Here I am again
Staring down the barrel of a loaded void.
Not knowing what I profaned.
Not caring either.
Abandoned in the blistering cold.
My dog-eared jacket wrapped lovingly around my shoulders,
like a ward keeping the demons of everyday at bay.
The rain slick road is cooing to me-
calling me to the infinite promise of somewhere.
Calling to me like that sweet goddess I imagined one sick sad lonely night.
To love me and torment me.
I know not her name- only her face
Her curves.
Her smile.
Her soft simple love.
She glows with peace.
She warms my bitter faltering heart.
Soothes the aches in my mind and body.
Is she heaven?
If so...
May the lord...
if he is good
Strike me down-
With all the mercy and tenderness of that phantom kiss. My goddess hovers by my lips every night as I sleep.
As I dream with a content heart at last.
But.. is she in my imagination or yours?
Would such a pure and beautiful lust be welcome in your paradise?
... Didn't think so.
Snap
Rewind
And I'm back with the droning symphony of rain.
Divorced from her ringing chorus of pure cool ecstasy.
My heaven.
My temple.
My Goddess.
...only in my fevered dreams.
