Have you ever been talking with someone and wanted to say something terribly but you couldn't because you were afraid it would be taken wrong? Or you'd say it wrong? Or any other number of things would happen that are bad? That happens with me way too much. I want to be blunt like I was before and concequences be damned but sometimes concequences can be pretty fuckin' bad. I'm trying to get back to who I was a few years ago as far as my confidence and saying whats on my mind. Part of it is I think too much, another part is I care what people think too much too. If somebody doesn't like me it's they're loss right? This blogs basically a bunch of questions if nobody looks at it it will still have done it's job cause I'll have gotten this off my chest and hopefully I'll be able to say what I want. I have to many friends and family, people I care about to worry about every little thing I say. If somebody takes something wrong I'll have to explain it and hope for the best. I really feel that most things can be worked out if you talk about them and as long as people will talk to me about problems I'll try to help, as bluntly and honestly as possible. So I had better get step up and live by this cause you only get one life and I intend on making the most of it.
Eayrik
