Thank a soldier's blog: "life"

interesting i wake up everyday to this thing called life..and i have no idea where or when its going to change.. everyone says u can change ur life but im believing now that in most cases yes and in some u just cant.. I changed my job which will be starting on monday. im very excited about it but i have also found that in the middle of the good..the bad just keeps coming back. again i get this morning and something told me to call out of work..im on my last week and have a ton of days left to take..so i can at this point..i call my mom which many of u know and if u follow my blog..i have had major problems with this yr. anyway no answer..so i figure i better drive over there. Get there and she is just about in a coma well its seems.i take her blood sugar and its 23..I call 911 and start pumping OJ, yogurt anything i can find into her. needless to say..another day in the hopital all day and she is still there and they dont know what they are going to do at this point. She has mental illness also... which we have known for a while and she has started that all over again also.. i just dont know how much one family can take. i see its killing my dad and my brother and most of all me..(my dad and my brother both work at at the house and it took me coming from 10 miles away to figure out she was in trouble) anyway im just worn out..tired...beyond what to do anymore. i just keep saying anymore over and over..i have taken care of my kids and still do..take care of my mom and still do and i wonder if im going to die taking care of myself. I just want to run away from everything right now and get lost..never to see NJ or anyone here again! god this is not my normal blog..oh well im out! laters