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scottsomers's blog: "respect"

created on 01/05/2011  |  http://fubar.com/respect/b338650

truth and control

truth and control

ok alrighty the truth...hum this is a subject most will not want to read for the truth is based on fact fact of life. there not fiction or a fairy tale. so here goes my version of the truth where do i start hum from the begining no thats to far back.. hell iam 47 so if i start there u be asleep before i reach my teens. well that might be a good place to start seam tenns read blogs and for real the truth i already see is most people wont read this. but here goes in my teens i thought i was a typical teenager loved three things thats what my parnets told me first was girls...well that was true there love them and want to have them all iused to wish i was the playboy king himself and the fact of the matter isi wasnt bad looking back then so i uselly got my way.well i hear the old story back then this is the way it was when i grew up well here my version. yes i walkedto school everyday or rode my bike and when old enought i rode a motorcycle to school and yes at the time i lived in the north and yes i diddrive that motorcycle to and from school in the winter with snow on the ground. like i said this is a fact... i left home as a child and drew wellfare to finish school which i did do while i was living on my own yes on my 18th birthday my father and i u  could say had a disagreement which couldnt be fixed so i manned up at that point ad began my life as a man. i finished school to prov that i could do it with or with out anyone help. i did graduate with my class. but i still wasnt the man i thought i was during that time i got to date and man did i date some of the best looking girls or at least i thought i did. this is when truth hit me and hit me hard.i found out back then when there was no intenet and no video chat or on line datting that even tho u met someone and date them they arent what they really are...its starts out honest enough u like someone u date them you take them places and alls u really want is the same thing love and respect. and of course back then sex was no diffrent then now except sex now aday is alot like i wanted it to be when i was growing up . free and easy and try new things. didnt happen back then or did it...it was there u just had to find it.and believe me i found it alright in all the wroung places...lol well anyhow so here i am datting like everyone else and yes i fall in love like everyone else now this is when the real truth starts u see when in love u either fall head over heels for her where she on ur mine all the time or u fall in lust there the first real fact in life.but u see this is the tricky part being young and trying to figure this one out...i found out what i thought was love was lust. see my first love wanted to date me for what i could do for her. hum sound familur dont it. whether ur female or male u can relate to this.  see if ur female he wanted sex and if ur male she wanted other things like clothes or jewarl ect. now aday we call them gold digger u know i am talking about at any age learn at an early age and this is whe u get ur first feeling of being hurt or used...lets face thats like the first time life slaps u in the face...but its the truth . now when i realize i am going no where in this little town and big city i am young i got big dreams to see the world . so how do i do that hey i know join the miltiary . okay yea some go to college and party and become doctors and lawary and judges thank god to them. but its not me or aleast not right now the truth was i hated school just went cause first off i had too that was the law and second remmber there was girls there and i enjoyed wrestling was the team captian ya another story maybe one day.any how back to the us navy....yea get to see the world...man here comes some more truth now the navy said this and that and i joined didnt get this and that but i learned first hand to be careful they lie too. so i see the world get married cause i think i am in love now to me love supose to be honest and faithful and untill the end. hum i think u might see a patern here more life comming. well u know i lived up to my end of this deal until now let beck up for a second i got married i was in the navy good job good money sexy as hell wife speaking of her lets just say the wedding voes u take went out the window every time i deployed..... and after ten years of comming home to someone who let just say had been to the ob doctors more times then i can count and for what dnc... u know at first ill admit i was dumb about woman stuff so i dint know what it was... but after awhile i caught on fast.by the ten year of this so marriage and being unhappy as heck i finally did like anyone of u would the same thingand then got divorced at this time i got out of the military oh cool now i am going to get my benifits...yea right another goverment lye oh btw if u must know yes i told her i was going to go sleep with someone else and did do it..never told her that lye so dont think i lyed yetbecause the point is to tell the truth even if it hurt someone feelings i guess i talked enought about this for now. so close this i just say one simple thing if u ask me ull hear the truth but now u know that life it self is full of lyes... see the truth can only come from urself is what i found out its the only thing u have control of is urself.. you have no control of others or there feeling only have control of ur self. not life not death noone else or anything else u can only control urself. and i think if i control myself then i can control my out come. i have been to wars i have been here for this country and everyone here but i only have control of me...if u took the time to read this i hope in some way u learned smething or u can relate to parts of this. just alittle wisdom and feel free to coment u wont hurt my feeling becase there mine to control not urs.... and i keep them undercontrol...scott

this on is called respect

 

remmber i just going to tell u the way i see it so if it offend u dont read it cause the truth can hurt.We are taught at an early years what repect is . right? hum when did we forget it or were never taught it. well u tell me.. when in the military my life and my friends life where alway in each others hand talk about learning trust. we deploye to some part of the world were it usely was peaceful but yes there was also danger out there and sometime we were the danger like a panther crawling threw the jungle looking for food. but we would be looking for targets our job was simple keep this country free at all cost and if it cost ur life then so be it. this is where i get my first taste of respect yes i loved my country and i would do what ever it took to make sure you were free. that was my job no one forced me to do it no pressured me to do it nothing i just did it like i said my parnet taught me respect of them and girls boy did they push that one... but i am glad they did cause they are truely one of gods best creation and lets face it with out this place wouldnt be here.so learning respect had to be repectful to my bosses cant step on there toes and kiss there butt latter or can i...hum good ? we will talk about that in aminute so while in the military being a soilder doing my duty for what money i made the benfits of seeing the world and a bunch of hell holes too cause beleive me when i say i understand why other country hate us there jeolous and we take it for granted everyday the things we have here. when i say freedom is not free i mean it i been there in 1983 i think it was i guy i went threw bootcamp and deployed with me was my best friend and i donthave alot of those but in this case he washe watched my backi watched his that was life and believe me we saved each other life many of times. execpt this day he was hot threw the head. the hardest day of my life i still see it to this day. and that wasnt really the hard part the hard part was bring him home to his parnets i felt like i lost my soal that day when i saw his mom and sister crying. but i did like every soilder or salior is told to do suck it and show respectwell needless to say we folded that flag and keep up the cassing from the gun salute and tucked the neatly in that flag and gave that elag to his mom. i canstill feel my cheast get tight when i think about thisand how hot and choked up i still feel. my first real life death experince and man i was only 20 years old wow the pain i felt i took a month leave after that day and did what anyone whould do got drunk until the pain went away or i passed out.use;;y passed out cause the pain never goes away.now if u read my earlier blog u know i started riding at 18 in the snow in the winter. so guess where iam going now to after the military yes i did my time and was the poster child for the navy until i deside i seen enought yea that was right after i puked up dessert storm. they called a sis fire and i was already pass my time to get out so the goverment threw me out into the public didnt tell me anything went from a life style of living on the edge to living like everybody else oh wow what an adjustment... see uncle sam didnt want to have to pay me civian wages while they out prossed meit was either reenlist or get out...well i found while i was in the military back then that people around military base hate us i remmber walking down virgina beach and seeing sign that said on people frount yards now salior and dogs stay off the grass what the hell now i am a dog...well if iam a dog then guess what when i got out hey shoe fits let me find others like where would u find people like him wasnt hard actually u see i rode a bike and i love to drink back then hum living on the edge of life again seam right dont u think.well i had gotton remarried and my wife who i loved dearly first woman i ever did too love to ride and rode as good as any man i was in what i call hog heaven... were rode hogs for those of u that dont know what hogs are there harleys. anyway the more we rode the better i was feeling she show me what true life was about she tore me down and brought me back to a simple life and retaught me about love and i thank her for that.so the third chapter in my life opens i am recurted in to a motorcycle club. not a 1 percent club but about as close as i wanted to come to one been to many of the 1 percent rally and party too hey this i now i place like the military and most of them are ex militaryman i am home again living on the edge but now i got someone to keep me in check. yeap thats the old lady but she wasnt old and she was a lady and she what my world revolved around so now here i am a biker ex military my brothers respect me my wife respect me and i in return do the same respecet breeds respect. well i patch in this club of brothers and one day a brother disrespect my wife. doesnt go well with me i get hot old school military flashes before my eyes and the values my parnets had already taught me alway respect a lady... weel needs less to say i put my brother in the hospital at the time . of course then church is held because of it. church for u that never been a biker is a meeting place in the club house. well the gentleman that disrepected my wife was made to prosect again which isnt good. he choose to leave the club after that color were taken ect.... shortly after that i realized that people didnt respect me still they just fear me al becasue i rode a bike and wore black leathers.... well i now which has been many years ago dont ride with a club anymore but i do ride and still wear the clothes when i do life a circle i wear a patch on my back thats the arican eagle and it says real simple love it or leave it my top rocker say ill never forget and the bottom say usa there no mc on my vest i am a lone wolf..i am an indepent and will remain that way i have the fullish respect for all my brothers in the brotherhood and would openly ride with them they know what respect is for one and another.you know there are so many of us out there that desvere this country repect we fight everyday for our benfits and this country put us threw red tape to get them...sad. well now to present life i have kids all grown up and my dad has passed he started the bll rolling in teaching me respect and i thank him for it now is the time for all of us to look with in ourself and find that so called respect u were taught and use it might make ur life happier i know mine is... yes i live alone but i own my own house abd bike and cars . i am just me and thats all i will every be...if u made it this far congrates...scott

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