CANDYRAIN's blog: "Ronicas Poem"

I Have to say my life has had ups and downs throughout it... Now after being married for almost 9 years and but seperated almost 7years I have to finally call everything about it over...Me and my estranged hubby havent been together in a really long time... We do share a 10 yr old daughter together...I myself feel and have felt for sometimes I wish we didnt get married... I think we were pushed more into it than us wanting it ourselves anyhow... well weve both moved on in our ways he has another daughter with another woman and me I have a son with another man...Well him and his other daughters mother split last year and he is currently with a woman that I can say gives me great comfort that my daughter can be around her...Well my estranged Hubby right now is currently in jail for a time we don't know yet how long but his girlfriend took my daughter to see him yesterday and kept her overnight...I can say I really get along with his girlfriend and she is great to my daughter too...Well he sent his girlfriend a letter to give to me, and I read it and he asked me for a couple favors... But the one big one is for me to finally go file for a divorce because he has asked her to marry him...I think I havent done it sooner not because I loved him still or wanted him back but I was always hoping he would do it... I am not great with paper work and do to things he knows I can seek legal assistance and get it all done for free... I want to Ive really been wanting to get it done...Not even because Im thinking about marriage again because I just dont know if Id want to put my foot into that again...I mean it to me is just a piece of paper giving you a different last name...Me and my ex didnt work out and it wasnt because I didnt try cause I tried hard...But some people are just not meant for each other...Me and him get along as friends and I think thats what we were always meant to be...Our daughter was a blessing but just cause she was born I dont think we should of gotten married...I love him as a friend and as the father of my child but I know thats the best for us...I can say once I can go file and get our divorce done and over with I do bless him and his girlfriend and just pray they have a happy life together and I know she will love my daughter as if she were her own...His ex B4 her though I couldnt stand and neither can his girlfriend now...I will truly be happy to get this over with I just pray God will help me through this all so we can get it done and over with as fast as possible...Bless me father and be near me giving me strength and love,and let everything go smooth and easy...

LOVE THE WORD Love is a word that can be special in a way: There are many people that say I LOVE YOU just for something to say: Love for me can be hard to express: But now that you are gone I'm all depressed: Love for me is not a game: I can only hope and pray you feel the same: I do not want you to leave me: Because my heart is torn apart: You are the only guy that could ever make me feel this way: I say I LOVE YOU not just to say: I mean it because that's truely how I feel: This love for me is not fake its real: True love is hard to find: But being with you I know I found mine: A kiss from you shows me you care: I want you to know even though you are gone that I am still here: This is another poem that i wrote awhile back let me know what you think of this one too...

Life To Me!!! Life to me use to be a great big game: Now life for me could never be the same: Life is something I think about day and night: In Life I wonder if God has me in his sight: Life sometimes has its ups and downs: Life makes you smile and makes you frown: I hope my life I'll be able to change: My life I hope I can rearrange: I've done alot of things in life that weren't so good: But if i could change my life I would: I pray silently in the dark to myself: Hoping God is listening and can show me some help: Life is something I want to live for: Sometimes I pray God will show me early heavens door: I know God is listening and I know he cares: But in life things seem nothings fair: I think about everything and all my regrets: I pray of my future and the past I want to forget: The things I've done were sometimes wrong: Now I realize this life I want has to be strong: The promises I make to myself are promises i have to keep: Thinking of everything I've done makes me sometimes weep: To want someone to respect me I have to respect myself first: A long meaningful relationship is what I thirst: Someone to talk to and to hold me tight: Someone to hear me cry and say everything will be all right: My feelings run towards the back of my mind: Someone to love me for me I hope soon to find: Before I was blinded by the light: Now I see again for I have regained my sight: A life with no pleasure only consist of pain: The pleasures of life I hope soon to regain: Pain is something that is deep in the soul: Pleasure is what I want not this pain: The pain I have makes me think I'm going insane: Love is the key to a powerful relationship of today: And I hope soon this key will sometime arrive my way: Live while you can and have fun now: Living life people have different ways on how: Life is too short to have hate: So while your living have a life and find your soul mate: Time will tell what God has in store: He may take you early or let you live more: God can take you when he wants you to walk his land: But for now I stand on earth,and earth i shall stand: This Is A poem I wrote years ago when I was about 17 please let me know what you think of it...