Reflections
By: Tabitha Lynn Cowan
I look in the mirror and what do I see,
Some strange woman I don't know looking back at me.
My life would seem almost perfect to some,
But I'm not sure I like what I've become.
I'm a woman and a mother,
I'm a wife and a lover.
But is that all that there is to me?
Is this all I was meant to be?
Is there something more I am supposed to do?
Is there a reason for all I've been through?
I have so much passion and love inside,
And yet some of my feelings I force myself to hide.
I want and I need,
I hurt and I bleed,
Someone please tell me what this is all about,
Because sometimes all I want is out.
I hate feeling selfish and self-centered,
For this is the life I chose to enter.
This path I'm on I elected to follow,
But sometimes I feel so empty and hollow.
Something is missing from the core of my heart,
And to find it I have no clue where to start.
I love my family and I love my life,
I am proud to be called someone's wife.
But I want more for my family and I.
I want so much it makes me want to cry.
Who can I turn to, what can I do,
To help me make it through?
Would anyone truly understand,
That I want more than just children and a wedding band?
All I have gotten is all that I have sought,
And for that I have argued and fought.
Hurt some people along the way,
Lost some friends I wish would have stayed.
A higher price could not have been paid.
I guess I should take pride in this life of mine
And believe that is all the plan of the Divine.
Take joy in what God has seen fit to give,
And be thankful for this life that I live.
