First of all, I love you. I never meant to be so hard and I don't think I honesty never told you I loved you. Now its too late. I feel lost in this world without you. It was suppose to be you and I to the end. I will never truly understand why you had to die that night or even comprehend the pain you were in. When did this become my life? I cant stand it without you, I know that I must go on but its feel almost unbearable. i just wanna turn to your arms but then realize that will never happen again, not in this life at least. I have become filled with hatred not understanding why you have to be gone, wishing I could have done something to help you. I honestly feel like part of me will never be same it cant be until I have you back, that reality came crashing down on me that horrible night. A day, that will haunt me for the rest of life, I try to get the images of your lifeless body out of my head. Why did you leave us like this? That was the only night I didn't check on you. guess it was fate. Whatever it is it has tore me into two. It has now been almost 2 years and still feel lost. I know that I must be strong for my children, but truthfully I just fake it. Tears don't mean anything anymore, they roll down my cheeks with aching pain filling my body.
