Beautiful Angel SupportTheTroops's blog: "fu wedding"

i need to write so here i go nothing in my life ever goes as it is planed ,everything always has a way of messing up. ppl don't do what they say they are going o do, or they just don't happen. my life is so stressed right now. i wish there was not so much stress in it but it cant be helped. my family tells me all the time that i need to just breath and relax but i cant i always seem to be either helping someone or just trying to get my things done..which is hardly ever.i don't really have much time for myself.i am on here a lot but never like i should really be i am always helping everyone i cant seem to breath..it gets so overwhelming so many times i feel like my whole world is going to cave in..i am so stressed all the time i want to explode much..but i cant for if i did ppl may start to wonder why i did, i just cant be me the real me..i cant do it i don't have the time i have so much stress on my shoulders..i sometimes just wish that i wasn't me..that i lived another life...maybe all this would go away maybe my life would be different don't get me wrong i love my family and all that but i am just so stressed with my life nothing ever ever goes right i have no love in my life, there is not time for it and even if there was it wouldn't last..it never does..just another thing that makes me stressed i stay away from anything that could mean "falling in love" cause love never lasts love is just another thing that keeps me stresed i don't want to be stressed i want to live a half way normal life but that's not possible