I've been thinking an awful lot latley about life in general. Tonight, something struck me, something I have never seen before. I feel that I live in one of the most scummiest places I ever have. I loathe Woonsocket more and more each day. I'd prefer living in Providence..... yea, that's how bad its gotten. But tonight, I was walking home from a friend's house and taking the back streets, which is always fun because I feel I'm living in a post-apocalyptic world where there is no sign of life aside from street lights and abandoned cars, but I digress. I see something blinking green in the grass and I think to myself, "ooooh, maybe someone dropped some electronic device." (Yes, I was that geeky about it and did say "electronic device") I walk over to it and realize its a firefly. So, I put my finger next to it and it crawled right on.... I was just staring at it for a good 5 minutes, just looking in awe at the glowing bug. I started walking with the bug still on my hand... and just realized the beauty of it. I've seen fireflies before.. don't get me wrong, but in the state that I've been in lately something just mesmerized me. Nature created this... nature created this before we had technology... nature created this before w had glowing "electronic devices." This was beauty in its simplest form... this was beauty from the bowels of this tiny state. So I walk on for another 5 minutes thinking that the bug wasn't able to fly.... it was still with me.... then it finally spread its wings and took off... it was like it knew what was going on in my head. I found beauty in despair..... I continued to ponder on this for the entire walk home and realized... if I found something so beautiful in something I hate so much..... What can I find everywhere? I want to look for beauty everywhere I go now... but I also want to go away from the place that I'm stuck to..... I've never lived outside MA/RI..... I think its time I do... I think the world is calling me to see it.... The world is calling me to show beauty in every aspect of life and deliver that to the rest of the lost souls on this planet.....
