Everyone has a dark place in which they hide deep inside themselves. It is not very often when they decide to let it show up or let some light get to it. I can say that I am one of those people. Only my dark place has a catch to it (just like few others) and that catch is when mine comes out it sticks around for awhile. Depression, ain't got shit on the way I feel when that comes out. Anger, pain, frustration, denial, and horror are but just a few emotions that are present when it come out.
But lets talk about how things are "gonna be better". Different people have different ways of pulling out of the black funk. Stay positive or start enjoying life, boy thats a hell of a lot easier said then done. You see the way that most people deal with it is to suppress it and let it fester. Let me tell you about that if you let it it will take you over and when it does look out, your life will spiral down faster than you can say it. I know I live like that everyday. It is not fun because you end up taking it out on the innocent people around you. Next thing you know the people that you love are looking at you and wondering why your like that.
Some people laugh through it. This is also just as dangerous since it is not a funny matter and that leads loved ones to believe that you are okay. Thats the type that will end up in the "funny farm". Yeah thats real good for those around you. You see those that live by laughing at all that is bad in their lives will have it come back and haunt them. When that happens it to little to late.
Next is those that just lash out we all know how that ends. someone just snaps because they don't know how to let shit go. These are the most dangerous people because they don't know what or who their hurting during the "attack". They realize it when everything is over and the only thing good that came out of it is.....................absolutely nothing.
I can write about these all with the shame of being guilty of all of them. It cost me more than I wish to share on myspace but lets just say that it don't feel good knowing that I fucked up enough of a good thing repeatedly and left scars in the wake. I know that it will take time to get things "right", but that in my eyes is time well spent.
Don't ever let your emotions get you to a point of no return because it ill do nothing but come back and bite you- HARD! I have and for all the people that I have scarred all I can do is offer an apology and hope that you accept it. I have seen the way that I act but not by myself but from the ones that I love and the ones that I hold dear. All of you know who you are.
