It just kills how everyone tends to believe everything they hear. I lost some who ment so much to me over a stupid rumor. But all I know is when I finally start feeling happy something shitty happens and then it just keeps going down from there.
I want so badly just for things to work out for me once in my life. I want to just find someone who can see past my past and see me and love me for that not for what they wanted me to be but for the person I am and for the person I my become.
I have always been straight forward with my feelings and I wish that people would be the same to me. The way I feel isnt a joke. I wish that others would just throw words around that they dont mean.
It just jurts is all I know. I put my feelings on the line and again it was only to get slapped in the face again.
Maybe someday I will be loved and it wont just be words out of a persons mouth it will be for real they will care.
