Willow Wiccan Family's blog: "RANTS, TANGENTS AND OTHER MISCELLANEOUS CRAP FROM MY BRAIN"

Ok so time to rant I wont use names here! Lets just say that it seems like shit keeps snowballin and I find out more stuff all the time. I go to my moms yesterday only to find out that she "knew" what was going on between my sister and the person i used to love. Apparently my niece came over quite awhile ago and told my mom what was goin on. Then my mom starts cryin and tellin me she wished she was dead, that she cant handle whats goin on between us girls and that she wish we could just have decent lives. Of course I assured my mom that I am fine, obviously Im not happy about the situation, but Im ok and I can deal with it. I also assured her that I would never start shit with my sister over it at my moms house or durning any family functions. But now Im even more fuckin pissed, now I feel even more hate for these two because, its now affecting my mother, and shes not in the best health and doesnt need to be worrying about all this. I swear to mother fuckin god, the next guy that enters my life better not bring any more trailer trash Jerry fuckin Springer drama into my life. I cant believe the lack of moral character that some people have today. It just blows my mind that people can be so low, so shitty and even worse I cant believe one of those people is my own sister. All I can say is Karma is a beautiful thing and I look forward to watching it work on this situation.

My promise is to my youngest son, though he is not old enough to read this. I feel I must put it somewhere that I can look at it, be reminded of it and draw strength from it. I promise you lil man that I will not stand by and just allow you to be hurt more than you already have. I promise not to ever belittle the people you love, just to try and prove Im something more than what I am. I promise that no matter what you and your brother will always be my number 1 priority. I promise that you will always feel loved and happy that you will have all of the care you need and deserve. I promise not to use you as a pawn in my own personal little vendettas. I brought you into this world because I believed that you would have a wonderful life. Im sorry that the people in your life can only fight and argue. You deserve more than that. Dont worry lil guy, Mommy is not going to give up, or give in.

OK SO, TRYIN TO FIGURE OUT WHATS NEXT IN MY LIFE. CANT SIT AND DO THE SAME TIRED SHIT EVERYDAY. WISH IT WERE SUMMER, I THINK IM GONNA JUST LIVE LIFE THIS SUMMER ON THE EDGE OF A LAKE AND THE END OF A FISHIN POLE. BUT I GUESS AT SOME POINT HERE I SHOULD MAKE BIGGER PLANS THAN FISHING....... ANYONE GOT ANY IDEAS? i NEED A LIFE BADLY LOL