It has been 6 months since my bestfriend has been passed away and I am still crying over her death. It is burning me on the inside. Of all people she had to be the one to go.
The more and more I think about the things that we've done together while considering that we're like siblings. I get closer and closer I get to a conclusion. I wonder where she was buried so I may go and see her and no one will tell me.
This whole thing saddens me because she was considered family to me, of all the battles that her and I had and of allthe things that we have been through together, I have never gotten to say goodbye to her neither did I ever get to say sorry for all the bad things that I have done to her.
If there has been anyone on this earth that I trusted more to talk to other than my mom, it was her.
I just can't believe that she had to go with a 2 year old daughter and a boyfriend that loved her aswell, along with her parents and her siblings the must have been devastated that she had passed away. Leanne was only a 23 year old woman above all things. She loved to go out and have her fun but she never lost thought of her daughter.
Leanne was never a selfish girl she always put everyone before herself. Although I do have to admit she was a little pushy but she was pushy in a good way. She as also straight up which everyone loved that aspect of her like I mean she would say anything and not be afraid of the outcome even though she had epilepsy on top of everything.
She was my bestfriend of 13 years and honestly it was the best 13 years of my life just being friends with her. If I could turn back I would have been by her side and supported her all through out the time that she was passing. I wish she was living and that she could see what is going on right now with everything.
If she can read what I am writing or hear what I am saying I would be telling her how much I really miss her. She has been family to me since day 1 and she will always be in my heart.
darkprincess
