How do I feel about relationships?
When I first joined Fubar:
"Been there, done that" pretty much sums it up.
I was born a diehard romantic (aren't we all?), but I think I may have outgrown my romantic nature because my primal nature was screaming a little louder. I couldn't find the perfect balance for the two sides in either my marriage or my previous long-term relationships.
I'm not jaded, I'm just realistic. I do enjoy sex, and I do enjoy kinky fun. And just because I might talk about it in a general sense with you, doesn't mean I would allow you to do something with me. Trust is a vital element and it isn't given lightly.
I am very selective and responsible. My life is my own, and I make my own choices.
You never know what lies ahead unless you venture forward.
UPDATE 10/13/07
Really not doing all that well in this context. It seems my 3.5 year D/s Power Exchange is over. Yeah I know...why not just call it a relationship? Well it was that but it was more than that and must be understood. When you agree to give up power to another, you gain something extraordinary in return, when the dynamics are right. Anyway, the hurt is still the same as when my marriage ended. Just feeling like no matter how much I love someone, the love I have to give will not be enough.
So all I can do is love myself.
UPDATE 05/22/08
So yes, loving myself. Definitely. In fact, loving myself so much I might lose my mind. LOL Would like to love someone else now. Not sure if it is possible. As I've said to friends, this Juliet thinks all the Romeos might be dead.
But you never know. He could be out there. I certainly have deep affections for someone. Time will tell. What is meant to be, will be.
I hope I do not have to go a year without intimacy.
