For those that don't know, want to know, could careless, and don't give a fuck I've stopped smoking weed and stop drinkin alcohol. I'm taking a step back to look at myself and change the things I don't like. I'm not doing this for anyone but myself. Yall all have seen me spout shit out in here and other places and I'm sure you've heard me at one point or another that I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Now it is time for me to concentrate on me. I ain't never said I was an angel or a saint or even innocent cause anyone that knows me know what I'm capable of. I don't expect anyone that I have wronged, disrespected, taken advantage of, hurt or anything like that to forgive or forget the shit I've done. I gotta live knowing what I've done and forgetting or forgiving me won't make it go away. I have kept people at a distance just because I didn't know myself well enough to open up and let anyone close. I have bad characteristics such as obsession, compulsive, sneaky and manipulative jus to name a few. I ain't got shit to show for the havoc I have caused in my life and in others. It may seem like I'm being harsh but this is me. Love it or hate it. I've never been in a relationship that was healthy whether it be friendship or more than friends. I'm taking my mask off...I need to see me for who I am. I don't care what anyone says we all have worn a mask at one point or another in our lives. I'm so fucking tired of wearing that damn mask. I hate how I've fucked up my life, but you live and learn. The only other things I have to say is tell me what you want me to know. And if you hate me for any reason then say so, cause I hate me too!!!
