Jason was a wonderful man he did everything he could for me and my son Jason he loved us so much.We were is world everythung he did for us, he was a wonderful father for Jason, he wanted the best for him, even though he wasn't Jason's real dad he wanted to be, he loved him like he was his own.I never knew a love like Jason's,his love was one of a kind,he loved everything about me he cared so much for me,he was the first guy i have ever been with that made feel special, he made me feel loved all the time, he hardly ever argue he would have our disagreements but nothin big, we were hardly ever mad at each other,our relationship was perfect, i know it might have seemed to soon but 2 and half months after he got together we wanted to have a baby of our own so we started trying and i got pregnant 2 month later we were so happy that we were gonna have a baby and i knew he was going to a great dad cuz he already was a great to little Jason, he was so excited about having his own child he told everyone he knew, he had said he always wanted to have a child before he turned 30 and he is gonna have a child before he turned 30, he already picked out the names for the baby, i was already picking out things he wanted to buy for his baby, i was worried about how were gonna afford this baby but he was sure that everything would work out, see he didn't want me to work he wanted to take care of me and the kids, he told me that he wanted me home with the kids cuz he didn't wanna put them in daycare or anything, i thought that was so sweet i have never had anyone that wanted to take of me or my child i always worked hard for everything i had so it was so different letting someone take care of me and my child.He loved us so much, no one knows this but me and him only talked on the phone for 2 weeks before we met in person and the first time we met in person was the day i moved in with him, yea i know that sounds a little sudden but we loved each other so much, we knew we were meant to be together.That man treated like a queen ans i treated him like a king. when he broke his foot he didn't want me to help him with anything cuz he was always used to things himself, it took a while for me to convince him that i loved him so much and wanna help him, let me help him but he felt so bad for cuz he thought that it should be him doing the things for me, i told him not to feel bad cuz i love doing everything that i can for him. You know i was the first women to ever cook for him his ex wife never cooked for him she didn't know how to and she wouldn't clean, or even go to work, he had to go to work,cook and do all the cleaning she didn't desreve a man like him she was cheating on him, she treated him like shit, so when he got with me he fouund out what real love was everyone else he had been with only used him for his money or something but i didn't want him for his money all i wanted was him money and material things don't mean shit to me, all i wanted was his love and all he wanted was my love,everyone told me i made him the happiest he has ever been, they have never seen him love someone that much.He didn't have a car when we first got together so he walked everywhere, he wanted to see me so bad before i moved in with him that he was willing to walk 30 miles to come see me cuz he lived in Fayetteville,Tn and i lived in Tullahoma,Tn, i thought that was so sweet but so crazt too..lol but he was willing to walk that far for me.He did everything he could for me and my son,on Mother's day the day he died, he did so much to make sure i had a good Mother's Day, he works 3rd shift and he usually called me when he got off work to tell me he is on his way home, but he didn't call me that day he just came home, he came into the door and quitly came to the bedroom and got into bed with hoping he didn't wake me he gently put his arms around meand just held me, i was awake cuz he woke me up coming in the door so i turn to face him and has this big smile on his face and he says happy mother's day, and we just start talking and we loved to talk to each other,so we layed in bed for about an hour just talking and holding each otherthen we got up and got ready for church, he was fine that day he was himself like nothin was wrong, after church we went to my aunt and uncles for lunch, and he was really hungry and that kinda got me worried a liitle cuz he loved food and he never acted that way before,and he told me his chest but he just thought it was a pulled muscle he got from walking with the crutches cuz he was really used to it yet and he was kinda getting out breathe really easily but he said that he is just probbaly getting sick, i was worried about him and he resured me he was ok, he hated it when i worried about him i wanted him to go to the hospital but he told no ain't going he is ok, so i leave him alone about going to the hospital and we go home and he goes to bed cuz he got to be at work that night, so he took a mepergan cuz he was hurting and he went to bed about 3:00pm little Jason went to his room to play i was watching a movie and around 7:30 he got up cuz he had to go to the bathroom he got in there and i heard him yell BABY!!(that what he called was baby)and then i heard him fall i ran in there and i seen that he had collasped on the floor and he was getting really pale and his lips where white, i called 911 as fast as i coul dand told them i needed and ambulance that my fiance and collasped and i didn't know what was wrong with him and little Jason seen him collaspe and he said mama whats wrong with daddy and he was crying so i called my brother to Jason out of there he didn't need to see his step dad like that so my brother got there as soon as posible and i went back to check on Jason he was awake and he was picking himself up and he sat on the toilet he was covered in sweat ,he was very pale he didn't look good i was crying i was so upset , he said help me,help but i didn't know what to do i was waiting for the ambulance to get there it took them 30 minutes to get to my house when they got there Jason alive and talking a little and he couldn't beathe very wellso they tried to get him to crawl to the stretcher so with his last bit of life he had left he crawled to the stretcher and as soon as he stared pulling himself up on it he collasped agian this time he stopped breathing, they got they thing out to shock him with and then they made me leave the room, after about 5 minutes they had him on the stretcher and was taking him out to the ambulance, i went outside to wait to get in the ambulance to go to the hospital with him, i stood outside the ambulance watching them give him CPR i stood there about 10 minutes but it felt like forever i was crying as i watched them, do that to him and then the guy came to the front of the ambulance and i got in and went to the hospital i was trying to be calm cu zi thought maybe they can help him and then the driver called it in to the hospital that they had a patient that they are giving CPR and they need to be ready for him when we got there and i just lost it i was crying and praying and hoping he would be ok, and when we got to the hospital i called his family they had to come from Fayetteville so it was gonna take a while for to get there and so they put me in this room by myself to wait and my sister and aunt showed up cuz they knew with me being pregnant i didn't need to be alone, so i waited and worried for about and hour and a half then his family got there and the doctor came in to tell that they did all they could do that he was gone, i lost it bad i would have been in the floor if it wasn't for my aunt and my sister holding me, i couldn't believe it , i though omg Jason is dead, no this isn't true, so they let me veiw the body first and i walked in there and seen the love of my life was really dead i was breaking down, his body was so blue that was the first time i had seen a dead body before it was in a casket, everyone was trying to be strong for me cuz they didn't want me to hurt the baby, so they got me out og there and i was so upset i just couldn't handle it so my aunt took me to her house so i could get some rest and he would make funeral arrangements tomorrow. That is the first funeral i have ever planned and it was so hard to do.His family let me pick everything and they made sure everything was ok with me before they did it. Jason was great person, we will be missed by alot especailly me and Jason, R.I.P Jason Royce Mearse.
