Purgatory
Here I am once again
in a place I've been before
Seems everything leads back here
it's behind every door
And I don't wanna stay
but I can't seem to leave
Stuck in my own private Purgatory
It all starts the same way--
with a wink and a smile
And everything seems
like it's great for awhile
But the laughter, it fades
and the tears fill my eyes
and again I find myself asking, "Why?"
Did I love you too much
or not show it enough?
Was I just too damn weak or
did I come off too tough?
It would drive me insane
if I just cared enough
but I've got a lot to learn about love
It doesn't take much
to crush my tender spirit
Just one broken word--
I don't have to see or hear it
When I feel disregarded,
I get so broken-hearted
and that's all it takes to set you free
I won't argue, won't say a word, won't put up a fight
Won't get on my knees and beg you to start treatin' me right
Cast my eyes to the ground and start on my journey
back to my private Purgatory
Did I talk too much
or did I not say enough?
Was I too sensitive
or was I playin' too rough?
Was I too good for you
or just not pretty enough?
Guess I've still got a lot to learn about love
~by Nikki
3/29/08
