I know I blogged about this a little while ago, but it's really bothering me tonight...
I just can't understand why I'm single. I get fu-hit on quite often. And by attractive guys, lol. But in real life I get nothing. I mean absolutely nothing. I went out with my best friend on Valentine's Day and I had to beat the guys off with a stick. Yes, she is super hot. But damn, can a sister get some play?!?!
I just wish I knew what I was doing wrong. I'm 21 years old and never had a serious relationship. I have friends my age married or engaged and some with kids. And I can't even get a damn boyfriend.
I know this sounds stupid, but it actually makes me kinda depressed. I'm such a touchy feely and lovely dovey kinda person and I have no one to give me the attention that I crave. I'm not saying that's all there is to what I want, just a big portion, lol. Not to mention I have no one to give the attention to that I love to give. I adore holding hands, cuddling, hugs that last forever, sweet pecks, tickling each other, etc. etc.
It's just frustrating. My mom keeps telling me to just focus on me and when it's time it will happen. I just want it to hurry up and happen, haha.
Oh, and last friday I definitely got stood up. I guess that's what you call it. He didn't call/text/or IM me all day to set exact details. And I wasn't going to chase him, so I didn't call him. Well at 7pm he finally TEXTS me to tell me he hasto cancel because he has to watch his niece/nephew/both/whatever it was. I was so pissed. By then my school's cafeteria had closed to I missed getting "free" dinner. I'm a poor college kid, I don't have money for food. I dunno...it just really pissed me off the way he handled it. He flippin' texted me to tell me. Whatever. I'm over it.
So I guess I need to quit feeling sorry for myself. Blah. :(
