Well, a lot of things have been put into motion recently. Some good, some bad, others ambiguous. Depends on who's viewing the things and in what context.
So here goes: I am divorced finally. In ways it is a great thing, in some it is sad. I figure for me, it is a new beginning in my life. I am hoping that it doesn't cause resentment from my children or my family later on down the line. I also feel that if people know me well enough, they know this was something that I had to do. I feel it was best for myself and for Chad. I know it is presumptuous to be saying I know what is best for someone else, but I feel that we are both happier people without each other. The only sadness coming from this is the separation of my children from their father. They love him dearly and I hope they always will. I feel sad that they miss him, but I hope eventually they will be happy that we are not together and happier apart than if we were together and wound up hating each other.
For the Relocation...I'm moving to Arkansas, or I should say WE are. My children and my fiance, JT, are moving up north to live in nice home with my soon-to-be in-laws. I hope that things work out wonderfully up there. The distance is going to be tough, as I'm sure I will miss my mom and dad and my sis. I love my family very much, but I'm sure they understand my need to start out anew somewhere else. I have to live my own life and make choices that I think are best for my family. In this case, I think moving and starting over somewhere else is the better thing. I can't afford to live here any longer...I'm spreading myself thin with school for me and for the kids and with a possible daycare for Gavan. It's a lot of gas, child care money, and time to put into living here. I would like for some of those things to be simplified in my life. Living 5 minutes from the kids' school and 10 from mine give me that simplicity. Also, as I said, it is a new start. Which brings me to the third change in my life...marriage. I am engaged as most of you readers know, and I will finally be taking the next step with JT...getting married. I feel this move is going to help us as newlyweds, beginning a life away from what we're used to and from people that might try to tell us what to do. I'm just finally feeling satisfied with myself. I finally feel like someone loves me completely and for me. I feel like I'm cared for and safe. I love those feelings and hope to feel them with JT forever. He is one of the most generous and loving people I know. I hope you all wish me luck and happiness... Thanks to those that do.
As for the kiddos, they are excited about moving and the marriage. I've told them what it all involves and they are thrilled that we are going to live in a nice big home with enough room for each of them to have their own space to play. Also they approve of the idea of JT being their Stepdad...I hate that term, and hopefully eventually they will not think of him as a step anything. They will just consider him family. They have already adopted JT's parents and sister as Grandparents and Aunt. So I think it won't be that hard of a change. I hope not anyways. Well that is the best update I can give for now. I hope that everyone is doing well!
Always,
Nina (TURNER)
