It occured to me last night while all these thoughts were flying around inside my head that if I didnt get some of them out, Id go freakin nuts.
So some of you knew about my plan to move. Since I made the decision I have done everything in my power to figure out how to afford it.
So I start saving money. I had $150 saved, kept it in my wallet because dumbass me thought, well as long as I have it in my wallet, I wont lose it. Sure, works well in theory, until someone goes through my wallet at work and suddenly I dont have any money. :|
My sister in law was going to do the driving, because a UHaul is well over $1000, and the cheapest moving truck I found was $800+. I made it VERY CLEAR to her that I was counting on her. And she kept telling me, "Dont worry, we'll figure it out."
Ok which brings me to yesterday. Started out as an OK day. Was doin shit around my apartment, and decided to call my sister in law. Keeping in mind, SHE said she would figure it all out.
To make the story short, my ex step father was going to let her use his truck. (My ex step father violated me from ages 17-19. He never faced charges for it, because him and my mother told me that since I was over 14, the most it would be is statutory rape, and since she, as my legal guardian, refused to press charges, I had no way to make him own up to what he did. At that point in my life, I was pretty naive and believed it all.) So anyway, yesterday my sister in law says, "Your step dad says we can use the truck, but YOU have to ask for it." I mummed about this @ http://www.cherrytap.com/mum.php?id=56945.
So I got the courage to call my sister in law and ask to talk to my ex step father. I didnt even get the words out of my mouth when my sister in law, whom I was COUNTING ON, says, "Well, youre on your own. I need to fix my car so I can go see my family. Sorry."
Now, the reason I had pushed my sister in law yesterday to tell me DEFINATELY what was going on, is because my landlord, who is king number one major prick, has me over a barrel. I have two cats. He KNEW I had the cats here, and told me he didnt care. But, he never put in my LEASE that the cats were allowed. One of my cats went into heat, and one of the neighbors called him and he gave me an eviction notice yesterday, based on lease violation.
Ive done the figures in my head over and over and over again, and the most I can come up with (after clearing up the last few bills here, and stocking up on necessities to last until I start getting paychecks where Im moving to) is around $250, in the time allowable by the eviction notice. Which means two things:
#1. Im pretty sure I cant move. and
#2. I cant find another place to live here for that.
So yeah, its been a BAD weekend. :(
