I have been going through alot relationship wise I have been serious with Kevin off and on for now over 6 in a half years I have loved him continously and have never giving up on him though he has left me quite a few times and right now our relationship is on the off stage yet again.I do love him and care for him and i usually dont give up on him but as of right now I think I may have to and try and move on with my life I have fought for this relationship so hard and dont seem to get the same effort from him.I want someone to love me and not give up when times are tough and he gives up and I dont get much reasoning behind it.I left things in Gods hands yet again and I feel I have to give up even for right now.I feel that if he wants to come back into my life it will be his turn to fight for me and I have to make him wait for me and not give in and let him in right away he will need to work for it really hard and get serious about it.All I want is for him to be a man and be there for his son and right now i havent even seen or heard from him to ask about him either.He told me he wanted to be by himself for now but it doesnt mean stay away from your son and not at least call and check up.But he will have to now fight for me and stop being his own worse enemy all i ever did was love him and support him through difficult times and I believe it wouldnt hurt for him to do the same.I am going to move on and survive with or with out him I love him but I dont need him. My son is the one that needs him to be there and to love him.I have to stay strong because i know if I am moving on some how some way he'll eventually come back and want to be with me I just gotta have him work for my love this time and no giving in so easily like I have done in the past.Its time for me to breathe and let things go the way they should be me playing hard to get and him running after me this time and if it doesnt end up that way I know there will be someone great to come in my life someday and they will love me for me know matter how stubborn i am and through thick and thin and all the good and bad times. Well Ill write again soon and keep everyone posted.
