BooBookittyFK's blog: "Update"

so basically i am 24 weeks pregnant, my boyfriend decided that he couldnt live in the house that i just financed on my own and had all new appliances to include, furnace, a/c, water heater, washer, dryer, dish washer, fridge, stove and microwave installed, have about 15k of money into repairs, as well as still sitting on about 45k in equity as the house sits right now and the day i closed on the home he asked me not to sign the paper work and to move into his mothers home with him and live in their basement until he figures out somewhere else to live...now to add confusion to the current circumstances he has been living with me for the better part of the last 5 months or so, working on the house with me and putting his money and sweat into the home but now that i am almost 7 months pg he decided he just cant live here, so i am looking for some insight. We have been together for a long time, obviously are expecting a child together and he informed me he isnt sure what he wants anymore, and that he needs some time to think, he doesnt want to date other people he will not go out on me or anything at least for right now, and just needs time to figure out if he can be with me and live in what was suppose to be our home now is it really fair that he gets to tuck his balls between his legs and run until he decides whether he can be a man or not and i am suppose to wait with open arms, but then there is this part of me that does love him dearly, more than life itself and wants him to be happy and if its not with me then i dont want to hold him back, i just dont understand the mood swing and his sudden urge to act like a child and always wanting to go out, he wants me to go to but i am having complications with the pregnancy and cant always, migraines, contractions, and i haven't been able to keep food down in a long time i am actually 3 lbs down from the weight i started before i was pregnant...i just am scared to be on my own, its really lonely and he was my best friend, my social life, my boyfriend, and the father of my soon to be son, i just am really lost and i know some people read these i am just looking for some advice or guidance or just something to help me calm down so i can get a good nights sleep its going on 4 days since i've been able to sleep through the night...i dont know maybe just venting will help....