Beautifully Damaged's blog: "Rantings!"

So why is it that in a society, where sex, money and drugs take the lead and we as people can purchase anything.  We purchase our basic necessities, along with loads of other crap that we have no use for.  Some even purchase sex, and try to purchase love.  I believe that in this society that we has people have created,  we have corrupted ourselves, and we have corrupted the sanctity of marriage, the all mighty power of true love, and the promise of a long happy life.  In the pursuit of instant gratification, we have lost morals, and values along the way that cannot ever be recovered, restored, or rebuilt.  Our older generation sits back and wonders where they went wrong in raising their children, and so the vicious cycle begins.

I mentioned before the power of love, and the sanctity of marriage.  What happened to those two commitments?  When you love someone, you know that for sure down deep in your soul, I believe that our society has confused love with sex and vice versa.  Sex is not love, and all those pretty little lies that mom and dad told us growing up about sex only being something that happens when two people are in love is bull shit.  If children at the age of 8 knew what they were doing they could have sex and love would find no place in it.  I mean take a look at hookers and whores, the only thing that that love is the money, their pimp of the next piece of crack that they are going to score.

Marriage is another one of those bull shit beliefs that people try and demonstrate.  The institution of marriage is supposed to be sacred, a holy union if you will.  Then why is it then people have “open marriages” if you can’t settle on ONE person for the rest of your life then why make that kind of commitment?   Why enter in to a union that is supposed to be a union of souls?  The mating of your souls, when you have found your one.  And there is the key word “one” not found your many, or your few, but your one.  Your one that you are to spend the rest of your natural days with and find in the afterlife, so that your souls can mingle and remain together only to be reborn and find each other again in your next life.  I just don’t get or understand why others can’t feel the same way. That when you ask someone to marry you, or you are ask to marry someone else that is your chance. That isn’t your green card to wait for them to go on a business trip or deploy or whatever so that you can go off and screw whoever it is that caught your eye at the club or the bar that night.  Hell there are some stupid people out there that as soon as their military spouse deploys they are ON BASE looking to hook up with anything that will screw them!  How outlandish is that?  I think that it is seriously fucked up!

My other issue right now is the thought of monogamy and how people think that this is some sort of old fashioned hoop la!  Why is it so hard for someone to be faithful?  If you are in a committed relationship then why can you not stay committed?  Why do people have a problem being with only one person at a time..  I mean don’t get me wrong, I am bi and I love a good threesome, however if your partner doesn’t wish that for then you either need not be in a relationship or find someone with like minded values.  I see nothing wrong with bringing a third into the bedroom with you and your partner as long as it is consensual. However going outside of your relationship with out the others knowledge is unacceptable.

 And for those of us that are not in committed relationships why is it that we feel the need to try and replace love with sex?  Being physically intimate with someone is supposed to be not only a physical experience but a spiritual experience as well. Our elders told us the lies about people only having sex or it happening only when two people loved each other because they understood this concept.  But once again we as a society have killed that illusion, with men and women alike wanting to go out and screw the first hot piece of ass that walks by.  Men walking down the street or in the store with their partner whose heads spin a 180 to watch as someone more attractive walks by. And we women aren’t innocent when it comes to that either, we do the same thing, a little bit more discreetly.  Not saying that it is the right thing to do but whatever..  I think that if you are walking with your partner and you see someone that you think is attractive keep your damn eyes in your head!  I don’t think that is too much to ask for.  My issue possibly is the fact that each and every relationship that I have ever had has ended in tragedy.  I am not going to go into all the gory details of it but I have yet to find ONE faithful man out there.  

Maybe I am just tired of looking for that instant self gratification, I mean it is possible that even though I am happy on the outside being single and free and able to do what and who I want, that deep down I want what everyone eventually wants?  I can’t see myself in another relationship because there doesn’t seem to be anyone out there that can be faithful, and honest, and caring and sensitive and real!   Real would be a good thing, but not too good to be true...  I know I am totally contradicting myself, because I know that person isn’t out there…  I mean there is a lot more to my rant, but I think I have whined enough for now lol