ok people lets ask the age old question, do u ever wish you had an awesome love like romeo and juliet but without the death in the end? even those hard core people would probably say if they had the chance to love like that they would. i wish i could love and be loved like that. i thought there for awhile i was, but the sad thing about romeo and juliet was they had the same problem then as couples face now a days; lack of communication. did you ever stop to think instead of the love they shared so deeply for each other that they would die by their own hands to walk together in the afterlife, that if there was a little communication there we would be dreaming of rugged men and fair maidens that Shakespeare wrote about? that is why most couples who get married end up in a heap of trouble, lack of communication. so why couldnt my ex come to me sooner and say, honey you know this has been on my mind for a couple days and i would really like to talk to you about it, instead he let it fester for months, unfortunately i was doing the same thing. instead of going to him and saying; listen babe i think we need to discuss a few things, i did what almost every other person in my shoes do now a days and because it wasnt mentioned in public i could sweep it under the rug and forget about it. i made the mistake of thinking hey he hasnt said anything about it lately maybe he's changed his mind. but like all great couples that come to an end my marriage did too. not because i was doing something wrong so bad he couldnt stand it anymore, or because he wouldnt give me money for groceries for the kids, it all started from a little seed of "I wish", i wish i had more money so i didnt need to beg for my kids eating dinner, i wish he made love to me more so i dont feel as such a fat cow, i wish she didnt nag me all the time about the toiletseat, the car seat, the toothpaste, the dishes etc. all these things that happen in the end is whats made of them iin the beginning. i can remember standing at the alter thinking i was marrying my prince charming, so what if i havent played the firld, so what i had only slept with 3 guys my whole life until this point. i looked in his eyes and listened to what he was telling me, his vows, never to leave me, never to go to bed angry, and never to let small problems become big messes. i remember saying i would never fight with him over money, i would never lay my head down when i was angry, and to help him through the difficult obstacles in life we all face by his side. so is romeo and juliet a true story, i would say yea, just cause if it were a fairy tale neither would have died, but endured a great life, with great love, and heal their families by making amends with those they had wronged. you know i heard that a step in AA, well as many people as i have known thats went through AA the only person i can ever remember wanting me to "work" that step with them was my mother in law and she didnt have hardly any bad stuff to tell me. i thought to myself i must be the most perfect daughter in law they have ever had. So why cant those who know they have wronged someone else go to them and admit fault, work out that step with them and see if the 2 can grow together, maybe not as husband and wife, but as friends, or as parents, but as human beings. being bullied my entire life has taught me a rough lesson; no matter who calls you names or what hurtful things they say to you about you or to someone else, there is a person that has done that to them to. i can forgive, im not real good at forgetting these wrongs but i have enough of a heart to forgive. and forgive i should as well as we all should. so thats my lil sermon for the day. oh and i believe there is such a thing as true love. i have believed in it all my life, its there i just need to take that leap of faith im afraid of making and grab true love by the hand, smile, blush,bat mu eyelashes at and say thank you for coming into my life and making me know for sure there is such a thing as a dream come true.
