Its been a year since my father has been gone. It just seems like he is still here. I had a bad weekend. I acted like i was happy an finally broke down crying all weekend. Im sick of acting like im totally happy when im not happy. Yes Im happy with my bf the part im not happy about is my father not being here. My bf an i have talked about having kids an getting married. My father aint going to be able to walk me down the aile when i get married or be there for me when I have his grand kids. Y did god have to take my father a year ago?? DAMN IT ALL THE HELL i hate this. But I know sooner or later either im old or get killed I will be with my father sooner or later. We all gotta go at some point in life! But anyways other then that life is going so so... Im going to Milwaukee for a weekend next month. ummm wat else is going on here hmmm... idk nothing else i guess. OH YA i forgot I LOVE MY TAN i have YES ITS A REAL TAN NOT NO FAKE SHIT EITHER LOL.. well time to go outside im sweating really bad here. I just worked out hehe.. Talk to u laters bye bye
