losingmymind's blog: "rainbows and butterflies"

I TOLD himI wanted to be with him, that was the reason I contacted him in the first place. I will love him always. But I am not putting upwith his bs. Its stupid. He said I could come back,why would I? The way he treated me, always so distant. It was unbearable to be there and to go a day or so, without him even glancing at me. It was stupid of me to think we had a chance. I DO NOT think I am perfect,far from it. Anyway ,went to the music hall the other day, it was fun , except randall starts flaunting his gf in front of me, which made me mad. I dont need people doing that, especially when I am single right now.

well so it ends, thats okay....i mean yeah i am very sad, but hey, it wasnt my decision to leave and you know i got to make my life better.

Its like I wonder why I am even here. I mean people talk behind my back, they are to freakin scared to talk to my face and thats such a pussy way of dealing with things.

hey .. whats up? Man I have met some great people already on this site. This is freakin awesome. I love my baby...right now he is sleeping, that is where I should be, except that I am not tired.

So.William and I have been together again for a week and some odd days. I love him so fuckin much. I was remembering back when I was so fuckin high that I couldnt even tell what was going on. It felt so freakin good.