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Random Thoughts Of A Scattered Mind !
a perfect place Once I knew of this place where magic lived and love flowed forth like waters rushing down a mountain side . Where flowers bloomed and birds sang their tunes on lifted wing . Where did this place go and did it really exist ? Was it only in my mind ? Made up from some need I had when I was all alone needing the love it showed ? Where are you mystical one? Where are you now that the times have turned dark and I am in need of you more than ever ? My heart beats out it's rhythm like explosions coming forth from the collision of stars . It's breaking don't you hear it ? The sound isnt always audible but if you listen with your heart instead of your ears you'll hear it's shrieks of pain as it comes undone . Darkness all around now and now that I need your light it can't be found .I scream into the darkness your name the only shield I have and the beasties they still march on . Bringing their pain and dread like a banner held on high . Only you can save me from this now .
Random Thoughts Of A Scattered Mind
Random Shit It's got all kinds of good and amusing shit in there. I do agree with the necessity of swallowing. :D
Random Facts About Me
1)I have never met my birth father 2)I like to dance in the shower(and have fallen more than once) 3)I’m a sucker for designer handbags, and that’s about as far as I go with brand named shit 4)I have had 4 boyfriends 5)I lost my virginity and kissed my first boy in the same year. When I was 18. 6)I used to smoke a lot of pot 7)I one a hula-hooping contest when I was in third grade (45 minutes yo) 8)I have never owned a dog. 9)I killed over a hundred goldfish in fifth grade. 10)Reggie Miller (Pacers) asked me where the batteries were once. 11)I use to clean Larry Bird and Peyton Mannings houses. (Larry Birds daughter is a pig) 12)I have seen the Dave Matthews Band over 12 times. 13)I think I have only really been in love once. (chad) 14)My favorite color is orange. 15)I don’t get along with most girls. So feel special if I am nice to you. 16)I think everyone is a liar. (bad thing to think, but fuck it) 17)I like pictures, way too much. 18)I have 27 cousins on my dads si
Let's play a game...Here's how it goes: Type your name in my blog comments. Once you do that, this is what I'll do for you...1. I'll respond with something random about you.2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (if possible. If not I'll say something that only makes sense to me).5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.If you play, you MUST post this on your blog... As much as i hate fighting and agruements. It seems like the only way for me to get a good night rest sometimes is a good fight or agurement. Because i then cry alot and phyically tired from it i am just want to sleep. its wierd I find it strange how you can go from being friends one day to not at all the next. I was friends with a great guy. I trusted him full heartly i told him things i could not tell
Just bored. I have become bored with this site. NyQuil is soooooo gooooood. I have the green kind and the red kind. I just can't make up my mind. Green,red green,red? Wait,I could alternate every so often. I can fix that,your breakfast,your lunch,your dinner. I can fix that,your bed,your laundry,your home I can fix that,your heart,your mind your soul. I can fix that,your pain,your hate,your sadness. Who will fix me?
A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds attractive on a man can differ depending on where she is in her menstrual cycle. For example: If she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features. However, if she is menstruating, or menopausal, she tends to be more attracted to a man with duct tape over his mouth and a spear lodged in his chest while he is on fire. No further studies are expected. Where you are seems to be As far as an eternity Outstretched arms open hearts And if it never ends then when do we start? I'll never leave you behind Or treat you unkind I know you understand And with a tear in my eye Give me the sweetest goodbye That I ever did receive Pushing forward and arching back Bring me closer to heart attack Say goodbye and just fly away When you comeback I have some things to say How does it feel to know you never have to be alone When you get home There
Just some random shit I guess. I need a beer. Why the hell is it so hard to find places that will televise (did I spell that right?) soccer. Where are the loose moraled women around here? I'm definitely drinking tonight. I need new pics. Okay, enough of that, I need to go find a good bar in the corner of the world.
Random Thoughts
WHY DO GUYS..... 1. Fart in public? 2. Drink beer that gives them shits? 3. Sit and watch sports knowing no one else wants to? 4. Expect a woman to be presentable in 5 mins? 5. Not shave and think it's cool? 6. Go for days without talking to you and then act like nothing happened? 7. Get mad at me for out burping them? 8. Get embarrassed when I out drink them? 9. Only want to see the NSFW pics? 10. Expect me to fuck them? any and all comments welcome
A-2-Z About Me Survey by bamachic49{---Basics---}Name: Taryn.Nickname(s): Stump, Miss T. Rippin, Taryn-up-my-heart...Tar-bear, etc.Age: 18Birthday: may 9thBirthplace: Crosby MNCurrent Location: Fargo!Eye Color: Blue-greenHair Color: BlondeHeight: 5'6"Weight: Lefty or Righty: rightyZodiac Sign: taurusWhat Do You Drive: trucks. :) 2000 ford ranger, 75 Chev.Screenname: countrygirl8808{---Favorites---}Color: together)...and pink.Number: 8Band: Music Genre: Country or Rock.TV Show: Movie: Actor: Actress: Kind of Movie: Action. or horror. No chick flicks for me!Cartoon: King of the hill. :)Sport: Nascar, Rodeo, Football, Baseball...Fast Food Restaurant: ick.Food: I dont really have one...Ice Cream: Any of it! I love ice-cream.Cereal: Ra
Random Thuoghts 1
Your body with mine, glistenin' in the heat. Pleasurable is the fruit, more enticing every time. Tempting and wonderment, in the same engaged in the thought of it, exploding with more heat and passion each wanting the feeling again and again, the pleasure and the thought always running in the mind, over and again. Feeling the warmth each place each time. Pleasurable and thrilling, time after time. Wanting waiting for that possible chance, in that one instant both hot, both with an explosion of the amazement. Minds a wild. Over the thought of having the feeling, engaged with the passion sweat, and heat pleasure winding so ever tight. Til no longer waiting for the fruit so hot and sweet the fantasy of it all, so erotic came the flame of passion of the moment The brush of your lips against my skin. I can hear the words you say softly to me. Your eyes pierced me with desire. When we come together in the dark. I can’t get enough of the scent of your excitement. With the feeling of your body
25 Random Things About Me
1) I was once married and I don't miss the ex-wife. 2) Other than the ex-wife, I get along great with my exs, one of them is one of my best friends. 3) I am a kid at heart and will always be a Toys-R-Us kid. 4) I can draw and paint, especially cartoon characters, just dont have a desire to do it all the time. 5) I have had many jobs and still no clue what I want to do for a career. 6) I LOVE talking to new people. No matter where I go, I can find someone to have a conversation with. 7) I used to be a shy kid. 8) I enjoy long drives, even if they don't take you anywhere. 9) I love the scent of a female 'the morning after'. 10) I will read anything, just prefer SciFi or Fantasy. 11) As a kid, I once almost bumped into Roy Clark with a piece of pizza at a Braves game. 12) I enjoy sitting in the middle of nowhere and listening to the sounds going on around you. 13) People watching is one of my favorite sports, especially watching drunk guys trying to pic
Random Goodies
(originally posted February 26, 2009) Hubby and I tried out bombing last night, it's kinda fun, makes me want my VIP back... hmm.. tempting EDIT I bit the bullet and got my VIP back What I discovered about bombing... • You only have an hour for it so it's pretty short-lived • You can only hit one album per person • You can only hit one album every 60 seconds which is annoying and really limits how many points you can get • You can't bomb an album that's already been bombed! Total bummer! If you have an activated bomb, it'll show you at the top of the album who that album has been bombed by, if it hasn't, it'll give you a link to bomb the album, or show you how long you have left until you can bomb again. EDIT They changed it! Now it shows who bombed the album before you, but you CAN bomb it too! YAY! • You can easily tell which albums have been bombed in the list, it will show a little burning folder image on the albums that have already been bombed. • You can only
Random Stuff
all my life ive had nothing but hatred for everyone,you looked at me wrong i stright fuck you up,im still that way i just hate fucking ppl i wish theyd all get slaughtered and with that been said i just dont have anything nice to say to ppl they can all die and fuck a duck for alli care but one thing is sure no mother fucker in this world can replace the effects that i can have on ppl,i love turning ppl into haters like my self and my plague will spread like a disease and infect everyone, hahahahahahahah you cant stop this flow of evil that i bring.
Random Bling
Just so ppl know how I randomly bling it's like this...I see my bar tab and mouse over with my eyes closed.Whoever I land on gets Blinged....I ususlly pick 3 or 4 so that's how it goes ppl.   The bling is usually 1 to 3 credits....Only occasionally do I bling special abilities bling
Random Ass Craft Blog
  I  think the third apron will be a different pattern, though I do really like this pattern. Sorry for the blurry picture. I made the first apron with the fabric I bought last week. Hopefully I'll have better pictures soon. Bikini girl cake complete with bad tan for my sister's bikini competition BBQ mini cupcakes   Bears themed cheesecake brownies Maple bacon cupcakes with maple frosting, sea salt, and candied bacon Strawberry Rhubarb Pie Pizza from scratch. Caramelized onions, italian sausage, goat cheese, and spinach on a honey wheat crust. I didn't make the sauce. Bagels Turkey sausages with apples and onion - these had very little flavor...I'm going to have to try again
Random Poems
Who dared flip the switch Who said I wanted to come back whats wrong with the way I lived auto-pilot never needed to be removed Who decided that it was time to deal with everything in my life all at once never time to breathe One trial after another never time to cry never time to heal just one second just one chance I'm drowning in my own soul and I forgot how to swim sinking so low I can see the surface I can see the end my arms wont move there has to be a way out Wheres my lifeguard or do they only save the pretty souls the ones without pain the darkness is closing in just one breath all I need to survive just one hand someone pull me out One trial after another never time to cry never time to heal just one second just one chance I'm drowning in my own soul and I forgot how to swim sinking so low I can't be your princess And I can't be your Knight Where does that leave me in your fairytale world Just a simple jester Laugh at me th
Random Thoughts..
Well lets see here i'm quite the random guy who likes to do crazy ass shit all the time... I mean really what man or woman isn't the same way from time to time right??? Well lets just put things in perspective i hate when some1 tells me to conform to RULES!!! So in turn me being the way i am i just HAVEEEEE 2 push the boundaries of that rule lol. For instance i was at a bar in the hamptons here on LONG ISLAND it's called THE BOARDY BARN opens its doors on the weekend and sunday is the big TOPPPER... Dollar beers all day from 7 in the morning til whenever the hell they wanna close the bar (indoor and outdoor). Now you might wonder, "when does it close" it DOESNT lol the COPS own it lol well RETIRED cops lol... Now here's the interesting thing we used to be able to drink and throw beer on every1 it was the BOARDY BARN right of passage if you don't have beer on yourself then u need to kick rocks OR just get laced up with some SUDS. Obviously this is not a bar you where your BEST CLOTHES/S
Random Rantings Of Babysatan
I'm sitting here eating some insanely delicious pork chops and fighting with the fucking bone! It got me thinking... Do animals bred specifically for eating REALLY need to have bones? Think about it. They are born. They eat until they are big enough and then they are killed so we can eat them. There is no need for them to have bones at all! Scientists have genetically engineered animals to be bigger so they have more meat and the farmers make more money off them. Couldn't someone mess with genetics and make animals that don't have bones? That is all
Random Thoughts N Feeling.
Random Life And Such
My Phuck list 1. Phuck the fakes. 2. Phuck the liars 3. Phuck the haters. 4. Phuck the cheaters. 5. Phuck the pretend friends. 6. Phuck the ones who turn their backs when you make a mistake. 7. Phuck the scammers. 8. Phuck downraters.. lol 9. Phuck the abusers 10. Phuck the people who feel the need to slut their way through to get anywhere in life.
Random Psycho Babble
I intend to post very randomly, meaning, it's here and there... meaning.. it won't be all the time, meaning.... I don't know what the fuck I'm meaning! I'm supposed to be doing my homework right now... however; I'm not... so.. here I am... I've been away for... a "spell"... *grins*... look at all I've missed out on.... (psst... if I say "fuck" in this.. does it make it nsfw? cuz...) FUCK! :0p Indi, Brazie.. I miss you girls! *kisses*
25 Random Things
1) my favorite color is green. 2) i ALWAYS like to wear something on my head. usually even to bed. 3) i have never stepped foot on college campus for educational purposes. always for parties. this wont change. 4) i love the reactions i get from people who think its strange for an IT guy to be a gearhead who can fix any car issue you have. 5) on that, i really love the fools who talk down my driving ability and my car. i guess the dozens of trophies from various clubs and events up and down the east coast speak for themselves. 6) when i type i dont often care for capitalization, but spelling and punctuation are very important to me. 7) facebook sucks, but i only use myspace to store pictures, videos, and awesome, for the most part. 8) if i dont leave the state to go far away once a month, i will explode. 9) on that, i try to leave new england as much as possible because i would explode if i did not. 10) i suffer from certain anxieties that i will most likely never recover fro
Random Thoughts
The monster is loose what shall happen now do you think we will perish or be the victor. that's the same question i ask every day am i going to be the victor today or the victim so i am siting here getting ready for work hoping that after all is done i will win the night. ASH well here we are again I have time on my hands waiting to go back to work for 12 hours due to this ice storm so i think i will right some stuff and see how it go's. I sit here pondering with mind wide open heart closed where all love has gone have we lost the meaning of love or just let our hearts grow cold to the thought of love so here i sit in a city not my own a place not my own to ponder never more... Ash
Random Thoughts
  To the guy who tried to mug me in downtown night before last. I was the guy with the black Burberry jacket that you demanded I hand over shortly after you pulled the knife on me and my girlfriend. You also asked for my girlfriend's purse and earrings. I hope you somehow come across this message. I'd like to apologize. I didn't expect you to crap in your pants when I drew my pistol after you took my jacket. Truth is, I was wearing the jacket for a reason that evening, and it wasn't that cold outside. You see, my girlfriend had just bought me that Springfield Operator Custom Pro Package M1911 .45 ACP pistol for Christmas, and we had just picked up a shoulder holster for it that evening. Beautiful pistol, eh? It's a very intimidating weapon when pointed at your head, isn't it? I know it probably wasn't a great deal of fun walking back to wherever you'd come from with that brown sludge flopping about in your pants. I'm sure it was even worse since you also ended up leaving your shoes,
Random Writings And Poems
Its so cold and quiet out Quite peaceful yet real dishearting Alot of time to think to ones self Looking over the past Thinking about the present Dreading the future I lay here all alone No one to spend my nights with To curl up next to I am glad for my boy He does keep me sane And for all my freinds who are there for me Just really wish to have more in life A girl to make me laugh and smile Hold my hand and make a jolt run thru me I just feel so alone at times Truely missing that one feeling Maybe I am meant to be alone To help others out in life But I am really happy for my family and freinds I do love you all Be safe and be happy Dont get too far down like me Death Death in the end is peace for the tormented souls For us with that soul we live in pain everyday We might dream the good dreams but we know its not reality We have suffered hardships and heartaches that are beyond your understanding I might be your best freind but I'm really here to help you not
Random Thoughts
A night filled with angry words unspoken.....egos bruised, souls broken. Wounds that will never heal...A heart filled with hate. ************************************************
Random Stuffs
Red Rose sent to TanDoll on February 24, 2009 @ 8:57 pm gift message: Thanks for the rates, truly appreciated! Cupcake sent to Sexy Kitten on February 24, 2009 @ 8:43 pm gift message: Thanks for all the rates. Appreciated! Hippo sent to sexy_kitty on February 24, 2009 @ 8:41 pm gift message: Thanks for the rates! Appreciated! Hippo sent to justa ღ™ ~ owned by Pepsi on February 24, 2009 @ 7:40 pm gift message: I bought you a Hippo, and I named it Daisy (Karla)! You have to feed it everyday, let it dance on the ball and let it sing drunken snapvine songs to you! Hippo sent to Rumtie on February 24, 2009 @ 6:38 pm gift message: Thanks so much for rating my pics! Appreciated! Cupcake sent to MOMMAHAZE/DWR & SIC GREETER/FALLEN on February 24, 2009 @ 6:28 pm gift message: Thanks so much for taking the time to rate my pics! Appreciated! Cupcake sent to barbara ann on February 24, 2009 @ 6:02 pm gift message: Thanks so much for rating my pics!
Random Funny
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Random Prattle
That's right boys and girls. It's that time of year again. Yet another Fangoria Weekend of Horrors. Once again at the LACC (God I miss the Burbank site) where drunken shenanigans will reign supreme along with a slew of horror notables. I know of one Fubarian that will be there. Anyone else? HUGE party to be had on that Saturday resulting in zombies galore on Sunday. And not the Romero kind either. Sorry. Check it: (I was tagged by RussianFoxx, so as not to incur her wrath (if you've read her blogs, you know what I speak of) I will comply.) Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I spent 6mos of my life living in a tree in the middle of Venice,
Random Shit
(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. (2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. (3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. (4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! (5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.) (6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for yo
50 Random Facts About Me
Place an X by all the things you've done and remove the X from the ones you have not, then send it to your friends (including me). (I'm not bothering to tag people on these any more. Do what thou wilt.) Things you have done during your lifetime: (X) Gone on a blind date (X) Skipped school (X) Been to Canada (-) Been to Mexico (X) Been to Florida (X) Been to Hawaii (X) Been on a plane (-) Been on a helicopter (X) Been lost (X) Gone to Washington, DC (X) Swam in the ocean (X) Cried yourself to sleep (X) Played cops and robbers (-) Recently colored with crayons (X) Sang Karaoke (X) Paid for a meal with coins only (-) Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch (X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't. (X) Made prank phone calls (-) Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans (X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose & elsewhere (X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue (-) Danced in the rain-naked (X) Written a letter to Santa Claus (X) Been
The Randomness Of Me
Random Stuff
When zombies attack you better have a plan. I just hope Ill be able to get to a samurai sword in time, because when you really think about it theyre pretty ideal. Lightweight, and designed through thousands of years of steel engineering to decapitate human heads. I guess some guy did this test where he made fake human necks in order to demonstrate how easy they could be cut through with a katana, and the dude like barely moved his wrist to get the job done. I find that very disturbing to know that somebody went through the trouble of designing a fake human neck..... Plus swords dont run out of bullets. But, just in case i get in some real trouble, a sawed off shotgun slung around my shoulder like kyle in The Terminator, and a fanny pack full of shells. Of course the fanny pack would need to be tricolor, of the flourescent sort. Now everybody knows that a key resource for surviving any zombie attack is some rope, but i think i would skip the rope since im already carrying a
Randomness Of The Goddess
Why do you insist on pissing me off in the mornning??? 1.I have 2 kids and I can manage to have my kids dressed before we leave the house, why cant you? 2.PLEASE PULL FORWARD...dont block everyone behind you...we have places to go and things to do...unlike you who will probobly go home and watch soap operas!!! EX. when i drop my daughter off at her have to pull around in like a circle, OR you can park!! well this BITCH decides to stop right at the turn...and block us all from going around. We all have bigger rigs and we cant get around enough to park. She gets her idiot ass out of the car to release her bratts. then she walks them in the school with her van still parked there...I WAS HEATED!! Then after she finally comes out 5 minutes later...she pulled only like 10 feets forward and perceeded to talk to another idiot mom in her van!!! I got behind her and she motioned me to go around, which would mean i go into the grass!!! FUCK THAT AND FUCK HER!! I dont know
Random Poems
Who are we Who are we to judge others by their faults? Do we not have faults of our own? Who are we to pass judgment on those who have sinned? What defines us as being better then another? We judge others more then we judge ourselves, Because we are afraid of who we are. We wish not to see who we are. Imperfect, sinful, and impure. As we fail to pass judgment upon ourselves, Others shall do it for us. Who are we to determine how someone should live? Who are we to tell others who to be? Who are we to say who should live and who should die? Who are we? We are nothing in this world, Just a drop of water in the ocean. Sorrow Pip, plop, drip, and drop It comes from the sky Within your house Even from yourself It is warm and soothing Cold and depressing It is the one most important thing in life Everything needs it. It shows emotions It drops down your face Plush it falls into a pool It comes with happiness But most of the time It comes with sorrow.
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I eat more junkfood than any human should. 2. My foot bounces A LOT when I'm thinking. 3. I'm having a hard time with this because I'm multitasking like a bitch. 4. Favorite movies: Clockwork Orange, Phantom of the Opera, Juno. 5. I spend more time online than you'd believe. 6. I can type about 65 wpm. 7. I twitch a lot. 8. I say a lot of internet lingo in real life. (lulz, brb, etc.) 9. I have a horrid memory (For example, I was supposed to go to the library this morning to print out a W2 and totally forgot. 10. I've logged more hours in Vampirefreaks flashchat than most of the people than most people could hand
Random Facts
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I'm addicted to coffee.. seriously.. atleast 2 gallons a day. 2. I have a weird kinda stalkerish obsession with Mike Alstott. LMFAO ... True! 3. I hate doing these kinda things cause i'm a complete bitch. 4. I have three fucking amazing kids... not weird just about me. 5. I love love love love love Linkin Park. I know.. 6. I'm borderline EMO!!! So don't fucking make me cry. 7. I use the work FUCK alot! My new years resolution every year is to stop that. 8. I have a ferret named James.. he's cool as shit. 9. I'm a natural blonde **** GIGGLES**** 10.I secretly want to having video sex wi
Randomness Makes Me Giggle
click to pic to go bid Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 10. I'm ichthyophobic (majorly afraid of fish), and I'm not even sure why. Fish touching me makes me spaz, and even just the thought of it makes me cringe a little. I can barely stand going into ponds/lakes/rivers/ocean/etc. Not to mention I'm still afraid of the dark and my mattresses sit on the floor because I'm still afraid that someone could be hiding under my bed. 9. I'm a sectional eater. I can't stand for my food to touch, and I'll eat one thing at a time on my plate. Sometimes I'll pick around at it, but the majority of the time, that's a big thing for me. 8. I'm allergic to
10 Random Things About Me
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1) the only thing i have ever feared is falling off a horse, again....i was like 3 the first time and ive never got on another one. 2)lost more friends to murder then years i have been on this earth 3)i have this thing for COCO by channel, if a 178 year old women with 1 eye and green lip hair, with 9 black teeth that shot out at me and hit me in the eye as she said hello, wore have to go buy a razor, some dentures and mouthwash for her.....cause im gunna try and hit that....lmao the one eye thing i think i could look past...see i have some depth in me...pardon the pun 4)sometimes the stuff that
Random Shit
“Now that you're with the Band” By Silver Diamond   Ok, so you finally nailed that hot guitar player from the band you've been stalking for the past year. Awesome. Now IF, and I'm using that word cautiously, IF he decides you are worth keeping around for more than just a weekend romp, here are a few guidelines you should know and follow if you plan to be a part of his Rock and Roll lifestyle. The more you adhere to these guidelines, the longer you will last in the game. And in case you have any doubts, I have been in this game more years than even I care to remember, I have been both a band girlfriend and wife. I have been there done that, so heed my word if you wish to survive in this business.     Guideline #1: YOU ARE NOT A GROUPIE! Don't act like one. Groupie is what you were while you were stalking him. You have him now, time to let him do to the rest of the fans, what he did for you. This is his job, wherever the gig, that's his work place. Actin
Random Crap Is there anyone out there that can explain to me why people fucking suck so hard? I try to be very nice with people, and my true friends know this. What I do not understand is why people take advantage of nice people like me? I have had a lot of experience with people and what I have discovered is that they lie to you, steal from you, use you and take advantage of just how nice you can be. I have heard a lot of people tell me "I am not like other people, just give me a chance." That is a load of Bull Shit! They are telling you this because they are like everyone else and they are trying to get what they want out of you. I am not selfish. I think of other people's feelings before I say or do anything irrational. The last I ever wish to do is hurt people. When love is on the line things get worse. Why do we gamble with our hearts? If a person's heart is in your hands, please handle with care...
Random Thoughts Of A Random Person
I stole this from Endo, we both encourage others to steal and do it as well What is it that you absolutely need sexually? Um i dont NEED much but i want alot! What is something you have always wanted to try? bondage What is something you have never done in bed before? DP What time of day do you like to have sex? all of them What do you absolutely need to see to turn you on? seeing my partner hot and bothered or just plain enjoying themselves How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Not too long, I love kissing and it will get me hard fast (if they are a good kisser)--imma agree with endo If someone was in the next room while you had sex would it make you nervous or excited? um happened last night and didn't really think about it to much Would it bother you if your bf/gf got naked at a beach or river? um prolly not Have you ever faked an orgasm? oh yea What Part of your body are you self-conscious about? stomach
10 Random Things
Random Misc Stuff
Incidentally, the chat thing now totally works. You can find a handy link here, which is possibly easier than clicking on a totally different link and not knowing wtf you're clicking. If that makes sense. It did, right? RIGHT? Anyway, the idea of the place is a place for MUMMers (and those brave enough to mingle with them) to gather and share links to amusing images, to MUMMs themselves, and to discuss things that pop up as may. Currently only a couple go there, but more would be totally welcome. Okay, FINE. Since certain people have insisted/demanded/badgered/pestered me to post this, I will post it. However, firstly, it's in alphabetical order and I refuse to put it in any other kind of order. So nya. Secondly, there are almost certainly some names missing. This might be for one reason, or it might be another, but there are some names who aren't there that should be there. So, nya again.   In case it wasn't clear: this is a "MUMMer women I would so totally do" list.
3 July 1986 Your date of conception was on or about 10 October 1985 which was a Thursday. You were born on a Thursday under the astrological sign Cancer. Your Life path number is 7. Your fortune cookie reads: There is no limit to love's forbearance, to its trust, its hope, its power to endure. Life Path Compatibility: You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7. You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 4 & 22. You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9. You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 & 11. The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446614.5. The golden number for 1986 is 11. The epact number for 1986 is 19. The year 1986 was not a leap year. Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/9/1986 and ending 1/28/1987. You were born in the Chinese year of the Tiger. Your Native American Zodiac sign is Woodpecker; your plant is Wi
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Random Thoughts. . .
if i have multiple personality disorder, and i threaten to commit suicide...would that be considered a hostage situation? if barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends? if i were god, and i didn't believe in myself...would that be blasphemy?
Random Funny Stuff
A woman and her boyfriend are out having a few drinks. She starts talking about this really great new drink. After a while he gives in and lets her order the drink for him. The bartender brings the drink and puts the following items on the bar: A salt shaker, a shot of Baileys, and a shot of lime juice. First you put a bit of the salt on your tongue, next you drink the shot of Baileys and hold it in your mouth, and finally you drink the lime juice. So, the boyfriend, trying to go along and please her, goes for it. He puts the salt on his tongue. salty but OK. He drinks the shot of Baileys..very pleasant, holding it in his mouth. He thinks...this is OK. Finally he picks up the lime juice and drinks it. In one second the sharp lime taste hits. At two seconds the Baileys curdles. At three seconds the salty, curdled taste and mucous-like consistency hits. At four seconds it feels as if he has a mouth full of nasty snot. This triggers his gag reflex, but being manly, and not wanting to disa
Random Facts
1. To remov​e a banda​ge painl​essly​,​ Satur​ate the banda​ge with vodka​.​ The stuff​ disso​lves adhes​ive.​ 2. To clean​ the caulk​ing aroun​d batht​ubs and showe​rs,​ Fill a trigg​er-​spray​ bottl​e with vodka​,​ spray​ the caulk​ing,​ Let set five minut​es and wash clean​.​ The alcoh​ol in the vodka​ kills​ mold and milde​w.​ 3. To clean​ your eyegl​asses​,​ Simpl​y wipe the lense​s with a soft,​ Clean​ cloth​ dampe​ned with vodka​.​ The alcoh​ol in the vodka​ clean​s the glass​ and kills​ germs​.​ 4. Prolo​ng the life of razor​s by filli​ng a cup with vodka​ And letti​ng your safet​y razor​ blade​ s
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well i am not in a good mood at all tonight i am new to this fubar don't know how to place a back ground on the profile.....and then men you men are the most stubborn people i know ...i thought woman was worse then men....but no no they are whiney and complainy they just need to pull on there big boy pants and deal with it and grow the heck up lol but so far on fubar i am addicted but still try ing to get used to what i can get points from and how....and then i am really hurting my shoulder has a knot on it the size of texas and its not my head guys lol ....well that is all for now sorry for the ranting
Random Mumblings
The nsfw rules r really pissing me off... i mean i have a totally innocent pic of me in a pair of cotton panties but since my face isnt involved its marked nsfw? i mean i have seen much worse not marked nsfw...i cant even have a funny motivational poster of cleavage with cleavage involved without having it marked nsfw....we r "supposed" to be adults on this site...can we plz start acting like them? (funny thing is within mintues of posting this blog another pic was marked nsfw....i guess its ok to parade around in your lingerie on this site but senses of humor and free speech apparantly arent allowed) i need to vent..... i'm sick of having to watch what i say so YOU dont get mad...then when it comes to me u dont give a sick of tiptoeing around u...from now on im gonna say what i want when i want..u dont like it well then FUCK OFF
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Your Name: Age: Favorite position: 1. Do you think I'm cute?. 2. Would you have sex with me? 3. lights on or off? 4. Would you have to be drunk? 5.Would you take a shower with me? 6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 7.Would you leave after or stay the night? 8.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 9.Condom or skin? 10. Have sex on the first date? 11.Would you kiss me during sex? 12.Do you think I would be good in bed? 13. Would you use me as a booty call? 14.Can I use you as a booty call? 15.Can we take pictures of the act? 16.How long would we have sex? 17.Would you tell your friends about me? 18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend? 19.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? 20. One thing that you would like to do to me if you were alone with me?
Random Thoughts....
Find your own pose! Went to Monster Jam in oakland the other night. Decided to go to it late, got there late, and got home late.. but what else is new? I have to admit that ever since last year, when I was at Monster Jam at the Arco Arena, I have been a die hard fan of the Gravedigger.. Even though Arco is inside, super small, and really no room for the trucks to perform at their best ability, the crowd was amped! The show was hot,and Gravedigger was off the hook! Waited the whole show in oakland to see his freestyle performance, and of course he was last. The fucktard flipped his truck in the first 30 sec. OMG! I wanted to shed a tear, was so let down.. (sigh) Monster Mutt Dalmation lmao the truck lookks like a doggie. with a ears and a long tail that sticks up in the air. Oh when it jumped the tail wagged, ears flopped to. what will be next wacked out monster truck? Maybe a Dinosaur, a pretty purple one. Oh wait, wait, that truck was there too. A purple Dinosaur
Random Survey Crap
You're pregnant, who's the other parent? i think i'm done having kids.... What's your favourite number? 4 The last thing you drank? water How would you tell the person you like that you like them? ask them to hang sometime, see what happens What color shirt are you wearing? red What time did you get to sleep last night? about 2 i guess What's the weather like? chilly and blah Who last made you feel shy? can't really remember What annoys you? people referring to their signifigant other as "my baby" in converstation What's your favorite soccer team? not a soccer fan Do you have any pets? yep, my son makes the perfect puppy haha What's your favorite movie? cry baby Who, in your opinion, is the hottest guy in the world? johnny depp, aaron lewis, jared leto When was the last time you cried? i cry almost every day for my father What's in your pocket? guitar picks, light medium and heavy hehe Last song you danced to? linkin park
First off I wanna say FUCK YOU! to all the spineless ass motherfucker that cant stand behind their soldiers, sailors, airmen, and marines... So, FUCK YOU!!! And to all of you that are willing to support us from the bottom of my heart, Thank you so very much... Now if you are still reading this and havent yet get off your as and go thank the closest vet for everything they gave you... For thoses that are a bit slower than others vets gave you your freedom... Now I am a US soldier proudly serving my country in Iraq, and my father and brother are also vets... This is my second tour and everytime i go anywhere in the US i hear the same stupid bullshit from ignorant ass people, like i wouldnt give my life for this country, or why are you wasting your life?... Like i said I PROUDLY serve my country and I AM willing to give my life for what I love, my family, my friends, my country, and my freedom. I want to make sure my little boy has a place to grow up without a terrorist threat knocking on
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Quote of the Day The late Dr. Adrian Rogers (1931-2005) offered the following observation several years ago and it bears poignant significance today: You cannot legislate the poor into freedom by legislating the rich out of freedom. What one person receives without working for, another person must work for without receiving. The government cannot give to anybody anything the government does not first take from somebody else. When half of the people get the idea that they do not have to work because the other half is going to take care of them, and when the other half gets the idea that it does no good to work because somebody else is going to get what they work for, that my dear friend is about the end of any nation. You cannot multiply the wealth by dividing it." SEVEN KINDS OF SEX Results of a recent research show that there are 7 kinds of sex. The 1st kind of sex is called: Smurf Sex.. * This kind of sex happens when you first meet someone, and you both have sex until y
Random :d
If you have seen Monsters vs Aliens, you know that scene where the President is playing the keyboard in front of the alien machine thingy? My son and my nephew broke out dancing to it right now when it came on. It was so freaking cute. That is all. Beverly Hills Chihuahua is hilarious after a couple of beers. How awesome am I? Eh? I like throwing random "eh?'s around. It makes life that much more fun. Any whoodle, I've been bored and poking around Facebook. The quizzes on there get my award of randomness. I crack up at the pure and complete randomness of them *sighs* and yes, I am that easily amused. Oh and any whoodle will be my "word of the day" until I wake up tmrw and am less exhausted, lol. Back to what the whole purpose of this blog is... So I took this quiz titled "What Periodic Element Are You?" I loved the answer so much I had to share it with you. How awesome is THAT for you? I know, you're so lucky. Any whoodle, here it is: Emilie completed
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TEST WE ALL KINDA DID FROM Wow! You have quite a big repertoire when it comes to kinky sex. And you're probably also willing to play on either side of the fence. You should look for another Blue, or an Ultraviolet if you want to broaden your horizon. Greens may be okay as well but will probably bore you after a while. Reds are too vanilla for you. But I promised you a more detailed analysis, so here it is. Note that most scales are twofold: There are separate values for giving (active) and receiving (passive). If you scored high on one of them, you should look for a partner who scored high on the other. If you scored high on both of them, go for someone who is similar (or for multiple partners if you're into that). If you scored low on both, this probably is not your kind of kink. You scored 72% giving and 46% receiving on oral. You scored 44% giving and 90% receiving on anal. You scored 31% giving and 79%
Random Bloggings~
I was standing at the bar alone, waiting for my drink when she walked up. The hottest girl in the whole place. Not a dancer here looked a tenth as good as she did. Thing was she wasn't really dressed like one of the dancers. She was very sexy in a cage back black dress and leather boots. But they looked like clothes a woman would for a night on the town not a night dancing for men in a topless club. But I had to ask, you never know. "Um, excuse me I was wondering if I could get a dance?" She just looked at me and smiled for a second before replying, ”I'm sorry I don't work here." "Oh I'm sorry I didn't know I wasn't. . . " "I know its okay." "Well can I buy you a drink? I mean if you're not here with anyone." "Sure I'm alone." After our drinks and a couple minutes of silence in which I furtively snatched glances of the stunning woman standing next to me, I screwed up enough courage to ask, "What’s your name?" "Mandy." She replied extending her hand in my direction.
Turns out my son enjoys the cartoons I used to watch when I was little, even more than the modern ones. Go figure. He likes Dick Tracy, Hong Kong Phooey, Mr. Magoo, Hercules, Tom & Jerry, Josey and the Pussycats, Scooby Doo, etc. I was browsing videos recently, and dug up some of the old TV shows that I loved as a kid. How many of these do you remember? Gigantor: Felix The Cat: Hercules: Underdog: Peabody and Sherman: Marine Boy: Kimba The White Lion: Sea Hunt: The Green Hornet: Batman: Voyage To the Bottom Of The Sea: Lost In Space:
hey yall...i'm without internet at the i wont be around much for a while...which sucks...i've made some really good friends here and i'm gonna miss talkin to yall daily.  i'm dealin with some stuff in real life and jsut wont be around...if ya wanna stay in touch you can email me at i'll reply when i can...   xoxo, april...yeah, that's my name...some of yall didnt know badfish is comin to houston...i soooooo wanna go...but i have to go to austin that weekend for my sis's wedding  :(   ....freakin sister..... hey yall...i'm bein lazy...if you have a bomb folder you should put a link to your profile here so i can find yall when i get around to usin  :D
Random Thoughts
...If vegetable oil is made with veggies, what the heck is baby oil made with?????? ...if "they" say that you get wiser with age, who are "they" and how do "they" know that I'm any wiser or not???
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Life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences, but rather, it’s a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite sublime plan.
Random Thoughts About None Too Much!
It never fails to amaze me how many friend requests I get that assume I'm a chick because of my profile pic. Apparently reading is over-rated. Besides... I always thought the focal point of the pic was Houdini snuggled in beside her, not her. I think the worst part of getting out of a major relationship is the flipping and flopping your head goes through while trying to work things out. One minute you're seeing things with incredible clarity and know exactly where you need to be. Then something happens... can't my finger on what, and everything becomes as muddled as ever. These periods seem to last longer than the clarity. This of course makes the healing process last much longer than necessary. Am I alone in feeling this way or is this a common thing? Most of the women I know just looove Nickelback. Personally I'm not a big fan... The State was a good disc but after that they're pretty hit or miss in my world. One or two songs on each CD is ok and the rest is just drivel. A
Randomness In My Head
Focus on the color purple this week to bring you luck.   ~ okay so purple it is since I REALLY need the luck! "good choices come from experience.... experience comes from bad choices." -?
In the year of fourteen ninety-twoWhen columbus sailed the ocean blueHad he landed on indias shoreYou might never have come to knock on my door.Who needs a rhyme or a reasonSome dreams were made to findSo I know that I must followAsk me just how much I love youYou are starlight, Im galileoEven on the darkest night ohI will find the shining light of our love.Through the rain clouds thundering nightsMr. franklin stood there holding his kiteHe was crazy always pressing his luckBut he got what he wanted when lightning struck, yeah.Who needs a rhyme or a reasonSome dreams were made to findSo I know that I must followAsk me just how much I love youYou are starlight, Im galileoEven on the darkest night ohI will find the shining light.Ask me just how much I love youYou are starlight, Im galileoEven on the darkest night ohI will find the shining light of our love.I believe in you and the special love we could shareAnd maybe one day darling youll turn aroundAnd all I really know is I will be the
Random Thoughts & Quotes/syaing Worth Repeating
In the nye of the devil moon, She hunts under your light. The wolf so dark, Her hunger gives her sight. A thirst that is never quenched, Her madness do not take light. For her love unto you be drenched, Her appetite, to start the night. Be consumed as dead lament, Give in or ere is to fight. ~YOU ARE LEAVING GOOD TIMES HERE TO GO BACK AND FACE REALITY~ Show me a sane man and I will be happy to cure him for you .....
somehow i felt in-addiquate, as though you had already experienced much more in your life than i had in mine. we have lived the same ammout of time but you have done so much more, experimented much more, LIVED much more. i guess you could sense that. i have takent the express lane to responsibility, boredom, a cruel reality that i call life as i know it, you took me away from that when i was with you. You made me confortable to be myself, but not too comfortable to where i didnt try and impress you or try and make you like me all over again. But again life has diffrent plans for the both of us, and will diverge us off this path that we oh so breifly walked together. so, thank you, i will always be there for you when other people piss you off and you cant talk to any one else.
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Two very diff'rent people Too scared to get along 'Til two hearts beat together Underneath one sun One very special moment Can turn a destiny And what some would say could never change Has changed for you and me 'Cause it's all It's all in the way you look through your eyes And when all is said and done All of the fear and all of the lies Are not hard to overcome It's all in the way you look at it That makes you strong We were two Now we are one We are two very diff'rent people So much to overcome So why care for one another When there's so much to be done? 'Cause sometimes it's necessary Just look how far we've come You could say, my friend, that it's the end Or a new tale has begun And one moment in time Is all the time we need Just to make a difference To make it better For you and for me If you just believe
  THANK YOU TO WYATCOXX for bidding on won me love. WINNING BID: $50 bling pack and 3 day blast!   He will receive all sorts of amazing goodies...see previous blog for details.   If anyone would like to purchase anything off the to me in private and we can work something out.   LOVE TO YOU!!!   Tried to post this in a status but it was too big:   I'M HOME...GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT...NOT A MAJOR ONE. I'M SORE. BAD TRAFFIC AND MY BRAKES FAILED. LOOKING INTO NEGLIGENCE ON MEINEKE'S FAULT B/C I JUST HAD A BRAKE CHECK AND FLUID TOP-OFF. WON'T BE SPENDING $ ON HERE FOR A WHILE, SO ALL CREDS I HAVE WILL BE SAVED FOR SPECIAL PEOPLE. WOULD LIKE BLINGS I DON'T ALREADY HAVE. With the new craze of the famplifier, I find a lot of people kissing up to me to try to swindle me into adding them to my family. I can tell you right now it's not going to work on me, okay? And just because you added me to your family doesn't mean I'm going to add you to mine. Don't get me w
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BE COMPLETELY HONEST 1 When was the last time you saw me?   2 Were you happy to see me?   3 What was the 1st thing that ran thru your mind when you saw me?   4 How well do you know me?   5 If you had 1 question to ask me, what would you ask?   6 If you saw that I was hurting would you try to help me?   7 Besides when you see me,do you ever think of me?   8 Have I ever pissed you off? If yes explain.   9 What is a good quality of mine?   10 What is a bad quality of mine?   11 Would you ever ask my for a dance?   12 When I'm gone...Would you miss me?   13 What is your favorite memory of me?   14 What do you think is my best physical feature?   15 Will you always be my freind?   Answer for me :P DO I SPREAD RUMORS AM I PRETTY AM I SMART AM I EASY TO GET ALONG WITH AM I HATEFUL CAN I BE A BITCH WHEN I AM MAD AM I CRAZY CAN YOU TRUST ME WITH YOUR SECRETS AM I PREPPY CAN BE EASILY LOVED DO I LOOK LIKE THE TYPE O
We slip close in the spaces that bind, the places that rend and tear under the relentless scrutiny of our demands. All of us are falling. Falling in, falling out falling into, sometimes landing with sickening thuds that produce rivulets of blood and scars that shine near as red. I like you because you are wounded, wounded like me in different contexts that make it interesting for us to compare the twists of the places where we stitched ourselves back together again, to try again. To try to not try again. I like you because you are smooth and unstained, glistening purely in your idealistic unrealities. Sometimes it gets to be a bit much, then, I like you simply because you are pretty. With this hand I’ll hold yours, and that one cradles the tender slivers of this friends hope. That ones love. Yet anothers despair. Clutched in the warm dampth of my fragile fist that nests them safely, close to me, where I can see the pulsing of life in these small wayward dreams. You dream of despo
A Dog's Prayer By Beth Norman Harris Treat me kindly, my beloved master, for no heart in all the world is more grateful for kindness than the loving heart of me. Do not break my spirit with a stick, for though I should lick your hand between the blows, your patience and understanding will more quickly teach me the things you would have me do. Speak to me often, for your voice is the world's sweetest music, as you must know by the fierce wagging of my tail when your footstep falls upon my waiting ear. When it is cold and wet, please take me inside, for I am now a domesticated animal, no longer used to bitter elements. And I ask no greater glory than the privilege of sitting at your feet beside the hearth. Though had you no home, I would rather follow you through ice and snow than rest upon the softest pillow in the warmest home in all the land, for you are my g
Random Funfacts
? my nail polish is always chipped ? most lipstick contains fish scales this is why i don't wear i look like a hooker in lipstick ? i don't really make eye contact with people i don't know well...unless I'm working...then its no problem ? i like to hot roll my hair ? i have four scars on my tummy from a laser surgery to remove my gall bladder ? i've lost most faith in the opposite sex ? i quote lyrics when i cant find my own words...i also quote movies a lot ? my right ankle pops every time i go up stairs since i sprained it my senior yr of high school ? i crochet ? when im bored and nobody's online...i talk to myself on my messengers ? i collect bottle tops and tabs off cans ? i'm a photographer ? i have and obsession with other peoples belly buttons ? my favorite composer is Sergei Vassilievitch Rachmaninoff ? i'm an event manager for a resort (mostly weddings) ? everything gives me heart burn ? i re-fry my fried rice ? the last 4 digits of my cell nu
Random Thoughts
Random Thoughts
I know GFR has treated me well. But theres a few that shafted alot of ppl for being loyal to the gfr name. I was one of those ppl that got screwed over. For some reason I am still compelled to go into gfr. There has been many firings and ppl quiting gfr cause of the bullshit. There are a few others that are staff that never go in there and have loyalties else where. But how can someone have loyalties to other places still be staff in gfr? Oh wait I know why, they are fakes and tell the owner everything he wants to hear!!!!!!!!!
Random Bling Give-a-way
Random Bling Give-a-way
Random Bling Give-a-way
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You know there is something wrong with the world when 14 yr old girls have the online name 'X rated'. Actually it's Ahhh! Size 26?!?!  I bought some pants from Hot Topic awhile ago and thought they said 29 because my normal size, which was 30 was too loose by this brand.  I go to put on the pants the next morning and I see the tag says 26.  I was like, "not good".  So I try them on and wala.  They fit, but the hugged me like a pair of chick pants.  They caused a lot of uncomfortable readjustments, but what the hell.  My friend Bryan actually named my 'junk' adjustments as the 'LA handshake'. The reason I couldn't just go return them is because I used the reciept to give a chick my number as she was on working and couldn't give out her number at that point.  I did get the date though, so I'll survive.  They didn't shrink in the drier, but the top button dig break eventually.
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but, if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best!Marilyn Monroe I knew i liked her for a reason
Random Double Bling And 1million Fu-bucks Raffle!!
Random Double Bling And 1million Fu-bucks Raffle!!
Random Poem I Wrote.
P { MARGIN: 0px } UL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } OL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } "Social Tendencies"   What do you do, when conscience fails? Do you shy away from society, as the blood of the innocent, and guilty alike, permeate our very being?   We forbid the thought. We don't help. We don't change. We don't attempt to make things better.   But, we think we do. Ah, the blessing of self-denial. Ignorance is bliss, for those who don't know that they should know better.   Which is no one.   We all know better. Yet, ignore the very thought. Every good notion, etheric. As our all encompassing darkness prevails.   We close our eyes to death "Honesty"Past trangressionscome to light.unbidden to your mindin the dark of night.Forgiveness can be foundbut not be bound.It takes youto make it right.
Random Crap In My Head.
A skinny little bitch to be my whore. I eat pussy as well as any girl. The thing I love about this time is year is that everyone is eager to start shedding their clothes. Not nudity but showing more skin :)
One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began, though the voices around you kept shouting their bad advice -- though the whole house began to tremble and you felt the old tug at your ankles. "Mend my life!" each voice cried. But you didn't stop. You knew what you had to do, though the wind pried with its stiff fingers at the very foundations, though their melancholy was terrible. It was already late enough, and a wild night, and the road full of fallen branches and stones. But little by little, as you left their voices behind, the stars began to burn through the sheets of clouds, and there was a new voice which you slowly recognized as your own, that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world, determined to do the only thing you could do -- determined to save the only life you could save. ~ Mary Oliver ~ This morning my thoughts traveled along To a place in my life where days have long since gone Beholding an image of
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United We Stand Corrected Written by: Ned Greeley & Baron VonMunchausen (a.k.a. Man vs. Mantis...check them out) Slope down and join me in the gutter.Follow valleys to a place where promises are always kept and pain is fabled, legend, lore.Tell me of the days when nickels bought the world as well as some memories and uphill both ways was somehow possible.Genuine and pure like Sunday morning diner eggs and warm interior of vehicles.Serious was kept in movies.Technological advances, cutting down the chances of birth dwelt innocence, my innocence.Attaining peace among smei-auto guns and hollow tip bullets that match the hearts of shooters around the world.Skepticism sold true intentions.Blind faith was fresh cut grass and ice cream men were heroes, marching happy tunes.Fuck the progress, the war.Fuck the magic computers.Fuck the ever changing fashion trends and not so reality shows.Fuck the politics.Fuck the president.Fuck the cars and the money.Fuck the sex.Give me peace.Give me sereni
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how do you tell a friend of forever thats she's turning into THAT parent. You know the one you'd sooner punch in the face than hang out with? She's so involved in her grade school kids lives that after about 2 minutes of speaking to her you feel like you are talking to one of them! President  of the PTO , girl scout leader, runs the baseball/ softball league. Aside from the fact shes going insane & in concerned she's spreading herself just way too thin shes starting to complain. LIke *my daughter has this girl who insists she has to be friends with everyone my daughter is its disgusting* blah blah complaints. Well last week just tipped it for me . We were sitting at breakfast ( mind you this is a common occurance for us)and she starts talking bad about other peoples kids . She ripped a little girl about how shes been cheering for a few years & how she cant cheer & HER daughters are better and shouldfnt be there ect. ect then preceeds to have the same rant about yet another child in tum
Please help me force the pain awayPlease don't tell me that it's here to stayMy life has taken a treacherous courseLies brought about by an evil sourceSecond guessing if its all even worth itWith a ton of bricks it feels like ive been hitI feel like there is nowhere to turnDeceitful lies made my stomach churnI wish that i could walk away and turn a blind eyeInstead i sit here in my secret pain and cryWishing that one person hadnt harbored so much hatePushing me towards a doomed fateHurt slices me like a knifeKnowing i was hated enough to destroy my lifeBy someone who doesnt know the meaning of moralityStuck in her own fucked up realityDoes she take pleasure in my secret painKnowing i had it all to lose, she had it all to gainWishing that i could disappearLeaving behind one lonely, last sorrow filled tear AbstinenceAcne MedicineAerosol ContainersAfternoonsAirplane Aisle SeatsAlaskaAlfalfa SproutsAlligator ShoesAluminum FoilAntennasApple JuiceApricot KernelsAromatherapyArtificial NailsAs
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What they hell is the world coming to is there ever going to be a manly man again ???  It does not matter what the age is that I date they can not handle me working and going to school... They whine and b*tch and moan about "when are we gonna spend more time together?" OK I understand that realtionships are hard and take work but when I give all I can and the other person goes into it saying they support you and then when it coems down to it they cant handle it.  THAT IS WHY I STAY SINGLE!!!! SCREW THE WHINEY ONES!!!!!! I mean its not like I would not fully support them in thier endeavors... and yes I have been there and fully supported my ex-husband while he went to school. SO I know what its like on the other side of it... I mean its not like it isnt hard for me too!!!! anyways I am just ranting on and on... cause it a pet peeve.
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Bottle of Wine A woman and a man are involved in a car accident on a snowy, cold Mondaymorning; it's a bad one. Both of their cars are totally demolished, butamazingly neither of them is hurt. God works in mysterious ways. After theycrawl out of their cars, the man is yelling about women drivers. The womansays, 'So, you're a man. That's interesting. I'm a woman. Wow, just lookat our cars! There's nothing left, but we're unhurt. This must be a signfrom God that we should be friends and live in peace for the rest of ourdays.' Flattered, the man replies, 'Oh yes, I agree completely, this must be a signfrom God! But you're still at fault...women shouldn't be allowed to drive.'The woman continues, 'And look at this, here's another miracle. My car iscompletely demolished but this bottle of wine didn't break. Surely Godwants us to drink this wine and celebrate our good fortune.' She hands the bottle to the man. The man nods his head in agreement, opensit and drinks half the bottle and then ha
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Smurfs turn pink when you choke them.... I pick my cereal by which toy is inside... How deep would the ocean be if there weren't any sponges in it?     I might have read that somewhere but I don't remember...
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I am suspended in a cage. To the right of me is another cage with my oldest son and two daughters, to the left of me is a cage holding my love. I reach out to my kids and their cage starts to drop toward the black, inky muck below us. I try to reach for my love and his cage starts to drop toward the muck. Off in the distance ahead of me on a ledge is my youngest son telling me “I love you mom, take care.”, as he walks toward a brightly lit doorway. Behind me is a crying little girl with a blanket and a stuffed animal. She turns away from me and walks toward a doorway of a closet and steps in shutting the door behind her. I turn back toward the two cages. My love says “I am leaving baby”. From the other cage my oldest daughter says “Mommy, I found a man.”, my youngest daughter says “I’m going to marry my girlfriend.”, and my oldest son says “Mom you never really loved me did you”? I think to myself if I can just get to th
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I know everyone has stress, and that it's normal to experience it. I am under so much stress right now. I have a bunch of children at work I have to babysit. I've been there a month, and am already thinking about getting a different job. The stress just isn't worth the paycheck. I also have some personal things to deal with. I haven't shared anything with anyone, and really, I don't know if I want to. There's someone in my life I am growing very fond of, and I think she's becoming the same towards me. If you're reading this, you know who you are. If you want to know what the personal things are, just ask. I don't keep many people close to me, and letting this person get close to me is a scarey thing for me. I let one person get close to me, and she betrayed my trust. I know that this person won't do that to me, but it's hard to lower my guard, when I've had it up for so long now. I really want her and I to get close, and trust eachother. I really want to let her into my deepest recesse
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Random General's
I BELIEVE...    Current mood:  contentI believe there is sweetness where theres nothing but sour bitternessI believe happiness is best achieved through unconsciousnessI believe in counting minutes backwards  towards the hour because time is not foreverI believe sexy is a naked man standing erect in a heated shower not noticing my stare I believe love to be a bandit who robbed my 3rd eye blindI believe ignorant bliss is closing your eyes and taking a piss while sitting in the midst of your own aromatic shit, and enjoying itI believe a fist can be a loving relationship between your lips and my fingertips, or sometimes your anusI believe true love is when sweat drips from my chest down to the nest where I lay my eggs that rest with all intents of one day being blessed with the process of procreation...I believe sex to be a mutual dance of two dead souls reuniting in the flesh where they awaken refreshed from death to find happiness... sacred bliss, synergistic nothingness captures my insi
So. Another blog to try and express the chaotic thoughts rocketing through some grey matter I call a cerebra cortex.  It is only a big bunch of nerves and chemicals.  Hell, that is all that I am -- a large collection of atoms, chemicals, and electrical impulses.  None of those things ever feel pain. Why the hell then do I hurt?  Where can it come from?  Why is it that this emotion called Love can cause more damage than anything else on Earth?  I can see what physical interactions do to the muscle, sinew, bones, chemicals, and even electrical processes in the body, but why is it that Love can do more and not leave a single mark? It makes no sense. I know there is no particle for Love, but yet I feel a great chasm where mine should be.  Einstein could not figure this out either.  We know light is both a particle and a wave without knowing how or why, but no one can tell me why Love has no form or substance but it acutely noticable when it is absent. I sit here contemplating this as
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Random Thoughts I Have Sometimes...
Just a few of the things I've learned lately: Life is unfair. It will take everything from you, if you let it, and offer nothing back. Equivalent exchange is a meaningless phrase wrought out of desperation to make everything nonsensical conform to some grand scheme i truly believe to be nonexistant. Harsh words and actions remain in memory far longer than a smile. Sadly, it has always been this way. I will most likely be far better remembered for every wrong I have ever commited than for any good things I try to accomplish. However; I can decide each day how I will affect my world. I can simply let each moment and opportunity pass, justified in the fact that nature will take it's course, or I can make a stand. I can choose to make today better than yesterday was. And if I'm feeling truly noble, I can attempt to do so more for my friends and enemies than myself. I cannot be a sheep. I do not follow well, I am far too opinionated, and my vision is far too good (I wear glasses for a r
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Random Thoughts
Follow your DESTINY Wherever it leads you! There comes a time in your life when you realize that if you stand still, you will remain at this point forever. You realize that if you fall and stay down, life will pass you by... Life's circumstances are not always what you might wish them to be. The pattern of life does not necessarily go as you plan. Beyond any understanding, you may at times be led in different directions that you never imagined, dreamed, or designed. Yet you had never put any effort into choosing a path, or tried to carry out your dream, then perhaps you would have no direction at all. Rather than wondering about or questioning the direction your life has taken, accept the fact that there is a path before you now. Shake off the "why's" and "what if's," and rid yourself of confusion. Whatever was-is in the past. Whatever is-is what's important. The past is a brief reflection. The future is yet to be realized.Today is here. Walk your path one step at a time- with coura
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  My whole life I've always taken care of someone else; always putting myself last to provide the needs for others. Never did I ask for anything in return because I consider it a blessing to be a blessing for others. Unfortunately in the end, my kindness was taken for weakness & I was labeled an "extreme bitch" cuz I decided now it was time 2 take care of me. I was told if I keep neglecting myself I won't be any good 2 anybody & that made sooo much sense. So now I take care of me whenever I feel like it and to those who I struggled for who no longer have my back cuz I chose to put myself 1st - I wasn't depending on ur asses n e way - I'ma b aight!!!! (When did lovin urself become the avenue hataz travel 2 try & run u down???) I'm laf'n @ all of u!!! Ok, my 1st blog & just f.y.i. it's called "Random Thoughts..." cuz my mind is always goin a mile a minute & how I write (proper English or slang) can offer insight to the mood I'm in. Thank you!!  It has been one of those days where any s
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Burnt and sold out, Pierced by your soulless blade, Do you know it hurts to hear your name, I curse the pain you've made. Twisted and impossible, You've torn me apart You'll never find these pieces Of my shattered and scattered heart. Once a shy spirit,alone:she was risen from the shell to the open fields of love but they smiled a little glimpse for her fate would shun her back. Paining her heart to grief,and breaking up her spirits to tears, her glass heart to pieces and the return of her fears... she scurried back to her former ways, in which she knew her only refudge. And with her insides flaming like a burning hell, how was she to know her heart would burn so, darkness is the only something she knows. Was darkness her comfort,shading her from pain like a mother cares for her kin. With tears of blood and a heart so blind, was it merely another illusion cast by her tormenters? There is beauty amongst the breakdown, if she may rise then may she spark a new, perhaps she may too prove
Random Ramblings
I have many friends on Fubar, and i like them just fine but of course i believe there is more to accepting friend requests to others. They see it as getting points or fucks, oh big whoop! The meaning to having a true friend on any given social network is the connection you have with them ultimately.
Random Musings
I was browsing newsrag and found an article that says canola oil is bad for you. It even backs it up. To beat all it says lard, tallow, and animal fat are really good for you. I have been told for years the exact oppisite! Has anyone else heard about this?   here is a link I love Halloween. I love handing out candy, seeing all the great costumes and talking with parents. I even keep up with trends. _For a few years there, you never saw smaller children without their parents. I noticed this year less parents as they stayed in the cars. What few adults I did see mostly stayed along the edge of the road. I realize adults are tired but its still a good ideal to stay close to your children. If nothing else, you can grab their hand and hold them back to keep them from darting back out in the road. Not to mention when I was taking my daughter trick or treating, I liked to visually check out the people who were giving out the treats. I could usually remember which house gave out what
Random Rantings
I saw the perfect graphic tonight I mean seriouslywhat DO you do when the only one who can make you stop crying is theone who made you cry? You try everything you can to make everyone thinkyou're not broken when everyone sees that you are.You keep going asthough nothing ever happened wearing that fake grin saying how muchbetter off you are without them when deep inside wonder howthey are and if they think of you. When did "I'll love you forever"become "I'll love you if?" when did "I'm in love with you" becomesomething that you can just turn off? These days the word LOVE is justtossed around like it has no real meaning it's just something peoplesay to get what they need at that particular moment.I'm not sure thatmost people understand the impact that one little phrase can have on aperson's life it's like a saving grace...a finality on a long life ofpain.. a new hope of something and someone to believe in, but whathappens to that person when the one they thought would love them
I guess its all the same.I guess ill always be single.I guess this sadness that grows inside me will never change.I guess that is my destiny.I guess this life is over.I guess that it will change when im dead.For now i guess this Mumm is over, just like the words i once spoke before, and from this year to a new year that is just beginning, i guess ill always be single, for i guess its all the same. Im a good man, i work hard, and i take care of my responsibilities. Where on my profile did you read otherwise?? Games, you want to play games, go back to my bio and read my opinion on that. Im just so sick and tired of the repeatitive issue, this is why i stay single, why do you think i want to be with a person who doesnt know how to be my inspiration? In my experience, ive met a few people online, some who are still my closest and dearest freinds, others that i wish ive never met. But, hey, what can i do? New york is filled with horror stories, lol. Im not here to be your puppet. Im not her
Random Status Messages
Bored to death in the recesses of my perverted mind, lol. The shadows that hide behind these eyes tell a story of beauty and loyalty that has yet to be shown truth without drama and secrecy. Will you be the one to break your silence and tell those words that your heart knows must be told? They say I can make it without you, I can do this alone, I am stronger by myself, I can get through this, I don't need a mate to make me complete, and I am not meant to be happy. I say I do need my partners support in all decision concerning our family. I do not wanna do this alone, I want your support. We are stronger as a team. Only with our combined strength and God's help can we conquer everything. If I was not meant to be happy, whole and complete with your healing love then God would not of sent you to me like I prayed. You are the best thing that has happened to me and the answer to all my prayers. You are the one that has always been for me, you are and will always be my other half. I love you
Random Thoughts Of A Curious Man
The only real time is this moment all others do not exist. I believe we should live in the current moment as much as possible it is really the only time we have any control over. I understand trying to escape from the current moment for various reasons but I think it should be a concious effort and not the norm. I understan that the current moment can be so terrible that we must escape it. The past are just memories and the future are just dreams and both are fanasties. By not living in the current moment we tend to avoid things. Put off decisions and tend not to deal with the realities facing us. To dwell in the past is to be among ghosts and memories that may not be as good or bad as we think they were. To dwell in our dreams of the the future is to deny the present for the hope of the future that may never be. Promises and expectations of what is to come are not real and cannot be kept. No one really knows what tomorrow will bring and cannot promise any action or thought beyond the
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There is a woman on Facebook that is deleting people from her friends list because all their animals on Farmville are fenced in. She believes it's animal cruelty and keeps posting as her status how mean we all are because the animals need to be free.I love crazy people. They are such entertainment. Just thought I'd share.  YELLOW RICE CASSEROLE 1 pkg. yellow rice mix, cooked according to directions1 stick butter, seed to rice while warm1 (12 oz.) Mexican1 can cream of mushroom soupAdd Mexican and soup to the rice mixture. Put into greased casserole dish. Top with grated medium Cheddar cheese (about 1 cup). Bake about 30 minutes at 350 degrees. Can add 1 cup boiled chicken or turkey. I just perv'ed some dudes page. He listed his interests like this.... "Wrighting drawing and vampires"See the funny?Lol
Random Things I Like In A Guy
  This list is random but enjoy reading my weird taste.★ Bandanas★ Polite★ Blonde hair (obviously IDC that much)★ SKINNYYY or muscular★ Outgoing (because I'm not)★ Loves to partyyy                                                                                                               ★ Spiky hair ★ Good at sports★ & finally non smoker DUH!♥ Emily * Doll !
Randomness Incarnate
im so tired of having to fight tooth and fucking nail for everything anything thats even remotly good in my life. im tired of having to defend my every move im tired of the constant struggle to prove myself. why the fuck am i even needing to prove myself i dont get it. maybe i need to stop being nice maybe i need to tell everyone to go fuck themselves?.....*sighs* im just so frustrated i have to fight with social services i have to fight with my family i have to fight with my daughter i have to fight with my ex i am just so tired of fighting for everything im tired of having to fight. i would love nothing more than to find that one person who will fight with me at the least. who i can depend on and share everything with. who will hold me and be happy to hold me and love me if for nothing other than the same in return. i want a family and at the same time i worry that if i wait to much longer i wont be able to have any more kids wich is sumthing i would want if i were to ever find that
Random Thoughts
Beyonce, stick to singing. My name ain't shawty, bay, baby, bae, boo, or baby. If you're in prison, serve your time and get your ass off of the internet. Ladies and Gentlemen, if you have a BMW (body made wrong), stop posting pics of it. Nuvo tastes like blue St. Ides If you're gonna take a picture in the mirror...clean that mufugga. Fellas, pictures of just your lips, is kinda GAY. If you're going to take a picture and post it, clean up behind you first. Fellas, pictures of your nasty "grizzly" pubes is not cute. Pictures of money....ahhh tax season Pics of your shoes....extra retarded. Is Inspector Gadget Jewish? Where do baby Care Bears come from? Do you think that Tender Heart actually had sex? Why does Sandy, a squirrel, live under water? Can animals be gay? I was just informed that there are documented cases of male/male animal copulation. Under 29? I can't do anything for you, except, teach you how to ride a bike. How long do you think it will ta
Random Thoughts Of Violence.
So I just got a phone call from my cousin informing me that my other cousin Jeremy OD'd last night. So much for the great outlook I was having today with getting more feature film work next week and all that that entails. Now I just want to tell the world to go fcuk itself. I feel fairly cynical today. After the SML F up this morn and his ineptitude in general has led me to disdain culture. A bunch of stupid animals that run around with the herd claiming to know more than the sheep quivering with fear standing right next to them. Eternally, narcissistic, devolved dunces speaking from an underdeveloped brain rejecting the heart. 65-100 years long "whose gotta bigger dick" contest with poor eyesight. The WMD shoot is finally over. Yesterday was spent baking in the sun at the Mojave desert and today was at a sound stage in Santa Monica. Great shoot, footage, crew, actors and good times had by all. I really think this movie is starting to come together.
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Ten Things Every Child with Autism Wishes You Knew by Ellen Notbohm from the book Ten Things Every Child with Autism Wishes You Knew (2005, Future Horizons, Inc.) Some days it seems the only predictable thing about it is the unpredictability. The only consistent attribute -- the inconsistency. There is little argument on any level but that autism is baffling, even to those who spend their lives around it. The child who lives with autism may look “normal” but his behavior can be perplexing and downright difficult. Autism was once thought an “incurable” disorder, but that notion is crumbling in the face knowledge and understanding that is increasing even as you read this. Every day, individuals with autism are showing us that they can overcome, compensate for and otherwise manage many of autism’s most challenging characteristics. Equipping those around our children with simple understanding of autism’s most basic elements has a tremendou
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Two years since my world fell apart, since I lost so many things that meant so much to me. Two years feeling incomplete, full of self doubt and feeling I failed. To some it means nothing,  that I should have moved on. They do not see or know how much  I have tried, how much I have cried. I pray for relief, I pray for strength.  The saddness never dies, it's sometimes hidden for a time, only to sneak up on me without warning. It haunts my dreams, and steals my sleep, I beg for it's release.  This demon just won't let me go, it shows it's ugly head in forms of anger, bitterness and pain. I push away the ones I love, and hurt those close to me. This demon known as depression is consuming me. 
Random Rants
I'm noticing that on a whole lot of profiles, specifically those run by females, there are a list of rules. I'm guessing it's mostly women who have these rules, I don't really spend all day trolling for dudes on here, but of the 3 random guys profiles I opened none of them had anything remotely resembling a list of rules. I'm not exactly sure what makes you fall under the jurisdiction of these rules, I'm guessing just viewing the page makes you at least a potential citizen of the Kingdom of *whoever's* Profile. These rules are pretty much all the same, and by my best guess are specifically designed to make you feel like an asshole for viewing her profile and having a penis at the same time. I picked a random lady's profile just to have something to work from, and what do you know? A list of rules! This particular profile has the rules under a fairly large profile paragraph. She talks about herself, her friends, and her kids. She says she's a Capricorn, which according to the quick go
Random Crap About Me
1. MIDDLE NAME? Eric ...Thats all u get to know for now lol 2. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?  N.J.3. FAV. PIZZA? Pepperoni,onions,gr.peppers,blk. olives  4. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No not yet 5. DREAM JOB? Nascar driver...... Hell since i drive like one lol 6. DO YOU USE SARCASM? UMMMM AHHHHHH lol 7. MARRIED? No not yet 8. LAST BROKEN BONE YOU HAD? My nose was shattered 9. COKE OR PEPSI? Diet coke 10. IF YOU ANSWERED NO TO #4 BOY OR GIRL FIRST? Girl always wanted a daughter11. PLACES YOU WANT TO VIST OUT OF THE U.S.A.? Greece, Italy and Brasil12. WHAT YOU DOING RIGHT NOW? Are you kidding me? Answering this thing lol 13. FAVORITE DRINK? Coffee drink way to much 14. DREAM CAR? 69 firebird 15. Where you ever truely been in love? Yes once16. FAV. FAST FOOD? If i have to Burger King 17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Family members that have past 18. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My cuz19. Fav. Football team? Da Raiders baby 20. Wawa or 7-11? Wawa of course  21. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU
Random Rantings Of A Clown
some people go through life,wondering if they will ever find true love,you sometimes have to go through trial and error,fire and terror,but when you do find love,you want to let the whole world know that you have found someone so special,that they make you feel loved and wanted,when it seems that everyone else hates you you want to share your love with the people you care about,so that they know that love does exist,i have found that special woman to share my deepest thoughts and emotions with,and shes also my best friend. she makes my heart feel so loved,like i have never felt before,her voice,her smile,her laugh,even the way she says "i love you baby"makes my soul smile she means the world to me ,and im going to love her for the rest of my life and anyone who doesnt have a love like this,i hope that you soon find him, or her,because i gotta tell you it is the most wonderful,and warm feeling you could ever imagine i love you ashlee HEY,hows it going my names eggz and im a clown,l
Hello everybody. I am not new to fubar. Just wanted to start again, it will tak awhile before my level 26 fubar profile goes anywhere lmaoooo plus I can't uplaod anymore pics on that one because no VIP anymore.
Random Thoughts....03june2009
The most beautiful people I have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss and have found their way out of the depth. These people have an appreciation, a sensitivity and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness and a deep loving concern.  Beautiful people do not just happen.   -   Roy Nichols   Without pain, there would be no suffering; without suffering we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows; without it, there is no way of life.   -   Angelina Jolie     Sometimes the mistakes come from putting faith, trust, hope and belief in O/others that have no idea what it means to be honest, open, and true to T/themselves.
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Normally I am a fairly tech savvy guy.  I live in a house with two other geeks, I do deskside support, and also do this stuff as a Side Job.   So, I figure, how hard can this site be.....     Well, the honest truth is maybe not *that* hard, but it's still a bit convoluted for me.     I play MMO's, I am used to slang, and terminology created all within it's own environment.  I can fluently use terms like MOB, LD, Pull, Train, Rez, and more.   Not all of them will mean what they sound like, and some do.   However, the terminology here, is different, new, and I havce No F'n clue what half of it means.   Worse yet, I cannot seem to find a website to give me a N00B's guide to all the frackin terminology here either.   So, alas, I have to poke and prod at my one RL friend on here, to keep showing me how all of this works, but if anyone feels like taking some of the training load off of her, toss me a line and help me out.  :)     
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In my own special way, I was humming some In Flames while listening to Fingereleven on random, and totally got inspired. Very moody song, but I dig it. Trying to diversify my versing and add a little vagueness :D     I drift on this sea of trying to be braveDying as I'm waiting for the ocean to save me from the wavesEverything seems to fall apart on me as I waitAnd all I wanted, needed, bled for was to just make it okayWhen nothing is right end everything's wrong, how do you reconcile?How do you take nothing and make it all that you need?I keep trying and dying and fighting, but I can't quite figure outJust what makes right and brings light when there's nothing left of me(and I drown)Nothing left of all I could be(and I drown)I guess I'm just a waste after all(and I drown as I)I drift on this sea of trying to be braveDying as I'm waiting for the ocean to save me from the wavesEverything seems to fall apart on me, but I'll waitAll I wanted, needed, bled for was to just make it okay(a
hey all!! im really hmmm what to talk about? hmm i guess i could talk about my GREAT FRIENDS ON HERE!!! well most of my friends i talk to are on Angels and Demons lounge and they are so GREAT!! they make me feel like i belong there and they are just so cool!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL AND DEMON FRIENDS!!! :D......hmm what to talk about now??... well i guess i could talk about how much fubar is so cool but i dont think ppl wanna hear that lol :D ya im being sorta random right now cuz i just wanted to write a blog lol...soo umm i guess thats it for my first blog!! well i hope i made ur day or whatever!! lol idk LOVE YOU ALL!!
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Random Thoughts...
I've sat on my couch now for many nights and just starred at my plain white wall. With 50 different thoughts passing through my mind, my emotions racing at different speeds, tears moistening my cheeks. With all the lights off and just the flicker of candles creating this calming glow against my plain white wall. I’m not thinking “why me”, I’m not pondering the “reasons for this test” and I’m not feeling sorry for myself.  I’m just sitting here starring at my plain white wall.  We all at some point in our lives become “numb”.  For some that numbness is a defense, for others it’s a coping mechanism.  For me, it’s peace.  For me, it’s comfort.We all have our “sad stories” and at times we have all compared those stories.  Does it really help hearing how someone else may actually have it worse than you?  It may.  But we all know, no matter how bad it may be for someone else; that’s them, not you.
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It never ever faails to amaze me no matter how much i upgrade my pc, there is alwasy one more thing that i want to do to it.  This thing is like eating potato chips.  for all the upgrades i get and install on this thing, i could have bought 4 more. With that kinda thinking maybe I should be running for public office.  LOL       Let's see...  A guess a random thought lately that has hung in my gray matter has been how can a country as great as ours have so many people without homes, jobs, and the sense of purpose. How can this country have the abilty to create everything from laser guided bombs, to a pill that can make a man as hard as chinese algebra, but cant give the homeless and unemployed a sense of diginity and provide shelter and a job.  
Random And it goes to... So far I have been hit by 21 cars and run over by an 8 ton truck.
Random Thoughts
You know there are times when I envy machines. They feel nothing at all. They are unbiased, analytical, calculating, unemotional machines for lack of a better term. They don't feel pain, remorse, heartache, jealousy, fear, hate, nothing. They go about their existance with nothing but the task at hand concerning them. If they ever do something wrong it is corrected in a millisecond and no one is the wiser. When an equation comes along that does not compute it is rejected and moves on to the next in line. Nothing ever confuses or concerns a machine and nothing ever will. It will make a life or death desicsion before it's even thought of in a human mind. This probably does not make sense but at times.....I really do envy them.
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Lying, thinkingLast nightHow to find my soul a homeWhere water is not thirstyAnd bread loaf is not stoneI came up with one thingAnd I don't believe I'm wrongThat nobody,But nobodyCan make it out here alone.Alone, all aloneNobody, but nobodyCan make it out here alone.There are some millionairesWith money they can't useTheir wives run round like bansheesTheir children sing the bluesThey've got expensive doctorsTo cure their hearts of stone.But nobodyNo, nobodyCan make it out here alone.Alone, all aloneNobody, but nobodyCan make it out here alone.Now if you listen closelyI'll tell you what I knowStorm clouds are gatheringThe wind is gonna blowThe race of man is sufferingAnd I can hear the moan,'Cause nobody,But nobodyCan make it out here alone.Alone, all aloneNobody, but nobodyCan make it out here alone. Alone by Ma
Random Thought Of The Day...
I will someday post a full lenght bitch fit about this but just to voice the thought...   Depending on what country you are in.. example I am in the U.S. when you learn to drive you are taught to stay on the right side of the road.. Now granted Most of us can do it and there is a select few that managed to beat the sysytem and get a license dispite not knowing how to drive.. nevermind!! back on track.. Would it not make sense as a pedestrian in sitations such as shopping at wal-mart, cruising the mall.. whatever.. as you are walking threw these places it is a free for all no one is walking in any general direction or side which complicates the situation of "on coming traffic" okay you are walking along the right side of the wall, and someone is heading right towards you.. there already in the wrong lane so you think dodge right.. BUT THEY FOLLOW!! Now you have to do this ridiculos dance to avoid a colision. Thanks douche bag!! can't we all just stay to the right?? Exepct you guys th
I just getting sick and tired of people complaining about, the gay right, imigration rights, raise right etc. how about stop compaining and start worrie about your god damn self. I was not born here in the usa and my parent come from differnt side of the world. My mom comes from an Italian family but my mom was born here in the USA and my dad Mexican/Black born in Mexicali Mexico, my younger and only sister was born In Calexico california and I was born in Italy will my parents where visiting family in Italy..  I was raise there from the time I was born to the time I was 5 years old from the age of 5 until the age of 12 I was raise back in for from Mexicali Mex & Calexico Ca. Until we move to San Diego until now. In my moving around I was seeing how people manipulated the sistem about equal right's. Everyone want to be equals but at the same time they want their special rights. I hate when people talk about equal rights for illegal immigrants rights. I say this if you want equal rig
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  Donkey carts are still funny to me...... The temperature is rising and donkey cart caravans are still funny too me. It is the strangest thing. I've been in Iraq for six months now and I see donkey-drawn carriages on the street daily. However everytime I see one, I laugh. I dont know why,I guess its for the same reason that people will giggle when someone passes gas or something. All I can think of is that song "Let me ride that donkey!".I guess the heat is starting to get to me....... This has been a tough year so far. The holidays came and went, they were just another day over here. No family to get together for Thanksgiving dinner,no Santa.The new year came in with a bang as rockets came at the stroke of midnight. No Rockin New Years Eve with Dick Clark though and no Easter Bunny. Instead, we were on mission hard charging and vigilant, finding comfort and family amonst eachother. For us veterans, we know the bond that is shared between combat soldiers. We are like fathers of m
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 For those who wish to have a glass of wine...and those who don't...this is  something to think about:  As Ben Franklin said: "In wine there is wisdom, in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria." In a number of carefully controlled trials,  scientists have demonstrated that if we drink one liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than one kilo of Escherichia coli, (E.coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we would be consuming one kilo of crap.   However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine and beer (or tequila, rum, whiskey or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting.  Remember: Water = Crap; Wine = Health Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I'm doing it as a public service.
Random Ponderings
I hate when people talk about committing suicide. Other than the obvious reason that I don't want someone that I care about to die it irks me to hear that they have nothing to live for. If you're living on the streets in a cardboard box because you have nothing and are dying from maggots infesting your body you've got reason to commit suicide(even then it's a horrible thing to contemplate for me). My mom passed away when I was 16 after a 7 year battle with cancer and I have missed her every day since. She more than anyone I've ever known deserved to live a long and happy life with her family. My mom was the most beautiful person I've ever known and I loved her more than my own life. She didn'tget to see me or my younger brother finish high school or her grandchildren be born even though she fought with everything in her to beat the cancer that was destroying her body. She wanted to live and the choice was taken from her, and yet people with reasons to want to live would rather contempl
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When times get hard i think of you  When i feel alone i hug my pillow n wish it was you...  When i need a smile i play our song  I'm reminded you love me  Although the distance keeps us apart  I find my self a little each day Starting to Fall more in love What we have started as a friendship Then slowly started to become more real I'm worried one day you'll walk away Which is why I never thought to tell you the feelings I started to have... the day we met was one I'll never forget You called my phone and said 'I'm fallin for you' I felt speechless unsure of what to say Sitting there listening to you A tear rolls down my face 'I'm falling for you too' I reply Every day that goes by I want you to be with me Side by side is how we should be
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2011!!! WOOO!! So far it's been just like last year, only more friends and stuff. Working a lot and likeing my job and not wanting to harms as many people as I normally do. I guess the new year is good so far. Well that was interesting. I accidentally downrated someone and now they hate me, go fig. Hopefully I can give the intended rating, it's gonna bug me a bit knowing I did that. Damn it's been a year since I last made a blog, the fuck!?!?! Anyhoo nothing really important, just thought I should make a blog. Granted after week of annoying as people and stupid shit I'll have something interesting for people to either read and make fun of me or ignore since i don't think many people will read it.
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FRUIT WARS: The Becoming!   a long long time ago (like 20 min ago) In a Small Patch Far Far Away (a Bulletin by AsH.Weenie) A War Began (The Fruit Wars)   One Day Lady Watermellon Arose From a Shelter Underground That she was Hiding in Since a Previous War Between The Fruits. As She Glanced around her surroundings She Ponders "WTF Dammit WHere is Everyone" Within A second Later. The Evil Stealth Banana Jumps From a Tree And Attacks The Watermellon (ooooo Big Fight Scene!! lol) they fight and battle it out (All Matrixy And Shit lol) And The Banana Says To the Watermellon "Join Me on the chemically Enhanced Fruit Side! Or Be Killed!" (THe Bad Side) The Watermellon Thinks For a Minute and a Loud Pop Noise Is Echo'ed Around Them And The Watermellon Rolls Away! to Later Meet Up WIth Her Friends!... The Banana Goes Back to the Bad Side and Ponders With His Evil Warrior Fruits!..     Banana: Freezie Pop Watermellon: AsH.Weenie Mango: theresnosafetyontheseguns Apple: FEISTY
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Boy has this been a busy week.  The weekend was fantastic...I almost did a big fat bag of nothing...and yet still accomplished a lot.  But I thought it might be a good idea for summarize what I learned this week.   Polyester stretchpants should be illegal.  No ma'am they don't look good on you.  Their wide-legged goodness didn't even work that well in 1977.  And orange doesn't look good on ANYTHING that big except a please put them away. Voodoo donuts are gooooooood....for everything except my ass...for which they are extremely bad. Cats can make 10,000 different sounds.  Dogs can make 10.  Cats CANNOT be trusted.  They are watching us people...leading us to the salughter. Some people shouldn't breed.  It's just that simple. I hate people in Downtown Portland on bicycles.  You do NOT constantly have the right away...especially if I am on foot.  Bums, while funny, can be dangerous. I can still take a pretty good photo. I miss kissing someone over the age
(Flo Rida) You spin my head right round, right round When you go down, when you go down down (Ke$ha) You spin my head right round, right round When you go down, when you go down down (Flo Rida) Hey Walk out my house with my swagger Hop in that with dough, I got places to go! People to see, time is precious I looked at my cotty, are ya outta control Just like my mind where I’m going No women, no shawties, no nothin but clothes No stoppin now, my Pirellis on role I like my jewelry, that’s always on whoa I know the storm is comin my pockets keep tellin me it’s gonna shower Call up my homies it's all Then pop in the next 'cause this mix'll be ours We keep a fade away shot cuz we ballin it’s platinum patron that be ours Lil mama, I owe you just like the flowers Girl you drink with all that goodie power (Flo Rida) You spin my head right round, right round When you go down, when you go down down (Ke$ha) You spin my head right round, right round When you go down, w
Random Thoughts That Occur In What's Left Of My Mind
sometimes when I think i have my life figured out something happens where i get kicked back down to the ground and then kicked in the ribs a few times.  my life is a confusing turmoil that no matter how hard I try i can't seem to get things to work out to where everyone involved is happy. i have trouble with giving out my innermost feelings and thoughts because i can't risk opening up without knowing whether or not i'll get hurt in the end. and 90% of the time i end up hurting and trying to cover it all up. i put on my smile and make jokes but the smile is only skin deep the jokes a cheap cover up of what's going on in my head. as my namesake says I'm the joker. and a saying i like to hear is it only takes one bad day to drive the sanest man insane that's how far i am away from that. just one, bad,'s hard to stay focused sometimes. my life starts to interfere with my job and that's not good cuz that could get me fired. but i spend 75% of my life on the road working to try to mak
Random Ramblings
With each passing day, my eyes become clearer, and my heart becomes mine once again, piece by broken piece. A week ago today, I posted in my status that my dad had been taken to the hospital. He suffered from a ruptured Abdominal Aorta Aneurysm. For those that have looked this up, it is a silent killer. Those that survive usually end up suffering from multiple organ failure etc. He had collapsed in the shower and was rushed to the emergency room where the aneurysm was discovered. He lost 6 liters of blood. That is all the blood we have in our body! He was taken in for emergency surgery and given 20% chance of surviving it. He did. Saturday morning he suffered a minor heart attack due to the blood loss and was again taken into surgery. He was in a medically induced coma for a few days, they brought him out of it sooner than expected. A week later and he is awake and alert, although while he remembers his name and DOB, he thinks he's in a beauty salon. Really, Dad? LOL He referred to t
i HATE my upstairs neighbor... and even more i cant stand the other one that lives above my bathroom... they sound like friggin elephants trampling around .... im ready to move... but know... i just cant right now... but still .... you would think these people would have respect for the ones that live below them esp at 3AM!!!! ok i feel better! I thought for once i would write about something im most passionate about: Friendship Now granted I dont have many but those i do have i cherish to the end of the earth.. granted i do worry if i have upset them in some way shape or form since i do have a way with running my mouth off from being blunt...but no matter what i do love them and hope that if i have offended they could come to me about it Stacie (known to some as Per on here) is one of my greatest friends... i have known her for 10 years... which is an aweful long and her have been threw it all.. well just about...and i just want to take this time to say to her... I lo
Your name:Megan Marie TrustyOldest/youngest/or middle sibling:youngest middle childYour dad's name:John David Trusty-HaskettWhat kind of phone do you have?verizonFavorite type of music:Country and Melodic Death MetalHow many pillows do you sleep with?as man as I can get my paws on, but usually just two.What do you find most of in your room?mismatched socks or wires...How many piercings do you have?3 *ears are guaged to 1/4 inch, then my tongue*Who is your neighbor across the street?Rena and DavidDo you dye your hair?never have Own a pair of skinny jeans?um, ew, now lolHow many cell phones have you owned?2What were you doing this morning at 8am?taking the dogs outsideWhat are you wearing?wifebeater, bra, jammie pants, and socksAre you mad at anyone right now?kinda...Last person to send you a text?JeannineHow many different drinks have you had today?water, tea, milk, and ummmmm...... pink raspberry lemonade Do you draw your name in the sand while your at the beach?not mine noWhat are y
When I was a child, taking photos was as much a part of my life as eating cereal for breakfast.  Having come from a very photograph-happy family herself, my mother had inherited these traits and was (and still is) constantly lining up her family members for the obligatory photographs on every holiday, every birthday, vacation, special event, and then at random moments when she finds something she wants to remember.  Said photos are always accompanied by the cheesy, fake, toothy smile which most people display in their photographs.          I spent the last year working in a historical society where I found photographs of people without smiles on their faces.  They didn’t look unhappy.  They looked relaxed, natural, and accessible.  And then I see newer photos of people with the big cheesy grins and I wonder how many of those smiles were forced and how many were genuine.  I know that, at least in mine when you find a big toothy grin (which is rare), most of those are forced.  I
Randomly Posting My Writing
The dark, sloe eyed glance had caught him, she knew, as he made his mind up to leave. She watched him hesitate, passing his keys from one hand to the other, anger still present in the set of his shoulders and the muscles along his jaw. She watched him and realized, once again, that she didn’t care overly much as to whether he stayed or went. This time there was a child involved, sure, but there were probably millions of children involved all over the world. What was one more? The glance she had shot him had merely been habit. It was in her nature to at least try and keep him, as it had been in her nature to snare him. He threw the keys and his jacket onto the side table and stalked away into his drawing room, his fury still shouting itself from his stance.   Dora lazily scratched her bare knee and drew heavily on her smoke, the nicotine punching as it hit, heavenly, she thought ironically. If only. His keys slipped heavily to the floor next to the child’s scattered bloc
DOES ANYONE FUCKING HAVE ANY ANYMORE??? I am seriously begining to wonder.Now high horses arnt my thing...... well not on purpose anyways. I know that my moral high ground differs from everyone elses to the extent of being hypocritical at times.Lessons learned from a hard lived past. I wasnt and still am not any sort of angel but for the love of god what is it with some people. Ok ok forget about how people choose to live their lives...... thats none of my concern. But cmon...... people do have the ability to know right and wrong as far as their own mouths are concerned and what to say and when to say it....... it doesnt take a genious to figure out that some things are a BAD idea to talk about. You dont tell an old jewish person that the holochost never happened, you dont tell tramatized Vet that they fought in a worthless war..... Morals are not the issue here...... everyboys are different. But dont tell me I have to tak you as you are or not at all then get mad when I dont return yo
Random Facts About Rae!
‎23 Very Funny ADULT TRUTHS ****** 1. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is. 2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong. ... ... 3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger. 4. There is great need for a sarcasm font. 5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet? 6. Was learning cursive really necessary? 7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on # 5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood. 8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died. 9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind-of tired. 10. Bad decisions make good stories. 11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day. 12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blu-ray
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My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you'll never live it twice Don't take the free ride in your own life If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce old memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
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The ScorpionOctober 24 to November 22Scorpio! About Your Sign...Scorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them
Random Moments Of Misguided Creativity
I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger than reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I cannot transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesnt impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls. So a very good friend of mine made a blog about christmas cards and how nice it is to get mail that doesnt include bills, i agree. Ive gotten a card or two from a couple online friends and moomoo actually sent me some chocolates n goodies which absolutely made my day!!! So if you'd like to send me your address to my inbox I think it'd be nice to actually use these stamps that have grown mold from never being used and get in the holiday spirit and maybe make someones day, i know it'd make mine. That is all (h) Have'nt blogged in awhile but something so incredibly sweet happened
WTF New Zodiac signs 2011 are: Capricorn: Jan. 20 – Feb. 16 Aquarius: Feb. 16 – March 11 Pisces: March 11 – April 18 Aries: April 18 – May 13 Taurus: May 13 – June 21 Gemini: June 21 – July 20 Cancer: July 20 – Aug. 10 Leo: Aug. 10 – Sept. 16 Virgo: Sept. 16 – Oct. 30 Libra: Oct. 30 – Nov. 23 Scorpio: Nov. 23 – 29 Ophiuchus: Nov. 29 – Dec. 17 Sagittarius: Dec. 17 – Jan. 20 NOW IM NOT WHAT I WAS MY KIDS ARENT WHAT THEY WERE WTH IM ALL DAMN CONFUSED PISCES   Also unassuming, the Pisces zodiac signs and meanings deal with acquiring vast amounts of knowledge, but you would never know it. They keep an extremely low profile compared to others in the zodiac. They are honest, unselfish, trustworthy and often have quiet dispositions. They can be overcautious and sometimes gullible. These qualities can cause the Pisces to be taken advantage of, which is unfortunate as this sign is beautifully gentle, and generous. In the end, however, the Pisces is often the victor of
Random Thoughts On Fubar
     Ok so its been a while since I have put myself "on the market," so to speak.  Still, I am not really interested in looking for a relationship. The way I see it, it will just happen when it's right. I don't think seeking your hearts desire finds much of anything except what it is you want to see based on hope, and the things others know you want to see in them.      I look through all these profiles here at Fubar, and other sites I use; and I see so many guys to drool over. Nice to look at yes, but try to talk to them and see how very uncomparable appearance, intellect, and personality are to rate IN ONE CATEGORY.       I personally look at a personality to determine whether a person is approachable as a friend (since that is all I'm looking for). Most of the people on my friends list here are strictly for the game, and I have never spoken a word to them. I have probably sent like five friends requests, and the rest are recieved and accepted, yet why if you never speak?      I h
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i had this dream where i was in some kind of group of friends i was wandering around with a couple of guys*not like that* in my dream i mustve known them awhile i was kinda like the lil sister or something, we were running from some guy that wanted to kill us and as we ran down this dock looking thing i saw a ship leaving so we ran after the ship and jumped onto it just in time to be too far for the guy chasing us to follow...i thought we were safe til some crazy lady that mustve owned the boat showed up and told me she had a deal for me..she sat a girl down at the table on the deck where we were all sitting and handed me a gun..she told me if i shot the girl in the arm we could stay on the ship but if i didnt she was going to throw us off into the water i i shot her in the arm after hesitating for a few and i actually thought of a spot to do it where it wouldnt be as bad she looked dissapointed at me like she knew what i did but allowed us to stay on the ship...then we doc
Random Old Stuff From Livejournal!
MY JOB MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A ROBOT....beep beep beep   Hydroxycut may cause liver damage...sorry for this inconvenience...
Random Thoughts And Other Shit
when I speak sometimes the words just won't come out right thoughts and ideas take a tangled flight, leaving my tongue in a knot, and me lost in thought. when I write though, not always but sometimes, some magical times, it's like the words are transmitted to me from some cosmic thought center where right and wrong are neatly organized,all black or all white, no grey in sight, then they filter up through my soul and flow onto the page,, I'm hoping this is one of those times,,, lately my mind takes me on a trip, a journey with every thought, even the simple ones somehow manage to wrap themselves up, twist around with others and form a labyrinth,  in which I find myself lost. Many times when I'm lost I turn to my compass, my anchor, my guide, that either keeps me in the "here" or helps me find my way home if I must leave. Never do I need step by step turn by turn directions to find my way home, just a your doing ok, your making your way, it'll all be fine No cosmic
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Wtf Is this world coming too ?  I mean seriously is the united states completely  over run   by  simple minded morons and psychotic  people ?? I  was sitting here  checking  over  some emails  me  when i say  the story  Of Otty Sanchez (psychotic bitch) link to follow  ... She  had  some type of psychotic Breakdown she  has schizophrenia and  decapitated  her  3 1/2 week  son  :| HOW THE   FUCK DO  YOU DO THAT  TO YOUR KID ? She ate some of  his  toes  decapitated  him  with a  fucking steak knife  and  ate part of his  brain...... why the  fuck  wasnt  this lady put in an  instutition?? its  insane she  inflicted  wounds upon herself she stabbed herself in the  heart and stomach. I hope to hell that even though they  are holding her  for  1 mill   bail that  she doesnt  get out  and  sick or  not  that they  give this  psycho  the  help that  she  needs. Now before  anyone gets all self righteous  and  s
Seriously man. You're a nice guy deep down,act the part. You dont have to be rude and obnoxious to be liked around here. Even if that was the case,then so be it. I could care less if u rate my pics. My level and my short friends list is that way for a reason FFS! Go ahead and rear your ugly head to me,Ive got nothing to lose but my apathy...Your style is played out.Give up on trolling.You SUCK at it!If you dont want your ass handed to you in a mumm then dont start shit with your superiors.Yes,I said superiors because Emanon has a higher IQ then your entire family combined.In closing...Get the FUCK over yourself.Thank you and please drive thru....=== 'Bishop Lovelace *** AKA*** Gunner' wrote the following at '2009-12-10 09:05:02'..>> oh wait i dont want you backing me up for nothing as a matter of fact please dont come to my rescue and as far as me looking like an ass well thats your opinion they started on me so i only say the truth so if you want take me off your friends list if i rec
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We talked, We walked, for a Moment in Time. You passed through my life that day and left your mark. You may never pass my way again, Or you may stay for a lifetime. No matter what, I want to say thank you for the impression you made that will stay with me for eternity. I enjoyed the walk, I enjoyed the talk. I am blessed for that moment in time. The first time I saw you I knew you would affect my life, though your role I did not know. I asked myself, "Why is he alone? Why does he sit so quiet, all alone? Is he sad? Is he glad to be alone? Is he alone? Is he lonely? " There is so much I want to know. I asked myself, "Why him? When so many people pass through my life each day, why him? " What attracts me to you? What makes me want to know more? I want to know. Even if my questions are never answered, There is one thing I want you to know. I have been blessed by the effect you had on me in that Moment in Time. i met you in a very strange placewe hit it off i felt like a
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Hey All.. This is an acoustic set we play at a local bar. Mostly 30 something Crowd with a few younger and a few older.Looking to expand the song list and am looking for Ideas.Any and all suggestions welcome.Keep in mind that we are an "Acoustic" band.  We try to play things a little oustide the norm.  As of yet, we do not play country - Sorry Ladies ;)Thanks for the Help!   Set List @ AJ'sJack Johnson - Rodeo ClownsPolice - So LonelyRadiohead - High & DryCream - Sunshine of your LovePearl Jam - Elderly WomanSting - Fields of GoldU2 - With our Without youColdPlay - YellowBlack Crows - Talks to AngelsSqueeze - Tempted by the Fruit of AnotherTom Petty - Mary Jane's last dancePink Floyd - Wish you were hereDave Matthews - Jimi ThingJack Johnson - TaylorCitizen Cope - Sons gonna RiseR.H.Chili Peppers - Under the BridgePearl Jam - AnimalBilly Joel - Piano ManMatchbox 20 - UnwellLed Zep - TangerineSmashing Pumpkins - Cherub RockVolcanos - Van Morrison - Brown Eyed Girl ( yea.. I know )Van
through the airborne dirt I run/eyes on my target and hands upon my gun/I cross the dusty streets/intent upon my call/to get to my brethrens side/ finish the battle once and for all/My aim is true/My steel on target/The death I deal/Makes me larger/Than life for those who would come against me I walk w/a jaunt/of someone in senior year/the world at my feet/the rest by the ear/I wrestle with glee/play ball with abandon/date all the girls I can/and the rest are just out of fashion/my hair was long/my eyes mahogany/The rest of the boys/were left in agony/dateless and alone/on their friday night/if only they knew/who my backseat hosted each night Not just a trucker/but a natural they said/hustles that truck like he was born in a sleeper bed/Peter or Freight/he drove them all/coast to coast/and to countries big and small/Never late/dam near early/always with a smile/and his paint was clean and pearly The bay was my love/she treated me well/drove all over her/from here to hell/all night l
[ Insanity, The loss of Logical Reasoning ] Inevitably, humanity loses it sense of reality, a surreal enviroment in which we all live. The loss of this reality is but a small step in the path to true freedom. What is pain without the enjoyment of it's sinister actions. To watch a person go through so much, only to lose what little reasoning they had, and eventually kill something in a sadistic malicious way. It is a beautiful thing to see the light of life fail in the eyes of a dying person. Their unrelenting screams of mercy and anguish. How pathetic to attempt to seek mercy from themselves. Do they not know it is them who is causing this pain? Perhaps that is insanity at it's best, To commit vile acts without the knowledge of it being done, Even when it is to yourself. That is not the point of this specific endevour in to the mind of a woman. Who is she? No clue, but today, She is me, and I am her. - Tears began to stream down the pale facade of < Insert clever name here>, She could
Have you ever been so deep in love with someone that they are all you can think about ? Have you ever been in love with someone so much that you can't eat till you hear from them ? Have you ever gave your whole heart to someone with only love being in mind ? Have you ever told someone they would be your only one till the end of time ? Have you ever fallen in love with someone and couldn't stop thinking about them ? Have you ever been on the edge of tears everytime you talk to that person ? Have you ever been so in love with somebody that you can't love ?     Have you ever loved the one your with and yet not love them the way you once did ? Have you ever wanted to die for feeling this way ? Have you ever felt like you failed because you hold back feelings and emotions from the one you love ?     Have you ever been in love and yet not in love at the same time ?   Have you ever ?????
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Whoever appeals to the law against his fellow man is either a fool or a coward. Whoever cannot take care of himself without that law is both. For a wounded man shall say to his assailant, "If I Live, I will kill you. If I Die, You are forgiven." Such is the Rule of Honor. Thats an awesome quote from one of my favorite bands Lamb of god.  Now that we have the metal portion of todays show out of the way... .... got ya.. Really though this is pretty fucking random there is no purpose to this im just bored as hell and had to do something right fucking now.  SO a quickie about me im 24 im single and i live in bridge city texas and work at tattoo dreams. later Kris
Random Thoughts Of A Mad Man
This photo only needs a rate, you may comment if you'd like to but it's not necessary. I still hate the format of these blogs. Maybe that is why I abandoned the Fu. This was where I chatted up my friends.  Yes, I have a few. Maybe I should try this site again. 'Tis been almost a year since I have hung out with you peoples. NO I DON'T DO THE MAFIA THING, SO DON'T ASK. Shit. Got laundry and dishes to do. I am wound up tighter than a 3 day clock! Doc put me on another round of steroids, and ZOMG...Decided to pay my bills online today? POOR KOHL'S TELEPHONE ANSWER GUY! The "at" button on my keyboard has quit working, so as well as having to talk me thru signing up on the "my account" at the Kohl's website, he learned me about the *accessory* then *accessibliity* then *onscreen keyboard*  blah, blah.. Poor guy.  I actually did the after-call survey and gave him all "excellents" AND CALLED BACK AND ASKED FOR A SUPERVISOR AND RAVED ABOUT HIM.   Damn I am geared up. Now
My heart is heavy, my heart is broke. It takes your breath, and it makes you choke. The pain will take you to a dark place and eat you alive. Loving someone will only get your heart broken. The tears will roll and you will ache. Love is a lie, love is untrue. It will eat you alive and leave you blue. I look into your eyes and see the real you, and it makes me wonder why you do the tings you do. People come and people go but my love will always show. You took my heart and broke it in two. Why oh why do you treat me this way. You pick up my heart and you throw it away. Alone in the dark, with just my thoughts. Crying because of the lonelyness and pain. What went wrong I will never know, I'll just pick up the pieces and go. Welcome to the dark and wrap myself in it. Stay in the dark, live in the dark. Never to love again.
Random Rants
After viewing the indie film "Jesus Camp" for the second time; I still have the same exact views on it an the people in it. I find it quite ironic that there's a radio listener calling in saying that atheists beam an "authoritative sense" to Christians. In my experience I have been confronted numerous times and handed enough miniature bibles the paper matter could make up for half a redwood forest. I work across the street from a Church and at least twice a week someone is coming in voicing their opinion that I didn't ask for; wether it be about my tattoos and asking why I did this to my body and if I know it's a sin, to asking if I know why Jesus died for our sins. It really irritates me that I am interpreted to be ignorant of religion. The entanglement of politics in religion is also another thing the movie mentions that is a pet peeve of mine. One too many a candidate has used god or their religious views to win votes or capture a certain demographics attention. It shouldn't matter
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Sometimes I get really confussed by things. I'm not sure why, but it happens often. One thing is, if you're not looking for anyone other than the one you are with, why is it that you are on a website catered to adults (not saying that it's porn or anything like that) meeting other adults? If you're happy with the person that you are with, why is it that you can't stop yourself from talking to other women, not mentioning the fact that you have a girlfriend. I love my man, I really do, but things that he does confusses the hell out of me. Out of respect for him, I don't talk to other guys unless they know first hand that I'm taken and that I love my guy with all my heart. But, the thing is, he seems to take it the wrong way when I ask him about it. He says that I'm just too jealous or something to that effect. No, I'm not jealous that he's talking to other people, it's the fact that he doesn't even mention the fact that he's with someone. Maybe I'm paranoid or just plain crazy, but out o
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"Fire scares me, yes, and earthquakes, and venomous snakes. People scare me more than anything, for I know too well the savagery of which humankind is capable." ~ Excerpt from Chapter 10 of Odd Thomas, by Dean Koontz In the middle of reading a book about a man who talks to ghosts, solves crimes, and takes down criminals I had a thought. In general, I don't particularly like people. Not to say I don't like certain individuals, I have friends and I enjoy the company of others. But in the grand scheme of things, I would just assume avoid delving into the real world social mix. I have the unfortunate gift of seeing things as they are and not how I would wish them to be and reality is no fun place to live. I don't think there is any inherit good, or evil for that matter, inside any of us. Rather, I think there is a primal desire. Supremacy. Simple enough, we all want to win. And, who doesn't? There is nothing wrong with wanting success. The issue lies in seeking individualism power vers
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So about 7 months ago, I found myself in despair about my life. I was unhappy. My marriage had failed. I was depressed and alone. I needed to fix myself and my world. I met someone who I thought could do that. She was intriguing, funny, and so very different from anyone I had ever met. I fell in love. Very hard, and very quickly. She was, I thought, the most amazing person I had ever met. She doubted my view of her, and as it turns out, she was right. In the end, she turned out to be fickle, unforgiving and just plain mean-spirited. I think there is such a black cancer in that woman's heart that she is incapable of really loving someone. She is too judgemental and cruel. I think she confuses flattery with feeling, and she will chase that her whole life. I wish she realized that I was willing to shatter my world to be with her. She just took too much of my love for granted. Everything she ever gave came with strings attached. She held all of my hopes and dreams, and
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You Are a Visionary Soul" height="100" width="100">You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.Connected to all things spiritual, you are very in touch with your soul.You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.You have great vision and can be very insightful.In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul What">">What Kind of Soul Are You? Blogthings">">Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds I hope everybody at least watches this all the way through once, if it doesn't touch your inner being, you are beyo
So life is pretty damned good right now. Tight on money, but that's temporary. I've got great friends, awesome roommates, and a wonderful child. Got a fabulous place to live, and the entire summer to do as I please. Now if I can only find roommates to get a place with me for the next school year, things will be great! I've discovered that life isn't necessarily what you've got or don't have... it's what you make of it. And we're making it pretty damned good. So I just got this from my ex... an ex from 13 years ago... I've known him since I was 5 years old. Do you ever look back at your past and miss the possible future.. if so click 'yes'... and we'll be married and your son and mine will be our kids. Wish things where that easy... but once you fuck something up or they fuck up something... you can't get it back, their is no recovery without a lot of effort...sometimes herculean in it's scope It always makes me wonder, what the hell some ladies are thinking when they tak
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And so it begins, I am Who I am . Love Me or Hate Me My toes are still tapping . I am just a humble man who Loves His Family, hard work, ice cold beer, Beautiful Women, the outdoors, sports , books and video games. Harley Davidson Motorcycles are my passion, i have been around them all my life. I love the Occult and the Supernatural. i dont have must faith in religion, but i do know there is some higher power out there somewhere within our realm, i am on a constant journey to find inner peace ! i could ramble all day but i won't, more to come later
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Choices, love, pain,..When do you say it is enough? Why do you say it is enough? Everyone makes their own choices in life. What choice are we onwhen you become a pattern? A continuous cycle...Change? Sights and sounds,they change.What doesn't change? Everything... Some hide and others wait for the ones that hide. Do you think about the choice before it is made? Would you think to put your shoes on before you go outside? The instruction manual for life will never end. It is your own manual. Each with their own as well. You, moment by moment, write your own manual as you choose your direction in life. But because you are not alone here. Your choices may conflict with anothers or it may coincide. Action=reaction. Time is mearly space to plan a choiceor choose "spurr of the moment". The choice is what creates life, creates meaning. It creates a path that always leads to another choice. When you are done writting your manual to life you give it to yourchildren. Then they not only have a
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A whisper in my ear, thoughts only spoken to the mindm with a slight touch of sanity, my dreams become my reality.... never wanting to wake from this slumber, to spend the rest of my life in this state, its a place where noone can enter,,, only be brought....   This is my realm, my solitude, my dreams, hopes and fears. My Mind unravels with thoughts of life, death, love, memories and questions in which no answer can be given; one can spend the rest of their lifes looking for a way to understand, and never find the path to the answer, only to the possible futures. Thoughts flood your head, feelings of guild, pain, loss, heartache, confussion.... When does it all stop? Your mind spins round, not knowing where to run..... the anxiety keeps digging till there is nothing left to dig. Things you thought you were so sure about suddenly become so uncertain, a lose of trust creates a wall of mis-guided thoughts, all understanding swept away as the anxiety takes control, your left asking your
1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? - Closed so that cat cant get in! 2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?  - No 3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?  - I Dont sleep with a sheet 4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?  - No 5. Do you like to use post-it notes?  - Yes 6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?  - haha yea 7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?  - Neither.. 8. Do you have freckles?  - A few 9. Do you always smile for pictures?  - Not always 10. What is your biggest pet peeve?  - People who dont use their blinkers 11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?  - No 12. Have you ever peed in the woods?  - No 13. What about pooped in the woods?  - No 14. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?  - Yes :) 15. Do you chew your pens and pencils?  - Sometimes 16. How many people have you slept with this week?  - 1
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Screw it, I'm gonna take fubar BACK!!!     When I first joined, this place was fun.  It was about friends.  Now, it seems to be all about bling, credit packs, and buy me this buy me that.     No more!!!!   I declare WAR on that!  As of today, I will take fubar BACK!!!  Will I bling?  Yes, friends and family.  And when I say friends, I mean friends.  I will be MASSIVELY shrinking my friend's list.  I'm only going to keep the people on there that i do actually interact with.  Want to stick around with me?  Stop by, say hi, ask how my day is going.   If you are as tired of this site being what it is now, join me.  Lets make fubar a fun place again!!!   I say.. 3F!!!   (Fubar For Fun!!!) Well, I'm trying to get back to writing more.  Right now I have several novels in various states of completion.  I really need to get my writing frame of mind back.  I've been in a funk lately, and when I get in one of those, my writing suffers. What stinks is, I really do need to get back to
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Past few weeks(3 to be exact) I've been having the same kinda nightmares ever couple days and that makes it hard to get any sleep. In my dreams I have been murdered stabbed shot drowned garroted etc. Not very pleasing. In my dreams I know who it is who does these things to me but when I wake up I have no clue. So with pen in hand I decided to write out how I am feeling and by meditating and listening to my spiritual guides how I am overcoming the negative energy these dreams are giving me.I stand there atop the mountain. Lookin into the vast storm approaching. My body rigid, waiting not caring that the elements start to assault my body. Betrayer.My body starts to be cut as your words slash into me. The tears start to form, well up and fall down my face. I stand not moving, not caring. BetrayerThe storm overtakes me rocking my body whipping its harsh poisonous wind as your callous uncaring wreck my soul. My body hurts, aches but does not fall as it should. BetrayerI glance down into the
The Random Thoughts Of A Madman
The Mad Hatter, Asmodeus, Big Poppa...All these things i have been called, But never any less, Nor ironiclly any more. There ofcourse, Are people within my life, That mean very much to me. My Love, My brother, and several more, But I am an agent of Chaos, Thus This shall be a venture, within the mind, Of a truely and faithfully, MadMan. Have you taken the brief moment today, to view the magic taking place all around you, or have you passed it by, ignorant as ever. Have you taken the time, To thank, Your children, Husbands and wives, fathers and mothers, For being with you all this time, Faithfully, and completly? Have you taken notice, of the magic, of life? There are things within this realm of existance, people take for granted, to be there, day after day. Never Questioning why it is the way it is. Instances such as not taking a few moments of the day, to view that one perfect sunset, or taking the time, to watch the hummingbird, sip of the nectar, of a singular rose. Ofcourse, Peopl
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I havent done one of these things in a really long time. Just thought i would sit down and write one for the hell of it. I been having a lot going on in the past few years .Im just ready for my life to settle down and be happy for a change. In the last 7 years i have been through two marriages and 2 divorces. It seems just dont have much luck. I know im a good person and my day will come to be happy though. But for now I just have my friends and they are the best friends anyone could ask for. There is only a handful of people that can cheer me up and i thank them for that. For the first time in 11 years im putting myself first not above my children of course but over men. Doing stuff that will make me happy. I know what i want out of life and i dont want to settle for anything less. Im sorry if this was boring or anything of the sort, but afterall its my blog and its for me by me.
so i realized that there are alot of ppl who cant sesm to get along on this web site and i find it very funny because that is all it is there is no reason to take it so seriously and if a web site really that importaint to you then you really have no life i am not trying to offend any who read this just being myself and stating what is on my mind
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Wait. We cannot break bread with you. You have taken the land which is rightfully ours. Years from now, my people will be forced to live in mobile homes on reservations; your people will wear cardigans and drink highballs. We will sell our bracelets by the roadside; you will play golf and enjoy hot hors d'oeuvres. My people will have pain and degradation; your people will have stick-shifts. The gods of my tribe have spoken. They have said, "Do not trust the Pilgrims, especially Sarah Miller." And for all these reasons, I have decided to scalp you and burn your village to the ground. Christina Ricci as Wednesday Addams in Addams Family Values, playing Pocahontas in "The Camp Chippewa Thanksgiving Pageant"
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Yes, that's right.  I'm dropping names.  Kloverlyn was nice enough NOT to name any names in her blog, but I'm done being nice.  I'm sick of stupid blond cunt trying to play the victim card.  She has made some of the most insane accusations I have EVER heard of.  She blamed boops for reporting Klover and that's an out and out lie.  Boops would NEVER report Klover for the crap that stupid blond cunt was saying.  She accused me of not being in the military, yet she wouldn't ever make the accusations to my face.  She also accused me of hacking her fubar account, and hacking Klover's other account.  She also stated that there was no way I could have been at Fitzsimmons Army Medical Center in 1995-1996 because she claims it was closed down in 1989.  Bullshit.  I don't know where she gets her information from, but Fitz did not close down until 1999, well AFTER I left.  She did send me a backhanded apology and in her apology she attempted to lay the blame at someone else's feet.  I do not tole
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So I was thinking about the concept of truth today.  What is truth?  Is it just our own version on what we percieved to have happened?  I think so. Maybe.  Different people see different things different ways, right?  I mean we all know someone who sees things different than we do.  And some people have an obviously skewed view or perception of thier own reality, we all know them too, quit playin'.  I guess what had me wondering.....  Am I one of those people?     Not looking for an answer, just felt like throwing it out there. Yesterday, I'm standing outside the grocery store watching this guy talk to his son.  They are approached by a man in a suit who says he's new in town and is looking to find the post office.  After they tell him, he says he'a a preacher and is starting at a church nearby.  He asked them to come in and he can help them find God and get into heaven.  The Dad looks uncomfortable and doesn't seem to know what to say. WHEN!  The son chimes in with, "With all due
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My heart is heavy, my heart is broke. It takes your breath, and it makes you choke. The pain will take you to a dark place and eat you alive. Loving someone will only get your heart broken. The tears will roll and you will ache. Love is a lie, love is untrue. It will eat you alive and leave you blue. I look into your eyes and see the real you, and it makes me wonder why you do the tings you do. People  come and people go but my love will always show. You took my heart and broke it in two. Why oh why do you treat me this way. You pick up my heart and you throw it away. Alone in the dark, with just my thoughts. Crying because of the loneliness and pain. What went wrong I will never know, I'll just pick up the pieces and go. Welcome to the dark and wrap myself in it. Stay in the dark, live in the dark. Never to love again.    Drama, drama, drama, everyone says they don't want any drama. Everyone says they don't need it or don't want it and that's all fine and dandy. Just one lil
Dominance and submission, and the inner conflict and surrender connected with these are enduring themes in human culture and civilization. Human beings share with many other mammals the desire to look up to certain individuals who become leaders through strength of will and personality, to lead or follow, and to submit or dominate.[citation needed] In human sexuality this has broadened to include mutual exploration of roles, emotions and activities which would be difficult or impossible to do without a willing partner taking an opposing role. While D/s deals with representations of brutality and cruelty, and the emotional responses to them, adherents are quick to point out that D/s is not about actual acts of brutality and cruelty. It is a consensual power exchange between the two partners and need not involve any brutality (such as corporal punishment) or cruelty (verbal or emotional abuse) at all. It is primarily based upon trust and communication between the partners. It is also ba
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contrary to popular belief I am not perfect, I am not a saint, I am not a mind reader, I am not a millionaire... what I am is an imperfect bitchy broken mess with a heart a mindset that cause me a lot of pain and happiness all at the same time... A girl with a mindset that everyone ELSE needs to be happy and my needs and wants will come later or that the people i am caring for will take care of my needs... and in the end there usually isn't enough of anything left for me... Why is it that no one can see that all i want is for some one to love and care for me as much as i do for them... i want them to think of me before themselves... goodness knows i think of them and their wants and needs before my own... why is it so hard for others to do the same... I am tired of feeling used and abused and bitchy... So I can not seem to find sleep, so I am going to start a blog on here.. I mean why not...   The things that are going to be posted in this first one are things I have written in the p
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69 Confession Questions These are my confessions... 1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be? Whoever I've been waiting for 2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? Always 3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? Both 4. Do you take compliments well? Yes 5. Do you play Sudoku? I have 6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive? Yes 7. Do you like to ride horses? YES!! 8. Did you ever go camping as a kid? A lot 9. What was your favorite game as a kid? Jacks 10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it? Hell NO 11. Have you lied to get out of a date? Yes 12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you? Yes 13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued? Whatever 14. Use three words to describe yourself? Loving, indepedent, worrying 15. Do any songs make you cry? So
SNOWFLAKE (INSPIRED by Naked Rocker) Formed from dust and vapor falling through the freezing air. If one should fall from grace and enter in the Devil's lair, May the beauty God's bestowed it; individual and rare put shame to all his minions crawling back into their doom. For with this Godsent snowflake, He reminds us he made room... Merry Christamas... Rox
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please help us out and join us at the lounge. . look for friends_and_family under the lounge tab. if you like to become staff be sure to email me or just wanna join. .head into the lounge and click subsribe please help us out and join us at the lounge. . look for friends_and_family under the lounge tab. if you like to become staff be sure to email me or just wanna join. .head into the lounge and click subsribe. . welcome everyone who is part of is welcome to join the lounge! In the site of loving myself I begin to love you. . wanting to know what else I could do, The rest of life the peace in mind still trying to see that I can you can love me as I love you. Days can go life slows down. thing is do we really know what can make us happy? What we can do about the hate in our lives? Or even maybe the mess we give ourselves. . No matter what I know you'd be there and I can be there aswell. . Got one thing to ask. . how do you know that this life is what you want? How can you t
-as my eys start to close the light starts to fade away. -as my breathing slowers the sweet scent of your skin fads away. as my mind starts to stop working my momories of you are no longer around. -as my heart stops beating you begin to cry knowing that you never said goodbye. -as my spirit leaves my body it never leaves this world to protect you. -as you begin to cry I'll be the one holding your head up high and the voice in the back of your head telling you that everything will be ok. -as you start to break down I'll be the one to put you back together from the inside. -as you start to fall I'll be the one stoping you befor you hit the ground. -as you find yourself in a dark place all alone with strangers I'll be the making you fell safe. -as you start to remember all the great times he had its not to make you feel sad and cry its me telling you that im still around and i havent forgotten about you. -as you see your loved one talking to him self when he'
BASICS: Name: Age: Location: Height: Hair (colour and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: ------------------------------------OTHER: 1. Where would we go on dates? 2. Who are three (or more) of your favourite bands/artists? 3. Do you drink/smoke?? 4. Do you like the rain? 5. If so...would you play in it with me? 6. Do you like movies? 7. If so, would you stay up and watch them with me all night? 8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together? 9. Would you kiss me often?10. Do you play an instrument? 11. If so...what? 12. Would you be waiting by the phone wanting me to call you right after we saw each other ? 13. How would you rate your hugs from 1-10? 14. Favorite body part on a girl? 15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? 16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, slut,pimp)? 17. Would you give me kisses just because? ------------------------------------What Would You do if... I cried: I said I liked you: I kissed you: I was hospitalized:  We got in a fight: I got du
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Welp, here's a little hobby of mine : writing. Not very good at it, but I like mixing up words. Always was enamored with freewriting in english class, mainly cause it's the rawest form, to me. So, I freewrite. It is what it is.... more than likely shitty lol Remember, they're just random things I'm pulling out of my folder. More than likely, they don't have titles, they're not finished(to me... so hard to end one. I like to come back and add), and they're also probably very shitty emo poetry lol. Well. Here goes... Oh my oh my what am I to do Take my pain and throw it at you? Nope, just can’t, I’m a big boy now Gotta chalk it all up to suck and move along somehow Find my feet where the path will lead Pitching cigarette butts like Johnny Appleseed A mordern day Rotten Johnny Appleseed So many misleading roads to walk So little time in the day in which to spend Mix my emotions with the raw asphalt Mixed emotions grow this work to rend Like a horse faced Johnny A
*Forgive my spelling I do the best I can.... I'm old*     You get a call late one night after you get off work, it's a family member asking you to do them a favor. So you say okay what did you need? They ask you to make something for them to help out with a birthday party. Now you have to go in work early by 3 hours (which you have to cut back off because you are close to your max hours for the week). You go in early have it ready 10 minutes early even though they continuously text you about it to make sure it's done. You tell them it's done for them on time like asked. They proceed to text you saying "I'm coming" and they don't show until 3 1/2 hours later. A couple days later after you text and get no response, they text you and begin nitpicking and making things up you did wrong with it. Then accuse you of being in a bad mood. "I just asked a favor I don't know why you're mad".    This is unfortuneatly still going on. She's texting me saying I'm overreacting when she's sent me l
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  Those of great worth and reliability = meaning the salt of the earth When the world is your oyster, you are getting everything you want from life. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder means that different people will find different things beautiful and that the differences of opinion don't matter greatly. Recent research findings about the health benefits of tea shouldn't be surprising. A single tea leaf contains a wide variety of substances. The two substances receiving the most attention in tea, however, are antioxidants and caffeine. Antioxidants We learned about oxidation a few sections ago. Just like tea leaves, apples and car hoods, humans are susceptible to oxidation. Oxygen molecules create stress on our tissues and organs by introducing harmful free radicals that lead to complications such as cancer and heart disease. Free radicals are charged atoms or molecules. They have to steal an electron from the molecules. Antioxidants are substances that slow down the damaging ef
I thought before I first saw you,I knew what love was.That, I later found, to be false.You showed me the meaning of True love.I loved you with all my heart,I gave you everything I had to give.I thought our loved would last a lifetime,I was the only one, though,You already knew it wouldn't be forever.You tried to tell me.I always chose not to listen.I only heard what my heart was telling me.If I could go back in time and change things,I wouldn't. I always want the memoriesof you and I together, the way we were -Happy for the most part.I love you still,And I always will.But today my life starts over,Starts over without you.This will be a tough journey for me,But I know I will make it.Life does go on. How long beforeI kiss your sweet lipsAgainTasting the curves ofYour mouthAs we unite.When willI get to hold you in my armsAgainFeeling your soft curvesPressing against my bodyAs we embrace.How many days must pass untilI love you on all levelsAgainIntoxicating you onThe physical, spiritual an
BASICS: Name: Age: Location: Height: Hair (colour and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: ------------ ------------ ------------ OTHER: 1. Where would we go on dates? 2. Who are three (or more) of your favourite bands/artists? 3. Do you drink/smoke?? 4. Do you like the rain? 5. If so...would you play in it with me? 6. Do you like movies? 7. If so, would you stay up and watch them with me all night? 8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together? 9. Would you kiss me often? 10. Do you play an instrument? 11. If so...what? 12. Would you be waiting by the phone wanting me to call you right after we saw each other ? 13. How would you rate your hugs from 1-10? 14. Favorite body part on a girl? 15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? 16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, slut,pimp)? 17. Would you give me kisses just because? ------------ ------------ -------
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Request will be checked on every 30 minutes Come on by and check out The New Lounge on Fubar. Exotic Professions Is looking for member and staff. If you got what it takes. Then come on by and inquire. At work I have a notepad for all my work notes, occasionally I end up with a page full of scribbles of blog post ideas – mainly because I can’t write at work but know that if I don’t make note of it then by the time I get home I will have completely and utterly forgotten about the random ideas.   Has our definition of celebrity changed? I sometimes get recognised before my blog which is kind of what I want but at the same time I get all embarrassed about it. The most recent time was when I was helping out at opening of The Fountian at the beginning of April and someone who regularly comments on here said hello to me while I served him and his wife (or maybe girlfriend I’m not sure) and all the gi
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  You think you know someone, but then you find out that they could truly careless about you or anything to do with you. You think you have a friend that you can always count on to be there to talk to but come to find out they are only there when its good for them. I am starting to see who are my real friends and who are fake ass mf's .. Im gonna start treating people the way they treat me..  Fuck all you fake ass mother fuckers!!
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Want My Points For 12 Hours? Well This Is How It Is Gonna Work!  I Am Gonna Auction Off My Points!   The Bids R Gonna Start At 1 Auto 11!   If U Win U Get 2 Pick What Day & What 12 Hours U Want!   I Will Promote U In My Status & Will Promote It In A Bulletin & A Bully! I Will Also Bomb During The 12 Hours U Get My Points!   So Let The Bidding! =) This Auction Will End On Thursday Feb.18,2010 a wise man once said Love is a single wmotion inhabiting two bodies
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Why must every day end in torment, like the flows of a river smashing against the dam trying to break through to where it belongs. Nothing is ever easy, nothing is ever simple, even the most basic actions and reactions take numerous steps to complete. Yet when it comes to the heart, the complications grow and the desires go beyond the basic to the neigh impossible to accomplish. Such is the way my heart feels now, no matter what I desire I feel as if I may never have it, as if it is always a hairs length outside of my reach. ~~~~~~~~Sniplet from FoxNews~~~~~~~~~~~~ Gun rights advocates have a California police detective in their crosshairs after he apparently posted comments on Facebook advocating that "open carry" supporters should be shot. East Palo Alto Police Det. Rod Tuason apparently posted the remarks on his Facebook page in response to a friend's status update, which suggested that gun advocates who carry unloaded weapons openly — which is legal in California — should do so
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Lounge RulesThis is an RP (Role-Play) Lounge1 - Do not come into the lounge to cause drama or bullshit - i.e. coming in ranting and raving about shit that has nothing to do with anything going on in RP, or coming in to bitch people out.  Unless it is SPECIFICALLY part of a StoryLine you are involved in with another character, etc.  Do not cause trouble for the sole purpose of causing trouble.2 - As stated, this is an RP lounge, so no OOC chatter in the room unless it's important - i.e. ((BRB)).  Keep OOC chatter to shoutboxes, private messages, or e-mails.3 - If you do not know how to RP, or haven't quite got the concept, there is a dropdown box to the right which explains.  If you are still confused, send me (Terran Nytefyer) a private message, or hit my shoutbox.  I will be more than happy to help.  We were all 'newbies' once.4 - No typing in ALL CAPS!  All Caps for a word or two, here and there, for emphasis, is quite fine and understandable.  It's even acceptable for you to use All
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Do not go gentle into that good night,Old age should burn and rave at close of day;Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Though wise men at their end know dark is right,Because their words had forked no lightning theyDo not go gentle into that good night. Good men, the last wave by, crying how brightTheir frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,Do not go gentle into that good night. Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sightBlind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. And you, my father, there on the sad height,Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.Do not go gentle into that good night.Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Ok once again a padre at work has sparked off another blog, well this time I was in a sort of disscussion based forum.. a few of us there. Th
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I'll be sitting in the back waiting for whoever to notice me again... If you do find your way back, I'm sure its only temporary. I'm not going to speak over everyone to get someone's attention. I've tried, its tiring, and very unhelpful. Are you wondering who you are yet? You could be wrong.
Okay so to start I will just say that I am only here for fun. Do NOT need the fu-drama and will block you if you start it. As far as the rating goes, if you down-rate me and I see it I will down-rate you as well. Fair is fair, and that will be the end of it. If you bomb me or my pictures with down rates the same will be done to you. And then you will be blocked. You can ask any of my friends on here and find out that I can be the sweetest person, no one has had to see the bad side yet. As far as rating pictures goes, I will try and rate your pictures as much as I can. If you rated mine, thank you very much! I give drinks, a lot of them to the people I talk to on the regular. And I also return EVERY drink I receive. Same goes for the gifts. I can be pretty random and I don't talk much. So if I don't talk to you a lot then I'm sorry. Its nothing you have done, I just dont respond a lot. My chat box is family ONLY. As far as the games go, I'm addicted. I will accept ANYONE on fu-ma
i just wanna say that i dont think i have ever felt this way in my whole life. How can u fall in love with someone with one chat session? i mean is it possible? i feel that it is because i have never met neone soo passionate and soo perfect for me that is. Yes we both have a past but we can sit and cuddle and talk for hour bout sad and happy times. I also never met a guy so passionate bout their kid or kids. It makes me tear everytime i think bout it.. hes such a good father and i wish i knew wat to do for him most of the time. I want to make all his dreams come true and fullfilled. I also wanna say that im in love with him soo deeply that im scared but im not running away from this one i cant i care and love him wayyy too much. well love you baby if you do read this.
1. Breakfast Club 2. Top gun 3. Gladiator (with Russel Crowe) 4. The Ugly Truth 5. Alice in Wonderland (with Johnny Depp) 6. Men in Black 1 and 2 7. Field of Dreams 8. Radio 9. The Spongebob Squarepants Movie 10. Jeff Dunham movies RANDOMNESS IS GREAT
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Pray for me everyone. I'm soo confused about my husband right now its not even funny. When I met him in march I already had a son from a previous relationship. I ended up getting pregnant in May, with a baby girl. He moved down here at the end of June. We got married November 18th of last year. Had my baby girl December 8th. Everything was going great with us until he lost his job about 2 months ago. We have been staying with my mom. And he just basically quit caring all together about having a job. Our income tax came right about that time. So he's been just gung ho about staying at home. For the past 2 months, I have felt like I'm single with a roommate that just happens to the father of my baby girl and husband. Since he has moved in with us, he has not had to do dishes once, take out the trash or anything. I do all of this. All he does is Snooze all day till about 3-5pm. Wakes up, then logs onto World of Warcraft. Plays it all freaking night, pausing maybe twice if I insist he help
we come to times of trial and choice through life. What separates a good man and father.. from the rest, lays in the palms. how much blood are you willing to hold? how much of your own? we live in a nation of indulgent bastards dreaming of gold rings.. at the cost of fellow soul. it is no secret that i hold little opinion for my fellow man or their acts.. the actions of a decaying society that has been on a path of destruction far beyond the years i ever took first breath. my poor fellow man and woman of a land corrupt and born to... non has gone without suffering or wrong.. non has not been smited unjustified. but few remain to stand against.. to wily give of thy self in full for a greater good. teh heart has grown weak and inept to see the good in these dark places. our selfishness engulfs like a kerosene fire of lustful dreams. am i the only bastard child of the cold world that will stand defiant? am i the only one that sees a purpose beyond myself wants? TAKE... all my blood.. in y
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THE ATLAS ROOM - NOW HIRING:   APPLY HERE:   Daytime/Evening managers (looking for two of each ideally) Responsibilities will be to run the lounge in my absence (I do have a "real life" which sometimes doesn't allow me to be on Fubar).  -Be sure people are having a great time -Make sure other staff aren't being too controlling -Freedoms will be given to ban/eject/silence.Greeters - looking for at least 2. More as we grow. - You are the friendly face of the lounge. You should be comfortable being on cam, however there are NO requirements for NSFW behaviour on your part. It's an asset if you feel comfortable with this, however. You are to make people feel welcome, particularly if they're new. Keep people "drinking"/talking/engaged.Bouncers - Looking for at least 2 to start. More as we grow. -You are the discipline arm of the lounge. You will be given authority to silence/eject, however you will be required to consult with myself (or a manager
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Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realise you're wrong. Twat did you say, I cunt hear you? Tits alright, bare-ass me again!
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We've all gotten scam e-mails from that Nigerian Prince, but I was cleaning out my spam folder in gmail when I saw this little gem:   from: MINISTRY OF FINANCE subject: SCAM VICTIMS COMPENSATIONS PAYMENTS 2011 reply-to:   MINISTRY OF FINANCE SCAM VICTIMS COMPENSATIONS PAYMENTS 2011. SIR/MADAM, SCAMMED VICTIM/ $500,000 BENEFICIARIES. REF/PAYMENTS CODE: CF&SC/02354 $500,000 USD. This is to bring to your notice that we are delegated from the UNITED NATIONS in Central Bank in conjunction with the WORLD BANK GROUP OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA to pay you victims of scam $500,000 USD (Five Hundred Thousand Dollars).You are listed and approved for this payment as one of thescammed victims to be paid this amount, get back to this office as soon as possible for the immediate payments of your $500,000 USD compensations funds. 1. Full Name:............2. Residential Address:..3. Phone Number:.........4. Sex: .................5. Age ..................6. O
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I post this every year about this time.  I don't ride anymore, but I have a lot of friends that do.......a lot of people I care about. When you are out riding around in your cage, PLEASE be aware of those on bikes!!!!!! The following poem is for all you that ride. I have no clue who wrote it.....I know I didn't. Please feel free to copy it to your own site and spread the message. I'm sure that all of us have horror stories about someone that we loved either getting killed or seriously hurt on a motorcycle. I'm also sure the majority of those incidents could have been prevented IF the people in cars had been more alert. I only hope that I can help save one biker by posting this.++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++But, You Didn't See MeI saw you,hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line.But, you didn't see me,put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.I saw you,pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.
Here it is May 11th 3am (five futime) and I am restless. Today starts a journey and a new chapter in my life. I feel alittle sick too. I am neverous. Not for what lays ahead, I am overjoyed! I am not looking forward to this two day endeavor on the greyhound. But it will be well worth it. I look now back at the last ten years of my life, how things are so different from now and then. I look at this journey as the start of my new life. So much opportunity ahead. I just wish the next two days past in the blink of an eye. Well wish me luck and I will see you all on the otherside. I am sick and tired of the job market in California. Last I read unemployment is up to thirteen percent. I am sure it is a much larger number then this. However it also irrates me that I live  in an overpoppulated county that has more storage units, churches, stop lights  and other senseless waste of perfectly good space, Then actual jobs. They tell us they wanted to boost the econmy and premote us to spend locall
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From The Onion: WASHINGTON—During an emotionally charged press conference Monday, newly minted Redskins quarterback Donovan McNabb expressed gratitude to the unappreciative, abusive, and intolerant fans of the Philadelphia Eagles for their total lack of support over the years. "I'd like to thank all the Eagles fans who were always there to demand the whole world from me every week, who expected me to do everything with almost nothing, and who blamed me for the team's every failure," said the six-time Pro Bowler, who also apologized for his failure to shore up the Eagles defense and his inability to keep Brian Westbrook healthy while leading the team to five NFC championship games. "I can't thank them enough for the constant insults or tell you what their lack of support meant to me when Rush Limbaugh made racist comments about me. My only regret, besides every fucking awful moment of the past 11 years, is that I couldn't give these people what they wanted most: drafting Ricky Wi
a sweet poem for me.....       I'll dream a little dream of you and I.  Catching fireflies amongst the summer sky. While the little creatures light your pretty face. I'll hold you close in my warm embrace. The moon is bright up in the sky it sits. I'll gentaly lean in and kiss your lips. But I will be sad when I awake. Cause this dream wont last at daylights break. So I await for darkness fall. To drift in dream and hear your call. My heart is heavy for your return. for it's only you my heart does yeurn. So give me dreams of you for now. Or please be here, some way, some how.   by M.L.
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      Last July my company had an abrupt and unwelcome change in management. The new management were overbearing bullies who used unethical and sometimes illegal practices to achieve unreasonable goals set by the board of directors. I found another job and quit in December. I wasnt nearly as obnoxious as I could have been but I did burn bridges with management (still friendly with previous management).       I had a party last night and invited my friends from my previous job. The bully management overheard talk of it and in a company meeting told all employees that they would be fired for socializing with former employees. None of them came. I am pissed off and sad at the same time. Our dryer has been on its last legs for a while and finally died about a month and a half ago. Since hubby's salary has been cut by 20% and his job is iffy we havent replaced it. I've been using a drying rack and an outdoor clothesline. Ut oh. I've discovered that I like carrying the clothes outside. It's
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  The problem with truly loving someone is that they can bring you to the heavens   or to the very depths of hell....   its worth every minute of the hell to get back to the heaven.   As crazy as it may seem, for the first time, I'm truly happy...   And this blog is for those of you who are working against that....   you can either be happy for me, or you can remove yourself from my friends list.   I'm not playing some silly little fubar game.   This is my life. This is who makes me happy. And I make him happy.   I know this because we both say it every day.     And to you John ... I love you thanks for being amazing.
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 Heres another random rant from yours truly, disbelievers..... Ive noticed another annoying trend here....And this just might be me being over critical but it seems that there is a proliferation of people wanting something for nothing....I.E. wanting to see my Naughty Pics and I dont get squat in return.... Ive tried very hard not to troll for things on here but it seems to me that Im only someone's friend on THEIR terms or Im convenient when they want something...Im not here for your amusement any more than you are here for mine...I have thoughts and feeling and again there is more to me than my looks, and body...If you cant understand that concept, you need to move on to some other bubble headed bimbo cause I aint her! Im sick and tired of seeing others reaping the benefits of others generosity and I dont get a thing...Ive been nice to most people here and have zip to show for it...Other than an over abundance of drinks that dont help me in any way, shape or form... People claim
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  I havent dont this in a while, like free write i mean . I guess ive just had alot of time to think today - - I took this weekend and spent it with friends i havent seen in months, close friends i see everyday, and my family , and it really made me realize how lucky I am in life . . . sometimes I get caught up in the everyday chaos , and I know im not the only one guilty of it, but since friday ive really taken a look around and realized how lucky / blessed i Am . . 09 was a crazy year for me, alot of accomplishments, along with alot of failures, alot of joy that went hand in hand with dissapoinement. Ive been up and down with alot of people in my life, as well as myself... ive been dissapointed in both partys at some point or another and for a while I really lost sight of whats important.. I realize now that i woke up breathing today, not every1 can say that. . i walked downstairs and my mom was makIng me coffee, someday that will be a thing of the past, I blew out candles surrounde
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The smile on your lips, I find it quite teasing.As I look down at your naked form, it is more then simply pleasing.Yet when I enter you, I scream in pain.The shaft of my member is chafed, yelling 'Never again'.There is no easy way to say this, but my dear you are rather dry.If you give me but a moment, I will run and get the KY.                                Rayne Summers
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I see you, my eyes are shut, but I see you.  I see you as if you were standing before me, yet you are not.  I feel you, I feel the touch of your skin as i hold you. I know you, I know things you wil say before you can say it.  To wonder "can this be real", to think "will this last forever", only to be awakened by your alarm and realize it was only a dream
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Random Facts (I'm only doing this because my under the cover lesbian Witchie said pretty please with sugar on top) 1. My depression meds have killed my sex drive 2. I once went two weeks and couldn't make myself cum :( 3. I have no contact with my mother and father, although they live only 15 minutes away. 4. I was my best friend's first lesbian experience and she tells any guy she is with now I can give head better then him. 5. If I had more cash, I would be a drug addict. 6. Curve cologne makes my mouth water and my thighs tingle. 7. I have sent topless pictures to Jonathon Davis and Fieldy from Korn and talked with them on the phone after a show. 8. I am slightly obsessed with tattooed guitar players 9. I love and trust people to easily 10. I love Reese's Cups
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Your result for The Are you Dominant or submissive Test...The MasterYou scored ###DOM DOM DOM -- You are DEFINITELY dominant. You control the relationship, and your partner, and you like it. You don't like being left out of the loop most of the time, and you're very certain of your expectations in your relationship(s) with your partner(s). Find yourself a good little slave girl, and you're definitely good to go!Take The Are you Dominant or submissive Test at OkCupid
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I am really getting tired of men altogether. I use to just tolerate them. But lately I am just starting to wish all of them would drop off the face of the earth.(yes i know that sounds mean) In person I  can understand them approaching us being they don't know the girl is gay or not. But when they can READ online that the girl is only interested in girls I mean seriously why keep bugging her when its not going to get them anywhere. Thank God for the ignore/block button on here. I mean seriously if they read are profiles they should see they are not going to get nowhere. Yes I know some  have trouble reading and just look at our pictures. Then you get the ones that tell you that they are a "gentleman" and to me if they where one of those you would think he would know not to bother the girl being it wont get him anywhere.  Anyway Just had to get that off my mind! What even makes it worse is when they are older then your own dad or even granddad! Plain gross!
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While you SCREAM at ur woman, there's a man wishing he could talk softly to her ear... While u HUMILIATE, OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with her & reminding her how wonderful she is. While u HURT ur woman, there's a man wishing he could make love to her. While u make ur woman CRY... there's a man is stealing smiles from her.
Remember that they can't do a lot of things for themselves and that they depend on you to make their life a quality life! A PET'S TEN COMMANDMENTS......... 1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you is likely to be painful. 2. Give me time to understand what you want of me. 3. Place your trust in me. It is crucial for my well-being. 4. Don't be angry with me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your friends, your entertainment, but I have only you. 5. Talk to me. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when speaking to me. 6. Be aware that however you treat me, I will never forget it, but I forgive quickly. 7. Before you hit me, before you strike me, remember that I could hurt you, and yet, I choose not to bite you. 8. Before you scold me for being lazy or uncooperative, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, I have been in the sun too long, or my heart might b
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Got this in an email from my local Italian restaurant.....Good thing I wasn't drinking anything at the time or else I would have spewed from my nose. :P   An old Italian man lived alone in Brooklyn.  He wanted to plant his annual tomato garden, but it was very difficult work, as the ground was hard.   His only son, Vincent, who used to help him, was in prison. The old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament:   Dear Vincent,  I am feeling pretty sad, because it looks like I won't be able to plant my tomato garden this year. I'm just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over... I know you would be happy to dig the plot for me, like in the old days. Love, Papa   A few days later he received a letter from his son Vincent.   Dear Pop, Don't dig up that garden. That's where the bodies are buried.
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the painfull memory of a damge childhood that haunts me like a nightmare destorying me leaving me helpless and weak can't defend for myself because i'm blinded by the hate that runs through my body like a drug being injected into my vains make me not see thing so clear, everthing is so dark when you are all alone with no one to hold you when you are dying on your back laying in a pool of your own blood and have nothing to show for what you did in your life only the mistake you did and the scares you got from the painfull memorys of your childhood nothing seem to make sense to you your inncote is takin from you at a young age each day you face a new challege of what would life throw at you next when will life take you away with just one breath not know what life will do. life play it's sick joke that will haunt us to the day we die and hope that are mistake will not be repeated life painfull memory show me that life is just a dream on the way to death, if this is my hell then give me de
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Tho your many miles awayI can still feel youin my dreams is where we meetand for now that will have to doand when I hear your voicemy heart longs for youfor your touch,for your kiss,for a glimps of that sparkle in your eyeTho your many miles awayI can still feel youin my dreams is where we meetand for now that will have to doand when I see your facemy heart skips a beatfor your touch,for your kiss,for a glimps of that sparkle in your eye Can you see the light, or are you still just blind,or can you be lost,in the shadows of your mind,open up your eyes,and together we will start,we will star to walk,and never be apart,and together, we'll run....take a look at me,and open up your heart,see the light i feel,and we'll never be apart,is your mind still dark,or is the daybreak nearing,is it my love you fear,or the love for me your feeling,and together, we'll up your eyes, and let your fears rush out,feel the love I give,and they'll never be a doubt,oprn up your heart,and we will
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Women often receive warnings about protecting themselves at the mall and in dark parking lots, etc.  This is the first warning I have seen for men.  I wanted to pass it on in case you haven't heard about it.  This will only become more commonplace as the weather warms.A 'heads up' for those men who may be regular Lowe's, Home Depot, or Costco customers.  This one caught me by surprise.  Over the last month I became a victim of a clever scam while out shopping.  Simply going out to get supplies has turned out to be quite traumatic.  Don't be naive enough to think it couldn't happen to you or your friends.Here's how the scam works:Two seriously good-looking 20-something girls come over to your car as you are packing your shopping into the trunk.  They both start wiping your windshield with a rag and Windex, with their breasts almost falling out of their skimpy T-shirts.  It is impossible not to look.  When you thank them and offer them a tip, they say 'No' and instead ask you for a ride
For the past 15+ years I have been having the same exact dream over and over again. While there are nights that I do not dream this dream or at all, the nights I do have this dream are getting to be bothersome I guess.   My dream starts out with me waking up and walking down stairs to the dining room area. I am living in Union Beach, NJ(In this dream for some odd reason I am living in this town). My entire family is in the dining room crying and just trying to get things in order. My twin sister is crying especially hard and while I try to console her and the family I am ignored. I have this issue about touching people, not really my thing..but I digress, While I am being ignored I ask several times whats going on and each time I am still ignored. The scenery begins to shift and I am at a graveyard, watching limos and black cars roll up through the gates. I see them go past me and towards an open grave. As everyone begins to get out, a hearse appears in the distance and moves to the
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You are my everything, my one and onlyWith out you, I just feel too damn lonelyI adore the sound of your voice and your beautiful smileThat is why thinking about you makes it all worth whileI dont know why I do the things I doMaybe it's because I love you.You are the greatest thing that's ever happened to meWhen I try and dream at night youre all I ever seeI try to remember the good times we hadKnowing you're not with me makes me very sadI would do absolutely anything for youThat is why I love you the way I do. I try to imagine how things would beIf you were here right now with meWatching movies or just hanging outCause baby, that's what I'm all aboutYou know that I am always here for youThru all the good and bad. I Love You!
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He who knows truthKnows he must bring honorHe who knows loveKnows to bring commitmentHe who knows integrityKnows to bring intelligenceHe who knows his loverKnows to bring his open armsHe who is a knightKnows that he is protectorHe who sees beautyKnows he is the eyes beholderHe who understands compassionKnows he must be patientHe who understands his dutiesKnows his role as a prince
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You and your boyfriend just got home from a gentle swim. Staring at each other in the pool left you both in the mood for something freaky. As you walk up the stairs you hear a gentle moan that seems to be coming from your room. Looking at your boyfriend puzzled, you finish going up the stairs and open the door to your room. If you thought you were horny before, you have no idea. As soon as that door was open, your pussy was dripping. There you saw Eric sitting with his head leaning back as he was moaning. As he practically laid there with one hand up for a little support; I was sucking him off gently and slowly shoving his 11 inch long, 3.5 in wide, shaft, as far into my mouth as possible. Going up and down slowly, I made my hand follow my lips at the same speed making sure he was truly moaning. At the same time I had my other hand wrapped around my back; I was finger fucking myself with two fingers making sure to go in as deep as possible. You stare at this amazing picture with your
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   I have just stated to work on a portait of my grandfather and his siblings. Some of witch were gone befor I was born.. Only ones left are my two uncles out of 7.. plan to give them prints when I finish...I was very closse to my grandfather and am close to his brothers .. I've done many porteaits befor but this one is personal and I feel intimidated by it.. But I havr faith in my abilitys and hope I can pull my head out of my ass to finish this ' Hey it's been one of those weeks were no matter how hard yoou try you just can't seem to break ahead. I have been trying to find steady work for eight months but nothinig is out thier. Trying to make a living as a free lance artist sucks.. No ine thinks about the time and effort put into making their piece, and like just anyone can do this.. I'd love to see some one pick up a brush and see what comes out.. just sick and tiered of main stream america thinking any one can be an artist.. it's not easy takes years of practice and finding out yo
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Earlier today I was searching google, looking for "How much it costs to get an associates in nursing" and Google decided that when I got to " a..." I wanted to know "How much it costs to get an abortion".   Nice, google.    I've noticed it gives me a LOT of odd suggestions...maybe I should stop searching for so much porn. anyway, abortions were so cheap I got two and now I'm addicted.  
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When I look back on my life nowadays, which I seem to do, what strikes me most forcibly about it is that what seemed at the time most significant and seductive, seems most futible and absurd. For instance, sucess in all it's guises; being know and being praised; ostensible pleasures, like aquiring money and seducing women, or traveling going to and fro in the world and up and down in it like Satan, explaining and experiencing what ever Vanity Fair has to offer. In Retrospect, all the exercises in self-gradifaction seem pure fantasy, what Pascal called, "licking the earth" Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round? Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight? Or gased at the sun into the fading night? Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask,"How are ya?", do you hear the reply? When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head? Ever told your child,"We'll do it tomorr
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I haven't been on much to invest any time into my friendships here, and for that I apologize. Been trying to get my life back on track lately. I reapplied for college, I start next month. Strictly online, I'm doing this as best I can. I will have two jobs starting next week as well. I need the money. And I've been trying to invest time in my relationship with Matt because some things got complicated when his friend decided to be a lying bitch. Fact is, I love this boy. I have since the first time I met him and I don't plan on anything changing that. Our parents are meeting on Saturday and Sunday Matt and I are going out of town together. I'm excited for the great great weekend we will have. :)   Well, Sorry again for everything and i love you all :) In virtually all Western societies, execution of a pregnant woman would be delayed until after the woman gave birth, which no doubt gave rise to a desperate effort on the part of some condemned women to get pregn
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I have been thinking about the most painful stuff that some people have to live with and come to realize the "mentally and emotionally" unstable people are where they are for a reason they trust friends to always help them out when times get rough but sometimes we take that for granted it's something stupid that we all do.. well what happens when those friends turn there back on you and everything falls apart this a stupid fuckin blog . I know im not the nicest or coolest person to talk to or be around especially on my bad days and the more and more i i think about it the more and more i realize that i treat people like shit because i'm unhappy or depressed well maybe it's time for me to step up and try to make a change for the better and maybe by doing this i wont hurt the ones i care about and that care about me the most. We often take things in our lives for granted and maybe we should give our head a shake well all in all i guess this is just me giving my head a shake 
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Ya know, for the sake of your children, you should be nice. At least care enough to put your child first and be civil with your ex. It's not that hard. It doesn't take a lot of energy to do such a thing. I do it EVERYDAY of my life. As much as I HATE my ex, I care enough about my child to put him FIRST and be civil. It wasn't always easy at first, but we made it work. So to you, you know who you are, quit being a selfish ass cunt and for the KIDS, who are starting to become the VICTIMS, put your anger aside and be an adult here.  You may not have to care enough to want to talk to him, but you do NEED to talk to him and be civil with him for yalls kids. THAT is what matters. Have a nice fucking day.
Random Thoughts...
Woman was made from the rib of a man. Not from his head,                            to top him. Nor from his feet,                           to be stepped upon. She was made from his side,                                          to be equal to him. From under his arm,                             to be protected by him. Near his heart,                     to be loved by him.                                                       ~Anonymous~ Adversity and issues have a way of sorting out true friends from those who were only there to benefit themselves... when the well runs dry only the true friends offer to help you dig it deeper. The rest seek another well... turbulent, inky black, rushing past my face, jeering laughter interspersed with derisive whispers and sly contempt...My world has become so cold... once loving and tender arms, friendly faces, laughter and friendship, now anger, grief, agony and uncaring dismissals from trusted souls...dreams, once solid, glitt
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roses are red and violets are blue i like fire how bout you and if you think that we could be  go ahead and pm me
Random Thoughts From A Psycho's Head.
"What do i do now that you're gone? No back up plan No second chance and no one else to blame All i can hear in the silence that remains... Are the words i couldn't say." ~Rascal Flatts Today, all i can think about is the fact that you're gone. I'm so angry for what you did, but i miss my husband like no other. But you sir, you are not my husband. ~You are not the man who was at my wedding. ~you are not the man who sings a lullaby withme to our son every night. ~You are not the man who makes dinner special even if it's mac n cheese. ~you are not the man who used to kiss me passionately with meaning. ~You are not the man who put his arm around my waist as he turned out the lights for the night. ~You are not the man i love. You are the opposite of the person i married. You have taken him away from me and i'm angry with you. I don't even think you know who you are anymore. Where is my soulmate? Where did the fun times go? Why can't we just smile anymore? Why can't we just lau
Random Mess
So I was talking to a friend on FB this past evening when I got some random friend requests on yahoo messenger... The following is the chat log/fun that ensued.   BUZZ!!! samuelscamymi:   hey jimmitz_p: hi   samuelscamymi: i'm Katie, 23/f/California currently in school. Would you like to chat ? Where are you from?   jimmitz_p: thats funny why does it say Jody in your profile?   samuelscamymi: ok nice! do you have any pictures? I added new pics here   but I can also turn on my webcam   jimmitz_p: and your profile says you're in washington D.C.   samuelscamymi: Do you have a cam? I mean... Do you want to see me on my cam? it's ok if u don't have one   jimmitz_p: This is a bot huh? you're not real. NOBODIES REAL BUT THEY"RE WILLING TO LET YOU KNOW.   samuelscamymi: I have a blue dinosaur that eats pancakes... is that real enough for ya??   jimmitz_p: Why did you tell me you're katie, but your profile says Jodi and your name is samuel.   samuelscamymi: Ok here   but
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I don't know but i think fubar should make an app for the android market. would be a lot better for some people that cant get on all the time and if they have a smart phone and have an app it would be worth the while to have it but that just me saying Just want to get somethings out in the open.  Yes i know that I bitch and complain. I can't help it. just want to everyone know that. I think that we all do it some point in time. I don't care if you read this or not, comment it or not. Its all up to you. But how about some of you be in my place be Gone for 11 months. I know for my friends that are in the Military it is hard. But for the people that ain't.  Love me or hate me. can't do them both. I'm doing all what I can do to get things done.  So that I can come Back home, and be able to travel back and forth with out having any problems. I am a son of two nations. If y'all don't like that, it ain't my fault.  So if you don't like it I'm sorry
Random Jess Musings
This should be interesting... ***{Ladies Title it "Boyfriend Application"}*** ***{Guys Title it "Girlfriend Application"}*** ***Basic Info*** o1. Your Name: o2. Age: o3. Fave Color: o4. Whats your sign? o5. Phone Number (you dont have to do this one): o6. Location(you dont have to do this one): o7. Height: o8. Hair (color and style): o9. Piercings/tattoos: ***Here Comes The Fun*** o1. Are we friends? o2. Would you kiss me? o3. With tongue? o4. Would you enjoy it? o5. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? o6. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? o7. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? o8. Would you walk on the beach with me? o9. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 10. Do you/have you talked about me? 11. Do you think I'm a good person? 12. Would u take a nap with me? 13. Do you think I'm cute? 14. If you could change anything about me -would you? 15. Would you dance with me? 16. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? 1
Random Thoughs And Ramblings
Sometimes you just have to realize...That no matter how much you love someone, they are never going to love you back.That when the writing is on the wall that is the truth, no matter what someone says.That if someone doesn't give you their are not on their mind.That if a person doesn't make an are not worth their time.That actions speak louder than words.That if someone can't make up their mind to be with you, they aren't worth your time.That sometimes love is like a mirror and it is better to leave the pieces broken on the floor than to continue to hurt yourself trying to clean it up.That change happens when the PAIN of holding on becomes greater than the FEAR of letting go.   Something older I saw or wrote, I can't remember but I still like it. Do you ever feel like you have no idea what to do with you life?  I just turned 37 and I have no idea.  I am in a relationship that probably will not end in a happily ever after.  Not probably, I know it won’
Geeks Make the Best Catch  Top Ten Reasons Why Geeks Make the Best Catch It’s not generally realized that geeks (male and female) are the best catches. Americans focus on the glamour of the good-looking, the male jock and the statuesque female, and tend to make fun of second banana characters like Urkel. Yet, geeks (a.k.a. nerds, etc.) provide the opportunity to have much longer, more stable, and happy relationships. Here are the top ten reasons: 1. Geeks don't cheat. Geeks know that the grass only seems greener on the other side. They instinctively stay devotedly loyal to their lovers through thick and thin. Their social skills are also not well developed enough to support an affair. 2. Geeks appreciate their mates. Since you are likely to be one of the first persons a geek has ever had a significant relationship with, you will be treated well. A geek knows that there aren’t a whole lot of other possibilities. Frankly, geeks aren't quite sure how they ended up with t
Random Ranting
Okay, so not long ago I was out and about.  I decided to have a drink and the guy next to me was ordering a martini (Vesper Martini to be precise) and ha asked for it "Shaken, not stirred".  I couldn't help but laugh my ass off.   There isn't any reason to get a martini shaken and not stirred.  It does not matter if you stir it instead.  The guy basically did it just because he thought it sounded cool since James Bond always said that.     If anyone thinks there is a difference between the mixing methods, try this little experiment.  Take 2 measuring cups (or beakers if you have them) and fill each with 8 ounces of water at the same temperature.   Take a drink shaker at room temperature and put in the water from measuring cup number 1 and 2 cubes of ice.  Shake is vigorously for 10 seconds.  Now pour it back into the measuring cup and observe how much the ice cubes melted and take the temperature of the water.    Now do the same thing with measuring cup number 2 but this time STIR i
Random Stuff From Poems To Fave Songs
He's a fool and don't I know it But a fool can have his charms I'm in love and don't I show it Like a babe in arms I'm wild but not impatient Men were not a new sensation Couldn't sleep, and wouldn't sleep When love told me I shouldn't sleep Loving and hugging you know it I'm in love and don't I show it Like a babe in arms [Chorus:] I'm wild again, beguiled again A simpering, whimpering child again Bewitched, bothered and, bewildered am I My heart was lost, I paid the cost Cold from the start he played the part I must agree the laughs on me But he and I we were meant to be Anticipating, loving, hating, waiting What am I to do Bewildered and bewitched 'Cause I'm so bothered over you [Chorus] Just the same old sad sensation That's the way love feels And this half-pint imitation Has my head over my heels Wishin' and missin' you kissin' What am I to think Bothered and bewildered I can't sleep a wink [Chorus] My heart was lost I paid the cost Cold from the start I've seen a lot, I me
Random Rants
Random Thoughts
been working hard to reach goals, won't buckle from stressbut I was sent here for the struggle, and I'll suffer to deathmy concepts stay focused, waiting for something to changemy progression remains hopeless, afraid I'm stuck in my ways  I need a new trade ..just an idea that my company raisedproblem with that, addiction is my only companies traitsI must be insane, the voice within my heads getting loudertellin me do drugs n be a failure, but I'm failing without'emcounting the days going by, I'm twenty eight years deepif you live and you learn, guess you graduate when deceasedi just aggravated the beast, annoying the women i lovemy gene pools liquor n drugs, but cant swim when I'm drunkand if that isn't enough, I'm drowning and hardly afloathoping that pcp works, because they call it the boata god awful approach, thats why i asked him for helpI walk around like christ, no sense in asking myself
I fear what the mummers would do to me if I posted this as an actual mumm, so here it is in my blog for your consideration... I'm going to get a new tattoo on Tuesday! I like them all and I can't choose which one I should get... Give me your advice! Tell me which one you like best. I'm going to be getting it on the inside of my arm right above my wrist, so if the location helps you pick a picture, sweet!
Random Prose And Poetry
No fairy tale endings, just broken dreams,At least thats the way it sometimes seems.When you cant find the way or find the means,No secret wishing star, or magical moonbeams.When the world you wish for just can not be,And you have to face the harshness of reality,That what you envision is not what is to be,And if you open your eyes, the truth you will see.No golden mountains, no slow moving streams.No ivory white castles, no Kings or Queens.No walks on the beach, no romantic scenes.No fairy tale endings, just broken dreams. I know you did not ask to be brought into this world, but having you in my life is a blessing that is beyond any other.  You are a reason to laugh, to love, to live life.  You are my babies, my angels, my best friends, and always will be.  I know this is not a perfect world.  There are many things that are wrong.  There are also many things that are good.  You will scrape your knees, you will cry, and you will fall.  I will be there to kiss things better
Random Shit
  Name:Location:Birthday: Measurements:Do you work/go to school?:What kind of car do you drive?:What do you want to be when you grow up?:Are you cute?:Would you laugh at my dumb jokes when no one does?:Are you close w/your family?:Would you ever wear my clothes?:How many people have you had sex with?:Would you take me home if I was too drunk to drive?:Are you overly serious or are you able to be goofy at times?:Would you bring me food from my favorite place just because?:Are you religious?:Do you think i'm sexy?:Will you call me in the middle of the night just to say 'hi'?:Do you like to cuddle?:What kind of beer/alcohol do you drink? (if applicable):What is your biggest flaw?:Are you a jealous person?:What are your hobbies?:Could we go for a midnight picnic on a clear, starry night?:Would you ever put cute little notes all over my car?:Favorite bands?:Do you have ANY musical talent?:When was your last relationship & why did it end?:3 months from now am i going to find out you're a t
Random Things
how am i suppose to give you the answers to things i don't know? how can i help you, when i can't even help myself? i don't know how to make things better, i can't tell you what you want to hear... i can't fix things for you, i can't change the way things are.... i know you're not happy... i'm not either.. coming to me.. it can't fix anything.. i'm not your answer... nothing i say or do .. will change anything... i have nothing to do with your problem... even tho i kno you blame me... i'm sorry you didn't think i was good... that i was such a bad influence... i don't know how it happened.. i don't know what i did... to make you think i'm the bad guy... i have my own problems... my own pains.. i don't know how to fix me.. how can i fix you??   071310 Name:Age:Location:Height:Hair (color and style):Eyes:Piercings/tattoos:OTHER:1. Where would we go on dates?2. Who are three of your favorite bands/artists?3. Do you drink/smoke??4. Do you like the beach?5. If so...would you go w
Random Acts Of Writting
The night sky was moonless shrouding the city in a cloak of darkness, she stood silent and still unnoticed unseen, this was a regular place she visited frequently, she stood down an alley in the cover of dark leaning her back up against a brick wall the ally was thick with the stench of rotten food and stale alcohol to one side was a restaurant across the way a pub above the foul stench of the ally there was the familiar smell of ash, fresh beer, and burning tobacco. What little light shone down her eyes would capture it and glimmer ever so softly. Suddenly the door of pub flung open and it looked almost as though a cloud of smoke emerged the loud chatter and music spill out onto the street, stumbling out of the cloud was a drunk man his hand out stretched touching the cold brick wall as he walked as though he had no control of his legs he managed to find his way half way down the ally his fingertips brushing along the rough brick work guiding him, the drunken lout takes a few side way
I am so tired of your so called "friends" blocking you for no reason, If you dont want to talk anymore at least grow a pair and say so.... Im just tired of putting everything I have into something and then someone just throwing it all away like it was nothing... Is it me or is the world becoming more and more hopeless? I mean You have selfish people who care only about getting ahead an could care less about who they step on... then you have jerks who just want self satisfation, they couldnt care more about the hearts they break and the lives they wreck.I am so tired of being lied to and hurt by people who pretend they care so from now on im gonna be just a little bit selfish and look out for just me!Sorry just a rant, needed to get it off my chest
Random Vents
I am not the hero of the story, I am the narrator. I’m the voice that people follow and are drawn to while actually caring more for the others involved. I can make you follow but I never lead. I can tell you amazing lies and you’ll believe them because my reasons for existing are just for your entertainment. My emotional input doesn’t matter, my presence conflicts your fantasy, my voice interrupts the perfect life your watching. If I never told you the plot, you would still watch the people act. My great purpose is to build up for someone elses resolve, And my great motive is to have you climax with the dramatics of others. lookin at you lookin at mesomething so simpletakes all we believegiven you that griefgiven me that smilejust flipin out while your flippin me off (chours)so what do you know?nothin comes normalnothing comes easy but for me to be methink i figured it outnothing comes normalnothing thats givenmeans anything to me(bridge)so what little i goti paint po
Random Words
Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocence, and leave me with my sinsThe air around me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...So if you love me, let me go.And run away before I know.My heart is just too dark to care.I can't destroy what isn't there.Deliver me into my fate -If I'm alone I cannot hateI don't deserve to have you...My smile was taken long agoIf I can change I hope I never knowI still press your letters to my lipsAnd cherish them in parts of me that savor every kissI couldn't face a life without your lightBut all of that was ripped apart...when you refused to fightSo save your breath, I will not hear.I think I made it very clear.You couldn't hate enough to love.Is that supposed to be enough?I only wish you weren't my friend.Then I could hurt you in the end.I never claimed to be a saint...My own was banished long agoIt took the death of hope to let you goSo break yourself against my stonesAnd spit your pity in my so
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Random Thoughts And Ideas That Run Through My Head...
Fuck. My. Life. I had this huge post written out halfway and I left it up before I went to go watch a movie. Came back, finished it, and then went to post it. What happened next? Session fucking timed out. Entry? Gone. GONE! Communist bastards... My body hurts. Head hurts. Fever. Swollen tonsil. Chills. Body aches. Yeah. I'm sick. It's fucking amazing. Shhh...I know you're jealous. Let's see how much I can fucking remember...ugh. I'm dreading this already. Society. That's right. I ranted about society. Who the fuuuuuuuuuuuck dictates what is right and what is wrong? Morals are not commanded. They are just there whether you like them or not. Some may have more than others, but that's besides the point. They're still there. In my opinion, society and it's fucking rules destroy more character in people than mold them into perfect fucking angels. Think about it. One day it says you're fat. You go anorexic. Go on a diet. Work yourself to death in a gym and take diet pills that fuck up yo
Random Postings
Ok, here I am again, on my fifth day off from work and still up early in the morning. What is wrong with this shit. Oh well, allows me to get on the comp and play. Trying to decide how to waste my time today again, although I am sure I am going to get started on another paper in psyche. Ever feel like one things consumes you all the time? will be glad when I am done with this school thing, but that isnt goin to be for probably another three years. At least I like my classes, just not the time lost.   Ok, so here I go again, waging the war against trojan viruses. I win yet again today. sick litle bastards, getting annoyed. Lately I am getting hijackers... been a while since I have had those. This one was annoying as it hijacked my .exe programs and displayed a fake anti-virus detection warning. Anyone wondering it was the Windows Security Alert fake trojan.... Not nasty as unable to remove, but highly annoying as it was preventing me from doign school work (it hijacked my Word program
Random Thoughts And Rants
I didn't write this myself, but I think every American should read it! The Ghost of Thanksgiving Yet to Come By Arnold Ahlert  Wednesday, November 24, 2010     "Winston, come into the dining room, it's time to eat," Julia yelled to her husband. "In a minute, honey, it's a tie score," he answered.  Actually Winston wasn't very interested in the traditional holiday football game between Detroit and Washington.  Ever since the government passed the Civility in Sports Statute of 2017, outlawing tackle football for its "unseemly violence" and the "bad example it sets for the rest of the world," Winston was far less of a football fan than he used to be.  Two-hand touch wasn't nearly as exciting. Yet it wasn't the game that Winston was uninterested in.  It was more the thought of eating another TofuTurkey.  Even though it was the best type of VeggieMeat available after the government revised the American Anti-Obesity Act of 2018, adding fowl to the list of federally-forbidden
Random Things
I know, i know- sore subject. Whatever.   I just find it funny that people believe in things that are not there. Like for instance... God and ''Satan''. It's retarded in my  opinion to devote yourself to something or someONE who won't even show their fucking face to their followers, but they left behind a little note book full of ''to do's'' and what not to do. The people who try to force their ''beliefs'' on me- fuck you. You're retarded. I don't want anything to do with that kind of douchebaggery. This is what i belive in: -Family -Self -Honesty -Home.   If you abandon that for something you can not see or hold on to, you're fucking stupid. Just wanted to say that, and your kids are going to grow up to be brainwashed bible thumpers trying to see something they can not. Gotta be a bitch to be told you can't commit suicide or you won't even see them- whats the point of caring when you won't see them anyways? Hope someone gets a grip on this bullshit because it sure as fuck sp
Random Rants
Why can't Mountain Dew just keep the throwback version? Can the Dallas Cowboys win with Tony "I took Jessica Simpson to Cabo San Lucas instead of putting in more time to beat the NY freakin football Giants of East Rutherford New Jersey" Romo as thier QB And another thing either the Giants and Jets drop New York from thier geographical indicator in there name and change it to where they really are, or in the Jets case move back to the actual state of NY or they both drop the NY and just go by the team name. Last I looked at the calandar we are in the 2nd decade of the new millenium and  the 21st century. Where the hell is my hover car, food replicator and holographic TV set?        
Random Ramblings
Random Ramblings
For about a week now, I have been offering to pay people to rate all my pics.... I currently have around 350 pictures with about 30 being in a "Family Only" folder.... I understand that not everyone can rate those particular pictures and that is fine with me.... They will still get paid for rating all of the rest.... I am currently paying 140K which I believe is more than fair.... I ran into an issue this morning where someone said that they haven't been paid.... So, to avoid any further confusion or delay I have made a folder with screen shots of the payments.... This will not only protect me from having to double pay someone, it also proves to others who are rating my pics that they will indeed get paid.... Another issue that I have run into is people commenting on the pictures that all have been rated.... In my status it clearly states: "Paying 140K for rating all my pics.... PM me when you are done...." If people do not send me a Personal Message to my inbox I cannot guarantee paym
I spent 5 years giving you chance after chance to make things right. All you could ever do is lie and cheat. Everytime things aren't going your way with your new conquest you feel the need to barge back into my life, drag up all the feelings that I've tried to bury, and leave me feeling like a scared weak girl again. I hate that you make me feel like a bitch for pointing out that your choices are the ones that ended our relationship. It is over, it's been over for more than a year, deal with it. You don't get another chance, I'm not letting you break me again. A GOOD boyfriend would-text you every second he's not at your side.-hug you every chance he gets..and stay there for a while.-call you beautiful or pretty instead of sexy or hot.-stay up all night to text you-tells you he loves you.-Kisses you-teases you, but lets you tease back.A GOOD girlfriend would...-constantly remind you how much she loves you.-do anything to be with you-gets really close to you when hugging, dancing, et
Random Stuff
so today im goin to my moms for thanksgiving this ought to be interesting
Random Shit
Just once when I apologize and try to work things out with someone, I wish it wouldn't get talked about or whispered about or brought back up again, oh yeah..i also wish something could just stay personal. Like a fight or argument could be just between the people having them. It's no wonder a person feels awkward and out of place. Maybe airing ones dirty laundry to the group isn't exactly the way to bring people together. Or make one feel welcome or that they belong. But its just my opinion.
GF application.Name:Age:Phone Number:Hair Color:Eye Color:Piercings/tattoos?:Drink/smoke?:WHAT D0 Y0U THINK 0F MYPersonality:Eyes:Face:Hair:Clothes:Humor:Manners:Friends:Decisions:W0ULD Y0U...Go out with me:Give me your number:Kiss me:Let me kiss you:Watch a movie with me:Drive me somewhere private:Take a shower with me:Be my gf:Take me home to meet your family:Let me sleep in your bed if I didn't have one:Tell me the truth no matter what:Lie to make me feel better:Hold my hand:Keep in touch:Try and solve my problems:Love me:Ditch me:Use me:Fuck me then fuck me over:Call me right after I saw you:Come see me when I needed it:Drive around all night and be with me:D0 Y0U...Think I'm cute:Want to fuck me:Want to kiss me:AM I...Smart:Hot:Funny:Cool:Interesting to talk to:HAVE Y0U EVER...Thought about me:Thought there might be an "US":Found yourself wanting to kiss me:Wished I were there:Wanted to ask me out:Flirted while you had a girlfriend:Cheated on anyone:WHAT W0ULD Y0U D0 IF...I said I
Random Thoughts & Opinions
I've been on this site a little while and yea I've navigated around to get an overall feel for what goes on here. It is true that I do not accept friend adds from guys, Fact is, I have male friends in the real world. We hang out, watch sports, play sports, have drinks,(usually a few beers) and we talk about anything and everything. Guess what, I also have several female friends and take a guess what we do. Exactly the same thing. So here it is guys. Despite what you may have been taught or told, Women are not toys that were put here for your amusement. When you are rude, disrespectful and downrite stupid it is not funny it is not charming and it ain't cute. News Flash....Women are precious Human beings. They too have feelings, wants, desires and dreams. So here are some things to know. 1st, if you want a gal to show you her body and make you masterbate you ain't getting laid anyway. Go try getting a job in the porn industry odds are you don't have what it takes and would be laughed out
Random Poetry, Some Mine Some Others. Enjoy
open The Night is young& full of restI can't describethe way she's dress'dShe'll pander to some strangerequestsAnything that you suggestAnything to please her guest What are you doing here?What do you want?Is it music?We can play music.But you want more.You want something & someone new.Am I right?Of course I am.You want ecstasyDesire & dreams.Things not exactly what they seem.I lead you this way, he pulls that way.I'm not singing to an imaginary girl.I'm talking to you, my self.Let's recreate the world.The palace of conception is burning.Look. See it burn.Bask in the warm hot coals.You're too young to be oldYou don't need to be toldYou want to see things as they are.You know exactly what I doEverything
Random Thoughts And Rants
Random Thoughts
I sit here on Christmas Eve and I wonder what the hell has happened to most of the people. Most everyone is out for themselves. Want, want, want. Thats all everyone does. What happened to a time of giving. Something that comes from the heart. I am getting so sick of this place. I give without being asked. I help because thats what makes me feel good. But all I see in status messages is give me this and give me that. Its sad. You all wonder why this country is going to hell. Everyone has a hand out and wants something for nothing. It makes me sad. Makes me actually hate the Christmas that everyone else talks about. I celebrate a season of giving, but I dont do it just this time of year. I do it year round. So examine yourselves. Think about the real meaning for the season. And then do something for someone else without them asking. Figure it out before its to late.    Merry Christmas Scott a.k.a. Venom
Random Scheiße
I've actually been hanging out with friends during winter break it's awesome!Realized I never hung out with My friend Joe 1 on 1 today. He was worried my ex would want tobeat him up. He's the kinda guy that thinks every guy just wants to get in my pantswhich ok I'm not gonna say that no guy has ever tried befriending me to get in mypants but Joe isn't one of em. I think the real problem is that Joe is just one of thosepeople that is very comfortable to be around. He's been hurt badly by women in the pastand for that reason has been single for going on 8 years...crazy.So we ended up going out to eat then watching a B horror movie called"beware! children at play". It was horrible and I ended up liking it more then hedid but it was almost on the verge of bad bad.He owed me a drink so I got some really tasty beer that he bought thats really expensive.It's raspberry flavored and oh so yummy. I was also invited to the New Years party he's having, don't know if I can go yetbut it sounds like
Random Thoughts And Feelngs
I. Marriage is no real excuse for not loving. II. He who is not jealous cannot love. III. No one can be bound by a double love. IV. It is well known that love is always increasing or decreasing. V. That which a lover takes against the will of his beloved has no relish. VI. Boys do not love until they arrive at the age of maturity. VII. When one lover dies, a widowhood of two years is required of the survivor. VIII. No one should be deprived of love without the very best of reasons. IX. No one can love unless he is impelled by the persuasion of love. X. Love is always a stranger in the home of avarice. XI. It is not proper to love any woman whom one would be ashamed to seek to marry. XII. A true lover does not desire to embrace in love anyone except his beloved. XIII. When made public love rarely endures. XIV. The easy attainment of love makes it of little value; difficulty of attainment makes it prized. XV. Every lover regularly turns pale in the presence of his beloved.
Random Thoughts
Ever wanted something so badly you couldn't breathe without thinking about it? Ever over analysed something so much that the simplest concept turns to gibberish in your own head? Ever felt something was just "right" clear down to your bones, so deep that no one could tell you otherwise? Ever wonder if you were insane because your mind races so fast you can't make sense of your own thoughts? Ever lose yourself in something so wonderful you can't remember what life was like before it? Ever have to talk yourself down from an emotional cliff? Ever endure something horrible and come out better because of it? Ever teach yourself to love again? Ever wanted to drown in a feeling? Ever been so happy you don't see how anyone could deserve the luck you've found? I Have.... Have You? Be Strong... Be Loved... Question Everything   
The Randomness That Is Me!
why do you let me push you around why dont u see how mean i can bei always tell you what to do expect too much from youbut your always doing what i say never questioning a day you let me walk all over you i treat you like a slave and constantly tell you what to dohow can you just take my shit so soft spoken never harsh why dont u just tell me offstop doing every thing i say stop letting me treat you this wayyou know its bullshit how i act yet you still jump up in a flash always such a people pleaser dont you ever have your own oppinioni dont understand how u can love me so much you tell me all the time you care but you should stand up sometimes not let me push you aroundalways falling on the ground nothings ever good enough i dont know why im so tough things need to change i dont know why i act this wayyou love me so much but its hard to see i cant think clearly its such a bad habit im trying to brakethings cant always be this way you need respect you need your space you dont need me i
Random Thoughts
I don't think you will ever fully understand how you've touched my life and made me who I am. I don't think you could ever know just how truly special you are that even on the darkest nights you are my brightest star. I don't think you will ever fully comprehend how you've made my dreams come true or how you've opened my heart to love and the wonders it can do. You've allowed me to experience something very hard to find unconditional love that exists in my body, soul, and mind. I don't think you could ever feel all the love I have to give and I'm sure you'll never realize you've been my will to live. You are an amazing person and without you I don't know where I'd be. Having you in my life completes and fulfills every part of me. I want to cry I want to scream I want to tell you mostly I hate that I'm so afraid of everything I wish I would've been strong enough to say no to you I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left I envy the way this hasn’t hurt
Random Thoughts Of My Love!
Woke up about 6 am still groggy from my meds. I wish that I could b close to u. U make me laugh, u make me smile,I think of u often well always. Just to have u in my life makes me want to continue. I would b nothing without u! I would give anything to have u here with me even if it were just a few days that would make me ecstatic. And as for all those that say they care........ I call b.s. On that cuz betrayal doesn't show care just selfishness!
Random Stuff In My Head
Just some stuff going around in my head....The State of the Union Address: Why during prime time ? You're fucking up my television schedule. And why so long ? All he really has to say is "Shits fucked up and I'm gonna try and fix it"....people will clap, and I can get back to some fine television viewing. Anteaters and aardvarks. Why is there both ? They're basically the same damn animal. Does the world really need both ? Cleavage. Ladies, if you're going to put it out there, we will look. Just a fact of life. WAR. What is it good for ? Well let me tell ya. It keeps me employed and getting a paycheck. Boredom. I am suffering it from it right now and thats why I'm doing this. I'm not doing it because I think anybody is interested in what I have to say right now. If you are reading this, are you bored too ? Well that's all for now.
Random Thoughts
I wanted to get some comments or opinions on the subject of "sub/dom" vs "master/slave"  The way I see it, being submissive means just that. It doesn't mean subservient to anyone. So the realm of "master/slave" is really far removed from that of a dominant and submissive relationship.  The following is my personal understanding, PLEASE don't take it as anything other than me putting my thoughts down in order to have a greater understanding. I'm perfectly willing to accept constructive criticism and alternate explanations. Dom vs. Master: To be dominant over someone means that you have a responsibility to the one or ones you "dom" over. You are a leader and a strong personality. You have accepted the role as teacher and guide and you are willing to do your best to show your sub more about themselves. To help them to look inside themselves and find that place where they are truly happy and able to release any inhibitions. As a dom you may use means that seem to others to be cruel or pa
Random Scribbling And Rants
living in my own hell no one cares or understands all alone in this worldalone with my thoughts thoughts vile and dark matching a soul black as night so many faces and layers no one really knows what lies under the dark they see what is projected but never the truth the hurt and scared girl afraid of what is next cant go forward wont go backward stuck in the darkness no sees her tears or her fears so she stands brave and tall as long as she stays in the dark
Random Drivel
Huge hugs and stuffs!   Tomorrow is a long doctor day pffft! Also my kitty Sugar loses his balls and Cory's cat Monkey gets her vagina mulitlated..pray they have a safe kitty surgery day!   I want to apologize for involving my friends in drama. I do not do that and hate being involved in it myself. Most of it was for shits and giggles and I refuse to let trash get attention from me any longer. She is using  friends of mine and myself, to get attention she can't get on her own..   Thank you for helping me being a point whore too!     not any longer ~huge hugs~ Excited about tomorrow! My baby sister and I are going to shop together..I really hate shopping,but love her. Poor thing has to have  some bone removed from her elbow soon,so she deserves some time with her wacky big sister ;)   Every friday should be bone your spouse day! ....js Cory is losing weight and getting super hot rawrrrrrrrrrrr I am getting more and more nervous about Feb 8th,but ready for it to be here!
Random Stuff From A Lunatic Woman
So, with the recent sucess of the movie The Social Network, comes also the age old question, "Are we becoming too dependant on technology"? How many of you out there remember, in the not too distant past, a time when you actually rememberd your friends' phone numbers? When there was no 'Fave Five' to put them in, and catagorize them as a face, or a name? Much like the Cartographers (map makers) of old, is personal interaction going the way of MapQuest? Punch a few qualities about a person that you'd like to have in a companion, and Viola!!!! ???? Ok, so maybe that's a little too I Robot, but you get what I'm saying here, don't you? The very same thing that is suppost to bring us closer, is actually teaching us to become more 'personally reclusive'. Now I just made up that phrase, but the best I can explain its meaning would be as follows..... Shying away from tangible human contact in order to contact humans thru mechanical means. Did Native Americans send smoke signals to each other?
Random Thoughts In The Night
You know these days I just don't sleep to much anyway. Tonight, sleep eludes me all together. Anyone who has talked to me for a while knows that I don't do well alone. Maybe thats why I can't sleep tonight. Maybe the weight of my loneliness is weighing me down. But I don't think thats it. I think tonight, I am simply thoughtful.  I think about what has been... What could be. There isn't a whole lot of could be these days. Could that be whats keeping me awake? Just because I can't see whats around the bend? Could I ever see around the bend? I don't know. I suppose in the past I've had some insight into what would come tomorrow. It is not to say that I cannot tell you what I'll do tomorrow. Its that I know tomorrow will only bring more of the same.  I remember a time when I slept like a rock. I had a reason to wake up. I knew that in the morning, everything I loved would be there waiting for me when I opened my eyes. I was happy then. I worked hard. I sweat and bled and loved every
Random Stuff From Me, Aw
GTFO out of my sb unless I invite you into it.   I don't respond to random people, especially not men. So yeah, kindly do one.   kthanksbye. I've had to make a new account because I messed my bartab settings up on the old one, and all i ever got told was about people's auto 11's ...   so yeah, this is the reason. Bye :|
Random Shit!
"Shit" may just be the most functional word in the english language! You can get shit faced, be shit out of luck, or even have shit for brains.  With a little effort you can get your shit together or find a place for your shit or be asked to shit or get off the pot.  You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, forget shit and tell others to eat shit.  There are lucky shits, dumb shits and crazy shits.  There is bull shit, horse shit and chicken shit. You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit, shoot the shit, or duck when the shit hits the fan. You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit. When you stop to consider all the facts, it's the basic building block of the english language. And remember, once you know your shit, you don't need to know anything else
I'm a Fubar whore See my nasty little snatch Bling pack gets you in Wanna see my tits?You have to buy me FuBlingFu whores are not cheap
Random Thoughts
 I will tell everyone the ugly truth about a certain subject I try to avoid telling. I have a hard time telling people about my skin condition for fear of being called ugly names ,but I have decided it's best to keep things in the open about myself. I have the skin condition psoriasis. There I said it. I started getting it shortly after moving to Northern Nevada in June 2004. I also have arthritis. It happened in 2002 as a matter of fact 9 yrs ago this month . I was startled by a co-worker and slammed my right middle finger in the car door and broke it . The ER doctor did nothing so now I have a crooked right middle finger that I avoid taking pictures of my right hand. I suppose I'm tell everyone this, because I'm tired of holding it back. It may help someone else to get treatment for the same problem I have.  Power that by obedience grows, Knowledge which its source not knows, Wave which severs whom it bears From the things which he compares Adding wings through things to range T
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Yes almost everyone would love to own one of America's most famous sports cars the Chevrolet Corvette . However like clothes some are just not made for  each individual to wear or look good in . After intensive study and research here are the results for those who and who shouldn't think of purchasing a Corvette .   1st Generation 1953 to 1962 These beautiful Vettes are for the true Auto Enthusiast who respects the history of this vehicle who is in their late 50's and up . 2nd Generation 1963 to 1967 These babies were sweet and by 1965 Big Blocks were being dropped into them , these models are for those in their mid 30's and up . 3rd Generation 1968 to 1982 These sexy fast rides are for guys and girls in their late 30's to early 50's . 4th Generation 1984 to 1996 5th Generation 1997 to 2004 6th Generation 2005 to present These last 3 generations are nice but these are for the the 20 somethings and for most part are disposable cars . ' If your in your mid 40's and up " No
Random Thoughts That Come To Mind, From Time To Time.
( GO TO THE BOTTOM AND CLICK THE " CLICK HERE"  BUTTON !! )Click here 1 ) i litterally cant function withour music. i even sleep with my ipod on 2) im addicted to facebook . i cant go a day without it - yep im serious 3) i have borderline personality disorder - its NOT multiple personalitys. 4) i also suffer form severe deperessive and anxiety disorder - the hospital used to be my 2nd home -no joke 5) i am STILL in love with the backstreet boys 6) Drake  ( the rapper and jimmy from degrassi ) got me through  a fucked up break up / miscairage 7) i cant have kids for the next 2 1/2 years - if i dont get another round of implanon - 8) im not even sure if i want kids anymore 9) im spiritual..NOT religious. i believe in god, i pray, but i wont step foot in a church unless im getting amrred or its someones funreal. it amkesme feel fake after me hospitalizations 10 ) i ussed to be highly obsessed with  eric roberts and kenny chesney - i still like both iof em, but is more controlled
Random Lyircs
I wanna cut through my skin And pull you within My heart burns like the sun As our flesh becomes one In the darkness My heart aches at the sight of you Trembles and quakes within sight of you In the darkness Our bodies burning Tides are turning Somehow stopping time What is becoming of my heart and mind? In the darkness All that you want from me is all I have to give In the darkness Coming so easily, learning how to live In the darkness All that you want from me is all I have to give In the darkness Coming so easily, learning how to live I will surrender my soul And give you control Make me a Martyr for love To the heavens above In the darkness My heart aches at the sight of you In the darkness Trembles and
1. First Important Lesson - "Know The Cleaning Lady" During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions, until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello." I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy. 2. Second Important Lesson - "Pickup In The Rain" One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alab
Random Stories
     Every where he looked, he saw a void of gray, shapeless shadows. If he moved, they seemed to move with him. If he reached for them, they’d retreat further. He’d hear murmurs all around. Any way he turned, there would be nobody there. He’d walk for what felt like hours, and nothing would change. He could have just been walking in place for all he knew. It didn’t occur to him that he didn’t grow thirsty, or tired, or hungry. He had no real way of discerning the time. There was no sun or moon, and therefore, no day or night. It seemed to be a forever gray twilight. He had no way of knowing where the small amount of light came from. It was just there – giving enough light to see that there really wasn’t much to see.       He’d hear soft cries in the distance. Snatches of conversations floated around him – accusations (those were the loudest), crying, arguments, and apologies (these barely audible). He could never hear the words; j
Randy's Poetry
Random Thoughts
hopefully by semi starting it i remember to do it in future.
Randy's Poetry 2
Randy's Poetry 3
Random Poems
i remember the days when my mind used to beoverrun with emotions and thoughtsof all things good and the worst;as time went by,with each new day,and with a brand new life to look forward to,my mind emptied itself in a flash, just like that;with a cup of coffee in hand,i sit back and think about the yesteryears,smiling at the change that has taken over meand the life that i have been blessed with now;strolling down the memory lane,unafraid of the future,blinded by the ecstasy of livingeventually, with eyes wide open,i’ve come to understand, thatsome things, including life, change for the better;
Random Stuff
I ave been wondering how long and what i would take to start healing from the loss of my son.....I have the feeling i am on the way to starting on  the journey......turns out all i needed was a good bottle of whiskey some beer and to get mad enough to try and break my arm with my shed....the problem i still have is anger management and the total lack of a reason or desire to love anything.....i include my rl friends and family in this...i feel like i have been shut out left in the cold and with indifference but oh well.....gonna drown in a bottle again and try not to go postal or hurt myself smacking things so if i dont answer right away just figure i either am busy breaking something or i went to sleep!!!! i dont miss much as a general rule.....however since the loss of my son i find myself missing not only him but ME!   i am not sur ewhere i have gone and i dont know where to start looking to find me but i know i am gone....i have no sense of self or humor like i used to and i so wis
Random Thoughts
As I sit here and think back, it seems like it was yesterday.  The hurt you caused me was nothing compared to the aftermath that has become "who I am."  Why can't I just let myself forget about that day, forget out what you did and just move on with my life?  Why do I continue to let it control my feelings and my subconsious?  I want nothing more to be able to let someone in again, but how can I?  How do you undo something that has shapped who you are in present time?  Every morning I wake up thinking will today be the day, and each day I go to bed with the nothingness that was a careless whisper.  I'll never forgive you, not for what you did, but what you continue to do each and every day. 
Random Encounter
  It's a beautiful day, he's a regular guy, about 5'7, brown hair, neatly dressed and clean shaven.  He enters the coffee shop, grabs a quick black coffee, and finds a place to sit.  She enters, nicely dressed, long legs, nice shape, very pretty.  she orders, and looks for a place to sit.  The place is kinda full, and the only place to sit is at his table.  she approaches, and politely asks if he's expecting company.  He responds no. and invites her to sit.  They chat a bit drinking their coffee's and laughing.  As she finishes her cup, she rises to leave, and coyly passes him a slip of paper with her number.  She smiles as she walks away thinking, "Possibilities, definite possibilities"!   ~~~~~~~~~~~~------------------------------~~~~~~~~~~~~~   Rummaging through his pocket, he finds the slip of paper.  He looks it over, and remembers the lovely lady that gave it to him.  He considers for a moment or two what to do, then on impulse picks yo his phone and dials.  it rings once, t
Randy The Macho Man Savage Dies In A Car Wreck
‘Macho Man’ Randy Savage dies in a car crash By Chris Chase   "Macho Man" Randy Savage, a professional wrestler who became a fan favorite thanks to his outlandish outfits and trademark catchphrase, died Friday in a car wreck, as first reported by TMZ. The 58-year-old Savage -- whose legal name was Randy Mario Poffo -- reportedly suffered a heart attack while driving his 2009 Jeep Wrangler in Tampa, Fla., and careened across lanes of oncoming traffic before colliding head-on with a tree. He died later at a local hospital. Savage's wife Lynn, who was riding in the passenger seat, escaped with only minor injuries. Both passengers were wearing seatbelts and the police do not believe alcohol was a factor. The World Wrestling Federation favorite from Ohio burst onto the scene in 1985 and quickly drew attention with his flamboyant outfits and "ooh yeah!" catchphrase. His marriage to Elizabeth Hulette, Ms. Elizabeth to fans, was one of the first high-
Random Thoughts
You know I am pretty easy to figure out. I don't have naked pics and don't hold your breath waiting for them. I have enough respect for myself to not put that out there. For those women- and I use this term loosely- who feel the need to display that side of themselves all over fubar and the internet then I say this..if you have to put that out there to get attention then you need serious help. If you cannot hold someones attention with your clothes on then in my opinion you don't have much to offer anyone. I have been labeled insecure and I find this amusing considering I am not the one throwing it all out there for everyone to see. You see me and me fully clothed. If that isn't enough well then move right along because I am sure there are more than enough of those types of women to fill your needs. I do not want to be treated like trash so I don't carry myself in that manner. As to the ones who try to insert themselves into my relationships with either friends or my boyfriend- well to
Random Thoughts
j The book I am currently writing.... Chapter 1 Stranges in passing... He stared into the empty blackness of the sea thinking that something in his life had to change for the better. He just wasnt content within himsef. As the waves rocked the ship gently about, he began thinking of his mother and how she had talked him into taking this cruise.Itll be, She had said. Maybe youll meet someone special. Youre a nice boy and you need someone to make you smile, instead of being a work-a-holic all the time. She had said with a wink. As he stood alone on the bow looking at the darkness waiting for a sign that life would be better, the sounds of laughter and music played out behind him. The sea reminded him of his life as a reflection of dull stationary existance. He couldnt help feel the tear roll down his cheek as he gazed at the older couple off to his right.Look at them. He thought to himself. As he tried to hold back his sorrows, he took a final pull from his ciggarette and retreived his
Random Shit
just another random thought,sitting in the silenceof my disturbed thoughts,i refused to think about it;i closed my eyes,tried to shut it tight,carried everywhere by the wind,it seemed so real and so true;gazing deeply into the pool of water,i see my face staring back inamazement and in wonderat the emotions that i am overcome with;drawing me closer and closer,stirred by the depth of passion,torn between the life that isand the life that will be, i struggle;trying to find a solution,i try to claw my way out,i try to fight the feelingsand all the emotions i have been overcome with;sitting in the dark,thinking of you,wishing you were here,realizing i am a prisoner of love
Random Stuff
Swimming in the dark, bound to drift apart, we're in love, we play with matches in the rain, But never learn, we're trying to light a fire that can't burn. You thought that love was just a casting call, well it's our turn to quit before the curtain falls. Don't need to pretend you love me, we just never meant to be, Am I wrong? Am I right? Have I lost my mind. I dance around her heart, like an actor plays his part. I hit the stage and get, blinded by the light,
Random Facts
Since1978, 37 people have died by Vending Machine's falling on them.  13 people are killed annually.  All this while trying to shake the merchandise out of them.  113 people have been injured. I'm looking for a husband and not just a Fubar one at that.  I'm looking for the real deal.  If you're the type of man who is seriously looking to settle down, then message me.  Life is too short and should not be lived alone.  So if you think you have what it takes to make this gal happy then send me a message.
Random Stuffs
They may see mebut not for who i amthey accept mefor the person i"ve showni may be funny energetic and strongon the outsidebut withinim shatterd like broken glasstorn to the edgeused to the boneim slowly pushed outthey dont think im usefuland it hurtsi cant change who i ambut maybe of what you think of mewe were gonna be friends foreverbut nothing lastspeople changednow in my lifesince i feel as though im not loveto everyone im faded She is my strength when I am weak and she is my star in the night sky,She is my sun on a cold and rainy day,She is the voice that soothes me when I cry, She is the blankets that keep me warm at night.She is my light when it's dark, She keeps my heart beating with every step I take,She is the angel that appears in my dreams,She is the beauty within me.She is the moon that brightens up my world,She is the air I breath,She guides me through the ups and downs,She is my ANGELShe is my DAUGHTER. A sky of darkest velvet Sweet kisses in the night
Random Shit
Spinning, wheeling, My head is reeling, Love and emotions, Feelings and motions, Love is strange, Works in funny ways, Shows you things, You never thought were real, Shows you emotions, You never thought could be real, Shows you what, Your heart most desires, Gives you a happiness like no other,   And I have found this, In you my lover, I never thought I could feel for you so, But you have opened my eyes, To a place I have never known, You have brought light to my dark, Peace to my war, You have brought me a peace, I have never felt before,   It drives me insane, That we cannot be so close, But im happy to know, That when we talk, When we see, Each other we bring out, Emotions unfelt, Emotions unknown, We take each other to place we never knew, We’ve never known, We take each other, To a thing we never knew.   To love is an urge, All people will know, But to succumb to that emotion, Is like finding the end of a rainbow, Ita joyous, Its wo
Random Reflections
It has been a life time, 14 years, but the scars still stay, both physical and otherwise. I was 19 and you had just turned 18, you were charismatic, and yet shy. Strong, yet so vulnerable, already your life had given you more then your share, and I just added to it. I still remember walking through the park, and you asked me if I wanted a relationship with you, or if we were just fooling around. I was scared, and still trying to come into my own and figuring myself out. I wanted so much to say that I did want a relationship, but I hesitated, and you drew your own conclusion and you backed off from me, I had blown it, but worse then that I had become just another in a long line of people who hurt you and let you down. Then I had to go and tailspin out of control with my life, and you got sucked into it. Maybe you wanted to hurt me like I had hurt you, but in that moment I snapped and did something really stupid, and you got blamed for what I had done. I ultimately did the right thing, a
Random Bloggishness
So, I recently set out to prove a point to myself, that fubar, and 90% of the so called friends I and everyone else ahve on it, only notice if you got bling, and notice I put 90% I have found a few wonderful friends on fubar that I wouldn't change for the world or trade for millions of dollars. but...   Amazing right after you purchase that god mode bling, and you look at the blue circle with the lightning bolt and wonder... wtf happened to the cross? Probably some religious freak bitched and moaned until it got changed... but anyway, I remeber saying to myself do I really, really want to spend this money on this? And that is the biggest thing to me, this is actual money that I could be shoving in my pocket and scratching my nuts with, but hey I bought it, I was cool with it, and I set out to have my fun. And i was right, the minute I turned it on, my bar tab lit up again like it used to all the other times, and I was liked, and I was rated, and I ahd beggers in my shout box, "I am
Random Thoughts
I dedicate this to my true love.    One day in a time that seamed like a distant memory I was sitting in class and there was this one girl that had totally mesmerized me. I fell in love with her on the spot but never whispered a word of it because I felt that she would never give me a second look. She was beautiful and well I was me, a not so good looking stoner who thought high school meant being high everyday.         One day I dreamt of being her man and when I looked in the mirror I didn't know who it was looking back and I knew at that point if I was ever going to have that young lady I was going to have to change my life, so I set out on a hard task of cleaning my life up I quit doing the drugs cold turkey and have been clean since.         Well time had passed and I set out on a another task  and that was to find her but everyone still seen the stoner I once had been and wouldn't tell me even if they had seen her or where I might go to find her. So I settled with being clean
Random Qoutes
Sex is evil, evil's a sinsins are forgiven, so let's begin. Kids in back seats cause accidents, accidents in back seats cause kids. If youve been naughty go to your room if you wanna be go to mine. you have been very naughty now go to my room!
Hey, im new here. i want to know what you think of me. i just want to get to know as many as people as i can and to become friends with most of you, well if thats possible!
Random Blabber!?
Seriously, I mis drumming as often as I did years ago... Living in an apartment has me not owning a kit anymore, and always going to Guitar Center and playing there whenever I get a day off work! (Which is once a week!!!) Grrr, stresses me out 'cos music keeps me calm. Electronic kit, I've thought about it, but they're not the same as an acoustic... You cannot get the same sound, feel, and thunder from an elctronic kit though... I LOOOVE feeling it run through my body, though my blood. If any of you are musicians and live for music, you know what I mean! Arrrrrrggg, I'm done ranting! Hahaha.. I just need drums to make me happy happy happy as hell!
Random Stuff Thrown Together To Make An Excuse For A Blog
To my knowledge, this is what Fubar is all about: - Visiting lounges: Listening to music, chatting to people and perhaps subscribing to them. - Rating people's profiles and pics from 1-11. - Creating blogs - Buying each other virtual gifts and "blings" or whatever. - Making "Mumms" or whatever they're called. - Chery bombing peoples pics, profiles and albums (whatever that means) - "owning" people. - Pimping people - Decorating your profile. - Buzzkilling poeple or the opposite, getting poeple's buzz meter up. - blocking poeple who don't think you're worth 10. - Shoutboxing people. - Messaging people. - having crushes on people or secretly admiring them (they get to guess who it was) - earning "fu bucks" - getting "fu married" - in a nutshell, is that what this site is majoritively about? Because so far I'm bored to death of it. Rant over, bye. Bored... So yeah, whatever, bye. :D Symptoms                                                                                   Ignored when sp
You know that you have made true friends when you meet people on fubar and they are willing to be there for you no matter what is going on.  You can always count on them to talk to when you need help.  If you are having issues no matter how big or how small the issues are you have someone to talk to.  They always have advice when you are in need of it.  They are also willing to open their home to you when you are going to be spending the holiday alone.   I am glad that i have made such good friends on fubar.  It is nice to have someone to talk to and to get advice from when i am in need of it.  Even when i dont say that there is something wrong they know that there is due to the way that i talk.  They know how to cheer me up when i am in need of that.     These friends know who They are and i am greatful that i have met them.  I dont know where i would be without them.   Thank You both sooo much for everything. ok... WTF   one min you are owning me and ppl are buying me from yo
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Sometimes I wish you could open up and love me, the way I need to be.. maybe one day                 Sometimes I wonder if you could ever love me, and feel the way about me that I do you What would it take? What would I have to do? I know when we met, things went rather fast, things progressed quickly and I let myself fall Then things happened, beyond our control, and you had to go I ache to be in your arms, to hear your thoughts, to feel your lips pressed against mine just one more time ... but maybe one day I wish it  could be us, I wish we could find a way to be together and makes things work. But there is a time and place and neither of us have reached that yet, maybe just maybe we can be together again Maybe just maybe you will find the love for me that you are needing, and maybe just maybe.... We can do all the things we dreamed about, talked about, and planned when we were together...... Maybe just maybe.....
" He has what we need (his face is here, his face is there, we wanna see him). He has everything (we say his name, we give him fame, we wanna be him). He's constellations and satellites. He's UFO's on angel wings, invisible in his universe of sky-he's so high. He shoots the stars and blinks the lights. His paper skin covers up his paper scars. Black of eyes, black of vanity. He's overdressed just to win us over (the hair shines, the face is pretty). He's by design and his mind has been placed by a string. He is the model nihilist. He's got the face of a million superstars. Obsessed? It's what he wanted. Impressed? It's all the sugar. I'm am candy coated, so come and see all the fashion and frolic."
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Tell me what is on your mind, Is it good or bad?Do you lay awake at night?  Or ever wonder if I am happy or sad?Is there one thing in your life,  That you never want to be without?Please take the time to tell me,  What is your life all about?I want to know all about you,  From the beginning to the end.I want to know just where in your life,  Do you see that I fit in.Do you have days that are bad?  When you wish you could share?But you feel you have no one,  I am here and I really care.I don’t know what the future holds.  I am not sure what tomorrow will bring.I just know that at this moment in time,  You happen to be my life and my everything. My grandmother will be 96 on 9/11 of this year, but she will not be here to celebrate this birthday. For the past 32 years I have been able to pick up the phone and call.  Get any kind of advice that i needed.  Soon that will be gone.  My emotions are raw, my eyes hurt from crying and I struggle with understanding so much in life. See, m
I cant share this with facebook... and I dont use myspace so FuBar.... I turn to you! LoL.  Okay, So I am losing my mind and I dont know where to turn. My doctor told me that I may have an underlying bipolar disorder... Now Idk why but this depresses me beyond belief. On top of that I cant find a psych counsellor so I can treat this and also I cant seem to get enough time off to actually take care of these issues.  Lord help me... please.  Do you care that everytime you come into my mind I have such an enourmous need to see you once again? That it breaks my heart when you tell me that you care. I am so full of love for you that I want to cry when I see your name, when I remember your laugh, when I think of the time spent with eachother. I despise you sometimes. You always give me false hope of one day, someday, but in my heart I know it will never be. I guess Im just to afraid to let go. I wish I could. I want to... I need to. I deserve so much better than a man that can continually
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I am currently standing in a chair at my friends house because a spider is MIA... I went to grab my bag and a spider big enought to carry me off crawled out of it...Since I had no shoes on and nothing in reach to kill it, I went to bathroom to grab the ,believe it or not, spider killer. Well dont waist your fucking money cause I sprayed the spider and it looked at me like "bitch please" and continued to keep on crawling. So I went and grabbed a shoe to smash the big SOB and he is nowhere to be found. I will not get down till the hugh fucking thing is found and dead.... I might be here awhile...  
.This is not for anyother reason but to help a friend, not a pissing contest for linux users. I just figured i would post it incase anyone wanted to try it. Having said that, try at your own risk and ask if you need help ill try to get back to you as soon as i can. Also these are written without the care of an english professor, dont bitch just try it.   go here and download the 32bit versions ( 64 is fine, but may require you to tweak too much for what you want, try saving it for when you get good) of the one you want:   Versions: KDE is as close to windows as you can get without selling your soul.   Gnome3 is the product of idiots   xfce is too close to gnome but slightly bit better then cutting your wrists   Lxde is what i use, but may be too striped down and require more effort into setting up   My advice is to go with KDE 32 bit   If you have an ISO burner that's fine use it, if not the best and easiest to use
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We're tiny, we're toonyWe're all a little loonyAnd in this cartoonyWe're invading your TVComic dispensersWe crack up all the censorsOn Tiny Toon AdventuresGet a dose of comedySo here's Acme AcresIt's a whole wide world apartOur home sweet home, it stands aloneA cartoon work of artOur scripts were rejectedExpect the unexpectedCause Tiny Toon Adventuresis about to startThey're furry, they're funnyThey're Babs and Buster BunnyMontana Max has moneyElmyra is insaneThere's Hamton and PluckyDizzy Devil's duckyFurrball's unluckyand Go-Go is insaneAt Acme LooniversityWe earn our toon degreeThe teaching staff'sBeen getting laughs since 1933We're tiny, we're toonyWe're all a little loonyIt's Tiny Toon AdventuresCome and join the fun.And now our song is done! 
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APPLCATION FOR A PIECE OF ASSName:______________________City:______________________State:_____________________Age:__________ Phone:______________Hair Color:__________Real Hair Color:____________Eye Color:___________Dentures: __________Weight: _________Height:___________Waist Size: __________Breast or Bra Size: __________Marital Status:Married___________Single______________Divorced:_________ Other__________Are Your Breasts Real? ____________Do You Like Them:Sucked_________ Chewed__________ Kissed____________Caressed__________ Squeezed________ Licked_________Other_____All of the Above____________Can You Stay Out Late? _____________ How Late?_____________All Night? _________ Several Days? ___________Do You Like To Have Sex And Be Screwed All Night? ____________How Often? __________Do You Like Oral Sex? _____________Pussy Size:Small ________ Medium __________Large ____________ Extra Large __________While Screwing Do You:Faint______ Fart______ Cry______ Moan______Hum______ Whistle______ Scr
Slipped , slowly into a coma, A restfull state , Where I can not be found, I never accepted your help ,Just the way I a I am ,thi sickness is eating me ,inside & out,I lo ve my family & friends truly ,I just can't take any more! Dearest Angel, How I wish you could be here, Let your wings rest, Hold your hand, Have arms wrapped around you, Where we could meet on earth, Let our love spread, A big impact made, In hearts & mind's Where everybody could be at peace, Feel the warmth & share our love, No more storms,No more bitterness, Between friends & family, Brother or Sister's, A such common divide, I'll watch you alway's,
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Just sitting here being bored, as usual.  Not much to say really too many thoughts going thru my head.  Most of it is about the baby.  Thirteen weeks prego today still a long ways to go. so much stuff going thru my head I can't think of it all. To my husband of 6 years now baby I love you more now than I ever thought I could. To a friend things didn't work out quite the way I hoped they would but as long as you are my friend it will be ok. I have memories I will cherish forever.
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Am I the only one who feels bad for Charlie Brown? I realized that just a few days ago, when my son and I were watching "It's the Great Pumpkin , Charlie Brown". What seems to be the reason no one likes to hang around with him?  He seems like an ok guy.  Why does he catch so much crap all he time?  So what that he's 8 years old and completely bald except for the little tuft of hair in the front.  What is that anyway?  Sometimes it looks all right, other times it's like a curly q thing.  If that is the reason no one likes him, that what makes them hang out with Linus?  Have you seen his hairline?  He looks like a 37 year old married man going through a mid life crisis.  Maybe he should trade in that blanket for a sweet ass shiny Harley and a 22 year old model wannabe that is dumb as a brick... Where was I?  Oh yes.  Charlie Brown.  My man can't catch a break.  These Peanuts gang kids, come to his house, then go hang out with his dog, WITHOUT HIM!  There was one part on this
Being an Evil Overlord seems to be a good career choice. It pays well, there are all sorts of perks and you can set your own hours. However every Evil Overlord I've read about in books or seen in movies invariably gets overthrown and destroyed in the end. I've noticed that no matter whether they are barbarian lords, deranged wizards, mad scientists, or alien invaders, they always seem to make the same basic mistakes every single time. With that in mind, allow me to present... The Top 100 Things I'd Do If I Ever Became An Evil Overlord ... 1. My Legions of Terror will have helmets with clear Plexiglas visors, not face concealing ones. 2. My ventilation ducts will be too small to crawl through. 3. My noble half-brother whose throne I usurped will be killed, not kept anonymously imprisoned in a forgotten cell in my dungeon. 4. Shooting is not too good for my enemies. 5. The artifact which is the source of my power will not be kept on the Mountain of Despair beyond the River of
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I have no idea what the purpose is for this....just venting I thing I can't seem to understand...people hold back WAY to much...and for wat? prevent hurting someone usually just ends up hurting them more in the long run.....don't hold back...say it..spit it the fuck out..and not only will you feel better..but the person you are holding back from..will also be one wants to hear that their other half per-say has moved on...but no one wants wants to hold onto something or someone that has let go is full of many and down..heartaches and regret...but it is fucking hurts..but everyone deserves to know where they one likes to believe that thy have been replaced..but there is always someone with a lil something more....that's just a fact..I mean it's hard for me to conceive the fact that there is another individual out there as interesting as I am..but I've been wrong ok that's a
It was a beautiful day sun was out, not too hot nor too cold and i was just enjoying the day with my friend Jenn. The kids were in the house which was by the lake. All of a sudden my phone tells me i got a text and its from my ex wondering if ii could postpone our court date because he cant make it. I told him I would try, not really meaning a word of it and fuming inside that he would even ask me that. I told Jenn that i needed a pack of cigarettes so i left to go get them on my way back home i get a phone call from my exes grandparents telling me that they love me and to be careful after hanging up im wondering what that phone call was all aboutwhen i hear a loud buzzing inside my ear. I look up and notice that the wind had picked up and the skys were a dark menacing color and thats when i see the tornado i run from it barely dodging it and everything else getting picked up with it. I run towards my house only i got lost and cant find my way back. The only thing on my mind is to get
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Well, Doctor Who is 48 today. Which sounds funny when you think about it. He's 908 years old, but still looking good. Haha! Anyway, I finished reading Bag of Bones last night. No wonder the movie is a two-parter. There's no way in hell they can cram all that into a two hour movie. I'm a fan of Pierce Brosnan. He will always be my James Bond. No offense to Daniel. He's an ok actor. I'm a fan of his wife though. lol She's the reason why I saw the movie of Dream House. I'm back to reading The Book of Lost Things. It's a dark fantasy novel, but quite entertaining. Think of Brothers Grimm, but more violent and scary-ish. Speaking of which, I'm sadden to hear about the passing of Anne McCaffrey. She was one of the great writers of scifi and fantasy. She wrote the Dragonriders of Pern series. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving for us Americans. Yesterday made cranberry salad and carrot cake. Today I baked the pumpkin pie. I substituted sugar with Splenda so my dad can eat it. I have to get u
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Hey Being RanDOM is soooo Fun im The Ceo Of RanDOM Efxts Productions Becuz im soo random. Being RanDOm is good becuz u r random and u just be yaself
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Love is the unconditional, unwavering, unfaltering, undisclosed and unmistakable act of emotion that transcends understanding. It is only limited by the one who gives it, even when it is unwanted. It is most effective when it is unwarranted. Loves limitless power can overcome the greatest of mountains in life and can scale the highest of peaks. To give love is to give the greatest of gifts one could ever receive. Love freely and often, as it is God's reflection shining through you. I thought of an analogy last night as I was trying to fall asleep about relationships and feel led to share this morning...Imagine two hands facing one another. When two people meet and begin a relationship is when the two hands are placed against each other. As the relationship grows the fingers of the two hands begin to move toward the other hand and fold downward. As the love begins to mature the fingers begin to take hold of the other hand so that the other hand is secure and cannot easily slip away. If
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I'd like to understand why Fu helps members hide their general location.  Naming the country where you live seems so silly, especially when its a large country.  What would be the harm of showing the zip code the member used to sign up?  Why do I want to know the location?  Good question - it would be easy to argue that its none of my business... [yes, I'm opening this blog for achievement points] I get a good chuckle from members who post something similar to this on their profile: *********************************************WARNING*************************************** Any institution using this site or any of its associated sites for study or projects - You do not have my permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current or future. If you have or do, it will be considered a serious violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications. It is recommended that other members post a similar notice as well. ***************************
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My Dream, 6/29/2006It started off like all my dreams do ...I sat under my big huge weeping willow tree that was upon a very high cliff over looking the vast ocean below ...The sound of the waves crashing upon the rocks below and the sounds of the waters invading the cavern within the cove below are like music to my ears, I sit under my tree with my golden book and pen ...upon the front of my journal set's a sacred auryn protecting my journal and all it holds inside. I got lost within the thoughts of my mind and the sounds of the crashing waves below entranced me and took me with them as they flowed back out to sea. The pen sat motionless within my hand as my mind was lost within the endless crashing and soothing sounds of the seagulls over head and below upon the beach, as I sat beneath my tree...Being soothed by the sea and all it's depths and secrets it holds ...I slowly slipped into a trance of sorts and slowly drifted into what I only now can say was a vision. As I sat sleeping und
No one seems to know the true meaning of love though I see it every day in her eyes....   Her words spoken of him bring tears to my eyes knowing that her love is more than true. He of course finds her repulsive and doesn't see that what she would do for him has no limits. She dies more and more inside when he rejects her. Hospitalized from stress, broken by life she lies a once full woman seeking the one she thought she knew loved her. Yet once again unsuccessful... I plead with her to just move on but that is asking the sun to not shine or the wind not to blow. maybe some day he will understand, but that day will be to late and someone will have taken her away
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your hair flows like a summer's breeze your beauty brings men to their knees your voice captures my heart with ease eyes glisten like the moon over the seas and tho i know im not easy to please still you stand right there beside me   trials and tribulations seem like a daily thing some days it seems like we're always fighting but one day soon you're gonna wear that ring because our love is truely everlasting       my words are heard, but seldom heeded i put the pen to the paper, but will you read it and what difference will it make how long will it take for the random thoughts to leave your mind for you to know the facts and still be blind for you to see the truth right before your eyes and still act as if its a huge surprise i do my best, to educate yall not my fault when you do fall but still right there i will be helping hand to raise you from your knees back never turns on a true fuckin friend just know that i'll be there until the end!!! my mind wanders a

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