WHy is it that I cant seem to show my feelings at the right time. Is it because I am afraid of getting hurt yet again.. then why is it that no matter what I do I get hurt. Am I not ment to love someone w/o getting hurt. "dont do this or that because you might hurt so and so" well fuck 'em!! I guess I should turn into the royal Bitch and do what ever feels best for me. I give up trying to make everyone else happy!
I'm not one who hands out my feelings lightly. Yes I care for many people but there are those who are very special to me. Why cant I show those feelings to the world with out worrying what this bitch that doesnt know I exsist feels or what that one who thinks I'm just a friend because she has a major crush on him..... fuck it
So I guess for the sake of my heart andthe sake of my sanity I should probably keep all feelings out of my life. no like no love no happiness no joy no hate no anger no trust no nothing.
