We "run" to find somthing wetheir its something simple like an item we left behind that we forgot about but nomatter how big or how expensive if it has centamental value to us we can not leave it behind. This finds its way in my heart with past relationships nomatter how bad it ended or how wrong the terms are even how long ago it was I have to worry about them thats both girlfriends and just friends. I tend to have a really kind heart and soul so most people walk all over it lke a rug that noone ever pays any attention to. Im starting to throw away the true me and replacing it with some world hating asshole. I have thoughts about doing this and of how simple it would be but I the end i would endup looseing everything and everyone that i care most about. The one person that i thought was accepting me for me turned out to be nothing more than false hope.I have many friends of both sexes the ones that i have made in the last year have proven to be both good and badon the whole aspect of my personalaty, most of the male sex wants me to change so does some of the female sex but they dont come right out and say it the act it and as for the rest (well most anyways) could give a shit less what i do or who i am. The few that do care are too involved in their own lives (i dont blame them) and problems to be able to say or do anything to help. There are a select few who (when they can) lend a hand or an ear to help me better myself. There is one who helps me above most but she is taken and most likly will stay that way for a very long time this goes for another as well.Well I will continue my journey the best i can and will hope that there is one person that will accept and allow me to be me!
YOUR FRIEND
David
p.s. any comments are welcome
