Ok so um yeah...When u say I love u wut do u mean? I mean I love u...I love who u are and everything about u n I wanna be with u. To all the guys...Wut do u really mean when u tell sum1 that u love them but u don't wanna be with anyone right now. I've been told that its just a way to nicely reject sum1 so ur still on their good side and can still get wut u want out of them if u know wut I mean. I've done blogs about people making comments about things and jumpin to conclusions without reason so I won't be a hypocrit...I want to be the one to make this guy happy and I wanna be his world....I think I was once but things got all screwed up n it was prolly mostly my fault bein jealous n immature but to be clear I THOUGHT I had my reasons....but anyhoo this love that I have for this dude is like none I've ever had before and I must say its killin me. I feel everything can be fixed....but I'm pretty sure he doesn't. If we did decide to try it again it would be #4. I'd give anything to be his #1 again. I know its corny and sad but I really miss him callin me baby I don't know if it was the way he sed it or wut but damn I miss it. For me, its the kinda love that I get butterflies when I see him in person or online (yes its that bad lol) One touch or one kiss makes me feel on top of the world and eye contact with him can bring me to my knees...I can't help but smile every time cuz my whole body is tingling. YES I GOT IT BAD AND THERE DOESN'T SEEM TO BE A WAY TO SHAKE IT!!! I don't really wanna for that matter. When I'm with him and he lets it be known hes there with me it makes my day. There are little things that he sez n does that make me feel so special....yet he can't be with me. And then the high goes away and I go back to feelin crushed and empty. I just want him to feel the same....I love him.
