UR PRETTY DEN THE WHOLE WORLD 2 ME WILL U STAY WITH ME FOR ETERNITY I WILL SPENT MY WHOL LIFE LOOKN INTO UR EYES SO DEEP INSIDE I WLL NEVA LIE U TAKE ME 2 DA SKY U MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM IN A ROLLERCOSTER RIDE U DONT ASK 4 THINGS NO DIAMOND RINGS U BRING ME HAPPINNES I HOPE IS U WEN DA TELEFONE RINGS DATS Y UR DA GIRL OF MY DREAMS DA GIRL FOR ME I BE WIT U FOR ETERNITY IN REALITY AINT NO WOMAN LIKE DA ONE I GOT MY LUV 4 U WILL NEVA STOP I ALWAYS PUT U ON TOP I ALWAYS HAV A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART NO ONE CAN SEPARATE US APART I ALWAYS BE AT HOME WIT U N NEVA LEAVE U ALONE KUZ UR MY ZONE EACH MOMENT WIT U IS LIKE A DREAM KUM TRUE I LOVE U BABY MY BOO I DO ANYTHING 4 U N U KNOW I DO WE WER MEANT 2 B WEN IM CLOSE 2 U U SET ME FREE UR MY DESTINY MY REMEDY UR DA ONE I ADMIRED N DESIRED ME WIT OUT U MY LIFE WILL

Erotic Stories I Wrote
On a stormy night, you walk to you car parked near the end of the parking lot it has been a long day and all you want is to go home and take a warm bath. The closer you get to your car the hair on the back of your neck stands up you feel as if some one is watching you. Then you hear tires squealing in behind you turn to look and a dark van approaches you at a high rate of speed. You start to run for your car when the vans pulls up close to you then the door opens, your pulled in and a dark hood placed over you. You try to scream but there is a hand covering your face, you fell another set of hands removing your clothes , your hands our bound as you lat there on the floor of the van in nothing but your panties.You drive for what seems hours your body quaking in fear, thinking what is going on, how can this be happening to me. Your pulled out of the van and lead down some steps you feel a cool and damp air around you. As you are lead into a room your placed on a bed and the binds are rem

Stories
Strength is knowing when to say....I cannot follow this path any longer. Strength is standing firm by your values, even when they are challenged. Strength is what is not seen. It is a firm stance centered in your own personal belief. Strength is being able to cry, when the all around you are smiling. Strength is knowing who you are....and loving yourself anyway. Strength is following your mind, when your heart chooses a different direction. Strength is doing what is right for you, though it may not be right for everyone. Strength is being able to step back and examine, when your body and soul tell you to press forward. Strength is being able to say no, when you know something isnt right. Strength is looking yourself in the mirror, and liking what you see. Strength is caring enough about your mate, to say no to what you crave, because you love him. Strength is saying yes to your mate, because you know she craves it, though you dont exactly understand.

Me In A Nutshell! (god I Hate Ptsd!)
We chase misprinted liesWe face the path of timeAnd yet I fightAnd yet I fightThis battle all aloneNo one to cry toNo place to call homeOooh...oooh...Oooh...oooh...My gift of self is rapedMy privacy is rakedAnd yet I findAnd yet I findRepeating in my headIf I cant be my ownId feel better deadOooh...oooh...Oooh...oooh...

Poem
how can someone write about a love when there are no words to explain, its' hard to go each day and not have the person you love to be with you it's hard to be happy knowing you have to wait to see them and when you do you only get a certain ammount of time i cry almost everyday to help ease the pain i feel from missing you and being alone to go to bed and reach for the one you love and they are not there just a space like the distance between us my heart has a cloud over it and when you come around the sun starts to shine through but when i have to say bye again the thunder and rain begin to pour over my heart. my lonely nights will someday end,but right now my pain is great with love you will have hurt,if loveing was always being happy then it wouldn't be love. because you will always miss it when it's gone my tears seem to ease my pain from not having you here to hold. so my eyes grow weary from the fallen tears through my eyes pour the rain from the storm over my

Need Rates?
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Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beerholder!!
Lyrics to Beauty Is In The Eyes Of The Beerholder : Don't piss down my back then tell me it is raining. You just had to walk in before I kicked the table beneath my feet. If I can't have any friends I thought why not hang from the ceiling. Just because I ordered, doesn't mean I can't look at the menu. Not that there's any other fish in this sea I'd rather have on my plater than you. Just because I FUCKING ordered, doesn't mean I can't look at the menu. Not that there's any other fish in this sea. Don't drink and park, accidents in cars cause population. Fuck "more the merrier" there's only one person I need to feel this sinstation. If you need directions you can take the road that's down my sleeve, This time I'm taking you with me, but the cuffs are you; so good luck trying to leave! I hope one day I can cross your ocean, without feeling the puncture of your teeth. Believe me I'd rather drown myself, then knowing you have the power to pull me beneath. x2 There's so much oxygen th

Thinking Of You..
A White Rose The red rose whispers of passion, And the white rose breathes of love; Oh the red rose is a falcon, And the white rose is a dove. But I send you a cream-white rosebud With a flush on its petal tips; For the love that is purest and sweetest Has a kiss of desire on the lips. What is Love ? Is it

Auctions!
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You Are Who You Are
Whether you are straight, bi, queer, or curious in nature, remember you don't have to label yourself. And by all means, you don't have to justify yourself or your desires to anyone.... just be YOU. Blessed be the waters of your life.May your blood be strong.May the flow from your loin be joyful and fertile.Blessed be all your life-waters.Blessed be the earth of your body.May your muscles be strong and fearless.May your heart beat with love, soul, vigour and courage.

Bull Shit
this secret admirer crap has gotten out of control. If I get 1 more match with some clown loving mother of 3 again I'll quit fubar, Myspace, all of it. I HATE ICP AND TWIZTED AND ALL THE CLOWN LOVING FUCKERS OUT THERE! Plus I don't want kids of my own. I certainly don't want other peoples kids. So why is fubar telling me I secret admire these people. I look shit up first. then decide. But fubar want's me to hook up with JUST THESE PEOPLE! FUCK UM!

Holding On
The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesnt want to be held on to. Dont fall for someone unless theyre willing to catch you. The thing about falling in love is that if you do it right, youll never hit the floor.

Ask Yourself Why?
My heart aches, A part of me is missing. You are my great passion, My great love How clearly you appear in my dreams, You are in my blood, my soul. I cry out your name to the endless sky, Summoning the spirits to assist me. I must have you, I can wait no longer. Return to me, I command thee. An inner voice whispers your name, Visions of your face appear everywhere. The time has come to open your eyes, To see the wondrous life that awaits us. Open your heart, Allow my love to penetrate the barriers. Fly quickly to me, Fall into my loving arms. In your mind, You know we are meant to be together. Surely you must realize, Our reunion is inevitable. Can you not see, How right we are together. Does your heart not ache, When you are alone in your thoughts – thinking of me. Do you not yearn For my gentle ways, my loving spirit. Shed the negative thoughts, That bend your mind, Cast off the bonds that keep us apart, Drum up the

Boredom=random
Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now?Date no, fuck yesWhen's the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?no ideaWould you smile at a stranger?do it all the time Is there someone mad, because you're talking to the person you are?aint talkin to no one so no.What exactly are you wearing now?tshirt and sweats How often do you listen to music?everydayWhere is your cell phone?right hereDo you wear jeans or sweats more?shortsDo you think your life will change dramatically before 2010?no unfortunately it will be the same ole bullshit Are you a social or antisocial person?social I guessHave you ever kissed someone whose name begins with an A?YesWhat about a K?YesWhat about D?YesWhat about M?yes Have you ever told someone you loved them besides your friends or family and really actually meant it?I did at the timeIf you could change your eye color would you?thats what contacts are for Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?Depends upon what they

Im In His Head...
Tonight when I finally opened up,I realized it was long over due.I have been working on this issue,for so long I didn't know what to do. I was scared and wished I shut down.All I could think of is you, and what would you do.Nothing was accomplished,except for tearing your heart into twoI couldn't take the pain away...it was already too late. I knew it was going to be over,and I didn't deserve another chance.What I did was unforgivable,and only with time we will see...If we can embark on a new destiny. when we meet in real life,we will be ending this drawn out mystery...if we were meant to be.or have a friendship that will last an eternity.I love you baby, for what ever it's worth...if anything please believe me This was wrote for Steven

I Am Shy No Longer
Let me start this story by saying that this is a work of complete fiction. The only thing that has been changed is the name of the people involved. @ I was a very shy person before I met Adriana. It wouldn't matter how attracted i was to a woman i was simply too shy to make a move. Every sign i picked up i simply dismissed in my mind as fantasy. That was the case the night i met Adriana. She is the person who didn't just break me out of my shell, she shattered it. This is part of the weekend that it happened. We met through a mutual friend who was hoping to help Adriana have some fun that night. Our friend made plans of her own as to leave us the house to ourselves. So I now found myself left alone with a perfect stranger. As i sat admiring her 5'8" 125lb. frame i couldn't help but wonder if she was as attracted to me as i found myself to her. She wore a form fitting t-shirt highlighting her perky breasts. At this point, i had guessed them to be a possible 32 b cup. After helping

$mr Lickable,get Down$
I cant send any message, for some reason it wont let me. Trust I know that, I come to have fun. Yes, yes I get down, How ever you want it, I say lets go have a drink . I'm here to have fun lets have fun together. Lets kick it!!

Isabella
You say you've turned it offHid your heart up on a shelfScared of what it might costTo take it off for someone else'Cause lovin her you lostToo much of yourselfBaby can't you see that she's not me and... I need you to know you can fall into meThat my arms are wide openAnd will always beRight here waiting, staying strongCome and fall into meI'll follow any road anywhere to get to youI'll open up my soulIf that's what you need me to doBut now baby it's your moveAll you've got to doIs believe in love, just believe in us now... I need you to know you can fall into meThat my arms are wide openAnd will always beRight here waiting, staying strongCome and fall into meJust believe in loveJust believe in usBaby... I need you to know you can fall into meThat my arms are wide openAnd will always beRight here waiting, staying strongCome and fall into meCome and fall into meBaby fall into me The Way I Love U lyricsEverything's cool, yeahIt's all gonna be okay, yeahAnd I know, Maybe I'll leave andLau

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Wayward Poet
Fly AWAY! Far AWAY! You only survive so many times until. You fly away, far away. You trip and hit the ground. Took a wrong turn at a cloud. NOW NO ONE is AROUND. Silent sighs and naked noise. A room full of arrogant boys; The life you lead is not your own. You're the life-size model of a half-size clone. 030499kmp The wind is my lover; he comes to me at night.

Sissy Made For Me
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Life
Now I remember why i married him... im still alittle irritated but i feel better... Mem helped just by listening.. but the blog is cool too hehe I dont know how he knew some of the stuff in my head but he did....and Im still happy we got married! WOW this sucks now i have 2 dryers cause we thought one went out and it turns out to be the wiring.... gee didnt i say that when i was told about the breaker gggrrrrr i give up maybe some day people will listen when i say something but somehow i dont think so..... i give up and im done.... shoot me it would hurt less

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Let Me Be Myself
3 hrs, 00 min I guess i just got lost being someone else, I tried to kill the pain But nothing ever helped I left myself behind Somewhere along the way Hoping to come back around and find myself some day Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you To say that it's OK, tell me please Would you one time, Let Me Be Myself So i can shine, with my own light Let Me Be Myself Would you Let Me Be Myself Coz I'll never find my heart Behind someone else I'll never see the light of day Living in this cell It's time to make my way Into the world i knew And take back all of these times That I gave in to you Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you To say that it's OK, tell me please Would you one time, Let Me Be Myself So i can shine, with my own light Let Me Be Myself, For a while If you don't mind, Let Me Be Myself So i can shine, with my own light Let Me Be Myself That's all i ever wanted from this world Was to let me be me.. Please, would you one time, Let Me Be Myself So i can s

Sigh
Well all it is that time again. After going to the hospital last night I now know that in the next month I wil be going back under the knife to have a pacemaker put in. FOr those of you who have stood my me thank you all so much I love you all

Hit Me Up
to make it easier on myself and to see who rly cares and wants to talk to me,im gonna post my number in a blog,therefore whenever i say to txt my cell u can find my number and i aint gotta tell u...be warned tho,if u aint my friend on here or ur some old perv i have no problem tellin u to fuck off and lose my number.with that said heres my number 215.429.3146 and yes i receive pic messages and when my fone works i can send them as well

Already Gone
Remember all the things we wanted Now all our memories, they're haunted We were always meant to say goodbye Even without fists held high, yeah Never would have worked out right, yeah We were never meant for do or die I didn't want us to burn out I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop Looking at you makes it harder But I know that you'll find another That doesn't always make you wanna cry Started with a perfect kiss Then we could feel the poison set in Perfect couldn't keep this love alive You know that I love you so I love you enough to let you go I'm already gone I'm already gone You can't make it feel right When you know that it's wrong I'm already gone Already gone There's no moving on So I'm already gone Remember all the things we wanted Now all our memories, they're haunted We were always meant to say goodbye I want you to know That it doesn't matter Where we take this road Someone's gotta go And I want you to know You couldn't have loved me better But I want you

Angel And Dj Calendars!
I'm making a 2010 Exotic Angel calendar and Dolly's making a 2010 Exotic DJ one. Reply to this blog if you want to be featured in either and let me know which one you are, a DJ or an Angel. Submissions will end on Oct 31 at midnight so let me know here ASAP. DON'T MISS OUT!

Fubar's Wtf...
The whole idea behind fubar in my opinoin is to have a place for ADULTS to go hang out. The keyword of course is ADULTS. The sad part is I find more and more too many on here are FAKE, TROUBLE MAKERS, or SIMPLY MENTALLY ILL. I mean you must be MENTALLY ILL to assume you can create a fake profile and attempt to STALK and RUIN someone's life online. What people forget when they do this is... in most cases the person they are attacking is real, has feelings, and isn't here to hurt anyone. And yet they put more effort into being someone they aren't to decive and hurt others than they spend just being themselves. How sad their miserable, pathetic life must be to stoop to that level. What they don't realize is it will come back to bite them in the ass. Eventually someone will find them and call them out. Then what the fake can only BLOCK the one who catches them or they delete their account and start again. Also think of what happens to the REAL person they are stealing pics and identity

The Ingenious Mind Of Fester P
i wish i could see your faces from inside these casket walls, and be there with an empty ocean to cetch all of your tears that fall. i would tell you that its much too late, yea you missed my

Unconditional
I've spent my whole life surroundedand I've spent my whole life aloneI wonder why I never wonder whyThe easiest things are so hardI just want, I just want loveI just want, I just want loveI just want, I just want loveI just want somethingSomething for nothingSomething, something for nothing I'm a beggar and I'm a chooserI'm accused, I'm an accuserBut nothing's unconditional I hold the whole world accusedI've only got myself to blameI wonder why, I never wonder whyThe easiest things are so hard I just want, I just want loveI just want, I just want loveI just want, I just want loveI just want somethingSomething for nothingSomething, something for nothing I just want, I just want loveI just want, I just want loveI just want, I just want loveI just want somethingSomething for nothingSomething, something for nothing I'm a beggar and I'm a chooserI'm accused, I'm an accuserBut nothing's unconditional

Blog
TITTY DO!!! wat the hell is wrong wit me i actually lost intrest in almost everything i do now so i guess i should find other ways to keep me sanity i i just lost interest in writing in this blog thingy this mite be the last one i do

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I Want My Son To Burn These Words Into His Soul...
"serv asat serv asat serv asat to exterminate the plague soiling my brain i put the pen to the pad until the madness drains cuz words are colossal aggressive not docile infectious like a brothel no need to get hostile calling all apostles united we stand they bleeding out they nostrils i'm wicked with hands throwing vicious combinations witness devastation i just fucked your soul annihilation!!! feel the sensation tickle & grow spreading over your mind & taking control a noble savage on a rampage war is all that i know feeding hungry heads defeating all your heros art saves make the pain a weapon you can use art saves make the pai

Ive Been Away
I want to see your face and hold you tightly to my chest,the one thought racing in my mind is that your better than the rest,you are unique, you make me smile, and i hope i return the favor,the momments I'd hoped to share with you are something i wish to savour,It may be selfish to go away and to need my time alone,but there are things about my life that hurt me deep down to the bone,I have a hard time dealing with issues when theyre so out of my control,and like others I do shut down when my mind becomes too full,I dont want you thinking il on the fact that im away,my feelings havent changed nor have the words i chose to say,I only ask that if im distant please dont think its you,cause the simple fact remains that im in love with you.

Blue Roses
wind blowsthe air flowslight happans if u golove will followyou will seeits hard to really leavelife blossoms in this placeyou will find a better escapelove will grow when you breathethat gurl will love you unconditionalygive it timeit will beyou will find what you needwhen you find her let her goif she loves you she will knowif its true she will seeshe will come bacc so let it beit will be done this i knowif not then let it go blue roses of my love bleed rite thru,loving to find someone newhoping and wishing he came true,but all i see is pain from you,stukk on the past i cant grasp,trying to hold on but im not that strong,trying to find a better kind,waiting to see what i need,looking for u to come true,grasping it tighter i found my way looking for love not just pain

The One
In the end I’ll annoy you, piss you off, say stupid shit and then take it back, but put that all aside and you will never find a girl that loves you as much as I do……….. I want to be the oneYou see in your dreams,The one that won’t make everythingRip open at the seams.I want to be the oneThat makes you happy inside,The one you run toWhen the world makes you wanna hide.I want to be the first one you look forWhen you walk in a crowd,The one you missWhen Im not around.I want to be the oneYou show off to your friends,The one you won’t,m9.8nu9 leave standing aloneWith no one to cry to in the end.I want to be the oneWho picks you up when you fall,The one you want to talk to,The first one you’ll call.I want to be the one you look atAnd says she’s the one

People Are Wusses
Lets break something down. Why are people scared to death of... people? I don't get it. Whether it be presenting a speech in front of an audience, saying "hi" to a member of the opposite sex, or even asking your boss for a raise? The answer is.... uhhh.... I don't know? There is no legit reason. Peeps need to "get it." Its really not tricky to do anything. Its not a scientific formula to talk.

Fuck You!!!!
That's right. I said it. Fuck You!! I feel better now than I've ever felt before. It's called living a life without rules. Without the stress, without the need to make everyone happy. Putting ME first before everyone! How do I say it plain? Pleasing peeps was my main goal... at once upon a time.

Stupid Idiots Worry...
It seems that in today's age, the majority of people in our realm of existence tend to worry on a daily basis about Bull. Why?I'm going to give you guys the benefits of worrying right now!****....uhmmm........******mmm.......******That's about it.SO QUIT IT!You guys waste too much time, effort, money, not to mention health too on your worry factor. Yeah. Get this. If you worry, whats it going to do about the problem? NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. This is why the book, "The Secret" is BULLSHIT. Think this and you'll be that way... OK, so if I think I'm skinny and eat 10 candy bars a day, cook my burgers and fries in lard, and eat a gallon of ice cream on a daily basis, I'm going to be super skinny! WRONG. Instead of "thinking" yourself to get somewhere... "Do" something to get somewhere. "Doing" has a lot more power than "Thinking".On to worrying... Worrying cannot change what has already happened, so it can't change the past. Worrying also cannot do anything for your future EXCEPT

Why Cant I
why cant i leave an update or say anymore then i am online? this as been going on for over two weeks and it is pissing me off. I am so mad about it that i am thinking when my vip is up i am leaving the site. And I am also getting no drinking at all either.

The True American Biker
they say were bad men and that we are the scum that rots the country and now there trying to call an american biker a domestic terrorest! well first of let start by telling you the in all the world in any country you will not find a more paitriotic person than the american biker we love our country and respect the wars and pain this great nation has gone through but the truth be told the true american biker , what ever his legak status may be will lay down his life for this country to defend the honor and to guard aganst its enemies i call apon all bikers to band together in defence of this country because its being taken over from the inside the new shit head in the whitehouse is going to make us all wear dipers on our heads and prase ala well i got some news fro you the only 2 diferences between a terrorist and a baby is a baby is sweet AND SMART ENOUGH TO WEAR A DIPER ON HIS ASS NOT HIS HEAD they kill our women and children , oh? didnt know that?? in oklahoma there was a daycare in

Misc.
Sunday December 6th is my birthday . Can you help me celebrate it by helping me reach disciple ? That is my goal for my birthday . Well that and 1000 friends . But the level would be great !! Thank you for reading this .

True Love (i Did Not Write This, Matt Did)
I didnt wrte this Matt did,I just wanted to post it cuz i like it and i honestly dont think i have ever been in love,But i know ppl have been in love with me Anyway he gets the credit for this blog not me

The Mind Of A Mad Doctor
This song was the themesong for one episode of "Moral orel" on Adult Swim. I enjoyed it from the first listen, but I had to actually hear it a few times to realise the deeper meaning of this song. It is the ultimate "F*@% YOU" song. This song is the perfect explanation for that relationship you can't stand, but cant escape either. Here are the lyrics. Enjoy.

My Poem Section
WOULD YOU If you seen me walking hopeless Would you, stop so your eyes can focus Would you, wonder whats your name Would you, walk with me in the rain Would you, for the friendship you gain Would you, ask what has made you cry Would you, pass me and ponder why Would you, join me hand in hand Would you, journey with me across the land Would you, walk along the sea in the sand Would you , wonder if i was the one would could you bring back my sun The One

In Love
Ok check this out im going to be alone this thanksgiving and x-mas again i mean 4 real i had a girl that i though loved me as much as i still love her and i cant beleve that im such a fukin goob i just dont know what to do im so lonly and iv been so lonly 4 so long i ust cant seem to let her go i know that she has let me go and she tells me that she still wants us to talk but yet she makes no efort some 1 tell me what i should do and where im living is complet hell and my hole life is fuked up and i was so looking forward to starting a life with her she knows how much i care about her i was gonna give up every thing 4 her EVERY THING im just about to loose my mind so hoo ever reads this plzz help me with a comment

Blah Blah Blah
SOMETIME WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WE NEED, SOME WORK VERY HARD TO GET AND NEVER GET IT. THE ONE DON'T DO GET IT. SOMETIME I WONDER WHY IS THAT. HALF TIME WE NEED OT STEP BACK AND THINK WHAT WE ARE DOING WITH THIS LIFE AND WORLD,ARE WE DOING RIGHT THING FOR KIDS FUTURE OR WE MESS THING UP FOR THEM

Something Else
Who am I?Seems to be the question of the day.I'm the guy who taught your momma how to sway.To swing those hips,and shake her thang.I'm the guy who walks with his head held high,and that will never change.I hope you understand,i am nothing more than a man,that has changed more in his life than most ever have.I grew up rough,lived in the streets that were tough.Battled my way back from hell,look at me now man,im doin well,i'm alive at 39,supposed to be dead so long ago,the devil couldn't hold cause my spirit was to strong. Alot of hardships came way,but i broke through the barracades,all the obstacles that came before me,i just brushed them away.Call me names,go ahead,act less than your age,be a fool,i'll let the beast out of the cage.Ready to rumble?,man i dont think you are,tussel with me dog,and you'll leave with more than just a few scars.I'm the madman,originator of pain,violence is the my nature,of my own accord.You don't really know me,so don't claim that you do.Keep talking tras

Fuck
I don't understand how people can say they love you but don't really mean it. I also don't understand how someone can say they care but have a hard way of showing it. Its just very very fucked up! Im not pointing any fingers at anyone but its still very fucked up the way people treat one another especially when they love that person. I thought we were friends and I was hoping to have a future with this person but its kinda hard when i only hear from them every two weeks or so. So screw everyone I don't need anyone to make me happy!!

Nsfw
The warm light streamed down around her as the emerald blades tickled at her bare feet. She glanced about the quiet meadow and giggled, the sound of brush being disturbed behind her set legs in motion. She ran forward, her path weaving through the grass as it played against her bare thighs and the soft autumn breeze caressed her supple form. She had long since discarded what clothing she had been wearing when first arriving at the location, and although she was not quite sure where she was, she was sure she did not care. Hands clawed at the ground, her speed building as she raced towards the meandering brook that languidly made its way across the meadow, laughing in its own knowledgable way.Pausing at the stream she dipped close to it, full lips pressing to its crystal surface to drink softly of the brisk liquid before curling up on a sun warmed boulder. Ears twitched amidst cinnamon strands as amber gaze wandered about the meadow, she listened to the meadow lark complaining noisily fr

Articles Found
Mom Opens "Haunted House" in Home Where Kids Died in Fire KTLA News 5:04 PM PDT, October 26, 2009 The "haunted house" at 1460 North Lilac Avenue seen from outside. (KTLA-TV / October 23, 2009) Related links Mario and David Sisneros Photo

Me Without You
Me without you is like...A pot head who's not highA plane that doesn't flyA suicidal that doesnt dieA fat man with no boobsA condom with no lubeA starcraft with no noobsA hooker with no luckA hoe that doesn't suckA slut that doesn't f***A shoe with no lacesA nerd without bracesAsentencewitoutspacesA gay guy without styleS**t without a pileA phone without a dialA desk without a seatSocks without feetA heart missing its beat

Now This Is Fucked Up
Apparently a known terrorist has now declared the suspected Ft Hood shooter a hero. Please do not let this war spill on to our lands again. America has bled enough. We have lost over 5,000 American lives some old some young to this movement. We have fought. we have not faltered, we have not tired and we have not failed. I supported President Bush when he sent us, and I still support that decision today. Those of you who do not support us don't really know the truth or see the bigger picture. enough for now im getting pissed with the communist news network (CNN) According to dept of state, America is the number one country for sex slave trading. This leads me to tell everyone in America, GO BUY A GUN. Protect your own. If you are a member of this growing trend how bout this...go fuck yourself and leave innocent ppl to fuck as they please.

You Could Have Heard A Pin Drop
Robert Whiting, an elderly gentleman of 83, arrived in Paris by plane. At French Customs, he took a few minutes to locate his passport in his carry on. "You have been to France before, monsieur?" the customs officer asked

Why
I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I seePainted faces fill the places I can't reachYou know that I could use somebodyYou know that I could use somebodySomeone like you and all you know and how you speakCountless lovers under cover of the streetYou know that I could use somebodyYou know that I could use somebodySomeone like youOff in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleepWaging wars to shake the poet and the beatI hope it's gonna make you noticeI hope it's gonna make you noticeSomeone like me, someone like meSomeone like me, somebodyI'm ready now, I'm ready nowI'm ready now, I'm ready nowI'm ready now, I'm ready nowI'm ready nowSomeone like you, somebodySomeone like you, somebodySomeone like you, somebodyI've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see I NEVER COULD UNDERSTAND WHY WHEN THE RELATIONSHIP IS OVER WOMEN OR EVEN MEN BECOME SO VINDICTIVE, WHEN THE FACT OF THE MATTER IS EITHER PARTIES HAVE MOVED ON TO OTHER SPOUSES AND THE VINDICTIVE PERSON W

In The Darkness Of The Void
Here I stand, alone. Forsaken.Nothing around to see, No one to turn to.Pitch black is all my straining eye can make out.Will it end? Will it go?Following the footsteps of the past, leading to the same result.Repeating the horrendous nightmare over and over again.Gaining hope and losing it quicker than the shot of a silver bullet.Silence and deadliness is everything. Get used to it.I keep following a false light I see in my head.It always ends up back where I started.I might as well sit here and stay.No use running aimlessly anymore.Too much hatred out there anyway.Full of death and spite.Sick of fabrications and deceptions.If you want something done f*cked up, leave it to a Human.So here I am, here I stay.Out of everybody's miserable ways.Stay away! Stay gone!And let me Rest In Peace. Before I begin... If the title offends you... suck it up. The truth hurts. Get used to it. If it wasn't true about YOU, it wouldn't effect YOU. People are idiots. Period. They believe anything! Everyt

Surrendered Death
Tortured FleshBeat Down BodyBruised and BrokenBleeding, Torn HeartRunning to HideNothing is StationaryEvery Step of Mine is Two of TheirsI am FallingMust keep GoingEndless MazeAround in CirclesMy Ending is My StartJust Give InCan't Go FurtherLay Down, Make It EasyAnd Death Takes Me In

How Government Spending Hurts National Security
America is one of the strongest, wealthiest and freest nations onearth; she is largely in control of her own fate. Therefore, any realthreat against America will likely come from within. Today, one of themain internal threats is crushing government debt. Few things can march a great power down the road of decline fasterthan irresponsible economic policies. Current estimatesof our national debt exceed $7 trillion -- $22,000 per person -- afigure likely to increase by $9 trillion over the next decade. Unlike in times past when the nation was saddled with exorbitantdeficits, today's imbalance is long-term and will heavily burdenfuture generations. And this financial shortfall will wreak havoc onour national security. That's because the more money we commit toever-expanding big-government programs, the less we have for defense.The U.S. military might be unable to protect a sea lane vital to tradeand military supply lines. We might be unable to suppress an enemyregime that launches a terro

The Random Thoughts Of A Madman
The Mad Hatter, Asmodeus, Big Poppa...All these things i have been called, But never any less, Nor ironiclly any more. There ofcourse, Are people within my life, That mean very much to me. My Love, My brother, and several more, But I am an agent of Chaos, Thus This shall be a venture, within the mind, Of a truely and faithfully, MadMan. Have you taken the brief moment today, to view the magic taking place all around you, or have you passed it by, ignorant as ever. Have you taken the time, To thank, Your children, Husbands and wives, fathers and mothers, For being with you all this time, Faithfully, and completly? Have you taken notice, of the magic, of life? There are things within this realm of existance, people take for granted, to be there, day after day. Never Questioning why it is the way it is. Instances such as not taking a few moments of the day,

Poetry
Gotta love being A.D.H.D!!! laying in bed staring at the ciling while your brain holds u hostage... things u thought were behind u, Come flooding back n ur doing everything in your power to keep from screaming ur head off and having the neighbers call the cops!!! I've already been in one mental asylum I don't need to go back at this time... even tho it was the best vacation I ever had!!! I just can't shake the feeling something is missing!?!?!? Something I am searching for... But then I tell myself it's nothing... No Need to worry myself... But yet it's eatting away at me like... A beaver eats wood!!! My mind won't let it go away... I wanna run my head into a brick wall!!! IDK what to do right now. I am slipping back into the slow and menicing madness!!! Maybe I can just sit here and drool on myself while I slip away!

Politics & Philosophy
" I shall do so," he said, " with your help." " Do you then believe that dialectic is to be set as the coping-stone on top of our educational structure, and that we can rightly place no other science higher than this, but that our system of the sciences is now complete ? " " Indeed I do." XV. "Well then," I proceeded, "it only remains for you to determine the principle of distribution, to whom we shall assign these studies, and in what way we shall apportion them." "That is clear," he replied. " Do you remember what kind of men we selected when we were first choosing rulers ? " " Certainly I remember." " I would have you then further grant that men of the character we mentioned must be chosen, that we should prefer the staunchest, the bravest, and, as far as possible, the fairest. And, more than this, we must not only require them to be endowed with a noble and steadfast nature, but also to possess traits which are suitable to the education which we intend to give them." " What

The Dark Abyss
COME CHECK OUT THE DARK ABYSS WE ARE HIRING DJS,PROMOTERS,GREETERS,AND ENFORCERS. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO WORK FOR A LOUNGE THEN JUST COME IN AND RELAX IN A NO DRAMA ENVIRONMENT.WE PLAY ALL KINDS OF MUSIC SO COME ON IN AND LISTEN. WE ARE ALWAYS ACCEPTING REQUESTS FOR SONGS AS WELL.

My Life In A Nut Shell
well my sister in-law Brittany went in a like a week or so ago went in for a pet scan done(that were they see how the cancer is looking) and well they got the results back and they could not find any of the Hodgkin's lymphoma!!!!!!

Personal Gripe...
I have come to terms about the loss of my children n my failed marrage. that should be the end right there, Right? well thats not true. I have found more to me. I can't stand the thought of me being happy... Its just disturbing to me at all levels. If I let my guard down I might get stepped on again. 2 lovers and many ex friends later, I just can't stand the thought of getting close to another.Yeah people might argue that thats not the way to go. But in this past year all I have learned from people is that everyone has a price and they want more. I ended up being homeless again cuz of that crap. Then my moms house started on fire and she had to basically work as a slave for a man she thought was her friend. I just can't seem to let my guard down to anyone. I am just to jaded... I am in the middle of a Great Big FUCKING Family Feud!!! Since my special needs cousin left his dad and he told us about it... Now My older brother has taken my fathers family side... and he isn't even blood

What Real Soldiers Do.
Pfc. Jeffrey Pearsall, 21, from Houston, was waiting outside in the parking lot for Smith. He was talking to his brother on a cell phone when a group of soldiers ran out the door and a window shatteredIt was only then that he heard the gunshots.He pulled his pickup truck forward, then hopped out and helped the wounded into the bed. He loaded as many as he could and sped off to the base hospital. Pfc. Amber Bahr, 19, of Random Lake, Wis., tore up her blouse and used it as a tourniquet on a wounded comrade. It was only later that she realized she'd been shot in the back, the bullet exiting her abdomen.

Rickies74
Please don't cry for me though I 'm goneFor in heaven I have made my home.I know you'll miss me through the yearsBut, remember, in heaven there are no tears!Up here in glory I've taken my placeNear the Father where I can view his face.I'll only be gone for a short little whileUntil I greet you in heaven with a smile.I'll be waiting there with arms open wideTo open the gate and invite you inside.We'll sit down at the Marriage Supper of the LambUnited with Christ and all of his clan.We'll drink from the last communion cupAs death and hell are swallowed up.Then we'll drink a toast from the 'living wine'While seated at the table where we shall dine.The angel, Gabriel will blow his Gold Horn As comfort is given for those who mourned.We'll be surrounded by many angel wingsWhile seated with our Lord and our King.He'll read to us from the Lambs book of lifeThe names written in it, His church, His bride.We'll be with all our sisters and our brothersWhile seated there at the last supper.My grave

Ramblings Of An Idiot
Well, technically it's not mine. But there's no way in hell I'm letting my daughter actually drive this thing when she gets her license. She turns 16 next week. It was given to her by her grandfather. '78 MG Midget. So I decided to actuallt go tot this thing and am drunk off my ass so fuck off about anytypoes, etc. I arrived like an hour after it started in hopes that lots of people were there, and there were. Upon my arrival I was given some dude Bobs's nametake instead of Jeff. good start i figured :) So anyway, name tags straighed out I walk in. So first group of people I see is a dude I knew bob, I walk over, shake his handm and he basically is like, 'who the fuck are you'. So I wander off and am thjinking good start. So I start to walk across the room and suddlently my name is broadcast to everyone. I look up and the DJ happens to be a good friend of mine form school. Hurray, I'm saved I think, Mark is a cool ass dude. So basically me and him spend othe res

The Rules On How To Talk To A Dj!!! (a Must Read, You Know Who You Are!!!)
The Rules On How To Talk To A DJ!!! (A Must Read, You Know Who You Are!!!) Category: Music HOW TO TALK TO A D.J. If you're going to talk to the club D.J., DON'T SAY... 1. "Play something good... something we can dance to!" The D.J. has to play for more than one person, so what you may hate may be another's favorite song and everything played here can be danced to one way or another. 2. "Would you play something with a beat?" Don't be an idiot. We know of no songs played in a club that don't have some sort of a beat. 3. "I don't know who sings it and I don't know the name of the song, but it goes like this... la dee-dah-dee!" Please, don't sing for the D.J. They have to put up with smoke-filled rooms and dangerous decebal levels all night. Do them a favor and don't give them a rendition of your favorite song. 4. "Everybody wants to hear it!" Oh sure, you polled everyone in the club and, as their spokesperson, you are requesting the song. Also, do not make a request, then send all

Falling In Love
It's hard for me to say this, It's hard to put into words. The way I feel about you, Cuz I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm afraid that I'm falling for you, My heart has hit the floor. I hate to be without you, It makes me want you more. I love it when you hold me, And look into my eyes. I love to feel your body, When it's pressed against mine. I love to wake up next to you, All curled up in your arms. Where I know you'll keep me safe, From any kind of harm. Every time I'm with you, There's a constant smile on my face. The piece missing from my heart, You have somehow replaced. I want to tell you, How I really feel. But I find it hard to admit, That this is all so real. You know that I care about you, But you don't know how much. I find myself falling in love, With someone I feel I can trust. I don't want to scare you away, I just wanted you to know. The way I feel about you, As it continues to grow. Once again I am risking my heart, In hopes that you feel the same. But if you don

1111 Remembrance Day
11\11 REMEMBANCE DAY A DAY TO REMEMBER ALL THE DIGGERS AND SOLDIERS THAT HAVE FOUGHT AND GIVEN THERE LIFE TO KEEP US FREE my eyes well up and tears run down my face as i think of the very brave men and women that fight to keep us free not just in Australia but all over the world i dont think i could everunderstand the fear they must feel and nore do i ever want to but they do it anyway and all i can say to them is thank you and god bless you lest we forget i miss you dad

Songs That I Like
As He Came Into The WindowIt Was The Sound Of A CrescendoHe Came Into Her ApartmentHe Left The Bloodstains On The CarpetShe Ran Underneath The TableHe Could See She Was UnableSo She Ran Into The BedroomShe Was Struck Down, It Was Her Doom Annie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK, AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK, AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK, AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OK,Are You OK, Annie (Annie Are You OK)(Will You Tell Us That You're OK)(There's A Sign In The Window)(That He Struck You-A Crescendo Annie)(He Came Into Your Apartment)(He Left The Bloodstains On The Carpet)(Then You Ran Into The Bedroom)(You Were Struck Down)(It Was Your Doom) Annie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK AnnieYou've Been Hit ByYou've Been hit ByA Smooth Criminal So They Came Into The OutwayIt Was Sunday-What A Black DayMouth To Mouth R

Confusion
Burn me [Not like you should] Hurt me [It won’t do any good] Kill me [A favor to the world] Slay me [In my bed I lay curled] Fight me [No worse than I have done] Fuck me [You can have all the fun] Offend me [Go on push me away] Ignore me [Until the next day] Abuse me [When I pull the last stunt] Find me [No longer will they hunt] Unveil me [For I will show them the true me] Cut me [Show them how I can no longer bleed] Feel me [I can no longer feel pain] Shoot me [My eyes no longer rain] Hate me [You can hate me all you need] Lose me [For I hate myself more than you could ever hate me] Forget me… Suicide Don't give a fuck about this My life or any other Just go away and let me hang Impossible to forgive, forget it, murderer I'm in control Living a lie Make you pay at all cost for this Love sick Bullshit Bring it Decisions making themselves I don't need you Thorns in my side So I die No one No one could ever understand My life's exhausted

This Is What We Go Thru On A Daily Basis....and Freedom Is A Price To Pay
You stay up for 16hrs. We stay up for days on end. You take a warm shower to wake up. We go for weeks without running water. You complain of a "HEADACHE" and call in sick. We get shot at, as others are hit and others are moving forward. You talk bout your buddies that are not with you. We know we may never see any of ours ever again. You complain about how hot it is. We wear our heavy gear, not daring to talk off our helmet to wipe our forehead. You get mad at the waiter for getting your order wrong. We don't get to eat today. You're mad that your class got held 5 mins. over. We're over an extra 2 months. You roll your eyes when your baby cries. He gets a letter with pictures of his new baby and wonders if they'll ever meet. If your supporting your troops your freedom comes with a price WRITTEN BY M DAVID

Change Me
Change MeYou can't accept me for who i am I try so hard to get you to understand I don't know if can take this pain anymore cuz myhearts been torn what did i do to be treated this way you keep beating me down but i still ask you to stay and i know thatThat i want to be myself but you want me to be someone else[Chorus]It's just the same thing how you try to change me (change me) so tell me what you want from me why can't you let me be.I just can't go on takeing all this abuse No matter what i do it's never enough for you and I know that im disgusted by theway you think of me. You make me do things that i don't want to do and you don't give a damn about what you put me through.And i know You need to face the truth that im not like you[Chorus x2]Im gonna do what i wanna do you not what you tell me to you say your looking out for me well thats a sad excuse Drop theatitude because in the better news Keep playing with me see what i do what do you get out of messin with me because im justtryi

Mannequin
MannequinPlayed I've been fuckin played I've been fuckin played I've been fuckin playedChanged yeah you haven't changed yeah you're still the same you haven't fucking changedQuit comin around like you act hard.You sick bitch, Oh my GOD!I know he's comin for youI feel this it's way in my mindI find I can't hideYou fuckin bitch! Just get away from meAnd you know everything'll be OKOh, I feel bitter inside knowing that I just cannot get awayFrom this pain that you're causing meI could never love someone who's so fakeWe do it just like thisYou say you know all about meYou know the inside of my worldThen why the fuck do I feel so cold[Chorus]We do it just like thisYou say you know all about meYou know the inside of my worldThen why the fuck do I feel so coldI see right through your plastic face.Which I love to degradeI know he's cummin on youI can't wait until you fuckin bleed again and again yeah you fuckin bitch.Just get away from me.And you know everything'll be OK.Oh, I feel bitter insi

Panic
PanicI've got this locked in my head.You want to see me dead.You'd rather push me aside.Than deal with my sickness inside.You all hope that I'll fade awayFuck you cuz I'm never going away.There's some one out to get me.They wanna watch me bleedShow me what you got!You need to open your eyes.Realize that I've got a twenty-fiveIt's self-defense if I pull this triggerAnd someone dies.Now I'm not talkin shitI just want you to realize thisI give a fuck less now than I ever didAnd it's you that's getting lit.Show me what you got!I can do this on my own.I don't need directions leave me alone!Make it hot make it hot make it hotWho's' rockin this spot?Everybody in this bitchC'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon c'monShow me what you got!

Rot
RotI got this locked inside my wicked headYou fuck with me you just might end up deadThere's something beautiful and crazy inside yourselfBut you still run and hideWhat's inside of my mindFuckin with me so I can't hideThere's something beautiful and crazy inside yourselfBut you still run and hideNow I know there's no where to goBut you feel that nothing is so beautifulUntil you put me six feet deepYou gotta let them know that we don't take shit.Show these motherfuckers who the fuck they're dealing with.You think it's beautiful you're trying to ruin yourself.I will not run and hide.Try and try to take what's mine.Come and get it I'll be ready this time.You think it's beautiful you're trying to ruin yourself.I will not run and hide.[Chorus]What you feelIt's inside of meNow you knowWhat's inside of meBut you feelIt's inside of meI kill my enemies I put em six feet deepNow you knowWhat's inside of meBut you feelIt's inside of meNow you knowWhat's inside of meI kill my enemies I put em six

125
125Go Ahead!I'm going out of my mind one step at a time.I can't seem to find a way to get up out of the grind.And it's pulling me down like a ton of bricks.Fuck these tricks they bring me down till I can't be fixed.Get kicks out of the shit that I'm dealing with.Making me sick to the sick way you see fit.What's this I'm pissed you get what you're gonna get.So fuck it. bring it onDo what you will do what you willI'm sick of this bullshit that I'm putting up withDo what you will do what you willI try to get away you're always in my faceDo what you will do what you willI'm sick of this bullshit I'm putting up withDo what you will do what you willI try to get away; you're always in my faceI just can't stand this place.Can't you see this is bad for me?Guess what, I'm going nuts like you wouldn't believe.I just wanna leave but you won't even let me seeIf I can be the type of person to live out my dreams.It seems to me you think selfishlyAll your wants and needsIt's too much for me!I'm breaki

Faceless
Facelesswhy did you terrorizeall those innnocent liveswhat gives you the rightsometime the tables will turnprecious beauty destroyedsituation we cant avoideverybody thats in the nationrepresented for what you believe instand up for yourselfin your eyes its timeopen up our eyesshow em how we feel insideyour gonna get whats comin to youno matter what you say orwhat you dono no you cant runno no you cant hidekiss your life good byewhat makes you thinkthat you can get away with all of thisyou got the whole world pissedfor this your soul will burntwo wrongs dont make it righthalt every rest who diedeverybody thats in the nationrepresented for what you believe instand up for yourselfin your eyes its timeopen up our eyesshow em how we feel insideyour gonna get whats comin to youno matter what you say orwhat you dono no you cant runno no you cant hidekiss your life good byestand up for yourselfin your eyes its timefacelessfacelessfacelessfacelessstand upstand up for yourselfin your eyes its ti

The Way I Was
The Way I Was :When i woke up today and i saw this placei knew there was something wrongi just can't get away from this fucked up pain inside of mewhy?I am going through some changesi don't know what is going onsomething is happening to mesomething is happening to meit's too late to save me from myselfafter all the damage that i've causedi wish there was some way that i could put me back the way i waswhen i woke up todayand i saw your facei knew there was something wrongi just can't get away with all these fucked up things i trytell me why?I am going through these changesi don't know what is going onsomething is happening to mesomething is happening to meit's too late to save me from myselfafter all the damage that i've causedi wish there was some way that i could put me back the way i waswhen i woke up today and i saw this placei knew there was something wrongsomething is happening to mesomething is happening to mesomething is happening to meit's too late to save me from myselfafter a

The Morning After
The Morning After :There's just some things that I can't explain like the reason why I make you feel this way I keep on saying that I am going to change now how could you believe a word I say I wish there was some way to see I never meant to make you cry If I could take back just one thing I swear that I'd take back that night Everything I loved was gone the morning the morning after I wish I never woke up on the morning the morning after And now it's all coming back to me, you say I can't believe you do these things to me And so I guess I gotta face the truth I'm no good for you there's nothing I can do I wish that we could make believe and pretend everything's alright And I would give up everything if I could just take back that night Everything I loved was gone the morning the morning after I wish I never woke up on the morning the morning after Everything I loved was gone the morning the morning after I wish I never woke up on the morning the morning after I wished to I hold you bu

My Horse Is Amazing!
and i was standin off to the side this guy comes up to me and says "sir your gonna have to move, your blocking the fire exit" as if there was a fire, i wasnt gonna run if you are flammable and have legs, you are never blocking a fire exit but then i figured out, thats dangerous because what if the person you wave to doesnt have hands? theyll think your bein cocky like hey look at these mother fucker these things are useful i think im gonna go pick somethin up look at my horse, my horse is amazing. give it a lick. mmm it tastes just like raisins. by the stroke of its mane it turns into a plane, then it turns back again when you tug on its winkie. ooh thats dirty. doo ya think so, well i better not show you where the lemonade is made, sweet lemonade yeah sweet lemonade. sweet lemonade mmm sweet lemonade. get on my horse ill take you round the universe and all the other places too. i think youll find that the universe pretty much covers everything. shut up woman get on my horse h

Hurting.
So, anyone that knows me knows that I'm a pretty positive outgoing person. I'm there for my friends. I'm faithful. I'm dedicated to my education and work. But lately. Hurt is starting to overcome me. It's getting close to the anniversary of my mother's death. So, in essence I'm reliving everyday this month as I did last year. It's hard to get through the days smiling, but I do it. I manage to get up everyday thinking in my mind that I have my family and my man. Yet lately, He says I'm "clingy". It's obvious why, yet I can't seem to make him understand. Will I ever learn how to let go? Am I really clingy? Do I give him enough space? Am I a good girlfriend to him? All these questions burn through my mind and I just think to myself am I just being a fool and am I never going to learn to just let go a little? Am I always going to be afraid that something I love so much is going to dissappear in an instant? Is he always going to think to himself that it's cause I don't trust him, yet it's

We Have Failed To Paint It Black
wait my dear ... no jealousies silly thing ... you can't know how i feel come take my hand i will show you the flame burning secrets, burning wishes ... your name don't be insecure, don't be afraid ... i'll hold you tight oh, virgin weakness, infinite sweetness ... that's you so let's dance all alone i want to kiss you, want to feel you deep your silly skin, a tender touch, a sign that promises so much i want to kiss you, want to feel you deep and so we dance nothing ever spoils my joy of loving you, of looking in your eyes ... i couldn't be that blind that i won't crave for you and still we dance all alone i want to kiss you ... I have of late, but wherefore I know not, lost all my mirth. And indeed it goes so heavily with my disposition... that this goodly frame the earth... seems to me a sterile promontory. It's a most excellent canopy, the air. Look you, this brave, o'er hanging firmament. This majestical roof fretted with golden fire. Why, it appeareth n

1 Millon Fubox For Th 150 Eme Members
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Why The Whole Constitution Matters
The structure of government designed by the Founding Fathers is thetruly unique and powerful feature of the American Constitution, SupremeCourt Justice Antonin Scalia told members of The Heritage Foundation's President'sClub on Monday.Justice Scalia at the November President's Club Meeting TheBill of Rights, often held up as the highest expression of Americanfreedom, would have no meaning without the forms of government defined by therest of the Constitution, he told the nearly 1,000 conservatives packed intoWashington D.C.'s Ronald Reagan Building for the fall President's Club meeting.The Constitution's limits on government power, for example thedivision of legislative power between the House and Senate and the differentmanner of election for the two bodies, ensure the Bill of Rights is more thanjust words. Even the Soviet Union had a robust bill of rights, he argued, but thiswas a mere parchment barrier since the rest of the country's constitutionplaced no limits on the exercise of d

Break Ups
We’ve all been through it, you meet that one person, the one you would never in a million years think would be “ the one “. then it happens, days go by, you feel a spark, weeks go by, you cant get them off your mind, months go by, and your in love. A year passes and you could never imagine even thinking about someone else, they’re all you want. And we’ve all heard the expression, “ nothing last forever” well that moment comes, and your crushed, you find yourself crying, not sleeping, barely eating, not wanting to go out, you cant even hear a slow song without wanting to cry. Its not easy holding the tears back, its almost impossible, what do you do when the one person you know everything about, and when I say everything, I mean everything, you can smell their scent from blocks away, you hear their voice and you don’t think twice that its them, you spot their car from houses away, you learn their life, their schedule, the way they live, th

Hate Ma Life
Hey you caught me in a coma And I don't think I wanna Ever come back to this...world again Kinda like it in a coma 'Cause no one's ever gonna Oh, make me come back to this...world again Now I feel as if I'm floating away I can't feel all the pressure And I like it this way But my body's callin' My body's callin' Won't ya come back to this...world again Suspended deep in a sea of black I've got the light at the end I've got the bones on the mast Well I've gone sailin', I've gone sailin' I could leave so easily While friends are calling back to me I said they're They're leaving it all up to me When all I needed was clarity And someone to tell me What the fuck is going on Goddamn it! Slippin' farther an farther away It's a miracle how long we can stay In a world our minds created In a world that's full of shit Help me Help me Help me Help me Bastard Please understand me I'm climbin' through the wreckage Of all my twisted dreams But this cheap investigation just can't stifle all my

Music That Is Special To Me!
Lately I've been hard to reachI've been too long on my ownEverybody has their private worldWhere they can be aloneAre you calling me?Are you trying to get through?Are you reaching out for me?I'm reaching out for youI'm just so fucking depressedI just can't seem to get out this slumpIf I could just get over this humpBut I need something to pull me out this dumpI took my bruises, took my lumpsFell down and I got right back upBut I need that spark to get psyched back upAnd in order for me to pick the mic back upI don't know how or why or whenI ended up this position I'm inI'm starting to feel dissin' againSo I decided just to pick this penUp and try to make an attempt to ventBut I just can't admitOr come to grips with the fact that I may be done with rapI need a new outletAnd I know some shit's so hard to swallowBut I can't just sit back and wallowIn my own sorrow but I know one factI'll be one tough act to followOne tough act to followI'll be one tough act to followHere today, gone tomor

Perfection
Perfection is found in love and we have found the wayBody heat brings the sweatWe glide together and the world melts awayOur time together has just begun and your pleasure is mineTwo hearts bonded by forces unseenI feel you inside and out as I caress your back and you slide down onto meyour eyes catch mine and we see only each other in

Ecs Baybeeee
Step right up, take a look at us..Look at our photos, Rate or Bust!We're worth a million and bleed Success..You can't f**k with members of ECS!Keep on moving, nothing to see..Continue your lives full of Apathy!We bleed together there is no contest..You just can survive the ECS!The story is over, no particular moral..Just setting things straight, not looking for a quarrel!Live it up, live it all and live for the best..But remember to step aside for ECS!

First Love
For the first time I feltthis true love in my heartit is buried so deepand that I would always keepAll through the darkest nightyou’re the brightest star in my sightalways been at my sideeven in a grisly frightYou clothe me when I shiverwith your ever warm embraceyou’re the moon that lights my waythat makes me feel very happyYou wipe the tears on my cheeksthe tears of joy that I’ve seekand it’s you, my love, my divineThat makes me shine so brightYou’re the sun in my skystaring at me with all your might guiding me with your ever shining light For the first time in my lifeI found my love and my lifewithout you I will cryfor you my love I will die!

For My Friends
A Perfect HeartOne day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen.The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine. " The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges.In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing. The people stared-how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought?The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed

Health Care Hijacked
Increase health care costs; cut Medicare in half; undermine consumer choices and quality of care; and destroy federalism as we know it. These are all the effects that panelists at a recent Heritage Foundation meeting argue the current health care bills will produce if they pass. The speakers at the November 4th Heritage Foundation event, Preserving Freedom and Federalism: What's at Stake for Americans in the Health Care Debate, argued that instead of expanding the power of the federal government in our health care system, we need to implement the principle of federalism: allow the states to regulate health care. As Senator Orrin Hatch (R-UT) proclaimed at the event, "We need regulation when it comes to our health care system; however, we need it at the state level." The speakers at the event all agreed that we need patient-centered policies to reform our health care system. Heritage Fellow James Capretta said, "The current health care bills blame...our current health care problems on

Fu-kn Real : Thoughts Of A Vyksin
The following description is from the official website: http://www.steakandbjday.com/You know the drill. Every 14th of February you get the chance to display your fondness for a significant other by showering her with gifts, flowers, dinner, shows and any other baubles that women find romantic. Every Valentines day you rack your brains for that one special, unique gift that will show your wife or girlfriend that you really do care for them more than any other. Now ladies, I'll let you in on a little secret; guys really don't enjoy this that much. Sure seeing that smile on your face when we get it right is priceless, but that smile is the result of weeks of blood, sweat and consideration. Another secret; guys feel left out. That's right, there's no special holiday for the ladies to show their appreciation for the men in their life. Men as a whole are either too proud or too embarrassed to admit it.Which is why a new holiday has been created.March 14th is now officially "Steak and Blowjo

Profile Songs
One of these days the groundwill drop out from beneathyour feetOne of these days your heartwill stop and play its finalbeat One of these days the clockswill stop and time won'tmean a thingOne of these days their bombswill drop and silenceeverything But it's alrightYet it's alrightI said it's alrightEasy for you to sayYour heart has never beenbroken Your pride has never been stolenNot yet not yetOne of these daysI bet your heart'll be brokenI bet your pride'll be stolen I'll bet I'll bet I'll bet I'll betOne of these daysOne of these daysOne of these days your eyeswill close %3 Lyrics | Anesthesia lyrics A swollen sun melting in the horizon Between the sheets where

Slipped Away
I miss you Miss you so bad I don't forget you Oh it's so sad. I hope you can hear me I remember it clearly. The day you slipped away..... Was the day i found It, won't be the same I didn't get around to kiss you Goodbye on the hand I wish that I could see you again I know that I can't I hope you can hear me Cause I remember it clearly The day you slipped away... Was the day i found It, won't be the same I've had my wake up Won't you wake up I keep asking why. And I can't take it It wasn't fake it It happened you passed by Now you're gone There you go Somewhere I can't bring you back Now you're gone There you go Somewhere you're not coming back The day you slipped away Was the day i found It, won't be the same I miss you.

Alone
Im not the most social person usually unless im with my very few close friends or my other family ("NO REGRETS") and getting to the subject which has to do with Thanksgiving....This year my family planned on going out of town and i was welcomed with open arms by my aunt whose house its being held at and come to find out my dad has told my mom he doesnt want me to go and it seems he doesnt want me around any family when they do things...its like hes holding my injury and lack of work against me and makes me think hes emabarrassed of me which deep down really hurts knowing i already spend 95% of my time alone because of where i live the drama is so high and everyone has to talk shit about everyone including me and the only way i found to deal with it is to not go anywhere and stay home...Im just really confused as why he feels that way and if i were to say anything to him he will fly off the handle and let everyone else have to see it...Im just not sure what to do

Stuff I Find On The Net Like Quotes
He Wished for the Cloths of Heaven "Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark cloths Of night and light and the half-light, I would spread the cloths under your feet: But I, being poor, have only my dreams; I have spread my dreams under your feet, Tread softly because you tread on my dreams..." William Butler Yeats

Marilyn Monroe Quote
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so that the better things can fall together." — Marilyn Monroe

Tater Forced Me....he Has A Death Wish!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1)I really am not a Bitch unless I feel I need to be 2)I love my family to death....Even Tater regardless of him forcing me to do this. 3)I am a skinny girl trapped in a fat girls body, and I really don't like it 4)I am turning 31 in about a month....and hate the fact that I am getting old 5)My son is my life 6)I have no patience for stupidity 7)I work way too much, and play way too little 8) I love the fact that PK drives Tater crazy in my absence 9)Im a big flirt.....but guard my heart...too much sometimes 10) I am totally addicted to Fubar The 5 people that are gonna hate me ar

This Battle
Out of the hospital. So much that i have missed and people who have had no word... im safe. that all i can really say. you dont have to wait.... im sorry For as long as i can remember... i have wanted to do something amazing with my life. I mean, who hasn't right? But, the trouble is, what is that one amazing thing for me? And when will i find it? If i do, how will i know what it is or how to do it? This life is too short...but what can we do to make the most of it? The one thing that i wanted to do was to love and be loved. I often ponder why life is so cruel to those that are not. What is our purpose....what is mine? Dreams of the morrow hath shattered soulPride is Lost. Wings stripped away, the end is nighSuch is... the fate of a monster. Are we just monsters with no pride left in us?On several occaisions, ive lost my pride...but more so, ive lost Love. Love that was the only thing that i wanted. It is the only thing that i want. But who is who to judge what Man can love and can

Surviving My Life
I finally realize i am really getting tired of trying to keep everything workout. Specially when it seems that i'm the only one putting any effort. I have been so understanding of everything but i think it's enough. But how do i let go??? How can i say goodbye if i myself is afraid of being alone. What if the only thing that's making me hold on is the fear of being alone. How do i make myself put away the fear and face the reality that i am holding on to something that is not there anymore. I wish it was as easy as the lyrics of the songs, but it's not. I'd like to be free of my fears give myself the time and attention i've never given myself before. I've always given everything for someone else. How could i make myself let go..... "Letting Go" I think I'm going to take it slow And tell you the things that are on my mind Then you can drop me off at home for the last time I only wanted you to know that I always had the best of intentions Look at what you put me through Anything I w

Wishful Thinking
Have you ever felt that something so impossible to happen is the thing that would make you complete. A dream, a wish something so out of your reach. You knew if only it could come to reality you would be complete. But most of the times dreams are shattered by reality, wishes are broken by the truth.Only if my wishes and dreams could come true just one time, I'd be complete and happy. I could finally found what i've been searching for. But most of my dreams never come true and most of my wish remains just a wish. WISHFUL THINKING Carole King I see you, but you don't see me Like a ghost of the future, hovering dark and dreamy You fade in and out of the mist Do you even exist, except in my wishful thinking I reach for you, but I can't touch you I feel you just beyond a star Do you know how much you are all I ever wanted Is it too much too soon Am I foolishly dreaming Just baying at the moon Playing impossible visions like an elementary tune How I wish that I could realize my heart Bu

Happy Holidays
Did you get any under the tree? I think your balls are hanging too low. Check out Rudolph’s Honker! Santa’s sack is really bulging. So…What’d you get in the sack? Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist. Lift up the skirt so I can get a clean breath. Did you get a piece of the fruitcake? I love licking the end till it’s really sharp and pointy. Polly Pocket really is a kids toy. From here you can’t tell if they’re artificial or real. Can I interest you in some dark meat? To get it to stand up straight, try propping it against the wall.

Seductive Pleasures
1) Any and ALL problems you may have will be presented to the DJ managers first. If it is not handled to your satisfaction, go to upper management. All issues should not be handled in the lounge under any circumstance. We keep ALL DRAMA out of the lounge. 2) No dissing or disrespecting ANYONE in the lounge, PERIOD. This includes criticism of the DJ's music. If you are having an issues with someone, get with your Manager to get help with the situation, We will not tolerate any misconduct in the Lounge. You will be silenced or kicked....staff or not. 3) Only MANAGERS will have the Kick Codes for the encoders, you must find a manager to kick the encoder, this is for security purposes. 4) You must be present and visible in the lounge during the entire time you are on air. I would ask that you ONLY be in our lounge and no other additional lounges when you are on air. When you are not on air, you can hang out in any lounge that you choose, this only applies to when

From The Heart
Laying in silences on my bed, tears streamming down un to my pillow case. I think about my life and how much misery, and sorrow has consumed most of it. I wonder what have I done to deserve so much, torment.

She Walked Out...
she was her name she was her name druggy major was her game she did not want any help she did not ask for any help i tried many times to help her i tried many times to worn her she pushed me away, walked out the door, screaming back echos of her voice remain in my head as she said i chose what i want i do what i want face it i am your mother as thow she walked out the door screaming thows words echos of her voice remain in my head as she screams back no more for now she is dead...

I Tired All Along
you rejected me. you said you didnt want me. but all along your heart was bursting. it wanted to make a bridge over to mine. even though love has to take its time, i knew all along, that you were the one for me, and i for you. you want to come to me, but now its tolate, you never appreciate something untill its gone.

Holiday Season 2009
so most of you start your holiday season with thanksgiving...well not this family...our holdiday season begins the day before on what we call "black wednesday" lol i been delivering newspapers since 2000 and for the last 8 years the day before thanksgiving has been the nightmare from hell!!! lol a paper to every home and business in branch county...18,000 in all...and 1200 of them mine! ugh!!! filled with xmas ads for thanksgiving and the day after (black friday) so this year...all in all it went well...except that i also added a shoppers route to my job list which was another 290 papers that christa and i did on tues nite...and only took 2 hrs which i was very pleasantly surprised about! christa and i go to the office yesterday about 830 or so and were out the door by 11 am which sucked cuz that was an hour later than last year...but the day went well...we had a lot of laughs...picked up Jr after school and he pitched in to deliver when my hands gave out and christa had to finish

Not So Deep Thoughts
The rain falls slow and hollow an almost happy feeling looks me in the eye and runs to hide I could smile but the tears will bleed and the stiches on my heart my tear torn apart by the thought of getting you back vs. the thought of never really having you those dreams i had seemed so tastefully real the cottoncandy dreams coming into play I had your heart you had my we walked alone in a deep dark forest full of secrete emotions we walked the shores of forign worlds we walked the edge of insane we wonderd near and far only to find the love we were looking for was right there in our heart we wonderd to the edge of reason we strolled the walk ways of devine perfection we looked up @ the moon and said I could do better wetouched the sky so fast and then we found what we feared we found doubt we found hesitation we found a false

Waves Of Awareness
Why would anyone limit the resources available to people in need, while at the same time refusing to recognize and compensate valid legitimate traditional forms of medicine and those who provide service? This is because insurance, pharmaceutical companies and hospitals are being run like businesses that intend and whose objective is only to make profit, businesspeople and politicians who make policy only looking at profit and the bottom line, instead of caring about people and making policy looking at public health and well being. We can not allow the AMA to to deny valid legitimate forms of medicine and dictate what treatments people/patients can seek for their ailments and illnesses! “Americans should not be limited by the AMA as to what treatments they can seek for their ailments and illnesses”. —‘Cherokee girl for change’ Traditional medicine is not covered or discussed nearly enough, and must be covered and referred. Please be aware that what is bei

High Five Midget Toes Emotional Rollercoaster
they ride on little pink ponys with sombreros' on their heads yoddleing down the big orange sliderivers flopping down the white walls of the melting sun inhaling as the globe spinsplaying

Six Things We Can Be Thankful For
As we gather this holiday season, we should remember how fortunate we Americans are tolive in a free and just nation.America was founded upon sound conservative principles grounded firmlyin human nature and not in radical idealism. And today, we see thatthese principles, though under attack from the Left, are still verymuch alive. As Heritage Foundation scholar Matthew Spalding explainedin 2003, Thanksgiving maintains the tradition of the American Foundingand affirms that "while we are committed to upholding religiousliberty, we remain one nation under God." So, despite these tough times, conservatives and Americans have muchto be thankful for:1.

Wtf!?!?!?!
If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.Here's 25 random things about me.When you're finished reading, it's your turn to write 25 random things about you, and tag 25 people to find out more about them.1. I'm addicted to LipSmackers2. My favorite color is pink3. I'm a pop culture junkie4. I would rather have people come to my house than go to theirs5. I won't cook unless I have someone else to cook for6. I grind my teeth way too much7. I hate my nose8. I miss high school9. When I was a kid I wanted to be a lawyer10. When I was a teenager I wanted to be an interior designer or fashion designer11. I love console video games12. I love the CW13. I don't brush my hair14. I don't drink beer15. I don't have a favorite food16. I'm legally blind without my glasses17. I HATE Dr. Phil18. Nothing makes me happier than seeing my kids smile19. I love the Twilight Saga20. I hate the house I live in21. I can easily wash and dry the laundry, but I have a really hard time sorting it a

Lost Soul
i dont care how big or strong you are, or what you seen an done in this life. its nothing whit out love or family even if it messed up .your only hope is what you show an pass on, ppl may come go but only your foot prints are left be hind an memories left so they may lean some thing about who you are or was an i hope they lean from it. an better there self....

Christmas
10 Things that Sound Dirty at Christmas... 10. Did you get any under the tree? 9. I think your balls are hanging too low. 8. Check out Rudolph’s Honker! 7. Santa’s sack is really bulging. 6. Lift up the skirt so I can get a clean breath. 5. Did you get a piece of the fruitcake? 4. I love licking the end till it’s really sharp and pointy. 3. From here you can’t tell if they’re artificial or real. 2. Can I interest you in some dark meat? 1. To get it to stand up straight, try propping it against the wall. THE TOP 15 *OTHER* SIGNS SANTA CLAUSE IS ACTUALLY A WOMAN: 15. Santa *remembers* it’s Christmas. ‘Nuf said. 14. Reads children’s letters in office instead of in bathroom. 13. Never explains what exactly you did to deserve that coal in your stocking; if you have to ask, maybe that’s the problem! 12. Employs little people in a sweatshop and co-hosts TV talk show, “Regis and Santa Lee.” 11. Despite the c

Personal Ads
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Old Stuff
If seeing is believing, and believing means being,then who sees in perfect hindsight while the brights are beaming. seeing might be seeming to be a little blinding for a moment to the one still teeming with thoughts that

What I Want To Say
Help me pick a new name for fubar. The best name wins! I don't actually have anything to give but I will be using the name u pick! ends 1/1/10 well frick it its done! No more windows to the future.. having to live for today. No more dreams if white picked fences but living for to make it through today. Struggles to stay sane with every corner losing a bit daily. I used drugs to ease my pain now I use pain to remember I am even alive. Wishing daily death will take me to my grave.... Oh wait I have already died just waiting for the funeral.

Tell Me The Truth
Written with a pen, sealed with a kiss. If you're my friend, please answer this: Are we fiends or are we not? You told me once, but I forgot. So tell now and tell me true, So I can say, I'm here for you. Of all the friends I've ever met, You're the one I wont forget. And if I die before you do, I'll go to HEAVEN and

My Randomness
You're my angel in disguise You read my soul with your eyes Your spirit has entered my heart And it's my hope we never part For you are so special to me, Without you, my heart would weep bitterly. You're my angel in disguise Your love comforts my cries At night you guide me through the strife And it is for that, my dear angel, I owe you my life. Hold on to me Let me comfort you when you hurt Hold on to me Let me love you when you hate yourself Hold on to me Let me help you through your trials I am the joy in your smile I am the tears that you cry I am in every beat of your heart Hold on to me. There's something I find, in being with you, that is lost to me elsewhere. The surety of your step, beside mine. The certainty in your voice, when you speak to me. The passion behind your eyes, that touches my soul. All these that take our relationship steps beyond our dreams, past surety and certainty both, to a realm of faith. All these things, and more, I find in being with you.

Rancour
Sorry world but it’s over now You thought you had me Pulled a fast one somehow That just didn’t work out The way you planned To destroy me Take me out on my own land It won’t work this time Oh no you see Because this time I’m holding on I’ll save my tears for me Because crying over you is pointless I’ll save all my smiles Because unlike you They don’t need a trial I’m keeping my heart to myself You will no longer read my words My fire used to keep you alive Now you will feel its burn You turned your back on me But that’s not what I’ll burn first First it’ll be your heart and your soul I’ll burn your insides Make your blood boil Then once my fires released You’ll skin will burn And fall as ashes at my feet I told you before I’m not gonna sit here and take this I’ll tell you again I will no longer sit here and fake it Fake the smiles Fake the blame Faking my entire

Anger
I feel the anger rise up in me The same anger That makes me bleed Inside In my heart and in my soul Killing me With soft whispers of hate Softly, deeply But quickly my blood flows Outwards, pouring Showing its true power to the world Slowly but surely It destroys me I am not it But it has become me Angry is all I seem to feel lately Why can’t I just once be free From the anger that’s trapped inside me The anger which you provide The anger which you create The anger that’s inside me now Only at me it eats The only emotion we ever shared Was anger The only words we ever said Were yelled Why can’t you accept me the way I am The way I want to be Instead of turning me into somebody else The person you wished you could be I am not you And never will be Your thoughts are your own So how can I know what you’re thinking? I can’t But you expect me to You yell and scream and hate For I can’t read your mind Though I tr

Sdmf
SDMF is a the creation of Black Label Society--a band led by Ozzy Ozborne's guitarist Zakk Wylde. SDMF is a unique hybrid of shared ideals and fan club. The actual acronym is most commonly read out as either "Society Dwelling Mother Fucker" or "Strength Determination Merciless Forever". The BLS ‘Chapters’ system is not any sort of official club or organization, it is just a way to describe a BLS fan from a certain area. For example, if you are a BLS fan and live in New Jersey, you are automatically a member of the New Jersey Chapter. Black Label Society Bylaws And Code of Honor God, Family, Beer Suicide Is Not An Option Complaints Dept. Closed Live Life Stronger Than Death Thou Shalt Not Spilleth The Beer!!! Refuse To Loose/Born To Booze!!! Respect Is To Be Shown To All Society Dwellers Worldwide Colors Must Be Worn To all Black Label Society Shows And Events FEAR NO BEER BLEED BLACK LABEL SOCIETY R.I.P DIMEBAG DARREL

I Just Want One More Day With You
I'm so sad and depressed Is all I want to do is rest I go to sleep at night But my dreams I just can't fight I think of you lying in that bed And wonder if there is anything I could have said I wish I was still there with you But I know that you are still near I love you more than you know I just wish I didn't have to go I just want one more day with you And I know thats what you would have wanted too I miss you more and more each day There is so much more we had to say I know I will see you again But my life is just started to begin Wriiten By M David

Let Me Trust You
Everyday I get more afraid Of giving my heart away Scared of what love will bring Too nervous to hear the words you’ll say I find myself lost in you Not sure if I want to be I see the looks that you give And wonder what you see in me I don’t want my heart broken But I am so in love I can’t seem to give up A guy sent from above So I’m gonna trust you Please don’t let me down For I am giving you a chance To turn my life around Don’t take it for granted ‘Cause it might not last long I have weak thoughts And my heart isn’t too strong I’m putting my life in your hands Now it’s all up to you I look forward to the places we go And the things we’ll be put through But remember that I’m vulnerable And I can’t stand to be hurt I want to be at the top of your list But I don’t have to be first Believe me when I tell you That I love you with all my heart That I’m here for you forever and always Just like I was

...and Still......
I came here, looking for a way to ease the boredom. Now I'm hooked. There is something nauseating about this site that keeps me coming back anyway. It's dumb, impersonal, sleezy,and I think it gave me a virus. Yet, here I am... just me, some slack-jawed yokels (love all the NASCAR-themed lounges), and girls selling soft-core porn for game points. I tried to get a friend to join... and she ran after the first 20 minutes. I guess only some people have the stomach for it.So... with all that negative stuff, why am I here? I like it. I get drawn in. I like to read photo-comments. I like to post stupid blogs like this. I like being around a bunch of strangers whom I could care less about, and who could care less about me. In anonymity, there is freedom.My browser has been hijacked to take me here before (it's so considerate of

My Life
1974 - Present: I was born October 3rd 1974 in the city of Claremont, NH to a mother named Kim Boutwell. Soon after that she got married and had 2 more children (Chrisinta Brunelle & Jared Brunelle). From what I remember we grew up with just about nothing. I started getting into trouble when I was in kindergarden by taking anything I wanted when I wanted it and it escalated to arson & attempted murder at 9 in which I was taken from my mother and placed into a mental hospital for 3 months. I was transferred from there to another place run by Italian Catholic Priests and was there for 3 1/2 yrs in which time I ran away as much as I could cause I didn't want to be so far away from my mother. I got lost and ended up in a metropolis and stole a car off a car lot and tried to get back to my mother at the age of 11. After they finally realized it wasn't a good idea of me being there and the DCYF officer trying to send me to juvinile lock-up called YDC in Manchester NH, they found a place call

It Started Out As A Simple Kiss
It started out as a simple kiss Eyes closed.. arms embraced.. Soft lips barely touch..Anticipation builds.. the kiss deepens..we search for more.Tongues caress.. lightly nibbling.. gentle sucking ...Passions flare.. shaking to the core. Hands roam.. fires ignite.. wanting.. skin on skin...Gasping breaths.. eyes glazed with lust.. heated to the brink.Moans excape.. with whispered encouragement...Wanting... needing... the desire.. in a daze... cannot think. Your shirt unbuttons.. fingers fumble.. my hands slide up ...Your stomache clenches.. lightly grazing .. I reach your chest.Heart racing.. breathing labored... skin.. so soft.. yet hard...Deep breaths now.. mindless ...shaking.. passion's obsessed. You grasp my hips.. you pull me close.. and closer still..My hands wrap around your neck... and still the kiss goes on.Savoring the taste ..such soft sweet lips.. the fire is raging..Pulses bounding.. lost in your touch.. practiced seduction. Your hands slide under my shirt... aah.. th

What I Want
I wish I had a woman here right now. I want to sit her down, lean her back, open her legs and lick her pussy til she cums just a little. I want to flick her clit with my tongue, I want to slide my tongue deeper in her to the point where she grabs my head and pulls it closer to her pussy. I don't go for the moans and groans, I try to make her body tremble and quake. Just when she thinks she can't take anymore I would stop, open her legs more and slide my manhood into her. I would start off slow, gradually moving up the speed of the fucking. I want her to be so into it that she wraps her legs around me and tries to squeeze every ounce of oxygen out of me, as she barely utters a word. I want to grab the back of her head and pull her hair as I shove my cock deeper in her. I want to fuck her harder and harder until finally we both cum at the same time, we are dripping wet, out of breath and spent. Is that wanting or asking for too much?

For My Friends
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What Do You Think??
** What is your opinion on spanking your child if the really need it? By all means not saying beating your child, i mean if your child is disobeying you or not listening do you think it is alright to swat your child's butt? there is alot of people that go around saying its beating you child if you are spanking them, but when you asking them about when they were young... they will surely tell you when they needed it their parents weren't afraid to spank them to set them straight!! ** so how do you feel about this debate on spanking you child?**

My Poems
In Your Eyes you are holding me, loving me so carefuly, the way you touch me. as if i'm fragile, i'd break won't break...just ache... to feel you inside me. your eyes are like a mirror. my heart is racing...you look at me as if i were the only thing you know sweet, fluid, smoldering hot... you look right into me feel what i am to you looking into my soul, with those eyes seeing what lies inside of me. wet, anticipating every touch, every move of your body...your skin slides over me, like a blanket. you lie on me, and the heat, the feel of your body, just makes me want to scream... like the howling of a wolf. i want this..i need you.... all i want to do is just be.. even to just lightly touch the surface of who you are what you want why do you want me? feeling your body tense, as you push against me.. oh, what pleasure this is....i feel like a black panther... like I'm prowling just to see what i can do next..just to feel you, any part of you, o

I Need You!!!
My mom entered the "Share Your Bright Holiday Moments" contest for UL (Underwriter Laboratories) and Brickfish. All the entries are great, which makes for a very close competition. She has two entries. One of them (SOLD OUT!!!) is currently #2 and the other one (Brightest Holiday Moments) is #7. I would REALLY REALLY appreciate it if you could help her, PLEASEEE IT’S THE LAST DAY!!! I gave directions, below, and if you have any questions or need anything don't hesitate to ask =) . Click the green button "VOTE"(on both) and then click the blue button "SHARE"(on both) to post to your sites or email (to get more votes)... Thanks again, I can't even explain to you how much this means to my family and I. Share Your Bright Holiday MomentsSponsored by Underwriters Laboratories Inc.

Having Fun Fun
Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com There he was … right in front of me. I never wanted to wake up from this dream. I had been waiting for this feeling, this excitement for so long. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it would beat out of my chest. We were snuggled together on the balcony of our room overlooking the ocean wrapped up in a soft blanket. Time just stopped. We talked about our hopes, our dreams, what we wanted in life. I was so content to just sit there in his lap with my head on his chest listening to him talk. It was just too good to be true. He picked me up and turned me around so I was facing him. We just sat in silence looking at each other and smiling. I loved how his hands felt on my sides, rubbing my back and touching me softly. I leaned in to kiss him slowly and just stopped in front of his face. Our eye contact was intense. I felt my body react to the connection and I started grinding my hips into him. I felt beads of sweat on my for

For Holly
Lyrics to "round Here" by the counting crowns, the lyrics in this song,are so painful and so beautiful, I WISH more musicans put themselves out there like this, it's so hard to just connect, and when you hear something that just hits u deep down , we remeber no matter how lonley we are we are never truly alone. this is the very essence of what drives me to write and express my self

My Daughter
I had no clue we had a blog here..Well its like this up until 2007 I was rollling along lifes highway feeling so good..Then the dragon raised his bufugly head..When I got sick well I got sick..Started tx in the fall of that year...It was real bad..First off loosing the money I use to make was bad then this tx crap well hell man whats next? Well suicide attempt was next..The tx had me crazy..I mean truly nuts..I couldnt sleep eat think nothing was the same and since then nothing has returned to true sanity...My daughter was so use to being spoiled the littel brat and having to loose my business due to the dragon well money left us..I live on disability now and well who the hell can live on that tiny bit of cash..So this last couple of years I have lost...So much but

Lost
i would've been there for you though it all, but you never gave me the chance, running around and tripping, tripping over ourselves blindly without a glance, our friendship taking the defeat. once upon a time our souls would join as our eyes met. id stick around for you, but your not doing the same too, i finally opened my pretty eyes to see, the old scars healed, then blackened as you made a deal, to never reverberate your voice my way, everything between us died that day, the poison is still in my veins, as you kill me quietly with no fair chance for change, it hurts so much i know words will never be enough, and i guess thy never were. the words were rough but we are still alive, and if that doesn't say something i don't know what does. I Love You so much. whats the point of going on?

Beware Of Drama Queen
so its my 1st day on fubar, 1st i want to thank everyone who was nice and chatted with me. i like talking and getting to know people.2nd, tip to some guys, don't ask for naked pictures after 5 minutes of talking.also to "no drama queens please" i just met u, we talked for like 10 minutes, stop bossing me around like we're married, stop commanding me to get on yahoo to talk to u, stop judging someone u don't know at all, stop being manipulative, stop being controlling, stop telling me what to do like u own me. we just f'ing met for like 5 min on fubar. stop whining like a little girl, grow some balls, grow up, learn to treat a girl with respect, learn to not rush things, learn to be nice and respectful.http://fubar.com/user/2458120@sshole.ps: for someone with no drama in ur name u sure are full of it. never seen anyone so clingy or rude in my life.

What The F###
let me start out by saying this is a serious topic so please dont respond unless it is a serious reply. Im so sick of adults "and there children" blameing there shortcomeings on telovision and video games. there have been so many ppl blame child viloance on the games they play and the shows they watch. yesterday i was watching t.v. and saw that they had a special on the tyra show about teen pregnacy being a result of the shows they watch and that is bull shit pardin my typeing. but if your teenage child partys and/or gets pregnant it is there fault "and yours", Not telovision... if your teenage child shots someone it is there fault "and yours". The ESRB puts a rateing on shows and games for a reasson your child should not be subject to the content that is not age apropreate so you are to blame for that and your child has something that we all have and thats free will to make there own choices noone holds a gun to there head and makes them have sex therefore it is there fault. me as we

Is It Strange....
I’m the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because she’s sleepy, but because she wants to be closer to you… I’m the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than inside your bedroom or in an expensive resturant… I’m the girl who says,“ok, but you owe me...” jokingly not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you… I’m the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will (or at least try to) have fun because it means I am spending time with you… I’m the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like, I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms… I’m the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me… I’m the girl who never gives up hope even when I tell others I have… I’m the girl who once I let you into my heart, there’s always a place there with your na

Just Me If You Care To Know
I thought i would take time out of my super busy schedual (NOT!!) to tell everyone who care's a bit about my self and how i came to be the person i am. My Name is Tyna, I was born in Springerville Az. was born and raised in Arizona for the majority of my life. I am the youngest of 12 siblings (ya i know mom and dad shoulda bought a tv), By the time i can really remember most my siblings were grown and gone, it was only 3 or 4 of us in the house yaay.

Thoghts And Feelings
I am alone I am dead inside I cannot even cry anymore this misery has no name I cannot even begin to describe what i'm feeling the one man i thought would always be mine is no longer. I saw pictures today of him and his new girl and it felt somewhere between a gut punch and my beating heart being ripped from my chest. I know i have to except that he's over me and i do want him to be happy even if he's not with me.. but why does it hurt so bad. I just want the pain to end, Why can't anyone love me? i know this is a pathetic blog but i just had to put down my feelings. I think i have finally had enough, i think i am going to delete every account i have like fubar and facebook and myspace and POF and Mingle and Tagged. I am seriously tired of people adding me as friends but never talking to me what is the point in that!??!? I also hate people who pretend they care just to get in my pants and

"part 2"
Well my friends, I know it has been a long 4 days sense i last spoke but my dog was so sweet as i was leaving (she brought me another beer) that i couldn't take another step. (again it was the beer). but i went on with my journey even though i knew i would miss my dog,(boy could she make a mean Jack and coke). I've made it to the sidewalk now one that i didn't know i had , anyway after i took my third step i realized "My god I'm not even at my house"! I don't have a side walk. So was that my dog after all ? do i even have a dog? I'm so confused at this point. Do i go back and ask the dog? or do i continue on? At this point it's a really hard desesion knowing that the liqure store is only one block away. It has to be the worm. This is going to be a hard on to make up my mind on. Ok hold on i found another piece of a candy bar in my pocket . I must set here and think, i will be back. "Damn Worm"

No More Strife
We’ve both had worry and both had strife Searching for a happy, a better life Through all the pain and tears Waiting many, many years Hoping for true love to come and be mine That day in your eyes, I saw a sign Holding your hand…kissing…, can this be true As the rain fell and the wind gently blew I found someone! I found you! Your touch is electric, your kiss warm How quick love can take form The answer is, quicker than we knew Before long you loved me and I loved you As we grow together I have to ask This one very small task Take my hand and pray with me That our love will be for eternity Building our family day by day I will be with you, my love, every step of the way Being the husband you deserve The Lord we shall serve We too shall have a beautiful life With love, honesty, commitment and no more strife Together my love we are destined for success I’ll break my back, I will not rest Until you know this one thing is true Forever and ever I will always love

Fubar Stuff
I am now at level 31 where I can offer my points to users for 12 hours. So I figured that I would post a blog so that the people asking about it would know what to do from now on. I would like to be able to help out my friends on leveling as much as possible but I can't always afford to do everything to help everyone. So when I Alturize you, You get all the points I make and the fubucks I make during the 12 hours.

Just Because
Do you know what you got? really? I have been told by a certain few,that I have had it made,then,threw it all away. No disrespect to them,and,I do love,and appreciate their input,and friendship. But,I really hope that you know what you have got. Whether it be kids,family,worldly possesions...etc...I hope,for all,that this is the merriest of Christmas's,and hearts out there to those that have loved and lost this time of year. I appear to be going through a major loss of my own at this time of year,and will struggle to always have a happy heart,God knows,I am the biggest kid when it comes time for the holidays.

Poems All Poems Love Dark Ect Military Poems 2
JOSH IS MY EXHUSBAND I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HIM OR U LITTLE CUNTS EMAILING ME FUCK OFF by CassandraXVeronicaXONealaXLawsonHonorhonor, respect, courage,strengththis is what the military needsno cowards,liers or thivesno room for no bad companythey will stay strongand fight all night longfor this country when in needthis is the americansM-I-L-I-T-A-R-Y by CassandraXVeronicaXONealaXLawsonA brilliant mans honor forever i shall holdhe fought for the Americanshe stood until he could stand no morehe hung the flag high upon the poleeveryday he raised itevery night he sheltered it from the coldhe was old there was no doughtbut his spirit never ran outhe loved this country and this landhe didn't care about the presidents planhe fought for his wife her kids and so onbut now he's gone America will always remember you

Favorite Recipes
Prep time: 10min Cook time: 20min Ready time: 30min Servings: 6 Ingredients: -1 (10.75 ounce) can Campbell's® Condensed Cream of Chicken Soup (Regular or 98% Fat Free) -1 (12 inch) prepared thin pizza crust -1 (4.5 ounce) can Swanson® Premium Chunk Chicken Breast in Water, drained -1 cup shredded mozzarella cheese -1 cup shredded Mexican cheese blend -8 slices bacon, cooked and crumbled -ranch salad dressing Directions: 1. Heat the oven to 375 degrees F. 2. Spread the soup onto the pizza crust to within 1/4-inch of the edge. Top with the chicken, cheeses and bacon. Bake for 10 minutes or until the cheese is melted and the crust is golden. 3. Drizzle the ranch dressing over the pizza. Prep time: 25 min Ready time: 2hrs 25 min Servings: 16 Ingredients: -2 (8 ounce) packages refrigerated crescent rolls -1 cup sour cream -1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese, softened -1 teaspoon dried dill weed -1/4 teaspoon garlic salt -1 (1 ounce) package ran

I Am
I am ... A woman With a full heart, hidden Somewhere in an empty room ... With eyes not quite of autumn's gold, and yet Neither all of summer's green; I wonder ... If love is a tale made for children -- A granting of sweet dreams in their innocence -- A honey-coating to help their throats Choke down the bitter draught ... I hear ... A voice that whispers warnings, half-formed, Bodiless as hope, until I swear I cannot draw Another breath unless this spectre be unmasked, His lies mangled ‘neath my righteous tread; I see ... A woman, proud, uncompromising, Diaphanous as air -- less, even, than the tears That fall in desolation about her weary feet, Salt poison pooled upon the withered ground ... I want ... A measure of quietude, a certain silence, The echo of alone which heals me of dreaming, The nothing that stills the wanting, The numb, the cold that laughs at pain; I am A woman, hidden ... I pretend ... That I can live forever -- that Time Has no puissance but that which I afford

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Think about your direct bodily experience in life. No one can lie to you about that. How many hours a day do you spend infront of a television screen? A computer screen? Behind an automobile screen? What are you being screened from? How much of your life comes at you though a screen, vicariously while you sit and watch. Is watching things as exciting as doing things? Do you have enough time to do all the things that you want to do? Do you even have enough energy to? Do you think for yourself, independently, or do you take others words for the truth? How often do you find yourself repeating something you heard another say without it having any bearing on your personal experience; your personal truth? How many hours a day do you sleep? How are you affected by standardized time, designed solely to synchronize your movements with those of billions of other people? How long do you go without knowing what time it is? Who or what controls YOUR minutes and hours? The minutes and hours that